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pa1n magazine volume number ten

- cheezi
back from the trenches - rumbling sky
waste distro

track 1. halorazor feat. cimmerian - one
track 2. porn on beta - everything is automatic
track 3. porn on beta - father figure
track 4. porn on beta - stand by me
track 5. porn on beta - round and round v1.3

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"if you don't live for something, you'll die for nothing.
through the best and the worst. the struggle and the sacrifice.
for the true who've remained and the new blood...

the above quote is from a song i heard performed live a month ago. it was
possibly one of the greatest performances i've ever seen, i actually felt my
eyes water when they dedicated "last breath" to their departed tour manager.
surveying the punkers around the arena, moshing and screaming, i realized a
paraleli. the hardcore scene is the closest to the hacktivist cyberculture of
any other model i can think of. hardcore is a lifestyle, it's something you
eat and breath. it consumes you and boils your blood, pumps you full of
adrenaline, so you can learn to fight back. i don't claim to subscribe to any
particular counterculture movement or faction. i don't care to be labeled. in
fact, i don't like being labeled at all, but few people do. there were so many

people in this arena, and i watched as at least one song during the set struck
a nerve with every single person. someone, somewhere, was always setting their
priorities and beleifs in line. it was as if we had washed in our own blood,
and been reborn hard; hard enough to take what's coming at us every day of
every month of every year.

there is a storm coming, there's no mistake about it. we live in a society
that must soon choose who to serve. who is a better master? society or
yourself? i would rather be my own master any day. the world is not too fargone
to begin to heal, but it will take tremendous amounts of strength and
determination on the parts of everyone who is a part of this movement, who is
tired of seeing the world turn to shit. i, like many of you, have seen enough
violence and hatred in my life. maybe just for once i would like to see
something amazingly beautiful, to restore my hope in humanity. what have we
lost, so we have become such hedonists?

we live in a world where being an active member of some sort of
organization or cause is frowned upon; where being different is acutely
painful, and where it seems like no matter how much time you put in to whatever
your cause may be, the sitation only gets worse. but we're used to that. the
online community has grown in numbers beyond the realm of most explanation. no
where in geography or history have this many people from so many backgrounds
become involved in trying to work with eachother, instead of fighting with one
another, to make the world a better place. this is what we do. rantradio, pa1n,
spfd2600, we try and squeeze out some semblance of sanity into this world.

about this issue. it took a long time to put this bitch into print.
everyone and their cat seems to be busy these last few months, and i've been
scraping the barrel for material-- i was at least-- until i talked to some
people who are dedicated to the cause. you may have noticed, the "scabbed wings
of abbadon" is on the table of contents. yes, our very own open source
celebrity sean kennedy, the fucking man has completed his first publically
available book and true to the open source roots this zine is based on, we're
printing a teaser in this very issue. i hope, well i know, but i hope you'll
enjoy this special surprise as much as i.

now that the lean months of spring, a phrase i've never heard coined
before, are over, the submissions are flooding back in. we're just as strong as
we always were, maybe stronger. i suppose it's just like everybody in the
rantradio community has learned; "it's not how hard you can hit, but hard you
can get hit." as usual, my life seems to have taken pelase in beating the shit
out of me, but i'm still standing, and i present to you the proof of our
perserverance.

thanks for reading the 'zine guys. it means a lot to me, and it helps. i
hope you learn something, because that's what it's all about. it's about
keeping the knowledge alive. without further ado, i give you pa1n magazine x
(that's 10.)

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