Lord. It does aspire – oh, it's intense, aflame – that's very good. But the Lord
doesn't conform to the ordinary habit! So all the habits, the minute He just tries to take possession of one function or another, even partially (not totally),all the interrelationships, all the movements are changed instantly – panic. Panic atthe particular spot. And the result: you faint, or you are just about to faint, or youhave an excruciating pain, or anyway something APPARENTLY breaks downcompletely. So what's to be done?... Wait patiently until that small number or large number of cells, that little spot of consciousness, has learned its lesson. Ittakes one day, two days, three days, then the chaotic, upsetting "big" event calmsdown, is explained, and those particular cells say to themselves (or begin saying tothemselves), "God, how dumb we are!..." It takes a little while, then theyunderstand.But there are thousands and thousands and thousands of them!You can't overdo it, because disruption is no good, of course! I've beenobserving that lately. When you came last time, I was – I was going through aupheaval.
The consciousness is there
(gesture, standing back),
but ... it intervenes only if it is absolutely indispensable. It's just that it tries locally to make the cells ... (notunderstand, it isn't "understand" because there's no mind) have the right sensation,the right experience – the right experience – until they start saying, "Oh! ...Oh! ..."Some panic. Some have already had a few experiences, they know better andsee clearer, they work to adapt to the new vibration. But others have yet tounderstand, and they feel so stupid, so stupid! And from above, somethingwatches it all and finds it both (both at once) very funny, because really it'sexceedingly ridiculous, and at the same time so sad! It's so sad to see thatEVERYTHING is like this: the WHOLE earth, the WHOLE earth! That this bodyis the object of a special concentration, a special effort, a special CHARGE, aspecial concern, a special care – this minuscule fragment, minuscule – and there'sthe whole earth, the whole earth.... And they all think themselves so wonderful, sosmart! ...I could keep talking for hours.Later.Even now I have to proceed very, very slowly – not to go off at a gallop. I amsurrounded by people who say, "Oh, she's seriously ill! What's going tohappen? ..." and they make things difficult for me. Because I still have to sweep itall aside with the Force: "Keep quiet! Don't you go making formations that add tothe difficulty."You see how far we are from those romantic transformations where peopleemerge from their meditation rejuvenated, transfigured, luminous – oh, dear me!That will be mere child's play. At the end, it will be nothing: we'll just have to dothis
(Mother blows one puff in the air),
and it will be there.It's the rest that is difficult.