sgi-phil,leah

Hi! jeanny, i was once able to read many articles from you, and im very much inspired in every detailed samples & explanation you are writing...by the way im so sorry for my english for sometime i cannot express it correctly in correct english grammar. Iam also an SGI member in Philippines since childhood from the time my parents converted since 1970's. Im hoping you read this, through this i want to regularly get in touch with you. Honestly speaking...my practice before is on & off, i am now 39 years old, and been in a relationship at a very young age of 14, a had son at the age of 15 and unwed at that time...many things happened, my first relationship ended so miserable. And now i am married to my second husband, also a very miserable life with him, were always in an on & off relationship, and by this moment iam writing to you we are living seperates lives. I love my husband so much! but there are so many things that we cannot be patient to each other..and we end up always fighting, ive been chanting hours of daimoku everyday...to win and save the relationship...but the more i chanted the more i find im looser. I dont know if this man in my life is still worth fighting for, he once left us with another woman, he also uses drugs, no work, and relying to an older woman to have finacial & material gain, im beggining to work on my human revolution & manifesting my buddha nature for him to change, because this is the actual proof i want to show to my members who become tighten with their faith & practice when they notice that im experiencing this kind of suffering now. My name is leah, akumicho leader.I hope you can send me reply, im so sad,i dont kwow what to do, and my husband is not communicating to me anymore...which he is not doing before eventhough were not in good terms.thnk u, nam myoho renge kyo!