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And with that she sat down and picked up her wine
glass, Quinn doing the same, sending a thin-lipped,
amused smile over the rim. Santana’s callousness,
even when hosting dinner, never failed to entertain
her. It was one of the reasons she had liked Santana
so much in college. That and the fact that the girl was
actually, undeniably cool, unlike most of the students
in Quinn’s dorm, whom she tried to ignore as much as
possible.
“I’m not sure. You’ll have to ask her. She told me, but
then I completely forgot. It’s like she’s speaking a
different language. It’s like she’s speaking Spanish.”
This odd display did not diminish Brittany’s like for her
in the least; she liked to collect quirky specimens of
friends, just like Santana liked to collect very good-
looking ones.
And the most endearing thing was the way that, at the
end, Rachel sucked her lower lip into her mouth in a
decidedly childish fashion, before asking what any
normal person would have asked at the beginning.
“And... Quinn, does she happen to be with anyone?”
The blonde didn’t colour, but she felt the back of her
neck smart with distant embarrassment. It took her
back to high school when she answered every
question with too little thought and much too much
face value. But Rachel was sneering at her like the
girls she had known then, only staring up with the
tiniest hint of impatience.
“That was the worst thing I’ve ever had to put up with.
How can someone talk for,” she glanced at her watch
– was that a Darth Vader watch? – and blew out a
breath, “twenty seven minutes about dumbbells? Is
that possible? Maybe I’ve slipped into another
dimension.” She smiled, cheeks semi-dimpling, at her
joke. A joke that Brittany most decidedly did not get.
“She’s an actress.”
Quinn immediately looked pained, as soon as Brittany
had said it, and the taller blonde had already started
to mourn for the loss of one potential friend. New
friends always stuck around longer when existing
friends didn’t give them the dating run-
around/rejection.
She just liked to know about people. That was it. And
people found it so tedious when she interrogated
them as harshly as she would like. It was a remnant
from her high school days, that she thought that
everyone – even those not remotely interested in the
theatre – would steal her spotlight from her, so she
found out as much as possible about all new
acquaintances.
She was quite sure it was her. There was the same
soft wave to her hair and the same glossy shine, but
she was facing the canapés, not Rachel, and seemed
very engrossed in her choice between smoked
salmon and Parma ham.
“Hi.”
Quinn looked up. The pretty hazel eyes were right
there, and she gave a cute half-smile at the greeting,
which then grew into a perfectly symmetrical smile as
Quinn realised that someone she didn’t know was
talking to her.
“Hello.”
“Oh?”
Quinn opened her mouth, then shut it, pursed her lips
and started turning red.
“No, no. It’s not, I’m not against spending time with
you! It’s not you at all. I’m sure that you’re a really
nice person.” She struggled to get the words out fast
enough, they tumbled from her mouth in an ungainly
fashion, a stricken look settling in her eyes at the idea
of offending the shorter woman. “Brit said that you are
really lovely,” Rachel looked up expectantly into the
panicked hazel eyes, “and... and of course I would
like to go on a date with you.”
“Berry.”
“Santana.”
She got the feeling, however, that this was the first
time in their several meetings in which Santana had
been genuine with her – spoke to her without any
intentional deprecation – and she wondered... was
there really something flawed about Quinn?
“I forgot my watch.”
“Don’t lie, babe. You were late because you love test
tubes. They turn you on.”
Really.
She looked very small, just then, but Quinn noted the
graceful fold of small hands on a petite lap, felt a tug
that she hadn’t felt for so long that she’d almost
forgotten what it felt like.
“Hey, Rachel.”
“Quinn.”
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“That’s ridiculous.”
“Yeah. It is.”
“Rachel...”
“No... no. I got the wrong end of the stick about what
was happening between us.”
“Now?”
The last of the guests had just left, toppling out of the
door after a bit too much to drink and now it was just
them.
So she had grabbed her coat and keys and left her
flat, getting lost twice on the way to a flat she’d never
visited before. It was in a large grey building, not like
the lovely old brick of Quinn’s apartment, and there
was no elevator, but she knew she’d made the right
choice when she saw the hopeful glint flutter across
Rachel’s face as she opened the door.
“Not that I’m not glad that you’re here, I’m just
surprised.”
“No, I get it. I get it.” She put her hand on Quinn’s
elbow, gripping lightly and looking up earnestly,
speaking . “So... you do want to.”
“Yes. Definitely.”
“Yes.”
“No.”
“There’s no need.”
The way that Rachel’s eyes shone told her that she
didn’t mind at all. She’d only just realised that they
were far prettier than the dozens of blue eyes she’d
fixated on – the prettiest pair of eyes that she’d seen.
“Fuck if I know.”
Theatre geek.
It was true. Even now she was hugging the sleek grey
cat against her face, making indulgent noises into his
belly.
“Lay off, San. Rachel has to sing and act every day.
And she can’t do that when she sounds like Alan
Rickman.”
“You could just hang around her flat. You don’t have
to give away your cat!”
Quinn was her best friend. Could she not look out for
her oldest friend when it was clear that Rachel was
running circles around her?
“Look, San. I’m asking you because then I’ll get to see
Mr Dudley all the time. I really don’t want him to go to
a family who I don’t even know or, God,” she waved
her hands about in frustration, “to some home or a
cattery. Brit,” she entreated, conscious that the blonde
was an easier target, “you don’t mind taking Mr
Dudley, so you?”
“Great. I’ll give you all the stuff to look after him and
I’ve written some instructions for you, but really, he’s
pretty easy. Don’t hold him like that, he’s not smelly.
He really likes to sleep in the bed, but I get that you
might not want that so I bought you a cat basket. If
you leave a window open at night I think it would
please him. He likes to have quite a lot of freedom...”
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Rating: PG-13
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“Dude, what are you doing? Not only did you cut me
but you’re going up there to make my girlfriend blush,”
he says, sounding distressed. “Surely you’re
breaking some sort of guy code here.”
“Just go, Finn.” He walks off the stage and back into
the crowd.
The taller girl’s lips press into a hard line as she tries
not to be effected by the words entering her ear,
saturating into her brain. She begins to squirm in her
seat as the assault continues.
The left hand that was on her cheek now runs to the
back of Quinn’s neck, teasing small hairs at her nape.
Hazel eyes slip shut and a soft sound escapes her
lips. She clenches her thighs together in an attempt
to relieve the tension that’s beginning to build.
“Rachel! Rachel!”
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Rachel arrives on the Fabray doorstep at 7:59 for an
8:00 date. She was nothing if not punctual. Blowing
into her hands, she makes sure to check her breath.
Not that she and Quinn would absolutely be kissing,
but a girl can dream.
“If I’m up for it?” Quinn asks, taking the bait. “I’m up
for anything, Rachel.”
“Are your dads home?” Rachel can tell that the blonde
is horny. Her sentences have been short and abrupt
ever since they left the restaurant. Her voice has
become more authoritative. Every time she says
something Rachel gets wetter…and wetter.
“Doubt it.”
Rachel bites her lip when Quinn enters her, stifling the
scream that was in the back of her throat.
She roughly flicks her clit and Rachel cries out loudly
in pleasure. “I’m so close already, Quinn. Please,
just…more.”
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It starts when Rachel shows up in Quinn’s bedroom
with a large, purple binder. The blonde recoils a bit at
the sight; the purple binder has become her cue to put
away anything she had been previously doing and
cancel any plans for the rest of the day, because
Rachel will want her undivided attention for an
inordinate amount of time. The last time it came out,
they spent four hours discussing potential duets they
could sing in Glee club if they changed the pronouns.
“Well, I’m sure you put a lot of work into these plans,
but I’ll be taking care of things this year.”
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Monday
Rachel rolls her eyes and takes the roses, and then
practically skips to the kitchen to find a vase. Quinn
suspects that she was expecting flowers, because it
takes her a surprisingly short amount of time to return
to the front door with her coat on, ready to go.
“I’m not telling,” she replies. “But I will say that you are
really, really going to be cold if you don’t change into
pants.”
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Tuesday
“Oh.”
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Wednesday
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Thursday
When she opens her eyes, it’s dark outside and she
feels like she’s been hit by a truck. “Oh, no,” she
moans, looking to the clock beside her bed and
hoping to God that somehow it’s wrong; there’s no
way she’s been asleep for three hours.
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Friday
“Oh, but you can’t carry the cups by yourself! I’ll stay
with you,” she says with a firm nod.
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Saturday
“No, no, no, no, no,” she chants, kicking at the drifts of
fluffy, white disaster. Snow wasn’t even in the
forecast. There is no way that this is real life. Today
was supposed to be perfect.
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“I’m good,” Quinn says. “I’ll wake you when it’s time.”
“Yes?”
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Yet.
Puck. She had sex with Puck. All because she had
felt fat. Now she had a few faint stretch lines on the
small paunch of fat she hadn’t even tried to get rid of
even though she had almost a year to get rid of it. It
was almost ironic. With her taut cheerleader’s body
she had felt disgusting. How did she solve the issue?
Why, she got pregnant of course! What the hell had
she been thinking? What on earth made her feel so
fugly she went, of all places, to Puck’s for fun?
Man hands.
Though she didn't blame Berry for it, not really, after
all the girl never actually thought before she spoke.
She did most of her damage to Quinn without even
knowing it. Though Quinn got a taste of just how
deeply the girl could stab someone in the back when
she ratted the pregnant girl out. At first she had been
relieved to have the secret out. No more burden... but
then what was left of her shamble of a life imploded.
“Quinn.”
Quinn’s mind felt a little fuzzy. It occurred to her she
had been standing out in the cold night for perhaps
longer than she should have.
“Quinn?”
“I’m fine.” She yanked her arm but Rachel’s grip only
tightened. “Let me go! I can make my way home by
myself!”
Shit.
Rachel put the car in drive and Quinn lay back in her
seat, grateful that the singer was quiet. Probably busy
pitying her or feeling guilty for making Quinn expose
herself, she mused.
“What?”
“Fuck you.”
“Quinn.”
“Quinn!”
But it was always Rachel Berry. The girl would never
go away. She would never ever go away. Quinn found
it difficult to breathe, her heart racing in her throat and
she didn't understand why.
But she wasn’t fit. Her body was hollowed out from
depression, stress and neglect. All her effort had been
put into that first punch and Rachel seemed to quickly
realise this, deftly avoiding every blow until she
flipped Quinn over onto the snow face down.
****
“Oh. Yes?” She kept her eyes averted, not sure how
to behave. There was a moment of silence.
“I can’t pay much but I’ll pay back the five hundred...
then.... then we can make a rent plan for me.” Her
heart was thudding rapidly as he slowed his
movements to a full stop.
The game nights were the worst and the best. It was
terrible because at first Quinn couldn't fathom
competing with them. All of the Berrys were way out
of her league and they had to slow down for her which
was embarrassing. It was also fantastic because it
allowed Quinn to speak without feeling like she was
opening up. Yet she did just that, playfully teasing
Rachel for being too competitive, pretending to be
offended when Leroy told her she was just being a
slow blonde, trying to keep Hiram from cheating off
her. Double teaming worked better because then
Quinn’s fumbles were carried by her team member.
And since Rachel was usually the one to volunteer
them as a pair, Quinn won by proxy.
Although the girl made her anxious, she also felt safer
when Rachel was around. She wanted to touch the
singer, be it a hug or just to brush up against her. And
although Rachel seemed to stiffen when she did this,
eventually Rachel allowed herself to touch Quinn
back too. It was disconcerting to want to both avoid
and connect with the brunette. She felt warmer
whenever Rachel was present. And sometimes, to her
horror, when she was feeling lonely and depressed in
the guestroom, she had a powerful urge to sneak into
Rachel’s room and.... cuddle of all things. At first the
thought would make her shudder in disgust but one
night she actually got up and stood outside Rachel’s
door for a full five minutes before she regained her
sanity and hotfooted it back to the guest room.
*****
Quinn didn't think so. And later that night she felt a
powerful urge to call her mother, though the urge
lessened since the Berrys unofficially accepted her
presence. So she picked up the phone to dial when
she realised Rachel was already on it. Her first
instinct was to turn it off when she picked up on Finn’s
voice.
“Finn, you’re a very nice boy and for the longest time I
thought we were an appropriate match, mainly
because I had spent a lot of time becoming
enamoured with a variety of similar cliché romantic
pairings in the media. However, in retrospect and
after a sufficient time together I have decided that
while I enjoy your company we are not a suitable
couple.”
“I’m sorry.”
“Ok.”
“Ok?”
“Yes.”
*****
“Forty five!”
“Quinn!”
“Try it.”
“I will not try it.”
Quinn bit into it, trying not to wince at the heat. She
closed her eyes and moaned deeply, as if it was the
most delicious thing she’d ever tasted. When she
opened them Rachel was blushing and looking
flustered.
“Well?”
She hadn’t had sex since Puck and her body had
recovered marvellously since the birth. Youth made
the human body very versatile. Quinn squirmed as
Rachel pressed three fingers against her opening.
She was so slick that as Rachel slowly slipped her
fingers past the knuckle Quinn had to bite the couch
pillow to keep from crying out too loud from the painful
pleasure. Her hips moved of their own accord.
And all Quinn could do was wait and pray that she
could trust Rachel to finally finish her off. She begged
and pleaded, nearly sobbing with promises and
apologies for everything she had done. Rachel
wouldn’t shut her up. Wouldn’t comment on anything.
Didn't change her pattern.
“Drink this.”
Her legs too weak to hold her, Rachel fell to the floor
between the coffee table and the couch. Still panting
and flushed, she looked at the blond who was licking
her glistening lips and looking back at Rachel with a
glazed, possessive look that made Rachel shiver.
The low light of the room and the sex should have put
them both to sleep. While Rachel was certainly
getting drowsy, Quinn’s mind was racing.
“Her?”
“Nothing can stop you. Not me, not the entire school,
and not the system.” She noted the confusion on
Rachel’s face but decided to ignore it. She’d explain
that later.
“Quinn!”
The woman she had been torturing for years, the one
she had been secretly loathing for being everything
she wasn’t, put her on a pedestal. Told her she was
worth something, that what she had done meant
something. It was ok to not be able to take care of the
baby. She wasn’t a Lima loser; she was a human
being who did her best and someone actually thought
she had done something right. When everyone else
was punishing her and taunting her for her mistakes.
****
But don’t go too far... You just want them quiet. Push
too hard and you’ll either break em or they’ll come at
you Santana... they’ll come at you so hard. Always
remember nothing is permanent.
“I talked to her.”
“Yeah.”
“So what did you say? And what did she say?”
“I’m sorry.”
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The glee club glanced around at one another, this
would be the last meeting they ever had. Graduation
was a few weeks away. This was the last actual week
of school though, many were holding back tears at the
thought of never seeing one another again. It had
been five minutes since the club was supposed to
commence, Mr Shuester was no where to be found
and neither was a certain brunette diva.
"Why did she join...did she tell you?" Her voice is soft,
the tears never seeming to end, her blurry gaze
makes out the man standing behind her.
"We offered the same thing and she told us no, she
appreciates our offer but this was something she was
adamant on doing." Jim whispers into blond hair as he
hugs her tighter.
Her body had shaped up over the two year period, her
arms and legs were well muscled. The baby fat on her
stomach had disappeared to be replaced with a four
pack, but this had not come without sacrifices. She
had been shot more than once, she had to be
huddled up in a hole in the sand surrounded by her
dead troop mates to survive when they were
ambushed. There was a long scar running from just
below her ear on her right side and disappearing into
her standard marine's civilian uniform, it was from a
piece of shrapnel hitting her when a helicopter
crashed before her search and rescue group. Her
brown hair now longer was pulled back into a ponytail,
her hat resting on her head causing a shadow of her
face.
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“Phil?”
Rachel breaks out of her dad’s hold and rises with her
fists clenched at her sides. “I told you, you can’t stay
here,” she growls.
“Dad!”
“Honey-”
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“Jesus, Rachel.”
“Tell me what?”
“The baby is Puck’s,” Finn tries to say nonchalantly,
but she can tell it hurts to because he bites his bottom
lip and looks away from and his hands ball into fists.
“Is Puck’s,” he finishes for her, his head falling into his
hands. “God,” he chokes out. “She’s not even my kid.”
She’s not sure what to do, but in the book her dad
bought her – How To Make Friends and Keep Them –
it says something about comfort going hand and hand
with tears, so she sits, cautiously, next to him on the
piano bench and puts a hesitant hand on his back,
rubbing in small circles, the way her daddy did the
first time the Cheerios commented on her MySpace
videos. Finn’s body shudders at her touch and then
he’s putting his head into the crook of her neck and
no, this is not the way she imagined they would end
up, but her neck grows wet from his tears and she’s
helpless to do anything but sit there and rock side to
side and whisper “it’s going to be okay” while all she
can think about is hurting Quinn Fabray and shaving
off Noah Puckerman’s mohawk.
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“May I be excused?”
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“Oh, sweetheart-”
“I’m just tired of being the bigger person all the time
because people just continue to put me down. And
Quinn?” Her words catch in her throat and she waits a
minute before she speaks again. “Quinn was always
the ringleader. And now, just because she’s suddenly
understanding what it’s like to be treated the way I’m
treated, I’m supposed to welcome her with open
arms?”
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It’s not until she hears the noise again that she
registers it woke her up. Cautiously, she tip-toes down
the hallway, passing her fathers’ room, noting the
door is shut firmly and no light leaks out from the
crack between the door and the threshold.
“This doesn’t mean I’m not still mad,” she feels the
need to announce, albeit quietly. Quinn nods, but the
motion is almost imperceptible. “And,” Rachel
continues, “This doesn’t mean I don’t dislike you. I
dislike you very much.”
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“Finn,” she tries, but he’s pushing past her and then
past Mr. Schuester as they collide in the doorway.
“Finn,” she calls, but he doesn’t turn around and
doesn’t stop moving.
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“Rachel,” he pleads.
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“What’s up?”
“Do you think I’m,” she pauses, not sure how to word
it, but then decides that Finn said it best. “Do you
think I’m robotic?”
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It’s refreshing.
Rachel rises off of her own stool. “She said she didn’t
want either of you here.”
Wordlessly, he nods.
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“Rachel!”
“Quinn-”
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She turns over and buries her face in the pillow. Girls
like me aren’t friends with girls like her.
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“Hey, Rachel?”
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Shutting the door softly behind her, she finally lets out
the breath she’s been holding since the car stopped in
front of her house. Rachel knew Finn would try to kiss
her; it was inevitable. He’d been hinting at it all night,
with his hand on the small of her back and grabbing
her around the waist each time she threw something
other than a gutter ball.
She sees the light off the TV and tip-toes lightly into
the living room. Quinn is sprawled across the couch,
one arm pillowing her head and the other grazing the
carpet, the remote half-under the couch. Smiling to
herself, she kneels down to pick the clicker up and
when she lifts her head, she lets out a small gasp.
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“Oh.”
“But it was only nice. It wasn’t exhilarating or
stomach-twisting. Or even romantic.”
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When Quinn kissed her, the room faded out and the
noise went with it and all that was left was a sweet
humming noise from the back of Quinn’s throat. When
Finn kisses her it’s like amplification: she’s too aware
of everyone whispering behind their hands and the
sound of sneakers squeaking against the tile is like a
thousand fingernails scratching against chalkboards.
She rips her mouth away from his and resists the urge
to wipe away his saliva with the back of her sleeve.
“What’s wrong?” he asks, because while he’s “a, tall,
bumbling human made only of shiny teeth and a
fleshy stomach,” or so says Quinn, he’s perceptive
and sensitive.
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“Sorry!” She shouts the minute she bursts through the
door, closing her eyes and clapping her hands over
her face. She turns quickly, trying to get back to the
door but she trips over a bench and lands on the cool
concrete floor.
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They don’t find her until the end of the day, in Glee,
and even then, Quinn won’t look at her or talk to her
or even acknowledge her existence.
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“Not hungry.”
“Rachel-”
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It’s not Quinn’s room, and neither is the next door, but
when she throws open the door to the third room,
Quinn is sitting on the edge of the bed with her hands
on her knees and her back impossibly straight.
Quinn’s eyes go wide. “You’re not Brittany.”
“Quinn, just-”
Rachel loses her footing and the door gives a little but
just as quickly she’s pushing back. “I was coming to
get you,” she points out.
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“You got your car back, okay? And I got nothing.” She
glares at Santana, pulling her hand out of Brittany’s
grasp roughly. “It doesn’t matter.”
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It’s not the first time Rachel thinks that there’s more to
Brittany than she let’s on.
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“Rachel-”
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“Unfortunate.”
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By the time they stumble out the car, Kurt, Tina and
Mercedes have opted to hang back, Artie is at home,
connected via Skype and Rachel is tiptoeing up the
front walkway to the Fabray house.
“Noah!”
Quinn goes out the front door first, looking back over
her shoulder at Rachel, and winks.
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James picks up his cup of coffee. “I’ll get more film for
the camera,” he mumbles before he takes a sip.