wife that I have to take care of and I can't even pay the utilities for our house. "God, how did I get here? Iput all my faith in You and now, I am awake in the middle of the night because of fear that my family isgoing to be out on the streets because I tried this crazy idea." I cried, and tossed and turned for about anhour because I could not sleep. I continued to pray and express my disappointment to God. What I did notrealize was that God was allowing me to experience a complete dependency upon Him. He was teachingme to pray more often, read and depend upon His Word. There are different levels of faith and He wasmoving me up to another level. God was training me to read with the intent of getting an answer. He wasestablishing a foundation for a fruitful relationship. As anyone could see I had faith, but it was very littlefaith. I often think God would use the words He spoke to the disciples, “You of little faith” to describeme. He was equipping me to have greater faith. I often think back to this particular time in my life andrealize that if God had just let the apartment building sell easily and all the funds had been provided bythe proceeds, I would have missed this great opportunity of getting to know a true and living God andhow much He truly cares for each of us more than we can imagine. After hours of tossing around and aface full of tears God finally put a strong conviction on my heart to go get my Bible. Well, it wasdownstairs and I really did not want to get up out of bed and go get the Bible. After realizing that I wasn'tgoing to be able to get back to sleep, I went down and got the Bible. As God has been showing me to do,I just opened it up and started reading. “And He said to His disciples, 'For this reason I say to you, do notworry about your life, as to what you will eat; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. For life ismore than food, and the body more than clothing. Consider the ravens, for they neither sow nor reap; theyhave no storeroom nor barn, and yet God feeds them; how much more valuable you are than the birds!And which of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life's span? If then you cannot do even a verylittle thing, why do you worry about other matters? Consider the lilies, how they grow: they neither toilnor spin; but I tell you, not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these. But if God soclothes the grass in the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, how muchmore will He clothe you?'” (Luke 12:22-28, NASB) It was astounding to hear God speak through HisWord, especially knowing that it was exactly what I needed to hear from Him. God was talking to me soclearly, as if He was in the room with me (I know He was). After reading these verses I was overwhelmedwith joy. He could not have been clearer in addressing the issues at hand. It reassured me that God wasreally with me in this mess. Amazingly enough, shortly after reading this scripture, I was able to go tosleep in peace. No more tears or sadness. The financial issues were still present, but now I knew that Godwas with me and that was enough assurance for me to be comfortable. I don't mind going through hardtimes, I only need to be assured that God is going with me through it all.