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One Man ’s Exploration of Psychedelics
By Stewart Allen Mosher
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Contents Dedication To Warning!!! Introduction: Flash Backs. Haiti: Operation Secure Tomorrow 2004 Preface Chapter 1: My introduction to Salvia Divinorum How should Salvia be used? What are you seeking to gain from using Salvia? Chapter 2: Sequence of Event that Prepared Me for Entheogens Chapter 3: The Introverted Experiences - Salvia Divinorum - The 1st Entheogen 1st Time/Salvia 10x/ “Welcome” 2nd Time/Salvia 15x/water pipe/ “Disrupting the Flow” 3rd Time/Salvia 20x/ “Pushing Me towards Her” 4th Time/Salvia 30x/ “Sticking Together” 5th Time/Salvia 30x/ “Putting Me to Sleep” 6th Time/Salvia 5x, 15x/ “Seeing as One” 7th Time/Salvia 5x, 10x and 15x/ “Future Journey” 8th Time/Salvia 10x/ “Having Fun” 9th Time/Salvia Tincture, two separate hits of 5x/ “Waiting to Be Born” 10th Time/Salvia 5x, 20x/ “I Will Meet Them” 11th Time/Salvia 20x/ “I Will Walk” 12th Time/Salvia 20x/ “Dashiki” 13th Time/Salvia 20x/ “Soul Retrieval” 14th Time/Salvia 20x/ “Puffs of Dimensions” 15th Time/Salvia 20x/ “The Golden Party” Friends 1st Time/Salvia 30x/ “Mysterious Lady” 16th Time/ Salvia 10x/ “Double Vision”
Chapter 4: The Extroverted Experiences 17th and 18th Time/Salvia 30x/ “Confusion”—“Finding My Center” 19th Time/Salvia 30x/ “Going Beyond” 20th Time/Salvia 40x/ “Infinity” Bo’s 1st Time with Salvia 21st Time/Salvia 40x/ “Tree” 22nd-23rd-24th Time/Salvia 40x/ “DNA Within” 25th Time with visuals and 26th Time with body possession/Salvia 40x-30x/ “Mr. and Ms. Salvia” 2
27th Time/Salvia 60x/ “The Source of Consciousness” 28th Time/Salvia 60x/ “Access Denied From the Fourth Dimension” 29th-30th Time/Salvia 80x/ “Trying to See My True Self” – “Still Trying to See My True Self” 31st Time/Salvia 10x/ “Indians That Tried To Help Me in an OBE” 32nd Time/Salvia 10x/ “Shattered Image” 33rd Time/Salvia 10x-40x/ “Nothing Happened” – “Las Vegas Friends First Time” 34th Time/Salvia 10x-40x/ “It’s Ok” 35th Time/Salvia Purple Sticky 10x(two times)/20x of Dragon Salvia/ “Face to Face and Beyond” 36th Time/Salvia 30x/ “Too Late to Say Goodbye” 37th Time/Regular Salvia four Times-One hit of 10x/ “When You Die” 38th Time/Plain Salvia (un-enhanced-regular leaf chopped up) Four hits-then one hit of 10x of Purple Sticky (not my personal favorite brand)/ “Contacting a Friends Deceased Father” 39th Time/Salvia 10x/ “Spirits Centering My Energy” 40th Time/Salvia 20x/ “Take Me Out of Here” 41st Time/Salvia 20x/ “I Know; We Got Our Hands on You” Chapter 5: Inocybe Mushroom (Shrooms) – The 2nd Entheogen 1st Shroom Trip (Inocybe Mushroom)/four small stems and two caps/ “Lifetime of Education in 4 to 6 hours” 2nd Shroom Trip (Inocybe Mushroom)/four real big stems, one small stem, one monster size cap, and one medium size cap/ “Connected to the Universal Consciousness” Chapter 6: Dimethyltryptamine (DMT) – The 3rd Entheogen 1st Time/DMT/ “Light Realm” 2nd Time/DMT/ “Realities Collide” 3rd Time/DMT/ “Spirit Machine” 4th Time/DMT/ “Molecular Love” 5th Time/DMT/ “Spirits Within” 6th Time/DMT/ “Nothing Out There” 7th Time/DMT/ “Inside the Ship” 8th Time/DMT/ “Soul Growth” 9th Time/DMT/ “The Moment in Time” 10th Time/DMT/ “Illusionary Boundary” 11th Time/DMT/ “3rd Eye Transformation” Chapter 7: Lysergic Acid Diethylamide (LSD) – The 4th Entheogen Chapter 8: From Skeptic to Believer Back to the Search 42nd Time/Chewed on dry Salvia leaves first, then smoked Salvia Zone Green Level/ “Spirit Time Travel Machine” 3
Love to the Earth” Chapter 16: Ayahuasca . Two Licks of MDMA. Pot.The 7th Entheogen Where Does Consciousness Come From? (Dream) Funky Monkey-XXXX Chapter 12: Queen Tetra (Cannabis) Experiences for One Year Chapter 13: Moving Further LSD Trip with the Dragonflies Rice for One Week Queen Tetra and DMT/ “All Seeing” 15th -17th Times/DMT Hits at the Power Spot/ “Let Out My Light” – “Becoming Formless” – “Dimensional Ship Spot” Ideas and Dreams Chapter 14: The Jaguar Path: Yoga and Peruvian Shamanism Jaguar Journeys by Ray H. Eight Hits of LSD. Marijuana. Queen Tetra Vapor Hits several hours later/ “Love to the Universe. ect…) – The 5th Entheogen Queen Tetra (Cannabis)/ “I’m Laid Back and Chillin” Chapter 10: Iboga Journey – Reveling My Whole Life . Hemp.43rd Time/Residue of DMT and Salvia 80x/ “All That Matters” 12th Time/DMT/ “The Ra Connection” 13th Time/DMT and Salvia 10x/ “Quantum Jump” 14th Time/DMT/ “See You On The Dark Side of The Moon” 44th Time/Salvia 10x/ “Let’s Go” 45th Time/Shroom Tea-Salvia 10x/ “Vibration Connection” Chapter 9: Cannabis (Queen Tetra. Crist (CD) Finding My Serpent Rock with Queen Tetra as My Ally Chapter 15: Find Yourself and Save the Planet Several Shrooms.The 8th Entheogen 1st Time/Ayahuasca/ “I’m Healed Ten Fold” 2nd Time/Ayahuasca/ “I’m Freeded” 46th Time/Yellow Zone Salvia/ “Bob are You Out There?” 47th Time/Yellow Zone Salvia/ “Hold On” – Bob Dream of Bob’s Full Transformation 3rd Time/Ayahuasca/ “The Power from Everything” 4 .The 6th Entheogen Chapter 11: Spice (JWH-018) .
crack. to all those who could have a greater hope of getting rid of their addiction to harmful narcotics such as heroin. to all who are currently in our prison system for non-violent drug crimes. etc. with the use of Iboga. four spoonful’s/ “I’m the 1%” 5th Time/Ayahuasca. So get ready to take a trip with me beyond comprehension. meth. to all those who could have their PTSD greatly diminished.4th Time/Ayahuasca. to all those who would greatly benefit from the use of Cannabis for medical purposes. This book is for educational purposes only. to all those who have gone before me in speaking out against the ridiculous drug laws that are currently in place and to all those who made this book possible. and hold onto your marbles as you dive into my mind. Anything that the reader does is at their own risk. 5 . five spoonful’s/ “I’m Reborn” Conclusion Psychedelic Pyramid Guide of Enlightenment Appendix A Dedication To: This book is dedicated to all those who want the spiritual freedom to explore the spirit realm themselves with the use of entheogens. Warning!!! Warning!!! Warning!!! This book contains graphic langue and the use of illegal schedule 1 Drugs.
walking to school. arriving at Port-Au-Prince. In the shadows of the night I nearly step on a Haitian woman sleeping with a blanket on the sidewalk. Flash First week securing the airport. I’m just a hamburger patty on this hot ass runway. President Jean-Bertrand Aristide says that the US won’t intervene… Bush is a racist… More…Killing…looting….US Marines may be deployed to restore peace. Flash Worried faces. stopping to tear into the remains of a human body. Back Sitting in math class with four plain white walls that surround my boredom. Everyone is talking on their cell phones. listening to the sound track of Resident Evil.” Back Early fall morning. Fuck that. 6 . and I can’t get any fucking sleep. Flash The streets have the end of the world look. filling the streets with a choking smoke. I can’t even see the Marine next to me. C130’s coming in with its roaring engines every hour to wake me from my sweaty sleep. Sleeping with football size rats. and get outside. Moving on. hearts pounding in our chests that won’t be heard past the flack jackets.” “What the fuck. Garbage is burning. Heading to our new home for the next four months (we don’t know that yet). its 2:30 in the morning. including the world and heaven. the capital of Haiti. and my green ISO mat. Can’t fucking breathe. Trash blocking intersections.Introduction Flash Backs Haiti: Operation Secure Tomorrow 2004 Flash Shus… shuchs… shush…: static CNN TV Rebels are advancing on the Capital. Let’s fucking get going. Bang Bang Bang “Wake the fuck up. Back Driving my car home. A three legged dog crawls through. get dressed. Cars flipped on their side torched and stripped of everything. I think she is in the shadow of all our minds. There is no heaven.” “We’re going.
breathing cleaner air. Fuck his rank. taking a hot shower every day. eating good food. Taking pictures.” “The bullet hit my wrist and traveled along my bone coming out here at my elbow. 7 . Back Taking a hot shower at home. Moments later “We’re heading to an army base. have fun back in the states you lucky fuck” “We’ll see you when we get back. tubes. Marines are leaping over each other like frogs to get to the next lily pad. Crack “What the fuck was that?”. “Yea get some. some Army officer fuck comes up to us and says something like he knows what’s going on. putting on my flack and Kevlar. “Ferguson. The sun shines into my eyes! Is there a heaven? Flash Bullshitting on some steps with some Marine friends. He’s not seeing the shit we see or stepping in the shit we step in day in and day out. “Someone shot our window!” Hours Later Laughing…”Milton.” I say. More beeping of medical equipment. He’s sleeping back here at a nice Army base fifteen miles north of Port-Au-Prince in a bed with white sheets.” Several more moments later Driving in the night. but not me. talking to females on a regular basis. thinking of just two things: will I get to my gear before they are over the fence. You are going to get a lot of ass for this. beeping. Distant gun shots ring out. They have a better medical facility for Milton. He doesn’t have a fucking clue.” Milton’s raspy drugged up voice said. or am I going to get shot in the head. I run crouching. nearly crying for him not to get shot. you’re going home man. “All right man. Staying low now. Everyone is low crawling.Back Sitting on my steps reading my mail.” if we get back! Hanging out on the back of the Humvee in the middle of the night waiting to go back. get the fuck down! “Ferguson get down!” My screams are pleading. poge son of a bitch. never going on patrols getting shot at. I see Ferguson standing putting on his flack. more joking with our squad that brought him here. Bang Crack Swoosh Snap They’re fucking attacking us.
The darkness in this world won’t let him sleep in peace. I don’t think anybody knows why. and for that I am grateful. Sometimes I feel like him. But I do have somewhere to go. The homeless boy wearing only his oversized yellow dirty shirt and under sized shorts wakes up from time to time from the uncomfortable cement curve. having nowhere to go but back and forth along this road getting smoke puffed on him by cars. weeks of dirt are finally washed off. The look on their faces was like they were never going to see me again. but it’s as silent as night. I don’t know why.Flash Ah cold.” Taking a step back I ask myself the same thing. 8 . Driving by that same drifter walking on Route 4 with his long white beard weighing his drooping head. do you have a pressure bandage?” “Here. not having a care in the world like they’re still in high school. Now I feel detached from the people I used to know. the Haitian looks up at me and asks “why. post security” Splattered brain on the sidewalk. “Doc. Back Seeing and hearing these college kids talk. Sobering now. Flash Thousands of Haitian protesters are disappearing into the rest of the city as unseen shots are fired into the crowd. Flash Turning into the Canadian embassy with two Humvees. Running to my Platoon Sergeant to see if he needs our team for anything I see some Marines carrying in wounded Haitians to be triaged. I sometimes think the feeling is mutual. I wish I still had mine. Shots fired. Back Dan Rather the CBS evening news anchor announcing another fallen Hero. The knowledge of this world changed me. I feel like I have skin again. Last one jumping on the back of the Humvee looking into the eyes of my team. we swerved out of the palace grounds. “Stop! Get out. Black dirt running off my body going down the drain. He shared the crackers and Peanut butter with two other boys. Back My sister complaining about supper… Flash Standing guard at the west side post of the palace. Their cries stop me for a moment as I stare at their bloody bodies. Chirping of bugs. “Get out they’re shooting” Behind the gates I see a Marine dragging a shot Haitian inside the perimeter. I’m tired and so are they. They still have their innocence about them. Those Mother Fuckers. But his stomach is not churning as much from hunger. you need help?” “Yea.” “There’s no exit”. A Marine comes next to me and starts taking pictures of them. I think how disrespectful it is to do that and continue to look for my Platoon Sargent. It’s fucking freezing cold. Accelerating now with my feet dangling out the back. I can see the small hole where the bullet tore through his back. going back and forth having nowhere to go. it was all I had.
they’re probably already dead. Berg yells to Staff Sergeant for us to go back. in car windows. I tell him “fuck that. Their red eyes are filled with rage.” That’s if they were even out there. They’re shooting back from what looks like the second floor. Behind us a LAR is rounding a corner receiving gun fire. getting out of the Humvee. That could have been me. Back inside the palace grounds. taking pictures. Back I hope that I can make peace with my memories.Reporters hovering over the shot Haitian. I never want to see another fallen hero being announced by another Dan Rather again. Who is thinking straight? Moving deeper into the city looking for four shot Haitian police. Have them wash down the drain like the first few weeks of filth that I acquired in Haiti. building walls and windows. I feel shaky but lucky to be alive. Click Blackness…………………………… …Three years later I began my psychedelic journey that would heal these old wounds. can’t feel my body. Preface 9 . Hearing bullets cracking through the air and impacting the pavement all around me. yelling and pointing for us to go back to get the shot Haitian police. transforming my perception of reality from illogical chaos to that of a magical wonder. I run to the side of a LAR (light armored reconnaissance vehicle) taking a knee for cover. let’s go” someone yelled. I see bullet holes everywhere. but they’re hauling ass back. no different than flies buzzing over a pile of dung. everywhere. “Mosher. Heading back to the palace we run into some small crowds. I’m bounding back to the Humvee.
myself. There are other entheogens (substances used to help you find your inner God) that I have also tried. As I am writing this. Queen Tetra (Cannabis). there are only negative connotations associated with this plant. I shall counter these dissenters with my personal stories and pictures. with what I’ve seen. “Minds are like Parachutes. that I also would like to see taken off the Schedule 1 list and made legal. the exploration of consciousness. JWH-018 (Spice). they only work when they’re open”. All of these entheogens helped in giving me another perspective of reality. and how lucky I am to be a part of the grand illusion of thought. and Ayahuasca. Before continuing I need you to take a deep breath and ponder this quote by Frank Zappa. Hopefully by showing you the powerful potential Salvia has in exploring your true self. I will inspire others to investigate this plant and to speak out against the absurd witch hunt that is going on against it.One of my goals for writing this book is to bring a balance to the subject matter of Salvia Divinorum and to prevent the outlawing of this plant. I will argue and fight the claims made by main stream news media as to why they think Salvia Divinorum should be made illegal. So without a further ado I leave you to the beginning of my journey. LSD. Iboga. Chapter 1 My introduction to Salvia Divinorum 10 . DMT. and from my personal experiences it deserves none. including Inocybe Mushroom (Shrooms).
in general.’ I already had a hunch that the main stream news had twisted and warped the perceptions of this topic. for the first five to ten sessions. a combination of two natural plants. one-of-a-kind engine. I feel fortunate that I only suffered from perspiration. I’ve also seen six other people use it with similar effects as my own 11 . Salvia has a detoxifying effect. While the majority of Youtube videos depicted Salvia in a negative light. In the following pages you will read about what I and others had experienced while using this plant. He had some of the worst health habits one can have. The point of the matter is that maintaining a healthy lifestyle is vital. a chemical which is produced by our very own brains. It boggles my mind how Ayahuasca. Soon the moment would be at hand when I would have my own experience and opinions of this plant. who experienced nausea and vomiting as well as sweating. I did. but after several conversations I sensed that he had tried it. He would smoke a pack of cigarettes a day. In my case. How should Salvia be Used? In this section I’m going to tell you all the tips and tricks that I learned to get the most out of the Salvia experience. that you examine your health habits before starting. feel very privileged that I was the only person he had shown this side to. I perspired profusely. The ironic part is that he will never know that I used this plant until years later. however. After researching Salvia for a few weeks I finally decided to purchase some. Even though Salvia has hit the news in recent years. I had been learning a lot about shamans using a brew called Ayahuasca for spiritual insights and felt that I might be able to use Salvia for the same purpose. In my personal opinion the major reason he had a bad experience was because he frequently smokes cigarettes and that Salvia was purging all the toxins out of his body. I know of someone who was much less fortunate. He denied prior usage. there were a few that took an objective look at the plant. He did not say much because of the proximity of our co-workers. I don’t mean to scare everyone into thinking that Salvia will make you sick. but legally. I also encountered favorable coverage of Salvia on ‘Wikipedia. is illegal because it contains DMT. but especially when exploring Salvia. Like Ayahuasca. My journey with entheogens would last nearly four years before I reached the true understanding of who I really am. but he did say that he would like to try it with me if I were to buy some. and generally pay no attention to the type of fuel he was adding to his precious. namely “Salvia Divinorum Study 1-5". eat too much junk food. This incredible journey of mine all started with a friend that brought Salvia Divinorum into my awareness.One late night at work a friend of mine introduced me to a legal entheogenic plant on Wikipedia called Salvia Divinorum. it still seems that very few people know about it. but I fused it all here to make a point in this segment. I would suggest that if you are considering using Salvia. The first thing to consider is your health. My only agenda is to show people what this one out of more than four hundred of the psychoactive plants that flourishes on this planet can do for your life. You’ll find similar information scattered here and there throughout the book. for his sake I will not divulge why I think this.
In addition to smoking Salvia. I tried this method and also using the tincture without any water. which is the most expensive and supposedly works the best.” A water pipe is good for taking the burn out. If you think your regular liquor spins are bad. I have done this and all I got out of the experience was a bad taste. The proper terminology is “water pipe. It had a gold painted star around the area where you place the contents to be smoked. There is a technique that I use to take the burn from hitting your lungs using a pipe. My first pipe was of the flat ceramic type.(ie. Although. I do believe that if you are on a spiritual journey your body must be as healthy as possible for optimal success. This made it easy to lay on a flat surface without it tipping over after I took a hit. It is said that the best way to use the tincture is to mix about the same amounts of boiling water to ten drops of the tincture and hold this mixture under your tongue for as long as you can. You can find everything you need online by doing a little research. and that I like to stay between 5x and 20x. The biggest personal tip that I can give you is to not mix alcohol with Salvia. In my experience it did not work at all. I’ve also heard that you may have to do several doses using the tincture for a period of twenty minutes to get any effect at all. which can hold a screen. sweating). your own curiosity may lead you in another direction and that’s fine. while the rest was painted blue. Unlike a pot pipe. While shopping for my first pipe I ran into an interesting situation with one of the sales persons when I asked to see a water bong. a Salvia pipe will need to have a screen because it is so finely chopped. I give this range because the experience does not get any better the higher you go (the “x” stands for how many leaves were used to coat one leaf of its juices. you haven’t seen anything until you’ve mixed the two. which has a bigger hole. The pipe in general was flat. Brass is cheaper but will not last as long 12 .” because it implies that I am looking for a device to smoke weed. the more it costs.shamanic-extracts.com. Salvia has medicinal effects. I also bought the tincture. said to be the best way to do it due to the fact that the experience will last three times longer. The water is added to take the burn out from the alcohol. The next aspect to consider is what device you are going to use. The next thing to consider is how you are going to acquire Salvia and at what strength/dosage. Hence 5x is five times the potency of the original plant and the higher the x. and could be a key to unlocking certain doors of perception and should be treated with respect and only used with the intent of furthering one’s own personal spiritual growth. There are three devices that you could use for inhaling Salvia: 1) A vaporizer. having only a very mild effect. 2) A water-pipe. So far I just prefer to smoke it. if you are going to inhale it. 3) A regular pipe. you can chew the leaves. There are brass and steel screens available. This is why Salvia should not be considered a party drug. I have to say that my personal favorite web site to find Salvia is www. It shouldn’t be considered something only to get a high for it has the potential of showing you who you truly are. but there is a loss of potency while the smoke goes through the water. He quickly corrected me by telling me that it was illegal to say “bong. Maybe the plant was too young.) Despite my advice.
I will give an example of this later on. It’s nice to have music that doesn’t stop half way through a trip. I did use a CD called “Detaching the World”. and thought it was perfect for the occasion. Once I release the Salvia from my lungs I’ll lay down on my bed. unless you have some bad music (with negative lyrics) and/or background sounds. If you do have a sitter. Time is also an important thing to consider. 1. otherwise it somehow becomes inactive. Now some people have said to me that they can have visions with their eyes open. an herb sold by a company called Experience. With whom you decide to share your Salvia experience with is another aspect you need to consider. One person said there was nothing to fear by doing it alone. which also sells Salvia. I’ll 13 . in my case I need to have my eyes shut. If you do listen to any music I would suggest using some type of meditation music. it is best if there is little to no sound at all. you’ll need to consider where. Now the trick to avoid burning your lungs from the hot smoke when you inhale the Salvia. You need to give Salvia your undivided attention. Sitters are merely there to make sure you don’t hurt yourself. If you live in a noisy environment. I’ve found it best to try Salvia in as dark a place as possible. Your chances of safety can be increased by laying down right after inhaling the smoke. Finally. You should smoke Red Ball approximately twenty minutes before smoking Salvia. hold the smoke in your lungs for as long as you can. Try going for at least 30 to 45 seconds. Even though the Salvia trip only takes five to ten minutes. if you have other things on your mind. After a second or two. you don’t want anything that needs your immediate attention. however.as steel. One way in which to prevent this from happening is to smoke Red Ball. I was a little anxious trying this for the first time by myself but I also did not have anyone that I could truly trust to watch over me. Once inhaled. I believe that there are two places best suited for experiencing Salvia: a dark room or the woods. as that is about how long it will take for you to feel the effects of the Red Ball. but you lose that sense once you are fully in the Salvia world. Vol. and nothing with any vocals. For one. the smoke will be cool enough to inhale. I’ve learned that it is essential to be comfortable while doing Salvia. Once you’ve got the materials and the Salvia. You should then be transported to the Salvia realm before you exhale all of the smoke. You should also consider what you are seeking to gain from Salvia. Noise will have an effect on what you see. I’ve learned that having your mind set or concentrating on something will have a direct impact on what you’ll experience. I suggest playing some music to counteract the outside noises. is to hold it in your mouth for a second or two. I watched some YouTube videos of people giving their opinions on this subject matter. it is important for them to be quiet and respectful of your journey. The first few times that I did Salvia I listened to this. It’s instrumental. as the music lasted for twenty five minutes. However. but without the dehydrating effect. Red Ball gives you energy like coffee. Then I’ll put the pipe on my dresser and turn off any lights. In my experience he was completely right. track “Tranquil Sunrise” which seemed fitting for a Salvia trip. and while the trip itself only five to ten minutes. you need to consider how alert you are. when. and with whom (if anyone) you will do this with. they will influence your experience. Salvia has been known to cause a slight fatigue. and makes you feel as though you are already entering the spirit world.
A good way to get yourself grounded before doing Salvia is to take time for yourself as much as you can. I then try to hold the smoke in my lungs as long as possible (usually 30 to 45 seconds). Salvia acts as a mirror to our minds. yet I didn’t know the right questions to ask. I’ve never really known peace. Each time I did Salvia the pieces started to form a picture revealing to me that I was truly searching for ‘peace’.explain why this is important later on in the book. Once I take a hit I leave the smoke in my mouth for one or two seconds before inhaling it. Writing about my experiences also helps me to figure out the answer to my original question. After about 5 or 10 minutes. For now. After doing your first Salvia session you will be able to decide whether or not you will want do it again. Chapter 2 Sequence of Events that Prepared Me for Entheogens This chapter is going to be a glimpse of what I think had a significant influence on how I used and perceived what I saw while using Salvia. you may discover something you had not noticed before. While I’m holding in the smoke I will put the pipe on my dresser while I continue to focus on what I’m searching for. Once I finally exhale I will lay down on my bed. you must ask yourself what it is you are searching for. Documentation may help reveal more answers for yourself. I believe in the Law of Attraction. I then say this to myself over and over for a few minutes while at the same time getting the Salvia and pipe out. Much is revealed during the Salvia trip. The reason I immediately jot down my experience is so that I don’t forget any of the details. State of mind is important. I received a lot of personal insight into who I am from my use of Salvia. after the effects of Salvia have worn off. If you think you will do it again. and later can be used as a guide in tracking your progress in the direction you want to go. Everything in retrospect seemed to have happened in a 14 . So learn about and be comfortable with yourself before trying Salvia. I immediately write down what had just transpired and draw the images that I see to the best of my ability. Take a walk alone in nature to sort out the confusion that manifests in your life. Now to recap how I use Salvia: first. There has always been a struggle or hurdle. I knew that there was something more to my life than what I had experienced. Over the years I have begun to see that there is a synchronicity to my life. If I’m in my room I’ll sit on my bed and take a couple of deep breaths before taking a hit. I would suggest documenting your experiences. and if you write about and draw what you have experienced. which I highly recommend so you do not lose your balance and hurt yourself. I now believe that obstacles were put there by myself. including knowing what it is you are seeking to gain from using Salvia. Mental stability is important for a good experience. that your state of mind holds the power to create your personal reality. I think of what I want to see or what kind of question that I want to have answered. What are you seeking to gain from using Salvia? When I first started using Salvia.
My outlook on life has changed dramatically. I believe the extreme misery that I witnessed in Haiti is what motivated me to find some logical explanation for why things are the way they are. I was reading my mail on my front steps. helping you deal with the anxiety of the unknown before embarking on your mysterious entheogenic journey. eventually realizing our true nature and where we all fit into the grand scheme of things. By the end of my tour.certain order. shrooms. While this seemed simple enough. It told me that I needed to continue to smoke Salvia until I began to feel the effects. however. My last four months in the Marines I was deployed to Haiti. I will leave that for the end. DMT. I’ve gathered quite a bit of information through books and the internet about the spirit world. death and chaos. yielding results which. YouTube videos.com. I’ll start first with what made me begin to question whether or not there is a higher power running our world. Three months after getting out of the Marines. were perfectly timed and. www. Some of these references came before. JWH-018 (Spice) and Ayahuasca in attempts to learn. looking up into the autumn sun and thinking there must be something responsible for the creation of this reality. some during and others after my spiritual journey but I feel they can all be beneficial in guiding you in the right direction. I eventually learned a trick to making 15 . There is much more to what these substances did for me. Since that day. This information will give you a head start on preparing mentally for the exploration of yourself. I concluded that there is no such thing. LSD. By learning.Salvia Divinorum . Iboga. we as individuals evolve into more conscious beings. unperceived at the time. surrounded by misery. Queen Tetra (Cannabis). were learning moments. I went back to my computer and read the directions on the web site. You will find in appendix A a list of books. Eventually I tried Salvia.shamaic-extracts. and web sites that helped guide me into using these substances in an intelligent way. During this time I began to wonder how all of this could be happening if there truly is a divine creator.The 1 st Entheogen 1 st Time/ Salvia 10x/ “Welcome ” The first time I tried smoking Salvia I was unsuccessful in going anywhere in the spirit realm. movies. Chapter 3 The Introverted Experiences . music. I’m finally feeling an inner peace that I had never known before. It may also help you to develop a different perspective on psychedelic plants.
Time disappeared. as I felt that I needed to synthesize and analyze this valuable moment in my life. running towards me.(from Wikipedia) 16 . Perhaps the wrench I saw was a symbol of fixing the connection between myself. I was covered in sweat and realized that perhaps ten minutes had past. only to raise its head and smile again. Paranormal claims involving Greys vary in every respect including their nature (ETs. It had two yellow worm-like extrusions. you may not be transported into the beyond. Soon my vision faded to black. A composite description derived from overlap in claims would have Greys as small-bodied sexless beings with smooth grey skin. As I sat up in my bed. was glowing yellow. each with a black oval in the front of it. with geometric shapes fluttering on the outside. and physical appearances (even varying in their eponymous skin color). I believe in some way the military had stifled that emotion in me. If you don’t. paranormal. While I was still looking at this smiling yellow face my eye was caught by hundreds of different colored souls that were flying within in the shape of a castle-like structure. The whole face. origins. I became aware of my surroundings again. However I did not try again until almost a week later. starting from my toes and going all the way to the top of my head. including the eyes. I was projected out of the tunnel where I was met by what seemed like a spirit. it was as if time rewound itself and the spirit was looking back down again. It repeated this three times before it stopped. I knew I had truly experienced one of the most amazing moments in my life and had an overwhelming desire to do it again. Now it was back. Then. and New Age communities. enlarged head and large black eyes. After my experience I realized that love is everywhere. my meditation music slowly materialized in my ears once more. moving up the side of its face towards the top of its head. After taking several hits I started to laugh. not because anything was funny. Before I had started this session I did not ask an exact question. It was so difficult for me to find someone I could love. predominantly blue and white. intentions. moral dispositions. while I was going through this tunnel. I noticed a blue wrench twisting a bolt on the edge of the tunnel. The trick is to use 5x or higher of Salvia and when you inhale the smoke you must hold it in as long as you can. A sensation of being dipped into a warm bath came over me. named for their skin color.Salvia work off only one hit. Suddenly the music faded away and the visions started appearing once I closed my eyes. emotion of love. with alien-shaped eyes and head. or machines). which resembled the general concept of “Greys”1. while the rest of the spirit’s face looked human. but was wondering where all the love was. It looked up at me and smiled. demons. For the next several days after the experience. extradimensionals. and a feeling of being welcomed enveloped my entire being. but because I knew that I finally made the connection with Salvia. All of the women had long black hair and everything about them appeared normal with the exception of a red spirit glow superimposed on them. So I tried again. The spirit was looking down when I first saw it. At one point. Once they vanished I began to fly through a tunnel that pulsated with different colors. and my connection to the spirit realm. The origin of the idea of the Grey is commonly associated with the Betty and Barney Hill abduction claim. although skeptics see precursors in science fiction and earlier paranormal claims. The first image that came to me was of naked women running my way in what looked like the inside of veins. I felt more connected to everyone and felt 1 Grey aliens (or "Greys") are alleged extraterrestrial beings whose existence is promoted in ufological.
a screaming face flew out at me. The smoke started to form a dragon-like face that began chomping at me before completely vanishing. 3 rd Time/ Salvia 20x/ “Pushing Me towards Her ” Going into my third Salvia trip I had many questions in mind.that I was never truly alone in this world. but only one strong emotion: loneliness. Note: What you are thinking about or what you want to know about will be revealed to you while using Salvia. 4 th Time/ Salvia 30x/ “Sticking Together ” This time I asked myself. We are all connected. it vomited a red liquid that covered its face. and I could see him in my rear view mirror yelling in his car. Maybe because it was too serious a question. I was tired of being alone. Once I entered the Salvia realm. 2 nd Time/Salvia 15x/water pipe/ “Disrupting the Flow ” The Salvia entered my being. They were helping me to see another spirit object which had large blue eyes and was dividing red spirits into rows. This experience showed me that we can perceive reality without our physical eyes only if we can open our third eye. Just hours before this experience I had made a person upset because I had abruptly stopped in front of him. our emotions can have an effect on those around us without their knowledge. I feel that spirits have an influence in this reality as well. The first thing I focused on was a white male with long blond hair waving in the wind as if he were spinning. I had a picture of a girl on my wall that was in the same place as the spirit with outstretched arms. There is life after death. crackling with blue and white electricity. Suddenly. my vision was over. The crowd was out of focus with the whole background area being a pinkish-red color as were the people. A man was screaming as he was lifted from a car up to the sky. I drifted down a black vortex of space where there was smoke drifting from where the spirit people were. Making him angry affected everyone else in the vicinity without any of them even realizing it. The highway then started to bend like the intestines of a stomach. I then opened my eyes and my hand was where I saw the hand in my vision. but 17 . Maybe we are all being saved from something evil. Out of nowhere. He was holding a crowd of spirits back behind him. I saw a hand of pure energy. After it came at me. blowing out a vision of a red highway with cars zooming. There was a figure on this hand but because the bright light emitting from the figure. I did not laugh like I usually did on trips. with a swarm of souls flying around it. though we can’t always perceive the results. ‘Is there life after death?’ The answer that I received was yes. He was very angry. all I could see were its arms stretching towards me. I saw thousands of people pushing me over towards something. there is life after death.
This is a good experience to show how important it is to be well rested when you use Salvia. I could see my arms out in front of me. I had felt like sleeping before this experience which I think had a major impact on my trip. The two rows of people looped around toward a purple face. The warmness ran up my body to my mouth. and lost all sense of time. I did not even remember exhaling the smoke. After taking the first hit of 5x. all I could see were red feet dangling from a tube that was suspended in darkness. 10x. As I was drawing the vision.. but began to do some sort of Indian chant that went: “Heya wa wa wa heha wa wa wa heya wa. my vision was fading. which consumed them until it all vanished into the darkness of my mind. As I went down into the Earth. 15x/ “Seeing as One ” I demanded to see the light of consciousness. Then I took a second hit of the 10x and was transported above the Earth in space. 6 th Time/ Salvia 5x. one red and one blue. but was unsuccessful. This clearly did not satisfy my demand so I took another hit with the 15x. They were emitting a light red light. 7 th Time/ Salvia 5x. seeing an orange orb of what looked like the inner sun. 5 th Time/Salvia 30x/ “Putting Me to Sleep ” As I was experimenting with Salvia for the fifth time I felt a certain warmness hit my whole being while I was holding the smoke in. I took a hit of 15x and was immediately transported above a crowd of people. These hands were guiding me to another part of the planet with the sun at the horizon. I felt when the end of this astrological age comes. Clamped onto my arms were two hands from unseen bodies.. I did this for about five minutes nonstop. going back to the same vision. and I wanted to be taken to the center of the Earth known as Agartha (inspired by a book that I was reading called “The Hollow Earth” by Raymond Bernard). the people split into two rows. and all in white suits. Once the Salvia wore off I tried to do the Indian chant that I was doing earlier. and 15x/ “Future Journey ” I had one question and one demand: I wanted to know who I had been before this life. all with black hair. I realized we can only see the light together and not as individuals. This time I saw two rows of red spirits that were pushing each other up until they merged into a single blue face that was looking into a bright light. I never saw the origin of this light as I was looking into a bent part of the tube and couldn’t see its source. 8 th Time/Salvia 10x/ “Having Fun ” 18 . I realized that the loop of people had made the sign of Pisces.”.perhaps there is a certain type of death that we should be afraid of. I remained there in my bed for about fifteen minutes until the drowsiness left me. It seemed Salvia had the ability to communicate to me by using symbols familiar to me. They too glowed red. I did not see my previous life. I will be flown to the center of the Earth and greet these people. As I focused on a single face. I saw a yelling crowd of red spirits running towards me and felt my body being pushed over by them.
I had to change my focus for that is what 19 .W. 20x/ “I Will Meet Them ” I asked what I should do for my future regarding the possible enaction of martial law in the US. one led by a male in a white shirt and the other a female in a red shirt. I knew I am the only one that can make my dreams come true. In my vision. 10 th Time/Salvia 5x. I was definitely shocked and felt I had to do something to prevent this from happening. There is a monument called the Georgia Guide Stones located at Elbert County. Later. The two lines coiled backward until there was a whole room of people crammed together. it was only after meeting the blue resistance that I realized I was already dead.O.O. While I was not afraid. screaming as they were going down. I thought of the Law of Attraction. Each spirit was a different color and they all seemed to be having fun. as I was demonstrating the effects of the plant to a couple of friends. But there will still be too many of them and a large part of the group will share the same fate as those who are on the red and blue list. Holding the 5x smoke deep in my lungs I was soon shown a cross-converging of red spirit faces that eventually got sucked into a dark swirling vortex. Georgia. At first I was happy to meet what I can only think of as the resistance to the New World Order (N. As this was happening it seemed as if they were riding a roller coaster. It states that the world population should be limited to five hundred million. We were in a small enclosure.O.death. opening and closing its mouth. The people who are on the red list are those who will definitely resist the N. It’s as if the spirit world takes its form based on our physical reality. a group of blue spirits. rarely does. At this realization I stopped laughing. and will be taken before martial law is enacted. USA. That’s over a 90% reduction of the human population. 2 separate hits of 5x/ “Waiting to be born ” I want a perfect life with my soul mate and to have a son. Unsatisfied with this answer I took one more hit of 20x. The far end of this line ended in the eye of a big purple face that pressed into a cylindrical space. even though it may be trying to affect this reality. The vision faded into darkness.W. The spirit realm. As I lay in my bed I felt there were millions of souls waiting to be born into this realm. Supposedly there is a list of people who are categorized by color depending on what threat level they are to the N. My vision started as I exhaled the smoke into a double row of individuals in two lines.O.). I then saw a huge group of red spirits that were separated. and the depopulation agenda that may be implemented. yet joining with. Everything changed into a purple color.W. I felt speechless and without hope. Finally the ones that are on the yellow list are the ones that don’t know what is going on and will do as they’re told. Those who are on the blue list are less of a threat than those on the red list but will still be taken after martial law has been imposed. I must start preparing or else blackness will be my fate. flowing within the shape of the enclosure.W. The vision started with a group of people with their hands up. 9 th Time/Salvia Tincture.I did Salvia without asking any questions. Population suppression might be one of the N. goals.
I then inquired why we are here in this life. He said yes. Even then it seemed to take another moment before anything happened. I started to stroke and feel my own face.” I saw that I would go to jail if I let him know about it. I’m curious to know what it will be like when I’ve reached total awareness. I asked for a name. He just laughed again saying that “You will find good work. This was the solution to getting back to the source of our true being. but the spiritual realm as well. I realized there must be thousands of souls wandering around until it’s their time to come back to this dimension. you always do”.shapes my world. But he quickly answered back. This life is just a step in my evolutionary process. He just laughed and said that there is no such thing as time here. He said yes. as they were walking within a red grid. 11 th Time/Salvia 20x/ “I Will Walk ” In my next experience.” I asked how it was that he came to me. First I asked if I should contact this old high school crush of mine and leave my current location. but after a few reponses I realized that the answers were not coming from me but from this spirit. “But we are separate and when we part we will be apart like before. He also wanted to remember what it was like to feel again. He said that he was just walking by and heard me asking questions that nobody asked anymore. Then with my right hand. I felt a faint ethereal force impact my head. We as individuals are like an apple that has been split into many sections. I asked him if I was being possessed by him. to grow. I should leave and stay with her as things are going to get bad and I should never leave her. I must remove myself from this doom and gloom of possibilities. I asked if he was black. I saw what looked like the shape of a black man’s face. He considered this for a moment before saying that we are here to learn about each other. 12 th Time/Salvia 20x/ “Dashiki ” I smoked Red Ball approximately thirty minutes before smoking Salvia. He said his name was Dashiki and he had last been alive in the 40's. He said yes. to perceive. The first hit of Salvia did nothing. which will in turn make us learn about ourselves. and then create in my mind a utopian future. I asked if he had time to speak with me. It seemed he felt a job was of little or no importance. I asked if I was speaking with someone. I asked what I will do about work. I questioned whether I should tell my friend Sean (who had told me of Salvia) about my experimentations. the only way we can ever become whole again is to learn about all the other pieces. I started to laugh at the genius of the answer that I received and started yelling that “I will walk. The answer was yes. My vision showed a lattice work of red spirits over the earth and its surrounding space. I also know that after my physical death I will continue to be aware. pushing me back onto my bed. and there were other spirits flying around on his face. I kept stroking my face even though I had no control over my hand. So I proceeded to ask questions. so I tried a second hit. I decided to hold off on telling him until a later time. only green. I started to ask my questions. and decided to answer them for me. This answer scared me at first and I was wondering if I would ever be myself again. to become something more. Despite Salvia being legal at the time I felt I would become a prisoner of not only the physical world. He told me not to tell anybody about this at my current place of living as 20 .
but to tell people back home. We separated as he had promised. Unlike previous visions where the spirit realm only communicated to me. a place where you can feel and tune into the universal consciousness. and I began telling him. He instructed me to write all this down and to paint what I have seen. I understand that there are certain places on Earth which have spots like this. In this vision I saw what I thought to be her and her parents waiting for me to call. 21 . I figured about twenty minutes had elapsed from the beginning of my session to the end. the spirits were merging into the light. as I will have an impact on some of them. The Salvia curled me up in my chair. It had lasted twice as long and there was a two-way conversation with the spirit realm. At the first hit I was transported to a grass field with three spirit people that had a red glow to them. With a final stroke of my face. 15 th Time/Salvia 20x/ “The Golden Party ” I asked no questions this time. I laid in bed for an extra minute looking at my hand not believing what had just transpired. I got the feeling they weren’t happy and did not want me to call them. I was able to communicate back. I wish that I had had a device to record what I had said. They were the color of red as well as their surroundings. leaving me with an unwanted feeling of darkness. It was as though my soul was as complete as it could be until I can return to the universal consciousness. After this. I felt a force drawing me towards them. I had never heard such music before. I was accompanied by Al. I was then sucked down into the ground to a dark space where I saw columns of spirit people. along with a whooshing-sound-type of music. It seemed that the source was creating and projecting everything to be placed and played out for its own curious imagination. I could hear them cheering. (one of my friends) as he watched me being consumed by the Salvia’s effects. This was my most incredible experience so far. starting at the top with a dark navy blue then gradually turning to red. “You have to put your arms up. it was over. from the top of my head to my chin. 13 th Time/Salvia 20x/ “Soul Retrieval ” This time I asked for my soul retrieval. 14 th Time/Salvia 20x/ “Puffs of Dimensions ” I asked if I should call this old crush of mine.they would not understand. I was tempted to ask more about my own future. they were showing me something. Once I told him this he asked to feel my face one more time and I agreed. The columns extended down going quite a distance until they were standing on a bright orb of light which had a reddish orange glow to it. an idea I got from watching a Coast to Coast video on YouTube. This was definitely a different type of experience. There. I decided to end the conversation because I also had to go to the bathroom and my right hand started to get tired.” as I saw a crowd of navy colored spirits waving their arms in a party-like fashion towards three brightly glowing liquid pools of gold. as it had been a long conversation and I was not able to remember it all. but from previous experiences I knew that I would be afraid to hear the answers. such as Stonehenge. This vision faded away in three puffs of red smoke.
The women looked like they were wearing a tight. except me. As the vision started to fade. I’m going. After a few minutes I asked him if he was back. I wondered what those three golden pools were that they were facing. I felt as though the spirit realm really knows how to party. I saw a row of women appear on each side of the alien’s face. he did not shut his eyes. along with everything around it. pulling it apart.. I was swept into space flying at an incredible speed until a typical Grey’s face began to materialize. shiny black uniform. He saw bushes divided by a path.” He told me that he was pulled to the horizon of what he thought was somewhere in the mid-west. without trying to figure out how I fit into all of this. not because I found anything funny.. and thought perhaps that she was the ghost spirit haunting his house. and flew up and along the center of the trail. Halfway through the song there was a woman’s voice. when the woman’s voice came over the speakers. I had only looked at a small part of the grand scheme of things. Once again I was laughing because I was “Salvia happy”. up until this point I had been asking questions that pertained solely to me. As the room faded from my awareness. I decided I wanted to know how far I can go beyond my limited awareness. Then the vision faded along with my laughter. He saw a middle-aged white woman standing behind me in a flowered dress with short brown hair. Chapter 4 The Extroverted Experiences For the most part. it did so by returning to reality bit by bit.The only reason I could think of for this vision was that I was going to a party the next day. yet was still able to see the visions. Thanks to my good friend Al. perhaps the pools were the source of the music. but he did not respond. so I jokingly told them I’d be asking to go to Mars. 17 th and 18 th Time/Salvia 30x/ “Confusion ”-. Afterward he told me that he had heard what I had said and told me “Hell no. On the way he stopped me and asked if I 22 . I asked them if they could play some meditation music with no vocals in order to mask the outside noises. The first thing he saw was the building directly in front of him vanishing. I did not want to ask anything extremely deep. Once at the horizon he saw the sun setting in what looked like a desert landscape. 16 th Time/Salvia 10x/ “Double Vision ” I was showing another group of friends the effects of Salvia and how quick the whole process is. Friend ’s 1 st Time/Salvia 30x/ / “Mysterious Lady ” My friend Al tried Salvia. We discussed the woman he saw. I also noted that I had to close my eyes to see other realms which he did not. I was able to redirect myself to a higher path of consciousness.“Finding My Center ” I went outside with Al to smoke Salvia. Suddenly. To my surprise. which had an influence on what I saw. This illustrates the individual effects Salvia has on different people.
Opening my eyes. yet nothing of any specifics.” I stopped to listen and heard birds chirping. while simultaneously trying to feel the flow of life around me.” He said no.” He told me he was trying to make me aware of that which is outside of myself. I took a deep breath and focused on the boundaries of my energy. He asked if I had felt his presence in my vision. the same navy blue spirits reappeared. I asked him how he had learned these things and who had taught him. I said I thought so. The response was mostly disinterested disbelief. He told me about the seven chakras. prickling sensation of energy that felt wonderful. and their significance to me. look at the sky. “Behind me. All he would say was he had been around. I never asked exactly how he had done that. Once again I noticed I was more aware and felt more a part of everything around me. He said Salvia is a great tool but that it is unnecessary.) but after some debate I ended up going first.” He then told me he had been in the realm with me. but he said he could hear an energetic crackling of energy. I felt privileged to be receiving such 23 .could hear “That. Getting ready now for round two. I was pushed into a mixed flow of blackness and navy blue spirits. he said it would be a good spot to smoke. There needed to be a balance of the two.” I asked him if he was talking to me as I slipped in and out of the two worlds. He told me they were my ancestors trying to help me connect with the spirit world. because I kept asking the introspective questions and none of the retrospective ones. He then told me that our paths had crossed for a reason. Then he reminded me of the previous night when I told some people about my near out-of-body experience and also of some other friends who said they had had one as well. I’d never realized he was a “Zen Buddhist Master. I was shocked to realize that despite all the years I had known him. I have all the power inside of me. This time things were more concise. not moving or even looking at him he began to tell me about what had just transpired. In a fifteen foot circle around me. I felt like I had just had massive amounts of expanding consciousness downloaded into me. I told him what had just transpired. Otherwise. He knelt in front of me and told me that although I am insignificant. and this time focus on feeling the outer edges of my Aura and go beyond my immediate awareness. it would be like talking to a wall. the mushrooms feeding off the life of the pine tree roots. how they are all connected to our Auras. I felt as though he were some sort of 900 year-old Yoda teaching me the force. to find Al. As the 30x Salvia rushed down my lungs I put the pipe down and held it in for as long as I could. When I asked why. He told me he tried to get me to go beyond myself. but eventually he indicated that through years of practicing meditation. unless the person is searching for it. As I was coming fully out of it. As I got ready. There they left a cool. to go beyond my immediate awareness. He said I should try again. and how everything is interconnected. There is an unlimited supply of it and I can take it anywhere I go. As he talked. As I took a hit of Salvia. Halfway through this experience. explained each one’s purpose. he is now able to travel at will and perceive things without the Salvia. As we were walking into a small clearing. targeting a small circle on my stomach. I guess there is no point in revealing anything so sacred. Now they ran from the edge of my aura towards me. I told him what I had seen and that when I do Salvia I always see people. I asked if he had told our other friends about his “Zen Buddhism. I suggested he go first (since it was his idea. he started tell me to feel the life around me. he said because they never asked the right questions. Al was pacing behind me telling me “Look up.
I understood what he meant. but was smoking it like a cigarette even after I explained how to do it. They looked at me as if I had lost my mind. Once inside. and was trying to tell them what I saw. But in time.knowledge. He made me realize there are uncounted numbers of infinities and how great this endless source of consciousness is. Once it hit the center of my chest. yet nothing in particular. As we picked up and headed back to the house I finally got a source of some of his knowledge. but were still interested in trying it again on their own. Yet almost as soon as I shot to this other world.” At this point. He had gone beyond his consciousness to where he could perceive everything. He enjoyed it nevertheless and maybe he reached were he had wanted to go. As I watched them. I was left with that same remarkable feeling this time too. once you think you’ve gone to the end of knowing everything. “It’s right there. I was quickly shot back into the living room and telling my account to my friends. I feel we are all just cells of yet a larger. He spoke of infinity. I told them that the last time I had done it. My awareness shot me through a darkness filled with even darker spheres floating around in space. I know I will. radiating light on the navy blue spirits walking on the inner wall. He decided to wait for another day. When some friends came by he acted as though nothing happened. although minutes before he told me that as interesting and satisfying the experience may be in the other realms. I remember yelling out. I was left with a circle of energy on my stomach and how great it felt. but didn’t have my own experiences to feel as he did about life. my attention was riveted to a sun suspended in the middle of the sphere. There were so many of them I could not see the inner surface of the sphere. In the end. he also appreciates this life. My other friend tried it. He told me to look up Indian spiritual journeys and to look up some Buddhism teachings. and thought only of going beyond. but did not like the feeling of being sucked down into the floor. 19 th Time/Salvia 30x/ “Going Beyond ” While preparing my pipe with Salvia. I was amazed at the amount of knowledge he had to offer. He said he doesn’t know everything and there is much more for even him to learn. I inhaled as much of the smoke as I could. and remained convinced he is a “Zen Buddhist Master. I was in the presence of two friends. Taking a few deep breaths. more conscious being. it’s right there!” in an ecstasy. it propelled me deep into the couch. sat up straight. Having other people around while doing Salvia does make you a bit self-conscious of how you’re going to act. I told them solo is the best way to do it. Al tried the 30x. The sensation of energy in my stomach stayed there for another two hours. I pierced into one of them. But of course. I think this person also wanted to do it alone. There are multiple 24 . I ignited the Salvia to red ambers. I started to go over in my mind how I wanted to go beyond myself. there was no way for them to see what I was seeing. I noticed that the spirits next to me began to realize my presence. As I blew out the smoke. As I rushed past them. I set the pipe on the coffee table. He had been engulfed in a white light and a sense of calmness had fallen over him. leaving it in my mouth for a few seconds before sucking it down to the core of my being. there is more. and afterward said it was a good feeling. One of them had already tried Salvia.
as it helps you comprehend what is truly important in life. Once through. see it or comprehend it. Salvia can leave you in a calmer state.realities filled with multiple entities in the void of space. I’d like to go beyond familiar. They only know the Webster’s definition of it. I noticed from my left something coming towards me. Infinity. 21 st Time/Salvia 40x/ “Tree ” Al told me that he would like to do Salvia again. Upon arriving at the spot. The second time. Once you have that feeling within you. so without hesitation I agreed and began to gather my things. Bo ’s 1 st Time With Salvia The first time my friend Bo did Salvia he had retreated from being consumed into the experience. he placed the chair so it faced east. In the end there is nothing worth losing your head over. I heard a sound between a great gust of wind and a train as a single row of different colored spirits. where he was hoping it would calm him down and make him more relaxed in general. Mayans and many other cultures believed each direction had its own personal energy. After this session. Someday. beautiful colors that looked like a Magic-eye picture. he was stunned at how powerful it was and truly enjoyed the experience. he told me the direction he wanted me to try with this next Salvia journey. I remembered I had been facing north during our last Salvia session. and to thank it for giving its life. All we can do is accept we are a part of it and be happy knowing there is no end to our playground of possibilities. telling me how the Egyptians. I did go beyond myself. Native Americans. He suggested I think about the wood I had been splitting earlier that day. except I am still running into something familiar. he let go of this reality and was finally pulled into a world of geometric shapes and patterns. how it’s going to serve us. is your imagination. each with their arms pushing the one in front of them forward. you can harness that inspiration to unleash your greatest desires and allowing them to become your reality. but I don’t think they truly know how infinity feels. Thinking on this. Experiencing and seeing what it’s like will leave you in awe of its majesty. A couple of months later some of my friends remarked that Bo seemed less stressed. we only know there are no limits. there was no beginning or end. I was left in a state of awe. On our way to our favorite spot. I realized I was in space. They’re right. Afterward he said it was like being sucked into two side by side propellers. 20 th Time/Salvia 40x/ “Infinity ” I asked to look into infinity. He wanted to try it alone in a darker setting. He was eager to tell his other friend about it and couldn’t wait to get his own Salvia. He told me to think about how it lived. he was engulfed by warm. I equated what he was telling me how an Indian gives thanks for taking a life to stay alive. People have always told me you can do whatever you want the choices are endless. I looked to my right and watched the row of spirits continue on to infinity. As the vision appeared on the back side of my eye lids. I would have done Salvia twice with Al 25 . zipped past me at an incredible speed. Overall. The only limit to your reality. no tangible way to hold it.
As the 40x flowed into my lungs. and Ms. As the green spirits moved away from me. they started to run a winding path around three black circles. I saw three trees growing from small shrubs to big trees in moments. while he told me “Look. This plant had a straight edge on the bottom and oval forms on top. The tree had had a good life and was content to be giving itself to me. I instantly looked down. “There are other plants that can help you. You always have to ask these difficult questions.” I knelt down and felt the grass. Now I asked to see and feel the world’s energy. soon realizing that. until you get to the end of the world. gentle wind. I then asked 26 .me. keep going! You want to feel it? Here you go. Let’s walk. I took several deep breaths to calm myself and to focus on the trees around me. and once you get there. I was not alone. I was thinking about the tree. only this time I used 30x a lower dosage from the previous 40x. As I allowed the Salvia to engulf my mind. They were green like the tree. a woman’s voice saying that she was late for a party. to looking down on them. I was surprised to find nothing had happened. Each oval section was the same and contained the green spirits and the golden squares. Why can’t you just be like everybody else and just smoke this shit. once facing north and now once to the east. 22 nd -23 rd -24 th Time/Salvia 40x/ “DNA Within ” I asked what makes me who I am. As the babble of the spirits began to fade away. I sat back in the chair and prepared another dose of Salvia. Salvia. Salvia had to go to a party. I got on my hands and knees to examine them more closely. “You want to see the world? Let’s go. I asked if Salvia could tell me about itself. The first two times I entered the Salvia world all I saw were red spirits searching side by side in the darkness of my body. how I was sorry. I was talking to Mr. After two hits of the 30x. I started to talk to myself. Feeling them move through me had felt like a warm line of energy moving as a slow. picked it up and looked at it. Salvia. where I noticed for the first time that there were small mushrooms growing in front of me. they assumed the double helix of a DNA molecule that became a larger single spirit . 25 th Time with visuals and 26 th Time with Body Possession/Salvia 40x-30x/ “Mr. including where the tree I had split had been cut down. My perspective moved from looking at them from the side. This time I kept opening and closing my eyes to see if I could see anything with my eyes open. I heard. telepathically. He said. I don’t always have an answer for you.at this spot. like one of my previous tours. Opening my eyes. I felt myself slipping away as well. Each receding section got smaller and smaller. with a yellow light reflecting on them from the sky. like dividing fractions.” remarked Mr. They continued away from me to a point where I could no longer see their end. On my third voyage. A smiling crowd of people was walking from the trees towards me. Ms. yet appreciative for its life in helping to perpetuate my own. so I got up and started to walk. my mind flowed to another dimension. I saw a flow of green spirits racing around a series of bright gold squares which appeared to be contained in a strangely shaped plant. As I sat down.” I walked up to a mushroom. Salvia ” Sitting in my chair in the woods on a warm sunny morning. With that pattern. I put down the pipe and had an urge to run.
I once again inhaled the 60x and slipped down into another realm. “Yeah. Contemplating what had just occurred I felt that I was not ready to leave this dimension after all. all you have to do is snap your fingers and I’ll be gone. I saw a small and beautiful light to my left. I felt perhaps the spirits were annoyed with me. Within a minute I felt a strong line forming around my head as if I had just put on a tight hat.if I will be rid of him when I needed to be. seeing that where the small. Consciousness comes from a beautiful light surrounded by unknown darkness. It formed long. now pine trees were standing. “Now I’m not going to get you caught talking to yourself out here in the woods. I felt as though not only consciousness comes from within me but also from everything else in this world. I felt like I was still tripping for another twenty minutes after the vision and decided that 60x didn’t do anything more than the lower doses except to give me longer after effects. and he said. I got up.” As I came out of it. I hope I’ll find my answer in another plant. pulling me back the way I had come as I was flying away. 27 th Time/Salvia 60x/ “The Source of Consciousness ” In the woods I sat in my chair facing south in front of a pine tree. Although I was left with a feeling of disappointment. As the lights disappeared I opened my eyes. just like he said.” I asked him another difficult question. and then said in a reassuring tone. I found myself drooling and still felt like there was a residual force pushing me into the ground. Then. including me. It was mostly white but I could see there were colors on the edges of its boundaries. It’s all connected. The background was a pinkish red and I had the physical sensation of falling through this realm. as I was falling past them while they patiently waited. brushed them off.” Through my body he snapped my fingers to demonstrate. would I have been able to come back? 29 th -30 th Time/Salvia 80x/ “Trying to See My True Self ”. spidery lines of light connecting to other lights like itself. we’re all connected. in the darkness of my mind. I wondered if my spirit had left this dimension. before enveloping my mind with 60x.“Still Trying to See My True Self ” 27 . where consciousness comes from. For several minutes I felt paralyzed and noticed blue-colored fleas covering my feet. He left without me having to snap my fingers. and headed back to the house. I said to myself. “I am not the only person trying to go to the 4th dimension. There was another line of spirits beneath them as if it were a reflection of the ones on top. I was rushing past a line of red spirit people. 28 th Time/Salvia 60x/ “Access Denied From the Fourth Dimension ” As soon as I finished my twenty-seventh Salvia trip I asked to go to the fourth dimension. The line curved and bent like a never-ending “S” until it ended at a door. I got right up to the door when the Salvia began to wear off. beautiful lights had appeared. grabbed the chair. I asked.
sitting on the cold fall grass just a few feet away. The first trip. We found a spot not far from his home where we set up a chair in the woods for him to do the Salvia. While Al took a few deep breaths before inhaling the smoke. Indian style. A few minutes later he told me that he could hear chattering. when he came back. I thought maybe he was trying to show me that my true self is just pure consciousness. this one went straight into the eyes of an Aztec Indian.” watching as they carried my blue soul down through my own dark body. I said to him that I thought that he needed to do this near his house. All I could see of him was a white outline. that I. The vision revealed that I was being carried through life by protective spirits that were watching over me. Several minutes later. all I saw was what appeared to be the same small. He was kneeling down on one knee. He was drawn back. he came back to reality to tell his story. He told me that he had felt almost bound to that spot. As I contemplated the Aztec Indian vision.I asked to see my true self. he said he was again much attached to the spot and felt like he had been trying to leave it. As before. and at the same time powerful and important. and told him of my experiences with them. I suggested to him that since he could not reach the ghost. which was against an even darker background. this time using 10x as I had not been too pleased with the effects of 60x either. I begin focusing my mind on trying to attract this ghost’s attention for Al. 31 st Time/Salvia 10x/ “Indians That Tried To Help Me in an OBE ” When I told Al that I had purchased 60x and 80x of Salvia. with his right arm up and fingers nearly touching the string of light entering his eyes. As this vision faded I was not satisfied with it and did another round with the 80x. instead of also trying to contact the ghost. as I feel I‘m still missing something. Perhaps if I say I want to be face-to-face with my true self. though this time he said he could see colorful woods with many paths. would try to have an out of body experience (OBE). They all appeared to be inside the dark silhouette of my head. This time I sat in the chair while Al sat on the ground. I went back to my original spot and watched him while I concentrated once more for him to contact the ghost. because perhaps the ghost was quite possibly bound to that particular area. With his first failed attempt behind us. beautiful light from my twenty-seventh trip. it will prove more revealing than these last two visions. I suggested he try again. He told me he would like to try to make contact with a ghost he believes dwells in his house. As they left my sight I could still feel them as a circle of energy moving through my body until they reached the upper part of my right leg before fading out. held back from his search. I still want to try to see my true self. He agreed. I prepared the pipe with 60x then handed it to him. It had lines of light connecting to other small lights except for one. but nothing clearly. but couldn’t. I saw a bright blue figure carried by several red spirits. After filling his pipe. I felt that I was insignificantly small. This time. he became interested in trying a higher dose himself. He said he had tried going down each one. I said in a telepathic voice “It’s about time. Once the pipe was 28 .
taking our minds to unlimited possibilities. trying to push my spirit out of my body. Your beliefs and expectations will also be a fuel for the kind of experience you will have. or whatever mood or mind altering substance or techniques one uses. I began to feel a separation from my body. limited way of thinking. as a pure light. 32 nd Time/Salvia 10x/ “Shattered Image ” I went out drinking with some friends one night. I finally realized why I most likely had the type of experience I had when I did Cannabis. My focus instantly moved to the one in front of the crowd. and what’s beyond this life. I set the pipe aside while the back of my eyelids became a movie screen. It helped him be more creative with his music. and despite the disappointment of an unsuccessful OBE. His long black hair was flaring behind him as he descended into my being. the result will be whatever the person intends to create with the experience.” in a rather authoritative and demanding way. and that he had been just a white sphere of light. Unfocused beings begin to appear. but that it encompasses all that is around me. “You’re not going to help him leave his body. He told me how he had been able to communicate with a girl by projecting his spirit to get close to her. Once the visuals began to fade. There was no response from the crowd of Indians. and leave my body. it nevertheless left me in wonder of what I had just experienced. he told me how he has done Cannabis on many occasions and that one’s experience is a reflection of intentions. while the lower half remained stuck at my hips. Salvia has a great potential for breaking down our small. as if I shared a special bond of friendship with them. The unknown became a crowd of Indians running down from the top of my being. Whether it be alcohol. He wore brown leather pants and moccasins. When I’ve seen other people use the same plant with different intentions from my own. entheogens. I simply felt I knew what their feelings were about that question. They looked beautifully real and for some reason. just let go. I could still feel their presence. So far I’ve been accomplishing just that. and heard a woman’s voice scream out to the Indians. because it was my last night to hang 29 . He told me my third eye is not in one spot. After several deep breaths the flame hit the Salvia. familiar. But if you use it to get certain insights or to see something from a different perspective then you are most likely going to find success in your search. I remember this was one of the reasons why one of my friends used it. Each time I talked with him. I told Al what I had just seen. and started to see the formation of the unknown. he kept unraveling a deeper mystery about himself. oblivious to what is going on around oneself. The main stream media keeps insisting if you smoke Marijuana you are going to be an “air head”. I was not expecting to see myself in this way. looking in one direction.filled I started to prepare my mind by repeating to myself to relax. which appeared as a pure white light. “We’re here to help our friend. I noticed they still get what they are looking for. I told him it was strange how my perspective allowed me to see the back part of myself and the Indians at the same time. and the smoke began to flow through me. myself. no shirt and had red and blue painted stripes on his chest and arms. Later that night while talking to Al. It felt as though they had pushed the upper part of my spirit out. My intention with Salvia use is to get a better understanding of my life.” They felt like old acquaintances. at the same time sounding more like a question.
The fact is that I. As I sat on my bed smoking Salvia. I was completely incapacitated to the point where I couldn’t even roll over if I wanted to puke. but ultimately you have nothing to fear. My final and most obvious conclusion was that Salvia should not be mixed with alcohol. I was wrong and wished I had started him on 5x. Now I knew this was going to be a bad experience. I wonder if there is such a place. that this plant is not a party drug and should not be mixed with alcohol. Like Ayahuasca. I was trying to show my old friend Peter the physical effects one may have while using Salvia: increased sweating. It was one of those rare nights when I gave myself no limit on how much I was going to drink. consider this plant to be a spiritual sacrament that can propel a person’s spiritual development and should only be used as such. As a result. 30 . perplexed by how the Salvia would not work if the setting was not right. The only thing I saw was what looked like a shattered image swirling around in darkness. when I had Peter try. girl. but also knew I was going to write a book about Salvia and had to include this very important subject in it. sitting in my bed. already off my drunken rocker inhaling Salvia. He told me it was as if the tape peeled the light right out of him. since I had been unable to travel myself. loss of. thinking he would need a big dose to have an effect. After having dozens of shots and a few beers. This was illogical thinking on my part but for some reason I felt the Salvia had lost its potency. they assume the users have lost their mind. Peter was impatient and too fidgety for me to relax and allow myself to slip away. I found I could not concentrate. and did everything I could to keep my own laughter quiet and be respectful of his experience. Within seconds Peter began the typical Salvia laughter and began rolling around on my bed. Sometimes. I was once called a gypsy by an old work acquaintance when he’d discovered I had moved six times in four years. and sometimes uncontrollable laughter. I gave him 40x. So there I was. don’t mix liquor with it. I think it was because I wished there were some job. as well as the Aztec Indian Shamans. Instantly I went from riding a kid’s roller coaster to an interstellar Star gate roller coaster from hell that lasted for hours. After three to four minutes of this he came out of it and told me that he felt like he was being rolled up. After several attempts to journey I gave up. I dislike the media’s perspective of Salvia. When they look at people laughing when using Salvia. I was on my way to a state of total drunken annihilation.“Las Vegas Friends First Time ” This was a very unusual experience. Once home I got the bright idea to try Salvia. I sat in a chair next to him. It was apparent this was not where I belonged. when in reality they have just discovered an over-whelming sense of joy within themselves. 33 rd Time/Salvia 10x-40x/ “Nothing Happened ”. So to save yourself from a horrible experience with Salvia. He even said he could hear a tape noise as if pulling tape from a roll. I think it’s important to have a good diet in order to have the most beneficial results.out with them before leaving town. or life I could have here in my old home town. I was unable to visit the Salvia realm after inhaling both 10x and 40x.
I’ve had such incredible experiences with the plant that I wanted everybody to see what I saw. Yet I knew from that moment on I could not push Salvia on people. but I did not know the right questions to ask. “It’s like space weed. I told him my interpretation of his experience. After this experience I realized that I can’t push entheogens on people. Eventually a turquoise female spirit came down from the alien’s face. while the eyes of the alien were a light blue. Those factors show the importance of having a healthy life style before doing Salvia. Then a face resembling what looked to be a Grey was pushing through the grid with several human spirits walking around on its face. that Salvia purged all of the toxins out of his body. “It’s Ok. in which a bright orb was shining. I was close enough that my physical body was partially inside my spirit-self. He began to say things like. along with eating lots of junk food. First. otherwise you are wasting your time. but I could 31 . They must desire to try them on their own. Now I know why Al had never told anyone about the things he knows. Peter felt ill for a few more hours before feeling better. so much laughter. He smoked a pack of cigarettes a day. You must have a strong desire to find what you are searching for. He was the only one. There was a time for me when I was searching for a deeper meaning to this life.complete connection with the source of everything. She told me.” and “It’s also like wheat grass. I’m not your experiment. There was one that seemed to notice my situation and was shocked to see what it was witnessing.” they did not mind that I got Peter sick. I realized not everybody is ready for such a leap. They were gray with a smaller purple square in the middle. I myself sweated quite a bit my first ten times.” “How can you go through that. but now I barely sweat at all while doing Salvia. then so much pain?” I told him the other six people I had given it to did not have any bad side effects. My spirit-self was mostly blue with a tinge of pink in it. and as I looked around I saw spirits of all colors walking around. and wondered where all the spirits from the Salvia world were. Aliens brought this shit. The spirit’s hands were on its cheeks with its mouth open. Now all I could see was the outline of my spirit face. or it was becoming inactive in me. I couldn’t see the rest of my body. It’s all I can do. Eventually. It seemed to take much more smoke to get an effect this time. 34 th Time/Salvia 10x-40x/ “It ’s Ok ” I asked the spirits of the next dimension if it was all right that I got Peter sick. I reconnected to the spirit realm and found myself looking at my spirit-self face to face.one hit of 20x of Dragon Salvia/ “Face to Face and Beyond ” I asked to see myself face to face.About ten minutes later he started to feel nauseous and began to vomit a little. Soon I would stop asking questions and start demanding to go to a higher level of awareness using another type of entheogen that would take me to the place I was searching for .” and “I’m not your monkey. Either that. All the spirits were navy blue. which became an indescribable feeling of joy.” “Remind me not to do this shit again. like being dipped into a mirror. 35 th Time/Salvia Purple Sticky 10x two times . I saw an energy grid of squares materialize out of the nothingness. I can only share my experiences with them and hope that they begin their own search.
I felt sad. Laying there in her last hours we just looked into each other’s eyes until at last she gave a final groan sound and arched over with the drool of death coming from her mouth.theosophy-nw. After looking into this symbol I discovered that it was originally called the Svastika and that it was used in Buddhism as a “Heart’s Seal. It boggles my mind that out of all the time I was away in the military or living away from home. An energetic being of consciousness. laid on the breasts of departed Initiates after their death”. only purged her system. lying down next to her. We all simply become one. I felt I was too late in contacting her and when I die. During the last three days of her life. In the center of this petal 2 http://www. Now. and was ready to move to the beyond.feel the lines where my physical body touched the spirit body. there is still the individual self. she won’t be there waiting for me. 36 th Time/Salvia 30x/ “Too Late to Say Good Bye ” My first. I did everything I could to help her and on the last night she barked for me every time I tried to sleep in my room away from her. I saw what looked like a flower petal surrounded by darkness. When we move to the spirit world. especially when she died. and so far only pet was a dachshund named Amber. our true selves. At first I saw a woman with shoulder-length hair that seemed as though it would have been blond if it were not for her overall purple spirit superimposing over her. Once we progress to our full potential. Above this woman were spirits walking into a light. I knew she was nearing the end. My mother tried to get me to leave her but I stayed. and the lines formed what looked like a Swastika symbol. she didn’t die until I was back.htm 32 . we meld into a single all-encompassing being. She was a good dog and I always wanted to be there for her. that I saw who I truly was. I was heartbroken. Amber had been my best friend since I was ten years old. Like the woman spirit they were purple. Once I left the spirit world I felt for the first time. as if she were paying her respects to Amber.org/theosnw/ctg/swas. and for the first time in my life I truly cried. It was as if I were seeing myself in the mirror for the first time. with no memory or sense of self. To say the least. There were other spirits in a line behind her as she was looking down. three years after her death I was getting ready to smoke Salvia and perhaps see if I could say goodbye one more time. I am grateful I was there when she died. to comfort her as she passed on. but knew she had been an advanced spirit. who no longer appeared to be in the spirit realm. I saw the top of them as if I were above them. 37 th Time/Regular Salvia four times-one hit of 10x/ “When You Die ” I had a burning curiosity to know what it would be like to experience death. She did not eat or drink anything.2 This vision indicated to me that Amber had been in the spirit realm but had moved on to a higher realm of consciousness. At the same time it was just a wonderful feeling knowing more about the true nature of who I am. In the vision. We melt together as a single entity. One of the interesting things about Salvia is the way it causes you to feel a tingling sensation that corresponds to what you are seeing.
who had passed away a few weeks earlier. She wanted to know if her father. Then. While talking to Peter I realized that when you die. you made it through. I didn’t expect this. would attempt to reach her father. not until they die. I was unable to affect the speed and force with which I was moving. I felt as though I were screaming. Arms at my side. I had one of them on either side. I saw several red spirits standing about in a black space. As I prepared myself for the journey. and someday we’ll be together again. I’m right here next to them. All I could see was the outline of the spirit as the conversation began: “Hey. and it’s as though there is a bolt-of-energy bus. like that of a jet engine. was somewhere she could speak with him. leaving its spiritual passengers to wander the black landscape of the back side of my eyelids. All I can say about this experience is that death is one hell of a ride. as if I were on the most stupendous roller coaster in the world and enjoying every minute of it. I was getting a bit self-conscious of the fact that I was talking out loud and wondered if my 33 . As the petal of light came between my eyes. 38 th Time/Plain Salvia (un-enhanced-regular leaf chopped up) four hits-then one hit of 10x Purple Sticky (not my personal favorite brand)/ “Contacting a Friends Deceased Father ” There is definitely a synchronicity to this life. I had to tell my roommate of my astonishing experience. When they came to where I was. Now the spirits had changed to a solid red. My friend Joan had scheduled a meeting to have a Tarot reader ask the same thing. there are of course others who have passed on at the same time. “I didn’t expect to see you. in the afterlife. Afterwards I was so impressed at the speed with which I had left my body. looking down at me as if I were lying on the ground. “Perhaps they could try Salvia. flowing around the stream of light. He said “You can’t. tell them I love them. After a bit. “Boy. my vision opened into the spirit realm. During all this.was a white light that grew bigger as it rushed toward me with a loud rumbling sound. I was pulled up into the flow. I watched my fellow spirits on this wild energy ride. in the spirit world. but they’ll learn about it eventually. You’re naked!” said Joan’s father in a surprised and upbeat sort of way.” “Is there anything I can tell your daughter and your wife?” I asked in a sincere tone.” although I wasn’t sure if everyone can get the same results. if you will. I asked where her father was and expressed a desire to speak with him. but you ought to know what you are doing. that transports you to the next realm. They were bright blue in the center of their being.” I asked how I could stop this conversation. Good ones too. I didn’t think you’d come here. You’d better be careful. I saw a bluish green spirit come up in front of me until it merged with my spirit essence.” I remember thinking to myself. because now I was curious as to where one goes after death.” I’m always slightly anxious to know how I can stop a conversation with one of these spirits once they start. I wish I could tell them this myself. I really didn’t expect to see you. with a red glow on their outer edges. He laughed again. I told her I too. Since I believed I had already contacted spirits with my Salvia sessions. Holding in the Salvia smoke. “Yeah. it slowed down until the energy beam dissipated into nothing.” I asked how I could prove to them I had spoken to him. There are bad spirits out here. and he said “Anytime you want to let go. I could see it was a white stream of energy surrounded by human spirits coming headfirst at me.
All I could feel was love and peace. I was left feeling refreshed and at peace with myself. 40 th Time/Salvia 20x/ “Take Me Out of Here ” I asked to be taken out of this reality. I agreed. I told her there are millions of spirits shoulder to shoulder that surround us in a black space. I saw tiny red spirits surround a dark silhouette of myself. Once I got my bathrobe on. He reminded me again to be careful of what I was doing and that he. that he was happy and excited to be in the spirit realm. Once my vision opened into the spirit world. She told me the reader said there are spirits all around us and that her father was with her. When I was finally ready to end our discourse. I felt calm. Joan told me that the way I was telling her how her father had spoken was accurate to the way he sounded when he was alive. I felt enlightened to a point where I felt I had a better understanding of so much. She said. and that time does not exist there. At the same time there was still an element of evil there. Their upper bodies were yellow with the reflection of its light. which all spirits can see. I realized how good I felt. slightly higher than before. I did know. maybe it’s not black. from what her father told me. Perhaps my aura. This strong feeling stayed with me for a couple of hours. It may be the spirits of the dead reflect the life and attitudes of the life lived before death. As Joan’s deceased father said. However this time the sensation was located in my chest. It just felt so good. I told her of the feeling of energy and love I had in my chest. I opened my eyes and got up to tell Joan of what had just transpired. but how could he have known about it when he was still alive? She reminded me that he was seeing his deceased pet and old deceased friends who made visits to him before he had died. Her mother was in the room when I entered. I could feel lines of spirits pushing in from the side of my body until the energy converged in my chest. happy and sure of myself. but not Joan. I had an urge to escape this world for a while. She said he had been a very loving man and perhaps he had left me with some of his own feelings. I told her that I thought it was about the afterlife. I was putting in a lot of overtime at work and was feeling stressed. This was the same feeling I’d developed through the use of Salvia. I began to wonder if all the deceased feel this way in the spirit realm. along with all the other spirits. I’m sure the evil ones don’t give the same feelings of love as the ones he left me with that day. “Maybe we don’t see as they do. I saw spirits walking shoulder to shoulder toward an unseen sun. I asked her how the Tarot card visit had gone the previous night. She wondered what her father wanted to tell her before he died. A couple of times before. and 34 .” I agreed that was a good possibility. Once she came out I told them what had happened. 39 th Time/Salvia 10x/ “Spirits Centering My Energy ” I asked to have my energy centered. Salvia had left a feeling of energy inside of me. told him how I felt. there are bad spirits to watch out for. It felt like a cool sun of energy was radiating from inside of me. To them. he seemed to know that I was done.roommates could hear me and think I had gone crazy. eventually fading away by the end of the day. I could not keep my hand away from my chest. I went into Joan’s room to tell her what had just happened. I got the feeling he was very happy and surprised to be where he was. are always with us.
too.” I thought I heard my Dad saying this outside of the Salvia world. leaving me free to start the session alone in my room. I heard them saying. It became my true schooling in spiritual consciousness. When he finally woke up. I convinced him that I was not going to do the shrooms. I. I instantly felt comforted and knew that they were helping me write this book. I 35 . Also. my goal was to see what it would be like to be a part of the universal consciousness. I began to wonder how much control the spirit realm really has on the physical realm. I was soon accompanied by several smaller yellow spirits that took hold of my arms and legs. I planned to break its surface and peer from its fringes before going in completely. It may be more than I believe/perceive. Surprisingly.” After hearing this. 1 st Shroom Trip (Inocybe Mushroom)/ four small stems and two caps/ “Lifetime of education in 4 to 6 Hours ” Coming home from work during the dark hours of night I began to prepare for my first journey with Inocybe Mushrooms. his intentions were not the same as mine. I didn’t need to escape this world. and that would affect my own experience. Ultimately. felt this is what I needed to do to get rid of some stress. It’s as though they knew what he had wanted to do that day. Chapter 5 Incocybe Mushroom (Shrooms)-The 2 nd Entheogen My friend Al.below they were red. This is particularity true when using shrooms. My friend Peter knew I was planning on doing them soon and wanted to trip with me. 41 st Time/Salvia 20x/ “I Know. just like the spirits had said. who had first guided me beyond myself. helping me to move. and simply surrender to the experience. I spent several days preparing for my first shroom session. But once the experience was over. I had felt that the Salvia spirit has done everything it could for me up to this point and wanted to personally thank it. We got our hands on you. it actually worked. he said he wanted to go outside. I knew that he would be a distraction for me. I learned a lot from this first experience with shrooms. We Got Our Hands on You ”. This event would take me past my limited awareness and blast me to the fringes of the universal consciousness. “Come on! Let’s go outside. I went to his room where I found him still asleep. and on what I wanted to learn from the experience. as he had been when I tried to show him how to do Salvia Divinorum. The first time. told me that you see what you expect to experience when you do any type of psychedelic. Learning to appreciate this world is important to stay grounded. I heard one of the female spirits say. The smoke directed my perception into the back sides of my eyelids and showed me my own blue spirit standing in the darkness. just my own head. wherever it led me. I was willing to let go. “I know. deciding on a good time for the journey.
so I turned them off. They are concepts of illusions that make up our reality. I am projecting myself and everything around me. I started to have a mental conversation with myself. I came to the realization that I have nothing to fear but myself. Once this warmth had encompassed my whole being. I turned on my light to see what else I could see but for the most part everything seemed to go back to normal once the lights were on. This lasted for about twenty minutes before wearing off. Instead of trying to fight it. I felt the only way I could defeat this inner demon of mine was not to fear it. that I project myself. waking me up to start the teaching. complete caps with an additional two stems to be the dose I would use for my first time. The first urge that came over me was to shield myself from harmful spirits. I put on a CD called Detaching from the World which is an ambient music CD to meditate to. I don’t know what all the fuss is about the taste of shrooms. I could make out the shapes in my dark room but now it was beginning to pulsate and seemed as if it were about to shatter away into nothing. As soon as this thought came to my mind. I felt slightly nauseated. A feeling of warmth moved from my feet up to my head. I had no problem eating them. When they were present I felt as though they were tuning my frequencies so I could better perceive other 36 . I dozed off a bit before the effects of the shrooms began to kick in. As I watched this beautiful image I felt that there is no such thing as time or space. The lights were hurting my eyes. I felt so distant from my true self that I saw it was going to take some time before I could understand who I really am. As the pace increased along the way I was able to grasp faint inklings of the lessons being taught to me. As I was peeling away the onion rings of my mind. It felt like I started with kindergarten and went all the way to senior year of college in the space of an hour. The clock on my dresser added a glow to my vision. I did this by pulling my bed sheets over me while at the same time imagining an actual shield around my body. At two different times I could just see what looked like a Grey. I started to laugh once the nauseated feeling went away and began to feel a round. I chewed on each one separately until there was nothing left but the taste going down my throat. including the reality I perceive. After about forty-five minutes of lying there. I turned off my lights and laid down on my bed with my head propped up by two pillows. I have no limits in the infinite. but rather give it a hug. just a blue/purple grid framework that made up the images. I felt as though I were beginning to understand how our reality coincides with and relates to the unseen realms.changed out of my work clothes into my pajamas. and picked out two small. I knew then that this was going to be a key part of my spiritual development. What felt like many little lessons came at me with increasing speed and velocity. which consisted of creatures and geometric shapes that were devoid of any texture or detail. the dragon vanished. My body started to warm up. swirling disk of energy in my lower back. I was instantly confronted with a phantom-like purple image of a dragon that was trying to attack me. as the whole image was very dark and the aliens were coming and going from my field of view. and began to think of what I wanted to experience. Next I began to see a pinkish ball of consciousness emanating light (which could be different frequencies) condensing outward to the point where it creates our perceivable reality. for I create my own demons.
such as exploring one’s own truth. I could feel my body getting warmer. it finds everything it desires. giving you the power to see beyond the five senses. After about forty minutes I started an internal dialog with myself. If we could tune ourselves in with different frequencies we would be able to perceive different realities. All I had to do now was let go of all my fears and dive 37 . whereas Salvia just gave me small fragments of insights at a time. I felt as if I were Humpty Dumpty. Still I had an unshakable urge to release this information. I also thought there was no point in telling anyone this because they too were a projection of my mind. for those who are ready. There is a great deal of information available showing that shrooms have been used for religious and spiritual practices. that I had shattered my ego to find out who I truly am. we might temporarily vanish from this illusion. Although I know of people who have taken shrooms just for a kick. that knowledge has been reduced to a state of a taboo. I sat in my bed with all the lights off and thought how I wanted to be inside the Universal Consciousness. one monster size cap. will seek this information when the time is right for them. 2 nd Shroom Trip (Inocybe Mushroom)/Four real big stems. Unfortunately. That’s fine. If everyone used psychedelics. as chakra energy began pulsating in my lower back. By morning I had put my ego back together again. Although Salvia is still a very important tool for self-discovery. Towards the end of this session I was able to reflect on what had happened to me. I’ll admit that I admire the power this reality has to offer and I respect its complexities even more than I had before starting my spiritual entheogenic quest. I felt the only place one can find true peace is within oneself. As before. Once it looks within. It’s probably a good thing that the majority of people believe in this physical reality. the pitch going up and down like the tuning of a radio station. in mainstream society. I ate the shrooms when I got home from work. but in a better form. or learned to correctly meditate. Shrooms were able to rework my ego. I sensed that the reason we create this reality is because our true self (universal consciousness) is looking for something in the beyond. otherwise I imagine that it would disappear. Soon the pulsating moved up my body and I felt the moment was nearly at hand.domains. Psychedelics are similar to an illegal computer program that will grant you access to anything. shrooms. Frequencies are at the core of perception. and one medium size cap/ “Connected to the Universal Consciousness ” The next journey I had with Inocybe mushroom was a true blast off from physical reality. I now look forward to participating in this grand hologram. shrooms can be used for a higher purpose. Shrooms in many ways are more intense than Salvia. and then realize everything is an illusion. one small stem. So get ready to take a trip into the neutral zone with me and be prepared to have your beliefs shaken to a point that makes you wonder and question what reality really is. I felt there was nothing more important than what I was learning with these substances. I knew that not everyone would be ready to hear what I have to say or see what I’ve seen. My ears were ringing. were a test. to be taken after spending a good portion of this life progressing spiritually.
I was rocketed away at an incredible speed in an eternal loop of pure consciousness. I assume it was to change my perception of life in general. The intensity was like I was being shot across the galaxy at lightning speeds. I don’t really know. but in a different and better form. He told me I was being too loud and an hour of this was enough. looking at myself in the mirror that was leaning against the wall. I felt that I had shattered my ego and was putting myself back together again. When Peter knocked on the door I had come back into this reality and found myself on the edge of my bed screaming. There was still a residual force pulling me into the universal consciousness. I felt like I dropped into someone else’s life. and bending the grid work of this domain. I went back into my room and laid down on my cluttered floor. I started to see alien faces that looked like the Greys I had seen before. I went to the bathroom to urinate but my penis was numb and I was only able to let out a few drops at a time. no longer a part of this life. this life of which I had no memory. stretching. revealed a blue spirit having a ball of white light emanating from its stomach. Everything I was witnessing was outside of me. The sheets had been torn off the mattress and lay tangled in knots. I was drooling and biting my bed sheets like an animal.into the unknown. Peering into my dilated eyes. memories. it felt like I was sucked out of the endless time loop and dropped into this time. I felt like I was being prepared to go someplace. As the sun came up I told my friends that what I had experienced was amazing and provided them with highlights. I sensed the intentions of the aliens asking if I were ready to go into the universal consciousness. For what purpose or to what benefit. I let go of all my fear and agreed to be connected. There was no longer a sense of identity. told me that I was crazy last night. from there two arcs of white and blue energy made the shape of the infinity symbol over him. All that existed was pure joy and love. My perception went behind me and I could see a glowing red power cord slithering towards me like a serpent. appearing to turn inside out. After a moment of hesitation. on the other hand. and thought how similar this experience was to the Humpty Dumpy story. Once he turned on the lights in my room. eventually getting off and lying next to the toilet until I was able to pee again. I realized that time does not exist in 38 . As I lay on my bed. My hand began obsessively feeling the back of my neck. I had to force myself to try and stay in this reality. It felt like I had been given anesthesia. Lying there on the floor. My vision was vibrating. After an hour or two. legs up and hands clenched like I was on the most intense roller coaster ride ever. but it was dark and I could only make out the shape of their heads and their eyes. This would take hours. and figure out who I was and recapture all my memories. and screaming for over an hour. I felt that I was already dead and in purgatory. I stayed in the bathroom for some time entertaining myself by making weird faces in the mirror. drooling all over myself. To me it seemed I had been in this state for only a minute. I felt the presence of the aliens again telling me that they were tuning my frequencies and my ears began to ring with a fluctuating pitch. or space. After another hour or so I was able to relieve myself. They. time. I was instantly connected to the cord which transported my mind to the all-encompassing universal mind. I was trying to pull memories of who I was and anything that could help me anchor myself. The universal consciousness. So I sat on the toilet seat until my legs went numb.
First I started to hear a ringing in my ears. Despite the fact that DMT occurs naturally. orange. while appreciating it even more for its power and intricacies. it will never come off. increasing in pitch until I was able to see bright colors of red. 39 . crawl inside your imagination and create whatever you want through love. My inner demon of fear has been released. believes that the pineal gland produces large amounts of DMT when we are born and just before we die. The author of DMT The Spirit Molecule. Our illusion filled world does everything it can to convince us it is real through pain. Once again he put the same size portion on my pipe. This time I suggested that we use the pipe I had used for Salvia. We are part of an boundless consciousness in a limitless space. He told me that DMT sticks to everything and once I used it in my pipe. Like Salvia and shrooms. Now I feel as though I am. inhaling as much of the cotton ball tasting smoke as I could. Rick Strassman’s book. I put the flame to the chemical. Sitting outside on his back porch. but this time I was gently transferred into another dimension. But if we blast through the illusions with a quiet mind and love in our hearts. I quickly took some notes of the previous events before going to bed. It melted down inside the can with only a faint taste sticking to my tongue. Knowing this gave me a stronger urge to enjoy this reality. Dr. and yellow flowing towards me in the shape of multiple squares. and was very much a part of it. grainy substance onto a soda can that had been converted into a pipe. it is a schedule-one drug in America. Why? I would like to hear the governments explanation on why it’s a scheduled 1 drug. hardships and distractions. It is also believed that dreams are a result of this chemical. I had been awake for about twenty eight hours and was in dire need of some sleep. this chemical has done wondrous things for me. It is also found in nearly all animals and plants. The underlying reason I started this whole journey was because I was not content or at peace with myself. there are other references that will help you connect the dots to imagine why psychedelics in general are illegal. The typical taste people claim to get when smoking DMT was not bad to me. In Appendix A. Rick Strassman. But in my eyes they are among the greatest tools for freeing our minds. I prepared myself for an intense DMT trip. nothing will ever get in our way. which resides in the center of our brain.The 3 rd Entheogen DMT is a natural psychedelic chemical that is produced by our pineal gland. I watched with anticipation as my friend Devin prepared what looked to be a ridiculously small portion of a yellowish-white. Waking up after a few hours and rethinking the experience I concluded that I had traveled through time into a universe of love. So get rid of all distractions.the universal consciousness. the engine that creates everything. Love is the fuel for the Universal Consciousness. Chapter 6 Dimethyltryptamine (DMT) . 1 st Time/DMT/ “Welcome to the Light Realm ” From reading the reports of other people’s experiences in Dr. and my frequencies are vibrating at a higher level.
with an intense smile on my face. I felt as though shrooms had taught me the most. Strassman’s patients. Soon after the passing of the green translucent cylinder. I felt that I could have gone through it from the back side had I wanted to. and once the visuals were done. we need to have our eyes shut. What I first saw was what looked to be lips that were divided into four equal sections. where I fit into everything and how everything fits into me. However. The whole experience lasted maybe ten to fifteen minutes. he told me that he believes there are portals we can navigate if we so choose. I closed my eyes again. I took several deep breaths. I have talked to people who can see things with their eyes open while doing psychedelics. unlike Joe Rogan. Yet once I finished that particular journey. Salvia followed as a close second. 2 nd Time/DMT/ “Realities Collide ” Around midnight on a warm summer’s night. seeing the same thing as before. They each gave me a different perspective of how life works. These yellow and white hued rows were cylindrical in shape. An overwhelming feeling of euphoria came over me as I moved my head from side to side. Perhaps this difference is due to the fact that Dr. If anything. I talked to Natalie about life as she was admiring the stars. or something else that terrified them. letting him know that I had really enjoyed that experience. I was able to remember everything from the experience. folding 40 . tuning my frequencies to perceive the realm I was about to enter. I placed the pipe down and leaned further back into the chair. nothing about this experience was crazy to me. It was like two tubes. clearing my mind of life’s matters and burned the DMT. Also. At this particular time in my psychedelic experience. I set up for a session with DMT. Flanking both sides of this person were two red snakes weaving about while hissing at me. The majority of them frequently saw aliens. After telling Devin what I had seen and about the green cylinder. I felt welcomed to this realm. I placed a chair on the ground and sat down to prepare the pipe.This all happened within thirty seconds of taking the hit. absorbing its soft fumes. Then out of nowhere. My ears began to ring. From time to time I opened my eyes to see if I could see anything that way. the bright colors began to fade away into the blackness of my closed eyelids. a green translucent cylinder moved from the left of my vision to the right. Strassman administered the doses intravenously while I smoked it. and housed a series of crossed cigar shapes. but for others like me. Unlike Joe Rogan’s documentation of his trip of DMT (on YouTube. then DMT with the least results. Meanwhile.com called Joe Rogan talks DMT) and his forgetting a lot of his experience like a dream. one on top and one on the bottom of my field of vision. I was able regain myself completely. with no residual feelings. The only difference I could see was that everything looked bluer and had a slight vibration to it. I opened my eyes and looked at Devin and smiled at him. rotating in opposite directions. it felt like I had returned to a forgotten paradise where I felt a strong sense of belonging. I don’t know if there is a difference between taking DMT intravenously or smoking it. I realized that they all had played a crucial role in my understanding of the different levels of consciousness. except now there were two rows. as my friend Natalie and I tried our best to ignore the relentless mosquitos. one inside the other. As these bright colors vibrated towards me I started to make out a person sitting Indian style with her hands in a prayer pose. but my experience was totally different from Dr.
the rest of the lips were absorbed into void of darkness. and after a brief conversation I decided to do it one more time. along with its chin and top of its head. The one closest to me looked like a female that was about to give me a hug. which is the way I prefer it.in on themselves with different shades of purples and pinks. On the top and bottom of this UFO-shaped object were yellow rings and between these were several counter-rotating discs. but nevertheless was kind enough to let me contemplate this new theory of mine. I was able to get six sessions in. my attention was drawn to figures of what looked like the outlines of people. looking out a window. choosing how many times and how quickly I use DMT. The entire scene had a yellow glow to it. I recalled telling Natalie during the experience what I was seeing. It was colored with purple and pink squares like the lips in the last session. As we were leaving the woods. purple woman. I prepared my pipe and proceeded with my usual method of smoking psychedelics by 41 rd . The black voids of my closed eyelids were soon filled with a face that looked like a voodoo mask with yellow eyes. occasionally looking up at the stars. There are spirits that are creating everything we perceive. At the same time. being sucked into the center. Soon. She seemed doubtful of such possibilities. which I believed was necessary to see how far I could go in the DMT world. This object rose up along the face with a bright white light emanating from behind it. Plus. one right after the other. These outlines were a mix of blues and purples. The face was looking and rising upward as it let out a cynical looking laugh. Then. Soon. Beneath it came what appeared to be a UFO. and I interpreted the whole thing as a spiritual machine. with no other colors present. without anyone wanting to have a turn. There are no distractions from other people and nothing to feel self-conscious about. On its forehead was a red diamond-shaped tattoo. When both the snake and the woman had vanished into the middle. The other side of the table was not visible. in the shape of small squares. I was seeing Natalie walking in front of me with my eyes closed. I am able to go at my own pace. except there was some reds in this one. 3 Time/DMT/ “Spirit Machine ” After finishing the last session and giving a brief synopsis to Natalie of what I had just experienced. on the bottom half was a green snake. I prepared myself to reenter that particular realm one more time. Once again. and realized that perhaps lighting also affects the visions. but then my frequencies returned back to this level of perception and the vision faded. and approached me from both sides of the UFO object. Next came a faint vision of a person sitting at a table. also being drawn in. 4 th Time/DMT/ Same day-1 st Time/ “Molecular Love ” This was the first time I was able to try DMT alone. centered on the top of these lips was a naked upside down. the yellow figure passed from my perception and I opened my eyes. and felt one with the universe. I told Natalie what I had seen. but another figure who was also glowing yellow was walking back and forth in front of me. Its mouth looked like a jagged cut out Halloween pumpkin. much like when taking Salvia. I was left with a euphoric feeling. I felt even more connected to the other realms just outside of everyday perception.
how do I vibrate correctly in correspondence to what I’m looking for? But I’m already sure he would tell me to meditate. Blowing out the DMT smoke. without boundary or comprehension of one another. I would finally read The Spontaneous Fulfillment of Desire. feeling as though there was another intelligence in my presence. I began a dialogue with an unknown being who told me there is nothing in space. yet my eyes still must be closed. right down to the molecular level. and the only way I can find what I’m looking for is to first change myself from within. As in the last session. I realized there are spirits within spirits. Although I did not know this at the time of this particular session. 6 th Time/DMT/ Same day-3 rd Time/ “Nothing Out There ” After finishing the last two sessions. yet profound answer to my question. I was sitting outside. laid down on my bed. down into my throat. I saw the same purple molecules floating around. I saw what looked like DNA being produced by two red gears that had hundreds of red human spirits inside of them. I will project what it is that I’m looking for. It 42 . I had an overwhelming feeling there were other spirits that were aware of what I was doing. I set my pipe on the dresser in front of me. 5 th Time/DMT/ Same day-2 nd Time/ “Spirits Within ” Right after I did the last session with DMT. DMT visions are better seen in the light. pushing the gears to move. and I wanted to meet them. I also wanted to be taken into space. Under the covers. where I was taken to their mother ship which was actually located inside me. I decided to try DMT outside to get more light. Love is what everything is made of. I saw what looked like a purple molecule flowing in a tunnel along with other molecules right behind it. my perception went inside my head. curtains drawn. wanting to communicate with me. There really are realities within realities. At that point. and into my chest. Unlike Salvia where I saw the visions better in the dark. while the molecules had tentacles waving about as they moved. At that moment I was seconds away from blasting off alone in my room to try and find the answer through DMT. I demanded to be taken out of this reality and be shown what my inner reality truly is. they somehow manage to coexist. As my perception faded into the darkness of the underside of my sheets. I re-packed my pipe for another trip. except this time there were other images added to my vision. I suppose the reason I keep asking this question is because I feel unable to find a soul mate. So I demanded to be taken to them. which I did. by Deepak Chopra. My only question to Mr. I realized the reason I can’t find the one I’m looking for is because I am not vibrating correctly. The tunnel seemed comprised of grid squares.lying on my bed with the lights out. a yellow-green glowing centipede rushed past me. There is always an infinite amount of possibilities out there. I was curious about where to find love. However. Chopra is. like my first Salvia trip. It was a simple. and pulled the sheets over my head. It was so close I thought we touched. After looking at this for a moment. It takes thousands of spirits to maintain my spirit. I then realized that love is everywhere. Once again.
while other globes spun around it. I thought of the Pleiadians. leaving me with a sense of connection to those entities.” with the “ones” and “zeros” forming the illusionary structures. I looked down and saw a multitude of silhouetted red spirits. and I know there are realities I haven’t seen!” It assured me I was wrong. It was as though I were at the center of a universe in which nothing existed except euphoria. I sat in the chair for a moment longer. I tried to break out of reality with my eyes open but soon gave up and closed my eyes. 43 .said I belonged here on Earth and they had created all this for me. Once I reached past the Earths aura I saw nothing but blackness. and there was nothing out there. intelligent being come and pick me up with its ship. grounded to the spot where I sat. I asked if this is what it looked like inside their ship. The grid of this person was red on the bottom. I was returned to the frequency that allowed me to see a kaleidoscope of yellows and oranges. As I watched this figure I was told again by the unseen entity. back in my body. This time was certainly not the case. It was as though my spirit really did go on a long journey and now. Suddenly a very strong feeling of love overcame my being. contemplating what had just happened before opening my eyes. as my vision changed to a dark space with blue-glowing orbs in the formation of a square. I refilled the pipe and tried again. it felt at home. This time I asked that the unseen. satisfaction and euphoria came over me as I looked around. In the center of “The cubical room stood a person composed of grid lines and lacking any other features. It stayed to my left for a minute. I felt very relaxed and at peace with myself. There is only here and now. I saw the many different colors of reds. They responded with a yes. I responded with a harsh. I wanted to take in as much DMT as possible in order to get visuals with my eyes open. A sense of calmness. There have been times in my life when I could feel a variety of emotions at the same time. Opening my eyes and seeing the trees in front of me. I know you’re out there. an intense euphoria filled my inner being to the point where there was no room for any other emotion. I was then shown the inside of a large cube that had streaks of green-glowing dashes moving along the black walls. oranges. Once the smooth smoke of DMT entered my being. but the intensity of euphoria left me in a state of calmness. and yellows that made up the Earths auras. It said they were trying to keep me entertained and focused on this reality. It was like flying through a rainbow. a red-colored UFO came spinning sideways across my field of vision. “Bullshit. the so called entities that Billy Meier has had contact with. I became aware of movement as I ascended through the Earth’s atmosphere. Then. I did have a new sense of appreciation for my daily environment. I felt as though I had been given a Christmas present. Without knowing where I was or what I was seeing. and gradually faded to yellow at the head. 7 th Time/DMT/ Same day -4 th Time/ “Inside the Ship ” Right after session six. After recognizing these profoundly deep emotions. reminding me of the Matrix. All the while. orange in the middle. there was nothing else out there except for what spirits had created. out of nowhere. 8 th Time/DMT/ Same day-5 th Time/ “Soul Growth ” Immediately after the last session ended I took another hit of the DMT and with no particular questions in mind.
My body was literally vibrating to a new frequency. I found that I am 44 . a small yellow silhouette of an infant emerged from the light. Eventually I gave up and closed my eyes. and I could make out some feminine features. but was unable to make sense of their chatter. Soon. As I got to the tree line I hung my bathrobe on a tree branch and removed my watch. I was staring at the shed door shaking my head from side to side. the father standing nearby. I felt happy and excited to be in this reality. I closed my eyes and saw a small yellow box in the distance. I felt like a member of a tribe. and continued to walk further. This yellow box began projecting itself into a long. I reached the field where I first learned to go beyond myself. to no avail. Outside the square tunnel was an orange energy surrounded by bright piercing yellow light. and yellow flower kaleidoscopes twirling about. It remained with only a blue glow superimposed over everything. I no longer felt trapped inside it. a red silhouette-figure was projected around the first two silhouettes. I had an urge to run through the woods naked.First. but as if I were a part of it. I had to force them to stay open as closing my eyes while doing psychedelics had become a habit. and was soon surrounded by a second figure this one was orange and about the size of a teenager. Feeling the damp ground on my feet I felt even more connected to nature. My teeth were nearly buzzing with an intense euphoria as I stretched my body on the chair. I soon began to feel a bit too connected with nature when mosquitos started to bite me. Yet I know I must first find out who I truly am. I had a strong urge to call a girl that interested me at the time. twisting corridor. yet free of its illusionary boundaries. I grabbed some ferns. I began to walk deeper into the woods. I could hear human voices. I knew that there were important things to do. This one was walking towards me. Following that one. 9 th Time/DMT/ Same day -6 th Time/ “The Moment in Time ” As I allowed the DMT smoke to flow into the depths of my chest the feeling of wanting to be with my soul mate remained. I feel as though all that is needed for me to feel complete in this world is to be with my soul mate. leaving nothing to separate me from it. trying to rip reality apart. and be content with myself before I find whoever she may be. 10 th Time/DMT/ Same day -7 th time/ “Illusionary Boundary ” Once again I tried to tear apart reality with my eyes open. and put them in my hair. I could see what appeared to be a mother holding a baby. changing colors gradually from yellow to orange and red. Now standing there with nothing on my body except my own skin. square. seeing red. After smoking DMT seven times within an hour. I saw a small light radiating outward toward the center of my closed eyes. After a moment. Once the vision faded away. I was left with the impression that this would be the moment in time when I might be the happiest in my life. It opened up to a space where there were glowing red silhouettes of standing people. and grabbed a few more for swatting. As I looked around the crowd of spirits. where I had discovered that I am all-powerful and at the same time insignificant. Unfortunately. when I have a child with my soul mate. orange. as they are said to repel bugs.
bringing the next image. There were two doors in which two grid-lined females came out. I felt even closer to understanding my true self. and where I wanted to go in this life. While knowing that there is so much more for me to learn. A Mayan-looking stone face appeared to be twirling around.The 4 th Entheogen I had been interested in LSD for a while. Chapter 7 Lysergic Acid Diethylamide (LSD) . with the exception of the type of entheogen I was about to experience next: LSD. after reading about it. The face remained in my field of vision while the outline of a hallway in purples. I was pleasantly pushed deeper into my chair with a powerful smile stretching across my face. It seemed to be a rattlesnake. That little flower at that moment felt more important to me than any other diploma or award ever presented to me. First I saw a blue spirit of a person that slowly started to have a light glow from its stomach. I picked it up. pinks and blacks emerged to the right of it. It was smiling and had triangular. yet all I could see was the front of its face. Near where I had learned all of this. constantly flowing from one extreme to the another. trying to balance myself on a central point of consciousness. a small purple weed was nestled in the thick grass. maroon eyes. This image vanished away rather quickly. It occurred to me that this is what I had come out here to find and I was ready to head back.infinitely dualistic in nature. They too were colored purple and pink with black inside. reptilian self that had lain dormant within me. 11 th Time/DMT/ “3 rd Eye Transformation ” In a room full of other people all journeying to other realms. There was a bright yellow light in the shape of the snake’s rattling tail centered over its forehead. feeling like this was my diploma from the spirit world for moving up in my spiritual understanding of consciousness. Thinking of nothing. I think the reason I saw them was because I had heard a girl coming into the room towards the end of the trip. Then the person transformed into a snake. With the flower in my left hand I briskly jogged back. after reading about it in a book called Psychedelic Drugs Reconsidered and other resources. Regarding the two women in the hallway. I could not understand why it was illegal. Also. I joined them with DMT. My conclusion from this experience was that my third eye had been transformed from my limited human consciousness to a primitive. and I had to give it a try. This is why I don’t recommend doing psychedelics in a party setting. I felt as though I had reached the next step. looking at it more closely now. as I could see its tail shaking. There were nothing but positive and beneficial uses with no harmful side effects 45 . It appeared to be the holy grail of psychedelics.
Then I laid on a bed while listening to a Shpongle CD in the back ground while talking to friends. They seemed to be connected at the base. and that I should do it an hour or two before going to the Disco Biscuits show I was to attend later that evening. Then. (Picture goes here-“Serpent Energy“) It took about an hour and a half before I started to notice anything. Beer and cigarettes are. Seven dollars is what I paid to get my single dose of LSD. It looked like eight flights down when in actuality. taking a moment here and there to notice if I could see anything with my eyes closed. I started to notice an increase in saliva secretion and my jaw began to tighten. focusing on whatever happened to be there. As we walked to the show I confided in one of my new friends from the 46 . Since my paranoia about the cops was getting to me. My friend Devin told me it would be enough. these things are illegal because they would challenge main stream religion. The first thing I saw were a group of blue energy streaks falling down in the shape of a cylinder. Like Mr. continuing to talk with my friends. I then remembered an old friend telling me that acid is something he wished he had had while we were at a concert. without doubt. As I spoke to some people at the entrance of the hotel. While conversing with a new friend out on the catwalk of a hotel. not knowing that the rule might be in place in order to keep the users from freeing their minds. making them want nothing to do with the military or the corporate agendas set by our government. the police were confiscating psychedelics as part of their jobs. your third eye. Whatever I was looking at. and turn people into peace loving individuals that would see no reason for wars. They reassured me that I was fine and that we would be going soon. I had doubts it would have any effect on me at all. It reminded me of when I was a kid walking up the stairs to a haunted house. cut heavily into big pharmaceutical companies profits. I would look to the depths of my vision. Smith. It was such a small amount. so I knew they meant business. strobe lights flashing. I kept insisting that we leave for the show. as if I were looking into the Grand Canyon. I contemplated this for a while because I had never done it before and wondered how I would react under the influence of this drug within a large group of people. I felt giddy and a bit off balance and started to have perceptual distortions. where I would need a quiet environment with nothing to disturb my visions. So. looking for illegal drugs. many times more harmful to the human body. Psychedelics give you the chance to see things with your true sight. Smith agent from the movie the Matrix. I patiently waited a bit longer until they were ready to go. Just the night before.presented. Yet. I decided to take it before going to the show. my full attention would be locked on it for a good amount of time until I noticed that its surroundings were stretching a great distance. I was also thinking of it like Salvia. looking for anyone attempting to escape the reality of the Matrix. Walking down the stairs was entertaining. I thought of them like the Mr. below this emerged the outline of blue-glowing snakes that snapped both at me and at each other. they entered any room that was left open and searched it. it was only one. I kept thinking about the cops who were in their undercover vans looking for someone to bust. I watched this for a moment until they began to fade away. I saw one guy get put in the meat wagon the night before.
and deeply happy I had made it that far. in which he shows the curious fascination the Catholic Church has for the pine cone symbol at the Vatican. I saw the bottom half that looked like a pine cone and both sides of the stage containing pine cone motifs. I read Dr. I learned that our brain is capable of creating enough of this chemical to help us make the transition between the physical world and the spirit realm. my black belt in karate. The mirrors affected my perception of the room. which were in the middle of the first floor about three quarters of the way back. as if we were all mentally in tune with one another. (Picture of “Spirit Molecule”) I sat down and instantly noticed something I had not seen the night before: a mural of an angel on the ceiling. or even my Eagle Globe and Anchor at my Marine Corps boot camp graduation. which. that it made me wish I had a way of easily recording my thoughts. (In fact. DMT is a psychoactive chemical that helps us dream and is produced when we are born and in large amounts just before we die. on YouTube. we linked up with our other friends who were already at the bar. Due to the poor lighting all I could make of this figure was its silhouette. my immediate concern was to get past the cops undetected. I remembered seeing a painting of Jesus and four psilocybin mushrooms with green leaves. I don’t think anyone sat in their designated seats. in which he discusses the connection between the pineal gland in the brain and DMT. I also watched “The 2012 Enigma. I knew they were going to be there. It’s their 47 . the symbolic.” a video by David Wilcock.) I picked the best ones I could find. with the use of symbols? Is there a secret society or mystery religion that had put this whole thing together? Do secret societies use psychedelics to expand their consciousness? I mean. I felt excited. associate’s degree at Hudson Valley Community College. when we saw the first show. Rick Strassman’s DMT: The Spirit Molecule. I was confronted with so many new insights. I locked my arm with my new friend who knew what I was experiencing. Once we were in view of the Calvin Theater. and with my new LSD vision. Getting my ticket felt like I had been handed a diploma for the psychedelic journeys I had been studying over the last year and a half. I also began to feel connected to everyone. yet interacting with this world at the same time.com. It felt more rewarding than getting my high school diploma. I continued to look forward and away from the cops who were close behind us. In addition. I had also seen this image in my college art history text book. explaining to her how wild it seemed to be tripping. many tribal societies in the world use psychedelics for initiation into adulthood and divination. did not correspond to the tickets. After examining it for a minute. At www. why not? I had already seen evidence of Christianity possibly having started with the use of psilocybin mushrooms. It appeared that the hidden genius of this image was the angel. I watched it sway back and forth in 3D.com. The pineal gland has the same shape as the pine cone. but at the time thought nothing of it. because they had been there the night before. As we blended in with the crowd at the front door. we headed to our seats. DMT. It felt like a protective shield of reassurance. but before I could play this visual game.hotel. and was moments away from getting my ticket. winged pine cone of the “Spirit Molecule”. Once we had passed the security check point. I considered the question of why would this connection be displayed in plain view. incidentally.gnosticmedia. Once in the first foyer I felt safe. It appeared to be in a tunnel.
Under the glass like surface were copies of me doing the same thing. some of the crowd had to take breaks. the vision faded into darkness. (Picture of “Choose Your head”) While everyone made beelines straight to the bathrooms or the bar. White lines from behind and above the crowd shot out. (pic “Spirit Meditation”) After a little more wandering around in the darkness of my mind. It looked like a Roman warrior beating a drum. Nothing could have been farther from the truth. Without my noticing it. The copies faded into infinity. from the viewpoint of its closest corner. a large square rushed up. (Picture of “Dimensional Matrix”) Just before the show started. I could see they were playing the notes in sync with the colored lights shining on the stage. I looked down its length. the band had gathered on the stage and the music had begun. Each face was different and I felt once again that I was in the Matrix. watching the band and probably did not appear to be enjoying it. Within it were open square shelves housing what looked to be spirit heads that glowed blues and reds on their outlining features. they got the best applause I have ever heard a band receive. while the rest of the face had a light green tint. and had the choice of whichever spirit head I wanted for this life. I. I closed my eyes for a couple of minutes and saw myself. because it was cold on the way there. and it became translucent. The floor glowed outward for few feet around me. The lights came up. I told Devin of my thoughts on this. I was able to understand and feel the music more easily than before. crisscrossing. this is a really good band to listen to while tripping as they played consistently for about two hours without the typical breaks other bands take. materialization formed. much less a bathroom trip. as it stretched beyond my view. fully revealing the picture of the angel as a winged woman in a flowing dress. and was unable to see its end. After about an hour and a half of non-stop playing. I stood like a statue. This surprised me. The music that was playing supplied a beat. I sat down to close my eyes and explore what other possibilities awaited deep within my mind. had no need for a break. and loving every second of it. however. Each color had its own frequency. stopping short in front of me. and the cold usually makes me have to urinate. When the band finally ended their first session. After a brief moment of darkness. I thought to myself. It certainly had mine. It made me feel as though the angel were commanding respect and attention. I also realized how much more I was enjoying the band this time. leaving me believing that I am truly without an end. Within these squares floated other people sitting in Indian style with their hands 48 . After seeing that. and had his girlfriend take a picture of this angel mural for me with her cell phone. The shelves themselves had a bright blue glow. I sat and contemplated the image. colored green on my hands and knees on a floor made of green pulsating energy. While everyone else was having a great time. making odd-shaped squares. I understood why people still went to the concerts even after they’ve gone sixty plus times. compared when I was drunk the night before. I first saw a photographic negative of a crowd of people standing and staring at me.religion. I was completely in tune with the musical vibrations they were producing. thanks to the LSD. It was beautiful.
sitting Indian style. I suppose that it’s difficult to accept that our beliefs can actually be truth. without needing a break. Thinking about the last vision. his body twisting and jolting. I was able to last the second half of the show. He seemed to be in convulsions of pain. I was having a difficult time accepting what I imagined to be the truth and seeing what everything really is. Almost before I realized it. and she was devoid of a body. As their hands touched. consisting primarily of glowing blue wires. I thought perhaps the golden light color represented the way emotional energy is seen in the spirit world. He was half man and half machine. giving an excellent performance. splitting the difference vertically in the middle. Her red lips were closed. The band was back in gear. Instead. conscious energy. (picture. a program within an illusion. a golden ray of light vibrated out from where they connected. as if being electrocuted. Whatever I focused on kept me entertained before closing my eyes again. distorting the black and white squares.“High-five’ Your Buddha”) Once again there was a period of thoughtless blackness before the next vision appeared. Once the vision faded. (picture “Machine Within”) I opened my eyes and looked at the wallpaper as it moved and shifted in slow circles. covered with black and white squares. making her appear somewhat expressionless. With a blanket over me and my eyes closed. Only in the end did I break my trance to give the Disco Biscuits the sincerest applause I had ever given a band. This time a figure emerged. While being in a Zen type focus until the end. the eye sockets were tunnels into which the squares flowed. The face stretched out from an unseen source. a vision manifested of what looked like a woman’s face. about two hours. I tried to see if there was anything else LSD would show me. I don’t believe that I am a machine underneath. a blue glowing person appeared. and become as bright as you can. First I saw a flash of the concert. I stood there like a statue. She did not have eyes. “Do secret societies use psychedelics?” Who else would use symbols to show the importance of the pineal gland? Then. enhancing our connectedness with our true selves. giving a line of blue people. trying to tear through the illusion of reality. and once back in our room I nestled up in my sleeping spot on the floor under a table. I eventually got up from under the table and relieved 49 . I felt as though the man represented me. because black and white squares are considered to be one of the Freemasons symbols. as if praying or meditating. high-fives as they walked by him. There were no ears or hair on her head. (Picture “Masonic Woman”) The walk back to the hotel was fairly uneventful. If we connect with other people peacefully we vibrate more brightly. but I was getting to the nuts and bolts of who I really am. Once the vision disappeared into blackness. The only thing I could gather from this image was that these people were in a meditative state of mind while watching the band. in awe of their excellent performance. So give your Buddha self a “high-five”.together. I began to think that perhaps the Freemasons were the ones responsible for the creation of the mural at the Theater. and again thought.
entertaining form of distraction from the people in the room. It was as if it was already there. I quietly put my shoes on. as it was already three in the morning. Her left hand reached to her mouth. flowing to different areas of the earth. There was no way my brain was responsible for them. As we stared at each other I felt I were being drawn into a Medusa trap of lust. While driving home we discussed the night before. Then ask questions or ask to see things the second time. I sensed that the most profound revelation I had come to regarding the previous night was that physical life is the biggest trip of all. nails and snake tongue were red. Once the vision faded. 50 . my friend Skip would listen to what I had to say about my Salvia experiences with a healthy dose of skepticism. I had been telling him that the way to do Salvia for the first time is to clear your mind and see what happens.myself before mingling a bit with the after party crowd. I burrowed back underneath the table to try and get some sleep. As a red snake-like tongue emerged. Chapter 8 From Skeptic to Believer Since the beginning. I saw the art work of one of the Disco Biscuit fans on a poster representing all the band’s songs in the form of characters on a globe. I was attracted to her. yet distrusted her intent. slithering in a seducing manner. He agreed. Quickly giving up. but perhaps concentrations of energy are constantly moving. I told him I thought so. One day he wished he could go back in time and talk to a girl he was once interested in. and asked if I thought that there was energy focused where the sun was shining through the clouds on the mountains ahead. that what I was seeing and hearing was real. I didn’t understand where the blue skin and the snake tongue came from and what it meant. while giving me a sly smile. except that I desired to be with a woman. I told him the things I was seeing could not be just mere hallucinations. naked woman who appeared to be laying down in the deep darkness with her head facing towards me. This time I was looking at a blue. rolled up my blanket and within a couple minutes we were out the door. Her turquoise eyes gazed deeply into mine. Four hours later Devin shook my leg to wake me up silently without disturbing the others so we could leave before the day was gone. It made me realize how much this band means to people. (picture “Serpent Woman”) The vision came before I even realized it. but in a different frequency of perception. I laid there for a few more minutes before being sucked into a deep sleep. Since the beginning he was not only a skeptic but was disinterested in even trying it. Once the artist left. touching it with her index finger. Whatever is on your mind will play a significant part in your experience. He was having a difficult time getting her out of his mind. After laying there for some time with a consistent. Telling him all that I saw while on LSD. Eventually. I was finally able to see one more vision before falling asleep. waiting for me to experience it. I noticed that her lips. he decided to try it. I really had no idea what to make of it. When he came out of the trip he told me what he had seen.
I felt my spirit condense into my Pineal Gland. For months. Once the voice stopped speaking the time generator slowed down. Its light reflected off me. then smoked Salvia Zone Green Level/ “Spirit Time Travel Machine ” Sitting on my bed with nothing but a crack of light shining through the window. but rather goes through us. However. I thought of how I wanted to be shown the key moments of my future. Its rotation was very fast. The experience may last longer by doing it this way. The vision faded then changed. I set the pipe aside and held on deeply to my demands. But might I ask. as he did not like inhaling the smoke. There is no physical proof that these other realms exist. In the center of this sun was space but soon the stars started to race towards me as I 51 . just as there will always be two sides to everything that makes this place in our mind what it is. Each version of me was only revealed by the outline of his body which was blue and purple. Only feeling slightly aware of the effects of the dried leaves. I had not smoked Salvia. I saw myself in front of what looked like a sun with a hole in the middle of it. It was somehow more real than this physical reality. but in a different way. which is built on a dualistic code. One must learn through direct experience. There I saw a smaller version of myself in my head. It gave him something to think about for the next few days and made him eager to try it again. showing a red outline of myself. does it? I guess that my attempt to convince the skeptics in this world might not only be futile but perhaps contrary to the programmed nature of this illusion itself. I suspected that this represented my time-line and realized that everyone has his or her own time-line. are thoughts real? You can’t see or hold them. I too have wanted to try this method for a long time but so far it had just been more convenient for me to smoke it. revealing a sphere of white lines rotating counter-clockwise. Next. I gave up.finally concluding that there was no way what he saw was a mere hallucination. When I exhaled. Back to the Search 42 st Time/Chewed on dry Salvia leaves first. I kept ten-to-fifteen dried Salvia leaves under my tongue for about half an hour. There will always be two sides to a coin. spitting the saturated leaves out into a bowl and filled my pipe with the Salvia Zone Green Level. I began smoking it again after Skip inspired me with his experience regarding time-travel within the Salvia world. as I have not been searching for anything. manipulating the controls of my body. I drifted back from the larger body to where I could see a white-glowing cylinder going into the stomach region and out through the back. I heard a woman’s voice say she had to slow down the time generator in order for me to be able to enter the future realm. but never stopped. Does this mean thoughts are not real? How about when you picture something in your imagination? Or when you have a dream? Just because people other than yourself cannot see whatever it is you see doesn’t make it any less real. I told him I could buy a plant so he could chew fresh leaves the way it is traditionally done. Both at the top and bottom of this sphere the lines converged to an unseen end. Time does not surround us. Once the smoke filled my lungs.
Soon I realized the planet I was looking at was Earth. Once I had a decent amount of DMT in me. and came to rest on a light blue. At that point. With both pipes ready. After this vision I felt as though I would be one of those people saving the planet sometime in the future. As the vision faded. While watching the two walk. I had a perfect record. Will I do something environmentally? Spiritually? Even protect it from some sort of alien invasion? Will I be held up at earth. I took the other pipe and took a hit of 80x of Salvia. but the only DMT I had was some residue left on my pipe screen. The truth of it is. “Time going through Me”. “Time Generator”. I closed my eyes. Besides. I quickly erased them with a few deep breaths before smoking the DMT. Because I had experienced all of these substances. I pondered whether or not I should get it published. and showing the world what I had seen. My perception moved back from the circle. striving to survive? I felt connected to this planet more than ever before. Portal in Time”. I held it in longer than I thought possible before releasing it out into my bedroom. it would be like doing the Salvia while in a deep REM sleep. and I smoked Salvia right after smoking DMT. A blue spirit reached up and held the Earth over its head. I had never gotten a ticket and had committed no crimes except for using illegal entheogens. I sat on my bed thinking about what I should do concerning this book.was blasted through a portal toward a different planet. focusing only on a single red circle. and instantly felt that their relationship was mother 52 . I felt as if I had asked all I could in my pilgrimage and felt I had reached a resting point in my travels of self-discovery. I then zoomed back in on the red circle and realized that there were two figures inside. all my employers had had nothing but good things to say about me and would rehire me in an instant. wondering if it might cause problems for me. As I got closer to the planet I could see smoke around me. If DMT is responsible for the visions we have when we dream. Then there was a wave of yellow spirits running from left to right across the bottom. I knew I could smoke DMT and still have control of myself before smoking Salvia. and three green spirits held up those two. as if I had been shot through a gun barrel. (show pictures of “To the Control Tower”. As many more thoughts came rushing through my mind. and felt I must do whatever it takes to hold up Earth. and “Holding up Earth”) 43 nd Time/Residue of DMT and Salvia 80x/ “All That Matters ” I wanted to try DMT and Salvia at the same time. and how would I do this. and writing a taboo book may jeopardize all of that. holding hands and walking. an ordinary person might think I was incapable of holding a job. I saw the taller figure bending down in front of the smaller one. while two turquoise spirits held him up. They too were glowing red. I had a great job resume. with a slight hint of orange in the center of their being. I could feel the return of my spirit starting from my face all the way down to my right ankle. no matter how impossible it may sound. I also had a primal thought laying in the back of my mind: a wish to have a family of my own. There was a sparkling sphere enclosing the red circle. luminous column. I felt in my life nothing else was as important as sharing my experiences. I wondered from what. I sat upright in my bed and rested my head on the wall.
I knew all I had to do at that point was to focus on my wish and blow the seeds of desire out into the world and wait for them to grow. I gently laid back down on my bed. A cool sensation in my stomach began to form and from there a purple light began to stream out. I wanted to see the difference from light to dark with my eyes shut.and daughter. I was now vibrating with a high-intensity electrical love. I looked into the darkness to see what I could perceive. Once the smoke flowed out of my mouth. They informed me I was lucky. My vision displayed brightly-colored red and yellow patterned circles swirling in every direction while a red snake slithered out from behind one of the red circles. It reminded me of a thumb print. Rotating around it were broken rings of blue light. I focused on two dark forms that looked down at me as though I were laying on a table getting prepped for surgery. and to see them for what they truly are. (picture of “love frequency” DMT-3M) Once the vision of the love frequency faded. constantly transforming while lifting up away from my body into a black void. She looked like she was screaming but I was unable to hear her. bright light suspended in the darkness. I turned my head from side to side. who formed a movement to take one minute of your day at 11:11am to meditate. as they had 53 . while all the colors of a person’s chakras radiated out. I got the notion that love is of the light and entirely absent in the dark. Within this purple light were black geometric shapes. one cannot truly see. then sat on my bed and let the first wave of DMT smoke enter my being. and felt that these two figures were already a part of my life. (Picture of “All that Matters”) 12 th Time/DMT/ “The Ra Connection ” I asked to be connected to the eleven-eleven people. Nothing else mattered and nothing else existed. which was when I was shown what love looks like. and saw a bright. (Picture: “True Blue” DMT-3N) I shifted my gaze deeper into the light. (Picture: “Aura Projection” DMT-3P) I began to feel that I was attracting the attention of some other entity due to my current quest. They were the center of my attention. showed me yet again another way of seeing people as they truly are. sending out your positive vibrations into the world in hopes these vibrations might have a positive impact on mankind. At this point I should explain that my room is set up with the one window on my right and the dark wall on the left. I had another request of the DMT: to be shown what people truly look like. red-glowing face of a woman being sucked into the light. I then noticed that they were inside a dandelion in its seed mode. and when it is felt there is no symbol or word that can give anyone any true grasp of what it truly feels like. When love is not used. I saw a small. (Picture: “Vanishing Projection” DMT-3O) My third hit of the DMT. As I sat there. I could then see that the dark shapes that stood over me were Greys. I was consumed with emotions of love and happiness. I saw a bright white orb shining in the center of a brightly colored red being. I asked to send my thoughts of love out into the world. Looking up with my eyes closed. Pure love is in a narrow bandwidth of energy.
what RA looked like. I looked down toward my feet and saw a blue human spirit standing motionless.extracted negative energy from my being. (Picture: “Nearly Harvested” DMT-3R) I developed a fear that I was actually leaving the physical plane. Three silhouetted figures which looked like Greys was superimposed on each of the three circles. that my actions spoke louder than my words. When we move on. which is a 6th dimensional entity discussed in the Law of One book. Before I could protest. as it was beyond my comprehension. I then understood that our spirit body stores all the information accumulated in our lives. I watched the second spirit get absorbed into a sphere of light in the wall. My hand looked lifeless. I felt like I was still fighting to stay. but only in a physical sense. First. I saw what looked like green glowing worms in tubes. therefore making it even more knowledgeable. I soon sensed that I was not going into this alternate dimension. or even begin to grasp. So much was thrown at me that I was barely able to imagine. and my mother would be sad if I left. a harvest of souls. Although its surroundings were dim. as I stayed completely motionless. as black. So I asked to see RA. but as I looked around. Once the DMT impacted my lungs I felt as if I had been slung back down onto my bed while being told. I opened my eyes and felt quite baffled. I packed my bowl one more time with DMT and thought I would like to send my loving energy throughout the world. Then there came three circles in which millions of geometric shapes were moving about. A sphere of white light encircled by a black ring shone from the back of its head. and had to insist that I wanted to stay. I felt as if I had no choice in the matter. it is downloaded into the universal consciousness. This image zoomed back and forth while all three circles rotated. as did the rest of my body. The entity was right. I saw a beautiful swirling white star surrounded by different intensities of brightly red geometric patterns flowing around it. They then asked if there was anything else they could do for me. (Picture “Spiritual Operation” DMT-3Q) I wondered if simply wanting to go to the next dimension was not a good enough reason to be accepted. I have so much more to accomplish in this life. much less comprehend what it all was. which talks about progressing to a higher spiritual plane. “That’s it! That is what is needed to be harvested!” Right then and there I felt as if I was leaving my body. geometric shapes morphosed over its surface. I was quickly told that I could not perceive. I thought I was able to make out glowing wires that may have been connected to it. but it was too late. 54 . While lying there. transforming in endless ways. and going to a place of infinite love. I received no answers. but the tubes themselves seemed alive. I decided to drop my pursuit. I inquired if I was ready to be harvested into their dimension. I was thrown into RA’s Dimension to show me how correct this was. I knew my loving energy was about to be plugged into the universal consciousness in order to download all of my memories. I saw one blue spirit standing next to another that floated perpendicular to the ground about waist-high. I would remain in this world. Despite my pleas. I wanted to know because I had just finished reading Law of One: Book 1. I believe it was her more than anyone that kept me from letting go. I felt as if I were going to die. After some time I opened my eyes and saw my hand propped up on my bed sheets and heard the sound of cool air blowing through my window.
but are further undistinguishable from the rest of the Universe. I saw a grey face. I descended to another realm. The next level down would be DMT. to be a part of the DMT realm. you can experience the source of all creation with shrooms. and if I had a chance to do a larger one. I was pulled into a dark space. The spinning geometric shapes gave motion to the woman’s movements. Once we lose our layers of ego. It’s frightening to freely and completely give up the love of one’s self. Suddenly I was flying backwards. because to me. The walls were mostly pink in color. purple. I was able to witness ways in which different levels of reality have an effect on one another. along with the pink factory. I was drawn into a space behind me. while the woman was a part of the Salvia world. wearing an Egyptian head piece. which also had the same geometric squares and coloring. one on each side. Each can tune you to a different frequency. As quickly as the face came out. my vision began to fade as I flew through the colors of pink. because your thoughts carry you to denser visions. At least that’s the case with me. Shrooms. As the smoke transported me. This may not be accurate of course. Last on my list would be Salvia. The face was covered in geometric squares in a constant state of fluctuation. give your unconditional love without asking for anything in return. I was able to figure this out through my experiences with both Salvia and DMT. it seemed less dense and is filled with more light. She was standing on a dirt path under a blue and sunny sky that faded into a crystal clear view of midnight stars. We hold on to our egos tightly. and blue before entering total darkness. It seemed to me that this is what is required to move on to the next dimension. giving us different perspectives of the unending levels of reality. and LSD. such as Salvia Divinorum. but I did not want to 55 . and watched the face move away from me. it occurred to me that the DMT realm is the foundation of the Salvia realm. not mine. but I was with some friends and it was their DMT. helping you perceive a different level of reality. my views might change within that level. I saw the back of a woman with shoulder length black hair wearing a yellow shirt and blue jeans. From the top of its head came two snakes. If I had been on my own I would have asked to finish my last vision. it went back into the wall. From there. I opened my eyes. amazed at what had just transpired. but I can also hear things in this realm much clearer than the others. bringing a block of the wall with it. I believe if you take the right amount. I dropped through a window and into a sort of factory. while at the same time letting go of your ego. Third would be LSD. because not only do I get visuals. Once the woman reached the third window. Once completely in the wall. why it’s not filled to the brim with love. as I have only done a mild dose of LSD. with the right question. recognizing the differences between the two visions. After these experiments.I realized why the world is the way it is. I think different entheogens can tune us into different frequencies. 13 th Time/DMT and Salvia 10x/ “Quantum Jump ” I asked to quantum jump into a parallel reality. To conclude. I considered the Egyptian face. because we imagine that they are what makes us who we are. we are no longer what we picture ourselves to be. I told them it was great. with purple geometric shapes surrounding the three windows that gave me a view of the woman running on the dirt path. I then formulated my theory of the substances I’ve used. DMT. The whole face moved out towards me.
passing by red colored balls. I asked what the look was for. I no longer need faith of the afterlife. but after talking a bit longer. I then gave him my account. speechless as the realization of what had happened engulfed us. I saw a creature that was orange in color with flaring tentacles. I looked to my right and came out of the tunnel. as I did not want to use the rest of their DMT. Either I did not hear him correctly at first. I told them I think you can go pretty much anywhere with entheogens as long as you ask first. while Hana sat and watched. guided along by a silver rod. projecting its small flame as it turned slowly towards me. After several minutes I proposed that we try to meet on the other side. and to do it with one of them at the same time. I sensed that I was not going to see James on this journey. In the midst of the tentacles flew a small white ship. “I’ll see you on the dark side of the moon. I noticed there was a purple and blue version of it in front of the red one. James gave his account on what he had seen. First. Before lighting up. because she had thought of this herself when we were talking in the kitchen. he was the ship in my vision and I was in human form. 14 th Time /DMT/ “See You On The Dark Side Of The Moon ” Half an hour after doing my Quantum jump. Its mouth was open. passing the same version of the snake heads at even intervals. In one of my Salvia experiences when I asked to see myself face to face. James and I prepared our pipes. Plus. The ship had a small window. James also told me he was in a tunnel. or had not understood what he said. and a blue stripe running along its side. We sat for a while. Their heads were. It turned out. We sat for a while. I had been colored blue with some traces of pink.” After a few deep breaths I lit my way beyond my understanding. I stared at James until he came back from his journey. but with tentacles for legs. just not in the form we had thought. my two friends James and Hana offered me the chance to do DMT one more time. I agreed. thinking of what we should try to focus on during our trip. That fact really got my attention. I had seen myself in a blue-pink color. I have had the experience and know it to be real. very circular. we realized that we had indeed seen each other. but looked in his direction? I tried this just to determine if that were all I needed to do in order to see him. I felt I had learned what I needed to learn. I jokingly said. After watching for a while the vision began to fade into fewer and fewer vibrations of light. They told me he had seen the same thing as I did. My two friends looked at me dumbfounded. I was pulled backwards into a dark tunnel. but still tried to focus on my intent to see him. as if it was preparing to eat me. Once back to this reality. for the most part.smoke anymore. the journey was all I needed. We immediately started joking about how we did not even come close to seeing one another. A brightly glowing red snake’s head came into view. 44 th Time /Salvia/ “ Let ’s Go ” 56 . Once again it was proved to me that these other realms are real. But then I thought what if I kept my eyes closed. and reminded me of babusca dolls. and ended up in the midst of the orange tentacle creature. So. and even though I did not get to go where I wanted to go. but Hana was baffled. They liked the idea.
I opened my eyes as I realized that our spirits have no definitive edge to them . while also noticing that I was not going as deep as I had the last time I did shrooms. 45 th Time/ Shroom Tea-Salvia 10x/ “Vibration Connection ” At nine o’clock in the morning. I closed my eyes and immediately saw a kaleidoscope of reds. “Let’s go!” I was consumed by a feeling of needing to leave in haste.our energy blends with the energy around us. After watching him go through some halfway successful attempts. So. I had been living in a city where there wasn’t any woods for miles. I opened my eyes and saw Oscar standing a couple feet in front of me with the window behind him. and then only after two years of practice. They were vibrating out their energy in oranges and yellows. Staring up at the trees. but also of his intentions. I started to meditate. After about thirty or forty minutes a peripheral vibe began to draw my attention. Purple waves of energy vibrated from the music. The spirits began pushing themselves into the shape of a square. I decided to do some myself. I realized that the spirits were not only showing me where my friend was. “Everything has to be. Several red silhouettes in human form came walking toward me. Doubts ran through my mind regarding the chances of my getting to See today. but during my first two uses. thus allowing one to See. The ability to See takes a great deal of mental discipline in order to cease all thoughts. He looked at me with a big grin on his face and said. Al made some shroom tea. I told Al of my new realization. Once again Salvia had shown me it’s incredible power. Without thought. now. This particular session showed me one more thing I can add to my list of possibilities with Salvia. reality loses its form and essence. as I took a couple of deep breaths. temporarily changing the color of the spirits. which seemed to come more easily as all the distracting thoughts had been blown away. I could tell by his facial expression that he was anxious to wrap up the session. The smoke left me as the red spirits came. which he found to be fascinating. it was to See everything as it truly is: pure energy. For me. I also wanted to connect with nature. now.One day I was teaching my friend Oscar how to smoke Salvia. I began to feel as if they were a Magic Eye mirage slowly waving a message to me. I had always wanted to do shrooms out in the woods. The vibrations of music change our energetic state. 57 . It was also taking a long time to reach my peak. melding into one color with each other. Both of us had about five or six small caps a piece. For this shroom experience I wanted to let go of all expectations and see where it would lead me. and Al told me that he gained that ability through meditation. while telling me. While sipping and nibbling at the tea we talked about our intent for this particular session. thinking perhaps he would get a better idea of how to do it by watching me. oranges. I thought of a question about my artwork and took a hit. as this was the first time he had ever smoked anything. I gathered my things as we talked briefly of his experience. That is to show other peoples intentions and possibly even their thoughts. I put the pipe on the coffee table and took one last look at Oscar sitting on the couch across from me before I closed my eyes. We sat outside on his back deck and listened to some music. now. and yellows.” noting my impatience. It looked like a DMT trip I once had. I knew he had one. Although Al hadn’t openly stated his plan. But he wanted to be completely finished with it before his wife came home.
A phantom force began to push me deeper into the woods. he got to his knees and closed his eyes. as it did forwards. He showed me the contents inside: Cannabis. preparing my bowl. becoming entranced. telling me that what I’m sensing is my Ally. I was about to try and stand while smoking. I know he’s holding on to many more cards. I told him. I told him I would do Salvia even though I had nothing to ask. Before I knew it. I asked him if he was doing this and where I was going. I told Al how amazed I was that I didn’t fall down and I was actually walking while in the Salvia trance. but I was able to feel the energy of the trees as I got closer to them. I moved around the tree with my back still to it. When Al came back we talked about smoking salvia in the woods. realizing their wisdom. I sat on the bench as I watched him smoke his bowl. a location in between some pine trees he had picked out for me two years earlier. but nevertheless I began to giggle uncontrollably. He told me he was not in control but assured me that I knew where I was going. “Look! I can walk just as easy backwards as I can forwards!” It indeed felt just as natural to walk backwards. waiting for the right moment to lay down his whole hand. and wondering what it could be. with the palms of my hands feeling its energy. Once I settled down. to my power spot. Once we reached my power spot. It was small enough to fit in the palm of his hand and looked like a golden crown with a black tube attached. and this time something happened. so I gathered my pipe and some Green Level of Salvia Zone. I just hope someday he shows them to me. void of any thoughts.” I felt an even higher level of peace within me that acted like a protective shield from my fear of the unknown. he showed me a pipe I had never seen before. Al followed me. I had learned that it takes away your sense of balance. “There is peace above me. leaving me feeling unguided and lost. I told Al. Not only was I amazed at my new ability to do this with such ease. After running backwards several times towards the edge of my power spot I turned my back towards a single tree. He stood up while I smoked with a clear mind. I was walking forward and backward within my power spot at great speeds. Nevertheless. When he seemed done. I stood a few feet away. I stood in a small. and all around. seeming to know what was going on. grassy clearing and widened my stance as the smoke flowed through me. I inquired what it was. without looking. I will admit sometimes I give too much credit to Al’s abilities. I re-packed my pipe and took a second hit. but rather a force that keeps everything together. but each time we meet he reveals more of them to me. At that point I began to get an urge to run through the woods. Once I circled the tree I kept my eyes to the right. I looked back and saw attached to my back a black shadow with purple highlights. He reminded me that I was good friends with Mr. particularly on my left side. who was sitting nearby. while moving my 58 . I felt a presence behind me. When running backwards I was able to stop myself before hitting the trees. he told me the lyrics to the song we were listening to. to see if I could smoke it while standing up. As we walked to the woods I saw that he was carrying something in his hand. He told me it was not a spirit. Al got up and stood beside me. I had an urge to test myself against the Salvia. Al went inside to take a shower. Saliva and he would not let me fall. After three long hits with no results. As the CD called Life for Rent by Dido kept playing. When I asked to see what it was. I twirled around like a dog chasing its tail. that perhaps shrooms makes Salvia inactive.He was right. I paid close attention to her lyrics. below me. From previous experiences with Salvia.
I just felt a pull of energy guiding me until I saw trees encompassing my view. The need came over me to test my “gate of power. I looked at the trees around me and realized that I was not gasping for air. and just let it take me where it wanted. I saw a slew of red spirits flowing in multiple directions. and was amazed to see that it was taking me through a hallway of trees. He didn’t answer until a few days later when I told him there was a square pattern laid out in the grass in my power spot. I suppose. he began to tell me that he had gone to a place where a woman was sitting at a high judge’s seat telling us to go back. and takes away hunger. but I was getting no results. He remarked that when he walked to it he could feel a barrier. So. We took that as our cue to go back inside as the night fell upon us. as I had earlier. I told Al to forget the shrooms and smoke Salvia instead.body to the left. He took a hit of the Salvia and left me for several minutes.The 5 th Entheogen Distinguish the difference in my writing. He said that Buddhists actually have that ability. but nevertheless. Marijuana. I did not know why I was walking to the left. I linked up with Al and we discussed the energy I had. to run in a certain way that enables you to maneuver effortlessly through the woods at night. Hemp. without directly saying it. He told me shrooms were once used for hunting. etc …) .” a technique taught by Don Juan in the Carlos Castaneda books. I stopped to see where it was leading me. increases your hearing. Another amazing thing was I did not twist my ankle. 59 . as he entered into a realm I was unable to perceive. I did not trust my new sense yet. they can’t give any. zigzagging through the woods until I finally stopped about 75 yards away from Al. Once he returned. I decided to smoke Salvia instead. and bushes. gives you great night vision. While jumping down over a small ledge I felt so light. with no guidance from me. The only down side that I could see was that you’d better not find anything funny. I dashed off the trail. I flowed over jagged rocks. Pot. as it gives you more energy. otherwise you would be laughing your ass off. After this we started to head back. and was in no way tired. only lasting a few seconds before having to stop for air. it was correct. Al was getting a good buzz off it. in place. I then asked if he could. once I did Cannabis my writing became more poetic. Weed. I told him I could see how that could be true. which consisted of only a few remaining flakes. he does have the ability to feel the energy of nature. I had tried that same type of run before. Chapter 9 Cannabis (Queen Tetra. Later in the evening we smoked the rest of our shrooms. Again. sticks. picking my knees up to my chest with my hands configured in the shape of a gun. I had no questions for it at the moment. I told him to imagine if you could feel the energy of plants all the time.
oranges. While a comfortable pressure built up in my head. During this. as I was experiencing a considerable amount of compulsive laughter. I felt a scan of my body as a warm tingling line made its way up to my head. Happy Green. I made it about ten feet before laughing myself to a near stop.” The phone rang with a chore in mind to pick some grass for the birds. the birds seemed to have chosen the sides with the noise and started to squawk at my presence. but that didn’t work. The ethic of being is productive. I let go of all judgments.” as I was there to take their eggs. After five minutes of debating with myself. my banana gun was on the ready while making my patrol. I stood up and pranced around. Nature held a new fascination with me as I stared at a line of clouds passing over the horizon of trees. as a mysterious noise came from across the road. I finally reached the chicken fence and threw no more than five blades of grass in. signifying my understanding of the beautiful gift that Queen Tetra had bestowed upon me. but debilitating to my stress meter. A heavy weight of calmness and relaxation glued me to my chair. I gazed at the blowing leaves and saw blue diamond sparkles shining through the cracks. hunting grass to feed some birds. They stared me down with one eye as I burst into laughter and tried to push myself out of the house without falling into their shit. I named it “Dr. bleaching out the world in yellows. After reaching the bottom of the hill I went back up without any effort. Meanwhile. I ran to the other side of the bird house to hide. leaving none unrecognizable. I listened to Nirvana. Thank God I was able to get out of there without bird poop on my face. Then the spectacular thought game played out in my mind. I noticed the birds coming towards me. The power of my mind either created or deciphered the shape of the passing clouds. 60 . I began to roll around with outstretched hands holding the egg above my head. numbing me in the process. feet kicked up. They told me to let go of my fear and look up at the trees above. I reached the side of a hill and dropped to my knees before laying down. and reds. A merging of realities became a beautiful display. I took a bite of yogurt and realized that my habits have been very rigid and conformed. They were perturbed and wanted revenge for the meager dinner I had given them. Reclining back. The anxiety was released through popping my ears. Sun rays penetrated my awareness. eyelids shut.Queen Tetra (Cannabis)/ “I ’m Laid Back and Chillin ” It took only four good hits of the Queen Tetra (Cannabis) to propel me through the veil. as there is only one true judge: me. Only after a tank of laughing gas had escaped me was I able to be free of their spell. After eating my banana gun. I opened the bird door with my finger and pointed like a gun telling the hens to “Freeze. The download was complete. I resorted to running like a bat out of hell. The fire in my chest was extinguished by consumption of hummus and chips. so that I was hearing only the tweeting of birds. only to be captivated by my new perspective.” as it prescribed me a pill called “I’m Laid back and Chillin’. I told them to be quiet. But the danger wasn’t over yet. I was a perturbed bird on patrol. I felt like I was being rolled around in a circle by invisible hands. I became peace. After one and a half rotations I was stopped by some bushes that seemed to have a lesson to teach me. I grabbed an egg at the far end of the coup while bracing myself with my left arm against the far wall. My entire life I have always sat and finished whatever task I was performing before moving on to the next. I sat back up to take a look around.
This class was over as I headed to yet another classroom. Magic surrounds words. Next. Life is like a tree. you are surrounded by other leaves blocking your view. I let go of my childhood hero from the fourth grade. because I am already where I need to be. you are alone but your view is far grander.” I agreed but did not care. I strolled through the yard with a twirl here or there while sniffing a flower with delight. (Insert pic of the Archway) On my way to my next class I looked at a tree stump that showed me the answer to a riddle I did not know existed. So where do desires come from? This question leads me to the conclusion that we are preprogrammed before coming into this life. I walked up to the blue diamond tree and found its face. One such thought was that I don’t want to be alone. Whereas on top. they vibrate a harmonic tone that puts things into 61 . and so cool that my Mojo could put any girl into an instant trance of desire. turning out bits of illusion with my thoughts. I spiraled inward to the center of my being. I too am a made-up character. to climb my way to the top. linking me to new concepts. knowing he was no more real or truthful than Santa Clause. After three successful passes of a tree branch coming within inches of my head without looking. one after the other. The tree stump told me that one is the symbol of the infinite light. I gained an understanding of how memories are linked to one another. The first one told me there is no direction for me to go. Next came a spirits reply. I asked the spirit of all things to create a children’s puzzle game that would be called life.My gate of power activated as I stood up. molding the holo deck of life. I was taken inside my own mind and watched railroad tracks impossibly switching tracks at 90 degrees. The first part was the pine cone used as decoration over many doorways as a symbol of the Pineal Gland. The part that I did not know was what the meaning of the two twirling symbols flanking either side of it was. So I wondered. I walked backwards over the circle I had created in the grass. Lessons started to come from multiple spirits. But. each representing the golden ratio. I lay on my trampoline with my eyes focused on the trees while thoughts whispered in my mind. I sat back down on the deck and felt like the Pink Panther. while the other is a symbol of darkness. I gave it a kiss on the lips. thanking it for its gift. an emergence of consciousness. the gateway to this world. It seems as though desires are the fuel to thoughts. Each tree is forever and becomes a new tree an infinite number of times. assembled like a machine in a factory. If you are one of the leaves on the bottom. enticing me to step on them. a crime dog by the name of Scruff McGruff. I realized that my old step was all about the destination and not about the journey. From there. “Yes. if we dream of angels when we sleep. When the words are spoken. and thoughts create words. so relaxed. where do the words come from? Do they come from thoughts or desires? I suppose you have to desire something in order to give it thought. does that mean angels dream of us when they sleep? Does that mean we are all dead or are we simultaneously “dreaming” and awake? My thoughts transitioned to the power of words. so smooth. but you can see so much farther from the top. three lower branches waved at me. discovering life is an infinite tree.
please? Later that night I talked to Al about my experience. batting a person out of my way and throwing him to the ground like a rag doll. I turned to run up a flight of stairs. but when I meet the Iboga spirit we will be equals. His message made me feel worthy of the Iboga spirit. and all is nothing. He said the Iboga spirit was not ready to meet her. The whole next day I still felt ultra-chilled and relaxed. I was in a shower room that looked like it was part of an ancient palace and it was huge. This world we are in needs help. not me. where is cloud 10. So I asked him what he calls it. because all is one. “Only if you let it. Intent overrides your beliefs and guides you like a fixed set of train tracks. Queen Tetra was his reply. He reminded me that the most important factor in using any substance is your intention. Chapter 10 Iboga Journey . so it’s time to find who is doing the programming of words and fire them before I float away to cloud 9. It was a wonderful feeling. Passing a crowd of people.” The use of substances is a two way street: either you control it or it controls you. the darkness hid many frightening creatures. where I was walking rather hastily through a shopping mall.Revealing My Whole Life . as I had never seen anyone get to the level I had achieved. I returned back to the first floor where a group of people huddled over the man I had pushed away earlier. The reason he smokes Queen Tetra is to communicate with spirits and nature. I said I don’t like calling it weed or pot. By the way.place. I said my only standing conviction of its effects is that you can’t do anything while using it. Once I reached the second floor. After telling him of my communication with spirits and my reactivation of my gate of power. I told Al that the lady I was going to meet at the Mexican airport to do an Iboga trip with had canceled due to illness. This made me realize that no matter what. such as gambling. First. He replied. I told him that for the first time in my life I finally experienced a true high. yet I still felt the Iboga spirit would be the one doing the teaching.The 6 th Entheogen The night before the flight I dreamed of my right hand. The time and place changed to the present. as it sounds like a derogatory name for something I perceived to be so wonderful. Only by the third day did my old rusted self-merge back into my body. I never knew Cannabis could be used in such a way. 62 . as its main psychoactive compound is Tetrahydrocannabinol and the plant you smoke is the female because it has most of the THC. He reminded me that one can become addicted to anything. I was looking for something but I didn’t know what. He told me I was not ready for it until now. for I had smoked Cannabis before without getting to the nirvana state I had reached today. he told me I had trained my mind to the point where it was getting easier for me to communicate with spirits. I have control over myself and my intentions.
My mother was shopping and as I approached her. so they could tax you for it later.Convulsions of death rattled his breathing. Round trip from NY to Mexico City cost me $623. uneventful. I noticed my hand looked like that of a reptile. He typed away as he showed me that it would be 1500 pesos. After showing them my passport and confirming I was not bringing more than ten thousand dollars to Mexico. I was finally on my way to Mexico. I gave the clerk a copy of the address where I was going. My flights were for the most part. Once my backpack was cleared. After agreeing to the cost. I heard a woman speaking English on my way down and asked her if she knew where the taxies were. Only then was I allowed to go through the last set of doors that led to a huge foyer. No matter. I walked up to a taxi. destination. three police officers waited to question passengers about how much money they have on them while the drug-sniffing canine sat a few feet away.98. the sign was small and out of the way. There. I walked through a crowd of people watching the disembarking passengers coming off the plane. When flying over the gulf. as my relief had turned into excitement. Since I already had my small backpack with me. It was no wonder I had missed it the first time. in case you bought anything in Mexico and wanted to bring it back to the states. After getting my ticket scanned at the Houston airport. She told me that I had to go back the way I had come and that there would be a sign saying “Authorized Taxi” to my left. I was allowed to go. I had my passport stamped and walked through another set of doors leading to the baggage claim. Going through Albany International Airport was nothing short of getting strip-searched. A flight stewardess gave me some customs papers to fill out before reaching the Mexico airport. everything turned to a black consciousness of awakening. I entered the hallway leading up to the plane. passport #. he printed me four tickets. I pulled off a mask I had not seen the front of. I went to where an airport security person told me to put my bag on the conveyer belt as I walked through a metal detector. I told her that they think I’m Quatzequatel. another security officer told me to push a red button. I began to wonder if that meant I would be changing taxies on the way there. 63 . They also wanted to know the cost of each item. I’m surprised they didn’t make me do a hand-stand. a green light lit up a clear plastic screen with a walking person etched into it. I got off the plane in Mexico and followed the crowd of passengers to the first check point. I was able to see several patches of brown-liquid spots floating on the water. but was stopped by a man who redirected me to a booth where I had to pay in advance. but when I finally got to it. I quickly forgot about it and approached the taxies again. After two months of preparing my mind for Iboga and saving enough money to purchase it. I walked down a long hallway looking for a taxi and ended up in a parking lot. Simple enough. It was green with long fingers and sharp black fingernails. On the form they asked for your name. While doing this. There was also a space for purchased items. unexpectedly. which must have been from the Deep Horizon oil spill. while the Iboga experience was $1. I saw a sign that read “Foreigners” where I split off from the main group. Before she answered me. and length of visit. for I was one step closer. The crowd was in shock and began to pursue me as I ran away from them. There were a couple of money exchanges open where I was able to convert my money. As I put my hand over his chest I consumed his soul through my hand.500.
I could eat one of those sandwiches every day and probably never get sick of them. I think all he got out of it was that I was here to eat some food that will make me crazy. My fears vanished quickly with the comforting thought that there was a force guiding me there. We made 64 . I began using my made-up sign language. I instantly knew I was going to enjoy this ride. The view opened up to a small city laying in the depths of a foggy heat. Volkswagen beetle cars and graffiti artwork that should have been on display.this time I got into one. We drove on to the outskirts of my final destination. Speeding over the mountains of Mexico. He also said that I should eat lightly. I began to wish that I had printed a map of my destination along with bringing my own mechanical GPS. In the end. I paid for the both of us before we went on our way. The taxi driver started to drive closer to the house as the car dipped over some steps. whatever that may include. The buses that were running seemed to have had broken rear shocks. Minutes later. When the driver got in. the taxi driver was served two chicken Cascade’s. The food and the kitchens were out front. and some made-up sign language. which turned out to be quite good. while I was served a potato sandwich. I picked out what looked like potatoes and bread with bottled water to drink. passing several broken-down buses. I tried telling him to stop beforehand but it was too late. The first clue that we were at the right place was a truck with a Vermont license plate. I wondered whether or not I would ever see the Iboga man. First I pointed to my finger saying that I couldn’t eat meat and made the gesture of throwing up. however. After talking to ten or so locals. I sat in the back seat for what seemed like ten minutes. We looked to see what they had to eat while the owners offered to make me a chicken Cascade. I thought for sure we were going to need a tow truck. I got out and thanked him with two hundred pesos. making them tilt upward as if they were getting ready to blast off into outer space. I finally reached my destination. But what really got them laughing was when I tried to explain this by biting my finger. I tried to explain to the driver why I was in Mexico through my made up sign language. the driver was washing his hands in a bowl of water. When I stepped out. I tried to explain to them that I could not eat meat. as the guy who would be giving me the Iboga said not to eat meat or cheese for three days prior to use. flying at 90 miles-per-hour. Once I realized that the cooks in the kitchen did not understand any English. We parked in front of several closely packed restaurant stalls. I did the same and followed him to the front. We left the city and headed south. wondering where the hell the driver was. Luckily he was able to drive back over the steps. the driver asked if I wanted to stop to eat and I agreed. and he was off. I shook hands with Barry and received a kiss on the cheek from Veronica. he motioned me to sit up front with him to have a better view. Nevertheless we had an interesting. I went to the bathroom only to find the toilet did not flush. while the taxi driver had a coca cola. I was happy to have spent the extra money on a taxi rather than the buses. incoherent conversation consisting of nods and smiles. The only problem was that I didn’t speak any Spanish and he didn’t speak English. I quickly joined them by laughing at my own show. that I would fulfill my destiny. We drove through the city where I saw many playgrounds. Once in town the taxi drivers GPS was actually asking the locals where my destination was every so many wrong turns.
in my thoughts. her age dissolved away as her enthusiasm enriched her story. Within a half hour. and Barry and I talked in the candlelight. with three hammocks and a table with four chairs. I thanked Barry for making me look back at my own intentions. in whatever form she could. and it wasn’t until she went swimming that she was able to connect to the most beautiful extraordinary visions she had ever seen. I needed to rid myself of it in order to succeed. guiding me in a straight line so I would not walk in circles. By eleven o’clock we finished our conversation and I went to my room. I headed back to the front of the house where Veronica was preparing some Peyote medicine. A white man came up to the house carrying a load of laundry and Barry introduced him to me as Alexi. I told her how I thought it was some sort of omen to her to heal the pain of others. I had seen the spirits holding onto my spirit. We sat at the table and talked about philosophy. I feel as though there are entities that want this information shared and are helping me to make it happen. Eventually she left. She told me it’s a great medicine that can help with many illnesses. In these other realms. and lived just yards down the road. After dropping off my bag and grabbing my graphic art pictures that are a representation of what I’ve seen on psychedelics. Silently. Mexico won on the virtue of the peaceful energy the place had for him. I fell in love with the place instantly and wished I could live there myself. Veronica seemed bored at times. so I would throw her a question every now and then. After she finished the bottle of Peyote she handed it to me to smell. but never specified which ones. He was one of the helpers of the Iboga Quest. It also provided me with a path to help remember where I had been. a thunder storm flashed its approach. He told me he was from Philadelphia and had been in Mexico for two months and loved every minute of it. A flash of lightning lit the window through my closed eyelids and revealed several small aliens standing at the foot of my bed. nothing happened to her for a long time. I showed both Barry and Veronica my pictures. This angered her and she became impatient. she felt the pain and suffering of her friends. Veronica was 65 . I told him that originally. my purpose for writing about my experiences was due to David Wilcock’s advice to those who want to remember their dreams by writing them down. it was like a force I couldn’t stop until it was done. it smelled like perfume. Once I began to accumulate numerous pages. which seemed to bring out an aura of enthusiasm in them. While she told me about her first shroom experience. At the same time. Barry mentioned he was once a part of a publishing agency and could help me with it. I saw that it was becoming a book. We talked for a few minutes comparing the States to Mexico. I told her it could be used as such. She was not so sure about that. Barry led me to his back yard which was nearly the size of a football field. She told me that while on shrooms. and the state of the world.small talk before Barry showed me his beautiful home and the room I would be staying in. This realization came when I thanked the Salvia for all it had done for me. which had shown a hint of greed. When we began to talk about my book. but nevertheless it was what she was doing now. our backgrounds. guiding me through my entire journey. Now I know my purpose in this life is to show people the realm that exists beyond our five senses. He told me those who write for fame and money don’t do as well as those who write for the love of producing literature. In Philly. the natural energy is suppressed by the power grid of greed and confusion.
demonstrating that pets had to be present for this particular ceremony. He also told me that the dosage is 16mg per one pound of body weight. we turned to face each direction. west. east. Next to her was the man Barry and I had helped move to his new home earlier in the day. south. I thanked her as she sat across from me with the blossom still in her hands. eating no sugar or salts for four days. As Barry came to my right side he quickly told me of the six directions: north. and then that the flower was for me. then it was her turn to have Barry do it to her. At this point Barry told me I should go lay down on my bed and in forty minutes he would be in to give me my second dose. the six of us walked further into the back yard with their dog. Alexi and I talked for a while about the way in which I would be taking the pills. including In Search of the Miraculous and Don Juan Papers by Richard de Mille. I sat at the table in the back yard and took my first pill with some fresh ginger tea Veronica had prepared for me earlier. or by following a special diet consisting of brown rice with lemon juice and basil leaves. Ayahuasca tea makes one purge. weight and age on it. I weigh 160 pounds. He told me about some books I should read. Alexi told me about a group of people called the “Brother Hood of the B. I had an apple for breakfast the day of the ceremony and some fresh mango for lunch.right. repeating the same process until all six directions had been acknowledged.” by Emil Gadliardi and Melanie Schreiber. so it would be good if is already cleansed. She headed back to the table and covered the dog and the cat with the smoke as well. I stopped drinking water at 2:30pm so I would not be interrupted as frequently by bathroom trips while on Iboga. the Iboga pills were taped to an index card with my name. I shook hands with the girl as she told me her name. height. walking toward me with a large white flower in her hands. Barry and Veronica went to my room. Veronica came to me with her smoking jar and went over my entire body with the smoke. the sky above. She put her cat in the tree. After one full breath of the horn. This would also be a good diet to try before doing Ayahuasca. and my memory of her presence was one of the best gifts I had ever received. I talked to Alexi in Barry’s living room for a few hours before the ceremony. and the earth below.1 grams dispersed in the five pills. I laid down on a hammock for a couple of hours prior to the ceremony to gather my thoughts and get some rest. one containing an MOA inhibitor and the other carrying DMT. I felt as if we were calling the attention of all the surrounding spirits. He told me how to decalcify my Pineal Gland by either staying in a dark room for five days. and then did the same for the other four people. From behind me came a girl I hadn’t met yet. which equaled to 1. It was the first time someone had given me a gift without physically handing it to me. so I put on my head phones and selected the song “Detaching from the World. a psychedelic mixture of two plants. I thought of all the things I wanted to accomplish during the session: stop being 66 . Barry blew into his sea shell horn and Alexi shook his sea shell rattle.” They travel the world experiencing different psychedelics. She explained it would help with the nausea. I soon fell asleep to the sound of the high winds of the storm. Once Veronica had come out of the house holding her cat. Laying down on the bed I could hear the group talking outside. cleansing it with the smoke. that place had a lot of energy. While we all spaced ourselves a few feet apart. as all are equally important. which nearly made me laugh out loud. No entity was left out. By 6:30 pm.
I took off my headphones and realized that the ringing was coming from within me. which I refused for the moment. I left them off and paid closer attention to the noise. It’s cartoon-looking face seemed terrified as it. transfigure my mind to be in sync with my wishes. scanning. My sympathy went into overdrive as did the ringing in my ears. find my soul mate. I threw up in the plastic bowl that was sitting on the night stand next to the bed. and to see things as they really are. To my right. spinning around in the void. opening up into a tunnel of purple rings and threw me into space. while the Iboga’s effects squeezed the water out of my pores. Forty minutes later. leaving a new image of a bug being held by the limbs by an unknown force. but when Veronica came in with my third dose. I knew it was not of this realm. That environment faded to darkness as a series of frightening black and white faces flew at me with incredible speed. It collapsed in on itself and sucked me into another realm. A line of energy covered my body. These and many more wishes lingered in my mind as I waited for the threshold to open. let go of fear. as I thought perhaps they had some sort of strobe light outside. and felt as if my acupuncture points were energized. circular light that made a buzzing sound. Five pills in and the real ride had begun. The thought of a black hole in the center of my being came to me. Barry came in with my second dose of two pills while asking me how I was feeling I told him I was fine. throwing some to the side. watched its own limbs being torn apart one by one. without my even having to think about it. I took the forth pill and asked Veronica what caused the flashing I was seeing on the walls. but my entire body felt like it was going to be puked up by something. It was rearranging photos. heading for the Earth before realizing my final destination was surgery. I pierced the blue grid and saw a bright white orb in the center shooting out lightning bolts to the inner walls. Sometime after taking the second dose. searching and prepping me. I became numb. I not only felt like throwing up. I began to hear a ringing noise. Blue ripples formed in the blackness. Lesson two was an egg-shaped grid. acquire the power to control this reality. One vision was of my mother waving goodbye to me as a young child going to school: I never figured out what the true meaning of that was. a gray alien was using some sort of rod to numb my jaw. My reasons for being there were addressed at an extremely fast pace in a series of dream-like images.negative. The faces eventually stopped. I told myself I had better pay attention to what I would see. Above me was a spinning. and I told him I felt better and wanted to take the last pill. Barry came in to offer me my final dose. reaching into my third eye. Towards my feet stood another gray alien looking at pictures on what looked like a light wall for viewing x-rays. and then called out to the baby monitor. which housed small television screens that captured scenes of all the moments 67 . as I knew I would not have another opportunity to experience this particular substance. She told me it was the medicine and that mother Iboga is a gentle but hard mother and said I would be fine. Barry came in. A metallic buzzing noise that sounded like a mechanical bee filled the entire room. see my future. I flew past the moon. At first I thought there was a bug in the room. At the same time a vortex of energy swirled between my eyes. My eyes felt like they were being massaged by invisible hands. I laid back down as she left the room and began to feel nauseous. Seeing myself laid out on a table while my blue spirit-shell was removed from my body. meet the Iboga spirit.
I looked around the room and found it empty and dark. I slept very well. As I got up. I started to think of all the life changes that I wanted to make once I returned home. Once I made my mind up to leave the bathroom. It was at that moment I finally understood why there is suffering in this world. All my questions had vanished as well. I finally dozed off for a bit before processing all the information I had learned. but also through the brainwashing of the Marines. I went to the front of the house where there was a table and began to eat some crackers at a slow pace. (Iboga Pictures (#2) go here) Going to the bathroom was extremely difficult. I flipped through the pages of my entire life but only a few images stuck with me. Once in the bathroom. my ears would ring. That night. I was time traveling. It was a wonderful feeling. it pulsated in the flickering candle light. After the first eight hours or so of throwing up and receiving intense lessons. The only explanation I could think of to describe this was that their spirit was checking up on me. I only told him it had been well worth it for me. only to find my eyes were closed and my head was on a pillow. which scares us. Dream-like images of different times in my life appeared as a movie. I would go inside the screen to become a part of the environment. My second assisted bathroom run was with Veronica. Five minutes or more seemed to be the walking duration for a twenty-foot trip to the bathroom.in my life. placing his hands under my arm pits as I walked with my hands out for balance. without any of us consciously knowing about it. I knew this would be one of the happiest moments in my life. Barry told me to move as slowly as I could to avoid getting nauseous. I did not say anything else. Whenever I felt like entering. One was of me standing with a book in one hand with my wife and child in the other. I could feel that I had regained my emotion of love. Her technique for helping me was to stand in front of me while I held on to her shoulders. My request to be in control of reality was answered by showing me the way focused attention can give us the power to call into creation the world in which we live. and couldn’t wait to start. except it was with Barry. as it showed me what I had in me to walk on my own. While I skittered over the ground. For the next twelve hours I lay in bed sipping water a little bit at a time while going over what had transpired. This procedure was easier for me. This happened one more time. I felt like I had to take a shit but I knew I was constipated. Once back in bed. 68 . as they had all been answered by the Iboga. I threw up again within minutes. While I was eating. Barry stood behind me. The final image was the one I was able to look at the longest . dreaming of my freedom from the attachment of a certain individual. We exist on the edge of consciousness that projects out into the void of the unknown. Once I was standing. I talked to a new arrival for a bit and learned he was there for his methadone addiction.that of myself in a coffin as an old man. I looked at Veronica as she asked how I was doing. Later in the evening I got to participate in his ceremony. Any time a negative thought came to me. Twenty-four hours later. something I had let go of many years ago because of a woman. as I did not want to spoil it for him. but I enjoyed Barry’s method as well. stopping only when I thought of something positive. I threw up in the sink while peeing in the toilet. The next morning I had my first real meal in five days: oatmeal. it took quite a bit longer for me to actually do it. I now felt like I could love anyone.
I was very much at peace with my thoughts. as the next day I would be going hiking early in the morning. but. There are other people to help you with the sanitary/food logistics. as it doesn’t mix well with Iboga. they were going to die. transformed without even realizing it. it felt good for him to see people transformed for the better after the treatment. The other reason he had wanted to keep his treatment facility small was because he was retired and did not need the money. Barry introduced us and told me she was one of the people he suggests for those who have used Iboga. He had bought some fresh food to bring back. which was expanding Ibogaquest. washed my dishes. The cell phone alarm buzzed at 7:30am. Even if they had one of these clinics in every state of every country. that it was hard for him to say no.com. After eating Veronica’s wonderful food and washing the dishes. I asked if she had ever taken Iboga. I agreed to see her anyway. Peter was already awake. She told me that plants choose people. This surprised me because it was just eight hours ago that he did the Iboga. which took about thirty minutes. but there were so many people desiring this service. Around eleven o’clock Barry and I walked into town. I told him I had heard only of thirty or forty clinics. He did not care either way. talking about the nature of reality while Veronica made quesadillas for us. The struggle is that there are more people in need than there are clinics. a woman in her mid-forties who practices holistic medicine. I sat back down at the table and talked to Veronica in the dark of the night. creates your unchanging life. He told me I should stay away from grapefruit for a couple of days. However. in the world but no more than that. we stopped for lunch. just watching your thoughts. He had wanted to keep it small. getting ready for the hike up Tepoztlan. you give yourself a chance to make up a new story. and made some noise. as part of an after treatment process. and we spoke of many things. Our walk back was pleasant. but he was already being steered toward a path he had not anticipated. just like the student will meet their teacher when they are ready to be saved from their ignorance. Even though I felt great. We talked briefly about the town’s history.Barry asked me if I had a feeling of clarity. telling him if they didn’t get the treatment. She helps to bring the body and spirit back together. they would still be full. After getting what he needed. I finished my meal. Thus far. and then were joined by one of his friends who produces documentaries of different cultures. He told me people were calling him. waking up Alexi. Before finishing up our meals. in effect. She told me about a Cougar meditation practice she had done where you sit in a dark room for nine days. I asked her what the benefit would be in doing this. and did some writing in my room. I felt as if I had been meditating for years. She said it leads you to realize how your thoughts are replaying the same story in your head that. which turned out to be really refreshing. By doing this. I had Guacamole soup and lime juice. filled my two water bottles. That evening I sat with Alexi and Peter. I helped Barry haul some groceries in the canvas bags that he had brought. She said yes. I had not realized it. It was after her first time that a message came to her to provide treatment for other people with Iboga. I got dressed. I bid her goodnight. another one of Barry’s friends ran into us. and how appreciative they were after. I can say I have been one of the lucky few to be saved by Iboga. Peter and Alexi went to take care of some things. I asked if he would mind if I mentioned his name in my book. The 69 .
as it would take too long. I looked at my overall surroundings and figured I would just keep going up to see where it would lead. and after taking a couple of pictures I headed back down at a running pace. After walking around a bit we ended up eating in the center of the market place where we all managed to eat for less than four dollars. I thanked the eagles for the view before looking for a way down. It was a far better view. I felt as if somehow the eagles soaring above me provided the wonderful view. and handed him my extra water bottle. only to find out that you can’t see it unless you have money. the more I noticed there were several paths that all seemed to head in the same general direction. and to my right I could see where I had gone before. I felt that I had finally won a battle in my mind that had raged for as long as I could remember. Given the three drops. I had a massage appointment and if I were going to make it in time. Alexi said the man probably did not bother with me because I was all dirty. A couple of blocks from the base I saw them waiting for me. but the last one I had to use some small roots to climb onto a ledge to my right. and thought of the book I was reading at the time called The Eagle’s Gift by Carlos Castaneda. There was no conflict within me anymore. We were a quarter of the way up when Alexi and I left Peter to his slow pace. I came to three drops. Once I reached the souvenir shops. We quickly exchanged stories while looking for a taxi back to Barry’s. The higher I climbed. Standing there on the windy. there were several stands selling souvenirs. A cloud of dirt rained down on me. he was probably painting a sign not to go the way I went. Half way down the roots broke and I twirled a couple of times before dropping to the ground. and I still wanted to see the pyramid up close. dirty and a bit shaken from the adrenalin. I eventually got above and behind the pyramid. No matter. I hooked around the hill and started to make my way down a small ravine that was certainly off the beaten path. I was scraped up. The pyramid was not that spectacular. Alexi told me that I was lucky to get past the one Mexican at the pyramid without paying. I breathed in the air while watching three eagles riding the same currents of air. grassy top. You bust your butt getting up to the pyramid. The food was better than most restaurants in the States. I had to get moving. It was a poor setup.three of us walked to the main road where we caught a cab to the center of town to get some breakfast. By the time we got back. I now know why a Mexican who was painting the rock looked at me funny. I was at peace. I had seen a man sitting at the front of the pyramid with a radio in front of him. I decided to head straight to it. Most of the hike up was stone steps. I left Alexi behind. I looked to my left and saw the stairs leading up to the pyramid. I say seemed because at one point I looked back toward the city and saw the pyramid to my left farther down the mountain. Relief came back to me as I found the hiking path. After another ten minutes of hiking. I was thirty-eight minutes late and the massage lady had 70 . I did not want to go back the way I had come. The walk to the base of the mountain was all cobblestone. apparently charging people to see the pyramid. I was excited to know I was not going to die on that mountain and that I got to see the pyramid up close. each ranging from fifteen to twenty feet. I bought a couple of things before continuing my search for Peter and Alexi. At the base. The first two I was able to spider-man climb down.
Peter and I both sat in the back making small talk as we drove through the furnace-like air of Mexico. The contents of the list included. I took a shower and got into some fresh clothes. The Genie in Your Genes. Barry told me we could reschedule it for the next day. Barry invited me to come along so I joined them. I walked into Ms. as a taxi ride would be very cheap. along with a full cabinet of bottled medicine. She gave me a small bottle containing the energetic memory of arsenic. Barry pointed out to us the pool and sweat house that belonged to his friend. although I was already scheduled for another appointment with the homeopathic doctor. After talking to the owner. This is the tapping of certain points on the body while repeating a positive message relating to any existing emotional problems one has. 71 . my fear of getting shot in the head. which was very insightful. especially when she addressed my fear of being shot in the head while I was in Haiti. Meanwhile. As soon as I got back to the Iboga house. After she had addressed each one of these issues. which I had acquired in Haiti from walking in sewer water. www. I had never truly realized what an emotional burden that had been on me for nearly six years. she looked in her homeopathic book to find a medicine for the rash on my foot. I looked at a book called Osho Zen Tarot: The Transcendent game of Zen by Osho Zen. Barry. therefore releasing the negative thoughts trapped in the energetic body. as Barry had more people arriving and would no longer have a room for him. letting go of an old crush. I felt a significant pressure lift off my chest. When Peter. and always feeling a need to be ready for an attack.already left. along with the rest of the facility. I left with one of the massage ladies who walked with me to get a taxi and told the driver in Spanish where I was going. In my case. By one o’clock Barry had dropped me off at the Doctor’s clinic. We were there to see whether Peter would want to stay here for the remainder of his stay. I told her I was into holistic medicine and began to ask her all sorts of questions. Belendez’s office and noticed she had a Reiki table set up. and The Vortex by Ester & Jerry Hicks.com. she sat across from me and explained what it is she does: EFT or Emotional Freedom Technique. I inquired what specifically she wanted to know. not feeling good enough for others and myself. I thanked her as the driver left her in the rearview mirror. she focused on my fear of losing my friend in the Marines to gunfire. As we sat down. riding in the back of his pickup. Exactly what she did I still did not know but Barry ensured me that it would be well worth it. www. Later I found out it was eczema. She wanted to know of any traumatic events that had occurred in my life and if there were any emotional baggage I might be carrying with me. leaving me feeling like a new person. we talked a bit more while Barry told Peter he could come back to the Iboga house during the day. I felt somewhat better.hartmath. he agreed to spend the rest of his stay there. she asked me about myself. Barry was getting ready to go on a little road trip with Veronica and Peter.soundstrue. I found out that we were in a place designed for spiritual seminars. and the owner came back. After the owner showed Peter his room. She saw my enthusiasm and wrote down a few things I should check out. After thanking her. Once she finished with the EFT.com. Once we arrived at our destination. After telling her a few things. Peter had one more night he would be able to stay at Barry’s. she charged me 500 Pesos and I tipped her with an extra 200 Pesos. and the rash started from my boot rubbing on my toe.
There were moments I wished the massage would never end. I was in a state of complete bliss. and had told myself I no longer needed 72 . It wasn’t until the end of the meal that Barry insisted paying for everybody. Barry decided to take all of us out to eat. When I got my watch and saw the time. and as she worked. Although too sick and weak to move upon her return. so I knew it was Joy. She saw spirits of three different heights during her flight. I was anxious to go home and try out my new state of being. enabling his clients to keep in close contact with him. Peter. Joy started with me. Joy walked away to go speak to Barry. Typically Barry was able to house a person for only five nights. leaving me with one last desire-a soul mate. She said 500 Pesos but I gave her 700 for a job well done. Peter helped carry her table to the back yard. Barry asked if I would show Joy my pictures. Between the skillful massage and hearing the birds chirping. Once you have passed the Iboga treatment. and my life was one of them. she watched a shaman manipulate light like a blanket. Hearing Alexi talking to Peter I thought about how different I felt. Once she partook of the potion. I woke up to a phone ringing and looked at my watch. I stayed six nights just as Barry had encouraged me to do. Time had disappeared within my state of nirvana. It read 8:40am. It took considerable effort for me to get up. but Barry and Veronica had a shrimp soup that I quickly decided I had to have. When it did end. Barry and Veronica were up front holding hands while I walked with Peter and Alexi in the rear. In addition. which was alright. I took a quick shower and went to the front of the house to wait for Joy. This was the reason behind Barry’s efforts to find other places nearby to house more Iboga patients. Joy said she had experienced out-of-body episodes via meditation. I felt magnetized to the table. since there were those who had decided to stay for a couple of months. Yet when she went to Peru to participate in an Ayahuasca ceremony. she flew to the center of the universe in an out-of-body experience. going as far as outside of her house. only to find that it was closed. Alexi joined in and we walked to a restaurant a few blocks away. He said he was not in the business to make money but to change people’s lives. The five of us piled into a taxi in search of another place to eat. Barry had been able to find places very close to the Iboga house. I ordered fish that came with the head still attached. The five of us faded into the night as we reached the house. As we walked. and I would have to go. and also for missing the appointment the day before. how at peace I was with myself. The war within me was over.Peter had planned a two-week trip. the masseur making sure I was here for the appointment. I had experienced the healing power of Iboga. I realized this was the first outdoor massage I’d ever had. I walked over to Joy and asked how much I owed her. any longer and it would cut into other visitors chances to see him for an Iboga treatment. We decided to walk back since we were only about a half hour away. I realized over two hours had passed. you only need an extra day or two to get yourself together. Once back at the Iboga house. she said she had been healed in too many ways to tell us. I agreed and brought them out for her to see. In my case. within myself in order to find her. and ended at a seafood restaurant with a good view of the surrounding mountains. in case they had other questions or concerns. But where to find her? Later on I realized that looking outside of myself was getting me nowhere. Joy and I then talked about the spirit realm. When she arrived.
I searched for the Museum. then went inside where he introduced me to his family. ordered a chicken quesadilla and a lime juice although they messed up my order and I got lemonade instead. I tried to give him some money but he refused. only to be told it was a university. getting some land marks in my mind to help find my way back to the hotel before venturing further out. A new guy. rekindled my interest. As we got closer to Mexico City he started to tell me what we were passing as if he were a professional tour guide. Veronica gave me one last kiss on her fingers. After some small talk. Fifteen minutes or so into our conversation. I told him I had seen many things and perhaps the reason he had not seen much was because Barry changes the amount of different psychoactive chemicals for drug dependent people versus those who are doing it for psycho-spiritual purposes. surrounded by the symbol of infinity. which was funny. who had endured the Iboga treatment. She made some suggestions and I was on my way. I had a bad feeling about drinking the water. Peter. not a museum. he 73 . I was able to get a couple of group pictures in before jumping into the back of Barry’s truck. I found the restaurant. I discovered she was part of the Justice of Economics Organization. Barry told me and Peter to get ready as we would be leaving soon. This time there were cushions to soften the bumpy roads ahead. He felt better now. but figured “What the hell?” Finishing my meal. Thanking Barry and Veronica for all they had done for me. As it was three o’clock in the afternoon and I had not yet eaten. getting a bite to eat was first on my agenda. A man who spoke English overheard what I was looking for and guided me to a bus stop where. as neither one of us spoke the same language. and took a picture of it so he could duplicate it in a tattoo when he returned home. As we examined my pictures. Then the driver rolled us down the dirt hill. Her story however. I asked if she knew of any good places nearby to eat. I walked around the block. feeling it would be a successful venture. showing me where I would be staying and the location of the National Museum of Anthropology. I started talking with the man in the passenger seat. Once we arrived at his house I helped him unload his car. I knew at this point that I had to get these pictures copy-righted and finish my book as soon as possible. blowing me her love from the other side of the vehicle. I shook hands with Joy and bid her farewell. and I sat in the back while Barry drove with Veronica at his side. Down in his office he gave me some maps of the city. Alexi had told me there are about twelve different psychoactive chemicals in Iboga.to do psychedelics. but was disappointed in the lack of visions while in the Iboga state. I was able to get a free ride back with one of Barry’s Iboga patients who live in Mexico city. After several minutes we were able find my room where I dropped off my stuff. He told me he did the Iboga to help stop his alcoholism and drunk driving. and after about two hours of walking I finally thought I had made it. I noticed an American girl reading in a library across from my room. After driving me to my hotel. Upon speaking to her. Peter particularly liked an illustration of a blue spirit-man. I packed myself into an SUV full of art work. as I boarded the bus. I walked into hotel Casa de Los Amigos and spoke to the clerk. Once we arrived where Peter would be staying for the next week. a white light coming out of him. and reassuring Barry my book would have nothing but positive things to say about my experience in Mexico.
I began to lose focus with the meditation. feeling that it might be near closing time. The major question that had been with me for six years had finally been answered: why is there suffering? Iboga showed me it is because we are a projection of our own consciousness. and had no desire to do so.told the driver where I wanted to go. the lemonade began to give me diarrhea. it had begun to rain. which is then projected into an unconscious void where we experience an overwhelming fear of what mysteries may lay beyond. while receiving the clarity of love. While cruising in the back seat of the taxi the next morning. I looked at all the passing buildings. Chapter 11 Spice (JWH-018) . as I no longer had the time to devote to it properly. While flying above the smog of Mexico City. I told him I had not done any entheogens since my Iboga experience. leaving me in a state of extreme thankfulness. In the middle of the night. Lesson learned. I felt complete. When I got my ticket and asked where the Mayan calendar was. so I paid ten dollars to have it wrapped in plastic. The only hitch at the airport was the fact that I could not carry a souvenir on the plane that had an arrowhead on it. I thought to myself how mysterious and magical the last week had been for me. I was grateful for all that I had experienced in Mexico. After what seemed like miles of aimless trekking. About four months after the Iboga experience. The only thing left for me to do in Mexico City was to get a taxi the next morning to go to the airport. It had been such a transformation. feeling empty and alone. furthered my entheogenic experience. Walking rapidly. so I decided to walk back to the hotel. Arriving at the museum. I had let go of my attachments to negative thoughts. I miraculously found my small hotel. which supposedly alerts you when you enter REM sleep but did not work for me. and purchased a Dream Mask. I put it in my back pack and had them put my bag under the plane. I started to keep a dream journal. and with this new inspiration. After about three months. I went to see the movie Inception. I was able to sense things before they happened. which was about lucid dreaming. I was able to see just about everything before they closed. a lady pointed on my brochure to the far end of the museum. unknowingly. By the time I left the museum. I started meditating on a more consistent basis and found an even deeper sense of peace. I also bought books on the subject. My thoughts focused on many things as the plane flew over the clouds. I received a call from my friend Bob who. I felt a million times more calm and relaxed: my mind was at peace. At the same time. I arrived at the bus stop only to find the buses were jam packed with people. I walked quickly to the entrance. He responded by telling me 74 . revealing the setting sun.The 7 th Entheogen After my Iboga trip.
He was surprised. Once there. I still decided to hold off for later. I did. find information on the chemical used to make it. and saw a golden pattern of DNA trailing from my hands. as I had been looking for an alternative to drinking in social situations. twice the amount one would pay to get it off the internet. As soon as I was done zipping my fly. and after a few seconds everything. turned into an invisible whirlpool spinning me in one spot. I slowed down. but everything written about it was rather vague. and started to worry a bit as to what was going to happen next. that I was an experienced person in regards to the use of psychedelics. Nevertheless. Immediately after leaving the store. and started by taking small cautious hits. I left the bathroom. within a minute. Fifteen minutes later he was experiencing the best high he had ever known. My local smoke shop said they had the Spice but not the K2 because. I sold him half of my three grams and left. JWH-018. Eternity reigned. My arms stretched out in front of me. He said that it was as good. My right hand was the leader. reassuring myself. After over an hour. I felt that I was not in control. while my fingers rode the waves of the passing air. I felt an encompassing warm pressure swallowing me into itself from behind. but as I still had errands to do by car. revealing a round molecule revolving in the dark space of my third eye. turned into white light. including myself. if not better. Once I got home. to my eyes. His friend arrived shortly after he made the call. My friend encouraged me to try some with them. After a few minutes of rapid spinning. and he said he would buy some from me if I were successful in my search. I wondered if they sold something like that at my local smoke shop. “It sucked. encasing me in a state of bliss. he called one of his friends to come over and try some. I called my friend and told him I got the Spice and would be right over to let him try it. leaving the left to flow in the currents of the right. however. the Kronic Hypnotic type. but I wanted to have it that day. than Kush (a potent strain of Cannabis) and was so excited. I wondered out loud as to what was going on. he opened it and took a sniff. he lit up and took his first hit. which I had never heard of. I said I would wait until I got home. I looked up everything I could find on the internet about K2 and Spice. and paid seventy-eight dollars. The pace picked up again. He demonstrated to me that his motor skills were unimpaired. and were still able to see the outlines of the house. Then the light was sucked away from my awareness and my spinning body 75 . I could feel the energy of my spirit-self going beyond my physical form. I smoked a bowl. I certainly wasn’t expecting anything like this. My eye lids closed like an automatic garage door. eyes closed. synthetic marijuana called K2 or Spice. I was everything and nothing at the same time.” I picked up three grams of Chill Spice. I walked to the entryway which. After packing his bowl to the brim. He said it smelled like strawberry bubble gum.about a legal. and that I would make it through the experience. they seemed normal. I mentioned it was funny he was telling me about this now. Warm vibrational pulses emanated from my quickening heartbeat. showing me the chemical structure of what I had just smoked. because he said it was all over the news. and then went to relieve my bladder. I told myself to calm down. opened my eyes. yet at the same time told me they were experiencing a really good high. After our conversation.
everything became formless. 2012 76 . I repeated this entire series of events several more times before I shut off my light to crawl onto my bed.3 As I came back to myself I saw that it was getting close to five o’clock and knew that I had to get to my room before everybody came home. realizing that in order to do that. I was surprised I didn’t feel dizzy or sick.com for his belief of what might happen to us on Dec. Closing my door and turning on the light. I had to know that nothing was really there. 3 Look up 2012 Enigma by David Wilcock on YouTube. I still felt the etheric forces of the vortex pushing me like I was in a strong current of water. Once there. warped as if I were looking at myself on a reflective metal ball. I tried to slow myself down as I was bumping into things in my small cluttered room. As my speed increased.began to slow down. but still knew I had to stop myself. Eventually I was able to anchor myself to my bed by placing my arms and head on it while standing. As I closed in on myself. and my vision was sucked into a void that led me to the center of the universe. my body. I saw myself from about three feet above. as the enlightenment was mine. The year 2012 had hit me and I knew it. I saw the universe and its center. I looked at a small white speck on my blanket. After spinning for what seemed like ten minutes. Piercing my fading head. I no longer bumped into anything. 21st. I had to let go of my fear. along with my bed. I started to spin again. With difficulty I pulled myself out of the vortex. stopped myself from spinning and staggered into my room.
until I could assimilate all of this knowledge. After a few laps around the orb. flattened out like a sheet of paper. The intensity of the trip was obviously quite high. and explained the same thing again. Each vision was smaller than the one preceding and they all ended at a ball of light. shooting out of me in a light blue blaze as it branched out like the roots of a tree. the vision faded. shooting out beyond my body. I envisioned this as a man unlocking a door with a key. However. I saw that the heart had formed into the shape of a person. leaving only the orb of light. leading to the Universal Consciousness. a door unlocked to open to another door. As the heart throbbed. an orb of light appeared. From that particular experience. a red female spirit separated from the original black form. the projections by-passed the spirit forms to become actually human. leaving their colors streaking out behind them. One shaft projected a blue male spirit. leaving my mouth very dry. I knew that this was only true for the time being. It hit me. I pictured this as one man holding all the Chakra colors within him. I had been shown how I was projected. That’s all there really is. the higher the intensity the more I believe one learns. turned to the left. we become the master key. This blue spirit explained to me what I really was. turning around to the right. Arriving at our moment of enlightenment. facing the black form. I felt as if there was nothing else for me to learn. before concluding that there is something else for me to discover about myself. which began to form itself over the wire frame. The first was how each of these entheogenic chemicals is merely a symbol of a key to unlock the doors of illusion. Seconds later. each representing one of the seven main chakra points. not the ones who mumble to themselves in the streets? There is only the inner self. A vision of an electrical heart pumping out blue bolts of energy appeared in the center of my darkness. Does that imply that those of us who talk to other people are the truly crazy ones. and so on into infinity.Instantly I felt the energy from my magnetic mattress pad hitting me like little cattle prods. While these thoughts faded away. That vision then turned into a solid black form. that I knew all there was to know. leaving a gold streak in the darkness from their bodies. From the darkness came the image of a person. positive and negative electrons spinning around consciousness. All is one. while I talk to other people. In its place radiated an orb of light. As the excess energy dissipated. electricity surged out into my veins. I could feel voltage flowing through my veins. while the empty space went from black to white in the shape of an upside-down pyramid with a missing cap stone. projecting a human-like blue wire frame. Just before the image had completely wrapped itself over the human-frame it vanished. Which would lead me into the bottomless pit of the infinite mysteries of life. The two copies of myself then projected two more copies of a male and a female. Each man and door was a different color. seven times. 77 . the intensity of which faded as my third eye showed me my thoughts. I began to feel the electricity in my body rise. I’m actually just talking to myself. this being repeated seven times. and how to go back to my true self. The black form then projected a blue male spirit out in front. Next. The orb then shot out two shafts of illumination that spiraled clockwise in opposite directions. and everything is a projection from one’s self. while the other was of a red female spirit: both were running. Still. which opened to another. The whole experience lasted for about two hours.
I realized he was right and the longer I thought about it. This continued through all the chakra colors until it reached red. When I woke up I felt that I had been shown the way consciousness projects the illusion. which we are all on anyway. so I watched him start one. The simplest answer I can give is that consciousness. my friend pointed out his cat and made sure I noticed it was licking it’s ass. he gave me a shot at Call of Duty 4. That it is a ball of energetic information projecting itself from within. He told me that it is one level lower. playing a shooting game doesn’t make any sense. I had no motivation for playing a killing game. space and time just are. that where it actually comes from is another story. whereas if I’d been drinking. Starting with violet. then another brain of the next lower chakra color projected out towards me. and then told him that I believe consciousness is everywhere. As we headed back to his place he convinced me to try it at his house. which put me on all fours laughing for a good five minutes. the crown chakra color. I found simple things to be ridiculously funny on the Funky Monkey. The answer remains under lock and key. We both laughed as I said he could look at that in two ways. I finally found the gentle high I had been looking for as I don’t care much for drinking. deep within us. in his opinion of the Spice. as they know Cannabis users have. things would not have been anywhere near as much fun. and as it was loading. and that the answer would somehow expose some deep. of an infinite amount of possibilities instantaneously and forever. Bob wanted to play a computer game. and when I’m high. no interest in hurting or killing others.(all of the pics for spice go here) Where Does Consciousness Come From? (Dream) My friend Mason once asked me. as a rule. (Consciousness Dream pic) Funky Monkey-XXXX My friend found the right level of JWH-018 in what is called Funky Monkey-XXXX. As we took about four hits each. Months later I dreamt of a spark of radiant light projecting out the spirit form of a brain.99. subconsciously or consciously trekking on a daily basis. He replied that was only a description. To explain it any further would lead one on an endless journey. but was unable to decipher the mysterious brilliance of its origins. I told him the one thing I hate about video games is when they are loading. This image lingered for a moment longer in my third eye before vanishing. the gentle vibrations flowed up the sides of my neck pouring out over my head before reaching my eyes. “Where does consciousness come from?” I thought for a moment.) As we headed upstairs. hidden pain for him. We also pondered as to how there could be a beginning without an end. the last color. (Perhaps that’s why the military and the police forces don’t want to enlist people who enjoy getting high. giving them a quick shake. leaving me to feel he had been pondering that question for quite some time. After some time. He said he wished he knew where it came from. the more elusive the answer seemed to be. As I 78 . They suspect these people won’t have the right mentality for military service. We went to a smoke shop where I bought four grams of it for $24. as the universe goes on into infinity without an end.
to be green. Note: This is now illegal as of November 2010. In total. even in one session my thoughts would jump from one idea to the next and so I thought it would be better to present my thoughts in this manner. because the antibodies in my body would be fighting off the carcinogens from the burnt Cannabis and the smoke was. with bliss that is. When I smoked the used up Cannabis from the vaporizer. The first way is smoking it with a pipe. I took a look around. · Fear is conquered through understanding. so I ran in and realized I had a lot of energy. harsher. Chapter 12 Queen Tetra (Cannabis or what it is commonly called Marijuana) Experiences for One Year There are three ways I have consumed Cannabis Sativa and each gives you a different type of high. I felt every time I buy something I’m taking points off my soul. I did not use this method as much because I soon found the Vaporizer and the candy to be my preferred way. Also. This section will be about my Queen Tetra experiences. This type of high was evenly distributed throughout my body and was less of a head high. conformed ways. but very enjoyable high. As I was waiting in line. The store lighting made me feel dead and mute. I found a small portion of candy to be useful for concentration. and to be 79 . and made my mind race with ideas. All I could see were price signs on everything.regained composure I told him I really had to get going. As for the candy. I filled my arms with stuff and proceeded to the check out. · You’ve got to let out all your hidden personalities to be free. I am going to give you my experiences through bullets because over the course of seven months my notes got jumbled around and were not concise. did not burn my throat while inhaling. It wasn’t until I ran in the rain back to my car that I felt alive again. I realized the Funky Monkey loosens the screws of my rigid. With the pipe I found myself with less energy. The high was mostly a head high. leaving about another two-and-half hours of just feeling chilled. and allowing me to say whatever I want and feel great about it. Most of these experiences were recorded while I was high or what I like to call loaded. The recipe for the candy given to me by a dear friend is at the end of this chapter. the high comes on slowly. Creative thoughts swam around in my mind on the drive home. It was pouring when I arrived. I would not typically feel the effects until an hour and a half later. After two-and-a-half hours I felt that the first major leg was over and felt safe enough to drive to Wal-Mart. the burn was not as bad and I found it to be a less intense. So here’s my mind on Cannabis: · The Queen has many mysteries to show you. I found my alternative to alcohol. the first two-and-half hours was the peak. The Vaporizer gave me more energy.
· · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · high. Listen to the background music when Jake first meets the mother shaman. Building illuminations and enjoying your imagination. I could tell you what it is all about. My heart is my love. why such an attachment to an illusion anyway? I am an alien saving Earth with my higher dimensionality. the music sounds like some occult chant. (Pic of “I’m the pyramid”) The desire to live forever occupied my mind for a while until I thought. Turn on your power. (Note: even 80 . but you would not believe me without a doubt. It will walk you around until you say good bye. So how about forgetting what you’ve been taught and find out for yourself what you’ve been without. Note:The Queen shows you the deeper meaning in things you see. (Pic of “Flower of Life”) Watching Avatar while loaded (high): Tree of Souls equals psychedelics and outsiders are forbidden to par-take. You can see how phony it is and that’s why corporations don’t like it. It reminded me of what a DMT or Ayahuasca trip looks like. death is scary. Tato Tomato tatata. You are going to let this spirit have a ride. So I’m going to be pulsing my shockwave of love to the world. The character Norm equals normal and Grace equals gentle. Mystical smoke. I paint my life with my eyes. The trip was beyond my rationality. not knowing what it’s all about. You are aware of your download. what now do you have to tell me about the world beyond my mind. but infinity is downright terrifying. It’s all vibrations. Then you let the trip take you into its infinity. Being Loaded with Queen Tetra is like putting on X-ray glasses to view propaganda. It will give you a ticket for a try. Besides. when this happens he is illuminated and has one hand facing up and one facing down. so just get in them man. The Queen lets the subconscious on out to play for a while. Watch the deleted scene called Dreamhunt which show Jake’s real challenge to becoming part of the tribe. As time goes on there are more possibilities. For if you can figure out how to do the impossible you will soar without a doubt. is also below. My drill instructor was my fear. In the beginning of the movie Jake. symbolizing what’s above. You’ve got to get all your little spirits out to play with your body to be happy. but it’s the only way for all of us to find some sanity. A bird can eat a whole tree in one bite. That’s why it can fly. is covered by little white flower life forms. Then it will show you that you are divine. Love and fear are constantly chasing each other’s tails. It’s a spiritual kata that you must use to defeat fear (dancing on the Cannabis while listening to music). We play this game of cat and mouse. I will be smokin that shit tomorrow. and open up your mind. My soul is who I am. My consciousness is who we are. It’s my reality.
psychedelics. Queen Tetra takes off our emotional restraints. After smoking. I am drawn to look up at a telephone pole directly beneath the sun revealing a message in my mind. Twenty one dollars later became the time to go. the true intentions of these two spirits came to light. Walking through crowds of dimensional seekers. This movie is so sophisticated that I applaud the people who did it. Time expands like ripples in a pond.· · · · · · · · · · · · when not doing Queen my creativity is way up and I more easily see the ridiculousness of mainstream propaganda) We are all a dream of the Universal Consciousness. (Pic of this goes here) Walking to the show a bug hits my forehead. Psychedelics crack open your consciousness. and soon realized that they were in control by two serpent spirits. death is a walk in the park. The smoke cloud floats me down to the ramp of the Phish UFO. I had eaten some Queen Tetra Candy a few hours earlier. The All Seeing Eye is not a symbol of spying or Big Brother but perhaps the all-seeing 3rd eye (Pineal Gland) that sees the spirit realm. and life is a beautiful dream. Death keeps things in a true perspective. I turned off my music and lights leaving one candle lit at the far end of my room. I could analyze this movie for years. That God is energy and energy is everything. feeling its residual energy going through my mind. And perhaps the Illuminati are a psychedelic society. revealing the very seed of what you are. Darkness is trying to swallow me. My arms matched the waves of sound while my body rocked back and forth on the sea of bliss. Lasting as long as a roller coaster ride. Once the waves calmed. the high aliens. Sweating with defeat. As the music intensifies an opened portal is transporting me to the center of a colorful bliss. They offered me fame and 81 . When I asked how it was they had come to me. light. The movie “Walk Hard the Dewey Cox Story” is so deep that I can’t see the end. The universe is a flower. popping balloons and laughter echoed all through the parking lot as nitrous oxide gas turned hippies into laughing crack heads for $7 dollars a balloon. I search for illegal computer programs that can hack through my main frame and connect me to the source of consciousness. drugs and much more. I laid on my bed and before I knew it I began to talk to my hands. After the concert an encompassing sound of hissing tanks. The band intelligently plays the music of the universe for us. spirituality. As the gas spun my hearing perception in circles my laughter increased exponentially. It’s about so many things such as secret societies. so I must go beyond it to be free of it. (Pic of “The Universal Flower”) My mind imprisons me. now I was smoking some Queen through my vaporizer. I began to flow with the music of the solitary night. After much talking. aliens. I was told that when both entities look for each other’s vibrations the connection takes place.
I can imagine light all around me. Now I know why I’m here: I’m here for bliss. I am in the bliss. that will never be. The infinite creates you. we are going to rescue its consciousness. switching directions as I continued to flee from this unseen spirit. It’s wildly long what I have to talk about. vibrating with an explosion of excited particles. Well start with that. When you wake up you will ascend up to their realm.fortune. Now get back on your journey and see where this is taking us. My head. and I am the bliss. Thank you. Now watching 1200 Mircrograms-Salvia Divinorum. thank you. listen to my heart pound. This is why I think the Queen Tetra took me into this experience. just as long as I sell my soul to the Devil. Can you hear me to this beat? I’m sure you can if you open your ears.” Now looking at the flickering candle my spirit flew to a fractaling light. tha. we flew to a planet that faded to blackness at its center. You’re on your own from here. · While listening/watching a YouTube video called 1200 Mircograms-Marijuana. You got to loosen your bolts in your mind to be free. on and on forever. After much more talking I said “No. How are you? Thanks for showing me who I really am. That’s all I can tell you for now. throat and chest became energized. You can’t see the sun but you can hear the thunder. It’s a hallucination of thoughts that transforms you into something else. Next YouTube video playing is 1200 Mircograms-ecstasy. Well I can imagine a lot. so I twisted around on my bed for many minutes in one direction. something else that is more than light. So go out and make some noise and let them hear what we are all about. I was downloaded into the light: I had won the fight for my soul. so we can be one. where laid a small yet bright light. So send out that peace and love with me until you can’t anymore. thank you and yes you want control but first you must learn to see beyond what you can imagine. So go out with your love and see how it feels. Note: I could feel the thoughts being put in by the unseen spirits while writing all of this. My mind is connected to everything I see. for this planet is Earth. that’s why you must focus on your center to see what you truly are: a star of pure consciousness radiating light forever and ever. this is what I wrote down. So digitize with me. After getting tired. for that’s all that truly matters. Note: Earlier in the day I saw a YouTube video called “1 of 4 Dark Stars (Illuminati in Hollywood)” which dealt with famous rock stars who said they were possessed by spirits and spoke of selling their soul to Satan. I realized the only way I was going to 82 . I bet we will be finding love. It’s so wonderful how it beats. Later a friend told me that it’s called spirit writing. Then I floated away with my soul mate through the stars. tha. I was tempted but scared. Exploding into a sun that I am. Kaleidoscope your mind and see how far you can go into the light. one for all. They told me all I had to do was fly through the tunnel poster above me. I saw myself as a yellow glowing spirit having an even brighter yellow light shooting out of my mouth. With the use of our consciousness. Now watching Robert Miles-Children (Dream Version) on Youtube. · I sensed a demonic spirit was trying to enter my body from behind. (2pic: Accepted and Rescue goes here) While grouping up with other spirits. I’m going to the light.
exploring my minds realms. as we fractal out farther into other realms. Expand your consciousness to planetary proportions and become a Sun. Write everything into existence with your magic symbols. Those that don’t see time are less delusional.· · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · defeat this demon was to consume it with my Love. Salvia-Weed #2 . (Pic “I’m the Pyramid”) Salvia-Weed #1. I could feel my energy vortex flowing into my chest and out my back. a light of love. It shows what we can hold: a beautiful model of light.I saw a white light projecting tentacles of different people showing me that I can become anyone I want. So I stopped turning around and laid on my back. that is humanity.Is the process when you smoke Cannabis first. not even to your own mind. Expand your awareness to become a planet. You can see and feel someone else’s perspective while high. Then expand or explode infinitely away from yourself. Realize what you are. Your inner light can fade the illusion away. Feel your energy moving through your body. Watch 2001 Space Odyssey while being high. while at times the energy tickled my ear drums making them ring. Several minutes later I fell asleep. After a while my 6th sense told me I was now safe. then after ten to fifteen minutes of being high you smoke Salvia Divinorum. then imagined my radiant light of love dissolving my attacker. We have an infinite void to travel through with no destination in sight. the more value it has. producing a copy of ourselves into the infinite. seeing what it has to offer. they make you feel insignificant and alone. In this case I did 20x of Salvia. (Pic “Fractal Universe”) To travel easily you must have no attachments. I’m stuffing my face with expanding consciousness. The crazier the idea. My body is my temple and my consciousness is my light. The galaxy is like a record player and every time our solar system aligns with the center we get played out. The stars are so vast and beautiful. We are light waves riding on the currents of the Void. (Pic “The Demon Attack”) After the Queen vapor touched every cell in me. (Pic “you can be anyone you want”) You must collapse in on yourself to dissolve the illusion. I felt energy being released from the base of my spine flowing up and through my neck into my head. suspended in the infinite black void. Imagine squeezing yourself to a pea size right to the center of your being. You must let all aspects of yourself be accepted in order to be in love. Nature fluctuates beautifully. I asked to be un-plugged from the Matrix. it’s magical. It’s only when you go out of your mind that you see all. 83 . words. So you must go beyond their vastness to see who you really are. It was late at night. I saw and felt spirits uncoiling my whole body starting from the top of my body working their way down to my feet. It would be awesome to be a vaporizer sales man smoking Queen on every sale. And yet they are you.
Listening to my life’s song. pulse out my love vibrations to the whole universe. Therefore. I’m eating the light. Once there. trying to figure out who we are.· · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · I like downloading trips. And it will take an electrical Magnetic Pulse of Love to stop the machine. Once I absorb all the universe’s love. Enlightenment does not come all at once. In my garden I would be mainly growing Cannabis with some Salvia Divinorum and shrooms on the side. I would like to have a radio show where the person doing the show is high and only takes high people as callers and talk about Cannabis or psychedelics in general. I’ll save the world through my intentions. I want an infinite perspective. It’s a gradual process. Nature can show those that are daring enough the beauty of the next dimension. It has its special qualities. It’s natural to want to give your friend a toke. flying through enlightenment. By pulsing my love vibrations throughout the world. Preferably only those that have a medical marijuana card so that the police don’t bust the illegal users. That would be my Garden of Eden. I will fly back to the center of the Earth’s consciousness and explode that love energy to the whole planet. Smoking with a lighter pops your ears. I will train my mind to take me anywhere. 84 . Mind expansion fuels creativity. You can’t be in contact with anything you aren’t vibrating to. Do Ayahuasca and fly to the center of the universe and penetrate the universal consciousness. Saying good bye to those I love as I venture into that great beyond. creating something truly beautiful. If we shine all of our light on love then we will be able to see all. making you realize what truly matters in life. The world vibrates us. effectively raising the Earth’s frequencies. And the callers have to be high as well. I have discovered that the used up Queen from the vaporizer is still good. Flying through a lucid dream on and on forever. for everything you do is returned to you tenfold. We start off as an explosion of light that shapes us into vibrations of color that rides the dark void. waiting to receive their love vibrations. Let’s zoom off to another realm. going into higher dimensions of love (because it’s never ending). But it is not as intense. The movie the Matrix is a psychedelic movie. It takes all the light for us to be here. It’s like saying: “Hey! Do you want to have fun?” Walking with a crowd to a bright light. And I would be high as a bird and as happy as a clown. we are at the center of the stage. My garden of Eden is a nice warm day hanging outside with a hot naked chick. Queen Tetra is a Space ship that sends your tiny perspective into the beyond.
3 hours after that I took about 4 hits of acid) (picture “I’m chasing the Light.came up with this on the Queen alone). (I did Queen Tetra through a vaporizer. I saw the grey alien type creature but they were white skinned and had red eyes instead of black. I like pot. Then they will stop 85 . Euphoric vibrations took me to the next level.com: Oppokoppler-Spacetravel) We the people demand that we gas our Politian’s with Cannabis. That there are a lot of things I can show people through my book but not everything. Airliners should have cameras facing the six directions so that the passengers can have a 360 degree view as they fly. Pot of Gold is Pot. back in the party and laughing with bliss. which is my home to explore. Time is gone and now I see with my eyes closed. In all my lucid dreams. my spirit walks into the beyond. He also showed me how the power of focusing my attention in the air can condense the reality around us and put it into a liquid blob at the tip of my fingertips. I can rhyme on a dime and still be high. I like it a lot! We go into parallel realities with every decision we make. The universe is my home as I traverse this verse the way I want it to be. and every star is a possibility. Wow! That was cool. Entheogens are vital to space travel. It’s amazing how small we are. (Pic “Love to the World”) You must first serve your purpose before you can be free. my universe. Euphoric feelings are just one of them. But what’s even more incredible is how small the universe is. continuing on into the infinity of my mind. While looking at him talking. every sunset is a beauty. I am a master of my mind. but I am the Light”. I saw light circuits in his face lighting up his black eyes. Life is an infinite journey. the third eye.· · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · I figure things out faster through my use of Love. flying above all my wildest fantasies. (pic of LSD Shaman) Taking moments here and there to close my eyes and see where my third eye is looking. two hours later I ate my ecstasy pill. (pic “Eye of Enlightenment”) Twenty hours later and my mind still races with poetry. They are looking at me. ripping my spirit out of my bones. I would like to have a small sample of all the entheogens that I’ve done encased in a clear glass ball to wear as a necklace. The universe is pretty dope. I think we can out vibe the negative energies in this world with our intentions of love. every dawn is a new beginning. I was taught by my LSD shaman to live within the moment. I like getting high and fantasizing about my dreams. Finding love. that is as bright as the sun. Pulling my bones through my flesh. I am light. Every day is a dream. a triangle upside down with each corner being a primary color of spirits all waving their arms towards the central golden pyramid eye. every night is a fantasy. (Inspired by music video on Youtube.
Love is not logical but it is more powerful. I’ve been consciousness exploring. Have a cartoon called Shaman. eyes closed imagining your gifts. Dialing. When you completely love yourself. filing. 4 shrooms. Toothless ruthless. I help heal the world for that our consciousness are all connected influencing each other’s vibes. The only power I need is Love. Video tape yourself being high for one week doing all sorts of tasks.· · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · fucking us over and start telling us the truth. The Hive Mind of Spiritual Assistance: Imagine a honey comb of blue spirit helpers in 86 . You can manifest a whole building with that small Pineal Gland of yours. Your Love frequency rises as the Queen Tetra flows into your body taking you on an infinite journey to a place called Nirvana. Entheogens are psychic Steroids. and one million dollar jack pot. 3 pot plants. you will love everybody else. Hiding in lucid dreams from my fears of who I really am: conscious light. where you have a character for each entheogen. you can bring your whole negative system down. Sweet Nickels. But you got to meditate first. When you start telling the truth you will open up your heart. I’m sky high. 6 grasshopers. 2 salvia plants. By healing myself. 5 rabbit’s feet. text-filing. I’m scared to realize how powerful I am. That shit (pot) suites my fancy. I got this idea from a guy at a party). It will be a comedy but it will also teach people about spirituality. And when we the people protest the tyrannical government and are faced with combating the police we will subdue them with our converted leaf blowers that pump out Cannabis smoke. Smoke Queen Tetra in public as much as possible to desensitize people to it (not in front of cops of course. so that means the world is your stage. I’m psychedlicatized. This will show the world what’s it like to be high and realize that there is no reason to keep Cannabis illegal. You can’t fight when you are happy. You can access anything through love. 7 lucky stars if you make it. Expand your field of Love and dissolve the illusion of fear. Pull whatever you want out of yourself with both hands plucking at your chest. If you can vibrate love. Wing chung I’m a ninja. 9 wigy wagets. I’m dope as a quital bug. Playing the Kaossiloator while high is fucking awesome. leaving them unable to fight.
and Head Light. But what I can tell you from my personal experiences is that this plant has proven to be a wonderful resource for many different reasons. As I fan out my chest and hands to the surrounding bliss of life. it has been proven to be a very healthy plant to consume. I Create My Life. it will make you feel like someone is on your side. Your body is now vibrating love. has made me a better dancer. In the end we realize that’s all there ever was and only then do we see the beauty of this world. (3) watching funny movies. I’m Jam-in-the-Jam. Flower of Life. and then do them high: it will make the experience much better. My top ten things to do High: (1) Sex. makes listening to music more enjoyable. So believe that you have hundreds of willing spirits that are there to assist you. Decode your body. I pulsed out the Love this morning. so I spent the rest of the day with Love. Pulse Love with me Now. In appendix A. Yet you still have to play a part. Now run to your stomach chakra and activate it with love.· · · · · · · · · each section ready to help you mold events to your liking. You can’t stop the Jo when he is in the flow. (6) writing these creative ideas down. The point is to do things you already like to do. makes sex even better. I list books and videos that show quite a bit. So there’s nothing else to do but love. you can’t just sit on the side lines and expect the ball to score by itself but you will notice things getting a lot easier for you. you are the light that flows over the Earth and through time. 3D Color Projection. Time Line Life. (9) working out. connecting with spirits. Not only that but when you ask that one spirit for help it gets hundreds of other spirits to help as well. Love has no boundaries and neither do you. It has shown me that through my intentions I can experience quite a large range of different experiences. Word Vibes. I have found it to be useful for creativity. (10) looking at the stars. We are all angelic beings of love. (5) walking in the woods. we hunt for it. I’m stomping Love into the Earth. How delusional must I be to believe in such an illusion? (picture of “Heart Love”) (4 th Shroom trip/with Queen Tetra Candy) We need love to grow. makes working out easier.☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺ Additional Queen Pictures: Psychedelic Pyramid Guide. (8) going to concerts. Go deep within yourself. (4) eating. Do this all the way to your crown chakra. handing out my frequencies of thought. 87 . and it has made me really happy. and once we are grown. Then you imagine them going into the future and caressing the illusion. Run down the bright tunnel to the base of your spine and activate your base chakra with love. On top of all of that. heart and mind to Love. (7) taking a hot bath. a better choice for a party situation (as opposed to alcohol) as there is no hangover. I don’t know if I can say enough about this wonderful plant: Cannabis Sativa. (2)going to parties. you don’t lose your motor skills. relaxing.
I came to a realization as to why I did not enjoy my first few Queen Tetra experiences as much as I could have: it was because I believed the main stream media’s story about the results of smoking Cannabis. I believe that it would make me stupid, wanting only to eat and giggle uncontrollably. As you can see, this was not my case in the above Queen Tetra experiences because I had set my intentions to my own wishes. Majun Recipe (Cannabis Candy)
½ a cup of sieved pot 1 tsp of cinnamon plus nutmeg ½ to ¾ cup of sunflower seeds 4tb of chia seeds 1 cup granola 1-2 pinches of pepper 1 tsp baking powder 1 cup of honey ½ stick of butter Mix pot and butter well – allow to stand at least 3hrs – to overnight Cook honey to 250’ add all ingredients, except pot/butter mix and Baking soda. Heat to 300’, remove from heat. Stir in pot butter mix and baking soda. Cool completely.
Chapter 13 Moving Further Through the Mind The new synapsis connections are giving me new and intriguing thought patterns, which is taking my imagination further than anticipated. LSD Trip/With the Dragonflies Taking a small amount of LSD on a warm summer’s day, my thoughts soon flew with the dragonflies. I’m getting inside my mind, yet my mind is getting outside of me. It takes a lot of focus to see who I really am. Vibrating love helps. Take a trip inside a trip. Walking through the forest I realize I’m hunting for my mind. (pic “Path of Life”) I can feel my 88
destination as the energy goes through my stomach and out my back. Moving back and forth I am amazed how I can feel this. Continuing on my course, downloading info into my third eye, I realize there is no end to my journey. Yet time is brutally sharp so I must continue to work like a honey bee on my consciousness so I can evolve into what I truly am: light. My personal magnifying glass has shown me how far behind I am from my contemporaries. On the other hand I feel I know the meaning of life is to live it. How many others know that? Rice for One Week For one week I ate nothing but rice with lemon juice and basil leaves to help detoxify my Pineal Gland. On the last day I ate nothing, and drank a lot of water. I sat outside all day doing nothing but playing with my thoughts. I had boiled myself right down to my true essence of pure consciousness. It really is just a spark sitting in the vast void of blackness. How humbling. The slow moments of the day gave me a chance to think about what I really wanted in life and how to get it. As night approached, my spot changed to see the rising moon. As the first spark of light came through the trees, I prepared my mind to blast off into the center of the galaxy with my wing man sitting behind me. My fuel was a bad mixture, leaving me motionless, yet the moon still sent chills down my spine. The moon showed me the power a moment can have. Despite the fact I did not reach my intended destination, I had learned a lot on this journey. One of the last things I learned was that it’s not all about me. My wise friend agreed.
Queen Tetra and DMT/ “All Seeing ” The All Seeing Eye emits purple fractaling molecular codes at me, spiraling out and away as I’m called. What is the word? The word is wonder. I can’t understand it. It’s too vast for me, but I’m trying. We are trying to interface with you. Just give us a call at 1-800-DMT. And work that mind. Do entheogens. The Queen has taken the rest of the ride to a friend’s house where the idea of faces opening up the center revealing another face and another and another infinitely, sourcing from the light emanating out of the dark tunnel mouths. The wheel of fortune spun in my favor as the circle disk of different people was placed into one body reveling that we are all one. (pic of “All 1”) 15 th -17 th Time/DMT Hits at the Power Spot (Pic “Let out my Light ”_“Becoming Formless ” – “Dimensional Ship Spot ” The first time I set my intentions on letting out my light, I saw red and yellow geometric shapes transforming into a beautiful star. On the next hit, I asked to become formless, and was telepathically told I had to go into the dark. As I was being told this, I saw a space of white light open up in front of me with a yellow/green geometric merkabah shape floating in the middle constantly transforming. It seemed to generate growth of a red light as it spiraled up into the darkness creating a rose. Coming straight down, a red snake slithered towards the center of this red rose. Before it reached the rose, the vision faded away with the wind. The last trip takes me inside a UFO made out of red light. I look around and notice six 89
red light silhouettes of people coming towards me telling me I must do Ayahuasca so we can have a longer conversation in the light. I know this tale is not finished until I do Ayahuasca. Ideas and Dreams I have noticed that even when I’m not using any entheogens my mind now works as if I’m still on them. My creative mind is well lubed and constantly coming up with ideas. Even my dreams look like some of the trips I’ve experienced. First I will show you my ideas; all of which are shown in picture. (pic “The Key Frequency” – “Universal Duality” (idea from reading one of the Carlos Castenada books) – “Growing” – “Word Block” – “ Merging Dualities” (idea from reading one of the Carlos Castenada books) – “Neuron Connection” (idea from reading one of the Carlos Castenada books)-“Fractal Choices” and the last idea came from listening to a shamanic drumming CD by (get who by), “A Helping Hand”. The next two images are from my dreams. (pic “My Higher Self” – “We are Clouds”) Chapter 14 The Jaguar Path: Yoga and Peruvian Shamanism My friend Archie got me interested in a course called the Jaguar Path which he had taken the previous year. He talked of the interesting tools he’d been taught to use. The one that caught my attention the most was called “Seeing.” For this tool, you shake a rattle while looking into someone’s left eye and Archie said the room had opened up into another dimension. Needless to say, upon hearing of this I wanted to learn more of what the course had to offer. After practicing with entheogens for the past three years and reading several books on shamanism, I was eager to delve deeper into its mysteries. After speaking with Ray Crist, the Jaguar Path instructor, and completing a short introductory session, I felt he could help me heal further. And this journey would be without the use of entheogens.
Jaguar Journeys by Ray H. Crist (CD) The audio CD takes you on a guided tour to find your power animal. Lying on my bed with the head phones on, I followed the instructions to look at my feet while walking, then to gradually look up. (The rest may vary to what the CD says, because imagination begins to take some control). As I raised my eyes, I saw a woman’s legs walking ahead of me. This woman led me to a field where I saw a deer that had been shot, bleeding, dying. I felt sorry and helpless to do anything for it. I soon realized this was the same deer I had found while walking in the woods as a teenager. It had a gunshot wound that entered the chest and came out its rear; taking a chunk of its tail. Once the deer sensed me standing over it, it stumbled away for ten or so yards away before collapsing. As I walked to it again, I looked for a rock or something I could kill it with in order to put it out of its misery. As I approached it again, it ran off into a thick bush that I 90
This turned out to be successful. Listening to the final CD instructions to stretch at the end. like Don Juan. releasing my sadness for the deer. Leaving this space of light. because I chose it by the power of the spirit. I now saw the deer standing upright on its rear legs. From there I went to where I shot my fears. Finding My Serpent Rock with Queen Tetra as My Ally I ran a scenario in my head as I was shoveling snow towards the bird house. opening the brushes like a piece of paper that led to a dark space. I never saw it again. At first I thought I had one but it turned out to be only a stick.could not even low crawl through. While floating in the center of the universe. That I. I ran my intentions for this ride through my mind. knowing everything we put out comes back many-fold. As I laid down under a big tree. a flood of light penetrated me. looking at me. I ran away from the house so the keepers would not see where I went. After a couple of minutes of fingering through the freezing. Inside this bright space I received two gifts: a black box and a round rock with rings on it. Chapter 15 Find Yourself and Save the Planet Several Shrooms/8 Hits of LSD/2 licks of MDMA/ Queen Tetra Vapor hits several hours later/ “Love to the Universe. hopefully raising the vibrations of Earth. muddy water I pulled out my Serpent rock. Looking now at the dark murky puddle of water I took my gloves off and dove to the water blindly searching for my Serpent rock. I knew then it was my power animal and had been protecting me ever since that day. So I strove to protect Earth through my love intentions. I absorbed the universe’s love for several minutes until I knew I had all its love energy stored in my spirit before flying back to 91 . Once I entered. I knew at that moment I had to run back over my same path as quickly as I could. I was charged up for quite a journey. keeping her safe. not by looks. I reentered the woods to find a spot where I could sleep. After shoveling a path to the bird house. I saw several deer hiding behind trees. While lying on my bed I took my spirit mind to the center of the universe. a strip of LSD that equaled about eight hits and two licks of MDMA. I finally released my sadness and felt free of the old hidden burden. I looked into the eyes of my deer of sorrow and felt it projecting its love to me. As I walked. It was ugly but I knew I had the right one. must slip away from my keepers of love to get my serpent rock for the shaman class. without my keepers realizing I’d been gone. I knew of an asteroid called YU55 that was scheduled to be flying too close for comfort on November 8 2011. pulsing out my love vibrations to the whole universe. Love to the Earth ” After taking a decent dose of shrooms. These were gifts from the deer in appreciation for the sympathy I had given it that day so many years ago. With the CD continuing to guide me. As I laid down in my dark room. I crawled under trees and ran over hills following the tracks of the wolf until they put me in the Serpent’s lair.
the center of the Earth. you are shown the universe. And that is just beautiful. I finally went to bed listening to one of my eco-sync CD’s. reality reveals even more. and now that I’ve found it. knowing it’s time to smoke the Queen Tetra to revitalize my body. showing its deeper mystery once more. all the years. I noticed that there was a curtain of dark grey circles hiding these entities from my view. It just keeps going and going. for this small planet is about to disappear for lack of love. we are still stranded in our own little minds. The infiltration came from within my mind on a dime of synchronicities sourced from a million possibilities. Love is the best and most affordable energy out there. we need to evolve beyond our unfounded fears and become enlightened with love. I wish I could master this illusion. “We know. while these melodies of thought pass through my mind in the nebula of hyperspace. but what is the ground? Why do I continue to bring up my illusions? To keep reaffirming to myself that I’m here? When I look around the inside of my head. As my consciousness slowly returned to my body I felt energy lines wrapping around my legs. Once there. I see the truth. Twenty-four hours later. Love. Within minutes I’m warm enough to continue into the morning sun. it does not exist. Receiving the access codes to the Universe. and that’s where I lost my mind in awe. The eco-sync CD plays two slightly different tones in each ear to help balance 92 . It’s really absurd to be writing about reality when. But I’ll humor myself tonight with this next thought. we see you there. As I document these other realities. Would that too be an illusion? I guess I’ll sit back down and enjoy the show. Hours later. and soon. The universe has become my horizon. The funny thing is. our meeting ended as I got up to download this information. words flowed out of my hands onto paper. Despite all the wars. It leaves me on shaken ground. Our civilization was just an ape’s thought. The universe was on my mind last night and I thought Love. What if the dream disappeared? Every time I think I’ve figured it all out. Awe Yeah. looking out your cold window. Our mind needs to evolve.com and played the video called “Voyage Through Space and Galaxies” for the rest of the night. Love to the whole universe and the cool vibrations of love echoed back saying. and that is all the energy I need. I felt like these entities were in control of this reality. I’m afraid to tell anybody about it. I faintly saw a couple of Greys. in fact. I’m cold with purple limbs. little star so far away. one where I have saved the future Earth with my intentions and I still don’t know what the next second will bring. I finally appreciated its true beauty. I noticed the sound I had heard while looking at the aliens sounded like the humming noise on the CD. manipulating our vibrations of thought. Trying to decode all of its messages will take a lifetime. My ears started to perceive a humming noise that sounded like the inside of a UFO. If we choose to go to the stars. I’ve never been in a material one before. although. all I hear are echoes. I exploded my love energy out to the whole planet before returning to my bed. Watching the universe pulsing out frequencies of love. As I shifted my gaze from left to right. Only when I looked through this curtain at a certain angle could I see these shadowy figures. Several minutes later.” I’ve made a consciousness shift into another dimension. When you send your love to the universe. I powered up YouTube. I had so much to say while searching. with one reptilian creature standing behind them.
Once at my house we set my room up for the ceremony. Jay then started to play a Ayahuasca music CD. and a signed book by Daniel Pinchbeck called “Breaking Open the Head. and that Hawaii is the only other place other than Peru that grows Ayahuasca. So here I go into the beyond of thought with this sacred medicine. as he would come and perform the ritual with me at my home. no liquor or drugs. It was nice to talk to someone who has been on the same path as I. Jay told me there was a group of people in Hawaii dedicated to becoming spiritually advanced. who I consider to be one of the godfathers of psychedelic knowledge grew on his property. 1 st Time/ Ayahuasca/ “I ’m healed Ten Fold ” There is no doubt in my mind that I had gotten the attention of the spirit realm on my last journey. as my life’s synchronicity scale started going off the chart. but for many more years. I heard from an old high school friend I hadn’t seen in eleven years. I then received the Ayahuasca leaf (Psychotria Virids.The 8 th Entheogen It boggles my mind how Ayahuasca. learning how to do Ayahuasca ceremonies. Lastly. pushing past my own mental 93 . telling me these were for me as well.” He told me this gift was for what I was doing and he hoped it brought me a writer’s power. He told me to prepare myself for an Ayahuasca ceremony. Jay had me cleanse my room with white sage smoke as he set up his mesa. Chapter 16 Ayahuasca . He has been studying with a great shaman in the jungles of Hawaii for three years. Then. When I told my friend Al about this the next day he immediately thought that what I was hearing was not the sound of an inter-dimensional UFO but the sound of the universe. and on the way we talked continuously of a great many things. after which he had me hang two feathers from my light fixture which hung in the center of my room. he handed me a beautiful small wooden box to hold my pipes in. and I was not due to go to Peru to do Ayahuasca for another nine months. DMT). followed by a black winter hat which made so much sense to me later on. a blanket to sit on. Then it felt like Christmas. He told me this was to detect the subtle energies of spirits. Jay assured me that if there was anyone from high school who could be a shaman. He remembered me running track in high school. I was happily surprised by all of this. out of the blue. I knew I had to do this one last entheogen before I could finish my book. MOA inhibitor). is illegal because it contains a chemical known as DMT. For the next few days I began the special diet of not eating any meat. which is produced naturally in our brains. because he gave me an Ayahuasca vine (Banisterioopsis. dairy and of course. If he is right then the universe is quite possibly playing a balancing harmony from which we could all benefit.brainwaves. it was me. This was one of the plants Terence McKenna. This chemical is mysteriously magical in the fact that it can take our perceptions to a whole other dimension. I picked Jay up. To say the least. a combination of two natural plants.
talking for a bit about several subjects before entering the next level of the ceremony. Once down the hatch. I told him the spirit had really wanted out.barriers and breaking the school record for a two mile run.” Jay made me try to sing it. I realized that even though they are not perfect. and thank him for making me feel so good about myself. and although I had never used a mantra before. but after I messed it up a few times. We managed to save most of it and used rags to soak up the rest. I felt like he was now pushing me past another bigger wall and once I jumped over it. I told him I always liked him as a friend in high school. My intent was to pulse peace and love to the whole world. I came to the realization of where I truly am in this life. He admitted he had added nutmeg and cinnamon to it. Walking back into my room I told him my thoughts. That’s when I let out the biggest scream of unseen built up rage and pointed to the ground saying I’m right there. he took me into the other room where we had set up his massage table earlier. puke buckets on standby. balancing the energetic equation. The CD came to the mantra: “Om Namah Shivaya. and we have now offered some of the brew to the other spirits. When we were finished setting up. He told me after the song that he has incorporated many things from many different religions into his healing practice. I thought.-I was not in my body before?” Putting his hand over my stomach he started to make demonic noises and had to leave for a moment to spit out the demonic energy trapped in me. I could not stop feeling like he was an old friend from the stars of advanced spiritual beings. As I laid on the table he started what I can only describe as acupuncture with fingers. After another shot or two and some spiritual talk. and I asked him what he did to make it so much better. effectively healing my body. After a long trip to the bathroom and several more shots of Ayahuasca. they do have their place for humanity’s spiritual upbringing. it not only made sense but made me realize he was one of the only sane ones out there and spiritually far ahead of the rest of us. I felt like he was hacking into my body’s mainframe. He expressed how happy he was to be doing this for me. but had thought he was a bit crazy. I no longer felt the same kind of resentment towards the mainstream religions and felt an interesting peace for them. As we got ready to take our first shot we both prayed silently to ourselves. the real test 94 . and all I could do in the face of such complements was try and hold back my ego. which suddenly exploded all over the room. He smiled. Once he told me his life story. I was surprised how bland it tasted. At one point I laughed as he went over the side of my ribs. We took several hits of DMT that we placed on top of Psychotria virids (Ayahuasca leaves). I consider him to be one of my best friends. Now that I understand him. draining what we could into another container. When I tried making my own brew it tasted pretty bad. We were able to synchronize our chanting. he wrote it down for me. as if seeing myself in this life for the first time. Jay opened up the first bottle of Ayahuasca medicine. liking my optimism. When he came back to finish his work. “Oh shit. it made me feel great. and asked me how it felt to be back in my body. Everything he did seemed to have such a purpose and intelligence behind it. Once I had broken the first record I kept breaking my own records and then there was no stopping me. When he was done he went back into my room to give me time to demagnetize my extremely comfortable body off the table.
among which was our relationship to Universal Consciousness. I said I would like to learn how to maintain my individual awareness when I die. Being in a state of fear imprisons us. we discussed several philosophies and topics. but of thin paper. This is just a sliver of the wild information out there on the reptilian phenomena. which is REPTILIAN AGENDA ON TV PART 16 THE ABYSS typed out.com/watch?v=LUuo6aVXLko. He told me a truly amazing story from high school. He told me. 95 . The Peaceful Warrior and to read the Celestine Prophecy trilogy. Jay said they had noticed him because of his ability to open a vortex into another dimension and wanted to suppress his abilities of doing so. looking deeply into his right eye. and decided to someday make a list of my own rules. I fear there may be some truth to this subject. while a doctor type spirit looked into his left eye. as I thought it would not be a good thing to eat with a stomach full of Ayahuasca brew. but Jay coaxed me to stand up. easily torn through. Right after this occurred he was grabbed by the Hell’s Angels. perhaps the Universal Consciousness seeks knowledge of itself through us. “Good job. and taken to a room where they beat him. They speak of the Eagle’s emanations devouring our consciousness.had finally come. Once I had disposed of my vomit. During all this. Jay smelled popcorn my friends were making and asked if I could get him some. and to stand on my two feet. Nevertheless.” At that moment. When I had finally done all he instructed. The Ayahuasca was weighing me down with the urge to vomit. He said “I make my own rules. I know it sounds so crazy that most people will not believe that such a possibility exists. and Love is the only real key to freedom. The more I’ve looked into it and from my own personal experiences with entheogens. Jay felt that to lose oneself in the Universal Consciousness would be the greatest honor. I told him I liked this concept of making your own personal rules. I told him how he reminded me of a movie I had recently seen called “Rainbow Bridge”. Once I was up. while yet another part of me felt like I was dying. to avoid the complete ego death discussed in the Carlos Castaneda books. I was surprised by this request. As I slowly rose with the puke bucket in my arms. you’re doing great. he saw a reptilian spirit about an inch in size that sat an inch away. he told me to stand up straight. I agreed. Any walls I had built in my mind were no longer of brick. I felt I could accomplish anything I wanted. The conclusion we came to is that the reptilians are a higher dimensional entity that feeds off our fear energy and are the true rulers of the illusion we live in. At the same time I felt like I was being crammed with unseen knowledge. As I went to the bathroom. it’s a subject some people do believe in and should be investigated more thoroughly. Jay kept telling me to stomp my feet on the floor and get grounded. As we talked about good books and movies. He suggested I watch The Missionary (1983 film). and somehow opened a vortex to another dimension. but I am still very attached to myself. If you watch http://www.” and added another rule: don’t follow other people’s rules if they are harmful to you or others. I threw up as tears of relief ran down my face. He went to a concert completely sober.youtube. I told him my thoughts on why we are here in the first place. David Icke is one such person who has investigated the subject matter and is a good source for this information.
but nevertheless felt like my mind was straightened out. A couple of days later we were hanging out on a mountain talking about the world’s affairs and how to heal them. Carlos was not unpredictable and therefore made Don Juan go insane with boredom. I had to change my wardrobe. and it reminded me of one of the parts in the Carlos Castaneda books when Don Juan was teaching Carlos how he kept himself sane by being unpredictable. He said I could have it. third shot down. Now my body started to twist about as the demons came out. if I had started on a higher level I would never want to do it again. His true colors engulfed my mind and I realized that if he could. Jay felt one good way to do this was to have a holiday where everyone meditates on peace and love for a day. He changed my environment. I could not thank him enough for this redirection. I saw that our enemies need our love. and I had received a lower one. but then accepted his generous offer and put it on. I told him I was slightly disappointed that I had not experienced any visions while on the Ayahuasca. I had written down several things I wanted to accomplish. Although I’ve learned a lot over the years and have mentally changed dramatically for the better. to heal the wounds in people’s minds through his many tools. We concluded that the best way to heal the world was through our mind’s focused intent of peace and love. but mainly I was looking for the end of this entheogenic journey of mine. His response was that there are several levels to Ayahuasca. and of course women. he would absorb all the suffering in the world and want nothing in return. saying he just felt the spirit moved him to do so. I compared him to Mother Teresa with a shamanic touch. When the night got late I set him up with a spot on my floor to sleep and we talked a bit longer about the spirit world. That’s when I realized Jay’s mission in life. and seven-thirty. I agreed. he gave me a call to tell me he had left some Ayahuasca at his friend’s house. We then discovered that we both knew about the YU55 asteroid coming close to Earth and both of us unknowing of each other’s activities set our intentions of peace and love towards the planet to protect it. I had never realized how important clothes are to the way we think about ourselves. second shot down. six-fifty. While preparing myself for this journey.Jay came to the conclusion that weirdness has no boundaries. I can’t thank him enough for all he did for me. the real world. I was still holding on to my old self through the clothes I wore. Six-thirty at night the first shot went down. All of a sudden Jay handed me his Hawaiian hoody to have. If I were to move farther down my path of shamanism. I respected his reasons and was still impressed at how much more I felt healed. and that it was several levels more potent than what I had done before. I refused at first. 2 nd Time/Ayahuasca/ “I ’m Freeded ” A couple of days after Jay left for his next adventure. I know I’m truly blessed to have him as a friend and wish him luck on his monumental journey. while those who suffer need to stop feeling sorry for 96 . The day had come for me to be shown a truth that truly boggled my mind. Jay did what no entheogen could do. I told him I really liked it and realized how he had healed me like no other. Eventually the darkness dimmed our awareness to a deep sleep.
Let go of your old self and transform into your greatest potential.” I started to see a twirl of colors penetrate the veil of darkness. I’ve been looking for a show when all I needed was a deeper understanding of life.themselves. Appreciation for my wonderful family comes into fruition. and my heart beat pulsed its meaning. revealing my true self as a conscious. Finally I’ve realized the whole point of my entheogenic travels. I’m a healed spirit ready to walk out of the hospital door and enjoy life’s wonderful mysteries. telling me I have a whole world of possibilities. A strange part of this was that my fear of death had returned. Sixth shot at ten o’clock brought my diploma out. When we can finally relax with those we love. I thought until a colorful snake spirit starting to fly around my energetic ball. During my journeys I seemed to have temporarily lost that fear. I am love. 46 th Time/Yellow Zone Salvia/ “Bob are You Out There? ” Finding out from my friend Kim that her father had passed away the night before was a heartbreaking moment and at the same time a blessing. I feel like I have come full circle and am back at eating my own tail. Thoughts rushed in from the unknown as I was told this serpent spirit feeds off my fear by pulsing a frequency that traps my awareness in this reality. Are you ready to graduate? Puking will be your spiritual diploma. I am all. For me it is conscious love. Diarrhea in the bathroom has now commenced. to find what’s on the other side. effectively releasing themselves from their own created misery. house with the white picket fence and a dog to boot. The more willing you are to suffer. My fear increased as I took deep breaths to calm myself down. The only answer I could come up with was that my true self had just realized it was sleeping and that I was only an illusion trapped in a mirror. just as present as it had been prior to my entheogenic quest. I am. we will understand what we truly are. The desire to do entheogens and even Cannabis was sucked away into the darkness behind my closed eyes. I’m done journeying to other realms because I’m missing out on this one. I wanted to get rid of my entheogenic paintings in my room and focus on getting a regular life with the typical family. After several minutes of this I fought off the urge to kill myself and was desperately eager to fully participate in this realm again. I am healed. I instantly wanted to kill myself and could not understand why. Terror struck me out of nowhere as if I had never seen myself before or realized that I am not my body. Fifth shot at nine-thirty. I can breathe again. The fourth shot at eight-thirty at night. Written in the brown sludge it read “Love is the secret to freeing yourself. The only way to free myself was to be in a constant state of love. energetic ball of light with flaring rainbow tentacles. I realized what had led me to this moment of truth was my constant use of Cannabis for the last two months and intentionally pulsing my love frequency to everyone. Now. and that the only way to wake up was to get rid of this illusionary body. It’s amazing how much one can learn and still know nothing. I was missing out on this realm and badly wanted to change my life. the more desire you have to learn. I knew fear was keeping me in this prison and distracted me. Except this time I taste different and am curious to start on a new path. I say blessing because his last few 97 . I.
” Unsatisfied with this response. kind of confused and a bit sad at the same time. looking into moving shadows of death. The Salvia took me deep. “We have to get going. There were many occasions when his family said he was reliving his past during these last weeks of his life. I offered to contact him through my use of Salvia. 47 th Time/Yellow Zone Salvia/ “Hold On ”-Bob Five days later I decided to try again to make contact with Bob. I heard a female voice say. bed sheets over my face. I then told Bob’s story to my friend Natalie. and she thought the sunny road was where Bob will be walking as a ghost until his wife passes on as well. My family had rented a house from him when I was young. This time I rolled myself up in my blanket while lying on my back. showing that when a portion of a leaf is torn off. A line of purple human spirits walked around my eyes while the faint image of a skull came in front of them. Coming back into my head I was left with the residual feelings of what Bob was quite possibly going through. I agreed to this thought in a deep silence as the sun’s rays shone into my eyes. Three nights ago I woke up at three in the morning with a strong feeling that he wanted to talk to me. I have heard quite a few stories where a person that is dying makes contact with the deceased loved ones. for life in this reality is a very precious thing.weeks of being ninety-six years old had been tough on him. but I already know how they felt about me. “You want to talk with me? I’m dead!” His voice sounded young but a bit choppy as it echoed off my head. I prepared myself mentally and purified my room with white sage smoke to call in the spirit of her father. He responded back with.” My sense of gratitude swelled 98 . I went to discuss this with Al to see what he thought of this. Then they will both hold hands walking into the divine light. “If they had anything to tell me while I was alive they should have said it then. I told Bob his family loves him and Kim felt honored to have been there when he died. He told me the spirit takes about three days to leave the body but it varies depending upon the individual. The voice was strong and sure now when he said “Hold on to every heartbeat. I felt like I had tapped into Bob’s head and instantly knew his spirit was still attached to his body and in a state of confusion. The phone call ended with tears and promises. I took another hit. She asked me to tell him she loves him and considered it to have been an honor to be there when he died. This answer reminded me of some Kirlian photography videos I have seen before.” I asked him if there was anything he had to say to his family after being alive for the past ninety-six years. A couple of hours after getting off the phone with Kim. That’s when he and I became friends while sharing our passion in maintaining the beautiful landscape. Salvia gave me the senses to hear Bob say. I voiced my desire to the spirit realm to talk to Bob. This time I had the feeling he had detached from his body. I read his autobiography several years ago and was amazed at the adventures and near escapes from death he had experienced while in the Navy. revealing a Swastika symbol swirling counter-clockwise with each arm containing a group of yellow human spirits walking on a sunny dirt road. the spiritual essence remains for a bit longer.
Looking back at my experiences with contacting the deceased father for another friend. I have manifested the best way to bring all my dreams to life. I wondered how I could bring what I wanted from the universal consciousness. This startled me so much that it woke me up. for at least thirty days. I was deep in my woods at night trying to contact spirits. In the center of this cone a sphere of light projected many faces. the vision came as a swirling cone of light descending over me. letting me know that each face I see is a different emotion of mine. I can feel the power within me unlike any other time in my life and it’s a cool feeling. Bob’s voice boomed from the ball of light and I could clearly hear him tell me he was very happy and rather surprised to be where he was now. Pondering this for a few moments. attract all the health.dramatically as I opened my eyes. You are reborn into the spirit realm. at least two times a day. I have come to realize that when you die you don’t go to the spirit realm without processing. 99 . 4 th Time/Ayahuasca/four spoonful ’s/ “I ’m the 1% ” Now that I’ve been writing down what I want for the last four weeks. changing the woods to a place infused with a pinkish white light with three forms in it: a ball of light and two pyramid geometric shapes to the right of that. looking at the dark walls in my room. and what’s in front of me are my current beliefs. But before I try to figure out anything else in this mysterious life I’m going to start living my life more fully to honor the best quote of the century. The image of this dream was so beautiful that I couldn’t stop thinking about it for several days. So I wrote down what I wanted to accomplish with this journey. (2) Write my book and find it on the New York Times Best Seller List. So after three spoonful’s of Ayahuasca and an hour and a half of waiting. power. “Hold On…” Dream of Bob ’s Full Transformation When the dream started. freedom and riches I want. I can be whatever I want to be. (3) Have Awesome Lucid Dreams every night. for I have never had a dream that I could hear so well. every day. 3 rd Time/Ayahuasca/three spoonful ’s/ “The Power from Everything ” My intention with this journey was to be with my soul mate. We are truly amazing spirits. (1) To attract my soul mate. One way I thought I could accomplish this was to open up my luminous field of love. into my current beliefs. My ears started to ring. I thought how all possibilities are behind me. and two times a day. (4) And finally. My shaman teacher told me he goes into the spirit realm to insert his wishes where the walls of manifestation are more pliable. The answer I received was to write everything I wanted as if I already had it. My hands are magnets for everything I want.
I’m going to turn the 1% of the financially wealthy into 100% spiritually wealthy with what I’ve got to say here.As I ate each spoon-full I would think of one of my wishes. 100 . So it turns out I am now the queen bee. because I can see how it can all be. Where do you go to wake up? Nowhere because it’s all here. All I have to do to be rich as well is rub my fingers together. I closed the spirit door on my challenging opponent. I cough thunder I beam the sun I cry the rain I blow the wind I tremble the Earth I freeze the night All because I’m alive and feel the love. After an hour and a half I had to go to the bathroom. There is so much to see in life. After four hours of preparing my future in the higher dimensions. feeling the money in my hand and seeing it in my mind. I felt an urge to go for a walk in the woods. I’m a Trillionaire and I’m healthy because I’m so frickin’ happy. leaving him powerless against my knowledge. Moments later the realization came to me why the 1% is so rich. empowering the workers with all the possibilities awaiting them once they open up their minds. The next cycle of visions began to come as the medicine pulled the toxins from me in both directions. I am the 1%. Change is constant in life. Seeing geometric shaped faces unlocking geometric doors leading me into the factory of creation. As this thought floated in my mind. I am intense because I’ve got the Force to unlock my mind. Attracting my soul mate so that we will grow old together and transform into butterflies. because I have realized I’m dreaming. The first thought that came to me about 20 minutes after eating the Ayahuasca was that I needed to cut any cords still connected to my negative experiences in Haiti. I am the ‘I am’. I saw two dark blue triangles morphing into one another. flying to our heart’s desire. Getting out of bed I saw my face in the mirror and noticed something different about it. to heal more. I wondered how it can all be. imagining how sweet it’s going to be living my dreams. opening a portal into an endless power line of knowledge streaming directly into my mind. It was the face of success. I looked like I had just inherited all my fantasies. They know they are dreaming. but so is Love.
so I took my left hand (female) and right hand (male) and squeezed them together until the opposite energies blended into the light of love. while an owl. I took a short break on the path and. I walked toward the light at the horizon knowing I’m finished with this path and ready to walk side by side with my soul mate to a life full of wonderful journeys. focusing on my intentions. I leashed him up and we drifted out into the midnight. I’m ready to go on a new one where I hold hands with my beloved. I was told they could see the love in me. Cutting out of my power spot to the road of a new beginning. so I took this as a sign to look around. Closing my eyes I could see purple and pink spirit gears turning on the illusion of this 101 . Luckily for me. Moving deeper into the woods I came to a field where I saw a dark circular patch on the ground. As I headed deep into the dark woods.As I tried to sneak out of my house. that even though I had an ego death on the shrooms three years ago. and only then was I allowed to pass them. the Ayahuasca built me the strongest ego through what it had taught me. But when I told my friend Oscar of my intention. pulse my love through it. I knew this was my final test. cures to all diseases and any other information that can free us from this suppressed society. Within a half hour I felt my mind split in two as I started to have conversations with an unseen spirit. Moments later I reached my power spot and received my final realization. Walking through the last field. my familiar became my Seeing Eye dog as he effortlessly led me through our narrow. She is the Yin to my Yang. humbles me with just a quick glance at her. I walked to the center of it and stood there watching the world vibrate love. After a few moments I decided to choose both the pillar of light and the pillar of dark as I realized they both have their role in life. uneven path. So I looked at both and contemplated on which one to choose. I had to choose the right one to pass. The warm air along with my dilated eyes made the stars twinkle twice as brightly. I took one more look up at the stars and said thank you. effectively raising the vibrations of planet Earth. before disappearing into my loving home. Looking to my left I saw a white tree and a dark tree to my right. I’m now so bright with love that everything else is hard to see. looking up at the beautiful sky I realized I had been walking the same path for many years and that it no longer serves me. So I decided to enter the spirit realm through Ayahuasca and once there. 5 th Time/Ayahuasca/five spoonful ’s/ “I ’m Reborn ” My initial intentions for this last and final trip of mine was to go into the spirit realm and pulse peace and love to those who suppress the free energy technology. he told me I can’t change people but if I want to have a real impact on them I should lead by example. My familiar stopped me just before I walked off the road. I sounded the dog alarm and woke up my familiar (animal spirit guide). A smile streaked across my face in the twinkling of an eye as I realized there is a tremendous amount of Love all around me. I lay down on my bed. the most beautiful spirit I’ve ever seen. The urge to merge my female and male energy came from the unknown. Once I ate the five spoons of Ayahuasca. a plane and the hum of the distant city rang in my ears.
I visited my friend who first showed me Salvia Divinorum on the internet. I thought since this is my final journey with entheogens.” Coming up for the final time. Sitting there. Taking a deep breath I thought: “I’m done”. Nothing is there except for the thought of it. A thought came from this observation that soon produced a vision of hands reaching out from a bright white light trying to grab colorful projections. 102 . vanishing them beneath the intense light that emanated from my body. I emerged anew. stretching minds to a new set of possibilities. nor had he tried any psychedelics himself. I rested my head on the tub and smiled widely. and plunged my head below the water. I could feel the presence of other spirits but felt the water was acting as a barrier from them being able to connect with me. I hope that it’s going to be a galactic curiosity. and nothing can penetrate it except Love. I realized how powerful love is and that nothing can outmatch it.” and for the last one “I’m reborn. at times coming at me. He could not remember why. Thirty or so minutes later I threw up the last bit of negative energies. Back on my bed I saw a labyrinth of golden snakes writhing in all directions. Conclusion Halfway through my journey writing this book. snapping their mouths. This final journey of mine will be taken on my own. But as the hands wrapped around the colorful objects they would puff away like a thick cloud. Sitting on the toilet seat I was told that I had got My Love Shield. so I beamed my love at them. My last vision showed me myself as an intense energetic being of white light with a blue outline. So I got the water running and grabbed a CD from my room called “Satori Sounds The Spirit of Healing Isochoric Alpha and Solfeggio 528hz Healing Meditations” to play. Once again I felt it was not pulsing pure love towards me. Then before I knew it. effectively banishing it with my light of love. As all my old energies flowed down the drain. After a few moments I allowed the visions to come again. I had one last thing to show the spirit realm. staying there until I ran out of breath. I felt that they were not completely loving. I asked him why he had introduced it to me in the first place. This book is so powerful. He expressed disappointment at what I was doing. seeing a dragon flying in an eye. I dunked myself the second time saying “I’m cleansed. I sunk myself into the hot tub.physical reality. with no other accomplices or hindrances. so I beamed my love at this spirit as well. About an hour and a half had passed since I took the medicine and it was time to let some of it out. What made it seem strange to me was the fact we were in a security job. knowing this magnificent journey of mine was complete while I listened to the sounds of croaking frogs in the drizzling rain. Security officers are not the type of people you would expect to be interested in such things. but strangely enough. I was asleep. so important. realizing what I must do next. Turning on the CD and turning off the lights to embrace the night. I could do my own cleansing ceremony. I noticed it took about ten to fifteen seconds for the manifestation from the spirit realm to materialize in the physical. the unexpected thought came to me that I should take a bath. I told another friend at the same job all I had been up to.
During some of my journeys into altered states of consciousness. The only way we will succeed is if we all work together. and transcending the boundaries of programed thoughts. No sense of time/Death of the Ego. But it’s a bit more complicated than that. Lastly. I strongly feel that with enough practice and good intent. and No separation. I was never afraid of them and felt like they were doctors of a higher dimension. as he was a real skeptic on the issue. Iboga 103 . it could be placed above them all.he seemed to be expecting me to focus my attention on the Alien connection with psychedelics instead of explaining what I had experienced. showing me that this life is a lot more interesting than I had thought. so cannot say as yet where or how to apply it to spiritual growth. He also asked me why I would experiment with things such as psychedelics. My depression is gone and I am much more creative. In addition to this. It always appeared they were assisting me by raising my frequency of understanding and perception. these substances have helped me feel more connected to everyone and everything. effectively helping you to forget the negative traumatic experience. It replaces the profoundly negative traumatic experience in your mind with the new positively profound psychedelic experience. healing my spirit. Overall. I did these things to expand my awareness of the mysteries of life. It fueled a purpose for me to find out more about this world and myself. I have a theory on why psychedelics help with Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). Answering him actually proved to be quite difficult. Psychedelic Pyramid Guide of Enlightenment The following is a quick view of what I believe to be the most important Chemical Keys (psychedelics) to unlocking the mysteries of oneself. It has made me calmer and more positive with the realization that death is truly a passing and not an end. it has made me more loving and understanding of people. I think they realize we are all of one mind trying to wake up from a dream. The formulated answer I would have for him now is. I have yet to learn the full lessons of meditation. and up until this point I’ve never had anyone ask me such a question. it has shown me who I truly am and what the whole picture of life looks like from above. and that the answer to most problems can be solved by advancing spiritually. There are higher dimensional spirits that are assisting you on a psycho-spiritual surgery while your frequencies are opened up during a psychedelic trip. Shrooms The source: Pure joy/love. I encountered aliens. for this will prepare me to enter the spirit realm when the inevitable death of my body occurs.
This Psychedelic Pyramid Guide of Enlightenment may have come out differently if I had a bigger dose of LSD. past. Having an experience confronting your inner most demons. DMT Shows spirits typically without any features. or even if I had done more. psychedelics. kills cancer. can be used to help meditation and feel the nirvana state. and intense euphoria. dreamlike visuals. used correctly for our minds to be healthy. LSD Gives access to the library of your mind through visuals. Iboga clinics in every major city helping people get off harmful narcotic addictions. feel connected to nature. This pyramid is just as important to us as the food pyramid. Helps you empathize with others. and eliminating them from your life is more 104 . Not only do we need the right nutrition for our bodies to be healthy. takes away stress. takes away pain. I have a wish that someday there will be Queen Tetra (Cannabis Sativa) bars. Takes you anywhere/anytime. helps to realize everything around you is special. LSD think tank parties. Ayahuasca Shows a high level of truth while rebooting your mind and purging the toxins out.Shows you key moments of your entire life. gives you creative ideas. Spice: JWH-018 Let’s you see your thoughts and able to feel the spirit realm. Salvia Divinorum Guides you into the Spirit realm. Obviously there is always room for improvement. but also the right psychedelics. No sound from the spirits (except for the initial buzzing sound). or different. Also an inner voice comes through my thoughts. for adult initiation instead of a meaningless High School graduation. where you can see and hear the spirits. puts a smile on your face and a whole lot more than I can think of. Queen Tetra (Cannabis) Turns the tracks in the brain to new ideas. present and future. Reboots the mind and purges toxins from the body.
and get rid of the unfounded fears and replacing them with truth. I leave you now and hope this book has shed some light on your own mysterious path. Psychedelics can play a very positive role in our society if we are taught how to use them correctly. Like any other tool there is a right way to use it and a wrong way. I hope that this book interests people enough to question what they’ve been taught about psychedelics by our main stream society. we can reject the old taboos and find what’s been missing from our lives.” I also try to remember the concept of infinity and apply it to everything in life. Pulse the LOVE. Spiritual Special Forces (S. If we lived in such a world.S. there’s an all wise shaman who teaches kids the truth of the infinite levels of consciousness. the entheogens that I’ve used have healed my internal pain. DMT therapy for the preparation of the transition to the spirit realm. I feel that I received what I needed from them. It’s time for me to fade back into the forest of consciousness and leave you to continue on your own journey. I believe there would be hardly any violence. The connection to the spirit.F. I realized that the mind is like an entire universe and I can go on forever discovering wonderful new insights as I travel its vast labyrinth. In the end I learned that Love is the answer to everything and I’m ready to live life to the fullest with that in mind.beneficial than a sheet of paper. We would realize we are all gods present at our own creation and by vibrating ecstatic love we will attract it. a new mind that has learned to vibrate love not fear. Having the experience of God instead of only having faith. Having a spiritual graduation with shrooms when the person has successfully completed the above. joined with millions of other minds around the world doing the same thing could easily transform our world for the better. There is a religion using entheogens to explore the inner realms of the attendee’s selves. I try to remember what my good friend Al once told me. If we as a society teach the right way to use these substances instead of giving into the assumptions of ignorance we have been subjected to. To say the least.) -Stewart Allen Mosher (picture of “Re-Emergence” 105 . Instead of Scruff McGruff. And if we vibrate fear. It has been a great privilege for me to be a part of this psychedelic trip that we call life. There is infinity within love itself so I have this one request. the crime dog. Using Salvia Divinorum to get quick answers from the spirit realm and to know such a realm exists. every day whenever you get the chance. send out your vibrations of love. This simple act. “If we were all the same. we will attract that as well. the world would be excruciatingly boring.
A Yaqui Way of Knowledge .Journeys to alien worlds through psychedelics and other 106 . Past Lives. A Separate Reality further Conversations with Don Juan. Bakalar • Supernatural: Meetings with the Ancient Teachers of Mankind by Graham Hancock • Food of the Gods: The Search for the Original Tree of Knowledge a Radical History of Plants. and The Wheel of Time. Renard • The Secret of the Soul: Using Out-of-Body Experiences to Understand Our True Nature by William L. The Eagle‘‘s Gift. The Fire from Within. Magical Passes. Sex. Drugs.APPENDIX A Books • Breaking Open the Head by Daniel Pinchbeck • The Spontaneous Fulfillment of Desire Harnessing the Infinite Power of Coincidence by Deepak Chopra • Psychedelic Drugs Reconsidered by Lester Grinspoon and James B. Buhlman • The Reincarnation of Edgar Cayce?: Interdimensional Communication and Global Transformation by Wynn Free and David Wilcock • DMT: The Spirit Molecule: A Doctor’s Revolutionary Research into the Biology of Near-Death and Mystical Experiences by Rick Strassman MD • Natural Cures They Don’t Want You To Know About by Kevin Trudeau • The Encyclopedia of Psychoactive Plants by Albert Hofmann • Hallucinogenic Plants of North America by Jonathan Ott • All of these books by Carlos Castaneda: The teachings of Don Juan. and Human Evolution by Terence McKenna • Law of Attraction: The Basics of the teaching of Abraham by Esther Hicks and Jerry Hicks • My Ishmael by Daniel Quinn • The Disappearance of the Universe: Straight Talk about Illusions. The Power of Silence. Politics and the Miracles of Forgiveness by Gary R. Religion. The Second Ring of Power. The Art of Dreaming. Journey to Ixtlan. • The Witch’s Dream by Florinda Donner • Inner Paths to Outer Space . The Active Side of Infinity. Tales of Power.
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