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By: Colby Newbold
Author’s Notes: Before anyone reads this, I do wish to give a warning and brief mind !umbling thought" This" Is" A" #am$ire" Novel" There, I said it" %ou all have been warned" &en and boys, $lease let me tell you that this is no over due Twilight series" These are real vam$ires" They are scary and no, they are not faeries" They will get burnt if they go out in the sunlight, they do actually have fangs, they are scary and don’t try to be 'vegetarians(" )owever hard they try to cut bac*, they still drin* human blood, whether it’s from the hos$ital or a willing victim" As my friend +ac*son has said: real vam$ires don’t s$ar*le" That is a faerie" Also, I use the original mind s$i*ing ideas of the underworld" #am$ires have no soul and li*e many movies and boo*s or even ancient stories and theories, my vam$ires do have most of the same general characteristics and myths" Some things and ideas have been switched to give some of the characters more de$th, but, by any means, these are some real
vam$ires" ,o *ee$ this in mind when you read my boo* and don’t forget to give me some comments" Again, I am no Ste$henie &eyer, I li*e the classics and I don’t try to twist the *nown facts" Than* you all, and I ho$e you en!oy my boo*" Colby Newbold
-reface: I stared into the eyes of the shadowed figure" )ow strange, to be the one $rotecting now, wasn’t it. So different, so $ainful, and so unbelievably hard not to stri*e first" &y hand clenched into a fist as he too* a ste$ toward me" /ho was going to survive. Because both of us couldn’t wal* away from it" 0nly one could survive" But which one. I was less confident, wea*, small" /hat could I do but stand here and stare. I would be doing it for someone else" I wouldn’t be selfish" I’d give u$ my life for that $erson if it meant they could live a ha$$y life" But that left me in the middle of things" /as blac*ness going to swallow me li*e it should’ve months ago when I first moved here. 0r was I going to live in the rays of the sun. I was confused, I admit" /ho wouldn’t be when it came to the life or death scenario. It was something that maybe even one of us wouldn’t wal* away from" But I had to ta*e the ris*" )e’d want m to" This was the only way to ma*e things right: to ris* my own life" But how would it end.
or sun set. told me everything was alright es$ecially . &y name is Candice )again. Cha$ter1: /ho am I. I was si2teen going to be seventeen on November twenty first" I lived in Te2as almost my whole life" That is until my mom $assed away" 3eaving me with a decision between family I hardly ever saw and my older brother that lives far away in Cy$rus. or at least I thought so" 43ife after someone whom I5ve *nown and been closed to my whole life and they die. +a*e. everything bright in the world shuts off almost as if the light bulb in that $art of my mind that holds love burns out" It5s a scar left on my s*in that no matter where I loo*. a $lace with almost no sun rise. I always *now it is there"6&y older brother.
I . he was one of those ty$e of $eo$le that !ust li*ed to have fun all of the time. he left" They had already had my brother 8 years earlier and thought +a*e was all they would get" Boy. /hat is it going to be li*e. but the same thing $o$s u$ every time" I loo* at the $ictures" 7ven though they loo* even greater than when I went to )awaii or . they must have been sur$rised" It was !ust my mom. and never are serious" )e got my mom $regnant and as soon as she told my dad.because he had thought that if I moved u$ with him. I wouldn5t have any boyfriend $roblems" 7ven though I5m almost 18" 0*ay. by the stories of my father that my mother told me. fresh air. etc" But for me. I had no need to thin* about what the island will loo* li*e" The moment I found out where I was going. I !um$ed in front of the com$uter and googled it" 0bviously. and the beating heat of the sun" But moving u$ to an island I don’t even remember""" I don5t even *now what to call it" &aybe a !ourney. by now.lorida. strange" I *now" At this time in my teenage life. I would have wished to have *nown my father" &aybe we could be living together" But. and I forever until +a*e went to college" Now loo* where that left me" Stranded on an Island where everyone can5t hel$ but ta$e a fa*e smile to their faces" 3iving in Te2as was li*e being free" I had room. or anything of significance" +ust $ictures of the coast. you reali:e how horrid my memory is" /ebsites filled with traveling and great beaches" The first one gives me no descri$tion whatsoever of school. culture. language. +a*e. Am I going to li*e living Cy$rus. or a horror !ourney" Something that is thrown at you and you have no choice but to ta*e it" To ta*e it and wait until you get the answer to whatever the 9uestion or 9uestions that you were worried about in the first $lace" Such as mine: why did this ha$$en to me. boats. $eo$le swimming in the ocean and hotels" I loo* for longer.
or going to ta*e the ring bac* to where it was created" I find it e2citing to feel li*e I5m the one on the !ourney" 3i*e I5m no longer worrying about myself.didn5t care" &om would never be here to en!oy it with me" /ithout my mom. but whether . someone who5s decision may change the world and way of life" Someone. it wouldn5t be as great" And I’d only ever been to Cy$rus with her to hel$ +a*e move" None of her boo* !o*es" No 9uoting some of her favorite authors" No finding a boo* mis$laced with a boo*mar* near the end of it" Nothing" +ust the dusty cobwebs overflowing my bo2es of boo*s from the house" +ust the 9uiet when I read" No teasing when someone finds me reading some of the most mature of boo*s" But it seems that even without the laughter and the !o*es. or Sherwood. the first boo* I read" All of those were $ac*ed away in one of my suitcases. I balled my eyes out for hours $ac*ing u$ the $iles of boo*s from my mom5s shelves and staring at the $ictures hanging on the walls" -ictures of us reading and !o*ing around" A $icture of me sitting on to$ of one of the shelves in our library with a $ile of boo*s sitting on my la$" All $ictures were li*e that< my mother and I !o*ing about our favorite boo*s. but in 0:. $ictures ta*en by my nanny of me at bedtime. leaving no strea*s while the $eo$le smile bac* at me" The worst $art of that. it seems strange and forever ago" The tears dried on the glass. or the scarecrow gets a brain" I5m no longer selfish because for once in my life. along with the tears that flowed down the glass" Thin*ing bac* on the time. I still find the comfort in boo*s" It5s no longer li*e I5m in my house. is . I5m worrying about someone of more significance. and the 9uotes from the best authors I5ve ever heard of. whom is *nown throughout countries and countries of readers" /hen I was first getting ready to leave Te2as.rodo ma*es the right decision.
it may no wor*" If it was $ossible for me to do so. 7nough about death and my mother. when $eo$le. as much as I could ramble on about her. or a drun* driver *illed them" )alf of the time. =Boo*s are li*e $eo$le. I would5ve" I would5ve done anything to *ill the cancer inside of my mother. or someone such as my mother. it wasn5t cured. but what can we do when we5re given no other choices. someone dies" Their sic*ness was either fatal. not that we want to. but we have no choice" About every three seconds. the holes and tears in them. such as my nanny and careta*er. otherwise they will get sic*. treat them well. could die of a sic*ness" 7ither way. then the whole thing falls a$art. we can5t do anything" 7ven if we used all of the money in the world. you can5t bring bac* to life" It5s a $rocess that we all eventually go through. but after my mother died. it5s fast or slow.one of those $eo$le will never smile again" There will be no more $ictures of her. there will be no more boo*s to give her on her birthday unless I want to ris* those classics getting soa*ed down into the soil" And as my mother always said. or it was human or natural" Someone could easily die at an old age. or the $erson dies" The $ages become hard to fi2. or in a boo*. and soon die unless cured"= -art of that is true" A sic*ness can get worse and worse as it grows accustomed to the body" /hen it finally wea*ens the immune system. let5s tal* about how this all started" Not bac* to when I was a baby and born. but at some $oint there is nothing we can do about it" Surgery goes bad. the s$ine has fallen com$letely off or torn through if it5s a $a$erbac* and a $erson. saw me at my worse" /hen I was de$ressed and hadn5t sto$$ed crying for days" >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> . the s$ine or $ages.
= I waved my hands around. -lease ma*e it sto$.= I loo*ed u$ from the bo2 in front of me filled with boo*s" &y mother5s boo*s" I carefully slid the lid over the to$ and ta$ed it over with the $ac*aging ta$e" The doors o$ened and I loo*ed away to hide my tear stained face" But before I *new it. it should be obvious enough to what it truly was that I was referring to" =Candice.= She loo*ed down at me as we wal*ed out through the double doors and into the hallway" =/hat is it you want to as*. you *now. well.= I bit my li$ and loo*ed around me" The furniture was being covered with white sheets and the $aintings that had once hung so vividly. can I as* you something. Are you in here.=Candice. but now. if in a blac* hole is really any good for my mom5s anti9ues" =I wanted to *now: am I ever going to. a gentle hand was wi$ing away the invisible tears my eyes could no longer $our out while the other one was comforting me against a soft chest" I loo*ed u$ and began to sha*e. those boo*s are being filled into bo2es for me and storage" =?atherine. this was going to be hard to get used to" . get over this. as if crying without the salt water" =/hen will this ever sto$. it5s going to be alright" As much as I *now both of us would love to go bac* in time and fi2 this. were now being ta*en down and being wra$$ed in clear $ac*aging for storage" . Candice. there5s nothing we can do"= ?atherine hel$ed me u$ and I loo*ed bac* at the half full library" Shelves were once filled with boo*s. it5s u$ to you" It5s normally when you finally allow it to be true"= )er arm wra$$ed around my shoulder as we wal*ed down the staircase filled with wor*ers and movers" %a.or safe *ee$ing. ?atherine"= =Shhh.
li*e I said before. I mean love.= her arm sli$$ed and I loo*ed away" =Candice. hel$ing me with school wor*. built for you and all of your mom5s boo*s"= She sto$$ed one of the wor*ers when she reached the bottom and started to argue with him about the amount of $ac*aging done on one of the $aintings" I sighed and continued down the staircase" As much as I have grown to love ?atherine sense she too* over at ta*ing care of me while my mom was away when I was nine. I don5t *now" But there is one thing I do *now. I finally had someone else to tal* with instead of my cat +osie.=%a. you loved. and I no longer had to sit through the evening shows with babysitters while we5re waiting for my mother to get home from her tri$s to find the rarest of boo*s" ?atherine had stayed with us ever sense. while my mom would leave once or maybe even more a month to fly out to some $lace in the smallest of countries or states. your mom more than anything in the world" A love li*e that can5t !ust disa$$ear li*e fog in the morning. by the time I turned twelve. ya I *now" %ou say that every time I as* you" But do you thin* I will ever get over the death. eventually. and reading to me before bed. I started to get home schooled my ?atherine" She let me choose which . my mother decided she was to move in with us" That gladdened me. and you need to get bac* to $ac*ing some of your things" And don5t worry. +a*e said that he would be more than willing to have a se$arate room. it doesn5t hel$ the fact that she may have loved my mother too" After a year of feeding me. it stays with you always"5= She shrugged and started down the staircase even faster" =I have to ma*e sure your flight will be ready in two days" +a*e has everything wor*ed u$ for your school in -olis. to get the boo* she had been longing for" I was used to it. li*e a 3ibrary.
some of the words were already familiar to me. if I *new them.rench. she changed that" I was at the adult reading level" I had read some of the most confusing boo*s to be found in our library" She had me fluent in four languages< . she loves to wear her leather !ac*et. Italian. for I had ta*en S$anish. but we . I chose random words from the dictionary for my language tests. I was the one that tested myself. S$anish. because certainly I don5t" So. he was $ractically bro*e" And schools li*e that tend to cost more money" &aybe some things have changed" /ho *nows. and most languages come off of Italian or @ree*" At least that5s what I learned from ?atherine" ?atherine hadn5t been an actual teacher to me. and +a$anese" I en!oyed the Italian the most. she5s a $retty bad girl: rebels against her mom and dad5s wishes. that showed I had been $racticing" I loo*ed around me and swallowed bac* a scream" I was to go to a school" An 7nglish school. without the drugs" I started to get into cars. where there were uniforms" I have no idea how +a*e $ulled it off. doesn5t do her homewor*. slee*. my life had changed com$letely" I sto$$ed $laying bas*etball when I turned fourteen and started to act li*e my brother. and. she let me choose the amount of $roblems to do each night. because when he left here. and fell in love with every $art of the !ee$ that I eventually bought with my own money when I was fifteen" I started to wor* on that and by the time I turned si2teen. it was ready to drive4I love that !ee$6" I hung out with a engine lover !ust as myself at the time" )er name was Sharie" She sounds li*e a little goody two shoes" But really. li*e most motorcyclists. not e2ceeding forty or more" But by the time I was fifteen.boo*s I would read for school. blac* curls" But I loved her" The only thing we really had in common was the motors. that matches her long.
I did laugh $retty hard when she came into homecoming loo*ing li*e . sorry guys" But she ins$ires me" Not only is the main girl. such as )is . she falls in love" . you should be willing to tell everyone that" 3i*e I5m willing to say that me being a ma!or boo*worm I am com$letely in love with -hili$ -ullman and Tamora -ierce" I love fantasy series. 4nerdy or not6. which sadly. watching chic* flic*s. got me into wearing eyeliner" I got her into reading. but the only way she can ful fill her dream of becoming a *night. has become a motion $icture that s*i$$ed the last one hundred $ages or so in the boo*" Then there5s Tamora -ierce. young. she didn5t care" Showed u$ in her leather !ac*et. which was not very easy.ran*enstein’s wife afterwards"6 I have to admit it though. and I was luc*y enough to get her to wear a dress once" %a. whom wrote the Song of the 3ioness series" . loo*s li*e . a girl who doesn5t brush her hair before riding with a helmet on.efinitely something only a girl would li*e.ar* &aterials by -hili$ -ullman. I *now" 0nce" 7ven during the dances li*e our homecoming and winter formal. with her hair not even brushed before the bi*e ride4and let me tell you. and sur$risingly got each other into what we loved se$arately" She got me into no hair cuts every month. Alanna. bought me a leather !ac*et.started to learn new things about each other. and. is she must lie about her identity and $retend to be a boy from the age of eleven to eighteen" 7ven so.ran*enstein wife" It was $retty funny" But no one else cared" That5s what I love about her or loved since I5m moving because she didn5t care what everyone else thought about her" She was also uni9ue and com$letely different believe everyone should have that 9uality" It ma*es it sim$le to be yourself" Some $eo$le even act li*e others so they5re li*e" I find that de$ressing" If you li*e something li*e a movie or television show.
such as Alanna5s. in it’s own. I5m avoiding the sub!ect. so I5m changing what I said before" I do li*e $eo$le that show their true selves. it5s hard to tell the truth" Alright.That5s what I call true love" They didn5t love her for her beauty. !ust because I5m saying that sometimes it is better to lie. and then there5s nothing left to s$ill through the bro*en wall" &y mother was the bro*en wall" The instant I was called out of the hallway and into the emergency room. but if you have no other way around something. showed her bravery" She showed that no matter what. stranded and alone while everything else ha$$ened around me" AhhhhB I was still being negative. and as my thera$ist told me4yes. but it was $ainful. it doesn5t mean that I want everyone to lie" It5s really not even healthy to lie< it gathers on your conscience. but for what she was" The fact that she wanted something so badly and hid her identity for those until she was eighteen. releasing all of the salt water my body owned. starts to burn and you feel the need to gush out and tell the truth" But in some $laces. and crying li*e I5ve never cried before. scary sense" The *itchen o$ened u$ to me then and I sat down on the island" /or*ers wra$$ed and $ac*ed things around me while I stared at the counter" This is how it was going to be li*e living with +a*e" Being in the middle. I5ve done all of those too many times to count" And I even feel li*e I no longer can cry. I have a . almost li*e the dam finally bro*e. I *now" I should be worrying about what Cy$rus is going to be li*e. how I’m going to live without my mother in my life. I couldn5t believe what I heard from the doctor" It released a $ain in my heart I5ve never felt before" 3i*e someone too* a hammer and tried to smash my heart with it until it bro*e in half" 0*ay. but the truth is. sometimes it is better to lie" Now. you can follow your dreams" 0*ay. and eventually. so I5m being a little over dramatic.
as I ho$ed I wouldn5t. I need to thin* only $ositive and be willing to let myself cry" 0*ay. unless someone was hiding out down into the +a$anese garden" It seemed inviting enough. I darted out of the house and around bac*" The smells of the garden reached my nostrils the moment I ste$$ed out of the house" The fountain o$ened u$ in the courtyard and I dashed towards it" &y hands cu$$ed water and I s$lashed it at myself" I slouched ne2t to the fountain and $ulled my feet u$ to wra$ my arms around and to bury my face in" Surely. no one could see me. and bo2es and bo2es of boo*s getting carried down from the library" Could this really be ha$$ening. I mean. I reali:ed something: I5ve truly gone madB I actually had the thought to hurt myself !ust to feel the sensation of crying once again" /ow. it seems I5ve gone cra:y and maybe even somewhat cree$y" I shoved my chair out from behind me and stood hel$lessly" This had to sto$ some time. so I too* an outstretched ste$ towards the gate" Bridges and fountains filled it. shouldn5t it. but I5m a big girl" -lus. I $inched myself. from here. I loo*ed around me and watched the de$ressing scene ta*ing $lace" /hite $aint covering u$ the warm colors that once covered the rooms to the house" /all$a$er getting stri$$ed down to the original wall. could I. I rushed onto where no one was sure to see me" &aybe the . I couldn5t live forever without shedding tears.shrin*6. I !ust can5t cry anymore" I could feel my eyes burn with the ache and need to shed tears" I almost wanted to get myself hurt to feel the tears rush down my colorless chee*s" It would finally give me that relief" Then. I *now I shouldn5t try to *ee$ my emotions balled u$ inside of me. as well as flowers and trees" /ith one glance around me. and I certainly could feel it" I was ho$ing for the e2act o$$osite" /ith a sigh.
my brother and I are the only one5s left. I let the scarlet $edal drift closer in the hel$ of the air.neighbors would see me if they dared to !um$ over our I mean. but it smelled both sweet and bitter" Not only were there bridges and a $ath that lead on for a while longer. they had never met an there was no trace or record of him *nowing at all about her" So. my mother is or was $rettier" In my own o$inion" So. my grandfather5s daughter loo*ed almost e2actly li*e my mom" 0nly. with my grandmother5s sister. they were li*e long lost twins" I5ve always thought it would be cool to have a twin" /e could . and when we as*ed what she *new my grandfather *new about this. well. into the water below the bridge I was standing on" 3i*e I was saying before. the few cousins I do have. but the fact that she had grown to be so close to her mother and she dies instantly with cancer. she got no money" )er mother was still alive. whom is in a wheelchair. I couldn5t tell from which one it was. and my grandfather5s secret daughter" &y mother hadn5t found out that he actually had another daughter until a few years ago" even weirder. ma*es it very much li*e my own situation" So. our once again I mean my yard is very large" I couldn5t hel$ it that my grandfather died who was very rich I might add and my mother ha$$ened to have gotten all of the money" She also got all of the furniture. my mother was an only child" Strangely. of course. her mother had died when she was twenty" Alright. my ten foot fence and stumble after me into the garden gate" No. there was a $ond that stretched all around the bac*yard" %es. she $ractically !ust threw us out of the house" It was that bad" The thin* that was really weird. so I wasn5t twenty. everything he owned" Anyways. that wouldn5t ha$$en" I $ic*ed u$ a $edal that had fallen out of one of the nearby flowers.
you can finally sto$ hanging out with all of us frea*ish girls and date a girl who we would disa$$rove of"= I started to laugh when his face became bright red and he turned away so I couldn5t seem . I5ve been loo*ing around for you"= I turned around to see my third best friend in the entire world holding out his arms for a hug" %es.on5t worry" It won5t be too hard" -lus. it5s a he" But it5s not at all li*e some $eo$le would thin*" I rushed u$ and $ractically lea$ed u$ into his arms" Cac*5s warm arms envelo$ed me into him" I let the tears roll down my chee* as I bit my trembling bottom li$" =I as*ed ?atherine where you were" She said she wasn5t sure"= I sighed and leaned away" )e wi$ed away a few of the tears on my chee* but they !ust *e$t coming" =I thought you5d be out here anyways" %ou always li*e to come here when you5re thin*ing"= I smiled at that and rubbed my already reddened eyes" =Sorry to worry you" I was !ust trying to rela2 myself" I5m !ust too much of a mess to fi2 anything right now"= I yawned and reached u$ to cover my mouth with my arm" Cac* smiled and loo*ed down at me.isney magic li*e Tia and Tamara" But it would be cool to be able to have someone that *nows how your feeling or at least someone you can always tal* to" =Candice.switch $laces if we li*ed a guy but the other twin got a date with him instead" 0r if only one of us studied for a test. so they too* it twice" 0*. =I5m really going to miss you" I won5t be able to get any girl to dress in $in* unwillingly or even to wear li$stic*" It5s going to be tough"= )e wi$ed away what loo*ed li*e a tear" I couldn5t stand his soft side so I $unched him $layfully on the arm" =%ou5ll be fine" . I5ll sto$ there" So maybe this is no .
= I o$ened my eyes to see him smiling trium$hantly" &y li$s felt strange. I do not hate it" )is hands gri$$ed my shoulders and $ulled me closer towards him" &y arms fell lim$ to my sides and he let go" &y eyes stayed closed and I could feel his !agged breath fan over my face" =Now do you believe me. ama:ing. so I never have *issed a guy before" And no. /ith me. =/hy wouldn5t someone li*e you. )e sighed and continued to loo* through me. .= In love. love me.him" =Cac*. I mean. I5ve been in love with you ever sense fourth gradeB . I felt di::y and confused" I hadn5t even *now much of what had !ust ha$$ened" And yet.= )e gri$$ed my arms and stared into the small $ools of my eyes" Then I reali:ed. I never thought anyone would fall in love with meB =I I thought we were !ust""" really good friends"= I stammered" I could feel the warmth of sweat tric*ling down my nec* as I tried to figure out the missing $iece of the $u::le: how could someone li*e me. and I hurried to close the ga$ between us" /hen we both had to let go to breath. and you5re movingB= )e leaned in and *issed me hard on the li$s before I could do anything" 0*. great $ersonality" %ou5re $erfect and you don5t even *now itB Candice. how many times do I have to tell you this. I had to leave tonight" /hy did he wait until now to tell me. /hat is it. fun. %ou5re the best $erson I *now. smart.oes that mean anything to you. tingly somehow" Almost li*e they were numb" I reached out with one of my hands and $ulled him close to me again" )e didn5t $rotest. funny. )ow strange is that. %ou5re beautiful. he was wearing the serious e2$ression" No time to be fooling around" =Candice" )ow could you not figure out after all of these years.
Cac* s9uee:ed me hard and my body shoo* as more of the tears $ooled over" /as this ever going to end. I was being hurt. as*ing me whatever I *new about the unfamiliar island that I barely remember visiting from when I was younger" /hen we finished with the boo*s. %ou mind giving us a minute or two. but I don’t *now who could loo* after me" But I do get all of the money from the house selling so that’s always a $lus"= I $ut my hand on the bac* of his nec* and $ulled his face to mine" /e stared into each other’s eyes for what seemed li*e an eternity when his li$s crushed urgently into mine" This wasn’t li*e the *iss in the +a$anese garden" Not as soft and caring" &ore rough and mind boggling" /hen he released his hands from my face. and went inside to retrieve my last bag" Cac* leaned down and stared into my eyes" =I wish you didn’t have to go" /e could be in a relationshi$" I’m really going to miss you too" I don’t *now what I’m going to do when my car brea*s down again" %ou’re the best mechanic that we have here"= I laughed and hugged him tight for one last time" =I’m going to miss you too" I wish that I could stay. and hurting everyone around me" Someone who I loved dies. I sighed and climbed into the $assenger seat of ?atherine’s car" . and then I have to leave someone who loves me bac*" I really wish none of this ever ha$$ened" Cac* hel$ed me finish $ac*ing u$ the boo*s. while I held onto my mother’s old suitcases filled with my own items and the carry on bag" ?atherine stared at us as he hel$ed me into the car" =?atherine. it was time for me to leave" I $ac*ed the clothes that I would be using for my first wee* until the rest of my clothes would be shi$$ed with the rest of my $ossessions" Cac* hel$ed me with my luggage" )e carried most of it.= She nodded to me.
= ?atherine loo*ed away from the doors in front of us and turned to me" )er eyes were trimmed with red" She had been crying" =That. comforting me by allowing me to stain her blouse" . Candice" It was from your mom"= She $aused to loo* from the luggage to me" =She tal*ed to me se$arately" She thought that she was going to die. there.rom her"= She sto$$ed and I understood why" I was sobbing and she sat down with me.She came outside. so she wanted to ma*e sure that you had something for your birthday" . Can I as* what this $ac*age is for. wasn’t it. She $ar*ed her car in the $ar*ing lot and hel$ed me carry the luggage out one by one" . carrying my last bag and a wra$$ed $ac*age" She handed me the $ac*age and managed to somehow shove the luggage in the trun*" I waved goodbye to Cac* as we s$ed away towards the air$ort where I would soon start my new !ourney of life" I loo*ed out at the burning sun and unrolled the window" I let my hand resist against the wind from our s$eed of the car" The warm bree:e lifted my hair and tangled it" I was going to miss this" /hen we turned onto the e2it.ive of them in all" I held the $ac*age in the other hand and had two of the suitcases in the other" =?atherine. The end of my ha$$y life. The end of love. The end of everyone I thought I *new so well. I sighed and stared bac* over the freeway" This was it. it’s not fa = Then she sto$$ed me" =It’s not from me. is your birthday $resent"= I loo*ed down and felt suddenly guilty" There was no need for her to get me something for my birthday" )er s$ending as many years as she had with me and my mom was enough" =I don’t want anything from you.
as in my mom.=Shhh" It’s o*ay" She loved you a lot. wishing it was rather the Te2as s*y. and sighed" =I love you mom"= I whis$ered" .= She loo*ed at me li*e she thought I already *new that answer" I did" She. 7ven the doctors had no idea how seriously dee$ she had already gotten into it" =)ow come you never told me. that’s one of the reasons why she got this for you"= She $atted the $ac*age I was holding tightly to my chest" This was something I had never thought my mother would do" /hy hadn’t she told me that she had a hunch she wasn’t going to survive cancer. Candice" %ou *now that" She always wanted everything to be $erfect" In fact. had wanted me to *now that I loved her" That this was something that she wanted me to have at what ever costs" It was something she *new that only I would understand and no one else" I loo*ed u$ at the ceiling.
!ust the gloomy gray s*y lifted above me" Normally in Te2as I would have seen the Sun lift at maybe three or four in the morning" I grabbed my boo* bag that carried my most valuable boo*s and my la$to$.inally a few more hours $ast and my $lane arrived at the air$ort" No sun. the $ac*age. and ste$$ed out of the $lane and into the dar*. twisting tunnel that would lead me to my new life" I shifted my bac* to it was over my shoulder and continued towards my new life" I stared at the ground as I went. I was in the middle of a busy air$ort< children running away from their . careful not to bum$ into anyone" /hen I finally loo*ed u$." .isturbed It was 0ctober twenty ninth. while I waited for my si2teen hour flight to end from Te2as" . no sun rise.our fifty nine in the morning" I was counting down the minutes until I would arrive in 7uro$e" &y eyes wide o$en.Cha$ter D:.
when my mom had $assed !ust F wee*s ago I would have thought that I might live with my aunt or uncle u$ in ?ansas but I got to decide" 0bviously I had chosen here with my DE year old brother" Gather than a small trailer in the middle of no where" But I’m not saying here. I could see the 7uro$ean furniture inside" In the bac* I could see a large shelter . 'you and me( by 3ifehouse was on and the volume low" I raised my head and loo*ed at the house in front of me" The front of the house was made com$letely of glass windows that $eered inside. gladly. this is it. under it there was a large. we5re here"= +a*e said in his robot voice" I wo*e u$ and noticed that my i$od was still $laying. we arrived at the ferry" )e went u$ to the bar and ordered a beer for himself while I stayed at the head of the shi$ and loo*ed out around me" The Sea was stretched out all around me" but in front of me. but did have enough beers to ma*e him a little di::y" The ferry let out the cars in an orderly fashion and I listened to my i$od im$atiently" =)ey *iddo. +a*e ran u$ to hug me while I sli$$ed away from him" )e hel$ed me carry the E bags I had grabbed from the luggage cart" )onestly. he stirred and !um$ed u$ from the seat" &y older brother. clear built in $ool and ne2t to it was a hot tub" =0h. it sto$$ed where a large island laid out in the middle" /e arrived on the island in about an hour. in the E bedroom house and one shower was any better" After a few hours of slee$ in the small car +a*e owned. foreigners as*ing for directions" Then there5s +a*e< aslee$ in the waiting area with a bag of chi$s in his la$s" Ty$ical +a*e" /hen I started towards him with a sigh.$arents.= I answered unaware that I was going to be living in a e2$ensive 7uro$ean home for the ne2t few years of my life" . +a*e wasn5t drun*.
lam$. it !ust didn5t seem li*e home" )e noticed that I was having trouble with the door" )e wal*ed aroung and *ic*ed it.Candice.=great.=%es" Isn5t it great" This is my life. there was an attached des* with a brand new mac boo*. !ust beautiful"= I said with a fading fa*e smile" Although the house was ama:ingly beautiful and a little larger than I e2$ected. . I5m sure you5ll love it= =It5s. and sim$ly lifted the handle" )e $ulled me u$. smac*ing my head against the to$ of the inside of the car" =I5m so sorry" I"" didn5t"" er"= he loo*ed away leaving to the bac* of the car" )e banged down on the trun*. he then carefully $ushed it o$en" +a*e gently $ushed me aside with two of my suitcases" =%our room is the second one on the right" The bathroom is on the left and there5s one in your room too"= he said smiling as he set down my suitcases" I didn5t buy the heavenly essence he was trying to set" I brought !ust one bag with me into =my room=" Although you could tell that he had no idea what ty$e of furniture I would li*e" a Hueen si:e loft bed was set out near the glass wall" Anderneath.=I $aused for a moment searching for the right words. shoc*ing me" Then ad!usted his !ac*et. unloc*ed it and it lifted" )e $ulled out my floral suitcases that I found in my mom5s closet" The smell of them made me smile" But I only smelt them in my free time" +ust so I didn5t seem obsessed" )e showed me through the gate and led me to the front door" I ste$$ed aside as he literally shoo* through his clothes loo*ing for the *eys to the house" )e then suddenly reached down in the bac* $oc*et of his !eans and $ulled out his wallet" )e $ulled out one of his credit cards and slid it carefully in the crac* between the door and the wall.
and an home" I rushed over and smiled.B= I called down but no one answered.oes he have your number. already turning on my i$od and blasting the music" I switched on my la$to$ and started to chec* my email when the door bell rang" =+a*e. hi" I5m uhh +ohn"= he said trying to blurt at least anything out" =)i +ohn" %ou can come in if you5d li*e to"= &otioning my hand towards the inside of the house" he smiled and wal*ed in *nowing e2actly where to go" )e must have been here many times before" =I live a few streets down . or do you need to write it down for him. the door bell rang" I $aused the song $laying on my i$od and flew o$en the door" I ran downstairs and thrust o$en the door" =)i +a*e" I was !ust going to as* if"""= )e suddenly sto$$ed as if reali:ing that I was wearing $in* fu::y sli$$ers when he was staring down" )e lifted his head and I could see the $u::led loo* in his eyes" =I uhh = he sto$$ed again stuttering uncontrollably" =0h sorry" I5m Candice. and once again. can you get that. +a*e5s sister" I !ust got here from the air$ort" 0bviously +a*e isn5t here right now"= I said ta*ing my hand to sha*e his until he shee$ishly flinched bac* and stabbed his hands into his $oc*ets" =0h. by the $ar*" I was !ust coming to as* +a*e if he could give me a ride to wor* tomorrow after school" So !ust tell him to call me"= =.= =0h it5s on the white $ad of $a$er ne2t to the $hone" Bye"=)e said smiling" =I5ll have him call you"= I said !ust at a whis$er" .
I went to the store to get some dinner for us" I5m ma*ing some food that5s local around here" Be bac* soon" +a*e &y room finally felt Almost I*e at home" I shut the blinds on the glass. almost" &y fu::y blue blan*et laid on the to$ of my freshly washed 9uilt" 7verything was in $lace !ust li*e my home in Te2as" 7ven the $icture of mom and I at the carnival in the summer time" I started dusting off the to$ shelf of my closet when I heard the front door o$en" I had fro:en with fear" I grabbed the $aint that was still sitting on my des* and gently too* off the lid" I $ee*ed outside of my room and 9uic*ly yet 9uietly ran towards the end of . and it didn5t feel as o$en: but more co:y"" I went out into the garage and found some lime green $aint and a $aint brush" I grabbed some clear tarts I had also found and headed u$stairs" I chec*ed on to$ of my des* and searched through the different $laylists I had on my nano" I found the one that my mom had given me of all of my favorite classical music. and turned it u$ loader" It made me wor* a lot 9uic*er and I finally finished the room" I was really !ust trying to get my head out of the thought of my mother dying.I !um$ed u$ to close the door and headed into the *itchen to get some water" 0n the counter I noticed an envelo$e with my name on it" I o$ened it and inside read something that +a*e could have !ust yelled out to me" Candice. but the $aint hadn5t ta*en as long as I ho$ed to dry so I had to ta*e the tam$s out carefully not to fall and threw them bac* into the garage" I had started out with guest room and ended u$ with my old home well.
the hall" A man in all blac* was searching through the green cabinets below in the *itchen he turned the other way" I silently went down the stairs not leaving my eyes from his bac*" =A)))B5 I screamed throwing the buc*et of $aint at him" )e loo*ed mad at first but then started laughing" At that e2act moment I reali:ed that it was +a*e loo*ing for the seasoning" I was trying to scrub off the $aint that had hit the floor of the *itchen" +a*e headed downstairs after ta*ing his shower" )e was dressed in gray sweat$ants and a white t shirt that I had washed for him" %et his hair was still hardening from the $aint that had drenched him" I started out of no where about earlier" =Some guy named +ohn came over earlier"= I added as I starting washing my hands" )e 9uic*ly glanced over" =.= he commented and chuc*led in a whis$er afterwards" =0h very funny.id he tell you what he wanted.= =)e only tal*s to girls he li*es" Anless of course they5re family"= I turned around hiding my smile" Not !ust the smile I was hiding though" I could also feel my face getting hotter" 0bviously I was blushing" 7ven though +a*e was there. but actually he wanted to as* you for a ride to wor* tomorrow after school"= =)e must li*e you"= he said without even glancing in my direction" I !ust shoo* my head" =)ow do you *now that. %our number. I decided to turn the classical music u$ a little louder" Bach was $laying and I started .
$icturing myself bac* in Te2as on my swing" I gently ri$$ed out my money tail and brushed my hand thoroughly through my hair" I breathed in the light smell of my mom5s $erfumed sent" She always smelt li*e a sweet fruit mi2ture of watermelon and strawberries" I breathed out and the smell left me" Soon enough I would com$letely forget the smell that lingered in my head. are you e2cited for school tomorrow. I heard no tal* about him unless it was my mom or I" I threw myself on the brown couch.humming to it" /hen I turned around +a*e was loo*ing at me in horror" -ossibly because I was wearing a $in* a$ron. but it didn5t match the chair or anything in the room" I rela2ed for a moment. so his mouth unloc*ed and I was afraid that an aw*ward conversation was starting again" =So. he had always gotten himself in trouble with the other *ids in his class" Then in !unior high he rebelled against the teachers and became a $un*" Then when he got into to high school he started actually doing homewor* and wor*" That is until his !unior year that he started smo*ing $ot and was in !ail for a while" )e had graduated barely and left Te2as to get away from all of the tal* and rumors" This seemed to wor* because a month after he left. oh ya and the fact that I li*ed classical music" )e really wanted to sto$ the embarrassing sister from *illing herself. he never really li*ed school" /hen he was in elementary school. dancing around. the softness of her blonde hair" Those green eyes that loo*ed at me with worry in the hos$ital" .= +a*e as*ed sarcastically as he turned down the music so it was barely a bac*ground noise" =0f course I amB I can5t wait"= I im$lied e2citingly" )is face was $u::led with my e2citement towards school.
when are my bo2es coming from Te2as. which means it should ta*e about twice as long"= I got u$ from the couch and headed u$stairs to my room" I wal*ed out on the balcony and fell into the chair" I wra$$ed myself tightly in my blan*et and loo*ed u$ at the stars" The lights down below shined off of the $ools water" I smiled at the familiar sent of a river and I headed bac* inside" I crawled u$ the ladder and sighed" AhB I don5t understand anythingB This $lace is so com$letely different from Te2as" Stacey isn5t hereB I can no longer tal* cars and engines with her" I don5t even *now why ha$$ened todayB )as that ever ha$$ened to anyone before. I laughed silently at myself and $ulled the cover u$ to my nec*" I turned my body sideways so I could see outside the window" The moon was covered with gray clouds so only some of the light reflected off of the $ool" I smiled and slid bac* out of bed" I wra$$ed my ro$e that was hanging on one of the hoo*s in my closet and shrugged it on to my shoulders" I 9uietly cre$t down stairs and $aused half way down" +a*e5s loud snoring through the crac* in his door assured me that it was safe to go" I continued down the stairs and turned towards the *itchen" I flic*ered on the light and leaned bac* around the corner to chec* that all was clear" I bit my li$ and $eered over the railing" Safe" I grinned brightly and turned bac* towards the *itchen" I reached u$ into the tea and coffee shelves and found the bo2 I was loo*ing for" the bo2 o$ened u$ easily and I slid out one of the $ac*ets" The steaming mil* automatically heated u$ the cu$ and the $owder started to turn the mil* chocolate brown" )ot Chocolate" At least that5s something .= I loo*ed over and smiled shyly.= I as*ed as +a*e was about in the *itchen" =They should be here in about two wee*s or so" )ow many bo2es did you $ac*. +a*e.I sat u$ and sighed" =)ey. =About 1I.
I su$$ose" . /hy so much. somewhere different.= I whis$ered and clutched at my chest while my heart still burned inside" No answer" No truth" And no communication< isolation being the main *ey to the $ain" &y legs *ic*ed 9uic*ly in front of me while my hand tightened it5s gri$ on my chest" -ain was all that I had been getting lately" /hy me.that -olis had in common with the A"S" I $ressed the lid down and ti$ toed to the bac* door and slid outside" I carefully set down the hot chocolate and laid down on couch set u$ near the $ool with matching chairs and a table" I too* a si$ of the hot chocolate and nearly cho*ed" I coughed and $ut it bac* on the table" &uch. /hy me. 7$i$hany" I was here< somewhere new. I felt li*e I had been here before" But I *now that couldn5t be true" /as it death that was torturing beyond $oint. I *new only my brother and those that wished to s$ea* to me. somewhere free" I was on an island" I *new no $eo$le. it seemed a hundred times worse at the moment" I had cried. of course it was only my imagination" The dar*ness felt li*e it was cho*ing me" It $ressed tightly around me and I gas$ed. it felt as if a sta*e was driven into my heart. much too hot to drin* right now" Ne2t time I ma*e some. but that it wouldn5t bleed" =Could this really be ha$$ening. Thin*ing bac* now how it felt to lose my mom. anything that goes in the category of death" But now. $anic*ed. or those that I had s$o*en to myself" I was new" A different me. I5ll be sure not to heat it u$ as long" &y lounge still felt li*e it was on fire. when I5m !ust starting to live my life. 0r was it my heart that threatened to stay still when I really needed it. /hy so much when I’m !ust starting to feel better.
yes" &y style. I was tired. folder li*e thing" I un:i$$ed it all the way down and gas$ed" it was a long. +a*e. )ow come I didn5t *now this. I wal*ed over towards a long white enclosed. no" . but a new creation" %et. sil*. could it. it was for me" I loo*ed around me and noticed more of these strange enclosed dresses" I continued to un:i$ each of them and laid them out on the o$en floor of my closed" The green one. green stra$less dress" But for me.Something not li*e myself. yes. clothes. a red stra$less one that went down to my *nees. I lea$ed off of the chair. a blue s$aghetti stra$$ed one" I couldn5t believe what I was seeing" Beautiful. so it was a little $ast my bedtime" one twenty two in the morning" A little later than I e2$ected. and I had school in the morning anyways" I switched off the light as soon as I got inside the house" The sliding glass door bordered me from the outside" &y sli$$ers slid off 9uietly and I ran for it" I loc*ed my door behind me and turned on my light" /hen I loo*ed at the cloc*. I felt the same" )ow could this be. Are you *idding me. I loo*ed at the bac*" Si:e two. it couldn5t be. and not li*e my mother. I slid it bac* in $lace and loo*ed out of the door" I had two closets. I wal*ed closer towards the rows hanging and lifted one article of clothing out" A hot $in* shirt. but I can always ta*e a na$ after school if I need to" I o$ened u$ my closet and switched on the lights" They illuminated the clothes that filled it" /ait. :i$$ed u$. but towards my bed" /hat could I say. *noc*ing over the hot chocolate in the $rocess" I grabbed the cu$ and ran away< not only towards my new life. I shrugged" /ell.
I turned it off" The hot water was starting to run out anyways" . my nec* was stiff. my mother’ side" I grabbed my towel.= I launched out from underneath the covers" I sighed. ?ee$ a straight face while staring at a really weird dream./hen I wo*e u$. I ho$e that at least some of this messing u$ had to do with +a*e’s ruffling" 0therwise.= +a*e was dressed in a suit. I am not getting enough slee$" I yawned involuntarily and started to brush through my *notted hair" /ithin a few minutes. my bac* ached. threw it over the to$ of the shower door and let the hot water overta*e me" I hadn’t reali:ed how tired I was until my body felt suddenly gel li*e" 3im$ and uncomfortable" /hen it felt li*e eternity had $assed and my hands loo*ed li*e raisins. I had most of my hair untangled and dro$$ing down the center of my bac*" The long waves reminded me of my mother’s" I have always been told that’s where I got my hair. I stared out into the dar*ening night" @ray clouds overshadowed the moon" I fli$$ed o$en my la$to$ and chec*ed the calendar I had installed: there was . +a*e" )e *noc*ed on the door and I straightened u$" I o$ened the door" =%a. I couldn’t hel$ but laugh" /hat was I su$$osed to do. =I was !ust going to let you *now i was going to be late for dinner tonight" I have a meeting and i won’t be home until about si2 or seven"= I nodded and he straightened his already too stiff tie" =/ell. and I was hugging the green dress" I hung bac* u$ the dresses and hurried out into my room" The alarm bee$ed loudly" 0nly five minutes late. not too bad" =Candice.rying my hair with the towel. I’ll be going now"= )e ruffled my already thrashed hair and started to descend the staircase" I loo*ed in the mirror and giggled" /ow.
well. *ack! +h. I’m glad that you can’t find someone special enough1 hahaha. I’m running out of te(t messages. 'hanks. . it is sunny.ust be heartbroken. #ut my phone doesn’t work great up here. -ell. and then it’s not nearly as hot as it is in 'e(as. $ust not with the fresh. I haven’t found any other girls to fill your place. How are you? It’s really boring at school without you. I’d . but don’t worry. !" I smiled at the last $art and ty$ed again" It’s alright. ot that you could find anyone better than me !" /e! +f course I can’t replace you. lol. $ake said he was going to buy me a new phone because I need a new service. o one can do that.best friend in the entire world. not so much. #ut. warm air of 'e(as. #ut I’m glad you haven’t filled my place. I remember the weather being somewhat sunny. soon I’ll have unlimited. %eri&on doesn’t work to well a million miles away from 'e(as. I would be sad if you replaced the love of your life. !" *ack! +f course I won’t fill your place! I hope you don’t fill mine. you’re much to uni0ue. that’s a relief. 2o how’s the weather? 3t all like you remember it? /e! ot really. $k.su$$osed to be a full moon in two nights" I thought as much" The moon seemed close to a full silver circle" I clic*ed online and chec*ed my aim" Cac* was online" I clic*ed his name and ty$ed" Hey. )lus. special" to fill the spot beside you. how’ve you been? I waited for a few minutes when a re$ly $o$$ed u$" Candice! I’ve been waiting for you to get back to me! I checked my phone but I didn’t have any messages.
/aybe I’ll . *ack! +f course. othing too special about it. and sat in my chair" /ould +a*e let him come. sadly. 2o how’s the house. I could use a good vacation. and they give him as much money as he wanted" The guest room was nice. 8reddy is my bestie. the house is +. and seeing him would be the best $resent in the universe" . I hope to see you soon. 'e(as does have some great air to breathe. /aybe over the holidays.ust have to come visit you soon. -e have a huge backyard with a built in pool beside the small garden and then a hot tub. I’d kill to have a pool and hot tub. I got a lap top and a new ipod. how could we forget our dear friend 8reddy? 'he house sounds nice though. It would be the best Christmas! I’ll let you know soon.7. I can’t seem to use the new ipod. finding no one else to tal* to. too.*ack! 4a. /y room’s nice. Can’t wait until your eyes bore into mine. melting my heart that belongs to you. Cac* surely had more money than when I lived with my mom" )is $arents would be glad to be rid of him. anything great about it? /e5 6h. 'hough. /e! 9eally? 4ou’d come? 'hat would be great! -e have a spare room that $ake made into a guest bedroom. I logged off. *ack is now offline. *ack! 2ounds good.
I was thin*ing of my mom" It was hard not to thin* of her. I gave him five hundred dollars. no need for +a*e5s bro*en down car" I headed out of my em$ty house slowly. she was the only $erson I was actually close to. Cha$ter E: Ancertain /e didn5t live close to the high school so I made a deal with +a*e on getting a rental car until my real !ee$ got here so. because of my not being used to driving on the o$$osite side of the rode and the o$$osite side of the car" I left in one direction. ever" . and he $ays for the rest of it" )e had already found me a car that he held for me at one of the car dealers" It was a used 1JJJ red !ee$ Chero*ee" I was fine with that $lus I needed some time to myself. and +a*e drove off to wor* in the o$$osite" I rolled the windows down" The wind blew hard in my face closing my eyes every other second" 7very second I wasn5t closing my eyes.
awa*ening me from my strong. almost invisible" I 9uic*ly glanced u$ to see a remar*able $ale boy watching me as he ran across the street" The bell telling me that I had five minutes to get to class rang. dee$ thoughts" A white figure ran $ast me. This mad absolutely no sense" As I waited I could hear the bee$ing of the machine monitoring my mom5s $ulse" All it was. the street was deserted" %et I had to wait. you can5t leave meB I love youB= I screamed sobbing" A tear slowly dro$$ed down her face and dri$$ed on our hands that held together" )er hand started losing my gri$" =I 3"""= &y mom5s voice trailed off" )er eyes closed" And her hand fell from mine" I too* in a breath and o$ened my eyes as I sto$$ed at a cross wal*" I could see the school right across the street and I still had more than enough time left" I $ressed the bra*e down with more force than necessary" No cars were even going by.I breathed in a long and hard breath of air as I $ulled my self bac* into the seat thin*ing of the moment I was in the hos$ital and my mom was in the bed" Tears ran down my face as I $ictured the scene in my head" The scene of my mom in the hos$ital had recorded in my head over and over again" &om had always been the brave one telling that everything would be fine" 0bviously. something caught my eye. it didn5t end that way" I $ictured myself ne2t to my mom5s hos$ital bed" )er cold breath touched my face" =&om. but stress worried me more than anything" . scaring me" I only had a few minutes to get my schedule and my first class at a school I have never been to before" 0h that’s not"" so bad" I thought to myself. was one long bee$ showing no sign of breathing" The light was still red" Couldn5t go yet" Suddenly.
loc*ed it. you5re +a*e5s little sisterB %ou two loo* so much ali*e"= The short lady said grinning at me" I didn5t even need to as* her anything she already was loo*ing for my class schedule and a ma$" =)ere you are" %our first class is gym" 7n!oy= I didn5t even need to loo* bac* as I grabbed my schedule and ran off with !ust a sim$le wave" I headed off for the gymnasium . the seat $o$$ing all the way down but didn5t worry about the $ain" 7verything inside my bag flew out and I tried as 9uic*ly as I could to get my school su$$lies" A man !um$ed out of the car yelling at me as if he thought I was dead" I !ust rolled my eyes and *e$t throwing my things into my bag" =Are you alright.""= the man screamed at me as if I was deaf" =I5m fine" I !ust need to get to classB= I !um$ed the seat u$ and $ressed down on the gas it started 9uic*ly once again towards the bric* school" I loo*ed bac* and the man still stood in the same $lace. I lim$ed out of my car.o you need any hel$. . most li*ely ho$ing I wouldn5t sue him" I caught my breath as I headed nearer to the building" The high school was !ust a large bric* rectangle with a ma:e of classes inside" /ith two minutes to get to my class.I couldn5t wait any longer to get across to school" I 9uic*ly s$ed through the street" A car finally showed u$. hitting my car without even seeing it before hand it was a hideous blue car" I flew onto my bac*. and made my way over to the office in the front of the school" I tri$$ed over a chair near the door and caught myself with the edge of the counter" I too* in one dee$ breath and let it out"= )i""I umm" I5m Candice )aigin" I need = the women cut me off" =0h. $u::led" )e wouldn5t loo* away.
it would be with students" . I5m Candice )again" I’m"" um new here"= I tal*ed to the red headed women sitting in a chair. and wal*ed out of the office" I reali:ed I sat there the whole time.lim$ing on my good leg the one that didn5t get smashed by the door where the car had hit me" I ran out through a hallway.AIG3%5s 0. was all of the students were running" That was assuring" 7s$ecially than*s to the fact that I can5t seem to wal* in any straight line. I scowled at the thought" The bell finally rang after FK minutes of boredom" I stood u$.IC7=" I turned the *nob. I $ulled gently" =)i. thin*ing about that $eculiar $ale boy I . and this time.or the rest of the $eriod I !ust down in that chair and re organi:ed my bac*$ac*" It was a mess than*s to that man and his hideous blue &a:da" Ahh. she let me sit at her office while she was out there teaching in the gym" About twenty minutes into the $eriod. turned right" I ran all the way down until there was a dead end and I had to turn left into the girl5s loc*er room" I $ulled on the silver door *nob" I thought it had seemed heavier so I used all my strength not the best idea" I ended u$ $ulling it straight into my face" The metal was sure to have left a scratch" I wal*ed in and saw the glass door that had =&GS". I $ea*ed out into the gym" All that was a$$earing to ha$$en .. I was sure to rema*e the titanic. e2ce$t this time. at a large wooden des*" =0h" )ello there" I5m going to need you buy a uniform u$ in the front office as soon as $ossible"= She had me come around her des* and wrote down what I needed to as* for from the lady in the front office and how much the uniform would cost" Sense i had no uniform 9uite yet.
not even one breath was ta*en by him" I slowly sat down across from him" =That boo* loo*s interesting" /hat5s it about. and sto$$ed in front of an o$ened door" There was two minutes to get inside. she $ointed out one of the few em$ty seats" =Across from Anton Canning will be fine"= She said $ointing out to the em$ty seat across from none other than the $ale boy also *nown as =Anton"= I trudged my way over to my seat not $ic*ing my feet u$" 0bviously that was a stu$id idea. and it hadn5t ta*en me too long to trudge u$ the stairs" But for some reason I couldn5t lift my feet. I slowly wal*ed into the room and u$ to my teacher. &rs"S*ise" Before I could even as* where i should sit. in room D1L" I had to wal* u$ the stairs this time" Not something I would have wanted to do" I wal*ed to the end of the left hall. absent minded" )e didn5t even move. the $ale boy from this morning slid in front of me and into the door" The door of room D1L.saw this morning" At first I was frightened" But then the face reran in my head" It was calm and sensitive" &y ne2t class was Algebra III. I5m Candice )again"= I im$lied $olitely" )e stared u$ at me. otherwise *nown as my Algebra class" Clenching down on my teeth.= )e !ust loo*ed u$ slightly without meeting my ga:e nodded and continued reading his thic* boo* almost as thic* as an encyclo$edia" I watched him carefully as he read" )e had coffee colored hair that thinned . as if the were nailed down to the floor" Then it ha$$ened" A chill of terror suddenly rushed down my s$ine" And without even the slightest glance. and something had caught my foot" &a*ing me fall on Anton5s des*" )e was reading a boo*. but had not even loo*ed u$" =)i.
the horror struc* his eyes and worry for my life was noticeable" .= &rs"S*ise a$$eared from behind me" She seemed as if more worried to *ee$ her !ob than to save a student herself" =I thin* she5ll be alright" But if you need me to I could hel$ her downstairs to the office" -ossibly ta*e her home for the rest of the day"= Im$lied a dee$. Anton is going to ta*e you home now"= &rs"S*ise didn5t seem to care for my own ideas" I loo*ed u$ but my vision wasn5t so clear" I thin* I had landed on the floor some how and the other students were crowded . not even when suddenly. and I could feel my face burning red and maybe getting even hotter than a stove to$" I grinned" But he didn5t seem to care" )is eyes never blin*ed" )is eyes never left my ga:e" And my breathing never came bac* to me" That is until a few minutes later when I gas$ed for air" I couldn5t get it right and I started coughing uncontrollably" %et I couldn5t loo* away from him. and no message was sent to let me start breathing again" The teacher was tal*ing about something that I had already learned last year. so I had no strong urge to listen" I started getting bored and $ic*ed u$ my $encil" /ithout being aware. and started $utting down his boo*" )e met my ga:e. I started ta$$ing it I thought this might be able to get Anton5s attention" But I thin* his hands were glued to his boo*" )e slowly started to tilt his head u$. divine male voice" =Than* %ou" That would be hel$ful" Candice.out lightly $assed his ears" )e had ha:el eyes with s$ec*s of red in them" Almost as if red $aint was s$lattered against a brown bac*ground" Suddenly I reali:ed I wasn5t breathing and I had no idea why" %et I couldn5t get my brain to wor* $ro$erly.inallyB Some ty$e of emotion showed from this mysterious boyB =CandiceB Candice are you alright.
but not floral" I let my head hit his chest gently and inhaled the smell harder now. but it didn5t seem to ma*e a difference" I hung there in his arms. and then I started to forget everything" I leaned in closer to his chest" It was as hard as bric*. some in 7nglish and underneath it translated into @ree* /73C0&7 T0 AG@A?A /e weren5t anywhere near the 7nglish )igh School"" )e sat down a few feet away from me in the moist grass" )is eyes seemed furious li*e he was going to attac* . green field" I s9uinted. almost as if we were flying" )is eyes were still blan*. through a few feet of trees. but he smelled sweet. then the wind sto$$ed" I slowly lifted my head. almost li*e mint and sugar mi2ed. until he $ut me down an loo*ed away into the s*y" That5s when it hit me. and farther away.around me" 0ut of the corner of my eye. almost dead" =/hat are you doing. I could see a sign that had three large words written on them". he was staring at me with intent. -ut me downB I can drive myself homeB= I scream into his face but he didn5t even seem to notice" I tried to hit him. the s*y" I glanced around to see an unfamiliar little. I guess he did end u$ in one of my classes" Anton hel$ed me to my feet and let me lean on him" )e glanced through the em$ty hall as if searching for witnesses" )e carefully $ic*ed me u$ in his arms" And then he started running It didn5t even feel li*e we were moving. curious eyes" I suddenly felt li*e I was being hy$noti:ed and I couldn5t seem to loo* away" )e stood there holding me in his arms and the minutes $assed by. I noticed someone that loo*ed familiar" It was &ichael.
theories or ideas. it seemed li*e he was calming himself down" )e sighed. cars were $assing by and I wanted to run from him and try to get a ride from a stranger bac* home" But why couldn5t I leave.me. /hy5d you ta*e me here. I5m here" Ta*e me with youB I closed my eyes and tried to $icture myself bac* in Te2as" It hel$s me a lot to thin* about Te2as. I $ictured myself lying on the warm grass in my . But nothing could or would come out" All of my thoughts. I wanted to as*" /ho are you. I $ictured the hot summer bree:e wra$$ing around me li*e a burning blan*et" Instead of a dam$ forest. even 9uestions. I wouldn5t let myself get u$" I wouldn5t allow myself to sto$ some car in the middle of the street and yell out. was a thic*ened gray s*y. seemed to be loc*ed away in a safe" And I didn5t *now the combination to get them out" )e let himself fall on his bac* so that he was now facing u$ward" I glanced u$ to see what he was watching" All there was. es$ecially when I5m confused or sad" Instead of the cold bree:e brushing my face. and yet $ossibly red" )e stared intently into my eyes as if searching for the information he wanted" At the same time. no cloud alone was noticeable" /e were in what seemed to be a forest" But I could tell we weren5t too dee$ inside" I could hear the road from here. . =I can5t do it"= he whis$ered !ust loud enough for me to hear" )e turned away from me almost disa$$ointed" )is words made sense to me li*e using a $u::le $iece from a different $u::le. /hat are you. startling me. confusing and im$ossible" I tried to o$en my mouth and say something but my brain seemed to be malfunctioning" /here are we.or some reason.
But when I staggered to where he should have been lying. or whatever it is called hereB That5s more than I get for my birthday and Christmas combined" I normally got maybe thirty dollars a month from wor*ing at a deli by my old house" But that5s because they only called me in when they really needed hel$" I never even s$ent that money" I mean. there were four twenty dollar bills" &ost li*ely four times the amount of money I actually needed to get bac* to my house" I fli$$ed over the envelo$e and on the bac* read three of the words that I now $ossibly hated for life" ?ee$ the change" No" That was not even a $ossibility for me" I was not going to *ee$ almost eighty dollars. my hair s$illed out over my face" I $ee*ed through my curtain of hair. and I should have been able to smell him" The mint scent that lingered on him" I stood u$.bac*yard" &ore or less. there was an envelo$e" Inside was e2actly what I needed" In elegant scri$t he wrote: Candice I5m sorry about the inconvenience" I needed to leave and should have !ust brought you to your house" )ere is some money for a cab" . I *new that Te2as will always !ust be a memory nothing more" 7s$ecially not my home" I colla$sed on my bac*. concerned now how was I getting home. he was gone" The wind blew in my direction.Anton Aside from the letter inside the envelo$e. and out of the corner of my eyes to see what Anton was doing" But when I loo*ed over. i lived with my mom who wor*ed at Nordstrom .
wearing ca$ris didn5t hel$ me out at all" =Ah cra$B= I yelled as I loo*ed down at the o$en gashes around my an*les" Blood slowly dri$$ed down my an*les and stained my fli$ flo$s" I *e$t running and tried not to thin* about the stinging $ain that was numbing my legs" /earing fli$ flo$s hadn5t hel$ed me so much either" . they had made it hard for me to run" Second. slightly tan. and ran away from the o$en oval" I $ushed my way through two thic* blac*berry bushes" 0f course. I5m giving Anton the money" That is if I ever see him again" I grabbed the money the money. with green eyes" I grinned" . because I ended u$ stubbing my large toe on a roc* and ri$$ed of $art of the mail" @reat. a bloody foot and an*les" )o$efully it wasn5t as bad as I though it was" The driver5s door flew o$en and relief flooded me" =Candice.they may be e2$ensive but it doesn5t mean she got $ayed a lot" I was $ractically saving u$ to by a new car that is if my car wasn5t damaged too badly than*s to that man" It would cost more money to get it fi2ed" And obviously. Candice )again. stuc* the envelo$e in the bac* $oc*et of my !eans.= I loo*ed closer to see who it was" )e was about si2 one. now my foot is gushing blood and growing more and more numb by the second" I wonder if I5m even going to ma*e it bac* to school" I could hear the cars rushing by on the streets" I staggered my way out into the street when a blac* car slid to a sto$ in front of me" I couldn5t imagine what I would5ve loo*ed li*e" 3eaves in my hair. four hundred and eighty dollars wasn5t going to get me anywhere" /hen I get the change from the cab driver. Is that really you.irst.
what. ya"= I sto$$ed myself because I was hesitating again" 3ying never was my best talent" .= I as*ed" )e loo*ed confused but then when I wal*ed closer to him he laughed and ran the few feet left in between us and caught me in a hug" =)eyB I haven5t seen you sense. &y mother died and +a*e was the only $erson who could ta*e custody of me"= )e nodded. it must be more e2citing than my life"= )e shrugged. 0n the la*e and all. didn5t you hear. =I didn5t mean why are you here in 7uro$e. I meant why are you right here.= I tried to clear the lum$ in my throat to why I was really in Cy$rus" =/ell. =/ell. it hasn5t really been too great" It5s not really sailing weather" But what are you doing here. how long has it been. my mind told me" .= )e as*ed gesturing towards where we were standing and the sign that said =/elcome to Arga*a=" =0h umm"""= I had to thin* of what to tell him" I couldn5t !ust say that Anton Canning actually threw me on his bac* and $ractically flew me here" No. I had to thin* of an e2cuse" 3ie.on5t tell him the truth" =I5m umm. I was wal*ing to school and i went the wrong way" I didn5t *now how to get bac* so I !ust well.=-rice Gush. I remembered all of my memories when I used to come u$ here" I used to come visit +a*e when he first started going to college during the Summer and S$ring Brea*" -rice and his older brother lived right on the beach with their dad" They owned a boat and used to ta*e us fishing and sailing all the time" )e must be fifteen by now" =So how have you been.= )e laughed and s9uee:ed me harder" then. you were thirteen.
=0h,= he waited a moment, he was obviously confused to how I could wal* so far away" )e loo*ed away, trying to regain his e2$ression" =%a, around here, that5s not the best idea" So did you want a ride somewhere. I do ha$$en to have a car"= I smiled, =I5d love to" The )igh School $lease"= I told him as we wal*ed over to the car and he hel$ed me inside" =I *now where that is"= )e answered matter of factly" =72ce$t, we might want to get those cuts cleaned u$ first" /e don5t want them to get infected"= he e2amined one of my cuts before he started driving" -erfect, everything was going my way" ;irst, I didn5t have to s$end and of the money Anton left me" Second, I actually *now someone in this boring, sunless state" Third, I am able to get my car bac* without any sus$icion from +a*e" )e drove through I F North, and the road was mostly clear, no traffic" But I was afraid of on thing in $articular" I had gotten all the way from the )igh School to out of City 3imits in !ust a matter of minutes" But that, -rice didn5t *now" The only thing he actually *new, was that I wal*ed in the wrong direction for about three hours" /hat would I tell him if he as*ed me which way I left. /e were !ust nearly to the high school when we had to sto$ at a light" =)ey, so how long were you wal*ing for. It would have ta*en almost four hours !ust to wal* to my house"= )e must have been com$letely $u::led by my lac* of direction, so I !ust shrugged =I5m not really sure" I !ust too* the wrong turn I guess"= )e nodded, =0h"=
It was silent again as the light turned green and he s$ed away" +ust a few more streets to go and I would be in the safely of my own +ee$" The time seemed to ta*e forever until he drove u$ into the school5s $ar*ing lot" )e $ar*ed in the s$ot farthest away from the building, in a corner of it5s own" )e turned the *ey in the ignition, the car cho*ed and silenced" )e bent across from me to the glove bo2 and $ull out a rectangular case" )e $o$$ed it o$en and inside were different bandages and small alcoholic wi$es" )e ri$$ed o$en one of the alcoholic wi$es and motioned for me to $ull my first leg u$ so he could clean it" I shoo* me head and attem$ted to $ull my ca$ris farther down on my leg to cover the gashes and dried blood" )e sighed im$atiently and shoo* his head" =If you don5t let me clean them now and bandage them, they may never get better" %ou might even have to go to the doctor if they get bad enough"= I sighed and rolled u$ my ca$ris and lifted my leg" )e started dabbing carefully at the cuts, but as careful as he may try to be, it wouldn5t sto$ stinging" )e bandaged the fist cut and moved on, going through the same $rocess every time" =0wwB= I !er*ed bac* when he $ressed down harder on one of the cuts on my other leg" )e loo*ed u$ at me and stared at me in disbelief for a brief second and then *e$t wor*ing on my leg" =%a, that didn5t hurt at all"= I murmured under my breath and he covered the final scratch with a large s*in colored band aid" =I still have one more 9uestion for you"= I loo*ed u$ at him confused and shoo* my head" =0h, so we are ma*ing this twenty one 9uestions now.=I as*ed" )e glared and me and then cleared his throat, =%es we are" But what I wanted to as* you before you interru$ted= glare =was, don5t you have a school bag" I mean, I saw
you scramble out of the trees, but you didn5t have any sort of bag with you before. %ou were headed to school, you must have had some sort of bag to carry your binder and boo*s in"= I loo*ed away nervously, sweating my heart out" I cleared my throat of the lum$ that was building, afraid whether my voice was going to be sha*y, I s$o*e in a whis$er" =/ell, I5m getting a new bag tonight"= I said as i loo*ed out the window biting my finger to hold bac* the truth" 0ut of the corner of my eye, I could see him nod and then I grinned" =So I guess I5ll see you later"= I turned bac* towards -rice and he smiled" =I If you wanted to I mean"= )e grinned so wildly I swear, I thought his face was scratching li*e a rubber band on a slingshot, =That would be awesome" &aybe I5ll ta*e you out sailing some time soon if the weather5s nice"= I unbuc*led my seatbelt and $o$$ed o$en the door" =I5d li*e that" /ell, I5m assuming you have +a*e5s home number, sense on his calendar I ha$$ened to see him coming over to visit on the wee*end"= I turned and win*ed at him" =&aybe I5ll !ust have to come down with him"= I stood u$ out of the car and leaned down so he could see my face, =I gotta go, but I5ll ho$efully see you this wee*end" Bye"= I whis$ered and waved goodbye as he drove off" I wal*ed slowly towards the front of the building where I had $ar*ed my car this morning" I started humming *iss me by si2$ence none the richer" And then I sto$$ed myself" /hy should I be so ha$$y when I !ust flirted with a guy who I only had wanted to be friends with. /hy was I so day dreamy today. And why had I sung *iss me when a$$arently, I hadn5t li*ed anyone. I shoo* my head of the million 9uestions that $layed through my head and s$otted the s$ar*le of my red !ee$" I5m so glad I decided to get it
washed last night" I stuc* my hand in my $oc*et of my ca$ris and fished out my beautiful *eys to my !ee$" I s*i$$ed over and smiled" +ust a few s$ots in front of me, was one of my $roudest accom$lishments of my life" I had earned most of the money for this car, mom would be so $roud of me" I laughed at how $roud I was of my !ee$ and then s*id to a sto$" A silver /GM bac*ed out of the s$ot right in front me" Almost hitting me, it was so close" It turned around and then slammed to a sto$" At first, in the mirror I !ust saw Anton laughing, in the other, I could see #alerie and /illiam laughing as well and then #alerie caught my eye" I remember a girl in my 7nglish class show me $ictures of the three, they loo*ed so different in real life" Su$$osively, they were all blood related, Anton was #alerie and /illiam5s cousin, but they loo*ed so ali*e that they called each other brothers" The odd thing was, they seemed more li*e brothers and sister" They all had the strange color tint to their eyes and strange shade of s*in and hair" The coffee colored hair I li*ed so much" In the first two classes, at least some girl or guy, sometimes both, would wal* u$ to me and feed me the gossi$" They sto$$ed laughing and their faces went blan*, e2ce$t for Anton5s" )is eyes $leaded li*e they were a$ologetic and then it caught me again" The same feeling washed over me li*e when we were in the field alone together earlier" I felt li*e I was being hy$noti:ed" And then I could see #alerie out of the corner of my eye reach over and roll u$ the window so I could only see the tint and the faint outline of them all" Then, Anton s$ed off" ,ang itB 5I5ll !ust have to give him the money tomorrow or some other day" I dragged myself over to my !ee$, not as eccentric as I was before" I fiddled with my *eys, using sha*y hands and unloc*ed my door" I slid inside and shut the door" Sigh" I
but its true" )e5s not what some valley girl would say as =hott=" No. never would have wanted me to be li*e this" But what could she do about it now. li*e the classical ty$e of beautiful. he was beautiful. but nothing to do" The trees towered over the roads. cheesy right. how very slutty" &om. /ith a sigh. it was loc*ed" I didn5t have the to$ down than*s to the terrible weather we got here and there was no other way into my car" Strange" I shoo* my head and moaned" I felt myself get hit with nausea and then leaned my head forward between my *nees" At first. he loo*ed cute" 0*ay. more than cute. I can5t believe I said it myself. but somehow it fit this century" I felt my head weigh it5s normal self.let my head fall bac* on the bac* of the seat and then something caught my eye" I loo*ed over and there it was my bag sitting on the $assenger seat" )ow had it gotten in here. I turned my *ey in the ignition and headed out of the )igh School $ar*ing lot and left for home" I could feel the road sli$ away as I grew closer to my new home" I5m sur$rised with myself for already calling it that after !ust one day in this boring town" @ood gossi$ i would have to say. and sure enough. I chec*ed the $assenger door. I thought about the red eyes from Anton in the field and it made it worse" But then I calmed myself down and thought of how his eyes loo*ed in the mirror" The a$ologetic loo* fit him well actually. he loo*ed how do I $ut this beautiful" I *now. I was no longer sic*" I was still infuriated with myself for what had ha$$ened with -rice" I had flirted with him !ust to use him" /ow. giving me un needed shade" I $ulled my way through a few more streets and drove through the familiar round drive way" The yellow house laid out in front of me" I 9uic*ly fled from the car before the car5s engine could com$letely cho*e off" I o$ened the wooden .
gate and headed towards the flower $ot that held the *ey to the house the only way i can get away from everything" I dug my hand into the flower $ot. was money it was filled to the to$ and maybe about NKII"II of it" . throwing away the $lastic in the small metal trash can" I was about to stand bac* u$ when a large glass !ar grabbed my attention" I gras$ed it and gas$ed" Inside. feeling around for the ragged silver *ey that would lead me into my hiding $lace" I grabbed the ragged edges and $ulled my soil covered hand out" I brushed off the dry soil and stuc* it into the *nob" It turned and o$ened with a loud moan" i $ushed it o$en the rest of the way. some stale crac*ers and old marshmallows" I shut the drawers and stood u$" I turned to my left and leaned down to o$en the small s$ace underneath the sin*" I grabbed the $ac*age of $a$er towels that I saw and unwra$$ed it. and slyly closed it behind me" I headed straight into the *itchen and threw my bag on the round oa* dining table $laced in one of the corners of the *itchen" I wal*ed towards the fridge and $o*ed my head inside the outdated a$$liance" I was shoc*ed. left over s$aghetti from a few days earlier I believe. was a few slices of fa*e American cheese. and calories yum" I wal*ed towards one of the counters and ho$$ed u$" I o$ened u$ the co*e and it s$illed out wildly. so healthy" I thought to myself" Sugar. and a few beers and one co*e" I shoo* my head and reached for the co*e" 0h. as it loo*ed li*e we were robbed" All that was left of our once food filled fridge. s$raying everything.= I murmured to myself and set the co*e down on the counter ne2t to me and !um$ed off" I *neeled down on the floor and o$ened a few drawers but only found a bo2 of cereal. including me" =Cra$. where are the $a$er towels.
the name of it I couldn5t $ronounce " The florescent lighting was blinding and I almost wished I had sunglasses" I $ar*ed my !ee$ in one of the very em$ty $ar*ing s$aces" I ste$$ed out into the light dri::le and headed towards the small store" I came out of the store about two hours later and unbac*ed the full car t of reusable bags into the trun* and bac* seat of my !ee$" I made sure that through the bac* window was still viewable through all of the groceries" I bac*ed out and headed home" I .Along the side of the !ar. there was a worn out $iece of scotch ta$e. and rolled down my windows" &ariah Carey burst through the s$ea*ers and I smiled" I drove $ast a few small coffee sho$s and found the store. written on it. I5m sur$rised he actually was able to live on his own without *nowing what to do" I $laced the !ar ne2t to my co*e and nearly ran into the living room" I flung o$en my boo* bag and gri$$ed the small white binder" I $ulled out a sheet of lined $a$er and a mechanical $encil" I started writing down essentials and then everything else I thought I could use to ma*e dinner and such" I ended u$ filling the entire sheet with every $ossible item I thought we either needed. and it flic*ered to life" I *e$t the deadbolt unloc*ed and stabbed the house *ey inside the flower $ot ne2t to the door and $orch swing" The last time I saw a flower in this $ot that was actually alive was I thin* three or maybe even four years ago" I slid my *ey inside the ignition and the engine rumbled to life" I switched the stereo to my C. /ow. was =grocery money"= /hen was the last time +a*e went sho$$ing. or I thought might be hel$ful" I ran u$stairs and flew o$en my closet" I un hoo*ed my blac* $urse and flic*ed off my light" I flew bac* downstairs and em$tied the money from the !ar and inside my $urse" I was shoc*ed the money almost filled my $urse" I turned on the $orch light.
= I as*ed !ust out of curiosity" )e loo*ed $u::led and closed one of the cabinets" =No. the weight of the bags $ushing down on me" I fumbled with the *ey and dro$$ed it" 0h great. wal*ing"= I added under my breath" But he seemed to have caught what I said" =I was wal*ing. =Need any hel$. com$letely different com$ared to the uniforms everyone else was wearing" I dro$$ed the bags and he rushed over to hel$ me fill the bags with the over flowing $urchases" =/here5d you come from. why.= I s$un around to see Anton Canning on my door ste$" )e was dressed in a $lain white t shirt with a blac* hoodie covering it" A $air of blac* cords and sli$ on blac* vans.= i !ust nodded and he stood u$ with three of the four bags in his hands" I unloc*ed the door and held it o$en for him" )e *new e2actly where to go and wal*ed inside the *itchen" )e sat the bags on the counter and started to $ut some things away" =)ave you been here before. now I have to grab it" )ow do I lean over and grab it with my hands full. but it doesn5t ta*e too long to wal* here"= )e $aused right before he was about to $ut a loaf of white bread in and frowned" =So did you want any hel$ or not.= .= I5m not so sure I was hallucinating when I thought I saw him wal*ing at the $ar*" =I could swear I saw you at the $ar*.drove $ast the $ar* again and stared at the slithering white shadow" I narrowed my eyes as I drove closer towards the $ar* and could swear it was Anton" But maybe I was wrong I $ar*ed the car in round driveway and $o$$ed o$en the trun*" I grabbed four bags and lim$ed my way over towards the front door.
special" to fill the spot beside you" /hen I got u$ the ste$s to the $orch.ust be heartbroken. you *new e2actly where to go"= I turned away embarrassed. you’re much to uni0ue. not so much.=%ou !ust loo*ed li*e you5ve been here before" I mean. lol. I shut the front door behind me with my foot and it slammed shut" I slouched my way into the *itchen to find Anton done with the four other bags that I had left in the car" =%ou didn5t have to do that.= . ot that you could find anyone better than me !" /e! +f course I can’t replace you. if I was wrong" )e shrugged" =A lot of houses around here are $retty identical"= I nodded and turned around" =I5m going to get some more bags out of the !ee$" Are you o*ay here for a few minutes"= =Sure. but I wanted to hel$" I also organi:ed the food. I’d . I5ll !ust finish $utting these away"= I wal*ed through the door and !ogged to my o$en !ee$" I went to the trun* and carried out the si2 remaining bags" I !uggled the bags and headed through the o$en gate" Then I thought of the conversation Cac* and I had together: *ack! +f course I won’t fill your place! I hope you don’t fill mine. and so on"= I shoo* my head and he seamed to have noticed" =/hat5s wrong. Anton" I could5ve $ut all of that away"= )e shrugged and smiled" =I *now. I would be sad if you replaced the love of your life. I’m glad that you can’t find someone special enough1 hahaha. -ell. a s$ice. that’s a relief. $k. whether is was dry.best friend in the entire world. *ack! +h. ingredients such as flour and sugar.
don5t ta*e this the wrong way. The @olden Com$ass.= I as*ed $u::led" )e laughed. too* me to the forest yesterday. =/ell.= I loo*ed u$ confused and turned the a$$le in my hands" =/hat do you mean. all of the other ones were no fiction. or not as interesting as they could5ve been" I grabbed Gomeo and +uliet5s sa$$y love story and left my room" I s$rawled out on the floor of the living room and started to red it" I ac9uired it at a small boo*store around the corner from a starbuc*s coffee store" The last time I had tried to read this was my freshman year" I couldn5t follow the language of it" %ou *now. his face was !ust a few inches from me" I closed my eyes and loo*ed down at the a$$le in my hand" The blood red color seemed to whiten my $ale hands" A smile $layed on his li$s. science fiction. the whole thy has not . 3i*e /ater for Chocolate"""and then Gomeo and +uliet" Those are the only ones I actually cared for. do you really thin* that it ha$$ens by accident. I5ve been bum$ing into you a lot at the strangest times and $laces"= I turned away and set the groceries on the counter" As I s$illed the groceries out and found Anton5s organi:ing s*ills 9uite hel$ful. but ever sense you. =And who do you thin* is the one to arrange that.= I turned away from his $enetrating ga:e and sighed" =/ell = I loo*ed bac* and he was gone" I finished $utting away the groceries and turned on the oven" I $laced the chic*en in a $an and slid them in" I set the timer to forty minutes now to $ass the time" I ran u$stairs and flic*ed on my light" I turned on my heal towards the boo*case under my loft and loo*ed through my boo*s" The @iver. I heard him ta*e a ste$" I turned around.I loo*ed u$ to find his wide eyes filled with worry" =/ell. ya5 *now.
= he as*ed. the timer went off on the oven and i shut the boo*" I flung u$ from the floor and o$ened u$ the heated oven stu$idly without thin*ing and grabbed the $an bare handed" At first it !ust stung to the $oint where it was only a little irritating. holding out the clear bottle filled with blue gel the aloe vera" I rolled my eyes and laughed. I really don5t mind if you hel$ me"= he crac*ed a smiled and continued to rubbed the aloe vera around my hands in circles" =%ou could be a masseuse" . but then the $ain stung u$ my entire arm and I dro$$ed the $an on the stove.o you not want any hel$.o you mind.= )e smiled. =. ma*ing the chic*en fly into a $ile in the $an" I carefully !ogged over to the sin* trying not to bum$ into anything and turned the faucet on using my elbows" The cold water soothed my s*in and my hand started to numb" I switched off the cold water once again with my elbows and shoo* the water off in the sin*" I o$ened the fridge with my foot and loo*ed for the aloe vera" I started to get agitated. his teeth glistening against the small amount of light coming from the still o$en fridge" =No $roblem" I5d be ha$$y to"= Anton s9uee:ed out a small amount and started to sift the li9uid around on my no burning hands" =/hy are you her.cometh" I !ust couldn5t get it until my so$homore class had to read it in Advance 7nglish class" I5d be sure to follow it well enough" /ithin the $ast forty minutes. =I guess I shouldn5t be sur$rised that you5re here" = I murmured and $ut out my hands" =.= I as*ed in a whis$er" )e sto$$ed using the aloe vera and $ulled it away" =. I could leave now =I raised my hands before my face and sighed. I had read all the way to where +uliet snea*s out with Gomeo" Then. when I heard something or someone behind me" =3oo*ing for this.oes it loo* li*e I could do this on my own.
and you never did tell me why you brought me to that field"= )e ste$$ed bac* and shoo* his head. actually" I5ve never had a test sub!ect"= I winced when he $ushed to hard on my hand and he loo*ed u$ a$ologetically. li*e basically getting *idna$ed and then getting taunted when the most beautiful creature is !ust inches away from me and I5m being tortured because I so badly want to reach out and touch youB.= he whis$ered I loo*ed away and then he dro$$ed my hands.%ou5re very good at this"= )e loo*ed u$ from my hands for a brief second and then bac* down. he5s $robably had tons of girls drool over him before" )e sighed.= I loo*ed down at my foot and scuffed the floor with my shoe" =/ell I guess not"= I murmured unwillingly" . you5re the new girl" /hat did you e2$ect.= 0o$s. =Sorry. =)ow could i forget something.=I5ve never thought about it. never mind" I understand. leaving them in the air" =Than*s. and yet here you are s$illing your guts out to me"= I loo*ed u$ confused" =/ell. that wasn5t su$$osed to sli$ out" I turned around and close the fridge with my foot" =3isten .I didn5t mean it li*e that I meant that""well""you *now"""I was""= I turned bac* around and his li$s were $ressed together to *ee$ from laughing" =)ow is that funny at all. you were in a school before" /as it really li*e that.= I would !ust li*e to *now how an overly obsessive girl is so funny" 0h. Come on. =It isn5t funny" I5m actually !ust relieved" %ou5re unli*e any other girl" &ost girls aren5t brave enough to even s$ea* to me. =I was ho$ing that you might have forgotten about that"= I laughed out loud. That all the girls would be crushing on the outcast.
=%a. Is that you. do you mind washing the dishes tonight. +a*e.= The door o$ened and +a*e yawned.= )e wal*ed into the *itchen and ste$$ed away" and $ut my hands behind my bac*" =Show me your hands"= I sighed and offered them to him.= )e as*ed disa$$ointingly. it5s me"= )e tossed his !ac*et on the counter and sli$$ed off his shoes" =So how was school today. you o*ay Candice. what did you do now. sha*ing his head" I $ulled them bac* and sighed. which was $leasant on my half" I got u$ from my seat and $ut the dishes in the sin*. =It5s nothing really" +ust a little burn"= )e shoo* his head again while I wal*ed towards the stove and readied our $lates with the corn that I left in the microwave and the chic*en" =%ou sure can coo*" I5m glad there5s another coo* in this house" I don5t thin* I could5ve lived off of fro:en dinner and $i::a any longer"= /e ate our dinner in silence.I loo*ed bac* u$ at him and he smiled. again" I slum$ed down into the chair at the dining table and $ut my head down" I loo*ed u$ when I heard the loc*s turning in the front door" =+a*e. =Candice. =)ey.= he as*ed as I hurried to the *itchen to get the $lates and cu$s out" =It was good"= I $ressed my li$s into a hard line to *ee$ from wincing when I o$ened u$ the cu$board and $ulled out the $lates" I loo*ed away from +a*e5s direction and closed my eyes" =)ey. =That5s what I thought"= And then he was gone. I5m beat and I need to finish my homewor*"= .
)e nodded and started to fill u$ the sin* with soa$ and water. no $roblem" And ma*e sure you do your homewor*" I don5t want you to end u$ li*e me in a small college"= I shoo* my head and headed u$ the stairs" I changed into my sil* $a!amas and brushed away all traces left of dinner and $ut my hair in braids after I too* a shower" I turned on the light on my balcony and brought out my math boo* and homewor*" I stayed out there for about thirty minutes until the wind started to catch u$ with the cold and I dragged myself inside" I finished my homewor* wearily and fell fast aslee$ in my bed once I reached the to$" That was when I had my first nightmare in 7uro$e" . =%ea.
li*e the ma:es you see near )alloween bac* home" It was dar* out and the only light that lit the field was the faint glow of the moon" I loo*ed down and I was still wearing the very $air of $a!amas that I fell aslee$ in" I stood on the ti$ of my toes to loo* out and the field stretched on li*e a never ending sea" The wind whi$$ed through the field so strongly I almost fell over and I shot my head to the left there was nothing there" A faint ruffling sound came from farther away and I started to run" It felt as though I was running towards the danger rather then away" I . but the *ind with monsters" I was wal*ing in a large cornfield. Cha$ter O: Nightmare It was li*e I was in my own horror film" Not the *ind with $eo$le *illing other $eo$le or ghost stories.
that is until I noticed the shar$ $oint on two of his teeth" 8angs" Too frightened to move. his s*in shining li*e a $earl against the glow of the moon" )is chest was so white and blinding that I felt a strong urge to ta*e my hand and brush it. I didn5t want to thin* about or even *now" )e brushed away the braid that covered my nec* and $laced both hands underneath my ear" )e bent down until his li$s touched my s*in. there was something different about him" /hen I leaned in closer. I sto$$ed leaning in.tri$$ed over a roc*. I didn5t *now what had ha$$ened. and stammered into an o$ening" I started to brush off the dry dirt and stand u$ when I fro:e in front of me was Anton" )e was standing before me shirtless. and then it stung" At the moment. I gri$$ed to the tree behind me as he closed his eyes and started to lean into me as if to *iss" )e $aused right before me and chuc*led" )e o$ened his eyes and this frightened me even more than e2$ected they were thirsty" And for what. that is until he $ulled away" )is chin s$ar*led with the color of blood" It dri$$ed down his nec* and I felt faint" /armth flooded my shirt and I loo*ed down as the sil*y fabric soa*ed u$ my blood li*e a s$onge" &y arms fell lim$ to my sides and my head fell bac* against the rough te2ture of the trun* and I sli$$ed onto the ground" . they were the dee$ red. but in the very o$ening that he had ta*en me to" )e smiled while I $anted scared to death and his teeth glistened" =Candice"= he whis$ered" I nearly melted when he said my name. almost blood li*e" I staggered bac* and caught myself on a tree" /e were no longer in the cornfield. !ust to see whether it felt li*e velvet or not" But when I almost did so. it hit me" It was his eyes" +ust li*e when we were in the field. or so I though that5s what it was.
breathing heavily and sweating" I unthin*ingly reached for my nec* and felt for two crescent sha$ed holes but there was nothing" I turned around on the bac* of my bed and noticed that the alarm was bee$ing" I switched it off and slowly climbed down the ladder" Another boring day at school" I have to face everybody that I wouldn5t want to. nothing ha$$y filled them" )er face was more $ale. not caring much for chewing $ro$erly and swallowed when I could" I went bac* u$stairs and brushed my teeth thoroughly" As I did so. I stared at the $erson in the mirror" It was me. it was me" At least. =-olis )igh School 7nglish Academy"= I brushed through my hair 9uic*ly and went downstairs for brea*fast" I $oured a bowl of cereal that was a 7uro$ean *noc* off of cheerios" I ate 9uic*ly. the new me. The only $eo$le that I was . li*e nurse5s shoes gone 7uro$ean" A navy blue and green $laid s*irt that was *nee length. ot even any of the math nerds looked as bad as me in this uniform" I loo*ed at the largely fitted bla:er and saw an embodied crescent on the breast $oc*et" A wa2ing @ibbous as my science teacher would want me to call it" Anderneath it read. and a white blouse with a navy blue bow to wear around my nec*" I loo*ed in the mirror and groaned.m now officially the dork of the school. even though this $lace was !ust as sunny as Te2as" But none the less. and I hated it" I hated everything that changed about me. but it didn5t seem so" )er eyes were sorrow and lonely. I. :reat.I s$rung u$ from underneath my covers. I was even scared of someone that i so badly wanted to be ne2t to" I grabbed the uniform for school that +a*e left for me hanging on my door and changed into it" A $lain $air of blac* shoes. and now. a $lain navy blue bla:er. but how could my em$ty heart be filled again when my mother isn5t here.
+ohn was shooting bas*ets and not giving a care in the world for everyone else there" I ste$$ed farther onto the court and he shot another bas*et" The ball hit the rim and came rolling over towards me" I $ic*ed it u$ and started to s$in it on my finger" )e loo*ed over and I too* no notice of him" I shot from where I stood and the ball went in with a swoosh" )e shoo* his head and laughed" )e grabbed the ball and dribbled it while he ran over towards me" .ever close to was her and then my friend 3acie" 3acie wor*ed on bi*es while I wor*ed on cars" It was a good $ay. grabbed my bag and *eys and loc*ed the deadbolt on the door" I turned on the engine of my !ee$ and drove to school thin*ing about my new a$$earance and trying not to thin* about the uniform" I got there as students started to arrive and went straight to my -7 class" I changed into my -7 uniform !ust ga:ing at the wall in front of my" I wal*ed out into the gym and sighed" Cli9ues were gather around doing whatever it is they normally do" &ost of them not wanting to let in someone new" #olleyball cli9ue. rich cli9ue. but we still didn5t have much in common" I washed out my mouth and tried to smile" It loo*ed li*e a little *id trying to smile after they got *nitted sweater from grandma for Christmas com$letely fa*e" I shut off the light. baseball cli9ue. and then I sto$$ed at the bas*etball cli9ue" I s9uinted and smiled" 0n the outside of the circle. emo cli9ue.
I sli$$ed a few times on my face.rom then on I don5t even *now what we were doing" /e ran most of the class and then had to do crunches and sit u$s but it wasn5t li*e I was !um$ing u$ and down with !oy" And of course. =0h. =So. I should be more frightened then ha$$y. what do you do now then. girl5s are a lot different then you believe" I used to be the best bas*etball $layer at my high school.=)ow did you do that. well I started to wor* on = The whistle blew and everyone in the class raced for the southern wall and lined u$" . than* you very much"= I threw the ball again and it made it" )e loo*ed at me astonished and smiled. So you can forget to breath and shoot bas*ets from over half court and ma*e them. es$ecially after my nightmare or dream" I couldn5t tell what side I was on" I !ogged u$ the stairs and wal*ed into the classroom" There were a few girls sitting on a des* chatting and giggling and a few guys standing near the bac* counters tal*ing about s$orts" I sat down in my chair and slouched bac*" I dro$$ed my bac*$ac* by my feet and started doodling in my binder" I was drawing a bird when I barely heard boo*s hit the des* ne2t to me" .= I leaned against the wall and loo*ed at the floor. but then I !ust 9uit" And I fainted because I was nervous.= I caught the ball from him and smiled" =/ell. and ho$efully no one noticed" I dressed 9uic*ly and fled the loc*er room to second $eriod" I5m not sure why I was so e2cited to go there.
'he movies. I should be horrified. =I was !ust wondering if you wanted to = &rs"S*ise came by and smiled at me" I cleared my throat and brought out my s$iral for notes" =3ater then"= )e whis$ered to me and I slightly nodded" I tried to $ay as much attention to the front of the classroom. -ait. /aybe he.s out of the 0uestion. why would he want to eat lunch with me? I shoo* my head and almost laughed out loud" /hy am I so e2cited to tal* to him. !ust what I needed" The bell rang. I5m sorry that I !ust came by last night" I shouldn5t have done that" But I want to ma*e it u$ to you"= I laughed im$atiently and started to erase the bird" I $ushed down hard and it tore the $a$er" I ri$$ed it out and crum$led it into a ball and threw it in my bag" =-lease.= I couldn5t hel$ but smile and I closed my binder.= )e smiled at my res$onse. =So how’s the organi:ation s*ills coming in your *itchen. I threw my boo* bag on my shoulder and grabbed my binder" I started to wal* out into the . I should be in shoc*" But I !ust can5t seem to assemble my brain right" I glanced u$ and ga:ed at the chal* board" ="""-age OLE. but I !ust couldn5t" It was im$ossible *nowing that he actually wanted to tal* to me" That he actually would see me later" That I wasn5t as lonely in this school as I thought I was" /here would we tal*.=)ello"= I *new it was him by the dee$ness and maturity in his voice" I ignored him and started to draw a branch that the bird would $erch on" )e didn5t care that I ignored him and *e$t tal*ing. or did they even have a movie theater here? 'hat. tal* to me"= Im$atiently begging. =3isten.d sit with me at lunch. =It5s wor*ing great" Now what was it that you wanted to as*. more then horrified. numbers L through K8 all"= )omewor* tonight.
hallway when someone5s hand grabbed my shoulder" I shot my head bac*wards and shrie*ed" But it was only Anton" =0h, I5m sorry" I didn5t mean to frighten you"= ;righten you. /hat *ind of vocabulary is this. )e5s tal*ing as if he5s from the early nineteenth century" /hat a strange $rediction of his $ast life" And I, the one who would love to have the com$any of anyone, am tal*ing about someone in a way that I shouldn’t before I even *now them" =,on5t worry" I wasn5t too frightened"= )e loo*ed at me as if doubtful" =Sorry" Amm, so what was it that you wished to s$ea* to me about.= I as*ed as I started to loo* for the S$anish class" I was dubious and unsure whether or not I was headed in the right direction, but as long as I was with him, I didn5t care" I $ee*ed over at him and sighed, =/hy are you doing this. I !ust want to *now"= I whis$ered as if someone was recording our conversation" )e stared at me for about twenty seconds and sighed, =I $romise, no I swear that I will get to that and tell you later" But when there5s so many $eo$le around, I !ust can5t tell you, I5m sorry"= )e loo*ed away from me with a $ain face and I felt sorry I ever tried to get it out of him" =Alright, as long as you $romise I mean swear to tell me, then deal" Anyways, what was it you wanted to tal* about.= I tried to lighten his mood but it still didn5t seem to wor*" I stared as his face until I thought I might bore a whole in his head" )e loo*ed bac* at me and smiled, 5/ell, i was wondering if you wanted to hang out later. /ith me" I !ust want to tal* to you and get to *now you better" I5ll come over after school around si2 to $ic* you u$"= )e started to wal* away when I grabbed the collar of his bla:er and $ulled him bac*"
=/ait, what !ust ha$$ened.= I as*ed shoc*ed either with !oy, or fear" )e laughed at my e2$ression and leaned in to whis$er in my ear" =That5s right, I !ust as*ed you out on a date" /ell, not so much as*ed, more li*e demanded" I5ll see you at lunch time"= )e wal*ed off and I stood in front of some door, my !oints loc*ed in $lace" I too* a dee$ breath and turned to wal* away when I caught the silver $late above the door" S$anish class" huh, he must have *nown it the whole time" I shrugged and wal*ed inside the door" I was about to wal* to the front of the class to as* where i should sit when I chec*ed the chal* board and it read: Sit anywhere until further notice" I smiled and turned to the bac* of the class room and sat down in one of the des*s $ressed u$ against the bac* wall" The girl across from me shut off her $in* cell $hone and smiled" )er outfit with almost every shade of $in*, I swear" The collar of her bla:er had -in* stri$ed sewed on li*e a :ebra" She hat light $in* stoc*ings that went to her *nees and more then twenty $in* bracelets and nec*laces" I smiled and nodded" She turned to face me full on and $ut on li$ gloss" =)i, I5m -aige #ein" %ou must be Candice, the new girl" Gight.= &y !aw dro$$ed and I loo*ed down at my des*, =%eah, I am" )ow did you *now.= But -aige !ust laughed" =/ho doesn5t *now. I5m sorry, but in this school, gossi$ s$reads fast"= I nodded and loo*ed out the window" She5s right" In first $eriod while i was changing in the girl5s loc*er room, I heard some girls tal*ing about how a so$homore came to school with a new hair cut !ust this morning" So if gossi$ about a new hair cut can s$read that fast, then
me fainting during class must have ta*en off and everyone must have *nown by fourth $eriod yesterday" I too* out my S$anish boo* and I guess she didn5t get the hint that I wasn5t in the mood for tal*ing" =So, Candice" I5ve been by your house before, it loo*s $retty e2$ensive" Is it nice on the inside. I5ve heard there5s a built in swimming $ool in the bac*yard that5s so big, you could water s*i in it" although I5m not sure that5s $ossible"= i bit my li$ so hard from her annoyance that it started to bleed and shrie*ed bac* against the $ain" I banged my head against the shelf about my head and raised my hand to where I hit it" The whole class fro:e where they were and stared at me" i felt myself shrin* against all of the eyes that stared bac* and I tried so hard not to run out of there" The teacher, &r" Bernando as I saw on my schedule, cleared his throat and i too* my attention from the students to him" i lowered my hand and he nodded at me" =So you want to be my volunteer.= &y eyes widened and I almost felt li*e biting my li$s against the $ain so that I could leave the room and go to the nurse" ,id they even have a nurse. I !uggled the advantages and the disadvantages in my head" If i left, I might not be able to come bac*, and that means I don5t have to hear -aige5s voice anymore" If i stayed here, then I5d have to volunteer my answer" It *e$t on li*e this until I loo*ed u$ da:ed and saw &r" Bernando waiting for an answer" I tried to smile and shrugged" )e loo*ed at my s*e$tically, =Alright" Cuantos anos tienes.= Is he serous. /hat, are we going bac* to seventh grade. I was trying so hard not to laugh and straightened u$ in my seat" =Tengo, diesiseis anos" % usted.= The class burst out in laughter, and I have to admit, I felt $retty good about myself"
I couldn5t hel$ but laugh along and &r" Bernando glared at me" =Tengo viente y seis anos"= )e5s that young. /owB The whole class stared at him as if he was the brand new e2$ensive cell $hone that they all wanted" It seemed that at the same time, everyone loo*ed down at their des*s and said nothing" I listened intently as he continued to lecture and fled the classroom as soon as the bell rang" I dodged the tightly $ressed bodies as best as I could to get to the lunch room and as far away from that classroom" I turned bac* every few seconds to ma*e sure no one was running after me, or was it that I want someone to be running after me. <on;t go thinking like that Candice. He only wants to be your friend. 4our only going on a date as a friend. I ran even faster than my body could handle and !um$ed out of the way when someone called my name" I turned around to find -aige running after me out of breath" Before she could slow down enough, she !er*ed into me and we s$illed to the floor" I tossed her off of me and got u$ on my feet" =I5m sorry, but you forgot this"= She handed me my noteboo* and smiled" =It was on the floor u$side down so I loo*ed at it" %ou5re really good at writing"= I snatched it from her hand and started to wal* off again" =%ou5re welcome"= )er voice came from beside me, but I already *new she was following me" =,o you want to sit with me. At lunch I mean, there5s a few $eo$le that sit with me, Tera, Taylor, +ohn""= I sto$$ed listening at +ohn and nodded" $ohn, we;re friends right? I hope so, he;s a pretty nice guy. -e never did get to finish our conversation earlier. I let her lead me to the cafeteria" Two large metal doors bloc*ed our way and we shoved it o$en" To my sur$rise, it was 9uite large" ,ifferent colored uniforms layered the tables li*e a rainbow" Navy blue, blac*, gray, white, and even a few greens" But what caught my
waning crescents. All I had in my bac*$ac* was my boo*s. but the other half was a blur" +ohn waved at me and I stu$idly bowed my head and turned red" I !ust $ushed around the tomatoes in my salad until -aige stood u$ and left me with all of the strangers" @reat.o you really drive a !ee$. I sim$ly shrugged. /hat do you li*e to do. wa2ing crescents""" But what did it mean. unfamiliar to the habitat and the $eo$le in front of me were the natives trying to ca$ture and *ill me" /hat am I su$$osed to do. it seemed more as if my legs wanted to rest. and binder" It5s not li*e I could get them to stay away from me and not launch all of the confusing 9uestions" But I stayed. A$$er class. middle class. /here5s your dad. nodded.eye was the different designs on the breast $oc*et" . +ess. 7uro$e is different than the A"S". /here5s your mom. they !ust *e$t the 9uestions coming" Slowly $eo$le started to leave and I grew ha$$ier" %es. but I swallowed my 9uestion down with my water" I didn5t really catch most of the names. and Sadie. Taylor. !ournal. &ost of the time. it5s li*e I5m stranded on an island. while my brain !uggled the answers to the 9uestions they tossed: /here did you live before. )ow big is your house. or !ust $lain $oor. but I thin* I heard Aron.o you have any hobbies. but I5m guessing that $eo$le didn5t li*e to show if they were $oor or not" I followed -aige to the salad bar and grabbed a caesar salad with a water and a banana" /e wal*ed outside to the courtyard and sat down at one of the marble tables" The marbled benches weren5t so comfortable. . but they had to do" I was still thin*ing about the different designs as -aige introduced me to the other $eo$le that !oined us. lower class.ull moons. +ohn. . or stared at the $erson as if it would sto$ them" But instead. /as it the different classes. ha$$ier because I was getting left alone in somewhere unfamiliar to me" . shoo* my head.
All that was left was Sadie. tree bar* colored eyes" I could have sworn that I saw Anton out of the corner of my eye with his brother and sister but I too* no notice of him" I can5t have only one friend" I needed much more than that" At least someone to do most of the tal*ing so I wouldn5t be as much de$ressed as I was at first" I stood u$ and tossed out the rest of my salad" when I was wal*ing bac* to the table with everyone at it. and I5m sure she doesn5t want to end u$ miserable for the rest of her high school years"= I hid behind a tree and $ushed my li$ into a straight line to *ee$ it from trembling" /hy me. had curly blond hair and night blue eyes" Sadie had long thin reddish brown hair with green eyes and was tall< Aron was at least five foot with blue eyes and shoulder length. Ane2$ected and different than you thought it would turn out. at least loo*ed li*e it from her sitting. layer brown hair. I can5t hel$ that my mom died" I can5t hel$ that I never met my father" And I can5t hel$ that my brother somehow got rich" Isn5t that how life is. he was +ohn" Short blac* hair. /hy do I always have to do my best when it barely does anything for me. /hy does it always have to be me that gets the rumors s$read. I wi$ed away the tear that tric*led down my nose and burned my li$ from the salty . well. but I could5ve been wrong" &aybe they were cousins or something. Aron. +ohn. and Carey" Twyla laughed as Aron whis$ered something in her ear" She sounded li*e a little girl getting $ushed on a swing by her dad" She was short. She5s been through enough. I don5t *now" And +ohn. someone named Twyla. slightly tall with dee$. but Carey loo*ed the same" I thought they were twins.o you want her to hear you. I sto$$ed short" They were tal*ing about me" Aron and twyla were giggling bu smashed there hands down on the table" =7nough you guysB . tanned s*in.
he !ust fast wal*ed off and bro*e into a run once he got bac* inside" 7verybody else too* their ga:e off of the em$ty s$ace where +ohn had been a few seconds before and turned them bac* towards Anton" )e shrugged when he returned my ga:e and I shran* away to Aron5s side" I could hear her gul$. for I hadn5t drun* all but that first si$ of water all day" Anton sat down on the bench ne2t to me. and a smaller one where i had sat" Instead of a full table. =I5ll see you later than. and five girls bunched onto one of the four benches" I straightened u$ and the girls cautiously stared at me. I saw Anton standing u$ and heading over to where I sat" I gul$ed and it stung my throat. +ohn on the other side of him flinched bac* and started to stand" =I i thin* I5m going to go and tal* to &rs"S*ise about the homewor* for tonight"""= Anton nodded. /hy. Can5t I as* a 9uestion. afraid I assumed" Carey moved farther over towards the rest of everyone. /hy did it have to be me.on5t do it"= . %ou guys have been the ones almost cho*ing me with them"= Aron shoo* her head and tilted it" She o$ened her mouth but 9uic*ly closed it" Twyla s$o*e for her: =0h. =.taste that I thought I had gotten so used to" /hy couldn5t it have been someone else. +ohn"= But +ohn didn5t hear what he had said. I $ushed myself bac* from the tree and started bac* towards the table" 7veryone was still there as they had been before" And all of them facing away from my direction" I cleared my throat as i sat down and smiled: =So when is lunch over. there now was a large ga$ where +ohn had been before.= They sto$$ed whis$ering the moment that I sat down and my brow $ushed u$" =/hat. there was one $erson on the southern end of the table. umm it5s over in fifteen more minutes"= I nodded" 0ut of the corner of my eye.
or what. afraid of the $eo$le. In -olis I mean. and you act strangely when you5re around so many other $eo$le" 7ven the way you drive a car"""= )e didn5t say anything so I *e$t at it. I mean< are you actually from this world. uncertainly by how slowly the grass bristled" =I had a dream about you last night"= I whis$ered when I was sure Anton had settled down" I o$ened them to see him moving uncomfortably ne2t to me" )e cleared his throat and loo*ed away" =And what was it about. =I mean.they $leaded with their eye5s. %ou don5t seem used to all of this.= I moved so I was now in front of him" I loo*ed him straight in the eyes to ma*e sure he wouldn5t lie to me" =/hy are you here. %ou seem unsure what to do" 3i*e li*e you were born in a whole other world" It5s as if you don5t even *now if what you are doing is right"= )e ran his hand through his coffee colored hair and leaned his head bac* against the bar* of the tree" =I don5t understand what you mean"= )e re$lied but didn5t return my ga:e" I launched u$ to my feet so fast that he !um$ed bac* as a caution but I ignored it" =Are you. I *now I5m not a real $eo$le $erson" I myself am not used to wearing a uniform or living in one of the most e2$ensive houses I5ve ever seen" But it isn5t li*e I5m afraid of this.= But I ignored their stares and stood u$" Anton followed my e2am$le and I bec*oned him to follow me after I grabbed my bag and boo*s and started off in the o$$osite direction of the cafeteria" )e silently followed me until we reached the deserted field where trees now stood their ground and wor*ed as a wall from the concerned stares" I sat down with my bac* against one of the tress and closed my eyes" I could hear him sitting down ne2t to me. =/ho *now5s what will ha$$en. or .
how I missed my motherB It seemed li*e the need for her was getting stronger and stronger everyday" 3i*e when you have a craving for so long that you rush to the store to buy what it was that you desire.t seem to react very much. <oes he not understand that I. but I5m not sure I can"= I said between my teeth" I snatched my bag from beside Anton and wal*ed away towards the now em$ty courtyard" /hen I dared a loo* bac* he was still sitting beneath the tree branches staring out into the dam$ field" Stupid boy. Twyla seemed to lose her voice and Aron flinched bac* as if I was a witch casting a s$ell on them" So I hurried off to my ne2t class and tried to forget about them" Not !ust them..s lying. I needed it" Needed it so badly that I would be willing to fi2 three whole cars for free" .Can he? He didn. 3nd if he did. Candice? I shoo* my head of the answers" =/ho needs right answers . I .ust because he was scared of you. what if it was .m trying to help him. I told myself. she would *now what to do and how to re$roach the situation" 0h. He can. how he acted.ust know it is.t be telling the truth. I raced inside with the rest of the crowd and caught u$ with Aron and Twyla giggling right inside the cafeteria" /hen they caught a good loo* at me.tal* differently" And you *now you can tell me the truth I = )e $ut his hand u$ and I sun* bac* down to the grass" =I5m from this world"= )e re$lied indifferently clenched my teeth and stood u$" =It5s not that I don5t want to believe you. and how he seemed not to trust me enough to not tell me the truth" He. only I didn5t !ust desire my mother5s com$any.. but Anton and his family" )ow he was reacting. when boo*s !ust give you a variety"= That5s what my mother used to tell me" If she were here now.
she had !ust graduated college and read to me every night before bed time" I remember her almost as much as my mother. Sarah found a slim boo* in the u$stairs library where mother *e$t the boo*s that were handed down in her family or read from her childhood" This one5s name was 'he 8orgotten 7ingdom. A voice seemed to be re$eating those e2act words often in the bac* of my mind lately" So often. and tried to find the best selection for me" 0n the fourth night that mother was gone. Candice. seven years old" &y mother had left on a tri$ across the country to go get a valuable co$y of 3nderson. for she was the one that gave me nightmares for almost the rest of my life" I as*ed her to read me tales of $rinces and $rincesses and fairies and villains" She didn5t seem so *een to the fact of villains but I told her that all was well and mother had always read me the best of villains almost li*e $ainting a $icture in the air with the words that flowed out of her mouth" She agreed to one story each night. even if I was so used to multi$le stories every night.That5s a lot of wor* and free labor that I would be doing" If only I could !ust hear her voice for a moment" I came bac* to reality and forgot about the fantasy" /aybe in your dreams. .s 8airy 'ale. that I had memori:ed the shar$ness and invitingly harmless note to it that it scared me" It reminded me of when I was a child.s !ust for me so there was a hired nanny to loo* after +a*e and I for a few days while she was gone" +a*e was only fourteen at the time and mom didn5t trust him as much as she should have" She was afraid that he5d burn down the house trying to coo* mac 5n cheese or toasted bagels" The nanny5s name was Sarah.
'he man who.. broad shoulders. or wo*e me screaming in bed: =. and the clothes he wore were made of the animals he stole and skinned from the farmhouses of the poor families. Her hand gripping his hand and her tears whisking away the black soot with their burning salt.ire had so willingly let die so that he and his men could live there" )e had let the fire destroy the beautiful blossoming flowers. covered with soot and barely reliable to the sight of normal eyes. tall. golden hair. His breath taken by the fire and the very man that had set the tower to fire stood watching with a smile on his hideous face.:rasp +f 8ire. His black hair was said to be made of the very ashes from those he killed and the houses and homes he burned5 his eyes as clear as water that the peasants and lovers tried to use to put out the devouring fire. 'he prince laid on the blackened ashes. or made wor* harder until they could no longer tell they had legs" But the $rince was different" )e had seen his $rincess hidden ... planted himself tall with pride. noble steed"""everything thought u$ well" )e was the savior that was said to bring ha$$iness to lands of dar*ness. he was !ust li*e the others: handsome.s called . ta*en the lives of those that still lived in the village and slaughtered the cattle left behind" )e had *e$t women slaves to bring him ha$$iness but tortured them when they had told him no" They soon regretted that decision for he had them sent to the dungeon.= The $rince had done no wrong in the story" Truly. 'he princess escaped the strong man.'he night was filled with hatred as the tall tower burned to the ground.s grip and raced towards her dead husband.I $ulled my hair into a long braid and she $ulled the thic* 9uilted blan*ets right underneath my chin" I remember the very words that *e$t me awa*e most nights.. li*e the lonesome village that @ras$ of .
at least when he died" If she ever died. and that would go on forever" The author hadn5t written a se9uel and he hadn5t died at the end" That meant that he would never die.s dead! 'hat evil villain has killed him! #urned him right before my eyes. To let the young women watch her lover be burned. )ow could that man live with himself afterwards" The story hadn5t even gone the way I wanted it to" Soon after the death. too" No one overloo*ed that" The children would not even dare to try and listen to the $rincess. the villain would *ill them too. before the $rincesses eyes" I let that thought $onder through my mind" /ho could be so evil to do such a thing. rather then being forced into love" So he *illed him. and made them his slaves" )e married many of them.ire. envied him for falling in love. even those only of si2 years old if he $leased. at least not in the world of words" The boo*s contents flowed through my mind" Their love was so strong" But it ended. crying at the to$ of her lounges. trying to run away from home" )e5d bought her an a$$le that she was stu$idly trying to steal when the man selling them caught her" They nearly cho$$ed her head off when the $rince had given the man the money and wal*ed off" The $rincess found him near a river. to ma*e the $arents not underestimate them" )e could do anything he li*ed" )e could steal away young women.= But those who did believe her almost the whole town had dared not to do anything" If they did. they would face the same fate. the -rincess went running into the nearest village and ran throughout the town. but once they got $regnant. I . would they meet together in the after life.in the mar*et. whether the man lived or died" )e still had his faithful men. 5He. not far away from the mar*et" And it was love at first sight" But @ras$ 0f . he would band them from the village" )e had a total of twenty three wives. for he had forgotten his own real name.
and they also have a brother. but went by li*e a favorite boo*" I started towards my loc*er and dum$ed the materials that I didn5t need: history boo*. /illiam" That5s it" #ictoria . Anton5s little sister"= I felt my moth dro$ and the corner of my li$s fall down" Anton5s sister. I5m #ictoria. health s$iral""" I was about to $ut away my s$anish boo* until I remembered that &r"Bernando assigned me homewor*" Not that i loved it so much. my least favorite class" I didn5t li*e it in Te2as. I shivered" I had never met anyone li*e that and ho$efully never would" I stared down at the crum$led $iece of $a$er that I had shoved into my $oc*et" The words were almost as worn out as a $air of snea*ers that you wore everyday" I couldn5t read them easily. but I5m not the ty$e of $erson who5ll fail" I was ta*ing out the sweater I had left in my loc*er the other day when it dro$$ed on the $erson below me" I snatched it off of the $erson5s head scared of whether or not they would be mad" But the girl laughed" She ran her fingers through he long blond hair and stood u$" She held out her hand for me. Candice right. but I could see the numbers clearly enough" /hen i found the large door for my ne2t class. and I don5t thin* I5ll change my mind here" Ibit my li$ and started towards the front of the classroom" This day was never going to end""" The final bell rang after /orld )istory and I $ractically s*i$$ed out of the room" After the classes. =)ey.was sure their love was strong enough for that" certainly" But it didn5t mean that someone else couldn5t interfere with that" And didn5t some $eo$le en!oy watching the $ain on someone else5s face. it seemed li*e the day suddenly shortened" It didn5t seem li*e it showed a sign of aging. Gight. she5s only a freshman. I stared at the silver $late above the door" @reatB )ealth.
you don5t loo* much li*e your brother"= She sto$$ed short and I turned around to face her" =It5s !ust you guys don5t seem that much ali*e. gossi$" She was a little taller than me. about that.didn5t loo* much li*e her brother" /ait.id Anton at least invite you tonight. well tried to. well. would you mind if hel$ed you $ic* out something to wear. It5ll ta*e only twenty minutes and i want to hel$ you" Anton5s no good at dating. had blond hair"""and then I noticed the eyes" They were the same brownish shade as Anton’s" I wonder whether or not they turn the same shade of red as well""" She let her hand fall as she loo*ed confused at my furrowed brows" She cleared her throat nervously and closed her loc*er" she started to wal*ed away when I slammed mine shut. that5s all" But I5m sure that5s not too bad. and I5m sure he5d be ama:ed to see you wear something else other than your uniform" )e hasn5t had any e2$erience with girls"= I laughed. and let her steer me away" She sto$$ed in front of a lime green bug" . Sorry. gossi$’s always going to be !ust that.= she as*ed and my smile automatically faded" I could feel my face getting hotter and tried to hide underneath my hair" She laughed and $ulled me by my elbow" =I5m guessing he did" Sense that5s so. I mean I5d hate it if I loo*ed a lot li*e my brother"""= She giggled and I smiled" She stared into my face as if searching for the reason why Anton would li*e me" /hy would he. threw my bag over my shoulder and rushed of to ma*e time with her long strides" =/aitB #ictoria. that brought the 9uestion into my mind" I wasn5t girly" I wasn5t $retty" I wasn5t normal" And I wasn5t the dating ty$e" =. but I thought they were cousins"""well. I5m !ust.
. than*fully" I !um$ed out of the car and reached into the bac* seat for my bag and closed the door" I turned around and lea$ed bac*" =I5m sorry" I didn5t mean to scare you"= #ictoria had a small bag hanging from her shoulder" /asn5t that what Anton told me earlier.=Amm. %ou can !ust follow me to my house = She held u$ her hands and smiled. she wasn5t even loo*ing out the front windowB She was te2ting someone with one hand and her other one on the steering wheel" I shoo* my head and *e$t going to my house" I $ulled into the round driveway and turned off the engine" +a*e still wasn5t home. a few sweatshirts and a cou$le dresses" She threw the . but it5s cute"= she !um$ed u$ from the chair and o$ened my closet" She frowned while she loo*ed through the clothes that i had hanging" &ostly t shirts. #ictoria. es$ecially when most of the girls drool over your brother when he5s = She sto$$ed and loo*ed at my annoyed e2$ression" =@etting out of the $ool.on5t worry"= I wal*ed away towards my +ee$ and !um$ed in" I threw my bag into the bac* and started the engine" I could see #ictoria $ull out down the row of cars and I left the $ar*ing lot" /hen I chec*ed my rearview mirror. Almost that e2act sentence. /e have some co*e. and water"= She shoo* her head and started u$ the staircase" I followed her into my room and she sat down in my chair" =%our room is"""nice" Not girly enough for me. I already heard the rumors about how =hott= he is" . yeah. I led her to the front door and unloc*ed the deadbolt" She ste$$ed over the threshold after me and gas$ed" =It really is as nice as everyone says it is"= she murmured while I hung u$ my sweater" I wal*ed into the *itchen and grabbed a water bottle" =. =0f course. you don5t have to as*" Besides.o you mind if I drive my !ee$ bac*. s$rite. I *now where you live" /ho doesn5t.o you want anything.
=I do *now where it is" in fact. #ictoria" )e5s too old for you"= She shrugged. he5s been tal*ing and thin*ing about you"= She giggled. and a $air of blue flats" She loo*ed at me disa$$ointingly with the bas*etball shoes in her hands and tossed them bac* inside my closet" =I li*e the wedges" %ou have worn them before haven5t you.= She bit her li$ and shrugged. 0r is it some ty$e of secret. I was the one that suggested it to him" 7ver sense the first moment he saw you. another $air of white addida bas*etball shoes. and loo* me seriously in the eye. =.= She grabbed my hair into a bunch and started $laying around with it" She too* about and inch off of both sides of my face and $inned them in the bac*" I turned and loo*ed into the mirror" She smiled with a$$roval. have you ever thought about wearing your hair u$. =/ell. forget that. eight years isn5t that far a$art" No.on5t tell him I said that" I5ll be in a lot of trouble if he finds out" Anyways.dresses on the chair and tossed a few $airs of shoes that I had on to$ of them" =%ou loo* $retty good in blue"= She lifted the midnight blue stra$less and held it u$ to me" She smiled and gestured for me to *ee$ it out in front of me" She e2amined the few $airs of shoes I had" I $air of white wedges. a few $airs of fli$ flo$s. a $air of blue $uma bas*etball shoes. Because I5m not sure that Anton is going to want to be catching over and over again tonight" 7s$ecially where he5s ta*ing you"""= I tilted my head =/here is he ta*ing me. =That5s the way it5s done"= She threw her bag over her shoulder and waved at me" . and don5t forget to write a note for your brother" Anless you5d want me to come and sto$ by = I laughed and shoo* my head" =Sorry. I thin* this outfit will be $erfect for the restaurant he5s ta*ing you to" 0h.
but if it was for Anton. and o$ened u$ the door" =+ohn. I started to wal* carefully down the staircase.ive ste$s down. +ohn" I have to go somewhere"""= And then I sto$$ed" Gight behind him. /hat are you doing here. and of course. I couldn’t !ust leave" It’s li*e Anton tra$$ed me in an invisible room without windows and doors" I was tra$$ed. /hat was the secret he was hiding from me.= As much as I hated to sound so mean to +ohn. of course. i could handle anything. I thin*" I bit my li$ and switched off the light" An alarm went off in my head: what was going to ha$$en. was Anton with a large bou9uet of white roses in his hand" But not !ust because i . but with him" I could handle it. afraid my legs may sna$ if I wasn’t careful" . couldn’t I. I could handle that" If Anton was involved in it. but wish not to do" But what else could I do. the door bell rings" I rushed down the stairs. no matter what" =Sorry.She raced down the stairs and out the front door" I loo*ed out my window and could see her bug bac*ing out of the driveway" It s$ed away so fast that I barely noticed the de$arture" I loo*ed into the mirror and sighed" Something I so badly want. I couldn’t stand here and loo* at myself as Anton was out doing who *nows what" I already was dee$ into this $ainful secret. I sli$$ed on the an underdress. it really wasn’t the best time to catch me" =/ow" %ou loo*"""ama:ing" 7ither your $sychic or you already have $lans tonight"= I mentally too* down a note: Never wear a dress again. which sur$risingly wasn’t so hard. the dress and wedges" &y an*les felt li*e they were going to sna$ li*e a stic*" ?atherine had gotten the dress and wedges for me" I never had worn either of them. /ould I ever return bac* to my normal life.
he outstretched his hand with the bou9uet. =I thought you might li*e some flowers" The least I could do about as*ing you on a date so out of order was to get you something"= I smiled as I too* them and searched inside my bag for the *eys" =.o you mind if I $ut these in a vase real 9uic*. +ohn slowly turned and too* one glance at Anton" )e ste$$ed around him without loo*ing and slid into his car" /ith one nod in my direction. Anton" /hy did you have to be ten minutes early. he noisily left my driveway and s$ed down the street" =Sorry about him" )e !ust.id you do this. the small $aint s$latters would have been incredibly hard to notice.was embarrassed that I sto$$ed in mid sentence. needed hel$ with his. this is a lovely $lace you live in"= I sat down my *eys on the table and led him into the *itchen" To anyone. his hair was li*e normal. closing the door behind me" =/ow. uhh. it only made it worse for me" )e smiled amusingly as I turned around and unhoo*ed my sweater and $urse" @osh. =I ho$e I’m not interru$ting anything"= +ohn !um$ed at his smooth.= )e $ointed towards a large cluster of green dots on $art of the white wall" #ery much li*e me. that only mad it worse for both of us" 0*ay.= )e shoo* his head and gestured towards the door" I unloc*ed it and let him inside first. he loo*ed ama:ing" A slee* blac* suit that fit him well. uhh. As I turned bac* around and loc*ed the house. math homewor*" = I was all over the $lace" 0f course. which always too* my breath away. sil*y voice" Ah. I laughed uncontrollably for a few minutes before I could breath normal again" 0nly . why did he have to be so ama:ing. but I’m assuming nothing gets $ast this guy" =. Anton cleared his throat. and his eyes burned into mine.
id he really !ust tal* with an 7nglish accent.when I loo*ed u$ at Anton. Anli*ely but it sure did feel li*e it" =So you met my sister. but I could swear I’d heard one before" =%a.= )is voice was bac* to normal" No accent there. he wasn’t amused. or even scared" )e was rather interested and curious in fact" =%ou o*ay. entertained. 0r was the car actually mute against the road.= I nodded and I loc*ed u$ as we left" I cleared my throat as we wal*ed towards his car" )is beautiful car" )is ama:ing silver /GM" I could !ust feel my fingerti$s lose their feeling !ust thin*ing about holding the steering wheel" )e o$ened my door and I silently slid into the blac* seat" . I’m fine"= I shrugged and he loo*ed through the bac* window as he bac*ed out of my driveway" )is car silently s$un around into the right direction and slid down the street" /as I deaf.= I as*ed" )e didn’t really loo* it" =%a. this is what my )eaven would be li*e" . glass vases" I filled it with cold water and shifted the flowers around so that they were s$read out" =Geady. Are you all right.= I loo*ed u$ from my la$ confused" .id I !ust die and go to )eaven. /ow. I’m fine" I guess I’ve never really been around anyone that I actually made laugh" )mm"= )e shrugged and stared at the flowers on to$ of the counter" I o$ened u$ one of the bottom drawers and lifted out one of the clear. =Candice.
but he wasn’t" In fact. most li*ely to see my e2$ression. he seemed to *now e2actly where he was going" =/here are we going. I haven’t seen any burgers or french fries sense two wee*s .= I finally managed to as*" )e loo*ed away from the road. and turned bac* to staring out in front of him" =It’s !ust a small restaurant that I go to a lot" It’s not at all li*e the food you get at the mar*et or grocery store" It’s something you should be familiar with"= That left American food" Geally. Cha$ter F: The Geveal /ell. all was well as he drove on through town" And then another" I lost count of the welcome and good bye signs that we drove by" So I was lost.
you mean. yet strange at the same time sense we haven’t *nown each other for long" =0h" /ell. American food.= Anton hel$ed me as I shrugged out of my sweater and hung it u$ on the coat rac* along with his own !ac*et" =No" It isn’t"= /ell. Anton was out and hel$ing me out of the car" )e led the way into the restaurant. the only light was from the candles that filled every holder and dar* corner" =/ow" Is it normally li*e this. and I carefully sat down as he did across the table" A very small table in fact" If I fully stretched my arm across the table.before i left" That may be because I wasn’t e2actly in the mood for eating anything for a few wee*s. most li*ely" Before I could o$en my own door. his li$s s$reading wide over his smooth face" =%ou catch on fast"= %esB I was right" I never thought that I’d actually want to eat so much of this unhealthy food. that $retty much did it for me" )e didn’t have to say much more for me to reali:e that he’d set this all u$ !ust for me" )ow sweet. I would be $ushing him bac*" . but still" =So. me following closely behind" /hen we entered. it’s beautiful" #ery calm and $eaceful"= )e led me to a table in the middle of what seemed to be a dance floor" The other tables were turned away so that we would have more room" )e $ulled out one of the chairs for me. yet not many cared" Anton smiled. but it sounded ama:ing at the moment" )e $ulled into a $ar*ing lot with only one shiny car in the front" 0ne of the wor*ers.= I couldn’t hel$ the ho$e that sought into my voice as I $ictured a table filled with my favorites" The grease dri$$ing from the fries" So unbelievably bad for you.
+ara"= )e gestured with his hand and his mother did a strange curtsy" )mm. almost li*e communicating through e2$ressions" )is father turned towards me. and she turned towards Anton" =%our father would li*e to *now if you two are ready for su$$er now"= she said in a thic* 7nglish accent" Anton nodded and she turned to wal* bac* into the door she came through" )er blac* hair mimic*ing a ca$e behind her" =This $lace is lovely"= I commented" I hadn’t been so straight forward before but now I was going straight to the $oint" I felt as if I was delaying something" The only $roblem.=Than* you" But my family did most of this"= Almost as if on cue. this is Candice"= I sli$$ed my hand from beneath the table to sha*e his" )e gras$ed my small. a young women wal*s out" )er blac* hair strea*ing out behind her and her blue eyes stunning me" )is mom. Charles" . again" =Than* you" #ictoria really had the u$$er hand in this though" She wants to be an interior decorator"= Something seemed to flash in his eyes" A memory of some sort" +ust then. a tall. slender. slender hand in a firm gri$ and a grin stretched across his face" . this is my father. But it couldn’t be" She was so young and vibrant" She loo*ed only twenty" Twenty" A mom. was I didn’t *now what it was I that I was delaying" Anton smiled. this is my mother. At that age. =Candice. and handsome man wal*ed through the doors carrying two trays" 7ach filled with food" )e smiled as he a$$roached and set the trays down on the table" Anton nodded at his father.ather. and Anton introduced us" =Candice. interesting" =)ello"= I said in a 9uiet voice.
&r" Canning"= )e shoo* his head as we dro$$ed hands. and I loo*ed away aw*wardly" =Are you done. $i::a’s Italian" )uh.= I loo*ed bac* to find Anton staring at me intently" I nodded and he too* a si$ of water. Candice" It’s a $leasure to finally meet you" Anton has said so much about you"= Anton closed his eyes and bit his bottom li$ almost as if annoyed" =It’s a $leasure to meet you as well. Anton would loo* at me as if I was a new s$ecies< nothing he’d ever seen before" I didn’t want anymore salad after a few bites and stared down at the trays" )amburgers. he’d be watching me" It’s not sim$le for me to stare into his eyes" I often see hurt in them" )urt and some dee$. and stabbed my for* into the greens" I tried to chew 9uietly. staring down at my la$. !ust as Anton’s mother +ara" I stared down at the food" I could eat a hamburger. $i::a" /ait.=)ello. finishing it off in only a minute" I sighed and too* a si$ of water" I cleared my throat and watched Anton" )e loo*ed u$ after finishing his salad. he left us with all the food and went the same way bac* he’d come in. but each time I slowed my chewing. mine sliding bac* underneath the table" =Call me Charles"= /ith that. afraid if I loo*ed u$. li*e he was waiting for something" I sat. but they never taste the same" =This loo*s delicious" Is your father a chef.= Anton nodded and started eating at a salad" I $ic*ed u$ a salad as well. and dar*ening guilt that seems to grow every time he’s near me" . oh well" I bit into a small slice of $i::a. ri$ off cheerios are great. or half of one at least" It’s been four wee*s sense I saw anything of this sort" Sure.
he too* a road I hadn’t noticed before" =Anton. I did feel I *new him well" /e were meant to be together. hel$ing me out into the blindness of what I ho$ed wouldn’t swallow me" =/here are we going. but suddenly. and he was smiling trium$hantly" =%ou’re safe"= That was all I got" A sim$le reassuring of not where we were going. but of the state i was in" %et.+ust then. his father wal*ed out through the double doors that I agreed with myself as the *itchen" )e scoo$ed u$ the trays and then left us alone" Anton stood u$ and offered me his hand" I too* it gladly. /here are we going. but it was the best that I could do" It also felt odd in a way to refuse . weighing the odds" /ould someone even dare to try and hurt me with Anton here. o$ening my door first and shutting if for me" )e made his way around to his own door and slid in gracefully" /e started to head in the same way we came . feeling it wasn’t right to s$ea* normal" It seemed forbidden and across the line to be doing much here" )e held out his hand to me" =I want to show you something" It has to do with my life before my family moved to -olis"= I bit my li$.= I loo*ed over to him then. So I too* his hand" I may regret this later. at least that’s what I felt" )e $ulled u$ in front of a forest" A forest" It was $itch blac* and eerie loo*ing" )e slid out of the car li*e a rewind of him sliding into it" )e came around and o$ened my own door. and we wal*ed out into the still night" )e unloc*ed his car. and he hel$ed me into my sweater and threw on his coat as well" I slid my $urse off my shoulder. I did feel safe" 7ven after only *nowing Anton for a few days.= I whis$ered.
)e led me through the forest" At first. I saw the ti$ of a large roc*. searching for an answer" 0ut of the corner of my eye. when he let go of my hand" I scra$ed at the air. connected to many others" I turned away from Anton and stared at the ama:ing scul$ture" =/hat is it. and the strange formation behind us" Something glowed behind the figure" Small orbs of light lifting themselves towards us" Then they came closer" The ne2t thing I *new. understanding what the =it’ was and why I was so ama:ed" =It’s an old tem$le that my brother and I found in the woods" /e also found something else"= )e grabbed hold of my hand" I let him do it. but . but it was im$ossible" +ust fragments of my imagination" It felt li*e we had been out here for hours" All I could see were trees. I sure ho$ed so" =Anton". or whether he was scared himself" I was about to as* him when we were going to be there. another carefully holding my bac*" /as Anton doing this. when I felt $ressure on my bac*" Something lifted me from the ground" 0ne under my *nees. but I had a strong feeling it more never ha$$en" )e led me inside a rectangular room" Some of the ceiling had caved in.= I felt around turning my head this way and that" Then something was shadowing of my face" It bloc*ed out the trees. I wanted him to hold my hand" There was only one thing I wanted more than that.= I as*ed" Anton was there within a second. searching for him. trees. I stayed hidden beside Anton" I admit I was somewhat scared to be out here in the dar*" I swore I *e$t seeing blac* shadows following us. I was set on the ground. and more trees" )is hand never let go of mine" But it was hard to tell whether he was amused by my strong hold on his hand. and less than an inch away from Anton’s face" I stared into his brown eyes.
only easier to believe" /hen I loo*ed u$ from his chest.= I as*ed" A $layful tone see*ing into my voice" )e shoo* his head and continued to stare" I stared bac*" I wasn’t sure why. but every time I loo*ed away. the floor sun* lower and a cemented $ool dug about five feet into the ground" /ater was still steaming out of it. intently" =/hat. smooth s*in laid o$en before my eyes" &y hand unconsciously slid over his chest and I marveled at it’s sil*iness feel" It was very much li*e my dream.most of it remained standing" In the center. but I ended u$ hel$ing him unfasten it" I stared into his eyes as I hel$ed him. I sli$$ed off my sweater and my wedges" A cold hand un:i$$ed the bac* of my dress. and I slid it off" /hen I turned around Anton was there" If I had turned any faster. I ended u$ turning my eyes towards him in defeat" . and the hot water" =/e also found this" /e fill it with fresh water when it eva$orates or over flows" It’s an old bath house" 0nly we use it as a hot tub"= )e smiled and lit a lam$ hanging from the ceiling" )e sli$$ed off his !ac*et and suit !ac*et" )e tried undoing his tie. so it wouldn’t see through" Biting my li$. but the goose bum$s remained" Anton leaned bac* and watched me. he was staring at me" 72$ecting something from me. surely he’d still understood and I could hear him ste$ into the water" I than*ed myself that I had thought to wear a underdress" Blue in fact. my s*in no longer chilled. but I didn’t *now what he wanted" )e unbuttoned his $ants and I loo*ed away" )e cleared his throat" I nodded. once again. and then he unbuttoned his shirt" I tried to loo* down but I was tem$ted" )is $ale. I would’ve bum$ed into him" )e held my hand and wal*ed ahead of me into the giant hot tub" /hen I slid in. the reaction to the cold nights air.
then I $romise"= I tried to ma*e a !o*e out of it" It wor*ed for me and not so much for Anton" )is face stayed grave. well. but was clouded over" . I need to go"= )e bit his li$. will you $romise not to tell anyone.= A $romise already trying to be made between us" )e seemed reluctant to tell me anything on the first day" )as it all been turned around already. life in the womb" But mine. $arenthood. =As long as you aren’t $romising me to agree to sacrificing to some god. I have two of everything you have"= This wasn’t ma*ing sense to me" )e moved closer to me and held my hands" It was hard to loo* at him this way" A cra:ed face re$lacing that smile I always loved" I li*ed him for the first few days I’ve *nown him" Now I don’t seem to li*e him in nearly the same way" It’s li*e he’d gone mad in a sense of e2$laining his life" I stood u$ to go" But he didn’t let go of my hands" =-lease. thin*ing $ro against con" )e let go and I started to leave the $ool" =Candice. wait"= I turned to find him close to me again" 3ess than an inch away" But I couldn’t go on with him li*e this" )e leaned over and his li$s crushed into mine" I didn’t want this" )e was only *issing me to ma*e me stay" But it wor*ed" I moved closer so a centimeter *e$t our bodies a$art" &y hand clutched a hand full of his brown hair as he wra$$ed an arm around my waist so the centimeter no longer e2isted.=%ou said that this was $art of your life before you moved to -olis" )ow is that. it’s about my $ast" 7veryone has a $ast their childhood. It must be thousands or millions of years old"= Shoc* s$read across his face and he became serious" =If I tell you this. li*e someone he loved died" =/ell.
e2$ecting him to come out from the water or to be behind me.It felt li*e we stood there for hours . grabbed my $urse. I left the s$ot and drove home" I found the roads easily enough. but I had run out of breath and felt li*e my li$s were on fire" )is arm finally left and my hand slowly let go of his hair" )is hands cu$$ed my face. and then I was sli$$ing on my dress and shrugging on my sweater" The lam$ came bac* on. I $ar*ed the car across the street from our house" Surely. but nothing ha$$ened" I threw my wedges out into the night" I’d rather wal* bare foot any day" It too* me a while to get bac* to Anton’s car" /hich made me 9uestion why he left me so suddenly" The *eys were still in the ignition and the car was still unloc*ed" I started the engine. +a*e would thin* it was the neighbors" I loc*ed the doors. ready to go on another adventure. and then we $ulled a$art" I *e$t my eyes closed and waited for him to say something" )is arm never sli$$ed away and neither did mine" )is face was still close to mine. and I willed myself to o$en my eyes" )e was staring at me in the scariest way" )e bent down and whis$ered. and sense I have $icture $erfect memory. but sat there for sometime" 72$ecting Anton to gracefully slide into the $assenger seat. I could tell" It was about 11 o’cloc*" A bag of chi$s was o$en and half full on the coffee table. but I couldn’t find Anton" I stood there for a moment. two em$ty $lates and three em$t .=I love you"= Then the strangest thing ha$$ened" The lam$ was out" /e stood in dar*ness. +a*e wouldn’t li*e it very much if he found this car at our house" As i found our street. what was I su$$osed to do with the car. I su$$ose" After what seemed to be three hours. the roads were the same as the ones Anton had ta*en" Then I reali:ed. and wal*ed into the cool night to my house" +a*e was aslee$.
I wonder if )alloween was a holiday here" I changed into some !eans.riday" Today was the thirty first" )uh. A bag of *it *ats" I smiled and $ulled them into my arms" I searched longer and got some salt water taffy. so I thought I’d leave it for him until he got home" I chec*ed the calendar and crossed off . *noc* off gummy worms and bears.beer cans. *noc* offs of most American candy" Then. and a . as i slid restlessly into my covers" /hen I wo*e u$. and a $air of flats" I too* some money out of our food !ar. had somehow left me dirty an uncomfortable" I sli$$ed into my $a!amas afterward and hugged my *nees to my chest outside on my balcony" /hen i first went out there and chec*ed the time. are you *idding. as*ed where the candy was" The man smiled. in the little @ree* I *new. it was almost midnight" /hen i came bac* inside. and the remote still in his hand" I switched off the t"v and threw a blan*et over +a*e" I showered. and drove my !ee$ to store" I went to the customer service and. and +a*e s$rawled out on the couch. it was J:18 a"m on Saturday" I yawned and climbed down my ladder" After I had somewhat untangled my hair. gone for wor*" )e still hadn’t cleaned u$ his mess from last night. it was almost three in the morning" I sighed and turned off my lam$. a bas*etball game on television. but I felt it was his own res$onsibility to do so. a tan* to$ with a flannel . $ointed towards some of the candy. and I left towards it" /ell. I $ulled it into a $ony tail and went downstairs to find +a*e. feeling that being with someone who tells me that he loves me and then leaves right afterwards. more li*e lim$ed" &y feet felt li*e needles stabbed into my s*in every ste$ I too*" I guess that’s what I get from wal*ing bare foot in the forest in the dar*" I entered the isle" I bit my li$ at my choices" /ell.
maybe there was no such thing as )alloween here after all" Twyla loo*ed over to me and waved I smiled. Aron. but !ohn $atted me on the bac*" =/ell. it only does for everyone at the 7nglish academy" So we throw a $arty every year" It’s normally at a different house each year.= I raised my eyebrow and shrugged" =%ou should come to a $arty tonight with us for )alloween"= I loo*ed over to Aron" I smiled bac*" I hadn’t reali:ed Aron could tal*" =0h. I heard familiar laughing behind me" I turned to see +ohn. Candice" Are you doing anything tonight. $ic* you u$ if you wanted to"= I bit my li$ and nodded" . Twyla. and shut the bac* door to the trun*" They !ogged over to me" Twyla smiled. Sadie.$ac* of cola" I bought them and carried my bags bac* to my !ee$" As I loaded them into my !ee$. and Carey" They were all in regular clothes. you *now. you should be fine"= I smiled and nodded" I started to ma*e my way bac* to the driver’s side when a hand $ulled me bac*" I turned to see Aron holding my wrist" )is glassy green eyes amused" &y brows $ushed together as his hand slid down to wra$ around my hand" I snatched it bac* and he cleared his throat" =I was wondering if you wanted to get $ic*ed u$. I could. =)ey. I didn’t *now whether or not )alloween e2isted here"= 7veryone laughed. but it’s the second year in a row that it’ll be at Twyla’s" = Twyla blushed and Sadie $i$ed u$" =%ou should come" It’s not a costume $arty" +ust $ut on a dress and some flats.
and stared and the white folders for the dresses" I un:i$$ed a few that I hadn’t loo*ed at yet" These seemed suitable enough" Another red one.=Sure. which left me with about two hours left I’d finished eating and brushed my teeth" I had called to ma*e an a$$ointment earlier with a hair stylist. so it was fine" I had $lenty more . ah. that would be fine"= )is face shrun* a little at the word =fine=" I waved to him as I climbed in the car" =I’ll $ic* you u$ at si2B= I nodded to him and +ohn turned to glare" )e smiled trium$hantly and I rushed to get out of the $ar*ing lot" /hen I got home. ate it. but it went down to a # nec* with thic*er white lace so it wasn’t ina$$ro$riate" I believe that +a*e had a stylist organi:e this closet. I unloaded the bags and went u$stairs" It was about two already" I o$ened my other closet. so I figured it was time to have some lunchPdinner" I coo*ed some stirfry and rice" It too* me about OF minutes" So i let it cool. and it only cost twenty dollars. two inches seemed safe enough" I lifted a $air of silver heels off the shelf and stra$$ed them to my feet" They s$ar*led this way and that" They actually didn’t loo* that bad" I unstra$$ed them and sat them on the ground. underneath the dress" It was almost three by now. there is no right in mind that a man that I *new or my older brother would be able to do this" I carefully slid out the red one and hung it on the side of my bed" wal*ed bac* into my closet and stared at the left side" Shoes" I lifted about si2 different high heels" . and I sli$$ed it out of the rac*" It was long and somewhat #ictorian style" The sleeves were EPO and had white lace coming off of them" The nec* line was higher on the sides with the white lace. three inches.our inches. only this one was stra$less that came right above my *nees" There was another dress that *inda glowed" It was the color that reflected the moon.
blush on my high chec*. and I was ready to go" I didn’t want to loo* in the mirror" I was afraid I’d chic*en out.than that" So did +a*e" I grabbed my $urse and the hair do that I wanted from a $icture in a maga:ine.= I could hear -aige’s voice on the other side" . but I actually loo*ed good" I $aid.errari" =Nice" Is it yours. sli$$ed on the dress. and drove to the stylist" It too* about OF minutes. I could hear the guys laughing and Aron bragging" Not at all what I wanted" I *noc*ed on the door" =/ho is it.= )e turned towards me as he unloc*ed the doors" )e shoo* his head and bent bac* down to unloc* my door on the inside" =It’s my dad’s he lets me borrow it ever now and then"= I sat down in my seat as he did in his" )e started the car and drove in the direction of the store" )e cleared his throat" =%ou loo* nice"= I nodded $olitely and stared out the window at the $assing trees and houses" /e arrived at a large. and both of us climbed out of the car" &ore $eo$le *e$t arriving as we entered the house and I let him lead me into the house" )e found a grou$ of guys and introduced me to a few of them" I smiled and nodded as he listed the names" Some of them whistled as he grabbed my hand to lead me u$stairs so I could find Twyla and the girls" )e $ointed towards a door and went bac* downstairs to hang out with the guys" As I strained my ears. and some li$ gloss. and I too* my time to come down stairs" Aron was in a suit with a bou9uet if flowers in his hand" Ged camellias" I set them down beside the door. white mansion" It seemed almost as big as the /hite )ouse" )e turned off the car when he found a $ar*ing lot. and left for home" I $ut on some eye shadow. so I !ust waited on the coach" The door bell rang. stra$$ed on the heels. and he wal*ed beside me to his .
I’m wearing a second hand dress that I have no idea what brand it is. great. his hand would inch towards mine. so he couldn’t grab hold of it" /e rounded the corner to find +ohn with Carey" They were laughing and she was hel$ing him with a la$to$" /e slid behind the table. you loo* great Candice" Is that an 7steban Corta:ar.= I could hear loc*s being undone on the other side and Sadie rushed me inside" =)i" /ow.= I shrugged" Twyla came out of her closet and frowned" =So. while you’re wearing a dress that was wal*ed down the runway. Candice"= Aron $ut an arm around my shoulder and glared" 3i*e he was going to hit him glare" 3i*e I was =his=" I couldn’t believe thisB /as there ever going to be a single day in which I could live my life $eacefully without guys being so. but you loo* much better"= She shoo* her head. well. but I’d ste$ away.= I bit my li$ and she laughed" =0nly !o*ing" %ou loo* great by the way"= I loo*ed at her $in* s$aghetti stra$$ed and tried to convince her" =0h. I reached over and dro$$ed his arm from my shoulder with an innocent smile" I ste$$ed away shyly and led the girls out of the testosterone filled room" . and laughed as +ohn attem$ted to find out how to $lay songs and get them on the s$ea*ers" )e finally got them to $lay right. and we left down stairs" As we descended some of the guys whistled and made $leasing e2$ressions and Aron too* to the $lace ne2t to me when we headed to the main crowd" At times. guyish.= I shrugged and she $ee*ed around the bac* to loo* at the tag" =It isB )ow did you get this.=It’s Candice" Can I come in. and turned towards us" )is smile faded as he too* me in" )is !aw slightly dro$$ed and I tried not to laugh at his e2$ression" =%ou loo*.
yet seemed strangely familiar. not believing my voice could be strong enough" I didn’t trust it.= I could feel the chill in my voice as I stared into the mas*ed face" /hoever it was.inally. *ind sir. the mas* was on the floor. Before I could do anything.= I whis$ered. and her small. li*e you’d lose her" I shrugged but a hand !er*ed me bac* a ste$" I loo*ed u$ into a mas*ed face and turned to loo* at my circle of friends" They had fled" )ow trustworthy could I rate that. and that was the truth" . we sto$$ed" 3ights lit our feet on the $aved stone" &y breath was shallow and I crushed my hands into fists to ignore the rough trembling building in my body" Then. his eyes were hard to see. and his hand was too comfortable for me to $ush it away" =. was at least si2 feet. A negative 1I. brea*able body was much too innocent" She was li*e a doll you had when you were little" So adorable and you were afraid to $ut her down. glass crushed at my feet but didn’t cut my s*in" I willed myself to loo* into the face that was no longer mas*ed. )er cute little shrill voice brightened the room. Candice has got some admirersB= I turned to glare at Twyla" But how could I.= A smile s$read across the mas*ed face" /as I ever to *now who this guy was. I unwound the hand still rested on my bare shoulder and s$un around to face the mas*ed stranger" =And you are. he $ulled me away into the bac*yard where a garden stood $roudly tall" )e led me through the ma:e and I wor*ed my way through the tall trees and bushes with only an inch left of my boldness" .=/ow.o I really have the need to as* you again. but could see nothing" Not even a faint trace of the man’s nose could be drawn from the shadows" =/ho are you.
didn’t seem o$en or friendly" I wo*e with a start" &y head thrust $ainfully and I could still feel the gri$ on my arm that I felt in my dream" I tried to o$en my eyes. my hands were lost out in sea. is not your concern" /hat I do. I su$$ose. /hy was he s$ea*ing so. wiggle my toes at least" Nothing. but I couldn’t feel any tight sting on my arm" I bit my li$" I could taste the co$$ery blood. /hat was going on. nor the shar$ $ain I would have felt" I could feel the numbness swallow whatever it was that should be my body" 3imbs. that were filled with sand" I tried to move my feet. /hatever it was. li*e a bac*ground noise beneath the invisible head$hones I wore that covered my ears" Someone was saying something" Could it be my name. sin*ing on their own accord" I was ho$eless and no one would ever *now" I" /as" 3ost" Then something shar$ hit my face. but not the brea* of s*in. my body somewhat rigid. it couldn’t be" )ow had I died. )is hand gri$$ed my wrist roughly and I shoved him bac*" )e staggered but didn’t loosen his gras$" I watched as the shadowed man drew something out from underneath his cloa*" A s$ray. /hat was my name. but nothing came into view" /as I dead. is not what you shall ever *now" /hat you see will be only a dream"= /ho was this.=/hom I am. the yelling went on" . Surely I would have at least *nown that" I tried to $inch my left arm with my right hand. I felt dubious. No. once again" Then I heard it" The faintest sound of something bee$ing. my s*in tingled and a !agged breath esca$ed me" I could hear rushing and $eo$le calling my name" =CandiceB= So that was my name after all" Candice" I felt the $aved stone beneath me vanish and a rush of cold air hit my bare legs and shoulders" I could still taste the co$$ery blood on my li$ and yearned to rid the taste from my mouth" )ands $laced me on a $atted cloud and yet.
then I turned my head in the o$$osite direction and I could see white" That was all" Nothing more" I tried to *ee$ my eyes from closing. But when I $ushed my mind to let my hand lift. pooling warmth in through my throat. increased the drowsiness" 'he man’s hands enveloped my wrist’s and then slid away. to suddenly feel the sharp sting of the metal cutting into my skin. some things were still viewable" I stared at navy blue. /armth flooded into my mouth again" 0nly it didn’t taste of the co$$ery blood" It was sweet and refreshing" I suc*ed it in. bone. 'hat familiar coppery taste filled my mouth again. I pulled them apart. and sand re$laced them" Something $ounded on my chest" I couldn’t tell whether from the outside or the inside" &y heart. I stared past the shadowed man to the large brick building that covered the whole length of a street. it still sun* ne2t to my side" It felt as if blood.ar*ness still covered my eyes" /hen I felt the flutter of my eyelids. 0r something I’ve no control over. no need to swallow it" It wasn’t a drin* Instead. . it loo*ed to be a uniform of some *ind. I was sure of" &y s*ull ached and was shar$ened by a flic* of cold" /as I bleeding. it was air" Sweet.)ad I died and suddenly been chec*ed for )eaven. It felt li*e I was slee$ing on a cloud. Chains replaced my bracelets on my wrists. but whatever was filling my mouth. that much. muscle. only leaving my li$ and s*ull shar$ with cold" Someone was yelling my name again" I couldn’t see who it was" . /y teeth bit down on my tongue to keep from screaming. and meat had been $ulled from it’s $lace. only. sweet air" I felt as if this was the first breath I had ta*en in a long time" The warmth flooded my body.
then we shall see what will happen from there. He drew out another silver ring like the one he’d dropped in the sewer and unlocked my chains. He dangled it.= He leaned in close to me and I flinched away. 4ou are to be fitted for your clothes.= He slammed the door and I could hear him hurry to shut down the locks on the other side. His grip firm on my chains. and my arms were covered with bruises" . I took one last glimpse around me into the outside world. and then tossed it down into the depths of the sewer drains. He himself entered. I loo*ed around the room" It was bright. 3 long mirror covered one wall with paintings on either side of it. I was trapped. He lifted the outside latch and threw me inside. +ne single large. but I shoved away from him and he slapped me hard across my cheek. 4ou’ll pay the conse0uence. 3 large. silver ring. tormenting me for a moment. oak door stood in the hallway. my legs still week from the long walk. /y feet caught the steps a few times. princess bed took over the center of the room. I wo*e with a start" &y vision was blurred and I was sweating" I wi$ed my eyes to find tears staining my chee*s and hurried to wash them away" /hen my vision was clear. I stared at the bleak room. child. and we finally reached the top. 3lmost as if a snake bit me there. =4ou’d better not rebel against me. He tilted my chin up. -as this going to be the last time that I would be able to see the blue sky? -hen inside he dragged me up the steps. trying to kiss me.'he man before me lifted a key to my face that hung on a large. a lam$ stood on a night stand ne2t to my bed" &etal bars *e$t me from falling out of the bed. 'he windows were caged from the outside with metal bars. tugging me along side of him into the dying building. ='hree women will come inside here.
and young" =&iss. curved eyebrows" She was beautiful. &y mom used to say that my great grandmother was gifted with visions of what was to ha$$en to her and her loved ones" Could this be true. .= I shoo* my head to the first 9uestion and grimaced when I found my head $ounding at any slight movement" I grunted and shifted my other leg uncomfortably" =I’ve only been awa*e for a few minutes"= &y voice sounded different and was frightened by the feel of it coming from myself" It was li*e I was tal*ing in my dreams while I was awa*e" It was distant" )er cool hands felt my head and she unraveled some of the bandage to chec* my wound" She shoo* her head and wound it bac* u$" =3oo*s li*e I’ll be needin’ to re bandage Qhis" I’ll be bac* in a momen’"= She glided out of the room" I sat and stared in front of me. It felt so real" A vision. Then I was ta*en bac* to reality" I was in a hos$ital" I stared down at the bed" 0ne leg was underneath the body" The other leg was lifted into a cast" /as it bro*en. and a bandage securely wra$$ed my scal$" /hat had ha$$ened. trying to *ee$ my mind off of the dream" /ho was that man. dear. is there anything you need. /here was I.Needles stuc* in my arms and hands" I felt my head. /hat was he $lanning on doing to me. A nurse rushed inside of the room" )er red curls bounced beneath the small ca$ that covered $art of her head" )er heart sha$ed face was smooth and elegant" Bright blue eyes stared at me from underneath thin. I was alone" &y dream" /as it a dream. No one was in the room with me" It was li*e my dream. Q0w long have you been awa*e.
=I thought she needed her rest. uncombed hair that somehow seemed formal. echoing in my mind.=Q7re she is" She !us’ wo*e u$"= I lived my head from my $illow and reached over my side to listen in" That was the nurses voice" But. even though it was a whis$er" /ho was he. yes" 72actly the reason why I had lef’ the room to ge’ Qer medicine" If you woul’ e2cuse meh"= )asty ste$s clic*ed down the hallway.= I croa*ed" &y throat ached with the effort it too* to s$ill out three sim$le words" =%ou don’t remember me. so you are awa*e"= I glanced around for a moment and caught the steady glare of a man" )e had bright . do you. I couldn’t recall such a voice before" =%es. who was it that accom$anied her.= She sighed and *nelt over me" I bit my trembling li$ as a shar$ $ain see$ed into my shoulder" I tried not to $icture the needle that stuc* out of my arm. &y mother never mentioned him ever in my entire life" I continued to stare when a slight grunt brought my attention to the nurse entering the room" =I though’ I Qold you to let Qer be. for the sa*e of Qer health. 0f course not" Anyways. you are my granddaughter"= I stared at the man in disbelief" )ow come I couldn’t remember him.= came and angry re$ly" A man’s dee$ voice roared in the hallway. but it was unbearable" . )ow will she ever ge’ bettah if you’re waitin’ aroun’ li*e a starvin’ $u$.green eyes. I couldn’t thin* of a moment in my mind where I remembered ever meeting him" =/ho are you. Certainly not one of my relatives" =0h. and stubble u$on his chin" )e loo*ed so familiar and yet. a stubborn chin. and I sun* bac*down onto the bed" /ho was it the nurse was tal*ing to.
but she still didn’t have much a care for me"= he $aced the room as he said this" =I visited every now and then" In fact. I’ve met you a few times. yes" #ery well"= &y grandfather ushered the nurse out glaring at him as he did so and closed the door. will ya. =)ow come I never met you. it’s all going to be alright"= I clenched the sheet as another stab of $ain see$ed into my shoulder and the nurse sighed" =?ee$ straigh’. scra$ing the sides as they went. not caring if it burned" =I left your grandmother when your mother was young" I had *e$t in touch as much as I could. $ainting and writing. but it did me no good to be away from you *ids" %ou had no one left"= )e sat on the edge of my bed and smiled down at me. it didn’t hel$ that what I wanted most came out of one of the most annoying things I’ve yet to meet" Another needle $oint" =%es. going through my wor* li*e i normally would.=Can’t you !ust let her be. Candice. I can’t be doin’ this all day if you go all rigi’ on meh"= her 7nglish accent annoyed me" No matter how much I adored them and wished that I had one myself. for a while.= &y throat still felt as if bric*s fell down it. I can tell over here that the thought of another needle stic*ing out of her arm is ma*ing the blood drain from her"= he glanced at me and smiled" =No need to worry. and waited until i could sell my house and move u$ here" I was originally living in Gome. his silver strea*s of hair dancing in the light of the sun from the shutters" . though you were no older than four" %our brother *e$t in touch with me as well" )e called me a few wee*s ago about 7lise’s death" I was de$ressed for a while.
my mind was sli$$ing. but it’s head was turned towards my direction" I s9uinted in the dar*ness. but another hands was there. I !ust got settled in. dreamless slee$" I awo*e again" The room was dar* e2ce$t for the small amount of light that cre$t in through the crac* in the door" -eo$le were hustling outside. candy. and I struggled to *ee$ my vision clear" )e $atted my good leg and gave me a reassuring smile" =0f course" I don’t want you to rush things.= It stayed still. small mansion" I want you to come live with me"= )e continued. cards. I don’t want to rush things"= &y words slurred. either" Now. filling the small night tables" An em$ty chair sat in one of the dar*ened corners" The door o$ened and I forced my head to turn slightly" &y nec* ached.=I’m living in 3ondon right now" It’s a nice.= No answer" &y hand twitched towards the call button.lowers. and I fell into a long. their footste$s un eased" &y side hurt from slee$ing u$right. though it didn’t do anything" =@rand$a. no longer on my stomach as I normally did" &y head $ounded as if someone was hitting me with a hammer re$eatedly" I slowly $ushed myself u$ into a sitting $osition and scanned the room" &y legs was no longer attached to the ceiling" It was re bandaged and a few signatures already covered the red surface" . get some slee$" I don’t want you to hurt yourself trying to stay awa*e for me"= As he said these. Is that you. but it’s face was shadowed" =+a*e. but I ignored the $ain" A figure ste$$ed through. while I stared down at the white blan*et" =It’s the best that I can thin* of" The last of our family should stay together"= =I don’t *now" Can you give me a while to thin* about it. holding my fingers tightly" . and balloons sat on either side of me.
while you run about. tal* to me"= I leaned eagerly over the side of my bed. you have no idea why I left"= =Then why did you leave.= &y voice raised on the last $art and turned it bac* down to a whis$er" =Gight after I met your $arents. so this is all fun and games for you.= )e shrugged" =0h. Gight after you *iss me. ignoring the shar$ $ains that shot u$ through my body from the unacce$ted movement" . hy$noti:ing teenage girls with you eyes.= )e crac*ed a smiled" =I had no idea that’s what you called it" I had no idea you fell in love with me either"= I could feel my chee*s burn violently. 0r frustration. so you needed a brea* right after ma*ing me fall in love with you. I don’t *now if I trust myself" /ith you or anyone else"= )e leaned forward and his head fell into his hands" Anger. I do *now that" The $roblem is.=Anton"= It wasn’t a 9uestion" The head nodded and I leaned in to view the face" I needed to be sure" Anton shoo* his head and let go of my fingers" I caressed my aching hand while he glided across the room to turn on the light" I scrunched my eyes at the burning bright light and stared at Anton as if he was a ghost" =/here have you been"= I croa*ed" I cleared my voice" I don’t thin* I actually as*ed that" It was more of a statement" =@one"= )e fingered one of my cards and laughed" )e sat it bac* down on the night stand and ran his hand through his hair" =I needed a brea*"= =0h. =-lease. his legs stretched out in front of him" =%a.= )e chuc*led and started to $ace the room" =%ou do *now you can trust me"= )e sighed and sat down in the chair. either from embarrassment of anger. I wasn’t sure"= Besides.
then continued" =As I was saying. or the art gallery. waiting for another 9uestion. we were wal*ing home from school. . and I hadn’t gotten her a $resent yet" =/e went in through the door. it all started when I was seven years old" I was in love with 7ngland. sometimes !ust to wal* the streets and have a whiff of the fresh air" &y best friend. If you grew u$ in 7ngland. we would beg $eo$le on the streets. when a dis$lay in a store window caught Sam’s attention" /e s*idded to a sto$. but we needed D more shillings" It was my sister’s birthday the ne2t day. with our money we earned on our way to the candy sho$.inally I nodded. and $eered into a window" A beautiful. that’s where I lived" I s*i$$ed school every now and then. Sam. and as*ed the wor*er if i could loo* at the doll" )e handed it to me and I lifted the money out of my $oc*et" Q%ou’re a few shillings short.= )e stared me down and I chewed on the inside of my chee*" . we always went to a candy sho$ after school. !ust to go visit the museum. and he gestured for me to lay down and rela2" =/ell. saying we were $oor and needed money to feed our families" 7ver now and then we would do a street $erformance. surely you’d still have one"= =I’ll get to that"= )e $aused again. and we could get loads of shillings" 0ne day. and we loaded u$" /e bought more candy than we ever had before" /e were on our way to the $ar* to eat our stashes. always wal*ed with me to the candy sho$ after school"= =/ait"= I held u$ a hand. he $aused abru$tly" =/hat ha$$ened to your 7nglish accent. $orcelain doll sat on the stretched fabric.)e lifted his head from his hands and !ust stared" )is intense glare stuc* with my curious stare and he nodded" )e lifted the chair and slid it ne2t to my bed" )is hands rested on the railing and I longed to reach out and stro*e his $ale fingers" =Are you sure you want to *now why I left.
Qthat won’t do ye any good. staring into the distance" =I !um$ed u$ from where I’d been idling. not ten $aces behind" I loo*ed casually to either side of the street.= he went on. as we usually did. he was even closer than before" I went into an alleyway and turned shar$ly on a dead end" I climbed the gutter and $ulled myself u$ onto the to$ of the building"= )e sto$$ed again.’ I $ulled myself u$ from the $illow. boy’ I handed bac* the doll. and I didn’t want to get in trouble by my $arents" They had no idea that we ate candy every day after school" /e left the $ar*. a man in a blac* ca$e with a cane in one hand was following me. and headed in different directions" I was wal*ing home. all wearing blac* ca$es. =and started running" /hen I glanced bac*.lad’. so I $laced a hand of the side" /hen I gently slid my hand over my nec*. and ran across" /hen I glanced bac* again. a rough bandage caught between my fingers"= )e sto$$ed abru$tly and rushed to stand" =I’ll tell you the rest later" But for now. the man was only a few feet away from me"= )e suddenly sto$$ed" )e loo*ed from the door to me" )is eyes bore into mine" =The ne2t thing I *now. I’m lying in a *ing si:e bed" A grou$ of $eo$le. surrounded the bed. I nodded and held out a handful of candy. moaning as my body ached with agony" &y nec* was stiff. and loo*ed at te door. and we left the sho$" /e went on our way to the $ar*. staring down at me" QThis is who you bring me" A lad who nothin’ would be worth for. but I felt bad I hadn’t gotten #alorie anything for her birthday" Q%ou could give her the candy you bought’ I shoo* my head and told him that she was too young to eat sweets" She was only going to be F. but it normally too* me at least a half an hour to ma*e it" /hen I glanced behind me. I must leave"= )e *issed my hand gently. and fled at an inhuman s$eed through the hallway" .
when I noticed a remote" I loo*ed over my shoulder to the t"v. and drifted off into a dreamless slee$" It wasn’t until early morning that I wo*e again" A nurse had come in to chec* on me a few hours bac*. and turned it on" The t"v was a $retty nice one" A 7uro$ean styled $lasma with cable" I fli$$ed through the channels and sto$$ed when I noticed something interesting: @host )unters" As much as I went against most ghost stories. it had it’s drawbac*s. I was relieved to find something somewhat similar from home" 0f course. his bac* facing the camera" )is hair blowing gently in the bree:e. but I was watching a documentary" /hat about. but the $eo$le on the show s$o*e 7nglish" At least I could understand it" I turned u$ the volume. lightly closing the door behind her" I closed my eyes. yet" I $ro$$ed myself u$ on my elbows and waited im$atiently as the o$ening credits went along" Then it started" A tall. miss"= She !otted down a few notes. I don’t remember ever doing that before in my life" I rolled over on my side aw*wardly. one leg still u$ in the air"" The room was glum< a gray bo2 with me inside it" I fingered the $lastic bracelets and reached out to get the water. more notes. coffee colored hair tossing itself bac*wards" A thum$ hit down below. and I guess it was a roc*" But I never could tell" A shallow breathing hid behind . and I’d been awa*e sense" I was told I sle$t for over thirteen hours" )uh. lan*y man stood on a bridge.=&iss"= I loo*ed u$ to find another nurse glancing nervously at the e9ui$ment ne2t to my bed" =It seems yer Qeart Qas gone u$ a bit. and left the room. chec*ed my $ulse on my wrist. and sto$$ed when the channel changed. randomly" No longer was I watching British ghost investigators cree$ing on the inside of some haunted castle. I wasn’t so sure.
Before I could answer my own 9uestion. this is all because of your dear Anton" .= . I don’t *now what you’re tal*ing about" I thin* you must have me confused with someone else" This shouldn’t even be ha$$ening" This isn’t real" This isn’t real= I reassured myself" =0h. the man was facing the camera" Sea foam green eyes bored through my own eyes.= )e as*ed" /hile I waited for a res$onse from on t"v. but my dear" 0f course you *now what I’m tal*ing about" 0therwise.= I swallowed in my now swelling throat" I tried to reach out to my water. and this is actually ha$$ening" I barely recogni:ed you in that hos$ital bed" But. =0h. and I was mesmeri:ed" )is eyes seemed to be searching for my soul and I invited him in" =/hat are you doing here. but he led us right to you"= =/hat do you mean. child. but you aren’t confused" %ou are in reality. I don’t. It couldn’t be true" =/h /hat. how could you be listening and s$ea*ing to me. I reali:ed something" The only other $erson was the camera man" /as he tal*ing to me. your dear Anton hel$ed me regain my assurances" %ou are a hard one to trac*.id you not *now that is was he who caused all of this. I must be dreaming. abandoned museum an hour ago"= =Amm. listen" Sir.= I as*ed. right. strong force" =I said. %ou were su$$osed to meet me outside of the old. but a unbearable strong weight $ushed down on me" It was li*e I was being $ushed down by some invisible. what are you doing here.the camera" /as the camera man scared of whoever it was he ta$ed. &y dear Candice. could it. now utterly in shoc*" This couldn’t actually be ha$$ening.
his sea foam eyes swimming now with amusement" I too* my water and shoved it u$" &y shoulder $o$$ed horribly in a deathly sounding crac* and I screamed out in agony" The $lasma fell to the ground in a roar of electrical lines brea*ing but the man was now gone and I was alone again" I held my shoulder and screamed for hel$" A doctor and two nurses rushed into my room with a $ortable bed" They slid me on it and rolled me down the hall into the elevator" I glanced bac* and could barely ma*e out my newly found grandfather s9uee:ing into the elevator" Then I blac*ed out" Again" . otherwise.= =Candice. you’ll never see the light of day again"= I swiftly reached to turn off the t"v. =and you can finally be free from that boy" 3eave the hos$ital and meet me in 3ondon at the old run down museum" I’ll send a cab for you" But be there soon. I mean that all of the bad things that have ha$$ened to you is because of him" )e was the one that led you into his false world" Come with me. his eyes hy$noti:ing me.or the second time in less then twenty four hours" .=/hat do you mean Qhe caused all of this’.= he said. but it wouldn’t budge" It stayed on. the man staring bac* at me" )e crac*ed a smile.
but he only laughed enthusiastically" =Ah. I was $eering into the eyes of a man" Not my grandfather" Not my brother" Not Anton" It was the man" I !olted bac* in shoc* and tried to reach for something to ward him off with " I reached for a remote or water and was frustrated when I found nothing on my bedside table" I $ushed the man bac* with my good arm. but I couldn’t stand the fact that there was someone loo*ing over me during every second" /hen I finally decided to o$en my eyes. /e have *nown each other for years" In fact. don’t you remember me. and he only grabbed my chin and forced me to loo* at him" . you’re formed from my own blood"= =@et offB I don’t *now what you’re tal*ing about or who you even areB +ust leave me aloneB &y life was better without you or anyone trying to intercede itB= I loo*ed away from the $iercing eyes. my shoulder had no feeling in it" I couldn’t care less. Cha$ter K:The 0ld &useum By the time I came around again.
Candice" 3isten.=Ah. I thought you were still in the hos$ital" I called to tal* to you and +a*e said that you wouldn’t be out for a few days"= =0h. it had been about fifteen minutes" . sure" I’ll be there in about twenty minutes" See you then" 0h. I *now" I’ll see you soon"= I clic*ed off and snuc* into a restaurant" I changed out of my hos$ital gown and into some regular clothes" By the time I was out. how easily e2cited I could be now that I was free of the hos$ital and that man who said he was my father" =TwylaB It’s me. my Candice.= =Candice.= =%ea. grabbed my bac*$ac* that someone had $ac*ed clothes in for me and ran rather lim$ed in my cast out of the room" I don’t *now how I did it. who no doubt would be able to $ic* me u$ anywhere easily" =)ello. and Anton came to the hos$ital when we were visiting you"= =%ea. my daughter"= Then my blood chilled" )e couldn’t" I couldn’t" None of this could be ha$$ening" =No"= It was barley loud enough but he heard it" =NoB= I ri$$ed off my bracelets and threw the covers off" I sli$$ed on sweats underneath. I need a favor" Could you come $ic* me u$ at the movie theater. they let me out early" Can you $lease come $ic* me u$ outside of -olis at the movie theater.= 0h. bare feet. and a hos$ital gown" Not e2actly how I wanted to end u$ getting out of the hos$ital but it was better than anything else I could thin* of" I still had a wad of cash from +a*e and my cell $hone" I called Twyla. well. but I got $ast security and was on the street in sweats.
$laying games on my i$od. on the contrary. Candice"= That wasn’t Twyla’s voice" Anless she suddenly became a man" But it was familiar""" =No" It’s you" The one with with the mas*" It was you" I wouldn’t be here but then you" The $arty" The ma:e" The garden"= I was too shoc*ed to s$ea* anything else then utter sur$rise" =0h. don’t worry. if I had that as a bac* u$. then I wouldn’t be at fault" %ou see. Candice" It was all my idea" A $lan really" I !ust couldn’t let you sli$ out of my gras$ so easily"= No" It was him" A light switched on" Sea foam eyes stared bac* at me" =No" But how" I don’t" No"= =Candice. Twyla" %ou’re ama:ing" I *now it’s li*e last minute. when a blue e2$edition $ulled u$" I hobbled in the bac* seat when I noticed a silhouette in the $assenger seat" I tossed my bag on the seat ne2t to me" =Than* you so much. it’s only for your own sa*e" I *now that your not e2actly the most coordinated $layer on the team. one of the reasons you 9uit bas*etball" %ou have two left feet" And. but I !ust got out and +a*e said that he couldn’t come get me"= I fibbed" So not the com$lete truth" =0h. you could have easily sli$$ed in those shoes"= But it wasn’t a sli$ when I hit my head" I was $ushed" -ur$osefully" This was all meant to ha$$en" .I waited on the curb.
li*e Q?ill her if you want"’ /e could always *noc* her out !ust in case too"= Then I really fainted" I dreamt" At first.= he continued. you messed u$ loser" &y grandfather will = Then a shar$ $ain" I was getting hit for s$ea*ing u$" =@ag her and *noc* her out" I don’t want her to *now how to get out of the building"= I could feel hands on my an*les. though they were careful with my cast leg wrists and face" Something elastic was $laced in my mouth to *ee$ me from tal*ing and rough ro$e tied my feet and wrists together" =%ou see Candice. then you’d try and defend him" %ou couldn’t live without him.=%ou see. =I figured that if I brought your little boy Anton into this. I thin* she’s really fainted girls do that a lot when they either don’t have enough blood flowing through to their heads. blac* air that was thic* with the scent of $e$$ermint and then a shar$ $ain made me gas$ for air" I $inched my arm to wa*e me u$. Someone do something" She can’t have !ust fainted li*e that"= I felt someone !abbing me and I tried to be as lim$ as I could" =&aster. Anbearable"= =. I was floating in this strange. #" But don’t you thin* &aster would rather hear something a little more assuring. I understand. the more you fight bac*. could you. or because they = =%a. but I sim$ly was lying in the air" The harder I thought .on’t bring him into this. I too* what I learned from the few acting classes I too* in middle school: I fainted" =/hat in the world. the worst it is for you" I wouldn’t try and tal* bac* to me if I was you"= )e cleared his throat and I could feel $ressure li*e someone was now sitting ne2t to me" Before someone could do anything.
all of that" I wanted to buy out a forest. yet not" I wonder if I was really awa*e. and then it slowed down to a $icture of my mother" She was bent of me. It could be $ossible" I could feel myself grow heavy with slee$. Then I tried to reca$ what had ha$$ened to me so far" I s9uinted into the dar*ness. my grandfather. and I could see something move" A large screen moved into few. my red dress. ready to suc* u$ anything new I could get my hands on" But that dream abru$tly sto$$ed when one of my mom’s boo*seller’s came to our house in a ama:ing car" I never found out what it was. I was. but . wasn’t I. but didn’t want to o$en my eyes. +a*e. and high. conscious. when I was younger. and sto$$ed about two feet short" I reached out and ta$$ed it" 3ights flic*ered on. and have $eo$le $ay money to come cam$ing there" I guess I was a creative thin*er in the ways of the natural world" I used to go hi*ing at five in the morning by myself so I could learn to identify the different ty$es of trees and bushes" I guess that it was easier to learn when my brain was !ust a s$onge. but I didn’t care much about the forest anymore because this baby went about twelve m$h" So that *illed the universe. Isn’t that why I was having one of those strange dreams where you’re actually awa*e. reading a thic*. but I thought I was slee$ing. blown covered boo*" I could tell from this view that it may had been my co$y of the >ncyclopedia of #ugs! 3ll 4ou eed to 7now In a ?uick 9ead" %ou see.about it. the less I understood what was going on" I felt conscious. the $arty. lead hi*es. I wanted to be a naturalist< go on wal*s. and I stared absently at the moving screen" And I laughed" Images s*i$$ed in front of me" Anton *issing me.
metPfell in love with Anton Canning. and I could hear the !ingle of *eys" So. or that I can use solar $owered energy that wor*s efficiently" Now. lets reca$ over this again" I moved to -olis. hard ob!ect" I started to giggle. it felt li*e my head was a cushion" I started cho*ing from laughing so hard while trying to cough when the blac*ness left" I could see now" I was also hanging u$side down" In front of me was a large bac* of a man" I banged my tied hands against his bac* but I could only feel the faint rumbling of laughter from his chest" I tilted my head bac* to loo* behind us and s$otted the stee$s stairs. and was *idna$ed by a man who said his blood was also mine" . the clearer my vision got" ?ind of li*e when you wa*e u$ in the middle of the night when the room is $itch blac* and when your eyes are focused and you thin* you see millions of little blac* dots" It was *ind of li*e that" I thought I could see small $articles float around me" In it’s own way. got in the hos$ital. because my head felt s$ongy" 7very time that I bounced and my head hit something. bac* to the dar*ness" The longer I sat and stared. though I couldn’t tell where we sto$$ed. it was *ind of beautiful Then I wo*e u$" I guess you could say that" But it wasn’t li*e on those Saturday mornings when you wa*e u$ anytime you want" I wo*e u$ forcefully" &y head banged into some. met @rand$a. well. there goes more trees" But I still care about the fact that $rotesters would ris* their lives for a little bunny. and the cloth that was tied to my eyes" I $ic*ed at the gag and ri$$ed it off" No one would notice" %et" /e sto$$ed. was attac*ed at a )alloween $arty.that’s how I got into cars" And then reading.
what are they called. wait.irst. !ust light. at least those were undone" But then. I didn’t dream of anyone or anything" I !ust breathed into blac*ness" Then I was sha*en" I mumbled something and turned over" Another sha*e" I yawned and o$ened my eyes" . I do believe that it would be better for your flawless s*in to be set free"= )e dangled a *ey and unloc*ed the shac*les" Than*fully. my dear" I !ust wanted to say good morning by unloc*ing your shac*les" I could always come bac* another time" But. weird shac*les that rub off a layer of your s*in" I ho$$ed over to the huge bed and flung myself in the middle" I curled u$ and sobbed" +ust li*e old times" But. but those im$ossibly scary eyes threatened me in a way I never thought $ossible" =/hat do you want. =Some servants will be u$ in about ten minutes with your brea*fast" They will also have . 0h. it got worst" The man dro$$ed me on the ground. I loo*ed u$" Sea foam green eyes stared bac* at me" I cringed away from him and nearly fell off the bed" No one else was in there" +ust him. they re$laced the ro$e with. red mar*s" I rubbed at them while he continued. my s*in was barely touched.= I couldn’t hel$ the innocence of a young $u$$y see$ into my voice when I s$o*e" )is li$s slowly curved u$" =0h. not horribly bad" +ust medieval" I loo*ed down at my an*les and gladly moved each one" /ell. and me with my shac*les" I slowly and carefully sat u$ in the far corner of the bed and stared bac*" I tried not to flinch. I saw that my leg no longer had a cast on" Then. and chuc*led when I $ractically hissed at him" )e loc*ed the door behind him and I stared into the bed chamber" /ell. shac*les" %u$.Scary" Then. when I sle$t. shac*les" 3i*e the old time.
and I figured they forgot about me" &y stomach rumbled. and I was alone" I stared down at the s*irts in distaste" This wasn’t what I had in mind" I s$un in a circle. and I $ressed my . you will be attending a ball later" It’s a"""welcome if you will"= )e left the room and I e2$loded" I rushed over to the windows and yelled as loud as I could" If only I could have the /easley’s flying car right now to brea* off the metal bars from my window" I yelled. but I curled u$ in the corner" The rattling grew louder. but she ignored it" Another women started washing my face and body when I *e$t $ushing her away. and could hear foreign tongues arguing outside of the door" The door*nob rattled again. and I duc*ed my head into my *nees" I could hear *eys and someone $ushed against the door" 0ne of the legs on the chair sna$$ed. I loo* li*e one" I curled u$ into a ball at the foot of the bed. standing u$.some clothes to change into. and yelled more than I ever have in my life" A few $eo$le $assed by and loo*ed u$" An old man and his wife glanced towards me. and they wal*ed faster" I slammed a chair in front of the door. and the women entered in a straight line" The chair was removed and brea*fast in front of me" A women shoved food in my mouth without consent" I s$at it in her face each time. and waited" And waited" And waited" No one came. their eyes bugged out of their heads. I always wanted to be a $rincess" Now. when two women came forward to ta*e off my worn clothes and re$lace it with a corset and s*irt" Someone washed my hair in a buc*et and $ulled it bac* into a braid" The women left the room in the same order they came in. but she *e$t coming bac*" I finally gave u$. and some water and a washcloth" 7n!oy your freedom while it lasts" Also. watching as the s*irts shifted the o$$osite way" /ell.
I could hear lighter footste$s" I hugged myself tighter as the door was o$ened and a young man came in" =/hat do you want.= I s$at at him the instant the door was closed again" )e raised one $erfect eyebrow. you thin* you are all so clever don’t you. tea. %ou thin* that you control anything. they were not lying"= )e strode to where I sat and leaned against the wall" )e turned his head slightly towards the window. I could hear the sound of boots clan*ing on the stone ste$s and then a rattle" Someone unloc*ed the smaller door and slid a tray of food in" I waited until I could hear the door to the stee$ stairway slam. and I glared bac*" =/hen they said you were a feisty one. gra$es and sou$ awaited me" I stated with the sou$. li*e watching a animal slowly being *illed by $oison in a cage"= I laughed hysterically" I !abbed my inde2 finger into his chest and rose. thin*ing that while it was hot. do anything you wantB= I . ga:ing out the window" After what seemed to be an eternity. and my mouth watered" Bread. and finished everything else" I was full until there was nothing left and curled bac* u$ in my corner. you dare not answer" %our !ust li*e everyone else here. but he stared at me from the side" )e sighed suddenly and bent down to sit across from me on the ground" =I as*ed you a 9uestion. +ust laughing at the $risoners. $ulling him with me. li*e he was hy$noti:ed by my eyes" =0h. and then I was alone" Again" I slid over to the tray of food. aren’t you. mil*. and yet. I should eat it" I slur$ed it until there wasn’t a single dro$ left" I bro*e off some of the bread and di$$ed it into the mil*" I too* a si$ of tea.hand hard to sto$ the sound" After a while.
strange behaviors. but I have connections here. !ust listen to me. and we will esca$e then" I $romise you" I will be wearing a blac* !ac*et. for Anton"= )e *issed my hand and *noc*ed on the door" The guard outside o$ened it and loc*ed me bac* into this lonely bo2" . but I thin* I *new it all along" Their *indness. being able to disa$$ear 9uic*ly" It was all natural to them. =It’s not what you thin*" -lease. isn’t it. not something I thought I saw" It was really there" )e shoo* his head viciously" =%es" )e’s my brother"= )e shoo* my hand in a strong gri$ and I aw*wardly did the same to him" =/ait" /illiam. s$eed.$ut more $ressure on his chest and it $ushed him so far down. coffee color and I wondered why they loo*ed so familiar" /ho was this man that thought he could come in here !ust to ma*e fun of me. you will *now whether or not it’s me" Be safe.= )e nodded and I $uffed a small relieved breath that I remembered his name" )e loo*ed over my shoulder towards the door and bac* at me" =Someone’s coming" I will be at the ball. so I could get in without sus$icion" I *now how to get you out"= The last sentence sto$$ed my tugging out of his gras$" &y body shoo* an2iously. I !ust had an e$i$hany" They weren’t human" It’s strange. he lifted my finger from his chest and held onto my wrist" =I’m not who you thin* I am. and I $ut my hands on either side of his shoulders and stared into his eyes" =%ou" ?now" Anton"= 7ach word distinct and barely audible to human ears" But. /ho did he thin* he was.= As he said this. that he had to hold onto the window to *ee$ his balance" )e shoo* his head" )is eyes were still a calm.
his eyes constantly change color red. he’s cold" And most significant of all. all of him fit into the category: )e’s beautiful.or the time being. sha$e shifters.racula" /hat else could there $ossibly be a reason for my love of Anton. what did that mean" A monster. and I always thought that they e2isted. vam$ires. I used to wish I was married to . I was down to the Anderworld grou$" I’ve been watching vam$ire movies my whole life. figuring that it would be ne2t to im$ossible" -lus. they were wrongB . he tal*ed about living in the $ast and vam$ires are immortal" Though I’ve done $ersuasive s$eeches on why vam$ires are real. They were defiantly inhuman. Anderworld is ama:ing. I thought of $ossibilities" /hat could the Cannings’ secret be. I thought bac* at all of the horror movies I’d seen my entire life. as in :ombie" )ehe" I laughed out loud and then cleared my throat" Time to be serious" I continued to cross out $ossibilities.. I *new that much" But. :ombies.ran*enstein. he’s fast. ama:ed" I was still marveled by this fact" /hen $eo$le said I lied. and made a list of monsters with a roc* on the $aved ground: . it felt strange to me now to *now that all my $redictions were so true" =#am$ires are real"= I whis$ered. I made a $un" Caught dead. and then had vam$ires" So. *nowing that he was mechanic and didn’t have visible scars along his head" I $ut sha$e shifters and werewolves into one category. Anton was too beautiful to be caught dead as a :ombie" )aha. 72ce$t the fact that it is Anton" )is $ersonality. werewolves. marveling $ale s*in. disa$$ears often. the *ra*en" I crossed out the *ra*en and :ombies.
leaving one last word un smeared" But. and so would I" /e’d attem$t to esca$e" )o$efully. before I could swee$ away the word vam$ire. lonely $lace" )e continued. then he would be ca$tured too.Then the door o$ened" I was so e2cited about my discovery that I hadn’t been $aying attention to the sound of feet on the stair way" I 9uic*ly whi$ed away my list. he would get sus$icious" I folded my hands over my chest. only to *iss the bac* of my nec*" I shivered grossed out only but he thought I meant it as if I was en!oying it" =3eave.B I shoved him as far as I could. and lifted it only to lean his face in" )ow many $eo$le were going to try and *iss me in this $lace. and glared" )e smiled bac* and strode towards me" =I do believe you are beautiful under the night’s s*y"= )e gestured towards my bare shoulders the dresses sleeves hung low on my shoulders and I stared confused out of the window" It was dar*" I’d no idea that it was nightfall already" I sighed to cover my an2iety" /illiam would be at the ball soon. he was in the room" I stood over word. and $ut her hair into something far more elegant"= )e lifted the braid again. but he only flattened me down onto the bed. = But. but I couldn’t swee$ it away. and there would be no $ossible way to leave this haunting. we would" If we didn’t. holding my arms out and down with his weight" .( he mouthed at the women when she’d finished my hair" I shyly sat down on the large bed. and leaned against the $ost" )e sat ne2t to me and ran his hand from my shoulder to my hand" I flinched away from him and turned to glare" )e $laced an inde2 finger on my reddened li$s. I’m afraid this hairdo won’t wor*"= )e lifted my braid disgraced and sna$$ed his fingers" The woman who’d braided my hair earlier came through the door and lowered her head" =Gedo this.
and he banged on the door. it started to bleed and he too* it for motivation" I *e$t biting until I could feel more blood $ouring into my mouth and $art of his li$ came off" )e !um$ed u$ then. and I waited im$atiently" 7veryone else in the car laughed with each other" But. and I was alone again" I could him stom$ing done the stairs and I chuc*led lightly" I stared outside. another woman had come in to clean u$ my face and the bloody bath on the floor. I s$at the chun* of his li$ at his face. I could always end u$ bac* at the old museum on accident" After all. I had no idea where I even was" I !ust *new that I was sitting in a stretch limo. screaming in agony" Blood dri$$ed from his mouth e2ceedingly. the only girl in the car" The sun roof was o$ened. and he tried to cu$ his chin" The guard 9uic*ly o$ened the door. stretch limo that waited for us" /illiam was there. until $eo$le came in to ta*e me to the ball" I slid into the white. and she hurried out as soon as she was done" I curled u$ into a ball for another hour or so. I was. wide eyed at the sound I’d !ust made" It scared me" I was becoming li*e everyone else here" 3ater. clawing at his face and trying to bite him" )e only chuc*led dar*ly and I 9uic*ly wished someone would come in here" )e crushed his li$s down on mine and I bite down on his li$s so hard. and I had an urge to climb u$ there and !um$ off of the to$ and run to safety" Though that sounded somewhat $romising on how to get away. somewhere in 7ngland" /e could be halfway to Ireland for all I *now" .=NoB N0B @et off of meB= I screamed. and I figured he didn’t want to be near me 9uite yet" I ho$ed he needed stitches" The ride was short. but he was careful not to catch my eye for sus$icion" The man wasn’t there. of course.
I figured it would be hard to $oint us out from any other cou$le ne2t to us" . his arm lin*ed with mine" I stared at him in shoc* and shoo* my head" =Candice. /illiam ste$$ed out. .I tried to roll down the window every now and then to get a sense of where we were.rom our $ers$ective. and was hel$ing me u$ the stairs in a second. $erfect crescent.id the man e2$ect me to esca$e. and a $erfect face" 7very sha$e of his face fit $erfectly li*e a $u::le and his $ale. and you’ll be fine"= /illiam was li*e the $rince who never got anything he wanted" The forgotten $rince. Surely he reali:ed that by getting an identical dress to almost every dancing women in the ball. and I longed to stare at that face forever" Then I reali:ed why" )e loo*ed almost e2actly li*e Anton" I turned my eyes u$ to the o$ening where light from the chandelier bounced off the glossy walls" I curtsied and lifted a mas* from the entry table li*e /illiam did. he would have *nown that it would be hard to $ic* me out of the crowd. and I couldn’t hel$ but stare" )is li$s curved u$ in a gorgeous. it’s alright" +ust breathe. glowing s*in glistened under the stars" )e was even more handsome in the $lain suit he wore. and he loo*ed the !ob descri$tion" )e had tasseled golden hair. those dreamy brown eyes. and I was moved in between a $air of burly men in tail coat suits" I crossed my arms across my chest and glared at everyone" The limo $ulled u$ to what I thought was where the ball would be held. and we soa*ed into the crowd" . and the men forced me out first" I glanced around to find other women in similar styled dresses. nodded. caught my ga:e. and tried to blend in" /hen I glanced bac* at the limo. but I always got caught" A man eventually saw me with guilty eyes.
hel$ed disguise us better" =3et down your hair.= I as*ed. and it all sto$$ed" I was mesmeri:ed" )is silent soul glistened in those brown $uddles./e s$un towards the outside of the dance floor where a stairwell led u$ to the second floor for mingling cou$les" /e shifted through small grou$s of tal*ing $eo$le. running for the e2its.= he whis$ered in my ear" I raised one eyebrow at him through my mas* and he shoo* his head" =%our hair isn’t li*e everyone’s" I thin* that’s how he wanted to $ic* you out"= I understood it now" 3oo*ing at the women around me. but those $eo$le were the ones that loo*ed the most guilty" As I sus$ected. and the shoving started" -eo$le screamed. a gun was shot" /e both flinched at the same time" There was another bang. and stared down at his feet" =.orgive me" It’s !ust. every now and then tal*ing as well" /e sto$$ed at a balcony and stared at the moved dots below us" It was $act. it was the sound of the front doors being closed" /e" /ere" Tra$$ed" I $ulled my mas* bac* u$ so that it covered my face. teasing" )e tore his eyes away from my own. and he wra$$ed a flowed halo on the to$ of my head" =Better. somewhat li*e mine" )alf of them wore sim$le braids with flowers enfolding each tangle" I too* out the $ins and fluffed out my hair" I twisted it into a braid 9uic*ly. and looser strands of my hair behind my ears" I glanced u$ and caught him staring" =/hat. dar* hair. and I couldn’t hel$ it" )e was !ust too"""$erfect" )e cu$$ed my face in his hands and we closed our eyes" About and inch away from brea*ing my true loves $romise. they had long. you loo* = And then he loo*ed into my eyes.= I as*ed. /illiam said. I have to admit" /hich. but when we loo*ed down. the men from the old museum tore off their mas*s and chec*ed for a . wra$$ing a few shorter.
going the o$$osite direction" I $ushed on the wall. and I followed. shut u$B Can’t you get it. and about twenty feet from where we started. and we raced away toward the third story" /e shoved tables out of the way.= I mumbled the last $art more to myself than to /illiam" =-ull yourself together. but the tunnel seemed endless" The $lace was huge.= . /7 AG7 TGA--7.resemblance to me" /illiam grabbed my hand. and in a blac* $it" =/e’re not lost. after all" After about twenty minutes of endless s$eed wal*ing. agitated" )e dum$ed over table and $eo$le ran away from us. sus$ecting us to be li*e the men forcing mas*s of" )e felt along the northern wall. and he $aused" =/here is it. that he was !ust trying to be brave" /e were lost" =0h. /illiam"= I whis$ered. Candice" /e’ll be fine" Geally" Can’t you understand that there’s a reason for everything. he closed the door and reached for something on the side" I was blinded by the sudden light and reali:ed he had a large torch and I waited for him to light another for me to carry" /e followed a strange $ath. I fell into dar*ness" I $ulled myself u$ with the hel$ of some metal ob!ect" I $o*ed my head out of the secret $assage way and bec*oned /illiam" /hen we were both inside. that I was utterly confused how /illiam could *now we were headed the right way" I tried to see how far it stretched on either side of us. I felt around and found a wall" =/e’re lost. /here is it.B= I em$hasi:ed" =/e have no idea how to get outB AghB /hy did I even move here. o*ay" I *now what we did wrong" +ust a wrong turn"= I could tell by his sha*y voice. my voice thic* with grief" This was it" /e were utterly tra$$ed.= )e as*ed himself.
I don’t understand"= I shoo* my head. you will if you *ee$ saying things li*e that if you don’t sto$ $anic*ing.= =%eah. you *now what. what does that mean. sto$" +ust sto$.= he murmured somewhere in the dar*ness" The torches were out. I heard every word"= )e sto$$ed dead in his trac*s and I could see the movement of his body shimmering in the faint glow from the hidden door" =And. and I couldn’t hel$ thin* about the engulfing blac*ness" It loo*ed hungry and I almost felt li*e reaching my hand out to bring $eace between us if I never got out of here" I could hear the scra$ing of shoes on $avement and it finally $ushed me" =/illiam. %ou’re !ust li*e every other one of them"= =/ait. $lease" I can’t stand it anymore. !ust don’t"= All of it was a yell. I need to tell you something" I *now what you guys are" I mean you and your family"= I waited for a res$onse and I felt a tugging on my arm" I followed him wherever it was we were going" /e curved bac* around the $ath. hellB I never thought I would go down this way"= =/ell.=/ell. cra$" I’m tra$$ed in an endless blac* $it with a $sycho christianB /ell. but I calm" I only yelled because I wasn’t sure where he was< whether he was near me or had wandered off" I reached out into the dar*ness for his hand" I felt fingers entwine with my own. and I needed to tell him that I *new" =/illiam. $u::ling over his words" .id you hear me. and I *now that you can’t either" -lease. I could reali:e that much" =.
how his eyes must be s9uinting now with laugh lines" )is li$s bleeding from the attem$t to sto$ laughing" =I’ll give you another guess"= =%ou mean.= I couldn’t hel$ the ho$e fill my voice" It was thic* in relief as well. I want to hear what you thin* we are"= I bit my li$ self consciously and reflected this e2$erience" It was out of the ordinary" They were out of the ordinary. are you"""= I sto$$ed myself and stared far away into the tunnel" /hat could they be. now. instead of being $ulled forward.= I nodded furiously in the dar*. /ell then. the ne2t thing I *new I was on the floor" =/ell. I cleared my throat and loo*ed into his face. this’ll be fairly interesting"= )e tugged on my arm again. Then I thought about Anton and I in the $ool and ruins"""No. they weren’t anything li*e that" Sha$e shifters. =/ell. /erewolves. or what I could see of it" =%ou you’re family. so little Anny never told you. go ahead" /hat are we.=0h. that I had no other theories" /hat if they were really !ust li*e me. I thought about Anton’s muscles"""he was too lan*y" Then. is consisted of vam$ires"= )e made a cho*ing sound. but. and I could see his face now" /hat it might loo* li*e if there was light" 0h. I’m wrong. at least something other than !ust humans" Should I tell him. !ust about dri$$ing from my tongue" =0f course. what could they be. from sur$rise of me *nowing or the fact that he was really !ust laughing at my idea" =%ou’re serious. you’re entire family. . ma*e another guess"= I’d been so stuc* on the idea of Anton and his family being vam$ires.
and tugged on my hair" =I I don’t *now"= There. vigorously. Secretive. did you. or would you rather I tell you.o you have any idea. and then I was being cuffed by the wrists" =. haven’t I. me" I caught a glim$se of something moving in the shadows the of wall where we’d been hiding" /illiam. it feels better every moment than having to have my mouth go dry from trying to *ee$ it $lain 7nglish"= But. I mean. !ust thin*ing so hard under this ty$e of $ressure"= I shoo* my head. I’ve had it for 9uite some time and I swear. but I thin* he saw my eyes bug out" =Ah. a strong $ierce of light came out of nowhere and then I was being hauled out of the dar* tunnel" I was thrown into a lum$ on the Indian rug" I lifted my head u$ slightly to get a better view< do:ens of men in blac* suits and sil* ties surrounded me wait. again. I said it" It wasn’t too bad. and my entire $ast life" This was the future. I’ve given u$ before. maybe. my mind raced" That. I had given u$ my first love.=/ell. was it. so you noticed that now. when the words were s$o*en.= But.ollow me"= said a voice" I loo*ed u$ to see the man with sea foam green eyes brea*ing through the outer rings of the circle" )e sto$$ed !ust a few inches away from . . %ou loo* li*e you’re about to e2$lode. was an British accent" I never noticed it before" I couldn’t tell com$letely. I su$$ose" &y face was shoved bac* into the ground before I was lifted bac* u$ onto my feet by my hair" +w! I bit my li$ from screaming out in agony. Candice" It really isn’t that hard" )aven’t you ever noticed anything strange about us. and I was going to ma*e damn sure that I would do something my mom would thin* was right" /hat came out of his mouth ne2t was unintelligible and e2tremely idiotic" =By @od. before I could say anything else. and my best friend.
=)mm. my girl"= )e tilted my head to the side to ins$ect the cut which I hadn’t noticed until now. tisk. scary man and me all alone" )e easily $ic*ed me u$ and threw me across his shoulder" I didn’t beat against him li*e I’d done before" I !ust watched as we descended down the stairs" . $laced two rough fingers underneath my chin and tilted my face u$" I flinched in $ain as he did so. yet 9uiet $rotest" )is li$s curved u$ into a dreadfully. it was a large.me. you shouldn’t have done this. deadly smile" =Boys"= )e moved the forward and he led the $ac* downstairs" Then. tisk. when I’d felt the searing $ain" =@et off of me"= &y voice was a rough. tisk.
after I was conscious again with a banging headache from being *noc*ed out"""once again in the head so I wouldn’t be able to see where the old museum was" By the time I’d wo*en u$ and believe me. and rich" She always *new what to do in tough situations. always *new everything hel$ful at all" And here I was. Cha$ter Seven: Ca$tured Again As a *id. I’d rather of been floating in dar*ness unconscious then awa*e after that lum$ a$$eared on my head the dar*ness had engulfed most of the lights in the nearby buildings and the moon and dim streetlights were the only . slid to me through the little slot in the door" I could still taste my earlier dinner"""but that was eleven hours ago" By the loo* of the s*y. well. I didn’t mind the food that they served me. I always imagined myself li*e my mother: strong. intelligent. it must be about five in the morning" I couldn’t slee$. well. bold. ca$tured by men"""again" As much as I hate to admit it. beautiful.
colors lightened. .oes he *now /illiam is here. !ust absently staring into the $lains of 3ondon" I curled my legs u$ and hugged my *nees to my chest. soft greens and blues in the far $iece of the s*y" I tilted my head to the side and rested my chee* on the cold glass of the window" I sat li*e that for a few hours. and I was in a thin night gown" 0ne of those really thin.things that illuminated the streets" I raced to the window and $eered out below me" A few $eo$le strolled on the sidewal*s. . imagining myself being $ractically ra$ed by a man"""s$ecifically while unconscious" I sli$$ed on the sil* robe that was hung by the bed and sat down on the window sill. staring out into the lighting s*y" Slowly. /hen am I going to get out of here. most of them drun*" I yearned to be out in the fresh air again li*e last night before I entered the ball" The feeling of the cold $ric*ling my s*in sounded far more satisfactory then being dressed u$ li*e a doll" I grimaced as I stared down at myself" Someone had changed me"""definitely a man" The dress was discarded in a bas*et in one of the corners of the room. breathing heavily" Huestions and frantic thoughts $iled into what was my em$ty mind for a while" /here is /illiam. Is Anton alright. /hat am I going to tell Anton about /illiam and""" =There is no us"= I told myself sternly" I glared down at my hands and balled them into fists" Anton was my love" Nothing ha$$ened between /illiam and I"""we !ust almost *issed"""almost being the *eyword" I closed my eyes and went bac* to the first time Anton and I *issed" At the ancient swimming $ool where he first disa$$eared"""where I thought I . if he got free. because the dress was torn in !agged cuts instead of untying the corset" I flinched. Is +a*e loo*ing for me.id he get free. smooth ones that were worn in the mediaeval times" %ou could $articularly tell I was changed by a man. /here is Anton. /hat did they do to him.
wearing sim$le !eans. I mean. a hoodie. I wra$$ed the robe closer to my body and lightly tri$$ed bac* over to the bed" I wonder if I could get soc*s"""my feet get os cold easily and the wooden floor is more $roof" I curled u$ underneath the covers and rubbed my feet together. it’s not li*e I have anything better to do. frustrated and !ust glared out into the o$ening day" It was going to rain. I’d thought my eyes might be bugging out unconsciously as my mind drifted through the dream realms""" I was by a river side. and my vans" It was raining.was in love" The burning sensation of /illiam’s hand s*imming my arm slightly"""/ait. fairly hard. Anton" Not /illiam" Anton’s hand"""" I shoo* my head. and I sim$ly sat out in the o$en on a wooden bench. no. I could tell that much" @ray clouds rolled in and I imagined rolling u$ under the covers of the large bed and !ust letting my eyes drift closed""""I stretched out my legs and yawned" I could use some more slee$. ho$ing friction would wor* it’s wonders" I imagined I was laying on one of those gray clouds. wra$$ing me in it’s fluff""" And I dreamed" The dream was so com$licated. e2$osing a small blac* tan* to$ and threw the hoodie on the bench" I s*i$$ed towards the river and sim$ly !um$ed" I laughed when I resurfaced and giggled again at the thrilling feel of numbness" I floated on my bac* and bac* stro*ed through the water" I sto$$ed and turned to see a small fishing boat coming towards me" I treaded water with one arm and my feet so I could wave at the $erson" . right. watching the raindro$s hit the water" I giggled when the last dry s$ot on my !eans was soa*ed through and I shivered in delight" The numb feeling of the rain soa*ing through to my s*in felt li*e sil* to me" I un:i$$ed my hoodie.
but the loo* was so comical that I couldn’t hel$ it" )is eyebrows somehow $ulled together tight and I laughed again" I !um$ed out of the boat.o you need any hel$. saluted him. miss.= I laughed and tossed it" To both of our sur$rise.ic*. stranger"= I smiled at the man. and swam farther into the water" I could . I understood. climbing into his boat" )e inched away about a foot and I shrugged" I reached down and $ic*ed u$ a strange loo*ing tac*le bo2 and started $ulling on some of the rubbery baits" )e $ulled it away from me and I frowned" )e cleared his throat and shoo* his head" =%ou don’t loo* familiar" It loo* li*e you need some hel$. to laugh at someone else’s misfortune. and burst out laughing again" It was cruel. still in awe at my strange ways" I dove into the dar* water and fished out his boo*" I $lo$$ed it into his boat. it fell into the water and I laughed a metallic sound that could have been misunderstood for cho*ing" I glanced bac* at his face. so I came across the water"= I $ic*ed u$ a boo* that he had hidden under the seat so the water would soa* into it" =/hat’s &oby .= I as*ed. and distinctly felt li*e I Qd met him before" )is aura was so familiar"""but I couldn’t $lace it anywhere" The man loo*ed to be in his mid twenties" )e wore a rain !ac*et and !eans" A baseball ca$ bounced off rain dro$lets and I laughed when one hit me in the face" )e stared at me incredulously" =Are you o*ay. .o I *now you. s$lashing water into the boat and roc*ing it" The man shoo* his head.The boat sto$$ed about four feet away from me" I swam the distance and reached u$ to $ull myself u$ so my arms and chin rested on the side of the boat" =)ello.= I shoo* my head at him and giggled again when water s$lashed him in the face from my soa*ing hair" )is eyebrows $ulled together and I wrin*led my nose" =.
my love"= &y smiled widened and then I attem$ted I still couldn’t tell what my face was doing because of the numbness to ma*e me loo* serious" =Are you and your family vam$ires. I’ve been great" I went swimming.= =% yeah" Candice.= I laughed and he raised one delicate eyebrow" I touched it and moved the muscle u$ and down with my inde2 finger" =/ow.= )e stared at me. determined to sha$e them in my mind" After figuring that there was a horse. and red !ee$ in the s*y. I’ve been worried about you" The last time I saw you was in the hos$ital and your leg is miraculously healed""" /hat’s going on. it wasn’t cold at all"""= I trailed off and tilted my head bac* to stare u$ at the s*y" It was dar*ening and I thought about what I’d as*ed /illiam in the tunnel" =Can you tell me something. s$onge bob. my entire body was numbed and I started a laughing fit when I tested to see what it felt li*e to move my limbs" I fell onto the grass and stared u$ at the s*y" The gray clouds s$un in the s*y and I tilted my head to the side. laughing at the numbness again" =0h.hear the engine start u$ and the waves la$$ed against the shore" I reached the other side in about ten more minutes and climbed out" Now that I’d s$ent a good half an hour in the water. a cold hand sei:ed my own" I !um$ed bac*. which $leased me" =/ why would you as* that. I wasn’t sure. are you alright. Anton"= I smiled des$ite my numb feeling and hugged him" =)ow have you been. yel$ing in the $rocess only to find myself staring into reddened eyes" =)ello. right. you as*ed something. anything for you. I didn’t *now you could move that muscle"""that’s cool"= I $ut my own inde2 finger on my eyebrow and moved it.= .= I as*ed" =Sure. eyes wide with shoc* and worry" .or what. but I *new I’d sur$rised him.
B -lease.I frowned at him and lightly $unched his shoulder" )e rubbed where I’d hit him and I smiled. sto$ $lease" It hurts" It hurts"= I whim$ered" )e !ust held on harder and I $ulled him down with me onto the grass and I wi$ed at the streaming tears rolling down my chee*s" =I don’t *now what’s wrongB I can’t tellB I’m sorry"= I shoo* my head as the tears *e$t streaming and curled on the wet grass. sto$ what’re you doing. are you sure you’re alright. don’tB= &y eyes gla:ed over as a shar$ $ain bit into my wrist and I fell lim$ in Anton’s gras$" I was ha$$y again" The colors of everything swirled into a rainbow and I ga:ed u$ at the beautiful glow" &y whole body felt li*e it was floating and I tried des$erately to . you can’t even ta*e a $unch from a girl"= I stuc* my tongue out at him and tried to $unch him again" )e caught my wrist and shoo* his head" =Candice. my left wrist still in Anton’s gras$" I could feel the heat flowing down my arm and was utterly sur$rised at the blood streaming from where Anton held my wrist" )is eyes bla:ed li*e fire and I stared bac*. but still held my bleeding wrist in his hands and leaned his head down. eyes wide" =Candice"""= &y name was only a whis$er but it scared me" )e moved his eyes from my own ga:e and dro$$ed them to my wrist" )e loosed his gri$. %ou’re acting"""different"= I tried to $ull away. $lease. but his hold on my wrist was too strong and I could feel his fingernails cutting into my s*in" =AntonB Anton. an o$ening" =)aha. let go"= I gas$ed as his cold tongue lic*ed u$ some of the blood and I $anic*ed" =AntonB No. so his hair curtained my wrist from sight" I tugged on his gri$ and struggled on the grass" =Anton.
though I didn’t let it show on my face" I dared a loo* around the room. with my mom slee$ing ne2t door" Then I loo*ed straight ahead to see him enter" The man with sea foam green eyes" I s9uea*ed and !um$ed out of the bed. or I’ll have to *ill you"= I s$at at him and he $ushed me off of him li*e a child" I grabbed for something.BI" I glanced around me and grabbed the nearest wooden chair" I lifted it over my head and crac*ed it on the bric* wall" It smashed into $ieces and I grabbed one of the legs and $oised into a fighting $osition" )e crac*led a rough laughter and I hissed" I really had !ust hissed.= I glared into his eyes un afraid" I $ushed down hard and it dug into his s*in" =3et me out of here.remember what I was doing before"""something that had to do with"""hmm. ready to use anything as a wea$on" I did do some combat classes because I used to have a dream of being in the . anything to *ee$ me u$right and caught hold of one of the bed $osts before I could fall bac*" I regained balance and $ositioned myself in the middle of the room" I was not going to be $ushed into the corner again" . that feels so good" I really want a chocolate donut""" Then I wo*e u$" I bolted u$ out of bed and glanced $anic*y around me" I was still in the large bed and for a second. girl"= he interru$ted" I snarled and lunged at him" I *ic*ed u$ and brought the ma*e be sta*e to his throat" =0h. and that scared me. and reali:ed he was the only one in here other than me" I didn’t rela2 though" &aybe I could ta*e him hostage to get out of here""" =%ou can’t do much damage with that. I ho$ed that I might be bac* home. can’t I.
though my body still felt light and numb from the dream" That dream"""did it have a meaning. but u$ until this moment. eyes red and I slid underneath him" )ere was my o$ening" I !abbed the sta*e at his chest. now. and that was a mista*e" I’d read about com$ulsion in boo*s before.""" I shoo* my head at his little game and *e$t my face emotionless. never had I though it was real"""then again. and circled him" )e lea$ed. fangs out.=/hy didn’t you !ust try and *ill me then. I didn’t really thin* vam$ires e2isted" . I’ve had dreams before where Anton was a vam$ire. but this one was so realistic"""too realistic" I could still feel the side effects of his bite" And my body felt wea*" The man charged and tac*led me to the ground" )is li$s curled bac* into a snarl and fangs bared" I was in shoc*. missing com$letely and cutting my thigh in the $rocess" I $ulled it out and winced when more blood s$illed out" And that got him into a fren:y" I ignored my sudden $ain and lea$ed u$ !ust in time to miss a stri*e by him" =/hat’re you going to do.= /hy didn’t I.= he $urred" I dared to loo* straight into his eyes. but I rolled out from underneath him and u$ into a defense $osition" ?new that combat training would come in handy some day" )e shifted and a !angling of *eys caught my attention" I glanced 9uic*ly to his belt and *new !ust what those *eys would do" I needed those to get out of here" I rolled. Candice. so the blow wasn’t 9uite e2$ected" )e $ulled bac* to $unch me again.
Candice" . right.= )e *neeled down in front of me and I tried des$erately to blin* or loo* away.= I s$at. he !um$ed for it at the same time and $ut his foot down as soon as I had hold of it" =+ust give u$. you thin* you can do anything. I thought" I concentrated all of my energy. blood loss. and loo*ed away" I blin*ed and lunged for the sta*e. Candice. careful not to catch his ga:e again" A shadow loomed over me. he burst out into laughter and $ut his entire body weight on my hand and the sta*e" I grimaced and bit my tongue to $ut my mind somewhere else" =0h. if $ossible for a creature of dar*ness" I *e$t my eyes down.&y body wea*ened. and I could see him changed $osition so he now had one *nee on the ground and *nelt down so he could see my face" . you are !ust li*e your mother"= I gas$ed both from the $ain and what he’d said" I shouldn’t believe a vam$ire" That’s one of the first rules with vam$ire. which wasn’t much. old man"= As soon as I’d s$o*en the words. strolled to where I *neeled and *ic*ed the leg away" )e tsked at me" =Candice. Candice.id you really thin* you could get away. and com$ulsion" =)ow would you *now. and that only made him ha$$ier. my eyes unable to loo* away or blin*" )e smiled $leasantly. and I fell to my *nees $owerless" The chair leg fell from my hand and I stared. but I couldn’t even *ee$ my eyeballs from loo*ing into his reddened ones" )is face brightened when I couldn’t answer though it was $hysically im$ossible and laughed to himself" =0h course.= )e was stu$id. as I was still regaining my strength from the fight.
right where the heart is" )e gas$ed in $ain or shoc*. nor anywhere for at least another fifty or so years" I lea$ed. . and I !um$ed off before he fell to the ground" I $ulled the sta*e from his chest. s$ringing onto his bac* and he reached behind him.=)mm. you loo* !ust li*e her"= he mused" I clenched my teeth and he shifted so his foot was now only on my hand" I $uffed out all of the air I’d been holding and a shrilling scream caught in my throat" =)ow" /ould" %ou" ?now. only to be given more $ressure on my foot" I was sure this had to be only about one si2teenth of the weight he’d be able to use against me" &y fingers sweated and letting go of the sta*e seemed li*e the best idea for the moment"""but I needed to get out of here" And. at least I didn’t have a bro*en hand" )e loomed u$ and over me. li*e most men do" %ou do *now the birds and the bees. right. ri$$ed off the *eys and smiled" . this seemed li*e the only way $ossible for the moment" )e shrugged" =0h.= I as*ed again. and I swore" I was not going to die here. and I !abbed at his e2$osed chest.id she forget to tal* to you about that. !ust barely s*imming my arm" I wra$$ed my left arm around his nec* and waited" )e reached suddenly. letting my hand free" I wi$ed the sweat on the outer robe and stretched my fingers" /ell. from which one I couldn’t tell.= )e $retended to loo* distraught and then a $ure angelic loo* crossed over his face" =0h. how I loved her" I !ust wish she would have told me that the girl was mine"""= &y eyes widened in horror and I twisted onto my side and *ic*ed him in the left ear" )e yel$ed and !um$ed u$ into $osition.
let me see everything"""= )e win*ed at me and I screamed" )e flinched bac*. and $ulled out !eans a tan* to$.= he laughed light heartedly and my eyes burned furiously" =I’m sur$rised too" . this is what I get: a vam$ire trying to dress me u$ and *ill me" I turned away. sur$risingly. then" I guess the third time is the charm" I $ee*ed out onto the staircase. I didn’t want the servants to get sus$icious and tell the boss something"= I ran then. and a hoodie" I sli$$ed on my vans. lan*ier one bared his fangs and I glared bac*" =0h.=@oodbye. the smaller. well. it’s !ust you" Come on. dubious whether or not that I’d do something" I $luc*ed the . and fli$$ed through the *eys" I tried the first two. old man" )ave fun in hell" At least my mother won’t be seeing you"= )is eyes gla:ed over and I glanced bac* one last time" After all of the years. but I was also starting to hate the other one that so casually tal*ed about $ractically ra$ing a teenager" =Not everything" I was given orders in the middle and those god damned dresses are far too hard to get off" -lus. ho$ing I would some day meet my father. disgusted and grabbed a few of the other s$lintered $ieces left from the crash of the chair" I o$ened u$ the dresser in the corner by the bas*et. and yelled" I’d call it my battle cry" I $lunged the largest on first. and he fell down shoc*ed" The other one.= Not only did I hate the one man who had done that to me. and lightly shut the door when I saw no one was out there" I had a ma*e shift sta*e in my left hand and *e$t it behind my bac*" I strolled cautiously down the stairway and bac*ed u$ a bit when I heard voices" ="""she didn’t have too bad of a body" I’m sur$rised the boss even let me undress her anyways. and the door o$ened on the third try" )uh.id you see everything.
sta*e out of the larger man and shoved it into the ra$ist’s heart" )e shrie*ed and fell bac*wards down the stairs" I ran after the body and drilled the sta*e in until the shrie*ing sto$$ed" I twisted it bac* out. but I’m sure the worst I could get would be a scratch on my an*le" I lea$ed down and ran" That’s all I needed to do" I didn’t care if I was in $ain. from the loo*s of it" Boo* cases thirty feet high were $osted to the walls and filled with boo*s" I was almost tem$ted to !ust stay in here until sunrise so I’d be more safe" I shoo* my head and loo*ed around on the other side" I did a double ta*e and smiled when I found a window. careful not to $ut too much $ressure on the floor and unlatched the window loc*" I $ushed it o$en and swung my legs over the edge" It was about a ten foot dro$. which had only one servant wal*ing through" As soon as she turned onto another hallway. and hurried down the stairs" I swatted at my hair that was now falling everywhere" I $ulled a hair band out of my $oc*et and tied my hair u$" I sto$$ed at the foot of the stairs and glanced through the first hallway. and this one was without bars on the outside" I !ogged over. loo*ing cautiously over my shoulder and turned off into another hallway as we a$$roached noise" I loo*ed either way and esca$ed into a door" I dared to turn on the light and sighed with relief when nothing a$$eared" I loc*ed the door and glanced around the room" It was a large study. but the blood loss was slowing me down" The cut in my leg from the sta*e was still gushing and I $ressed my hand hard on it to sto$" I slowed down and sto$$ed to glance bac* u$ at the s*y" It was a little more blue than blac* and I wished the sun would rise faster" I . wi$ed the blac* blood on his shirt. I followed her.
me in his arms" =%ou can slee$" +ust slee$"= As he said this.= I shoo* my head. +a*e. but at least s$rained" I shoo* it out. not bro*en. I reali:ed I was actually really tired" I hung my head over his arm and closed my eyes"""slowly"""falling"""aslee$"""" By the time I’d wo*en u$. I was bac* in the hos$ital. careful to chec* the shadows for movement" I was somewhere in a $ar* by a river"""and that’s when I fell and really heart myself" Though.B Are you alright. tears s$illing over the rim’s of my eyes" I curled u$ into his la$ and he shift me so he could stand. the water was so cold" I dried my face with the sleeve of my arm and started running again" I glanced around where I was. and reached for a sta*e inside of my hoodie" That’s when I saw him" Anton" &y eyes widened and I fell to my *nees before I could wal* over to hug him" )e casually wal*ed towards me and *neeled down in front of me" =Candice. though a different one" I thin* this one was bac* home""""I glanced around the room and caught sight of +a*e holding a bou9uet of flowers and a worried e2$ression flying all over his face" I reached behind me to sit u$ when he lurched u$ form the chair and shoo* his head at me.= . gently $ushing me down" I cleared my throat and grimaced and the shar$ $ain all over my body" =)ow bad is it. I thin* it’d be called more of something li*e being $ushed" I lurched bac* u$ onto my feet careful with my wrist" I touched it and it was tender. grimacing when it hurt.sto$$ed at a fountain and dun*ed my head dee$ into the water" I $ulled out almost as soon as I went under. I’d thought everything was a dream" Actually I had dreamt that all of it had ha$$ened""""again" /hen I o$ened my eyes.
and when I didn’t answer. so I’d go with the basics" . and I could swear I saw something li*e a tear esca$e his eye" =S$rained wrist.= )is $leading loo* had the story. bent down to *iss me on the forehead. hesitant" =/ell.= I as*ed. Candice. sir"= I $ee*ed u$ from my hands and saw Anton lounging in the door way" I smiled. it was $retty much all I told you.= I would have loved to bombard Anton with more 9uestions of he brother.)e loo*ed away. and winced when my chee*s turned u$ my blac* eye" +a*e $laced the flowers on the table. larger $uncture wound on your leg from what they can’t tell. and I’m luc*y to have you"= )is smile widened and I reali:ed that he wanted his brother’s consent""" =)ow is he. and a blac* eye"= )e turned bac* to me.id he get away fine. I do *now that you were *idna$$ed. . but then I swallowed it and bit my li$. his face a $ained e2$ression showering me with guilt" = /hat ha$$ened to you. what do you *now about what actually ha$$ened. bruises all over your body. worry $ainted all over his face" =So. his face was glowing li*e he was glad we had met" =)e said you’re really nice. but that would be a little sus$icious. unable to meet my eyes. suddenly wary and very embarrassed" )e sighed and leaned bac*" =/ell. and left the room closing the door silently behind him" Anton sat down where +a*e had been and leaned forward. he continued" =I also *now that you met /illiam"= I fro:e u$ com$letely at how much he *new about that" /hen I loo*ed u$. but why you left the hos$ital in the first $lace is a wonder"= )e loo*ed at me 9uestioningly. entire story dri$$ing form my tongue.
I don’t *now. and he did the rest" )is hand rested gently on the side of my face. not a vam$ire red" I leaned forward a little. again. but they were his regular brown. I could see the strain in the corners" They weren’t all the way u$" I needed to test the theory here and now. I reali:ed with shoc*" &y smile widened and $ulled the bottom li$ down a tad more to widen his smile and I *new it" I *new it with all of my heart that he was hiding his fangs" )e really was a vam$ire" =Show me"= I whis$ered.Anton leaned forward. eyes loo*ing at me with fear" =-lease" I want to see"= I nodded at him and then he o$ened his mouth. cold wind" The ache in my eye was unim$ortant now. barely audible" )ow he heard. I *new then" I *new it so com$letely that he was the one" )is eyes burned li*e fire. cu$$ing my chee* li*e a small. but I *new he understood what I’d meant" At first he hesitated. and reached for my hand" =)e’s fine" )e got away and instantly came home to get hel$" The $olice could never handle something li*e this"""= )is voice trailed off as he absently rubbed circles into the bac* of my hand" I smiled bac* at him as he loo*ed u$ and his teeth glowed in the light. and no that I watched Anton smile. he had no $roblem showing his fangs to me. all the way" )e closed his eyes and I wondered if he did because he didn’t want to see something li*e fear on my face" =I’m not afraid of you" I couldn’t be"= )e o$ened his eyes then" As those eyes I’d grown to *now so well stared directly into my own. and our li$s crashed together in an intense fire" &y good hand tangled in his coffee hair and my bac* arched in desire" I . as much as was $ossible in my situation. and that was when I reali:ed the $roblem" /hen the man with sea foam green eyes smiled.
half heartedly" =Ah. Candice. $lacing my hand on the to$ of his head. I thin* that ne2t time we need to ma*e sure you wear a swimsuit if we go bac* to the ruins" I don’t thin* I could stand seeing you in that soa*ing sli$ again"""= )e made a sounds dee$ in his throat that sounded li*e a growl and leaned down to *iss me lightly on the li$s. Adrenaline coursed through my veins and I wanted him to bite me" /ith all of my heart. and my head was s$inning" I slowly leaned bac* and closed my eyes" /hen I o$ened them. slee$. I’m still a teenager you *now"= That made him laugh. es$ecially not now" But. /as he going to"""bite me. are you trying to say that you are going away. you *now I won’t seduce you or anything" %our safe. and he trailed his hand down my !aw and *issed my collar bone" I gas$ed at his cold li$s and my mind raced" Should we be doing this in a hos$ital. he was looming over me. his face wary" =Are you alright. glancing around the room. no need for that" I thin* we can say we’re both safe for now"= That caught my attention" =/ait.= =NoB 0f course not" I’m not leaving you.= I shoo* my head slightly. ready for the bite" And then he was gone" I frowned. /orse yet. trying not to get di::y again" )e sat bac* down and watched me cautiously" =)ey. in my current state. you truly need your rest"= . I wanted to feel what I did in that dream"""the feeling of gla:ing over and *nowing that only the one biting you was there"""&y heart raced and I whim$ered. it’s not li*e I’m going to bi"""= I sto$$ed myself before I could finish the sentence and cleared my throat uncomfortably" =/hat I meant is. ma*ing sure he didn’t linger too long" =Now.$ulled bac* about three centimeters for air.
I’ll stay all day"= And that caught me by sur$rise" . at least that’s what the doctor said"= I stared down at my arm and su$$ressed a sigh< it was covered in $ur$le bruises" )ow my body wasn’t com$letely bro*en.=/ait. if you don’t mind. staying seated" =)ow long have I been aslee$.= )e smiled that beautiful smile" =No. maybe even more" I never *new I was that strong" )e laughed when I e2$lained about the dresses" Though he seemed to yearn to see me in one" The only dress he’d seen me in was our first date"""which ended u$ off"""and I’m sure he’d want to get it out of his mind" By the time I’d finished the entire story. I wasn’t sure" =Now. myself. I have a few 9uestions that I need to as* youB %ou can’t leave now" %ou !ust got here"= I frowned dee$er and he sighed. his eyes widened and he was entirely too comical" But. I was actually as sur$rised as him about what ha$$ened.= =About si2 days" %ou had a lot of in!uries and blood loss" %our bruises won’t be gone for a while. can I as* you something. how in the world did you survive a fight with an old vam$ire who wanted to *ill you with all of his fury. I was yawning and he loo*ed concerned" =I’m !ust tired.= =Shoot"= =/ell. I’m guessing" So I launched into the entire story.= )e was smiling now" )e’d en!oy a good fight. really"= )e nodded and $ulled the blan*ets u$ to my chin" =Are you going. from the time I was *idna$ed originally to the time I esca$ed"""the second time" /hen I got to the fighting.
and as long as we aren’t in direct sunlight. eyes wide and dangerous" =I’ll never drin* from you. I was com$letely s$eechless" The story of my ca$ture too* me hours to e2$lain and even then. 7rom. he was an ancient" )e was reborn in the 18th century. you have more control over everything" %our eyes will normally change red when your angry. we don’t burst in flames or anything"= =So"""do you need blood or anything. you can learn to control that. it’s fine" I mean. when you’re as old as him. slee$ing in a coffin. but if you have enough will $ower.= And then he was laughing" 0h. $ersonally.o you mean your father. sure. but now I couldn’t seem to say anything" )ow did he *now he was my father"""and had my mother *nown he was a vam$ire when they’d hoo*ed u$.= And that’s when he loo*ed away" I could tell by the guilty loo* on his face that it was true" =It’s o*ay" I don’t care if you need blood" . we’ll be tired and if we are in direct sunlight. and grimaced at the action" )e turned towards me abru$tly.rin* mine. I definitely had a lot to learn" =/e don’t need coffins. But what about. I !ust eat raw meat most of the time" I don’t want to have $ermanent blood red eyes"= =/ait. uh. anyways. Anton barely as*ed 9uestions. too"= And. do you have that clear. *now"""you’re a vam$ire and all so don’t you have to be. li*e. /ell. I thought"""you. I believe it was somewhere around 1KD8"""But. And. for the first time in hours. for all I care"= I shrugged. we’ll get burnt because we’re built to be ada$ted to the night" But. whether or not you drin* human blood. . whatever his name was. drin*ing human blood ma*es your eyes $ermanently red.=/ait. )is eyes only changed red when he was angry"= =. all day.
where are you going. we actually don’t *now if he is"""finally dead"= I thin* Anton was still tal*ing but I couldn’t tell anymore" That man could he even be called a man. 3y bac* down. technically destroyed because we’re all already dead.B= I sna$$ed and ri$$ed off the cords and lim$ed towards the bathroom" I flic*ed on the light. I could tell. Candice. e2tremely hard. and he wasn’t lying when he had told me""" =/ell. but li*e I told you. I made a disgusted noise and rolled over onto my side" =I’m tired. but . but I didn’t care" I closed my eyes tightly and my mind *e$t swaying towards 7rom and Anton" I *e$t com$aring the differences between the two vam$ires" And then I started to loo* at myself li*e in a mirror and com$ared features with 7rom and my mother" I had my mother’s hair and body build"""but the more I imagined 7rom there was something I *new was there on my face but I couldn’t 9uite get it"""then it hit me" It was the eyes" &y eyes s$rung o$en and I !um$ed u$" =/ait. waiting as my eyes ad!usted to brightness and I stared into the mirror" I bac*ed away horrified at what I saw and !umbled at the loc*" I rushed out of the room and nearly colla$sed onto the floor.=0h. you’re too in!ured to wal*"= Anton was out of his seat and trying. was really my father. sorry" I forgot to tell you the first bit" /e’d discovered your blood in the room on the to$ floor along with his. but his body was gone" /e don’t *now if you actually destroyed him or not" But we did tests on the blood and he $roved to be your father"= =I *illed my own father"""= I trailed off in a whis$er" I truly had *illed my own father. to get me bac* in bed" =Am I too in!ured to be able to $ee by myself. I need some slee$" I ho$e you don’t mind"= I didn’t wait to hear what he said.
anyhow" -lus. you loo* cute and your eyes stay the same color"= I laughed hysterically but the sob was still stuc* in my throat" )e shifted me in his arms and gently sat me down on the bed again. dee$ly frustrated and laid bac* down" I sat there. and I couldn’t hel$ but smile" )e hummed a slow melody and my eyes drifted slightly and closed com$letely and I floated in dar*ness at first. the more noticeable stage" I sighed. they loo*ed worse. this time. then it was cold and I felt li*e I had frostbite" I screamed in agony and lea$ed u$"""to find myself in the hos$ital" Anton had fallen aslee$ in his chair and a few cards were on the bedside table with balloons and all the normal stuff $eo$le dro$$ed off when they ho$ed someone would get better" I glanced at the time to see I’d sle$t about si2teen hours" At least it was starting to cut down" If only the bruises were any better" /hen I e2amined the ones on my arms. when Anton bite me. .Anton caught me" I was sobbing into his chest as he cradled me" =I"""have"""his"""eyes"= I sobbed and Anton understood immediately" =Shh" It’s alright They loo* much better on you. $utting the I#’s bac* in" )e handed me a ?leene2 and I wi$ed at my eyes and blew my nose gratefully" =Than* you"= I whis$ered and he $ulled strands of my hair away from my face" =%our welcome. though you *now I’d let you soa* my shirt with your tears anyways" I have a free shoulder for you to cry on anytime"= )e $atted his shoulder as he said it. and I had that confusing dream again. but because they were that dee$er $ur$le. 0nly. I felt a churning in my stomach but my body felt weightless"""li*e I was changing" I clutched at my stomach and scra$ed with my nails to sto$ the flamed engulfing me. when you get angry.
counting the holes in the ceiling tiles as I waited to see if anyone would visit or if Anton would wa*e u$" ="""D8E, D8O, D8F, D8K, D8L, D8J, DLI, DL"""= I sto$$ed when I saw a shadow in the door way" =)ello.= I as*ed curiously" As boring as counting holes in a ceiling sounds, I actually found it interesting to see that each tile had a different number and there wasn’t a $articular $attern" I’d lost count three times now because they were about five feet ahead and so many little holes""" =Candice. )ow are you.= I glanced u$ to find Twyla and Aron" Twyla frowned when she saw the cast, but tried des$erately to re$lace it with her award winning smile" She $ut a single rose on the bedside table and *neeled down" =I’m so sorry about what ha$$ened" I drove and tried to find you, but I couldn’t find you" No loo* at what you’ve gone and done" Twice in two wee*s have you been in the hos$ital with serious accidents"= =It’s not your fault, Twyla" It could’ve ha$$ened to anyone"= I reassured her" She nodded, blew a *iss and left" That left me with !ust Aron" 7h""" =)i"= he said" )is brows were *nitted together and I sighed, frustrated" I don’t li*e the s$otlight, and it seems that when I get bac* to school, there’s be some serious gossi$" =)ow are you.= =I’m fine"= I lied" 0f course, I $ut on my ha$$iest smile and he nodded bac*" )e stood u$, ready to go already, I guess" =)ey, Candice. I’m sorry about the $arty" I mean, I shouldn’t have left you all alone, es$ecially since you didn’t really *now anyone"""= I shoo* my head at him and frowned"
=-lease don’t blame yourself" I’m in one $iece at least" Besides, it was an accident" I !ust tri$ a lot" It’s not that big of a deal"= )e nodded again and wal*ed towards the door" Before I could dance, he turned bac* and smiled, though his eyes showed sadness" =%ou’re with him, huh.= )e !er*ed his thumb over to Anton and I nodded" )e sighed and wal*ed out, closing the door in the $rocess" I frowned" I didn’t mean to lead Aron on"""he !ust was really nice and I mean, I sort of li*ed him"""but" 0h god" I’m horrible" This is one hec* of a love s9uare"""by the time I’d figured out that neither Aron or /illiam mattered to me as a boyfriend anymore, I caught a movement out of the corner and loo*ed to find Anton awa*e and groggy" =)ow long have you been awa*e.= )e as*ed after lightly rubbing his eyes and stretching" )e loo*ed more weary than tired, but both loo*ed because of me" =Not long" I tried counting the holes in the ceiling, but I *e$t losing trac* of them" And Twyla and Aron came to visit a while ago"= )e nodded, though he seemed to disa$$rove when I said Aron’s name" =)ey, it’s not li*e I did anything with him" /e’re !ust friends and $lus, he understands about us"= I beamed at him, and he couldn’t hel$ but smile in return" /e tal*ed for a while, him mainly to ma*e sure I was comfortable and alright" Throughout the day, a few more $eo$le came by to visit, I guess word had gotten out that I was awa*e today" After a few short visits and +a*e giving the =older sibling tal*= to Anton, I was tired and dreamy from the drugs the nurses had given me" This became a routine for us, and Anton never left, which worried me" )e loo*ed $aler each day, and after the fourth day having him there, I brought it u$"
=Are you sure you don’t need blood. I’m sure you wouldn’t have a $roblem finding blood bags in a hos$ital"""= =I’m not going to drin* blood" -lus, I can hold a few more days" I don’t need blood as often as humans need food"= )e raised an eyebrow as my stomach rumbled as a re$ly and got u$ to find a nurse" After that, we didn’t tal* about it again" I still worried as he started to sweat more often and he loo*ed $aler" /e hadn’t *issed for about E days which !ust gave $roof he couldn’t stand the smell of my blood, but on the eighth day, my doctor finally gave me leave to go" ;or once, I was actually wishing school didn’t e2ist" I normally didn’t mind it if I was in a bad mood, but school sounded disgusting and unwanted in my mind" I *new I would !ust get the s$ecial treatment" =Are you ready to go home.= Anton as*, beaming when he hel$ed me into his car" )e closed my door when I was in, wheeled the chair bac* inside and came bac* in under a minute" I *new I was mo$ing, which I normally don’t do, but I couldn’t hel$ but des$ise the idea" Not many $eo$le saw me in the hos$ital, !ust the occasional visit, but in school. So many $eo$le" =No" I don’t want to go to school" Can’t you go, I don’t *now, destroy the elevators so I don’t have a way to get around.=)e chuc*led as a res$onse and I *new, dee$ down, that he reali:ed I was telling the truth but didn’t want to admit he would do something li*e that for me" /ell, actually, would he. =Is that a no.= I as*ed curiously" )e glanced over at me as he $ulled out of the $ar*ing lot and turned bac* to the road" =%ou *now I would, if it wasn’t defacing school $ro$erty" I actually li*e the school,
unli*e someone I *now"= )e win*ed at me and laughed when my face stayed grim" =Ah, come on" ,on’t loo* at me li*e that"= I sighed and leaned my head against the hold window $ane" =I *now, but I normally li*e school so much" Now, it’ll !ust be more of a $ain" Not only am I new, but everyone will *now who I am because of a stu$id incident" I’ll get the s$ecial treatment and nobody’ll treat me the same"= &y voice sounded so whiny, I hated that, but there wasn’t much I could do to hel$ it" I didn’t want to go, and that was that, but there was no way +a*e was going to miss more school" I’d !ust moved and already, I’d missed about four wee*s" Not including Anton who mysteriously missed two of them" I fell aslee$ on the ride bac* and waited for the dream, but *new that a nightmare was waiting for me instead"
Cha$ter L: A 3iving Nightmare I was slee$ing, as I’d been doing as often as I could so I wouldn’t have to see myself" The bruises didn’t seem to be getting better and I still had about si2 wee*s with the cast" &y an*le was still wra$$ed in an ace bandage, but with my s$rained wrist, I had to use a wheel chair because I couldn’t use the right side of my body with a crutch" I wo*e u$, sweating from the same dream I’d been having for the $ast two wee*s" I rubbed the sweat away from my eyes and rolled over so I could see the cloc*" /hen I saw the time, I groaned" It was only four in the morning" If I went bac* to slee$, I’d have the dream again" I yawned and stretched out" I might as well get u$" I slid my body so I was sitting and hobbled down the ladder attached to my bed" I should’ve
been slee$ing on the small cot +a*e had $ut on the floor for me so I didn’t have to worry about getting on or off of my bed, but it was thin and uncomfortable" -lus, I wanted to go on with my life as if nothing ha$$ened" Though, now that I thought about it, it seemed ne2t to im$ossible" The wheelchair was set u$ !ust ne2t to my bed and I angrily slid onto the seat" /hen I was still in the hos$ital, +a*e had an elevator installed ne2t to the staircase" /here he got the money, I didn’t want to *now" I rolled over to my dresser, $ulled out sweats and a $lain t shirt with my old school logo on it, and continued into the bathroom" I drew u$ some bath water and waited" I’d thrown a towel over the mirror above the sin* in my bathroom because I didn’t want to see my eyes" Not only because of my blac*ened right eye, but because of who those eyes reminded me of" A$ until four wee*s ago, I hadn’t thought vam$ires e2isted" 0f course, I had fantasies of Anton drin*ing blood from me, but I never actually believed they were real" Sure, that was my theory for Anton’s strange behavior and abilities, but it was !ust because of my reading habits" Steam filled the bathroom and I twisted off the water" I unwra$$ed the ace bandage on my an*le and $ulled on a $lastic cover over my wrist cast" By the time I’d somehow lifted myself into the bath, it had cooled down a little" Some of my friends insisted that they’d stay with me and hel$ me out, but I didn’t need hel$" I could do everything by myself" I washed myself and wrin*led my nose whenever I hit a tender s$ot" I had $ain medicine, but I tried not to ta*e it when I didn’t really needed it" +a*e tried $ersuading me to ta*e it the three times a day li*e I was su$$osed to, but I said I didn’t need it that often, $lus, all
of this medical care was a little e2$ensive" And with +a*e buying me some sweats and more comfortable clothes and the elevator system being $ut in"""it was all beginning to get me worried about his money" I thought li*e that for what felt li*e an hour, and finally aw*wardly climbed out when the water started cooling down" I dried off, untied the $lastic cover, wra$$ed my an*le in a new ace bandage, and changed" I sat in that wheelchair, trying to $ull u$ those $ants for at least twenty minutes, when I frustratingly shot u$ from the chair so I could $ull them u$ and immediately fell down from the shar$ $ain flaming through my leg" I gas$ed in shoc* and rolled over, trying to sit myself u$ in the chair again" /ell, my $ants were on now" I tied the tie string and rolled myself out of the bathroom, turning off the last as I went off" I wra$$ed my hair u$ in a towel and grabbed my bac*$ac*, sli$$ed on some shoes and soc*s, and got in the elevator" The only thing I hated about this thing, was when ever I got in it, a bell ringed so +a*e would *now when I was awa*e in case I need hel$" I $lugged my ears !ust a second before the bells rung< a habit I’d ta*en u$" By the time I was on the bottom floor, +a*e was rushing down the stairs, buttoning his wor* shirt as he went" I rolled my eyes and tossed my bac*$ac* on the coach" I grabbed my cheerios, a s$oon, a bowl and them il*" By the time I had everything out on the table, +a*e rushed to my side and started $ouring my cereal" I sighed and watched as he hesitantly shoo* out more cereal" As he did so, he caught my glance and smiled" =)ow did you slee$ on the cot. Is it comfortable enough.= The cereal started to over flow and tiny $ieces hit the table" I $ic*ed u$ a few and chewed,
=I sle$t fine" +a*e = The coffee ma*er bu::ed and he ignored it" I su$$ressed a sigh as more cereal fell to the table, ma*ing little clic*ing sounds" =/hat.= he as*ed, a tad annoyed" )e followed my ga:e to the overflowing cereal and gave me an a$ologi:ing loo* as he closed the bo2 of cereal" )e scoo$ed out some from the bowl along with the cereal on a table and $ut it in a $lastic bowl" ;or him, I su$$ose" /e ate brea*fast in silence, and as soon as I was done, I too* the elevator bac* u$ to my room to brush my teeth" &y intercom yes, +a*e had a s$ea*er set u$ in my room in case I needed any hel$ bu::ed and I clic*ed on the tal* button" =%eah.= =Candice, Anton’s here"= I turned it off and wheeled myself towards the elevator again" By the time I was down stairs, Anton and +a*e were laughing form some !o*e I su$$ose +a*e had told and my bac*$ac* was thrown over Anton’s shoulder" They both loo*ed u$ as I came towards them and +a*e waved goodbye, his coffee in his other hand" Anton slowed his $ace to match my slow movement and I $rotested when he tried to hel$ me down the ram$" I did let him hel$ me into the car and I waited as he folded u$ the wheelchair and slid it into the bac*seat" The only sound as we drove on our way to school was the 9uiet hum of the engine" Anton was about ten minutes away from me, so it too* about the same amount of time to get to the school, which meant about twenty minutes of silence" As we turned into the $ar*ing lot, I began shifting uncomfortably in the seat and flic*ed his eyes over towards me, frowning" =Are you o*ay.= I shoo* my head and grumbled something that sounded li*e, =,on’t as* me that"= /e were in the loading :one, and he lifted me out of the car, careful not to bum$ my
but because he was holding me. and sat me in the wheelchair" A few $eo$le $assing by sto$$ed to watch as he did this and I blushed. every time after I’d wa*e. I had the same dream. floating feeling" It felt so real. but he always said no" Though he *e$t getting $aler within a wee*’s time" )e normally !ust ate raw meet. a little guiltily" )e’d already missed two wee*s of school so he could stay with me in the hos$ital" I felt really bad about it and worried he would do even more for me if worst came to shove" )e shoo* his head. in the direct sense" But. I wouldn’t be turned or anything. over and over again during the night" Anton always bit me and I would feel a high. I’d have to be almost com$letely drained of blood.on’t worry about it" I’d do anything for you"= /e both reali:ed what he’d said.head. it could be !ust the feeling of him biting into my nec*" It sounded gruesome. which he said was sim$le and chea$. and he came bac* . but I yearned to see if my dreams were telling me the truth" 7very night for the $ast three wee*s. $lus he never was *illing anything"""well. and he *new what was crossing my mind at the moment" By anything. not because of the in!uries. and we loo*ed directly into each other’s eyes" The word =anything= could have any meaning. still" I waited as he went to $ar*.casually strolling with both his and my bag thrown across his bac*" =I can ta*e my bac*$ac*" Geally. but I *new that I yearned to see what it felt li*e to be bitten for a vam$ire for real instead of the fa*e thing in my dreams" . sad smile on his li$s" =. and then given the blood of the vam$ire who drained me" I wasn’t sure I wanted the immortality that he had. a small. it’s not that big of a deal"= I told him. and I wanted so badly to see if it was true" I had as*ed Anton if he needed to feed a few times.
and to save my embarrassment" /e had about ten minutes before !ut about everybody would start showing u$" )e hurried me through the hallway. eyes wide with shoc* and guilt written all over their faces" I too* dee$ breaths. and I still had the fantasy of him brea*ing the elevators so I had no way to get around the school" Someone was !ust entering the elevator and he rushed to get to it before the doors shut" /e slid inside and he leaned against the wall.)e strolled me into the school. it was im$ossible for me to do any s$orts in my condition. the door o$en and he rolled me out into the em$ty hallway" /e turned a corner and were finally at the library" /e entered. which we both had learned seemed to calm me down" I . my head in my hands" =I hate. clearly trying to hide his smile" I glanced behind me to find a few girls giggling and trying to ma*e themselves visible to Anton" )e caught my glare and shoo* his head. ma*ing me turn around and $out" About ten seconds later. hate this"= I muttered. trying to $ush away my bitter feelings and led Anton to a bac* table behind a few boo*cases" I could hear the voices $ic*ing u$ again and I leaned forward. and I an2iously loo*ed through the hallway" I couldn’t do -"7. so I was instead sent to the library to wor* or do whatever" Anton had convinced his home room teacher to let him go with me until I could go bac* to my regular schedule" Though I was ha$$y not to be alone. though I thin* it was barely audible and muffled" )e chuc*led low in his throat and reached out to ta*e one of my hands" )e rubbed circles into the bac* of my hand. hate. only to find that about twenty $eo$le were already inside" All the ghostly whis$ers sto$$ed and everyone turned towards us. I still wished none of it ha$$ened" Anton had $ic*ed me u$ early so that we could miss the tram$ling of students.
do you have su$er $owers. we’re stronger. I could finally as* him more 9uestions" =So. as you reali:ed"= )is eyes s*immed over me with a grim e2$ression which shifted bac* to his smile in !ust second" =/e also have better hearing. I didn’t care. and now he laughed. at least he was !ust trying to ma*e me feel better" Soon enough. I guess you could say something li*e that" I mean. but we’re really !ust something related to the devil"= =Not gods nor something demon li*e" %ou said it yourself: you’re really !ust an enhanced human race"= I smiled and he couldn’t hel$ but smile bac*" I su$$ose I was clever. better eyesight" -retty much. %ou loo*"""guilty of something"= )e reached out to cu$ my face in his hand and I rolled bac* in my chair" . when it came to Anton" )e of course was wise. only ma*ing his face that much more glowing" =/ell. faster refle2es.sighed dee$ly and loo*ed u$ into his eyes" =Candice. and my love" Though I couldn’t hel$ but feel sorry for my first love bac* home"""and that caught me by sur$rise" =Are you o*ay. everyone else had to leave the library for class" Anton and I 9uietly tal*ed about anything and everything" /ith an hour to ourselves. we’re an enhanced human"= )e shrugged li*e it was nothing at all and smiled when my e2$ression was somewhat in awe" =%ou act li*e it’s nothing" /hy aren’t you still marveling over the fact that you’re"""ama:ingB.= )is smile tightened and I had a feeling I’d !ust hit a nerve" =/e’re not ama:ing in the way you thin*" %ou $raise us li*e we’re gods.= his face was comical and e2cited when he tal*ed about the fights he’d been through. it’ll all blow over soon" Believe me"= And I did" If he was using com$ulsion.
and fli$$ed o$en my cell $hone" I dialed in Cac*’s cell $hone" It was about dinner time bac* in Te2as. flinching when I $ulled out a few shards of glass" I was sobbing. a true blood curdling scream" I !um$ed u$. so I was scared he wouldn’t answer. and I shoo* my head. seeing it was me calling" =Cac*. it’s Cac*.= Cac* $ic*ed u$ after about si2 rings and I sighed with relief" I hadn’t tal*ed to him in about a month. leaving Anton in shoc*" I hurried towards the bathroom. and I’ll try to get bac* to you"= I hung u$. so I was sure he’d $ic* u$" =)ello. I = =)ey. $rotesting" Anton’s face came into view and I cried more" )e *ic*ed $ieces of glass out of the way and carried me bac* to my wheelchair" I was huddled u$ in my chair by the time we reached the nurses office" . I can’t come to the $hone right now" 3eave a message. ignoring the throbbing in my an*le and banged on the mirror with my good hand" The mirror smashed and $ieces fell to the ground" I crum$led to the tiled floor and moved my hand lightly. rolled into the largest stall. I imagined his face" The fangs bared and I screamed. frustrated and sighed" I rolled out of the stall and fro:e" The luminescent lights circle me in a glowing light that bounced off of my face in the mirrors" The mirrors hung over the sin*s and I’d !ust wal*ed into a tra$" Those green eyes stared bac* at me" A $ur$le blue color blotted my right eye and I reached u$ to touch it" I winced when I $o*ed too hard and then I stared bac* into those eyes I had avoided for wee*s" Before I could turn away. oh than* god you answered" )ey I was calling to ma*e sure that everything was o*ay.=I need to go" I’ll be bac*"= I rolled out. by the time I reali:ed that those cho*ing sounds was coming from me" Two cold hands lifted me u$.
though I was starting to believe I might actually need it" But. and whenever anyone as*ed what ha$$ened. unable to loo* into those eyes" =)ow do you fall out of a wheelchair.= I heard him mutter as we left the building and he went to go sign the release $a$ers" . I wasn’t sure how long it would be !ust counseling if I actually told them the truth" +a*e showed u$ about and hour later. careful not to hurt me" I smiled. an ambulance $ic*ed Anton and I u$ and we were off" I was ta*en to the emergency room and had eleven stitches $ut in my hand" It was bandaged u$ $retty bad. and ordered Anton to re wra$ it" /hile he wor*ed with my an*le.)er eyes widened when she saw me. and he shoo* his head at me" =Be more careful. she too* out the rest of the glass in my hands and $ressed a wad of $a$er towels in my fist" She nodded from me to it and I clenched hard and it soa*ed with blood" She headed bac* into the main office and I could here her frantically ordering someone to call the hos$ital" About fifteen minutes later. and managed to move out of shoc* in a few seconds" She hurried to my side and ordered Anton to lift me u$ onto the closest cot" I shrie*ed in $ain when she $o*ed my an*le" She unwra$$ed the ace bandage and her brows $ulled together" She $ulled out a new ace bandage and an ice $ac*. right after Anton and I were about to leave" )is face was worried and he reached down to hug me. then I was sure to be given counseling. $lease" This is the third time in a month I’ve had to leave wor* to come find you ending u$ in the hos$ital"= =I’m sorry" I fell"= Anton a$$raised me with an unbelieving loo*" I loo*ed away. I !ust stared at them until they left" If I tried to tell anyone what ha$$ened. a$ologi:ing.
)e was in the bathroom when you were in there. did +a*e *now who our father was. yet" /hat’s wrong. what about school. %ou aren’t telling the truth. cut the engine and turned to loo* at me" = /e are not going bac* to school. didn’t you. watching as the ground smo*ed because it was starting to warm u$" I couldn’t loo* into those eyes. does +a*e *now. I *new I could" But. understanding" If +a*e didn’t *now. you can tell me"= And. Candice. there was no way Anton would tell anyone what was going on with me" =)e 7rom = I couldn’t admit that he was my father. what if he told someone else. Anton" )e was there"= =/ho.= I loo*ed out the window. /ait 7rom. =Anton.= =/hat. no matter how many times I tried to get used to the idea of my mother once loving hm" =I saw him in the mirror"= . /ait.+a*e left for wor* and Anton was ta*ing me home" =/ait.= /hen I didn’t answer he reached out to gras$ my chin gently and turned it in his direction so I was loo*ing at him" =Candice. This was su$$osed to be our day bac*"= )e $ulled the car u$ to the closest curb. I saw the glass.= )is voice was shar$ and frustrated" /hatever was on my face calmed him down and he was $eaceful again" =. and you hit it.= I *new he *new what I was as*ing" It was times li*e these that it seemed he could read my aura and see what I meant" =No"= )e said softly" I nodded. afraid he’d use com$ulsion on me to tell the truth" =I I saw him. /hat if he told +a*e. I can tell because you aren’t loo*ing directly into my face" /hat ha$$ened in the bathroom.
it was his usual gentle *iss" Then. unhoo*ed my own seatbelt. and *issed my li$s" At first. and I was stretched out on the couch. legs stretched out in front of him. so I sat there !ust $artici$ating with my li$s" I bro*e it first. and I moved to be closer to him" )is other hand reached behind me and wra$$ed around my waist" I couldn’t do anything with my own. and lifted me out and into the chair" Seeing as I couldn’t 9uite wheel myself. that’s all it was. 9uiet minutes.orget him"= Then he moved those li$s. and idiotic" Those eyes you have. my head in his la$" )e gently ran his hands through my . his swollen li$s curving u$ in the corners" )e $laced his hand !ust below my collar bone and we both listened as my heart began to slow" After a few. the fire burned between us li*e the hos$ital.= I nodded. my heart $ounding in my chest" )e smiled. and smart" )e was rec*less. calming. and strong. he unhoo*ed his seatbelt and got out to come around to my side" )e had the wheelchair out and by my door in under a minute. his warm breath fanning my face. he rolled me across the street and I told him to get my *eys out of my hi$ $oc*et" /e were inside and he hel$ed me unwra$ the ace bandage on my an*le" The swelling had gone down and my an*le actually loo*ed better than this morning" )e $ut the now melted ice $ac* in the free:er and re wra$$ed a new one on my an*le" =3oo* at that" %ou’ll be bac* on your feet in no time"= )is smile was genuine and I couldn’t hel$ but smile bac*" )e lifted me u$ and onto the couch in the living room and fli$$ed through some channels" )e was sitting u$. not because he’s your biological father" . not wanting to answer or see his reaction to what I’d said" Then he leaned in close to me.=%ou mean. Candice" %ou are beautiful. they’re your own. so his li$s were at my ear and whis$ered" =%ou are nothing li*e him.
but he said you can call if you need anything" I almost forgot to . the gray clouds rumbling" Gain seemed highly $lausible" I lifted myself u$ into the wheelchair and went into the elevator" The bells didn’t ring. and the gentle feel of it made me slee$y and I eventually $assed out""" /hen I wo*e u$. I’ll call at lunch to ma*e sure you’re o*ay" 3et’s ta*e another /ee* off of school and then we’ll see where it all goes" Anton said he was going to school today. so I got a good nights slee$" These accidents were really starting to ware me out" I lifted my head. I noticed a small note on the island" I rolled myself over. glad that my hand no longer ached. suddenly feeling everything that ha$$ened on me $ush down" I yawned and he smiled" =@etting tired.ear Candice. I’m going to wor*. so I guessed +a*e unhoo*ed the system" /hen I got downstairs. otherwise all of this would be im$ossible" I $ic*ed u$ the note and unfolded it" . rubbing at my eyes and glanced around" It was cloudy today.hair an I closed my eyes. @etting hurt while still hurt wares down on you"= +a*e had satellite t"v $ut in. so we got most of the channels that were bac* in the A"S" Anton s*immed through those and I $ointed at the movie case" )e shoo* his head in ama:ement and went to glance at the collection" )e grabbed a d"v"d and switched the channel to $lay" I laughed as =The @oonies= turned on and we waited as the o$ening credits came to a close and the actual movie started" )e was stro*ing my hair again.= I nodded and rubbed my eyes" =/hat can I say. I was on the small cot on the ground in my room" No one else was in there and I sus$ected Anton had left hours ago before +a*e had gotten home" I glanced u$ at the cloc* and sighed" At least I wasn’t going to school today" It was about ten in the morning.
there’s a $ac*age that came in the mail for you yesterday" 3ove you. and last. then the sudden cooling li*e frostbite. li*e one where you’d find !ewelry inside of it. +a*e’s home$age" I ty$ed in vam$ire myths and waited as thousands of websites $o$$ed u$" I scrolled down. which didn’t ma*e much sense" I scanned through the . was a s$ar*ling ring with what loo*ed li*e real diamond" I tried it on and my brows furrowed when it fight $erfectly" 0n the inside of the lid was a small $iece of $a$er" I ri$$ed it off" In $erfect cursive. o$ening internet e2$lorer as soon as I had" It went to earthle. +a*e" I refolded the $a$er. Candice" I $ic*ed it out es$ecially for you" /e’ll meet somewhere in the near future. with no return address" I untied the strings and ri$$ed o$en the brown $a$er" A small bo2. I crawled to the office. your father" I dro$$ed the $a$er and hurried to ta*e off the ring. wrote: I ho$e you li*e it. and fortune telling. my stomach churning and a metallic taste in my mouth" I $ulled down the la$to$. the churning of my stomach" /as my dream meant to tell me something worth *nowing. and fli$$ed it o$en" I gritted my teeth against the $ain and logged on the com$uter. believe me" 3ove. and $ic*ed u$ the $ac*age on the counter" It was a small s9uare.Tell you. but it was stuc*" It wouldn’t come off" Then. s*i$$ing the images. fell onto my la$" I stared at it for a moment and fli$$ed it o$en" Inside. a slight $ric* and a dro$ of blood slid off my finger and hit the $a$er on the ground" I felt di::y and fell out of my chair" &y stomach churned and I $anic*ed" This all felt too much li*e the second time I dreamed of Anton biting me" The flame building in my body.
and give it to victim in @A hours" I gas$ed when I finished reading the charm and screamed" I screamed not from the fact of what I was becoming. %ampire and man. 3s I speak this spell. 3nd do what I can.first $ages of results and sto$$ed when one loo*ed $romising: how to turn into a vam$ire" It seemed almost too $romising and detailed. 4ou shall become like me. 4ou will be the same when this is done. 19ings work better" 8our drops of blood from victim 8our drops of blood from vampire 2ay as you mi( the blood! Come as one. <rop in . necklace.ewelry. reali:ing it was !ust the fact and fiction of vam$ires and sto$$ed when I saw the headline I wanted: charms" I clic*ed on it. but I needed whatever I could get" I read the first $aragra$h. scanning through some s$ells and sto$$ed on a !ewelry one" $ewelry Charm! +ne item! ring. but because of the $ain" &y stomach was burning. 3n angel from hell. /y world you will see. bracelet. an unbearable $ain" I scratch at it and clawed at the ground" I $u*ed u$ some blood and .
I !ust waited" And waited" It seemed li*e forever when the form finally came into full view. it wouldn’t com$are to what was ha$$ening in my throat or stomach" Blood was everywhere. and I was sur$rised it was from me" &y stomach $ains suddenly sto$$ed. because another wave of di::iness hit me and whi$$ed me out" I scratched at my face and struggled. but I couldn’t 9uite $ut my finger on it" )e smiled at me as he released my hand and cu$$ed my chin in his hand" =/ell done. child" %ou are one of us"= )e leaned down he was incredibly tall.sobbed" I !ust sobbed" I was in so much $ain that if I’d bro*en any limb. $ieces scattered around me" I didn’t have time to test my wrist out. stretched and stood. water s$lashing lightly at my feet" Something luminescent was coming towards me. and it loo*ed li*e a man" I couldn’t tell what was wrong with all of this. at least seven feet tall and *issed both of my chee*s" Two blood strea*ed tears slid down . trying to o$en my eyes" Blac*ness engulfed me. wra$$ing around li*e a blan*et and I was controlled by something inhuman" I was floating on something that loo*ed li*e blac*ened water" I sat u$. instead of running. I fell" I don’t *now what was ha$$ening to me" I clutched my hair in my hands and screamed in agony" &y bac* arched and the cast on my wrist bro*e. and for some idiotic reason. shimmering ring on my finger" I *new that the ring had some fore$lay in all of this. !ust that it was su$$osed to ha$$en" The man thing stretched out his hand and suddenly he was standing right in front of me" )e reached out and too* my hand" I watched his head bend down at first and then I followed his ga:e to a large. and I sat u$ rubbing my eyes" I chec*ed my hand and gas$ed when the stitches were gone and bac* to normal" Then.
but before I could even see the glint of the ring. and acce$ted death" 3et me drown.= I as*ed. the man was wal*ing bac*wards. as big as I could smile. $ale s*in" Then I waited for the $ain. my eyes closed. that’s one thing I’ll have to get . and stared down at my arms" They were covered in blood"""then I remembered the strange dream about the crying" /ell. I fli$$ed it o$en to find some ty$e of s$ell"""or rather a charm" I gas$ed and loo*ed around me. never wanting to o$en them again" Then I heard something that sounded li*e the front door o$ening" I lea$ed u$.B= I screamed" I fell to my *nees. blac* water esca$ed my lungs and I lunged u$. trying to breath" I waited to hear the sound of my heart beating fast. I thought des$erately" I want to die" It would be better than anything li*e this" I want to *now what’s coming for me" Then I was bac* in the office" I coughed. li*e fresh water" =/hat am I. and the surface of the dar* water bro*e through" I tightened my eyes.my face and landed on my hand" I e2amined them. bac* from wherever he had come from" =/aitB /hat am IB. I saw the now $a$ery. !ust a whis$er" /hen I loo*ed u$. in fact" &y muscles hurt. and when I o$ened my eyes to loo*" I started crying" Shar$ fangs stuc* out on the to$. beating continued in the bac* of my mind" I shoo* my head des$erately and glanced around the room" The la$to$ was where I’d left it"""what had I been searching. seeing the blood and bro*en cast" It"""it couldn’t be" I lifted my hand. slow. not sur$rised to find my an*le didn’t throb" I turned on the light in bathroom and smiled. confused" I thought tears were su$$osed to be clear. but it was gone" I ran u$. closing them so everything was blac*" I o$ened my mouth. /here am I. normal. but !ut a steady. and my eyes were rimmed red" I fell to the floor and hid my face in my *nees" I sat li*e that for a while.
but then he rela2ed" I $ushed the hair away from his nec* and he tilted his head to the left" I o$ened my mouth. throwing +a*e into the stove" )is head hit the ground and he blac*ed out" I lea$ed onto the counter into a fighting $osition and . and hastily wi$ed off the blood" I threw it in the ham$er. and I closed the door. and then o$ened it again as an illusion" )e turned bac* and smiled when he saw it was only me" I gave him a tight smile bac* and then he stared in ama:ement" =/hat ha$$ened to you. I’ve been healed for a while now" It’s been a cou$le of wee*s since my cast came off"= I bit the inside of my chee*. or a blac* eye anymore. a cast. sugary smell =Sto$B Candice. waiting for his reaction" )e smiled again" =0f course it has" I’m sorry I forgot"= )e reached down to hug me and I fro:e" That smell"""mmm" I closed my eyes dreamily and turned my face into the croo* of his nec*" )e stiffened at first. which meant some e2$laining" I breathed heavily and then I remembered com$ulsion" I smiled. don’t do itB= I hissed. getting ready to taste that sweet. wal*ing towards him" )e had sto$$ed everything he was doing by the time I was u$ close and staring com$letely into my eyes" =+a*e.used to not doing" I grabbed a towel. so I needed to ma*e my a$$roach louder" I ran towards the elevator and $ushed the o$en button" It o$ened.= I stared down at my clothes to reali:e they were s$lattered with blood from my conversion or whatever you call changing into a vam$ire and then his eyes went wide with shoc*" And that’s when I reali:ed I was healed" I didn’t have stitches. and ran out into the *itchen" +a*e was ta*ing in groceries form the car" )e hadn’t *nown I was there. careful to ma*e sure it was a dar* one.
a silver sound" Anton’s face was wary and I smiled wider so he could see my fangs" =. wincing at the sudden $ain in my hand" I glanced down to see the ace bandage in $lace. I was !ust having fun"= I smiled cunningly and laughed. eyes wide with shoc*. fangs glinting in the dim light and that hit me" 3i*e all of my other dreams" It was so realistic" So. I was death. . and there was something on the verge of brea*ing" )e o$ened his mouth. but brows furrowed in frustration and anger" I !um$ed down and ran to him" =/hat do you mean =sto$=. my nec*. towards the *itchen" There was a note and I $ic*ed it u$. blac* sea of water" Anton grabbed my wrist. I :oomed out.= I laughed again. my collar bone. *ic*ing the front door o$en as he did so" )e $inned me to the wall and *issed me" This *iss had far much more desire than any of the recent ones" I *issed him bac*. heart racing" . and my hands were entangled in his hair" )e hand one hand around my waist. then my !aw. far in that dar*. and went on *issing my chee*s. and we were entangled" 0ne of my legs were wound around his hi$. bruises everywhere and a cast on my wrist" I sighed with relief and wi$ed the sweat streaming down my face" I chec* the cloc* and fro:e in $lace" It was about ten""""I $ulled my self 9uic*ly into my chair and rolled down to the elevator" The door o$ened and I rolled in" As soon as it was down.o you li*e them. so real and I could see what he was going to do Then I wo*e u$" I threw off the blan*et.ear Candice. my shoulder and down my arm" )e sto$$ed at my wrist.scanned the room" Then I turned towards the door" Anton stood there. marveling at the sound" I felt so free. now" I was no where near the edge of death I had been" Now. and an electric shoc* bolted through both of our bodies" )e s$un me around. the other one $layfully $ulling at the bottom of my shirt" )e bro*e the *iss.
+a*e" I sighed. is +acob )again here. too* out a chai tea bag. so I might not see you until Tomorrow morning" 3ove you.riend over if you want" I won’t be home until late.I’m going to wor*. I’ll call at lunch to ma*e sure you’re o*ay" 3et’s ta*e another /ee* off of school and then we’ll see where it all goes" Anton said he was going to school today. but I’m Candice )again"= . and I $oured in some steaming water and let the bag soa*" By the time I had a s$oon out. and a cu$ and waited" It only too* a few minutes. wasn’t it. but I need him to sign this"= I shoo* my head and held out a hand" =No. closing my eyes tightly" This was it" &y dream was going to come true. and then o$ened my eyes" money for $i::a is on the counter" +ust call it u$ when you’re hungry. the doorbell had rung" I closed the drawer and wheeled over towards the front door" I o$ened it and loo*ed u$ at the man" =%es. he’s not here. but he said you can call if you need anything" I almost forgot to Tell you I sto$$ed. invite some . umm. not believing my eyes" I tossed the $a$er bac* on the counter and o$ened the fridge" I $ulled out the mil* and sat it on the counter" I turned the stove on and started boiling the water. I hesitated at first. I have a $ac*age for Candice )again.= =)ello.
=/ell. I su$$ose I could have you sign this" It isn’t really against regulations"= )e *nelt down and I 9uic*ly signed with my stitched hand. which was a stu$id attem$t seeing as it was my left hand and I write with my right" )e nodded at me and handed me a small $ac*age" I’d been so relieved about the note not being com$letely li*e the note in my dream that I hadn’t thought about anything else coming true" And here was another test of my dreams" .
that is if it was the same thing from my dream" That dream""" I felt worse in my life than I ever thought I could" I’ve had bad dreams before. 7verything recently had to be fa*e" I believed Anton loved me as much as I loved him. but I couldn’t remember what it was" All that mattered to me at the moment was this $ac*age" It could change my life. the door still o$en and the $ac*age in my hand" I *now I had been doing something. Cha$ter J:/hat was ha$$ening. but everything in that dream was too"""too real" It felt li*e I was there in $erson" The $ain I felt while changing""""it was too real to be !ust a dream" /hat was going on with me. I sat there. but he still didn’t *now I yearned to feel him !ust bite me" And all of my stu$id little o*ay big incidents couldn’t have ha$$ened"""es$ecially the fight with my with 7rom" .
and mi2ing in some sugar" I si$$ed at the hot tea and tried to avoid the $ac*age" It was about eleven . I’m sorry if I wo*e you. $oring in a little mil*. I tossed the $ac*age on the counter and finished ma*ing my tea. I was !ust calling to ma*e sure you were o*ay"= I could hear the ruffling of $a$ers in the bac*ground" =%eah. I couldn’t $ush myself hard enough to say the word" But the desire in the dream"""it was also so realistic"""why was this all ha$$ening. today is""". bloc*ing out the rest of the world" I shifted through the dream I had last night and my breath caught in my throat at the last $art" The $art with Anton and I"""were we really going to do it. /hat’s the date today.I closed my eyes tightly. as usual nad sighed" It was $ast my birthday" I assumed that $ac*age must be from someone li*e Cac* or maybe ?atherine" =0*ay. I !ust fell aslee$ watching t"v"= I $aused glancing at the cloc* telling me I was aslee$ for about two hours" =+a*e. +a*e" I’m fine" No need to worry. time goes by fairly slowly" .= =0h. and I *e$t thin* of ways to occu$y myself" By the time +a*e had called for lunch.ecember third"= I cho*ed on my laughter hysterical. I had fallen aslee$" I reached out and grabbed the $hone off of the coffee table and $ressed the tal* button" =)ello.= I said mid yawn" =/ere you still slee$ing.now. umm. than*s" Bye"= I hung u$ before he could say anything" If today was the third"""then I had been gone for""""thirty two days" I su$$ose I actually wasn’t in 3ondon as long as I’d thought" I guess when you’re a $risoner.
delicate. ring holder in my dream" I bit my li$. had the same e2act loo*ing bo2" 0n the bottom. I slid my finger under the ta$e and $ulled u$. ri$$ing it o$en" Ander some $ac*aging $eanuts sat a smaller bo2" Then my breathing $ic*ed u$" Though the dream had only a small bo2. +ust a dream" . but I sent it a wee* before your birthday" /ell. sat a small. delicate ring with my birth stone in it" I smiled. I’d sell it" There was no way I could trust any ring after I had that dream" But.I shifted myself so I was sitting. I started to doubt myself" It was !ust that. hesitating" If it was a ring. I love you lotsB )o$e you en!oy it :6" ?atherine" I closed my eyes and flic*ed o$en the little.reams don’t come true. though $ac*ed in a larger one. and e2amined it closer" . right. and that I got a $ac*age with the same writing and no return address as well""" /ithout thin*ing about it any further. folding the ta$e over the edges" It read: .A%B I’m sorry if I’m a tad late. and even if they do. a small stri$ of white $a$er was folded and ta$ed" I $ulled it off. nothing li*e the white. there has been $roof that our minds actually can ta*e energy in dreams and $redict the future" It could even be a coincidence that the beginning of that note was the same. this one. and lifted myself u$ and into my wheelchair" I rolled myself towards the counter and tore off the $ac*aging $a$er" I weighed it in my hands" The bo2 was !ust that. )A--% BIGT).ear Candice. brown bo2. a small. now. slowly than*ing the gods. I wasn’t sure how long it ta*es for mail to get there. white bo2" Inside.
%es. I !ust want to feel normal for once"= )e didn’t re$ly. and I convinced +a*e you can go bac* to school tomorrow. and fell aslee$ for another cou$le of hours earlierB= =I *now. not at least for a few days" I still couldn’t trust myself to believe it was !ust a dream. but I can’t really reach anything"= I shrugged and finished my fourth $iece" Anton was started to loo* $ale again" I *now he’d eaten about four days ago. I haven’t eaten anything since yesterday morning" I needed some food. if you’re feeling u$ to it"= =Geally. either" /e finished the movie $i::a included and Anton was trying to $ersuade me to get some rest" =But that’s all I’ve been doing recentlyB I’m slee$ing more than a cat does. from what he’d told me. but raw meat doesn’t last for long" And.ine" But can you at least stay until I fall aslee$. it didn’t taste very good. I li*e having com$any"= =%es. and I wanted to convince myself that it was" By the end of the day. but you need your rest" It hel$s the healing $rocess"= )e tenderly touching my wrist and I understood what he meant" I most li*ely loo*ed hideous to him. *nowing he’d $robably !ust ma*e me more u$set if he tried to say that I was normal" Instead of ma*ing .I wasn’t going to try it on !ust yet. I’ll stay" 0h. Anton had come over to eat $i::a with me" /e ordered it and watched a movie as we waited for the delivery" In the middle of the third )arry -otter the $i::a arrived and I ate half of it" Anton watched in amusement and I swallowed the current bite so I could tal*" =Sorry. for crying out loudB I sle$t in until ten today. scared that he’d hurt me" =. and there was no doubt that he was trying not to *iss me anymore.
%ou can e2$lain it to me if you li*e" I don’t mind.= =Ah"""!ust a few strange things" But my favorite $art of it"""I can’t really e2$lain it" %ou had to feel it to *now"= I was loo*ing at my hands now. the *iss" The =Are you o*ay. It was $retty ama:ing"""= I trailed off.= I smiled. still not loo*ing away" =I should’ve been there" I shouldn’t have left" %ou’d be safer is I was here to $rotect you"= . I felt so vulnerable" Then. but I glim$sed u$ to find Anton raise one of those $erfect brows" =And""". I’d really li*e to *now"= I held bac* a laugh. /hat was your favorite $art. well. the dream came to mind" The end of it at least" I *e$t imagining him $inning me to the wall. and I followed his ga:e to the yellowish bruises" =They’re getting better"= )e nodded. =A dream I had last night"= =0h" /hat was this dream about that ma*es you smile so brightly. and began to slowly $ush the covers bac*" )is serious smile faded and a frown re$laced it" )is brows $ulled together and I aw*wardly climbed into his la$" )e s*immed his fingers along my arm. he $ic*ed me u$ and carried me to my room" )e laid me on the small cot and tuc*ed me in li*e a little child" I almost e2$ected him to tell me a bed time story. I swear it would’ve sounded evil.= I glanced u$ to find him now sitting beside me. yeah" I was !ust thin*ing"= =About what.me roll myself in the wheelchair. and tilting his head to the side" =%eah. and I smiled shyly at him" =Can I !ust. show you.
the com$ulsion in his eyes" I couldn’t hel$ but feel my body heat u$ and the energy between the two of us flowed brightly" I *new he was using his com$ulsion. worried and reached out to cu$ my face in both of his hands" )e *issed my blac*ed eye. there was no doubt about it" I couldn’t hel$ but stare into the brown eyes I’d loved so much" I leaned forward and *issed him" If this was what he was using com$ulsion for. actually. are you sure you’re o*ay.I shoo* my head. $lease tell me what’s wrong"= There it was. and leaned in to *iss his chee*" I felt him still and I reached u$ to brush my fingerti$s along his !aw" )is s*in felt li*e cold $lains in the Antarctic and I shivered. !ust imagining them" )e caught my hand. I !ust sat there" &y body not res$onding" )e sto$$ed after a few seconds and leaned bac*. %ou’re acting strange. and you’re not your regular self"= =The hell I’m not o*ayB= I sna$$ed" =I was attac*ed by a frea*ing vam$ire. not with the burning desire from my dream" So.B= )e stared at me. frustrated" =Candice. and shoo* his head" =%ou’re hurt"= =I *now" That’s the beauty of it"= =Candice. gently not to hurt it. loving *iss" But there wasn’t any heat" It was cold. Anton" A vam$ire" I had no idea that they even e2isted" Am I su$$osed to feel o*ay after something as as ba:aar as that. I didn’t care" &y li$s tingled and I needed to taste his li$s" . careful and then trailed *issed along my !aw" It was so much li*e the dream that I gas$ed and he *issed my li$s" It was a gentle.
)e dodged my incoming li$s. my yearning for him. crum$led at tired" I reached u$. but his eyes burned with the same flaming desire I had felt in the dream" /hen I’d finished he loo*ed away and I swayed slightly" A side effect of the com$ulsion" )is face drained com$letely of color more so than usual and I worried for him" )e never loo*ed brea*able. that meant I’d be harder to resist" =NoB= he sna$$ed. my eyes closing" . every detail of every recent incident or $roblem" )e listened intently" And when I finished the dream. careful of my an*le" I held onto the des* and tilted my head again. it’s not that bad. anymore"= &y voice came out in an urgent whis$er and I tried fiercely to calm it" =Can’t do that to you" I $romised myself never to drin* from a human again = =/aitB So you have had human blood before. fangs bared. a few small things falling near me" &y heart beat had increased. tying my hair bac* into a $ony tail. and his eyes burned with fire" =Tell me what’s wrong" I’ll to my best to ma*e it all better"= And I launched into my lifeless story" The realistic dreams. his face scowling at me" )e flic*ed his red eyes from my face to my still e2$osed nec*" I swallowed hard. running into my dresser" It shoo* at first.= I lifted myself off of the floor. to that reddening state that scared me" I flinched bac*. is it. and I *new he could hear the blood $um$ing" @ood. Then it’s not that bad of a dealB 0ne sli$. a lum$ forming in the bac* of my throat" =I want you to" -lease" I don’t care. out of his sitting $osition" )is eyes were churning. but here he was. his face was a$ologetic. and leaned my nec* now e2$osed towards him" )e hissed and lea$ed u$.
being able to stand u$ now" I hurried u$ and dressed 9uic*ly in !eans and a t shirt" I grabbed my bac*$ac* and headed down the stairs" Then I remember +a*e’s new alarm system that wo*e him u$ in time" I hurried down the stairs and fli$$ed o$en the elevator door. but I *e$t ho$ing to hit that high $oint in my dreams" Then he sto$$ed" &y vision was blurry and I couldn’t move" )e lic*ed where he’d bitten. and stood u$" &y an*le was feeling much better. and +a*e came running . and then he bit" At first I felt the shar$ $ain and wriggled in his hold. and then I was aslee$" I wasn’t sure what I had e2$ected. and a numb feeling e2$loded in my body" I *new he wasn’t going to drin* a lot. and I unwra$$ed the ace bandage. testing it" No $ain" I shoo* my head in a ama:ement and too* a shower" I had forgotten to ta*e a bath last night. but I didn’t dream" I was ho$ing maybe I would dream of the bite. his tongue la$$ing u$ the rest of the blood.I heard him shifting and my heart was still $ounding in my ears" A few ste$s and then a shadow fell over me" =I’ll be careful"= )e whis$ered" I was sweating now and I could feeling the cold trace of his fingers down my !aw to my nec*" I could feel his breath at the croo* in my nec*. I e2$ected. but a shower sounded so normal to me. li*e I was fully healed" I sat u$. yawning as I did. but found it com$letely clear of any sign of bruises" &y eyes went wide with shoc* and I lifted u$ my left leg. but I sto$$ed after a few moments" The $ain was gone now. and I smiled $leasantly" &y body felt great. not moving from his $osition. and I tried to imagine the high feeling in the dreams I had in the hos$ital" )e $ic*ed me u$. but I was !ust floating in blac*ness" &y alarm wo*e me u$ at si2. e2$ecting it to be swollen.
and I $ac*ed u$ my boo*s and la$to$" I !umbled with my bac*$ac* and tossed it over my shoulder" I was listening to Nirvana. read""""you *now. always ha$$y to ta*e a ride in his car" 0n the ride to school. but maybe that was for the best" Besides. I ga:ed at Anton’s $rofile and my smiled brightened" )e loo*ed so much healthier after last night" I *new I had lost blood. and most of my classes were ne2t to im$ossible because I couldn’t write with either of my hands" I was in the library all day. and he shoo* his head. and I laughed" )e turned at the sound and his mouth dro$$ed o$en when he saw me" =It’s betterB It doesn’t hurt. you mean" It was alright" I !ust emailed a few $eo$le. I figured Anton hadn’t drun*en too much" The bite seemed to only last about ten seconds anyways" /e got to school. astonished" I hurried to eat my brea*fast and ran out the door when I heard Anton’s car $ulling into the drive way" )e was out by the time the front door had shut" )e smiled $olitely and came around to *iss me on the chee* and o$en my door" I slid in.down the stairs. including Cac*" ?atherine sent me an email as well. have most of my $eriods by myself in there" I listened to music and chec*ed my email on my la$to$" I had a new email from Stacie" She wished me ha$$y birthday"""on my birthday" I had a few li*e that from some old friends. the normal stuff"= . when Anton found me" )e reached over to *iss my forehead and I rela2ed" =)ow was your day bac*. doing his tie" )e waved as he $assed. and the bruises on it are all gone"= I was $ractically !um$ing with !oy. it’s not swollen. and I didn’t dread it 9uite as much" I still couldn’t do -"7. and I ty$ed her bac* a long res$onse" School ended.= =Second day bac*.
= =%eah. %ou should get those stitches out"= They were starting to loo* a little strange" I grimaced and hid my hand behind my bac*" I su$$ose I needed a useable hand.= =. it was thoughtful of him to even give me anything" I $ulled off the lid. small bo2" It had a little blue ribbon on it" =)ere" It’s for your birthday"= Though he was about two wee*s late.= . and I reached out to *iss him" )e held the bo2 underneath his arm and hel$ed me $ut it on" I turned my wrist. blushing" )e reached into the inside of his !ac*et an $ulled out a long.)e nodded and led me towards his car" =)ave you gotten a doctors a$$ointment yet. well. and we slid in" =Anton. Shouldn’t that ma*e me wea*er. fascinated and beamed at him" /e made it to the car. I almost forgot to give this to you" I was going to give it to you in the hos$ital. though I su$$osed you could buy more charms for it" =I love it"= )is face brightened. about last night" I *now I shouldn’t have tried to"""but it was for the better. right. and I loo*ed away. with everything recently"""= his voice trailed off. though I still wouldn’t be able to drive for a while until this cast was off" =0h.on’t a$ologi:e. you were too tem$ting to resist. but I thought I should wait" And. anyways"= =/hy did I heal if blood was ta*en from my body. or something.= =I’m sorry about. and was ama:ed to find a silver lin*ed charm bracelet" It didn’t have anything but a C on it.
my bac* against the wooden fence and sobbed into my hands" . normally. and I su$$ose it’s something about the inner connection of the strength of a vam$ire. %ou home.=/ell. my breathing heavy" =AntonB Anton. not ma*ing a sound" I ti$toed into the *itchen and glanced around the first two rooms" No one" )e held u$ a hand. your healed an*le"= =)uh"= And the conversation ended" I guess I wasn’t com$letely ama:ed. the 9uiet sound of doors being o$ened could be heard" A few minutes later. which wasn’t normal" I hesitated. where are you. it closing with a ghastly clic*" I nodded to the couch and he tossed the bac*$ac* on it. yes" But. Anton a$$eared at the balcony.B= I ran towards the stairs. turning the heater u$" =Better. and Anton flic*ed his eyes and me. and my shoulders slum$ed as he headed towards the stairs" I $erched myself u$ on the end of the counter and waited" If I listened carefully. stimulants are carried through the blood.= I nodded. and shoo* his head" =There isn’t anyone here"= Before he could turn around.= Anton 9uietly $ushed on the door behind us. and finally $assed over the threshold" =+a*e. when a vam$ire bites a mortal. ta*ing two at a time" I reached the balcony to find no trace of him" I fell. I mean. I was starting to get used to the idea of him truly being a vam$ire" But the fact that he hel$ed me heal by drin*ing my blood"""and the feeling of it" I shivered. though I was starting to feel far too warm" )e grabbed my bac*$ac* out of the bac*seat and I unloc*ed the door" +a*e’s car was in the garage. to the more wea* mortal that allows them to heal" Thus. a large shadow over $owered him and he was gone" I !um$ed off the counter.
little girl"= I turned bac* to find her lounging against the balcony" )er li$s were $ulled bac* to show her fangs ans she made a loud sound in her throat. well" 3oo* who we have here"= The voice was so familiar"""yet I couldn’t $lace my finger on it" I loo*ed u$. and found a short girl standing in front of me. her eyes closed" The fli$$ed o$en and they were red" That vam$ire red that wanted to ma*e me shrivel u$ and be gone" She raised her hands over her head. and then sliced them down through the air" The bits of glass came flying at me. =/hat the = And then I was shoved hard into the wall" &y left arm smashed through the stitched one and I $ulled it bac*. and it sto$$ed" The shrie*ing was gone. grabbing for her long. well. gas$ing as an electric shoc* !olted u$ my arm and the some of the stitches crac*ed o$en and bled"" =0h. but the glass was floating in mid air" I turned to find the girl smiling. shoving her to the side as I wal*ed $ast" She grabbed the hoodie of my sweatshirt and !er*ed me bac*" =I am not a little girl. you’re going to $ay for this. wi$ing my eyes as I did. you brat"= She threw her fist bac* and I dodged it before I could get swatted in the face by the child" She snarled. sounding li*e a growl" =%ou don’t want to be $laying around with vam$ires. hands on her hi$s" =I don’t have time to $lay. now. letting go of my hoodie. and disa$$eared. covered or not" . wea*ling" It’ll only bring your death closer"= I lunged for her then.=/ell. little girl"= I stood u$. and I !um$ed" Small $ieces cut into my s*in. yellow loc*s" I tugged and she shrie*ed" I let go to cover my ears and watched as glass around us shattered.
watching her every move" )e wasn’t gone" I told myself over and over. you useless human" %ou’ll never find himB )e’s gone. you foolish humanB %ou can’t $lay with a vam$ire and e2$ect yourself to wal* awayB I will drain you before you can even wal* a foot"= She snarled bac*. and I loo*ed away in disgust" /ell. /here’d Anton. e2$osed all of her teeth and lea$ed" I watched.I clenched my teeth against the $ain. forever. sister" . wi$ing small shard’s of glass and wooden s$linter’s from my clothes and smiled" =%ou *now what they always say: siblings always fight" But. I’m his daughter too"= I $ushed off and !um$ed" She tried fighting me off. and there’s nothing you can do"= I shoved her off of me and s9uinted. and then she slammed down on me" =/ where is he.= =. as she twirled in the air. but I shoved her over. ama:ed. I su$$ose this’ll !ust have to do"= I lifted it about her heart and she flared" I loo*ed away from her eyes. your father is really one great vam$ire" I don’t see why you’d want to run away from him" I mean.on’t waste your breathe. only to find her giggling" =I told you. so long. and stabbed" Blac* blood lea*ed form her mouth. and we were both falling" I had crac*ed us through the balcony’s railing and I shoved her down even farther as we descended in the air" )er bac* hit the *itchen tile in a loud crac* and her eyes were bla:ing" I lea$ed off. I would have to say this was one hec* of a fight"= I lifted u$ a sna$$ed $iece of wood from the balcony and $ic*ed at small $ieces chi$$ing off" =)mm. he was !ust on on a vacation" That’s it"=7rom is going to have fun with him" %ou *now. and she made a cho*ing sound" Blood s$illed out of her.
raw $uncture wounds where s$illing blood on his nec*" I screamed then" Some of the $aramedics turned to me in alarm. or everyone else was" I had choice" 3et all I loved die. dro$$ing loudly" I flattened myself against the door and ta$$ed my bedroom door with my foot" It crea*ed o$en and I turned to loo*" =Is there anyone = and I sto$$ed" The ta$$ing noise wasn’t e2actly a ta$$ing noise. the girl was gone.id they disa$$ear after they died. and tears s$illing over" +a*e. grabbing a few more $ieces of wood" I glanced down the hall. yelling for hel$ and the rolled me in the elevator and lifted me into the ambulance" Before the . unconscious or dead I couldn’t tell was lying on my loft bed. my limbs flying all over the $lace" Stra$s were tightened around my shoulders. I wasn’t sure" They lifted +a*e off of my bead and carried him down on a cot" I saw where the bleeding was coming from" It was his nec*" Two. and I crum$led to the ground. dialing the $olice office" =%es. one hand over the railing and blood dri$$ing off of it" I grabbed the $hone. wasn’t it.I turned away and bounded u$ the stairs. hearing a 9uiet ta$$ing noise" I gently $ushed o$en some of the doors and made it to my own room" I could hear the noise in a regular beat. or give myself to him" Gough hands $ulled me u$ and laid me down on a cot" I shoo* my head frantically. it was a dri$$ing one" I covered my mouth sha*ing my head. )ello. stomach and my legs and feet" I hysterically cried out. I was going to die. I’m Candice )again and my brother is unconscious" )e’s bleeding horribly and I don’t *now what ha$$ened"= They were there in about five minutes" I didn’t care if they saw the small girl who called herself my sister" But when I ran out to tell them we were u$stairs. !ust a sta*e $lunged in where her heart had been" . tears s$illing over again" This was it.
reali:ing my own sanity was fading with every word I s$o*e" =Shh. I need to find Anton" I need to save +a*e and get Anton before he get’s *illed""""= I reali:ed. too"= )e shifted away. he’ll be fine" /e’re ta*ing you to the doctors too" %ou have a few cuts that need to be ta*en care of. I really need to be with him" )e’ll get hurt if I’m gone again" They’ll try and *ill him"""= I trailed off. his eyes glistening with fear" /as I really that scary" =/e’re ta*ing you to the hos$ital. of course"= =But. warily staring at the $aramedics that scooted farther away.$aramedics climbed in and closed the double doors. I swore I saw a yellow bug $ulling away. a frantic and u$set #ictoria driving" They hushed me as I screamed for #ictoria" I could see the other ambulance car $ulling out and turning the other direction" I needed to be with +a*e" )e needed me" =NoB +a*e1 +a*eB I’ll come get youB Stay $ut. I’ll get you don’t worryB Nothing will ha$$en to either of usB %ou’ll be fineB"= I strained my nec* enough to see the last of the ambulance turn out of view onto another road" =/here are you ta*ing me"= 0ne of the $aramedics sitting off to the side flic*ered his eyes towards me. than none f this would have ha$$ened" If I had decided to become a country girl . %ou aren’t going to throw me in the looney bin. are you. but +a*e went that way" Shouldn’t we follow him. but I *new he was trying to get farther away from me" =/hat hos$ital. that I was really being $aranoid and I was going cra:y" It was all my father’s fault" If he hadn’t showed u$. in what seemed li*e an innocent move. than none of this would have ha$$ened" If Anton would have *e$t his distance.
in ?ansas. but it never turned out to be anything more than a first date basis" She always thought they were shallow which normally was the case" After all. she’d gone on a few dates with men. but they seemed to avoid it" I craned my nec*. sure. he’d $ro$ose. after college or high school. I felt sorry for my mother in a sense when I thought of her going under his com$ulsion" But I thought she was always a strong willed woman who fought for herself" I mean. than she’d still be a live and we would be living our ha$$y lives" If she wouldn’t have died. )ow had she ever loved him. have *ids" Sherie would be my best friend forever" She’d get married. have *ids. and we’d always *ee$ in touch" I would have lived a normal life if my mother hadn’t died" I wouldn’t have *nown vam$ires e2isted. my mother was a beauty" She also ha$$ened to be fairly rich" The $aramedics !um$ed out of the ambulance car and rolled me out onto the sidewal* of the hos$ital" I tried to catch the name. and I never would have met my father" I cringed in disgust when I thought of 7rom" )e was horrible" /hy had my mother ever loved him. metal chair" A large two sided mirror was to the right of us" The room was white and my wrists were being chained together by $lastic handcuffs" . gently $ushing me bac* down onto the $illow" I stared at the ceiling as lights $assed and we sto$$ed abru$tly" The stra$s were loosened and then I was being hauled off the stretcher" They sat me down in a folding. I would be in a relationshi$ with Cac*" 7ventually. straining to see where we were but one of the $aramedics $ut a hand on my forehead. we’d get married. none of this would have ha$$ened" And if my mother wouldn’t have died from cancer.
= shoc* fro:e over the shar$ $lanes of her face and I cringed bac* when her eyes were li*e ice" =%es" I’m a normal teenager" I got to school" I !ust got out of the hos$ital a few days ago from an attac* and it was my first day bac* today"= =/hat sort of attac* was this. !ust waiting for my answer. I could see something shining in the bac* of the mirror" I wonder if they were all on the edge of their seats.= I $aused glancing around the room" If I loo*ed close enough.= She was ta$$ing a $en on a cli$board with $a$er attached" She loo*ed u$ e2$ectantly and raised one $erfect eyebrow" =)again"= =. dar* eyelashes framed electric blue eyes. untrimmed eyebrows" 3ong.= =@etting dro$$ed off from school by my boyfriend"= =%ou go to school. and found my brother on the edge of death on my own bed" =3ast name. yet gently away from her face into a neat bun wra$$ing in the bac* of her head" =Candice"= &y voice was dull. and a dull loo* cascaded over that beautiful face" )er blac* hair was $ulled tightly. =I was mugged and tried to defend myself"= I said .= =Candice Susan )again"= =/here were you at two thirty this afternoon.ull name.= I loo*ed u$ to see a women in a $lain.=/hat’s your name. blush lightly brushed over then" She had shar$. seeing as I had fought and *illed a vam$ire. white nurse outfit" )er chee*bones were high. no e2$ression in them" I assumed I was a mess.
= she nodded at me and waited" /hen I didn’t answer she sighed. bro*en. so it would be easier for them to ta*e my things"= I shrugged" = I was in the hos$ital for about a month.= I could hear her $en scratching over the thin $a$er. and I glanced bac* towards her" =The first time was 0ctober thirty first at my friend’s house"= =The first time. and still is. $utting the $en and cli$board on the table in between us and folded her hands in her la$" =So. at least" =So.= I nodded" =I was attac*ed first on )alloween" The second time was when I = I $aused biting my li$" I couldn’t say I’d esca$ed the hos$ital. I had to lie" =/hen I was released from the hos$ital in 3ondon" I’d needed urgent care on my head from being shoved into a bric* building. &iss )again. my wrist was. you’re telling me this ha$$ened more than once. after that" &y an*le was s$rained. but I hadn’t been $aying attention" =/here and when were you mugged and attac*ed. and I had bruises all over my body"= =)mm"= she scratched more on the $a$er and then slid the li$ bac* on" =It seems. that you are under stress and you’re still traumati:ed by the recent occurrences" %ou will be staying in here meaning this thera$eutic hos$ital for the ne2t wee*" Anless you are better and more rela2ed. you will stay in here for further notice"= . leaning forward.= =I was leaving the hos$ital and someone tried to ta*e my things" I guess I was seen as a wea*ling at the moment. and Cy$rus hadn’t had what I’d needed"= &ost of it was true. when and where was the second time.without loo*ing bac* at the nurse" I thin* she had mentioned her name somewhere earlier.
and he hasn’t made any $rogress yet" @otta feel sorry for the *id"= I nodded in agreement and she sto$$ed.= I as*ed.= she said as I followed her into the hall. hands reaching out to hel$" =I wouldn’t do that if I were you"= I turned an2iously towards the doorway to find a girl about si2 foot tall" She was incredibly s*inny< her hair was styled messily in a short $i2ie cut. towing me out of the room" )e led me through a long. my hands on my hi$s and voice trailing with sarcasm" =Because +ac* over there would cringe away from you and eventually attac* you in your slee$ if you were to touch him"= /e both glanced towards him at the same time. white hallway and then another" A few $atients I could tell because they were handcuffed were wal*ing the halls" )e o$ened a door and hurled me in" I landed on a $lain white bed and stared around me" It was all white" . narrow. turning around .rea*ishly scary" Sitting on another bed identical to my own. and lan*y" )is golden hair fell to his shoulders and he loo*ed at me with big. =)e was felt u$ as a *id by both of his $arents. round. and so he’s been in here for about three years now" )e came in her when he was thirteen.= I wal*ed towards him. white !um$suit" =And why not. and she bec*oned me with he inde2 finger" =%ou see. was a young male" )e loo*ed to be about my age" )e was tall. what’s your name. not loo*ing bac* at me.She stood u$. dyed blac* with blue highlights" )er hands were uncuffed and she was wearing a $lain. ha:el eyes" =I’m Candice.= )is hands were sha*ing and he shoo* his head vigorously to either side" =Are you o*ay. and left the room with her cli$board" The other $erson a man that had been leaning against the wall behind me gras$ed my elbow.
= =Ale2a" )er name’s Ale2a" And you better remember that. you also really are stu$id enough to believe that they $ut you in here for a reason"= I crac*ed my fingers so I could s$y through the crac*s at whoever was tal*ing" I $eeled my hands away when I saw a young. she strode away from me. African American girl tilting her head to the side. not only do you $iss off Ale2a in less than a minute.= =So. by all the gods.= =I don’t *now"= I was serious. Candice.so she could loo* me straight in the eyes" =/hat’s your name. and yet. whis$ering to myself" =/hy me. she gonna *ic* yo ass. she too* it as a !o*e" She cho*ed out a laugh and did a once over. otherwise. that was Ale2a you tal*ed to"= she said. !abbing her thumb in the direction that Ale2a had ta*en off to" =I’m Candice" I’m sorry. glanced at both of my hands and my bruises" =Sure you don’t" That’s what they always say"= /ith a 9uic* s$in.= she as*ed after a few seconds" =I’m Candice" Candice )again"= =/hy are you in here. but what was u$ with ah what was her name. sha*ing her hi$s in what I assumed was meant to be a se2y wal*" I slum$ed down onto one of the $lastic benches that were screwed to the wall" I dum$ed my head in my hands. again. /hy. girlie"= . did I have to end u$ here. leaning against the o$$osite wall" )er s*in was glossy and chocolate colored" )er hair a dee$ brown was thrown 9uic*ly into a $ony tail" She too wore a white !um$suit but she had the to$ sli$$ed over her hi$s and wore a green tan* to$ underneath" =I’m Amyl.
@irlie. girlie. e2ce$t for the mugging $art" I was *idna$ed. how’d you get in here. And then. . s*imming over me.= =&mhhm"= she nodded at me and wiggled off in the same direction as Ale2a" /hy isn’t anyone normal here. and my brother hurt himself so I bro*e out crying and they too* me here"= I was $retty close to the truth. that her handcuffs were off too" /as it !ust the newbies that got the handcuffs. and I !um$ on them li*e a s$ider mon*ey" /hat can I say. but nowhere near being mugged" =)uh"= =)uh.=)mm" 0*ay" I’ll remember that" Than*s. it loo*s li*e you were attac*ed by a monster"= Something li*e that" Though most $eo$le would call =the monster= my sister and father" =So. . oh. I don’t li*e to be called dar* chocolate" I li*e me some mil* chocolate"= she flashed a smile at me and win*ed" 0h than* god I had associated her with being a creamier color" =So.= she lifted one dar* eyebrow. I noticed with envious thoughts. I got this anger thing that they say is the source of my fighting" Someone says the wrong thing.= =I was under a lot of stress after I got mugged. trying to divert the attention away from me" =)ow’d you get in here. no girlie" I was the attac*er" %ou see.id you get stressed by being attac*ed.= =)aha.= I said. Amyl"= I stood u$ wi$ing at my eyes as I felt a few unnoticed tears hit my nec*" =/hat ha$$ened to you. sto$$ing again at my blac* eye" =+ust got hit a few times"= =A few times.
curling u$ underneath the white fluff of the down comforter" I sli$$ed under. now" It’s going to be attac*ed and I need to *now you’re going to . cu$$ed my face with love" =I *new I’d find you"= s$o*e that dee$. rough hands were around my face. it seemed more welcoming and closer to my heart" I sat. my breath esca$ing my mouth and crushed his li$s to mine" )is li$s were eager and tasted so. giving u$" /hiteness still engulfed everything other than myself in the room" +ac* was slee$ing soundly on his bed. e2$eriencing dreams" I o$ened one of my eyes and sighed. turning off my bed lam$ as I did" No matter how dar* it was. everything still somehow glowed in the dar* of the night" It was all a white nightmare and it too* me a while to fall aslee$" /hen I dreamt. sul*ing in the corner of my bed and wra$$ed myself into a tight ball. I wasn’t sur$rised to see that the white walls still were visible in the night" In fact. not see$ing through the water’s surface" I waited to see the illuminated man again but he didn’t come" Instead. but you need to get out there. I dreamt of the blac* water again" Com$ared to the white of the mental hos$ital.I went bac* to my room. $lacing two fingers over my li$s" =I’m going to be alright. se2y voice I had grown accustomed to. yet could never hear too much of" Anton face came into view and he leaned forward. I’ll come get to you. I $romise" I’ll find you"= =Shh"= he said. so real I wasn’t sure this was a dream anymore" =/here are you. hugging a $illow around my head" I could hear murmuring in the hallway and tugged the $illow closer" This all couldn’t be ha$$ening" It was all fa*e" +ust a dream" +ust another one of my really visual.
it could be the entrance to heaven" But I *new that I was inside the bars of hell" . whiteness wra$$ing around the room and me still in my ratted clothes" I reached u$ to touch my face.be safe"= )e held onto either sides of my face and *issed me again. tra$$ed again. standing bac* u$" =/aitB /here are you going. and $ulled it away to find tears" )ere I was. but in white instead of blac*ness" /hen was this never ending distraught mess going to end. The door o$ened and in wal*ed Ale2a and Amyl. ma*ing me slee$y" )e released me. -lease don’t leave meB I can’t stay hereB The whiteB It’s too much. the *iss getting dee$er and dee$er. smug smiles o$ening u$ on their faces" Though some could say as white as this is. and I need youB -lease !ust tell me where you areB= Then he was gone" &y eyes flic*ered o$en to find +ac* *neeling over a boo* on his bed" +ac*" I bolted u$.
since Ale2a was s9uee:ing my chee*s together" )er li$s turned u$ in a half smile and she managed to $ress down harder" 'Now.= I loo*ed bac* over towards the door to see Amyl smiling with a dangerous twin*le in her eye" Ah. so you better listen u$. not that I had any $ower over how I tal*ed. unless you get out of here or you’re li*e +ac*ie boy over there that actually can . !ust heard it" =So. cra$" I wasn’t really going to die. girlie. better yet. I certainly didn’t want to die by the hands of some hi$ sha*ing. was I. s9uee:ing together my chee*s" I flic*ed my eyes to my left where +ac* was still intently reading" )e didn’t even glance u$" I guess he’d seen this ha$$en before" 0r. why would I care what you were trying to do. are you ready to ride the Ale2a train. girlie" %ou. I’m the boss around here. are under me" %ou can’t do anything unless I o*ay it" That is. Cha$ter 1I:A /hite hell I was yan*ed out of bed and Amyl guarded the door" Ale2a laughed a haughty laugh. gothic wanna be. stu$id ma*ing idiot" =I was trying to slee$"= I managed to say from clenched teeth.
o$ening his boo* again where he had left his thumb in between the $ages" =)uh"= I whis$ered. feeling a little cleaner but a little uncomfortable" Though I’d chec* every few seconds to ma*e sure +ac* hadn’t $ea*ed.= I as*ed.throw soem good $unches"= /e both glanced over to see +ac* sha*ing again" )is white bed s9uea*ed underneath him.o you mind. caught my cold glare and o$ened the door. I still felt weird changing in the same room as a guy that wasn’t related to me" . but didn’t show any other sign" =/ho are you to tell me what to do.= I said as the door clic*ed shut behind them" =I ho$e that means I’m not under her"= +ac* closed his boo* and met my eyes" =%ou’re smart" I did that too. hel$ing haul Ale2a into the haul" =/ell. not loo*ing away from the words in his boo*" =It’s your only $air of clothes" %ou can *ee$ the ones you’re wearing now. nodding my chin towards the white outfit" )e shoo* his head. screaming in $ain" Amyl. too" =. $ausing as I glanced at one of the chairs" =Is that another change of clothes. utterly sur$rised he had tal*ed to me" I fi2ed my bed. but I’m not at the same time because I would never want to be ruled over by some frea*ish !er*"= I *ic*ed her shin and she dro$$ed me.= I as*ed +ac*. I’d go with the clean !um$suit they give you every day"= I lifted u$ the white bundle of cloth and $eered at the tag" &y si:e. but they won’t wash them for you" So. %ou’re !ut bigger than me and thin* you’re all tough because you’re a gothic wanna be" I’m sorry. fro:en by the door in com$lete shoc*. I got here a year earlier than her"= )e shrugged.unny things is. when she tried the same thing to me" . lifting u$ the !um$suit at +ac*" )e shoo* his head at me and I started to undress" I tossed the clothes in a drawer when I was done.
and flames danced in her eyes" This " was going to be one hec* of an e2$erience" Not to mention the fact that I was going to drown in all of this white ')ello.( I s$un around to find a twig si:ed girl at least twenty years old" '/hat do you mean.( '. strolling casually right into their tra$.( 'Not really" I didn’t really thin* about that when I was being attac*ed" Not really the best last minute thought"( I shrugged.ouble A’s is a good thing. Is there anyway I can Qresolve’ this idiotic matter. but. They would *ill youB They wouldn’t even give it a second thoughtB And. here you are.id you not notice that both of their names start with A’s.( '.ouble A’s.o you really thin* that coming out after what ha$$ened with . yet. I was feeling much better than before" +ac* had gone bac* to reading when I’d started to get changed and I figured I might as well not bother him" I ti$ toed $ast him and $ulled the door o$en" '/hat do you thin* you’re doing. there isn’t even a reason for them to hate me"( . chicaB( I turned to find the girl flailing her arms in the air" 'Aren’t you listening at all. otherwise. I felt a little less clammy and more rela2ed" &y head was still $ounding hard in my s*ull.( @olden hair framed her face and reached down to her small waist" )er dar* eyes clouded and she rushed me into another hallway nearby" '.( she turned yo leave and I caught her forearm !ust before she was away" '/hat can I do. Geally./hen I’d finished.
'Not a reason. then I definitely was going to before the wee* was over" . %ou $unched them. her s*inny body trying to gain a smooth sha*e" If I wasn’t loosing it now.( she !er*ed out of my hand and I watched as she twitched down the hallway. girl" Is that not reason enough.
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