MY LIFE BEFORE and AFTER I CAME TO KNOW JESUS CHRISTEvery born-again believer has lived a life before and a life after coming to know thetruth that is found in JESUS CHRIST alone. This is my personal testimony of howJESUS CHRIST changed my life.(Note: This testimony was shared with someone who had asked me to share howJESUS CHRIST has changed my life. I will not disclose the person’s name that hadwrote to me, but I want to share my personal testimony with all of you, so thatmaybe you can learn from my life changing experience in the LORD JESUSCHRIST.)
First off, I read your message a couple of days ago and have really invested some thoughtand prayer into the answering your question. This is not at all an easy question to answer in few words. How do I begin sharing my relationship with my LORD and SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST with you, is the question that I have carefully thought and prayed aboutthese last couple of days.The relationship that I have had with JESUS CHRIST began 24 years ago and GOD isinter-woven throughout every aspect of my life. So, where do I begin sharing mytestimony with you?Before, I accepted JESUS CHRIST as my personal LORD and SAVIOR in 1988; I livedlife on my own terms. I drank a little, smoked weed, cussed like a sailor, often got intofights, treated others with malice and contempt, often got into a lot trouble and normallyran around with the wrong crowds and lied compulsively. In school, I had friends, butmade a lot of enemies as well.It wasn't long before my life took a turn for the worse and began to fall apart all aroundme. Friends, close friends started catching on to all of the lies that I had been tellingeveryone for years. Bullies ganged up on me at least a couple of times a month and beatthe tar out of me. Other people began avoiding me, because of my cussing, lying andoverall meanest toward them. The house of cards that was my life at that time camecrashing down and I found myself utterly alone, empty and broken.It wasn't too long before the hopelessness and loneliness and the torment of the darknessthat my life had become lead me to suicidal thoughts. This was serious stuff; no playingaround, now. It was the only way out of the hell that my so-called life had deteriorated to.I attempted suicide five times in about two years. I tried to hang myself. Shoot myself.Drown myself. Over-dose on pills. Lastly, crash my car into a telephone pole. Everysingle time, the hand of GOD reached down from Heaven and saved my life. I didn'tunderstand why or even who GOD was really at that time in my life. All I knew for curtain is that I should have been dead; I wasn't dead, but I wanted to die, but little did Iknow at that time; GOD had a purpose for my life and HE wasn't done with me, but just beginning to prepare the way for us to eventually meet in a very personal place and time.
For a while, I continued to live my life the only way that I knew and nothing at all waschanging or getting any better. Inside I was very empty and alone: outwardly, I pretendedthat nothing at all was troubling me and worked extremely hard to keep other people at adistance, so that they wouldn't discover all of the shameful secrets that I had hidden awayabout the real me then. A broken, lonely and lost soul that had left an aftermath of wreckage and debris of broken relationships, lost opportunities, mountains of lies, brokenhearts and betrayal on every single person that I had ever knew at that point in my life.I spent many long years working to repair all of the damage that I had directly or indirectly caused my family, friends and strangers alike. Wanting so very badly to makegood which I had for so many years made bad - I decided to try anything and everythingto right my wrongs, so to stop the torment that raged inside. And, I did try everything thatI could think of doing at the time. Nothing and I mean - NOTHING worked out as I planned it. Now, I was really lost deep inside my heart and my life showed it toooutwardly.In 1984, my parents took me out of public schools because of all of the trouble I washaving in school. My grades were very low and I was getting jumped by dozens of other students on a regular basis. Over the years I had become an easy target for bullying.After public school, I was sent to a private Christian school to complete my education. Itwas mandatory that every student attend morning chapel service, before heading off tofirst period classes. These chapel services lasted about 30 minutes and included a shortBible lesson, singing a hymn or two, Morning Prayer and daily announcements.Most often I would just sit wide-eyed, looking around the room as students and staff prayed and I thought about anything and everything else but what we were gathered therefor. Afterward, chapel ended and we were off to class.During lunchtime, me and a small group of other students would gather in an emptyclassroom and play Dungeons & Dragons Role-Play Game, which continued to be playedout for several months. During gym class, a few students including myself would sneak away and get high and trash talk each other. Before the final bell ending all classes hadrang, I'd already left school heading home, to a friend’s house, fishing or to the mall. Needless to say, I was still determined to live my life on my own terms and I needed noone, so I thought.Before long, I my attitude and lying was turning many students and staff against me or just pushing them away. The fighting hit a fever pitch and my hate fueled my anger andthe anger lead me down very dark and dangerous roads.A feud that I was involved in for a couple of years with my former best friends spilled outfrom the school where we all attended and into our own neighborhoods. It was revengeupon revenge and hate building to more hatred amongst everyone involved, butespecially within me. Finally, I had all that I could stand and decided to carry a few guns
to school and take everyone out, including myself.But, before I could even go from my car to the front door of the school, a parent hadwitnessed me pulling a pistol out from the driver's side of my car and putting the gun intothe trunk, which I had fully intended to use after school was about to let out. The witnessreported me to the principle's office, and then before I knew it, I was surrounded byschool staffers demanding that I open my trunk and allow them to search my car for weapons. I refused and left the school grounds - I never let them have the chance tosearch my car and since they had no real proof except for the one witness - at that particular time I had gotten away with it.I however, did not get completely away with anything. The parents of the other studentsthat were involved with our feud had caught news about the potential gun scare andcalled my dad, which was back then a police officer. My dad came to where I had beenliving and marched me to the other parents' house; where I was confronted by everyonein the room searching for the truth about what really happened earlier in that day.Amazingly, I came completely clean to them. I told them everything and admitted tocarrying a few guns and hundreds of rounds of ammo to the school and even told themwhat my plans were at that time. Needless to say, it scared the crap out of everyone, including me once I had reallythought differently about the whole thing. I knew somehow that I needed some real helpand I needed someone that I could totally trust, but I knew no one at that time that couldmeasure up to my expectations.In 1988, during a chapel service we had a guest pastor come to give his testimony to usabout his life and personal relationship with JESUS CHRIST and I realized that thisman's life and mine were pretty much the same story with a few differences, but stillreally similar. He didn't hold back about the life that he once was leading and how andwhere his life had lead him down very dark road before he turned to JESUS CHRIST.Then, he went on to share how his life was changed through his personal relationshipwith JESUS CHRIST.I just was completely moved deep inside of my heart, right at that very moment, I wantedand needed a friend in JESUS CHRIST. At the end of his testimony Pastor Bennit offer an invitation to everyone that was present in the chapel to repent of our sins and believeJESUS CHRIST, to accept the free gift of SALVATION that JESUS CHRIST gave hisown life on the CROSS, was buried and rose to LIFE again to pay for, so that anyonewho was willing to put their faith in JESUS CHRIST and believe in JESUS CHRIST can be forgiven for all of their sins (past, present and future sins) and be Saved and haveEternal Life in JESUS CHRIST. The pastor then asked anyone wanting to have a personal relationship with JESUS CHRIST to stand up and walk to the front of thechapel, so that he could lead in the sinner's prayer, which opened Heaven's Gates to us{to me} through the death, burial and resurrection of JESUS CHRIST. From that verymoment that I repented my sins, believed in JESUS CHRIST and invited and receivedJESUS CHRIST into my heart as my personal LORD and SAVIOR and gave HIM my
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Every born-again believer has lived a life before and a life after coming to know the truth that is found in JESUS CHRIST alone. This is my personal testimony of how JESUS CHRIST changed my life.
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