11/5/2010 2:34:00 PM
My dearest KAT, when you read this letter, I will probably be dead, just know it¶s not your fault. I wrote this letter long ago but I am justadding this here so you can understand why I did what I did. You willprobably be shocked what I am about to tell you just know its comingfrom the heart.I just cant live with myself anymore.. anywaysHERE ITGOES«
There are some things that I really want to say to you... to express toyou... but I don't know how. Aside from simply coming up to you andsaying them, there really is no way to tell you how I feel. So I won't.My ideas, due to the poor means of communication words provide,might be misunderstood and cause our relationship to becomeuncomfortable. So, I've decided not to tell you. And I'll compose andpublish my letter. I love you. I always have, and I always will. My lovefor you is deep and permanent, and while non-sexual, it is true love. Icould never sleep with you... it would destroy and alter something thatI can't specifically name... But I could curl up next to you and
asleep quite easily... My love is boundless. I love you despite-- no...
of your faults and unattractive behaviors. They are spicy andreal and they make up part of who you are. Your character isfascinating, and I can only hope to continue to be an important part of your life for as long as you are an important part of mine. Youhave always been such a wonderful protective and supportive personto me... you have been with me and been there
me ever since Imet you. You were there for me when I was in love, in pain, inconfusion. You've had more faith in me than I have
had inmyself... and I am endlessly grateful for that. You've provided me withan anchor of support, if not always sanity. With you, I feel that thereare emotional things that will not change, even if our two separatelives do change on their own. I feel like there is something real andpermanent about my love for you. It is like the sky when themountains may crumble. It is like a background in front of which I willassume the various characters and personalities that this world directsme to. There is nothing in this world that I would not do for you. Itrust you with everything I have, and everything I am. So here I go totell you, I have depression issues I always had. I was just good athidden them. I was rape by my uncle when I was 10 and since than