. Do you think that you have these feelings for the person that you are with?

Th ey might be real and that is what you might be feeling. But first here is someth ing that people should know if they have been in a bad relationship or if they t hink love is something that is not really there i have asked many people that i know and this is what we all have came up with. People mistake what love is ther e are many that just believe in love and people that love, love. Some people thi nk that it could be a fun game to play on some one to get them to give them what ever they want. But do you really think that playing a game like that is nice, or respect to a person. So for the people that have been or still may be in a ba d relationship that is no good for you, I have been in this position for two yea rs and had a child by this guy. Listen to what happen to me and see if you are i n this position. This is a true story for what happened to me. All this start wh en he asked me to merry him. Guys can change is a blink of a eye, some guys thin k that because you will merry them that they have full control over you and you may think that what he is doing now or what she might be doing now is nothing an d does seem a little weird. I hope that you keep this in your mind and never for get for future of your life at any time. I meet this guy when I was 18 years old and went out with him for about a year a nd he asked me to merry him i said yes, that was about the worse day that i can remember the next day he started to think that i was cheating on him because i w ould not wake up at 3am and text him back or answer my call. That was the beginn ing of the whole thing. Soon it was to the point that i could talk to any of my friends because well he thought that i was going off and having fun with out him . At this time i should of left him but i was pregnant and thought that he was j ust stressed and was worrying about the baby type of thing, but that was just a excuse that i used thinking about it now - stay with the baby's dad - but that w as the wrong thing to do. During the pregnancy there was multiple times that he had hit me and used me for any thing that he could. The night that i went in to labor was about the worse night that i can remember at this point of the relatio nship. He had been drinking bad that night and told me that the baby was not his and i was already having contractions and not feeling good so i just asked if h e could take me home, he said no. The fight lasted intel about 2am. Before i was able to go home he told me that he was going to rape me kill me cut the baby ou t and throw her in the river. That was the last thing that i remembered for anot her hour. It kept going through my head what did i get my self in to, should i g ive the baby up for adoption? No i had to keep that child and raise her the righ t way. To show her how a man should really treat a woman so she don't get confus ed in the future. When i did go into labor i thought that he had to be there so i called him and he did not show up intel i was about 8 cm dilated and when he g ot there my grandma was in the room with me and i started to yell at him because he was not there when i called him because he said that we was on the way at th at point. He had told me that he hopes that i lose enough blood that i would die and well my grandma did not take to that very good. She made him watch me go in to labor and he nearly passed out and said sorry after words about it and said s orry for every thing else so i thought because he said that he might have change d after that. I was wrong the baby was one week old when he decided to hit me an d through her in the car seat and she almost fell over so i yelled for my grandm a to come down stairs and help me get the baby up stairs and to call the cops at the time i was done with it. So we went up stairs and he said that he was going to burn the house down with my grandparents and the kids in the house and force me to listen to them burning. I flew down the stairs like a pissed off mom and punched him in the face and told him to get out and the cops are on the way so h e can stick around or get caught in a few minutes any ways because he was drinki ng and driving at the same time. When the cops came he went to jail found him an d gave me the car keys. He was in jail for about 3 months and i thought again th at i loved him so much that he had to be here with me so i went back to him when he got out of jail. After that we ran off together and moved to Oregon. When we got there every thing was good for about 2 months. When that two months were up i thought that i was so crazy for going back to some one that kept abusing me a nd my kids. but i thought that i loved him but i was in love with love not him,

i lvoed him for giving me a beautiful daughter that i have now. But where we liv ed in Oregon was on a ranch with horses. So when we would get in to a fight he w ould lock me in the stalls with the meanest horses there was there. Finally he w ent to jail i took the car and the kids and left came back home and never went b ack there. Seen him once when he came back to town to serve jail time. That was the last time and that was about a year ago. When you have kids and you are in a relationship they need to come first especia lly when they are as young as mine was but i was still a kid i was only 17 when i had my first kid and got pregnant again when i was 18 years old. I did not no any thing and I am still learning about life. Love is nothing like that NOTHING at all. To me love is some thing that is the greatest feeling that you could hav e in life to me. A person that makes you happy every day, someone that wants to talk about things and not always fight, someone that lets you live like a human and does not say who you can and can't talk to in life, someone that is NEVER go ing to hurt you. Love is something that when you look at the person that you are with makes you feel like there is no one else in the world that can make you as happy as they can. You take care of each other not just a one side thing. When you fight you guys always say sorry and talk about it and not hold a grudge. Whe n i look at my boyfriend that i have now i am more happy than i have ever been i n my life. He treats me like guys should treat any woman. i look at him and see happiness, a future with some one that cares and helps with kids that is not eve n his. He is a real man .i cant really say what love feels like what put it in w ords its just there and that i know that it is the real thing and there is nothi ng that can change the way that i feel for him. i love him for who he is and the re is nothing that can change him.