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Iamhavingababy!
Not your average
pregnancy, not your
average journal
By J.A.D.E
Found out!!!!
02/06/2008
After weeks of being totally constipated, over emotional (almost psycho), having my
boobs swell and ache and feeling completely sick and not finding a cure for it, everyone
suggested that I took a pregnancy test, but I didn’t want to listen. So I spoke to my cousin
(who also happens to be a doctor) and explained my symptoms expecting him to tell me I
just have to flu, but he also told me I was probably pregnant and to get a test done. So
reluctantly I went to Superdrug and brought the cheapest pregnancy testing kit they had
(because I still was not convinced and there was no way I was shelling out tonnes of
money on one of them Clear Blue jobs) and lucky for me there was a two for one special,
woohoo!
So I came home and went straight to the bathroom to get it out the way, so I had a little
wee on the stick and waited before I could even breath, the result was there and it was
positive. Obviously I thought it was wrong, after all it was a cheap test, maybe I
should’ve invested in a Clear Blue one, that wouldn’t have lied to me. So I thought I’d
wait a few hours, but ended up waiting maybe 5minutes and took the test again this time
the hubby came in the bathroom with me and we both waited and there it was as clear as
day, I was actually pregnant, how did that happen lol
Doctors
4/06/2008
I went to the doctors today to obviously get further confirmation that I was actually
pregnant, because I was still heavily in denial, but also because I was bleeding over the
weekend, which is quite scary. So the doctor called up the hospital and got me and
emergency appointment for the next morning. Oh, and they confirmed I was actually
pregnant, but what do doctors know anyway, I won’t believe it until a professional doctor
at the hospital tells me.
1st Scan
5/06/2008
At 9am (why so early?) I went with my mum (and my doctors notes) to the Sonning Ward
in the Maternity Unit, it’s really weird because that’s the first time I’ve actually been to
the Maternity Unit I didn’t even know where it was.
Firstly I had to give a urine sample, then a nurse took my blood pressure and stuck
something in my ear she didn’t even explain what she was doing, I had to keep asking her
what was going on and why she was doing it which seemed to piss her off…Oh well, I
still carried on asking questions haha
I then had to sit and wait (for years) for my scan. It felt so surreal I guess everyone in the
small waiting room were in the same position as me (waiting to see if they were pregnant
and if the babies OK) so it was really quiet and intense.
Once in the scanning room the sonographer put gel all over my belly then she had to
press down really hard on my belly with the scanner thingy because the baby was only
tiny. I got to see his heart beating which was really overwhelming. She measured him and
told me I was actually 8 weeks pregnant. She even gave me my first picture of my baby it
was so exciting.
I heart my mummy
7/06/2008
I stayed at my mums again this weekend there’s nothing better than getting completely
spoilt by mummy when you’re feeling like crap.
My new boobs
9/06/2008
Still felt a bit sick this morning and kept getting a pulling feeling near my bikini line,
kinda like period pains. After work I went to find a bra and a dress that would actually fit
my newer bigger boobs. I’m now a 34G, check me out lol I could be a page 3girl…if I
wasn’t pregnant…or didn’t want lots of men perving over my boobs.
I found a cute dress for a fiver in Prada (Primark) and a pretty bra in Debs..Result!
11 weeks…well nearly
25/06/2008
Officially it's actually tomorrow. It feels like it was only yesterday when I found out I
was pregnant, wow those 3 weeks have flown by. Now that I’m over the initial shock I
thought I'd keep a more regular journal seeing as I'm addicted to blogging. This will be
mine and my husbands 1st baby and we're both really excited, especially seeing as I was
under the impression that I'd never have children (imagine having to deal with that in
your early 20's).
I'm actually a high risk pregnancy due to the fact that my rubbish doctors failed to realize
I had a tumour (which had probably been growing for over 10 years)
To cut a long story short it was a prolactinoma. When I finally got referred to a specialist
endocrine doctor (who has been brilliant) I had an MRI scan and got some tablets for it
and the swelling has now gone down and it's no longer bleeding internally.
Now because these tablets were to stop me from producing milk I'm now worried that I
won't be able to breastfeed when the baby comes.
My other worry is that because those tablets worked so well I was reluctant to come off
them. But the doctor made me switch to a different kind due to my pregnancy. But I guess
we'll see how things go.
I have about 4 different kinds of doctors looking after me which makes me feel kinda
special (but scared too) and I've been told I'll be having more scans and attending hospital
more than the average pregnant woman but I'm just trying to take it all in my stride and
not stress about it too much.
the hubby is bursting (literally) to tell all his friends and family and I've only told my best
friend it's sooo like hush hush. I'm not really a secretive person so this is the hardest
secret I've ever had to keep. But next week the secret will be out, yey! I'm sure my mum
will tell literally everyone, I think she’s more excited than me (if that’s possible), I'll
probably have family from the Caribbean calling me to say congrats
Strange reactions
30/06/2008
I told my older sister about me being pregnant and the strangest thing happened. 1st she
didn’t seem all that amused, then she was like 'oh I'll call you later so we can chat
properly' she never called and I haven't heard from her since. Then she called my mum
and had a go at her so now she's not talking to me or my mum or strangely enough my
dad (even thought he doesn’t even know I'm pregnant)
I really don't know what the problem is it's like me telling her that offended her or
something I dunno. I mean she’s like 10 years older than me has a good job, good money,
good friends, nice apartment in the city why would me getting pregnant seem to ruin her
life so much so that she stops talking to everyone. Cuz she has literally cut herself off.
Like she’s not answering calls, or responding to texts or emails.
Personally I think it's a bizarre form of attention seeking cuz I'm the youngest and people
assume the youngest is spoilt (which I'm not I've been working since I was 14/15) but I
guess she may feel that cuz I'm the 1st 1 to have a baby both me and the child are gonna
get fussed over and spoilt. I mean the child probably will get spoilt, (cuz between me and
they hubby, we have a lot of family and friends who probably will buy the baby lots of
stuff) But that’s no reason to react in that way....
I would never act like that if someone was telling me that kind of news, even if I felt they
were making the wrong decision I'm not gonna say something evil to upset them and
make them depressed and miscarry
Has anyone else had a close relative or friend react in such a random way to your news.
12 weeks 2day
3/07/2008
Yey I'm finally 12 weeks, it feels like it took so long to get to this stage. I've got my NT
scan tomorrow so I'm really looking forward to that then I can tell the whole world about
my little munchkin that’s growing inside me.
I'm actually starting to 'feel' pregnant and I'm eating a lot more, so I'm actually gaining
weight (well I feel bigger) as opposed to loosing heaps of it. I dunno if it's a proper
craving but I find that them all day breakfasts you can get, with fried egg, bacon, sausage
etc really make me happy. I love them I could eat them everyday.
I still don't like the smell of onions, (although I will eat them in food) I can't stand the
smell of them raw or being fried up. I also hate the smell of them powder seasonings, but
strangely enough I love the smell of my mums homemade seasoning.
I just feel like I could eat and eat and eat all the time and in the early stages I didn’t feel
like that at all, I really love eating now.
I also really hate fish (this week) I loved it last week, my husband made fish the other day
and I felt really faint just from looking at it then the smell made me feel sick.
But other than certain foods making me feel sick I've found that the actual morning
sickness is not as severe as it was which is great as I did not enjoy that 1 bit and I thought
I was gonna be one of them unlucky women who has to endure morning sickness all the
way through the pregnancy.
By the time I got there I was sooo hungry I could eat my own arm, but at the same time I
didn’t want anything too heavy so I had some hula hoops, yummy.
We walked all the way to level 5 to be told that the scan was actually on level 2 (that was
a mission and a half!) then we finally found the place and had to wait forever. Our
appointment was at 12 but we didn’t go in until around 1ish.
The nurse taking the measurements was quite rude and abrupt to begin with I was so glad
the student nurse was there as she was really happy and helpful.
Anyway as I lay down I was thinking oh no what if they can't find a heartbeat. Then as
soon as the lady put the scan thing on my belly all we could see was the baby looking like
he/she was having a party inside my belly. The little munchkin was everywhere looking
like they were having fun and throwing his arms up like it was the best thing in the world.
He then refused to turn around and for a while had his back to us then he turned around
again and started moving everywhere so it was hard for the nurse to get a proper picture
or measurement.
But my little munchkin seemed so happy in there now I feel happy because I can stop
worrying so much. My husband was so excited he was just beaming and he brought 3
pics (they gave us 1 for free and the rest cost £2) but we were both thrilled with
everything I feel like I'm floating cuz I'm so happy.
I thought I'd have to drink water beforehand, lucky I didn’t because the lady at reception
was like no don't do that. glad I didn’t start because the last time I had to do that I drank
too much water and while they were scanning me I actually cried cuz I was bursting to
pee that much lol
But in conclusion to my essay, everything is fine I'm just waiting for the NT scan results.
Although I did have a nose while the nurse was writing up the notes and saw that she said
it seemed like a normal reading. But I'm not believing anything until I get the results. I
mean I've been high risk everything else so I wouldn't be surprised if that came back high
risk 2 but for the moment I'm really happy.
While I'm writing this my husband just called to say that because he was so over excited
when he went back to work he's actually come back home again because he wasn't
actually getting any work done. Typical men!
Everyone’s convinced I'm having twins, even though I told them I'm not and my mum
and auntie reckon the baby will be born xmas day, which is what I really don't want. As
selfish as it sounds I'm looking forward to my normal big xmas dinner at my aunties I
don't wanna be stuck in hospital eating hospital food for xmas and even if my family
bring me food in it won't be the same So the baby can come any day after 25th Dec and it
will be fine.
I'm still finding that I'm really tired although I'm 3 months, on Friday I went to bed at
7pm and missed everything. I was supposed to go out as well and that wasn't about to
happen. Even now I feel really tired like I could just sleep and sleep until tomorrow.
Feeling a bit better
10/07/2008
I can't believe I'm actually not getting bad morning sickness anymore I feel a lot better
than I did at the beginning of the pregnancy. Although I started to get backaches, if I
stand for longer than say about 30mins my back kills. I went to my friends BBQ the other
weekend and I was standing and the next day my back was aching and my legs too.
My husbands now got into the habit or massaging my back when he comes to bed it's soo
nice it's not the whole of my back it's near the bottom just above my bum. The hubbys
actually really starting to just take over certain stuff like it's now sunk in he's gonna be a
daddy and he's happy to run to the shops for me when I craving random things at random
hours and crying.
We also got a new bed the other day so that’s doing wonders for my back as well, it's
sooo comfy I have to drag myself out in the mornings. You can't beat the comfort of a
brand new bed.
Temper Temper
15/07/2008
Now I’m impatient at the best of times, and I can even admit it, but since I've been
pregnant I've found myself seeing red very easily over the smallest thing.
Especially at work I already hate when people tell me obvious stuff I already know, or
common sense stuff (I aint thick!) but yeah my new manager does just that and hovers
over my desk and generally pisses me off to the point of whenever he talks to me I turn
my back on him and pretend I’m doing something really important, (like peeling an
orange lol) and when I do have to answer him I do it through gritted teeth. I can't help it
and there’s nothing I can do about it. I can't wait till he goes on his hols for 2 whole
weeks yey! I'm always really short with him and give him 1 word answers like I just want
him 2 not talk to me!
Then at home if the hubby says something evil to me (cuz he’s one of those sarcastic
people who love to tease) normally I can come back with something witty but recently
I've just been getting angry and I don't talk I'll scream at him, he's like 'OK OK calm
down' then that makes me scream even more. Then I always say the famous line 'me and
MY baby don't need you' (which obviously i don't mean) which used to upset him, now
he's just like, 'whatever', then I tell him I hate him then straight after I want a hug and i go
and cry on him lol which I think scares him a bit cuz he doesn't know what I'll do next
hehehe
Thinking back
15/07/2008
I keep thinking to myself, before I knew I was pregnant I remember the 1st bank holiday
at the beginning of May me and my friends did a photo shoot for my magazine. We
thought we'd make a proper weekend out of it so naturally we stocked up on junk food
and alcohol. Now I'm normally a rum drinker so I had plenty of that and just spirits in
general for the whole weekend. Then we went out raving and drank even more, now I
must've been maybe 1 month or so pregnant then and now thinking back i'm like I
could've hurt the baby.
I was chatting to my cousin about it (she was one of my drinking partners that weekend
lol) and she keeps telling me not to worry as i didn’t purposely do it as i didn’t know i
was preggers. I know it's dumb worrying about the past but I keep thinking about it, I
mean the babies healthy and very active, so why am I worrying...
Bra fitting - wow these bras are pricey
16/07/2008
I went for my 1st bra fitting since finding out i was preggers the other day as the
underwired bras were killing me. I went to John Lewis and those ladies who work there
know everything about bras (and I also prefer the older ladies to do my bra fitting, cuz I
went La Senza once and they were rubbish and not helpful at all) they showed me all the
bras I should be wearing and explained why it's best not to wear an underwired bra etc
and they were just nice it was like talking to a concerned auntie or something.
I haven't really grown that much from the 1st time i got measured when I was 1st
preggers I've just got fatter really. I've just gone from a 34 to a 36 so although they
haven't got bigger they feel like they have they feel so heavy like they're dragging on the
floor!
Anywayz I brought a bra which cost £26 which for me is expensive and I've found that
once your boobs are past a D they are classed as fuller figure then the price just triples!
Obviously I need to get another bra but I couldn’t be spending near £60 in one day on 2
bras that’s crazy!! AND them dumb bras never seem to be in the sale! How annoying!
Thanks Nats
23/07/2008
My cousin has been sooo lovely since I told her about the pregnancy. I mean we've
always been close kinda like sisters (we're 3 weeks apart ourselves) I'm closer to her than
i am with both my sisters actually, but i wasn't expecting her to be as helpful as she's
been. She's been really involved and has been reading up on all these pregnancy things
and giving me advice and she always calls to check on me and happy feet.
She’s actually gonna be my birthing partner as they hubby will be completely useless
(and openly admits it) the only thing he wants to do is hold my hand but doesn't want me
to squeeze or verbally abuse him. He'll probably pass out before the babies born so it will
be nice to have her in the room with me as she's quite calming and she's quite a chilled
person anywayz.
I dunno what I'd do if she wasn't around...and i'm gonna stop there as I can feel myself
welling up and I don't wanna look crazy and start crying like a big weirdo at work in the
middle of the office as I won't be able to stop.
But anywayz thanks Nats luv ya x
Stupid Consultant!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
30/07/2008
I previously posted, that after waiting almost 2 months to get any kind of correspondence
from my consultant, I received a letter saying that I'd missed my appointment and would
have to wait a month for another one. Obviously wasn't happy so I called and left a
message complaining someone called me back today to tell me the consultant said she
doesn't need to see me any earlier and early September is fine.
Now this is coming from a lady who knows I'm high risk, knows I have prolactinoma and
knows that pregnancy alone will cause the tumour to swell so why she would wanna wait
till then to have a look at me and be like 'oh by the way your tumours got worse and it's
bleeding internally again' is beyond me. I really don't get it, it's quite dangerous. Lucky
for me I have to do fields (eye) tests with a really nice doctor so I have them every 8
weeks and if anything they’ll pick up if my tumour is worse. But how can this stupid
woman be so casual about it, like nothing can happen between now and September and
annoyingly enough it's on the same week as my 20 week scan. SO this backwards woman
has waited 20 weeks to see me when I was told she would be seeing me in my early
stages of pregnancy.
Also when I booked the 20 week scan the lady behind the desk did actually say to me that
the consultants normally take ages and then book to see you on the same week as your 20
week scan, she was like everyone complains about it but they still do it.
If anything’s shows up as abnormal on my 20 week scan I'm gonna hold her responsible.
Cuz now I already don't like her which means I'll probably be really bitchy and purposely
awkward when I meet her. Maybe I'll be a cow and not even talk I might just sit and look
vex and get the hubby to do all the talking.
I'm really annoyed now (if you couldn't already tell lol) I'm going to see my midwife in a
bit so I'm gonna complain to her as well. Arrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhhh!!!
Yey I'm 17 weeks today, I'm so happy (apart from not being able to eat pizza anymore)
Obviously I'm tired, but it's all worth it. I'm gonna try get my doctor to write a letter
stating I need to cut down my hours
The weekend
18/08/2008
I actually had a nice weekend, the baby started kicking again on Friday night and hasn't
stopped since then, even as I'm typing Happy Feet is kicking me.
I've been debating going to carnival for ages but after Saturday night I def won't be going.
My mum had a little party for her birthday and I think I stood up for too long so my back
started to hurt then I sat down and my legs started to ache so I stood up again and my
bum started to ache. So I had to get the hubby the massage my bum, he was so
embarrassed bless him he kept saying don't you think its a bit inappropriate I just look
like I'm rubbing up your ass' I was like 'I don't care I'm pregnant, just rub my bum!' lol
There was so much yummy food I guarded my mums fried chicken and aunties famous
coleslaw and I got to eat 1st jus cuz I'm preggers it was great. But when I tried to walk
around too much I kept getting a cramp in my toe, it was really annoying. I went in the
garden and my auntie had to call the hubby to carry me inside.
Then by the end of the night (or day I guess seeing as it finished around 2/3am) I couldn't
walk and had to lay down on the sofa. So if I can't handle a little house party I definitely
can't handle carnival.
Also as soon as I got to bed the baby started kicking like it was still ready to party, then it
woke me up at 9am and I actually had to get up although I was still tired, cuz it wouldn't
stop kicking!
Now Happy Feet just kicks all the time, it's nice to know that he/she is still there though
cuz if the kicking stopped I'm sure I'd panic.
Can't breastfeed
2/09/2008
I just got back from my consultants appointment at the hospital and was told I definitely
can't breastfeed. Because of these stupid tablets i'm on for my prolactinoma I def can't do
it. I kinda guessed that would be the case but I was still a bit sad when they told me. It
just feels like that’s 1 big decision that’s been taken away from me and a bonding
experience I'll miss out on.
I actually saw 1 consultant 1 endocrine doctor and 1 junior doctor at the same time who
were all baffled as to whether or not i should be taking this particular tablet
(Bromocriptine) during my pregnancy, so they wanted to take me off it, then they didn’t,
then they phoned another doctor who then called another doctor who said I should stay
on the tablet just in case my tumour grows out of control again and harms both of us.
They were like we have to think of your health as well as the babies and breastfeeding is
the least of your worries but i know it sounds petty but I was looking forward to being
able to breastfeed and now I can't. I guess at least I would've saved money on a breast
pump but now I need to buy more bottles and milk.
Also as well as the consultant i saw some other lady and a midwife who were totally
clueless about prolactinoma which makes me realize how rare it actually is, it's like I'm
an experiment that the doctors are 'trying things out' on. I mean so far this has paid off but
i think most of the things they do with me are trial and error.
I would assume the baby will be premature cuz if the tumour decides to grow they'll pull
the baby out early, but they can't actually tell me that for sure. Oh well I just have to
come to terms with the fact that I'm a rare breed lol
My strange dream
9/09/2008
I had a really weird dream (which actually made me question how good I would be as a
new mother) basically I was flying somewhere far with the baby and I didn’t bring any
milk with me. Some people next to me were like 'shouldn't you be feeding you baby
now?' I was like 'should i be?' so someone gave me some of their milk and i gave the
baby some and she went to sleep.
Then when we were like 6 hours into the flight (i dunno where i was flying to but it was a
long flight) the baby was still sleeping, then another set of people were like, 'You're
babies been sleeping for a while, you should probably wake her up and feed her' I was
like 'I haven't got any milk, so someone else gave me some milk and I fed the baby, who
was quite floppy by this time.
Then we got off the plane and I was walking along the road pushing the baby and random
people kept stopping or pulling over and saying 'your baby looks hungry have you fed it
yet?' I was like I haven't got any milk and I dunno where to get milk from. So i spent the
rest of the day wondering around asking random people if they thought it was time for the
babies feed and where I could get milk and if my baby had slept for long enough.
Coincidently I had this dream after I was told I wasn't allowed to breastfeed (cuz of my
dumb tablets that i'm currently taking) but that really played on my mind. I even had to
call my mum and ask her how will i know when to feed the baby, what if the babies
hungry and i don't realize, what if i leave the baby to sleep too long will it die from
starvation?
My mums like it's normal to worry about them things i doesn’t mean you'll be a rubbish
mum, but i think that dream really had an impact on me so when I do finally go on hols
with the baby the last thing I will forget is the milk lol
I took my belly ring out now it looks like I
have 3 belly buttons SCAREY!
10/09/2008
After examining my belly for ages in the mirror lastnight (as you do) I decided that it was
time to take out my belly bar thinking that would be a sensible idea as it was pulling a bit.
So once I'd taken it out and cleaned the area I realized that the hole has obviously
stretched soo much that now it looks like i have 3 belly buttons. It's kinda freaky cuz now
my belly looks like an alien. Also cuz my belly button aint popped out yet it you seriously
can't tell the difference.
I'm gonna have to hide it from my mum cuz she told me to take it out as soon as i got
pregnant and i was like 'no leave me alone I’ll wear it if i want' lol (brat) so she'll moan at
me if she sees it, the hubby already had a moan at me lastnight cuz he told me to take it
out as well...hehehehe...
I guess a positive way to view it is that now I have a very unique belly....I'm really hoping
the scars go away. Oh yeah I’ve got a lot of scar tissue where the bar was it's really hard
and raised so it's even more weird looking.
I guess that was self inflicted, next time I’ll listen to my mum and the hubby...
6 months today!!!!!!!!!!!!
24/09/2008
I'm soooo happy, I finally made it to 6 months! Only 3(ish) more months to go. Just
realized in the whole of 6 months I've only seen my midwife once and only seen my
consultant once surely I should have seen them more times than that.
Also I have my 2nd physio appointment today, hopefully I won't have to be on crutches
anymore and she'll make my leg etc better. I still need to get one of them pregnancy belts
I saw some in mothercare actually I might pick one up today.
My crazy baby!!!!
24/10/2008
Lastnight I was sooooo tired all I wanted to do was go str8 to bed but Happy feet was
having none of it. As soon as I laid down (purposely not on my back cuz I know she goes
nuts when I’m on my back) she decided to come alive like it was playtime. It was like she
went to every single part of my belly and gave it a good hard kick my belly was jumping
all over the place, I couldn't even sleep.
So I put my hand on my belly and told her it's time to go sleep and she just kicked my
hand off my own belly then wherever I put my hand she kicked it off like it was a game
she was seriously going nuts!
After a while she calmed down (she probably wore herself out) then the hubby came
poked his head round the door to check on me and she must’ve heard his voice then
started going nuts again like she was so excitable about something.
She was kicking so hard I actually felt physically sick afterwards and really drained.
I had that KA Karribbean Kola before I went to bed so that probably sent her loopy so I
guess it's my fault by bloody hell it's like she's already a handful if she’s as lively as this
when she comes out at least I won't have to go gym I'll be a bag of bones from running up
and down after that live wire LOL
Sweetie ban
30/10/2008
I've decided to put myself on a sweetie ban, the other day I found this new retro sweetie
shop and went a bit nuts and i realized that Happy Feet seemed to be crazier than normal
(if thats possible) so i think i may lay off the sweets for a while. It shouldn't be that hard,
I mean I've coped without alcohol for 29 weeks (and i love my rum) Plus I haven't been
able to find a decent dentist for ages so I don't want anything happening to my teeth.
Saying that I will still be drinking orange Fanta cuz i love that at the moment but
absolutely no sweets for me, starting from 2day. I need to eat more healthy I did used to
snack on fruits at work but recently I've been snacking on crap.
I need to get back into a decent routine otherwise I'm just gonna get sluggish
SO after not being able to get comfortable enough to get a decent nights sleep I was woke
up by my stupid house phone ringing, now this phone is the loudest most annoying phone
you'll ever hear and it echoes through the whole flat. Annoyingly the hubby dint seem o
hear it and slept through it which meant I had to get up and get it. By the time I got to the
phone guess what happened, it bloody stopped ringing didn’t it aaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrgh
then my phone starts vibrating, so I struggle to get back into the bedroom and as soon as I
get there it stops as well.
So I climb back into bed to try and get comfy and the bloody house phone goes again,
FUCK OFF!!! LEAVE ME ALONE!! (now I would normally unplug it but I know if I
don’t answer everyone will call everyone and then it will end up with my mum freaking
out thinking something’s wrong with me and the baby and speeding down and banging
off my door) so anyways I struggle back to the phone (it's not cordless and cant stretch all
the way into the bedroom) once again it stops as soon as I get there. Now I want to cry. I
press 1471 and it's my friend who is a proper worrier so I know she aint gonna stop
calling me cuz she probably thinks I'm dead or something.
Back to bed again I attempt to txt her quick to say I'm fine but I’m too tired to think str8,
then Nats calls I answer cuz the phones still in my hand but as I'm saying hello the
battery dies, so now she panics and calls that bloody house phone (OMG I could stab that
phone) My friend Shareen had called her scared that she couldn’t reach me and made her
scared so between them they were ringing off my phone (poor me all I wanted to do was
sleep)
Anywayz back to bed finally find a position I'm comfy in and I can hear banging about in
the block it sounds like someone stomping up and down the stairs and slamming the same
door over and over. Then I can hear someone downstairs ringing everyone’s bell
individually (that really bugs me cuz the bells here could wake the dead) but I think to
myself at least they cant ring my bell cuz it's switched off, OH FOR GOODNESS SAKE
IT'S BLOODY SWITCHED ON. The hubby must've switched it on while I was away, I
hate him now! So once again I drag myself out of bed to get the doorbell otherwise it
won't stop ringing. YES! WOT DO U WANT?! guess who it was, Jehovah’s Witness I
was sooooo pissed off she started trying to preach down the telecom so I put it down and
switched off the bell. Then I heard someone finally let her in the block I was thinking
anyhow you knock on my door you will really hear my mouth.
Anywayz cuz I was still in pain, both my bum cheeks the tops of my thighs my ankles
and my shoulder blades I couldn't take it anymore so I called the hospital and asked to be
induced, they were soooo unhelpful I wanted to spit on them. The stupid woman told me
to call my doctor and ask him to give me something for the pain, I was like what exactly
is he gonna give me, I have bloody SPD the only thing that will help is physio. I was
telling her if I can't walk or sleep I'm not gonna have any energy to push a baby out then
they'll make me have a c-section. Anywayz I explained all my other health problems and
she was like well you need to see your consultant cuz we can't induce you cuz your not
term...UM HELLO I'M 40 WEEKS DUMB BITCH HOW AM I NOT FULL
TERM?!?!?!?! So after she said that I just gave up cuz she obviously don’t have a clue
what the hell she’s chatting bout. Oh and my consultant has a clinic on a Tuesday but she
wouldn’t book me in for it she told me to wait till next Tuesday (when I already have an
appointment)
I dunno why but after I hung up I cried and cried I was sooo distraught I couldn't even
speak I couldn't even stop crying my nose was running and everything, the only way I
stopped was cuz I needed to take a hit of my inhaler. Wow I was in such a state my eyes
were all red and puffy and my face was swollen and stained. I really hate that hospital
now stupid people.
It's not even that I'm being impatient (well I guess I am a bit) but it's more of the fact that
I'm in sooo much pain and it just gets worse and I know the baby is not looking to come
out anytime soon. If I wasn't hurting so much I'd be more wiling to just waddle about the
place and stuff my face.
But yeah my day didn’t have the best start I'm still tired now it's all that stupid woman at
the hospitals fault!
2 days overdue
16/01/2009
So Happy Feet was due on 14th it's now the 16th and there’s still no signs of her arriving.
I haven't even had any stomach pains, contractions or anything. I just want her to hurry
up and come now I don't wanna wait any longer, the longer I wait the more anxious I get
about the pain I'll have to go through