ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
INTRODUCTION
The Written Soul is an autobiography. It is a glimpse of my life through poetry. These poems represent a form of therapy and self-expression. Poetry was my voice when I didn’t have one. I was able to write what I could not speak aloud. I, like many, struggle with depression and anxiety. I have never had the courage to share my poetry with others. It has always been sacred to me. Honestly, I feared judgment from others. However, I now realize that my experiences have meaning, and my poetry can be of help to many. This book embodies poetry that has been written over the years of my life. WARNING…there will be highs and lows, vulgarity and brutal honesty. With all that being said, I invite you on this battle with self.
TIME STANDS STILL
You scream no
Time stands still
Yet he proceeds
I have no realization of what’s happening to me
I feel like my breath has been taken
I’m innocent no longer
I never had a choice
This shall always be on his guilty conscious
I’m screaming
I’m kicking
I’m yelling
I’m fighting
I’m dying
The girl you use to know is no more
That sweet angelic voice
Has turned into rage and hate
I wish I could put a gun to that f***ing bastard’s face
No more
Do I feel alive
I am afraid to close my eyes sometimes
Because when I dream
I see you
You, taking the one thing I held so dear to me
And yet
You live your life as if nothing ever happened
While I’m here suicidal and on anti-depressants
And still
I scream no
Time stands still
Yet you proceed
You’re the reason I’m so full of disgust
The reason I hate myself
And don’t want to be touched
You’re the reason for all my ups and downs
The reason I don’t fight
Or even care to stay alive
No longer do I hold my head up high
Because all I can do is cry
My emotions have run dry
I have so much animosity built up inside
Somehow, I wish I could break free
Free from these demons that are steady haunting me
But I feel that day will never come
As I consume these bottles of pills
Thinking of what I did wrong
You scream no
Time stands still
Yet he proceeds
Life isn’t always what you want it to be
BACKWARDS
It’s overwhelming
This painful feeling
From the damage you’ve brought
It’s so crowded inside my head
Trying to get away from these thoughts
Don’t want to do anything foolish
So I guess I’ll play pretend
And act like you didn’t leave me here
Standing on this ledge
LOVE’S SHADOW
Why must one continue to walk in the
