to faithfully embark
on the most fantastic adventure of all,
and to relish the Grand Project of my life
no matter how futile, unrealistic,
and impossible the Task may seem.For here I am yet again
under the crushing weight
of my insignificance,
the unutterable heaviness of being
that affirms everything I am not.
The preponderance of the evidence against me
magnifies my worthlessness
to the degree that I am truly astonished
by the grandeur of my insignificance.
Yet I fear falling back asleep;
for this almost unbearable weighty feeling
is just a shade of the terror
from which I awoke.Surely there can be no greater horror on Earth
than a ride on that pallid Nightmare
stepping out slowly but surely
along the black bridleless paths to nowhere.
Nevertheless, if Sleep,
Death's twin,seizes me again,