3The second group of apprentices was extremely compact. It had only three members: adreamer, Florinda Donner-Grau; a stalker, Taisha Abelar; and a nagual woman, CarolTiggs.We interacted with one another solely in the second attention. In the world of everydaylife, we did not have even a vague notion of one another. In terms of our relationship withdon Juan, however, there was no vagueness; he put enormous effort into training all of usequally. Nevertheless, toward the end, when don Juan’s time was about to finish, the psychologi cal pressure of his departure started to collapse the rigid boundaries of thesecond attention. The result was that our interaction began to lapse into the world of everyday affairs, and we met, seemingly for the first time. None of us, consciously, knew about our deep and arduous interaction in the secondattention. Since all of us were involved in academic studies, we ended up more thanshocked when we found out we had met before. This was and still is, of course,intellectually inadmissible to us, yet we know that it was thoroughly within our experience. We have been left, therefore, with the disquieting knowledge that the human psyche is infinitely more complex than our mundane or academic reasoning had led us to believe.Once we asked don Juan, in unison, to shed light on our predicament. He said that he hadtwo explanatory options. One was to cater to our hurt rationality and patch it up, sayingthat the second attention is a state of awareness as illusory as elephants flying in the skyand that everything we thought wehad experienced in that state was simply a product of hypnotic suggestions. The other option was to explain it the way sorcerer dreamers understand it: as an energeticconfiguration of aware ness.During the fulfillment of my dreaming tasks, however, the barrier of the second attentionremained unchanged. Every time I entered into dreaming, I also entered into the secondattention, and waking up from dreaming did not necessarily mean I had left the secondattention. For years I could remember only bits of my dreaming experiences. The bulk of what I did was energetically unavailable to me. It took me fifteen years of uninterruptedwork, from 1973 to 1988, to store enough energy to rearrange everything linearly in mymind. I remembered then sequences upon sequences of dreaming events, and I was ableto fill in, at last, some seeming lapses of memory. In this manner I captured the inherentcontinuity of don Juan’s lessons in the art of dreaming, a continuity that had been lost tome because of his making me weave between the awareness of our everyday life and theawareness of the second attention. This work is a result of that rearrangement.All this brings me to the final part of my statement: the reason for writing this book.Being in possession of most of the pieces of don Juan’s lessons in the art of dreaming, Iwould like to explain, in a future work, the current position and interest of his last four students: Florinda Donner-Grau, Taisha Abelar, Carol Tiggs, and myself. But before Idescribe and explain the results of don Juan’s guidance and influence on us, I mustreview, in light of what I know now, the parts of don Juan’s lessons in dreaming to whichI did not have access before.