Heartskin Stories
By J.M. Levar
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Heartskin Stories are like a box of chocolates. Some you will find soft, some hard, some will melt ever so slowly into your mouth. Some may leave a familiar by-taste of something you once had. Some may irritate your pallet. Some may stir tastes you wish you did not have.
But whatever happens once you open it, the best thing about this box of chocolates is that it remains full: Its like having your cake and eating it!
J.M. Levar
JM.Levar is an artist, storyteller and Holotropic Breathwork Facilitator. She claims, the love of storytelling is her only qualification to write. Born into a Cosmopolitan lifestyle, in Croatia; surrounded by wealth of stories and culture; her life was to change dramatically. Her family fled from Yugoslavia to France; first as refugees in Paris, then as immigrants in Australia. The trauma, JM says, resulted in her speaking, reading, writing and thinking, with an “accent”. JM lives in the country, where she spends her time paining, writing and breathing deeply or heavily, depending on whom she is breathing with.
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Heartskin Stories - J.M. Levar
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Written and illustrated by J.M. Levar
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missing image fileContents
Acknowledgements
List of Illustrations
Preface
Silence
Tea and Biscuits
Fairies
Veils
Carpet Bag
The Pearl
Wanjana Rain
For my family.
Acknowledgements
These stories have been inspired by women and men who have enriched my life with their presence. My heartfelt gratitude goes to them.
I also wish to include my mother, who kept me nurtured and sustained with her cakes made of unconditional love and my father, for his courage in the face of political oppression. I must also include my immediate family, for believing in me and sharing my worst and my best, as well as my friends and my extended family, for sharing time. They are the most precious gifts we have. They have been and are a constant source of inspiration for me.
A special thanks to Stanislav and Christina Grof for Holotropic Breathwork. You have inspired the world to breathe as one.
My heartfelt thanks to my friend and breathwork mentor, Pauline.
Thank you to my editor, Colleen Clay, for her patience and encouragement and to the wonderful people who read my stories again and again, to dot the Is and cross the Ts.
Thank you to Michael Hemming for bringing the illustrations alive with his magical touch in photography and computer graphics.
I also wish to thank the people from Balboa Press who have been instrumental in the completion of Heartskin Stories.
Thank you to everyone who helped me through my process!
List of Illustrations
Silence
No. 1 Silk Kimono
No. 2 Tears of the Buddha
Tea and Biscuits
No. 3 In Camelot
No. 4 Umbrellas
No. 5 Trilogy Mandala
No. 6 Arthur and Morgana
Fairies
No. 7 Strawberries
No. 8 Broken Wings
Veils
No. 9 The Veil
No. 10 Pierced Heart
No. 11 The Harem
Carpet Bag
No. 12 Lydia’s Spell
No. 13 The Demon
No. 14 In the Bag
No. 15 Imiria
Pearls
No. 16 Pearls
No. 17 Between the Sky and the Sea
No. 18 Fishers Mandala
No. 19 Lustre
Wanjana Rain
No. 20 The Outback
No. 21 Walkabout Mandala
No. 22 Hearts Dancing
Preface
My name is Jadranka Milica. Nine years ago, I began to compile this book from memories of past experiences and recent encounters in my life.
Heartskin Stories is fiction inspired by true events and people I have met—amazing women who told stories about themselves, people they once knew and about faith, courage and grace in the face of overwhelming odds.
These were ordinary people who took me into the extraordinary, not because I was different or special, but because I was predisposed to their language, one beyond tongue and dictionary. Heartskin Stories is my interpretation of what I came to understand as encounters of a transpersonal nature, where archetypes, fairies and gods are real and their impact omnipresent.
As a child, I loved fairy tales and magic. I was born in Croatia, a country with a rich storytelling tradition. My family emigrated to Australia, where the landscape itself—white trees, red earth, purple sky and bush, all dense and mysterious—took me dreaming. In such a dreamscape, my interest in the mystical did not waiver but grew. Myths and mythology captivated my imagination and I lived my life with one foot in fantasy and the other in the real world, where what mattered turned out to be the illusion.
The encounters continued. Inspired by the grace of the storytellers, I began to write down the stories. In the process, images of past meetings surfaced in a new light. Despite cruel traditions and myths of loss and punishment, these women’s stories taught me the grace in forgiveness and the healing power of beauty.
They have inspired me to follow what has heart and meaning for me: To be part of the healing wave that is cleansing misogyny from the bodies of men and women and to give my voice to a new myth, one of integrity and intimacy.
The stories Silence
and Wanjana Rain
are some of the more recent. The others are drawn from past travels and are written from memories spanning back thirty years. They are in no particular chronological order; they are vignettes, glimpses into the extraordinary in us all. For some of the stories, I have combined several of the sources and several people to produce a fairy-tale version of ancient oral traditions of their culture. Others are a narrative from a single person’s perspective.
Silence- page 1 calligraphy.tif he was there each day, pale and frail, like a delicate Japanese porcelain figurine, dressed in a silk kimono. She would sit on a bench by the river. Our eyes met frequently as I passed her on my morning walks. We began to nod to each other as I became accustomed to her presence.
I was visiting the tropical coast of Australia, house-sitting at a friend’s home near the Brisbane River; the invitation to live in Queensland had come at the right time. I felt broken and betrayed. My twenty-year marriage had come to an end. There were no children and never would be. My home and security vanished from under me. It was as if my heart had been ripped out, leaving a deep wound of rejection; pain and anger poured out. I walked the streets in a hateful haze. I walked. I marched. I paced the pavement until I began to crumble under the weight of my inner rage. The only thing that seemed to calm me was the sight of an elderly Japanese woman, sitting by the river where I walked. One morning, I noticed that the woman wasn’t at her usual spot. I felt disappointed and promised myself that if I saw her again, I would take the time to have a chat. A few days later, there she was again, a still and picturesque figure seated on the familiar bench by the river. The design and sheen of her silk kimono reflected the surroundings, subtly changing colours and patterns like a kaleidoscope in the morning sunlight.
Hello,
I greeted her.
Hello,
she responded, bowing her head to me.
I missed seeing you,
I told her. May I sit?
She smiled softly and bowed.
I joined her on the bench and we chatted about nothing and everything. Her name was Michi. She was from Japan and had come to Brisbane three years ago to live with her brother, who had a good business,
as she put it and was generous to her. I asked her how she liked Australia. She turned and looked directly at me and smiled before she said, I am thankful to have seen this beautiful place.
A soft breeze was blowing. We watched the water sparkle and eddy in places as it flowed past us.
Breaking this gentle mood, a car drove up and parked in the parking lot behind us. A youth emerged from the car to put some rubbish into one of the bins on the riverbank. In the few moments he was there, we could hear his car radio loudly relaying a news broadcast from a war-torn country. Sounds of violence violated our space; sounds of people in pain and gunfire, though distant, had a disturbing effect on me. I became agitated. The young man drove off, taking the noise with him. I was glad he had gone. As silence enveloped us again, I took a couple of deep breaths, exhaling rather loudly.
Image 1 - Silence No 1-Silk Kimono.tifMichi spoke softly, It is good to breathe like that. People need to breathe deep … to heal. Much sadness in the world, much pain! People are feeling this and are very angry. They lash out.
There seems to be violent confrontations in so many places in the world,
I commented.
As she rose to her feet, Michi repeated, Much sadness in the world. I must go now.
And then she bowed to me and said, Perhaps I will see you tomorrow?
I nodded