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The
Ice Cream Memories
of
Charlotte Rowe
Published in 2009 by Stiltjack
The author asserts the moral right under the Copyright, Designs
and Patents Act 1988 to be identified as the author of this work.
Epilogue
Prologue
“Great, great.”
“Me, too. Bloody Mary, please.” She smiled at
him. “I used to be afraid to order them, you
know. I figured when I got too drunk, I‟d order
three in a row, and then, you know what.”
Sid laughed.
“So, what do you do?” she asked.
“I‟m a student,” he said.
“U of R?”
“No, I‟m in Redlands doing research. Spiritualism.”
“Spooky.”
“Not so far.”
“Don‟t underestimate Deadlands.”
Deadlands, dead of nightlife, dead because of
the lifeless desert underneath it, dead because of
the ghosts that wandered the relics of its past.
“Have you been to the graveyard? Plot 666.
I used to think it was a joke, until one night I
went out there with my friends. You know, we
were a little drunk, but not very. I mean, we‟d had
some beers. And we were out there, having like a
picnic. That‟s when I saw her, in the distance,
kind of hazy against one of the tombstones…”
“Mm-hmm.” Sid drank down his second
martini. Haunted Redlands, ghosts in the
mansions, ghosts on the roadways, ghosts
lurking in the cracks of the city as it sprouted
up to cover its past. Cold spots. Apparitions.
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Sid
Chapter One:
Family History
“Of course!”
“Where is she, exactly?”
Charlotte looked around the room. “Why she‟s
here. Around. Sometimes all around the room,
and sometimes right at my ear.”
“Why have you never told me about her?”
Charlotte looked puzzled. “Haven‟t I? She‟s
always been here.”
“This is wonderful, Charlotte. Simply wonderful.
Can you talk to her right now?”
“Of course I can.”
“Ask her... Ask her if she is in contact with
Charles.”
“Oh. Umm. Parlez-vous avec Charles?” She
turned to her mother. “Oui. Oh. I‟m sorry. I
mean, yes.”
Her mother was practically quivering now,
sitting on the very edge of the bed, and nervously
caressing Charlotte‟s head.
“Can she ask him where he is?”
“Okay, Mother. Nanette? Où est Charles?”
“Well?” asked her mother.
“She says...”
“Speak, child. What does she say?”
“Il est avec vous.”
“He is... What?”
“He is with you.”
“What does that mean?”
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“I don‟t know!”
“You must know!”
“I don‟t know, Mother. I really don‟t know.”
Mrs. Rowe realized that she was holding her
daughter‟s shoulders in a white grip. She let go
and looked around the room.
“The problem is that the language of the
spirits is translated through our own minds.
And, on top of that, your spirit guide speaks
French!”
“Spirit guide?”
“Yes, darling. Nanette is your guide, and she
will give you information from beyond the fabric
of our mortal universe.”
“Oh,” said Charlotte.
“This has all been quite trying,” said Miriam
Rowe. She rose and wiped her hands on her
skirt. “We must converse with Nanette at length,
and find out about her. Well. I will bring up
those blood pills. You will need your strength.”
“No,” said Charlotte.
“Do not disagree with me, child.”
“It‟s not me, Mother. Nanette warns me
strongly against blood pills.”
“She does?”
“Yes, she says that I must take them under
no circumstances.”
“Oh.”
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It cried.
They brought it to her, as an offering for
her pain. It was small and wrinkled, and its
face was distorted into an unpleasant grimace.
She held it in her arms with a distaste that
instinctively she hid.
“I‟m exhausted,” she said. “Take it, mother.”
The doctor left the room. Melissa handed the
infant to a doting grandmother.
“She is beautiful,” said the grandmother.
The door opened, and John came in.
“A girl!” he said. “Can I see her? Can I hold her?”
He went to the baby, and again there was a
small gathering around the child, all attention on
the child, all attention on the infant.
Melissa passed out.
“Call him?”
“Yes. I must work in private. Go now. Wait
patiently. Within a fortnight, a stranger will come
to stay at the inn who will be your husband.”
I spent a week and a half waiting patiently, rushing
to see each person who entered the inn. There were
always travelers coming to stay, and though I talked to
each at length, and was as friendly as could be, none
of them were my future husband.
Then, one night, nearing midnight, as I said,
Charlie came to the inn. He was so polished and
elegant, though of course he was quite tired and
worn out with traveling that night.
“Yes.”
“So we know that it was actually moved.”
“Yes, it was,” she said.
“Your husband did not move it?”
“I never asked him. I didn‟t think so.”
“Well,” said the professor, rationally, “before
we begin studying this instance, I think we had
better make sure your husband didn‟t move the
box for some reason.”
“Oh,” said Melissa, a little surprised at a solution
of such simplicity.
Under the psychoanalyst‟s orders, she spoke
to her husband about the moved box of clothes.
He confirmed, wide-eyed, that he had never
moved it. Her heart sank.
During her next session, Professor Rowe took
up this topic.
“You did not deny moving it at the time?”
“No, I told my mother I‟d moved it.”
“Why did you do that?”
“Because I was afraid.”
“Of what were you afraid?”
“I don‟t know.” This was always the telling
phrase for the psychoanalyst. Anything the patient
claimed not to know was a key to their repressions.
“You do know. You must tell me.”
“I just wanted her to think that everything
was all right.”
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“Yes?”
“The sand won‟t accept my prints, it won‟t be
trampled on.”
“In fact, it resists the knowledge of mankind.”
“I suppose so.”
“You see that this is the mind of God, the
message of God, that refuses to be imprinted on
the mind of man.”
“Yes, I see.”
The analysis went on in this vein for some
time. Still, the dream remained the same, and
the house continued to be tormented.
And then, one night, the dream changed.
“Now,” it said, “you will know.”
“How will I know?”
“You and I, we are joined. You can feel it
already.”
“Yes.”
“Be still and listen.”
“What?” I asked.
“Murder. Murder. Murder.”
He blinked his eyes at me, and began clawing
into my chest, making muffins with his paws.
Then I was awake, lying in bed, and Montague
was on my chest, making muffins with his paws.
“What?” I said again.
He cried at me, his cat cry. Mew.
I was standing alone in my room, looking at
myself in the mirror, brushing my hair. Behind
my shoulder in my ear, as clear as day I heard it:
Murder. I looked over my shoulder. The room
was empty. There was nothing in the air. I was
awake. I remember that was not a dream, not an
ice cream memory.
I was walking up a spiral staircase, surrounded
by walls. At the bottom of the wall, where it met
the stair, there was a crack. My eye followed the
crack as I wound my way up the staircase. In
some places, the crack was almost nonexistent.
In other places, it was wider, much wider, wide
enough to fall through. As much as I wanted to
look forward up the stairs, my eyes were drawn to
the crack at the bottom of the wall.
People were calling to me from above. I was in
a line of people who were moving up the stairs.
These were my ancestors. I was the last in the line.
I looked up from the crack.
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“But — Melissa —”
“B-b-b-but, sh-sh-she st-st-stuttered.”
“M-m-m-melissa,” Magdalene said.
She had forgotten that she had stuttered as a
girl. She hadn‟t stuttered since she was twelve.
“P-p-p-please,” she said. “Wake up,” she
thought to herself.
“You knew what was going on,” shouted
Melissa. “You saw what was going on. You went
and ch-ch-ch-churned b-b-b-butter.”
“What is it? Wh-what did I d-d-d-do?” her own
voice sounded slurred and far away, but as the
words rolled out of her mouth, she knew what
Melissa was saying.
“I protected my daughter,” shouted Melissa,
gesturing with the immobile form she held in her
hand. “I protected her! You never protected me.
You killed me. I‟m not the killer! You‟re the killer,
Mother.”
“N-n-no,” said Magdalene. She tried to step
backward, but her right leg wasn‟t working. Her
right arm wouldn‟t move.
She fell on the floor. Melissa stood over her,
shouting.
“Come sit on Daddy‟s lap, honey! Come sit on
Daddy‟s lap, baby!” The baby blanket dangled in
Magdalene‟s hair. It tickled the right side of her
face. She felt numb.
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