with profound healing and spiritual reactions. One feels elated and joyous for many daysfollowing the spiritual awakening. It is typical you encounter your true self as a spiritual being and you feel fully awake. You normally experience many charismatic symptomssuch as tones, flashing lights, rushes of internal wind, numbness, tingling, going out of body, insights, crystal clarity, visions, repressed memories, telepathy, hyper-hearing,enhanced vision, loss in weight, elation, laughing, etc. The majority of these symptomsare a side-effect due to a biological transformation process going on in your body whichis changing your nervous system including your mind.
The awakening energy settles down
After the big high and thrill of spiritual awakening, the released energy willcontinue to work strongly in the brain and body, going into deeper layers which will goon for many months. As this happens ego tends to activate strongly as old memories andemotions are stirred up from the depths. As the healing process intensifies you start tofeel heavy and tired, you feel pains in the body, strong emotions are common, weirdthoughts, old memories, dreams and memories of past lives start to flood in to your awareness. Because of this side-effect, one tends to identify strongly with the ego side of self again. It is common that many new and false ideas and beliefs are adopted during thisstage, as ways to explain what is happening and what one is receiving. One tends tointerpret many of the insights one receives, inventing a story and reason for them andthus tends to go into a kind of head trip. Because you are stronger energetically, a larger amount of energy is now getting diverted into making an ego much stronger than before.It is largely due to these phenomena, that one can get deeply enmeshed in the dark nightof the soul.Eventually, the big energy that was released appears to settle and one starts to feellike normal again. But one is not the same; one now knows oneself as essentially spiritualand through the process many revelations and insights have increased one’s knowledgewhich one will never forget. With this deepening of the healing and a feeling of return tonormalcy, there is a growing sense that what was gained is now lost. It is typical that your entire value system changes after an awakening event, due to new information youreceive. You reprocess everything known with the new information, and arrive at a newset of values, you see everything differently. Because of this one tends to let go of identification with all objects that were associated with the level you are going through. Itis normal that one loses interest in old friends, family values, geographical location,money, possessions, beliefs, religious attachments, habits and career interest, to name themost common.
The Dark Night begins
As one comes back down to earth, one starts to feel normal again, and the elationof the spiritual high seems to be gone. Then it seems like one gave up so much and nowhas nothing left, that one starts to feel very alone and desolate. You start to wonder if youhave a reason left to live. It is normal that a depression develops and one’s thinking andfeelings started to become dominate. One’s thinking tends to get heavy and dark, andcrying can often be non-stop for days on end. Prior to this event you had strongattachment to ego and could get some strong reactions out of it, but after this event you