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The Ramblings of a Madman

The Ramblings of a Madman

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The Ramblings Of A Madman.

By James Bloomfield

The Ramblings Of A Madman.
By James Bloomfield.

Poetry, Rhymes, & Lyrics. Copyright.© The Ramblings Of A Madman By James Bloomfield 2008

Dedicated to my son Michael Who I love very much, You are my reason for everything.

Contents.

1. Too Many Thoughts Too Many Dreams. 2. While He Was Waiting. 3. Cut The Chains Forever. 4. No Purpose. 5. What Is This Place I’ve Come To? 6. Whistling Away. 7. Take It From Me. 8. Save The Day. 9. Because I Can’t Let Go. 10. The Lonely One. 11. Alone Again. 12. Waterfall Of Life 13. In Need Of A Friend. 14. Michael. 15. Sad Skies Of Grey. 16. Going Home. 17. Sweet Lady. 18. Sorry. 19. To Be My Own. 20. My Prison Cell. 21. Falling. 22. The Hardest Thing.

23. How Would You Feel. 24. Cold As A Century. 25. Parcel Of Lies. 26. Raining Love. 27. Soul Searching. 28.My Garden. 29. The Faded One. 30. Subdued. 31. Acid 32. Running Away. 33. Dropping Off The Face Of The Earth. 34. Addictions. 35. Scared. 36. The Drawing Of A New Day. 37. Down With You. 38. Velvet Top. 39. Nothing To Me. 40. This Life. 41. Without You. 42. Who To Call. 43. Silence. 44. Voices Within. 45. Set Me Free. 46. Nothing More To say. 47. Depression. 48. The Real You.

1. Sitting by the side of the road to nowhere. I don’t believe that you could carry a heart of stone. To many years of being starved from life. I don’t believe that anybody’s done me wrong. And I can’t conceive just how I’ve managed to carry on. I just can’t take this kind of life no more. to many dreams. to many dreams. to many dreams. I see the sunlight shining through. So one forgets how one should pray. I see a new day dawning. These dreams of mine are coming true Oh yes indeed. Where there is love that’s shining bright I’ll let it in. To many thoughts. But this was something that I had to do. To Many Thoughts To Many Dreams. I didn’t give no warning. . To many thoughts. I don’t believe that you gave it your all. And maybe when the morning comes we could pretend life’s oh so new. Have you any thought of what it’s like to be alone. Deep down inside you know its right. To many thoughts. I’d try to make things right with you. If I could stop these tears from falling. Where was I headed anyway? In the past I’ve been so lonely. To many golden hearts been broken so it seems.

2. And now this gifted young man was doing all that he could while he was waiting. But through the thick and the thin and all the hard times for him he kept waiting. While He Was Waiting. You know we’ve got to keep the dream alive. Just like the love for a child this young man he grew wild. Well this man nearly died as his passion inside was kept waiting. Don’t ever let it slip away. Did you ever give a damn about the man who spent his life waiting? It didn’t matter who you’re with or what you did he kept waiting. He stood waiting. . he’s no-longer waiting. I’m talking ‘bout my passion. Baby we can’t let this passion die. and now. My passion deep inside. There were times that were good and there were times that he should have stopped waiting. But he never understood all the things that he should.

Taming my insanity. Living this life I can’t let go. They all spoke like I was dead.3. I’ve cut the chains forever. Never cared for what they said. Cut The Chains Forever. . I’ve cut the chains forever. Something’s changing me I know.

Just keep filling in the pages the best that one knows how. The bus driver on Wilton fourteen is long faced and bored. All hurrying because they should. Each motorist in a panic.4. . Watching life as it passes by. What is one to do? With no purpose for the now. Sitting on a park bench watching the town clock. No Purpose. Twenty to two says the town clock.

I blocked out the real me for far too long. What is this place I’ve come to? All the joy. I’ve discovered the illusion is me.5. What Is This Place I’ve Come To? All Alone. Leaving my familiar surroundings to escape the illusion. What is this place I’ve come to? Wanting to let go but never knowing quite how to express myself. Learning to know myself is pain. All by myself. Surrounded by a world of uncertainty. Learning to know myself is pain. the sadness and the hurt I’ve ever known. And now it hurts to rediscover. Before I can love another. What is this place I’ve come to? Finding myself. . All rolled into one. Learning to love myself. Not being able to separate the truth from the lies. these things I must do.

I just stop. And keep whistling away. I don’t even know why I stay in this place. But I stop. I’ve seen dark cold nights and the full winters rage. And who would be there to keep me company. Whistling away.6. . I stop and think of a place I’d like to be. And whistle away. But After a while and to my surprise.

Won't someone Stop me. Just take it from me. Controls my body. The life is draining from my eyes. In my body. Once I’ve departed. But it don’t matter anymore. The blade that comforts me. It’s cold and dark where I am now. No-one can touch me. I can not move so I just lie here. The silence tearing me apart. I’ll leave this place. Just take it from me. A losing battle almost won. I know. .7. I’ll hurt no more. Is old and rusted. Take It From Me. Release the burden that I have and take it from me.

I can see your hearts bleeding.8. And the times that you fear that your all alone. I can see that you need me there’s no doubt about it. I’m coming out of nowhere to save the day just to be with you. Well I don’t need a reason for sending you flowers. Now I’m coming out of nowhere to save the day. I will always be there to keep you safe and warm. I just want to hold you. All the coffee we drank kept us up for hours. Living unhappy is not for you. . Didn’t quite see the feeling surrounding you. Yes I’m coming out of nowhere to save the day. Save the day. Give you a life that you’ve never known. All those things that you told me are coming true.

Because I can’t let go. What’s this place I’ve come to? I'm lost Because I can't let go. I’ve got to break a window so I can breathe. Trapped inside myself.9. And the thing I’ve come to know. I’ve got to make it on my own. I’m feeling really tired and all worn out. . Is that I never hurt anybody else but me. Because I Can’t Let Go. I’ve got no-one else to turn to. Been looking for the answers all my life. Because I can’t let go. But I won't.

I’ve seen what I’ve become. I look to the sun and all I see is me. I’m hypnotized. The lonely one. The Lonely One. . I only wish that I could sail away. Head Shaking from side to side. Sleeping in a bed of lies.10. I think I’m going Crazy.

Lost without stability. The despair I feel consumes me. Scared from not knowing what tomorrow brings. My soul is screaming hoping to be freed. Here again all alone back in a world of uncertainty.11. I’m going crazy from within. Moving from place to place. . Alone Again.

But it’s not to late for you. long time. I will be here to catch you when you fall. Been travelling round for a long. Don’t feel the need for anything. Waterfall Of Life. I see the sunset on rainy days. For everything there is a sacrifice. But I’ll never fly it on my own. You make your choice never thinking twice. Can you feel it? (Do you feel just like me?) Can you believe it? (All the uncertainty?) I’ve got to see it.12. I’ve got nature coming back to me. Enjoy the party Just don’t be a fool. It’s to late for many. But I’m still here and it’s all the same. The pita pata whispers gently to my brain. All the colours turning to gold. . I’m walking on a bed of roses. My world is spinning. Mother nature calls to me.

Seems so wrong and I don’t know how I ever did before. I think of you and I realise I’m lonely. What I’d give for one more chance. Oh I’m in need of a friend. I’ve got this feeling inside. . I see the look in your eyes. To make a mends I reach out my hands. To live my life without you now. But I still see your smile. Looking for someone to meet.13. Every time I close my eyes. Oh I’m in need of a friend. In Need Of A Friend. I want to be with you. I’ve been walking down an empty street.

since the day that you were born. I love you so. Michael. You are the purest form of love I’ll ever know. tears fell from my eyes. The first time that I saw your face. Michael. How I long to hold you in my arms. We’ll do things. Been wishing you a good night sleep. Michael.14. I love you so. You and I. Nothing in this world can change how you make me feel in side. . I love you so. One day we will be together.

15. But now your on the road you chose. What am I to do? What am I to do? . Did it even mean a thing? Or was it just another crazy dream. No-one left to blame. Ice cold hardened heart. All my secrets no-one knows. Thinking of you. Blows those blues away. Will I ever be the same. What am I to do? What am I to do? I just wanted to tell you. Sad skies of grey. That I always loved you baby. Thinking of you. Sad Skies Of Grey.

Acting like a hero. And I’m out here by myself. I feel the sunshine shining over me. I’ve got a cultivated occupation rising through the storm. but I guess that I’ve been told. I’m in a place where you can’t find me. Don’t want nobody else. And I hope it’s here to stay.16. My life’s full of misery and now I’m all alone. I’ve got to find the answer. I feel the rain pouring over me and I hope it goes away. And I’m running from the emptiness to the place where I belong. Guess I should have realized the consequence involved. I’ve got to find my treasure. Going Home. . A young man growing old.

You know just how I feel so baby someday. Will you carry me to the other side. Would you turn your head and back away. My baby. I would give my love to only you. Sweet lady. Got to get a grip cause I’m losing control. I’d like to be your Casanova. Sweet lady. Sweet Lady. I was to kiss you. Would it ever happen anyway. make me feel alive. I feel a gentle breeze every time you sigh. Just maybe. Sweet lady. . Got to see you my baby. Show me what love is. I miss you like crazy. My baby. What if.17. My baby. I would do anything just to feel your touch. Now that the war is over. Sweet lady. Will you carry me to the other side. Make you smile when your feeling blue. I would give anything because it means so much.

I know I still love you. I thought love was a game and I could be number one. One more chance babe is all I want. Summertime is coming. Nothing in this world could ever change what I’ve done. How Can we make up? I can’t stand the break up. With all the pain I feel it can’t possibly end. Oh baby now. Can’t you see I’m trying to make it on my own. Oh sweet baby I know that I was wrong. Oh can’t you see that I’m in need of a friend. Never ever took the time to appreciate you. Summertime is coming. How Can we make up? I can’t stand the break up. Oh sweet darling I can see why you went. Living each day as it comes along.18. But oh my darling . Been doing some thinking for an hour or two. Sorry. love just ain’t no more fun. And now your gone I’ve realized we’re actually through. Yeah I need your loving. But without your loving. Words once were spoken but never again. Yeah I need your loving. There’s no escaping so I might as well not run. Oh baby now. .

To be my own I must run away.19. To Be My Own. When there is no-one else I will call on you. Didn’t matter what I’d do I stone myself just to follow you. Didn’t matter what I’d do The seasons had changed like the people before me. I remember the time when the legions called me. .

It calls to me to end this game. Myself imprisoned what to say. My Prison Cell. . Haunted dreams of years gone by. I ask from you the right to die. Any hope or peace of mind. This blinding darkness that knows no shame. Empty thoughts are here to stay. An empty soul that can not find.20.

But nothings happening. Something’s telling me that nothing matters anymore. I'm tripping out.21. And now I’m falling. Colours changing all around. it's the longest day. The mystery. it comes to me. . Falling. And now I’m falling. but nothings happening. I spread my wings and try to fly.

. So from this moment I cast it away.22. It’s more like disappointment sent to try me. The Hardest Thing. They say breaking up is the hardest thing to do. Love is not my highway. But I don’t feel for you anymore. I’m so tired of being in love. I believe in love no more. So I believe in love no more.

Of all the things I’ve figured out. and that I was leaving you tomorrow. It’s me this knife is cutting.23. How would you feel. And your with someone new. And would it be so bad if I just walked away and didn’t talk at all. . Would you cry if I said goodbye. So now things have changed. I never saw this coming.

Cry. The time of the gathering is drawing near.24. Take your brothers life. when hunger strikes. Cold as a century All the scriptures state that life dictates. when the time is right. love and happiness shall all but disappear. Run. Evil is a hunger built of fear and hate. Feed. . cry all you like. Cold As A Century. Peace.

If you want me you can have me. A part time lover isn’t heaven. With no real effort I seduced you. But don’t talk crazy to my mind. With mixed emotions who’s to say? A new desire but now broken pride. Or you will see my fire die. You say you want me yet you doubt me. There’s no commitment just be happy. Parcel of lies. I don’t exactly know how I feel inside. I feel the burning flames.25. . I gave you a key to my home. But say it feels good all the same. You took the parcel of lies. You thought of me as the antichrist. But it sure beats being alone.

I remember the first time that I saw you smile. my heart for a while. . Now my love is raining. And I thank God that we can still be friends. Never cared for much but I like what I see in you My love is raining. Like all good things there must be an end. You gave back to me. Over you. Raining love.26. But now your gone I feel my hearts been torn in two.

Soul searching.27. Planning my escape. was what I had in mind. The answer to my problems is buried deep inside. while I was doing time. At times I’ve felt so empty. I’m gonna get it right this time. Tried to find a reason. What was this worried soul to do? Looking deep inside. Cause I know this much is true. Sitting in the corner of his lonely dungeon room. Soul Searching. Sifting through the ashes of a life he’d left behind. But now I know the time is right. No more hurting. Not knowing what he’d find. Time to get my life back on line. Soul searching. I’m soul searching through and through. Waiting for his sentence. .

Lets walk through my garden and watch the birds as they fly away. Misguided decisions. You’ve cast your spell and I must break your power. These chains can not be broken. Mess you up and lead your mind astray.28. You must learn to forget yourself. You spoke of hearts broken. What is this? Spread your lies expecting me to know. Since we broke up there’s been no-one else. Just like the serpent master. Never could believe you anyway. Lets focus. I cut my wrists just to free myself. I’m feeling rather horny. Oh women listen to me. . My Garden.

The Faded One. But my body was only dreaming. I have become. The faded one. I looked into the night time sky. From young to old. What will I be when the night is done? What will I be when the morning has come? As I am me. . I tell myself what I can’t deny. And free my mind when my soul is screaming.29.

A slave to my own iniquity.30. I wallow in the sand. I stumble to the ground. Your haunting eyes they see right through me. My nerves must be subdued. Subdued. My mind is blind. Your haunting eyes see right through me. I can feel you all around. .

Man I wish that I could sleep. Funny thoughts within my head. Never new my eyes could weep. Teaching all the boys and girls. Christened baby from the sea. . You never gave a thought for me.31. Supple dew marks window pane. How to make love everyday. Spreading disease but I don’t care. The sound of free love everywhere. Acid. Picking daisies in a field. Speeding bullets lace and led.

Meant for two baby just you and me. I look to the stars. Do you like what you see? My head is aching and it won't go away. To free my mind I’ll try to live again. A table for three. . What once was beautiful could be so untrue. Baby don’t let me stray. I don’t know why I’m running away. The answers clearly. I don’t know why I’m running away. I should have sought. I don’t know where I’m running to.32. Baby don’t let me stray. I don’t know why I’m running away. I cherish the love. Didn’t know what to do. I don’t know why I’m running away. But now it’s over I don’t need you baby. I never thought. I don’t know why I’m running away. Running Away. Baby don’t let me stray. I don’t know where I’m running to. I don’t know why I’m running away. I don’t know where I’m running to.

Something’s bugging me. My minds too numb to breathe.33. But as for now. What lies ahead I can’t be sure. My eyes too blind to see. I hope one day I’ll see just what I’m meant to be. I’m watching shadows dropping off the face of the earth. I’m slipping into the unknown. When does the sadness go away? It holds me down in misery. What’s been going on round here? Wish they’d all just disappear. I’m riding on the edge of the earth. Dropping Off The Face Of The Earth. . Someone’s hurting me. I’m hoping that I fall off the face of the earth.

Addictions. I wipe the blood sweat from my brow. As I sit here.34. When the game is up And you need the stuff. Can’t do without and when your time is up. Addictions. All my brain can do is worry me. Addictions you can’t get enough. Addictions. I just need a cure to set me free. Can’t do without and when your time is up. . illusions surround me. My world crumbles in around me. Addictions you can’t get enough. And I can not see quite how. When the game is up And you need the stuff. As I adhere. They rule my life.

They’re calling. So scared. I’ve lost my way and I’m freaking out I’m falling. Scared. I’ve lost my mind. Don’t know who I am or where I’m heading. . So scared. And I can’t see how. Got to find some joy. can’t you see that I am Scared. The nightmare is cold and I hate when I’m dreaming.35. The night has been too long and I’m stuck in this nightmare. Creature of the night. The dream has been destroyed because of what people are saying. can’t you see that I am Scared. Got to find the truth no matter what I’m doing. some consolation. The night has been too long and I don’t feel like sleeping. The night has been too long and I’m stuck in this nightmare. Creature of the night.

The sun’s on it’s way.36. On the drawing of a new day. Meditate on the drawing of a new day. The Drawing Of A New Day. And the temperature is rising. . I will meditate. Spirits start to fly. It’s a brand new morning.

Fixing all that try to bring us down. Fix the woman who holds us down. Attack the one that. Down with you! . Got no warning. Wake the morning. A violent thought is all I’m thinking. Let it on down. Take the wave home. Yeah. Attack the one that. Fill it up with. Got the sun in my eyes. Wishing we could fly like the birds.37. Wishing we could fly like the birds. Let it on down. A violent thought is all I’m thinking. Down With You. All that you want from me. Flees the burden. Flees the burden.

Velvet Top. Got a light inside my head. Silent scream. I’ve heard the lot. Wishing we could all be dead. I’m breaking bit by bit. It’s time to rot. Velvet Top.38. . Lay with you. Velvet Top. Been listening for the call. I’m breaking bit by bit. Shed my skin. I’m feeling kind of sick. I’m sick of all this shit. I’ve heard it all before. Lay with you.

. Now all my friends are gone. My friend. You thought I was your friend. I might as well be dead. There’s no beginning but there will be an end.39. Words once were spoken but never again. But you turned away. I didn’t really care. Nothing to me. Cause you mean nothing to me. You thought you loved me. Cause you mean nothing to me my friend. I didn’t want to know. But what a bad mistake.

No I’m not running away. Dancing with fairies takes my mind astray. I’m taking a trip down memory lane. This life is bugging me! This life is bugging me. This life is bugging me! This life is bugging me. I’m tired of running away. I feel the ecstasy. Walking down the street with the wind in my hair. Been talking to Mary but its all the same. This life is bugging me . I feel the ecstasy. This life is bugging me. This life is bugging me . This Life. This life is bugging me . Same old thing everyday but I don’t care. This is what’s left of me and I’d like to say. This is what’s left of me and I’d like to say. Been taking a trip down memory lane. I think I’ll just play the game. Been taking a trip down memory lane. . I’m taking a trip down memory lane. And now I just play the game.40.

I’ll do nothing without you. Through everything you still hold me. But I have grown. I’ll do nothing. I’ll do nothing . You never judged me for the things that I have done in my life. I only ask you forgive me. . No-one told me what this life was all about. I’ll do nothing . I’ve tried so hard to find the man inside of me.41. I’ll do nothing . Without You. Every year that passes by might hide the shame that I have known. But I figured it out the hard way. I’ll do nothing without you. I’ll do nothing.

Haven’t you got anybody you can call? Well you don’t need a reason.42. . If you stop breathing. Haven’t you got anybody you can call? Caught up in the crossfire. You may never get the chance. This wound is getting old. Who To Call. Somebody help me. I really don’t know why Your sitting there alone. There’s no need to be this way. To not be lonely. You don’t want to be lonely. I’m so lonely.

Silence. Tell me what is the deal. So if either is real.43. And to whom will you be a slave? . They say unless you confess and repent of your sins your soul shall be doomed for the grave. And all I could hear was silence. I’ve tried calling out to your so called almighty. But all I could hear was silence. I’ve tried tapping in to the depths of hell.

44. . I’ve got to kill the force that’s driving me to a point where I’m insane. I’ve got to escape from the pain. The force that once was driving me. Has now made me insane. Voices Within. I’ve got demons feasting well in me. I’ve got voices within my brain. I’ve got to escape from these padded walls.

I tried everything I could. . Love let me be. When will this journey end. Set Me Free. And here I go again. Were you not happy. And I’m still paying. Don’t know what happened. I took a journey. My heart is Broken. My head is heavy. Drink from the bottle. And here I go again. To drown my sorrows.45. The Pain is still inside my head. You stole from me my heart. It’s never easy.

) .) Never new how it came to this. (Nothing more to say.46.) Not happy with me. (There’s nothing more to say. (Nothing more to say. A brand new day. It all remains the same. Nothing More To Say. (There’s nothing more to say. But I guess. I’ve got no one else to blame.) Every time I see Your face. I feel happiness again.

My blood. My flesh. Starting to shake. Boils with uncertainty. Stirring from within. . Each day I withdraw deeper inside myself. Depression. Not able to cope with reality or the pain. Frustration screams my name. My pulse can be heard through the deafness of the walls.47. My heart is anxious. But I know it’ll never change. My soul. I have become a pawn in a demonic game. The emptiness I feel consumes me. Wanting to believe in humanity.

I know you feel like your all alone. Trapped in a reoccurring dream. But one thing I know is true. Hurting throughout the sands of time. Crying out for love. Like a gift that’s never made. . Abandoned and disillusioned.48. Not finding what you crave. The Real You. Afraid of what’s to come. What has one become. Because I see the real you. I’m here for you forever more . Copyright© The Ramblings Of A Madman By James Bloomfield 2008.

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