to the Corinthians, “My heart is wide open to you.”
He expresses this care in thisunique way, it is the only time he does th
is…soon after this statement Paul says this tothem, “make room in your heart for us.”
You bear no resemblance to the
Corinthians…but I think there is relevance in his communication.
I want to…my heart
and I want to appeal to you to make room in your heart for me.
Here is the state of my heart. I am sad, I am hopeful, and I am eager to return to theprivilege to serve you.
Those would be three categories.
I am sad. I reflect on whatyou have experienced during this season, the time you have invested because of all thathas taken place, the challenges you have encountered over the past four months, howthis has adversely affected your church. I locate myself in the midst of that and find myway to where I bear responsibility for that.
I am so sad. My heart aches and breaksbecause I wan
t to serve you. I don’t want to
create work for you. So I pray that my
Does that mean four months of conversations were focused on self-justification rather than self-examination? I doubt it but you would not know
based upon C.J.’s comments. Honestly, I wonder if
John Loftness had any idea what C.J. was about to communicate. If he did, he should have stopped C.J.in order to avoid the train wreck that ensued.
Corinthians is Paul’s most autobiographical epistle. He is under attack by false apostles who havesought to turn the church in Corinth against him. That is C.J.’s view of what has happened. He views
himself as the victim, not the victimizer.
2 Cor 6:11-13 (ESV) We have spoken freely to you, Corinthians; our heart is wide open.  You are notrestricted by us, but you are restricted in your own affections.  In return (I speak as to children) widenyour hearts also.
In the context of 2 Corinthians, Paul is asking the church to trust him and repudiate the false apostlesand their slander. That is what C.J. is doing. In other words, C.J. believes some SGM pastors have closedtheir hearts to him because they have been misled by me and ot
hers who have leveled “all manner offalse accusations” against him. C.J. wants them to take on his perspective (i.e., not guilty as charged
andinnocent of wrong doing) which will result in open hearts.
Something C.J. assumes will happen.
In C.J.’s “state” of his heart message, there is no category for “I am convicted” or “I have sinned” or “Ineed to ask your forgiveness” or “I’ve been a poor example.”
This is extraordinarily vague. C.J. gives no explanation for how or why he is responsible for the adverseeffect upon the churches, the creation of work, and the months of mourning.