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Chapter I Edith the frisky. • My bedroo . • E!hibitio" of a stiff pri#k. • E!hibitio" of a b$eedi"% #&"t. • My re%rets. • 'e!t day(s a &se e"ts. • ) *eek(s *ork. • +epart&re. • Edith(s %rief. • ,er history part$y. Edith *as a #o p$ete p&--$e to e. +oes she f&#k or fri% herse$f. or p$ay *ith *o e"(s #&"ts. has she a"y #&"ta$ defe#t/ She $ooks se"s&o&s fro eyes to o&th. she($$ ta$k o" se!&a$ s&b0e#ts free$y b&t i" a odest sort of *ay. yet *o"(t $et e fee$ her. Is she %a ah&#hed by *o e"/ She(d $ooked $o"% at the $ast photo. These tho&%hts passed thro y i"d a"d that she had Sapphi# tastes *as y #o"#$&sio". +ressi"% for di""er. I deter i"ed o" a bo$d atte pt. O&r seats *ere side by side. a"d *he" di""er *as "ear$y o1er. I did *hat I(1e do"e. to ha$f a do-e" *o e". p&t y ha"d &"der the tab$e #$oth 2 *hi#h happe"ed to be 0&st $o"% e"o&%h to #o1er it 2 a"d pressed her #$othes a%ai"st her be$$y as "ear her #&"t as I #o&$d. She $ooked at e hard. a"d 0&st the" a %e"t$e a" o" the other side of her spoke 2 she rep$ied. a"d the" 3&iet$y p&t her ha"d do*" a"d p&shed i"e a*ay. *itho&t &tteri"% a *ord. b&t $ooki"% at e i"te"t$y. )fter di""er *e sat a*hi$e i" the readi"% roo . She ade "o a$$&sio" to *hat I(d do"e. 4I &st %o to Ma a. 2 Le"d e the .4 2 I ref&sed tho she be%%ed hard. a"d at $e"%th she a%reed to #o e to y roo . after y ref&si"% ost positi1e$y. 4I($$ sit *ith Ma a a 3&arter of a" ho&r first.4 2 I %ot #ha pa%"e i" y roo . a"d i" t*e"ty i"&tes. she *as *ith e. She(d to$d Ma a she *as %oi"% to the readi"% roo to #hat *ith so e $adies. The" she s i$ed. $ooki"% f&$$ i" y eyes. I sei-ed a"d kissed her rapt&ro&s$y praisi"% her bea&ty. a"d she per itted it. I s#ar#e$y e!pe#ted her. a"d had reso$1ed if she #a e to &se "o ore hi"ts a"d de$i#ate phrases. b&t to speak ba&di$y to the &t ost of y *a"ts. a"d of the p$eas&res of f&#ki"%5 to %et that p$eas&re if "othi"% f&rther. It de6$i%hts e to say the ba&diest to a odest o"d 3&asi6 odest *o a". They a$$ $ike it tho so e profess to be sho#ked. O" a $itt$e sofa by the tab$e *e sat side by side. She took #ha pa%"e. tho she rare$y dra"k *i"e. a"d I sho*ed the first photo. 2 4I *o"(t sho* yo& a"y ore &"$ess yo& $et e e!p$ai".4 2 4I do"(t *a"t it.4 2 47&t I *i$$.4 2 4'o.4 2 4,e(s ready to f&#k her. is"(t his pri#k stiff/ ,o* I e"1y the 2 $et &s do *hat they are %oi"% to do.4 She ade "o rep$y. 2 4,a1e yo& e1er bee" $i#ked so/4 said I sho*i"% the "e!t. 2 4Of #o&rse "ot.4 2 7&t she $ooked #o"f&sed. there *as so ethi"% i" her a""er *hat ade e fa"#y that that *as her $et#h. I *e"t o" e!hibiti"% a"d #o e"ti"% a"d e!p$ai"i"% i" the ba&diest *ords. *hi$st she kept si$e"#e. )t $e"%th she be%a" to dri"k #ha pa%"e as if "ot #o"s#io&s of *hat she *as doi"%. %ot e!#ited a"d be%a" to $a&%h a"d 3&estio". 2 4Mi"d. I( yo&r father4 a"d I kissed her a"d she kissed e. 2 4) pretty sort of pare"t.4 2 4) pretty da&%hter.4 2 4Look at papa(s pri#k.4 2 said I
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&"ab$e to restrai" yse$f a"y $o"%er. a"d p&$$ed it o&t. 4Fee$ it.4 2 4I( %oi"% to Ma a.4 2 4Fee$ it.4 2 4I &st %o to Ma a.4 She tried to rise. I stooped. feari"% to iss y opport&"ity. a"d %ot y ha"d &p her #$othes to her otte. 4Oh9 y :od9 2 $ea1e off.4 2 she s3&ea$ed o&t. a"d o&r 0oi"t o1e e"ts t&r"ed o1er the s$i%ht tab$e *ith the #ha pa%"e. the %$asses. a"d photos. o" to the f$oor. I he$d her ti%ht$y. i"si"&ati"% y fi"%ers bet*ee" her thi%hs a"d be%%i"% her to be 3&iet. 4They($$ hear i" the "e!t roo .4 2 She str&%%$ed si$e"t$y. 2 4Oh. yo& h&rt.4 2 I(d %ot a fi"%er o" to her #$itoris. 4Yo& *ret#h to do that. I *o&$d"(t ha1e be$ie1ed it.4 2 4I( ad$y i" $o1e *ith yo&. 2 Look.4 2 O&t #a e y pe%o. She $ooked e f&$$ i" the fa#e as I rose a"d f$o&rished y ere#tio". )%ai" she rose to %o as I sho*ed it. I p&shed her do*" a"d sat by her side. h&%%i"% her. be%%i"%. prayi"%. e"deari"%. 2 4;hat "o"se"se. dear.4 )$$ *as "o* #o"f&sio". 2 4I *o"(t $et yo& o&t.4 2 a"d %oi"% to the door took the key o&t. 4It(s a sha e to beha1e so.4 2 4My $o1e. "o o"e *i$$ k"o* b&t yo& a"d I. $et6 e.4 2 She shook her head. 2 4;e$$ $et e %a ah&#he yo&.4 4;hat(s that/4 2 said she 3&i#k$y. 2 4Yo& k"o*. $i#k yo&r #&"t to %i1e yo& p$eas&re. ake yo& spe"d *ith y to"%&e as *o e" do to yo&.4 2 4They do"(t. it(s a story.4 said she fier#e$y. 2 4,ish dear. be 3&iet.4 S*eari"% y $o1e. ho$di"% her ro&"d the *aist to e. kissi"% her a"d she o"#e or t*i#e kissi"% e. she pa#ified. tho sti$$ so e!#ited as I(d "e1er before see" her. She he$ped e to pi#k &p the thi"%s. y t& b$er a"d broke" %$ass. *iped so e *etted photos. $ooki"% at ea#h #aref&$$y as she did so *itho&t re ark5 e1er a"d a"o" stari"% at e for a" i"sta"t. ;hat *as passi"% thro her i"d/ 2 )%ai" I h&%%ed a"d kissed. 4;hy do"(t yo& kiss e Edith/4 2 4There the".4 The tab$e d(hote *as ear$y for theatre %oers a"d it *as $i%ht a$$ this ti e. b&t d&sk "o* *as #o i"% o". O"e %$ass re ai"ed i" the bott$e spite of its t& b$e. I po&red it o&t i"to the %$ass a"d she dra"k if off at o"#e. 4,a1e ore *i"e/4 2 4I do"(t #are.4 2 she rep$ied i" a re#k$ess to"e. 2 4:et behi"d the bed *hi$st it #o es.4 She did. a"d I took i" the *i"e *itho&t her bei"% see". The" sitti"% o" the sofa she a%ai" $ooked at the photos rapid$y. o"e after the other. I "o* p&$$ed do*" the b$i"d a"d $i%hted o"e #a"d$e o" the a"te$ she$f <a feeb$e $i%ht=. )%ai" she %&$ped do*" #ha pa%"e. b&t there *as "ot the s$i%htest si%"s of her bei"% e$e1ated by it. a"d *e ta$ked *hi$st sti$$ she $ooked at the photos. a"d $iste"ed to y p$ai" re arks abo&t the . ;as she $e*ed. a"d #o"tro$$i"% her se!&a$ *a"ts/ 4)re yo& %oi"% to *ait ti$$ yo&(re arried before yo& are f&#ked. dear/4 2 'othi"% "o* see ed to &pset her a"d she be%a" a"s*eri"%. 4I "e1er sha$$ be arried.4 $a&%hi"% #y"i#a$$y. 2 4+o it *itho&t the". 2 'o* do"(t be foo$ish. $et e fee$ yo&.4 2 4I *o"(t.4 Is she %oi"% to yie$d/ passed thro&%h y i"d as I p&t y ha"d do*". She bare$y resisted. b&t #rossed her $e%s 0&st as y fi"%ers to&#hed the thi#ket. 2 4'o* do"(t.4 2 I #o&$d"(t %et y fi"%ers to her #$itoris. her thi%hs pre1e"ted it. b&t ro1ed y ha"d o1er thi%hs a"d b& . a"d &p to her "a1e$. fee$i"% i1ory s ooth"ess. e!6to$$i"% its bea&ty. prayi"% her to $et e fee$ the s$it. 2 4'o 2 "o 2 "o.4 2 *as a$$ she said. as she %e"t$y
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s3&ir ed abo&t o" the sofa resisti"% e. >&ffi"% her #$oser to e 2 kissi"% her #heek i"#essa"t$y. or her $ips *he" ha$f t&r"ed at ti es to e.6she *as 3&iet a"d see ed ref$e#ti"%. 2 4Ope" yo&r thi%hs 2 do. $o1e.4 2 4I *o"(t.4 2 4Fee$ y pri#k 2 do.4 2 4I *o"(t. 2 Ceasi"% to fee$ her. I p&$$ed it o&t a%ai" a"d sti$$ ho$di"% her ti%ht$y. p$a#ed her ha"d aro&"d it. 2 4Fee$ it. Edith dear.4 a"d for a i"&te o"$y she did. I had *ithdra*" y ha"d fro he"d thi%hs to do that. a"d "o* had to %et it ba#k. She did"(t hi"der e. her thi%hs *ere "o $o"%er #rossed. y fi"6%ers *e"t bet*ee" the soft $ips of the *ar "i#k. sett$ed o" her #$itoris a"d there fri%%ed %e"t$y. 2 4Oho 2 take yo&r ha"d a*ay.4 )%ai" she #rossed her thi%hs i priso"i"% y fi"%ers. a"d stoppi"% the $&s#io&s titi$$atio". She(d fe$t the p$eas&re. a"d k"e* she *as drifti"% to*ards6 the irre1o#ab$e. *as str&%%$i"% *ith her se!&a$ desires. 4Let e dear 2 do.4 2 4Oh yo& h&rt e.4 2 4'o* I do"(t. a"d *o"(t 2 I s*ear I *o"(t.4 2 I fid%eted y ha"d. her thi%hs ope"ed s$i%ht$y. y fi"%er re#o e"#ed its %e"t$e o1e e"t o" the b&d of $o1e. o" the soft p&$py ass of #$itoris a"d "y phae 2 *hi#h see ed $ar%e a"d f&$$ 2 ti$$ a%ai" she si%hed. 4)herr 2 oho 2 do"(t.4 a"d her fa#e t&r"ed to i"e. I p&t y $ips to hers. p&t a%ai" y pri#k i" her ha"d. a"d a%ai" %ot y other ha"d &p her #$othes o" to her #&"t a"d fri%%ed a*ay. 2 4Oho 2 ah 2 do"(t.4 2 4Fee$ it 2 fri% e. $o1e 2 $et e spe"d i" yo&r ha"d.4 2 4)ha.4 2 she si%hed. 4Let e f&#k yo& dear. I( dyi"% for yo&.4 2She si%hed. she *as abo&t to spe"d. her thi%hs 3&i1ered. *he" *ith a s&dde" effort she %ot &p. $et %o y pri#k a"d dis$od%ed y fi"%ers fro their *ar p$a#e. 4I &st %o to Ma a.4 she said $o&d$y. a$ ost 1io$e"t6 $y. 4Yo& sha"(t.4 2 4I &st.4 2 She o1ed to*ards the door. *he" #at#hi"% her ro&"d the *aist *ith rapid effort. I p&shed her a%ai"st the bed. $ifted her &po" it. a"d thre* yse$f beside her. ta$ki"% 1o$&pt&o&s$y. s*eari"% I(d ha1e her. She. "o* i"ert. did"(t resist. 4Let e %o for :od(s sake.4 2 *as a$$ she said. 4,ish dear. they($$ hear yo&.4 2 )%ai" I *as fri%%i"% her a"d had p$a#ed her ha"d o" y pri#k. *he" she %a1e a stra"%e ha$f #ry. ha$f hysteri#a$ $a&%h. she had passed the r&bi#o". ea"t f&#ki"%. ;ho #o&$d *o"der at it after a$$ she(d see". heard. a"d do"e o" that day 2 a"d a$$ she k"e*/ 'o ore *as said. L&st at ti es *orks #rafti$y a"d s$o*$y. I(d fears that a s&dde" sho#k i%ht spoi$ y #ha"#e. b&t #a&tio" "o* $eft e. a$$ *as a #haos of $o1i"% ba&dy *ords a"d deeds. the si%hs of a *o a" *ith a s*eati"% #&"t. a"d *a"ti"% f&#ki"%. her feari"% it. of a a" re#k$ess *ith desire a"d a t&r%id pri#k. My kisses %re* ore rapt&ro&s. atte pts ore bo$d. her resista"#e $ess a"d $ess. 4+o"(t 2 aha 2 do"(t 2 yo&($$ r&i" e. 2 +o"(t "o*.4 2 she si%hed as $&stf&$ p$eas&re e"er1ated her. a"d y fi"%ers o1ed 3&i#k$y o1er #$itoris a"d "y phae. ;ith a si%h her thi%hs the" ope"ed. resista"#e #eased. The o e"t had #o e. I fe$t y po*er 2 ho* the a$e i"sti"#t te$$s9 2 ;ith6 dra*i"% y ha"d fro the $o1e$y apert&re. teari"% ope" y tro*sers. p&shi"% the do*". p&$$i"% &p y shirt. freei"% y pri#k a"d ba$$s. rapid$y I t&r"ed y be$$y o" to hers. %raspi"% a ha&"#h *ith o"e ha"d. poi"ti"% y pri#k *ith the other. 2 4Let(s f&#k. dar$i"%.4 The" y *et $ips et hers. #$osi"% her
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o&th. 4+o"(t 2 "o 2 for :od(s sake do"(t.4 she &r &red i"arti#&$ate$y as y to"%&e for#ed itse$f bet*ee" her $ips. that $o1e$y oist e bra#e of o&th a"d o&th. 4Oh 2 pray.4 2 The" a$$ *ords #eased. 'ot a o1e e"t of $e%s. ar s or b&tto#ks hi"dered e as o&r be$$ies et. a"d y thi%hs s$id do*" bet*ee" hers *ide"i"% the apart. ope"i"% the road to the earth$y paradise of h& a"ity. she pa$pitati"%. *ith #&"t year"i"% for a pri#k. s&bd&ed. &tter$y si$e"t ti$$ she fe$t y fi"%ers ope"i"% the *ay for y e"try. 4,o 2 ho.4 she #ried sharp$y as ro&%h$y i" y i patie"#e I $od%ed y pri#k a"d %a1e its first press&re at the %ate of $o1e. The" thr&sti"%. 2 4,o 2 yo& h&rt.4 she %asped. I had "ot e"tered. a barrier stopped y pri#k. I fe$t rapid$y ro&"d it. *as it the *ro"% path/ 2 'o. the tip *as i" its proper p$a#e. )%ai" I thr&st. 2 4Ohoo.4 2 She(s 1ir%i". f$ashed thro y i"d 2 thr&st 2 thr&st. 4,o 2 ho4 2 thr&st. thr&st. thr&st 2 I %a1e rapid$y a"d 1io$e"t$y *ith #&"t sp$itti"% for#e. 4Ohoo.4 she oa"ed. as y pri#k *ith a p$&"%e fi$$ed her #&"t. a"d y ba$$s da"%$ed a%ai"st her i1ory b&tto#ks. ) 1ir%i" a%ai". by @o1e9 9 9 )"d for a" i"sta"t I rested. The" as the 0oyo&s fa#t e"tered y i"d. *i$d *ith de$i%ht I #o&$d "ot rest a" i"sta"t i" y 1i#tory. y pri#k ready to spe"d for the $ast ho&r. p$&"%ed &p a"d do*" her $&s#io&s #&"t. 2 She($$ b$eed 2 oh 0oy. that b$ood 2 a"d as that #rossed y i"d y sper seethed &p. y pri#k fe$t b&rsti"%. 2 4F&#k 2 sp&"k 2 spe"d dar$i"%. spe"d.4 2 I si%hed. a"d the esse"#e of $ife sp&rted o&t. stoppi"% a$$ &ttera"#es i" the i"effab$e p$eas&re of the 0etti"%. a"d y pri#k $ay *e$teri"% i" a" e o$$ie"t bath. *as bathi"% i" her sper f$ooded #&"t. to *hi#h she(d added "a&%ht b&t that soft oist&re *hi#h the 1o$&pt&o&s *a"ts a"d &r%i"%s of her "at&re had iss&ed before o&r bodies *ere o"e. before y pri#k had to&#hed the e"tra"#e to her shri"e. 2 >ai" had stopped her p$eas&re. barred her spe"d. ready as the f$ood %ate of her te p$e had bee" to ope". I(d f&#ked too 3&i#k$y. so she(d issed the de$irio&s p$eas&re. the %$orio&s re*ard of her #&"ta$ pai". of the sa#rifi#e of her 1ir%i"ity. I *as so asto"ished at the &"e!pe#ted 1ir%i"ity. that for a i"&te or t*o I did"(t speak. She $ay i"ert *ith #$othes &p to her "a1e$. thi%hs apart. si$e"t. otio"$ess. e!#epti"% that she p&t o"e ar a#ross her eyes. 7$ood *as o" y pri#k. a"d si%"s of b$ood o" o"e of her thi%hs. I p&t y ha"d broad$y o1er her 1&$1a. a"d *ith6dre* it *ith ore sa"%&i"ary e1ide"#es of 1ir%i"ity that I(1e &s&a$$y fo&"d. 4:et &p 2 *ash dear. yo& are b$eedi"%.4 t*i#e I said before she o1ed. 4I do"(t #are.4 at $e"%th she &r &red i" a re#k$ess to"e. b&t %ot &p. sat do*" o" the sofa by the s a$$ tab$e. a"d b&ried her head i" her ha"ds. The" #a e o1er e a fee$i"% of re%ret. a fee$i"% si i$ar to that *hi#h I had *he" I f&#ked y arried #o&si" ,a""ah 2 that I(d i"0&red her 2 a"d fe$t deep$y sorry. 7&t the thi"% *as do"e. a"d after a$$ she *as as &#h to b$a e as e. ;hat other *o a" i" s&#h so#ia$ positio". had e1er e"tered i"to s&#h
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re$atio"s *ith a a" as she had/ 2 M&st she "ot ha1e e!pe#ted to be tai$ed/ 2 These tho&%hts #o forted e. She sat so. *itho&t o1i"% or rep$yi"% for so e i"&tes. 4Yo&r #he ise *i$$ be 6 stai"ed.4 2 4I do"(t #are.4 2 The" she $ifted her head. $ooked at e ear"est$y a"d said. 4I( r&i"ed.4 the" *ashed her #&"t. 2 I p&t a to*e$ bet*ee" her thi%hs a"d sat do*" by her side a%ai". sayi"% that her 4r&i"4 *as "o"se"se. say6 i"% *hat I ha1e to other 1ir%i"s to #o fort the . a"d abs&rd as it see s had #o forted the . 7&t this $iaiso" *as a pe#&$iar o"e. 2 'e1er had I f&#ked a $ady 1ir%i" before. a"d o$d e"o&%h to be her father. a"d k"o*i"% that the #o"se3&e"#es i%ht be ore serio&s to her tha" to *o e" of a #o o"er sort. a%ai" I fe$t 1ery 1ery sorry. Three fo&rths of the ser1a"t #$ass a"d the #$ass be$o* the . ha1e bee" f&#ked *e$$ before they arry. a"d yet the #o&p$es are #o"te"t. The $o*er #$ass(s k"o* *e$$ that a #&"t i pro1es i" %i1i"% p$eas&re by pra#ti#e. 4I &st %o to Ma a.4 2 said she after $iste"i"% $o"%. a"d a$ ost *itho&t rep$y. That t&r"ed the #&re"t of y tho&%hts. She had"(t spe"t. ;hat if she re6f&sed to $et e f&#k her a%ai". repe"ted a"d a1oided e. 4Yo& &st"(t yet.4 4I &st. she($$ *o"der *here I a .4 2 4;e ha1e"(t bee" a" ho&r a"d a ha$f to6%ether. I *a"t to f&#k yo& a%ai".4 2 She *o&$d"(t 2 i"sisted o" %oi"%. I #a&%ht her ro&"d the *aist. kissed her a"d she kissed e. 4;i$$ yo& s*ear yo&($$ #o e ba#k/4 2 4Yes 2 yes. if I #a". b&t I &st %o to Ma a.4 2 She *as so e!#ited a"d reso$&te that I $et her %o. ;o"deri"% if she(d keep her *ord. I p&t y roo to ri%hts. pi#ked &p so e fra% e"ts of broke" %$ass. $et the #ha ber aid e pty the s$ops. )$$ *as do"e i" te" i"&tes. The" I $i%hted a"other #a"d$e. a"d sat do*" ar1e$$i"% at the 1ir%i"ity I had fo&"d i" a a""er as &"e!pe#ted as that of >hoebe(s "ot si! o"ths a%o. yet s&#h *as y $&#k. +&ri"% forty years I had "e1er had s&#h t*o e!traordi"ary #ha"#es. a"d both "o* #a e *ithi" a short period of ea#h other. I" abo&t t*e"ty i"&tes i" #a e Edith. 4Yo&(1e kept yo&r *ord dear.4 2 The" side by side *e sat. a"d first6 she to$d e ho* she had h& b&%%ed her other. b&t she &st %o ba#k to her i" a" ho&r. The" a$$ *as ta$k of f&#ki"%. the photos *ere see" a%ai". besides a do-e" others *hi#h I(d reser1ed. ;ith *hat se"s&o&s de$i%ht she $iste"ed *hi$st I des#ribed the i" ba&diest $a"%&a%e. It de$i%hted e to say the *ords to a $ady. Soo" after i" si$e"#e *e *ere sitti"%. kissi"%. bi$$i"% a"d #ooi"%. she $ooki"% at ti es at y pri#k. I at her thi%hs. the" fee$i"% her sti$$ b$eedi"% #&"t. she ha"d$i"% y pro#reator fro tip to te#ti#$es. ;hat a de$i#io&s treat for &s both. *hat 1o$&pt&o&s "o1e$ty to her. 2 Soo" &prose y $o1e staff 2 her b& o1ed *ith the se"s&o&s6p$eas&re *hi#h y fi"%er %e"erated o" her #$itoris. a"d %e"t$y I $ed her *i$$i"%. ready. dyi"% to be f&#ked. to the bed. There she *as p$asti#. si$e"t$y s&b itted to be fe$t a"d see" 2 s&bd&ed by $&st. 'e1er did I e"0oy a se#o"d f&#k ore. 'ot too f&$$ or too ra"dy "o*. I
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kept y pe%o 3&iet &p her for a ti e before I thr&st. a"d *e ta$ked i" this ho$y #o"0&"#tio".6 she o"$y too p$eased to #o"1erse. +id it h&rt her "o* 2 ho* h&rt her before 2 *as it. rea$$y pai" to her/ ;as the se"satio" of y 3&ies#e"t pri#k "i#e/ a"d so o". )$$ *as abo&t o&r %e"ita$s. a"d the p$eas&re they %a1e &t&a$$y to their o*"ers. i" the adde"i"% yet soothi"% de$i%ht of f&#ki"%. The" thr&sti"% a"d kissi"% her I fe$t her #&"t stiffe" ro&"d y pri#k 2 a" e!#eedi"% ti%ht"ess to it. 2 I k"e* *hat that ea"t. a"d i" a fe* rapid. $o"% thr&sts. $&"%ers 2 hitti"% the prof&"dity of her se! the" "est6$i"% it i" its depths 2 *ith a $o"% si%h of p$eas&re the ti%ht"ess of her #&"t #eased. a soft. $&bri#io&s. #reepi"% fee$i"% took its p$a#e. Edith had had her first spe"d *ith a pri#k. ere a throb of p$eas&re *as fe$t by e. Resti"%. I $ooked at her as *ith eyes #$osed a"d pa$pitati"% boso . she $ay 1o$&pt&o&s$y tra"3&i$ i" drea y p$eas&re. O&t I p&$$ed y pri#k fro her $&bri#io&s sheath. rested. ta$ked $e*ed$y. rei"serted it. a"d f&#ked ti$$ she a"d I both spe"t to%ether. The" off she *e"t to her other. "ot *aiti"% to p&rify her. #&"t. I *e"t to bed. ) $&s#io&s e1e"i"% 2 "e1er o"e ore $&s#io&s 2 *as o1er. 'e!t day as arra"%ed *e s#ar#e$y spoke i" the di"i"% roo . )fter idday ea$ *e ta$ked i" the readi"% roo . 2 'ot a b$&sh 2 "ot a si%" of odesty or re%ret had she. b&t 3&ite #oo$. *as ready to #o e to y roo *he"e1er I "a ed a ti e. 2 ) ost e!traordi"ary #reat&re. 2 She(d te$$ her Ma a that she(d *a$k o&t *ith so e $adies. a#t&a$$y did so. $eft the . a"d fo&"d her *ay ba#k to e. 4Let(s %o i"to bed to6%ether.4 2 4I( fri%hte"ed.4 2 47oth "aked %i1es the hei%ht of p$eas&re.4 2 4I( fri%hte"ed.4 Yet she(d risked bei"% see" e"teri"% y roo . I partia$$y &"6dressed her. ;ith the #o3&etry of a *o a". she(d the $o1e$iest si$k sto#ki"%s a"d boots o". aki"% her $e%s $ook e!3&isite. ;ith *hat de$i%ht I t*idd$ed her #&"t as *e sat o" the $itt$e sofa. *here I had 0&st a %$i pse of %arters. a"d "aked thi%hs. a"d she be"di"% her head. #o&$d see the f$orid k"ob of y pier#er *hi#h she he$d i" her ha"d. 2 4Let e fri% yo&.4 She $aid her head o" y sho&$der. ope"ed her thi%hs *ider. a"d e"0oyed it *hi$st sti$$ ho$di"% y pe%o. a"d si$e"t$y6thi"ki"%. It *as a" i"te"se de$i%ht to e. e!#e$$i"% i" its re6fi"ed se"s&a$ity the eroti# %a es *ith the fi"est har6 $ots. O&r passio"s f&$$y ro&sed by the de$i#ate t*idd$i"%s a"d $as#i1io&s ta$k 2 she $iste"ed b&t "e1er rep$ied ba&di$y. 2 4Co e to the bed $o1e.4 She rose at o"#e *ith e. I $aid her o" the bedside. $ifted her petti#oats. sa* a$$ her #har s. kissed be$$y a"d thi%hs a"d otte. 0&st %a1e the #$itoris o"e $itt$e ti#k$e *ith y to"%&e. the" $&"%ed y pri#k &p a"d stood aski"% her ho* she $iked it. ) #&"ta$ %rip rep$ied. a"d $ifti"% her thi%hs o1er y ar s. *e f&#ked *ith f&$$est $&st a"d $o1e. My sp&"k 0etted forth as hers *as shed to i! *ith it. a"d *ith kisses. a"d soft drea i"% &r &rs *e stayed i" 1o$&pt&o&s si$e"#e #o&p$ed. Re#o1ered fro o&r E$ysi& . sti$$ ho$di"% her body to i"e by her thi%hs. %e"ita$s sti$$ 0oi"ed. 4Ca" yo& fee$ y pri#k i" yo&r #&"t sti$$/4 2 4Yes.4 2 )"d th&s *e ta$ked. ti$$ y s#rot& st&#k to her $o1e$y b&tto#ks *ith the &#i$a%i"o&s o1erf$o* fro her #&"t. The" separati"% *e *ashed. a"d at
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$e"%th she #o"se"ted to y seei"% 3&iet$y a"d f&$$y a$$ her se#ret #har s. *hi#h i" y e!#ite e"t. i" y h&rry to e"0oy. I(d o"$y o e"tari$y %$a"#ed at. First I $ooked at the seat of the hy e" abo&t *hi#h re#e"t r&pt&re there #o&$d be "o do&bt. e1ide"#es of her 1ir%i"ity *ere *o"derf&$$y e1ide"t. a"d it *as sore sti$$ she said. ,o* thi#k the broke" e bra"#e see ed to e. That i%ht ha1e bee" fa"#y. yet #ertai"$y I(d "e1er had a to&%her o"e to %et thro&%h. 4Sho* e the photos a%ai".4 2 I did. *e $ooked o1er a"d ta$ked abo&t the . 2 'e1er ha1e I see" a *o a" so ea%er to see ba&dy pi#t&res. she feasted o" the . $ooked thro&%h the a%ai" a"d a%ai". The" she fe$t y pri#k a"d as she did so. I fe$t her #&"t. The soothi"% i"f$&e"#e of y fi"%ers *as fe$t. 1o$&pt&o&s se"satio"s #rept thro&%h her. The" she so&%ht f&$$er e!6 p$a"atio"s. t&r"ed a"d $ooked at e. as I spoke the ba&diest *ords. I to$d her I(d see" a tho&sa"d #&"ts. 2 4Oh9 i possib$e.4 2 ,er i"terest be#a e i"te"se i" #&"ts. 2 4Yes dear. a"d s#ar#e$y o"e e!a#t$y $ike the other.4 4+o a"y sho* as &#h as i"e/4 2 She $ooked #o"f&sed as she asked a"d t&r"ed her eyes to the photos. 4Oh a"y.4 2 *hi#h *as a $ie. So ta$ki"%. $ooki"% at photos. e!p$ai"i"%. te$$i"% her I had do"e a$$ a"d see" a$$ do"e *hi#h *ere pi#t&red i" the photos. she at $ast $aid her head o" y sho&$der *ith a si%h. 2 She *as $e*ed. ready to re#ei1e y pri#k &p her a%ai". a"d a%ai" $et e $ift &p her #he ise a"d ad ire her bea&ties. She see ed p$eased to $et e. I *as s&rpri-ed to fi"d her so fi"e a *o a". *e$$ %ro*". p$& p. rather i"deed i"#$i"i"% to sto&t"ess. ,er breasts *ere s a$$ish b&t bea&tif&$$y shaped. a"d *ith $o1e$y pi"k "ipp$es. $ar%er a"d ore pro i"e"t tha" is &s&a$ i" 1ir%i"s. The shape of her thi%hs *as fi"e. they to&#hed a$$ the *ay to her k"ees. a"d the #o"to&r of her ha&"#hes *as s&perb. ,er $itt$e fee$ $ooked s a$$er a"d prettier *he" she *as "aked tha" *he" dressed. she *as a$*ays disp$ayi"% the e"ti#i"%$y *he" sitti"%. a"d *ore shortish .petti#oats <"ot the" fashio"ab$e= I be$ie1e to6 sho* her feet. ,er #&"t a"d otte. #o1ered *ith hair of the darkest #hest"&t 2 the #o$or of that o" her head 2 *as #&r$y. #$ose. a"d abo&t the si$kiest that I e1er fe$t. It #&r$ed so ro&"d the soft p$& p $ips. that the #$eft *as i" shado* a$$ b&t *here $ar%e a"d thi#k "y phae a"d a" &"&s&a$$y $ar%e #$itoris protr&ded. for i"% a b&"#h *hi#h took three fi"%ers to #o1er. Lo*er do*" the "y phae *ere soo" $ost i" the #$eft. a"d died a*ay i"to the %e"era$ s&rfa#e of her #&"t. b&t the $ar%e pro0e#6 tio" $ike a bi% red poppy b&t part$y ope"ed. *as to e 1ery &%$y. a"d spoi$ed *hat other*ise *o&$d ha1e bee" a bea&tif&$ #&"t. ;as it a$*ays so. or *as it the res&$t of fri%%i"% herse$f/ I "e1er asked a"d sha$$ "e1er k"o* 2 I s*ore that her #&"t *as $o1e$y. She $ooked at e as if she did"(t be$ie1e y praise. ,ad she see" other #&"ts/ I ad ired a$$. a"d i"deed *as e"rapt&red *ith her &"e!pe#ted bea&ty of for . 2 4'o* yo&(re "ear$y "aked. be 3&ite "aked $o1e. $et(s %et i"to bed a"d ta$k.4 2 4I( fri%hte"ed.4 2 4;hy/ Yo&r other thi"ks yo& o&t 2 *hat fo$$y.4 2 I
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stripped yse$f a"d stood #$ose to her. fee$i"% her #&"t a"d $ifti"% &p her #he ise. she ho$di"% y pe%o. 4Let o&r f$esh eet e1ery6*here. take it off. yo& sha$$. yo& &st.4 a"d I be%a" taki"% off her #he ise spite of her resista"#e. The" i"to bed rapid$y she %ot to hide her bea&tif&$ "&dity. I *ith her. a"d after #&dd$i"%. kissi"%. fee$i"% e1ery #ra#k a"d #ra""y. 2 4Yo&r sto#ki"%s. 2 I #a""ot fee$ yo&r $e%s.4 2 a"d i" the bed I p&$$ed those off. 7oth "aked as *e $eft o&r others( *o bs I fo$ded her i" y ar s. ,o* e!3&isite is the e bra#e *he" a" a"d *o a" are both "aked. ho* the ha"ds ro1e f"do k"ees to "e#k. a"d &p a"d do*" a"d ro&"d. a"d i"to e1ery #ra""y. ar pits. b& f&rro* a"d #&"t. The" o&r ha"ds sett$ed o" the sa#red i p$e e"ts of Ve"&s. to"%&e p$ayed *ith to"%&e. a$$ spee#h *as $&stf&$ *ords. ti$$ I o&"ted her a"d f&#ked *ith pro$o"%ed rapt&re. sa"k i"to a s*eet s$eep a"d s$ept too $o"%. 4Oh9 ;hat *i$$ Ma a thi"k94 ;ith o"e fee$ &p her %$&ey a1e"&e I $et her %o. I" %reatest haste she dressed a"d $eft. stoppi"% "either to *ash or pidd$e. ;hat *o&$d Ma a ha1e said. had she k"o*" the #o"ditio" of Edith(s #&"t/ )t di""er I *as i"te"tio"a$$y p$a#ed "ear so e frie"ds *ho had arri1ed 2 dista"#e fro her *e tho&%ht i%ht he$p to $&$$ s&spi#io"s if a"y arose. ) #hat *ith her for a i"&te i" the readi"% roo after6*ards. 2 4,a1e yo& *ashed yo&r #&"t/4 She "odded a"d s i$ed. the" *e"t to her other. a"d at abo&t ei%ht o(#$o#k #a e to y roo a%ai". )%ai" *e f&#ked a"d she *e"t off i" t*e"ty i"&tes. $ea1i"% e a *ee bit fati%&ed *ith y e!er#ises. 'e!t or"i"% I ref$e#ted 2 I had #o e to this #ity i"te"di"% to stop t*o days. had a$ready stopped fo&r. a"d had def$orated a $ady *ho see ed ready to risk a"ythi"% to be f&#ked. I had s&%%ested #a&tio" *hi#h i" a de%ree she obser1ed. b&t 2 4I do"(t #are *hat be#o es of e.4 2 said t*i#e or thri#e i" a *ay as if so#ia$ r&i" stared her i" the fa#e. I did"(t $ike. I #o&$d riot stop &#h $o"%er. a"d did"(t *a"t to %et ho e r&#ked o&t. poki"% t*i#e or ore day after day is ore tha" I #a" sta"d "o*. So. tho her e!3&isite si%"s of se!&a$ de$i%ht *he" I *as &p her. her b&r"i"% kisses. 1o$&pt&o&s si%hs. her i"te"se $o1i"%"ess *hi$st f&#ki"%. %a1e e the ost e!3&isite e"0oy e"t. I reso$1ed to sa1e y stre"%th a"d hea$th a $itt$e. a"d to $ea1e. She &s&a$$y breakfasted *ith her other. b&t "e!t or"i"% appeared ear$y o" a terra#e o1er$ooki"% the sea. I deter i"ed to te$$ her I *as %oi"% b&t had"(t the heart. She *as %oi"% o&t *ith so e $adies a"d I *as to %o to see her other. I did. a"d fo&"d she *as %etti"% her $e% *e$$. 3&i#ker tha" the do#tor had tho&%ht. ,er brother *as #o i"%. et#. et#. This 3&ite s&ited y i"te"tio"s. a"d o" $ea1i"% *hispered 4I sha$$ be i" y roo at ha$f past te". the door *i$$ be ope".4 2 i"te"di"% to i"for her. The" I *e"t to breakfast. had y toba##o. *e"t to y roo . a"d there she *as. My i"te"tio"s 1a"ished dire#t$y I sa* her. y o"$y tho&%ht *as of her se#ret #har s. ;hat p&ts $et#hes i"to y head I #a"(t te$$. b&t s&dde"$y I *a"ted to %a ah&#he her. I had e!p$ai"ed to her the ea"i"% of the *ord the "i%ht
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before. a"d she(d ad itted that her #&"t had bee" $i#ked by her )yah i" I"dia. *he" he *as "ot fo&rtee" years o$d. She ref&sed to $et e. *as i" a h&rry to dress to %o o&t *ith so e $adies. et#. et#. ;e *ere sta"di"% #$ose to%ether a"d I *as fee$i"% her #&"t. 4;hat ha1e yo& p&t those da "ed dra*ers o" for/4 <She(d "ot had the o" before.= 4It(s #o$dish this or"i"%.4 2 It *as. 2 4I (hate the .4 2 7&t I fe$t her 3&i thro the . "ot *ishi"% to f&#k. hati"% to be h&rried i" that de$i#io&s fri#tio". 2 4Let e kiss it.4 2 4'o.4 Yet i" a i"&te she *as o" the bedside. her b& o" y ha"ds. thi%hs o1er y. ar s. y "ose b&ried i" her si$ky otte. y to"%&e sear#hi"% for her #$itoris bet*ee" the $ar%e "y phae. a"d fo&"d easi$y for it *as f&$$ si-ed. I kissed her thi%hs. he$d the &p that y $ips i%ht kiss a"d r&b o1er her sati"y b&tto#ks. the" her be$$y. the" I "ibb$ed at her $o1e b&d. $i#ked a$$ o1er the 1&$1a. shot y to"%&e &p the a1e"&e. the" p$ayed it o" the #$itoris. s&#ki"% it i" at ti es. the" "ibb$i"% it %e"t$y. ti$$ I fe$t6 her thi%hs be%i" to t*it#h. her #&"t s$i%ht$y 0erk &p. C&i#ker *e"t y to"%&e. 2 4)herr.4 2 4Fee$ y head $o1e.4 at o"#e her ha"ds %rasped it. o" *e"t y to"%&e 2 4)hrr 2 ehha4 66 her thi%hs for a" i"sta"t stiffe"ed. the" 3&i1eri"% re$a!ed. a f$&sh of #&"ta$ 0&i#es et y to"%&e *hi$st sti$$ it $i"%ered p$ayi"% %e"t$y o" her #$itoris. %i1i"% the f&$$est p$eas&re. $etti"% her $ose "o"e. Raisi"% y head. $ooki"% at the oiste"ed 1&$1a. ope"i"% its red $ips *ider. a%ai" to see a"d %$ory i" the #o#ks6#o b ed%es of her $ost hy e". I rose &p. She *as $yi"% *ith eyes #$osed e"er1ated by her spe"d. 2 )h the $&s#io&s tra"3&i$ity i" i"d a"d body *hi#h a spe"d %i1es both a" a"d *o a". The" she 3&i#k$y %ot off the bed p&shi"% do*" her #$othes. a"d for the first ti e sho*ed si%"s of odesty. She $ooked asha ed a"d a*ay fro e *ith f$&shed fa#e as I said. 4That(s *hat %a ah&#hi"% is.4 2 4I &st %o 2 *hat *i$$ they thi"k of seei"% e #o e o&t of yo&r roo so ofte"/4 <I *o"dered too. for she had"(t before see ed to #are.= 4Sha$$ I b&y so e ore photo%raphs/4 2 4Oh. do. do.4 *ith 1i1a#ity. 2 4;ash yo&r 3&i . dear 2 $et e *ash it.4 2 ;itho&t a *ord she $eft the roo . #ha"#i"% *ho i%ht be i" the #orridor. )$$ the re ai"der of the day I did "othi"% b&t thi"k of f&#ki"% her. of $ooki"% at her $o1e$y thi%hs a"d b&tto#ks. at her se#ret #har s a%ai" 2 a"d of the positio" I(d f&#k her i". The" I reso$1ed to stay a day or t*o $o"%er. yet k"e* that I &st te$$ her. a"d $ea1e at so e ti e. ,er a""er *as 3&ite $ike o"e *ho e!pe#ted the $iaiso" to be per a"e"t. ;hat rea$$y passed i" her i"d abo&t that I k"o* "ot. for *he" to%ether. o&r e"tire ti e *as e p$oyed i" ta$ki"% abo&t #op&$atio". its pre$i i"aries. a"d $ooki"% at photo%raphs. Of photos I *e"t o&t a"d bo&%ht a"other #o$$e#tio". et her i" the hote$ *ith the $adies she(d bee" o&t *ith. arra"%ed that she sho&$d #o e to y roo as before. soo" after tab$e d(hote di""er 2 at *hi#h I *as"(t to di"e 2 a"d she *as to h& b&% her other. I heard that Ma a a$*ays asked abo&t e. a"d I be%a" to fear s&spi#io&s$y. I" the e1e"i"% she #a e a"d took #are to *ait ti$$ "o o"e *as abo&t. The door $o#ked. 4,a1e yo& %ot a"y ore photos/4 *ere a$ ost her first *ords.
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>rod&#i"% the *e sat do*". she $ooked the thro *ith $&stf&$ a1idity. *hi$st I had o"e ha"d o" her thi%h. 2 It see ed to e a$ ost i"#redib$e. that s&#h #o p$ete fa i$iarity sho&$d ha1e #o e abo&t bet*ee" &s i" so short a ti e. she &" istakab$y a 1ir%i" fo&r days before. 2 b&t so it *as 2 I to$d her I(d f&#ked a tho&sa"d *o e". 4Oh *hat a story.4 ,er other had said I *as a $iberti"e by the $ook of y eyes. )$$ this *as see". said a"d do"e. i" a 3&arter of a" ho&r. the". 2 4Let(s do it dear.4 She rose &p at o"#e ready for f&#ki"%. ;hat *o a" does"(t *he" it(s a "o1e$ty/ It happe"ed to be a" &"&s&a$$y #o$d "i%ht a"d I s&%%ested bed. 2 'o she #o&$d"(t be a*ay $o"% a"d feared her a a se"di"% for her. 2 7&t "aked *e %ot i"to bed. a"d f&#ked a%ai". $aid i" ea#h other(s ar s after fee$i"% a"d f& b$i"% o&r %$&ey %e"ita$s ti$$ they *ere dry a%ai". The" I rose o" y k"ees a"d ade her p&$$ y foreski" &p a"d do*". a"d the" I p&t y fi"%ers &p her #&"t as far as I #o&$d 2 a$$ this *ith $o1i"% a o&ro&s ta$k 2 ti$$ a%ai" y pri#k *as &p her a"d a%ai" *e f&#ked. I" the i"ter1a$ bet*ee" o&r p$eas&re y $ea1i"% o##&rred to e. yet I postpo"ed te$$i"% it. O&r ta$k *as so de$i#io&s abo&t se!&a$ities. that I had"(t the heart to say *hat I(d i"te"ded. There is "o ore de$i#io&s #o"1ersatio". tha" *he" a a" te$$s to a "eophyte a$$ his e!perie"#e i" se!&a$ atters. ,o* Edith(s 3&i heated I #o&$d te$$ by the *ay she #&dd$ed e. the *ay she #$&t#hed y pe%o a"d asked abo&t other *o e"(s #&"ts 2 1ery #&rio&s abo&t those 2 a"d &#h abo&t har$ots a"d their doi"%s5 a"d yet I #o&$d"(t %et her to &tter a ba&dy *ord. 2 She *as #ertai"$y a #&rio&s o"e. The rest of the p$easa"t yet i" so e respe#ts sad a o&r. &st be shorte"ed. 'e!t day i" the or"i"% I asked her to #o e to y roo . 2 Visitors *ere o&t. the #ha ber aid had do"e the roo s 2 there are ti es *he" b&t fe* are i" the #orridors 2 *he" she #a e. 4Edith dear. I( ob$i%ed to %o to Lo"do".4 2 I b$&rted o&t deter i"ed to %et it o1er. 2 She stared at e *ith o&th *ide ope" for a" i"sta"t. the" f$opped do*" hea1i$y o" a #hair. b&ried her fa#e i" her ha"ds. a"d b&rst i"to a f$ood of tears a"d sobbi"%. I a*aited sad$y. soothi"% as *e$$ as I #o&$d b&t #o&$d say "othi"% effe#t&a$. 2 )t $e"%th she 3&ieted a"d to so e re ark of i"e. 2 4I k"e* it &st be. a"d I(1e r&i"ed y6se$f.4 2 "ot that I(d r&i"ed her 2 I said that that *as "o"se"se. b&t she repeated it. a"d that she sho&$d "e1er arry "o*. ;e ta$ked a" ho&r. she i" &#h %rief. be%%i"% e to stop a day or t*o for she sho&$d "e1er see e a%ai" 2 *o&$d I *ait ti$$ her &"#$e #a e/ ;e separated *itho&t f&#ki"%. She ho*e1er #a e "e!t e1e"i"% a"d *e f&#ked t*i#e. ,o* she a"a%ed to h& b&% her other at $ea1i"% her a$o"e so &#h. is "eed$ess to te$$. I sa* her other i" her roo "e!t day. a"d before I $eft a s&re she had "o s&spi#io"s abo&t e. I *aited three days ore ti$$ her &"#$e arri1ed. a"d *e f&#ked t*i#e e1ery day. a"d ta$ked abo&t that operatio" ad $ibit& a"d a$$ appertai"i"% to it. The" I ade her a prese"t of the photos o" #o"ditio" of her repeati"% after e the three *ords. 4pri#k. #&"t. f&#k4 2 the o"$y ob6 s#e"e *ords I e1er heard her say. Yet she(d a hot #&"t. *as sa$a#io&s to her b& ho$e I a s&re. I
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fri%%ed her o"#e. a"d %a ah&#hed her e1ery day after the first. besides f&#ki"% her. ;e parted that $ast e1e"i"% i" tears. She said she $o1ed e. I" o&r #o"1ersatio"s. she to$d e she(d had three offers of arria%e "ear$y. b&t they *ere broke" off. she "e1er k"e* *hy. She de#$ared that "o a" had e1er take" a $iberty *ith her b&t e a"d so e s#hoo$ %ir$s. that o"e or t*o fe a$e I"dia" ser1a"ts had %a ah&#hed her. tho she(d "e1er heard that "a e for #&"t $i#ki"% before I had said it 2 *hi#h is possib$e. 2 I %athered that she(d a sister i" I"dia a"d so eho* #a e to the #o"#$&sio" that both sisters *ere i$$i%iti ate. tho I "e1er heard s&#h a thi"% hi"ted of the . 2 ;as her other e1er arried/ I *o"dered. 2 Certai"$y she *as a thoro&%h$y *e$$ ed&#ated $ady. The day before I $eft Edith her #o&rses #a e o" *hi$st f&#ki"%. I #o"%rat&$ated her o" it. b&t as before she re arked. she said did"(t #are *hat be#a e of her. EThree years or so after*ards. I heard she *as arried to a 1ery ri#h a" *ho took her to 7ra-i$. a"d that is a$$ I k"o* abo&t her. 2 It *as a si"%&$ar $iaiso". a"d so eho* I ha1e a$*ays fe$t sad *he" I thi"k of it.F

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Chapter II )t the $ap&"ar a"d peepho$e. • )$e!a"dri"e(s ad1i#e. • Gatie(s i"str&#tio". • Mar%&erite(s for"i#atio". • >rofits a"d $osses. • ) hairy arsed har$ot. • )bo&t the propriety of seei"% a"d fee$i"% other e"(s pri#ks. • ) do&b$e #&"ted str& pet. • Gatie(s e1e"tf&$ history. • E"%$a"d a%ai". • )$teratio" i" the arra"%e e"t of y "arrati1e. • The phi$osophy of f&#ki"% 1ir%i"s a"d 0&1e"i$es. • ,. $ost a"d fo&"d. • M&t&a$ fri%%i"%s i" a #ab. • The s"&% a##o odatio" ho&se. • 7a&dy books a"d pri"ts. • ,.(s p$eas&re i" eeti"% e. • Mi"etted by Misses R a"d 7$a#k. • 7a&dy triads. • ) f$a%e$$atio" spe#ta#$e. • Three *o e" a"d se$f. • )" or%y. • 7$a#k be#o es fa1o&rite. Taki"% rest tho tra1e$$i"%. I rea#hed the #ity of p$eas&re a"d *as *e$#o ed *ith ope" ar s by )$e!a"dri"e. *ho. sti$$ retai"ed her post. There *as &#h #ha"%e i" the *o a"6ki"d i" the borde$ si"#e $ast I *as there 6 6 a $o"%ish ti e a%o 2 b&t e"o&%h of the o$d o"es $eft to k"o* e. 2 4C(est $&i.4 2 *he" I appeared i" the sa$o". Mar%&erite *as there as bea&tif&$ as e1er. i"6deed ore bea&tif&$ i" for . ) *o"der 2 for there she #ertai"$y has bee" se1e" years a"d ore a"d )$e!a"dri"e te$$s e. "e1er has $ess tha" fi1e e". a"d fre3&e"t$y se1e". i" ea#h t*e"ty6fo&r ho&rs. 4She akes &#h. as &#h as a"y three *o e". 2 7&t. )h9 2 it a$$ %oes o&tside to so e o"e.4 2 4U" hor"6 e/4 2 4@e $e s&ppose.4 a"d she shr&%%ed her sho&$ders. I f&#ked Mar%&erite a"d to$d her she(d ade a fort&"e. 47&t I spe"d it.4 2 4,o* the"/4 2 4I" p$eas&re.4 2 4)h there is &" a a"t de #oe&r.4 2 4>e&t6titre.4 2 a"d she s i$ed. 2 She *as a $o1e$y #reat&re. I sa* a$so abo&t a do-e" #o&p$es f&#ki"%. sa* the Cypria"s before it. e"0oi"ed the to she* off the e"(s pri#ks *e$$. a"d *as obeyed. The si%ht of a ha"dso e stiff pe%o. I so eti es fa"#y "o* e!#ites e ore tha" the si%ht of the ore se#ret fe a$e or%a". 2 ;hy/ 2 Is y desire to see this pro#reati"% too$ i proper or "ot/ >re0&di#e a"d ed&#atio" i" fa$se pri"#ip$es *o&$d ake a"s*er. 4Yes.4 2 If it be so. the" a" ade i" :od(s o*" i a%e. is i" his "&dity a thi"% to be asha ed of. a"d his pe%o obs#e"e. fi$thy. abo i"ab$e. Yet the #reator has ade hi *ith that too$ for the %reat p&prose of peop$i"% the *or$d. of #reati"% bei"%s *ho he the" e"do*s *ith so&$s. Stra"%e that it sho&$d be tho&%ht abo i"ab$e a"d i ora$ for a a" to sho* it. or other e" to see a"d to&#h it 2 si p$y $&di#ro&s. 2 )$$ a$es at so e ti e ha1e both e!posed their o*". a"d fe$t other e"(s pri#ks 2 perhaps o"$y boys( pri#ks 2 b&t the a#t is the sa e. 2 >o*erf&$ or%a" *hi#h a$$ $o1e a"d *o e" *orship 2 *hy art tho& #a$$ed fi$thy a"d obs#e"e/ O"e e1e"i"% a "ear$y b$a#k haired *o a" #a e i" to e. *ith a #opio&s o1erf$o*i"% $ibatio" i" her 3&i 2 fat sp&"k a"d $ots of it. 2 I $ooked. i"1esti%ated. said she i%ht %o. a"d proffered pay e"t. 4Mais baise- oi
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do"#.4 2 4)h "o I *a"t it "ot.4 47&t yo& &st. yo& sha$$. yo& ha1e "ot kissed e for three years.4 I had 3&ite for%otte" her. the" re#o$$e#ted her hairi"ess *hi#h had disp$eased e tha". a"d disp$eased e "o*. She *as o"e of the hairiest i" the re%io" of #&"t a"d b& ho$e I e1er sa*. Fro "a1e$ to arseho$e. it *as b$a#k. $o"%. #&r$y. thi#k. a"d hid e1erythi"%. The %ap *as hidde" by it 3&ite. her b&tto#ks *ere #o1ered *ith hair &p to the b& bo"es. %rad&a$$y thi""i"% off to those ossifi#atio"s. b&t sti$$ b$a#k a"d thi#k. It &st ha1e bee" a" i"#h $o"% ro&"d her a"&s. a"d a$$ 0et b$a#k. It fi$$ed the ho$$o* bet*ee" #&"t a"d thi%h. )s she k"e$t. it $ooked $ike the arse of a b$a#k bear a"d *as &%$y. yet s&#h *as her a$ ost a"%ry pers&asi1e"ess 2 s&#h the e!#ite e"t of "o1e$ty 2 that I f&#ked her. tho a%ai"st y *i$$ as I did it. b&t I 1eri$y be$ie1e to her %reat de$i%ht. 4There is a f"desh *o a" a"d she(s t*o #&"ts.4 said )$e!a"dri"e to e as I e"tered o"e "i%ht. 4I possib$e.4 2 4It(s tr&e. she #o es fro Marsei$$es a"d has bee" stoppi"% at the FHrHy(s a"d "o* is here.4 2 I asked for Gatie. a"d had a #hat *ith her. 2 4Yes it is tr&e. a"d she is i" so#iety "o*.4 2 47etter a"d better.4 I said. 4Let her #o e to e after.4 )*aiti"% her. I a &sed yse$f *ith Gatie. *ho to$d e a$$ abo&t the *o a" ti$$ she e"tered. I p&t her o" to the bedside 3&i#k$y. 2 She had heard of y $et#h 2 a"d ope"ed her thi%hs. There *as &#h thi#k sper o&tside. *hat $ooked $ike a"y other #&"t. a"d I said the t*o #&"ts *as a 0oke. 7&t Gatie #o i"% to y aid p&$$ed ope" the $ips. *hi#h so far rese b$ed a" ordi"ary 3&i . b&t do*" the #e"tre of the #&"t. *as a e bra"e of diaphra% $ooki"% $ike o"e of the "y phae. e!te"di"% fro the #$itoris to the $o*er e"d of the sp$it. The t*o proper "y phae *ere i" their p$a#e. I p&t y fi"%er &p. 2 4There is "o sper i" there.4 said Gatie. 4$ook here4 2 a"d p&tti"% the #e"tra$ di1isio" o" o"e side. there *as the ope"i"% *ith sper i" it. I rapid$y $ooked a$$ o1er her t*o 3&i s ra"dy i" i"d. b&t *as 0&st the" "ot stro"%. "ot *e$$. a"d y pri#k *o&$d "ot sta"d. 2 Gatie s&#ked it to a s$i%ht ri%idity a"d I p&t it *ith diffi#&$ty &p the sper y orifi#e. 2 It *o&$d "ot re ai" there. her #&"t fe$$ a*ay fro e. 4There is "ot &#h sp&"k i" yo&.4 2 said I. 2 4'ot &#h.4 said the Marsei$$aise. 4it(s a$$ r&" o&t. b&t the Mo"sie&r is *aiti"% for e to %o ba#k.4 2 So I $et her %o. She #a e ba#k soo" after *ith her #&"t or #&"ts *ashed. 2 E!#ited a"d $&sti"% for her. yet I "o* #o&$d"(t %et y pri#k stiff at a$$ so tried Gatie(s 3&i *hi#h did"(t raise it. a"d i" despair I $eft the ho&se. 'e!t day I had the sa e t*o *o e". Gate. be#a&se bei"% E"%$ish she i"terpreted for e *he" y Fre"#h fai$ed e. a"d I $ear"ed a$$ abo&t the do&b$e o"e. I sa* her piss. fe$t o"e the" the other 1a%i"a. fe$t to the top or botto of ea#h. r&bbed the *o b e"tra"#es. p&t t*o fi"%ers. o"e &p ea#h #&"t at the sa e ti e. a"d fe$t a"d pi"#hed the %rist$y or f$eshy di1isio" bet*ee" the t*o. E1ery e"3&iry I ade *as a"s*ered *ith fra"k"ess. Gatie %a ah&#hed e. a"d so did 4do&b$e #&"t.4 2 )$$ *as a%ai" &se$ess. I *a"ted the *o a". yet had a dis$ike to her. So tippi"% ha"dso e$y for the tro&b$e I had %i1e". I departed a%ai" *ith f$a##id too$. a"d *itho&t ha1i"% this ti e
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e1e" %ot the tip &p either of the do&b$e #&"ts. or the si"%$e #&"t. for I tried Gatie(s 2 I had do"e for yse$f by re#e"t a o&rs I s&ppose. The third ti e I *as better. a"d had had a #o#k6sta"d *he" thi"ki"% of the f&""y f&#ki"% apparat&s of the Marsei$$aise. It *as i" the after"oo" after a %ood $&"#heo" that I *e"t to see her. a"d had her to yse$f for a #o&p$e of ho&rs. She *as a *e$$ %ro*" *o a" say fi1e feet si! hi%h *ith fir f$eshy $ar%e b&tto#ks. s#ar#e$y a"y *aist. thi%hs. Fro k"ees to a"k$es the $e%s *ere hairy a"d &%$y. She had dark hair o" her head. a"d a s$i%ht darkish o&sta#he o" her o&th. a"d dark eyes. ,er fa#e had a so e*hat sad e!pressio" i" it. 2 The hair of her otte had the %ro*th of a *o a" of thirty a"d *as 1ery dark. She said she *as t*e"ty6three. 2 There *as s#ar#e$y a si%" of hair by her a"&s. ,er #&"t ay be $ike"ed to o"e of the short $eather" p&rses $ike a ba%. *hi#h ope"s *ith a #$asp. a"d she*s i"side a di1isio" or #e"tra$ po#ket. *ith a po#ket o" ea#h side of it. The #&"t had the #e"tra$ di1isio" o"$y a"d t*o po#kets o"$y. that is. a #&"t 2 o" ea#h side. The #e"tre di1isio" $ooked $ike o"e of the "y phae. b&t there *ere "y phae of the ordi"ary si-e a"d &s&a$ p$a#e. 0&st *ithi" the o&ter $ips 2 I a #ertai" that a a" "ot k"o*i"% of the pe#&$iar physi#a$ #o"for atio" of the *o a". i%ht ha1e p&t his pri#k &p o"e of the #&"ts. f&#ked a"d fi"ished. *itho&t k"o*i"% that a"other #&"t *as by the side of his pe"is 2 a$*ays s&pposi"% that he had bee" $e*ed a"d f&$$ of sper *he" he be%a" fee$i"%. $ooki"%. a"d f&#ki"%. I" brief. i" the &s&a$ physi#a$ #o"ditio" of a hea$thy a" *he" *a"ti"% a *o a". Fro *hat she to$d e o" this a"d a"other o##asio". she did "ot see to ha1e bee" #o"s#io&s of her pe#&$iar #o"for atio" ti$$ her e"ses be%a" to sho*. She had the "o* fro o"e #&"t after the other 2 "e1er at the sa e ti e fro both. Ea#h $asted abo&t three days 2 &"der her tr&e #$itoris. b&t $o*er do*" a"d o" either side of the #e"tra$ di1isio" of the t*o 1a%i"as. *ere t*o $itt$e piss d&#ts. a"d she pissed first fro o"e a"d the" fro the other. 2 These pidd$e ope"i"%s *ere "ot 0&st i"side a"d "ear to the 1a%i"as or pri#k ho$es as i" ost *o e". b&t hi%her abo1e the tho both *ere hidde" partia$$y by the diaphra% di1idi"% the #&"ts a"d by the "y phae a"d o&ter $ips. I a sorry I did "ot see her piss. She had p$eas&re she said i" f&#ki"%. b&t #o&$d "ot say the p$eas&re *as ore fro o"e #&"t tha" the other. 2 She see ed fro her des#riptio" to ha1e had the &s&a$ a$$o1erish 1o$&pt&o&s se"satio" fro both #&"ts *he" f&#ked. She had bee" i" the fa i$y *ay o"6her $eft side *o b. a"d *he" fo&r o"ths %o"e a"d her be$$y &#h s*o$$e". the do#tors to$d her part&ritio" probab$y *o&$d ki$$ her. a"d so she pro#&red abortio". 2 The #e"tra$ di1isio" *here it 0oi"ed the rea$ #$itoris. protr&ded $ike a se#o"d #$itoris. the pidd$e 1e"t ho$es a $itt$e $o*er *ere o" ea#h side of it. She #o&$d fri% her6se$f to p$eas&re a"d a spe"d o" the $o*er as *e$$ as the &pper #$itoris. So eti es o"e #&"t spe"t. so eti es the other. she did"(t k"o* *hi#h *o&$d spe"d *he" she fri%%ed herse$f.
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The do#tors said that she had t*o b$adders *ith t*o disti"#t *o bs a"d ad0&"#ts. ,o* they *ere #o""e#ted *ith her breasts for i$k. they did "ot k"o*. They *ar"ed her a%ai"st breedi"%. 2 ) perso". a do#tor. had offered her a $ar%e s& to %o to ) eri#a to e!hibit herse$f. b&t she *as fri%hte"ed a"d ref&sed. She $iked *hori"% i" her "ati1e $a"d best. The do#tors had passed i p$e e"ts a"d dra*" off the *ater fro ea#h of her b$adders as a" e!peri e"t. to sett$e the poi"t *hether she had t*o b$adders or "ot. I for%ot to ask her abo&t her 1ir%i"ity. She $iked f&#ki"% she said 2 a"d *he" she fri%%ed either #$itoris she see ed to spe"d fro o"e #&"t or both. she #o&$d "ot #o"tro$ it. b&t both #&"ts did "ot *et. 2 T*o frie"ds o"#e had her to%ether. She stood o1er the o"e *ith the shortest pri#k. a"d the other p&shed &p her other 3&i fro her r& p side 2 the o"e she *as o" *as *e$$ &p her5 b&t the other %ot his pri#k o"$y a $itt$e *ay i". for it *as diffi#&$t. 7oth spe"t &p her a"d she spe"t 2 a$$ three "ear$y at the sa e ti e 2 b&t she "e1er #o&$d te$$ *hi#h of her #&"ts. or if both did. b&t she spe"t #ertai"$y. She *as ade so $e*ed *he" they did it she #o&$d"(t te$$. The" both f&#ked her t*i#e a%ai". o"e after the other. both $ooki"% o" a$ter"ate$y. 4Yes. o"#e i" the other(s sp&"k. the other ti e i" differe"t #&"ts.4 2 4O"e $iked f&#ki"% i" the fo&tre/4 2 4O&i. $ike yo&.4 2 said she *ith a s i$e. 2 She(d heard of e. 2 They *ere Fre"#h e". 2 She *as a$$ the e1e"i"% *ith the . I sa* her a%ai" so e o"ths after. She had the" %o"e to a"other $ap&"ar 2 a$$ the #$ie"ts at H H H H had had her. She did "ot take. fe* e" had her ore tha" o"#e for #&riosity. She did"(t $ike the "ot to f&#k her b&t a"y did "ot. 2 I *e"t thro a$$ the e!a i"atio"s a%ai" a"d heard the sa e story. 2 I %ot y pri#k first &p o"e #&"t the" a"other. b&t #o&$d "ot spe"d. a"d MY. SECRET LIFE after tryi"% i" e1ery attit&de #a e a*ay *itho&t spe"di"%. 2 She this ti e to$d e that she(d had t*o 1ir%i"ities. o"e her $o1er took 2 the do#tor *ho e!a i"ed her s&bse3&e"t$y had the se#o"d. I *as reso$1ed to f&#k her. 1isited her a%ai". heard a$$ o1er a%ai" a"d a $ot ore. My #o#k stood so o&"ted her. I p&shed y pri#k &p her $eft a1e"&e. the" e!#ha"%ed it for the ri%ht o"e. I *a"ted to #o pare differe"#es of se"satio"s 2 if a"y 2 a"d *hether the #&"ts %a1e the sa e sort of fee$ to y too$ as a o"e #&"ted *o a" %a1e e 2 b&t o1er6e!#ited a%ai". y too$ to y a""oya"#e be%a" to d*i"d$e a"d #a e o&t f$abby a$ ost s&dde"$y. 2 The ab"or a$ "at&re of the fe a$e(s or%a" i" fa#t %a1e e a s$i%ht dis%&st. b&t rea$$y tho #&rio&s. there *as "othi"% i" the s$i%htest de%ree 2 as I "o* thi"k of it 2 dis%&sti"% abo&t it. )%ai" by the he$p of her fi"%ers a"d her o&th I ra$$ied. a"d bri"%i"% her to the side of the bed. I first $ooked at her 3&i fro behi"d her b& . the" re1ersi"% her a"d $ifti"% her hea1y thi%hs &p. I asked her to p&t i" y pri#k for e. 2 4;hi#h #&"t/4 2 asked she. 4Yo&r $eft. the side yo& bred i".4 She p$a#ed it there. &p *e"t y pri#k. a"d I $eft y sper i" the fa1o&red a1e"&e.

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,er #&"ts did "ot see as "i#e a"d s ooth as the ordi"ary fe a$e arti#$e 2 b&t so e*hat fati%&ed. "ot &#h *a"ti"% it. a"d o1er6*orked before 2 for y #o#k had re#e"t$y %o"e i"to 3&ite a do-e" #&"ts a"d ost$y s ooth *ith sper a"d I had see" thirty #o&p$es #op&$ati"% 2 I *as rather do"e &p 2 I(d had diffi#&$ty a$so i" fi"di"% *here this *o a" had o1ed to. so I *as "ot i" a %ood state for 0&d%i"%. a"d fe$t a$$ the ti e that I *as f&#ki"% o&t of ere #&riosity. ) fe* o"ths after I so&%ht her at the sa e ho&se. 2 She(d $eft. 2 The" I asked )$e!a"dri"e. *ho &"der p$ed%e a%ai" <she(d to$d e before= %a1e e a"other address 2 b&t she had $eft. had %o"e abroad they to$d e. 2 >erhaps so. a"d a$$ E&rope ay see this $&s&s "at&rae. EI ha1e a$*ays re%retted "ot aski"% ore a"d pre#ise 3&estio"s of this do&b$e #&"ted *o a" 2 b&t the e!#ite e"t #a&sed "at&ra$$y by ta$ki"% o" the s&b0e#t. a"d ha1i"% the #&"ts at ha"d a"d the "aked o*"er of the there ready a"d *i$$i"% to f&#k ade e for%et aski"% &#h *hi#h I i"te"ded. I sho&$d ha1e *ritte" do*" y 3&estio"s. a"d asked the seriati . 2 7&t that i%ht ha1e s#ared her. a"d she *o&$d ost $ike$y ha1e $ied ore tha" perhaps she did. b&t as far as I "arrate I thi"k it is a$$ tr&e abo&t her. 2 I had Gatie 2 the o"$y E"%$ish *o a" i" the ho&se. 2 to i"terpret a"d aid e. 7&t abo1e a$$. )$e!a"dri"e. *ho had bee" for a fe* years y frie"d. aid. a"d ad1iser i" eroti# b&si"ess to$d e a %reat dea$. EGatie had a *o"derf&$ history. Fro bei"% a" ordi"ary har$ot there. a"d first i" Lo"do". the" at Lyo"s. she arried the "ephe* of the istress of the borde$. a"d *as for a ti e pra#ti#a$$y istress of the estab$ish e"t 2 a"d *o&$d *ith her h&sba"d ha1e i"herited it. *ith a" i"#o e as far as I #o&$d ake o&t of 3&ite three tho&sa"d po&"ds a year. :ood beha1io&r i" her $od%i"%s %ot her that arria%e a"d that positio". prosperity &pset her. 2 She be#a e a dr&"kard. 3&arre$$ed *ith the *o e". a"d #a&sed ro*s i" the ho&se <"e1er per itted i" a Fre"#h 4 aiso" de to$era"#e4=. *as re0e#ted a"d dis issed 2 of #o&rse sti$$ arried 2 a"d as far as I #o&$d $ear". she *as after*ards se"t to E"%6 $a"d a #o"fir ed dr&"kard. her h&sba"d keepi"% her here. 2 ,er "a e had o##&rred i" the ori%i"a$ "a"drati1e. b&t i" the abbre1iatio"s those i"#ide"ts had bee" destroyed 2 he"#e the "eed to preser1e this short e oir of her here 2 a" e1e"tf&$ history.F My "arrati1e is "ear$y fi"ished. y a atory #areer e"di"%. My se!&a$ po*ers $esse" tho sti$$ stro"%. b&t as the &r%i"%s of #o"#&pis#e"#e are $ess po*erf&$. opport&"ities see "ot to o##&r so fre3&e"t$y a"d y si"s a%ai"st #hastity %ro* fe*er. The a#tors a"d a#tresses *i$$ he"#eforth be "a e$ess or "a ed *ro"%$y for they are $i1i"% a"d abo&t. 2 The ho&ses *hi#h %a1e e she$ter e!ist. b&t &st "ot be "a ed. The a atory episodes *ere for the ost part ore brief$y *ritte" by e tha" for er$y. a"d "eed b&t $itt$e abbre1iatio". Their #hro"o$o%i#a$ order *i$$ "ot be 3&ite fo$$o*ed i" the i"terest of a$$ the a#tors. a#tresses a"d se$f.

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E,ere is p$a#ed a $oose para%raph 2 I fa"#y I ha1e *ritte" a si i$a"d o"e before 2 b&t $est "ot so. it(s *e$$ to preser1e it.F E,o* si i$ar for the ost part ha1e bee" y te porary a o&rs. ,o* si i$ar the beha1io&r of the *o e" *ho ha1e pro#&red e the 1ir%i"s. ;hether LH$He. FHH-Hr or others. a$$ *ere si i$ar. )$$ the 1ir%i"s *ere %ot for o"ey. ;hat p$eas&re a$so the >aphia"s had i" e!#iti"% the $asses. a"d for their o*" $&st i" seei"% the hy e"s take" 2 i" i"#$&di"% the %ir$s to f&#k. 2 ;hat #o p$ete &"a"i ity i" opi"io". that their $itt$e prote%es *o&$d soo" be f&#ked by so e o"e if "ot by e. ;hat ta$es they to$d e of the "as#e"t desires. $e*ed *ishes a"d eroti# k"o*$ed%e a"d habits of the %ir$s at that ear$y a%e. a"d the e"#o&ra%e e"t they %a1e to the a$es 2 ost$y $ads a $itt$e o$der tha" the se$1es a"d of the sa e #$ass. 2 Veri$y a %e"t$e a" had better f&#k the for o"ey. tha" a b&t#her boy for "othi"%. It is the fate of s&#h %ir$s to be f$i#ked yo&"%. "either $a*s so#ia$ or $e%a$ #a" pre1e"t it. 2 :i1e" opport&"ities 2 *ho has the $ike the #hi$dre" of the poor/ 2 a"d they *i$$ #op&$ate. It is the $a* of "at&re *hi#h "othi"% #a" th*art. ) a" "eed ha1e "o 4#o p&"#tio"s of #o"s#ie"#e4 2 as it is ter ed 2 abo&t ha1i"% s&#h %ir$s first. for ass&red$y he *i$$ ha1e do"e "o har . a"d has o"$y bee" a" a%e"t i" the i"e1itab$e. The #o"se3&e"#es to the fe a$e bei"% the sa e. *ho6e1er she ay fi"dst ha1e bee" f&#ked by. The first *eek of y ret&r" I te$e%raphed a eeti"% *ith ,. :etti"% "o rep$y I *e"t to her ho&se *hi#h *as e pty. I te$e%raphed the s#o&t. %ot "o respo"se. *e"t there a"d she had f$o*". b&t I fo&"d that her $etters *ere se"t to a "ei%hbo&ri"% #ha"d$er(s shop 2 I *rote there "a i"% a" appoi"t e"t i" the dark "ear HHHH a"d there fo&"d ,. *aiti"%. )$$ *as #ha"%ed. she $i1ed i" the #o&"try. *as "ot s&re if she #o&$d eet e. b&t if so at %reat risk. did"(t k"o* *he" or *here b&t i" a *eek *o&$d $et e k"o*. ;e dro1e thro&%h a park *hi#h *as o" the road to her statio" a"d fe$t ea#h other(s #ar"a$ a%e"ts. I beso&%ht her to %et o&t a"d $et &s f&#k a%ai"st a tree. She *as i"di%"a"t at the pro6 posa$. a"d it e"ded i" o&r fri%%i"% ea#h other i" the #ab. fa#e to fa#e. kissi"% a"d to"%&i"%. to the %reat i"0&ry of her bo""et. a"d a $itt$e soi$i"% of her si$k dress a"d y tro*sers. ;ho *o&$d #are *here sper fe$$ i" s&#h a" e"tra"#i"% ride. ) *eek after. a p$a#e of re"de-1o&s *as fo&"d. at a #o"1e"ie"t s"&% $itt$e ho&se *here *e et %e"era$$y. 2 7efore she(d take" a"ythi"% off b&t her bo""et a"d I y hat. *e f&#ked o" the bedside *ith i"te"se &t&a$ de$i%ht. +ire#t$y I(d &"#&"ted. *e both stripped start "aked a"d %ot i"to bed. dra"k #ha pa%"e there. a"d f&#ked a"d f&#ked a%ai" ti$$ y pe%o *o&$d stiffe" "o $o"%er5 f&#ked fo&r ti es. a %reat effort "o* for e. b&t "ot for her. 7&t fri%%i"% a"d %a ah&#hi"% a$*ays satisfied her as a fi"ish 2 $&#ki$y. The" o&r eeti"%s *ere at $o"%er i"ter1a$s apart. *hi#h o"$y ade the ore de$i#io&s. 7&t I a$as. a ob$i%ed to h&sba"d y stre"%th ore tha" for er$y. so the $o"% i"te"d1a$s s&it e better.
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;he" "e!t *e et. *e fo&"d that the istress of the estab$ish e"t had 1o$&pt&o&s photo%raphs. pi#t&res. a"d e"%ra1i"%s by h&"dreds. a"d o"e or t*o #hests f&$$ of the best a"d ba&diest books i" E"%$ish a"d Fre"#h. 2 ;e re1e$$ed i" the that day for a$$ *ere p$a#ed at o&r disposa$. 2 ;e sat fee$i"% ea#h other(s %e"ita$s bet*ee" o&r f&#ki"%s. $ooki"% a"d #o e"ti"% o" the artisti# disp$ay of "&dities a"d eroti# fa"#ies. a"d *ishi"% *e #o&$d parti#ipate i" s&#h perfor a"#es o&r6se$1es. They a*ake"ed ideas *hi#h had s$& bered i" e #ertai"$y. She said i" her a$so. b&t she a$*ays de#$ared that I had p&t desires i"to her head &"k"o*" before. ;e *ere *e$$ at#hed. Li1i"% far off "o*. *itho&t a a$e or fe a$e frie"d *ith *ho to ta$k abo&t se!&a$ities. ore tha" e1er "o* she $ooked to o&r days of eeti"%. a"d ho&rs of &"restrai"ed 1o$&pt&o&s"ess. )fter heari"% a$$ she had do"e at ho e e1e" to do esti# detai$s 2 *hi#h she *as fo"d of te$$i"% as sho*i"% her do esti# #o fort. 2 $&st a"d $o1e i" a$$ its *hi s a"d 1arieties *e ta$ked abo&t. 4+id yo& e1er do that/4 4+o yo& re#o$$e#t *he" I sho*ed yo& HHH(s pri#k/4 2 4;he" did so a"d so o##&r/4 So ra" o&r ta$k. ,o* ofte" he(d f&#ked her or %a ah&#hed her. ho* ofte" she(d fri%%ed herse$f. the sper he spe"t. a"d a$$ the do esti# ba&dy doi"%s *ere to$d e *ith de$i%ht. a"d si i$ar fra"k"ess e!a#ted fro e. 2 The" #a e *ishes. 4Let Mrs. H H H H H %et &s a"other *o a". yo& f&#k her *hi$st she %a ah&#hes e.4 *as a re3&est ade *hi$st after f&#ki"%. *e $aid reposi"% i" the bed. 2 I a%reed. 2 4Let her be sto&t. I(d $ike o"e as sto&t as Ca i$$e.4 2 these are the 1ery *ords said f&""i$y e"o&%h i" a ha$f sha ed fa#ed *ay 2 for abse"#e a"d the #ha"%e i" her #ir#& sta"#es. at first see ed to i pose so e st&pid odesty o" her. 2 7&t both of &s $iked to #a$$ a spade a spade. )$$ *as a##o p$ished. The abbess as I sha$$ #a$$ her. *e as#ertai"ed *o&$d pro#&re &s e1ery p$eas&re. tho o"$y #a&tio&s$y a"d fro ti e to ti e she dis#$osed her po*ers. ) 1ery p$& p a"d a$ ost fat. ha"dso e *o a" of t*o a"d t*e"ty *as o&r first #o pa"io". 2 4+o"(t $et e ask her. yo& say that yo& *a"t her to $i#k y #&"t 2 I do"(t *a"t her to thi"k that I *ish it.4 2 said ,. So it *as do"e. *e had #ha pa%"e. I stripped the p$& p o"e. the" asked ,. to $ook at her 3&i 2 *hi#h she *as $o"%i"% to do 2 a"d the" i"#ited her to the %a ah&#he. 7a&dy ta$k a"d *i"e raisi"% o&r $&st MY SECRET 6LIFE ade &s frie"ds soo". a"d Miss R. 0& ped at the idea of %a ah&#hi"% the other. The" "aked a$$ three <*ar *eather "o*=. Looki"%6%$asses arra"%ed so that ,. #o&$d see a$$. she $aid o" the bed6side *hi$st R. %a ah&#hed her. O" the bed by ,.(s side I a$so $aid. she fri%%i"% e d&ri"% her p$eas&re. 4)ha 2 :od 2 $i#k 3&i#ker. 2 I( spe"di"%.4 2 a"d she spe"t "ear$y p&$$i"% y pri#k off d&ri"% her first e#stasy. >a&si"% for a i"&te. R. re#o e"#ed. for ,. $ikes to #o"ti"&e &"i"terr&pted$y at that $&s#io&s %a e. ti$$ she has spe"t at $east t*i#e. It *as a $o1e$y si%ht to see ,. *ith her bea&tif&$ thi%hs. a"d the #ora$ $itt$e %ash set i" the $o1e$y #hest"&t hair. *hi#h R. he$d ope" for a i"&te to ad ire. The" her o&th set %reedi$y &po" it. her ha"ds &"der ,.(s b&tto#ks. the dark hair of
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R.(s ar pits 0&st peepi"%. her bi% *hite b&tto#ks "ear$y to&#hi"% her hee$s. I stooped do*" this ti e a"d peeped a$o"% the f&rro* past the b& ho$e. a"d #o&$d 0&st see the red e"d of her #&"t *ith the short #risp hair aro&"d it. The" stradd$i"% a#ross her *aist. y pri#k $ayi"% o" her ba#k bet*ee" her b$ade bo"es. I *at#hed the $o1e$y fa#e of ,. *hi#h i" her se!&a$ e#stasy is a $o1e$y si%ht. 4F&#k. f&#k her.4 she #ried to e. 7&t I *o&$d"(t. 'e!t i"&te sa* ,.(s $o1e$y eyes fi!ed o" i"e. *hi$st *ith soft #ries she spe"t. ) rest. ore #ha pa%"e. a dis#o&rse abo&t the p$eas&re of *o a" #&"t $i#ki"% *o a" a"d of e" doi"% it. a"d ,. a%ai" *as o" the bed. 2 4Oh. I( so $e*ed I *a"t a f&#k so.4 said R. 2 4,e($$ f&#k yo&. *o"(t yo&/4 2 I #o p$ied. F&rther ba#k o" the bed "o* the better to rea#h her #&"t *ith her to"%&e. *ith pi$$o*s &"der her head $ay ,. *he" R. re#o e"#ed her $i"%&a$ e!er#ise o" the s*eet a"d fresh6*ashed 3&i . I sta"di"% &p "o* at R.(s ba#k. 2 4F&#k her. a"d spe"d *he" I do.4 said ,. 2 R.(s b& to*ards e *as a$ ost too fat a" o"e as she be"t. so I ade her be"d $o*er. a"d the" bet*ee" the b&tto#k *e"t y pri#k. di1idi"% t*o *e$$ haired. 1ery fat $ips of her sa"#t& of p$eas&re. She ad0&sted her hei%ht to the e!er#ise *he" y tip *as *e$$ $od%ed. My ba$$s *ere soo" a%ai"st the b&tto#ks. e1ery i"#h of y pri#k &p a #&"t de$i#io&s$y $&bri#ated by its o*"er(s ra"di"ess. 2 4It(s &p her #&"t $o1e.4 I #ried. be%a" f&#ki"% a"d R. be%a" %a ah&#hi"%. )$$ "o* *as si$e"#e b&t the $ap "o* a"d the" of R.(s to"%&e o" ,.(s #&"t. 4She(s #o i"% dar$i"% 2 I sha$$ spe"d.4 2 I #ried at $e"%th. 2 4Oh 2:od 2 f&#k her. f&#k. s$ap her b& .4 #ried ,.. *rithi"% a"d si%hi"%. 2 My s$aps o" the fat arse re6so&"ded. as R. *"dithed a"d shi1ered *ith p$eas&re *hi$st $i#ki"% o". a"d both of &s spe"t as ,. spe"t &"6der the to"%&e titi$$atio". The" *ith s$obbered pri#k a"d *et #&"ts *e %ot &p. Soo" after sta"di"% by the bedside I f&#ked ,. *hi$st she fri%%ed Miss R. 'e1er *ere there three ba&dy o"es to%ether *ho e"0oyed the eroti# tri#ks ore tha" *e did. These de$i%htf&$ 1o$&pt&o&s e!er#ises *ere repeated *ith 1ariatio"s o" other days. R. s&#ked y pri#k a"d took its $ibatio" *hi$st I *as $yi"% f&$$ $e"%th o" the bed. ,. k"ee$i"% o1er y head. I $i#ki"% her #$itoris the $ooki"% %$asses so arra"%ed that ,. #o&$d see a$$. )"6other day I f&#ked R. *hi$st she fri%%ed ,. The" I p&t y pri#k i"to both *o e" a"d fi"ished i" R.(s #&"t. *hi#h #o p$eted that day(s a &se e"t. Soo" after*ards *e "oti#ed *a$es &po" R.(s #apa#io&s *hite b&tto#ks. It *as fro her $ast *hippi"% she said. That dis#$osed *hat i" ti e *as s&re to ha1e be6 #o e k"o*" to &s. That the abbess *as a" e!pert it f$a%e$$atio". that s*e$$s both o$d a"d yo&"% #a e &"der her e!perie"#ed ha"d. C&estio"ed. the abbess to$d &s a$$. *as i"deed pro&d of her perfor a"#es. she*ed &s the 1aried apparat&s *ith *hi#h she either ti#k$ed or b$ed the as#&$i"e b& s. a"d *o e"(s as *e$$. oI s&peri"te"ded e" f$o%%i"% fe a$e b& s. S&#h as the fat arsed R.(s *ere preferred. tho so e she said $ike< yo&"%er a"d thi""er b&tto#ks. So e bro&%ht a"< bir#hed a *o a" *ho they $iked a"d f&#ked.
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so e a spe#ia$ *o a" to bir#h the . They a$$ paid 1ery ha"d so e$y for b$eedi"% a fair pair of b&tto#ks. R. to$d &s that f$a%e$$atio" of her ba#kside ade he $e*ed a" ho&r after or so. She $iked the bir#h 0&st to h&rt s$i%ht$y the #&"t $ips. The" if she #o&$d"(t %et a". she fri%%ed herse$f 2 that so e %ir$s said it di< "ot affe#t the $e*ed$y 2 others that it did. 2 ; ta$ked 3&iet$y *ith the abbess abo&t this. 7oth ,. a I desired to see the operatio". a"d heard that so e e" $iked to be see" by other e" *he" bei"% f$o%%ed. If *e *o&$d #o e o" a #ertai" day. there *o&$d be the" a %e"t$e a" *ho had a taste for bei"% ade a spe#ta#$e. a"d she *o&$d arra"%e for &s to se 2 for pay of #o&rse. ;e *e"t o" the day b&t the a" did"(t appear. T*o $adies *ere ready *aiti"% to f$o% hi . The abbes said it did"(t atter. so ethi"% had detai"ed hi that *he" he disappoi"ted he a$*ays paid the o"ey for a$$ #o"#er"ed. O"e of the *as dressed as a ba$k %ir$. the other o"$y i" #he ise. s&#h *ere his orders. 2 She i" #he ise. *as a s*eet fa#ed. dark haired short ish %ir$ of "i"etee". *ith fi"e teeth. ;e asked her t o&r roo to take *i"e. a"d it e"ded i" ,H H H fri%%i"% he a"d y f&#ki"% her. the" i" y f&#ki"% ,.. *hi$st she $ooked at the other(s 3&i . a"d *e a%reed she *o&$d be better for o&r a oro&s %a es tha" R. 2 I *i$$ #a$$ this dark o"e 47$a#k.4 She had o"e of the ost de$i#ate. refi"ed. #o#k stiffe"i"%. s$i%ht$y $ipped. s$i%ht$y haired #&"ts I e1er sa*I it rese b$ed ,.(s #&"t years a%o. 7$a#k took at o"#e a fra"ti# $et#h for %a ah&#hi"% ,. 2 a"d *ho *o&$d"(t/ 2 ;he" y o&th #o1ers it. I #a" s#ar#e$y tear it a*ay fro it. )t o&r "e!t 1isit the f$a%e$$atio" #a e off. )s ,.. *ho(d o"$y her #he ise o". a"d I y shirt a"d *eari"% a ask. e"tered the roo . there *as a a" k"ee$i"% o" a $ar%e #hair at the foot of the bed. o1er *hi#h he *as be"di"%. O1er the seat a"d ba#k of the #hair *as a $ar%e to*e$ to re#ei1e his spe"di"%s. ,e had a *o a"(s dress o" t&#ked &p to his *aist. sho*i"% his "aked r& p a"d thi%hs. *ith his feet i" a$e so#ks a"d boots. O" his head *as a *o a"(s #ap tied #aref&$$y ro&"d his fa#e to hide *hiskers 2 if he had a"y 2 a"d he *ore a ha$f ask *hi#h $eft his o&th free. 2 )t his ba#k. sta"di"%. *as o"e yo&"%ish %ir$ ho$di"% a bir#h a"d dressed as a ba$$et da"#er. *ith petti#oats far &p abo1e her k"ees. a"d sho*i"% "aked thi%hs. ,er breasts *ere "aked. ha"%i"% o1er her stays a"d sho*i"% dark haired ar pits. )"other ta$$. *e$$ for ed. tho thi""ish fe a$e. "aked a$$ b&t boots a"d sto#ki"%s. *ith hair dyed a bri%ht ye$$o*. *hi$st her #&"t a"d ar pits( fri"%es *ere dark bro*". stood a$so at his ba#k 2 a bo$d. i"so$e"t $ooki"% bit#h *ho I o"e day f&#ked after she(d %a ah&#hed ,. 2 tho I did"(t $ike either her fa#e. #&"t. for . or a""er 2 b&t she *as "e* to e. ;hat he had do"e *ith the *o e" before *e e"tered *e *ere to$d after*a"dds by ye$$o* head. *as 1ery si p$e. ,e(d stripped both *o e" "aked. a"d sa* the o"e dress herse$f as a ba$$et %ir$. "othi"% ore. 'either had to&#hed his pri#k "or he their #&"ts. ;he" the door *as #$osed after *e
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e"tered. he *hispered to the abbess that he *a"ted to see y pri#k. +eter i"ed to %o thro the *ho$e perfor a"#e. I $ifted y shirt a"d she*ed it bi% b&t "ot stiff. ,e *a"ted to fee$ it b&t that I re6f&sed. 47e a %ood boy or Miss Ye$$o* <as I sha$$ #a$$ her= *i$$ *hip yo& hard.4 said the abbess. 2 4Oh 2 "o 2 "o pray do"(t.4 he *hispered i" rep$y. ,e spoke a$*ays i" *hispers. The" he said ,. *as $o1e$y a"d *a"ted to see her #&"t. *hi#h she ref&sed. ,e "e1er t&r"ed ro&"d d&ri"% this b&t re ai"ed k"ee$i"%. The" after #hi$dish ta$k bet*ee" hi a"d the abbess <he a$*ays i" *hispers=. 4'o* she sha$$ *hip yo&. yo& "a&%hty boy.4 said the abbess 2 a"d 4s*ish4 the rod des#e"ded hea1i$y &po" his r& p. 4Oho 2 ho 2 ho.4 he *hispered as he fe$t the t*i"%e. I o1ed ro&"d to the other side of hi *here I #o&$d see his pri#k ore p$ai"$y. It *as $o"%ish. pe"da"t. a"d the prep&#e #o1ered its tip "ear$y. 2 S*ish 2 s*ish 2 *e"t the bir#h. a"d a%ai" he #ried i" *hispers. 2 4,o. ho.4 2 , the" o1ed ro&"d to y side to see better 2 Ye$$o* head fro behi"d hi fe$t his pri#k 2 The abbess *i"ked at e 2 The" he $aid his head o" the bedstead fra e a"d %rasped it *ith both ha"ds *hi$st 1ery $eis&re$y the bir#h fe$$ o" hi a"d he #ried 4,o 2 ho4 2 ,is r& p %ot red a"d the" he #ried a$o&d 2 4Oh I #a"(t 2 the" s&"k his 1oi#e to a *hisper i" fi"ishi"% his se"te"#e 2 Ye$$o* head a%ai" fe$t his pri#k sti$$ "ot $ooki"% ro&"d. The" *as a rest a"d a $itt$e ta$k. he sti$$ speaki"% i" *hispers. The abbess treated hi $ike a #hi$d. I fe$t Ye$$o* head(s otte. she $ooki"% at ,. to see if she per itted e the $i#e"se. Ye$$o* head the" took &p the bir#h. a"d ,. a"d I o1ed to the other side of the bed. 7oth of &s e!#ited. ,.(s fa#e *as f$&shed *ith $&st. I fe$t her #&"t. a"d she y pe%o. "o* stiff. 4Look at those t*o.4 3&oth the abbess. ;e. a"d both the *o e" $a&%hed. 2 The patie"t had t&r"ed his head to $ook. b&t #o&$d see "othi"% b&t &s sta"di"%. 2 S*ish 2 s*ish. fe$$ hea1i$y the rod o" his arse. "o* 1ery red i"deed. 2 4Let e $i#k her #&"t.4 *hispered he. "oddi"% at ,. 2 She ref&sed. 2 4I($$ %i1e her fi1e po&"ds.4 he *hispered. ,. hesitated. b&t short of o"ey as &s&a$. at $e"%th she #o"se"ted. beside she *as $e*ed to her b& 6ho$e 2 4I sha$$ spe"d.4 she *hispered to e as she %ot o" to the bed a"d sayi"% a$o&d. 4Fi1e po&"ds. i"d.4 2 4,e($$ pay. he(s a %e"t$e a".4 &r &red the abbess. The" *as a spe#ta#$e s&#h as I "e1er sa* before "or sha$$ a%ai". ,. sett$ed o" the bed. thi%hs *ide apart. 3&i %api"%. $e%s o1er the bed fra e. #&"t #$ose &p to the 1i#ti . b&t too $o* for his to"%&e to rea#h the %oa$. The abbess. Miss Ye$$o* head a"d I. p&shed pi$$o* after pi$$o* &"der her $o1e$y b&r" ti$$ it *as &p to the re3&isite $e1e$. a"d %reedi$y he be%a" $i#ki"% it. I o1ed ro&"d hi a%ai". $ooki"% #&rio&s$y at his pri#k *hi#h *as "o* stiff. 24Let hi fee$ it.4 he *hispered ore $o&d$y tha" &s&a$. I fe$t a"d fri%%ed it for a se#o"d. ;hi$st I did so. s*ish 2 s*ish 2 fe$$ the rod o" his r& p. *hi#h *rithed. 2 4U 2 & 2 ,UM.4 2 he &r &red. his o&th f&$$ of ,.(s #&"t. 4)hrr.4 si%hed ,.. *hose $o1e$y fa#e e!pressed her p$eas&re. for she *as $e*ed. Ye$$o* head $aid ho$d of his pri#k. %a1e it t*o or three %e"t$e fri%s. a"d o&t sp&rted a sho*er of
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se e". The" he *as 3&iet *ith his o&th f&$$ o" ,.(s ope" 3&i . sti$$ Ye$$o* head #o"ti"&ed fri%%i"% his shri"ki"% or%a". 2 4,a1e yo& spe"t/4 2 said I. 4+a " it. I *as 0&st #o i"%.4 said ,.. 0o%%i"% her #&"t &p a%ai"st his o&th. *i$d for her spe"d. 7&t he *as $ife$ess. a$$ desire to $i#k her had %o"e. )t a hi"t fro the abbess *e *e"t to o&r bed6roo . 2 4F&#k e.4 2 O" the bed she %ot. her #&"t *et *ith his sa$i1a. y pri#k "oddi"% its *a"ts a"d $&st. &p I p$&"%ed it i" her *et #&"t. thr&st y to"%&e i"to her s*eet o&th. o&r sa$i1as po&red i"to ea#h other(s. a"d *e spe"t i" rapt&re. a$ ost before *e had be%a" the %$orio&s to a"d fro of y pri#k i" her $&bri#io&s a1e"&e. 'either of &s had see" s&#h a si%ht before. "e1er had either of &s e1e" see" a"y o"e f$o%%ed. a"d *e ta$ked abo&t it ti$$ the abbess #a e &p. The a" had $eft. b&t o"$y %a1e three so1erei%"s for ,.(s #o p$aisa"#e. 4'o do&bt she(s kept the other t*o.4 2 said ,. after6*ards. The yo&"% $adies *ere sti$$ be$o*. *o&$d *e $ike to ha1e a #hat *ith the / O&r passio"s *ere *e$$ ro&sed. ,. at o"#e said 4Yes.4 a"d &p they #a e. ;e had #ha pa%"e. %i1i"% the abbess so e. the" a$$ ta$ked abo&t f$a%e$$atio". The yo&"%er *o a" sho*ed arks of the bir#h o" her b& . a"d *he" the abbess had %o"e. *e heard ore abo&t the ri#h 1i#ti . *ho both had see" before a"d *ho *as bet*ee" fifty a"d si!ty. ,e a$*ays had t*o *o e". b&t "ot a$*ays they t*o. they(d "e1er k"o*" hi a$$o* stra"%ers to be prese"t *he" he *as f$o%%ed. a"d he *a"ted to k"o* if ,. *o&$d *hip hi so e day. <She "e1er *o&$d.= The" *e a$$ fo&r stripped. both *o e" %a ah&#hed ,. a"d *hi$st the yo&"%er o"e *as doi"% that I f&#ked Ye$$o* head. *hose #&"t I #o&$d"(t bear. The" she %a ah&#hed ,. a"d I *itho&t a"y effort f&#ked &p the other %ir$ a"d fo&"d her #&"t de$i#io&s. 2 I" the i"ter1a$s *e $aid pe$$ e$$ o" the bed to%ether. topsy 2 t&r1y. 2 arsy 2 1ersy. a"d a"y ho* a"d i" a$$ sorts of *ays. $ooked at ea#h other(s #&"ts. the t*o *o e" both s&#ked y pri#k to stiff"ess b&t "o f&rther a"d Ye$$o* head p&t her fi"%er &p y b& as I f&#ked the yo&"%er %ir$ at the bedside fee$i"% ,.(s $o1e$y s*eet #&"t *hi$st I did so. a"d as her r& p *as to*ards e I paid the fi"%er #o p$i e"t to her b& 6ho$e. 2 ;e had #ha pa%"e ti$$ a$$ *ere ti%ht. a"d %$oried i" ost &"6restrai"ed ba&di"ess i" a#t a"d ta$k. ;e a$$ pissed. a"d I fe$t their a ber strea s *hi$st iss&i"%. a"d pissed yse$f a%ai"st Ye$$o* head(s #&"t. ,. ho$di"% the basi". 2 The" fati%&ed *ith $&stf&$ e!er#ises 2 ,. e!#epted 2 *e had stro"% tea. a"d *e"t o&r *ays. ) 1eritab$e or%y. a"d a" e!tra1a%a"t$y e!pe"si1e o"e. 'o* it *as 1ery #$ear a"d fra"k$y a1o*ed by ,.. that o&r eeti"%s *ere the de$i%ht of her $ife. that tho happy at ho e they *ere frie"d$ess "ear$y. a"d she $ooked for*ard to eeti"% e *ith the %reatest p$eas&re. "ot o"$y to te$$ e a$$. b&t to i"d&$%e *ith e i" re i"is#e"#es. a"d ha1e ba&dy after"oo"s *ith other *o e". 4)"d it(s yo&r fa&$t. yo&(1e to$d e ore tha" a$$ the e" a"d *o e" to%ether *ho I(1e k"o*".4 2 7&t there *ere hi"dra"#es. So eti es t*o or three *eeks i"ter1e"ed bet*ee" o&r eeti"%s at the abbess(5 tho ea#h eeti"% bro&%ht so e ba&dy "o1e$ty.
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;he" "e!t *e et *e had $itt$e 7$a#k a"d "ot Miss R. for o&r #o pa"io". a"d 7$a#k a"d I to%ether %a1e ,. her #o p$ete dose of p$eas&re. T*o f&#ks. a fri%. a"d three or fo&r %a ah&#hes. so e by e. so e by 7$a#k. see ed the 3&a"t& *hi#h she #a$$ed a 0o$$y ba&dy after"oo". )$$ *ere p$eased. for 7. $o1ed %a ah&#hi"% ,.. a"d bei"% %a ah&#hed by e. a"d tho so yo&"%. *i$$i"%$y s&#ked y pe%o to its $i3&id #&$ i"atio". 2 ,. sti$$ ref&si"% to do that. or to to&#h 7.(s 3&i *ith her to"%&e. 2 ;hat *ith #o"1ersatio" abo&t f&#ki"% i" %e"era$ 2 of the eroti# #apri#es of e". of o"ey %ai"ed a"d spe"t. se!&a$ i"#ite e"ts. et#. et#. 2 i" *hi#h #o"1ersatio"s the abbess 0oi"ed "o* at ti es 2 *e passed ost 1o$&pt&o&s after"oo"s or e1e"i"%s. 2 7&t the #ost *as hea1y 2 for the abbess( ho&se *as 3&iet a"d e!pe"si1e. a"d #ha pa%"e a"d a se#o"d %ay $ady added &#h to the s& tota$ of the e!pe"ses of eeti"% ,. The abbess *as the ost ki"d$y *o a" of her #$ass I e1er k"e* a"d s&perior to her b&si"ess. her ho&se the "i#est a"d 3&ietest.

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Chapter III O" the Tha es E ba"k e"t. • ) *o a"(s $et#h. • Li$ia" the a#tress. • I"1itatio" to di""er. • I"1itatio" to f&#ki"%. • Ei%ht ho&rs( a &se e"ts. O" a s&"shi"i"% day i" )&%&st that year at abo&t 8IJD p. . I *as passi"% a theatre "ear to the Tha es a"d $oitered to read the pro%ra e. s#ar#e$y a"y peop$e *ere abo&t. O" the foot*ay stood a ta$$ish. dark eyed a"d e!#eedi"%$y ha"dso e *o a". *e$$ dressed a"d $ooki"% abo&t fo&r a"d t*e"ty. ta$ki"% to a short. shabby o$d *o a". the sort of *o a" *ho is fre3&e"t$y the frie"d a"d aid of hi%h #$ass har$ots a"d a#tresses. ofte"ti es i"deed their re$ati1es. I *as 1ery fit that day. *as dressed %ai$y. had had a %ood $&"#heo". *o a"ki"d $ooked $o1e$y i" y eyes. b&t I(d "o i"te"tio" of seeki"% their a#3&ai"ta"#e i" the f$esh. tho y pe%o *as a $itt$e o" the s*e$$ for I(d f&#ked "o o"e re#e"t$y. a"d had had "o "o1e$ty si"#e y ret&r" to E"%$a"d. Fe* peop$e *ere i" Lo"do". Ma"y frai$ $adies *ho #o&$d "ot afford to $ea1e *ere i" to*". their $o1ers *ere abse"t. a"d their #&"ts issed the stret#h a"d $ibatio"s *hi#h they $o1ed. >eop$e at hote$s *ere ha1i"% $&"#heo". Str&#k *ith the $ady I $ooked at her *ith ad iratio". She fi!ed her eyes o" i"e. t&r"i"% her head to*ards e as I approa#hed. a"d t&r"i"% her head ro&"d dire#t$y I had passed to $ook after e. I did the sa e. a"d $ooki"% ha$f o1er y sho&$der o&r eyes a%ai" et. I t&r"ed y head a*ay #o&rteo&s$y. b&t a 1o$&pt&o&s ti"%$e *e"t thro e as I tho&%ht of her #&"t. 2 *hi#h of #o&rse I tho&%ht of. I s$a#ke"ed y pa#e i"1o$&"tari$y. I had "o ob0e#t beyo"d seei"% her bea&ty. a"d *a$ked o" a $itt$e. a"d the" $ooki"% at so e ob0e#t as a" e!#&se t&r"ed ha$f ro&"d to $ook at her. She *as sti$$ $ooki"% after e5 be#ko"ed *ith a toss of her head. a"d the o$d *o a" *e"t off. I"sti"#ti1e$y a"d *itho&t tho&%ht I ret&r"ed. a"d i" a se#o"d *e *ere #$ose to%ether. 4;hat are yo& stari"% at e for. do yo& k"o* e/4 said she *ith a s i$e. 2 4'o 2 be#a&se yo& are so $o1e$y.4 2 She $a&%hed. I $a&%hed. a"d there *as a i"&te(s si$e"#e. 2 She see i"%$y *as *aiti"% for e to ake ad1a"#es. b&t as I did"(t said hesitati"%$y. 4Co e ho e a"d di"e *ith e.4 )*ake"ed f&$$y to the positio". "ot *ishi"% a"y ore $iaiso"s. thi"ki"% that a fi1er if "ot a te""er *o&$d be e!pe#ted. a"d I k"e* "ot *hat e$se. a"d ha1i"% "either o"ey or ti e. 4Sorry I #a"(t I(1e 0&st had $&"#heo".4 2 4So ha1e I. b&t I said di"e.4 2 a"d her fa#e I fa"#ied $ooked $i1i"%$y at e. I *as 4f$& o!ed4 by this 1ery #$ear i"1itatio" to f&#ki"%. a"d as I ha1e a$*ays bee" fra"k *ith *o e". a"d sa* that this *o&$d be a" e"tertai" e"t beyo"d y ea"s. re#o1ered y reaso" *hi#h *as fai$i"% &"der her fas#i"atio". a"d the #ar"a$ ideas a"d #&riosities spri"%i"% &p. a"d aki"% y pe%o thi#ke" a"d e$o"%ate *ith 1o$&pt&o&s thri$$s. I to$d her I *as sorry. *as "either yo&"% "or ri#h. 4So &st"(t tho I $o"%ed for yo& the i"sta"t I sa* yo&.
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2 besides yo&(d be tired of e soo".4 4The" yo& #a" %o.4 2 she $a&%hi"% re6 p$ied. 2 47&t I ha1e"(t t*o so1erei%"s i" y po#ket.4 2 4;e$$. keep the there 2 #o e4 2 $ooki"% i" her s i$i"% fa#e. tho&%hts of her #&"t #a e. y #o#k ere#ted itse$f. 4Is it far/4 2 4O"$y at H H H H H. #o e. I( 1ery $o"e$y.4 ) #ro*d of tho&%hts r&shed thro y brai". +esire for her 2 *as it a trap 2 *as she arried 2 o kept. 2 S&ppose I a #a&%ht 2 has she a $et#h for e/ 2 If so I #a"(t f&#k as &#h as she($$ *a"t5 these 0& b$ed i" y head aki"% e irreso$&te. 2 4)re yo& a" a#6tress/4 2 4Yo&(re #&rio&s.4 2 4Married/4 2 4'o.4 2 4,a1e yo& a frie"d/4 2 4Yo&(re 1ery #&rio&s.4 Sayi"% that she ha$f t&r"ed a*ay. The" desire for her r&shed thro&%h y brai" a"d body 2 I sho&$d $ose her. 2 4Very *e$$.4 2 She $a&%hed. ) %ro*$er passed &s. i"to it *e %ot. a"d i" doi"% so a%ai" I said 4I( a poor a".4 2 4So yo& said.4 The #ab dro1e off. the" I kissed her a"d she e. 2 4Yo& are so $o1e$y.4 2 4+o yo& thi"k so4 The" the #o"1ersatio" stopped. I *o"deri"% ho* the affair *o&$d e"d. Soo" after *e *ere at her ho&se. ) pertish6 a""ered da -e$ ope"ed the door. The di"i"% roo *as ha"dso e$y f&r"ished o" the %ro&"d f$oor. *here for a i"&te the $ady $eft e. The first f$oor to *hi#h I soo" o&"ted *as ha"dso er. a"d I sa* thro a door a0ar a bedroo . thro *hi#h peeped y $ady sayi"% 4I( o"$y #ha"%i"% y dress.4 2 ,er "a e she(d to$d e i" the #ab. I pro ised "ot to re1ea$ it a"d sha$$ #a$$ her Li$ia". tho "either *ord "or $etter e1e" pho"eti#a$$y rese b$e her tr&e "a e. I" fi1e i"&tes she appeared i" a #har i"% s& er(s dress. The" I sa* that she *as o$der tha" I(d tho&%ht. *as perhaps se1e" a"d t*e"ty. The ser1a"t bro&%ht i" #ha pa%"e. i#e. a"d fr&it. She dra"k thirsti$y. I b&t #a&tio&s$y. for I(d dr&"k *e$$ at $&"#heo". I(d "ot take" the s$i%htest $iberty beyo"d kissi"% her *he" i" the #ab. "o* I #$osed to her o" the sofa. e!to$$i"% her bea&ty. sayi"% I(d bee" str&#k *ith it o" the i"sta"t I sa* her a"d a%ai" I kissed. 4;hy did yo& %o a*ay the"/4 2 4I ref$e#ted.4 2 4O" *hat/4 2 4I did"(t k"o* *hat to do. *hat e!a#t$y yo& ea"t. the" y #o#k s&dde"$y stiffe"ed. a"d I *o"dered *hat sort of #&"t yo& had. a"d stopped.4 2 I rep$ied. b&rsti"% o&t i"to $&stf&$ phrases. She fe$$ ba#k o" the sofa s#rea i"% *ith $a&%hter. 2 4Yo& are a ba&dy de1i$. I tho&%ht yo& *ere.4 2 The" *e kissed. a%ai". for the i#e *as broke" a"d I h&%%ed her to e. 4'o* I sha$$ fi"d o&t *hat it(s $ike.4 )s I spoke y fi"%ers *e"t &p her #$othes a"d bet*ee" the $ips of he"d 3&i . She o"$y #$osed her thi%hs as ost *o e" do *he" take" &"a*ares 2 e!#epti"% thoro&%h6pa#ed *hores. Resisti"% s$i%ht$y 2 a ere sha 2 $a&%hi"% a$$ the ti e a"d #a$$i"% e a ba&dy de1i$. I %ot her #$othes 2 "o* o"$y a #he ise a"d the fro#k 2 &p to her thi%hs. sa* the tria"%&$ar bro*" thi#ket. a"d be"di"% kissed "ear to it.
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p&tti"% y f&rthest ha"d ro&"d a de$i#io&s$y soft. #oo$ ha&"#h. She kept her thi%hs #$osed. 2 4Ca"(t yo& *ait/ Ti$$ *e ha1e a %$ass ore *i"e/4 2 7&t I "o* o" the ra . s$id do*" &po" y k"ees. b&ried y "ose a"d o&th. o" thi%hs a"d be$$y. a"d ha"ds p&shed ro&"d her ha&"#hes p&$$ed her to*ards e. S$o*$y her b& #a e to the sofa(s ed%e. S&dde"$y I for#ed her thi%hs apart. y o&th *e"t do*" bet*ee" the as *ith a fi"a$ rapid p&$$ they ope"ed. $ea1i"% her s*eet s$it ready to y $ips *hi#h #o1ered the soft s&rfa#e. a"d as they to&#hed it o&t shot y to"%&e sear#hi"% for her spot of p$eas&re. La&%hi"%. sayi"%. 4'o* do"(t 2 I do"(t $ike that. 2 Oh do"(t 2 yo& beast 2 oho 2 $o#k the door the".4 #a e at $ast as the %a ah&#he a$ready be%a" to tease her. for she *as $e*ed I k"e*. I r&shed a"d $o#ked it. a"d ret&r"i"% fe$$ &po" y k"ees a%ai". She d"dopped her #$othes. sayi"%. 4Co e to the bedroo .4 2 7&t y $et#h *as stro"% o" e. I *as e"a o&red "o* of %a ah&#hi"%. the s#e"t of her s*eet. fresh *ashed #&"t had ro&sed that $et#h a"d I p&shed her ba#k. thre* &p her #$othes to her otte. a"d a%ai" %e"t$y p&$$ed her to*ards e by her ha&"#hes. ,er b& #a e to the sofa(s ed%e. her thi%hs *ide"ed apart e!pe#ta"t of her p$eas&re. "ot a *ord ore she &ttered as I p&shed both ha"ds &"der the $o1e$y *hite #o$& "s ti$$ I he$d her #oo$ i1ory b&tto#ks. The" y to"%&e fo&"d her #$itoris a"d p$ayed *ith it. The" I fe$$ ba#k for a hasty %$a"#e at the rosy sp$it. p&$$ed aside the fat. soft. si$ky ed%ed $ips to see the i""er treas&re. the" %reedi$y a%ai" y o&th #$osed o" its fa#e a"d y to"%&e #aressed the $itt$e red b&tto". the seat of p$eas&re i" this a o&ro&s %a e. ,o* de$i#io&s fe$t the s ooth red ope"i"% as y to"%&e ra" o1er it9 The" sett$i"% o" the rosy b&d it p$ayed a%ai". She fe$t the $&s#io&s ti#k$e dire#t$y. 2 4)her 2 aher.4 she si%hed 3&ite soft$y. +e$i#io&s are the &r &rs of a bea&ty as se!&a$ p$eas&re %ai"s o" her *ith 1o$&pt&o&s thri$$s. a"d her #&"t stiffe"i"% ti%hte"s for a spe"d. a"d the soft e!&datio" #o es fro its s&rfa#e. ready to i"%$e *ith the a"s( sper . as it throbs fro hi i" f&#ki"%. S&dde"$y *ith that si"%&$ar desire to ha1e a$$ the p$eas&res at o"#e. I $o"%ed to f&#k her a"d stopped. b&t restrai"ed yse$f k"o*i"% that soo" y pri#k *o&$d be i" her. 2 )$$ *as si$e"#e as y to"%&e *orked "i b$y. ti$$ 4)her. ,aa.4 2 I dre* ba#k to $ook at the $o1e$y ope"ed #$eft. 2 4Ohoo 2 do"(t stop.4 she &r &red. O" I *e"t $i#ki"%. %raspi"% her b&tto#ks "o* ore f&$$y as she hea1ed the &p to he$p y p$a#i"% the . y to"%&e ra#ed o" yie$di"% its sa$i1a. oiste"i"% her s$it fro otte to b& ho$e 2 %e"t$e si%hs. soft &r &rs #o e. those a"d the p$ash of y to"%&e o" her *et p&$py 1&$1a a$o"e dist&rb the si$e"#e. her #$itoris stiffe"ed. I fe$t it stiffe" &" istakab$y. 2 So e *o e"(s do. She p&t both ha"ds &po" y head p&$$i"% it to her. as if y o&th *as "ot #$ose e"o&%h to her #&"t. her thi%hs be%a" to tre b$e. her #&"t hea1ed &p a%ai"st y o&th. 4)herr 2aha 2 aher 2 dar$i"% 2 aher.4 She had spe"t. ;ith o&sta#he drippi"%. I $ooked at her oiste"ed "ot#h "o* sheddi"% its 0&i#es. as she $ay *ith eyes #$osed a"d thi%hs apart. The" sta"di"% &p a"d
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p&$$i"% o&t y throbbi"% pro#rea"t too$. 4Let e f&#k dar$i"%.4 7e"di"% I #$osed o" her. y pri#k *as *ithi" a" i"#h of its %oa$. *he" she #$osed her thi%hs. p&shed e a*ay a"d %ot &p s i$i"% at y ere#tio". 2 4'o 2 *ait. yo& de1i$ 2 yo& k"o* ho* to %a ah&#he.4 2 a"d kissi"% e $aid ho$d of y #&"t stopper %i1i"% it a %e"t$e s3&ee-e 4Oh 2 oh 2 it(s stiff.4 2 7&t she ref&sed y e"try. *e sipped the #oo$ #ha pa%"e a"d ta$ked. a"d y dood$e shr&"k so e*hat. *hat as it does at ti es *he" de$ayed i" doi"% i" its *ork. )bo&t se!&a$ p$eas&res ra" o&r ta$k a"d I asto"ished her. She said I *as 4) ba&dy prof$i%ate.4 2 ;e *ere kissi"% 3&iet$y. she ha"d$i"% y f$a i"% pe%o. I her $&bri#io&s %ap. ;hat b$issf&$ o e"ts those. ho* $itt$e said 2 ho* $o* the to"e9 The" I ro&sed her $&st. she $apsed i"to si$e"#e *ith the 1o$&pt&o&s #&rre"ts i" her b$ood y fi"%ers %e"erated. 4Let(s f&#k or I sha$$ spe"d.4 Si$e"t$y she arose at o"#e a"d *e *e"t to the bedroo . There fi$$ed *ith desire for ea#h other. i" a i"&te I stripped to y shirt. she to #he ise. a"d po&red o&t *ater i" a basi". 2 4'o dear do"(t *ash yo&r #&"t.4 2 4Oh fie 2 I &st. its *et.4 2 4'o. "o. I $ike yo&r sp&"k i" it.4 2 4Oh fie.4 2 I p&$$ed her &p ere she #o&$d sp$ash the orifi#e 2 4I $ike it *et.4 2 4Oh fie4 2 The" o" the bed. ad for ea#h other(s p$eas&re %i1er. for the e"tra"#i"% 0&"#tio" of the t*o. 2 for the f&#k 2 &p *e"t y shirt to "e#k. &p *e"t her #he ise abo1e t*o $o1e$y %$obes. a"d &p her #&"t I r&shed y pri#k. 2 4Oh "ot so hard.4 2 )"d *e *ere o"e a"d $ay e"tra"#ed i" the $o1e$y 0&"#tio" of o&r %e"ita$s. I p&t y fi"%er do*" to fee$ the soft $ips of her "ot#h e"#$osi"% %e"t$y y pe%o. the" i" her soft a"d %$o*i"% $&bri#io&s sheath &p a"d do*" o1ed y pri#k. 2 4)her 2 $o1e 2 f&#k.4 2 I &r &red. 2 4Yhes. f&#k e dar$i"%.4 she rep$ied. The b$issf&$ o e"t #a e. I fe$t the #o"tra#tio"s of her #&"t. the 0erks of her i1ory b&tto#ks. the" be$$y to be$$y. *ri%%$i"% y pri#k *ith short thr&sts as if y ba$$s *o&$d ro$$ i"to her #&"t. y $o1e shaft pe"etrate to her *o b. o&t throbbed thi#k. boi$i"% sp&"k i" torre"ts i"to her. a"d *ith to"%&es to&#hi"%. sa$i1as f$o*i"%. idst kisses a"d $o1i"% &r &rs. %raspi"% ea#h other arses. *e do-ed off i"to the E$ysi& of h& a"ity. )*ake"i"% soo". y pri#k had bare$y $eft the s*eet e bra#e of her se!. *he" pear$y drops of sp&"k *ere tri#k$i"% do*" bet*ee" her thi%hs. ha"%i"% to the soft a&b&r" #&r$s. She $ay $a"%&id$y per itti"% a$$. ti$$ I thr&st a fi"%er &p the red a1e"&e i"to the e o$$ie"t %$&ti"o&s o&t#o e of o&r p$eas&res. 2 4)ha. yo& 6beast.4 said she risi"%. The" o" the por#e$ai" she s3&atted. a"d ba&dy sti$$. I to$d her I $o1ed both the so&"d a"d the attit&de. p&t y ha"d do*" a"d #a&%ht a" a ber strea . The" *e p&rified o&r %e"ita$s. a"d fresh. a"d %ay. a"d $o1i"% ore tha" e1er. *e"t ba#k to #ha pa%"e. The" soo" a%ai" ba#k to the bed. *here tra"3&i$ "o* I $ooked at her se#ret #har s. ,o* p$eased she see ed to $et e. She had a $o1e$y bro*" head of hair. a"d her eyes *ere of a" &"&s&a$$y deep b$&e 2 I had tho&%ht the dark bro*" *he" first I "oti#ed her 2 a"d *ith
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the $o1e$iest $o"% eye$ashes. s a$$ish "ose. a"d %ood teeth tho i" a $ar%e o&th. #o p$eted o"e of the s*eetest. yet bo$dish fa#es. 7&t as I fo&"d i" the de$i%hts of $o1e. that bo$d"ess #ha"%ed to the softest. ost 1o$&pt&o&s e!pressio". She *as o"e of those *ho $ooked hea1e"$y *he" bei"% f&#ked. She *as ta$$ish a"d i"#$i"i"% to be sto&t. the #&r1es a"d #o"to&rs fro hips to feet *ere $o1e$y. her b& of perfe#t shape a"d bea&ty. her breasts $ar%e a"d s$i%ht$y pe"da"t. Taki"% her a$$ i" a$$ she *as perfe#t. ;e$$ i%ht the p&b$i# ha1e thro"%ed to see her. ,er #&"t *as o1ershado*ed by a sp$e"did soft #&r$y b&sh of $i%htish #hest"&t o" a f&$$ p$& p otte. fro *hi#h ope"ed o"e of the prettiest. f&$$ $ipped po&ti"% #$efts redde"i"% i"*ards to a$ ost a r&by o"e $i"e. a"d de$i#ate$y fri"%ed *ith hair *hi#h stopped short of its $o*er e"d. her b& ho$e *as hair$ess. The "y phae *ere s a$$ a"d de$i#ate. the #$itoris $o"%ish a"d easi$y see". a"d a$$ *as of ha"dso e a"d of deepest #ora$ ti"t. She had a ski" of that s&rprisi"% *hite"ess *hi#h is rare$y fo&"d e!#epti"% a o"% red haired *o e". It s e$t fresh a"d s*eet $ike a$ o"ds. I" the e!#iti"% i"spe#tio" I "o* "oti#ed this. a"d at o"#e be%a" a%ai" kissi"% her thi%hs. &p to her #e"tra$ #har . a"d as I ope"ed the $o1e$y "ot#h a"d fi"%ered it the aro a rose i"to y "ostri$s a"d I $o"%ed to %a ah&#he her. 2 My $o1e of $i#ki"% a *o a" i"#reases $ar%e$y. a"d is "o* o"e of the %reatest p$eas&res of y $ife. 2 4;hat a de$i#io&s s e$$ yo&r #&"t has. Let e $i#k the $o1e$y #$eft a%ai".4 ,er thi%hs *ide"ed apart. she yie$ded *ith e!pe#ta"t p$eas&re. y o&th #$ose o" her %ap. y to"%&e %ai"ed her #$itoris a"d o1ed ti$$ her thi%hs 3&i1ered *ith p$eas&re. a"d the" I stopped. 2 4Oh 2 %o o".4 7&t a"other $et#h #a e o". 4I($$ $ay a"d %a ah&#he yo&.4 2 Mo&"ti"% the bed she ade *ay for e. 2 I t&r"ed her o" her side. $aid y head a%ai"st o"e thi%h a"d $ifti"% the other &p 2 ho* 3&iet$y she aided e 2 i"serted y to"%&e. titi$$ated the" stopped a%ai" to tease her. the" asked her to take y pe%o i"to her pretty o&th. 2 4)h. "o I *o"(t.4 O" I *e"t %a ah&#hi"% a"d a%ai" stopped. 2 4Oho 2 %o o" 2 yo&($$ dri1e e ad. I *as 0&st #o i"%.4 2 4Take the tip i" yo&r o&th the".4 2 7$a-i"% *ith se"s&a$ passio" she o1ed her head a"d took it. 2 I fe$t the #&"t $ike fee$ o" its tip as she #$asped e to her by y b&tto#ks. )%ai" y o&th #$osed o" her $&s#io&s %ap $i#ki"% her #$itoris "i b$y. spas odi# t*it#hi"%s of her b& a"d #&"t #a e o". she si%hed. she &r &red. 4Oho 2 3&i#ker.4 2 ) sh&dder of her be$$y. a press&re of he"d #&"t to y o&th. a #ry of p$eas&re a"d the deed *as do"e. She(d re$i"3&ished y pri#k as her spe"di"% #a e o" <they a$$ do so at that s&pre e o e"t= $ea1i"% it p&$sati"%. red hot. r&by tipped. b&rsti"%. a$ ost ready to i"&"date her. as I rose a"d p&shed her o" to her ba#k. *i$d to sheathe it i" her %$o*i"% $&bri#io&s a1e"&e. 7&t she ro$$ed off o" the other side of the bed $a&%hi"% a"d ref&si"% e. 2 4'ot yet 2 *ait a bit.4 2 She %&essed perhaps that y f&#ki"% po*er *as $i ited. y %a ah&#hi"% &"$i ited.

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I"to the sitti"% roo I fo$$o*ed he"d. a"other bott$e of #ha pa%"e *as bro&%ht 2 both of &s %ot f&dd$ed. the" ba#k to bed. 2 4Let(s be 3&ite "aked.4 2 4)$$ ri%ht.4 2 She *as ba&dy "o*. ready for a"ythi"%. 4I($$ p&$$ yo&r boots off.4 2 4)$$ ri%ht.4 2 Layi"% *ith her ba#k o" the bed I p&$$ed a$$ off. $ifti"% &p her $e%s i" doi"% it. to see her #&"t. $a&%hi"% a"d ta$ki"% abo&t it a$$ the ti e. )%ai" she pissed. y ha"d be"eath the strea . the" both start "aked o&"ted the bed. )%ai" a pre$i i"ary %a ah&#he. y pe%o for a i"&te bet*ee" her $ips. the" *ith a sheet o1er &s. "aked. side by side *e fe$t ea#h other(s f$esh. o&r ha"ds ro1ed e1ery6*here *ith a oro&s de$i%ht. ti$$ o&r fi"%ers sett$ed o" pri#k a"d #&"t. The" o&"ti"% her. #$aspi"% ea#h other(s b&tto#ks. *ith kisses. to"%&e to to"%&e. a%ai" *e f&#ked i" hea1e"$y tra"sports a"d the" fe$$ fast as$eep. It *as ha$f past fi1e *he" *e a*ake"ed. >&tti"% o" her %o*". 2 4I &st %i1e orders abo&t di""er4 3&oth she. 2 4I #a""ot stay.4 2 4Yo& &st.4 2 )" ho&r *as spe"t part$y i" bed y fi"%ers sear#hi"% her %$&ti"o&s %ap. a"d she ha"d$i"% e fro s#rot& to %$a"d. 2 ;e the" dressed. had a "i#e di""er. a"d a%ai" *e"t to bed. I %a ah&#hed her ti$$ she *as e!ha&sted. the" f&#ked her a%ai". fi"ished yse$f a"d $eft. 2 Ei%ht ho&rs of ost de$i#io&s 1aried #o pa"io"ship had bee" i"e. 7efore I $eft the o"ey a%ai" a""oyed e. ;as it possib$e that this $o1e$y *o a" had si p$y a $et#h for e/ I tho&%ht. 2 4Ca" I b&y yo& a"ythi"% dear. are yo& short of #ash/4 2 I sta ered. 2 4'o. 7ri"% e so e f$o*ers to orro*4 2 kissi"% e 2 I did so "e!t e1e"i"% *hi#h I spe"t i" %a ah&#hi"% her &#h a"d f&#ki"% her a $itt$e. 7&t she *as satisfied a"d pressed e to see her a%ai". 2 4)s a frie"d.4 2 said she *ith e phasis. I &st abbre1iate the rest. 2 That "i%ht *e ta$ked abo&t o&rse$1es. 4;ho a"d *hat *as I/4 2 4I sha$$ o"$y te$$ yo& $ies if yo& ask e.4 2 4Te$$ a*ay.4 2 a"d I to$d $ies. 2 She *as a" a#tress. I had see" her o" the sta%e. 2 I" a fe* days she *as %oi"% to ) eri#a. She(d had a 3&arre$ *ith her $o1er *ho had kept her 2 tho she %ai"ed a %ood i"#o e 2 a"d he(d $eft her a *eek a%o. The ho&se a"d f&r"it&re had bee" %i1e" her by hi . Si"#e he(d $eft she(d "ot bee" f&#ked. 2 4'o. a"d yo& are *ro"%. I ha1e"(t. I ha1e"(t &sed y fi"%er.4 4'o *o"der that the $&s#io&s. hot b$ooded $ady *a"ted a f&#k. *he" the $&#ky #ha"#e for e thre* her i" y *ay a"d I be#a e her se"s&a$ fa"#y. 2 4Yo&(re a $o1e$y bedfe$$o*.4 said I. 2 4)"d yo& are the sa e. I *ish *e #o&$d be $o1ers b&t yo& say its i possib$e.4 2 Three years after*ards sa* her a%ai" o" the sta%e i" Lo"do". b&t *e ha1e "e1er et si"#e Eshe after*ards arried I be$ie1e. a"d disappeared #ertai"$y.F

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Chapter IV )" id$e day i" the o&ter s&b&rbs. • 7read a"d #heese at the p&b$i# ho&se. • The sho* a"(s da&%hter Git. • O" the road. • )%ai"st a fie$d %atepost. • O" stra* i" a #a$f shed. • I" a bar". • ) ast&rbati"% i$$er(s boy. • Epito e of 1o$&pt&o&s a &se e"ts *ith ,. • ) fe a$e trio a"d yse$f. • Cop&$atio". for"i#atio". irr& i"atio". • 7& 6di%itatio". #&""ito"%&i"%. a"d #&""i6di$doi"%. Later o" this year #a e other $&#k for e. 2 O" a &%%y isty or"i"% to*ards the e"d of O#tober. I *as at a sessio"s ho&se at the e!tre e east of Lo"do". ha1i"% to y a""oya"#e bee" s& o"ed as *it"ess i" a#tio" of a frie"d of i"e. a%ai"st a far er *hose #art had da a%ed his #arria%e *he" dri1i"% e. O" arri1i"% I fo&"d to y f&rther a""oya"#e that the tria$ *as postpo"ed. This i"for atio" se"t had "e1er rea#hed e. It *as "ear a poor 1i$$a%e. a #o&p$e of i$es fro the Tha es i" a" a%ri#&$t&ra$ distri#t. ,a1i"% "othi"% to do a"d "ot ha1i"% e1er see" the "ei%hbo&rhood. I stro$$ed abo&t. *e"t i"to the #h&r#h a"d so o". The" fee$i"% h&"%ry 2 ha1i"% $eft ho e ear$y 2 e"tered a s a$$ p&b$i# ho&se. i" fro"t of *hi#h stood three or fo&r sho* a"(s 1a"s. I"side at the bar *ere the sho* a" a"d *ife dri"ki"% beer a"d s oki"%. a"d a fi"e. strappi"%. $i%ht haired f$orid fa#ed %ir$ of abo&t se1e"6tee" 2 e1ide"t$y a da&%hter 2 to%ether *ith a &#h yo&"%er %ir$. I *as a &sed at heari"% the ta$k abo&t a fair they *ere %oi"% to. a"d of 4@a#k4 *ho they *ere *aiti"% for. *ho had %o"e so e*here to b&y a do"key. 2 4I sha"(t *ait &#h $o"%er. it o&%ht to a bi" here afore &s. 2 Yo&(d better *ait Git. %ie hi a"other ho&r. a"d the" #o e o" if he do"(t t&r" &p 2 $ea1e *ord. he($$ k"o* *here to fi"d &s to"i%ht. yo&($$ #at#h &s &p before *e %ets to H H H. *e($$ stop t*o ho&rs there a"d %r&b.4 I had ordered bread. a"d #heese a"d a$e. thi"%s so e6ti es %ood fro a s a$$ #o&"try bre*er e1e" at a 1i$$a%e p&b$i# ho&se. a"d that food I $ike. They had a$so a or"i"%(s paper *ith *hi#h a"d the food I sat i" the par$or *hi#h *as at o"e e"d of a $o"% bar #o&"ter. a tap roo bei"% at the other e"d. The doors of both *ere *ide ope" 2 I(d seated yse$f there *ith y ba#k to the street *i"do*. to read better. a"d a$so be6#a&se the door bei"% *ide ope". it a &sed e to hear the $o&d #hatter of the sho* a" a"d fa i$y. as *e$$ as to $ook at the da&%hter. *hose st&rdy $e%s a"d *e$$ fed. bro"-ed. b&t ha"dso e fa#e had ade e spe#&$ate &po" the bea&ty of her hidde" #har s. The" y #o#k be%a" to s*e$$. as she t&r"ed to*ards the other. stooped. a"d by her o1e e"ts I sa* p$ai"$y she *as tyi"% her %arters. There *as "o o"e to see b&t e a"d her pare"ts. so there *as "o har . 7&t *o e" of that #$ass thi"k "othi"% of tyi"% &p their %a"dters i" p&b$i#. si p$y t&r"i"% a*ay a $itt$e fro those "ear the . The e!pos&re of a %ood $e% is to e a$*ays e!#iti"%. I thi"k of the *o a"(s #&"t dire#t$y. a"d did so "o*.
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;hi$st eati"% a"d readi"% a"d e1ery "o* a"d the" $ooki"% a$o"% the bar. the sho* a" said a%ai". 4+a "ed if I *astes ti e a"y $o"%er. *ait for @a#k a" ho&r. i"d.4 The" he. *ife a"d #hi$d $eft. 4:o a"d sit do*" Miss.4 said the $a"d$ord at the bar. The %ir$ o1ed strai%ht to the par$or. 2 4'ot there.4 sho&ted the $a"d$ord. 4that(s the par$or. to the side.4 7&t the %ir$ *as *e$$ i" the roo as he spoke. 2 4'e1er i"d. sit do*" Miss. I( %oi"% dire#t$y.4 2 4Tha"kee sir.4 a"d she sat do*" $ooki"% p$eased. 2 The bar a" #a e. apo$o%eti#a$$y to o&st her. b&t I said the %ir$ i%ht re ai". that I *as %oi"% soo". so he departed. I" a i"&te *e had #o e"#ed ta$ki"%. soo" after she *as partaki"% of bread. #heese a"d bott$ed a$e *hi#h I ordered free$y a"d I *as $ooki"% at her hea$thy ha"d6so e fa#e. sei-ed *ith *hat is #o eti es #a$$ed 4a si"f&$ $&st of the f$esh.4 My #o#k rose &p pro pti"% e so that I *as ob$i%ed to p&sh it i"to a #o"1e"ie"t positio" bet*ee" y tro*sers a"d be$$y. 2 'o o"e #a e i". for it *as "ot the ti e of day for par$or #&sto ers. *ho are the e1e"i"% topers i" a 1i$$a%e. ;as the a$e %ood/ 4)i"(t it 0&st. ;e dri"ks fo&r6pe""y. 2 +ad dri"ks beer.4 2 She *as de$i%hted at ta$ki"% to a %e"t$e a" a"d fed herse$f *ith freedo a"d the &tter abse"#e of that i$$ at ease. *hi#h I(1e so ofte" fo&"d *ith ser1a"ts *ho I ha1e take" to di"e or s&p. She to$d e a$$ abo&t the sho*. she s$ept i" the $ast *a%o" *ith her sister. 2 4Mother a"d +ad i" the other. 2 It(s the bi%%est.4 2 4)"d do"(t brother @a#k s$eep *ith yo&/4 2 ,er r&ddy fa#e %re* r&ddier. she *as #o"f&sed. 2 4Co&rse "ot. 2 there ai"(t "o roo ti$$ *e are at fairs.4 2 The" I heard that @a#k *as"(t her brother. )"other bott$e of a$e ope"ed her o&th ore. a"d ade e thi"k ho* I #o&$d a"a%e to ope" her $o*er o&th. I heard that @a#k *as a sort of part"er. *as her #o&si" 2 $ooked after the horses 2 *e"t a*ay the day before to b&y a do"key. They *o"dered *hy he had"(t arri1ed. b&t so eti es he *as a*ay "ear$y a *eek *he" they(d b&si"ess. 2 4@a#k(s yo&r s*eetheart.4 2 4;e$$ *hat if he be/4 4,e s$eeps *ith yo& *he" yo&(re at fairs. 2 4,e do"(t4 2 4,e does 2 4,e do"(t4 2 4,e does. 2 4;e$$ *hat if he do. *e(re a%oi" to arry a"d +ad k"o*" o" it/4 )t $e"%th she said. b&rsti"% o&t $a&%hi"%. :e"era$$y if a$o"e *ith a *o a" I %et so e fa#ts fro her. 4I *ish I *as @a#k. I(d arry yo&.4 2 4Oh ai"(t yer a $yi"% stiff.4 said she $a&%hi"% hearti$y. 4;here(s yo&r "e!t fair I($$ #o e a"d s$eep *ith yo&.4 2 4Oh ai"(t yer a #haffi"%. I &st %o.4 2 4'o. %i1e e a kiss.4 2 4Sha"(t. I &st %o.4 2 4+a "ed if I *o&$d"(t %i1e a so1erei%" to s$eep *ith yo&.4 I b$&rted o&t. ready a$ ost to ra1ish her. 2 4'o. "o"e a that sir p$ease4 as I atte pted a fee$. after a kiss *hi#h she $et e take. The" she %a1e e a s&dde" p&sh 2 ) 1ery stro"% o"e 2 a"d $a&%hi"% %ot o&t the door. 2 4Look.4 said I. ra"dy ad a"d p&ffi"% o&t y f$a i"% stiff pe%o. 2 4Oh 2 ai"(t yo& o"e.4 2 She *a$ked to the bar. b&t $ooked at y #&"t ra er $o"%. a"d $a&%hed before she *e"t. I fe$t s&re I(d ade her $e*ed. Refreshed a"d ea"i"% to ha1e a $ook at the #o&"try. I paid a"d departed. *i"ki"% at the %ir$. she s i$i"% i" ret&r". i" the *ay *o e" do *he" %ratified
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by $e*ed ta$k a"d si%ht of a stiff pri#k. 2 E1ery *o a" is rea$$y %ratified by a a"(s desiri"% to f&#k her. *hether the desire be de$i#ate$y i p$ied. or 3&ite #oarse$y e!6pressed. 2 4:ood or"i"% Miss.4 said I ost po$ite$y. 4:ood or"i"% Sir.4 a"d I passed o&t. I stro$$ed a$o"% a #o&"try road. f$at fie$ds *ith $ar%e dit#hes a"d bi% &"#&t hed%es i" ea#h side. e"#$osi"% $ar%e spa#es of "aked arab$e $a"d *ith o##asio"a$ past&ra%e as far as I #o&$d see. )t $o"% dista"#es apart. *as a poor #otta%e or t*o to%ether. at p$a#es here a"d there a shabby far ho&se or bar". S#ar#e$y a $aborer o" the road a"d a #art 1isib$e abo&t e1ery fi1e i"&tes. ) d&$$er distri#t I ha1e rare$y see". it *as d&$$"ess itse$f. 'ot a breath of *i"d. ade a r&st$e i" tree or hed%e. a$$ *as si$e"t. o&r"f&$. yet the "o1e$ty p$eased e. a"d o" I stro$$ed s oki"%. so eti es si"%i"% a"d stoppi"% e1ery "o* a"d the". )t $ast I asked of a #ha"#e $aborer the dista"#e to H H H H. ) 3&i#k tra p a"d hea1y footsteps i" the dista"#e str&#k y ear5 footsteps as of so e o"e *a$ki"% &#h 3&i#ker tha" yse$f. 'earer a"d "earer they #a e a"d o" t&r"i"% ro&"d. there *as the sho* a"(s da&%hter. She s i$ed a$$ o1er her fa#e a"d so did I 2 4;hat yo&. Miss. *here(s @a#k/4 *ere y first *ords. 2 4Oh 2 he ai"(t t&r"ed &p.4 2 4Yo&($$ ha1e "o bed6 fe$$o* 2 yo&($$ be #o$d.4 2 4Sha"(t.4 2 she rep$ied $a&%hi"%. 2 4I($$ s$eep *ith yo&.4 2 4;i$$ yo& "o*. ai"(t yer ki"d/4 *ith a %ood h& o&red s"eer. 4Yes. a"d I($$ %i1e yo& a "e* dress.4 2 4Oh 2 $or 2 *ho(d a tho&%ht it/4 a"d she $a&%hed hearti$y. as I did. There *as a 0oki"%. yet 1o$&pt&o&s t*i"k$e i" her eyes *hi#h ade e fee$ s&re she fe$t $e*ed. 2 4Yes a"d *o&$d %i1e it to ha1e yo& te" i"&tes a$o"e.4 2 4Oh ai"(t yer %e"ero&s.4 2 4Yes a"d I($$ %i1e yo& this for "othi"%.4 poi"ti"% to y pri#k 2 at *hi#h she roared. 4+o"(t *a$k so 3&i#k I sha$$ $ose that pretty fa#e too soo".4 2 4I &st #at#h e &p.4 2 4Yo&($$ *ear yo&r boots o&t a"d it(s %oi"% to rai". ,o* I *ish I *ere yo&r boots.4 2 4My boots/4 $ooki"% 3&ite asto"ished. 2 4Yes. the" I $ook &p a"d see *hat I( dyi"% to see. $et e.4 2 4Sha"(t. yo& beast4 2 a"d a%ai" she $a&%hed. repeati"% 4 y boots 2 ha 2 ha 2 ha y 2 boots.4 2 T*o or three i"&tes ore ba&dy #haff. a"d I(d take" ha$f a do-e" kisses. Chaffi"% o" ore broad$y sti$$ had ade her 3&i ti"%$e. for she "o* #haffed de$i#ate$y i" ret&r". as *e *a$ked s$o*er a$o"% $ooki"% i"to ea#h other(s fa#es. 2 ;e heard a $o&d #ra#k of a *hip. a"d a a$e 1oi#e $o&d$y e"#o&ra%i"% a horse. the hed%es *ere thi#k a"d hi%h *ith their s& er(s %ro*th a"d hi"dered o&r seei"%. 4They(re a %i1i" it hot.4 said she. ) fie$d %ate *as "ear. *e *e"t to it. a"d sa* a" e!#a1atio" i" the fie$d. i"to *hi#h appare"t$y a #art had s$id a"d partia$$y the horse *hi#h a a" *as f$o%%i"% to ake it p&$$ o&t a"d *hi#h *ith 1io$e"t str&%%$es it did. Sta"di"% #$ose to%ether there I p&t y ar ro&"d her *aist. 4)d&" "o*.4 2 b&t she s&b itted to a do-e" kisses a"d %a1e o"e i" ret&r". The" i"f$a ed by h&%%i"% her p$& p for . I p&t y ha"d o&tside her #$othes a"d t&#ked the a%ai"st her #&"t. 4I(1e had it stiff e1er si"#e I sa* yo& 2 $et &s.4 2 4)d&" "o* I sha"(t4 2 b&t she did"(t o1e fro
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the %ate. The a" a"d #art had disappeared. the hed%e hid &s partia$$y. a"d sti$$ I stood kissi"%. be%%i"% her to $et e. she sayi"% 4I *o"(t. yo& sha"(t4 b&t "ot o1i"%. 2 4I($$ %i1e yo& a #o&p$e of so1erei%"s.4 I *o&$d ha1e %i1e" her ore for I *as ad *ith $&st. 2 To that she ade "o rep$y. 2 :o$d. o "ipote"t :o$d9 9 The" as I a$*ays do. a$*ays did 2 I *o"der if a$$ e" do 2 p&$$ed o&t y pri#k a"d for#ed her ha"d to it. 4There(s so e o"e(s #o i"% 2 hide it.4 2 said she s#ared. S&re e"o&%h there *as the tra p of feet a"d soo" a #o&p$e of far $aborers #a e by &s. *hi$st *e stood %a-i"% o1er the %ate. ti$$ they *ere $ost i" the dista"#e. )%ai" I sho*ed it a"d she odest$y sha e6fa#ed$y fe$t it b&t sayi"%. 2 4I sha"(t.4 2 I(d 0&st %ot y ha"d bet*ee" her thi%hs. *he". 4+o"(t. there(s a #arria%e #o i"%.4 She *as ri%ht. a"d a%ai" y a#hi"e *as hidde". 2 )" ope" #arria%e *ith $adies i" it ro$$ed past. the o"$y %e"tee$ 1ehi#$e I(d see". )%ai" I kissed. a%ai" p&$$ed o&t y too$. 4If yo& do"(t $et e I sha$$ spe"d4 2 4I *o"(t 2 *e #a"(t here 2 I sha"(t.4 4;e #a" 2 o"$y $et e fee$ it "i#e$y dar$i"%.4 'e!t i"&te y fi"%ers *ere o" her #$itoris. 4'o 2 oho 2 "o. *e($$ be #a&%ht 2 so e o"e *i$$ be a #o i" by.4 2 I *as fri%%i"% her hard. y pri#k sta"di"% o&t a"d throbbi"%. she dyi"% to be f&#ked. S&re "o* of ha1i"% her. #ertai" that her #&"t *as thirsti"% for y sp&"k. 3&i#k$y I stepped o&t i"to the $o"% strai%ht road a"d "ot a so&$ #o&$d be see". 7a#k i"sta"t$y. 4'o o"e(s abo&t.4 2 4I *o"(t there4 2 b&t I p&shed her %e"t$y *itho&t resista"#e. for she *a"ted a f&#k 2 *ith her ba#k a%ai"st the %atepost. *here the %ro&"d *as hi%her tha" i" the #e"tre of the %ate*ay. She *as shortish. the hed%e %ro*" &"#&t ro&"d the post hid &s *e$$ 2 a"d i" a i"&te y pri#k *as &p her. She *as yo&"%. stro"% a"d $e*ed. y ba$$o#ks *ere f&$$. a"d i" three or fo&r i"&tes her #&"t had a$$ I #o&$d %i1e. ;e re1e$$ed i" the #o"0&"#tio" $o"% after6*ards. I ho$di"% her ro&"d her so$id "aked b&tto#ks. she ti%hte"i"% e to her by y *aist after she(d spe"t. ;e *e"t o" kissi"%. y #o#k sti$$ $i"%eri"% i" her. ti$$ she. 4There(s a a" #o i"%.4 2 ;e both $iste"ed. pri#k a"d #&"t sti$$ 0oi"ed. 2 4I thi"k it(s @a#k 2 it is. 2 Oh. do"(t $et hi see yo&.4 2 O&t #a e y pri#k. do*" dropped her petti#oats. she *e"t i"to the road a"d *a$ked o". I %ot o1er the %ate a"d hid behi"d the hed%e. y pri#k ha"%i"% o&t. I did"(t *a"t a s#e"e. ) a" passed by *ith 3&i#kish hea1y footsteps. the" o1er the %ate I %ot a"d peepi"% ro&"d the hed%e sa* hi ahead of her. a"d she s3&atti"% a"d pidd$i"% "ear the dit#h. 2 It *as"(t @a#k. I 0oi"ed her. 2 4I *as i" a ste*.4 said she. 2 4Yo&(1e *ashed yo&r #&"t.4 2 4I ai"(t %ot "o *ater.4 2 4Yo&(1e pidd$ed. $et(s fee$.4 2 she *o&$d"(t $et e. 2 O" *e *a$ked ta$ki"% ba&di$y as I #o&$d. de$i%hted i" doi"% so. she $iste"i"%. at ti es $a&%hi"%. for "ear$y a" ho&r. ti$$ i" the $o"% dista"#e I sa* ho&ses a"d s oke. 2 4That(s *here +ad stops.4
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2 4Let(s do it a%ai".4 2 4;e #a"(t "o*.4 2 said she. $ooki"% at e as if she *ished *e #o&$d. More peop$e 2 a$$ far peop$e see i"%$y passed a"d "o* appeared to $ook at &s ore #&rio&s$y. It(s "ot ofte" that a %e"t$e6 a" a"d a st&rdy sho* a"(s *o a" are see" *a$ki"% to%ether a$o"% a hi%h road. 7&t I had "o ta$$ si$k hat o". a hat *hi#h de#$ares #$ass ore tha" a"y other part of a a"(s habi$i e"ts. ;e da*d$ed. I pressed her to f&#k. She feared. said it *as i possib$e. a"d *e t&r"ed to a"other fie$d %ate. I" the fie$d it ope"ed o"to there *as past&ra%es a"d #o*s abo&t tho "ot i" that fie$d. ) $itt$e *ay ba#k by a hed%e i" the fie$d *as a *oode" shed ha$f ope" b&t *ith a %ate. a ro&%h p$a#e $ooki"% as if b&i$t for sheep by $aborers. "ot by #arpe"ters. Thi"ki"% it i%ht s&it o&r a atory *a"ts. I %ot o1er the %ate 2 for this %ate a$so *as $o#ked 2 a"d ope"ed the %ate of the shed *hi#h *as faste"ed by a ro&%h $at#h. I" it *as a %ri"dsto"e a"d a h&%e ro$$er. )" i""er %ate she*ed stra*. I ope"ed that a"d o&t r&shed a #a$f "ear$y k"o#ki"% e o1er. *hi#h $i ped far a*ay. for it *as $a e a"d 3&i#k$y *e"t to*ards a hed%e *here *ere #o*s i" a fie$d beyo"d. It start$ed e as I ope"ed the door. Seei"% that *e #o&$d f&#k there &"obser1ed. I stepped o&t a"d be#ko"ed her. ;ith the a%i$ity of a boy she #$i bed the %ate. she*i"% her p$& p $e%s a"d dirty petti#oats. a"d i" a i"&te *as i" the shed. Feari"% the a"i a$ had soi$ed its bed. I thre* do*" so e #$ea" stra* *hi#h *as i" a #or"er i" the e"tra"#e di1isio". she $aid do*" at o"#e 3&ite ready. a"d I thre* &p her petti#oats 2 the o"$y thi"% she ob0e#ted to a"d *o&$d"(t ha1e b&t sa* fat thi%hs. a $itt$e $i%ht hair o" a fat otte. a"d the e1er adorab$e sp$it i" her be$$y. The" I p&$$ed ope" her $e%s. 2 4'o* do"(t do that.4 2 I i"sisted a"d fe$t her #&"t sti$$ soft a"d $&bri#ated *ith y spe"d . a"d "e!t i"&te *e *ere f&#ki"%. I *ith the p$eas&re *hi#h "o1e$ty a"d a pretty yo&"% ra"dy #&"t %i1es e. 2 4Liste".4 said she stoppi"% y thr&sts a"d "ear$y &"#&"ti"% e. 7&t there *as "o o"e. *e had $eft the doors ope" p&rpose$y 2 I *as 0&st spe"di"%. 47e 3&i#k. I( so fri%hte"ed.4 2 4+o yo& *a"t it/4 2 4Yes. be 3&i#k. I($$ do it soo"4 2 a"d i" a"other i"&te her #&"t stood <as so e Fre"#h *o e" say= %a1e %ri"d a"d s&#tio" to y pri#k. o&t throbbed its &#i$a%e. a"d her #&"t %rippi"% e!&ded its 0&i#es. T*o i"&tes after she *as ba#k o1er the %ate. a"d after ha1i"% #$osed the shed door I fo$$o*ed her. 2 4+o"(t $et &s %o to H H H H to%ether.4 said she. 2 4+ad(s there.4 2 4)$$ ri%ht. here are t*o so1erei%"s.4 She $ooked at the *istf&$$y. the" a"%ri$y. 2 4I k"o* *hat yer thi"ks e b&t I ai"(t.4 2 4I k"o* that b&t take it.4 2 4Tha"k yo&.4 2 taki"% it she spat o" it. 2 4,o* o$d are yo&/4 2 4@&st t&r"ed se1e"tee".4 she(d said it before. 2 4,o* $o"% has @a#k f&#ked yo&/4 2 She #o$ored &p. 2 4@&st a year a%o o" y birthday.4 4,e *o"(t arry yo&.4 2 4Yes he *i$$ at Christ as. a"d I hope yo& ai"(t fi$$ed e.4 )fter o&r first #o&p$i"% she $et e say a"ythi"% ba&dy. a"d I re1e$$ed i" it b&t she *as"(t a bit ba&dy herse$f. 2 I

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*o&$d fee$ her #&"t a%ai". 2 4+o"(t. y thi%hs are *et.4 2 The" she started off a$o"e. I $oitered ti$$ she *as *e$$ o&t of si%ht. the" started o" to the 1i$$a%e *here *ere the sho* 1a"s. a"d +ad s oki"% a pipe o&tside a p&b$i# ho&se. ,e stared at e. as I sat yse$f besides hi after orderi"% a %$ass of a$e. The" I e"tered i"to #o"1ersatio" *ith hi abo&t sho*s a"d fairs. 2 4;as yo& the %e"t at HHHH/4 asked he. 2 I said I *as. he took so e a$e *ith e. a"d for three 3&arters of a" ho&r to$d e the habits of his #$ass. I sa* Git %o i" a"d o&t of a sho* d*e$$i"%. a"d i"to the p&b$i# ho&se. a"d o"#e o" a" opport&"ity *i"ked at her. *hi#h she ret&r"ed *ith a ha$f s i$e. Fi"a$$y the 1a"s *ith a$$ of the *e"t off. Git *a$ked by the side of the se#o"d a"d "odded to e as she $eft. I *o"dered if she(d *ashed her #&"t. *hether y sper had bee" absorbed i"to her. *hether I(d fi$$ed her. 2 ) ost de$i#o&s day I(d spe"t. I(d *a$ked se1e" i$es. fe$t h&"%ry. %ot so e 1ery to&%h beef at the p&b$i# ho&se. fe$t p$eased *ith y or"i"%(s *ork. the" tho&%ht of %etti"% ba#k. The $a"d$ord said there *as a trap. b&t a a" $ooki"% a #o po&"d of potboy. %roo . a"d #oa#h a". said that it #o&$d"(t %o. 2 4)s I( to take Mrs. H H H H to statio".4 The f$y 2 o$d. d&sty. a"d dis#o1ered. *as to #a$$ at so e %e"t$e a"(s ho&se 2 I had"(t see" s&#h a ho&se o" the road I(d *a$ked 2 to a statio" o" a bra"#h $i"e. Ti e *as "o ob0e#t to e. so said I %o by it as far as he #o&$d take e. a"d did at three o(#$o#k. 2 4:o a$o"% that $a"e past the i$$. t&r" to yo&r ri%ht a"d strai%ht o" is yo&r statio". Sir.4 said #oa#h a" as I %ot o&t of the f$y. Fo$$o*i"% his dire#tio" I *as soo" a*ay fro the hi%h road. a"d i" a #art road $a"e *e"t $eis&re$y a$o"%. s oki"%. thi"ki"% &#h of the hard r& ped. ti%ht #&"ted $ass I(d f&#ked. ti$$ y pri#k stood a%ai". a"d I $apsed i"to a state of %e"era$ $e*ed"ess. I(1e ofte" pro1ed the tr&th of the ada%e. 4It "e1er rai"s b&t it po&rs.4 2 )fter a $o"%ish *a$k bet*ee" fie$ds I sa* sheds a"d o&t b&i$di"%s. a"d the" a $ar%er sort of shed. 2 The ist had %o"e. sky %ot #$o&dy. a"d rai" to spri"k$e. a"d ha1i"% "o & bre$$a I e"tered the shed. a"d the first thi"% I sa* *as a $ad "ot I sho&$d say si!tee" years o$d. *hite as if fro a f$o&r i$$ 2 *hi#h *as the #ase 2 sitti"% o" the %ro&"d. ha$f re#$i"i"% a%ai"st a heap of atti"%. a"d fri%%i"% hi se$f. I *as sta%%ered a"d #o&$d o"$y $ook. ,e. so soo" as he sa* e be%a" hidi"% his pe%o. My eroti# tastes the" <spite of y t*o p&de"da$ a &se e"ts= 2 b$a-ed &p a%ai". It is si"%&$ar that "o* the si%ht of a stiff pri#k stif6 fe"s i"e. a"d re#k$ess of #o"se3&e"#es. "ot i"deed thi"ki"% of the . I said at o"#e *ith a stro"% $et#h. 4:o o". I($$ %i1e yo& fi1e shi$$i"%s to see yo& fri% yo&r6se$f.4 2 4I be% yer pardo" Sir.4 said he sheepish$y. a"d rose &p. 2 4+o"(t be a foo$. I($$ %i1e yo& fi1e shi$$i"%s.4 a"d took o&t a ha"df&$ of si$1er. 2 ,e $ooked at it a"d %ri""ed. 2 I ta$ked o" desiro&s of seei"% his pe%o. of seei"% hi fri% hi se$f. eroti#
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*ishes f$ashed thro y brai" rapid$y. I e"#o&ra%ed hi ba&di$y. the o"ey te pted hi . Mo"osy$$abi# rep$ies "o* #a e fro hi . 2 4Yes.4 2 4'o.4 2 4;hat are yo& here for/4 2 4+(ye k"o* aste"d H H H of the i$$/4 The" after satisfyi"% hi se$f that I *as a stra"%e"d. 2 4:ie &s the #ash first.4 said he sa&#i$y. 2 4'o. "ot ti$$ I(1e see" yo&.4 2 4Yer *o"(t te$$ *i$$ yer/4 2 4'o.4 2 4Look o&t a"d te$$ as if a"y o"e be "i%h. a"d ye($$ %ie it &s *o"(t yer/4 2 There *as "o #ha"#e of a"y o"e bei"% "i%h. for "o* it po&red i" torre"ts a"d th&"dered. b&t I $ooked o&t. ;hi$st y ba#k *as t&r"ed he prod&#ed his pri#k a"d be%a" fri%%i"%. The" I *a"ted to do the *ork. 2 4There. $et e. a"d yo& sha$$ ha1e this.4 a"d I sho*ed hi a ha$f so1erei%". 2 4Take it.4 2 ,e did. I fa"#ied he i%ht #heat e b&t he did"(t 2 I took ho$d of his pri#k a"d fri%%ed it. ta$ki"% to hi a$$ the ti e abo&t #&"ts. 2 Yes. he(d f&#ked t*o or three. 2 47&t I #air"(t a$$&s %et at e .4 2 The" 2 4Oho 2 aha 2 its a #o i"( 4 2 a"d o&t shot s&rprisi"% 0ets of thi#k a"d thi" #&"t soothi"% $&bri#atio". I fri%%ed o" ti$$ his pri#k d*i"d$ed. *o"deri"% at his boyish stre"%th. ,e see ed de$i%hted *ith the operatio". To y 3&estio"s. 4Yes 2 I does it "o* a"d a%i". It(s a ha$f day they(1e %i1e" e today 2 they are short of *ater. I said I(d *ait here ti$$ a"other #hap #a e.4 The" as 3&i#k$y as pos6 sib$e I $eft hi . *o"deri"% at y te erity. *a$ked rapid$y thro the rai" to the statio". arri1ed *et. b&t %$ad to #at#h the trai". 'o* fo"d bre1ity sake I epito i-e the "arrati1e of y doi"%s *ith ,HHH d&ri"% this year a"d years after. )t i"ter1a$s *e et a"d i"d&$%ed i" e1ery $as#i1io&s #a6pri#e. I had take" ho e fro HHH a fi"e di$do *hi#h s3&irted $i3&ids. a"d *hi#h it a &sed her to be f&#ked *ith. The" I f&#ked her *ith it. $i#ki"% her #$itoris *hi$st I did it to her. The" Miss 7$a#k $i#ked her #$itoris *hi$st the di$do *as *orki"% &p ,. 2 The" *ith the di$do strapped o" to her. ,. di$doed 7$a#k. The" she di$doed 7$a#k *hi$st I f&#ked her fro behi"d. The" I f&#ked the pretty $itt$e b$a#k #&"ted $ass *hi$st she %a ah&#hed ,. 2 )"other ti e I di$doed ,. *hi$st $ayi"% o" her ba#k. a"d 7. $i#ked her #$itoris. a"d at the sa e ti e a"d &"k"o*" to 7.. 2 for ,. ob0e#ted to a"y *o a" k"o*i"% that I p$ayed *ith her b& ho$e 2 p&t y idd$e fi"%er &p that ti%ht a"a$ orifi#e. a"d ,. spe"t i" e#stasies d&ri"% the di$do f&#ki"%. fi"%er b&%%eri"%. a"d #&"t $i#ki"%. I #o&$d fee$ *hi$st &p her b& the di$do o1i"% &p a"d do*" i" her #&"t. a"d ,. %re* a $itt$e fo"d of that do&b$e i"sertio". 2 ;e kept it to o&rse$1es. tho ofte" ta$ki"% abo&t it *he" a$o"e. *ith her "e1er fai$i"% re ark. 4)i"(t *e beasts/4 a"d y rep$y. 4'o. beasts do"(t do that.4 )fter that she di$doed R. *ho *as fattish a"d bi% arsed. 2 ,.(s taste *as for fat *o e" to %a ah&#he her. 2 The" she fri%%ed R.. *hi$st sta"di"% i" the rear I f&#ked the fat arsed o"e. The" *e had R. a"d 7. to6%ether. a"d I %a ah&#hed ,. *hi$st she fri%%ed both *o e" *ho $ay o"e o" ea#h side of her. The" the t*o 3&iet str& pets 2 they *ere "ot street *a$kers 2 %a 6 ah&#hed ea#h other *hi$st I f&#ked ,. )$$ these pra"ks *ere ref$e#ted i" $ar%e #he1a$ %$asses. so that *e #o&$d see e1ery post&re. )t i"ter1a$s of rest *e dra"k #ha pa%"e. eat #akes a"d sa"d*i#hes. E1ery *o a" as she pissed I
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ade to o&"t the bed. a"d s3&at o1er a basi". *hi$st I k"ee$i"% o" the f$oor i" fro"t of her. #o"te p$ated the a ber 0et fro the #ri so" %ash. ,o* *e $a&%hed o"e day *he" 7. $et a $itt$e fart *he" pidd$i"%. a"d ho* a""oyed she *as. ho* odest. ho* she b$&shed 2 har$ot tho she *as 2 b&t it(s a fa#t. I "o* %a ah&#hed ,. as &#h as she $iked it do"e to herI the broad $i#k of her s*eet 1&$1a. the p$&"%e of y to"%&e &p the soft a1e"&e *as de$i#io&s to e. b&t her %reat p$eas&re *as i" fri%%i"% a"other *o a" *hi$st I *as titi$$ati"% her #$itoris *ith y to"%&e. The" I had a *hi *hi#h she did"(t $ike b&t to *hi#h I ade her yie$d. I $aid o" y ba#k o" the bed "aked. ,. "aked k"e$t o1er e. a k"ee o" ea#h side of y head. her #&"t o" y o&th so that I #o&$d $i#k her #$itoris easi$y. *hi$st I %rasped her sati"y b&tto#ks. The" o"e of the *o e" 2 either R. or 7. 2 %a ah&#hed e a"d took y $ibatio" i"to her o&th. I" the %$asses ,. #o&$d see a$$ this. I *ith o&th o" her #&"t. a"d head e"#$osed by her $o1e$y thi%hs #o&$d "ot. I #o&$d te$$ a$*ays *he" ,. *as abo&t to spe"d. by the tre b$i"% o1e e"ts of her thi%hs. a"d shi1er of her be$$y a"d b& . a"d her #ry. 4Oh 2 I( #o i"% 2 s&#k his pri#k 2 spe"d dear 2 aha 2 sp&"k.4 2 She &sed these $i#ie"tio&s e0a#&$atio"s a$*ays "o*. She(d spe"d t*i#e before I did o"#e for I(d &s&a$$y f&#ked her o"#e before. a"d *as $o"%er i" #o i"% tha" she *ith her $&stf&$ #apabi$ities. I"deed this do&b$e i"etti"% *as &s&a$$y the ter i"atio" of the day(s a &se e"ts. *he" a$$ three had bee" f&#ked. fri%%ed. or %a ah&#hed. Of #o&rse as said a$$ these a &se e"ts *ere "ot had o" the sa e day. this is a" epito e of *hat took p$a#e fro ti e to ti e d&ri"% this a"d a fe* years after. 2 Ea#h day(s a &se e"t *as "oted do*" by e soo" after. b&t are #o"de"sed here. O&r eretri#io&s tri#ks *ere "ear$y a$*ays p$ayed i" the after"oo" i" broad day$i%ht. be%i""i"% soo" after $&"#heo". a"d i" a roo o" *hi#h the s&" sho"e bri$$ia"t$y ost of the day5 ofte" ti es o" pri#k a"d #&"t fe$$ the *ar s&"bea s. The roo *as o"e *here "o"e #o&$d see or hear &s. a"d *here the a iab$e assista"ts %ot for &s *ere ost$y yo&"% a"d ha"dso e. a"d *ho #o&$d bear a"y a o&"t of $i%ht. a"y i"spe#tio" of their se#ret #har s. a"d *ho f&$$ of hot b$ood a"d the 1o$&pt&o&s"ess of yo&th. a"d sti &$ated by #ha pa%"e. $o1ed the ba&dy tri#ks a"d spe"t free$y. )"d to #o p$ete this #ata$o%&e of $et#hes. a"d de. $i%hts. 2 it o##&rred t*o years $ater *he" I fi"dst di$doed ,. 2 I had a" & bre$$a *ith a s ooth ha"d$e oI pe#&$iar shape. a"d ,. *as de$i%hted to $et e f&#k heF *ith it ti$$ she spe"t. I"deed ost thi"%s that a a". a"d three *o e" #o&$d do to%ether *e did. ;hat *as *a"ti"% to #o p$ete the 1ariety *as ,. to %a ah&#he e. b&t she(s "either do that. "or %a ah&#he the other *o e" tho she(d fri% the ti$$ they #o&$d spe"d "o $o"%er. 2 I" after years o"#e &"der press&re of #ir#& sta"#es , took y $ibatio" i" her o&th. a"d o"#e s&#ked e &p to ri%idity o"$y.

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Chapter V ) 1ir%i" yo&th *ith a har$ot. • C&estio"s i" a #ab. • ) frisky triad at her $od%i"%s. • ) #arroty #&"ted o"e. • ) $es#i1io&s 3&artette at the abbess(. • Mis#e$$a"eo&s. eretri#io&s. erry aki"%s. • )" or%y. Tho I "o $o"%er sei-e y opport&"ities. a"d do "ot see the i"deed. $et#hes at ti es spri"% &p s&dde"$y a"d I a $ed a*ay by the 2 *eak sti$$. I" 'o1e ber of this year at te" o(#$o#k o"e "i%ht I *as %oi"% a$o"% a ai" thoro&%hfare. *he" 0&st by a foot*ay passa%e *hi#h $ed to a"other street. I sa* a yo&"% a"d fair$y *e$$ dressed *o a". sta"di"% a"d threate"i"% t*o $ads *ho *ere fo$$o*i"% a"d #haffi"% her. 2 4,a1e yo& had it to"i%ht. y dear/4 said o"e. a"d so o". I stood a &sed. $iste"i"%. She a"%ri$y said. 2 4I($$ p&t a po$i#e a" o" yo&.4 2 They $a&%hed a"d #haffed ore tha" e1er. 4>&t the bobby &p.4 said the bi%%est. b&t the shorter o"e of the t*o s$&"k a*ay. S&dde"$y 2 ho* $ike a f$ash of $i%ht"i"% 2 o##&rred to e that perhaps the $ad *as ra"dy. had "e1er had a *o a". that his pri#k i%ht be at that o e"t stiff. The" #a e y $et#h. 2 4,e *a"ts to ha1e yo&.4 said I to the *o a" *ho I fo$$o*ed do*" the passa%e *ay. a"d *ho(d rea#hed the door of a p&b$i# ho&se. 4The $itt$e de1i$ does I thi"k.4 said she $a&%hi"%. 4:i1e e a %$ass of *i"e.4 2 The $ad stood sti$$ at the #or"er of the passa%e *ay. *at#hi"% &s appare"t$y. She *as I sa* a %ood $ooki"% *o a" of abo&t t*e"ty. *ith f$ashi"% dark eyes. 2 The". 4I($$ %i1e yo& a so1erei%" to $et hi f&#k yo&. a"d e see hi .4 2 4;i$$ yo&/4 4)$$ ri%ht if he($$ #o e.4 2 4Try hi .4 She t&r"ed ba#k. the ta$$er $ad *as sti$$ sta"di"% there. a"d be#ko"ed hi . *hi$st I stood by the p&b$i# ho&se. ,e approa#hed her. b&t e1ide"t$y feared a trap a"d stood at a dista"#e. 2 4;hat are yo& fri%hte"ed at/ Co e here.4 )t $e"%th he stood by her. a"d I *e"t &p to the . 4I( %oi"% ho e *ith this $ady. a"d she sha$$ sho* yo& her #&"t if yo& $ike. did yo& e1er see a #&"t/4 2 4'ot a *o a"(s.4 he rep$ied sa&#i$y after a o e"t(s hesitatio". 2 4Yo& sha$$ hers a"d I($$ pay her to $et yo&.4 2 ,e see ed f$abber%asted at the proposa$. said. 4'o.4 he &st %et ho e. b&t the i"1itatio" repeated. he at $ast #o"se"ted. tho i" a do*"#ast a""er. as if ha$f s#ared. as if he *a"ted b&t *as fri%hte"ed. The" aski"% hi to *ait. I bo&%ht *ith her i" the p&b$i# ho&se t*o bott$es of sherry. reso$1ed to o1er#o e his fear. if a"y. ,e *as *aiti"% a"d $ooki"% bri%hter. i"deed had a broad %ri" o" his fa#e. *hi#h died a*ay as *e %ot i"to the first fo&r *hee$er. *he" he see ed a"!io&s a%ai". My brai" *as "o* seethi"% *ith desires of a$$ sorts. She $i1ed i" a de#e"t ho&se at H H H H. a"d *e *ere there i" te" i"&tes. I ta$ked ba&dy a$$ the *ay. he *as si$e"t. see i"% "ot to $ike &#h his positio". ,e did"(t k"o* the *o a" he said b&t 2 4$iked #haffi"% the %a$s.4 2 ,e *as at (( as a" erra"d boy. 4I thi"k I(d better %o.4 said he o"#e *he" i" the #ab. 24;hat. "ot see y #&"t/4 said she. That 3&ieted hi . 2 I" the roo s *e
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p$ied hi *ith the *i"e. b&t he see ed &"6 easy a"d I feared y $et#hes *hi#h had bee" a##& &$ati"% *o&$d"(t be %ratified5 b&t he dra"k free$y. a"d *he" she #a e i" fro the bed to the sitti"% roo *ith a #he ise o"$y o". his eyes see ed ready to start o&t of his head. a"d he p&t both ha"ds i" his tro*ser po#kets. r&bbi"% the &p a"d do*" there i" a" e!#ited a""er. She be%a" e!#iti"% hi by tyi"% &p a %arter. a"d sho*i"% o"e thi%h p$e"teo&s$y. 4Sho&$d yo& $ike to fee$ it/4 2 4Yes.4 he rep$ied to her. sheepish$y a"d hesitati"%$y. 4Sho* e yo&r #o#k.4 a"d she be%a" to &"6b&tto" his tro*sers. 4I do"(t *a"t that.4 a"d he ha$f resisted $ike a #oy %ir$. b&t i" a i"&te she had it o&t a"d p&$$ed the foreski" ba#k. 2 It *as"(t stiff. 4Co e a"d *ash it.4 2 She p&$$ed ba#k the foreski". a"d I sa* it *as i" a state of ra"dy eff$ores#e"#e. She $ed hi i"to the bedroo a"d perfor ed the operatio" o" it her6se$f. I fo$$o*ed $ooki"% o". ,is too$ *as "o* ha"%i"% o&t a"d he tried to hide it. 2 4Let e see it. I( %oi"% to pay her to sho* &s her #&"t yo& k"o*. if yo& do"(t yo& sha"(t4 2 a"d the" he $et e see it. ,e(d o"$y see" t*o %ir$(s #&"ts *itho&t hair o" the . a"d 3&estio"ed o"de #$ose$y. ad itted o"e of the *as his sister(s #&"t. 4There 2 $ook.4 Sayi"% that she e!posed her #har s. Very pretty they *ere a"d ade e stiffe". ,e $ooked #$oser a"d #$oser. a"d &p stood his pri#k at o"#e *itho&t his to&#hi"% it. ,& a" "at&re a"d i"sti"#t. I be$ie1e. *o&$d ake the pri#k of a"y yo&th at p&berty stiffe". e1e" if he(d "e1er heard of or see" a #&"t before. 2 ,e p&t his ha"d to her #&"t. 4'o. "ot a fee$. I did"(t pro ise that.4 2 4Oh do.4 2 4Let e fee$ yo&r #o#k a"d she sha$$.4 2 said I. 2 4Oh do. $et e fee$ her.4 2 The "e!t o e"t he *as fi"6 %eri"% it. a"d I at the sa e ti e ha"d$i"% a fair si-ed too$. #ri so" tipped a"d b&r"i"%. I bro&%ht hi a"6other %$ass of *i"e *hi$st he *as fi"%eri"% her 3&i . b&t he *as so e"%rossed that he did"(t take it. did"(t "oti#e it 2 *as fas#i"ated *ith the red %ap. ti$$ she rose a"d p&shed do*" her #he ise. hidi"% her #har s. I *e"t o" 3&estio"i"% hi . 'o. he(d "e1er f&#ked b&t he had fri%%ed hi se$f. ,e to$d e1erythi"% &"hesitati"%$y "o*. i" the #ab he(d shirked y i"3&isiti1e"ess. 24;o&$d yo& $ike to f&#k her/4 2 4Yes. ai"(t she $o1e$y/4 2 4She($$ $et yo& b&t yo& &st take a$$ yo&r thi"%s off. &st ake yo&rse$f 3&ite "aked.4 I" a i"&te he had stripped off his dirty shabby #$othi"%. a"d stood as "aked as he *as bor". his #o#k sta"di"% &p ri%id$y. 2 4)re yo& s&re yo&(1e "e1er f&#ked a *o a"/4 2 4'o Sir. "e1er.4 2 4Yo&($$ ha1e a 1ir%i". Mary.4 said I. 2 4I(1e "e1er had o"e yet.4 said she $a&%hi"% a"d s3&ee-i"% his #o#k. a"d $ooki"% at it atte"ti1e$y. The" she asked hi if he(d e1er f&#ked. ,e s*ore that he had"(t. 2 4Co e to the bed.4 said she hasti$y. for the idea of ha1i"% the 1ir%i"ity of the $ad ade her $e*ed 2 as she to$d e after*ards. 2 She stripped off her #he ise a"d %ot o" to the bed. 2 4Co e o".4 O" he %ot. she #$osed her thi%hs. the" he $ayi"% there hesitated. 4;hy do"(t yo& f&#k e/4 2 4,o* #a" I/4 2 4There.4 2 a"d she ope"ed her thi%hs *ide. 2 ,e t&r"ed o" to a"d tried to %et &p her she he$pi"% hi . ,e f& b$ed. 4'ot there. that(s "ot the ho$e.4 2 4;here the". that(s it. ai"(t it/4 2 4'o.4 2 It *as. b&t she *a"ted to *orry hi . 2 Up he %ot
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a"d his pri#k %ot f$abby. 2 She fri%%ed it stiff. a"d he be%a" ope"i"% a"d $ooki"% at the $ips of her %roo1e. 2 4It(s there ai"(t it/4 said he a"!io&s$y. 2 4'o. $o*er do*". there4 poi"ti"%. 2 4;hy. yo&r #o#k is "ot stiff.4 2 )%ai" she fri%%ed it. a"d a%ai" he t&r"ed o" to her. she %&ided his too$. a"d the "e!t se#o"d he *as &p her. 2 4'o. $et hi f&#k yo& at the side of the bed.4 I said 2 for I #o&$d"(t see his fa#e. a"d $ike to see the fa#e of a a" *he" he(s f&#ki"%. a"d that of a *o a" *he" she spe"ds. She &"#&"ted hi a"d p$a#ed herse$f at the bedside prope"d$y. ,e stood bet*ee" her thi%hs a"d she p&t i"to her his pri#k. ,e "eeded "o f&rther ed&#atio". for e1ery a$e f&#ks "at&ra$$y. ,is b& be%a" to os#i$$ate. 2 4Is her #&"t "i#e/4 2 4Oh 2 yhes 2 $o1e$y 2 ohoo.4 2 4Is yo&r sp&"k #o i"%/4 2 ,e did"(t rep$y. 2 4)harr.4 2 a"d ra i"% as he si%hed. a$$ *as o1er. ,e sh&t his eyes as he spe"t. She sh&t hers too. a"d 0erked her b&tto#ks rapid$y. a"d both *ere 3&iet. 2 4Yo&(1e spe"t too. 2 4Yes. I(1e take" his 1ir%i"ity.4 said she $a&%hi"% a"d tri& pha"t$y. *he" she(d re#o1ered fro the p$eas&re. I *as sta"di"% fee$i"% his ba$$s fro &"der"eath. his pe%o sti$$ i" her #&"t as I spoke. "or did they see i"#$i"ed to &"#o&p$e. 4Is f&#ki"% "i#e/4 2 4Oh yes.4 4;o&$d yo& $ike to do it a%ai"/4 2 4Oh. yes sir.4 I(d see" a$$ I(d i"te"ded. had reso$1ed *he" the $et#h first sei-ed e to do "o ore tha" see the $ad f&#k her. b&t as I sa* the state of her 3&i 2 i" *hi#h *as as &#h sper as a"y a f&$$ %ro*" a" #o&$d ha1e shed 2 y $&st *as ro&sed. 2 4Lay sti$$. I($$ f&#k yo&.4 2 4Let e *ash.4 2 4'o. as yo& are.4 I f&#ked her a"d she spe"t *ith e. *hi$st he stood $ooki"% o" fee$i"% his pri#k. ;e *ashed. a"d I *ashed the $ad(s too$. aki"% hi pidd$e first. The sherry 2 fiery st&ff *hi#h "e1erthe$ess I(d dr&"k. 2 I s&ppose added to the state of r&t I(d %ot i"to. E1ery sort of $et#h "o* arose i" e. the diffi#&$ty *as to k"o* *hi#h to %ratify. The $ad(s #o#k *as a fair si-ed o"e. she a"d I ha"d$ed it. he said he(d $ike to f&#k her a%ai". She fri%%ed it ti$$ ere#t. he f&#ked her a"d I after hi . the" 3&i#k$y I paid a"d de6parted. $ea1i"% hi *ith her. ) *eek after*ards I #a$$ed o" her a"d tai$ed her. I had a $o"% #o"1ersatio" abo&t the $ad *ho *as "ot &#h o1er fiftee" years of a%e. she *as s&re. She to$d e that she *as a$so s&re that he(d "e1er f&#ked a *o a" before. She tried to %et hi to f&#k her a%ai" *he" I(d $eft. b&t he #o&$d"(t. The idea of ha1i"% take" his 1ir%i"ity p$eased her i%hti$y. I" the spri"% of the fo$$o*i"% year. the abbess o"e day said that she(d *ritte" to 7$a#k to eet &s to ake o&r $as#i1io&s trio. b&t she had"(t #o e. *o&$d *e ha1e a"other $ady there 0&st "o*. *ho *as 1ery yo&"%. b&t #har i"% a"d 43&ite &p to f&".4 by *hi#h the abbess i p$ied ba&dy to a"y e!te"t. ,. a"d I

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#o"s&$ted. I asked if she(d %a ah&#he. a"d fi"di"% she *o&$d %i1e that $abia$ $i"%&a$ p$eas&re both to ,. a"d se$f. *e had her. I" #a e she i" #he ise. a short %ir$ "ot ei%htee" *ith the "deddest hair I e1er sa*. I ha1e had se1era$ of that #o$or. b&t hers *as e!a#t$y that of the bri%htest #arrot. a"d the hair o" her #&"t the sa e. 2 ,er sp$it *as o"e of those *hi#h are $ike a #&t i" a" ora"%e. a ere s$it. it had s#ar#e$y a si%" of the s*e$$ *here the e!ter"a$ $ips are. a"d had b&t s a$$ i""er $ips a"d #$itoris. The red #risp fri"%e fro her otte des#e"ded di i"ishi"% i" $e"%th. b&t a $itt$e *ay o"$y do*" the sides of the sp$it. *hi#h sp$it she*ed a p"detty #ora$ $i"e do*" the #e"tre. The f$esh of her thi%hs. be$$y a"d i"deed her *ho$e body *as e!#eedi"%$y *hite a"d soft. a"d the effe#t of the red #e"tre $i"e. #arroty #&r$y hair. a"d p$& p *hite f$esh of the #&"t sides *as 1ery pretty. For a$$ that "either of &s &#h $iked her 2 *e both to%ether $ooked *e$$ at her 3&i . she %a ah&#hed ,. *ho after*ards fri%%ed her. a"d the" she i"etted e *itho&t hesitatio". a"d to p$ease ,. 2 *ho *ished to see it do"e. 2 )fter*ards I f&#ked the red haired %ap. The" *e se"t her a*ay a"d I tai$ed ,. b&t *e "e1er had her after*ards. ,. $ikes "o* to see e f&#ki"% a *o a". The *e"#h *as o"$y "oti#ab$e o" a##o&"t of the pe#&$iar red"ess of her hair. a"d the pe#&$iar $ook of her #&"t. 3&ite a thi"% to re#o$$e#t. ,. had "e1er see" a red haired 3&i before. I $ike to see her $ooki"% at a"other(s 3&i . ;e fro ti e to ti e %ratified o&r $et#hes i" the 1ario&s *ays a$ready des#ribed a"d epito i-ed. The #o"1ersatio"s *e had at other ti es *ith Misses. R. a"d 7. a"d o##asio"a$$y *ith the abbess. *ere de$i%htf&$. 7oth to$d &s their e!perie"#es. a"d ho*. *he". a"d *here. pri#ks first pe"etrated their &"s#athed 1ir%i"s( 3&i s. The abbess to$d &s of stra"%e $et#hes of her #$ie"ts a"d of f$a%e$$atio" e!perie"#es. So here *as "othi"% eroti# that *e did "ot k"o*. I"deed there *as $itt$e that *e had to $ear". Looki"% o"e #$ay at a pri"t of t*o *o e" a"d t*o e" f&#ki"% a$to%ether. 4I sho&$d $ike so yo& to f&#k a *o a". *hi$st I a a$so f$i#ked at yo&r side.4 said ,. I a%reed that it *o&$d be de$i#io&s. )t other eeti"%s o" re#&rri"% to the s&b0e#t. *e reso$1ed to ha1e that a &se e"t a"d that 7$a#k sho&$d be the other *o a". 47&t *ho the other a"/4 The abbess #o"s&$ted said she k"e* a %e"t$e6 a" *ho #o&$d be o"e. b&t *o&$d be asked. 2 I did"(t $ike that. "or did ,.. b&t to*ards the idd$e of the s& er. ,. et at a to*" t*o i$es fro her reside"#e. a %e"t$e a" *ho years before *he" she *as %ay. had tai$ed her. She(d ta$ked a"d *a$ked *ith hi . he %ot passio"ate for her. her 3&i she ad itted %ot hot. a"d for%etti"% a$$. 2 a"d she risked &#h. 2 $et hi str& her. The" her $&sts f&$$y ro&sed. she(d %o"e to hi a%ai". ;he" she to$d e of this I #a&tio"ed her. beso&%ht her. 2 4Oh9 ,e has s&#h a fi"e pri#k.4 said she $a&%hi"%. as she dra"k a %$ass of #ha pa%"e. Yet this *o a" rea$$y $o1ed her o*" a". b&t as i" years before $et her passio"s #o"3&er her. 2 )t #h&r#h e1ery S&"day after this she fe$t she *as "ot %ood e"o&%h to be there. L&st is o "ipote"t.
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The" he *orried her. She(d ref&sed to $et hi ha1e her a%ai". &"$ess he(d be o"e of the party of fo&r <she said= . ,e. *i$d to possess her a%reed. a day *as "a ed a"d 7$a#k i"for ed. ,e *as to be *itho&t a ask. I to *ear o"e if I $iked 2 for I did"(t k"o* *hat a""er of a" he i%ht be. tho I(d "o fear of a trap or tri#k o" her part. 2 O" the day ,. *as there *ith 7$a#k a"d this te porary s*eetheart. I e"tered the roo asked. *e be%a" *ith $&"#heo" *hi#h I had take". a"d #ha pa%"e of 1ery %ood 3&a$ity *hi#h the abbess kept i" sto#k 2 for "o"e b&t %e"t$e e" e"tered her ho&se. 2 a"d *he" *e(d fi"ished t*o bott$es *e *ere a$$ ready for a"y ba&di"ess. o&r ta$k a$o"e *o&$d ha1e ro&sed the pri#k of a dead a". 7oth the *o e" had bee" sitti"% *ith #he ises o"$y o". *e e" *itho&t #oats a"d *aist#oats. for it *as a hot day. the s&" *as shi"i"%. the sky #$ear. a$$ *as bri%ht as day i" that s"&% roo . the s#e"e of so &#h $o1e aki"%. ,. sat o" her frie"d(s k"ee <Fa"#y I sha$$ "a e hi =. a"d p&$$ed o&t his pe%o. *hi#h o&t of $i"%eri"% odesty. at the &"a##&sto ed e!pos&re to a"other a$e I s&p6pose. *as "ot stiff. tho $ar%e a"d pe"da"t. 7$a#k did the sa e to e. a"d y too$ *as i" si i$ar #o"ditio". 2 4Make his stiff.4 said ,. $a&%hi"%. *hi#h i" a i"&te the %ir$ did. for the si%ht of ,. *ith her #he ise "o* &p to her r& p. fee$i"% his pe%o *hi$st he fi"%ered her #ri so" %ap. *o&$d ha1e stiffe"ed e *itho&t the aid of 7$a#k(s fi"%ers. ,is *as "o* stiff a"d i" ha"dso e state. 2 4Is"(t it a fi"e o"e/4 said ,. pro&d$y. 2 I(d %&essed before that her o$d $et#h had ade her %i1e herse$f to the a" 2 a bi% pri#k *as her de$i%ht. her idea$ of the a$e. 2 ,is *as bi%%er e1ery *ay tha" i"e. *as. i"deed. a "ob$e #&"t stret#her. I $o"%ed to fee$ it. b&t a&1aise ho"te restrai"ed e. ,.. *ho fro a"y a #o"1ersatio" k"e* *hat I sho&$d $ike. said. 4Fee$ it 2 here.4 2 %i1i"% it a" i"1iti"% shake a"d $ooki"% ba&di$y at e. Re$ie1i"% i"e fro 7$a#k(s fi"%ers I *e"t a"d fe$t it. 2 )t o"#e he %rasped i"e. a"d i" si$e"t de$i%ht *e for a i"&te p$ayed *ith ea#h other(s ra rods. 4Let e fee$ it too.4 said 7$a#k *ho #a e #$ose to &s a"d #o p$eted the %ro&p. 2 I p&t o"e ha"d bet*ee" her thi%hs a"d fe$t her hot %ap 2 %ap "o* $o"%i"% for a stret#hi"%. thirsti"% for the a$e $ibatio" 2 *hi$st I ha"d$ed his stiff rod a"d ,. ha"d$ed i"e. ,a"ds a#ross 2 a sa$a#io&s 3&artette. The" a$$ stripped to o&r ski". p&t the $ooki"% %$asses so as to ref$e#t &s. a"d i" 1aried %ro&pi"%s 1ie*ed o&r6 se$1es. It *as. 4+o this.4 2 4Lay ho$d of his pri#k.( 2 4Let 7$a#k ho$d it as *e$$.4 2 4Oh9 Yo& h&rt y #&"t.4 2 4Fee$ ,.(s #&"t. 7$a#k.4 2 et#. et#. 'ot i"&te *ere *e i" the sa e positio". rest$ess $et#hes *ere i" a$$ of &s. b& s to be$$ies. pri#k #rossi"% pri#y *e e" p$a#ed the . both pri#ks stiff as hor"s. The *o e" de$i%hted. 7$a#k k"e$t do*" a"d took y pri#k i" her o&th. her b& to*ards a %$ass. i"#ited to that by ,. Stoopi"% I took his "ob$e too$ i"to i"e. a"d so o". ti$$ sti &$ated by these $as#i1io&s pre$i i"aries 4Oh9 2 y :od 2 f&#k e.4 said ,. :oi"% to the bed a"d p&shi"% the %$asses i"to positio". she o&"ted it i" a i"&te 7$a#k fo$$o*ed. a"d *e e" *ere by the bedside ready to #o1er the .
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)$$ had *ashed pri#ks a"d #&"ts at the be%i""i"% a"d a$$ *ere ready for the $&s#io&s %a es. 2 4'o. at the side.4 said ,. #ha"%i"% her i"d. There she %ot. a"d 7$a#k $aid by her side. 7oth ope"ed *ide their thi%hs ,. $ay *ith her ha"dso e #e"tra$ f&rro*. of deeper #ri so" ti"t "o* tha" years a%o. *ider spread a"d f&$$er "o* are the #&r$s aro&"d it. shi"i"% $ike sati" *as the s&rfa#e of the pretty %ap. 7$a#k(s pretty yo&th• f&$ b$a#k haired s$it sho"e $ike #ora$. sho*i"% its ti"y "y phae as she $ay *ith fi"%er o" her #$itoris. p&t there i" her i patie"t ra"di"ess to %i1e i"#ipie"t p$eas &re. a"d ake *e e" ore $e*ed. 2 4I($$ f&#k yo& dear ,.4 4'o. Fa"#y sha$$ f&#k e. yo& f&#k 7.4 2 The bi%%est pri#k a"d the "o1e$ty fet#hed her. I thre* yse$f &po" y k"ees. a"d $i#ked a$$ o1er the s ooth a"d p&$py s&rfa#e of her s*eet s#e"ted #&"t. *hi$st Fa"#y seei"% y i"itiati1e. $i#ked the other(s $itt$e ra"dy sp$it. 2 4Oh 2 F&#k 2 f&#k4 2 #ried ,. i patie"t$y. Risi"% I #$&t#hed her thi%hs a"d dro1e J %$o*i"% pri#k ri%ht &p her #&"t. 4Yo& sha"(t f&#k e *ith that ask o".4 #ried she. a"d ere I #o&$d pre1e"t it &"#&"ted e a"d dre* y ask fro off y fa#e. 4Let Fa"#y f&#k e first.4 2 Re#k$ess "o*. %$ad to be rid of the ask *hi#h heated y fa#e. I $et it $ie *here it fe$$. a"d t&r"i"% ro&"d a%ai" I fe$t his "ob$e shaft. 0&st as he approa#hed the ea%er s$it of ,. The" I *e"t to 7. a"d dro1e y pe%o &p her. The "e!t se#o"d his ba$$s *ere a%ai"st ,.(s b& . his shaft e"%&$phed. a"d i"e &p 7.(s $itt$e #&"t. This *ith $o&d a"d ba&dy ta$k. the" a$$ *as 3&iet. >$eas&res too %reat *ere o&rs "o* for &ttera"#es. as pri#ks a"d #&"ts *ere 0oi"ed. a"d *e f&#ked #$ose to6%ether. side by side. the *o e"(s thi%hs to&#hi"%. the %$ass side*ays sho*i"% &s a$$. Ea#h #o&$d see a$$ 2 the *o e"(s $e%s he$d &p. the e"(s arses os#i$$ati"% *ith the &p a"d do*". a"d i" a"d o&t o1e e"ts of their pri#ks. i" the *ar oist 3&i s. >&tti"% o"e ha"d o&t I fe$t his b&tto#ks. 2 ,. tried to p&t her ha"d o" to 7.(s otte. 24Oh9 Look at &s f&#ki"%.4 2 #ried she. She $o1es the spe#ta#$e of "aked #op&$atio". a"d *e "e1er f&#k i" this ho&se *itho&t fi!i"% o&r eye &po" the %$asses. *here *e see o&r e1ery o1e e"t. She si%hed 4)haa.4 2 her be$$y hea1ed 2 7.(s i1ory p$& p b&tto#ks re#ipro#ated y thr&sts. she p&shed her $e%s &p hi%her as she fe$t y pri#k(s fri#tio". 2 Rapid$y both *o e"(s arses "o* 0o%%ed a"d hea1ed. as o&r pri#ks ra ed harder. faster. a"d *ri%%$ed i" the #&"ta$ depths. 4)herr 2 sp&"k 2 f&#k.4 2 #ried ,. 2 She $o1es the ba&dy #ries. 4F&#k.4 2 4)re yo& spe"di"%. 7$a#k/4 2 4)ha 2 yes 2 sp&"k.4 2 #ried 7. sy patheti#a$$y. 2 4My sp&"k(s spe"di"% i" yo&r #&"t dear.4 2 4)her.4 2 4Yhes 2 f&#k.4 a"d i" a 7abe$ of $as#i1io&s #ries. bodies hea1i"%. arses 0o%%i" short 0o%s. #&"ts *ri%%$i"% a"d %rippi"%. be$$ies ar thi%hs sh&dderi"% *ith the $&s#io&s p$eas&re. o&t she o&r sp&"k. The" be"di"% o1er o&r *o e". *ith %e"t$est o1e e"ts s3&ee-i"% o&r pri#ks i"to the #&"t %or%ed to o1erf$o*i"% *ith the soft &#&s. i" soothi"% baths of o&r b$e"ded spe"di"%s $ay o&r pri#ks *e$te6i"%. a$$ of &s 3&iet. e!ha&sted. dyi"% a*ay after the de$iri& of the #risis. disso$1i"% i" the $i"%eri"%. b$iss f&$. soothi"% 1o$&pt&o&s"ess of o&r se!&a$ p$eas&re. of $i1io&s of a$$ b&t the b$essed #o"0&"#tio" of pri#k a"d #&"t.
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S&#h b$iss #a"(t $ast fore1er. 2 ;ith se"ses ret&r"i"% *e e" stood ere#t. pri#ks sti$$ i" #&"ts. b&t d*i"d$i"% i" the $&bri#io&s e &$sio" of o&r aki"%. ;e take sti$$ ho$di"% &p the *o e"(s $e%s. *ho $ay *ith h& F eyes. %$ad to retai" the p$eas&re %i1i"% i p$e e"ts t the . 4,as he spe"t &#h ,./4 2 4Lots. I( f&$$. it r&""i"% o&t of y #&"t.4 said ,. 2 for I tho&%ht of he first. 2 4Let e see.4 2 4Yo& sha"(t yo& beast.4 6 $a&%hi"%. 2 4+o"(t $et her $e%s #$ose Fa"#y. 2 keep yo&r thi%hs apart 7.4 2 Fa"#y e"tered i"to the f&" a"d *ithdre* his drippi"% pe%o as i"e 3&itted 7.(s %$&tio&s %ap. I #$osed o" ,.. a"d sa* fat sper ro$$i"% fro her heated 3&i 2 opa3&e a"d thi" to%ether. 6 ,e(d spe"t f&$$y. I had de$&%ed 7.(s $itt$e ti%ht 1&$1a ,. ope"ed *ider sti$$ her thi%hs for y i"spe#tio". I had $eft the *o e". ha1i"%. it see ed. "o taste for the %$orio&s si%ht. a"d be%a" *ashi"% his too$. ,. *ho k"e* y $et#h a"d had her o*". tho sayi"% 47east.4 re ai"ed 3&ies#e"t. e!pe#ta"t. 2 She kite the si%ht *o&$d sti &$ate y $&st. a"d I fe$t her $o1e $&bri#io&s %ap *ith o"e ha"d. a"d *ith the other 7 &#i$a%i"o&s 1&$1a. ,o* s ooth a"d $ar%e #&"ts fee$ after their spe"d. a"d the a$e $ibatio"s are i" the . 2 I p$&"%ed for a se#o"d y fi"%ers &p both #&"ts. I padd$ed i" the sper a"d y pri#k stiffe"ed. p&$sated *ith desire. O$d $et#hes #a e o" e. I p&t y pri#k &p ,. 7&t *he" ha$f e"tered. shaki"% her head si$e"t$y she p&shed e off a"d *i"ked. $ooki"% a#ross at hi . *ith his r& p to*ards &s *as sti$$ *ashi"% I &"der6stood. she did"(t *ish hi to see that. Soo" after he did. The" a$$ *ashed. The *o e" s3&atti"%. ,. be%i""i"% to pidd$e after ab$&tio". I p&t y ha"d a"d #a&%ht the a ber strea . at *hi#h he $a&%hed. 2 'aked the" a$$ sat do*". the abbess bro&%ht ore #ha pa%"e. a"d said it *as a pretty si%ht to see &s "aked. )s *e dra"k. ,. *ith o"e ha"d *as fee$i"% his pri#k as they sat to%ether o" the sofa. 7$a#k sitti"% o" y thi%h *as fee$i"% i"e. 2 Is"(t his a fi"e pri#k/4 said ,. It had s*o$$e" a%ai". The abbess fe$t it. #h&#k$ed a"d said. 4)i"(t it a bea&ty/4 The" after fee$i"% i"e a"d patti"% ,.(s ha&"#hes. 2 4,as"(t she a "i#e b& / 2 t*o pri#ks sta"di"%. 2 Oh9 ;hat a pretty si%ht.4 a"d the" she $eft the roo . ;e p&t o" #he ises a"d shirts. for hot as it *as. i" o&r #$i ate $o"% #o"ti"&ed "&dity ofte" #a&ses #hi$$i"ess. Ta$k of pri#k a"d #&"t a"d f&#ki"% the *e"t o". a"d of b&t $itt$e e$se. e1ery "o* a"d the" fee$i"% o&r pri#ks a"d #&"ts 3&ite i"dis#ri i"ate$y. he i"e. I his. $ifti"% shirts a"d #he ise at ti es to %ratify o&r eyes. ,. "o* fee$i"% his a"d i"e at the sa e ti e. ,. $o$$i"% ba&di$y o" a sofa *ith hi . 7. a"d I $o$$i"% &po" the bed. More #ha pa%"e a"d ore pissi"%. I he$d his too$ to see the *atery spo&t. The" *e p$a#ed the *o e" a%ai"st the bedside *ith b& s to*ards &s. to #o pare the bea&ty of their "ot#hes. the" s$appi"% their b&tto#ks *ith o&r pri#ks. p&$$i"% the hairy $ips apart. ti#k$i"% the stripes *ith to"%&es. a"d other $as#i1io&s *hi s a"d fa"#ies. o&r passio"s *ere soo" ro&sed. ,. said. 4Let(s f&#k.4 2 before *e e" *ere ready. 2 I k"e* the $ot of spe"di"% she #o&$d
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%i1e. the f&#ki"% she "eeded *he" i" r&t as she *as today 2 the day $o"% a"ti#ipated a"d prepared for. 2 )%ai" a$$ stripped a"d *e"t to the so&$ stirri"%. de$i#io&s. se!&a$ e bra#e. The e bra#e *he" a" a"d *o a" are a"%e$s to ea#h other. tho the po*er of f&#ki"% is the %ift of e1ery a"i a$ i" #reatio". is the f&"#tio" of a beast. 7&t ho* +i1i"e the p$eas&re i" body a"d i"d *he" doi"% it. 4I *o"(t f&#k yet I($$ %a ah&#he.4 2 said I. *ishi"% to h&sba"d y sper . ,. ready. ope"ed her thi%hs. a"d y to"%&e ti#k$ed her ti$$ she *e"t off shrieki"% i" her 1o$&pt&o&s de$iri& . She *as fri%%i"% 7. *ith o"e ha"d. ho$di"% Fa"#y(s pri#k 2 *hi#h "o* a%ai" stood "ob$y 2 *ith the other. 2 ,. a"d I s&%%ested a$$. he see ed passi1e b&t ready. 2 4:a ah&#he e.4 said she to hi dire#t$y I had %i1e" her p$eas&re. +o*" he k"e$t a"d $i#ked her 1&$1a *hi#h she(d o"$y *iped. She did"(t dis%&ise her p$eas&re. %a1e *ay to it *ith a$$ its de$iri& of o1e e"ts a"d *ords. 4Oh 2 :od %o o" 2 ahrr 2 fee$ his pri#k 2 is it stiff/4 I fe$t his ri%id staff *ith $as#i1io&s de$i%ht. 2 4Stiff as a poker.4 4)haa. 2 I #a" see yo& 2 aha 2 fri% it.4 2 I did. 2 4)ha. I sha$$ spe"d 2 do"(t ake hi 2 spe"d. 2 )ha 2 sp&"k 2 f&#k.4 2 a"d a%ai" her #&"t %a1e o&t its pear$y 0&i#es *hi$st 1io$e"t$y she fri%%ed 7$a#k *ho $ay o" the bed "e!t her *ith head t&r"ed to*ards. a"d *at#hi"% her rapt&res. Up he %ot *ith oiste"ed $ips. a"d *itho&t a *ord p$&"%ed his bi% pe%o &p her. she "othi"% $oath. I *at#hed the for a *hi$e. the" $ooked be"eath his ba$$o#ks *hi#h *as a p$e i" si-e. *e$$ *ri"k$ed. the" took it i" y ha"d a"d s3&ee-ed it %e"t$y. ) sh&dder of de$i%ht passed thro&%h hi . 4I( fee$i"% his ba$$s. 2 S&#k y pri#k. 7$a#k dear.4 2 4I *a"t to fri% her.4 said ,. 24'o. #o e.4 2 7. #a e a"d stoopi"% took the red tip of y pe%o i"to her o&th. a"d to"%&ed a"d $i#ked a"d p$ayed *ith it. *hi$st I he$d his ba$$s. $ooki"% at ,.(s fa#e. )"d he f&#ked o" ti$$ her hea1e"$y s i$e #a e. The" he %roa"ed $i%ht$y a"d a%ai" fi$$ed her 1&$1a *ith his sper . Taki"% y pri#k fro o&t 7.(s o&th I p&shed it bet*ee" his b&tto#k f&rro*. ti$$ it to&#hed his ba$$o#ks 2 o&t #a e his pri#k. a"d at o"#e I *e"t bet*ee" ,.(s thi%hs. #a&%ht &p her droopi"% $e%s. a"d r&shed y pri#k "o* b&rsti"% *ith desire. &p her $&bri#ated #&"t. o1erf$o*i"% a%ai" *ith his &#i$a%e. She $a&%hed a$o&d "o*. a"d so did he. Cha pa%"e *as doi"% its *ork. a$$ odesty. if *e(d had a"y. *as %o"e. I thr&st a"d thr&st. %$oryi"% i" its $&bri#ity. i" bei"% i" the soft a1e"&e his pri#k had 3&itted. 2 7. spra"% o" the bed. 2 4Sho* e yo&r b& .4 said he. 2 ;ith her b&tto#ks t&r"ed to*ards hi . 2 4F&#k e so.4 said she. 2 7&t he(d 0&st spe"t. a"d to see e f&#ki"% *as his p$eas&re. ,e had"(t *ashed. 2 4Let e fee$ yo&r pri#k.4 said I. 2 4Let e fee$ it.4 #ried ,. *ith e!#ited eyes. Re$i"3&ishi"% o"e of her $e%s I %rasped his too$ 2 a fi"e bi% ha"df&$ e1e" "o* 2 a"d p&$$ed hi by it #$ose to e. ,. p&t the $e% I(d dropped &p a"d resti"% o" his ha&"#h. The" fee$i"% hi . $ooki"% at 7.(s $itt$e b$a#k haired "ot#h po&ti"% red fro bet*ee" her b&tto#ks. I f&#ked a"d spe"t. a"d that ra"dy de1i$ ,. spe"t a%ai".
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4;hy did"(t yo& f&#k e/4 said 7. a"%ri$y. as I p&$$ed y pri#k o&t of ,.(s #&"t. She *as a $itt$e e$e1ated a"d 3&arre$so e. 2 4:a ah&#he her.4 said ,. *ho sat &p $ooki"% "o* fati%&ed i" her eyes 2 "o *o"6der/ 2 4Yo& did"(t spe"d *ith e.4 said I. 2 4I($$ s*ear I did.4 2 I k"e* her for#e. her stirri"% $e*ed"ess. b&t $iked to tease her so. I p&shed her ba#k a"d p&t y fi"%ers &p her #&"t. *hi$st *at#hi"% 7.. *ho i" a te per p&shed Fa"#y off. *ho *as %a ah&#hi"% her. 4Yo& do"(t do it "i#e.4 2 ;e a$$ $a&%hed. 2 4F&#k e.4 2 4I #a"(t yet.4 said he. 2 4I($$ fri% y6se$f. $et e fee$ yo&r pri#k.4 ,. %ot off the bed. 2 7. $ayed herse$f $e"%th*ise o" it. a"d fe$t his pri#k he sta"di"% by her side. *hi$st she fri%%ed herse$f. The" 2 4F&#k e. I hate fri%%i"%.4 a"d %etti"% off she r&shed to the #ha pa%"e. 2 There *as "o"e. 2 4Yo& ha1e had e"o&%h.4 said ,. 2 4I ha1e"(t. a"d yo&(1e had a$$ the f&#ki"%.4 2 4;hat if I ha1e/4 2 ,. *as o" the pot pissi"% as she spoke. 2 The" *as a *ra"%$e. i" *hi#h ,. to$d 7. she(d #o e there to he$p to a &se &s. a"d i%ht $ea1e if she $iked. More #ha pa%"e. 7$a#k %ot 3&ite s#re*ed a"d o&tra%eo&s$y ba&dy. ad for pri#k. ;e *ere a$$ %etti"% s#re*ed a"d Fa"#y parti#&$ar$y so. )" ho&r ra" a*ay. ,. *o&$d"(t i"ette e or hi . 2 4:a ah&#he e 7.. a"d *he" stiff I($$ f&#k yo&.4 said I. 2 4'o. yo& f&#k e *hi$st I %a ah&#he hi .4 2 ,. *as the" ha"d$i"% F.(s too$ b&t re$i"3&ished it. I $aid o" the bed a"d 7. i"etted e to ri%idity. the" I to"%&e ti#k$ed her 3&i a $itt$e. the" o" the bedside k"ee$i"% o1er her. she s&#ki"% e. Fa"#y f&#ked her. $ooki"% at y r& p. ,. $ooki"% o" a"d fee$i"% his ba$$o#ks fro behi"d. 4S&#k o".4 I #ried. 7&t 7. *ho had before ha$f fri%%ed herse$f spe"t a"d $et %o y pri#k $ea1i"% e &"6fi"ished. 2 4,e(s a fi"e pri#k.4 *ere the first *ords she &ttered. 2 4,e has.4 said ,. e&$o%isti#a$$y. More #ha pa%"e a"d s*eet #akes se"t for. 4Let(s f&#k o" the bed. side by side.4 2 4)$$ ri%ht. I($$ pidd$e first.4 2 4+o it i" the basi".4 2 4)$$ ri%ht.4 2 7oth *o e" ready for a"ythi"%. o&"ted the bed a"d pissed i" basi"s. *e *at#hi"% the strea s. 2 7$a#k $ost her ba$a"#e. fe$$ ba#k. a"d ti$ted o1er her basi" to*ards the bedside. 2 ;e p&$$ed her &p to the bed ed%e a"d she #o p$eted her sho*er. 2 The" he he$d the basi" &"der 7.(s b& . *hi$st he ope"ed 7.(s #&"t $ips. a"d I pissed a%ai"st it. )$$ this *ith $a&%hter a"d sho&ti"%s 2 a$$ $e*ed to o&r ba#kbo"es. The abbess #a e &p. said *e *ere aki"% a dreadf&$ "oise. a"d so e frie"ds of hers *ere be$o*. ) $itt$e 3&ieted. soo" after *e p&t both o&r pri#ks i"to both #&"ts. a"d ta$ked abo&t that. The" *e o&"ted the bed. he f$i#ked ,.. I f&#ked 7$a#k. both #o&p$es side by side a"d #$ose to%ether. ;e had fa"#ies e1e" the". a"d $yi"% o" the top of the fe$t ea#h other(s *o a". a"d sho*ed o&r pri#ks. 2 The" e"#o&ra%i"% ea#h other ba&di$y. *e f&#ked ti$$ *e spe"t a idst a #hor&s of $&stf&$ *ords. @&st the" i" #a e the abbess. a%ai". a"d s a#ked y r& p as I *as $yi"% o" 7.. a"d %i1i"% her the $ast *ri%%$e *ith y pri#k.

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The" *e had tea 2 the" ore *i"e 2 a"d a%ai" i"6#ited ea#h other to f&rther e!er#ise. 2 :ro%%y. *eary. f&#ked o&t a$$. yet $e*ed sti$$. *e kissed a$$ ro&"d a"d the" $eft o"e by o"e. I first. a"d "e1er sha$$ see the $ike a%ai". 2 It *as a" or%y. )t o&r "e!t eeti"%. ,. a"d I ta$ked abo&t "othi"% e$se. parti#&$ar$y of 7$a#k(s sa&#i"ess a"d of F.(s propa%ator. 4;e had 7. to a &se &s. a"d s&ppose she had"(t bee" f&#ked at a$$.4 said ,.. a"d 2 4,as"(t he a fi"e pri#k/4 She *ished *e #o&$d ha1e it a$$ o1er a%ai". 2 4>hi$ip(s pri#k %i1es yo& 0&st as &#h p$eas&re.4 2 4Yes. b&t I $ike to fee$ a bi% o"e4 2 I reproa#hed her for *hat she had do"e. for the risk she ra" of destroyi"% her positio" a"d happi"ess. 2 4,e($$ be a$*ays after yo&.4 2 She rep$ied that it *o&$d"(t at6ter. that they *ere %oi"% to o1e i$es a*ay. that he *as %oi"% to ) eri#a. 7&t she *as fri%hte"ed. a"d *o&$d "e1er see hi a%ai" she said Eso it e1e"t&atedF. E)$$ the eroti# *hi s *hi#h t*o e" a"d t*o *o e" #o&$d do to%ether i" fi1e ho&rs. I thi"k *e did. This part of the "arrati1e is 0&st as it *as *ritte" at the ti e.F

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Chapter VI )t a La"#ashire seaport. • ) i$$ha"d. • The $ast "i%ht of har$otti"%. • )t the brothe$. • Si"%&$ar bea&ty. • Si"%&$ar history. • T*o frisky *ork e". • Ca&%ht by a rope. • Le*ed ta$k. • Le*ed *a"ts. • ) ha"dy #offee shop. • O"e p$eas&red. o"e pai"ed. • )"other f$a%e$$atio" at the )bbess(s. • ) strai%ht haired #&"t to"s&red. • ,.(s $et#h for "o1e$ty. • The barrister %ratified. • F&#ki"% i" asks. I" $ate a&t& " this year I *as at a La"#ashire sea6port to*". a"d at abo&t fi1e o(#$o#k o"e after"oo". *a"deri"% abo&t $ooki"% at the shops. "oti#ed a *e$$ ade. *e$$ %ro*" *o a". *ith a" abso$&te$y $o1e$y fa#e a"d ar1e$$o&s$y #$ear #o p$e!io" 2 tho perhaps too *hite 2 *ho *as sa&"teri"% a$o"% doi"% the sa e. I stood #$ose to her *hi$st she $ooked at a bo"6"et shop. b&t she took "o "oti#e of e. ;as she a har6$ot or "ot. *a"deri"% abo&t a$o"e/ I(d had "o se!&a$ desire before. "o* i" a i"&te it o1er*he$ ed 2 de6sire for her. She *as dressed $ike a %e"tee$. poorish. idd$e #$ass *o a" e!#essi1e$y p$ai"$y. b&t the dress *as *or" *ith s&#h a" air of disti"#tio". that for the o e"t I #hased the idea of her a##essibi$ity. 2 I fo$$o*ed her a $o"% dista"#e "oti#i"% the s*i"% of her ha&"#hes. a"d the *ay she p$a#ed her pretty feet *hi#h *ere 1isib$e 6 for her petti#oats *ere short. 2 ,er boots tho "eat *ere #o o" a"d thi#k. She took "o "oti#e of passers by. "or they of her. She #a""ot be a str& pet tho&%ht I. b&t a ha"dso e offer ay %et her if she(s poor. 2 7&t *here take her to/ For I k"e* "o p$a#e. )ba"do"i"% ha$f for ed i"te"tio"s. yet *ith a 1o$&pt&o&s pe%o I stopped. a"d 0&st the" she t&r"ed ro&"d a"d re6tra#ed her steps. eeti"% e. $ooki"% #as&a$$y at e 0&st as a"y other *o a" i%ht. I t&r"ed ro&"d a"d fo$$o*ed her. sti$$ *ith &"defi"ed i"te"tio". )%ai" she stopped at a shop. I stopped too a"d re6 arked that *hat she *as $ooki"% at *as pretty. She 3&iet$y $ooked at e a"d a%reed that it *as. ,er a""er ade e "o* thi"k she *as to be had. She *a$ked o" a"d I did by her side. 2 4,o* $o1e$y yo& are. $et e %o ho e *ith yo&.4 2 4)h9 'o 2 i possib$e 2 %ood day Sir.4 a"d she t&r"ed ro&"d. Yet there *as so e6thi"% i" her a""er 2 I k"e* "ot *hat 2 *hi#h fai"t$y bespoke the #o&rte-a". ;ith hope I t&r"ed ro&"d a$so. a"d *a$ked by her side repeati"% y *ish. aski"% her to ha1e a %$ass of *i"e. a"d so o". 2 She be%%ed e to %o. *as *aiti"% for a frie"d. it *o&$d do her har if she *ere see" *a$ki"% *ith a %e"t$e a". 2 Yes. she e!pe#ted hi e1ery i"&te. 2 4I *ish I *ere he. I(d %i1e a #o&p$e of so1erei%"s to be ha$f a" ho&r *ith yo&.4 She stopped short at o"#e a"d $ooked at e. 4) #o&p$e of so1erei%"s9 That *o&$d be a he$p to &s 0&st "o*.4 2 She said this as if ref$e#ti"%. as if speaki"% to herse$f. 2 The" a%ai" she *a$ked o". I keepi"% sti$$ by her side b&t keepi"% si$e"#e.
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4+o"(t #o e *ith e. I( e!pe#ti"% y $ad.4 The" she hesitated. the" *e"t o". 4If he does"(t #o e by this. he #a"(t #o e for t*o ho&rs 2 te$$ e the ti e.4 2 I did. 4)" he #o e. *e($$ be off to%ether at o"#e. if "ot a"d ye($$ %i1e e t*o so1erei%"s. ye ay. b&t I ai"(t %ot "o $od%i"%s. I(1e %i1e" the &p. for I( off to"i%ht a"d for %ood.4 The" she said she &st *ait f&$$ te" i"&tes to ake s&re. she(d *a$k &p a"d do*". I *as to *ait at the #or"er of a street she poi"ted o&t. the" if her $ad had"(t arri1ed she be *ith e. 2 She spoke i" broad La"#ashire dia$e#t. *hi#h I do "ot atte pt to i itate. a"d *hi#h at ti es I #o&$d s#ar#e$y &"dersta"d. 'e1er did te" i"&tes see so $o"% to e. 2 I #o&"ted e1ery i"&te i" a fe1er of i patie"#e. pi#t&red her se#ret #har s to yse$f. *o"deri"% at sp$it. otte. thi%hs. *hether she(d f&#k *e$$. a"d if she *a"ted f&#ki"%. )t ti es I f&rti1e$y fe$t y pe%o *hi#h kept risi"% a"d fa$$i"% *ith $&st. a"d feared I sho&$d "ot ha1e her. for f&$$ te" i"&tes had passed *he" she appeared. 4;here sha$$ *e %o/4 said I. 2 4I(1e "o $od%i"%s "o* a"d o"$y k"o* a poor p$a#e abo&t here.4 2 I *o&$d ha1e %o"e to a pi% sty *ith her. a"d i" fi1e i"&tes the poor p$a#e he$d &s. It *as a $itt$e obs#&re ho&se i" a #o&rt. a$ ost a #otta%e. *ith t*o roo s for hire. b&t the bed roo *as #o fortab$e *ith a %ood fire. 4My $ad #a"(t be here for t*o ho&rs a"d a ha$f "o*. there be(a"t a"other trai" yet. a"d ye($$ %ie e t*o/4 said she the i"sta"t the door *as #$osed. 2 My rep$y *as to prod&#e the #oi"s a"d p&t the i"to her ha"d. 2 4It *i$$ do &s a po*er of %ood 0&st "o*. a"d ye($$ be the $ast.4 2 4;hy/4 2 4I( %oi"% a*ay to "i%ht to be arried.4 2 I s#ar#e$y heeded *hat she said bei"% so i patie"t for y p$eas&re. a"d p&t y ha"d &p her petti#oats. She rep&$sed the . a"d I tho&%ht for the i"sta"t she *as %oi"% to bi$k e. 'ot the first ti e that idea has #o e o1er e *he" *ith a %ay *o a". 4Let(s fee$ it.4 2 4;ait a bit. yo& sha$$. do"(t fear.4 Co posed i" a""er a"d as &"$ike a har$ot as possib$e. she took off bo""et a"d 0a#ket ost #aref&$$y a"d the" sat do*". 4Let(s fee$ yo&r #&"t.4 2 4I *i$$.4 Stoopi"% I p&shed y ha"d &p her petti#oats. a"d fe$t the si$ky fri"%ed "ot#h. 2 4Ye(re i" a h&rry4 2 $a&%hi"%. 4Take yo&r thi"%s off a"d $et e see yo&r #&"t.4 2 4Yo& sha$$. 2 yo& sha$$. 2 "e1er fear 2 *ait a bit.4 S$o*$y she took the off 2 I di61ested yse$f of #$othi"% a"d sho*ed y pri#k. 2 4Ohooo.4 she *hispered. a"d stopped &"dressi"%. 4Take the off.4 2 4;hat. a$$/ 2 There4 2 a"d she stood "aked. ) ore bea&tif&$$y ade *o a" I "e1er sa*. a"d for a i"&te *as spee#h$ess *ith ad iratio". the" fo$ded her i" y ar s. kissi"%. e!to$$i"% her $o1e$i"ess. pressi"% y stiff pri#k a%ai"st her be$$y *ith i"e. 2 The". 2 sti$$ both sta"di"% 2 y fi"%ers *ere titi$$ati"% her $o1e seat. *he" 3&iet$y her ha"d sto$e do*" a"d #$asped y pe%o. a"d so *e stood si$e"t. I(d ro&sed her passio". 4Let e see it.4 ;itho&t rep$y. o" to the bed she %ot a"d $aid *ith
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thi%hs apart. ) h&rried $ook at the pretty %roo1e. a s"iff a kiss o" the otte. a fi"%er thr&st rapid$y &p a"d do*" the oist a1e"&e. 2 4Let(s f&#k4 2 "e!t i"&te *e *ere e bra#i"% *ith 1o$&pt&o&s %e"t$e si%hs. y pri#k e"#$osed i" her $&bri#io&s #&"t a"d %$idi"% &p a"d do*". o&r bodies o"e5 a"d ah too soo". #a e ti%hte"i"% of her #&"t aro&"d y pri#k. *hi#h throbbed a"d spe"t. a"d *e $ay 3&iet$y i" ea#h other(s ar s i" soft repose. The" soo" after. 4Yo& e"6 0oyed it/4 a foo$ish 3&estio" b&t I a$*ays p&t it. 2 She ade "o rep$y. b&t patted y arse #heeks i" a" affe#tio"ate. #oa!i"% a""er. I &"#&"ted at $ast a"d she 4It(s #o$d. 2 Let e p&t o" y #he ise.4 She did. *e rose. pissed. *ashed 2 the &s&a$ ro&ti"e 2 the" sat by the fire 2 tho it *as"(t 1ery #o$d *eather. 2 She asked e to %i1e her 4a %$ass.4 2 4;hat/4 4;hiskey.4 2 That *as bro&%ht. I(d bee" *eari"% a #ape *hi#h "o* I p&t o1er her. a"d p&t o" y o*" fro#k #oat o1er y shirt. the" dri"ki"% *e sat a"d ta$ked side by side. The e#stati# se!&a$ e 6bra#e #oo$s desire. a"d for a ti e eroti# #&riosity is a$6 ost dead. b&t it soo" re1i1ed i" e. a"d I be%a" t*idd$i"% her 3&i . 4I ai"(t i" a h&rry.4 said she the". to$d e her history. part$y before. part$y after o&r se#o"d e bra#e. b&t its to$d here #o"ti"&o&s$y. 4Yes. a i$$ha"d. at a #otto" i$$.4 2 )t se1e"tee" the yo&"% aster 4did e.4 ,er father *as a" e"%i"eer at the i$$. fo&"d it o&t soo" after. ki#ked &p a ro*. a"d a h&"dred po&"ds *as %i1e" hi as da 6a%es. for the da a%e do"e to her 1ir%i"ity. 2 The o"ey &"sett$ed hi . he dra"k a bit. she $eft the i$$. *orked the" steadi$y at ho e for a *hi$e. a"d "o o"e e"tered her preser1e. a"d the". so eho* she 4$o"%ed for a bit.4 she s&pposed 2 a"d %ot f&#ked a%ai". 2 4Yes. for $o1e o"$y.4 a"d the" t&r"ed har$ot. ) yo&"% a" i" the i$$ a$so a e#ha"i#ia". k"e* her history. k"e* her father. fo&"d her o&t. f&#ked her har$ot *ise. fe$$ i" $o1e *ith her. the" f&#ked for $o1e a"d she a$so *ith hi . She sa1ed o"ey. a"d he sa1ed a bit. her father appro1ed a"d %a1e &p *hat he(d "ot spe"t i" $i3&or. her sed&#er had pro ised t*e"ty po&"ds *he" they *ere arried. a"d they *ere %oi"% to arry a"d ope" a $itt$e shop at H H H H *here he(d fo&"d *ork. 2 ,e *as #o i"% there "o* to eet her *he" I had. if he #o&$d %et a*ay i" ti e. b&t #ertai"$y he *o&$d %et a*ay i" ti e. b&t #ertai"$y he *o&$d #o e by the "e!t trai". ,er bo! *as at the statio". she(d %i1e" &p the key of her $od%i"% 2 that ba&dy ho&se *as the o"$y p$a#e she #o&$d *ait i" 4ti$$ I eet y $ad.4 4I did"(t ea" to $et yo& 2 I(1e "ot do"e it for a *eek a"d to$d hi I *o&$d"(t. b&t o"ey *i$$ be so &sef&$ to &s at a start.4 2 4Oh do"(t 2 yo&($$ ake e 3&eer.4 2 4Oh. do"(t ta$k of hi 2 #o e o" a"d do it the".4 Le*ed she *as *ith ta$k. *ith titi$$atio". a"d her fee$ of y shaft. a"d o" the bed a%ai" *e f&#ked. She *a"ted it ore tha" before. as I %&essed by her #$asp. the *ay her to"%&e et i"e. her s3&ee-e of y b&tto#ks. her hea1es. 3&ie1rs a"d $o1e si%hs. She *as o"$y ei%htee" a"d a ha$f. yet her for *as f&$$ a"d perfe#t as three a"d t*e"ty. She(d the $o1e$iest thi%hs. the s*eetest $itt$e si$ky fri"%ed "ot#h.
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s#ar#e$y "y phae or #$itoris 2 3&ite a yo&"% %ir$(s #&"t. 2 She *as pro&d of her shape a"d *i$$i"%$y $et e see a$$. de6$i%hted *ith y praise. ,er a""ers *ere &tter$y &"6$ike those of a *hore. The hair o" head a"d tai$ *as $i%ht #hest"&t. "o dark stai" *as o" her b& f&rro* *hi#h *as "ear$y as *hite as her b&tto#ks. a"d they *ere i1ory. It %re* dark soo" after I *as there a"d *e had #a"d$es 2 for *hi#h they #har%ed e!tra 2 a"d I he$d o"e to the f&rro* to i"spe#t her *hi$st she k"e$t o" the bed. The" after a ti e &"ab$e to tai$ her a third ti e. I %a1e her p$eas&re *ith y to"%&e. a"d "e1er $i#ked a ore de$i#ate #$itoris. She(d a fa#e ha"dso e i" her bo""et. b&t it *as far ore bea&tif&$ *itho&t it. ,er eyes *ere dark b$&e. 2 She had"(t the s$i%htest $ook or a$$&re of a str& pet. The *hiskey ade her ta$k free$y. a"d *e had $ots of ti e. Fi1e shi$$i"%s *as her &s&a$ fee. 2 4For I do"(t dress $ike s*e$$ o"es.4 2 4'o. "ot ofte" te" 2 I do"(t $ike speaki"% to %e"ts. 2 I(1e o"$y bee" three o"ths at the b&si"ess a"d do"(t $ike it 2 "or the %a$s.4 4;hy did I %o to i$$*ork/ Father ade e so as to $ook after e. he said. other did"(t *a"t e to %o. Yo& ay *ait a"d see e *ith hi b&t do"(t #o e "ear e. I( 3&ite s&re he($$ #o e for e. 2 I sha"(t te$$ hi *hat I(1e do"e to"i%ht. I *o&$d"t( ha( do"e it b&t *e *a"t o"ey so.4 I *aited i" the dista"#e. sa* her eet a"d %o to*ards the statio" *ith a de#e"t yo&"% a". her $ad e1ide"t$y. 2 I(1e et fro ti e to ti e so e i"teresti"% har$ots a"d this *as o"e of the . so retai" the "arrati1e abo&t her. Late o" a d&$$. oist. dark "i%ht i" 'o1e ber. I *as passi"% a$o"% a 3&iet street i" a poor "ei%hbo&rhood. *he" t*o *o e" approa#hed e si"%i"% a"d $o&d$y $a&%hi"%. They he$d a short rope bet*ee" the . a"d as they #a e "ear. thi"ki"% the a #o o" fro$i#kso e a"d ha$f s#re*ed #o&p$e. I o1ed to the ed%e of the foot*ay to $et the pass. They $arki"%. $e"%the"ed the rope. a"d #a&%ht a"d e"t*i"ed e *ith it 0&st be$o* y hips. $a&%hi"% hearti$y at their tri#k. 2 4;e(1e #a&%ht yo& yo&"% a". *hat *i$$ yo& sta"d/4 2 It *as #$ose to a %as$a p. a"d seei"% it *as a ha"dso e. bo$d fa#ed *o a" *ho spoke. 2 4Sta"d y dear/ 2 It *o"(t sta"d a"y ore. yo&(1e p&$$ed it off *ith the rope. $ook for it.4 2 I happe"ed to ha1e a hottish ba$$o#ks that "i%ht. a"d ba&dy rep$ies #a e "at&ra$$y 2 tho far fro bei"% yo&"%. )t that both $a&%hed so hearti$y a"d I as *e$$. a"d *e sta"di"% #$ose to%ether 2 the rope sti$$ ro&"d e. 2 ade s&#h a "oise. that so e o"e o" the other side of the *ay stopped to $ook at &s. 2 4I #a"(t see it.4 said the bi%%est a"d p$& p o"e. *ho $ooked abo&t fi1e a"d t*e"ty. The other a s$i . poor $ooki"% #reat&re of abo&t ei%htee". o"$y %i%%$ed. a"d the" be#a e si$e"t. 4It(s bet*ee" yo&r thi%hs perhaps.4 2 4,o. ho. ho 2 it ai"(t yo&(re *eari"% it sti$$.4 2 4,e. he. he.4 %i%%$ed the s$i o"e. 2 4'o. bet*ee" yo&r thi%hs 2 $et e fee$ there. 2 It *as stiff a"d if I fi"d it there I($$ %i1e yo& fi1e shi$$i"%s. a"d yo& sha$$ p&t it ba#k if yo& #a". I #a"(t %o ho e *itho&t it.4 2 4,o. ho. ho 2 *hat/4 2 4My pe%.4 2 a"d I p&shed at her #$othes i" the re%io" of her #&"t. 2 4:i1e e the fi1e bob the" a"d yo& sha$$.4 2 4>o$$y 2 >o$$y 2 yer do"(t k"o* *hat yer
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abo&t.4 said the other re o"strati"%. 2 4,is pe% 2 ho. ho. ho.4 $a&%hed the other. They *ere %a e I sa*. *hores they did"(t see to be. b&t *orkers of a poor #$ass a"d *ho de#ided$y had bee" dri"ki"%. That #$ass does"(t i"d ba&dy $a"%&a%e. they hear e"o&%h of it. 2 4I #a$$ it a pe% to $adies. b&t there(s a"other "a e.4 2 4Te$$ &s.4 2 4>o$$y 2 #o e a$o"%.4 2 4Fee$ if it(s o" yer yet. 2 ,o. ho.4 a"d >o$$y $a&%hed sti$$. as &"t*i"i"% the rope she *as p&tti"% her ha"ds bet*ee" the fo$d of y %reat #oat. *he" the other p&$$ed the a*ay. 4>o$$y 2 yer do"(t k"o* *hat yer abo&t.4 2 4Sh&t &p.4 2 said >o$$y. 4Co e a$o"%.4 2 4I sha"(t.4 4Let(s ha1e a %$ass of *i"e a"d I($$ fee$ if yo&(1e %ot it abo&t yo& dear.4 said I. 2 4Yo&(1e %ot it ri%ht e"o&%h.4 2 4Lord. so I ha1e. a"d it(s sti$$ stiff.4 2 The" the other 2 "a ed Sarah 2 a%ai" reb&ked the e$der. said she sho&$d %o a"d *as to$d she i%ht. b&t. 4+o"(t be a foo$. #o e a"d ha1e a dri"k *ith the %e"t.4 2 *hi#h I(d offered. 2 4Fo$$o* &s. there(s a "i#e >&b aro&"d the "e!t street.4 said >o$$y. *ho see ed to k"o* the $o#a$ity. I *as %oi"% to the p&b. k"o*i"% that 7a##h&s he$ps Ve"&s. a"d thi"ki"% I i%ht so eho* %et i"to the p$& p o"e *ho(d e!#ited y desires. *he" it o##&rred to e as "ot desirab$e to be see" by a #ha"#e ed$ey of poor peop$e. at a p&b$i# ho&se i" a poor "ie%hbo&rhood "o*. a"d be#a&se she *as so #oarse a"d #o o" 2 si"%&$ar are y $et#hes 2 a"d perhaps *o&$d ha1e %o"e to the >&b. soo"er tha" $ose the #ha"#e of seei"% *hat I k"e* *as a spa"ki"% b& .. )t the street #or"er *as a poor $ooki"% #offee shop. 4Let(s %o i" here. they($$ fet#h &s a$$ *e *a"t.4 said I. 2 I" *e t*o *e"t. the other $oitered o&tside. 2 4I($$ *ait for yo&.4 2 4Co e i". do"(t be a foo$.4 a"d i" #a e Sarah. They(d "othi"% b&t tea a"d #offee. b&t they fet#hed &s $i3&or for *hi#h they #har%ed hi%h$y. They sat at a tab$e i" a #or"er *ith e. the t*o dra"k %i" a"d *ater. the e$dest(s to"%&e ra" o" i"#essa"t$y. I #haffi"% ba&di$y b&t *itho&t fra"k *ords. she de$i%hted rep$yi"% a"d $ooki"% i" y eyes $&stf&$$y. The" &"der the tab$e I %rasped her $ar%e thi%h o&tside her #$othes. a"d "&d%ed her be$$y. 4'o*. do"(t.4 2 4It(s there.4 2 4It ai"(t.4 2 4It is.4 2 4;hat/4 2 4+o"(t. >o$$y.4 said the thi" o"e a%ai". 2 @&st the" i" #a e o"e $ooki"% $ike a #ab6 a". *ho bo&%ht a ro$$ a"d b&tter. a"d disappeared *ith it. b&t he(d eyed &s so the *ho$e ti e he *as there that I fe$t &"#o fortab$e. a"d so soo" as he had %o"e. asked if they had a pri1ate roo . The istress said 4'o.4 $ooked at the aid. a"d they he$d a #o"1ersatio" i" a $o* to"e. The" she said they had "o pri1ate roo s. b&t there *as o"e I i%ht ha1e ti$$ the ho&se *as #$osed. I a##epted it. a"d *e *e"t &p a "arro* stair#ase to a bedroo . There the ser1a"t. 4;e do"(t $et roo s. b&t this is it. fi1e shi$$i"%s 2 *i$$ yo& p$ease pay first. Sir/4 2 I %a1e it her. the $i3&or *as bro&%ht &p. b&t Sarah *o&$d"(t stop *he" she sa* the bed. 2 4I sha"(t the" 2 yo&r a%oi"( o" too far 2 yer do"(t k"o* *hat yer doi"%.4 2 +o*" stairs she *e"t. a"d I *as a$o"e *ith the p$& p o"e. 2 4I($$ take her so e %i".4 said she.
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a"d po&ri"% o&t ha$f a t& b$er. do*" she *e"t ret&r"i"% a$o"e. Sarah *o&$d"(t #o e. 4;e(d best perhaps %o do*" a%i".4 said >o$$y tho&%ht6f&$$y. )fter see i"%$y a i"&te(s ref$e!io". a%ai" she said. 4>erhaps I(d better %o.4 2 4'o"se"se. *hat did yo& #o e &p here for/4 2 sayi"% that I $o#ked the door. #$osed o" >o$$y. p&shed her a%ai"st the bed. a"d assa&$ted her pri1ates. She(d so e%%ed e o" to ba&dy #haff a"d s &tty s&%%estio"s. that I(d fe$t s&re of ha1i"% her. b&t as y ha"d to&#hed her thi%hs she resisted. p&shed do*" her #$othes. p&shed e a*ay sto&t$y. $a&%hi"% as if ha$f p$eased tho ref&si"%. a"d s3&a$$i"% $o&d$y. 2 4Yo& sha"(t 2 do"(t "o* 2 a 0oke(s a 0oke 2 I *o"(t 2 I( arried.4 2 4Yo&(re "ot 2 *here(s yo&r ri"%/4 2 4>a*"ed.4 2 4I *i$$ f&#k yo&. 4Yo& sha"(t4 a"d she s#&ff$ed as &#h as 1irt&o&s ser1a"ts ha1e do"e *ho I(1e assai$ed si i$ar$y. I *as so a""oyed at y hi"dra"#e. fe$t so spitef&$. that $ea1i"% off I a"%ri$y said. 4Yo&(re "ot arried. yo&r $i"e"(s dirty. that(s *hy yo& *o"(t $et e.4 I did"(t ea" it. b&t sa1a%e$y *a"ted to offe"d her. to say so ethi"% to a""oy. a"d that #a e i pro pt&. I said &#h of the sa e sort. b&t a$$ i" the sa e strai". 4+irty/ Me dirty/ C$ea"er tha" yo&. I($$ s*ear. +irty9 I(d *ash y shift to ra%s rather tha" be dirty. 2 Yo& ha1e #heek. 2 Sho* e yo&r shirt 2 $ook.4 2 Sayi"% that she t&r"ed &p her petti#oats to her %arters. a"d I sa* the sto#ki"%s a"d a$$ she had o" *as as *hite as #o&$d be. tho her a"k$e 0a#kboots *ere &ddy. 2 4Yo&r #&"t(s dirty the".4 2 4Yo& $ie. it ai"(t.4 4Let(s p&t this &p it.4 2 p&$$i"% o&t y pri#k. 2 4Sha"(t.4 2 7&t she $ooked at y #&"t prodder *hi#h *as i" sp$e"did for#e. She *as $e*ed before. "o* $e*eder sti$$ a"d she $a&%hed. I #$osed o" her a%ai". %ot y fi"%ers o" the soft s$it *ith b&t trif$i"% hi"dra"#e. a"d fri%%ed a*ay at it. 2 4'o* do"(t 2 oh do"(t.4 Vo$&pt&o&s se"satio"s *ere #o"3&eri"% for e. 2 ;hat *o a" #a" ref&se a pri#k *he" the a"(s fi"%ers ha1e bee" i" f&$$ possessio" of her #&"t a i"&te/ 4Fee$ y pri#k.4 2 She s$id her ha"d do*" to it after t*i#e sayi"%. 4Sha"(t4 a"d i" a"other i"&te it *as &p her #&"t. as she $ay at the bedside o" to *hi#h I p&shed a"d $ifted her. C&iet. absorbed i" #ar"a$ p$eas&re. the de$i#io&s #risis #a e o". a"d disso$1ed &s. spe"di"% i"to i obi$ity a"d si$e"#e. C&iet$y she $ay as ho$di"% &p her thi%hs. "est$i"% y pe%o i"to her. *e $ooked i"to ea#h other(s eyes i" si$e"#e. e"0oyi"% the #ar"a$ 0&"#tio". F&#ki"% is i" its esse"tia$ a$*ays the sa e. the idea$ities are e1erythi"%. therei" $ays the #har of 1ariety. I fe$t si"%&$ar de6$i%ht i" f&#ki"% this #o o" *o a" *ho I(d o"$y see" ha$f a" ho&r. 2 It takes $o"%er to te$$ tha" to a#t. 2 ;ho i%ht be arried or si"%$e. or of a"y o##&patio". a"d *hose #&"t I(d "ot e1e" see". Re$i"3&ishi"% o"e thi%h I p&shed her petti#oats &p. a"d $ooki"% do*" sa* a dark f&$$y haired otte. the hair i"%$i"% *ith i"e. a"d p&t a fi"%er o" to the #$itoris 2 4Is"(t f&#ki"% $o1e$y/4 2 4Is"(t it/4 rep$ied she. Cat#hi"% ho$d of her thi%h a%ai". I s3&ee-ed y be$$y *e$$ a%ai"st hers. fee$i"% y pe%o to be d*i"d$i"%. 4,as yo&r frie"d bee" f&#ked/4 4+&""o. b&t she has
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%ot a $o1er.4 2 4;here(s yo&r h&sba"d/4 2 4:od k"o*s. o" the tra p I s&ppose.4 2 4Yo& are arried.4 2 She "odded. 4;ho f&#ks yo& "o*/4 2 4'o o"e.4 2 4;hat a story.4 2 She $a&%hed. a"d it s3&ee-ed y #o#k o&t of her. The" *e *ashed i" the sa e basi". there *as "o to*e$. so shirt a"d #he ise did d&ty. )fter*ards 2 4Sho* e yo&r #&"t.4 2 4)$$ ri%ht. I( #$ea". 2 $ook.4 2 p&$$i"% her #$othes &p to her otte. she $et e see. sayi"% ho* #$ea" her $i"e" *as. I sa* a #&"t fat $ipped. a"d f&$$ f$ed%ed. 4'o. I ai"(t had a #hi$d.4 said she. "oti#i"% y i"1esti%ati"%s. 2 )"other $et#h #a e o". 4I(d %i1e yo& te" shi$$i"%s to see yo&r frie"d(s #&"t. a"d she te" to sho* it.4 2 She see ed s&rpri-ed. 2 4;i$$ yo&/ +o"(t thi"k she *i$$.4 2 4Try to %et her &pstairs.4 2 4I *i$$. b&t she(s a st&pid. do"(t say yo&(1e do"e it to e.4 2 Sayi"% that. she p&t o" her bo""et a"d *e"t do*"stairs. The t*o had as said 4had a drop4 before I(d et the . They(d had %i" si"#e. Sarah had had a t& b$er ore tha" ha$f f&$$ to dri"k *hi$st do*" stairs. Ope"i"% the door I heard &#h $a&%hi"%. a"d Sarah appeared. p&shed &p stairs by >o$$y i"to the roo . 'o soo"er there tha" I to$d her I *a"ted to see her $itt$e 3&i a"d *o&$d %i1e her te" shi$$i"%s 2 I(d %ot their "a es pat. 4>o$$y says the" she($$ sho* e hers.4 Tho s$i%ht$y s#re*ed she ref&sed a"d there *as &#h ta$k. 2 4;e ai"(t *hores.4 said she. 2 >o$$y p&$$ed her petti#oats &p to her %arters. a"d the" she p&$$ed o&t y pri#k. a%ai" fair$y stiff. 2 7oth $a&%hed at it. 2 >o$$y said. 4It(s %etti"% $ate 2 *i$$ yer or *o"(t yer / 2 I($$ sho* hi i"e if yo&($$ sho* hi yo&rs.4 2 4S&p6pose @a#k hears o" it.4 2 4@a#k be b$o*ed. ho* #a" he k"o* &"$ess yo& te$$s hi .4 2 I p&t o" the tab$e the t*o ha$f so1erei%"s a"d they eyed the . 2 4;i$$ yo& "o*/ If "ot *e($$ %o.4 2 4It(s a%oi"( too far.4 said Sarah 2 I p&t the o"ey i" y po#ket. 2 4Yo& sho* hi first.4 2 4There. the".4 said >o$$y. p&tti"% her b& o" the bed a"d e!posi"% her #har s. 2 The other #h&#k$ed. 2 4,e. ,e. ,e. $ook at yo&.4 2 4Yo& ha1e see" it before. #o e o". sho* it hi .4 2 She *e"t to Sarah a"d p&shed her &p #h&#k$i"%. 4,e. ,e. ,e4 b&t she *as yie$di"%. a"d "e!t i"&te *as $ayi"% o" the bed. petti#oats &p to her "a1e$. $e%s ha"%i"% do*". her #ra#k 0&st 1isib$e. *hi$st >o$$y i" a si i$ar positio" b&t *ith thi%hs *e$$ apart. $ay $a&%hi"% by her side. I i"1esti%ated the #&"ts of both. b&t the yo&"% o"e did"(t $ike that. 2 4Yo&(1e bee" f&#ked.4 said I. 24I ai"(t.4 2 4She has.4 said >o$$y. 2 4I ai"(t bee".4 2 4I($$ f&#k yo& the".4 2 4'o. yo& sha"(t.4 2 She ro&sed herse$f a"d ha$f %ot off the bed. I pro ised "ot to at6te pt it a"d %ot her to $ay do*" a%ai" *ith #&"t sho*i"%. 4I($$ f&#k yo& the".4 2 4)$$ ri%ht.4 said >o$$y. 'e!t se#o"d y ba$$s *ere ba"%i"% a%ai"st her b&tto#ks. 2 4Oh9 If @a#k e1er heard.4 %i%%$ed the s$i o"e. 2 4@a#k be b&%%ered.4 said >o$$y. hea1i"% her r& p respo"si1e$y to y thr&sts. Si$e"t *ere a$$ three "o* as I f&#ked. fee$i"% Sarah(s thi" thi%hs a"d 3&i . 2 4)ha 2 f&#k 2 #&"t.4 I #ried. 2 4)hrr 2 )hrr.4 sobbed >o$$y. 2
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4Oho. yo& h&rt.4 #ried o&t the s$i o"e. I" the paro!ys s of p$eas&re I(d h&rt her #&"t *ith y fi"%ers. 4;e(d better %et ho e or there($$ be a 0o$$y ki#k &p.4 said the s$i o"e *hi$st sti$$ y pri#k *as i" the other(s 3&i . 2 I *as i" a h&rry a$so. &"#&"ted. a"d i" fi1e i"&tes *as o&t of the ho&se. after %i1i"% the t*o ha$f so1erei%"s. 2 They *ere "ot sisters they said. *hi#h *as a$$ I #o&$d $ear". e!#epti"% that they(d #arried so ethi"% ho e bet*ee" the tied &p *ith the rope. a"d had had a drop *ith the o"ey they(d %ot. I thi"k they *ere $a&"dresses. I e"0oyed this #ha"#e a o&r i e"se$y. it *as so differe"t fro the b&si"ess6 $ike f&#ki"% *ith a har6$ot. pri#e a%reed beforeha"d. 7&t ho* stra"%e9 )s *e et as stra"%ers i" the street. *ho #o&$d ha1e i a%i"ed that they(d sho* e their #&"ts. a"d that o"e *o&$d be f&#ked t*i#e *ithi" a" ho&r. These i pro pt& a o&rs are de$i#io&s. ) $o"% ti e had passed si"#e *e sa* the a" bir#hed. a"d ,. a"d I *ished to see a"other. The abbess said she(d try to arra"%e it. b&t so e of her e" stro"%$y ob0e#ted to be ade a sho* of. tho o"e or t*o $iked it. She did"(t k"o* *he" the e!posa"ts *o&$d #o e. or *he" *e sho&$d be there. a$$ *as a ere #ha"#e. yet it *as o"$y o" o&r bei"% a$$ there at the sa e ti e that it #o&$d #o e off. Three or fo&r o"ths ra" a*ay before it did. There o"e day. said the abbess. 4If yo&(d $ike to see a bir#hi"% to day. there *i$$ be a %e"t$e a" *ho $ikes to be $ooked at. b&t *he" I te$$ yo&. yo& &st ho$d &p yo&r #he ise a"d she* hi yo&r t*atts. he($$ see it. tho yo& ay thi"k he *o"(t. do"(t speak a *ord a"d $ea1e dire#t$y he spe"ds.4 ,. *o&$d"(t ask herse$f a"d *e"t do*" *ith a $o1e$y $a#ed #he ise o"$y o". 2 I *ith a shirt o" o"$y b&t asked. Layi"% a$o"% a sofa. *as a fair haired. bearded a" *ho I 0&d%ed bet*ee" thirty fi1e a"d forty. *ith his fa#e hidde" by both ha"ds. ,e *as $ayi"% abo&t three 3&arters o" his be$$y. so that *e #o&$d see his pri#k 2 *hi#h *as "ot stiff 2 a"d ba$$s. ,is shirt *as t&#ked &p to abo1e his *aist. his tro*sers p&$$ed do*" to his k"ees. a"d the *ho$e of his ba#kside a"d thi%hs *ere bare. ;e stood by his side a"d the abbess be%a". 2 S*ish. She ta$ked so e "o"se"se to hi . abo&t her bei"% the %o1er"ess a"d #orre#ti"% hi . to *hi#h he ade "o rep$y. The s*ishi"% *e"t o" s$o*$y at abo&t a stroke a i"&te. %rad&a$$y his pri#k e$o"%ated a"d the %$a"d e!tr&ded itse$f #o p$ete$y. as his ba#kside %re* redder a"d redder. The" she str&#k ore 3&i#k$y. 2 4Ohoo.4 2 he &r &ri"%$y *hispered 2 4,o 2ho 2 I #a"(t.4 2 S*ish. 2 S*ish. 2 ,is ba#kside be%a" to os#i$$ate. his pri#k r&bbed bet*ee" his be$$y a"d the soft *hite sheet *hi#h #o1ered the sofa. The" as arra"%ed. ,.. *ho stood "earer his head tha" I did $ifted her #he ise &p to her "a1e$. sho*i"% her $o1e$y thi%hs a"d #hest"&t #o1ered otte. she $iked she*i"% it. I sa* his fi"%ers ope" so that he #o&$d $ook thro the at her. yet I #o&$d"(t see a bit of his fa#e. he &r &red so ethi"% as if i" p$eas&re. 0o%%ed his be$$y as if f&#ki"%. a"d his pri#k *hi#h I #o&$d see *e$$ "o*. shot o&t a $ot of sper o" to the sheet. The" he #eased a"d $aid 3&iet. she dropped her
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#he ise #o1eri"% her #har s. a"d *e both $eft. I paid for the si%ht. a"d dare say that the 1i#ti paid for the si%ht of ,.(s "&dity. Miss R.. the fat r& ped. had $o"% #eased to be see". a"d Miss 7. at ti es #o&$d "ot be had tho both of &s $iked her. for she *as a de o" at i"etti"%. a"d *ith diffi#&$ty #o&$d be %ot a*ay fro ,.(s 3&i *he" o"#e her o&th *as o" it. She had a$so as said a $o1e$y #&"t i" si-e. shape. #o$or. a"d %ro*th of fri"%e. So f&#ki"% her fro behi"d *hi$st she %a ah&#hed ,. %a1e i"fi"ite p$eas&re to &s a$$. The abbess $iked to i"trod&#e others a"d "o do&bt %ot paid for it. O"e day a Miss +HHsy *as "a ed. 664Speaks three $a"%&a%es. has bee" kept. "ot $o"% bee" %ay. a"d "o* o"$y o" the 3&iet. 3&ite &p to f&".4 2 So *e had Miss +. a ta$$ish. 3&ite fair haired *o a" of say ei%ht a"d t*e"ty. a %e"tee$ *o a" *ho spoke Fre"#h a"d :er a" as I fo&"d. a"d *ho rea$$y k"e* &#h abo&t E&rope. She $ike a$$ the others took a $et#h for ,. 2 they a$$ do 2 a"d of #o&rse I f&#ked her *hi$st i"etti"% ,. 2 the &s&a$ for &$a. 7&t so eho* her #&"t did"(t fit e at a$$. a"d I #ared "ot abo&t f&#ki"% her. Yet *e had her se1era$ ti es. she *as so #o"1ersab$e. a"d ta$ked eroti# phi$osophy i" #haste $a"%&a%e i" the *ay poor Ca i$$e &sed. a"d for so e reaso" or other 2 *ho #a" %i1e reaso"s for $et#hes tho *e try/ 2 the t*o *o e" &sed to e!a i"e 1ery #&rio&s$y ea#h other(s #&"ts 2 a thi"% *hi#h &s&a$$y ,. did "ot #are abo&t doi"%. tho she(d fri% a"y #&"t "ear her *he" I *as f&#ki"% her. Miss +.(s #&"ta$ fri"%e *as si$ky b&t "ot 1ery #&r$y. a"d at ha$f *ay do*" the sides of the $ips the #&r$s $o"%. It #o"ti"&ed so "ear$y ro&"d the di1isio" bet*ee" pri#k ho$e a"d b& ho$e. a"d *he" she s3&atted to pidd$e 2 of #o&rse I ade her do that. her #&"t $ooked 2 as i"deed it did *he" she stood &pri%ht or $ay o" the bed *ith thi%hs apart. 2 "ot &"$ike the e"d of a broo . I to$d her of this. sayi"% it *as &%$y. 2 ,. a%reed *ith e. Miss +. said she did"(t $ike it a"d $ooked #aref&$$y at ,.(s o"e day 2 *hose $ips as they die a*ay to*ards her b& ho$e are s$i%ht$y #o1ered by the shortest hairs *ith a #har i"% te"de"#y to #&r$ 2 I said that if +(s *ere #$ipped short they *o&$d $ook "i#er to e 2tho perhaps "ot to others. for tastes 1ary. 2 It e"ded i" y artisti#a$$y tri i"% Miss +HHsy(s stra%%$i"% #&"ta$ fri"%e *ith the s#issors. 2 'e!t ti e see" she *as de6$i%hted. for the short hairs had a#t&a$$y #&r$ed partia$$y. she e!a i"ed the *ith a ha"d %$ass before &s. a"d *e *itho&t the %$ass. The bea&ty of her #&"t *as rea$$y e"ha"#ed by y to"soria$ ski$$. a"d parti#&$ar$y *he" she k"e$t o" the bed a"d *e 1ie*ed her 3&i fro behi"d. Yet as her #&"t after se1era$ tria$s did"(t fit e. *e dis#o"ti"&ed seei"% her. She *as soo" after a%ai" kept by a %e"t$e a". the abbess said. 2 She *as a #o"1ersab$e *o a". a"d "o do&bt her #&"t had fo&"d a s&itab$e part"er. 2 So e #&"ts "e1er see to fit e 2 others are de$i#io&s. ) #o&p$e of years "ear$y had passed si"#e the eroti# 3&artette. ;e ofte" ta$ked abo&t it a"d ,. *ished *e #o&$d p$ay the sa e %a es a%ai". b&t I had "o s&#h
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i"te"tio" "or #o&$d afford it. I sa* ho*e1er fro the to"e o&r #o"1ersatio" took. that she *a"ted to ha1e a"6other a". 4Sho&$d"(t yo& $ike to see e f&#ked/ I sho&$d $ike to fee$ yo&r pri#k *hi$st he f&#ked e.4 a"d so o". ;e ta$ked so before the abbess o"e day. *ho said 4a"d I k"o* o"e *ho is dyi"% to ha1e her.4 The" it tra"spired that a fre3&e"ter of the ho&se had see" ,HHH *he" %oi"% a*ay o"e day. a"d had fa$$e" 1io$e"t$y i" $o1e *ith her. 4,as he a bi% pri#k/4 asked ,. ea%er$y. The abbess said he had. that he *as a %e"t$e a". a barrister. b&t poor. ;e ta$ked o1er this a"d a%reed to ha1e hi . ,e *as spoke" to. a"d it *as &$ti ate$y arra"%ed that *e sho&$d a$$ be asked. a"d that he *as to f&#k ,. *hi$st I *as prese"t. The bi% pri#k. the pri#k she(d "e1er see". ade ,. ready for a"ythi"%. a"d she did"(t dis%&ise the p$eas&re that the "o1e$ty *o&$d %i1e her. This took so e ti e to bri"% abo&t. they "e1er k"o*i"% $o"% before ha"d. *he" habit&es ay arri1e. O"e after"oo" the abbess said as *e e"tered. 4,e(s #o i"%. I(1e 0&st %ot a $etter a"d ha1e se"t for a $ady for hi . he($$ #o"se"t to asks. or a"ythi"% e$se to ha1e yo&r frie"d.4 ;e *ere a $itt$e start$ed at first. ,. said she #o&$d"(t ti$$ she(d see" *hat sort of a" he *as. She *as"(t %oi"% to $et a"y &%$y. o$d. #o o" a" ha1e her. ;he" he arri1ed she *e"t do*" to be i"trod&#ed hi . a"d #a e ba#k appro1i"%. he *as a fi"e ta$$ ha"dso e a" of thirty a"d *a"ted to f&#k her there a"d the". ,er eyes %$iste"ed *ith $&st. she had the e!3&isite$y. 1o$&pt&o&s $ook i" her fa#e *hi#h she has *he" ra"dy. I $ayed do*" the #o"ditio"s. ,e *as to be "aked a$$ b&t his shirt. I to see his pri#k. a"d fee$ it if I $iked. 2 4'o.4 said the abbess. 4he *o"(t a$$o* that.4 2 4The" he sha"(t ha1e her.4 2 +o*" the abbess *e"t a"d ret&r"i"% said that I i%ht fee$ hi if I $iked. 2 4Let hi #o e.4 2 said I i patie"t$y. Up he #a e *ith ask o" a"d soo" di1ested hi se$f of his #$othes. ,. *itho&t ask sat o" his k"ee a"d p&$$ed abo&t a %ra"d. stiff too$. tri& pha"t$y. *hi$st he fi"%ered her 3&i . ,e *as *e$$ ade b&t rather hairy o" his $e%s *hi#h I did"(t $ike 2 a"y e" are hairy $e%%ed. The" she p$ayed o"e or t*o ba&dy tri#ks. a"d $ast$y t&r"ed her b& to hi *hi$st he sat o" a #hair a"d %ot his pri#k &p her. I sitti"% o" a $o* #hair opposite sa* it hidde" i" her #&"t. his ba$$s ha"%i"% o&tside. his ha"ds ro&"d her be$$y. o"e fi"%er r&bbi"% her #$itoris. 2 4)ha. %o to the bed.4 &r &red he. ,e did"(t at6te pt to dis%&ise his 1oi#e as I did. To the bed they *e"t *here side by side she fo"d$ed his $o1e staff. the" he o&"ted her. 2 4Yo& sha"(t f&#k e *ith that o".4 said she. a"d s&dde"$y p&$$ed off his ask a"d dropped it o" the f$oor. ,e #ared abo&t "othi"% "o* b&t possessi"% her. p&t his pri#k i" her #&"t rapid$y. *hi$st she raised the thi%h "earest the bedside hi%h &p. so that I *ho approa#hed the bed #o&$d see his pri#k ra i"% bet*ee" her #&"t $ips 2 see the i" a"d o&t o1e e"t. a" e!#iti"% si%ht. ,e(d %i1e" so e rapid strokes *he" I thre* &p his shirt to his *aist. to see the *a% of his b&tto#ks *hi#h *ere *hite b&t "othi"% re arkab$y ha"dso e.
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a"d I did"(t ad ire a #e"tra$ f&rro* stro"%$y haired &p to his ba#kbo"e. b&t the #o e a"d %o of his priapea" shaft p$eased e. ,e %a1e a si%h of p$eas&re a"d the" I $aid ho$d of his testi#$es. 2 4,o.4 said he *ith a $o&d #ry. a"d *ith a 1io$e"t start &"#&"ted. 4+o"(t do that.4 2 4;hat is it/4 said ,.. #easi"% her b& *a%%i"%. 2 I to$d. 2 4F&#k e. p&t it i". $et hi fee$ the . yo& *i$$ $ike it.4 7efore she(d said it a$$. his %$o*i"% tipped a#hi"e *as a%ai" hidde". his ba$$s *a%%ed ore tha" e1er. soo" the 1io$e"t o1e e"t of her thi%hs a"d b&tto#ks hera$ded her #o i"% 0oy. a"d I heard. 4F&#k dear 2 aha 2 sp&"k.4 a"d heard his &r &rs of $o1e. ,is a p$e ba$$s *ere "o* soo" steady o1er her b& 6ho$e. a"d both *ere 3&iet. She *ith #$osed eyes e"0oyi"% the b$issf&$ oo-i"%s of her #&"t. the soothi"% i"f$&e"#e of sper ati# i"0e#tio". his b&tto#ks o1i"% *ith the s$i%htest %e"t$est 0o%s. r&bbi"% his te"der %$a"d *ithi" the i""er ost re#esses of her se!&a$ treas&re. *hi$st I he$d his ba$$s. he see i"%$y &"#o"s#io&s of it. 4:et off.4 said she. ;itho&t a *ord off he %ot. here she $ay *ith o1erf$o*i"% #&"t. thi%hs *ide apart. $ooki"% $e*ed$y at e *ho had *ithdra*" the" to the bed(s foot. ,o$di"% his too$ as he %ot off of her. he pi#ked &p the ask. p&t it o". a"d *e"t to the *ashi"% sta"d. ,. $ay *ith thi%hs apart a"d poi"ti"% to her #&"t. I had had "o i"te"tio" of ha1i"% her so. had said so. b&t the si%ht o1er*he$ ed e. :oi"% to her. she o1ed herse$f to the bedside si$e"t$y. k"o*i"% the de6sires she(d e1oked better tha" I. fi$$ed *ith $&!&rio&s desires herse$f. 'e!t se#o"d y pe%o *as e"%&$phed i" her $&bri#io&s a1e"&e. I ra ed $ike a stea e"%i"e. her eyes %$ared at e *ith $&st. a"d both spe"t a$ ost dire#t$y. *hi$st sti$$ he *as soapi"% a"d s$oppi"% his pri1ates. "e1er $ooki"% ro&"d ti$$ she(d %ot off the bed a"d I stood $ooki"% o&t of the *i"do*. I &st ha1e spe"t i" a i"&te. "e1er had I spe"t ore rapid$y *ro&%ht &p by *hat I had see". The" I sat do*" *hi$st he *as p&$$i"% o" his tro*sers. ,e said "ot a *ord a"d *o&$d I thi"k ha1e $eft. b&t ,.. 2 4;hat do yo& p&t yo&r thi"%s o" for. ai"(t yo& %oi"% to ha1e e a%ai"/4 4Oh yes. if yo& *i$$.4 2 4Take yo&r tro*sers off the" a"d %i1e e a bott$e of #ha pa%"e.4 ,e did 2 *e(d bee" a$ready dri"ki"% #ha pa%"e. )%ai" *e ta$ked a"d dra"k. She *ashed her #&"t. a%ai" sat o" his k"ee. p$ayed *ith his pe%o. "e1er #eased ha"d$i"% it. she*i"% it to e. 2 4Fee$ it. is"(t it a fi"e o"e/4 2 4'o 2 "o.4 said he sharp$y 2 4yo& said yo& *o&$d $et hi fee$ it.4 I fe$t odest$y the %rist$y e$asti# propa%ator a"d the" he fe$t i"e. They kissed a"d toyed. his fi"%ers o" her #&"t. ,e *hispered so ethi"%. 2 4,ad I f&#ked her i" his sper /4 2 she to$d e after*ards. 2 She(d a"s*ered. 4'o.4 2 So dri"ki"% a"d ta$ki"%. at i"ter1a$s she fee$i"% both o&r pri#ks at o"#e. ti e ra" a*ay a"d his pri#k %re* stiff. The" at her re3&est he took his #$othes i"to a"6other roo . re ai"i"% i" his shirt a"d so#ks. a"d a%ai" f&#ked ,.. *hi$st a%ai" I he$d his ba$$s. a"d the" he $eft. ;e after*ards e"0oyed ea#h others %e"ita$s. she had her fo&rth spe"d. a"d *ith y sp&"k i"%$ed *ith his i" her #&"t. *e s$ept for a fe* i"&tes.
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The abbess #a e i"to &s. ,e *as abo&t $ea1i"% a"d had bee" e!to$$i"% ,.(s #har s *ho *a"ti"% to see hi before he $eft. 3&itted the roo a"d *as %o"e so eti e. Ret&r"i"%. 4,e(s f&#ked yo& a%ai".4 2 I sa* it fro the $as#i1io&s #ir#$es ro&"d her eyes a"d fro her a""er. 4Yes.4 2 said she i" a ha$f sha ed *ay. 4a"d he "e1er ade e a #o p$i e"t.4 2 4+id yo& ask hi /4 2 4'o. b&t he i%ht ha1e do"e so. he(s had e three ti es.4 I. ha$f dis%&sted a"d a $itt$e s#re*ed. 2 4I( %$ad he did"(t. a s&rpri-ed yo& *ish to be treated as a *hore. 2 Yo& *a"ted a #ha"%e. a fresh pri#k. a bi% o"e 2 be #o"te"t.4 She *as 1ery a"%ry *ith e for sayi"% 4;hore4 a"d I *as *ith her for desiri"% o"ey. 2 The o$d $e1e" *as i" her sti$$. she *a"ted her p$eas&res b&t to be paid for the . 'o do&bt. the abbess %ot o"ey tho she said he(d o"$y paid for se"di"% for the other *o a" a"d his roo . ,. said she be$ie1ed he(d %i1e" the abbess fi1e po&"ds. a"d that he i%ht ha1e %i1e" her ha$f a do-e" pairs of %$o1es. ) o"th after*ards the abbess said he *as there a"d *a"ted ,. b&t I *o&$d"(t $et her. "or did she *ish to %o. a"d "e1er sa* hi after*ards. 4F&#k e.4 said ,. a 3&arter of a" ho&r after. 2 4I #a""ot.4 2 4Try.4 2 4I #a"(t.4 2 She *as i" f&$$ r&t. o"e of her $as#i1io&s fre"-ies *as o" her 2 her eyes *ere 1o$&pt&o&s. *ere *i$d$y $& i"o&s *ith se!&a$ passio" 2 b&t oh9 So bea&tif&$. 2 Layi"% ho$d of y pe%o she fri%%ed it b&t &se$ess$y. the" ta$ki"% a$$ the ti e abo&t his pri#k. e1er a"d a"o" thr&sti"% her to"%&e i"to y o&th. $as#i1io&s e"o&%h to stir a dead a". 2 she *as part$y s#re*ed *hi#h i"#reased her re#k$ess"ess. 2 4Li#k y #&"t the".4 2 4>iss the".4 2 4Let e piss i" yo&r o&th. I(1e do"e so.4 2 4I *o&$d"(t.4 2 4Li#k e the".4 2 I be%a". 2 4S&#k y pri#k. y dar$i"%. ti$$ its stiff. a"d the" I($$ f&#k yo&.4 2 Vo$&pt&o&s thri$$s ra" thro e as I tasted the sa$t of her #&"t. 4I #a"(t. I do"(t k"o* ho*. I "e1er ha1e. b&t I *i$$ kiss it.4 a"d she kissed it fro b& ho$e to tip. The" i" her ra%i"% $&st she yie$ded to y repeated *ishes. i"to that $o1e$y #herry $ipped o&th *e"t y pri#k. *hi$st *ith y "ose &p her 1a%i"a. I $i#ked her #$itoris as she k"e$t o1er e a"d #$asped her i1ory b&tto#ks. 2 It took effe#t 2 the %e"t$e r&b of her o&th. the s e$$ of her #&"t. 2 4There 2 it(s 2 stiff 2 f&#k e "o*.4 2 )%i$e as a o"key. she %ot fro off y o&th o" to her ba#k. a"d $ay *ith thi%hs *ide apart. she*i"% the #ri so" %ap. 2 She had her *ay. 2 I f&#ked her $o"%. $o"%. de$i#io&s$y. *hi$st t*i#e she spe"t to y o"e $ibatio".

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Chapter VII Ter i"atio" of "arrati1e. • Re arks thereo". • +is0e#ta e bra. • I" a #o&"try #h&r#h. • The bo&-y se!to". • ,is da&%hter Se$e"a. • I" a pe*. • I" the Re#tor(s robi"% roo . • O" his #arpet. • O" his tab$e. • Three *i1es *ith f&$$ b$adders i" a dark street. • Mi#t&rati"% #i1i$ities. • :e"ita$ ha"d$i"%s. • F&#ki"% a o"% the #arts. • I" a :er a" #ity. • ) ba$d #&"ted Cypria". The "arrati1e i" its #hro"o$o%i#a$ order of e1e"ts I fi"ish. Ma"y ore i"#ide"ts i%ht ha1e bee" to$d of 1aried de$i%hts. of *hi s a"d fa"#ies "or a$ a"d ab"or a$. yet tho the p$a#es. parti#ipa"ts a"d a#tresses *ere differe"t. the a atory a &se e"ts *ere si i$ar to others p$ayed e$se*here. a"d their repetitio" i" the "arrati1e *o&$d be tedio&s. I break *ith the past. y a atory #areer is o1er. y se#ret $ife fi"ished. My phi$osophy re ai"s the sa e. My deeds $ea1e e "o re%ret 2 *ith the e!#eptio" perhaps of a 1ery fe*. 2 ;o&$d that I *ere yo&"% e"o&%h to #o"ti"&e i" the sa e #o&rse 2 that a$$ i%ht happe" to e o1er a%ai". 2 7&t a%e forbids. d&ty for6bids. affe#tio" forbids 2 Eros adie&. ,ere abr&pt$y ter i"ates the "arrati1e. So e years after the *riter died the a"&s#ript #a e as a$ready to$d i"to the possessio" of hi *ho arra"%ed a"d ab6 bre1iated it. ) *o"derf&$ "arrati1e of so ethi"% $ike fifty years of se#ret $ife. I" e$i i"ati"% a"&s#ript fro ti e to ti e. i" order to abbre1iate. &#h *as destroyed. b&t so e episodes *ere $aid aside for f&rther se$e#tio". a"d so e *ith the 1ie* of %ro&pi"% the i" #hapters. ) fe* of those dis0e#ta e bra are added here b&t are "ot #hro"o$o%i#a$$y arra"%ed. that bei"% "o* i possib$e. They e1ide"t$y o##&rred ho*e1er *ithi" the $ast t*e"ty years of the history. O"e Sat&rday after"oo" taki"% a *a$k to a 1i$$a%e a i$e or t*o fro *here I *as stayi"%. I e"tered the #h&r#h to $ook at it. )s I did so the se!to" *as $ea1i"% a"d $o#ki"% the door. 2 4I &st %o Sir. a"d &st $o#k it. *e "e1er $ea1e the #h&r#h door ope" *itho&t so e o"e i" it. i" #ase do%s or tra ps #o e i". a"d there(s o"$y the %a$ there #$ea"i"% the robi"% roo . ;e par$eyed a*hi$e a"d I tipped hi . 4If yo& $ike I($$ $ea1e the key i"side. b&t yo& &st $o#k the door. a"d I($$ be ba#k i" ha$f a" ho&r.4 I a%reed. $o#ked it a"d stro$$ed abo&t. $ooki"% at the brasses a"d o"& e"ts *hi#h *ere fa o&s. a"d "ot thi"ki"% at a$$ abo&t the *o a" #$ea"i"% the robi"% roo . ;itho&t tho&%ht of *o a"ki"d a"d i" the day6ti e ofte". 1o$&pt&o&s thri$$s %o thro y pe%o. ad o"ishi"% e that it *as ade for so ethi"% besides pidd$i"%. ,a1i"% do"e so it is &s&a$$y 3&iet. b&t so eti es repeats it a"d %e"t$y s*e$$s. 2 The" y tho&%hts *a"der to*ards *o a"(s se!&a$ #har . a"d &p rises pe%o. fi$$i"% e *ith desire to $od%e it bet*ee" a pair of soft
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*hite fe a$e thi%hs. i" the *ar . red. $&bri#io&s #ha""e$ a$*ays fit to re#ei1e it. 2 'at&re has th&s arra"%ed the fe i"i"e or%a" that it "eeds "o preparatio". a"d is "e1er "i#er to the pri#k tha" *he" it has bee" so e ho&rs &"*ashed 2 fresh *ashed. astri"%e"t 3&i s "e1er p$eased e. Ser1a"ts( 3&i s take" o" the s&dde" are a$*ays $&bri#io&s a"d de$i#io&s *ith "at&ra$ 0&i#es. Looki"% at a "oti#ab$e o"& e"t a thri$$ passed to e a"other a"d soo" a"other 2 y pe%o s*e$$ed a"d s&#h 1o$&pt&o&s se"satio"s per1aded e. that I sat do*" thi"ki"% of #&"t. a"d thro y brai" eroti# re i"is#e"#es a"d idea$ities f$ashed. 2 My pri#k %re* ri%id. I fe$t it. the" took it o&t a"d $ooked at it. a$ ost fri%%ed it. 0&st as I &sed *he" a yo&"% a". I *as so fit for the 0oyo&s i"ter#o&rse *ith a *o a". that I tho&%ht "o ore of o"& e"ts. 2 S&dde"$y I heard a s#r&bbi"% or br&shi"%. a"d re#o$$e#ted that a *o a" *as #$ea"i"% the parso"(s robi"% roo . ;he" i" that ra"dy state. to be "ear a$ ost a"y *o a" is p$eas&rab$e. ;ith a$$ their fa&$ts. a"d spite of the tro&b$es they bri"% to e". they are the 0oy of a tr&e a"(s $ife. I p&t ba#k i"to y tro*sers y pri#k *hi#h I had take" o&t to $ook at d&ri"% y 1o$&pt&o&s editatio"s. approa#hed the roo . p&shed the a$ready ha$f ope"ed door. a"d sa* a strappi"% *e"#h o" her k"ees br&shi"% the #arpet. ,er $ar%e ar s *ere "aked to abo1e the e$bo*s. her bi% b& st&#k o&t to*ards e. a"d fro be"eath her a p$e petti#oats o"e $e% *as 1isib$e ha$f *ay &p to her k"ee. a"d *as #ased i" a "i#e *hite sto#ki"%. My #o#k throbbed. desire to f&#k her fi$$ed e. a"d I ade a s$i%ht "oise. 4Yo&(1e #o e ba#k 1ery 3&i#k. yer ai"(t bee" there.4 a"d t&r"i"% her head. 2 4Oh9 I be% yo&r pardo" Sir. I tho&%ht yo& *as hi . ho* did yo& %et i"/4 She see ed asto"ished. She %ot &p sayi"% that. a"d a stro"%$y b&i$t. bo$d. ha"dso e fa#ed *e"#h of abo&t t*e"ty she *as. I to$d her ho* I had %ot i". 2 4Mother a$$&s does the #$ea"i"% b&t she(s i$$. so I(1e #o e.4 said she %rat&ito&s$y. for I(d "ot asked her 2 a"d as if asha ed of bei"% #a&%ht at the *ork. 2 4Yo&(re a %ood da&%hter a"d a ha"dso e o"e.4 said I s i$i"%. 2 4The re#tor *i$$ %i1e yo& a kiss for doi"% it.4 I *as %$ad to say a"ythi"%. 2 4'ot he.4 said she bo$d$y a"d $a&%hi"%. for y re ark had p&t her at her ease. The" *e stood a"d $ooked at ea#h other. 2 4Yo&(re 1ery ha"dso e. are yo& arried/4 2 She shook her head. 2 4Sho* e the o"& e"t of H H H H4 2 "a i"% a #o&"try a%"ate 2 4a"d I($$ %i1e yo& a shi$$i"%.4 2 4Tha"kee Sir.4 She o1ed off. I fo$$o*i"% her *ith pri#k $ike a ra rod. 2 She poi"ted o&t the o"& e"t to e. b&t I *as thi"ki"% o"$y of her #&"t a$$ the *hi$e. It *as a%ai"st the *a$$ at the e"d of a $o"%. $ar%e. o$d fashio"ed pe* *ith hi%h e"#$os&res. *hi#h *e both e"tered. I $ooked at it for a i"&te ref$e#ti"% *hat "e!t to do. she sta"di"% by e. The" I %a1e her a shi$$i"% a"d s"at#hed a kiss. 2 4Oh do"(t. he ay #o e i".4 2 4I(1e $o#ked the door.4 2 )"other kiss a"d I p&$$ed her do*" "ot &"*i$$i"% o" the seat besides e. 2 4I($$ %i1e yo& ha$f a
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#ro*" to fee$ the %arter o" that 0o$$y $e%.4 sayi"% *hi#h I ade a s"at#h at her #$othes. a"d %ot y ha"d *e$$ &p o" to her thi%h 0&st abo1e the %ar6ter. She str&%%$ed. %a1e o"e or t*o $o&d s3&ea$s. 2 4Oh do"(t 2 "o* yo& sha"(t 2 oh 2 if a"y o"e #o es 2 oh "o* do"(t. Ohoo. $ea1e e a$o"e Sir.4 She be%a" to $a&%h idst her str&%%$es. 2 4'o o"e #a" #o e i". the door(s $o#ked.4 2 4Yes. Sir. the Re#tor #a" #o e thro&%h the #h&r#hyard. a"d the robi"% roo door(s ope". 2 4Oh9 +o"(t "o*.4 My passio" *as a $itt$e #he#ked by that a"d I desisted. 4,ere(s the ha$f #ro*" as I(1e fe$t it. %i1e e a"other kiss.4 2 She took the ha$f #ro*" a"d s&b itted to the e bra#e. I he$d her #$ose to e a"d 0o%%ed y be$$y &p a%ai"st hers. 2 4I($$ %i1e yo& a so1erei%" to $et e do that.4 2 4Oh 2 %o a*ay 2 $et e %o.4 2 p&shi"% e. I $et her %o feari"% the Re#tor i%ht s&rpri-e &s. 4Let e see the robi"% roo .4 4It(s there.4 said she %oi"% ahead a"d poi"ti"%. 2 4'o* 2 do"(t. Sir.4 2 I tried to p&$$ her #$othes &p fro behi"d. s&##eeded as hi%h as her %arters. a"d sa* the ha"dso e #a$1es i" *hite sto#ki"%s. *hi#h ade y #o#k ore resti1e tha" e1er. 2 4'o*. I *o"(t sho* yo& Sir if yer does that a%ai".4 a"d she t*ir$ed ro&"d. I he$d o" to her petti#oats *hi#h ti%hte"ed ro&"d her $e%s as she sat do*" hea1i$y o" a free seat by the pe* door. The" she $a&%hed as if she #o&$d "ot he$p it. )%ai" I %a1e a kiss a"d a pro ise. a"d off *e *e"t to the roo *hi#h *as "ear the a$tar. I fe$t s&re she $iked y s &tty %a es. a"d at the door stopped. 2 4My dear te$$ e so ethi"%/4 2 4;hat Sir/4 2 4Is there &#h hair o" it/4 2 4Oh9 :o a$o"%.4 said she. a#t&a$$y #o$ori"% &p 2 b&t she $a&%hed. I" the roo I sa* a door $eadi"% o&t by a f$i%ht of steps i"to the #h&r#hyard. a"d a path $eadi"% I s&p6posed to the re#tory. The Re#tor &s&a$$y e"tered the #h&r#h that *ay she said. I $o#ked the door. she s i$ed as if she %&essed y %a e. 2 4:i1e e a"other kiss. yo& are so bea&tif&$.4 I"deed I tho&%ht so. for I *as &"der the fas#i"atio" of #&"t. 2 4'o.4 7&t I took it. 6 4Let &s/4 2 4Let &s *hat/4 said she $ooki"% f&$$ i" y eyes. 2 I"sti"#t 2 "e1er fai$i"% e. to$d that she *as i" #o"#&pis#e"t state. 2 4Let(s do it4 2 I did"(t dare to say poi"t b$a"k the a%i# *ords. 2 4+o *hat/4 *ith a 1o$&pt&o&s t*i"k$e i" her eyes. a"d a"!io&s to hear the ba&dy *ords of i"1itatio". ,o* her #&"t *as ti"%$i"%. for *o e" as e" $ike s &tty ta$k a"d ba&dy *ords 2 *hat sa"e h& a" #reat&re is there b&t fee$s p$eas&re i" heari"% the e!#iti"% triad. 2 >ri#k. #&"t. f&#k. that d&a$ity i" &"ity by *hi#h i" the de$iri& of physi#a$ a"d e"ta$ p$eas&re. the ra#e is perpet&ated. 4+o *hat/4 2 4Yo& k"o*. a"d yo& *o"(t te$$ yo&r s*eetheart.4 2 4I do"(t k"o* a"d I ha1e"(t %ot o"e.4 She t&r"ed a*ay s i$i"%. took &p a broo . a"d so eho* I *as afraid for the o e"t to press atters f&rther. tho s&re she *as ready. ,o* e!6p$ai" these e##e"tri#ities of i"e/ 2 I "e1er #o&$d. 4'o"se"se.4 said I. $ayi"% ho$d of her ar a"d praisi"% its p$& p"ess. 2 4I( ad for yo&.4 2 She $et e fee$ a"d r&b it %e"t$y &p a"d do*". 2 4I d&""o ho* he #a e to $et yo& i".4 said she sta"di"% 3&ite sti$$ a"d stari"%. 2 I sa* she *as *aiti"% for y ad1a"#es a"d tried to %et y ha"d &p her #$othes. 2 She resisted. str&%%$ed. s3&ea$ed. b&t y fi"%ers %ot *e$$ bet*ee" her thi%hs.
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a"d the" she es#aped. 2 I p&rs&ed her ro&"d the roo . #a&%ht a"d kissed her. 0o%%ed y be$$y a%ai"st hers. 2 4Let &s.4 2 4;hat/4 2 4F&#k 2 $ook.4 said I p&$$i"% o&t y #&"t p$&%%er. "e1er i" ha"dso er or ore i"1iti"% #o"ditio" to a *o a". 2 She $ooked hard at it. a"d #h&#k$ed. 2 4Oh for sha e.4 said she sti$$ eyei"% it 2 I do"(t re#o$$e#t #$ear$y *hat "e!t passed thro&%h y i"d. b&t fe$t s&re she *as $e*ed a"d had a$ready bee" f&#ked. tho "o* *as fear6 f&$. )%ai" I #a&%ht her. p&shed her b& a%ai"st the tab$e. %ot y fi"%ers o" to her #&"t. 2 4Oh 2 "o 2 pray do"(t 2 "ot here. 2 I($$ eet yo& to"i%ht.4 2 #ried she e!#ited$y. 4+o"(t be foo$ish 2 *e are a$o"e 2 "o o"e #a" %et i" 2 here are t*o so1erei%"s for yo&.4 a"d I p&t the o" the tab$e 2 y pri#k sti$$ sta"di"% o&t. 4I do"(t *a"t yo&r o"ey.4 2 Ma"y ha1e said that to e. tho they ost$y took it *he" they(d bee" tai$ed. 2 4'ot here. 2 'o 2 "o 2 I *i$$ to"i%ht 2 "o 2 oho4 2 My ha"d *as &p her petti#oats. she stooped p&shi"% the do*" b&t I persisted. %a1e her a stro"% p&sh. a"d she fe$$ o" the f$oor. I *ith her. for a i"&te *e str&%%$ed a"d I p&$$ed &p her #$othes. 4Oh9 If they #o e ba#k.4 2 The" i" a se#o"d y fi"%ers *ere *e$$ *ithi" the $ips of her oist *ar s$it. I #a&%ht at it as *e ro$$ed to%ether. 4Yo& &st"(t here.4 *ere her $ast *ords. as if she tho&%ht there *as i piety i" the a#t I #o"te p$ated. 7&t the str&%%$e *as o1er. both ea"t f&#ki"%. odesty a"d fears *ere #o"3&ered as I o&"ted her. #$&t#hed her so$id ha&"#hes a"d p$&"%ed y pri#k &p her a"d 1ery soo". too soo". si%hi"% o&r p$eas&re *e spe"t. ,er #&"t *as o1erf$o*i"% *ith y $ibatio" a"d her #o"trib&tio". *hi$st si$e"t a"d #o&p$ed *e $ay o" the T&rkey #arpet of the robi"% roo 2 a %$orio&s f&#k it *as. I $ay o" her i" b$issf&$ si$e"#e #$aspi"% the sides of her s ooth #oo$ b&tto#ks. 2 4I( a feared that he($$ #o e ba#k.4 &r &red she &"#&"ti"% e. 4,e #a"(t. the door is $o#ked.4 ;e %ot &p a"d her petti#oats fa$$i"% hid the #har s *hi#h I(d "e1er e1e" see" at a$$. 2 ;e ta$ked 3&iet$y. a"d she eyed the so1erei%"s. 2 F&#ki"% ope"s a *o a"(s o&th as *e$$ as her #&"t. The se!to"(s d&ty *as "ot to $ea1e the #h&r#h. b&t he ofte" did a"d $o#ked her other i" o" Sat&rdays. a"d *e"t a*ay to dri"k. 2 ,e *as a toper. The Re#tor "e1er #a e there o" Sat&rdays. it *as #$ea"i"% &p day. 4,e *rites his ser o"s the" 2 I( to$d.4 2 M&#h ore ta$k *as of the sa e sort i!ed *ith ba&dy s&%%estio"s. 2 4The" yo& $ike f&#ki"%. do"(t yo&/4 2 4Oh. "ot at a$$.4 said she s i$i"%. 2 4,&sh 2 he(s k"o#ki"% at the e"tra"#e.4 2 4It(s "othi"%. $et hi *ait. say yo& did"(t hear hi .4 Looki"% f&$$ i" ea#h other(s eyes a"d sitti"%. to&#hi"% ea#h other. I k"e* that the $ibatio" &st ha1e bee" *etti"% her thi%hs. a"d the idea of that be%a" to stiffe" e. I(d "e1er see" her #&"t. for as I p&$$ed &p her petti#oats I ro$$ed o" to her. 4Let(s $ook at it. a"d *e($$ f&#k a%ai".4 2 4Oh "o 2 he($$ be ba#k 2 te$$ e the ti e.4 2 I $ooked at y *at#h a"d to$d. 2 4Oh. he *o"(t be ba#k yet if he(s %o"e for a boo-e. b&t I #a"(t 2 I #a"(t *ash here.4 2 4There is *ater i" the
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pai$.4 2 4I sha"(t 2 I #a"(t 2 "o 2 I *o"(t.4 ) $o"% resista"#e ore ba&dy ta$k a"d the i"#ite e"t of a stiff pri#k a%ai". 4Oh 2 oh 2 "o*. if he #o es ba#k.4 2 ) str&%%$e. b&t I fi"%ered her %$&ey orifi#e. a"d i" a fe* i"&tes had her $ayi"% o" her ba#k o" the tab$e. f&#ki"% her. y ha"ds. ho$di"% &p her fat thi%hs. e1ery "o* a"d the" %$a"#i"% do*" at y too$ as it *orked &p a"d do*" i" her *e$$ haired sp$it. a"d so a%ai" *e #o"6s& ated. 2 4,e($$ s&re be ba#k soo" 2 oh 2 do %o 2 *hat *i$$ he thi"k of yo&r bei"% here so $o"%/4 2 I kissed her a"d departed thro&%h the Re#tor(s door to the #h&r#hyard. I %a1e her a parti"% kiss. 2 4Yo&r #&"t(s *et.4 4It(s "ot dry. %o a$o"%.4 said she $a&%hi"%. +e$i%hted *ith y after"oo"(s a &se e"t. I $i"%ered "ear the #h&r#h a"d *a$ked ro&"d the #h&r#hyard. *hi#h *as at that poi"t so e feet be$o* the $e1e$ of the Re#tor(s roo 5 "o o"e #o&$d ha1e $ooked at o&r tri#ks thro&%h the *i"do*s. I et the se!to" soo" after at the e"tra"#e por#h. he *as %ro%%y a"d ta$kati1e. The" he k"o#ked hard at the door *ith a sti#k. the" ra"% a be$$. I stopped. the *o a" ope"ed it. ,o* she ope"ed her eyes *he" she sa* e. I *i"ked at her o1er the se!to"(s sho&$ders. a"d $eft. 2 It *as the se!6to"(s da&%hter I heard $ater o". 2 She a$so *as a Mary she to$d e. ;hat a $ot of Marys I(1e tai$ed. 2 ,o* fi"e a"d fir a"d f&#kab$e are these #o&"try *e"#hes. *hat 0&i#y #&"ts. O"e dark Sat&rday "i%ht i" spri"% at abo&t te" o(#$o#k. *he" passi"% a$o"% a ai" etropo$ita" thro&%hfare. 2 three *o e" t&r"ed do*" a short street. i$$ $i%hted a"d *ith b$a"k *a$$s o" ea#h side. )t abo&t fifty feet fro the ai" road this street t&r"ed at ri%ht a"%$es. a"d for a $o"% dista"#e the" *e"t at the ba#ks of ho&ses i" the ai" thoro&%hfare. O" the other side *here there *as "o foot*ay *ere bi% *areho&ses *itho&t o##&pa"ts at "i%ht. a"d a%ai"st the *ere e pty #arts $eft there ti$$ the orro*. There *as $itt$e or "o traffi# i" the street. for there *as Ea"d isF "o %ai" i" %oi"% that *ay. This part of the street a$so *as sti$$ ore di $y $i%hted tha" the short bra"#h. str& pets ofte" pissed a"d f&#ked there free$y. Ma"y a #&"t I(d fe$t there i" ti es %o"e by. Others at ti es 2 "ot str& pets 2 *a"ti"% a pee *ee bad$y. fo&"d i" it a" o&t of the *ay 3&iet spot to do that sp$ashi"% b&si"ess. I sa* that the three *ere "ot %ay *o e". )s I passed. o"e *ith a #h&#k$e said. 4@&st ro&"d the #or"er.4 a"d they *e"t there 3&i#k$y $ooki"% ro&"d a"!io&s$y to see if they *ere "oti#ed. 2 They *ere respe#tab$y dressed $ike the *i1es of arti-a"s. a"d I be$ie1ed they *ere so fro their a""er. a"d that they(d bee" ha1i"% a Sat&rday "i%ht(s drop. as arti-a"s( *i1es at Sat&rday arketi"%s do5 a drop e"o&%h to ake the frisky. ra"dy. a"d ro$$i#kso e. yet "ot ti%ht. My ba$$s *ere f&$$ that "i%ht 2 s&dde" $et#hes depe"d &#h o" the f&$$"ess of that reser1oir 2 a"d y e"d&ri"% $et#h sei-ed e. I fo$$o*ed the . fee$i"% e#ha"i#a$$y i" y po#ket to as#ertai" if I(d e"o&%h to pay for y a &se e"t. if it #o&$d be had. a"d for%etti"% I(d a po#ket f&$$. for I had #ha"%ed %o$d p&rpose$y that day to %et si$1er. They stopped at a h&"dred feet or so fro the a"%$e. as I approa#hed "oti#ed e. a"d *e"t f&rther. So did I a"d #$ose &p to the . as i" a %ro&p they stopped a"d hesitated. 4;hat do yo&
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*a"t. yo&"% a"/4 I *as"(t yo&"% 2 said a ta$$ *o a" *ho I %&essed to be forty. 4To see yo& a$$ pidd$e.4 2 4,o. ho.4 they a$$ b&rst o&t to%ether as if asto"ished. yet a &sed "ot sho#ked. 4;e$$ I( s&re 2 the" yo& *o"(t.4 2 4I( %oi"% to pidd$e too.4 2 4,o. ho. 2 he. he.4 they b&rst o&t a%ai". a"d the" *ere 3&iet a"d *e"t *itho&t a *ord a fe* feet f&rther. They i" fa#t o1ed a"d 3&iet$y to a &#h darker spot. I *o"der they did"(t #ross to the dark *a$$ a"d e pty #arts. O"e *o a" the" b&rst o&t $o&d$y $a&%hi"%. the" the others did 2 3&ite a #hor&s. 4;e(re respe#tab$e *o e". %o a*ay "o*.4 said the ta$$ o"e. 2 I fe$t s&re they *ere so tho poor. a"d hesitated. 7&t I(d fe$t the #&"ts of their #$ass before. k"e* that o"ey te pts. that *o e" $ike eroti# tri#ks. so persisted. 2 Ma"y *ork6 e"(s *i1es ha1e bee" free a"d easy *ith their #&"ts before arria%e. *hi#h *eake"s their ora$s5 b&t it(s a istake to s&ppose 4o"#e a *hore a$*ays a *hore.4 There are ( a"y *hores arried a o"% the $o*er #$asses 2 a"d i"deed i" e1ery ra"k of $ife 2 *ho are #haste e"o&%h the". they for%et a"d es#he* past habits. a"d are #o"te"t *ith the pri#k of the bread *i""er. yet at ti es so e year" for a fresh bit of #o#k. a"d a ba&dy tri#k or t*o. I(1e a$*ays had the fa#&$ty of aki"% *o e" $e*ed. a"d fe$t s&re fro their hesitatio" that $&st *as #o i"% o" the three. 4>idd$e a"d $et e fee$ it. a"d I($$ %i1e yo& ha$f a #ro*" apie#e.4 said I. biddi"% hi%h for they *ere "ot str& pets. a"d #at#hi"% ho$d of o"e *o a"(s ar I he$d it. 4;e$$ 2 I( b$o*ed4 2 said she sta%%ered b&t "ot resisti"%. 2 4:et a*ay.4 said the ta$$ o"e a"%ri$y. 4or I($$ #a$$ a po$i#e a".4 2 4;hat for. to see yo& pidd$e or see hi pidd$e/4 2 )$$ $a&%hed. 4;e$$9 ;hat #heek.4 said o"e. 2 4I(1e fe$t do-e"s of *o e"(s #&"ts here *hi$st they pidd$ed.4 said I. bo$der "o* that they(d stood so &#h. 4:et a$o"% yo& b$a#k%&ard. do it if yo& *a"t. a"d %et a*ay a"d $et &s.4 2 They the" t&r"ed their ba#ks to e a"d ta$ked 3&ite #$ose to%ether i" a $o* to"e. $a&%hi"% 3&iet$y at i"ter1a$s. a"d I s&pposed they *ere ta$ki"% abo&t e. so said. 2 4Let(s a$$ pidd$e. a"d *e($$ a$$ %o a"d ha1e a %$ass of *i"e to%ether.4 2 4'ot I.4 2 said o"e. I #o&$d the" 0&st see i" the di $i%ht that o"e "&d%ed a"other. a"d a%ai" a$$ 3&iet$y $a&%hed. *hi#h e"#o&ra%ed e. 4,ere(s so eo"e #o i"%. I *ish yo&(d %o. *hat *i$$ they thi"k/4 2 said the ta$$ o"e "o* 1ery a"%ri$y. 7&t I stood sti$$. ) a" a"d *o a" s$o*$y approa#hed. they I thi"k had #o e *ith for"i#ati"% i"te"t. took "o "oti#e of &s a"d passed far a*ay. ;hether they f&#ked i" the obs#&rity a o"% the e pty #arts I k"o* "ot. for y i"d *as "o* i" a passio"ate fer e"t *ith y o*" desires *hi#h had i"te"sified *ith o&r ta$k. a"d *hat see ed to e a #ha"#e of their %ratifyi"% e. I $o"%ed to fee$ these three *o e"(s #&"ts for they *ere "ot *hores. a"d to see the pidd$e. The idea of doi"% so see ed de$i#io&s to e. a"d %etti"% re#k$ess tho&%ht I(d try e1e" %o$d. 2 'o"e of the e1ide"t$y *ere 3&ite yo&"%. yet yo&"% e"o&%h. b&t they *ere "ot str& pets 2 that see ed the spe#ia$ #har 2 I did"(t ref$e#t. had set y heart o" fee$i"% their pidd$e. *as #arried a*ay by y $et#h a"d *e"t o" i pet&o&s$y to satisfy it. Their "ot bei"% str& pets %a1e the #har .
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as if their #&"ts *ere differe"t fro those of *hores. ;ith a s&dde" i p&$se. fee$i"% y po#ket f&$$ of si$1er I said. 2 4I($$ %i1e yo& fi1e shi$$i"%s ea#h.4 2 4:et a*ay. a"d do"(t ta$k $ike that 2 *e(re %oi"%.4 said the ta$$ o"e. They *a$ked sti$$ f&rther. I #$ose to the a"d at the 1ery darkest spot they stopped. 2 4,ere(s fi1e shi$$i"%s.4 a"d I #hi"k$ed so e si$1er. 2 4:od 2 *hat 2 do yo& take &s for/4 2 4I #a"(t *ait4 2 said o"e s&dde"$y. a"d s3&atted. the others sta"di"% #$ose to her. I heard the sp$ash. stooped. thr&st y ha"d &"der her petti#oats o" to her ope" #&"t. a"d took the strea o" y ha"d. 2 4Oh do"(t 2 he 2 he 2 he 2 yo& b$a#k6%&ard. ,e 2 he 2 p&sh hi a*ay I a"e.4 2 she $a&%hed a"d b&$$ied at the sa e ti e. 4Mrs. H H H H H. oh94 said i" i"di%"a"t to"es the other t*o si &$ta"eo&s$y as if asto&"ded. the" b&rst o&t $a&%hi"%. The $ady pissed $o"% a"d hea1i$y. b&t a *o a" does"(t take $o"% to e pty her b$adder. She did"(t p&sh a*ay y ha"d fro her #&"t ti$$ she rose &p the". 2 4,e 2 he 2 he 2 yo& b$a#k%&ard. I hope yo&(re p$eased.4 4There(s the o"ey.4 2 She hesitated. took it. sayi"% a%ai" as if a &sed. 2 4Yo& b$a#k%&ard 2 he 2 he 2 he.4 2 a"d p&t it i"to her po#ket. The other t*o "o* $a&%hed. sayi"%. 2 4;e$$ 2 *e$$ 2 oho 2 oho 2 there he 2 he 2 he.4 2 )%ai" a a" a"d *o a" passed. a"d they stopped $a&%hi"%. The others *ere a%ai" $a&%hi"% after si$e"#e for a o e"t. they sa* the si$1er had bee" take". 2 4;here is yo&r fi1e shi$$i"%s/4 2 said the ta$$ o"e. 2 I %a1e it 2 4I ai"(t a%oi"% to do it 2 there.4 2 a"d as if she(d #heated e she $a&%hed. 2 4)$$ ri%ht I($$ *ait ti$$ yo& do.4 2 4+id yer he1er k"o* s&#h #heek/4 said she *ith e phasis. 2 4;e$$ the"4 2 a"d s&dde"$y do*" she s3&atted. C&i#k$y a%ai" I stooped. for a se#o"d %ot y ha"d o" a %ap *hi#h see ed as $ar%e as a #o*(s. *ith a strea r&""i"% as if fro a p& p. *he" sayi"%. 4+o"(t4 she %a1e e a p&sh a"d I ro$$ed i"to the %&t6ter. *hi#h fort&"ate$y *as dry. 7y the ti e I(d %ot &p her strea had #eased a"d she *as sta"di"% &p. 4Ser1es hi ri%ht.4 said the others $a&%hi"% hearti$y. 2 )$$. I fe$t "o* s&re. *ere e"0oyi"% the ba&dy %a e. 4Yo& do it a"d *e($$ a$$ be a$ike.4 said the ta$$ o"e to the other. 2 4I do"(t *a"t.4 2 4;hy yo& said yo& a *ere a b&rsti"%.4 2 4,ere(s the fi1e shi$$i"%s.4 said I. 2 4;i$$ yo& %o that *ay after*ards a"d $et &s %o this if I do/4 2 0erki"% her head i" the t*o dire#tio"s. 2 4Certai"$y.4 2 +o*" she s3&atted. pissed o1er y ha"d a"d fi"ished *ith a fart. 2 4Oh.4 said she risi"% as if &#h asha ed. 2 The other t*o $a&%hed $o&d$y. 2 4;e($$ ha1e a"other %$ass.4 2 4I &st %et ho e.4 said a"other. 2 4I(1e fe$t a$$ yo&r #&"ts.4 said I. 4I($$ piss "o* if I a "ot too stiff. a"d *i$$ %i1e yo& fi1e shi$$i"%s if yo&($$ a$$ fee$ y pri#k after.4 2 for I *as "o* *i$d$y $e*ed a"d be%a" e ptyi"% y b$adder. 2 They $ooked o". 4I *i$$.4 said the first o"e *ho(d pissed 2 4b&t %i1e it &s first.4 2 I %a1e it. she a"d the ta$$ o"e fe$t it. the" the other did. the" both fe$t it a%ai". 4;e$$ if e1er I had s&#h a $ark i" y $ife 2 *e$$.4 said o"e. 2 4Oho 2 hoh.4 2 for it %ot stiff i" her ha"d$i"%. 2 4,e 2 he 2 he.4 a$$ $a&%hed

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to%ether "o*. 4:ood "i%ht I hope yo&($$ a$$ be *e$$ f&#ked to6"i%ht.4 2 4,e 2 he 2 he 2 he 2 he.4 2 I heard dyi"% a*ay i" the dista"#e as they *e"t off. 7efore I %ot to the #or"er %oi"% s$o*$y i" the opposite dire#tio". I sa* far off a a" a"d a *o a" #ross the road to the dark side *here #arts *ere sta"di"%. S$a#ke"i"% y pa#e for a fe* se#o"ds. *he" opposite to the spot I sa* they *ere f&#ki"% hard. They took "o "oti#e of e as I stood *at#hi"%. The" I *e"t off to the ai" thoro&%hfare a"d *aited. %&essi"% that o"e *o&$d ret&r" that *ay. Soo" a %e"t$e a"$y dressed a" #a e ro&"d the #or"er 1ery h&rried$y. a"d *as o&t of si%ht i" a i"&te. 7a#k I t&r"ed a"d et the *o a". e1ide"t$y a de irep. 2 4+o yo& *a"t e y dear/4 2 4I(d $ike to fee$ yo&r #&"t. it(s 0&st bee" f&#ked. a"d I($$ %i1e a shi$$i"%.4 2 4)$$ ri%ht 2 oh. *ait. here #o es a po$i#e a".4 2 ;e ta$ked ti$$ he(d passed. a"d the" a o"% the #arts I fe$t her for a shi$$i"%. 2 I(1e fe$t s#ores at that pri#e. b&t had 0&st paid fi1e shi$$i"%s a fee$. )fter*ards %oi"% a$o"% H H H H St. fi$$ed *ith desire. b&r"i"% *ith $&st. thi"ki"% of *hat a $ot I had do"e i" t*e"ty i"&tes 2 I sa* a "i#e $ooki"% %ir$ a"d *e"t ho e *ith a"d f&#ked her. EThere are "o* do&b$e the "& ber of $a ps i" the street *here this pidd$i"% took p$a#e. e pty #arts "o $o"%er sta"d there. f&#ki"% a"d pidd$i"% is "o $o"%er so easy to a##o p$ish *itho&t hi"dra"#e. I *e"t re#e"t$y to see. for I $ike re1isiti"% the s#e"es of y a o&rs.F EThis is "ot the o"$y ti e I(1e fe$t i" the streets the #&"ts of *o e" "ot har$ots. O" si i$ar o##asio"s 2 tho "ot i" that street 2 t*i#e I( s&re I(1e fe$t t*o *o e" *he" to%ether. 2 I" o"e #ase o"e of the *o e" *as &#h yo&"%er tha" the other. i" both #ases they *ere respe#tab$e. a"d I thi"k arried *o e" of the h& b$er #$ass. O"e #o"se"ted first a"d the" i"d&#ed the other. ;o e" #a" be ade $e*ed by s&%%estio". That the o"ey. dri"k. a"d opport&"ity. did it i" a$$ #ases. a$$ *ere a $itt$e $e*ed. I thi"k the "arrati1e of these i"#ide"ts has bee" retai"ed b&t a "ot s&re.F The" o##&rred <a"d soo" after the Fra"#o6:er a" *ar= o"e of the ost si"%&$ar of y e!perie"#es. I *as at a %reat :er a" #ity stoppi"% there for the "i%ht o"$y. took a *a$k i" the e1e"i"% a"d tho&%ht I sho&$d $ike to see the ba%"ios there. "e1er ha1i"% yet do"e so. 'ot bei"% ab$e to as#ertai" their *hereabo&ts. I hired a fia#re a"d to$d the #oa#h a" to dri1e e to the best o"e. I sa* fi1e *o e". 2 there *ere te" i" the ho&se. a"d fi1e *ere the" i"isteri"% to a$e p$eas&res a"d their o*" profit. ) ta$$. "&t bro*" haired *o a". *ith soft dark eyes a"d #$ear #o p$e!io". #$ad i" a ha"dso e. $oose. ye$$o* si$k dress. attra#ted e. a"d soo" I sat *at#hi"% her take off her 1ery "i#e $i"e". 2 The" she *as $yi"% o" the bedside *ith #he ise &p to her breasts. a"d to y s&rprise a"d de$i%ht I fo&"d her se#ret #har s *ere 3&ite hair$ess. 2 For the o e"t I see ed &"der so e de$&sio". b&t there *as "o istake. ,er otte had the s$i%htest spri"k$i"% of "ear$y i"1isib$e $i%ht bro*"
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do*". *hi#h i%ht ha1e #o1ered a shi$$i"%. b&t it did "ot hide her bea&tif&$$y *hite f$esh there. a"d as the do*" approa#hed the sa#red orifi#e for the a$e. it #eased a$to%ether. a"d the sp$it fro o"e e"d to the other *as abso$&te$y hair$ess. The p&ffy s&rro&"di"% off the i"de"t 2 s#ar#e$y to be #a$$ed $ips 2 *as soft. e$asti#. *hite. a"d s ooth as i1ory. *ith a de$i#ate #ora$ ti"ted $i"e 0&st peepi"%. *hi#h *as hidde" $o*er do*" by the #$osi"% of the p$& p *hite b&tto#ks o" either side. I t&r"ed her ro&"d. k"ee$i"% her *ith her ha"dso e b&t "ot bi% b&tto#ks to*ards e. a"d the hair$ess red di1isio" *as a" e!3&isite si%ht. There *as "ot a post&re i" *hi#h I #o&$d p$a#e her to see her #&"t that I did"(t the" pose her i". ade her ope" the $ips *ith her fi"%ers. k"ee$ *ith thi%hs *ide apart *itho&t her fi"6%ers. so as to %et the #o"trast bet*ee" the *hite a"d #ora$. a"d the effe#t e1ery *ay *as ra1ishi"%. I sho&$d ha1e $iked a photo%raph of it. The fee$ of the s&rfa#e of her 3&i *as so soft. so e$asti#. so 1o$&pt&o&s. that I a#t&a$$y $a&%hed *ith se"s&o&s de$i%ht. a"d at o"#e k"e$t to %a ah&#he her. *ith y pri#k "oddi"% *ith stiff"ess a"d $&st. Yet ti$$ I(d see" her #har s I(d had "o desire. bei"% 1ery fati%&ed. i" a h&rry. a"d ere$y ha1i"% %o"e to the ba%"io to see *hat sort of p$a#e it *as. a"d *hat sort of *o e" *ere there. I $i#ked her odest $itt$e #$itoris ti$$ she *rithed a"d ref&sed to $et e #o"ti"&e. The" %etti"% &p a"d p$a#i"% y pe%o bet*ee" the *hite $ipped ope"i"%. dro1e it &p to the deepest depths of her #&"t. ;he" there. the p$eas&re of the $od%i"% *as so %reat. that it bro&%ht y p$eas&re to a" e"d too soo". I *as ho$di"% o"e thi%h &p. $ooki"% do*" at y pe%o(s o1e e"ts. a"d fee$i"% the soft *hite f$esh i" *hi#h it *as e bedded. ad iri"% a"d de$i%hted. *he" *ith a throb &p #a e y sper . )"d I(d %a ah&#hed her to so e p&rpose. for she spe"t dire#t$y y $ibatio" to&#hed her #&"t. She *as t*o a"d t*e"ty she said a"d $ooked abo&t that. She "e1er had had a"y ore hair tha" "o*. The first #a e *he" she *as abo&t ei%htee". before that she *as hair$ess abso$&te$y. I $ooked a"d fe$t #aref&$$y. to see if she *as sha1e". or *hether the p&de"da$ ba$d"ess *as artifi#ia$ a"d the res&$t of &si"% #he i#a$s. b&t it *as 3&ite "at&ra$. She $a&%hed *he" I to$d y do&bts. 2 4Look. $ook. its "at&re.4 said she. I *as ob$i%ed to depart "e!t day. b&t *i$$i"%$y *o&$d ha1e stayed to f&#k that ab"or a$ #&"t a%ai". I ha1e see" artifi#ia$ s ooth"ess o" #&"ts i" the East. b&t "e1er s&#h a "at&ra$$y hair$ess o"e i" a f&$$ %ro*" *o a". It &st be rare. for I ha1e see" perhaps fiftee" h&"dred. a"d thi"k I(1e o"$y see" o"e f&$$ %ro*" *o a"(s #&"t at a$$ rese b$i"% it. tho at this o e"t #a"(t re#o$$e#t *he" or *here. EThis a"&s#ript *as set aside *ith the i"te"tio" of p&tti"% it *ith others i"to a #hapter &po" #&"ts. It %ot is$aid ti$$ sorti"% for fi"a$ b&r"i"% of a"&s#ript.F

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Chapter VIII The pote"tia$ity of %o$d i" sed&#i"% *o e". • S&dde" $et#hes 3&i#k$y %ratified. • ) s a$$ #&"ted ba$$et %ir$. • S*eet si!tee". • @e""y the #oster %ir$. • O" the hi%h road to har$otry. EThe fo$$o*i"% a$so *as $aid aside for a #hapter o" #&"ts. a"d it a"d the episode *ith the ba$$et %ir$ are p&t to%ether as i$$&stratio"s of the pote"tia$ity of %o$d i" %etti"% *o e" i" the $o*er ra"ks of $ife 2 perhaps i" a$$ ra"ks if the bid be hi%h e"o&%h.F )t a spe#ta#&$ar pie#e I t*i#e "oti#ed a shortish b&t s*eet $ooki"% ba$$et %ir$ *ith e!3&isite $e%s 2 o" the se#o"d o##asio" I *aited at the sta%e door to see her #o e o&t. So differe"t do *o e" $ook i" *a$ki"% dress to *hat they do *he" o" the sta%e. that it is diffi#&$t to re#o%"i-e the . b&t $ooki"% sharp$y. I dis#o1ered her $ea1i"% *ith a %ro&p of others. It *as a #o$dish "i%ht i" the be%i""i"% of Mar#h. )t first I hesitated to fo$$o* her. for her air of 3&iet respe#tabi$ity deterred e so e*hat. a"d I #o&$d "ot *e$$ a##ost her *he" s&rro&"ded by others. 7&t y #o#k s*e$$ed *ith desire. a"d &"der its sti &$ati"% i"f$&e"#e a"d *ith eroti# hopes a"d 1isio"s I fo$$o*ed her 2 as I(1e do"e s#ores of *o e" 2 ti$$ first o"e. the" a"other of the %ro&p *e"t off. a"d 3&i#k$y she *as $eft *ith t*o others o"$y. *ho *a$ked *ith her thro a" obs#&re a"d "ear$y deserted street ti$$ they e"tered a p&b$i# ho&se. 2 )fter ref$e#ti"% a i"&te I e"tered a$so. a"d fo&"d the sitti"% i" a pri1ate bar 2 "o other perso" there 2 eati"% sa"d*i#hes a"d dri"ki"% a$e 2 I ordered a %$ass of *i"e a"d stood $ooki"% at the . they $ooked at b&t took "o "oti#e of e. I sa* that i" bo"6"et she *as as ha"dso e as o" the sta%e. a"d y pe%o "o* "ear$y $ifted e off the %ro&"d *ith stiff"ess as I tho&%ht of her $e%s a"d breasts. 2 Re#k$ess "o* &"der its i"f$&e"#e. I asked the a$$ to ha1e port *i"e. T*o a##epted b&t she ref&sed 2 I ordered a bott$e. 'o* I asked *hy they *ere o&t so $ate. "ot a$$&di"% to the theatre. "either did they i" their a"s*er. 2 I %ot a oro&s$y s&%%esti1e. the t*o $a&%hed 2 for dire#t$y f&#ki"% e"ters the i"d *o e" are p$eased 2 b&t did"(t rep$y ti$$ I asked the a$$ to #o e ho e a"d s$eep i" y bed. tho I had "either ho&se "or bed *here I #o&$d %o. ;as it $ar%e e"o&%h/ asked o"e. 2 ;hat *o&$d I do/ the" asked the other. 24;hate1er yo& $ike. *hat sha$$ it be/4 2 More $a&%hi"% the". 2 4O"e at a ti e(s e"o&%h is"(t it/4 said y fa"#y. 2 4It *o&$d be *ith yo&.4 2 4;e &st %o.4 said she. )$$ prepared 3&i#k$y to %o. a"d the" o"$y she took a %$ass of *i"e a"d i ediate$y departed. so h&rried$y 2 as if s#ared 2 that I did"(t *ait for #ha"%e i" pay e"t for the *i"e for fear of $osi"% si%ht of the . I heard the $a&%h as they %ot o&tside a"d s&ppose it *as abo&t e. the" hopi"% I sho&$d at so e ti e #at#h her a$o"e. I fo$$o*ed 3&i#k$y.
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;he" o&tside I sa* her ahead a"d a$o"e. the others had %o"e off. I" a i"&te I *as by her side. te$$i"% her I had see" her i" the ba$$et. ad ired her $o1e$y for . a"d aski"% her to $et e %o ho e *ith her. She stopped. ref&sed. professed s&rprise at y aski"%. I %re* bo$der. 2 4'o"se"se y dar$i"%. I($$ %i1e yo& a so1erei%".4 2 4I *o"(t 2 I &st %et ho e. it(s so $ate 2 besides I #a"(t.4 2 The" ready to e pty y p&rse to ha1e her. 2 4I($$ p&t yo& i"to a #ab a"d %i1e yo& three so1erei%"s.4 2 The" she stopped. $ooked at e. the" $ooked ba#k to see if a"y o"e *as "oti#i"% her. ) $itt$e f&rther pers&asio" a"d the". 4I #a"(t stop ore tha" te" i"&tes the".4 2 I a##eded to e1ery #o"ditio". dri1e" to a free #offee shop. a shabby o"e *hi#h I k"e* of. a"d *ere soo" i" a bedroo . She p&$$ed do*" her 1ei$ to hide her fa#e as she approa#hed the ho&se. If I *a"t a *o a" "ot re%&$ar$y o" the to*". it(s best to bid a"d at o"#e 1ery hi%h for her fa1o&rs. I o&%ht to ha1e bid three at first. for I k"o* that tho ba$$et %ir$s *i$$ f&#k for $o1e. they rate their #&"ts hi%h if they are to be paid for the . I(d bee" e&$o%i-i"% the bea&ty of her for *he" she #o"se"ted to #o e. a"d she(d said 4I($$ she* yo& that b&t "o ore. i"d.4 ) f&""y reser1atio" *hi#h I tho&%ht a 0oke. or perhaps that she had her o"th$ies o". 7&t I *a"ted to see her "&de so a%reed. a"d *o&$d ha1e do"e a"ythi"% to %et i"to a bedroo . k"o*i"% that a *o a" *ho has tasted the p$eas&re of a pe%o 2 a"d I *as s&re she had 2 *o&$d "e1er resist o"e stiff sta"di"% i" fro"t of her to her ha"d. ) stiff red #apped pri#k has a fas#i"atio". a"d a k"o*i"% #&"t heats. ti"%$es a"d s*eats its $&bri#atio" at the si%ht of o"e. 2 )fter taki"% her bo""et off she sat o" the bedside. I be%a" $ifti"% her #$othes a"d *he" they *ere &p to her %arters she stopped e. 4That(s a$$.4 2 4'o"se"se. I &st see yo&r thi%hs.4 She $ifted the 1ery s$o*$y. stoppi"% short of her otte. a"d she(d dra*ers o". 2 4There the".4 2 I p&shed y ha"d bet*ee" the o" to the "ot#h. She #$osed her thi%hs ti%ht$y. 2 4'o ore.4 2 4;e$$ take yo&r dra*ers off. I #a"(t see as &#h as I did i" the ba$$et.4 )s she resisted *hi$st yet she $a&%hed. a"d as I hate bei"% p$ayed *ith so by a *o a". I $ost y te per. 2 4+o"(t be a foo$. I($$ f&#k yo& or I *o"(t pay yo&.4 2 4I *o&$d"(t ha1e #o e the".4 2 4Look.4 said I. p&$$i"% o&t y pri#k. stiff as a aypo$e. She did $ook at it a"d $o"% *hi$st sayi"%. 2 4'o 2 "o.4 2 7&t it e!#ited her a"d a i"&te after she *as fee$i"% it a"d I her pretty 3&i . 2 Soo" after she *as i" #he ise at the bedside. thi%hs apart. a"d the $o1e$y "ot#h e!posed a"d I e!a i"i"% it *ith $&stf&$ de$i%ht. 4I( 1ery s a$$ ade. a I "ot/4 said she i" a" apo$o%eti# to"e. as if she *ished to *ar" e. It *as perhaps the s a$$est #&"t I e1er fe$t i" a *o a". The "ot#h approa#hed the &s&a$ si-e. b&t the $o1e a1e"&e *as 3&ite ti%ht to y fi"%er. a"d I tho&%ht y pe%o #o&$d "e1er %et &p it. 7&t stra"%e$y e"o&%h. that 1ery idea see ed to stiffe" it to a" &"be"dab$e state. it *as #ast iro" as the %$a"d to&#hed the s a$$ orifi#e. a"d it %$ided ri%ht &p *itho&t stoppi"%. ti$$ I to&#hed the e"d of the t&be a"d hit hard. 2 She si%hed b&t "othi"% ore. I fe$t her %e"ita$ $&bri#ati"% 0&i#es soo" iss&i"% a"d softe"i"% ro&"d y tip. b&t as her
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p$eas&re #a e o". the ti%hte"i"% of her a1e"&e a$ ost h&rt e Eit *as *he" y pri#k *as ore se"siti1e as I ha1e a$ready ofte" des#ribed. a"d I preferred a" easy #&"tF. )s she spe"t. I fe$t as if the %$a"d *as bei"% "ipped by a ha"d. The ti%ht"ess *as se"sib$e to y pri#k as it d*i"d$ed 1o$&pt&o&s$y. a"d its #o pressio" *as the" e!3&isite to it. as I stood ho$di"% &p her thi%hs. The". *he" *ith a parti"% "ip at y pri#k tip as it 3&itted her. a"d *he" after*ards. y fi"%er sear#hed the &#i$a%i"o&s soft i"terior. it sti$$ *as ti%ht to it. I "e1er fe$t s&#h a ti%ht #&"t before. 'ot o"e of the a"y yo&"% hair$ess #&"ted o"es had s&#h a ti%ht #o#k pit. a"d I %$oried i" ha1i"% f&#ked this #$ipper. She *as as a"y of her #$ass are. 1ai" as a pea#o#k. I(d fo&"d that o&t before. I praised her #&"t. said it *as de$i#io&s. y e&$o%ies de$i%hted her so. that i"stead of te" i"&tes she stopped "ear$y a" ho&r. stripped a$$ b&t sto#ki"%s. to $et e see her e!3&isite for . a"d I f&#ked a%ai" her $&bri#io&s &"*ashed #ha""e$. I *o&$d"(t $et her *ash it. a"d i"deed thi"k she "e1er #o&$d ha1e %ot the sper o&t if she had. I took a #&rio&s fa"#y to her o" a##o&"t of her 3&i a"d she 2 as I ha1e fo&"d a$$ 1ery ti%ht #&"ted o"es 2 see ed happy i" ta$ki"% abo&t it. I asked her to eet e a%ai". She said she #o&$d"(t a"d to$d e &#h. b&t *hether tr&e or "ot I #a""ot say. 2 4Yo&($$ "e1er see e a%ai".4 She(d $eft the theatre that "i%ht for %ood. had do"e *ith the sta%e. sho&$d $ea1e Lo"do" "e!t day. 2 4'o. I( "ot %oi"% to be %ay. I "e1er ha1e bee" %ay. ) %e"t$e a" akes e a" a$$o*a"#e. he did it to e first. Yes a"d he p&t e o" the sta%e. he pays for y da"#i"% there. they do"(t pay e.4 Three or fo&r e" besides hi a"d yse$f she ad itted. "ot ore. had had her. 4)$$ ha1e said I *as 1ery s a$$ ade.4 2 These i" a"s*ers to y 3&estio"s. The" she ad itted that she *a"ted f&#ki"% 0&st *he" I spoke to her i" the p&b$i# ho&se. her frie"d *as o&t of to*" b&t *o&$d eet her o" the orro*. O"e or t*o %ir$s had fe$t her #&"t a"d she theirs. to 0&d%e if hers rea$$y *as s a$$. 4It *i$$ be a bad $ook o&t if I %et i" the fa i$y *ay. a"d I hope yo& ha1e"(t do"e it.4 It(s a$*ays a &si"% to hear *hat a *o a" says of herse$f. so retai" this "arrati1e. b&t pri"#ipa$$y be#a&se of her ti%ht #&"t. I ha1e had others ti%htish b&t "e1er s&#h a ti%ht o"e i" a %ro*" *o a". 2 She said she *as "i"etee" a"d $ooked that a%e. the hair of her head. #&"t. a"d ar pits *as dark. I *e"t t*i#e to the theatre after*ards. b&t "e1er sa* her there a%ai" "or e$se*here. She said she *as %oi"% to be arried. )bo&t si! o"e *ar e1e"i"% i" a&t& " I *as "ear a arket at H H H. The %reat traffi# of the day *as o1er as I sa&"tered o&t of #&riosity thro a street I(d "e1er see" before. o"e of &#h trade. b&t *here e1ery shop *as #$osed for the "i%ht. a"d b&t fe* pedestria"s i" it. 2 'ear a p&b$i# ho&se stood t*o porters ta$ki"%. )t the #or"er of a "arro* street. three #o o" %ir$s *ere $o$$i"% a%ai"st the *a$$. ta$ki"% a"d $arki"% *ith a #o&p$e of $ads $ooki"% s#ar#e$y si!tee" years o$d. the %ir$s see i"% of abo&t the sa e a%e.
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St&rdy. thi#k b&i$t *e"#hes. $ooki"% $ike arket or #oster %ir$s <they *ere= a"d #$ad i" %ood tho #oarse *ork6soi$ed #$othi"% a"d *ith short petti#oats a"d boots s&itab$e for their *ork a"d #$ass. They had dirty ha"ds a"d $ooked s*eaty. d&sty. a"d *ork *or". T*o had hats. the other "o"e. she *as a s&perb$y ha"dso e #reat&re *ith 1ery $i%ht #o$ored hair of bri%ht h&e. *hi#h e1ide"t$y #ri ped "at&ra$$y. a f$orid fa#e. retro&ssM "ose. a"d bi% o&th *ith *hite teeth. she(d $i%ht b$&e eyes. a fi"e b&st a"d $ar%e hips. a"d the 1ery pi#t&re of #oarse hea$th she $ooked. )s I took her poi"ts i" at a %$a"#e a"d tho&%ht her bea&tif&$. the" I a$so tho&%ht of her se#ret #har s. *o"dered if she(d bee" f&#ked. a"d tho&%ht ho* *e$$ she(d $ook if *ashed a"d *e$$ dressed. those a##essories of bea&ty. I stood $ooki"% &p "o* a"d the" see i"%$y at the ho&ses to hide y ob0e#t. *hi#h *as to see her a"d the %ro&p. a"d to *at#h their horse p$ay. The $ads *ere #haffi"% the %ir$s. o"e s"at#hed a kiss a"d %ot a s$ap o" his head. tho the *e"#h *as e1ide"t$y p$eased. 2 The other $ad s&dde"$y ade a di% at the fair haired o"e(s #$othes o&tside her %r& it. aki"% so e re6 ark *hi#h I #o&$d"(t hear. b&t at *hi#h a$$ $a&%hed. ,e ra" off &p the short "arro* street. p&rs&ed by the %ir$ *ho see ed rea$$y a"%ry. a"d i" a se#o"d they had t&r"ed a #or"er a"d *ere o&t of si%ht. The %ir$s *ith hats a"d the $ad re ai"i"% $ooked ro&"d the #or"er $a&%hi"%. a"d res& ed their positio" a%ai"st the *a$$. The $ad $o&d$y said. 4To *a"ts it bad do"(t he Loo/4 2 4I d&""o. ask hi .4 said the %ir$. ,e o" that p&t his ha"d ro&"d her a"d s"at#hed a"other kiss. disarra"%i"% her bo""et i" doi"% so. %ot a"other hard s$ap a"d a p&sh. a"d 4I($$ ki#k yo&r b$oody arse if yer does that a%ai".4 )$$ this o##&rred a$ ost si &$ta"eo&s$y. a"d far 3&i#ker tha" this a##o&"t of it is *ritte". The street *as 3&ite 3&iet. a"d e1ery *ord easi$y heard. The %ro&p took "o "oti#e of e. "either did the 1ery fe* passers by. The si%ht %a1e e a spas odi#. 1o$&pt&o&s throb i" y pe%o. for I *as 1ery fit that e1e"i"%. a"d *ith se!&a$ i"sti"#t 2 I s&ppose 2 s$o*$y I *a$ked &p the "arro* street. as a"y other pedestria" i%ht. a"d t&r"i"% the #or"er sa* the #o&p$e str&%%$i"% to%ether. he s"at#hi"% at her petti#oats as before. she hitti"% hi . 4Let(s fee$ it. @e""y.4 4:et a*ay yo& b$a#k%&ard.4 2 4I(1e fe$t it.4 4Yo& ai"(t. yer $iar.4 #a e #$ear$y to y ears as I t&r"ed the #or"er. 2 My appeara"#e i ediate$y stopped the f&". a"d *ith a parti"% s$ap fro her the $ad ra" off. $ea1i"% her a$o"e *ith e. "o other perso" *as i" the passa%e 2 ) foot6*ay o"$y 2 i"deed e!#epti"% at arket ho&rs fe* passed that *ay. C&i#k$y as tho&%ht a"d to be%i" a #o"1ersatio" *ith her. 2 a$ ost a"ythi"% does for that. 2 I asked her the *ay to a p$a#e a"d she be%a" to te$$ e. 2 4She* e the *ay. yo& are so $o1e$y a"d I($$ pay yo&.4 2 The opport&"ity had #o e so s&dde"$y that I(d "ot ti e to thi"k abo&t a #o&rse of a#tio". Ci1i$$y she be%a" to e!6p$ai" the road. the" tha"ki"% her I said. 4,o* $o1e$y yo& are. I(1e bee" *at#hi"% yo& a"d $o"%i"% to be hi .4 2 4;hat/ 2 a"d she $a&%hed. 4Yes 2 #o e *ith e a"d I($$ %i1e yo& t*o so1erei%"s.4
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4;hart/4 2 said she a%ai" sta"di"% a a-ed *ith stari"% eyes. 2 @&st the" so e o"e approa#hed. 4Is it that *ay/4 said I as a b$i"d. 2 ) a-ed as she had see ed by y offer. she took the hi"t. a"d be%a" e!p$ai"i"% the *ay. poi"ti"% to it. 2 I" a fe* se#o"ds the pedestria" had 1a"ished a"d a%ai" I said 4I($$ %i1e yo& t*o so1erei%"s to #o e *ith e.4 )%ai" she repeated. 4;hart/4 The" ref$e#ti"% she added. 2 4)i"(t yo& 0&st a #heeky o"e.4 2 4I *i$$ by :od. a"d ore. yo& are so $o1e$y.4 2 She $a&%hed. the" i" a stra"%e$y #o"f&sed a"d ha$f asha ed a""er. $ooked at e hard a"d shook her head. 2 4+o.4 2 4'o tha"kee Sir I #a"(t.4 2 4+o. I($$ be ba#k here to eet yo& i" a 3&arter of a" ho&r a"d I($$ %i1e yo& t*o bri%ht so1erei%"s.4 2 ('o.4 )%ai" she shook her head. a%ai" I pressed a"d repeated y offer. )t $e"%th 2 4I( so dirty.4 2 4'e1er i"d. yo&(re $o1e$y. a"d it *i$$ be dark.4 2 T*i$i%ht *as a$6ready #o i"% o". 4Mi"d t*o so1erei%"s/4 4;hat for/ )"d I(1e %ot "o bo""et.4 4'e1er i"d. i" a 3&arter of a" ho&r be here. *i$$ yo&/ ;e($$ %o i" a #ab.4 2 4Yer ai"(t a$yi"%/4 )"other pedestria" passed *hi$st these fe* *ords *ere bei"% e!#ha"%ed. a"d as she 2 a *o a" "o* 2 appeared. I poi"ted a%ai" as if seeki"% dire#tio". a"d the %ir$ did the sa e. 'o"e are so #&""i"% as those i" $&st. a"d I thi"k she *as a $itt$e so "o*. @&st the" the $ad reappeared at the #or"er a"d I be%a" poi"ti"% as before as a b$i"d. She sa* the $ad i%ht s&spe#t. a"d "ot *ishi"% to be #a&%ht by hi ta$ki"% to a %e"t$e a". ba*$ed o&t. 4The %e"t *a"ts to k"o* the *ay to H H H H.4 ,e approa#hed a"d to$d e 2 poi"ti"% i" a"other dire#tio". 2 4Sho* e a"d I($$ %i1e yo& t*ope"#e.4 ,e *e"t ahead. 4I" t*e"ty i"&tes here.4 2 said I i" a $o* 1oi#e. a"d fo$$o*ed the $ad #&rsi"% hi i" y heart for i"terr&pti"% &s. a"d *o"deri"% if the t*o so1erei%"s *o&$d bri"% ba#k the *e"#h to the eeti"% p$a#e. I sa* that the offer of t*o so1erei%"s had 3&ite sta%%ered her. she *ho perhaps had "e1er bee" paid fi1e shi$$i"%s for her p$eas&res 2 if paid at a$$ 2 for she e1ide"t$y *as "o str& 6pet. 7&t a$$ *o e" are paid for their fa1o&rs either i" ea$ or a$t. )s soo" as I *as *e$$ a*ay fro the p$a#e I %a1e the $ad threepe"#e. a"d off he *e"t. ) fe* i"&tes after. I %ot i"to a fo&r *hee$ed #ab. a"d setti"% yse$f *e$$ ba#k to$d the dri1er. to %o at *a$ki"% pa#e a$o"% the street *here the %ro&p had bee" sta"di"%. There stood the sa e $ot see i"%$y abo&t to separate as the #ab passed the . they did"(t see e. I" three or fo&r i"&tes I *e"t ba#k a%ai" at a trot. The $ads *ere %o"e. the %ir$s %oi"% i" a"other dire#tio". I *as de$i%hted. I(1e a"y ti es bee" he$ped i" y a o&rs by #ab e". a"d thro&%h the *i"do* said. 4Fo$$o* those %ir$s 2 do"(t $ose si%ht of the . I do"(t *a"t to be see".4 4)$$ ri%ht. Sir.4 2 )t the e"d of the street *here it 0oi"s a $ar%e thoro&%hfare. he dro1e past b&t "e1er $ost si%ht of the . a"d stopped as they did. I #o&$d the" see the three %ir$s sta"di"% to%ether a"d ta$ki"% for te" i"&tes. The" to y de$i%ht t*o *e"t off $ea1i"% y *e"#h a$o"e. *ho retra#ed her
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steps 1ery s$o*$y. stoppi"% fro ti e to ti e a"d $ooki"% ba#k. the" t&r"ed to*ards the p$a#e of re"de-1o&s at the #or"er of the "arro* street. She stopped there for a se#o"d as if #o"sideri"%. *iped her fa#e *ith a dirty ha"dker#hief. arra"%ed her hair *ith her ha"d. the" 3&i#k$y *e"t &p it a"d ro&"d the #or"er 2 I %ot o&t of the #ab. paid hi . to$d hi to *ait a"d *e"t after her. It *as "o* 3&ite d&sk. There she stood a"d *he" I(d 0oi"ed her. said she *as afraid to #o e. she tho&%ht she(d te$$ e to pre1e"t y *aiti"% &se$ess$y. )fter a fe* *ords of pers&asio" a"d the t*o so1erei%"s offered a%ai". she *as i" the #ab *ith e a"d off *e dro1e. )fter *e had bee" i" the #ab a i"&te I kissed her. she ret&r"ed it sayi"%. 4Yo&(re a #heeky o"e.4 Soo" after. 2 4If yo&($$ stop here t*o or three i"&tes I($$ %et e a bo""et. 2 ;here are yo& ataki"% e/ I rea$$y #a"(t stop o&t $ate. 2 ;hat are yo& a%oi" to do/4 2 4'e1er i"d yo&r bo""et 2 I *a"t to fee$ yo&r $itt$e #&"t a"d yo& to fee$ y pri#k.4 2 4Oho 2 "o yo& sha"(t 2 yo& ha1e b$oo i"( #heek. 2 I( sorry I(1e #o ed.4 2 4+o"(t be a foo$. yo&($$ ha1e t*o so1erei%"s.4 2 She #h&#k$ed a"d o" *e"t the #ab. 2 4I( h&"%ry. 2 It(s "ear y ti e to %r&b. a"d they($$ *o"6der *here I a .4 2 4I($$ %et yo& so ethi"%.4 a"d at a p&b$i#. %etti"% o&t b&t keepi"% her i" the #ab. I took her %i"%er beer a"d %i" i" it a"d t*o bi% b&"s. 2 O" *e dro1e. a"d the". b&t *ith &#h resista"#e. a"d drop6pi"% her b&" i" pre1e"ti"% e. I %ot y fi"%ers *e$$ o" a oist #&"t. 2 )fter a f&rther str&%%$e y fi"%er re ai"ed there *hi#h see ed to 3&iet her &#h. b&t she see ed offe"ded a"d re arked. 4I ai"(t that as yer thi"ks. I *orks for y $i1i"% a"d pretty hard too.4 2 4Yo&(1e bee" f&#ked a"d yo& $i1e *ith a a".4 2 4'o I do"(t. I $i1es *ith the o$d peop$e.4 2 she did"(t de"y the f&#ki"%. 7y the ti e *e rea#hed the ho&se I *as h&%%i"% her #$ose$y a"d had fe$t her $&bri#io&s orifi#e both i"side a"d o&t. as far as the positio" e"ab$ed e. a"d satisfied yse$f she *as"(t 1ir%i". She %ot a%ai" si$e"t. see i"%$y thi"ki"% *hi$st e"0oyi"% the p$ay of y di%its o" her 3&i . S&#h are $o1e$y o e"ts for a"y #o&p$e. a"d it *as I( s&re for her. tho she see ed fri%hte"ed at *hat she *as doi"%. The istress *ho k"e* e *as asto&"ded to see a #o o" *e"#h *itho&t a bo""et. a"d i" a *hisper hoped a$$ *as ri%ht. She feared #o"se3&e"#es. s&spe#ti"% I(d bro&%ht a #ha"#e 1ir%i" a"d had ade her s#re*ed. I" the bedroo the %ir$ #&rio&s 2 as a$$ s&#h as 2 $ooked e1ery*here. 2 4It(s a ba&dy shop. ai"(t it/4 2 4Yes. take off yo&r thi"%s.4 2 4'o.4 She resisted that ear"est$y as a ha$f odest %ir$ *o&$d. b&t $o"%i"% to see her "ot#h. I p&shed her o" the bed a"d the" her #$othes &p. 4Oh "o*. I *o"(t.4 ) ore di"%y si%ht of petti#oats a"d #he ise I do"(t re#o$$e#t. b&t her fat ba#kside. p$& p thi%hs. a"d s ooth be$$y *ere *hite a"d #$ea". a"d the prettiest $itt$e "ot#h $ay bet*ee" the . Crisp. #&r$y. short hair s&rro&"ded a de$i#ate #ora$ stripe. "ot &#h *as o" the otte. a"d it $ooked ost e"ti#i"%. *as the #har i"% #&"t of si!tee". She *as a $itt$e o1er si!tee". ) #&"t is i" its hi%hest bea&ty at abo&t that a%e. I "o* thi"k. tho i" y yo&th I $o1ed the $ar%er a"d 1ery hairy.
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I prod&#ed y pe%o *hi#h she 3&iet$y ad ired $o"% 2 a"d I fe$t s&re fro her $ooks she had"(t see" a"y 2 i" de$i#io&s si$e"#e. Soo" after she ha"d$ed it *hi$st y fi"%er titi$$ated her. 2 4+o yo& *a"t it/4 2 'o. said she *ri%%$i"%. 4Let e f&#k yo&.4 2 4'o.4 said she s3&ir i"% abo&t 2 the" 3&i#k$y after. 2 4Oh9 2 +o"(t 2 aha 2 sho1e it i".4 2 &r &red she 1ery 1&$%ar$y. I" a se#o"d *e *ere f&#ki"% at the bedside. she *as f&$$ a"d ra"dy. a"d soo" *e spe"t i" &"iso". She *as yo&"%. art$ess. hot b$ooded. si%hed &#h. a"d %a1e *ay free$y to her p$eas&re. 2 My pri#k $i"%ered i" her $o"% *hi$st I $ooked do*" at her *hite be$$y a"d thi%hs. a"d a"o" at her dirty $i"e". 7&t the $o1e$y #o"60&"#tio" #eased. the e1ide"#es of o&r p$eas&re ro$$ed o&t. a"d I p&shed &p her thi%hs. ho$di"% the apart to ad ire the pear$y iss&e. The" she *ashed her #&"t %i1i"% a ere o&tside s$&i#e. a"d spite of her str&%%$es. I *ashed her #&"t o&tside a%ai" yse$f a"d &#h to her asto"ish e"t. 2 ,ad she bee" a str& pet she(d ha1e *ashed it &p e"o&%h. ,er *ashi"% i" fa#t sho*ed she *as "ot habit&a$$y %ay. a"d her p$eas&re i" seei"% y pe%o. a"d a shy"ess of a""er. ade e s&re she *as "o har$ot. 4,as "o o"e *ashed yo&r #&"t b&t yo&rse$f/4 4Lord "o 2 *hat do yo& thi"k 2 *hat did yo& *a"t to do it for/4 2 4For p$eas&re.4 2 4,o 2 ho 2 I &st %o.4 2 4Yo& sha"(t yet. %et "aked a"d so *i$$ I.4 2 4Oho. "o 2 there the". I *o"(t do that.4 2 4,a1e yo& "e1er bee" "aked to a a"/4 2 4'e1er. b&t o"$y to y o*" #hap.4 2 ,e(d first had her *he" si!tee". she said. ,e had a #art. *as %etti"% o". b&t dra"k &#h. I i"sisted. she stripped. I did the sa e. a"d i" "&dity. sto#ki"%s e!#epted. *e p$ayed *ith ea#h other(s se!&a$ or%a"s. >ers&adi"% her *as de$i#io&s. for she *as odest a"d "o sha . a"d she *as e1ide"t$y 1o$&pt&o&s$y de$i%hted as i" si$e"#e she p&$$ed y prep&#e &p a"d do*". a"d ha"d$ed y ba$$s as if she(d "e1er see" a f&$$ %ro*" ba$$o#ks before. 'ot a bit *as it $ike the e!perie"#ed a"ip&$atio" of a har$ot. I 3&estio"ed her. a"d she a"s*ered strai%ht. I fe$t s&re. tho "o do&bt s&ppressi"% a"y thi"%s. 2 4Yo&(1e bee" f&#ked.4 2 4;hy. i" #o&rse. yo& k"o*s that.4 2 4,o* did I/4 2 4Yo& k"o*s it.4 2 4,o* a"y e" ha1e f&#ked yo&/4 2 4O"$y o"e.4 2 4That(s a fib.4 2 4It(s tr&e. so he$p e :od. 2 Yo&(s the o"$y other #hap. 2 ;hy I ai"(t had it t*o o"ths. a"d $i1es at ho e at H H H H. I ra" a*ay o"#e *ith hi . the "i%ht I *as do"e 2 b&t they %ot e ba#k. 2 So he$p e :od it(s tr&e. 2 Yes I $ets hi *he" he %ets the #ha"#e. b&t they says he(s taki"% o" *ith a"other %a$. 2 I($$ ser1e her o&t if I %ets ho$d o" her.4 2 The" y pri#k bei"% stiff a"d her #&"t ready *ith o&r ha"d$i"%s a%ai". they 0oi"ed. 2 The" o&r se!&a$ e#stasies o1er 2 a"d did"(t she e"0oy the f&#k/ 2 I had a #ab %ot a"d p&t her i"to it *ith t*o so1erei%"s i" her ha"d. 2 She(d "e1er i" her $ife had a so1erei%" before of her o*". she said. 2 Ma"y a %ir$ has had her first bit of %o$d fro e. has fo&"d o&t the ready o"ey61a$&e of her #&"t. 4'o. it(s "o %ood yo&r a*riti"( e a"d I reads bad$y. a"d praps they($$ %et ho$d o" it. tho they #a"(t read.4 7&t she a%reed to eet e a%ai" a"d I *rote do*" ti e a"d p$a#e. 2 4I($$ p&t o" a bo""et "e!t ti e. b&t I #a"(t p&t o" y best thi"%s. they($$ *a"t to k"o* *hy a"d I(d $ike to #o e ear$ier.4 So it a$$ #a e
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abo&t. I et her that day *eek a"d she *as #$ea"er. had better boots a"d *hite sto#ki"%s. She *as a fi"e ode$ fro head to foot. s&#h so$idity of f$esh. so sati"y. a"d tho she said she "e1er took a bath i" her $ife. she *as as s*eet as a "&t. I f&#ked. the" %a ah&#hed her. %i1i"% her her first p$eas&re that *ay. 4'o.4 "o to"%&e had to&#hed her #$itoris before. she said. The" I f&#ked her a%ai" a"d she *e"t off *ith t*o so1erei%"s a%ai". a$$ I(d pro ised. She ear"ed at *ork so eti es ei%htee" pe"#e a day. so eti es "ot that s& . ;he" *ith her father he %a1e her "othi"% of her ear"i"%s. 47&t he keeps e.4 She to$d e &#h ore abo&t herse$f. b&t e1ide"t$y "ot a$$. ho* she so eti es *e"t o&t *ith a barro*. a"d after *ork *as do"e i"to the streets to ta$k *ith her frie"ds. ,er 4yo&"% a"4 had said. 4that if he #a&%ht e *ith a"other #hap he(d s ash both o&r b$oody "oses. a"d "o* he(s after a"other %a$.4 2 4;hat if he k"e* I(d f&#ked yo&/4 2 4+&"" 2 b&t he #a"(t k"o*. 2 Shi"ers ai"(t %ot at barro*s are they/4 2 She said that the t*o shi"ers pro ised had ade her #o e *ith e. 2 4Yo&(d ake p$e"ty if yo& $iked.4 2 She k"e* *hat I ea"t 2 $ooked $o"% at e a"d shook her head. 2 4I ai"(t a%oi"( at that %a e 2 "o tha"kee 2 "ot if I k"o*s it. ,e($$ arry e I thi"k "o* if father $et his 2 if he *o"(t I($$ r&" a*ay a%i". 2 Yes. I($$ #o e here *ith yo& a%i" if yo& $ike. b&t I #a"(t ha1e a $etter if yo& k"o*ed *here I $i1es e1e".4 ) sp$e"did strappi"%. hea$thy #reat&re she *as. a"y ri#h *o&$d %i1e a"ythi"% for s&#h a" offspri"%. 2 ) bit fit for a >ri"#e(s pri#k. a"d *hat a $o1e$y #&"t9 Yet a #oster spe"t i" it first. a"d *i$$ yet take his p$eas&re i" it. I had her o"#e ore. She 3&i#k$y %ot at y too$ a"d p$ayed *ith it as if $e*ed to her b& ho$e. 2 It *as de$i#io&s$y e!#iti"% to see her at y pri#k. 2 She %ri""ed a"d ad itted her yo&"% a" had had her i" the i"ter1a$. 2 4'o. o"$y o"#e 2 sha"(t te$$ yo& *here. 2 :i1e e/ 2 "othi"% he did"(t 2 he "e1er %i1ed e "othi"% 2 "e1er he did"(t. b&t he says he($$ arry e4 2 her 1ery *ords. 2 My $et#h *as o1er. her #oarse"ess a""oyed e. a"d I sa* her "o ore. E;i$$ she arry/ her se!&a$ e"0oy e"t *as i e"se. her de$i%ht i" ha"d$i"% y pe%o a"d e1e" i" sho*i"% e her "aked bea&ties at o&r third eeti"% *as de$i#io&s. Las#i1io&s"ess had set i". the de$i%ht of the se#ret eeti"%s *ith a %e"t$e a" %a1e her &"6dis%&ised p$eas&re a"d she(d ha1e $et e f&#k her to a"y e!te"t. ;he" I to$d her I #o&$d "a e "o ti e to eet her a%ai". b&t *o&$d so e day be at the arket *here she ta$ked *ith frie"ds *he" the day(s *ork *as do"e. her #o&"te"a"#e fe$$. a"d she be#a e d&$$. 2 +id the so1erei%"s ake her t&r" har$ot/ Or f&#ki"% a"d so1erei%"s to%ether 2 or did she be#o e a 1irt&o&s #oster(s *ife/ 2 )"d she a$so *as f&#ked *he" si!tee". a$$ her #$ass are. they *i$$ be f&#ked. 2 Ladies &st o"$y fri% the se$1es ti$$ they are arried. 2 &"ti$ fi1e a"d t*e"ty ofte". ;hat a $oss of p$eas&re9 F

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Chapter IN Fo%%y "i%hts( street6a &se e"ts. • C&"ts hairy a"d hair$ess fe$t. • ) &se e"ts i" the ho&se after*ards. • Litt$e +i thirtee" *ith sister Sarah t*e"ty. • F$at f&#ki"%. a$ias 4f&#ki"% 'a""y.4 • ,o a%e to $itt$e +i(s se!&a$ orifi#e. • ) b&!o $a"d$ady. • My frie"d(s $od%i"%s. • C&"t str&#k a"d #o#k str&#k. • Co"1ersatio"a$ i"#ite e"ts. • Opport&"ity o" the dra*i"% roo f$oor. +o%s f&#ki"%. • ;e f&#ki"%. • E"#ei"te. • ) tra1e$$i"% pro#&ress. • The i$$i"er(s shop. • ,er *ork *o e". • O" the first f$oor fro"t *ith Sophy. • >ri#e a"d p$a#e arra"%ed. • ) pre$i i"ary %rope. • +iffere"#es *ith the i$6$i"er. • Fifty po&"ds for a 1ir%i". • )" assi%"atio" "ot kept. I" the a&t& " I *as at a hea$th resort. Stoppi"% there *as a" e$der$y frie"d. *ho for 3&iet"ess had $od%i"%s a$ ost i" the s&b&rbs. ,e(d bee" a $o"% ti e there. said the ho&se *as e!#eedi"%$y #o fortab$e. a"d be$o"%ed to a *ido* *ho had a $itt$e %ir$. She said she *as "ot a $od%i"% ho&se keeper. tho for a fe* o"ths i" the seaso" she $et the %ro&"d f$oor. %etti"% a $itt$e e!tra o"ey *hi#h *as &sef&$ for the ed&#atio" of her %ir$. It see ed to y frie"d that there *as tr&th i" *hat she said. as for the first f$oor 2 *hi#h she did"(t &se &#h 2 she asked s&#h a pri#e. that "o o"e *o&$d take it. ,e had to$d her so. She(d rep$ied that it did"(t atter. for she #o&$d do 1ery *e$$ *itho&t it. The ho&se *as her o*". *as "e*$y a"d *e$$ f&r"ished. she had e1ery appeara"#e of ha1i"% ea"s. a"d she(d bee" there t*o years. There *as so ethi"% "e1erthe$ess ysterio&s abo&t her. ,is a%e a"d habits re"dered hi abo1e s&spi#io" of a atory affairs. She ope"ed the door to e *he" I #a$$ed o"e day. My frie"d *as o&t. I *aited for hi . a"d to y s&r6prise. I fo&"d her a *o a" of "ot perhaps ore tha" se1e" a"d thirty. sto&tish. *e$$ %ro*". *ith bri%ht dark eyes a"d ha"dso e fa#e. I %ot i"to #o"1ersatio" *ith her. *hi#h at first she see ed disi"#$i"ed to. ;e #hatted abo&t y frie"d. 2 4Yes. a "i#e 3&iet a".4 she said. if he *ere "ot she sho&$d"(t keep hi . It *as said i" a" i"depe"de"t sort of *ay. The". that rea$$y she "eed"(t $et the roo s. b&t the e!tra o"ey *as &sef&$ to better ed&#ate her %ir$. ;e #hatted o". bit by bit I e$i#ited that her h&sba"d had bee" dead fo&r years. ,er b&!o fresh $ook stirred y $&st. I had tho&%ht of her hidde" #har s. a"d *ith those de$i#ate b&t *ar s&%%estio"s. *hi#h #o e "at&ra$$y. *he" 1o$&pt&o&s fee$i"%s r&" thro e. I asked *hy she did"(t arry a%ai". ho* she &st iss a bedfo$$o*. did she #&dd$e the pi$$o* a"d so o". a$$ te"di"% to raise tho&%hts of a"d ake her *a"t f&#ki"%. She $a&%hed. #o$ored &p. $ooked at e soft$y a"d asked 3&estio"s abo&t yse$f. I a"s*ered i" *ords to i p$y that I *as fo"d of *o e". a"d k"e* *hat se!&a$ tro&b$e a fi"e *o a" $ike her &st ha1e. *ho(d bee" by death depri1ed of her bed6 fe$$o*.
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I" s&#h #ha"#e eeti"%s *he" desire spri"%s &p. &#h depe"ds &po" the se!&a$ state i" *hi#h the a" a"d *o a" ay be. If both are at the o e"t hot. if the body is ready *ith its a oro&s f$&ids. ea#h s&%%esti1e 3&estio" a"d a"s*er adds to the heat of #&"t a"d ba$$o#ks. 7oth of &s *ere. I thi"k. &#h "eedi"% a oro&s de$i%hts that day. @&st the" y frie"d #a e i" a"d stopped a p$easa"t #o"1ersatio". she $eft a"d *e ta$ked abo&t her. ,e said she *as a $ady. a"d f&rther o". 2 4)h. *o e" are a ystery i" se!&a$ atters. tho&6 sa"ds I( #o"1i"#ed do *itho&t a a$e for years *he" $eft *ido*s. *hi$st *e *o&$d"(t. #o&$d"(t *ait a *eek.4 2 ,is professio" 2 fro *hi#h he(d retired 2 ade hi so e*hat of a" a&thority o" s&#h a s&b0e#t. I took a fa"#y to the $a"d$ady. y o$d frie"d had take" a fa"#y to the %ir$ 2 a s*eet o"e rese b$i"% her other *ho "e!t ti e bro&%ht her i"to y frie"d(s roo at his re3&est. The %ir$. *ho *as rea$$y bea&tif&$. y frie"d treated pater"a$$y. the $a"d$ady *ith #o&rtesy. keepi"% her "e1erthe$ess *e$$ at a dista"#e. I $ooked "e!t ti e at her a"d she at e. a"d a 1o$&pt&o&s thri$$ ra" thro y pe%o as I tho&%ht of her hidde" bea&ties. She #o$ored &p a"d $ooked f&$$y i" y eyes. I ha1e a$*ays tho&%ht that $&st is #o &"i#ab$e bet*ee" a" a"d *o a". by $ook or by to&#h. a"d be$ie1ed she a$so had a 1o$&pt&o&s thri$$. +id she see i" y eyes $&st for her. or did she a%"eti#a$$y i"f&se her $&st i"to e. by her eyes/ ;itho&t pre1io&s i"te"tio". soo" after I #a$$ed at a ti e *he" y frie"d *as o&t. She ope"ed the door a"d re arked that her ser1a"t had %o"e o&t *ith her $itt$e %ir$. a"d she *as 0&st the" *itho&t a"other ser1a"t. I *a$ked i"to his roo to *ait. she re arki"% that I i%ht ha1e to *ait $o"%. L&st #rept thro e the" rap6id$y as I eyed her. a"d *ith i"sti"#t sa* #ha"#e of possessi"% her. I be%a" the for er #o"1ersatio". ho* hard to be $eft *itho&t a bedfe$$o*. did she #&dd$e the bo$ster/ )"d so o". She &st ake the best of it for she *as $eft #o fortab$y off. she rep$ied. 7&t I kept to the $oss of a bedfe$$o*. %rad&a$$y she $a&%hed. her a"s*ers %ot 1a%&e. she see ed fid%ety. 4Take e for a $o1er.4 2 4Oh 2 $a* 2 *hat *o&$d yo&r frie"d say if he heard yo&/4 2 The" I #haffed her. a"d soo" after. 2 4I($$ take yo&r first f$oor.4 2 4;o&$d yo& $ike to see the /4 2 4Yes.4 2 ;e *e"t there. she pre#edi"% e. 4;hat a s*eet $itt$e foot I see yo& ha1e.4 2 4Oh. ha1e I/4 I" the roo I #haffed a $itt$e ore s&%%esti1e$y. for y pri#k stiffe"ed as I sa* the bed. 4Oh that bed. I($$ take the roo s4 2 I(d "o idea of doi"% so 2 4b&t sha$$ %o &p a"d s$eep *ith yo&.4 2 4Oh9 I the" sha"(t $et the to yo&.4 2 she rep$ied $a&%hi"%. 2 4I &st ha1e a kiss the".4 2 She ade a fai"t resista"#e b&t she *as %ratified. a"d I kissed her a%ai" a"d a%ai". 2 4Meet e this e1e"i"%.4 2 4)h. "o. i possib$e.4 2 I #a&%ht her ro&"d the *aist. p&$$ed her be$$y to i"e. *ri%%$ed it there. a"d kissed her. 2 4Oh do"(t. y ser1a"t ay #o e i".4 2 4I( dyi"% for yo&.4 said I. a"d &#h ore. y $&st %ro*i"% stro"%er. y re#k$ess"ess i"#reasi"%. 4Let e %o.4 2 4I *o"(t.4 a"d I 0o%%ed y be$$y a%ai"st hers. 2 4'o* do.4 2 Giss e the".4 2 4There.4 2 She kissed e a"d I $et her %o 2 her fa#e *as s#ar$et. her eyes h& id. a"d i"sti"#t said to eI 4She(s ready for f&#ki"%.4
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@&st the" *as a "oise i" the street. boys sho&ti"%. 4;hat(s that/4 said she. 7oth *e"t to the fro"t. a"d sa* a %ro&p of boys ro&"d a #o&p$e of do%s *ho *ere f&#ki"%. She t&r"ed a*ay at o"#e. her eyes et i"e #aressi"%$y. 4Let &s do *hat the do%s are doi"%.4 2 4Oh9 Sir94 7&t her eyes *ere $&stf&$. the si%ht of #op&$atio" had f&rther stirred $&st a$ready i" her. 4;i$$ yo& %o do*" "o*/4 2 4'o. $et e $ook at the bedroo a%ai".4 'e!t i"&te by the side of the bed I p&$$ed o&t y stiff sta"dard. 4+ear Mrs. H H H. $et e. I( dyi"% for yo&.4 2 4Oh do"(t "o*. for :od(s sake 2 do"(t4 2 as I stooped a"d %ot y ha"ds o" to her thi%hs. 2 4Oh9 'o* do"(t.4 2 7&t y fi"%ers *ere *ithi" the $ips of a fat #&"t. #risp a"d thi#k *as the hairy or"a e"t aro&"d it. I titi$$ated it. 2 4'o 2 I *o"(t 2 "o. pray do"(t.4 2 I #a&%ht her ha"d. p$a#ed it ro&"d y pe%o. a"d #$aspi"% her to e kissed her rapt&ro&s$y. She *as %etti"% $e*eder. a%ai" I stooped to %et y ha"ds &p her #$othes. she stooped to pre1e"t e 2 so ethi"% #ra#ked. 4There. I(1e broke" y stay bo"e.4 That di1erted her for a se#o"d. I p&shed her b& a%ai"st the bed. p&$$ed &p her #$othes. a"d a%ai" so&%ht the "ot#h. 2 L&st had 1a"3&ished her. her thi%hs separated. a"d sayi"%. 4'o 2 "o 2 "o.4 y pri#k e"tered her #&"t. a"d sta"di"% *ith her b& a%ai"st the bed I f&#ked her. C$aspi"% her ha"dso e bi% b&tto#ks o&r to"%&es et. rapid$y o1ed &p a"d do*" y pri#k. o&t shot y sp&"k. a"d a de$&%e #a e fro her hot 3&i as i" the rapt&res of the #risis *e spe"t to%ether. f$oodi"% ea#h other(s or%a"s *ith i"%$ed spe"di"%s. E"er1ated. disso$1i"% *ith p$eas&re. ha$f dead *ith 1o$&pt&o&s de$i%ht. *e re ai"ed 0oi"ed. o&r to"%&es sti$$ eeti"%. ti$$ s&dde"$y she p&shed e off. 4Oh9 Let e %o. I sha$$ be *ith #hi$d.4 O&t of the roo she r&shed. y pri#k f$oppi"% do*". o&r spe"di"%s had a$6 ost dro*"ed y ba$$s. so #opio&s had it bee". I" a i"&te or t*o she ret&r"ed. 2 4Oh. yo& *i#ked a". *hat ha1e yo& ade e do/ 2 I fe$t I do"(t k"o* *hat 2 I feared yo& *he" I first sa* yo&.4 2 4'e1er i"d y dear. it *o"(t be o&r $ast p$eas&re.4 2 4It *i$$. tho.4 said she 3&ite serio&s$y. 2 7&t I *as ri%ht. 2 My frie"d did"(t ret&r" for a $o"% ti e. she sat *ith e i" the 3&iet *ay a #o&p$e do after f&#ki"%. e!pressi"% her re%rets a"d fears. sayi"%. 4,&sh 2 h&sh.4 to the ba&dy ta$k *hi#h I i"d&$%ed i". 2 S&#h ta$k is de$i#io&s *ith a fresh *o a" *ho(s "ot a str& pet 2 a"d I ta$ked ti$$ y pri#k stiffe"ed. I praised her b&tto#ks. her #&"t. her f&#ki"%. a"d a$$ she had. prod&#ed y ri%id pri#k a%ai". she fe$t it &"der y pro ise that I(d the" $ea1e off a"d %o 2 pro ise I(d "ot the s$i%htest i"te"tio" of keepi"%. 2 I" a i"&te I *as fri%%i"% that fat a"d *e$$ haired 3&i a%ai". *hi$st sti$$ she ha"d$ed y pe%o. 4'o dear. o" the bed this ti e.4 I" a i"&te #o#k a"d #&"t *ere o"e. a"d the +i1i"e f&"#tio" of f&#ki"% *e"t o". 2 4I"#rease a"d &$tip$y4 is the $a*. the +i1i"e #o a"d. a"d that ea"s f&#ki"%. therefore is f&#ki"% +i1i"e. ,er #&"t she speedi$y a%ai" *ashed. b&t y pri#k a"d ba$$s retai"ed o&r a atory oo-i"%s. for she(d o"$y ti e to p&sh the bed i"to shape. a"d *e to %et to y frie"d(s roo . before he ra"% the be$$. She ope"ed the door. 2 4Yo&r
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frie"d. Sir. has 0&st #o e.4 said she $o&d$y. 2 4,o* d(ye do 2 I tho&%ht I sho&$d 0&st #at#h yo&.4 said I to hi . +ire#t$y after that the ser1a"t re6t&r"ed. I(d bee" there a" ho&r a"d ha$f a$to%ether. a"d sed&#tio" a"d t*o f&#ks *ere do"e i" "i"ety i"&tes. ;e *ere both ra"dy *he" *e et. a"d he"#e y $&#k. it #o&$d "ot ha1e bee" a#hie1ed other*ise. a"d the" the $&#k he$p of those do%s sti#ki"% r& p to r& p. 7east tho they *ere. it sti &$ated o&r $&st. 2 C&ite i" y yo&th. I re#o$$e#t y first $o1e Char$otte a"d I sa* t*o do%s doi"% it. a"d a$ ost dire#t$y after*ards *e f&#ked. I #a$$ed "e!t day. y frie"d *as o&t. the ser1a"t ope"ed the door. the $itt$e %ir$ she*ed herse$f o" the stairs. 2 4)re yo& %oi"% for a *a$k. y $itt$e dar$i"%/4 2 47ye a"d bye *ith Ma a. *he" MHHH has had his $&"#heo".4 2 4Te$$ yo&r a a I($$ *ait a bit.4 2 Ser1a"t a"d #hi$d disappeared. a"d soo" after i" #a e the $ady. 2 4Let &s.4 2 4'o 2 "o ore. "e1er 2 "e1er.4 2 M&#h pers&asio". 2 4Let e o"$y fee$ it.4 2 She ref&sed b&t I did. Oh9 that fee$ of a #&"t. *hat effe#t it has at o"#e o" e 2 y too$ *as stiff. *as sho*". 2 4I #a"(t. I &st"(t. I *o"(t 2 ho* #a" *e "o*/4 4;e #a" a%ai"st the *a$$.4 2 She *as a *o a" of %ood hei%ht. f&#ki"% her &pri%ht *as "ot &"6easy. 24>ro ise e the" yo&($$ "ot do it i" e.4 2 I pro ised. yet $eft y sp&"k at the 1ery botto of her #&"t a%ai". ;e(d f&#ked a%ai"st the *a$$. it(s so e years si"#e I(1e do"e so. The" for so e *eeks I had her at i"ter1a$s. She arra"%ed fro ti e to ti e to %et ser1a"t a"d #hi$d o&t. I k"e* *he" y frie"d *o&$d be o&t. a"d he "e1er s&spe#ted a"ythi"%. She et e i" Lo"do". a"d *e spe"t ha$f days i" bed to%ether "aked. She o*"ed to the a%e I(d %&essed her. 2 I(d spe"t o&tside her #&"t t*o or three ti es. b&t her #o&rses #a e o". she *as "ot e"#ei"te. a"d he"#eforth fear$ess$y *e f&#ked. She *as a s&perb ta$$ *o a". had a 1ery hairy otte. b&t her #&"t f&$$ $ipped a"d %ro*" o&tside *as as ti%ht as a *o a"(s of t*e"ty 2 her thi%hs a"d b&tto#ks *ere s&perb. her f$esh *hite. her se!&a$ p$eas&re %reat i" y e bra#es. I %a1e her a" address to *rite to. y rea$ "a e a"d address she k"e*. ;e et a%ai" a"d her first *ords *ere. 2 4Yo&(1e %ot e *ith #hi$d. y #o&rses ha1e stopped. I k"e* yo&(d do it. *hat sha$$ I do/4 This *as &"fort&"ate "e*s. b&t the diffi#&$ty *as %ot o1er. She *o&$d "e1er eet e a%ai" &"$ess I so$e "$y pro ised "ot to spe"d i" her. That *as a $oss of p$eas&re. for the dis#har%e of sper i" the #&"t. *he" the #&"t is at its ti%htest %rip. is the s&b$i est o e"t of e!iste"#e. a"d *ithdra*i"% "either s&ited her 1o$&pt&o&s tastes "or i"e. ;e #eased eeti"%. i"deed at ei%hty i$es apart it *as a$6 ost i possib$e. a"d #orrespo"de"#e the" dropped. Years after she *as sti$$ i" the sa e ho&se. a"d &sed to ask after e of y o$d frie"d. *ho *e"t there year$y. 2 O"e day he *rote e she *as %oi"% to arry. 2 She had s*or" by a$$ that *as ho$y that she(d "e1er had a a" b&t her h&sba"d a"d yse$f. If it had"(t bee" for seei"% the do%s f&#ki"% perhaps I "e1er sho&$d ha1e had her5 b&t *ho k"o*s/
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She(d had three #hi$dre". her be$$y sho*" si%"s. the $itt$e %ir$ o"$y *as a$i1e. I" the opi"io" of y frie"d a"d yse$f she(d $i1ed *ith a a" *ho had %i1e" her the ho&se a"d a" a""&ity. 2 ;e$$ off for her #$ass she #ertai"$y *as. a"d 1ery *e$$ beha1ed a"d &#h of a $ady. I( s&re she(d "e1er bee" har$ot. Fo%%y *eather is propitio&s to a atory #apri#es. ,ar$ots te$$ e that they &s&a$$y do %ood b&si"ess d&ri"% the state of at osphere. espe#ia$$y those *ho are re%&$ar "y phs of the pa1e. a"d *ho do"(t i"d e!er#ise i" the ope" air. Ti id e" the" %et bo$d a"d speak to *o e" *he" they other*ise *o&$d "ot. That is y o*" e!perie"#e a$so. a"d re#o$$e#t %oi"% a$o"% a ai" street o" o"e s&#h "i%ht. a##osti"% "ear$y e1ery o"e i" petti#oats. a"d fe$t si! or ei%ht #&"ts *ithi" a" ho&r at a shi$$i"% a fee$. fe$t ti$$ I had"(t a"y si$1er $eft a"d perfor#e $eft off th&s a &si"% yse$f. O" a fo%%y "i%ht. a fair$y si-ed fe a$e a"d a yo&"% %ir$ *hose treb$e $a&%h I heard before I sa* the . approa#hed. 2 4My dear. I($$ %i1e yo& a shi$$i"% to fee$ yo&r #&"t.4 2 4)$$ ri%ht.4 said she. %oi"% #$ose to the *a$$ to be as &#h as possib$e o&t of the traffi#. tho there *as s#ar#e$y a"y o"e abo&t. it bei"% $atish. I fi"%ered the hairy "ot#h a"d ro&"d her thi%hs a"d b& *hi#h fe$t so$id a"d asked her a%e. 4'i"etee". *hy do"(t yo& ha1e e/ There(s a ho&se #$ose by. I thi"k I #a" fi"d it.4 2 I de#$i"ed. 2 4Fee$ her #&"t. she(s "o hair o" it.4 said the do!y. 'e!t i"&te I had o"e fi"%er o" a soft s ooth $itt$e sp$it. 2 )$$ had "ot o##&pied fi1e i"&tes. peop$e passed. took "o "oti#e of &s. i" fa#t did"(t see &s. a"d h&rried a$o"% to %et ho e e!#epti"% the >aphia"s. a"d those *ho $ike yse$f *ere a &si"% the se$1es i" 1erifyi"% the se! of those i" petti#oats. 4,a1e yo& bee" f&#ked/4 said I to the $itt$e o"e. 4Yes.4 she rep$ied $a&%hi"%. 2 The e$der repeated her i"1itatio" addi"%. 2 4;e($$ both be "aked.4 2 4Fi1e shi$$i"%s/4 2 4)$$ ri%ht. b&t yo&($$ %i1e her so ethi"% if she(s "aked. a"d if yo& do her.4 2 4Certai"$y. fi1e shi$$i"%s for her.4 2 I" a fe* i"&tes *e *ere i" a k"o#ki"% shop ti$$ the" &"k"o*" to e. a poor p$a#e. pri#e of roo three shi$$i"%s. b&t there *as a bed. %ood fire a"d %as $i%ht. They *ere a poor. shabbi$y dressed #o&p$e. as I %&essed they *o&$d be fro their a""ers a"d 1oi#es. yet both had #$ea"ish #he ises a"d sto#ki"%s. 2 ,ar6$ots %e"era$$y a"a%e to ha1e those #$ea" ho*e1er i"6differe"t the rest of their to%%ery ay be. 2 The e$der *ho said she *as o"$y "i"etee". had a $ar%ish #$eft. a f&rro* *ith a" &%$y b&"#h of "y phae at the &pper e"d. b&t *as sto&t a"d fir . E!a i"i"% her be$$y. 2 4Yo&(1e had a #hi$d.4 2 4Yes. t*o.4 2 4Li1i"%/4 2 4O"e. :od b$ess it.4 2 4I( sorry for it.4 2 4I ai"(t.4 2 The" I ade the $itt$e o"e strip to her #he ise. She *as o"e of the s a$$est %ir$s I(1e had. a"d thi". b&t fi"%eri"% her rea$$y pretty $itt$e hair$ess s$it. stiffe"ed y pi--$e. a"d she p$ayed *ith it k"o*i"%$y e"o&%h. The" I %a1e the both %i" *hi#h the e$der had asked for. a"d the $itt$e pi"k s$ash p$eased e ore a"d ore. 2 'ot a si%" of do*" e1e" *as o" it.

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I "e1er k"o* *hat $et#h *i$$ spri"% &p i" e *he" *ith *o e". Seei"% the e$der(s poppy topped #&"t I tho&%ht of 4f$at f&#ki"%4 a"d asked her if she did it. It(s stra"%e that she did"(t &"dersta"d the *ord. or professed "ot. a"d *he" I e!p$ai"ed. 2 4Oh9 ;e #a$$ it 2 f&#ki"% 'a""y.4 2 a ter I "e1er heard before or si"#e. $a&%hi"% hearti$y at y 3&estio" a"d repeati"% 4F$at f&#ki"%. ho 2 ho 2 f$at f&#ki"%. is it/ +i"ah a"d I does it to keep o&rse$1es *ar so eti es. *e s$eep to%ether. do"(t *e +i/4 2 4Yes.4 #h&#k$ed she. 2 4%i1e e yo&r ha"dker#hief.4 The $itt$e a"i a$ had a beast$y #o$d i" her head 2 I did"(t be$ie1e her a"d ade the sho* e ho* they did it. They(d "o odesty abo&t it a"d posed the se$1es *itho&t de$ay. the $itt$e o"e $aid o" the e$der. ope" k"o*i"%$y her $itt$e s$it. a"d #$osed it o" the b&"#h of #ri so" "y phae. a"d #$itoris of the bi% o"e as far as I #o&$d see. The $itt$e hair$ess #$eft i"deed sho*ed &"&s&a$ si%"s of de1e$op e"t of "y phae. $ike her sister(s 2 for sister she *as. 2 4+o yo& both ha1e p$eas&re/4 2 4I do *he" I *a"t it.4 said she. p&tti"% herse$f o" the bedside. I did"(t keep the at their %a e. they separated their 3&i s. a"d the" I fri%%ed the $itt$e o"e as she sat o" y k"ee. ti$$ she said she sho&$d spe"d. 2 her sister $ooki"% o" a"d fee$i"% y #o#k. 4I($$ f&#k yo&.4 said I to the bi% o"e. 2 4)$$ ri%ht. I *a"t it.4 said she. p&tti"% herse$f o" the besdide. I $aid the $itt$e o"e beside her. aki"% her ho$d her $itt$e po&ti"% #&"t $ips apart. *he" a desire for her s&dde"$y spra"% &p. poor. ski""y $itt$e #reat&re tho she *as. 2 4I($$ f&#k her. is she a$$ ri%ht/4 2 4Yes. she(s a$$ ri%ht. f&#k e first.4 2 4'o.4 2 4The %e"t *a"ts to do e.4 2 #ried the $itt$e o"e sharp$y. Fear of #$ap s&dde"$y #a e o1er e. a"d fee$i"% i" y po#ket I prod&#ed te" shi$$i"%s i" si$1er. te$$i"% the at the sa e ti e that it *as theirs. b&t "ot to $et e poke if they had their #o&rses o". I a$*ays %i1e *o e" that opport&"ity for e!#&se. 4:i1e it a$$ e. I keeps her.4 2 said the e$der a"!io&s$y a"d %rabbi"% it. 4;e(re a$$ ri%ht. both of &s. she ai"(t bee" t&#ked for a *eek. do e first a"d her after.4 They had both sat &p. I p&shed the ba#k a%ai". a"d i"serted y s*o$$e" pe%o i" the $itt$e o"e. It *as a ti%ht fit b&t her #&"t took it a$$ &p. a"d $eis&re$y I f&#ked her. the" stopped. #o"te p$ati"% y pri#k. o1i"% i" a"d o&t &"der that $itt$e be$$y a"d e"#$osed by the $itt$e p&ffy $ips. 2 4Oh/ :o o" 2 I sha$$ do it 2 do"(t 2 stop.4 said the $ass *ho *as b&t thirtee". a"d be%a" os#i$$ati"% her b&tto#ks 1i%oro&s$y. dri1i"% her #&"t &p to e. a"d I fe$t her a1e"&e stiffe"i"% a"d %rippi"% ro&"d y staff. The "o1e$ty of the si%ht a"d the de$i%ht at her ra"dy i patie"#e fet#hed e dire#t$y. o&t b&bb$ed y sper . as her $itt$e #&"t %a1e o&t its s$ippery 0&i#es to i! *ith i"e. ,er $itt$e #&"t $oose"ed as a$$ #&"ts do after a spe"d. b&t the f&#k had so p$eased e I s&ppose. that y pri#k kept stiffish a"d *e$$ &p her. She $ay *ith eyes #$osed i" f&$$ se"s&o&s e"0oy e"t of o&r #op&$atio". $ooked as if she *ere as$eep i" the $&s#io&s a""ihi$atio" of her spe"d. yo&"% as she *as. I stood #o"te p$ati"% her. her sister $ay si$e"t$y $ooki"% o" a"d t*idd$i"% her "y phae. )t $e"%th. 4+o yo& $ike f&#ki"%/4 2 4Rather.4 said the $itt$e o"e.
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0&st $ike a"y f&$$ %ro*" str& pet. 2 4She(s %ot a hot $itt$e arse.4 re arked her sister %etti"% oO the bed. a"d he$pi"% herse$f to ore %i". 2 Sti$$ y pri#k $i"%ered i" the $&bri#io&s a1e"&e. tho the de$i#ate. 1o$&pt&o&s shri"ki"% of the tip i" the &#i$a%e had be%&". 4,o* $o"% ha1e yo& bee" f&#ked/4 2 4) year. I thi"k.4 2 4Yes. a year.4 2 said her sister. 2 4,o* &#h did yo& %et for it/4 2 4'othi"%. *&ss $&#k. a b&%aboo of a boy she k"o*ed did it. a"d she $et hi $ike a b$oody $itt$e foo$.4 2 broke i" the e$der. risi"%. I sa* that she *as %etti"% ti%ht. for I(d se"t for a bott$e of %i" a"d she *as dri"ki"% it rapid$y. 4+o"(t dri"k so &#h. yo&($$ %et dr&"k.4 2 4It *i$$ keep o&t the #o$d a"d it(s "o %ood a$ea1i"% it.4 2 4Yo& ay take it a*ay *ith yo&.4 2 4Oh tha"kee 2 sha$$ *e dress/ 2 ;o"(t yer f&#k e first/4 'o* that y p$eas&re *as o1er their 1&$%arity of6fe"ded e. 2 4'o. I #a"(t.4 2 4Yo& #a" i" a $itt$e if yo& try.4 2 4+o yo& *a"t it/4 2 4Yes. it a$*ays ake e *he" I sees +i f&#ked. I( 3&ite #$ea" 2 do it.4 2 I #a"(t bear to $ea1e a #&"t &"f&#ked *he" at ha"d. there is a %$a o&r abo&t the red sp$it at a$$ ti es. b&t spe#ia$$y *he" y s#rot& (s ti%ht a"d f&$$. a"d tho I did"(t "o* *a"t it. her desire for it e1oked 1o$&pt&o&s ideas. 2 >idd$i"% a"d the" *ashi"% y pe%o. 2 4I(1e "o ore o"ey.4 2 4'e1er i"d. f&#k e.4 2 4It(s "ot stiff. Yo& &st s&#k it the".4 2 4)$$ ri%ht.4 said she. k"ee$i"% do*" a"d #aressi"% the tip. @&st the" #a e a k"o#k at the door a"d a 1oi#e said. 2 4Sha$$ yo& be $o"%. Sir/4 2 4;e ai"(t bee" $o"%.4 said the %a ah&#her a"%ri$y. 2 4I($$ pay a%ai".4 I sho&ted. 2 4+o"(t do that. %ie it to e. *e ai"(t bee" $o"%.4 2 7&t the brothe$ keeper had %o"e a*ay. 2 4;hat a pity. she a$*ays tries o" that %a e.4 said the %ir$. a%ai" p&tti"% y pe%o i" her o&th. The 0&1e"i$e *ho *as *ashi"% her $itt$e #&"t. the" #a e a"d be%a" he$pi"% herse$f to %i". 2 4Yo& sha"(t ha1e a"y ore. yo&($$ be dr&"k.4 said the e$dest %ir$ %etti"% &p a"d pre1e"ti"% her. 2 They s3&abb$ed. b&t she %a1e the $itt$e o"e ha$f a %$ass a"d the" res& ed s&#ki"% y pe%o. The $itt$e o"e $aid o" the bed a%ai" s&ffi#ie"t$y "ear for e to see a$$. a"d I p&t y fi"%er &p her fresh *ashed 3&i . The e$der at $e"%th by o&th a"d to"%&e ro&sed y pri#k to stiff"ess. a"d sayi"%. 2 4There.4 *ith a s i$e. thre* herse$f o" the bedside *ith ope" thi%hs. 7&t y ere#tio" *as te porary. the $ook of her poppy topped 3&i did"(t p$ease e. a"d it s&b6sided. The $itt$e o"e $a&%hed thereat a"d the e$der res& ed her %a ah&#hi"%. *hi$st a%ai" I sat o" the #hair. 7&t a"other *hi #a e. a"d taki"% the $itt$e o"e(s b& o" y "aked thi%h. I a%ai" be%a" fri%%i"% her. 4I($$ ake yo& spe"d. *he" did yo& fri% yo&rse$f $ast/4 2 4Yesterday or"i"%. Sir.4 2 4+id yo&/4 2 4She 0&st did.4 said the e$der. he$pi"% herse$f to %i" a%ai". 2 4I($$ break that bott$e if yo& take a"y ore.4 a"d re$i"3&ishi"% the $itt$e $o1e #ra#k. I %ot &p a"d p&t the bott$e o" the a"te$ pie#e. 2 She $a&%hed. a"d sayi"%. 4:i" a$*ays ser1es e o&t 3&i#k.4 s3&atted o" the pot. I stooped a"d took the #atara#t o" y ha"d 2 that stiffe"ed e. she $a&%hed *he" she sa* it. 2 4F&#k e "o*.4 said she. $ayi"% ho$d of y too$.
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7&t I *o&$d"(t. a"d res& ed fri%%i"% the $itt$e o"e *ho took the ast&rbatio" i" 1o$&pt&o&s si$e"#e. ti$$ her thi%hs t*it#hed a $itt$e. 4Te$$ e *he" yo&(re #o i"%.4 2 She ade "o rep$y for a *hi$e. the" 2 4It(s a #o i"( 2 "o*. aha 2 aha.4 she si%hed. a$ ost i"6a&dib$y. a"d fro the tre &$o&s otio" of her $itt$e b& a"d thi%hs. the %e"era$ 3&i1eri"%. a"d the" 3&iet"ess of her *ho$e #&"ta$ re%io". I k"e* she(d spe"t. b&t said as for so e reaso" I &s&a$$y do *he" a *o a"(s fri%%ed herse$f. 4Yo& ha1e"(t spe"t.4 4I($$ s*ear she ha1e.4 said the e$der *ho(d bee" *at#hi"% &s. I p&shed her o" the bed. p&t y fi"%er &p the $itt$e 3&i a"d fo&"d it ore $&bri#io&s tha" it had bee" fi1e i"&tes before. My pri#k stood $ike iro" at that. a"d p&$$i"% her by her thi%hs to the beds ed%e. p$&"%ed it hard &p her. 2 4Ohoo9 f&#k e.4 #ried the e$der i" disappoi"ted to"e. 7&t the $et#h for the hair$ess #&"t *as o" e. I ra ed as 1io$e"t$y as I #o&$d. $o"%i"% to hit her *o b porta$s 2 y pri#k see ed far stiffer tha" before. 2 4,o9 yo& h&rts.4 #ried she. ,arder tha" e1er the" I thr&st. a"d fe$t y pri#k at ea#h p&sh ba"%i"% hard a%ai"st the botto of her *o b. I *as de$i%hted at h&rti"% her. 2 4,oo. 2 do"(t.4 a"d she dre* her b& a $itt$e ba#k. a 1ery $itt$e. for I he$d her $ike a 1i#e a"d she *as he$p$ess. 7a"% *e"t y pe%o sti$$. 4Oho 2 oho.4 she #ried o&t. y arseho$e ti%ht6 e"ed *ith the e0a#&$ati"% p$eas&re. I spe"t a"d *as 3&iet 0&st i" ti e to see her sister fi"ish fri%%i"% her6se$f. *hi#h she(d do"e. e!#ited by the ba&dy a &se e"ts. The" I $eft &#h de$i%hted. a"d a"y a ti e y pri#k stood after*ards *he" I tho&%ht of that fo%%y e1e"i"%(s ad1e"t&re. a"d the ski""y. hair$ess #&"ted $itt$e *hore 2 o"e of the yo&"%est I(1e f&#ked. I" a rai$*ay #arria%e i" Lo"do" o" o"e or"i"% i" *i"ter. as *e approa#hed H H H H. the passe"%ers %ot o&t $ea1i"% e a$o"e *ith a short *e$$6dressed *o a" $ooki"% abo&t thirty6fi1e years. 2 She had bee" $ooki"% at e a$ ost #o"ti"&o&s$y for a 3&arter of a" ho&r. *hi#h ade e $ook at her 2 for she *as %ood $ooki"% 2 a"d dire#t$y *e *ere a$o"e she spoke abo&t the *eather. a"d 1ery short$y to$d e she *as a dress aker. O" that a $itt$e #o"1ersatio" e"s&ed. *he" she re arked that it *as diffi#&$t for the %ir$s to dress a"d ake a $i1i"% o&t of their *a%es. a"d if %ood $ooki"% they *o&$d"(t5 a"d she s i$ed si%"ifi#a"t$y. I a$so s i$ed. a"d *as i"#$i"ed to be$ie1e that she *as aki"% ad1a"#es o" her o*" beha$f. *he" she asked if I k"e* HHHH Street. a"d rep$yi"% that I did. she to$d e the "& ber of her shop. aski"% e to #a$$ a"d try o" her %$o1es. She so$d %e"t$e e"(s %$o1es a"d #ra1ats 2 "othi"% ore for %e"t$e e" 2 for she *as a dress6 aker. )t o"#e I set her do*" as a pro#&ress. a"d 3&estio"ed her #$ose$y. 2 Yes. she had so e pretty %ir$s *orki"% for her. she(d ha1e "o"e b&t pretty o"es. 4Co e a"d b&y a #ra1at or %$o1es.4 2 a"d I #o&$d see the . 4;hat(s the %ood of seei"% a"d $o"%i"%/4 4Oh if yo& $o"%. I($$ see *hat I #a" do for yo&.4 2 The" I heard that they *ere a$$ 3&ite respe#tab$e. b&t %ir$s *o&$d be f$i%hty. a"d she shie$ded the fro tro&b$e. )t o"#e I sa* a$$ this *as ere #a"t. that she %ot pretty %ir$s to *ork for her. a"d if she %ot a #ha"#e. so$d the pretty %ir$s. a"d
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perhaps this 0o&r"ey i" a rai$*ay #arria%e *as her ode of i"trod&#i"% her b&si"ess. 2 4I s&ppose yo& ha1e so e o"e o$der tha" yo& i" the b&si"ess.4 2 'o. she had"(t. 2 4,a1e yo& %ot the ad6dress/4 2 I $ooked at the #ard o" *hi#h I had *ritte" it. 2 4Yes.4 4;i$$ yo& #o e/4 4>erhaps. a"d $iste".4 I p&t y o&th to her ear for I fe$t "o* o" s&re %ro&"d. 4a"d perhaps I($$ f&#k yo&.4 4Oh yo& 1&$%ar fe$$o*. this is y statio".4 2 a"d 3&i#k$y she %ot o&t. $eeri"% at e as she a$i%hted. The eeti"% *ith this pro#&ress is o"e of the ost si"%&$ar e1e"ts of y $ife. )$tho I(d had y f&" i" ta$ki"% abo&t f&#ki"% *ith her. I(d "ot the s$i%htest i"te"tio" of %oi"% to her shop to b&y %$o1es. yet the eeti"% ha&"ted e. I #o&$d"(t he$p thi"ki"% abo&t it. a"d the idea of f&#ki"% a ha"dso e %ir$ *ho. *hi$st *orki"% at dress aki"%. yet o" the s$y %ot her #&"t stret#hed a"d $&bri#ated. p$eased e. I i%ht %o a"d see her I tho&%ht. there #o&$d be "ot &#h har i" that. 2 The" that she *as a *o a" #apab$e of $ayi"% traps for e" o##&rred to e. a"d I hesitated. 7&t it e"ded o"e after6"oo" at "ear$y si! o#(#$o#k. i" y %oi"% there. The shop *as i" a street *hi#h tho a side o"e. *as o"e of fair traffi#. so e o "ib&ses e1e" passed thro it. a"d the o&tside $ooked a$$ ri%ht. It *as d&sk. the %as *as $i%hted. a"d i" a roo at the ba#k of the shop I sa* thro the *i"do* yo&"% *o e" at *ork. the %$a-ed partitio" bet*ee" it a"d the shop *as o"$y #o1ered by a tra"s6pare"t %a&-e #&rtai". thro *hi#h I fa"#ied I #o&$d disti"%&ish the *o a" I(d et i" the rai$*ay #arria%e 2 I e"tered the shop a"d she #a e o&t to e. She re#o%"i-ed e at o"#e. so$d e a pair of %$o1es. the" said. 4Co e a"d $ook at y yo&"% $adies.4 2 ;e approa#hed the %a&-e #&rtai". 4That(s a fi"e %ir$.4 said she of o"e sta"di"% &p 2 ) pretty $itt$e %ir$ had take" y fa"#y. 2 4)h. I do"(t k"o* abo&t her. b&t that other $itt$e %ir$ *ith dark eyes a"d f&$$ breasts. sitti"%. she($$ ake a" appoi"t e"t *ith yo&. :o o&t of the shop to the pri1ate door. ri"%. a"d I($$ ope" it. the" yo& #a" %o &pstairs a"d I($$ se"d her &p to yo& i" the fro"t roo . b&t be #aref&$. do"(t $et a$$ the yo&"% $adies k"o* that yo& k"o*.4 2 4Is there a bed/4 4Oh dear "o 2 she($$ ake a" appoi"t e"t to di"e *ith yo&. or to %o so e*here *ith yo& 2 yo& #a"(t do a"y6thi"% here 2 a"d yo&($$ %i1e e a fi1er.4 My eyes *ere ope"ed *ider sti$$. b&t tho&%ht I(d do as she to$d e. a"d soo" fo&"d yse$f i" the fro"t roo i" *hi#h *ere a"y dresses ha$f ade $ayi"% abo&t. 2 Miss HHHH #a e &p *ith e. #a&tio"ed e abo&t a$$ sorts of thi"%s. i" a *ay *hi#h she*ed e at o"#e that the #o i"% %ir$ k"e* a$$ abo&t it. tho do&bt$ess she(d p$ay the odest. It *as so. 2 4Oh. e!#&se e. sir. I *a"t this dress.4 4)h9 ho* pretty yo& are. I *a"t yo&.4 2 She s i$ed. I *as"(t %oi"% to p$ay a $o"% %a e *ith a k"o*i"% o"e. so said at o"#e I *ished she(d %i1e e a kiss. 2 4)h 2 "o. $ea1e e a$o"e.4 2 b&t she $et e. 2 4I(d $ike to s$eep *ith yo&.4 4)h 2 I s$eep at ho e *ith y pare"ts.4 4;here/4 2 She "a ed a distri#t. 2 4Co&$d"(t yo& eet e/4 2 Yes she *o&$d. a"d so 3&i#k$y did I #o e to the poi"t that her i""o#e"t a""er fair$y broke do*". )fter sayi"% that she *o&$d if I(d %i1e her a "e* dress. it #a e to her a%reei"% to three so1erei%"s to b&y the dress. b&t I
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*as "ot to te$$ Miss HHH *ho she(d te$$ I *as r&de a"d she(d ha1e "othi"% to do *ith e. The tra"spare"#y of the affair ade e $a&%h. I %ot her "a e 2 a Sophy so ethi"% 2 ade a" appoi"t e"t 2 a"d the" said. 4;e$$ y dear Sophy. for to6 orro* at HHHH A o(#$o#k to a se#o"d. b&t "o* I($$ %i1e yo& a so1erei%" to fee$ yo&r #&"t at o"#e.4 'ot a $oose *ord had I said before. 4Oh.4 said she ha&%hti$y. 4yo& take e for a street *a$ker b&t I ai"(t.4 a"d she see ed 1ery &#h offe"ded. 2 4'o y dear I do"(t. or I sho&$d"(t propose to di"e *ith yo&. after di""er I sha$$ fee$ a"d see yo&r #&"t a"d f&#k it. so $et e fee$ it "o*.4 She b&rst o&t i"to a pea$ of $a&%hter a"d it e"ded i" y fee$i"% her #&"t. *hi#h I did &p a"d do*". a"d i" a"d o&t. fro #$itoris to b& ho$e. She took the so1erei%". *e"t off. a"d soo" reappeared Miss H H H H. *ho asked for her fee. a"d *as to$d I did"(t ea" to pay it. 2 4S&ppose the %ir$ does"(t #o e/4 4Yo& ay tr&st e.4 4>erhaps. b&t I do"(t k"o* yo&. so sha"(t. yo& &st thi"k e a foo$.4 4I tho&%ht yo& a %e"t$e6 a".4 said she a"%ri$y. 4the %ir$ sha"(t #o e.4 4)$$ ri%ht. do"(t $et her. I( "ot %oi"% to be foo$ed.4 a"d p&tti"% o" y hat I approa#hed the door. 2 4Stop a i"&te I($$ #o e *ith her the".4 4The" yo&($$ *ait ti$$ I(1e f&#ked her.4 4Yo&(re "o %e"t$e a". so e of the best i" the $a"d #o e to e.4 4)$$ ri%ht. #o e *ith her a"d I($$ see abo&t payi"% yo&.4 4I sha"(t. I #a"(t to orro*.4 4)"d I #a"(t the "e!t day.4 2 *hi#h she(d "a ed 2 I *e"t do*" stairs. 2 4Stop a i"&te 2 the o"e yo& sa* a"d $iked is a 1ir%i". %i1e e fifty po&"ds a"d yo& sha$$ ha1e her 1ery soo".4 4Ca"(t afford it.4 4;e$$ stop. if yo&(re a %e"t$e a".4 2 I *as the" "ear the botto of the stairs. b&t stopped. 2 4Yo& *o"(t ro&"d o" e/4 2 a #&"t ter for te$$i"% *hat is a se#ret a o"% thie1es. 4Certai"$y "ot. #o e to6 orro* 2 *e($$ di"e 2 yo& sha$$ di"e *ith &s. a"d dire#t$y I(1e f&#ked her. yo& sha$$ ha1e e!a#t$y *hat I($$ %i1e her 2 three so1erei%"s.4 4Yo&(re a dirty #ad a"d "ot a %e"t$e a".4 tossi"% her head a"d t&r"i"% her r& p to e she *e"t do*" stairs 2 I *e"t o&t a"d a*ay. The %ir$ *as ha"dso e. yo&"% a"d attra#ti1e. fresh #&"t a$*ays is. a"d she e1ide"t$y *as "ot 3&ite a professio"a$ har$ot. 2 My #o#k ere#ted itse$f *he" I tho&%ht abo&t her "e!t or"i"%. a"d i" the e1e"i"% I *e"t to the re"de-6 1o&s. b&t "either of the #a e. *hi#h stra"%e$y e"o&%h 1e!ed e. EI so&%ht the p$a#e "o ore. ha1i"% p$e"ty of other fish to try the". b&t o&t of #&riosity *e"t there abo&t fiftee" o"ths after. 2 The ho&se *as e pty a"d to $et.F

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Chapter N +is0e#ta e bra. • 'e%ress di Medi#is. • 7$a#k a"d *hite pi#t&res. • 4Yo& do"(t f&#k &#h.4 • Ei%ht o(#$o#k i" the or"i"%. • T*o *o e" ta$ki"% i" a street. • O"e take" a"d o"e $eft. • ) trai" issed. • ) #&"t hit. • Three *eeks *itho&t f&#ki"%. • ) priso"er(s *ife or istress/ • )" e!perie"#ed har6$ot of fiftee". • )" &%$y #&"t. • Fri%. f&#k. b&%%er. a"d s&#k. seriati . • ,er eroti# e!perie"#es a"d #&rio&s history. )t a $ap&"ar at the e!tre e so&th of Fra"#e I sa* the *o e" for se$e#tio". It *as i" the idd$e of he day a"d soo" after $&"#heo" 2 I "e1er #o&$d a##o&"t for y s&dde" $e#htes a"d had o"e "o*. )fter seei"% the $adies of the estab$ish e"t dishe1e$$ed a"d a$6 ost i" "i%ht%o*" attire. I fa"#ied "o"e of the . 2 4Is there "o $ady *ho speaks E"%$ish/4 4Yes. I speak $eet$e.4 2 It *as so $itt$e that I #o&$d"(t &"dersta"d a *ord she said. i" fa#t her E"%$ish #o"sisted i"I 4Ma #o"te 2 f&#kee o"e 2 preek 2 y $oo1e 2 a"d da ".4 2 4,a1e yo& a 'e%ress here/4 2 The istress. or &"der istress. rep$ied i" Fre"#h. 2 4)h "o. b&t i" fi1e i"&tes I fet#h o"e. a"d yo& sha$$ be #o"te"t. *e$$ #o"6te"t.4 I *aited for the darkie. ;hat ade e desire a 'e%ress I #a""ot i a%i"e. I had "ot before tho&%ht of ha1i"% o"e. a"d *he" I re63&ested o"e e1e" had "o desire for a b$a#k *o a". Lo"% a%o I had said to yse$f 4I sha$$ "e1er ha1e a 'e%ress a%ai".4 My #&riosity abo&t a darkie(s #&"t a"d a darkie(s f&#ki"% *as satisfied. 2 The tho&%ht. the *ish. the de a"d for o"e #a e i"sta"ta"eo&s$y. a"d *hi$st yesterday *aiti"% a"d f&rther ref$e#ti"%. I *o"dered at yse$f. 2 ,a1i"% to *ait $o"%. so $o"% I *as abo&t to order i" the fe a$e %ro&p a%ai". for se$e#tio". *he" *e$$ a"d ha"dso e$y dressed i" $ady(s #$othes. i" #a e a 'e%ress. I a##osted her. she rep$ied i" Fre"#h. a"d soo" after said. 4I $eeta$e speek e I"%$es.4 I"deed she spoke ore tha" a 4$eeta$ I"%$es.4 She spoke a %ood dea$. 4Sha$$ I street it 3&ite.4 4Yes4 2 a"d she did e!#epti"% *hite si$k sto#ki"%s. "atty boots. a"d ye$$o* %arters *ith $ar%e bo*s. *hi#h she #aref&$$y ad0&sted as if she tho&%ht they added i e"se$y to her bea&ty. There a b$a#k *o a". *ho said she *as t*e"ty6t*o a"d *ho did"(t $ook ore. stood before 6 e. as perfe#t i" for as the Ve"&s di Medi#is. b&t a $itt$e ta$$er. i"6deed I ay say fatter a"d ta$$er. 2 She *as 3&ite b$a#k. b&t there *as *hat ay be ter ed a" &"derto"e i" her ski" *hi#h re$ie1ed the b$a#k. a"d ade her $ook as if ade i" *hite arb$e a"d #o$ored after*ards. ,er eyes *ere E&ropea" i" e!pressio" tho 1ery dark. she had the pro%"atho&s 0a* of her ra#e <of the So&da" she said=. $ar%e o&th a"d f&$$ish $ips. bet*ee" *hi#h she*ed a set of teeth *hiter tha" i1ory. a"d so re%&$ar$y bea&tif&$ that they i%ht ha1e ser1ed for a" ad1erti-i"% de"tist(s %$ass #ase5 a"d so eho* the
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pro%"atho&s 0a* 2 &%$y i" itse$f to &s E&ropea"s 2 *as hidde" a"d for%otte" i" a #ertai" #o"to&r of head a"d fa#e. a"d I #eased to "oti#e this ra#ia$ feat&re. For the first ti e i" y $ife I thi"k. y pri#k ere#ted itse$f at a 'e%ress. 2 I ay ha1e bee" so *ith the before. b&t if at this i"&te I re#o$$e#t ri%ht$y. y pri#k "eeded a dea$ of #oa!i"% before it e"tered their #&"ts. I a to$d there are a"y tribes a"d i e"se 1arieties of fa#e a"d for i" the 'e%ro ra#e. 2 The" I posed her this *ay. that *ay. a"d sa* that i" e1ery *ay she *as perfe#t$y bea&tif&$ i" for . e!#epti"% i" ha1i"% $o"%ish hee$s a"d $ar%e feet. The" bet*ee" the #risp $itt$e #&r$s of the f&$$ $ips. *hi#h e"#$osed a"d for ed the #$eft *herei" her se!&a$ity $ay hidde" 2 a"d *hi#h i"deed are the o&t*ard a"d 1isib$e si%" of her se! 2 y idd$e fi"%er e"tered. a"d *he" I had fri%%ed a $itt$e odest #$itoris &#h $o"%er tha" she $iked 2 *a"ti"% this #hi$d of the tropi#s to spe"d *ith e. *a"ti"% her to e"0oy e 2 a"d *he" her bi% $ips et i"e. a"d to"%&e so&%ht to"%&e *ith soft de$i#io&s p$ay. she %e"t$y s oothed y pri#k *ith a soft ha"d. a"d I her #&"t ti$$ both o&r b&tto#ks t*it#hed a"d *rithed *ith i"#ipie"t p$eas&re. 2 The" she i patie"t$y 2 4Mais #heri. ette- $e 2 fookee e do"#.4 2 I p&shed y pri#k to the f&$$ depths of a $o1e$y #&"t. a"d f&#ked her. #o"te p$ati"% i" the bi% %$asses y *hite f$esh i"ter$a#i"% *ith her b$a#k. she s oothi"% a"d praisi"% y *hite ski". I her s ooth b$a#k b&tto#ks *hi#h I #$asped. 2 S ooth a"d hard as i1ory tho b$a#k 2 a"d the" she si%hed *ith e. her $e%s o1ed &p. #$osed o1er i"e. a"d *ith rapid thr&sts a"d hea1es. *e f&#ked ti$$ the paradise of h& a" se"satio" o1er*he$ ed &s. idst y %&shes of sper a"d her $&bri#io&s spe"di"%s. The 3&iet&de of 1o$&pt&o&s fati%&e the" #a e o1er &s. a"d *e $ay i" ea#h other(s ar s ti$$ I re#o1ered fro y se!&a$ fai"t"ess. the" *o"dered at the i"te"se e"0oy e"t I had had i" this 'e%ress( e bra#e. a"d $aid thi"ki"% of it by her side i" si$e"#e. 7&t "ot so she. She t&r"ed to e a"d kissed e #oa!i"%$y. 2 )sked if she p$eased e. 4Lookee the". yo& ha1e &#h fo&tre. I $ike fat fo&tre of E"%$ish a". yo& #a$$ it spo"k 2 ah. o&i.4 she said. )%ai" si$e"t a"d *ith see i"% satisfa#tio" she p&t her fi"%ers o" to her #&"t to fee$ its f&$$"ess a"d its o1erf$o*. 2 E"#o&ra%ed by her. I p&t y fi"%er there a"d fe$t that *e had i"%$ed $o1e(s f$&ids #opio&s$y. The" sti$$ *itho&t *ashi"% she $ay a"d #hatted %$ib$y. 1o$&"teeri"% "e*s abo&t her6se$f tho I(d "ot asked for it. 4My farder a"d &dder $if *ith Mo"sie&r H H H at Caire. 2 ) Fre"#h a" 2 y farder do de #ook. y &dder *ash de fa ie$ee.4 2 She *as '&bia". a"d of so e tribe the "a e of *hi#h I for%et. 2 4My farder a"d br&dder hab three s#ars #ross e" #heek. dat tr&e tribe ark.4 )$$ this *as said i" broke" E"%$ish i!ed *ith Fre"#h. b&t &#h better Fre"#h tha" E"%$ish. I %ot &p a"d *ashed as she did. a"d as her a p$e dark thi%hs a"d b& #$osed o" the basi" a"d she sp$ashed the *ater &p her red #ra#k. I $iked the $ook of her a"d $iked her p$eas&res. yet *as sti$$ asto"ished at yse$f for y de$i%ht i" f&#ki"% the Ma#kie. 2 Is there a"y reaso" for this $iki"% *hi#h ofte" ti es arises bet*ee" a" a"d *o a"
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*he" they #op&$ate/ 2 4Yo& do"(t f&#k &#h.4 said she. 4yo& spo"k so fat.4 2 I to$d her that I had f&#ked as &#h as I #o&$d. b&t had bee" &"a1oidab$y #haste 2 abs&rd *ords 2 for so e days. The" as I be%a" to p&t o" y dra*ers. 2 4Fookee ore. #o e.4 said she $ayi"% do*" o" the bed a%ai". *ide"i"% her thi%hs a"d poi"ti"% to her #&"t. I a##epted her i"1itatio". o" *e *e"t ta$ki"% abo&t herse$f ti$$ *e drifted i"to ta$k of f&#ki"%. a"d desire #a e to see her "aked fro head to foot. Off *e"t her boots a"d sto#ki"%s. "aked as I *as bor" I ade yse$f. the" $aid &po" her *ith o&r $i bs i"ter$a#i"%. O"e attit&de after a"other did *e p&t o&rse$1es i". I e"0oyi"% the #o"trasts of o&r #o$ors. b$a#k thi%hs e"#$osi"% *hite ha&"#hes. *hite ar s a"d ha"ds #$aspi"% b$a#k b&tto#ks. b$a#k breasts s3&ee-ed o&t by y *hite #hest. The e!#ite e"t *as to e i"te"se. see ed to be so to her as *e$$ as to e. tho to her it #o&$d ha1e bee" "o "o1e$ty. The" I p&t her o1er yse$f a"d sa* i" the %$ass abo1e her p$& p b$a#k ba#k a"d b&tto#ks #o1eri"% e. *hi$st y *hite thi%hs $ay bet*ee" hers. )"d "o* stiff a%ai" stood o&t a *hite a"d red6tipped ra"dy rod a%ai"st her b& f&rro*. The" i" si!ty6"i"e attit&de *e $ay side6*ays. y head bet*ee" her thi%hs. she*i"% i" the $ooki"% %$ass peepi"% o&t of the s&rro&"di"% b$a#k"ess. )"d 2 4)ha.4 +arkie had take" y pe%o i" her o&th a"d *as e"0oyi"% it. 4Li#kee e #o"te #heri.4 2 Le*ed as I *as. p$eased as I *as *ith her. I #o&$d"(t do that. #o&$d "ot $i#k that 'e%ress( #&"t. b&t took y head fro bet*ee" her thi%hs. y pri#k fro o&t her o&th. The" both i patie"t for the di1i"e 0&"#tio" of o&r %e"ita$s. i" *e"t y pri#k a"d a%ai" *e f&#ked ost b$iss6f&$$y a"d $o"%. a%ai" her #&"t %a1e &p ab&"da"t $ibatio" as y pri#k 3&itted it. The" *e dra"k so e 7ordea&!. a"d ta$ked a *hi$e. She did"(t $ike the $ife. had o"$y bee" at it fo&r o"ths. so e o"e pers&aded her to #o e. She(d "ot see" >aris a"d did"(t ea" to %o. She *o&$d %o ba#k to Cairo. or )$e!a"dria. a"d a%ai" be 4'&rse to de $eet$e #hi$ds.4 2 4Yo& *o"(t %et f&#ked there.4 4Oh 2 yes 2 I f&#kee dere before I #o e here.4 2 The" she $et e k"o* that it *as 4f&#kee for $ikee4 a"d that tho she *o&$d be a "&rse aid she sho&$d sti$$ be f&#ked. 2 She *as %ratef&$ for te" fra"#s a"d I departed. yet "o* I thi"k of it. I *o"der ho* I #a e to $ike this darkie(s body a"d f&#ki"%. so &#h. )t ei%ht o(#$o#k o"e #o$d or"i"% i" 'o1e ber. I *a$ked a$o"% o" y *ay to a rai$*ay statio". I *as %oi"% o&t shooti"%. y %&" a"d $&%%a%e had %o"e the pre1io&s day to y frie"d(s ho&se. a"d I *as to eet hi at te" o(#$o#k. I *as at the o e"t i" a 3&iet street of se i6deta#hed ho&ses. "ot a perso" *as 1isib$e b&t a po$i#e a" a"d a i$k a". the i"habita"ts bei"%. I s&ppose. 0&st o&t of bed. 2 T&r"i"% a #or"er. I sa* abo&t a h&"dred feet ahead of e t*o *o e" sta"di"% ta$ki"%. o"e a sto&tish *e$$6%ro*" *o a" of #o o" #$ass *ith a bo""et o". the other shorter *ho had so ethi"% i" her ha"d. a"d *ho had o"$y a #ap o" a"d $ooked $ike a ser1a"t.

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The ta$$er *o a" had her fa#e f&$$ to*ards e. a"d as I approa#hed I sa* that she $ooked abo&t fo&r a"d t*e"ty. She had fi"e dark eyes a"d hair. *as *e$$6for ed a"d so$di$y b&i$t. had 1ery bi% breasts. a"d rese b$ed the bi% #o&"try ser1a"ts *ho #o e to Lo"do". She *as e1ide"t$y of poor #$ass. b&t had %ood "eat #$othi"% tho "ot *ar e"o&%h for the seaso". She had a par#e$ i" her ha"d. 2 I *as 1ery fit that or"i"%. her $ooks p$eased e. a"d as I %ot "earer a"d took i" at a %$a"#e a$$ I ha1e said. y pe%o thri$$ed a"d I tho&%ht she *as 0&st the b&i$d I $ike to f&#k. ) #$ippi"% #&"t bet*ee" hea1y thi%hs she has. tho&%ht I. I"sti"ti1e$y I s&ppose. a"d #ertai"$y *itho&t a"y ob0e#t tha" %a-i"% at a fi"e *o a". I s$i%ht$y s$a#ke"ed y pa#e. )s I %ot "earer. her eyes faste"ed the se$1es o" i"e. as i"e did o" her. a"d kept so ti$$ I had passed her. )s I passed a se"s&o&s thri$$ a%ai" #a e thro e. a"d I tho&%ht I sho&$d $ike to f&#k her. ;as o&r $&st re#ipro#a$ at that o e"t/ ;he" so e $itt$e dista"#e past her I $ooked ro&"d a"d she *as a$so $ooki"% ro&"d after e. ) fe* feet f&rther this *as repeated. I the" took off y hat. she "odded. a"d the ser1a"t *ith a 0&% 2 as I the" sa* she *as 2 *e"t i"to a" ad0a#e"t ho&se. The *o a" the" *a$ked s$o*$y o". a%ai" t&r"ed ro&"d. a"d i ediate$y for%etti"% y desti"atio" I t&r"ed. a"d *e"t after. She stopped a"d soo" I *as #$ose to her. +o-e"s of ti es *o e" a"d I ha1e $ooked ro&"d after ea#h other o" si i$ar #ha"#e eeti"%s. *hi#h %e"era$$y e"ded i" s&#h $ooks. 7&t is there "ot i" s&#h si &$ta"eo&s a#tio". si &$ta"eo&s desire/ 2 Is there "ot fe$t tho "ot said. "or e1e" at the 1ery i"sta"t tho&%ht of. a &t&a$ se!&a$ attra#tio" *hi#h for &$ated a"d e!pressed ea"s. 2 4I(d $ike hi to f&#k e. 2 I(d $ike to f&#k her.4 2 4;hat a fi"e a"94 4;hat a $o1e$y *o a"94 e!pressio"s &sed i$$io"s of ti es a"d &sed i"sti"#ti1e$y. ea" *he" a"a$y-ed a $ate"t &t&a$ desire to #op&$ate. a +i1i"e i"sti"#t. &r%i"% to*ards f&#ki"%. U"der this i"sti"#t a"d i" obedie"#e to this +i1i"e $a* it *as that she stood sti$$ a"d that I *e"t after her. I seeki"% #&"t. she seeki"% pri#k. a"d the p$eas&re of the $ife %i1i"% sper ati# i"0e#tio". I &"der this spe$$ of $&st a"d 3&ite for%etti"% "o* y trai" said. 4;e$$ y dear. *hat are yo& *aiti"% for/4 4;hat are yo& #o i"% to e for/4 she rep$ied. s i$i"%. 4To $ook at yo&r ha"dso e fa#e. a"d hear *hy yo& are o&t so ear$y.4 4;here are yo& %oi"% so ear$y/4 4:oi"% shooti"%. *here are yo&/4 4:oi"% to a hospita$.4 2 ,er soft eyes *hi#h had bee" fi!ed #aressi"%$y o" i"e %re* for a" i"sta"t serio&s. 2 4'o"se"se.4 4It(s tr&e.4 2 I $a&%hed. "ot k"o*i"% *hat to ake of it. a"d the" she s i$ed a%ai". a"d y pri#k throbbed a"d be%a" ere#ti"%. as I the" tho&%ht of the hair o" her #&"t. 2 )s far as I #a" re#o$$e#t. thi"ki"% of her #&"ta$ or"a e"t *as thro "oti#i"% that she(d &"&s&a$$y thi#k eyebro*s 2 ,o* stra"%e$y ideas #o""e#t. 2 My pri#k %a1e a fi"a$ 0erk a"d stood f&$$y ere#t. 4I *ish I *ere %oi"% to bed *ith yo& i"stead.4 4Oh9 i"deed.4 She $ooked do*". the" at e. the" at the %ro&"d a%ai". 4Yes. it *o&$d be *ar there.4
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4Yo& ha1e"(t &#h to #o p$ai" of the #o$d.4 2 I(d 1ery *ar *i"ter #$othes o". 2 4'o. b&t yo& are "ot too *ar .4 2 4)$$ I(1e %ot *ar is &p the spo&t to b&y this.4 2 She*i"% the par#e$. 2 4Let &s %o to bed i" the *ar . a"d I($$ take yo&r thi"%s o&t of the spo&t.4 4I( da "ed.4 said she. a"d $a&%hed shaki"% her head. The" she t&r"ed ro&"d a"d *a$ked o" after first $ooki"% to*ards the ho&se *hi#h the other *o e" had e"tered. I fo$$o*ed her. ) fe* pa#es a"d she(d "eared the #or"er the" stopped tho&%htf&$$y. 4Co e.4 said I. She $ooked $o"% a"d stra"%e$y i" y eyes *itho&t rep$yi"%. 2 4:i1e e yo&r ha"d.4 She(d "o %$o1es o". 2 4;hat for/4 $a&%hi"%. 4:i1e it e.4 2 She did. I took it b&t hesitated to say *hat rose to y $ips. 4;e$$/4 said she. $ooki"% at e. as if for e!p$a"atio". My pri#k %a1e a throb. 2 4Yo& *a"t f&#ki"%.4 2 4I( da "ed.4 said she. a%ai" $a&%hi"%. a"d s"at#hi"% her ha"d a*ay. 2 4I(1e ade yo& *a"t it.4 4Yo& ai"(t. yo& beast.4 4Co e. a"d I($$ %et the o&t of the spo&t.4 She $ooked &p a"d do*" the street. a"!io&s$y. o"$y a a" or t*o $ooki"% $ike #$erks *a$ki"% 3&i#k$y *ere 1isib$e. 2 4Co e.4 4;here are yo& %oi"% to/4 4) #offee shop. *here is there o"e/4 4I( stra"%e abo&t here a"d k"o* "o"e.4 2 So *as I a"d for a o e"t hesitated. s&dde"$y re#o$$e#ted y trai" a"d $ooked at y *at#h. 2 4The +e1i$9 I(1e $ost it.4 4Lost *hat/4 4'e1er i"d. I( too $ate "o*. $et(s *a$k this *ay a"d I($$ %et the o&t of the spo&t.4 2 4Oh9 "ot past that ho&se. y #o&si" $i1es there. she k"o*s *here I( %oi" to.4 2 I t&r"ed the other *ay. 2 4Yo& %o first. I hope it ai"(t far4 said she. I *a$ked o". she fo$$o*i"% e. Soo" after. 4,ere. hi.4 she #ried. 2 I t&r"ed ro&"d. 4Yo&($$ take (e o&t of pa*" *o"(t yer "o*.4 said she do&bti"%$y. a"d stopped. 4Yes. ho* &#h/4 4Its thirty6ei%ht a"d si! the". *i$$ yo& "o*/4 4)$$ ri%ht.4 2 I *a$ked o" to*ards *here I k"e* the ai" road $ay. *o"deri"% at the stra"%e t&r" thi"%s had take" a"d fi$$ed *ith desire to f&#k her. she sti$$ fo$$o*i"% a fe* pa#es behi"d e. I" a fe* i"&tes *e *ere i" a fo&r *hee$er. 4Oh I #a"(t %o a$$ that *ay. I(1e %ot to #a$$ o" y brother.4 said she *he" she heard the dire#tio" %i1e". 2 4I($$ se"d yo& ba#k i" a #ab.4 'e!t i"&te i" the #ab. y ha"d *as &p her petti#oats. 2 4Oh "o. "ot here. *ait ti$$ *e(re there. yo& sha"(t.4 2 7&t i" a tri#e y fi"%ers *ere o" her #&"t spite of her odest str&%%$es 2 for odest they see ed 2 a"d so soo" as I(d fo&"d her #$itoris a"d had fri%%ed it a $itt$e she *as 3&iet 2 they a$$ are. 4>&t yo&r ha"d &"der y %reat#oat a"d fee$ y pri#k.4 I %ot it o&t. she $ooked at e hard for a i"&te a"d the" she #$&t#hed it. 2 4Oh. ai"(t it *ar /4 2 ,er ha"d *as $ike i#e. a"d she(d "o %$o1es. 2 4Oh. they($$ see &s 2 do"(t.4 2 b&t she ope"ed her thi%hs to $et e fri%. a"d soo". 4I sha$$ do it if yo& %o o". oh. do"(t.4 2 a"d she %a1e at that o e"t the #o"1&$si1e %rip o" y pe%o *hi#h ofte" *o e" do *he" bei"% fri%%ed a$ ost to spe"di"% poi"t. I #eased fri%%i"% her. the" stopped at a" offi#e a"d te$e%raphed to y frie"d that I(d issed the trai". )s I re6e"tered the #ab. 4Let e %o. I(d rather.4 said she
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o&r"f&$$y. 7&t her fi"e eyes *ere soft. *ere f&$$ of $&st. 4'o"se"se.4 2 O" *e *e"t. y ha"d "o* o" her thi%hs o"$y to&#hi"% her otte. a"d p&tti"% &p y pe%o $est I sho&$d spe"d. thro her ha"d$i"%. for I(d ade her ha"d$e it a%ai". I tried to $ear" *here she *as %oi"% a"d *ho she *as. b&t fai$ed. I tried a"%eri"% her. 2 4)i"(t I arried/ I a tho. b&t y ri"% is popped 2 *orse $&#k.4 The" I tried to %et a" ad issio" that she(d had other e". She sho*ed "o a"%er. b&t 3&iet$y de"ied it. 2 4'o. I(1e "e1er had y thi"% fe$t i" a #ab before "e1er 2 "e1er.4 4+o yo& $ike it/4 4'o. ;hat a #&rio&s b$oke yo& are. yo&(re "ot %oi"% to #heat e are yo& 2 ha1e yo& %ot the o"ey/4 She see ed s&dde"$y do&btf&$ so I p&$$ed o&t a ha"df&$. 2 4Oh9 *o&$d"(t a$$ that ake &s happy.4 3&oth she. 4'o. I ha1e"(t had it do"e to e for three *eeks.4 2 4Say f&#ked a"d I($$ %i1e yo& ha$f a #ro*" at o"#e.4 4:i1e it &s the".4 2 She took it. spat &po" a"d po#ketted it. 2 4Say it.4 2 4I ai"(t bee" f&#ked the". a"d sha"(t for so e *eeks ore.4 a"d she b&rst o&t $a&%hi"%. 4Yes yo& *i$$. I sha$$ f&#k yo&.4 2 4Oh 2 ah 2 yes. 2 I ea"s y 7ob.4 4;hose 7ob/4 4My h&sba"d. a"d I *o"(t te$$ yo& a"y thi"% ore.4 a"d I #o&$d"(t %et ore the". 7&t she kissed e. *he" I kissed her rapt&ro&s$y. a"d I ta$ked y ba&diest. stir6ri"% her $&st &p for I sa* she *as ra"dy. sa* it i" her eyes. b&t a$$ she said *as 4Oh 2 ah4 at ea#h ba&dy se"te"#e. a"d s i$ed. ;e a$i%hted. a"d she fo$$o*ed e to a ho&se. They *ere "ot &p. a"d I stood ri"%i"% *ith this s$i%ht$y #$ad. poor $ooki"% *o a" besides e. L&#ki$y the door soo" ope"ed a"d a bedroo soo" he$d &s. b&t it had "o* %ot 3&ite a dark Lo"do" or"i"%. The %as *as sh&t off fro the ai" a"d there *as "o fire. )$ ost i" the dark *e *ere $eft *hi$st a *o a" *e"t to t&r" o" the %as. a"d sta"di"% by the bed. after a str&%%$e a"d. 4+o"(t $et the *o a" see.4 I ra" y ha"d ro&"d a sp$e"did ba#kside a"d a%ai" fi"%ered a #$itoris. the" p&t y pe%o i" her ha"d *hi#h I fe$t she ha"d$ed $&st6f&$$y. Li%ht %ot. 4Sha$$ I $i%ht a fire/4 4Yes. i" the "e!t roo . a"d te$$ &s *he" it(s ready.4 Off *e"t y #oat. off *e"t her bo""et. p&shi"% her o" to her ba#k *itho&t a"y resista"#e fro her. I thre* &p her #$othes. sa* assi1e thi%hs. bi% *hite b& a"d be$$y. a *e$$6haired #&"t. a"d i" a se#o"d y pri#k had str&#k its e"d. She fe$t its *ar th a"d stret#h. its p$&"%e a"d fri#tio". a"d i"sta"t$y si%hed &#h *ith 1o$&pt&o&s soft si%hs. O" *e f&#ked ti$$ I pa&sed 2 I ofte" do "o* i" y p$eas&re. 4Oh 2 %o o".4 ,er #&"t #$ipped for she *as ra"dy to her b& ho$e. 2 4+o yo& *a"t f&#ki"%/4 4Oho 2 yes 2 %o o".4 She si%hed i patie"t$y a"d her i1ory ba#kside *ri%%$ed. 4Say f&#k e.4 4I *o"(t 2 ah 2 aher 2 ah 2 F&#k e 2 aha 2 aher 2 +o"(t stop.4 2 ) *o a" sayi"% that ofte" bri"%s o" y dis#har%e. a"d "o* both si%hed o&r p$eas&re as y sp&"k i"&"dated her. 2 The" soo" I stood ho$di"% her thi%hs 3&iet$y. keepi"% y pri#k i" her. ,o* bea&tif&$ she $ooked to e 2 *hat a $o1e$y #&"t it fe$t. 2 4Is it tr&e yo&(1e "ot bee" f&#ked for three *eeks/4 2 4C&ite tr&e. $o"%er. a"d I *o&$d"(t ha1e do"e it "o* b&t for hi .4 4Yo& *a"ted it.4 4I did. 0&st *he" I sa* yo&. I be%a" to fee$ 3&eer.4 She $a&%hed. My i"sti"#ts *ere tr&e.
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G"o#k 2 k"o#k. 2 4I(1e $i%hted a fire. sir.4 +o*" *e"t her petti#oats. I hid y pri#k. a"d to the ad0oi"i"% roo *e *e"t. 2 4The roo (s 3&ite *ar . sir. a %e"t a"d a $ady(s bee" a s$eepi"% there $ast "i%ht.4 2 4I($$ f&#k yo& a%ai".4 4Yo& &st be 3&i#k the" b&t %i1e e y o"ey. It(s a bit of $&#k.4 said she. as I %a1e her t*o so1erei%"s. 4Let e see yo&r #&"t.4 She did"(t see to $ike that b&t a$$o*ed it. a"d the pro ise of te" shi$$i"%s did ore. she $et e strip off a "ot too #$ea" #he ise. a"d stood "aked. as fi"e a *o a" as I(1e e1er e bra#ed. 2 4Yo&(re "ot thi" tho yo&(re i" s&#h po1erty.4 4'o. y father a"d other feeds e *e$$. b&t they *o"(t do "othi"% for hi . a"d I(1e pa*"ed "ear$y e1erythi"% to %et hi thi"%s. a"d I *orks hard too. 2 I thi"k I($$ t&r" a %ay the o"ey(s easy %ot.4 2 )"d a $ot ore she said as I $aid besides a"d fri%%ed her. ti$$ a%ai" her b& *ri%%$ed. a"d she said o" a s&dde". 2 4Sho* e yo&r thi"%. yo&(1e see" i"e.4 2 She *as %etti"% $e*ed. de ora$i-ed. it #ertai"$y *as "ot sha . 2 I sho*ed it her. she see ed p$eased. $e*ed. a"d fe$t it rest$ess$y a"d $o"%. She(d a $o1e$y #&"t. o"e f&$$y dark6haired. b&t "ot a hair *as "ear her arseho$e. ,er f$esh *as *hite. her for a$$ that #o&$d be *a"ted. a"d *hi$st I $ooked a"d ad ired her. 2 4Oh. $et(s %et i"to bed it(s so #o$d. b&t I &st %o soo".4 She &#h *a"ted f&#ki"%. I"to a bed i" *hi#h perhaps a #o&p$e had bee" f&#ki"% a$$ "i%ht *e %ot. ;e "e1er $ooked at the sheets a"d *e both had o&r boots o". 2 4Oh ai"(t it "i#e a"d *ar /4 said she. The" *e kissed $e*ed$y. her ha"d so&%ht y pri#k. y fi"%er her #$itoris. a"d &"der its %e"t$e titi$$atio" soo" she si%hed. 2 4Oh9 do e.4 (Let e fri% yo& a"d I($$ f&#k yo& after*ards.4 She a#3&ies#ed. ope"ed her thi%hs. I fri%%ed %e"t$y. 4Oho 2 3&i#ker.4 2 ,er be$$y hea1ed. her r& p. 0o%%ed I&i#k$y *ith tre &$o&s f&#ki"% otio". that irresistab$e =s#i$$atio" *he" the spe"d is #o i"% 2 a"d she spe"t. 2 4There. yo&(1e ade e. $et e "o* %o.4 a"d she $et %o y pe%o. 7&t "o*. y $&st ro&sed by the p$ay of y fi"%er o" the s$it *hi#h *as oiste"ed *ith its 0&i#es. y pe%o stood f&$$ stiff a"d r&by6tipped a%ai". I thre* do*" the #$othes a"d she*ed it her tri& pha"t. a"d bare$y *as her p$eas&re o1er tha" I %ot bet*ee" her thi%hs a"d 6o1ered her. a"d $ay *ith pri#k b&ried deep i" the $&bri#io&s a1e"&e. Tho stiff I restrai"ed yse$f a"d $ay *ithi" her. ta$ki"% of f&#ki"%. e1er a"d a"o" o1i"% y pri#k %e"t$y. "o* this *ay "o* that *ay. sear#hi"% her #&"t *ith it to keep it ri%id 2 for I *as i" "o h&rry.. 4Yo&r #&"t(s 3&ite soft *ith spe"di"%s. 2 +oes y pri#k fee$ "i#e. 2 +o yo& $ike it p&shed hard &p/4 a"d so o". 2 4)ha 2 yes. yo&($$ ake e do it a%ai" soo". aha 2 aha 2 yes 2 yes. it(s "i#e 2 oh. %o o". do it.4 2 She he$d e to her $ike a 1i#e. raisi"% her thi%hs to e"%&$f y pri#k. to %et a$$ &p her. a"d $et her #&"t rise to y thr&sts. The" #$&t#hi"% her so$id b&tto#ks. $&i#k$y I ra ed y pe%o &p a"d do*". ti$$ y sper fi$$ed her as she spe"t. a"d the" *e $ay i" soft repose. 2 4;hat(s the ti e/ if I do"(t %et there by t*e$1e o(#$o#k I #a"(t see hi .4 4It(s "ot te" I( s&re.4 47&t I &st %o to y brother(s first.4 2 I he$d her fast. y
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pri#k sti$$ i" its *ar $od%i"% a"d asked ore 3&estio"s. 2 4;ho 2 *here 2 *hat for 2 *he"/4 2 a$$ abo&t hi a"d their "a e. their o##&patio". 7&t she *as as #$ose as a" oyster. 2 4I be$ie1e 7ob(s i" priso".4 4,o9 2 he ai"(t 2 %et a$o"% 2 oh do.4 2 7a#k*ards she dre* her b& . y pri#k s$ipped o&t of her b&ttery #&"t. she 0& ped o&t of bed a"d p&t o" her #he ise. My re ark see ed to &pset her. for she kept $ooki"% at e i" a 3&eer a""er. 4Yo&(1e "ot *ashed yo&r #&"t.4 4)h. "o.4 She *ashed it a"d i" a %reat h&rry dressed. 4Yo&(1e bee" %ay.4 2 4Me/ "e1er.4 4;hy is 7ob so far off/4 4I *o"(t te$$. it(s "o b&si"ess of yo&rs. 2 'o 2 I *o"(t te$$ yo& *here I $i1e. "o "or y "a e. 2 'o. I *o"(t eet yo& a%ai" 2 Oh. I did say 0&st "o* I(d t&r" %ay b&t I did"(t ea" it 2 of #o&rse I did"(t.4 2 4Yo& *a"ted f&#ki"%.4 2 4So *o&$d yo& if yo& had"(t had it for three *eeks.4 4Yo& fri% yo&rse$f.4 2 4;hy i" #o&rse I does. *ho *o&$d"(t/ 2 Oh. $ea1e e a$o"e.4 2 I fe$t her #&"t a"d thr&st y fi"%er &p it. a"d ade her fee$ y pri#k. 2 47ob(s i" priso".4 She stared for a i"&te. 4,e is"(t.4 2 4,e is.4 2 4,e is"(t.4 2 I persisted a"d she %ot a"%ry so I dropped the s&b0e#t ;hi$st fee$i"% her 3&i for the $ast ti e 2 she *as the" dressed a"d sta"di"% &p 2 a%ai" I said. 4,e(s i" priso".4 2 4,e(s i" a hospita$.4 2 4;e$$. b&t i" a priso".4 2 4;e$$. it is"(t a"y b&si"ess of yo&rs if he is. a"d he(s "o ri%ht to be.4 2 4The" he is i" priso".4 2 4,e is"(t "o* I *o"(t a"s*er a"y ore.4 2 4Giss e.4 2 She did. 2 4Fee$ y pri#k.4 2 4Sho* it &s the".4 I prod&#ed it. she fe$t it ea%er$y a$$ o1er. p&$$ed the prep&#e ba#k. b&rst o&t $a&%hi"% a"d *e"t do*" stairs sayi"%. 4The door is"(t $o#ked. is it/4 2 'e!t i"sta"t she disappeared. I %ot to shooti"% after $&"#heo". a"d to$d a th&"deri"% $ie as the reaso" for issi"% the trai". I(1e "ot ade &p y i"d abo&t this *o a"(s stat&s. ,ad she e1er bee" a har$ot. or si p$y f&#ked o" the s$y. as so a"y of the $o*er #$asses ha1e bee" before arria%e/ ;as she $i1i"% *ith a a" or arried/ That the a" she *as %oi"% to see *as i" priso" I a s&re. 2 ;as it o"ey *hi#h %ot her. or *as it $&st/ 2 She ad itted that *he" I a##osted her she *a"ted f&#ki"%. her str&%%$es *he" I *a"ted to fee$ her #&"t *ere "ot $ike a har$ot(s. "or *as her ta$k. 2 It &st ha1e bee" o"ey. a"d *a"t of f&#ki"% to%ether *hi#h ade her yie$d to e. 2 She *as a f&$$y %ro*" sp$e"did *o a". *ith *hite so$id f$esh. had a" ar as bi% as a a"(s b&t fe i"i"e i" shape. *ith &#h dark hair i" her ar pits. 2 She(d &"&s&a$$y thi#k. *ide b$a#k eye6bro*s. a"d her eyes *ere dark a"d 1ery soft i" e!pressio". 2 I "e1er had a *o a" *ho e"0oyed her f&#ki"% ore. She said she *as t*e"ty6fo&r. 2 I *rote a$$ abo&t her ear$y the "e!t or"i"% before I *e"t o&t shooti"%. :o$d offered to *o e" *he" their #&"ts ti"%$e *i$$ %et ost of the . EThe fo$$o*i"% "o do&bt *as reser1ed for a #hapter o" #&"ts.F 6 Met $ast "i%ht a $itt$e %ir$ *ho I %&essed fiftee". as she *as. I took her to a ba&dy ho&se. p&t her "aked. a"d fo&"d she(d a" e!traordi"ary de1e$op e"t of "y phae.
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She(d s#ar#e$y a"y hair o" her #ra#k. a"d the "y phae h&"% o&t fro the $ips "ear$y the e"tire $e"%th of the . 3&ite a" i"#h a"d a ha$f. 2 I "e1er sa* s&#h a #&"t before. tho I(1e see" so e $ar%e de1e$op e"ts of "y phae. a"d "otab$y i" a har$ot "a ed 7etsy *ith pro i"e"t eyes. This *as $o"% a%o. She *as ha"dso e$y #$ad i" b$a#k si$k. *as p$& p a"d *e$$ ade. a"d I $&sted for her ti$$ I sa* these prot&bera"t f$appers. *he" desire $eft e. 'e1erthe$ess I deter i"ed to f&#k her. a"d by fri%%i"% %ot y pe%o stiff. the" easi$y &p her #&"t. 7&t i ediate$y it shr&"k o&t *he" $ooki"% do*". I sa* it s&rro&"ded by these $ar%e red e!#res#e"#es. Tria$ after tria$ I ade &se$ess$y. the" asked her to s&#k y pri#k. I"to her o&th she took it *itho&t hesitatio". re arki"% that she &#h $iked s&#ki"% pri#ks. I *as asto&"ded. for she *as"(t &#h o1er fiftee" a"d had o"$y bee" %ay a o"th she said. b&t had a$$ the &"hesitati"% ba&di"ess of a har$ot forty years o$d. tho she #o p$ied *ith a"d did a$$ i" a %ir$ish *ay. ,er bi% "y phae ho*e1er 3&ite &pset e. a"d y pe%o ref&sed to rise. I *as sitti"% as she operated so tried a"other attit&de. by $ayi"% o" y ba#k a"d she k"ee$i"% o1er e. %a ah&#hi"%. 7&t the "y phae $ooked that *ay &%$ier tha" e1er. tho her "i#e $itt$e s ooth b&tto#ks $ooked ost i"1iti"%. )s I s oothed her b& a"d fi"%ered her b& ho$e. y pri#k rose &p a$$ at o"#e. a"d I said 0&st as the *hi str&#k e. a"d *itho&t thi"ki"%. *itho&t a"y idea of. or desire for her #o p$yi"%. 4I($$ %i1e yo& a"other ha$f so1erei%" to $et e b&%%er yo&.4 2 4Very *e$$.4 2 she rep$ied at o"#e. a"d "i b$y %ot off e aski"%. 4,o* *i$$ yo& do it/4 2 4,a1e yo& e1er bee" b&%%ered/4 said I asto"ished. 2 4'ot ofte". a"d yo& o&%ht to %i1e e a so1erei%" for that. for it h&rts.4 4;hy do yo& do it the"/4 2 4It(s "i#e after*ards so eti es.4 2 I tho&%ht she &st be 0oki"% or #haffi"% e. b&t she *as"(t. I hesitated. b&t *as "o* &"der the do i"io" of a $et#h. *as &tter$y &"ref$e#ti"%. a"d oreo1er *as #arried a*ay "o* i" a de%ree by #&riosity *hi#h had arise". I t&r"ed her to*ards e k"ee$i"% $o* a"d stood at her ba#k. 2 4;et it *e$$ *ith yo&r spitt$e.4 said she k"o*i"%$y. I did. a"d y pe%o *hi#h has re1o$ted before o" si i$ar o##asio"s stood stiff$y. a"d %$ided easi$y ri%ht &p her. 2 4Ohooo 2 it h&rts.4 said she. )t that y pri#k d*i"d$ed. a"d I *ithdre* *ith a fee$i"% of dis%&st at yse$f a"d at her. *hi#h I rea$$y #a""ot des#ribe. The doi"%s of this %ir$ see ed $ike a drea to e. I *ashed y pe%o a"d sat do*". she after fee$i"% her b& ho$e #aref&$$y did the sa e. a"d *e ta$ked. she *ith the see i"% fra"k"ess of a #hi$d 2 *itho&t a"y se"se of sha e or odesty *hate1er 2 spoke abo&t a$$ eroti# possibi$ities *ith the i"fi"ite k"o*$ed%e of the o$dest har$ot. ;hat she to$d abo&t herse$f *as i" its esse"#e *hat is a$ready *ritte". 2 To s&#k. f&#k. fri% or b&%%er. she see ed to $ike bei"% b&%%ered. I %athered. 2 The" she to$d that a %e"t$e a" *ho(d kept her a year. had paid for roo s for her at H H H H b&t she had to keep herse$f "o*. ;o&$d I #a$$ at her roo s/ I
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paid her a"d pro ised b&t *itho&t a"y s&#h i"te"tio". 2 The" she pidd$ed a"d i" doi"% so $et a" easy so&"di"% fart. 2 4Oh9 That(s yo&r fa&$t thro doi"% that to e.4 2 She see ed the" a $itt$e asha ed. the o"$y si%" of sha e I(d see" i" her. )s I sat ta$ki"%. I fe$t a""oyed that I(d had "o p$eas&re. tho a %reat e!perie"#e of the eroti# 1arieties. #ap6 abi$ities a"d possibi$ities i" o"e so yo&"%. 2 4I(d $ike to spe"d.4 said I. 2 4I($$ ake yo& b&t yo& do"(t $ike e.4 2 4Yes I do. %a ah&#he e.4 2 I $aid do*" the" o" the bed. she a%ai" k"e$t o1er e *ith her pretty b& to*ards y fa#e. a"d *hi$e I #o"te p$ated the ro&"d orifi#e *hi#h I(d e"tered so &"e!pe#ted$y a"d $eft so 3&i#k$y. a"d fe$t her s ooth $itt$e ba#kside. y sper fi$$ed her o&th. )t o"#e she %ot off e. %ot rid of the $ibatio". a"d her first *ords *ere. 4Yo&(1e p$e"ty of sp&"k. I tho&%ht yo&(d "o"e.4 I "e1er heard s&#h a k"o*i"% %ir$ before. ) *eek after*ards o&t of #&riosity. as I fa"#ied this %ir$ &st ha1e had a stra"%e history. I #a$$ed o" her. The *o a" *ho ope"ed the door ba*$ed o&t i" a %r& py 1oi#e. 4Miss H H H. here(s a %e"t$e a" *a"ts yo&.4 2 4She(s &p stairs.4 said she to e. 2 4Co e &p.4 said a 1oi#e. I *e"t &p a"d fo&"d her i" *e$$ f&r"ished roo s 2 I ade her strip a"d( a%ai" e!a i"ed that si"%&$ar #&"t. a"d at $ast f&#ked it to y o*" asto"ish e"t 2 tho *hy asto"ished I do"(t k"o*. 2 The %ir$ spe"t *ith e 2 sayi"% dire#t$y her p$eas&re #eased. 4Oh9 I do $ike f&#ki"% so.4 2 i" to"e a"d a""er as if said to herse$f or to a"other %ir$. The" she be%a" to #ry. :i1i"% her a so1erei%". 4Oh. it(s a$$ ri%ht. b&t I *ish yo&(d %i1e e a"other. I o*e re"t a"d she($$ t&r" e o&t she says "e!t *eek if I do"(t pay. a"d I( s&re I #a"(t. 2 ) "i#e yo&"% a" f&#ked e the other "i%ht a"d said he(d keep e a"d *o&$d #o e a%ai" yesterday. b&t he has"(t. 2 I do"(t thi"k they $ike y #&"t. )re those thi"%s 1ery &%$y/ 2 the *o e" say they are 2 *hat do yo& thi"k/ +o te$$ e 2 I do"(t %et o". a"d I(1e $ost y o$d frie"d. ,e said I *as so yo&"% that I(d be s&re to %et $ots of o"ey *ith6o&t hi . b&t I do"(t.4 I se"t for *i"e to $oose" her to"%&e. a"d said I(d %i1e her a"other so1erei%" if she(d a"s*er y 3&estio"s. She said she *o&$d b&t she*ed #&""i"% i" doi"% so. So e &"&s&a$ thi"%s she to$d of if she did"(t $ie. 2 She(d bee" f&#ked at e$e1e" years of a%e. first by a boy. the" by the a" *ho #a&%ht the boy doi"% it 2 at that she $a&%hed. 2 ) %e"t$e a". 4a"d a" o$d o"e.4 had kept her. 2 4,o* o$d/4 2 She s&pposed fifty. ,e(d kept her a year. 4)"d I(1e do"e (e a$$ *ith hi .4 2 I p&t fri%. f&#k. s&#k. b&%%er. to her s&##essi1e$y. 4Oh yes. ofte".4 ,e(d %i1e" her other &#h o"ey a"d her other k"e*. ,e had take" those $od%i"%s a"d paid a o"th(s re"t. sayi"% that she &st keep herse$f "o*. She did"(t k"o* *here he $i1ed. a"d *as fri%hte"ed to %o to her other. I %&ess to %ratify his e1ery $et#h. a"d that he(d had e1ery $et#h. 2 I *as $ooki"% a%ai" at her &%$y 3&i *he" a k"o#k #a e at the door. she *e"t o&t a"d ret&r"i"%. 2 4Oh. he(s #o e. he said he(d keep e. I *ish yo&(d %o as 3&i#k as yo& #a".4 I" three i"&tes I *as o&t of the ho&se a"d "e1er sa* the pre#o#io&s $itt$e *hore a%ai".
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Chapter NI +is0e#ta e bra #o"ti"&ed. • ) fair haired +a"e. • ) se i6hair$ess 3&i . • )bo&t har$ots( $&sts a"d p$eas&res. • The Misses >HHH$HHsH". • )%atha a"d ,e$e". • Mast&rbati"% predi$e#tio"s. • ) fri% i" a s& er ho&se. • ) fri% i" a %rotto. • )t a road6side i"". • ) tipsy *ife. • Le*ed per sa$t& . • F&#ki"% *ith hat o". • ) s#are. • T*i#e i" t*e"ty i"&tes. • Ref$e!io"s. E'o do&bt this a$so *as set aside for a #hapter o" #&"ts.F 2 >$a#e Cope"ha%e". ) p$& p. b$&e eyed. f$a!e" haired. short da -e$. 1ery ha"dso e a"d et at a beer %arde". to *hose $od%i"%s I *e"t. She spoke a $itt$e E"%$ish i!ed *ith :er a". said a" E"%$ish6 a" had kept her so e o"ths a"d that she bee" ya#hti"% *ith hi . She *as so$id. s3&are b&i$t a"d t*e"ty. had bi% breasts. bi% thi%hs a"d 1ery bi% b& . her thi%hs a"d b& *ere those of a" E"%$ish *o a"(s of thirty. b&t her s*eet yo&thf&$ fa#e to$d that she *as abo&t the a%e she said. There *as i" her *hat I ha1e fo&"d i" a"y 'orther" *hores a"d S#ot#h *hores5 &#h odesty abo&t she*i"% her #&"t. *hi#h I #&red by s*eari"% i" a"%er a"d te$$i"% her I hated h& b&%. 2 4Oh. yah. 2 :od da ". 2 Yes.4 2 said she. $a&%hi"%. a"d ope"i"% her thi%hs *ide. She(d o"e of the fattest ottes a"d #&"ts I e1er fe$t. It *as ore $ike a "ot#h i" so e fat f$esh tha" a #ra#k *ith $ips. a$tho a $itt$e s*e$$i"% of $ips there *as. She had s#ar#e$y a"y hair o" her o"s a"d "o"e $o*er do*" o" the $ips. That o" her o"s *as #risp. #&r$y. 1ery short. 1ery shi"y. a"d s$i%ht$y darker tha" the hair o" her head. b&t *as so thi" that the *hite f$esh sho*ed thro&%h it. She(d "ot a si%" of hair i" her ar 6pits. ,er #&"t $ooked pretty fro behi"d *he" k"ee$i"%. 'ot a si%" of red *as 1isib$e a"d her b& f&rro* *as s#ar#e$y bro*". ;he" she *ide"ed her thi%hs apart. a $itt$e bit of red 0&st she*ed. The "y phae *ere $itt$e. a"d ra" the *ho$e $e"%th of the #&"t a"d ro&"d it at the b& ho$e e"d. 2 I "oti#ed a$$ #$ose$y a$tho I o"$y sa* her t*i#e. for her #&"t *as &"&s&a$. The o&th of the a1e"&e *as 3&ite $ar%e. i"side it *as easy to y fi"%ers. b&t so fat. p&$py a"d e$asti#. that it fitted y pri#k e!3&isite$y. I f&#ked her t*i#e. the first ti e *ith be$$y to be$$y. a"d the" fro behi"d her. There *as so ethi"% abo&t her *hite b&tto#ks *hi#h e!#ited e to s$ap the *he" f&#ki"% behi"d her. So e *o e"(s e!#ite e to do that. the %reatest "& ber do"(t. I o"$y r&b their b&tto#ks. This &"#o o" #&"t be%at 1ario&s $et#hes. for ea#h #&"t has a differe"t effe#t o" e. I %rasped her fat pad or o"s *ith the pa$ of y ha"d. so that y fi"%ers #o1ered ha$f her "ot#h. a"d y idd$e fi"%ers %ot *e$$ do*" a"d a $itt$e &p her 1a%i"a. I did this sta"di"% behi"d her. both of &s "aked. y be$$y a"d breasts pressi"% her b& a"d ba#k. y $eft ha"d ro&"d her *aist. y ri%ht passed ro&"d to her #&"t. a"d so I fri%%ed her $ooki"% at o&rse$1es i" a
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$itt$e $ooki"% %$ass o" her tab$e. *hi#h o"$y sho*ed abo&t ha$f of &s 2 fro thi%hs &p to *aist 2 I did this to her the se#o"d day. 0&st after *e(d had o&r idday ea$. fri%%ed her ti$$ she said she *as ready to spe"d. a"d the" *e ad0o&r"ed to the bed. 7efore that I(d a &sed yse$f a"other *ay. My tip *as &"&s&a$$y red *he" stiff that day. a"d I $aid it o" her otte. the" o" her b&tto#ks. the" bet*ee" her b&bbies. p$eased *ith the #o"trast of its #ri so" a"d her da--$i"%$y *hite f$esh. She said 4E"%$ish a"(s has f&""y so e tastes.4 2 Yet she *as p$eased *ith the f&". 'e!t day I tra1e$$ed o" to *here $i%ht haired. b$&e eyed. a"d st&rdy $i bed *o e" are the ra#e. a"d "ot a fe* $i%ht haired #&"ts y pri#k e"tered. EI *as yo&"% a"d tra1e$$i"% a$o"e the".F So e say that har$ots are si#k of their b&si"ess. a"d hate the eroti# *hi s a"d fa"#ies to *hi#h they i"is6ter. S&#h is "ot y e!perie"#e. I be$ie1e that ost of the $ike ba&dy tri#ks. a"d that dire#t$y their $&st is ro&sed. 2 easi$y do"e by fi"%er. to"%&e. or ta$k 2 they re0oi#e i" the . 'at&re is the sa e i" the as i" other *o e" *ho *a"t f&#ki"% dai$y. If har$ots are yo&"% a"d *e$$ fed. they *a"t f&#ki"% t*i#e a day. $&st bei"% a$*ays ready $ate"t i" the . L&st de$i%hts i" a$$ that #o#k a"d #&"t #a" do. for those are a%e"ts of i"fi"ite 1o$&pt&o&s de$i%ht fro the #rad$e to the %ra1e. i" both e" a"d *o e". Very i"ti ate a"d frie"d$y I(1e bee" *ith a fe* har6$ots. *ho k"e* e to ha1e "o pre0&di#es. k"e* y eroti# phi$osophy. a"d o" this s&b0e#t ha1e i" ti es of e!pa"sio" a"d #o pa"io"ship ta$ked free$y *ith e. O"e to$d e that e1ery "o* a"d the" *he" she fe$t $e*ed. that the si%ht of a a" *ho took her fa"#y s&dde"$y had s&#h a" effe#t o" her. that she fe$t as if she #o&$d $ay do*" i" the street to $et hi f&#k her. O"e "i%ht at a Fre"#h *o a"(s ho&se 2 *here I ha1e f&rti1e$y see" a"y f&#k her. 2 I sa* a sp$e"did a" tai$ her. ;he" do"e he said he(d $ost his p&rse. )fter a o e"ts tho&%ht. 4'e1er i"d. $et &s kiss a%ai".4 said she. a"d they did. She *as fra"ti# i" her se!&a$ spas . kept hi . ta$ked to hi . s&#ked his pri#k &"ti$ ere#t. a"d a%ai" they f&#ked. I sa* it a$$. %re* *eary of $ooki"%. 2 )fter*ards I *o"dered at her s&b itti"% to his bi$ki"%. 2 4)h yes. b&t *hat a bea& %ar#o". *hat ski". *hat hair. *hat a $o1e$y pri#k 2 did"(t yo& ad ire it/4 The" she *e"t o". 4I tho&%ht fro his a""er he(d b&t $itt$e o"ey. he bra%%ed so. ais9 ;hat a $o1e$y kiss. I $o"%ed for hi dire#t$y he *as "aked.4 It(s a" i$$&stratio". a"d I(1e had a"y s&#h. 'o. har6$ots $ike their o##&patio". $ike a$$ its eroti# a##o pa"y e"ts. spe"di"% ofte" be#o es a "e#essity to the . as shitti"% dai$y is *ith &s a$$. Spe"di"% t*i#e a day be6#o es "eedf&$ for a har$ot. a"y spe"d ore. a"d *ith so e it e"ds i" ad"ess. ,o* ofte" ha1e I heard. 2 4I a$*ays spe"d if I( f&#ked by a a" I $ike.4 2 )%ai". 2 4;ho #a" he$p spe"di"% if a a" %a ah&#hes yo& $o"% / It(s i possib$e to pre1e"t it. yo& thi"k yo& *o"(t a"d yo& try. b&t s&dde"$y #o es p$eas&re a"d yo& $et hi %o o". a"d if a a"(s a $o"% ti e f&#ki"% it(s the sa e.4 the 1ery
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*ords of a 4+a e %a$a"te.4 other*ise *hore. har$ot. str& pet. >aphia". Cypria". or *hate1er e$se yo& ay #a$$ her. #$assi#a$. 1&$%ar. or poeti#a$. The fo$$o*i"% o##&rred *he" I *as t*e"ty6three. I "ear$y destroyed the "arrati1e thi"ki"% it o&%ht "ot to ha1e bee" *ritte". b&t a$$ the a#tors are %o"e $o"% a%o. a"d it "o* t&r"s &p a o"% the papers set aside. The ori%i"a$ *as t*i#e as $o"%. the "otes of t*o years. My a&"t had a $a*" party as she #a$$ed it. ost of the %&ests kept o" the $a*" "ear the ho&se. *here there *as tea. *i"e. a"d shade. Fe* *a$ked abo&t &#h for it *as 1ery hot. ) o"% the *ere t*o %ir$s *ho I *i$$ #a$$ >HH$HHsH". da&%hters of a *ido*er re#e"t$y sett$ed i" the "ei%hbo&rhood. fair$y *e$$ off b&t "ot i!i"% &#h *ith the $o#a$ %e"try ECo&"try so#iety *as e!#$&si1e the".F They *ere *e$$ k"o*". dark eyed a"d ha"dso e. >eop$e said they *ere *hat y a&"t #a$$ed 4ad1e"t&ro&s4 Eor *hat *o&$d be ter ed "o* 4fast4F. They *ere #ertai"$y free. f$irty. a"d 1&$%arish i" a""er. Their father had do"e y a&"t so e ser1i#e he"#e the %ir$s bei"% a o"% her 1isitors. b&t she did"(t $ike the . a"d said she *as s&re that they(d ser1ed i" a shop. They *ere t*o or three a"d t*e"ty years o$d. o"e "a ed )%atha. the other ,e$e". I(d k"o*" the abo&t t*o years. Fred o"$y abo&t a year. ;e had dri1e" the o&t a"d %rad&a$$y had ta$ked so e*hat free$y. se1era$ ti es I(d kissed )%atha a"d Fred had kissed the other. Fro a #o"#ert at the To*" ,a$$ *e *a$ked ho e *ith the o"e "i%ht their father "ot bei"% *ith the . )s *e separated I kissed )%atha. a"d i" doi"% so bei"% ra"dy. #a&%ht her ro&"d her b& *ith o"e ha"d a"d ha"d$ed it %e"t$y a$$ o1er. s3&ee-i"% y be$$y a%ai"st hers for a se#o"d 0&st as I(1e do"e to ser1a"ts. )$$ she said *as. 4+o"(t "o*.4 It *as dark a"d *ithi" si%ht of her father(s door. ;a$ki"% ho e. Fred said he tho&%ht that both *ere %a e. My a&"t said "e!t or"i"% they *ere a"%$i"% for &s 4for*ard i"!es4 a"d *ar"ed &s. 4I(d %i1e fifty po&"ds to f&#k ,e$e".4 said Fred o"e day. 4)"d she(s ra"dy e"o&%h. $ook at her eyes.4 2 )%atha $ooked e3&a$$y 1o$&pt&o&s$y at ti es to e. a"d there *as so ethi"% abo&t her *hi#h a$*ays ade y #o#k sta"d *he" I sa* her. ;e 3&ite a%reed that both *a"ted f&#ki"% b&t had "o idea of atte pti"% it. O&r eeti"%s *ere "ot fre3&e"t. b&t s&ffi#ie"t$y "& ero&s to ha1e %ot free a"d easy *ith the . a"d Fred(s ta$k a"d i"e had %rad&a$$y be#o e #haffi"%$y b&t s&%%esti1e$y a oro&s *he" *e et. a"d #ir#& sta"#es fa1o&red it. There *as a #o$d #o$$atio" at y a&"t(s. a" apo$o%y for a di""er for those *ho $iked to stop. a"d $ots of #ha pa%"e. 2 So e %&ests did"(t stop. so e. i"#$&di"% the t*o %ir$s. did. 2 )%atha took #ha pa%"e free$y. so did I. *e stro$$ed o&t *ith others o" to the $a*" a"d as it %ot #oo$er. *e *e"t f&rther off a"d %rad&a$$y to the $a&re$ *a$k *here *as the bi% pri1y i" *hi#h I(d f&#ked >e"der. I *as so $e*ed that y too$ *as o" ha$f #o#k. 2 I fa"#y she tho&%ht it *as a s& er ho&se. 2 for there *ere t*o *i"do*s i" it 2 a"d she(d "ot bee" i" the *a$k before. I said. 4)h9 I(1e had a $o1e6 aki"% there.4 2
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4;here/4 she asked. 2 4There.4 I rep$ied $a&%hi"%. 2 4Oh9 +o te$$ &s abo&t it.4 2 4I dare"(t. 2 4Oh. do.4 2 4;e ade ea#h other happy.4 2 She $ooked i" y eyes. 2 4'o*. do te$$ e.4 2 4:i1e e a kiss the".4 She ref&sed b&t I took it. a"d *as so $e*ed. so re#k$ess. that *hi$st kissi"% I he$d her. took ho$d of her $eft ha"d *ith y ri%ht. a"d pressed it hard &p a%ai"st y pri#k *hi#h *as sta"di"% &p i" y tro*sers $ike a ro$$i"% pi". 2 4Oh. do"(t 2 so e o"e *i$$ see &s.4 2 She s&b itted to kiss after kiss a"d did"(t *ith6dra* her ha"d. 4I( i" $o1e *ith yo& I thi"k.4 said I. *he" I #eased ho$di"% her ha"d. ,er eyes $ooked soft. her a""er *as #o"f&sed. a"d I tho&%ht that she k"e* *hat her ha"d had bee" pressed a%ai"st. a"d that I k"e* that she k"e* *hat it *as. ;e *a$ked o" ta$ki"% abo&t $o1e. I %etti"% ad for f&#ki"%. *itho&t of #o&rse ha1i"% the $east idea of her he$pi"% e. I(d o"#e before spoke" abo&t her %arters. 2 her sister the" *as prese"t. 2 4;here do yo& %ar6ter/4 said I. 2 4,o* r&de yo& are. I sha"(t te$$ yo&.4 2 4I($$ fi"d o&t.4 2 4'o* do"(t do that 2 there.4 said she. poi"ti"% abo1e her k"ee. It *as #o3&etteish$y do"e. 2 4;hat(s it ade of/4 2 4Si$k. ho* r&de yo& are.4 2 4It is"(t.4 2 4It is.4 2 4Let e see.4 2 I stooped a"d %ot y ha"d o" to her k"ee.4 2 4Oh9 +o"(t "o*. "o* I($$ $ea1e yo&.4 she said. b&t i" 3&ite a $o* to"e. "ot a #ry es#aped her a"d she $ooked a"!io&s$y ro&"d 2 *e *ere the" i" a shr&bbery. 2 4Let(s sit do*".4 She &"hesitati"%$y e"tered *ith e a s& er ho&se *hi#h *as i" the re otest part of the %ro&"ds. "o o"e *as abo&t. a"d *e sat do*". There she be%a" to $e#t&re e abo&t y r&de"ess. said she(d "e1er e!pe#ted it. "or *o&$d she *a$k *ith e a%ai". She *as e!#ited. her fa#e red. 2 4If yo& *o"(t a%ai" I($$ fee$ yo&r %arters "o*.4 2 She $a&%hed. a%ai" I stooped. i" a i"&te. spite of so e *eak str&%%$es. y ha"d *as #$asped bet*ee" her thi%hs 2 she(d "o dra*ers o". 2 She #ried hysteri#a$$y. 4Oho 2 oho 2 it(s sha ef&$.4 a"d *hi pered. I took y ha"d a*ay. the" sa* that she(d shed "o tears a"d that she $ooked #aressi"%$y at e. She did"(t atte pt to %o a*ay fro e. Fri%hte"ed for a i"&te at y o*" te erity a"d s&##ess. the to&#h of her f$esh so #$ose to the hairy $ipped e"tra"#e of her treas&re. $eft e i" a state of fra"ti#. re#k$ess ra"di"ess. I(d "ot had a *o a" for $o"%. y pri#k had bee" stiffe"i"% o" a"d off a$$ day. I had dr&"k &#h #ha pa%"e. so had she. a"d "o*. as *hi peri"% she sat 3&ite sti$$. ta$ki"% abo&t *hat I(d do"e. i"sti"#t I s&ppose to$d e she *as ra"dy a"d ready. I for%ot she *as a $ady. tho&%ht of "othi"% b&t #&"t. a"d atte pted a%ai". She resisted b&t $a&%hed i" a" a"!io&s to"e. 4Oh. s&ppose yo&(re see" "o*. do"(t.4 a"d so o". The" *itho&t a"y idea of f&#ki"% her. b&t si p$y fro desire to sho* her y se!. I p&$$ed o&t y stiff pe%o. 2 4Look.4 said I. 2 4Oh.4 said she. 4*hat a" i"s&$t.4 7&t she $a&%hed as I atte pted a%ai" to fee$ her %arters. &p she %ot. I #a&%ht her by the *aist. kissed her. a"d p&t her ha"d ro&"d y pri#k 2 she(d "o %$o1es o" 2 a"d she he$d it &r &ri"%. 2 4+o"(t "o* 2 $et e %o. 2 I($$ te$$ yo&r a&"t 2 oh do"(t 2 so eo"e *i$$ be #o i"% 2 oh do"(t4 2 as I kept kissi"%. 7&t sti$$
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she kept ho$d of y pri#k. a"d her eyes %$a"#ed do*" o" it a"d the" at e. +id she 3&ite k"o* *hat she *as doi"%/ )$tho I *rote this part of the "arrati1e o"e or t*o days after*ards. I #o&$d"(t des#ribe a$$ that the" passed thro&%h y i"d. +esire to fee$ her. f&#k her. 2 fear of #o"se3&e"#es. of her resisti"%. of te$$i"% y a&"t or her father 2 *o"der if she *ere 1ir%i". *hether she *a"ted f&#ki"%. a"d at her bo$d"ess 2 *as it i""o#e"#e. *as I *ro"% i" sed&#i"% her/ 2 )$$ ade a e"ta$ #haos. d&ri"% *hi#h I sat do*". p&$$ed her o" to y k"ee. kissed her. pressed her ha"d a%ai" ro&"d y "aked pe%o. a"d tried &se$ess$y to fee$ her #&"t. ,o* it a$$ #a e abo&t I #a" s#ar#e$y te$$. b&t it did 0&st as "arrated. She &st ha1e e3&a$$y bee" &"der the i"f$&e"#e of $&st. a"d p$eased *ith *hat I *as doi"%. for there she sat o" y k"ee ho$di"% y pe%o *hi#h be%a" to throb. a"d tho it *as a$ ost i per#eptib$y do"e. her ha"d *as o1i"% %e"t$y &p a"d do*" y pri#k. tho perhaps she did "ot k"o* it. My sper *as boi$i"% i" y ba$$s. the desire to spe"d be#a e adde"i"%. I #$asped her ha"d i" i"e ti%hte"i"% hers ro&"d y pri#k a"d fri%%ed. a"d i" a i"&te a$ ost. o&t shot a sho*er of sper . I took a*ay y ha"d fro hers *hi#h sti$$ kept ro&"d y pri#k. a"d she *as $ooki"% do*" at it *he" I re#o1ered fro y p$eas&re. as the $ast drop of sper *as iss&i"%. 4Yo&(1e fri%%ed e. )%atha.4 2 4;hat/4 said she as if asto"ished at the *ord a"d $etti"% %o y too$. 2 4Let e fee$ yo&r #&"t.4 4Oh. for :od sake do"(t 2 oh. $et &s %o 2 *hat *i$$ they thi"k of &s at the ho&se/4 2 4Let e.4 She did"(t say "o. b&t %ot a*ay fro e. 4I($$ "e1er speak to yo& a%ai". a"d for :od sake do"(t te$$ yo&r #o&si" Fred. ;i$$ yo& "o*/ 2 >ro ise e faithf&$$y yo& *o"(t. 2 Oh. *hat ha1e yo& ade e do/ 2 I($$ dro*" yse$f if yo& do"(t pro ise. Oh. yo& bad a".4 2 I pro ised. 4Let e fee$ yo&r %arters.4 2 4I *o"(t.4 2 ;e *e"t to the ho&se *itho&t speaki"% a"d there *as Fred ta$ki"% to the sister. The t*o %ir$s $eft soo" after. ,o* )%atha(s eyes $ooked as *e shook ha"ds. It *as d&sk. ;he" I ref$e#ted o" a$$ the o##&rre"#es "e!t day. I fe$t #o"1i"#ed that the %ir$ had $e*ed$y e%%ed e o". The sa e e1e"i"% I *as as hot as if I(d spe"t. a"d tho&%hts of *hat I had do"e a"d *hat I(d "ot do"e e!ited e so. that I fri%%ed yse$f. fa"#yi"% that her itt$e ha"d *as doi"% it. a"d thi"ki"% of that s$i%ht 5o&#h of her thi%h. 2 The" I *o"dered *here y sper $ad fa$$e". *hether o" the f$oor or o" her dress. I $e1er k"e*. 'e!t or"i"% y a&"t *as a"%ry *ith &s for sho*i"% s&#h atte"tio" to the t*o %ir$s. 4'obodies 2 e1e" if their father has o"ey 2 a"d "e%$e#ti"% other "i#e 5iris here.4 Fred a"d I ta$ked abo&t it after*ards. 2 (;here did yo& %et to *ith )%atha/4 asked he i" a #&rio&s *ay. 4'o*here. *e *a$ked abo&t.4 I *as *i$d to see the %ir$ after that. b&t opport&"ities *ere fe*. I #o&$d"(t %o ofte" to the 1i$$a%e. a"d they *ere "ot ofte" to be et at peop$e(s ho&ses. 2 ) fort6"i%ht e$apsed a"d the" *e et her *ith her sister i" the street. *e shook ha"ds. y #o&si" *a$ked ahead *ith ,e$e". )%atha *a$ked *ith e a"d said.
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4Yo& ha1e"(t to$d/4 I s*ore I had"(t a"d "e1er *o&$d. b&t *ished she(d do it a%ai". 2 4Yo&(re sho#ki"%. a"d &st be *i#ked to speak of s&#h a thi"%. to *ish s&#h a thi"%.4 a"d I did"(t a"y ore that day. ) o"th after*ards I(d bee" to Lo"do" a"d $eft Fred there. *he" )%atha #a$$ed o" y a&"t *ith so e essa%e fro her father. )&"t *as 1ery %ra#io&s. a"d se"t y o"$y fe a$e #o&si" the" at ho e. to sho* her the Far . )&"t *as %oi"% o&t *ith y #o&si"s. a"d thi"ki"% the $adies too $o"% %o"e. se"t e to the . They had $eft the far a"d I fo&"d the a*ay "ear a %rotto 2<The history of the doi"%s i" this %rotto years after*ards I(1e to$d.= 4Oh. I(d for%ot. Ma a *i$$ be so a"%ry. *i$$ yo& stop *ith Miss >HHH$HHsH" *hi$e I dress. a"d #o e o" to the ho&se/4 Off she *e"t. y pri#k %a1e a throb. a"d i" a i"&te I(d kissed )%atha a"d %ot her i"to the %rotto. 2 4'o* I($$ fee$ yo&r %arter.4 2 She *as #o$$e#ted a"d rep&$sed y ha"d. b&t I *as ore e"er%eti# a"d hesitated $ess. She had fri%%ed e a"d see" y sper . had "e1er #ried o&t. a"d her *ho$e beha1io&r bee" s&#h. that *itho&t fear I tho&%ht I i%ht e1e" try to f&#k her. 2 So o" I *e"t tryi"% to %et y ha"d &p her #$othes. she s&##essf&$$y defeati"% e. be%%i"%. prayi"%. sayi"% she(d #a$$ y #o&si" b&t "e1er doi"% so. *he" 4,ark9 ,ark94 she said. 3&ite sotto 1o#e. I stopped. heard i" the dista"#e y #o&si"(s 1oi#e 2 #a$$i"% e as I heard after*ards. 2 The 1oi#e #eased. )%atha *as i" a fri%ht. 2 4Oh if she(s see" yo& 2 if she(s heard.4 a"d so o". ;e *ere both start$ed a"d $iste"ed. a"d the" i" that 3&iet p$a#e I heard i" the dista"#e the *hee$s of a #arria%e a"d k"e* their so&"d. 4)&"t(s %o"e o&t dri1i"%.4 said I. a"d i ediate$y be%a" the atta#k a%ai". She *as "o* i" fear a"d did"(t ea" e to fee$ her #&"t. *hi#h *as "o* y i"te"tio". I"deed a$$ see ed possib$e. the e!#ite e"t had raised y $&st hi%h. *e *ere a$o"e a"d had "othi"% to fear b&t the #ha"#e of a %arde"er #o i"%. She(d see" y pri#k o"#e. a"d a%ai" I prod&#ed it ba$$s a"d a$$ "o*. 4Look )%atha. fee$ it a%ai".4 2 I desisted fro y atte pts. thi"ki"% the si%ht of the a#hi"e *o&$d affe#t her a"d ake her #o p$aisa"t. 2 4Fee$ it.4 2 4I sha"(t4 a"d she $a&%hed as I tho&%ht stra"%e$y. 2 4+o this.4 said I. fri%%i"% it. 2 4I sha"(t. yo&r beha1io&r is sha ef&$.4 2 The" she *e"t off i"to a hysteri#a$ pea$ of $a&%hter. ) fe* ore *ords a"d I #$osed o" her. she retreated a%ai"st the *a$$ a"d o&r $as#i1io&s str&%%$es re#o e"#ed. 4I *i$$.4 2 4Yo& sha"(t.4 I p&$$ed her petti#oats &p to her k"ees. she p&shed the do*". spoke. she #ried. b&t a$*ays i" a $o* to"e sho*i"% fear of s&rprise. *hi#h %a1e e #o&ra%e. ti$$ y ha"d *as o" her thi%hs "ear to her #&"t. *he" 1io$e"t$y she dis$od%ed it a"d #ried $o&d$y. 2 4Oh do"(t. yo& "e1er sha$$ 2 $ea1e off 2 yo& *i$$ if yo&(re a %e"t$e a" 2 oh 2 "o* 2 it(s sha ef&$. yo& take a ea" ad1a"ta%e *he" there(s "o o"e to prote#t e.4 2 My fi"%ers 0&st fe$t the hair of her otte. as she p&shed e off a"d b&rst i"to tears. 4Re e 2 ber 2 I( 2 ah 2 a $ady 2 aha.4 she sobbed. *hi#h to&#hed e a"d I #eased.
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7&t y pri#k *as sti$$ o&t 2 I re#o$$e#ted *hat she(d a$ready do"e a"d that she(d ade "o "oise. I *as *i$d *ith se!&a$ passio". a"d after a se#o"d or t*o said. 2 4Fee$ it the".4 2 4;i$$ yo& the" $ea1e off/4 2 4Yes.4 2 she took ho$d of it as I p&t it i"to her soft *hite ha"d. a"d as I fe$t its s ooth"ess. a"d sa* the r&by tip protr&#i"% fro her $itt$e fist a"d she $ooki"% do*" at the i p$e e"t of fe a$e p$eas&re. I "ear$y spe"t. 7&t i"te"tio" a%ai" #a e of fee$i"% her #&"t. to %et y fi"6%ers bet*ee" the soft *ar $ips *hi$st she ha"d$ed y pe%o. The" I had #o"f$i#ti"% se"satio"s. 2 So e o"e i%ht #o e 2 *as she 1ir%i"/ She *as a $ady a"d y a#tio" *as ea". a"d spite of y $&st I hesitated a"d stood otio"$ess. she ho$di"% y pri#k a"d $ooki"% i" y fa#e. 2 4+o *hat yo& did that after"oo".4 2 4I do"(t k"o* *hat I did.4 2 4+o this.4 a"d I passed her ha"d &p a"d do*" y pri#k. She be%a" s$o*$y. ho* y pri#k re#ipro#ated. I took her ro&"d the *aist a"d kissed her #heek. *hi$st %e"t$y b&t #$& si$y she fri%%ed. a"d thi"ki"% of her #&"t. $o"%i"% to f&#k her. I &r &red y desires for her i" the ba&diest $a"%&a%e. 4Oho9 2Yo&(re dreadf&$.4 said she. The" o&t sp&rted y sper . I #$&t#hed her ha"d a"d he$d it i" i"e *hi$st *ithdra*i"% y pri#k thro&%h hers. so that the $ast of y spe"di"%s fe$$ o" her fi"%ers. 2 It %a1e e the &t ost $as#i1io&s de$i%ht to k"o* it had *etted the . as I si%hed. 4That o&%ht to be 2 aha 2 i" yo&r 2 #&"t.4 She $et %o y pri#k. $ooked at e *ith *i$d$y 1o$&pt&o&s eyes. the" at her ha"d. the" $ooked ro&"d to see if a"y o"e *as "ear. 2 I( s&re fro her $ook a"d a""er that she *as dyi"% to be f&#ked. a"d had I bee" i" #o"ditio" perhaps i%ht ha1e atte pted it. b&t y pri#k *as shri"ki"%. 2 She $ooked at it a%ai". I *iped her fi"%ers *ith y ha"dker#hief. she $et e do it "ot see i"% to k"o* *hat she *as abo&t. ti$$. 2 4Oh 2 I( so iserab$e 2 for :od sake 2 "e1er te$$ a"y o"e. 2 ;i$$ yo& "o*/ 2 yo& bro&%ht e here for this 2 did"(t yo&/4 2 I s*ore I(d "e1er te$$. a"d rap6id$y a"d *itho&t a"other *ord *e *a$ked to the ,a$$. 2 4;here(s y a&"t/4 2 4:o"e o&t i" the #arria%e Sir. a fe* i"&tes a%o.4 2 4Oh94 said )%atha. 4I( so sorry. te$$ her *i$$ yo&/4 I shook ha"ds *ith that ha"d *hi#h had had y sper i" it. a"d off she *e"t. I to$d )&"t at di""er that *e(d arri1ed 0&st as she %ot o&t of si%ht. 2 4It(s a pity. I(d ha1e dri1e" her ho e.4 *as a$$ she rep$ied. )%atha "e1er a%ai" %a1e e a #ha"#e of bei"% a$o"e e1e" to speak *ith her. a"d I *as ost$y i" Lo"do". 2 O"e "i%ht Fred a"d I. s oki"% i" y #ha bers. o&r #o"1ersatio" fe$$ o" these %ir$s. a"d $itt$e by $itt$e *e dis#$osed to ea#h other. ,e(d kissed the both a"d had tried to fee$ ,e$e" &"s&##essf&$$y. 2 4Yet she *a"ts f&#ki"% so.4 2 )%atha he(d a$so tried. a"d the" I to$d hi she(d fri%%ed e. 2 4)"d so she did e at H H H H H.4 said he. $a&%hi"% a"d s$appi"% his thi%h. 2 )%atha had f ri%%ed &s both 2 I *o"der ho* a"y other e" she(d fri%%ed. ;he" after y fri%%i"% *e et the %ir$s )%atha a$*ays $ooked e"3&iri"%$y a"d see ed &"#o fortab$e. T*o or three years after*ards the fa i$y $eft the "ei%hbo&rhood. I *as the" a poor a" a"d rare$y *e"t to y a&"t(s. a"d Fred
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*as abroad. EThe episode o##&rred *he" I *as abo&t t*e"ty6fi1e. a"d the "arrati1e *as at o"e ti e "ear$y b&r"t.F I had a" a#3&ai"ta"#e "a ed H H H HH H H. *ho had a $o1e$y #reat&re for *ife. b$&e eyed. 1ery $i%ht #hest"&t hair. p$& p as a partrid%e a"d abo&t t*e"ty6si! or 6se1e" years o$d. She had %i1e" *ay to dri"ki"%. so e said o*i"% to do esti# a""oya"#e. b&t that has "othi"% to do *ith the episode. I" s& er *ith si! or ei%ht e" *ho had dri1e" do*" to H H H H abo&t #o&"try b&si"ess I *as to di"e. a"d 0oi"ed the $ater at a s a$$. si p$e. yet *e$$ k"o*" #o&"try i"" abo&t fo&rtee" i$es off. ;he" I %ot there a$$ *ere i" the %arde" readi"%. s oki"%. a"d a*aiti"% di""er. 2 O"e of the *ho a$so k"e* the #o&p$e said to e. $a&%hi"%. 4There(s Mrs. H H H H H H H here ti%ht as peep. She(s bee" o&t dri1i"% *ith her brother a"d his *ife. they(1e %o"e to HHHH a"d are #o i"% ba#k to di"e.4 There the #o"1ersatio" e"ded a"d I tho&%ht "o ore abo&t the atter. O&r party had *ashed after their $o"% dri1e. I had "ot. *e"t i" a"d &p stairs e!pe#ti"% as &s&a$ to fi"d a #ha ber aid to sho* e a bedroo to *ash i". EIt *as a s a$$ i"" a"d before the days of $a1atories.F 'ot seei"% the #ha ber aid. a"d after #a$$i"% o&t a"d "o o"e a"s*eri"%. I ope"ed a bedroo door. a"d there Mrs. H H H H H H H to y asto"ish e"t stood. ha1i"% 0&st rise" fro a "i%ht #o ode i" *hi#h she had pidd$ed. *ith her petti#oats i" fro"t he$d &p i" a b&"#h sho*i"% both $e%s to abo1e her %arters. *hi$st i" her rear her #$othes *ere dra%%i"% ha1i"% dropped a"d #a&%ht i" the aho%a"y #o ode. 'o *ay abashed. 2 4Look here. oh. p&$$ it a*ay 2 do 2 ho* d(ye do 2 Oh. oh.4 said she. t&%%i"% a"d sti$$ keepi"% her #$othes &p i" fro"t. s*ayi"% a $itt$e a"d #h&#k$i"% i" a tipsy *ay. ,er fa#e *as f$&shed. a"d I sa* at o"#e that she *as ti%ht a"d had bee" $yi"% o" the bed. ) r&sh of $&st #a e. y pri#k rose stiff at the si%ht of the bea&tif&$ pair of $e%s. a"d i"sti"#t to$d e I #o&$d ha1e her 2 I sho&$d ha1e re1o$ted at a"y i"te"tio" had I ref$e#ted. b&t a sta"di"% pri#k has "o #o"s#ie"#e. I tho&%ht of "othi"% b&t ho* to f&#k her. those $o1e$y $e%s. those $a#ed petti#oats &pset e. a"d i" $ess ti e tha" it takes to *rite t*o $i"es of this "arrati1e. I(d #$osed the door a"d *as assisti"% to free her #$othes. 4,a1e yo& see" @a#k/4 <her brother= sta ered she. #h&#k$i"%. 2 4Oh 2 do"(t do that 2 $et e 2 $ie do*".4 she & b$ed. for as I dise"%a%ed her #$othes *ith o"e ha"d. I passed y other &p bet*ee" a pair of fat soft thi%hs to her #&"t. a"d *e$$ bet*ee" its $ips. 2 I *as as *et as a op. 2 4Oh do"(t yo& 2 oh "o*. 2 ,o 2 ho @a#k(s #o i"% 2 Oh do"(t.4 24Let &s do it.4 2 4,e 2 he 2 he.4 2 she #h&#k$ed. 2 4'o 2 oho.4 6 (Let e f&#k yo&.4 2 4Oh do"(t 2 "o*. 2 ,e he 2 he 2 $ea1e it a$o"e.4 a"d she sat do*" o" the bed ed%e for a i"&te. $etti"% e fi"%er her 3&i *itho&t hi"dra"#e. a"d the" fe$$ ba#k. )s she fe$$ I thre* &p her #$othes to her "a1e$. She #h&#k$ed sti$$ as if it *as a %ood 0oke. 2 4I($$ f&#k yo&.4 2 4Oh "o. yo& &st"(t.4 a"d she raised herse$f part$y &p. My stiff pri#k *as the" o&t. 4,o 2 ho 2 ho.4 said she. $ayi"% ho$d
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of it. a"d fe$$ ba#k a%ai" #h&#k$i"% tipsi$y. 7efore the *ords *ere o&t of her o&th y pri#k *as b&ried &p to its ba$$s i" her #&"t 2 a $o1e$y $ooki"% "ot#h 2 a"d she *as $yi"% *ith eyes #$osed e"0oyi"% the p$&%%i"%. I $ifted her thi%hs the". a"d f&#ked *ith the 0oy of a f&$$ ba$$o#ks. i ediate$y sy patheti#. re#ipro#a$ o1e e"ts of her #&"t a"d b&tto#ks be%a". 2 She *as hot there. 2 4)h9 F&#k.4 I si%hed. 4Yhes. f&#k 2 I( a#o ( 2 ahar.4 she &r &red. ope"i"% her eyes *ide a"d stari"% at e for a" i"sta"t. the" #$osi"% the she 0erked *e$$ &p her b& a"d spe"t. as I fi$$ed her #&"t *ith y sper . I *as f&$$ that day a"d the f&#k *as a short o"e. I(d s#ar#e$y spe"t *he" #a e a k"o#k at the door. 2 it *as"(t $o#ked. 2 My :od. *e are #a&%ht. tho&%ht I. the" *ithdre* y pri#k %i1i"% her a 1io$e"t shake of her thi%hs to ro&se her. 0&st as a $o&der se#o"d k"o#k #a e a"d a fe a$e 1oi#e. 4Sha$$ I bri"% yo& a #&p of tea Ma /4 2 The f&#k a"d the f&" had a $itt$e sobered her. she $ooked at e as I stood by the door %esti#&$ati"% 2 y pri#k sti$$ o&t. 2 4;harte.4 2 she said i" a dr&"ke" & b$e. 2 4Sha$$ I bri"% yo& so e tea/4 2 I shook y head. 2 4'oo.4 she & b$ed 2 I heard foot steps retreati"%. bo$ted the door. a"d *iped y fa#e. do*" *hi#h perspiratio" *as tri#k$i"%. She be%a" fee$i"% her head as if to arra"%e her hair. 2 4Oh. *hat ha1e *e do"e/ @a#k *i$$ be ba#k.4 2 She stared at e. a"d I at her. for i" tr&th I *as a$so be*i$dered. a$$ had take" p$a#e i" si! or se1e" i"&tes. a"d it see ed a drea 2 a"d the" the risk9 2 ;itho&t a"other *ord I he$ped her &p. a"d she sat *ith $e%s &"#o1ered to her %arters o" the bed side. s i$i"% tipsi$y. )s I %ot #o posed. a 1io$e"t desire for her a%ai" #a e o" a"d I sat by her. 4Oh9 ;hat ha1e yo& ade e do/4 4I(1e f&#ked yo&. $et e a%ai".4 2 4Oh. it(s dreadf&$4 she & b$ed. yet she #h&#k$ed. a"d as I p&t her ha"d o" y pri#k. she $a&%hed a tipsy $a&%h a%ai" a"d %reedi$y fe$t it. 4Oh do"(t 2 "o4 2 as y fi"%ers fe$t her %$&ey 3&i a"d fri%%ed it. She &st ha1e had a thirsty #&"t. for she soo" %ripped y pri#k. a"d fe$t y titi$$atio". 2 4Let(s f&#k dear/4 2 4Oh. "o. @a#k(s #o i"% ba#k. 2 Oh. "o 2 "o.4 2 b&t as she said 4'o.4 she t&r"ed her $ips $o1i"%$y to i"e. as if she #o&$d"(t he$p it. 2 She *as &"der the do i"io" of $&st. a"d yie$di"%. s#ar#e$y k"o*i"% *hat she did. %raspi"% y pri#k sti$$ *hi#h stiffe"ed pro&d$y. as I p&shed her %e"t$y ba#k. 2 4'o 2 "o 2 "o.4 2 she #h&#k$ed as she fe$$ i"to the sa e positio". I thre* &p her #$othes. she at o"#e ope"ed her thi%hs *ide to re#ei1e e. sp&"k *as a$$ o1er the a"d ra" fro her #&"t as y pri#k *e"t &p it a"d I had o"e of the ost de$i#io&s f&#ks. tho this a$so *as soo" o1er. fear of bei"% #a&%ht a"d of $osi"% y ear$y stiff"ess. of issi"% the #ha"#e of spe"di"% i" that di1i"e 3&i ade e h&rry. I ra ed 3&i#k$y a"d hard as a stea e"%i"e. e"#o&ra%i"% her a"d y6se$f by ba&dy *ords ti$$ I s&"k i" E$ysi& o" her be$$y. *hi$st the s3&ee-e a"d os#i$$atio" of her #&"t a"d b& #a e o" at the sa e o e"t. )"!iety to %et a*ay for both o&t sakes. ade e *ithdra* y pri#k sti$$ yie$di"% &p its ba$ y $i3&id. I ade her the" $ay a$o"% the bed. a"d she i"sta"t$y *e"t off to s$eep. I ope"ed the door a"d %ot off &"6obser1ed. I(d
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"e1er take" off y hat e1e" *he" f&#ki"%. a"d &st ha1e do"e her t*i#e i" a 3&arter of a" ho&r. ;he" I re0oi"ed y frie"ds. 4,o* hot yo& are.4 said o"e. I %a1e so e e"da#io&s reaso" for it. I f&#ked her at ha$f past fo&r a"d a" ho&r after. @a#k. *ho I k"e*. #a e. a"d to$d e his sister had bee" &pset by the stro"% s&". I" the e1e"i"% o&r party dro1e ho e. @a#k *as departi"% 0&st as *e *ere. a"d &"fort&"ate$y o&t #a e Mrs. H H H H H H. sober. I a##osted her of #o&rse as if I(d "ot see" her before. a"d "e1er fe$t i" %reater diffi#&$ty. for I tho&%ht of her $o1e$y #hest"&t fri"%ed #&"t as I spoke. She *as #o"f&sed. ho* she $ooked at e. I he$ped her a"d sister i" $a* i"to the #arria%e. a"d y #o#k stood as I sa* her pretty feet a"d fa"#ied I s e$t her. ;he" o&r party %ot to the *est e"d. I a$i%hted a"d fo$$o*ed f$ashy *hores ti$$ I %ot a "i#e o"e. )$$ the e1e"i"% y #o#k had stood at i"ter1a$s thro re#o$$e#tio". a"d I tho&%ht of "othi"% e$se as I f&#ked the har$ot i" the sa e attit&de as I e 6bra#ed Mrs. H H H H i". I sh&t y eyes. &sed the sa e ba&dy e0a#&$atio"s. a"d fa"#ied s&##essf&$$y that it *as Mrs. H H H H H *ho I *as f&#ki"%. EI fi"d fro s&bse3&e"t e ora"da. that this a o&r of t*e"ty i"&tes fi$$ed y brai" $o"% after*ards. a"d that at ti es I sh&t y eyes *hi$st f&#ki"% a"d tho&%ht of Mrs. H H H H. Idea$ities ha1e a$*ays he$ped e i" se!&a$ e"0oy e"ts. ;he" poor a"d I had *o e" for fi1e shi$$i"%s. I &sed to #$ose y eyes a"d fa"#y I *as e"0oyi"% fe a$es of hi%her #$ass.F <I sa* Mrs. H H H H for the first ti e abo&t si! o"ths after*ards. She a$*ays a1oided e. 'e1erthe$ess I o"#e a$$&ded to it. tho I k"e* I o&%ht "ot. 4+o yo& re6 e ber bei"% at H H H H.4 I be%a". "a i"% the p$a#e. 4Yo& o&%ht "e1er to refer to it.4 said she. %etti"% &p a"d $ea1i"% e o" so e prete!t. I "oti#ed that *he" after*ards *e et i" so#iety she *as a$*ays i" a f&rti1e *ay $ooki"% at e. 2 She died t*o or three years after of typhoid fe1er.F T,E E'+.

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