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Musings of a Spiritual Warrior - 2008 Book 1

Musings of a Spiritual Warrior - 2008 Book 1

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What follows is the first part of the sixteenth year of the Beyond Imagination expression. We call it the Musings of a Spiritual Warrior. That may seem like an oxymoron but we do wage war against the illusion to the degree that we can using consciousness and awareness as our chief weapons. Always the goal is to come to know our self as fully as we can and then to share our self with the world in some manner that is of service. In our case, we do that through this very expression. Here we explore such topics as spirit, consciousness, awareness, and the nature of reality creation. We hope that in sharing in this manner, we allow you to walk in our mindsteps for awhile, allowing you to experience a new way of looking at the world. Indeed, we hope to alter your state of consciousness and awaken you to more of who you truly are. If we do that, we will have considered our efforts to be successful. Our greater goal is to create the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh.
This work is split into two parts. The first part is the musings themselves, presented exactly as they came forth. The second part is a selection of best quotes from the musings. For this work, there were 1470 quotes selected. They are not meant to be read in any order. Allow spirit to guide you to the quotes that you most need to see. Open that part of the expression to any page and start with any quote on that page. Alternatively, allow the numbers that come up in your life to point you to particular quotes. In this particular work, there was an interesting twist. We started to express at times as if we were God.
What follows is the first part of the sixteenth year of the Beyond Imagination expression. We call it the Musings of a Spiritual Warrior. That may seem like an oxymoron but we do wage war against the illusion to the degree that we can using consciousness and awareness as our chief weapons. Always the goal is to come to know our self as fully as we can and then to share our self with the world in some manner that is of service. In our case, we do that through this very expression. Here we explore such topics as spirit, consciousness, awareness, and the nature of reality creation. We hope that in sharing in this manner, we allow you to walk in our mindsteps for awhile, allowing you to experience a new way of looking at the world. Indeed, we hope to alter your state of consciousness and awaken you to more of who you truly are. If we do that, we will have considered our efforts to be successful. Our greater goal is to create the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh.
This work is split into two parts. The first part is the musings themselves, presented exactly as they came forth. The second part is a selection of best quotes from the musings. For this work, there were 1470 quotes selected. They are not meant to be read in any order. Allow spirit to guide you to the quotes that you most need to see. Open that part of the expression to any page and start with any quote on that page. Alternatively, allow the numbers that come up in your life to point you to particular quotes. In this particular work, there was an interesting twist. We started to express at times as if we were God.

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2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1

BEYOND IMAGINATION

Musings of a Spiritual Warrior

=== 2008 Book 1 ===
Wayne Hartman

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2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1

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What follows is the first part of the sixteenth year of the Beyond Imagination expression. We call it the Musings of a Spiritual Warrior. That may seem like an oxymoron but we do wage war against the illusion to the degree that we can using consciousness and awareness as our chief weapons. Always the goal is to come to know our self as fully as we can and then to share our self with the world in some manner that is of service. In our case, we do that through this very expression. Here we explore such topics as spirit, consciousness, awareness, and the nature of reality creation. We hope that in sharing in this manner, we allow you to walk in our mindsteps for awhile, allowing you to experience a new way of looking at the world. Indeed, we hope to alter your state of consciousness and awaken you to more of who you truly are. If we do that, we will have considered our efforts to be successful. Our greater goal is to create the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh. This work is split into two parts. The first part is the musings themselves, presented exactly as they came forth. The second part is a selection of best quotes from the musings. For this work, there were 1470 quotes selected. They are not meant to be read in any order. Allow spirit to guide you to the quotes that you most need to see. Open that part of the expression to any page and start with any quote on that page. Alternatively, allow the numbers that come up in your life to point you to particular quotes. In this particular work, there was an interesting twist. We started to express at times as if we were God.

I AM THAT I AM THAT YOU ARE! Wayne Hartman beyond@redshift.com

BEYOND IMAGINATION
http://www.redshift.com/~beyond/mainpage.htm

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2008 MUSINGS BOOK 1
5 March 2008 I can't remember when the last musing came forth. It has been that long. But, today is a special day. It marks the 15th birthday of the Beyond Imagination expression. Wow! Can it really be 15 years already? On the one hand, it seems like yesterday. On the other hand, it is literally 30 percent of my life. Last night was special as well. At around 11:00 PM, I had a powerful experience of merging with a light body. Basically, it was there near me and I just merged into it starting from my head and shoulders and extending through my torso and feet. I had never experienced anything like it or read of anything like it. The experience was empowering. It was as if the weight of the world was lifted off of me. It was freeing and expansive. I don't know how else to describe it. I don't know how long the experience lasted, but it seemed like many minutes. The first thought in my mind was to figure out what day it was. I checked my watch to see if it was the 5th yet, knowing the significance of this day. Either way, it was definitely a spiritual birthday present, though it arrived a few hours early. Why have I not been moved to express for so long? I don't really know. Following the record activity in 2002 and 2003, we hit a dry spell again that lasted over four years this time. Sometimes that happens. I don't know why. It just does. It doesn't help that I've been so busy at work. But, that is no excuse for not expressing. There are still 2-3 hours per day of free time. I'm just not motivated to come here to express anymore. Part of that is from a lack of feedback. I expected that the Beyond Imagination expression would have reached many more people by now. Reading the works from 2002 and 2003, I was highly enthusiastic and was expecting so much, most of which did not come to pass. I doubt that a dozen Beyond Imagination books have been sold, and there are nine published books. I read the books often and get a lot from them. But, they are clearly not reaching others. The numbers of page hits at the Beyond Imagination site are not growing dramatically either. Perhaps I have deceived myself regarding the applicability of the expression to others. Perhaps it is indeed for my eyes only. Though every sinew and fiber of my being speaks otherwise. I simply can't believe that consciousness would go to all this trouble simply for me. That seems to violate the very essence of elegance. There is something special about this kind of expression. And, that specialness can be conveyed to others. It is simply a matter of getting the word out. But, is that for me to do? Is it not enough for me to create the works that spirit would create through me? Why should I have to disseminate them as well? Why should I have to find the appropriate audience for these works? Are the works meant to have an impact in my lifetime? Good questions. However, I don't know where to find the answers to them. My, it feels good to be engaged in this expression once again. I knew something was missing in my life. When I am engaged in this stream of consciousness expression, it is as if nothing else in the world exists. I am focused in the moment, on the here and now. That is where my life is to be lived. It is curious that my memory is as poor as it is. However, when you operate in the present, you call forth all that you need in order to act into the moment. Once the decision is made, what got you there is no longer important. This is not true for everyone, however it is true 3

2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 for me. Some people are planners. Some people are multitaskers. That is not my way. I loosely prioritize what needs to be done and then focus intently on one thing at a time, often switching contexts as necessary to handle realtime interrupts. If I don't have a context to operate within, then I'm lost. Though, at the same time, I enjoy exploring the unknown realms of consciousness. There is something about stream of consciousness expression that puts me in the flow of something that is greater than I AM. Perhaps that is why I like it so much. Perhaps that is why I do it so much. Even in my work, I give my intuition a wide berth, ultimately trusting her more than my reason. That is just how it is. That is how I choose to live my life. So, where do we go next? What do we do next? It seems that there is a new age waiting to be born. It is time to induce the labor, and begin the birthing process. But, what of all the dissent and turmoil in the world? That will depart on its own in due time. It is for us to build the foundations for a new world to quicken this process. I say US, but who is part of that? Clearly me. But, who else constitutes WE? I've been asking that for 15 years and have yet to find the answer. That is OK. Everything is unfolding perfectly in accord with the plan of consciousness. In that timing, what is a year, or a decade, or even a century? Do what you are moved to do, when you are moved to do it. That is the constant admonition of spirit to me. It works so long as it is spirit herself that is doing the moving in our lives. For this to happen, we have to be open to it. We have to quiet ourselves and allow spirit to come into our lives in whatever way is appropriate for us. For me, that is through writing via this very expression. In general, it is through something creative that you are moved to do ... something that stretches you beyond what you know yourself to be. This could be anything. Though, it will generally align with your gifts. Each of us is unique. Each of us has something to share. Find what that is for you, develop it, and find ways to share it. Through such sharing, the world will become a better place for all of us. March 5, 65 days into the year since this is a leap year. 65 is the King of Pentacles = Unlimited Abundance. Is that what is in store for us as we enter the 16:The Tower year of the Beyond Imagination expression. We'll see soon enough. The year is passing by quickly. Though, in this case, we are still in the first day of the new year. 2008 is a 28:Man with the World in His Hand year. It will be interesting to see what this brings. We have 34 days left until my 50th birthday. I expected something dramatic to happen in my Easter birthday year. Perhaps last nights experience was the dramatic transformation I've been waiting for. Yes, there was a sense of being spiritually reborn last night. 6 March 2008 Another day in which we are moved to express. This time I'm getting an earlier start so we'll see what comes forth. We never really know. That makes this stream of consciousness expression somewhat of a surprise. Here, we are dealing with the unknown. We are allowing something to flow forth automatically and effortlessly. And, we are ever amazed by what is able to be expressed in this manner. There is no way to train for this. It is simply something that you do ... trusting the very processes of consciousness as she expresses through us. This is a humbling activity, but it is also ennobling. There is so much that we are capable of when we allow spirit to work through us. It is as if a host of invisible helpers are engaged in the work that we are doing. 4

2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 And the results reflect this. I've been taking a course on teaming for the past three days. With the exception of this endeavor where I team with consciousness herself, I have very limited involvement in teams. My basic nature is strongly opposite of being social. My primary mode of dealing with conflict is avoidance, with accommodation as a close second. In general, I avoid people unless I have to deal with them. Yes, that means that I spend a lot of my time alone, both at work and at home. That is just how it is, and how it has always been for me. The isolation is self-imposed however. You might say that I prefer my own company. Small talk bores me. Actually, most talk bores me with the exception of the dialog in movies and some TV shows. One of my least favorite activities at work is meetings. Phone calls come a close second. I'm definitely not a talker. I don't know how many times my wife has complained of my silence. Also, other than here, I don't really share my life with anyone. That too is just the way that it is and has always been and we're only a month away from turning 50. I have to ask if this is ever going to change? Do I want it to change? My immediate answer is no. However, there is some part of me that knows that I am missing something by restricting myself in this way. At the same time, my ways have allowed me to develop the relationship with consciousness that allows all of this to be expressed. And, I consider this expression to be the crowning achievement of my life. There is not a single thing that I have done at work that strikes me as being memorable. Don't get me wrong. I work hard and accomplish a lot. But, the long term impact of this work is just not there. This expression however is an entirely different story. Each musing something new is revealed. And much of it blows me away ... not only when it comes forth, but every time that I read it. How can that be? I have no other experience with such expression. There has been channeled material that comes close, especially the Seth books by Jane Roberts. But, this is more immediate and less esoteric. Seth can get pretty deep. Though, his material seems to be right on. I like to think that the Beyond Imagination expression can take you on a journey of consciousness that leads you to increased awareness of whom that you are. That is as high of a service as I believe that I can provide. However, I don't have sufficient feedback to know if it really provides this service or not. All that I know is that this is what I am moved to express and this is what I am moved to share. That is enough for me. That is enough to give my life meaning, greater meaning than I have ever known before. Something magic happened fifteen years prior to yesterday. Consciousness broke through into my life in a way that had never happened before. I became something more than I had ever been, and it changed me forever. Looking back, what difference has it truly made? There are several million words of expression that did not exist prior to that day. However, I am probably the only one who has read most of these words. What does that say? Clearly, consciousness is prolific. However, though I have been moved to share the expression by creating and maintaining a Beyond Imagination website, and by self-publishing nine books, it is not clear that much communication and sharing has actually occurred. That is OK. I did what I was moved to do. It is for the universe to determine the consequences of our actions. That does not mean that I am not responsible. It is just that my nature is not to push to get my way. I'd rather let nature take her course. Consciousness has a plan and knows what is right in any situation. Our role is to play our part and do what we are moved to do to the best of our ability. What happens as a result is not in our hands, though often we try to reach certain outcomes. For some, this seems to work. They are able to set goals, and work to achieve those goals. That is not my way. And, that does not seem to be spirits way. Life simply unfolds ... yet it unfolds in accord with an overall plan, general though it may be. 5

2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 How do we know when we are acting in accord with this plan of consciousness. We simply know. We find our place as naturally as a star is positioned in the heavens. When we operate with a pure heart, the course of action is obvious, there are no real choices involved. It is as if our life is destined. Then where does free will fit in? We still have to choose to do what we know to be right. Sometimes that is easy, at other time that is difficult. In general, however, when we go with the flow, when we allow consciousness to work through us, our lives truly work. And, we are touched by a sense of the miraculous. There is nothing that is too big for spirit to do. There is no obstacle that is too high for spirit to overcome. Spirit is vast, and her ways are strong but subtle. She does not force herself on us. She waits patiently for us to choose to allow her to come forth in our lives. We do this by inviting her in and by offering our talents in her service. Yes, this takes a leap of faith. No, we will not be possessed. Sometimes faith is more powerful than reason. This is one of those times. And, I don't mean faith in a religious sense. Here, we are speaking of faith in a spiritual sense. We are all spirit incarnate. We have been since we came into this existence and in many prior existences. Further, there is one consciousness that animates us all. We are all part of the same great SPIRIT. As spirit, there is no place for less than or more than. These are judgments that we make in error when we look at others and the world with various biases. They have no basis in fact. Yes, there are differences, even vast differences. But, variety is the spice of life, as they say. Differences can have greater or lesser utility under various circumstances. It is important for everyone to have a sense of whom that they are. That means knowing our strengths and how to apply them in service. Ideally, our work should employ these strengths since it results in everything being done better or more effectively. It does not make sense to force individuals into situations that put them at a disadvantage by playing to their weaknesses. But, who is responsible for helping to ensure this does not happen? And, why are we not given the tools needed to know ourselves in the education process? To me, this is downright criminal. It is not that there is a dearth of tools out there. There is a book, Who Are You, that discusses 101 tools/techniques for categorizing various aspects about people. It is very revealing. Most people have only been exposed to a handful of these. I would offer that by the time we finish high school, we should have a solid understanding of who we are, what we are good at, and what we are not good at. Knowing thyself should be the #1 objective of school. The #2 objective should be learning how to learn. The #3 objective should be preparing us to be of service in some way. It is not clear that the education system focuses on any of these. Why is that? How can what seems so obvious to me not be obvious to others? In general this is true not only about education, but about nearly every aspect of our lives. The #1 question should be how can we serve one another? We do this not only as individuals but as organizations. The organizations might be governments, companies, schools, stores, restaurants, churches, sports teams, or social groups of any kind. It is all about providing service. Unfortunately, profit motives can get in the way of this, forcing decisions that provide less than optimal and sometimes less than acceptable goods or services. It is not clear how to get beyond this without major changes to the rules in the economic game. The rules determine what behavior we reward and what behavior we punish. Somehow, we need to reward sharing and cooperation far more than we have ever done before. At some point, we need to become a classless society. That doesn't necessarily mean that everyone is equal and has the same things. Yes, they are equal, and everyone should live ini abundance. It is just difficult to see how to make that so at present. Part of the problem is that we have advertisers pushing us to consume, consume, consume regardless of the cost. We don't 6

2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 have an attitude of cooperation in ensuring that there are sufficient goods and services to meet all needs and that there is an efficient distribution mechanism supporting this. As far as I know, we don't even have people working on this. Why? Surely there are others out there that realize that something is inherently flawed and there must be a better way. 10 March 2008 Took a few days off for the weekend as usual. One of these days I'm going to start musing from home again as well. That's OK. We're here now, ready to express what consciousness would express through us. We never know exactly what that will be until we allow it to flow forth. That too is OK. Consciousness has a way of moving us to express what must be expressed in the moment. In this endeavor, there is no future and no past ... there is only now. That is the way that I like it. There is a sense of spontaneity in this, an enthusiasm and energy that I am addicted too. Yes, that is the right word ... addicted. But, not in any negative way. It is more like the air that we breathe, or the fluids that we drink, or the food that we eat. Yes, it is that fundamental to my existence. It wasn't always this way. But it has been for 30 percent of my existence. That is a lot of time to express. Some years have been much more prolific than others. 1993 and 1994, then 1998, then 2002 and 2003. and perhaps now in 2008 again. It seems that the cycle turns every 4 to 5 years. I don't know why ... it just does. In between these highs, there can be lulls with fewer than a dozen musings in a whole year versus a dozen musings in two weeks. That too is OK. What needs to come forth, comes forth in its own timing. Besides, it doesn't seem to matter much. There is a limited audience for this expression. Or, at least, there has been a limited audience to date. How do we change that? How do we get this expression in the hands of those who are meant to be moved by it? Is that something that is in my job jar to do? I would like to see it happen. I believe that many of the ideas herein are of a nature that they could change the world in positive ways. This is by far the greatest work that I do in my life. Nothing else even comes close. Then, why is this not the work that I do to make a living? Good question. It seems that our spiritual work should be this, it should be our livelihood. But, what is the service that I provide here? What is the service that spirit provides through me? And, if it is spirit doing the work, then why should it not be free. I am perfectly capable of holding down a job to earn an income. Were we not directed to "render unto Caesar what is Caesar’s and unto God what is God's". I would live a life of spirit. But, I don't want to get bogged down in how to turn that to my financial gain. The reward for living a life of spirit is abundance in all realms ... physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual. However, we have to live the life first, and then the reward will come as a natural byproduct. That is just the way it is. We have to invest ourself in something greater than ourself. That doesn't mean sacrificing who we are in any way. But it does mean being open and honest in how we conduct ourselves and being willing to share whom that we are with others. For those of us that are introverts, and extreme ones at that, this can be difficult. But there are ways to share without having to be extroverted about it. This very expression is one such way. My hope is that it will find its way into hearts where it will have meaning. Via my example, I hope to show you what one consciousness can do. I hope to introduce you to a world that you never knew you never knew. This is Wayne's World. Welcome to my world.

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it is enough to fill nine books. In doing so. Some might be similarly impressed by some of the major cities on Earth. my sense is that it requires an enlightened society to manifest this. believing in the basic contract from each in accord with their abilities. I am a communist at heart. No country has even built the right infrastructures to enact this contract. That is the first time that I've done this this year. I would not complain. Grand Canyon. the whole world is better off. And yes. I am on a high today.. Bryce Canyon . I don't know why that is.. my sharing has conditions. Nearly all of it is available at the Beyond Imagination site.. to each in accord with their needs. and find a way to share of their goods/services with others in fair exchange for that value. this time from home for a change. it is also more than the 6-10 that I have had in particularly lean years. Yes. Though. There have been several days like this of late. crowds and crowded conditions are not my thing. I'm thinking of places like Yosemite. no matter how many times I have read it before. There is a great aspect of trust involved.. there are spiritual things found elsewhere as well. 11 March 2008 Another day to muse. I see it as a feature of how my mind functions . I don't know why that is. The bottom line is to never take more than you give. It is hard to experience some of the wonders of creation and not be awestruck by their magnificence. though these pale to me by comparison. At least. Why else would I engage in doing this for literally thousands of hours in my life? How many people do anything other than watch TV or talk for that long? Yet. I only ask that those who find the work to be of value. this contract may be closer to our grasp than ever before. Yes. an enlightened society .2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 Clearly. That is a far cry from the 300 plus in 2002 and 2003. we create a surplus and if we distribute this surplus efficiently to those who need it. there can be spiritual things found in most religions. even within us. And perhaps it is.. This requires letting go of the sense of being in charge of our life and allowing something greater to take hold and move us. Then again. That doesn't mean that it can't be done. Literally. Sequoia. 8 . There is no place and no time where spirit is not present. That is how important I consider what we have expressed. I don't ask to be paid directly for what I have been moved to share. even in the very place where you sit and stand. I would not take even an hour of it back. Generally. I can hardly wait! Most people think of religion when we talk of spiritual things. decide what value it has. I was surprised that I mused at least 25 times last year. trust in the unseen realms of consciousness and how she expresses. indeed spirit moves through these lands. However. There is something about the immediacy of the expression that comes to mind. at such times I am moved to come here to express or to read what has been expressed before. I speak in simple terms. it is all around us. You might consider it to be a defect of memory. So yes.. However. such is how it has been in my life. My mind needs to be blank to allow this communication to come forth. a feature that may be one of the reasons that this expression can come forth as it does. so. Though. There is a profound sense of peace and reverence in these natural tabernacles. I can't believe that I am alone. and the other National Parks in this country. The spiritual can be found anywhere. It would have been even more if I had not stopped generating them because so few people were buying them. But. It is always new to me. Yellowstone. that is what the Aquarian Age brings. it takes a major leap of faith to recognize here and start to do her bidding. That is fortunate. Looking at my files. There may have been more because I muse on different computers.

And even then. That leaves 0. Can it really be that near? That would put me at the 5/7ths point in my life. a time when ideals can take root and thrive.285714 to go. What are we moved to do next? We never really know until it happens. What does matter is whether the way I am has utility in allowing me to be who I would be and do what I would do. friends and at most a few dozen acquaintances. The simplest expression of that contract is: from each in accord with their ability. We are on the brink of a new age. And. what does it take to manifest such foundations? For one thing. So simple to say. However. me. Yes. That is always enough. But. even as I say that. the age of Aquarius. this smacks of communism. I've been there at multiple times in my life. That is the prime benefit of capturing this expression in this manner.714285. If not. That something seems to have to do with partitions of seven. it will come to me when the time is right. I am not getting it at the moment. I am anxious. to each in accord with their needs. I would be a world transformer. it is time for that to change .. The bigger part demands a collective endeavor to create the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh. it is time for me to change. Consciousness will see to that. It is blank a lot. There is a saying to the effect that: only a fool believes that he will produce a different outcome doing the same things in the same ways. There is something about immediately forgetting what comes forth that allows this stream of consciousness to go on as it does. there is a record that I can go back to whenever I so choose. How can I know that? I just know what I experience. One who has few. it is well worth it. Yes. This contract guarantees that each individual contributes the most that they can to society in return for having their needs met. It seems that I have got in a rutt. and spiritual. What message do I have to offer the world? That there is a better way to be. But. it only lasts while I hold onto it. But. and I expect that to last no more than another 20 years. I have had a few major breakthroughs over the years since 1993. I believe that the blankness actually facilitates this expression. Fortunately. It doesn't matter why I am as I am anymore. 9 . Needs occur in four areas: physical. it is still fleeting. That is something new for me. it is time to change. That is 0. That is good. To date. However. That fact that no society that I know of has succeeded in implementing this contract doesn't mean that there is anything wrong with it. it is only something we can partially achieve alone. emotional.. we need a social contract between and among us as a society. I can only do what I am moved to do when I am moved to do it. Oh well. I do not know. a better way to live. Yes.. I've been there for awhile. My hope is that it will happen during my lifetime. How can that be? How can I live such an isolated existence and dream to be a world transformer? Perhaps that is the irony of whom that I am. even if it is for my eyes only.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 Oh well. Just 14 words. There is something special about this. the times are different now. And then. or a century or more . mental. thinking about what may come. a few decades. The Michael material had a lot of this. Though. What results from that will manifest soon enough. Yes. I can't help feeling that the expression could serve others and perhaps the world as well. it is communism in its purest sense. Whether that will be in a few years. there is a sense that I welcome change now in a way that I have never done before. I have to re-read what comes forth to make it present in my mind. It always does in my life. for a total of 32:I AM Race and 28:The Man with the World in His Hand = 60 letters. Though. Though. it seems that nothing has even come close. What must be expressed will be expressed.. Indeed. my mind is characteristically blank as well. if any.

I just may not be around to see them happen. After all. is responsible for this expression. Though. I forgot how positive of an impact it has on my life. there is feedback in many of the popular songs. there is still a sense that I would prefer to operate behind the scenes. it seems that is not for me to decide.. one must have conviction and the ideas and ideals to back that conviction. something that I just allowed to happen. I can rationalize now and say that this is part of what got me here. And. is that truly why? Or. It is not that I don't like being in the limelight and getting recognition at times. Why is that? Why have I chosen to live essentially as a hermit? This just seemed to be a natural course for me. With the exception of some timings for events that I had a vested interest in. That is definitely enough. To dream of what could be and to build the foundations to allow it to manifest. it is not clear that any of this would have manifest. That the expression is coming forth again is exciting. but most of it. but that is unlike any warrior that you have ever met. there is a sense that I am empowered to influence that now. without consciousness. It is her that is doing these musings. I know that they will. The news is foreign to me. I do not really have any close friends . So.. The world overall seems to be singing a different tune. Are these words of a nature that they could impact others in ways that ultimately change the world? I would hope that the answer is yes. However. Do I believe what is expressed here? Yes. My solitary nature has allowed me to do things that others do not do. Consciousness. every nerve and sinew within me says that it is. Perhaps not every word. She is the muse in my life. These experiences set me apart. But. No. I have come to accept that. It is what it is. But.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 So. From the beginning. the world is not typically something that I listen to. Though. True society involves taking interest in one anothers lives and choosing to do things that provide service to one another. I welcome change in my life. I have said that it is the source within that expresses here. an impact that has ripple effects into all aspects of my life. to read a lot of metaphysical books since 1974 and to engage in the Beyond Imagination expression since 1993. I have found her to be exceptionally accurate. It makes me wonder why the expression stops . It is enough to know that I did what I could to express and to share that expression. that is not it. Though. Why is my existence so isolated? Because I prefer it to be that way.. that 10 . Change is good.. I would be a spiritual warrior . is it that I must create the very society in which I would choose to live? That seems to be closer to the truth. I am happier and more energetic overall. Is that really enough? Yes. When I am expressing. I have not had this sense before. Does that mean any of the ideals expressed will indeed come to pass? Deep down. television shows. It is simply that I prefer to operate in the realm of ideas and use the written word as my sword. I do that to some degree at work and to some degree with my wife and dogs at home. definitely. I am responsible as well as a cocreator. and especially for months at a time. herself. That is a good feeling to have.. Perhaps. and movies that demonstrate that the spiritual is taking root stronger than it has ever done before. I choose to not make it part of Wayne's World. is far more than I know myself to be. Oh. In particular. something is new now. But. or for that matter any real friends at all. Often.. Why? Because it has come forth through me? No. I'm OK with that. what does it take to be a world transformer? Clearly. there has been a sense that I could trust her. I truly believe that to be true. is there a fear of living in society? Or. This source while within me. New is good.

It is not clear what I can do about it. I'm sure that does not surprise you. That it is so is a fact. How that can be is a mystery. That is just the nature of the medium. In that time. I would be a philosopher king as in Plato's Republic.. I trust consciousness that much. and will explore it to the degree that they are moved. I treat others with respect. Unfortunately. And. but to be open to do more should the opportunity present itself. And further. 13 years ago. It definitely is mind-expanding and consciousness-expanding. it is her that I bow to in my life. Those who are meant to find the site will indeed find it. Consciousness has a way of surprising me. but I don't bow to 11 . Oh well. Never. You almost have to know what you are looking for to find Beyond Imagination pages. Is there anything that I can do to hasten this destiny? The immediate answer is that I am doing what I must do . Also.. This expression is my resume in a way. Nor does it matter.. there is also an inner sense that I should be doing more to enable others to find the site. a spiritual destiny. this expression is my guiding star. I feel that the world would be a far better place if we all did this. So. it is not clear that society is yet ready for such. How is it that I am not sharing in person what I consider to be the best that I can be? Good question. I consider myself to be of that ilk. It demonstrates what spirit can do through me. Though. She brings forth material that is fresh and new … often including things that I never knew. no one else sees this side of me. searches on Google and various search engines for certain key words and phrases resulted in an abundance of hits. The WWW has grown tremendously since the mid-90s and this is no longer the case. My time will come. It would be good to make this a habit. Until then. 12 March 2008 This makes two days in a row expressing from home. I have no reason to believe that what has come forth to date cannot continue to come forth indefinitely. Why? Because that is whom that I am and that is why I came to this existence. and I bow to the spirit within them in the spirit of the term namaste . just different. but that is not the way of source. we will do what we can do. But. I can deceive myself at times. As I say that. That is OK.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 does not make me better . This expression forces me to develop a framework of being that is inclusive of all that I experience. But. How would someone know that material such as this exists and is freely available? What would they search for to find it? At one time. By now.. That can be a difficult process at times. I would not be doing it if I did not like it. It is a destiny that I gladly choose to manifest. and possibly over a hundred thousand. perhaps the self-imposed isolation has contributed to the overwhelming desire to share this expression with others.... It is what it is. She would not lead me astray. I know that this is primarily the work for the philosophers among us. I take know thyself as a sacred directive. Something seems wrong about that.. We created the Beyond Imagination website in 1995. It is where I come to tune into source. As far as I know. In the meantime. I trust source that much. I consider this to be the most important and meaningful part of my life. we have had tens of thousands of page hits. it is unique in what it presents. but that will probably have to wait until after a couple of business trips and a planned vacation at the end of the month. and to be whom that I truly am. There is no way to know for certain. I can wait as long as it takes. Further. what would be expressed tonight? I'm open to anything as usual. There is a sense that a destiny is unfolding before my eyes . come forth more deeply and abundantly.

Here. To some degree that is what planning is all about.. That is not the same as me expressing. but not a sufficient one. and I have been around nearly 50 years. That is. I don't consciously have to deal with it. there is an order and organization that is somehow constructed in an unseen realm. I also consider myself to be a hermit . without me this expression would not manifest. So. And. at the same time. Though. Words are able to be brought forth spontaneously in a way that they have never been brought forth before. I didn't have any rationale for creating a different order than the linear one in which the passages had come forth. I still consider this expression to be special. What will come of it remains to be seen. and very limited editing. I don't know what that is. I believe that I am good at it and that it is something that I am destined to do. other than work. that indicates that something major is still missing in my life.. To me. I just know that I have not experienced it yet. it has always come forth in a linear fashion. there are always more available to come forth. The sense is that consciousness will ensure that the material has whatever impact it is meant to have. I am also a quiet person. The one time when I tried to reorganize the passages on consciousness. I just allow it to flow forth as it will. even for years. There has been no re-writing. I consider myself to be a gentle person.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 them as individuals. preferring my own company to the company of others. I must admit. Outcomes are in consciousness hands. Where will I be one year from now? That is an interesting question that I don't remember asking before. Is there something we can do in the present that dramatically alters what is manifest in that future? The sense is that yes there is.. this is not really speaking. Our best is always enough. That does not mean that common themes are not expressed multiple times. or best passages. at times I have been bored as well. it is not something that we have to beat ourselves up about. this is always done by eliminating pieces of the expression and retaining the original order. source fills my mind with what she would express. one who speaks infrequently. For the most part. But. I absolutely LOVE doing this. except for this expression. Further. I just couldn't do it. When we love something. there is not much that I do in my life. I am a necessary vehicle. best of notes. it makes all the difference in the world. Life is too short to live in boredom. But. There is something about a stream of consciousness that is miraculous. much less the next year. Even when I choose best quotes. no reordering. Our job is to do our best at what we are moved to do. a peaceful person. my mind is blank. Why can't we live in this magical realm all of the time? Indeed. I tend to live in the present. what can I do about it? What can I do that would make me want to jump out of bed in the morning to greet each new day rather than hit the snooze button on the alarm and struggle much of the morning to stay awake? The bottom 12 . why can't we? It is all a matter of attitude and awareness. planning is not something that I engage in either at work or in my personal life. the choices we make in the present create the changes that ultimately determine the destination at a future time. express here. no matter how many words I tap. not knowing what I am going to do the next day. Since the beginning of the Beyond Imagination expression. and watch TV and movies . and a host of forces are engaged to assist us in doing our work. We should be doing what comes naturally for us and we should be doing it because we love it. The quantity and quality of our output are unsurpassed. It is definitely not speaking my mind. But. I much prefer the immediacy of living life in the moment. Then again. We live in a magical realm.. And. But. It is as if there is a river of words that I am able to tap. Even since then. Most people would probably find my life boring. I did as well prior to the awakening experiences that began in 1993.

Interesting. I get to allow the unknown enter into my experience. source and me. Being good at expressing here is not enough. Though. It seems that source is not able to express things until I am ready to realize them at some level. there is plenty of discord and disharmony in the world . Though. I still need my share of private time. I have to relinquish control for source to be able to manifest in this way. Yes.. Here.. something wonderful. I do not believe that what I call source is another aspect of me. experiencing. That is why I can read it over and over again and find it fresh each time. but this is not my preferred way of working. This is bound to change me. No. I am the 48:The Man in Search of More. We are spiritual 13 . I know it to the very core of my being. I have no doubt concerning that. I get to commune with source. Often the expression has many levels. there is no sense that I am giving anything up. She seems to be far grander than that. a sense that there is something more that I could be exploring. they are spiritual . Though. There is something special in that. it feels good to be doing this on a regular basis once again. a different life? Being good at my job is not enough. that will probably be the end of the streak. interacting far more with others than I have ever done before. we just have fleeting thoughts in our minds. things work. to be a belief. We'll have to see what manifests as a result. beliefs are that powerful.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 line is that my life is not what I would have it be. I have said before that there is only ONE consciousness that animates us all. What I do makes a big difference as well. Here. it seems that I am willing to accept far more change than ever before. Quite the opposite. Though I am quite good at taking in the big picture in that immediate view. But.. and the nature of my memory anyway. How much change am I willing to accept in my life? Of late. That is why there is such incredible cooperation operating behind the scenes to manifest all that we experience. This is bound to change things. but overall. It is not a matter or waiting and seeing. we must be willing to act in accord. that is all that matters. Yes. Thoughts only have power when we choose to act in accord with them. I may be able to muse at work tomorrow. But. It doesn't matter that I am not in control of the process. That is one of the reasons that I find it so attractive and enticing. The universe is a supportive place. We just need to choose to live in a manner that keeps us in her good graces. Yet. In fact. I consider engaging in this expression to be quality private time . how do I change that? What do I do differently that yields a different experience. Unfortunately. each to be revealed in its own time. Perhaps there will always be a sense of dissatisfaction in my life. This expression is clearly the highlight of my day.. I'm starting to work in different ways in my job. That. I can also work the details. especially the unknown realms of consciousness. even though I am not doing it alone. The freedom of belief is the greatest freedom that we have. Anyway. At this point. Why is that? Me and source. I welcome the changes wholeheartedly. A host of forces is employed to ensure that our reality corresponds to our beliefs. Otherwise. My consciousness deals with the immediate. 13 March 2008 And then there was three. That too is true. The unknown has a prominent place in my existence... are ONE. Engaging in this expression expands me in many ways. Our true riches are not material. and expressing. the sentence about our being ONE is true. It is one freedom that cannot be taken from us. they are of consciousness.

in particular. 14 . But. But. In some respects. Being aware is extremely empowering. the nature of reality. At some point. But. religions can address that to some degree. Further. and. Some of them are even bestsellers. we will reach a critical mass. especially conscious reality creation. What could possibly be more important? It is not that sufficient material is not out there. I don't remember a single course that taught me anything about beliefs. Closing in on 50. In war. it is easy to get lost and forget who we truly are. Actually. I happen to like whom that I am. Buddhism comes closest to what I believe. from an economic standpoint. However. Reality creation is a powerful art . But. that is just whom that I am. Then again. namely the companies that provide the weapons systems and the supplies.. we don't seem to be near that point yet. no one wins. I have not studied comparative religion and have limited exposure to the sacred texts of the various religious traditions. that is just how I am .. the education system for the most part does not help us to remember. even at that. It takes a heightened degree of awareness to wield it properly. When will such teachings be brought into the mainstream? They have been hidden and occult for far too long. But. It helps to truly realize this and to act as the spiritual beings that we are. And. Yes. We can manifest the reality that we desire. there are also a whole lot more people in the world than there were even 20 years ago. That doesn't detract from our true nature as spirit. and some do so better than others.. However. I believe that there are others like me who can benefit from where I have been .... So. not really the companies. My nature is such that I had to find one of my own. they are reaching a relatively small percentage of the population. there is something grandiose in believing that. It is all a matter of finding the appropriate ideals. That is changing. I anxiously await where that will lead. Religions may come and go but the spiritual within us is eternal. From what I can tell..2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 beings first and foremost. The world is resource rich. and mental experience. can benefit from what source has expressed through me. The times ahead are exceedingly bright. Most people don't want war. we do a poor job of applying those resources to what we want. but not religion. or reality creation. but the primary shareholders in those companies.. I would consider these to be extremely important to everyone. One reason for that is to prevent misuse. Personally. a relatively few profit from ravages of war. we cannot act in any other way. The world is what we choose to make of it.. the nature of consciousness. I am finally coming of age in a way that I have never done before. But that is not an enlightened perspective. emotional. Yes. I have no room for religion in my life. We just happen to be in the midst of a physical. there are winners . believing them enough to apply the resources to manifest them. collectively. In most cases. but collectively we expend a great deal of resources on military might and weapons. or at least they have the potential to be. I would not trade my experience for anyone’s. neither the victor nor the vanquished. The spiritual is foremost . Yet. and enjoying the social infrastructure that is rightly ours. At one time the theme might makes right characterized the world.. There are more people being reached than ever before. I prefer the freedom of not following any of the known paths to God. belief management. These topics deal with the core of how we manifest our reality. What does this reflect about the collective psyche? Why do we resort to such damaging behavior to attempt to resolve disputes? War is clearly the ultimate in LOSE/LOSE interactions. How we actualize that potential is up to us. There are a number of good metaphysical books that address these topics. We have reached a point in time where awareness is evolving and expanding more rapidly for greater numbers than it has even done before.

Do we all have an innate sense of right and wrong? If so. I'm motivated again. We really do have awesome powers at our fingertips. changed in major ways. For. because I am changed by what comes forth. That does not make me their creator. And. We have to go from thinking what's in it for me to thinking what's in it for us? We have to become the WE generation rather than the ME generation.. we need to meet the collective needs of all of us. creator implies a more conscious awareness of what is being done. That is good. we need to find ways to ease the burdens for all. why are our prisons so full of criminals? Why is there so much abuse? Why do so many companies neglect their ethical responsibilities for financial gain? Clearly. We have to include consideration of the impact on the collective as well as the impact to us when we make decisions and choices. and there was plenty of hatred and racism rampant in the country. to me. that was the time of the civil rights movement. Here. What can I say . you don't control the ocean. there is no rationale that justifies not doing what we know to be right. But John Lennon's words come to mind: All we are saying is give peace a chance. sharing all the world. I find her works to be wonderful to behold. That doesn't mean neglecting our needs. But then. the world seems much more hostile than it was in the 50's and 60's. That has to be enough. these challenges can be downright oppressive. Such things help us to learn who we really are and of what we are capable of doing. For some. We are meant to have challenges and obstacles to overcome. I am a biased participant in bringing them forth. literally allowing more light or spirit to flow through us to do grand works in the world. We are all the creators of our own reality. What can I say. The saying: you shall know them by their works definitely applies here. Perhaps such times have never existed. It is indeed an ocean. I only know what she is able to express through me. They just do. Change is good. There is an inner connection to source that I am somehow able to tap. Though I have been know to be quite stubborn and set in my ways at times.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 we know what the right thing to do is. over four years. gentler place. I know not. Don't get me wrong. my nature is what it is. What this "source" is. This requires lightening up. Often. 14 March 2008 Four in a row! It has been some time since that happened. or more correctly via our 15 . We are all grand by creation. That is enough for me. But. It is a matter of having the courage to do it. We had a slump from 2004 through 2007. And. Though. I am more of an active observer. Rather. as we get our individual needs met. We have to live from a knowingness that there is always enough for all of us. There may be some places that are not nearly as safe as they could be. Overall the world is a good place. Collectively. Truly. the world could be a kinder.. Though some people become quite adept at surfing and harnessing the energy that is there. I don't believe there has been a time during my lifetime when the world has truly been at peace. This can be difficult at times. try though I might. Life is meant to be an adventure. Active. How do we go from competing to cooperating and sharing? It requires a mindshift. The change is definitely welcomed. Is that what I do here? Is this a sort of surfing with the soul? I don't know how to explain it. I don't know why the downcycles come. this could make a dramatic difference in our collective experience. All that I can do is ride the wave of consciousness. Another line from the song Imagine comes to mind: Imagine all the people.

Simply respecting others and being kind to them is a service. or spiritually. There is always a way to use these differences to advantage. But. aggression. something that gives of whom that we are to help create abundance in the world.. a time of coming together. In 25 days. One hour of our time is less than a tithe. I do not know what. it is good to deviate from the norm at times. Being a stream of consciousness. This. To date. There is nothing else but spirit . even to extremes if that suits our temperaments. and soul are simply different densities in expression. we provide the most service when we are doing things that we love to do that we also do well. mind. is good. or possessions. literally half a century old.. For in the end. Here is where I get to touch the unknown in my life. that count. I would not be as another. In one respect. the unknown is an interesting place to be. poverty. But. There is something about this expression that is classic. Then why are they manifest so abundantly? What does it take for the new age to be born? We've been on the threshold of a dream for decades. There is something magical about that. this has been a one way expression: from source through me to you. Generally. and hearts. I've always considered myself to be an old soul. the works. minds. 16 . a time of change. Here is where I get to stand on the very edge of sanity. this expression has been my "service". if any. Also. Here. There is a reason that tithing has power in a society. and it is still a mystery. OK. or time. We already receive compensation for that service. it is all spiritual stuff. Feedback is extremely important. not just to us but to society. Body.. We can be of service to family. The service that we are talking about here goes above and beyond what we do in our jobs. nothing. it is a good place to be. Because of this. Though. just imagine how much effort for good would be unleashed in the world. I suspect that it will always be so.. And. We can tithe money. Everything is spirit in expression. We are meant to serve in some manner. that remains to be seen. I was born two years before the 60's began. I freely share what comes forth here. there is no one that wants these things. Thus far. emotionally. the expression is unilateral. there is so much about the expression that is a mystery. It is good to ask whom did I serve and how did I serve them each and every day. If we all spent just 1 hour per day doing this. Unfortunately. I've been doing this for over 15 years. it can be scary at times. From another standpoint.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 souls. despair? Surely. perhaps even a transcendental one. a time of revolution. mentally. impact I am having on others or the world. strife. society in any number of ways. heart. Service is about finding needs and filling them. What makes me think that it is any good? The only answer is what I get from reading it time and time again. via our bodies too. there has been limited feedback resulting from that sharing. it did not come to pass. why is spirit having such a difficult time manifesting these days? Why is there so much war. It seems that I am reaching an age where what wisdom I have gained needs to be applied in service to society in some way. At least. special groups. It is through feedback that we get inputs that can help us to know how to adjust our course to get a better outcome. a time of dreaming of what a peaceful world could be. So is helping others who may be in need physically. Then. But. That was a time of hope. I am whom that I am. I tend to neglect that far more than I should. We are all unique. It comes forth without prompting and without any organization on my part. this is a practice that we should all engage in if we truly want to build a better world. too. I'll turn 50 . it is the service. it is original as far as I can tell. and it is our differences not our similarities that make us stand out as whom that we are. Unlike in the Conversations with God works by Neale Donald Walsch where there is a dialog between Neale and God. What we are asking for here is a little more. friends.

we express what we can when we can.. I set my own schedule. To a large degree. Everything is spontaneous. Can I imagine doing something more. That is demanding a lot from this expression. I spend a lot of time working on my own. and pretty much do things that I want to do. even for people that I see often. with the exception of meetings.. There is no doubt.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 What makes me able to express such ideas in this way? I don't really know. Oh well. could be more. How can I not remember something that I had such an intimate role in creating? That is just the way it is. not in any way. nothing is labored . Indeed. They deal with a realm that is far from my reality. How can that be. It doesn't recall specifics. I am not 17 . there appear to be no maps and no plans to get from here to any desired destination. 16 March 2008 Another day. It took in what it needed. It is not like a computer memory at all. assuming that I ever did. it seems that we will miss the next three days due to a business trip. It is the opposite of photographic. One could do far worse than trusting in spirit. What about the need to question? I ask more questions now than at any time in my life. I don't know how to get it to compensate me well enough to do full time. Yes.. even if I do not. I build an immediate context in which there is enough information for me to act and create value as an information worker. it is like that in my work as well. Change still seems to be a major theme for the current times. It knew what to do. how can we be sure it is spirit moving us in this manner? The bottom line is that we just know. I rarely recall images at all. I would live life as I am moved to live it in the moment. How do I do that without any plans and without applying effort in accord with those plans? The alternative is to do what I am moved to do when I am moved to do it . I have read a lot of metaphysical books. In my life. There is a sense of dissatisfaction with my life as it is.. But there is a strong sense that what comes forth from source is the greatest truth that could be expressed through me at the time. At least a tolerable one. There is a sense that I could do more. I would create the foundations for a new world. and sinker. That is. There is some reason that I am still here. We only missed one day after all. That is OK. Interesting. Plans are foreign to me. but I would be hardpressed to tell you what was in any of them. Where it will take us. trusting that spirit herself is doing the moving and that she knows what she is doing. I prefer it that way. to the very core of our being. Names are nearly impossible to remember. That sense has been there for some time. However. That is not to say that I buy everything that is expressed hook.. that is an interesting way to live. In my younger years. yes! But. My mind has always functioned automatically. I thought a lot. I'm not even sure that I know what thought is anymore. But. deep within. determine my own tasks.. But. I don't remember what is expressed from one line to the next. I allow her to express through me as she will. I would describe my memory as horribly bad. That puts me in control of what I do. No doubt . But spirit. but I don't really do that any more. I have only a vague remembrance of what I have read. That is true even of this expression. That makes for a decent job for me. By the time I put down a book. line. Yet. There is something more that I can learn.. I do not question. Though.. much less from paragraph to paragraph. 15 years have shown that source can come through nonetheless. my life operates on a high degree of trust in spirit. and it output what was required of it. it still functions in that way. perhaps even for my entire life. another musing. remains to be seen. or musing to musing. I don't consider this expression to be a product of thought .

my experiences were not similar to that of the other patients. something about the process of sharing is lost. I was put on medications that I take to this day. It is by far the most important event in my life. One reason for that seems to be that happiness comes from sharing life. I don't know that I have ever been depressed. The onset came in the summer of 1993. we are all grand as souls in flesh. I experience all of this as being part of a spiritual awakening. Two decades is a long time.. Further still. in my 35th year. And. when? After all. it was. It felt as if everything that I had ever dreamed was on the verge of happening in my life. I only knew that I loved what I was experiencing for the first time in my life. isn't it about time? This expression is shared between consciousness and me. The sharing is anonymous except for the few cases where feedback is provided. I've tried going off the medications twice. and had no clue what was really happening to me. much of the time happiness eludes me. the sense is that they are necessary. It is simply how my mind functions. I care deeply about the world. I had no signs or symptoms of this before then. There is a strong sense that I can only do a small part of my work in isolation. I expect my life span to be roughly another 20 years. I was shocked by the lack of awareness of the medical staff regarding what I was going through. This requires infrastructures that allow people to discover and be the best that they can be. I consider the birth of the Beyond Imagination expression a spiritual birth. only to return to a manic state that required hospitalization again. It is for me to do what it takes to allow them to manifest through me.. but not much about more than a few individuals in the world. But. I don't do much of that. they are things that must be manifest. medications that alter my brain chemistry so that I can "function". Is that asking too much? Is it wrong to expect an ideal world to manifest? Is it wrong to dream big and shoot for the stars? Everything in me says no. Each time. these things are not wrong. Though. Actually. I have a wife and a few coworkers I care about.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 living my life to the fullest. Sharing requires having other people in your life and caring about them deeply. That would require giving up my hermit ways and I don't know that I am ready to do that. there has been a substantial amount of work done in that manner. not in the least. However. Yet. bipolar or manic-depressive illness. There have been several more spiritual awakenings since then. Without feedback. That in its own right is interesting. I consider myself grand by nature. and then to others via the WWW. The bulk of my spiritual work must be done in that time. 20 March 2008 18 . from what I could tell. I was flying very high. If I continue to express in this fashion throughout my life. By then. In retrospect. Yes. that smacks of grandiosity. the 15 years since the Beyond Imagination expression began have passed quickly. Though this time hospitalization wasn't necessary . And. reality did not play out as I had imagined. Or am I? If not now. but no friends or close associates. most of which involved brief stays in the mental hospital and months of recovery time. Though. the birth of Beyond Imagination will have occurred at roughly the half way point. But. It took about six months from the onset to get me to the hospital the first time. I cycle between moderately manic and "normal" for me. I was labeled with a disease. I would build the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully manifest in flesh. It was not always this way. just a couple trips to the doctor and a ten day disability. I don't know with whom this is shared. And. As far as I can tell. That is OK. Further. as a result. I've even gone highly manic while on the medications recently. such is how I've done most of my spiritual work to date.

It is a matter of offering ourselves in service to our fellow beings and the world. My spiritual work is still the crowning glory of my life. there are other cultures that are far more inclusive and considerate of others. The world has been consumed by selfish ways for far too long. WE deserve the very best collectively. her hands. Sacrifice generally involves a giving up of something. All else pales by comparison.. If there is something to do. right now. her mind. given how poor my memory is. attending to interrupts as they vie for my time. John Nash proved that it happens when the individual considers both his/her own interests as well as the interests of the group. Spirit needs willing vessels through whom to express. Most of these. reacting to things that come up as they come up. Fortunately. I am satisfied with what consciousness has been able to express through me. This gives me the freedom to set my own course. and further than we live in a time when it is inevitable. I try to keep my wants to a minimum. Ultimately. That is not what we are looking for here. The past is a brief remembrance. There is a sense that this will always be the case. 19 . We are her voice. Even at work. That means examining how our decisions and actions impact others before we make/do them. However.. Oh. Perhaps I am still to introverted for that. I truly live within a miraculous realm.. When we allow spirit to express through us. It is not something that comes natural in this country. Further. I've said before that I'm not a planner. even though we don't know in advance where it will ultimately lead. that has not happened. but the better ways involve the full expression of whom that we are. Some involve sacrifice of whom that we are. We are excited by the changes in store in the immediate future. We are her legs. Exceptionally brief. I would hope to create a utopia on Earth. It is amazing how much of my life is lived spontaneously versus deliberatively. That is good. In fact.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 We're not musing every day. her arms . I truly believe it is possible. The are things that are important. it is we who must do it. In general. I would have hoped to reach more people by now. however. This expression is the legacy that I leave for having lived.. And. but we are musing more often than we have since the peak output in 2002 and 2003. Ideas and ideals drive me. and wasteful of time and energy at worst. it is our actions that will ultimately make the difference in the world. I am excited by what lies ahead. I don't know exactly why that is. and doing what I determine to be of highest priority during the free times. That is a positive sign. That doesn't happen when each person optimizes their personal benefit. But. Though. That doesn't mean that this will not change in the future. despite all of the problems manifest in the world at this time. what we lack is the services that allow our needs to be met.. I retain in the moment . Will that ever change? It will if I want it to badly enough. Hmm . Rather. that was an interesting but unexpected answer. and her thoughts. since that is the best that I have to offer to date. Is that enough? The bottom line is that it has to be. There are many ways to be of service. I would have hoped to have found some kindred spirits with whom to develop close friendships. my day unfolds. we are looking for expressing the very best in us in a manner that is of some utility to others or the world. For many people this is an additional step that must be learned. it is not going to happen on its own. we welcome change in a greater fashion than we have ever done before. But. all things are possible. There is so much to do for the time that is available. Change is good. That is OK. Many processes are ineffective at best. I am not impressed by things very much. they are ever present in my life. My life unfolds miraculously. I work alone a good deal of the time.

the timing is premature for making my mark on the world.. as small as that is. No one in my circle of acquaintances. As a result. newsletters. I save my energy to express in 20 . Also. Promoting the site or the books is something that I have considered but have not been strongly moved to do. so that I could engage in what my spirit moves me to do far more frequently. And we are talking about major change here . my nature is primarily solitary. one that employs the best of whom that I am in return for getting the needs of my family met. Change is immanent now. even after 15 years of Beyond Imagination expression. Everything suggests that this has the makings of a good year. I've thought about alternatives . I wish that it were not so. my circle of acquaintances is so small that I've only reached a handful of people. But. I am not comfortable doing it.. But. the figure of $1 per word has come up as the value of this expression. In some areas. That is good. Right now.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 What would I do next? Work still occupies a good portion of my time. the kind that can really shake things up. both for this expression and for me. I don't know where to go to sell the expression at that price. a weeks labor in exchange for a weeks pay. I trust that something within will move me to do the right things at the right times. that is not enough. Yet. I am enjoying the journey. to be of the world. But. The desire is to be free of that contract. a benefactor. Posting material does not guarantee that it will be found by those who can be served by it. we must submit to some of the restrictions of living in the world. But overall.. for being able to witness and experience what I do in my life. It is already more than some entire years. I have to wonder what I am giving up in the bargain. In exchange.. Each day I learn more about whom that I AM. I could definitely live well on that. has expressed much interest in this aspect of my life. that means I'm limiting my opportunities. Though. I can feel it just on the horizon. self-publishing books does not guarantee that they will reach the audience to whom the books are intended. And. even though it has the potential of freeing me from the present economic struggle. I am grateful for being in my shoes. earning an income that is sufficient to live reasonably well is still important. I speak seldom and say little. Yet. books and even tried the later two. There is a contract of servitude that I have entered . I have been given many gifts. there is a sense that things are still as they are meant to be. Though. What does that say about the community in which I live my life? Most of my interactions with others occur at work. Sometimes the tedium gets to me. However. Yes. And. I simply do not know. I am incredibly fortunate and grateful. It has been awhile since I last experienced that. But. there are millions of words of expression posted at the Beyond Imagination site and available as Beyond Imagination books. I do whatever it takes. What I am comfortable doing is expressing here. and even there. and to the degree that I can I am moved to share these gifts in service. Each day that I muse. I consider it to be by far the most important aspect. Sometimes.. What happens next. this seems to be pushing things too hard. Many times here. I know not who other than me is served by any of this. I haven't figured out how to enact such a contract yet. I interact primarily when I have to. Yet. That is a start anyway. Somehow. consciousness reveals more to and through me. It is the one thing that I have returned to time and time again for over fifteen years. There is a sense of thrill and of adventure in not knowing what is to come next. my introverted nature has been so extreme that I am reluctant to even make contact with others.. 21 March 2008 This makes musing number 9 for the month and for the year. That does not mean that I am not bored at times. I am open for my reality to unfold as it will and as it must. I would enact a contract of service.

that is a lot to ask. it is only of utility if it serves others and the world somehow. for me it is more than just writing. At the very least. Indeed. There is something magical about the creativity and spontaneity of a stream of consciousness expression. it would be helpful to know that I was reaching someone other than me. If we don't know what is having good or bad effects. Yes. the Beyond Imagination works have been a one way expression. My way of sharing was to post most of the Beyond Imagination expression to a site on the WWW. Yours may be anything that you are particularly good at. in fact. it is increasingly on my mind that my time to act is limited. But. I am the lone recipient. we demonstrate how it makes a strong positive difference to us. That site has been in existence for 13 years and has had tens of thousands and probably in excess of one hundred thousand hits. Though. I am more than capable of having that kind of impact.. I need to do something of importance to the world. All that I have is what has been and what will be expressed through me. it is difficult to adjust our output to improve the results. it is an intuitive tap of sorts to a stream of words that then come forth. how do we take it the next step and ensure that this expression makes a difference .. But.. My legacy does not include physical children to carry on a bloodline... Actually. I didn't want to force the material on others. I've known in my heart all along that the material was original and good. I still feel that for my life to have the meaning that it is intended to have. Closing in on my 50th birthday... The key is how to make that happen. I remember the excitement and exhilaration of that pronouncement as if it were yesterday. This was partly because I felt awkward about doing it. what good does that do if it is not shared with others. it seems that it has been a silent expression. hits alone are not sufficient to show whether people are reading the material and whether it is making a difference in their lives. But.. Judging by the past 15 years. more correctly. a strong positive difference in the lives of others. Rather. I will have a legacy of on the order of 10 million words. a Gift from Spirit to the World. is not generally provided in society as far as I can tell.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 this forum. That is a shame. By my assessment. it suggests that my attempts to share and disseminate the material have failed miserably. I don't believe that says anything about the quality of the material that has come forth. For the most part. as far as I know. And. I made the Beyond Imagination expression a Gift from Spirit to the World over a decade ago. Or. at times. This did not happen in the way that I had hoped. I also remember that I felt that the release from that action would free the works to have their impact on the world. That makes it difficult to claim any of this as mine. I did not feel that this was my job to do. For much of the Beyond Imagination expression. I know that I can express abundantly. if it did. The old question . does it make a sound . Or. In addition. To date. But. that is what it is for me . because the lack of feedback disables the improvement process. But. what wonders can she bring forth through you? Creative expression is unlimited. 21 . That is a lot of expression for anyone.. I have no awareness of how the stream is generated. It is entering a state of consciousness where I am open to the source within coming into my mind through my intuition. To start with. and projecting that productivity out for another 20 years . Feedback. comes to mind. I am not aware of it happening. I can allow source to express through me abundantly.. this expression shows what consciousness is capable of. It truly knows no bounds. I only have about two decades left to leave my mark on the world. And. I still desire feedback and exchange of communication. positive or negative. My awareness is solely of being plugged into it. Writing happens to be my forte. if she can do this through me. Yes. Where it comes from is another question entirely. And. if a tree falls in a forest and there is no one there to hear it.

. To me. It impacts how I see the world. Hmm . I would not be doing it. That doesn't mean that things can't be different or better. that reason is generally positive in some way. I look for the embedded meaning in programs that demonstrate what level of spirit is being expressed. I trust that source with my very life. they show us a lot. Why should that be? Why should entertainment be such a major industry in society? You could answer that it gives us what we want. in that? Similarly. Yet. And. We are responsible not only for what we do. I question because I notice things that just don't seem to work elegantly or efficiently. This is unfair. the utility. nor religions. They show us that we have not accepted the collective responsibility for the well-being of each and every one of us. We have awesome powers to fashion individual and collective reality in whatever manners that we choose. But. Even when I watch TV. What do these teach us of whom that we are? They teach us a lot about the mass consciousness and what we as a society and world are willing to tolerate. there are others who are asking similar questions.. But. truly worth what we pay for it? Whose responsibility is it to address such questions? Clearly not government. We have an attitude within the economy of allowing whatever the market will bear. as fully as I can in each and every moment. are there enough people concerned to generate sufficient momentum to shift the status quo? Who am I to question such things anyway? I probably watch more than my share of TV and movies. homelessness. is its ultimate value. this experience is expanding and life-affirming for me. We allow advertisers to employ techniques in commercials that are known to cause us to act in predictable ways. Is this really a good thing? Does it not result in many of the problems that we face in society? Surely. As a systems engineer that is part of my training. what about illness. However. A single program can literally reach over 25 million 22 .. But. It gives us something. In fact. the vast majority is still in the dark. The commercials pay for nearly all of the shows on television. The creativity of the people creating the shows and the songs is somehow reflecting what the mass consciousness needs to experience. volunteering to serve as a channel for the source within to express through me. I would not be doing it. In fact. joblessness. They have been for years. nor the economy. if I am asking such questions from my limited interaction in the world. this is a sign that the mass consciousness is shifting. In doing that. Is my work life expanding and lifeaffirming? The immediate answer was NO. malnourishment. and despair. there is such awesome power in the mass media. It just means that everything has its purpose . Every aspect of my life is as it is for a reason. this was followed by the thought that if it were not. When will we find it within us to accept this collective responsibility? When will we learn that when we waste or fail to develop the talents of any one of us.. And. there is no sector of society responsible for such things. we choose to tune into it in large numbers for lengthy periods of time. The tools and techniques for enriching our lives and our world are out there. can I say the same for the other areas of my life.. but for what we choose not to do.. I am essentially giving up my life to be in her employ. Yet. Right now. both on TV and in the songs that I listen to on the radio. the world suffers. In turn. However. It is high time that our education systems and mass media found ways to teach this to us. And. but no one seems to be offering any alternatives. Is that true for everything? What about all of the hatred and violence in the world? What is the purpose. this means being here. there is no sense of losing anything in the process. its utility in our lives. I see far more than I have ever seen before . and for much of the programming on the radio. is that really true.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 I would be whom that I AM. is its service. If it were not. That doesn't mean that things can't be changed. Quite the opposite. actors and star athletes make huge salaries.

I was at my most productive levels both at work and in this endeavor yet was enjoying every minute of it. Some people become more free with age.. My wife is extremely enthusiastic about going. can I do that at work. Perhaps some exercise would help. That is just how it is most weekends. some of which can be downright scary. Everything seemed so immediate. I don't notice that others are having the same difficulty.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 people in this country alone. thinking we still have two decades to go. At 50. I'm just tired and lethargic in the mornings. it must be something that I am either doing or not doing.. So. For one week of that time. I also tend to be sedentary. But. both are still pretty healthy. others are starting to notice. I still basically have less than 10 channels that I choose from. body. and I need to do it soon. but it can also be exhausting and challenging. My diet still leaves a lot to be desired. there was effectively no time for anything else in my life. Oh well. Others become more wise and distinguished. But. There have been times in the past where this was not the case. travel is fun. Boredom has set in again. We're talking about doubling 23 . And. Though.. In general. There was something special about time then. and it is difficult waking up and staying awake in the morning at work. including new food. it seems each year the numbers grow and grow. Oh well. in my present job? I don't know what else I might do. The only thing I can think of is to make sure I get plenty of rest at night. I don't know what really changed that started this to begin with. The challenge is there for a reason. But. At one time in my life. Right now. I'm still very set in my ways overall. That is nearly an eternity. I felt that my work on the planet would be completed. what will I be like as I really grow old? Only time will tell. The years literally fly by these days. My mother is 75 and my father is 72 and other than my father suffering from Alzheimers. We muse when we are moved to muse. and heart. I am healthier than I have been in awhile. even extremely so. so it is not something that I can ignore. My 50th birthday is literally only two weeks away. It doesn't seem to be going away of its own accord. I don't know how one deals with that amount of choices. But there is nothing saying that I can't split it up and do some of it in the morning. Though. If I'm like this just shy of 50.. That's a lot of folks in a short period of time. I've reserved that until after work thus far. I have to find something to get excited about again. I did not think I'd make it past the turn of the century . My wife would call me stubborn. I have to do something different if things are going to change. what did I know? Here we are nearly a decade later. Some people remain young of mind. Both of my parents are still alive. that happens mostly during the work week. I'm only somewhat excited to be going. over four years ago. But. Some people have 100's. Travel exposes you to new things and new cultures . one right after another. try new things is all that I can do now. It seems that there are as many ways of aging as there are people. I expect to have another 18-20 years to live. But. Though. it is not like I'm making the most of my free time now. that can be difficult if it takes several hours at times to even fall asleep. I don't remember feeling this way when I was bathed in the glory of musing nearly every day. But. Perhaps I never will. One never knows how people will change over the years. It is hard to believe that those days are so far in the past already. 24 March 2008 Another weekend passed without musing. Though I do have a record of what 15 years of part time work can accomplish in the Beyond Imagination expression. that was in 2002-2003. I don't move around very much. I'll be on vacation in the South of France.

. Interesting. and change in major ways. When engaged in this expression. that does not seem to be something that can be forced. Then. On the other hand. I was just too tired to continue when I got home last evening. This later. If the source within can operate from an other than conscious realm and create all this in my life. For things to change in our lives. as things beyond my ability to question. more important than my connection with any human being other than myself and actually more important than that too. I have no sense of being the author.. We'll see if we can make up for that tonight. Each musing reveals things to me that I never knew that I knew. I believe 24 . That is probably the least that I've mused on any day that I've mused for quite some time. the hope is that we can turn this into a full time endeavor. This is a connection that I respect. I believe that I am ready for this to change. I do not know. How can I know that? It is obvious to me. I only know that I strongly desire that it be so. that is by my choice . The process is still one of the biggest mysteries in my life. She is the source of the millions of words of Beyond Imagination expression. then what can she create in your life? This expression speaks volumes about the nature of consciousness and the nature of spirit expressing in flesh. If only there were an audience larger than one to witness this. But. we must change. I observe it happening through me. yes. The pace is good tonight. how is it to change? How can I expect things to change if I continue to stay the same? It just doesn't work like that. perhaps even revere.. I am intimately aware of the process. Even part time. There is no other way. they come forth in declarative form. it is what it is. I feel no compulsion to contribute to making it happen other than to continue to express and share what is expressed through me. Does that mean that I'll be more outgoing and less introverted? Probably not. what is she . no. perhaps I never will. and perhaps by my very nature. my consciousness is necessary as a co-creator. 25 March 2008 Only 740 words yesterday. Here consciousness is able to express through me as she can do nowhere else.. Does that make any difference? On the one hand. And. I regard it as the most important connection that I have made in my life to date. But. I just know that such is the nature of my connection to the source within. You never really know how much will be expressed on a given day until it comes forth. Oh. My body and mind are instruments through which the muse plays her music and sings her song. But. that is a lot of work to do. She is my deepest friend and companion by far. where has it gotten me? I still live a very isolated life with the exception of the time I spend in communion with consciousness herself. of originating all of this. In fact. the source within is that important in my life... in the millions of words that have come forth. Judge it solely based on its utility in your life. what is this source within? I don't know that I will ever know. that has been true for over 15 years.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 that and adding another 5 years. And. When that might be. that I know. that I can impart to others? If I have not expressed that by now. the expression is fresh and new. as statements of fact . those and creating the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh. It is great to be in the flow! What is there that I've learned. But... And. But. But. The sense is that my life would be more complete if such were the case. But. You shall know them by their works. it is definitely through me rather than of me. it makes all of the difference in the world. I don't know why this form was chosen. it is as if I am a glorified scribe. In fact. Yes. But. I find that fascinating. those more than anything else are its central themes .

Continue to do as you are moved to do.. Your training as a systems engineer is in line with this. And the cycles do not appear to have any fixed periods or causal factors of which I am aware. And. That is good. But. I don't know what factors truly govern either of these. you will succeed in this role. this is the utmost service that I can provide to the world. my purpose for being here. The second being a natural tendency for expression to occur in cycles. Hmm . It is just a matter of time. the reward is immediate.. it is a sort of spiritual food that I partake of to feed a hunger arising from my soul. Your modus operandi is to live in the moment. In fact. But. There is a great deal of inertia to overcome. how do I manifest the job that I so dearly desire to hold? For me. I still remember writing Philosopher King in Training on my book bag at a Tony Robbins seminar over 17 years ago. It is another world that you are helping to manifest. I do so long to do this on a fulltime basis. For indeed. You are primarily the observer. it has already started. I don't know how to do that and still earn an income sufficient to pay the bills. So. there is a lot of change coming your way soon. This world will be tantamount to a utopia on Earth. That is 34 years. watching what happens and trying to create frameworks that give meaning to the things that you notice. This is a natural modality for you . allowing things to unfold in your life as they will.. They require foundations to bring them down to Earth.. 2002 and 2003 made it clear that even nearly daily musing was not too much. The intent is to allow you to see how systems work. Then. The numbers don't lie. There is much to do. So. The destiny is already laid out. Many have created the ideals and worked out the details for manifesting them. How many people have such an avenue for channeling this type of energy and information. But these are all as castles in the air. Wow! That is hard to believe. coupled with interacting with others to create the foundations for a new world based on some of what has been expressed here. That does not mean that it will be easy. I would be a Philosopher King as depicted in Plato's Republic. One being a kind of burnout from spending too much time here. be open for the circumstances that the universe would present unto your consciousness. Unfortunately. your desire and intent are crucial to the 25 . In a way. where things flow easily and where things are restricted or blocked. it is so. I've been in training since 1974 since my love affair with metaphysics began. the supply truly seems to be without limit. And. It is not surprising that your Psych-K homework recently included "I welcome change in my life". I am willing to actively give whom that I am to tasks that I consider to be among the most important to society. the words flow forth abundantly. But. Essentially. helping to hone the skills that you will need to engage in other endeavors when the time comes. Indeed. Whenever I find the time to give to this expression. already past 700 words and we are just getting started.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 to be my mission. why don't I find the time to do this more often and for longer periods? Two reasons. You have chose a present moment in which dreams are to become reality. Why are the conditions for carrying this out not forthcoming? Do I have too high of a regard for my talents and abilities? Is my ego still getting in the way? Am I too rigid in my expectations and not seeing the opportunities that are there before me? The conditions for your liberation are coming. it is not clear that such positions are available at this time. It is just a matter of time to allow it to unfold. The changes will be numerous and widespread. And. No. Yours is not to be a master of this world. I consider my needs relatively minor in comparison. that does not mean that you have to be impartial. what happens next? That is not for us to tell you. one that you have developed over many lifetimes. You have an instrumental role in building these foundations. over 2/3rds of my life. This expression is invigorating to me.

Until they do. I have never been visual. That is a sad thought.. composed of individuals as its parts. and clearly not a social butterfly.. emotional. Are we ready to embark on such a journey to an enlightened society? My sense is yes .. Perhaps many feel helpless. I don't see myself carrying on conversations. The individuals are an integral part of the society while still retaining some necessary autonomy of their own. Why should I. and spiritual needs met. I'm not the only one thinking in this manner. but it still may take awhile to manifest. mental. That is not to say that we do not have power of our own. And. It is up to me to find a way to enjoy the journey. Spirit is in need of all of the power and resources that we can muster in her service.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 transformation process. That is simply not what I AM. Why? Why can't we just collectively decide to make it so and manifest it? Why does it have to unfold over time? Surely. who is empowered to bring forth solutions? How do we transform ideas and ideals into ideas whose time has come? Clearly. Actually. with all of the major problems rampant in the country and the world today. in her service. The few people that I know are only impacted by present social problems in minor ways. the infrastructures must facilitate getting physical. such is my wish. be any different? My life will be what it is meant to be. abuse of this power is all too easy. No exceptions. that could be what is called for. as an explorer of consciousness. I'm not so sure that they are even out there anymore. there is insufficient motivation to change. Can I carry out my purpose on my own with source as my only companion? Indeed. however. You just need to learn when to apply them for maximum utility and effectiveness. I enjoy the company of others at times. We tend to want to have things our way. What about cooperative interdependent living? Is that not what society is all about? Is not my purpose to help to build a society in which I would want to be a active member? Indeed. It is always best to allow spirit to do the work through us. but I need to preserve a good deal of solitary time. My forte is writing. In particular. it must do this for everyone. another part of me considers the possibility that I may always be alone here. If we are going to manifest something in our reality. Can this change too? Perhaps. That is the key. There has to be an easier way to live ones life. Other explorers have faced this. but a sobering one as well. Selfishness often gets in the way of the right use of power. A society is a higher lifeform. I don't know that I'll ever truly be considered social . will it change? Do I have the power to change it by what I believe and what I do? 26 .. seeing the problems but not being offered any real solutions. It is through the written word that I speak not only for me but for the source within. people must realize that there must be a better way. the good of the whole must be considered along with the needs and desires of the individuals. I do expect that my interaction with other kindred spirits shall be more than just via books. Though. Another 20 years of effectively self-imposed solitude seems like too big of a price for me to bear. Unfortunately. The best I can do is to paint word pictures. But. Though. we have to be able to envision it. Society needs to offer the infrastructures that provide the home base for everyone. The degree of autonomy for individuals will vary widely in accord with their needs and their nature. But. I don't know where to turn to find kindred spirits. A balance must be achieved to allow synergistic effects in the society to contribute to the good of everyone. and often do not adequately consider the needs of others. A part of me still wants to believe that they are and that we will find one another when the time is right. However. In a society. my intake of ideas from others is so limited that I am only actively aware of a handful or two others. That is not how I process information.

But. Through all of my mental excursions. I don't know whether there will be another time.. That is saying a lot. I had been heavily exposed to metaphysics for nearly 20 years at the time. There is plenty of material posted at the Beyond Imagination site already. I experienced it as a spiritual awakening. why am I doing this? Because I can. I haven't had to experience finding it after losing it. And. Not that I would desire to control it even if I could. I was seeing the world differently . Yes. The mania was something that I experience normally as enhanced awareness at times. it's not like I am getting requests for more.. But. I was diagnosed as bipolar. You might say that I am driven to do this by a force that I cannot control. Without changing my medications I became highly manic. as an instrument for this expression. There is a sense that I would literally have been bored to death. I've seen what can be expressed here. it is good to question one's sanity. You might even say that I am still adjusting. The exposure to metaphysics was sufficient for me to retain my sanity through it all. The other was two challenging to be positive. Not bad for a month that started a week late and for which I will be traveling on vacation for the rest of the month. And. And. My final manic episode to date only took me out for two weeks and didn't require hospitalization. I am grateful to serve as the instrument through which all of this is created. the couple of times when I have chosen to stop taking these medications or reduce them substantially have resulted in highly manic states that put me into the mental hospital again..2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 26 March 2008 And then there were 12. During the first episode in 1993. Though. It results in web pages that can readily be posted to the WWW. I can't imagine what my life would have been like if this expression hadn't appeared in 1993. That is my preferred application for generating this expression. I had a different kind of experience. this expression changed all of that. Hopefully. Last year. Even then. but to a greater degree than usual for me and for a more prolonged period. That's OK. These medications alter my brain chemistry so that I can "function" in the world. Though. I'm excited about being moved to express in this manner once again. I was put on medications that I continue to take to this day. I knew what was happening but couldn't control it. There is nothing that prevents it from happening. It was primarily due to increased security resulting in the loss of FTP connectivity at work. it is a sign of things to come. it actually took months longer than this to adjust to my new found awareness. The medical profession considers this to be an illness or disorder and treats it as such. I was balancing on the edge for quite some time. My preference is to make it frequent. What does it say about me that consciousness can use me in this manner? What does it say about the power and beauty of consciousness as she expresses in out lives? I consider myself lucky. Though. though I have been remiss of late and haven't posted any of the new musings for several years. Two of these were positive times. several stays in the mental hospital have been necessary over the years. We'll have to see if that extends into days off as well. So. It awakened in me something that I never knew was there. There is still a need to share what is expressed through me .. At least. I am aware of what I am experiencing. indeed. none of that prepared me for what I experienced firsthand. very differently. and because I must.. that's what the doctors say. I have access to a computer at home though it doesn't have Netscape Composer on it. My reality becomes more 27 . that is not quite right. But. Something beyond anything that my mind could conceive. that is how I see myself . Though. Not that there have been many to post. The first two adventures required ten days of hospitalization and three weeks of recovery time on disability. The very ability to question this is a sign that one has not yet lost it..

I will live out my life as I must anyway. I don't know how others experience consciousness or how others relate to the source within. Total page hits to the Beyond Imagination site are probably in the 100. Though when I get too manic. Some might find it scary . perhaps the most fun thing that I do in my life. Regardless. The unknown is interesting and fascinating. The bottom line is that it is still a big mystery . I plan to be back at work that day. I took the day off and wrote for nearly 12 hours. After all. it is not clear that this has occurred in large numbers. As always. It is a great feeling. it is difficult for me to be happy and have a good time. It allows me to see what consciousness would express through me. Not only see. I'm off on a vacation to France for a week. It clearly is like being in a different world. Soaring in consciousness is fun . My interactions with others have not been deep enough to find out such things.. 7 April 2008 Well.. Needless to say.. that happens sometimes. perhaps the grandest one there is. we collectively seem to have little understanding of the nature of mind. plans can change. To date. and on many fronts. That is. But. one that I would like to feel more often and share with others. The blank screen is my sounding board.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 immediate and intuition based. Enough of the past. something different . The closest that I have been able to come to that is to engage in this expression. I won't be musing while I'm there. I'm looking forward to the changes that I know lie just ahead. that is acceptable. and far less rational.. where they will take me is unknown. It is time to be different so that my reality and experience can be different.000 range. It is good being back however. What would we express here and now? The mania is starting to build again. It seems that I should be doing something special for that. The driving in particular was hectic to say the least.. Just after that comes my 50th birthday. This expression is one notable exception. There is a sense of being more of a part of the universe. The frequency of musing is a direct sign of that. if others are able to find it. my mind races so fast that it is difficult to focus and capture what is coming forth. and being aware of more. Here I can be whom that I am. but record so that I can return to it at will and so that I can share what is expressed freely with others. In many respects. We'll just have to see what I am inspired to do this year.. Will that change some day? Perhaps. You would think that there would be volumes of information on it. Further. so there was a gap between musing 12 and musing 13 for the year. It is better to be just a little manic or moderately manic. Foreign countries can be quite interesting. and being open to new possibilities. at least for me.. I'll literally be half a century old. Well. At this point. Perhaps not.. I'm ready to express again. we'll see what we are moved to do when we return.. The time seems ripe for change to manifest in a big way. I'm ready for something new. especially ones that are old and steeped in tradition. Just got back from a wonderful trip to the South of France. But. Yet. It is a matter of allowing what is destined to unfold in my life. Why? This seems like such an important topic . One year. The old has become stale. the nature of consciousness and how she expresses in our lives. it may always be such. Given that some of the material has been posted since 1995 and 28 . but no more so than some of the food on the menus in France. We'll see what adventures are in store.. much less of consciousness. I've been away for nearly 10 days. And. Oh well. these always reflect whom that we are.

Anyway. at least for me. it is crucial that personal decisions be made not just on selfish reasons. I express because I am moved by spirit to express. What do we use as criteria for assessing utility? Does the idea serve people in a way that makes a positive difference in their lives? Does the idea help people to know who they are and to better express that by serving others? Does the idea make the infrastructures of the society more supportive of individual freedom? Does the idea benefit the society or community as a whole? It is not just ideas that must be evaluated but the whole process of making decisions to act. that is the only way to live. There is a fine range in which life operates between order and chaos. However. I do the same things. Though the phrase for your eyes only has come up many times and the song by Sheena Easton by that title still haunts me when I hear it. we can allow spirit to express through us. we can allow life to unfold through us. that is not a lot. even that is an act of bringing order out of the unknown. that does not make these thoughts bad necessarily. Do we need to govern what can be expressed in a free society? Are we responsible to ensure that what we express does not offend others? Somehow. may disturb some people . especially when I have a personal interest in the outcome. Living in the moment. And.. and whatever that is will be appropriate. eat the same foods. Utility should be the yardstick by which we measure the value of an idea. Cooperation is the 29 . There is a sense that all of this is coming forth for a reason . Good or bad are moral assessments. But.. But. often it is not us determining how that is to be. New thoughts. I have a tendency to get the timing of things wrong. at the moment it does not really matter. Though. The greatest good comes when everyone wins . but with consideration of the good for society or the group as well. not all creative acts have this effect. they do it in a way that moves others positively. Perhaps it always will be. Clearly. radical thoughts. That is not a sufficient reason for evaluating such ideas.. That is sufficient. It always has been. That I express in this manner and share this expression is a stretch as it is. my consciousness is much more chaotic. They manifest something that was unmanifest. That is an interesting way of looking at things. not when we have winners and losers as most competitive situations demand. we have done a great service. By current standards.. truly. it is difficult for an extreme introvert to really do much of this. Overall. Not that I haven't tried at times. But. at least not consciously. They give form to something that was unformed. But. But.. how many does it take to make a difference? If we are able to assist even a small number of people to awaken so that they can more fully express spirit in flesh. That is OK. it is not so simple as that. a reason that is more than just to educate and entertain me personally. one half century on the planet. But. Hopefully. all creative acts possess that quality. Yes.. The bottom line is that we will see what happens as it unfolds. out of chaos. drink the same drinks . Tomorrow marks my 50th birthday. it seems that I am meant to have more of a role in disseminating this information in the future than I ever have had in the past. in the US. What happens as a result of capturing that expression is in spirits hands not mine... often based on people's preconceived notions. what else am I to do.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 that there are hundreds of "pages" of information available at the site. Life has a way of working out as it is meant to. especially people set in their ways. my life is pretty orderly. It comes here to engage in this stream of consciousness expression. But. that seems far too limiting. especially given that I only expect to live for another two decades. not by a long shot. But. that did not occur. that is not a ripe old age to live. That is a biggee. I still remember in the early nineties thinking that my mission would be complete and I would depart prior to the turn of the century. Here. And.

given how much the distribution of goods depends on transportation via trucks. and a good number of these were very small. But. what do I expect. Yet. I just noticed that "me" is almost right in the middle of consumerism. That is quite an occasion. and mass transit. John Nash. Though. what has been expressed to date is quite an achievement . Most of my limited social interaction occurs at work. a testament to what spirit can do in our lives. what does that say about the economic system. Though. Rather. I don't know why we pay so little for gas. But. If the price of gasoline were to go up here to even close to the prices that the rest of the world pays. we would see much different decisions being made. 8 April 2008 My 50th birthday and no one noticed. what comes forth is anything but routine. This is what makes our heart sing. Over about a six month period. Yet. is that not what life is all about? Indeed. They have to be. I have that much faith in consciousness as she expresses through me. how we love to soar. We can choose to do things that turn the situation around. the expression became a routine part of my life. And. It will be interesting to see what comes forth. By age 70. That is not such a hard thing to do. Half a century. And my. He won the Nobel Prize for his discovery. we are still not taught this so that we can apply it in our lives. Perhaps wasteful enough that we will force ourselves to have a wake up call of severe proportions. What does that say about the education system? And. This can be done. Here is where we get to soar in consciousness. In fact. That will have been quite an achievement. the entire economy in the US would be severely impacted by any significant increases. Oh well. I don't really know what started all of this. the sense is that what is to come will far exceed what has come forth to date. and two full size pickups. that it keeps us in the dark on such things. We've come a long way in this country and have a lot of stuff to show for it. That does not mean that we give up on our needs. that is an external forcing function. I don't feel any different.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 way of the future. We have a couple of hours to muse from home tonight. It doesn't have to be that bad. proved that economically the collective results are superior in the 1950s. Though. It is not that I have that much faith in me. But. It is a matter of changing our focus from me to we. recycling. it would help to be more engaged with others. With gas at over $9 per gallon. few people know much about me. I began to type what came forth in a voice from a source deep within me. Though. But. I was going to take a few hours off from work today so that I could muse longer than normal. All of the other personal vehicles that I saw were small cars. I've been engaged in this stream of consciousness expression for over 15 years. In fact. I'll have been doing it for over half of my life. will we do such things? Europe is much more into conservation than we are in the US. However. it is for me. In a week in France. I only saw one SUV (a Toyota Landcruiser). only a small fraction of that time is spent in personal 30 .. I had good intentions. there is a strong incentive for much smaller cars.. Here is where we get to express the extraordinary. Suddenly. we need to make it the way of the now as well. To the degree possible. we are also quite wasteful overall of much that we have. over half a century later. This is what we are meant to do. the day got away from me without being able to do that. Consumerism for the most part requires a focus on ME. That is OK. Here we get to be whom that we are in ways that we cannot be anywhere else. I'm there an average of 50 hours per week. It just means that we find ways to meet them within a larger framework that includes helping others to meet their needs as well. I would imagine that the average MPG exceeded 40 compared to closer to 20 here.

I am engaging others more. not only in my life. Yet. But. and not to express in person? Why have I reached the age of 50 and not yet developed a close friendship or even a not so close friendship for that matter? Someone said something to the effect to have a friend you must be a friend. And. one should get to have at least one wish come true. That is how I recharge my batteries. And. I freely share here. That seems to be the key. But. the answers are forthcoming. indeed. it has not been enough to result in significant changes yet.. Regardless.. How do I free myself from all of this? Especially from the negative parts? It is high time to be happy. My preference is to be alone and to work alone. to be able to engage in conversation. My self-imposed isolation is keeping me from that feeling.. is it something that limits me far more than I need to be limited? Interesting questions.. what does that say about the impression that I am leaving on the world? Clearly. There is a strong sense that massive changes are coming soon. my interactions with others have not touched on these kinds of matters. I can reach out and find ways to touch others.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 interaction. Given how much time and effort that I put into this. I probably have far less baggage than most .. Little by little. Being so isolated. somehow. Today marks the first day of the rest of my life. So. That is OK. to be present in that persons life. what is it that I would wish for if I could only have one wish? What do I desire more than anything else? The first answer that came to mind was to be loved. Why can I not find ways to share these with the others that are in my life? To date. that is what I long for more strongly than anything else. it seems that it is something I must learn to do if I am to change the reality that I experience. That includes caring enough to have something to say to the other person .. This is not something that comes naturally for me. not as much as I have been of late.. To be a friend. I sense that I will always need my times of solitude. It is high time to have fun in my life. it is far less than it could be. this is something that I strongly desire. especially on one's 50th birthday. And. there is still a lot. who does it save from what? It saves me from having to be more outgoing in how I interact with the world. Only a handful of people that I interact with have been exposed to any part of this expression. Why? They are so much of whom that I am. Though. I thought that I was free of much of this. is that really a good thing? Or. how do I do that? What do I need to do differently? What beliefs are holding me back from being all that I could be? Lots of questions but not a lot of answers. It seems that on one's birthday . Why? Why have I not attracted such others into my life? Why am I still so isolated? Why is it so easy to express here. It is only a matter of time. It seems that it is time for much more of the later. Or. Generally. Indeed. I have no indications that would tell me that others are open to such discussion. one must care enough about another person to be there. But. when we are able to ask the questions. And that's in over 11 years on the job.. I can continue to be isolated and alone. that is exactly what I am doing. Then. engaging others at work is still not conducive to factoring in my personal beliefs and reality. not all of the time.. I am still reluctant to impose my will on anyone. Though. and how much of me I put into this . but. I can fashion that to be anyway that I desire it to be. especially since it is counter to what I most strongly desire? There is a lot of personal baggage that I carry. why don't I do what is necessary to change that.. These. Why is that? It seems to be a safeguard. That struck me as an interesting answer. But. but do not express verbally with others. that we all carry. but in my 31 . why do I continue to operate in that mode . But. But.

As the observer. Exactly how remains to be seen. in the next two decades? Perhaps. what about the new age. were I to reach the end of my life and not know that I have had such impact. However. most of us just don't know it. are we enslaved without knowing that we are? In many ways. That is not great. Spirit sees to that. it forces us to sell a substantial portion of our time and abilities to do the bidding of some master. What grand things do we envision could be done? And. I would be disappointed. but observing theirselves as the observer as well.. Can we do this? Will we choose to do this? It seems that it will take some type of dramatic external factor for this to happen. But. But.. That does not change the fact that the only place that we can truly live and have a real impact is in the present. unless we are willing to do our parts as individuals. the present world is a pretty remarkable place. It seems there are many things in my life over which I do not have conscious control. more correctly. it is not so clear that the world is ready to change in major ways. We'll see how much we are moved to express in the days ahead. That does not stop me from doing them. that's not bad. Cooperative interdependence is the way to achieve great things. the timeframe is still uncertain.. The past fifteen years have demonstrated what we can do together . But. I don't know how many people experience life in this fashion. Regardless. Or. But. there is still a strong sense that my life is to somehow have world impact. In particular. The past is done . it just means that it needs to be placed secondary to the collective perspective. Yes. The future is unformed . is that enough? A saying comes to mind: none are more hopelessly enslaved than those who falsely believe they are free. This makes 15 for the year.. Thinking about my trip to France last week. another musing. the Aquarian Age? Will it not bring major changes to the world? The sense is yes. but something did not feel right about that. I get to watch all of this happen even as it happens. and what a surprise that has been.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 world. What if we could expand this into cooperative endeavors that involve spirit expressing through many? Just imagine what works could be done! It literally sends shivers through my body... but we never really know until it happens. what must be expressed will indeed be expressed. I expect a lot from myself. This does not mean to neglect the individual perspective. We live in a cooperatively interdependent world . it also enslaves us. Are we truly free.. I would express whom that I am in service to spirit. perhaps not. our economic system is one of the best in the world. moving from a ME focus to a WE focus? Note that the word focus is important. what would motivate people to do such things? What could the world be? What are we willing to do to make it so? When are we as individuals going to take responsibility for the collective WE? After all.. we can only dream and plan what it might be. Some places have been essentially the same for centuries. this is not something that I control. I would be free. 9 April 2008 Another day. There is something special and good about that. There are many choices and many freedoms. I don't mind that. how will the collective ever function effectively as a whole? Is this not what the transformation to a new age all about ... I expect a lot from spirit expressing through me. It seems like it will be a lot once again . Is that likely to occur? For many people. It is only in the present where we have the power 32 . Will it happen in my lifetime. I wrote the world. At first.. we can only remember it. but considering I did not start musing until a week into March and I was out on vacation for over a week. as the observer observing not only what they are doing. In many ways.. even in this country? Or. Oh well.

I would engage in this stream of consciousness expression to the end of my days. if not millions of golfers who enjoy the game. It is far easier to be good at something. Not always. that is an important question to ask. it only takes one to make something real. That is a shame. Why? Because here I do something that I consider to be of great value. Yet. a much smaller number than that win any of the master tournaments. That is a lot of sharing.. most of us have conflicting expectations. many of which are reflective of whom that I am. an impact that has completely changed my life. There are only a few hundred golfers that are good enough for the PGA Tour. of great value to whom? Clearly to me. much of what has been shared may not even have reached another soul. it is with an audience that is unseen. Or has it? If a tree falls in a forest. in many ways I am still the same as I was before the Beyond Imagination expression began. Few of us have taken the time and expended the effort to master our beliefs. no real sharing has occurred. This is true in most endeavors. This could be in terms of competition against others directly. Actions tend to produce results in accord with expectations. you don't have to be a master to be effective. even though the number of people reached is still relatively small. Perhaps that needs to be enough. Without the communication. Why must what I do have importance to the world? Why do I engage in such grandiose thinking? I do it because that is what I am moved to do. This expression is different. and extremely introverted. What would I do next? Yes. But. or even by the number of people who read it. It only takes one. at least what I do here. how would I really know? Where does the feedback come that would tell me? In many endeavors. This results in uncertainty as to what result will come from any given action. by how many words come forth. I know that it has had a great impact on me personally. The fact that I am there to witness what consciousness has brought forth is sufficient for the message to be recorded in the collective consciousness. it still makes a sound. I would be whom that I am. But. And. It takes a lot to be great at something. I believe also to the world. solitary. good is good enough to make an activity enjoyable. What matters is what impact it has on whom. I would express what spirit would express through me. is not something that is easily measured. Yet. The whole purpose of sharing is to communicate something to or with others. Yet. competition provides that feedback.. And. it is the choices that we make and the actions that we take that determine what we will experience. And. many of whom are quite good at it. That I am moved to capture this expression in this manner and share it provides the opportunity for there to be a greater impact over time. These words carry a vibration into the world even if no one is there to read them other than me. I would hope that I am great at what I do . For. it is what we do that makes all the difference. I have been moved to share millions of words. After all. I've been doing this personally for 35 years. But. But. But. It cannot be measured by how quickly it is produced. there are hundreds of thousands.. what I do must have world import. A lot of talent and a lot of practice. because the force is amplified greatly allowing manifestation to be influenced more quickly. It is that simple. Yet. In fact. I have to believe that it is having an impact. and there is no one there to hear it. however. Perhaps I never will. Unfortunately. I am still shy..2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 to choose and to act. or competition against some standard that is set for that activity such as par for a round of golf. beliefs come into play as well. And often. It helps if there are many . This is how I am moved to express. Of course. is that not what building the foundations for a new world is all about? I've known that 33 . but the tendency is there. And that. But. Conflicting expectations arise from conflicting beliefs. and I have not come close to becoming a master.

Or would I? Was I not saying just yesterday that my birthday wish was to be loved? I don't consider myself loved by source or by consciousness. There was no separate source identified. with consciousness herself. But.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 this is the Beyond Imagination mission since the expression began. The process for engaging in this expression is effective. On the other hand. That is usually a danger sign for me.. This expression is my doorway into that unknown. then I changed it to to do. That we have not come close to building these foundations yet does not matter. there would have been far more feedback by now. that is good. The works are meant to impact me as they do. There are still many years to go before my time on the planet is done. it is what I am being. However. Hopefully. Here is where I get to speak with a voice that is not mine. what would come forth this evening? We never really know until we see it flow forth. And. However. What would I do this day to make a 34 . it seems that relationships with others need to be involved.. way more. If it were effective. I am fascinated by it . Is that an effective way to share? It seems that the answer is no. when I read the Beyond Imagination works. especially in the realm of consciousness. I am still being a hermit. they are new and fresh to me. What do I need to be to develop such relationships? At first I wrote to be. it is becoming the only thing in my life that is truly important. That is OK. After all. The words and the ideas that they convey have value. But... how would I be differently? I read the book Happier Than God last week. when I asked early in the expression what to call the source of these words . I suspect that it always will. For the most part. I must continue to allow the expression to come forth. I consider myself fortunate indeed. This is a role that we came to play. the starting point is to be loving to others. I am not an impartial evaluator. How many people are fortunate enough to engage in such expression? Yes. I must go on. these words flowed forth through me. what does it mean to be loving? This is more than simply caring about others. even though I have read them multiple times before. We will complete what we came to do. Wayne's World is far from the present world that many experience. this is my life. great value. More and more. Whether they do or not. I made it through the day intact. It said that to get what you want you must give it to others.. This is in opposition to my stated birthday wish. Or does it? The books created from this expression all bear my name as the author. I do it via writing. Moreover. via a wall of millions of words. The unknown plays a major role in my life. How can that be? How can I not remember what has come forth through me? That doesn't matter either. the bottom line is that it does not matter. I consider myself to be extremely lucky to have such a relationship with the source within. Further. I have never consciously experienced this source to be me. But then. that can make living in the present world difficult. But. but not too bad. It is not what I am doing that keeps me from developing relationships. So. however. It has allowed millions of words to come forth . Though. I would have it no other way. I don't know what I might have done to deserve all of this. 10 April 2008 Didn't sleep at all last night. Here. the answer that was given was Wayne. Though. then I realized it was correct to begin with as to be. That does not make them my words. I don't think that I'll have the same problem tonight. I've been moved to share a great deal of that world.. So. I'm a little tired. words which I have been moved to read multiple times. they will impact others in a like manner. On the one hand. I get to do that on a regular basis. So.

uncovering gems and spiritual truths. I can count on this expression to bring forth at least one and often many quotable passages. will what is expressed be of value? It is always of value. will that truly make a difference. Questions allow me to focus on what I most need to know. Though. I like to think that flexibility of consciousness is the greatest kind of flexibility. or even to the world. Though. flexibility of mind.. I have areas of my life that are basically fixed and other areas that are more flexible. in this expression. mostly declarative ones. I get to see another aspect of consciousness expressing through me.. If fact. we can only live in one of these at any one time. Also. It is not clear whether these will be reflected in the consensus world or not. the present. This can be a statement to ourselves. The slogan be all that you can be strikes a strong chord within me. to be this? How do we know when we are performing at our best? We just know. There is still a sense that massive changes are forthcoming in my life and my world. The pace is slower than normal tonight. I do not generally make comparisons with others. there are many things that are unknown and potentially unknowable. What is the nature of consciousness? What is life? How does intuition work? All of these fall in that category.. questions are a way of life. the opportunity for gems to be expressed is still there. and perhaps of more value than we know. these are vastly different than what others experience. But. and of body are also important. Others.. I read a lot. Yet. the universe has a fate in store for us that may be far beyond our wildest dreams. And. Now. As it should be. I am moved to go on and continue none the less. I chose to come here once again. a statement we will make even if we choose to remain silent. what makes something "creative"? For me. The tiredness is having its impact. It is always worth the energy and attention that goes into it. to others. Personally. Questions were not my main way of gathering knowledge when I was growing up. At the very least. Though. This is the directive from spirit.. what does it take to do this . It is not for us to know things too far in advance of NOW. I rarely asked anything. It is only in the NOW that we can take action to manifest change in our lives. Life is about making a statement via our presence. The past. especially if we are trying to know it in advance... Even in school. we make a lot of statements . It is up to us. Creative expression is always worth it. But.. that does not really matter. That is just how it is. What matters is whom that we are versus whom that we could be. But. I do so love to soar in consciousness. Generally. to allow us to do more than we could otherwise do. Yet. that is what I most crave . but I did not question. Here. the future .2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 difference? Obviously. the present is the only one where we wield any power. And. From what I can tell. But.. Many people find change unsettling.. But. such as what is my destiny can be elusive. Our destiny will be unveiled over time. we also ask a lot of questions. of these. 11 April 2008 35 . Even from a tired state. questions are signs that we are ready to know the answers to those very questions. The feeling that we have is obvious. we experience joy in what we are doing. it needs to engage the intuition. But. Further. This is what sends shivers through my body. Plan though we might. we ask more questions since this expression began than I ever asked before. the intuitive side of us . But. it will make a difference to me. My life and my world are the containers in which I experience my reality.

untold miracles become possible. it is something that must be done. In the US. These are the kinds that blow me away. And. and spiritual. We never really know where this stream of consciousness will lead. For me. The so called communist countries don't even come close.. I would do it my way. We have stated that the social contract is simply expressed: From each in accord with their abilities. We can serve in many ways. But generally. That is all that really matters to me. And. I have been for quite some time. But. We are effectively on our own to discover our talents and find ways to employ them that allow us to meet what we need and what we desire. Perhaps. I am consumed by it. The sooner. pure and simple.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 We're getting an earlier start on musing today than normal. emotional. It is important to find those ways that employ the most of our abilities and talents. our service is the greatest that it can be . However. I slept well last night. there are safeguards so that this is the only way it can be used. different though that may be. who realize that the world is ONE community spanning the planet. That is appropriate for a Friday. Perhaps my focus is too single-minded. attuned to source. At times. source is that powerful. it is mild to moderate. enough to question my very sanity. it allows us to operate at a new and higher level of expression. we are able to do things beyond which we have the training and knowledge to do. We tap into source.. and who realize that a social contract is how we define how individuals relate within a society. commercialism is rampant. All works are spiritual works. We just happen to be expressions of spirit in flesh at the moment. both abilities and needs are different for each individual because each individual is unique. Further. we are that powerful. But. And. Life is meant to be an adventure. the better. It seems that the most we can be is to serve as a vessel through which spirit can do her works. However. Our present way of being is extremely wasteful of resources. The economic system provides a mechanism for exchanging our goods and/or services for the goods and services that we need. It is what it is.. Needs exist on many levels: physical. the obsession has been quite extreme . we must enable people to know their needs. they primarily operate as communist governments and political systems. We are then able to do more than we ever thought possible. Yes. into the ONE consciousness herself. It will be interesting to see where consciousness takes us. For then. so I am feeling fine again. You might even say it is an obsession for me. when we do this. To enact such a contract is difficult. And. Establishing the foundations for a new world that recognizes this will not be an easy task. What can I say. that is communism. However. And. Metaphysics plays a major role in my life. to each in accord with their needs. Then. when we truly realize this and accept it. hence acceptable. Everything is spirit in expression. We must enable people to know their abilities and to develop them. However. All else pales by comparison. the biggest adventures are adventures in consciousness. no society of which I am aware has been able to establish an infrastructure supportive of manifesting this ideal social contract. mental. I pay a lot of attention to the things that consciousness brings into my life. especially human resources. it is important to use this power in service. and we are most likely to enjoy doing it. That is OK. That is OK. We are able to tap into something far greater and grander than we are as individuals. I would hope that there are others out there who are thinking along similar lines. We are all unique expressions of spirit. This needs to come to an end. I would live a life of spirit. It is all a wonderful surprise. 36 . Yes. we have no such contract..

. not only to others but to ourselves? When will we learn that we are all brothers/sisters on this spaceship that we call Earth? When will we learn that we are all ONE. There are many signs that the system is failing however. Given that we are one of the richest nations in the world. And. and conducting wars. We have starving people in this country at the same time that we dump large quantities of food and even pay for farmers not to grow certain crops. But. for the most part. such it is. Yet.. It is not clear that this is in the best interest of the collective society. But. the present system works for vast numbers of people in this country. How do we fix this? The United Nations was established as a New World Order. this is something that many must be employed to do. I get the ball rolling. But. And. Being in a position of power often tips the scales. They see that they are free to get enough of what they want to be satisfied with the status quo. So. are not tailored to the individuals that perform them. I can only push it so far. they don't see anyone trying to change things in a major way that will make a difference. very soon! In this expression. who is responsible for ensuring that the world is served effectively and efficiently and that all countries are treated fairly? Fair treatment does not necessarily arise from people coming to agreement on things. When will we learn that peace is always a better answer? When will we learn that hatred brings only harm. Jobs. that is a lot for anyone to take on. The ideas must make it 37 . we will learn them someday. but still relatively rare. How do we turn things around? How do we establish the infrastructure needed to allow people to serve society effectively in return for having their needs met efficiently? Who is responsible for ensuring that the whole is functioning elegantly and serving everyone? Is that not the goal? I consider this to be my responsibility. but it is prevalent. Adequate shelter should be a right. There were high hopes that it would help to make the world a better place through getting nations to understand the needs of each other and work to resolve any problems among nations. There is something seriously wrong about that. My hope is that this day comes soon . it seems to be one of the best in existence. In addition. especially for people in the developing and undeveloped countries. the free market allows sellers to sell whatever people are willing to buy. I don't even want to think about how many resources go into weapons. We have homeless people in this country. allowing the outcome to be most favorable to those in power. This is unfair. But. Many social systems are in trouble due to a lack of sufficient resources to provide the services that are needed by people. but these are not used to enable people to optimize their contribution and service to society. There are a multitude of techniques for categorizing people and providing them with insight as to whom that they are. But. that seems to be almost criminal.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 Companies employ psychological tools to convince us that we need their goods and services whether we really need them or not. This is especially true when the people in power are a small minority. what motivation is there for change? What is lacking that requires us to rethink how society functions and that would force us to establish a social contract such as the one expressed above? When we look at the world as a whole. defense. It is not clear how successful this has been. that what we do to others we do to ourself? These are simple truths that we must all learn. WIN/WIN behavior is on the rise. things are even more dismal. Our schools fail to teach people what they need to know to effectively function in society. Clearly. The amount of foreign aid funded by the US is less than one percent of our gross national product.

Though. we get results. much more. there is a great deal of satisfaction that comes from being engaged in doing this and from reading what comes forth. My sense is that only time will tell. we are not talking about evolutionary change . We have only to cooperate and do our share by giving of ourself in service somehow. continuing to do its work long after I am gone. That alone is worth doing it. What we are seeking is a revolution in consciousness. I was using nearly all of it in this expression. it is not really going anywhere. Breakpoints are such that what comes after has no bearing or relationship to what came before. Yes. This means establishing better priorities for where we spend our funding. What would we address next? The social contract is a big thing. there is a sense that even though it is published and available on the WWW. At present. However. It is not enough for me to be good at what I do. We need to get the best and the brightest among us focused on doing the things that provide the most benefit to all of us. I long to be more productively engaged for greater portions of my time.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 into the minds of others for the ideas to have their intended impact. for what purpose am I being trained in this manner? If this expression is not the service that I am here to provide. others. Where we apply the bucks. And. I would feel that my abilities were being used far more fully than they are. However. But. We are in need of a breakpoint. For your eyes only. it is not clear that dissatisfaction with the present society is sufficient to foster or support a revolution. However. But. If I had. Could all of this be for my eyes only? If so. I've experienced such breakpoints several times personally. We have to start taking responsibility collectively for meeting the needs of every individual. That is a huge responsibility. only for you. but revolutionary change. and the world. Why is that not enough to do what I need to do? In 2002 and 2003. I've always assumed that engaging in this expression was my means of providing service to the world. I have always seen this expression as something that could survive me . spirit working through us can do grand things. What is stopping me from doing that now? I have a good three hours per day of free time during the week and more on weekends. I don't know enough about history to know if or when such breakpoints may have happened before. And. then what is? Interesting. society. here we are talking about experiencing one collectively. I don't believe that I've gravitated to my rightful place in the world. This is especially true for where we apply the big bucks. what is its work? I don't really know. But. 38 . The bottom line is that resources require funding. Yet. that is the first time that I have asked that particular question. We'll see in time. No problem is so difficult that we can't find ways to overcome it. we have the time and resources to do amazing things. then there must be some position that I am training for that is quite different from my present job. But. No challenge is too great that we can't rise to achieve it. not only in this country but in the world. Also.. Collective action is required to establish major social change.. here.. it was. I would feel that the service that I was providing was greater than it has been. My sense is that it is indeed time for that to happen. We are seeking a breakpoint that changes peoples perception of how they see themselves. if it is only to provide training for me. But. collectively. It is something that I believe needs to be established with all of my heart. I would change that.. it is not a service that I am paid for monetarily. it requires a leap. I don't know if there is anything that I can do to facilitate a breakpoint. there is still some dissatisfaction with my life. I would feel differently. Evolution happens far too slowly. No. I would hope that this very expression is a way to foster that. My spirit demands more. I long to be happy. That sentence still haunts me.

an average of one hour per day is quite an accomplishment. only for you. Can that be true? It still haunts me. That consciousness could be so concerned about any one person to bring forth all of this.. I know that I am an 39 . just over a tithe of my work time. will I find my place in such august company? I can only hope that such would be the case. I still find this expression to be the most important part of my existence. just think of the beneficial force that would be unleashed in the world. But. I could do much worse than allowing spirit to speak through me as she does. that is how I feel. This is especially true since I can go back to any part of that expression and find things that are new and fresh. Page hits to information posted at Beyond Imagination are still relatively meager. It could easily be in excess of 5000. But. I feel extremely grateful to be who I have become. Yes.. That will come from the impact that these works have on others. What does it say about consciousness if all of this is done solely for my benefit? What does it really say? For one thing. am I really reaching others in anywhere near the quantities necessary to have a strong beneficial impact? The sense is no. That is a lot of time to spend in any endeavor. Tithing is a good thing. Yet. and book sales are nearly nonexistent. But then. That is not so hard to do. and there have been many days with no expression. it has always seemed sufficient to allow this stream of consciousness to come forth. a great deal. that is around 266 hours per year. To date.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 14 April 2008 Had good intentions to start musing earlier but was interrupted for awhile. the information isn't really getting out. If consciousness could do all of this for me. it could also be that I was some obscure writer spanning from the end of the 20th century into the early decades of the 21st century. Given that there have been several years with fewer than a dozen musings. many artists suffer such fates . But. You see what no one else can see. indeed. Spread over 15 years. But. is phenomenal. If more of us did this. I am incredibly special to be so blessed. what value it has to the world is not for me to determine.. and to share it by posting it to the Beyond Imagination site and by publishing it in books. trusting that consciousness knows what she has in store for us. For your eyes only. value to me. except by some of the greatest quotes of the greatest minds over the ages. and hopefully value to the world. It is a matter of developing our intuition and trusting what it tells us. what I do here has value . So. We muse when we can. And. Actually. what must be expressed will indeed be expressed... It is a matter of doing what we are moved to do when we are moved to do it . it is still enough for me to express in this manner.. that's how it goes sometimes.. even after over 15 years of doing this. And. I am not yet doing this. Oh well. I'm not one to be moved deeply . That is how it has been since this expression first started to come forth. I have experienced what she can express through me for over 4000 hours to date. that is saying a lot. literally millions of words. Though. That would seem to be a waste of all of this energy and expression. When all is said and done. But. And. that is how it will always be. what great things can she do in your life as well? We have only to offer our time and talents in her service. with their works going unappreciated until after they are gone. That would put the average expression at roughly one hour per day. Yes. is it even something that I am responsible to do? The bottom line is that I don't really know. is this really enough. That is the equivalent of two years of full time work. Not bad for just over 15 years of elapsed time.. For now. things that move me deeply. At the very least.. Perhaps. much of that is a direct result of what this expression has brought into my life. I trust consciousness .. 4000 hours is probably conservative.

Right here. half a century. Expression is meant to communicate something to someone or to some group. We are engaged in spirit's work. it is our very birthright. however. and not necessarily in that order. we need to be sure that we are not operating out of self-interest.. This is far grander than I would ever have imagined to be possible in my first 34 years on the planet. we need to take full responsibility for both what we choose to do and what we choose not to do. it will. as we do this. period. the right ideals. the foundations of the present society and world are not very supportive of enabling us to do this. This we can do.. So. That is good. to ourselves. Seeing what consciousness has produced in my life to date gives me great hope in what we can achieve together in another 20 years. it is something that we can do within my lifetime. and to apply what we learn to make masterpieces of our lives. we must do as we are moved to do and do it to the best of our abilities. only time will tell for certain.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 instrument being played by spirit. And. But. it seems different rules apply. right now. it seems the communication has only been to me. Will it be as I have envisioned it. We can be the people that create a new world order. in the minds and hearts of a sufficient number of people. But. to date. As a result. to others. What makes me so sure of this? For one thing. Clearly. Given that I don't expect to live much longer than that. such is within our reach and our grasp. We are responsible for our experience. So. it does take the right ideas disseminated to enough people to make a difference. How much is sufficient? I don't really know. However. But it will only happen if we do something to make it so. That applies to this expression. I have always felt myself to be an old soul. But. But. However. It is as it must be. This is the stuff of inspiration . Questioning is very enlightened behavior.. And. Probably not exactly. I believe that they will withstand the test of time. Responsibility can be a difficult thing to bear. Just last week. this very expression. But. I could be wrong. to our world . either consciously or at other than conscious levels. gladly I serve in this capacity. it has always been. to our society. how do I find ways to get this offering in front of those who might be served by it. But.. hundreds. For those touched by spirit. It is a matter of planting the right seeds. at least not self-interest alone. as spirit in flesh. what will be in 20 years is not of concern here and now. that the message coming forth is meant to reach people. But. It seems that it is time to fully live up to that. when bending rules. I know that. we turned 50. Yet. However. It behooves us to learn how we do this. we can do it quickly. I am starting to feel old. this is also a time to be wise.. Will I accomplish what I came to do? My sense at this point anyway. And. I've know this since the Beyond Imagination expression began over 15 years ago. I came specifically to help build the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh. In many ways. but the ideals that have been expressed here are sound. others are soft and can be questioned and even bent as needed. I trust that she plays me for a reason . making a difference is what it is all about . The world is in need of what I have to offer. I believe that is what I am doing when engaged in this expression. Perhaps dozens.. what those are seem to be something that we must discover on our own.. Some rules are hard and cannot be broken. 40 . is yes definitely.. And. many shirk it. sometimes the waiting is difficult. we can do so in as little as a generation. We need to do more of this and be willing to shake up the status quo. or maybe even thousands. It doesn't take huge armies to generate great change. Each and every one of us chooses that experience. Though. We can change that. with responsibility comes the opportunity to do things that truly make a difference. when the time is right. But. We can do this. I have been wrong before. And. perhaps even a transcendental one. this is beyond imagination. it is a small percentage of the population of the world. everything within me says that is not the case now.

I'm only 50. the world was a very different place. we should not be doing it. Where we expend attention and resources. But. So. spirit can only do her works through us. it is still far less than many of the developed countries of the world. Whether it was implemented is another question entirely. This expression is that important and that valuable to me. who is responsible for evaluating whether resources are being applied for the greatest good of society? Who is best equipped to perform such a service? Who receives the appropriate training to do this? Nothing in my experience has provided anything close to answers to such questions as these. It transforms the work into play. especially for communications. half of that. Oh well. science and technology have received the funding and the resources. or is this something that I need to wait for spirit's timing on? These two courses of action are very different. Tax Day in this country. What comes of this is literally in spirit's hands.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 Hmm . and starving people . we still have homeless people. are our lives truly better? They are busier. do we not all suffer when the least of us suffer? Are we not responsible to look after and care for one another? Is that not one of the things that a society does? It seems that it all comes down to resources. I'm not really in a position to know... I like it like that. Just imagine all of the changes that people near 100 have seen in their lifetimes. Just noticed. But are not my hands spirit's hands as well? After all. And playing is something that we could all use a lot more of in our lives. We have to volunteer our services. While we are taxed pretty heavily. It seems that it should be to others as well. for all of the changes. From the limited exposure to governmental organization that I've had since then.. it is a labor of love. However. we get results. I am moved to ask them anyway. such is how it is. And. There is nothing that I can imagine that would be a better use of my time. But. do these make our lives better? On that topic. and has grown greatly since I first posted the Beyond Imagination material 13 years ago. But. Otherwise. or the work will simply not be done. for sure.. The report was good. unemployed people. So much added effectivity comes into play when we love what we do. Governments are notorious for being wasteful bureaucracies. And. even in this country. it is not clear that things have gotten better. The question is whether we get sufficient value in terms of goods and services for the taxes that we pay. In the 1990s. another musing. Al Gore generated a report on Reinventing Government that focused on how we transform government agencies and offices into true service oriented organizations. hopefully. The very WWW where this expression is posted has only been around for two decades. But. I am moved to come here to express nonetheless. so how do we fix that? Is this something that I need to do something to change. If we don't evaluate the impact of our 41 . Then again. And. 15 April 2008 Another day.. look at the great improvements that have resulted in our country and the world. Spiritual work is volunteer work. something is not working. Yet. but it is not clear that such is the case. Yet. It is what it is. For that matter. we have a lot more gadgets. That is an interesting way of looking at things. For several decades. who has the responsibility to attempt to cure these ills? Why do we permit such suffering in a land of plenty? Perhaps it is because no one or no organization has been given the authority and responsibility to do anything.. As little as a hundred years ago. the day is 15 Apr . and the world has changed dramatically in my lifetime. this happens everywhere. Look around.

. 16 years ago. But. Though. Though. It is time to stop doing the bidding of any prince and start making my own way in the world. But. that is not enough. If I don't do something differently.. the sum of those moments will pass quickly. I long to be something that I have not been. That is just how things happen in my life. But. it seems that change is happening in our world faster than the ability of society to deal with it. and have no idea of where things will lead. much more. Yet. That should not be hard.. that is no longer enough for me. I need to be all that I can be and demonstrate this firsthand in all that I do. I don't see what will cause a major change in what I am doing or experiencing. I have been desirous of change many times in the past . What will I be doing one year from now . But. closing in on a third of my life and half of my adult life. It is time to make the masterpiece of my life that it can be. I generated some New Years resolutions that put me precisely on that path. What is different about this time? I don't know exactly. we must have belief and expectancy. My spirit demands more. I fully expect it to be both remarkable and quick. there is something different about the energy now. for many coping with such changes is difficult at best. Hope is not enough.. They are literally outdated in as little as three years. I just can't see myself doing what I am currently doing indefinitely. I had tumbled badly after having the goal clearly within my reach. they are relatively inexpensive. 42 . At times. but not so firm that there is no room for spirit to bring something equivalent or better into our lives. I need the income and have not been able to figure out how else to earn what I need in a manner more conducive to my wellbeing. We have to venture into the unknown sometimes to see where it will take us. I can't get over the feeling that I am selling my time and services in a manner that makes me a prostitute or a slave. Will these things come to pass? Will I become something more and experience something grander? One can always hope. The present pace and frequency of musing suggests that I will have something substantial to show for both the first year and the five years. I can see myself trapped here . it is not clear that I have been young for quite some time. That is a long time. I consider myself to be old. only to see time pass without the manifesting of the changes. generally to no avail. I was content to do as I was moved by spirit to do. and I will have it. perhaps it is not happening fast enough. this would be a much bigger problem than it is. But. We must be able to envision what it is that we wish to be and experience. This applies most to my job. within a year. is that enough? Something within me screams no. I need to live in accord with what has come forth. Otherwise. doing this for over a century may just be too much. one way or another. here and now. where is the feedback loop that could result in better choices? Indeed. we are running open loop. I have felt that major changes were immanent before. What will come into my life as a result remains to be seen. Fortunately. But. I have not really done this. At 50. I had not made any resolutions before then and have not chosen to make them since. five years from now? Hopefully. But. A year from now is an eternity of moments. It is a good job and pays decently. But. There is just a sense of urgency that will not go away. Without it. the answer is not what I am doing today. It is important to be clear in our expectations. For change to manifest. That is OK sometimes. is hope enough? The answer from within is NO. Computers are a case in point. the sense is that spirit is moving me to such a state of dissatisfaction that it is forcing me to reach out for more. Yes. I long to experience things beyond which I have experienced. But.. To date. I have been content to come here to express whatever would come forth via this stream of consciousness. feedback is that important. It almost borders on desperation.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 investments on our lives. For those who embrace change. something is different. Now. I have been expressing in this manner since 1993. yet I know overall..

It reaches me and touches me deeply. We can't expect miracles to happen overnight . I'm optimistic about being able to change in a way that makes a dramatic difference. is reason enough to continue doing it. I've awakened again. So. Now. Am I ready to do this? Part of me says yes . how is that different from whom that I am in the moment? Very good questions. I've operated as a hermit. I was moved to express many I AM statements that defined who I was at the time. yet. giving up the expression. I am proud of it. That is not the way that I choose to spend the precious time of my life. That alone. perhaps too proud for my own good. I know not how it functions or from whence it flows. This isolation is not conducive to meeting and interacting with others in meaningful ways. I need to make such interactions important to me personally. So. but I seem to be holding my own. it is not clear what specific changes will come or how they will be enabled. If we want to experience something different. why does it surprise me that I keep my hermit ways? To be honest. the first question presupposes a time in the future by its very language.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 easily for one year. it does not surprise me in the least. Though. In particular. the rug was pulled out from under me and there was a four plus year slumber. this is how I saw myself.. I am interacting with others far more at work than I used to. What we are attracts what we experience. whom would I be? And. I call the origination point the source within. And. there are chinks starting to appear in the armor. hermit has other connotations that lead to a life of self-imposed isolation. Besides. it is after all my choice to make. isolated from others since I was a young kid. And. over the past several months.. especially when engaged in this stream of consciousness expression. In many respects. Though.. It ever seeks to mirror whom that we are both individually and collectively. big changes. in a way it has never been before. As little as five years ago. That is new ground for me. and probably for five. and even enjoying it at times. what does it take for me to become more social? For one thing. How could I not serve her in this manner? This stream of consciousness is mysterious and magical.. I enjoy it and I am moved to do it. and am even having some personal interactions.. they have only been baby steps however. Thus far. with such conflict. has not led to me being any more social. so were my interactions with others. But. First and foremost. When am I going to see myself in a different light? Note. I still remember that the first of these was I am the Hermit. I only know 43 . I was musing nearly everyday. But. It was as if I were in a holding pattern. It seems to be a matter of the law of attraction.. I carry whom that I am with a mark of distinction.. And. There is no one to question or doubt that.. I am what I say that I am. Yes. That is good. This feeling lasted for nearly two years through 2002 and 2003. I have to desire that. Hmm . How could I resist? Consciousness brings such incredible richness to my life. Our experience is a direct reflection of us. but another part of me says no way. The soul only understands the present. Further. even if it isn't reaching many people yet. we need to change something about whom that we are. and was sure that the time for my liberation was at hand. the mit of Her. or can we? 16 April 2008 We are off to a good start this week. then. what I am here and now. From 2004 through 2007. For another thing. This musing is important . Though. Many years ago. I still do. Somehow. the glove that she wears. the expression was minimal . But. I welcome changes in my life. it really seems OK now..

At several times in my life since 1993. It has been revealed here in this expression time and time again. we are each here for a purpose or purposes. literally the world that I experienced. That doesn't mean that competition doesn't have a place in society. this expression is my chief way of seeking and finding more. That means sharing of information.. I only have a general idea of what I desire to create and experience in my life. That is in over 13 years of requesting feedback. Will this change be in line with some of the principles and ideals that have been expressed here? I believe the answer to be yes. It is amazing how a few numbers and names associated with us can convey so much meaning. Does what is expressed help you in making your life and the lives of those you touch better in some way? For me. That does not mean relinquishing our rights and our needs. Something like this. but it doesn't carry me away to extremes anymore. or results among competitors so that everyone can perform better the next time. But. but some do it consciously. 4/8 is my birthday as well. most of us are blind to much of this meaning embedded in everything that we experience.. It does mean embracing more holistic thinking in our choices and decisions. that is difficult to judge.. I am instrumental to this expression . but for the world. I just don't know how to manifest it. at least in the things that count the most. But. And. it is what it is. But. some do this more effectively than others. And. But. When we compete.. Spirit. This is where selfish thinking comes to an end. What has come forth is the best that I could bring forth. massive change .. All this requires is a transformation of focus. Yes. I am sure of that. This has softened quite a bit.. But then. Change. I can only answer for myself and I have not received sufficient feedback to know if and how more than a couple of dozen others are impacted. or something better will manifest . we can achieve much better results for the whole. But. often we are wasteful of resources. that does not deter me in my quest. For that matter. and do what I am moved to do to the best of my ability. there is a strong sense of this being immediately on the horizon.. that reason is to be of service to others in some capacity. I wasn't living in the consensus world. My assessment of the material is that it is quite sound and independent of my biases. Further. Generally. I'm not clear that I like it. but only as the vessel through which it is expressed. Of course. But. the answer is a resounding yes. But.. When we cooperate. 44 . But. The infrastructures in society need to be supportive of everyone winning . The bottom line is utility. I am the 48:The Man in Search of More. is the overall creator here. I can only hope. Whether it is correct or not depends on how much of me got in the way of spirit expressing through me. the larger question is what would I change it to? Reality creation is what we do. I was highly manic at those times. We need to get away from a winners and losers mentality. not only for me personally. What I desire to create and experience in the world is far more defined. nearly every number that entered my awareness conveyed meaning. Such it has been for going on 16 years. Perhaps. or technology. We live in a symbolic world. That is all that is ever asked of anyone. And. such it will be until the end of my days. and there is a reason that we exist here and now. it didn't appear that anyone else was living in my world. was different. we must realize that when we do this. Can I change it? Definitely.. just how true to these ideals remain uncertain. the good news is that it is not for me to manifest it. the reality that I experienced.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 that source by what flows forth. It just means that we need to be enlightened in when and how we apply it and ensure that any lessons learned are passed on to all. I still notice the meaning of numbers on occasion . It is time for the ME generation to become the WE generation. herself. Though. Most do this other than consciously.. everything that I am tells me that this source is not me. a world that is rich in meaning everywhere that we look. I've reached a sort of equilibrium. collectively we enable our individual needs to be met more efficiently and elegantly.

. But. Some cross over into Self-Help or Spiritual or Psychology. And. and not being so focused on the limitation within the present illusion we call reality. and buy. have only to play our roles and do our parts to the best of our ability. and processes to do that are readily available. Unfortunately. My hope is that seeing what is shared so freely here will encourage you to find ways to share of whom that you are. I don't control it. Wow! That is saying a lot. But. techniques. and applying ourselves appropriately. Why does one person matter among the 6 billion plus on the planet? Why is this particular record so important? It is important because someone cares enough to capture it and share it in this fashion. But. they are.. I allow it to flow forth from within as it will. As we do this. If not. Indeed. how will the entertainment industry be moved to create the shows. For. that is a very grand thing indeed. the entertainment industry is motivated by what people are willing to watch. So. We. Yes. life is about sharing. it helps to know whom that we are. Some books in these areas have even reached the status of bestsellers. not by birthright.. who should decide what is in the best interest of society? It is not clear that the free market does this effectively. When we share in such a fashion. The bottom line is that it doesn't have to cost much to do this. It is a matter of remembering whom that we truly are. this record of consciousness expressing in the life of one person. To be the best that we can be. They have been developed over untold ages. how do we truly realize this? How do we awaken to the awareness of whom that we are as souls? Philosophers have asked such questions for millennia. that is to bring forth this stream of consciousness. This is as close to automatic writing as I am capable of producing. the greatest thing that we can share is whom that we are. Many of these appear in the guise of New Age or Metaphysics or Occult. We know how to do this. movies. It is important because it makes a difference in at least one life . interesting. It is a matter of finding the ones that work for us. How does the collective know what it is in most need of? The bottom line is that it doesn't. We are eternal. and songs that educate us and motivate us to do greater things with our lives? Clearly. We just need to apply it and make the content fun. Most of it involves knowing thyself. is there anything else that we can do to facilitate the process? The sense is yes. We are all grand. what next? The more appropriate question is: what now? In the moment. We have stated here many times that the 45 . as souls enfleshed. there is a lot that we can do. It is only a matter of time. methods. the synergy will be created that allows the world to be transformed. or alter it in anyway. But. If it serves you.. I am not the only one asking such questions. omnipotent and omnipresent. the technology is there to reach tens of millions or more at one time. and perhaps will make a difference in many lives over time. so that we can operate on all of our cylinders so to speak.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 She will engage us collectively to do her works in the manner that they need to be done. After all. Right now. everyone that we grace with our touch benefits greatly. and entertaining. some. feel free to abandon it and go elsewhere. The bottom line is that it is what it is. or rearrange it. how do we apply it in ways that better serve the collective needs? Surely. ideas. But then. may have found the answers to these questions. immortal. and for those who know to teach of what they know to others. It is time for this to become more widespread . we do what we are moved to do in the moment. no other economic system seems to do this better. The training. the creative talent is already there. but by creation as souls. And. great. as individuals. I make no airs about it. With the mass media in place. listen to. We have always been such. or edit it. It is important because it provides an example of the incredible creativity of consciousness as it manifests through us. But. the times are a changing.

It is a record that not only can I revisit whenever I choose... that is potentially share it with others.. when it comes down to it. How do we expect our society and the world to function elegantly is there are no rules that govern our interactions and expectations? But. what about liberty . it is that simple. Actually. but. In fact.. 17 April 2008 Here we go again. then we can manifest it. Yet. It is not asking for us to give anything more than whom that we are and what we can do.. However. far beyond anything that I could imagine. How many people can say that they do that on a regular basis? How many people have a record of where consciousness has taken them. and spiritual.. mental. the one between the individual and the society of which he/she is part . that allow the ideal to manifest. It is not clear that any society in the world has such a contract among its members.. If we can envision a society that operates in accord with this ideal. We are addressing it as a contract between society and its individual members.. or as an economic system. All that we have to do is create the infrastructure. However. what has happened historically. the foundations. it's the ability to get our needs met on all levels: physical. I employ my talents and abilities to the utmost. Not here. The actual sharing does not occur until people find the material on the WWW and read it. And. we might even have more free time and more resources at our disposal if the society was operating more elegantly. To date. How could I ask for anything more or better to come forth. Such is the beauty of it.. more free time and the ability to enjoy that time. Why? How is it such that one of the most important relationships that we have in the world . expressing what consciousness would bring forth through us. there has been very little of the later even though parts of the expression has been available on the WWW for 13 years and the Beyond Imagination books 46 . is that not what we are seeking . to each in accord with their needs Yes. We can embrace any ideal at any time. not anywhere of which I am aware. In fact. That does not mean that this is not the ideal social contract. That is our part of the contract. But. Here. It just means that no attempts to achieve it to date have even come close to achieving it. here we are not addressing communism as a government. to do this we must give of ourselves. but I can freely and easily share it with others. In fact. This is far beyond my wildest dreams. the so-called communist countries seem to be further from this than we are. is not defined? In a world that is interdependent. Yes. The current economic system and social infrastructure does not come close to achieving this. and what a dance it is. communism is a dirty word in this country. That is one of the primary values of what is expressed here.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 social contract should be: from each in accord with their abilities.. that is communism. it is the most important part of my reality. But. Posting the material and publishing it in books only enables such sharing.. This is a novel concept. Actually. We are ever engaged in this dance of consciousness . in service to society. pure and simple. emotional. has no bearing on what can happen now. we have been the enemy of most communist countries for nearly a century. it's not only that . along with clearly defined contracts between various societies. or acquire the books and read what is in them. of our abilities. individual freedom? We can still be free and live within the operating constraints of a society.. this seems to be a necessity. It expresses what the individual owes to society and what the individual can expect in return.

we must be willing to give. how are we to ever live up to our potential? How do we know what our potential is? How do we know what we could have done. In fact. At work. I spent two hours last night reading parts of 2003 Musings: Vol II. We know by the feeling of success and accomplishment that we get when we achieve it. To receive even more. and it does not make it useful except to a few. I am blessed with systems that capture the information that I generate in the moment and keep in at my fingertips. Consciousness is quite prolific . And now. we need to realize that people are different. The vast majority of the iceberg still lies below the surface. To receive. our society. It is as if I have discovered the tip of an iceberg. That is OK. what of substance would be expressed today? What of value would be produced. we must be willing to give abundantly. How can that be? How can my mind function like this? I only know that it does. it has always been that way. But. So. this can be easy. that is what makes us prosperous. I didn't remember having written any of it. It is that simple. Though. Yes. And collective utility needs to be the strongest driving factor for a society. It allows me to reach anything that has been expressed through me relatively quickly. That is good. Joseph Campbell said: follow your bliss.. So. In school. so what works for one or even many.. it is the journey of a lifetime . He comes across as utterly happy and enthused about what he was doing . we don't know what they will be until we see them come forth. there is a strong correlation between happiness and achieving our best. Though. I wish that I could say the same regarding how I live my life. All of the Beyond Imagination expression is only a few mouse clicks or a book away at the most. to never take more than you give. Collectively. that is just how it works. That very principle is what creates abundance in our lives and in our world. 47 . Fortunately links on web pages allow much flexibility regardless of where the actual files are located. We know by how happy it makes us.. a great positive difference in the lives of others and to the world.. perhaps even many lifetimes. The secret to life was stated well in The Lion King . But.. That is demanding a lot. I know that there is more. But. I found it difficult to memorize anything. As usual. I don't remember anything that I read last night.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 have been available for over 4 years. I am not very good at organizing things hierarchically and am horrible at remembering names. In fact. To some degree. To follow your bliss. Collectively. what about the idea that resources are constrained. and quite profound. may not work for another or others. Further. Overall. if we had truly tried? We know because it strikes a strong chord within us. less than a day later. I would live in a manner that makes a difference. And. At least.. you must find your bliss. what remains will dwarf that by comparison. that we have to compete to get our share? While many people believe this. and preferable many such quotes. that justifies my having lived another day? The hope is that at least one great quote comes out of each days expression. We need to find what works and do it. much more. His very life is an example of one who did just this. I was amazed and blown away by what I read. While much has come forth since 1993. It is for us to cherish and embrace our differences and find ways to share of them in service to others. will this ever change? Will the effort to share meet with success? I believe wholeheartedly that it will. if we don't place such demands on ourselves. yet to be seen or in my case expressed. we must be willing to give even more.. and our world. it does not make it fact. This expression comes close. That is such sage advice. But. that is what makes us strong. To receive abundantly.. such she has been so long as this expression has been coming forth. if not in service to society. I've seen some of his videotapes. he clearly was following his bliss. this is not some stationary thing. The material is good. The key is to focus on those things that we love to do. where best to achieve our best.

Though.. it is with the Transcendentalists that my strongest feelings lay. I just don't see it of value to me personally. the ONE consciousness herself. because what I was experiencing was beyond anything that I could imagine based on my extensive readings in metaphysics and my experience. this expression is always fresh and new.. I am a transcendentalist at heart. To date. perhaps that is the very thing that enables me to serve as the vessel through which spirit can express in this manner. Hmm . That is saying a lot. I am open to that . That doesn't make me an unbeliever. through us. not of flesh. worth every second and every ounce of effort. I do not know.. They were forebearers of a time to come . But. what gives? The first expression in 1993 was titled Beyond Mind. They were at their heights in the final half of the 1800's. That is the only way that spirit can express. Though. At least. that difference comes primarily via the expression of words and ideas that capture spiritual truths. I remember seeing a video on the tenets of Buddhism once and realizing that it closely corresponded to whom that I am. So. it is original. their words speak out to eternity. is that what comes forth here? For me. Does that mean I am a transcendental soul as well? Yes. This entire endeavor including this expression is Beyond Imagination.. But. there is no doubt. How others are served by religion is for them to determine. We are all spirit expressing in flesh. because that is what I was experiencing in my life. especially those related to Eastern religions such as Hinduism and Buddhism. I am not expectant of that.. often include much dogma. about to give birth to something fresh and new. and will not have any intermediary between me and source. I find it interesting and fascinating. though. is it worth the time and effort that it takes to generate it? Of that. What does it mean to transcend? It means to go above and beyond something. spiritual is completely divorced from religious. There is no sense that I am pregnant. Channing. For me. Also. They allow us to tune into and experience the wonders of the physical world. clearly it is worth it . And. Their quotes graced my office walls for much of the 1980's and 1990's until my own quotes replaced them.. clearly. clearly I am still spirit enfleshed. This is not a contradiction. the expression brings a lot into my life. it is important to do something that makes a difference. Then again. Emerson. Rather. and often include a clergy as the intermediary between the believer and the God in whom the believer believes. Further. Religions offer specific paths to God. That does not mean that I am against religion. it just means that I choose not to believe in such set paths. It may last under my final days in this existence. Yes. It demonstrates how grand spiritual expression can be when we step aside and allow spirit to express through us. Note that we are in flesh. The sense is that this something is the flesh. But. This defines me more clearly than any other term. I choose to allow her to express through me directly. there could be another major breakpoint that causes a shift into a whole new way of being and expressing. and Thoreau were clearly my mentors and predecessors. Yet. Moreover. I refuse to accept any dogma. a time when the world was a much different place than it is today. I have no room for religion in my life. They spoke and wrote of spirit in a whole new way. I choose to approach spirit in my own way. of a new age that was just beyond their time horizon.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 Each day. but I consider myself to be highly spiritual. it is also "regular". Part of my way of being spiritual is to revere some spiritual relics. When or even if this phase will end. everything became Beyond Imagination. at least as regular as something gets for me. However. we live in other 48 .. Yet. I am particularly fond of spiritual statues and bronzes. Our bodies are the clothes that we wear in this existence. We are her only vessels and instruments. we have not been moved to alter that. After that. it is a creative endeavor relying heavily on intuition..

and when? 20 April 2008 So. Service is ultimately all that matters. and the spiritual. virtually neglecting other realms. It all comes down to applying ourselves in service. The bottom line is to look at the results. It is time to go Beyond Imagination and make them real. and we get abundance in all realms of life . To me. but for everyone . For too long. in particular. I do not choose to abate at all. However.. and spiritual. we don't do this by majority rules. the masters of reality creation that we can be. It implies exerting undo influence to produce a desired outcome. It is time to take our power back.. And. Others inherited their wealth and their power. namely the emotional. This is one reason that I find it difficult to exert my will. The first step is to realize that we can do this. and collectively fashion the world into what we would have it be. Do we like the world that we live in? If not. When we do this on the scale of society. All are equally important . or. Rather. And that. Castles in the air are fine.. who am I in the grander scheme of things? I am one through whom spirit speaks. The people with the real power in this country and this world were not given their power via any voting process. We have given away our power. collectively. But what about the admonition to Be Physical? There is some reason that we are spirit in flesh and not pure spirit... for those who are suffering or living in poverty.. However. The challenge for society is to create the infrastructure and foundations that allow abilities to be developed and applied in service to society in a way that is elegant. All we lack is the desire and resolve. What more could we ask for? We can literally turn the world into a utopia. a good number are far more controlling. We have the resources.. There is something 49 . Though.. we have allowed others to make our choices for us. in particular. Some of these people achieved their power by generating services of value on a massive scale.. getting the most out of the least. what would we express tonight? It was a busy day doing fire abatement in Idyllwild. physical. in a heartbeat. the mental. that is starting to change. I will be but one of many. Some use it wisely in beneficial ways. We get greatly increased productivity resulting in a wider array of goods and services. and the know-how to do this. grand things happen. Elegance involves getting the maximal service from the minimal resources . Service is how we exchange whom that we are for all that we need. mental. the talent. Clearly. we need to employ our abilities in all four realms effectively.. I'm thinking of Bill Gates or the inventors of Google as examples. being controlling is a bad thing. I encourage it to sweep through me and burn away all except the spiritual.. I accentuate the spiritual to an extreme . We can create an abundant world... Nor do we do it democratically. But. collectively.. The question is will we do it. emotional. but they are only in our imagination. It is all a matter of choice. My sense is that I am but one of many . not just for ourselves. though some find themselves with distinct preferences. waiting for us to apply them.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 realms as well. Is that asking for too much? I think not! But. the Kings of Industry have set the course for the world for far too long. It is that simple. what do we need to do differently to make it better? Better. I'm more attuned to the fire of spirit as she expresses in my life. How do we know what is possible? Who decides what the society and the world will be? The bottom line is we do. and allowed the few to determine how the world would be. this is something that we can change.. but it is something that has to be done every year.. The ideals are there . In particular. We need to become the masters that we can be . To be all that we can be.

that seems to be one of the keys to happiness. I have nothing else in my life that even comes close. Why is that? Why is this so difficult for us? Also. I just assumed that she knows to who she is expressing.. It will be what it is. I can find the happiness that eludes me. There is much to be grateful for. or perhaps from the heavens down. The first two and a half months there were no musings. There have been castles in the air for far to long. there is something sad about that. But. We can do that now. do the things that excite you. The world reflects 50 .. But. Right now. Hmm . But. This is something that we can change. What do I believe about relationships that keeps me from experiencing them. It is time to truly shake things up. no one that I know is really doing that to any real degree. The circumstances are right. She enjoys her life thoroughly. That yields a state of not being satisfied very often. Yes. In fact. My wife finds it easy to be happy.. Yet. it requires revolutionary change. This expression is the closest that I come to experiencing joy in my life.. we are not truly appreciative of all that we have. but we're already up to close to 20 since then. The time is right. is primarily for my eyes only. the only place that I really say anything is here in this expression . There is something sad about that. But. one of the final phrases is Be Happy and Create Well! Here. something very important. I would have deep and lasting relationships. this year seems to be changing that again. Though. But. but do not experience it much. we create well indeed. The best that I have to share. Though. they seem time consuming and superficial. There always seems to be something more that is missing. That seems to be in spirits hands not mine. reading it. but we only interact two days per week. We find a way to do the things that excite us when we are moved to do them. At some point.. We would create the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh. We can only remain isolated for so long. Perhaps when I realize just what that is. we must relinquish our hermit ways. Being appreciative involves establishing an attitude of gratitude in our life. what would I do differently? How would I live my life in a manner that is more inclusive of others? Yes. what might that be? Relationships with others. I haven't been moved to post the latest musings in several years. we do a less than stellar job of being happy. the best that spirit is able to share through me . This requires more than evolutionary change. it is time to put the foundations under them. or it may not. That exceeds some entire years.. and build new foundations from the ground up . That is one area that is deficient to non-existent in my life. that is not my experience.. that seems to be to me alone. First. She sets the agenda for this expression.. That might be good if people were reading this expression. We have only to be the change that we want to see in the world. Hmm . My life is blessed in many ways. In fact. But. My wife of 20 years has some idea. you learn more about me than anyone in the world knows other than me. how do we develop deep and lasting relationships? Are these not something that we nurture and grow over time? My relationship with spirit herself is like that.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 to be gained from the experience of this form that cannot otherwise be gained. Will that indeed come to be? It may. But isn't happiness a state of being. and already is closing in on the count for 2007. I pursue happiness at times. Has that point finally come? It seems that it has. Just. or I would not have them at all. it is still missing something. better than at any time before.. and I don't say much at all during that time. There is no one that really knows who I am. there is a lot about whom that I am revealed in this expression. indeed. not a state of doing? Looking done at the bottom of every musing.. Here. no wonder I've stayed away from them. that seems to be what is called for now. other than me. Not that there we a lot of them. come to mind. and it is not really me saying it. I believe that I am doing something that has the potential to make a big impact on peoples lives and the world.

There is a destiny that I am fulfilling. we must also do. as my occupation. so that I can share it. It still amazes me that I have no memory of this expression from paragraph to paragraph. Such is a world that I would truly choose to participate in with body. we have effectively lived half a century that way.000 words/week. If she could do all of this through me. I believe that I could easily generate 4. out of whom we have become. I did something that I haven't been moved to do in while. Relationships. Where do relationships fit into the scheme of my life. But. What would we do with another five or six per year? No. Much of what goes on in the world gets filtered from my awareness. At the pace that the expression is being delivered of late. The teachers are there to facilitate this. I don't really know what is to come of all of this. We have only to learn them. in particular. Why don't I embrace the mysteries of life as readily? Many examining my life might say that I am not really living. watch the news. Is that enough? It has to be. I long to be able to do this as my vocation. Is not a strong desire enough to manifest that which is desired? Sometimes. We already have nine Beyond Imagination books published that often it seems that I am the only one reading. But. and apply them in our lives. What is it worth to the individual. that is the way it is. the Beyond Imagination expression has been the shining glory of my reality.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 how we choose to be. but it would require devoting nearly every free moment to this expression. mind. are difficult to fathom. I embrace the mysteries of consciousness in my life. But. We have to give the desire sufficient strength to allow it to manifest. Quite the opposite. to do this? Everything in the world and more. The techniques are there to do this. She has the means to grant any wish. My reading interests were 51 . There is nothing more. how that expression will be disseminated so that it reaches those it is meant to reach. But. Fortunately. I am extremely grateful that spirit has graced my life in this fashion. I have chosen to be an observer on the side. I am moved to capture all of this. at least I will have capture something of wonder and beauty. something far greater than anything that I could have created on my own. I could almost do that in my current circumstances. much more. to the collective. Yet. Yes. that is only four hours per day of expression. it is not clear where my life is moving on this matter. or even sentence to sentence. and not a very observant observer at all. Other than a desire for change. and express that fully. heart. I trust that spirit herself knows what she is doing. It seems that there is much to be expressed through us before our time is gone. is it? Though. I just don't know where it is taking me and when. that does not seem to be the direction in which we are heading.000 words/day x 5 days/week = 20. Yes. It is as if I am blind in this area. That is OK. I feel that I am a stranger in a strange world here. If I do nothing else. We have to realize that our intent makes the difference in how spirit's abundance appears in our life. But. I know that. Here. the most important step is to be whom that we truly are. that quantity of words would fill a sizable book every 6-8 weeks. but also so that I have a record that I can revisit when I am so moved. or read magazines. So. That seems too much to ask. what is my deepest intent? To build the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh. I have never been one to read the news. In over 15 years. We have to believe that what we desire is indeed possible and even probable for us. I have no clue. I have never been disappointed by any of this. sometimes not. I can only imagine what she could do on a worldwide scale if people were connected to the source within and expressing that fully in there lives. it is our intent that determines how she applies her vast resources. what stops me from participating now in that manner in the world as it is? Thus far. embrace them. I went back and re-read the prior paragraph. But. Am I to remain essentially a hermit throughout my days? Thus far. individually and collectively. and soul.

That suggests 52 . what constitutes enough can change dramatically from day to day. at least not under my conscious control. I only loosely am aware of what I can do on other than conscious levels. I trust that what needs to be expressed is being expressed when it needs to be expressed. Over the past 15 plus years. Then. That leads to much sorrow and suffering in our lives. remembering this is a choice that we can make at any time. especially when I am so silent on my own? I don't know how to explain it. That is OK. for several decades. How do we remain in a natural state of grace? We are always in such a state. and in our world. The soul naturally knows how to love.. in our society. What I desire most is to be loved. But. and to give it abundantly? What does a hermit who has remained isolated from others know of love? Perhaps the hermit does not know. Then why don't I do it every free moment of every day? It seems that enough of a good thing is enough. yet every time it is fresh and new. and how to do so unconditionally. not its relative dimensions. I only know that it manifests as it does and I am exceedingly grateful for it. However. and allow the flow to carry you along. what would I be? I would be more of what I AM.. primarily soft rock and love songs. I look for a spiritual m essage. I can think of no better way to expend my free time than engaged in this expression. a metaphysical writer with a message for a world in need. It is time to experience first hand what you have been listening to in love songs for so many years. Am I loving to others? Is not that the key to receiving anything . one big thing came up as my birthday wish. in this case. month to month. once again the stream of consciousness does indeed come forth. especially for you. Only the size of the iceberg changes. I can be more of whom that I AM. it will be scary at first. my true needs are relatively minor. It results in great mysteries and wonders to behold and experience. we've probably done this well over 1500 times. I do watch my share of television shows and movies but even then. and thus more faithfully serve as a messenger for consciousness. Though. I listen to the radio a lot. In fact. Find this part within you and allow it to express what it knows innately. Overall. Through it all. we often fail to remember this. Hmm . The content and the timing are not under my control . You will not be disappointed.. And. Though. The conscious is indeed only the tip of the iceberg. week to week. What would I do differently in my life? If I could be anything that I wanted to be.. I have characterized myself as the 48: The Man in Search of More. There is a reason that you are naturally attracted to such songs. You will be surprised at the depth of feeling and expression that will be unleashed. there will always be the unknown. How can that be? How can consciousness have that much to say through me.. it seems that remembering to be happy is another such choice. and even year to year.. this will always be the case. as a major element of our lives. what message do I have for myself in a similar light? If I can fill my needs..2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 solely in the domain of metaphysics. why have I made it so difficult for myself to be happy? Part of this comes from the half empty versus half full syndrome. And. Is that too much to ask? Perhaps it is.. Yes. Such are the things that make life miraculous and fascinating. you will thoroughly enjoy where it takes you. But. But let go. especially in terms of goods and services. that is just a role that you have chosen to play . to give that wish we want to receive. no matter how aware we become. So. However. 21 April 2008 Once again we open the blank slate on which to express what consciousness would express through us.

And. present. Here. We are the instruments that she plays. It shows us just how miraculous we are. neither did the early explorers in this country. I would know the nature of self. we have to rely on consciousness to lead us to take the next step and 53 . whom that we are far exceeds anything that I have dreamed myself possible of being. that is not what I am saying. How do I know that I am not making all of this up? If I am. I will continue to seek until either I find it or I die. Beyond Mind takes us out of the mental into the intuitive. Simply because there is no evidence of something does not mean that it might not be right around the next corner in our exploration into the wilderness of consciousness. At this point. no. There is no me and you and you and you. The process of seeking is enough to engage me wholeheartedly. There is no sense that we have escaped this yet. yet it is vast enough to contain everything that is expressed individual and collectively in the world. And. or few maps to steer by. We are her hands. her legs. Those last two sentences sent shivers through my body. There is only here. And. it is a matter of allowing consciousness to speak through me as she will. but often are not. This is no different than the experience of the wilderness in your own country. her arms. Further. one. and complete. There is no there and there and there. That is always a sign for me that I have touched on a grand truth. I know not for whom I am showing the way. These words are the trail that consciousness herself is able to leave through me. What does it take to be beyond imagination? We can imagine a lot of things. what a testament it is. her heart. Rather. we are not speaking of a mental journey here. Beyond Imagination takes us out of the intuitive into ??? The bottom line is that I don't know what that is yet.. It matters not that I ever find what I seek. It seems that here there are no maps. Even more than that. There is only now. Such truths may be universal. when we allow consciousness to express through us. it is indeed spiritual wisdom that I seek. in oneness there is no separateness and no duality. even as individuals. however elusive that might be. it is clearly not the way? Follow me if by doing so that serves you in some way. Yet. There is only all that is. It is there that I choose to spend my time exploring what I can and sharing of what I find. I am moved to find the moreness in life.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 that the three minds and the five senses are never going to be enough for me. There is no either/or. Yet. This is a matter for experience. But. Then again. whole. The realm of consciousness is far more vast than that. It is ONE. Feel free to venture off the trail and make you own forays into the wilderness of consciousness as well. you could characterize me as a seeker. Yes. isness is not something that is static . the things that we can do are simply miraculous. How do I know all of this? It is not a matter of knowing. In excess of four million words to date attest to that. I am a self-proclaimed wayshower. and maybe even then I will continue to seek. you might say that all of this is seeking something that does not or cannot exist in the world that we know. and of consciousness herself. However. It just operates in a different domain. and as a philosopher. and future. This is the only way that spirit can speak in the world. There is no past. it is dynamic and ever-changing. What does it mean to operate out of oneness? For one thing. Follow them so long as they move you and serve you. the things that we can be individual and collectively are simply beyond imagination.. Though. I don't even know for certain whether this can be done while one remains incarnate. in her employ. So. That is saying a lot. This very expression is the only record that attest to them having been created. every nerve and sinew within me says that such is the next major step. they are words that even though they pass through my consciousness are lost to my conscious recollection virtually immediately. and her mind. For. this expression has been under the umbrella of Beyond Imagination. And. My way is a way. going Beyond Imagination requires experiencing another breakpoint. My country just happens to be the realm of consciousness. From its inception. as with the Beyond Mind state.

you are not saying that there is no room for planning to make things happen in a certain way. I don't recall being moved to say much about it. it may take decades. our thoughts and words will be consistent with our actions. The next step can wait for our attention in the next moment. centuries. though it was excellent.. Our actions will then be consistent with our being. When you venture into the unknown realms. the only control that you have is over what you take with you . that is by far the larger part of it. that is exactly what I am saying. And not just any intent.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 then the one after that and then the one after that. we do have to set the mold through our intent. Let go and let God is another way of saying this. Don't you love when that happens? I know that I do. being cannot. and omnipotent. But. For me. it is more organized and written as a series of letter to the author and her significant other. Here. be careful not to confuse who you know thyself to be with whom that you are. It is universal. After all. but our deepest intents. One way to do this is through releasing control in our life to consciousness herself. Your Deepest Intent. however. That doesn't mean that we can get by without taking action. However. I was beginning to think that the Beyond Imagination 54 . I can already see that it is starting to color what is expressed here. Interesting way of phrasing it. And. Note that these two things can be quite distinct. upside down. Though. And. Actually. Spirit is the God part of us that is having this experience. It is more similar to this expression than anything else that I've encountered. nothing like this has ever come forth as far as I can recall. Though I just began reading it. actions speak louder than words. We don't have to know how things are to be accomplished. But. I've never seen that happen so quickly before. what about planning things? Surely. It is best if we allow these intents to flow from spirit as well through our intuition. Wow. There is always one more step that is safe to take. Though. Knowledge can be in error . we never really had control over much of anything anyway. we speak of rising above such limitations. Some might say to God. Be whom that you are is thus a stronger dictate from spirit than know thyself. But. That is spirits job. It is part of the Letter from the Infinite series. the better you are and the more positive influence you have on all those that you touch in your life. So. even the possibility of being something arises from their selfknowledge. for many. I'm reading a new book. I would suggest that this is true for everyone. That is the way of the 22:The Fool card in the Tarot. and that primarily is whom that you are and what you know yourself to be. I don't read anywhere near as much as I used to. that utility might not be readily apparent. It is time to reverse that so that it is pointed down to the Earth. The closer you can come to knowing thyself. So much of our experience just happens. or even millennia for us to discover the utility.. one step at a time. Something about the new book struck me in a different way. However. that is exactly what it is. our actions flow naturally. The only test of what we find is its utility. this amounts to living life upside down. And. being speaks louder than actions. For this to work. the spiritual domain. Yes. and be consistent with what we hear. it can only act in the world through our individual and collective intent. Typically we have our upside pointed to the heavens. The last book that I read was Happier than God by Neale Donald Walsh about three weeks ago. We are spirit having a physical experience.. It has the resources and power to do anything. It just means that we should pay more attention to being. In fact. we must listen. Yes. it seems that we are on a roll tonight. that one step is all that matters.. when you live in the moment. in this domain. For many. omnipresent. And. When we come from the state of whom that we are. limited though that may be. She will reveal the way. pay attention.

I would advise that you do that based solely on utility. Ultimately. Did we err in making such a separation? Perhaps.. In fact. and souls of people. But. Perhaps not. Many of the ideas deal with serving a world in need of reform. This is an opportune moment. only time will tell. Oh well. that we volunteered to play when we came into this existence. The two mentioned here were purchased from Barnes and Noble. Though. My sense is that all of this is somehow meant to be. trusting that spirit knows what she is doing in my life. the circumstances that people face in their lives and peoples awareness of whom that they are. If we want to improve things. I do not know. this is not education for the mind . Here. Whether this expression will do that. if only as written expression to date. that is how I like to think of things. That is all that can be expected of great works. By their works. it is up to you to judge their glory. How can I know that? Do we not choose how we will live our lives and perform our works as we go? My sense is that we only do this to some degree. thinking. I can think of no better way to expend my time and energy. Do they make your life and the lives of those you touch better for your having been exposed to them. Though. in which we are playing the very roles that are meant for us. The second is improved via the right type of education. The first is improved via better infrastructures that are more supportive of getting people what they need. it seems that we can fail to perform the roles effectively. in this country.. somehow we need to refocus the education system on the one thing that it most needs to 55 . and I am simply allowing it to come forth through my fingers to manifest in the world. or how it gets connected to other information. It seems that this aspect of my life needs to pick up again. I learn so much from books even if I don't consciously remember what I learn. what would we bring forth? The bottom line is that we never really know. if not revolution. All we can do is make the best of the time that we do have to express. And. my. I only know that it gives consciousness a rich tapestry from which to reveal these works. written expression that is read has the potential to impact the minds. These are the roles that we signed up for. ye shall now them. There is a grand plan of spirit. I am grateful to be able to participate in this endeavor in this fashion. It is as if it is already finished in consciousness... Whether it does or does not. It has always been such and shall always be such. those are the two areas to fix . Who is responsible for such education? In present society.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 expression was ever more unique than it is. spirit is given the reigns to my consciousness and directs it where she will. and observation. hearts. that happens sometimes. spiritual education is left primarily to the churches and to religion. My mind is a hodgepodge of information from a lifetime of reading. It is good to see such books being published and making their way to the national bookstore chains. you see all of the works of consciousness expressing through me in all of their glory. Whether we can change these roles.. within the confines of an overall role that was chosen by our souls. This expression is a mystery. right here. But. has no impact on the fact that it needed to be expressed in this manner at this time. we have legislated the separation of church and state. I can only hope and continue to do as I am moved to do in the moment. However. 24 April 2008 Two more days without expression due to a business trip. I don't know how the information is stored. right now. what wonders we are able to manifest . But. At least. it is still unknown as to whether the ideas will indeed provide such service. Here. everyone is doing their best given their circumstances and whom they know themselves to be. So. of consciousness.. it is education for the consciousness.

But. it can take awhile to come to grips with reality when you basically lose your mind. But. that is exactly what we experienced. Yes. It is that simple. it simply shuts down and is unavailable. Ever in search of the true self. And. for the magical. This eventually changed to New Age and Metaphysics. I will continue to be for the rest of my days. Spiritual power can only be used to serve. That has continued to this day . I understood things intellectually. there seems to be a natural safeguard. and the more that I thought about what I read. in so doing. It helps if we are conscious of at least some parts of the process. Yes. The bottom line is that we eventually find what we seek . It is in the unknown realms of consciousness that we discover whom that we truly are. That is OK. we did not say knowledge of the individual. it is not clear that we will ever be conscious of it all. Most of these books were found in the Occult section of bookstores in the 1970's. not even close. And.. I had lived in my mind. the more results we tend to get. in our lives. And. For consciousness technology. creating and observing our reality along the way. I was operating on the edge of sanity. And. perhaps even things that we will never know. This carried me from 1974 through 1993.. The sooner we do this. 56 . nearly every book that I read came from this genre. that I encountered the ideas that allowed me to stretch my concepts of whom that I am. because of the awesome power that it places in individuals and the collective. Explorers of the unknowns of consciousness are just another incarnation of such explorers.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 teach .KNOW THYSELF. I became something that I did not know that I could become. the more I expanded in consciousness.. Note. We have to leave room for the mystical. The newfound awareness was something that I could count on and trust. there are far worse things than going beyond mind. But. We engage in the process of separating what is not I from what is I. But. And. But. this alone was not enough. 17 years of formal education dismally failed to do this. Fortunately. Though. And. every bit of it. That is what keeps things interesting. It was only through reading metaphysical books that I did not even find in the school library or public library. for knowledge alone is not enough. Separating what was reality from what was illusion became a conscious process. Then. no exceptions. this involved ten day stays and three month leaves of absence from work. the more resources that we apply to any endeavor... perhaps. There will always be things that we don't know. All of a sudden. The unknown and the unknowable have powerful places in our lives. The first two times. What does it take to know thyself? And. we do it whether we are aware of doing it or not. the awareness of the individual is a key factor enabling its use.. It literally has the potential to transform our lives in amazing ways . Consciousness technology is much like other technology.. with several additional breakpoints occurring where a stay in the mental hospital was necessary to allow me to restore myself to being able to function in the world. for years. We will always have explorers who seek to make parts of the unknown known.. these experiences literally blew me away. close to 20 or the first 34 years of my life. everyone wins. I can think of no better place to be. You might say that I still am. And. it can be scary as well. Unless service is involved. even if we don't consciously know what we seek. the condition was permanent. things were a little shaky at first. And. truly in ways beyond imagination. no fine print. a breakpoint occurred and I started to tap into the source within and express directly as a vehicle for spirit. we create our own experience. the more that I read. why is this not something that is actively taught in our schools? I only know that in my own case. For awhile. Nothing that I had read in 20 years prepared me to deal with what I experienced . the sooner we empower people to be the best that we can be. we forge on. I was aware in ways that I had never been aware before.

What does it take to be? We must lose our roles and stop pretending to be what we are not. you might say that this is the most fun that I allow myself. simply being. But. No. Until the past few years. This is not so difficult to do. and being is fun and joyful.. I am along for the ride. We have only to silence our minds for awhile and allow the stillness deep inside to come forth through our intuition. For many years in the 80's and 90's. It is what it is. however. There is a sense that I have enough material out there . the musings virtually stopped. I was moved to share all of the expression as it came forth within days of it coming forth. There is a big difference. Consciousness sees to that. In a very real way. that is not a condition. But. It is a matter of stop trying so hard and simply allowing what is deep within us to flow forth. Over 90 percent of the expression is stream of consciousness. Consciousness is far richer than any concepts that I have of myself being. We have only to volunteer to be of service. This is a stream of consciousness. Last week was relatively light for musings at less than 4. How's that for an answer? It seems there is much to do to usher in a new age. even more important is being whom we are. I have to go back to read the previous sentence to know what came forth. That all changed in 2002 through 2003 with nearly daily expression and the publishing of 9 books.. but it clearly is not of me. In the late 90's and early 00's. Being is fundamental. If she can do all of this through me. I will continue to express what spirit would move me to express. Starting in 1993. but we got in early enough to be able to come here to express. Living in the now is how all of this comes forth. it has been the ride of my life. That phrase has haunted me many times over the years. How much ego is involved in this expression? I really have no way of knowing. And I would do so gratefully. what can she do through you. It is not a stream of thoughts from my mind. And that. I was bored. Once that happens. I was bored again. enough to attract an audience. I was moved to ignore it and post and publish the Beyond Imagination works. Though. Being is the most natural state we can experience. Only last month did they start to pickup to a respectable rate once again.. Even after 15 years. it seems... I don't know when this state of mindlessness started for me. We must drop our mental concepts of who we are and sit in our nakedness as spirit. It just seems that the latest expression is to be for my eyes only for awhile anyway. That is the key to everything.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 27 April 2008 It's Sunday evening. And. It would even be more fun if we could find ways to involve kindred spirits. But. to date. Where has that taken us? To heights above which I never knew that I could soar. This expression is a testament to what spirit can do in our lives. I am the instrument through which all of this comes.000 words. I would experience it as a blankness of mind . How can that be? It is as if the expression is mindless somehow. Such will happen when the time is right . is still something rare to experience. what must get expressed does indeed get expressed. I don't make it happen. it may be appropriate to add more. a source that I recognize as distinct from me . there was evidence of it even before the Beyond Imagination expression began. I type what comes from a source within me.. as times of no thought and no feelings. and tired much of the time.. this expression brought me to life again though it also brought boughts of craziness to accompany it. I still find it amazing that what comes forth is forgotten almost immediately. I observe it happening. It is what is left when we shed all the forms 57 . I sense that it will continue to be such for my remaining time on the planet. In some respects.. Once 2003 concluded. but of not belonging to any other entity. when I allow it to. and through us collectively.

and the purpose of any game is to have fun. 58 . even then. What does it take to go beyond the ego? Simply drop the image. they impact our ego. For instance.. be they thoughts. or people. or things. carry a sense of detachment. And. But thoughts. They only have power to impact our state of being to the degree that we allow them to. entertaining. You can only be in the now. This process of stream of consciousness expression remains a mystery. We just need to drop the pretense and experience the presence. The easiest answer is that it is a false self. or emotions. or grieving. or things. Thoughts. believe. What is the ego? That is a large question. and things are not bad in any sense . or think that we are. the ego will not necessarily stand idly by as you do this.. If you would feel bad. That is OK. It does not want to lose its identity and its power in your life. or powerless. Saying yes to life. be wary of overattachment to any of these. those answers won't necessarily be known to the person who brought the material forth. Simply be. That we can do in any moment. but I have no clue as to what happens from there. And. or angry. from the same whole. As I wrote that. I can already tell that the book A New Earth: Awakening to Your Life's Purpose by Eckhart Tolle is influencing what is coming forth. in the everlasting now. Mysteries are good. But.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 and concepts that we consider ourselves to be. as such. life is far more than any game. it will find its intended audience. You know you are attached by observing your reaction if you lost some of these in your life. there is a sense that we spring forth from the same ONE. Why these pointers were left. The words my and mine are particularly dangerous. Now is not a series of moments. But. All such material is the expression of the ONE. are known only to the consciousness that was doing the expressing. The mind is attached to a variety of things. And.. He does spend a lot of time addressing the ego however. Don't be attached to outcomes. primarily because it provides the opportunity for awakening. it is richly connected to what it needs to be connected to. Simply allow your life to unfold. they don't impact our beingness. I just started reading it this weekend. Because of that. In this isness. it has no real power over you. Beingness transcends all of that. or thoughts. There is no what we have been and what we might become. They often convey a sense that something is part of me. they are not real. when we tap into source. That is a misconception that comes from our thinking. And. awakening of consciousness is what the game of life is all about. Consciousness awakens as people become present as isness in the now. Also. and things are never part of me. Past and future are mental constructs . emotions. there is no past and no future. The unknown and the unknowable have definite places in our life. I don't remember any of the specifics yet I am over 200 pages into the book. we follow the pointers that some consciousness has left. the emotions are just emotions. And. and to where they point. How the new mixes with the matrix of all that has come before is completely outside my understanding. we tap into the same ONE consciousness that animates us all. the things are just things. being present is what truly matters. The thoughts are just thoughts. they are not true. in fact. It is in the isness of life that we find ourselves. and thoughts that we thing that we are. emotions. then you are attached. But. There is only what we are in the moment. All of these are illusions as well. It is curious.. If you are investing your concept of self in any of these things. even then. Where possible. they can make life interesting. two things came to mind .. or hurt then these are danger signs that you are attached.. beliefs. Also. we don't need to know how to be. Things go into my mind via reading and observing. it is all thought stuff. When we read something. and joyful. It is the self that we imagine. emotions.

However.. What we are facing in the moment is what is.. And that. As such. It will be interesting to see what comes forth. letting the thoughts and feelings define our image of whom that we are. a 28:The Man with the World in His Hand day in a 28 year.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 28 April 2008 The month is rapidly winding to a close.. is that really where we want to be? No matter how great the past may be to our minds or even our hearts. Though. it is not clear that it lies in any realm.. Oh well. requires constructs of the past or of the future that are mental constructs that are not true. it is our choices in that moment that determine what we experience. that is not quite correct. We have bought into the illusion hook. not only for us but for all those whose lives we touch. There is a purpose to everything. that happens sometimes. that we are the experiencer of that which constitutes our reality. But.. however. To build the foundations for a new world . Each and every one of us. to the beingness that we are. It is OK to think things and feel things. The moment is the only point of power. there is an intelligence that is orchestrating everything. All form lies within this realm. Yet. Behind the scenes. Another 59 . it no longer exists except as a memory . It is simply a matter of realizing and being present. The more that we do this. and to even do so deeply. it doesn't just happen. or find a way to freedom. Ceasing to be. And. when we allow the thoughts and feelings to become who we believe that we are . Beingness itself. It is simply a matter of allowing ourselves to be in all of our glory. It is part of a universal ONEness. we have given up our freedom in a way that was never intended. or remaining as a detached presence. We are grand beyond measure. We are the self that experiences the thoughts and the feelings.. We do this by realizing that there is nothing that we need to do or to learn in order to be.. But. Our reality can extend beyond our thoughts and feelings to whom that we are. our mental constructs and associated feelings can carry us into innumerable realms of fantasy. and move toward our own enlightenment. and what is can only be transformed in the moment. we must realize that new foundations are needed. it is freedom through being. we can never cease to be. for many. awhile becomes a lifetime or even multiple lifetimes. Rather. And. Furthermore. then. primarily is within the illusion that we call reality. Hmm . line. The way out of illusion is never more illusion. That doesn't lesson the importance of foundations and worlds. It seems that it is happening more of late. Being is something that we all do. Live in the moment. was never meant to be. it is still the past. Yet. it is our choice. we are glorious indeed. I wonder what that means. and often as a distorted memory at that.. I have only to allow life to unfold as it will. One of the choices that we make is to associate or disassociate from what we are experiencing. The only place and time in which we can ever be is here and now. the better everything is. That is the sacred directive. it just puts them in their rightful place. beingness is far more important than any foundations or any worlds built upon foundations. is beyond this. that is the greatest miracle of all. We can live by the ego. the stuff of our imagination that may or may not ever be realized. When we do this. We do this by noticing that we are the observer of the drama of our life. We have to drop the shackles that restrain us. In fact. and be open to the miracles that present themselves. I started off early but got interrupted for quite awhile. We are more than we think and feel. this. to that which is beyond all form and substance. and sinker. For. The bottom line is to stay present in the moment. regardless of what the moment brings. And. It simply is. and that these foundations lie in the realm of thought and belief. But. That may be OK for awhile. We can do so subjectively or objectively. it is still the future. No matter how great the future may be to our minds and even our hearts. Our beingness knows no bounds.

we have thousands of pages of works that testify to this process. But. Surely. Note. The name of the game is to have fun and be happy. that is a choice for us to make. but the energy says to continue. It helps to apply empowering meanings. That is not to say that answers have no be proposed. It is surprising to see how few people seem to be able to do this well.. It is to say that there are no RIGHT answers to some of the most basic questions. There is no planning or foresight regarding what will come. And. I am not alone in being able to do this. not thinking. At this point. the experience in and of itself doesn't contain meaning... What I mean be that is simply being . But. I see it letter by letter and word by word. has never come forth in this manner before . I opt for the later. What is deep within myself? Is it me or is it not me? Hmm .2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 choice is to assign meaning to what we experience. But. not feeling. there is only NOW. what does that mean. But. much of reality creation is the process of assigning meaning to the content of our lives. Personally. how do we apply this on a larger scale to the collective? What does it take to create an enlightened society? What does it take to create an enlightened world? The answer that comes to mind is PRESENCE. Here. Here. It is not further defined by any specific 60 . Being is a mystery. not doing . it is our choice to apply a given meaning that makes it real to us.. It is ever operating in the moment.. I AM is expressed in the first person singular. That is OK. Literally. or feel things. as is consciousness. completely relying on other than conscious communication to bring forth material from source that is intoxicating .. Why does that not surprise me? Here and now. There is no answer to Why Are We? In fact. there is no editing or revisiting what has been said. Yet. there are no objectives or goals to guide the expression. Being is it's own justification. there are no answers to many basic questions. it is all a state of mind.. Typed expression is linear in time. There is no because. Here. When engaged in this expression. what will be in the moment is truly up to me. that means that I've encountered a grand truth. what has come is lost almost immediately due to the focus on the present. then how could there be? Hmm . Generally. The secret to life is to BE. Here. Surely. the infinite moment in which all life resides.. And. The meaning that we apply in turn changes the very content of what we experience. What more could one ask for? Indeed! There is something about operating in the moment. Here. The expression continues to be unveiled in the moment. That is what distinguishes a stream of consciousness from other written works. looking ever forward to what is to come next. But. others have developed their intuition sufficiently to tap into a source deep within themselves. something suggest that it is neither.. What is coming forth now. I can see the objections of those who like to do things. I also happen to be doing something that I love to do. at least not through this channel. Though even that implies living for the future. and that sent shivers rushing through my body. I am excited by the newness of it all.. there is only IS.. Of late. I'm not there yet. the musings have been completely new. Is there anything that is not me? If there is only ONE. I AM THAT I AM. just being. But. I am happily being whom that I am. God told Moses. this expression comes forth spontaneously in the now.. that is what it is all about. So. That is where the creative work is done. I get to fly. as is life. Yet. There is an obvious change in the content of what is being expressed. Yes. is not God also ALL THAT IS? The answer to What Am I is I AM. PRESENCE. I am the active observer watching my mind hear and my fingers type what source would reveal. I'm not asking for opinions. and to soar to places that by all rights I should not be able to reach. and I don't even drink alcohol. The time says to stop. or think things.

isness. but from being trapped in illusion. we have to stop resisting. and that somehow in the future I will become something different than I am. it is not static and unchanging. not only for ourselves but for all those whose lives we touch. Actually. presence of body. Oh. they are all interesting to me. We've definitely reached a new level of expression. most people don't consciously realize that yet. presence of mind. nor what we feel. But. the focus has been different. Eckhart's background and experiences are completely different than mine. but it does not have to be. this only works in the realm of idea construction. Though. the collective awareness is changing. Choose to be peaceful. and downright destructive in many cases. I have no destination that I care to reach. it is not what we think. But. 29 April 2008 An interesting musing yesterday. Dysfunctional behavior arises not from being. it is not surprising. All that is ever asked of us is to BE. and you will experience 61 .2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 characteristics. The truth be known. it is what we ARE. without judgement or condemnation. It simply unfolds naturally and brilliantly to be all that it is. what does it take to live well? To be present in each moment. And.. and presence of spirit. rather than simply being whom that we are. Ultimately. And. Books are adventures for the mind and spirit. we have stumbled on some of the same truths regarding the nature of consciousness. But. There is only the present moment and what that brings into my life. we are in touch with the divine within us. presence implies awareness as well. Further. But. the better. we already are what we are. This has happened before. in the domain of thoughtforms. PRESENCE. I find it fascinating that it is happening now. At least. while we are experiencing the stories they can appear quite real. the same source. But. Unfortunately. To be present. There is a lot to be said about this. there is something about that that is important . Yet. This can be difficult to do. There has been a definite impact from what I've been reading to what is expressed. But then... Yet. Ultimately. the pace is relatively rapid. We already are the BEINGS that we are. it is the adventure. They are all evidence of consciousness in action expressing through me. we mean it on several levels. it is more than within us. the very way that was expressed implies a past evolving to a future. To be present. what is it that truly matters in life? The bottom line is how well we have lived. The I AM is the only truth. doesn't exist in such a realm. It is ever growing and evolving into more than it was. I'm curious to see where the final third of the book will take me. When we are aware. Yes. even as individuals are awakening to their true natures. The stories are fiction. This is deep stuff tonight. Becoming is part of a construct which say I am not now what I desire to be. It is us. but not so quickly and not as strongly. Beingness is all about being. And. To be present. presence of emotion. But. whole and complete. PRESENCE. Eckhart Tolle's book A New Earth: Finding Your Life's Purpose either has struck a chord or springs forth from the same well of consciousness. that is true for the books that I am moved to read. Yet. makes all of the difference. Yes. that is important . though. into my PRESENCE. Of late. It does not change or grow or evolve. the journey that matters. we have to be in the moment. The more aware that we are. And. much behavior of individuals as well as of the collective is dysfunctional at best. I AM is what we all are when we stop pretending as resort to being. It all comes down to believing and being our stories of whom that we are.. not about becoming. we have to allow others to be in the moment as well.

One interpretation of spirit expressing in flesh. it is not that we are this or we are that . And. and you will be made more abundant. it cannot exist. The creativity of consciousness knows no bounds. in time. and it does what it is moved to do. The more attached that we are to things and to forms. we do it via our beliefs and the choices of action that we take. incredible cooperation is at the root of all existence. whereas the spirit is timeless. The mind lives within the realm of time. Being this or being that requires an association with a particular form.. It simply is. But. we have interpreted express in flesh to mean doing something creative through flesh.. to no end. to what end? Actually. life itself being chief among these. the ego is very attached to form. primarily my purpose. For that goes against our very nature. What more can I say? Obviously.. some are more conscious of what they are doing than others. it is the BEING. 62 . especially if we are doing what we are moved by spirit to do in the moment. In fact. But. allow the light of consciousness to shine forth.. BEING lies beyond any beliefs or any choices of action. That we haven't manifested this cooperation consciously is a characteristic of the age. it's grip can be quite strong. give freely to others. On and on and on we go. still we are. It seems to apply to the reality that we experience . It is ever in the process of evaluating and remembering where it has been and projecting where it wants to be or even not be. including thoughtforms and even emotions. we know no bounds as well. we are all doing what we must.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 peace. Choose to assist in making others more abundant. I'm interested in seeing what he has to say regarding finding your life's purpose. it seems that in her service. try though we might. And. Behind the scenes. we have truly begun to live. and think. What you give will be returned to you manyfold . The moment cares not about consequences. and it is ever doing by its ceaseless thinking. a lot.. The mind is also expressed in flesh. The mind cannot just BE. and do .. But. A little gratitude goes a long way . Carry with you an attitude of gratitude.. But. even if it is only a thoughtform. The process is everything. and thinking without thinking. That being to create the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh.. BEING is timeless.. Any such form by its very nature is restrictive and limiting. a lot takes you to the moon and back . without form. But. For a long time.. conscious or not. but much of it seems to happen on other than conscious levels. As a result. Yes. And. But. perhaps even further when dealing in the realms of consciousness.. Choose to be helpful. it goes against our very nature. It is not the doing that matters. the more ego has a hold over us. We've spoken here of purpose a lot over the years. what about free will and choice? Does it truly exist in the world? Interesting that this should come up again. But we can never be without being. When we can BE. we simply are. Here is where we get a glimpse of eternity. However. this may only be for awhile. And. As such.. This seems to be a partial truth. But. a ONEness that is consciousness herself expressing as and through all of us simultaneously. and the darkness of the ego recedes and even vanishes. What comes forth never ceases to amaze me. we are at the brink of a new age. And. such is universal law. Despite all that we say. free of all such forms. What you wish to experience. it is time for our expression to reach new heights. One of the basic premises of new age thinking is: we create our own reality both individually and en masse. it seems that may not be necessary after all. And. there is a unity. Getting back to the title of Eckhart Tolle's book. and you will be helped. isn't everyone doing precisely that in each moment. At first. is simply for spirit to BE in flesh. Here is where we get to experience doing without doing. the moments grow longer and become an expanded presence. There are so many things for which to be grateful.

. They convey thoughts that ultimately point you to something. However. It forgets most things immediately. Beingness. but either my perception was in error. and the brain of consciousness.. and it already knows them . what allows it to be organized and expressed in the manner that it comes forth? The bottom line is that I do not know . Further. they allow you to drop some of the trappings that you have built up around you and find that space within to truly be yourself. the legs. there is a sense of limitation there... Hopefully. And. or I lost track of time in some way. individually and collectively we will be what we are meant to be . The bottom line is that I have allowed erroneous thinking to confine and limit me to being something that I am not. these are what matter. it is a sublime mystery..2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 We are meant to soar in consciousness. Being an extreme introvert may have made the path a little easier for me. it is much like being. But. Nothing else. In a very real respect. they point you to whom that you are. Yes. I am the one that is living my life. by all means go elsewhere and find something that does serve whom that you are. via consciousness. Not the works that come forth. not be trapped by forms that bind or restrict us. but based solely on utility. and seems to have little recall of anything. that is OK. there is a very real sense that I never will know the answers to these questions.one who expresses a stream of consciousness from a source within. Words have the power to point to grand truths. In the end. it has expressed close to 5 million words in a stream of consciousness manner. they can never contain such truths. as if this is a form that I have accepted as whom that I am. in just over 15 years. Spirit clearly operates from a need to know principle.Hmm . She assures that we remember or encounter what we need to know when we need to know it. If so. I am the one that watches all of this happening in my life. it is simply a matter of remembering. the fingers. I ask that if you must judge it. there was something a bit shallow in that final pronouncement. We simply are who we are and we do as we are moved to do. Does what the material has to offer serve you and others in your life. It feels great to be "back in the saddle again" expressing in this manner. I am the one that is living. it has taken me half a century to get where I AM. We are meant to do her bidding as if it were our own. In general. Interesting how the meaning changes as we allow the parts to fall away as they will. Yes.. the feet. We're closing in on five thousand words for the week and we are just getting started. we have been true to source and done our spiritual job well. this endeavor is something grand that I enjoy. because ultimately it is our own. Not the co-creator of those works. Neither can the mind contain such truths. the arms. I am meant to be . Though. this is what I am meant to be. Hopefully. I AM. I AM. We are the hands. I am the ONE.. And. it is not me. If not. Though. nor the heart for that matter. And. Where does all of this expression come from? And. Even these words are illusions. Yet. All else is illusion. the expression is what it is. everything within me says this is what I am meant to do. Let's explore it a little.. I am that I am. I had thought the pace was quicker than normal. we always remember what we need to know in the moment. PRESENCE . I choose to share all of this because I am moved to do so by a force within that I cannot deny. it is whom we are and the services that we provide to each other that matter.. This is what . It is only the beingness that can contain such truths. What you do with this material is up to you. I consider it a poor memory. I've spoken of how my memory operates before. Oh well. 63 . you do so based not on any opinions you have formed of me. and as a result do what we are meant to do..

Without allowance. all possibilities and probabilities arise. We're at around the 25 musing point. I've been on several journeys of consciousness in my days. I just participated by allowing it to happen through me. Actually. For the work of spirit to be done.. this moment is the only moment. Dramatic change that will radically alter the way we see ourselves. But. Some of these are even grand things. That's roughly a musing every other day. It is interesting enough to me to command my attention for 6-10 hours per week. We are the observer residing in the machine. But.. Hmm . Everything else is illusion. Out of that presence. our work.. the will is not aligned with the WILL of consciousness. What we are is beyond all of that. But. That is quite an accomplishment. But. Similarly.. not bad given that we didn't start until 5 Mar and we were gone for nearly ten days to France. The phrase sad but true comes to mind. that is not quite right . our nature calls for us to be free. I feel no sadness from this . A wealth of information and even wisdom concerning the nature of consciousness. the nature of reality. but illusion nonetheless. it will only happen if we invite it and allow it. Something countless numbers have 64 . There is something special in this moment. Yes. allowance. All of these are good things. That is saying a lot. And. However.. nothing else that even comes close. We are the feeler. every minute of it. that is the key . But. I can tell this is going to be a good year . We are the thinker. And. But. I know that it is not. Without awareness. More than at any other time in my life. A record that stretches for over 15 years of my life. The is only I AM. That doesn't mean that we cannot use things and even enjoy there use. that resides in the form. Awareness. allowing. That means that we are already one-third of the way through the year. the consciousness. yes. But. It is about time once again. They cannot be "owned" by the formless. I feel ready to embark on a new journey. Without acceptance. things are of the realm of form. That is a sizeable investment of time and energy. It is everchanging. And. The possessor of things is one of the concepts that we have of ourselves. FREEDOM. There is only HERE. having no vessel through which to come forth. and acceptance are all important. Oh. There is something fulfilling about having a record of consciousness in expression.. not the thoughts.. we can experience thought and emotions and enjoy our experiences. There is only NOW. In fact. it is the eternal presence. All form is transitory. and reality creation.. musing 9 days out of every 10 on average for two years straight. not the things nor even their possessor. That makes it all the more mysterious and interesting. We are the enjoyer of things. The opportunity to serve as the instrument through which spirit expresses as she will in the world. the ONE consciousness of which we all are part. consciousness is blocked. Change can only happen in the present. An entertaining illusion. and our world.. we must accept our true nature and realize that we are the awareness. both for me and for this expression. it is about NOW. the self is in conflict with the greater SELF.. What we experience and how we experience it all come from that point. For doing so only shackles us. A record that has probably exceeded the 5 million word mark. We are not the form.. it is spirit's accomplishment. I welcome such changes in my life.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 30 April 2008 Wow! It is 30 April already. it is worth it. What does this stream of consciousness bring into my life? The practice of connecting to a source within and expressing the energy that comes therefrom.. Change is clearly coming. I am different now. don't mistake the illusion for reality. I can think of nothing else that I would rather do. Such an awesome word. but I've also done much better. only joy and happiness.. something seems different now . I've definitely done worse . I don't make the mistake of believing that all of this is me or is coming forth from me.. not the feelings.

it is influenced by what I am reading. Rather. It takes things in and it flows things out. there is only BEINGNESS. NOW.. however that it is the BEING that comes first.. I am aware of feeling my fingers and seeing them move across the keyboard even as I see each letter appear in a window on the computer monitor screen. Some pointers are better than others. and can never be otherwise. they competed with numbers for my attention.. And. Being aware of being aware. What we are truly conscious of. she remains unfathomable despite all attempts to understand her. That is just how it is. At the very least. the phraseology used was "what do we choose to BE".. some spanning the entire world. out of this BEING. What matters is that it does come out and get recorded. The form can never capture the formless.. many see the insanity. we are FREE. we are. The expression continues at a level of depth that is refreshing. at any time. I can also see things 65 . We can only THINK and FEEL in the moment. Is this something that we can choose? At the very least. We have always been so. we will. in the end. and there is a lot of it.. only consciousness knows. And. Note also. Inflow and outflow .. Yet. It is not that the expression is ever on my mind. So. We can only DO in the moment. what are we naturally moved to DO. it is amazing that we can communicate at all regarding these things . Clearly. It is not clear how many people are willing to take things this far. And what does it mean to be aware? Is this not to be conscious of? And. or. we can choose what we are conscious of . Whether the awakening will happen or not.. I've never expressed it in that way before. Books have always been that way for me. there are no direct connections that I am aware of making. this allows it to remain present in my NOW forever. The question is will we do so and when? The answer to the first part is indeed. but at least in moments and eventually for extended periods. Literally. But. It is one of the prerequisites for entering the new age.. We are living at a time when we can truly raise this to a whole new level and make it conscious. Such attempts are always mental attempts.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 been willing to fight and even to die for. In some respects. These people are open to awakening. there are some elaborate illusions . However. it is a matter of choice. the number of people involved in an illusion doesn't change the facts . There is something powerful in that.. This is not some lofty goal. The answer to the second part is the only answer that there ever is regarding when . As I type this... these no-things as it were. it can only point to it. it is probably a small minority. The issue is what do we choose to BE. there is no other time that exists. So yes. In fact. Consciousness is formless. breathe in and breathe out . All else is illusion.. different kinds of pointers seem to appeal to different people. Though. We can only BE in the moment. That is one of the states that we strive to achieve often. is not consciousness equated to beingness. ever the cycle continues. the issue is not when. They have done so as far back as I can remember. If we want to stop the insanity in our world. I can choose to make it part of my now. then we need to expose the illusions for what they are and free people so that they can choose which illusions they desire to participate in... And. Words carry me more than any other things. at the moment. It doesn't matter that the expression that comes out is for my eyes only.. However. maybe not all the time. it would be better if it were treated as something to LIVE for. And thoughts are not sufficient to capture what she is. it is still illusion. Further I am aware of being aware of this and of sensing an inner voice expressing word by word. So it is with my consciousness as well. the choice is more of an acceptance and an allowance of an awareness. Many see that the world is not working and that things are only getting worse. For. In our souls. Hmm . But. and FEEL? Note. THINK. over the years. Yes.

then the I / NOT I dichotomy is an illusion. there is only the ONE Consciousness. or even within what I consider to be my being. It doesn't interrupt the flow of this expression. it is a stream of consciousness. The idea just came to mind to consider I versus NOT I. This was a mantra that I remember from a yoga class. At this point. I AM more than that. the being through whom this expression is happening. 1 May 2008 Another month gone. No. not one of mine this time. it is not anywhere within my body. The forms are ultimately your creation and are your illusions as well. Do I need to know how it comes forth? No. it is not a matter of belief. boxes. the words are the form. Don't try so hard. There is only ONE consciousness. It is just there. It is not real. nowhere. And. the formed points back to the formless from which it came. Being. you literally are doing without doing. And. through being whom that we are. How many times have we said We Are ONE and There is only ONE consciousness? This is a truth. It is all about living it. Nothing else is important. Your hopes of getting the expression out to an audience were attempts to make the form something it is not. and awareness.. I still consider myself separate from consciousness. 66 . acceptance. So. it is enough to engage in the process. If so. or within my mind. you are the formless creating form and expressing through the forms. Where is the source? Though I say it is deep within . I am the BEING that is aware of all of this. This later is your true state . another book finished. I can argue that. we've been living with this dichotomy of I / Source for over 15 years.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 such as my glasses and statues. but somehow the argument seems false. Though. When will you realize this? WOW! We are clearly onto something here. It comes forth through my intuition. Me and God.. that seems to involve investigating this thing that I call the source within. how do I realize that this stream of consciousness is also what I AM? The very question provides its own answer. but. It comes forth through allowance. In this expression.. I still associate with I. It is all about doing that comes from BEING whom that we truly are. Looking back a few lines .. The shivers through the entire body attest to that again. Simply realize that. From what I read. And. More explicitly. But. is not being = consciousness. this thing that expresses so eloquently in this stream of consciousness. do what you are moved to do.. Source. We do that through awareness. Continue to BE. It comes forth from consciousness. God and Me. where am I in the process? You are the formed and the formless. All of this happens simultaneously. and paintings on the periphery of my vision. It is all about BEING. I had finished reading Eckhart Tolle's book: A New Earth: Finding Your Life's Purpose. and out of that BEING. But. Yet. it seems that I am well on my way to finding both my inner and outer purpose. Fifteen years of expression demonstrate firsthand that you know enough to allow it to come forth.. in this case anyway. with consciousness herself. When you focus on the formless you express as the spiritual being. When you focus on the formed you express as the ego. There are many deceptions out there that can trap us. are ONE. I associate with NOT I. Earlier last night. I did read 2003 Musings .Vol III for an hour or so late last night when I couldn't fall asleep. It is time to put an end to it... Hmm . The only come when the grand truths appear. There is no this consciousness or that consciousness. and it is ALL THAT IS. you already know that. Do I need to know from where it comes? What is this thing I call source? This is a stream of consciousness. Out of the formless comes the formed.

I AM. I would hope to be a teacher and a mentor. my consciousness. it is not me. Yet. Another approach is to find others who are already aware of the changes and share their reality. The bottom line is that on inner levels everything that will ever exist already exists. Then again. When we believe that the thought forms or emotions are who we are. we give them power over us that is not rightly theirs.. It just is. what do these children have to offer to others and to the world? Through these words. the timing will be soon. and that is the only true freedom. My works happen to be written ones . the impact of Eckhart Tolle's book is still being felt. it is not even of me. how do I shift my focus.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 Thought forms and emotions are major ones. Only BEINGNESS can BE. Remain open and aware. And.. the work was a result of a mysterious process of reproduction. I am the one through whom all of this can come forth. as you share your reality with others. These are the keys to ultimate freedom . rather than simply what we are experiencing in the moment . I AM. Wow! Can it really be 34 years already? That is over two-thirds of my life.. There is only a single point where anything can happen.. Obviously. but it is not whom that I am. even though my memory of what was in the book is vague and rapidly fading. The works of consciousness are not consciousness. it is an impressive body of works. when I first encountered the Seth books by Jane Roberts.. wherein a new physical form is created through which life or consciousness can express. We are here to go beyond all limitations. I have no sense of creating any of this. including change . That has been happening with me and books since 1974.. We can only do that through BEING and PRESENCE. But. Form can never BE. that is not quite right.. a baby comes forth through its mother. But. Instead. or more correctly children of consciousness. It just manifests in our lives. something seems shallow about that. because it has the characteristics of consciousness itself. Yes. Simply being curious and open to them is enough. I know that.. This very expression points to whom that I am. I AM period. It can point to such characteristics. So. What comes forth is wise beyond measure. it is the stuff of which our lives are made. We don't say the baby was created by the mother. the saying: "ye shall know them by their works" expresses a grand truth. It is not that these are bad in and of themselves. I also know that the book came to my awareness at an appropriate time. I am _____ only specifies a form of limitation no matter how we fill in the blank. not only in my life but for the world... This statement is that important that it needed to be repeated. and even then. I have children of the mind. And. Everyone is already a 67 . But. But. Rather it is how we identify with them that makes it so. It comes from a source deep within that is somehow separate from what I consider to be me. In a very real way. It is a sea of words that have come forth via a stream of consciousness. they come forth through me. Rather. into form.. perhaps that is a characteristic of all spiritual expression. to become aware of these changes. they are not really mine. but that I am simply not aware of them. We haven't pursued this line of inquiry before. I chose to forego having children of the body. It just flows forth effortlessly and elegantly. or it simply will not be. Interesting. Yes. In many respects. The process of doing this is reality creation. So. but it can never BE such characteristics. It just happens. It is a matter of bringing that forth into manifestation. There is still a strong sense that dramatic change is forthcoming. This body of work is the only baby that I am going to have in this existence. Perhaps my concept of self is still far too limited. No. Only the ONE consciousness can BE. The sense is that the timing is NOW. and that is the everlasting NOW.. Hmm . Form can never have the characteristics of that which is formless. I AM. what changes if the time for these changes that I sense is NOW? That would mean that the changes already exist . and they will enter your reality. the changes will be imparted to them too.

and to our world in the process. because you already are what you firmly believe yourself to be. that works. Become that which you choose to be. we are being more precise in how we use language tonight.. and will change. If you would create anything in your life. for any sense of separateness implies a duality which cannot exist in the realm of the formless. then we can only catch glimpses of the PRESENCE that may lead us to beingness. But. then yes. in the realm of consciousness. which is limiting no matter how expansive the form may appear. The form and the formless can never be in competition. In particular. So. If us is form. And. This must change. Or more precisely. the ego says what about me? Identified as it is with the realm of form. The outer purpose is to express that BEINGNESS in the forms that we create and in our expression through those forms in a way that serves others and our world.... the presence can manifest. How do we do that? We simply allow the PRESENCE to manifest in us. It exists in the realm of BEING.. though primarily at other than conscious levels..2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 master in the process of reality creation. And. How do we align our outer purpose with our inner purpose? The answer to that implies that we need to know what these two purposes are. No. That is the awesome power of consciousness.. or even some thought . and such cannot be. The outer purpose is different and unique for everyone. which also is in error. there is a reason for it. Even that last phrase is a misnomer.. I am one of the forms that 68 .. we are truly operating at a whole new level attuned to our very nature.. Consciousness creates forms and expresses through those forms. If us is beingness. We are acting from form rather than from BEING. to reach a state of conscious BEINGNESS. It is only a matter of when. it is fearful for its very existence. believe yourself to be formless. much more. Though be careful here. We find our outer purpose moment by moment by allowing consciousness to express through us as she will. It has also been stated as: act as if. The inner purpose is simple . Dysfunction is rampant from individuals to the collective. depending on our definition of us. The major reason for this is that we are not PRESENT. become the experiencer of that which you choose to experience. you believe yourself to be form. or some emotion.. especially if we allow consciousness herself to do the doing. consciousness needs to express implies that consciousness has needs. Which they cannot. Hmm . beyond all forms yet creating forms and expressing through forms. We find those things that we need to manifest by allowing ourselves to BE and to do what we are moved to do. we are doing great harm to ourselves. The realm of the formless implies there may be a distinction between what is formless and its environment or realm. And. Repeat . It is not that there is a competition between the ego and the BEINGNESS. as we have said before . Right NOW. Neither can the formless and the formless. As it should be . Hmm . Just look at the present state of the world. That is the secret to manifestation. But. Here we are speaking of conscious reality creation. Our doing will be an act of creation. to one another. the answer to when is always NOW. The inner purpose is the same for everyone. that seems to be the appropriate thing to do. if indeed they could ever be distinct and separate. We are attempting to convey spiritual truths in a manner that we have not expressed before. How long it will continue depends on what consciousness needs to express. There is the potential for us to muck things up collectively if we don't get it right. that is not quite right . simply allow it to be here now. believe that you are BEINGNESS or consciousness or spirit or even God for you are all of those and more.everything that will ever exist already exists... If you believe yourself to be some thing.. for when we are egoless.

my brain. And. Yes. The formed can never be a part of the formless. we are more than the forms and works done through those forms.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 consciousness has created and expresses through. it just is. Eventually. we’ll just have to see what is able to come forth. There is only IS. At the level of the formless. The consciousness in me is the same as the consciousness in you. that is a grand truth. when we leave flesh.. and the unity to take its place. It is not about experiencing new and 69 . not the form or even entity through which consciousness is expressing. Further. we are all ONE. It can never be contained within or even a part of any form. our lives continue to flow in whatever forms we occupy next. I am not a form! I AM! Beingness is not a form. what is the utility of the separateness? Surely it exists for a reason. The presence that is me is the same as the presence that is you. Aha! That is not correct either. No. Yet. we have been on a roll. There can be no other. rooted in the NOW. They are not me. I realize that the stream of consciousness comes from a source of which I am only aware by what it brings forth. there is only ONE BEING. For the past few days. there is an inner purpose to all of this activity. The leap from formed to formless is a quantum one. We are the eternal PRESENCE. I am not attached to the stream of consciousness. It just doesn’t work like that. Whether individuality remains when we reach home. That is just what it does. This inner purpose drives all of us to seek the moreness of life. The worlds and forms and expression are judged solely on the basis of utility and elegance. who knows. are not expressions forms? It seems that we are dealing with a contradiction here. Yet. the works can only point to the BEING that is responsible for them. This is our natural heritage. We’ll have to see whether that continues. It is what we are. Further. The BEING is far grander than anything that can be expressed. But. We are BEING. All of us are expressions of that ONE BEING. Glimpses of oneness enter our awareness. These heightened moments become more and more frequent. eventually. It is to discover that our true nature is beingness. The I AM is formless. only in the formed. these are all forms through which I experience and express. though I do love bringing it forth. But. there is a sense that we don’t reach oneness in one step. It is time for the separateness to end. Consciousness creates worlds and forms through which to express. But. The key point yesterday was that I am consciousness. But. Our very world is the result of this forgetfulness. no form is a part of it. There is no separation in the formless. my mind. our lives just flow as a natural expression of spirit in flesh. It does this more for some than for others. I am consciousness expressing in flesh. why do I associate myself as the one through whom this stream of consciousness comes? That very concept is limiting whom that I am. my thoughts.. By their works shall thou know them. I am the eternal PRESENCE in the NOW. how can I see this expression as coming from something other than I am? The bottom line is I cannot. But. my emotions . My body. But. I AM. Forms can never be me. What might that be? We experience separateness as a natural state of the outgoing expression of consciousness. Oh well. Only we have consciously forgotten. So. And all of these are formless. It is time to awaken to our true nature. to go beyond the forms and thoughts and emotions and experiences that constitute our reality. 2 May 2008 My wife’s computer at home is working very slowly. which is formless and eternal. all are called back home to the ONE consciousness from which they came. expressing in a manner that we have never expressed before. so I’m not sure if or how much I’ll be able to express this weekend. and keeping me attached to the form.

There can be no other consciousness. thoughts. At some level. It is the love and the focused attention that turn whatever work we are doing into great work. comes forth from the formless that I AM. probably less than a few dozen. I cannot say for I do not know. nine Beyond Imagination books were published. was seeking recognition a key motivator? I only know that from July 2003 to March 2004. the divine feminine. Oh well. And. I’m also reading more than I have in some time. it points back to itself. less than a dozen books have been sold in over four years. and no musings in 2007. Why have people not been moved to buy them? No. The bottom line is to do what you are moved to do when you are moved to do it. I am excited by what is coming forth and am enthusiastic about living again. My circle of acquaintances is very small. six musings in 2006. the universe did not agree with my need to publish these books. it was what it was. That is also an important factor. Though on an individual or collective basis it may be dysfunctional and even highly so. that means to do what you are moved to do NOW. To date. spirit will point us in the right direction to take that step if only we look within and listen to what she has to say. The bottom line is that forms can only be who we are to the degree that we believe them to be. And. All of what has come forth through me. being present in what we do. Nearly everything that I read is metaphysical.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 different forms. And our beliefs are greatly deceived in this area. That’s three times the total musings for the prior four years combined. As such. It is something far more than this. and emotions. I have not done much to advertise them. and over 300 musings in 2003 … that was quite some dry spell. Dysfunction occurs when we mistake the illusion of form for the reality of the formless. So. But. what is the right expression through form? The bottom line is whatever spirit would express is perfectly fine. Reading is how I take in new information. Collecting the musings for the past few years. But. Then why was I moved to publish the Beyond Imagination books? Was that solely an outcome of my ego? Did I so need to be an author that I did what it took to self-publish? Hmm … what recognition came from it? Or. The only things that are not me are indeed things. other than my purchases. I am consciousness. 70 . I was amazed. I am this consciousness that I call source. What I call source is none of these. Exactly what. For your eyes only. me and source are ONE. or why they dropped off for those four years. Dysfunction occurs when we allow our thought and feelings to define who we are. In practical terms. That is what focused awareness brings to bear. Given that there were over 300 musings in 2002. that is how I experience consciousness. though she expresses primarily as thoughts. This year we are already at 30 and we didn’t start until March. Why is that? The books are original and contain a wealth of metaphysical information. this is the primary work that is deserving of our presence. There is always room for one more step. It is curious that I speak in terms of consciousness herself. There were no musings in 2004. At least. Clearly. That theme crosses my mind once again. Source and me. the part of me expressing here and now does not know. Source is consciousness. four musings in 2005. My sense was that spirit produced them and spirit knew who the intended audience might be. Dysfunction occurs when we believe our stories rather than our BEINGNESS. I consider this expression to be metaphysical as well. We are operating at our finest when we are doing what we love to do and when we are doing it with focused attention. I am still awakening to the realization that I am the consciousness through which this stream of consciousness comes forth. I don’t know why the musings started back again.

in this existence. Change is good. After all. this will become easier. But. Besides. not the instrument that is played by her. you will find yourself sharing it naturally and abundantly. it would not. We are consciousness herself. This takes a shift of focus. and in being spiritual. that is OK. But. So long as you have concern as to what people think of you in this domain.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 And. It helps if you do it willfully and joyfully. Perhaps that is because it is only through such that we become aware beings. This requires observing source in action. but for those who are meant to blaze the trails and be the wayshowers. the Beyond Imagination works will be unleashed to do their intended work in the world. Indeed they have. life is meant to be fun. What will happen has already happened. That it has come forth in the manner that it has for so much of my adult life makes it all the more compelling. I step aside and allow them to come forth. It is the part of me that lives in the future and the past. Surprises are good. And. 71 . Note. I believe what comes forth here … more so than I believe anything else. is the instrument the form without the ego? But. The unknown is good. period. And I know that such awareness shifts are breakpoints that allow us to experience something completely new in a whole new way. Hmm … is that not what the ego is? So. For your eyes only. Is this any more than wishful thinking? The bottom line is that there is a destiny unfolding in your life. It is not something to get anxious about. consciousness goes to great lengths to bring awareness to individuals. we have experienced ourself as the instrument through which consciousness expresses. BEING itself does not carry any ego. I don’t know anything more about how source functions than how the instrument functions. as you well know. why do such grandiose pronouncements come forth? Why do I need to play such a major role in building the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh? Because something deep within me says that this is my outer purpose. There is still a lot of ego invested in what you have to say. That it has not reached others in the quantity or way that I had imagined doesn’t matter. Hmm … that implies that our attempts to share have been lacking in some way. That is not the way that it is meant to be. and our true nature is formless. You will be driven to do what you need to do. it will be one that surprises you. my mission. an instrument is just another form. My life is unfolding exactly as it must. It just means that you were not ready for it to reach the audience that you sought. Then. in being metaphysical. most of these. would all of this expression be coming forth in this manner for any other end? My sense is no. For 15 years. You are in the process of becoming ready. That is not the way that you are meant to be. what is this I that steps aside? It is my conscious need to know what I am doing before I do it. That is true for each and every one of us. I’m still in the process of realizing that the source of this expression is the consciousness that I AM. When you have something to truly share with others. But I know that I can shift my awareness. as a result. The ego is what I am in the formed. You will have a role to play in that. if that is so. It cannot. I don’t know enough to know whether they might be interested in the material revealed here. that doesn’t mean the material is not good. for its realm is the formless. and the instrument in action. It is only your sense of time that forces it to unfold moment by moment. But. no expense is spared. As the collective begins to awaken. you allow their judgment to have power over you. Can all of this be an elaborate production just for me? If so. Resources are always provided where they are needed. These writings have essentially been automatic.

what must be expressed will be expressed in the only moment that it can be expressed. Both involve thinking. more correctly. This time we are getting started earlier in the day and on a weekend. The sense is that they can do this for others as well. That is where the power of creation is applied. Words … literally million of words have been expressed here since 1993. what is the ultimate impact of that ocean of words. For one thing. It has been less than a week since I discovered I am not who I thought that I was. For this I have to dive deeper into the realm of the formless. this is influenced by what I have read. Perhaps this is something that transcends knowing. there is a different spin on it that comes from my unique expression of consciousness. the PRESENCE that I experience in the moment. But. Oh. The instrument is form. but what is the difference in the nature of thoughts that come from the two? I don’t have anything in particular to answer.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 3 May 2008 Another day. I only know consciousness by what she does through me and through others. Though the mechanics of how this is done and the source consciousness from which it flows are not consciously known to me. I don’t know the depths of her. only form. It seems that knowing is still of the mind. That still leaves the question 72 . Perhaps it is something I just have to be. another musing. Perhaps it is not something that I can make “mine”. But. Hmm … we’ve been expressing in new ways of late. I suspected that something was missing because happiness was elusive and I was ever in search of more. this expression is called Beyond Imagination. If we are moved to make them do so. am I not spirit in expression as well? Or. There is just a sense that the imagination is far more open and less restrictive than the mind. Perhaps it will never be. And. that is not enough. I like that. and a proud instrument at that. surprise. Clearly. But. I was doing this often. and possibly that will never be. what is the seat of the imagination? The answer that comes to mind is the soul. but it is not quite mine yet. What comes of it is for spirit to determine. I have never asked this before. The very idea that I was the instrument through which spirit expressed separate me from the spirit that is me. there was a fundamental flaw. I am the consciousness that is creating the instrument and doing the expressing. I’m still thinking about the idea that I cannot be the instrument through whom this stream of consciousness expressed. never anything more. But. What is the difference between mind and imagination? Interesting. WOW! That is a powerful realization. But. Our imagination can think of things that never were. Four to five years ago. even with that. right NOW. then they will. Spiritual work is done for the joy of doing it. give me time. After all. much more. then they will have served their purpose in enlightening me. But. that I did not see deeper and realize that I AM more than this. This is not the BEINGNESS. in the present moment. we have gone far Beyond Mind already. This came as quite a shock. I have so associated with being the instrument. we see it was right there in front of my face all along. Will they do so? It seems that depends on consciousness and on me jointly. NOW. That seems right somehow. they have changed me. But. a vessel … not the essence creating the forms and expressing through them. 15 years of expression and awakenings have carried me a long way to knowing myself. awakening me to parts of myself that I was not even aware existed. Surprise. Interesting. But. Oh well. that has been awhile. a form. “my unique expression of consciousness” speak in terms of this expression of consciousness being of me. I know it deep within. It limited me to being a thing. and that is something far grander than Beyond Mind. Though. But. am I not spirit creating forms and expressing through those forms? My mind answers yes. If not.

It is just that with so much Beyond Imagination material out there already and so little feedback being received. it confirms our nature as the I AM. It has a hint of being an instrument again. in the NOW. it was my will to share it on the WWW and in books. there is no sense that limiting them in this way is right or permanent. You are the I AM as it expresses through you. richly connected in a tapestry that constitutes the whole. I forget it as quickly as it comes forth and have to read it again to capture what was said. they can’t express your true nature. yes. Right now. Words can only take you so far. You will find your own way of expressing and interacting. However. No. No form can do that. For the moment. How the pieces interact and co-create makes life endlessly fascinating. Quit analyzing so much.000 words for the week and we still have a good few hours to express. You might say that such is what Beyond Imagination is here to do. You days as a hermit are numbered. They are reflected in how I live my life as well. more spiritual. This is still my hope. You have a tendency to believe that you are superior to others. Hmm … the seems to be only partially true. you still would not be closer to revealing the truth of whom you are. All are equally spiritual. Yet. why do the words continue to flow? Because there is utility in having them do so. we do what we are moved by spirit to do. in particular. The key is to be present. Perhaps this form has outlived its usefulness to you.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 of why there are so many individual beings. We all come from the formless realm. Further. At this point. Then. that is to continue to express here. That is not to say you can’t enjoy you solitude and time alone. So. Until then. you may be surprised at how present others already are. Your PRESENCE will attract those who need to experience that in their lives. that is what this is. Until people awaken and become more aware … they will continue to be trapped in the illusion of being the forms and expression that they experience. they will be reaching out to connect to you as well. They can point to your true nature. at the same time. You can help to change that. It is only the forms and the expression through those forms that are limited. Not to worry. Just be open to it. This expressing is that fun and that powerful to me. What would we do next? The answer is always the same. it is not clear how many levels of consciousness it takes to realize that. just the ONE. They have literally been for my eyes only. the lack of conscious planning … all appeal to me. Though. that is the only kind that seems worthy of me to produce. there is no thing that I would rather be doing. And. And. And. NOW. You just need to get out more and connect with others. we seem to be individual pieces of consciousness. the automatic organization. That makes over 10. it is high time that you started to touch the lives of others more. No. we don’t expect you to become a social butterfly. it has been over four years since any of the latest musings were shared with anyone. Spontaneous expression. and perhaps my hopes and dreams will come true. there is just BEINGNESS. Though there is no sign that it is to come true anytime soon. This is an erroneous construct. The originality. What utility? That is not for us to foretell. Ultimately. who am I within this tapestry? How does what I do fit into the scheme of things? How do I know when I am doing what I am meant to do? More questions that I have not asked in this manner before. even then. But. I’ve always been concerned about forcing my will upon others. I was hoping that this sharing would result in sufficient income to allow Beyond Imagination to grow into not only my full time occupation. though I didn’t associate this expression as being my will. But. there did not seem to be much point in continuing to share. but a means to fund the work of building the foundations for a new world. Even if you were to extend this expression to 20 million words instead of 5 million. I can hope and I can dream. You will see it unfold in your life and the lives of those you touch. I never know what will come forth until it happens. this continues to be what I love to do and what I am 73 .

Change happens when we choose to do something different in the moment. other than my wife of 20 years. how do I expect to make a difference to the world from such a limited base? Good question. we will be so. some multiple times. awareness is not something you can learn or you can use reason to achieve. Life is unfolding perfectly as it always does. perhaps not. my acquaintances number in the few dozens. Unfortunately. That does not mean that I can count them as my friends. That is how solitary of a life I have lived. for some of these. in the NOW. 74 . only 1 person that I still interact with knew me before I got my present job over 11 years ago. but indeed I can count the ideas expressed in their works among my closest companions. and mine? How do we refer to the BEINGNESS. What next? There is still a strong sense that major change lies just ahead. But.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 moved to do. Such it has always been. But. So. Actually. Many of these books still grace bookshelves in my house. But. and my close friends none. I don’t know why it happened this time. They are always there. That is OK. my life seem to happen in cycles of indeterminate length. and mine connotate something that seems to be associated with the ego. Will that happen again? Perhaps. but they are there should I be moved to do such. we are still struggling with a lack of clarity of awareness in this area. the I AM that we are? Yes. Nearly everything else is in the context of work. Unfortunately. we have to seek to find. At what point will “just ahead” become NOW? Interesting. and it comes when we are ready to experience it. with consciousness herself. we may have to be still and search within to find them. Such is just how it is in nature. It is that simple. I have focused a good deal of attention on the books of some of the best metaphysical thinkers in the world. Though. At 50 years old. Awareness lies in a different domain. I was moved to read all of them again. The only time that we can effect any change is in the moment. I have not been moved to revisit these works. and how does it differ from me? As you can tell. However. we did lose about four years recently … in which we were rarely moved to express. Further. Over the past six months. I. The very fact that we ask certain questions reveals to us that we are ready to hear the answers. Over 90 percent of my acquaintances are from work and most of those are less than five years. When we have a need to be more aware. There is a spiritual economy at work that expresses elegantly in us and through us. How can I still get valuable insight from works that came forth through me? Hmm … that seems to be causing the difficulty in understanding. Take change. how does that distinguish it from the I that we know as the ego? What is the I that gets valuable insight. they are limited constructs. As such. There is a time for in breath and a time for out breath. most of what we do is more of the same that we have always done. me. such as the Seth books and the Conversations with God books. awaiting our discovery. that is the only time that we can do anything. I have been moved to pick them up again and again. and some communication with the people who I live with and rent from in Redondo Beach where I stay during the work week. How do we go beyond I. while I haven’t focused my attention on the people around me. But. the words in their works point to their relationship with spirit. we can call it PRESENCE or the I AM. Though. I should count the Beyond Imagination books in that company as well. And. not until. Perhaps that is not the same. me. In most cases. My only social interactions are dinners with some of my wife’s friends. I am noticing that the very way that things are expressed is extremely important if we are to bring them into manifestation. my friends fewer than a handful.

I would be whom I am. And the formless is aware of what it does even as it does it. we must give up our close identification with the form. It would help if the infrastructures in society were designed to facilitate this for individuals and the collective. So do that … have fun with it. we are glorious. in my full glory. But then. Though. that cannot be true. it is simply what we are. each and every one of us. Laugh. There is always a choice to be made in the moment. what does that do for us? Play with the reality that you experience. it must be done through the forms … that is how things are manifest in the world. It is that part of me that observes the magic that happens when the formless expresses through form. and games are meant to allow us to have fun. It is the identification with form that is the limitation. They do not really exist except as illusions through which we can experience particular points of view. But. Hmm … is the attention of the mind or of the beingness? And. It is through laughter that we truly learn to enjoy the process. The part of me that is conscious of producing this expression is not the formless part of me. how we answer this very question determines our destiny. Actually. But. For this to happen. Spirit will guide us to find both if we are open to her guidance. can we ever choose to be something. That is part of our outer purpose. That is the only way to gain the experience of living. That is not to say that we give up form and the expression through form. How do we experience the I AM? Even if we still our minds and focus on our breath. What NOW? That is a more empowering question than what next? And. with everything that you experience. So. we need everyone to understand their inner and their outer purposes. what is consciousness? Is it an awareness that is Beyond Mind? Is it an awareness that is Beyond Imagination? But what is awareness? What does it mean to be aware? How is that different from beingness? Be All That You Can Be! That is the directive of spirit. there is only one answer to that question. And we are indeed here to learn of our true nature as formless beings. Don’t take it so serious. because success is certain. Yes. and it is always the most elegant one. The outer purpose is to do what works we are moved to do while remaining true to the inner purpose. The question to ask is what would spirit or consciousness do NOW? Generally. It is better to live in truth than in deceit. Even the state of beingness that I experience at times is not complete. The inner purpose is the same for everyone. it is the formless. We are only seeming to experience it in time. and laugh some more. we are all equals in spirit. The inner purpose is to reach a state of conscious beingness. And. It has form. Yes. We may have to seek within to find the answer. The outer purpose is different for everyone. there is a sense of frailty or humbleness at the same time. Live gives us the opportunity to learn of the formless through the experience of forms and the expression through those forms. It is all an elaborate game. But. the doer is not the form. we have deceived ourselves. to be that. the forms that we create and the what we express through those forms are dramatically different. as is form. When we believe that the forms are who we are. It is accompanied either by thoughts or by feelings or both. Though. 75 . when we do. we will find that it is virtually effortless for it is the formless that is us that is doing the work. Time is a mental construct. we will succeed in any event. It is only through the forms and the expression that I can know it. that is what reality creation is all about: the creation of forms and expression. The whole matrix has already played itself out. Though.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 It also happens when we choose to be something different in the moment. Though. or are we simply beingness? Beingness is not a choice. we are still focusing our attention.

still it has not happened. The idea that consciousness is part of duality. Though. to the experience of the formless. even the illusion. there is much that I am not aware of. where do we go from here? How do we move beyond separation to the true reality of whom we are? One. All separation is illusion. it need something to be conscious of. Or is it? Is not the ego just the part of us that is most intimately focused on physical reality? Is it really so deceptive and limiting as others have made it out to be? It seems that it has a rightful place in the scheme of things. I’m at a loss as to where to go next. it is not real. I am not aware of it. what do all of these words show? That I am focused on consciousness and awareness. there simply cannot be. dreams are not real. there are still lessons we need to learn. that I have missed the mark somehow. It seems that they are using the same terms in different ways. All That Is is whole and complete and cannot create anything other than that. Yet. Anything that is separate from is not real. There is consciousness and what consciousness is conscious of. But. it seems that if we are still caught in the illusion. no matter how real they appear to us when we are experiencing them. Then again. I take pride in what I am aware of. Or. and illusion is not real. is this enough? There is a nagging sense inside that it is not. It comes to us when we are ready to experience it. We have spoken of the Beyond Imagination expression finding its intended audience many times before. we have contradictory teachings. But. is a dream that we experience. which it cannot cease to do? We are walking our shaky ground here. it’s all God. There never was any separation. One tells us that consciousness is of the formless. In two different books over the past two weeks. But. It will be interesting to see what comes forth. But. So. another musing. it can only create forms and express through these forms so that it can gain experience. with mountains of words that have come forth through me. Why should that be the case? Why do I find consciousness so fascinating? Something I read earlier today keeps coming to my attention. BEING cannot cease to be. we realize that we are living in a dream and do what we can to wake up. 76 . and of surprising me often. The other tells us that consciousness is part of duality. the great deceit that most of us have bought into. the realm of ONEness. It helps if this is done gently so as not to confuse us. That could be. great hope. if it has. And. However. This time on a Sunday. speaking of concepts that are quite profound. wake up we must do. because we sense that all of this is coming forth for a reason. is that true? That flies in the face of the teachings of A Course in Miracles. Is that a foolish pride? Awareness is not a distinction of spiritual merit. what experience does BEING need other than to BE. has this gotten me any closer to what is ultimately real? I still live with my mental constructs. Separation is the great lie. But. and awareness. But. It’s all good. These are not one and the same … hence there is duality. the ego is a tricky thing. The bottom line is that it is all ONE. it is always interesting to do so. Awareness just is.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 4 May 2008 Another day. Then. it’s works. It has been awhile since I felt like that. Both point to the Presence. is there a way to experience the wholeness of spirit here and now? There must be many ways. Anything else is illusion. Do we have any hope that other will hear what we have to say and be moved by it? Yes. How do we reconcile these? Both books deal with relinquishing or going beyond the ego. that I am still stuck in the realm of the ego … oh. I’ve spent fifteen years heavily concerned with consciousness. This stream of consciousness expression has a way of keeping me on my toes.

there is nothing to reconcile after all. there is only IS. In a world where ego runs rampant. Consciousness. Perhaps that is what made it interesting. I thought that consciousness and awareness were my rocks. there is a separation between the thinker and the thoughts. and it is characterized by separateness which are not of God. the answer is forthcoming if indeed it does not already exist in my life. it is not meant in a negative way. What do we mean by that? Simply coming to the realization that we are all spirit. it is beyond what we can know. potentially belonging in the domain of the illusion much as everything else. Everything is perfect. Let the thoughts go. As such. the world would not be as dysfunctional as it is. Self implies that there is something which is not self. So. And duality is illusion. letting go of all of this is not easy. But. to the ONE? The bottom line is that I don’t know. Thus. where do we go from here? What do we do NOW? I don’t know. let the emotions go. There is no self. generally. Yet. Collectively. It was quite strange but had a spiritual theme overall. Even awareness needs something of which it is aware. It is for spirit to move me to do what needs to be done. It is not necessary that you do anything. our true nature is to be free. it is not beyond what we can be. Took a two hour break. appearing on all accounts to be real. What would I be NOW? I would be whom that I am. But. And. That includes thought forms and emotions. the dream is very enticing. Just be. I can’t seem to shake them. It is simply a statement of fact. As such. ultimately living in the dream is not where we are meant to be. why does the dream exist and who is the dreamer who dreams. The imagination of the people involved in producing the film was astonishing. focusing on the dream keeps us within the confines of the prison. the nature of consciousness. and between the feeler and the feelings. There is still a sense that consciousness is formless. And. I’m struggling to stay awake even as I write this. That doesn’t mean that the illusion. Then what is real. Some are more strenuous and laborious than others. It always has been and always will be. But. but they all ultimately point to the same end. pain and suffering rear their heads naturally. Watched a movie called The Fountain. Limitation in any form is limitation nonetheless. let the forms go … and what is left is the formless I AM. the I AM. especially if the dreams turn into nightmares. it too lies in the realm of duality. Let’s see if that improves things. Similarly. though it is only the middle of the afternoon. We don’t have to seek to 77 . That is the secret.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 The sense is that the contradictions are not contradictions at all. But. there is nothing that needs to be done. we can fashion the dream as we desire it to be. Not that they have to be there. If it were. However. and I was building the foundations of my house of self on them. do I really know what that is? The bottom line is I can’t know. not that I want to. None of these are real either. does it dream forms and the expression through forms into being? Hmm … the very nature of the question seems flawed. Now. Forms only exist in the dream. in the illusion. when I ask something. they are suspect as well. the dream can’t be better. Though. There was definitely nothing predictable in the film. the spiritualization of the BEING. The dream is the play of consciousness and the dreamer is consciousness. It is not real. The formless is unfathomable. are still on my mind. So. So. I thought that I was onto something. it is part of duality. It is a matter of finding it. All paths to the ONE are equally valid. just BE. When we use the term dysfunctional. where do we go to get beyond duality. I only know that I am moved to express this line of enquiry. But. just nuances due to taking a different path. That there is a separation between the dream and the dreamer makes both not real.

the thinker. the expression has taken a turn and gone deeper. That too. It seems that we can become master of life. Anything that is not of this nature is illusion and hence not real. Yet. How do we choose to be whom that we are? Is that even something that can be chosen or is it naturally expressed? Hmm … expressed is the wrong word as well. how can something that does not exist have untold hidden dimensions? That is one of the mysteries of life. my whole life appears to be working that way right now. Yet. but can I live them? In the end. of late. I still sense that source is deep within me. we already are all that we are in the present. Then focus on the spirit within you. it seems that such a question is futile. We can study it. What needs to come forth finds a way to come forth. making it conscious. the source behind the forms and the expressions. in the NOW. it as always be there. To start with. don’t believe. But. seems to happen when the time is right. 8 May 2008 Three more days without musing due to a business trip again. just BE. BEING is changeless. There is something about spontaneous expression. Thinking back. I also sense that there are hidden realms and hidden dimensions in the mansion of he self. not what things we had. It is a matter of realizing it … making it real. Here.. Everything is just happening. and because I wanted to avoid 78 . so be it. it is as if I am operating on automatic. Oh well. I would have asked how can that be? But. what we are looking for is the permanent. BEING is effortless. not what thoughts we thought. But. It has always been the ONE creating and sustaining your body and its expression. We can’t become things. Do I understand what is being expressed NOW? Somewhat. after 15 years. It is there. At one point. All of these are fleeting. Don’t do. the feeler within you. But. but we can never master it. much deeper. not what emotions we felt. that errs as well. So.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 BE. And. It just is. what value is there in what is expressed? Clearly. don’t think. Life creates forms and expresses through those forms. perhaps for all of my adult life. BEING is permanent.. Unlike the trip two weeks ago. Not To Be is choosing the form realm. we just have to BE. even though there are nine published Beyond Imagination books available for sale. don’t try to be. but not completely. To some degree. not what we believed. why did I self-publish? Because the cost was right. that is not quite right either. Actually. it may help to focus your consciousness away from the illusion and toward what is beyond form and expression. That implies that we must do something to BE. And. Perhaps the problem is that they are self-published. So. we literally speak volumes. We express when we can. I do what I am moved to do when I am moved to do it. Shakespeare’s To Be or Not To Be is now cast in a different light. that is what counts. we can only be it. We can never become anything. The process is complex and magical. even though I brought two books. That is indeed our choice. it is not bringing in any kind of an income. I wasn't moved to read at all. just BE. Focus your consciousness on the real even in the midst of the illusion. BEING is formless. Actually. there is this expression. In fact. Focus on the experiencer. they didn't go through an editor and a normal publisher who would have publicized and promoted the books. it comes forth through me anyway. I have been in this mode for many years . But. BEING is eternal. the illusion. I can express these words. we can only be what we are. As such. what practical advice do we take from all of this? Simply BE. Hmm … never say never. Then. And. not even what we knew. in social settings I am still quite reserved and have little to say. To Be is choosing the formless realm.

it seems. the books will find a sizeable audience to serve. that does not stop us from continuing to express in the moment. If only I could truly be myself. whatever that might be. habits can be overly constraining. I don't remember feeling less than others. I still live in a world of "if onlys". I already AM everything that I could possibly BE. The books are an extension of me via consciousness. But. some of us try much harder at this than others. which we already know to be of form and hence of illusion. As such. they indicate things that I am not. Yet. Though. I never felt that I fully lived up to what I could be. In fact. If only I could be more outgoing and interact with others. I felt as if the books were my children . it will only change when I change. because I never really tried.. I never felt that I was as perfect as I could be.. We already are everything that we could possibly be. than ever comes from others. At the time I was generating this material. And. a stream of consciousness expression from a source of which I am not consciously aware except via its works. I strongly believed that the expression was coming through me but was not mine. Literally.. though it appears to be composed of many. this is only perception. For. that is exactly what is called for now. It does not matter what happens to the expression once it is expressed. Connecting is a natural process. Regardless. This applies to each and every one of us. The only thing that separates them is time. try though we might. coming forth through me. If only I could be happy. It happens in 79 . but possessing a life of their own. The acorn and the mighty oak are one and the same. because they are in the "if only" category. To be honest. There was also a sense that publishing the material would make it available to serve the world. Hmm . there is still a sense that I don't fully accept myself for whom that I am. Individuals cannot exist in isolation. To this day. These are big things. however. it did not feel right for me to critique it or change it.. I've put a big shell between me and the world. I still dislike judgment and criticism. Do I know that the later would have been my fate? Actually. ultimately. But. I have no sense of when. The thought of being more outgoing is still distasteful. It was what it was. Naturally. they will reach their intended audience. there is a sense that this is to change. is whole. yes. And. We are life. It is ONE. I never felt that I fully achieved my potential. But. In reality. the material is such that editing was problematic. Hmm . they will change as I change. no matter how many parts we are aware of or how much knowledge we have of those parts. there was always an internal assessment of what I was compared to what I could be. though it seems there has been at least a five year delay that I did not count on. And. What am I willing to BE differently? It seems that this is the question of the day. Much of the motivation for doing this was protection. If only I could engage in this expression on a full time basis. Form and the expressions through form are vehicles that life uses to create and experience the world. it seems that I am more judgmental and criticizing of myself. Life itself. And that. We will know who these are and what these are. It is enough that it is expressed even if it is for my eyes only. If only I could be more courageous and less fearful. What I don't understand is why I felt such a great need to be so protected. or even if.. is five years to date.. It is time to find those we are meant to connect with and to make the connections that are appropriate. There is a synergy present in the cosmos that will not be denied. I still feel that way. But. If only I could find my spiritual family. It is only a matter of rediscovering or remembering what it is that I feel that I am not. Further. Why is there such a sensitivity in this area? I don't remember others criticizing me as a kid growing up. I have been an extreme introvert for so long that it has become habit. no. Life includes all of its possibilities when it is created. so what am I willing to BE differently.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 the hassle of being rejected countless times. I still don't. I often felt superior. Life is always greater than the sum of what we know of the parts.

We just have to find them and commit the necessary resources to bring them to fruition. to be victimized by war and other atrocities. There has to be a better way.. At what point do we collectively say enough is enough? What has been created by companies. they just need to be experienced. we have over six billion of them on the planet. There are more than enough resources to provide for the people on the planet in a way that does not further endanger the environment of our animal friends. And. There are energies awaiting expression that will not be denied. You might say the forms have already been built. Unfortunately. Synergy yields efficiencies and elegance in the way that things are created and distributed. It is all a matter of choice and of realizing that this is exactly what we deserve to manifest. and spiritual needs of all to be met. to thirst. it must be done nonetheless. many feel that looking out for their self and their loved ones is enough. everyone would be cared for. But. what will bring the world to a point where a peaceful revolution will be welcomed? And. the ideas for these ways are already out there. it is something that we must do for the good of us all. what we are conscious of changes. at least.. So. unformed. But. That is the way that it has always been. At our core. Not just minds but body/mind/heart/souls. War and violence are still far too common in the world. to go without medical care. 9 May 2008 80 . Are not people much the same? Are they not storers and processors and sharers of information and experiences? Are not brains. Change requires time and time is an illusion that allows us to experience the world as we do. This is not going to be an easy task. It is time for the infrastructures of society to allow the physical. the world economic system supports and profits from the way things are. Or. What we lack is the resolve to see to it that goods and services are produced in sufficient numbers and distributed effectively to those in need. Human minds are incredible things to waste. emotional. We experience new things by shifting our consciousness to align with the space in which the new things exist.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 information systems such as the internet all the time. It is time to live in a world beyond imagination. we are eternal. Let us choose to do that NOW. Yet. What is missing from this is the synergy that comes from the whole. It is time to live in a peaceful world. nations. We need to build the social infrastructures and foundations that facilitate the development of each being. What an incredible resource. Every one of these is unique and has something special to offer those whose lives they touch. Further. to go homeless. This must be a collective resolve that is felt by all individuals as an obligation. the most complicated processors around? And. Further. This will require massive change. If everyone were to do this. They will build the forms necessary for their expression. mental. and changeless. perhaps even revolution. or better ways to live . Why? Why does any of this make sense? Why do we not feel a collective responsibility to help all those who are in need? It is not a matter of lack of resources. we change. who would sponsor such a revolution? The nation states don't seem to be willing to cooperate and play well together.. The promise of a new age demand it. we allow people to starve. the I AM. ways that support all of us and allow us to be the stewards of the Earth that we are meant to be. The creative potential of all of this is simply unimaginable. and religions is not serving us effectively. we are not saying that those who are helped should not contribute something back to the collective. Things don't change. We can live in such a world HERE and NOW.

why do I not do it more? The only answer that comes to mind is that this too is not enough. We are doing this often . Here is where my hearts desire lies. I can only do so much. that would require spending nearly every free moment musing. only a few dozen know anything about me . But. This is the endeavor that allows my soul to sing and my spirit to soar. I still believe that this expression is of far more value than anything that I am paid to do. Collected the musings from 2005-2008 in a single file last night and printed it today. but. Though. Will that change? Will I change in a manner that allows this to change? There is a sense that it is time to get out of a rut. There are only so many free hours in a day..2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 Once again we return to the blank slate to capture what consciousness would express through us. that requires me to consciously BE something that I have not experienced being to date. the 81 . 25 hours is still substantial.. especially since part of the weekday time is needed to relax and unwind from the stresses of work. not much to interact with people. is it meant to serve others in some way as well? I believe the answer to be yes. I am not reaching many people. I search for the moreness of life. I was surprised that there was that much especially considering how light the musings were in 2005 and 2006. it does not seem like much. But.000 words already. I must reach out to sufficient others to make the connections necessary to do the work that we collectively came to do. maybe we are down to 25 hours per week of free time . This is especially true since my free time seems to be a limited commodity. Independence is an illusion. While we never know how many days we will have. Dependence is dysfunctional. and far fewer than that know anything of my interests and beliefs. There must be more. and start doing things in new ways. There are over 100. Now. There could easily be twice that by the time 2008 is done. it seems that this is demanded. that is not enough. the sharing has not really succeeded to the degree that I had hoped. but. it is still limited.. That is substantial. That is 20 percent of my work time. The feedback from the page counters at the Beyond Imagination site and the lack of feedback via communications from others are proof of this. It came to 150 single spaced typed pages. personally.. and that we are only four months into 2008. not as frequently as we have at various times in the past. roughly 32 hours on weekends and 24 hours during the week. And. That does not show enough commitment to what I am doing. Approximately half of that goes toward work and commuting. or eating dinner . So. Yet. For two years. Then.. and attempt to share of what I find.000 words per week.. In fact. Why was all of this expression necessary? Yes. that would amount to nearly 25.. I believe that I will be moved to do what is necessary for the work to get out to those it is meant to reach. It is not enough for each person to do their own thing in isolation. In 2003 alone. It doesn't help that I don't know many people. If I am to carry out my mission. time is one of the great equalizers. in 2002 and 2003. but for me. what have I been doing for my 50 years on the planet. for a total of 112 hours per week. When you look at it like that. I experience creativity at its finest in my life. With spirit by my side. I seem to average closer to 8 hours per week. That doesn't include time to get ready in the morning. it seems that everything takes time. Though.. But. And. Clearly. that is a lot .. there were over 500. What is meant to come forth finds its way through one way or another. Now. I came close to doing just that. 5 hours per day on the weekends and 3 hours per day during the week. Here. Used in musing. we do know that each day brings with it roughly 16 waking hours. Yes. I am the Man in Search of More. That is OK. We couldn't do that even if we tried.000 words. The world is a cooperatively interdependent whole. it has been one hell of an adventure in consciousness for me.. As the 4/8. eating breakfast. The rest is our time. My desire is to make this work a fulltime endeavor. nor does it include time for doing the chores that are a necessary part of life. So.

But. that is what it is. I would share whom that I AM in my own way. I choose to put that fate in spirits hands. mental. something that I have been reluctant to do. But. more often limits truly limit us and the perception of safety is mere illusion. or may come in terms of being enjoyed. what I am doing is enough. What I am doing is precisely what needs to be done. it seems that this is what I am being asked to do. I am content. an audience that I may never have the chance to interact with. She is far more knowledgeable that I will ever be. and/or spiritual needs. not by my design. I choose 82 . It's nature is unitary. Though. Further. From another perspective. we must find one another. Further. and have the courage to actually do it.. public speaking. To some degree. That makes this primarily an inner experience. One thing that comes to mind is what about ideas or works that are ahead of their time. because I can do what I do in isolation. it is ONE. but I still have my share of fears. because it seems that the written expression only captures a part of what could be coming forth. It is being written for an audience that is unknown. I can say that. is that enough? Why does it have to be in my own way? What limits does this impose on my interactions with others? Do I consciously accept these limits? Sometimes limits are good in that they keep us safe. We need to be careful of accepting limits out of fear. But. they occur by design.. However. we need to be careful of doing anything out of fear. This expression is my way of allowing consciousness to express in my life. This is not something to be forced. I read somewhere that FEAR is False Evidence Appearing Real. Right now. but that day may come. bugs of many types. am I not relinquishing my right to decide my own fate? Perhaps. I would have it no other way. Or. At this point. But. Fear and love cannot coexist. It is always good to ask what love would do next. It is for us to find way to express that provide the greatest service to others. But. services must be consumed or they are not services at all. I have only to do my part. rather by the will of consciousness. strange foods are some of the things I still fear. interacting only with consciousness herself. Truly. Consumed may be literal.. spiders. This also means leaving the safety of my introversion at times to risk interacting with others. I believe strongly that this is what I do here. The bottom line is that benefit must be conveyed in some manner to individuals in the society. the ideas or works may not become meaningful or popular until after their creator has passed on. And indeed. look within to see what I am moved to do. It is to be allowed. criticism. or can you? It seems that I have the freedom to do as spirit moves me to do. Fear and love are not opposites. emotional. One of the Beatles songs expresses it correctly: love is all there is. that thought makes me sad . more and more. To some degree. to society. That too is something that I have been reluctant to do. things are perfectly fine . Hmm . In some areas of endeavor. If it needed to be more. it would be.. they must find me. you can't have it both ways. and what we can create and express. This means stepping outside of my comfort zone at times . Love does not exist in duality. I am moved to bring forth this stream of consciousness into the world. such is the case. and from her vantage point can orchestrate what needs to be done effectively and elegantly. intimacy. there is no sense that I need to rid myself of all of these .2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 audience is not mine to pick. of the two. Snakes... Fear is especially debilitating when it keeps us from being all that we can be and keeps us from expressing whom that we are. I have the sense that this expression is of that nature. Often. or to the Earth and its eco-systems.. it would be. the greatest things that we have to share with one another are whom that we are. Actually.. whether the world is ready for it or not. especially creative endeavors. or may come in terms of meeting physical. even though much of the material is posted to the WWW and available in books. At this moment.. Such meetings don't occur by chance in my life. For.. If it needed to be different. only love exists.

2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 to express often because it gives me great pleasure to see all of this come forth as it comes forth and to read it time and again when I am moved to do so. it is not my creativity. 11 May 2008 Getting a late start tonight. And then. a psychic in the Bay Area said something about my being involved in Star Creation Central. in the NOW. the meaning evolves as you evolve. It is the reader that must supply the meaning. Here. But. Everything unfolds in that everpresent point. Finished reading a book today on this shift but I don't remember the title or the author. Yes. Many live in the illusions of the past. but that it is coming is certain. It suggests that there is something of great power in each of us that is aware and knows far more than any of us has imagined. I am aware of a presence deep within me. sometimes in very different ways. many of us fail to focus on being present. This is a monumental occasion that has taken the work of many to achieve. we can only BE. The basic premise was that the evolution of earth has been part of a grand plan of one of the five original source consciousnesses of the universe. Though. As such. But. the author was from Korea. It is the creativity of consciousness. I couldn't put it down. Life is not a succession of moments. is the distinction something that I am making up? Hmm . There is no has been | is | will be division. I only know what I am now. an other than conscious process brings forth this expression. and the book came forth in about a month in 2005. 83 .. You can return to it time and time again. all forms that I am and all expression that flows forth through those forms originates. Actually. But. The earth is now in third density with the spirit world in fourth density. it's off to other realms of consciousness. And. As I was reading the book. Exactly what form this shift is to take is still unknown. what has been expressed is beyond imagination. but could not resist coming here to muse anyway. it has ramifications that will spread to star systems throughout the galaxy and beyond. There is something powerful in that. I still sense that I have another two decades to bring forth works on this planet. The creativity is astonishing to behold. From this beingness. Whether it is correct or not. But. while BEING. Something rang true about that too. But. Though. I base that on personal observation of what consciousness has been able to express through me since 1993. but the earth is transitioning to fifth density. I do not know from a first reading. it is only a small glimpse of what is to be expressed. I have had no memories or dreams of that time. that means the very same words will move people in different ways. Jan Kertz. And. is not my creativity the creativity of consciousness as well? Can there be any difference between the two? Or. Many others live in the illusions of the future. we can only truly LIVE in the NOW. But. even though the words are the same. This is true for all of us. we can only do what we are moved to do. It was an interesting book. Further. a presence that can focus on the now. I know that I am far more than I seem to be. It seems that many signs are pointing to a major transition in consciousness in the 2012 to 2013 timeframe. It is for us to do what we can to make each moment count. What I seem to be is an entity with a body and a mind stuck in space-time. the source for the material and the organizing force behind the material are unknown.. But. it was as if I were remembering something of which I played a part. As far as I know. The book offered a history from the origin of the universe and the five source consciousnesses through the major civilizations on the earth through the ages to the present time. It touched a chord within me. two decades is a long time when you live in the moment. There is only IS. But. That is probably one of the best things about written expression. The words only point to meaning. Indeed. there was something about it that rang true within. that is not quite right. one NOW. There is only one extended Presence.

. much more would have been revealed than has been revealed to date. clearly. how does this relate to the original five source consciousnesses in the book I just finished? The book also spoke of ten densities of vibration. I have not seen the works of others expressing in this fashion. Hmm . it comes from a level not of this world. Just look at some of greatest poetry that has been expressed. But. all we have is words. the words have to be enough for that is all we have. It speaks of things that are beyond anything that I have learned in this existence. Whatever transitions for consciousness that can occur are occurring now. But. here. surprisingly. Then what is? I can say source. in this very moment. We only have 4-5 years to reach that time. Also. that is a defining characteristic of a stream of consciousness. not all of it is profound. In fact. This bodily form that I occupy implies that I am something that can occupy a body. Not that consciousness does not impose an order here. It seems that so long as I am willing to allow it.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 if what is expressed through me does not come from a greater self that is also me. There is a flow to the material that can not be denied. this expression does not come from such a density. Though. It is curious that this would be the case. how do we reconcile this with the fact that we seem to age?. There words are chosen precisely and have such a grand impact. how many levels... or is life a part of consciousness? Do we really understand what consciousness is? Are there levels of consciousness? If so. If it did. But. I am well read when it comes to metaphysics. 12 May 2008 84 . The only point that ever exists is now. that is an odd way of stating things. There are no gestures. it is not clear that as much effort goes into the expression.. But.. no emotional expressions captured here . consciousness has something to say. Clearly. But. she does. Though. the process by which it comes forth is automatic. But. if 2012 or 2013 are to be the major transition that they are to be. I am not involved in defining that order. It is amazing what can be expressed in words. the expression is nearly effortless. with the tenth being the highest and containing all knowledge of the universe. She is beyond anything that I know myself to be.. then where does it come from? I have not been moved to ask this before? It just seemed obvious that the source was somehow distinct from me. does the fact that it seemed obvious make it so? And.. To date. To some degree. Here. But. and it exists forever. or is it complete and whole unto itself? Where do such questions come from? And. It just comes forth fluidly.. No. much of it is. the time for this expression is short-lived. For now. I sense that there is much more to come.. that suggests that there is a destination in time at which a major breakpoint for consciousness is to occur. all of the books that I have read other than the Beyond Imagination books have more definition and order to them than you'll find here. I know her only by what she is able to express through me.. Though. does not life itself animate all bodies? Is not consciousness a part of life . and how do we grow from one level to the next? Is consciousness something that can even grow . that has been a lot. we already know that time is an illusion. do such questions even have answers? There is only so much that can be expressed in words. Clearly. only words. But. But. I speak only from firsthand experience. where do we find the answers to such questions? Or. Further. All that I have to do is allow it to come forth as it will. but what does that really mean? What is the source within of which I speak so highly? She is what she is. even if it did come from "consciousness" herself . This particular bodily form that I occupy is now half a century old.

If we ignore the capitals. Without it. Clearly. today is the first day of the rest of your life. NOW is the only time of your life. That life is eternal and immortal. 10 digits. such is true. ensuring that things are done appropriately and elegantly. Further.. it simply is and has always been. I love the stream of consciousness expression that produces these words through me. And notice how prominent the space is. In the 85 . 26 letters. Focus deeply on the miracle of life that animates you in this very moment. It is that simple. Our experiences happen to us.. we are down to a symbol set of about 44 characters. Hmm . and her arms. and a few punctuation marks are sufficient to allow everything that is expressed here to be created. It is all about frequency and the meaning we assign to various parts of the frequency spectrum. or more correctly through us. Actually. probably on the order of several hundreds of thousands. that is not quite correct.. indeed. and her feet. It has been said that the pen is mightier than the sword. Yet. she could not experience being form. Words have the power to sway our minds and our hearts. Personally. but do we really experience being form either? Or.. There is endless creativity at play in the creation of universes and multiverses. I rarely speak or communicate with others except in the context of work. all that we are springs from that sacred moment. you might call me a man of few words. So. why does all of this happen? Why does that which is formless need to experience expression through form? For the sheer joy of it is one answer. and can do so to the degree that we are committed to take action in accord with the ideas expressed. I love words. All that we need to know. How we use the basic symbol set seems far more important. the words would be jumbled together in a way that would make them difficult to read. Spirit is always operating behind the scenes. and her brain. and her mouth. And... But.. But. we ARE what we experience. Spirit is simple overall. Be still and know that I AM. And.. We are only impacted to the degree that we associate with the forms that are around us. a space. how can this expression be so prolific? How can in excess of five million words have come forth in just over 15 years? That is not the question to ask.. and I stopped looking up words in grade school. all that we need to do. It helps if we choose to stay focused on the moment. but of all images as well. in particular. and her legs. Even when we are focused on remembering the past or on anticipating the future. or at least attracted them to us. Everything expressed here is captured as elaborate strings of ones and zeros in a computer. She expresses what is needed when it is needed to whom it is needed. and it is not even a time at all. we are her eyes. it nevertheless reached its intended audience.. Hmm .. If we were to count words as our "symbols" we would need far more . even if some of the expression has only reached me .. I also love the words of authors whose books I am moved to read. we created these very forms and experiences . including 3-D representations. As they say. my vocabulary is not anywhere near that. and her hands. We just need to find a way to see through her eyes. But.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 Let's see what will come forth today. We exist only in the now. all that we need to be aware of. that is true not only of these words. we can only do that in the present. From that standpoint. In most cases. what of time? Why does reality appear to unfold in time in the way that it does? The perception of something makes it experienced but does not make it real. That life is beyond beginnings and endings . That is all the symbols that are needed to paint any of the words in all of the English books in the world. and her heart and internal organs. We are all that and more. Without us. That's roughly 70 characters. the fourth master number. What is more important is WHY was all of this expressed in this manner? What came forth came forth because it needed to come forth. do we experience the appearance of being form? There is a big difference. outside of this expression and the books that I read. 52 with capitals. In the first case.

. we only APPEAR to be what we experience. nor is the pursuit of happiness. power struggles. Everyone serves and everyone receives exactly what they need. What we ARE is far different and far beyond what we APPEAR. the issues they stir plague our world today. they said: "We hold these truths to be self-evident. pure BEING. How is it that in over two centuries we have not been able to get it right and live by these foundational principles? It seems that many people don't even believe in a creator these days. and the pursuit of happiness. this is the only social contract that makes sense. life is not considered to be inalienable. we will have such problems. But what ideas fit that bill in the current world? One that readily comes to mind is the simplest expression of pure communism . Each gives to society in accord with the best of their abilities in service in some manner. The principle itself is the essence of elegance. each is given what they need on physical. I need to hold down a job that allows me to exchange my time and effort for an income that allows me to buy many of the things that I need." This was indeed a bold pronouncement that reverberates throughout the cosmos to this day . In 1776. It seems that this principle already operates in the spiritual world. the reasons for their failure were the conditions of the times and the frailties of those in power who created the accompanying governments and economic systems. liberty. But. a few great men in a new country on a new continent declared their independence. In that declaration. From each in accord with their abilities. So long as we treat differences in a way that makes some superior to others. and dysfunction. or don't act as if there was a common creator for each of us. emotional. They do this because it is known that building commercials in certain ways affects people psychologically so that they will buy the products that are being advertised . Can it be that simple? Strip away what we are not. But. that they are endowed by their creator with certain inalienable rights. especially material things? Why are we never satisfied? Why do we never have enough? Interesting questions. to each in accord with their needs. 232 years later. that among these are life. a few powerful and a lot powerless. Yet. we find ourselves by making what we appear to be disappear. That. Yes.. commercials pay for nearly all of the content of television shows. nor is liberty. why is there such a need to DO something? Why is there such a need to create forms and express through those forms? Why is there such a need to own and possess things . Further. In return. and spiritual levels. of haves and havenots. What does it mean to be free? Do I have liberty because I can choose to shop at half a dozen different supermarkets with a dazzling array of groceries? I think not. a few owners and lots of slaves. We just haven't been able to realize it in the physical plane on earth. that all men are created equal. there have been attempts that failed miserably. And. mental. But. Clearly. Then. we do not act as if we live in a country or a world where all men and women are created equal. It has been that way throughout history. is that correct? How do I know what I truly need from what I am told that I need? Watching television occupies a prominent part of many peoples day. why have we not adopted it yet? The key reasons are belief systems... was pronounced by someone wise. and what is left is what we ARE. Yet. The nature of the economic game is such that there are a few haves and a lot of havenots. To live in society. Nothing can stop an idea whose time has come. Further. My understanding is that while the first case appears to be true. We have a mentality of scarcity. What more could one ask for in a society? Indeed.. we allow this to 86 . often regardless of whether they cost more or provide better value.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 second case.... too. it is the second case that is true.

Either way. I would build the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh? How can I believe that such is even possible? What can I say. But. On my own. there is no expression. in some cases bordering on fraud.. Yes must. That is the mission that has been revealed over and over again since 1993. But. The only answer that comes to mind is one step at a time . Each of us has one or more roles to play.. I still live a very isolated existence. But. the sense is that there really is no choice at all.. most of what I see in my own life is that for choices that truly matter. I only know what I am moved to do. What does it matter whether we truly have choices or not? Personally. and a trust in the intuitive process that reveals to us what spirit would do through us. it is a quality expression. this has been a regular occurrence.. All that is required is PRESENCE. The result is waste and inefficiency . I am curious to see how others view it.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 happen. Is that a choice. I have no idea of how others experience this... I am content with what has been expressed and what is to be expressed. there is virtually no feedback to show if it is reaching others and how it is impacting them. Further.. Perhaps that feedback will come in time. But that is my life. After all. What makes it special? The very way that it comes forth and the quality of what is expressed. in my eyes. it is a big task. And. I know that this is what I am here to do. doing what I am moved by spirit to do in the moment. there I am speaking to the past and the future. Without the extension of the present into the past and the future. There is no struggle... It is fulfilling some need that can only be filled in this manner. But. is it conscious or on other than conscious levels? The bottom line is that it does not matter. It is happening in this manner because it can and because it must. We experience the life that we experience anyway . perhaps not. what is being expressed is happening a character or at most a word at a time. There is something about this expression that is special. Lately. We allow an unsuspecting consumer base to be manipulated by such techniques. I do not know. At least. Yes. or is that my nature expressing itself? Hmm . can we do anything else? NOW is the only time there is. In fact. What about free will? I've been struggling with that all of my adult life. It is only our present forms that experience time as we do. This is why I incarnated into this existence. There is no thought of who this expression is intended to reach. To what degree do we really have free will? And. There is something fatalistic about that. There is just IS. When we focus on BEING in the present. this is to write. But.. What that need is. there is only one right course of action and that course is obvious. I like that. spirit expressing through me is unstoppable. Hmm . at some level it has already played itself out. How will I do this? Clearly. effectively the choice is made on other than conscious levels. right now. it reaches me. even where we seem to make choices. Clearly. She will achieve her ends in whatever way is most efficient and elegant. so. and that life is different for each of us. we will be moved to do what needs to be done in each moment. Yet. I can do nothing.. you might say that I spend more time with books and with this expression than I do with people. we never know all of the factors that contribute to our decisions . This is why I came. 13 May 2008 It's time for the stream of consciousness to come forth again. Every fiber of my being vibrates to this call. spending very little time with others. there is a reason for this expression. These are roles that we chose prior to coming into this 87 . What is meant to be will be. All in good time..

. understanding. What we do to the least of us. We are free to choose our beliefs. acceptance. I've been reading a couple of books lately that deal with the major transformation of consciousness that is to happen in 2012 to 2013. buy and play the video games. It seems that the feminine energy is to rise somehow. It is being taken care of in the way that it must be. but collectively we do nothing to stop it. not everyone in this generation . There is only ONE. two-thirds of my life. and in life. in consciousness. and I have been researching and exploring this area since I first came across the Seth books in 1974. and acting based on it. This is one area where we are free . Its time to tip the scales and allow the feminine to be expressed once again outside of a primarily male worldview. people watch the shows.. We are each unique expressions of consciousness . Why does there appear to be so much darkness in the world? Why is war still an acceptable way of handling differences? Why is there so much hunger and poverty and violence in the world? It does not have to be this way. That is the only way that I know. a vast majority. does that mean there are others? Another seems to be where we focus our attention. It is our oneness that is the more important of the two. it is what it is. In a world of inequality.for some time. The resulting expression will literally herald a new age on the planet. Why? What is there about violence that is so enticing to so many? Personally. Then why even speak of them? Because. But. This has resulted in aggressiveness including wars for most of human history. peace. on another level we are ONE. Each will find the path that is specifically tailored to them. sympathy. I refer to consciousness herself in this manner. We know what that is by going within. it does not have to be difficult either.. It is curious that my sense has always been that this expression comes forth from the divine feminine. No. finding our intuition. It will unfold when it is meant to unfold. 88 . go to the movies. we can decide to do things better and change our world in the process.. Actually. Inclusion. in movies... Everything points to a dramatic shift . trusting it. Collectively.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 existence.. in video games. Such things are not part of my world. compassion. but. and commit the acts of violence.. Some have dreamed of the characteristics of that age. It seems that the overall energy of humankind has been out of balance. But. Perhaps this is because no one is taking responsibility for doing something.. What does it take to wake up the world to this? That is not something to worry about. Perhaps they characterize a time that is already here in the hearts of many. I still find that hard to believe. Is this required for everyone? It seems that it is particularly suited to introverts. Psych-K is one that I have discovered in the past year that is particularly powerful. though nothing like the Armageddon or end of the world that some have prophesied. few have been taught techniques for reprogramming their minds and their belief systems even though many such techniques are out there and the techniques are effective. But. In helping others. oneness. we help ourselves. and that all forms and all expressions spring forth from that ONE source the very way we relate to the world changes. while there are differences. we do to the greatest of us.. love . if this is one area. a whole generation of kids has grown up exposed to massive amounts of violence on TV. Yes. How well we play our roles. but this is related to how we experience consciousness. all of these characterize a time to come.. in a world of equals. And. Wow. however most people have been engrained with beliefs from authority figures throughout their lives. for 34 years.. When we truly realize that there is only ONE consciousness. Images of violence are everywhere as are acts of violence. We have only to do our parts. there is no greater nor lesser. No one says that it will be easy. Hmm . yet. and what we experience as a result of playing those roles is literally up to us. In the meantime. listening to it. We know that one leads to the other. we all suffer. I don't know.

2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 they are the symptoms of dysfunction. As a systems engineer, that is my job at work ... to analyze complex systems and see how to make them better. Society is a complex system of systems. It doesn't take a genius to see that violence begets violence and that violence creates major problems in society without really solving anything. However, the remedy is not simple. It probably cannot be found at the level of understanding that created the problem. We have to look to a different level of consciousness. 14 May 2008 The days keep flowing on, one into the next. And, the words kept flowing forth, one into the next as well. How long can this process continue? It seems so long as I am alive. I have learned to tap the stream of consciousness. And, my attention and focus hang on every word that is revealed. But, it is a relaxed focus. For, this truly is my play time. Here I play in the field of spirit ... in the fields of the Lord, if you were. There is something special about all of this. I can't explain how it manifests. It truly is a miracle. I am honored to play a part in all of this, deeply honored. Yet, there must be something about me that enabled this. Then again, it is not really about me, it is about the expression of spirit through me. And, not just through me, but through us all. Consciousness gently expresses in our lives. We have to reach out to her and invite her in for the process to work. And then, what is manifest is truly wonderful to behold. But not because of anything that we do ... but because of everything that is done through us. But, does not that make me a slave, abiding by the whims of consciousness? The sense is that NO, it does not. Everything that I have experienced shows that the expansion of consciousness, awakening to higher levels of awareness, increases our freedom. Though, it seems that along with our new found freedom comes responsibilities ... in some cases awesome responsibilities. That is only a problem if we treat responsibility as a burden. But, it does not have to be such. Responsibility generally involves the power to be able to get things done. When we apply this creatively and when we allow consciousness to do the work ... there is no burden on us, and there is joy that comes from what we do. I feel that here in this very expression. I feel a responsibility to allow this stream of consciousness expression to come forth. Further, I am amazed by the expression and the fact that it can come through me in this manner. There is also a sense of freedom and joy in doing this. I do it because I can and because I must. When I am doing it, it seems to be the most important thing in the world. No wonder I am so hooked on the process. It still doesn't matter if this material reaches others or not. At one time, I thought that it would, and in large numbers. That did not turn out to be the case. Oh well, I trust that spirit knows exactly what she is doing. There is a grand plan of consciousness that is unfolding. Each of us has a role to play in that plan. Further, it is a role that we will play one way or another ... for at some level the creation is already complete. The play was enacted in its entirety at the moment that it was created. It is only the limitations of how we experience time and "reality" that result in our lives appearing as they do. But, if we are the actors and the consciousness residing in the actors, then who or what is the playwright? The answer to that is Source, or Consciousness herself. But, what is source and what is consciousness? To that, no answer suffices. Yes, there are questions that are unanswerable. There are things that are unknown. There are even things that are unknowable. We might be surprised at how many things are in each of these three categories. You shall know them by their works. That is a fundamental truth. It is not you that others see, it 89

2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 is your works. This includes your body, and all of the expression that comes forth through you. And even then, your works are not yours either. They are the works of consciousness expressing through you. I once said: Who you are counts for a lot, but what you do makes all the difference. That expression still conveys a grand truth. But, we only make a difference in the outer, in the world. At our core, our beingness, we are changeless and formless. We are beyond any concepts of things, thoughts, emotions, and deeds. It is only forms and expressions that change. Even awareness is but an expression of whom that we are in the world. Then what of consciousness? Is consciousness formed or formless? Clearly consciousness expresses. But, does consciousness change as a result of that expression? The stream of consciousness expressed here ever changes, from character to character, word to word, and idea to idea. But, does that impact Source in anyway. Clearly, it impacts me, personally. But, I have said many times that I am not Source. Then, what am I? I am not this body, nor this mind, nor this awareness, nor this expression. All of these are things that I am not. But, that was not the question. I asked what am I? The only answers that come to mind are I am Wayne and I AM THAT I AM. The later answer was the one given by God to Moses in the movie The Ten Commandments. As Wayne, I am distinct and separate ... in many ways isolated from others. But as I AM, I am ONE and whole ... a part of everyone and everything. So, it seems that I have a dual nature. But I know that duality, separation, is illusion. It is not real. It only exists in our minds and experience. Yes, that makes it seem real enough. But, some dreams seem quite real when we are experiencing them as well, until we wake up that is. Is the reality that we experience anything more than that, a mass dream that we are experiencing both individually and collectively? I can say these words ... but can I live them ... do I truly know what they mean? Or, does it even matter? Is it not enough to simply be whom that I am, trusting that at some level I naturally know what that is? Is it not enough to do what I am moved to do, trusting that spirit herself is moving me to do it? Is it not enough to simply express what spirit would express through me, taking each day moment by moment and filling each moment with my presence? What more could be asked of anyone? Further, is that not what all of us are doing all of the time? There is nothing else but spirit in expression. At least, nothing else in our "reality". And, the very nature of spirit is perfection. Hence, the world is perfect for it is the collective expression of all of us. There is no God and us. There is only God. Similarly, there is no God and consciousness, there is only God. All That Is is All That Is. There can be nothing more nor nothing less. Everything else is simply a point of view of God being aware of a part of himself. Interesting. Consciousness is always feminine to me, but God is masculine. I don't know why, that is just how it is for me. So, if consciousness is not God, what is consciousness? There is an implication in the very word consciousness, of to be conscious of something. At the highest level, this might include being conscious of being God. But, something is wrong in how that is expressed. It implies that God is something, which is indeed false. But, then, is God no thing. That seems true by definition. But is there anything that God does? One answer is that God is All That Is and God does All That Is Done. This seems reasonable, but this does not seem to be an area where reason can be trusted to reveal the truth. Clearly consciousness exists. Clearly consciousness came forth from something, somehow it manifest into being. But, this cannot be true of the first cause. All That Is is formless yet is able to manifest form. All form is but combinations of vibrations. Similarly, all expression is combinations of vibrations as well. Everything, every though, every memory, every deed, every world, every reality is composed of vibrations. It is all thought. Everything is thought. But, it is not all linear thought. We just happen to experience things that way. Yes, this stream of consciousness is expressed in a linear 90

2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 fashion. It comes forth character by character, and to experience it you have to read the words one after the other. There are other ways to bring forth information. Visual information is another way. Video games have trained a whole generation of people around the world to think in whole new ways that require motor coordination, visual recognition, and explorations into various combinations of the known and unknown. What this training will be used for remains to be seen. But, consciousness doesn't waste resources. Nearly everything in life is there to teach us something that we need to know. We might as well have fun and enjoy the process. 15 May 2008 Another day, another musing. Only two paragraphs yesterday, but they were big ones. We never know where consciousness is going to insert a break in this expression. It just happens naturally. Even after over 15 years, the process of bringing forth this expression is still automatic. I don't know how it happens. And, I never know what is coming next. That is OK. I am comfortable with the unknown. In fact, I may be more comfortable there than with the known. Ever in search of more, that is what I am. And, there is always more to find. We have only to seek. Further, all that we need to know will be revealed to us when we need to know it. Yes, I firmly believe that. What elevates something beyond a belief to a knowingness? I don't know. I just know that some things I believe, and some things I know, and there is a difference between the two. Beliefs may or may not be true. They are to be judged solely on their utility. Knowingness is what it is. However, it may or may not be true depending on our interpretation of it. Yes, sometimes our knowingness can be wrong. It depends on what it is based on. Sometimes it comes from external "facts" or things that we take to be truths which may or may not be true. Sometimes it comes from internal sources, from the intuition, or from the heart, or from the source within. This too, may or may not be true. It simply is. It is up to us to evaluate its utility in our lives and the lives of others. So, where do we go to find truths? Can such even be expressed in this realm? My sense is no, they cannot. Everything here is relative. The entire universe is relativistic. Yet, we manage to exist nonetheless. It matters not that we are living in a dream world. That is still the reality that we experience. And, it seems that it will continue to be our reality so long as we choose to inhabit forms. It is only in the formless that we find the true reality. But, it is not clear if or to what degree we can experience that in this life or in any life. For does not life by its nature involve the expression of energy through form of some type for some amount of time? It seems to involve such, but does it necessarily involve such? There is a sense that all expression, even the most glorious of expression, is still limited somehow. There is the 48: The Man in Search of More in me ... wanting to stretch beyond all limitation. And, there is a sense that this is a possibility ... maybe even a probability, not only for me but for all of us. Though, perhaps it is something that we can only do collectively. It seems that we will know soon enough. I wouldn't be expressing in this manner and asking these questions unless there was a need to know the answers. At least, such is my relationship with questions in this lifetime. It all comes down to the formed versus the formless. But these are not opposites. Being formless is not the same as lacking a form. Many substances on earth take the form of their container. Most liquids do this, and most gases though in a less dense way and only when the container encloses a defined volume. So, does spirit take the form of the body that it inhabits? It seems that this is true more or less, with the exception of an aura or energy field that extends beyond the physical structure of the body. Does consciousness take the form of the mind or the form of the brain that the mind occupies? It seems not. While the mind is often 91

2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 associated with the brain, consciousness seems to be a more global construct or force. Hmm ... I don't think that we have ever referred to consciousness as a force before. F=MA is one of the laws of physics. Force = Mass x Acceleration. For consciousness to be a force, it would have to be an acceleration of the mass of the brain. Perhaps that is one of the things that it is. Though, something seems wrong about that very statement. Consciousness is not a thing. A force is a thing. It is something that can be defined and measured. Consciousness is not of such a nature. Looking back, consciousness is not a "global construct" either. For a global construct is a construct which by definition is a thing. And, consciousness is not a thing. We need to be careful about the words that we use and the meaning that they convey. Often this meaning is hidden. Often this meaning is disempowering. But, it doesn't have to be. We can choose our words more carefully and be aware of the meaning that they point to. Note: words can only point to meaning, they cannot convey meaning. The meaning can only be generated by those to whom the words are imparted. Right now, these words are only imparted to me. So, if the meaning is lost on me, it is lost to the universe. Or is it? Something is originating these words. Yes, I am participating in their manifestation in this particular form, on this screen and in this HTML file. But, my sense of being a participant does not extend to being their creator. Maybe this is a false distinction that I am making. Perhaps the fact that they come forth through me makes them my creation. I would not go so far as to say makes them mine. For, this is an act of creation not unlike childbirth. What is created is not owned. Definitely not owned by me, as definitely as a child is not owned by its parents. Hmm ... then these words are not owned by source either. Consciousness has no reason to own anything ... and this expression is just another thing. Ideas are things just as much as computers, baseballs, cars, clothes, houses, and food. They just operate at a different frequency in a slightly different realm. But, ideas are living things that potentially have the power to create by begetting other ideas and by lodging in the minds of people as beliefs or truths. They are as alive as any other living things and when aligned with other ideas can exert great power through the actions of those who are moved or commanded by the ideas. Yes, these two words seem appropriate. Ideas move us when they inspire us. Ideas command us when we become slaves to them. Many beliefs command us subconsciously. Yet, through all of this there is the principle that we create our own reality, no fine print, no exceptions. This does not mean that we only create the reality that we like. It means that we create every iota of it. We do this individually and collectively. And, we have been doing it forever. Yes, literally forever. That gives us an awesome power, but also an awesome responsibility. If we don't like what we are experiencing, we can only blame ourselves assuming that we need to blame at all. Which we don't. The better course of action is to do something to change our experience. We do that by changing ourselves, or by changing the way that we interpret what is happening. Actually, both of these are changing ourselves. The later is only an inner change. The former can be either outer or inner or both. Usually, we change ourselves by changing what we believe and/or changing what we do. If we choose not to change, in most cases we experience more of the same ... sometimes with increased intensity until we have no real choice but to change. Managing our beliefs is one of the fastest ways to change. This can be tough to do on your own. The ego has a lot invested in maintaining its grip on your reality. It has no desire to go away, and is often threatened by any changes that awaken the consciousness within you. I have found that Psych-K is particularly helpful at ridding one of disempowering beliefs. It can literally save years of time of self-discovery and mastery. There are many great 92

2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 books available in the metaphysics or new age sections of most bookstores that present guiding concepts to live by. It is a matter of finding those that you are attracted to and reading them. Unfortunately, reading seems to be somewhat of a lost art these days. And, relatively few are open enough to read these types of books. But, the times are a changing. Some of these authors have books that have reached Bestseller status. I don't know how many sells are required for that, but my guess would be that it is a much smaller number than many would think. What do I want? I have focused on the question Who Am I since I was 16. I don't really know how to answer the question of what do I want. Interesting, it just came to me that despite 34 years of searching, I can't really answer the other question either. One answer that comes to mind regarding what do I want is that I lack nothing that I truly need here and now. This expression is the shining light of my life, and I lack nothing that I need to participate in its manifestation. I don't need food, or clothes, or companionship, or a car, or a house, or anything to be able to do this. I only need a computer and whom that I am. But, is that enough? If it were, it seems that I should be happier than I am. Hmm ... and while it is enough in the moment, is it enough through time? For that, it seems many other things come into play ... including the things that I said I don't need above. Interesting. What distinguishes wants from needs? Needs are basic. We cannot survive effectively without them. We have needs on physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual levels. But, at some level, all needs are met ... spirit herself sees to that. Wants are of a different nature. They are desires that go beyond basic needs. Hmm ... do I want to express here or do I need to express here. There is an urgency and a mental, emotional, and spiritual need to express that I feel. I want to turn this expression into my full time employment. That is a desire that may or may not occur depending on a whole lot of factors. In particular, it requires a willingness to do what it takes to make it so. It is clear that I don't yet have that level of commitment ... or it would have happened by now. Actually, it is not clear to me that I control making it happen, definitely not consciously. I have chosen to be a tool through which spirit can express in this manner. I know that I have chosen this because it is manifest in my life. It is the reality that I experience. I also know that I have chosen to be employed by my company in the manner that I have. I know this for exactly the same reason. It is the reality that I experience. When it is time for that reality to change, I will make different choices and these will be manifest in my world. Right now, everything is perfect. It always has been and it always will be. Interesting. Could I survive without this expression? My sense is NO, I clearly could not. Though, it wasn't until my 34th year that it started. And, there have been some years since then when the expression was sparse, even non-existent in 2004. None of that makes a difference now. Here, in 2008, we are expressing quite prolifically once again. I am grateful for that. I feel more alive than I have felt since 2002-2003 when the expression was nearly coming forth daily. The pace has quickened approximately 25 percent since then. I don't know what to attribute that to. But, it brings this in at 1000 words/hour. That's only 16 words per minute. But, allowing for pauses, and given that my max typing speed is 50 words/minute ... it is quite respectable. Perhaps the backlog of expression from a relative drought of four years makes a difference. There is a sense that there is so much waiting to come forth. So, do I need to express in this manner? The answer is a resounding YES. I need this expression as much as the food that I eat, and the air that I breathe ... perhaps even more. The spiritual consumes far more of my free time and my thought than anything else. 19 May 2008 93

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I had good intentions of coming here to muse at a decent hour, but work got in the way. Fortunately that doesn't happen too often. After all, I do so love to express in this way. Though, I did go another weekend without musing. That seems to be commonplace for me anymore. It is just too hard to find the time to do this when I am home. Oh well. We'll have to make up for that here during the week. With 4-5 days of musing, I should be able to bring forth 8,000-10,000 words per week. That is not a lot, but it is enough to fill a sizeable book ever quarter or so. It is just a matter of doing it day after day and week after week. We are only talking about a two hour investment per day. That is not much for spirit to ask of us. Besides, if we were not doing this what would we be doing with our time? Weekends and late evenings, I read, watch TV, and watch movies. Even though my life is busy ... it is not as hectic as that of many others. I still have a substantial amount of free time. At least here in this expression, I get something tangible for that time. I get a record of a stream of consciousness that documents where some parts of me have been. And, the record can be read at any time and readily shared with others who might be served by it. That makes it by far the most valuable thing that I do with my time. Here, consciousness is able to express through me at her finest. I am still amazed by the amount of quotable passages that come forth. Especially since I have so little to say to others in my life. But, what comes forth here isn't being said to others. It is being said to me. And, I don't know from whom the material comes other than the source within. But, what is this mysterious source? And, why does she speak through me in this way? Perhaps I will never know. That is OK. I am at home with the unknown and even the unknowable. You might even say this is where I spend a good deal of my time. And, as I've said before ... my finest work is done in this way. But, is it even my work? What does it take for something to be mine? Can any thing really be mine? The immediate answer is NO, this is not possible. There is no ownership. Yet, there is full accountability and responsibility. That seems to be a dichotomy. But, in a world that is ONE, there is no dichotomy. The truth must be reconciled somehow. But, this may happen at levels far beyond what words can convey. Interesting. I consider myself to be a warrior. And, my tools are my words, and the words of consciousness that flow through me. Some of these words flow into me through the books that I read. Other words flow out of me in the Beyond Imagination works. Inflow and outflow. There must be some sort of balance between the two. Though, this expression is also an inward flow. I've read every word, every passage, multiple times. And, if the future is anything like the past ... I will continue to be moved to read these words. Clearly , they speak to my soul. And, I sense that they always will. But, do they speak to the souls of others in a similar fashion. I can only hope. There are enough works posted to the Beyond Imagination site that people should be able to find the works. Further, they are also available as books ... though the publisher is obscure and there has been virtually no advertising that the books are even available except for some pages at the Beyond Imagination site. At present, I am not moved to do anything about this. Perhaps in time. There is a strong sense that I am gravitating to where I need to be naturally. It seems that we shall see soon enough. What is destined to be will indeed happen. That is how things work in my life and in my world. That doesn't mean that I can sit back an do nothing. I must do what I am moved by spirit to do. Right now, that is to come here to express whatever this stream of consciousness would bring forth. WHY? Simply because that is what I must do, because of whom that I am. Yes, it can be lonely at times. And, indeed, I spend a lot of time alone even when I am in the midst of others. That is just the way that it is. That is just the way that I am. Would I like to change that? Would I change that even if I could? Can I change that? These are fundamental 94

2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 questions about my world view. As such, they fall within the realm of belief. To change, we must desire to change, and have sufficient motivation to move us to take the necessary action to change. We can only change ourselves. In changing ourselves we change our world, for the outer is a reflection of the inner. Wow. 888 words. Not enough for a musing, but an interesting place for a break. Unfortunately, it was another hour of disruption. We'll have to see how well I can stay focused with one of my favorite shows, House, having a season finale in the background. That is a lot to compete with. I should just turn it off, but I can't. Nor can I choose to stop musing. This is a sacred endeavor for me. I need to do it to the degree that I can when I am moved to do it. There is no quota that needs to come forth each day or each week ... or even each year for that matter. What is expressed is expressed. What is not expressed is not expressed. There is no need to express what is not expressed. If there was a need, spirit would ensure that that need was filled. That is simply how it works. No expression that needs to be expressed goes unexpressed. No true need goes unfulfilled. We live in an abundant universe. Unfortunately, we have artificially imposed constraints that keep the abundance from reaching many. Or, so it appears in the world. Why have we done this collectively? And, when will we choose to make better choices? We will do so when we are moved to do so, not one moment before. But, we can only do so HERE and NOW. No other time matters. No other time exists. It matters not what thousands of years of history have shown. Most histories are invented stories anyway. They are not the truth of what happens. They are someones or some groups interpretation of what happened. How is that any different from what is expressed here? Generally, facts are in short supply here. Though the expression comes forth in a matter of fact way. But, what is expressed is not the stuff of fiction. We are not making it up. We are expressing a stream of consciousness. What makes up a stream of consciousness? We have in excess of four million words documenting what that is. But, we cannot explain it. We cannot even choose to make it happen. Though, it seems that whenever we sit in front of a computer and open Composer or Word, the expression just happens. But, what moves us to take the step to open Composer or Word with this intent? That just seems to happen. And, what moves us to stop when we reach around 2,000 words? There is an inner quota, a goal that we have in mind for each day of expression. Often we reach it, sometimes we do not depending primarily on the circumstances of the day. The bottom line is that this seems to be enough, at least for now. If it weren't enough, there would be more. It would just flow forth longer or more often as it has for multiple years at times in the past. At the present rate of expression, we have enough material to fill about three books per year. Though, at this point I am not moved to package the material into more books. There are already nine Beyond Imagination books. That seems to be sufficient for the time being. I don't know what I am moved to do other than to come here to express. Everything else in my life pales by comparison. That should not be the case, but such it is. And, it does not seem to be that I really want to do anything about it ... at least not in the moment. Why? What am I afraid of? The answer that comes to mind is LIVING. But, why should I be afraid of living? What do I have to lose? Most things are unimportant to me. Clearly, people are unimportant as well. Then, what is it that is important? The workings of the world have little to no impact on me. I feel very much like a stranger in a strange land. I am not like others. Actually, I've had so little interaction with others, how would I know? What can I say. That is just how it is for me. I don't expect others to necessarily relate to that. Whether they will or not is not my call. I can only express what I am moved to express and share what I am moved to share. 95

mentally. The consciousness that speaks through me is somehow me. It always allows me to soar. there can only be ONE. 20 May 2008 Quite an interesting musing yesterday. I want to grow. me and source are ONE. I don't know that I know what it takes. At this moment. Perhaps this is why the source within still feels physically separate from me. we mean cease to exist as a separate entity.. I would be whole. But. following the flood of expression in the prior two years.. I. I lived through that. this expression was often on my mind during that time as I read through much of what had come 96 . Perhaps then I would truly want to live. why am I physically disconnected from that spirit within. This is a new revelation as well.. in 2002 and 2003. And.. Ponder that for awhile and see where it takes you. I am content.. I was flying high in consciousness most of that time. I want to be. I . I like to think that this expression goes beyond that and speaks of grander things. Hmm . herein seems to lie the solution as well. I . Something from John Denver comes to mind: I want to live. I don't know what I would do. It is the one through which source is expressed. Though. How do we make one where there were two? The movie and show The Highlander provided an answer to this. Here. Source and me. I need to find a way to reconcile the two. Do I truly want to live? You might say that I live for this expression. is that necessarily true? There is much that has been expressed here that is beyond anything that I knew that I knew. why not? How do I find a way to carry what I experience here into all of the elements of my life. it seems that we can only speak of what we know. not distinct as in a separate entity. Yes. I want to live. my life to date has been lived primarily in the first person singular . I am the source that speaks through me. "I" is probably the most common word that is used. I can say that. But.. Also. How do I do that? I have been used to expressing in this way for much of my life. emotionally. However. Very revealing of things that I did not know about myself. Most of these times have been associated with prolific expression. What does it take to be content? Hmm .2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 Am I content? I don't believe that I've ever asked that question before. This attachment is now in the way of my further development as a spiritual being expressing in flesh. But. but there have been times when I have felt content. Occasionally. there was a dry spell in 2004 and 2005. Then. with the notable exception being this very expression. everything in my world revolves around me and my needs. I want to share what I can give. But. But.. By cease to exist. but how do I realize that? What needs to be realized? The ego has an attachment to a concept of self that is false.. the plural form WE is used. I expressed nearly every day. Does the ego have a function within that spiritual framework? Herein seems to lie the problem. Yes. or spiritually. How can I extend that feeling into the everpresent NOW? For two years. I would be ONE. One chops off the head of the other and there is a quickening combining the energies of the two into one. That is one reason for thinking that source was somehow distinct from me. I want to see. But. Where there were two. And. And. that suggests that I don't really want to live. I am source. it is not source that needs to cease to exist. in the end there can be only source.. This separation is the separation of a fractured self. Yet. we can't soar all the time now can we? Or can we? Actually.. I want to know. we are dealing with source and ego. That is one of the characteristics of this expression. is that even an exception? Even here. Though. Is that by intent or by design? We can only speak of what we have experienced either physically. If it were not in my life. that defines the spirit within me.

grandiose as I may seem at times. And. science is revealing this interconnectedness of all things. I am not happy far more than I am happy. Yet. I only know that they happen. all the better. But.. Yes. that is sufficient. that important. there is the sense that I reveal nothing that I truly am. I have often said that what is expressed here comes from the source within. Thought forms preceded physical forms. of the separated self. My life is an open book overall. there is no separation. others are higher in frequency . at the only level that truly matters. we are 97 . for me. if it is. there is a sense of touching a raw nerve. I am still here. of what I think. We accept limitation to experience life in all of its myriad of forms. But. More and more. we are free from form. If it reaches others and facilitates their lives. That is fine. But. It seems that the will is a tool of the ego.. I am not always happy. And. life has its precious moments. And. And. just as any cell within me can say we are Wayne. I am not that. I am male in this existence. to whom is it important? To spirit and to me.. I know that. I am quite fortunate indeed! How many can say that they have such a direct relationship to consciousness? I would guess not many. I will gladly do that. And. But. And.. That we experience separation is a sign that we are stuck within the illusion. Yet. In that. I have to admit that. I reveal here nearly all of what truly matters. Yet. But. We must break out of the illusion to find our freedom. everything is interconnected into one whole. The tentacles of energy and consciousness between things simply won't allow that. a scribe for a source that I consider to be grander than I. I don't know what causes them. This seems to be an intimate reflection of me. Fortunately or unfortunately. But. I am an instrument through which spirit expresses.. And. there is nothing that I would rather be doing in this moment. It is my will that her will rather than mine be done. if it is for my eyes only. Interesting. at the same time. there are ebbs and flows of this expression. But. What about needing to have a major impact to the world? If such is my fate. We are the ONE consciousness. most of these come when I am alone or at one with spirit expressing through me in this manner. but it is all vibration. everything is vibration. Yes. Some vibrations are more dense. we are free from the chains that bind us. typing away. there is no motive force that drives the need to will anything into being. Besides. I am humbled by the awesomeness of that.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 forth before. who am I to know? The details of yesterdays musing are long gone. This expression is that precious. Nothing is separate from anything else. And source or consciousness is definitely feminine to me. How can I know this? How can anyone not know this? Why aren't our education systems teaching us what we need to function effectively in the world in which we live? Collectively. that is what it takes to experience the world. They were the very patterns that allowed the physical forms to be created. to express and experience through form. But is it really? Can such things be revealed at all. But. there is ONE consciousness experiencing it all simultaneously. In fact. But can we not be free and still be our selves? The very concept of selves implies separation. that has to be enough. if this source or consciousness is somehow separate from me. of course. I find a way to get on with my life. experiencing through form is a very good thing . that is enough . at least it can be. from consciousness herself. of exposing something that I had never exposed before. what are we free from? For one thing. Regardless. Either way something grand and glorious is manifesting here. What need is there for me to have a will of my own? And why do I not use that will in service to spirit? Because I have found that when you operate in the NOW.. it speaks of a greatness and grandness to each of us beyond anything we could imagine. that it could come forth through me as it does is a miracle in its own right. Further. of who I am. And then. For one thing. The word created the world. this could be another side of myself.

there would be no reason for each of us to be unique. It is for us to bring whom that we are into what we do in a way that makes a difference. there is an exercise in Buddhism . and spiritual creatures.. mental. Maybe it won't happen today . is that me or not me? The food that I will eat later this evening.. is that me or not me? The thoughts that I will think at anytime in my life. The awareness that I will experience at anytime in my life. but not so many. It comes across as a new birth of sorts. My training in this area started in 1974. to retain my identity as a "self" don't I need to have a defined boundary that separates what is me from what is not me? Actually. But. But. but. is it me or not me? And. Synchronicities operate everywhere to bring people the experiences that they need. the consequence is somewhat frightening . This is the sixteenth year of the Beyond Imagination expression.. there is no such boundary.. I have to believe that it will happen soon. Yes. It is enough responsibility to be me. The air that I breathe ten minutes from now. I am that. perhaps more so than is good for me. is that me or not me? The energy that is exchanged between my energy fields and that of others. which I do not consider me or mine at all though it reveals material about me. I have asked some similar questions before. Something seems significant about that. Those in need of particular services are indeed finding those services. Nor can I be something that is separate from source.. We are all physical. Hmm . it seems that I have been a bit negligent on the sharing side with the exception of this expression. We'll have to see where it takes us. That begs the question again as to who is generating all of this? It must be me! Source cannot be something that is separate from me. We do that by BEING who we are and SHARING who we are with others. we are all unique in our own ways. is that me or not me? The urine that is released from my body when I go to the bathroom. I've been heavily involved in metaphysics for over two-thirds of my life. The time that I have been expressing is about the same as my age when I discovered the Seth Material and metaphysics. I am unique. But. emotional. Can there be a me and a not me? That implies a duality which we have already determined cannot really exist. this is not what I presently experience . Whenever you notice something separate from you. yes 34 years ago .. How do I know what I know? How do I know that what is expressed here is nonfiction versus fiction. Ultimately. But.. say I am that with the conscious intent of merging and becoming one with whatever 98 . so large numbers of people are being exposed to what they have to say. are those me or not me. Clearly. If I can create all of this out of nothing. Yet. There are many great books available now that facilitate an understanding of what is needed to live in a new age. at the beginning of my adult life. I am All That Is. does it continue to be me even after the exchange? This very expression. couldn't I be making all of this up? Perhaps. This is happening throughout the world.. I am already somewhat alone. and being recreated whenever I go back to read it again? Fascinating questions. One doesn't have to search very hard. they will reach sufficient numbers such that a massive shift in consciousness will occur.... but then that says something remarkable at the creativity that is stored up inside of us. I just noticed that I am closing in on a symmetric point in my life. then what can you create? All of us are here to express something that only we can express. a lot has happened in that time. is that me or not me? And. That many seem to live common lives is only the surface condition. After all. is all of it already me. Some of these are even bestsellers. even for the physical part of me. how can I be separate from anything? Yet.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 learning what we need to learn. It seems like yesterday. If this were not the case.. even the part that has not yet been expressed? Is this expression a completed thing that happens to be revealed over time? Or. is this expression actually being created in the moment as I am experiencing it. nor would I want to.

While there was no apparent change around the time of my birthday.. But. Only two years landed on my birthday. mind. 2012 and 2013 are prominent transition years in the Mayan calendar. I have little knowledge of how my eyes. I am soaring again. My first experience in 1993 was intense. operating in a whole different realm. I don't know that I felt any different as a result of the first one. There can only be IS. In fact. Not that I think the condition needs to be controlled. My heart has beat an untold number of times in those years. In the end. brain. surprised me. consciousness path. that implies that me lies somewhere in the consciousness.. though I knew these were to be significant somehow. Further. it has no form and no location of which I am aware. Now. How can that be? How can something that I can do so fluidly come forth in a manner that is beyond my understanding? We've been doing this for over 15 years. It clearly isn't photographic. I am happier and freer than ever. That. Through it all. one that resulted in a visit to the doctor and a leave of absence for 10 days due to extreme mania at a time when I was taking my medications regularly as prescribed. I don't really function in the world anyway. I do not feel ill. My second relapse was due to reducing my medications. but they are not sufficient. The stream of consciousness nature indicates that consciousness is somehow fashioning all of this on other than conscious levels. brain. 2007 and 2012. 99 . when I am soaring at the heights of mania. This expression is not me. 2012 is also the year of my second Easter birthday. this is not a process of bringing forth what I have stored over the decades. and mind are able to see. This had never happened before. with a ten day hospital stay and a three month leave of absence. There was a significant change six months later . is the nature of consciousness such that it can belong to anyone? Or. or the eyes. yet I don't have a clue as to how it beats as it does. One of my first programs calculated the dates of Easter from 1750 to 2150. Nor do I have any clue as to how my memory works. The label the doctors have given to it is bipolar disorder or manic-depressive illness. fingers. 21 May 2008 Exactly 2012 words yesterday. So. and the other is less than four years away. It required a 2 day hospital stay and a three week leave of absence. Interesting. in itself. this is not really a motivating factor. mind. I have no knowledge of how it makes its connections or retrieves particular memories.. But. My first relapse was due to stopping to take my medications. there is a sense of me and not me. But. It also required a 10 day hospital stay and a three month leave of absence. I wonder where me resides. apart from life. or even in the consciousness. I have learned that my medications are important to controlling my condition. is consciousness a free agent. There cannot be this and that. there may have been a change on subtle levels that is only now being reflected in the nature of what is able to be expressed here. I still think of my consciousness .. or the mind. There is much more to it than that. Soaring higher than I have since October of 2007. yet animating all life. I forgot about that. That is clearly a sign. Though. From this. It is not in the fingers. However. they were 35 and 40 years into the future. at this time. Thinking about this expression. lasting over eight months. However. brain. eyes. or the brain. and if it is associative. as if there is a part of consciousness that belongs to me. How can we not know something as basic as this? Then again. I've known this fact since 1972 when I first learned to program a calculator. I recognize that it is difficult to function at work and in the world from such states of consciousness. there is only IS. However. Right now. or the computer. it is coming forth through me. one is past. In fact. computer.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 that is. I have been alive for over half a century. It is beyond all of these.

Only you can do that. There are great benefits to soaring in consciousness. Or is it? It seems that what is expressed here is not the product of a mind at all. Everything that happens here is spiritual. Yet. Read the greatest thought of the ages. Though. I am doing them as I am moved to do them. But. Abundance is manifest everywhere.. through art. Then. It is also addictive. But. Read metaphysical books. It seems that I have allowed fear to get in my way. It consumes everything that I am and more. through relationships. There is one and only one secret to great works . No judgment coming from another can change any of that. It does not mean that I like everything that I experience. or through any number of ways. Spirit does not struggle. and things that are not under my control at all. It is something that I return to to engage in often. All needs are fulfilled effortlessly. Illness implies that there is a deficiency that must somehow be corrected to remove the dis-ease. Yours may be through song. Of late. Clearly. These are all things that you can do. I say all of this. For one thing. Be all that you can be. in a way. here I have been a harsh critic all of my life. Further. there seem to be things that are fully under my control. The thing that comes to mind is the judgment of others. It draws me like a magnet. I am whole and complete. Allow the genius within you to be unleashed and behold the wonders that manifest. Then act in a manner that allows it to be expressed through you in some creative way. You will know what is right for you. all that is expressed here is the product of a dis-eased mind. Doing it will make your heart sing as nothing else can do. But. there is a sense that this is enough. Love. everything is under spirits control. things that are partially under my control. that this is perfect somehow. I believe that you can learn from following in the footsteps or mindsteps of others who have done it. Am I being all that I can be? The immediate answer seems to be no. What about judgment of myself? Hmm . it goes far beyond anything that I can imagine. One just has to learn how to do it. Touch the world with your special presence. I don't know how to teach that. It goes far beyond that.. In fact. Then. this is a spiritual world nonetheless. From another perspective. or like a moth to a flame. through dance. Dance the dance of your life. I still don't consider myself ill. Allow them to point the way. You might say this expression is addictive to me as well. But. Writing happens to be my way. why am I not doing them? Actually. I do it because I like the feelings that I get from doing it. That is an interesting perspective. I am a divine spiritual being expressing in flesh. it is a natural high that is free. I do it because I must. Drought. I don't feel dis-ease. Yes. why should I be concerned about that? Why would I give my power away and allow the judgment of others to impact me in any way. Survival alone can be a major struggle. but do I walk my talk? Do I believe what I say enough to act in accord with it? The immediate answer is no. a magic transformation takes place. it is Love. the 100 . But. even after over 15 years. though not so much since the Beyond Imagination expression began. listen to it. So.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 even during the times when I was in the hospital. famine. If only more people could experience the exhilaration of soaring in consciousness. Love is the soul of that genius. disease. The onset of the mania corresponded exactly with the birth of the Beyond Imagination expression. there is a genius within each of us. indeed there are. it leaves me refreshed and more than I could possibly be without it. lack impact the lives of many. I do it because I am addicted to the material that comes forth.. spirit does not want. Love.. Learn to tap the source within. what is there to fear. Are there things that I can do to improve that? Yes. I have experienced everything as being part of a spiritual awakening experience for me. wars. but she exerts that control through us. this is not the experience of many on the planet. how does it change the way that we live our lives? When we live in a spiritual world. It is such a tremendous high. Yet. First you must look within to find that source. Read this very expression.

Are we creating that experience? No. if we look closely. Or. including what is to come forth in the rest of my life already completed in the original creation of the universe. that is indeed how it happened. is this like the movies.. Everything is intricately balanced. What happens always happens in the moment. It all comes forth from the interactions of vibrations. we know that projecting images on a screen with an update rate of 60 times per second is sufficient to make the movies seem continuous and seamless. That is an interesting line of inquiry. Everything is whole and complete. Further. even our emotions. as most have no scientific training. in no time at all. long before any people were around to see them. only on a much grander scale and with beings with consciousness as its constituent parts? In a similar vein. We think in terms of cause and effect. We are primarily observers experiencing what happens and converting it into meaning. where tens of millions see the same images and get the same messages? Can any of us choose to walk down any path. And. We are consciousness exploring the reality that we experience. it is not because it is not so. It was then for consciousness to go forth to explore what had be created by compartmentalizing itself into units and dimensions such as time. we observe a whole mindset that has dominated the world for nearly 400 years that is scientific in outlook and reliant on certain methods and the application of logic. able to partition multiple tasks over time so that they all appear to happen simultaneously? The different tasks are unaware of one another except for their needs to communicate with one another or to provide services for one another. Are not TV shows and movies like mass dreams. There is no thing that can be separate from spirit. It is much like the earth.. How do we reconcile this? How can these things that do not appear to be spiritual be spiritual? The bottom line is that they just are! Everything is spiritual. but because our perception is faulty. Everything is as it needs to be in the moment. that is true of every moment. Is that how consciousness works as well. Everything is perfect... no exceptions. we only need about 1200 x 1600 pixels of combinations of three colors and a 101 . Though. space.. If we are not seeing it that way. Technological changes have by far outdistanced anything else in the past century. There is a sense that what happens happens. This is not the predominant mindset for the world . Am I the only consciousness that has walked though this particular life of Wayne.. But. just as we choose what TV shows or movies to watch. Once the string of creation was plucked . Everything is beautiful in its own way as the song says.. in the NOW. Everything is vibration. There is a drama that is being played out in the world. everything was set into motion and completed in an instant. our thoughts. Can the entire universe and everything that transpired within it have truly been completed in the very act of creation? Something within me says yes. But how about the life of Wayne? Was it complete long before I walked in and began to experience being and expressing in this form? Was all of this expression. do we even choose at all? What determines the boundaries of a partition of consciousness? Is there not ONE consciousness that collectively experiences all of this? Hmm . Most of the natural formations were completed long before anyone arrived to witness them. Yosemite and the Grand Canyon come to mind. and our awareness? Is this any different than a computer operates. These were created by natural forces long ago. though we think in terms of past and future. And. where many can observe with each taking away their own unique experience. Everything. There is no other time that exists . but we are creating the meaning that we assign to what we experience. Everything is the word made flesh.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 expression of spirit through form. Or. There can be nothing else. it is the mindset that has been funded and has yielded the most dramatic changes in our lives. and even mind. Actually.. we can understand what kinds of forces were at play and for how long.

. An image just came to mind. That allows people to quickly choose which game to watch and change their focus without having to change channels. Though. the sequence of images and the accompanying dialog is the same.. A movie is roughly a two hour static expression. or are we? No. forms that were beautiful. and that such things may prove useful. doubling in far too few years than seems safe and 102 . But. is the meaning predetermined as well even though it is unknown to the consciousness experiencing it. But. It's rate of growth seems to be cancerous of late.. as something that is evolving in utility. we must reach beyond the constructs and find the meaning towards which the constructs point. Hmm . To get to the real. That implies a mechanicalness that life simply will not adhere to. it is not clear to me that there is such a choice. We are too big to fathom in that way. But. that were holistic. just as a movie can be? Would there be any utility in consciousness experiencing it from another vantage point or is a single pass enough.. in some sports bars. we could interleave ten movies in 600 times per second and "see" ten movies simultaneously.. And. The attention of the individual and the meaning the individual assigns to what is seen and heard are different for each. Theoretically. that were the embodiment of ideals. But. But. all such constructs are illusory. It seems that we should be treating humankind as a body. This is as much as our brains are able to process. those forms became the realities that consciousness would then experience in detail. static like a movie. how was utility determined? What criteria was used? The sense is that this was an emergent property of the creation itself. not static in terms of a single moment in time. we are not talking about static forms. not all paths were realized in form . However.. and are even different if the same individual sees the same movie multiple times. The underlying mechanisms of how we operate are not mechanisms at all. time and space are mental constructs. That is not to say that there are not things that we can understand. there are far more than billions of cells in each human and we have no problem functioning collectively as individual beings. Out of all possibilities. a vibratory structure. they have even allowed us to create some complex systems of our own. they will never be sufficient to allow us to understand us. forms that were elegant. Each time. even the word happened implies that it occurred over time in some way. However. But. That is a lot to be aware of collectively. We have over six billion humans on the planet.. this 50 year experience to date. The sense was that as the original creation was happening. Though useful implies that there is a choice to use. but it does not constitute simultaneous watching? Where is this taking us? Technology and science have allowed us to see how pieces of complex systems operate. Everyone that sees it sees the same expression as attested to by the fact that many people watch the same movie in different places in the country at different times. with each individual aware of only a small part of what is going on. and self-organizing into a form in and of its own. there are many screens all tuned to different games. even the mental constructs revealed here. all paths were explored. At this point. Collectively. Yes.. at the very point at which the creation happened. Is this thing I call Wayne. a glorified movie that I am experiencing? Can it be experienced by anyone. And. Technology however is not limited in such a manner. we are participating in a world movie as well . this was limited to combinations that had utility in some way. a form. My sense is that all such choices were made long ago . we would find it difficult to focus on that much information simultaneously. For. growing to know itself. is there anything more that words can convey.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 relatively small number of intensities even for what constitutes large screen high definition. However. Interference patterns emerged that were synergistic.

Everything. Invention and creation are attempts to put things together as wholes. Its sole purpose is to express and experience in form. While science is good at attempting to isolate things. Only nothing can exist in isolation. are we happier? It seems that some are.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 sane.. Technology has seen to that. it was still a few months before my mania would take me to the mental hospital for a reality check. But. we feel that we have truly accomplished something. I don't pay attention to news or current events on either a local scale or a global scale. And. for all of our technology. My wife knew that something was wrong but there was nothing that she could do about it. this must be necessary or it simply would not be. I don't observe much about the world. At that level of awareness. This week. It stretches whom that I am . even for me. In fact. no thing can exist in isolation. Then again. and did not pose a danger to myself or others. this was eccentric behavior.. especially for this expression.. I like that. But. Why would consciousness choose to express and experience in this manner? The answer that came to mind was because it has no choice. part of this NOT I seems to be composed of individual beings much the same as I am. no matter how independent it may seem. who am I to answer that. The whole process of awakening and expanding awareness seems to involve making what is not I. with at least two days left to express. We are already approaching 7000 words for the week. I am God. there was a time in 1993. But. are our lives richer . with a big "G" and knew that it was true to the core of my being. God is All That Is. God and I are ONE.. 22 May 2008 It has been a busy week. the very process of breaking things apart loses any insight into the synergy that arises from their joining together.. Though. This was a process of going out of my mind . I still remember that experience to this day. Nothing can exist in isolation. I would guess that the numbers are quite small. I. But. No. probably half of which were not here 20 years ago. even speaking in terms of I suggests that there is NOT I as well. And. clearly I have not reached such a level of awareness. They all exist together in one integrated whole. how many of us actively participate in such processes? On other than conscious levels. But. For one who speaks of the benefits of cooperative interdependence. but many are not. and change. consciously. My wife thought I was crazy and even called the police. But. What matters is that it does happen. the expression has been deeper than usual and has broached new topics in whole new ways. there are a lot of things in the world that were not here 20 years ago. nearly 15 years later. Then again. Back to NOT I. The bottom line is that it does not matter whether it happens consciously or other than consciously. I believe that I found it. It is not clear that whom that I am can stretch. at present. but a good week overall .. Yes. as evidenced in this very expression. That comes to over 13 pages of expression. to find awareness. when I jumped up out of bed and said I am God. there was nothing they could do. But 103 . I couldn't have been easy to live with at the time. All things are interdependent on one another. For the I AM lies in the domain of the formless. grow. We grow by integrating more of what we are into what we are consciously aware that we are. Anytime that we achieve 10000 words for the week.. or more precisely whom that I know that I am. how well do I live what I say? Everything in the world is cooperatively interdependent. I was on a spiritual high. there are over 6 billion of these beings on the planet.. That is true in two respects. all of us do. of going Beyond Mind ... But. Its growth has been exponential. At some level of awareness. And further.

Consciousness animates life. all that we need to know will be revealed when we need to know it. Life is not an emergent property from form. Other traditions have similar creation myths as Joseph Campbell will attest. I only vaguely remember what came forth even though I just read through most of it again. what is consciousness? I don't know that any words are sufficient to describe her. We'll have to see how that impacts what comes forth. The book of Genesis in the Bible offers an example of what six of these creation thoughts might have been to get to our very world with all of its teeming life. Then. This very expression is a stream of consciousness. but at other levels they are not. The only way that I can quote myself is to go back and find something that I 104 . This is probably true for every grain of sand as well. is. What I'm thinking here is that consciousness is external force in the universe. Further. to the point of becoming consciousness itself. How could it be any other way? There was not time and space. There is a recursive nature of consciousness that allows for untold complexities to arise and manifest. and a complex brain to think deeply. we've added the property of being a motive force. It is not enough to be aware. Conscious awareness seems to be an important point. Nothing happens by accident. Every snowflake is unique as is every animal and every human. The universe is ultimately manifested form through which consciousness expresses. it is not. We must take the next step and become aware that we are aware. Perhaps that is the cause of many of the religious struggles in the world. It does not remember details. Even electrons have properties that allow them to communicate instantaneously with other electrons they have been associated with even when they are separated by vast distances. But is that not a destination? No. But. or every drop of water. The universe may be this as well. Is this not how many define God? Actually. We think in terms of needing a brain to think . And then. I took a break for about an hour and a half to go home and to eat. It flows from the unformed to the formed. it is not clear that many define God in such a manner. from a mind which is associated with but separate from the brain. But. Nor is consciousness an emergent property from life. and will be was created. and from a consciousness which feeds that mind a stream of expression... that neglects consciousness being the motive force that creates form and expresses through form. It emerges from something far beyond that. That is just how my memory works. Consciousness is ever in the process of manifesting form and expressing through those forms. But is it true for every element. Though. Perhaps far more than we will ever know. or every type of molecule? I don't know the answer to that. it is only the work of consciousness. Life animates form. Now. The world is an open complex system. It will be revealed because we start looking for it earnestly with a pure intent. At some level things are the same. There was only vibration. Within the very first chord that begat the universe. what does that mean? So far we have an aware force that is formless and timeless yet is able to know all and be all and create worlds and express through those worlds.. nature uses simple processes to create wonders and to create nearly endless variety and diversity. The only thing that I think comes close is that consciousness is the property of being aware of being. it is not consciousness. The cause is the other way around. The bottom line is that there is far more to our world than we know. It is very vague. Consciousness is not some static thing. In general.. it is a process of becoming more and more conscious . all that was. is that truly necessary? Does what is expressed here have anything at all to do with my brain? I think not. That makes it one step removed from being. But. an inbreath and an outbreath.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 awareness is not a destination. a thought in the mind of God.

my expectations and thought on this matter were highly mistaken. it has been several years since I have been moved to post any of it. I have read each of the books several times and I still find them fascinating. What does it say that consciousness would go to such lengths to express all of this for me? This is a monumental effort. is that really the case? Yes. Oh well. Are the quotes of such a quality that they can move others as they move me. we can see the output here in this endless stream of words. maybe the way that will happen is by what it moves me to become and to do. Ultimately. then what is to become of all of this? There is still a sense that it is of such a quality that it could impact the world. Lately. Though. where you try to deduce the workings of the box by observing how the box transforms inputs into outputs. The song. In fact. But. But.. But. Why publish books that are only to be read by a few others at most? At the time they were published. Then. At one time in my life. Clearly. Though. Yet. here I am five years later with less than a dozen total sales. Nearly all of the books were published in 2003. But. I thought the books would be so successful that they would allow me to work fulltime on the Beyond Imagination expression. My attempts to share it have basically been for naught. There are glimpses into the nature of the source that come forth in what is expressed. But. but it is only expression. As far as I know. Truly. One obvious place that it points is to the source of the expression. I believe that they are. why am I moved to capture the expression in Composer? This makes each days musing a web page that can be easily posted to the internet. But. In fact. and expressing that in our lives. Yet. Study the words though we might. Yet. This changed a few years after the Beyond Imagination expression started coming forth. And. I didn't know that such would be the outcome. there is a meaning being conveyed that is intoxicating. within minutes of doing that. just last night I spent over an hour revisiting 300 quotes from the beginning of 2002. those things that I select as quotes are particularly powerful. That is an interesting way of looking at things. Further. often they are things that exceed my own conscious understanding. I would guess that we have devoted in excess of 8000 hours to this expression. Though.. here. We don't know what the inputs to consciousness are. the expression is good. there are several other Beyond Imagination books which less than a handful of copies exist. That might change if there was positive feedback on the millions of words that have already been posted at the Beyond Imagination site. I am the only one that has this book. Yes. By 2003. Maybe all of this is meant for my eyes only. this is more than a hobby. I'll never know.. you only know that source from its works. I've begun to think that maybe all of this expression is through me for me. what counts is whom that we are. there was a sense that reading the quotes at that time was necessary.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 want to use as a quote. I don't do that very often. I have considered this expression to be the grandest thing in my life.. That is the equivalent of four years of fulltime work and that doesn't include the time reading it. perhaps even great . come to mind. Why? I don't really know. the quotes that most moved me were selected from this expression. I couldn't recall a single quote that I had read. what matters is not the expression but the truths to which that expression points. that does not tell us anything about source other than that it can produce such a stream of consciousness. it gets us no closer to understanding what source truly is. thoughts program us at an intimate level. I do create works of quotes that I then return to time and time again. For Your Eyes Only. How do we fathom that? How do we reconcile ourselves with the fact 105 . a decade of expression allowed us to select sufficient Beyond Imagination Quotes to create a book of over 600 pages. the quotes of others were key driving forces in my life. it is not clear how to give them the opportunity to do so. What my mind did with that exercise. Clearly. But. But this is not like black box modeling in electronics. Hmm . one that I have never considered before. I fully expected that the books would be successful and would reach their rightful audience.

Joseph Campbell told us: "follow your bliss". Deep down. I continue to do what I am moved to do. Whether from the inside or from the outside. Someone said "do what you love and the money will follow". Though. that strikes a chord. there will be kindred spirits that can be served by this. it is what it is. We have millions of words of expression to date. something that I have shown that I can do in the past. Though. In the interim. Just seeing what is expressed here has to stretch our concepts of what we believe ourselves to be. what would be the utility of having more . but our spiritual jobs as well. but we take whatever comes these days. how much more true is it to us collectively. this very expression is one of my spiritual jobs. Who are these programmers and how did they get their jobs? Interesting questions. who other than me will read those words? That is roughly a 1000 hour investment of my time. It is up to each individual to assign meaning to the expression. Not only the jobs that we work at to earn a living. Each of us has been uniquely programmed genetically and experientially to get us where we are today. Though. That is something for such an original expression. Whether they will need this expression by then or have reached equivalent states on their own remains to be seen. This would imply that we are far more than we seem to be.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 that all of this could flow forth through us? Also. The fact that I am able to bring this forth in this manner indicates that consciousness has reached 106 . or full time for half a year. That is less than three years. But. he was a very wise man who walked his talk. it has the potential to do that for others too. there is a strong sense that such will not be the case for long. there is a product that is generated. At this moment. Those of you reading this are creating it just as much as I did.. That is the equivalent of half time for a year. a sizeable chunk over three years but not so large as to be unwieldy.. I do it for the sheer joy of doing it. other than to give me more to consider in my conceptual frameworks for how consciousness functions and expresses in the world? OK. five musings in five days. it is something that can be readily shared with others. In time. That involves serving to masters. Besides. I have been very poor at making predictions involving time where I have an interest in a particular outcome. That meaning will be unique to each individual exposed to the material. And. that means keeping to the pace. I'm particularly pleased by the pace of late. 23 May 2008 We're doing well this week . For me. Clearly it is a possibility. I can't think of a better way to spend that time. You could also ask we are we and how did we get our jobs. Only you are taking it in through your eyes rather than from an inner source as I did. There is something to show for the commitment I make. being possible doesn't make it so right now. And rightfully so. being programmed presupposes that there is one or more programmers doing the programming. And if that is true for us individually. But. sixteen for the month. it will take 1000 days to generate another million words. there is a nagging sense that what flows forth from source through us ultimately comes from us as well. But consciousness doesn't care how the material gets in.. However. And. At our present pace of a 2000 word musing every other day. and 45 for the year. At least here. We've had better years in terms of frequency and quantity of expression. But. We've been averaging close to 1100 words per hour. Even if I could type faster. I have been hopeful at times to turn it into my means of earning a living. the point is for the material to be consumed so that we can use it in our lives in beneficial ways. But. it is not clear that the expression would flow any faster..

I may have been in error there. Hmm . On the other hand. I'm not even sure if that is how it is spelled...2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 a state in which it can express in flesh in this way. How many need to experience something? That depends on what it is. Wow. she knows what things work and what things don't work to expand awareness. to be all that we can be.. Consciousness experiences through not only me.. as most might express it. I am a guinea pig of sorts allowing consciousness to determine what is necessary to open channels for various types of expression. Things can only progress in flesh to the degree that we make ourselves fitting vessels through which spirit can express. There is ONE consciousness that is creating forms and expressing through those forms simultaneously everywhere. My spiritual work is here. It seems that there are many ways to build foundations. the evolution of consciousness is the process of consciousness becoming more and more aware of the creation. As that came forth. Points of view focus attention to experience the creation. for this expression does it need to be more than one? If it is meant to be. Consciousness knows exactly what it took to get each of us to the states that we are in. We are those points of view . everything. This is a whole new line of thought. this is clearly millions over the years. But. perhaps not.. change me thus providing consciousness fresh material with which to work. For our National Parks. It is not enough to create something. but were all experiences along those paths explored? Just think of Yosemite. is that enough? Perhaps. There is no separation other than that imposed by focusing of attention. The bottom line is that it does not matter whether another ever reads any of this. however. it will be. All that I can say is Halleluiah. But. every being. and rightfully so. What consciousness needed to learn. How do we reconcile this with the idea that all paths were worked out in the moment of creation? All paths may have been created. Points of view have awareness. Points of view are interrelated to one another.. What I have been building is a bridge to source. I was moved to state it precisely in that way. unlike anything that I have ever encountered or expressed before. As a result. Collectively. But. I had thought that some of the foundations that I was building were coming forth in these words. Levels of awareness allow the creation to be experienced in whole new ways. the individual forms are points of view that allow consciousness to experience intricacies of the creation in ways that could not otherwise be experienced. But. One needs to have the appreciation of someone experiencing it to bring completion. The beauty and grandeur were created long before any human was able to visit Yosemite and experience its majesty. Everything that each of us experience individually is experienced by the collective. that is not quite right. In particular. where it has always been. It is for this that I came. and a vessel through which that source can speak. Interesting. every thing. Back to needing consciousness expressing in form to be able to focus on and experience a piece of the creation. What are the laws of spirit pertaining to points of view? Points of view exist HERE and NOW. it just wasn't the same. This is really getting deep. But. but through all of us both individually and collectively. she learned.. our primary "work" is to live fully. And. It helps if we find ways to enjoy the process. Rather. this is what I AM. I just knew that it was true. For each of us. It has been put out in a way that people can stumble upon it. Only time will tell. there was no doubt about it. the creation is a static thing. not as I have a point of view . I am clearly a point of view. there must be a God that could create such a place as this. Levels of awareness permit greater appreciation of the wholeness and ONENESS of the creation. My actions. Back to points of view. The reason for the speaking is to educate me and awaken me.. that is not quite right. No. I've been there many times and still remember the feeling of awe . until a being with consciousness was able to feel that. 107 . she can adapt that and apply it to others in the ways that are most efficient and elegant.

Sculpture. I did read from 2003 Musings . We are also form. Though. But. Nor is there any stepping aside to allow it to happen. If that is to be done. Different people can arrange the music and come up with new versions of the song with the same lyrics sung in a different manner.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 It is like a song. And here. hence experience. and are moved by consciousness to express through form by participating in creative endeavors. What many fail to realize is that all endeavors are creative. at times it seems that such is not the case. Further. Though. that is not what I am moved to do in the moment. How that can be still 108 . As always. Though there are many questions asked.. But. I don't know. Oh well. I didn't find time to muse. What is contained in the stream of consciousness originates on other than conscious levels.Vol III for several hours. There was a vague sense of remembrance as I read. This is where the creative thrust that propels something into being happens. there is no sense that I am asking these questions either. It was an enjoyable weekend anyway. But. I just know that it does happen. I don't know how it happens. we are talking about a stream of consciousness. we can't help but to create. I was blown away by what came forth. the high was 92 in Idyllwild. as usual. But. I open Composer and I start typing. This weekend. All creative expression is similar. I do not feel that I am creating all of this.. Literature. it goes further than this. it is for someone to do that has the appropriate skills to do it. I don't remember a Memorial Day weekend being so cold. Could I do this longer? Definitely. Science and nearly every discipline all create forms for us to use or enjoy. It just happens automatically. Sports. But. This is typically a one way flow of information. In this case. I don't have to plan what to say next. The world is such a wonderful place. until we have roughly 2000 and I stop for the day. Even the desert peaked at 80 compared to 112 last weekend. the weather says something about the state of the mass consciousness. The song exists as music and lyrics but has no reality until someone performs it. it was 48. Because we are unique points of view we are able to see different facets of these forms. Philosophy. We can even compare different interpretations of the song. it is what it is. what is a stream of consciousness? It is a stream of words that come forth serially along with punctuation. I like being in the bringing forth mode. Photography. It seems that there needs to be a balancing act between living life and serving spirit. or a movie. But. These feelings and emotions are different for each of us because we make different associations with experiences in our lives. and by attaching emotion to them we create unique experiences. One after one. it happens while I am fully conscious. And. it is the fact that we are points of view that allows us to experience the wonder. most songs stir up feelings and emotions in the listener. And. I only have to allow the next word to come forth in the moment. Last weekend. Art. They are just part of the stream of consciousness. For extended periods of time? Probably. That would suggest that I am not living when I am expressing in this manner. What that is. But. to some degree that is true. but that it is not my job to edit or rearrange it in any way. that was all. There is still a sense that I am here to bring all of this forth. until someone sings the lyrics to the music. Dance. and often answers are given to these questions. Living implies that there is some interaction going on. We are creative beings . Movies. while I am conscious of the words as they come through me. I am not conscious of the source. it is that simple. only far more complex. 26 May 2008 Strange weather this weekend. Music. even if it is only through experiencing things in new ways.

But. Something that makes this the hallmark of my life. This allows spirit to step in and come forth through us. But. or in my case say or type. But. it is disjointed and fragmented. there is a sense that such will indeed occur. is the path of the hiker destined or is it chosen? Similarly. I still feel free. That works for writing. more that I could be doing. in reality all time is NOW. What next? What am I moved to do next? I am still here engaged in this stream of consciousness expression. Though. I was only 35. Sometimes it is a struggle and even a fight.. that I AM is complete. It should be old hat by now. that is exactly what that means. in my forays into the wilderness of consciousness. When this expression began. Look at me. Something just flashed in my mind . or any other previous or future age. But. That is not to say that I do everything willingly. We've been doing this for going on 16 years. I also noticed that my mind is blank a lot. is any of this my doing on a conscious level? The sense is that no. Spirit is the motive force in my life. but does it work for other things? I haven't been moved to try it for other things . at work. The only place that we can make a difference is NOW. But. But. or on the fly based on what is found and following the interests consciousness in deciding where to go next? That is. I believe that is what allows this stream of consciousness to come through as it does. There is simply me NOW. I only need to do what I am moved to do. Though.. But. The wilderness is there waiting to be explored. There is something special that is going on here. So much so. The question is: does this choice happen in advance. I've been doing it from the standpoint of observing rather than participating in the stream of thought. so. an image of a hiker walking through the wilderness. this expression can seem that way at times as well.. ever. Does that mean all of the events of my life have already played themselves out. how does one do that? For spiritual expression. Instead. I don't know what I could do to beat this. Yet. I'm half a century old. It seems more personal and less focused 109 . in the present. or I think that it does anyway. However. and I am the right person to do them. Perhaps tomorrow. that it does not seem like a stream at all. Yes. carrying us into the next moment. I don't really know. I don't have to know how it will happen. we have to stop doing things in and of our own. Though. the experience is new and is necessary for consciousness to know the creation that it has manifested. It can take sharp turns between paragraphs or even from one sentence to the next. what hasn't occurred is my experience of the events. whatever it is. the moments seem to past. I do what I am moved to do. There is a different character to the expression tonight. There is no other time that exists. One of the quickest ways of receiving something in our life is to create a vacuum for it. it is not. Yet.. as the Billy Joel song says "she only reveals what she wants me to see".. I was only 16. Here.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 astonishes me. When my love affair with metaphysics began. The stream is much different than this stream of consciousness. Everything begins HERE. I've been noticing myself thinking much more than I ever have noticed before. Somehow. There is no separate me at 16 and 35. it isn't. She has been such for some time now. It only seems natural to do them. in the moment. ultimately what is right wins out . the consciousness chooses the path by which to walk through the wilderness. nothing ever happens tomorrow. I don't really think about In all three domains there are things that need to be done. and at home. As the saying goes: "nature abhors a vacuum". But. But. in what ways am I free? What choices in my life do I know that I make? It is not clear that there are any. is that all? It seems that there is more that I should be doing.. encompassing all that I ever was or will be. But. it is much the same. I am not moved to do it yet. And.

and/or the circumstances.. Masculine energy has ruled for far too long yielding many of the problems that we face in the world. If we expect things to change . Consciousness is there observing all that is experienced by creating forms and expressing through those forms. Consciousness is the awareness. they are expressed through me nonetheless. not one moment sooner or later. The question is: will we do this? At some point. Hmm . And. the new scene calls for the feminine to assume the roles of power in the world.. It is time to allow the divine feminine to occupy her rightful place in the scheme of things. However. During the week there seems to be more free time than on weekends. that we are in the process of acting it out in flesh.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 somehow. it seems that there is a distinction. here we are speaking of bringing forth an entirely new world order. It is time to reverse that. Perhaps the assumption that I know what is expressed through me is faulty. Everyone is doing the best they can given their understanding.. that point does not seem to be NOW. it is being done in secret behind the scenes.. some days are like that. more than that. That is always the right thing. and circumstances.. We can do that NOW. We can do this. Regardless.. We can only BE whom that we are. Collectively. Do I really know it? 110 . What do we want to happen NOW? What do we want to do NOW? What do we want to be NOW? We can only DO what we are moved to DO. Where it will take us. So long as consciousness collectively stays one step ahead of us. she is leading us all one step at a time. But. Spirit is creative. We can do this here and now. Oh well. That is not even a possibility in my world. then we need to change the understanding. such is what they must do. We'll have to see where it takes us. Perhaps some of that is how I use my time on weekends. everything works out perfectly. Spirit could never create anything less than perfect.. it is to be a grand show indeed. only consciousness knows . The play of consciousness is already written.. That would not be the first time something major has happened in secret. That has to be enough. At no other time have the circumstances been as ripe for this transformation to occur. a stream of consciousness that is able to deal with things that I do not consciously know that I know. what if it doesn't happen. And. It's about time. Consciousness observes the expression by riding within the forms. NOW is the time for this.. But. that is always sufficient. Spirit collectively observes everything and orchestrates everything. we can do this for all individuals if only we build the appropriate foundations for a new society. the abilities. NOW. Those in power roles are not going to find it easy to relinquish those roles. But... Then when? When the time is right . If it is happening in the world.. And. I am the proud parent of a wonderful expression . For. Now. and probably within my lifetime. We muse when we can.. It may be that we don't know where to go next until we take a step. and perhaps she doesn't know either... help to create. Spirit creates forms. Yet. After all. I am happy with what is coming forth this year. the play is changing scenes. How can I be so sure? Because this is what I came for? This is the show that I came to observe . we can only see that from the perspective of spirit. the answer will be YES. the very nature of the world to be built is antithetical to the world in which they wield their power. Consciousness is reflective. Yet still there is ONE spirit and ONE consciousness. There is a sense that it is already done . But.. The expression of consciousness is perfect in all ways at all times. But. I have used consciousness and spirit somewhat synonymously before. That is all that we can do. abilities. 27 May 2008 What a busy day! We're getting started an hour later than I had hoped. That will happen . It is up to us to play our roles and act out the dramas of our lives individually and collectively.

It seems that many of the things that I do. and of those only a few have discussed it with me to any degree and that was over a decade ago. there was no turning it off again. Further. Hmm . It takes you to places that nothing else can in ways that nothing else can. She is the playwright and the producer of the drama of life as it is express on earth HERE and NOW. Once the switch clicked in 1993... That too has had positive results. that is how I experience it. That is OK. There is something wonderful about a stream of consciousness expression. Is that a good thing? From what has been able to come 111 . that has been OK . That's in 50 years. I can function in the world when I choose to. or. I simply do not know. The only other conscious memory that I have is very vague at best.. The answer that comes to mind is consciousness herself. I am perfectly fine operating in the way that I do.. Less than 10 of these have read any of the Beyond Imagination material.. Indeed. multi-verses. in this country anyway. Interesting that this came through as "on earth". It might explain the stranger in a strange land feeling that I have had as far back as I can remember. Though. only a small fraction of these did I know to any real degree. roles that we auditioned for. somehow I don't see it changing. a written record is essential to my functioning. In my work. Does that mean that there are other consciousnesses creating their dramas elsewhere in the universe . As you can tell. I am started to take more of a leadership role in how I work and interact with my staff and my customers. even pleasant at times. for the joy that I experience in doing it. a shell that kept me safe but also kept me away from others... this expression is different. Something a psychic once told me just came to mind. am I learning it as I read it? That could be the case . multiple dimensional consciousness . I do because that is what people do on this planet . even if the cycles are not welldefined. Does that make me alien? I could very well be. There is nothing to grab onto. there are a lot of things that we can point to that we may never be able to fully grasp there meaning. There is still a strong sense that everything that I do is preparing me for a role that I came to perform in this existence. Whether others experience things in this way. for the pure love of it. I still don't know other than sensing that it was somewhere that I worked before coming here. including this expression seem to happen in cycles. that is not confined solely to this expression. We can ride the waves of consciousness wherever they take us. That is what I have been. but is that what I AM NOW? It seems that my work is driving me to interact with others far more than I used to. that begs the question of who received the auditions and made the choices.. We're probably talking less than 50. There too. but it can convey a lot of things. something about coming from Star Creation Central. things. I often do not remember what specifically I have done within moments of having done it.. Perhaps that is why I find most meetings to be a waste of my time.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 Or. or even in multiverses? Language may not be able to convey many things. My attention is not suited to the spoken word. I have stayed within a shell of my own making .. but consciously I am forgetting it as fast as I read it as well. We know that wherever that is will be good. But. These are roles that we chose. this is a play of consciousness. At least. there have been times when the frequency of expression was rare to non-existent for months at a time. Universes. it just reverberated within me as being true. I have truly led an isolated existence. That is the hermit nature coming out. even though I didn't know what it meant.. So far. This written record is in a very real way my memory of this expression. But. roles that we were selected to play. I just don't choose to very often... and we all have our roles to play. Life is good. This is something that I do for myself. Also. Such is just how it is.. But. When she told me this. But. The number of others that I have met in my whole life is probably on the order of 1000. Perhaps this could change. I don't know what causes this.

2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 forth in this expression, I would have to answer yes. However, did I need it to be that way in order to get to 1993 and from 1993 to NOW? On the one hand, if it were not necessary, it would not have happened in the way that it did. Everything is perfect. All expression is perfect. Yet, here I am wanting to create the foundations for a new world that is better than the current world in major ways. But, how can there be anything better than what is already perfect? It seems that we have found the question of the night. Indeed, how can there be anything better? The key seems to be in the statement be all that you can be. This applies not only to individuals but to the collective. And, in the world, one thing that is everpresent is change. While the world and everyone in it is always perfect, we are also everchanging. When we speak of the collective, we include governments, companies, schools, countries, churches, religions, communities, teams, groups, etc ... These are all doing the best they can under the conditions that they find theirselves in. These are all evolving to permit the greater expression of spirit through them. Yes, sometimes it appears that change is happening at a snail's pace. But, it is happening nonetheless. Further, it is happening in the right direction, for that is ultimately the only direction that it can go. We have ideas on where this change is headed. In particular, we dream of a world that is more supportive of us all on physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual levels. Can we make that world our world? And, can we do so in a manner that avoids suffering to the degree possible? Can we create a peaceful world? Not just a world without war. We have had that for brief periods of time in the past. We are speaking of a world where peace is the order of the day, where people respect one another as the spiritual beings that they are. John Lennon sang of this world in his song Imagine. That song has become popular of late. It was even sung in the final round of American Idol before tens of millions of people at once. But, were the people listening. Did they hear what the song is speaking of. Did it strike a chord deep within them as it has always done within me. The sense is no. However, it did reach some. And, it did reach all of the audience at some level. It may have not been enough to make a difference yet. But, at the very least it is a sign that the mass consciousness is ready to experience something wonderful. Why this particular song? And why was it chosen as the final performance of the final contestant? These things don't happen by accident or by chance. This particular song was chosen on multiple levels for a multitude of reasons. "Imagine there's no heaven, it's easy if you try. No hell below us, above u s only sky. Imagine all the people, living life in peace. Imagine no possessions, I wonder if you can. Nothing to kill or die for, no religion too. Imagine all the people sharing all the world. No greed nor hunger, a brotherhood of man." I know I didn't get it right, but it is as close as I can remember. These are powerful things to imagine. But, we need to do more than that, we need to make them real on this planet at this time. Can we do that? Of course we can? The only question is when. And the only answer to when is NOW. Act as if. That is the key. The world of our dreams already exists embedded within the present one. We have only to focus on it to draw it out. We can do this individually at any time. When enough of us do it, collectively we will have changed the world for all of us. Is that the only way to do things? In this case, yes. That is how we change the world ... one step, one person at a time. Though, we live in a time when we can do this en masse ... primarily through entertainment and the mass media. These mechanisms reach hundreds of millions every day. If it works for commercials, subliminally getting us to buy particular products or services, why can it not work to educate us for the 112

2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 greatest good of the society and the world. It is just a matter of what programming we have it do. Why should we allow it to be employed for the good of the captains of industry rather than for the good of us all. Yes, I have a bias toward the good of the collective. Why that should be the case given how isolated my life is from that collective, I'll never know. But, it is what it is. I have this driving need to serve the world somehow. I believe that I am doing that in bringing forth this expression in this manner. Though, how can I impact the world if the expression only reaches me? But, that is not truly the case. The expression is also experienced by the collective through my personal experience of bringing it forth. And, from what comes forth, consciousness learns what works and what does not work in bringing forth such expression. This facilitates how she speaks through others. So, there is benefit that comes from all of this, even if it is for my eyes only. Though, there is still a sense that the expression must be captured to allow me to reflect on it over time. I suspect that others could benefit from doing this as well, but that is not for me to make happen. Though, I am open to having a role in allowing it to happen, even if that means doing new things in new ways ... especially if that means doing new things in new ways, Hmm ... 1957 words, the year before I was born. The pace has been good. We still have 15 minutes until the two hour mark. I don't know why the pace has quickened but it is in excess of 1000 words per hour now. That compares to roughly 800 words per hour during the high periods of 2002-2003. That's like getting an extra musing for every four that we got before. Not that it matters much. We still express far more than we can expect many people to read. Though perhaps that is not quite true. At 300 words per minute, a 2000 word musing that took two hours to generate can be read in 7 minutes. Even if you slow down to half that speed so that you can carefully read the expression, we are only talking about 15 minutes. Is what I write good enough that an audience can devote 15 minutes to reading it four to five times per week? Clearly, it is good enough for me to spend nearly ten times that amount of time on it. But then, I am not your average person. I only know what I am moved to do ... and that is to express and to read this expression often. Of course, I am biased when it comes to this. I know that. Because of that I am guarded and careful. I know that I can be grandiose at times. OK, maybe even often. But, hopefully, I do it in a way that is benign and even beneficial. My heart is in the right place. I would build the foundations for a better world for everyone. But, how do I know what is better? I have a natural talent for seeing what is working in a complex system and what is not working. And, I am not shy about allow consciousness voice all of this through me. Lately, I've made the attempt to claim more of it as my own. But, I do so somewhat in the blind. For consciously, I do not sense that I am creating all of this. More and more, however, there is a sense of familiarity, a sense that this could indeed be coming forth from a deeper part of me. 28 May 2008 Another busy day! It seems that they may all be like that with the recent organizational change at work. That's OK. Busy is good. It makes the work day fly by anyway. And, there is always the evening to write. Two hours of my free time each work day is not a lot to expect. This expression after all is the most important activity of my day. What is expressed here has the potential to be eternal, or at least to remain long after I have departed the planet anyway. Whether it will do so or not, only spirit knows, and only time will tell. What matters at the moment is that I bring it forth as often and as quickly as I can. What happens after that is not in my hands. Interesting. But, that is indeed how I feel. It is consciousness that is expressing 113

2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 here. She knows why she is expressing and to whom. Here and now, to whom seems to only be me. But, I have no idea as to how this expression affects others in unseen realms. Clearly, consciousness herself knows what has been expressed here. She also knows what she has moved me to post and where she has moved me to post it. She also knows how to bring others to the material that has been posted ... by URL and by key words through various search engines. In addition, some people have been moved to link their sites to Beyond Imagination, so there are so pathways from those sites to this material. Ultimately, those who are meant to be exposed to this expression will be exposed to it one way or another. It just seems that we should be doing things to make that easier. Oh well, we will do such things when we are moved to do them. That is how my life works. I do what I am moved to do when I am moved to do it. Though, I can only move in the moment, in the NOW. That is true not only for me, but for everyone. Just noticed we have a 28:Man with the World in His Hands day in a 28 year. That will happen 12 times this year. This is the fifth time, but the first one that I have noticed. There is something significant about 28. This is the GOD number for me, not numerologically, but symbolically. 28 is also the second Perfect Number. The first is 6. The third is 496. There are only around 33 known Perfect Numbers. What makes it perfect is that the sum of the divisors equal the number. 1+2+3 = 6. 1+2+4+7+14 = 28. 28 May 2008 = 28 + 21 + 28 = 77:The Falconer in the Tarot, also = CHRIST. That makes it an interesting day as well. I'm curious as to what energy will manifest on such an auspicious day. It will be what it is. What makes it special or not is the state of consciousness I am in. Right now, I'm flying high again. I've been doing so since the musings picked up again in early March. These times can last for quite awhile as we saw in 2002-2003. Whether that will be the case again or not, only time will tell. Right NOW, it is perfect to be here expressing in the moment. This is so much better than work. Though, don't get me wrong, there are some parts of my job that I enjoy. I just need to find ways to do these parts more of the time. To some degree, that is within my control. But, not completely. There are meetings that must be supported that are difficult for me to support. But, who said life has to be easy all of the time. Sometimes our greatest challenges are our most important learning opportunities. And, learning is much of what life is all about. Actually, being is what life is all about. And, if we are going to be, we might as well be the best that we can be. Hmm ... an interesting question just came to mind. Are all of us being the best that we can be every moment? Can we ever be anything less than this? This could indeed be true given our abilities, our awareness, and our circumstances. That doesn't mean that things could not be better for us individually or for the collective. It just means that in this moment, everything somehow is as it should be. Something doesn't seem quite right about stating it in that way. Should implies a sense of right or wrong. And, we did not intend to convey that at all. At some level, it is all alright ... yet, at the same time we can be moved to take action to make it better. But, what constitutes better for society or for the world? How are we to assess this? What criteria are we to use to do this? For me, better seems obvious when I see it. I don't know what goes into something being better other than there being more elegance in how spirit is able to express through form. Along with this, there is less misery and suffering. There is more peace and love expressed. There is more toleration of differences. There is more respect of one another. There is more creative expression. There is more diversity. All of these things characterize being "better". All of these things are decisions we can make as individuals, and see the results collectively in our world. We know that it is possible to live in this way. There are groups of people who care deeply for one another and respect each other. What these groups can 114

2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 do, we can choose to do on a larger scale. In the end, it comes down to a willingness to share: to share what we have, to share what we think, to share what we feel, but most importantly to share whom we are. All of these are choices that we can make at any time. When we hoard instead of share, not only does the world suffer as a result ... we suffer. We may not know how much we suffer, but all we have to do is look to the world around us to see it. We see greed, hunger, homelessness, illness, misery, war, violence, hatred ... the list goes on and on. We also see the abundance, health, happiness, peace, helpfulness, kindness, caring, acceptance, love ... the list goes on and on as well. So, we know how to create all of the things on the later list. Why don't we do it in a manner that makes it a part of the lives of far more people on the planet? The bottom line is that collectively we are doing this ... it just takes time. It does not seem to happen overnight. Though each day, more and more people are won over to a new way of living. Each day, the world becomes a better place to live in some way. There is an evolution going on, a spiritually driven evolution. The question is does spirit know where this evolution is taking us? My sense is that the answer is NO. This is a bold adventure that we are on collectively. That we will evolve is certain. But, whether we will be fit to live in the world that is evolving remains to be seen. We are part of the world and the world is part of us. Hmm ... how can that be? How can parts be part of one another. They can only be so if they are ONE. We are the world! There was a song to that effect popular in the 70's if I recall correctly. I remember it being sung by many of the top vocal artists of the day. It was truly inspirational in its lyrics and in how it was created. It was a direct example of the power of cooperation in the creative process. Unfortunately, we have not seen very many such examples in the world ... at least not of which I am aware. But then, I am not very aware of what is happening outside of my world. Though I have noticed several shows that try to find the best people at what they do and offer a big prize to the winner. The Apprentice, American Idol, Hell's Kitchen, and So You Think You Can Dance are shows of this genre. Each has been running for several season's. Two of the shows offer a prize of $500K and $1M and associated fame. The other two offer premiere job opportunities working for some of the best and brightest in the business. It seems that there should be much more of this. There should be such opportunities for the most creative among us to find their place in the universe. Perhaps that is already happening in its own way. But, even with my limited interactions with people, it does not seem that very many have risen to a level truly requiring the use of their talents and abilities. If we could just harness the creative energies of people in ways that were more fun, the productivity would skyrocket and we would have a better world in no time. So, what am I moved to do NOW? Obviously, I am continuing to express this stream of consciousness. Why? Because that is what stirs my heart and soul in the way that nothing else does. How long will that continue? Today, for another hour or so. And then, we see what tomorrow will bring. That is how I live my life, one moment at a time ... paying attention to whatever my awareness is drawn to in each moment. Is that the best way to live, or even a good way to live? For me it is. Indeed, for me it is the only way that I know. Anything different would require planning ... something quite foreign to me. Why should that be? For many, planning and to do lists are a way of life. I've experimented with such lists in the past when I had so many things to do at work that such lists were the only way to keep track of them. But, I got tired of maintaining the lists. Generally, when I get tired of doing something, I stop doing it. As an Aries, I find it easy to start new things and to come up with new ideas. Perhaps that is why this expression comes forth so naturally and fluently. This is a bold new endeavor. It has 115

2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 been from the very beginning and nothing about that has changed. Though there have been times when there have been breaks in the expression, even breaks of several months. Inevitably, the expression starts up again and excites me just as much if not more than before. During the breaks, I find myself busy doing other things. Sometimes I read, sometimes I watch TV or movies, sometimes I listen to the radio, sometimes I work around the house or at the cabin, sometimes I just veg out. Somehow the time passes by until I am moved to express again. It seems that the breaks are necessary to help recharge my batteries and to give me experiences that can then foster further expression. Of late, I have been moved to read the works of others in addition to my own. Though I much prefer my own. There is something special about being moved by what has come forth from spirit through you. There is something magical about it. I can't get enough of it. I try to put in at least half an hour of reading this expression daily. Why should that be necessary? Why should I have to read what has come forth through me to be able to recall it? I don't know, that is just how it is. At work, things are much the same. I only remember specifics if I write them down, and even then I sometimes forget what I have done only to rediscover it days, weeks, months, or even years later. Though, often I have a vague sense of having done something and even know where to go to look for it. Both here and at work, what I create comes out in final form the first time. Occasionally, I have to go back and redo something at work ... but, that is generally to incorporate the inputs of others. I know that others do not work in this way. They go through rough drafts to drafts to final documents. This seems like an endless cycle of coordination that is foreign to my way of doing things. Though, clearly my way is not the only way. And, it may not even be a good way for many. That is OK. All that truly matters is that it works for me ... and that it does, in flying colors. Why are we discussing all of this now? Who knows. As always with this expression, we follow wherever the stream of consciousness takes us. Though, it is times like this when there is a stronger sense that I am actually creating this. Though, having a sense is not the same as being conscious of how. What does it take to experience being a creator? Being an observer is second hand now. I do it almost continuously. My attention is nearly always multitasked. I am aware of a great many things at the same time. And, I am aware of being the observer, observing this awareness as well as all that I do. It was not always like that. Growing up I was inside the box, not really inside my body, but inside my mind. In 1993, that changed as I experience going Beyond Mind ... and things were never the same again. But, that is a good thing. We would have it no other way. Being aware of being aware is an important step ... perhaps the most important step to living a life of spirit. We still haven't answered the question of what it takes to experience being a creator. Though, it is something that we do every time that we come here to express. Perhaps that is why I love it so. Here, a stream of consciousness is given birth. And, I am both the creator and the observer of that expression. Interesting. I haven't been moved to consider myself to be the creator of this expression before. But, now, it seems right somehow. This expression could not exist without me. So, at the very least, I am its co-creator. If the source within turns out to be a part of me as well, then both parents of this creation are ME. Wouldn't that be a kick after all of these years? Though, it is not clear that such would change the nature of this expression one iota. Even as I wrote that, it was obvious that it was not true. Everything I do, everything I learn, everything I experience, everything that I feel, changes the nature of this expression. The only thing that doesn't change is that it remains a stream of consciousness.

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2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 29 May 2008 Wow. That makes it three extremely busy days in a row. That is good overall, but not so good for this expression as work time encroaches on my free time. Oh well, sometimes it is like that. We do what we have to do. The job has its ups and downs. Of late, more ups than downs. There is a sense that I am making a difference, that I am working in a way that uses more of my abilities. That is always fun, even if it gets hectic at times. Then, there is always this expression for release. Here I unwind and allow consciousness full reign to take me where she will. Most of this is effortless. I said most, because there are times when my mind goes blank and I have to stop for awhile. Generally, it is few moments, but sometimes it can be longer. Overall, it seems that so long as I am willing to allow consciousness to express, I find that she has something to say through me. However, I have no clue as to what that will be prior to it coming forth. It still amazes me that the process works in this manner. But, we've been doing this going on 16 years. There is no denying that it happens. It definitely challenges all my concepts of what consciousness, reality, and reality creation are all about. That is good. It is good for our all of our concepts to be challenged now and then. For, concepts are another term for beliefs. And, these may be right or not right, true or not true, valid or not valid. They should only be judged based on their utility in our lives. Do they serve us and those whose lives we touch. If not, it is time to find some that do. There are many beliefs out there to choose from. It is a matter of finding the ones most suitable to us. We will know what these are ... they will fit us like a glove. The constant question: what am I moved to do next? Immediately, the answer is to express here, just as I am doing NOW. This is the answer every evening during the work week. But, what else am I moved to do? That is a harder question to answer. Though the response that comes to mind is simple ... I am moved to do what I do. That embodies everything that I do. There is nothing outside of or beyond this. I am what I am. That is enough. I am perfect as I am. But, these statements don't apply solely to me. They apply to everyone equally. There is nothing that any of us do that we are not moved to do. Though, this says nothing about the motive force. Yet, the motive force for everything is spirit. Everything is spirit in expression. There simply is nothing else. Good/Evil, they are both spirit. Light/Darkness, both spirit as well. Though, some might say the later of both of these pairs simply is not real. Yet, how do we account for the fact that people experience them? That's simple too. We watch movies and become so involved in what we are watching that we believe them to be real yet we know they are not. Do we truly know that our lives are more than a glorified movie? Yes, it happens in more dimensions and over a longer time span, but is it truly any more real? Perhaps, but perhaps not. Is anything that we experience REAL? What does it mean to be real? The first answer that comes to mind is to be authentic, to be whom we truly are. But how do we do that? How do we simply BE? This is not something that we are taught. The focus is always on being something. But something is not what we are, rather it is typically something that we do. I am a lawyer, a doctor, an engineer, an artist, a dancer, a writer, a homemaker, a carpenter, a priest, a scientist, a politician ... these all define being someone that does something. They are occupations that we have, they don't define who we are. Nothing defines who we are. How can you define something that is formless and timeless? The bottom line is that you can't. What you can do is experience being aware of what you do. It is not yet clear to me how you experience what you are. Even awareness seems to be a thing. Things have form and exist in time. Is consciousness of the same nature? She is able to create forms and express through those forms. But, what witnesses all that she does, all that she 117

2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 expresses? Our consciousness is that witness. But, can consciousness ever be separate? There is only ONE consciousness. But, there are many focuses through which consciousness sees and experiences "reality". We are each one of those focuses, one of the facets of the diamond of consciousness. But, how do we make this practical? What can we do with it to enhance our lives and the lives of those we touch? We start seeing ourselves for what we are, as a focus of the ONE consciousness. Because we are part of the ONE, we are connected to everything, everywhere, over all time. We learn what it takes to change our focus, and to change our awareness of ourself. By doing so, we become an enhanced vessel through which consciousness can express and experience. Each "enhancement" improves something not only locally, but globally as well. We find ways to join with others in mutual endeavors. In so doing, we build greater forms, greater structures through which spirit can express. Here, synergy comes into play. The whole is greater than the sum of its parts. How much synergy depends on how the group is created. Just think in terms of the organs in the body. Groups of cells cooperate to create structures with functions that are not inherent in any of the parts. The various functions exist to serve the whole body, and such is what they do willingly for long periods of time despite the fact that most of the individual cells die every 7 years or so. In society, a similar example is the government. The monarchy in England has existed for over a thousand years though no individual King or Queen reigned for very long. Similarly, the basic Constitution of the government of the US has remained the same since its inception over 200 years ago despite the fact that Presidents typically serve only 4-8 years. Though the government has grown tremendously in that time to serve the needs of the populous and to function in an increasingly complex world. Our bodies have not been as adaptive as our organizations. They are biological machines that became what they are through an evolutionary process that measures time in thousands of years, not lifetimes. Interesting, but where is all of this leading? The bottom line is that I never really know. It just comes out as it does. That has to be enough. For, that is all there is. I don't know what it would be like if I had to try to create something on my own. Even at work, much that I do is automatic. It just comes forth, generally in final form. Most of my work is immediate. I get those things that I need to provide a context in front of me, and then generate what needs to be generated. Generally, it is something that I am moved to generate. Usually it is free form, though often I think in terms of outlines and then fill in the details. I switch contexts often. But, always, I need enough information to provide a context in order to act. This expression is a little different. Only two works started with tables of contents ... the Beyond Imagination book and Reality Creation 1010. Everything else has been stream of consciousness. Why? Because that is as it is meant to be. How do I know that? Because that is how it happened and things in my world happen as they are meant to happen when they are meant to happen. Is what is true for me true for everyone. Perhaps, but not necessarily. There is room in the universe and in the world for great varieties of experience. I am only one person. And, I have shared my life with few others. Further, my knowledge of others is highly limited, so I have little clue as to what they experience and how they experience it. Will that change? It seems that it needs to if I am to help build foundations in which spirit can more fully express through them. Then again, one doesn't need to understand how people experience things to be able to understand the laws of nature. And, one needs only a limited understanding of how the body and brain function for technology to build things that are useful to people. Why should the laws for the expression of spirit in flesh be any different? They may be more complex, but probably not overly so. Then again, are there 118

I express as I am moved to express. There is no conscious awareness of that part of my life. But. At times the 119 . The musings have had a different character than those of prior years. Clearly. nothing. And that. the most creative activity that I participate in. When? The answer to when is always NOW. it is not so clear that I am creative as I participate. I could possibly type a little faster. whatever that is. I'm happy with that. I am the only one reading it. Interesting. I think in terms of exploring the unknown realms of consciousness. or 10 pages per week. There are religious laws.. psychology and the like.. rarely do I experience any recall of what is happening when I am sleeping. is perfect for that moment. Science has essentially done this for the physical world . I don't know how others experience such things. What matters is what is expressed in each moment. As a reader. I still spend a significant amount of my time asleep. and the expression was significantly slower. Here. What we are doing. Nothing more and nothing less. They determine our destiny. there is no future. Interesting. Of late.. Everything happens in the infinite moment. even when we are sleeping. Perhaps I never will. Sometimes I am doing busy work that keeps me occupied.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 even such laws? Does the expression of consciousness ever limit itself in such a way? Good questions. That yields enough material for a big book every four months . The creative process is different for us all. when I am moved to express. That is true of every moment.. it is for my eyes only . and what we are being HERE and NOW define us. or stop to pause less frequently .. That is a similar volume of musing to what occurred in 2002-2003. If it needed to be different. You might say that was true of much of my days as well. That is OK. but not fully engaged. but these are more of the nature of moral codes. In book form. That comes to nearly 2.. is contained in or at least pointed to by these words. yet I spend nearly one-third of my life in that state. or three times per year.. there is only NOW. Does consciousness need to see this expression through me to know that it got forth into the physical realm? Perhaps she does. With a two hour commitment per day. And. But. It is not enough for consciousness to know what energy was sent. what we are thinking. We've been musing nearly four times per week for eight weeks. but I'm probably coming close to my limit for expressing in this manner. or fighting sleep as it were. there is only this expression. only then I was expressing every 9 out of 10 days. I don't yet know source to be me. I consider source to be creative.. 2 June 2008 We've already made it into June. Literally nothing else matter in this moment. That is just the way that it is in my life anyway. and through consciousness seeing through my eyes. I don't begin to think that I understand how other writers write. And. it is interesting to see how quickly they can be reflected in what is expressed. we are talking about 8000 words per week. right now. it would be different.. And. actually even further if you consider life sciences such as biology. we need to see what energy was received.. It implies that source is me and that I may indeed know that some day. They have been more influenced by what I have been reading than I remember happening before. exceeding 1000 words per hour. sociology. I can only know the final form of what got put into the books that I read. Not that such comparisons mean anything. The pace continues to be good . I don't consider these to be particularly spiritual.. But. what happens to the expression once it comes forth. Interesting how that was stated. Though I consider myself more aware than most.5 pages of expression per day. Here. I consider this stream of consciousness to be highly creative . It is good to have quality inputs from time to time. or at least that part of our destiny that can be controlled by us. This is true in every moment of our existence.. that is nearly 25 pages per week. There is no past.

This happens everywhere. a richness on physical. And. and spiritual levels . the thoughts. But. they don't need space and time to exist. How do I know that it is not downloaded instantly and then recalled by me in this linear fashion to get it into this form? The bottom line is that I don't know. Nothing moves me like this does. consciously. Just think how grand the Universe that we know is . in this case. I was going to say "reveal it over time" but something didn't feel right about that. Is my present job necessary to prepare me for this? If it were not. Yet. emotional. Or is it. How do I know that any of this is really true? I don't. This expression is built word after word. Everything.. mental. sentence after sentence. and "hearing" it in my head word after word. it does indeed seem that spirit reveals things through us over time.. Would All That Is be any less prolific in its creations? Further. Though what is the weight of this expression? Is it the weight of the Beyond Imagination books or the weight of a printout of all of this material? That probably wouldn't come to the $1 per word price that I was moved to set for it. This is not necessarily when I demand to know something .. they do need something akin to space and time to be experienced. There are probably hundreds of thousands to millions of songs among humankind. these four are enough to start with. Am I meant to do the work of Beyond Imagination on a full time basis? You will do so when the time is right and when you are ready.. it would not happen. Out of this perfection that spirit created. much as a thought is part of you. All That Is and the creation can never be separate. That makes this expression worth its weight in gold as they say. It is that simple. There is a richness to life. What I remember however. I trust that my mind operates in a manner that it somehow captures what I read and makes the appropriate connections with what has come before.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 work is both busy and engaging. sometimes even enlightening. it is the experience of the song that makes all the difference. If it were not necessary.. Though. everywhere. so there is no way that I can answer that for certain. Oh well. what is learned provides impetus to new forms and new expression and the resultant new experiences that can result.. Why my mind functions like this. Spirit does not make mistakes. The world is perfect as it is. What I know is what I experience. Nothing commands my attention like this does. it seems to have been self-organizing in this fashion. paragraph after paragraph. imagine these being akin to songs in our culture. because the songs of All That Is are all vibration .. it agrees with much that I have learned in 34 years of metaphysical study. all of the time. though. There is no way for me to know that. Nothing challenges my beliefs regarding whom that I am like this does. I don't know. Though. I don't do that very often. It was not something that I trained it to do. those times are generally saved for this expression. all of creation learns from the experiences of all of creation. But. Everything that you experience is necessary for you to grow and develop to the stage where you can fulfill your mission in the world. Only. it is worth what it is worth. and perhaps many others of which I am not aware. After grade school. And. I don't remember nearly all of what I have learned. is of no consequence. This happens at the individual and the collective levels. I am perfect as I am. Spirit knows what that is. that is typing this expression one character at a time. and will reveal it when I need to know it. the richness of your collective experience and expression was born. It then feeds me what I need to know when I need to know it. Though. you would not be working in this position. Rather. throughout all time is part of All That Is. I just 120 . And.. the vibrations emanating out of All That Is are sufficient to form multi-verses. In general. I only know that it comes forth as it does. All That Is realizes itself and its creation through this process. Much as it is the experience of life that makes existing in form useful and even fun. Memorizing things was almost impossible for me to do in school.

is that really true? At some level. But. Definitely a good pace tonight. Though. never even picking a book up until I was moved to read it. but not be able to speak eloquently on the same material? Maybe it is a matter of practice. Perhaps I still do. 3 June 2008 I'm getting an even later start today than I got yesterday. Most of these came from the library. Perhaps this is why I find it so difficult to relate to others. and what do masters do . We never really know what that will be. There are always several quotable passages. we are all masters of the art of reality creation. This expression commands my attention. this happens at other 121 . I would spend hours browsing the titles of books on the shelves. when I was finally moved to express it would be in a format that could be read.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 avoided doing it and got by just fine. they truly are. Though. But. the books selected in this manner addressed questions that I had. and sometimes many. Why should that surprise anyone reading this? Given that 99 plus percent of what I have learned came from reading. I believe that was the answer to my question. I still find books this way. usually in or near the top of my class. browsing the shelves in the bookstore until I find something that moves me within to read it. then thrift stores. It is within our power to make masterpieces of our lives. Though it seems that some are more skilled in the art of living than others. And. We are masters all . There was something auspicious about that. my forte happens to be writing. there is a sense that there is something sacred about the written word that makes it different from the spoken word. it came to mind that the seat of consciousness is in the third eye area. there was a strong icy sensation on the top of my head. And. that happens sometimes. We ended the evening with exactly 2012 words yesterday. Most of the time. Something about that feels right.. For much of my life. I have no use for how others think and feel. Then. then bookstores. and the heart is the seat of emotions. And. it will be something good. There I use that word "feel". my love was outside of the classroom. we'll just have to see what I am moved to express this evening. That is the year that the Mayan calendar ends and the year of my second Easter birthday.. Of course. I lived in my head. Nearly always. I don't know that I pay much attention to how I feel. It is more of an intuitive sense that something is right. I consider intuition one of the primary tools of consciousness. It also makes it easier to share the material.. What about the throat chakra? Why can I express all of this in writing. Though. There is something about knowing that it came forth through me. it is not clear that a significant portion of the population actually reads books anymore. Reading has been my primary means of inputting information. as I said that. reading all of the metaphysical books that I could get a hold of. they make masterpieces.. I excelled in math and science (because of the math). Though. But. where is the seat of the spirit? The answer that came to mind was between the eyebrows in the third eye area. and how they experience and express their spirituality. Our lives are meant to be miraculous. Spirit is able to do wonders through us. I don't use it in the same way that we feel emotions. That does not matter. Oh well. some are more skilled in the art of reality creation than others. often even before I asked. Similarly. For most. 1622 words and counting. we do know that whatever it is. But. There is something about the sensation that it is for my eyes only that makes it special. I am not moved to do this much anymore. I simply have not spent enough time with them to learn how they think and feel. the seat of the spirit is the crown chakra at the top of the head. when we allow her to. I do. If the brain is the seat of thought. what I am moved to do. It does not change the fact that I am moved to express this here and now.

That's another 5. Stretched over a lifetime. it is some combination of all of these. it seems the sooner it comes. this means having lots of friends and close relationships. 2. For some.000 hours. but the hours are the equivalent of ten years of full time work. that is the longest that I've done anything other than the basics of living itself. I naturally gravitated to metaphysics which has remained my Heart's Desire since my early teens. Given how few people even know that I exist. more than 10 hours per week for all of my adult life. Though. My assessment from reading it many times is that this is quality work. It seems that far more of us. indeed. and 2. But. Will that change? It must. Add another 1. but especially to something this focused and this important. It attracts me like nothing else.000 to date. What do we have to show for this investment? We have a body of works that our state of consciousness has allowed to be expressed by consciousness through us since March 1993. that's in excess of 10.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 than conscious levels.000 hours. The cost has been fairly low overall. I haven't been moved to calculate how much of myself I've invested in this pursuit before. And. But. if not all of us should be given the opportunity to learn the skills necessary to live well. thinking. most of which are posted at the Beyond Imagination site. and far more important than anything that I have been paid to do to date. In my lifetime. and I'm a slow reader overall. this is captured in over 4 million words. Then there is $5. From one standpoint. but a difference of world import. I am meant to make a difference. Yet. Though some have learned to make their conscious dreams and desires manifest. you have to believe in what you are doing. What criteria do I use to say that? I see what levels of awareness I have reached and what has been able to be expressed through me as a result. For.. The works may be written for an audience that I will never see .000 hours for packaging Beyond Imagination material into books. there is what I have paid for this experience in terms of dollars and hours of my free time. if this is meant to be my means of earning a living.000 for metaphysical seminars and $6. this means having lots of nice things. That is a lot of time to commit to anything . However. there is no doubt. For some. It is several years longer than I have been working. something about that feels wrong somehow. while it is the love of my life. At 10 hours per book. I strongly desire that. I've read in excess of 1000 metaphysical books. And. what is something truly worth? In a free market system. In my case.000 hours for spiritual related web communications. a job that I do for the sheer love of doing it. Plus. As stated above. the ideas expressed here need to see the light of day in a way 122 . the spiritual is clearly the strongest force. As a result. You get what you focus upon. the harder you focus. Metaphysics is a big topic after all.. and most of which are published in Beyond Imagination books. it seems to matter.000 hours for website work. the focus was a little more general.. this means having lots of physical stimulus..000 hours and $26. that is what it is. But. it has been an occupation of sorts. It is just as real. That brings us to roughly 20. This expression has been going on for nearly half of that time. ask I must anyway. That is a lot of output. that would be a lot. here we're talking about 10 years out of 34. But. what do we mean by living well. For some. the feedback from others has been minimal and only a handful of books have been sold. Given that I'm 50 now. For most. this means having lots of intellectual stimulus. this means having lots of emotional stimulus.000 for publishing. For some. For some. Yet. It is interesting. I don't know that I can even come close to counting all of the hours of reading. Yet. the cost of books was roughly $15/book or $15.000. not just any difference. this means having lots of spiritual stimulus. For some. Now. that is asking for a lot. Given that. this means having lots of adventure. For. For some. an audience out in the future somewhere. something is worth what someone is willing to pay for it. I've expressed in excess of 4 million words at roughly 800 words/hour. and writing that have gone into this spiritual occupation. it is not certain as to whether it will happen or not. For me.

Even at work. That's twice this number has come up in less than two hours. I know that.. As a hermit. The two images are the same. we must grow to live. it would require reaching out and finding those meant to be touched by this expression. But. That's in 90 days. This expression is like that. It is what it is. And. it is the best that I can do. Interesting. I just observe myself doing it. It just crossed my mind that perhaps I should be concerned about how what I do impacts others. It seems to be a sign of things to come. to seek out what I am moved to do next. The first thing that came to mind was 16+16 =32: America. or rather that spirit can do through me. And. Just checked the musing count for the year as well. the difference is highly positive. just noticed that the time on the computer is 9:11. Some are surprised by this. We must seek out new experiences and express in new ways. Generally. Interesting. I was thinking that between reading and expressing. But. Rather. we are being the best that we can be. That become my challenge . I'm doing more and providing more feedback. In life. the computer is actually off by about 20 minutes. Work is like that. We're at #51 since the first musing of the year on 5 March. overall. So. I'm putting in between 12 and 15 hours per week.. the volume per week is close to the pace of 2002 and 2003 though the musings per week are less. I'm starting to take more initiative in how I deal with others. That is OK. That's roughly 1/3 time which would result in another year of full time work every three years. I know that it is up to me to either make or allow that to happen. What I am moved to do is obvious. If I could do this full time. there is a message that I am supposed to be getting from this. It just happens and my focus is on observing it happen and defining what it ultimately means to me. 1091 words = 0911 from the inside out. in our point of view. It is interesting that I would word it in that way. 16:The Lightning Struck Tower in the Tarot is my primary Tarot Card.. That consideration might change what I am moved to do. I could easily average 50-60 hours per week. Out of the ashes. Just imagine what could come forth in that much time and what a difference it would make. in this case. this time. much more. in every moment. I have noticed that I am moved to do different things. What more can I do? It seems there is still a lot. always. but I am learning that sometimes I have to take the initiative and make things happen.. Otherwise things become stagnant.. The status quo must change after awhile. what does Two Tower coming down represent. universal laws apply universally. I continue to do as I am moved to do. It is not something that I have to decide to do. This is true for everyone. That is OK. That is an infamous number. I long to do more.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 that they have not done yet. Yes. But along with this came the idea that 13 is also a major transformation. I do not do this to force my way upon the world. we are expressing perfectly . Clearly. This brought me back to a number that I saw around four hours ago: 130 16 16 = Death : The Tower : The Tower. so we're musing just over every other day or close to 4 times per week. Even for criminals? Yes. The reordering that 123 . Only. Allow was clearly my preference. That's not bad . But. I do not have to look far. has an impact on the world. This expression does that for me. I do this because it is a natural extension of the expression of whom that I am. I am ready for that now in ways that I have never been before. Though. Even my home life is like that. who else would it be focused on. my world is still focused on me. the transformation is to a reordering of "america". Everything that we change in ourselves. it is not. is it enough? The immediate answer is no. Everything has an impact. Yet. And.. That’s over 4 times what I presently do. the phoenix will arise. The first image the came to mind is Two Towers coming down. That is close to what I've been averaging all of my adult life. And. On the way home.

We're on pace for a 10. That is simply the way that it works. With her at my side. And. but to everyone at all times. of late. there is also a sense that not everyone currently on the planet is ready for this transformation. This reminds me of what the burning bush told Moses in the movie The Ten Commandments .. I saw the movie The Day After Tomorrow this weekend. It is time for an adjustment . We have to realize that we are a part of the oneness. However.000 word week. This world. things are simple. when it gets down to what really counts . With each step. The entry into a new age is a dramatic time spiritually. for instance. But. including the consciousness of the earth herself. That makes beliefs very powerful in the illusion that constitutes our reality. We have only to realize this and allow spirit to do her works through us. That means that God is everywhere. At this point. I am at peace. But. the sense is that this may indeed happen sooner. When it is.. my inspiration. we don't know where it will lead. And. a major adjustment. Consciousness herself will assure that all needs are met. is scheduled for some grander things. that is assuming that things don't happen earlier than that. My Psych-K homework for the week is: "I am perfect as I am".2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 makes the most sense is to "I AM race" = The race of the I AM. until we take that step. and abundant. the next step is revealed. 4 June 2008 Two days and over 4. not apart from it. I am one with the world and all that is in it. The race of the I AM is the race of the Gods. I AM that I AM. We have only to allow her to do her works through us. it is her. Though. but collectively.000 words. I am content. We cannot be separate from God ever. There is a sense that on the spiritual front we are in a similar state now. Where will the people go that are not ready for the shift? The sense is that they will be taken elsewhere where they can live out there lives. It takes great trust to live in this manner. we are supported every step of the way. And so on. But.. Though. We have to realize that God is omnipresent. it stretches throughout the world. This may or may not be in line with her characteristics. A cold feeling just shot through my head.. That's typically a sign that I am onto something deep. it will seem that we are. earth. omnipotent. Poverty is a lack of abundance. peace. Separation is a lack of oneness. and abundance. The earth is a spaceship . Everything is unfolding perfectly.. It was about another type of major transformation that impacted the world. The very universe is our benefactor. literally. it applies not to me alone. But. contentment. War... 124 . But everything is happening perfectly. As I was feeling it. This is the personification of the previous statement. we have found it very important to take things one step at a time.. I have my part to play in how I experience my reality. we have the power to perceive that we are separate. It is that simple. That gives us 4-5 years to prepare people and make them ready to "survive" and participate in this transformation. Some say 2012-2013 is the transition point. even where we sit and stand in the moment. acceptance.. we only have to focus on and accept the quality of spirit that applies. the thought came that the I AM race is not confined to America. Our reality mirrors our beliefs. And. is a lack of peace. it is consciousness herself that animates us. and so on. there was a line in the movie that came as the answer to what can we do? The answer was "save as many as you can".. we find all of the things that make up duality in our world. To remove the lack. Worry is a lack of faith. consciousness is evolving. we find grace. She is my guide. It is not me that is doing anything . to the degree that we believe in this separateness. That is not a lot of time. It is always her. And. But. Every individual will be taken care of. Though. I don't have to make anything happen one way or another. a blue-green and white covered gem. not only individually. Oneness. When it is not.

focus on the things that you want in life. everything happens in the now . Further. it is just that sometimes our focus is not in that precious moment. We get what we focus on. Everything is perfectly manifesting in accord with spiritual law. Oh well. it is probably only half of what I have collected here. peace. we are not talking about a laser focus. We start by inviting spirit into our life. I don't remember what I read. what comes forth is what is meant to come forth. That's OK. or worry about or plan what might happen in the future. We simply need to become the clearest channels for spirit that we can be. But. This expression is immediate. and enter into a realm beyond duality. Rather. Occasionally.. But. we are speaking of a general focus of good will to ourselves. In a world of duality. The trick is not in how to achieve the right set of characteristics in duality. Such could not be further from the case. it is on spirit expressing through us. feeding my mind in the moment. greater without lessor. and so on. Truly there is a sense that this is effortless.. right without wrong . rich without poor. Freedom from limitations is what we are seeking. It is not clear that such thinking does much good. learning to listen to the voice within. In my late teens and early twenties. these are the things that truly count in life. It is a matter of holding a focus and allowing spirit to move you to act in line with that focus. It truly is easy to do. Yes. Why would I do that? Because I am thrilled by what comes forth from this stream of consciousness. We can do this on an individual basis even as we live our lives. I don't have to think about it. and we've only been at this for an hour. good without bad. the burden is not on us as individuals. All of these we can choose to embrace at any time. Actually. It happens in the now. That does not mean that our world will become static. we will be moved to take actions to improve the alignment. I just sit and type what comes into my head word by word. and the like. The trick is to align with spirit. But. For 8-10 hours per week. It just happens through me.. But.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 allowance. that we make part of our very character. I exert no power in creating this expression. I engage in this process of listening to what comes into my head and typing it. It still surprises me as to how few books of quotations have been created. all the while observing the results and making the necessary adjustment to align ourselves more closely with whom that we truly are. Consciousness herself creates all of this. I don't remember what I wrote in the long paragraph above either. The point of power is the present. They are ways of perceiving the world. My preferred way of aligning is engaging in this expression. And. In duality. kindness. That would imply that God's world is static. especially with the evolution of consciousness. awareness . there is also love. but I had a sense that it felt right on. Duality has a richness of its own. The expression is being influenced by a book I was reading last night called Your Deepest Intent. and our world. but that doesn't happen regularly. This is not an exhaustive list. I get behind a word or two. The dramas will play themselves out. But.. understanding. That is how life works. that is a lot. One thing this expression does do is teach me to focus.. Instead we think about what happened in the past. A close second is reading the metaphysical books that I am moved to read. And. These qualities are not really "things". or strain in any way. we can do this on a collective basis as well. I also highly recommend reading the greatest thoughts that have come forth through history. I have a 600 page book of quotes from the Beyond Imagination expression. what use have we for power. everything is balanced so the net result is neutral. They are characteristics that we embrace. but it also has its limitations. and trusting it enough to act on it. that is not quite right.. because this is what I am moved to 125 . you can't have hot without cold. Actually. with ever greater freedom comes greater responsibility. these moved me more than anything else. Now. our society. that we demonstrate in how we live our lives. So. Ever greater freedom is the way of evolution. We will know it when we experience it.

Hmm . The bottom line is that one is sufficient. At least. everywhere and eternally. It matters not whether one or one hundred thousand read these words. but what we know. In Babylon-5. But. what makes you think that your present work environment can't be that? It can be what I make of it. Do I ever perceive who I truly am? Can the observer and the observed ever be the same? Can the observed ever be the observer? Interesting questions . the cost has been minimal compared to the hours expended on spiritual work. Plant seeds in those you work with that will allow them to see the world from a more enlightened perspective. And. The only other reflection that we have found is the books that we have been moved to read.. But.. They find a home in whom that we are. The nature and quality of your focus will determine what you experience. the Vorlons and the Shadows pursued very different questions. I spent many years of my life being bored . For another thing. As you do this.. a point of view creating and riding within this form that I perceive myself to be. It is what it is regardless of whether it reaches anyone other than you. especially during morning meetings. being in the moment and asking these things. I am much more present .. it is not a thing at all. as you noted yesterday. For me. And. There is still a hope that there is a greater purpose for all of this expression. This expression is the external reflection of the extreme introvert that we are. and the part of consciousness that witnessed it being created in this manner. It simply is. two warring factions.. Look to where you are focusing when you are doing your work. it still doesn't compare to what I get from coming here to express. Consciousness has learned how to create this particular connection that allowed all of these words to flow forth. It is literally Godstuff. Somehow we have found a way to externalize what was internal.. All of this is broadcast to others in every interaction that you have with them. here we are. They don't need to see a single word of what you express here to experience your presence. Most of these have been metaphysical since 1974. Here is where we find out what we know. It has the same characteristics as God. that I be employed in a manner that more fully utilizes my talents in a way that is exciting and challenging. I've been in the mode of creating my own job and doing the work that I find most interesting to do. why should that matter. the likes of which I have never been moved to ask before. what makes us so sure of that? Because we don't know where this material is coming from other than the source within. probably close to 15 years prior to the start of this expression in 1993. In fact. Now.. I still desire that things change . One is always sufficient. it is ONE . especially during my free time. It is NOTHING. I was effectively checking out and going elsewhere.. you now have books of your own that you can read. is it anything more than an elaborate point of view in the mind of God? In this case. At work. ONE is all there is. At least when I was napping a lot. The written word will always be your preferred modality for taking in information. it can still be hit and miss at times. you will start to build the community that you seek.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 do. But books from others are not a direct reflection of us. The world simply was not sufficient to command my attention. Yes. Being bored is not fun.. That is OK. I would have it no other way. or an integral part of the ONE. But. But. in a way it is for your eyes only. even though you were moved to post it and publish it.. Even since then. We find a way to get through it. The Vorlons asked who am I? The Shadows asked what do I want? These two races embodied 126 . what is that? What is the I AM that I AM? For one thing. It is formless and timeless. It is enough that you read and understand all of this for you to have the impact you are meant to have in the world.. You. Not what we think. And lately. it is perfect. sometimes to the point of not being able to stay awake when I sat down. It is of God. there have been times of being bored.. It is not some separate thing.

Shared my work with two other people today. It is something that allows me to express whom that I am. the world is out of balance in major ways. 5 June 2008 We've been good all week. what opens the floodgates to abundance. so that we can choose to focus on the things and experiences that we desire. My world is what I make of it. However.. Clearly. If you add roughly an equivalent amount of metaphysical reading each week. Who knows where that will lead. What gives beliefs power is the choice to act in accord with the beliefs. it seems that far more focus is paid to the second than the first. I know that she is there guiding me every step of the way. I have believed that there will always be enough for all of my life. It seems like these two questions are still primary. God's abundance is unlimited. we are up to two tithes of our work time. but a welcome one. I have neglected that in my dealings with others . When we believe. That is a major change for me. The desire is that this becomes my occupation as well as my vocation.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 the very questions that they asked. more precisely. Let's see what we are moved to bring forth tonight. what we feel we are worthy to receive limits our experience of the abundance that is rightfully ours. Clearly. What about this expression makes it abundant? The very fact that it flows forth from consciousness herself and she is unlimited. that brings us to four tithes. But. I can feel that I am opening up. dealing with. It is my experience that I have control over. except to the degree that they impact our feelings. And. though inside. It is something that allows me to gain insight into whom that I am. I am becoming more comfortable being with. Or. I shall know soon enough by the changes in what I am moved to do. action is important. Three days in a row with 2000 plus words. And. At four musings a week. So. I trust spirit... for we are worthy of receiving everything that we need. I am called to do this. It is interesting that we chose to use "feel" here rather than "think". It behooves us to learn to control our focus. that has been my experience. There is so much more that I could do. I wouldn't think of doing other than I am moved to do. I do feel things deeply. So. But. and interacting with others. So. This makes it a very precious activity. As a result. What do the various races and factions in the world ask today. somehow it does not seem to be enough. Our share of that abundance is whatever we feel worthy to receive. The limiting factor is not our worthiness . So. That is more than my fair share.. It opens up entire new possibilities. We get what we focus on. Perhaps this is a sign of things to come. what should we focus on? The bottom line is what excites us and makes us happy. The world is abundant. I bring into my life in accord with my beliefs and my choices of action. It has been awhile since I was moved to share it with anyone. this expression does that. does not my salary or compensation flow forth from consciousness herself as well? Then why should there be any 127 . this expression is abundant. How do I know what her will is? I have only to focus on her qualities and allow them to be expressed in my life. it is what she makes of it. I have only to align with her will to allow my life to unfold most brilliantly. Our thoughts of worthiness are not what matters. Feelings do have their place in life. It is something that I do that allows me to stand out from the norm. But abundance is overflowing. It is enough. one well worth the investment of time that I make in it.. but just barely enough to live in the manner that I live. For me. though in some cases it is a combination of these. I know that she has my highest good and the good of all concerned in mind. Yes.. it is more than enough. we do so with our hearts and not our heads . This. I'm running out of free time to do it. what is limiting the abundance from flowing more freely into my life? I make a decent salary.

only the later part of the sum is "realized" at present. it could not be avoided and overall was quite beneficial. Look within to find whatever you are seeking for I am within you and I am you. what keeps me from experiencing this abundance? It se ems that I am looking for it to come from the world in ways that I define. I am just not focused in a manner to see it. Hmm . a sacred covenant. we're at closer to $5M.. We are one. So. we receive abundantly. I am pleased. the later grows with each moment of expression. from what I can tell collectively we are ineffective at best. That I can change. of which I interact with a few dozen at most. we are not equals. unconditionally. I should turn to God..000 per week plus $3. We don't have an effective partitioning of the work.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 limit to that compensation. do what you are moved to do when you are moved to do it.. but there have been several interruptions. Oh well. and for the rest of my life on the second. compensation involves a balancing of energy received to energy given. The glasses are there waiting for you to put them on so that you can see clearly. Instead. Clearly what I do here is more valuable than anything that I do in my job . Why is that? Why are our organizations not set up to function elegantly? Surely... I am worth my weight in gold.. And... That is the secret to living a spiritual life. I will assure that all of your needs are met even before you know that you are in need. We don't have infrastructures that support us. Further. I would consider it priceless. It is a matter of looking in the right direction and putting on the right glasses to see what is in front of your eyes. Something has to give. The systems we are building or the services that we are providing are far more complex than ever. How do we get people to work together effectively? Much that we do in my current work environment is dysfunctional. It just crossed my mind that perhaps this is a safety net that keeps us from doing so much that we might cause undo harm. in ways that allow me to make deeper personal connections. ever.. It seems that this is a sign of things to come. it is not love. There is a sense that some of the organizational structures will fall by their own weight. Yet. while the former shrinks as I lose weight and become healthier. At 230 pounds x 14 troy ounces per pound x $500 per troy ounce. The secret to life is to never take more than we give. I'm sharing more at work.. The next five years could be one hell of a journey . So.. The pace is good tonight. provided we feel that we are sufficiently worthy. There is a sense that this could change at any moment. It is already there. That is a sizeable sum. We are not really set up as service organizations. that comes to $1. If it is conditional.. Something just came to mind . We don't have clear orders or directions. We don't have efficient structures. Why is this important now? I have reached a point 128 . When we create abundantly.. There are not a lot of results for the effort that is put in. That is good.61M. there are ways to make thing work. Is it possible to love unconditionally? That is the only way to love. In this covenant.. And. it seems that we are not alone in this. There is a covenant between us. far more valuable than gold or diamonds. We still rely on communication techniques that decades old. Hmm . Trust the I AM that you are. and I do a lot compared to most.. It will not lead you astray. or perhaps one heaven of a journey depending on our perspective. But.000 per week salary. At $1 per word. The way is simple . I am able to observe the results of many of these people . perhaps they will do so soon. what is the real value of what I do? At the current pace of expression. we have to create goods or services of value in exchange for our compensation. that is roughly $8. and.. and allow it to come forth as it will in my life.. I could live for roughly 10 years on the first amount. you have only to love me . Though. Is it three times more valuable? Easily . My work environment has nearly a thousand people in it. To do that.. somehow I thought it would be way more than that. in fact.

They can lead us to realizations. That is an interesting way of looking at things. my role at work requires that I do just that. It is all a matter of where we focus our attention. but that does not make it true. Consciousness herself is the motive force in my life... Here. on the omnipresence. This time it could be hundreds. But. It just takes initiative and responsibility. We can do this. They can help us to understand whom that we are. With this paragraph. One can say the 2+2=5 until one is blue in the face. The words of this expression definitely connect for me. The difference extended to maybe a dozen people. One might conclude that this makes this expression meaningless. I can't think of any more elegant way to expend my free time.. I have the opportunity to learn by doing. partitioning the work so that it can be done effectively. but nothing could be further from the truth.. We allow need to be aware of the abilities of the members and define their roles in manners that use those abilities wisely. It is well within our power. Perhaps they are meant for my eyes only. into a playground for awakening others to be all that they can be? For that is indeed what we are talking about. my work role and my spiritual role. is that really a service? It doesn't feel like such. Words can point to meaning.. What do I do versus what does God do in my life? On the one hand it seems that God does it all. We want to build organizations that foster synergy .. That is the past. of God there is no duality. This expression would not be coming forth in this manner unless such was possible... The lesson now is how to create effective organizations. We'll have to see if that puts a spring in my step and causes me to awaken eagerly to face the day. We can start small. what service is provided if the expression does not reach others? There is the service to consciousness rendered by allowing her to express through me. but it seems to have something to do with being aware of being aware. why has the $1 per word figure for the fair value of this expression come forth so many times? It is a nice round number. But. Whether they do this or not depends on how the words were created and whether we can connect with what they have to offer. on the love. Perhaps it will. This is something that I choose to do because I love doing it. . That energizes me in a new way. Are we any more than a focal point for God to experience the creation? What is awareness but the ability to focus ones being on certain aspects of reality? What is consciousness? I don't know. but that was nearly ten years ago. that allow the organization to do and be more than the sum of the parts. we can allow the members to focus on how to do it . The next step is to grow the organization by doubling it and defining what it is to do. and that does not really exist at all regardless of how many experience that it does. it is our dream.. Here we bring forth a stream of 129 . It is easy to count words. my calling have become one in a way that they have never done before. we have already started.. The dream of duality is not the dream of God . The meaning of things that truly count cannot be defined in words. we are always free to focus our attention where we will. And. they are of infinite value to me . we touch the unknown realms of consciousness. Perhaps it has already happened and I have but to do my part to allow it to be unveiled over time. there are only a handful that I know at more than a surface level. I don't even know a hundred people. on the beneficence. NOW is a different time and a different story. even if others never see the expression.. Actually.. When we focus on the oneness. There is nothing that is not God . Once we know what needs to be done. And. At present. But. If so. How do I turn my work into a spiritual laboratory. except the illusion of duality. on the omnipotence. and we only experience it so long as we turn away from God. Here we manifest that which was not manifest. I was in such a position before and was able to make a difference for awhile. And. That doesn't matter.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 in my career when I am in a position to make a very positive difference that could ripple to many.

it is spirit expressing through me. We simply ARE. adding "what" completely changes the focus and the meaning. They may or may not come true. Life is one. we should do that unconditionally as well. lies my beingness. The past is gone. In this moment.. That is true of being in general. not all of my free time. Since the beginning. As such it is God's handiwork in my life . life just is. it is a grand endeavor. in that now. we are to focus on what we are NOW. It simply IS. The bottom line is that when we share. it is not that I make it exclusively mine. one word at a time. This is no small endeavor. here I am now. What exists is who I AM right here and right now. I have been moved to share nearly everything that has been expressed through me in the Beyond Imagination context . Further.. It requires a separation between who we are and what we would be. This is especially true of creative expression. which is nearly everything that I have expressed in writing in my free time. It is what it is. But. not what we will be sometime in the future.. regardless of what I happen to be doing in the moment. NOW is the only time that ever truly exists. That is the long and short of it. it is spirit doing the doing anyway. I am not this or that. But. then it simply would not come through.. That is the only thing that we can ever be. Because of that it is really no time at all. We've had a difficult enough time sharing what we have brought forth. To be is sufficient in and of its own. or look to the future and focus on or plan what might be. It truly enters an entirely new realm. Indeed. many look to the past and focus on what was or what might have been. the future does not exist. Most people are focused on "to be what". We can only be in the NOW. in doing so what we create becomes magical. But. What are we to do with more? That is none of my business. and for reasons that we may never know. For. That is not my way. not on being this or that. 6 June 2008 Wow! This makes five for five. we do so unconditionally. It is not meant to be split into a time for this and a time for that and a time for this other thing. This is a stream of consciousness.. But. That makes me feel good. It is interesting. If there was no reason for it to come through. The same is true of when we express . the doing is secondary.. why do I compartmentalize my life so? It is all spirit in expression. No. OK. It suggests that there might be a faster way of bringing this material forth than typing it as I have been doing for the last 15 years. knowing what is to come and even seeing myself adapt it a bit as it comes forth. and without comparison. I am meant to notice this now. I do get a lot from this expression. Though. It was always more immediate. It is the only time in which we can ever be. my methods of sharing haven't resulted in what I thought might come out of that sharing. My free time is employed in the service of spirit. When we focus on being .. in this NOW. or it wouldn't be happening. We need to be careful about our expectations. I am not a hermit or a metaphysician or a systems engineer or 130 . I need nothing more.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 consciousness literally out of nothingness. Who would we be is not even a question that makes sense. I am thinking several words ahead of what I am typing. There is a sense of accomplishment that comes from serving spirit in this way. and there is nothing more that it needs to be. Our job is to focus on the being. We should do it for the sheer joy and love of doing it. This we should do with all of our heart and soul. This is fine. I don't remember this happening before in this expression. simply on being whom that we are. It is unique. Is this also self-serving? Perhaps. That is always enough.. The very fact that I am moved to allow it to happen through me is sufficient reason for its existence. But. or we should not do it at all. but a substantial portion of it. After all. It is a matter of focusing in a manner that allows me to see that always.

I thought Beyond Imagination was a big stretch. This is not an exchange. I am not a slave. it still seems right to call consciousness herself. what realms are bigger than consciousness herself. there have been fewer pauses than normal. If life. I come here with open heart and open mind and allow consciousness to speak through me as she will. even then. and especially to the stream of consciousness that comes forth through me. This is a one-way alignment. Never. But. Could consciousness be greater than All That Is? It seems that we are onto something here. Hmm . I simply AM THAT I AM and that is enough. it is what it is.. and seeing the characters appear on the monitor in front of me. Receive from whom? From consciousness herself. That is as close to spirit as it gets for me. There is no sense that I create this band. This is not something that we can be forced to do. All That Is implies BEING.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 any number of other things. That is always enough. The book is fascinating. somehow she is BEYOND BEING. I don't really know. But. I know that she knows what is best for me and all concerned. especially if we allow spirit to work and express through us. it seems wrong to think of consciousness as "from whom". It is a matter of adjusting to the energy band that is coming forth. I am open to spirit moving me as she will. is that not what explorers do. I do so because I trust spirit. seeing and feeling my fingers type. other than setting aside a period of time in my day. and months ahead. But. It is not for me to dictate what will come through or when it will come through. Spirit always moves us in the direction of our highest good in each moment. I've already used the word God more in the past several musings than I've used it in many years 131 . Perhaps God is bigger than that. There was a substantial pause there. Will it ever be different than this for me? It seems that I have found a modality that works.. The expression always happens in the moment. That is significantly faster than "normal". it is something that I receive. neither is consciousness a "what". I don't relate much to God . many decisions that we make are in situations that are so complex that there is no way to weigh all of the factors and interests. I'm curious as to what the word count is to this point. We are here to align our will with her Will. And. does that need to be? I am currently reading Your Deepest Intent and finding that it is changing my concepts of and relationship with God. 1245 words in less than an hour. nothing is too hard for God. We'll have to see how it colors my perception of spiritual reality in the days. And. nothing is too hard for spirit. I could just as well say "commands" for it seems that I have no choice but to obey. One of the terms for God is All That Is.... She is not there to listen to such and respond to our will. insightful. Interesting. No. and mind-blowing. When I say "move". and I do what she moves me to do. This expression is a case in point. But. weeks. Also. I freely choose to live my life in this manner. but I do relate to spirit and to consciousness. It is not for us to make demands on spirit. now that is a whole new realm. I simply have no conscious awareness of originating the expression other than hearing it in my head. But even that implies that she is a BEING. She just IS. It does not seem that she is a BEING either. Rather it is something we willingly and unconditionally choose to do. How do I know that this is not me expressing all of this? I guess. Though. It is for me to choose to allow it. Rather. Living is not such a difficult thing to do. Oh well.. there is a sense that it is less efficient than it could be. There is never any planning for it . Is there a spiritual hierarchy that extends beyond being? Personally. Though. I don't even begin to understand what that means. they explore new realms. and it is. we don't always heed her commands. My typing is still lagging from one to several words behind what is coming forth in my head. But it is never forced upon us. When I AM. the expression comes forth in an extended NOW. But BEING BEYOND BEING. Though .

But. It is the only point in which we can do anything. but there is nothing that I can do about them NOW. And. Or. And we still have a good hour left to muse before hitting the road. joyful. what am I being as this stream of consciousness is coming forth through me? Actually. the doing is secondary. The being is primary. Perhaps that is just me.. Rather. peaceful. We have grown to be able to focus metaphysically roughly three hours per day between writing and reading. not WHAT am I being. if not. We'll do another word count at the next half hour point. in the NOW. We have only to let go and allow. That is something to be proud of. So. that is not quite the right question. our lives become miraculous as will. it is not I that is to do this. happy. I just thought about them. Spirit works her wonders in miraculous ways. that will remain the answer. We could get used to this. The question is will I choose to do so? And.. And. So. We'll just have to see where consciousness takes us. All will be fine. And so I will walk step by step through my neighborhood. intent. I will drive moment by moment listening to Love Songs on the Coast. it is through me that it is to be done. What implies being some thing. God to me is a masculine term while spirit and consciousness are feminine. it will be whatever it is. The count is 1845 words. But. We are still heariing things several words in advance. for that is how spirit always works . Oh well. I still know that to be to build the foundations for a new world. There is a big difference.. I know that in general there are things that I will do tonight. 132 . I have a two hour drive home. So long as we continue to do this.. It is what it is. it is not what we are doing that matters. But few came with the tasking that I came to complete. the moments are fleeting.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 before . so. And then. Everything we do is in the moment. available. HOW am I being as this expression is coming forth. they do not do this. just how I see the world. How implies embodying various qualities. We express what consciousness is able to bring forth through us. Even what might be considered to be a heavy load for us. I can only do something about them when they become NOW. We have only to do our part: focus and allow the expression to manifest as it will. When the qualities come from duality. Few are able to make such a commitment. What NOW? We are still here musing. These will happen. and a half hour of walking my dogs. in every NOW. I should have asked HOW am I being. there is already a shift. that is precisely what we do. And. It is what we are being while we are doing. It always is. or at least sending the energy that is getting translated to words in my mind. Can I remain being those qualities for the rest of my evening? Can I be those qualities during my workday? Interesting questions. Just as in this expression words keep popping up. we do so as elegantly as possible umder the circumstances . The pace has slowed significantly. relaxed. willing. does it? Why should it matter? Spirit is picking the words after all. is child's play for her. why not? The qualities that we choose should empower us to be whom that we truly are. elegantly. It is amazing what we can do when we allow spirit to work through us. Though. it is a bit disconcerting. even then. I am expectant. requiring a slightly different kind of focus. Most of the qualities that I see as spiritual also seem feminine as well. But. What is there in that process that slows things down or speeds things up? It doesn't really matter. So.. Spirit assures that. we are dealing with concepts that are brand new in this expression.. For whatever reason. I have the power to choose which qualities I will bring forth NOW. But. so that is what NOW. When we are doing her works. That requires being more deliberate in how the words are selected. That is still a 1200 word per hour pace. even if they are seemingly good qualities.

all of the dramas played out in the world. these are simple things to do.. The book Your Deepest Intent is clearly having an impact on me. this simply is not possible. are played in accordance with spiritual law anyway. We used God eleven times in the last paragraph alone.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 We are masters all. Consciousness. we will never do this on our own. The later is the domain of spirit. Clearly it is not Wayne. I am perfect as I am. If this is not what you are seeing. We are moved by spirit. in particular. We are spirit expressing in flesh. for duality is not of me. love me. We are meant to create masterpieces of our lives and of our world.. Who am I to limit how God would express. All That Is. Spirit. It takes a higher power to create such works through us. the Will of God is not for us to DO. This applies to everyone at all times. Ego would have you believe that I have the power to do things of my own. Though. When you are emerged in duality. they are the things that allow you to realize that you ARE and have ALWAYS BEEN in my WORLD. At any time. he knows what is in the greatest good. And. And. It is not I who does these things. duality is not real. serve you by serving her . himself. Source or whatever you choose to call it. God ensures that all of our needs are met regardless of whether we consciously accept the covenant or not. While I would have others trust. What it is not is "I". That does not mean that everyone is happy with what they possess and what they experience. that is what I am here to do . But. 9 June 2008 We're on my time again. perhaps even great things. For one thing. turn away towards something else. We can only believe we are separated and see that separation in the illusion of duality. they are the very things that allow you to enter my WORLD. But. the God number with over 3. Actually that is not quite right. After all. Yes. be as me and I will do all that I can through you and in the process satisfy your every need. it is expressed as a conditional. The remedy for this is always to look away and focus on the oneness of all things.. I obey God or at least obey Spirit. it is spirit expressing through me. But there is the world and there is THE WORLD. but something is not right. This is referring to God. That's a start. or. wherever you see separation... to BE the very qualities that God exhibits. Perhaps we can be moved directly by God. she does so by my choice. This is the covenant. but that has not been my experience that is unless God being All That Is is Spirit is Consciousness. know. it is for us to BE. Try as we might. there are those in duality that wield great power in the world. God expects obedience because being omniscient. we are free to see the true reality. more correctly allow her to serve you 133 . I don't expect obedience from anyone. For there is only ONE. In my world there is only unity. you are not seeing me . Spirit is moved by the God force. There is always balance. then it is time to look another way or to find new glasses that allow you to see what has been right before you all along. obey me . Obey is a difficult one. being happy is not a prerequisite for perfection. That could very well be.. it is illusion. We do that by allowing the creative genius of spirit to flow through us. There can be no separation where all are ONE. I would have it no other way. there is only the ONE. There is always perfection in the creation. But. We have never been separated from God. Trust me. There is a sense that in doing what I am moved to do..000 words. I can only know what I experience. And. But God's love for us is unconditional. and love me personally. Actually it only needs to apply to the ONE and NOW. Reached 7:04. there is only the whole. That is the key. You might as well call it spirit's time because she is the one that uses this vessel next. Masters create masterpieces. and there is only NOW. know me. That higher power is God. Interesting. Who is speaking here..

This stream of consciousness is one of those things. Some see images. Perhaps it has become far more busy than it needs to be. We discover that by being peaceful. In fact. <> <>What would I do next? I ask that a lot. sympathetic. my body is an equally miraculous part of me for which I have very limited understanding of how it functions. That depends on how transparent a vessel we become for doing her works. So. the questions arise anyway. That doesn't mean that all of our expressions are perfectly aligned with her nature and her Will. there will be a suitable audience for it. Doing should be a natural extension of being whom that we are. But. I am the I AM that is doing the expressing. spiritual as it may be. <> <>What if all that has been expressed as this stream of consciousness comes from the I AM that I am? Yes. what is it that we should be? We should be whom that we are. Yet. some feel things emotionally or even physically. She is the only one that can move us to do it. it secondary. In fact. The world of duality is our creation. it is probably better to realize that no two people are the same in this regard. everything that is physical is an extension of this consciousness. and the like. happy. it is all doing. We discover that by being still and letting go of the doing. not hers. she does not experience the limitations that we do. it means that I am not consciously aware of a very grand part of me except by its works in my life. though. loving. Some things just happen automatically. the million dollar question is what would I BE next? Most people spend the bulk of their time doing things. my home is in the very beingness of I AM. It is not primary. some people seem to be more aware than others. some hear sounds. Such is how all services in society are provided. That is generally a sign that I need to know something. I've written for your eyes only many times in this expression.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 through me. there is only so much that we can do. and a feeling of awe and specialness that consciousness would go to such an extreme as to do all of this through me for me. And. Whatever modality is right for you. we are whom that we are. But. That makes for a very busy world. kind. She resides in a realm of oneness that is formless and timeless. We need to focus on being rather than doing. Even this expression. even if that audience is you alone. Just don't think that people are the same in this regard. All creative expression is that way. Others experience this in different modalities. Her reality resides in a different domain and only extends into ours. Meditation definitely helps. On our own. the stream of consciousness is a never ending linear stream of words. I still am. And. I was content with how consciousness expressed in my life. is the result of doing. There was no reason to. she is able to reach into our world and have her impact through our consciousness. this is nothing new. Then what is the realm of God? And how does God relate to spirit? How does God relate to consciousness? It is curious that I have never been moved to ask these questions before. For the most part that will not matter. But. It is difficult to stop the doing. what if? Clearly. joyful. it seems. For me. We discover that by emulating the characteristics of God. It is spirit doing all the work. Is that true of every stream of consciousness? I believe that the answer is yes . But. despite all of this. because whatever the mode of your creative expression. And. However. there are times when I truly feel that this is the fate of what has been expressed. We have to find ways to clear the 134 . still. At the same time. I know that it is the I AM expressing through whom I am. not hers.. Actually the end of that sentence prescribed the cure. is right for you. One does not need to know the details of how most things function to be able to use them effectively. serene. That creates a two-fold feeling in me: a feeling of sadness that this expression may not reach others. But. Separation is our experience. on whom we are rather than what we have..

Generally. such refusal comes from a lack of feeling deserving enough. If you are not. such shivers indicate that we are onto something important. even then. Your first thought was I am that I AM. It is right there within your reach. we are always busy thinking. They allow me to do my work in the world in a way that makes a difference. But. not thinking them. you allow consciousness to create through you. of being of service to spirit herself. There is a shiver running through the top back of my head. the measure of value is not in terms of things. not by a long shot. that the content escapes me almost as quickly as it arrives. The area of this square 135 . I know not what that is. clearly thoughts come forth abundantly.. on 5 March 1993. happy is not descriptive of my state of being. But. At this point. And. you can only do this at your optimum when you are Being Happy. the answer is a lot. even with all of this coming forth. It is as if it happens in the background while I am paying attention to the next words that would come forth. That is the square with sides of 46. so any anxiousness on your part is wasted anyway. When you Create Well . and happy. For. it is your choice. This is true for each of us.. It is your only true HOME. The attempt at logic was futile. there is a sense of accomplishment. No. I am so focused on being the process. But. in this very moment. you state: Be Happy and Create Well! That is the key. you can experience it at any time regardless of what is going on in your life. Happiness is a state of being. they are beyond any value that I could put on them. nor has it been in terms of happiness. One day. These are transitory and are not real. You can only be happy NOW.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 mind . Multiply by 4 and you have 184. or I wouldn't be doing it. not a state of having. Though. you have termed Happy Home. That is not really whom you are. it is as if I am hearing these thoughts. All of these are priceless. we are averaging close to 9 hours per week for expression and another 11 hours per week for reading the expression and reading other metaphysical books. Why do you refuse to do so? Generally. Be patient. you need to move your beingness to be in harmony with the state of happiness. I don't really think them until I read what is being typed. the final 3 of your SSN. You have only to turn and focus to see it. that does not make sense. it just started happening. I liken the process to a moving meditation. But. any time. You need to allow things to unfold in their own timing. "would make me happy" implies that there is something external to us involved in this process. I know. the thinking is elusive. You might ask what do I get from it? Clearly. In your closing response to your musings. For one thing. secure. because you were created by me in my own image and that is what I AM. down into my right shoulder. in this expression there is no sense that thinking is involved. which became often by the Summer of 1993. OK. and you are not fully being whom that you are. It will be what it is. I am eternally happy. Nowhere did I learn to do what I do here. But. otherwise. There is a reason for this.. That is a thought or an emotion that you feel. you are always enough. But. They will unfold that way regardless . Yes. perhaps it may never impact many. So. Now. That is a sizeable investment of focus and energy. I am content with knowing that I will have made the difference that I came into the world to make. the difference is not to many yet. then you are not emulating me. For another thing. being unhappy or even simply not being happy is a choice that you make in the illusion. "what" implies a thing or a condition and these can never "make" us happy. And. All that I have to do is BE whom I am and trust that spirit will move me to do what needs to be done through me.. Rather.. The 46 card in the Tarot. through the back of my neck. And there you are always safe.. And. <> <>What would make me happy? Wow! What a disempowered way to ask a question. It has always been right there. nor a state of doing. I AM is the only reality. and of learning a great deal about whom that I AM in the process. Be that as it will. I enjoyed it so much I kept doing it whenever I was moved to do it. It is right there.

it would be nice if I could choose to make it so more often.. I never really related to this. the final 4 of my SSN. I speak in terms of there being ONE consciousness which animates us all. Find a way to choose to be happy and allow all that is separate from that state to vanish from your life. that is impossible. I apply no limits. You are the only one that limits you. What differentiates spirit from consciousness? Often. we don't need two words for the same thing. Noticing such numbers makes the two hour drive bearable. Hmm . and Holy Ghost. what role does Spirit play in this? 10 June 2008 136 .. But. Hmm .. This is relegated to God. there needs to be a trinity. However. In the Bible. There is one more meaning: To 112. But. I don't know that I could even if I were to try.. God is the Creator. The first meaning that comes to mind is 12:The Hanged Man on the left of center and 12:The Hanged Man on the right of center. You choose what you experience yourself to be. The Hanged Man hangs upside down by his foot from a cross and doing so sees the world rightly. The sense in this is that 48 is what I am and have been all of my life and that I am becoming 22:The Master Builder. There needs to be a distinction between the two. even though I didn't know what that was much of the time. Though.. however. Clearly.Consciousness. Though. but All That Is or God. Even as I say that a smile crosses my face. My metaphysical reading is as well. Clearly. I allowed my happiness to be dependent on finding what I was searching for. the "I" that was expressing in the last few sentences is not me.. Spirit expresses through me? I have consciousness or am part of the one consciousness that expresses through me. try though you might. We just don't know what these correspond to yet. I have used them as if they were interchangeable. 22. they don't create human beings. One last meaning is 48:The Man in Search of More to 22:The Master Builder. It is not even spirit or consciousness. I'm not used to all the God talk yet. what is expressed is somewhat unstructured. Further. the I AM that I am. Perhaps mountain is not the right terminology to use here. You are the creator of your reality. Another meaning is 11:The Master 22:The Master Builder from the inside out. How can I not be happy when I am in the process of being the master builder that I am meant to be? Right now. You are what I created you to be. I've been seeing variations of 2184 on so many license plates on my drive to and from home that it astonishes me. it seems that we have our trinity: God Spirit . So. my work can be at times. There is some reason that it needed to be recorded in this fashion. because these do not create in the same manner. To date. what I am building is a mountain of words. being happy happens when I truly be ME. that is something that we can choose to be. You can never change that. 112 is the 1000 completion of 888. Consciousness is the Animator of the Creation. It is what it is. As the Man in Search of More. I spoke too soon. But. When I am being this. and some reason that I needed to be the one to record it. 888(16) happens to be 2184. These create forms and express through forms. Son. my heart can truly sing. I have had no desire to make it more than it is.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 is 2112. ever. it is depicted as the Father. There have been other times when the number has come up often . is my Heart's Desire. but this has increased an order of magnitude of late. this is a labor of love. You can only change how much you experience of what I created you to be. But. There is something divine in all that has been expressed here. Note that we did not say that you choose what you are.

. It takes effort to be whom you are. perhaps many lifetimes.. Even thinking is doing. Everything we do is doing. We experience the presence. It is here that we engage the forces of consciousness not to do our bidding but hers.. we must allow ourself to settle down.. it is simply what we are. where do we learn to do this. all appearances. It is there when we let everything else go . it seems to be the most natural thing in the world.. Though. Such a state of being is not reached lightly. and as a result have the experience of surfing. To see ourselves as we were created. What would we be next? And why would we be that? Everything that we are. at other times. Perhaps even only for one. Though. and a distorted one at that. Is such a path for everyone? It seems not. Being aware is important. as spiritual beings and as physical beings. I don't know that it does this in this particular manner for others. so we need to allow it to adapt to what we have become in that moment. on many levels. Can we do that with our consciousness as well? Can we do the equivalent of surfing with our beingness? If so. and major change at times.. So much for being aware. I don't even know how it is that I am able to experience as I do. there is no sense of needing to be anywhere else. The things that truly matter are beyond space and time. all emotions. How can I trust consciousness so? For one thing. It is here we are invited to express as spirit would express through us. Unfortunately. This is pure being. I only know what I experience. and even aware of being aware . is a reflection of whom that we believe that we are which in turn is but a fraction of whom that we are.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 We begin again with the blank page that has become our familiar friend. despite what I do. to stop doing things for the moment. surfers interact with the wave. At first. it is not something that is easy to teach. It helps if we pay some attention to knowing what that is. no sooner and no later. as if I am riding the wave of consciousness. In particular. Though. But "what" would we be? The only answer that makes any sense is whom that we are.. all thoughts. And maybe it is only for a few.. But. Could all that is coming forth through me be nothing more than my individual process for rediscovering whom 137 .. we can experience whom that we are. At half a century old. to become quiet. This "grandest vision" changes in each moment. That results in much change in our lives. To be.. we need to turn away from all limitation. not once. Things will happen in my life when they are meant to happen . That is a somewhat sad state of affairs. we know that she knows far more about what she is doing and what needs to be done than we will ever know. not all of it has been correct. the beingness of whom that we are. But. They will do so because of whom that I am. this comes in momentary glimpses. We are in the zone. more congruent with whom that we are. the discovery process is one that lasts a lifetime. that is of no import.. Much of that self work comes in aligning our beliefs and values with our grandest vision of whom that we are. especially in the Western world where the focus is far more on doing than on being.. Yes. and experience what is left. No. extremely important. There is no sense of there being anywhere else to be. Hmm . Feeling is doing. I still only know what I experience.. is that not how this expression feels as well. change is good . But. information regarding the timing of things for which I had a personal interest. allowing it to carry me where it will. extraordinary effort at times. in the grandest sense there is. We are in the moment. Yet. Yes. And. but being that is dynamic and changing rather than static. especially when it allows us to be more whole and complete.. But. Time marks the state of awareness in my life. we are riding the wave of consciousness.. I know that I am far more aware than most . And then.. to become inactive . we need to do the self work to be able to experience this. being is not something that we do. Observing is doing. This is different from taking action. For. I have never been disappointed in anything that she has revealed to me . This is different from doing.

It seems that these numbers beg to be added. The resourcefulness and creativity of our people is such that we do this well. we need to take our lesson from spirit. These correspond to 9. Perhaps that is how we are meant to live our lives. Or. 33. That's an impressive combination. What we do not do so well is distribute the goods and services to where they are needed.. This is a problem. No. many don't pay much attention to the balance sheet . but our choices have consequences. desires are wants not needs. there is still some hope that it might not be. Our economic system is the means for creating the goods and services that society needs. we have freedom to choose. Each of us is unique and special. Here. three-fourths done for the evening. Some people might consider my thinking in such states aberrant or distorted. I'll just have to find some other way to serve. There is still a sense of wanting this expression to serve others in whatever way it is meant to serve them. and 74 in the Tarot. The Hermit/Judgement/Couple with Winged Lion above the Caduceus/HARTMAN/ellis wayne/The Hermit:The Star. Spirit sees that all spiritual needs are met everywhere at all times. 22. What else could I possibly need? My every need is filled. how I am meant to live my life.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 that I truly am? Yes. What next? Does there have to be a next? Why can't 138 . 11. Though. but one that can be remedied. the Master Builder. often even before I know that the need is there. With consciousness there to support me. When my consciousness is flying. But. Though. it is not around me at present. there have been times when I was highly manic when nearly everything in my life had direct personal meaning. what is my grandest vision of whom that I am? I have said that I am the Hermit. the Man in Search of More. So. That is something that comes forth from within. So. That seems to be happening a lot of late. Though. Goods and services are required to live well in society. that does not mean that my every desire is filled. She is not so concerned with how we choose to meet needs and desires in the realm of duality. to what they are giving versus what they are taking. 48. There are always new goods and services that can be created. We are constantly serving others whenever we interact with them in any way. It is curious that every term is something I relate to directly. we are talking about more than the laws of physics. and the Benefactor. I mean not being able to focus on work at my job. I have to agree that it might be. By that. Otherwise. She is my anchor. Consequences are always in line with natural laws. I always felt that during such times I was in the midst of a spiritual awakening. Wants she leaves to us to deal with. But nothing could be further from the case. Here. could it not be that I serve spirit simply by being whom that I am? That sent a shiver through my head. 9/20/42/75/123/197. Though. OK. Though. it colors everything that I perceive and experience in my world. more than I remember it ever happening before. I have had times where functioning in consensus reality was difficult to say the least. Consciousness is my support. Wants are part of the illusion. the Master. She is my grip on reality. We are speaking of the laws of life. the Master Teacher. Spirits economy satisfies needs not wants. Then why do I take prescription medications? Primarily because the few times I have stopped taking them or started to reduce them resulted in being out of synch with the world enough not to be able to function "normally". what else could I possibly need? I am perfect as I AM. where would I find such a supportive environment? Clearly. what would happen if my environment were supportive enough to allow me to operate from such heightened states all of the time? What could I then achieve? How much more and how grander could spirit express through me? But. Here. at least.. They can never lead to being fulfilled. Bipolar is not an illness or a dis-ease for me. Why does serving others require anything more than this.

. especially that last sentence.. I am free to respond as appropriate in any circumstance that arises. she thinks through me. the entire universe.. is part of the illusion. free to soar as far as the wings of consciousness will take us. Though. and fill it with what we are moved to do. Consciousness is amazing! Everything that I am. Everything that I think. that is very far indeed. Wow! I don't think anything like this has come forth before. These are the foundations of whom that we are. There are no such separate entities. Generally. From these things. Enough of the illusion. At a root level. she is through me. There is no separation anywhere at any time. These are the things that make up the "moreness" of life. Such is the only time that such a decision can be made. she feels through me. Without these things. wherever that might be. What befalls me. our very BEINGNESS. These things are intertwined into one whole. the path will always be right for me and all concerned. And there is nothing that is separate from All That Is. Everything that I do. I know that I am living the life that I am meant to live. we are free. Anything else is delusional . I choose to do so NOW.. I am free to decide. Everything that I feel. At least. all that is not real from my life. Everything that I am. I do not consider myself happy all of the time. though. there is a sense that such a 139 . The card does not say what this "more" is. she does through me. These aspects are not real anymore than the mind is split into subconscious | conscious | superconscious. and ALL THAT IS. I have no means of knowing how many others fill their lives in such a fashion. Their boundaries are fuzzy at best. I can't remember when I was last able to do that.. But. such is my way. All That Is is ONE. Everything that I experience. Such is life. There is no separation. But. There is only ONE. This expression is simply amazing. she experiences though me. I know that with her at the helm of my life. And. With these things. The trinity just emphasizes different aspects of All That Is. The trinity of God | Spirit | Consciousness that we spoke of yesterday is ONE as well.. I care not. Such is the only thing that I can truly be. My search leads me Beyond Imagination as well. My satisfaction level has increased substantially this week. They are ONE. Such is always enough.. There is only NOW. she is through me. We take each moment as it comes. that means allowing spirit to respond through me as appropriate. 11 June 2008 It was a relatively uneventful workday . I would be whom that I AM. SPIRIT. No. beyond everything that we can think.. And what is Beyond Imagination. I gladly go. She knows what I need and ensures that I get it when I need it. it is Beyond Physical and Beyond Mind. I am response-able. a far cry from the very busy days of the past few weeks. Clearly. That does not mean that I release responsibility in my life in any way. Where she carries me. perhaps it is everyone . I know that spirit is expressing through me to the degree that she can in all that I am and all that I do. I actually found time to read some articles in a journal on Systems Engineering. There is no separation. beyond everything that we can dream . the consequences of any decision are in spirits hands. all of the multiverses are ONE. These are the things that deserve all the attention that we can give to them. How could it be otherwise. 4/8 happens to be my birthday so this is particularly important to me. CONSCIOUSNESS.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 what is be enough? It all comes back to the 48:Man in Search of More card in the Tarot. we are stuck in the illusion. the entire world. It is time to shed all that I no longer need. with the only differences being in the processes for filling and the content with which we fill. There is only NOW. The man turns away from the five full cups of the senses and the three full cups of the mind to search for something more. all else flows. There is no time lag in the spiritual realm. I leave that to spirit.

How long that will last. She fills us to capacity and then pours what she fills us with to where she will. Do I choose to align with God | Spirit | Consciousness. happiness is fleeting at best. The only way to share is give something of ourselves. I know that. Note that a vessel does not control what gets put into the vessel and how it gets poured out. is it enlightening . This is what I've been in training to do all of my adult life. using this analogy. what do I choose. Does this expression offer something to the reader that is worthy of that? Is it entertaining. this is what I have been doing going on 16 years. But. Can I expect others to expend that much time reading this expression 4-5 times per week? Actually twice that amount of time. It is my choice. or do I not? It is that simple. I do not know. And. And. If you find it of utility to follow the path that I have created. it seems that the expression becomes a part of me. It takes approximately two hours to fill me with this stream. rather it increases us. As I say that. this expression is called Beyond Imagination for a reason. So. since I typically express 2 hours per day for 4-5 days per week. so it only takes less than 5 minutes to read what took an hour to produce. so long as it serves you and those whose lives you touch. There is a sense that the channel is operating efficiently.. I am at approximately 20 words per minute or 1200 words per hour. Either that is what it is supposed to be.. Hmm .2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 state is just a step away. and because of that is available electromagnetically or 140 . but the blank page in Netscape Composer.. We can do this at any time. I am in control of my destiny here. It is just the way that it is. Though. This is almost never the truth. I have not been moved to share of this recent expression with anyone else. When aligned. Right now. Is this expression worthy of 45 minutes per week? That is less than the amount of time for one television show. to us and to others. But blank "pages" get filled to the tune of 4-5 per week. we find ways to share. The average person can read at least 300 words per minute. I need only move in the right direction. my way. I cannot help but to be happy. How am I filled by consciousness. and how is what is this distributed by consciousness? It seems that I am filled by this stream of consciousness. So. It allows us to experience and become more of whom that we are. I don't know exactly what that means. Do so. I choose to expend 8-10 hours per week engaged in this stream of consciousness expression. is it educational. It is simply a matter of us accepting our calling and serving as the vessel that we came to be. no matter where I go. One thing that we share is our paths. We are a vessel for consciousness. That is good. My reality will unfold in a way that is beyond anything that I can imagine. Occasionally there is a brief pause. However. this is what I love to do. But. but not often. can it be this way for everyone? There is something about being concerned when anyone says that their way is THE WAY. in particular our life paths.. Consciousness is ever ready to express through us. at close to maximum capacity. and solely my choice. or there is a need for a new modality that allows a quicker expression. it is more important to share whom that we are as fully and completely as we can. It is a matter of choosing to take that step so that happiness is experienced NOW. That is how we make a difference in the world. what is my capacity. happiness will always be no more than one step away. HERE and NOW? The words are still coming forth a few steps ahead of my ability to type them. Of late. I wonder why that was expressed as "almost never" rather than as "never"? My way is just that. Though. And. But. we give in a way that does not lessen us. perhaps even all three? It is clearly worth it to me. great. There is a sense that this expression does not need to be physically shared for it to be shared. When not aligned. The vessel seems to be not my mind. One way we give is by allowing spirit to express through us. a smile crosses my face. The vessel is receptive to receiving any liquid and allowing the operator of the vessel to determine where to distribute it. I can imagine continuing to do it for all of my days. I read the Beyond Imagination expression for nearly an hour per day.

nor any deed not aligned with the highest good go without consequence.. and hence cannot be ME. But is it balanced at the moment that the choice is made? Indeed. I engage much of my self in metaphysical research and practice. That is just how our conscious minds work. It is not who I AM. Yes. Choosing new alternatives in duality may make things better for awhile. I am practicing being a vessel through which consciousness can express as she will.. But.. When I gave you free will. And. Though.. Male and female did I create . at many collective levels. You either bear it consciously or on other than conscious levels . how does it fit in the scheme of things? We are free to believe as we will. it is not whom that I am. not separately as many of you believe.. No good deed goes unrewarded.. both are within each one of you. knows all. what is a form or a thing . There can be only ONE. seeing the corrections being made on the fly to correct typos. Rather. it is illusion. Separation does not exist . seeing the visual field surrounding the monitor on my desk and on the walls. seeing the frames of my glasses. But.. I gave it to you freely. We have only to remove the layers of beliefs and feelings that hide it from us. feeling my body functions . our reality will be created in accord with our beliefs and our choices. all of it. male and female. but the consequences may be manifest or experienced over time. And. This occurs at both an individual and a collective level. This is one reason we don't see more than half a dozen or so researchers in any specialized area of knowledge. However. we are free to choose. I am also learning that I AM the consciousness that is expressing as well. What any of us know. have consequences. Your life is your life. Though.. The collective. I am focused on the words coming forth as a voice in my head. which is everyone because there is only ONE. How do we know the truth? It resides within us. but. our choices set in motion exactly what is needed to balance those choices. The key is to step away from separation into ONENESS. all of us know.. Free will . but duality by its very nature is transitory.. the remedy for illusion is never more illusion . This we can do at any time. There is only ONE.. Wow! Metaphysician is literally a half-time job in my life. I allow you to reap the fruit of what you sow. Though.. That is all that is necessary to propel the research on. the one cannot exist without the other. We are ONE. That is a choice that we can make at any time. I AM ALL THAT IS. for every organization of two or more makes collective choices as well. pressure. the balance of these two forces can vary 141 . I do not punish. if that is the case. Yin and Yang. metaphysician fits that fine. Actually.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 energetically to all who come within my presence . And. there is a problem of focus. temperature. inherent in that gift was responsibility for your choices. This seems like far more than seven things. but bear it you must.breathing. We are free to choose as we will. I made you in the likeness and image of me. it is the TRUTH. Also. All of this is balanced. It is not what we are. It is what I do and how I do it. You might even say that it is what I AM. movement. before I specifically said "what I AM". And that does not even address the content of what is expressed and what processes it takes to create this content in the first place. It is not whom we are. I consider this very expression some of my "practice". This is the only way for your world to function. Psychology has shown us that we can't focus on more than about seven things at the same time. seeing the letters and words appear on the monitor.. it seems that metaphysician is an occupation . But.. all of them. in the creation. typing the words as I watch my hands move across the keyboard. It always has... Actually more than that because it pervades everything that I AM and that I do. Generalists are hard to find because they need to have such a broad spectrum of knowledge. how is it that this expression can happen as it does. it is. the ONE.

But clearly you are not all that I AM. with so many factors involved. or at least simultaneously. then. but it is very appropriate. It matters not what sex you presently occupy. I love you as you are. I will not push you or coerce you to be other than you choose to be. It is as if I feel that if I am not in control. With this recognition comes the realization that we were never really in control anyway. Though.. I made you in my image and likeness. if you are not getting something that you think that you need .. you really need to find it within you first. Why do I need to be "in control"? I don't really. besides. your thinking 142 . at the same time. Perhaps this does indeed happen as the one recording this knows from listening to Love Songs from the Coast. The mixture of Yin and Yang is independent of sex. Yet. unconditionally. to find the balance in someone else. the system is so complex.. it seems that many of you are moved to seek a mate that somehow completes you or balances you. it is just that the whole is always greater than any collection of parts. You are gods and goddesses all. That is an important realization . at some level there is something that says that I do.. I have no desire regarding the choices that you make. I may not create it. your needs are my command. I made you that way. What I AM. it can never be for you are a part of me. why does it matter? What matters is you being who you are . one that rocks us to our very core. Let go and let God. that is what I was moved to do. It is all a matter of seeking inside . That too is up to you for each quality or dimension. You are a free being. I have always loved you and will always love you . And. You can align with my ONENESS or you can align with being separate. and I'm not speaking about physical birth here. there. You do that by the choices you make NOW. When we resign our will to God's Will. So. We do not give anything up.. But... It works the other way around. you are.. this musing is a stream of consciousness. that we couldn't control it even if we wanted to. who will be in control. I have no desires at all. And. As I've said before. what comes forth is what I allow to come forth. We simply recognize and realize that it is Spirit operating in accord with God's Will that works through us.. except in the illusion. We never really know where that stream originates until we see what it has to say and how it says it. You have been creating your reality since your conception. 12 June 2008 Well. You do that by deciding what you will be NOW.. It is up to you. However. You can align with my qualities or you can align against or counter to those qualities. but I am in control nonetheless. And. This is not your understanding of yourself.. I gave you consciousness and free will as to how you align that consciousness. What comes forth is what is meant to come forth. I'm not used to speaking for God. Some things we just have to leave to God. I AM ALL THAT IS.. always. finding that place that is balanced and complete. The intelligence that created all of this knows exactly what it takes to sustain it.. Yet. yesterday's musing was a bit different. in the full glory that I created you to be. in all of your glory . my wish is not your command. because that would allow you to be all that you can be both individually and collectively. You are whole and perfect as you are. we do not lessen ourselves. we only thought that we were. I always fill them. I don't know who said that.. That doesn't mean that your reality is limited . in this case.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 greatly from one person to another. But. It is my wish that you would be as I AM. a viewpoint within my vast consciousness. You can never be other than this. it also gives us a firm foundation on which to build our lives. However that is is fine. For. Though.

you separate from me. Peace. But. That is literally all that you can see. some good and some not so good. These are not things that you do. But. there can be no separation. They were put there within you when you were created. Everything in your life is a mirror reflection of you. For one thing. The way to a better world is to be the qualities that you attribute to me. even "identical twins". To embrace them. especially humans. Clearly. Celebrate the diversity.. My reality is beyond anything that you can comprehend. love. You do this by reinforcing the unity within the diversity. in your own image and likeness. you create in the same way. playfulness. If you are using the abilities and talents that I gave you in service and expressing my qualities . But you can experience my qualities because inherently these are your qualities. And. No two of anything are alike.. but I don't demand it of you. But. You will reap the consequences of your choices. It is the result of many choices over centuries.. But. some intended and some not intended. remember that choices always have consequence. it simply doesn't exist in your world. but it will take more than treating the symptoms that are present.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 is in error. However. there is only IS. my qualities are things that you can aspire to be. and I most definitely am not cruel. That is the key to finding you as well. It will a realignment to oneness. In ONENESS. are we not here in the world to make a better place for the expression of spirit in flesh. But... And you were made in my image and likeness.. But. I don't command it of you. The separation can never be real. . if not millennia. Your world has reached a point of dis-ease. You can never be separated from them except in your own mind. it is something that you are free to choose to experience. But. I have no needs. That is what allows you to experience the world as you do and create the reality that you experience. understanding. Don't use it to separate or divide you. a better place for all of us collectively? Yes. I will not take away your free will. You must see yourselves as equals regardless of what it is that you do. That is just the way that it is. This is not a necessary condition. Revel in it. That is what you create in your reality. you only do so in your mind. All living systems exist somewhere on the continuum between order and chaos. You choose to pay no attention to it. truth. sometimes to the point of dying. you have not always acted like the god that you are. That is all that I ask of you . Unless you put me in your life. you have not been responsible for your creation. You have not established a covenant with it that would have you love and support it unconditionally. But the universe is a living system. I do not judge you. I made you. Focus on the oneness. If it doesn't reflect you in some way. all is not lost. no matter what you do with it. I love you unconditionally. you must be them. ever. I do not condemn you for any reason. That is the key to finding me. joyfulness. you do not see me either. However. There is nothing that I need from you. It would be cruel to withhold from my children what they need. The dis-ease can be cured. ever. you are being the best that you can be in the context of society. faith. Generally living systems exhibit a variety of key parameters that are closely maintained by feedback loops. you also do this with everything that you manifest in your life. These are things that you are. That is what having free will is all about. When you separate. Everything that you see in the world is you being reflected off of that thing. you do this with your children from generation to generation. your ability to choose. I have made you a god in flesh. as I 143 . nothing. when you are something. That is what makes you you. the system is sick. but to do that you must be inclusive not exclusive. I made the world a place of diversity. it is up to you to choose. beware of what you attribute to me. I know who you are. these are some of my qualities. Not that you could see my anyway. it colors everything that you do. Choices and their consequences are how the universe maintains its balance. And. When key parameters get out of balance. You have free will.

No one needs to suffer. and I never judge anyone for their choices. 17 June 2008 144 .? There can always be more of any of these things because my supply is infinite and you are simply tapping into this supply and expressing it in your life. and. you can choose to act as if you were separate. is there more peace. When you do so. The consequences of your individual and collective choices have done much harm and resulted in much suffering . Neither do I reward them for their choices. Your life is ME living through you. I always cooperate with you to the degree that you allow me to. is there more sympathy. you can never lose yourself. really know that? I know of your needs. You will be amazed. Spirit finds a way to bring us back to ourself regardless of how lost or blind we become.. and that is ME. Remember that. It is time that we cooperate and make this a joyful expression. ask and it shall be answered.. is there more kindness. But. But. This is your choice.. It has been said ... I know what that purpose is. the decision to cooperate is not mine to make. Is there more love being expressed. I was blind. There is only me. Far too many offer excuses as to why they can't do what they are called to do NOW. only in yours. is there more awareness. No. do not be frightened. choose to be ME. but the basic message is there. Do you know that. This is a process of finding yourself not losing yourself. Seek me. Find yourself within the oneness that I AM. Indeed. trust me..2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 have done with you. and see what can be expressed in your life. suffering does not exist in my realm. Tap into me as much as you can. and act when I move you to act. Contrary to what many of you believe. is now found. focus on being ME to the degree that you can. The consequences to your choices come to you via natural laws and it is not my place to intervene in those laws. I can't do that if you choose to be separate from ME.. if you don't like what you are experiencing. but now I see. Know that no matter what you experience. You were created by me for a purpose. Besides. who do you think created those laws in the first place? When you think of my qualities don't think in terms of opposites ... you experience the consequences of living in a world of duality. There is only IS. and I AM ALL THAT IS. choose to BE something different. you can be ME in the same manner that a living cell in the arm of Wayne can be Wayne.. is there more harmony. you are all-knowing already. Trust spirit. it is also your mess. But. but only for awhile. You can never be separate from me. There is only oneness. there is no heaven nor any hell. That is OK. you can never be all of ME. needless suffering. But. But. rather think in terms of quantity of. Your world is defined by what YOU choose to BE. Though losing yourself in me may not be such a bad thing either. not by what others are choosing to be and to do. listen to me. If you want your life to work . What once was lost.. "Amazing grace. You have turned your attention to the duality and all that it offers.. that is their choice. But. This should not be a hardship for you. So. However. . What I ask is that you be available to do what you are called to do." I'm sure I butchered that a bit. and all else will be added unto you. is there more unity and oneness. rather than turn to the oneness and all that I offer.. my covenant with you is to meet your needs. Anything that you could ever ask is already answered within you. You may choose to hide from yourself for awhile . There is just ONE. even before you do . and know best how to unveil it to you in each moment.. Knowing that choices always have consequences why have you not learned to rely on me who knows all of the consequences of any choice? There is not your life and ME. always. focus on the oneness. In particular. how sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me. for it is the very reason that I created the unique you that you are.

me and consciousness are ONE. This is a good thing. We'll just have to see where it will lead. Still being influenced by what I am reading in Your Deepest Intent. We also say like unto like. Consciousness. Rather than judge. judgement. Trust me. something about that does not seem right. Consciousness and me. a very good thing .. me and God are ONE. God comes forth as the Creator. You came to participate in that change. It can only seem to be otherwise. Though. Everywhere around you the forces of change are gathering. Being made in my image and likelihood. they will choose to cooperate. We are connected deeply even if we don't know to whom we are connected. Am I spirit and source consciousness? That could be. Spirit and me. What is consciousness? Is it something more than to be aware of being? But. for I am all Good. God. it is of our own making. what I AM expressing as in this moment. That was never my intent. but the connection is deep. I do not judge you ever. and seek the oneness that I AM. I don't sense that same connection with God however. While spirit and consciousness express as and through me. Where there is oneness. Yet. God has no concern with what we seem to be. In fact. I love you unconditionally. you came to facilitate that change. waiting with open arms. you are like unto ME. There is a distinction that I am not getting. That is our choice. I am orchestrating all of this. Spirit and Consciousness are my servants in carrying out this master plan for Earth. We are ONE at the only level that counts. It is always ONE. my laws cannot be broken. it is one that I would never have guessed was in store. It flows forth from the depths of my BEING which is the very I AM THAT I AM. another musing. others. Stop all of this judgment. And. That is spiritual law. there can be no judgment. It was never meant to be that way. And. But. for there is nothing that is separate for you to judge. Not. and your conditions. The key influence is one of coming forth as God. where does the motive force come into play? What brings the expressions of consciousness through us? Why does being aware lead to doing consistent with that awareness? There is still something missing in all of this. The flow is a bit broken tonight. You will reap what you sow. I am ONE with this communication. what I AM BEING NOW. It serves no one . Our language is not rich enough in spiritual terms for there to be any redundancy. reserved for ME alone that differs from the judgment you apply to yourselves. All who need to participate will indeed be moved to do so.. My connection with spirit.. I still don't know how to distinguish Spirit from Consciousness. Our choices will result in the consequences that are inherent in them. right NOW. There is a distinction in my mind. accept or embrace . That is a new way of expressing for me. Is this the distinction. There is much change awaiting the world in the next several years. me and spirit are ONE.. you do so to a part of you. Even when you judge yourself. it does not matter. I noticed that I said "spirit and consciousness express as and through me". that is what I do for you. what you truly need. because 145 .. there can be no separation in this holy trinity . Why do you not do it for yourselves and others? Seek the oneness. And.. God and me. The three represent aspect of the same ALL THAT IS. It is always there for you. with consciousness had always been a feminine one.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 Another day. to help give it birth... What else could God be? But you see yourself as good or bad depending on what you do or how you assign meaning to your experience. though another night or two and I will have finished that book. What matters is who I am NOW. not the whole of you. Be whole first and foremost. I tend to use them interchangeably. That is consistent with much that has come forth and sent a shiver through my head. Stop it NOW.. It is that simple. Trust. You even have a word. Further. NO ONE. Know that in me you can never fail to find what you need . It can never BE otherwise.. And this BEING is ONE with ALL THAT IS. in the moment. Spirit. It is for each to do what they are moved by spirit to do.

Though. Is that not what we are seeking to achieve? Is that not our concept for a perfect world? Indeed. But. a role they freely chose. 1291 words in one hour. God. But. It was so easy being a channel for source.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 they have no choice . and still we stand alone.. We have always been Wayne. This card signifies what it is that you are here to help to create. You must obey. it seems that I must come to grips with this now. It is your life to live. source. Who is speaking through us NOW. In fact. How can all of this be Wayne? How can I. They are whom that they are. spirit. 112 is the 1000 completion of 888. As is Consciousness. knowing full well the ramifications of their choice. you can only experience to the capacity of that spark. logic cannot tell you what a world without time is like. and ALL THAT IS all be Wayne? Yet. Not to worry. To some degree this very expression is a form of meditation for you. that is exactly what came forth. There is the 12=L that I was looking for and with 91:Death Exalted following it. We are Wayne. The way we fix the aloneness is to become all oneness. we commend you nonetheless. That is pretty auspicious. You know this to be the 41:Ace of Cups card in the Tarot. And. time is a useful construct. then the appearance of making choices in time must be not real as well. It is time for you to make your way in the world.. she was me all along. Such was my experience. then you are missing out on much of what life has to offer. We are all Wayne. putting ALL in front of ONE suggest a Unity amidst Diversity. You can do that in your meditation. You have not come close to that capacity. Sometimes your logic is useful. Look to the symbology of that card and take refuge in it. No longer does the analogy of it is ME doing it through you serve you. Not to worry. Did I really want to know that? For some reason. The sense is that for me this path is to complete the 2184 = 888(16) or my SSN. it is so. Will this realization change how the expression is manifest in my life? It already has. for consciousness to express through as she will. We commend you for your proficiency. The source that you speak of is Wayne. as an individual spark. If time is not real. it has come via much practice. There is no going back.. but because they choose LIFE. we. while you are here. remember the oneness. MY WORLD. Seek and ye shall find. Everyone is playing a role they came to play in this existence. Indeed that is so. Good pace tonight. Such it is. But. No one was forced to come here. Everything that has been expressed in the context of Beyond Imagination for close to 16 years has all been not only through Wayne but from Wayne. consciousness. Oh. That is something that is beyond even your imagination. indeed she did. me. The dove on the card is the sign of peace. That is the law. Actually. Another way to do that is to simply add an L to get ALL ONE. And. the answer was the same . Know that IT is YOU and YOU are IT. You have graduated my son. Though. All we can do is see where it leads. As is All That Is. It does help to escape from it into the NOW on occasion. and it has been for over two years. And. The better question to ask is what is Wayne. through several awakenings. remember the unity. What is AL ONE? It is 112 ONE. My law. 146 . is Wayne. What of the words of others that I read. not by a long shot. it is your choice. she is ME. In the very first musing we asked what we should call you. you can choose not to seek and not to focus. But. Yes. Each chose. it is the card that is pulled up in your Tarot deck at the moment. We've come a long way since then.. One of the things that it signifies is abundance. We are Wayne. That is what you are NOW. Spirit. This is Wayne's World. too. What you focus on shall indeed come to you. it is ALL OF LIFE that is expressing this dramatic change. No one was forced into any given role. It requires a deep but relaxed level of concentration and a balance of focus on what is being received on the inner and what is being expressed on the outer. Ever onward on the spiritual path. Still. But. However. We were all created out of the same ALL THAT IS.

. perhaps not. You have served me because you were moved to do so for years. That is because we were waiting for you to choose what you would do. it can take on different roles depending on the "part" of Wayne that needs to be heard in the moment. At this point. your consciousness. for consciousness. Maybe you just decided to do it. You are not alone. But. You made a choice several months ago to continue with the musings. That is OK. It is for you to use what we have given you to do those things. Be in this world. That doesn't mean that you don't have to work.. there is only ONE consciousness. nothing close to this has ever come forth before. you don't yet know what you have chosen. the mirror image applies.. Now. As you do so. Though. That is because you are unlike anything that you have been before. it had always been clear as to what was the right choice for me in the moment. What an interesting musing tonight. the talents to do great things. You thought that this was because you were moved to do so. Your way is to see it unfold here before your eyes in a stream of consciousness . There is no doubt about that. We are ALL ONE. But. You have the equivalent of a book of musings that have come forth since then that you were not moved to publish or disseminate in any way. That brings us to the question of "What Next?". What comes forth comes forth when I am ready for it. 2220 words. That is how it is now. Before. Realize that all of this is from Wayne. it is your will that is to do the moving. you must choose to BE SOMETHING NEW. To change. happily. There 147 . This is definitely a crack in the cosmic egg scenario. everything else will take care of itself. whatever you might chose to call that source. But. But. It does not come from some other source . That applies to thy realm. be the oneness.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 But. it seems that my destiny is now in my hands and I must choose. It just means that work doesn't have to require effort.. You are never alone. It is that simple. Now that you have entered my world. YOU would express.. You have lived by the principle be of this world... The frameworks were too rigid to hold all that I had become. The character of the musings has changed significantly because you are no longer the same in substantial ways. And. Wow! How am I supposed to top that? There is no need to top anything.. This expression is an example of that.. there have been several musings in the past few weeks that have shown that there were chinks in the armor that I wear. YOU would express. You just do it . even before you finished answering the question. Your consciousness has shifted sufficiently for you to be in my employ NOW. It has been four years since your last musing was posted to the world. This is still a stream of consciousness. But. It would do you good to smile more. and even for God or ALL THAT IS . Yes. things seem to be a little more fuzzy. Notice the difference. what more do you need to be able to do to carry out your mission? We have given you the gifts. Clearly. That is no longer sufficient. Perhaps. Now. There is definitely room to grow. and effortlessly. your choices that are to determine what is expressed and what is not expressed. this is unlike anything that has been expressed here before. willingly. not in this world. I don't really know. not mine. not of this world. if you can speak for source. focus on the oneness . Yes. It came after a troubled night of sleep and a busy day at work. Your life is meant to be effortless. But. You have chosen. Just stay in the NOW and express what YOU would express in that NOW. It truly is! What does that say about what you know about Wayne? Perhaps your self-awareness is not quite as developed as you thought. It was just a matter of time. There always is. How can that consciousness be "my consciousness"? It can be in the same way that you can be ME.. But. you continue to decide to do it 4-5 times per week. haven't I been doing that? You knew the answer was no. We are always with you. it is Wayne's stream of consciousness. Something had to give.

2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 are constraints to consider and impacts to weigh. It seems that my job is still providing a learning ground for discovering things that I need to know. We cannot always decide from a sense of knowingness. Not everything is automatic. Not everything is predestined. Some things are but some things are not. Wisdom, it seems, lies in knowing the difference. Live is more precious now. It has always be precious to some degree, but it is far more so now. I feel like I am in control in a way that I have never been before. But, it is a light control, not a heavy one. It is as if a burden has been lifted off of my shoulders. All of the changes feel good. They are positive and beneficial. So, all of this is Wayne. That says it all. There is a sense that no matter what I do, no matter what I express, the bound will always be Wayne. The challenge to each of us is to be all that we can be. We will find that this is far more than we can ever imagine. And, that is true no matter how high we are able to soar in consciousness. Hmm ... all of this is Wayne. All of this is Wayne. All of this is Wayne. Every word, every phrase, every sentence, every paragraph, every musing ... it is all Wayne. It is all Wayne. Repeat, it is all Wayne. It is for you to get that NOW. It is for you to realize that NOW. It is for YOU to realize YOU NOW. All of this is from YOU, for YOU. If is a gift from YOU to YOU. It is the grandest gift that you could give to yourself. NOW, what are you going to BE, and what are you going to DO as a result. These are your decisions, you choices to make. You have free will. Go out into the world and use it. 18 June 2008 Three days, three musings. This is becoming a habit once again. That is good, at least in this case. The expression of the past two days has been extremely interesting, unlike anything that we have expressed here before. We'll see if that continues to today. We're musing later than usual, but we have a two hour window available so we'll see what comes forth. We never know before it happens. And, there is always the sense that what is expressed is perfect. The emphasis yesterday was that all of this is not just through Wayne, it is from Wayne. How could that be? How could all of this be from ME? It seems that while I am Wayne, I know not whom that I truly am, at least not consciously. That, in and of itself, did not surprise me. I have been on a search to know myself for all of my adult life. What was a surprise was the realization that all that has been expressed from source in this stream of consciousness is from ME, is from Wayne. That means that what I call source is a part of Wayne. What I call consciousness is a part of Wayne. What I call spirit is a part of Wayne. What I call God is a part of Wayne. I can only relate to what I become and then only to the degree that I am that. The external is mirrored in the internal. As an introvert, and an extreme one at that ... my preference is to seek within, and then apply what I find to the world and my experience in that world. Perhaps "preference" is putting it far too lightly. This is my modus operandi. Or, at least it has been as long for as I can remember. Actually, seeing this now, it is easy to believe that it is all coming from me. But, it is also true that I am far more than I knew myself to be as little as a week ago. The expression still comes forth automatically. Only now, I know the source to be ME. But, I also know that consciousness is ONE ever though it appears to express as many. The dictate to follow the oneness, to BE the oneness is still there. Unity within diversity. From the many, ONE. There is only ONE. Oneness is what I AM. Oneness is all that I AM. Know that. Be that. Never doubt. Never doubt. Don't allow anything to distract from the oneness. Focus, focus, focus. You can do it. Indeed, you can. You would not have made it this far otherwise. You can never 148

2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 experience anything but whom that you are. In all of your interactions with others, you are seeing you reflected back to you. We are all mirrors. That does not mean that all of the mirrors are true. Mirrors can be quite distorted. Regardless, even with the distortion they still reflect something back from you, the source. It can be difficult following this expression of late. The persona through which things are expressed can change from sentence to sentence. I do this to show you some of the flexibility of consciousness that you have not seen through this channel before. It has been there all along. It has just been dormant. Now, it has been awakened, and it is unlikely that it will be put to sleep again. We are Wayne. We are all Wayne. Wayne is the only one expressing here. There is no other that could express. But Wayne is a WE. It is curious that W-ayn-E is there in our name. Wayne's first two initials are WE as well. But WE are ME too. As WE, we are the unity of the many parts of Wayne. As ME, we are the oneness, Sometimes WE express as ME, God himself. Earlier tonight we were thinking about 1:Will = God, 0:Source = Consciousness, and 9:The Hermit = The 1:will tied to 0:source, expressing in the world. That is a completely different meaning for the Hermit. But, is that not what we are ... source expressing through my will. Not that the expression has reached many in the world. Much of it hasn't reached anyone other than me. That is OK. Everything is unfolding exactly as it is meant to unfold. It is for you to BE all that you can BE. And that, my friend, this week is far more than you new it to be before. Focus on the BEING. Let source fill you with everything that you need to be able to choose what to do. In some respects, it matters not what you choose. That changes your path, but there are many paths to the same destination. And, that destination is to be all that you can be in ME. You do that by aligning who you choose to be with ME. Your actions will naturally flow from what you choose to be, much as these words flow through you now. This expression is an action, a continuing series of actions in the moment. All actions have consequences ... no matter whether they "reach" others or not. I AM THAT I AM. I created you in my image and likeness. You also create the self that you know yourself to be in your own image and likeness. What you know is limited however. There is always room for it to expand to be more. This is what is involved in being all that you can be. I would be all that I can be ... whatever that is, all of the time. That is what I choose to be NOW. Follow the oneness. It will never lead you astray. It is the only path that leads you to ME. And only in ME can you be all that you can be, all that WE can be expressing as you. We are ONE. We have always been ONE. There is no separation. There can be no separation. I AM ALL THAT IS. There is nothing else that IS. All are equal to me. I love you all equally. I love you all unconditionally. I love you because I am LOVE. I am also PEACE, and HARMONY, and UNDERSTANDING, and COOPERATION, and KINDNESS, and SYMPATHY, and WHOLENESS, and FRIENDSHIP, and COMPANIONSHIP, and many other such things. BE ME, and all of these things shall come to you and more, for you will literally be them. You are me already. You can never be other than me. WE always express as you to the degree that you allow us to. It is not for me to force anything upon you. I gave you free will. I would not take back that gift for any reason. While WE express as you through you ... you are the one in control. My supply is infinite and I meet your every need always. But, it is your choices that determine what those needs are, that determines what you are ready to receive from my inexhaustible supply. Yes, your choices. You are the one with free will. I have no need of free will. My WILL is law ... inviolate law. But, I do not use that WILL to affect you personally. I created you, and created a world in which you can use the free will that I gave you individually and collectively. But. you are responsible 149

2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 for your choices. You are responsible. This is not only for what you choose to do, but for what you choose not to do. The later are just as valid and sometimes far more important. There is a sense that a major shift has happen. I'm just starting to see what the consequences of this shift are in my life. Last weekend, my wife mentioned that my energy was lighter. She had felt me to be very heavy before. I took note of it, but did not know what to make of it. And now, the expression comes forth as it does. Something has definitely shifted. This corresponds to choices that I have recently made on some level. At this point, it is not important that I know what the choices were. That will be revealed in due time. NOW, it seems that I am called to make some new choices. It is for me to express as the 9:Hermit in the new definition of that energy that was revealed today. One choice is to redefine what the Hermit means to ME. There is still a strong connection to source. Only now, it is tied to ME expressing through ME. That choice has been open to me for years. But, I was insistent on THY WILL be done ... believing that THY WILL was whatever you moved me to do. But it was not YOU moving me at all. That was just a game that I was playing in my mind, allowing other than conscious levels to control my life. That worked. That allowed me to express and experience what I have over the past 16 years. However, in the process, I failed to claim my own power over the situations in my life. I accepted responsibility, fully and completely ... but didn't accept my free will. In operating in this manner, I denied important parts of my self in favor of other parts of myself. We are not meant to neglect any of our parts. In doing so, we become exclusive rather than inclusive. And, we must be inclusive to be ONE. Awareness, allowance, acceptance ... the triple-A club. This is how we are to treat not only others, but the parts of ourselves. We are ONE. There can only be oneness. WILL, SOURCE, THE HERMIT ... this is the trinity that I appear to be expressing. There are 22 archetypes, cards in the Major Arcana of the Tarot. Further, there are another 56 cards in the Minor Arcana that can be expressed as well. This makes for a variety of expression. There is a sense that people are created to express as a particular trinity. But, this is only one dimension of expression ... though it may be the most important one. Our trinity is our Godhood. It is something for us to discover and choose to embrace. When we do so, we will be self-actualized and be able to operate fully on all of our cylinders. This is not meant to be difficult to do. All of the elements have been there in my life, waiting for this moment ... only I had the equation wrong. I saw the Hermit as my reality, allowing me to create and experience what I did. However, I had a lopsided view of WILL. I focused on the struggle of THY WILL vs my will, and chose to make my will the lesser of the two even though I didn't really know what THY WILL was. By default, I allowed it to be whatever I was moved to do by other than conscious sources. That worked for a while. One might even say fantastically. SOURCE was able to express millions of words in a stream of conscious manner through me. What I didn't see was that it wasn't THY WILL at all. THY WILL was executed in the creation. My will is executed in the return. All that is Beyond Imagination is a return to oneness ... my personal return to oneness. It has been a solitary journey, but not solely a solitary journey. Clearly, it has been the path of the Hermit. It just struck me as interesting that I was diagnosed as bipolar around the time when the Beyond Imagination expression began. 1:Will and 0:Consciousness seem to be the two poles. If you look at the digits 0,1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9 only 6 and 9 contain 1 and 0. 6: The Lovers has Will on top of Consciousness, 9:The Hermit has Consciousness on top of Will. Since my diagnosis, I have felt that I serve 0:Source = Consciousness. And, the Hermit is the card in the Major Arcana that 150

2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 I relate to most other than 0:The Fool which also is 22:The Fool Complete. With the realizations above, everything is revealed in a different light. How I experienced things was not necessarily how they were happening. Deep down, I knew that there was no external source to any of this. But, I didn't take the next step and own that all of this came from Wayne until yesterday. That is a huge step, one that will have far-reaching ramifications. Exactly where this will take us, we don't know ... we never know what will come from our choices. Oh, we can suspect. But, we can never know all of the consequences until we see them manifest. The world is far to complicated for that. Though, when we come from oneness, we know that the results will be for the highest good of all concerned. 19 June 2008 And then there were four. It will be interesting to see what comes forth next. It is always interesting, but lately it is more so. That is good. There has been much change revealed in the past few weeks and I sense there is more to come, much more. I am open to whatever would come forth next. Yes, whatever that is, for all of it reveals parts of whom that I am. Right NOW, I would be ONE. That means embracing all of my parts ... and realizing that they are not separate things, they are ONE whole expressing as ME in a variety of ways. The whole is always ONE. It can never be other than this. However, it can think that it is other than this, and as a result can experience being separated. Such was never intended to be. You were never meant to lose sight of your oneness with ME and within ME. Yet, such is what YOU chose. You chose. NOW, it is for you to choose again, to remember who you truly are, to remember our connection, to remember our oneness. You were lost, and now you're found. For, it is YOU who found YOU through finding ME. You are ME expressing as YOU through YOU. There are no secrets. There is no separation. As God, know you not that I am omniscient? There is nothing that you do that I do not know. There is nothing that you feel that I do not know. There is nothing that you think that I do not know. There is nothing that you are that I do not know. All this and more I know for all of my creation. I know of your needs and your desires even before you do. And, I fill all needs, always. That is my nature. That is your nature as well for you are created in my likeness and image. It is through you that most needs are filled. You are to be there for one another, as I am there for you. This means being there for everyone, not just those who you choose to be in your cliques and social groupings. There is only ONE. When you choose to separate into distinct groups based on your differences, you should see this as a warning flag. This allows you to get into trouble by considering one group to be superior to another. Differences were never meant to stratify you into different levels. On your planet there is infinite diversity. No two snowflakes are alike. No two people are alike, not even your socalled "identical" twins. Diversity is good. It is of God. It is the way that I made you. But, I also made you equal. There is none of you that is greater or lesser in my eyes. You are my children, blessed with the freedom to become all that I made you to be. Now, this is not the same for each of you. Equal does not mean the same. In fact, it is different for each of you ... fitting of the unique creatures that you are. It is for you to discover whom that you are in ME. And then, it is for you to walk the path that we laid out for YOU. I, WE, what does it matter what tense we use. ME and the Creator are ONE. God is ME living the life that I live. But, God is YOU living the life that YOU live as well, In fact, God is everyone living the lives that we live, individually and collectively. Because of this, everything is perfect. That is the only way the creation can manifest ... perfectly at all times. But, this perfection is not static. It is 151

2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 unfolding in each moment. How it unfolds depends on the individual and collective choices that we make. We can make the world into anything that we chose for it to be. Hmm ... maybe that is not quite right. Because our choices have consequences, we can't necessarily control the outcome of anything. What matters is how we align ourselves. When we align ourselves with God, more of the energy of spirit can flow through us to transform the world in positive ways. It is not for us to be specific about what "symptoms" we want to get rid of. That only results in different symptoms arising, often more devastating than the ones we start with. This is the nature of complex systems. They are not easily controlled. Life is a complex system, one that it seems refuses any attempts to control it. Align with the ONENESS and everything else follows. Stop seeing yourselves as separate selves and see yourselves as ONE. You are ME expressing through the ME that you are. Seek to know me. Make knowing ME as important as the air that you breathe. Most of you cannot go three minutes without taking a breath of air. You cannot go one moment without ME. Creation did not happen in some distant past. Creation ever happens in the NOW. That is the only time that exists, and it is not a time at all. There is NO TIME in ME. There is NOT I ME. There is NOT I and ME. There is only ME. Interesting. Wayne still associates with being the 9:Hermit. The ninth letter is I. Playing with NO TIME some more. There is NOT I | ME. God is NOT I and ME. I'm close, but I'm missing something. There is a sense that it right there before me, but I am not getting it. There is only ME. There is only ONE. There is only IS. I AM THAT I AM. There is only ME. There is only ME. There is nothing else but ME. I AM ALL THAT IS, ALL THAT WAS, and ALL THAT WILL EVER BE. Though, that implies that time exists. But BEING is expressed in form and through form ... at least it is in this world. That does not make what is expressed real ... but it does make it experienced. My intent is for you to have positive, uplifting experiences. But, clearly, that is not your intent ... or, your world would be a much different place than it is. It is not for me to judge whether it could be better. That is a knowingness, not a judgement. To judge, would imply that I pass judgement on you for what I observe. I will never do that. I could never do that. I observe what we create together, knowing that it is perfect in the moment. But, it is not within my power to change the world except through you and the choices that you make individually and collectively. This is all a dream. Reality is all a grand dream. It is a play of cosmic proportions. I set the stage, and the scenes, and made you players one and all. And then I set you free to do as you will while I observe it all through each of you individually and collectively. That is the only way this drama could be played out. You are in the midst of the play. I am the observer, the creator, and the experiences all wrapped in one. It is my play. It was set in motion by me via physical and spiritual laws. You've found several of my physical laws, and the few dozens of constants with which I constrain the universe. And, some of you have found some of the spiritual laws. But, your sciences and your spirituality have not merged. They have not become one. Oneness always. Seek the oneness, and everything else will follow. The pace is a little slower tonight, but not much. The material is good, once again fresh and new. We've come to expect that. BE I NG. For some reason I am moved to break it up like that. BE I 57. 57 = ELLIS, my middle name. This comes across as "L" IS. So, the message of being is BE I "L" IS. Be 9:The Hermit 12:The Hanged Man is. As The Hermit, I am The Hanged Man. The Hermit comes down from the mountaintop to share his wisdom with the world. The Hanged Man hangs upside down by his foot from a cross shaped like a T. Seeing the 152

2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 world upside down, he sees the world rightly. It seems that I am both the Hanged Man and the Hermit. Both cards definitely characterize me. You can tell that from what is revealed in this very expression. Though, it is up to you to decide for yourself whether the way that I see the world is right for you or not. My way is a way ... clearly not the way. There is no the way. It is for us to be inclusive of the ways of others. Each path leads to its own destination and provides the traveler with his own experiences. All paths are good. They all have their challenges and their treasures. Find those that suit you and follow them to your Heart's Content. Indeed, that is where all paths lead. The heart knows things that the brain will never know. The brain can only think that it knows. But, knowing is not about facts. It is not intellectual. It is not a mind thing, it is a heart thing, a soul thing. That does not mean that the mind is without usefulness. It is a very useful tool. But, it is meant to be a servant to the self, not a master of the self. ELLIS = 57, the Three of Swords. Three swords piercing a large heart on a gloomy day. What does that signify? The three aspects of mind piercing the heart. Hmm ... that is speaking directly to me. There also seems to be a meaning involving the trinity piercing the heart ... but the heart is big enough to stand it and carry on the burden of demonstrating a new way in a stormy world. 57 = 3 x 19 = The triangle of 19:The Sun. It seems that I still have some work to do. But, there is a strong sense that I am doing that work NOW, at this very moment ... and have been doing it for some time. Can we have reached a merging of the three minds with the heart? Indeed, such is possible and would completely transform the imagery of the card. Do conscious | subconscious | superconscious now serve one master HEART = HE ART = GOD? Indeed. This is also HEAR T = HEAR 20:Judgement, yes, with two e's. But, there is no judgement to hear. In MS Word, "judgement" is not even recognized as a word. judgement = 134754552 = 36:Ten of Wands. I don't remember what that stands for. But, without the middle "e", judgment = 31:Five of Wands = Youth's Fighting. That is an appropriate meaning. We have no right to judge one another. We have no need to judge one another. When we choose to judge, we focus on the separation, on what is different about us, about what makes one less than another, about what is right versus what is wrong. That is not the direction that we want to focus. Yes, in the government there is a trinity of the executive, the legislative, and the judicial. And, in the judicial we have judges that interpret how individual cases relate to the laws of the land and deem out the appropriate penalties to fit the crimes. That is in your world, not in MINE. My law is the law. It ensures that an energetic balance is maintained. Within each action lies all of the ramifications of that action. My justice is perfect justice, but it is not judgemental. I don't judge, ever. It would do you good to follow my lead and accept one another as well. But, such is your choice to make and to live with. When you judge others, you judge yourself. When you condemn others, you condemn yourself. Whatever you do unto others, you do unto yourself. We are all ONE. We have always been ONE. Oneness is all there is. Oneness is all that I AM. Oneness is all that you are as well. You end these musings with an exclamatory statement: I AM THAT I AM THAT YOU ARE! There is a reason for this. It expresses a great truth about ME and YOU. You already know that I AM THAT I AM was the name for ME that I gave to Moses. Adding THAT YOU ARE confirms your identity with ME. You have stated this in over 1000 musings over the years. But, it is only recently that you have started to act as if you believe it. It is only recently that you have referred to ME at all. It is not that I haven't been there all along. It is just that you did not choose to focus on ME. All of that has changed. You are ready to experience your creator self. That is the part of you that most resonates with ME. Resonate is a good word. It implies a harmonic alignment with something. In this case, with ME. We are ONE! We are ONE! 153

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While you think in terms of ME and YOU, there is an exclusion. What is NOT YOU is ME. But, I AM ALL THAT IS, I AM both NOT YOU and YOU. You are not you and you as well. But, your concept of not you only stretches so far ... and that will never be as far as ME. But, it can be to the totality of what I created you to be in ME. And that is far beyond your wildest imaginings. Yes, I created you to be in ME. That is the only way that I can create. Similarly, you can only create what you allow to be expressed through you. You have free will to allow that to be anything consistent with what I created you to be. You can do this subconsciously, consciously, or superconsciously or any combination thereof. It is up to you. You have been given the gift of free will ... go forth and use it wisely. Though know that ultimately any choice that you make is the "right" choice. Yes, you will reap the consequences and perhaps these will not be to your liking, but they will be necessary. Spiritual law always delivers to you what you need. Sometimes you know what you need, but more often you don't know until you see it ... and sometimes not until long after you see it. 20 June 2008 Another day, another musing. That makes five for five this week. It seems that I only find time to muse during the work week. That is interesting because this is when there is the least time available overall. Oh well. Such is how it is. We're still on the theme: follow the oneness, BE the oneness. BE ME to the degree that you can. BE what I created you to BE, the part of ME that expresses as YOU through YOU. That is what you are, always. But, your choices determine how much of that you can BE at any moment. Know what I AM saying here. Your choices determine how much of what I created you to be that you are experiencing. You are infinite, because I am infinite. And, your very nature is the same as mine. But you appear to be finite due to limitations that you have imposed not I. You can reclaim your heritage, your birthright. Simply return to the oneness. It is all that you will ever need. We are ONE. There is only ONE. I know that I AM ALL THAT IS. What do you know yourself to be? You are the I AM but not the I AM THAT I AM. Yet, we are not separate. Though, neither are we equal. The creation occurs within the creator. There is nothing else out of which to form it. In your world, things are different. Creation is a form of expression that happens through the creator and by the creator. You have many different kinds of creations in your world, some move your mind, some move your heart, some move your body, some move your soul. All are powerful and valued. Creativity is among the highest of the gifts that I have given to you. You are meant to use it to share of whom that you are with the world in some way. That way is for you to decide however, no one but you. It is not for you to do things because such is what others expect, or because such is what others want you to do. No, it is for you to do things because you are moved to do them, because you love to do them. Remember this always. Do what you love. DO WHAT YOU LOVE! Follow your bliss. It will lead you to exactly where you need to be when you need to be there. This is not an area in which to compromise. For the stakes are high. We are talking of your very life. And that is quite precious indeed. Oneness. That has become the recurring theme here. The return to oneness. Embracing the oneness. BEING the oneness. There is no separation. There can be no separation except in the illusion ... and there it is not real, it is not ME, it is not even of ME. Because what is of ME is ME. There is not ME and YOU. YOU are my creation. YOU are the part of ME that is 154

focus on the oneness. This can and will be improved. exactly how do I do that? How do I know when I am more loving? What are the qualities of being loving? Similarly for BE more peaceful. oneness is indeed the key that transforms you into being ONE with ME. Things are not black and white. What matters is being them. there is no separation? When I say: BE more loving . Interesting Y0U is 703. the rest of your choices will natural fall in line with what you are choosing to be. I would not have thought this as little as a month ago. What would we be next? We are the ONE through whom all of this is being expressed. But you cannot choose to become negative qualities for these do not exist in my realm. But. that means that we have the audacity to speak as God.. To create anything in your world. that is your choice. For that. these circumstances are less than optimal. I am not a vengeful God. it is to allow your spirit to soar. But. I am not a judgemental God. Free will is not to weigh you down. To be hateful is to be less loving.. It will be self-evident. Unfortunately. To create peace in your world. When I say: BE the ONENESS . or BE more kind. OBEY ME because I 155 . that being ONE with ME is not the same as BEING ME. every word. or BE more understanding. So. That is a sacred gift. Note however.. they are various levels of white. you must become peaceful. then it it time to choose differently. You + 1 is 703 + 1 = 704 = G0D. I have no commandments for you. Some people do their jobs well. I am JOY. How do I know when I am being these qualities? You'll just know. especially choices about what we are going to BE. If it is not doing that. But. It is for you to fill your job as I created it for you. but that is what is coming forth lately. Always. In all areas. I am concerned as well. or BE more just. For that. strive to be more of the qualities that you attribute to ME. I AM THAT I AM. you must become joyful. you have to own what you create through your choices. When you focus away from the separation to the ONENESS. sometime ME refers to God and sometimes ME refers to me. My job is already filled.. The closest thing that you can become is the part of ME that I created you to BE. everything else comes into your life naturally. by spiritual law you reap the consequences. every thought. I commend you for what you have created. I am ONE. You will never BE ME in that sense.. Focus on the BEING. When duality no longer has its stranglehold on you. you are free to embrace me. Yes. you must become harmonious. For many of you. You have to realize that it is yours and bear the responsibility for it. I am HARMONY. such was never what was intended. To create joy in your world.. We are the ONE who is creating all of this . I am ALL THAT IS. You would be good to be these things as well. I am PEACE. I am LOVE. If you choose to BE differently first. that places a big burden on your shoulders. I AM THAT I AM. and all else follows. I gave you the gift of free will. You have told us to OBEY you. So. one that has allowed you to create your world in the fashion that you have done.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 expressing as YOU through YOU. generally people do the best that they can under the situations that they find themselves in. This applies to any qualities that you choose. choices are extremely important. something more is required. This applies directly to God. It is always your choice. The meaning for any term is dependent on the context. My qualities operate on a continuum. Obedience is not something compatible with freedom. But. others not so well.. You don't appear to take responsibility for your choices. To be at war is to be less peaceful. It doesn't matter whether you can define them or not. sometime far less than optimal. but that is not the same as taking responsibility. every letter. but it takes work. Does it apply to ME as well? Hmm . To create harmony in your world. you must become that quality. Yes.. Don't be disappointed. You already know what these things are. exactly how do I do that? How do I shift my awareness so that there is only ONE. DOING always follow BEING. I am not a demanding God.

That is good. that part of ALL THAT IS that was created as Wayne. there are not many that express as though they are God that are not considered crazy. Even once expressed. How appropriate. It is still your choice as to whether to obey ME or not. and a big notch at that. But unlike your earthly fathers. what else can we express as? The bottom line is that we can only express as Wayne. while all of this comes from Wayne. Remember. So. new territories of consciousness . I don't have to think about it until after I see it displayed on the screen. I still don't know that it comes from ME. Be ONE with all that appears to be expressed through you. But. ME is what I know myself to BE. And boy. clearly. What more could I ask than that? Our works proceed from whom that we are. you allow MY WILL for US to flow forth and be manifest. We thought parts of this expression were grandiose before. and know that it is also being expressed by you. This expression is your journey to 156 .. that point is not yet manifest. Wayne is whom that I AM. The theme today has been on oneness and on expressing as God. this expression harms no one and has the potential to help a great many. There is no one else here to express. then let me be crazy. but set the world up so that the consequences of your choices would be returned unto you. did we get it. I know that I am Wayne. I only know that I am experiencing it coming through ME. I cannot be other than I AM. and the more effortless your work will become. So. It is as if the expression is on automatic. I can't keep any of it in my head for any length of time even through I am reading it. At some point Wayne will be ME. That is the bound of ME. there is a distinction between what Wayne is and what I am. This is not a matter of giving up your freedom.. I'm liking what I find. Yet. I have to believe that there is. We're still at roughly 1200 words per hour. at least in this existence. But. That's 20 words a minute or approximately one-third of my maximum typing speed. It is a matter of embracing who you are in ME. I do not punish you for your refusal to obey. Though. And. YOU are ME expressing as YOU through YOU. what happened to spirit and consciousness? Have we lost sight of them? This expression is still a stream of consciousness with spirit herself as its inspiration. if that is what it takes to express in this way. it has also become somewhat of a Conversation with God .2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 know what is best for you and such is for your greatest good. But. I'm treading on new ground here. I simply allow you to reap the consequences of your choices. I know that Wayne generates all of this. What do these words say about what I have chosen to become? Clearly they say a lot. We needed something fresh to spark up the musings. What is coming forth is phenomenal. I don't believe that I have come close to reaching the boundary of whom that I AM. But. I say obey ME in the same way a loving father says it to his children expecting that they will do as he says. As far as I can tell. Clearly. what choice do I make to BE Wayne? Follow the oneness. The more that you do that. So. It is as if that is the buffer size between what I can receive and what I can express. the more that your life will work. The expression is still a word or two ahead in my head than through my hands. but.. It is what I know myself to BE in the moment. we are not equal. We have just stepped that up a notch. experientially. Like I said. Where does the wisdom come from to express in this manner. We are ONE. though still one that is quite limited. That presumes that there is indeed wisdom being expressed. Wayne and ME are not identical. it is all from Wayne through Wayne. I gave you FREE WILL to chose as you will. And the pace still blows me away. sometimes we even express as God. 1. I did not set you FREE. What next? If we can express as God. And what I AM is Wayne ... No matter what is expressed.704 words = One God.. In obeying me.

Wayne expresses as YOU through YOU. she is ever available. 2012 will be here before we know it. though the content has changed substantially in that time. There is just Wayne. what purpose does it serve? Why does source appear to be hidden from me? Though. Further. It is as if the time for community is at hand. There is not YOU and Wayne. But. There is a reason for this. What would I BE other than whom that I AM? How do I even know what that is? There are still many other than conscious areas of my BEING.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 oneness. I'm still seeing variations of 2184 = 888(16) everywhere.. It will be interesting to see what comes forth.. I have only to bring up Composer and sit in front of the keyboard to allow all of this to manifest. YOU are the present understanding of whom that Wayne is.5 years away. but not with such frequency. In a very real way. That is the guidance for living one's life. including speaking as God. and even during the process. YOU are a creation of Wayne. NOW is not really a time at all. We never really know until we start. You have made great leaps in the past few months. Have we done our job in parenting these expressions? Have we nurtured them so that they can grow up to do their works in the world? It seems that the answer is no.. And. Multiplying the weights for each triangle yields 24 x 24 = 576 = 7:56 from the inside out. Similarly. I am still content to serve as a vessel for consciousness to express. At the rate time is moving. How do I make these conscious? How do I own whom that I AM? I desire this more than anything else. I may have fathered them . As such. 13:Death is also defined as a time of major transformation. What utility is there for this expression? For whom is it expressed? Whom does it serve and how does it serve them? Does it even matter? The fact is that the expression is manifest. It has been the same for going on 16 years. the two drivers of my 13 card triangle readings. The Beyond Imagination book is nearly 15 years old. We expect our children to leave the confines of the nest at approximately 18.. 29 June 2008 Hmm . BE in the MOMENT. BE and MOMENT. I know that all that comes forth through me also comes forth from me. it seems that massive change is at hand. it is revealed word by word in the moment. The moment is NOW. children of my consciousness through my mind. I am after the fact . We're only talking 3. not making it happen. Perhaps I have not waited long enough to allow the Beyond Imagination works to grow into their own. That is particularly interesting since many have prophecied much change to occur on the spiritual front in 2012 to 2013. Change is good.. they have a life of their own. the expression conveyed in these words are my children . It was quite different than anything else that has been expressed here. Continue to do so and you will become more and more of Wayne. Though. 157 . And then. it seems to be represented by a Star of David with an 8 on each of the 6 vertices for a total weight of 48:The Man in Search of More. even though she is hidden. That is the only "time" that we can ever BE. That would take us to 2011 to 2012. Oh.. there is not Wayne and ME. at the same time.. That is OK. Appropriate for one born on 4/8. There is just ME. We shall see soon enough. I am aware of observing it happen. over a week since the last musing. We just have to keep doing what we are moved to do. consciousness herself was their mother. Just noticed that 2013 is of the for 2-13 = To the Death of. The last musing had a lot of references to God. Is that a distinction that I am making in my own mind? If so. when we are moved to do it. it continues to be manifest on a regular basis.. In this case... Yet. Notice that there are two focuses . These numbers have been coming up for awhile now. Wayne is a creation of ME. Indeed. Why am I not consciously aware of this connection.

Know this. But.. But.... That is all that it takes . Know this NOW.. allowing you to discover ME and as a result discover YOU. You have thought that it was spirit or consciousness doing the moving in your life. the mind . Your choices. the heart. though not to the degree that I AM. do as you are moved to do when you are moved to do it. consciousness herself is ME. There is only ONE. Then. What would you BE in the moment? I would be a scribe for consciousness. It is your choices that determined what action you took when.. I created YOU in my image and likeness. LOVE who YOU ARE and DO what YOU LOVE. what is it THAT I AM? What is the BEING that I AM? The body. what is ME. But. but even if it doesn't. Don't settle for anything less.. It is time to grow beyond it. Honor it.. It is YOU. you will find that you are moved to act consistent with whom that YOU ARE. I AM THAT I AM. You know how to do that. We advise that you focus on the oneness and not on the parts. YOU are ME living as YOU through YOU. They are not ME. So. what is your role in all of this. or you can find ways to integrate the parts and return to oneness. it is not what I AM.. Find what you love to BE and BE it. It is your choice. Respect it for operating in your life. For when you do. that is only partially correct. But. You had more of a role to play than that. Stop doing. So. re-member = put the members together again. Stop everything. What next? What would I be next? The standard answer is whom that I AM. Will it ever serve others? Perhaps . that answer 158 . Those who are meant to be served by this expression will indeed find it. It is time to become ONE. God is ME. Your intuition is your primary faculty for knowing ME . you are literally selling your soul.. Follow your bliss to wheresoever it leads. Perhaps it is even correct. and I AM THAT.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 There are many moments in the day when I am not fully present. Don't compromise on this. That you consider it to be consciousness herself is fine. Spirit does not waste effort however. A scribe is somewhat of a passive role .. You know. that is the challenge of my life. Find a way to imbue everything that you ARE and DO with LOVE. You guidance will come from within. I come alive in ways that I am not able to do elsewise. What is left is what YOU ARE. expressing as she would have me express. and your presence and interactions with others will serve them. This is true everyday. To do less than this is to not live up to whom that you are.. And this. As you do so. But. Be open to experiencing who that is. But. YOU too are that as well. You can continue to use your labels to separate . Further. How do I get beyond the boredom? How do I rise to new heights of awareness? Find what you love to do and do it.. It has always been YOU. This expression is what I do. the brain. There is no other from whom all of this springs. There is nothing outside of ME. Separation serves no one. so what. Your directive continues to be to KNOW THYSELF as I created YOU to be. it is YOU. Simply remember. trusting that you will be cared for in the process. taking down what in this case is expressed through the source within. spirit is ME. Nine words conveying a grand truth... you should never do . where do I go to find what I AM? Stop seeking. what is this source within? It is YOU. That is where all guidance comes from. It has served you. not only other than conscious choices as you often indicate. That is what much of this expression has been about . it is the part of consciousness herself that is YOU. Why is that? Why is there such a struggle to stay awake? Why am I so tired much of the time? Here. Why can't I find ways to be this excited about living? Indeed. these are all things that I possess. You have been wise to develop it to the degree that you have... Honor that part of you that made the choices. You can never cease to BE. Remember.. and thereby knowing your SELF. Ever. What is left when you stop everything is what I created YOU to BE. never. But. That is the secret of happiness .

you did. This was not a creation that was done lightly. what could you do with your life if fully engaged on a full time basis? Is that not what you have stated that you desire to do? Then. It is MY JOB to see to that. Nothing! It is that simple. Until then.. In many cases. Though. But. GENERATE! This is all from YOU. it was also an expression from ME through ME. Exactly why. How do I reconcile that. I made you to be responsible. She/He/We generated it all. Appearances are not what matters .. There is no one above the law or below the law. there will be even more before the year is done. decide and do it.. Suffering is the result of the choices that you make.. so.. It is not clear that you are even close to the answer yet. Now. a good majority of which was generated this year. I am still the same.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 is not good enough anymore. clearly something has shifted. I know that while this is true.. But they also originate from consciousness herself.. The answers are always there. So. It is time to be more specific.. We continue to express strangely. at the present pace. This is the expression of the consciousness Wayne. it involves the challenge of YOU discovering what I made YOU to BE. for that is what you are. often even before you realize them as needs.. you have all the time in the world. but you will bear them nonetheless. With free will comes the need to bear the consequences of your choices. or. That is your path. I'm still thinking a word or two ahead of what I am typing. we do have a lot to show for it. It is YOUR JOB to BE whom that I made YOU to BE. You just don't realize it yet. You have as long as it takes. But. I did not create the glasses that you wear . But. that went by quickly. every word of it. There is only ONE. Be ONE with ME.. When I greet another. But. At the same time. consistent with your BEINGNESS. All of your needs are met. in some cases enough to make you blind to the true kingdom that is rightfully yours to experience. And. 159 . truth is. Your view is distorted my children.. But. This is strange in itself because it has not been happening for that long. even for this expression. you don't have to suffer. I AM knows only oneness. Yes. far enough to be able to generate the Beyond Imagination expression. You just don't know it yet. there was a distinction that I made. What is stopping you? You are supported. all too often they are not. You will know what that is when you are being it and doing it respectively. There is no time either . Combined with the musings from the past few years.. There is a distinction that I make . I greet an aspect of my greater SELF. others you do not . your experience of the creation is not the creation.. I AM ALL THAT IS. Some of these you know when the choices are made. we have over 200 single spaced pages of new material. Own it. you are my children made in my image and likeness. There is only ONE. 30 June 2008 Today marks the end of half of the year. For over 15 years. they do not serve you . And. It is YOUR JOB to DO. The answers are there. These are the Musings of a Spiritual Warrior. Why is WHAT YOU MADE ME TO BE not the right answer? It is the RIGHT answer. That is OK. My. I made the world to ensure that you bear your responsibilities.. There can be only ONE. In many respects. I AM is ONE. That is OK.. Realize that if YOU could do all of this on a part time basis . Know that. Some of these are rose-colored. Where there is separation. 34 years of self-discovery have brought you a long way . The expression is still the same. I AM is not. even when it seems to come from consciousness herself or even ME. My laws work perfectly. be still and seek within.. how do we make ONE of what appear to be many. There is nothing outside of ME. this was effectively a realtime communication from spirit through me. It is time to choose what I would BE. I do not know. How can both of these things be true at the same time? There are no others in my world.

it is not fair. Then again. it seems for God as well. But. it all starts with create a better YOU. There is a part of ME that is God / Spirit / Consciousness. No. But. Is there any more to ME than that? My sense is NO. As I wrote that there was a shiver in my right arm and shoulder. I do not ask for your servitude.. The probabilities. kindness. everything in your world is colored by what you have become. but every one of us. I am not here to judge you. These three in ONE are far greater than I am.. I am making choices. often this is exactly what you do.. it seems that may simply be because I chose to look the other way. But. There is no devil. I see it manifest in the world that you experience. No. But. at some level. friendship. She will always be such. That is your choice. Treat others with the respect that you wish to receive. nor all of Spirit. And. these three are all ME. You are not slaves. is that true of this expression as well? The "fact" that it comes forth word by word does not mean that such is how it was created. and so on.. so the seed that I created of you contains all that you will ever grow to be. though. One choice being to remain here doing this... now. You can do this. trusting that spirit was guiding me every step of the way. I refuse to do so any longer. It is never to be the same again. There can only be ONE. You know how to do this. I desire to know where and how that is happening. In fact. equality. though you often treat one another as such. There 160 . it already has. And. What right have I to demand anything? All of my life. what other choices am I making? Where am I choosing what content to bring forth? If this is indeed coming from me. but there can never be other than me. I've been willing to allow things to unfold as they will. tolerance. a blessed being with free will created in the likeness and image of GOD. it is true nonetheless. honor. And. but not entirely there yet. dare to become whom that you truly are. For YOU are the world. created in the image and likeness of GOD. To change the world. We have been doing this for long enough on "other than conscious" levels. And not just me. YOU individually and collectively are the world. The same thing goes for consciousness. Wherever there is separation. there is nothing else. But. How does free will tie into this? What choices am I making in the moment that allow the expression to come forth as it does? Clearly. There can be more of me or less of me. as they are three in ONE. the possibilities were all latent in the creative act. The shiver has expanded across my back into my upper arms and into my neck and back of the head. I am ONENESS. But. However. nor all of Consciousness. dignity . Just as the mighty oak arises from the acorn.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 and clearly they do not serve ME. then I must be making such choices. It is only your perception of linear time that keeps you stuck in the illusion that things are unfolding over time. Do I choose to live my life differently now? In some respects yes. if our heart is divided.. What are we realizing here? That I am the trinity. truthfulness. Spirit is an active part of my life. Hmm . When YOU become something new. how can we truly reflect this image and likeness? Indeed. I'm onto something. I would own what I do. so I am three in ONE. There is a lot that you can do to create a better world. There is no opposite of me. Did all of this come forth in the creative act that spawned me as well? There is something about expression unfolding in the moment that makes this seem wrong somehow.. This is the trinity that I AM. you must not let fear get in your way. in others no. you are not here to judge one another . you must change YOU. I would own who I AM. If our mind is divided. What more could you ask to be? What more could you be? You can only become what I created you to be. not just through me. Though. Indeed. But I am not all of God. desire is not strong enough . So. And that collectively we are the cells of GOD. There can not be three and ME. I am NOT. I demand to know and to know consciously. You probably don't know that. this expression is one of the things that I DO. That works for a lot of things besides respect: love.

That is still a new feeling.. I spent 11. peaceful resistance can be a tough road to follow. Even using those terms. Though. there is a power structure in the current status quo that is not going to like to lose its power. They can only be supported on the coattails of fear. in the end right will win out. it puts a completely different perspective on things to think that I have done this for my eyes only. then. It is for us to meld ourselves into one whole. but. Focus one the oneness. anger.. less friendly. You see war... What do we make war against? It seems that we 161 . from ME.5 years in the Air Force. individually then collectively.. That can only last so long before the situation is righted. Those in power are not delivering as promised. lack.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 is no Satan. It is for us to overcome the separation and find the unity that we are. it matters not how many are right . Yes. less fair than you could be.. as Gandhi and India showed. greed. this can be easier said than done. And. less loving. less nourished. less joyful. I've often asked how special I must be for spirit to express all of this for my eyes only. What does it mean to be a Spiritual Warrior. There is only ME. And. less healthy. they appear to be there precisely because you choose individually and collectively to be less peaceful. enough for me to laugh out loud at myself. Rather. It has always been. in your world. Separation can have its utility. and a mind/heart split. But. And. What more would I express today. Yet. less sharing. and a physical/emotional/mental/spiritual split. This requires moving up the hierarchical structure not down. though I never was involved in any war. After all. And. Wayne is the Spiritual Warrior.. less tolerant. None are greater or lesser in my eyes. such feels right now. When we treat one another as ONE. Maybe not today.. and of consciousness herself. We have a body/mind/soul/spirit split. all are equal. we have to start by making ourself one. This is my expression. Though. And not via violence. But. a new knowingness . Some experience some of the splits in deeper ways than others. intolerance. suffering. all are unique . But. Your world is reaching a point where something has to give. they are far from being such. it is mine. We will be amazed at what we are able to do collectively. even highly so. all are different. it can't help to understand the emergent behavior that comes from synergy. hunger. For us to begin to make our world ONE. hatred. it is one that is growing on me day by day. So be it. contrary to the beliefs of many in power.. that is different than I have chosen to express since I first began doing this nearly 16 years ago. disease. Most of this support comes from spirit. and a conscious/subconscious/ superconscious split . Yes. These are the Musings of Wayne. what we are able to BE collectively. The endless dissecting of things in science is a case in point. we speak of individuals as if they were ONE. You see what you want to see. But. intuitive leaps arise from the presence of spirit. yet. Dan Millman speaks of the Peaceful Warrior. etc . It will always be. it requires a decision as to what to release and to whom.. It comes both through me and from ME. This requires an intuitive leap. No matter what voice the expression takes it is still a musing from Wayne. if it truly is ME doing all of this. Some might consider that to be an oxymoron. Hmm . but someday soon. I express. Might does not make right. But. Some experience more of these splits than others. But. all manner of support is added to our cause. Power structures that do not serve have outlived there utility. It can help to understand certain kinds of things. unfairness. It is that simple.. then it is not spirits responsibility to disseminate it. Yes. I consider myself to be spiritual . no one said it was going to be easy. Though... Yes. just to name a few major ones. the sanctity of the individual is not to be lost in the process. it can be quite amusing at times.. Change what you choose to be and watch your world change with you. less abundant.

And. in the NOW. We have always been ONE. this seems to be a recurring condition for me. But. And. But. But. There is nothing else to BE. You cannot hide from ME. I know who you are. fully trusting in the unfoldment of consciousness through me in the moment. Being is its own justification. That is an interesting way to live one's life . You are all my children. Yes. I realize that your "reality" is different than this and I experience the dramas as you experience them.. BE what you are moved to BE when you are moved to BE it. when indeed they can often be no more than opinion. That seems to be what I am going through now. But. 1 July 2008 On to another month. And opinions. We are ONE. I trust that I will know it when I find it.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 are at war against the illusion of separation. It lies in the intersection of YOU and ME. spirit enfleshed. not every thought. You are ME living life as YOU through YOU. Know that. Yes. Many tend to mistake these as truths. You are all equal in my eyes and in my heart. I love you unconditionally. Love is indeed all you need. no exceptions. I created YOU to be who you are.. that is what I AM. the dramas are not real any more than a TV show or a movie are real. As I've said many times before: do what you are moved to do when you are moved to do it.. I know who you are. what that is appears to change over time as I discover and re-member more of whom that I AM. Though. regardless of how many hold them are still opinions. The act of creation was not a separation. That happens roughly every 30 days. it also has its share of challenges and problems resulting from your individual and collective choices. We focus on the unity and the oneness. Sometimes it seems that you are not responsible . But. But. Though. we don't fight the illusion. you are not able to respond to the situations that you attract in your life. is this correct? "BE what" implies that we are to be something. We will always be ONE. Do this en masse and your world will transform into a brilliant space. they are wrong. You are what I created YOU to BE. should I say again. then the error lies in your perception not mine. How can I know that? Isn't it obvious? How can there be any doubt. When I gave you free will. For. Yes. YOU individually and collectively create the very world that you experience. They are dreams . dead wrong. we focus on the reality. with that came power. The 48:Man in Search of More. It matters not to me what you think. this applies to being as well. indeed. what we speak is the truth. the state where we are ONE. what is this moreness that I seek? I don't really know. "BE it" implies that we can be something that is separate. It was a new birth of something within ME. You create every aspect of it. It is already brilliant. But. Choose love in all that you do and you will be choosing ME.. 162 . If you are not experiencing things in this way. I see only what is true. Some would say that I differentiate between you based on your choices. Or.. what you believe. we need to be careful about what we accept as facts. The truth is the truth whether you believe in it or not. that is defined as it. OK. But. no fine print. "BE when" implies a time other than NOW. Know that. That is the only place that truth exists. we are defined by what we ARE. I can only BE ME. There are 13 lunar months in the year and my salary just happens to be 13. We are not defined by what we DO. Though. And here. I see only what is real. 13:Death = Major Transformation. consciousness expressing in form and through form. Your perception is not mine. but with that also can responsibility for your choices. that is what I AM. There is still much room for beliefs and for so-called facts.. you can choose to turn your focus and attention away from ME. passing images and dialog on the screen of your mind. this is only your perception. Find your truth.000 per lunar month. it truly is. Find your truth in ME. That is the truth. what we are is God incarnate. or even what you do.

But. Rather it is an assessment of where you are as the Race of the I AM compared to where you could be. even when coming forth as God. There has only been Wayne for all of my life to date. But. neither is consciousness "choosing" to express either. it is our choices that allow this expression to come forth. Composer provides a blank page on which to express that can be filled with whatever consciousness would choose to bring forth in the moment. That too is OK. in the NOW. This also leads to a record of the expression that can be shared and that can be returned to whenever I am moved to revisit it. clearly we are not consciously aware of choosing what is being expressed through us. While I would hope that you would choose to allow MY WILL to be expressed through yours. You have not done much to mirror these consciously in your interactions in the world. There is only Wayne. I will not relieve you of these either. The expression is just happening. In fact. But. I remember very little. that it can be difficult to function at times. if so. It is for you to choose HOW you will BE what I created you to BE. I created you to BE something within that field of potentiality. what do I know about this BEING called Wayne? You would think that there would be a lot by now. it does mean that there is an immediacy associated with how I do most things. we are 163 .. But. I was perfectly content to express as a stream of consciousness from source. such choices (or lack thereof) have created much turmoil in your world. I do not demand anything of you. That is OK. That is the only way in which I could create the world. So little. My world is one of promise and potential. I will not make your choices for you. That is OK. Though. There is only Wayne expressing all of this. I know that there is no separation. E-mail is perfectly suited for this .. such is why they are valued. how much have I really found? What does it take to discover. That does not mean that it is a full as it could be. It started just over a month ago. I gather the materials I need in a context to be able to act and make decisions in the moment. But. But.. Consciousness is just being consciousness. She is not subject to some of the limitations that we face in our domain. Though.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 they can move you. does consciousness reap the consequences of her choices in the same way that I reap the consequences of mine? There is a sense that something is wrong with this line of thinking. My laws operate perfectly. Is consciousness something that can choose? Did God create consciousness and give her free will to choose as well? And. to remember whom that we are? It is curious that my memory is so poor. in no way do I demand it. Just noticed that above we said "whatever consciousness would choose". That is part of what makes me unique. there is a dark side that is expressed in your world. Cooperation and interdependence are two key characteristics of the world that I created. through all of my searching. I would have it no other way. Your choices are yours to make. but it has gone way overboard. in fact. That is not meant to be a judgement. Prior to that. or at least what we normally consider as recall of information that we have been exposed to. I still do that. At the same time.. It allows me to do things that others are not able to do in ways that are different than those others use. providing a context and a place to take immediate action. She expresses as us through us. and generating a record of this action that I can return to later should I need to. even deeply at times . But. herself. So far in my life. my way of operating has served me well. it seems to be a perfectly natural thing to do. This expression is like that as well. on an individual or organizational level. But. Then. It is happening through us because we are choosing to participate and allow it to do so. the consequences of those choices are yours to bear as well. How can I be audacious enough to express as if I were God himself? Is it really so audacious? In the moment. Consciousness is part of the trinity of GOD. I switch contexts and move to the next tasks vying for my attention. My life is lived in the moment. it is also a recent development. But.

and allow ME to guide your intuition to find better ways to express. Though I projected this to the few others in my world as well.. that is precisely what I am being NOW and have been being since 1993.. Rather. what is an assessment of utility but a judgement of the elegance and beauty of something? Is that part of what I am here to provide . just as each of you is an expression of ME. what would we BE next? We would BE Wayne.. When you judge. Or is it? I choose what I read. It is as if I am to see Judgement through the eyes of The Empress . 164 . we were our own worst judge and jury. We have made it through one cycle of 41 and are nine years into the W of the second cycle. But. that seems to be as far as it goes. There is utility in providing feedback.. not just certain subsets of you.. It has always been this. embrace it for what it can do for you. enough to have lost count. We have another 14 years before we complete that W at the age of 64 in 2022. If we treat the 1 as a lever arm. Wayne = 23 1 7 5 5. in my observations of license plates I've been moved to notice how far numbers are from 2184 = 888(16). even when Wayne did not know that such was the case. There is a gestalt of energy that is being transformed into the words of this expression. Your social systems are meant to serve YOU. I definitely believed in spirit herself and in the consciousness that expressed through me. I wonder what that means. You need not fear judging or being judged any longer. I can choose to express or not express. Being Wayne is an offering unto the world to be what I was made to be and do what comes naturally from being that. judgement? Not the judgment of man. At least. And. I was. Lately. Is that not what much of the Beyond Imagination material is about . whatever judgment you apply to others returns unto you. And.. there have been many major transformations during that time. Much of that feedback comes from an assessment of utility. It is no longer something to fear. but it needs to be a judgement call. I did not see that there was any judgement day where spirit judged what we had or had not done in any way. Such is the consequence of choosing to judge. You are meant to serve one another. seeing things in this light is helpful. Systems engineers observe how systems function and do things to make them function better. This is not how it is meant to be. Allow ME to see through your eyes. You have no right to pass judgment on one another. I don't know that I believed in a God.The Empress. However. And. On the contrary.. So. and by doing so serve ME. I created you as equals . Better is often a judgment call. Wayne is everpresent in every aspect of this expression. Oh. we have 23 1 17 = 20+3 1 20-3 = Judgement + The Empress Oneness Judgement . To some degree. Here I can help. What energy I tap into is beyond my conscious control. there are likely to be even more in the future. For in the end..2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 not "choosing" the specific words that flow forth either. judging the quality of the infrastructures of society and offering ways to improve them? Is that not what building the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh is all about? Indeed. You do so at your own peril. and all that is offered by that. There is a sense that may fear of judgment is linked to this somehow. what I read influences what gets expressed. Rather. How do I know what source taps into? In this expression. it was always judgment that I feared NOT judgement anyway. this tool is not meant to be used on beings. you make something greater and something lesser. Wayne is not absent. That is an interesting way to put it: "all that is offered by that". you make something right and something wrong. Social systems are expressions. all of you. And. through the eyes of consciousness herself. However. It's embedded in my name. each and every one of you. it is. but the judgement of spirit.

and that is ME.. Many bear their shackles willingly . that would be 4 hours per week. It cannot be real. that means that I am not consciously aware of who and what Wayne is. Just think of what we can do if we had the equivalent of millions of people working on things of importance. but it is not an insurmountable challenge either. that does not stop you from choosing to feel isolated or separated. But. When they are not doing so individually and/or collectively it is time to change them so that they do serve. they do not create your reality. I never impose any burdens on my children. Everything is connected.. you don't seem to be willing to take responsibility to do anything about this. But. That means a political system that serves all of us . Though. There is only ONE. Some of this occurs individually. Yet.. and spiritually. we must demand it of them . But.. sometimes mistaking these for the fruits of liberty. We are ONE. You can only experience separation in the illusion that you create. You are free to remove your shackles at any time. YOU are ME BEING YOU and expressing THROUGH YOU. I don't know who said that. But. Clearly... but it is definitely true in this case. of course. YOU experience BEING YOU. You are more than capable of doing this yourself. It is left for you to discover or re-member this. to make the choice to remove shackles. But. not just those who are affluent enough to make substantial campaign contributions. You do that via the choices that you make.. That means an economic system that provides the means for individuals to exchange services for what they need physically. you must be aware that you have them. Most of your shackles are of your own making. YOU are ME expressing AS YOU THROUGH YOU. via what you choose to BE. For many. we must refuse to accept anything less. If we limit that to our work time. Why? Social structures and institutions are meant to serve you. via the actions that you take. but you have far less limits than you presently choose to believe.. And there. And. you have freedom within the limits I imposed when I created YOU. but some occurs collectively as well. It is through what comes forth that I am able to glimpse aspects of whom that I am. and quite often you experience that as being separate from me. Separation cannot exist.. It has no place in MY world. All of this comes forth from Wayne. it is time to be FREE.. You are not unlimited . That was created by ME. clearly. nothing is separated from that whole. ever. we also must participate and do our part. That is not much to ask. that requires a leap of faith that is beyond what you are willing to make. nonetheless. in the moment that I created YOU. There is no ME and YOU. it is obvious that they are not.. what a grand job you have done. But. your choices only create your experience.. Social structures can do these things. mentally. Everything is ONE whole. such is what this continues to be.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 2 July 2008 So. Beware. However. It is through how we express creatively that we are defined. That is the nature of a stream of consciousness. it is Wayne's stream of consciousness. And. why do you put your faith in the organizational structures of your world? Are they truly serving you? To ME. Organizing that much part time labor will not be easy. so that you can be who I made you to be. There is no I and THOU. that is not the case . It is a matter of choice always. That means an educational system that meets the lifetime learning needs of all of us. I have no other way of knowing this. such is never the case. emotionally. what is to come forth today? We never really know until it happens. no expression captures all of us. Yet. whom that Wayne is. By their works shall ye know them. Nothing exists in isolation . We just have to ensure that we provide people with the 165 . ME being God. But. I have spoken of a tithe of time as being the minimum spiritual commitment of each of us for the betterment of society. ever. But. but it makes the equivalent of millions of person years per year available to serve society in this country alone. In other terms. Everything is interdependent.

In providing service. To do this. But. I have not been moved to change it in all of my adult life. to make it more elegant. In doing so. you have been trained to assess systems to see where they are efficient and effective and where they are not. There is only ONE. And. All that I have experienced. doing what I am moved to do when I am moved to do it. What benefit comes from this? I have developed in a way that no other has developed. I remember a quote from one of the early years of the Beyond Imagination expression. we collectively demand the best from each of us. will it ever be different? Will I ever be close to others? There are no others in your world. particularly powerful for one with such an aversion to judging and being judged. You even consider yourself to be a loner and a hermit. you are passing judgement on the system that you are examining. As a result. That is what I made YOU to do. It is that simple. If that is not what we are doing. And. There is only ONE. there is watching television. there is sleep . we give of whom that we are. There is work. The systems that are of utmost importance are social systems. as Wayne. This is all positive. You are to work on metaphysical systems. there is expression. It has always been your way. which is 34 of 50 years to date. When you make this assessment. Yes. other than at work there is a lack of social interaction. You do that by creating organizations = systems of people to provide services that meet needs elegantly. You have been trained in systems engineering to allow you to think and see in certain ways. This all leads to allowing ME to express more fully within the systems that you create. The days blend into one another. you are ONE balanced by Judgement modulated by 3:The Empress or the Trinity. You are a metaphysical systems engineer. No. though there is still some way to go. How close am I to being what YOU created ME to BE? Closer than you have realized. As a systems engineer. But. that is what you came to do. This is not an endeavor to just check a box to say that you put in your four hours each week. No. That is what results in the maximum overall service. day after day during the work week. You know that. so YOU ARE. Something about belonging to the Legion of Lightworkers. It is one reason that your memory works in the way that it does. was necessary to get me to where I am at this moment. But also. Further..... your judgement offers suggestions to improve the functioning of the system. As you discovered yesterday.. starting with individuals. you don't have to BE these things. You work to maximize the output that results from the application of resources. Is that by choice or by design? Is that being whom that I AM? Am I even qualified to answer that? Do I really know? The bottom line is that it is what it is. It should not be treated as work or as a chore that has to be done.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 opportunities to use their greatest talents in the services that they do provide. the interaction is limited. You can choose to express differently.. even at work. And. all that I have expressed. this is true for everyone. you must observe and judge that output and weigh it against what you know could be from your intuition and vision. you have felt alone a lot. fully and completely. but growing to organizations of any size. I still spend the vast majority of my time alone. we are not serving. this tithe of time should be FUN. but to apply it to your spiritual tasks involving the judgement of social systems and the creation of foundations for a new world. But judgment is not the same as judgement. something to 166 . That is a powerful statement of whom that you are . And. Notice that in all of this. Of course. there is reading while listening to the radio.. the intent of the training has not been to apply it in your work . So. And I will get there by continuing to take one step at a time. But. as you consider yourself to BE. we are all unique. you look for and utilize emergent synergistic behavior that arises in social systems. You have always known that. This is your way.

my only actions to help remove the blockages are via this expression. I am The Hermit and I am a Spiritual Warrior. I have no desire to be anything else. And. Then why must there always be more? Why am I never satisfied with what has been done? Because there is so much more to do. Can I continue to live in the manner that I have for another five years? Can I stay focused and present. We are the forces of Light. this leaves a bad taste in my mouth. that may just be a perception on my part. still separated from others.. I'm butchering this. Those two things define how I see myself. And. I seem to be musing to myself. still the Hermit.. I also know that I have choices to make. there is always more that remains unexpressed. So. you are indeed a spiritual warrior. I am. That does not seem to be enough.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 the effect that those of our order work alone. The world is in such a state right now. It seems that my present circumstances don't afford me the luxury of being all that I can be. We determine where it flows easily and where it is blocked and do what we can to help remove the blockages. doing what I am moved to do when I am moved to do it? The answer is YES. Interesting. And the next five years are the height of that time. The earth is still in such a state . But WHY? Am I not doing my best? Am I not expressing in the grandest way that I can in the moment? Surely. There is some reason that I am a Hermit. It is better to find the precise passage: We accept you as one of our Legion. Life unfolds perfectly in each moment. Our sole aim is to allow spirit to be more fully enfleshed wherever we can. Right now. in the Spiritual Warrior role. still working alone. and you are now one among us. I trust YOU. The statement that "I come from an order that is dedicated to helping systems through major or life threatening transitions" rings true to me. I am. if such be THY WILL. YOU gave 167 . Yes. This is a great honor that we bestow upon you. still focused on spirit and how it expresses. But. Earth is now in such a state of transition. areas where I am wasting my talents or my time. it is one that you clearly deserve through your steadfast devotion to the Way of Light. I demand more of myself. While I have observed where spirit flows easily and where it is blocked. I would be what YOU made ME to BE. observing where spirit flows smoothly and where it does not.. I know that I am exactly where I need to be always. We operate with a degree of separation between us and those that we assist. perhaps even worse off than it was then. I am performing both roles quite well. Those of us of the order work alone. what is it that I truly want? I want to be whom that I AM. It seems that it still applies today. or to do anything else. As abundant as spirit is in coming forth here. Because I can see areas in my own life that are less than elegant . And. Indeed. Our focus is on the level of spirit that is manifest in a system. It is right on.. Though. This is the area where there is never enough. here I am. But. I wrote that over 14 years ago. Though. I come from an order that is dedicated to helping systems through major or life threatening transitions.

that is. not how I AM. is exactly what needs to come forth. Spirit. But. spiritual timing is always the right timing. at least. Hmm . You are exactly where you need to be when you need to be there. There is still a strong sense that it is not ME that is doing all of this. the scribe. the words come from source. 3 July 2008 This makes the fifth musing for the week since we got one in on Sunday. the Sustainer.. and the Destroyer . do I have faith in myself. unless I am God. the Creator. it is not about being greater than or less than. would have been much more difficult to do.. the Son. you supply it when I need it. It is curious that the symbol for community would be the six-pointed star. But. YOU. I don't begin to believe that I am consciously doing the moving. And. Needs are always fulfilled. watching all of this come forth including the process by which it is coming forth. It is simply about BEING. That would connotate a less than or greater than relationship which does not exist. I do as I am moved to do.. you watch these words being formed.. What you want is a 168 . Consciousness. YOU do all of that and more. We are all gods. It is interesting that God is not part of that trinity . But. source is you. That does not happen very often these days. Yes.. in some way. the creator. Will that always be the case? I don't know. where is the creator in all of this. in YOU expressing as ME through ME? I don't believe that I have ever asked that before. I'm sure there are others as well.. We are not the same . I have always known source to be within me. Yet. I already do it for 8-10 hours per week here in this very expression.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 me FREE WILL. always. we muse when we can and we trust that whatever comes forth is enough .. What am I supposed to take from all of this? How do I experience the creator aspect of myself? The answer is obvious. But. the creators of our reality. the vast majority of my reality is created on other than conscious levels as well. but. it is not part of ME either. But. Yes. just as your mind is you. YOU. I AM what I call source. That will change over time as you change. we are ONE. As such. There is something important about experiencing all aspects of the trinity . at the same time I know that it is ME. and the observer. timing is everything. and the Holy Ghost. you give birth to them.. Spirit ensures that such is the case.. or... now that is an interesting twist. the Star of David formed by two triangles. And. you create them .. I am being aware of being the doer. Had you been born even two decades earlier. we are not made of the same stuff.. Yes. two trinities interlocking. There is only ONE. Even the computer that you use is an extension of you. Nor. most of us are not aware of how to do this consciously.. I still see spirit or consciousness as greater than ME. YOU know exactly what I need. But. you could say that means that I have FAITH.. But. you actually form them... In this respect. I can be only ONE.. often even before I know that I need it. that doesn't change the "fact" that we experience being an instrument of something greater than our self when engaged in this expression. why would I even think to do that. That includes the ability to choose to do other than THY WILL. I'm more aware than most .. but somehow I sense not. We know this. That is as much of the creation as you are permitted to perceive at this moment. I seem to be focused on the later two with a primary focus on being the observer of it all. much that you have done would not have been possible . the doer. Yet.. There are other trinities . Though. The separation between me and source is only an artifact of how I think . always. just as your fingers are you. But. But. it is not separate from ME. Oh well.. I AM consciousness expressing as ME and through ME. the Father.. and the observer. Yes. are we equals. just as your eyes are you. The creator is in the NOW when the words are forming in your mind before you are moved to type them. and ME are ONE.

your world. different from everyone else. This is an awesome creation . doing service with love is the highest art of all. Every cell has a purpose. not lesser nor greater than anyone else. I have found that it is best to keep wants in check. Wow! This is opening up a whole new realm in which to apply services. that uses capabilities that you love to use. to whom that we were created to be. These may or may not be fulfilled. emotional.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 different story entirely. And. mental. your relationships with others.. Everything is connected in the web of life. so do our needs. As we grow in spirit . spiritual needs are the easiest needs to be met by spirit. I created you to be equals.. be honest when you answer. what "need" am I filling? Is there a spiritual need for the Beyond Imagination expression to come forth as it does. You have a whole world in which to create and experience things that go far beyond your wildest imaginings.. Coupled with the idea that God provides for our needs often even before we are aware of the need. The universe is very creative. If these are aligned with needs. But. And. no exceptions. She has a wisdom that is far beyond yours. But. be careful not to specify the manner in which your wants are met. In doing so. Think in grand terms. as a result of the collective that is YOU. indeed there are physical. and on many scales. your reality. Also. has a function to perform.. Life is not simply about meeting needs. Life is a cooperative effort. Everything is interdependent. They involve sharing of whom that we are. they will be fulfilled. They involve opening to whom that we can be. They involve time and the exchange of energy. Everything. you have the free will to apply yourself in service in manners that facilitate getting both your needs and wants met. Don't you see how special and wonderful you are. That doesn't mean that you can't want things or experiences that you don't necessarily need. they cost nothing. Your wants are statements that you make about your worth. It is not necessarily about reaching individuals. So. Just look at how your body is organized. In either event.. Here. Trust her to meet whatever is needed in an elegant way. and so on. you already know this. If not. they may be fulfilled. find others to fill in whatever skills are needed to augment your own. There are many services that can be provided. How do you know if your wants are truly needs? Ask some tough questions. but not in the sense of getting more of the same or better of the same. Hmm . Though. These exist on not only individual levels but on collective levels as well. I also created you to be unique. And.. every cell is given exactly what it needs to live and to grow . it is about reaching the collective. But. each and every one of you. How do we do that except through individuals? The organization of the human body did not happen through individual cells doing anything except being themselves and doing what they were moved to do by "inner sources". they always come with consequences. Does getting what you want serve not only yourself but others? What statements do your wants make about society and the world? Does fulfilling your want make you better than others in some way? Remember. and spiritual needs. It helps if the filling of the need involves providing a service that uses your greatest gifts and talents . this sheds a whole new light on what the Beyond Imagination expression is all about. Those particular needs grow less and are replaced by whole new realms of spiritual needs. truly awesome. Don't settle for less than you can be. And.. Your wants are your choices put into action. you are to be unlimited. But. Does getting what you want serve others or help you to serve others better? These are the kinds of questions you should be asking.. you serve as a vehicle for spirit to work as you through you. One of the secrets to success is to find a need and fill it. I haven't thought in those terms before.to be what it was created to be. Yes. be careful not to demand that your wants be met. And. That is exactly what I have been doing for going on 16 years. Consciousness has learned from this endeavor 169 . For the most part.

They have been expressed over the years by a number of people. I am silent the vast majority of the time. We are ONE. This part is transitory. albeit slowly. She can NOW apply that anywhere and everywhere simultaneously. I only know that I was able to hear a voice in my head and translate that into keystrokes that allowed text to appear on a screen. That does not necessarily mean serving individuals in a way that they will notice and recognize. Happy. When I begin to speak. she knows what resulted from every move. with every step I take . We can only hope. It is between the known and the unknowable. unbeknownst to those who are served. That would require desiring something to be. The world has its share of challenges and problems. Yet.. It is mine just as much as the voice that I speak through my throat. I live on the edge of the unknown realm of consciousness . Yes. some of them have been expressed here in this expression. I don't know when I begin a sentence how I am going to end it. do it in a way that serves others. I was going to say everyone. In fact. The unfoldment of spirit is truly perfect. But. trying to make more of what is unknown known. the process is automatic. Clearly it is not.. I have taken another step. the part of the unknown that is not unknowable can become known. But. guiding me through this particular path step by step or word by word in this case.. With every word. Besides. Challenges and problems are also opportunities. it is unfolding perfectly nonetheless. it doesn't take much to make a difference in someone's life. I don't know how I put that voice in my head or how I made it speak. ever. the unknown. something says that the voice is indeed mine. And. we are omniscient. I sense that nearly everyone does not know these things. I don't know how I think or where my thoughts come from. But. that is not quite right. I was going to say "time on the planet" but something didn't seem right about that. I have given consciousness a voice. And. But.. That is one hell of an endeavor. there was the hope that someone might know and be able to share what they know with the rest of us. The process is magical. when in fact we are ONE.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 every step of the way .. 170 . Similarly. I would offer that this has been a lot.. With every word. she learns ever more. what do I know? The few page counters at the Beyond Imagination site continue to increase. As a spiritual warrior. and the unknowable. Others work to make what is unmanifest manifest. She knows exactly what it took to "move" me in this way. the is a lot that I do not know. Further. And. But. Actually. but there was room for doubt . the unknowable is a subset of the unknown. Service often occurs behind the scenes.. It can never be anything other than perfect. and Peaceful. who knows where this will lead before my time in this existence is done. When you think about it. But that is not my way.. Those foundations are ideals that are presently both unknown and unmanifest. And. And. We are probably approaching 5 million words expressed in a stream of consciousness fashion. And. And. That does not mean that it is all Light.. As ONE. Because it doesn't seem to be serving individuals other than me as far as I know. I have no clue as to how I did it. the final one of these. Yet.. Though. It presupposes that we are many... And.. Perhaps this very expression is of that nature. at least everything that can be known. the only thing that is such for me is the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express. I don't even know for certain that I did these things. Further. There is still the sense that there is the known. we know everything . Some of the ideals are known. I don't know how that works either. we are most in touch with the spirit within.. I don't know what is going to come next. Find what you love to do and do it . where we are creative. that way of thinking is flawed. what spirit has learned through me comes into play as well. Hmm . does being expressed truly mean that they are known. I did it all. There is no effort wasted. What am I moved to express next? This is definitely where I am my most creative.

Trust ME.. Choosing. If we want to experience something different. It does not matter what your will is. Again. Your happiness is tied to how real you are in your interactions with others. Doing the same things in the same way generally yield the same results. BE OPEN. But. YOU deserve your trust. we know all that any of us know. the whole is there even before the parts are created. Yes.. This is a desirable property that is the heart of creative expression. But. But. That will be a new expression for you. I meant for you to use it. your will is MY WILL expressed through you. As ONE. It can come from anywhere. Be open to advice. But do it anyway. something happens.. You've been doing this all of your life.... It is time for that to change. You have chosen to avoid interactions with others. That can be anything you choose. realize that. Demonstrate that in what you do and how you do it. if you focus your choosing on what you are being. You can choose what you do. for that to change. I am open to allowing for the possibility that things may not be as they appear to be. is that vision really known. it is for you to choose. but it is better to choose what you want to be.. Everything comes from the being. But. Actually. One of the properties of most complex systems is their unpredictability. we must choose to be different and out of that choice see what we are moved to do in what ways. What have you to lose. though millions of people have heard that vision multiple times over the years . we choose again and again and again until we reach some place or some state that we want to be. What many of you fail to realize is that you attract to you the very things and situations that you experience. What does it really mean to know something? Does the fact that I can speak the words mean that I know of what I am speaking? Does the fact that I can express in this manner mean that I know of what I am expressing? Perhaps but perhaps not. no wonder you haven't been happy for the most part. If you knew what was going to come next all of the time. you manage it. It will indeed be right. by definition means to impose your will on the situation at hand. In particular. Doing is secondary or even tertiary.. But. Realize that NOW. That does not mean that all avenues of exploration succeed. It is too important to waste any time on this. and fear is false. that in and of itself is good advice . it will indeed be true. the situation no longer controls you . Then why do we need the parts at all? Because that is how complex systems are created. Part of how you manage situations is by determining what they mean to you. Trust YOU. Collectively. You always have.. It will not steer you wrong. It is time for you to be real . Indeed. But. Failures help to temper you.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 John Lennon in his song Imagine offers a vision of a better world. you can keep your failures to a minimum by heeding some of the advice you are given. I gave you free will. That is the key ... You create "reality" by assigning meaning to things and to situations. not real. mainly on other than conscious levels. We especially implore YOU to do this because you have been reluctant to impose your will on anything. Choose again.. what would be the fun in that? No. Choose again. Choose again. Meaning always depends on what and how you are being in the moment. be open to allowing the energies of spirit to flow forth through you. You will be guided if you listen to the source within. But. Your will is MY WILL expressed through you. If that doesn't get us to what we want. ever. there is nothing wrong with failures so long as we view them as opportunities to learn and we try to avoid repeating the same failures. There is nothing to fear except fear itself . you have to be different. choose again. and then some. Expressing for 171 . Synergy sets in to create something greater than any of the parts exhibit. it is YOU that must do the choosing. the unknown and the unknowable have their places in the scheme of things. That does not mean that you will not fail at times. real with yourself and with others. Being is primary. Actually. Choose wisely if you can.

if I can even be considered sane. or is it a role that I am choosing to play? And. But. I would be far more happy than I am. Wow. other than conscious elements are involved in ALL choices. This expression is where I can bring forth my creative best . But.. The days just pass by one after the other. There is a natural hierarchy.. how long is the choice in effect . if you have not given anything of yourself to the relationship. You will be amazed at whom that you are. Why have I not seen this before? Graduation day. Oh well.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 you is doing while being. in the life that God lives as me through me. Yet. How many are willing to give their life to spirit in this way? How many give a tithe of their time in such endeavors. Unfortunately. I choose to be what YOU created ME to BE. Here you are open and real. If this were it. You are all mirrors for one another. there is little that can be mirrored back to you. But. Is that avoiding the question? I think not. But. Yet that is what I choose to do week after week. it seems that no one else in the world really sees this side of me. And. This very expression is one of those areas. Though.. But.. Actually. happiness. We are ONE interdependent whole perceiving our SELF as a complex system of systems composed of parts. It is curious that I write this less than five hours before Independence Day. to impose my will in my life. I trust that YOU will reveal to ME what that is as I need to know it and BE it. Clearly... with the same basic rules operating at the various levels of the hierarchy. I enjoy every minute of it. here we are explaining exactly what it means to be independent . it is also so simple. Curious indeed.. I choose to be that even if I don't know exactly what it is. Further. Clearly. This is getting deep. Only the nature of choices and responsibility for those choices change at the different levels. that is a choice that I 172 . I'll have to do something about that. What would I choose to be NOW? The immediate answer is I choose to be Wayne . I only desire that you see others as I see all of you . in their own right. It is time to open your eyes and remove the blinders. I am comfortable with their being areas of my life that I know little about. These musings are the only things that keep me sane. The Independence Day holiday and weekend were relatively uneventful. I like where all of this is going but it is close to time to bidding a fond good evening. such is indeed the question of the moment. when you think about it . is it who I am. this is where I shine.. So. when am I free to choose again so that I can be the grandest being of which I am capable of becoming. Choices and consequences go hand in hand at all levels. Consciousness does indeed work in mysterious ways. That is. How do I know? In one word.. being independent at one level does not mean that we are not interdependent at other levels. And. day in and day out. it is not the same when it is done alone. It seems that such is what is upon us. 6 July 2008 Musing on Sunday again. It is the result of choices that I have made and continue to make.. Further. such indeed seems to accurately describe who I am. One such choice is to be a hermit. even what the choices are made on other than conscious levels. as I made all of you. much less two tithes.. I still can't get over the fact that this came through as a prelude to Independence Day. It is when you are with others that you see yourself in the mirror. One of the things that I have chosen to be is the one through whom this expression comes forth. You only see what you want to see however.. what would I be instead or in addition to what I have chosen to be? I'm not used to thinking in those terms. I have to believe that such is at least in part my own doing. You will find that others are amazing as well. this is not it. if that later.

or. But. Is that where much of this comes from. Perhaps. And. There is a sense that I am still in training for what I am to BE then. and the winged lion. For the most part.. to some degree... any changes will be directly attributable to the choices that I make .. bringing the light of my wisdom down from the high mountains. I have found God again . One possibility is to break down 9 into the trinity of 3 = the trinity of 3:The Empress. all of this is tied together. Though. Interesting. the female. I came up with whole new ways of interpreting things. what else would I be? Clearly. the Hermit tarot card does not indicate how the wisdom is to be shared. Yet. So. But. Just do it! Just BE what you choose to BE. less than four years from now. Everything in my life has been an elaborate education to bring me to this very state where I can serve consciousness herself in this manner. I found ME as well. Interesting. As such. Somehow. This can only be achieved when we experience the trinity in our lives. I don't remember what the specific levels were . My 55th year takes us to 4/8/2013. God created ME to serve.. But. at the same time. It is time for this to change. Interesting. at least during the work week. Wayne. it is coming from me. she can get me there again . Consciousness. the Empress is also pregnant with possibilities. For me.. as of the past month or two. I have chosen to be the Hermit.. I am successful. I feel perfectly comfortable to do as consciousness moves me to do..2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 continue to make nearly every day.. The Mayan Calendar shows a major transformation in 2013 just prior to that. am creating all of this. alarmingly so. the only way to change things is by making different choices in the present. The Empress is a grand card in the tarot representing abundance on many levels . It is not only coming through me. For the entire duration. many years ago I chose the nickname "lion". all three are active in my life. That is no longer the case. Spirit and Consciousness have been there for quite some time.. it is curious that my 55th year begins on my second Easter birthday .. particularly what I choose to BE. now. this is how we have been expressing all along. we have the first step beyond duality. What you are moved to do will reflect what you choose to be. My two hour drive to and from Redondo Beach where I stay during the work week has become a game of sorts. The next card in the tarot is 10:The Wheel of Fortune. I don't think in terms of serving God. how do I create such a position? Just do it! That is the key. I focus on the license plates that I encounter and try to find spiritual meaning. It seems that I have allowed them to limit me unnecessarily. as I do that. If she could get me there once. The drive home last Thursday was particularly noteworthy. In doing so. There is no sense that the tarot cards need to be followed in order. I allow spirit to express through me as she will... it is incomplete. Serving consciousness is a different matter. And. The creator was missing in my life. Here. And. I know that I. It will be interesting to see what changes as a result of this realization.. the trinity is God. It seems that it is time to move beyond my Hermit ways. perhaps he found ME. Here. 22:Master Builder. God was missing. That is simply how 173 . but not to serve him. 33:Master Teacher . At times. One of the things I remember was being able to carry 888 to 8 levels. Another possibility is to take the step from 41:Wayne to 42:Two of Cups = Couple with Winged Lion above the caduceus above them. The symbology is one who has the power to interpret knowledge from other worlds. what would I choose to be next. we can choose to do it more consciously. Can we jump that up a notch? Can we move to the trinity in the 42 card? There is the male. Don't wait to be asked. or at least an important aspect of ME. Spirit. Though. these total 55. But. but I remember the feeling that I was in the process of making a grand discovery and that consciousness herself bore witness to what I was able to realize. This is followed by 11:Justice = The Master. I don't know what kind of Master that represents. I would be a Philosopher King in the spirit of Plato's Republic. if such is indeed necessary.

. Wayne is the Male. For 9. But. some things you simply have to do for yourself. This is 88 + 47:ASLAN exalted.. Appropriate for one who has felt such a distaste for judgment. But this is also 921 in reverse = The Hermit:The World = the hermit "to" oneness. the solidity of the three equal parts is recognized . So. we have an adjustment that creates three equal parts in the trinity. It has been embedded in The Hermit all along. Stop. This is one of them. It is not that the hermit is lost . Interesting. It is not meant to result in a punishment. it is not for ME to tell you what that is. There are many trinities. You don't acknowledge others in your world anyway. Wayne is 0:41(88). It is for you to discover it on your own. I would be what I AM.. And. But. what I AM is a trinity of BEING. Adding all of these yields 6 + 9 + 18 = 33:The Master Teacher = the trinity of 11:Justice. You have been waiting for others to give you the mantle of authority to do what you believe to be your job. Further.. 129 = 88 + 41:Wayne Exalted. Not that I won't help and provide some guidance. each part in this case being 3:The Empress. That leaves Consciousness as 0:88 = 1:00(88) for a total of 3:00(88) = The Empress. The sense in interpreting all of this was that there was a recent transition from the 2:00(88):The High Priestess cycle to the 3:00(88):The Empress Cycle.. Does not justice involve passing judgement on others and the world.. 174 . if the steps are in years. Just start counting by threes: 1 + 1 + 1 = The trinity of The Magician 2 + 2 + 2 = The trinity of The High Priestess 3 + 3 + 3 = The trinity of The Empress 4 + 4 + 4 = The trinity of The Emperor 5 + 5 + 5 = The trinity of The Hierophant 6 + 6 + 6 = The trinity of The Lovers 7 + 7 + 7 = The trinity of The Charioteer 8 + 8 + 8 = The trinity of Strength 9 + 9 + 9 = The trinity of The Hermit 3 = The Empress 6 = The Lovers 9 = The Hermit 12 = The Hanged Man 15 = The Devil 18 = The Moon 21 = The World 24 = Queen of Wands 27 = Ace of Wands The trinity of The Empress is what I have chosen to manifest next. that seems to be the key.. what does it mean to manifest a trinity? How do we reform 9:The Hermit into 3 + 3 + 3? One of the numbers that came up on the journey home on Thursday was 129 = oneness "to" the hermit. the 9 is still there as the whole. that would be three threes. what is justice? It is an evaluation and a balancing .2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 the process works. But. I have no idea what was happening in those years. righting something that is out of balance. ASLAN is already exalted as the 1:47(88). Hmm . But. ASLAN is the lion. The first manifestation of oneness is the perfect form of the equilateral triangle. Be the trinity that you are. I just didn't see it... Hmm . I also relate to being the trinity of The High Priestess and the trinity of The Lovers. that would have put The High Priestess cycle beginning in 1920 and The Magician Cycle beginning in 1832. 135 also came up prominently in my journey home on Thursday.. It especially does not stop you from being what I made you to BE. Why should they acknowledge you? Yet. Adding the two together = 88 + 88 + 88 = 3:00(88) = The Empress. that should not stop you from being whatever you choose to be. but rather a return to harmony and wholeness. Consciousness is the Female. if I own ASLAN as the creator part of myself.

Spirit works exclusively from needs. building the infrastructures that allow this social contract to be established between and among us. We will insist on it. So. with free will. Nothing could be simpler to state but harder to implement. we are not simply talking about basic survival. that such are the only tools that we have. mentally. So.. Wants are things that you desire but that you can live without.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 7 July 2008 Another day. then what distinguishes a need from a want? A need is something that you need to have to survive physically. Though. for many things limited variation is sufficient to address the needs of many. Another option is to teach them enough of whom that they are. Such lines exist in each of the four dimensions of being. everything. unlike in your economic system. but do I really believe that? About everything in my life? Even those things that I seem to have little to no control over. One thing that we can do is show them more choices physically. or spiritually. Customizing everything is not an option. Note that this is a social contract. How do we embrace this collective responsibility? This is a spiritual responsibility primarily. Further. It is between the members of a society. if indeed this is in the best interest of the society. it will indeed happen. As a result. so there must be some reason that I am in my present job. it simply wouldn't happen. it takes into account the fact that we are all different. that they can go within and choose for themselves what they need. How do we know what needs each individual has? Here. we can choose to exceed our needs. Rather. We are literally beyond all such measures. We are so used to telling people what they need via advertising that it will be difficult to back off from this to discover what people actually need.. implement it we shall. we need to 175 . for we must.. In return. it will be more of a challenge. Though. to each in accord with their needs. Everything is necessary.. Yet. and spiritually and employ counselors to help in determining what people actually need. Hmm . Too bad they are not all like that. Everything in my life happens for a reason . these "lines" are not the same for everyone. but it has economic and social components as well.. primarily we work from needs. It is far too expensive in terms of resource utilization.. You have in your economic system a phrase "below the poverty line". it is a contract . emotionally. When we say "survive". But.. But. emotionally. We create our own reality.. And. But. But. mentally. what would come forth this fine evening? It was a busy day . about everything . the society provides the goods/services/experiences that the individual needs. we are not here to simply address the needs of many.. that doesn't mean that science cannot utilize such things in measuring the collective. We have stated many times before that what is demanded is a social contract: From each in accord with their abilities. We are here collectively to address the needs of all of us. This may take awhile however. This is what the new age is all about. I say that. what we each "need" is different.. How do we know what abilities each individual has? We have to do what it takes to measure them and develop them. We may have to grow such counselors to provide this service. I didn't have to struggle to stay awake even for a moment. It seems. I'm here. There are no means or median or standard deviations that apply to us as spiritual beings. That should not be a surprise to you. For one thing. This allows the individual to then apply these talents to serve others in society. no exceptions. Though. If it weren't necessary. The individual provides services in accord with his/her abilities. another musing. Indeed. Perhaps they would be if I were doing what I loved on a full time basis. That does not mean that some are greater or lesser than others. with conditions imposed on both the individual and the society.

there is talk that in a year or two the present job that I occupy may go away. What does it take to convince people that a social contract is not only in their own best interest. But. Actually.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 expect more from the services that are provided by society. I really need to find a way to follow my bliss . you were created equal in the image and likeness of ME.. it takes a commitment of a group. There is no free lunch. you are all equally special in my eyes. It is not the world of our dreams.. but not for much longer. That is only 176 . to be passionate about life on a regular basis for what might be the first time in my life with the notable exception of most of 1993 when I was in the midst of going Beyond Mind and 2002-2003 when the musings when consuming nearly 3 hours per day every day. It simply is what it is. There is nothing about the social contract that makes people the same. Two represents duality. I have an income that is close to guaranteed. Further. I did not make them that way. That is OK for NOW. I would make it at least 6 hours per day for five days per week. more so than you know. But. Three is the first closed form in geometry. is this what I need to have in my life? If it were. free to choose as you will. These could only be approximated in duality. Plato's Republic. that is not enough. The sense is that the trinity allows for the birth of ideals. Though. It is something that must be freely chosen. It goes hand in hand with your free will. It seems certain that I will not be working here in any capacity past 2013. In the process. I have no real experience with finding a different job in my present company .. But. there are many of you who profess to be special . but I sense that it is far smaller than many might think. more special than others. There are no greater and no lesser. I would have it no other way. I'm at 2 hours per day five days per week now. I don't know how big the group needs to be. Indeed. I made you equal to one another.. There are no favorites in my eyes. is that enough to make it so? Something about the saying "a bird in the hand is worth two in the bush" comes to mind. it would be manifest. But.. though I came close once to accepting something that I might have regretted. It doesn't seem that we collectively ever got close to an ideal society. That includes expecting more from what we are able to provide to society. is there not an element of what do I choose involved? Unfortunately. But. It takes a commitment on a major scale. Yes. That would be roughly 30. It is not resulting in a world that meets our collective expectations. Could I do that day after day. People are not the same. and Thomas Moore's Utopia come to mind along with my own Beyond Imagination. I was promoted so things worked out well overall..000 words per week or roughly the equivalent of a book each month. Though. in what capacity? It seems that we are transitioning from a 2:The High Priestess expression to a 3:The Empress expression. Interesting. Do I have the right to make such a judgment? If so. They never will be. Making them so takes another step. While it may not be OK.. It is not getting us where we need to be. Three represents trinity.. you will still reap the consequences of your choices. Though. Though. At present. Regardless of that. if one is to reap the benefits of society. The status quo is not good enough. social contract or not. in what ways is it not OK? OK seems to be a value judgment that I am placing on what is happening in the world. it is perfect nonetheless. It is not the world as we can imagine it to be. neither would you. but in the best interest of society as well? This is not something that can be forced. You are all precious and unique . You simply are what I made you to be. year after year for the rest of my life? I believe so. That hasn't stopped some from dreaming of them. it is not OK for NOW either. I would love the opportunity to try. But. But. represented by the triangle. That is spiritual law. it is what I would love to do. perfect and complete in your own right. week after week. Then. then one must abide by the social contract. I do not see being able to make such a choice unconditionally.

it is curious that I would notice it one month in advance. I realized that this very expression is compensation. There is no time to lose. But. But. So. except to be able to apply all that she has taught me in service to the world? That is what I ask for NOW. That makes it the only one that I will see in my lifetime. OK. but the money hasn't followed from what I have done.. it is right in every way. There is no time to wait. as always. the answer to when is always NOW. Be whom that you are. change is good. Actually. Be Happy NOW. This is clearly work that applies my greatest abilities in service to all of society. And. I am ever surprised at what flows forth.. I can't get over that 48:The Man in Search of More feeling. Actually. it will be something that I choose to be. Where do I go to establish the social contract with society? How does the individual serve the collective? How is the return condition of the social contract paid by society? Can there be a social contract established even before the individual members decide to participate? Interesting questions. But. that is OK .. And. What more could I ask for. in a situation in which I consider myself stuck? How do I go about finding my next job? Will I even need to have a job? I don't consider the work that I do in expressing here a "job" in any way. But. at some point we have to grow up and BE what we are meant to BE. to be used elegantly to serve the world? I think not.. it is spiritual work. not less worthy than other work. Marsha Sinetar said that. We have lived our life by default long enough... If I were doing this for selfish reasons. 888 is such an important number for me . I do it willingly and freely. not default. But. at least every century. This expression is like that. they seem correct. Create Well NOW. why had I not seen this was coming sooner. what keeps me here. it seems that it should be NOW. Why does it need to be free? Yes. Big time... it is up to us to develop the skills to use the tool 177 . So. Why has it taken so long? Perhaps I am not doing enough. We have been given free will for a reason. Not that allowing spirit to express in your life is wrong in anyway. Do what you love and the money will follow . But. I would chose to express every word over again. A lot can happen in a month. Exactly 1 month from 08/08/08. I can see why it would not be something that I need. as with all tools. We can only be that through choice.. consciousness herself. That is the first time we have expressed it in those terms. I need to be all that I am capable of BEING. But. But. something is still missing. But. and freely. it seems that where there is a will there is a way as the saying goes. and knowing what I know. How do a find a job more suited to whom that I am that compensates me for what I am truly worth? As I said that. There is something special about that. even dramatic change at times.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 five years away. I would have though by now that the Beyond Imagination expression would have had more payback than it has. spiritually. especially with the way the expression has been changing of late. Also. That is what I choose for myself and for the world NOW. it seems that I need to be working full time on the foundations for a new world long before then. Though I have more words expressed than many read in their post school lifetime. I just don't know exactly what that is yet. It has moved me deeply... I would be something new and different.. I've been doing that for over 15 years. Further. 8 July 2008 Interesting. the only 888 day for quite some time . Is that so much to ask for . I need to be doing those things in line with being that. Oh well. how do I find ways to be compensated for the work that I do here. that makes it even more worthy. I need to be whom that I AM. Interesting . It is a personalized education brought to me from the source within. it is not important. Do as you are moved to do by what you are being. It is a tool to be used in designing and living our life. the only real question is when. But.

Many are not aware of the responsibility that comes with choices. All choices have consequences. this is not just an 888 day. Take this expression for example. Asking new questions is a sure sign that we are ready to experience something new. though many try to rationalize what they do. another signature number for me. attitude covers everything that you see. So. And. what life is all about. What is the point in that? Life is about living. This is indeed a good thing. Far more than logic comes into play here. 8 August 2008 is thus 8 17/8 2008. month after month. And. This comes across as the 888 triangle with 200 in the middle. and I love what I am expressing. why not begin each day with a positive attitude.. sometimes bad. And. However.. why not make that impact the best that it can be? What next? What would I BE next? How would I BE different than I am NOW? Am I truly being all that I can BE? I only know that I am expressing a lot . what we choose is infectious. that proclaim to the world whom that we are. Most of the time there are far too many variables for us to make conscious choices . It impacts all those whom we touch. it happens to be one of the Fridays that I have off next month. The state that I am in when I express is quite similar from one day to the next.. But. Living is about having new experiences. And. there should be something new in how we are experiencing it each time. Making choices is what it is all about . year after year. Clearly. In fact. is that enough? Do I also love what I am BEING? I don't think that I have ever asked that question before. it is a particular 888 day. with an attitude of gratitude. we create the very world that we experience ... Yes. That is not asking for much. I don't do that often enough. this is not one of the things that we are taught in school. try though we might. adding 200 yields 2384 = Wayne: The Lovers Exalted. However. It doesn't matter what we believe. That is good. We need to make choices that shake up the status quo.. Things can become stagnant otherwise.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 effectively. Just checked. This is also 4 to 24 = 42 24 = 24 squared = 5 7 6.. There is a joy that just comes from being alive for one more day. it is such in my world. You might even say that attitude is everything. that is far more than most of us have ever dreamed ourselves to be. or at least many of the most important attributes of that world. it is the easiest way to get a great start on each day. Attitude is important. we all learn to make choices. So. In a very real way. Many people make the same old choices day after day. It doesn't matter whether you consider yourself to be spiritual or not. 200 is the number for my full name in ALL CAPS without JR. August is a 137312 = 17 month. It allows us to rise ever higher in awareness. as the one choosing.. Every day should be a celebration. We are all spirit experiencing life in physical form. In fact. Since 888(16) is 2184. We are what we are. nothing is above spiritual law.. It is self-evident. Everything is pointing to that day being MY DAY. there is not such a thing. we will indeed experience the consequences. it is as we experience it. sometimes neutral. relying on gut feel or intuition or any number of other things. this is different for each of us. The world is subjective . Unfortunately. yet. week after week. we are not taught what is involved in making choices. most choices are not logical at all . That doesn't mean that we can't repeat things that we like. It is clearly within our power to choose how we will face each day. everything that you experience. It does not take much to celebrate that. At least.. That is spiritual law. but the actual expressing that comes forth is quite different from one expression to the 178 . And. How can I know that? I just do.. Can Wayne's World be different than THE WORLD? Is there even such a thing as THE WORLD? My sense is no.. sometimes good. we make choices anyway. So. There is nothing that we can do to escape our innate nature. I'll have to do something special to celebrate.

Even no choice is a choice. All of my work with numbers is personal. even from one sentence to the next for that matter. At least. relying heavily on intuition to guide my way. They are much like the side effects of your medications. They are there. Every time that I drive home. what does it take to "look for something"? In the case of numbers... we get the consequences of that choice as well.. I choose to be interested and fascinated in the life that I experience. I effectively chose by default . How do I apply this to other experiences in my life? How do I apply it to my work? How do I apply it to my life? Have I truly been interested and fascinated in life? And have I expected what I choose to happen in my life? It seems that I've neglected both of these. or any combinations of these. Clearly the way that I play with assigning meaning to numbers is different than anything that I have ever encountered.. When we are looking for particular numbers. And. But that is no way to live. I can't believe that a tool that I have found so useful personally would not have applicability to others. So. Unfortunately. I choose to be excited about life NOW. I am unique . neutral. I haven't really been interested and fascinated in life for the most part. And. Perhaps they never were. it is a matter of being interested and fascinated in them. Even when I go back to read the expression I am a different person each time I read the words. It is just not a forcing function. do we draw these to us? Indeed. I am surprised by how many such numbers I see. But. Based on that. Spirit never forces us to do anything. Consequences are not necessarily to be avoided. Perhaps I was deceiving myself in believing that I was relinquishing my will to THY WILL. deferring the important choices to spirit herself. there is also an expectancy that the numbers will be relevant to my life. It is all a matter of remembering. my will? Can it be any other way? That does not mean that I cannot align my will with THY WILL. I am interested and fascinated in it. choose. the experience I have in reading the words is different. somehow we draw them to us. do we draw these to us? If we are looking for particular answers. we imagine what might be some of the consequences for present or 179 . we need to be interested and fascinated in the experiences and we need to expect that we will have them. I am constantly on the lookout for numbers that are significant to me personally. how do we make better choices . when we choose we get not only the thing that we are focusing on in the moment.. to apply this to experiences. so the meaning is different. I expect this life to reflect the choices that I make as to who I choose to BE. So. We choose everything. choices that have fewer negative consequences and more positive consequences? We start by examining the consequences that we have experienced from the choices in our lives to date. bad. do we draw these to us? If we are looking for particular experiences. there must be a way.. and I expect that when I open Composer it will simply happen. not for me any more. No one is empowered to make these choices for ME. it was self taught . but choose carefully. Perhaps that is just the way that I am.. I wouldn't even want to guess how many hours that have gone into machinations with numbers. Many of these are variations of 888 and 2184.. Is this true for other things as well? If we are looking for particular feelings. but there are many others. my life still revolves around ME. the final four numbers in my SSN. It is not clear how I would apply it to others. and as such has its consequences.. How can that be? That is just the way that it is. Yes. Then. it seems that the answer is YES to all of these questions. not even spirit herself. We have free will. I don't know how others experience much of anything. And. And.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 next . the choices that I make. waiting to be studied. unlike any other. Is not THY WILL for ME. We find whatever we seek. We choose. As far as I know. Interesting. do we draw these to us? If we are looking for particular thoughts. That is exactly how this expression manifests. But. Though. So. They can be good..

. but you are basically there. perhaps amazingly. Why should I need anything to be happy? There is no thing that is so important that my happiness depends on it. My wife finds it very easy to be cheerful and happy. A hermit whose hearts desire is to create a utopian community. it was not always this way. YOU came to help see to that. Congratulations in realizing whom that you are. But. There is such a place.. Interesting. effectively since 1993. I can feel the chills in my shoulders. Then what stops me from experiencing being happy? Indeed. the line of inquiry is getting somewhere. There is no time to lose. Part of this is what you need to be happy. Give it a voice in your life and pay attention to it . we choose those things that are the most positive. this must be something that I am doing to myself. it has been.. we have to expect to be happy.. So. this expression is only part of what you came to do. Part of this is what you need to do your work. No. Needs are always met. when there are much vaster resources of consciousness available to do your bidding. and it can be trusted. Why is that not enough to be happy? I have grown in consciousness substantially. It is that simple. What do you need to be happy? That is a tough question. You know that. There has to be an easier way. You can only change whom that you are to align with whom that I made you to BE. but it is. From there. what am I doing to myself that keeps me from being happy? In what ways am I sabotaging myself that prevents me from being in what should be a natural spiritual state? I am doing good things. I created you to be a God. Gods know what they want and how to get it. Such is what I created you to BE. Though. Simple things are enough. How's that for an oxymoron? Yet. a computer with Netscape Composer and some free time is sufficient. we are. The next step is realizing what you need. It just flows naturally. and such is what you came to do. per a spiritual timetable if you will. But. what stops me? Nothing external can stop me from anything. even take action based upon it. But. you know that it is the easy part. it is far easier to operate in this way than to work in the realm of the myriad of probabilities that result from our choices. You rely far too much on it. This is not an easy role for you. what does it take to be happy? We had the formula earlier in this musing. So. There is still some fine tuning left . and trust that spirit will show you how to get it. You have a role in establishing the foundations of a new world order. This expression is the crowning glory of my life. It is not an effect of anything. not all of their knowing is conscious. And. 9 July 2008 180 . such is what you are. Do what you are moved to do.. It is not something that I experience often. We have to choose to be interested and fascinated in being happy. One of the challenges however is to meet them effectively and efficiently or elegantly. One alternative is to find that place within us that knows what is right for us and allow it to guide our choices. It is all about expectancy. Happiness has been elusive for me. Why have I not awakened to a state of bliss? Happiness is something that I need to choose to BE. Do that. It should not be. Once these are filled elegantly. Focus on what you need. What we expect to be is what we choose to be. What we expect to be. Further. Hmm . I am not that way. Start with your own needs however. Further. an order unlike anything that has existed to date. and the consequences that you reap will be positive beyond your wildest imaginings. For this expression. You haven't really thought much about what you need on either front. Your conscious mind is but a small part of your faculties. Trust the SELF within that is doing the moving.. Everything is being unveiled per a schedule. since 1993. you are then ready to help others and your world.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 future choices.

that means holding down a job. I relate most to the feminine . Yet. Is it time for that to change. But. For your eyes only . So long as I am moved to express. Consciousness I experience as feminine. I become different than I was.. Over time. we choose in the moment. others can do. I was moved to share all that I have experienced since that fateful day on 5 March 1993 when this expression started coming forth. That has been true since this expression began and possibly long before that. I wonder. Right now. as I read the expression over and over. Is there a different way to live? Some people plan things in advance and do things necessary to achieve what they plan. not really. Generally. at least. From my limited interactions with others. And. I also know that each of us is special in our own ways. is that a consequence? It seems that it is not. in particular to consciousness and to spirit. There is a need for an income sufficient to meet the needs of my family. Perhaps much of this is indeed for my eyes only.. what is it that moves me to do anything? What is it that moves me to choose anything? There are some external drivers. We are spirit expressing as us and through us in flesh. It is part of the choice itself. Why would that be the case? I am a very private person overall. It seem that the new age is to bring a transition from the masculine to the feminine. when do I experience the consequences of that choice? Immediately.. So. I embrace it with all of my heart and all of my being.. What does that say about consciousness? What does that say about me? What does that say about each and every one of us. I was moved to share it through 2003. We do in the moment.. We are animated. It doesn't matter whether others see it or not. That is the first consequence. and rightly so. No..2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 Back to the blank page that is so familiar to me. each of us tap into source in some way. It simply doesn't matter. I welcome this transition. what would be expressed today? We never really know until it happens. While I know that I am special. But. How can that be? How can we not know what we will say? How can I not know what I will create until I create it? Hmm . What that is will be unique for each of us. not in precisely the same way.. For instance. I think of God as the creator . But. At least. I become more aware. comes to mind again. they have to impact something. it is not clear that they do. There is now a backlog exceeding 200 pages of expression. that impact does not occur immediately. Typically. It is hard to believe that we have been coming here for going on 16 years and that we still find the expression to be new and fresh every time. we are a part of life. I am changed by it. but rather is revealed over time. are there others.. God being masculine in nature to me for some reason. even though much of it is posted on the WWW. the very 181 . This part of my life is very private . perhaps not even close to the same way. we are unique creations of consciousness. But. Do I need to start making choices that go beyond the NOW? It seems that runs completely counter to my focus on living in the NOW. for me or for others? Does what I become change how I interact with others? Does it change the very way that my presence feels to them? Can they detect the changes? Interesting questions. Or. But. It is for us to become the best channels for spiritual expression that we can be. I will continue to express in this manner.. it hasn't been to date. It doesn't matter that I happen to be male in this existence. choosing to come here to express is something that I have done thousands of times over the past 16 years. I am creating exactly what I need to know when I need to know it. I see the words that come forth. after which the musings became less frequent and I was no longer moved to post them. perhaps that is why my life is as it is. It is part of the act of expressing. Interesting that I chose the word consciousness rather than God. but the consequences generally come to us over time. Spirit I experience as feminine as well. That is clearly not my way. What I can do. I don't know what I am going to do with it. for choices to have meaning. But. Other than read it..

It is already there in our vicinity. What are the consequences of that choice? At some level you know how beneficial this is. but that is no excuse. I want to live. I want to see. Open up your thinking. Though. That also means commuting weekly to work at the job and being away from my family during the work week. You will be surprised at how open they will be to your presence. I do not see any choices for which I like the consequences that I imagine. and fortunately the company I worked for took me back when I returned to "normal". You still see yourself as the hermit.. and trust that spirit will take care of the how. there was a time in 1993 when I took such a leap. are 182 . not much anyway. The bottom line is that it is your choice. and how do we provide the service to them? Find a way. This takes time.. how do we turn the expression into service? Who would be served by it. you see that. But. Not that I have ever been "normal" since then.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 one that I have now. Relationships don't just happen. All that we need is provided by spirit. Trust ME. the song from John Denver is appropriate here . What does this choice say about who you are? Think big.. That's almost the equivalent of a half-time job. Yes. I know that the time for my liberation is at hand. But. Your selfimposed isolation has its consequences. There is so much for you to share... Then. Yes. We only need to be clear about what we want . who do I share myself with? Start with those who your life already touches. Imagine what your life could be in its full glory. Our choices are what define us. It is time for you to start finding more ways to share of whom you are. But. While you share here. It is a matter of what you choose to spend that time on. There is a way. I want to know. everything that you do takes time. There is something about leaving the means to spirit. Do so NOW. Yes. Yet. I believe that is what I choose each time I come here to express. Open up your BEING. That determines how you experience life.. You choose your relationships. the eyes of your soul and see what spirit would have you see. just TRUST! This expression is an exercise in trust. You would do well to remember that. most definitely. Trust! Trust YOU. Open your eyes . How do I choose to make it so? How do I choose to be FREE? In particular. Surely. We have only to open our eyes to see it. or you would not move yourself to choose to do it day after day. We would offer that one of the prime reasons that you are not happy is because you are so alone. I was out of my mind. you know that this is not what you want from life. That requires a leap of faith that is larger than I am willing to take. It is not that I don't want to work. my son. Trust Spirit. I want to be. This is not hard to do.. free of the economic system. you.. I am happy to be of service. It does not preclude you from dealing one-on-one with others. Surely. it is that easy. not really. I want to share what I can give. One does not come without the other. You have not found others with whom to interact with because you have not been looking for them .. But. You choose. They require attention and nurturing. I want to grow. I want to live. And. imagine what you can do teamed with others. You already invest over 16 hours per week on this. I want to be of the greatest service that I can be. Can I choose to do so? That is not so clear. the develop. It is all about choices and consequences. But. you don't really share with others . Definitely... Introversion is a preference in how you deal with the world. It is time for you to shed them. But. And. You have been walking around with blinders on for far too long. That is what I choose. It will literally blow you away. even the hermit comes down from the high mountains to share with others from time to time. There is a sense that I am still bound by chains of my own making.. see what consciousness has in store for you. you are introverted. Can I imagine living my life differently. Trust Consciousness . Actually. Perhaps you always will. That gives me the free time to be able to choose to express here. Look at all that you have done alone. Would I like to do so? Also. there are many ways.

These two lie in a completely different domain. But. what matters is what we are BEING now. But. But. Oh well. things that required the full breadth of my capabilities . Why do I choose to withhold this from others? Clearly. What do you choose to be? What do you choose to express to others? I want to share what I can give. In the process of expressing we may very well wake up. you will be moved to choose otherwise.. and do so NOW. I don't recall that happening before. and by definition we don't know what will be beyond these. I can already tell that there is a sluggishness in the channel. We'll have to see how it impacts what is able to be expressed. I still feel that I am in control.. at least those capabilities that I normally employ at work. The closest that I have come is the idea that everyone is doing their best given their abilities and the circumstances in which they find themselves. It is clear that this expression is one of the grandest things that I can give. You have been ready for some time. But. relationships are a whole new world for you.. No. But. the one by which and through whom this expression comes.. This may reveal something about how this expression is manifest. I have not thought in these terms before. even grander is ME. it does not seem that everyone is. Staying awake today was not as much of a struggle as I was expecting it to be.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 ready. Then. perhaps it will be for others. but deep down you know that such is not in your highest good or the highest good of those you touch in your life. At this point. You can still choose to avoid them.. 10 July 2008 I couldn't sleep at all last night. knowing that we are supporting you every step of the way. It is a matter of choice. we know you better than you know yourself. There are no wrong choices. something extremely valuable . that is spirit expressing in flesh. And. We will experience what we will experience. But. The slightest push could take us over the 183 . I never really know what is going to happen when this happens.. But. we are walking on the edge.. building better foundations that allow spirit to be more fully expressed in flesh. For. I still got several important things done today . Knowing that. you can be close to others. That attitude is counter to experiencing what you say you want to experience. that too may be temporary. there is nothing that I can do about it now. this expression is one of those things for you. So. That will make for a long day. is not everyone doing this in every moment? Hmm . One reason is that the social infrastructures don't seem to facilitate such sharing. Though. I want to share the grandest expression of whom that I AM with others who are doing the same. You see. it is not good for me to go without sleep. They are mirrors that will allow you to get some of the feedback that you so desperately want. But. we don't expect you to turn into a social butterfly. As always.. While my state of mind was stranger than normal. choose elsewise . Lack of sleep takes me to a breakpoint. I'm in a strange state of mind. Continue to grow. But. There is only what you do and what you do not do. How dependent is the expression on the body and the brain? Clearly these are not operating at their best at the moment. Yes. But. But. Typically. you are reluctant to try new things. It always seems to come down to that . I am losing something via this choice. are people really sharing the grandest expression of whom that they are? There are some special people who appear to be doing this. In particular. Though. But tiredness of the body and brain does not necessarily translate to tiredness of the mind and the spirit... you are learning fast... relationships are life-affirming as well. Choose then to do those things that are life-affirming for you and for others. my very happiness. we still have over two hours of expression and then a two hour commute home.

when I simply could not stay awake after having not slept at all on Wednesday night. But. All of this activity is taking place . I need to be doing something that I'm passionate about. That is enough. Be whom that you are anyway. This happens slightly after I hear the words in my head. while it is a choice. I went to bed. and I am aware of it all. that is perfect. Work with it.. more alive. it does not seem like it is doing. I just couldn't fall asleep try though I might. What would I BE NOW? I know what I would DO NOW. I'm going to do something that I've never had to do before. I am also reading the words as they come forth. I just AM. That done.. but it was as if my mind were in a heavy fog much of the time. Life is perfect. I couldn't see clearly but I could get my tasks done nonetheless. what next? Why was it necessary to experience this in this way? Why does there have to be a reason? Some things just happen. it has been a productive day. I don't know what to attribute that to. you can do that. I just AM. Then. and one hour of reading musings from earlier this year. arising to a new day. Do something you are 184 . I'm going to have to do something about that. Let's see where this takes us. in that respect I am doing. It always is. I am fighting to stay present with it. The last time this happened was a few weeks ago on a business trip and it was a struggle staying awake at all for the whole day. Allow it to come forth through you as you. just as I had the previous three nights. Then. two hours of watching television. I'm going to stop this musing NOW so that I can get some much needed rest before driving home tonight. The weekend was relatively uneventful. That is good advice for all of us. And. I put in my two hours of expression. Right now. what about choice? What about free will? Why did I choose not to sleep last night? I AM THAT I AM. Yet. The coldness has gone for the most part. Operate within what you know to be safe operating constraints. I'm not used to experiencing this.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 edge. OK. I can barely see what I am typing. But. That is OK. regardless of what we experience. But is allowing actually DOING? In some respects. I tried to sleep for a couple of hours to no avail. be careful not to push. So. Why couldn't I sleep last night? What kept me awake? The night seemed to be much like other nights. I caught up on much needed rest this weekend. but I can't seem to shake it. Yes.. Fortunately that doesn't happen very often except when I travel. You never are. I just feel it. It made it tough to make it through the day. Flow with it. Oh well. I appear to be waking up . there is a coldness that I feel throughout my entire body. You will not be disappointed. the pauses seem longer and more frequent than normal. That is always enough.. My free time on the weekends should be much more exciting. Yes. more so than I would have thought possible given the lack of sleep. I'm starting to feel more awake. Continue to allow what can come forth through you to come forth. I hear words in my mind and then translate them into the physical keystrokes that result in them appearing on the screen in front of me. Today was not like that. The voice in my head is blank at times.. Why? Why is it taking place? And. Perhaps that will make up for the abbreviated musing last Thursday. why am I aware of it? The bottom line is I don't know . I am engaged. Further.. Thus far. I got out of bed at about 3:00 AM and read some more of the recent musings. It is a strange sensation. Indeed. Clearly the musing is not as deep as we normally go. 13 July 2008 Starting the week of musing early again. Work through it. I would allow this stream of consciousness to come forth.

The film had a spiritual message of great significance. This is not the first time that I have seen it. We should know what we are doing and why. It is high time that we used people to do what they are good at.. There has to be a way to serve with love.. because it allows us to express and share of whom that we are. Hopefully millions by now... it is truly a masterpiece. Note that I said fairly. Further. such is the choice that we need to make. Shangri-La. that I simply don't know how they see such things. I didn't remember the film to be as spiritual as it is. There are some who are skilled in discovering our talents and assisting us to find useful outlets for them. I don't know how many others have seen that movie and been moved by it. it makes the choice to do it all the easier. we are not slaves. It is hard to believe that it came out in 1937. The increased productivity will be astonishing. We don't necessarily have to figure this out for ourselves. as such. whatever they are. There just has to... But. collectively. But. We know how to be abundant. it just seems that it is not enough. Life is about service. The greatest thing that we have to give is whom that we are and the creative works that we can express. But. We don't make the decisions necessary to create abundance and distribute that abundance fairly to all of us. But. These have the power to move others. and especially when it is not clear who is served by our labors. That is not surprising. easy or not. selling our time and talents for an income. the film speaks to a place in the soul . I've had so little interaction with others in my 50 years on the planet. As spiritual beings. and move them deeply . Especially. When there is abundance. How many were moved by that message? How many changed their concepts of what could be as a result of it? How many embraced the spirit of Shangri-La? I can't speak for others. and who benefits from our service. I wonder how many others could say the same thing? 185 .. There has to be a better way. that of abundance for all. But. how do we get people to realize how wonderful it is to live in such a way? There was another key principle expressed in the film. If it is also something that we love to do. This expression is something that I'm passionate about. and none of the negativity that comes from lack. Frank Capra's dream of a utopia . But being alone is not enough if we are not being useful. We are not meant to be enslaved. These are what we are meant to share. Could there be such a place as Shangri-La where the golden rule to life is: Be Kind! It is amazing how far kindness can take us. But. when we are only applying part of our skills. It is service that makes us useful. The economic pump is primed by giving. there is no lack. That is OK. is portrayed in the film. so we are different in needs. to how many was the film more than entertainment? Not that there is anything wrong with entertainment . Service is something that we choose to do willingly.. and a pleasant reminder that spirit is working through many to produce such grand works. much as Lost Horizons moved me last night. it is clear that many do not love what they do. So is watching movies. we need and deserve to have our needs met. That's over 70 years ago. It is not clear that many know this today. I've spent far more time with characters on TV shows and in movies than I have with real people. not equally. there was much that I did not remember. I saw Lost Horizon last night. we don't feel ourselves to be worthy of abundance. However. There has to. I will not accept anything less. It seems that this should open up somehow. Just as we are all different in abilities and talents. But. I almost said life is about being.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 passionate about. this does not come for free. It was a pleasant surprise. That may require finding out just what that is for you. I don't know how to make it so. It is for us to apply our skills and talents in service to others or the society in some way. Yet. what they love to do. it is timeless. given the nature of my memory. This should be clear.

. Hmm .. That would be my weakest area. But. I love doing it. if I choose to where it. You have the freedom to choose what you are at every moment. happiness eludes me most of the time.. I choose what I AM at every moment of every day. And. in so doing. But. is it a mask that I choose to wear? And. expressing and soaring. But. so I don't know what. Not that it matters anymore. truly free. Perhaps more than I am able to give.. can I not choose again if I determine that it no longer serves me? Indeed. Further. one in which my consciousness is able to soar. From that. Conscious free will was given to the creation for a reason. I just need to free myself to be it. that I was created to be . and even do it well... that did not come to pass. we are always free to choose again and again and again until we become the grandest vision of whom that WE ARE. especially of late. I was moved to share nearly all of it. There is a sense that all of this could literally be for my eyes only. if you are to be free. But. and to keep choosing again until what I experience is what I desire to be. yes . then choose to BE HAPPY. a number of people have found parts of the expression at the Beyond Imagination site.. the outcome might have been different. they are getting from the material. until four years ago. that is not enough to make me happy. and that complex. do what you LOVE! Am I truly doing what I love? It seems that if I were. all of your works will flow naturally. It is an elevated state. There is a sense that there is far more that I can be. For years. if anything. it seems that such was not enough. we are not meant to live solely in that way. It is to be exercised. But. What would it feel like for you to BE HAPPY? Can you remember times when you were happy? At such times. or.... it seems that spirit never asks for more than our best. expressing in this manner is not enough to make me happy. I thought that the expression might be my meal ticket. Of course. how were your viewing life? Can you remember? Happiness has been fleeting in my life. It seems that it is time for YOU to make some more empowering choices. What stops you from being all that you could be? ME. stop focusing on doing and start focusing on BEING? If you truly want to BE HAPPY. But. At one point.. So. I don't know why . my means of earning my livelihood. it also haunts me. Yes. But. not even close. involved with life? What else do I love to do? What is missing from my life? The immediate answer was relationships. It is that simple. Hmm . If I don't like what I experience. then you must choose what it is that you would be. Yes.. Though. And. just as this expression has flowed for close to 16 186 . It is all about choice. clearly. That song moves me deeply. But. in that sharing. we can do this on other than conscious levels.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 The song For Your Eyes Only by Sheena Easton played at 7:56 tonight on my way to my residence in Redondo Beach. the only recourse is to choose again .. you are not really doing what you love. But. Am I being the grandest vision of whom that I AM? The immediate answer was no. I choose. how were you viewing yourself. the few who are finding it are not providing feedback. not rejected. the spiritual high that I experience is not the same as happiness. I would be happy. Then why is all of this not enough? Why are my emotions so bland much of the time? Why am I not more involved with others . My spirit somehow demands more... But. now are you? I have been expressing on and off for going on 16 years. believing that I was bowing my will to Thy Will. Then. That is where my hermit nature has contributed directly to my experience or lack thereof. It has been bordering on a rare experience for me.. I freely shared all that was coming forth through me. There is no outside force involved. For life is all about experiencing choices and their consequences. it seems that loving to do something is not enough for me. Why? Why have I set such high standards on being happy? I do things that I like to do. I renounced life. I shared of whom that I AM.. I stop me from being all that I can be. Had it been enough. Why do I choose this hermit nature? Is it something that I AM. I was reluctant to choose .. Even though the expression has picked up wonderfully again .

42 = 2 x 21 = 2 x 3 x 7:The Charioteer.. My choice to be The Hermit was aligned with the higher purpose of building the foundations for a new world. The Man in Search of More operating in the World of the High Priestess can achieve 50:Utopia on Earth. Or. It is time for you to hear that. This is the world of duality. Each triangle has a total of 21:The World. the sense is that something significant is being revealed.. a utopia on earth. I had not been moved to see this before. I needed to add 9:The Hermit to reach 50:Ten of Cups = Utopia on Earth. Right now. there were 2.. allowing your life to unfold as it will by default. you chose to create some powerful resolutions for the first time in your life.. but. The bottom line from this is that I continue to choose to be whom that I AM. Where are we going with this? How does this translate into what I would be next. you were highly manic and were interpreting reality strangely to say the least. Yesterday.. Just prior to New Years Day. It will be unveiled over time. The 42 card has a couple with cups intertwined with a winged lion above a caduceus above them. I am moved to be something new and different than I have ever been before . The universe responds to your choices. you have chosen to live in the moment. That is still what I choose to do. That seems to represent the Community of 7:The Charioteer. That gives us: 110 = 1:32(78) = I AM race exalted = 1:22(88) = The Magician:The Master Builder. what I choose to be. and to do something about it. Let's add 12:The Hanged Man. Hmm . Much better. Yes. and The Community of The World.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 years based on a choice that you made in 1992. Being 41:Wayne and 48:The Man in Search of More yields 1:11(78). But. we slept very well last night. Interesting. that is 41:Wayne. I am Wayne. But. making it easy to remain awake all day. I am also 48:The Man in Search of More.. That is not what was intended. That throws in my Heart's Desire. This is also 88 + 1= 1:01(88) = The Magician:The Magician. The difference between these two is 7:The Charioteer. Those resolutions opened the door for consciousness to step in a few months later and start to express through you. at least in this existence. But. To get from 48 to 50 requires 2:The High Priestess. This is the Star of David with sides of 7. The musings are a fitting response to your choice to be a hermit. if relationships are what you choose to experience now. But I am also 9:The Hermit and 12:The Hanged 187 . As 41:Wayne. You have not been moved to go back and change them or choose new ones during that time. you are also to choose in each moment. It appeared that all of your resolutions would be fulfilled by the end of the summer. Now. I'm too tired to catch the meaning of all of this right now. you are to live in the moment .333 words = 23:wayne 33:Master Teacher. We are getting a good start on the musing as well. No wonder my expression has been limited. The Charioteer ties the three energy of the Empress to the four energy of the Emperor. 14 July 2008 Unlike Wednesday of last week. it seems that we were on to something. is there a greater good. Is that the formula that we are looking for. Yesterday. Is that what I am now? Perhaps. It seems that we shall see soon enough. 41:Wayne + 48:The Man in Search of More = 89 = 78 + 11:Justice Exalted = The Master. The first card that comes to mind is the 42:Two of Cups card. I have always been Wayne. 16 years have passed since the choice to make those resolutions. Rather. this is 41:Wayne + 1. This yields 98 = 1:20(78) = Judgement exalted = 1:10(88) = The Magician:The Wheel of Fortune. 9:The Hermit. 48:The Man in Search of More. you must choose to be something different.

Even with this. is it more unlikely than me learning a unique language? Yes. and 9:The Hermit. we have only looked at addition thus far. Even more important. something I do twice each week. 48 + 9 = 57:Three of Swords = ELLIS. 5. we haven't even explored the combinations of more than for of them. however. Now that is more interesting. 41:Wayne + 9:The Hermit = 50:Ten of Cups = Utopia on Earth. and then there were 7. And. 12 + 18 = 30:Camelot. Adding 19:The Sun gives us both of these. Though. this is definitely it! No doubt about it. and the former what I am in the process of building. 50 + 48 = 98 = 1:20(78) = Judgement exalted = 1:10(88): The Wheel of Fortune (88). The single number that would allow us to reach both of these is 18:The Moon. But. I need to add 12:The Hanged Man. This also bring in 4 + 9 = 13:Death. So. Something says that the first of these 4:The Emperor is the one that suits me. 151 = 9 to 2 = 9:22 = 10. The first is the I AM race exalted. 11. Yes. I have been experience this state since the spiritual awakening process began in 1993. 9 12 18 19 41 48. I don't expect others to interpret numbers in the way that I do. close but not quite.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 Man. Combinations of two give me 50:Utopia. 30 and 75 respectively. that is our basic characteristic set of numbers that defines me. that doesn't seem to yield anything special. 9 and 12 came up in a work context as the priority of the system on which I work. these seem to be what I AM in the moment. That still leaves jr = 19 and JR = 28. Pretty auspicious. indeed. It also gives us 18 + 19 = 37:King of Cups = Riding the Subconscious. Or would it.. But. Yes. surely some of what I express touches on universal themes. and 48:The Man in Search of More. Am I unique in this regard? Are there seven such numbers that "define" each of us in this manner? Clearly. I don't imagine that others would be occupied for a two hour long drive with interpreting the "meaning" of license plates . themes that consciousness herself brings forth.. Why should I not expect that spirit has taught others the very language that she has taught me? It just seems unlikely. It is curious that I would discover that today. 4 9 12 13 16 18 19 21 22: Nine of 22 numbers in the Major Arcana 188 . Adding 12 yields 69:Ace of Pentacles = Abundance.. We forgot about WAYNE = 68. Hmm . I have been a hermit for the most part. or 14. but that is 9 + 18 + 41. 4 + 12 = 16:The Tower. That would be expecting far too much. Hmm. The later seem to be who I am.. Yes. 48 + 9 + 18 = 75:HARTMAN. We missed a couple of combinations. 9 + 12 = 21:The World. I AM race is a rearrangement of America. 21 is the number for ellis. That is what I have been experiencing along with the combination of all three = 98 = Judgement exalted = The Wheel of Fortune (88) exalted. and 89:Justice exalted and the The Magician exalted. it gives us 9 + 19 = 28:Two of Wands = The Man with the World in His Hand. Just realized that I had focused on being 41:Wayne.. As 4. Just seven. The second is The Fool Complete exalted = The Master Builder exalted. We forgot one. To get 21:The World into the picture. All four together yields 110 = 1:32(78) = 1:22(88).. Seven characteristic numbers. We can bring that in in many several ways. namely 23 = wayne. 4 9 12 18 19 41 48 = 151 = 1:73(78) = 1:63(88). we are missing the numbers for hartman and HARTMAN. Hmm . Interesting. Further. So. 41:Wayne + 21:The World = 62:Eight of Swords = Blindfolded Lady. and 4 + 18 = 22:The Fool Complete = The Master Builder. 57:Three of Swords = ELLIS.

The Field of Emotions. 41 is redundant with the exception of 45. It would also add 12 numbers to the Minor Arcana taking us to 46 of 56. 4. or in combination with prior numbers in the set. There is a sense that I'm onto something here. What would we choose to be next? Are there any numbers in the Major Arcana that are missing that we want to be? What about 3:The Empress? Just checked. 16. 18. either on its own. Seven characteristic numbers. with the addition of 4.. But. And. where no one seemed to know that there was any before.. Only 1307 words in 2. this is 2194 = 2184 + 10 = 888(16) + A(16). Somehow. Just seven.409 34/56 = 17/28 = 0. and 19.5 hours. 8. if we add these two. But.The Field of Abundance Coverage is 9 of 22 for the Major Arcana and 34 of 56 for the Minor Arcana. Enough with the numbers for today. an archetypal focus? Five numbers in the Major Arcana. 92234 is my zip code in Cathedral City. It takes something extra to bring their meaning out. Without the spaces and reversed.. 64. at least. Interesting.. That is what I do. It surprised me that there was that much coverage from nine basic numbers. The pace has been very slow tonight. That happens whenever I play excessively with numbers. We can't get that without adding 1:The Magician and 2:The High Priestess to the mix.The Field of Action 66 67 68 69 72 73 75 76 78: Nine of 14 in the Pentacles . I'm looking at the Tarot in a whole new way. that would add 3 and 7 to bring us to the halfway point in completing the Major Arcana. The points of view don't have to be complete sets.The Field of Spirit 37 39 41 45 46 48 49 50: Eight of 14 number in the Cups . The image that comes to mind is the 888 triangle with an "A" in the middle of it. we had FUN! 15 July 2008 189 . But. 32. Just noticed 4 9 12 above. that's no fun. A minimum spanning set would be 1. it was worth it. We'll have to see where it takes us in the days ahead. at least for me. It is perfectly fine to choose a unique focus.60714285 Curious. But. three is redundant. I'm tying it to numbers that are otherwise important in my life. Diversity is the spice of life. 53 57 58 59 60 62 63 64: Eight of 14 numbers in the Swords . and two in the Minor Arcana were able to span over half or the Tarot. 22 | 52 is my hearts desire. Every number in the characteristic set had special meaning to me . Is that what the Tarot represents . Or. 9/22 = = 0. 2. I see meaning where there was none before. personality makeup. it seems that there needs to be full coverage.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 23 25 27 28 30 31 32 34 35: Nine of 14 numbers in the Wands .

. We could just as easily change the word "expect" to "choose". spirit expressing in flesh to the greatest degree possible in this moment. the numbers for the cards in the Tarot. the seed of spirit or consciousness that sparked us. 41 . all it takes is the right environment to nurture its growth. I AM THAT I AM. then clearly I do not expect to be happy. 4 . subconscious. 18 .At this moment... There is a sense that these seven truly constitute me. In the selection of quotes from 2002 there are over 1400 quotes. and superconscious work together in ones life. The creativity that is unleashed is truly phenomenal. My spirit demands more. it demands more of me. For. But. through our individual and collective expectations? We see what we expect to see.Awareness is the most important thing in the world... I try not to impose expectations on the world. That is enough for me. if I did. But somehow. at least since it started coming forth. What am I choosing to BE in this moment?. this time as seven numbered quotes from the Musings of 2002. and probably a small fraction at that.I have seen what happens when conscious. 12 . Am I also 190 .The acorn knows exactly what it takes to become a mighty oak . I found another way of interpreting the seven characteristic numbers. I know that I am living these statements on a daily basis.What we know ourselves to be is only a fraction of what we truly are .. 48 .. that does not seem to be enough.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 In my reading last night. How could that be? And how could they come forth over six years ago? I only know that they do and they did.. We hear what we expect to hear. Actually. All but the final one came through in January. It is the only thing that we carry forward from one lifetime to the next. We experience what we expect to experience. This expression is enough for me. knows exactly what we are meant to grow to be and how to get us there. How do I know that? Because I was moved to discover the numbers yesterday. Primarily. 9 . Because of this. a unique facet of the same diamond. It has always been . things are orchestrated without us having to even try to make them so. I am choosing to be the one through whom this expression flows forth. the 9 from the Major Arcana and 34 from the Minor Arcana discovered yesterday are all special as the spanned set from 1 through 78.. These are the seven characteristic quotes that most define who I AM. And.When we tap source...Each of us is a unique aspect of the one consciousness . we also tap into the great reservoir of cooperative effort that lies beneath everything that we experience. 19 . We are what we expect to be? Hmm . they why do I not choose to be happy? I know that each of the seven statements above is true. I would be happy. Why? Is that not part of how reality creation works . Similarly. Yesterdays discovery made these seven special.. and see those numbers correspond to something meaningful in my life last night.

Somehow. Four of the seven were obvious numbers from my life. we are getting close. Hmm . that is the place to start. It is ME. but we are not gods in fact yet. I could not have picked a better seven even if I tried. But. there is only one that matters: 2 . 15 . It seems that no matter how far we expand.. that seems to be what the spiritual directive calls for as well.The workings of consciousness are indeed mysterious. It is thought forms that create physical forms. and rightly so. 191 .. 21 .Questions are one of the tools we consciously use to focus our awareness on what we most need to know.We are gods in becoming ...It is for us to recognize that we are in bondage before we can remove the shackles that hold us back from being all that we could be. and it will ensure that what needs to be revealed is revealed to those with a need to know. Not ME and something else.The world may be a big place. that is the key to economic success. but our self is a much smaller domain.. 2 . I would experience being the creator of this expression. 11 .Love/Wisdom. 16 . 13 .See a need and fill it . and how many awakenings we undergo.Knowledge seems to grow best where it is open and free. in which we have the authority to do what we will and be whom we are and become what we are capable of becoming. But.Everything is known by the collective consciousness. 14 . simple ME. That would add one characteristic statement. abilities. 20 . The other three were needed to form other important numbers in my life. and creative energies of our people.. I sense that. I don't know that these are complete yet. Consciousness springs from the unknown.Thought forms are entities with lives of their own. This also brings in 5 more numbers from the Major Arcana for a total of 15 including five basic plus four sums from before. why do I not experience what I "know"? I can still see the seven statements at the top of the page. there is always more. Otherwise. If we want to change society.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 choosing to be the one from whom this expression flows forth? It seems that I am not. Yet. to provide ones services to help fill the needs of society. 22 . with more empowering thought forms. For me.We are wasteful of our most important natural resource: the talents. 6 . and perhaps the unknowable. bringing the total to eight. I know deep down that the source within is part of ME. My intuition is telling me that we are missing one of the primary spiritual rays.

Are the first 78 quotes in the selection of best quotes from 2002 Musings a universal and elegant set? In reading them. Just in the past 24 hours. 15/22 = 0. It is interesting.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 These too are important. I was moved to read them one more time. not even close. I was just moved to go back and read them again.. But.. At least we've captured them in one place. Somehow. They truly are a special set of statements. There is something to be said about that. So. I'm biased when it comes to evaluating this material. why should that make this expression any different. It is important that such choices empower us . 17:The Star seems appropriate somehow as well.. Spirit is about elegance. After all. One is that they are my quotes. but to be more fully whom that we are. The pace is about normal considering I typed in nearly 450 words from best quotes. it seems that they are. And. Hmm . it is not about work. But. How can that be? I only know that such is how it is. Here we are about generating new expression. reinventing yourself. perhaps more than you would know in talking to me casually over the course of many years. these 17 constitute less than one-third of one percent. 192 . that is not enough for me to remember them .. It involves a choice to make different connections that in turn emphasizes certain meanings above other possible meanings. Is that not what choosing to be something different is all about. not to reign over others.. I've read every word multiple times .6818 = 68:WAYNE with 18:The Moon repeating. In fact it wasn't. I discover more about ME every time that I read these words again. If this works so well for me . it would tell you a lot about who I am .. When the old is presented in a new way. But. The total is 17 statements. I've read these 17 characteristic quotes at least 3 times. Yes. Why the quotes from 2002? Perhaps because that was the first Beyond Imagination book to be published. About 800 new words thus far. regardless of the utility gained from the repackaging.. I'm sure that will not be the last time. We are always making such choices. nor selection of the quotes along with their associated numbering. So. 15 from the Major Arcana and 2 namely 41:Wayne and 48:The Man in Search of More from the Minor Arcana. If you were to read only 450 words about me as expressed in the 17 characteristic quotes above. And. it is a new expression. where is all of this taking us? Could this be transformed into a service that I could perform for others. some over a dozen time. I was thinking about what made these particular quotes special to me... there was no conscious generation of the expression. few seem to be move to do that. That's roughly one in three hundred... it doesn't seem right to count that in the total count for this musing. Could I find characteristic numbers in their lives and use this same selection of quotes as a reference book that is applicable to them as well... but these seem to be one step removed and hence secondary somehow. Two is that from over 5000 quotes that I have been moved to select to date . you could learn even more by reading even a small fraction of the millions of words that have been expressed through me since 1993. That is truly a select group. Three is that these particular quotes were numbered to correspond with important numbers in my life. We do this all the time. why would it not work for others? There are many divination systems with far less work put into them. After driving home from work. not repackaging what has come before. The quote for 18 above is particularly appropriate.. On the way home. But then. In fact.

even work is meant to be fun. I end each musing with "Be Happy" yet I rarely experience being happy. You enjoy this expression somewhat. I can choose.. You will find that this change in attitude colors everything that you are and everything that you do. So. wholeness. reality and the world. If I look at what I am experiencing. What moves me to see the connections that I see? This is not something that I was taught. Then realize it is not the conditions that matter. etc . We are meant to be whole. indeed. It is not enough to just make connections. not what is. The biggest 193 . Find ways to enjoy who you are and enjoy what you do.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 This is what I love to do . Literally. it will be as if you are a different person. The servitude is tolerable largely because I do not see any better alternatives. happiness. The process. but I am not ONE with my self much less with others. There may even be dimensions for each of these characteristics as well. Yes. Create the very conditions necessary for you to be happy. Yet. it would be great to do that. I am free in consciousness. It is just that in the world there seems to be degrees of freedom. consciousness somehow feeds me what I need to know in the moment to be able to make the connections that I make. Belief systems allow us to formalize our beliefs. The part of me that I know consciously is whole. Life is not all about work. it is because the choices we are making are getting in the way. So. nearly as long as I can remember anyway. make connections where by all rights there should be no connections.. So. Don't tie your happiness to achieving the BIG mission of your life. Beliefs are one area of such choices. Perhaps that is my Aries nature coming through. Enjoy living itself. I can deduce what I am choosing to be. You might consider the 17 characteristic quotes from above beliefs about myself. another of my original 7 characteristic numbers. It is curious that two of my original 7 characteristic numbers were 18 and 19 and my Sun just happens to be midway between 18 and 19 Aries. And. But. We are meant to be happy. I am not really experiencing being whole. spirit. that is what was. Find a way to enjoy something about each day. the connections need to tie back to ME. I've been doing that for a long time . Enjoy the journey.. and again until my reality is what I desire for it to be. I need to choose again . And. Take pleasure in simple things. Really enjoy that to the very core of your being. It is that simple. in practical terms. I am whatever I choose to be. what would that be? Who am I? It seems that the bottom line is that I am whatever I say that I am. I am selfish in what I do. But. to whom that I AM.. But. Enjoy the simple things of life. This allows me to function and even to excel at what I do. the journey is everything. Somehow. not limiting.. such is what I have been doing for going on 16 years.. But.. My Sun is in the 9th house. Choose again.. We are meant to be ONE. Now. If I want this to be different. There are literally hundreds. That is just four statements. how do I increase the degree of happiness that I experience? Make it easy for you to be happy. perhaps thousands in our belief systems. you will be. that is what I am choosing to be. Yes. Just choose. but there are parts of me that I know that I do not know. but I am a slave to a job to earn an income. Beliefs should be empowering. That you are not experiencing this in your life at the moment is a choice that you are making. I can be whatever I choose to be. It really should be. It is not that I am not any of these things. Not that I remember much. It is you being you that matters. why do I not choose to be happy? It should be so simple. YOU are HAPPY. and again. I speak of oneness. However.. whether it happens or not is in spirits hands not yours. For whatever I observe that I am. my friend. it does not bring a smile to your face because you don't choose to allow it to. If we are not being these things . We are meant to be free. Choose again. It is something that developed from listening to the voice within. We create our reality via the choices that we make. You have always been happy. So. oneness. that is something that I have been reluctant to do consciously..

That is OK.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 choice that you need to make is to BE YOU. so I can choose to come here to express in my work time. it is your differences that make you special. There is too much focus on being like others in your world. Mysteries are good for the soul. that is not what most of you experience. We are at the half way point in the month. is what I created. Not being this or being that. But. You just have to package it in the right way. I am pleased with what has come forth this year. Though. There is no one else that can do this for me. I need to do that more often. BE I NG = BE 9:The Hermit 147 = 7 x 21 = The Charioteer x The World. I choose to come here to express what consciousness would bring forth through me. You are aware of the magic and the mystery of your BEING. I imagine that makes me difficult to live with. your investment of time and effort primarily benefited you. That is an interesting image. You already take each day as it comes with few expectations. I still believe. Yes. These require more of you. It was necessary for you to get the feedback that you have received. But. much more. Just as I choose to come here to express in my free time. That was enough to cause me to smile. Oh. UR = 2118 = 2184 . You are all equal in your specialness. Overall. that doesn't change how I experience what comes forth. I choose. with its thousands of pages of information. how would I be paid? Who would ensure that my needs are met? Where is the safety net between where I am and where I choose to be? What are you doing to turn your works into something that others would choose to buy? Simply coming here to express is not enough. That such is a possibility. The Beyond Imagination expression has the potential to do that. Yes. and a noble attempt it was. Perhaps that very doubt is what keeps the right circumstances from being created or drawn into my life.. 16 July 2008 We've reached my free time.. Yet. The universe is not concerned with the effort required 194 . That is good. Perhaps it will always be such. Today. just BEING. Hmm . very few books were ever sold. Embrace that. Though.. So. you packaged it in nine books. enjoy that. That is true for everyone. it did not succeed. it did not do what you intended it to do. You have to find ways to meet and greet people and expose them to what you have to offer.66 = 888(16) . Not that you didn't put yourself into it. but I'm working on that. be happy about that. The Beyond Imagination web site was your attempt to do this. posting material is not the same as sharing or communicating. there is a sense that destiny has a place in this as well. Life is not about owning things. Though. there is some doubt. Make the choice to enjoy BEING. That was quite an achievement. Enjoy BEING. Diversity. once again. BE = 25 = Love Wisdom | Concrete Manifestation = the first two rays in my makeup.Star of David with Sides of 11:Justice. You did that very well indeed. as you well know. And what YOU ARE is unique. as usual. I was even happy a significant portion of the day. Life is about BEING whom that YOU ARE. I truly consider myself to be blessed.. You are always BEING. I have no problem living with myself. Spiritual adepts and masters have done this for ages. And. Not a majority yet. it is still there. But. Life is not about doing things. I know that I choose. You are all different but equal. and touch them deeply. That it is likely . It is still a mystery. But. You can do this. endless diversity. But. in many ways you are the same. But. I know it is ME expressing this through ME. But. You desire to touch people. Yes. But. everything in my life ties back to ME somehow. I can't help thinking about what could come forth if this became my full time occupation. I am grateful for whom that I AM and all that I am able to do. Be happy simply to BE. Yes.

in fact. we seem to be the only one that sees that. Then where did we miss the mark? Who says that we've missed anything? You've been following your inner voice wherever it led you for nearly 16 years. But. and I have no reason to believe that this will change. I can do this now. and that I share what I know. But. Unfortunately. how do I make this expression more of a need than it already is? Clearly it is a need or I would not be doing it as often as I choose to do it. we must reach others. What does the world need? The first thing that comes to mind is foundations that allow spirit to be more fully expressed in flesh. We seem to be in a pressure cooker that is about ready to blow its lid. or. Also. Perhaps I'll never know.. your time working for us made you 195 .... How are they to know that this material exists if they do not know who I am. the years have been good to me. For the most part. People will be looking for some of the kinds of things that we speak of here. believe. if I want something different to happen . it simply would not manifest otherwise. The sense is that it may not now. and feel on the WWW and in books? How else would they know? Whose job is it to find them and to tell them? For years. When we want something in our life.. but is that really what I want? It seems to be perfect timing for doing what it takes to step out on my own. It seems that I may have no choice. generating material that does indeed have the potential to change the world. A year and a half puts us at the beginning of 2010.. God is in the business of filling needs wherever they are found. My position at work could go away in as little as a year and a half. If we can transform what we choose into what we NEED. We have been prolific to say the least .. How do we make that happen? First. I need what is expressed here. it will naturally manifest in our lives. So. I must choose to be something different and to do different things. but it will then. So. That is the highest service that can be expected of anyone. In this expression. What is necessary to allow this expression to fill a need that others have? I haven't focused on the needs of others before. you've done this without expecting anything in return. That is what spirit does all the time. that I think in this way. Am I being grandiose again .. at least 16 years before. Your time in the Air Force got you a Commendation Medal. If we build the foundations for a new world. I chose to serve even before others recognized that a service was being provided . back to our earlier question. To date.. finds needs and fills them. am I simply stating the facts as I see them? So. Who knows where the economy will be then and what social changes will result. We commend you for that. we serve everyone. In a very real way. we need to find a way to transform what we want into what we need. I had hoped that the job of advertising would fall to someone else. They will be ready to embrace ideas whose time has come. I had hoped that people would simply find the Beyond Imagination site. perhaps I wasn't. Hmm . To transform this into an occupation. I thought that I was addressing the needs of society as a whole. But. think. This is in line with my mission. And. there is the promise of dramatic changes taking place prior to 2012-2013. This is what Beyond Imagination has been all about since day one. You've shared of whom that you are in ways that many never do. that has not been the case for nearly 16 years. But.. this expression has filled a need that I have. How do we go about doing that? What do I choose to be differently so that a job doing what I do here becomes what I need? How do I transform what I generate here into something that is needed so much that I have to do it full time to meet the need? One of the secrets to life is to find a need and fill it. Perhaps I was. this must become something that others need as well. More than that. I will most likely be placed somewhere else within the company. that is not enough for you.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 to meet your needs. But. that seems to be an important key. Does what is presented here provide a useful service. such is the service that I volunteered to provide.

and the sun. This is not an easy road to walk. you have been speaking as God far more in the past few months than in the years prior to that. Actually. You are free to focus on any of these aspects at any time. You play this role quite naturally as well. allowing you to bring forth additional wisdom on spiritual-based infrastructures that work. you have been playing that role for quite some time. Note that the first five Master Numbers [11. That is a lot of flexibility. the emperor. It is your choice. The fact that I can choose what I will be is illuminating. so are 66. You are still a hermit. You truly are a Master . 44.. These are the masks that you have learned to play.. For instance. and 99. six archetypes. the hanged man. Well. With this many masks. when we add in 41 and 48 . Do what it takes to make it so. Some you are outstanding at. This is directly in line with your purpose and would serve everyone. 21:The World can be played as 2 + 19 or a 9 + 12. In fact. 19:The Sun has been prominent in addition to 9:The Hermit. You know that. others you are just so-so. 2 4 9 12 18 19 2 4 6 23 24 37 39 51 52 9 25 40 53 11 27 41 55 12 28 42 58 13 29 43 60 14 30 44 62 15 16 18 19 20 21 22 31 32 33 34 35 36 45 46 48 50 64 From this palette of six numbers in the Major Arcana . But. not by a long shot. It will be interesting to see where it leads. Explore all of your numbers (parts) and choose to be whatever combinations allow you to be of service. you can choose to be any of 15 archetypes and 32 characteristic types. coming from an order that works alone. Not all of the roles are "good" ones for you. The total is 28:The Man with the World in His Hand = God. though its numbers are growing. Lately.. Consider yourself to be an actor. 23: wayne = 2 + 9 + 12 and 4 + 19 41: Wayne = 41 and 2 + 9 + 12 + 18 and 4 + 18 + 19 68: WAYNE = 9 + 18 + 41 and 2 + 18 + 48 196 . you have it within you to be a 11:Master = 2:Love/Wisdom + 9:The Hermit.. 77. 12:The Hanged Man + 19:The Sun yields 31:Five of Wands = Youths Fighting. the moon. 22. we do have a lot to choose from. Adding 2:The High Priestess brings you to 30:Four of Wands = Camelot.. guided by consciousness herself. At the moment. I am not limited to being a hermit. ever ready to take the next step. more than even you knew. that would be a highly desireable focus for you.. 33. Will I always be a hermit? In this existence yes . Actually. This is also the Fool Complete. there is more than that because sometimes there are multiple combinations that result in the same number. that took some time but was quite revealing. And. That is a lot of masks that you can wear. These are very different expressions.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 part of the Legion of Lightworkers. 88. It is already causing me to think in new ways.. 55] are all within your arsenal. but you are also the high priestess. Adding 2:The High Priestess to this yields 15:The Devil. This is still a select group. You will be surprised how flexible you can be at this. You're heart's desire is 22:The Master Builder = 4:The Emperor + 18:The Moon = The Subconscious. Such a society as Camelot can be built.. You choose what you will be in every moment. as a result. While 13:Death = 4:The Emperor + 9:The Hermit. Also.

But. Numbers as I use them are an intuitive tool as well though I use simple mathematics at times to combine things. Spiritual law ensures that we reap the consequences of our choices. Who knows what we'll add tomorrow. we've added the concept being actors with many masks that we can choose to wear. I don't think that I've said it in precisely those words before. something that I simply cannot resist. there are seven combinations here. they are not meant to imprison us. why don't I feel that I know that? Why is that not the way that I experience this expression? How can it be from me without my being aware of creating it? What I feel. The shackles that bind us are never so heavy that we cannot remove them. Neither did I learn what the tarot cards meant. God made us free. A prison is a prison. some bad. Yesterday. all of the things that truly matter for us are possible for us to reach or to achieve. There is something powerful attracting me here. Choices always have consequences .. But. It is a matter of where we focus our attention and effort and what choices we make. we attract and create everything that we experience. The illusion is not meant to be so enticing that we don't see beyond it. something that I choose not to resist anyway. I find that interesting. Then.. Experiences and feelings are part of the illusion. We are making choices all the time . How do I make what works for me applicable universally. Today. Yet. how do I apply it to others. Quite the contrary. I've had two Sunday musings in a row. I never really learned much about interpreting numbers in numerology. especially given that many might consider me to be a lunatic for seeing the world in the way that I do. something magical. This makes the sixth musing this week. However. At least. There is something special. it would mean that 18:The Moon is a common mask that is part of every option for being Wayne or WAYNE.. We can get to Wayne in two ways already and to WAYNE with 48. That does not mean that they have no utility.. even not making a choice is making a choice. That would take us back down to 7 characteristic numbers. And prisons are not meant for those who would be free. we connected numbered quotes from the 2002 Musings to the intuitive process of assigning meaning. she is a part of me . Some things are beyond our grasp regardless of what we choose. That is a revelation. Just noticed that we may not need 41 at all. It forces us to encounter parts of ourself of which we are only consciously aware by their works in our lives. Our freedom to choose is our greatest power. She is the one from which all of this flows so effortlessly. Through it. Actually. Though. We must find ways to go beyond our limitations if we would be free. Choice allows us to be just about anything that we want to be within the envelope of what God made us to be. the world is so complex that it is difficult to 197 . Also. The tarot is an intuitive tool that deals with imagery and archetypes. Clearly. I am the one from which all of this flows so effortlessly. what I experience is not necessarily what is true. Fortunately or unfortunately.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 All three of these are aspects of whom that I am.. some neutral. some good. Source is such a "part" of me. That hasn't been happening very often of late. so. Relating numerology to the tarot seemed a natural thing to do. something transformational about a stream of consciousness expression. I'm onto something here. just from my first name.. He also gave us free will. 18 July 2008 We made it to my time again. There are always ways to do that. all different.

I have no friends. every moment. Religion is as close as many have come to this and that is not the same thing. That. These are what make a society a society. This maximizes the good that is done. It seems that this programmer knew exactly what he was doing. I needed to be independent of all of that. everything that any of us do impacts all of us. For some reason. Why would I choose that? Who knows? That is simply what I have been moved to choose to date. and few acquaintances. not the same thing at all. that clearly does not apply here. I have explored the writings of some of the holy books of various religions . We need to make choices that serve the collective as well as ourselves. Though. Yet. and almost none of it specifically.. no wonder my life is as it is. I don't know how my mind works. Hmm .. There is almost no interaction with people in my free time.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 tell what the consequences of our choices will be.. The "and all concerned" clause is extremely important. Yes. formed the foundation for all that has come forth here since 1993. In a world that is ONE. all is not lost.. at other than a surface level. or is there something more to it? I would create the foundations for a community of which I would choose to be a member.. The complexity is so vast that it is unfathomable. There are ties everywhere between everything. we exist within that complex web of life anyway and are perfectly fine in being whom that we are. I consider this expression to be a major part of whom that I am. I am free to choose again. and very little of that is social interaction. I was moved to read over a thousand metaphysical books. Interesting. but do I believe that. I have to start placing more value on interactions with people. and from 1993 through NOW. On brief occasions. At least none of which I am aware. They. but becomes second nature fairly quickly. but this is going far beyond that. for 34 years. But. I consider myself to be a hermit . perhaps less than two handfuls that I am personally aware of. I've been doing this since 1974. That suggests that no such community exists today. have been exposed to what has been expressed here at Beyond Imagination. I spend here engaged in this expression. No one other that ME knows ME. I don't know how all of the material from those metaphysical books got organized and connected in my mind. but they did not capture me. garbage out just came to mind. and that there was a programmer involved in moving me to read the books that I read in the order that I read them. At least. My religious training stopped when I was 12. and I feel as if I've just scratched the surface. Though most people don't know what that is. The saying: garbage in. The only relationship I 198 . Many have not had any metaphysical training at all. If I want to be a part of society rather than apart from society.. The world is richly interconnected. I can say that. on relationships. I consider every moment spent here valuable beyond measure. at each and every moment. At this point. Given that assessment . it reveals a lot about whom that I am. I stopped going to church when I realized that I couldn't believe what they were teaching me. This takes some practice to do. it got me to 1993 when I started to express. Why? Why have I chosen to be so isolated from people? Is that just who I am. What a marvelous journey it has been. These are what make life worth living... I remember very little of it generally. Regardless. though the outcome may have been unpredictable. Very few people. But.. Yes. Focusing on relationships will not be easy. Something seems wrong about this. They have not been given the tools and the training to begin to understand whom that they are. and the ideas they contained. there is a strong sense that I was programmed by everything I read . However. it has been a lonely journey for the most part. Instead. Nearly everything that I do keeps me away from others. on friendships. Most of my limited interaction with people is at work. We have an inner barometer or navigation system that can guide us in the right direction by moving us to make the right choices for us and all concerned in the moment.. And.

you open up. It helps if the two are aligned. why would I continue to choose to be that? We are what we choose to be. but. For me. it is clear that I am grandiose at times. What are you choosing to be NOW? Are you available to love and be loved? Is that not what relationships are all about? Can you care about others as much as you care about yourself? On the outside they are flesh and blood. it seems that it is time for this to change. Many with far less than you have are able to find that. Here. are able to feel that. You need to find ways to open up to others more directly. The sure sign that you have found it is that you will be happier than you have ever been. but you do it to an unseen audience. why not YOU? Are you any less deserving than anyone else? You set the standard very high for yourself . on the inside they are spirit. That is 250K per year on average. Much of that you can deduce from what you see expressed here. are able to truly live in JOY. "Follow your bliss". But. So. Once again. the choice is really to be what it takes. But. How do I get people to know who I am and what I do so that they would know to do such searches? The very question will set in motion the means to answer it... we also ARE what we were MADE TO BE. But. Self-judgment has always been a major factor in my life. I don't experience much of the first. Further. But. so high that you have a hard time living up to your own expectations.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 have focused on thus far is my relationship with myself. I never really felt good enough. Interesting. But. it has not been overly difficult either. But. Why not YOU? Yes. what good are they if they don't reach people that they can move? How can they serve others if they don't reach others? There have been many times over the years when I've expressed the need to do some kind of outreach to get the Beyond Imagination expression to its rightful audience. Has it forced you to pay too high of a price to choose to live as you have? Your life has not been easy . I googled both "wayne hartman" and "beyond imagination". The Beyond Imagination Main Page was in the top 5 for both searches.. the ME that you made me to be? "Follow your bliss" as Joseph Campbell said. What that is. You can be that in and of yourself.. it seems that somehow I am aligned with spirit . But. and perhaps even no audience at all. It is time for me to choose to be something new that will enable it to change. Perhaps this has contributed to a lack of happiness as well. perhaps even often. That is appropriate for an extreme introvert. at the moment. You will know soon enough. So. I would hope that any who encounter this expression can say the same about themselves. This amazes ME.. I amaze ME. I can see how I might come across as being superior.. if only to yourself. That is your choice. But. I don't yet know. However. Find what gives you JOY. Earlier tonight. it has the consequences that you experience. but there is an abundance of the second. That is a lot of words. what does it take to be ME. then the question will be will you choose to do what it takes? Actually. You use the word namaste meaning the spirit within me bows to the spirit within you. I am what I am. One answer that came right away was we will know by how happy we are. Of course to follow it. not yet aligned with whom that I AM. do you judge others much as you think others judge you? You would not have such a fear of and distaste for judgment if it were not in some way a reflection of what you do. do you really do that in your interactions? Or. There have been several opportunities to develop friendships. Four million plus words in nearly 16 years. and be joyful. are able to be that. happier than you can imagine. my good intentions have always stopped short. though that is not my intent. but. how do we know whether they are or not. no matter what I did or how well I did it. you have to find what it is to begin with. just as you. This may 199 . why would I choose to be an extreme introvert? Further. But. But. The second answer that came right after that was we will know by how much creative expression flows through us. you don't have to be by yourself to experience it. knowing what I know. I feel it strongly nonetheless. From these musings. but you were not receptive and available to them.

But. What about loving who you are? Now. And.. But. more of me? It all comes down to happiness.. what YOU created me to be. The musings continue to be the highlight of our week. But. Here I come to create the very best that I can create. That is OK. I thought that I was in harmony with myself. and hence does not recognize it.. especially for one who comes to create community in the new age. it seems that I am less in harmony than I thought. the expression is somewhat blank. Is that what I am to be next? 22:Master Builder came up as well 55. That is just not how I express. it is not what I do that makes me happy.. what lifestyle changes would I need to make to allow this to manifest? I don't see myself teaching in the standard way of lecturing to a classroom of students.. That is not something that happens as powerfully when you isolate yourself from others. of course not. Change always starts from realizing where we are and making different choices that take us closer to where we desire to be. is that true? Am I being all that you created me to be? The immediate answer was no. including happiness. I seemed to be happy then. I don't know what the fifth Master Number signifies on its own. I do not feel happy.. and my fate somehow. as I am ready to experience it.. I don't know why it is as it is. at times soaring quite high indeed.. But. it comes from being in harmony with the world. Clearly. The only thing that I desire to be is whom that I AM. But. I have resigned this to being my nature. But. Here. You are powerful beyond measure. There have been many times over the past 16 years when I was soaring in consciousness . but I trust that it will be revealed to me as I need to know it. neither of those are enough somehow.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 still be in writing. It is starting to become a habit.. when? But. I barely interact at all. since that is one of your preferences . Public speaking is not one of my 200 . 33:Master Teacher came up many times in different contexts on the drive to Redondo Beach this evening. I don't know exactly what that is . I would feel differently and I would interact differently with others. I am engaged fully. Except for here. Am I worthy of being happy? What does it take to be worthy of being something? I am highly productive both here and at work. I love doing this. I consider this expression to be of great value to me and to the world. we seem to be onto something. rather.. I truly do. So. But. with happiness being something the world has to offer. who would I teach? Where would I find students? I believe that there is more than enough material to pull from. but you are powerful in subtle ways. It is as if happiness is not something that I cannot achieve on my own . The world is not used to this. loving what you do does not suffice either. that too is not enough. I would be worthy of all that the world has to offer . Interesting that we would phrase it that way. But. what we are is what we choose to be.. deeply as the song says? If I did. Am I ready to teach what I have learned over the past 34 years? If not now. But. the sum of these two. Do I really love whom that I AM? Truly. Even now. At present. madly. perhaps far less. in particular. That is good. this will change. such it is. 20 July 2008 This makes three Sundays in a row. If I were being all that I AM.. but it also needs to be with your presence. I am good at what I do in both domains as well. but was I truly happy? Smiles don't come to my face very often. Here I come to be whom that I AM in ways that none other than me is aware. It is curious that this should be such a solitary endeavor. I am not being happy most of the time. The feminine will be the dominant force in the new age. but with consciousness herself. Why is that not good enough? Why is there something in me that demands more .

This very expression is like that. nor one that I personally would care to fill. Don't limit yourself based on your past or what you think that you are capable of. It seems that there is much to do by then.. Trust ME. But. That is an interesting way of looking at things. it is this meaning that is of the utmost importance. that is what I desire. I provided an example of the level of sharing that I would like to see in the world. I expected much more from doing this. That is what Beyond Imagination is all about . Do I have my feet firmly planted on the ground? Clearly. You will be doing this for the remainder of your days. But. What is important now is not the doing. we have 22:The Master Builder + 19:The Sun. I don't know why that is. It comes from a place that I do not consciously know other than hearing the words arrive in my head. allowing the words to come forth as they will. It seems that the time to do that is NOW. How do I open up in the area of relationships? How do I relax the need to express as the hermit and choose to express something else? One combination of masks that I could wear is 41:Wayne = 4:The Emperor + 18:The Moon + 19:The Sun. Combining the first two. Indeed. It is not for me to edit what comes forth. I gave you all of the gifts that you need to carry out your mission and roles. They need to learn to trust that source and act based on it.. few people know who I am. But. it is not completed. as the 48:The Man in Search of More. I don't make friends easily .. manifesting what we dream into the reality that we experience individually and collectively. But. actually not at all.. Beyond Imagination provides a record of one who has done just this.. I trust the process completely. having left but returning some day. Where is all of this leading and how soon? 2012 is just over the horizon. It is interesting that 23:wayne = 4:The Emperor + 19:The Sun. This is what people need to learn most. That means that somehow I need to meet people that can help in this endeavor. They need to learn who they are. that is 201 . my consciousness soars to great heights . I am in command of my own world.. and that I am like the prodigal son. The hermit is not part of that decomposition. You have done much already. I shared openly. They need to listen to that source and really hear what it has to say. When is that day going to be NOW? If there is one thing most lacking from my life. I even frequented a spiritual web chat site for nearly a year. It is a glorious achievement indeed. It just doesn't have any subjects other than me. But. and comes forth with things that are of the clouds.. Seminars and workshops simply wouldn't work. Four is symbolized by the square and represents groundedness. I am an Emperor in my own life. it also seems that I am not to do this alone. Emperor does not seem to be a position that is available in the world . I still feel that such a family exists . this seems to be the combination that I am to adopt next. And. I didn't share with anyone in particular with one exception. none of that allowed me to find members of my spiritual family. We comment you for all that you have become and all that you have captured in this expression. But. Even though I have been sharing this expression on the WWW for 13 years. Meeting people is not something that I am good at. and very few have contacted me to provide feedback. Some of these are still awaiting development. Though. And.. it is the being.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 strengths. there is always room for one more step when we follow consciousness in our life. It comes forth a word or two at a time. How do I create the foundations for a new world that allows these same concepts to be brought down to earth? Yes. but he is always safe. they are inherent within you. 22:The Fool complete stands at the edge of a cliff. This is what gives your life meaning. Why would we choose to be The Emperor? We have always had a affinity to Plato's concept of Philosopher Kings... They need to learn to find the source within.

2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 it. You are not who you were even three months ago. how do I know what that is? It is not a matter of knowing. you have done so because that is what you chose to do. Though. there is some benefit that comes from it that is at least equivalent to what I get from spending my time here. and even God but the later three are with those aspects of those that are within me. it is good for the soul. We are not meant to be as others are. we need to do just that . this is something that I know anyway.socialize. that is the way that I see it. And. everything that is done through Wayne is from Wayne. I 202 . Diversity is greatly valued. we may find that there are some others to whom we can relate closely. Thus far. Such is not the way that it was meant to be. I need to do more of that. You will know. We get what we focus upon. In other cases. Wayne is not static. But. Wayne is evolving as demonstrated by the way this very expression is evolving. In some cases. Without diversity. Whatever YOU see that is NOT YOU. You will be that precisely when you choose to be that. and choose to BE again . It seems that both of these come into play in our relationships. relationships. We have two rules in play . Choose to BE. We find all sorts of ways to make some lesser and others greater. it is a matter of BEING. We each have different abilities and talents. You decided to make different choices about who you would be. You have changed in major ways. There is nothing wrong with acknowledging and even emphasizing our differences. spirit. choose again and choose again until who you are is agreeable to YOU. we are a society of many. and choose to BE again. It is part of belonging to a society. I have deep relationships with myself. Yet.. It leads to the variety of experiences that we individually and collectively experience. in the grand scheme of things we are meant to be a society of ONE. We were each created to be something that we alone can be in the context of society and the world. But.. However. Definitely not as alone as I have chosen to be for most of my life. Perhaps it is something that we all know. we do not act like a society. All of my other relationships are on the surface at best. You will know when you are being the YOU that I created you to be. How would I know? There are so few relationships in which I have been involved. It is high time that I socialized more. Will it be any different expressing as Wayne? You have always expressed as Wayne. I believe that there are around 6 billion humans on the planet. I have been a society of one. We are not meant to be alone in the world. If we want more socialization. I know that sounds harsh. Though. we pass judgment on people in accord with these valuations. Is that by choice? I believe the answer is yes. like attracts like and opposites attract. but we spent a good hour socializing and laughing with a co-worker. Literally. We each see the world differently. We each express creatively in different ways. If you don't like where these choices are taking you.. We do not treat each other as equals and as brethren. even as little as three weeks ago. consciousness. You always know. Everything that you are is Wayne. until that time. What would I BE next? I would BE what YOU created me to be? But. It may not be the same as being here. You will know when you are being the best that you can be. That makes for one large society of humankind. we were also created as unique individuals. this may be due to an affinity between our differences. until you are the I AM THAT I AM. And. We were all created as equals. But. 21 July 2008 What would come forth today? We're getting a later start than normal. I spend the vast majority of my time alone.. Yet. And. That was good. choose to BE THAT. there would be no purpose to existence. this may be due to our likenesses. Being social is something that we choose to be. However.

They are not me. But... NOW. evil. Further. or taking an action. not all of them are physical .. in your world. most are not. every action has consequences. As I am without needs. There are a host of others around you at all times. You are never alone. wherever it leads you. But.. beware. lying. And. But what seems to be and what IS are not the same. never. Perhaps it applies to others as well. You are never alone. where such behavior is still practiced .. is the YOU that I made YOU to BE? This is not something that you develop over time. you only have a partial understanding of the forces at play. The law is precise. That doesn't stop you from perceiving things differently. Surely. but they are not real. Others follow the way of the heart more closely. you set in motion the need to reap the consequences.. all manner of obstacle is removed from your path. cheating. it can seem that I am alone a lot. the advent of the WWW and its exponential growth over the past two decades is changing a lot of that. because it is ME expressing as and through you. in fact. so are you . predictable in many respects.. it takes a great deal of training to get where you've come. When you realize that. Just as you get pleasure from watching shows and movies that you like . my son... No.. and that these needs are not met.. You know that this is the right way to live for you. stealing. YOU can only BE YOU. turmoil. That applies to each and every one of you. The greatest YOU that YOU can BE. and perhaps necessarily 203 . truly realize that. intolerance. in this very instant. If at any time it no longer serves you. Every choice. simply find another that does. Do so willingly and completely. while they exist in the world. What about privacy? Do you really believe that there is such a thing? Do you believe that anything can be hidden? Yes. But. especially if it makes you happy.. you were created in the likeness and image of ME. Different paths suit different souls. for every need is filled always.. especially if you LOVE doing it. You are an interesting character . No path is better than any other.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 see war. As the hermit. DO what you are moved to DO in the moment. Follow each opportunity you are given. even within any path there are great variations. there are many watching your life. violence. Allow yourself to BE everything that YOU ARE.. Most of those are things or feelings that exist in the illusion. You will be guided at all times.. and it is unforgiving . Oh. there are others in unseen domains that take pleasure in watching your character experiencing life. These I leave for you to fulfill of your own accord by your choices and your actions. rather they are wants. There is none other like unto you. that everyone is being exactly what I made them to be? Can you believe that? Can you believe that it is ME expressing as and through each and every one of you at all times? Can you believe that? I am perfect as I am. or are they just choices about what you would prefer to experience? Choices about preferences are almost never needs. but it is also just. In making a choice. But. I do not want to be those things.. Yours was primarily an intellectual one leading to a spiritual one. But.. but very unpredictable in other respects. anger. compartmentalizing and hoarding of information is rampant. Trust your intuition. I know exactly what you need even before you do . even before it becomes a need. hate. so. they are not states of BEING that you can choose to BE. There are many paths however. They knock for a reason. This is the only way to live for you. and a host of other like things. But. BE what you are moved to BE in the moment. injustice. This is something that you choose to be in an instant.. not even YOU. are these truly needs. This is spiritual law at work. Find what works for you and follow it so long as it is of utility to you. Can you believe that the world is expressing perfectly . there are still many secret programs. they are not REAL. You perceive that you have needs .. Still others proceed on a primarily physical path. They are not real . You can only BE qualities to which BEING applies. Follow your bliss..

works that arise from being are special indeed. But. and All That Ever Will Be. this is around two hours later. Who created the atomic bomb? Collectively. How can consciousness be so creative and so prolific? Are there others like me who express in this way? If there are. Ye shall know them by their works is a grand truth.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 as there are those in the world that might choose to use the information from these programs in ways that do much harm.. But. Clearly. what about observing what we are BEING? Observing is action. and know. have I really chosen to share ME? Is my very presence something that is worth sharing. it does so until I choose for it to stop. We'll have to see what comes forth today. Perhaps it is my hearts content. nothing. Though. it is not being. 22 July 2008 Another fine day for musing. there is nothing. But. When I open Composer. from your being great works flow. That is an interesting way of looking at it. Each day of expression brings forth something new. does it reveal anything about who I am . That is enough. Yes. But. This stream of consciousness comes forth from me through me. about what I see. Experiencing is action as well. There is nothing that compares to it. You can know more about me through reading this expression than you would ever know about me from personal interaction. Generally. this is the only way that we really know others or even parts of ourselves. can it ever be anything more. My life is a case in point. And. not just my presence. my creations. But. I created it as many of you through many of you. the expression is there ready to come forth. choose for it to stop. or did I do that as you through you? There is nothing but God. does that really say anything about me? Or. God is All That Is. Then. How do we know when that is? How do we know when we are BEING the best that we can BE? How do we know? You will know by how it feels when you are being your best. it is what makes us unique. I know how to turn it on and turn it off. hear.. But. We never really know what we are being until we choose to BE it. It reveals a lot about me. in general. And. You feel it deep within you. And. the works are doing. I have chosen to share much in this expression. Did YOU choose to drop the bomb. other than that I am the one through whom and from whom all of this comes. I know all that you do and do not do. Though. Who do you think is compelling you to do it in this way? Is there anything in your world that is not being done by ME as YOU through YOU? No. I'm curious as to how this can be. The bottom line is that the only thing of importance that I really have to share is ME and my creations. Do you get that? Do you really get that? There can be nothing that exists apart from ME. what is BEING? BEING is what is left when we cease the doing and the observing. Yes. My experience is that it does get created. Our presence is who we are. does it simply say something about what I do? At the moment. We never really know until it happens. But. Of course it would be something of great value to share. It is created by me. But. Yes. though it is probably an extreme case. even after close to 16 years. We know then by what they do. ever. other than reading 204 . And. feel. You simply know. But. but that of each of us. it seems that the answer is the later. is this expression "personal". sharing is a participant sport. none of this is hidden from God. it is doing. All That Was. think. believe. I can share this stream of consciousness expression to my hearts content. It is very rare that we know others for whom they are. It seems to require more than one to manifest. It doesn't matter that I have no clue as to how I create it. It seems that. it is not BEING either. it is at its highest peak when we are being whom that YOU created us to BE. You bet it is. I have yet to encounter them. Yesterday was a little lighter than normal.

Destiny and choice seem to be at opposite poles of the spectrum . why would anyone other than me care about what is expressed here? How does it relate to them directly? For one thing. But. I am always safe. always. I am at home in the realm of the unknown and even the unknowable. my lifestyle doesn't permit finding them. And. I do this because I am moved to do this by a force that I cannot resist. Looking out at the world. I was just fine thinking that all of this was coming forth from source. but spiritual law assures that we reap the consequences of any choices we make. And. but sometimes only a syllable. All needs are met. I interact with people so little overall that I know little about what they feel. it has only been in the past few months. I simply do not know. flying so high that I lost touch with the consensus reality for nearly nine months cumulatively. Clearly. in the NOW . We have free will. Somehow that does not seem right. I only do it when I have to. believe. why do I care? I care because doing this is a form of therapy for me and teaches me of whom that I am in a way that nothing else does. I had to experience the creator side of me. we all live in worlds of our own making. think. But. But. and there is always room for one more step. and I do things that many do not do. there are many things that I do not know. that is me. Though that doesn't stop us from dreaming of what might be. Prior to that.. You might say that I have been on a 16 year adventure in consciousness.. After believing that I was renouncing my will for THY WILL for so many years . After all.. Though. somehow that was not enough.. The voice is usually about one word ahead of what I am typing . know. You could definitely say that I live in Wayne's World. I know there is a part of me that is creating this voice in my head even as I type and observe all of this happening. being guided one step at a time is all that we need. Even the choice not to choose is a choice. to realize that I have been making choices all along was a major shift in awareness. period. and I am free to choose what I do. In a way that is sad. sometimes two words. or are. from consciousness herself through me. I am free to choose again at any time. flying high a good portion of that time. but also something about the nature of consciousness that flows through them as well. it seems that things 205 . We are all unique and special. allowing nearly 5 million words to come forth. that is unless we choose our own destiny. I know things that many do not know. That model served me well. When we live in the present.. I am free to choose what I believe. I know that consciousness is there guiding me every step of the way. But. this is for my benefit.. It is curious that free will and choice have dominated these musings of late.. Such is how I have chosen it to be. The closest that I come to that is in hearing the voice in my head in the moment just prior to typing these words. I firmly believe that we do. I don't know where this expression will carry you. But. To realize that everything expressed here is coming not only through me but FROM ME was a big shift as well. they could very well find me to be crazy.. Why should anyone else care about any of this? For that matter. Indeed. But. The world is perfect. With her at my side. There is no end state that matters.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 extensively for 34 years .. I strongly believe that there is a spiritual plan for the collective evolution of the expression of spirit in flesh. Planning is still a very foreign concept to me. such is how it is. I am free to choose what I want to be. Is taking such a walk a useful thing to do? How would I know except by sharing what has come forth and seeing how it impacts others? Yes. but it does seem that there is a destiny being played out here if only for my eyes and benefit.. it allows someone to walk in my stream of consciousness for awhile and thereby get to know something about me. I am free to choose what I think. I believe things that many do not believe. Why do I believe this? I have no evidence. But.

I definitely relate to being a dreamer and reaching a state where the world will live as one. With a few keywords.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 are getting worse not better over time. It was played again. Plato's Republic. and my own Beyond Imagination book offer other such visions. this was John Lennon's vision of a Utopia. Perhaps it is to some fraction of the thousands of 206 . Every time I hear it. Yet. even this very expression. The song is quite popular. Imagine there's no Heaven It's easy if you try No hell below us Above us only sky Imagine all the people Living for today Imagine there's no countries It isn't hard to do Nothing to kill or die for And no religion too Imagine all the people Living life in peace You may say that I'm a dreamer But I'm not the only one I hope someday you'll join us And the world will be as one Imagine no possessions I wonder if you can No need for greed or hunger A brotherhood of man Imagine all the people Sharing all the world You may say that I'm a dreamer But I'm not the only one I hope someday you'll join us And the world will live as one Clearly. Tens of millions of people watch these shows. Is this expression "useful"? Clearly it is to me. you have to know where to search to get to useful things efficiently. You have to love Google. the illusion is deceiving. there is so much that can be accessed. Thomas Moore's Utopia. sung by the runner up on American Idol on the show So You Think You Can Dance just last week. There is something magical expressed here. But. And. John Lennon's song Imagine was the final song played on American Idol this season. It has not been the only one. The lyrics of this song are hauntingly beautiful. It seems like I hear it at least twice a week and I only listen to the radio about eight hours a week. Just seeing the lyrics bring a shiver to my head and through my body. it gives me goose bumps.

It is what it is. belief management is not typically taught in school. core beliefs are that powerful. if we can dream it … we can indeed achieve it. 23 July 2008 What next? What is on the agenda to be expressed today. Just checked the word count. Unfortunately. That doesn't mean that we can't be more or be better . we simply do not experience. Most beliefs were programmed into us. and for the people. we did not question what we were told. We choose to manifest what John Lennon dreamed of. there is such an agenda. emotional. Personally. that typically falls to governments and to major companies. in 13 years. Everything is the result of our choices. This could easily be a theme song for Beyond Imagination. Another is I am not worthy of . One example of a core belief that leads to poverty is there is never enough. We literally have thousands of beliefs in our belief systems and many of them are contradictory. if there are no countries. The biggest area where choices impact the reality that we create is in the area of beliefs. but perhaps not. This is also 88 + 41:Wayne exalted. In most cases. I have no conscious awareness of it. could we live without any government at all. One meaning is ONE to 9:The Hermit. Hour long sessions can be completely transformational. we are still talking in the low tens of thousands . I've found that Psych-K is a particularly powerful way of ridding yourself of negative beliefs. We are all being the best we can be in each moment.. But. But. That is always enough. Whatever we believe that we are not worthy of. But. Why is this fair? Why do we knowingly allow it to happen? I would be whom that I AM. There were exactly 129 words in the Imagine lyrics. this is clearly not something that one person can do. A more empowering belief is I am worthy of abundance on physical. who can choose to commit resources in the world? Right now. Though. I have no agenda for my life... There is still a sense that I need to live in the NOW. Our core beliefs are the major filters that color the way that we see things and what experiences we draw unto us. I am having to set agendas for meetings with others. Changing even one core belief can completely change our reality. not hundreds of thousands or millions as we had initially hoped to reach. how does it allow us to get what we need? How do we know what we need? We have allowed advertisers to use sophisticated psychological techniques to program us as to what we need for years. it just means that right NOW.. It is just a matter of choosing to commit the right resources to making it happen. We learned them from our parents and from authority figures as we grew up. That is a number that came up prominently in my drive home last week. But. I found them extremely helpful even though I had been working with managing my beliefs for many years. It is curious that in my work. mental. Imagine no possession … rules out most companies as well. Yes. something that we do not yet seem to be close to achieving. by the people. Surely. we are doing our best given our abilities and the circumstances that we have attracted to us via our choices. and spiritual levels. We are always reaping the consequences of our choices both individually and collectively.. But. It takes a concerted effort to turn our dreams into reality. That is enough. But. allowing whole groups of negative core beliefs to be replaced by far more empowering ones. Or.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 visitors to the Beyond Imagination site. that doesn't preclude 207 . Perhaps I should have. I've been to around 8 such sessions in the past year alone.. then we would need a global government of the people. It seems like that would require an enlightened populous. But.

but on many days. Fortunately. some imposed by others. So. Though. I do not even keep a balance in my checking account. In the never take more than you give realm. I generally begin that appointment around 5:30 PM. or from spirit herself. it seem that asking for something is not sufficient to make it so. But. expectation falls close behind. I love expressing in this way. And. What more could I ask? I don't expect much . For yet another thing. The sense is that I have deposited much into the spiritual bank account. not often. We choose. we have to so choose. For us to be directed in any way by any thing. I have been moved to set a worth of this expression at $1 per word. There was a brief pause as I felt a cold tingling feeling throughout my head. not of others. We are the director choosing what directives. I have not figured out how to translate this expression into what it is worth.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 planning things. It is not my nature or my place to make demands . Given that we are at over 5 million words to date. I started on time but got distracted for awhile. That is generally a sign that we are onto something important. on what accounts am I failing that the things that I ask for are not being manifest. and especially not of spirit. in many cases if we want particular things to happen. Regardless. But. That happens sometimes. I haven't really learned how to withdraw from that account. this expression is that important and that much fun for me. there is not just the thrill of the moment in bringing it forth. worthiness is needed. we will apply to our lives. We have asked for many things over the past 16 years of Beyond Imagination expression. I can't think of anything that I would rather be doing. For another thing. is this really something that I am imposing on myself? There is something about spirit gently pushing us to be all that we can be. they don't just happen by themselves. we need to plan them . Yes. Most appointments are like that. But. we live with "directives" in our lives all of the time. that is a sizeable bank account. most of the things that we have asked for have not come to be. And. Tonight. We choose. There is no place to go that I know of where I can trade in my 2000 word musing for $2000. No. Being directed seems to be opposed to being free. Even this expression is a sort of appointment with consciousness. I don't demand anything. not every day. But is that correct? Are things truly as they seem to be? Or. and it lasts for close to two hours. Why is that? What more is needed? For one thing. The first thing that came to mind is worthiness. but this definitely does not amount to directing us to be such. We choose. So what directives am I choosing to apply NOW? Be Happy is one that I would like to apply. we don't even come to the worth of half of the words expressed to date. But. We do this both individually and collectively. But. and we do this all of the time. However. I have a belief that there will always be enough and my needs are meager so what I have easily covers them. is anything demanded of me? The only directives that I feel apply are to be whom that I AM and to be all that I can be. Even if I count everything that I have been paid on all of my jobs to date. Hence. is that true either? When we make choices. We plan them in advance to occur at a particular place and point in time. trust is needed. In fact. Some of these are self-imposed. not of myself. But. But how do I change "would like to apply" into "am applying"? That is what I am asking for NOW. expectation is needed. This time it seems to involve being the director of our lives. Do I truly feel worthy to receive what I have asked for? The immediate answer is no. there is the thrill in revisiting what is expressed time and time again.. we choose whether we will follow these directives. I try to keep such appointments to a manageable minimum. I don't know why. It always comes down to that. I love doing this.. I'm expressing another 208 . internal or external.. I believe that I have a high positive balance. except in the spiritual arena... effectively we are directing ourselves to follow one path versus another. However.. These seem to be imposed on me from God. It is interesting that in my personal finances.

Though.. You choose which of these areas flow clearly and which are blocked in your life. If it is not. but you keep most of your feelings to yourself. they provide beliefs with the impetus that they need to manifest in your reality. you will be pleased by what results from the choices you are making.. the pay would never catch up to the worth of the spiritual work accomplished. you are wasting your time and not performing to your potential. As you establish relationships. It is particularly powerful because of how it makes you feel. that is understandable. even after 16 years. You know that. You are starting to take steps in that direction. Indeed. we experience the consequences of those choices. Though your inner life is fairly emotional as well. you will find that your world opens up in ways that it could not otherwise do. it seems to be true. Do we know how we make any choices? We can see some of the choices that we make. Wayne has focused primarily on spiritual and mental needs. I have no conscious sense of choosing the thoughts that are expressed here . love is all there is. This very expression is an exercise in giving my intuition voice. In particular. But. You feel things deeply . Further. much of my life is lived based on my intuition. I seem to be stuck in a job where I trade 40 plus hours of work each week for $3. Relationships with others can be just as satisfying as your relationship with yourself.000 every week.000 words per week.. Where do thoughts come from? How do they get into our head? What organizes the sequence in 209 . But that is what was. They are not to be taken lightly. many choice are based on gut feel and/or intuition. I trust it implicitly. emotional. Your power to choose also extends to your thoughts.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 10. Become a master of emotions. In my case. By energy. They are literally the energy that puts things in motion. Don't just react to what you experience.. But. if I could do this full time. Instead. In the end. Everything that you do should be imbued with love . I know that they come into my head. we mean time. It is time for you to experience relationships. At this rate. How do we make the process more conscious? Is this even desirable? What is wrong with relying on intuition to get us through life? There are far worse things to rely on. we have free will. Never underestimate the importance of emotions. I allow it to move me to be things and to do things. It seems that I have always trusted it. I can relate to that. even if I stopped musing. it became the prevalent force in my life with my spiritual awakening in 1993. focus. And. Feelings are more important than you know. everything. that number would probably grow by over 30. Most people don't realize that they choose their thoughts either. and attention imbued with love. but it is true nonetheless. What do you choose now? It is time to open whom that you are to others.000. We indeed make choices. I don't think that I've ever said that before. Nonetheless. Hmm . And. Such is another powerful directive in life. Your power to choose extends to the field of emotions. most of our choices seem to be made on other than conscious levels. Do what you love.. you do not necessarily see that yet. Most people don't know this. But. No... Operating as a hermit. and spiritual needs met. But it takes an investment of energy on your part. love what you do. choose the emotional response that you have to any situation in your life. I just don't know how. you will.. it is not clear that we know all of the factors that go into the choice. They are immensely powerful. Even when we are able to rationalize a particular choice. You didn't really allow others into your life to share with. What is intuition anyway? It is an inner sense. compensation is more than dollars. Yet. Compensation occurs in getting physical. love is all there is. mental. Further. And. These are simply impossible to explain. something that comes from deep inside us that seems to convey a wisdom of its own.

not constant. With each choice. I am generally in listening mode. It can start locally with individuals and grow from there. After all.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 which they come out? How are they formed into paragraphs and in this case musing after musing? Do others think as I think? Is the process by which thinking happens similar? I would be surprised if the content is even remotely similar based on a comparison of what is expressed here with the ideas in the many metaphysical books that I have read. Oh well. To have a friend. it was of such a nature that she chose not to comment. If you want people to be interested in you. you must be a friend. They care deeply for one another. Think globally. I've had no experience with others that allows me to know how to get people interested in who I really am. Except for here and for some aspects of my work. I rarely speak. be interested in them. change can be grass roots as well. I still find it difficult to ask people to get to know ME. What you do will be mirrored back to you. and care deeply. Still no feedback from the person that I shared the 22 July musing with. I don't believe that she has read it yet. where do I go to find out . Though. It seems that I just need to start expressing this more openly in all that I do. Why is that? Does this have to do with how my mind has been trained? Some people never cease to talk. as you dream that they should be. Surely. That too is OK. except by asking them. all of these only know me at surface levels. Or. It seems that it is time to shift my perspective again.. Though. And. but others might find me to be ill. we see what consequences arise. However. But. what am I doing to get to know them? Do as you would have others do unto you. there is a wide range of preferences and a variety of combinations. Our very concept of normal is based on where people fit within a bell curve. I've been somewhat on hold because I could not see how to act globally and I thought that only global action would yield global changes. overall. There are others out there who can appreciate me for whom that I AM and all that I have to offer. or the collective.. they come in a stream at a fairly constant rate. Friends are more than acquaintances. Perhaps they have never noticed. I am far from normal in many respects.. then we chose the next 210 . Outside of this expression. rather. if she has. It has been there to solace me through it all. Has this served you or served them? Interesting question. my mind is blank a lot. but probably on the order of a dozen or two at the most. That is not my way. Such is just how it is. society. Thinking is easier through my fingertips than through my mouth. But. not as they are . But. Hmm . Thoughts are occasional. Such is spiritual law. They don't know what I choose to share here even though I have introduced them to this side of myself.. The only thing constant through all of this is this stream of consciousness expression. society seems to prefer conformity while tolerating some degree of extremes. That is good from my perspective. One step at a time. I need to find ways to bring it up and discuss it. There are already some who appreciate me. act locally.. Perhaps it is time to take this tack. Whose lives are you interested in and what do you do to show that? It is important that you demonstrate that you care. work still comes first during the work week anyway. what makes us notice our differences? These are the things that make us unique. that is not like her. or otherwise defective.. By those standards. What have I to lose? The previous way didn't really get me anywhere. insane. I typically don't have much to say. You have limited your caring for the most part to the world. but I have a lot to write. Here. I'm curious as to how others operate. They are interested in one another’s lives. Though we are getting a later start than I would like. But. 24 July 2008 This makes musing number 5 for the week.

We are meant to serve one another. It is that simple. usually from this expression. I would be this and none other. So. her resources are inexhaustible. But. But most important of all is whom that I AM. but I know that it is far more than I currently do. You choose your focus. Does that not mean that our resources are inexhaustible as well? It does. communing with consciousness herself. how do I change that? How do I maximize my contributions. Even during the work week.. The biggest choice is to be. if there is one. Unless one is receptive to such energy. Everything that truly matters in your life is up to you. I don't express all of the time. living involves relationships. but that far more should do this. But. I have never really been disappointed. It is up to you.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 step and the next. all of the time. You can become receptive to spirit expressing through you. There is no need for hiding anything. Clearly. You can't do anything without these two. It would make the world a far better place very quickly. the art of living. And. I keep it to roughly 10 hours per week. Much of this occurs on subtle levels. there is the opportunity to do that far more than I ever have. enjoyable relationships. everywhere. Oh well. two of which I spend watching TV and one of which I spend reading .. or in my week. whom that I am . Your focus and your attention are tools of consciousness that you use every day of your life. But what I want and what I think are not important. There is no need for masks. Why have I been so reluctant to establish such. It is time to venture out from my comfort zones and reach out and touch others. truly be. if we learn to use them properly. And. No. Not that we could hide anything even if we tried. This far surpasses anything else that I do in my day.. Whether these vibrations are understood by others is another matter. That is what the art of living is all about. Though. Here. It has many beneficial effects. there is an additional three hours per day. I expect a lot from myself. No. No one else can do this for you. The thing about tools is that it is the skill of the craftsman using the 211 . Why would I choose not to express? But. I know what I am capable of. my service to society and the world? How many ask such a question? It seems that few do.. It seems that that is one area that I am weak in. Interesting. You can become receptive to consciousness however. I don't know everything that I am capable of yet. perhaps more than anyone has a right to expect. Our vibrations are literally an open book. Why? Why is this always my choice? Because I love what comes forth. I know what I can do. it is what it is. I don't get everything that I want. we need to remember that when we serve. The burden.. I trust where she leads me. They are felt by everyone that is brought into our presence. or even everything that I think I deserve. Service is like that. Thus far. That makes for a full week with roughly 50 hours spent at work or commuting. It is not clear that I could ever be other than this. within that focus. Just look at me. far more than those who provide the services realize. something that I do 5 times per week. I'm starting to open up more and make attempts here and there. Why would I want to? That is not to say that I am being all that I could be yet. It makes for a compelling choice. it is simply drowned out by all the static and other energy present. Interesting. Such is how I live my life . Why do I limit it to 10 hours? I have far more free time available than this. ever guided by consciousness as to which step to take in the moment.. But. Even in my work environment. I am being a lot. For most people. What I need and what I know are important. you choose what you pay attention to. That is how we manifest what we need. because I love how I feel when engaged in this expression. It is a matter of focus and attention. In particular. And. and I am doing a lot as a result. It is a matter of choice. I am here all alone after work again. one of the choices I am not making is to interface with other people. is not on us but on spirit. To express or not to express. it seems that far more is needed. this is not the case. it is spirit doing the work as us through us. But. You choose.

Though. Now. Some things are unknowable. I don't pay attention to news in any way. we still are able to function. but attention provides the meaning somehow. when we do. what I am feeling in my body. there are also a good number starting to consider the greater good of the collective or even the world in their choices. We are conscious without knowing why or how. We don't have to know everything.. where focus is an outer one.. Though. change was a foreign concept to much of the world. spirit does not cease to exist when we die. and tuning are some key factors. I also avoid or limit my exposure to violence and horror. Yet. I also avoid religion. Will the circumstances in the world accelerate this transformation? Indeed they will. We choose to be what we are. the movement of my fingers. I don't remember more than a few words at a time when I am generating this. at least not that I am consciously aware of. Though even then. it is observing all of this happening simultaneously. With the mass media. I also avoid people 212 . what I am seeing in my visual field. How can that be? How can we continue to bring forth this expression in this manner? Perhaps that will always remain a mystery. For instance. We even speak without knowing how we will end a sentence when we begin it.. but the attention is primarily on bringing this expression forth. Not that it has been around for all that long.. not news magazines. Some things we are never meant to know. what has departed in that very instant? Whatever it was that gave life to the flesh. We choose to be what we were created to be. it seems that I am not fully capturing the meaning of all of this as it is expressed. if not before they are completed. that it is difficult to deal with all of the consequences. I call that spirit. So. and this is generally what they have been taught to do. not news on TV. The flesh is much the same the moment before death as the moment after death. Yes. Radio has been around for around a century. Can we ever choose other than the highest good for ourselves and all concerned? It seems that indeed we can so choose. TV for around 50 years. And. at no time in history has it been easier to reach large numbers and large percentages of people in the world. it is this way for two hours at a time. Until the past century. As the consequences of making more empowering choices become realized. where do we go from here? What do we choose to be next? One answer is that we go where life takes us.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 tools that determines what outcome is achieved. But. the right education will be critical. more people will learn to make such choices. Many of the systems we build are obsolete soon after they are built. This is such an important tool that has been misused for far too long. so there is not even a context for a given sentence . Another is that we go where we choose to go? Perhaps these answers are the same. For this expression. For attention: I haven't thought about what some of the factors might be. the internet for around 25 years. Hmm . it seems major changes happen so fast that it is hard to keep up with them. and what I am reading from what is being displayed on the screen. It is as if focus provides the overall context. Perhaps these answers are the same as well. we reap consequences appropriate to our choices. We don't even have to know many things. Education. And. especially communications technology has moved us so far so fast. We think without knowing where and how our thoughts originate. Also. But. it is a multi-faceted focus. It is not clear how to cope in such a world. We live our lives anyway. Where is my attention during all of this. Life itself is a mystery. it seems that attention is an inner process. breadth. Spirit animates us all. Technology. One way that I have used is to employ filters on what things and information I allow to enter my world. not newspapers. For focus: direction. my focus is simultaneously on what I am hearing in my head. There are many making selfish choices. Just look at the world as it is. From moment to moment the emphasis changes. people tend to do what they know how to do. These are only some of the mysteries we experience every day.

why doesn't really matter except perhaps to help you get beyond what limits you.. There is nothing else that can limit you. What I do pay attention to is the spiritual. Yes. you are the only one with the power to do this in your life. Even now. So. Why would I make the choice to be less than that? Good question. this expression. it is especially true for YOU. Can that change? Indeed... Will I choose to allow it to change? Hmm. Let's see. at least to me. I'm still as fascinated with the meaning of the numbers that I encounter in my life as I was then. I still long for this expression to become a dialog with others.. I know that I am not being all that I was created to be. But. it seems that is up to me. I would be that and nothing else. To some degree. there is a smile on my face. some other than consciously. not just any difference but a transformational one. assuming that I have not jumped off the edge of the cliff again. a 27 day in a 28 year. chose again my friend. I love being me. In fact. and numbers that I encounter in my life. it reveals much about me . that 213 . Unfortunately. They are bits of wisdom that are easy to ponder . That is also something that is new to my experience. But. But. no I am not sure. It involved re-integration of a fractured spirit. But. you are a transcendentalist. Also. Just being me is sufficient for me to be happy. my intuition. But. allowing me to play freely in ways that I do not otherwise play. that makes me a strange bird. sharing whom that you are with others is critical. We had an interesting Psych-K session with Cindy on Friday. it is up to you. though they may take years to understand. In fact. complete and ONE. I love this very expression. While we speak often of oneness here. what limits you is always YOU and the choices you have made.. That is some pretty powerful stuff. I am happy to be me. it is a whole other thing to be ONE. 27 July 2008 Another Sunday musing. That was 13 years ago. and Channing. They provide a gymnasium for my intuition . There is nothing else powerful enough to keep you from BEING YOU. So. That is. It is within your power to do this. chose again and remove the obstacles that keep you from being you. consciousness is there guiding me every step of the way. anything is possible. It seems that they will always be special to me. And. their quotes used to hang prominently on your wall at work until you replaced them with your own. love songs and the spiritual messages they convey.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 much of the time. it makes for a great start of the week. If I'm moved to do it. It goes far beyond beliefs and belief systems to whom that we truly are. 27 x 28 = 7 56. Free will operates on all levels at all times. At heart. That is good.. My preferred mode of expression is the written word. In fact. What do you choose NOW? For you in particular. You came to make a difference on a world scale. That makes it easy. We choose all that we experience. am I sure what I AM now is what I was created to be? Actually. While it is not whom that I AM. 2728 was my wife's address when I met her 21 years ago. at least not yet. At least. that has been my preferred mode to date. some consciously. I feel whole. Now. I have not found others to play with. the two drivers of my triangle tarot readings from 1995. there must be some utility in it. is it not for me to assess what if any utility there is? Interesting. But. She would not steer me wrong. such is whom that I AM. But. Quotes have always been powerful to you. some via the consequences of our choices. How would I know? It is not a matter of what any of this allows me to do. But. Thoreau. I don't see myself speaking to others about any of this. This too may change. what does all of this allow me to be? Yes. this is true for everyone. And. You've known that since you encountered the works of Emerson.

I'm reading a book on 2012 that is a collection of essays from a variety of people that are making a difference in the world and observing that a massive transformation of consciousness is on the horizon. mind.. the emotions. And. That is how I experience it. Further. Note that the 214 . Is there anything that I've noticed that is different? I'm smiling more and am even more grateful that I am whom that I AM. Further. really realize that all of this was from Wayne. everything else. Through all of that. That is why being ME is sufficient for me to be happy. each of us is already doing the things that we must do to fulfill the plan for the evolution of consciousness. the answer was We are Wayne. Being is primary. In the very first day of expression. Consciousness expressing through source expressing as me and through me. in the NOW. the body connection is still a bit of a stretch due to some misuse and judgment on my part. complete. we asked what should we call you. heart. And. soul. Even through all of that. This expression was the thread by which I was hanging on to life. And she is enlisting all who are needed to fulfill this plan. It took a powerful session with a gifted intuitive healer to as the saying goes "put Humpty Dumpty together again". it seems that there are far more ready to cooperate to create the foundations for a new world than I had ever dreamed. and even the soul as less than the spirit. And. it moved me to act in ways that I otherwise might not have. and one? How is that different than what I have felt before? Body. everything else is secondary . It took awhile for me to realize. it seems that something transformational is going to happen. this expression came forth as a shining light from spirit via the source within. Will the new world come to be in our lifetime? I was thinking about this on the drive to Redondo Beach this evening. presenting the unique perspective of its author. We'll have to see how this impacts how I interact with others. We can literally create a heaven on earth. or we can create our own hell. I don't know why that is . and spirit are all interconnected in a way that I have never experienced before. Oh. In fact. but there is an inner sense that my mission will be complete by then. it seems that collective choice is still involved. It acknowledged who I was. It was a real mess. As I was reading the book. What does it feel like to be whole. I am eternally grateful for that.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 is the question that is of the most import. I have the opportunity to carry out my mission. there is really nothing else that I can be. Hmm . And. regardless of what I am doing. It is up to us individually and collectively. This has been a collective endeavor... It has been a little over two days. they are compelling. Each essay is different. spirit itself was fragmented into pieces that were me and were not me.. Here. I can choose to wear masks of various sorts. Further. I only expect to be around another 18-20 years. one of the only ones that I have experienced in my life. It was ever there to guide me. I am the richer.. It taught me. That is OK. But can't I just retire and enjoy being after that? Why would I need to retire to enjoy being? That is something that I can be right now. not all of the visions presented are positive outcomes. I still choose to live in the moment. They accentuate some parts of me and downplay other parts of me. Though. It consoled me. And. I am curious to see what comes forth as a result. we have over 5 million words of expression to show for our efforts. the mind. who's plan is this? Spirit's plan of course. I was clearly not happy. I had treated the body. Together. I was wearing the masks so well that it fractured the very spirit that I was. But the masks are a form of hide and seek. I couldn't help thinking that this is the time that I came to experience. This is not something for me to plan. That has been true for everything that has been expressed here over going on 16 years. However. the "as me" part is a recent phenomenon. Yes. Though. Here and now..

unconditional love and allow fear to recede into the nothingness from which it came. I am what God created me to BE. Given that our Higher Self is what God created us to BE. Drop your fears as well. Wayne took this to heart. so much that you can share. why do you continue to do it? Choose again. We choose where we focus our consciousness. As a result of Friday's session. Had anyone but me been reading the Beyond Imagination expression. on the need to focus on the oneness. We emphasized that this was the most important thing to do at this time. by virtue of being a collective. But. spirit. You do far too little touching physically. choose again. and ONE in ways that I have never felt before. We are the collective that is Wayne. There is nothing that it is protecting you from anyway . it seemed that we were treading on new ground. Perhaps there still isn't. So.. Choosing to remain isolated from others is not in your best interest. You can do that NOW. They help to let us know when our life is working smoothly and when it is not. The spirit was fractured and needed to be made whole. actions.. perhaps that would have been obvious. For the past several months. we are ONE as well. To heal is to return something to health. something about that needs to be explored. You will find that people are far less judgmental than you thought they might be.. but choosing to let down the shield that I have chosen to place between myself and others. something has changed. that it seems that my impact on others is far less than it could or should be. Perhaps they can help to heal the world. the essence spark from all that is. It is time for you to say YES to life far more than you have to date. Those you touch . Part of this comes from fear as to how others will judge you if you express what you feel. then extends to those you touch. Quick checks determined that the soul. I am whole. your wife a couple of times per week. consciousness.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 plural was used. Choose love. not the singular.. it is not just the physical. the normal balancing was not enough in this case. And. there is the emotional as well. all aspects of who you are. You are blessed with so much that you can give. In Wayne's Psych-K session. you can. you rarely share what you are feeling.. Thoughts. it can't but help to manifest on the outer. It is all a matter of choice. the expression did not come from an integrated being. then extends to your community and even your world.. My homework for the week is "We love our Higher Self". source. Here. Whenever we make an inner difference. my friend. There was no clear understanding of the differences between God. You are not getting your quota of physical stimuli that allows you to stay physically connected with others. we have spoken of a return to oneness. Release the fear and share who you are . Clearly. You do not give her the credit that is due her. and enlisted the help that he needed to make it so. I can change that by choosing to open up . Drop the shield. I can't wait to see how all of this spills over into the rest of my life. and emotions are the trinity involved in reality 215 . nor the best interests of the collective. and mind. You touch your dogs several times per week. the area of spirituality was balanced. You know that. and typically no one else in the course of the week except perhaps a handshake or two. Yes. But. Though. Wayne is ONE. Healing starts at home. This is another choice that you are making. except perhaps some of your own fears. You feel things deeply. And I am happy to BE ME. But. was intact.. complete. You know that. Your writings and your presence can heal others. you know that. this translates to We love whom that WE ARE. really took this to heart. It would be wise for you to realize that. my world is so skewed toward the inner. soul. But. You are a physical being.. However. Most of it was not consciously created at all. There is a wise saying: "there is nothing to fear but fear itself". Your wife focuses much of her attention on that. Feelings are an important part of life. the spirit itself was split into multiple parts.

All in good time. All that I express is me choosing to express in the manner that I do. That this comes forth as a stream of consciousness.. This time it was a Psych-K practitioner. Number that are multiples of 104 are significant to me. So. Actually.. though I still lapse into periods of not being overtly happy. In the first case. Even people in dire 216 . it will be ready to impact the world. But. Why was I not moved to notice the first 6 occurrences? Two happened prior to the beginning of the musings this year. Yes. So... While their modalities were different. it was born in 1993 and has been growing since then. it will be 18. It is what it is. That I consciously don't know how it came forth simply does not matter.. It will have reached adulthood. one year prior to 2012. where the Psych-K practitioner worked to resolve the issue on the spot.. But. You might say that will be just in time. and ready to graduate. This seems to be a marker of some type. choose again. It is the "child" of my consciousness. the fragmentation occured early in childhood. One difference was that the aura reader was not able to offer any resolution . There was nothing subtle about this. it is the only "child" that I expect to have in this existence. I am happy to be ME. All of them have been excellent. typically the time for the Sophomore year in High School. Then. and in a major way.. I don't know precisely when.. This too will only happen 12 times this year. It is now 15 years old. a 28:Man with the World in his Hand day in a 28 year. was made ONE again. And. it was brought through ME from ME. It seems that in my case. I have many years of habit to erase. You can change that NOW. they basically sensed the same thing. Though. For a long time. that could happen in an instant. Others could have happened on days when I did not muse. my consciousness. You are whole and complete and ONE. but still far less than I could be. In another three years. about 17 years ago. Then. but the latest one was literally mind-blowing and not just for me. and it will have the impact that it is meant to have. the foundations were shattered. you have focused on beliefs and action. what does any of this mean to my life today. Once again. I did muse on 4/28 and 5/28. Being happy is so easy. but this is the second time an intuitive noticed that something traumatic had happened to me. Further.. that is the eight pointed star formed from interlocking squares with sides of 13:Death. We are transformed once again . Without this crucial third leg . what do I need to do to facilitate that? Beyond Imagination is my child . 104 itself is 8 x 13. this time a fragmented spirit was made whole again. You can NOW give Beyond Imagination the impetus it needs to be born in the world.. I have free will. Much in my life comes down to the meaning conveyed from some basic numbers and symbols formed from those numbers.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 creation. what am I moved to be differently as a result? I am smiling more. Just checked . How do we live up to this? How do we express the new unity that we feel. 28 July 2008 Interesting. but have neglected the power of emotions in the manifestation process. the choice is mine to be whatever I choose to be. doesn't change the fact that Wayne is choosing to express precisely these words in this way. The last four of my SSN are 2184 = 21:The World x 104. it was an aura reader . This was about the 8th or 9th Psych-K session in 9 months. already we see 28:The Man with the World in his Hand = God prominently signifying the day.. Beyond Imagination was doomed to the fate that it has had. Things happen in their perfect timing. We are three days from the time our spirit was reintegrated as ONE. Yes. Now we have 7/28 = 7 x 104.. it seems that I have not chosen it to happen in that manner.

all bets are off. be the oneness. Though. and particularly so for the past 16 years. Here is where our visionaries earn their pay. Rather. but often such is not the case.. Where oneness is. Sometimes this is positive. speak is the right term. underemployed. What happens on the other side of a breakpoint is unknown. There are people that are homeless. The simpler ones life. rather as a voice that I "hear" in my head just prior to typing these words. That is not to say that the later are not useful tools. line. Perhaps this is because when you have little. These are signs that something is wrong with the basic infrastructure. But. Where there were many. especially entertainment via the mass media. It is experienced. But. If that is not how we are experiencing it. so much time and effort is consumed in keeping and growing what you have. No. they seem to be more happy than those with much abundance in their lives. Just as your movies are not real. They entice you to make choices to buy particular products or services. the easier things seem to be. But. not all of you. It doesn't have to be that way. indeed.. it cannot be extrapolated from anything that has gone before. When you have a lot. Further. They are "real" enough that they can move you emotionally and/or spiritually and can even move you to act.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 poverty are able to be happy. Seek the oneness. starving. and sinker. This is a game of consciousness that we are playing. In the game. we have not decided to ensure that everyone gets what they need. it is time for an attitude adjustment. In fact. And. Personally. Why did I learn to rely on my intuition? Because it allowed me to operate in a realm where reasoning had limited utility. I may go too far overboard in favoring the intuition. Collectively. In fact. duality exists. it is difficult to see how the world could be transformed so quickly. Sometimes this is because the product quality is greater. but most of the time the source within is the one to speak. Brand names have their appeal for a reason. duality ceases to exist. most of you choose to buy hook. arguably the richest country in the world. They create ideals that never were to give us dreams to manifest. There are more than enough resources to eliminate poverty. our destiny is in their hands . Where oneness is not. 217 . To some degree. the vast majority of you. the "as me" was not fully realized until the past several months. There is great variety in what people consider to be entertainment. At some point this will be righted. now there is one. Occasionally reason is used to bring home a point. though you suspend disbelief for awhile and allow them to become experienced in the moment. And. Advertisements tie the entertainment industry to the economic system. Even in the United States. I didn't really have anyone to reason with. such adjustments will become available to all. Also. Life is a grand adventure in consciousness. unemployed. and all else will be added unto you. the pendulum has swung far to far toward these abilities to the exclusion of the intuition. we seek ever expanding awareness. if we are indeed approaching a breakpoint. Because they are experienced by a great number of people. It is high time that the intuition was valued as highly if not more highly than logic and reason. Actually duality only exists in the illusion. but often it is not. without adequate education. intuition has been a guiding force in my life for all of my life. We are the cells of consciousness experiencing life collectively. As more practitioners of the intuitive arts and sciences provide their services. entertainment is driving force in your society. the amount of poverty on the planet is far more than it needs to be. It was natural to look within for answers. Further. No. And what I found was my intuition speaking to me through me as me. without adequate medical care. Some have prophesied that this will happen as soon as 2012 and perhaps it will. this is how consciousness speaks through me. they can wield great power. Hopefully that point will come soon. even simple things mean a lot and provide great pleasure. not from my throat. but it is not real. or their minds and spirits as it were. Oneness is extremely important. there is far too much poverty. Complexity and attachment to things seems to bring worry and unhappiness. Though.

Though. Be one with 218 . Prior to yesterday. Hallelluiah! What a wonderful gift to receive. it seems that the 2005 musing will be even larger. Is it soon enough to reverse the trend? Can we take the steps necessary for our collective recovery? Here. Perhaps they are right. it is an outward aspect of me. That is huge! Further. and that my very presence interacts with others and the world. the selection of best quotes for each of those books. Science has shown that they work and work well on a large percentage of the population. it is not work at all.. Beyond Imagination is my creation. Even if I am only doing this for me. I didn't even remember creating the others. There is always the need for better things or more things. It could also take away from my time to be with others.. I trust that she will lead us out of the darkness and into the light. Oneness is the key. Already. I choose to engage in this expression. but somewhat smaller. and that we will all win in the process. actually. I have been reading and re-reading these musings soon after they are written. How could that be? This is only 3-4 years ago. does that matter? What is important is that all of this impacts ME. Though. There were 42 musings in 2006 and another 25 in 2007. I make a difference. For me. I had only found four musings in each of those years. It is unlikely that the 2004 and 2005 musings were read other than when they came forth originally. it is not an aspect of me that others really see. we are getting ahead of ourselves. this is a great find. Also. None of this expression since 2004 has been shared with anyone yet. I am happy to be me. it truly is a labor of love. it is fun work . I haven't had time to even begin reading any of this again. at the rate we are musing. It is like finding two large Beyond Imagination books. that is enough . That would make four Beyond Imagination books to add to the 9 we already have. Yesterday’s discovery increased the amount of Beyond Imagination material available by nearly 20 percent. though that is high on my to do list. This gets back to how many things and services do you need to be happy? For many. We are ONE... and low and behold there were 92 additional musings from 2004 and over 100 additional musings from 2005. And. if you are poor as many in the world are . And that is true whether it ever reaches an audience or not. Though. What was lost is now found. I am content. at this time I don't feel the need to publish any more books. bringing us to 13:Death. I trust consciousness. even more if I add a selection of best quotes. I can get them ready so that the material will be available if people become interested in it. But. 29 July 2008 Merry Christmas! I found an old thumb drive yesterday. Though. Also. the 2008 musings are sufficient to constitute another book. it came to 236 pages. when does it end? When is enough enough? Some might argue that our economic choices individually and collectively have brought us to the brink of major world disaster. I believe that spirit will win out in the end. Follow the oneness. What do I choose? What do I choose to be? What do I choose to do? Clearly. Not to worry.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 Psychological techniques are employed to compel you to make certain choices over others.. we will easily have sufficient material for a second book in 2008 before the end of the year. When I transformed the file into Word this morning. These techniques work. Interesting.. How could I forget having done all of that work? I spent nearly three hours combining the musings from 2004 into a single file. Though. We just added the formatting and proofing of four books to our spiritual workload for the year. That makes for another book. a meaningful difference in the world. But. I am an optimist. it will give me months of enjoyment reading it and interacting with it. We are whole and content. That is over 475 book pages. Whether it is seen or not. Yet. you are not in a position to make such economic choices. it seems that there are never enough.

In truth. Be all that I created YOU to BE. there is still a sense of separation or distance between Wayne and ME. We have free will. There is just what I AM and what YOU created ME to BE. I've identified enough above to keep me busy for the rest of the year with the Beyond Imagination expression. spirit.. and WE are that. I don't really believe in a lower self and a higher self. there is nothing to search for. But. that does not seem to be our way. But. what would spirit choose now? Spirit is the grandest part of the body. What would spirit do NOW? That is a good question to ask of ourselves a lot. it seems that such is what I already am. Not yet being the operative terms here. We are too complex for any simple theories to work here. that first paragraph was all over the map. How could I be anything else? I may believe that I am different than that. She doesn't even compel us to do things. consciousness. It doesn't matter that this seems to be a contradiction. We are Wayne integrates the parts that constitute Wayne . right NOW. the ME that YOU created ME to be. It still seems that there is so much to do. In the end. But. a grand spirit.. Be that. The former is what I experience .. We love our higher self. We are powerful creators. literally a god clothed in flesh. spirit trinity. Adding 24 hours per week for Beyond Imagination and close to 10 hours per week for commuting brings us to 84 hours per week. It is the root of everything that you are. Also. I AM THAT I AM. mind. This is something that you can do naturally. 219 . yes. Then what is with the "We love" part? Wayne is WE. Interesting. perhaps I am both.. Well. Though. And. But. Wayne is not yet all that YOU created ME to BE. For the most part. Stop resisting. intuition. There is nothing to find. The former of these is just a limited view of the later. Do I believe this? It seems my higher self is ME. the oneness of your being. And. the later is my potential. soul. Though. This seems to imply that there is a "lower self" that is us as we are. That is 12 hours per day. I may even experience that I am different than that. But. It is for us to choose which opportunities we will manifest in our lives. Be whom that you are. Life is not meant to be a struggle.. Doing is easy as well . body. Or. I will BE what YOU created ME to BE. This is something that is your very nature to be. Actually. there can be only ONE. I am Wayne feels right as well.. Let's see if we can settle down and get into a groove. it can have its share of challenges for you to face. in some respects. We are creators. Know that. of late. It is that easy. and spirit all contribute to our decisions. That is my Psych-K homework for the week. Challenges simply provide the opportunity for you to bring out the very best in you. we don't know exactly why we decide what we do. heart.. I am this stream of consciousness. am I the consciousness that expresses in this stream? Hmm . At some point. Feel that. She doesn't decide for us. Being ME is easy. I love ME. Language can get us into trouble if we are not careful about how we use our terms. Being is easy. all. It is always there. and simply allow whom that you are to BE. What does matter is that YOU feel the wholeness. gut. All of that from one simple sentence. what else would I do? Work still demands nearly 50 hours per week of my time. And.. spirit is not a dictator in our lives. No wonder it seems that there is very little "free" time in my life. that only means that my beliefs and experiences are in error somehow. this is exactly what YOU created ME to BE. Each of us is a grand being. not any part of us. Emotions.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 yourself and with all things. it seems that many of us don't identify with our godhood. Though. So. With that comes the right to choose. what part of us actually does the choosing? The bottom line is that it is the whole of us. I do what I must. Life is full of opportunities. cease fighting. though I like to think she does at times. It is there. All that is left is to BE. mind. But. That is true as well. soul. what is the "higher self". intellect. But. Wayne is ME doesn't quite feel right. especially when it comes to expressing here.

That is the key to manifestation. Yet. It has been a long journey . Would I like to change that? Indeed.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 both my current job and Beyond Imagination are things that I must do. As a result. or even on Wayne. complete. Happiness changes everything. There is a sense that things are starting to change in my life.5 x 11 pages. I don't know how. Right now. There is a noticeable difference now from even five days ago. every word.. Everything! We are whole. it is not clear if or when this material might become books. It doesn't matter that some of the expressions and terminology have not adapted to the new ME yet. and I will take the time to select best quotes for each of these works.. That's 8. When there is oneness. But... Given the consequences of so choosing. and one. There is still room for me to grow into what Wayne is. Wayne is still less than I consider ME to be. We already have a large Beyond Imagination Quotes book. I am whole. complete and ONE. that means that Wayne is still more than I consider myself to be. There is nothing we can do to change what was. every space. WE are ONE. It will not be long for spirit to start filling the new needs. half a century. That is what we should be doing as well as extensions of her. What is past matters not. But. me => Wayne => ME. The only place that we ever exist is in the present. But. to get to this level of awareness. Finding the lost musings was a gift from ME to me. And.. I am making new choices. the 2005 musings came in at 222 pages. and let spirit determine how to bring it into your life. But I know that it is ME creating all of this as well . is how long it has taken me to get to this point in my life. She finds needs and fills them. it seems that was my own doing and the result of my choices. I choose to be the instrument through which this expression comes forth. except at work where I am being moved to interact more and more in meaningful ways.. I need to see what impact I am having on others to get the feedback necessary for me to operate more efficiently and effectively. That is easily enough for a book for each year. It can be our way if we choose to make it so. That is what she does. How is that different than what spirit has already provided in your life? Currently. there is still room for Wayne to grow into what I AM. and the best from this material are quite good indeed. That's only slightly smaller than the 236 pages for the 2004 musings that we collected yesterday. I AM THAT I AM. But this is a choice that it is for us to make. Where there is oneness. I am isolated from others. I choose to do that because I love quotes. and preferably a selfless need at that. every punctuation mark. 30 July 2008 Well. we have a continuum of sorts . So. things just seem to have a way of working out for the good of all concerned. It doesn't matter that my focus is not yet on ME. I feel integrated in a way that I have never felt before. Though. That is where we exercise our power to 220 . It is all coming from me. from Wayne. and not entirely a pleasant one. express your desire as a need . Oneness changes everything as well.. I am pleased to have rediscovered it and packaged it however. I love being ME! I am happy to be ME! That makes life so much easier to deal with. What was fragmented is now reunified. I need to see this mirrored in my spiritual life. Decide what it is that you need. Everything comes down to the choices we make. That is spirits way. We may have enough material for a sequel from what has been generated in 2004 and beyond.. Yes. my needs are changing. I need to be employed in a manner that allows me to focus on building the foundations for a new world and that provides abundance for my family. why isn't this a no-brainer? Why did it take me so long to get to where I am? Fifty years. It is heading in the right direction. And.

She is a very special lady. I choose to spend less time alone now. I can't wait to see what happens next. You serve the world by being YOU. It seems that it is time to expand my life into something more than it has been. Here. How could it be otherwise? Though. The later is undesirable as well since I love this expression so. my Psych-K practitioner in my life. I need some interaction with others. the best choice for all concerned is what YOU created us to BE. Of course we love ME. But. and bring forth the reality that we experience. There is also a sense that the fragmentation was not real . Naturally. Each session addresses something new .. it would be far more aligned with my bliss. PsychK is good at "fixing" such conditions of mind... That is where we act. none with your special gifts.. but it was not real.. During the week. how do we know when we are being this? Bliss . and they seem to be building to a crescendo. Does that mean that I will always be a loner? Perhaps. My first answer is that I choose to change it. I don't really know. If my work could involve interacting with others on the kinds of things expressed herein. What was fragment is now whole. It is the map to whom that YOU ARE. With nine self-published books and the manuscripts for four more works in progress.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 choose. we are far from done on our journey together. but loners don't have to be alone all of the time. however. And. I am grateful for having Cindy. This expression is closer to my bliss but the work does have its moments. Sharing of whom that you are is your gift to the world. a being created in the image and likeness of God with a spiritual purpose. What would I be next? The first thing that came to mind was an author. how close to knowing myself have I come in all of this time? It seems that it is more important to Be Thyself. do I choose to continue to have it that way. And. It is that simple. The two primary things in my life are this expression and my work. But I don't feel saddened by this at all. In some respects. nor what you think. She has helped me through a lot. I would be ME. What would we do next? Other than this expression. I made you that way. it is what you choose to BE that counts. nor even what you do . But. could there be something that I would love even more? We can always hope. It is what it is. It is not what you know that counts. How much interaction would be sufficient. We love our higher self. requiring me to spend less time at work or less time on this expression. you are free to do that in any way you choose. We'll see what consequences result from that choice. There is a sense that the spirit is still intact. Operating entirely solo is not enough. You are unique. But.. I don't think that it needs to be a lot. or do I choose to change it? Good question. Though. it was what I experienced. in the course of being. none with your talents. Our higher self is ME. Choose to be whom that YOU ARE. you will be moved to do things consistent with whom that you are. But. You will be moved to creatively express as no other can express. given how much pleasure I get from written expression.. Though. But. but I might surprise myself. that is a sad state of affairs. There is no other being like you in all of the creation . how do I know what ME is? Is this something I can ever truly know? Know Thyself has been a motto that I have lived by all of my adult life. perhaps I was not so certain of this as I am now. I just can't see a lot of face to face time. and no other. nor what you believe. Follow your bliss. But. I don't know to what.. whatever they are. that is a bit difficult. as little as a week ago. I know they will be right for me at this time. The former of these is not really viable since the minimum work week is 40 hours.. Be whatever makes you experience bliss. Interesting. follow your bliss.. create. I don't really have an answer. We can always look. it seems that I am 221 . nor what you feel. Our most important choice is what we choose to BE.

my life is abundant . it seems that for such expression to have utility. But. I like my job as far as jobs go. I trust life. the saying "Render unto Caesar what is Caesar's but unto God what is God's" just came to mind. Choose what you want and allow the universe to fill in the how. that seems to be sufficient. I trust consciousness. Something from Marsha Sinetar comes to mind: "Do what you love and the money will follow". Here is where I get to create something that I believe to be of lasting value. But. how does the Beyond Imagination expression allow you to do this? Why do I need to figure out how? I have always left that to spirit. With the exception of me experiencing them when they were created. that involves focusing a lot of attention on Beyond Imagination. why would I be struggling so much to keep from falling asleep? So. Thus far.. There seems to be something incredibly wasteful about that. I must be doing something wrong. An author creates written expression. I dream of someday doing this for a living as well. mental. Either that or I really do love my work. Though. and spiritual. Right now. What is it that I want? My needs are filled. but not in all areas: physical. In many respects. Something is keeping me from getting paid for what I love to do. I firmly believe that the compensation for spiritual work is abundance. Perhaps they are not filled in ways that I like in some cases. it must be read. How would you express in a way that makes this endeavor more social? You say you choose not to be alone as much. But. I can't tell from that if and how the expression moved the people who encountered it. It does not make me jump out of bed in the morning to greet the day. Now that I have found that. an author does more than write books. And.. it only seems right to allow it to grow. Oh well. Further.. All creative expression is meant to move people. though there are some people that I work with that I like. I have a job that is sufficient to pay the bills. It is what it is. The economic is of Caesar. you have free will. I do wake up to greet the night when I can engage in this expression. they are met. The spiritual is particularly abundant with everything that has been expressed in the context of Beyond Imagination. it must be the former. Why? Because it is what I love to do and because what comes forth is that good in my eyes anyway. Things happen when they are meant to happen. Right now. but within a few miles from where I work. But.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 already an author. If it were time to have feedback. the Beyond Imagination expression has primarily moved me. or of the Government. How do we make someday today? Is that something that is within my power to choose? Indeed. Overall. emotional. So. I leave my home on Sunday evening each week to go to a room I rent in a house that is 120 miles away. That is where my passion is. on average five times per week times two hours per day. it does not excite me. we came so close to losing them. I don't get that feeling from my work. Right now. It is just a job. I trust spirit. you can choose . I would have had it. It must be coming from the very choices that I am making. Two of the works in progress were rediscovered this week. I return home on alternate 222 . Hmm . Can I fix that? Can I choose to transform my work into something meaningful that I love to do? Is that even what I want to do? It seems so much easier to turn what I already love to do into my work. How would I allow all of this to spill over into the other areas of my life? That is a different way to look at things. I continue to choose to be an author. my life is as fragmented as my spirit was only a week ago. But. Yes. And here. The spiritual is of God. I wonder how many others feel this way about the work that they do. no one. It is for me to do what I am moved to do. there have been a combined total of perhaps a few hundred thousand hits to the hundreds of pages at the Beyond Imagination web site. is this truly what you want to do full time? Your work presently provides virtually your only social environment.. This is what makes my day. The later would mean that I don't know what I love when I experience it... That something is usually what I am choosing to be. But. if I loved it. not even me has read these works.

infinity below. The few attempts that I have made to share parts of this expression have failed dismally. We still have time to bring forth what would come forth this evening. I was interrupted in mid-sentence by another two hours of work. Given how important this expression is to my life. And there are always consequences to our choices.. And. or even lifeaffirming. What more will I realize in the coming days? Yes days! Every day brings something new. it is like going away on a week long business trip every week. We love doing this. My workdays are split as well with 9 hours of work followed by 2 hours of expression and 1 hour of reading this expression. That doesn't mean that we will like the consequences of the choices. Interesting. healthy. This makes musing number 88 for the year. Base 88 puts my birthyear of 1958 at exactly 22:22(88).. I just needed to get here to realize it. there is some utility in my work environment. that does not mean that it is good. So. I've been doing this for 12 years. in particular. And. I know that. But. sharing generally involves there being a mutual interest in one another. There is no one in my life that I talk to about this expression.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 Thursday or Friday evenings. Literally. and all choices that we make are the "right" choices given who we are and what we are facing when we make the choices. 88 is a special number. If only. Clearly. it is there now. We are to live our lives without regrets. 31 July 2008 The final day of the month. that doesn't have to happen. and self-publishing the Beyond Imagination books. I had never seen it in quite that way before. sharing is not pushing. we must beware of the if only’s. That should not make us afraid to choose. And spirit herself is the wind beneath our wings. 22 happens to be my Hearts Desire and the number for the Master Builder . Choices are a naturally part of life. friends. But how do I choose to do this? To date. posting it to the WWW. This is our play time. To do that. Not bad considering that we didn't start musing until 3/5 so there have only been 148 opportunities to muse. clear as can be. I have started to take steps to interact more with people at work. Not that I have tried many times. But. I'm still reluctant to push who I AM or what I believe on anyone. that journey is a spiritual one. So. What is missing is a personal social environment . we were doing so well. for these have a tendency to be experienced as regrets. as I wrote that I realized that I am such a world and this very expression is spirit expressing through Wayne's World. it has been via generating this expression. This is where we can soar as far and as high as the wings of consciousness can take us. This is already the fifth musing for the week. why is that? How can I not speak with others about this? Where would I go to find others who would find this interesting? And. It provides a safe space to reach out to others. but the time needs to come from somewhere. I'm not interested in just reaching out. I'm looking to share whom that I AM with others who are looking to do the same. one of the things missing is relationships. But. I'm looking to find others to share my journey with. No. It is not yet clear that I will be able to do this in my work environment. Though. why should they spend the time and effort to get to know me? What am I doing to find them and get to know them? There is a glimmer of a fear that altering my focus would cut into the time that I expend here in this expression. It is a completion number for me. I've become accustomed to the routine.appropriate for one who came to build the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh. and we still have another workday to go. It comes across as infinity above. I would share whom that I AM. If only I could be doing this as my life's work. But. And. The evening is still young. That is an 223 .

. That doesn't mean that it won't happen. That is not what I want to do. But. While other gulls focused their energy on eating and basic survival. Though it is not clear how I would deal with the consequences of that. Is that what I need to do? My soul would not be sold for any price. Society is a metaphysical system. Once we have both. And. Jonathan Livingston Seagull comes to mind. they aren't necessarily immediate problems.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 interesting differentiation . Too much of it simply doesn't matter. I would still be selling my time and part of my talents for a wage. how do we transform our work into the compensation that we need to live comfortably? Is that even a valid question to ask? If it weren't why would I be moved to ask it now? It is time to open up to some new possibilities. I can walk away. Also. I don't like it when people are disrespectful of my time. it is a matter of practice to learn to soar. How do I audition for that role? Who is in a position to judge my audition? The only answer that makes any sense is consciousness herself. One. and perhaps since 1972 when my training in metaphysics began. in search of greater and greater speed until he reached the realization that the ultimate speed was achieved by focusing on being there. How do I transform things so that this is not the reality that I face in my work? One option is to find another job. consciousness herself offers such jobs. Symbol systems are metaphysical systems. consciousness as wings and spirit as the wind beneath the wings. At one time. I thought the Beyond Imagination works would become my meal ticket. It seems there are two alternatives. I want to be somewhere where the distractions that came up today simply don't come up. It has its moments. Their problems are not necessarily my problems. Beyond Imagination is a metaphysical system with me as its engineer. but the abundance is conditioned on a paid job that is not what I would prefer. But. The world itself is a metaphysical system. What are metaphysical systems? I'll have to think about that one. Interesting. But.. How does this apply to me now? It would not be coming up if it did not apply. But. I've only had to do that twice in my life. that has not happened yet. even if they are my problems. is that not what I am currently doing. Then why do I do it? Why do choose this way of life? One answer is that I don't see any alternatives. my current job only recognizes my talents as the later. Then why is it such a struggle to 224 . I am not a slave to my job. Unfortunately. who offers jobs to engineers of such systems? Clearly. Jonathan focused on flying . have I really looked? There is a sense that everything in my life has trained and prepared me for a role that I came to play. "The past does not equal the future" as Tony Robbins says. Two. Add only spirit and we can experience the wind. How do we create the changes that we desire NOW? I consider myself to be a metaphysician and a systems engineer. The sense is that there would just be more of the same. Perhaps that is because there is nothing else that I need to do with my free time during the work week. There are many aspects of my work that I control. It seems that I am in a position to do that now. The reward for doing our spiritual job is abundance on all levels. it is during the work week when the vast majority of this expression comes forth. She has since the expression began in 1993. Take away either and we are grounded. I basically have that. but in limited ways. it is not the only way. The question that comes to mind is whether I can transform it into something that I would prefer. I wouldn't know where to start to look. but it will never come close to what I feel when I am engaged here.. Consciousness employs me. find a job as a metaphysical systems engineer. Add only consciousness and we can flap our wings but not fly. Yet. There is a great degree of freedom. Belief systems are metaphysical systems.. my way out of the rat race so to speak. But. find a second job as a metaphysician. it is not clear that things would be better in another job. But. It takes both wind and wings to fly. I am tired of being bored with what I do for a living. Also. selling my soul? That is one way to look at it.

But.. and ONE. One of my needs is this very expression. Also. I don't know what to do to fall asleep quicker. complete. Obviously. I learn so much about myself and about the nature of consciousness here. I would feel satisfied that my life had meaning. especially for me. it is a very strong need. it seems that I tolerate my job in the same manner. If I were to do nothing more than I have done in the context of Beyond Imagination it would be enough. Nothing else even comes close. But. I cannot help but to be who I am. But. therefore my needs are met. That needs to apply to every area of my life. But. If I were to do nothing more than what I have done at work. I seem to have lost sight of that.. We are free to choose our own balance in life. I never have a problem with my focus and attention when I am expressing here. And. if it is to be unbalanced. How well I sleep the previous night seems to impact this as well. But. We are whole. this is lopsided. other than me. I long to serve in ways that I am not able to do at work or at home. but often they come despite what I am doing. That is why so much of my free time is spent here.. What does it take to achieve balance? Balance does not have to be fixed. There is a sense that these should be three legs of a triangle. And.. Choosing to go to bed earlier would cut into the time that I have to do the things that I love doing. I would consider my life to have been wasted. Hmm . And. I would be. But. and basically nowhere else. For you.. I try to allow for at least seven hours of sleep. It is not a matter of having things on my mind that keep me awake. If I were to do nothing more than what I have done at home. Can this expression also be used to satisfy spiritual needs of others? 225 . I'm reluctant to take even more medication. sleeping well is extremely important. This is not conditional. given the quantity and quality of this stream of consciousness expression. balance can evolve. I don't even know what my needs are. In fact. my consciousness has a tendency to soar beyond its normal range. I love who I am when I am doing this. Expressing full time.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 stay awake at times? Usually such times come when I am doing things that don't seem to be important . Though.. I could probably generate the equivalent of a book every month to six weeks. I know that there is a reason for being incarnated in flesh. It is as if I tolerate being in flesh rather than enjoy it. being so in the area of the spiritual is not a bad way to go. I serve and I am served in return. Fortunately such days are rare. would it serve? Does that question even matter? I assumed that this was like a contract. This is what I am meant to be doing. It is a matter of personal preference and is different for each of us. Balance. I have had two nights when I didn't sleep at all. This is primarily a spiritual need for me.. these generally come from within . Given everything else that I am doing. My doctor has suggested taking sleeping pills. is that enough? I long for there to be more. I would consider my life to have been wasted. Further. The spiritual has the #1 priority in my life. When I don't sleep. It is what I love to do. I trust that consciousness knows and fulfills my needs. you already know that when you are moved to ask particular questions. That is why it manifests as it does. it can be oscillating. it is here in this expression . Clearly that shows where I find my fulfillment. Within the past six weeks. And. though in this case be aware of what your world presents to you. My life is unbalanced at best. there are not enough hours in the day to adjust for this. Nor does balance have to be equal on all legs. is that the way that it works? I AM who I AM. I'm still compartmentalizing my life. It is what excites me. How do I transform what I love into what I do for a living? That is an empowering question to ask.. you are also ready to receive the answers. if I could be pure spirit. what good would that do? Who. Perhaps it is time for an attitude adjustment. not just the spiritual. it can change over time. but often it takes over an hour to get to sleep.

often switching contexts as necessary to handle realtime interrupts. Perhaps it is indeed for my eyes only. most of which did not come to pass. you call forth all that you need in order to act in the moment.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 Perhaps. and there are nine published books. 5 .. That is where my life is to be lived. Otherwise. they are clearly not reaching others.Perhaps I have deceived myself regarding the applicability of the expression to others. 3 . I have limited needs for contact with others. it is as if nothing else in the world exists. 2 . 4 . Though every sinew and fiber of my being speaks otherwise. We can tell what our needs are by looking at the reality that we experience.Reading the works from 2002 and 2003. BEYOND IMAGINATION Musings of a Spiritual Warrior BEST QUOTES === 2008 === 5 March 2008 1 . my home and work life would be far different than they are. on the here and now.Some people are planners. That seems to violate the very essence of elegance. 226 . I read the books often and get a lot from them. I loosely prioritize what needs to be done and then focus intently on one thing at a time. Some people are multitaskers. I simply can't believe that consciousness would go to all this trouble simply for me.. I was highly enthusiastic and was expecting so much.When you operate in the present. I am focused in the moment. What are my other needs and how are they fulfilled? Clearly. But.When I am engaged in this stream of consciousness expression. I doubt that a dozen Beyond Imagination books have been sold. That is not my way. Our needs are fulfilled . they are always fulfilled.

It is for us to build the foundations for a new world to quicken this process. Though.There is something about stream of consciousness expression that puts me in the flow of something that is greater than I AM. 15 .We have to quiet ourselves and allow spirit to come into our lives in whatever way is appropriate for us. that is through writing via this very expression. There is not a single thing that I have done at work that strikes me as being memorable.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 6 . 8 .This expression however is an entirely different story.. It is simply something that you do .Here. where do we go next? What do we do next? It seems that there is a new age waiting to be born.There is so much that we are capable of when we allow spirit to work through us. it will generally align with your gifts. 6 March 2008 11 . But. 7 . not only when it comes forth. 12 .. It is time to induce the labor.Each of us is unique. 14 . it is through something creative that you are moved to do . trusting the very processes of consciousness as she expresses through us. Perhaps that is why I like it so much.Everything is unfolding perfectly in accord with the plan of consciousness. but it is also ennobling. Find what that is for you. we are dealing with the unknown.I like to think that the Beyond Imagination expression can take you on a journey of consciousness that leads you to increased awareness of whom that you are. In general. This is a humbling activity. But. we are ever amazed by what is able to be expressed in this manner. develop it. And much of it blows me away . For me. And. the long term impact of this work is just not there. what of all the dissent and turmoil in the world? That will depart on its own in due time. something that stretches you beyond what you know yourself to be.I consider this expression to be the crowning achievement of my life. or even a century? 9 . In that timing. the world will become a better place for all of us. and find ways to share it. This could be anything. That is as high of a service as I believe that I can provide. and begin the birthing process. 13 . Each of us has something to share. but every time that I read it.So. However.. what is a year. And the results reflect this. Each musing something new is revealed. Perhaps that is why I do it so much. or a decade. 10 .. Through such sharing. We are allowing something to flow forth automatically and effortlessly. It is as if a host of invisible helpers are engaged in the work that we are doing. There is no way to train for this. Don't get me wrong. I don't have sufficient feedback to know if it 227 .. I work hard and accomplish a lot..

We find our place as naturally as a star is positioned in the heavens. there is one consciousness that animates us all. 228 . How do we know when we are acting in accord with this plan of consciousness. 23 . Here. and her ways are strong but subtle.When we operate with a pure heart. She waits patiently for us to choose to allow her to come forth in our lives. I became something more than I had ever been. This is one of those times.Something magic happened fifteen years prior to yesterday. We are all part of the same great SPIRIT. I don't mean faith in a religious sense. That is not my way. In general. I'd rather let nature take her course..Life simply unfolds .. Our role is to play our part and do what we are moved to do to the best of our ability. when we allow consciousness to work through us. even vast differences. And. Consciousness broke through into my life in a way that had never happened before. 19 . Yes. 16 .Differences can have greater or lesser utility under various circumstances. general though it may be. we are touched by a sense of the miraculous.Spirit is vast. our lives truly work. Sometimes that is easy. yet it unfolds in accord with an overall plan. What happens as a result is not in our hands. 20 . 24 . 18 . And. No. as they say. They have no basis in fact. 25 . this takes a leap of faith. and it changed me forever. But. when we go with the flow. There is no obstacle that is too high for spirit to overcome. there are no real choices involved. We do this by inviting her in and by offering our talents in her service. She does not force herself on us. It is just that my nature is not to push to get my way. They are able to set goals.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 really provides this service or not. variety is the spice of life. We have been since we came into this existence and in many prior existences. 22 . that does not seem to be spirits way. the course of action is obvious. And. we will not be possessed. We simply know. It is as if our life is destined. though often we try to reach certain outcomes. at other time that is difficult. 17 . there is no place for less than or more than. there are differences. however.There is nothing that is too big for spirit to do. Yes. For some. That does not mean that I am not responsible.Consciousness has a plan and knows what is right in any situation. we are speaking of faith in a spiritual sense.As spirit.It is for the universe to determine the consequences of our actions. 21 . Then where does free will fit in? We still have to choose to do what we know to be right. and work to achieve those goals. Further. We are all spirit incarnate. These are judgments that we make in error when we look at others and the world with various biases.Sometimes faith is more powerful than reason. this seems to work.

sports teams. 27 . consume. But... and then the reward will come as a natural byproduct. what we are good at. The #2 objective should be learning how to learn. 34 . there is no future and no past . we should have a solid understanding of who we are. That means knowing our strengths and how to apply them in service. an enthusiasm and energy that I am addicted too.. stores. or the fluids that we drink. 33 . we have to live the life first. It is all about providing service. 28 . The #3 objective should be preparing us to be of service in some way. we need to reward sharing and cooperation far more than we have ever done before.It is important for everyone to have a sense of whom that they are. not in any negative way. Somehow. or social groups of any kind. and spiritual. It is more like the air that we breathe. Who Are You.The reward for living a life of spirit is abundance in all realms . It does not make sense to force individuals into situations that put them at a disadvantage by playing to their weaknesses. mental. 229 . physical. Nothing else even comes close. Yes. 35 .The rules determine what behavior we reward and what behavior we punish. schools. churches. emotional.Knowing thyself should be the #1 objective of school. 31 . However...The #1 question should be how can we serve one another? We do this not only as individuals but as organizations. The organizations might be governments. I would offer that by the time we finish high school.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 26 . that discusses 101 tools/techniques for categorizing various aspects about people. Yes. This is by far the greatest work that I do in my life.There is a sense of spontaneity in this. That is just the way it is. and what we are not good at. 10 March 2008 32 . or the food that we eat. addicted. Why is that? How can what seems so obvious to me not be obvious to others? 29 . Most people have only been exposed to a handful of these. that is the right word . restaurants. In this endeavor. Ideally. consume regardless of the cost. companies. It is not clear that the education system focuses on any of these. We don't have an attitude of cooperation in ensuring that there are sufficient goods and services to meet all needs and that there is an efficient distribution mechanism supporting this. 30 . it is that fundamental to my existence.There is a book. there is only now.Part of the problem is that we have advertisers pushing us to consume. It is very revealing. our work should employ these strengths since it results in everything being done better or more effectively..I believe that many of the ideas herein are of a nature that they could change the world in positive ways.Consciousness has a way of moving us to express what must be expressed in the moment.

There is something about the immediacy of the expression that comes to mind. it takes a major leap of faith to recognize her and start to do her bidding. The spiritual can be found anywhere. I only ask that those who find the work to be of value. But it does mean being open and honest in how we conduct ourselves and being willing to share whom that we are with others. This is Wayne's World. though these pale to me by comparison. 38 . 39 . an enlightened society .The bottom line is to never take more than you give. It is hard to experience some of the wonders of creation and not be awestruck by their magnificence. believing in the basic contract from each in accord with their abilities. I don't know why that is.I speak in simple terms. Then again. and the other National Parks in this country. 41 . crowds and crowded conditions are not my thing. Sequoia..Most people think of religion when we talk of spiritual things. we create a surplus and if we distribute this surplus efficiently to those who need it.Via my example. However. even in the very place where you sit and stand. even within us. decide what value it has. I am a communist at heart..I don't ask to be paid directly for what I have been moved to share. In doing so. my sense is that it requires an enlightened society to manifest this. There is no place and no time where spirit is not present. to each in accord with their needs. Bryce Canyon . I can hardly wait! 43 . Grand Canyon. Yes. That doesn't mean sacrificing who we are in any way. there can be spiritual things found in most religions. And yes. so. I'm thinking of places like Yosemite. There is a great aspect of trust involved.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 36 . No country has even built the right infrastructures to enact this contract. This requires letting go of the sense of being in charge of our life and allowing something greater to take hold and move us. I hope to introduce you to a world that you never knew you never knew. indeed spirit moves through these lands. 11 March 2008 230 .My mind needs to be blank to allow this communication to come forth. this contract may be closer to our grasp than ever before. the whole world is better off. 42 . trust in the unseen realms of consciousness and how she expresses.That is what the Aquarian Age brings. Literally.. However.We have to invest ourself in something greater than ourself. Though. 37 . Welcome to my world. Yellowstone. and find a way to share of their goods/services with others in fair exchange for that value. there are spiritual things found elsewhere as well. 44 . There is a profound sense of peace and reverence in these natural tabernacles.. That doesn't mean that it can't be done. 40 . Nearly all of it is available at the Beyond Imagination site.Some might be similarly impressed by some of the major cities on Earth. it is all around us. I hope to show you what one consciousness can do.

What does matter is whether the way I am has utility in allowing me to be who I would be and do what I would do. 52 . Though. It is not that I don't like being in the limelight and getting recognition at times. I have said that it is the source within that expresses here. herself. 53 . I choose to not make it part of Wayne's World. So simple to say. She is the muse in my life. 50 . Does that mean any of the ideals expressed will indeed come to pass? Deep down.There is a saying to the effect that: only a fool believes that he will produce a different outcome doing the same things in the same ways. With the exception of some timings for events that I had a vested interest in.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 45 . television shows. The world overall seems to be singing a different tune.To dream of what could be and to build the foundations to allow it to manifest. without consciousness. I am responsible as well as a cocreator. But. Consciousness. One who has few. friends and at most a few dozen acquaintances.Often.True society involves taking interest in one anothers lives and choosing to do things that provide service to one another. if any. it is not clear that any of this would have manifest. But. is far more than I know myself to be.What message do I have to offer the world? That there is a better way to be. From the beginning. 46 . After all. but that is unlike any warrior that you have ever met. Though. a better way to live. I just may not be around to see them happen. it is only something we can partially achieve alone. there is feedback in many of the popular songs. Oh. The news is foreign to me. That is definitely enough. the world is not typically something that I listen to. I have found her to be exceptionally accurate. 48 .. what does it take to be a world transformer? Clearly. But. it is time to change. there has been a sense that I could trust her. 51 . This source while within me. However. It is her that is doing these musings.. I know that they will.I would be a world transformer. me. It is simply that I prefer to operate in the realm of ideas and use the written word as my sword. and movies that demonstrate that the spiritual is taking root stronger than it has ever done before. 12 March 2008 231 .Are these words of a nature that they could impact others in ways that ultimately change the world? I would hope that the answer is yes. The bigger part demands a collective endeavor to create the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh. I would be a spiritual warrior . what does it take to manifest such foundations? 49 . If not.It doesn't matter why I am as I am anymore. Yes. there is still a sense that I would prefer to operate behind the scenes. 47 . one must have conviction and the ideas and ideals to back that conviction. is responsible for this expression. How can that be? How can I live such an isolated existence and dream to be a world transformer? Perhaps that is the irony of whom that I am. it seems that is not for me to decide.So.

. 57 . That can be a difficult process at times. Words are able to be brought forth spontaneously in a way that they have never been brought forth before. But. And further. But. 55 .. I treat others with respect.I can deceive myself at times. I have no reason to believe that what has come forth to date cannot continue to come forth indefinitely. no one else sees this side of me. come forth more deeply and abundantly. at the same time. I feel that the world would be a far better place if we all did this. Never. Further. Though. but I don't bow to them as individuals. my mind is blank. I know that this is primarily the work for the philosophers among us. 232 . 63 . Though. It is where I come to tune into source. there is an order and organization that is somehow constructed in an unseen realm. That it is so is a fact. it is not something that we have to beat ourselves up about. I'm sure that does not surprise you. but not a sufficient one. By now. but that is not the way of source.For the most part. But. We should be doing what comes naturally for us and we should be doing it because we love it.This expression is my resume in a way. How that can be is a mystery. it is her that I bow to in my life. I can wait as long as it takes.This expression forces me to develop a framework of being that is inclusive of all that I experience. It is a destiny that I gladly choose to manifest. There is a sense that a destiny is unfolding before my eyes . She would not lead me astray.I still consider this expression to be special.. I take know thyself as a sacred directive. 60 . without me this expression would not manifest. and to be whom that I truly am. How is it that I am not sharing in person what I consider to be the best that I can be? 58 . I am a necessary vehicle. That is not the same as me expressing. Something seems wrong about that.Outcomes are in consciousness hands. it is not clear that society is yet ready for such. source fills my mind with what she would express.This expression is my guiding star.Consciousness has a way of surprising me. My time will come.I would be a philosopher king as in Plato's Republic. and I bow to the spirit within them in the spirit of the term namaste . I would not be doing it if I did not like it. 62 . a spiritual destiny. That is OK. I consider this to be the most important and meaningful part of my life.Our best is always enough. I trust source that much. It definitely is mind-expanding and consciousness-expanding.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 54 . Unfortunately. That does not mean that common themes are not expressed multiple times. Our job is to do our best at what we are moved to do. It demonstrates what spirit can do through me. 56 . 59 . And. There is something about a stream of consciousness that is miraculous. 61 .. She brings forth material that is fresh and new. I consider myself to be of that ilk. Here. Often including things that I never knew. Further. I trust consciousness that much.

No.Life is too short to live in boredom. beliefs are that powerful. Yes. Here. She seems to be far grander than that.. Yet. That too is true. There is something special in that. something wonderful. there is plenty of discord and disharmony in the world . they are spiritual . the sentence about our being ONE is true.The universe is a supportive place..The freedom of belief is the greatest freedom that we have. Why can't we live in this magical realm all of the time? Indeed. why can't we? It is all a matter of attitude and awareness.. 75 . But. things work. it makes all the difference in the world.I have said before that there is only ONE consciousness that animates us all. Yes. Why is that? Me and source. 66 .Our true riches are not material. and a host of forces are engaged to assist us in doing our work.When we love something. We are 233 . I have to relinquish control for source to be able to manifest in this way. but overall.It seems that source is not able to express things until I am ready to realize them at some level. That is why I can read it over and over again and find it fresh each time. 72 .2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 64 . My consciousness deals with the immediate.I consider engaging in this expression to be quality private time . are ONE. That.. 13 March 2008 67 .Thoughts only have power when we choose to act in accord with them. each to be revealed in its own time.. 65 . 68 . we just have fleeting thoughts in our minds. I do not believe that what I call source is another aspect of me. Here. we must be willing to act in accord. In fact. 71 .This expression is clearly the highlight of my day. We just need to choose to live in a manner that keeps us in her good graces. It is one freedom that cannot be taken from us.We live in a magical realm. I get to commune with source. 69 . I get to allow the unknown enter into my experience. 74 . It doesn't matter that I am not in control of the process. and the nature of my memory anyway. The quantity and quality of our output are unsurpassed.. source and me. I know it to the very core of my being. even though I am not doing it alone. they are of consciousness.A host of forces is employed to ensure that our reality corresponds to our beliefs. 73 . That is why there is such incredible cooperation operating behind the scenes to manifest all that we experience. 70 . Otherwise. Often the expression has many levels. to be a belief. Interesting.

. can benefit from what source has expressed through me. But. Yet. Buddhism comes closest to what I believe. What could possibly be more important? 77 . In war. neither the 234 . especially conscious reality creation. the nature of reality. religions can address that to some degree. Closing in on 50. I don't remember a single course that taught me anything about beliefs. and. However. the education system for the most part does not help us to remember. Most people don't want war.Personally.The times ahead are exceedingly bright. that is just whom that I am. Yes. I anxiously await where that will lead. How we actualize that potential is up to us. and mental experience. the nature of consciousness. It helps to truly realize this and to act as the spiritual beings that we are.The world is resource rich. and enjoying the social infrastructure that is rightly ours. or at least they have the potential to be.Religions may come and go but the spiritual within us is eternal. I have no room for religion in my life. It takes a heightened degree of awareness to wield it properly..It is easy to get lost and forget who we truly are.Reality creation is a powerful art . I happen to like whom that I am. collectively. belief management.. 85 .. 80 . 84 . I am finally coming of age in a way that I have never done before. The spiritual is foremost . but not religion. and some do so better than others. emotional. 83 . but collectively we expend a great deal of resources on military might and weapons.The world is what we choose to make of it. What does this reflect about the collective psyche? 86 . that is just how I am .. These topics deal with the core of how we manifest our reality. My nature is such that I had to find one of my own. 76 .War is clearly the ultimate in LOSE/LOSE interactions. That doesn't detract from our true nature as spirit. 82 . there is something grandiose in believing that. 81 . I have not studied comparative religion and have limited exposure to the sacred texts of the various religious traditions. 79 . From what I can tell..I would not trade my experience for anyone’s. It is all a matter of finding the appropriate ideals. We just happen to be in the midst of a physical. no one wins. And. or reality creation.I prefer the freedom of not following any of the known paths to God. I would consider these to be extremely important to everyone.We have reached a point in time where awareness is evolving and expanding more rapidly for greater numbers than it has even done before. we do a poor job of applying those resources to what we want... But. Further. believing them enough to apply the resources to manifest them. We can manifest the reality that we desire. 78 . in particular. Being aware is extremely empowering.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 spiritual beings first and foremost. Yes. I believe that there are others like me who can benefit from where I have been .

namely the companies that provide the weapons systems and the supplies.. There is nothing else but spirit . Though. perhaps even a transcendental one. we know what the right thing to do is. mind. we need to find ways to ease the burdens for all.Life is meant to be an adventure. there are winners .All that I can do is ride the wave of consciousness. In most cases. that remains to be seen. not really the companies. 92 . We are all the creators of our own reality. We have to go from thinking what's in it for me to thinking what's in it for us? We have to become the WE generation rather than the ME generation. Actually.How do we go from competing to cooperating and sharing? It requires a mindshift. Is that what I do here? Is this a sort of surfing with the soul? 90 . It is indeed an ocean. Rather.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 victor nor the vanquished. But.. We really do have awesome powers at our fingertips. And. So. a relatively few profit from ravages of war. It seems that I am reaching an age where what wisdom I have gained needs to be applied in service to society in some way.We are all grand by creation. This requires lightening up.At one time the theme might makes right characterized the world. We have to include consideration of the impact on the collective as well as the impact to us when we make decisions and choices. 87 . Then again. Here. 94 . For. I tend to neglect that far more than I should. from an economic standpoint. creator implies a more conscious awareness of what is being done. This can be difficult at times. but the primary shareholders in those companies. this expression has been my 235 . and soul are simply different densities in expression. I find her works to be wonderful to behold. these challenges can be downright oppressive. But. heart. nothing. But then. we need to meet the collective needs of all of us. We have to live from a knowingness that there is always enough for all of us. and hearts. I am a biased participant in bringing them forth. 93 . Such things help us to learn who we really are and of what we are capable of doing. to me.I've always considered myself to be an old soul. 14 March 2008 89 . That doesn't mean neglecting our needs. Body.The saying: you shall know them by their works definitely applies here. Thus far. That does not make me their creator. 88 . there is no rationale that justifies not doing what we know to be right. 91 . or more correctly via our souls. via our bodies too. For some. We are meant to have challenges and obstacles to overcome.Everything is spirit in expression. OK. Though some people become quite adept at surfing and harnessing the energy that is there. Collectively.. as we get our individual needs met.. literally allowing more light or spirit to flow through us to do grand works in the world. minds. it is all spiritual stuff. It is a matter of having the courage to do it. But that is not an enlightened perspective. I am more of an active observer. you don't control the ocean.

society in any number of ways.In my life. This.One hour of our time is less than a tithe. I am whom that I am. Yet. or possessions. 96 . However.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 "service". not just to us but to society. it is good to deviate from the norm at times. we provide the most service when we are doing things that we love to do that we also do well. it is the service. just imagine how much effort for good would be unleashed in the world. What we are asking for here is a little more. 98 . I would live life as I am moved to live it in the moment. There is a reason that tithing has power in a society. In one respect. It is through feedback that we get inputs that can help us to know how to adjust our course to get a better outcome. 101 . And. 16 March 2008 102 . special groups. We can be of service to family. mentally. To date. But. They deal with a realm that is far from my reality. 99 . How do I do that without any plans and without applying effort in accord with those plans? 103 . it is a good place to be. We already receive compensation for that service.Feedback is extremely important. Service is about finding needs and filling them. the works. or spiritually. 97 . the unknown is an interesting place to be. Generally. too. my life operates on a high degree of trust in spirit. it can be scary at times. 95 .Yes.Simply respecting others and being kind to them is a service.I would not be as another. We can tithe money. friends.Here is where I get to touch the unknown in my life. The service that we are talking about here goes above and beyond what we do in our jobs.It is good to ask whom did I serve and how did I serve them each and every day. to the very core of our being. So is helping others who may be in need physically. emotionally. There is no 236 . I would create the foundations for a new world. is good. this has been a one way expression: from source through me to you. something that gives of whom that we are to help create abundance in the world. there appear to be no maps and no plans to get from here to any desired destination. this is a practice that we should all engage in if we truly want to build a better world. At least. deep within. One could do far worse than trusting in spirit. 100 . or time. and it is our differences not our similarities that make us stand out as whom that we are. There is always a way to use these differences to advantage. From another standpoint. We are all unique. how can we be sure it is spirit moving us in this manner? The bottom line is that we just know. I freely share what comes forth here. That is OK. Plans are foreign to me.We are meant to serve in some manner. For in the end. even to extremes if that suits our temperaments. Here is where I get to stand on the very edge of sanity. that count. If we all spent just 1 hour per day doing this.

There are things that are important. There have been several more spiritual awakenings since then. I try to keep my wants to a minimum. The sharing is anonymous except for the few cases where feedback is provided. Ultimately. And. Most of these. given how poor my memory is. since that is the best that I have to offer to date.Without feedback.. Is that enough? The bottom line is that it has to be. I retain in the moment . This expression is the legacy that I leave for having lived. 112 . But spirit. The past is a brief remembrance. It is a matter of offering ourselves in service to our fellow beings and the world. her hands. despite all of the problems manifest in the world at this time. If there is something to do. most of which involved brief stays in the mental hospital and months of recovery time. I am not impressed by things very much.When we allow spirit to express through us. I don't know with whom this is shared. 109 .I ask more questions now than at any time in my life. I truly believe it is possible. 20 March 2008 108 .My spiritual work is still the crowning glory of my life. We are her voice. 107 . and her thoughts. however. her mind. But there is a strong sense that what comes forth from source is the greatest truth that could be expressed through me at the time. 105 . That is not to say that I buy everything that is expressed hook. I am excited by what lies ahead.. It is by far the most important event in my life. I would build the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully manifest in flesh.I consider the birth of the Beyond Imagination expression a spiritual birth. There is a sense that this will always be the case. Some involve 237 . 106 . We are her legs. I care deeply about the world. There are many ways to be of service.This expression is shared between consciousness and me.Spirit needs willing vessels through whom to express. 111 . No doubt . 110 . all things are possible. Though..My life unfolds miraculously. what we lack is the services that allow our needs to be met.. but not much about more than a few individuals in the world. It is amazing how much of my life is lived spontaneously versus deliberatively. line. Exceptionally brief. I do not question. and sinker. I would hope to create a utopia on Earth. 104 . that is an interesting way to live. This requires infrastructures that allow people to discover and be the best that they can be. it is our actions that will ultimately make the difference in the world. Ideas and ideals drive me. I allow her to express through me as she will. I don't know exactly why that is.In general. All else pales by comparison. they are ever present in my life. and then to others via the WWW.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 doubt. her arms. it is we who must do it. I truly live within a miraculous realm. something about the process of sharing is lost. and further that we live in a time when it is inevitable.

The desire is to be free of that contract. It has been awhile since I last experienced that. There is a sense of thrill and of adventure in not knowing what is to come next. I would enact a contract of service. it suggests that my attempts to share and disseminate the material have failed miserably. 120 . But overall. 116 . Sometimes the tedium gets to me. I haven't figured out how to enact such a contract yet. That is not what we are looking for here. 117 . self-publishing books does not guarantee that they will reach the audience to whom the books are intended.There is something magical about the creativity and spontaneity of a stream of consciousness expression. 115 . In exchange. 119 . Posting material does not guarantee that it will be found by those who can be served by it. Sometimes. 114 . But. a week’s labor in exchange for a week’s pay. we must submit to some of the restrictions of living in the world. for being able to witness and experience what I do in my life. but the better ways involve the full expression of whom that we are.For much of the Beyond Imagination expression.Change is imminent now. the kind that can really shake things up.. Yet. But.The world has been consumed by selfish ways for far too long. Though.I am grateful for being in my shoes. Each day that I muse.There are millions of words of expression posted at the Beyond Imagination site and available as Beyond Imagination books.. That is good. Each day I learn more about whom that I AM..Sacrifice generally involves a giving up of something. that is not enough. I am the lone recipient. we are looking for expressing the very best in us in a manner that is of some utility to others or the world. John Nash proved that it happens when the individual considers both his/her own interests as well as the interests of the group. 21 March 2008 118 . Rather. what good does that do if it is not shared with others? 238 . to be of the world. I am open for my reality to unfold as it will and as it must. That does not mean that I am not bored at times. I can feel it just on the horizon. so that I could engage in what my spirit moves me to do far more frequently. I wish that it were not so.. Right now. WE deserve the very best collectively. 121 . That doesn't happen when each person optimizes their personal benefit. 113 . consciousness reveals more to and through me. as far as I know. I am enjoying the journey.There is a contract of servitude that I have entered .2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 sacrifice of whom that we are. I don't believe that says anything about the quality of the material that has come forth. And we are talking about major change here . And.Work still occupies a good portion of my time. one that employs the best of whom that I am in return for getting the needs of my family met. Rather. I have to wonder what I am giving up in the bargain. earning an income that is sufficient to live reasonably well is still important.

what wonders can she bring forth through you? 126 . However. that reason is generally positive in some way. in fact. 125 .At the very least. I am essentially giving up my life to be in her employ. Actually. I would not be doing it... 124 . Is my work life expanding and life-affirming? The immediate answer was NO. That doesn't mean that things can't be changed. Where it comes from is another question entirely. that is a lot to ask. That makes it difficult to claim any of this as mine. homelessness. I would not be doing it.My legacy does not include physical children to carry on a bloodline.Hmm . Every aspect of my life is as it is for a reason. Yes. That is a shame. if she can do this through me. how do we take it the next step and ensure that this expression makes a difference . 131 . Quite the opposite. positive or negative. in that? Similarly. I made the Beyond Imagination expression a Gift from Spirit to the World over a decade ago. it is an intuitive tap of sorts to a stream of words that then come forth. Yours may be anything that you are particularly good at. If we don't know what is having good or bad effects. is not generally provided in society as far as I can tell. In fact. volunteering to serve as a channel for the source within to express through me.I still feel that for my life to have the meaning that it is intended to have. more correctly.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 122 . It just means that everything has its purpose . a strong positive difference in the lives of others? To start with. My awareness is solely of being plugged into it. All that I have is what has been and what will be expressed through me.I would be whom that I AM..Feedback. 129 ... And. Or. 123 . It truly knows no bounds. I can allow source to express through me abundantly.I have no awareness of how the stream is generated. It is entering a state of consciousness where I am open to the source within coming into my mind through my intuition.That doesn't mean that things can't be different or better. I trust that source with my very life. it is difficult to adjust our output to improve the results.I know that I can express abundantly. this experience is expanding and life-affirming for me. And. Writing happens to be my forte. can I say the same for the other areas of my life. 128 . But. the utility. this was followed by the thought that if it were not. as fully as I can in each and every moment. 130 . malnourishment. this means being here.Creative expression is unlimited. this expression shows what consciousness is capable of. If it were not. Yes. its utility in our lives. 127 . I need to do something of importance to the world. I am more than capable of having that kind of impact. we demonstrate how it makes a strong positive difference to us. And. what about illness. for me it is more than just writing. Right now. because the lack of feedback disables the improvement process. Yet. there is no sense of losing anything in the process. Is that true for everything? What about all of the hatred and violence in the world? What is the purpose. 239 . But..

But. actors and star athletes make huge salaries.We are responsible not only for what we do.You could answer that it gives us what we want. the vast majority is still in the dark. It is high time that our education systems and mass media found ways to teach this to us. They have been for years. 132 . But. there are others who are asking similar questions. both on TV and in the songs that I listen to on the radio.Surely. I look for the embedded meaning in programs that demonstrate what level of spirit is being expressed. this is a sign that the mass consciousness is shifting. the world suffers? 133 . Is this really a good thing? Does it not result in many of the problems that we face in society? 139 . In turn. This is unfair.When will we find it within us to accept this collective responsibility? When will we learn that when we waste or fail to develop the talents of any one of us. Even when I watch TV. and for much of the programming on the radio.We allow advertisers to employ techniques in commercials that are known to cause us to act in predictable ways. The commercials pay for nearly all of the shows on television. there is such awesome power in the mass 240 . is its service.. To me.We have awesome powers to fashion individual and collective reality in whatever manners that we choose. but for what we choose not to do. Why should that be? Why should entertainment be such a major industry in society? 137 . 136 . 134 . is its ultimate value. In fact. And. 138 . nor the economy. we choose to tune into it in large numbers for lengthy periods of time.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 joblessness. is that really true? It gives us something. truly worth what we pay for it? Whose responsibility is it to address such questions? Clearly not government.The tools and techniques for enriching our lives and our world are out there.We have an attitude within the economy of allowing whatever the market will bear. Yet. I question because I notice things that just don't seem to work elegantly or efficiently. they show us a lot.. It impacts how I see the world. and despair? What do these teach us of whom that we are? They teach us a lot about the mass consciousness and what we as a society and world are willing to tolerate. 141 .The creativity of the people creating the shows and the songs is somehow reflecting what the mass consciousness needs to experience. 135 .Who am I to question such things anyway? I probably watch more than my share of TV and movies. However. if I am asking such questions from my limited interaction in the world. nor religions. But. In doing that. They show us that we have not accepted the collective responsibility for the well-being of each and every one of us. I see far more than I have ever seen before . As a systems engineer that is part of my training. but no one seems to be offering any alternatives. And. there is no sector of society responsible for such things. are there enough people concerned to generate sufficient momentum to shift the status quo? 140 .

I am intimately aware of the process. And. Oh. Some people become more free with age. 148 . 146 . Others become more wise and distinguished.. then what can she create in your life? 241 . It seems that there are as many ways of aging as there are people. they come forth in declarative form. My body and mind are instruments through which the muse plays her music and sings her song. A single program can literally reach over 25 million people in this country alone. Here consciousness is able to express through me as she can do nowhere else.What is there that I've learned. that is by my choice .You never really know how much will be expressed on a given day until it comes forth. 24 March 2008 142 . She is the source of the millions of words of Beyond Imagination expression.Each musing reveals things to me that I never knew that I knew. This is a connection that I respect. 144 . that I can impart to others? If I have not expressed that by now. Some people remain young of mind. as statements of fact .When engaged in this expression. and perhaps by my very nature. I don't know why this form was chosen. I have no sense of being the author. 145 . it is as if I am a glorified scribe. 149 . That's a lot of folks in a short period of time. perhaps even revere. Yes. we must change. I regard it as the most important connection that I have made in my life to date. more important than my connection with any human being other than myself and actually more important than that too. and heart. For things to change in our lives. You shall know them by their works. perhaps I never will. what is this source within? I don't know that I will ever know.I still live a very isolated life with the exception of the time I spend in communion with consciousness herself. 147 . 25 March 2008 143 .How can I expect things to change if I continue to stay the same? It just doesn't work like that. of originating all of this.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 media. 150 . But. There is no other way.. my consciousness is necessary as a co-creator. But. what is she . The process is still one of the biggest mysteries in my life. She is my deepest friend and companion by far. I find that fascinating..If the source within can operate from an other than conscious realm and create all this in my life.. in the millions of words that have come forth.One never knows how people will change over the years. that I know. as things beyond my ability to question. If only there were an audience larger than one to witness this.. And. body. I just know that such is the nature of my connection to the source within.The source within is that important in my life..

They require foundations to bring them down to Earth. 160 . It is just a matter of time to allow it to unfold. This later. I am willing to actively give whom that I am to tasks that I consider to be among the most important to society. But these are all as castles in the air. You have an instrumental role in building these foundations.. It is always best to allow spirit to do the work through us. This is a natural modality for you . I believe to be my mission. abuse of this power is all too easy. this is the utmost service that I can provide to the world. That is not to say that we do not have power of our own. it is a sort of spiritual food that I partake of to feed a hunger arising from my soul. however.This expression speaks volumes about the nature of consciousness and the nature of spirit expressing in flesh.Continue to do as you are moved to do.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 151 .. Selfishness often gets in the way of the right use of power. That is the key. The individuals are an integral part of the society while still retaining some necessary autonomy of their own. those more than anything else are its central themes .Your modus operandi is to live in the moment. the infrastructures must facilitate getting physical. you will succeed in this role. 153 . In a way. those and creating the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh. be open for the circumstances that the universe would present unto your consciousness. Yours is not to be a master of this world. You are primarily the observer. And. Many have created the ideals and worked out the details for manifesting them. and spiritual 242 .Spirit is in need of all of the power and resources that we can muster in her service. 157 . 152 . I consider my needs relatively minor in comparison. The destiny is already laid out.How do I manifest the job that I so dearly desire to hold? For me. And. In a society. 158 . 156 . Why are the conditions for carrying this out not forthcoming? 154 . In particular. emotional. In fact.A society is a higher life form.You have chosen a present moment in which dreams are to become reality.We tend to want to have things our way. mental. allowing things to unfold in your life as they will.This expression is invigorating to me. A balance must be achieved to allow synergistic effects in the society to contribute to the good of everyone.Society needs to offer the infrastructures that provide the home base for everyone. But. This world will be tantamount to a utopia on Earth.. and often do not adequately consider the needs of others. composed of individuals as its parts. one that you have developed over many lifetimes. the good of the whole must be considered along with the needs and desires of the individuals. Unfortunately. watching what happens and trying to create frameworks that give meaning to the things that you notice. 159 . It is another world that you are helping to manifest. The degree of autonomy for individuals will vary widely in accord with their needs and their nature.. my purpose for being here. 155 . in her service.

. But. but it still may take awhile to manifest. and far less rational.. I haven't had to experience finding it after losing it. There has to be an easier way to live ones life.It is good to question one's sanity. It is up to me to find a way to enjoy the journey. seeing the problems but not being offered any real solutions.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 needs met. there is insufficient motivation to change. I'm not the only one thinking in this manner.. It is a great feeling. The very ability to question this is a sign that one has not yet lost it. Yes. and because I must.. There is a sense of being more of a part of the universe.My life will be what it is meant to be. 162 . people must realize that there must be a better way. who is empowered to bring forth solutions? How do we transform ideas and ideals into ideas whose time has come? Clearly. my intake of ideas from others is so limited that I am only actively aware of a handful or two others. And.This seems like such an important topic . the nature of consciousness and how she expresses in our lives. 166 . You might say that I am driven to do this by a force that I cannot control. Yet. perhaps the grandest one there is. Why? Why can't we just collectively decide to make it so and manifest it? Why does it have to unfold over time? Surely. much less of consciousness. 164 . and being aware of more. My reality becomes more immediate and intuition based. And. 7 April 2008 243 . 161 . one that I would like to feel more often and share with others. it may always be such. Though.Perhaps many feel helpless. The bottom line is that it is still a big mystery . No exceptions. why am I doing this? Because I can. Not that I would desire to control it even if I could. 167 .. as an instrument for this expression. I am aware of what I am experiencing. that is how I see myself . What about cooperative interdependent living? Is that not what society is all about? Is not my purpose to help to build a society in which I would want to be a active member? 26 March 2008 165 .Are we ready to embark on such a journey to an enlightened society? My sense is yes ... I've seen what can be expressed here. I am grateful to serve as the instrument through which all of this is created.. 168 . Until they do.So.Another 20 years of effectively self-imposed solitude seems like too big of a price for me to bear.Through all of my mental excursions. You would think that there would be volumes of information on it. it must do this for everyone. 163 . Further. we collectively seem to have little understanding of the nature of mind. with all of the major problems rampant in the country and the world today.

eat the same foods.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 169 . 179 . 244 .It is not just ideas that must be evaluated but the whole process of making decisions to act. But. at least for me.Life has a way of working out as it is meant to. But. 175 . Here.. my life is pretty orderly. 170 . especially people set in their ways. we can allow life to unfold through us. And.. at least not consciously. 177 .There is a fine range in which life operates between order and chaos. may disturb some people . Not only see. we can allow spirit to express through us. my consciousness is much more chaotic...All creative acts possess that quality. It always has been.The blank screen is my sounding board. 173 . But. Perhaps it always will be. And. 172 .Living in the moment. out of chaos. it is crucial that personal decisions be made not just on selfish reasons. However.How many does it take to make a difference? If we are able to assist even a small number of people to awaken so that they can more fully express spirit in flesh. truly. What do we use as criteria for assessing utility? Does the idea serve people in a way that makes a positive difference in their lives? Does the idea help people to know who they are and to better express that by serving others? Does the idea make the infrastructures of the society more supportive of individual freedom? Does the idea benefit the society or community as a whole? 180 . 171 . drink the same drinks . it is not so simple as that. that does not make these thoughts bad necessarily. and whatever that is will be appropriate. It comes here to engage in this stream of consciousness expression. Overall.New thoughts. That is sufficient.Good or bad are moral assessments. but with consideration of the good for society or the group as well. I do the same things. we have done a great service. They give form to something that was unformed. 176 . 178 . What happens as a result of capturing that expression is in spirits hands not mine. They manifest something that was unmanifest. that is the only way to live.I express because I am moved by spirit to express. 174 . often based on people's preconceived notions. but record so that I can return to it at will and so that I can share what is expressed freely with others.The bottom line is that we will see what happens as it unfolds. That is not a sufficient reason for evaluating such ideas. often it is not us determining how that is to be. even that is an act of bringing order out of the unknown.Utility should be the yardstick by which we measure the value of an idea. radical thoughts. It allows me to see what consciousness would express through me.

I can reach out and find ways to touch others. This is what we are meant to do. It seems that it is time for much more of the later. 190 ..What beliefs are holding me back from being all that I could be? Lots of questions but not a lot of answers. 185 .Today marks the first day of the rest of my life. Though. Generally.The greatest good comes when everyone wins . And. 182 .. moving from a ME focus to a WE focus? Note that the word focus is important.For many people. we need to make it the way of the now as well. That is how I recharge my batteries. unless we are willing to do our parts as individuals.. Here we get to be whom that we are in ways that we cannot be anywhere else.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 181 . 184 . not when we have winners and losers as most competitive situations demand. a testament to what spirit can do in our lives. it just means that it needs to be placed secondary to the collective perspective. how will the collective ever function effectively as a whole? 189 .. That is not such a hard thing to do... It is only a matter of time. Rather. 186 . Or. 188 . what would motivate people to do such things? What could the world be? What are we willing to do to make it so? When are we as individuals going to take responsibility for the collective WE? After all. This is what makes our heart sing. is that not what life is all about? Indeed. That does not mean that we give up on our needs. I can fashion that to be anyway that I desire it to be. when we are able to ask the questions. the answers are forthcoming. It just means that we find ways to meet them within a larger framework that includes helping others to meet their needs as well. There are many choices and many freedoms. That is OK. It is not that I have that much faith in me. It is a matter of changing our focus from me to we.What has been expressed to date is quite an achievement . how we love to soar. 245 . 8 April 2008 183 . This does not mean to neglect the individual perspective. 187 . Here is where we get to soar in consciousness.Is this not what the transformation to a new age all about .Here is where we get to express the extraordinary.. Though. I sense that I will always need my times of solitude. is that enough? A saying comes to mind: none are more hopelessly enslaved than those who falsely believe they are free. the sense is that what is to come will far exceed what has come forth to date. But. most of us just don't know it.. the present world is a pretty remarkable place.Cooperative interdependence is the way to achieve great things. And my.Cooperation is the way of the future.What grand things do we envision could be done? And. We live in a cooperatively interdependent world . To the degree possible. I have that much faith in consciousness as she expresses through me. it is for me. I can continue to be isolated and alone.

It only takes one.. There are only a few hundred golfers that are good enough for the PGA Tour.This expression is different. 196 . Without the communication. 193 . 198 . That does not stop me from doing them. As the observer. It is only in the present where we have the power to choose and to act. 197 . much of what has been shared may not even have reached another soul. And. The future is unformed . 195 . A lot of talent and a lot of practice. it still makes a sound.That does not change the fact that the only place that we can truly live and have a real impact is in the present. many of which are reflective of whom that I am. at least what I do here. And that is not something that is easily measured.. we can only dream and plan what it might be. no real sharing has occurred. solitary. Yet. Or has it? If a tree falls in a forest.I am still shy. The past is done . 199 . if not millions of golfers who enjoy the game.I would hope that I am great at what I do . there are hundreds of thousands..The fact that I am there to witness what consciousness has brought forth is sufficient for the message to be recorded in the collective consciousness. however. 194 . But. But. how would I really know? Where does the feedback come that would tell me? In many endeavors. And often.. it only takes one to make something real. I have been moved to share millions of words. It helps if there are many . But. because the force is amplified greatly allowing manifestation to be influenced more quickly.It takes a lot to be great at something. I get to watch all of this happen even as it happens. and extremely introverted. it is with an audience that is unseen. And. it is the choices that we make and the actions that we take that determine what we will experience.The whole purpose of sharing is to communicate something to or with others. And. These words carry a vibration into the world even if no one is there to read them other than me.. by how many words come forth.. It is far easier to be good at something. I don't know how many people experience life in this fashion. good is good enough to make an activity enjoyable. 246 . we can only remember it. What matters is what impact it has on whom.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 9 April 2008 191 . or even by the number of people who read it. Yet. This is true in most endeavors..It seems there are many things in my life over which I do not have conscious control. a much smaller number than that win any of the master tournaments. competition provides that feedback. and there is no one there to hear it. or competition against some standard that is set for that activity such as par for a round of golf. as the observer observing not only what they are doing. This could be in terms of competition against others directly. many of whom are quite good at it. 192 ..You don't have to be a master to be effective. It cannot be measured by how quickly it is produced. That is a lot of sharing. but observing theirselves as the observer as well.

it is what we do that makes all the difference. 207 . But. I would have it no other way. 210 . Though. But. I can count on this expression to bring forth at least one and often many quotable passages. with consciousness herself.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 200 . a statement we will make even if we choose to 247 . 209 . I would engage in this stream of consciousness expression to the end of my days.The process for engaging in this expression is effective. That we have not come close to building these foundations yet does not matter. uncovering gems and spiritual truths. I suspect that it always will. 203 . to allow us to do more than we could otherwise do.What would I do next? Yes.The unknown plays a major role in my life. There was no separate source identified. this is my life.. Why? Because here I do something that I consider to be of great value. I don't know what I might have done to deserve all of this. what makes something "creative"? For me. 202 . The words and the ideas that they convey have value. is that not what building the foundations for a new world is all about? I've known that this is the Beyond Imagination mission since the expression began..This expression is my doorway into that unknown.Creative expression is always worth it. it needs to engage the intuition.Life is about making a statement via our presence. It is always worth the energy and attention that goes into it. But. or even to the world.. 205 . great value.. But. the intuitive side of us . For.The books created from this expression all bear my name as the author. I have never consciously experienced this source to be me. words which I have been moved to read multiple times.. It has allowed millions of words to come forth . 201 . 208 .I would be whom that I am.. I would express what spirit would express through me. 10 April 2008 206 . 204 .That is what I most crave ... when I asked early in the expression what to call the source of these words . But then. Generally. It is up to us.. of great value to whom? Clearly to me. especially in the realm of consciousness. After all. to others. Here is where I get to speak with a voice that is not mine.Of course. But.I consider myself to be extremely lucky to have such a relationship with the source within. I am fascinated by it . the answer that was given was Wayne. I am not an impartial evaluator. I believe also to the world. That is just how it is. This can be a statement to ourselves.. that is an important question to ask. what I do must have world import. And.

213 . For me. 248 . 215 . 216 . Yet.There is still a sense that massive changes are forthcoming in my life and my world. But. the present is the only one where we wield any power. It is only in the NOW that we can take action to manifest change in our lives. I am consumed by it. What is the nature of consciousness? What is life? How does intuition work? All of these fall in that category.. The feeling that we have is obvious. I would do it my way.It seems that the most we can be is to serve as a vessel through which spirit can do her works. It is not clear whether these will be reflected in the consensus world or not. 212 . Further. there are many things that are unknown and potentially unknowable.. That is OK. the future . We just happen to be expressions of spirit in flesh at the moment. 214 . What can I say. what does it take to do this . It is what it is. the biggest adventures are adventures in consciousness. the present. such as what is my destiny can be elusive. What matters is whom that we are versus whom that we could be.I would live a life of spirit. Also. especially if we are trying to know it in advance. we can only live in one of these at any one time. 211 . Plan though we might. 11 April 2008 217 . 220 . questions are signs that we are ready to know the answers to those very questions. I do not generally make comparisons with others. This is what sends shivers through my body. And.Our destiny will be unveiled over time.The slogan be all that you can be strikes a strong chord within me. But. We are all unique expressions of spirit.. It is not for us to know things too far in advance of NOW. Others.My life and my world are the containers in which I experience my reality. All else pales by comparison.Life is meant to be an adventure. This is the directive from spirit.. That is all that really matters to me. Questions allow me to focus on what I most need to know. of these. we experience joy in what we are doing.Questions are a way of life. You might even say it is an obsession for me.I pay a lot of attention to the things that consciousness brings into my life. From what I can tell. Perhaps my focus is too single-minded. Metaphysics plays a major role in my life. 218 . these are vastly different than what others experience.The past. different though that may be. to be this? How do we know when we are performing at our best? We just know. 219 . Though. I have been for quite some time. These are the kinds that blow me away.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 remain silent. the universe has a fate in store for us that may be far beyond our wildest dreams.

So. It is important to find those ways that employ the most of our abilities and talents. Our schools fail to teach people what they need to know to effectively function in society.There are many signs that the system is failing however. We have homeless people in this country. This is especially true when the people in power are a small minority. For then. it is important to use this power in service. who realize that the world is ONE community spanning the planet. Clearly. And. source is that powerful. untold miracles become possible. But. I would hope that there are others out there who are thinking along similar lines.But. 224 . There is something seriously wrong about that. that is a lot for anyone to take on. The sooner. it allows us to operate at a new and higher level of expression.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 221 . We are then able to do more than we ever thought possible. Adequate shelter should be a right. And. This is unfair. They see that they are free to get enough of what they want to be satisfied with the status quo. who is responsible for ensuring that the world is served effectively and efficiently and that all countries are treated fairly? 228 . However. This needs to come to an end. attuned to source. we are able to do things beyond which we have the training and knowledge to do. All works are spiritual works. 249 . And. we are that powerful. into the ONE consciousness herself. We have starving people in this country at the same time that we dump large quantities of food and even pay for farmers not to grow certain crops. our service is the greatest that it can be . when we do this. things are even more dismal. there are safeguards so that this is the only way it can be used. especially human resources. 223 . We are able to tap into something far greater and grander than we are as individuals. Perhaps. Being in a position of power often tips the scales. 226 .How do we establish the infrastructure needed to allow people to serve society effectively in return for having their needs met efficiently? Who is responsible for ensuring that the whole is functioning elegantly and serving everyone? Is that not the goal? I consider this to be my responsibility. what motivation is there for change? 227 . the present system works for vast numbers of people in this country. 225 .We can serve in many ways.When we look at the world as a whole. this is something that many must be employed to do. when we truly realize this and accept it. 222 .. they don't see anyone trying to change things in a major way that will make a difference. especially for people in the developing and undeveloped countries. However. We tap into source.Our present way of being is extremely wasteful of resources. And. the better. and we are most likely to enjoy doing it.Fair treatment does not necessarily arise from people coming to agreement on things. Yes. allowing the outcome to be most favorable to those in power.. Many social systems are in trouble due to a lack of sufficient resources to provide the services that are needed by people. But. and who realize that a social contract is how we define how individuals relate within a society.Everything is spirit in expression.

Breakpoints are such that what comes after has no bearing or relationship to what came before. 234 .2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 but it is prevalent. collectively. not only to others but to ourselves? When will we learn that we are all brothers/sisters on this spaceship that we call Earth? When will we learn that we are all ONE. but still relatively rare. We need to get the best and the brightest among us focused on doing the things that provide the most benefit to all of us. I don't know enough about history to know if or when such breakpoints may have happened before. I don't know if there is anything that I can do to facilitate a breakpoint. 231 . But. I would hope that this very expression is a way to foster that. We are seeking a breakpoint that changes peoples perception of how they see themselves. we are not talking about evolutionary change . Evolution happens far too slowly. I don't even want to think about how many resources go into weapons.. not only in this country but in the world.Collective action is required to establish major social change. that what we do to others we do to ourself? These are simple truths that we must all learn. No challenge is too great that we can't rise to achieve it. here. 250 . others.We are in need of a breakpoint. I've experienced such breakpoints several times personally. And.What we are seeking is a revolution in consciousness.. and conducting wars. It is not clear how successful this has been. spirit working through us can do grand things. society. Though.When will we learn that peace is always a better answer? When will we learn that hatred brings only harm. that seems to be almost criminal.Yes. and the world. very soon! 232 . 235 .. That is a huge responsibility. but revolutionary change. But.The bottom line is that resources require funding. My hope is that this day comes soon . We'll see in time. However. 236 . such it is. we will learn them someday.We have to start taking responsibility collectively for meeting the needs of every individual.The amount of foreign aid funded by the US is less than one percent of our gross national product. 229 .. No problem is so difficult that we can't find ways to overcome it. we have the time and resources to do amazing things. Also. defense. 230 . My sense is that it is indeed time for that to happen. we get results. This means establishing better priorities for where we spend our funding. it is not clear that dissatisfaction with the present society is sufficient to foster or support a revolution. How do we fix this? The United Nations was established as a New World Order. This is especially true for where we apply the big bucks. Yet. here we are talking about experiencing one collectively. We have only to cooperate and do our share by giving of ourself in service somehow. 237 . Given that we are one of the richest nations in the world. And. There were high hopes that it would help to make the world a better place through getting nations to understand the needs of each other and work to resolve any problems among nations. Where we apply the bucks.WIN/WIN behavior is on the rise. 233 .

Though. it seems different rules apply.. many artists suffer such fates . what great things can she do in your life as well? We have only to offer our time and talents in her service.For your eyes only. But. only for you. It is a matter of doing what we are moved to do when we are moved to do it . what value it has to the world is not for me to determine. Could all of this be for my eyes only? If so. When all is said and done. then what is? 14 April 2008 239 . what those are seem to be something that we must discover on our own.. and hopefully value to the world.. So. it could also be that I was some obscure writer spanning from the end of the 20th century into the early decades of the 21st century. except by some of the greatest quotes of the greatest minds over the ages. 246 .2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 238 . we need to take full responsibility for both what we choose to do and what we choose not to do. And. However. But. with their works going unappreciated until after they are gone. will I find my place in such august company? I can only hope that such would be the case.. It is a matter of developing our intuition and trusting what it tells us.. I know that. 240 . value to me.At the very least. it will. But. 251 .For those touched by spirit. But. 244 . it has always been. It is as it must be. literally millions of words..I know that I am an instrument being played by spirit... at least not self-interest alone. when bending rules. And. when the time is right. as we do this. gladly I serve in this capacity.. 241 . others are soft and can be questioned and even bent as needed. that the message coming forth is meant to reach people. If consciousness could do all of this for me. That consciousness could be so concerned about any one person to bring forth all of this. That is not so hard to do. much of that is a direct result of what this expression has brought into my life. We need to do more of this and be willing to shake up the status quo. I trust that she plays me for a reason .. 245 . That sentence still haunts me.I feel extremely grateful to be who I have become. That would seem to be a waste of all of this energy and expression. what I do here has value . And.Some rules are hard and cannot be broken. we need to be sure that we are not operating out of self-interest. That will come from the impact that these works have on others. I am incredibly special to be so blessed. sometimes the waiting is difficult. But.I'm not one to be moved deeply . trusting that consciousness knows what she has in store for us. for what purpose am I being trained in this manner? If this expression is not the service that I am here to provide. 242 . 243 . is phenomenal.What does it say about consciousness if all of this is done solely for my benefit? What does it really say? For one thing.Questioning is very enlightened behavior.

the right ideals. Where we expend attention and resources. We have to volunteer our services. 250 . And playing is something that we could all use a lot more of in our lives. it is our very birthright. It is a matter of planting the right seeds. something is not working. 253 . and starving people . to ourselves. That is an interesting way of looking at things. period. this is beyond imagination. such is within our reach and our grasp. As a result.. But. 254 . or the work will simply not be done. Yet. and to apply what we learn to make masterpieces of our lives. we should not be doing it.After all.It seems that it all comes down to resources.We still have homeless people. to our society. However. it does take the right ideas disseminated to enough people to make a difference. 248 . in the minds and hearts of a sufficient number of people.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 247 . hopefully. Look around. 251 .Responsibility can be a difficult thing to bear. And. We can change that. do we not all suffer when the least of us suffer? Are we not responsible to look after and care for one another? Is that not one of the things that a society does? 255 . This is the stuff of inspiration . But it will only happen if we do something to make it so.. either consciously or at other than conscious levels. This we can do. And. But. many shirk it. It behooves us to learn how we do this.. And.We are engaged in spirit's work. we can do it quickly. even in this country. as spirit in flesh. look at the great improvements that have 252 . to our world . it is something that we can do within my lifetime.It doesn't take huge armies to generate great change.. For several decades..So much added effectivity comes into play when we love what we do. But. Clearly. science and technology have received the funding and the resources. Given that I don't expect to live much longer than that. This is far grander than I would ever have imagined to be possible in my first 34 years on the planet.. But. So. and not necessarily in that order.. who has the responsibility to attempt to cure these ills? Why do we permit such suffering in a land of plenty? Perhaps it is because no one or no organization has been given the authority and responsibility to do anything. And. we get results. such is how it is. 249 . spirit can only do her works through us. we can do so in as little as a generation. In many ways. to others. making a difference is what it is all about . Each and every one of us chooses that experience. it is a labor of love. unemployed people. We can do this. this happens everywhere. It transforms the work into play..We can be the people that create a new world order. Spiritual work is volunteer work. with responsibility comes the opportunity to do things that truly make a difference. Otherwise. 15 April 2008 252 . the foundations of the present society and world are not very supportive of enabling us to do this.We are responsible for our experience. And.

This stream of consciousness is mysterious and magical. the sum of those moments will pass quickly. 264 . we are running open loop. doing this for over a century may just be too much. is hope enough? The answer from within is NO.One can always hope.A year from now is an eternity of moments. But. Hope is not enough. 260 . The soul only understands the present. what I am here and now. But. 263 . We must be able to envision what it is that we wish to be and experience. 262 . the first question presupposes a time in the future by its very language. I am what I say that I am. 265 . feedback is that important. we must have belief and expectancy. 16 April 2008 266 . Without it. where is the feedback loop that could result in better choices? Indeed. how is that different from whom that I am in the moment? Very good questions. If we want to experience something different. 261 . for many coping with such changes is difficult at best. It ever seeks to mirror whom that we are both individually and collectively.What we are attracts what we experience. Yet.Who is responsible for evaluating whether resources are being applied for the greatest good of society? Who is best equipped to perform such a service? Who receives the appropriate training to do this? Nothing in my experience has provided anything close to answers to such questions as these. 256 . There is no one to question or doubt that. and have no idea of where things will lead.For those who embrace change.We have to venture into the unknown sometimes to see where it will take us. Further. How could I not serve her in this manner? 267 . we need to change something about whom that we are.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 resulted in our country and the world. 258 . it seems that change is happening in our world faster than the ability of society to deal with it.So. 257 .It is time to make the masterpiece of my life that it can be. I know not how it functions or 253 . But.Our experience is a direct reflection of us. It is time to stop doing the bidding of any prince and start making my own way in the world.Consciousness brings such incredible richness to my life. whom would I be? And. For change to manifest. perhaps it is not happening fast enough. yet I know overall. At times.If we don't evaluate the impact of our investments on our lives. 259 . I am moved to ask them anyway. But.

It does mean embracing more holistic thinking in our choices and decisions. The infrastructures in society need to be supportive of everyone winning . 277 . some do this more effectively than others.. the synergy will be created that allows the world to be transformed. and perhaps will make a difference in many lives over time. Generally. Why does one person matter among the 6 billion plus on the planet? Why is this particular record so important? It is important because someone cares enough to capture it and share it in this fashion.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 from whence it flows. That doesn't mean that competition doesn't have a place in society.When we compete. That does not mean relinquishing our rights and our needs. If not. 275 .In the moment. If it serves you. feel free to abandon it and go elsewhere.Spirit.My hope is that seeing what is shared so freely here will encourage you to find ways to 254 . And. This is where selfish thinking comes to an end. herself. that reason is to be of service to others in some capacity. We. I make no airs about it.. Whether it is correct or not depends on how much of me got in the way of spirit expressing through me. It just means that we need to be enlightened in when and how we apply it and ensure that any lessons learned are passed on to all. 273 .This is as close to automatic writing as I am capable of producing. or alter it in anyway. as individuals. It is important because it makes a difference in at least one life . 271 . But. a world that is rich in meaning everywhere that we look. When we cooperate. have only to play our roles and do our parts to the best of our ability. All this requires is a transformation of focus. The bottom line is that it is what it is.. 278 . or edit it. we can achieve much better results for the whole. I don't control it. but some do it consciously. we do what we are moved to do in the moment. Most do this other than consciously.Reality creation is what we do. 270 . this record of consciousness expressing in the life of one person. at least in the things that count the most. that is to bring forth this stream of consciousness.We live in a symbolic world. 268 . often we are wasteful of resources.What has come forth is the best that I could bring forth.. 274 . Right now. Further. great. She will engage us collectively to do her works in the manner that they need to be done. 276 . 269 . As we do this. most of us are blind to much of this meaning embedded in everything that we experience. It is only a matter of time.It is time for the ME generation to become the WE generation. or rearrange it. 272 .We need to get away from a winners and losers mentality. collectively we enable our individual needs to be met more efficiently and elegantly. we must realize that when we do this. It is important because it provides an example of the incredible creativity of consciousness as it manifests through us. and there is a reason that we exist here and now.We are each here for a purpose or purposes. is the overall creator here. I allow it to flow forth from within as it will.

if we had truly tried? We know because it strikes a strong chord within us. 283 . immortal. is that not what we are seeking . not by birthright. omnipotent and omnipresent. When we share in such a fashion. everyone that we grace with our touch benefits greatly.. 279 . it is that simple. as souls enfleshed. That is our part of the contract.When it comes down to it. We can embrace any ideal at any time. 255 . All that we have to do is create the infrastructure. the greatest thing that we can share is whom that we are. where best to achieve our best. We have always been such. there is a strong correlation between happiness and achieving our best. 281 . But. In fact.. but..We are ever engaged in this dance of consciousness . That is demanding a lot. It is a matter of remembering whom that we truly are. We know by how happy it makes us. we might even have more free time and more resources at our disposal if the society was operating more elegantly. emotional. and not being so focused on the limitation within the present illusion we call reality.. and spiritual.How do we expect our society and the world to function elegantly is there are no rules that govern our interactions and expectations? But. more free time and the ability to enjoy that time. We know by the feeling of success and accomplishment that we get when we achieve it. then we can manifest it. 285 ..I would live in a manner that makes a difference. After all. we must be willing to give abundantly. Yes. is not defined? In a world that is interdependent. 282 . this seems to be a necessity. the one between the individual and the society of which he/she is part . what about liberty . If we can envision a society that operates in accord with this ideal. has no bearing on what can happen now. along with clearly defined contracts between various societies.. Actually.To receive.What has happened historically. life is about sharing. we must be willing to give even more. mental. but by creation as souls. For. if we don't place such demands on ourselves. And. it's not only that .. individual freedom? We can still be free and live within the operating constraints of a society.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 share of whom that you are.. to do this we must give of ourselves. and what a dance it is. of our abilities. the foundations. We are eternal. To receive even more. how are we to ever live up to our potential? 286 .We are all grand.How do we know what our potential is? How do we know what we could have done. To receive abundantly. in service to society. a great positive difference in the lives of others and to the world. 280 ... that is a very grand thing indeed. But. And... Yes. if not in service to society? 287 . that allow the ideal to manifest.How is it such that one of the most important relationships that we have in the world . it's the ability to get our needs met on all levels: physical. 17 April 2008 284 . It is that simple. we must be willing to give.

it does not make it fact. It is for us to cherish and embrace our differences and find ways to share of them in service to others.To follow your bliss. our society. we need to employ our abilities in all four realms effectively.Yes... 297 ... that we have to compete to get our share? While many people believe this. the mental. 296 . not of flesh. Yet.That is the only way that spirit can express.. may not work for another or others.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 288 . 291 . They allow us to tune into and experience the wonders of the physical world. this is not some stationary thing.Emerson. the masters of reality creation that we can be. getting the 256 . They were forbearers of a time to come . We are her only vessels and instruments. though some find themselves with distinct preferences. Our bodies are the clothes that we wear in this existence. in particular. and the spiritual.We need to find what works and do it.. perhaps that is the very thing that enables me to serve as the vessel through which spirit can express in this manner. namely the emotional. we need to realize that people are different. it is the journey of a lifetime . They spoke and wrote of spirit in a whole new way. their words speak out to eternity. 295 .. 292 .. we live in other realms as well.. clearly I am still spirit enfleshed. and our world. perhaps even many lifetimes. virtually neglecting other realms. Though. I accentuate the spiritual to an extreme .. They were at their heights in the final half of the 1800's. of a new age that was just beyond their time horizon. 290 . I am a transcendentalist at heart. In fact. what gives? 294 . Further. We need to become the masters that we can be . The sense is that this something is the flesh.. That very principle is what creates abundance in our lives and in our world.The secret to life was stated well in The Lion King . All are equally important . and it does not make it useful except to a few.. The challenge for society is to create the infrastructure and foundations that allow abilities to be developed and applied in service to society in a way that is elegant.To be all that we can be. Service is how we exchange whom that we are for all that we need. 293 . Note that we are in flesh. What does it mean to transcend? It means to go above and beyond something. Does that mean I am a transcendental soul as well? Yes.Service is ultimately all that matters. you must find your bliss. to never take more than you give.But. So.Elegance involves getting the maximal service from the minimal resources . This defines me more clearly than any other term. so what works for one or even many. what about the idea that resources are constrained. a time when the world was a much different place than it is today. And collective utility needs to be the strongest driving factor for a society.. and Thoreau were clearly my mentors and predecessors. Clearly. It is that simple. through us.. We are all spirit expressing in flesh. Channing. Though. 289 . Yet.

waiting for us to apply them. Will that indeed come to be? It may. there is a lot about whom that I am revealed in this expression. 257 . reading it. Nor do we do it democratically. We get greatly increased productivity resulting in a wider array of goods and services. mental.For too long. However.. the best that spirit is able to share through me . There is something sad about that. 302 . and it is not really me saying it. is primarily for my eyes only.We can literally turn the world into a utopia. In particular. 301 . a good number are far more controlling. Others inherited their wealth and their power. Though. The question is will we do it. no one that I know is really doing that to any real degree. physical. emotional. We have given away our power. 299 . you learn more about me than anyone in the world knows other than me. the Kings of Industry have set the course for the world for far too long. However. 304 .. I'm thinking of Bill Gates or the inventors of Google as examples. Right now. When we do this on the scale of society. That might be good if people were reading this expression.2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 most out of the least. It implies exerting undo influence to produce a desired outcome. the talent. 300 . I just assumed that she knows to whom she is expressing. Yes. We have the resources.. That seems to be in spirits hands not mine. there is something sad about that. we don't do this by majority rules.. All we lack is the desire and resolve. It is all a matter of choice. and when? 20 April 2008 303 . and allowed the few to determine how the world would be. collectively..The best that I have to share. grand things happen.We can create an abundant world. It is time to take our power back. but they are only in our imagination. collectively. we have allowed others to make our choices for us. and spiritual. and the know-how to do this. or it may not. Castles in the air are fine. The people with the real power in this country and this world were not given their power via any voting process.. 298 . And. in a heartbeat. Some use it wisely in beneficial ways.. To me.Some of these people achieved their power by generating services of value on a massive scale. She sets the agenda for this expression.The only place that I really say anything is here in this expression . But. and we get abundance in all realms of life . The ideals are there .. this is something that we can change. It is time to go Beyond Imagination and make them real.How do we know what is possible? Who decides what the society and the world will be? The bottom line is we do. In fact.Here. I believe that I am doing something that has the potential to make a big impact on peoples’ lives and the world. 305 . that seems to be to me alone. The first step is to realize that we can do this. being controlling is a bad thing. and collectively fashion the world into what we would have it be.

2008 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 1 306 - We would create the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh. This requires more than evolutionary change, it requires revolutionary change. It is time to truly shake things up, and build new foundations from the ground up ... or perhaps from the heavens down. 307 - There have been castles in the air for far to long, it is time to put the foundations under them. We can do that now, better than at any time before. The time is right. The circumstances are right. We have only to be the change that we want to see in the world. 308 - The world reflects how we choose to be, individually and collectively. Yes, we must also do, out of whom we have become. But, the most important step is to be whom that we truly are, and express that fully. 309 - In over 15 years, I have never been disappointed by any of this. Quite the opposite, the Beyond Imagination expression has been the shining glory of my reality. If I do nothing else, at least I will have captured something of wonder and beauty, something far greater than anything that I could have created on my own. 310 - I am extremely grateful that spirit has graced my life in this fashion. If she could do all of this through me, I can only imagine what she could do on a worldwide scale if people were connected to the source within and expressing that fully in there lives. 311 - There is a destiny that I am fulfilling. I know that. I just don't know where it is taking me and when. That is OK. I embrace the mysteries of consciousness in my life. Why don't I embrace the mysteries of life as readily? 312 - Is not a strong desire enough to manifest that which is desired? Sometimes, sometimes not. We have to believe that what we desire is indeed possible and even probable for us. We have to give the desire sufficient strength to allow it to manifest. We have to realize that our intent makes the difference in how spirit's abundance appears in our life. She has the means to grant any wish. But, it is our intent that determines how she applies her vast resources. 313 - What is my deepest intent? To build the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh. Such is a world that I would truly choose to participate in with body, mind, heart, and soul. 314 - If I could be anything that I wanted to be, what would I be? I would be more of what I AM, a metaphysical writer with a message for a world in need. 315 - The soul naturally knows how to love, and how to do so unconditionally. Find this part within you and allow it to express what it knows innately. You will be surprised at the depth of feeling and expression that will be unleashed. Yes, it will be scary at first, especially for you. But let go, and allow the flow to carry you along. 21 April 2008 258

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316 - I only loosely am aware of what I can do on other than conscious levels. The conscious is indeed only the tip of the iceberg. And, no matter how aware we become, this will always be the case. Only the size of the iceberg changes, not its relative dimensions. So, there will always be the unknown, as a major element of our lives. That is OK. It results in great mysteries and wonders to behold and experience. Such are the things that make life miraculous and fascinating. 317 - How do we remain in a natural state of grace? We are always in such a state. However, we often fail to remember this. That leads to much sorrow and suffering in our lives, in our society, and in our world. 318 - I am moved to find the moreness in life. And, I will continue to seek until either I find it or I die, and maybe even then I will continue to seek. Yes, you could characterize me as a seeker, and as a philosopher. For, it is indeed spiritual wisdom that I seek. I would know the nature of self, and of consciousness herself, however elusive that might be. 319 - It matters not that I ever find what I seek. The process of seeking is enough to engage me wholeheartedly. Those last two sentences sent shivers through my body. That is always a sign for me that I have touched on a grand truth. Such truths may be universal, but often are not. My way is a way, it is clearly not the way? Follow me if by doing so that serves you in some way. 320 - I am a self-proclaimed wayshower. Yet, I know not for whom I am showing the way. Then again, neither did the early explorers in this country. My country just happens to be the realm of consciousness. It is there that I choose to spend my time exploring what I can and sharing of what I find. 321 - These words are the trail that consciousness herself is able to leave through me. Follow them so long as they move you and serve you. Feel free to venture off the trail and make you own forays into the wilderness of consciousness as well. This is no different than the experience of the wilderness in your own country. It just operates in a different domain. 322 - What does it mean to operate out of oneness? For one thing, in oneness there is no separateness and no duality. There is no eit