THE COLLECTED WORKS OF MAHATMA GANDHI
source, I wrote you a letter
. But it could not be posted until now,.because the diary
containing your address had been misplaced. Youwill therefore get that letter as well as this one about the same time.I am not the only one to wait anxiously for a letter from you. Bakeeps on inquiring, and so do Miss Schlesin and the others.Your mind has not become calm even there. I do not understandwhat it is that you want. All that I can make out is that you want to livein Ahmedabad and with Chanchi. Perhaps you wrote to the Doctor
too, about this, You may live as suits you best.In reply to the second portion of yur letter, I shall say only this:“Live in any way that suits you,.[but] strive to realize God anyhow.”I shall not argue.Our paths may well be different. If our destination is the same,we shall meet there. What would it matter even if we should followcontrary paths? I am not so arrogant as to believe that I am whollyright and others, in the wrong. Of course, I hold on to the idea that Imust do what seems to be my duty. Though I know that we do notbecome equal even if I give you this freedom, because, in following acourse opposed to my ideas, you have to depend on me for money. Iwish I could release you even from this situation [of dependence] andthen argue with you as an equal. But how is this possible? If, impelledby my sense of duty, I have erred in giving up the source of myincome, I shall of course have to repent for that. Have I not, however,done an injustice because in doing this I failed to take my sons’interests into account? My answer is “No” I did consider theirinterests, too, accordingly to my own lights. Whether my judgementwas right or wrong time alone will show to us both.I observe that England is still on your lips. Please overcome thedesire. Your time is not yet.Send me the question-papers of your examination if you havepreserved them.Manilal is deep in his studies. He is interested in them. I givehim an hour and a half every day. Let me know what books youreadfor your examination, I mean. Send me some samples of your
“Letter to Harilal Gandhi”, 26-1-1913.
“Diary, 1912”, end of 1912.
Dr. Pranjivan Mehta