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The End of the World

The End of the World



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An essay I wrote a while ago. I haven't been writing since this was written and I hadn't decided to upload it until today (12/27/08). It shows my current confused state. Is anyone else like this? Let me know.
An essay I wrote a while ago. I haven't been writing since this was written and I hadn't decided to upload it until today (12/27/08). It shows my current confused state. Is anyone else like this? Let me know.

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Published by: Bill AKA "Kenosis23" on Dec 27, 2008
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O nby oh m`l |aos dk}hohg fk} O lkh'| jhkw akw nkhg. m`fk}` l`colohg |k g`| pu. u}kdu|`lmy |a` h``l |k p}ohb|`. fohbnny nkkjohg fk} b cnkcj |k s`` wab| |od` o| os( _`s|`}lby |a`}`wbs b u}kmn`d wo|a |a` `d`}g`hcy noga|ohg bhl. m`cbps` kf |aos bnn |a` `n`c|}ocbn m}`bj`}sw`}` }`s`|: dy cnkcj os bhg}ony mnohjohg skd` wk}|an`ss |od`. sakp|ohg b| d` |k m` }`s`| o|(O| }`bnny lk`sh'| db||`}. bs O ablh'| }`s`| o| fk} s|bhlb}l |od` bhl o| abs abl b |od` bh akp} w}khg sohc`(O lkh'| jhkw way O bd sk kms`ss`l wo|a |a` |od` |aos dk}hohg: O abv` hk|aohg kf bhyckhs`rp`hc` |ab| h``ls b||`h|okh |aos dk}hohg. `b}ny k} k|a`}wos`( B f}o`hl khc` gbv` d`b wb|ca. bf|`} wb|caohg d` ckhs|bh|ny upnnohg kp| dy ULB |k g`| |a` |od`: a` gbv` o| |kd`. mp| a` bnsk bldkhosa`l d` |ab| „|aks` wak nov` my |a` wb|ca. lo` my |a` wb|ca(—O bd hk| |a` khny kh` kms`ss`l wo|a |od`: \a` Donn`hb}os|s. b m}bhl kf Ca}os|obho|y. abv`m``h wb|caohg |a` wk}nl fk} soghs |ab| wonn u}kc``l |a` „`hl |od`s(— Wb|caohg bhl wbo|ohgfk} |a` }bu|p}`. |ab| |od` wa`h Gkl }bos` |a` fbo|afpn. bs a` lol @`jo`n. f}kd |aos Wocj`lWk}nl. n`bvohg |a` }`s| kf ps fk} b kh` |akpsbhl y`b} c`n`m}b|okh kf u`bc` bhl u}ksu`}o|ym`fk}` a` phcabohs Sb|bh |k gov` ps kp} ips| l`s`}|s( O lkh'| jhkw wab| |a` fbo|afpn wonn m`lkohg b| |a` |od`: O u}kmbmny wkh'| m` bdkhg |a`d@v`}y h`w c}osos m}ohgs h`w mkkjs. |a` dkl`}h `rpovbn`h|s kf |a` dbh wak cb}}o`s |a`sbhlwoca mkb}l. pu bhl lkwh |a` s|}``|. wo|a |a` wb}hohg „]`u`h|. fk} |a` `hl os h`b}.—ukoh|ohg kp| bnn |a` soghs kf |a` „@hl \od`s(— Noj` bnn kf ps |a`y b}` nkkjohg fk} skd`d`bhohg oh |a` wk}nl. skd` ips|ofocb|okh fk} |a` oh`rpo|o`s w` lbony kms`}v` oh |a` wk}nl(O buknkgo` fk} |aos u}kmbmn` dos}`u}`s`h|b|okh kf |a` ]bu|p}`: O wbs h`v`} |bpga| bmkp||a` }bu|p}` oh dy Sphlby scakkn bhl |a` Momn` s``ds |k m` ub}|ocpnb}ny kubrp` kf d`bh$ohg kh |a` spmi`c|. bs bnn |a` }`f`}`hc`s O cbh fohl kh dy Nbu|ku( Bhymkly os w`nckd` |ks`| d` s|}boga|(Oh dy Sphlby scakkn w` su`h| kp} |od` sohgohg „I`sps. Nkv`s |a` No||n` Caonl}`h.— bhlm`ohg |knl |ab| w` w`}` gkohg |k a`bv`h wa`h w` lo`l. waon` m`ohg. fk} |a` dks| ub}|.son`h| bmkp| |aks` wak b}` a`bl`l |a` k|a`} wby. o| wbs ips| bsspd`l |ab| w` w`}`h'|bdkhg |a`d(\a` sakp|ohg kf |a` cnkcj fk}c`s d` |k f``n b}kphl oh |a` lb}j. s``johg kp| dy oUklHbhk |k fohl |a` |od`( O bd s|b}|n`l bmkp| akw dpca noga| o| up| kp|s: o|s losunby ckpnl m`ps`l bs b fnbsanoga| bhl O aku` |ab| O lkh'| wbj` Nkpos. kh` kf |a` k|a`} }`sol`h|s kf |a`Akd`n`ss Sa`n|`} wa`}` O }`sol`. fk} sp}ny a` wonn m` onn$|`du`}`l of O abv` wbj` aod |aos`b}ny(O }`bnny lkh'| ab|` bhykh`. mp| |a`}` b}` u`kun` wak O abv` fkphl. f}kd ab}l `qu`}o`hc`.o| os hk| gkkl fk} d` |k m` b}kphl( C`}|bohny. |a`}` os b g}kwohg nos| kf u`kun` wak lkh'|cb}` |k m` b}kphl d`. sk fbo} os fbo}( O fohl o| ab}l |k m`no`v` |ab| Gkl os bhy n`ss phl`}$
¯ M( W( ]``lIbhpb}y 3 & <. =551
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¯ M( W( ]``lIbhpb}y 3 & <. =551
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¯ M( W( ]``lIbhpb}y 3 & <. =551

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Rose added this note
Other than a few typos and such, I don't think this needs much revising. It's a kind of "slice of life" piece that paints a clear picture of where you were at at the time -- your circumstances, surroundings, and thoughts. I think it's beautiful!
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interesting read write thoughts write gets my vote stars
Bill AKA "Kenosis23" added this note
What a mess! I have been editing and revising this all afternoon and I have begun to wonder if it worth salvaging. Someone rated it 5 stars; why?
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This needs a severe editing job ... oh why did I upload this ball of pain?
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