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single knot. For the rest of their lives, Brahmans wear this
world. No matter how far one travels from his or her origins,
to Eternity.
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“Atreff, Dr. Patel will see you now,” says a shy-looking nurse
with long, shiny black hair, in a brilliant yellow sari.
When I realize she is talking to me, I stand up, and once I
regain feeling in my left leg, I limp down the hallway after her.
Much like the ubiquitous traffic in the streets, the nurses in
the hallway flow around me in a pattern only they can recog-
nize. I try not to look at the huge hypodermic needles in their
hands. I’m ushered into an office, offered yet another chair that
I can tell is going to hold a grudge, and the door closes. The
office itself is gloomy, a narrow room with a computer at one
end and an ultrasound machine behind a fraying living room
curtain at the other. I almost expect the Wizard of Oz to peek
out at me from behind the curtain, demanding to know why
I’ve come.
Instead, a lovely, soft-spoken woman looks up at me and smiles.
“Hello, Adrienne, I am Dr. Nayna Patel. Welcome to Akanksha
Clinic.”
Dr. Patel is seated behind an enormous desk piled high with
files, all containing, I imagine, the life histories of couples just
like Alex and me, all looking to her and the clinic for a chance
to have the family they’ve always dreamed of. She’s making
notes in one of these folders as I sit down. On the wall behind
her is a diploma from Singapore University and yet another
photograph of a radiant, reassuring Oprah, this time surrounded
by jubilant couples, glowing surrogates, and happy, healthy ba-
bies.
I smile and begin to say something trivial and friendly to
break the ice, but I’m interrupted by a nurse who comes through
the door suddenly and whispers something in Dr. Patel’s ear.
As they discuss something in Gujarati that I can’t understand,
I notice that Dr. Patel looks much younger than her fifty-two
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I could hug him. With a few simple words and another ges-
ture that I don’t quite fathom, Abhi has once again parted
the seas. My self-pity subsides. I’m so relaxed and optimistic
now that I’m not even troubled by the fact that Abhi is looking
directly into my eyes, instead of at the road ahead, and that
neither hand is on the wheel.
Speeding down an unmarked lane in a questionably main-
tained car with a kind and philosophical driver who definitely
does not have his eyes on the road is a strange place to discover
the quiet confidence that I have been lacking. But I have, I re-
mind myself, always been at my best when in motion. As I look
out the window, for the first time I am filled with wonder and
appreciation for the stark and staggering beauty of the Indian
landscape. And I also begin to see the unusual beauty of my own
journey, which began with a desire to finally put down roots, and
would lead me thousands of miles from home in order to plant
the seeds.
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