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After He Moved to California, the World Kept Growing
Lindsey Baker
He was digging,
he said, to clear
overgrown morning
glories out
back—Shoveling the only bare
patch, pushing, green tip
down, just to break something, so many
round clods of dirt—
He never intended to plant.
At night, Nebraska:
rows and rows of corn.
Every stalk an even height,
he dreamt of oceans without
waves, full of order,
plenty.
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Love Letter to Brooklyn
Lindsey Baker
Once, you wrote a list of all the words you did not know,
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your litanies, those lengthy prayers I’ve almost memorized
as mine—In truth,
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Getting Out.
Eric Wilson-Lopez
the middle of
the city.
looking up at trees
well
I die myself
and wonder
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I try I try I try I try
in the window
a shower
my fumbling hands
only to
live in it
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List of Words
Marc Saleme
So I went to the doctor because I felt funny, or rather not so funny, and after careful examination he
says, “You’ve got, uh, blue spots.”
“Blue spots?”
“Yes, tiny ones, like freckles only smaller. But they’re there.”
“I didn’t think... I didn’t think you could get blue spots. I sure as hell didn’t think it could happen to
me.”
“Yeah.”
“Whoa whoa whoa,” I said. “I can’t afford commercial medicine. So uh... like do you have any other
ideas?”
“Huh,” I said, and that’s how it was. I was glad to know that I’m on my own. You know, remanded to
deal with life with nothing more than the tools the good Lord gave me. Back on the streets.
“I see,” said Bosley. “So what–did the doctor say what the blue spots are?”
“Yes, in fact. They are deposits of crystallized metabolite... I don’t have quite all—I’m one enzyme
short of a protein complex. Heh, I’m one codon short of a gene sequence. Got a screw loose!”
“You’ve had some screws loosened since you started taking death.”
“Never is.”
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“Just like the movies.”
“I think you mean movie magic or cinematography. The silver screen is a term referring to an actuality
that those projection screens are kind of a silver tone.”
The sulky silk-shirted late-seventies-throwback-haired scuzz-festival death dealer couldn’t stop staring
at the back of a head across the Starbucks where they were doing the deal. He swore that head looked just
like a friend’s and even though it wasn’t the exact person, he wanted to study the face, but all he got was a
long look at a hairy occiput. There’s a brain in there. “Why are you telling me all this,” he asked.
“Because, well, my point is that I think the death has begun to prove deleterious to my daily thought
process.”
“Uh-huh.” I sat there with these two crystal gems in my hand that I couldn’t actually see very well.
Maybe I’m getting old. I need glasses. Maybe my visual processing center is being eroded away so that
everything just kind looks amorphous and fuzzy. Funny how in fact, it’s all or nothing.
So what, right?
No, but I picked it up against some better judgment. Would it be a creditor? I know so many of them,
and they call and make me feel bad. My grandmother is a creditor.
“I know!” Relief. It’s Josie. “And everybody acts like there are so many choices.”
“Take it easy.”
“Thanks.”
“Oh, I guess I was just remembering another conversation. One where I felt good.”
Everyone’s a therapist.
“No, that’ll give the Reye’s. You know Mom, life is kind of a headache, because I can’t work in these
conditions.”
“You know it sounds like you’re living in the past, with all those overlaps in narrative.”
“Well, yeah, always, but now that we’ve identified that living in the past thing, hopefully I can try some
new things.”
“You should try some new things, if you CAN,” she said ominously.
And then it hit me. This is so freakin’ weird. It’s like I’m dreaming all the time.
No, wait, that was a movie too. There are so many movies.
Here’s one. There’s one. He shows blue chicory to the one he’s loving as they ride along concrete in an
automobile.
I like tender things, they tell each other with what they don’t say.
If you say anything sweetly enough, it makes me melt like molten mountains of gold lolling through
space without form or function.
Softly.
And I like to see other people enjoying things, like carefully eating some tasty morsel from glistening
fingers, because it reminds me of what it’s like to be alive.
Who writes this stuff!? Who said what should make me happy? Abraham.
I just want to say one word to make the whole idea appear in your claptrap mind.
Salacious.
“Psst.”
“What!?”
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A trench-coat and fedora with eyes gestured him over into the alley with a head jerk.
“Hey buddy,” the fedora said, “Do you find yourself slipping back and forth between metaphor and
literality?”
“Yeah,” I said, looking around for something better to do. These conversations always bore me. “And
besides, what’s the difference?” I said, knowing that this would only make the conversation longer, but not
wanting to be rude.
“Between what?”
“You’re welcome.”
“Yeah, well... I’m gonna go... unless we were going to have sex, or get a drink, or both, probably in that
order...”
“Not exactly?”
“Hey, buddy.”
“What?”
“Oh yeah?” I said cautiously, because I’ve definitely been burned before. “What is it?”
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“Heavy meditation.”
“Ah!” I groaned heavily. “Yeah, I don’t know. It’s just that I’ve heard that can ruin my life, because I’ll
change, and even though I may not like myself, I have all these really decent reasons why I-- You know
what?
Let not your left hand know what you’re right hand is doing. Asshole.”
There’s a river and some buildings, and sometimes I stop, sometimes I walk.
And then I’ll pull my hair from roots and shout, “Meaningless! Meaningless, Ahhhh!”
I think what I’ve learned from this promenade is that if you keep moving, you see things that can’t be
seen sitting still. Things that upon cessation of movement cease to exist.
Everything
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Amanda Huckins
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This One’s About Me, Cooked
Cessa Cantrell
in the street.
Finger-lickin’
The dog thought they tasted like chicken.
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