Grateful

have always been pushing you pushed to leave your body pushed for independence pushed the limits pushed your sanity pushed the boundaries dying to grow up when I was finally freesobered upthe haze of independent intoxification cleared it was scary responsibility is heavy lonely terrifying adulthood stretches out one-way, one-lane highway. time the only mile-marker unsure of the weather weariness sets in looking back at my childhood realizing YOUR struggles keeping everything in place

experiencing childhood memories through 3-D glasses of adulthood the juggle the struggle the darkness the light I never understood how hard it was until now. the dawn of understanding makes me appreciate everything you are have given give Thank You. For not giving up on me for the million times I should have said itappreciated the small, medium and large things I only wanted more the instant I held her I knew hit me like a Mac-Truck I knew how much you love me the Secret revealed Im learning otherworldly joy

bone crushing pain fear hope so thank you, again its a thankless job but appreciation does blossom eventually hope to be as great as you