Freedom. You know that your mind is a cage: that other people wrote the language youthink in, that your conceptual frameworks were molded first by your parents, then by your schools, then by Aleister Crowley, Bill Burroughs and Swami Shivananada. Everything inwords is garbage, ever more confining and sophisticated traps to keep you in the realm of experience to which words can meaningfully refer.Understand? Even the people who seek to set you free in words are liars and thieves,polluting the human race's cognitive sphere yet further. All I can do with this trap is toclearly label it: "this is a trap because it adds words to your world."If language is a virus from outer space, it's time you cured yourself. Destroy all thought.This is not meaningless radical bullshit. Or, if it is, it's at least real meaningless radicalbullshit. About 12 years ago I broke out of the mental trap, cut through the skein of thoughtsand escaped into internal silence - a persistent state in which, if I am not actively thinkingabout something, there is only a silent light inside of my head, or an occasional AUM.I credit that experience with saving my life: without the constant grinding down of language, the chatter, the psychic radio, the roaring evil nonsense which passes for our consciousness most of the time, it is possible to see things differently: life is beautiful,people are by-and-large kind, and most suffering is brief or something people canaccommodate to. To recharge, one simply sits along and plays with the experience of beingalive, makes some tea, has a snack, goes for a walk, plays with a puppy. Without a mindthere to spoil every experience with it's constant stream of definition, doubt, negativity,appreciation, discussion - without the constant jump into meta-psychosis where everyexperience is rendered meaningless by being assigned an arbitrary "meaning" - why then,life is profoundly good. All of it.Do you understand what I'm saying?Your mind has most likely trapped you, unless you're one of the free, and magic is not goingto save you. At least, not the kind of magic you're most likely doing right now.
Setting Goals: Will and Purpose inMeditation
If you meditate to feel nice, odds are you will succeed. Ditto for becoming calmer, lessreactive, wholer. All of those are good, worthwhile goals. By all means, feel free to deploythe nuclear weapon to dig trenches or whatever.Real meditation is about liberation. First target: the tyrant of inner interruption. Let memake this clear: inside of you, there is a "seer" - something, which is at the momentimplicitly "you" receives or has your experiences. You prick your finger with a pin, this