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Dark Night of Soul Experience? Use vs Abuse of Mind

Dark Night of Soul Experience? Use vs Abuse of Mind

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Published by Theresa-Ann
2012-03-17 1st journal, Mayan day 11 Imix/Crocodile

Video Journal http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ejepnhMCkxA

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It begins to feel a bit like the dark night of the soul, here. Just as I reported a recent night when I was so caught up into divine Joy that I lay in that all night rather than sleep, last night was a dark reflection. It seemed my heart cried out all night for divine succor and aid – literally, not figuratively. It was a dark night, anyway, even if not a part of that particular experience or initiation, called the Dark Night of the Soul that sometimes comes on spiritual souls.
Here's the strange part – for the huge part of the night I got no relief. There was no answer – no aid or comfort was forthcoming. Now, I've got to tell you that this is totally unusual for me. Spirit and the Light – I am so one with these that I am never out of their presence – at least, that's how it feels...
2012-03-17 1st journal, Mayan day 11 Imix/Crocodile

Video Journal http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ejepnhMCkxA

Intro:
It begins to feel a bit like the dark night of the soul, here. Just as I reported a recent night when I was so caught up into divine Joy that I lay in that all night rather than sleep, last night was a dark reflection. It seemed my heart cried out all night for divine succor and aid – literally, not figuratively. It was a dark night, anyway, even if not a part of that particular experience or initiation, called the Dark Night of the Soul that sometimes comes on spiritual souls.
Here's the strange part – for the huge part of the night I got no relief. There was no answer – no aid or comfort was forthcoming. Now, I've got to tell you that this is totally unusual for me. Spirit and the Light – I am so one with these that I am never out of their presence – at least, that's how it feels...

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1:32 pm, Saturday, 2012-03-17 1
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, Mayan day 11 Imix/Crocodile
Dark Night of Soul Experience?Use vs Abuse of Mind 
It begins to feel a bit like the dark night of the soul, here. Just as Ireported a recent night when I was so caught up into divine Joythat I lay in that all night rather than sleep, last night was a darkreflection. It seemed my heart cried out all night for divine succorand aid – literally, not figuratively. It was a dark night, anyway,even if not a part of that particular experience or initiation, calledthe Dark Night of the Soul that sometimes comes on spiritualsouls.Here's the strange part – for the huge part of the night I got norelief. There was no answer – no aid or comfort was forthcoming.Now, I've got to tell you that this is totally unusual for me. Spiritand the Light – I am so one with these that I am never out of theirpresence – at least, that's how it feels.So, to go from that to this desert-like experience is a bit – well, it'salmost traumatic – the contrast is so great.Now, I don't call the intensity of calling on Spirit for aid “beingwith it.” That's actively fighting where I am, I've got to admit. Inmy last journal I shared how I was not completely accurate inguiding people to just be with whatever they're feeling. As I waswatching myself in thie midst of this, I realized I was definitelygoing to the NDE videos for aid and support – to help lift me up.So, folks, it looks like I may be in the midst of changing, yet again.What I'm understanding about things is changing, anyway. I'm noton the other side of this, whatever it is, so I can't really say at this
 
point. All I can do is report what it's like where I am.What it's like is difficult – very difficult. It's my hope that othersouls not completely anchored in heart and in Light wouldn't haveto go through this. It's that tough that I wouldn't wish it onanyone, really.It's maybe the first time I get to
walk by faith
on my recent path.I haven't needed faith, before, because in the presence of actualexperience or real knowledge there's no place for it, since faith isbelieving in things not present. Well, now I'm walking by faith, Iguess. I don't know.Wait – there seems to be a quiet knowing in the background – wayback. It's not really clear or present and accessible, but it's there.It's telling me I'm fine. That's the first ray of comfort – well, therewas one little response to my night's praying early this morning,as well. These things seem distant, though. Still, by vibration Ican tell they are real. Talk about strange, this is it. I truly don't know what's going on. Idid a mental run-through, just to see if there was anything I'd saidor done differently, recently – something that could have broughton such a change. Not finding anything, I dropped it. One needsto be very cautious about using the mind at all during difficulttimes.What do I mean by that? Mind is a wonderful servant, and aterrible master. It's good to set mind to examine something –nothing wrong with that. The thing is, mind will do that, thenreach a point where it's done all it can. That's what we have to bealert to, because to keep using mind beyond that point is toclearly work against the self. It's not thought, anymore.Beyond that point, you're hamster-wheeling it. That's actuallyabuse of the mind, to set it to a task it's already completed.What's it supposed to do, invent something? Well, that's oftenwhat happens when the mind is set upon a fool's errand that way.Mind is a valuable too, and one that must be respected and usedproperly. Just because you're using your mind doesn't meanyou're thinking. Thinking, just to be clear, is to set mind to an issue or problem andhave it go through its paces, pulling in all the info and details. It
 
will run through those with a definite end in mind, seeking asolution or resolution to the issue. That's thinking – it'saccomplishing something.However, at the point where it has gone over everything it's job iscomplete. We all know when this is. To continue using the mindon the problem beyond this point is not thought – it's not properuse of the brain, either. This is where the emotions have entered in, in most cases, for themind well knows that it has finished its task. What it doesn't knownow, it won't know later, after more hours of mind activity. If ithad an answer for you, it would have offered it up, before. So, wemust look to our emotions and deeper seated issues if we spendour time hamster-wheeling mind – which is to say, using itpointlessly. That's to be watched.So, in the midst of a trial like I'm having, one can surely tell whenusing mind vs being in heart. There is no thought going on, here –beyond what was done to examine the situation. Perhaps this iswhat I mean by “being with it.” One stays out of thought –knowing, simply knowing that, beyond a certain point thought isuseless – the wrong tool for the job. It leads nowhere, instead of  just being now here.So what now? I simply be where I am. There's nothing else to bedone. It's surely difficult, and it would be great to have someunderstanding about what's going on, here. But, I don't. That's just how it is, and I'm okay with that for a very good reason. Iknow that, whatever knowledge or understanding I need at anypoint, I have. You'd be surprised how much rest there is in that. It cuts a wholelot of hamster-wheeling out of your life. It can also be seen asknowing that I have enough, and being content with that. Asdivine beings we lack for nothing.Hmm. Now I'm feeling like a quiet humming in the pelvic area –deep inside, there. It's almost like there's a little power stationwith current running through it, making the hum. It's just a littleone – may have nothing to do with anything. One gets very alertwhen going through a time like this one – noticing simplyeverything.

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