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"we don't need to try to change the world,
only our perception of its boundaries."

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then i'll order a pizza, even though the grease will form oil slicks on the surface of the boiling liquid, making it more and more toxic looking with every new sip.

ugandan treasure. i'll find myself fascinated by it, then i'll think about the
concept and turn it over in my head, trying to eek out some bit of wisdom from
this story. or, i'll watch another philip k. dick movie, and transfer my
schedule to the palm desktop da app., and try not to be dissappointed by the
large amounts of time i'm devoting to someone elses business.

i'm going to tell myself that i feel okay. i feel good, and i'll assure
myself that i'm confident and that tomorrow, when i get up at seven thirty or
eight o'clock, i'll be happy and pleased to go to work and be industrious.

dissonance, or cognitive dissonance, is when the brain can't correlate a
person's actions with their own beleifs. for example, when a person attends a
rally against nafta and the ftaa, and the next morning they put on an apron at
starbucks, they feel uneasy. it's a queasy sort of discomfort, it makes you
squirm. it's what you feel when what you're doing isn't consistent with what
you say.

this is the everday struggle for a lot of people. summertime for college
students is like the ultimate trial of fidelity, integrity and loyalty. it's
the time to attend rallies, to volunteer to serve food at the soup kitchen or
to go hand to mouthing it across the country or even europe, as a neo-bohemian
scholar. this is usually the time, however, when mom or dad tell you to get a
job, or your roommates remind you that you aren't 18 anymore when you could
afford to squander your time.

this is the way things are, and i'm not endorsing this, but i'm not
disparaging it either. simply put, it's what we do to survive. we have to
always keep our ideals in mind, but we cannot let them destroy us by preventing
us from making enough cash to survive and stay out of too much trouble. we
sacrifice the immediate gratification of volunteer work to fill our bank
accounts; all the while, we hate ourselves for it. it feels like hypocrasy.

we must do everything we can to make this world a better place. that is a
statement, a beleif and possibly a command, depending on how seriously you
actually take my writing. at the same time, you must do what you need to do to
get by so that you can most effectively help out the cause, and not fall in the
ranks of those who burned out trying to go all the way to the militant left.
our ability to plan and to organize cannot come from one type of experience
alone, it must be accumulated through years of working in all fronts, learning
the ropes of all the various courts of play. without knowledge of the enemy and
the system, you are hopeless in the battlefield. sun tzu told us this over 400
years ago.

if you don't know who sun tzu is, he was arguably china's greatest general,
and the author of "the art of war," an essential read for anyone in the
subculture or cyberpunk movement. if you haven't heard of the art of war, then
you have gone to one extreme or the other. only in the middle ground, somewhere
between being a productive citizen and a hardcore activist are you able to
sample all that the world has to offer. this doesn't mean to suck it up and
take it. this means that there are other ways to fight than to dedicate your
entire lives to every cause that crosses your path. in this issue you will find