unfiltered through my interpretations, biases, or errors.Statistics, though informative, diminish the impact and reality of death. While this book is filled with figures and abstractions, behind each of the numbers is a real person, with ahistory, personality, and pain that is both particular to each and common to us all. Theyare not just numbers; these are our friends, and neighbors, and families, and selves. Iinclude some of their words to give a sense of the quality of their lives, and the thinkingthat led to their choice of suicide.Karen, sixteen:"I was really upset and depressed. My life just seemed to be in total chaos.My boyfriend just dumped me flat, and he said he loved the other girl anddidn't love me at all. My parents and I also just got into another fight againabout some really dumb things, so I just went into my room and closed thedoor. There was this bottle of sleeping pills my mother was using, and Ihad them with me. I sat and stared at it for a long time, weighing out thegood and the bad things in my life. The bad things came out ahead. Ipoured some of the pills in my hand, and figured ten or fifteen ought to beenough to do it. Those pills...they all looked so innocent and peaceful, likethey couldn't do much to hurt anyone. Well, I put them in my mouth andheld them there for a long time, wondering if I should or shouldn't. I took a glass of water and swallowed. At first nothing happened, and then theyall hit me at once. The room started to blur and spin, small sounds weregoing on in my head. The last thing I remembered was trying to move andnot being able to. I woke up in the hospital. They were pumping out mystomach, one of the worst things you can have done to you. My mothercame into the room, and she apologized for the fight we had."
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The material here is intended both for those who want a quick and relatively painlessdeath, and for those who want to carry out a suicidal gesture as safely and non-injuriouslyas possible. If it convinces some potential suicides to seek other solutions---suicideshould be an absolutely last resort and mistakes may leave you crippled---so much thebetter. But the fact remains: there is no way to limit this knowledge to those whose aimswe agree with.To make my premises explicit: (1) Decisions concerning your death should be,ultimately, yours to make; (2) Most--but not all--decisions to commit suicide are due to
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