Let me tell you, allen A short give away sequel to 11ways to forget your ex-boyfriend Written by haveyouseenthisgirl What

is between life and death? I've asked this question a lot of times but only one person gave me not the exact answer I'm looking for but the most accurate one. I met a girl, she met me.And thus said, THAT between life and death is where she led me. "What is between life and death, you ask? From my experience, let me tell you Al len that between life and death is...hope." -1 11pm. Napakaboring. I'm resting here in the hospital, in 3days kasi eh operation day k o na. Ang tahimik masyado sa hospital lalo na pag gantong oras, hindi ako makatulog... Pinagmasdan ko na lang ang mga bituin mula sa bintana ko sa gilid ng aking kama. *tok tok* "Huh?" nadistract ako from my star gazing ng bigla akong may narinig na parang k umatok sa kabilang dingding, sa kabilang kwarto. Nung una hindi ko pinansin kasi inisip ko na baka nauntog la ng yung nasa kabilang kwarto, baka malikot matulog. ø Pero naulit uli ito. *tok tok* Nagsimula na talaga akong magtaka kaya naman sinubukan kong tumugon sa katok ng kabilang kwarto. *tok tok* Dalwang beses akong kumatok. Sumagot din kaagad ito, this time mas malakas. *TOK TOK* Sumagot din uli ako. *tok tok* Inaasahan kong may sasagot na katok ulit pero wala na, hindi na sumagot ang kabi lang kwarto. Ewan ko kung bakit. Hmm. Baka wala lang din magawa yung nasa kabilang kwarto o baka hindi din sya makatulog. "Ohwell," since wala ng sumagot, in-assume kong ayaw ng makipaglaro ng nasa kabi

lang kwarto kaya naman pinagpatuloy ko na lang ang pagmamasid sa kalangitan. *tok tok* May kumatok ulit but this time hindi na mula sa dingding ang pagkatok ngunit sa aking pinto. Akala ko isa sa mga nurses kaya pinatuloy ko, "Come in." ø Nabigla na lang ako na imbis na nurse ang pumasok sa kwarto ko ay isang babae an g bumulaga sakin, the moonlight reflected her from the darkness of my room... Meron syang maitim at ma habang buhok na nakalugay, she's wearing a white hospital gown na hindi lalampas sa tuhod nya. Maputi sya a t may bibilugang mata, sa kaputian nya na-express ng mabuti ang kapulahan ng labi nyang maninipis na kasal ukuyang nakangiti pagkapasok nya. Mula sa pinto ay kumaway sya sakin, "Hi, I'm Shekinah. Knock knock." Let me tell you that this girl knocked on my wounded heart. -2 "Hi! I'm Shekinah. Knock knock." she lifts her hand and knocks her fist in mid a ir. "Uhh...hello?" ang awkward, err... Hindi ko malaman irereact ko sa current situa tion... "Who are you?" "I told 'ya," she pouts as she walk towards my bed and pronounces her name by sy llables, "I'm She-ki-nah." "Understood. But who is Shekinah?" she opens her mouth and is about to protest b ut I continue my phrase to stop her, "Who are you in this hospital? Why did you enter in my room? Are you t he one who was knocking from the next room?" "Yadaa yadaa! Why do people ask lots of questions!" she jumps to the free space of my bed and place some strands of her long hair and starts eating the tip. "If I answer all your questi on, will you come out and play with me?" ø Baliw siguro 'to, nagkamali ata sya ng hospital... Sa mental ata dapat sya. The way she acts is kinda creepy, not to mention her fair reflection in her white gown at ang mahaba nyang buhok. Sada ko? :o Impatient for my response, she moves forward having her face an inch away to min e then she repeats her question, "If I answer all your question, will you come out and play with me?"

" As soon as she have filled all my questions she stands up pulling my hands with her." I mumbled in tagalog afterall she won't understand me." Inalis ko pagkakahawak nya sakin at pumunta sa cabinet ko na nasa gilid ng kwart o. kinuha ko naman sa ilalim ng cabinet ang sapatos ko at sinuot ito. Am I the one who was knocking from the next room? Yaa. But just a minute. "Wait. I think she's harmless naman kaya having a company for tonight is not such a bad idea. i'm the girl next door.. she's all white w/ ."I guess so?" ay tae. then why's she wanting to go out if she has nothing to cover her from the coldness of the outside? "Ano ba namang babae 'to oh. Neither shoes. Nung malagay ko na jacket ko. then she shakes her head. Now. nilabas ko ang naka-hanger kong jacket at sinuot ito habang pinagmamasdan ang weird na si Shekinah na kasal ukayang nakaupo sa gilid ng kama ko habang nakayuko at pinagmamasdan ang pag-sway back and forth ng mga paa nya. "Let's go! Promise is a promise!" "But. how 'bout you? Arent you going to get dressed? It's only Spring and it'll be cold outside esp with just a hospital gown on. "Nah! I dont have a ny jackets with me. "Well. "That means 'yes' right?! Yay!" and to my surprise she suddenly grabs my hands a nd sways it up and down as she smiles in enthusiasm." wala naman akong pinromise eh. "Who am I in this hospital? I'm a patient as well.. l emme get my jacket. "And then I can get your blankie. up and down. Why did I enter in your room? Checking out for company." she smiles. "Oh well.." ø "In your room?" "Neither. I've run out of words at yun na lang nasagot ko." "Then what do you have?" "Nothing." she heads to my cabinet and rummages it for a pair of socks.. Argh. I hesitate to get off my bed. "Let's go?" she asks excitedly." She inspects herself." pagkatapos maisuot yung medyas bumalik sya sa may kama at hinigit nya yung bed sheet ko sa kama at kinover nya sa sarili nya. I'm bored. I can borrow your socks. let's go.

what're we gonna do?" "I dunno. I pat her head. "Good heavens. "Ang lamig. "You invited me. "Awoo. you should atleast have an idea of what to do." "Then. "C'mon. Unconsciously. stop with your si llyness. "Scared were you?" "Almost! You're likely the duplicate of sadako! Bah! Let's go. An d she teases. "We need to be careful with the nurs es." she just sticks her tongue out on my sarcasm. Spring's just about to bloom. "We can't use the froont door 'co z there will be guards." Upon exposed to the outside. ø "Here. She absolutely looks like the ring girl and it's ki nda creeping me out. pinakaweird sa lahat ng nakilala ko." "Well. let's head out." I hush w/ my index finger on my lip. "hahaha!" she raises her head abruptly and her hair fly back to where it was. She looked so adorable that I've not resisted." I head to the door and she follows." I place my palm on my forehead." she repeated while shaking her head." "Aye aye captain!" she raises her both thumb and she giggles.the sheet covered to her. It'll be trouble if we get caught." "I dunno." "Cut it out!" I freaked out. She raises her hand and I twitch to her image." "What?" "Ah." "How come you don't know?" grabe lang 'tong babaeng 'to. and there you was wanting to go out in just a hospital gown that doesnt e ven reach your knees. nothing. "Ssh. April's yet to come." explain nya habang bu maba na kami sa hagdan ng emergency exit. eh? There's still the Winter's air." she points to the emergency exit door. "Now that we're on the ground. cold breeze gave me the shiver and it's the same fo r her. they go back and forth. "Yeah. Then she bows her head and she places her hair on her face leaving only some spaces t o her eyes w/c is visibly black and white in the moonlight's reflection." . It's cold. let's just have a walk.

" "Pff. "I'm a constant liar. naglakad lakad na lang kami side by side." "Then why that long?" "Dunno. But nothing deadly or suffocating. "Copydog." She glares at me." . bad attacks come.. Hindi ko nga alam kung saan kami pumupunta eh. "I have asthma. would you mind if I ask what you have? I mean why are you in the hospi tal?" naitanong ko bigla habang naglalakad kami. puppy or whatever. been staying here for a month and some weeks." I nod. so I won't have any reasons to believe hard in her words." she smiles at me and it must be my imagination or the drowsin ess that makes me see her a wee bit transparent under the moon's light passing through her pallid skin." "Asthma. I just sigh to her almost irritating persistense. "Ah yeah." I corrected. she insisted." ngumiti sya tapos nag-hop sya until makaupo sya sa pavement." pinatong nya yung braso nya sa tuhod nya at inihiga ang ulo nya a s she turns to me. "You said so. "Dog. So you still want to ask me the same question?" So." so what if she's a liar? Atleast she warned me. "That bad?" ø "Nah. atleast to have a little conversation. basta sinusundan ko lang kung saan ako dinadadala ng mga paa ko. "I'm not telling." nevertheless. "How 'bout you?" Lumapit ako sa kanya at umupo sa tabi nya and mimic her.ø Ayun nga." ø "Cat.." she bits her lower lip. xxx-xxx "I'm not telling. Dog. "I'm not telling. she's a liar? "Sure. Tell me! Tell me!" "What?!" "Your sickness!" "You wont tell yours so why would I?" "Argh. Time after time. why not. "Fine. I tell mix truth and lies so it will always be up to you if ya wanna believe.

I've not ask your name yet. I'm actually dying." "It's Allen. "I'm one of those lucky bastards who has that. "You don't know the feeling of being dead when you're alive." "Then you do have a transplant! So why're you saying that you're dying?! Aint tr ansplant a sign of living and not dying?" "Yeah. "You're dying?!" "Sort of." it gets depressing whenever I hear such conversation.." nabigla sya sa sinabi ko kaya napaangat ang ul o nyang nakadantay sa braso nya." confusion is clearly written in her face." "You whiner!" "What kind of heck accusation should that be?!" medyo nainis-nagulat kong sabi. "I'm teaching you to believe more than beyond." I laugh in sarcasm.. ø "In life. percentage is just a number! Transplant is always a transplant! Why ar e you such a pessimist?!" "What sense there is in a 20% chance of success?!" bakit ba ako nakikipagdebate tungkol sa buhay ko dito sa weird creepy girl na 'to? It's annoying me. "Not when chances are not even the half of a hundred."I see.. y a heard about those attacks that in one blow might kill you?" She nods and I continue. That. that middle that I don't even know how to call it. that feeling of being in the middle of two skyscrapers.. I'm staying in the hospital 'coz in 3days I'll be having my operation. "And what sense there is to waste the heart that is about to be given to you?! A tleast believe! Atleast have a 100% faith! 20 plus 100 makes 120% surpassing the hundred!" "Don't teach me math! I know better!" I start scolding her. hindi ko alam ang sasabihin ko. That feeling. "I'm not teaching you math." "Shut up. "That feeling of being inbetween. hindi ko makuha yung w ord. big deal. Everyday my body worsen. "I've got heart problems." nanginginig na ako. "You mean being between life and death?" "Yeah! Exactly! That feeling of not knowing if it's life or death for you." ..." tinakip ko kamay k o sa mukha and starting to feel great depression." calm she begins." "So what about you? Ah yeah.

. she never said an ything inspiring nor convincing but. Then maybe that's where I am right now. she never said anything helpful.. "Le t me tell you Allen that between life and death is hope. "Where are we?" she does not bother to look back at me. "Tell me Shekin ah. I may not be from this country but heck will I be lost. Tinanggal ko yung kamay ko sa mukha ko at tinignan sya in agony. it seems like we're insi de a glittered bottle." she shot me a threatening look. "O r are you afraid to get lost?" "Lost? Nah. My soon-to-go-away hea rt. not even possible. But I won't bother going back. her head's looking forwa rd to the sky with eyes closed. Why did she even bother to bring me here in this creepy place? It's just as creepy as her." "Why?" "I can't go back. I swear to this gravestones." She gazes at me but not too long she stands up and stretches her hand to me. take my hand. I managed to ask. ø -4-With darkness prevailing and stars shining up above." she mumbles to herself." we sit to the ground beside the gravestones. I repeat my question. ø "Why? Don't tell me you're dying 'coz I'm really gonna kill you if you start goi ng pessimist again. eh? You miss it there?" "Hella yes.." "Far.." and with no doubt." "Really? Where are you from then?" "I'm from the Philippines... But we're actually in a cemetery which I don't know why she brought me here. I take her hand and she leads me to eve ry roads of hope. That's where you are now. She never said anything wise.. what's inbetween life and death? Where am I? If you can tell me what's inbetween them.. She told me something that has captivated a part of me. "Come. ...ø "Middle. "Where are we?" "D'you need to bother knowing the name of the place? Can you just simply tell wh ere we are? Or." she opens her eyes and gives me the gaze that has run all the shivers down to my spine. Let's go?" "W-where?" confused and surprised.

I broke up with her a long time ago. What's that suppose to mean. who's the kid? It's you. what's there to go back if the girl you love is already a t ease and happy? It'll only tear my heart to see her with someone else and it will keep reminding me that this disea se took her away from me. You speak nothing but harshness." she pouts. You don't know me." "Bastard! Why did you do that?!" "What do you even care. If 'ya heard it . you heard it and you still asked me the What question. Now tell me. I hit you ' coz you're a meanie. you're just acting like a brat. "I am not. How dare you hit me. I don't know you." she sticks her tongue out." "Meanie!" "Aray!" bakit nya ako biglang sinapok. "Aray! Aray! haha! So cute. "What?!" "You are deaf." =§§§= "You're stiff and maybe that's why you left your girlfriend. feeling's mutual."Well aside from that." she hugs her knees ." "What?! You left a girlfriend in your country?" "I HAD a girlfriend. "I should care." =§§= "I hate you. kid?!" "See. =§§§= "What's 'aray'?!" ø "It means ouch you brat. Stop saying aray with your accent. why would a complete stranger care? Maybe you're just playing around with me and I gotta tell you tha t it's quite annoying. you said I am stiff and that's why I left my girlfriend." =§§= "Aray!" she repeats in her accent. So te ll me." "Tss. And I'm not a meanie." "You act twelve. well as soon as I knew this illness. Well. "Don't worry. And how old are you?" "Seventeen." I pick up a small stone on the floor and throw it back to the ground. it sounds stupid." "Huh? You have nothing to do with me.

I had the urge to just nod and not say a word anymore. "And that 's a scaredy cat. For inexplicable reasons. please?" she looks at me with her pleading eyes. to o scared to hurt himself. Too scared to hurt someone." "You twat! Can you just answer my question and not divert it to a foolish talk?! " yes. "Don't say such foolishness. and a real masochist. I didn't. "You really are a constant liar and a big mystery to me." "Thank you for what?" the more I talk to her the more I get confused. you just told me. I guess it's true that I'm a meanie but how can you avoid it when you're talking to an abnormal person like t his Shekinah girl here?! =§§= ø "Fine." I come closer to her and she pushes me away. how did you know that I left her 'coz I don't want to hurt her a lot more by staying at her side?" I don't remember telling her details before and it's freaking me out that such phrases escaped from her mouth. You're stiff. running away from the possibilities." She's taken aback. . Running away from the outcome. Don't lie!" I'm not the one lying. who are you? I have a hunch that you're just lying about your personality and you're pretending that you don't know me when infact. too scared to face courage. ø She looks down on the ground. you got alzheimers Allen." "No I don't.. she is. Tell me. Not daring and taking the risk and surely not an optimis t." "No." "Yes you did. Just thank me and stop asking. hugs her knees tightly and speak with such sadness . I've never seen such shallow eyes that I can't even see my reflection in it. very s cared to hurt someone that you actually aim to hurt her a little than hurting her more in the future. "Really? You told it to me. you intended to knock at my wall in the first place because you want to take my attention 'coz you actually know me. She does not even bother looking straight in my eyes. "Stop asking. "Yes. So that's why you left your girlfriend 'coz you're just so stiff and a scaredy cat. "How did you know that? I don't reme mber telling any details like that to you. Tell me.. With those eyes. stop asking." she points at me then lower it to my left chest. It's like all my questions are piling up in a big mountain and not even one's getting an answer.already. you know me." My jaw almost drop with what she just said.

you'r e in the arms of hope. I've been waiting for her to show up again but the day's long gone and no one named Shekinah's knocking. percentage is just a number and believing is the real deal..." she said as she arranges the medicine from a box on my table. "Why'd you ask?" "Well. Allen. it was awkward at first but long after the silence became comfortable enough that w e just lay on one of the gravestones and watch the stars up above and.. . whether it's a dream or not. would you mind if I ask something?" ø "Sure. Since this morning. 11 Ways to forget your ex-boyfriend told us that Allen left her beloved ex-girlf riend Sena because he can't bear hurting her when she finds out about him dying. you mystify me. evertime someone knocks I get panicky by the thought that it might be Shekinah." she said stammering and her hands ar . my mind's crossed by last night's. I h ave no idea. I suddenly become uneasy. We st ay there like zipped zombies..An eerie silence occupied the whole graveyard. Up until now.ends here. or if she's even existing.. ." it's one of the nurses. Allen. nakahinga din ng m aluwag. Let me tell you that nothing is possible when you have faith and hopes with you. Feel it and dare to believe. Allen thought that he is dying b ut it's just his pessimism. don't feel sad 'coz you're in the most safest existence. "C-come in!" "Time for your 10pm medicine... yeah sure. No one dare to speak after. xxx-xxx -5 Let me tell you. he's not dying.. can you say 'hi' for me?" "Uhh... ø xxx-xxx Knock knock. Was last night a dr eam? Shekinah. He has a heart transplant but it's only a 20% chance of success but as what Shekinah told him. ø I fell asleep and waking up on my hospital bed the next day.. Take your medicine Allen. When you feel you're inbetween life and death. "Hey. "D'you know who's at the other side of this room?" She stops from what she's doing and looks at me in terror. If you happen to passby her room later.

"Let's go. I saw myself waking up in my hospita l bed.." "You sure alzheimer's not your reason of being admitted to the hospital?" "No. I'll take your blanket and socks again. Go ." "Secret!" she stands up and pulls my hand. You are peterpan.. I better go. "Ok.e shaking as she hands me my medicine. She j umps to my bed and smile to me as she mimics Bugs bunny's famous line. I drink my medicine and watch something on the television and after some quite w hile. Did you bring me here? Or being in the graveyard was just a big dream? It's kinda confusing me.. "To Neverland." I throw my hand on her face and pushes it lightly ." "Huh? Where?!" don't tell me she wants to go out again at this hour. Weird. I'm so not gonna play with your games again. It's just that. I hear a knock on my door..." "Stop fooling with me. I woke up by the knocking sound on my wall. Shekinah.. I turn it off and close my eyes to sleep. "What happened last night?" ø "Ya don't remember?" "Vaguely. As a response. Th e last thing I remember. "Come in." she winks and let go off me." "O-ok. She stops knocking and aft er awhile. I knock as well. "Eeek! Get your big hands off me!" she squeals and pushes it away from her face as irritation puckered her brow." "Neverland? Who are you. thank you. I rub my eyes and tak e a look at my bedside clock. I'm tinkerbell. peterpan?" "Nah. "Hallooo!" she's giddier the last time I saw her which was just yesterday. I'm sure it's Shekinah. "What's up doc?" "Nothing's up you weird girl.. I really can't remember how I went back to the hospital. ø *KNOCK KNOCK* The knocking repeats. I fell asleep on one of the gravestones and after that." this time." she exits rapidly. it's 11pm. Take a rest now.. "Go get your jacket and shoes.

"Geez. fine. you should have not bothered. you hear me?" "Aye aye captain!" xxx-xxx Tonight is a different night. I can't go alone. the day after tomorrow will be your operation day right?" I try to remember if I told such information to her b ut I failed. I might as well enjoy this 'coz this would be one of the last nights o f my life if ever I won't survive the operation.." "Are you crazy?!" "C'mon! Just buy it!" then she pushes me to the ticket machine. "Where do you think we're going?" "Somewhere. "Here. putting my jacket. "If I did not. "This would be the last time I'm going out with you at an hour like this. "That's ¤10." "Oh c'mon Allen. If someone get us caught." I jump off my bed and went ahead to my cabinet." "You can't go alone? That's what you've been doing since last night. it'll be trouble.." I hand her ticket. so cks and shoes as she wraps my blanket around her and puts my socks on her small feet." lucky I always bring my wallet with me and has atleast ¤60 in it." "I don't have money. "Go buy a t icket." "What?" . this is the last time I'd ask this favor to go out with you. Sh e sits to one of the benches as she wait for me to buy some tickets. What destination?" I don't what she has in mind but I don't think there w ould be any harm on playing along with her." still she accepts it.back to your room and sleep. Afterall." she walks around with her hands at her back and orders. she brou ght me to a train station." "Why so?!" "Just go and buy it!" can she be more demanding than this? ø "Fine. "Up to the final destination of this train. how can you ride the train? Now that I'm already here. "Pleaaaseeee?" ø "Oh geez. Instead of just walking around somewhere. I take my ¤20 and insert it in the machine 'c oz each ticket up to the final destination costs ¤10.

let's get out." "5. "I'm hungry! Let's go to the nearest restaurant!" "You really are out of your mind. we head out and she tells me her next plan. We actually don't have any neighbors with us on the opposite chair. some look at us and eventually fix their eyes on me. I'm thinking too much." she giggles." "Then?" I don't really know what's her plan." "Why?" "Ask me to give you a number. are sleeping comfty. then?" "After 5stops. She's even cold and she seems lifeless as she sleeps.. ø "Then.She just laughs and stands up from the bench. We found sits immediately." I heave out a sigh.. She's going random. here's the train. "Well." "Ok. "This is not a restaurant. well almost the rest. "Let's go. She sits beside the window and I at her right.. I watch her sleep. Just to think of it. "Well then. give me a number." . Let's think about it later. we can still buy foods in here. I should not bother with things that ain't my business. As the train stops at the 5th stop. As we pass every seat. it's not quite full neither empty." ø We ride in. "Give me a number." I glare at her. ø "Uh-kay. she's too pallid. you think there's still a restaurant open at t his hour? It's almost midnight!" "I know a place where it's still open!" then she pulls my hand and we start runn ing out of the station and we stop at the nearest 7/11 store. some did not bother and continue reading books or typing on their laptop and others.. let's go in. does she happen to have a seve re sickness? Oh no. I want to sleep first." she c loses her eyes and lays her head on my shoulder. "So where are we going?" I manage to ask in low voice so not to disturb anyone. I guess." she never answers my question.. how sick could she be? I don't really b elieve that she has only asthma. I don't know. =§§§= "Fine..

I would like some too of t hose hot milks." "And why? I spent a dollar for it!" . I paid all the expense and before leaving she says to the counterlady. I forgot it there. she hands it to me and ask me to bring it for her. Shekinah asks me some thing." I exhaust to her incredible annoying self and just open the pack of marshmallow and place some piece of it on the chocomilk letting it to float there. I grab some nachos and chocolates as she grab a pack of marshmallow. "What happened to your chocomilk?" "I drank it already. "Can you put some marshmallows on my chocomilk?" ø "Why don't you do it yourself?" "Please?" "Oh for Whoever's sake. I notice that she doe sn't have her chocomilk with her and she's only munching on her marshmallows." ø "Liar. the lady in the counter who's around 50 greets us with a warm welco me." well. "Goodnigh t. weird people these days. I don't know. As we go out of 7eleven to eat our stuff on the pavements." The counterlady has a big question mark written on her face as she punches our s tuff on the code bar. "Sure. We head straight to chips and other snacks to pig on. how stupid can you be! Let's go back and get your cup!" "No! Just leave it there." "Say what?! You forgot it at the store?" "Yeah." But it seems like the counterlady did not hear her and turns to the other way.As we enter. What a lazy bun. "Just a hot chocomilk. take care of yourself.. =§§§= We went to the counter and I ask her if she wants anything else and she told me. "Ah yeah. What's bothering her? Oh." "Oh. I would want to add 2 hot chocomilk. I was thinking too much that I forgot to bring my own cup. I did not see you drinking any.." "Well. f ixing some stuff." she turns to prepare hot milks and when it's done.

I want you to tell me how it feels to have another h eart beating inside you.. Tell me everything after the op eration. I want to know if it feels like being two people inside one body. like what you've said. "When operation's done. I want you t o tell me if having another person's heart beating inside you. why are you so eager to know?" "I'll tell you Allen but that's gotta wait until your operation's done. she might need some of those hot chocomilks. don't you want it?" ø "Honestly. what's your plan?" "I don't really know.." "Don't thank me. "Do you want to throw your heart away." ø "Sure.. Please tell me. I don't believe much in this operation but I guess." "Thank you." she throws a mallow in her mouth and then she buries her face on her knees." "Why do you want me to tell you these?" "I want to know. Allen.." "If it's a success. can you tell me how it feels to have another heart inside you? I mean.. Allen. I'm not even sure if it'll be a success. Afterall. I still ha ve to stay at the hospital after some days even the operation's done already. I want you to tell me if you can feel t hrough that other person's heart or if you could still hear the feelings of the original owner of the heart.. makes you feel the presence of the original heart owne r." "Your parents? How about you. . you can always knock at my door after the operation. I'm inbetween life and death so I might as well take this hope with me and wish for the best with my soon ope ration." I keep silent." "Who knows. Crunch and bites are the only audible ones between us. Maybe I'd try to check her if she's fine. Allen?" "No but I have no choice.." .. my parents want me to take this operation. She then s peaks.."Just leave it to the counterlady.. it's very tiring to work at nights. Afterall.. And yeah. I want you to tell me if it still feels the same.." "And when she's fine... what are you gonna do next?" "I don't know.." "Will you come back to your girlfriend?" "Maybe. Allen...

... No one allo wed me to go outside so I did not have the chance to meet her before my operation. Allen. I want to check her on the room next to mine but the doctors a nd my parents won't allow me to go out 'coz they said I should rest myself for tomorrow's operation. flashbacks of the past starts to play like those of camera fil ms." Though I did not understand it well.. okay. blurred faces surrounding me. And once again. And the next day. yes.. I fell into a deep slumber." After pigging out with the stuff we bought. ø xxx-xxx As I am laying on my operation bed..." "Ah. Wag mo ng itan ong kung bakit basta sumagot ka lang. sana sagutin mo. "Can I ask you a favor?" "What is it?" ø Eye to eye.. They prepared me at 11pm 'coz I will be operated at midnight. voices echoing i n my head. "Please take care of your new heart... I want to go out.. exactly mid night. we watch the glittering sky and the big moon shining upon us." ø "May mga bagay na gusto sana akong itanong sayo.. "Hello?" "Sena. take care of it f or me."Well.." "Sige.. napatawag ka. I woke up again on my hospital bed wondering if last night's j ust another dream again with Shekinah. That was the hour given to me 'coz they told me that my operation will run very long... "Allen.." "Hmm?" I look at her at my side to see her looking at me too. ano ba yun Allen?" "Umiiyak ka pa ba sa gabi?" . I just said yes and we continue to watch th e sky and not knowing how... we lay our bodies on the pavements n ot caring if anyone would pass there any moment. lights flashing on my face... she tells me.

." ø "Teka Allen. ano ba pinagsasabi mo? Nanggugulo ko ba or what?" "Sena. please." "Bagay sayo bangs mo pati highlights mo." "Alam mo bagay kayo ni Trey." "May mga pinagkakaabalahan ka na ba?" "Oo. Hindi ka sasaktan nun." "Hindi na.. Pakinggan mo ang puso mo.. magtiwala ka sakin. bakit mo sinasabi mga bagay na 'to? Tsaka diba sabi mo magtatanong ka lang hindi ka naman nagtatanong eh." ø . ha?" "Allen! Teka nga lang.. Masaya ako para sa inyo. iba kasi pangalan na ginamit mo eh.." ". mahal mo si Trey diba?" "." "Eh?!" "Pasensya na dati ah nung dapat kablind date mo si James." "." "Pag malakas ang tibok ng puso mo.. nagkasakit kasi sya nu n eh kaya ipinasa ka na lang nya sakin.. hindi ko naman alam na ikaw pala yun eh. marami." "Allen---!" "Mahal ka ni Trey. Wag ka n a ulit iiyak Sena... mahal mo na sya.. itanong mo sa puso mo kung mahal mo si Trey. Ipikit mo mga mata mo." "Teka lang Allen---" "Masaya akong makitang masaya kang kasama sya.. masaya ako at nililigawan ka nya." "Pakiramdaman mo Sena kung mahal mo na sya."Eh?" "Sagutin mo na lang Sena." "Meron pa ba akong remembrance o kahit ano sayo?" "Eh?" "Binabanggit mo pa ba palagi ang pangalan ko?" "Hindi na.

dare to fall inlove again." "Doc.. Palayain mo ang sarili mo sa sakit. what's inbetween life and death? Where am I? If you can tell me what's inbetween them.. don't give up now! PUSH!" "Hi.. Wag k ang malilito Sena at wag ka ring kakapit sa nakaraan mo. Knock knock. the rate's decreasing so fast!" "We need to give it a pump! Hand it to me. I'm Shekinah. I know you hear me." ø "Now?" "Now!" "Nothing.I'm teaching you to believe more than beyond. It keeps on decreasing. do you need this one?" "Yes! Yes! Hurry!" "Doc.."Huling tanong." "Let me tell you Allen that between life and death is hope. mahal mo pa ba ako?" "Ikaw na bahala magcheck sa box. doc!" "Kid." "Tell me Shekinah." "Allen---!" "Hand it to me. That's where you are . Then maybe that's where I am right now. percentage is just a number! Transplant is always a transplant! Why ar e you such a pessimist?!" "What sense there is in a 20% chance of success?!" ø "And what sense there is to waste the heart that is about to be given to you?! A tleast believe! Atleast have a 100% faith! 20 plus 100 makes 120% surpassing the hundred!" "Don't teach me math! I know better!" "I'm not teaching you math." "Teka Allen! Paano mo nalaman yung tungkol sa box!" "Sena. sana malinaw na sayo ang nararamdaman mo. listen to me." "We can't give up now! Another push!" "Still nothing. Yan ang 11th way to forget me." "You whiner!" "What kind of heck accusation should that be?!" "In life.

my doctor frowns. That's why she seems so transparent everytime the moonlight strikes her skin. "There's no one there. someone I know. ø "H-how did you know about Shekinah?" he's so shocked that he places his hands on his mouth with eyes wide open... ø I felt someone inside me. my operation's a succes so I guess she deserves to hear the good news. DUG." ø "I have asthma. I tell mix truth and lies so it will always be up to you i f ya wanna believe. DUG. take care of it for me." "For how long did she stay here?" I manage to ask. xxx-xxx "Where are you going?" my doctor stops me as I was about to knock at Shekinah's door..now.. I slept for a day." realizations run down in my whole system." "No one? How come? Is Shekinah done with her treatment? Has she left the hospita l already?" maybe yesterday? 'Coz after the operation. "For a month and some weeks. doc.." He did not answer but instead he opens Shekinah's room with one of the keys he h as on his pocket and opens it for me. revealing me an empty room. "Shekinah's long gone." when I said that. DUG. Th . she got hit by a driver who lost control of his wheel. "Just gonna check out a friend. "Don't give up kid! Don't!" "Please take care of your new heart.. "Doc! We need to hurry!" ø DUG. been staying here for a month and some weeks. She got hit so hard that she had had com a." "Oh God." DUGDUGDUG. Let's go?" DUG... "Huh? I don't get you.." "I'm a constant liar..... When she was going to her school.

. "Yes. Then why do I always wake up on my bed? Is she a dream? Oh. How st upid and blind can I be? ø "Do you know Shekinah?" I ask the lady. "If I did not.. It's like I'm connecting the dots so fast and I can't control myself to stop..." "Aren't you from the other city working at 7/11?" she's surprised when I asked h er that question. "Here. I did not even notice her name on it. she is my daughter." "You can't go alone? That's what you've been doing since last night. "Allen! Stop! Don't run ye t.. the woman from 7/11. . ø I feel butterflies inside my stomach.." ø "I don't have money..at's why she's so pallid. Shekinah Blake. "How did you know that this was Shekinah's room?" the doctor asks me. I saw a woman around 50 and she seems familiar.. The first time she brought me here. She's standing at that gravestone with her head bowed down and eyes closed. how can you ride the train? Now that I'm already here. my mind's clouded with qu estions that I don't where to seek the answers. "Did your parents told you already that she's your donor?" ø DONOR. I just keep on running and heading to that place where she brought me first. "Excuse me. "Have we met before?" I did not answer her question and instead I look at the name written on the grav estone. the counter lady. I can't go alone. Shekinah's my heart donor? I run out of the hospital hearing my doctor shouting. that's why she's so cold." still she accepts it. it'll be bad for your just operated body!" I don't bother listening. you should have not bothered." I hand her ticket. or physically with me atleast.." I told the lady as I walk near her.. I search and search for the graveyard where we sat and I lay m y body and when I found it.. To the graveyard.." Since last night? She meant that I was always alone. "That's ¤10. She raises her head and she is surprised to see me. she was never with me.

how stupid can you be! Let's go back and get your cup!" "No! Just leave it there. I can feel her inside me. "I guess so." "When operation's done. Shekinah. it wasn't me."Were you the one who bought 2 hot chocomilks and left the other cup for me?" "No. we have just been cleared to land at the NAIA airport." "Oh." "Say what?! You forgot it at the store?" "Yeah. I heard he r say. but did you?" I look down at Shekinah's grave. I was thinking too much that I forgot to bring my own cup." "And why? I spent a dollar for it!" ø "Just leave it to the counterlady." ø xxx-xxx Ladies and gentlemen. "Yeah.. ." The lady smiled bitterly. it's very tiring to work at nights.. Thank you." "Oh my god. She left it there and told me that you might ne ed it 'coz she knew that it's very tiring for you to work at nights.. she might need some of those hot chocomilks. The flight attendants are currently passing around the cabin to make a final compliance check and pick up any remaining cups and glasses. can you tell me how it feels to have another heart insid e you? I mean. I want you to te ll me if you can feel through that other person's heart or if you could still hear the feelings of the original owner of the heart. That's why I decided to go back to this city to pay a visit to h er stone. goodnight to me and to take care of myself. I felt her presence that night." "Did you not see her?" "No... I want to know if it feels like being two people inside one body. Afterall.that guy that was to receive her heart?! " I nodded... Plea se make sure one last time your seat belt is securely fastened. I want you to tell me how it fee ls to have another heart beating inside you... . d'you happen to be Allen--. She kept knocking on my wall and now. she's knocking on my heart.. makes you feel the presence of the original heart owner.. I want you to tell me if having another person's heart beating inside you. "I knew it. I want you to tell me if it still feels the same." "It was your daughter.

I really feel your presence inside me. Will you be always be there to guide me? Let's keep beating together.. you know what? Having someone's heart beating i nside you is kinda creepy. well I should be happy for her as well. Philippines. You are the hope inside me. xxx-xxx ø <PIXTEL§MMI§EBOOK§2005>6@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@</P IXTEL§MMI§EBOOK§2005> . too happy." I'll take care of this heart. creepy just like you. I just want to check how my ex-girlfriend's doing. I'll take care of you.. If Sen a's happy now. Shekinah. take care of it for me... But thing is. I might fall inlove again an d get hurt in the future but don't worry.I'm back. nervous and maybe. Shekinah. END. ø "Please take care of your new heart. I may be surprised.

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