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Entheogenic Visions

One Man ’s Exploration of Psychedelics
By Stewart Allen Mosher
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Contents Dedication To Warning!!! Introduction: Flash Backs. Haiti: Operation Secure Tomorrow 2004 Preface Chapter 1: My introduction to Salvia Divinorum How should Salvia be used? What are you seeking to gain from using Salvia? Chapter 2: Sequence of Event that Prepared Me for Entheogens Chapter 3: The Introverted Experiences - Salvia Divinorum - The 1st Entheogen 1st Time/Salvia 10x/ “Welcome” 2nd Time/Salvia 15x/water pipe/ “Disrupting the Flow” 3rd Time/Salvia 20x/ “Pushing Me towards Her” 4th Time/Salvia 30x/ “Sticking Together” 5th Time/Salvia 30x/ “Putting Me to Sleep” 6th Time/Salvia 5x, 15x/ “Seeing as One” 7th Time/Salvia 5x, 10x and 15x/ “Future Journey” 8th Time/Salvia 10x/ “Having Fun” 9th Time/Salvia Tincture, two separate hits of 5x/ “Waiting to Be Born” 10th Time/Salvia 5x, 20x/ “I Will Meet Them” 11th Time/Salvia 20x/ “I Will Walk” 12th Time/Salvia 20x/ “Dashiki” 13th Time/Salvia 20x/ “Soul Retrieval” 14th Time/Salvia 20x/ “Puffs of Dimensions” 15th Time/Salvia 20x/ “The Golden Party” Friends 1st Time/Salvia 30x/ “Mysterious Lady” 16th Time/ Salvia 10x/ “Double Vision”

Chapter 4: The Extroverted Experiences 17th and 18th Time/Salvia 30x/ “Confusion”—“Finding My Center” 19th Time/Salvia 30x/ “Going Beyond” 20th Time/Salvia 40x/ “Infinity” Bo’s 1st Time with Salvia 21st Time/Salvia 40x/ “Tree” 22nd-23rd-24th Time/Salvia 40x/ “DNA Within” 25th Time with visuals and 26th Time with body possession/Salvia 40x-30x/ “Mr. and Ms. Salvia” 2

27th Time/Salvia 60x/ “The Source of Consciousness” 28th Time/Salvia 60x/ “Access Denied From the Fourth Dimension” 29th-30th Time/Salvia 80x/ “Trying to See My True Self” – “Still Trying to See My True Self” 31st Time/Salvia 10x/ “Indians That Tried To Help Me in an OBE” 32nd Time/Salvia 10x/ “Shattered Image” 33rd Time/Salvia 10x-40x/ “Nothing Happened” – “Las Vegas Friends First Time” 34th Time/Salvia 10x-40x/ “It’s Ok” 35th Time/Salvia Purple Sticky 10x(two times)/20x of Dragon Salvia/ “Face to Face and Beyond” 36th Time/Salvia 30x/ “Too Late to Say Goodbye” 37th Time/Regular Salvia four Times-One hit of 10x/ “When You Die” 38th Time/Plain Salvia (un-enhanced-regular leaf chopped up) Four hits-then one hit of 10x of Purple Sticky (not my personal favorite brand)/ “Contacting a Friends Deceased Father” 39th Time/Salvia 10x/ “Spirits Centering My Energy” 40th Time/Salvia 20x/ “Take Me Out of Here” 41st Time/Salvia 20x/ “I Know; We Got Our Hands on You” Chapter 5: Inocybe Mushroom (Shrooms) – The 2nd Entheogen 1st Shroom Trip (Inocybe Mushroom)/four small stems and two caps/ “Lifetime of Education in 4 to 6 hours” 2nd Shroom Trip (Inocybe Mushroom)/four real big stems, one small stem, one monster size cap, and one medium size cap/ “Connected to the Universal Consciousness” Chapter 6: Dimethyltryptamine (DMT) – The 3rd Entheogen 1st Time/DMT/ “Light Realm” 2nd Time/DMT/ “Realities Collide” 3rd Time/DMT/ “Spirit Machine” 4th Time/DMT/ “Molecular Love” 5th Time/DMT/ “Spirits Within” 6th Time/DMT/ “Nothing Out There” 7th Time/DMT/ “Inside the Ship” 8th Time/DMT/ “Soul Growth” 9th Time/DMT/ “The Moment in Time” 10th Time/DMT/ “Illusionary Boundary” 11th Time/DMT/ “3rd Eye Transformation” Chapter 7: Lysergic Acid Diethylamide (LSD) – The 4th Entheogen Chapter 8: From Skeptic to Believer Back to the Search 42nd Time/Chewed on dry Salvia leaves first, then smoked Salvia Zone Green Level/ “Spirit Time Travel Machine” 3

Marijuana. Queen Tetra Vapor Hits several hours later/ “Love to the Universe.The 6th Entheogen Chapter 11: Spice (JWH-018) .The 7th Entheogen Where Does Consciousness Come From? (Dream) Funky Monkey-XXXX Chapter 12: Queen Tetra (Cannabis) Experiences for One Year Chapter 13: Moving Further LSD Trip with the Dragonflies Rice for One Week Queen Tetra and DMT/ “All Seeing” 15th -17th Times/DMT Hits at the Power Spot/ “Let Out My Light” – “Becoming Formless” – “Dimensional Ship Spot” Ideas and Dreams Chapter 14: The Jaguar Path: Yoga and Peruvian Shamanism Jaguar Journeys by Ray H. Love to the Earth” Chapter 16: Ayahuasca . Eight Hits of LSD. Crist (CD) Finding My Serpent Rock with Queen Tetra as My Ally Chapter 15: Find Yourself and Save the Planet Several Shrooms. ect…) – The 5th Entheogen Queen Tetra (Cannabis)/ “I’m Laid Back and Chillin” Chapter 10: Iboga Journey – Reveling My Whole Life .43rd Time/Residue of DMT and Salvia 80x/ “All That Matters” 12th Time/DMT/ “The Ra Connection” 13th Time/DMT and Salvia 10x/ “Quantum Jump” 14th Time/DMT/ “See You On The Dark Side of The Moon” 44th Time/Salvia 10x/ “Let’s Go” 45th Time/Shroom Tea-Salvia 10x/ “Vibration Connection” Chapter 9: Cannabis (Queen Tetra. Pot. Hemp. Two Licks of MDMA.The 8th Entheogen 1st Time/Ayahuasca/ “I’m Healed Ten Fold” 2nd Time/Ayahuasca/ “I’m Freeded” 46th Time/Yellow Zone Salvia/ “Bob are You Out There?” 47th Time/Yellow Zone Salvia/ “Hold On” – Bob Dream of Bob’s Full Transformation 3rd Time/Ayahuasca/ “The Power from Everything” 4 .

to all those who have gone before me in speaking out against the ridiculous drug laws that are currently in place and to all those who made this book possible. and hold onto your marbles as you dive into my mind. This book is for educational purposes only. So get ready to take a trip with me beyond comprehension.4th Time/Ayahuasca. Warning!!! Warning!!! Warning!!! This book contains graphic langue and the use of illegal schedule 1 Drugs. 5 . to all those who would greatly benefit from the use of Cannabis for medical purposes. four spoonful’s/ “I’m the 1%” 5th Time/Ayahuasca. Anything that the reader does is at their own risk. to all who are currently in our prison system for non-violent drug crimes. crack. to all those who could have their PTSD greatly diminished. meth. five spoonful’s/ “I’m Reborn” Conclusion Psychedelic Pyramid Guide of Enlightenment Appendix A Dedication To: This book is dedicated to all those who want the spiritual freedom to explore the spirit realm themselves with the use of entheogens. with the use of Iboga. to all those who could have a greater hope of getting rid of their addiction to harmful narcotics such as heroin. etc.

There is no heaven. arriving at Port-Au-Prince. Back Sitting in math class with four plain white walls that surround my boredom. stopping to tear into the remains of a human body. I’m just a hamburger patty on this hot ass runway. Sleeping with football size rats. Moving on. Cars flipped on their side torched and stripped of everything. Flash Worried faces. C130’s coming in with its roaring engines every hour to wake me from my sweaty sleep. Trash blocking intersections. In the shadows of the night I nearly step on a Haitian woman sleeping with a blanket on the sidewalk.Introduction Flash Backs Haiti: Operation Secure Tomorrow 2004 Flash Shus… shuchs… shush…: static CNN TV Rebels are advancing on the Capital.” “What the fuck. Everyone is talking on their cell phones. Garbage is burning. Back Driving my car home.US Marines may be deployed to restore peace. Heading to our new home for the next four months (we don’t know that yet). Can’t fucking breathe. filling the streets with a choking smoke. listening to the sound track of Resident Evil. Let’s fucking get going. President Jean-Bertrand Aristide says that the US won’t intervene… Bush is a racist… More…Killing…looting…. A three legged dog crawls through. 6 . I can’t even see the Marine next to me. hearts pounding in our chests that won’t be heard past the flack jackets. Bang Bang Bang “Wake the fuck up. and get outside.” “We’re going. Flash First week securing the airport. Flash The streets have the end of the world look. I think she is in the shadow of all our minds. including the world and heaven. the capital of Haiti. get dressed. and I can’t get any fucking sleep. Fuck that. and my green ISO mat. walking to school.” Back Early fall morning. its 2:30 in the morning.

or am I going to get shot in the head. more joking with our squad that brought him here. Everyone is low crawling. Crack “What the fuck was that?”. you’re going home man. Fuck his rank. get the fuck down! “Ferguson get down!” My screams are pleading. They have a better medical facility for Milton. “Yea get some.” if we get back! Hanging out on the back of the Humvee in the middle of the night waiting to go back. beeping. I run crouching.” Several more moments later Driving in the night.” Milton’s raspy drugged up voice said. talking to females on a regular basis. Taking pictures. taking a hot shower every day. eating good food. tubes.” “The bullet hit my wrist and traveled along my bone coming out here at my elbow. Back Taking a hot shower at home. The sun shines into my eyes! Is there a heaven? Flash Bullshitting on some steps with some Marine friends. “Someone shot our window!” Hours Later Laughing…”Milton. have fun back in the states you lucky fuck” “We’ll see you when we get back.Back Sitting on my steps reading my mail. nearly crying for him not to get shot. but not me. You are going to get a lot of ass for this.” I say. Marines are leaping over each other like frogs to get to the next lily pad. 7 . More beeping of medical equipment. putting on my flack and Kevlar. never going on patrols getting shot at. Bang Crack Swoosh Snap They’re fucking attacking us. breathing cleaner air. He doesn’t have a fucking clue. poge son of a bitch. some Army officer fuck comes up to us and says something like he knows what’s going on. Moments later “We’re heading to an army base. He’s sleeping back here at a nice Army base fifteen miles north of Port-Au-Prince in a bed with white sheets. He’s not seeing the shit we see or stepping in the shit we step in day in and day out. “All right man. Distant gun shots ring out. “Ferguson. I see Ferguson standing putting on his flack. Staying low now. thinking of just two things: will I get to my gear before they are over the fence.

Back My sister complaining about supper… Flash Standing guard at the west side post of the palace. I don’t know why. Running to my Platoon Sergeant to see if he needs our team for anything I see some Marines carrying in wounded Haitians to be triaged. the Haitian looks up at me and asks “why. A Marine comes next to me and starts taking pictures of them. and for that I am grateful. I think how disrespectful it is to do that and continue to look for my Platoon Sargent. Chirping of bugs. Shots fired. The knowledge of this world changed me. but it’s as silent as night.” “There’s no exit”. it was all I had. Back Seeing and hearing these college kids talk. The look on their faces was like they were never going to see me again. not having a care in the world like they’re still in high school. I wish I still had mine. Driving by that same drifter walking on Route 4 with his long white beard weighing his drooping head. Back Dan Rather the CBS evening news anchor announcing another fallen Hero. Flash Turning into the Canadian embassy with two Humvees. “Stop! Get out. It’s fucking freezing cold. Black dirt running off my body going down the drain. 8 . The darkness in this world won’t let him sleep in peace. Sobering now.Flash Ah cold. going back and forth having nowhere to go. I can see the small hole where the bullet tore through his back. But I do have somewhere to go. Accelerating now with my feet dangling out the back. I’m tired and so are they. Their cries stop me for a moment as I stare at their bloody bodies. The homeless boy wearing only his oversized yellow dirty shirt and under sized shorts wakes up from time to time from the uncomfortable cement curve.” Taking a step back I ask myself the same thing. you need help?” “Yea. Sometimes I feel like him. Last one jumping on the back of the Humvee looking into the eyes of my team. They still have their innocence about them. weeks of dirt are finally washed off. “Get out they’re shooting” Behind the gates I see a Marine dragging a shot Haitian inside the perimeter. having nowhere to go but back and forth along this road getting smoke puffed on him by cars. He shared the crackers and Peanut butter with two other boys. post security” Splattered brain on the sidewalk. we swerved out of the palace grounds. I feel like I have skin again. I sometimes think the feeling is mutual. But his stomach is not churning as much from hunger. I don’t think anybody knows why. Flash Thousands of Haitian protesters are disappearing into the rest of the city as unseen shots are fired into the crowd. do you have a pressure bandage?” “Here. Those Mother Fuckers. “Doc. Now I feel detached from the people I used to know.

“Mosher. Behind us a LAR is rounding a corner receiving gun fire.” That’s if they were even out there. Berg yells to Staff Sergeant for us to go back. Back inside the palace grounds. Back I hope that I can make peace with my memories. let’s go” someone yelled. Who is thinking straight? Moving deeper into the city looking for four shot Haitian police. I never want to see another fallen hero being announced by another Dan Rather again. everywhere. transforming my perception of reality from illogical chaos to that of a magical wonder. can’t feel my body. they’re probably already dead. Have them wash down the drain like the first few weeks of filth that I acquired in Haiti. I run to the side of a LAR (light armored reconnaissance vehicle) taking a knee for cover. I see bullet holes everywhere. That could have been me. in car windows. Their red eyes are filled with rage. They’re shooting back from what looks like the second floor.Reporters hovering over the shot Haitian. I tell him “fuck that. taking pictures. building walls and windows. Hearing bullets cracking through the air and impacting the pavement all around me. yelling and pointing for us to go back to get the shot Haitian police. I feel shaky but lucky to be alive. Heading back to the palace we run into some small crowds. Click Blackness…………………………… …Three years later I began my psychedelic journey that would heal these old wounds. Preface 9 . no different than flies buzzing over a pile of dung. getting out of the Humvee. I’m bounding back to the Humvee. but they’re hauling ass back.

All of these entheogens helped in giving me another perspective of reality. There are other entheogens (substances used to help you find your inner God) that I have also tried. “Minds are like Parachutes. and Ayahuasca. they only work when they’re open”.One of my goals for writing this book is to bring a balance to the subject matter of Salvia Divinorum and to prevent the outlawing of this plant. So without a further ado I leave you to the beginning of my journey. I will argue and fight the claims made by main stream news media as to why they think Salvia Divinorum should be made illegal. Before continuing I need you to take a deep breath and ponder this quote by Frank Zappa. DMT. LSD. there are only negative connotations associated with this plant. Iboga. I will inspire others to investigate this plant and to speak out against the absurd witch hunt that is going on against it. including Inocybe Mushroom (Shrooms). Queen Tetra (Cannabis). and from my personal experiences it deserves none. JWH-018 (Spice). myself. with what I’ve seen. Chapter 1 My introduction to Salvia Divinorum 10 . I shall counter these dissenters with my personal stories and pictures. Hopefully by showing you the powerful potential Salvia has in exploring your true self. the exploration of consciousness. and how lucky I am to be a part of the grand illusion of thought. As I am writing this. that I also would like to see taken off the Schedule 1 list and made legal.

there were a few that took an objective look at the plant. The ironic part is that he will never know that I used this plant until years later. This incredible journey of mine all started with a friend that brought Salvia Divinorum into my awareness. I also encountered favorable coverage of Salvia on ‘Wikipedia. In my case. however. He would smoke a pack of cigarettes a day. Even though Salvia has hit the news in recent years. He denied prior usage. I know of someone who was much less fortunate. for the first five to ten sessions. but especially when exploring Salvia. I had been learning a lot about shamans using a brew called Ayahuasca for spiritual insights and felt that I might be able to use Salvia for the same purpose. The first thing to consider is your health. eat too much junk food. While the majority of Youtube videos depicted Salvia in a negative light. I feel fortunate that I only suffered from perspiration. Soon the moment would be at hand when I would have my own experience and opinions of this plant. He did not say much because of the proximity of our co-workers. but he did say that he would like to try it with me if I were to buy some. After researching Salvia for a few weeks I finally decided to purchase some. How should Salvia be Used? In this section I’m going to tell you all the tips and tricks that I learned to get the most out of the Salvia experience. but legally. Like Ayahuasca. is illegal because it contains DMT. It boggles my mind how Ayahuasca.’ I already had a hunch that the main stream news had twisted and warped the perceptions of this topic. and generally pay no attention to the type of fuel he was adding to his precious. You’ll find similar information scattered here and there throughout the book. My journey with entheogens would last nearly four years before I reached the true understanding of who I really am. He had some of the worst health habits one can have. who experienced nausea and vomiting as well as sweating. for his sake I will not divulge why I think this. In my personal opinion the major reason he had a bad experience was because he frequently smokes cigarettes and that Salvia was purging all the toxins out of his body. it still seems that very few people know about it. The point of the matter is that maintaining a healthy lifestyle is vital. I’ve also seen six other people use it with similar effects as my own 11 . I would suggest that if you are considering using Salvia. In the following pages you will read about what I and others had experienced while using this plant. My only agenda is to show people what this one out of more than four hundred of the psychoactive plants that flourishes on this planet can do for your life. I perspired profusely. I did. but after several conversations I sensed that he had tried it. I don’t mean to scare everyone into thinking that Salvia will make you sick.One late night at work a friend of mine introduced me to a legal entheogenic plant on Wikipedia called Salvia Divinorum. one-of-a-kind engine. feel very privileged that I was the only person he had shown this side to. a chemical which is produced by our very own brains. but I fused it all here to make a point in this segment. a combination of two natural plants. namely “Salvia Divinorum Study 1-5". in general. Salvia has a detoxifying effect. that you examine your health habits before starting.

2) A water-pipe. sweating). I have to say that my personal favorite web site to find Salvia is www. There is a technique that I use to take the burn from hitting your lungs using a pipe. which is the most expensive and supposedly works the best. but there is a loss of potency while the smoke goes through the water. you can chew the leaves. So far I just prefer to smoke it. If you think your regular liquor spins are bad. I do believe that if you are on a spiritual journey your body must be as healthy as possible for optimal success. 3) A regular pipe. While shopping for my first pipe I ran into an interesting situation with one of the sales persons when I asked to see a water bong. He quickly corrected me by telling me that it was illegal to say “bong. you haven’t seen anything until you’ve mixed the two. and could be a key to unlocking certain doors of perception and should be treated with respect and only used with the intent of furthering one’s own personal spiritual growth. Salvia has medicinal effects.” A water pipe is good for taking the burn out.” because it implies that I am looking for a device to smoke weed. I have done this and all I got out of the experience was a bad taste. I tried this method and also using the tincture without any water. Maybe the plant was too young.(ie. It shouldn’t be considered something only to get a high for it has the potential of showing you who you truly are. Hence 5x is five times the potency of the original plant and the higher the x. The proper terminology is “water pipe. My first pipe was of the flat ceramic type. I also bought the tincture. Unlike a pot pipe. having only a very mild effect. This made it easy to lay on a flat surface without it tipping over after I took a hit. The next thing to consider is how you are going to acquire Salvia and at what strength/dosage. There are three devices that you could use for inhaling Salvia: 1) A vaporizer. This is why Salvia should not be considered a party drug. and that I like to stay between 5x and 20x. You can find everything you need online by doing a little research. a Salvia pipe will need to have a screen because it is so finely chopped. your own curiosity may lead you in another direction and that’s fine. It had a gold painted star around the area where you place the contents to be smoked. The biggest personal tip that I can give you is to not mix alcohol with Salvia. It is said that the best way to use the tincture is to mix about the same amounts of boiling water to ten drops of the tincture and hold this mixture under your tongue for as long as you can. if you are going to inhale it. while the rest was painted blue. The next aspect to consider is what device you are going to use.shamanic-extracts. In my experience it did not work at all. In addition to smoking Salvia. I give this range because the experience does not get any better the higher you go (the “x” stands for how many leaves were used to coat one leaf of its juices. The pipe in general was flat. There are brass and steel screens available. said to be the best way to do it due to the fact that the experience will last three times longer. which has a bigger hole. The water is added to take the burn out from the alcohol. I’ve also heard that you may have to do several doses using the tincture for a period of twenty minutes to get any effect at all. Brass is cheaper but will not last as long 12 .) Despite my advice. the more it costs. which can hold a screen.

Finally. as the music lasted for twenty five minutes. and while the trip itself only five to ten minutes. it is best if there is little to no sound at all. you’ll need to consider where. After a second or two. If you do listen to any music I would suggest using some type of meditation music. If you do have a sitter. I did use a CD called “Detaching the World”. The first few times that I did Salvia I listened to this. hold the smoke in your lungs for as long as you can. I’ve learned that it is essential to be comfortable while doing Salvia. an herb sold by a company called Experience. Now some people have said to me that they can have visions with their eyes open. and thought it was perfect for the occasion. Even though the Salvia trip only takes five to ten minutes. when. It’s instrumental. Salvia has been known to cause a slight fatigue. However. you need to consider how alert you are. You should smoke Red Ball approximately twenty minutes before smoking Salvia. and nothing with any vocals. Once you’ve got the materials and the Salvia. With whom you decide to share your Salvia experience with is another aspect you need to consider. if you have other things on your mind. Time is also an important thing to consider. however. One way in which to prevent this from happening is to smoke Red steel. but you lose that sense once you are fully in the Salvia world. I’ve learned that having your mind set or concentrating on something will have a direct impact on what you’ll experience. Noise will have an effect on what you see. Sitters are merely there to make sure you don’t hurt yourself. unless you have some bad music (with negative lyrics) and/or background sounds. track “Tranquil Sunrise” which seemed fitting for a Salvia trip. I’ll 13 . which also sells Salvia. Your chances of safety can be increased by laying down right after inhaling the smoke. I suggest playing some music to counteract the outside noises. and with whom (if anyone) you will do this with. they will influence your experience. You should also consider what you are seeking to gain from Salvia. in my case I need to have my eyes shut. In my experience he was completely right. You need to give Salvia your undivided attention. Try going for at least 30 to 45 seconds. as that is about how long it will take for you to feel the effects of the Red Ball. but without the dehydrating effect. Now the trick to avoid burning your lungs from the hot smoke when you inhale the Salvia. I watched some YouTube videos of people giving their opinions on this subject matter. Vol. you don’t want anything that needs your immediate attention. I’ve found it best to try Salvia in as dark a place as possible. I was a little anxious trying this for the first time by myself but I also did not have anyone that I could truly trust to watch over me. For one. Once inhaled. the smoke will be cool enough to inhale. One person said there was nothing to fear by doing it alone. If you live in a noisy environment. and makes you feel as though you are already entering the spirit world. Red Ball gives you energy like coffee. Once I release the Salvia from my lungs I’ll lay down on my bed. otherwise it somehow becomes inactive. 1. it is important for them to be quiet and respectful of your journey. I will give an example of this later on. I believe that there are two places best suited for experiencing Salvia: a dark room or the woods. You should then be transported to the Salvia realm before you exhale all of the smoke. is to hold it in your mouth for a second or two. Then I’ll put the pipe on my dresser and turn off any lights. It’s nice to have music that doesn’t stop half way through a trip.

including knowing what it is you are seeking to gain from using Salvia. So learn about and be comfortable with yourself before trying Salvia. Salvia acts as a mirror to our minds. I knew that there was something more to my life than what I had experienced. I immediately write down what had just transpired and draw the images that I see to the best of my ability. Chapter 2 Sequence of Events that Prepared Me for Entheogens This chapter is going to be a glimpse of what I think had a significant influence on how I used and perceived what I saw while using Salvia. which I highly recommend so you do not lose your balance and hurt yourself. Much is revealed during the Salvia trip. Once I take a hit I leave the smoke in my mouth for one or two seconds before inhaling it. For now. I’ve never really known peace. you must ask yourself what it is you are searching for. Documentation may help reveal more answers for yourself. I believe in the Law of Attraction. Over the years I have begun to see that there is a synchronicity to my life. I then say this to myself over and over for a few minutes while at the same time getting the Salvia and pipe out. I then try to hold the smoke in my lungs as long as possible (usually 30 to 45 seconds). Once I finally exhale I will lay down on my bed. If you think you will do it again. What are you seeking to gain from using Salvia? When I first started using Salvia. I received a lot of personal insight into who I am from my use of Salvia. Writing about my experiences also helps me to figure out the answer to my original question. and later can be used as a guide in tracking your progress in the direction you want to go. yet I didn’t know the right questions to ask. A good way to get yourself grounded before doing Salvia is to take time for yourself as much as you can. Everything in retrospect seemed to have happened in a 14 .explain why this is important later on in the book. State of mind is important. Each time I did Salvia the pieces started to form a picture revealing to me that I was truly searching for ‘peace’. you may discover something you had not noticed before. Now to recap how I use Salvia: first. There has always been a struggle or hurdle. While I’m holding in the smoke I will put the pipe on my dresser while I continue to focus on what I’m searching for. Take a walk alone in nature to sort out the confusion that manifests in your life. and if you write about and draw what you have experienced. after the effects of Salvia have worn off. Mental stability is important for a good experience. If I’m in my room I’ll sit on my bed and take a couple of deep breaths before taking a hit. After doing your first Salvia session you will be able to decide whether or not you will want do it again. After about 5 or 10 minutes. I now believe that obstacles were put there by myself. The reason I immediately jot down my experience is so that I don’t forget any of the details. that your state of mind holds the power to create your personal reality. I think of what I want to see or what kind of question that I want to have answered. I would suggest documenting your experiences.

music. however. I believe the extreme misery that I witnessed in Haiti is what motivated me to find some logical explanation for why things are the way they are. Some of these references came before.certain order. surrounded by misery. Queen Tetra (Cannabis). Eventually I tried Salvia. YouTube videos. www.Salvia Divinorum . I’m finally feeling an inner peace that I had never known before. we as individuals evolve into more conscious beings. I’ve gathered quite a bit of information through books and the internet about the spirit world. Iboga. You will find in appendix A a list of books. were perfectly timed and.The 1 st Entheogen 1 st Time/ Salvia 10x/ “Welcome ” The first time I tried smoking Salvia I was unsuccessful in going anywhere in the spirit realm. My last four months in the Marines I was deployed to Haiti. I was reading my mail on my front steps. My outlook on life has changed dramatically. I eventually learned a trick to making 15 . There is much more to what these substances did for It told me that I needed to continue to smoke Salvia until I began to feel the effects. I concluded that there is no such thing. some during and others after my spiritual journey but I feel they can all be beneficial in guiding you in the right direction. Chapter 3 The Introverted Experiences . movies. JWH-018 (Spice) and Ayahuasca in attempts to learn. helping you deal with the anxiety of the unknown before embarking on your mysterious entheogenic journey. LSD. During this time I began to wonder how all of this could be happening if there truly is a divine creator. I’ll start first with what made me begin to question whether or not there is a higher power running our world. unperceived at the time. This information will give you a head start on preparing mentally for the exploration of yourself. Since that day. Three months after getting out of the Marines.shamaic-extracts. By learning. While this seemed simple enough. yielding results which. looking up into the autumn sun and thinking there must be something responsible for the creation of this reality. By the end of my tour. I went back to my computer and read the directions on the web site. eventually realizing our true nature and where we all fit into the grand scheme of things. It may also help you to develop a different perspective on psychedelic plants. I will leave that for the end. shrooms. death and chaos. DMT. were learning moments. and web sites that helped guide me into using these substances in an intelligent way.

I was projected out of the tunnel where I was met by what seemed like a spirit. It was so difficult for me to find someone I could love. origins. After taking several hits I started to laugh. while I was going through this tunnel. paranormal. moving up the side of its face towards the top of its head. as I felt that I needed to synthesize and analyze this valuable moment in my life. running towards me. it was as if time rewound itself and the spirit was looking back down again.(from Wikipedia) 16 . which resembled the general concept of “Greys”1. I was covered in sweat and realized that perhaps ten minutes had past. Paranormal claims involving Greys vary in every respect including their nature (ETs. I knew I had truly experienced one of the most amazing moments in my life and had an overwhelming desire to do it again. starting from my toes and going all the way to the top of my head. At one point. It had two yellow worm-like extrusions. The first image that came to me was of naked women running my way in what looked like the inside of veins. was glowing yellow. Once they vanished I began to fly through a tunnel that pulsated with different colors. you may not be transported into the beyond. The spirit was looking down when I first saw it. demons. I believe in some way the military had stifled that emotion in me. extradimensionals. named for their skin color. emotion of love. but was wondering where all the love was. Before I had started this session I did not ask an exact question. enlarged head and large black eyes. I became aware of my surroundings again. and New Age communities. It repeated this three times before it stopped. All of the women had long black hair and everything about them appeared normal with the exception of a red spirit glow superimposed on them. Then. predominantly blue and white. A composite description derived from overlap in claims would have Greys as small-bodied sexless beings with smooth grey skin. It looked up at me and smiled. and a feeling of being welcomed enveloped my entire being. The origin of the idea of the Grey is commonly associated with the Betty and Barney Hill abduction claim. not because anything was funny. For the next several days after the experience. my meditation music slowly materialized in my ears once more. or machines). with alien-shaped eyes and head. only to raise its head and smile again. So I tried again. while the rest of the spirit’s face looked human. and my connection to the spirit realm. with geometric shapes fluttering on the outside. The trick is to use 5x or higher of Salvia and when you inhale the smoke you must hold it in as long as you can.Salvia work off only one hit. Time disappeared. including the eyes. and physical appearances (even varying in their eponymous skin color). but because I knew that I finally made the connection with Salvia. I felt more connected to everyone and felt 1 Grey aliens (or "Greys") are alleged extraterrestrial beings whose existence is promoted in ufological. I noticed a blue wrench twisting a bolt on the edge of the tunnel. The whole face. As I sat up in my bed. However I did not try again until almost a week later. While I was still looking at this smiling yellow face my eye was caught by hundreds of different colored souls that were flying within in the shape of a castle-like structure. moral dispositions. intentions. although skeptics see precursors in science fiction and earlier paranormal claims. If you don’t. Suddenly the music faded away and the visions started appearing once I closed my eyes. each with a black oval in the front of it. Now it was back. Perhaps the wrench I saw was a symbol of fixing the connection between myself. Soon my vision faded to black. After my experience I realized that love is everywhere. A sensation of being dipped into a warm bath came over me.

that I was never truly alone in this world. there is life after death. I was tired of being alone. Suddenly. Out of nowhere. 3 rd Time/ Salvia 20x/ “Pushing Me towards Her ” Going into my third Salvia trip I had many questions in mind. with a swarm of souls flying around it. We are all connected. 2 nd Time/Salvia 15x/water pipe/ “Disrupting the Flow ” The Salvia entered my being. The first thing I focused on was a white male with long blond hair waving in the wind as if he were spinning. I drifted down a black vortex of space where there was smoke drifting from where the spirit people were. There is life after death. The highway then started to bend like the intestines of a stomach. The smoke started to form a dragon-like face that began chomping at me before completely vanishing. Making him angry affected everyone else in the vicinity without any of them even realizing it. I then opened my eyes and my hand was where I saw the hand in my vision. Just hours before this experience I had made a person upset because I had abruptly stopped in front of him. a screaming face flew out at me. I saw thousands of people pushing me over towards something. The crowd was out of focus with the whole background area being a pinkish-red color as were the people. but only one strong emotion: loneliness. He was holding a crowd of spirits back behind him. This experience showed me that we can perceive reality without our physical eyes only if we can open our third eye. ‘Is there life after death?’ The answer that I received was yes. blowing out a vision of a red highway with cars zooming. I did not laugh like I usually did on trips. Maybe because it was too serious a question. I saw a hand of pure energy. He was very angry. my vision was over. and I could see him in my rear view mirror yelling in his car. Note: What you are thinking about or what you want to know about will be revealed to you while using Salvia. Once I entered the Salvia realm. crackling with blue and white electricity. After it came at me. our emotions can have an effect on those around us without their knowledge. 4 th Time/ Salvia 30x/ “Sticking Together ” This time I asked myself. There was a figure on this hand but because the bright light emitting from the figure. it vomited a red liquid that covered its face. A man was screaming as he was lifted from a car up to the sky. I had a picture of a girl on my wall that was in the same place as the spirit with outstretched arms. I feel that spirits have an influence in this reality as well. Maybe we are all being saved from something evil. all I could see were its arms stretching towards me. but 17 . They were helping me to see another spirit object which had large blue eyes and was dividing red spirits into rows. though we can’t always perceive the results.

all with black hair. I realized that the loop of people had made the sign of Pisces. As I was drawing the vision. and lost all sense of time. 8 th Time/Salvia 10x/ “Having Fun ” 18 . which consumed them until it all vanished into the darkness of my mind.. seeing an orange orb of what looked like the inner sun. They too glowed red.perhaps there is a certain type of death that we should be afraid of. They were emitting a light red light. As I focused on a single face. one red and one blue. I felt when the end of this astrological age comes. I did not see my previous life. I will be flown to the center of the Earth and greet these people. I realized we can only see the light together and not as individuals. Clamped onto my arms were two hands from unseen bodies. my vision was fading. 5 th Time/Salvia 30x/ “Putting Me to Sleep ” As I was experimenting with Salvia for the fifth time I felt a certain warmness hit my whole being while I was holding the smoke in. I saw a yelling crowd of red spirits running towards me and felt my body being pushed over by them.. all I could see were red feet dangling from a tube that was suspended in darkness. I took a hit of 15x and was immediately transported above a crowd of people. This time I saw two rows of red spirits that were pushing each other up until they merged into a single blue face that was looking into a bright light. but began to do some sort of Indian chant that went: “Heya wa wa wa heha wa wa wa heya wa. The warmness ran up my body to my mouth. As I went down into the Earth. 10x. After taking the first hit of 5x. The two rows of people looped around toward a purple face.”. Then I took a second hit of the 10x and was transported above the Earth in space. This clearly did not satisfy my demand so I took another hit with the 15x. and I wanted to be taken to the center of the Earth known as Agartha (inspired by a book that I was reading called “The Hollow Earth” by Raymond Bernard). the people split into two rows. Once the Salvia wore off I tried to do the Indian chant that I was doing earlier. I never saw the origin of this light as I was looking into a bent part of the tube and couldn’t see its source. I could see my arms out in front of me. 15x/ “Seeing as One ” I demanded to see the light of consciousness. These hands were guiding me to another part of the planet with the sun at the horizon. but was unsuccessful. I did not even remember exhaling the smoke. This is a good experience to show how important it is to be well rested when you use Salvia. I had felt like sleeping before this experience which I think had a major impact on my trip. 6 th Time/ Salvia 5x. and 15x/ “Future Journey ” I had one question and one demand: I wanted to know who I had been before this life. going back to the same vision. I did this for about five minutes nonstop. I remained there in my bed for about fifteen minutes until the drowsiness left me. It seemed Salvia had the ability to communicate to me by using symbols familiar to me. 7 th Time/ Salvia 5x. and all in white suits.

death.O.I did Salvia without asking any questions. a group of blue spirits.O. I thought of the Law of Attraction.O. In my vision. Those who are on the blue list are less of a threat than those on the red list but will still be taken after martial law has been imposed. But there will still be too many of them and a large part of the group will share the same fate as those who are on the red and blue list.W. That’s over a 90% reduction of the human population. The far end of this line ended in the eye of a big purple face that pressed into a cylindrical space. it was only after meeting the blue resistance that I realized I was already dead. Finally the ones that are on the yellow list are the ones that don’t know what is going on and will do as they’re told. screaming as they were going down.W. as I was demonstrating the effects of the plant to a couple of friends. At this realization I stopped laughing. Unsatisfied with this answer I took one more hit of 20x. The spirit realm. yet joining with. The vision started with a group of people with their hands up. 20x/ “I Will Meet Them ” I asked what I should do for my future regarding the possible enaction of martial law in the US. Population suppression might be one of the N. Each spirit was a different color and they all seemed to be having fun.O. It states that the world population should be limited to five hundred million. 9 th Time/Salvia Tincture. There is a monument called the Georgia Guide Stones located at Elbert County. As I lay in my bed I felt there were millions of souls waiting to be born into this realm. While I was not afraid. At first I was happy to meet what I can only think of as the resistance to the New World Order (N. The people who are on the red list are those who will definitely resist the N. goals. I knew I am the only one that can make my dreams come true. As this was happening it seemed as if they were riding a roller coaster. Later. I had to change my focus for that is what 19 . We were in a small enclosure. and will be taken before martial law is enacted. even though it may be trying to affect this reality. Everything changed into a purple color. opening and closing its mouth. The vision faded into darkness. I then saw a huge group of red spirits that were separated.). My vision started as I exhaled the smoke into a double row of individuals in two lines. The two lines coiled backward until there was a whole room of people crammed together. 2 separate hits of 5x/ “Waiting to be born ” I want a perfect life with my soul mate and to have a son. 10 th Time/Salvia 5x. and the depopulation agenda that may be implemented. I was definitely shocked and felt I had to do something to prevent this from happening. I felt speechless and without hope. USA. flowing within the shape of the enclosure. Holding the 5x smoke deep in my lungs I was soon shown a cross-converging of red spirit faces that eventually got sucked into a dark swirling vortex.W. I must start preparing or else blackness will be my fate. Georgia.W. Supposedly there is a list of people who are categorized by color depending on what threat level they are to the N. rarely does. It’s as if the spirit world takes its form based on our physical reality. one led by a male in a white shirt and the other a female in a red shirt.

the only way we can ever become whole again is to learn about all the other pieces. to grow. and there were other spirits flying around on his face. He said yes. I kept stroking my face even though I had no control over my hand. He considered this for a moment before saying that we are here to learn about each other. But he quickly answered back. I asked if he was black. and decided to answer them for me. I felt a faint ethereal force impact my head. I started to laugh at the genius of the answer that I received and started yelling that “I will walk. I should leave and stay with her as things are going to get bad and I should never leave her. you always do”. This life is just a step in my evolutionary process. He said yes. We as individuals are like an apple that has been split into many sections. My vision showed a lattice work of red spirits over the earth and its surrounding space. It seemed he felt a job was of little or no importance. He just laughed and said that there is no such thing as time here. So I proceeded to ask questions. to perceive. I asked if he had time to speak with me. and then create in my mind a utopian future. but after a few reponses I realized that the answers were not coming from me but from this spirit. only green. The answer was yes. He said his name was Dashiki and he had last been alive in the 40's. I must remove myself from this doom and gloom of possibilities. Then with my right hand. First I asked if I should contact this old high school crush of mine and leave my current location. Even then it seemed to take another moment before anything happened. He told me not to tell anybody about this at my current place of living as 20 . pushing me back onto my bed. I started to stroke and feel my own face. I asked what I will do about work. but the spiritual realm as well. 11 th Time/Salvia 20x/ “I Will Walk ” In my next experience. as they were walking within a red grid. The first hit of Salvia did nothing. I then inquired why we are here in this life. This was the solution to getting back to the source of our true being. I questioned whether I should tell my friend Sean (who had told me of Salvia) about my experimentations.shapes my world. I realized there must be thousands of souls wandering around until it’s their time to come back to this dimension.” I asked how it was that he came to me. I asked if I was speaking with someone. I also know that after my physical death I will continue to be aware. I asked for a name. 12 th Time/Salvia 20x/ “Dashiki ” I smoked Red Ball approximately thirty minutes before smoking Salvia. I decided to hold off on telling him until a later time. “But we are separate and when we part we will be apart like before. I saw what looked like the shape of a black man’s face.” I saw that I would go to jail if I let him know about it. This answer scared me at first and I was wondering if I would ever be myself again. He also wanted to remember what it was like to feel again. He said yes. He said that he was just walking by and heard me asking questions that nobody asked anymore. Despite Salvia being legal at the time I felt I would become a prisoner of not only the physical world. I started to ask my questions. He just laughed again saying that “You will find good work. I’m curious to know what it will be like when I’ve reached total awareness. to become something more. which will in turn make us learn about ourselves. I asked him if I was being possessed by him. so I tried a second hit.

Once I told him this he asked to feel my face one more time and I agreed. (one of my friends) as he watched me being consumed by the Salvia’s effects.they would not understand. I felt a force drawing me towards them. I laid in bed for an extra minute looking at my hand not believing what had just transpired. but from previous experiences I knew that I would be afraid to hear the answers. the spirits were merging into the light. It had lasted twice as long and there was a two-way conversation with the spirit realm. At the first hit I was transported to a grass field with three spirit people that had a red glow to them. from the top of my head to my chin. as I will have an impact on some of them. they were showing me something. starting at the top with a dark navy blue then gradually turning to red. I was accompanied by Al. I got the feeling they weren’t happy and did not want me to call them. leaving me with an unwanted feeling of darkness. They were the color of red as well as their surroundings. I decided to end the conversation because I also had to go to the bathroom and my right hand started to get tired. along with a whooshing-sound-type of music. The columns extended down going quite a distance until they were standing on a bright orb of light which had a reddish orange glow to it. “You have to put your arms up.” as I saw a crowd of navy colored spirits waving their arms in a party-like fashion towards three brightly glowing liquid pools of gold. a place where you can feel and tune into the universal consciousness. Unlike previous visions where the spirit realm only communicated to me. It was as though my soul was as complete as it could be until I can return to the universal consciousness. He instructed me to write all this down and to paint what I have seen. This vision faded away in three puffs of red smoke. It seemed that the source was creating and projecting everything to be placed and played out for its own curious imagination. This was definitely a different type of experience. I figured about twenty minutes had elapsed from the beginning of my session to the end. I wish that I had had a device to record what I had said. 13 th Time/Salvia 20x/ “Soul Retrieval ” This time I asked for my soul retrieval. I was tempted to ask more about my own future. 15 th Time/Salvia 20x/ “The Golden Party ” I asked no questions this time. I understand that there are certain places on Earth which have spots like this. such as Stonehenge. I had never heard such music before. I could hear them cheering. 21 . and I began telling him. an idea I got from watching a Coast to Coast video on YouTube. as it had been a long conversation and I was not able to remember it all. I was then sucked down into the ground to a dark space where I saw columns of spirit people. This was my most incredible experience so far. With a final stroke of my face. but to tell people back home. We separated as he had promised. In this vision I saw what I thought to be her and her parents waiting for me to call. After this. The Salvia curled me up in my chair. it was over. I was able to communicate back. 14 th Time/Salvia 20x/ “Puffs of Dimensions ” I asked if I should call this old crush of mine. There.

He saw a middle-aged white woman standing behind me in a flowered dress with short brown hair. Chapter 4 The Extroverted Experiences For the most part..” He told me that he was pulled to the horizon of what he thought was somewhere in the mid-west. Once again I was laughing because I was “Salvia happy”. and flew up and along the center of the trail. up until this point I had been asking questions that pertained solely to me. The women looked like they were wearing a tight. perhaps the pools were the source of the music. The first thing he saw was the building directly in front of him vanishing. Suddenly. when the woman’s voice came over the speakers. Afterward he told me that he had heard what I had said and told me “Hell no. not because I found anything funny. pulling it apart. shiny black uniform. 16 th Time/Salvia 10x/ “Double Vision ” I was showing another group of friends the effects of Salvia and how quick the whole process is.. He saw bushes divided by a path. To my surprise. On the way he stopped me and asked if I 22 . I was able to redirect myself to a higher path of consciousness. without trying to figure out how I fit into all of this.The only reason I could think of for this vision was that I was going to a party the next day. which had an influence on what I saw.“Finding My Center ” I went outside with Al to smoke Salvia. and thought perhaps that she was the ghost spirit haunting his house. I decided I wanted to know how far I can go beyond my limited awareness. I wondered what those three golden pools were that they were facing. so I jokingly told them I’d be asking to go to Mars. along with everything around it. he did not shut his eyes. I saw a row of women appear on each side of the alien’s face. Friend ’s 1 st Time/Salvia 30x/ / “Mysterious Lady ” My friend Al tried Salvia. 17 th and 18 th Time/Salvia 30x/ “Confusion ”-. I also noted that I had to close my eyes to see other realms which he did not. This illustrates the individual effects Salvia has on different people. As the vision started to fade. We discussed the woman he saw. I’m going. I felt as though the spirit realm really knows how to party. Thanks to my good friend Al. except me. yet was still able to see the visions. but he did not respond. I asked them if they could play some meditation music with no vocals in order to mask the outside noises. I was swept into space flying at an incredible speed until a typical Grey’s face began to materialize. After a few minutes I asked him if he was back. I had only looked at a small part of the grand scheme of things. As the room faded from my awareness. I did not want to ask anything extremely deep. Then the vision faded along with my laughter. Halfway through the song there was a woman’s voice. it did so by returning to reality bit by bit. Once at the horizon he saw the sun setting in what looked like a desert landscape.

he started tell me to feel the life around me. I have all the power inside of me. how they are all connected to our Auras.could hear “That. he said it would be a good spot to smoke. Then he reminded me of the previous night when I told some people about my near out-of-body experience and also of some other friends who said they had had one as well. Opening my eyes. prickling sensation of energy that felt wonderful. he said because they never asked the right questions. I felt like I had just had massive amounts of expanding consciousness downloaded into me. not moving or even looking at him he began to tell me about what had just transpired. the mushrooms feeding off the life of the pine tree roots. He knelt in front of me and told me that although I am insignificant. I asked him how he had learned these things and who had taught him. As the 30x Salvia rushed down my lungs I put the pipe down and held it in for as long as I could.” He then told me he had been in the realm with me. When I asked why. I told him what I had seen and that when I do Salvia I always see people. he is now able to travel at will and perceive things without the Salvia. He asked if I had felt his presence in my vision. He told me they were my ancestors trying to help me connect with the spirit world. This time things were more concise. As I got ready. Once again I noticed I was more aware and felt more a part of everything around me. He said Salvia is a great tool but that it is unnecessary. to find Al. As I took a hit of Salvia. “Behind me. In a fifteen foot circle around me. I told him what had just transpired. Getting ready now for round two. I said I thought so. As he talked.) but after some debate I ended up going first. and how everything is interconnected. yet nothing of any specifics. and this time focus on feeling the outer edges of my Aura and go beyond my immediate awareness.” I stopped to listen and heard birds chirping. I took a deep breath and focused on the boundaries of my energy. Now they ran from the edge of my aura towards me. while simultaneously trying to feel the flow of life around me. but he said he could hear an energetic crackling of energy.” I asked him if he was talking to me as I slipped in and out of the two worlds. There needed to be a balance of the two. targeting a small circle on my stomach. Halfway through this experience. Al was pacing behind me telling me “Look up. unless the person is searching for it. look at the sky. All he would say was he had been around. He then told me that our paths had crossed for a reason. He told me he tried to get me to go beyond myself. I felt privileged to be receiving such 23 . Otherwise. The response was mostly disinterested disbelief. He told me about the seven chakras. to go beyond my immediate awareness. I never asked exactly how he had done that. I was shocked to realize that despite all the years I had known him. I’d never realized he was a “Zen Buddhist Master. As I was coming fully out of it. I suggested he go first (since it was his idea.” He told me he was trying to make me aware of that which is outside of myself. I asked if he had told our other friends about his “Zen Buddhism.” He said no. He said I should try again. There they left a cool. I guess there is no point in revealing anything so sacred. it would be like talking to a wall. I felt as though he were some sort of 900 year-old Yoda teaching me the force. and their significance to me. the same navy blue spirits reappeared. There is an unlimited supply of it and I can take it anywhere I go. but eventually he indicated that through years of practicing meditation. As we were walking into a small clearing. because I kept asking the introspective questions and none of the retrospective ones. I was pushed into a mixed flow of blackness and navy blue spirits. explained each one’s purpose.

I was left with that same remarkable feeling this time too. I know I will. But of course. I set the pipe on the coffee table. but did not like the feeling of being sucked down into the floor. I was amazed at the amount of knowledge he had to offer. my attention was riveted to a sun suspended in the middle of the sphere. and was trying to tell them what I saw. I told them that the last time I had done it. I ignited the Salvia to red ambers. I pierced into one of them. As I watched them. it propelled me deep into the couch. and afterward said it was a good feeling. yet nothing in particular. He spoke of infinity. more conscious being. I was in the presence of two friends. once you think you’ve gone to the end of knowing everything. In the end. Al tried the 30x. As I rushed past them. There were so many of them I could not see the inner surface of the sphere. One of them had already tried Salvia. “It’s right there. He told me to look up Indian spiritual journeys and to look up some Buddhism teachings. but were still interested in trying it again on their own. My other friend tried it. I was left with a circle of energy on my stomach and how great it felt. They looked at me as if I had lost my mind. there was no way for them to see what I was seeing. I started to go over in my mind how I wanted to go beyond myself. and thought only of going beyond. I understood what he meant. He made me realize there are uncounted numbers of infinities and how great this endless source of consciousness is. But in time. The sensation of energy in my stomach stayed there for another two hours. it’s right there!” in an ecstasy. My awareness shot me through a darkness filled with even darker spheres floating around in space. Yet almost as soon as I shot to this other world. He decided to wait for another day. Once it hit the center of my chest. Having other people around while doing Salvia does make you a bit self-conscious of how you’re going to act. I feel we are all just cells of yet a larger. There are multiple 24 . radiating light on the navy blue spirits walking on the inner wall. sat up straight. I noticed that the spirits next to me began to realize my presence. 19 th Time/Salvia 30x/ “Going Beyond ” While preparing my pipe with Salvia. leaving it in my mouth for a few seconds before sucking it down to the core of my being. I inhaled as much of the smoke as I could. He said he doesn’t know everything and there is much more for even him to learn. He enjoyed it nevertheless and maybe he reached were he had wanted to go.” At this point. I told them solo is the best way to do it. I remember yelling out. but was smoking it like a cigarette even after I explained how to do it. He had gone beyond his consciousness to where he could perceive everything. although minutes before he told me that as interesting and satisfying the experience may be in the other realms.knowledge. As I blew out the smoke. As we picked up and headed back to the house I finally got a source of some of his knowledge. but didn’t have my own experiences to feel as he did about life. Taking a few deep breaths. When some friends came by he acted as though nothing happened. He had been engulfed in a white light and a sense of calmness had fallen over him. I think this person also wanted to do it alone. Once inside. he also appreciates this life. there is more. and remained convinced he is a “Zen Buddhist Master. I was quickly shot back into the living room and telling my account to my friends.

he let go of this reality and was finally pulled into a world of geometric shapes and patterns. Salvia can leave you in a calmer state. He wanted to try it alone in a darker setting. I would have done Salvia twice with Al 25 . I noticed from my left something coming towards me. Infinity. and to thank it for giving its life. see it or comprehend it. as it helps you comprehend what is truly important in life. no tangible way to hold it. he told me the direction he wanted me to try with this next Salvia journey. he was engulfed by warm. I equated what he was telling me how an Indian gives thanks for taking a life to stay alive. I did go beyond myself. I heard a sound between a great gust of wind and a train as a single row of different colored spirits. where he was hoping it would calm him down and make him more relaxed in general. The second time. He was eager to tell his other friend about it and couldn’t wait to get his own Salvia. They only know the Webster’s definition of it. each with their arms pushing the one in front of them forward. so without hesitation I agreed and began to gather my things. he placed the chair so it faced east. I’d like to go beyond familiar. On our way to our favorite spot. He suggested I think about the wood I had been splitting earlier that day. Native Americans. Someday. Bo ’s 1 st Time With Salvia The first time my friend Bo did Salvia he had retreated from being consumed into the experience. After this session. Experiencing and seeing what it’s like will leave you in awe of its majesty. you can harness that inspiration to unleash your greatest desires and allowing them to become your reality. there was no beginning or end. he was stunned at how powerful it was and truly enjoyed the experience. except I am still running into something familiar. Overall. I realized I was in space. is your imagination. I looked to my right and watched the row of spirits continue on to infinity. we only know there are no limits. All we can do is accept we are a part of it and be happy knowing there is no end to our playground of possibilities. People have always told me you can do whatever you want the choices are endless. how it’s going to serve us. 20 th Time/Salvia 40x/ “Infinity ” I asked to look into infinity. beautiful colors that looked like a Magic-eye picture.realities filled with multiple entities in the void of space. I was left in a state of awe. but I don’t think they truly know how infinity feels. telling me how the Egyptians. Mayans and many other cultures believed each direction had its own personal energy. As the vision appeared on the back side of my eye lids. Upon arriving at the spot. He told me to think about how it lived. I remembered I had been facing north during our last Salvia session. The only limit to your reality. Thinking on this. In the end there is nothing worth losing your head over. They’re right. Once through. zipped past me at an incredible speed. A couple of months later some of my friends remarked that Bo seemed less stressed. Afterward he said it was like being sucked into two side by side propellers. Once you have that feeling within you. 21 st Time/Salvia 40x/ “Tree ” Al told me that he would like to do Salvia again.

and Ms. A smiling crowd of people was walking from the trees towards me. He said. Let’s walk. I was surprised to find nothing had happened. so I got up and started to walk. soon realizing that. Now I asked to see and feel the world’s energy. The first two times I entered the Salvia world all I saw were red spirits searching side by side in the darkness of my body. I got on my hands and knees to examine them more closely. Salvia ” Sitting in my chair in the woods on a warm sunny morning. where I noticed for the first time that there were small mushrooms growing in front of me.” I walked up to a mushroom. This time I kept opening and closing my eyes to see if I could see anything with my eyes open. After two hits of the 30x. they started to run a winding path around three black circles. once facing north and now once to the east.” I knelt down and felt the grass. You always have to ask these difficult questions. like one of my previous tours. 25 th Time with visuals and 26 th Time with Body Possession/Salvia 40x-30x/ “Mr. Ms. Salvia. This plant had a straight edge on the bottom and oval forms on top. telepathically. “You want to see the world? Let’s go. I felt myself slipping away as this spot. I instantly looked down. I started to talk to myself. Each oval section was the same and contained the green spirits and the golden squares. Feeling them move through me had felt like a warm line of energy moving as a slow. I asked if Salvia could tell me about itself. only this time I used 30x a lower dosage from the previous 40x. My perspective moved from looking at them from the side. As the babble of the spirits began to fade away. 22 nd -23 rd -24 th Time/Salvia 40x/ “DNA Within ” I asked what makes me who I am. like dividing fractions. to looking down on them. As the green spirits moved away from me. until you get to the end of the world. The tree had had a good life and was content to be giving itself to me. I saw three trees growing from small shrubs to big trees in moments. Opening my eyes. I heard. they assumed the double helix of a DNA molecule that became a larger single spirit . I then asked 26 . how I was sorry. I was not alone. picked it up and looked at it. Each receding section got smaller and smaller. They were green like the tree. keep going! You want to feel it? Here you go. Why can’t you just be like everybody else and just smoke this shit. my mind flowed to another dimension. “There are other plants that can help you.” remarked Mr. gentle wind. yet appreciative for its life in helping to perpetuate my including where the tree I had split had been cut down. I saw a flow of green spirits racing around a series of bright gold squares which appeared to be contained in a strangely shaped plant. I sat back in the chair and prepared another dose of Salvia. I was thinking about the tree. With that pattern. a woman’s voice saying that she was late for a party. As I sat down. while he told me “Look. Salvia. On my third voyage. and once you get there. As I allowed the Salvia to engulf my mind. They continued away from me to a point where I could no longer see their end. I put down the pipe and had an urge to run. Salvia had to go to a party. As the 40x flowed into my lungs. I was talking to Mr. I took several deep breaths to calm myself and to focus on the trees around me. with a yellow light reflecting on them from the sky. I don’t always have an answer for you.

now pine trees were standing.“Still Trying to See My True Self ” 27 . in the darkness of my mind.” As I came out of it. pulling me back the way I had come as I was flying away. I was rushing past a line of red spirit people. just like he said. seeing that where the small. 27 th Time/Salvia 60x/ “The Source of Consciousness ” In the woods I sat in my chair facing south in front of a pine tree. Then. I hope I’ll find my answer in another plant. For several minutes I felt paralyzed and noticed blue-colored fleas covering my feet. grabbed the chair. spidery lines of light connecting to other lights like itself. Consciousness comes from a beautiful light surrounded by unknown darkness. I once again inhaled the 60x and slipped down into another realm. It’s all connected. I asked. and then said in a reassuring tone. I got right up to the door when the Salvia began to wear off. There was another line of spirits beneath them as if it were a reflection of the ones on top. including me. The line curved and bent like a never-ending “S” until it ended at a door. 28 th Time/Salvia 60x/ “Access Denied From the Fourth Dimension ” As soon as I finished my twenty-seventh Salvia trip I asked to go to the fourth dimension. I found myself drooling and still felt like there was a residual force pushing me into the ground.” I asked him another difficult question. Within a minute I felt a strong line forming around my head as if I had just put on a tight hat. It formed long. The background was a pinkish red and I had the physical sensation of falling through this realm. I felt perhaps the spirits were annoyed with me. He left without me having to snap my fingers.if I will be rid of him when I needed to be. all you have to do is snap your fingers and I’ll be gone. “Yeah. I saw a small and beautiful light to my left. where consciousness comes from.” Through my body he snapped my fingers to demonstrate. and headed back to the house. “I am not the only person trying to go to the 4th dimension. beautiful lights had appeared. we’re all connected. Contemplating what had just occurred I felt that I was not ready to leave this dimension after all. as I was falling past them while they patiently waited. I wondered if my spirit had left this dimension. Although I was left with a feeling of disappointment. “Now I’m not going to get you caught talking to yourself out here in the woods. I felt like I was still tripping for another twenty minutes after the vision and decided that 60x didn’t do anything more than the lower doses except to give me longer after effects. It was mostly white but I could see there were colors on the edges of its boundaries. I got up. brushed them off. As the lights disappeared I opened my eyes. I felt as though not only consciousness comes from within me but also from everything else in this world. I said to myself. before enveloping my mind with 60x. would I have been able to come back? 29 th -30 th Time/Salvia 80x/ “Trying to See My True Self ”. and he said.

but couldn’t. With his first failed attempt behind us. he said he was again much attached to the spot and felt like he had been trying to leave it. he became interested in trying a higher dose himself. instead of also trying to contact the ghost. I saw a bright blue figure carried by several red spirits. 31 st Time/Salvia 10x/ “Indians That Tried To Help Me in an OBE ” When I told Al that I had purchased 60x and 80x of Salvia. Once the pipe was 28 . with his right arm up and fingers nearly touching the string of light entering his eyes. As before. As they left my sight I could still feel them as a circle of energy moving through my body until they reached the upper part of my right leg before fading out. I said in a telepathic voice “It’s about time. A few minutes later he told me that he could hear chattering.I asked to see my true self. This time. The vision revealed that I was being carried through life by protective spirits that were watching over me. They all appeared to be inside the dark silhouette of my head. I went back to my original spot and watched him while I concentrated once more for him to contact the ghost. this one went straight into the eyes of an Aztec Indian. beautiful light from my twenty-seventh trip. sitting on the cold fall grass just a few feet away. Indian style. which was against an even darker background. and at the same time powerful and important. It had lines of light connecting to other small lights except for one. I prepared the pipe with 60x then handed it to him. though this time he said he could see colorful woods with many paths. He was kneeling down on one knee. As this vision faded I was not satisfied with it and did another round with the 80x. We found a spot not far from his home where we set up a chair in the woods for him to do the Salvia. it will prove more revealing than these last two visions. would try to have an out of body experience (OBE). I said to him that I thought that he needed to do this near his house. because perhaps the ghost was quite possibly bound to that particular area. He told me that he had felt almost bound to that spot. I begin focusing my mind on trying to attract this ghost’s attention for Al. He told me he would like to try to make contact with a ghost he believes dwells in his house. I thought maybe he was trying to show me that my true self is just pure consciousness.” watching as they carried my blue soul down through my own dark body. As I contemplated the Aztec Indian vision. that I. This time I sat in the chair while Al sat on the ground. held back from his search. I suggested he try again. Several minutes later. While Al took a few deep breaths before inhaling the smoke. this time using 10x as I had not been too pleased with the effects of 60x either. The first trip. All I could see of him was a white outline. all I saw was what appeared to be the same small. I felt that I was insignificantly small. as I feel I‘m still missing something. he came back to reality to tell his story. He said he had tried going down each one. I still want to try to see my true self. but nothing clearly. He was drawn back. when he came back. He agreed. After filling his pipe. I suggested to him that since he could not reach the ghost. and told him of my experiences with them. Perhaps if I say I want to be face-to-face with my true self.

trying to push my spirit out of my body. There was no response from the crowd of Indians. “You’re not going to help him leave his body. But if you use it to get certain insights or to see something from a different perspective then you are most likely going to find success in your search. and heard a woman’s voice scream out to the Indians. He told me how he had been able to communicate with a girl by projecting his spirit to get close to her. because it was my last night to hang 29 . Later that night while talking to Al. and started to see the formation of the unknown. I finally realized why I most likely had the type of experience I had when I did Cannabis. as a pure light. Whether it be alcohol. oblivious to what is going on around oneself. while the lower half remained stuck at my hips. at the same time sounding more like a question. I remember this was one of the reasons why one of my friends used it. 32 nd Time/Salvia 10x/ “Shattered Image ” I went out drinking with some friends one night. My focus instantly moved to the one in front of the crowd. entheogens. and the smoke began to flow through me. and despite the disappointment of an unsuccessful OBE. myself. The main stream media keeps insisting if you smoke Marijuana you are going to be an “air head”. So far I’ve been accomplishing just that. looking in one direction. I was not expecting to see myself in this way. I told Al what I had just seen.filled I started to prepare my mind by repeating to myself to relax. I began to feel a separation from my body. taking our minds to unlimited possibilities. which appeared as a pure white light. I told him it was strange how my perspective allowed me to see the back part of myself and the Indians at the same time. When I’ve seen other people use the same plant with different intentions from my own. I could still feel their presence. I simply felt I knew what their feelings were about that question. it nevertheless left me in wonder of what I had just experienced. limited way of thinking. familiar. “We’re here to help our friend. the result will be whatever the person intends to create with the experience. It helped him be more creative with his music. His long black hair was flaring behind him as he descended into my being. I set the pipe aside while the back of my eyelids became a movie screen. He told me my third eye is not in one spot.” They felt like old acquaintances. Each time I talked with him. or whatever mood or mind altering substance or techniques one uses. Once the visuals began to fade. Your beliefs and expectations will also be a fuel for the kind of experience you will have. he kept unraveling a deeper mystery about himself. as if I shared a special bond of friendship with them. just let go. and what’s beyond this life. He wore brown leather pants and moccasins. no shirt and had red and blue painted stripes on his chest and arms. and leave my body. Salvia has a great potential for breaking down our small. but that it encompasses all that is around me. Unfocused beings begin to appear. he told me how he has done Cannabis on many occasions and that one’s experience is a reflection of intentions. My intention with Salvia use is to get a better understanding of my life. The unknown became a crowd of Indians running down from the top of my being. I noticed they still get what they are looking for. It felt as though they had pushed the upper part of my spirit out. They looked beautifully real and for some reason. and that he had been just a white sphere of light. After several deep breaths the flame hit the Salvia.” in a rather authoritative and demanding way.

that this plant is not a party drug and should not be mixed with alcohol. I was on my way to a state of total drunken annihilation. thinking he would need a big dose to have an effect. Now I knew this was going to be a bad experience. So there I was. I was wrong and wished I had started him on 5x. I was completely incapacitated to the point where I couldn’t even roll over if I wanted to puke. I was once called a gypsy by an old work acquaintance when he’d discovered I had moved six times in four years. I dislike the media’s perspective of Salvia. I gave him 40x. but also knew I was going to write a book about Salvia and had to include this very important subject in it. After three to four minutes of this he came out of it and told me that he felt like he was being rolled up. already off my drunken rocker inhaling Salvia. when I had Peter try. Sometimes. My final and most obvious conclusion was that Salvia should not be mixed with alcohol. After several attempts to journey I gave up. This was illogical thinking on my part but for some reason I felt the Salvia had lost its potency. since I had been unable to travel myself. Instantly I went from riding a kid’s roller coaster to an interstellar Star gate roller coaster from hell that lasted for hours. don’t mix liquor with it. I was unable to visit the Salvia realm after inhaling both 10x and 40x. I sat in a chair next to him. I think it’s important to have a good diet in order to have the most beneficial results. I wonder if there is such a place. Once home I got the bright idea to try Salvia. When they look at people laughing when using Salvia. So to save yourself from a horrible experience with Salvia. He even said he could hear a tape noise as if pulling tape from a roll. girl. sitting in my bed.“Las Vegas Friends First Time ” This was a very unusual experience. and sometimes uncontrollable laughter. It was apparent this was not where I belonged. Peter was impatient and too fidgety for me to relax and allow myself to slip away. I think it was because I wished there were some job. Within seconds Peter began the typical Salvia laughter and began rolling around on my bed. but ultimately you have nothing to fear. or life I could have here in my old home town. The fact is that I. 30 . they assume the users have lost their mind. when in reality they have just discovered an over-whelming sense of joy within themselves. After having dozens of shots and a few beers. and did everything I could to keep my own laughter quiet and be respectful of his experience. As a result. I found I could not concentrate. He told me it was as if the tape peeled the light right out of him. perplexed by how the Salvia would not work if the setting was not right. loss of. as well as the Aztec Indian Shamans. The only thing I saw was what looked like a shattered image swirling around in darkness. Like Ayahuasca.out with them before leaving town. It was one of those rare nights when I gave myself no limit on how much I was going to drink. consider this plant to be a spiritual sacrament that can propel a person’s spiritual development and should only be used as such. 33 rd Time/Salvia 10x-40x/ “Nothing Happened ”. I was trying to show my old friend Peter the physical effects one may have while using Salvia: increased sweating. As I sat on my bed smoking Salvia.

which became an indescribable feeling of joy. I reconnected to the spirit realm and found myself looking at my spirit-self face to face. There was one that seemed to notice my situation and was shocked to see what it was witnessing. He began to say things like. I myself sweated quite a bit my first ten times. that Salvia purged all of the toxins out of his body. It’s all I can do. and as I looked around I saw spirits of all colors walking around. I realized not everybody is ready for such a leap. I was close enough that my physical body was partially inside my spirit-self.” “How can you go through that. After this experience I realized that I can’t push entheogens on people. “It’s Ok. The spirit’s hands were on its cheeks with its mouth open. but I could 31 . 34 th Time/Salvia 10x-40x/ “It ’s Ok ” I asked the spirits of the next dimension if it was all right that I got Peter sick. “It’s like space weed. Peter felt ill for a few more hours before feeling better. Yet I knew from that moment on I could not push Salvia on people. in which a bright orb was shining. He smoked a pack of cigarettes a day. I told him my interpretation of his experience. There was a time for me when I was searching for a deeper meaning to this life.” “Remind me not to do this shit again. I’m not your experiment. I couldn’t see the rest of my body. Eventually a turquoise female spirit came down from the alien’s face. Those factors show the importance of having a healthy life style before doing Salvia.” and “I’m not your monkey. but now I barely sweat at all while doing Salvia. Eventually. Either that. 35 th Time/Salvia Purple Sticky 10x two times .complete connection with the source of everything. Now I know why Al had never told anyone about the things he knows. They were gray with a smaller purple square in the middle. Aliens brought this shit. otherwise you are wasting your time. I’ve had such incredible experiences with the plant that I wanted everybody to see what I saw. It seemed to take much more smoke to get an effect this time. They must desire to try them on their own. while the eyes of the alien were a light blue. Then a face resembling what looked to be a Grey was pushing through the grid with several human spirits walking around on its face. I can only share my experiences with them and hope that they begin their own search. My spirit-self was mostly blue with a tinge of pink in it. but I did not know the right questions to ask. He was the only one. Soon I would stop asking questions and start demanding to go to a higher level of awareness using another type of entheogen that would take me to the place I was searching for . so much laughter. First. and wondered where all the spirits from the Salvia world were.” and “It’s also like wheat grass. All the spirits were navy blue. You must have a strong desire to find what you are searching for.” they did not mind that I got Peter sick. like being dipped into a mirror. She told me. along with eating lots of junk food. then so much pain?” I told him the other six people I had given it to did not have any bad side effects. or it was becoming inactive in me.About ten minutes later he started to feel nauseous and began to vomit a little. Now all I could see was the outline of my spirit face. I saw an energy grid of squares materialize out of the hit of 20x of Dragon Salvia/ “Face to Face and Beyond ” I asked to see myself face to face.

and was ready to move to the beyond. three years after her death I was getting ready to smoke Salvia and perhaps see if I could say goodbye one more time. It boggles my mind that out of all the time I was away in the military or living away from home.theosophy-nw. and the lines formed what looked like a Swastika symbol. to comfort her as she passed on. Once we progress to our full potential. there is still the individual self. 36 th Time/Salvia 30x/ “Too Late to Say Good Bye ” My first. who no longer appeared to be in the spirit realm. At the same time it was just a wonderful feeling knowing more about the true nature of who I am. Once I left the spirit world I felt for the first I knew she was nearing the end. our true selves.feel the lines where my physical body touched the spirit body. especially when she died. My mother tried to get me to leave her but I stayed. We melt together as a single entity. 37 th Time/Regular Salvia four times-one hit of 10x/ “When You Die ” I had a burning curiosity to know what it would be like to experience death.htm 32 . I was heartbroken. I felt I was too late in contacting her and when I die. I am grateful I was there when she died.2 This vision indicated to me that Amber had been in the spirit realm but had moved on to a higher realm of consciousness. Now. When we move to the spirit world. Above this woman were spirits walking into a light. lying down next to her. she won’t be there waiting for me. It was as if I were seeing myself in the mirror for the first time. In the vision. I saw the top of them as if I were above them. we meld into a single all-encompassing being. To say the least. At first I saw a woman with shoulder-length hair that seemed as though it would have been blond if it were not for her overall purple spirit superimposing over her. that I saw who I truly was. I felt sad. She was a good dog and I always wanted to be there for her. One of the interesting things about Salvia is the way it causes you to feel a tingling sensation that corresponds to what you are seeing. Laying there in her last hours we just looked into each other’s eyes until at last she gave a final groan sound and arched over with the drool of death coming from her mouth. and so far only pet was a dachshund named Amber. During the last three days of her life. Like the woman spirit they were purple. Amber had been my best friend since I was ten years old. After looking into this symbol I discovered that it was originally called the Svastika and that it was used in Buddhism as a “Heart’s Seal. She did not eat or drink anything. laid on the breasts of departed Initiates after their death”. There were other spirits in a line behind her as she was looking down. and for the first time in my life I truly cried. I saw what looked like a flower petal surrounded by darkness. In the center of this petal 2 http://www. only purged her system. We all simply become one. she didn’t die until I was back. An energetic being of consciousness. as if she were paying her respects to Amber. I did everything I could to help her and on the last night she barked for me every time I tried to sleep in my room away from her. but knew she had been an advanced spirit. with no memory or sense of self.

flowing around the stream of light. in the spirit world. All I can say about this experience is that death is one hell of a ride. I was unable to affect the speed and force with which I was moving. I didn’t think you’d come here. not until they die. Now the spirits had changed to a solid red. During all this. tell them I love them.” I asked how I could prove to them I had spoken to him. as if I were on the most stupendous roller coaster in the world and enjoying every minute of it.” although I wasn’t sure if everyone can get the same results. When they came to where I was. I told her I too. with a red glow on their outer edges. He laughed again. there are of course others who have passed on at the same time. but you ought to know what you are doing.” I asked how I could stop this conversation. Then. looking down at me as if I were lying on the ground. “Boy. that transports you to the next realm. was somewhere she could speak with him. who had passed away a few weeks earlier. I didn’t expect this. you made it through. I was getting a bit self-conscious of the fact that I was talking out loud and wondered if my 33 . because now I was curious as to where one goes after death. I wish I could tell them this myself. I asked where her father was and expressed a desire to speak with him. He said “You can’t. You’re naked!” said Joan’s father in a surprised and upbeat sort of way. leaving its spiritual passengers to wander the black landscape of the back side of my eyelids. if you will. My friend Joan had scheduled a meeting to have a Tarot reader ask the same thing. I’m right here next to them. Good ones too.” “Is there anything I can tell your daughter and your wife?” I asked in a sincere tone. I watched my fellow spirits on this wild energy ride. and someday we’ll be together again. “I didn’t expect to see you. “Yeah. They were bright blue in the center of their being. Holding in the Salvia smoke. and he said “Anytime you want to let go. As the petal of light came between my eyes. and it’s as though there is a bolt-of-energy bus. As I prepared myself for the journey. I really didn’t expect to see you. like that of a jet engine. I had to tell my roommate of my astonishing experience. my vision opened into the spirit realm. There are bad spirits out here.” I’m always slightly anxious to know how I can stop a conversation with one of these spirits once they start. While talking to Peter I realized that when you die. I was pulled up into the flow. it slowed down until the energy beam dissipated into nothing. All I could see was the outline of the spirit as the conversation began: “Hey. I saw a bluish green spirit come up in front of me until it merged with my spirit essence. Arms at my side. in the afterlife. She wanted to know if her father. You’d better be careful.” I remember thinking to myself. 38 th Time/Plain Salvia (un-enhanced-regular leaf chopped up) four hits-then one hit of 10x Purple Sticky (not my personal favorite brand)/ “Contacting a Friends Deceased Father ” There is definitely a synchronicity to this life. I could see it was a white stream of energy surrounded by human spirits coming headfirst at me. Afterwards I was so impressed at the speed with which I had left my body. “Perhaps they could try Salvia. but they’ll learn about it eventually.was a white light that grew bigger as it rushed toward me with a loud rumbling sound. After a bit. I had one of them on either side. would attempt to reach her father. I saw several red spirits standing about in a black space. Since I believed I had already contacted spirits with my Salvia sessions. I felt as though I were screaming.

I began to wonder if all the deceased feel this way in the spirit realm. that he was happy and excited to be in the spirit realm. from what her father told me. Once she came out I told them what had happened. It may be the spirits of the dead reflect the life and attitudes of the life lived before death. and that time does not exist there. I’m sure the evil ones don’t give the same feelings of love as the ones he left me with that day. there are bad spirits to watch out for. It just felt so good. eventually fading away by the end of the day. I went into Joan’s room to tell her what had just happened. I was putting in a lot of overtime at work and was feeling stressed. This was the same feeling I’d developed through the use of Salvia. At the same time there was still an element of evil there. maybe it’s not black. However this time the sensation was located in my chest. All I could feel was love and peace. happy and sure of myself. I told her of the feeling of energy and love I had in my chest. Their upper bodies were yellow with the reflection of its light. I was left feeling refreshed and at peace with myself. but not Joan. told him how I felt. Her mother was in the room when I entered. are always with us. She wondered what her father wanted to tell her before he died. Perhaps my aura. I got the feeling he was very happy and surprised to be where he was. I opened my eyes and got up to tell Joan of what had just transpired. 39 th Time/Salvia 10x/ “Spirits Centering My Energy ” I asked to have my energy centered. To them. She said. I saw spirits walking shoulder to shoulder toward an unseen sun. I did know. “Maybe we don’t see as they do. slightly higher than before. Once I got my bathrobe on. he seemed to know that I was done. I told her there are millions of spirits shoulder to shoulder that surround us in a black space. It felt like a cool sun of energy was radiating from inside of me. He reminded me again to be careful of what I was doing and that he. She told me the reader said there are spirits all around us and that her father was with her. but how could he have known about it when he was still alive? She reminded me that he was seeing his deceased pet and old deceased friends who made visits to him before he had died. 40 th Time/Salvia 20x/ “Take Me Out of Here ” I asked to be taken out of this reality. which all spirits can see. along with all the other spirits. I had an urge to escape this world for a while. I told her that I thought it was about the afterlife.” I agreed that was a good possibility. I could feel lines of spirits pushing in from the side of my body until the energy converged in my chest. She said he had been a very loving man and perhaps he had left me with some of his own feelings. As Joan’s deceased father said. I agreed. I asked her how the Tarot card visit had gone the previous night. I realized how good I felt. A couple of times before. and 34 . I felt enlightened to a point where I felt I had a better understanding of so much. Joan told me that the way I was telling her how her father had spoken was accurate to the way he sounded when he was alive.roommates could hear me and think I had gone crazy. Once my vision opened into the spirit world. I saw tiny red spirits surround a dark silhouette of myself. I could not keep my hand away from my chest. When I was finally ready to end our discourse. I felt calm. Salvia had left a feeling of energy inside of me. This strong feeling stayed with me for a couple of hours.

I. I heard one of the female spirits say. just my own head. deciding on a good time for the journey. I went to his room where I found him still asleep. and simply surrender to the experience. We got our hands on you. This is particularity true when using shrooms. and that would affect my own experience. felt this is what I needed to do to get rid of some stress. leaving me free to start the session alone in my room. wherever it led me. But once the experience was over. Ultimately. I instantly felt comforted and knew that they were helping me write this book. The smoke directed my perception into the back sides of my eyelids and showed me my own blue spirit standing in the darkness. “I know. I 35 . who had first guided me beyond myself. helping me to move. my goal was to see what it would be like to be a part of the universal consciousness. told me that you see what you expect to experience when you do any type of psychedelic. I planned to break its surface and peer from its fringes before going in completely. Chapter 5 Incocybe Mushroom (Shrooms)-The 2 nd Entheogen My friend Al. Learning to appreciate this world is important to stay grounded. I heard them saying. This event would take me past my limited awareness and blast me to the fringes of the universal consciousness. Surprisingly. The first time. it actually worked. he said he wanted to go outside. Also. I knew that he would be a distraction for me. It may be more than I believe/perceive. and on what I wanted to learn from the experience. I was soon accompanied by several smaller yellow spirits that took hold of my arms and legs.” After hearing this. I had felt that the Salvia spirit has done everything it could for me up to this point and wanted to personally thank it. I convinced him that I was not going to do the shrooms. as he had been when I tried to show him how to do Salvia Divinorum. It became my true schooling in spiritual consciousness. 41 st Time/Salvia 20x/ “I Know. I didn’t need to escape this world. We Got Our Hands on You ”. My friend Peter knew I was planning on doing them soon and wanted to trip with me. too. When he finally woke up.” I thought I heard my Dad saying this outside of the Salvia world. 1 st Shroom Trip (Inocybe Mushroom)/ four small stems and two caps/ “Lifetime of education in 4 to 6 Hours ” Coming home from work during the dark hours of night I began to prepare for my first journey with Inocybe Mushrooms. It’s as though they knew what he had wanted to do that day. I was willing to let go.below they were red. I spent several days preparing for my first shroom session. “Come on! Let’s go outside. I learned a lot from this first experience with shrooms. his intentions were not the same as mine. I began to wonder how much control the spirit realm really has on the physical realm. just like the spirits had said.

as the whole image was very dark and the aliens were coming and going from my field of view. the dragon vanished. After about forty-five minutes of lying there. A feeling of warmth moved from my feet up to my head. I have no limits in the infinite. The clock on my dresser added a glow to my vision. so I turned them off. The lights were hurting my eyes. I felt slightly nauseated. I turned off my lights and laid down on my bed with my head propped up by two pillows. and began to think of what I wanted to experience. When they were present I felt as though they were tuning my frequencies so I could better perceive other 36 . I was instantly confronted with a phantom-like purple image of a dragon that was trying to attack me. for I create my own demons. complete caps with an additional two stems to be the dose I would use for my first time. and picked out two small. I did this by pulling my bed sheets over me while at the same time imagining an actual shield around my body. I came to the realization that I have nothing to fear but myself. I started to laugh once the nauseated feeling went away and began to feel a round.changed out of my work clothes into my pajamas. They are concepts of illusions that make up our reality. The first urge that came over me was to shield myself from harmful spirits. I felt so distant from my true self that I saw it was going to take some time before I could understand who I really am. I started to have a mental conversation with myself. just a blue/purple grid framework that made up the images. I am projecting myself and everything around me. waking me up to start the teaching. My body started to warm up. I put on a CD called Detaching from the World which is an ambient music CD to meditate to. Next I began to see a pinkish ball of consciousness emanating light (which could be different frequencies) condensing outward to the point where it creates our perceivable reality. I felt the only way I could defeat this inner demon of mine was not to fear it. What felt like many little lessons came at me with increasing speed and velocity. As soon as this thought came to my mind. It felt like I started with kindergarten and went all the way to senior year of college in the space of an hour. Instead of trying to fight it. I don’t know what all the fuss is about the taste of shrooms. that I project myself. Once this warmth had encompassed my whole being. I had no problem eating them. swirling disk of energy in my lower back. At two different times I could just see what looked like a Grey. As I watched this beautiful image I felt that there is no such thing as time or space. I dozed off a bit before the effects of the shrooms began to kick in. I chewed on each one separately until there was nothing left but the taste going down my throat. which consisted of creatures and geometric shapes that were devoid of any texture or detail. As I was peeling away the onion rings of my mind. including the reality I perceive. I felt as though I were beginning to understand how our reality coincides with and relates to the unseen realms. I turned on my light to see what else I could see but for the most part everything seemed to go back to normal once the lights were on. I knew then that this was going to be a key part of my spiritual development. As the pace increased along the way I was able to grasp faint inklings of the lessons being taught to me. but rather give it a hug. This lasted for about twenty minutes before wearing off. I could make out the shapes in my dark room but now it was beginning to pulsate and seemed as if it were about to shatter away into nothing.

as chakra energy began pulsating in my lower back. Unfortunately. shrooms. were a test. My ears were ringing. whereas Salvia just gave me small fragments of insights at a time. otherwise I imagine that it would disappear. After about forty minutes I started an internal dialog with myself. Frequencies are at the core of perception. for those who are ready. we might temporarily vanish from this illusion. I ate the shrooms when I got home from work. If we could tune ourselves in with different frequencies we would be able to perceive different realities. That’s fine. I’ll admit that I admire the power this reality has to offer and I respect its complexities even more than I had before starting my spiritual entheogenic quest. that I had shattered my ego to find out who I truly am. I felt there was nothing more important than what I was learning with these substances. I also thought there was no point in telling anyone this because they too were a projection of my mind. but in a better form. and one medium size cap/ “Connected to the Universal Consciousness ” The next journey I had with Inocybe mushroom was a true blast off from physical reality. to be taken after spending a good portion of this life progressing As before. Once it looks within. Still I had an unshakable urge to release this information. that knowledge has been reduced to a state of a taboo. Although I know of people who have taken shrooms just for a kick. I sensed that the reason we create this reality is because our true self (universal consciousness) is looking for something in the beyond. By morning I had put my ego back together again. in mainstream society. or learned to correctly meditate. So get ready to take a trip into the neutral zone with me and be prepared to have your beliefs shaken to a point that makes you wonder and question what reality really is. shrooms can be used for a higher purpose. Towards the end of this session I was able to reflect on what had happened to me. the pitch going up and down like the tuning of a radio station. and then realize everything is an illusion. I now look forward to participating in this grand hologram. Shrooms in many ways are more intense than Salvia. I could feel my body getting warmer. 2 nd Shroom Trip (Inocybe Mushroom)/Four real big stems. Soon the pulsating moved up my body and I felt the moment was nearly at hand. it finds everything it desires. Although Salvia is still a very important tool for self-discovery. There is a great deal of information available showing that shrooms have been used for religious and spiritual practices. such as exploring one’s own truth. If everyone used psychedelics. It’s probably a good thing that the majority of people believe in this physical reality. Shrooms were able to rework my ego. All I had to do now was let go of all my fears and dive 37 . Psychedelics are similar to an illegal computer program that will grant you access to anything. I knew that not everyone would be ready to hear what I have to say or see what I’ve seen. one monster size cap. I felt as if I were Humpty Dumpty. one small stem. I felt the only place one can find true peace is within oneself. will seek this information when the time is right for them. giving you the power to see beyond the five senses. I sat in my bed with all the lights off and thought how I wanted to be inside the Universal Consciousness.

All that existed was pure joy and love. it felt like I was sucked out of the endless time loop and dropped into this time. I assume it was to change my perception of life in general. My vision was vibrating. As I lay on my bed. time. My perception went behind me and I could see a glowing red power cord slithering towards me like a serpent. Peering into my dilated eyes. After another hour or so I was able to relieve myself. memories. After an hour or two. I don’t really know. For what purpose or to what benefit. told me that I was crazy last night. and figure out who I was and recapture all my memories. There was still a residual force pulling me into the universal consciousness. from there two arcs of white and blue energy made the shape of the infinity symbol over him. I had to force myself to try and stay in this reality. When Peter knocked on the door I had come back into this reality and found myself on the edge of my bed screaming. There was no longer a sense of identity.into the unknown. I stayed in the bathroom for some time entertaining myself by making weird faces in the mirror. This would take hours. this life of which I had no memory. So I sat on the toilet seat until my legs went numb. I felt like I dropped into someone else’s life. but it was dark and I could only make out the shape of their heads and their eyes. I was rocketed away at an incredible speed in an eternal loop of pure consciousness. or space. I went back into my room and laid down on my cluttered floor. I started to see alien faces that looked like the Greys I had seen before. no longer a part of this life. I felt that I was already dead and in purgatory. and thought how similar this experience was to the Humpty Dumpy story. He told me I was being too loud and an hour of this was enough. I was drooling and biting my bed sheets like an animal. I was trying to pull memories of who I was and anything that could help me anchor myself. After a moment of hesitation. Once he turned on the lights in my room. The intensity was like I was being shot across the galaxy at lightning speeds. Lying there on the floor. I was instantly connected to the cord which transported my mind to the all-encompassing universal mind. The sheets had been torn off the mattress and lay tangled in knots. I realized that time does not exist in 38 . My hand began obsessively feeling the back of my neck. Everything I was witnessing was outside of me. revealed a blue spirit having a ball of white light emanating from its stomach. The universal consciousness. I went to the bathroom to urinate but my penis was numb and I was only able to let out a few drops at a time. I felt that I had shattered my ego and was putting myself back together again. I sensed the intentions of the aliens asking if I were ready to go into the universal consciousness. stretching. but in a different and better form. They. and screaming for over an hour. I let go of all my fear and agreed to be connected. drooling all over myself. As the sun came up I told my friends that what I had experienced was amazing and provided them with highlights. legs up and hands clenched like I was on the most intense roller coaster ride ever. It felt like I had been given anesthesia. and bending the grid work of this domain. on the other hand. eventually getting off and lying next to the toilet until I was able to pee again. I felt like I was being prepared to go someplace. To me it seemed I had been in this state for only a minute. looking at myself in the mirror that was leaning against the wall. I felt the presence of the aliens again telling me that they were tuning my frequencies and my ears began to ring with a fluctuating pitch. appearing to turn inside out.

It is also believed that dreams are a result of this chemical. grainy substance onto a soda can that had been converted into a pipe. The underlying reason I started this whole journey was because I was not content or at peace with myself. Now I feel as though I am. Love is the fuel for the Universal Consciousness. I put the flame to the chemical. It is also found in nearly all animals and plants. My inner demon of fear has been released. while appreciating it even more for its power and intricacies. Waking up after a few hours and rethinking the experience I concluded that I had traveled through time into a universe of love. I quickly took some notes of the previous events before going to bed. Our illusion filled world does everything it can to convince us it is real through pain. there are other references that will help you connect the dots to imagine why psychedelics in general are illegal. the engine that creates everything. hardships and distractions. Despite the fact that DMT occurs naturally. Rick Strassman’s book. Chapter 6 Dimethyltryptamine (DMT) . So get rid of all distractions. In Appendix A. I prepared myself for an intense DMT trip. Dr. this chemical has done wondrous things for me. it is a schedule-one drug in America. He told me that DMT sticks to everything and once I used it in my pipe. and yellow flowing towards me in the shape of multiple squares. nothing will ever get in our way. believes that the pineal gland produces large amounts of DMT when we are born and just before we die. crawl inside your imagination and create whatever you want through love. but this time I was gently transferred into another dimension. First I started to hear a ringing in my ears. The author of DMT The Spirit Molecule. I had been awake for about twenty eight hours and was in dire need of some sleep. But in my eyes they are among the greatest tools for freeing our minds. Why? I would like to hear the governments explanation on why it’s a scheduled 1 drug. But if we blast through the illusions with a quiet mind and love in our hearts. which resides in the center of our brain. inhaling as much of the cotton ball tasting smoke as I could. This time I suggested that we use the pipe I had used for Salvia. Rick Strassman. Once again he put the same size portion on my pipe.The 3 rd Entheogen DMT is a natural psychedelic chemical that is produced by our pineal gland. Knowing this gave me a stronger urge to enjoy this reality. It melted down inside the can with only a faint taste sticking to my tongue. 1 st Time/DMT/ “Welcome to the Light Realm ” From reading the reports of other people’s experiences in Dr. and my frequencies are vibrating at a higher level. orange. increasing in pitch until I was able to see bright colors of red.the universal consciousness. I watched with anticipation as my friend Devin prepared what looked to be a ridiculously small portion of a yellowish-white. Sitting outside on his back porch. it will never come off. We are part of an boundless consciousness in a limitless space. Like Salvia and shrooms. The typical taste people claim to get when smoking DMT was not bad to me. 39 . and was very much a part of it.

I closed my eyes again. unlike Joe Rogan. one on top and one on the bottom of my field of vision. one inside the called Joe Rogan talks DMT) and his forgetting a lot of his experience like a dream. we need to have our eyes shut. Unlike Joe Rogan’s documentation of his trip of DMT (on YouTube. Strassman’s patients. However. and once the visuals were done. Strassman administered the doses intravenously while I smoked it. I don’t know if there is a difference between taking DMT intravenously or smoking it. seeing the same thing as before. Flanking both sides of this person were two red snakes weaving about while hissing at me. I placed the pipe down and leaned further back into the chair. The only difference I could see was that everything looked bluer and had a slight vibration to it. From time to time I opened my eyes to see if I could see anything that way. then DMT with the least results. absorbing its soft fumes. where I fit into everything and how everything fits into me. with no residual feelings. Yet once I finished that particular journey. folding 40 . and housed a series of crossed cigar shapes. I placed a chair on the ground and sat down to prepare the pipe. They each gave me a different perspective of how life works. or something else that terrified them. Meanwhile. The whole experience lasted maybe ten to fifteen minutes. I opened my eyes and looked at Devin and smiled at him. After telling Devin what I had seen and about the green cylinder. Also. I talked to Natalie about life as she was admiring the stars. it felt like I had returned to a forgotten paradise where I felt a strong sense of belonging. clearing my mind of life’s matters and burned the DMT. I felt welcomed to this realm. nothing about this experience was crazy to me. letting him know that I had really enjoyed that experience. Then out of nowhere. Soon after the passing of the green translucent cylinder. An overwhelming feeling of euphoria came over me as I moved my head from side to side. but my experience was totally different from Dr. I felt that I could have gone through it from the back side had I wanted to. I set up for a session with DMT. My ears began to ring. except now there were two rows. 2 nd Time/DMT/ “Realities Collide ” Around midnight on a warm summer’s night. It was like two tubes. I realized that they all had played a crucial role in my understanding of the different levels of consciousness. the bright colors began to fade away into the blackness of my closed eyelids. tuning my frequencies to perceive the realm I was about to enter. with an intense smile on my face.This all happened within thirty seconds of taking the hit. I was able to remember everything from the experience. Salvia followed as a close second. I took several deep breaths. I felt as though shrooms had taught me the most. As these bright colors vibrated towards me I started to make out a person sitting Indian style with her hands in a prayer pose. I have talked to people who can see things with their eyes open while doing psychedelics. I was able regain myself completely. These yellow and white hued rows were cylindrical in shape. a green translucent cylinder moved from the left of my vision to the right. but for others like me. What I first saw was what looked to be lips that were divided into four equal sections. At this particular time in my psychedelic experience. Perhaps this difference is due to the fact that Dr. as my friend Natalie and I tried our best to ignore the relentless mosquitos. The majority of them frequently saw aliens. If anything. rotating in opposite directions. he told me that he believes there are portals we can navigate if we so choose.

the yellow figure passed from my perception and I opened my eyes. occasionally looking up at the stars. and I interpreted the whole thing as a spiritual machine. As we were leaving the woods. The face was looking and rising upward as it let out a cynical looking laugh. There are spirits that are creating everything we perceive. It was colored with purple and pink squares like the lips in the last session. the rest of the lips were absorbed into void of darkness. When both the snake and the woman had vanished into the middle. On the top and bottom of this UFO-shaped object were yellow rings and between these were several counter-rotating discs. centered on the top of these lips was a naked upside down. much like when taking Salvia. 3 Time/DMT/ “Spirit Machine ” After finishing the last session and giving a brief synopsis to Natalie of what I had just on themselves with different shades of purples and pinks. Beneath it came what appeared to be a UFO. on the bottom half was a green snake. Soon. and approached me from both sides of the UFO object. along with its chin and top of its head. There are no distractions from other people and nothing to feel self-conscious about. but another figure who was also glowing yellow was walking back and forth in front of me. choosing how many times and how quickly I use DMT. with no other colors present. The entire scene had a yellow glow to it. looking out a window. my attention was drawn to figures of what looked like the outlines of people. On its forehead was a red diamond-shaped tattoo. Then. I prepared my pipe and proceeded with my usual method of smoking psychedelics by 41 rd . which I believed was necessary to see how far I could go in the DMT world. I was able to get six sessions in. and felt one with the universe. She seemed doubtful of such possibilities. This object rose up along the face with a bright white light emanating from behind it. purple woman. I am able to go at my own pace. Once again. but then my frequencies returned back to this level of perception and the vision faded. Soon. also being drawn in. but nevertheless was kind enough to let me contemplate this new theory of mine. I felt even more connected to the other realms just outside of everyday perception. I told Natalie what I had seen. one right after the other. I recalled telling Natalie during the experience what I was seeing. and after a brief conversation I decided to do it one more time. At the same time. I was seeing Natalie walking in front of me with my eyes closed. I was left with a euphoric feeling. Its mouth looked like a jagged cut out Halloween pumpkin. and realized that perhaps lighting also affects the visions. 4 th Time/DMT/ Same day-1 st Time/ “Molecular Love ” This was the first time I was able to try DMT alone. I prepared myself to reenter that particular realm one more time. The one closest to me looked like a female that was about to give me a hug. in the shape of small squares. Plus. being sucked into the center. except there was some reds in this one. The black voids of my closed eyelids were soon filled with a face that looked like a voodoo mask with yellow eyes. These outlines were a mix of blues and purples. Next came a faint vision of a person sitting at a table. which is the way I prefer it. The other side of the table was not visible. without anyone wanting to have a turn.

At that moment I was seconds away from blasting off alone in my room to try and find the answer through DMT. I re-packed my pipe for another trip. There really are realities within realities. curtains drawn. It takes thousands of spirits to maintain my spirit. and the only way I can find what I’m looking for is to first change myself from within. As in the last session. by Deepak Chopra. It was so close I thought we touched. The tunnel seemed comprised of grid squares. It was a simple. DMT visions are better seen in the light. It 42 . where I was taken to their mother ship which was actually located inside me. I suppose the reason I keep asking this question is because I feel unable to find a soul mate. yet profound answer to my question. and pulled the sheets over my head. Although I did not know this at the time of this particular session. I saw what looked like DNA being produced by two red gears that had hundreds of red human spirits inside of them. I saw the same purple molecules floating around. Once again. right down to the molecular level. Under the covers. I then realized that love is everywhere. a yellow-green glowing centipede rushed past me. I saw what looked like a purple molecule flowing in a tunnel along with other molecules right behind it. I set my pipe on the dresser in front of me. yet my eyes still must be closed. and I wanted to meet them. Chopra is. So I demanded to be taken to them. As my perception faded into the darkness of the underside of my sheets. like my first Salvia trip. I will project what it is that I’m looking for.lying on my bed with the lights out. without boundary or comprehension of one another. At that point. wanting to communicate with me. down into my throat. laid down on my bed. I would finally read The Spontaneous Fulfillment of Desire. 6 th Time/DMT/ Same day-3 rd Time/ “Nothing Out There ” After finishing the last two sessions. After looking at this for a moment. I also wanted to be taken into space. pushing the gears to move. and into my chest. Unlike Salvia where I saw the visions better in the dark. My only question to Mr. However. my perception went inside my head. I demanded to be taken out of this reality and be shown what my inner reality truly is. 5 th Time/DMT/ Same day-2 nd Time/ “Spirits Within ” Right after I did the last session with DMT. I decided to try DMT outside to get more light. except this time there were other images added to my vision. I realized there are spirits within spirits. I had an overwhelming feeling there were other spirits that were aware of what I was doing. how do I vibrate correctly in correspondence to what I’m looking for? But I’m already sure he would tell me to meditate. I was sitting outside. I began a dialogue with an unknown being who told me there is nothing in space. Blowing out the DMT smoke. while the molecules had tentacles waving about as they moved. I was curious about where to find love. they somehow manage to coexist. There is always an infinite amount of possibilities out there. Love is what everything is made of. I realized the reason I can’t find the one I’m looking for is because I am not vibrating correctly. which I did. feeling as though there was another intelligence in my presence.

intelligent being come and pick me up with its ship. it felt at home. It stayed to my left for a minute. There is only here and now. while other globes spun around it. satisfaction and euphoria came over me as I looked around. I was returned to the frequency that allowed me to see a kaleidoscope of yellows and oranges. After recognizing these profoundly deep emotions. a red-colored UFO came spinning sideways across my field of vision. I thought of the Pleiadians. but the intensity of euphoria left me in a state of calmness. This time was certainly not the case. I felt very relaxed and at peace with myself. 8 th Time/DMT/ Same day-5 th Time/ “Soul Growth ” Immediately after the last session ended I took another hit of the DMT and with no particular questions in mind. Without knowing where I was or what I was seeing. This time I asked that the unseen. I saw the many different colors of reds. and yellows that made up the Earths auras. I looked down and saw a multitude of silhouetted red spirits. I refilled the pipe and tried again. “Bullshit. The grid of this person was red on the bottom. I know you’re out there. I wanted to take in as much DMT as possible in order to get visuals with my eyes open. and I know there are realities I haven’t seen!” It assured me I was wrong.” with the “ones” and “zeros” forming the illusionary structures. I was then shown the inside of a large cube that had streaks of green-glowing dashes moving along the black walls. I tried to break out of reality with my eyes open but soon gave up and closed my eyes. It was like flying through a rainbow. leaving me with a sense of connection to those entities. I did have a new sense of appreciation for my daily environment. There have been times in my life when I could feel a variety of emotions at the same time. 7 th Time/DMT/ Same day -4 th Time/ “Inside the Ship ” Right after session six. It said they were trying to keep me entertained and focused on this reality. 43 . A sense of calmness. an intense euphoria filled my inner being to the point where there was no room for any other emotion. It was as though I were at the center of a universe in which nothing existed except euphoria. orange in the middle. They responded with a yes. Once the smooth smoke of DMT entered my being. As I watched this figure I was told again by the unseen entity. there was nothing else out there except for what spirits had created. It was as though my spirit really did go on a long journey and now. the so called entities that Billy Meier has had contact with. I felt as though I had been given a Christmas present. Then. and gradually faded to yellow at the head. out of nowhere. reminding me of the Matrix. I sat in the chair for a moment longer. and there was nothing out there. as my vision changed to a dark space with blue-glowing orbs in the formation of a square. Suddenly a very strong feeling of love overcame my being. contemplating what had just happened before opening my eyes. Opening my eyes and seeing the trees in front of me. I asked if this is what it looked like inside their ship. back in my body. I responded with a harsh. grounded to the spot where I sat. All the while. oranges. Once I reached past the Earths aura I saw nothing but blackness. I became aware of movement as I ascended through the Earth’s atmosphere. In the center of “The cubical room stood a person composed of grid lines and lacking any other features.said I belonged here on Earth and they had created all this for me.

and be content with myself before I find whoever she may be. Unfortunately. I was staring at the shed door shaking my head from side to side. I was left with the impression that this would be the moment in time when I might be the happiest in my life. It opened up to a space where there were glowing red silhouettes of standing people. Now standing there with nothing on my body except my own skin. This one was walking towards me. 9 th Time/DMT/ Same day -6 th Time/ “The Moment in Time ” As I allowed the DMT smoke to flow into the depths of my chest the feeling of wanting to be with my soul mate remained. I could hear human voices. Following that one. I saw a small light radiating outward toward the center of my closed eyes. After a moment. I found that I am 44 . changing colors gradually from yellow to orange and red. My body was literally vibrating to a new frequency. where I had discovered that I am all-powerful and at the same time insignificant. Eventually I gave up and closed my eyes. I reached the field where I first learned to go beyond myself. As I looked around the crowd of spirits. I had to force them to stay open as closing my eyes while doing psychedelics had become a habit. and yellow flower kaleidoscopes twirling about. I had a strong urge to call a girl that interested me at the time. but was unable to make sense of their chatter. I soon began to feel a bit too connected with nature when mosquitos started to bite me. Yet I know I must first find out who I truly am. and I could make out some feminine features. I no longer felt trapped inside it. I began to walk deeper into the woods. I felt happy and excited to be in this reality. twisting corridor. a small yellow silhouette of an infant emerged from the light. It remained with only a blue glow superimposed over everything. and put them in my hair. leaving nothing to separate me from it. 10 th Time/DMT/ Same day -7 th time/ “Illusionary Boundary ” Once again I tried to tear apart reality with my eyes open. to no avail. I could see what appeared to be a mother holding a baby. I grabbed some ferns. square. the father standing nearby. I felt like a member of a tribe. and was soon surrounded by a second figure this one was orange and about the size of a teenager. as they are said to repel bugs. Outside the square tunnel was an orange energy surrounded by bright piercing yellow light. Once the vision faded away. yet free of its illusionary boundaries. I feel as though all that is needed for me to feel complete in this world is to be with my soul mate. This yellow box began projecting itself into a long. seeing red. and grabbed a few more for swatting. After smoking DMT seven times within an hour. Feeling the damp ground on my feet I felt even more connected to nature. As I got to the tree line I hung my bathrobe on a tree branch and removed my watch. orange. I closed my eyes and saw a small yellow box in the distance. trying to rip reality apart. Soon. but as if I were a part of it.First. My teeth were nearly buzzing with an intense euphoria as I stretched my body on the chair. when I have a child with my soul mate. and continued to walk further. I knew that there were important things to do. I had an urge to run through the woods naked. a red silhouette-figure was projected around the first two silhouettes.

I felt even closer to understanding my true self. reptilian self that had lain dormant within me. There were nothing but positive and beneficial uses with no harmful side effects 45 . after reading about it in a book called Psychedelic Drugs Reconsidered and other resources. That little flower at that moment felt more important to me than any other diploma or award ever presented to me. I think the reason I saw them was because I had heard a girl coming into the room towards the end of the trip. I was pleasantly pushed deeper into my chair with a powerful smile stretching across my face. I felt as though I had reached the next step. constantly flowing from one extreme to the another. yet all I could see was the front of its face. 11 th Time/DMT/ “3 rd Eye Transformation ” In a room full of other people all journeying to other realms. First I saw a blue spirit of a person that slowly started to have a light glow from its stomach.The 4 th Entheogen I had been interested in LSD for a while. pinks and blacks emerged to the right of it. looking at it more closely now. The face remained in my field of vision while the outline of a hallway in purples. There was a bright yellow light in the shape of the snake’s rattling tail centered over its forehead. I joined them with DMT. Thinking of nothing. There were two doors in which two grid-lined females came out. maroon eyes. as I could see its tail shaking. feeling like this was my diploma from the spirit world for moving up in my spiritual understanding of consciousness. I picked it up. It was smiling and had triangular. Chapter 7 Lysergic Acid Diethylamide (LSD) . I could not understand why it was illegal. This is why I don’t recommend doing psychedelics in a party setting. A Mayan-looking stone face appeared to be twirling around. Near where I had learned all of this. While knowing that there is so much more for me to learn. and I had to give it a try. after reading about it. My conclusion from this experience was that my third eye had been transformed from my limited human consciousness to a primitive. bringing the next image. with the exception of the type of entheogen I was about to experience next: LSD. a small purple weed was nestled in the thick grass. and where I wanted to go in this life. Also. trying to balance myself on a central point of consciousness. It occurred to me that this is what I had come out here to find and I was ready to head back. Then the person transformed into a snake. This image vanished away rather quickly. With the flower in my left hand I briskly jogged back.infinitely dualistic in nature. They too were colored purple and pink with black inside. It seemed to be a rattlesnake. Regarding the two women in the hallway. It appeared to be the holy grail of psychedelics.

making them want nothing to do with the military or the corporate agendas set by our government. It was such a small amount. I decided to take it before going to the show. without doubt. Psychedelics give you the chance to see things with your true sight. I would look to the depths of my vision. Whatever I was looking at. Just the night before. They seemed to be connected at the base. Smith. I felt giddy and a bit off balance and started to have perceptual distortions. I started to notice an increase in saliva secretion and my jaw began to tighten. Beer and cigarettes are. I kept thinking about the cops who were in their undercover vans looking for someone to bust. strobe lights flashing. I thought of them like the Mr. Yet. the police were confiscating psychedelics as part of their jobs. cut heavily into big pharmaceutical companies profits. I contemplated this for a while because I had never done it before and wondered how I would react under the influence of this drug within a large group of people. I then remembered an old friend telling me that acid is something he wished he had had while we were at a concert. I had doubts it would have any effect on me at all. I was also thinking of it like Salvia. it was only one. (Picture goes here-“Serpent Energy“) It took about an hour and a half before I started to notice anything. I saw one guy get put in the meat wagon the night before. as if I were looking into the Grand Canyon. they entered any room that was left open and searched it. As we walked to the show I confided in one of my new friends from the 46 . Then. Since my paranoia about the cops was getting to me. looking for anyone attempting to escape the reality of the Matrix. Smith agent from the movie the Matrix. and that I should do it an hour or two before going to the Disco Biscuits show I was to attend later that evening. It reminded me of when I was a kid walking up the stairs to a haunted house. my full attention would be locked on it for a good amount of time until I noticed that its surroundings were stretching a great distance. these things are illegal because they would challenge main stream religion. looking for illegal drugs. Then I laid on a bed while listening to a Shpongle CD in the back ground while talking to friends. Walking down the stairs was entertaining. It looked like eight flights down when in actuality.presented. Seven dollars is what I paid to get my single dose of LSD. your third eye. not knowing that the rule might be in place in order to keep the users from freeing their minds. focusing on whatever happened to be there. They reassured me that I was fine and that we would be going soon. As I spoke to some people at the entrance of the hotel. I patiently waited a bit longer until they were ready to go. While conversing with a new friend out on the catwalk of a hotel. many times more harmful to the human body. where I would need a quiet environment with nothing to disturb my visions. and turn people into peace loving individuals that would see no reason for wars. continuing to talk with my friends. My friend Devin told me it would be enough. I watched this for a moment until they began to fade away. so I knew they meant business. taking a moment here and there to notice if I could see anything with my eyes closed. I kept insisting that we leave for the show. The first thing I saw were a group of blue energy streaks falling down in the shape of a cylinder. below this emerged the outline of blue-glowing snakes that snapped both at me and at each other. So. Like Mr.

Rick Strassman’s DMT: The Spirit Molecule. the incidentally. I saw the bottom half that looked like a pine cone and both sides of the stage containing pine cone motifs.hotel. my black belt in karate. explaining to her how wild it seemed to be tripping. In addition. The mirrors affected my perception of the room. I also began to feel connected to everyone. why not? I had already seen evidence of Christianity possibly having started with the use of psilocybin mushrooms. It’s their 47 . which. I remembered seeing a painting of Jesus and four psilocybin mushrooms with green leaves. (In fact. many tribal societies in the world use psychedelics for initiation into adulthood and divination. and deeply happy I had made it that far. and with my new LSD vision. Getting my ticket felt like I had been handed a diploma for the psychedelic journeys I had been studying over the last year and a half. on as if we were all mentally in tune with one another.) I picked the best ones I could find. I read Dr. DMT. The pineal gland has the same shape as the pine cone. DMT is a psychoactive chemical that helps us dream and is produced when we are born and in large amounts just before we die. associate’s degree at Hudson Valley Community College. with the use of symbols? Is there a secret society or mystery religion that had put this whole thing together? Do secret societies use psychedelics to expand their consciousness? I mean. in which he shows the curious fascination the Catholic Church has for the pine cone symbol at the Vatican. I also watched “The 2012 Enigma. because they had been there the night before. but before I could play this visual game. and was moments away from getting my ticket. which were in the middle of the first floor about three quarters of the way back. It appeared to be in a tunnel. It appeared that the hidden genius of this image was the angel. I watched it sway back and forth in 3D. Once we were in view of the Calvin Theater. I don’t think anyone sat in their designated seats. winged pine cone of the “Spirit Molecule”. I felt excited. I had also seen this image in my college art history text book. or even my Eagle Globe and Anchor at my Marine Corps boot camp graduation. we linked up with our other friends who were already at the bar.” a video by David Wilcock. It felt like a protective shield of reassurance. Once in the first foyer I felt safe. I knew they were going to be there. did not correspond to the tickets. After examining it for a minute. I was confronted with so many new insights. but at the time thought nothing of it. I locked my arm with my new friend who knew what I was experiencing. my immediate concern was to get past the cops undetected. It felt more rewarding than getting my high school diploma. we headed to our seats. (Picture of “Spirit Molecule”) I sat down and instantly noticed something I had not seen the night before: a mural of an angel on the ceiling. I considered the question of why would this connection be displayed in plain view.gnosticmedia. Once we had passed the security check point. At www. that it made me wish I had a way of easily recording my thoughts. As we blended in with the crowd at the front door. yet interacting with this world at the same time. in which he discusses the connection between the pineal gland in the brain and DMT. when we saw the first show. Due to the poor lighting all I could make of this figure was its silhouette. I learned that our brain is capable of creating enough of this chemical to help us make the transition between the physical world and the spirit realm. I continued to look forward and away from the cops who were close behind us.

and the cold usually makes me have to urinate. It certainly had mine. colored green on my hands and knees on a floor made of green pulsating energy. Each color had its own frequency. as it stretched beyond my view. After about an hour and a half of non-stop playing. and loving every second of it. and had the choice of whichever spirit head I wanted for this life. Each face was different and I felt once again that I was in the Matrix. some of the crowd had to take breaks. stopping short in front of me. they got the best applause I have ever heard a band receive.religion. I also realized how much more I was enjoying the band this time. It made me feel as though the angel were commanding respect and attention. I first saw a photographic negative of a crowd of people standing and staring at me. I told Devin of my thoughts on this. from the viewpoint of its closest corner. I thought to myself. I closed my eyes for a couple of minutes and saw myself. this is a really good band to listen to while tripping as they played consistently for about two hours without the typical breaks other bands take. Without my noticing it. a large square rushed up. the vision faded into darkness. Under the glass like surface were copies of me doing the same thing. Within it were open square shelves housing what looked to be spirit heads that glowed blues and reds on their outlining features. After a brief moment of darkness. the band had gathered on the stage and the music had begun. I was able to understand and feel the music more easily than before. because it was cold on the way there. I looked down its length. The copies faded into infinity. and had his girlfriend take a picture of this angel mural for me with her cell phone. I. had no need for a break. (Picture of “Dimensional Matrix”) Just before the show started. making odd-shaped squares. The floor glowed outward for few feet around me. When the band finally ended their first session. The music that was playing supplied a beat. After seeing that. however. I sat and contemplated the image. Nothing could have been farther from the truth. (Picture of “Choose Your head”) While everyone made beelines straight to the bathrooms or the bar. while the rest of the face had a light green tint. The shelves themselves had a bright blue glow. leaving me believing that I am truly without an end. compared when I was drunk the night before. I was completely in tune with the musical vibrations they were producing. I could see they were playing the notes in sync with the colored lights shining on the stage. (pic “Spirit Meditation”) After a little more wandering around in the darkness of my mind. fully revealing the picture of the angel as a winged woman in a flowing dress. It looked like a Roman warrior beating a drum. I sat down to close my eyes and explore what other possibilities awaited deep within my mind. crisscrossing. This surprised me. It was beautiful. I stood like a statue. thanks to the LSD. White lines from behind and above the crowd shot out. and was unable to see its end. and it became translucent. Within these squares floated other people sitting in Indian style with their hands 48 . much less a bathroom trip. materialization formed. watching the band and probably did not appear to be enjoying it. I understood why people still went to the concerts even after they’ve gone sixty plus times. The lights came up. While everyone else was having a great time.

Once the vision faded. distorting the black and white squares. a vision manifested of what looked like a woman’s face. conscious energy. I tried to see if there was anything else LSD would show me. high-fives as they walked by him. enhancing our connectedness with our true selves. the eye sockets were tunnels into which the squares flowed. sitting Indian style. as if being electrocuted. If we connect with other people peacefully we vibrate more brightly. The face stretched out from an unseen source. (picture. The only thing I could gather from this image was that these people were in a meditative state of mind while watching the band. There were no ears or hair on her head. I thought perhaps the golden light color represented the way emotional energy is seen in the spirit world. and once back in our room I nestled up in my sleeping spot on the floor under a table. I eventually got up from under the table and relieved 49 . I stood there like a statue. without needing a break.together. a blue glowing person appeared. He seemed to be in convulsions of pain. and become as bright as you can. a golden ray of light vibrated out from where they connected. This time a figure emerged. Instead. With a blanket over me and my eyes closed. as if praying or meditating. I was able to last the second half of the show. in awe of their excellent performance. Only in the end did I break my trance to give the Disco Biscuits the sincerest applause I had ever given a band. So give your Buddha self a “high-five”. She did not have eyes. First I saw a flash of the concert. and she was devoid of a body. because black and white squares are considered to be one of the Freemasons symbols. Thinking about the last vision. giving a line of blue people. He was half man and half machine. While being in a Zen type focus until the end. (Picture “Masonic Woman”) The walk back to the hotel was fairly uneventful. “Do secret societies use psychedelics?” Who else would use symbols to show the importance of the pineal gland? Then. As their hands touched.“High-five’ Your Buddha”) Once again there was a period of thoughtless blackness before the next vision appeared. giving an excellent performance. Her red lips were closed. his body twisting and jolting. I suppose that it’s difficult to accept that our beliefs can actually be truth. I don’t believe that I am a machine underneath. about two hours. making her appear somewhat expressionless. Whatever I focused on kept me entertained before closing my eyes again. but I was getting to the nuts and bolts of who I really am. I felt as though the man represented me. (picture “Machine Within”) I opened my eyes and looked at the wallpaper as it moved and shifted in slow circles. trying to tear through the illusion of reality. Once the vision disappeared into blackness. The band was back in gear. covered with black and white squares. I was having a difficult time accepting what I imagined to be the truth and seeing what everything really is. Almost before I realized it. splitting the difference vertically in the middle. a program within an illusion. consisting primarily of glowing blue wires. and again thought. I began to think that perhaps the Freemasons were the ones responsible for the creation of the mural at the Theater.

As a red snake-like tongue emerged. Whatever is on your mind will play a significant part in your experience. 50 . He was having a difficult time getting her out of his mind. While driving home we discussed the night before. Then ask questions or ask to see things the second time. slithering in a seducing manner. Chapter 8 From Skeptic to Believer Since the beginning. I burrowed back underneath the table to try and get some sleep. Her turquoise eyes gazed deeply into mine. I laid there for a few more minutes before being sucked into a deep sleep. I noticed that her lips. I told him the things I was seeing could not be just mere hallucinations. my friend Skip would listen to what I had to say about my Salvia experiences with a healthy dose of skepticism. that what I was seeing and hearing was real. I told him I thought so. There was no way my brain was responsible for them. waiting for me to experience it. he decided to try it. I saw the art work of one of the Disco Biscuit fans on a poster representing all the band’s songs in the form of characters on a globe. and asked if I thought that there was energy focused where the sun was shining through the clouds on the mountains ahead. nails and snake tongue were red. One day he wished he could go back in time and talk to a girl he was once interested in. I didn’t understand where the blue skin and the snake tongue came from and what it meant. Four hours later Devin shook my leg to wake me up silently without disturbing the others so we could leave before the day was gone. After laying there for some time with a consistent. Her left hand reached to her mouth. rolled up my blanket and within a couple minutes we were out the door. but in a different frequency of perception. It was as if it was already there. Once the vision faded. entertaining form of distraction from the people in the room. Since the beginning he was not only a skeptic but was disinterested in even trying it. Once the artist left. but perhaps concentrations of energy are constantly moving. This time I was looking at a blue. while giving me a sly smile. except that I desired to be with a woman. It made me realize how much this band means to people. touching it with her index finger. He agreed. I sensed that the most profound revelation I had come to regarding the previous night was that physical life is the biggest trip of all. as it was already three in the morning. As we stared at each other I felt I were being drawn into a Medusa trap of lust. I was finally able to see one more vision before falling asleep.myself before mingling a bit with the after party crowd. yet distrusted her intent. Telling him all that I saw while on LSD. (picture “Serpent Woman”) The vision came before I even realized it. I had been telling him that the way to do Salvia for the first time is to clear your mind and see what happens. When he came out of the trip he told me what he had seen. I was attracted to her. I quietly put my shoes on. Quickly giving up. flowing to different areas of the earth. Eventually. I really had no idea what to make of it. naked woman who appeared to be laying down in the deep darkness with her head facing towards me.

I heard a woman’s voice say she had to slow down the time generator in order for me to be able to enter the future realm. Once the smoke filled my lungs. I kept ten-to-fifteen dried Salvia leaves under my tongue for about half an hour. but rather goes through us. The vision faded then changed. Once the voice stopped speaking the time generator slowed down. It gave him something to think about for the next few days and made him eager to try it again. I had not smoked Salvia. The experience may last longer by doing it this way. When I exhaled. spitting the saturated leaves out into a bowl and filled my pipe with the Salvia Zone Green Level. However. Only feeling slightly aware of the effects of the dried leaves. as he did not like inhaling the smoke. I told him I could buy a plant so he could chew fresh leaves the way it is traditionally done. just as there will always be two sides to everything that makes this place in our mind what it is. Back to the Search 42 st Time/Chewed on dry Salvia leaves first. It was somehow more real than this physical reality. One must learn through direct experience.finally concluding that there was no way what he saw was a mere hallucination. For months. manipulating the controls of my body. I drifted back from the larger body to where I could see a white-glowing cylinder going into the stomach region and out through the back. Both at the top and bottom of this sphere the lines converged to an unseen end. revealing a sphere of white lines rotating counter-clockwise. There I saw a smaller version of myself in my head. as I have not been searching for anything. I suspected that this represented my time-line and realized that everyone has his or her own time-line. I thought of how I wanted to be shown the key moments of my future. Its light reflected off me. but in a different way. There will always be two sides to a coin. but never stopped. Next. which is built on a dualistic code. There is no physical proof that these other realms exist. showing a red outline of myself. I saw myself in front of what looked like a sun with a hole in the middle of it. But might I ask. Its rotation was very fast. then smoked Salvia Zone Green Level/ “Spirit Time Travel Machine ” Sitting on my bed with nothing but a crack of light shining through the window. I gave up. I set the pipe aside and held on deeply to my demands. are thoughts real? You can’t see or hold them. Does this mean thoughts are not real? How about when you picture something in your imagination? Or when you have a dream? Just because people other than yourself cannot see whatever it is you see doesn’t make it any less real. I too have wanted to try this method for a long time but so far it had just been more convenient for me to smoke it. Each version of me was only revealed by the outline of his body which was blue and purple. Time does not surround us. does it? I guess that my attempt to convince the skeptics in this world might not only be futile but perhaps contrary to the programmed nature of this illusion itself. In the center of this sun was space but soon the stars started to race towards me as I 51 . I felt my spirit condense into my Pineal Gland. I began smoking it again after Skip inspired me with his experience regarding time-travel within the Salvia world.

I closed my eyes. I saw the taller figure bending down in front of the smaller one. I had never gotten a ticket and had committed no crimes except for using illegal entheogens. As I got closer to the planet I could see smoke around me. (show pictures of “To the Control Tower”. no matter how impossible it may sound. I knew I could smoke DMT and still have control of myself before smoking Salvia. and writing a taboo book may jeopardize all of that. Then there was a wave of yellow spirits running from left to right across the bottom. I had a great job resume. As many more thoughts came rushing through my mind. I felt in my life nothing else was as important as sharing my experiences. I took the other pipe and took a hit of 80x of Salvia. and how would I do this. My perception moved back from the circle. The truth of it is. I held it in longer than I thought possible before releasing it out into my bedroom. I had a perfect record. I wondered from what. wondering if it might cause problems for me. Once I had a decent amount of DMT in me. striving to survive? I felt connected to this planet more than ever before. “Time going through Me”. it would be like doing the Salvia while in a deep REM sleep.was blasted through a portal toward a different planet. focusing only on a single red circle. but the only DMT I had was some residue left on my pipe screen. I pondered whether or not I should get it published. holding hands and walking. and three green spirits held up those two. Besides. luminous column. I sat upright in my bed and rested my head on the wall. and “Holding up Earth”) 43 nd Time/Residue of DMT and Salvia 80x/ “All That Matters ” I wanted to try DMT and Salvia at the same time. and instantly felt that their relationship was mother 52 . I felt as if I had asked all I could in my pilgrimage and felt I had reached a resting point in my travels of self-discovery. as if I had been shot through a gun barrel. I also had a primal thought laying in the back of my mind: a wish to have a family of my own. As the vision faded. While watching the two walk. I then zoomed back in on the red circle and realized that there were two figures inside. and I smoked Salvia right after smoking DMT. With both pipes ready. I quickly erased them with a few deep breaths before smoking the DMT. “Time Generator”. Soon I realized the planet I was looking at was Earth. all my employers had had nothing but good things to say about me and would rehire me in an instant. an ordinary person might think I was incapable of holding a job. A blue spirit reached up and held the Earth over its head. Portal in Time”. At that point. There was a sparkling sphere enclosing the red circle. while two turquoise spirits held him up. I could feel the return of my spirit starting from my face all the way down to my right ankle. Will I do something environmentally? Spiritually? Even protect it from some sort of alien invasion? Will I be held up at earth. Because I had experienced all of these substances. If DMT is responsible for the visions we have when we dream. and came to rest on a light blue. and felt I must do whatever it takes to hold up Earth. with a slight hint of orange in the center of their being. After this vision I felt as though I would be one of those people saving the planet sometime in the future. and showing the world what I had seen. I sat on my bed thinking about what I should do concerning this book. They too were glowing red.

who formed a movement to take one minute of your day at 11:11am to meditate. Looking up with my eyes closed.and daughter. I was now vibrating with a high-intensity electrical love. (Picture: “True Blue” DMT-3N) I shifted my gaze deeper into the light. Nothing else mattered and nothing else existed. and when it is felt there is no symbol or word that can give anyone any true grasp of what it truly feels like. She looked like she was screaming but I was unable to hear her. and felt that these two figures were already a part of my life. I asked to send my thoughts of love out into the world. as they had 53 . I knew all I had to do at that point was to focus on my wish and blow the seeds of desire out into the world and wait for them to grow. bright light suspended in the darkness. sending out your positive vibrations into the world in hopes these vibrations might have a positive impact on mankind. As I sat there. I saw a small. They were the center of my attention. I turned my head from side to side. and saw a bright. then sat on my bed and let the first wave of DMT smoke enter my being. while all the colors of a person’s chakras radiated out. Once the smoke flowed out of my mouth. I saw a bright white orb shining in the center of a brightly colored red being. showed me yet again another way of seeing people as they truly are. Pure love is in a narrow bandwidth of energy. one cannot truly see. I wanted to see the difference from light to dark with my eyes shut. I focused on two dark forms that looked down at me as though I were laying on a table getting prepped for surgery. and to see them for what they truly are. A cool sensation in my stomach began to form and from there a purple light began to stream out. I was consumed with emotions of love and happiness. I got the notion that love is of the light and entirely absent in the dark. (Picture of “All that Matters”) 12 th Time/DMT/ “The Ra Connection ” I asked to be connected to the eleven-eleven people. At this point I should explain that my room is set up with the one window on my right and the dark wall on the left. My vision displayed brightly-colored red and yellow patterned circles swirling in every direction while a red snake slithered out from behind one of the red circles. Rotating around it were broken rings of blue light. (picture of “love frequency” DMT-3M) Once the vision of the love frequency faded. It reminded me of a thumb print. They informed me I was lucky. I could then see that the dark shapes that stood over me were Greys. red-glowing face of a woman being sucked into the light. I then noticed that they were inside a dandelion in its seed mode. (Picture: “Aura Projection” DMT-3P) I began to feel that I was attracting the attention of some other entity due to my current quest. constantly transforming while lifting up away from my body into a black void. I had another request of the DMT: to be shown what people truly look like. (Picture: “Vanishing Projection” DMT-3O) My third hit of the DMT. which was when I was shown what love looks like. When love is not used. I looked into the darkness to see what I could perceive. Within this purple light were black geometric shapes. I gently laid back down on my bed.

which talks about progressing to a higher spiritual plane. They then asked if there was anything else they could do for me. as I stayed completely motionless. but as I looked around. Three silhouetted figures which looked like Greys was superimposed on each of the three circles. I would remain in this world.extracted negative energy from my being. that my actions spoke louder than my words. A sphere of white light encircled by a black ring shone from the back of its head. I opened my eyes and felt quite baffled. I soon sensed that I was not going into this alternate dimension. My hand looked lifeless. it is downloaded into the universal consciousness. much less comprehend what it all was. (Picture “Spiritual Operation” DMT-3Q) I wondered if simply wanting to go to the next dimension was not a good enough reason to be accepted. I knew my loving energy was about to be plugged into the universal consciousness in order to download all of my memories. or even begin to grasp. First. I was thrown into RA’s Dimension to show me how correct this was. After some time I opened my eyes and saw my hand propped up on my bed sheets and heard the sound of cool air blowing through my window. what RA looked like. Then there came three circles in which millions of geometric shapes were moving about. I felt as if I had no choice in the matter. While lying there. I saw what looked like green glowing worms in tubes. I received no answers. transforming in endless ways. I thought I was able to make out glowing wires that may have been connected to it. I felt as if I were going to die. Although its surroundings were dim. as black. Once the DMT impacted my lungs I felt as if I had been slung back down onto my bed while being told. but the tubes themselves seemed alive. I felt like I was still fighting to stay. and my mother would be sad if I left. When we move on. 54 . “That’s it! That is what is needed to be harvested!” Right then and there I felt as if I was leaving my body. and going to a place of infinite love. So much was thrown at me that I was barely able to imagine. I looked down toward my feet and saw a blue human spirit standing motionless. a harvest of souls. which is a 6th dimensional entity discussed in the Law of One book. This image zoomed back and forth while all three circles rotated. I watched the second spirit get absorbed into a sphere of light in the wall. I then understood that our spirit body stores all the information accumulated in our lives. So I asked to see RA. but only in a physical sense. but it was too late. I packed my bowl one more time with DMT and thought I would like to send my loving energy throughout the world. geometric shapes morphosed over its surface. (Picture: “Nearly Harvested” DMT-3R) I developed a fear that I was actually leaving the physical plane. as did the rest of my body. I inquired if I was ready to be harvested into their dimension. I saw one blue spirit standing next to another that floated perpendicular to the ground about waist-high. I decided to drop my pursuit. as it was beyond my comprehension. The entity was right. I saw a beautiful swirling white star surrounded by different intensities of brightly red geometric patterns flowing around it. I was quickly told that I could not perceive. and had to insist that I wanted to stay. Before I could protest. I have so much more to accomplish in this life. I wanted to know because I had just finished reading Law of One: Book 1. Despite my pleas. therefore making it even more knowledgeable. I believe it was her more than anyone that kept me from letting go.

as I have only done a mild dose of LSD. This may not be accurate of course. I was pulled into a dark space. She was standing on a dirt path under a blue and sunny sky that faded into a crystal clear view of midnight stars. such as Salvia Divinorum. I was able to witness ways in which different levels of reality have an effect on one another. wearing an Egyptian head piece. which also had the same geometric squares and coloring. Last on my list would be Salvia. At least that’s the case with me. giving us different perspectives of the unending levels of reality.I realized why the world is the way it is. As quickly as the face came out. recognizing the differences between the two visions. I saw the back of a woman with shoulder length black hair wearing a yellow shirt and blue jeans. If I had been on my own I would have asked to finish my last vision. but are further undistinguishable from the rest of the Universe. one on each side. DMT. To conclude. it went back into the wall. It’s frightening to freely and completely give up the love of one’s self. but I was with some friends and it was their DMT. I believe if you take the right amount. and if I had a chance to do a larger one. Once completely in the wall. to be a part of the DMT realm. We hold on to our egos tightly. As the smoke transported me. we are no longer what we picture ourselves to be. Suddenly I was flying backwards. Third would be LSD. I told them it was great. why it’s not filled to the brim with love. my vision began to fade as I flew through the colors of pink. because to me. while the woman was a part of the Salvia world. I was drawn into a space behind me. The spinning geometric shapes gave motion to the woman’s movements. From the top of its head came two snakes. It seemed to me that this is what is required to move on to the next dimension. but I did not want to 55 . because not only do I get visuals. while at the same time letting go of your ego. I then formulated my theory of the substances I’ve used. I descended to another realm. Once the woman reached the third window. I dropped through a window and into a sort of factory. give your unconditional love without asking for anything in return. The whole face moved out towards me. I opened my eyes. you can experience the source of all creation with shrooms. I think different entheogens can tune us into different frequencies. because your thoughts carry you to denser visions. with purple geometric shapes surrounding the three windows that gave me a view of the woman running on the dirt path. After these experiments. because we imagine that they are what makes us who we are. helping you perceive a different level of reality. 13 th Time/DMT and Salvia 10x/ “Quantum Jump ” I asked to quantum jump into a parallel reality. bringing a block of the wall with it. purple. my views might change within that level. From there. I considered the Egyptian face. I was able to figure this out through my experiences with both Salvia and DMT. The face was covered in geometric squares in a constant state of fluctuation. it seemed less dense and is filled with more light. I saw a grey face. and blue before entering total darkness. Once we lose our layers of ego. The next level down would be DMT. Shrooms. it occurred to me that the DMT realm is the foundation of the Salvia realm. The walls were mostly pink in color. not mine. and LSD. but I can also hear things in this realm much clearer than the others. along with the pink factory. and watched the face move away from me. amazed at what had just transpired. with the right question. Each can tune you to a different frequency.

I felt I had learned what I needed to learn. First. 44 th Time /Salvia/ “ Let ’s Go ” 56 . we realized that we had indeed seen each other. The ship had a small window. the journey was all I needed. or had not understood what he said. while Hana sat and watched. I jokingly said. but still tried to focus on my intent to see him. My two friends looked at me dumbfounded. projecting its small flame as it turned slowly towards me. I noticed there was a purple and blue version of it in front of the red one. I no longer need faith of the afterlife. I stared at James until he came back from his journey. Once again it was proved to me that these other realms are real. James gave his account on what he had seen. They liked the idea. thinking of what we should try to focus on during our trip. passing the same version of the snake heads at even intervals. They told me he had seen the same thing as I did. my two friends James and Hana offered me the chance to do DMT one more time. I then gave him my account. and to do it with one of them at the same time. That fact really got my attention. and even though I did not get to go where I wanted to go. I asked what the look was for. as if it was preparing to eat me. for the most part. Their heads were. as I did not want to use the rest of their DMT. In the midst of the tentacles flew a small white ship. After watching for a while the vision began to fade into fewer and fewer vibrations of light.smoke anymore. 14 th Time /DMT/ “See You On The Dark Side Of The Moon ” Half an hour after doing my Quantum jump. I sensed that I was not going to see James on this journey. We immediately started joking about how we did not even come close to seeing one another. So. because she had thought of this herself when we were talking in the kitchen. but Hana was baffled. he was the ship in my vision and I was in human form. A brightly glowing red snake’s head came into view. I told them I think you can go pretty much anywhere with entheogens as long as you ask first. But then I thought what if I kept my eyes closed. speechless as the realization of what had happened engulfed us. and reminded me of babusca dolls. passing by red colored balls. Its mouth was open. very circular. Before lighting up. but after talking a bit longer. We sat for a while. After several minutes I proposed that we try to meet on the other side. I was pulled backwards into a dark tunnel. I looked to my right and came out of the tunnel. “I’ll see you on the dark side of the moon. Plus. I saw a creature that was orange in color with flaring tentacles. just not in the form we had thought. I had been colored blue with some traces of pink. We sat for a while. James and I prepared our pipes. but looked in his direction? I tried this just to determine if that were all I needed to do in order to see him. It turned out. I agreed. I had seen myself in a blue-pink color. Either I did not hear him correctly at first. I have had the experience and know it to be real. Once back to this reality. guided along by a silver rod. and a blue stripe running along its side. and ended up in the midst of the orange tentacle creature. In one of my Salvia experiences when I asked to see myself face to face. James also told me he was in a tunnel.” After a few deep breaths I lit my way beyond my understanding. but with tentacles for legs.

We sat outside on his back deck and listened to some music. I put the pipe on the coffee table and took one last look at Oscar sitting on the couch across from me before I closed my eyes. Al made some shroom tea. Once again Salvia had shown me it’s incredible power. 57 . “Everything has to be. That is to show other peoples intentions and possibly even their thoughts. I also wanted to connect with nature. I opened my eyes as I realized that our spirits have no definitive edge to them . I began to feel as if they were a Magic Eye mirage slowly waving a message to me. The ability to See takes a great deal of mental discipline in order to cease all thoughts. I closed my eyes and immediately saw a kaleidoscope of reds. After about thirty or forty minutes a peripheral vibe began to draw my attention. I had always wanted to do shrooms out in the woods.One day I was teaching my friend Oscar how to smoke Salvia. it was to See everything as it truly is: pure energy. I thought of a question about my artwork and took a hit. thinking perhaps he would get a better idea of how to do it by watching me. which he found to be fascinating. I decided to do some myself. and then only after two years of practice. thus allowing one to See. It looked like a DMT trip I once had. I realized that the spirits were not only showing me where my friend was. For me. I gathered my things as we talked briefly of his experience. and Al told me that he gained that ability through meditation. I knew he had one. and yellows. The spirits began pushing themselves into the shape of a square. They were vibrating out their energy in oranges and yellows. as this was the first time he had ever smoked anything. but during my first two uses. now. The vibrations of music change our energetic state. melding into one color with each other. Several red silhouettes in human form came walking toward me. while telling me.” noting my impatience. But he wanted to be completely finished with it before his wife came home. while also noticing that I was not going as deep as I had the last time I did shrooms. now.our energy blends with the energy around us. reality loses its form and essence. This particular session showed me one more thing I can add to my list of possibilities with Salvia. So. While sipping and nibbling at the tea we talked about our intent for this particular session. He looked at me with a big grin on his face and said. temporarily changing the color of the spirits. The smoke left me as the red spirits came. “Let’s go!” I was consumed by a feeling of needing to leave in haste. Doubts ran through my mind regarding the chances of my getting to See today. I opened my eyes and saw Oscar standing a couple feet in front of me with the window behind him. now. which seemed to come more easily as all the distracting thoughts had been blown away. Without thought. I told Al of my new realization. oranges. For this shroom experience I wanted to let go of all expectations and see where it would lead me. Both of us had about five or six small caps a piece. Although Al hadn’t openly stated his plan. I had been living in a city where there wasn’t any woods for miles. 45 th Time/ Shroom Tea-Salvia 10x/ “Vibration Connection ” At nine o’clock in the morning. Staring up at the trees. but also of his intentions. After watching him go through some halfway successful attempts. Purple waves of energy vibrated from the music. It was also taking a long time to reach my peak. I started to meditate. as I took a couple of deep breaths. I could tell by his facial expression that he was anxious to wrap up the session.

When he seemed done. I twirled around like a dog chasing its tail. he told me the lyrics to the song we were listening to. I told him. I re-packed my pipe and took a second hit. that perhaps shrooms makes Salvia inactive. When running backwards I was able to stop myself before hitting the trees. and wondering what it could be. He showed me the contents inside: Cannabis. Once I circled the tree I kept my eyes to the right. a location in between some pine trees he had picked out for me two years earlier. Al followed me.” I felt an even higher level of peace within me that acted like a protective shield from my fear of the unknown. I had learned that it takes away your sense of balance. while moving my 58 . He told me he was not in control but assured me that I knew where I was going. I just hope someday he shows them to me. I felt a presence behind me. who was sitting nearby. Once we reached my power spot. A phantom force began to push me deeper into the woods. grassy clearing and widened my stance as the smoke flowed through me. to see if I could smoke it while standing up. Not only was I amazed at my new ability to do this with such ease. seeming to know what was going on. with the palms of my hands feeling its energy. I told Al. he showed me a pipe I had never seen before. After three long hits with no results. but nevertheless I began to giggle uncontrollably. particularly on my left side. below me. “There is peace above me. I inquired what it was. It was small enough to fit in the palm of his hand and looked like a golden crown with a black tube attached. waiting for the right moment to lay down his whole hand. but rather a force that keeps everything together. I was about to try and stand while smoking. he got to his knees and closed his eyes. When I asked to see what it was. I had an urge to test myself against the Salvia. As the CD called Life for Rent by Dido kept playing. telling me that what I’m sensing is my Ally.He was right. so I gathered my pipe and some Green Level of Salvia Zone. leaving me feeling unguided and lost. When Al came back we talked about smoking salvia in the woods. I know he’s holding on to many more cards. but each time we meet he reveals more of them to me. I moved around the tree with my back still to it. He told me it was not a spirit. I told Al how amazed I was that I didn’t fall down and I was actually walking while in the Salvia trance. Once I settled down. “Look! I can walk just as easy backwards as I can forwards!” It indeed felt just as natural to walk backwards. Saliva and he would not let me fall. becoming entranced. Al went inside to take a shower. I stood a few feet away. void of any thoughts. Nevertheless. but I was able to feel the energy of the trees as I got closer to them. I was walking forward and backward within my power spot at great speeds. preparing my bowl. as it did forwards. Before I knew it. He stood up while I smoked with a clear mind. realizing their wisdom. and this time something happened. and all around. After running backwards several times towards the edge of my power spot I turned my back towards a single tree. I asked him if he was doing this and where I was going. I stood in a small. without looking. I will admit sometimes I give too much credit to Al’s abilities. As we walked to the woods I saw that he was carrying something in his hand. Al got up and stood beside me. I paid close attention to her lyrics. I looked back and saw attached to my back a black shadow with purple highlights. He reminded me that I was good friends with Mr. I sat on the bench as I watched him smoke his bowl. I told him I would do Salvia even though I had nothing to ask. to my power spot. At that point I began to get an urge to run through the woods. From previous experiences with Salvia.

in place. sticks. as he entered into a realm I was unable to perceive. 59 . but nevertheless. which consisted of only a few remaining flakes. The only down side that I could see was that you’d better not find anything funny. I decided to smoke Salvia instead. I suppose. as it gives you more energy. only lasting a few seconds before having to stop for air. and just let it take me where it wanted. but I was getting no results. Again. etc …) . and was amazed to see that it was taking me through a hallway of trees. picking my knees up to my chest with my hands configured in the shape of a gun. I then asked if he could. zigzagging through the woods until I finally stopped about 75 yards away from Al. and takes away hunger. I just felt a pull of energy guiding me until I saw trees encompassing my view. He remarked that when he walked to it he could feel a barrier. I told Al to forget the shrooms and smoke Salvia instead. I told him I could see how that could be true. I looked at the trees around me and realized that I was not gasping for air. I linked up with Al and we discussed the energy I had. gives you great night vision. Weed.” a technique taught by Don Juan in the Carlos Castaneda books. I had no questions for it at the moment. as I had earlier. Later in the evening we smoked the rest of our shrooms. Pot. We took that as our cue to go back inside as the night fell upon us. Once he returned. and bushes. I had tried that same type of run before. I did not trust my new sense yet. After this we started to head back. So. once I did Cannabis my writing became more poetic. he began to tell me that he had gone to a place where a woman was sitting at a high judge’s seat telling us to go back. he does have the ability to feel the energy of nature. I did not know why I was walking to the left. I flowed over jagged rocks. I saw a slew of red spirits flowing in multiple directions. Marijuana. Another amazing thing was I did not twist my ankle. without directly saying it. While jumping down over a small ledge I felt so light. He told me shrooms were once used for hunting. increases your hearing. He said that Buddhists actually have that ability. otherwise you would be laughing your ass off. Chapter 9 Cannabis (Queen Tetra. it was correct. Al was getting a good buzz off it. He didn’t answer until a few days later when I told him there was a square pattern laid out in the grass in my power spot.The 5 th Entheogen Distinguish the difference in my writing. He took a hit of the Salvia and left me for several minutes.body to the left. Hemp. with no guidance from me. I told him to imagine if you could feel the energy of plants all the time. to run in a certain way that enables you to maneuver effortlessly through the woods at night. and was in no way tired. I dashed off the trail. The need came over me to test my “gate of power. they can’t give any. I stopped to see where it was leading me.

I reached the side of a hill and dropped to my knees before laying down. numbing me in the process. I made it about ten feet before laughing myself to a near stop. After five minutes of debating with myself. A heavy weight of calmness and relaxation glued me to my chair. Happy Green.” as it prescribed me a pill called “I’m Laid back and Chillin’. They stared me down with one eye as I burst into laughter and tried to push myself out of the house without falling into their shit. After eating my banana gun. I finally reached the chicken fence and threw no more than five blades of grass in. I stood up and pranced around. as a mysterious noise came from across the road. my banana gun was on the ready while making my patrol. Reclining back. the birds seemed to have chosen the sides with the noise and started to squawk at my presence. I began to roll around with outstretched hands holding the egg above my head. 60 . Meanwhile. They told me to let go of my fear and look up at the trees above. feet kicked up. They were perturbed and wanted revenge for the meager dinner I had given them. I let go of all judgments. I named it “Dr.” as I was there to take their eggs.” The phone rang with a chore in mind to pick some grass for the birds. but that didn’t work. oranges. eyelids shut. The download was complete. as I was experiencing a considerable amount of compulsive laughter. I was a perturbed bird on patrol. Thank God I was able to get out of there without bird poop on my face. While a comfortable pressure built up in my head. I noticed the birds coming towards me. I felt a scan of my body as a warm tingling line made its way up to my head. A merging of realities became a beautiful display. After reaching the bottom of the hill I went back up without any effort. hunting grass to feed some birds. I told them to be quiet. leaving none unrecognizable. and reds. But the danger wasn’t over yet. The power of my mind either created or deciphered the shape of the passing clouds. Only after a tank of laughing gas had escaped me was I able to be free of their spell. signifying my understanding of the beautiful gift that Queen Tetra had bestowed upon me. During this. only to be captivated by my new perspective. The anxiety was released through popping my ears. I grabbed an egg at the far end of the coup while bracing myself with my left arm against the far wall. bleaching out the world in yellows. I resorted to running like a bat out of hell. I took a bite of yogurt and realized that my habits have been very rigid and conformed. I sat back up to take a look around.Queen Tetra (Cannabis)/ “I ’m Laid Back and Chillin ” It took only four good hits of the Queen Tetra (Cannabis) to propel me through the veil. After one and a half rotations I was stopped by some bushes that seemed to have a lesson to teach me. Nature held a new fascination with me as I stared at a line of clouds passing over the horizon of trees. Sun rays penetrated my awareness. so that I was hearing only the tweeting of birds. I listened to Nirvana. I ran to the other side of the bird house to hide. I opened the bird door with my finger and pointed like a gun telling the hens to “Freeze. The ethic of being is productive. as there is only one true judge: me. The fire in my chest was extinguished by consumption of hummus and chips. I gazed at the blowing leaves and saw blue diamond sparkles shining through the cracks. Then the spectacular thought game played out in my mind. but debilitating to my stress meter. I felt like I was being rolled around in a circle by invisible hands. My entire life I have always sat and finished whatever task I was performing before moving on to the next. I became peace.

Lessons started to come from multiple spirits. The part that I did not know was what the meaning of the two twirling symbols flanking either side of it was. the gateway to this world. Whereas on top. enticing me to step on them. I spiraled inward to the center of my being. you are alone but your view is far grander. while the other is a symbol of darkness. After three successful passes of a tree branch coming within inches of my head without looking. turning out bits of illusion with my thoughts. an emergence of consciousness. I asked the spirit of all things to create a children’s puzzle game that would be called life. molding the holo deck of life. Next. It seems as though desires are the fuel to thoughts. a crime dog by the name of Scruff McGruff. and thoughts create words. so relaxed. so smooth. I walked backwards over the circle I had created in the grass. if we dream of angels when we sleep. assembled like a machine in a factory. one after the other. I was taken inside my own mind and watched railroad tracks impossibly switching tracks at 90 degrees. does that mean angels dream of us when they sleep? Does that mean we are all dead or are we simultaneously “dreaming” and awake? My thoughts transitioned to the power of words. Life is like a tree. Next came a spirits reply. thanking it for its gift. If you are one of the leaves on the bottom. (Insert pic of the Archway) On my way to my next class I looked at a tree stump that showed me the answer to a riddle I did not know existed. I gained an understanding of how memories are linked to one another. But. From there. I lay on my trampoline with my eyes focused on the trees while thoughts whispered in my mind. I gave it a kiss on the lips. I walked up to the blue diamond tree and found its face. The tree stump told me that one is the symbol of the infinite light. So I wondered. but you can see so much farther from the top. to climb my way to the top. One such thought was that I don’t want to be alone. and so cool that my Mojo could put any girl into an instant trance of desire. each representing the golden ratio. This class was over as I headed to yet another classroom. I strolled through the yard with a twirl here or there while sniffing a flower with delight. I too am a made-up character. I sat back down on the deck and felt like the Pink Panther. “Yes. three lower branches waved at me. discovering life is an infinite tree. Each tree is forever and becomes a new tree an infinite number of times. The first part was the pine cone used as decoration over many doorways as a symbol of the Pineal Gland. linking me to new concepts. I let go of my childhood hero from the fourth grade. So where do desires come from? This question leads me to the conclusion that we are preprogrammed before coming into this life. you are surrounded by other leaves blocking your view. they vibrate a harmonic tone that puts things into 61 . I realized that my old step was all about the destination and not about the journey. When the words are spoken.” I agreed but did not care. because I am already where I need to be. Magic surrounds words. knowing he was no more real or truthful than Santa Clause.My gate of power activated as I stood up. The first one told me there is no direction for me to go. where do the words come from? Do they come from thoughts or desires? I suppose you have to desire something in order to give it thought.

the darkness hid many frightening creatures. I returned back to the first floor where a group of people huddled over the man I had pushed away earlier. yet I still felt the Iboga spirit would be the one doing the I told him that for the first time in my life I finally experienced a true high.” The use of substances is a two way street: either you control it or it controls you. he told me I had trained my mind to the point where it was getting easier for me to communicate with spirits. such as gambling. First. Intent overrides your beliefs and guides you like a fixed set of train tracks. This made me realize that no matter what. I said my only standing conviction of its effects is that you can’t do anything while using it. He told me I was not ready for it until now. I was in a shower room that looked like it was part of an ancient palace and it was huge. as I had never seen anyone get to the level I had achieved. I told Al that the lady I was going to meet at the Mexican airport to do an Iboga trip with had canceled due to illness. I turned to run up a flight of stairs. The whole next day I still felt ultra-chilled and relaxed. and all is nothing. By the way. but when I meet the Iboga spirit we will be equals. Queen Tetra was his reply. for I had smoked Cannabis before without getting to the nirvana state I had reached today.The 6 th Entheogen The night before the flight I dreamed of my right hand. I have control over myself and my intentions. He reminded me that one can become addicted to anything. 62 . I never knew Cannabis could be used in such a way. as it sounds like a derogatory name for something I perceived to be so wonderful. where I was walking rather hastily through a shopping mall. Passing a crowd of people. as its main psychoactive compound is Tetrahydrocannabinol and the plant you smoke is the female because it has most of the THC. This world we are in needs help. He said the Iboga spirit was not ready to meet her. So I asked him what he calls it. After telling him of my communication with spirits and my reactivation of my gate of power. Only by the third day did my old rusted self-merge back into my body. It was a wonderful feeling. not me. please? Later that night I talked to Al about my experience. where is cloud 10. He replied. His message made me feel worthy of the Iboga spirit. The reason he smokes Queen Tetra is to communicate with spirits and nature. I was looking for something but I didn’t know what. The time and place changed to the present. Once I reached the second floor. batting a person out of my way and throwing him to the ground like a rag doll. “Only if you let it. so it’s time to find who is doing the programming of words and fire them before I float away to cloud 9. because all is one. He reminded me that the most important factor in using any substance is your intention. I said I don’t like calling it weed or pot.Revealing My Whole Life . Chapter 10 Iboga Journey .

uneventful. While doing this. everything turned to a black consciousness of awakening. Once my backpack was cleared. After showing them my passport and confirming I was not bringing more than ten thousand dollars to Mexico. I walked through a crowd of people watching the disembarking passengers coming off the plane. Round trip from NY to Mexico City cost me $623. Going through Albany International Airport was nothing short of getting strip-searched. I was allowed to go. I told her that they think I’m Quatzequatel. as my relief had turned into excitement. A flight stewardess gave me some customs papers to fill out before reaching the Mexico airport. I noticed my hand looked like that of a reptile. three police officers waited to question passengers about how much money they have on them while the drug-sniffing canine sat a few feet away. I gave the clerk a copy of the address where I was going. My flights were for the most part. No matter. in case you bought anything in Mexico and wanted to bring it back to the states. a green light lit up a clear plastic screen with a walking person etched into it. I’m surprised they didn’t make me do a hand-stand. destination. I was finally on my way to Mexico. the sign was small and out of the way.Convulsions of death rattled his breathing. I got off the plane in Mexico and followed the crowd of passengers to the first check point. After two months of preparing my mind for Iboga and saving enough money to purchase it. After getting my ticket scanned at the Houston airport. There. My mother was shopping and as I approached her. but when I finally got to it. and length of visit. which must have been from the Deep Horizon oil spill. for I was one step closer. The crowd was in shock and began to pursue me as I ran away from them. I pulled off a mask I had not seen the front of. I walked down a long hallway looking for a taxi and ended up in a parking lot. I entered the hallway leading up to the plane. They also wanted to know the cost of each item. On the form they asked for your name. There were a couple of money exchanges open where I was able to convert my money. passport #. After agreeing to the cost. I was able to see several patches of brown-liquid spots floating on the water. another security officer told me to push a red button. I walked up to a taxi. I quickly forgot about it and approached the taxies again. unexpectedly. She told me that I had to go back the way I had come and that there would be a sign saying “Authorized Taxi” to my left. As I put my hand over his chest I consumed his soul through my hand. I heard a woman speaking English on my way down and asked her if she knew where the taxies were. I had my passport stamped and walked through another set of doors leading to the baggage claim.98. Simple enough. but was stopped by a man who redirected me to a booth where I had to pay in advance. Only then was I allowed to go through the last set of doors that led to a huge foyer. I began to wonder if that meant I would be changing taxies on the way there. Since I already had my small backpack with me.500. There was also a space for purchased items. he printed me four tickets. He typed away as he showed me that it would be 1500 pesos. I saw a sign that read “Foreigners” where I split off from the main group. I went to where an airport security person told me to put my bag on the conveyer belt as I walked through a metal detector. Before she answered me. so they could tax you for it later. It was green with long fingers and sharp black fingernails. 63 . When flying over the gulf. while the Iboga experience was $1. It was no wonder I had missed it the first time.

First I pointed to my finger saying that I couldn’t eat meat and made the gesture of throwing up. which turned out to be quite good. wondering where the hell the driver was. Once in town the taxi drivers GPS was actually asking the locals where my destination was every so many wrong turns. Volkswagen beetle cars and graffiti artwork that should have been on display. I picked out what looked like potatoes and bread with bottled water to drink. The view opened up to a small city laying in the depths of a foggy heat. I was happy to have spent the extra money on a taxi rather than the buses. We parked in front of several closely packed restaurant stalls. I could eat one of those sandwiches every day and probably never get sick of them. I thought for sure we were going to need a tow truck. and some made-up sign language. After talking to ten or so locals. I sat in the back seat for what seemed like ten minutes. as the guy who would be giving me the Iboga said not to eat meat or cheese for three days prior to use. I paid for the both of us before we went on our way. flying at 90 miles-per-hour. passing several broken-down buses. the taxi driver was served two chicken Cascade’s. I quickly joined them by laughing at my own show. We made 64 . I instantly knew I was going to enjoy this ride. incoherent conversation consisting of nods and smiles. The taxi driver started to drive closer to the house as the car dipped over some steps. I got out and thanked him with two hundred pesos. while the taxi driver had a coca cola. I began using my made-up sign language. When I stepped out. and he was off. I tried telling him to stop beforehand but it was too late. I tried to explain to the driver why I was in Mexico through my made up sign language. My fears vanished quickly with the comforting thought that there was a force guiding me there. while I was served a potato sandwich. I wondered whether or not I would ever see the Iboga man. When the driver got in. I did the same and followed him to the front. We drove on to the outskirts of my final destination. In the end. The only problem was that I didn’t speak any Spanish and he didn’t speak English. the driver was washing his hands in a bowl of water. I shook hands with Barry and received a kiss on the cheek from Veronica. Speeding over the mountains of Mexico. We drove through the city where I saw many playgrounds. however. I began to wish that I had printed a map of my destination along with bringing my own mechanical GPS. Once I realized that the cooks in the kitchen did not understand any English. Nevertheless we had an interesting. he motioned me to sit up front with him to have a better view. whatever that may include. We left the city and headed south. I think all he got out of it was that I was here to eat some food that will make me crazy. the driver asked if I wanted to stop to eat and I agreed. that I would fulfill my destiny. The buses that were running seemed to have had broken rear shocks. The food and the kitchens were out front. making them tilt upward as if they were getting ready to blast off into outer space. I finally reached my destination.this time I got into one. He also said that I should eat lightly. Minutes later. Luckily he was able to drive back over the steps. We looked to see what they had to eat while the owners offered to make me a chicken Cascade. But what really got them laughing was when I tried to explain this by biting my finger. I went to the bathroom only to find the toilet did not flush. I tried to explain to them that I could not eat meat. The first clue that we were at the right place was a truck with a Vermont license plate.

and Barry and I talked in the candlelight. I had seen the spirits holding onto my spirit. We talked for a few minutes comparing the States to Mexico. At the same time. nothing happened to her for a long time. but never specified which ones. but nevertheless it was what she was doing now. with three hammocks and a table with four chairs. I told her how I thought it was some sort of omen to her to heal the pain of others. and the state of the world. I fell in love with the place instantly and wished I could live there myself. the natural energy is suppressed by the power grid of greed and confusion. her age dissolved away as her enthusiasm enriched her story. After dropping off my bag and grabbing my graphic art pictures that are a representation of what I’ve seen on psychedelics. Now I know my purpose in this life is to show people the realm that exists beyond our five senses. He told me those who write for fame and money don’t do as well as those who write for the love of producing literature. This realization came when I thanked the Salvia for all it had done for me. Once I began to accumulate numerous pages. our backgrounds. A flash of lightning lit the window through my closed eyelids and revealed several small aliens standing at the foot of my bed. so I would throw her a question every now and then. which seemed to bring out an aura of enthusiasm in them. Eventually she left. He told me he was from Philadelphia and had been in Mexico for two months and loved every minute of it. it was like a force I couldn’t stop until it was done. In Philly. I headed back to the front of the house where Veronica was preparing some Peyote medicine. He was one of the helpers of the Iboga Quest. which had shown a hint of greed. She told me that while on shrooms. and it wasn’t until she went swimming that she was able to connect to the most beautiful extraordinary visions she had ever seen. my purpose for writing about my experiences was due to David Wilcock’s advice to those who want to remember their dreams by writing them down. a thunder storm flashed its approach. Barry mentioned he was once a part of a publishing agency and could help me with it. and lived just yards down the road. she felt the pain and suffering of her friends. It also provided me with a path to help remember where I had been.small talk before Barry showed me his beautiful home and the room I would be staying in. guiding me through my entire journey. in whatever form she could. I showed both Barry and Veronica my pictures. After she finished the bottle of Peyote she handed it to me to smell. When we began to talk about my book. I told her it could be used as such. I feel as though there are entities that want this information shared and are helping me to make it happen. I told him that originally. in my thoughts. Barry led me to his back yard which was nearly the size of a football field. This angered her and she became impatient. I needed to rid myself of it in order to succeed. She told me it’s a great medicine that can help with many illnesses. Veronica was 65 . By eleven o’clock we finished our conversation and I went to my room. guiding me in a straight line so I would not walk in circles. Veronica seemed bored at times. Mexico won on the virtue of the peaceful energy the place had for him. I saw that it was becoming a book. We sat at the table and talked about philosophy. A white man came up to the house carrying a load of laundry and Barry introduced him to me as Alexi. I thanked Barry for making me look back at my own intentions. She was not so sure about that. Silently. Within a half hour. In these other realms. While she told me about her first shroom experience. it smelled like perfume.

that place had a lot of energy. I laid down on a hammock for a couple of hours prior to the ceremony to gather my thoughts and get some rest. I talked to Alexi in Barry’s living room for a few hours before the ceremony. I sat at the table in the back yard and took my first pill with some fresh ginger tea Veronica had prepared for me earlier. He also told me that the dosage is 16mg per one pound of body weight. east. one containing an MOA inhibitor and the other carrying DMT. and then that the flower was for me. as all are equally important. I soon fell asleep to the sound of the high winds of the storm. so it would be good if is already cleansed. Alexi told me about a group of people called the “Brother Hood of the B. He told me how to decalcify my Pineal Gland by either staying in a dark room for five days. south. walking toward me with a large white flower in her hands. west. At this point Barry told me I should go lay down on my bed and in forty minutes he would be in to give me my second dose. the six of us walked further into the back yard with their dog. While we all spaced ourselves a few feet apart. cleansing it with the smoke. From behind me came a girl I hadn’t met yet. I felt as if we were calling the attention of all the surrounding spirits. demonstrating that pets had to be present for this particular ceremony.” They travel the world experiencing different psychedelics. This would also be a good diet to try before doing Ayahuasca. repeating the same process until all six directions had been acknowledged. She headed back to the table and covered the dog and the cat with the smoke as well. I shook hands with the girl as she told me her name. the sky above. I thanked her as she sat across from me with the blossom still in her hands. He told me about some books I should read. I weigh 160 pounds. She explained it would help with the nausea.” by Emil Gadliardi and Melanie Schreiber. height. and my memory of her presence was one of the best gifts I had ever received. which nearly made me laugh out loud. and the earth below. Next to her was the man Barry and I had helped move to his new home earlier in the day. I thought of all the things I wanted to accomplish during the session: stop being 66 . which equaled to 1. Veronica came to me with her smoking jar and went over my entire body with the smoke. Once Veronica had come out of the house holding her cat. Alexi and I talked for a while about the way in which I would be taking the pills. It was the first time someone had given me a gift without physically handing it to me. weight and age on it. By 6:30 pm. Ayahuasca tea makes one purge. including In Search of the Miraculous and Don Juan Papers by Richard de Mille. I had an apple for breakfast the day of the ceremony and some fresh mango for lunch. After one full breath of the horn. As Barry came to my right side he quickly told me of the six directions: north. we turned to face each direction. and then did the same for the other four people. I stopped drinking water at 2:30pm so I would not be interrupted as frequently by bathroom trips while on Iboga. or by following a special diet consisting of brown rice with lemon juice and basil leaves. the Iboga pills were taped to an index card with my name. then it was her turn to have Barry do it to her.right. a psychedelic mixture of two plants. Barry and Veronica went to my room. eating no sugar or salts for four days. Laying down on the bed I could hear the group talking outside. so I put on my head phones and selected the song “Detaching from the World. No entity was left out.1 grams dispersed in the five pills. She put her cat in the tree. Barry blew into his sea shell horn and Alexi shook his sea shell rattle.

acquire the power to control this reality. as I knew I would not have another opportunity to experience this particular substance. Lesson two was an egg-shaped grid. I began to hear a ringing noise. A metallic buzzing noise that sounded like a mechanical bee filled the entire room. Five pills in and the real ride had begun. The faces eventually stopped. I took the forth pill and asked Veronica what caused the flashing I was seeing on the walls.negative. reaching into my third eye. I took off my headphones and realized that the ringing was coming from within me. searching and prepping me. a gray alien was using some sort of rod to numb my jaw. I became numb. A line of energy covered my body. scanning. spinning around in the void. Above me was a spinning. Barry came in with my second dose of two pills while asking me how I was feeling I told him I was fine. Blue ripples formed in the blackness. I flew past the moon. and felt as if my acupuncture points were energized. heading for the Earth before realizing my final destination was surgery. I knew it was not of this realm. These and many more wishes lingered in my mind as I waited for the threshold to open. while the Iboga’s effects squeezed the water out of my pores. My reasons for being there were addressed at an extremely fast pace in a series of dream-like images. as I thought perhaps they had some sort of strobe light outside. but my entire body felt like it was going to be puked up by something. My eyes felt like they were being massaged by invisible hands. let go of fear. which housed small television screens that captured scenes of all the moments 67 . without my even having to think about it. see my future. One vision was of my mother waving goodbye to me as a young child going to school: I never figured out what the true meaning of that was. Seeing myself laid out on a table while my blue spirit-shell was removed from my body. I pierced the blue grid and saw a bright white orb in the center shooting out lightning bolts to the inner walls. At the same time a vortex of energy swirled between my eyes. Forty minutes later. find my soul mate. but when Veronica came in with my third dose. Barry came in to offer me my final dose. and I told him I felt better and wanted to take the last pill. I laid back down as she left the room and began to feel nauseous. I not only felt like throwing up. meet the Iboga spirit. I told myself I had better pay attention to what I would see. I threw up in the plastic bowl that was sitting on the night stand next to the bed. leaving a new image of a bug being held by the limbs by an unknown force. She told me it was the medicine and that mother Iboga is a gentle but hard mother and said I would be fine. To my right. watched its own limbs being torn apart one by one. transfigure my mind to be in sync with my wishes. The thought of a black hole in the center of my being came to me. throwing some to the side. It’s cartoon-looking face seemed terrified as it. circular light that made a buzzing sound. Sometime after taking the second dose. and to see things as they really are. opening up into a tunnel of purple rings and threw me into space. I left them off and paid closer attention to the noise. That environment faded to darkness as a series of frightening black and white faces flew at me with incredible speed. It was rearranging photos. My sympathy went into overdrive as did the ringing in my ears. At first I thought there was a bug in the room. Barry came in. and then called out to the baby monitor. It collapsed in on itself and sucked me into another realm. Towards my feet stood another gray alien looking at pictures on what looked like a light wall for viewing x-rays. which I refused for the moment.

without any of us consciously knowing about it. This happened one more time. Once I was standing. but I enjoyed Barry’s method as well. Any time a negative thought came to me. dreaming of my freedom from the attachment of a certain individual. One was of me standing with a book in one hand with my wife and child in the other. I was time traveling. The final image was the one I was able to look at the longest . I knew this would be one of the happiest moments in my life. I started to think of all the life changes that I wanted to make once I returned home. something I had let go of many years ago because of a woman. That night. It was a wonderful feeling. I would go inside the screen to become a part of the environment. I now felt like I could love anyone. It was at that moment I finally understood why there is suffering in this world. I only told him it had been well worth it for me.that of myself in a coffin as an old man. Dream-like images of different times in my life appeared as a movie. as they had all been answered by the Iboga. Once in the bathroom. as it showed me what I had in me to walk on my own. My request to be in control of reality was answered by showing me the way focused attention can give us the power to call into creation the world in which we live. This procedure was easier for me. While I skittered over the ground. I finally dozed off for a bit before processing all the information I had learned. Twenty-four hours later. I looked around the room and found it empty and dark. stopping only when I thought of something positive. I threw up again within minutes. Her technique for helping me was to stand in front of me while I held on to her shoulders. Whenever I felt like entering. My second assisted bathroom run was with Veronica. I looked at Veronica as she asked how I was doing. I threw up in the sink while peeing in the toilet. Once I made my mind up to leave the bathroom. I slept very well. The next morning I had my first real meal in five days: oatmeal. All my questions had vanished as well. Barry told me to move as slowly as I could to avoid getting nauseous. and couldn’t wait to start. Later in the evening I got to participate in his ceremony. Barry stood behind me. placing his hands under my arm pits as I walked with my hands out for balance. I flipped through the pages of my entire life but only a few images stuck with me. For the next twelve hours I lay in bed sipping water a little bit at a time while going over what had transpired. only to find my eyes were closed and my head was on a my life. it took quite a bit longer for me to actually do it. it pulsated in the flickering candle light. (Iboga Pictures (#2) go here) Going to the bathroom was extremely difficult. which scares us. I talked to a new arrival for a bit and learned he was there for his methadone addiction. my ears would ring. as I did not want to spoil it for him. The only explanation I could think of to describe this was that their spirit was checking up on me. I could feel that I had regained my emotion of love. Five minutes or more seemed to be the walking duration for a twenty-foot trip to the bathroom. While I was eating. I went to the front of the house where there was a table and began to eat some crackers at a slow pace. After the first eight hours or so of throwing up and receiving intense lessons. but also through the brainwashing of the Marines. We exist on the edge of consciousness that projects out into the void of the unknown. except it was with Barry. I felt like I had to take a shit but I knew I was constipated. I did not say anything else. As I got up. 68 . Once back in bed.

telling him if they didn’t get the treatment. which turned out to be really refreshing. After getting what he needed. you give yourself a chance to make up a new story. I finished my meal. I bid her goodnight. getting ready for the hike up Tepoztlan. However.Barry asked me if I had a feeling of clarity. Peter and Alexi went to take care of some things. they would still be full. which was expanding Ibogaquest. washed my dishes. He told me people were calling him. Before finishing up our meals. talking about the nature of reality while Veronica made quesadillas for us. She told me that plants choose people. as the next day I would be going hiking early in the morning. just watching your thoughts. in effect. Even though I felt great. I asked if she had ever taken Iboga. She helps to bring the body and spirit back I sat back down at the table and talked to Veronica in the dark of the night. I had Guacamole soup and lime juice. just like the student will meet their teacher when they are ready to be saved from their ignorance. The struggle is that there are more people in need than there are clinics. I asked if he would mind if I mentioned his name in my book. and then were joined by one of his friends who produces documentaries of different cultures. but there were so many people desiring this service. I told him I had heard only of thirty or forty clinics. I was very much at peace with my thoughts. Thus far. Even if they had one of these clinics in every state of every country. filled my two water bottles. another one of Barry’s friends ran into us. as part of an after treatment process. She said it leads you to realize how your thoughts are replaying the same story in your head that. they were going to die. and did some writing in my room. I had not realized it. He did not care either way. as it doesn’t mix well with Iboga. that it was hard for him to say no. She told me about a Cougar meditation practice she had done where you sit in a dark room for nine days. I felt as if I had been meditating for years. a woman in her mid-forties who practices holistic medicine. The other reason he had wanted to keep his treatment facility small was because he was retired and did not need the money. This surprised me because it was just eight hours ago that he did the Iboga. and made some noise. It was after her first time that a message came to her to provide treatment for other people with Iboga. The cell phone alarm buzzed at 7:30am. That evening I sat with Alexi and Peter. I helped Barry haul some groceries in the canvas bags that he had brought. He had wanted to keep it small. There are other people to help you with the sanitary/food logistics. Barry introduced us and told me she was one of the people he suggests for those who have used Iboga. and how appreciative they were after. Around eleven o’clock Barry and I walked into town. After eating Veronica’s wonderful food and washing the dishes. we stopped for lunch. We talked briefly about the town’s history. creates your unchanging life. I asked her what the benefit would be in doing this. By doing this. I agreed to see her anyway. I can say I have been one of the lucky few to be saved by Iboga. transformed without even realizing it. The 69 . He told me I should stay away from grapefruit for a couple of days. but he was already being steered toward a path he had not anticipated. in the world but no more than that. She said yes. it felt good for him to see people transformed for the better after the treatment. and we spoke of many things. Our walk back was pleasant. I got dressed. but. waking up Alexi. He had bought some fresh food to bring back. Peter was already awake. which took about thirty minutes.

Standing there on the windy. By the time we got back. The higher I climbed. Half way down the roots broke and I twirled a couple of times before dropping to the ground. We quickly exchanged stories while looking for a taxi back to Barry’s. It was a far better view. There was no conflict within me anymore. Most of the hike up was stone steps. and after taking a couple of pictures I headed back down at a running pace. After another ten minutes of hiking. I looked at my overall surroundings and figured I would just keep going up to see where it would lead. A cloud of dirt rained down on me. Given the three drops. I felt that I had finally won a battle in my mind that had raged for as long as I could remember. he was probably painting a sign not to go the way I went. I decided to head straight to it. and to my right I could see where I had gone before. grassy top. I left Alexi behind. Alexi told me that I was lucky to get past the one Mexican at the pyramid without paying. After walking around a bit we ended up eating in the center of the market place where we all managed to eat for less than four dollars. dirty and a bit shaken from the adrenalin. You bust your butt getting up to the pyramid. I had to get moving. I was thirty-eight minutes late and the massage lady had 70 . and handed him my extra water bottle. A couple of blocks from the base I saw them waiting for me. I had a massage appointment and if I were going to make it in time. I had seen a man sitting at the front of the pyramid with a radio in front of him. and I still wanted to see the pyramid up close. The first two I was able to spider-man climb down. I breathed in the air while watching three eagles riding the same currents of air. and thought of the book I was reading at the time called The Eagle’s Gift by Carlos Castaneda. We were a quarter of the way up when Alexi and I left Peter to his slow pace. The food was better than most restaurants in the States. I was at peace. I say seemed because at one point I looked back toward the city and saw the pyramid to my left farther down the mountain. only to find out that you can’t see it unless you have money. the more I noticed there were several paths that all seemed to head in the same general direction. each ranging from fifteen to twenty feet. I now know why a Mexican who was painting the rock looked at me funny. Alexi said the man probably did not bother with me because I was all dirty. apparently charging people to see the pyramid. but the last one I had to use some small roots to climb onto a ledge to my right. The pyramid was not that spectacular. I thanked the eagles for the view before looking for a way down. I did not want to go back the way I had come. It was a poor setup. I eventually got above and behind the pyramid. I hooked around the hill and started to make my way down a small ravine that was certainly off the beaten path. as it would take too long. At the base. I felt as if somehow the eagles soaring above me provided the wonderful view.three of us walked to the main road where we caught a cab to the center of town to get some breakfast. No matter. I looked to my left and saw the stairs leading up to the pyramid. The walk to the base of the mountain was all cobblestone. Once I reached the souvenir shops. there were several stands selling souvenirs. Relief came back to me as I found the hiking path. I was scraped up. I came to three drops. I bought a couple of things before continuing my search for Peter and Alexi. I was excited to know I was not going to die on that mountain and that I got to see the pyramid up close.

she charged me 500 Pesos and I tipped her with an extra 200 Pesos. The contents of the list included. she asked me about myself. I felt somewhat better. After talking to the owner. We were there to see whether Peter would want to stay here for the remainder of his stay. I left with one of the massage ladies who walked with me to get a taxi and told the driver in Spanish where I was going. and the rash started from my boot rubbing on my toe. she sat across from me and explained what it is she does: EFT or Emotional Freedom Technique. especially when she addressed my fear of being shot in the head while I was in Haiti. The Genie in Your Genes. After the owner showed Peter his room. and the owner came back. along with a full cabinet of bottled medicine.soundstrue. I took a shower and got into some fresh clothes. www. Barry. and always feeling a need to be ready for an attack. she looked in her homeopathic book to find a medicine for the rash on my foot. not feeling good enough for others and myself. She saw my enthusiasm and wrote down a few things I should check Meanwhile. I inquired what specifically she wanted to know. I looked at a book called Osho Zen Tarot: The Transcendent game of Zen by Osho Zen. After she had addressed each one of these issues. By one o’clock Barry had dropped me off at the Doctor’s clinic. as Barry had more people arriving and would no longer have a room for him. After thanking her. which was very insightful. Barry was getting ready to go on a little road trip with Veronica and Peter. Belendez’s office and noticed she had a Reiki table set up. I thanked her as the driver left her in the rearview mirror. 71 . She wanted to know of any traumatic events that had occurred in my life and if there were any emotional baggage I might be carrying with me. letting go of an old crush. riding in the back of his pickup. Barry told me we could reschedule it for the next day. Once we arrived at our destination. and The Vortex by Ester & Jerry Hicks. www. I felt a significant pressure lift off my chest. I had never truly realized what an emotional burden that had been on me for nearly six years.already left. Once she finished with the EFT. This is the tapping of certain points on the body while repeating a positive message relating to any existing emotional problems one has. we talked a bit more while Barry told Peter he could come back to the Iboga house during the day. I told her I was into holistic medicine and began to ask her all sorts of questions. he agreed to spend the rest of his stay there. along with the rest of the facility. Later I found out it was eczema. leaving me feeling like a new person.hartmath. I found out that we were in a place designed for spiritual I walked into Ms. As soon as I got back to the Iboga house. In my case. Exactly what she did I still did not know but Barry ensured me that it would be well worth it. Peter had one more night he would be able to stay at Barry’s. Barry invited me to come along so I joined them. Barry pointed out to us the pool and sweat house that belonged to his friend. When Peter. Peter and I both sat in the back making small talk as we drove through the furnace-like air of Mexico. therefore releasing the negative thoughts trapped in the energetic body. She gave me a small bottle containing the energetic memory of arsenic. As we sat down. she focused on my fear of losing my friend in the Marines to gunfire. After telling her a few things. although I was already scheduled for another appointment with the homeopathic doctor. my fear of getting shot in the head. as a taxi ride would be very cheap. which I had acquired in Haiti from walking in sewer water.

Joy said she had experienced out-of-body episodes via meditation. Peter. Once she partook of the potion. Typically Barry was able to house a person for only five nights. Once you have passed the Iboga treatment. she said she had been healed in too many ways to tell us. Joy walked away to go speak to Barry. she flew to the center of the universe in an out-of-body experience. enabling his clients to keep in close contact with him. The five of us faded into the night as we reached the house. the masseur making sure I was here for the appointment. she watched a shaman manipulate light like a blanket. and as she worked. There were moments I wished the massage would never end. I agreed and brought them out for her to see. I had experienced the healing power of Iboga. Barry had been able to find places very close to the Iboga house. and also for missing the appointment the day before. The five of us piled into a taxi in search of another place to eat. I ordered fish that came with the head still attached. Barry and Veronica were up front holding hands while I walked with Peter and Alexi in the rear. It wasn’t until the end of the meal that Barry insisted paying for everybody. When I got my watch and saw the time. I felt magnetized to the table. going as far as outside of her house. Barry asked if I would show Joy my pictures. Joy and I then talked about the spirit realm. I was anxious to go home and try out my new state of being. She saw spirits of three different heights during her flight. Yet when she went to Peru to participate in an Ayahuasca ceremony. Time had disappeared within my state of nirvana. I woke up to a phone ringing and looked at my watch. When she arrived. I stayed six nights just as Barry had encouraged me to do. The war within me was over. Once back at the Iboga house. She said 500 Pesos but I gave her 700 for a job well done. As we walked. and had told myself I no longer needed 72 . It took considerable effort for me to get up. so I knew it was Joy. Hearing Alexi talking to Peter I thought about how different I felt. I took a quick shower and went to the front of the house to wait for Joy. how at peace I was with myself. Alexi joined in and we walked to a restaurant a few blocks away. When it did end. only to find that it was closed.Peter had planned a two-week trip. and I would have to go. Barry decided to take all of us out to eat. Although too sick and weak to move upon her return. in case they had other questions or concerns. you only need an extra day or two to get yourself together. and ended at a seafood restaurant with a good view of the surrounding mountains. but Barry and Veronica had a shrimp soup that I quickly decided I had to have. In my case. I walked over to Joy and asked how much I owed her. He said he was not in the business to make money but to change people’s lives. within myself in order to find her. I realized over two hours had passed. It read 8:40am. leaving me with one last desire-a soul mate. I realized this was the first outdoor massage I’d ever had. In addition. since there were those who had decided to stay for a couple of months. Peter helped carry her table to the back yard. Joy started with me. and my life was one of them. Between the skillful massage and hearing the birds chirping. We decided to walk back since we were only about a half hour away. This was the reason behind Barry’s efforts to find other places nearby to house more Iboga patients. I was in a state of complete bliss. which was alright. any longer and it would cut into other visitors chances to see him for an Iboga treatment. But where to find her? Later on I realized that looking outside of myself was getting me nowhere.

and after about two hours of walking I finally thought I had made it. As we examined my pictures. I walked around the block. Thanking Barry and Veronica for all they had done for me. I had a bad feeling about drinking the water. as neither one of us spoke the same language. He told me he did the Iboga to help stop his alcoholism and drunk driving. Veronica gave me one last kiss on her fingers. This time there were cushions to soften the bumpy roads ahead. only to be told it was a university. A new guy. After driving me to my hotel. rekindled my interest. Her story however. I packed myself into an SUV full of art work. surrounded by the symbol of infinity. and reassuring Barry my book would have nothing but positive things to say about my experience in Mexico. I told him I had seen many things and perhaps the reason he had not seen much was because Barry changes the amount of different psychoactive chemicals for drug dependent people versus those who are doing it for psycho-spiritual purposes. Down in his office he gave me some maps of the city. as I boarded the bus. but figured “What the hell?” Finishing my meal. After some small talk. After several minutes we were able find my room where I dropped off my stuff. She made some suggestions and I was on my way. ordered a chicken quesadilla and a lime juice although they messed up my order and I got lemonade instead. I started talking with the man in the passenger seat. blowing me her love from the other side of the vehicle. I was able to get a free ride back with one of Barry’s Iboga patients who live in Mexico city. getting a bite to eat was first on my agenda. I found the restaurant. As we got closer to Mexico City he started to tell me what we were passing as if he were a professional tour guide. As it was three o’clock in the afternoon and I had not yet eaten. Peter particularly liked an illustration of a blue spirit-man. Once we arrived where Peter would be staying for the next week. Upon speaking to her. I shook hands with Joy and bid her farewell. I was able to get a couple of group pictures in before jumping into the back of Barry’s truck. then went inside where he introduced me to his family. Alexi had told me there are about twelve different psychoactive chemicals in Iboga. which was funny. I knew at this point that I had to get these pictures copy-righted and finish my book as soon as possible. who had endured the Iboga treatment. he 73 . Barry told me and Peter to get ready as we would be leaving do psychedelics. I asked if she knew of any good places nearby to eat. I noticed an American girl reading in a library across from my room. a white light coming out of him. A man who spoke English overheard what I was looking for and guided me to a bus stop where. Then the driver rolled us down the dirt hill. Once we arrived at his house I helped him unload his car. Peter. I tried to give him some money but he refused. I walked into hotel Casa de Los Amigos and spoke to the clerk. and I sat in the back while Barry drove with Veronica at his side. He felt better now. but was disappointed in the lack of visions while in the Iboga state. getting some land marks in my mind to help find my way back to the hotel before venturing further out. showing me where I would be staying and the location of the National Museum of Anthropology. not a museum. I searched for the Museum. and took a picture of it so he could duplicate it in a tattoo when he returned home. Fifteen minutes or so into our conversation. I discovered she was part of the Justice of Economics Organization. feeling it would be a successful venture.

which is then projected into an unconscious void where we experience an overwhelming fear of what mysteries may lay beyond. which was about lucid dreaming. while receiving the clarity of love. I told him I had not done any entheogens since my Iboga experience. While cruising in the back seat of the taxi the next morning. it had begun to rain. I felt complete. and with this new inspiration. After what seemed like miles of aimless trekking. I miraculously found my small hotel. I received a call from my friend Bob who. I felt a million times more calm and relaxed: my mind was at peace. I was able to see just about everything before they closed. When I got my ticket and asked where the Mayan calendar was. unknowingly.The 7 th Entheogen After my Iboga trip. At the same time.told the driver where I wanted to go. I arrived at the bus stop only to find the buses were jam packed with people. so I decided to walk back to the hotel. which supposedly alerts you when you enter REM sleep but did not work for me. I put it in my back pack and had them put my bag under the plane. I also bought books on the subject. revealing the setting sun. He responded by telling me 74 . My thoughts focused on many things as the plane flew over the clouds. I was able to sense things before they happened. I thought to myself how mysterious and magical the last week had been for me. I had let go of my attachments to negative thoughts. Walking rapidly. so I paid ten dollars to have it wrapped in plastic. I was grateful for all that I had experienced in Mexico. I started meditating on a more consistent basis and found an even deeper sense of peace. While flying above the smog of Mexico City. I looked at all the passing buildings. It had been such a transformation. feeling that it might be near closing time. leaving me in a state of extreme thankfulness. The major question that had been with me for six years had finally been answered: why is there suffering? Iboga showed me it is because we are a projection of our own consciousness. Lesson learned. furthered my entheogenic experience. After about three months. a lady pointed on my brochure to the far end of the museum. The only thing left for me to do in Mexico City was to get a taxi the next morning to go to the airport. and purchased a Dream Mask. the lemonade began to give me diarrhea. I went to see the movie Inception. and had no desire to do so. About four months after the Iboga experience. Chapter 11 Spice (JWH-018) . Arriving at the museum. In the middle of the night. By the time I left the museum. The only hitch at the airport was the fact that I could not carry a souvenir on the plane that had an arrowhead on it. as I no longer had the time to devote to it properly. I started to keep a dream journal. I began to lose focus with the meditation. I walked quickly to the entrance. feeling empty and alone.

I walked to the entryway which. than Kush (a potent strain of Cannabis) and was so excited. leaving the left to flow in the currents of the right. He was surprised. I sold him half of my three grams and left. showing me the chemical structure of what I had just smoked. I felt that I was not in control. “It sucked. I slowed down. I certainly wasn’t expecting anything like this.” I picked up three grams of Chill Spice. I told myself to calm down. they seemed normal. His friend arrived shortly after he made the call. synthetic marijuana called K2 or Spice. if not better. My local smoke shop said they had the Spice but not the K2 because. but everything written about it was rather vague. I still decided to hold off for later. because he said it was all over the news. and saw a golden pattern of DNA trailing from my hands. The pace picked up again. encasing me in a state of bliss. I called my friend and told him I got the Spice and would be right over to let him try it. I left the bathroom. he opened it and took a sniff. and then went to relieve my bladder. that I was an experienced person in regards to the use of psychedelics. Warm vibrational pulses emanated from my quickening heartbeat. however. Eternity reigned. within a minute. Immediately after leaving the store. My arms stretched out in front of me. As soon as I was done zipping my fly. Once I got home. find information on the chemical used to make it. After over an hour. but I wanted to have it that day. I smoked a bowl. and started to worry a bit as to what was going to happen next. My right hand was the leader. I wondered out loud as to what was going on. including myself. he lit up and took his first hit. but as I still had errands to do by car. revealing a round molecule revolving in the dark space of my third eye. My eye lids closed like an automatic garage door. I was everything and nothing at the same time. After packing his bowl to the brim. which I had never heard of. turned into an invisible whirlpool spinning me in one spot. while my fingers rode the waves of the passing air. I mentioned it was funny he was telling me about this now. Then the light was sucked away from my awareness and my spinning body 75 . to my eyes. and that I would make it through the experience. as I had been looking for an alternative to drinking in social situations. I felt an encompassing warm pressure swallowing me into itself from behind. I could feel the energy of my spirit-self going beyond my physical form. My friend encouraged me to try some with them. and paid seventy-eight dollars. After our conversation. yet at the same time told me they were experiencing a really good high. JWH-018. Once there. He said it smelled like strawberry bubble gum. the Kronic Hypnotic type. and started by taking small cautious hits. After a few minutes of rapid spinning. I did. turned into white light.about a legal. He demonstrated to me that his motor skills were unimpaired. I said I would wait until I got home. and after a few seconds everything. eyes closed. reassuring myself. I looked up everything I could find on the internet about K2 and Spice. He said that it was as good. he called one of his friends to come over and try some. and were still able to see the outlines of the house. opened my eyes. Nevertheless. and he said he would buy some from me if I were successful in my search. Fifteen minutes later he was experiencing the best high he had ever known. I wondered if they sold something like that at my local smoke shop. twice the amount one would pay to get it off the internet.

With difficulty I pulled myself out of the vortex. I was surprised I didn’t feel dizzy or sick.3 As I came back to myself I saw that it was getting close to five o’clock and knew that I had to get to my room before everybody came home. The year 2012 had hit me and I knew it. everything became formless. 3 Look up 2012 Enigma by David Wilcock on YouTube. Piercing my fading head. stopped myself from spinning and staggered into my room. I had to know that nothing was really there. along with my bed. I still felt the etheric forces of the vortex pushing me like I was in a strong current of water. I saw myself from about three feet above. As my speed increased. warped as if I were looking at myself on a reflective metal ball.began to slow down. 2012 76 . As I closed in on for his belief of what might happen to us on Dec. Once there. Eventually I was able to anchor myself to my bed by placing my arms and head on it while standing. I had to let go of my fear. I looked at a small white speck on my blanket. 21st. realizing that in order to do that. my body. and my vision was sucked into a void that led me to the center of the universe. but still knew I had to stop myself. I repeated this entire series of events several more times before I shut off my light to crawl onto my bed. I started to spin again. as the enlightenment was mine. I tried to slow myself down as I was bumping into things in my small cluttered room. I saw the universe and its center. Closing my door and turning on the light. After spinning for what seemed like ten minutes. I no longer bumped into anything.

I could feel voltage flowing through my veins. positive and negative electrons spinning around consciousness. I’m actually just talking to myself. One shaft projected a blue male spirit. the vision faded. while I talk to other people. It hit me. leaving only the orb of light. projecting a human-like blue wire frame. seven times. before concluding that there is something else for me to discover about myself. an orb of light appeared. we become the master key. each representing one of the seven main chakra points. The first was how each of these entheogenic chemicals is merely a symbol of a key to unlock the doors of illusion. I had been shown how I was projected. After a few laps around the orb. a door unlocked to open to another door. the higher the intensity the more I believe one learns. shooting out of me in a light blue blaze as it branched out like the roots of a tree. leaving my mouth very dry. a red female spirit separated from the original black form. 77 . and explained the same thing again. Each man and door was a different color. As the excess energy dissipated. While these thoughts faded away. I saw that the heart had formed into the shape of a person. the projections by-passed the spirit forms to become actually human. electricity surged out into my veins. All is one. leaving a gold streak in the darkness from their bodies. shooting out beyond my body. the intensity of which faded as my third eye showed me my thoughts.Instantly I felt the energy from my magnetic mattress pad hitting me like little cattle prods. which opened to another. I began to feel the electricity in my body rise. and everything is a projection from one’s self. Next. which began to form itself over the wire frame. The orb then shot out two shafts of illumination that spiraled clockwise in opposite directions. As the heart throbbed. leading to the Universal Consciousness. However. not the ones who mumble to themselves in the streets? There is only the inner self. A vision of an electrical heart pumping out blue bolts of energy appeared in the center of my darkness. and how to go back to my true self. The intensity of the trip was obviously quite high. Each vision was smaller than the one preceding and they all ended at a ball of light. Does that imply that those of us who talk to other people are the truly crazy ones. Seconds later. that I knew all there was to know. turning around to the right. That’s all there really is. Arriving at our moment of enlightenment. The black form then projected a blue male spirit out in front. I envisioned this as a man unlocking a door with a key. That vision then turned into a solid black form. flattened out like a sheet of paper. turned to the left. The whole experience lasted for about two hours. facing the black form. I pictured this as one man holding all the Chakra colors within him. this being repeated seven times. and so on into infinity. Still. I felt as if there was nothing else for me to learn. Just before the image had completely wrapped itself over the human-frame it vanished. Which would lead me into the bottomless pit of the infinite mysteries of life. From that particular experience. leaving their colors streaking out behind them. The two copies of myself then projected two more copies of a male and a female. In its place radiated an orb of light. until I could assimilate all of this knowledge. I knew that this was only true for the time being. From the darkness came the image of a person. This blue spirit explained to me what I really was. while the other was of a red female spirit: both were running. while the empty space went from black to white in the shape of an upside-down pyramid with a missing cap stone.

no interest in hurting or killing others. We also pondered as to how there could be a beginning without an end. (Consciousness Dream pic) Funky Monkey-XXXX My friend found the right level of JWH-018 in what is called Funky Monkey-XXXX. The simplest answer I can give is that consciousness. (Perhaps that’s why the military and the police forces don’t want to enlist people who enjoy getting high. As I 78 . of an infinite amount of possibilities instantaneously and forever. After some time.) As we headed upstairs. He said he wished he knew where it came from. Months later I dreamt of a spark of radiant light projecting out the spirit form of a brain. the more elusive the answer seemed to be. as they know Cannabis users have. Bob wanted to play a computer game. in his opinion of the Spice. I had no motivation for playing a killing game. subconsciously or consciously trekking on a daily basis. They suspect these people won’t have the right mentality for military service. the last color. which we are all on anyway.99. I told him the one thing I hate about video games is when they are loading. as a rule. I realized he was right and the longer I thought about it. so I watched him start one. Starting with violet. playing a shooting game doesn’t make any sense. whereas if I’d been drinking. The answer remains under lock and key. and then told him that I believe consciousness is everywhere. He told me that it is one level lower. This continued through all the chakra colors until it reached red. To explain it any further would lead one on an endless journey. As we headed back to his place he convinced me to try it at his house. and that the answer would somehow expose some deep. he gave me a shot at Call of Duty 4. I finally found the gentle high I had been looking for as I don’t care much for drinking. then another brain of the next lower chakra color projected out towards me. which put me on all fours laughing for a good five minutes.(all of the pics for spice go here) Where Does Consciousness Come From? (Dream) My friend Mason once asked me. giving them a quick shake. As we took about four hits each. space and time just are. When I woke up I felt that I had been shown the way consciousness projects the illusion. that where it actually comes from is another story. things would not have been anywhere near as much fun. as the universe goes on into infinity without an end. “Where does consciousness come from?” I thought for a moment. the crown chakra color. but was unable to decipher the mysterious brilliance of its origins. I found simple things to be ridiculously funny on the Funky Monkey. and as it was loading. He replied that was only a description. my friend pointed out his cat and made sure I noticed it was licking it’s ass. We both laughed as I said he could look at that in two ways. deep within us. That it is a ball of energetic information projecting itself from within. We went to a smoke shop where I bought four grams of it for $24. leaving me to feel he had been pondering that question for quite some time. This image lingered for a moment longer in my third eye before vanishing. the gentle vibrations flowed up the sides of my neck pouring out over my head before reaching my eyes. hidden pain for him. and when I’m high.

I took a look around. I did not use this method as much because I soon found the Vaporizer and the candy to be my preferred way. As for the candy. After two-and-a-half hours I felt that the first major leg was over and felt safe enough to drive to Wal-Mart. I found a small portion of candy to be useful for concentration. even in one session my thoughts would jump from one idea to the next and so I thought it would be better to present my thoughts in this manner. The high was mostly a head high. In total. As I was waiting in line. Also.regained composure I told him I really had to get going. did not burn my throat while inhaling. and made my mind race with ideas. because the antibodies in my body would be fighting off the carcinogens from the burnt Cannabis and the smoke was. harsher. Creative thoughts swam around in my mind on the drive home. All I could see were price signs on everything. This section will be about my Queen Tetra experiences. The Vaporizer gave me more energy. the high comes on slowly. with bliss that is. The store lighting made me feel dead and mute. I would not typically feel the effects until an hour and a half later. the first two-and-half hours was the peak. I found my alternative to alcohol. It was pouring when I arrived. Chapter 12 Queen Tetra (Cannabis or what it is commonly called Marijuana) Experiences for One Year There are three ways I have consumed Cannabis Sativa and each gives you a different type of high. It wasn’t until I ran in the rain back to my car that I felt alive again. but very enjoyable high. This type of high was evenly distributed throughout my body and was less of a head high. The first way is smoking it with a pipe. I felt every time I buy something I’m taking points off my soul. and allowing me to say whatever I want and feel great about it. The recipe for the candy given to me by a dear friend is at the end of this chapter. · You’ve got to let out all your hidden personalities to be free. Note: This is now illegal as of November 2010. so I ran in and realized I had a lot of energy. and to be 79 . So here’s my mind on Cannabis: · The Queen has many mysteries to show you. When I smoked the used up Cannabis from the vaporizer. I realized the Funky Monkey loosens the screws of my rigid. I am going to give you my experiences through bullets because over the course of seven months my notes got jumbled around and were not concise. leaving about another two-and-half hours of just feeling chilled. Most of these experiences were recorded while I was high or what I like to call loaded. to be green. conformed ways. I filled my arms with stuff and proceeded to the check out. the burn was not as bad and I found it to be a less intense. · Fear is conquered through understanding. With the pipe I found myself with less energy.

The character Norm equals normal and Grace equals gentle. (Note: even 80 . It reminded me of what a DMT or Ayahuasca trip looks like. The Queen lets the subconscious on out to play for a while. (Pic of “I’m the pyramid”) The desire to live forever occupied my mind for a while until I thought. A bird can eat a whole tree in one bite. so just get in them man. Besides. I paint my life with my eyes. I could tell you what it is all about. what now do you have to tell me about the world beyond my mind. I will be smokin that shit tomorrow. when this happens he is illuminated and has one hand facing up and one facing down. is covered by little white flower life forms. but infinity is downright terrifying. My consciousness is who we are. Building illuminations and enjoying your imagination. and open up your mind. So I’m going to be pulsing my shockwave of love to the world. It will walk you around until you say good bye. Turn on your power. Watch the deleted scene called Dreamhunt which show Jake’s real challenge to becoming part of the tribe. why such an attachment to an illusion anyway? I am an alien saving Earth with my higher dimensionality. So how about forgetting what you’ve been taught and find out for yourself what you’ve been without. That’s why it can fly. Then it will show you that you are divine. but it’s the only way for all of us to find some sanity. My drill instructor was my fear.· · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · high. Being Loaded with Queen Tetra is like putting on X-ray glasses to view propaganda. You are aware of your download. For if you can figure out how to do the impossible you will soar without a doubt. My soul is who I am. My heart is my love. It’s all vibrations. We play this game of cat and mouse. the music sounds like some occult chant. (Pic of “Flower of Life”) Watching Avatar while loaded (high): Tree of Souls equals psychedelics and outsiders are forbidden to par-take. In the beginning of the movie Jake. You can see how phony it is and that’s why corporations don’t like it. Listen to the background music when Jake first meets the mother shaman. As time goes on there are more possibilities. symbolizing what’s above. It’s my reality. It will give you a ticket for a try. not knowing what it’s all about. Tato Tomato tatata. Then you let the trip take you into its infinity. but you would not believe me without a doubt. is also below. You are going to let this spirit have a ride. death is scary. Love and fear are constantly chasing each other’s tails. Mystical smoke. You’ve got to get all your little spirits out to play with your body to be happy. The trip was beyond my rationality. It’s a spiritual kata that you must use to defeat fear (dancing on the Cannabis while listening to music). Note:The Queen shows you the deeper meaning in things you see.

(Pic of “The Universal Flower”) My mind imprisons me. And perhaps the Illuminati are a psychedelic society. They offered me fame and 81 . aliens. Psychedelics crack open your consciousness. Once the waves calmed. Sweating with defeat. I began to flow with the music of the solitary night. feeling its residual energy going through my mind. so I must go beyond it to be free of it. The movie “Walk Hard the Dewey Cox Story” is so deep that I can’t see the end. the true intentions of these two spirits came to light. When I asked how it was they had come to me. I laid on my bed and before I knew it I began to talk to my hands. I had eaten some Queen Tetra Candy a few hours earlier. light. Time expands like ripples in a pond. Darkness is trying to swallow me. death is a walk in the park. That God is energy and energy is everything. revealing the very seed of what you are. drugs and much more. The band intelligently plays the music of the universe for us. As the music intensifies an opened portal is transporting me to the center of a colorful bliss. It’s about so many things such as secret societies. My arms matched the waves of sound while my body rocked back and forth on the sea of bliss. Walking through crowds of dimensional seekers. the high aliens. After much talking. and soon realized that they were in control by two serpent spirits. I am drawn to look up at a telephone pole directly beneath the sun revealing a message in my mind. I could analyze this movie for years. popping balloons and laughter echoed all through the parking lot as nitrous oxide gas turned hippies into laughing crack heads for $7 dollars a balloon. I turned off my music and lights leaving one candle lit at the far end of my room. The smoke cloud floats me down to the ramp of the Phish UFO. and life is a beautiful dream. After the concert an encompassing sound of hissing tanks. After smoking. Queen Tetra takes off our emotional restraints. Death keeps things in a true perspective. This movie is so sophisticated that I applaud the people who did it. The All Seeing Eye is not a symbol of spying or Big Brother but perhaps the all-seeing 3rd eye (Pineal Gland) that sees the spirit realm. I search for illegal computer programs that can hack through my main frame and connect me to the source of consciousness. I was told that when both entities look for each other’s vibrations the connection takes place. The universe is a flower.· · · · · · · · · · · · when not doing Queen my creativity is way up and I more easily see the ridiculousness of mainstream propaganda) We are all a dream of the Universal Consciousness. now I was smoking some Queen through my vaporizer. As the gas spun my hearing perception in circles my laughter increased exponentially. Twenty one dollars later became the time to go. spirituality. Lasting as long as a roller coaster ride. psychedelics. (Pic of this goes here) Walking to the show a bug hits my forehead.

this is what I wrote down. You can’t see the sun but you can hear the thunder. · I sensed a demonic spirit was trying to enter my body from behind. I’m going to the light. so I twisted around on my bed for many minutes in one direction. throat and chest became energized. I realized the only way I was going to 82 . So digitize with me. Now watching Robert Miles-Children (Dream Version) on Youtube. so we can be one. It’s wildly long what I have to talk about. I can imagine light all around me. thank you. It’s so wonderful how it beats. · While listening/watching a YouTube video called 1200 Mircograms-Marijuana. After much more talking I said “No. After getting tired. You got to loosen your bolts in your mind to be free. for this planet is Earth. something else that is more than light. The infinite creates you. for that’s all that truly matters. They told me all I had to do was fly through the tunnel poster above me. that’s why you must focus on your center to see what you truly are: a star of pure consciousness radiating light forever and ever. tha. (2pic: Accepted and Rescue goes here) While grouping up with other spirits. Now get back on your journey and see where this is taking us. Now I know why I’m here: I’m here for bliss. I was tempted but scared. You’re on your own from here. So go out and make some noise and let them hear what we are all about. Note: Earlier in the day I saw a YouTube video called “1 of 4 Dark Stars (Illuminati in Hollywood)” which dealt with famous rock stars who said they were possessed by spirits and spoke of selling their soul to Satan. and I am the bliss. listen to my heart pound. where laid a small yet bright light. Thank you. That’s all I can tell you for now. Kaleidoscope your mind and see how far you can go into the light. Then I floated away with my soul mate through the stars. So go out with your love and see how it feels. My head. Well I can imagine a lot. we flew to a planet that faded to blackness at its center. Next YouTube video playing is 1200 Mircograms-ecstasy. With the use of our consciousness. we are going to rescue its consciousness. Well start with that. tha. So send out that peace and love with me until you can’t anymore. just as long as I sell my soul to the Devil. vibrating with an explosion of excited particles. When you wake up you will ascend up to their realm. on and on forever. My mind is connected to everything I see. I bet we will be finding love. switching directions as I continued to flee from this unseen spirit.” Now looking at the flickering candle my spirit flew to a fractaling light. I saw myself as a yellow glowing spirit having an even brighter yellow light shooting out of my mouth. I was downloaded into the light: I had won the fight for my soul. that will never be. Exploding into a sun that I am. It’s a hallucination of thoughts that transforms you into something else. Later a friend told me that it’s called spirit writing. Can you hear me to this beat? I’m sure you can if you open your ears. How are you? Thanks for showing me who I really am. Note: I could feel the thoughts being put in by the unseen spirits while writing all of this. This is why I think the Queen Tetra took me into this experience. thank you and yes you want control but first you must learn to see beyond what you can imagine. Now watching 1200 Mircrograms-Salvia Divinorum. I am in the bliss. one for all.fortune.

In this case I did 20x of Salvia. then after ten to fifteen minutes of being high you smoke Salvia Divinorum. You can see and feel someone else’s perspective while high. (Pic “you can be anyone you want”) You must collapse in on yourself to dissolve the illusion. And yet they are you. they make you feel insignificant and alone. Several minutes later I fell asleep. Realize what you are. Expand your consciousness to planetary proportions and become a Sun. I’m stuffing my face with expanding consciousness. Imagine squeezing yourself to a pea size right to the center of your being. Those that don’t see time are less delusional. (Pic “Fractal Universe”) To travel easily you must have no attachments. I could feel my energy vortex flowing into my chest and out my back. exploring my minds realms. I saw and felt spirits uncoiling my whole body starting from the top of my body working their way down to my feet. My body is my temple and my consciousness is my light. the more value it has.· · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · defeat this demon was to consume it with my Love. The stars are so vast and beautiful. not even to your own mind. then imagined my radiant light of love dissolving my attacker. seeing what it has to offer. It’s only when you go out of your mind that you see all. So you must go beyond their vastness to see who you really are. Watch 2001 Space Odyssey while being high. it’s magical. The crazier the idea. Nature fluctuates beautifully. Write everything into existence with your magic symbols. producing a copy of ourselves into the infinite. You must let all aspects of yourself be accepted in order to be in love. a light of love. After a while my 6th sense told me I was now safe. (Pic “The Demon Attack”) After the Queen vapor touched every cell in me. I asked to be un-plugged from the Matrix.I saw a white light projecting tentacles of different people showing me that I can become anyone I want. suspended in the infinite black void. while at times the energy tickled my ear drums making them ring. Your inner light can fade the illusion away. 83 . We are light waves riding on the currents of the Void. Expand your awareness to become a planet. (Pic “I’m the Pyramid”) Salvia-Weed #1. We have an infinite void to travel through with no destination in sight. The galaxy is like a record player and every time our solar system aligns with the center we get played out. Feel your energy moving through your body.Is the process when you smoke Cannabis first. So I stopped turning around and laid on my back. Then expand or explode infinitely away from yourself. It was late at night. It shows what we can hold: a beautiful model of light. I felt energy being released from the base of my spine flowing up and through my neck into my head. words. Salvia-Weed #2 . that is humanity. as we fractal out farther into other realms. It would be awesome to be a vaporizer sales man smoking Queen on every sale.

And it will take an electrical Magnetic Pulse of Love to stop the machine. 84 . Mind expansion fuels creativity. I will fly back to the center of the Earth’s consciousness and explode that love energy to the whole planet. In my garden I would be mainly growing Cannabis with some Salvia Divinorum and shrooms on the side. waiting to receive their love vibrations. It’s a gradual process. Preferably only those that have a medical marijuana card so that the police don’t bust the illegal users. I have discovered that the used up Queen from the vaporizer is still good. Let’s zoom off to another realm. Once there.· · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · I like downloading trips. It has its special qualities. Once I absorb all the universe’s love. But it is not as intense. Therefore. trying to figure out who we are. The movie the Matrix is a psychedelic movie. It takes all the light for us to be here. Enlightenment does not come all at once. It’s natural to want to give your friend a toke. we are at the center of the stage. Do Ayahuasca and fly to the center of the universe and penetrate the universal consciousness. We start off as an explosion of light that shapes us into vibrations of color that rides the dark void. Saying good bye to those I love as I venture into that great beyond. Flying through a lucid dream on and on forever. effectively raising the Earth’s frequencies. And I would be high as a bird and as happy as a clown. My garden of Eden is a nice warm day hanging outside with a hot naked chick. Nature can show those that are daring enough the beauty of the next dimension. Listening to my life’s song. You can’t be in contact with anything you aren’t vibrating to. Smoking with a lighter pops your ears. That would be my Garden of Eden. I want an infinite perspective. By pulsing my love vibrations throughout the world. I would like to have a radio show where the person doing the show is high and only takes high people as callers and talk about Cannabis or psychedelics in general. making you realize what truly matters in life. I’ll save the world through my intentions. The world vibrates us. And the callers have to be high as well. creating something truly beautiful. going into higher dimensions of love (because it’s never ending). for everything you do is returned to you tenfold. Queen Tetra is a Space ship that sends your tiny perspective into the beyond. pulse out my love vibrations to the whole universe. It’s like saying: “Hey! Do you want to have fun?” Walking with a crowd to a bright light. If we shine all of our light on love then we will be able to see all. I’m eating the light. flying through enlightenment. I will train my mind to take me anywhere.

every dawn is a new beginning. I can rhyme on a dime and still be high. Euphoric feelings are just one of them. They are looking at me. (pic of LSD Shaman) Taking moments here and there to close my eyes and see where my third eye is looking. (I did Queen Tetra through a vaporizer. two hours later I ate my ecstasy Oppokoppler-Spacetravel) We the people demand that we gas our Politian’s with Cannabis. every night is a fantasy. That there are a lot of things I can show people through my book but not everything. Then they will stop 85 . I like pot. I saw light circuits in his face lighting up his black eyes. I think we can out vibe the negative energies in this world with our intentions of love.· · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · I figure things out faster through my use of Love. The universe is my home as I traverse this verse the way I want it to be. Life is an infinite journey. and every star is a possibility. Pulling my bones through my flesh. 3 hours after that I took about 4 hits of acid) (picture “I’m chasing the Light. the third eye. flying above all my wildest fantasies. Time is gone and now I see with my eyes closed. Every day is a dream. He also showed me how the power of focusing my attention in the air can condense the reality around us and put it into a liquid blob at the tip of my fingertips. my spirit walks into the beyond. (Pic “Love to the World”) You must first serve your purpose before you can be free. Euphoric vibrations took me to the next level. continuing on into the infinity of my mind. Pot of Gold is Pot. which is my home to explore. I like getting high and fantasizing about my dreams. but I am the Light”. The universe is pretty dope. I am light. Finding love. Wow! That was cool. ripping my spirit out of my bones. a triangle upside down with each corner being a primary color of spirits all waving their arms towards the central golden pyramid eye. (Inspired by music video on Youtube. (pic “Eye of Enlightenment”) Twenty hours later and my mind still races with poetry. Airliners should have cameras facing the six directions so that the passengers can have a 360 degree view as they fly. It’s amazing how small we are. But what’s even more incredible is how small the universe is. that is as bright as the sun. I was taught by my LSD shaman to live within the moment. I would like to have a small sample of all the entheogens that I’ve done encased in a clear glass ball to wear as a necklace. While looking at him talking. I am a master of my mind. In all my lucid dreams. Entheogens are vital to space travel. back in the party and laughing with bliss. every sunset is a beauty. I like it a lot! We go into parallel realities with every decision we make.came up with this on the Queen alone). my universe. I saw the grey alien type creature but they were white skinned and had red eyes instead of black.

7 lucky stars if you make it. I’m psychedlicatized. This will show the world what’s it like to be high and realize that there is no reason to keep Cannabis illegal. Smoke Queen Tetra in public as much as possible to desensitize people to it (not in front of cops of course. Wing chung I’m a ninja. eyes closed imagining your gifts. Love is not logical but it is more powerful. Sweet Nickels. so that means the world is your stage. and one million dollar jack pot. Playing the Kaossiloator while high is fucking awesome. Toothless ruthless.· · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · · fucking us over and start telling us the truth. The Hive Mind of Spiritual Assistance: Imagine a honey comb of blue spirit helpers in 86 . where you have a character for each entheogen. Expand your field of Love and dissolve the illusion of fear. You can’t fight when you are happy. But you got to meditate first. Video tape yourself being high for one week doing all sorts of tasks. Dialing. 4 shrooms. You can access anything through love. you will love everybody else. Hiding in lucid dreams from my fears of who I really am: conscious light. When you completely love yourself. 2 salvia plants. And when we the people protest the tyrannical government and are faced with combating the police we will subdue them with our converted leaf blowers that pump out Cannabis smoke. I’m scared to realize how powerful I am. When you start telling the truth you will open up your heart. 5 rabbit’s feet. By healing myself. It will be a comedy but it will also teach people about spirituality. I’ve been consciousness exploring. I got this idea from a guy at a party). you can bring your whole negative system down. You can manifest a whole building with that small Pineal Gland of yours. 9 wigy wagets. If you can vibrate love. I’m dope as a quital bug. Have a cartoon called Shaman. filing. I’m sky high. Pull whatever you want out of yourself with both hands plucking at your chest. I help heal the world for that our consciousness are all connected influencing each other’s vibes. Your Love frequency rises as the Queen Tetra flows into your body taking you on an infinite journey to a place called Nirvana. 3 pot plants. Entheogens are psychic Steroids. 6 grasshopers. That shit (pot) suites my fancy. leaving them unable to fight. The only power I need is Love. text-filing.

I pulsed out the Love this morning. (7) taking a hot bath. it will make you feel like someone is on your side. you are the light that flows over the Earth and through time. I list books and videos that show quite a bit. makes working out easier. Not only that but when you ask that one spirit for help it gets hundreds of other spirits to help as well. (3) watching funny movies. 87 . Flower of Life. You can’t stop the Jo when he is in the flow. Go deep within yourself. (2)going to parties. Do this all the way to your crown chakra. As I fan out my chest and hands to the surrounding bliss of life. Word Vibes. it has been proven to be a very healthy plant to consume. heart and mind to Love. you don’t lose your motor skills. I’m stomping Love into the Earth. relaxing. So believe that you have hundreds of willing spirits that are there to assist you. connecting with spirits. we hunt for it. (4) eating. Then you imagine them going into the future and caressing the illusion. I have found it to be useful for creativity. We are all angelic beings of love. a better choice for a party situation (as opposed to alcohol) as there is no hangover. How delusional must I be to believe in such an illusion? (picture of “Heart Love”) (4 th Shroom trip/with Queen Tetra Candy) We need love to grow. Love has no boundaries and neither do you. (8) going to concerts. and once we are grown. makes sex even better. (5) walking in the woods. you can’t just sit on the side lines and expect the ball to score by itself but you will notice things getting a lot easier for you. I don’t know if I can say enough about this wonderful plant: Cannabis Sativa. and Head Light. has made me a better dancer. Your body is now vibrating love. (9) working out. Now run to your stomach chakra and activate it with love. So there’s nothing else to do but love. (10) looking at the stars. Run down the bright tunnel to the base of your spine and activate your base chakra with love.· · · · · · · · · each section ready to help you mold events to your liking. Time Line Life. On top of all of that. handing out my frequencies of thought. Decode your body. Pulse Love with me Now. makes listening to music more enjoyable. I Create My Life. The point is to do things you already like to do. and then do them high: it will make the experience much better. so I spent the rest of the day with Love. and it has made me really happy. (6) writing these creative ideas down. My top ten things to do High: (1) Sex. 3D Color Projection. But what I can tell you from my personal experiences is that this plant has proven to be a wonderful resource for many different reasons. In the end we realize that’s all there ever was and only then do we see the beauty of this world.☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺ Additional Queen Pictures: Psychedelic Pyramid Guide. Yet you still have to play a part. I’m Jam-in-the-Jam. In appendix A. It has shown me that through my intentions I can experience quite a large range of different experiences.

I came to a realization as to why I did not enjoy my first few Queen Tetra experiences as much as I could have: it was because I believed the main stream media’s story about the results of smoking Cannabis. I believe that it would make me stupid, wanting only to eat and giggle uncontrollably. As you can see, this was not my case in the above Queen Tetra experiences because I had set my intentions to my own wishes. Majun Recipe (Cannabis Candy)

½ a cup of sieved pot 1 tsp of cinnamon plus nutmeg ½ to ¾ cup of sunflower seeds 4tb of chia seeds 1 cup granola 1-2 pinches of pepper 1 tsp baking powder 1 cup of honey ½ stick of butter Mix pot and butter well – allow to stand at least 3hrs – to overnight Cook honey to 250’ add all ingredients, except pot/butter mix and Baking soda. Heat to 300’, remove from heat. Stir in pot butter mix and baking soda. Cool completely.

Chapter 13 Moving Further Through the Mind The new synapsis connections are giving me new and intriguing thought patterns, which is taking my imagination further than anticipated. LSD Trip/With the Dragonflies Taking a small amount of LSD on a warm summer’s day, my thoughts soon flew with the dragonflies. I’m getting inside my mind, yet my mind is getting outside of me. It takes a lot of focus to see who I really am. Vibrating love helps. Take a trip inside a trip. Walking through the forest I realize I’m hunting for my mind. (pic “Path of Life”) I can feel my 88

destination as the energy goes through my stomach and out my back. Moving back and forth I am amazed how I can feel this. Continuing on my course, downloading info into my third eye, I realize there is no end to my journey. Yet time is brutally sharp so I must continue to work like a honey bee on my consciousness so I can evolve into what I truly am: light. My personal magnifying glass has shown me how far behind I am from my contemporaries. On the other hand I feel I know the meaning of life is to live it. How many others know that? Rice for One Week For one week I ate nothing but rice with lemon juice and basil leaves to help detoxify my Pineal Gland. On the last day I ate nothing, and drank a lot of water. I sat outside all day doing nothing but playing with my thoughts. I had boiled myself right down to my true essence of pure consciousness. It really is just a spark sitting in the vast void of blackness. How humbling. The slow moments of the day gave me a chance to think about what I really wanted in life and how to get it. As night approached, my spot changed to see the rising moon. As the first spark of light came through the trees, I prepared my mind to blast off into the center of the galaxy with my wing man sitting behind me. My fuel was a bad mixture, leaving me motionless, yet the moon still sent chills down my spine. The moon showed me the power a moment can have. Despite the fact I did not reach my intended destination, I had learned a lot on this journey. One of the last things I learned was that it’s not all about me. My wise friend agreed.

Queen Tetra and DMT/ “All Seeing ” The All Seeing Eye emits purple fractaling molecular codes at me, spiraling out and away as I’m called. What is the word? The word is wonder. I can’t understand it. It’s too vast for me, but I’m trying. We are trying to interface with you. Just give us a call at 1-800-DMT. And work that mind. Do entheogens. The Queen has taken the rest of the ride to a friend’s house where the idea of faces opening up the center revealing another face and another and another infinitely, sourcing from the light emanating out of the dark tunnel mouths. The wheel of fortune spun in my favor as the circle disk of different people was placed into one body reveling that we are all one. (pic of “All 1”) 15 th -17 th Time/DMT Hits at the Power Spot (Pic “Let out my Light ”_“Becoming Formless ” – “Dimensional Ship Spot ” The first time I set my intentions on letting out my light, I saw red and yellow geometric shapes transforming into a beautiful star. On the next hit, I asked to become formless, and was telepathically told I had to go into the dark. As I was being told this, I saw a space of white light open up in front of me with a yellow/green geometric merkabah shape floating in the middle constantly transforming. It seemed to generate growth of a red light as it spiraled up into the darkness creating a rose. Coming straight down, a red snake slithered towards the center of this red rose. Before it reached the rose, the vision faded away with the wind. The last trip takes me inside a UFO made out of red light. I look around and notice six 89

red light silhouettes of people coming towards me telling me I must do Ayahuasca so we can have a longer conversation in the light. I know this tale is not finished until I do Ayahuasca. Ideas and Dreams I have noticed that even when I’m not using any entheogens my mind now works as if I’m still on them. My creative mind is well lubed and constantly coming up with ideas. Even my dreams look like some of the trips I’ve experienced. First I will show you my ideas; all of which are shown in picture. (pic “The Key Frequency” – “Universal Duality” (idea from reading one of the Carlos Castenada books) – “Growing” – “Word Block” – “ Merging Dualities” (idea from reading one of the Carlos Castenada books) – “Neuron Connection” (idea from reading one of the Carlos Castenada books)-“Fractal Choices” and the last idea came from listening to a shamanic drumming CD by (get who by), “A Helping Hand”. The next two images are from my dreams. (pic “My Higher Self” – “We are Clouds”) Chapter 14 The Jaguar Path: Yoga and Peruvian Shamanism My friend Archie got me interested in a course called the Jaguar Path which he had taken the previous year. He talked of the interesting tools he’d been taught to use. The one that caught my attention the most was called “Seeing.” For this tool, you shake a rattle while looking into someone’s left eye and Archie said the room had opened up into another dimension. Needless to say, upon hearing of this I wanted to learn more of what the course had to offer. After practicing with entheogens for the past three years and reading several books on shamanism, I was eager to delve deeper into its mysteries. After speaking with Ray Crist, the Jaguar Path instructor, and completing a short introductory session, I felt he could help me heal further. And this journey would be without the use of entheogens.

Jaguar Journeys by Ray H. Crist (CD) The audio CD takes you on a guided tour to find your power animal. Lying on my bed with the head phones on, I followed the instructions to look at my feet while walking, then to gradually look up. (The rest may vary to what the CD says, because imagination begins to take some control). As I raised my eyes, I saw a woman’s legs walking ahead of me. This woman led me to a field where I saw a deer that had been shot, bleeding, dying. I felt sorry and helpless to do anything for it. I soon realized this was the same deer I had found while walking in the woods as a teenager. It had a gunshot wound that entered the chest and came out its rear; taking a chunk of its tail. Once the deer sensed me standing over it, it stumbled away for ten or so yards away before collapsing. As I walked to it again, I looked for a rock or something I could kill it with in order to put it out of its misery. As I approached it again, it ran off into a thick bush that I 90

I was charged up for quite a journey. With the CD continuing to guide me. Chapter 15 Find Yourself and Save the Planet Several Shrooms/8 Hits of LSD/2 licks of MDMA/ Queen Tetra Vapor hits several hours later/ “Love to the Universe. I knew at that moment I had to run back over my same path as quickly as I could. not by looks. That I. I looked into the eyes of my deer of sorrow and felt it projecting its love to me. because I chose it by the power of the spirit. It was ugly but I knew I had the right one. looking at me. knowing everything we put out comes back many-fold. This turned out to be successful. Listening to the final CD instructions to stretch at the end. I ran my intentions for this ride through my mind. I crawled under trees and ran over hills following the tracks of the wolf until they put me in the Serpent’s lair. After shoveling a path to the bird house. I knew of an asteroid called YU55 that was scheduled to be flying too close for comfort on November 8 2011. As I laid down in my dark room. muddy water I pulled out my Serpent rock. Inside this bright space I received two gifts: a black box and a round rock with rings on it. From there I went to where I shot my fears. Once I entered. a flood of light penetrated me. pulsing out my love vibrations to the whole universe. As I laid down under a big tree. So I strove to protect Earth through my love intentions. keeping her safe. At first I thought I had one but it turned out to be only a stick.could not even low crawl through. I finally released my sadness and felt free of the old hidden burden. These were gifts from the deer in appreciation for the sympathy I had given it that day so many years ago. I absorbed the universe’s love for several minutes until I knew I had all its love energy stored in my spirit before flying back to 91 . I saw several deer hiding behind trees. I ran away from the house so the keepers would not see where I went. I reentered the woods to find a spot where I could sleep. must slip away from my keepers of love to get my serpent rock for the shaman class. I knew then it was my power animal and had been protecting me ever since that day. opening the brushes like a piece of paper that led to a dark space. Finding My Serpent Rock with Queen Tetra as My Ally I ran a scenario in my head as I was shoveling snow towards the bird house. Love to the Earth ” After taking a decent dose of shrooms. like Don Juan. As I walked. I now saw the deer standing upright on its rear legs. hopefully raising the vibrations of Earth. While lying on my bed I took my spirit mind to the center of the universe. without my keepers realizing I’d been gone. Looking now at the dark murky puddle of water I took my gloves off and dove to the water blindly searching for my Serpent rock. I never saw it again. While floating in the center of the universe. a strip of LSD that equaled about eight hits and two licks of MDMA. releasing my sadness for the deer. After a couple of minutes of fingering through the freezing. Leaving this space of light.

one where I have saved the future Earth with my intentions and I still don’t know what the next second will bring. “We know. for this small planet is about to disappear for lack of love. Several minutes later. and soon. It just keeps going and going. in fact. it does not exist. Love to the whole universe and the cool vibrations of love echoed back saying. It leaves me on shaken ground. I’m cold with purple limbs. Love. I wish I could master this illusion. our meeting ended as I got up to download this information. And that is just beautiful. Our mind needs to evolve. all I hear are echoes. little star so far away. Awe Yeah. I powered up YouTube. The infiltration came from within my mind on a dime of synchronicities sourced from a million possibilities. Hours later. As my consciousness slowly returned to my body I felt energy lines wrapping around my legs. I’m afraid to tell anybody about and played the video called “Voyage Through Space and Galaxies” for the rest of the night. It’s really absurd to be writing about reality when. and that is all the energy I need.the center of the Earth. all the years. and now that I’ve found it. What if the dream disappeared? Every time I think I’ve figured it all out. we are still stranded in our own little minds. you are shown the universe. I exploded my love energy out to the whole planet before returning to my bed. I felt like these entities were in control of this reality. knowing it’s time to smoke the Queen Tetra to revitalize my body. I noticed the sound I had heard while looking at the aliens sounded like the humming noise on the CD. The eco-sync CD plays two slightly different tones in each ear to help balance 92 . Despite all the wars. The funny thing is. although. Within minutes I’m warm enough to continue into the morning sun. But I’ll humor myself tonight with this next thought. I had so much to say while searching. Only when I looked through this curtain at a certain angle could I see these shadowy figures. reality reveals even more. As I shifted my gaze from left to right. but what is the ground? Why do I continue to bring up my illusions? To keep reaffirming to myself that I’m here? When I look around the inside of my head. My ears started to perceive a humming noise that sounded like the inside of a UFO. Twenty-four hours later. The universe has become my horizon. while these melodies of thought pass through my mind in the nebula of hyperspace. Receiving the access codes to the Universe. I finally went to bed listening to one of my eco-sync CD’s. looking out your cold window. I’ve never been in a material one before. When you send your love to the universe. we see you there. Once there. As I document these other realities.” I’ve made a consciousness shift into another dimension. Watching the universe pulsing out frequencies of love. and that’s where I lost my mind in awe. The universe was on my mind last night and I thought Love. I finally appreciated its true beauty. I faintly saw a couple of Greys. we need to evolve beyond our unfounded fears and become enlightened with love. Our civilization was just an ape’s thought. words flowed out of my hands onto paper. Love is the best and most affordable energy out there. Would that too be an illusion? I guess I’ll sit back down and enjoy the show. with one reptilian creature standing behind them. I noticed that there was a curtain of dark grey circles hiding these entities from my view. Trying to decode all of its messages will take a lifetime. manipulating our vibrations of thought. I see the truth. showing its deeper mystery once more. If we choose to go to the stars.

He told me to prepare myself for an Ayahuasca ceremony. and a signed book by Daniel Pinchbeck called “Breaking Open the Head. He remembered me running track in high school. he handed me a beautiful small wooden box to hold my pipes in. learning how to do Ayahuasca ceremonies. I heard from an old high school friend I hadn’t seen in eleven years.” He told me this gift was for what I was doing and he hoped it brought me a writer’s power. Once at my house we set my room up for the ceremony. 1 st Time/ Ayahuasca/ “I ’m healed Ten Fold ” There is no doubt in my mind that I had gotten the attention of the spirit realm on my last journey. It was nice to talk to someone who has been on the same path as I. a blanket to sit on. no liquor or drugs. Then. but for many more years. and that Hawaii is the only other place other than Peru that grows Ayahuasca. MOA inhibitor). For the next few days I began the special diet of not eating any meat. because he gave me an Ayahuasca vine (Banisterioopsis. out of the blue. This was one of the plants Terence McKenna. DMT). and I was not due to go to Peru to do Ayahuasca for another nine months. which is produced naturally in our brains. He has been studying with a great shaman in the jungles of Hawaii for three years. a combination of two natural plants. I picked Jay up. I then received the Ayahuasca leaf (Psychotria Virids. dairy and of course. If he is right then the universe is quite possibly playing a balancing harmony from which we could all benefit. it was me. So here I go into the beyond of thought with this sacred medicine. is illegal because it contains a chemical known as DMT. telling me these were for me as well. Lastly. He told me this was to detect the subtle energies of spirits.The 8 th Entheogen It boggles my mind how Ayahuasca. Then it felt like Christmas. Jay assured me that if there was anyone from high school who could be a shaman. To say the least. Chapter 16 Ayahuasca . followed by a black winter hat which made so much sense to me later on. I knew I had to do this one last entheogen before I could finish my book. I was happily surprised by all of this. Jay told me there was a group of people in Hawaii dedicated to becoming spiritually advanced. as he would come and perform the ritual with me at my home. as my life’s synchronicity scale started going off the chart. after which he had me hang two feathers from my light fixture which hung in the center of my room. This chemical is mysteriously magical in the fact that it can take our perceptions to a whole other dimension. pushing past my own mental 93 . Jay had me cleanse my room with white sage smoke as he set up his mesa. Jay then started to play a Ayahuasca music CD. and on the way we talked continuously of a great many things. When I told my friend Al about this the next day he immediately thought that what I was hearing was not the sound of an inter-dimensional UFO but the sound of the universe.brainwaves. who I consider to be one of the godfathers of psychedelic knowledge grew on his property.

He smiled.barriers and breaking the school record for a two mile run. He admitted he had added nutmeg and cinnamon to it. I realized that even though they are not perfect. I no longer felt the same kind of resentment towards the mainstream religions and felt an interesting peace for them. and although I had never used a mantra before. As we got ready to take our first shot we both prayed silently to ourselves. The CD came to the mantra: “Om Namah Shivaya. Once I had broken the first record I kept breaking my own records and then there was no stopping me. Walking back into my room I told him my thoughts. puke buckets on standby. That’s when I let out the biggest scream of unseen built up rage and pointed to the ground saying I’m right there. I was surprised how bland it tasted. I consider him to be one of my best friends. “Oh shit. I felt like he was now pushing me past another bigger wall and once I jumped over it. and I asked him what he did to make it so much better. He told me after the song that he has incorporated many things from many different religions into his healing practice.-I was not in my body before?” Putting his hand over my stomach he started to make demonic noises and had to leave for a moment to spit out the demonic energy trapped in me. Once down the hatch. When he came back to finish his work. After another shot or two and some spiritual talk. which suddenly exploded all over the room. it not only made sense but made me realize he was one of the only sane ones out there and spiritually far ahead of the rest of us. he wrote it down for me. it made me feel great. I felt like he was hacking into my body’s mainframe. We were able to synchronize our chanting. and asked me how it felt to be back in my body. When he was done he went back into my room to give me time to demagnetize my extremely comfortable body off the table. but had thought he was a bit crazy. He expressed how happy he was to be doing this for me. they do have their place for humanity’s spiritual upbringing. effectively healing my body. We took several hits of DMT that we placed on top of Psychotria virids (Ayahuasca leaves). I told him I always liked him as a friend in high school. At one point I laughed as he went over the side of my ribs. I thought. the real test 94 . and thank him for making me feel so good about myself. and we have now offered some of the brew to the other spirits. After a long trip to the bathroom and several more shots of Ayahuasca. Jay opened up the first bottle of Ayahuasca medicine. Everything he did seemed to have such a purpose and intelligence behind it. As I laid on the table he started what I can only describe as acupuncture with fingers. When I tried making my own brew it tasted pretty bad. balancing the energetic equation. liking my optimism. he took me into the other room where we had set up his massage table earlier. talking for a bit about several subjects before entering the next level of the ceremony. but after I messed it up a few times. and all I could do in the face of such complements was try and hold back my ego. Now that I understand him. Once he told me his life story. I came to the realization of where I truly am in this life. We managed to save most of it and used rags to soak up the rest. draining what we could into another container. When we were finished setting up. as if seeing myself in this life for the first time. I told him the spirit had really wanted out. I could not stop feeling like he was an old friend from the stars of advanced spiritual beings.” Jay made me try to sing it. My intent was to pulse peace and love to the whole world.

looking deeply into his right eye. Once I was up. He told me a truly amazing story from high school. and taken to a room where they beat him. I fear there may be some truth to this subject. Jay said they had noticed him because of his ability to open a vortex into another dimension and wanted to suppress his abilities of doing so. Nevertheless. while a doctor type spirit looked into his left eye. He suggested I watch The Missionary (1983 film).” and added another rule: don’t follow other people’s rules if they are harmful to you or others. which is REPTILIAN AGENDA ON TV PART 16 THE ABYSS typed out. This is just a sliver of the wild information out there on the reptilian phenomena. Being in a state of fear imprisons us. and somehow opened a vortex to another dimension. and Love is the only real key to freedom. perhaps the Universal Consciousness seeks knowledge of itself through us. to avoid the complete ego death discussed in the Carlos Castaneda books. among which was our relationship to Universal Consciousness. he saw a reptilian spirit about an inch in size that sat an inch Jay felt that to lose oneself in the Universal Consciousness would be the greatest honor. I said I would like to learn how to maintain my individual awareness when I die. easily torn through. as I thought it would not be a good thing to eat with a stomach full of Ayahuasca brew. I felt I could accomplish anything I wanted. it’s a subject some people do believe in and should be investigated more thoroughly. but Jay coaxed me to stand up. At the same time I felt like I was being crammed with unseen knowledge. The Ayahuasca was weighing me down with the urge to vomit. Right after this occurred he was grabbed by the Hell’s Angels. I told him my thoughts on why we are here in the first place. He went to a concert completely sober. As I went to the bathroom. he told me to stand up straight. During all this. but of thin paper. The conclusion we came to is that the reptilians are a higher dimensional entity that feeds off our fear energy and are the true rulers of the illusion we live in. David Icke is one such person who has investigated the subject matter and is a good source for this information. you’re doing As I slowly rose with the puke bucket in my arms. They speak of the Eagle’s emanations devouring our consciousness. If you watch http://www. The more I’ve looked into it and from my own personal experiences with entheogens. I know it sounds so crazy that most people will not believe that such a possibility exists. we discussed several philosophies and topics. When I had finally done all he instructed. I was surprised by this request. The Peaceful Warrior and to read the Celestine Prophecy trilogy. while yet another part of me felt like I was dying. Once I had disposed of my vomit. 95 . and decided to someday make a list of my own rules. I told him I liked this concept of making your own personal rules. and to stand on my two feet. I told him how he reminded me of a movie I had recently seen called “Rainbow Bridge”. As we talked about good books and movies. Any walls I had built in my mind were no longer of brick. but I am still very attached to myself. “Good job.” At that moment. Jay smelled popcorn my friends were making and asked if I could get him some. He told me. I agreed.had finally come. Jay kept telling me to stomp my feet on the floor and get grounded. He said “I make my own rules. I threw up as tears of relief ran down my face.

I respected his reasons and was still impressed at how much more I felt healed. Jay did what no entheogen could do. 2 nd Time/Ayahuasca/ “I ’m Freeded ” A couple of days after Jay left for his next adventure. third shot down. I agreed. and it reminded me of one of the parts in the Carlos Castaneda books when Don Juan was teaching Carlos how he kept himself sane by being unpredictable. His response was that there are several levels to Ayahuasca. He said I could have it. Carlos was not unpredictable and therefore made Don Juan go insane with boredom. I was still holding on to my old self through the clothes I wore. Eventually the darkness dimmed our awareness to a deep sleep. While preparing myself for this journey. I refused at first. and of course women. He changed my environment. A couple of days later we were hanging out on a mountain talking about the world’s affairs and how to heal them. That’s when I realized Jay’s mission in life. All of a sudden Jay handed me his Hawaiian hoody to have. he would absorb all the suffering in the world and want nothing in return. if I had started on a higher level I would never want to do it again. and I had received a lower one.Jay came to the conclusion that weirdness has no boundaries. and that it was several levels more potent than what I had done before. and seven-thirty. I told him I really liked it and realized how he had healed me like no other. His true colors engulfed my mind and I realized that if he could. I compared him to Mother Teresa with a shamanic touch. saying he just felt the spirit moved him to do so. The day had come for me to be shown a truth that truly boggled my mind. We then discovered that we both knew about the YU55 asteroid coming close to Earth and both of us unknowing of each other’s activities set our intentions of peace and love towards the planet to protect it. I had to change my wardrobe. but mainly I was looking for the end of this entheogenic journey of mine. We concluded that the best way to heal the world was through our mind’s focused intent of peace and love. I could not thank him enough for this redirection. Six-thirty at night the first shot went down. second shot down. Jay felt one good way to do this was to have a holiday where everyone meditates on peace and love for a day. I saw that our enemies need our love. to heal the wounds in people’s minds through his many tools. he gave me a call to tell me he had left some Ayahuasca at his friend’s house. If I were to move farther down my path of shamanism. I had never realized how important clothes are to the way we think about ourselves. but nevertheless felt like my mind was straightened out. I can’t thank him enough for all he did for me. six-fifty. I had written down several things I wanted to accomplish. When the night got late I set him up with a spot on my floor to sleep and we talked a bit longer about the spirit world. I told him I was slightly disappointed that I had not experienced any visions while on the Ayahuasca. the real world. Although I’ve learned a lot over the years and have mentally changed dramatically for the better. I know I’m truly blessed to have him as a friend and wish him luck on his monumental journey. but then accepted his generous offer and put it on. Now my body started to twist about as the demons came out. while those who suffer need to stop feeling sorry for 96 .

I thought until a colorful snake spirit starting to fly around my energetic ball. Terror struck me out of nowhere as if I had never seen myself before or realized that I am not my body. we will understand what we truly are. Diarrhea in the bathroom has now commenced. Written in the brown sludge it read “Love is the secret to freeing yourself. Now. just as present as it had been prior to my entheogenic quest. I am love. Sixth shot at ten o’clock brought my diploma out. I feel like I have come full circle and am back at eating my own tail. The only way to free myself was to be in a constant state of love. I’m done journeying to other realms because I’m missing out on this one. 46 th Time/Yellow Zone Salvia/ “Bob are You Out There? ” Finding out from my friend Kim that her father had passed away the night before was a heartbreaking moment and at the same time a blessing. energetic ball of light with flaring rainbow tentacles. During my journeys I seemed to have temporarily lost that fear. to find what’s on the other side. effectively releasing themselves from their own created misery. and that the only way to wake up was to get rid of this illusionary body. Let go of your old self and transform into your greatest potential. the more desire you have to learn. I realized what had led me to this moment of truth was my constant use of Cannabis for the last two months and intentionally pulsing my love frequency to everyone. house with the white picket fence and a dog to boot. I was missing out on this realm and badly wanted to change my life. telling me I have a whole world of possibilities. I am. Appreciation for my wonderful family comes into fruition. A strange part of this was that my fear of death had returned. After several minutes of this I fought off the urge to kill myself and was desperately eager to fully participate in this realm again. When we can finally relax with those we love. It’s amazing how much one can learn and still know nothing. I instantly wanted to kill myself and could not understand why. I wanted to get rid of my entheogenic paintings in my room and focus on getting a regular life with the typical family. revealing my true self as a conscious.themselves. Fifth shot at nine-thirty. For me it is conscious love. I’m a healed spirit ready to walk out of the hospital door and enjoy life’s wonderful mysteries. I. Finally I’ve realized the whole point of my entheogenic travels. I am healed. The fourth shot at eight-thirty at night. Except this time I taste different and am curious to start on a new path. I say blessing because his last few 97 . The more willing you are to suffer. and my heart beat pulsed its meaning. Are you ready to graduate? Puking will be your spiritual diploma. My fear increased as I took deep breaths to calm myself down. I’ve been looking for a show when all I needed was a deeper understanding of life. Thoughts rushed in from the unknown as I was told this serpent spirit feeds off my fear by pulsing a frequency that traps my awareness in this reality.” I started to see a twirl of colors penetrate the veil of darkness. I am all. The desire to do entheogens and even Cannabis was sucked away into the darkness behind my closed eyes. I can breathe again. The only answer I could come up with was that my true self had just realized it was sleeping and that I was only an illusion trapped in a mirror. I knew fear was keeping me in this prison and distracted me.

Three nights ago I woke up at three in the morning with a strong feeling that he wanted to talk to me. I offered to contact him through my use of Salvia. A couple of hours after getting off the phone with Kim. I voiced my desire to the spirit realm to talk to Bob. This answer reminded me of some Kirlian photography videos I have seen before. The Salvia took me deep. revealing a Swastika symbol swirling counter-clockwise with each arm containing a group of yellow human spirits walking on a sunny dirt road.” My sense of gratitude swelled 98 . I went to discuss this with Al to see what he thought of this. This time I rolled myself up in my blanket while lying on my back. That’s when he and I became friends while sharing our passion in maintaining the beautiful landscape. She asked me to tell him she loves him and considered it to have been an honor to be there when he died. kind of confused and a bit sad at the same time. and she thought the sunny road was where Bob will be walking as a ghost until his wife passes on as well. looking into moving shadows of death. I agreed to this thought in a deep silence as the sun’s rays shone into my eyes. I heard a female voice say. He told me the spirit takes about three days to leave the body but it varies depending upon the individual.” Unsatisfied with this response. There were many occasions when his family said he was reliving his past during these last weeks of his life. I then told Bob’s story to my friend Natalie. “If they had anything to tell me while I was alive they should have said it then. I took another hit. I have heard quite a few stories where a person that is dying makes contact with the deceased loved ones.” I asked him if there was anything he had to say to his family after being alive for the past ninety-six years. but I already know how they felt about me. Then they will both hold hands walking into the divine light. He responded back with. A line of purple human spirits walked around my eyes while the faint image of a skull came in front of them. My family had rented a house from him when I was young. This time I had the feeling he had detached from his body. “You want to talk with me? I’m dead!” His voice sounded young but a bit choppy as it echoed off my head. The voice was strong and sure now when he said “Hold on to every heartbeat. I read his autobiography several years ago and was amazed at the adventures and near escapes from death he had experienced while in the Navy. I prepared myself mentally and purified my room with white sage smoke to call in the spirit of her father. I felt like I had tapped into Bob’s head and instantly knew his spirit was still attached to his body and in a state of confusion.weeks of being ninety-six years old had been tough on him. bed sheets over my face. for life in this reality is a very precious thing. showing that when a portion of a leaf is torn off. Coming back into my head I was left with the residual feelings of what Bob was quite possibly going through. Salvia gave me the senses to hear Bob say. The phone call ended with tears and promises. 47 th Time/Yellow Zone Salvia/ “Hold On ”-Bob Five days later I decided to try again to make contact with Bob. the spiritual essence remains for a bit longer. “We have to get going. I told Bob his family loves him and Kim felt honored to have been there when he died.

into my current beliefs. I can feel the power within me unlike any other time in my life and it’s a cool feeling. So I wrote down what I wanted to accomplish with this journey. I was deep in my woods at night trying to contact spirits. This startled me so much that it woke me up. The image of this dream was so beautiful that I couldn’t stop thinking about it for several days. In the center of this cone a sphere of light projected many faces. The answer I received was to write everything I wanted as if I already had it. attract all the health. (2) Write my book and find it on the New York Times Best Seller List. freedom and riches I want. I wondered how I could bring what I wanted from the universal consciousness. letting me know that each face I see is a different emotion of mine. So after three spoonful’s of Ayahuasca and an hour and a half of waiting. 4 th Time/Ayahuasca/four spoonful ’s/ “I ’m the 1% ” Now that I’ve been writing down what I want for the last four weeks. (4) And finally. My hands are magnets for everything I want. power. changing the woods to a place infused with a pinkish white light with three forms in it: a ball of light and two pyramid geometric shapes to the right of that. and what’s in front of me are my current beliefs. 3 rd Time/Ayahuasca/three spoonful ’s/ “The Power from Everything ” My intention with this journey was to be with my soul mate. and two times a day. every day. (1) To attract my soul mate. I have come to realize that when you die you don’t go to the spirit realm without processing. (3) Have Awesome Lucid Dreams every night. for I have never had a dream that I could hear so well.dramatically as I opened my eyes. I can be whatever I want to be. Bob’s voice boomed from the ball of light and I could clearly hear him tell me he was very happy and rather surprised to be where he was now. at least two times a day. My ears started to ring. for at least thirty days. 99 . But before I try to figure out anything else in this mysterious life I’m going to start living my life more fully to honor the best quote of the century. Pondering this for a few moments. “Hold On…” Dream of Bob ’s Full Transformation When the dream started. I have manifested the best way to bring all my dreams to life. You are reborn into the spirit realm. I thought how all possibilities are behind me. My shaman teacher told me he goes into the spirit realm to insert his wishes where the walls of manifestation are more pliable. We are truly amazing spirits. the vision came as a swirling cone of light descending over me. Looking back at my experiences with contacting the deceased father for another friend. looking at the dark walls in my room. One way I thought I could accomplish this was to open up my luminous field of love.

The next cycle of visions began to come as the medicine pulled the toxins from me in both directions. I felt an urge to go for a walk in the woods. I wondered how it can all be. There is so much to see in life. empowering the workers with all the possibilities awaiting them once they open up their minds. Seeing geometric shaped faces unlocking geometric doors leading me into the factory of creation. Where do you go to wake up? Nowhere because it’s all here. leaving him powerless against my knowledge. opening a portal into an endless power line of knowledge streaming directly into my mind. Moments later the realization came to me why the 1% is so rich. I am intense because I’ve got the Force to unlock my mind. because I can see how it can all be. I closed the spirit door on my challenging opponent. They know they are dreaming. So it turns out I am now the queen bee.As I ate each spoon-full I would think of one of my wishes. I cough thunder I beam the sun I cry the rain I blow the wind I tremble the Earth I freeze the night All because I’m alive and feel the love. but so is Love. flying to our heart’s desire. I am the ‘I am’. 100 . As this thought floated in my mind. feeling the money in my hand and seeing it in my mind. I’m a Trillionaire and I’m healthy because I’m so frickin’ happy. After an hour and a half I had to go to the bathroom. Attracting my soul mate so that we will grow old together and transform into butterflies. imagining how sweet it’s going to be living my dreams. Getting out of bed I saw my face in the mirror and noticed something different about it. to heal more. All I have to do to be rich as well is rub my fingers together. because I have realized I’m dreaming. It was the face of success. Change is constant in life. I am the 1%. After four hours of preparing my future in the higher dimensions. The first thought that came to me about 20 minutes after eating the Ayahuasca was that I needed to cut any cords still connected to my negative experiences in Haiti. I’m going to turn the 1% of the financially wealthy into 100% spiritually wealthy with what I’ve got to say here. I saw two dark blue triangles morphing into one another. I looked like I had just inherited all my fantasies.

I walked toward the light at the horizon knowing I’m finished with this path and ready to walk side by side with my soul mate to a life full of wonderful journeys. As I headed deep into the dark woods. I leashed him up and we drifted out into the midnight. so I took my left hand (female) and right hand (male) and squeezed them together until the opposite energies blended into the light of love. that even though I had an ego death on the shrooms three years ago. I had to choose the right one to pass. The warm air along with my dilated eyes made the stars twinkle twice as brightly. I walked to the center of it and stood there watching the world vibrate love. After a few moments I decided to choose both the pillar of light and the pillar of dark as I realized they both have their role in life. effectively raising the vibrations of planet Earth. But when I told my friend Oscar of my intention.As I tried to sneak out of my house. Walking through the last field. before disappearing into my loving home. I lay down on my bed. My familiar stopped me just before I walked off the road. Closing my eyes I could see purple and pink spirit gears turning on the illusion of this 101 . Within a half hour I felt my mind split in two as I started to have conversations with an unseen spirit. I sounded the dog alarm and woke up my familiar (animal spirit guide). 5 th Time/Ayahuasca/five spoonful ’s/ “I ’m Reborn ” My initial intentions for this last and final trip of mine was to go into the spirit realm and pulse peace and love to those who suppress the free energy technology. cures to all diseases and any other information that can free us from this suppressed society. focusing on my intentions. A smile streaked across my face in the twinkling of an eye as I realized there is a tremendous amount of Love all around me. he told me I can’t change people but if I want to have a real impact on them I should lead by example. pulse my love through it. So I decided to enter the spirit realm through Ayahuasca and once there. I was told they could see the love in me. So I looked at both and contemplated on which one to choose. She is the Yin to my Yang. a plane and the hum of the distant city rang in my ears. I’m ready to go on a new one where I hold hands with my beloved. I’m now so bright with love that everything else is hard to see. Once I ate the five spoons of Ayahuasca. looking up at the beautiful sky I realized I had been walking the same path for many years and that it no longer serves me. the Ayahuasca built me the strongest ego through what it had taught me. uneven path. Moments later I reached my power spot and received my final realization. Looking to my left I saw a white tree and a dark tree to my right. my familiar became my Seeing Eye dog as he effortlessly led me through our narrow. while an owl. I took one more look up at the stars and said thank you. Luckily for me. I took a short break on the path and. Cutting out of my power spot to the road of a new beginning. and only then was I allowed to pass them. humbles me with just a quick glance at her. I knew this was my final test. so I took this as a sign to look around. The urge to merge my female and male energy came from the unknown. the most beautiful spirit I’ve ever seen. Moving deeper into the woods I came to a field where I saw a dark circular patch on the ground.

the unexpected thought came to me that I should take a bath. and plunged my head below the water. I told another friend at the same job all I had been up to. I visited my friend who first showed me Salvia Divinorum on the internet. So I got the water running and grabbed a CD from my room called “Satori Sounds The Spirit of Healing Isochoric Alpha and Solfeggio 528hz Healing Meditations” to play. I felt that they were not completely loving. What made it seem strange to me was the fact we were in a security job. 102 . This final journey of mine will be taken on my own. Thirty or so minutes later I threw up the last bit of negative energies. I sunk myself into the hot tub. Once again I felt it was not pulsing pure love towards me. snapping their mouths. at times coming at me.” Coming up for the final time. A thought came from this observation that soon produced a vision of hands reaching out from a bright white light trying to grab colorful projections. I could do my own cleansing ceremony. effectively banishing it with my light of love. I emerged anew. I could feel the presence of other spirits but felt the water was acting as a barrier from them being able to connect with me. Turning on the CD and turning off the lights to embrace the night. so I beamed my love at this spirit as well. but strangely enough. Back on my bed I saw a labyrinth of golden snakes writhing in all directions. As all my old energies flowed down the drain. I noticed it took about ten to fifteen seconds for the manifestation from the spirit realm to materialize in the physical. so important. He expressed disappointment at what I was doing. realizing what I must do next. and nothing can penetrate it except Love. knowing this magnificent journey of mine was complete while I listened to the sounds of croaking frogs in the drizzling rain. This book is so powerful. so I beamed my love at them.physical reality. I was asleep. I hope that it’s going to be a galactic curiosity. Sitting on the toilet seat I was told that I had got My Love Shield. Taking a deep breath I thought: “I’m done”. But as the hands wrapped around the colorful objects they would puff away like a thick cloud. I realized how powerful love is and that nothing can outmatch it. He could not remember why. Conclusion Halfway through my journey writing this book. vanishing them beneath the intense light that emanated from my body. I asked him why he had introduced it to me in the first place. I thought since this is my final journey with entheogens.” and for the last one “I’m reborn. with no other accomplices or hindrances. stretching minds to a new set of possibilities. nor had he tried any psychedelics himself. After a few moments I allowed the visions to come again. seeing a dragon flying in an eye. I rested my head on the tub and smiled widely. My last vision showed me myself as an intense energetic being of white light with a blue outline. Security officers are not the type of people you would expect to be interested in such things. Sitting there. staying there until I ran out of breath. About an hour and a half had passed since I took the medicine and it was time to let some of it out. Then before I knew it. Nothing is there except for the thought of it. I had one last thing to show the spirit realm. I dunked myself the second time saying “I’m cleansed.

I think they realize we are all of one mind trying to wake up from a dream. Lastly. and No separation. No sense of time/Death of the Ego. Psychedelic Pyramid Guide of Enlightenment The following is a quick view of what I believe to be the most important Chemical Keys (psychedelics) to unlocking the mysteries of oneself. I have yet to learn the full lessons of meditation. I did these things to expand my awareness of the mysteries of life. It has made me calmer and more positive with the realization that death is truly a passing and not an end. and up until this point I’ve never had anyone ask me such a question. During some of my journeys into altered states of consciousness. Iboga 103 . healing my spirit. and that the answer to most problems can be solved by advancing spiritually. showing me that this life is a lot more interesting than I had thought. He also asked me why I would experiment with things such as psychedelics. it has shown me who I truly am and what the whole picture of life looks like from above. effectively helping you to forget the negative traumatic experience. it could be placed above them all. I have a theory on why psychedelics help with Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). it has made me more loving and understanding of people. Answering him actually proved to be quite difficult. these substances have helped me feel more connected to everyone and everything. But it’s a bit more complicated than that. There are higher dimensional spirits that are assisting you on a psycho-spiritual surgery while your frequencies are opened up during a psychedelic trip. Overall. It replaces the profoundly negative traumatic experience in your mind with the new positively profound psychedelic experience. as he was a real skeptic on the issue. Shrooms The source: Pure joy/love. In addition to this. I strongly feel that with enough practice and good intent. and transcending the boundaries of programed thoughts. for this will prepare me to enter the spirit realm when the inevitable death of my body occurs. The formulated answer I would have for him now is. so cannot say as yet where or how to apply it to spiritual growth. I was never afraid of them and felt like they were doctors of a higher dimension. It always appeared they were assisting me by raising my frequency of understanding and perception. The only way we will succeed is if we all work together. My depression is gone and I am much more creative. It fueled a purpose for me to find out more about this world and myself. I encountered aliens.he seemed to be expecting me to focus my attention on the Alien connection with psychedelics instead of explaining what I had experienced.

past. puts a smile on your face and a whole lot more than I can think of. and intense euphoria. Ayahuasca Shows a high level of truth while rebooting your mind and purging the toxins out. helps to realize everything around you is special. Obviously there is always room for improvement. Also an inner voice comes through my thoughts. where you can see and hear the spirits. Spice: JWH-018 Let’s you see your thoughts and able to feel the spirit realm. This Psychedelic Pyramid Guide of Enlightenment may have come out differently if I had a bigger dose of LSD. LSD Gives access to the library of your mind through visuals. Queen Tetra (Cannabis) Turns the tracks in the brain to new ideas. DMT Shows spirits typically without any features. dreamlike visuals. Helps you empathize with others. kills cancer. but also the right psychedelics. Reboots the mind and purges toxins from the body. Salvia Divinorum Guides you into the Spirit realm. Not only do we need the right nutrition for our bodies to be healthy. takes away pain. Takes you anywhere/anytime. and eliminating them from your life is more 104 . LSD think tank parties. No sound from the spirits (except for the initial buzzing sound). or different. present and future. takes away stress. can be used to help meditation and feel the nirvana state. Iboga clinics in every major city helping people get off harmful narcotic addictions. This pyramid is just as important to us as the food pyramid. psychedelics. gives you creative ideas. or even if I had done more. Having an experience confronting your inner most demons.Shows you key moments of your entire life. I have a wish that someday there will be Queen Tetra (Cannabis Sativa) bars. feel connected to nature. used correctly for our minds to be healthy. for adult initiation instead of a meaningless High School graduation.

F. I leave you now and hope this book has shed some light on your own mysterious path. I realized that the mind is like an entire universe and I can go on forever discovering wonderful new insights as I travel its vast labyrinth. the world would be excruciatingly boring. I hope that this book interests people enough to question what they’ve been taught about psychedelics by our main stream society. Using Salvia Divinorum to get quick answers from the spirit realm and to know such a realm exists. the crime dog. the entheogens that I’ve used have healed my internal pain. there’s an all wise shaman who teaches kids the truth of the infinite levels of consciousness. We would realize we are all gods present at our own creation and by vibrating ecstatic love we will attract it. And if we vibrate fear. Like any other tool there is a right way to use it and a wrong way. It’s time for me to fade back into the forest of consciousness and leave you to continue on your own journey. This simple act. a new mind that has learned to vibrate love not fear. Having the experience of God instead of only having faith.beneficial than a sheet of paper. In the end I learned that Love is the answer to everything and I’m ready to live life to the fullest with that in mind. every day whenever you get the chance. I believe there would be hardly any violence. There is infinity within love itself so I have this one request. The connection to the spirit. and get rid of the unfounded fears and replacing them with truth. To say the least.S. we will attract that as well. Instead of Scruff McGruff. If we lived in such a world. Pulse the LOVE. I try to remember what my good friend Al once told me. joined with millions of other minds around the world doing the same thing could easily transform our world for the better. Psychedelics can play a very positive role in our society if we are taught how to use them correctly.” I also try to remember the concept of infinity and apply it to everything in life. There is a religion using entheogens to explore the inner realms of the attendee’s selves. Having a spiritual graduation with shrooms when the person has successfully completed the above. DMT therapy for the preparation of the transition to the spirit realm.) -Stewart Allen Mosher (picture of “Re-Emergence” 105 . It has been a great privilege for me to be a part of this psychedelic trip that we call life. send out your vibrations of love. we can reject the old taboos and find what’s been missing from our lives. If we as a society teach the right way to use these substances instead of giving into the assumptions of ignorance we have been subjected to. “If we were all the same. Spiritual Special Forces (S. I feel that I received what I needed from them.

Drugs. Magical Passes. Bakalar • Supernatural: Meetings with the Ancient Teachers of Mankind by Graham Hancock • Food of the Gods: The Search for the Original Tree of Knowledge a Radical History of Plants. Buhlman • The Reincarnation of Edgar Cayce?: Interdimensional Communication and Global Transformation by Wynn Free and David Wilcock • DMT: The Spirit Molecule: A Doctor’s Revolutionary Research into the Biology of Near-Death and Mystical Experiences by Rick Strassman MD • Natural Cures They Don’t Want You To Know About by Kevin Trudeau • The Encyclopedia of Psychoactive Plants by Albert Hofmann • Hallucinogenic Plants of North America by Jonathan Ott • All of these books by Carlos Castaneda: The teachings of Don Juan. A Yaqui Way of Knowledge . Renard • The Secret of the Soul: Using Out-of-Body Experiences to Understand Our True Nature by William L.APPENDIX A Books • Breaking Open the Head by Daniel Pinchbeck • The Spontaneous Fulfillment of Desire Harnessing the Infinite Power of Coincidence by Deepak Chopra • Psychedelic Drugs Reconsidered by Lester Grinspoon and James B. The Art of Dreaming. The Power of Silence. Politics and the Miracles of Forgiveness by Gary R. The Active Side of Infinity. Religion. The Second Ring of Power. Past Lives. The Eagle‘‘s Gift. A Separate Reality further Conversations with Don Juan. Sex. The Fire from Within. and Human Evolution by Terence McKenna • Law of Attraction: The Basics of the teaching of Abraham by Esther Hicks and Jerry Hicks • My Ishmael by Daniel Quinn • The Disappearance of the Universe: Straight Talk about Illusions. Tales of Power. • The Witch’s Dream by Florinda Donner • Inner Paths to Outer Space . and The Wheel of Time.Journeys to alien worlds through psychedelics and other 106 . Journey to Ixtlan.

1 • Bill Hicks-Positive Drug Story • Bill Hicks-Magic Mushrooms • Salvia Divinorum Study 1 of 5 • The Primacy of Consciousness (1 of 7) • Consciousness And Altered States P1 Graham Hancock • The use of psychedelic drugs changed me • What Entheogens taught me about god • The Union. • Peopled Darkness Perceptual transformation through Salvia Divinorum by • Astrotheology & Shamanism Christianity’s Pagan Roots by • The Electric Kool-Aid Acid Test by Tom Wolfe • Transfigurations by Alex Grey • The Lazy Man’s Guide to Enlightenment by Thaddeus Golas • Shamanic Experience A Practical Guide to Psychic Powers By Kenneth Meadows • Life and Teaching of the Masters of the far East by Baird T.Part 1. • The Power of Awareness by Neville Lancelot Goddard YouTube Videos (Titles as appearing on • The 2012 Enigma By David Wilcock Pt.D. D. Ph.spiritual technologies (get who it’s by) • Sage Spirit Salvia Divinorum and the Entheogenic Experience by Martin W Ball. Politics. and Culture by Julie Holland.The Business Behind Getting High (1/7) Marijuana Cannabis • Ibogaine-Rite of Passage Full Documentary part 1/6 • Iboga therapy • IBOGAINE IN THE NEWS • Bill O’reilly interviews Howard Lotsof on Ibogaine • Brue Parry Trips Again .Altered States of Consciousness • Gregg Braden on Consciousness • Joe Rogan talks about Marijuana and DMT • Mainstreaming Psychedelics: From FDA to Harvard to Burning Man • Joe Rogan Rant about Pot (Part 1 of 2) • Inside LSD Part 1-5 • The 11:11 Phenomena • Manifesting The Mind 1/12 • Cancer Killed by Cannabis-weed-pot-marijuana finds UCLA research and others Full-length Doc 107 . Spalding • The Emperor Wears No Clothes: The Authoritative Historical Record of Cannabis and the Conspiracy Against Marijuana by Jack Herer • The Pot Book A Complete Guide to Cannabis Its Role in Medicine.The Hallucinogen Iboga. M. Science.

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