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Duality the Male

Duality the Male

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Published by Joe E Bandel
Part One of the Duality Essays
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Duality­The Male
I would like to share a few essays that compare the process of ego development with some of the more recognized landmarks of metaphysical and psychological research. I've used the gradesystem of the Golden Dawn as a convenient way of organizing this data using Israel Regardie'sbook as a reference. I could just as easily have used terms used by psychology or some otherschool of thought. The main point is that even if different terms are used the experiencesdescribed are the same.There is a universal experience that is true for all people even if it is highly subjective.Therefore these next chapters are tied together in a way that builds on what went before. Whatthey propose is a progressive ladder or stairway we each must travel in the process of healthyego development.With a little imagination and memory work you will be able to identify personally with almostevery stage that is listed. We achieve these stages all the time but do not recognize them for whatthey are. They offer a type of initiation that will act as a catalyst for personal growth and healing.While my examples may not be strictly accurate they should be very evocative and I welcomecomments that would help smooth these concepts out a little more.
In this degree the Neophyte or newborn begins explorations of the ego. What I'm really sayinghere is we move from an animal awareness into an awareness of "self". Typically these levels aredealt with naturally during childhood. Each must be developed before we can move on andmature in a healthy way. This degree has eight levels of awareness. Each level deals withpersonal limitations and how our developing ego grows and adjusts to confront and graduallymaster these limitations.I don't know of any order or sequence these areas may fall into. I do know we are notcomplete until we have explored and come to terms with all of these areas. There are manysimilarities with Erickson's "eight stages of Man". Those familiar with his work will find thisaddition especially interesting.
 Limitations of Language
. So often in our lives words are inadequate to express the depth of ouremotions and the intent of our actions. We feel no one understands us, no one will listen to whatwe are trying to say. Gradually we accept that we have a unique perspective on life and manythings that happen will remain forever secret between ourselves and the God of our hearts. Weare not able to share them with others and we will never be able to share them.At least this is the healthy way things should be. All too often we expect others to understandand have insight into our personal situation. We want to think our loved ones know us but thereality is that no one can really know us that deeply, not even our loved ones.
 Limitations of action
. We learn very rapidly in life that certain things are acceptable and othersare not. We think things are unfair. Why are bad things happening to us? Why can't we do the
things we want to do?We learn there are consequences to our actions, that action causes reaction and we are in thehighest sense responsible for our actions. We learn to do the right things at the right times so weare socially acceptable.Our parents are a great help in this regard. We do unto others as we would have them do untous. These are the beginning insights into the cosmic law of karma, cause and effect. They arealso the beginnings of our natural sense of justice and fairness. There is pride in knowing wehave earned the rewards we get in life.Sadly generations of children are being raised without learning that their actions have naturalconsequences. Parents over protect their children and let them get away with things. How canchildren be expected to know how to behave when they turn eighteen if mom or dad alwayscomes to the rescue?
 Limitations of emotions
. This deals directly with our strongest personal desires. Often we wantthings so badly we would do or give anything to achieve them. We feel hurt, anger andhelplessness when they are taken out of our reach. We WANT these things and we can't havethem. This is especially true in relationships that involve other people. In time we learn to desirethings that are within our grasp and our abilities.It is very important our sights are aimed high early because otherwise we will lose our desireto succeed in life. Unfortunately many parents have killed the higher ambitions in their childrenby not giving them the emotional support they need when they need it. This is often during thecritical teenage years.
Personal limitations
. Now we deal with the limitations of our own newly developing ego. Werealize our perceived shortcomings. Life is not fair. Why is my nose so big? Why am I so fat?Why am I so tall? Does any of this sound familiar? We come face to face with what we havebeen given in life and react with intense personal dissatisfaction. As we mature hopefully wegrow above these things and accept ourselves as we are.Learning to love ourselves goes hand in hand with believing in our abilities. This means toexpose ourselves to life and be successful in our own eyes.
We are Gods and Goddesses
Here we ponder what it would be like to live for ever and ever. Aschildren we feel immortal and nothing can harm us. Life is huge and just goes on and on. Wehave no control over this at all. Awareness just goes on and on and on. We have a destiny tofulfill whether we want to or not. We believe we are important and have an important part toplay in the universe.Some children are told they will be judged according to their deeds and sentenced to heaven orhell upon death. Others exposed to reincarnation at an early age will see karma as a wheel of lifewhere we are born again and again until we get some meaningless lesson right. It is easy to feelhelpless and small as we consider these forces of destiny.
 Right and Wrong
. Here we deal with our desire for revenge and the destruction of the wicked.We know through our parents and others the difference between right and wrong. We try to dothe right things and God help those who are doing the wrong things. We are on their case in an
instant. As children we tattle and as adults we turn others in to the authorities. We feel a strongdesire for reward and recognition because we are doing the RIGHT things. We also fear the painand humiliation of punishment.We' re given an early understanding of life. We have now mastered the fundamentals. Thestories and dogmas have been read to us. Our questions have been answered and our thoughtscarefully directed to conform with the wisdom of our elders.In their infinite wisdom they assure us there is nothing more to learn. Our education is overand we can take our place as adults even if we don't feel like adults. We do this throughceremonies such as confirmation, baptism, and graduation. There is a strong sense of stagnationand we no longer question the way things are. Sadly many adults seem to be stuck at this stage of ego development.Death. People die, animals die, plants die and we have a growing realization that we too willsomeday die. It is inevitable. What happens after we die? Where do we go? Is there life withoutthe physical body? Does it hurt to die? Are ghosts real and can they hurt us?Our parents and churches tell us we will go to heaven. They tell us heaven is the mostbeautiful place we can imagine. But they also tell us about hell and damnation. If we do notbelieve certain things and do certain things we will go straight to hell with eternal agony andtorment. We need to save our immortal soul by not doing things our bodies want us to do. Welearn to not trust our own bodies and instincts. We learn to die
Zelator Degree
When is the last time you have been passionate and excited about a cause? When have youbelieved in something so strongly that you became a zealot? Have you ever been "born again"?As we mature and confront reality we also deal with lower emotional baggage. This level is theawakening of the conscience. Normally this development takes place around ten or twelve yearsof age.I was fourteen when it happened to me. Sadly it might never take place in some cases. Thedevelopment of our ego can not continue in a healthy manner until this stage is completed. Mostof us have a conscience but we might not always listen to it.This degree has two levels of thought. In the first part of this degree we hear the voice of ourconscience and either ignore it or give lip service to spiritual and noble goals. We have goodintentions but identify with our physical body and human ego. We feel unworthy to have thethings we desire.We go to church on Sunday but keep falling short of our own expectations. In religious termswe don't want to sin but we still do. Every day we do things over and over again that we areashamed of and despair. We are sinners. We are unworthy. We think evil thoughts.Heavy feelings of guilt and self loathing are encountered at this level of thought. A powerfulforce digs up our deepest subconscious psychic contents and exposes them openly to us. We arebrought face to face with every word we ever regretted, every thought we were ashamed of. Wefeel little more than animals mindlessly reacting to physical and emotional stimulus. We are

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