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IF YOU FEEL RELIGION HAS FAILED US -

IF YOU FEEL RELIGION HAS FAILED US -

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THIS IS A CONTINUING ESSAY I FOUND ON THE SUBJECT OF RELIGION AND ATTEMPTS TO CHANGE - I HOPE THIS HELPS CLARIFY MY EARLIER ESSAY - I HAD THIS ONE IN MY OLDER FILES AS WELL
THIS IS A CONTINUING ESSAY I FOUND ON THE SUBJECT OF RELIGION AND ATTEMPTS TO CHANGE - I HOPE THIS HELPS CLARIFY MY EARLIER ESSAY - I HAD THIS ONE IN MY OLDER FILES AS WELL

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I'dliketoaskyouaquestion:Ifyouhaveeverbeenreligious,orfollowedaparticularreligiousgroup,especiallyCatholicismorChristianity,haveyoueverfeltasthoughyouhadwantedyourreligiontobeafairy-tale,turningyouintoafairy-talecreation?Apureandperfectbeing,whocoulddonowrong?Asyougoonliving,whateverkindoflifeyoulive,whateverkindofpersonyouare,doyoucometorealizethatthisisnotonlyunrealistic,butunnecessaryaswell?Myreligion-anyoneforthatmatter-isanorganizedhumanattempttoworshipbeings.DivineBeingsthatIbelieveareveryrealandthatIloveinmyownsmallwayandwishtolovemore.Tome,theyarerealwithpresencesandattributesthatIcanrelatetoandlove.MyreligionisnotwhereIstart.THEYAREWHEREISTART-bylovingandconnectingwiththem,asfriends,ascompanionsandguides.WhenIcandothis,withsomemeasureofsuccess,IwillhavemorefaithandIthencanproceedtogivetoothersbasedonthatfaith.Youcanstillgiveandcareaboutthosearoundyou-buttostartwithcharitywork,tostartouttryingtobeanddowhatyouarenotandcannotdo,withyourheart-thatisamistakealotofpeoplemake.I'llgotochurcheverydayandnevermissaday-I'llgivetocharity-I'llmakesacrificesforothersandthinklessofmyself.AllinanattempttopleaseGod,tomakeothersseethatyouareworthy,tobeacceptableandperhaps"holy"-tofeelthat,yes,IcanlovemyselfandIdeservethisexistenceGodgaveme.Ifeelnowthatiswrong.Sowrong.Icouldnotstartoutwiththesenobleanddifficult(forsome)attempts.Thereisnoreasononearthtodoanyofthis,exceptone-THATYOUTRULYDESIRETODOTHESETHINGSANDTHATYOUDOITFORGOD.BELIEVINGTHISISWHATHEWANTS.THISWILLPLEASEHIM.ONLYHIM.THEREISNOREASONFORUSTOBEHOLY.Onlytobewhoweare,asGodcreatedus.Tobewhereweare,howeversmallandrestricted,whetherbyourowndoingorthedoingofcircumstances.Thisisnotacop-outbyaweak-willedpersonwhoisafraidtoreachoutandhelp.Trustme!Althoughthatdescriptioncanfitme,IknowwithallthecertaintyIpossessthatifIfeelIamsupposedtodosomethingnow,ifIfeelstrengthenedbyOurCreatorandmyprayersandguidance,Iwilldoit,nomatterhowmuchpainitiscostingme,orhowdifficultitmayseemtobe.Ionlyaskfortheclarityandthestrengthtodoit.Youcanchange-youcandoheroicdeedsandmakegreatsacrifices-ifchangeisnecessary.Surprisingly,inmanycasesitmaynotbe.Youmaybedoingwhatyouneedtodorightwhereyouare,asthepersonyouare.Workinghardatself-immolationandself-denial,duetoanabysmalsenseoffailureandloathingandguilt.IsthiswhatJesuswouldwant?Isthiswhatourfaithcallsustodo?Ithinkitcallsustoamuchmoredifficultgoal-sometimeswerebelandprotestanddenythatitisreallywhatGodwantsofus.Toacceptourselves,asweare.Crabby,lonely,boring,tired,weak,foolish,nasty,flawedinsomanymiserableways.Badtempered,irritatingaswellaseasilyannoyedbyothers.Somehow,wehavetolearntoofferthissameacceptancetootherpeople.Didyoueverthinkthatyoucannotchangebecausemaybeyouarenotsupposedto?Didyoueverconsidertheamazingandsomewhatdisturbingpossibilitythatasyoulieinbedcryingandprayingforamiracleoftransformation,youdonotgetthemiraclebecauseGodissmilingandshakinghishead,thinkinginHisGodway-"youhavetostaylikethisforawhile-believeme,youwillthankmeforit.Youwillseethereasononeday."Abadtemperthatyoutrulydespiseandothershavecrucifiedyouforintheirownwaymayactuallyleadyoutospeakupandsaywhatyouneedtoatcrucialmomentsinyourlife-andthosewordsyousaymayreverberateinsomeoneelse'slifeandcausemomentouschange.
 
Justthink-ifyoudidnothavethisbadtemperandthisoutspokenness,howthencouldhavesaidwhatneededtobetold?Ifyouwere"sweet"and"quiet"?Thewayyouwishedtobe,prayedtobe,andweretoldtobe?Godmayhavegivenyouthatgod-awful(nopunintended!)temperforareason.Itisyourownversionofboxinggloveswithouttheseriousinjurytobody.Itisyourownweapon,justaspowerfulasanyotherwhenyousaytherightthingsandtherightpeoplehearyou.GodisindeedanamazingGod.Veryfewwillevercomprehendthis.DidyoueverthinkthatGodrefusestoansweryourprayertoloseweight-despiteallattemptsatdietandexercise-eventhoughyoudonotjustpray,butaskforwillpower?Thatitisnotjustaweakwill,orotherbadinfluences-thatpossibly,justpossibly,Godwantsyoutofocusontheinside,tolearntooverlookappearance,foravitalreason?DoesthatmeanGodwantsustoovereat,ruinourhealth,orgetandstayfat?No!WhatitDOESmeanisthatifyouattempttodothis,withallandanymeans,spendingmoneyonproducts,workingout,praying-andyoustaythesame,orseenoprogress-BUTYOUARENOTSUFFERINGDUETOTHEOVERWEIGHT-ITISNOTAFFECTINGYOURVITALSIGNSORYOUROVERALLHEALTH-thatcouldmeanyouneedtoacceptit.Iaskedforguidanceonthis.Alotofguidance.AndIalwaysreceivedthesameanswers-always.Iwanttoleavethemhereforyou,mybeautifulfriends.Iwaswarnedaboutvanity.FromtheBible-usingmymethods-"VANITYOFVANITIES,ALLISVANITY"ThenIgotmorespecificwordsandphrases.Workonwhatisinsideyou.Focusonwhatyoureallywant.Learntolookbeyondappearance.Themindcanchangethebody,ifthemindisfocusedandknowswhatitwants.Learntoloveyourself.Careforyourself.Getlotsofrest.Nurtureyourself.Takewalks.WhatIwanttoshowyouis,thereisnothingIreceivedaboutpushingyourselftogotothegym.Havingahardbody.Beingsexyforotherpeople.Itwasallaboutlove.Lovingyourself.Takingrestswhenyouneedthem.Beingeasyonyourselfwhenyouneedtobenurtured.Takingcareoftheinsideofyoufirst,lastandalways.Developingwhatisintherebeforeanythingofvaluecanbe"outthere".Ihavethoughtaboutthissooften.AndIknownow,Ineedtolearnself-love,self-acceptance,andacceptanceofothersbigtime.Andifsomeonedoesevercomeintomylifetoloveme,hewillneedtodothesame.Iwilldothatforhim,forothers,formysisters-andtheyalsoneedtodothatforme.Oratleasttotry.Notaveryromanticsexygift!NotwhatIcaneasilydoformyselfandothers.I'dratherhavethefairytale.Youbetterbereallyreallyniceandsaytherightthings.AndIwill-no,IHAVEtodothesame,orIamapieceofcrap!Apimpleonthefaceoflife,asIusedtoSAY!andnowthatIammucholderandmoretired-nowInoticethegoodlookingguysandappreciatethem!Gofigure!That'sanotheroneoflife'slittlejokesthatsuck.Likewantingababywhenyou'regettingtoooldtohaveone.Feelinglikenurturingtheworld-oratleastoneparticularcatinyourareaandsomebirdsandsquirrels-whenyoudidn'thaveatraceofmaternalinstinctsbefore!Oratleastifyoudidtheyweresublimatedandgiventoyourmother,fatherandanimals.Buttogetbackonthesubject!-thisdoesn'tmeanwecan'tchange.Iknowyou'veheardthatbefore.Tomeit'sdepressingbutitmaybetrue.Likefirstyoureadsomethingthatgoes"youdon'thavetododietsanymore,youarefreeofthisorthat"andyourspiritslift.Youfeelhopeful.Boy,thisisradicalstuff.Then-bang!Herecomesthehammeronyourhead.(There'salwaysahammer)Onceyougetusedtoyournewwayofliving,thenyoucanbegintochange.Youca

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