prior, a year before I was born. At the time, she told me, the name was given affectionately, atender term capturing the coziness and perfect symmetry of the fading yellow home. But this was before the hallway was too narrow to accommodate my father’s great gut and she would have tolean against the wall to let him pass, his belly moving like a marble through a narrow tube. Thiswas before the kitchen sink and the toilet began to leak on a regular basis and before the hingeson the front door became rusted and worn, making it difficult to get in and even harder to get out.Over time, she used the term with more and more aggravation. “This place is a fuckingshoe
box
,” she would say to me as she retrieved the plunger to unclog the toilet for the fifth timethat week. She would emphasize the last syllable as if the word itself, box, referred not only tothe house, but also to the town, to the valley, to life.I had just woken up when I heard the commotion, and I came to my door to see thisweek’s offense. I was standing in my doorframe when I saw the two cream suitcases stacked bythe door with care and my parents sprinting down the hallway, my father moving with an agilitythat finally validated his claims of high school track stardom. As he reached for his tan canvas bags, my mother lunged for his waist, falling instead into the depressed square of carpet wherehis bags had been a moment before. He was already out the door, running to the gold Buick thatidled in our driveway with his young lover sitting in the passenger seat rubbing her belly andstaring blankly out the window, not even turning to see what was going on. I ran to the livingroom window, jumping over my mother’s felled frame to see him. As he lumbered into thedrivers seat, the girl with the blonde side ponytail and the dangly gold earrings recoiled slightlyin what, perhaps, was reality setting in.My mother righted herself behind me. She ran out the door, pulling her pink terry clothrobe tighter around her thin frame as she stepped onto the stoop. The car was already gone. It2
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