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Journey of the Renegade Healer
How to Leave the System and Discover True Healing
By Dr Jon www.jonmoreshead.com
Introduction For many, probably most, of us, the search for why we are on this planet at this time occupies most if not all of our subconscious mind and a large part of our conscious mind (if we would but admit it). Or maybe our subconscious knows all along what the reason for our being here is and is playing a game of not telling. Regardless, the search is real. For each of us, when we discover the “why” of us, what we call success is right around the corner. It then becomes a matter of taking the action required to fulfill the why. This is the story of my own discovery of the “why” of me. It has been a tough road, made so by the fact that I think too much and worry too much and don't believe that the strange and wonderful things that come to me and to my mind could really be real. But they are. And when I let go and step into the flow amazing things happen. Let this be an encouragement for you to get out of your head, let go the fear and the “I can't” and get into the risky white water of what your life is meant to be. Blessings, Dr Jon – The Renegade Doc St Charles, MO August, 2009
Chapter 1 Starting Point Getting the Training Questions Arise Beginning Private Practice 5 .
making compounds in the lab that had never been made before. and as the days and months and years went on I also became totally depressed. high schooled in Florida. Medicine was supposed to be fun like the Master's program was: learning new things. sitting in a classroom full of over a hundred youngsters just out of college (I had 4-6 years and life experience on most of them). Medical School. Instead. HELPING PEOPLE get well. but was just to be rehashed and memorized. working with a man who was a Pure Scientist – didn't care about the politics or parties.It was late summer of 1976 and the goal of becoming a physician was coming into focus. using new technologies. being important. just wanted to do science. Jon A. had just finished a Master's Degree in Chemistry. Medical school was beginning. to my way of thinking. more ready to tackle the biological courses that comprise medical school. all of them smarter. 6 . thinking new thoughts. and a wonderful time it was! Teaching undergraduates in discussion groups. August of 1976. Moreshead. Most of the science was old stuff which I wasn't really interested in. none of it allowed room to think. What a life! Now here I am. more up to date. I was horrified. The country boy born in the woods of Maine. it was all boring as heck. I.
about 10 days of going further and further "off road" and out of the hospital system to bring care to people in their huts where they REALLY needed it! Now that was real medicine. Now this was real! These were people who really needed help. That was what the stories as a kid were all about. Or maybe I just wasn't clicking with this medicine stuff? Right at the end of medical school though. This was using your brain. most of my time during the clinical years was spent doing scut work like drawing blood and starting IVs.Instead of helping people. That was where life took on some meaning. things turned around. seeing new things. 7 . But wait a minute. my wife and I were able to spend in Ecuador working in a missionary hospital. April and May of 1980. Wow! Then there was the trip into the jungle. who came at great sacrifice and for long distances to get help. The very end of my senior year of medical school.
And then there was the MD with whom I was traveling! He was a cardiologist who had left a large practice in the Midwest. He had some eye-opening ideas about how expensive the American style of medicine was. the American cultural missionary model didn't resonate 8 . in a dirt-floored hut in the Amazon jungle. to spend time in the jungle to see how medicine was practiced in third world countries because he was modeling an inner city clinic after that style of medicine. He was right. dripping into that young man's arm. and the directive to get people to more "upscale" medical care if they didn't improve. about how the people in the third world couldn't afford it. USA. no hospital. just some basic first aid care to help people in the jungle get over the "simple" acute illnesses they all suffered from. He was evaluating and admitting that no one was coming out of the medical paradigm long enough to think about or ask what the people really needed. She probably didn't even have the equivalent of a sixth grade education. what would best serve the people. with no white coats around. but were just imposing their brand of medicine wherever they could.That was an IV bottle hanging there. After the days in the jungle. no monitoring device! The person who started it didn't even have an RN degree.
medical emergencies. it was over. connecting to some dear and needy people. So. The next step was to do a Family Practice Residency. caring for all kinds of people and all kinds of problems like colds. getting to know inner city people of varying ethnic groups. throw a dart. This became a time of LONNNNGG… hours in the hospital. even the delivering of babies. chronic illnesses. full of fatigue and learning. For me. heart disease. surgical emergencies. 9 . I returned to the states and graduation from medical school and on into the career. no place that I could call home. after three years.any longer. This also included having my own patients to follow in the clinic. contributing member? I had no roots. flu. Where would I go? What community could I join in which to become a productive. it didn't fit where those people or even that country was. Maybe I should open the map. Guess I better just go home and try to fit in. hoping that this would turn into a lifetime of satisfaction. it was a good fit. Now it was time to find a spot in the other real world of private practice. The medical missionary vision died in my heart. liver disease. Then.
caring. There were two former medical missionaries in the Shenandoah Valley of Virginia looking for someone to help. but just doing a good job taking care of people.Wait! A close friend had a suggestion. Let's go! 10 . Perfect. concerned about keeping costs to patients down. Low key. not worried about making big bucks or making a big reputation.
Chapter 2 Big Questions Personal Problems The World Turns Upside Down Renegade Thinking Takes Root 11 .
Were they really helping anyone? If so. taking calls in the middle of the night or on weekends or anytime.It was now early 1984 and it didn't matter who was President or what was going on “out there”. then going back to the emergency room to see someone and admit them to the hospital with serious problems that should have had some attention years ago but was only now getting it. sitting in on occasional staff meetings back at the hospital. over and over again? How come the kids were still having the earaches and sore throats every change of season? How come folk were still getting so depressed. how come people kept coming back with the same problems. struggling with infertility? How come people were still having unexplained fatigue and skin rashes? How come the folk who were reading all the best information about the latest breakthroughs in medicine (Good Housekeeping and Ladies Home Journal magazines) were still having their heart disease and cancers and arthritis and chronic fatigue? 12 . And. seeing office patients. My world was a whirlwind of making hospital rounds. having menstrual problems. all those wonderful drugs that I spent so long learning to dispense.
not 6-month-olds. holding his head to one side and why was his left eye shutting all the time and why was the left side of his head so flat? Now the other questions could wait. but even killing some? What was going on here? How come people weren't really being helped? Then the questions got really personal. my firstborn. This was my son. The orthopedist only dealt with kids when they were old enough to swing a bat or catch a football. He told us to go to the Pediatric Orthopedist clinic at the University over the mountain. 13 . we're talking about! This wasn't someone in the jungle. We asked the pediatrician what was wrong with Philip – he didn't know. as dear as they are. named after my deceased Mother whom I never really got to know.” Why was our 6 month old son. Philip. not just “medical. Told us to go see the orthopedist since it had to do with the skull bone. This wasn't a local patient whom I cared for but only saw once every few weeks or less. This was my heart being ripped out.How come the vaccines weren't helping. for whom we had struggled so long to conceive. This was my flesh and blood.
which required another trip back across the mountain and having to put him to sleep as well. BIG PROBLEM.The Pediatric Orthopedist did a good examination. a Geneticist. Specialists. at least. I was one of those only a few short years ago) all trooped through. take some bone of the round side and put it on the flat side so he will look OK. Neurosurgeon. And they all had the same answer: “We don't know what the problem is. and took an X-ray of the skull. BIG QUESTION. What the #%&*$ are you doing? 14 . This time. NO ANSWER. Doctors. WRONG ANSWER. Their workup included a CAT scan of the skull. and Plastic surgeon with their entourage of resident doctors and student wannabe doctors (careful. So we made another trip over the mountain.” But the solution was even worse: Cut the muscle in his neck so it will straighten up and a few years later we will open his skull. still with no real answers. He thought Philip had a problem with the suture lines of the skull and needed the doctors who ran the “funny face” clinic to look at him. asked the same questions.
no anesthesia with its inherent danger. let me show you what the problem is. Forget all the training. This was worth a shot. whatever that was. experience and technology can do no better than that? This can't be! “No way. All your brains. confused. research. We walked in the door of a small. 15 . unassuming house turned into an office with our small infant son in his arms and from across the room this older. Family Physician. Just simple. At least it wasn't some aggressive surgery for no good reason. tested. Jose”. I. knowing man said: “Here.” Are you kidding me? That simple? He then opened his book on Cranial therapy. By “happenstance” I learned of an Osteopath in our little town back in the Valley who was trained to do CranioSacral therapy. the reeling father. Something is “Rotten in Denmark” here. pointed to a model of the human skull and proceeded to explain both the anatomy and the therapy. all the theory. know-nothing doctor needed some answers. scared. gentle. straightforward. No fancy X-rays or CAT scans.I was ticked off.
I was having even more questions. After getting past that whole idea the more specific questions arose. He sat at Philip's head and just barely touched it with his fingertips while his wife gently held Philip's pelvic bones steady.anatomical answers. that was another matter. in the big picture. Will you teach me? But more than specific questions about Philip's treatment. that being a doctor meant doing something – a drug or a procedure or something! This sitting and doing nothing was a little much. I thought. because I had been trained. the die was cast. But the therapy. by George it was working! WHAT WAS he doing? And then. over time.than I had learned in medical school. Occasionally he would place one finger in Philip's mouth with some pressure up against the palate. watching this. What was he doing? Would it work? And. From across the room. Different answers and different physiology. 16 . the excitement kicked in.
during the few hours away from the practice. sacraments and all the other trappings of any good religion. I prepared the raised beds. back at home. I had revitalized an interest in organic gardening. a family friend sent me a book titled Confessions of a Medical Heretic by Robert Mendelsohn. All the problems talked about in that literature. were the same problems I was seeing in the “soil” of patients' bodies in the practice. tow other “paradigm shifters” were coming into my consciousness. and to make matters worse. and read the literature to find out how to do it better. attention.. priests.. the lack of nutrients. energy and loyalty was becoming a house of cards and it was crashing down! Meanwhile. the toxins and the chemical fertilizers that were not giving the plants what they really needed and were killing the soil at the same time. In a few short chapters this book explained how the medical system is actually a religion..This training.. this system to which I had given so much of my time. Then a funny thing happened. 17 . Hmmm. I wonder. added the mulch. First. Could there be a connection? Next. complete with temples. MD.
but more than that it disturbed me that this false religion had been so subtle in occupying my time. No. Needless to say. the Emperor's new clothes had been found out for what they really were – inadequate at best. misleading and totally insufficient. the All-Knowing. the Final Solution. It didn't fit with my own religious beliefs. The old mindset was fundamentally changed. attention and loyalty. the Complete Answer. No longer was Medicine the God. for sure. natural approach that might actually help people find answers to their physical problems? The quest was on. awareness of the inadequacy of food production. intelligent. unknowingly. The Renegade Doctor was born and I was that Renegade! 18 . What to do?? How could I begin to discover how to turn my training and experience as a physician into a meaningful. the combination of a personal medical problem with Philip. at the altar of the Medicine God. and the understanding that there was a problem here of spiritual and gigantic proportions totally flipped my world upside down and inside out.All of a sudden I understood why I had been so uneasy for the last several years while worshiping.
what challenges and disappointments. 19 . in my naivete.Little did I know. what victories and what struggles lay ahead.
Chapter 3 First Steps Keeping it Familiar Diet Nutrition 20 .
As a doctor I was totally unsatisfied . First I began to look at the food/nutrient link. It was now about 1985. and mental laziness of fellow physicians. It took only a couple of years of practicing the paradigm of medicine I had been taught but thinking while seeing patients. But on the inside I was starting to look for different ways to do things. of dealing with Philip's head problem. of reading and applying the principles of organic gardening and of understanding the religious aspect of medicine to totally change my paradigm. seeing patients daily. As a parent of a child with a medical problem. On the outside I was still the Family Practitioner. particularly change on a grand scale. my approach. 21 . I was even more appalled and disgusted at the stupidity and lack of compassion with which the system functioned. So it was with me. the outward expression of what is being thought comes in small steps. thinking differently about things. even though it had some amazing technology. doing the hospital rounds. frustrated and disenchanted with the amount of healing the current medical approach actually offered patients. and passing out drugs.” arrogance. to say nothing of how appalled I was of the “club mentality.As with most change.
I read three issues of Prevention and in that three months I received. I discovered that illness is actually the expression of Dis-ease.” Apparently I was ready. Still haven't read it all 25 years later! First I began to understand that Illness. had given to me or somehow acquired more information than I could possibly read. The Renegade mindset just got stronger! More than that. Both of these concepts had been well enforced in my head in medical school and both are actually wrong. Later I also understood that illness is not a genetic anomaly that is preset and about which we can do nothing. You have heard the saying. a movement away from the ease of balance of spirit. found. mind and body. “When the student is ready the teacher will appear. isn't something that comes from the outside and just happens to land on us.Where could I go to find out more? I paid for a subscription to Prevention magazine since in my meager knowledge they were supposed to be the leading authority on nutrition and the application of nutrition to disease. 22 . as we diagnose and label it.
For example. 23 . A HUGE multitude of books have been written and are continuously updated on this subject. The easiest thing to start with. there is now the encyclopedic Prescription for Nutritional Healing. not knowing where to go or what to do. Energy levels improved. So I entered that door. My mind could wrap itself around that concept. I discovered that the possibilities here are endless. a compendium of options of ways to treat various illnesses (and should be in the library of every serious 'natural health' person). So I began to look for and then use in my practice nutrient solutions to diagnosed illnesses.When looking at illness from this standpoint it opens a door to a much broader approach to finding balance and a much deeper level of and longer lasting healing instead of just treating symptoms. Some interesting results came with this approach. was to treat with nutrients. High blood pressure came into normal range for some even with the “no good” generic vitamins. since it was the closest thing to treating with drugs.
I started looking at allergy by itself as a problem and I joined and received training from the American Academy of Environmental Physicians. yet how difficult to diagnose and treat. and others. Regardless. and how devastating this can be. more specialized vitamins. I became the local “expert” in people's minds. From here I became aware of the issues surrounding heavy metal toxicity due to metals such as mercury. avoidance of allergens and a special 24 . approaches to treatment including nutrients. for example. but it was really their mind. the overgrowth of Candida that occurs when the immune system and colon bacteria is out of balance. In the middle of all this I was made aware of the concept of Candidiasis. who got themselves better. if unconventional. it became obvious that giving the body the nutrients it needed instead of trying to manipulate the body with foreign chemicals was an effective approach. Because Candida and metal toxicity had allergic components.For others. there seemed to be no results until they paid bigger amounts for the fancier. This is a group of physicians dedicated to looking more intensely at these issues and to using effective. deciding to limit sugar intake and improve their diets and their thinking.
when I was obviously going in a different direction than my practice colleagues I did them a favor and left the group office practice altogether. We milked cows and goats and learned to make butter and cheese. 25 . trying to get an old weedy patch fruitful again. the food connection to health became even stronger in my mind. Nonetheless. hopefully to be left alone to treat patients without making a lot of waves in the larger community. setting up my own small office in an out of the way place. Jonathan Wright and Alan Gaby who were on the cutting edge of nutrient treatment research. I moved my family to a friend's organic farm and we began to raise our own beef. We worked at the garden but had some issues with the soil.technique of diagnosing with and treating with injections of the allergy producing substances. so did the connection with and the interest in food. As the Renegade mind began to mature. I also left the hospital practice. chicken. I reduced my time in the private practice to part time so I could spend time studying the work of people like Jeffrey Bland. Later. its production and its effect on health. Instead. turkeys and even sheep. During this rather steep learning curve it became obvious that I needed to go back to school but there was no school to attend.
As I saw people come for the food available from this farm I also saw their health improve as did their mindset about their health. 26 .
Chapter 4 Horizons Broaden Quantum Physics Homeopathy Energy 27 .
septic shock and snakebite to name a few. 28 . though the insurance companies.Move forward now to about 1988 and the Renegade Doctor Journey is tooling along at near breakneck speed. Frederick Klenner and had been giving Vitamin C intravenously. Besides vitamin C.) I was effectively using an injectable “cocktail” of nutrients for general fatigue and to give the metabolism a boost. but had the thought to give Magnesium intravenously for acute heart attack while in the emergency room. undirected. and fellow physicians. at the least. (Health care reform should be looking at nutrient therapies. only to discover later that it was MUCH more effective and pennies on the dollar cheaper than conventional drug therapy. didn't appreciate it. I was sending patients with structural problems to chiropractors and seeing amazing results. This is an AMAZING tool and should be the treatment of choice in doctor offices and emergency rooms for viral illnesses. I didn't dare to do it. instead of government control of dollars. By this time I had read the work of Dr. I tried but didn't like the use of hydrogen peroxide in the veins for viral problems. uncontrolled (except by Loving Father) and with no goal in sight other than to continue to find ways to help people.
capable of living on their own. The dairy farmer with pesticide poisoning who couldn't walk any more couldn't get well on what I knew. The neighbor who had Lou Gehrig's disease wasn't going to get better with just vitamin C and B complex and oral mineral doses. They are also smart. People with serious problems were showing up in my office and I was feeling more and more unprepared and untrained. There had to be more. the possibilities kept getting more plentiful.People were getting well but that was causing my “reputation” to grow which in turn attracted more patients who were much more ill and were receiving less help from the system. I began to learn about herbs and how potent they are. The limited therapies I had available for cancer still weren't enough. Being a complete plant. they have built into them the substances to keep them in balance. For example. 29 . So I kept looking – and kept finding – and the horizon kept getting broader and broader. the herb that could control hyperglycemia (high blood sugar) was also effective for hypoglycemia (low blood sugar).
Herbs had an intuitively good feeling about them. economic. The success stories from my patients referred to him though were outstanding. One lady had her carotid artery blockage melted away and stopped having mini-strokes. Another elderly woman was able to save her little toe and probably her lower leg which meant she could continue to live independently as well. 30 . perhaps because they really are a form of food and a form of nutrients. I also began to learn about Homeopathy. chemical way of thinking. Chelation therapy was added to my list of tools. Perhaps it was because the Creator told us early on that herbs would be our medicine and using them was another means of coming into balance with the bigger picture of life. This is not so simple to explain because it is so antithetical to our Western. I discovered that by limiting costs and bringing real health. a wedding of the main approaches I had used to date. relational and just plain “everyday living” effects on people's lives – for their benefit! They didn't have to lose their life savings and be put away in some home away from family and friends. I didn't do it myself because another doctor across town was doing it and having amazing results with cardiac disease of all types and I didn't want to compete. these “alternative” choices had not just physical effects but profound social.
have understood the body to be. like dialing a channel on the radio until the signal is crisp and clear. the body may see a healing effect or an increase in a metabolic effect. Symptoms of Dis-ease are like the receiver and the homeopathic remedy is like the transmitter.Homeopathy speaks to the principle of resonance.” It the energy is decreased. Our Western minds. 31 . the body will slow down in some way. for millennia. As I explored this arena of energy I discovered the concept of acupuncture. again. cannot really grasp this concept. perhaps becoming less sensitive to pain. The Orientals. Placing a perturbing energy in one of these circuits will effect a change in that circuit.” If not it can be “bad. There are MANY texts on this subject and homeopaths spend their entire lives learning the ins and outs of this approach. If it is increased. If the desired effect is obtained this is “good. When the two are in tune the body “hears” the information it needs and raises its inherent energy thereby becoming able to fight off the symptoms. either increasing or decreasing its energy and activity. When the correct remedy is found the results are often nearly instantaneous and can appear miraculous. That often brings out a new set of symptoms that requires a different remedy to be “on frequency” and hence the body continues to increase its energy and its level of health. among other things. a complex system of energy circuits running in various channels along the length of the body.
Unfortunately they think that is all it is about. This is what I was looking for! This was also down my alley as the research chemist who before going into medicine was going to become a professor of quantum chemistry. Acupuncture is a nearly complete healing system within itself. now instead of treating with chemicals. As Einstein discovered. it turns out that Homeopathy deals not with matter but with energy. When giving a remedy one is giving packets of energy. we can treat at the much higher level of “subtle” energy because it will affect the matter level but will maintain a much more consistent degree of efficacy. When viewed from a Quantum Mechanics viewpoint. From a practical level. It is not.This idea of controlling pain has captured the fancy of the Western medical world and they will accept the use of acupuncture for pain control. 32 . E=mc2 simply yet profoundly means that matter and energy are the same thing except that matter needs to be “boosted” by a lot of “vibrational energy” to become pure energy. including nutrients and diet. All this talk and learning about energetic modalities opened the door to the concept of Quantum Physics/Chemistry applied to biological systems.
A very sharp German doctor. Voll. This is even more brilliant. 33 . wed the two concepts and developed a technology first called ElectroAcupuncture according to Voll or EAV. The neat part is that besides being used to diagnosis. the technology can be turned around backwards – transmit energy instead of just read it – and used as treatment.Likewise. moving. acupuncture is manipulating. attached to the electronic probe device and the entire process can be done fairly quickly and effectively. This is often now called electrodermal screening. and directing energy and not matter. Voll spent years doing the tedious work of testing but today the information can be digitalized. The concept is to use an electrical probe to read energy in acupuncture points as a means of determining the condition of the various areas and organs of the body connected to that acupuncture point Once determined. the energy can be tested for resonance with the homeopathic remedy which will amplify it to the appropriate level to bring health and normalcy back to that circuit. Dr. Dr. This combination was absolutely brilliant. which in turn will cause an expression at the level of matter. loaded onto a computer.
are related to matter and will manifest at the material level. light is just frequency. most of which are very similar. Each of these. because they are energy frequencies. and there is even energy inherent in geometric patterns. Other kinds of energy exist including sound. for example. Applying the right frequency or a harmonic in the light spectrum of the right frequency will produce an effect at the material level. Therefore the right sound frequencies can be used as medicine. One well known and accepted example is the need for sunlight in people who suffer from Seasonal Affective Disorder.This is becoming a more widely used technology today with a variety of devices. This can be and is used to treat disease. Just providing the appropriate light frequencies alters brain chemistry and hence mood. light and magnetism (the modern MRI uses magnetic energy but not “subtly”). The neat thing about energy is that it doesn't stop with just homeopathy and acupuncture. The difference will likely be in the training and the mindset of the practitioner in terms of how “renegade” he/she wants to be in using the technology. Similarly. Each element has its own unique frequency so you can get Calcium simply by “piping” the frequency of Calcium into your body. Imagine using light energy for arthritis or even cancer or any other Dis-ease! 34 .
I could send you to other doctors doing some of these really neat things and watch exciting things happen for you. 35 .Now the Renegade Doctor is having some fun. I'm back to exploring new ideas. pushing new boundaries. researching new modalities. all with the purpose of seeing people get well gently and effectively. On the practical level. even though I didn't have all the “toys” and technology myself (and still don't).
Chapter 5 A Brick Wall Stop Signs Happen So do Restarts Massage and Beyond 36 .
My use of natural remedies. We had to change that. I have been in my own part-time practice for about a year. I was taking vital signs and doctoring and doing IVs. That really didn't work. was answering the phone and helping patients with insurance forms. that was the way it was supposed to be. however. For many it was worth their whole life but they weren't going to and couldn't pay me that much. The reason for that was that I wasn't charging for my services. My wife. Just the idea of having control of what you pay someone for a service was apparently too Renegade for most. though.Come forward to 1990. a nurse. Neither of us was collecting much money. because people couldn't think that way. because I was spending a LOT of time with them and they were not choosing to pay the higher rates. it's not part of our culture. 37 . “take charge of your own life” approach to medicine was something that a lot of people wanted but was not something they were used to or comfortable with. On days she wasn't there I was answering the phone as well. either. Eventually I posted a list of suggested fees based on time spent and let people choose what they thought was fair. When people asked how much they owed me I would tell them: "What is it worth to you?" For me.
in spite of my best efforts to keep low key.I spent a lot of time going over the therapy and also teaching a whole different way of thinking and eating and caring for themselves. All too often they came to me having heard about me from a friend or neighbor when all their other options had run out. there is no question that I was very inefficient in all that. financial and emotional rope they would end up in my little office and have nothing left. Finally. doesn't it? I also discovered that the "alternative" or Renegade approach was a last resort for people. Meanwhile. I never did figure out how to make a real living doing this kind of medicine. though. I was being a good caretaker and a bad businessman. 38 . At the time. it seemed right to get them on their road to health as quickly as possible. Often seems to be the case. then even to the university. been sent to one or more specialists. Looking back. All too often they had seen their family doctor. my "infamy" spread. at the end of their physical. I could have had classes in the various communities or could have chopped the hour or more I spent with them individually into multiple visits. all without receiving any help.
Eventually the State Board. how arrogance has a way of ignoring new truth? One day I got a call from a friend who had heard that the State Medical Board was coming after me. (They would really approve anything I wanted to do??? . I think the not charging for services really ticked them off! They would let me continue to practice. had me come talk to them and they slapped my wrist for being the Renegade. my wife was pregnant (we had a hard time conceiving and had already lost one) and we weren't willing to risk losing the baby (he is now 19!). Amazing. They had no clue. isn't it. I was perceived as a "specialist" of sorts but carried the label of Family Physician so my colleagues didn't seem to get that I wasn't trying to take patients away from them. By this time the money situation was critical. I was realizing that I was isolated professionally with no support. nor did they attempt to learn. nearly two years later.I was seeing patients from other doctors' practices. right!) 39 . what I was doing and just assumed it was all bunk and unscientific.yeah. and I was really needing either to get out or go and get more formal training. I got out. even do the alternative approach – they said – if they first approved everything.
MO. but not talking about alternative medicine. was over. I consider that my Red Badge of Courage. You can take the Renegade Doc out of medicine. Put my name into Google and their action comes up on a Virginia government page. However. cut firewood. Go be normal again. to paraphrase a quote about country boys. All the time I kept thinking and reading. but you can’t take medicine out of the Renegade Doc. I thought.They also required that I go and get a bunch of hours of continuing education (conventional approach) which I had neither the interest or funds to do. Louis. Stayed on the farm. like the other doctors out there. I went “underground”. being told what I could and couldn't do. Nor was I going to be their little puppet. eventually moved to St. just to be listed on the same page with another doctor named Vincent Speckhart who is a champion of the EAV technology and of alternative medicine! The journey. STOP sign. . 40 . built pole barns.
This was more than enlightening. Soon we were looking for a massage school to attend. Louis area. I was standing in front of a white picket fence with a long. winding trail through the meadows and hills behind me. The first night. Some years went by during which I found myself being the property manager of 10 acres of church property and buildings and with my wife the hosts of folk who would come and use the facility. as we sat in the class to begin doing hands-on body work. one of whom taught me about Bach Flower Remedies (a special subset of Homeopathy) and taught me how to use muscle testing to diagnose and treat illness. 41 . It began to improve my shoulder problem but it also struck a cord somewhere down deep. Somewhere in there I began to have some shoulder problems and. I had been using a pendulum but the muscle testing was easier and faster. so in 2002 we went to a massage therapist. The gate in the fence was opening and I was about to enter my “home” for which I had been journeying for so long. I had this picture and wept as I shared it.I met and spent some time with alternative practitioners in the St. being convinced to treat myself alternatively even if I couldn't treat others that way.
was “heaven” for me. if they would. To help them catch the vision and to watch them begin to experience how powerful massage can be was a privilege and a blessing beyond belief. “loved on” and touched for an hour or more was more satisfying and more healing than I could imagine. really) could bring more life to people than the drugs or even the vitamins ever could. nurturing people who were also on their own journeys. awesome. Offering a “womb” environment for people where they could come and shed. too.Massage actually was just the front yard of the Renegade's journey home. in itself. 42 . I was asked to teach anatomy and physiology in the school from which I had graduated and this. their grief and their pain and be pampered. No. their fears. The Journey wasn't over. actually it was what I had been imaging all these years before. The massage students were caring. seeking health for themselves and others. But after a while I still wasn't satisfied. I discovered that my hands (my presence. their clothes. It is.
but the Renegade in all of us is calling us back. for what is in reality existing at the higher levels of spirit and emotion. more that is accessible.” your “purpose. desiring of living at a level that transcends the physical. the signal. controlled by chemistry and physics. I – are first and foremost spirit. We – you. The body is not to be placated with a Band-Aid when it is ill so that you can go about your business. Most of us come to the planet and quickly lose that knowledge and desire. We are not just bodies. The body is the book that needs to be read so you can figure out where in your deeper self the dis-ease is so that you can truly discover and then truly fulfill your “business. in actuality.The Renegade doctor was now the Renegade massage therapist….” Everything that you see in your body has already been expressed or is already unbalanced in your deeper self. The body is the signpost. capable of and. The trick is to read the language which your body speaks. The body is not the end but only the mirror. …but my time in the massage world and doing body work taught me that there is even more that lies beyond. 43 .
get honest with myself. to listen deeply. get real. get open.Learning to read that language of the heart. learning to uncover. to live in spirit. that is the real journey this Renegade is on! Namaste! 44 .
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