johnny5wd scribbled: The reverse is true as well. I wouldn't call myself a bad boy nor a geeky guy, maybe a bit balanced. All my life I focussed on being a well-behaved, good person, persuing one relationship. But the "secret" part of me is just craving for attention I never had in my younger years. Yes, I had saved myself and was disappointed that, by my views, the person I ended up with had not (although she said she did). It's all a matter of reference and interpretation. I think the same may be true for a muslim woman I once knew. She seemed cut short all her life and so now she pursues all kinds of Don Juans, Latin or Italian Lovers or whatever type has her fancy, probably because she was denied access those cravings when she was younger, either by force, by choice or by conviction. Do I regret not having been more open to seduction in the past? Sometimes. It creates urges, cravings and frustration not just with other people and morality but with my own self, and/or the choices that I have made, even when in my mind and heart I can justify those choices. I guess what I am trying to say is that your theory about "good girls" could easily apply to guys as well and highly depends on the environment they grew up in, as well as physical factors. The ones that have always kept their morality in check. My two cents..

johnny5wd scribbled: Wow. Intense. I've never thought about it that way. I never thought that love could be so scary at the receiving end of it. But are you truly "forced" to shut the door, or do you "choose" to close it because you're weary, afraid or devoid of the sentiments of love? Feel free to e-mail and/or share, gotta love poetry.

johnny5wd scribbled: I'm overwhelmed with silence after reading this. Is this poem based on personal experiences? Wrote some poetry myself, but hesitant to publish since it is all very personal.