cave. Down the highway. Back to the cross.Guilt?Grace?I would rather be foolish or boring or simple or clumsy or slow or even ignorant . . .than guilty. I don't really want to be
of those things, of course, but have been atone time or another. I've been the fool, the bore, the clown, the simple-minded,slow-to-catch-on and the not-so-blissfully ignorant, all of which can lead to painfullessons . . . and moving on. Fool myself once, shame on me. Fool myself over andover again . . . guilt.Now . . . don't think I believe there is no retribution for sin. David's path toredemption was not an easy one and we should have no expectations that ours willbe. Consequences are . . . consequential. No matter how secret our sin, it is notbeyond the full attention of God. Our consequences can be glaringly public.
Indeed you did it secretly, but I will do this thing before all Israel, and under the sun. Then David said to Nathan, "I have sinned against the Lord " And Nathan said to David, "The Lord also has taken away your sin; you shall not die. However, because by this deed you have given occasion to the enemiesof the Lord to blaspheme, the child also that is born to you shall surely die." --2 Samuel 12:12-14
The consequences of our sins often extend to others.When we rise into grace, we may stand on legs with bloody knees and extendscraped palms. This is where the healing begins. Not in the dark recesses of thecave where we shiver in the dark, but in the light, where the pain begins to absorbthe warmth of grace and we display our wounds and pray for healing. I just think thatsometimes we look to the left and the right for someone to tell us how to get out of this pit of sorry guilt . . . and we need to look
. For correction and mercy and thecourage to embrace grace.
He who conceals his sins does not prosper, but whoever confesses and renounces them finds mercy. -- Proverbs 28:13
Yelling for mercy at the top of your lungs is a good thing. Just realize that God is notthe only one listening. People have motivations, even if the stated goal is to assist inyour restoration. Some are
because "you should have listened to me in thefirst place." Some are
because "you brought this on yourself." Others are just
because "the right way was as plain as the nose on your face." Othersget a bit
and want to set you on the path to righteousness so they can putanother victory cup on their mantle. Others want
because of the pain or the embarrassment your trip into guilt caused them personally. Some are
out of their own pain because you betrayed them. And then, there are somewho just can't resist valuing
over restoration, making an example of youso others won't find themselves in your dismal state.