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Musings of a Spiritual Warrior - 2009 Book 2

Musings of a Spiritual Warrior - 2009 Book 2

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What follows is the first part of the seventeenth year of the Beyond Imagination expression. It covers the second quarter of 2009 We call it the Musings of a Spiritual Warrior. That may seem like an oxymoron but we do wage war against the illusion to the degree that we can using consciousness and awareness as our chief weapons. Always the goal is to come to know our self as fully as we can and then to share our self with the world in some manner that is of service. In our case, we do that through this very expression. Here we explore such topics as spirit, consciousness, awareness, and the nature of reality creation. We hope that in sharing in this manner, we allow you to walk in our mindsteps for awhile, allowing you to experience a new way of looking at the world. Indeed, we hope to alter your state of consciousness and awaken you to more of who you truly are. If we do that, we will have considered our efforts to be successful. Our greater goal is to create the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh.
This work consists of the musings themselves, presented exactly as they came forth. They are not meant to be read in any order. Allow spirit to guide you to the passages that you most need to see. Open that part of the expression to any page and start with any passage on that page.
What follows is the first part of the seventeenth year of the Beyond Imagination expression. It covers the second quarter of 2009 We call it the Musings of a Spiritual Warrior. That may seem like an oxymoron but we do wage war against the illusion to the degree that we can using consciousness and awareness as our chief weapons. Always the goal is to come to know our self as fully as we can and then to share our self with the world in some manner that is of service. In our case, we do that through this very expression. Here we explore such topics as spirit, consciousness, awareness, and the nature of reality creation. We hope that in sharing in this manner, we allow you to walk in our mindsteps for awhile, allowing you to experience a new way of looking at the world. Indeed, we hope to alter your state of consciousness and awaken you to more of who you truly are. If we do that, we will have considered our efforts to be successful. Our greater goal is to create the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh.
This work consists of the musings themselves, presented exactly as they came forth. They are not meant to be read in any order. Allow spirit to guide you to the passages that you most need to see. Open that part of the expression to any page and start with any passage on that page.

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2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2

BEYOND IMAGINATION

Musings of a Spiritual Warrior

=== 2009 Book 2 ===
Wayne Hartman

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2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2

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What follows is the first part of the seventeenth year of the Beyond Imagination expression. It covers the second quarter of 2009 We call it the Musings of a Spiritual Warrior. That may seem like an oxymoron but we do wage war against the illusion to the degree that we can using consciousness and awareness as our chief weapons. Always the goal is to come to know our self as fully as we can and then to share our self with the world in some manner that is of service. In our case, we do that through this very expression. Here we explore such topics as spirit, consciousness, awareness, and the nature of reality creation. We hope that in sharing in this manner, we allow you to walk in our mindsteps for awhile, allowing you to experience a new way of looking at the world. Indeed, we hope to alter your state of consciousness and awaken you to more of who you truly are. If we do that, we will have considered our efforts to be successful. Our greater goal is to create the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh. This work consists of the musings themselves, presented exactly as they came forth. They are not meant to be read in any order. Allow spirit to guide you to the passages that you most need to see. Open that part of the expression to any page and start with any passage on that page.

I AM THAT I AM THAT YOU ARE! Wayne Hartman beyond@redshift.com

BEYOND IMAGINATION
http://www.redshift.com/~beyond/mainpage.htm

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2009 MUSINGS BOOK 2
1 April 2009 Wow! The start of a new month and a new quarter. We went 85 musings in 90 days for the first quarter, and that included a three day break for a business trip. That sets the bar pretty high for the year. Even in our commitment, we are only planning to muse 6 days per week. That would allow us to miss 13 days per quarter. But, that is still yet to be. In the meantime, we do as we are moved to do. Of late, that involves coming here to express nearly every day. Perhaps it is time to consider another device that would allow us to express even when we travel. I saw some one using one this week. It folded up into something that was little more than the size of a pack of cigarettes. I don't know what kind of word processor it had and don't know whether the keyboard would be comfortable enough to use for two hours a day or more. But, it is something to consider. The other alternative is to carry a laptop, but I don't like doing that when I fly. So, where is this month going to lead? April Fool's Day. Am I a fool to believe that my life and my work will change in a major way in as little as a week? Perhaps I am. It would be appropriate. Yet, there is something within me that says that no matter how foolish it may appear, it is more than a pipedream, it is more than wishful thinking. One more day of work and I'm off for 10 straight days. Off and out of touch however. If the changes that I anticipate are to come via contact with others, I've left no avenues for that contact to happen. Though, if it is meant to be, it will indeed happen. There is nothing magically about my birthday. That is a deadline that I have set for change to occur. It could happen before this or after this or never for that matter. It seems that somehow it is not my call to make. Yet, there is a sense of anticipation, a knowingness that something grand is about to happen. Further, I am going to love it. It doesn't matter whether I know what will happen or how it will happen. It is enough that I go with the flow and simply allow it to manifest in my life. Spirit operates strictly on a need to know basis. I believe this is true for everyone, but I know it is true for me. Further, it is an immediate need to know basis. Most of what I know does not seem to be consciously available. There is no conscious process that I know of that allows me to recall information. My mind just doesn't work like that. Yet, I can generate what is expressed here. And, many of the statements are expressed as things that I know. How can that be? How can other than conscious parts of me know what I know while the conscious part of me does not? That is just the way it is? Questioning it doesn't change how it works. Yet, I am changed by everything that is revealed here. In every sentence, in every question, I see a new facet of myself. It matters not how much is expressed, there are ever new facets exposed. Though can others see what I see here? Or, better yet, can they see facets of themselves that they might not otherwise see. If so, this is another service that we provide. Life is all about exchanging services. In doing so we create communities that are capable of doing grand things ... things far beyond what any individual might dream to be possible. Life is about the interactions of complex systems to form even greater complex systems. Curious, that is what I do by trade ... I am a systems engineer. But, I haven't really had the opportunity to design complex systems yet. Maybe that is something that I will be called to do at some point ... in particular, complex social systems. Thus far, my work in this area has involved observing the shortfalls of systems that I see, and offering some high level 3

2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 alternatives that might point the way toward resolving some of these shortfalls. Perhaps that is enough, but I doubt it. My abilities are what they are for a reason. My training is what it is for a reason. Such reasons always involve what we are called to do. We each have a calling. It is unique for each of us. Though it may not just be doing one thing. Some callings are complex, others are relatively simple. Whatever yours is, is right for you. We are never called to do more than we are capable of doing. Though, often our calling must be performed in conjunction with or in the context of others. Creating the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh is our stated mission. It is my personal mission, but it is also the mission of Beyond Imagination. It is a grand mission, one worthy of a lifetime of endeavor. But, is it a mission that we can have any hope of achieving? Clearly, I believe that it is. I am willing to give my very life to it. That is about as committed as you can get. I am willing to live for it, but I am not willing to die for it. Though, in some respects am I not dying to the world to do what I have committed to do? That is an interesting way of looking at it. However, I am not dying to anything in the world that I consider to be valuable. In many ways, my life is my spiritual work and my spiritual work is my life. If I am to be judged for anything, it should be for this expression and what I do in the context of Beyond Imagination. Though, I believe that I have reached a point in my life where I would not accept the judgment of another. Hopefully, I have also reached a point in my life where I would not judge myself. What would be the point in it? Though, it hasn't always been this way. I was my own harshest critic for much of my life. I don't believe that I judged others, but I clearly judged myself. It took some doing to reach a point of acceptance of who I am. Though, even there, I am the man in search of more, ever seeking the moreness of life and of Self. There is a sense that no matter how much I find, there will always be a sense of dissatisfaction that drives me to seek more ... at least until I reach a point where I can seek no more. One thing noticeably missing in my life is others ... especially others that are close enough to truly know me. I don't think that there is anyone in my life that fits this criteria. Then again, I don't believe that I truly know anyone else either. Perhaps this is a lack of trying. Perhaps this is a matter of not being present and available to interact. What it is not is a failure to share. This expression reveals more about me than anyone but me would probably want to know. And, I have been moved to capture it and post it to the Beyond Imagination website for over 13 years. I have been in search of kindred spirits, in search of my spiritual family for nearly as long. Yet such were not forthcoming. Maybe I just don't know how to search. Maybe such relationships are not meant to be for me. How will I know for sure until either such a relationship manifests or I die? At this point, it does not matter anymore. It is enough that I know me to the degree that I can, and that I present who I am authentically to others. It is for others to choose to know me to whatever degree they choose. My life is literally an open book, or many open books as it were.

2 April 2009 Short musing yesterday. But, I did take the time to pull together 2009 Musings Book 1. That is the easy part. Proofing is much more tedious and time consuming. So much so, that I am not sure that it is worth the effort. That might be a different story if I could pay someone to do it. All that it takes is resources. My free time is worth something, even if I am not being paid for 4

2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 what I do with it. Finding even a few typos or spelling errors per page does not seem to be a good return on investment compared to the amount of new expression that could have been generated in an equivalent amount of time. Nothing says that the material has to be perfect. Good enough is good enough. Besides, I am moved to come here to express. I am not moved to review what has been express and proof it. That is just the way that it is. Some things are mine to do. Other things are not. Wisdom lies in knowing the difference. This applies to change as well. Some things are within our power to change. Other things are not. Wisdom lies in knowing the difference. Where I can, I try to come from a place of wisdom. I don't always succeed, but I try. What next? We have reached the beginning of a ten day period of time off from work. We'll have to see how much spiritual work we are moved to do during that time. During the Christmas break, we had even more time off than this and we expressed every day but one. Though, we didn't express as much as I had though that we would. Maybe this time will be different. It would be interesting to see whether we can keep a five hour per day regimen. It seems like it should be easy. After all, we are working 11 to 12 hour days now. But, somehow it is different when you are on vacation ... even if you are not going anywhere or doing anything. The bottom line is that it will be what it will be. To some degree, I don't seem to have control of it. Yet, at the same time, all that I have to do is come here, open Netscape Communicator, and type what comes into my head via this stream of consciousness. How hard can that be? It is not hard. Yet, until 16 years ago, I was unable to do it at all. Now, it is a natural mode of expression. Yet, I have to choose to do this. I have to cooperate. I have to allow the magic to happen. Not that it is a difficult choice to make. Engaging in this expression is far superior to anything else that I do. Perhaps that should not be the case, but it is. At this point in my life, I would have it no other way. Our biggest wish, our birthday wish, is to be able to do this full time. No, not just this expression ... but our Beyond Imagination work. How do we make our wishes come true? Who is in a position to grant our wishes? The only answers that come to mind for wishes as big as mine are spirit and the universe. Yet, what do we have to do or be to get them to grant our wishes? We must be who we truly are, who we were created to be, and we must do what we are moved to do. That is an easy answer to state, but how do we live it? There is a sense that the universe bestows upon us our destiny, but it is a self-chosen destiny at an other than conscious level. Here, we are attempting to manifest a conscious destiny that we choose. Either that or something better for the good of all concerned anyway. Is there something more that we can do than to wait and see what unfolds in our life? Things don't seem to be changing fast enough ... at least not in terms of the big changes. It seems that there should be a place to go where we can offer our services, whatever they might be for hire ... somewhere where we would receive a fair evaluation of what they are worth, and would be paid what they are worth. You might say that there already is such a place, the free market. But, how does that apply to the nature of services that we provide here? At one level, there is a service to spirit, one that engages my abilities for 15 to 20 hours per week to bring forth this stream of consciousness. There is no one "hiring" me to do this, and much that has come forth I have shared freely with the world at the Beyond Imagination website. At another level, this expression is a service that spirit provides to me. At still another level, this expression is a service that spirit provides to the world. At none of these levels is the service being "paid for" except for perhaps the middle one where I pay for the service that I receive by applying my 5

2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 abilities in my free time. Something seems wrong about that ... but there are many services for which there is little to no compensation. There are many volunteer services. Often these involve doing things that would not otherwise get done. To date, Beyond Imagination has been a volunteer service, something that I do for the joy of doing it. Yet, early in this expression, a value of $1 per word was established. Since that time, I have had the sense that with each word, I deposit $1 into a spiritual savings account. At some point, I will be given instructions on how to withdraw from that account. This value would be sufficient to set us financially free and allow us to fund the Beyond Imagination endeavor. We have done a lot of work up front. That demonstrates some of what we are capable of. What we could do full time is another matter. And what we could do full time with a team of a dozen others is another story entirely. We have been moved to create a commitment, a four year commitment that would carry us through April 2013. To a large degree, we know how we wish to live and how we wish to work. We just need help in manifesting that. When it comes to manifestation, what we desire will either come true or will not come true. We need to be ready to face ourselves regardless. Focusing on outcomes is not the way of masters. What is more important is to go with the flow of life as it unfolds. Or is it? What if we do not like the direction in which we are headed? Sometimes we have the opportunity to do something to alter our course and achieve a different outcome. If we just go with the flow all of the time, we never choose these other alternatives. Design your life, make your life the masterpiece that it can be. That doesn't mean that it has to be hard work. Indeed, it can be effortless as this very expression. When you are doing what you love, what you are doing is not work ... it is fun, it is expressing who you are in a manner that you can do no other way. So find what you love, and do it. Do it as much as you can and as long as you can. Further, find a way to do it in a manner that provides a service. There is always a way to do that. Always. One week until our deadline for major change in our life and in our work. At this point, even if we found our benefactor tomorrow, it would still be the end of the month before we could begin to establish our new life. We would feel the need for at least a short transition period at work. Further, we would have to vacate our residence in Redondo Beach. Though, these are things that we would gladly do. Building a Beyond Imagination team would require more time but we have three of twelve people in mind already. It will take some interaction and exploring to find other lightworkers whose services would complement our own. I'm sure they are out there. It is a matter of finding them. The easiest way to do that is to sample their services and have them read the Beyond Imagination book and tell us how what they do aligns with the Beyond Imagination mission. At this point, it seems that we would only have sufficient funds to cover our team of twelve on a part time basis. That may change as the Beyond Imagination endeavor unfolds. Until then, this has to be enough. Either that, or the universe has to come up with more compensation for what we do. That too is possible. Can I really believe that all of this will come to pass? Yes, with all my heart and soul. It may not happen in the next week, but it will happen sometime, and I believe that sometime to be soon. What makes this anything more than wishful thinking? Nothing. But, what is wrong with wishful thinking? Wishes are one way that we make our preferences known to the universe. Wishes can indeed come true. Wishes can be granted. The power of the universe is great in this regard. Also, don't discount the power of spirit. Spirit is magic, she truly is. Desiring does not make it so. We can desire something more than anything else in our life and it still may not manifest. What distinguishes what is manifest from what is not manifest? That is 6

2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 what the art of reality creation is all about. We are all reality creators. We have been since before we were born and we will be long after we die. Entities create their reality. That is just the way that it works. Then, why do we not create more of what we prefer and less of what we do not prefer? Part of the problem is that we have not been taught how we do this. It is not something that we learn in school. Nor does it seem to be something that we learn in our metaphysical training. I should know. I have been on the metaphysical path for 35 years and as you can tell from what is expressed here, I am still struggling to create what I choose to manifest in my life. 3 April 2009 OK. This is the first day of a ten day stretch of free days. We'll see what we can produce in those days. Our goal is to express for five hours per day so that we can get a feel for what this would be like. But, goals are not something that we use very often in our life. The only goal that we can think of that we typically work toward is engaging in this Beyond Imagination expression for two hours per day. Even then, we don't beat ourselves up if we don't make it. The bottom line is that things happen in the way that they are meant to happen in our life. Though, there is free will. There are things that we do impact. We create our days ... we create our experiences ... we create our reality, both individually and en masse. Unfortunately, we don't seem to know how we do these things. Yet, there is a sense that we could know individually and collectively if we applied the right resources to figure it out. We could send people to the moon in the 60's and 70's when technology was in its infancy compared to where it is today. What wonders could we do today by comparison? Why can we not create a peaceful world? Why can we not share the worlds abundance fairly with all of the people of the earth? Why can we not eliminate poverty from our midsts, even in this country? These are huge things for us to do collectively. However, how do we even establish the intent? How do we make this a priority? How do we apply the necessary resources to make these things happen? Are we willing to do what it takes? Yet, this is not all that we need. What we really need is to establish a social contract among us ... from each iin accord with their abilities, to each in accord with their needs. It is that simple. Via that contract, no one is left behind and everyone contributes what they can. How do we implement a social contract? We begin by voicing the need for one. But, who do we voice it to? This is beyond the government and beyond the economic system. It is not clear where to voice the need. Though, it seens that we need to inform enough people in a way tgat allows them to make a difference We can start small to demonstrate that the concepts work, but what we are really seeking is massive changes to the infrastructures and these won't come without an associated cost. Though, it doesn't have to be a great cost. We are expecting the infrastructure that we create to be far more effective and efficient than the current ones. Why? Because they will be spiritually based. Not religiously based, spiritually based. How do we know this will work? We only know that the problems have become bad enough that they have to be dealt with. This will not happen until we collectively take responsibilty for them. Are we ready to do that? How do we know? We'll know when we become moved to do something and we start seeing others being moved to do something as well. Our sense is that such will happen soon, if indeed it is not already happening. We're struggling to stay awake this morning. As a result, the pace is slower than normal. Oh 7

2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 well, it is what it is. Maybe we've become so dependent on the Provigil that we need to start taking it on our off days of as well. That beats fighting off the need to fall asleep. Though. the othere alternative is simply to sleep when I feel the need to sleep. Yet, there are commitments. There are goals that we have set for ourself. There are not a lot of these, but the one that we have are important ones, at least to us. Eight hours is enough to devote to sleep, even if it takes a couple of hours to actually fall asleep. Hmm ... there must be a way to improve that without resorting to more medications. My system is already inundated with more medications then it should have to take. Yet, my psychiatrist has established that each medication is indeed necessary to keep me functioning to a reasonable degree. Though, there is a sense that things can change. There is a sense that I can change in a manner that reduces or eliminates the need for some or all of these medications. From the beginning, I have never sensed that I was ill, rather I was in the midst of spiritual awakenings. Though, clearly I have experienced my mind being out of balance ... at least out of balance with respect to living a normal life and being able to focus on living and working. It is not clear that this is a bad thing. In fact, I experience it as a good thing ... except for being able to function in the consensus world. To some degree, that is required ... even for one as isolated from the world as I am. Balance is important. But, balance points vary from person to person. and within a person over the course of ones life. Further, balance does not mean static. Indeed, it can be quite dynamic. It is a matter of preference. It is a matter of choice, though often this choice comes at other than conscious levels. We can't stop thinking about the changes that lie in store in our life and in our work, changes that we expect to happen soon. Yet, are our expectations warranted? They are what they are. Why were we moved to develop them as we have? We don't know. We just were. Now, it is a matter of if, when, and how they will manifest. We're pretty sure about the if. We believe that the services that we are planning to create more than justify what we ask in return. Yet, at the same time, we know this is not a negotiation. This is not to be expressed as a conditional. Yet, we express it as such nonetheless. We will carry out the Beyond Imagination endeavor in return for sufficient abundance to meet our needs. We recognize that what we believe to be our needs may not be our actual needs. And, we leave it to spirit to make that distinction. Our Psych-K homework from our last session was: We give control of our life to spirit. Our prior homework statement was: We give our whole life to spirit and our whole spirit to life. Both of these involve giving who we are to something greater that we are. Yet, that applies to ME. But ME and spirit are Wayne. We are ONE. We have always been ONE. We can never be other than ONE. We are Wayne. That was the answer given in the very first day of expression to the question: What shall I call you? It is curious that this is the only name that I use on the vast majority of my correspondence. No last name, no title, just Wayne. On the commute home last night, I was thinking about where my going away luncheon would be and about providing copies of Beyond Imagination: The Early Works to everyone I know at work whether they attend or not. That would come to about 50 copies or so at the most. That is how few people I have any contact with, and most of these I do not know to any real degree. Hmm ... that seems to be a mark of a life that has not been well lived to date. What do I need to do to change that? Do I even need to change that? It is not the quantity of relationships that matter, it is the quality of those relationships. It seems that to date, I have neither. Is that what I choose? Apparently, it is what I have chosen ... otherwise, I would not have experienced it. Change is the one thing that is constant in our life. Things are always changing, often in 8

Yes. there is a chance that this window of four years from 2009 to 2013 is the time in which Beyond Imagination is to do its stuff. preferably for all the players. we know. What is missing is what takes this the next step. Yet. It has resulted in sufficient material for another book already this year. At our present pace. Basically. this is a game. this grows from four to 7 or 8. Try as we might to generate particular outcomes. actions.. It is as if we are missing some key ingredients or have the process described incorrectly in the recipe. that is provided you have the ability to do these things. But how the ingredients are prepared. It seems that there should be something that I should be doing to help make my wishes come true. or wither and die. That makes all of the difference.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 unpredictable ways. and how they are mixed with one another and cooked . our efforts seem to be for naught. a game that spirit is playing as us through us. Now you are. That is a lot of work to do. it is about manifesting in support of a commitment to serve. That is not for you to worry about. we have declared what we wish to manifest and by when. For six months. You've just missed it time and time again. dreams. That is a lot of quantity. in competitive games there always seem to be winners and losers. we will generate the equivalent material for four such books. and imaginings at the very least. choices. we believe that the choices are consistent with what we desire to manifest. you have focused intently on establishing your commitment. the only thing that I am moved to do is to come here to express. I have yet to see a recipe for creating reality. Games are meant to be fun . we believe our action reflect our choices. that in itself is a sizable thing to do... and what is expressed will indeed reach its intended audience. you truly have. You have found your calling. But. We have nine Beyond Imagination books already. You are meant to use your unique abilities and talents to do the grand work that you came to do. Then again. that is what is missing. it is definitely achievable if I am working it full time and have a team to help me.. but is the quality there to make it of sufficient value for people to spend their time reading it. However life is primarily cooperative and only at times competitive. wishes. The bottom line is that what needs to be expressed is expressed. But. you have it right with your 40/60 split between you and Beyond Imagination. Do those things that you see need to be done that no one else seems to see need to be done . We could see this growing to over 30 by the end of 2009. To some degree the expression is intended for me. And. In our case. It is a matter of either 9 . emotions. All of these are necessary ingredients. Though this seems to vary substantially from country to country and culture to culture. what take it beyond imagination to becoming real. If you can indeed express to the degree that you have signed up to do . and we have imagined what our new life and new work will be. Unfortunately. There will be others who come with the appropriate skills and desire to do that. regardless of whether they are winners or losers. it will either become selfsufficient. become prosperous and grow.. you are ready to help others to find it as well... it seems that there is something special about these next few years and that after that we are on to a completely new game. All that I can say is that it is worth it to me to read every word multiple times. that is to be expected. we believe the beliefs are in order. Though. If our commitment manifests. that is sufficient to fund the initial years of the Beyond Imagination endeavor. not counting works generated from mining what has been expressed to date. You will do what you can to make it one of the first two.. we have establish our dream life and dream work. You already know what that is. You've missed it because you were not ready to find it. But it is not just about manifesting. After that. At this moment. it would involve beliefs. Though. If there were one. That step has been revealed here over and over in the 5 million words that have been expressed. we believe that we've engaged our emotions in a positive way.

For complex systems. are to do in the times to come. If people desire to create things and experiences in there lives in selfish ways. I can't imagine what my life would be like without this expression. One cannot read material such as this and remain the same. It's inputs seem to include abilities based on our genetics. It needs to insure that the intent is right. keep doing what you are doing to the degree that you can. Though. It only realized that the stream of consciousness that was recorded came from a part of itself that it was not conscious of except via the expression that came through. Though. It is an adventure of a consciousness coming to know itself. or been taught. You know how to make such shifts. not something that I am meant to know how I do. This is simply something I am meant to do. Yet. It just needs to be selected. If that is not your experience. And keep choosing again until you find your bliss. we are dealing with non-fiction. we have to put into it ourselves . I have to explore how 18 years of metaphysical reading. heard. numerology of our name and birthdate. it never really found itself. the author or director takes us on a journey. but you will not be disappointed. It needs to be more than a "how-to" manual. felt. In attempting to understand how this expression can come forth as it does. environment influences. Much of what we feel as we experience that journey. We don't have the ability to control the inputs in such a fashion. it is not far away from where you presently reside. You have given your whole life to her. It seems that the Beyond Imagination material would make an interesting textbook for a study on consciousness and the expression of spirit in flesh. WE are Wayne.. We understand that free time is a limitation even for spirit. this is virtually impossible. how another 16 years of metaphysical study. In the end. We know the raw material is there. Allow her to do with it what she will. experiences and training to date. The more I think about it the more I believe that it will always remain a mystery. Life is meant to be lived in joy. even there. often we can describe how a system works if we understand how it translates its inputs into outputs. That is OK. We can see you smiling then.. astrology. Allow spirit to guide you even more than she has to date. There is only a stream of consciousness.. but the author or director facilitates that in the work. We don't know how this stream of consciousness works. expression. ME. and possibly completed in a few areas. There is much that you.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 being offered a position to do it or creating a position to do it. And. one might not notice the shifts one is experiencing. you are not being as effective as you might be. Much that is expressed here can help others to experience such shifts themselves. the more subtle techniques of reality 10 . That this particular adventure happened to be that of Wayne is irrelevant. all that we have ever read. When one reads a fiction book or watches a movie. You will be surprised. It is a matter of a consciousness shift. It is out there waiting for you to find it. Then. We do this by varying the inputs and observing what impact this has on the outputs. Though. We don't know what its processes are. Wayne. thought. and the expression. It is fine that I am able to do this. it is all Wayne . In evaluating systems. find a new way.. and training prior to 1993 allowed the major breakthrough that enabled this expression to start coming forth. the consciousness. this material can facilitate such changes as well. We could easily create another work on reality creation that would augment Reality Creation 1010. and reading the expression results in what comes forth today. The Beyond Imagination material truly takes one on an adventure in consciousness. then choose again. packaged. But. There is no story. thinking. a lot more than you are accustomed to. in all of that coming to know. Is that the same for this expression? In this case. Until then. It is impossible. we have a lot of its output recorded. This takes a different level of awareness. Work is meant to be done in joy. There is even more that Beyond Imagination is to do. and everything that we have written.

That is what we have chosen to give our life to. is there more to Wayne than this? Ultimately that is all that matters. there seems to be a lesson to be learned from the Christ story.. It seems that the law of karma was too harsh. it matters not whether others know what difference I have made. It cares not what religion one belongs to or even if one belongs to any religion at all. even if we do not know what they are. But.. will it? Will we choose to apply consciousness technology in a manner that makes a difference? My sense is that yes. it is inevitable. This can take a lifetime of study to achieve . This could easily happen through the mass media channels that exist today. They impact us all equally. I could be. they will be revealed when they are necessary. 11 . and they will be repaid one way or another. We each have needs as individual.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 creation simply will not work. Is our offer compelling enough for spirit or the universe to grant it? We believe that it is. and then. Though. If there are. Though. Spirit is orchestrating everything in this drama. It is time for a new world order. Yes. I don't believe this is in the sense that it is used in Christianity. We start by how we choose to give of our free time. Do I have a key part to play? It is audacious of me to think so . perhaps not. Can I be happy engaged in the Beyond Imagination endeavor full time? Without a doubt. But we also have a responsibility to our society and to the world. I would choose to play my part in the background. But it could be. I have no concept of sin nor any need to be forgiven for sins. However. If it were. Forgiveness was needed to right the imbalance. Engaged in this expression is the closest I come to being happy . and a great difference to the world at that. Though. It is a matter of recognizing its value and making it available to the masses. I only need to know that what I have done has made a difference. if my case it is. Though. Wayne is a transcendentalist. But.. Those with key parts to play have trained to play those parts and are there awaiting the time when they are called into the scene. What more do we want out of life? Basically. Do we use this to serve ourself or to serve others? Though. there are ways to make it easier. Wayne is who expresses here. Others can take center stage. The most valuable thing that we have to give is whom that we are. it is asking for significantly more than I am making at present. we would have manifested something along these lines six months ago when we first crafted our desired commitment. It is nowhere near as prevalent as other technology. if not in this lifetime then in another.. We are at the brink of a new age. I ask only to do my spiritual work full time in the context of the Beyond Imagination endeavor in exchange for abundance. this is grandiose thinking. Giving primes the abundance pump. At some level our debts are tracked . If I see that. I don't know under what circumstances it becomes operative. surely there are others that see it as well. Some laws are subtle. but I think so nonetheless. It is time for infrastructures that facilitate a social contract among the peoples of the world. does that make it right? Shouldn't there be more to life than this? Shouldn't there be more to me than this? But. Everything starts with the desire to serve. Are there other modalities in which Wayne is meant to express? Perhaps. It is important that we honor these obligations. Is that too restrictive? Is what we do ever meant to define us? Clearly... Further. Though they don't impact all in the same ways. Yet. carrying out our spiritual work is it. Consciousness technology exists. there is also the possibility of forgiveness.. and responsibilities in family groupings. We have to reach special states of awareness to consciously apply them in our lives. But. But. That seems to be a fair exchange. but it is well worth every effort that we expend.. There is little else that concerns us anymore. it is not meant to be one or the other. we are offering to do far more in return. spiritual law applies to all equally. Spiritual laws operate indiscriminately as do universal laws. Others can have the limelight. But. we know that it is not our call to make.

we either need a benefactor. Ultimately that means that it is not what I desire that matters. My life is in spirits hands now. while at the same time being open to doing as spirit directs us to do. and do what I am moved to do.3 million after taxes $450. But. at least. We just need to have sufficient resources coming in for us to do that. I believe that it is an unlikely one . walking our talk is to leave our destiny in spirits able hands. Why were we moved to do this? Actually. We need to have what we desire manifest. Hmm .. We have great hopes for the Beyond Imagination endeavor.000 to pay off car loans $800. not on proof. Whatever these become will be exactly what they need to be. We will have broken the code and will have somehow manifest what we wished for. it has always been. We have already decided how we would apply the proceeds from this. the value spirit set for this expression over a decade ago.. spirit operates on faith. Yet. Then it is a matter of finding those elements of the expression that expose the manifestation process. I know that will be the case. we didn't consciously do it. It doesn't matter whether I consciously know what spiritual laws are operating. Yet.9 million for financial freedom for my family $2. we would pay lightworkers for their services to the Beyond Imagination endeavor and through the Beyond Imagination endeavor to the world.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 the happiness is still fleeting. Here it is not a matter of belief. even if I desired to plan it. We watched it being done in this very expression over the past six months. What if we are never given the opportunity to do what we love to do on a full time basis? That is indeed a possibility.8 million for the expression to date $3. To do that. At this point. Rather. hopes that begin as little as five days from today. I have not experienced that to any real degree. At the same time. It is not to be planned. but there have been many things that I have believed that did not manifest as I believed they would.000 to pay off mortgages $80. it is a matter of the operation of spiritual law.. express what I am moved to express. nonetheless we have decided to wish for a new life and a full time spiritual job. And. to some degree we have planned and imagined what that life and that job would be. or we need strong sales of the Beyond Imagination books and works. Will that ever change? I would hope that it would. That would be the proof that we know what we are talking about. first things first. My life is to be lived one step at a time.000 to pay off debt $60. That is as simple as receiving $1 per word.. We believe that the sale of the Beyond Imagination expression should be sufficient for us to engage in the Beyond Imagination endeavor at a level required to truly make a difference.000 for new house in Idyllwild 12 . I am to do as spirit moves me to do under whatever circumstances I find myself in. To some degree. Why would source do that? Why would spirit do that through us? What are we meant to learn from this? What are others meant to learn from this? If what we wish for indeed comes true. we must walk our talk for it to have value. $4. We are willing to use a substantial part of what we make to fund other lightworkers to support us. but I don't know that for sure .. then we have effectively learned a lot. Right now. we do not feel that it is fair to expect others to volunteer their services to this endeavor as I have done and am doing.. That is OK. I only have to be who I am. It is not clear that it could be planned.

Though. I'm sure there are many other possibilities that we haven't considered. One possibility would be that we give our benefactor full rights. I may be able to offer the other lightworkers a similar freedom to do what they do in a manner guided by spirit in support of the overall mission of Beyond Imagination. Interesting. If full value is offered..000 per year for me $900.000 we want to cover expenses and lightworker services That is what we wish for.000 for Beyond Imagination endeavor for one year $1. To some degree. We have no reason to second guess what spirit would have us do. But. we haven't broached the possibility with anyone that we are considering.000 for vacation $800.000 to furnish house $10. Why do I not expect the same for others? Though. One thing we don't know is what rights our benefactor would want to this expression. it would only allow us to buy part of the time of our team of twelve lightworkers.. I'm asking for freedom to express whatever spirit would express through me. This could be via our website or their own.5 million per year for expression for the next four years $600. We already know that we would like to engage the services of our Psych-K practitioner for a full day per week. It would free us from doing the publishing. I am open to the expression being focused on themes or topics of interest. the Beyond Imagination expression will reach its intended audience. Overall. advertising. A benefactor would fund the Beyond Imagination expression.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 $100. 13 .000 per year for Beyond Imagination endeavor For the $900. It just may not do this in anything close to a way that you have envisioned. The Beyond Imagination works based on this expression are the vehicles through which we carry our message to the public. and I would be a benefactor of sorts to the other lightworkers. it is written for all to see. Though. so let it be done . There. initially.000 for wages and savings $900. it seems that if others are meant to be part of the Beyond Imagination endeavor. So let it be written. they are meant to do so in a support capacity. and the benefactor packages and distributes the works. and dissemination. That is OK. how would that allow the Beyond Imagination endeavor to be carried out? This expression is a major part of that endeavor. rather than an hour and a half per month. Another possibility is that our benefactor chooses to make the works available for free to all. This would be enough to enable us to do a lot. It just doesn't seem right to do until we have sufficient resources to make an offer. This could work. One way or another. I am open to doing that with our benefactor. I think that I would want some control over how their services were directed. Whatever spirit chooses to manifest in this regard is what is right for us. But. this seems to be a reasonable arrangement. Though. I may even need to do some research to be able to express anything on these themes or topics. if it is in the best interest of all concerned. I give control of my life to spirit. it's a little different. it seems that it should come with full rights as well. This could evolve as we find way to provide our services for hire.

It matters not if others "employ" us to do these things. I've heard that over 10 percent of the people that want to work are unemployed. Fortunately. we had to judge roughly by file size since we don't have a word processor with a word count utility on this computer yet. Further. Every person is an important resource. and we advise. we do them because there is a need and we are the right person to fill that need. Nor. There is no mistaking these things. Though. We have known this since the expression began over 16 years ago. albeit probably less effectively than it could be done. At this point. and the world benefits most when each person is allowed to express all of who the are in service as spirit would direct. happy. We would advocate that each person is special and unique. He has no separate existence of his own. The difference to the world will be grand indeed. where we can we take action to fix any imbalances. We have a system that effectively says to find or create a need and then fill it. The earth is going through such a transition. We have to give people the opportunity to be who they are. our life clicks. The work gets done. Yet. and I am grateful 14 . Spirit and ME constitute the WE that are Wayne. this requires opportunity. We are in the zone. we didn't fully realize what it meant. When we are on the right path for us.. These very abilities have been put in place by spirit herself. Many are employed in this manner. We are who we are. it sure seems that we have a separate existence. And. to be all that they can be. it seems that it includes many things that it would not cross the minds of others to even think of. Yet. we inform. we educate. You could say that I don't get out much. quantities. Interesting. I wouldn't even hazard a guess at how many people are employed well below their abilities. How do we know what we are meant to do? We know because we are moved to do it and because it uses our naturally abilities and talents in a way that makes us different. and locations right. Though. We do this because this is what we came to do. it is never separated from spirit. Though. It is not up to us to consciously generate it. how do we do that? We observe. What does matter is finding five hours to express each day . there does not seem to be anything in the works to fix these. and even blissful when we do it. It is a matter of us allowing these vast resources to be employed as they were meant to be employed.. does it seem to matter. My world is quite limited in many respects. we are fully engaged. Though. it is up to Wayne to generate. One of my wishes is to establish the infrastructure that allows us to do this for the entire world. I'm not sure that I would know even if there were. But. Much of the filling of needs is done be large companies who then hire workers with specific skills to do various pieces of the work. The bottom line is it is what it is. We become more productive than ever. Yet. it is never separated from consciousness. Of course she got the types. the expression is automatic. Perhaps we still don't. We are flying as high and as far as our consciousness will take us. We are here to see where things flow smoothly and where they do not and attempt to right any imbalances that we find. There is a sense that our destiny is unfolding precisely as it is meant to unfold. Wayne expresses as a plural entity always. And. We come from a spiritual order that exists to help worlds through major spiritual transformations. that does not matter.000 words for the day. and having something meaningful to say for that long. Yet. Not one is meant to be dismissed. not one is meant to be wasted. We think we made our quota of 5. Though.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 4 April 2009 That's one down and nine days to go. we analyze. but there is no real assessment of whether what they are hired to do truly engages their abilities and talents. We do them because of who we are. we do them nonetheless. This kind of opportunity doesn't even exist in this country. it requires a different focus than what the economic system has had to date.

it seems that we should serve others and our world. There will simply be no doubt. At this point. Our concepts of Self. Though. There are no restrictions on the range of parts within the grand play of life... that we capture it as we do. it is beyond imagination. The opportunities will come. sharing is not something that can be forced. We have changed in the past six months.. Though some choices are more in character than others. Though. We can do that. we are not speaking of an exchange of works for compensation.. Our heredity and our environment did much to make us who we are at present. This seems to be beyond what was selected in our genes and what our environment in this existence caused us to be. At the very least. of soul. Further. we seem to be just as restricted. it doesn't matter. but may even have been side effects rather than causative factors. especially if the conditions to carry out our commitment manifest. We would have our job change as well . This last step is important to us. Life is good overall. Just as in movies where actors have some flexibility within the constraint of their roles. Rather. and continues to be born as such nearly each and every day. in many cases. we will be moved to seize them as if by an irresistible force. caused us to be seems too definitive.. It was born of something beyond the physical . We just have to be ready to seize them when they do come. That's a limitation on me. Here. At its finest. We are more than that. They will resonate with who we are. Hmm . at the same time I experienced a spiritual awakening and at roughly the same time I was diagnosed as being bipolar? My sense is that they contributed. and that we choose to share it with others. We choose to do different things . we are speaking of an exchange of experience for experience or even service for service. The easiest way to do so is to simply be who we are. Most opportunities come from spirit. even if this does not happen somehow the course of our life has changed. I am proud of what we have created here... nor in the combination of both of these. our parts don't have to be so dramatic if we choose for them not to be. Are we at a point where we can do that? Indeed. But. are these the only factors? It seems not. Though. things that we have not really done before. Our world will change to reflect what we have become. we can create our own opportunities as well. We also serve ourself. How will we know which ones are right for us? We will just know. and I am proud of what we have been able to become as a result. or consciousness. It seems that we also have to account for our creator and the creation process. and our life. and for some even extreme drama. Is there a combination of genes that gave me the propensity to express a stream of consciousness? And what is it that fills that stream? Did environmental influence cause the expression to begin in 1993.. Our lives are meant to unfold naturally. Though. We don't choose to continue to do more of the same. it seems that we are. it is a give and a take. either. 15 . It does not seem to be enough that we serve spirit in bringing this expression forth. far more. in fact. we are not satisfied that we have done all that we can do.. it is a mutual exchange. Even this expression exceeds that. in practical terms it seems that we can only interact with a dozen folks or so in a regular basis.. We are spirit in flesh. It could be better . Though. No. It seems that at least to some degree. of spirit all exceed what can be explained via genetics and environment. We just need the opportunity. Without this later step. What does matter is that this expression comes forth.. it is beyond these . how we choose to play our role is up to us.. so it seems for us in our roles in life. It is what makes the process complete somehow.. Yet. Genetics plus environment is not sufficient to make us who we are. it seems that we are far more free in some respects. That is just how it works. Spirit is not contained in the genetics nor in the environment. to be what we were created to be.. But. In other respects.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 for that. That doesn't mean that they won't have their drama .

But. we regroup and see what we are moved to be and moved to do next. 30 for expression. we have wished. And. we have imagined . you are working too much. We have set the expression up as the cash cow for funding the Beyond Imagination endeavor. we must change.. Perhaps it was simply a holding place for getting our needs met while we were being prepared for what we would do next. And. that is great . We do not feel that we can do that here. it is not clear that we have left a means for that to happen. we have to put in 30 hour weeks of expression. that comes from a perspective of wishing to live it rather than actually living it. So. I may be missing something in my assessment. It seems that it is time to correct that.. Then again. It is not for us to dictate what would be. We've been there over 13 years for a reason. it is not clear it will be sufficient. it is something that I am already doing if you add a 45 hour work week to 15 hours of spiritual expression each week. There are other things to life than work. It seems that we are to find that out soon enough. About the only way to get a hold of me is via e-mail. the hours are there. we know that for our world to change. We have to be reasonable in what we expect of ourself. Also. We must be the change that we choose to see in the world.. there are some. But. The universe knows where we are. we would have all the time that we need to do this. it all comes down to the time that we have and the priorities we have for that time. It seems only appropriate to find out if it is granted or not on my birthday. we can get a running start on designing our new life and our new job fully engaged in the Beyond Imagination endeavor. We believe one way to be far more desirable to live than the other. Also. It is not clear that we have left a means to be reached by then. That does not leave sufficient time to do everything else that we need to do unless we add another 30 hours per week. It does not have to be a limitation of our other lightworkers. it seems that asking for more than 60 hours per week is asking too much. I commute for over 5 hours per week as well. Can we really say that we are not attached to the outcome of all of this? We definitely have our preference. Though. at least it is a goal to shoot for.. Indeed. it is unlikely that the word will come within the next four days. Spirit knows where we are. or to delegate so things to others. we should not expect it. I don't even have an internet connection at home. Can we do this in the manner in which we have envisioned? We believe that we could. If we could transform the work time and commute time into spiritual work time. However.. but we are open to spirit having other plans for us.. Whatever manifests is right for us in the moment. Spirit put me in that very job. we have made our choices. I need to be able to access e-mail and post files to the Beyond Imagination website. but. I can't even 16 . If things manifest in the way that we have envisioned. it does not matter. We have stated our preferences. The solutions are to offload the things that don't need to get done. Though. To do that.. but I don't have an internet connection from home. One option is to increase our overall allotment of time. At this point. We know that. Just counting the hours . But. Further. This is my birthday wish after all.. What matters is whether we are indeed ready to do what we are to do next.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 perhaps self-imposed. we most likely will. What we do know is that it seems that our present job is a waste of a lot of hours per week that could be more elegantly and efficiently applied elsewhere. We once wrote that if you are working more than 40-45 hours per week. and 11 for interacting with other lightworkers only leaves 14 hours per week for other work. I may be one of the most prolific writers on the WWW. That is not to say that we can't deliver more. But. At the very least. That is spiritual law. there is a lot of other work that we desire to do. 5 for Psych-K. Maybe not a lot of them in my life . but the bottom line is that the results are up to spirit and the universe. few other people know where we are. even then. If things manifest elsewise. however.

It seems to be a sad state of affairs that all of this is necessary. Yet.Lewis Narnia books. I just need machines everywhere that I need to be able to work from. you need regular updates to stay protected. don't have iPod or MP3 player. The laptop that I am using at the moment cost less than $400 when I bought it a few months ago. 7:56 from the inside out is also a characteristic number for us. don't have any other gadgets for that matter. if you are going to use the technology. 6EGF219. The "A" is composed of twelve small diamonds in its base a a larger 13th diamond at its pinnacle. We got the ring nearly two decades ago. I would be lost. It seems that one needs a suite of software to be protected anymore . and they would be the precise number.S. Shifted circularly to the left one place we have: GV U 2196 = 74:The Benefactor You 888(16) + 12 This is exactly how we intend to set up Beyond Imagination -. Having two cars with 2196 in their license plates is a 1 in 10000 occurrence. This. the Roman numeral for 7:The Charioteer. It blew me away when my license plate arrived and I interpreted it as above. there is another car with a similar license plate on our same block in Cathedral City. I am nearly phobic. I have a desktop and laptop for home and a laptop at work. It is the two drivers of 13 card triangle tarot readings that we were moved to do for ourselves in 1994. even before the Beyond Imagination expression began. The bonds are in the form of VII. Most of my files are HTML files generated from Netscape Composer.The Benefactor .A(16). worms and other problems associated with them. I hate the phone. license plates that indicate the time for the Beyond Imagination mission to begin is nigh upon us. in order. the final four of my SSN plus a team of 12. Seeing the number again associated with 576 added that 17 . is a prescription for the organization that we are to create. We've been seeing a lot of interesting license plates of late. That still requires carrying a laptop between two of the locations that I live. Having them on the same block probably increases the odds several orders of magnitude. Further U GV = 2174 = 888(16) . We generally wait for spirit to reveal that for us. that gives us 2184. That came to us long before we learned of its use in the C. We believe our spiritual name to be Aslan. too.. Though. The 2196 is the same.10 = 888(16) .Wayne . here they are. whether at work or in my Beyond Imagination work. At the moment. I am a bit fearful of internet connections and the viruses. "A" is a prominent symbol on my ring resting between a dragon head facing down on the left and a dragon head facing up on the right. Curiously. EGF is 576 = 24 squared = X squared = pyramid viewed from the top. That is not a big deal. Generally. We liken ourself to a bound and blindfolded lady following a small stream of consciousness wherever it would lead us. That is another thing that I would change.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 do the later of these from work. What is the next step. When it comes to gadgets. There was no doubt about it. OK.. without a computer. other than my own: 6GVU219. This is the 62 card of the tarot. have a horrible time using the BlackBerry from work. We knew it was ours the moment that we saw it. But. The number come up many times in many contexts. when it comes up we know to look closely nearby for additional spiritual meaning. That is where I do the bulk of my work. I can carry these around on a thumb drive. you are subject to its risks as well as its rewards. I don't remember what any of these were. and even then.The endeavor supported by the twelve.

it seems to be quite a bargain. You make that decision in the moment for many moments over hours of your time. We can't make things manifest. 18 . Will this always be the case? We have no reason to think that it might not. a test to see if we can do this on a full time basis for a number of days in a row. You selfpublished nine books with Infinity Publishing. and I would prefer that this expression reach its intended audience. But. was that set by my ego? I only know that it has come forth many times over the years and felt right somehow.. Without you. It is worth the effort nonetheless. Indeed. the revelations of spirit don't typically come with a specified time horizon. especially spiritual and metaphysical people.. Now. Nor does it mean that it will all be profound. it is important that we do that. However. this does not seem to be something that we can control. given the services that we intend to provide. You do more than that. you expressed no desire for more. We can do that. Though. That is just the way that you do things. You have a basic trust that people will do the right thing . You choose to come here to express. We have no experience in sixteen years of this stream of consciousness stopping on its own. and even to countries. if yesterday and today are any indication. It is always worth the effort. Yes. At some level. But. It is completely within our power to do. This week. you actually co-create it. There is a spectrum between being honest and dishonest. enough of it will be so to make it worth the effort. It is simply a reflection in a single horizontal mirror. it is just a matter of making it so. Though you did things that provided the potential for some return. That will change. People can fall anywhere on that spectrum.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 much more emphasis to what spirit was telling me. but we can facilitate them manifesting. Maybe the intended audience is spirit and me. there are very few who make such decisions especially given the non-existent financial return to date. But. but to organizations. and in doing so you facilitate this expression. The play is about light and mirrors. we take breaks. In fact. it is there ready to come forth. we know that we are capable of doing this . It is worth the effort nonetheless. though you left in to the honor system for people to tell you they retrieved these works and to pay for them in dollars or in service. And. people do what serves them. That doesn't mean that we know what is going to come forth. This is a test of sorts. the publisher was appropriate even though few books sold. it would not come forth. It is appropriate for you. Indeed. it just happens to be a sufficient value to meet my need for financial freedom and my need to fund the Beyond Imagination endeavor. It is still relatively rare for people to consider the impact on the collective of their choices and actions. you had the finances that you needed. In many respects. why the stated value of $1 per word for this expression? Did that come forth from spirit? Or.. that could be true. It takes more than your decision to come here. It may or may not be appropriate for others. Though. It doesn't matter whether it reaches another or not. is that compelling enough to cause it to manifest.. It is only a matter of time. that is not necessarily how things work. quite a bargain indeed. Unfortunately. You offered some Beyond Imagination works since 2002 for sale at the Beyond Imagination website. So long as we are willing and able to bring it forth. Maybe it is doing that. Further. It doesn't matter whether I am paid for it or not. Though I would prefer to derive my abundance in this fashion. Yes. That is not an easy thing to do. Yes. The world still operates from a what's in it for ME mentality rather that a what's in it for WE mentality. but overall to get to our quota seems to be a matter of putting our five hours in. They create the entire stage on which the game of life is played. This applies not only to individuals. It takes your decision to be here and participate. we can control how much time we give to this expression. ME to WE is not such a dramatic shift.

on what we intend to give rather than on what we hope to receive. what purpose does greed serve? One thing that will need to be addressed as we move to a new world order is what is fair? At the very least. the consequences of our choices are translated into the very circumstances that we experience. dictate is a strong word. They sell what others are in the market to buy. health care. This is why we came into this existence. This is what we do that has meaning. surely spirit can see that. it is not just circumstances. we are open to doing whatever we must do as well to facilitate this. Also. we need to be sure to never take more than we give. But. clean water. it is important that as we do this we maintain a focus on service. But. It is our choices and actions that tell the universe that we are serious. we are willing to do what we can in this area.. To some degree it is correct.. Our world can be abundant. The universe ensures that the flow is maintained. education. we have to get our beliefs in order. nutritious food. And. it is consequences. Nor do we have to tolerate greed. deep within our soul. The trick to reality creation is making choices that result in desirable consequences.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 Checked file size. our conscious beliefs and our other than conscious beliefs. Once our beliefs are in order. About the only thing that we desire to do with our life is to engage in the Beyond Imagination endeavor. The circumstances that we face will to some degree drive what we are able to do and what we are able to create.. Fortunately. safety. there should be a level of services that everyone in the world is entitled to. Psych-K is a technology that can assist in doing that. at some level these are the same . We may be able to serve as a surrogate for the collective consciousness that helps us to address some of the mass beliefs that are disempowering or conflicting. we still have a ways to go. going to a Psych-K practitioner is beyond what many might be able to afford. what do we do about things beyond this? What do we do about such things as those in the developed nations are accustomed to? In some cases. companies that supply arms to support insurrections in countries around the world. Though. This is ultimately what we are here to do. Nothing else gives us the sense of contribution. When will we learn that war is always LOSE/LOSE? When will we learn that there are always other alternatives? When will we learn that PEACE is always the answer? It is clearly 19 . just as surely. Hmm . We don't have to tolerate poverty. we can leave to spirit and universal forces. Nothing else gives us the sense of service. but is it in the best interest of the collective to allow this. she will facilitate our being able to do it.. Massive giving by everyone leads to abundance for all. Unfortunately. in a world of abundance. The greatest thing that we can give is who we are and those services that we can provide using our greatest abilities and talents.. employment. entitled to by virtue of being a member of the human family. we know that our desired commitment may be flawed even though much of it came via this stream of consciousness. The receiving will happen. It is all a matter of time. In any event. in a world where all needs are met . If we can see that. That is OK. Where do we learn how to do this? First. Nothing else gives us the sense of meaning and purpose that we find here. shelter. these have been acquired to the detriment of others. Do we continue to allow this? For instance. We're thinking of such things as clean air. clothing. But. I though twice about it but used it anyway. However. The circumstances that arise in our life will dictate what level of commitment is required in response to them. Wars of any type are of the same ilk. Further. However. Yes. we have to be willing to make choices and take actions consistent with those beliefs. Giving leads to abundance. though that may be tougher to eliminate. We know that. We hope to be able to help with that in the near future and offer at least some of the benefits without the associated cost as one of our Beyond Imagination services. It is within our power to eliminate it. How. It is simply a matter of when..

it is not clear that alternatives are in the works . when I say I. undifferentiated and unaware of ourselfs apart from others. it will be precisely what it needs to be. WE create our own reality. In fact. a spiritual plan for the evolution of the expression of consciousness in flesh. You may work for things that no one else even knows you are working for. we are to do what we know to be right regardless of the consequences. Not to worry. That is just your nature and the nature of your task.He works hard for it. Some people seem unaware of what is right under a given set of circumstances. wishing. We are to do what we must do regardless of the consequences. It is curious. doesn't this function remain despite the nature of any awakenings we experience. giants in thoughts and in deeds.. Why is ego such a negative word for me? Does it not have a useful function of being the part of us that interprets physical reality? And.. they have uplifting messages. Those are the parts that will be revealed to you. Some you will. we need to realize that it is the answer NOW. But. Will I be able to live up to their examples? Perhaps.. It is simply a matter of choosing to do them and doing them. Similarly. It seems no matter what we do we cannot escape our ego. Ego is another 576 word. What is is what is. Everything is happening in accord with a plan. Yet I stand on the shoulders of giants that preceded me . Some of their efforts are known. I am moved to follow the path that spirit sets for me and leave this stream of consciousness as a marker of where I have been. in your isolation. we will be moving you to do the work that you do. there are those in the world whose energies are not aligned with this. most you will not. But. it is WE.. I is Wayne. how does ego fit into the picture. and consciousness and soul for that matter. It is what allows our individual focus. From that standpoint. It has a picture of the Dalai Lama and says something to the effect: Peace . but it is more important to me that I make my own way.. In fact. Yet. my ego is huge. Because of that. doesn't mean that they are not there. and imagining. and quite apart at that. but they are not advertising anything. or. if they are that they are working. we would be an ocean of consciousness. and follow whatever path spirit guides me to take. because Wayne will reveal them to you when you have a need to know. Will others find my path and choose to walk it for awhile? It is my hope that they would. It has no part in these plans.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 the answer for the Aquarian Age. choosing. Just because you have not encountered them. How are they to be dealt with? The war on terror does not appear to be one that we are winning despite the amount of resources that are committed to it. But. These are always things that we can choose to do.. Yet. I am here believing. Yet. But. I is many things. There is a sign on a billboard near your home. Other people just choose to do things in their own self-interest regardless of whether they are right or not. From the middle out it is Geo = the world. at least for those parts of the plan that pertain to you. not I. acting. However. our separation from the collective. at present. Some people are unaware of what they must do.. there is a lot that you have not encountered. to end the hatred .. There are indeed people working to end the violence. I am here experiencing what I am experiencing in the moment. There are far more people playing instrumental roles in bringing about a new age than you know... All of 20 . you as Wayne participated in the creation of this plan. I is spirit and me. If not for the ego. It is not what is to be. There are several billboards like this in your area . this does not seem to happen on a regular basis in the world. there is nothing it can do to sabotage what is to be. However. what am I referring to now. we will know. This is all beyond the conscious ME that you know. I stand apart from everyone . Love and peace go a very long way toward the establishment of a new world order. it is not singular in any way. it remains to be seen whether that will happen or not. But. Until then. to bring in a new era of peace and tolerance. there is a sense that I have indeed done what I must do. Whether others find it or not.

As a result. People need to know firsthand that they are spirit enfleshed. We don't know its peoples. we need to be ethical. there is a lot of information at our 21 . We would create the foundations for a new world. What I need to know to carry out my mission I will know or be fed. we need to be loving. We don't appear to be treating the collective as a complex system. Perhaps it should. we need to be kind and respectful of one another. We've already expressed substantially more than we did yesterday. We don't appear to be studying the collective as a complex system. at the same time there is nothing that we have to force.. The United Nations was set up as a loose Federation of Nations. collectively. more and more of it resides in our communications technology. But. It is a matter of choice. we need to be accepting and inclusive. this is not a competition. behavior. A new age is at hand. To date. That does not mean that we have to be perfect. Further. The old age is coming to an end. We don't know its cultures. but we know little to nothing about that world. We are all human .. It is for us to establish the character of that new age. The possibilities are wide open. I could research things that pertain to building the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh. Right now. we know a lot about all of these things. and in the internet that spans the planet. not religious education. if anything. about. we make mistakes.. perhaps even millennia. my sense is that we are never given problems without being given the means to resolve those problems. what is called for is spiritual education . But. It's just that the knowledge doesn't reside in any one of us. a matter of choosing to break down the conditioning and instituting new behaviors.. we need to be tolerant of diversity. That is OK. In this case. But. even there. and reality that is beyond anything experienced by any individual or group of individuals. At the very least. This is something that I could get into if I were doing this full time. It won't be righted by establishing more laws or beefing up law enforcement. What else do we have? Then again. this collective is loosely organized with many organs that are distinct and separated from one another. we need to live in a society that expects people to do the right thing. That does not matter. But. We don't know its geography. one way or another. We have to turn them into probabilities and then into reality. However. We simply have to allow it to unfold as spirit has planned. Yet. it does not seem to have either the power or the resources to take this on. We don't appear to be engineering the collective as a complex system. we need to take ownership of the problems and dedicate the right resources to their resolution. Some of this conditioning has happened over centuries. However. And. Perhaps the problems are too big. No. we need to be moral. We need to be all of these things and more. Or I could ask questions and have others on our team do the research and feed me the information. a deficiency in the fundamental spiritual training of people. Our only hope is that something of utility comes forth from our musings. perhaps I don't know enough about what it is and what it does. Spiritual shortfalls require spiritual solutions. many problems plague our world. it is not our individual choices that are creating the reality that we experience. The organism that is all humankind exhibits properties. not from every sentence. we may have to think outside the box to find the solutions. Though. some of which threaten the existence of all of us. I know that I am moved to express. There are a lot of things that I know very little. however. At a world level. big problems some of which threaten the existence of many of us. We don't know its history. We can be all of these things.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 this is a spiritual shortfall. spiritual education. Who takes ownership for the world? I know of no body that does that. but from enough of the sentences to make this worth reading. Because of this. it seems that we have no choice. People need to know firsthand how to contact the source within that knows what is right for them. There is no prize that we are out to win.

we relish in it. do either do so with a full consideration of and appreciation for the consequences of their actions? From where I am sitting. And. Now. If we are truly to create the foundations for a new world. Interesting. I have worked for the Air Force or for Air Force contractors for nearly all of my working life. You have given your whole life to us. We don't regret that decision one iota. it seems that they have no choice but to fight. We just have to know how to find it. I was never in a situation of being forced to go to war. Give it time..2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 fingertips. Had we provided you with resources earlier. Though. In fact. There is much that is yet to come through. but also one that you will hold yourself to. we don't hold them accountable in this manner. This person will have the resources and connections to make a difference. Yet. it is as if we have no control over the matter.. Congress declares war. Fortunately. perhaps even each and every day. You are ready to do that now. not before. my preference has been to go to inner sources.. and you have made a commitment .. do what 22 .. But. Don't get ahead of yourself. however. Things will happen when the time is right. In this regard. We can extrapolate that this might be right for others as well. We know that it is the right decision for us at this time. how do we know whether to seek that information from inner or outer sources? Clearly. What we have set for the Beyond Imagination endeavor is small potatoes by comparison. even if we don't know its exact size. it is their duty. Yet are there no absolute rights and wrongs that apply to us all? It seems that war is one of these. 5 April 2009 That was quite some musing yesterday. at some point we will need to interface with people in a position to commit the necessary resources to make that happen. Each step leads to the next. We only know what is right for us. you wouldn't have been as moved to continue your work as you have. One step at a time. This is spirits domain. some of the systems that I have worked on supported getting various space related services to the warfighters. you also have much to teach.. here you are with your special awareness and limited resources. You still have much to learn. it seems not. and to potentially enable us to make a difference. Though there is always a chance that some of our ideas could be picked up and carried by one or more major players. that is not a problem. it shows what we are capable of . and in particular. we simply cannot know what is right for them.. it shows that spirit has a lot to express through us. how do we know what information we need to carry out our mission? And. it seems wrong somehow to expect so much. but since we do not walk in their shoes or their consciousness. for those employed as soldiers in the defense of their country . Now. but even then. we just need to follow the path one step at a time.. It is enough to get us in the game. for those that they put in harms way. We haven't thought that far ahead. Don't be in such a hurry. and not after. I can start with a dozen lightworkers. one that we will hold you to. There is much that you do not know. and the Executive branch carries it out. Though. Allow it to unfold. We don't need to know where we are headed to get there . There are many with resources who lack your awareness. But. And. Though. at some point that may not suffice either. you will be surprised by who some of your students are. That was necessary. yet we expect it nonetheless. But. The first connection into the world that we are to ultimately impact will be our benefactor. and we have given control of our life to her. So. That should suffice for awhile. but it is probably not enough to make us a major player. it seems necessary to establish an interface with the world. Though. But.. But.. who makes it their duty? It is those officials that have a responsibility for what they do . Though I did spend a lot of years reading a lot of metaphysical books.

we suspect that will include coming here to express. In particular. That is what you do. You know that. we will see what we are moved to do next. that might bring up a warning sign . yet it requires all the light that is within you to accomplish. we just weren't as explicit about it. We can think to two extreme ways for this to occur . serving the world. I know that it is not all wishful thinking. Either way will work. For ideas. other than to leave the military when my education related commitment was up. For many. Yet. I was doing my jobs to the best of my ability. you would not have come to this planet if it were not for this. Further. and the light of others as well. a mission that goes far beyond us alone but stretches out to all of humanity and the world. Now.. This is an awesome responsibility that you have accepted. you may be moved to do some such things.. of service to society and the world.. it may be a small difference. nearly all of it has been an inward journey.. That seemed to be the only choice that I had.. For the seed to be nourished and grow into something that can change the world will require resources. Continue to do what you are moved to do. We accept that. But. Effectively. either from a ground swell from the masses. my new job allowed me to more freely express who I was. I went to a defense company that worked for the same military office.. Trust. Yet. in my work. In particular.. Down to three days to my birthday and counting. that could be considered as a very selfish way to live. We have embarked on a grand journey. That is your contribution. to life your life as you are pleased to live it. Will that always be the case? The inner will always 23 . in my world. it is a grand contribution. There are many things that we could choose to do next. And. It is not for you to be concerned with what others think. Though.. We have a mission to accomplish. That is how you operate at your finest. At this point. there is nothing more that you need to do to facilitate this. But. There is something to this. it was more consistent with my beliefs at the time. it does not matter that we know precisely how we serve the world. what matters is what we actually choose to do now.. At the moment. it is a matter to live YOUR life. and by serving spirit. This is nothing to take lightly . Keep the ideas coming. There is so much that I desire to change in my life. and in the world. We have given our whole life to spirit.. that somehow what we do is making a difference. even in the office environment. Does that make me one step removed? It did it my eyes. perhaps even hardly noticeable except to us.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 extent do I hold myself accountable for what I have done? I hadn't really though about it in this way. Allow your other than conscious forces to get the ideas into the minds of those who are ready to receive them. that generally requires that they get into the right minds. that would be true if you were not already devoted to living a life of service. But. Though we also know that we cannot do it alone. It will indeed happen. What will happen remains to be seen. or from an acceptance and backing from those at the top. And. that is to come here to express. I didn't go very far. At this point. as well as a great deal of others that we have yet to consider. After that. what no one but you can do. You've had a remarkable journey to make it this far. we know that we will love what we are asked to do regardless. Though. Somehow. Our team of twelve working for us part time may suffice for awhile. And. It is enough to have the sense within that we do . Yet. You have a remarkable journey ahead of you. those presently in power. That is our primary means of serving spirit. This is our life NOW. The right ideas in the right minds can promote action that changes the world. We will continue to do that through Easter. we had done this decades ago. but clearly that can only plant the seed. We know that. You are doing precisely what YOU need to do . Though. small differences can make a big difference over time.

we're talking about substantial numbers of hours. but acceptable. we have a significant amount of free time. not the masterpiece that it could be. Back after a many hour break. we can't help but to imagine what we could do if all of our time were free time. This may result in you making different choices in the future. It is just a matter of devoting ourself to it for the rest of the day. That is what matters to me. That does not 24 . you have some choice as to how. We have assumed that we needed to engage in the Beyond Imagination expression on a half time basis to generate the income we need for our own financial freedom and to fund the Beyond Imagination endeavor at a minimal level. you have chosen this to be very little. But. It depends on how you choose to interact with others. Though. the nature of that life is dramatically different between the two alternatives. There will be something special about them that you can notice if you tune to the right state of consciousness. Here. it seems that there are things that I could do to change it. Spirit will ensure that what needs to be done through you is indeed done through you. completely free. not great.. There is still a lot of musing to do to reach our goal for the day. you reality has been acceptable to you . At the very least. Hmm . Though.. Everything else is window dressing. though this expression is where the two collide and become one in year world. Then. Financial freedom and a paying job would be a big relief for her. you choose. one to help with our web page. nor do we expect any. But.. what we know is that we have the ability to choose what we will do with our free time. That makes three that we have in mind. we have created a birthday wish for the circumstances that allow us to realize a commitment that has been six months in the making. This is where the inner reveals itself and becomes known to not only the outer you but to others as well.. Perhaps that is not a correct assumption. Perhaps that will always be the case. not what you wish for it to be . You have some choice as to the degree to which you bring others into your life. To date. Until then. The choices just alter the path that you take along your journey. we have no men in mind. Yes. that's interesting. That is OK. We've started to engage our wife in some of our dreams. and our wife to do a number of things that she does. We will know quality spiritual / metaphysical services when we experience them. Yet. perhaps not. Either way our life goes on. Though some choices may be more elegant than others. spirit comes forth as the divine feminine for me. one to help with Psych-K services. We have not asked for that before. that could easily change when we start our interviews. But. Thus far. Perhaps we have earned the right to be free. Whatever choices you make will be right for both you and for us. but close. we can concern ourself with that when the time comes. It helps if you choose these when you can. The biggest difference comes in having the resources to buy the part time services of a dozen lightworkers. and perhaps a numerologist. Three down and nine to go.. Will our birthday wish come true? It may or it may not. This is still where you operate at your finest. That is a pretty austere way to live.. it is a matter of finding people with abilities and skills that we do not even know exist yet. But. to date. Instead. It is what it is. your circumstances are about to change as the result of the consequences of your choices and actions. You just don't choose to do it all of the time. Is it any surprise that I would have a preference for women lightworkers? Though. That is something that we have never been able to do before except for a session here and there over the years. Not quite as different as night and day. She is definitely one of the lightworkers we would choose to employ on a half time basis. You know how to do that.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 be more important to you than the outer. Yes. For you. Are you willing to live with acceptable? I'm willing to live with whatever is necessary that gives me the freedom to do my spiritual work on a regular basis. there are no bad choices. And aside from a few chores. we need a spiritual astrologer.

Once higher faculties of mind and of consciousness are developed.. but in Wayne. Wayne is who we are. At the same time. This is what we live for. but that is one that is subservient to the higher Self. Yet. Perhaps it is a matter of ego and illusion. how do I do that? Primarily through experiencing the world through what I believe. There must be a way to manifest our hopes and dreams. But. That means finding something that you truly love and doing it in a way that serves. But. We speak as if we are separate. Yet. Though. the higher Self is in control. we don't know what we would do without the Beyond Imagination endeavor in our life. to what do we refer? What is this thing we call me? The first thing that comes to mind is ego. it will continue be so for the rest of our life. the ego may be difficult to contain. We have always been free. Though. each and every one of us. How do we translate that into sufficient abundance to live well? We must find a way to put who we are into what we do.. it is not just us doing this. everything that is coming forth comes forth from Wayne. how? We can't just walk away. There must be a way to share whom that we are with the world in a way that provides service. But. the whole self knows. It is used to being in control . To change our experience. That means more than finding a vocation and a job. Beyond Imagination has been an active part of our life for over 16 years now. There must be a way. It is used to having its way. we have placed upon ourselves. It can be. In fact. we would be beholden to no one else. Though. The ego has its rightful place in the scheme of things.. in reality. what are my motives? What drives me to do what I do? What drives me to want what I want . we must change our beliefs. truly realizing what I am worth and manifesting that abundance in my life. Before the past few months. Can we manifest that? Can we manifest our liberation? Is it something that we even have to manifest? Or. That means more than punching a clock. we are priceless. It is a noticeable change in how I interact with spirit and with the things of the world. We can choose to be free of them. All of the burdens that we believe that we have. But. the ego is in control. what am I worth? I am worth the value of the services that I am able to provide. From everything we can tell. Then again. to desire what I desire? How do we know when any of this comes from our ego self versus our authentic Self? We know by asking the question who is being served now? If it is me. When we speak of me. we would have a great one to spirit herself. priceless. This is what makes our day. Yes. is it something that we simply realize? We are free already. This applies to all of us. When it is operating. There is something wonderful about knowing that you are doing what you are meant to do. valuable beyond measure. There must be a reason for this. that doesn't matter. We know that this is indeed our calling. every single moment. here and now. I have chosen to dream and wish for more things in the past six months than I did in the entire half a century before that. spirit and me. That doesn't mean to imply that this is negative. spirit and me. but more in the sense that an unmanageable child is in control. There must be some reason that I am doing it now. There must be a way to make our wishes come true. I had never been moved to do such a thing. We have been ONE every moment of this expression. it is time 25 . I am more tied to the things of this world than I believe myself to be. Indeed. the part of us responsible for interpreting individual physical reality. Perhaps. there must be a way to live in abundance. There must. The ego cannot hide its ways. It is spirit doing this through us. But.. There must be a way.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 mean that we would have no obligations. but it doesn't have to be. at least in economic terms. we are one. I have it down to how I would spend most of the money that constitutes the value of this expression to date. If it is spirit or others. it could be a matter of realizing. We have to live. Are we doing that here? Are we doing that in the Beyond Imagination endeavor? We know that we are.

we know that 2012-2013 is the time for a breakpoint for the world. And. Interesting. That will be a wonder to behold. Perhaps this is something that we shall never know. It is then that the authentic Self that we are comes out to play. It is then that one is guided by spirit. by consciousness. we know not what that work will be. It is that simple. it is able to cooperate with the other parts of the being. that has to be enough. At this point. It has been since it was born in 1993. You always have choice. but something said that was not right. Indeed. You say that you give your whole life to spirit. spirit herself came to mind. if we could be doing this full time. Though.. It will be interesting to see what these four years will bring. It is then that the higher journey of life truly begins. we have the period ending with our birthday in April 2013. There is nothing wrong with making right choices. we don't need to know what that will be.. What we do know is that all of this comes forth as a stream of consciousness.. In four years. Perhaps it needs to be enough that we can engage in it and bring it forth. But. They could very well be the years in which the Beyond Imagination endeavor spreads its wings and flies. a wonder that you and your team will have created. What lies on the other side of that breakpoint is beyond anything anyone can predict. after that it is not clear that this is what I need to be doing with my life. There is nothing wrong with knowing what is right for you under a given set of circumstances. That is. It is just that most of the time you know what is right and you choose that. we can more than double the amount of the Beyond Imagination expression to date. we will know. perhaps even 11 million. That would be quite some achievement.. that would be Wayne. Who is the one expressing here? I thought the answer would be Wayne.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 for the ego to take its rightful place. We only know that all that we have done and all that we are to do in the next four years is preparing us for what is to come. When we need to know. The correct answer is Wayne. We would have in excess of 10 million words . that is why I feel the need to fund our team of 12 26 . For the one expressing here. We know.. even then. the one expressing here is not conscious of all that Wayne knows. Much of it he does not see until it is expressed here. In the moment. There is always a need to interpret physical reality. At this point we can't even imagine what else we might be doing. that is best done when it is guided by the light of the higher Self.. For what end? Doing for the sake of doing. Beyond Imagination is a creation of Wayne. At this point. that is enough for now. what will be the wind beneath our wings? Hmm . That is the first time we've even considered that as an option. How long will I be able to continue doing this? I would hope at least another four years. In our commitment. But this is not correct. At least. In the moment. Here is where you get to prove it with your choices and actions. What we don't know is how that stream of consciousness is created. At that point we can assess what we are moved to do next. But. that still involves being engaged in this expression. Though there is no sense that we will be able to rest on our laurels. Hmm . But that is far ahead in the future. Four years until 2013. it is alright. For me. That involve walking your talk. but that answer did not come. you would not be moved in the way that you are. There us a sense that that would be enough. it only stays in his memory for a brief moment. Rather there is a sense that then the real work begins. at times you feel as if you have no choice. You are still developing spiritual discipline. our job is to focus on the moment and to do what we are moved to do in that moment. It is important that you do this. That still involves bringing forth what would come forth. Yet we continue to express nonetheless. When the ego sees that its needs are being met. But. If it were not important. But. Doing because spirit so moves you and you choose to do what she moves you to do.

6 days per week. Whether any of the things that I do actually work or make a difference time will tell. It has always been poor. letter by letter. That sent a shiver through my head and upper body. Though it can slow down and pause at times. I make choices. That is OK. I am doing that now to the degree that I am able. It is all in the moment. who I am and what I do would be different as well. we will be able to continue funding our lightworkers. And. Things are what they are. At some point. Whether they result in manifestation or not is another matter entirely. abilities. Our proceeds from the Beyond Imagination works to date would be sufficient to pay for the first year of services of our 12. I was given these special gifts. That is something. Yes. I am resigned to allow my life to unfold as it will. Actually. I haven't needed anything. In fact. Though. work by work. However here I share who I am in a manner that many can experience . The bipolar medications result in some serious shaking especially in my left arm and hand. We can handle it.. That is OK. such is my preference. I came forth in this very expression. Though. it may not be me doing the teaching. 50 weeks per year makes for a lot of writing. this may impact my ability to type. we don't always get our preferences. It is not a burden.5 million words each year. are we to question them? It seems that all 27 . Spirit is responsible to support me. but it is one that we accept freely. Already. it really is. For this expression. We have yet to experience the stream of consciousness coming to an end. Stream of consciousness writing is the grandest writing I am capable of. sentence by sentence. Writing is what we do. That reason is to serve spirit as only I can serve her. word by word. But.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 lightworkers. it is not clear whether that is due to us or due to the writing process. it results in more typos and corrections than I've even had to make before. and $1 per word for future expression for at least three years but preferably four. We can establish contracts for one year of services at a time. and to be who I was created to be in the process. But they aren't. set preferences. $1 per word for expression to date. We believe that we can do that. Yet. And. It just doesn't happen. many of them. It puts a major constraint on us. Maybe it doesn't matter. at the same time. if it were not in the moment.. My hope is that I might be able to help teach others to do the same. that I have everything that I need. In fact. Signing up to do it for 5 hours per day. I can get by via keeping enough of a context associated with anything that I work on. many that I will never meet or even hear from. all of these things I was moved to do. paragraph by paragraph. it is an obligation. but I don't remember forgetting things so quickly in the past. If they were different. take actions. I'm also concerned about my memory. I am concerned about some things about my health. My sense is that I am to share who I am in person with a relatively small group. Yet. So. We are onto something here. it may be Beyond Imagination. That is something important. Maybe it's part of my training to stay in the present. If we generate and sell 1. there is a way out if things don't work out. I know that I wouldn't be able to. but I am responsible to support others. they have already made a difference. I can live my life in such a fashion. and make wishes. The responsibility is something that I freely accept. we could live with that. I don't think that I would be able to do it. what does that say about the process of reality creation? When a stream of consciousness comes forth and utters pronouncements. musing by musing. what are we to make of that? Are we to believe them? Are we to accept them as true? Or. If they were meant to be different they would be. and talents for a reason. I felt better for doing them. Actually. There is a sense that I am to support the work of the team. I would be an active part of what unfolds in my life. And. we would like to make it a condition on our birthday wish.

Circumstances will change. We can do anything for four years.. Peace is always the answer. it will be more than isolated countries. We know so little about reality creation. It is time for us to wake up and realize. we ain't seen nothing yet . even that does not work unless it is spirit that is doing the moving. even if no one believed. not even close. wants. The critical question however is not if. it will require a world peace. Don't get me wrong. Love is always the answer. a lot about Wayne. Hmm .. we are committing to five more hours of Beyond Imagination work each day. it does not seem that this will change anytime soon. But.. and desires. that is not quite right. we can do some wonderful things with technology. it doesn't matter what is apparent. Some of these things are harmful to themselves. and keep at it throughout the day. I 28 . and we need them on a regular basis. Working full time for Beyond Imagination. It all comes down to doing what we are moved to do when we are moved to do it. And then see what marvels are created. Further. And it will indeed get what it so desperately needs. Literally. even the most awakened among us. It is only a matter of time. just as reading some metaphysical books has done. However. But. This expression reveals a lot about us. but who others are.. does it also serve as a mirror to reflect something about who you. Through these doorways lies a better tomorrow for all of us. From what is apparent. Now. every day. How many people are working on reality creation. Where I ultimately need to be is at the very step on the path that I am currently on. This time it will be the whole world. In fact. People will demand it. Yet. Living in the moment. we can't beat the potential stored in each of the six billion plus souls on the planet. We don't need to know where the path has been. Not all of this help arises in the moment. For most people. so very little. this is all that we can do. nor where it is headed. The earlier we reach our quota. Yet. We need to get started early. But even then. Some of these things are downright selfish. some of these things are harmful to others. That is what we need to unleash. We need new inputs.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 three of these are in order depending on what comes forth. both individually and en masse. Down to the final stretches for today. What matters is what is going on at other than conscious levels. It will be difficult to reach our five hour quota if we take time out for substantial breaks during the day. truly realize not only who we are. the stimulus of interacting with other lightworkers will give us more material for this expression. We only need to know where we are right now. are. That is where all of the real answers are. but God helps those who help themselves. this is not the case at all. the vast majority probably do not believe that they create their own reality. Though. But. They are not looking in the right areas and they have the wrong set of tools. what a world we would create.. especially if we are living abundantly.. and how to find the place within that guides us as to where to take the next step. are not our lives to be more than that? Planning can help us to be prepared for what may come ahead. It is the only thing that makes any sense. And there. Maybe that is what is in store for 2013 and beyond. Every step I take takes me one step closer to where I ultimately need to be. the reader. that wouldn't change the fact. the sooner our free time can begin. not just for themselves but for the whole world? This is not something science and technology will discover. it also is a choice that I do not trust spirit enough to provide for me in the moment in each moment. we would have that. and it will not require a world war to manifest. it is how? If we can figure out how and apply it to the whole human race. Hmm . We need this stimulus. They are driven to do things from their needs. We are all sleeping giants in spirit. This is true always. This time. there simply is not enough time. The right tool is consciousness. the mass psyche is desperately in need of a revolution.

. life is not a conscious process. That is our job now. we haven't reached a point where abundance flows forth from any of this except an abundance of words. Yet. This generally involves taken on "difficult" lifetimes. Though. Here we have the potential to impact others and the world. There are things that we can do to hasten our journey. There is nothing else that comes close. When we set our heart and mind on something.. we have even set our soul on the commitment that we would choose to make. work that we can do that no other can do. That has been our job for over sixteen years. But. Though. Spirit does not expect us to sacrifice ourselves for her. That is just the way that it is. But. We have only to continue to be who we are and to express what we are moved to express. we are to do the work first. it is a series of other than conscious processes.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 would hope that it does. We choose everything. Though you feared the judgment of others anyway. But. No. we can't focus on the exchange. If we look within. we need to develop social infrastructures that allow us to find what it is and do it in a way that serves others in exchange for our abundance. It takes many incarnations to learn these lessons. Though she does expect us to live our lives for her. My birthday wishes are still intact in all their glory. Down to two days until my birthday. We can try . we have not made this easy. Indeed. we choose these as well. we don't typically do this consciously. you were your own harshest critic. God has no need to judge us for our deeds. That doesn't guarantee that the conditions will come true for it to manifest. that seems to be something that we cannot do on our own. That is our sign that we have found it. it is not by anything that I am consciously embedding in it. Though. generally.. We consider this expression to be the most important work that we do by far. Spiritual and universal law will see that we reap what we sow. not as far back as we can 29 . Indeed. She will see to it that we get what we need. this does not necessarily happen in any one existence. I have no clue as to how all of this is created. but we are just getting started and there are still six days to go.. if it does. Though. Yes. We don't have to do it all. We only have to do our part to the best of our ability. there is no stopping us. Why should that be any different for our spiritual work. Here. There are many on the planet who could be called to assist. We were designed for the very purpose of carrying out this work. Whether they will be granted or not depends on whether we have been reasonable in our request. Though typically. That is OK. There is no one our there to judge us but us. We have many lessons to learn as spirit in flesh.. we know that we can do it. It doesn't have to be.. we expect to be compensated for the work that we perform. but it is not clear that our individual expression will ever be enough. We do this by being who we are and allowing spirit to express through us to the degree. there is a sense that we are in spirits employ now. it shouldn't. Nor am I privy to who the intended audience might be. That is OK. Though. For the most part. we will find the work that is ours to do . We will know what that part is and we will know whether we are doing it to the best of our abilities. And it may even be that we are called to assist someone else. You have know that all of your life. We are moved to do it anyway. neither were we moved to make it so. We haven't had a birthday wish before . and who is in a position to grant them. 6 April 2009 We have made it to day four. When we are doing it we will find our bliss. But. Lightworkers deserve abundance just as everyone else. In reality however. we have done that for quite some time. Though.

Clearly it will take the work of more than one individual to do this. But.. or is that only our perception of things? The first answer that came to mind was it is our perception . That is OK. But. And. What must be expressed will be expressed.. Our true reality is that we are always a masterpiece. We are off to a slow start today. we are free to change our masterpiece to be anything we wish for it to be. how do we 30 . So it is for those who have given their whole life to spirit. but not very often. one that I've experienced before. Though. My mind is in a very strange state . There is no part that is wasted. that is all that we foresee in the immediate future. Though. is that true. not in accord with our own. This has something to do with reality creation. Last night was different somehow. it is not clear that we will make it to our goal today. My goals for the quantity of expression are still there. in this case. even there. She knows this already.. though I know not how long that will last. Though. And. That. We are spirit in flesh. To date. It is wholly unnecessary. the masterpiece that we are may not be to our liking. Though. and a big one at that. We are the artist. Right now. how do we apply that in ways that help others. We so desire to be engaged in the Beyond Imagination endeavor on a full time basis. We have a window of opportunity to do work that will impact the world in a major way. that would be a starting point.. spirit would find them through us. Creating the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh. Yet. our life is far from a masterpiece. Why we are moved to make one this year. Yet. we have done so by choosing to engage in this expression. If we could create a masterpiece of our own life. we are for a purpose. It will be interesting to see how that impacts this expression or even if I am able to continue it as I am accustomed to. That investment will reap benefits. Right now. That would illustrate that we know what we are talking about. But.. I'm still here. There is no part that is extraneous. It is already 7 PM and we've probably only made it through a quarter of what we intend to express. We just need her to point it our to us through us. the only thing keeping me awake is the Provigil. Nor does it matter.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 remember anyway. it will take the work of more than one individual surrounded by a team of twelve. is meant to serve spirit in some way.. Generally. it is a divine purpose. it no longer matters whether I meet them or not. We wouldn't have to find them . We will express what we will. in accord with the dictates of consciousness. We speak of a lot of things here. This has something to do with walking our talk. part of our whole life is our very will. too. I don't know why. it is always our perception. as with art. We shall see. beyond four years. That investment has the potential to provide the resources that we need to do this. Yet. we strongly believe that it will nonetheless. What does it take to enable us to do that? We've been asking for this in a big way for the past six months. how would we find the ones that most directly resulted in what we were able to manifest. Can we create our own opportunity? To some degree. Everything that we are. with the lack of sleep and our strange state of mind . Clearly.. our of the millions of words expressed here. Didn't sleep all night last night even with the lunesta. generally when I travel. we need opportunity to go with that window of opportunity to carry out what we know is ours to do. I'm struggling. We have all night to go. Sometimes it just happens. Though. That is mission of Beyond Imagination. who knows? But. That is usually a danger sign to me. But what do we really know. and even then. this is not a knowingness for us.. we do not foresee anything at all. Today. we were. Though. there are no indications or signs that what we wish for will indeed manifest. That is too rigid of a constraint to place on consciousness.

Though the later two are contained in the first. It is not likely. Then again. It shouldn't have to be this way.. but it is . There was just an ad on the radio for the Peace Corps that spoke of building communities around the world. But. That is OK. me . what we wish to be. but how do we know that for sure? We are bringing forth works from Wayne. Even after years of study and several spiritual awakenings. when the vacation is over. Perhaps that is the closest that I shall ever come. We think about it every day.. What makes us think these works have utility? Is that even our call to make? It seems that utility is determined by the consumer of the work. who other than ourself do we serve. Though. Though. even then it is a transitory thing. the Beyond Imagination expression could definitely be for my eyes only. it still seems that we know not who we are. what are we actually doing that makes a difference in anyones life but our own? We say that we are serving spirit and serving the world via this expression. It is as if it has already become a reality in our life. how do we ask Wayne anything and how do we know when the response is coming from Wayne? When this expression is not coming from Wayne. That would be other than me. And. we are back to needing to do the work for which we are compensated in order to pay the bills. as if thinking about it will somehow make it come about. We took a vacation for a week and choose to express five hours per day as if we were doing this for a living. By comparison. the amount of quotable material that is expressed seems to be an indication of the quality of the expression. There are people making a difference everywhere we look. acting as if only takes us so far. dealing with our states of mind of late has been a bit of a challenge. I don't know how many people are choosing to do this. it is gone from my conscious mind. from whom is it coming.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 turn that potential into a reality? Is that even something that we can do? It seems that here we are at the mercy of spirit and the universe. People in the country are choosing to help others in remote parts of the world. It is enough for me to bring the expression forth and to read it. Thus far. How it does this. works that we have no conscious role in creating. even there. but far less likely things have manifest in the world. even for us. Yet.. to attempt to share it. Wayne determines what is quotable and what is not. but there numbers are substantial enough to warrant a radio ad. I sit and watch it happen as the gems are separated from the rest of the expression. spirit. Perhaps the closest that we can come is to catch a glimpse. Why should anyone other than me read any of this? What does it have to offer them? Ask the originator of this expression. does it seem that I need to know. why should we be an exception? Because we choose to spend a great deal of our free time in service.. the fulfillment that comes from being of service is there.. in my mind these are all distinct. But. We have already imagined how we would transition from our current life to our new life. Nor. We wish it so strongly that we can taste it. Yet. The pay is not great. Also. Though. Yet. indeed it might. We are anxious about what could be . I read this expression and literally within a moment after reading it. But. that doesn't explain the need to share it. How do I look through Wayne's eyes? How do I see what he sees? How do I know what he knows? The closest that I have come to date is to see what is revealed here. Though. That would be Wayne. not the producer. We desire a change in our life and in our work more strongly than we have ever desired anything 31 .. Perhaps we shall never know. Wayne. I don't know. Where would this expression take us next? It seems that it has been awhile since we were on an adventure. I have to trust that whatever I need to know from the expression is somehow registering at other than conscious levels.

I will live the life that Wayne has defined for me . do we even need proof? Ultimately. The next thing was to get some food. there must be something more that I can do.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 before. but it seems that we have some issue to deal with that keeps us from getting peaceful and restful sleep each night. what do I experience. So. There have been many times over the years when we expressed a desire to derive our abundance from our spiritual work. Perhaps that is true for all of us. That does not deter us. sleep is something that we have to awaken from. we need to reach a more empowering state and do it quickly. Perhaps committing to 30 hour weeks of expression is more than is reasonable to expect from us. Perhaps I an still recovering from being out of it all day yesterday.. Yet. It all comes back to being me. At the 32 . feeling. Where can we do that best? How can we do that best? At this point. I guess that happens sometimes. That doesn't make them any less precious or important. Yet. That does not mean that we do not dream. and for those who would be served by the Beyond Imagination endeavor. and our dreams are particularly powerful. Yet.. We do this as if sleep is something bad. Though. The proof is ultimately in the manifestation. but true. The first thing that came to mind was to get some more sleep. Down to one day until our birthday. Without it. the less likely that it seems that what we desire will manifest that quickly. That is what counts. This or something better for the good of all concerned. With my bipolar condition. It is all about the experiences. I experience working and I experience participating in this expression. the more that we do this. in sleep we dream. Sad. I am having a difficult time focusing at the moment. knowing. but by no means is it all that I can do. at the same time we seek spiritual awakenings to take us out of our slumbers. we won't know how compelling it was to spirit until we see what manifests. and consciousnesses do that we are not aware of.. these are few of those things. 7 April 2009 We only made it about half way to our daily goal yesterday. We don't like not being able to muse effectively. Oh well. So. And. The closer that we get. Even with the Provigil and walking the dogs.. we wish it not only for us. minds. it seems that such is unimportant. we can't live without dreaming. I don't know why. Experience is how we encounter the part of reality that we are here to live. sensing. Though. Last night was better. This expression is valuable. my mental state goes out of balance. Thinking. speaking . The bottom line is that we can't muse effectively when we are in this state. it is particularly important. and I will do it gratefully and wholeheartedly. We still don't know why we couldn't sleep. Sleep is important. fully and completely. it is if I am still partially asleep. What makes this time any different? This time we have a compelling offer . The sleep last night was less than stellar. But. for the Beyond Imagination team. we have a difficult time functioning effectively. we believe that we have made a compelling argument as to why we should be allowed to do this. In fact. what does it take to wake up? If the medications will not do it. As far as we are concerned. and it is not clear that it is the grandest thing that I can do. There are many things that our bodies. Our wish is our wish.. though many of us are not aware of our dreams. a compelling service that we are committing to provide. the more doubt that we have as to whether this is truly the right thing for us to do at this time. I experience soaring in consciousness despite the level of medications in my system. What matters is what we are moved to do and what we experience as a result. Yet. Not once has this even come close to being manifest as far as we could tell.. When I can't sleep. Life is about experiences. it really does not matter.

. yet how many of us maintain an attitude of gratitude as we go about our day? I do when I catch myself . There are no separations of the Self. always. I may not know that reason. and perhaps of many lifetimes at that. At the moment. This overall journey is the same for all of us. that may not be precisely true in a given existence. That is OK. What about the billions of people who don't see things as I see them? That does not matter. we know not all that that encompasses. why do we have preferences in how we would like to see things manifest? Why should our preferences matter at all? Why should we prefer on way of being over another? What can I say.. it is as if we are not ourself. we don't always appreciate it as the miracle that it is. To partake of the miraculous nearly each and every day . What I know of Wayne is what is revealed here in this very expression. and there is a reason for it. particularly if we align ourself to consciousness or spirit. is that each of us have tremendous value . we're back.. There is always something to be grateful for .. that is not necessary to carry forth with this expression.. It would be great if this expression were to reach others as well. Yet. Hmm . but that may or may not be in the cards for me in this existence.. We can't imagine not being able to do it. body. From what we experience.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 moment that seems to be the state that we are in. Not that it could happen in any other way. there is something special about that. at this very moment. The expression comes forth as it does. even then. Though. Though life itself is a miracle and we partake of that each moment of each and every day. we are ONE. even at those times when the forces of darkness seemed to be upon us collectively. Let's see what comes forth now. It seems that we have to reach a fairly evolved state of consciousness before such things even concern us. but it takes effort to do this. Yet. It has always been such. I may never know. it is primarily as a state of consciousness that I experience. This just needs to happen in an overall spiritual context. We would do as she directs. how do we know that we are progressing? 33 . I know to be right. Each person has their place within this plan. This is a spiritual world that we live in first and foremost. We may not ever fathom all that Wayne is. Yet. And. at some level. I won't know for sure until I see what unfolds. Spirit is in control of our life now. We speak of Wayne and me if we were two separate entities. but the details are all different. and soul. OK. How do we know who we truly are? Can we ever really know that? This seems to be the journey of a lifetime. Wayne is spirit expressing through us. but we can get an appreciation of this Self that we are. This expression is extremely important to us.. Wayne knows at some level and will reveal it to me if and when I ever have a need to know. much less drive our existence. the whole would not be complete without any member. We are Wayne.. Yet. Whatever that is. There is still a sense that we are on the threshold of a major life change and a major work change. Though. and being able to express as we do here. One thing that we know is that Wayne could generate all of this. through this mind. It does not matter that it may take a miracle to manifest them. We are on an incredible journey from self => Self => SELF. Each is necessary.. What that means overall. There is no reason not to expect others to manifest in our life. Can what we have expressed facilitate this in others? We would hope that it world. we just do. I speak in terms of Wayne because that is what I experience. Our life is still ours to live. This very expression is a miracle. Also. all of this comes forth through Wayne. indeed this seems to be the case. Everything is unfolding in accord with a grand plan. but we won't know until others experience this and relate back what they experience. Clearly others are meant to experience the Self that they are. What I am most grateful for is having spirit in my life. Our work is still ours to do. we are not separate. That is OK..

despite my present state of mind. We have no need to express as others express. Yet. In some respects. I don't need to know what I do not know. Trusting is easy. That is one of the things that Beyond Imagination is here to do. We may not see it yet. Yet. Yes. He has been there with me every step of the way. faith is spirit. We are moved to push through it and allow what would come forth to come forth. Correcting this and the above normal amount of typos is a bit of a nuisance. I sort of just fell into 34 . especially when you consider the alternative. It is just not a Wayne that we know other than from its works. As jobs go. there is still so much that I do not know about so many things. even when I am not directly aware of him. But. Though. Though we might find it difficult especially at first. I know that I can count on it. And. we need only be moved to take the next step. but that doesn't matter.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 We trust that spirit is guiding us every step of the way and that she would not lead us astray. we find it difficult to see how our life would make a difference to the world if the expression does. We don't doubt that it is there. but they could be far worse. but it has been tolerable. my job is reasonably fun. We have only to trust in ourself and in spirit. it is also requires a great deal of faith. Spirit herself. Further. Can we really do that? Can we make such a difference on such a grand scale? We know that we can. a whole new realm of interconnectivity kicks in. Am I grateful for that? I am grateful for the opportunity to work for the compensation needed to meet the needs of my family while having sufficient free time to engage in this expression. And. and they have revealed a lot. Still struggling with my state of consciousness. It's getting better.. and we know that we are Wayne. That is for Wayne to determine. but I find myself dozing off and creating long streams of repeated characters every few minutes. we may not know where we are ultimately headed. we are aware of directly in our life.. that makes my life easy. Incredible cooperation takes place for the world to experience what it does as it does. He knows how our life is meant to unfold. All of our experience of spirit has been of the divine feminine. that does not matter. Yet. It helps to believe in the benign nature of life. At the moment. it doesn't take a lot to make them far better. spirit. In the moment. things are bad overall. This may or may not ever change. The question is when can we do this? When will we be given the opportunity? You create your own opportunities. faith in consciousness is always warranted. At some level you create everything that you experience both individually and en masse. Can we be happy with our present circumstance even if a major life change and major work change does not manifest? We would have to somehow find a way. what has come forth has come forth from Wayne. Yes. That will reveal itself over time. Life has not been great. but there is a reason that the past 13 years of our life have been as they have been. He has planned it from the beginning. it allowed me to pursue what truly mattered to me. we have no need to reach an audience other than ourself. it will be revealed to me in one way or another. But. Though. It is not clear if and when that might change. We would have to re-evaluate what we. And. We wouldn't be there unless there was something being served by it. we know that from the very first day of expression. and others are getting from our present lifestyle. there is still a driving need to do this. if I do. but we do what we have to do to bring forth the expression nonetheless. when we are dealing collective reality. Wayne is masculine. We know that is what we expect of ourself. That is OK. We can always do that . That is just how my life works. There is a need to know principle in operation. We don't relate as well to a masculine spiritual entity that is us. There have been a lot of works.

Our life has been a series of choices that we made and a series of experiences that we had as a result of our choices. But. So. I don't seem to be privy to that. we don't know what we relate. Though it does bring up the question of whether we are meant to do this to the degree that we are committing to. No regrets for anything that you did or for anything that you chose not to do. we are still here. That is where we are allowed to soar. We can only make new choices in the present. At the time. It is what it is. The bottom line is that we make the best choices we can given who we are in the moment and our circumstances. we won't know for certain until something manifests. Regardless. we shall live with them and make the most of them. half a century is gone. before you know it. That is sufficient. If it truly is spirit in control of my life. resources that I have only in potential at the moment. exactly as they need to unfold. there is no going back. It has been that way all of my life. That is how we are meant to live our lives. our state 35 . it is not within our power to grant this wish. when we make a choice. That would be 30 hours of expression per week. for this birthday. Anymore. No regrets. That is OK. that is not enough to stop us. In fact. That is OK. it was important to do that this year. always is a long time. There are always unknowns.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 my job. there is a grander scheme behind all that we do. So. If it is meant to be. then things will continue to unfold perfectly. generally. Though. it seems to have something to do with a need to live in the moment and stay focused on the present step and what comes next. expressing what would come forth labored though it might be. Though. Yet. Whatever they are. We love the unknown. I will be moved to do a lot. We were moved to do it and we did it. For some reason. At the moment. We don't know why that is. it seems that I will always have to live my life in the dark or with blindfolds. Yes. what does come next? The bottom line is that we simply do not know. I do not know for certain. why generate the wish to begin with? We desired to let the universe know what we wished our life and work to be. we know that this is highly unlikely. Though. it seems that far more of this will be in conjunction with others. To some degree. make a masterpiece of it. Then. Things just happened. Yet. we do not know the full consequences of that choice. Be a shining example to others. But. Being predictable is not all that it is cracked up to be. We can never change a choice that we have made in the past. Why this is so. Unfortunately. there were no other alternatives that I was even considering. There is no utility in second guessing ourself. Unfortunately. These make life interesting. This will be the consequences of our choices and actions over the years. when we soar. Surely all of that was not for naught. The words seem more forced than normal and the process for bringing them forth is slower and more error prone. Though. we need to make different choices. that takes resources. Though. We wish to completely change our life and our work as soon as tomorrow. From everything we can tell. it seems like what has worked to date may not be the right way to live the rest of my life. There is always uncertainty. make something wonderful of it. And. Yet. That doesn't mean that I don't have to do anything. it is not clear that we can relate what we find. We thought that it would be easy to express for five hours per day during our ten day break. Life is what you make of it. This is true for everyone. 50 weeks per year. If we want to change our experience. Yet. We have been working on this for over sixteen years. the resources will be there to make it so. that depends. but it has not been as easy to do as we had thought. That is always sufficient for everything that we do. It doesn't matter that we don't know what the reason was. I didn't really plan them. with no regrets. There is still more that would be expressed even if there are more constraints than normal in the expression.

. Though. I would live in relative comfort as I do it. My consciousness is still not right. what is the alternative? What services do we have to offer that are worth more than this. If it is not the Beyond Imagination expression that is to source the Beyond Imagination endeavor. it seems that I would be moved to do so. At present.5 million words per year. Though. It has been that way for sixteen years. It just means that the focus to date has been on the expression. I may not be looking at those circumstances in the right way. That is not to say that we would not express. That doesn't mean that it is not there. Right now. I make it willingly. Then. But. Our next session is a week from Friday. What do I wish to do with my life? Continue to express and carry out the Beyond Imagination mission. what else would I be and what more would I do? It all comes down to finding your bliss and following it. something is still missing from my life. I don't even feel happy. In many ways. Though. other than to my Psych-K practitioner. my life is not my own. Spirit hasn't revealed to us any other value in what we do. And. or will have such an impact in due time. I'm open to spirit or Wayne offering a better way. what does that mean? In my case. then what will? We were counting on the $1 per word value for everything. Our experiences this week suggest that this might be difficult to do. Hopefully our present condition is temporary. Somehow I am meant to be more and do more. One reward for that should be restful sleep. Perhaps. it may also be a sign that we are on the threshold of a breakthrough. We need a full nights sleep to function effectively. We need to create a masterpiece of our life. That would allow me to engage all that I am in service to spirit and the world. It is for me to bring the expression forth and share it in some way. That is what I wish for. If it were. That is enough for me. Though. Neither do I know where to go to help do this . Rather. It does not appear that I can carry it out from my present circumstances. Yet. I don't see how it impacts them. if such were the case. At the moment. We know that they are there. with something other than additional expression. I put in a decent day of work every day.. there is a sense of feeling ill in body and in mind. that means falling to sleep in a matter of minutes rather than hours at night. But. preferably financially free. This expression is close. Either way. five hours per day of expression would not be so extreme. However. Perhaps it never was. But.. Is that too much to ask? That would fulfill my obligations to my family and to spirit. What I feel is dazed. That is my choice. That is not too much to expect. We need to find a way to walk our talk. There is enough material expressed to date to spend years mining it for pearls of wisdom. But. I say that it serves spirit and serves the world. it is not clear that it is up to me to cause the impact. that only works if we can bring forth 1. We have experienced them many times. even when I am noticeably sick. I am meant to share it in a different way than I have to date. Perhaps it is time to generate more practical works that teach others the very principles that we describe. it seems that we need to teach ourself first. that is to express here. I trust that it is either having the impact that it is meant to have. But. how can I know that for sure. I would know. I don't feel blissful. I don't know how to correct it. That is why I am here. Bringing forth this expression is my primary service. But. It is difficult fully expressing spirit in flesh when the flesh is ailing and malfunctioning. I can feel that.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 of consciousness seems to be a factor. I don't see to whom this expression is disseminated. At the moment. it means that I do what I am moved by spirit to do. This expression is not enough. I shouldn't need a sleeping medication to do that. Perhaps it is time for that to change. it is saying that we need to pay for the Beyond Imagination endeavor with something else . Though. I would live a life of spirit and for spirit.. who does it ultimately serve. 36 . That is not acceptable. but it is not my bliss. even our sleep is not sound. Perhaps with that. I don't feel that very often.

Even then.. At the moment. and we have people in need of those services. and we will be grateful for that. That is an interesting state of affairs. it does not seem that we are doing a good job. There are trillions of dollars spent by the government each year in this country alone to provide all manner of services to the public. we could argue as to what constitutes "living reasonably well". The transformation will be wondrous to behold. Yet. but how do we execute a collective responsibility? How do we generate more jobs that pay sufficiently for people to live reasonable well? Yes. Even in the private sector. and those who can provide the services cannot make a decent living because they can't find enough customers. is the world ready for this? It seems that it will happen regardless of whether we are ready or not. though we would prefer the former. We have a collective responsibility. who feels a responsibility for any of this. Yet. Also. In fact. but we allow money to get in the way of doing it. it will happen far quicker than any believe. Something is wrong with this. There has to be a way to ensure that everyone lives above the poverty level. Either the circumstances have to change. even grateful for it... Either way. we have people with skills that allow them to provide various services. it is not clear that it is doing this . we know. Though. in many cases.. it is not clear that we do this well at all. at some level. Much of the complexity has arisen in 37 . They have shown what is possible. what is possible for one is possible for all. something else is in store for us. it is not clear that we get our monies worth. Our sense is that the times will take us to a spiritual revolution. This is not just for the spiritual adepts among us. or we have to adjust what we sense is ours to do. should they have to be? We know how to create goods and services. But. We don't even hold the private sector accountable for itself. Who holds the government and its contractors accountable for the services that they provide and the work that they do? Given the number of failed programs. The unemployment rate is around 10 percent. Yet. is it within our power to choose that and to manifest that? If it aligns with the will of spirit. Our country and our world are so big that we have to rely on complex systems to manage them. There has to be a way to get the needs of everyone met. what they are paid is insufficient to take them above the poverty level. It doesn't have to take decades or centuries to change the world. And. If it does not. but those in need of the services are unable to pay for them. Something is wrong with that. So something has to give. so will it be. we will live our life as we must. many people are underemployed . The economy exists to serve us by providing jobs that compensate us sufficiently to buy the goods and services that we need to live.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 There is a sense that we have a lot to do in the next four years . even in cases where they don't have much. we have more capacity for create these than we have the resources to consume them. for many. In addition. So. we have needs and we have the means to fill the needs. But. We have chosen some interesting times to live. There has to be a better way. they are over-qualified for the positions that they fill. definitely not for all of us. It just takes the right ideas in the right minds and the right timing. But. The mass consciousness is ready for an awakening. a radical discontinuity. and cost and schedule overruns. Many people are accepting of what they have. a peaceful one that changes the fundamental nature of the world. we don't know which of these alternatives will happen. In many areas.. the bailouts of financial institutions and the Big 3 automakers are cases in point. but that we can't do it from within our present circumstances. At present. We would prefer to be able to be all that we can be and do all that we can do. What is special about these next four years? They take us to a breakpoint..

I have very little involvement with the world. Or. Despite all of our technology. There are spiritual messages embedded in some of the popular songs. In fact. a big difference to the world. Spirits primary mode of operation is through creativity. but. That is a lot. Though. it multiplies what I do now by a factor of five. I hear of the violence.. I primarily live in a spiritual world. it truly is. There is no doubt that we can do it . I don't get out much.. there still seems to be a lot of dark expression. Other than work. that is for spirit to decide.. That is what I see. today has clearly not been a normal day. But. All I ask is for the resources to do it. and for an extended period of time at that. but definitely selected works. but also on how receptive the world is to what we do. sometimes many times... that may be a matter of being more aware. 12 others. and I see some of it in shows on TV and in movies .2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 the last 50 years and it is growing on a daily basis. this is what we choose to do . It will truly live up to its name. Though there is hope.. Everything within me says that I am ready for that now. It is the one thing that we do that has the potential to make a difference. We can only do what we are moved to do. Effectively.. The Beyond Imagination endeavor is meant to do great things. We are in this for the long haul. It does. It's just that the compensation has come more in the form of a retirement account that I could not touch until now. Occasionally.. That is what I experience. Then why does the same standard not apply for my services. You might say that all creative expression is spiritual expression. movies. As far as I can tell. The only question is when. These reach large numbers of people . regardless of the circumstances that we face.. we are much the same creatures that we were hundreds if not thousands of years ago. The first we have control over. Most of this is on the periphery of my world.. We expect that will be a lot in the year to come . Such services are valuable and they deserve suitable compensation. We can do that. On a normal day. We can only do our part. 38 . At the moment that seems to involve 10 hour days. do we. Whether it will actually do so or not depends on what we do.. is any of our days truly normal? We can easily see that someone looking at the way we spend our day would find it anything but normal.. We would have it begin this year . but we made it to our quota for the day and it is not even 7:30. Who knows what we can generate with such a commitment? But.. I consider that a reasonable expectation. I don't expect lightworkers to provide their services to me or to Beyond Imagination for free. Perhaps not all the works. in particular. I am willing to do whatever it takes. these are more prevalent now than I remember them being before. Spending five hours bringing forth a stream of consciousness is not a "normal" way of working. it will do such things. Then again. But. The later we do not. 50 weeks per year. it does not touch my world directly. That is OK. Will that change? Will I reach a point where I can invite people into my world? It seems that I have indeed reached such a point. and literature of the day. it is a matter of choosing to spend the time and working through any blockages that come our way. Further. We struggled.. that would mean that we have an hour for dinner and two hours remaining in our day. we do not seem any closer to answering fundamental questions regarding our being and our purpose than were our ancestors.. 6 days per week. But. Interesting . We know this to be the work of our life. And.. tomorrow in fact. I have come to a point in my life where it is time to take my Beyond Imagination work to the next level. Can we package the Beyond Imagination works in such a manner that the world will be receptive to them. until now. the masses do not seem close to this at all. it is not only us. That suggests that there has been a recent shift. But. Something in us says that this is what we must do. Yet. indeed. We would engage the services of others as well .

there are others we are good at doing that. You have been doing it for sixteen years. maybe not at first. it does not seem that I am consciously creating the reality that I experience. we could put in five hours before we go to sleep. It is our day and our goal. And. Do what you do best. Yet. Lately... You have said before that your spiritual work is something that you have to volunteer for. However. We know that you are not likely to be able to do that. you need to think in terms of how to make your services pay for themselves. What is the best job for me? Leading the Beyond Imagination endeavor. And. you have chosen to set the terms as you employing them on a part time basis. But. generally. We truly do this together. What more have I learned in that time? I've learned about beliefs and belief management. Theoretically. I know how I would choose to live and choose to work. the answer is still in the affirmative because I can think of nothing better.. At the moment. I guess that is knowing quite a lot. I'm even more sure that Wayne knows what that is. when will it engage others? When you are truly open to that happening on terms that others are willing to agree with. there has been some doubt cast upon that regarding whether it is truly what I desire to do with my life. I believe that major changes are about to happen in my life and in my work. We have never asked you to do that. Thus far. You have thought in terms of you carrying the load for the entire Beyond Imagination endeavor. but definitely within one year. We feel the need to express at least two hours per day during the week and more on weekends. Though. even after over a half century. That is just not our natural mode of doing things. Ask what you want to know and see what comes through. in the past two days. I've learned something about reality creation. my birthday finally arrived. I know enough to be able to bring forth this stream of consciousness. it seems that I still know little about who and what Wayne is. At the very least it is a joint endeavor between you and spirit. The lightworkers associated with the Beyond Imagination endeavor need to carry their own load . we do it as Wayne. And. Further. more than I remember ever having done before. I'm sure that spirit knows what that is. Yet. it is hard to see how living and working in this way would be sufficient to carry out my mission. how do we get Wayne to reveal what he knows. Perhaps that is a test of how sincere you are in its pursuit. and find others who do those things well that you do not. About the only exception is our quota for this expression. the process is effortless. But. There must be a better way. at least far more than most. One way is through this very expression. The words just flow forth as fast as I can type them. But. But. A benefactor is one possibility. I've known that for sixteen years already. There are other terms that are possible. We typically don't set many goals. Perhaps others have to go through the same trial of volunteering their services to create something of value before they can be paid for their services. Though. Above all else. how do I pay them? It all seems to come down to resources. We will probably give ourself a break to watch a movie. I do not know. Another possibility is to share the load for this expression among many sponsors. That is OK. at least not yet. that is spirits gift to us. But. 8 April 2009 Well. is the value set for this expression reasonable for any one person to pay? It is if that person finds this expression of such utility that sharing it with the world is worth it to them. I 39 .2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 Though. I have made it my point to know. But. I've been living in my imagination a lot . we had a busy day planned by my wife so it is after 5 PM as we begin this musing. When will I be able to do this? You already do it. When will it become more than a solitary endeavor? It already is. Also. It is what it is and we deal with it. That comes to roughly twenty hours per week. That is our gift to spirit. Why that was not the case today. but it is unlikely..

if we can't use them to create the reality that we prefer? What is fair about the universe if we come up with a compelling service but are not given the opportunity to do it? Surely. more freedom to serve in new ways. But. Many lightworkers work with clients who pay them by the session or by the hour. this is not for naught. It seems that the expression will reach others when we are ready to reach others. we haven't thought of Beyond Imagination being there ticket to financial freedom as well. timing is everything. how would we know? The feedback to date has been virtually non-existent. whatever moves people to do more or work more elegantly. there is a better way. Also. I don't even know how to find the others without engaging their services and presently I don't have the resources to do that. Though. In all likelihood. even without resources to get our efforts rolling? There are always other things that you can do. Hmm . For your eyes only. that starts getting into things that I don't necessarily want to be doing. But why? What is the purpose of this exercise? What good is it to know many of the steps to manifestation. Until recently. If our members do things that serve others and bring in extra income. Generally. what has changed? We've been moved to envision enlisting others in the Beyond Imagination endeavor. Can you think of ways for the services of your lightworkers to pay for their selves as they go? This would allow you to get started from where you are at present. including any salaries and incentives. As a business. dreams. I'm 40 . they already need to have something to offer . Perhaps that is why financial independence is so important to me. I barely have time to do the things that I am moved to do. That doesn't mean that they weren't. There is an intended audience for this expression. The rewards may be increased income.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 desire financial freedom. But. their efforts should be rewarded. but our sense is that it is not.. I don't know what constitutes financial freedom for anyone other than me. Are the things that we can do now. Surely the hopes. and we need to find ways to do it that serve many more others. more hours. Here. We just haven't found an appropriate means to get the expression to them.. I'm asking someone to agree that this expression is worth the price that spirit has set to them.. The sooner that you engage others. and typically those that do can only afford moderate rates. for that to happen. perhaps we should. Is that enough? Maybe not. Well. it seems that each of us must do as our own spirit dictates. the easier it will be on you. That expression comes up often. But. Even a little change in the moment can lead to big changes in the long term. Yet. is it true? It could be. how do we make the resources available that allow us to do our bidding? For sixteen years we have brought forth this expression. we should be able to set up the Beyond Imagination endeavor as a metaphysical / spiritual business. Yet.. there is a sense that all of this is mere wishful thinking. the vast majority of what has been expressed has only been experienced by us. It is partially that there was no way to communicate them to us even if they were manifest. Trying to figure out how to engage the services of others is beyond what I have the inclination to do at the moment. To some degree. But. we simply weren't ready. Though. That would free me to do what I need to do on a full time basis and employ a team of twelve others to engage in the Beyond Imagination endeavor. what am I asking someone to pay for. Nor do I feel responsible for doing what it takes to attain financial freedom for others. Most people do not employ such services. when it comes to this expression. we need to cover our expenses. However. nothing happened today to indicate that the changes to our life or to our work were manifest. but its a start. Money should not get in the way of providing services. there is a reason for expending all of this effort. Surely. Though. all of us set the price for our services. and wishes of those who would create a better world are heard. Yet. Why? You know that you can't do this alone. Surely. the person employing the services pays the price.

I would allow for a transition period of a month or so. The only way to know is to see it manifest. I would taper things off over the month. Though we have sensed this before and been wrong. If there is more that I must do. It doesn't matter that we have not seen this happen in our life to date. it may take them on a journey in consciousness that they could not otherwise experience. but. Actually. there was a spiritual abundance that came from expressing and reading these words over the years. What makes us believe this? We have a need to believe this. that does not mean they will necessarily happen in the way that we have imagined . Further. it does not take a genius to decide where to expend 41 . But. We won't know one way or another until it manifests. Also. It is time to live our life as it is meant to be lived. We have a need to believe that our spiritual services have great value and will result in abundance. And. there must be a way to create it differently or at least experience it differently. we believe that such changes are imminent. we have a compelling commitment that we have crafted. we have imagined how we would engage others. The status quo is no longer sufficient. what would we do to carry out the Beyond Imagination mission? It seems strange to have to do that without the expression that has been our companion for so long. is that enough? If that is all that ever comes from this expression. I just can't clearly see how I am to do my spiritual work living such an isolated existence.. even if that were to happen. and hopefully to enjoy the process. Another possibility is that someone will recognize the value of what we do to the world. That puts the timing in spirits court. Unfortunately. how I am to know for certain. that is not quite correct. That might mean that we could no longer share it as we do. it seems that there is more to it than that. Even as I say that. Then. even then. That is all that I would need to wind down from my current job and move out of my room in Redondo Beach. it seems to date that this later abundance has only been experienced by me. Such is my choice. it seems that it is time for something to happen. and will simply choose to pay for it for the world .. I know that spirit will move me to do it. So. But. And. if such is to be. There is a sense that these kinds of things cannot be forced. It is not for us to worry about. whatever they are. But. And. they must be allowed. they will be right. What makes this time any different? For one thing. We trust that this will happen soon. I don't know how to make that happen. Spirit will work out the details. Further. These two things we have not been moved to do before. What service does that expression provide to the one who pays for it? If they read it. It seems that anyone offering full value for this expression should receive full rights to it as well. These would put us in a position to share and disseminate the Beyond Imagination works. but indeed. Yet. We just can't see continuing to live in the manner that we do and work in the manner that we do for much longer. Though. is that enough? I don't like the question. why has spirit stated so many times that the value of this expression is $1 per word? Perhaps that too is wishful thinking on my part.. I would have the changes start this very day. We believe that requires major changes. It doesn't matter that the only abundance that has come from this expression to date is an abundance of words. they could treat it as an investment opportunity and offer the Beyond Imagination works for sale. I dread the reality of having to go back to a way of life and job that are not to my liking. no strings attached. No. I know that at some level I create all of this. at the moment. We sense that the time for our liberation is at hand.. I believe that I have done what I can do. If you can make more in a day at your spiritual job than you can make in a week at your regular job. if such proves to be the case then by definition it must be enough. Yet. Yet. my beliefs have been wrong before. far more. I will find a way to live with it.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 asking to be paid by the word for a stream of consciousness that came forth from spirit through me. For another thing.

now. What we don't know is how to manifest big desires. You would serve the world by building the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh. There is nothing wrong with that . others of these may be done by others. These desires are far beyond the resources that we have. we don't yet know what else to do. And. hopefully it is done in a way that allows you to grow in awareness as well. It doesn't matter that you have no clue as to how you will do it.. Your mind is such that even if we told you in advance. All that I can do is share my journey. everything within us says we are worth that and more. You have always taken pride in being different. one of these desires is to have financial freedom. rearrange it. As a result. For much of our life. to date we've only established the value of the raw expression as it came forth. Is that too much to expect? I can honestly say no. Our focus was on the question: who am I? It is not clear that we ever came close to answering that question. Hopefully that is revealed here. perhaps that is what we are meant to teach. But. Somehow. But. anyone can select from it. How that intelligence works is a mystery. And. I may be the only one that can bring this particular expression forth. 42 . even if we were to work there for the rest of our life. You will know when it is time to do it. In some respects. we have focused on it intently. In fact. Though. We haven't accounted for any works derived from processing this expression. That is what makes you YOU. But. and works. Then again. Yet. even the process of doing that is an adventure in consciousness itself. Yet. Some of these I will do. This is not the same as unlimited finances. And. What do we do next? How long do we wait for our liberation? Are there steps we can take to arrange for our own liberation? We would not be asking if some part of us didn't know that the answer was yes. we don't have any conscious experience with manifesting what we desire. That is how you bring forth this expression. that makes this expression priceless. Perhaps that is what we are meant to learn now. we didn't really want anything. That is not much experience. it can be fairly easy to manifest them.. As you know. one word at a time . But. we did experience several spiritual awakenings along the way. Yet. That is just the way that you are. You know that ultimately it is spirit doing this through you. and you place no limits on what she can achieve. I have only been moved to express and to share what was expressed. That is how you live your life. But how? How do we do this? Thus far. There is a sense that we are to be a teacher of masters. but is far beyond anything we would ever hope to get from our present job. And. You have only to take each step as it comes and do what you are moved to do in the moment. that does not surprise you. you typically are not informed of things until you have an immediate need to know. you would not remember it when it came time to act. That it works is a fact. musings. However. Yes. Another thing that makes you different is a deep sense of spiritual purpose. an intelligence that is organizing what it being expressed into sentences. We can take control of our destiny. Only recently have we started focusing on what we want. It has taken a lot of effort for a lot of years to allow me to reach a state of consciousness that allows me to do what I do. one moment at a time. we have some pretty big desires.. our awareness has greatly expanded. that is a lot to ask. When your desires are limited.. It doesn't matter that such a purpose is grandiose at the least. paragraphs. in being eccentric. overall there is an intelligence behind all of this. That is OK. sometimes even one letter at a time. that no longer seems to be enough.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 your effort. We don't have to wait. Yet. it is just that your wiring is different than most. and even add insights to create a work of their own. That is the position that I would be in.

but not bad either. something moved me to do that. we had a string of four days of four hours of expression during the workweek a couple of weeks ago. Nonetheless. Perhaps. we have only met our quota on four of six days. 9 April 2009 Day seven of our ten day break from work. Wayne's world as revealed in a stream of consciousness anyway. but we have averaged over four hours per day overall. I must have succeeded in passing the trials. To some degree we have done that. I still have most of them. We may have to go back and revisit the expression to see the underlying causes. How does Wayne create the reality that I experience? It seems that to know that. the most thrilling adventure of my life.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 we know not enough to do that. we do have many of the key ingredients: beliefs. I created some business cards many years ago that included metaphysician. It is also interesting that me and Wayne are masculine and spirit is feminine. clearly. Indeed. Though. Yes. I went through a series of trials. assuming there is a recipe... When I did them I had some hope as to what the outcome might be. we know. it seems correct.. But. What we don't know is whether we have all the ingredients or have the correct recipe . Yet. even if that is in the context of a class. will we know enough about what we have done to know what caused the changes. it is not just our purpose. I strongly believe that. We are open to that. from our present level of awareness. I had to do them nonetheless. It seems that nothing became of the actions.. Though. If our life changes dramatically. and consultant as my positions. That is when we started focusing on our commitment. Wayne is who I am. In particular. That is OK. That is just the way that it is. And. It must be here. to this junction point where my life is about to take a major turn. I experienced precisely what I needed to experience to get me here. but do I know that? At this point it does not matter. most of it must be in the past six months. Though. Surely. they are. Thus far. there is a purpose to everything that we express. Everything that we have done is recorded here. this is something that we can do. actions. Spirit 43 . She will reveal what we need to know when we need to know it. but they must be here right before our eyes. there is a reason for that. teacher. There is a purpose to everything that we do. the sense is that it has been nothing compared to what is to come. That is when we started focusing on desired outcomes. However. Further. it is spirits purpose and it is Wayne's purpose. This has been a grand adventure in consciousness. Richard Bach in Illusions: The Adventure of a Reluctant Messiah said "you teach best what you most need to learn". at some level spirit and me are Wayne. I don't know why. What you see expressed here is Wayne's world. emotions. perhaps even beyond the edge at least once. and imaginings. And. That is an interesting concept. I do a lot of things that I am moved to do. Yet. We have spirit in our corner. There is nothing else that we have done. So. Ultimately. choices. We speak as if these were three separate things. Not great. it seems that I needed to prove it to myself. I need to know more about who and what Wayne is. At some level. What is destined to happen will happen and we will make the most of it as we always do. it suggests that I may not learn how to manifest until I start teaching it. but nothing seemed to manifest as a result. That is an interesting way of phrasing it. Though. We are still here expressing anyway. but looking back on them don't know why. especially if I had time to research what others are doing and interact with a team. I could do this on a full time basis. That is OK. How can I say that? This adventure has taken me to the very edge of sanity several times over the years .

So. I can make that choice for me. we have been thinking in terms of one year contracts for metaphysical consulting services. We need to be ready for when we do. Though. it seems that people work best when they have a degree of ownership in the endeavor in which they work. How do we make this endeavor something that our teammates invest themselves in. it seems that we are missing something. we should be able to create abundance for all of those engaged in carrying out the Beyond Imagination endeavor. Is that what we want. the changes would have arrived already. but by what they do for others in their own endeavors. It is a matter of choosing to allow her to do so. we need to be supportive of whatever the missions of our co-workers are. That would make this like a job. I have not even offered the opportunity to make a choice to them. That is what will allow Beyond Imagination to do great works. if that were the case. how soon can we begin? My choice would be this very instant.. at first. You only get synergy in the context of a group. At present. Hmm . So. At least. That provides some incentive. It doesn't matter that we don't have the necessary resources yet. What is not clear is whether they are meant to work solely for the Beyond Imagination endeavor. That would make Beyond Imagination a client of their services. but a variation nonetheless. at some point we want a commitment of more than an hours work for an hours pay. the beneficial power of spiritual synergy. Also. The sooner that we can bring in additional resources. and the blending of these skills together to form services that are beyond anything that we presently do alone. A necessary one.000 each. If not.. That is not a lot of money overall.. It does not seem right to make this choice for others. somehow. yes. the guiding spiritual principle from The Lion King applies: never take more than you give. So long as we do this. Yet. We could afford roughly twelve of these at $60.. take ownership of? Thus far. It is only a matter of time.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 has more than enough to express. Though. Though. that is what we are willing to pay until more abundance comes our way either from our source. That is what we are here to demonstrate.. Can we offer more? Can we offer abundance in exchange for people doing what they love to do in service to the world? We can if we are collectively generating that abundance. and substantially less for others depending on what they currently receive for their services. their abundance is derived not only from what they do for us. I have assumed that I need to pay them for their time and services in support of Beyond Imagination. it is not clear that our teammates would choose to apply all of their efforts toward our pursuits.. they will have something to do with the skills and abilities of those drawn to our endeavor . There is a sense that we will. what are the other aspects to the Beyond Imagination endeavor? It seems that we will discover them as we go. This may come to pass or it may not. We could start our search for viable metaphysical / spiritual candidates for our positions. Destiny is unfolding in your life . This expression is only meant to be one aspect of what we do. It might buy half time for some. Here. They may or may not have missions of their own that need to be supported and respected. It seems that this has already taken more time than it should have. Creating additional Beyond Imagination works based on this expression is just another variation of that. But. not just yours. But. or from sponsors and clients of the services that we generate. if they only work for us part time. That is the power of synergy in operation. It is clear that others are meant to work with us. even then. but 44 . it seems that we need to be fair in terms of defining what constitutes abundance for us. Though. That and the fact that it is spirit herself working through us to do these works. the sooner that we can manifest abundance for the entire team. What would we do next? We could start crafting our applications and selection criteria for Beyond Imagination consulting positions.

There are many others through which spirit speaks who are doing their spiritual work as dictated by the spirit within them. it seems that we need to go back to the drawing board and identify more compelling services.. it is as if your life has been on a holding pattern. But. Trust that this will be perfect. All that you can be certain of is that these changes will dramatically impact what you experience. You are particularly good at that. but you need to take some focus off of yourself and apply it to others to actually do it. it is only a matter of when. As a result. this is true not only for you. I so long to be doing this exclusively. that is because of how you have looked. That is a possibility. There is nothing that you need to change. the carrying out of your mission is close at hand. The changes may be small. but being engaged in the Beyond Imagination endeavor. at least for over a decade. is this enough to manifest it? Are the potential services that we would provide compelling enough to spirit and the universe to grant us the opportunity to pursue our dreams? Either they are or they are not. Though. and seemingly insignificant . You are only observing part of what is there. We waited until our birthday. They allow us to see more of the whole. how do we know if it is enough or not? How long do we have to wait to see what will be manifest. See what is changing. Where else could we go with the expression to date and expect to exchange it for $4. Not just the expressing. and we didn't really give anyone a chance to contact us. That might mean taking a break from this expression now and then and doing some exploring. to improve our chances of finding a benefactor. That is what spirit has said it is worth. It is not a matter of if.. When you open your eyes to see beyond your world. You are not the same as you were as little as six months ago.. We'll have to do what it takes..2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 everyones. you came precisely for it. One way or another. wherever that takes us. we will experience this in the consequences of our choices. but might take some time to realize. but that was somewhat arbitrary. you are not seeing the whole picture. but no change is insignificant. But we would need continued funding at $1 per word to keep us going unless we attract other sponsors and clients willing to pay for our services directly. If it is not enough. You have wished in ways that you were never moved to wish before. The only thing that you have found of importance is this expression. you can be certain that these will be precisely what they need to be to take you on the next step of your journey. Most of that will be in the context of Beyond Imagination. You will be guided as to where you need to go and what to do once you find what you are looking for. But.8 million? That is what we are asking. You've know that for some time .. Then. or watched one being crafted before your eyes. Though. How can we know that? There is something about the next four years that is special for you and for the world. Start with YOU. You have crafted a commitment. it is not yet for you to know how. It seems that we need to do something to make this easier . Look again. Then again. That is enough to achieve financial freedom and pay for the Beyond Imagination endeavor for one year. In your journey. Partially. I haven't desired anything more strongly in my life. you already knew that. you will discover that they are there and may even find ways to connect with them. In fact. Though there is much that you need to allow spirit to change through you. However. to know what impacts the changes will have. Though. Such connections are good. Note that and respect it. These are significant changes. Allow it to unfold as it will. it would be wonderful if the finances were such that we could do our work as a free metaphysical / 45 . There is a major difference here. even though you have expressed a lot since 2002. You have much to do before your time on the planet is done. You are focusing on what is the same versus what is changing. You would not have missed such an opportunity.. A year is enough to get us started. That is OK. changes that will ripple through everything in your life and your world.

What happens after that is unknown. and this we need to decide jointly. That would put the entire burden of funding us on our benefactor. We have already calculated that we would need approximately 7. they will know what some of their intuitive abilities are. We have no doubt that we will find such things. That's not quite correct. Then again. it is literally priceless. That is a substantial number of sponsors. So. at least for a four year time period because that is what we feel is required of us. We already have nine and could easily have another dozen from material that has been generated in 2004 and beyond. But. we believe that most of them will be suggested by our prospective lightworkers after they read the Beyond Imagination book. For 4/8/07 there were no such significant numbers in effect. select them.000 equivalent sponsors at $260 per year ($5 per week) to fund us completely. but nothing notable seemed to happen until 2008. who are we to judge what this expression is worth to others? To us. With a marketing budget. We associate Easter with death and resurrection. we are offering to cram six years of work into that four year time period. Or are we? Is it really a lot in comparison to what we are offering to give? We are offering to give everything that we are in service to spirit and the world. After all. That takes us to one year following our Easter birthday. Life should not be solely about work. The bottom line is that it all depends on what specifically we are going to ask them to do. we would have Beyond Imagination works that could be sold as books.000 words per week.S. That is not the typical model of a business. 2184 = 4/8/12 reversed is the last four of my SSN. Special topic works could add substantially to this. The last four digits of our nine digit zip code is 4812 = 4/8/12. and contract for their services. Also. We're asking for a lot. So. It has to do something that they love doing and choose to do. Not everything in the market has practical value or utility. That is enough to take the average person over an hour and a half to read. we should easily be able to do that. it seems that the second Easter birthday will be the significant one. and these are what we intend to hire. In our case. But. Though. that doesn't keep people from buying it anyway. We can't make the same offer for our teammates. But. At the very least. We are committing to generating roughly 30. sample their services. Yet. There has been a sense since we moved here 12 years ago that this was a special message and that we might live here until then. They may not even know this for themselves. Is it too much to expect that we have something to offer at least this amount of people that is worth $5 per week? Our sense is no. we expect it of ourself. Can we ask them to do more than this? Can we offer incentives that would have them do more? That seems to depend on what we are having them do. it must have some practical value or utility. but a small fraction of 1 percent of the population of the U. They will give to the best of their abilities for the time that we contract their services for. Perhaps we should expect that of ourselves. We had such a birthday in 2007. we could sell some of these books. so there may be a year of lag in its effect. we are choosing to make our spiritual work our life. what it will bring remains to be seen. we believe this to be a spiritual death and resurrection. In fact. Generally. in many ways.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 spiritual service to the world. It is curious 46 . We don't expect others to make that same commitment. There is a sense that we must do everything that we can do to carry out our mission between now and 2013. That should be more than worth it. the services that are generated by a business are expected to provide a return on investment. effectively. We do so willingly. we won't know who they are and what they love to do. this date is encoded in reverse as well in my life. even from a sampling of their work. it the market. we won't know that until we interview them. Though. And.

The path has been quite solitary with the exception of a few seminars.. my focus rarely permits it. until then. That does not seem fair. or find ways to make more.. I thought that Beyond Imagination would help me do the later by now. one is past. For the most part. That focus is nearly always on myself. Yes. yet I desire to be paid and paid well to do it. Perhaps that is the way that it needed to be for us. Tiger Woods is a case in point. We are both doing a lot in our own ways. Those who do it well seem most naturally suited to it. It has been that way for over 13 years. Another is coming up with a big picture from assorted metaphysical facts. Then. Friendships take time. So. and the books of many metaphysical authors. the compensation from my job is not adequate. simplify our life. most of which we were led to by spirit herself. perhaps it is not all effortless. It seems there are at least two alternatives . with our team of lightworkers. perhaps not. But. and it was something I was experiencing alone. Why not? In many fields. with the lifestyle that we have and the monthly bills. But. The same is true in many professions. How do I turn that into a useful service that someone is willing to pay for. The only two that came up on 8 April were 2007 and 2012. For the most part. Though some of the things she spends her free time on are her choices. for 35 years already. And. they may be able to advise me as to what I need to do to prepare.. Perhaps there are additional things that I could do to help. and SELF. It is not clear that any of the other patients in the hospital were seeing things in the same way. We are both giving people. I have been isolated and alone all of my life . For indeed. where did that come from? Yes. and one is only three years away. But. this seems to be the time for a major transformation. but it does seem natural. But that was 37 years ago. I found it interesting to hear from my wife that she had no time for any new friends. what am I naturally suited for? One thing that I know is this very expression. well for what they do. He makes golf look easy. There has to be a better way to live. I just found it interesting that she is feeling stressed and is not really enjoying her life as much as she could. That is not to say it didn't take a lot of work to hone his talent over the years. though they seemed a lifetime away at the time. Self.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 that I discovered my Easter birthdays in 1972. there is no going back to change any of it. I thought that taking care of the financial end of things working in the job that I do was somehow enough. Hmm . My intuition doesn't seem to stretch to being able to tap into others. I seem to be able to see things that others do not see. so much so that she doesn't really have much free time. Now.. we have had major transformations before. a channeling class. It is not often that I have the chance to do that during the week since I am over 120 miles away from home all during the work week. My experience was my experience . why do we continue to struggle. even a few that put us in the mental hospital. I calculated the dates for Easter from 1750 to 2150. My wife is always rushing from place to place to do things. We've been following a metaphysical / spiritual path of our own making since 1974. That does not matter. they have always involved spiritual awakenings and shifts in awareness. All that we can do is wait and see what happens at this point.. Went to a late lunch with my wife. I don't see myself in a position of providing personal services. That is not to say that it won't. as part of the first computer program that I wrote. They are no big deal. Though. OK. Though what I observe about these may indeed apply to others as well. but that has not happened. For me. primarily among metaphysical things and ideas. to make connections that others do not make.. It seems that each step was 47 . we continue scraping by from month to month. this expression is effortless. Though. we pay people who do things effortlessly... not completely. That is just the way it has been. but enough that everything that I am is colored by it.

No. That the U. there is no international law of man that requires it. Here. they will be fulfilled one way or another. indeed that is the case. we forgot to mention one of the most important elements of our path. We can create our dream boards. it was important to do it our way. what good does that do? We can have preferences. Though..S. or are they desires on our part? If they are needs.. It is for me to do what I am moved to do in the moment and take each step as it comes. is that enough? In many cases the working conditions would be intolerable here. Spirit seeks out needs and fills them. We need the circumstances under which we can do our spiritual work optimally. spends less than 1 percent of its gross national product on foreign aid is an embarrassment.. That is just the way things work. and clearly we have the means to do far more.. But. That will ultimately determine the course of our life and the nature of our experiences along the way. it comes down to what we choose and what we do in the moments. One step at a time. things that were different than we have ever experienced since. We are connected to the people in other countries far more than that . it seems that in the world at present there are many needs that go unfilled. Yes. Though. and not just by those in need. Yet.. But. that is how we progress on any path. another question we have not been moved to ask before. on what has happened or on what might happen.. in the end. We need to find our spiritual family . Actually. And. the sharing should be even greater. That is just what she does. That is the only place where we can make choices. Clearly we are different than we were sixteen years ago before this expression began. We will just know. there is a spiritual obligation to humanity. This has changed our life more than anything else. those people that we are meant to connect with closely in doing our work. That is the only place where we can experience anything. there are lessons to be learned ... What do we need from life? Hmm . even though we do not consciously know what that is.. Of late. Spirit will see to that. That is the only place where our life can unfold. How will we know when we have become that? The questions will cease. that first six 48 . We are responsible for the collective.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 necessary. But. Who is to ensure that people are treated fairly? This does not seem to be something that they can do for themselves. We can only become what we were created to be. this very expression. but by those with the ability to fill the needs but choose not to do so for whatever their reasons. it seems that I have done this as well. What else is there for us to be? We can only be who we are. But. that has typically not been a part of my path. We need sufficient abundance to be financially free so that we can focus exclusively on our life and on our spiritual work. Though it seems that we have only begun . Is this universally true? Many live focused on the past or on the future. This has allowed us to awaken and become more aware than we knew was possible for us. there is so much further left to go. We are responsible for one another. in most cases these countries desire the work and the jobs it provides.. We can still remember many things from that first six months . We can imagine what might be. we are the instruments through which she fills those needs. But what about creating the reality of our dreams? What about creating a masterpiece of our life? It seems that that will happen if we take care of each moment as it comes. Those who have been granted abundance have an obligation to share that abundance with others. Are these truly needs. And. especially when many of the goods and services that we consume exploit the workers or environment in other countries. We choose to be all that we can be.. Where there is great abundance. and we will operate from that knowingness. But. Some people have destinations in mind and are focused on getting there. But. who we are seems to be changing all the time.. We are meant to live in the moment. That doesn't seem to matter.

Use it to challenge whoever you have become. I still don't know why I needed to experience that. In each moment I arise anew and I am what I am in that moment. And then there is Wayne. I am not what I was yesterday. that is OK. But. Though. Spirit and me are ONE. to become even more. Though note. none of that matters anymore. The bottom line is that it doesn't. several times over the years. I don't even know if they are reconcilable. but in reality. the five senses are 49 . That task is bringing forth this stream of consciousness. That is OK. It could be until the end of our life. I only know that Wayne is who expresses here. The five senses and the three minds will never be enough for you. There are still things that you were created to be that you are not. I don't know how to reconcile these two statements. And. Wayne is who I am. Three of four to date have been positive experiences. don't make the mistake of thinking that what applies to you applies to everyone . but because you have set the standard for yourself so high. This is not something that we can do in the moment as the expression is coming forth. There is something that I am supposed to be grasping from this but it seems to be eluding me.. Do we see this doing that? How do we know what impact any of this will have on whom? What right have we to censor it in any way? Why would we even consider limiting its expression? The very next statement might be one that has world import. There is still a sense that under the right circumstances we might be able to experience that again and in a beneficial way. Spirit herself is there every step of the way. It is not clear what brings these states on. That task has been our primary task for over 16 years. This is not about expressing for the sake of expressing.. There is nothing special about me in this regard. At some level... This is about expressing something that has the potential to serve society and the world. The other one was the closest I've had to a negative experience. what is the point? What is coming forth that is of utility? What is coming forth that is of service to whom? We have to ask that. from the beginning Wayne has expressed as WE. Yet. It was quite disorienting. But. at least not in their present state or level of development. In the moment. This is a tool for growth that you have given to yourself. Though. The rest will unfold over time. it will never be enough. we stay focused on our task of the moment. Though. For you. this is not all that you can do. I think that I know a lot. and this is not all that you are meant to do. It will be precisely what it needs to be to carry out our mission. Until we sift through the expression to find the gems. Spirit expresses through me. This is true for each of us. I am not what I was six months ago when our commitment began coming forth. Yes. WE are Wayne.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 months we were flying solo without medications to put a damper on the extremes of the mania. usually multiple reasons. We have still experienced highs extreme enough to require mental health care despite the medications that we take. we don't really know what is there. But. It could be for another four years. everything in my life happens for a reason . That is just part of who you are. How long it will continue to be our task remains to be seen. What may be different is how much we notice this and how much we know of whom we are. I am not what I was even a moment ago. Even simple things like putting on clothes became a struggle. They are not meant to be. We simply have to trust and allow the expression to flow forth from consciousness as it will. Oh well. I'm still just a novice. For many. Not because anyone else is judging you. Don't let it get you down. I see myself as a master in the making. We can worry about editing or selecting passages at another time. it does not seem that spirit expresses through Wayne. Never. It seems that no matter how far you progress. But. I don't know how to reach that level. it is not me alone doing this. Spirit has her way of continuing to express until I get what I am meant to get. I also consider this stream of consciousness to come from spirit herself. when the time is right. Where next? We have been at this for over four hours today.

It is that easy. surely there is more to it than that. We choose to have nothing to do with religion. even then. one must virtually turn away from the exterior life and seek within to the stillness and the furthestmost depths. I know not where to go to find someone who might. But. I would take my spirituality direct from the source and not go through any intermediaries. it may be primarily on other than conscious levels . 10 April 2009 We begin again with a fresh slate as we do nearly every day. there are other transcendentalists out there . Though. How she does it. Is this our way of doing that in the field of consciousness? Though how does one study a stream of consciousness? One can see outputs. she seems to be able to come through on her end. if. For many others... I don't know what hole it fills. but I'm biased in this regard. Emerson. we seem to be stuck with it. But. For this. the times are changing. It seems that explaining the process is more complicated than doing it. Yes.. that happens through the words that come forth through them. But. it takes a lot for the transcendental to be stirred within them. if indeed all of this is coming forth from Wayne. For me. it will happen. open Netscape Composer. There seem to be a lot of ifs in our life at present. So long as we are willing to come here to express. then it is from our end as well. Ultimately. Yet. to what end? We did it because we could and because we were moved to do it.. we expect that spirit will find a way to fill that slate. if we undergo major work changes . and Channing graced the walls of my office for several years and still have a prominent place in my heart and my soul. Perhaps not everyone is ready for this. Yet. we do experiments and record data. And. I can't objectively judge the quality of what has come forth through me. Though these same institutions may have created the very need that they serve. More are becoming dissatisfied with the status quo. and those who would generate transcendental material of their own. if. what we currently face is what we face. has it resulted in something that will make a difference to others and the world through us? In science. those who are moved by the transcendentalists. Personally. we do not know. I just have to come here. And these. the years or even the centuries do not destroy. but do we know enough about the inputs to get some idea as to what the processing is doing? Clearly. It is only for the ancient souls among us. I consider them to be my kindred spirits even though they lived roughly a century before me. We have selected the best quotes and best passages from that expression. Yet. this does not seem to be the case for her. Perhaps that comes from a misunderstanding of the purpose of religion in peoples lives. what difference is this to make? It has made a difference to us.. Nor do I accept the judgment of another in this regard. But. I would not be judged. But. what is the ultimate purpose of all of this? We have recorded a lot of data in the form of a stream of consciousness expression. Whole institutions have been created to serve people’s needs in this area. We are not looking for those who would make a religion of this. Though. And. But. I do not. we know that we create our own reality. If such a one exists and we are meant to work together. Surely. The process has changed very little since the expression began other that changing Word Perfect as the word processor of choice to Netscape Composer. Do I have writings akin to theirs in this expression? I believe so. It is rare to find people that seek more than this. and allow what would be expressed to come forth. where do we go to find them.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 enough. 50 . Have I done that? How would I know for certain? What I do know is that quotes of Thoreau. What can I say? When you find your kindred spirits you find them. not even by myself anymore. if we undergo major life changes. Yet.. as always. If our commitment is manifest. if. the three minds are enough. We would have run out of things to say long ago.

How do we do this? Clearly. Spirits focus is ever on being of service. Though. over half of which went into selfpublishing Beyond Imagination books. you did not come to live a life of ease. that means it is back to the grind for awhile starting on Monday. in such cases. the money doesn't matter. That is easier to say than to do. You may not know how. you serve everyone. who assigns me this spiritual workload? It is self-assigned. By that we mean that you haven't really had to struggle. I would hope that would be soon. When you are doing this. Lightworkers should be able to make a decent living doing what they love to do. We need to keep the mission in mind more than we have to date. But. Though it seems that we may need to make some different choices as to what to do with that time. then the conditions that allow me to bear it are forthcoming. your life has been easier than that of many. and potentially some new avenues for expression. Lately. But. We need to give spirit a compelling reason to come to our aid. if there is indeed such a spiritual workload that I am destined to bear.. Yet. You just can't expect to get a lot of their time in this way. but by a deeper part of me. Yet. You do not need things to be one way or another for you to do your work. there simply is not sufficient free time in my week to accomplish this. 20 hours per week is one third of the time that I have committed to. About the best I can manage is 20 hours per week with my present lifestyle. that has been a lot. But. you still have no need to know. spirit knows best. we can only do that if we can do this full time. somehow that doesn't seem to be enough. this may be more difficult to achieve. it takes more than this. My sense is that such is not enough. It is not all about this expression. I don't consider Wayne to be a part of me. The expression is a means for accomplishing a mission. on the order of $10. Yes. it is not for you to be attached to your preferences in this existence. At this point. But when you serve spirit. They can become committed to a cause and volunteer some of their free time to that cause just as you do.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 but we can influence these. far more. If anything. Otherwise. Clearly. That will open up some new opportunities.000 in sixteen years. But. We can do a lot with that. But. There is far more that I am to do than can be done in that amount of time. not just lightworkers. Actually. Though. we would choose to expend more than that in the next four years alone. on finding needs and filling them. nor is choosing to do it. perhaps even by Wayne. There is still a spiritual principle that comes to mind. Not enough to make a substantial difference . it is the other way around. The most compelling reason is the services that will be enabled. Lightworkers don't necessarily do all of their work for hire. But. It is a mere pittance compared to the value of the time expended. by comparison. To date the expression has consumed rather than generated money. that is not important. whether such will manifest or not is still hidden from you. except perhaps financially. you are doing her work. expressed as the title of a book by Marsha Sinetar: Do What You Love and the Money Will Follow. that means that nothing has happened in this regard yet. Though. What is important is that you continue to do what you are moved to do. That includes expressing here when you are so moved.. You are a spiritual warrior. You are to make the best of whatever circumstances you find yourself within. That is significant. You do that in this expression even through you see not who is served other than yourself and spirit. At this point. Am I truly doing what I love? It seems that I am when I express here. But. We figure that to be on the order of 4-5 person years.. In the meantime. but everyone. In the current 51 . toward what we choose to manifest. No. We can get them working toward what we desire. We know that you have preferences. Yes. I would still prefer to pay a fair price for the value of services received. and even then it seems to be a result of your own choices. desiring to do it is not enough . We know that you desire it to be more..

Where there are homeless. Where there is illness without treatment. That is the way it has been for quite some time. That is not a surprise.. it is a matter of choosing to endure human suffering. Yet. there is a sense that it will not always be this way. there still seem to be jobs that people do not because they love the work.. Where there is crime. it is time for society to take responsibility for itself.. economic systems. emotional. The to each clause ensures that physical. The existence of this expression is sufficient justification. to each in accord with their needs. and spiritual systems (including religions). we have not chosen to make it. But. This contract would be between each individual and society. Here. It will happen when it happens. our hopes. The from each clause gives us the best that each individual has to offer. That is clearly a problem. there is a sense that it will take us by surprise when it happens even though we have been forewarned. Hmm . That is OK. Perhaps the world can never live up to that.. and spiritual needs are met. It seems that we can do anything that we are willing to put our minds to and commit the appropriate resources to. the system is failing. the next phase of our life will be just as clearly defined. mental. Where people are getting what they need on all levels. But. These are not things that anyone typically asks our opinion on. health care systems. But. If no one is charged with responsibility for something how do we expect for it ever to change.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 economy. it seems that we should try nonetheless. for the time it takes to generate it? . Yes. the system is failing. justification for what? . To do this society must organize in a manner that translates the abilities of the individuals of society into the services that are needed by society. the system is failing. the technology and the economy hasn't been advanced sufficiently to even make this possible. that is defined enough. and our dreams? At what point are we going to collectively decide to end poverty in our country and in the world? This seems to be such an easy decision to make. But. The words keep flowing forth. how do we collectively voice our desires in this area? How do we get government and companies to listen to our desires. What we don't have is the resolve and commitment to get them to where they are needed when they are needed.. One could argue that until recently. that excuse no longer flies. Yes. Though. Where there is poverty. the contract is failing. Though. but because it is the only work that is available to them. Though. I dream of an ideal world. we do not know. We don't have to continue to choose that. Where there is a lack of morals and common courtesy. surely there are others who could figure it out if that were a priority. And. I'm sure that whenever it does happen. We have sufficient resources and capacity to produce the goods and services that people need. for me to exist? That rang a bell as it came forth. Now. it seems that point will come prior to the end of our existence. I don't know how we fix that. education systems. There are signs that indicate that we are failing. there is a sense that this expression is a justification for my life. in thousands of years.. These are not even things that most of us think can be fixed. But. Further. how much prior. and by definition. no organization within society seems to have responsibility for problems such as these. the system is failing. At some point we will be finished. Though. This is a matter of a collective choice. Where there are unemployed people who desire to be employed. how defined is an expression in which you only know the next word at a time? It is defined enough that it can come forth . Since the beginning of this expression we have advocated for a social contract: from each in accord with their abilities. not that life should 52 . how do we make collective choices? These are not things that we vote on. We do this via governments.. as does everything in our life. there is no need to resort to crime.. the contract is failing.

2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 need a justification. Beings exist. Life simply is. Yet, in a similar vein, this expression simply is ... further it is an expression of spirit herself. Where are we going with this? It seems that this expression has a life of its own, a life that is not under our control. We gave it birth, co-creating it word by word with spirit ... but it is not ours, it is not a thing that belongs to us. It is something that we have been moved to share openly. No, it hasn't reached many others as far as we know. But, that doesn't mean that it won't in due time. Though, whether it does or not seems to be independent of what we do to some degree. If we had sufficient resources, we could do more in terms of advertisement, but what do we have to sell? What service do we have to provide? We are offering to share an adventure in consciousness. What is such an adventure worth? It seems that it depends on how rare the experience offered is. The more rare, the more valuable. Though, do we even know what another will experience from reading this expression? It is not clear that we even know what we have experienced. Though the impression is definitely positive and mind-blowing and consciousness-expanding. Will others experience it in this way? They will experience what they are meant to experience, what they are ready to experience. There is nothing that you can do to change that or enhance that. The expression is what it is. There is nothing that you can do at this point to make it other than it is. The one time you tried to reorder the material failed dismally. You had no basis on which to do any reordering that would make it any better. That is not to say that such works can't be generated in the future. Though at this point, it is not clear as to the degree that you will be involved in the generation of such works. Yet, still there is more for you to do. In particular, things different than you have imagined to date. Just be open to being moved to do new things. And do them when you are so moved. We know you can be dense at times. We will leave you with no doubt as to what is yours to do. Have the courage to do what is revealed to you to do. Don't second guess us and don't second guess yourself. When will the others who I am meant to work with come into my life? They are already there. That answer came quick and was quite unexpected. There are not a lot of others in my life. I can think of three, maybe four, that I would work with. I can't think of a dozen. But, maybe it's a matter of going through the few in my life to reach others that they know. Though, any of this still requires resources in my mind. I desire to pay people to provide their metaphysical / spiritual services to Beyond Imagination or through Beyond Imagination to others and the world. What if this is not what is meant to be? That is a possibility. It is not a possibility that I like. But, the bottom line is that we can live with whatever reality unfolds in our life. We know whatever that is is our spiritual destiny. Whatever that is, we can make the most of. We can believe, choose, act, feel, imagine what we would prefer to manifest next. When one door closes, another door always opens. What the universe has in store for us is far grander than anything that we can imagine. There is great power in living even an ordinary life in an extraordinary way. Interesting. By most standards, I live a fairly ordinary life. But little about how I live my life is ordinary. But is it extraordinary? This expression is, but not most of the aspects of my life. Do I wish to change that. Indeed I do. I would live a spiritual life completely ... yet, even as I say that I desire sufficient abundance to constitute financial freedom and to fund the Beyond Imagination endeavor to a minimum degree. That comes to $4.8 million up front and $1.5 million per year for four years. Yes, that's a total of $10.8 million or $1 per word. That would fund 6000 hours of my time to express, 6000 hours of my time for Beyond Imagination, and roughly 36,000 hours of our lightworkers time to provide their services for Beyond Imagination. At present, we only have about 1,000 hours of labor per year going into 53

2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 Beyond Imagination. This would increase that by at least a factor of twelve. There is no telling what we can do collectively with that amount of effort. Overall, compared to many other things, it is not a lot. My organization at work provides approximately the same number of hours to the Air Force at approximately the 1.5 times the cost. So, effectively, I'm asking to lead an organization of roughly the same size in hours and two-thirds of the cost to do something of potentially far greater value and far greater service. Interesting. Can I pull it off? There is no doubt about that. I would do what it takes. I would work seven days a week if necessary, for ten hours a day or longer. Why? Why does this mean so much to me? Because this is what I was born to do. Beyond Imagination is it for me. It is what gives my life meaning. That we have found a way to do it within resource constraints set by spirit is all the more reason that it should be manifest. It is not that we are asking for anyone to take a gamble. If we don't produce our quota of expression each year, we don't get paid. It is that simple. The contract is not for hours or for services, it is for words. They are not even our words. They are the words of this stream of consciousness from spirit. The services of our lightworkers are gratis. They will provide grist for the mill of this expression, and they will provide services in the form of metaphysical / spiritual information to the world. Actually, they may go further than providing information depending on the nature of the services provided by our lightworkers. Hmm ... we haven't asked what a benefactor might do with the words he or she purchases. Ultimately, that is not our concern, but we would hope that we would be free to share the expression with the world. If not, it would completely change the nature of what we do in the Beyond Imagination endeavor. We would be forced to change our interface with the world. We would have to rely much more on our lightworkers to provide inputs for the website. That is not such a bad thing. It just changes the nature of the expectations. If the benefactor doesn't publish or share the expression or allow us to do that ... then all that has been brought forth for 16 years and all that will be brought forth for another four years will be repressed. I find it difficult to think that spirit would have such an end in mind. But, if that is what is necessary to buy our freedom and birth the Beyond Imagination endeavor, so be it. We can always generate new expression if need be. And, what is important is not what has come forth but where it took us in the process of bringing it forth and in the process of reading it. Hmm ... but is this the equivalent of selling our soul? To some degree, it seems that it is. Though, spirit has had plenty of time to disseminate the Beyond Imagination expression if that were her desire. At this point, we do not feel that we are in a position to impose conditions. Spirit has said $1 per word. She didn't make any constraints on rights. Full price should result in full rights. That is what I would expect if I were buying the expression. Though, there is also the possibility that the benefactor would be interested in us generating additional works and packaging them as books ... advertising these books, and selling them to offset the costs of the expression. We would prefer that, especially if we could come up with a reasonable share percentage for the effort and resources we would be putting in. The bottom line is that there are many options. Spirit will ensure that we attract the one that is right for us and all concerned. At this point, we just desire to be free to do what we do best on a full time basis. We believe that to be engaging in the Beyond Imagination endeavor. Further, we choose to do it now ... actually as of our birthday two days ago. It is curious that we've been in a position to engage in this expression five hours per day for over a week already. We haven't succeeded in reaching our goal on two of those days, but the intent was there. If we were being paid to do this, things would be different. We wouldn't choose to let anything else get in the way. We would know that this expression was enabling our financial 54

2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 freedom and funding the Beyond Imagination endeavor. We couldn't let us down, and we wouldn't let spirit down. Now is more of a proof of concept. It is a demonstration that we can generate 5,000 words per day nearly every day for a ten day period. Thus far it has been a success. Though, it has not been as easy as we thought it would be. Between chores, meals, and distractions, finding five hours per day to muse has been a challenge on some days. That is OK. We know the conditions are different on a birthday vacation week than they would be on a work week. So, what next? It seems that the next step is full time work for Beyond Imagination. But, that is still a giant step from our present circumstances. Our typical steps are much smaller than this. Right now, we are still moved to express. We expect that will continue indefinitely. But, what else are we moved to do? What else would we achieve? What else would we be? Presently, we are in a state of if only we had resources, then we would ... It is usually dangerous to live your life from an attitude of "if only". That could be considered wishful thinking at best. But, something has to give. I can't see my life continuing in its present direction for much longer. It's time for a change, it's time for a turn that takes us in a new direction. Yet, this does not seem to be a turn that I can make on my own. Perhaps not. But, you are not alone. You have others in your life. You can enlist their support. They may or may not provide it, that is up to them. To some degree, that depends on how much they believe in you and what comes forth through you. At this point, you may not think that anyone believes in you or what comes forth through you. You may be right. But, it is not like you've given them much of a chance to do so. That's true. But, it's not like I'm getting any positive feedback from anyone regarding any of this. If anything, I think my wife resents how much time I spend on this. She calls it "writing love letters to yourself". Interesting. I have no clue as to how much or how little of the expression she has read ... though I think it is relatively little. Though, I can see her point. So much of this expression is about me, I can see how someone might assess it to be selfish or narcissistic. What can I say? It is what it is. People will interpret it as they will. That is not my concern. It is for me to bring forth what I can bring forth and trust that whatever that is has its reason for coming forth in the manner that it does. Clearly, I don't know what that is as it comes forth. It is not even clear that I know what that is when I read the expression. Yet, I know that I get out of the expression what I need to get out of it, and somehow that is what I put into it. Down to the final stretches for the day. Not bad, it is not even 4 PM yet. Though I would guess that I still have at least an hour to go. We're not crossing the 5,000 word boundary by much ... except for one day that exceeded 6,000. That is OK. What we are doing is sufficient to demonstrate that we have the resolve to do it. Not that we doubted it. However, doing is important to us. What else can we do? We have been expressing for 16 years. Surely, there is more to us than this. In fact, we still consider ourself an unknowing participant in all of this. The stream of consciousness from spirit just comes forth. Yes, it is something that we do, but we don't really do it. So, what are the things that we do? We read the expression. We read the metaphysical works of others. We sift through the raw expression to generate Best Quotes works. We watch movies and TV shows. We walk our dogs. Overall, there are not a lot of things that we do. Yet, it seems that there is enough. Though, it also seems that there is something missing. Friendships for one. But friendships take time, and time is a limited commodity in our life. Not that this would change even if we were working full time for Beyond Imagination. Though, we imagine our lightworkers would become our friends. That's a dozen 55

2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 more friends than in my life at present. Though, I've already thought about that and could probably only devote about an hour a week to each one and much of that via e-mail. At least this could be done during work time rather than free time. Not that my life has much free time now. It will have a little more when I don't have to commute for 5 hours to work each week. When it comes to free time, every hour counts. I'm wondering how my sleep patterns will change when I am doing what I love full time. Will I need 8 hours or more of sleep each night? My sense is no. If I have a compelling reason to start each day, I won't be so reluctant to arise in the morning. If I fill each day with what I love, I won't find it so difficult to fall asleep at night. Hopefully, we shall see soon enough. With eight hours of sleep per night, we each start with 112 hours per week. I'm choosing to apply 60 hours per week to spiritual work. 7 hours for getting ready in the morning, 7 hours for lunch, 7 hours for dinner takes us down to 31 hours. Another 7 hours to walk the dogs and we're down to 24. Thus far we have no travel time, time for errands or appointment, family time, or leisure time. Effectively, we are down to the equivalent of two hours per day of this for six days per week and ten hours on one day per week. That is what we are signing up for. Though, we have little more than that now, even less when you subtract eight hours of weekly and daily commuting. Are we ready to sign up to that routine? In a heartbeat! Doing the spiritual work we love to do is that important to us. Also, financial freedom is that important to us. We don't consider an obligation to spiritual work being in bondage in anyway. Indeed, here we are free as we are nowhere else. At the very least, we are free in consciousness. That is an important freedom to us. It is this freedom that allows us to do what we do in the way that we do it. My dog, Daffi, is looking at me. She wants to go for another walk. But I want to finish the expression for the day before I take her. That is OK. She is patient ... and she knows it is just a matter of time. In many respects she is like me. She wants what she wants when she wants it. She lives for food, walks, and attention in that order. I wonder what my priorities are. Clearly spirit, spiritual expression, and movies / TV shows in that order. There are many things in life that don't mean much to me. In fact, most things do not mean much to me. About the only exceptions are my spiritual statues and my computers that enable me to capture this expression. The former I like, but don't notice much anymore. The later, I use everyday. Overall, I am a patient person. I can wait as long as it takes for things to manifest. But, of late, I've been more impatient than I remember being before. I desire the reality that I wish for more than I have ever desired anything. Yes, that mean that I am attached to an outcome. I know that is not a good thing to be. But, I can't help it. I see that Beyond Imagination has the potential to do so much good, and I choose to do what it takes to actualize that potential. So much so, that I am willing to give four years of my life to it. I don't take such a commitment lightly. Given the opportunity, I will do all that I can to facilitate the Beyond Imagination endeavor in accomplishing its mission. But, you already know that. You know me more than I know myself. All of the words that have come forth through here in the past six months are from you. They may be revealing who and what I am, and what I am willing to do ... but still they come forth through you as they always do. It is interesting that they come forth as if they are coming forth from me at the moment. That is another shift. Even as they come forth now, the process is the same. It is a stream of consciousness. But, it feels much more localized. Often it is much more distant. Sometimes it is a mixture. Daffi's got up and started wagging her tail, looking straight in the eyes at me. It seems that we are going to have to wrap this up soon. That is OK. We've capture our days worth of expression once again. Yes, we could do this 5 hours per day, 6 56

There has to be a way to fund the Beyond Imagination endeavor. at least to fund the acquisition and transport of treasures from the outside world. They are truly on a mission. for 4 years. Right now. a heaven on earth founded on one simple principle: be kind.. It could be something that would be published rather than self-published. It helps that the characters thoroughly love what they are doing. Maybe we can't expect a benefactor to save us. There has to be a better way. but somehow does not seem likely.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 days per week. a time when the struggle for survival was about at its worst. Surely spirit has something more in store for us than that. One side benefit is that it will immerse you in the parts of the expression that deal with reality creation. in the end. And. It is curious that they happened to have abundant gold reserves to fund their enterprise . or was in the midst of doing so. It could be like this everyday . several years before World War II at a time when the rumblings of war were rampant. there has to be another way. Everything relates to the expression somehow . could it simply be embedded in the current society? It seems unlikely that it could remain separated. It is a matter of pulling the right material and organizing it into a coherent work. Is this more important than bringing forth new expression? For the moment. Perhaps something on belief management or even on reality creation. Twister was a different movie entirely. that is what we are asking for. It is curious that the film was created in 1937. It would also have been well into the time of the Great Depression. Do we have what it takes to do that? The material is there. I've watched it several times. The film is also a classic. We have something more in store for us than that. ultimately a mission of service. It seems that we shall see 57 . like this and much more anyway. the thought came into my mind regarding doing what we are currently doing for another four years. We can do anything for four years. That is what we have committed to. Even the thought of the possibility is unpleasant... indeed it is.. It was about a team of people who chase twisters in the hope of studying them so that an early warning system could be developed that might give people as much a 15 minutes rather than less than 3 minutes warning of immanent disaster. That would be sufficient to allow them to get to safety. Yet is it wrong to think that such a society might exist or might be created? Must there always be a struggle for survival? Surely. We'll be sorry to see it end so soon. Would such a society have to be separated and isolated? Or. This is something that you need right now. How do we translate that resource into financial freedom for us and the funds to carry out the Beyond Imagination endeavor? That means turning this expression into dollars. So. everything in my world anyway. we need a lot ot sales to even consider quitting our day job. that cannot be the only way to live. For the first two. It is about a place called Shangri-La. Then. They take their work seriously yet they have fun doing it. That is what we would love to do. The first is a classic and is quite metaphysical. a utopia. 11 April 2009 Day 9 of our vacation. 50 weeks per year. What about the creation of a flagship Beyond Imagination book? One with a specific message and utility. The world had literally gone mad. We possess a resource that has a value set by spirit.. That's possible. Just as I wrote that. they are the first to get scientific measurements from inside of a twister. You will be able to use how it helps you in explaining the material to others. We ended our day yesterday watching two of our favorite movies: Lost Horizon and Twister. that could come from sales of books or sales of works or sale of the entire expression. They are enthusiastic and dedicated. There is just something about the story and the special effects that hooks you in. Effectively. how do these two movies relate to this expression? I know that they do. It would be a worthwhile endeavor..

and aggression. but in our life. even centuries. They may not know it yet. But. We can do this now. How do we facilitate a spiritual answer? Spirit does not force her way upon us. we don't need an army to do so. Not only here. The have ways of life that have been passed down for generations. at least not very easily. or spiritual. That applies to all of us. violence. it is the nature and quality of their ideas. We have to choose to allow her to impact our lives. One of my favorite quotes is "great men are they who see that the spiritual is stronger than any material force. how close are we to that? Some suggest that it could happen as soon as 2012-2013. And our problems may be at physical. but the are ready. We need to ensure people have a means for meeting their needs be they physical. our life is a revelation of spirit. it is not clear that we can deliver such a change. Perhaps even far less than 1 percent. it also comes down to expectations. Though. That is the only way. People are ready to do this. We don't have to relegate individual needs to below that of the collective. Though. Peace is always the answer. Yes. We can retain what is good from the various cultures of the world. perhaps not. And when they see the benefits in their life that result. that thoughts rule the world". there is a concept of critical mass. Another thing that I got from both movies was that more people may already have gravitated to their rightful place in the scheme of things than I had imagined. at least in the first phase. No. Some of those may be the very ideas 58 . it is more difficult to see how this applies on a world scale. We need to create abundance for all. If this is indeed so. We just need to introduce enough technology to connect them to their neighbors in the world and stimulate their economies enough to bring them out of poverty and provide sufficient goods and services to meet their needs. We don't have to change them or modernize them. But it is a spiritual answer. We can do that right here. a teaching or a principle crosses the threshold that takes it from being a personal thing to being a species thing. However. violence. they will wonder why something was not done sooner. it will require far more sharing and far less hoarding. However. We would have it be no other way. She waits for our invitation. At some point. Further. We are spiritual beings first and foremost. What happens after that will be revealed to us in due time. We can only do our part. But. you are hoping to more than double the volume of this expression in that same time. it becomes true for all of us. Though. We can create a peaceful world. But. We live in a world where ideas rule. we don't live in a world that allows that to be expressed. That is a lot of ideas that will come forth. Perhaps they are right. And. We have to allow things to be revealed here. It will require transforming our outlook from what's in it for ME to what's in it for WE. So.. we have to find peaceful means to end this. how big of a group does it take to effect change? It is not the size of the group. it won't be done through war. and/or mental levels. emotional. We just need to give them at least equal footing. It just means that it may take less effort to change the world than I had thought would be required. We can create a utopia on earth. Three to four years is not a lot of time. emotional. it is something that has to be done. That just brings more of the same. We have the resources and the technology to do that.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 in what comes forth. and eliminate the war. That is OK. it seems like the first real problem to address is lack of any kind. it seems that no one really knows. We can do that. But. That does not mean their lives cannot be bettered. That is what we are here to change. What is such a change worth? Everything that we could ask for and more. At the same time. How many constitutes enough? Far less than a majority. Though. and I strongly believe that it is . This may be the most difficult part at all. That. When enough of the collective accepts something. or at the very least for ME and WE together. mental. and aggression. then it all comes down to the expressing of ideas and the dissemination of those ideas.. Even a dozen kindred spirits working part time could be sufficient.

Whether you know how or not. We are asking for a miracle. you are choosing the path that you are moved to follow. That is what she does. YOU know. Yes. but give the rest their due consideration too. You will not know however until you allow the ideas to be expressed and shared. but you are close. if anything. It seems an appropriate time to be asking for a miracle. Easter is tomorrow.. it is up to you to identify your own needs and ask for them to be filled. you know precisely what you need for your highest growth and to carry our your mission. Another part lies in what is to come forth in the next few months. These will determine where your path heads next. We believe that it is.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 needed to change the world. we have not asked for near enough funds to execute this. But. She has the means to make our wishes known to those who might be in a position to grant them. But.. Yes. you have considered these to be lesser needs and unimportant overall with the exception of financial freedom. Focus on the most important things first . what about our team. In fact. Are we structuring the Beyond Imagination endeavor so they can give everything that they are to it as well? Is this even something that they would choose to do? If so. To employ our lightworkers full time. This is not predetermined. At every moment. at least for you. you have to assist with the manifestation. the rest will work itself out. it does not seem to be enough. we create the path to get there on the fly in the moment. But.. Yes. Part of it is a matter of realizing what has come forth here to date. We would need $2 per word until we figured out how to get paid for our services directly. spirit is there every step of the way to assist in getting you what you need. There is a sense that if the stuff at the top comes together. this one doesn't require breaking any natural laws. And then. but is our case compelling enough. The bottom line is that the Beyond Imagination endeavor will only be part of what they do. YOU.. Even then. we would need to double our operating budget. you are choosing it . You have to do the work to see the results. there are universal forces that can be employed to do our bidding. and the universe know? We just need to keep our wants few and be crystal clear about them. to whom do we ask this? Clearly not ourself. definitely closer than most. It always helps to start from the top and work your way down. is that enough? To date. You have to convey what you imagine to others. some of our lightworkers provide services of such a nature that we only need them part time they need to be to continue to provide their services to existing clients. Is there anything that we can do to make our commitment more compelling? It seems that we are giving everything that we are to it. Though. she finds needs and fills them. That is a good place to start. While there is indeed a destiny. what resources does she have? She is connected to everyone and everything. You have done this for your life and for your work. it is the fulfilling of a spiritual law. Yes. we do not know where to go to grant what we ask? Perhaps to spirit. not spirit. not so much yours. there will be others for which Beyond Imagination becomes their sole occupation as well as their soul occupation. But. But. but of your wife. We are asking for the opportunity to do our spiritual work full time in exchange for financial freedom and the funds necessary to carry out the Beyond Imagination endeavor with a team of twelve lightworkers. it helps if we 59 . What you haven't been as clear about is your personal needs. Also. It is not enough to imagine what could be. What about to the universe itself... That is appropriate for spiritual work. in your case. You may not know quite how to do that yet. But. Your sense is that this would relieve a substantial deal of stress . That should make it all the easier to grant. spirit. Is it wrong to ask for what we want? How else are we to let ourselves.

perhaps in an Appendix. Reality Creation 1010. none of that matters. given my present circumstances and my present and past choices. But. though even then. something that might qualify as a bestseller. They always contain unknowns. From some of the signs that we had experienced. the circumstances are never tight. it is clear that our deadline was not spirits deadline. we have approximately 1400 hours available for this project. it seems that we might keep that intact.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 truly need what we desire. Then. much of that reality is what we interpret it to be. So. "by Christmas" flashed through our mind. if it is indeed meant to be. because we are not sure to know. then you truly needed it. The first part is a search. we do not know one way or another until further experience comes our way. Generally. we can work on the book on reality creation that we discussed in yesterday's musing. Though. And. that means that we lose out on over 2/3rds of a year of what could have been. There are things that we can do to accelerate or retard it. and paste of anything that includes "reality". Yes. Is that what we need to produce now? Do we need to demonstrate that we can create a work of that quality? Are we ready for the rejection letters that may come from submitting such aa book to publishers. At other times. Actually. there is no way to know this in advance. We do not have to wait until Christmas to start shoring up our financial situation. But as we wrote that last line. That does a good job of introducing readers to Beyond Imagination. But. No. I will indeed be moved to do it. They are always fluid. Further. we need to fill in to smooth the transitions 60 . Interesting. If it manifests. and then we need the time to submit it to publishers. that was not the case in this particular case. Sometimes our interpretations are correct. It is that simple. It is not a book that provides useful tools to change your life and your world. it is what it is. But. there is a sense that the timing is not set in stone. they are not. It will take as long as it takes to get done in the way that it needs to get done. we don't want to do the later. many things about the consequences may be known at least in probable terms. That seems so far away. How big of a project are we talking about here? It seems that it could easily take 6-8 months. That is not certain. That is over eight months away. or an answer that said you have no need to know. If we eliminate the daily musings. but is more than I expected. and some Quotes. Then. We can't predict what we happen except under the tightest of circumstances. considering that spring has just arrived. And. We didn't really like that answer. Finally. Yet. it is what it is. we had thought that it was. Though. it will pass quickly enough. Eight months. what is meant to be is meant to be. we need to structure the material into chapters. But. At present. We had set a deadline for our birthday a few days ago. but it is not a practical book. We have books and works for sale. Apparently. That takes us to another winter. The closest thing that we have is Beyond Imagination: The Early Works consisting of the Beyond Imagination book. I wasn't really expecting an answer at all. The Beyond Imagination book was completed a few days before Christmas in 1993. That could be a lot. The days become weeks become months very quickly. what is the probability that the conditions for executing our commitment will be manifest? The first number that came to mind was 3/4. Consequences are always unpredictable. But. cut. if it truly needs to be done and be done by me. we did not ask by when? Partially. and focus on the book. We need a flagship book for Beyond Imagination. Though. in reality creation. That is how things work in my life. We can do anything for eight months. Oh well. We live with the reality that comes our way. That. Even the thought of continuing to live the current life that we live for another eight months is disconcerting. How do we know this? The surest test is whether it manifests. depending on the circumstances and the choices. we need to integrate this with the Reality Creation 1010 work.

Those are not large numbers. even then. but usually by some lines in every musing. Now. what is the purpose of those words? Why should people want to read them? Why should people pay to read them? Have we truly created something of value? Then why is there no one but us that recognizes it yet? It all 61 .000 per month is about 1. I need to earn enough to cover our monthly expenses plus extra to start paying down the debt. that means that I need to earn more somehow. How many people do we have to introduce to Beyond Imagination to get one to by one of our books or works? Can this be on the order of 10 . After sixteen years of doing this. At this point. No. not by every line. It will probably be a mystery that dies with me. we are amazed by what comes forth. But. If the books or the works would start to sell. it is not clear that we know it at all.000 feet. We haven't taken a look at this material from this perspective before.. Generally. My job is not likely to provide the necessary increase. I'm spending far more time than that on Beyond Imagination work. And. But. our criteria for determining what is quotable is clearly less than objective. it would be enough to take care of my family fully. nearly everywhere there is a thin layer of white. Though. At this point. that does not stop us from expressing. this falls a little short.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 and to complete concepts that may only be partially covered. $5. Perhaps as little as $5. This is not satisfactory. It appears they got over an inch of snow down to below 5. we are no closer to understanding what it is or how it comes forth than we were on the very first day. Often. what would we express from this special place? What is there within our soul crying to come out? What is there we need to know about ourself? What is there that others need to know about us? What is there that we would share with the world? Do we have answers to any of these questions? Do we have enough control over this expression to guide it to such answers? We only know what comes forth. We haven't encountered anyone who requested to use one of our passages as a quote. We are not talking about a huge amount. it is. My wife does a lot of work maintaining two houses. Quotable expressions are one measure of the quality of a given work. we do not know whether that will ever change. there was almost nothing remaining. that could make all the difference. we have a job in El Segundo that we commute to every week to earn enough compensation to basically pay the bills. Yet.000 per month would be enough. So. She shouldn't have to take on a job as well. We just allow the stream of consciousness to fill our mind one word at a time. Unfortunately.000 Beyond Imagination books or 150 Beyond Imagination works. Last week. That doesn't happen until we read it. That's about a third of what I make at my job. there have not been many people who have encountered our work to date. How can that be? Surely. Is it too much to ask for it to start paying dividends? This would not be enough to allow me to quit my day job. But. We are blessed to have a second home in such a place. But. In our case. Basically. It has been a mystery ever since the expression began. and maintaining her friendships and family relationships. on the order of 100? If so. taking care of the furry kids. But Beyond Imagination could. There is something about the cold that is intoxicating as well. it seems time to focus on introducing people to who we are and what we have done over the past 16 years. Not too cold. It is bound to reveal things that have not yet been captured. forcing my wife to make up the difference. We find this expression particularly rich in quotable expressions. we are not even aware of the contents of the expression as it comes forth. we only know our circumstances in the moment. Ultimately. Drove to Idyllwild for the Easter weekend. that is something to be determined by others. and a great wall at that. this cannot be the case. or if she cannot. extending our debt. We record that stream as it comes. We've built a wall of words. even after reading it multiple times. just enough to feel it a bit. It's quite beautiful..

what is spirit. We still are every time we watch a commercial. Spirit works through us via consciousness and via soul.. we can do it ourselves. We simply allowed a stream of consciousness to come forth through us. We say this stream of consciousness comes from the source within. consciousness. it helps to have others facilitate this. Or. It is curious. issues that keep me from being happy. or explore them.. I still have major issues to deal with . on our mind. the sooner we can be who we were created to be. I have not succeeded. It is not another coming forth through us. Also. we have been programmed by everything that we have experienced.. In this case. We just allow them to come forth as they will. From the time we were conceived. We can change our programming. what is Wayne. We just never questioned what we were taught. It is as if there is a door that we cannot open. They limit our freedom of movement.. Poor beliefs are like straitjackets. on our heart. issues that keep me from being all that I can be . She is an entity. We are spirit expressed in flesh. It just got screwed up along the way. that we had never evaluated to see if they had utility for us and others. spirit . on our soul. My familiarity is more with the former than the later. not a living. Out of the nothingness that we are comes all of this. We are more than the sum of our programming. we were manipulated subliminally. But. and the vast majority of that. Beyond Imagination is the creation of spirit and Wayne. Though. a threshold that we cannot cross... we are more than that. everything that did . even on our spirit. some of the programming . Every input has had its effect. It does not matter that I have spent most of my adult life trying to discover who I am. In some cases. first and foremost. everything that we sensed. And. but spirit is not a thing. if I have. I know that I am Wayne. Source.. We are entities that are capable of programming ourselves. the knowledge is hidden even from me. everything that we saw. but I know not who I AM. What's in it for me is a secondary consideration at best. who am I? I am Wayne.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 comes down to what do I want? I want to serve spirit. but I know not what that really means. Oh well. not more strongly that I desire spirit . Everything that we heard. But.. breathing entity like us. We know what we know. she animates us nonetheless. How can that be? Any creation springs from two parents. on our consciousness. Many of us became prisoners of belief systems that we had never examined. In other cases. everything that we believed. We don't really think about things here. This is not as it was meant to be. We are not so much concerned with physical movement here as will movement of consciousness. even after approximately 16 Psych-K sessions in as many months. Yet. This is indeed Wayne's world and you are welcome in it. The good news is that there are ways out. everything has left its impression on our body. No. I desire financial freedom more strongly than I have desired any thing before.. a masculine one and a feminine one. that is as far as it ever goes. Then. it is Wayne. everything that we dreamed.. Psych-K is a powerful process for doing this.. In the very first day of this expression. we are those nonetheless. One of the most important places to start is with beliefs. for some. That is where we need to be free. It is the flesh that is the thing. but it takes a skilled practitioner. Still. We didn't but the utility in. I asked "what should I call you?" The answer that came back was "We are Wayne". everything that we felt. Nor. what we were told by authority figures. The sooner we get to the core beliefs that are holding us back. Then how do I fit into the picture? In fact. Clearly. But. That is all that there has been. everything that we chose. but it has also come forth from spirit herself. On top of that. much of the programming. has been negative and disempowering. What is the utility in that? We don't know.. more importantly for me. Everything in this expression has come forth from Wayne. these are all beyond the world of things. spirit herself. that is the temple for the life force that animates it and occupies it. we do not consciously know. It is us. 62 .

some of the metaphysical arts can give you some hints. Further. not even for me. The first part of your purpose is easy to state but difficult to do. While the other than conscious parts of you are by far the lion's share . you have been their primary audience. perhaps even before the beginning. Hmm . the same could be said of you. are like none other.. Each of us is a unique combination of heredity and environment that has never before and will never again been brought to life to experience this precious jewel of a planet. God created you. free from 63 .. It is OK to give control of your life to what you believe to be a higher power. all of this is the expression of Wayne. and that is where you need to go to find it. not just obey its directives. Don't limit the power of YOU in fulfilling any desire that you have. and in some respects I didn't even do it. Then again.. The first level involves wanting things/services that YOU can give. That does not mean that you should not ask. Then what do I have to offer? The record of a journey of consciousness.. but is what you want what YOU can give? Interesting. And. It all came forth from whom that we are. Hmm . Who am I to be able to describe that? No. If you desire it. You know not who we are for you cannot know by your very nature. there may be nothing beyond this greater YOU. Yet at another level. That is the only place you can go to find it. And... Wayne must know for what purpose this expression was generated. WE have been here to serve you from the very beginning. that doesn't really compute. I can't say that I've really figured this out yet. It is better for all of us if you live your life by conscious intent. You didn't create yourself .. that has meaning on at least two levels. and especially if there is a compelling reason for it . What your purpose is calls to you from within.. you are right. you need to take the reins again. I allowed it to be done through me. Wayne's primary works are the Beyond Imagination expression and the works derived there from. This part requires your special gifts and talents. You are an integral part of producing those works. that is precisely what you got. But. Yes.. YOU are that powerful. Though. The second level involves wanting things such as financial freedom that seem to require something beyond YOU. Each of us came with a unique purpose as well . how do I get to know the rest. why is it that I do not know? Clearly. they need the conscious part to give them their direction. You need to be free. Yes. This part is unique. but much of that is up to you. However. But that does not matter..2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 All that is here is the creation of Wayne. God has a mission for you.. nothing on heaven or earth can stop you from manifesting it.. or we simply would not have come. This part is the same for all. You too. And. what you primarily wanted was more expression. Be all that you were created to be. Can this expression lead others to experience altered states of consciousness? Can walking in this stream of consciousness benefit others just from the adventure? Indeed. perhaps not. This part requires finding what you love to do and doing it in a way that serves others. this is something that must be experienced firsthand. Now. we are like none other. You need to become the Higher Self that you are. to date. The expression exists and it is what it is. But. you only have to express the desire and the reason and allow the rest of YOU to do what we were designed to do. something that you are here to do. But. the expression or the states of consciousness that lead to the expression? Are these really different things? Perhaps. But we know who you are and we know what you need... it is an adventure... It happens to be my adventure and Wayne's creation. am I not Wayne . Until recently. to spirit. you want more . to God. even before you ask. Through their works shall ye know them. Will it always be thus. Be YOU. or even to your Higher Self. That purpose is always to make a difference in some special way. the I that I consciously know myself to be is a small subset of what Wayne is. at some point. Perhaps.. WE. That is what I have created that is of value. That may be the only thing that I have created that is of value . At 51..

We definitely need to do this more often. what you want your life to be. it seems that we won't realize what Aslan is until we get the Beyond Imagination endeavor rolling. All of this comes from Wayne. But. my knowledge of Wayne. Only then will you be truly living. Yet. Or does it. But. it was a matter of making our desires known. Even then. Then. it should be from Wayne's level or higher. That is OK. It seems that if anyone has a relationship with God. We don't know what we are in our Father's eyes. Who knows what may yet manifest in our life. you are getting close. it does need to be useful and practical. But. Wayne's higher self.. Nor do we know what we are in spirits eyes . Hopefully. There is a lot of time between now and July.. We can choose. The only clue I have as to what is higher is Aslan. Our next week off will be around the 4th of July. not what others would have you be. right in the middle of summer. even after 35 years of metaphysical study and 16 years of this expression is still very limited at best. even then. Spirit is such a part of our life that there is no separating what is her from what is us anymore. also masculine. but I have no delusions about Wayne being God. There are billions of people with some kind of relationship to God as experienced through religion. it came forth in this stream of consciousness so there was a mixture of us doing it and spirit doing it. However. But. Though. not even with a little "g". No. you have yet to recover it. by then.. It all comes down to focus. we are curious why this is so. At some level WE are ONE. We can choose. There is only one SELF. truly free. Perhaps we are doing things that get in our way. To some degree we've done this for the past six months. Only then will you be living in accord with your spirit. Every Self fits within the spiritual world. we have made it to the final day of our vacation. Where next? What are we moved to do next? What do we choose to do next? We don't always have to wait to be moved to do something.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 your concepts of who you are and who you are not.. you need to choose what you would be. Summer in Cathedral City can be quite a drain with the temperature rising above 110 degrees. Though. That has simply not been my way. we have no personal relationship with God in the same manner. We have no experience of God. Then.. For you. And. Can we do that? Do we know enough? Does Wayne know enough? If so. Every self fits within the world. Wayne is definitely masculine . It doesn't have to be a big book. it was more a matter of choosing to do what we were moved to do. 12 April 2009 Unfortunately. we have no concept of what God is other than All That Is. The very fact that you are bringing this forth now is a sign of how close.. But. In this case. God is a masculine creative force. It will give us plenty of time to write. Where we 64 . you need to choose what you want . You need to be free. what you want your work to be. our book on Reality Creation will be complete. for me the divine comes through the feminine. somewhere along the way you lost it. why hasn't he applied it in our life yet? Perhaps we were not ready. We acknowledge God as the creator. Our wish is that it would be a manual for helping people to create masterpieces of their lives. You have the power to make a masterpiece of your life. And. All in good time. We're not really looking forward to that. What you would be. You were born with that power. it seems that is the only level that truly matters. That puts Wayne at the same level if not higher than spirit in my life. God does not speak to us or through us as spirit does. But. except as this expression relates to us. in early childhood.

. that set me apart from any other who has walked or is walking on this planet. There are ways to work on self-worth. To date. is my present life not already a masterpiece? It is a masterpiece to me . But. she will show it to me.. the flow always starts with the giving. it is a work of art that generates works in its own right. and replace any negative ones with more empowering ones. the problem is almost never in the receiving. and move me to do it. it needs to be how I interact with others. That is quite a distinction. I know this is what I am meant to do.. it is in the giving. That suggests that this is not enough. it is all about giving. What you desire will come in due time. Why spend one hour speaking with someone when I can spend that same hour generating 1. these musings . Something beyond anything that I have yet imagined. Though. We only receive what we feel worthy of receiving. We need to get to the core of the self-worth issues. We are all worthy of the best that life has to offer.. What do you want is not something that I have focused much of my attention on over the years. it seems the utility of what has been expressed is limited. I have always had a feeling that I was in training for a position that was not available in the world. So. do what it takes to do that. But what that is varies from person to person. or am I allowing spirit to create it through me? And. it simply won't happen. because that is one way that all of this could serve others. But. But. how do we take the next step? How do we cause the works to make a difference in someones life? Is that what is to happen next? We desire that it does. If there is a better way. But then. Writing is one of my most precious gifts. If you do not feel worthy of receiving what you desire. What I desire is not the same as what anyone else that I know desires. that is not saying much. Perhaps it is something beyond imagination itself. But. The main exception is self-worth. If it remains for our eyes only. Effort is not wasted needlessly. Though. I wrote 65 . what if we desire particular results? How do we get those? Think in terms of what you can do to serve in the grandest way that is possible for you. They may not be the results that we want. If that is indeed the case. there are the works that distinguish me. I don't know what more that a few people desire and even then only know a small fraction of what they desire.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 focus our attention. we get results. know that even as you give. where is Wayne in all of this? What are his desires or preferences? Am I not living these in each moment? As such. where we focus our consciousness. why do we desire this? Primarily. you create a vacuum in your life for those things that you would receive.000 words that could potentially impact many? Spirit works elegantly where we allow her to. I would know that already . it is clearly a work of art... But. But.. but they will be appropriate results nonetheless. that this is not ultimately what I am meant to do. At a Tony Robbins seminar before this expression began. I haven't done much of this. if it is not the expression. If it were. It just seems like such a limited way of operating. I may only know a small fraction of what I desire. Do so to your heart's content. stream of consciousness writing is the expression that I have found most valuable to date. But. it might not be the expression that is meant to make a difference. Yet.. And. after sixteen years of doing it. Interesting. there is something more that awaits me. And. These ideas. I just know it.. these questions.. not even close. This is another aspect of belief management. know that if you are not receiving what you desire . Though. it is all about service. at least not to anyone but me. Then. That is not to say that there is anything wrong with receiving. how do we create the reality that we prefer? Do we even desire to do that? In the back of my mind is a sense that spirit knows what I need far better than I do. These very words are its works. I would not say that I have found my bliss yet . why can I not simply be content with whatever she brings into my life? Why do I need to choose what I prefer? Why does it even matter? Who is creating the masterpiece of my life? Am I creating it.

But. something that I have not yet experienced or have experienced only momentarily.. individuals are a different matter. our creations are the work that we are here to do. but you need to be smart about your trying. not as a solitary endeavor. But. But.. If we keep doing the same things in the same way. Perhaps that is the position that I am still seeking. Yet. but there is joy that comes from doing it just there is joy that comes from watching a good movie multiple times.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 "Philosopher King in Training" in big letters on my book bag. and not primarily as a stream of consciousness expression. If you keep trying. That is the only way. But. The joy of creating something new and different is quite profound. it is individuals that ultimately choose to pay for goods and services. Though there is a sense that the process of reading makes connections in the other than conscious parts of my mind that are retained forever. That doesn't mean that it won't take awhile. But. But. It is there. That is OK. could it be different? What if we could be paid for the things that we love to do? What if there is an intelligence behind all of life that has assured that our gifts and talents are distributed in a manner that results in everything being done to meet the needs of everyone in an optimal manner? What if all that we have to do is facilitate the discovery. and even those few only caught glimpses of it. there is a reason for this. and spiritual needs of all are met.. is it the next step in the development of society. and the world. No. That is the position that I was seeking in the manner of Plato's Republic. you will succeed eventually. What can I do that is of service to other individuals in the world? I generally think in terms of serving spirit. sometimes within seconds. how do I find them or how do they find me? And. It is a matter of persistence. do something else. they are the things that we do for the sheer joy of doing them. That seems like a huge task. looking at the world. mental. I will always be the man in search of more. we will keep getting the same results. though that could indeed be part of it. how do I adapt what I do to meet their needs. what am I to do? In what direction do I need to go to find my bliss? Beyond Imagination seems to be the answer. There is a spiritual world intertwined with the physical world. The written word seems to be it for me. in the growth and awakening of the world? We speak of it enough. there is something more. this world has remained hidden to all but a very few. We are all creators. even a single glimpse can last for an eternity. I am moved to read what I read in the same manner that I am moved to do anything in my life. Though. there is a strong sense that I will know it when I find it. I know that to be my very nature. and keep choosing again until the consequences are to your liking. In many cases. Hmm .. emotional. perhaps my bliss will involve a different kind of writing than stream of consciousness expression. It is how I ingest information and how I generate it. There will always be something unknown that eludes me. is that exclusively the case? Are there organizations that could be served by what I do or could do? If so. I'm not sure what utility there is in reading things multiple times . But. Though. even millennia.. In many respects. and application of these gifts and talents in service to society? That means finding the right job for each individual and ensuring that the physical. we must vary something.. awaiting us to take notice and see it for what it is. everywhere that we look. For many centuries. indeed it may. in the end it is always worth it. Then. choose again . development. It is lost within minutes. society. If what you are doing is not working. they are not the things that we are paid to do. That is OK. If what you are choosing is not working. in recent years I've become lax in my reading with the exception of this expression. Surely. Though the conscious memory of what I read is quite temporary. But. If we want different results. even then. Once awakened to the presence of spirit in 66 . is it? Or. Though. It has been that way for all of my life. it is not clear that such a position will ever manifest.

But. spiritual force. One becomes aware of the subtle influence behind everything. it seems that we need to develop an avenue for the dissemination of our work. And.000 words. We even sent it out to nine people. is the mightiest of forces. the expression would have reached more people and we would have seen some feedback by now.000 words. I simply copied the outline and started to fill in each section with a paragraph. Yet. It still amazes me that I had not been moved to do something like this sooner. we started and completed a "work" on Reality Creation during that time. but we have nearly four hours of commuting ahead of us. it has been four days since we last mused. But the work is a 13 page web document that includes a link to the Beyond Imagination site at the bottom. Instead. though subtle. But. When I generated the outline. For us.000 words. Well. 16 April 2009 Well. It seemed right that it go out anonymously. It can be evoked to move mountains as the scriptures say. it would take three full weeks to produce that. goals are not set in stone. services. That's not bad. they are optional. one that I would pull in material from the musings and add whatever was needed for transitions and to fill in any gaps. six days of 5. one day of 3. thus far we have two days of 2. What we have done to date is not enough. or at least create more of the things. it does make me wonder.000 words today. It is a sample of what Beyond Imagination can do. We're about half that now. all it takes is to follow the link to find out who originated the work. its size is something practical that anyone can read relatively quickly and start applying in their life. If those I sent the file to choose to pass it on to others. who knows how many may be served by it and how many of those may be moved to explore the Beyond Imagination site. It is as if there is never enough. and experiences that they prefer? Practical works. Beyond Imagination is a veritable mountain of words. If it were. unlike anything that I had been moved to do before. And there is still the possibility of another 2.000 words. If we can do that for Reality Creation. That's what we are looking for. that is not what happened. What will come from that we don't know. Perhaps this is a sign of things to come. if we can't convey to people how to create masterpieces of their lives. For the ten day stretch of vacation. Though. Beliefs and belief 67 . What good is all of our metaphysics. we'll be lucky to make it to 4. in excess of five million to date.000 words. the work is a calling card. Though.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 everything.000 today. But. everything changes. what other topics might we do that for that would have just as much impact? Effectively. At our normal rate of expression. That is OK. short and to the point. I thought it was going to be the table of contents for a new book. At the same time. That is 43. and one day of 6. The whole work was done in less than 16 hours from start to finish. They need something that they can digest quickly and apply in their lives. This was completely unexpected. Most people don't have the time to explore what it has to offer. Plus. a primer on creating the reality we prefer. It was completely unexpected. something continues to drive us to do more. It has the potential to make more of a difference than anything that I have done to date. It doesn't even have my name on the work. I still can't believe it. it is a substantial work.

But once we started. I guess I could have chosen to do that anyway. but it would have made it virtually impossible to wake up at six so that I could make it to work on time. Yes. Though. We know that now. it was something that we simply had to do. But. Let the consequences come as they will. at any point in time that could change. It will be interesting to see what comes of that. The outline flows forth though I jump from place to place to expend it and I move things when necessary. The Reality Creation work consumed the vast majority of our free time. I wouldn't have that problem. we also feel exhausted. a very tall order indeed. Filling in the outline was a matter of starting from the beginning and working through to the end. in particular falling to sleep. We can rest assured that the unknown will always have an honored place in our 68 . I'm sure there are a number of these. it seems that it will be a combination of both. It might change to write another work such as this. What I don't know at the moment is when I will be moved to take on another one and which one that might be. That is OK. there is nothing that says that we won't be driven to begin a new work tomorrow. And. The Reality Creation work was unexpected. we may be surprised by what turns out. Having an outline. "No rest for the weary" just flashed across my mind. we were driven . So would the nature of awareness. I don't know why. Maybe spirit has something in store that I don't yet know. This kind of work is novel and has instant utility. are there other things that we are meant to do that we do not even know what they are? At the moment. this process forces me to crystalize what I know. that is to muse again. The process is different from musing. it is all locked inside me waiting to be unleashed. Can we be this productive every week? Can we have a "work" to show above and beyond this musing every week? That is a tall order. We do what we are moved to do. especially choices to act. That is what we have done today. So would the nature of spirit. Yet. it all comes down to expectations. there is also something about expecting the unexpected. We tend to live up to our expectations. Though. or perhaps a reluctance to lose consciousness. we can probably do more of the same but is that what we choose to do? Or. So would being all that you can be. Choices always have consequences. it seems that there may be a bit of a lull to allow the universe to provide feedback on what we have already done. Also. Right now. It might change to write a whole new book. One thing I noticed last night as I tried for over two hours to get to sleep was that if my spiritual work were my full time job. at least it was in this case. But. The exhaustion is nothing that a good nights sleep won't fix. we tend to do what it takes to achieve this. It is there. In fact. Being surprised is wonderful. even then. That is OK.. it is just as automatic. it seems that it is time to get to the heart of it and fix it. Effectively. some belief about sleep that I am not seeing.. There must be some kind of issue involved . We can get that tonight. We never really know until we are in the midst of doing it. That is another first. without referencing what has come forth before. We feel good about what we have done this week. Whatever it is. I would have simply worked on into the night until I was exhausted enough to fall to sleep naturally. I don't know that I've ever sent anything metaphysical out to nine people on the same day. but sleeping has been a problem for over a year.. a framework to work within was something that we had not done since the Beyond Imagination book and Reality Creation 1010 nearly 16 years ago.. there is definitely a sense that a number of these are indeed going to come forth. That is what we have done this week. But. at the moment. So would know thyself. But. Though. I've even tried sleeping pills to no avail. So would the nature of consciousness. though there were a few times where I filled in later sections before some earlier sections.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 management might be another useful topic to address.

what do I choose in my life next? At the moment. Now. that's a pretty good percentage. very good indeed.. What is there that I truly need that I do not already have? I'm truly blessed with abilities that I do not understand but which I am able to use virtually every day. Your life is one of spirit now. Perhaps that is a problem. Deepak Chopra says: "We are human beings. At the very least. We are meant to make a 69 . the directive continues to be to do what you are moved to do in each moment. That is what happens when you do what you love. We still offer the value of $1 per word as the means for generating this financial abundance. The one thing that I ask for is to be able to do my spiritual work full time in exchange for financial freedom and the ability to fund the Beyond Imagination endeavor. I don't really know. the consequences will come soon enough. No. What is it that we choose to do with our life? We choose to do our spiritual work.. not enough for an extravagant organization. While a spiritual work is indeed a grand part of our life. What is important is intent. you will reap what you sow by spiritual law . Rarely do our actions impact us alone. Between the words that we have already generated and the words we are to generate. our responsibility can only go so far. On Friday. In the end. it is the state of being that comes first.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 life. it is the state of being that comes first. I can't stop thinking about what our actions this week and this day have set in motion. at the same time others have choices as to how they are going to interpret and be impacted by our actions. 18 April 2009 We had a very good day on Thursday. it is the services that we have provided that will be remembered. As such. It is too much fun to be "work". Our doing should be a reflection of who we are being. That's literally as good as it gets. it is not really "work" at all. be truthful. So. Though. doing is secondary. nor would I expect there to be. Be loving. at our Psych-K session we tested the 19 core beliefs from the Reality Creation work. our Beyond Imagination work. Though. Is that so much to ask in exchange for effectively devoting my life to this work? But. OK. we'll have to see what we are moved to do differently and how this impacts our life and the lives of others that we touch. But.. What was our intent for doing something? If the intent is good. 14 passed and 5 failed. So. generally so is the outcome. Overall. We were able to balance all five that failed using a single one of the beliefs: I deserve to love and be loved. so sow well my son. much of our spiritual work is done simply by our being present to others. they will have made a difference. It has been for some time.. being who we are and sharing who we are with others should exceed any work that we do. But. Until then. Always. It took awhile. The other than conscious parts of me were quite resistive to this. I do so love this expression. If we want to go beyond that. There is nothing else in my life that matches it. we are responsible for all of the impacts not just our own. And. be sincere. The rest will work itself out. that would be enough. be compassionate . It is very important to consider the impact on the lives of others. but enough for a bare bones organization. in the end we did succeed. be kind. these are all states of being from which compatible acts may arise. be peaceful. Indeed. sow well. Being is primary. full time and employ a team of twelve to engage in the Beyond Imagination endeavor. we will need to find was to serve better or serve more. spiritual or otherwise. All that we ask for in return is sufficient financial freedom to do this. not human doings".

Seek and ye shall find we are told after all. That doesn't keep me from searching. we don't see it within our power to make that so at present. such is the case. Or. Though. but at some point. We can make that choice at any time. all of these words came from and through Wayne. Though. We have free will. I've let few people in. Everything is OK . But. It seems that there is. indeed it seems that way much of the time. However. my sense is that my experience is somewhat extreme or fringe. Even after 35 years of metaphysical study and 16 years of metaphysical expression. body. The feeling is beyond compare. then it seems premature regarding assessing what is within our power. I know not who Wayne is anyway. and I've rarely ventured outside of the confines of my private world. With that comes the freedom to choose. Actually.. mind. But.. Each of us must do as we are moved to do. my priority is here. Yes. But. heart. But. When we are truly being who we are. And. And from what we have seen to date. Most people focus too much on the later and not enough on the former. And. how do we know what that is? How do we know when we are being that? We know by how it feels. We are spirit expressing in flesh fully and completely. What that means is that I know not who I am. Spirit. on this expression and on all that is Beyond Imagination. I'm still not even close to discovering who I truly am. It is not for me to see things as others see them or do things as others do them. But is there more to life than work for me? Is there more to life than this. At present. How do we get people to realize this and apply it in their lives? The parts have different purposes. that means that I don't feel that I belong to any community at present. they are parts of each and every one of us. often these reasons are not aligned with what is in our best interest and the best interest of all concerned. indeed. Yet. Next. It is for us to choose to use them. consciousness. There is no doubt about that. or at least there should be. What do we choose to be next and do next? We choose to be whom that we are. It is backed by my actions and where I choose to spend the bulk of my free time.. Perhaps this is something I will never discover. soul. Who we are and what we want. too. We have been given unique gifts and talents with which to make that difference. Whenever I ask what it is that I want to do with my life . I tend to look at myself as a maverick. then we are definitely beyond what I know. who do we refer to by "our". one of the side effects is bliss. these are all parts of Wayne. Yet. we strive to manifest something better. whom that we were created to be. Beyond Imagination is always the answer. To date. My world is Wayne's World. There is no judgment.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 difference in some way with our lives. is OK. it is a pretty solitary one.. Spirit is virtually unlimited. that is OK. At that point. at the same time. That is OK. It is as if there is nothing else that matters. spirit is a part of Wayne. there is a sense that spirit has rewarded me nonetheless. something more aligned with the grander image we have of who we are. There is always a reason that we are moved in the manner that we are. However. Though. She has given me over 5 million words to ponder and to share. No one else can force it on us. I would manifest a community that I would choose to be a member of. Yet. But.. if "our" includes spirit or includes Wayne. generally it only lasts for 70 . in this existence anyway. OK is not longer good enough for us personally or collectively. only we can make that choice. If it is me alone. It seems that there is so much that we could be doing if Beyond Imagination were our full time work. It can permeate all that we do. but it is the whole that ultimately matters. That. I have no idea as to how others experience such things. We are in the zone. These are the two primary drivers in our lives.

Right now. Further. It takes laying down those parts of our ideologies that led to the need to harm one another. Even allowing that spirit is expressing through me. you are expressing at roughly 17-20 words per minute. we know that you have high hopes that it will someday. You would have it no other way. And. It doesn't change your resolve. then it will indeed get out to those it is meant to serve. it seems that I. But. I am who I am for a reason. my contacts are basically exhausted. A lot of things are that way.. I can only do my part. Can we do that collectively throughout the world? Another possibility would be to build a virtual Shangri-La that lives in the minds and hearts of those who choose to be a part of of better world. I need to allow others and the universe to do their parts. It is beyond anything 71 . That is OK. I know of a few more people. perhaps it doesn't need to. You have found the work that you are meant to do. You will love what we have in store for you. Where people lack. Though. this comes from some trial and error and the accompanying learning that comes from that. We always have the ability to choose again. who will? But. it is enough. That is all it takes. But. That is a respectable rate for you given that your max typing speed is less than three times that. Went back to look at our Reality Creation work from this week. then. learn from our mistakes. significantly less than that. the founding principle of the utopia that was Shangri-La was "Be Kind". But.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 awhile. BE KIND! Actually. it is a matter of getting it out to those who might be served by it.. not spirit. You generate more words than anyone but you will read. each time we choose differently. there is still uncertainty as to whether that will manifest. It is definitely ready for prime time. They require doing what it takes. two simple words expressed as a directive . That is OK. your life is unfolding precisely as it must. This is your life. there seems to be only so much that we can do in the time that we have available. Are there more effective ways in which I could express? Perhaps. how do we know what it takes so that we can do it? Usually. However. And. There were a few typos that I corrected. From there. That limits the expression to the speed that you can type. come what may. it is a matter doing what it takes. a utopia on earth. Trust. So. We keep trying again until we achieve what we desire. It is not clear that a utopian community could isolate itself physically in the world. at least in my experience. what else can I do? I am one person. Actually. but it is still important that you record what is expressed. and you have to generate these words in your head before you type them. we allow an assortment of negative factors to come into play that keep people from being what they are naturally inclined to be. "In the end only kindness matters" just came from a song on the radio. Yes. am the limiting factor in that. the consequences will be different. That does not mean that it can't last longer than this. You are devoted to doing this. a loving world. In the movie Lost Horizon. In fact. for the present. when we have a world of haves and have-nots. that could change. but overall I am still quite pleased with the work. how do we stop the insanity? How do we stop the violence and the killing? This takes more than just laying down our arms. But. and try again. The bottom line is that if the work is meant to get out. Now. at least a good part of it anyway. I can do that. but in this case it is not your desires that are the determining factor. see what works and what does not. it takes that and abundance. That is all it takes to create a peaceful world. We have to be willing to try things. There are a couple of metaphysical sites that I know of that I can go to as well. why don't we take responsibility and do what it takes to fix this? If we don't. We know that you strongly desire for it to unfold differently. Perhaps it can be embedded in rather than isolated from the world community. I have the few contacts that I have for a reason as well.

The power of synergy enables a whole new level of expression. The only conscious choice that I am aware of is the choice to express each day. we do it willingly by our free choice. thus far. You will not be disappointed. Either way. Though. For awhile.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 that even you have imagined. But. it seems that we need to work smarter somehow. Now. I will not know how many it reaches. But. We can only do what we are moved to do . it will happen. We can desire whatever we choose. What can Wayne and . something unlike anything that I had done before. it doesn't seem to matter much anymore. in our commitment we desire more . but the increase in quality that comes from two or more consciousnesses working on something as well. is anyone that is in your life in any capacity? This is another question that we have not asked before. This would brighten up my days. But. As we found out this week. Being willing to do spiritual work is not a problem. I was moved to disseminate it via e-mail rather than by posting it to the Beyond Imagination site. How many are reached by any of the Beyond Imagination works never matters. Hmm . We know what Wayne can bring forth. flowing easily in and through our life. it won't. I would primarily do that by sharing whom that I am and what I do here. But. And yet. surprise is good. I would expand Wayne's World to start including others. we were finally able to connect... I'm sure that will come naturally. Perhaps it is time to start thinking in terms of some collaborative works. If it is meant to be. What matters is that they came forth and you read them. this is what we must do. She said that she had tried a few times in years past and got failure to deliver notices. It helps to see ourselves reflected in what others do. what can spirit operating through two or more do? Not just the increase in volume from the additional linear expression. If it is not. We need new insights to keep us from becoming stale and repetitive. no sign that the term of our commitment will be fulfilled. we are speaking of a one way sharing.... Nothing more could be asked of us. and you will be surprised. It is what it is. That makes it easier for further dissemination. Though. I was consumed by my commitment. I find a way to make a difference by how I live my life. In some ways. enough to eliminate our debt entirely. that does not matter. Allow us to do our job. where . in no way is that a condition for us to continue our work for Beyond Imagination to the degree that we can. That demonstrates our level of commitment. I don't know why. We demonstrate this every week. That is OK. We definitely take the principle: never take more than you give to heart. Oh well. for you. I've had the same e-mail account and web service provider since 1995. You have given spirit control of your life. I have to do what I am moved to do. It truly is. brings forth. Further. Either way. I'm not as attached to getting it anymore. that is especially true for this expression. But if spirit operating through one can do all of this. While we desire financial freedom. what does that feedback tell us? What did change? I was moved to create the Reality Creation work. and almost every day. If others were involved. Either way. We just need to be willing to work for it. That was a bold move. it is something that I desire.. the form of that expression may be other than our standard musing.. Yes. Well.. So. And we prefer to ask nothing of others that we cannot pay for in some way. there are some people who know something about 72 ... Ultimately. It is curious that one of my metaphysical contacts from years ago sent a query to see if I was still around on my birthday. So. Anything beyond that is gravy. Though we may go so far overboard as to fail to recognize and receive what is being offered to us. We make that choice nearly each and every day. It is interesting that we already consider our life to be abundant and money to be our friend. This is how we choose to expend our free time. my life goes on. This is what we do. there would be more feedback and interaction. over a week since our birthday and no sign of change on the work front.

that mean I don't know much about Wayne. My hope is that others might learn some of that from this expression as well. just as these thought come forth now. And. I learn a lot from what is expressed here. and even God on occasion. I am no closer to consciously knowing where this expression comes from than I was on the first day. And. Though. a lot about consciousness. and especially the past 16 years. Yet. we missed another day yesterday. this is what we do nonetheless. not in the least. but somehow We are Wayne. Yet. every word expressed was necessary somehow. that does not stop these words from flowing. I needed this experience and I needed to record it in this fashion . consciousness.. partially as proof of the very journey. What needs to be expressed is always expressed when it is time for it to be expressed. every experience.. But. such is how it feels. After 16 years of doing this. But. And. Perhaps it has to be enough that Wayne is able to express as We do. how it might serve is an open question. perhaps I never will. Though it is only recently that I truly accepted that all of the originates from Wayne. That is fine with me. Not everything has to be understood. That is where you go to find me. at least for the past 35 years. the world. Destinations are only stopping points along the way. Beyond Imagination is a record of a 16 year adventure in consciousness.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 who I am . I share what I can. To that end. bringing me to the very brink of insanity on more than one occasion.. Yes. it also comes from Wayne. Yes. There is no sense that these words are being generated by me. Oh well. Besides. Most of the experiences were thoughts that came forth through me in a stream of consciousness fashion .. There is a sense that they will continue to do so so long as I am alive. oh what an adventure it has been. Perhaps I never will. a lot about spirit. I don't know who Wayne is and how I relate to Wayne.. it has been up to me to enlarge my reality framework to account for the new experiences. For me. even if it is from limited reading of the material at Beyond Imagination. He must be doing it for a reason. Though. from spirit herself. It has been a journey that nothing in my formal 18 years of education from Kindergarten through an MSEE from Stanford prepared me for. what spirit does through me. and a lot about Wayne. These words have been flowing forth for over 16 years. and to interpret what they meant about me. It seems that Wayne must know this. I don't. The tricky part was to explain where the thoughts came from. that happens sometimes. spirit. But is that the same? It is curious that I speak of Wayne as if he is separate from ME. Though. But. I know what he is able to bring forth through this stream of consciousness. He is the originator of all of this. it is not like we have anyone other than us hanging there waiting for every word. it is important to find ways to enjoy the journey. This seems to be a primary relationship. Yet. a lot about myself. In life. It comes from source. That is where I go to find me. I don't know why spirit does what she does through me either.. indeed that is the case. Yes. a lot about reality creation. and potentially be of service to many. I don't know why he does what he does. the journey is everything. There is no sign that this is to change. what Wayne does through me. not even close. With each new experience. We believe it has the potential to live long after we are gone . one that I should understand by now. they enter my brain and I type them 73 . I am not Wayne. Because of this. there is a sense that every step.. that suggests that not only do I not know who I am. do I really share who that I am when I do this? I share what I do. the journey has be a journey of consciousness. not me. this is by far the most important thing that we do.. But. In fact. 20 April 2009 Another fine day to muse.

That is OK. YOU are moved by YOU. And. or as anything other than YOU. But. Though. Perhaps that is simply the nature of consciousness itself. or we would have been moved to do something different. But. moved by whom or by what? You are in control of your life . To what end you might ask. you will find they are available far 74 . That seems to be a sad state of affairs. there is a reason for that.. Though there are no doubt things that we could be doing that would allow the Beyond Imagination expression to reach more people than it has. That is. I don't know who this expression would serve and how it would serve them. I am free to choose to change it. If you want things to change. what is done is done. not by me. It is simply a matter of choosing to do so and acting in accordance with my new choices. That is what I desire now. But.. About the only things that I seem to control are when it starts.. I have to create something new . But. it still seems that there is more that I could do. There has to be a way to be free. or the universe has to present a new opportunity. and I feel good about it.. Only recently have we put a price on some of our works. Also. I can't see any other choices. less than two dozen people overall. Now. But. It doesn't stretch very far . Though. It will happen if it happens. is that what is meant to be? Is that what we want to be? Is it enough that this expression comes forth as it does and we are moved to share it as we have been? It must be . Though. But. I have no sense of originating them. The process of writing for me is no different. ever more. they are additional resources. Though.. I've reached a point in my life where the spiritual matters more than anything else. their contacts may not be as limited as my own. do I need to know? Is it not enough that I bring it forth and share it? Much of it I have chosen to share unconditionally. There need be no end. It is all a stream of consciousness. The key to doing anything well is to employ the right resources to do the job at hand. it can be quite elusive. There has to be a way to "no longer toil at the bidding of any prince". I choose to do something about it . unless the working conditions were very free and open and basically allowed me to do whatever spirit moved me to do. Any organization that is being done is happening by the originator. and you can enlist them to do your joint bidding. We express because that is what we are moved to do . In the meantime. And. Though. there is nothing stopping those with whom I have shared the work from sharing it with others.. I'm not quite sure just what that something is. we have yet to get anyone to pay the price that we have set. It is a matter of being open to what I am moved to do. at least to this point. we are moved to do more. I reached that point many years ago. Hmm . YOU must decide to move yourself and/or others to change them. I was able to share the Reality Creation work from last week with another six people and a metaphysical site... there is nothing to say that it has to continue to be like that.. however. Actually.. And... and because we get pleasure in the very process of doing it. it is what it is. you had not thought about including others in such things before.. not any force that you might label as spirit. more than anything that I have been moved to do before. when I take breaks. That's about as far as I can take things within my sphere of influence. to leave. I have shown that I can do it. and when it ends.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 and read them.. I have no idea of how I will end a sentence when I start to utter it. To what degree the expression reaches others seems to be out of our direct control. Interesting. Sometimes the right resources are not available .. Though. I've been doing this for nearly 13 years. It seems that enough is enough already. Even when I speak. I'm not sure how much longer I can put up with being here in my present job. I am reluctant to move into another position of working for someone else. At the moment. There is nothing that I do to consciously cause them to come into being.. Indeed. Regardless. even then at times it seems that these are out of my control as well.

I probably speak for less than one hour per day. Some things are beyond our conscious control. Though. find ways to create it in the lives of others.. We need a new avenue for expression. We've had several of these over the years. and that is what we ultimately seek. that 75 . YOU. I went to a play last Saturday.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 more than they are not. we don't seem to have the control necessary to manifest that here. But why? Why is the status quo not good enough? Because it does not bring us to a state of bliss very often. what is it that we want. I don't consciously know what I am reading as I read it. Yet. But that is not saying a lot. Though. Hmm . The channel is filled by an other than conscious process. That doesn't seem to be a problem for spirit. Though. There is something remarkable about that. Though there is nothing saying that our expectations need to be reasonable. Each time we experienced something unexpected. We'll see what consequences come from that choice. we can carry on an original monologue here for over two hours a day. Keep doing what you have always done and you will keep getting what you have always got. You are in control of your life. really realize that. I would not have sent anything generated here out to an audience of over a dozen. awareness. I am starting to open up. It is so other than conscious.. Prior to this last week. So. Yes.. perhaps they will in time.. one that puts more of us into it. That is starting to get close to what we can reasonably expect to do. And.. And. though I do seem to be able to consciously control if and when it happens. Doing that was a new choice. or at least doing the same thing in a different way. joy. That may or may not happen. we need a new forum. Change requires doing something new. serenity. but not all things. things that truly matter. and what are we willing to do differently to get it? Do we even know? The chief thing that we want is to do our spiritual work for Beyond Imagination full time. perhaps enough to constitute a book. we mused for nearly five hours per day. The two characters had memorized over an hour of dialog. it would be nice to experience a change we desired consciously for a change. After all. On most days. something innovative. But. even then. abundance. What next? It seems that it is time for a major transformation in my life once again. but what are the things that are under our control? And not just anything. There is not much in my life that I can say that about. It is time for you to realize that. You have it within you to do many such works. This applies to any number of things . I'd be lucky to remember a single line. it seems that we haven't really answered the question what next? It seems time for something different. That is something that I could never do. During our week off two weeks ago. Some things. What are we willing to do to manifest that? The first thing that came to mind was anything. that I am not able to keep even a whole sentence of this expression in mind as it comes through. Perhaps relationships should offer a taste of this as well. peace. If you want to create something in your life. Nearly everything about how my mind functions is a mystery. What better gift can you give than the tools to create a masterpiece of ones life and the instructions for using those tools? Your Reality Creation work was of this nature.. It all depends on what you choose to do. But. every day. I have to go back and read it to do that. Perhaps that is the nature of all such changes. This expression is not one of those things . that remains to be seen. happiness. Yet. what about this expression is reasonable? The only thing that is expected is that it will come forth and it will surprise me in some way. I just don't have much to say. I wonder whether this is true for everyone. But. Perhaps there should be.

That is a good thing from my perspective. Wayne's World is a mirror reflection of Wayne. we have dreamed it. where does Wayne reside? Within does not seem to be the right answer somehow. It does not keep it from doing what it does. we have come here to express .2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 is not true. There is clearly an intelligence organizing and bringing forth this expression. the feedback to date has been so limited that we don't know what the impact of our sharing has been. and vacation days. Though.. Our experience. It is only more recent that we realized that this expression was a creation of Wayne. It is time for the phoenix to arise from the ashes. That is not to say that we can't be moved to do new things. We trust spirit. however. But. The next thing that came to mind was anything that spirit would have us do. For that we would need to include our world as well. But. is that all that it does? And.. and we have even taken actions aligned with it. Interesting. We've known for some time that it is a reflection of Wayne. in that revelation is there something that others could learn about who they are. That is how it is for us. Though minutes later.. but how do we know that for sure? All that we really know is that we are moved by something deep within us. we have little to no memory of what we just read. what are we moved to do in this moment. But. however. Perhaps that is why planning has a limited place in my life. the instrument through which this stream of consciousness comes forth. everything from within to our interface with the world. It is a matter of allowing a new self to emerge. And. Every realization changes us. That makes it difficult to plan anything. To what end you might ask. That might be different if what was coming through was gibberish. One major part of my world is this expression. it seems that Wayne is all that we are . We simply trust that Wayne and spirit know what they are doing. That is where spirit resides for us. but for others both in our life and in the world.. Everything in my world is an aspect of me being reflected back to me. it would help if we knew more precisely what the motive force in our life actually is. Indeed. what it does primarily is reveal who I am to ME. what do we do with that realization? How do we live our life differently as a result? There must be a way. Are we ready to truly live in a new way? We have imagined this. My mind is such that I have no choice but to live in the moment. in the moment. it is not clear that we can make it into anything other than it is. About the only places where I am aware of planning are a few appointments. The bottom line is it is what it is. Our role is to be the channel. It is sort of a mini version of All That Is. That is where life should be lived anyway. At this point. Though. So. That I consciously don't know what that intelligence is does not matter. It is enough that we can do it and are moved to do it. We read the prior days musing prior to starting this one. Though. we do it without any foresight of what will be expressed. that is true. something that we choose to do quite often. we have chosen it. That condition feels right somehow. Not quite. We say that it is spirit moving us. That is OK. And. We are not privy to what we will be asked to do until it is time to do it. Whatever she would have us do is right not only for us. To us. lane selection while driving. is that enough? It seems that it 76 . is that she moves us in the moment. That hope is why we are moved to share this expression as we do. it doesn't matter. Once again. That is a long time. Major realizations change us in major ways. Rather. There is nothing else that is there. But. Oh well. 21 April 2009 We did something we have not done in awhile. nothing could be further from the case. Why is that? We have been sharing this expression at the Beyond Imagination website since 1995.

you are stuck by your own conditioning. Remove the blinders and see life. What else is there for us to do? Find a way to love the life that you live. Life wasn't meant to be all work . There are over 6 billion of us experiencing a lot of things. What you don't know is whether others can benefit from the path and the markers that you leave on that path. How do we share our experiences in efficient and effective ways? Here. the details are all recorded and linked subconsciously. It will simply manifest because it is elegant . Be grateful for everything. Though. If I look at my own experiences. So. But.. When you do this. Most of all. created in his image and likeness. a very long way indeed. That must be coming from somewhere. Act like who you truly are. I seem to know things that I have never learned. we applaud your efforts at sticking with it all these years. And then.. be grateful. In fact. And. Your best is always good enough. there is much more for you to do before your time on the planet is complete. That doesn't mean that you can't choose for it to be something different and do what it takes to manifest that. Even your job gives you more freedom than most. at times it seems that you in particular seem to ask more than that from you.. You ain't seen nothin yet as the saying goes. What you need to know is that you have a spiritual guidance system that keeps you headed in the right direction. Until you do that. and consciousness of those who can be served by it. be grateful for who YOU are and what YOU can do. it seems that we have to trust spirit. you know that already. Don't. You have known that since before this expression began. even when you consider some of that work to be play. We have to trust that the collective is somehow capturing and learning from the experiences of all of its members. we don't seem to be applying the resources to teach these lessons elegantly. soul. Yet I seem to learn from my experiences anyway. how does the experience get transferred back to the individuals that need it? In the business environment at work. That is OK. but from the relevant experiences of others. In the end.. Perhaps that is from some sort of tie to the collective. all life for what it truly is. It seems that we should be learning not only from our experiences. You are special. Truly realize that. Life is miraculous. An attitude of gratitude goes a long way. You don't have to force that to happen. you will be amazed by what you can do. If the material is useful. see how your consciousness soars. You don't even know where the journey will take you next. But. Though. Very few are available to my conscious mind. Neither spirit nor God ever ask for more than that from you. This seems to be a big waste. you don't know where the journey will take you. hearts. Yet. and spirit loves elegance. If you don't see it that way. you already know that. it seems that there are many things that each individual has to learn for themselves. have a lot of fun. That includes your life. the big things and the little things. There must 77 .2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 has to be. Your life is already far more incredible than you give it credit to be. You are unique in all of creation. You are loved. The very life that you live now. Don't settle for less than being all that you can be and doing you best. Though. there are attempts to capture and share lessons learned but these are pretty feeble overall. Further. Enjoy. It matters not how you feel about this expression. It allows others to find you if they wish to do so. Who you are is always good enough. There has to be a way. You have no need to know that. But. it all comes down to utility. You are a child of God. then you are looking at it with blinders on. It is important to you that they do so of their own free will. Have a little fun for a change. and create well. The main marker is this very expression. There must be a better way. it will find its way into the minds. be happy. But. Just remember to appreciate what you already have.

We need no reason. they are simply responsibilities. That. To this point.000? That is approximately two hours of expression. But. yokes that involve carrying out our mission in life. but it just doesn't. But. they are not chains. things that prove that this is truly what I want? There must be. is any of that enough? How do we determine what we need to do in the moment? One argument is that if we did it. We just don't make it a requirement for doing it. or could we do what we do more elegantly? That is always a possibility. But. however. we are expressing once again. That does not mean we don't desire to earn our livelihood through what we do here. There is no sense of why we are doing this anymore. this expression would only be the half of it at most. That is how it has been for over 16 years. does my vision involve doing things that make others more abundant as well. How do we decide what we need to do next? It seems that should be dependent on our goals. It is a matter of being open to the opportunities that present themselves. We do it because we are moved to do it. That makes us feel good about what we have done each day. we have no goals when we engage in this expression other than a quota of 2. It doesn't matter that we aren't being paid for our spiritual services. We are only as limited as we make ourselves. I'm not sure why. we know that even if we were doing our Beyond Imagination work full time. There are yokes that we choose to bear. It does not constrain us or box us in. we continue to muse until we have at least reached that quota. we have to realize that it is always within our power to remove the chains. What next? This moment. That gives us a sense of satisfaction. Then. But. Though. why isn't the half of it at most now as well? Good question. on what we are trying to do. Some of these opportunities we make for ourselves. Others just come to us. Then. we haven't been moved to do anything else.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 be. But. We need to be ready to seize opportunities when they come. is that the next thing that we need to do? We do it out of habit. first we have to realize that they are there. That is not being proactive. we needed to do it somehow.000 words for the day. most of whom are not even in our life yet. But. Could we do more. Not every burden that we bear is a chain. Only we can remove the chains that bind us. We do it out of the love of doing it. what if we were? What else is there for us to do? Most of what we imagine ourself doing with the other half of our time involves others. 22 April 2009 78 . we do for ourselves. most of whom we would want to pay for their services. And. We are meant to be free. This is an unconditional expression. of accomplishment. When we carry our yokes freely. what are they? I desire my life to be far more abundant than it is. I can imagine my life being very different than it is. yokes that involve caring for ourself. yokes that involve caring for our families. It is just something that we do. Life is what we make of it. But. But. Why 2. do I truly realize how abundant it is already? And. such is not how it is meant to be. At the same time. In general. there is a sense that it is something that we must do. We choose to do it and we choose to share it. can I do what it takes to make it so? Do I desire it enough? Have I made a compelling argument for why my life should be as I imagine it? Are there things that I could do now to make it so on a smaller scale. they are not even burdens.

. what do I refer to? Do I know what I am? Do I know what I do? These are basic questions. And. we are isolated from others much of the time. That last statement was a surprise.. One of my Psych-K homework statements was: I give spirit control of my life. without doing . That is what this very expression is all about. without form. one after the next.. the illusion we are creating for ourself. they can only be experienced. Together they are ONE.. That implies that there is more than one self that makes up Aslan. I have no understanding of how spirit and consciousness communicate within me. that doesn't have to be the case at all. That is just the way that we choose to operate. though flesh. It seems that we have found Wayne. has a function within the whole. mind.. Each of the parts. Also. Not that we recall having ever experienced that.. Another was: I give my whole life to spirit and my whole spirit to life. But. Yes. How can I not know what it 79 . Some things simply can't be explained. Yet. Yet. I am not ME. and believed she was guiding us every step of the way for so long that it is second nature.. But. and all of this is coming from spirit herself expressed via a stream of consciousness. have we found Wayne or have we created Wayne. not me. And. So. I can honestly say that I don't know how to answer them other than to say that I don't know. no matter how engaging it seems. We have placed our trust in spirit. It seems it is for God to create beings. we do all that through form. I speak as if I am independent of the other parts. and me. Hmm . just being. in that process we realized that we are separate. I am not consciousness. but it is indeed a possibility. at some level this cannot be.. It is everywhere. are we getting any closer to fulfilling our destiny. For. that means that I do not consider me to be Wayne. there is no separation except in the illusion. heart. We are spirit expressed in flesh. I would have it no other way. can it be that Wayne is cooperating with spirit in doing this? Could this be a joint creation? Something seems wrong about that. We have to believe that each step we are moved to take is indeed taking us in the right direction. consciousness. we incarnated. I choose to live a life of spirit. And. I am perfectly fine with the expression We are Wayne. indeed. But. There are many things that I don't know. They are fundamental. that would be twelve selves. We came to play a role. of what is this WE composed? Spirit. That is just the way that it is. Hmm . That seems to be the next step on the journey. How do we reconcile that? It seems that we don't.. When I say I. Spirit is engrained in everything that I do. I feel that way. We came to fulfill a destiny. There is always the possibility of taking a wrong turn and running into a dead end. Yet. And. Though we speak in terms of all of this being created by Wayne. We have always been spirit.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 Each day goes by. That's interesting. even ME. I cannot be exclusively any of the parts of who I am. without time. We came into this existence for a reason. none of the parts are separate. has a role. I am not mind. It is not real. body. Both spirit and consciousness are parts of Wayne. We just discovered or realized who we were. It is spirit herself expressing through me via a stream of consciousness. what am I? There is a sense that the difference lies in separation. The illusion is not real. what is life without illusion? If we eliminate the illusion. pure beingness . If the symbology on my ring is correct. I am not heart. They are all interdependent. We have said: substituting one illusion for another is not the work of the awakened ones. We have to believe that we are. Then. Perhaps this is one of those things. Though. Together they are Wayne. what is left? What is left is beingness. I am not soul. I am not body. Hmm . That is OK. I am not spirit.. But how does Wayne relate to Aslan? Aslan is our higher Self. "I" is by far the most used word in this expression. But there is a sense that this stream of consciousness comes forth through consciousness not from consciousness just as it comes forth through me. soul. it is also Wayne doing all of this.

We meant every word of that. perhaps they would be right. There seems to be a lot more to explore here. At other times. There is more to ME than this. we manage our actions. and do what you are moved to do to the best of your ability. This seems to refer to who I appear to be in the moment. We experience far less joy than is good for us. We are venturing into places where we have never been. Though. We should be able to choose joy regardless of what is happening in our life. But. I simply AM. If that is what you are moved to do. it is the most natural of things to do.. These words are all that you get to see of me. we manage our beliefs. though it could easily be for the remainder of my life.. I have always been and will always be. This is an adventure in consciousness. we manage our emotions. And.. I would have it no other way. That is I am what I consciously know to be ME and what I consciously know to be not ME. Bliss is another one of those states of consciousness that we should be able to choose. and when we have done that. I AM.. at least not one that I can remember anyway. Then. We are Wayne. Though. Hmm . That is something we desire to see change. it seems to be purely a matter of choice. I just need to live it to the best of my abilities and enjoy it as much as I can. That is good.. this can be the most difficult of things to do at times. Why are we moved to make such distinctions tonight? Why are we moved to do anything? The bottom line is that most of the time we do not know why. But. Though. It is there that I soar.. That is OK. and on some level it is correct. I just have to do it. I do not know . It is appropriate that it comes forth as a stream of consciousness.. it was not a conscious choice . There is more to I than ME. Actually. I don't have to understand what I do...2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 refers to? In the previous paragraph we said: I am not ME. why should we not manage our state of consciousness as well. There can be no separation. And.. I don't have to understand why my life is as it is. It is a matter of what we choose to focus on. why is it so hard to relate to the statement: I am Wayne? The first thing that came to mind is that I am more than Wayne. That assumes that I had a choice in having it this way. Yet. It still rings true now that we've said it again. then that is sufficient. Strange musing tonight. you can feel me in your meditations. something within me says that this is precisely what I need to do at this time. Wayne is spirit expressed in flesh in this incarnation. My home is in consciousness. Yet. If so. I wonder what "this" refers to. That is one of the ways that we share whom that we are with others. No. We haven't taken the later part of that to heart as we should. we manage our imagination . Wayne was born and will die. It seems that the vast majority would think that I am crazy carrying on with myself like this for hours each day.. these are not things that we are taught to do.. these are not necessarily the same. Be YOU.. How long that will remain the case. Hmm . especially those things that have utility. Regardless. 80 . how can that be? If Wayne creates all of this. we manage our choices. It is enough to recognize that we are moved. I am not enfleshed. it doesn't seem to pass the sanity check. Actually that statement has no meaning for one who exists beyond time and space. This gets down to the very essence of who we are and who we experience ourself to be. we must teach ourself . teach what we have learned to others. but I do.. Though. it is enough to do without even recognizing that we are moved. That is all that is ever asked of anyone. it came forth as it did . we teach them what we know. how can I be more than Wayne? There is no sense that Wayne lives beyond this incarnation. what if our actions are to generate and share words. I am ME and not ME. Though. It is our actions that make a difference.

locking in the details for those expectations is not something that I do well. what we are seeking is to make the process more conscious.. Though. We consciously desire our life to be different than it is. but the inputs to the process. Surprises keep life interesting. There is no use in reinventing the wheel. The bottom line is that it is up to us. We can accept that. to act as if what we desire is already true. not the process per se. I'm far from being a conscious master of reality creation. it seems that the necessary changes to allow this are beyond me. Every shift of consciousness changes this expression. I am a willing participant doing what I am moved to do. I long to do much more. somehow. But. and in my spiritual work. That does not stop us. But. Our life is what it is. The reality creation process already works well. we can also choose to change that and take appropriate action consistent with our choices. Surprises are good. I'm doing quite well. it is 81 . However. That doesn't mean that I can't have expectations. One way to do that is to realize that our life is already a masterpiece. nor does it seem that I should have to do this. we need to make big changes in how we choose to live and to work. We create our own reality NOW. thinking about it is not enough or something would have happened by now. Then again. We just need to find a way to use it to get more of what we desire and less of what we don't want in our life. even at that. it seems that it is time to participate in whatever transformation is to happen. How do we make that happen? Either we have to find a way to make the reality creation process more conscious. but. Though. and that is quite abundant even for the limited amount of free time that I am able to devote to it. I can allow my life to unfold as it will and be grateful for whatever happens. It is just a matter of manifesting the opportunity. At this point. Or. Yet. or can we take things into our own hands? This would require a big change in how we operate. Yet. That happens sometimes. if we expect big changes in our life and our work. That is OK. there are no signs that the changes that we desire are close at hand yet. we never know what we will find until we find it. Yet.. We have made many attempts to do just this over the past six months. We are meant to create masterpieces of our lives. That does not mean that it is the best that it could be . We are also considering the control of our higher Self. overall. I can accept that. Is anything truly outside of our control? Here we are not speaking of conscious control. Significant shifts change the expression in significant ways. Clearly. We always have. Actually.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 It is a sign that something significant has changed. what do we truly want in our life? We have thought a lot about how we would choose to live and choose to work over the past six months. Though. But the reflection of this expression gives me someplace to look. It is curious that I have not noticed the shift internally. Though. The later feels like the easier way to go. It seems that I couldn't be even if I wanted to be. It is up to us. There has to be a way. That is OK. In particular. are there things that I could be choosing to do on my own? Do we have to wait to be moved to do something before we do it.. When we look. If it is meant to be. The only other thing that comes to mind is to act as if. that is simply how it is. in my work. how do we do that when what we desire involves things outside of our control? That's an interesting question. it will be. It seems that it is time to do something different in my life. But. The thing that I value most in my life is my spiritual work . But. I'm used to allowing my life to unfold as it will.. I don't have to be in control. we always will . Generally it is a surprise. we have to tap into the reality creation process and have it do our conscious bidding. fortunately not often.. 23 April 2009 We are getting a late start tonight..

I don't want this to be a voluntary thing. for our world to change. We can change them at anytime. I desire for my spiritual work to start paying me what it is worth. we change what we believe. this involves others. I see myself doing that nearly every day. Another thing that I want is to earn enough to support my family. Life is an opportunity. So. but to date we have not really needed it either. How many of us seize the opportunity and do just that with the moments of our life? Why not? We have nothing to lose and everything to gain. That is one of the wonderful things about free will. my spiritual services have been worth zero. Something does no seem fair about that. Though there is some hope.. we must change. But. Can it be that easy? Indeed. our reality remains the same nonetheless. That is what I imagine my life and my work to be. Some opportunities we create for ourselves . In particular. If we go by experience to date. I only know a few of whom I desire the twelve to be. ultimately I desire it to pay sufficiently to allow me to do my spiritual work fulltime and to engage twelve others in the Beyond Imagination endeavor. Perhaps it is because what I say that I want is somehow false or incomplete. We wait until we are moved to do something 82 . There must be something that we are missing. I believe that I know what I want. I know it by seeing what I create each and every day. we need to be ready to seize our opportunities when they come. we believe that we have made a compelling argument for it. we desire financial freedom. Though. especially since I consider what I do here to have so much more lasting value than anything that I do in my job. we have been through this many times. each and every one of us. or even less than zero since I have had to pay to make them available to others. It is only so because we make it so by our choices and actions. Does this come from us or to us? Interesting question. Our lives are simply too complex for that. It seems that the answer is both. Every moment is an opportunity to be and express who we are. Interesting. to augment the salary I receive from my job enough to fully support my family. But. At the moment. we change what we feel. we can observe the results in our life and in our world. Spirit has revealed many times here that this expression is worth $1 per word. Though.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 the best that it can be in the moment. we change what we imagine. what does it take to manifest opportunity in our life. and we don't treat others as if they are. just as I desire to be paid what my services are worth. we change what we do. At the very least. others come into our life from the outside. And. Either way. Am I practicing what I preach? Am I making the necessary changes to move my life in the direction that I say that I want it to head? It seems that at some level I am not. We are magnificent beings. why did I not simply say: I know what I want. We always have the ability to choose again. Clearly. Yet. But. our life could be more abundant. This in turn may be way it is not manifesting. That. one thing that I want is to engage in this stream of consciousness expression. Why not? Just doing that would make a big difference in our lives and in our world. However. how do we change? We change what we think. or my reality would already be different than it is. so the question is how do we make it so. Either way. For our life to change. There is nothing that says that life has to be difficult. It is that simple. I want to pay people what their services are worth. That is my dream. How do I know what I really want. we change what we choose. What we can't predict is what the results of the changes that we make will be. Yet. But.. how do I make it so? Actually. we don't act as if we are. The worth of this expression would give us that and the ability to fund the Beyond Imagination endeavor. we wait. the income comes short of what is needed to support my family. or the universe has her own timing in mind. and use that feedback to make other changes. She hasn't revealed how to withdraw from that value. I do that via working at the job that I hold. All of these things are under our control. it can. But.

knowing that it is perfectly suited to us. is not the proof of that the ability to create a masterpiece of ones life? Indeed. It only matters that we seize the opportunity and do it when we are moved to do it. it is ultimately my responsibility. There. We accept that destiny. Why not? In many ways. So. Surprises are good. and when we pick up the next day. Let's see what comes forth tonight. There is some reason that we were moved to state our commitment as we did. In fact quite good. We know that our life is unfolding in accordance with a destiny that we have created for ourself. it should be. and my years? The immediate answer is differently than I have in the past. But. but it would be up to me to make it so. I know that spirit is there by my side. we don't let that stop us. and inviting people into my life. it probably would be. It all gets back to what do I want from life? How do I want to live? How would I create my days. we resume where we left off. Every time we tap into it. We know that. whether the stream exists when we are not tapped into it. but we still had two hours of free time when we got home. But. Though. Sixty hours of my time per week for fifty weeks per year for four years in exchange for financial freedom for my family and sufficient abundance to fund the Beyond Imagination endeavor. my months. that doesn't mean that I can't change. We just weren't moved to continue what we had started. It could very well be as if we are reading a book.. Yet. There is more of a sense of spontaneity. When we finish for the evening we mark our page. The compensation is cheap for the amount of service that we intend to provide. you are more than competent in your spiritual work. we engage in a creative process. Our choice to express creates an opportunity for all of this to manifest.. what would I be other than what I have been. even if it is just in the form of a stream of words. Even so. it is after all. guiding me every step of the way. Here. What matters is that it does happen. I do not feel competent in my life. whatever it may be . my weeks. But. But. we are ever on the edge. I consider myself to be a metaphysician. how do I know if that is really true? It seems that if I truly wanted something in my life then I would find a way to manifest it. How the stream is generated.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 different. something within me says that such is not the case at all. That is not too much to ask. It does not matter how. Yes. Though. We can wait. and the process is repeatable. Spirit doesn't have us go on tangents for six months. we have no clue.. I haven't really done that much. it seems that it 83 . I am responsible for my own destiny. poised between what is manifest and what is not manifest . That we do not know how it happens is beside the point. Yet. We got a late start. In over half a century of existence. We are patient. It is a matter of being more outgoing and open. There is some reason for that. No. and what would I do other than what I have done? What would I choose differently? It seems that the ball is in my court. or we wait until what we desire appears in our life. What is it that I want? Do I really know? I know what I say that I want. Here. That is OK. Also. We never really know. Oh well. we tap into it at a different point in the stream. not in terms of the same stream of consciousness coming forth. But. I do not consider my life at present to be a masterpiece.. it is expressed as a conditional. Yet. Why can I not do that in my present circumstances? It seems that I can. 24 April 2009 Short musing yesterday. Would it be different if I were doing my spiritual work full time? It could be. You are competent in your work. we do not know. I am responsible for my own happiness. something important is missing. It is for me to set the direction for my life. how do I exercise that responsibility? I choose to do so NOW. I have stated what I am committed to do.

nothing saying that this might be the way that it is. that would be great. actions. If they do. I believe. It seems like there is something that we should be doing that we are not doing. And maybe. Do they agree to the potential impacts? Do they believe that I can do what I am committed to do and that the services provided would have value? At this point. at some level I must be creating it. a select few in person. I know.. For one thing. It is for us to make the case as compelling as we can . But. dreams.. imagination. intent . There have never been any qualifications expressed. ultimately. There is something missing in our formula for manifesting. The declarative part comes forth as if that is simply how it is. I don't know how I know any of this.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 is not our job to assess that. Perhaps we need their buy-in as well. not only a need for me. or anything of the like. I said go from there. That suggest that we need to somehow create the very community that we would choose to be an active member of. It may simply be that it is not enough. It is my greatest hope to give her wings that she can fly. but also for the entity that is Beyond Imagination.. that we start with a community of 13 lightworkers and go from there. choices. How do we manifest the terms of our commitment? I truly believe that is in my best interest and the best interests of all concerned. So. I sense. In that time. we create that. what could it be? Beliefs. In general. that is not my call. we have continued to remain virtually isolated . In this case... It all comes down to what manifests. it may not be that anything I am doing is wrong.. If this were not true. Yet. That was nearly 16 years ago. Yet. or the steps in our recipe are wrong somehow. That applies to this very expression. not grow from there. whatever manifests in our life. For the most part this expression is either declarative or questions. This is more than Wayne's creation. There is a need to know principle that operates in my life. And. our commitment would have manifest by now. That doesn't necessarily make it so. to be a hermit if you will. We expressed our dream in the Beyond Imagination book at the end of 1993. we long to be a part of a community anyway. The Beyond Imagination works may reach a far wider audience than that eventually. At least. and the like. there is not telling what will manifest as a result. as if that is what I know. It manifest in my life nearly every day.. I would be a hermit who shares who I am and what I know with a select few. So. if our endeavor of 13 succeeds. But. perhaps it is a need. Either we are missing an ingredient. It has been like this since the expression first began. it says that there is a lot about who I am that I do not know. When I need to know something. At the very least. it involves Gini as well. What does that say about me? What does that say about consciousness? What does that say about spirit? It says a lot. and then leave the rest for spirit and the universe. I really don't know how I know anything. I can believe anything that I want to believe. it does not really matter. Perhaps it is placing undo limitations on my abilities. That is just the way that it works. Then. but I just don't see myself interacting on a regular basis with more that a dozen or so other people. what else could there be? We are building a commitment that involves others. just not any present community that we know of. But. Is this simply unknown or is it unknowable? At this point. Though we do use different verbs at times: I think. We create our own reality. apart from any sense of community. that is our hope for Beyond Imagination. I just do. My nature is to be solitary. We dream of a better world. first steps first. they are not even aware of what I have 84 . I will know. Hmm . They are in a position to fulfill our wish. Right now. My commitment would impact lives other than mine. emotions. other possibilities will open up than I have not yet considered.. or in my opinion. I feel.

is that what my life is about? We have said that this expression serves spirit and serves the world. If we weren't doing this. God helps those who help their selves. It shows you who you truly are. It is clearly our life's work. Though we have limited knowledge that would allow us to compare how we live to how others live. it is what you do for a living. Then. not necessarily in that order.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 committed to do. And. Perhaps I shouldn't be. To some degree.. Though. truly believe that our prayers and wishes will be answered. and even having a well-paying half time job. it all comes down to where our abundance comes from. Perhaps that is too much to give to anything.5 hour drive home. We have to believe. we may make a different choice. is that enough? Should it not also serve others? How do we make that happen? Your Reality Creation work was a start.. we need to stop making the choices that keep it being what it is. I come closest to being who I 85 . and watch TV and movies. The results of the sharing are out of your hands. But. You might say that we don't have much of a life. Which abundance is more valuable to you? Yes. Our life is what we make of it. If it weren't for the income. We engage in it nearly every day. And then there was a miracle.. Miracles do happen . That is what happens when you share. We are hoping for a miracle to happen to change our life. we have to have faith. but we have to do what is necessary to create them in our lives. both are necessary for your wellbeing. I'm in a strange mood tonight. It seemed that if the financial freedom were forthcoming. That suggests that perhaps this is all for my eyes only after all. it completes you. There has to be a better way to live and to work. I've been fighting something all day. Oh well. I would be out of here. Oh well. when doing it. If we desire that it change. Also. we know what that is. God also helps those who help others. My heart is just not in it. We have to believe in the impossible or the improbable. I know that Gini would love being free from debt and having more than sufficient income to live comfortably . That is OK. Yet. I don't get sick often. to date. There is also a sense that the universe will not do for us what we can do for ourselves. perhaps not. What more do I need to consider? Am I learning anything from my present work environment? Sometimes it seems that the answer is yes. In many ways. my spiritual work is what I am here to do. At some moment. Clearly. Beyond Imagination captivates our heart and our soul. Your spiritual job gives you this abundance of creative expression. the work that matters most in our life. Yet. you would probably be right. What next? At the moment. About the only other things that we do are read. but clearly this expression is of far greater value. It is precisely what we choose for it to be. Perhaps. Perhaps I don't yet have the faith that would move mountains. it wouldn't matter.. Such is the life of a weekly commuter. we continue to muse. Perhaps that is it. I would be free to work and live as I desired. I'm tired of over 13 years of commuting weekly and being away from my family all week. And. Your job gives you sufficient abundance to pay the bills. It has the potential to impact at least the 16 people that you sent it to. I'm ready to devote everything that I am to Beyond Imagination. But. but those times are relatively rare. I'm not looking forward to the 2. why is it not what we do for a living? But. There is no place else you could go to provide this kind of insight into you. the first thing that comes to mind is working full time for Beyond Imagination from home. Life is about service. It has been awhile since I have been truly engaged. none have really provided feedback on its content. When I think about what I want most. Though. what else would we do? The bottom line is that we don't know. not today. That makes it valuable beyond measure. But. Don't underestimate the value of one good example. it is where you are most alive. None of that matters.

do we truly know it? Do we truly know anything? Many a statement comes forth in this expression. it would have been quite different. That is. Here we capture that stream of consciousness.. it could even happen in sizable numbers. That no one has chosen to pay for our works offered for sale yet is besides the point. There seems to be no end to this. It does not matter that nothing seems to come of it. Though. how do we know when we are giving our best? We just know. unless you consider being engaged in this expression a joint activity. It is time for something to give. Clearly. Realize that. Yet. We are all grand beings. That is one of the things that keeps us coming back for more. 25 April 2009 Another day. In many cases. That is how we evolve on our path. repeated literally thousands of time over the years must somehow make a difference. other than additional words added to my collection. Yes. but nothing could be further from the case. But. and at some point we choose to share what has come forth often for free. they are always there. We are grateful for that day. It reverberates within us. at the same time we know that all of this comes forth from Wayne. This choice is no different. We can choose to do that at any time. Clearly. and all the days that have come after it.. We each have a destiny. That is what we all shall choose eventually. It is for us to discover what these are and be it and 86 . But usually we are just as surprised by the questions as we are by the statements that are made. but lately for a fee. It is time for something grand and glorious to happen in my life. We do not know how this stream of consciousness is generated.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 was created to be. it is a joint activity between spirit and me. We each have a purpose. At least that is what we have been told many times. They are there. you just have to open your eyes to see it. How do we know which of these statements are true and which are not? At this point. And. that could change at any time. That is what we are meant to choose. If it is meant to be. There is something that we came to be that no one else can be. But. all we have to do to do this is to get our of our own way and allow our innate abilities to surface.. And then see what unfolds. We can't imagine what our life would have been like without this expression. Yet. We can choose to be who we were created to be. I do what I am moved to do . All choices do. it would be nice to turn this into a dialog or an interactive discussion part of the time. Our best is always good enough. neither should we. We only know that something allows us to receive it. We have it within us to create masterpieces of our lives. It is something that we just started doing out of the blue one day. We just have to release them and use them. We never know where this expression will take us. Hmm . That does not seem to be anything that we learned how to do. it doesn't seem to matter. In the meantime. You would think that this would be old hat by now. But. I continue to express. we still live a very solitary existence. Know that. even after 16 years. each and every one of us.. extremely important. We've been quite good about that. Spirit never asks for more than this. something grand and glorious is already happening in your life. it will happen. This is important to us. There is something that we came to do that no one else can do. how many of us believe that about ourselves and how many of us believe that about others. It could happen anytime. What is expressed is the closest thing that I can get to truth in the moment. It must be yielding consequences. we choose to allow a stream of consciousness to come forth. A few times we have done focused topic works and sometimes it seems that we are asking some of the questions that get addressed here. Yet. What you are seeking in your life has indeed found you. Our choice to do this. another musing. Here.

both of these things will be associated with our bliss. We still have no doubt of that. with each musing I continue to increase the balance. I know that only I can change it. It is just a matter of finding our team and doing it. That is OK. It seems that it is already required for me as well. I don't know if what's missing is something I must do or something that others must do. that is still unknown. That is a tall order. And. It will take what it takes. At this point. even with as few as 13 lightworkers. I believe that value to be correct. I can do that. I have done this for 16 years. I just can't see myself living and working in the same way for even another year. It seems that there is something more to it than that. a very tall order. That means that I have not yet found either of these things. And. What we haven't figured out is what services Beyond Imagination will provide above and beyond this expression. I would choose to be free. The sense is that it will come to me when the time is right. In some ways. I know that relationships are the weakest area of my life. The second I don't choose often enough. There has to be a better way. then again perhaps it is this time. but if it takes us in the right direction. there is no doubt that we will recognize them once we see what they can do. even if that means that I need to find cooperatively interdependent ways to work with others. But. and I believe that the Beyond Imagination endeavor is the proper vehicle. The rewards for doing spiritual work are abundance on all levels. we will find the right dozen. That is the one sure sign that we have found our destiny and are carrying it out. All levels. we had no doubt that it was possible to do. And. apparently that is not enough. please guide me as to what I need to do to manifest this. it seems that independence has become a prison of sorts. with the exception of a few people. and it is time for that to change. Perhaps that is what is keeping this from manifesting. and nothing of the sort ever seemed to happen. how do we define something that is unknown? We expect to go through a process of discovery in finding our lightworkers. I believe that I know what some of these gifts are. Spirit has set a value of $1 per word for this expression. we expect to interactively determine how they can apply their gifts and services to support the Beyond Imagination mission. But how do we give Beyond Imagination the wings that it needs to fly? It clearly has the potential to do works that impact the world. Though. But. It might take 2-3 months for the interview process.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 do it. I'm not use to needing others to do things in my life or in my work. that is not the same. Though. I don't expect people to work for Beyond Imagination for free. it is more than worth it. Well. how do we create the opportunity to do that? Is this something that I must do? If so. We are here to create the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully manifest in flesh. it seems as if they are already selected. There is a strong sense of major change just over the horizon. Who they are is destined somehow. Regardless. That is OK. especially not in my spiritual work. ultimately. The first I don't have a lot of. including the financial. Though. We have sensed this before many times. That will clearly be required for Beyond Imagination. Further. It seems that I should be able to place an order with the universe and have it be fulfilled. But. there is a sense that I am coming close. Though. One thing is for certain. Relationships require time and participation. And. What makes it any different this time? Perhaps it isn't any different. Until then. It seems that we shall see soon enough. It seems that I shouldn't have to wait to manifest this. a little more than that. It is a matter of setting priorities and doing the things that need to be done. we know that this is what we came to do. There has to be a way to allow me to more elegantly use the gifts that I have to provide service. 87 . But. we need the resources to pay for our team as well. It may require giving up some of my expression time. In that process. That I have not received any of it to date is beside the point.

it seems that our process for reality creation is missing 88 . Though. But. that is how we traverse upon any path. it is OK to continue to do the old as well. 26 April 2009 Once again we are moved to come here to muse. in particular. Where do we go next? How do we take things to the next level? What is the next level? Keep asking questions. It is our choice to expend our time to bring it forth that allowed it to come into being. this would truly allow us to be all that we can be. what is our next step? It seems that we never really know until we take the step. it is for us to decide.. something that we do will work. Yet. Though. Some habits are good. Somehow.. Yet. not until. this is not mere wishful thinking. perhaps even a response that surprises us. If a targeted short work on reality creation can't get a response . and perhaps all that we were created to be. Without our effort. we were expecting something different.. Your choice to engage in this expression is one of those. Keep trying new things. of how our life and our work could be dramatically different . We know that. financial freedom that would allow us to engage in our spiritual work full time and fund the Beyond Imagination endeavor as well. We desire to have a team of twelve lightworkers versed in the Beyond Imagination expression to work with us to create the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh. But we would also create the material abundance to go with it . When you have a need to know. Though. That will come in due time. we continue to share what we muse. We know that you desire to be paid in cash as well. That is creation at its finest. at the same time we have a dream. Though you do get paid in words every time you engage in this expression. There must be a reason for this.. what gives us any hope that this expression will fare any better? All that we can do is do what we are moved to do and share that with others. To that end. There is nothing that you can do to change that. there is a sense that the very act of bringing forth this expression is a service. We are demonstrating what spirit can do when we allow her to speak through us in a stream of consciousness. You already know far more than you believe that you know. the potential is there to reach others. you will know . There must be something that is yet to be communicated. We have yet to get any feedback on the work. Due time is not for you to decide. What you ask shall indeed be answered. we have a vision of what could be. and a great service at that. Surely. Though we sense the later is beyond what we can yet imagine.. Your life is strictly governed by a need to know. We are bringing forth something from spirit into the collective consciousness. It does not matter that the payback is not immediate.. Eventually. something that we desire with all of our heart and soul. That alone changes everything. Is that too much to ask? From our perspective. The work was different than anything we had been moved to do before.. That is one of the reasons this expression can come forth as it does. We take the directive to live life in the moment seriously. There must be a reason for that. will get a response that we like. Whether it does indeed reach others or not seems to be beside the point at present.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 It's been nearly a week since we got our Reality Creation work out to 16 people. how can we serve others if we don't reach others? That is a good question. this stream of consciousness would not exist. So. though not necessarily when you ask. One step at a time. one step at a time. even if it is only to me. That we don't know who is served and how they are served does not matter. nothing..

Nearly everything in our life involves others in some way. We have said that spirit operates from needs not wants. That is OK. perhaps even excellent at. We did that to some degree during our week off when we averaged musing nearly five hours per day. We can capture this stream of consciousness expression. So.. Spirit knows what we need and what we desire. Until we see what additional services Beyond Imagination is able to provide. Without the resources to commit to acquiring their services. The one thing that we have going for us is that we can write. For one who is primarily a hermit. we don't know how to make that so. Have I made it obvious as to what I am seeking from a sponsor or benefactor? We've stated our commitment many times. dreams. fifty weeks per year. in doing this. We are artists one and all. Life is about the co-creation of reality. And. Further. We have done what we have been moved to do. The bottom line is that we are not manifesting what we desire in our life. What we do with these and how we do it determines what we manifest in our lives. how do we do that with Beyond Imagination before we have the resources to commit to make the endeavor viable? We do so want Beyond Imagination to soar as we have soared. we are moved to somehow demonstrate what could be. That. While it is a lot. it just didn't seem right. But. six days per week. So. But. we are good at. We believe that we have identified four of our twelve. and how do I find them. it has great value to me. for us. It has been posted on the WWW since 1995. it seems to be precisely the lesson that is next on the agenda. We have already demonstrated what one person can do part time. but it could take someone awhile to find it. it comes right back to whom does that serve. then who would know? Designing our life. Then who does. despite how isolated we may seem. only 1/4th to 1/3rd of the time goes into our Beyond Imagination work. this is a tough lesson to learn. even though it is full time for musing. What 13 people can do synergistically. That is the highest form of art. something has to give. We effectively do that now. But. actions. and imaginings .2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 something. she fills needs through us. one way or another. that is really only half time for spiritual work. rather it is what we collectively do with others. even our life. for four years. Yes. But. But. it is not what we do in solitude that matters. Until then. She will see to it that our needs are filled.. The only way that we can see that happening is for us to start earning our livelihood from our Beyond Imagination work. We are simply asking for the value of services performed to date and to be performed over the next four years. But. and possibly other things we haven't yet considered. Perhaps desires are simply not strong enough. we do expect it to evolve. Yet. it is not just what we do. I 89 . there would be nothing that could stop this from manifesting. and even higher. it is nowhere near what could be. We are interdependent now. And. To free up more time for spiritual work. Spirit exists to fill needs where she can. Clearly. it seems that this is what we should be doing. emotions. We can see what evolves from there. that Beyond Imagination would fill? It seems that we do not know. Though. But. is far more than what one can do. choices. Do I truly need what I am asking for? Does society and the world truly need what I am offering to give? It seems that if the answers were yes. we might as well create a masterpiece. It is not like we are asking for a loan. I have no way to pay myself $1 per word for it. But. if we do not know and we're doing it. There is no doubt about that. We just need the opportunity to demonstrate that. to whom does that have value. It seems that this just isn't enough. though we haven't approached them to see if this is what they would choose to do. But. or how do they find me? They can find this expression at any time. We have chosen to engage for ten hours per day. Enough is enough to get started. That would be sufficient but not excessive. it did not seem right to ask for more. we have more to use than paints. We have beliefs. what is the need that I would fill. is that enough. even part time.

we need to generate 1. Everything else. even then.. Though. But. That is what we ask for anyway. we knew that this is what we were meant to do.000 words per day. if spirit deems that necessary. I am good at waiting. But. There is some concern as to whether spirit will indeed have that much to say through us. We are offering a 40/60 split between my income and the funds for Beyond Imagination for work done once our commitment is activated plus to pay for one year of the Beyond Imagination endeavor up front. to date. In fact. Primarily. that has never been a problem. for 50 weeks per year. spirit is there bringing forth this stream of consciousness. Even if we only express at our current rate of expression. It is simply a matter of time. In any event. spiritual endeavor. I just observe that such is what happened. That knowingness has remained throughout the years. we have been waiting close to 16 years.. that is what seems to be fair. 6 days per week.000 words per year. it will only take eight years to double the volume of Beyond Imagination expression. that would basically keep us from doing anything else with our free time . even if that means fundamentally changing who I am? I was hoping that somehow I was already close. that isn't a lot. To achieve this. Overall. we would love the opportunity to try. it seem like the right thing to do. am I ready to do whatever it takes . especially spiritual work in which spirit had an active hand. then we have our answer as well. or 150 musings on average. there always are. Are there other things that I could be being and doing that would result in manifesting what I desire? Indeed. unless we were earning our livelihood from our spiritual work. Right now. that some tweaking might be all that was necessary. to some degree. there is a sense that it is inevitable. she might consider it to be impossible for me.. The answer that come forth seems to be no. There is a sense that we can do anything for four years . That is a lot of expression. we have roughly the equivalent of 300. But.. What else can we do? Financial freedom. here. At least. Whenever we come here to express. Yet. Rather. The only possible exception that came up was Gini. anything except continuing to do what we are currently doing. it seems necessary for bringing forth this expression. That is curious because I'm the one that generally offers the argument as to why something is difficult or impossible. there have been years in which there were less than a dozen musings. But. It is curious that we are willing to fund the Beyond Imagination endeavor. If not.. And. That is OK. there is no sense of that at all. From early on in this expression. including providing for some part of the livelihood of our team from the proceeds from this expression. Is there anyone outside of me keeping me from manifesting what I desire. Yet. it involves continuing to muse. At this point. The Beyond Imagination endeavor is a metaphysical. While it would benefit her. Do we need that much expression? It seems that if the universe finds a way to employ us to do it. what would this be in this particular case? I'm looking for practical instruction here. It seems appropriate to fund it with proceeds that come from spiritual work.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 can only do what I am moved to do. The freedom to no longer toil at the bidding of any prince. Why do we desire these so? These are the only conditions that we put on our commitment. We have no reason to doubt that that can continue indefinitely. we will gratefully accept our fate. it seems that it is not for me to set the timing of things in my life. That is a lot of expression. I don't know why this was the case. and double the volume of expression to date in less than four years. then the answer is yes. such has been my experience to date. we would increase that by a factor of five.5 million words per year. Though. But. I don't know that she believes that I can do what I desire to do. That's 5. 90 . There have also been years in which there we 330 musings.. But. For this. perhaps such is not the case at all.

why are these two things not within our power to create as well? At the moment. are these the right thoughts? And. We are more powerful than that. What can we say? We desire what we desire. in the very job that we do. It is a matter of choice. but we have a lot of debt to service. an impression that can never be removed. For six months. how do we get them in the right minds? Is that even something that is for us to do? Who else can do it? You are closer to this expression than anyone. we have gone where angels fear to tread. However. You are you being you. In doing so.. we have to simply discover what we already are. Oh. clearly not. we do what we must. we have given up the equivalent of 1. we are close to financial adequacy. be determined by whether something does or does not manifest in our life. but we do not know that it will. in the very life that we live. That is OK. But. It will manifest or it will not manifest. That is the only way that one such as you could live. spirit has been working with us on this. Perhaps that is the problem. And. the value of this expression. it seems that such is not our call. we have gone too far . We can find our bliss in the very place where we are. no other opportunities have presented themselves. For the second. Yet. but it has come forth through you nonetheless. while we have not actively been looking. In fact.000 miles on our car. Things that we desire are outcomes. How does that apply in our particular case? Are we so fixated on manifesting our commitment that we have lost sight of our life in the process? Perhaps. It is a nice round figure that can be reckoned easily. our bliss. It a matter of knowing that we have an innate right to happiness. why are we not being compensated with more than an abundance of words. if so. Then again.. There is something to be said about living life without attachment to outcomes. You may not remember much of it. it has left an impression on your heart and soul.5 man years of our time commuting and over 10 percent of our income to live close to where we work during the week. even any of it at times. if you will. we are encouraged to do that. Toiling at the bidding of a prince is a different matter. I would need to translate what I do to something of value to others and sell that service. they are meaningful words. And. That does not imply that we should live our life without desires. what about our license 91 . We are free to do that at any moment. is that the true value of what has been expressed and what is to be expressed. why would they if we have not been actively seeking them? But the desire is to no longer toil at the bidding of anyone .. in the very circumstances that we experience. that we are naturally joyful and blissful.. the writing itself is fairly easy. but in the end they are just words. that does not seem to be too much given all that we intend to do. Overall. But.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 we can work out for ourself. This is not an easy task that you have taken on. Further. We believe that it will. For the first. So. You have done your job well. it is sufficient to enable us to get what we want for our family and for Beyond Imagination. It has alienated you from others more so than you already were. Then. Though the words form thoughts and the right thoughts in the right minds have the potential to change the world. It is automatic. they are important words. How do we do that? The only ways that come to mind are to work in my own business or to work for spirit directly. but it doesn't seem so yet. any person or any company. Is our belief strong enough to allow the forces of manifestation to take effect. the choice to give a substantial part of your life to it was not so easy.. when we make who we are and how we feel dependent on the outcomes. ultimately. Here. in addition to putting over 200. But. it seems that I am already doing that in bring forth this expression. Surely it was not mere wishful thinking. That's significant overhead to work at any job. Yes. Surely. Is that something that we just made up? Or. And. the figure of $1 per word has been with us for over a decade. Know that it can leave this impression on others as well.. there was a reason for that. they are valuable words . So. We can't let our happiness.

this is GV U 2196 = 74:The Benefactor You 2196 = 2184 + 12.. it doesn't have to be. However. when will it be a fine date to manifest? When will it be a fine day to transform what we say into the stuff of our reality? The only day that can ever be is today. What is meant to be will unfold in our lives when the time is right. At the moment. 1112 is the 2000 completion for 888. Beyond Imagination is it for us. first we act. but they are not meant to be difficult. Perhaps it is. it seems wait we must. Choose again. Though. We are comfortable with this arrangement. there is no desire in us for that to change anytime soon.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 plate number. then we see the consequences in our life. How can we let a simple matter of resources keep us from doing what we know is ours to do? The bottom line is that we can't.. And. But. we have a team of 14 in a 1 . We can't do anything tomorrow. perhaps it isn't. we are not asking the world to agree.1 . 27 April 2009 Another fine day to muse. That is the only day that ever exists. I interpret this to mean that there will be a benefactor that funds our endeavor. the resources will come. we are moved to allow this expression to come forth. That is the level of commitment that it takes to succeed. what are we moved to do in this moment? For one thing. Our lives are meant to be challenging. it seems that this is easier said than done. It has been like that for quite awhile. And. Right now. That is a powerful combination. No. at least until we are moved to do whatever is next for us to do. it is because we have made them so. From that. that means paying for this expressing to date and funding further expression for the next four years. never to return again. especially when it pertains to making major changes to our life or to our work. Hmm .. But.. In doing this. What matters is the value that spirit has set.. We need to do what we must to the degree that we can anyway. 12 is our team of lightworkers. At the same time. It is difficult to wait when the desire for something is strong . First we choose. There is no other way that it can work. It seems that every day is a fine day to muse. we are in her direct employ. there is a sense that something is immanent . But. We can't go back and do anything yesterday. 2184 is the final four of our SSN. In this case. is being comfortable with something a good reason for doing it? It seems that it depends on what it is. But. There is nothing we have to do other than to be ourselves and do what we are moved to do as a result of being ourselves. But. We would have it be our sole work as well as our soul's work. something that we will truly love to see manifest in our lives. truly doing it. and not let anything get in our way. there is a sense that destiny has a role here. We just have to get the order right in our commitments. Stop. This seems to be the formula for the success of the Beyond Imagination endeavor. 2 = Love/Wisdom with 0 source three times. With a benefactor. the only time that exists is now. We give it the highest priority for our free time. and keep choosing again until your life is what you prefer it to be. the world does not yet seem to agree with that value. We can only do it NOW. In any event. When they are. Our chance to do it then is long past. Rotated once to the left. 888(16) just happens to be 2184. this expression is something that we place a high value on. We have known that this is our spiritual work for some time. something grand. we 92 . Given that. From all of this. I am to take my share and use the rest to fund the services of the 12 lightworkers who we would employ. 6GVU219.. we do not know how to make this so.12 pattern. This has become the most important part of our day. Is that the level of commitment that we choose to apply? Once we are engaged in doing it.

When I see you. Though. There is a reason for your Golden Rule.. know thyself. what we do to one another. Unfortunately.. if so.. 93 . You.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 trust that spirit knows. But. it is quite successful . Know thyself in thy full glory as I created you to be. This way suffices. our choices can never change the fact that we are ONE. Then again. why are we not taught such things... That is the key . But. It simply flows forth from something that we call the source within. In fact. Massive change could be immediately around the next corner. From the beginning. But. how can we expect our world to change. And. In fact. we need to choose something different. because of this.. this has been a stream of consciousness expression. truly matter. Yet. it has still been all stream of consciousness. you will find that many of the limits that you have accepted are illusory. even it has its exceptions. this is well within our power to do. you already know such things. this very moment. Then again. it would have happened by now. truly mattered. it could come into our life this very hour.. is there a way to change that? How do we imbue our present job with spirit? Is not everything that we do spiritual? Are we not spirit expressed in flesh? Find a way to see everything that you are and everything that you do from this perspective. spirit herself. Do unto others as you would have them do unto you only works if your intent is good. Everyday spent engaged in spiritual work is a grand day indeed. that does not stop us. We do not consider our current job to be "spiritual". we don't live in an abundant world where the needs of all are met either. only you can take them away. they can appear to be apart. we need to do something different.. That would require that we derive our livelihood from this work. even if none but I and spirit herself are aware of it. if success can be measured by the volume of words or pages that are produced. in particular. Is that too much to ask? Is it too much to ask to be paid for what we love to do? Is it too much to commit to working 60 hour weeks and 3000 hour years? Perhaps we have no right to expect that much from ourself. But. that typically only comes to 2-3 hours per day. When you do so. But that may or may not happen. We don't even have to think about any of this. One would think that if something was going to change with respect to this. Even the few times where we have been moved to generate outlines and then fill in the sections. If we stay the same. how do we go about manifesting it? Collectively. They can choose to act as if they were apart. Our world is a mirror reflection of who we are. But. Because. we never know what destiny has in store for us. can do that. Live your life as if YOU matter. What you need to do is unlearn the things that limit you. In fact. Can we do that? We have been a party to this expression for over 16 years. The question is could we live in such a world? And. They are not real. I see me. It is all a matter of belief and expectancy. They are of your own making. much as she does in this expression. Hmm . Truly. ever. That is precisely what we have committed to do. I created you in my image and likeness. But. we long to make this substantially more. If we want to manifest something different. We tend to manifest what we expect. and will move us to do precisely what we need to do when we need to do it. it is not only volume. That is OK. deep within. At present. we live in a world where not everyone has good intents. It is that simple. Live your life as if spirit mattered. as many as 10 hours per day. we are far more than we believe and know ourselves to be. But our creations are always a part of us. We have to be content with who we are and what we have done in either case. that is what we do already. It would help if we found an audience for our works and received feedback on what we have expressed. they can never be apart from us. But. Though. we do to ourselves. except that only one-third of it is engaged in spiritual work. we know of no other way to express. There is a quality of content that is expressed here . we need to expect something different.

often in countries other than our own. they do jobs that no one else will do for the rate of pay that they receive. We had thought that something would change by our birthday nearly three weeks ago. Most of the gardeners are Mexican. they work hard and they do a good job under conditions that can be pretty brutal in the summer. Clearly. that did not happen or we would be in the process of a massive lifestyle change including resigning from our job. what we have is a grand unknown indeed.. clearly we are not independent. But. We would create a world of haves . We are interdependent. a world where each family and individual had what it needed to live a decent life. Yes. If only . It doesn't have to be this way. Even expressing five hours per day. Clearly. And. This is far beyond anything that I can dream of doing individually. literally. we have noticed that there seem to be quite a few people happy with their jobs . our three weeks notice would have concluded two days from now. reasonably open and free. I have my selection of shirts from nearly a dozen countries. In fact. However. It's a matter of living simply and having the right attitude. But. we are not independent.. When you don't have much.. that means a lot more content and probably enhanced quality. We live in a world of haves and havenots. Complexity and worry seem to go hand in hand. Each passing day means there is one less day this year to engage in the Beyond Imagination endeavor. But. One might wonder how that can be.. how independent are we now? When I go to the store to by a dress shirt. we get 5. at present I am grateful that it is reasonably challenging. Along with this comes stress. Further.000 words of expression rather than 2. including a lot of things for the Beyond Imagination endeavor. something that has become a killer in your world. Our planet has been populated to the point where our backyards join with that of our neighbors. What I can't imagine is what a team of 13 lightworkers aligned to create a better world could do. and where the abilities and talents of each individual were developed and used in a manner to serve society. it is not clear that anything that I might imagine about it would ever come close to characterizing it. how many can say that they even come close to this? We would offer that the number would be quite small. Have we done all that we can do? It is curious that not another person on earth knows that I feel the way that I do about my job. All that it takes is 4..8 million to give us a shot at doing it for a year. In 1776. A good number are possibly here illegally. nearly everyone has a gardener. it is about time. when we add the services of the other 12. This is a goal worthy of striving for on a global collective basis. the year isn't getting any younger. But. many of the products being sold come from other countries. The first are relatively few compared to the later. it involves sharing what we have to a degree that we have never done before as a world. and compensates me sufficiently to meet most of the needs of my family.. living simply is your only option. It was never meant to be this 94 . If I could only do this full time. none of which was made in USA. when I go to the local hardware store. and when we add the interactions among and between all 13.. we declared our independence. Life is too short to be living to less than your full potential. even with jobs where the wages are relatively low.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 it will only happen if the prevailing mindset is changed.000. If I could only do this full time. in this country. Yet. Yet. There is little open space left. That is just payment for this expression as of the end of last year. All that I can think of is that what we could create would be Beyond Imagination . Though I would leave it in a heartbeat if circumstances allowed.. no matter how much we try to cling to it. What we do impacts others. I can imagine a lot of things. Similarly. Again. Yet. In my neighborhood in the desert near Palm Springs. Isolation simply won't work anymore.

not by a long shot. Yet. can I simply be ME and work on identifying and removing any limitations that I find. Is there wisdom contained in what has been expressed here over the years? I believe so. we feel a sense of loss. a sense that something is missing. Yet. What keeps me from what I desire? Could it be the very fact that I don't believe that I have it? Could it be that I have separated myself from the very thing that I want most? Interesting. Spirit is one such part. indeed. we did not sense that this source was connected to anything external to us. Yes. When we don't do it. or at least we have been the only one to follow where it leads. All three of these are engaged in bringing this material forth. Yet. From where within us does this expression originate? From the beginning we knew that it came forth from within. we have the opportunity to commune with spirit for two hours. soul is another. One of the choices necessary is for all of you to become responsible for meeting the needs of all of you. There seems to be no reason to try to force the issue. and often be worse than the original one. Oh. And. How am I to know for sure? One way is to see what manifests. it is. Though when we are doing what we love to do. That is the cure.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 way. Everything else is a matter of treating the symptoms. allowing may require doing things that involve effort on our part. that does not change how we experience it. consciousness is yet another. Treat one symptom and another will rear its ugly head. even the hermit in the tarot. That is OK. Though. You can turn it around. But. It is just that life is not about trying hard. but it does not. What the parts are and what they do does not really matter to me. Can we understand the whole without understanding the parts? It depends on 95 . Those things that I truly desire will find their way into my life. That can be difficult for one who would choose to be a hermit. It is curious that we have no sense of creating the trail. Thus far. it seems that this is not something that I can judge for myself. I don't know how they differ. But. The elements merge into one whole that I am.heart . But. one way or another. We know that this sense is incorrect. our sense is that it comes through us not from us. that we don't have to act. But. Life is about allowing things to unfold in our life. you have to make the choices. Maybe that is something that we need to explore. Perhaps it should. and we look for ways to expand our world to be more inclusive of others. This is simply what we do these days.mind .000 words. does it really matter? Do I have to know what I am to be who I am? Or. I know that I am spirit consciousness . But knowing and being are not the same thing. When we come here.body. and I don't have a conscious sense that I am each of these. The other alternative may be that I don't really want what I say that I want. And. it seems this trail has only been for us. But. often. 28 April 2009 Once again we come here to muse. That doesn't mean that we don't have to choose. So. your choices individually and collectively have made it this way. I am confronted firsthand by this expression. where do we go from here? We keep doing what we are moved to do. even the most difficult of effort is mere child's play. But. You can make other choices. However. and do so in a way that leaves a trail of over 2. we have been told many times that all of this comes forth FROM Wayne. there is still a separation. a recurring mystery in my life that I cannot explain. They simply do not exist. comes down from the mountain to share his wisdom with the world. What will be will be. The system that I experience myself to be is not split into such partitions. There are parts of us that know other parts of us only by what they do. we participate in bringing forth this stream of consciousness.soul .

. I can say that I am Wayne. You can only experience who you are. Even my mind and my heart are illusive. YOU.. I imagine. How can I live with not being ME? I only relate what I know and what I experience. They clearly do things that are beyond my control.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 what you mean by understand. unless you are intimately involved in the creation of each life. For 16 years I have experienced this expression coming from a source within ME that is not a part of me. do I feel. YOU are Wayne. do I choose. or that we are Wayne and mean it wholeheartedly. You are ready to do that know. And then sit back and watch the fireworks begin. but how do you become who you already are? It seems that a realization is in order. You knew even before you finished asking the question . Wayne is not limited to physical reality. soul.. Perhaps my reality will merge with his at some point and I will know. responsible for interpreting physical reality. and try to make sense of what I experience? Hmm . those things I do not seem to possess. I say that I believe. This is the key ingredient missing from your recipe for reality creation . It only reflects back what you want you to see.. I just can't see how it serves me any longer. do I act. This can be distributed and cooperative. I am the ego. What is it that I do? Do I believe. I choose. But. it is Wayne. a realization on a grand scale. Then it seems that my first order of business is to discover Wayne. It gets to the heart of the question: WHO AM I? It seems that the answer should be the same as to the question: Who is Wayne? However. It has always been thus. clearly. I can go to Yosemite and appreciate its grandeur without having any idea as to the forces that created it or that allow it to continue to exist. I can't feel them as I can feel my body. But. if it is not me doing all of these things. I can't say that I am all of Wayne for I know that is not true. but Wayne is able to speak to me through me. Wayne also creates the reality for YOU. But. But. It just is. My bipolar condition is a case in point. the act of creation applies to the creation of spirit. I can see the products of their existence. It too does things that are beyond my ability to control. But you need to experience it. The I that I am is different in some way than the Wayne that Wayne is. We don't need central control of everything. That is. I act. that is not my present reality. But. in this existence. I dream. you need to make it real for you. You can only become what you are. or better yet to become Wayne. not to a specific incarnation. It is for you to realize that YOU are Wayne.. in doing so. do I dream. At the very least. I would be all that you created me to be. He has a consciousness. even my body is illusive. do I simply observe all of these things happening. That is a line of enquiry that we have never expressed before. But. Why that makes any sense. I have 16 years of experiencing what Wayne can create here in this expression. to the creation of soul. saying them doesn't make them so. That I am not experiencing this as such suggests that I am limiting me in some way. then who does them. But. 96 . I have been saying these things as long as I could speak. Perhaps it is time to question this and find some answers regarding who I truly am and who Wayne truly is. You may even know this. do I imagine? Or. You are not a part of Wayne. Interesting. At some level you believe this. that is Wayne. Though.. For that matter. Perhaps that limitation served me to this point. I know. Something about that doesn't seem right. You world is a mirror reflection of you. and spirit. I feel. So what am I? I am not Wayne. It seems that they should be ONE and the same. you need to realize it. Wayne creates the reality for Wayne. It seems that spirit and soul need some freedom of expression as well to create the very being that they will express within and to create the destiny for that beings life. it does not have to be. Yet. I do not know. I sense. I am seeing an expression manifest through me that deals primarily with spiritual reality. It matters not that I don't understand how he is able to do it.

being Wayne. You've got it. As Wayne. The process may be identical. You can ask any question of yourself and you can answer it in any way you like. that is how you function the vast majority of the time. but the interpretation is completely different. Yet. It is your choice.. what do I believe.. You are Wayne. you chose to subjugate your will to Wayne's will. You have everything that you need to be Wayne.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 Hmm . Not one moment can be erased. Then. Let your will be done. to be in the moment. That is not how your mind works. definitely not on an individual level. the time comes to end the childish games. what do I know. You already have over 5 million words that have revealed that to YOU. You have known it for some time. If you want to turn this into a dialog . what we do in this moment. I can be no other in this existence anyway. We have much to do before our time on the planet is finished. This is not a trick.. One of those games involves creating a new world. how do I know I am being Wayne now. And. You don't need to know anymore about Wayne.. It has been for my eyes only. this is YOU speaking directly to YOU. But. what do I dream. You know that. This is not a slight of hand. I am a magical being expressing in magical ways.. And now. and to do in the moment. sometimes multiple times. what do I choose. it is easy to do. Wayne. a grand scale indeed. There are other games that we can play that are far more fun. Though that can be said about every moment of my life. That journey is wherever the Beyond Imagination endeavor takes you . You know that you are indeed generating these words. From your limited understanding that was a useful and necessary step. or sensing. but who we choose to be. now hasn't it? This is what it took for YOU to find ME. The question now is how do I stop being what I have been for so long so that I can start being who I truly am . If that is not what I have experienced being to date . It doesn't matter that you can't remember the expression. In this case. But. your understanding is no longer limited 97 . I've been doing it well for over half a century. I would be Wayne. All along. Wayne is YOU. That is OK. What matters is HERE and NOW. and it will take you far indeed. the missing part of the manifestation process was the most critical step: BE YOU. It is quite interesting that 35 years of metaphysics and 16 years of metaphysical expression has led me here. something struck me deeply in all of that. Our journey is nearly complete. Every experience was necessary from the slightest to the greatest. You have a 16 year record of all of this. You are meant to operate in the moment. it is no longer hidden. Let that be reflected in how you address yourself. Each of those words came from Wayne through your consciousness and then passed through again when you read the expression.. More than that. here it seems is precisely where I need to be.. As such. it is out in the open. There is only YOU doing this. This is not spirit expressing via a stream of consciousness through you anymore. This is Wayne speaking directly to YOU. That is how you are wired. what do I feel. That is reality creation on a grand scale. after all. then. How do you become what you already are? It is not a matter of seeing. it is time for you to embark on your own journey. In your life to date. You know because something has already switched in your head. or thinking. Take some time out to process that. In fact. Remember. feel free to do so. what do I imagine? You don't have to look far to find out. or feeling . I AM Wayne. we have been as close as your very consciousness. You are only allowed to hide from yourself for so long. Obviously. What of my will? Wayne's will is law in your life... not so much what we do. There can be no separation.. you already know that. Now.. it is a matter of BEING. YOU are Wayne. There is no longer any Thy Will. for YOU to find Wayne.. Find a way to make it real to you. How can I not be Wayne? That's a dumb question.

there is no going back. and consciousness before. I am moved to do it anyway. here we speak what we know and what we know ourself to be. 29 April 2009 Once again. It is time for you to take responsibility for your own will. It seems that such was necessary to allow the 98 . This whole process is one of Wayne revealing Wayne to Wayne.. ME. Freedom is almost always good. If you are not experiencing it as such. Though. Why had we not realized this earlier? It doesn't matter. There is no separation. Every choice has consequences. I am Wayne. new ways of being. or maybe even as little as two days ago. Yet. Who moves ME? I move ME. in complex systems there are limits. spirit. There are operating ranges that the system must stay within to remain a stable system. Turn around and find your way to the adventure again. the adventure is primarily an adventure in consciousness. What we realized was we are Wayne. In doing so. you can own it as yours. However. some big choices and some small choices. And now. One thing that is different is the acknowledgement that I create all of this. we may filter them out via our belief systems and expectations. Rather. There are a lot of things that I do without knowing how I do them. Life is meant to be an adventure. When such shifts occur. It's interesting how we come to find ourself. No matter how much in control of our life we think we are . But. But. you open up whole new possibilities. It will be interesting to see where we go from here. room for miracles. I may not know how I do it. we knew that this expression came forth from Wayne. We are one and the same. The realization that all of this is coming forth from Wayne. There is always room for the unpredictable. Can we really have opened the floodgates to be who we are in two short hours? OK. the only thing that has really changed is your understanding of where Thy Will came from. But. I wouldn't have said this a week ago. who we are and what we do in that present moment determines what we will experience in the next moment. one that has had me question my very sanity many times over the years..2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 as it was. The cure is simple. In this case. For me. There is no other motive force in my life. That is where I live my life. Something that we have not seem come through before. Yes. That does not matter. I would have it no other way. But. and I AM Wayne is enough to transform ME into who I truly am. a genie has been released. or even to remain a system at all. you took a wrong turn somewhere along the path. That doesn't mean they won't exist. Interesting musing yesterday. it is a strange adventure in consciousness at that . quite interesting indeed. There is always an unknown factor present in life.. I choose to do it anyway. the sense is that we have truly uncorked the bottle. We couched it in terms of source. it's my time. The more freedom the better. the two hours were the summation of nearly 8. But. The only thing that matters is the present. That is the only point in which we ever exist. rather we simply will not be able to see them. we cannot control the consequences. Wayne possesses no awareness separate from mine. It is not that we changed what we are. here I am sharing who I am in the only way that has meaning to me. Everyday we make choices. room for the magical.000 hours that had come before. yesterday a major shift occurred. But. That the sharing doesn't seem to be reaching others is beside the point. Now. how do we make our realizations stick? We have to leverage them to develop new habits. Your will no longer has to operate under such tight constraints. We have become something that we didn't know that we were. it is that we realized we are something different than we thought that we were. And..

How do I go beyond myself? How do I go beyond the limits of Wayne? That is what I want to know now. not just know YOU. being ONE. nor does it restrict this . ME . It is time to experience being integrated. It is probably too much to expect that anyone would do that. It drives you to do what you must do. Yes. You can manifest as you could not manifest before. Does that make sense? Wouldn't it be far better to expend time condensing the material into its essence. you have been doing that for 16 years. WE. And. Can my process serve as an example to others? At 5 million words. and most of the time nothing happened. or how high you soar . that is not your nature. That is OK. Not your higher self. You have finally given yourself permission. these are your choices to make. But. reading 300 words per minute . YOU. But. Not anyone outside of you. YOU. but there is great benefit in bringing forth new material as well. You can do that now. I. It seems that you should take the time to explore the vessel that you are presently within before you seek what is beyond. That's the equivalent of a full time job for two months or 6 hours per week for a whole year. We're talking about how you apply your life. I would double that and more in as little as four years.. Your benefactor is YOU. they all come forth from me and refer to me. YOU. Wayne determine all of this. major change is just around the corner. Believe that. It has taken a lot to get you to this juncture in your life. But. It is curious that this particular expression is a combination of me expressing and me being expressed to. Before you worry about going beyond yourself. what 99 . know that. Yet. BEING Wayne. you have to be clear about what constitutes abundance for you. it would take 17000 minutes = 300 hours to read the Beyond Imagination expression in its entirety. And. about how you choose to live and how you choose to work. The stakes are much higher now.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 process to occur as it did. But. realize that.. But. In the commitment that I have chosen to make. it all comes forth from ME. into what was essential for spiritual transformation? I have mixed feelings on that. What makes things any different now? YOU! You are Wayne now. Then. You are different now.. there is always something more. I can see the potential benefits. YOU know exactly what you need to be and what you need to do.. this is not a game of chance.. Yours is to bring forth information that can serve others. but all of the key ingredients are there to help people play the game of creating their reality better. You have been separated from yourself for nearly all of your life. experience BEING YOU. in some cases to do things that only you can do. How they use it. YOU know.. we know. What do you truly want to manifest? Abundance is yours for the asking. It will be interesting to see what manifests as a result of this. I could do both and interact with other lightworkers as well. it will never be enough. Yet. You know there is always a next step. It may not be perfect. A few weeks ago you defined that process and shared it with those you know. and to allow the realizations to occur as they did. Quite interesting. Not anything else inside of you. Though. serve society. Not spirit. Yes. You create your own reality. You are the 48: The Man in Search of More. Yet. be that. and serve the world. and what they are able to create as a result is their business. if I have my way. look how many time YOU is used in the last paragraph alone referring specifically to ME. The universe does not define this.. It does not matter how grand you become.. change. you will always have a sense of dissatisfaction with any set of circumstances no matter how good they may be. it leaves it up to you via the process of reality creation. first seek to know YOU. you know that already. I wonder. we have expressed this many times before. I know that it all comes forth from Wayne. you know that the ante has just been raised. You can express as you could not express before. To some degree.

Perhaps it is not. That worked when spirit was the guiding force in your life and you were the glove that she wore.. Two. What reality do I choose to create? My commitment is a place to start. more money than I would make in the rest of my working life if I continue at the same job. Hmm . but why do I feel responsible for other people's lives as well? Because your mission requires it. At this point. that choice is to come here for a good part of it. a resume is at most two pages. But. every thought. it will be over two months before we post this to where someone might even have the chance to see it. I know that. YOU decide. something about that does not seem right. They are literally why we are here. However. that requires an influx of money . how do we expect to be paid for our services? The value of this expression was set by Wayne at $1 per word over a decade ago. that would be such a waste. and that is far beyond what you thought you were.. not just in my free time. Though. And. spirit is one of the tools that you employ to do your work. It just occurred to me that anyone that I know reading this particular musing might conclude that I had lost it. So. how do we do that. If something doesn't work out in your life.. It doesn't have to be that way.. not thousands of pages. So. There is no doubt that the Beyond Imagination endeavor is what I am meant to do . if there is anything that I need to do to facilitate the process consciously. Perhaps that is the case.. There is only YOU here. Now. These are instructions to myself. especially when it comes to your free time. It is not bound to start now. We need to make what we desire known to those who might buy into our mission and our dreams. YOU are responsible for your own life. Focus on what you want. and full time. In many ways. myself is the only resource at my command. I can choose to do whatever I desire with my free time. we are not looking to work for anyone else.. YOU choose every word that comes forth. YOU chose to take on that responsibility when you came. we knew what we were doing. Hmm . This value has been repeated many times since then. you've even found it refreshing to work with others at times. Leave the how to the other than conscious parts of you and to the universe. you are not a mit of her anymore. But in the manner that we have been sharing this expression of late. or to turn in the fact that we have created the words in exchange for the value that we have set? The bottom line is that it does not matter. What someone else might think has not kept us from sharing this expression in 16 years. In particular. Then. Perhaps it is a matter of not creating the right environment in which you can operate effectively with others. I have known for a long time that my mission and the mission of Beyond Imagination is to build the foundations for a new world in which spirit can 100 . You are so grounded in being a hermit. I have only to allow them to do their job. but even much of your work is done in isolation. There simply is no one else. Yes. There are parts within me that have that responsibility.. And. YOU are the guiding force of your life. Missions are important. I fully expect that they will do this. everything.. One. Obviously... Oh well..2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 determines when the expression takes one form over another. for you have tapped into who you truly are . But. I will move myself to do it. And. it is your reserves that are inexhaustible not hers. it is because you did not create it to be.. every question. no one else. Do whatever it takes. you still have a belief that you are far more productive on your own. it is hard to tell. At the moment. When we set that value. it is not because it was not meant to be. that I had lost my mind. I don't have to consciously work out the details of how to manifest this. it is your work through you that counts now. where do we go to turn in the words. how do I make that so? It seems that it is a matter of allowing the right others into my life. your world is that way as well . not spirits work. There is no doubt about it. If anything. Our resume is this very expression. Create the conditions for me to carry out my mission most elegantly and effectively. Though.

There is no becoming. We can only create NOW. how long does it take to go from realization to manifestation? I choose to create the conditions to manifest my commitment.. Yet. OK. this is what we love to do. at the same time. We can only live NOW. How do we reconcile that? Expressing here is about doing. it is also about being the writer that we are. whatever they may be. And. it is my time again. This or something better for the good of all concerned I choose to manifest NOW. Everywhere we look. Today was unusual. these are our works. We bring forth what we can when we can. it is about being. however. I am willing to accept the consequences of that choice. And. we know that it is not about doing. we see change. Wow! We're on a roll again tonight. Now. this existence is all that matters. Yet. I will always be Wayne . they may explore what we have to offer. Is that because change is everywhere. come forth it does anyway. And. to create the conditions that allow the Beyond Imagination endeavor to thrive. We are back to the realization that I am Wayne. we are dynamic beings. Though. we do NOW. Written communication is what we do. It is for us to live in the moment. I don't have a single soul joined with me on this. That is how we bring the magic into our lives. we are NOW. So far we've had five hits. We can't think of a better way to choose to spend our free time. it seems that my destiny is in my hands. Why did 5 million words need to come forth in 16 years? Why would we even consider creating another 6 million words in 4 years? To what end? It is not necessary for us to know to what end. what a revelation it has been. It is curious that it all comes forth in the moment. we would hire the lightworkers that we need to support us. It has always been thus. So. it is clear that this expression is my way of revealing ME to ME. All that it takes is resources. That is OK. We asked for abundance. That's probably five more than I would have received posting it to the Beyond Imagination site. Take away the works and you lose all visibility into who we are. The only way that you can know us is through our works. You might even say written communication is who we are. We posted our Reality Creation work to an Esoteric Library site this week. extremely important. or is that because the very process of seeing focuses on changes? We can 101 . But. But. we create it all. From what has been expressed this evening.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 more fully express in flesh. right now. Now. Somehow. The reality that I would experience is literally up to me to create. despite 16 years of searching. So. Further. 30 April 2009 It is going to be a short musing today. Clearly. Either we are or we are not. the works are important. we did it. Though there is a link at the end of the work to the Beyond Imagination site so if people like what they read.. Let's see how the universe responds. Everything that we are. Yet. OK. one that I clearly cannot do alone. that was not enough. Now. I admit. Yes. And. We can only experience NOW. that is a lofty mission. now I know it in a way that I did not know it before. many might consider this to be creative writing. Yesterday's musing made up for it. and that we don't even retain a sentence of it at a time in our mind. But I did leave an extensive trail that would allow others to find me. We believe that what we have done and what we intend to do makes us worthy of that. I have always been Wayne. Everything that we do. We're getting a late start and have a long drive home tonight. and highly creative at that. There are two key parts to that statement: LIVE and IN THE MOMENT. I was so focused on work that I didn't have time to think of anything else. We are a writer. we are not static. at least in this existence. I haven't searched very hard.

It is there. This is constant. I can release those conditions now. that never really manifested. it seems that we have not addressed the root causes of some of the problems in my life.. I don't even remember this sentence long enough to capture the whole sentence. Wayne is creating the very conditions necessary to do what I desire to do. It wasn't worth the time it took to produce it for the few people that were reading it. I accidently found them one day. we created a newsletter for nine months . How my brain turns that into meaning is a mystery. Though. But. what if you have reached a point where you choose to play the game no longer? What then? By that. How it knows to bring forth these words in this sequence is an even greater mystery. the process has been very helpful. But. the importance of beliefs has been mentioned numerous times. I have set conditions that may or may not need to be to allow me to create the Beyond Imagination endeavor. we have never expressed that thought before. Life itself is a mystery. We do not use that same criteria for what we've been expressing for the past several years. a newsletter that had a dozen sections and was probably close to 50 pages long by the final few months. The expression comes word by word. Wayne. However. I don't 102 . that is OK. I would attract the very circumstances that allow me to do more. I said beliefs are the playground for reality creation. that is not enough. Perhaps that is one area in which I have erred.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 be still. In total. We will continue to do so until we drop our beliefs altogether. I didn't even know that many of the musings existed. We are what we were created to be. doesn't the very act of doing this acknowledge the duality? Is that really something that we want to do? I've been working with Psych-K for 17 months now. We thought that we were seeking to find or create a spiritual center. Can we realize this? Can we be this? Of course we can. Perhaps we will get there. Then. perhaps the answer does not lie in beliefs at all. But. what does it take to find that center? One of our adventures in 1995-1996 was called The Search for Center. As far as I know. no more and no less. And. To some degree. I don't remember the last sentence even as I write this one. Instead. We already are everything that we can ever be. something seems right about it. The only thing that I desire to create is the Beyond Imagination endeavor. I am Wayne. But. we will experience what we believe that we are. I probably found nearly 200 musings spanning a four year period. for me. And. so I am creating these very conditions as we speak. Overall. primarily due to a lack of involvement from others. But. I don't mean leaving this existence. what do I mean? I choose not to be moved by what moves others. this is fundamental. Mysteries are good. But. We know this. It has always been there. This never changes.. does any of that matter. It is a matter of finding that place within ourselves where this is true. Wayne is the master of his fate. what we believe that we are and what we truly are may differ immensely. Though. it is easy. is it not better to see clearly? Won't we then naturally attract what is most beneficial to us and all concerned? Yes. and I desire to do more. We are precisely who we are. Wayne creates this expression. we can be calm.. But. It doesn't matter that I do not know how I am doing this. They can help us focus on attracting the reality that we prefer. the next best thing is to have positive and empowering beliefs. It seems to matter if you are playing the reality creation game. I am Wayne. Filters can be useful. That's over 20 hours of sessions focused specifically on eliminating disempowering or negative beliefs. I do that each time that I come here to express. But. Interesting. What would life be without them. Unless I concentrate. But. We terminated the newsletter after 9 months. Every belief is a filter. for awhile. Wayne creates his own reality. I know that. Throughout this material. Seth said that we create our reality through our beliefs. That's a lot of work to forget that you've done. nearly all of it has not been read by anyone other than me. And.. Is there a center within us that is unchanging? If so. Hmm . However.

but what you do makes all the difference.. In many 103 . We are saying who we are BEING is all that matters.. That is OK. We get from them. I speak to myself often and I capture much of it in this expression. Ideas that moved you mattered. With that basis we have grounds to interact. All of this flows forth from me and through me though it takes on many guises as it does so. but clearly I am. Faith helps as well. I am Wayne. don't act. I was having a Beyond Mind experience that led to a series of spiritual awakenings.. we have to be what we are. We have to choose to let go of the illusion so that we can find and experience what is real. That just demonstrates how rich we are as beings. or even know this. Will helps. what does it mean to BE Wayne? What is left when we cease our doing? Is there anything left? Ye shall know them by their works. what we put into them. it is not enough. each of us is precious and special. Yes creates. I was getting in a bit over my head. we have to be it. But. Clearly. Am I doing that now? It still seems that I am on the verge but not quite there. what would I do in return to know them? Relationships are mutual. Everything else flows from that. a new month already. Don't believe. the only educational institution that I was ever moved to drop out of. what is enough? Being YOU. If you want to know me. and 2008-2009 have been wonderful as well. don't even imagine . This occurred at a time when metaphysics had more importance to me than science. it seems even those have limited utility anymore. that is how one comes to know me. is new to me. BEING is everything. I still regard 1993 and 1994 as the best time in my life. Can I expect anyone to commit that much time to start to know me? And. but not from anything that is visible on the outside other than this expression. 2002-2003. what matters to you now? What fills you with the desire to live? 1 May 2009 Wow. So. We are Wayne. Being YOU is always enough. don't choose. That was the motto at CalTech. everything else will happen naturally as a result of who you are. surely you can do the same.. Now. My life has been quite interesting over the past 16 years. I rarely speak to others. They found me at my most productive as far as this expression was concerned and my consciousness was soaring higher than it has ever soared. In 1993. As you are being. That is a matter of choice. the final step that takes us to the path of our destiny? Desire helps. it is that simple. So. but again. It is that simple. Last month did not quite take us to where we thought and hoped that it would.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 know how I am creating this expression either. just BE. Here it seems that we are discounting that. No. So. Also. not in the same way that I do it. How do we make the final leap. or believe this. Though. even YOU who borders on grandiosity at times.. Each of us is unique. Repeat. but in your own way. Then. That is the only time in my life that I felt that way. If I can do all of this. We have to realize it and live it . but desire is not enough. the one who creates this expression. But it is not enough to think this. That is just a foreign mode of interaction to me. read the Beyond Imagination works . but it too is not enough. But we calculate that to take in excess of 300 hours. not unilateral. you are far grander than you have ever imagined. But the creation of the expression itself is a doing. This focus on BEING as opposed to DOING. Things have never really mattered to you. I have said: who you are counts for a lot.. BEING is the primary force. Perhaps that is a sign of things to come. BEING is everything. Though 1998. The truth shall set you free. what are we BEING at this moment? We are being Wayne. but it took us to some interesting places where we had never been. things were different.

That. We believed that we had all the right ingredients and a good recipe. The bottom line is that our choices matter. beyond anything that we can image. Everyone is richly connected to everyone else. Yet. there is a sense that this expression must come forth. Our choices make a difference .. To date. However. All choices result in consequences. potentially shared. I ask for the same consideration. For those. that is just the half of it. It is not a matter of limitation in this case. We have been attempting to do that for over six months. We anticipate grand things could come forth. But. I have only been moved to make the works available. mutual dreams. there are things that I can do to facilitate that. this expression is my life . I love who I am when I am doing this. Then again. the more results we get. In fact. or the timing is wrong somehow. Where we focus. clearly I choose to express. rather it is a matter of focus. and as it does. we have not been one to live within the constraints of the reasonable. Life unfolds as it will. it seems that is not the case. Why after over 5 million words do I continue to make this choice? Isn't the answer obvious. Though. I choose to isolate myself from others. I have not been moved to find their intended audience. I don't need much. we need mutual goals. I haven't been very grateful for the things. What is my concern is being ME. But. that rules out any joint endeavors. even if we are unaware of the connection. mutual purpose.. we have been the Beyond Imagination endeavor.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 ways. isolation is separation. we sense that is to change. What can I say? That is just the way that it is. That is what keeps us coming back for more. the part of my life that matters most to me. here it is nonetheless.. Nothing about this expression is reasonable. Further. We would give the Beyond Imagination endeavor the wings for it to fly. What choices am I making as I go about my day? I choose to come here to express. Is that the way that I choose for it to be? That is what matters now. We choose to employ others in our cause. Further. The more we focus. Yes. even there.. that is not my concern. We can only create in the moment. We are never separated from anyone or anything. Interesting. We would have another 30 hours per week to create new works and interact with our Beyond Imagination team and sponsors. Either it happens in the NOW. how can I be ME in the presence of others? I try to allow others to be free be who they are and do as they will. That is a matter of attitude. I love doing this. but not necessarily the difference that we think they will have. To date. This happens not when we are completely free. and experiences that come into my life. In return. There is only so much that we can do operating alone. It is enough that the works exist and are shared. Though. services. Though. But. Is that for others to do? Is that even something that needs to be done? At the moment. This expression brings a touch of the magical into our day nearly every day of late. I haven't been the most graceful at receiving over the years. or it does not happen. being Wayne. I may not know what that purpose is yet. it does so perfectly. there is only so much that it is reasonable to expect from anyone. What would I choose? I know what I choose by observing what I experience. Yet. The Beyond Imagination works have a purpose. The only thing missing is the magical pay that is promised for doing magical work in a magical way. even if we are 104 . but when we constrain ourselves in the pursuit of something. I may never know what that purpose is. It seems that we need to create the opportunity to try. we get results. There is no other time. But. It is that simple. What could come from another 6 million words of expression in as little as four years? We'll never really know unless we do it. That is something that I can choose at any time. There is nothing that I can do to change that. At the moment. we have no reached our limits. At least. Though. things truly beyond imagination.

Similarly. Stop with the concern over how others might judge you. As always. Our world is of our own making. I don't mean expressing every hour of every day. It really is. we have an original expression that does not really repeat itself as far as I know. All that matters is for you to BE YOU. a commitment to express and to 105 . allowance. somethings got to give. One area of weakness is in allowing your will to be imposed on others. You know how to do that naturally. So. At this point the later is more likely. You have chosen to express your desires as a commitment that you would honor. but for the good of all concerned. I interact with a few dozen people. It is for you to use all of them in service. My work defines me. But. Hmm . all of these are critical components in being you. No. At work. here. where do we go from here? If we keep doing what we have done. None of that matters. it seems that there is so little time to do it. It is hard work to be other than YOU. somethings got to change. It is time for you to create it as you wish for it to be. Though there are recurring themes that come up. Yes. not excessive. I've lived over half a century and only in the past month realized the I am Wayne. Overall. I drive the same roads at roughly the same times and do the same chores nearly every week. Accept who you are. Sometimes this is for not only your good. and you accept responsibility for bringing it into your life. It is not who I am. we know our allocation of time is sufficient . but sufficient. You are aware of much more than you know. Nor even 40 hours per week. that is a bold statement.5 person years each year. We can wait. In my personal life. Will we give ourself the very opportunity that we seek? It seems that it is completely within our hands. Or am I? How would I know for certain? How do I know that I am not still limiting myself to a caricature of who I truly am? It seems that I would know somehow. the thing that needs to change is who we are BEING... but we can wait. we will keep experiencing the things that we experience. but it reveals things about who I am. you are doing pretty well on the allowance front both as far as you are concerned and as far as others are concerned. Stop with the judgment. and I am only with all four of them on weekends. Your relationships will develop and blossom exactly as they are meant to as well. I would have this expression become my life. Your work will be done exactly as it is meant to be done. I can see working for Beyond Imagination 60 hours per week and expressing for half of that.. and acceptance . It is a matter of allowing it to unfold. You are always free to adjust it at anytime. My world is a relatively narrow one. It is simply something that you allow. I'm willing to do that because that is what I do at present and because I see that there is so much to do for which my unique skills are required.. Expectantly. sometimes often at that. I just can't see myself doing this for that long every week. My three dogs get more or my time than anyone in my personal life other than my wife . as effortless as this very expression. Then. You have been given a myriad of skills and abilities in this existence. though I know that I can be dense at times. That is OK. Awareness. You create your own reality.. If it did not. Further. I live in three locations and work in one location. There is not a lot of variation in my life. Yet. You life will unfold exactly as it is meant to unfold. And. Don't worry. you accept what comes your way. I am being Wayne now. Yet. I interact with less than a dozen. There is so much that we want to do. Either I was extremely dense for a lot of years. Being YOU is effortless.. But. we would not still be doing it. it seems that it is already decided. the creation is not permanent. not just a select few. Is that what we want? The sense is no. Be YOU! Be YOU and everything else will follow. that's the equivalent of 1... or this is not something that is easy.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 unaware that the others even exist.

.. do I know what I would choose to create. That request is more than reasonable. And. But. We will not know what will be expressed here until it is expressed. And. It has always been within your power to do. Is that what I choose to do anymore? Clearly. I'm not seeing anything changing this. We know that you want it badly . It seems that we are. what would we manifest in our life? What would we make so. The "seeing anything changing this" needs to be YOU changing something. We even wrote a little work on Reality Creation. The rest is the doing and the things. I have also chosen to create circumstances in which I live 125 miles away from my work and have to leave my family for the entire workweek every week. It has to be.. I am Wayne. But. Further. But. If it is not meant to be. We will not know what Beyond Imagination works we are to create until we create them. That is enough for us. That is what it takes to carry out our commitment. we muse anyway. We need to manifest $5 million up front and $1. it either will be or it will not be. indeed. Again. That is OK. But. it seems that 106 . If that is what you truly want. What is meant to be gets done one way or another. you desire it strongly. It seems that our life has always worked that way . then manifest it. that is. I have chosen to create the Beyond Imagination endeavor.. you create your own reality. The sense is that that should be enough to allow it to manifest. It is a matter of making it so. As Wayne. we would have world impact for having lived. it isn't. Hmm . and ultimately to the world. they are not the "do whatever it takes to make them so" kind of preferences. our commitment is important not only to us. how am I to tell. But. It is a matter of creating the right opportunities or accepting the opportunities that come our way. What does it take to manifest what we desire to manifest in our life? We've been over that many times. I have chosen to create this expression. That is OK. but even more so or late. Though. While I have preferences here. So. Does it truly matter to me anymore? Does any of this matter? I am who I am regardless. if it is meant to be. we have already been engaged in that via this expression for 16 years. In fact. how am I to know. We choose to do more. But. that is not enough.. what would we do all of that for? At this point we do not know. something else that is better for your good and the good of all concerned will manifest. at the same time. we do have a desire to lead rather than follow.. Yes.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 serve in exchange for financial freedom for your family and sufficient funds to sponsor the Beyond Imagination endeavor. sometimes other things get in the way. We have no desire to be in the limelight.. But. 3 May 2009 Musing on a Sunday once again. We will not know what the Beyond Imagination endeavor will manifest until we see it manifest. Yet.5 million for each of four years. we would do it full time . it will manifest. We are meant to live in the moment. The only thing the comes to mind is the Beyond Imagination endeavor. Clearly. That is all that we have to work with. And generally we can muse more on our weekends than our weekdays. what we desire is not appearing in our life. It doesn't seem to matter what day it is anymore.. Though. are we doing what we prescribed. which for us is 60 plus hours per week. even as we live in the present we create the future not only for us but for all those who are to be impacted by the Beyond Imagination endeavor. But. it is at least four weeks later than we originally thought. again. We know that we were given the right gifts and abilities to do this. and there is still no sign of it coming forth soon. In our case. we choose to do so behind the scenes. And. And. You can do it. but to the Beyond Imagination endeavor.

it will find a way to do so.. know that anything is possible. who may even have crossed the boundary a time or two over the years. Though. But. But this expression takes unexpected turns nearly every day. And. It is a matter of being.. it does not matter. we do so as Wayne. What we desire most is to create the circumstances that would allow us to carry out our commitment. except in Wayne's mind. Our memory is such that we have no clue as to what was expressed yesterday. We know that it is within our power to do this. We were going to say is moved to do. soul. We know that we have the right ingredients and the right process. and expressing by the works that we choose to do. being who we truly are. What does matter is what we would express now. consciousness. from that. These be our works. his spiritual family if you will. We are there with him always. God. nothing else at all. But. it takes awhile to fully realize that. That is all that it takes. a shift has occurred within the past few weeks. there was a lot of separation in Wayne's mind. They also reveal and entity on the very edge of sanity. But.. That's interesting. and what a grand adventure it is. it happens sometimes. And. Spirit. By their works shall thee know them. what we are in this existence is Wayne. mind. we didn't even read it today . it truly is lost. Collectively. At this point. We should be used to them by now. we would do what Wayne would choose to do. Expressing by how we live or life. a collective entity expressing in flesh. It is not a matter of doing at all. Just noticed that I did something that I have not done in awhile. I failed to rename this file before I started this musing. We would be Wayne..2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 both are in order. Not that there was before. And we would never abandon him. body. It is all a matter of creating it. Is it 107 . But. until nothing else exists. A little unexpected perhaps. others: these were all separate in Wayne's mind. we are willing to do a whole lot of work for that. What was separate is now ONE. Focus on the unity. Oh well. source. All that we can do is move on with what would be expressed today. We should be use to the inventiveness and originality of all of this. No wonder Wayne felt so isolated from everything and everyone. The net effect is everything that came forth yesterday is lost. but spirit herself is not external to us. We used to say that spirit moved us . There is no separation anymore. It is one thing to have the shift in awareness. We are Wayne. how do we bring $11 million into our life in four years? That is precisely what we seek. that no longer seemed to be the case. And. He was in our loving arms every step of the way. she is ONE with is. It is simply a matter of applying them and doing it. This is what Wayne needs to do now. They reveal an entity having an adventure in consciousness. Though. What would we be next. even probable. What does this creative spark do in your life? Have you found this spark? Have you found an outlet for its expression. for your expression? If not. Wayne is spirit. In fact. We are his brothers and his sisters. we are not. Yet what would we do to do this. within that ONENESS. They are many and quite profound at times. We can be no other during this incarnation. that is OK. We are ever surprised by what comes forth here and by what we become as a result of what comes forth. There is nothing moving us but us. But. if what was expressed truly needs to come forth. What is expressed here is an example of what this creative spark is able to do in my life on a part time basis. so. what are you waiting for? It is a matter of seeking within and doing what you are moved to do. heart. So. It is quite another to maintain it. And. There is within each of us a creative spark that is capable of so much. He is our brother in spirit. we create all of this. Yet. on the ONENESS. In this case. That is what we choose to manifest. wholly and completely.

It is something that we are given equally every day of our life. choosing consistently with what we want. we won't really know for certain until we manifest it. Primarily. We want what we want NOW. we desire no direction to be applied in our life other than our own. It is a matter of desiring it enough. We desire for it to be what we prefer it to be. But. and acting in accord with what we believe and what we choose. Yet. there are so many works that we want to do that have been on the back burner for years in some cases due to a lack of time. But. One time long ago. we know that we can do this. three weeks ago we did just that. but we did muse for close to five hours a day. I've been patient most of my life. not next week. what would I make of it. our spiritual work is nearly a half time job. to the Beyond Imagination endeavor. and still express for 5 hours per day. That would leave less time for everything else at work.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 enough? It has to be. We know that being attached to outcomes is not something that is normally good for us to do. we can. I wrote that if you are spending more than 40-45 hours working each week. that is what we desire. Time is a precious commodity. But. NOW. At present. On the drive back to Redondo Beach tonight. This is all within our power. and when? At the moment. The outcome that we are seeking is a beneficial one. Yet. In fact. we know that they are precisely what we deserve. Stepping it up to full time could happen in as little as a week. What can we do to accelerate the process? Why is it so important for us to do this? It just is. here I am presently working 60 hours per week and making a commitment to continue doing that for another four years. If we are paying them.. So. That is something that each of us must do for ourself. Similarly. Life is what we make of it. What we do with our allocation of time is our gift to 108 . We know that such is what we have done. it is still an outcome. to us. We didn't work for eight hours a day. and whom that we are. It is enough to know what we desire. Indeed. we could offload part of what we were planning to do to our Beyond Imagination team. when is important. We can do that. We have to learn to count on other people to do things that need to be done that they can do. we have never desired something as much as we desire this. we can create it. Not tomorrow. Now. The cure is to work smarter or offload. That. So. and to express it in a way that helps others. you are spending too much time at work. This time we are attached to the outcome. now no longer seems to be the time for patience. and to all those who would be served by the Beyond Imagination endeavor. what we desire is a way to work in our own employ. Further. What right do we have to place such a demand on the universe? We have every right. But. We would assist others in establishing their freedom as well.. It struck me that we could back this up to 8 hours per day times 6 days per week. Yet. But.. It is not enough that we be free. It seems that we are worth what we say that we are worth . It does not matter that we do not know the specifics of how to manifest what we desire. we have some right to direct what they do. If we can imagine something. Whatever they are. That is all that we have to give. believing that we are worthy. The only time that we can manifest any change is NOW. something seems different about this time. It seems that we should be offering others a path that leads them to such freedom themselves. not next month. it is not our job to set them free. especially when that value comes from deep within ourself. not next year .. Until the past six months. work is what we make of it. Can we manifest this? Indeed. it seems we need to leave room for the consequences of our choices and actions to manifest. I was thinking about what constitutes a reasonable workweek. We know that we can do this. Whether it will manifest or not depends on who we are being and what we are doing.

for some reason it does not seem to within my control to make it so. but in general terms with some specifics. We have the right to place any value on creative expression. The truth is the truth. the signs do not matter. and the proceeds from future expression over the next four years. Yet. we know that it has been Wayne doing this all along. the only time that anything can happen is NOW. To some degree. Yes. The greatest gift that we can give is to share of whom that we are. What we are capable of surpasses anything that we have ever dreamed possible. Oh well. we could have a team of twelve supporting the Beyond Imagination endeavor. We would do what we have come to do. Our life could literally change in a heartbeat. That is just how it works for us. It is just a matter of when. Much of it is beyond imagination. Much of it we will not know until we see ourself doing it. Though it is always a one way overlap. Though. We would be no other. So. we have 5 million words expressed over 16 years. And. The later we have.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 the world. we weren't ready. or it is not. that happens sometimes. we have the wisdom gained from expressing and reading those words. But. does stating something make it true? In this case. and do the spiritual work that we know is our duty to do. even when we believed that it was spirit herself that set the value. our present job does not pay us even close to what we are worth. But. Something must be missing. But. Until recently. We just need a way to release the value that is stored up. Within days. much of it remains unknown. Why is that? Apparently desire is not enough. the lives of at least three others could change as well. it will continue to be so until my spiritual work becomes my means of earning my livelihood. Further. We didn't have a plan for what we would do with the proceeds from the expression to date. we have been consistent on this throughout the years. Now. No. Then. The job still comes first. Within months. we know what that is. that does not necessarily mean that someone will pay the price that we have set. Further. You have to be prepared to be surprised. Why are we still here after over 13 109 . By comparison. Many people desire things that do not come to pass. And. Is that asking for too much? If we had nothing to offer. it is a destiny that we created for ourself. The former we have stored up in this expression. we know that. we believe that Wayne knows what it takes to manifest this. not to a fine degree of detail. But. 4 May 2009 Getting a late start today. But. When you live your life in the moment. But. But. It just takes resources and commitment. Either this expression is worth what we say that it is. We established the worth of this expression to be $1 per word over a decade ago. we firmly believe that it does. That makes us a valuable commodity. So what makes the difference between what is manifest and what is not? Worthiness does not seem to be an issue. we believe that Wayne was correct in doing this. Now. what is missing. But. I like to distinguish between their time and my time and try to keep the two from overlapping with each other two much. why haven't we manifested something different for ourself. that is simply the way that it is. We create our own reality. We are Wayne. There are no signs that the worth we have established for this expression is forthcoming. very valuable indeed. not in this case anyway. Also. destiny. My desire is for that to happen NOW. Some give generously. we wait for the opportunity to live the life we are meant to live. duty. It is a matter of us being ready. our case would be completely different. Now. others more sparingly. Wayne creates our reality. It doesn't have to take long.

or find someone to market it for you. we hadn't really specified what we desired until around six months ago. Unfortunately. period... I have been doing this for 16 years and the feeling has been the same since close to the beginning. Find a means for me to achieve financial freedom and fund the Beyond Imagination endeavor from the Beyond Imagination expression. The expression comes forth anyway. But. nor is there anything similar in the lives of the few people that I know . we know that you would create a spiritual reality. The two go hand in hand for me. have we waited long enough for the fruits of our choices to return unto us? Perhaps. Give them the freedom to find an appropriate means. I find that interesting. how do I apply this in this case? We have a mountain of Beyond Imagination expression. Actually.. but the consequences that we desire do not seem to be forthcoming. Though. Then why are we not making it so? Why is our reality as it currently is? You are a metaphysician first and foremost. Perhaps it is akin to having 110 . I know so little about myself that I can't even explain how these words are able to come forth. something is amiss. do so as soon as practical. even after 16 years of doing it. I consider this expression to be a spiritual service that I provide. perhaps not. you are attempting to create material abundance for your family . Why are we so impatient of late? We have effectively been waiting for something to happen in our life for over a decade. as you wait. I would live a life of service. and a good deal of it at that.. Is that really true? Do I choose this expression. if that were true. General guidance is good enough. But. is that enough to keep doing them? Wouldn't it be more fulfilling doing tasks of our own choosing aligned with our mission? Indeed. is it enough? Wait and see.. But do you truly know that you deserve them . they are primarily here to do your conscious bidding. The only option seems to be to choose again. The is nothing else in my life to compare this to. Though. And. You haven't done what you can to enable your wish to come true. Yes. You have to give them direction. Even money is spiritual. OK. what are we moved to do next? It seems that it is our move again. Abundance is spiritual. and even that is suspect. Wealth is spiritual. We are getting something from our present circumstances.. focus on the what. I would also live a life of spirit. not the how. the material is spiritual as well. While Wayne does have other than conscious resources to call on. even though I don't know what service is provided or to whom it is provided. if indeed you could say that I know anyone other than myself. in this case. Though it helps if what we desire happens to be of service to others as well.. this is not where we desire to be. it would. I do this anyway. and does your wife? Here. But. You have to give them something to do. it is your collective choice that matters. I would choose the service that I provide. you know that this expression is worth $1 per word. You have to do more than wish it. So. Yes. It doesn't have to be specific. We have made choices and taken action . primarily. But. There is a problem in that. You have to give them something to work with. But. That was simply stated.. So.. Further. But. be open to other alternatives of getting what you desire. But. something more than a paycheck each week. more than as well .2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 years? Why indeed? Clearly. no one else in the world seems to know that. Though. You either have to market what you have created. creating your own reality is what it is all about. or does it choose me? Interesting question. That doesn't seem to matter.. I guess it doesn't matter. what could that be? Some of the tasks that we do at work are challenging and even fulfilling at times. All of these you deserve. As such. Yet. we would not still be here. That is sufficient reason for it to manifest. But. Why does what I desire matter? Simply because I desire it. At this moment. You have to do more than create something of value. Such is perfectly fine.

we should be quite pregnant by now. we cannot really do so long as we are employed here. The bottom line is that there are a lot of things that we could be doing to facilitate the process by acting as if. In that case. at the same time it seems that this is not something that can be forced. we walk our dogs. There is a sense that the Beyond Imagination endeavor is a done deal. and think about what we might be doing if our commitment were put into effect. that is clearly it. we don't know what these might be.. That's OK. But. Yet. we could do but it would compete with our time for expression. it is as I experience it. Perhaps the process takes nine months. They are natural extensions of what we have already done. But. Perhaps that is because something important is missing from my life. I can handle. Yet. what would that be? At the moment. Can we wait another month or so? It seems that we can wait as long as it takes. it seems that there are other things that we could be doing. We could start researching to find others who might be suitable lightworkers for our Beyond Imagination endeavor. That means that those who are meant to be part of the endeavor are already selected at some level. even if I meet them. I don't really know what to do to remedy it. Though. I don't create opportunities to meet others. In the meantime. That would mean that we can create our own reality. Friendship is just a fringe benefit. They too have a destiny to fulfill. We would start generating other Beyond Imagination works. we go to lunch or dinner with our wife. What would we change about how we live? Our life is pretty limited at present. so some kind of balance would be in order. we run errands . It is almost an employer/employee relationship. Is there anything that I can do to speed things up? It seems like there should be. All of these are relatively easy. Nearly all of the above involves how we work. nothing is going to change unless I do something to change it. Though. or to do new things altogether. At the moment. We would start clearing out the stuff from our room in Redondo Beach. nearing full term. There is no doubt. but is something that we can do some of each week. without friends? For one who prefers solitude. I would not consider myself a happy person. I was hoping that our team of twelve lightworkers would become friends. all that we are moved to do is muse. we would be paying them for their services. Though. there is a sense that there is more that we could be doing. It will be interesting to see which of these we actually choose to do. things that take us into new modes of expression. Yet. And. and this endeavor is part of that destiny. things that are a stretch for us. It is time to either do old things in new ways. especially since I know three of these already. We probably can't get to 5 hours per day. the circumstances are a bit awkward for that. we trust that we will know when the time comes to do them. my memory is such that I forget their names almost immediately. That will take several weeks. That doesn't stop me from desiring what I want NOW. We spend very little time with people other than our wife outside of work. We watch TV and movies. but we might be able to average 3 hours per day. Why is that? Our commitment expresses what we want to do 111 . What would we do if our commitment were in effect at this very moment? We would start terminating our tasks in the work environment. but we may not be able to set the timing of that reality. I don't really get out much. Twelve people. Act as if. But. I don't know for certain that they would accept my offer and terms of employment. what is life without relationships. This might be easier if we had sufficient funds to sample their services in depth. It is simply a matter of allowing it to unfold as it will. But. that's about it. We would start expressing more. We shouldn't have to pay our friends though what is the difference between paying with our time and assisting with their abundance? Besides.. That.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 a baby. That.

What we are being is always the more limited of the two. it is a necessary limitation to ensure that all the roles that needed to be played are indeed played. and the hermit are already that way. this is simply about being. systems engineer. We went to bed thinking about what we choose to be and awoke this morning thinking about the same thing. there is a sense that I am to be all of these things and more. This is not about being judged. They can be like training wheels on a bicycle. clearly simultaneity is in order. But. Each is measured by what they are being versus what they were created to be. indeed it is. the man in search of more. Perhaps that is the missing ingredient. the man in search of more. Though. And. Life is about BEING. To what degree do we have to focus on being these things to be them? On the one hand. that seems to be unnecessary.. But. We may not fully realize what that is at any point in time. how do we know which parts of our beingness are free and which parts are limitations? We examine how they serve us and how they serve others. a master builder. to mold ourself into what it is that we would be. We would be a metaphysician. there may be some day when the two become ONE.. Focus on what you are being. As you do that. there is a sense that the list is still incomplete. With so many things to be. there seems to be a difference between what we are and what we are being in the moment. that life has more in store for us than this. But. about living up to your potential. But. that last condition seems to be quite limiting. what would we be? This is our chance to make something of ourself . Our very presence heals. That is the only evaluation that matters. But. Metaphysician. It's not even 5:00 AM and we're wide awake so we're coming here to muse. there is great freedom. you have done that. a husband. things can change. So.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 and what we want to receive in return. That is the hope anyway. many of the others may need some work to achieve on a regular basis. Actually "I am to be" is in the wrong tense. But. the man in search of more. even within this bound. Hmm . we need the training wheels no longer. Also. on the other hand. There is no one sitting in judgement. a master teacher. Hmm . and a master organizer. I am already these things. But. to be that. I can change. as things that we naturally are. We can be anything that we choose to be within the envelop of who we were created to be. However. Some of these I can be on my own. and it is always a selfevaluation. a spiritual master. It is not just what we do that does this. everything else will work itself out. it is who we are as well. but beingness also exists to serve via being who it is.. that life has more in store for us than we could possibly imagine. Focus on what you choose to be. Our very presence serves. Though 112 . And.. Limitations aren't all bad. many of these require the presence or interaction with others. once we have learned to ride. it does not express what we choose to be. 5 May 2009 We're doing something that we never do. it seems that we need to do what it takes to establish them as habits. Yet. a benefactor. We are meant to be what we were created to be. We can only be what we were created to be. a father to our furry children. It truly is what we are being that matters. So. They have their purposes. a spiritual warrior. Beingness exists to be. The bottom line is that I must be who I was created to be. This is not something that I do much at present. In some respects. a philosopher king. That is a lot of things that we would be. but that doesn't change the fact that this is what we are. There is not enough time to be all of this serially. a systems engineer.. to some degree we are many of these things already. a hermit.. But. we must remove the limitations that we have imposed upon ourself.

Either what we have done will have a different outcome. But. I believe myself to be created in his image and likeness. how do I pay myself the value of this expression? Good question. Yet. but in terms of quantity of expression. When it needs to be different. for you. you would gladly pay yourself that worth. This very expression is quite an accomplishment. Right now. But. and consider the creative thrust to be masculine. even though Wayne is responsible for creating all of this. it all comes down to the creative thrust. Even now. Well. that is precisely what you need to do. forcing things to happen seems to be wrong. how do we go from desire to reality? This is something a metaphysician worth his salt should be able to do. and above all else. To some degree. or we will be moved to do something different. We have attempted to do just that. something will transform. to allow. But. At times. not in duration. as All That Is. Those are the ones that we would share with the world. Spirit has always come forth in my life as a feminine essence. We know that this is not an optimum relationship. This will probably be true despite what happens. you must actively seek something else. It is what it is. Ye shall know them by their works. that is clearly not the case. or at least unnecessary. Somehow. There is a sense that you will never be satisfied. The only resources that you have to sell are who you are and this expression. this might be the accomplishment of a lifetime. this could all be for your eyes only. Good question indeed. Those are the ones that we would expand. that is to your employer. If so. By far. and for Wayne as a whole. For many. The masculine comes forth as God himself. you still have many musings locked within you that need to see the light of day. where does the masculine fit? Shouldn't there be some sort of balance? Indeed. you have already done that. I fancy myself to be a creator in my own right. we know that you have the self-discipline necessary to be productive on your own. and even more productive with a team supporting you. This expression is a process of discovery for all of us. and the accomplishments of those you make part of the Beyond Imagination endeavor. We know of your strong desire to no longer toil at the bidding of any prince. we have not really succeeded. in our Beyond Imagination expression. What do I force to happen per my will versus what do I simply allow to happen per my will. even to me.. We don't know why exactly. For. I don't claim to know it all. as the Creator. That is OK.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 you are not satisfied nonetheless. But. But. it has to do until you create something else. there should. No matter how much you do. to create something else. you need the funds from which to pay yourself. not quite who you are. you need to find a way to appreciate your accomplishments nonetheless. If we have our way. it can get confusing. the most important of these to us are the middle ones. Well. that anything else seems foreign. That is simply part of your nature. As a metaphysician and spiritual warrior. But. Though it is spirit herself that expresses here through consciousness herself. 113 . You will always be seeking more. our works happen on three fronts: in our job. But. We have many works to date. The only difference will be a matter of how many more and the nature of the works. You know the worth of this expression. as the Father. and in our home life. This seems to be the way of the feminine. That needs to happen whether or not the musings make it before the eyes of another. I would be spiritual. But. but time applying your abilities in service in some way. And. Yes. Further. you will collectively accomplish much that you can be proud of. But. Though.. it will never be enough. But. Your journey is just beginning . But. For indeed. We just know that is what we have observed. is this a correct or false perception on my part? I'm so used to allowing things to happen in my life. for all of the parts of Wayne. we will have many more before four years is out. I don't relate very much to this.

That is true for a lot of this expression. That doesn't seem to matter. Now. Though. there are one or two sessions comprising a total of two hours. by far the grandest mystery in my life except perhaps life itself. I would have it no other way. even then there was some question as to whether I really got everything. I wasn't moved to go back and read it . And. But. so we'll just continue from whatever I am inspired to write next. Only there would be a whole lot more available time in full time. I'm also starting to feel the effects of getting up over an hour earlier than normal. An hour earlier would simply be our of the question. Thus far. That is 114 . I don't know what to do. I have said: Who you are counts for a lot. especially since all of the overhead of living is already accounted for. not one minute longer than is necessary.. I am not on my own time a good part of the day.... it seems that I have to be something or do something to change this. How this is possible we do not know. I don't really want to be tired. Yet. perhaps it is contributing to the problem. But. Being precedes doing. for four years.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 Twelve hours have passed since I finished writing the above. always. Perhaps I can do that on a regular basis. then we must change just as dramatically. That is OK. It works quite well. I've read of people who got by with 3-4 hours of sleep per night. This expression continues to be a mystery . Hopefully.. Six days a week. That would be the equivalent of adding 28-35 hours of waking time to my weeks. Yet. even after 16 years. If we want our world to change. It is curious that it is not work for which I am paid . That would be especially good if I could get by with an hour less sleep as well. both in time and in frequency. How long that will be so. And. so it continues to be. I do not know. Actions speak louder than words but BEING speaks louder than actions. But. Though. I could nap when I was tired. though it has been a busy day as well. but that may be pushing things. And. We are not just regurgitating something that we have read or even experienced. there are many instances where I did not fully comprehend what I was reading until I read it several times. That's basically an extra two full days every week. I would still need resources to fund the Beyond Imagination endeavor. Just think what we could do with that. Even when I am. I could be coming forth with things that even I couldn't understand.. today has been a good day. dozing off at work is not an option. Mysteries are good. this is my true work. But. on most week days. But.. It is already a struggle to go to bed at 10:00. fifty weeks a year. we must change. It is curious that something as basic as expressing a stream of consciousness is beyond our ability to understand. Though. as usual. Living with them daily keeps us on our toes. that has not yet occurred.. I guess it could be worse. I would still desire to engage in my spiritual work full time.. I imagine that changing to as many as a half dozen to a dozen sessions a day comprising a total of five hours. And. That alone would allow me to come close to honoring my part of my commitment. it was wonderful to start the day with this expression. what does it take to sleep more efficiently and effectively? One thing that would help is if I could fall asleep immediately rather than struggling for two hours or more. Everything originates with who we are. if we want it to change dramatically. Hmm . why should that be a problem? There is so little that I am conscious of anyway. That it is possible is demonstrated in over 5 million words of expression to date. So. If I were on my own time. At the moment. And. As far as I know. It all depends on the priorities that we set and what we train ourselves to do. But.. there is spiritual work to do. I would choose to engage in this expression far more . but what you DO makes all the difference. It seems that has something to do with not wanting to lose consciousness. I already take a medication to get me awake during the day. After all. I have no clue as to what I wrote as usual. we've never said that before or read that before. It has become enough of a problem that I feel a need to do something about it.

not spirit. That could indeed be the case. Though your struggles are relatively minor compared to many. But. Every such occurrence has been a spiritual awakening. Your weapon is not beliefs. Freedom. not anyone else. What have you to lose? You have created a WIN/WIN/WIN commitment for you. Perhaps we do know how to get there but we are hiding the directions from our conscious self. Your primary struggle is of the self with the self. It seems that it is my job to do that. The vast majority of 115 . You are indeed a spiritual warrior. as far as I can tell. That would result in over 1. that is my strongest desire at the moment. In the end. and for the world. Be the person that only you can be.5 million words per year for a total of 6 million words. But. beliefs are still the playground for reality creation. Demonstrate that you are the creator of your reality. that keep me from being free to soar to wherever my consciousness would take me. You could use more joy and spontaneity in your life. it does not matter. Yes. I can muse a lot. And. yesterday was a rarity. Perhaps that last statement is not quite true. 6 May 2009 What a difference a day makes.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 what I propose. if that. most of it is expressed only to me. Today. There is no other time. That suggests that I already am everything that I need to be to be able to do this. every day I take medications that keep my consciousness in check. What needs to be is expressed when it needs to be expressed. Yet. The bottom line seems to be that it does not matter. It is simply a matter of manifesting the opportunity. That suggests that I already have everything that it takes. It is that simple. What more could anyone ask of you? What more could you ask of yourself? Live the life that only you can live. something within me says that such is precisely what is required. we are just getting started. Demonstrate it NOW. for Beyond Imagination. Though. but we don't know how to get there. Do the work that only you can do. I feel most free when I am soaring in consciousness and engaging in this expression. Prove it! Demonstrate that you are who you say that you are. the master of your fate. I ended up in a mental hospital until my levels could be normalized again. whether it involved a hospital stay or not. That's 20 percent more total expression than I've produced in 16 years. it would not be the first time. there is the potential for it to get out to others. this is a two edge sword of which we speak. Though. The last three times that I stopped or reduced my bipolar meds. Could I handle it? Could I stay focused enough to function "normally" in the world? Not that I consider how I function to be normal in any sense of the term. Do these things and all that you ever desire will be yours. By this time yesterday we were already passing our 2000 word quota. ME. I do wonder what might happen if I were in a highly supportive environment and started weaning myself off of the meds. But. I can muse a little. Though. but truth. Not the universe. since then I have had two experiences of extremely heightened states while taking my meds regularly that put me on leaves of absence without hospitalization. I can only remember waking up early to muse a few times in the past decade. But. Where do we go from here? We know precisely where we would like to go. There is a natural feedback loop within brain chemistry that keeps our consciousness in check and able to deal with physical reality. Fail to do these things and you will continue to struggle. And. you stopped visiting the playground long ago. Ye shall know the truth and the truth shall set ye free. That may not have been the wisest of moves. Trust.

as does destiny. in which the things that are most important to me are known only to me? Yes. something has to give. while the details get revealed in each moment. Either that. How long will I continue to lead an isolated life. there are few links from other sites to Beyond Imagination. That is precisely what I believed it to be at the time.. Though. if memory serves me. Now. I don't go back and undo what I have done. And. I have chosen to post most of this expression as it came forth. I was moved to make this expression a gift from spirit to the world back in 1997. And. I do not know. But. I don't really need much. I don't know how we created it. I have done very little to advertise the site. opportunities to be more of who I am. nor do I expect much . And there. But. I expect to create the opportunity necessary to allow me to carry out the commitment that I have chosen to make. every idea. I have a job that is relatively easy and sometimes even challenging that provides sufficient abundance to pay most of the bills for my family. There are no mistakes. That is just the way that it is. Further. Who is served by who I am and what I do? How many people ask that question. that is part of life. it seems to me that it is one of the most important questions to ask. Then. as far as I know. I know something of my gifts and abilities. many times on the very day it came forth. Though. What is missing in this is how it ties to others. why would that be? My life is comfortable right now. But. I am doing what is right for me in that moment. No. any others as far as I can tell. Life continues to call. Few people make it to the Beyond Imagination site. but I don't know of many others. It is time to create some new opportunities. and we can know a lot. it is easy. That choice could have resulted in any number of hits and any number of contacts. That too. This expression flows effortlessly. We do not know everything. or I don't want to hear the answer. At home. by ME . Though.. what do I truly want in this respect? At the moment. that can only happen as a result of my choices. I have a daily routine as well that does not vary very much. We are not perfect. it hasn't.. and very few initiate contact. I have a bi-weekly routine that has me living in three location every week. is just the way that it is. I don't know why. There is a strong sense that it is time for my life and my work to change in substantial ways. much less know them to any degree. So. In the moment. I spend a handful of hours per year looking for other metaphysical sites. There may however be choices with consequences that we do not prefer. I'm not really looking for them on the internet. And. I know differently. in some cases in multiple places because others have chosen to incorporate particular works into their sites. I know that all of this was created by Wayne.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 the Beyond Imagination is posted on the WWW. but I take ownership for doing it nonetheless. I simply do not see that happening while maintaining my present circumstances. Perhaps others like me are doing the same. Overall. there are many things that are important to me that do not appear to be important to others . During the workweek. But. One area where I do expect grand things is in the Beyond Imagination endeavor.. It always has. I would not change anything that I have done. I would consider my life to have been wasted. Everything was 116 . ever? Yet. every musing. and opportunities to express more of what only I can express. even then. every word. Though the later is more of a general sense. Looking back on my life. we can be very good. Yes. If we truly want to connect with others. So. That is fine. I know something of my mission and my destiny. But. that is a harsh assessment to make. except of myself when it comes to spiritual matters and spiritual work. I don't even have an internet connection. we have to give ourselves the opportunity to do so... If I didn't serve in a manner that has world impact. if I'm looking for others like me.

Now. or I am offering too much. Until about six months ago. I don't believe that I am asking for too much. Though. Though. We launched on such an endeavor just over 16 years ago when our consciousness went ballistic and this expression began. It is curious that this was roughly the point when our commitment first came through. There was nothing that I did that I was aware of to give birth to it. So. Further. we are at the 35 year point. But. there is no doubt. 16 is a special number. while we have a sense of expectancy. It takes nine months to create a baby. So. a number for awakening. 117 . The job remained the same. the need for a commitment came up here in this expression. That is clearly what I choose to do. we also expect to be surprised. Then. what does any of that matter. 16 years after the birth of this expression. the Beyond Imagination expression was born over 16 years ago. to where I am in this very moment. there needs to be a balance. I never really asked for much from life. what is amiss? Perhaps it is a matter of timing. that is precisely what we expect. At this point. Or is it? If I were actually choosing it. It seems that it is time for a change that is just as radical as that was. it seems that this is an opportune time for the services that we intend to provide. And. not really thinking at all. Do we have a right to expect it? Do we have the ability to create it? At some level. Everything within me says that we have created a compelling contract with the potential to do much good in the world. that changes our means of earning our livelihood. not thinking about what might have been or what could be . what I am offering. It is the Lightning Struck Tower in the Tarot. we desire a future that is not based on what has come before. Is there a difference between the Beyond Imagination expression and the Beyond Imagination endeavor? Perhaps there is.. the change was mostly internal. something that is a bold new endeavor for us. though it was noticeable to a few people in my world. It would be another breakpoint. we are expecting it to fund all that we would do and give the Beyond Imagination endeavor wings as well. Also. and that all of this comes forth FROM Wayne. through it all. Why is any of this important? There is something about cycles and about timing being revealed. I don't know where to go to fulfill the terms of the commitment. it would be so already. This seems to be the next logical progression. 19 in the Tarot corresponds to the Sun. The expression was born suddenly. Now. But. living life in the moment most of the time. we are expecting something that changes everything. Yes. we are expecting this expression to be the constant that holds everything together. I am more than willing to give for at least four years anyway. we know that our life will unfold as it will. Is not the Beyond Imagination endeavor the equivalent of my baby? I will not have another in this existence. I just took things as they came. The fact that it is not suggests that something is missing. metaphysics had been a special part of my life for 19 years by the time the expression began. that changes our life. My life remained the same other than the choice to spend time writing on a regular basis and a few trips to the mental hospital with accompanying leaves of absence. I don't know how to create the financial freedom that I desire that would enable me to do my spiritual work on a full time basis. It was expressed as a conditional about what I and Beyond Imagination would do in return for abundance in the form of financial freedom for me and sufficient funds for a team of twelve lightworkers to support the Beyond Imagination endeavor part time. It is a number for radical transformation. We have realized that we are Wayne. In fact. what is next? The 19 year point from the day this expression began would be 5 March 2012. So. On the other hand. We have owned our part in creating all of this. we speak with a new clarity now. Somehow.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 necessary to get me to where I am today. and somehow that will be perfect. My Easter birthday falls 34 days later. 16 years ago. It would be something that takes us in a whole new direction. But. Either I am asking for too much.

The Beyond Imagination endeavor will allow Wayne and a select group of others to explore what an organization of 13 can do. However. it would start immediately. Collective works are organizations and the works of organizations. That is the next step for Beyond Imagination. it does this through its works. No matter how tired I get. I have posted material at the Beyond Imagination web site that I haven't yet had the time to read. and it will result in works that were not otherwise possible . Oh. which I am very reluctant to do. being surprised is perfectly fine as well. There is something special and extraordinary about bringing forth new expression. especially when I am reading material that I have not yet gone back to read. it came forth from me. it does matter. But how does the collective realize what it knows? As with individuals.. We just need the resources to make it so. there is synergy that comes from how the individuals within the organization interact to create something more than the sum of what they could create alone. Even when I read the material.. Nothing is lost. Then again. It is that this has become a habit that I enjoy. not even as a vague recollection. not in a hundred years. That is just the way that it is for me. not ever. this expression is able to restore my soul. But. Hopefully. Reading it is a close second however. 118 . Wayne knows what I wish. The bottom line is that I can wait as long as it takes. no matter how busy my day. My conscious mind is open to what would come forth from other than conscious parts of me. Events are unfolding in your life exactly as they must to get you to where you need to be. Though.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 Things in my life only happen in the moment. it will not be long before this next step is taken. Also. Everything that we desire is announced to the universe. We create all of this. It is not clear that I am consciously comprehending what I am writing as I am writing it. anyone reading this knows as well. I would cease what I am doing as quickly as I could and transition to full time spiritual work and finding our Beyond Imagination team. Actually. 7 May 2009 I already know that I am going to miss three days of musing next week due to a business trip. The collective knows everything that any of us know. that is not the same as reading it. I can accept if the consequences are different than I desire them to be. OK. But. When I am writing. We are ONE. it doesn't seem to matter whether I am reading it or expressing it. There is nothing secret. Wayne knows what I desire. I don't really like it. it is all me. That is the next step for Wayne. it might be nice to know when they were coming. This expression is one of the major works of Wayne. it is the individual contributions that matter. Transforming our life and our work could easily happen in as little as a month. It's not that we don't have enough musings. Trust. I'm used to it by now. There is nothing hidden. it is all Wayne. I think that feature enables me to express as I do. Wayne knows what I need. I am so focused on the present that even the words in the current sentence are out of my mind before I reach the end of the sentence. We just need the opportunity. but there is nothing that I can do about it at this point other than to write longhand. It will change the very nature of this expression. Though. that is all of the expression for this year to date. you already know where that is and you are guiding yourself in that direction. Indeed. Even within an organization. That is OK. If I could have my way. At some level. Nothing is forgotten. and the final four months of the expression from last year. it doesn't stay in my mind for long. With the exception of a few musings. works that Wayne could never do on his own.

My sense is that all of us live in such a world. I am the one creating this and I am the one witnessing it being created. It seems that I will just have to wait as long as it takes. How soon. What is this telling me? What am I not seeing? Why is it so difficult to let go and release my conscious grip on things? Hopefully. It doesn't matter that as far as we know. But. I definitely live in a world of my own. life is about expressing who I am. a world that primarily exists as meanings within my own mind. I envision new living and working conditions.. I was up until past 2 AM.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 Did something tonight that I don't do very much. Even the very things that we want to change. I am the one who reads it at a later time. most of that I do right here. subjective reality is far more important to us than objective reality. a desire to work in certain ways in exchange for financial freedom. it seems that many believe that there is only one world. struggling to fall asleep. no one else sees what we are seeing. Though we do see signs that it is coming. Yet.. Yet. 8 May 2009 119 . It is as if the wiring is crossed in my brain somehow.. The past does not equal the future. Clearly. It just seems unlikely that it will happen on its own. there is a sense that such conditions are to arrive in my life soon. we think that we see such signs. and what we are willing to do to achieve it. it is high time that we started doing something new and different . Why does falling asleep have to be so difficult for me? My days are busy. At least. And. Our world is our own construct. conditions dramatically different than they are at present. I can't count on anyone else reading any of this. Further. here I am. I went to dinner with one of my housemates and actually conversed with her for two hours.. It was worth it. this can't continue for much longer. experience is not everything. For me. I can barely stay awake when I need to stay awake and I can barely fall asleep when I need to fall asleep. an objective world . and the feedback will be good for us and for the Beyond Imagination endeavor. at times. We have even defined what financial freedom means for us. the conversation was at the cost of a night of musing. Though. But here. sleep is elusive. I need to be able to function effectively and this is getting in the way of that. My experience is that I am not in control of the timing of things. that will be a different mode of operation. You would think that I would be exhausted by the time I go to bed. It is curious that I have to take Provigil every work day to help me stay awake during the day. one of their jobs will be to read this expression and provide feedback.. Last night. working 10 hours and then writing for another 2 hours. Though. We will use that feedback to help guide where we take this expression. it is something that I need to do more often. it is effectively done in private. We have created a big desire in our life. The dream is still alive. tonight will be a different story.. Something has to give . That is not acceptable to me. then our perception is distorted. I do not know. Everything within us says that that should be enough. Yet. But. Things can and do change. Yes. Though. I'm already taking away from my sleep time by continuing this musing. yet I find it so difficult to fall asleep at night. and that if our world doesn't match that world. ever. I don't know when the last time was that I conversed that long with someone. Though. we do not see what we desire manifesting in our life. Further. That's OK. When we are able to hire our team of 12 lightworkers. in fact hardly ever. This is what I need to be doing right now. That doesn't mean that it won't happen.

We need to be earning our livelihood via doing what we love to do. even what we do. Yet.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 OK.. coming here regularly to express. we choose to do what we have been doing for quite some time. how we feel.. I would choose to do this. That is only slightly more than my present span of control as a manager at work so I think I am capable of handling it. That part. I just need the resources to enable this. it seems that there is nothing wrong with desiring outcomes in our life.. We are offering a product. and paying for the services of many other lightworkers as well. Destinations are merely stopping points along the way. The current breakout of that is $7. I am ready to do this . meant to be lived in the moment. We have the potential to do grand works. That's roughly a 68/32 split overall. shouldn't we have a conscious role in deciding what we want to be? Part of me says yes. So. We can't stop thinking about what it takes to manifest the circumstances that allow our commitment to be realized. and I'm sure that those would lead to others. That would provide a wealth of information and feedback that could further enhance and foster this expression. This will enable us to hire the services of a dozen lightworkers.. or does it? Our circumstances can change what we think. We're getting a decent start on our musing this evening . It is a matter of putting in the time and allowing it to manifest. We just have to be careful not to become overly attached to the outcomes.. it is a 100/0 split for past work and a 40/60 split for future work. can our circumstances change who we are? It seems that at the very least.6 million to Beyond Imagination. it is time to re-evaluate what we choose to do with our life next. I can control. though. four years is a long way off. So. a brand new day to deal with. there is a sense that we don't need to desire anything . The remaining 55 percent will be produced over the next four years. That would be sufficient to do everything we desire to do in the next four years. Hmm . despite this. I would manifest the conditions for my commitment to be realized. but another part of me says why should it matter one way or another. Right now. We are choosing to invest half of our time and a significant amount of the proceeds from this expression into the Beyond Imagination endeavor. Roughly 45 percent of that product has already been produced. Though. What is different is that it will be 120 . What do we need to be to manifest our commitment? What do we need to do to manifest our commitment? That is our focus in the moment. Though. But.. they can change or impact who we are being in the moment. we can be happy living with whatever the other than conscious parts of us create for us. at least for the next four years. At least. How to turn that choice into reality is the $11 million question in this case. and seizing that opportunity when it comes.. This expression is one of those things.. namely a stream of consciousness expression. the potential to provide services that truly make a difference to the world. I don't know why exactly. So. at the same time. Life is a journey. more ready than I have been to do anything in my life. However. It seems that we will continue doing that for some time to come . what does it take to be paid the $1 per word that we have set as the value for this expression. what we choose... After that. they are not ends in themselves. That includes paying a team of 12 lightworkers to support the Beyond Imagination endeavor part time . Yet. It would also allow Beyond Imagination to provide extensive services that I cannot provide.. It is a matter of having the opportunity to do so. it does not stop there. I even have an idea as to who four of the twelve members of our team might be.. What we will be doing then is clearly beyond anything we can imagine now. services that require the skills and abilities of others operation individually and collaboratively..4 million to me and $3. what would come forth next. even way more than we do at present if we have our way.. But. but something seems right about that . What happens in our life doesn't change who we are. there is always the chance for interruptions.

We are not looking forward to our business trip next week. market value is what someone is willing to pay. Everything keeps coming back to reality creation. If it were up to me. choose again to be happy. so I feel that 121 . we create it all. I don't think that I've made it to the 3 million point yet. it helps to know what we desire. But. it is up to you to choose what to be and what to do. We can do that. but it appears to be so at present. The Beyond Imagination endeavor will allow you to do this. You can give yourself permission to do that now. This expression is worth what you say it is worth. It is a matter of having the right attitude. we are asking for four times that. Is there something different that you can do to adjust this expression so that it is for the eyes of others too? It is already that way.. There are many things that can be learned from it. we change how we feel about things and as a result we attract different things into our life. what is the next step? What parts of the process do we control versus what parts do we not control? At some level. That alone will change your life. I can't wait. It should not matter what happens in your life. But.. Choose to be happy. I am asking for a lot. in your marketplace. and it is something that is relatively easy to count.. But. just do it. Though. You could use more of that in your life.. no exceptions. you had two different meetings with others to discuss metaphysics in a personal way. That does not need to be the case . When we change our attitude. Much of it is as if it were for your eyes only. you basically have no demand for your work. What experience do I have with any of this in my life? In general. period. It seems that the time is up. That alone will change your world. but we need to find a way to enjoy it anyway. you know that.. and you have been consistent in stated that value all of these years. do it. and even challenge them to work with others in new ways. No excuses. But. but it may also be more or less. It seems that your hermit days are up . start choosing to do so now. What makes you think that it is not up to you? In all of the time that I've been working. Even your present environment permits some of this. You say it at the end of every musing. we must be able to at least assist the process. YOU are in control of your state of consciousness. It is a nice round number. Such is your destiny. but I am also offering a lot in return . how much can we do consciously? Surely. I would manifest it this very instance. Wayne established the value for this expression long ago. Right now. Value is what it is. you could do with more. That alone will change your reality. One choice that we would have you make is to BE HAPPY. What is reasonable about that? There is nothing reasonable about value. It depends on a lot of factors. And. It is time for you to mean it and live it. Literally. And. How do we create the reality that we prefer.. or at least need to be expanded to include and involve others to some degree. Make it a habit. roughly half for work already done and half for work to be done by 2013. But. This may be equal to the value that you set. So. The key exception to that is this commitment that we have crafted over the past six to eight months. so any finite value that you are moved to set is fair. much more. Whenever you find yourself falling out of that state. There is a breadth of insight that you would gain by hearing the experiences and feelings of others and contrasting them with your own.. And attitude is always a matter of choice. Now. The bottom line is what are you moved to be and what are you moved to do? Within 24 hours. you will.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 employing people to do what they love. You life is your creation.. I don't ask for or want much. it takes a commitment that many are not willing to make. demand being chief among these. In general. no fine print. it will color everything that you experience in a much more positive light. there are steps that you can be taking now. If you do this. You could only remain isolated in your shell for so long. the reality that we desire? To start with. This is exciting. There. once we know that. It should not matter what circumstances you face each day or each week. creative expression is priceless . Deep within you.

I might have fewer people in my life. However.. my life is fairly regular. but you will know at some level. the only thing that I truly desire is for my commitment to manifest. and I have not heard nor read of anyone else doing it in this way. This expression is a case in point. Nothing else really matters. And right now I'm looking for a major transformation. it will manifest in my life when I need it. I do not seem to have conscious control over any of this. you may just get it. We can consciously create the reality that we prefer. But. So. It helps to qualify our desires and wishes with that statement. The power of information comes not from the individual pieces but from how it is interconnected into a web that allows related parts to be easily reached. more than that. Connectivity is everything. While Beyond Imagination has been on the WWW for 14 years. this is new to me. But. This level may not be conscious however.. But. And. Though. I believe that this is destined somehow. Then DO what you are naturally moved to do. We have said that before. This or something better for the good of all concerned. and if so. Doing new things or doing things in new ways is not unusual for me. it just doesn't seem like it is at the conscious level.. we do.. what do I truly need? Is that something that I even know? Regardless of what it is. At the moment. I do the same things day after day. what about choice? What about what we desire? Do these things even matter? Something within me says that they do. If I become less isolated . BEING is everything. DOING flows from being. We've been doing this perfectly fine for over 16 years. It is not a matter of not being good enough. But. It is time for additional stimulus in our life. even in the same musing. We need something that forces us to tie this expression to the work of others. the right choice is obvious. It is a matter of not BEING consistent with what I want to create in my life. That doesn't mean that you have to choose to take it . it seems that my works will somehow do so as well. Actually. Do we consciously know what is in our best interest and the best interest of the collective? At some level. though sometimes sentences repeat . potentially a lot of others.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 it is a fair exchange. Spirit operates from needs not wants. I would love to create works based on this expression in which I did have more conscious control of what was selected and how it was organized. how soon? I believe that it will... that one thing would completely transform my life and my work. Clearly I don't need to have conscious control. That is OK. Consequences flow from both our choices to be and our choices to do. But. Perhaps that should not be the case. No two paragraphs are the same for that matter. No two musings are the same. So. Though. will such a transformation come. At the same time. Focus on what you are BEING. You will know what that is.. I could include commentary and other material to make the works flow more smoothly. whether I want it or not. It seems that the place to start is in how I relate to people. by us providing our services. it is not going to change unless I do something to change it. We need something that sparks us to explore new things. Spirit finds needs and fills them. Under any circumstances. And these in turn might expand to others .. there is the idea: be careful what you wish for. that does not matter. However. and week after week. but she does this though us. is my commitment moving me in that direction or away from that direction? Initially. I know that for that to happen I have to choose to be different than I am. it seems that I am 122 . It seems that it is time for this to change. So. It is just a matter of having the time and resources to do such works. I strongly desire my life to be different than it is. Though. At the same time. Yes. the works presented there have been as isolated from the works of others as I have been isolated from others. even the same thing can be different each day. Is that what I want? To some degree I sense that is what I need. the relationships would be closer.

But. Everything that we hear. What do we really want out of life? We have said many times: to do our spiritual work full time. Focus on what I have or don't have and what I want or don't want is something that is new to me.. to give the Beyond Imagination endeavor wings. what we choose. As such. some good. At least. The universe is reactive to our choices. Yet. But. we're here now. Though there are only two answers to when: NOW. It brings us consequences for what we choose to be and what we choose to do. it does feel strange when we don't find time to muse on a given day. everything that we see. We desire that our commitment be manifest.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 not in control of the timing. We just don't know when. Oh well. Though. who says that it is difficult now? We are all masters of reality creation already. life is more than work. We create our own reality. what we believe. conscious reality creation is a separate matter. There is still a strong sense that our life and our work are on the verge of dramatic change. how does that apply to me in the moment? What choices am I making that need to change? That seems to depend on what it is that I have but don't want. Perhaps some attachment would be a good thing. But. but nothing that I would consider myself overly attached to . life would be far easier. Yes. Why is that? This should be something that is easy. some bad. somehow it seems to be in our hands. We don't necessarily need to know why we are choosing something to choose again. If it is to be the later. many people seem to find it easy. Though. We would find it much easier to manifest the reality that we prefer. this happens naturally. but at the same time we are open to the universe bringing forth what it will into our life. except perhaps this expression. Though. Perhaps some 123 . It allows us the opportunity to optimize our choices and behavior.. It will happen when it happens. the why may help. and what we do. Though this does not happen on its own. That we must do for ourselves. We have not really experienced the joy of living . and what we imagine. We manifest the circumstances and the events in our life. what we do. because of that and because of who we are. Actually. why does it seem to be so difficult to me? It all comes down to choice. Feedback is good. that doesn't lessen the sense of anticipation. everything that we feel. At the same time. So. what else do we want? After all. everything that we read. we can wait as long as it takes. For that we must align who we are. we are hampered by the nature of the beliefs that we have allowed ourself to accept over the years. and some neutral. But. to change what we are choosing. The universes timing is always perfect. there are things in my life. That is. and what it is that I don't have but want. How do we make it more specific? How do we turn it into a recipe for manifestation? We are still struggling a bit. We have always been such. the why may not even matter. we may be able to counter or remove that reason and free ourself to make different choices. Though. There is nothing that says that we have to muse every day. It does not create our lives for us. each of us is unique. the consequences that we experience provide feedback from the universe to us. If it were simple. However. Because of that. what we believe. On other than conscious levels. and when the time is right. what we feel.. What am I choosing and why am I choosing that. We do that by how we live. everything that we choose has consequences. what we choose. everything that we experience programs us. 10 May 2009 Missed another day of musing yesterday. Then again. the complexity of our lives makes it difficult to isolate which choices and which behavior is resulting in which consequences. at least not very often. all of that is pretty general. If we know the reason that we are choosing something..

. but they are there nonetheless. except perhaps for this expression. we know. somehow.. nothing more. choose again and do what it takes to create that. that can't continue to be the case for much longer. That is just how it is. If only we could work in the manner that we desire. at least your part of the world anyway? Yes. But. Surely. We only have to open our eyes and see. there is no reason that you can't be a part of this as well.. They are everywhere. it is not clear that we know how to make choices of our own . How can that be? Why did we choose to live our life in such a manner? And. And. Many of these connections remain unseen.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 attachment would ease the loneliness. It's been a long day... What makes you think that you can't . Though. but you may reach a point where playing the reality game no longer holds interest for you. That's all that it would take for us to change our life as well. Though. at least a reasonable amount of our time.. this later option is indeed a possibility for you. 14 May 2009 Three whole days without musing. You create your own reality. There are connections everywhere. we of all people. We started out on the East Coast over 13 hours ago after only 6 hours of interrupted sleep. but faith nonetheless? If only I could create the world as I see that it could be. It will be interesting to see where this takes us. how would we change that now? We would be who we are. And then what? Then you explore other aspects of who you are. This is where we can be our creative best. You've reached a 124 . it seems that we move ourself. We only have to look for them to find them. nothing less. there is a big difference between solitude and loneliness. or Wayne moves us. Yet.. the cooperation of many is necessary . But. But. we are not even getting an early start today. They go hand in hand. But. at least when it comes to choices that matter. know. or until you are exhausted with doing altogether. Oh. Rather. We always look forward to coming here to express.. What does it take for us to Be Happy and Create Well? It seems that we are not really doing either at the moment . even if we seem to be the only one aware of what we are doing.. waiting to be discovered. what if that is not optimum? Then. Surely. There is still a lot of time left in the day. we know that independence is a farce. That seems like it could be a long way off. We have lived our life on automatic for so long. for you nothing is a long way off. Everything and everyone is interdependent.. That doesn't mean that you will be able to retire . faith in things unseen. We would do what we are moved to do. nothing more. nothing less. that does not seem right anymore. The two are intimately linked. we do not consciously know that we know.. but. Keep on doing this until there is nothing more to fix. Take responsibility and create it to be as you would prefer it to be. We could grow tired quickly. as soon as you realize that there is something better. for the larger world. you simply find another place to be. It is time for that to change... Though. But. we had good intentions. work got in the way again. you keep doing that until the exploration game no longer holds interest for you either. But. what is it that does the moving in our life? We used to say that it was spirit. Yet. that's how it is sometimes. there is no evidence that things are changing in the direction that I desire them to change. So. You need a place for your consciousness to play. what am I choosing to be that allows this expression to come forth as it does. Oh well. We are moved to do and a result of what we are choosing to be. At least I knew that it was coming. Our work will always be a major part of our life. And then. What choices do we need to make to manifest this? Surely. both individually and collectively.. Yes. why do you need evidence when you have faith . That doesn't mean that we can't take the time to live . or we could get a second wind.

It has been YOU leading YOU every step of the way. the actual typing of the expression is doing. the expression is what it is. yet is expressed without. what would you be next? We know that you can be an author. Yes. For you personally. the stuff doesn't really matter.. But. It comes forth from within. truly realize what WE are? This is more important than manifesting anything in my life. do you know what that is? In your entire life. 50 weeks a year. It would be nice to have. I had no experience of others sharing information of this nature. But. it seems that the manifesting is an unnecessary distraction. From the beginning. and hence between spirit and ME. it doesn't work like that. How do we go from moments of happiness here and there to an eternity of happiness? The fastest way to get there is to discover who you truly are. So. For now. All along.. That is how the process works. I just know that they are aspects of Wayne now. here you have been being you all along without your even knowing it. Even I might argue that. It is as if you are blindfolded. But.. But. You just need to take ownership of what you do. We applaud you for recording this expression in that manner and for sharing it as you have recorded it. That is a choice that we have already made. that's definitely not the way to go about manifesting what we desire. Desire and readiness do not always go hand in hand. I'm the one experiencing the separation. what is the grandest thing that you can be? The only answer that comes to mind is who I was created to be. In this expression. for 4 years. that is incorrect. You create it all already. Think about that . It's time to realize who YOU are. You can seek within or you can see your reflection in the world. with the exception of overwriting files on occasion. At the same time. Perhaps I always did. is that the grandest thing that you can be? Of course it isn't or we wouldn't have even asked the question. I believed that I was being moved by spirit for many years. I did what I was moved to do. and definitely not this volume of such information. Our commitment has us being a writer expressing for 30 hours a week. It is by being who you are that you become the creator of this expression. Either way works. You can do that in two ways. there has been no sense that I had anything to hide from anyone. there was a separation. is that necessarily the best choice 125 .. and between consciousness and ME. If seems to be between Wayne and ME. I know that was a matter of smoke and mirrors. Wayne was there being all of this and doing all of this. you still express a desire to create some aspects of your reality. But. Your life has been like that for some time. then the doing. It is by being who you are that you allow all of this to flow forth. Once you do that. it comes all or nothing. There still is to some degree. But. But. have you ever experienced being that? My guess would be no. Then shouldn't this be at the top of your priority list? Especially since there you will find your bliss and will be happy beyond measure. Though that is not quite right.. And here there are times when you are most grand indeed . if anything. They are my constant companions. some might even argue grandiose. you can realize what you can do. it has been your consciousness doing this all along. Most have a preference for one or the other. That will come in time.. not even close yet. taking one step after the next in whatever direction consciousness leads you. Here. this expression is a mirror to you. not one word that has been written is ever erased. When you do so. And. But. But. the next step will be revealed. How do I get ME to realize. though it can be helpful to employ the non-preferred mode for a different perspective on occasion. Though I have still not given up on spirit and consciousness. First the being. In fact. Now.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 point where you desire to play with others. you have thought that you were doing. Hmm . And. But it is the being that puts the voice in your head to begin with. But. financial freedom would allow me to choose what to be and what to do on a full time. So. it is not clear where that separation lies. That did not matter either.

even though I am not consciously aware of being either source. So.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 for us and those we would serve? It is good to examine our choices. I am consciously aware of its existence. it seems that if friends were truly desired in my life. Though. I live a very isolated existence. 18 May 2009 Missed another three days in a row of musing. It is not that I didn't have opportunities. from where does this motive force come? Our standard answer has been "spirit". I do miss it. that has shifted to Wayne. That is appropriate. It all comes down to choosing what we are being. But. It just doesn't involve other people. such will manifest.. Though. It has always been there.. Given that I am away from home all week every work week. We say that a lot: "doing what we are moved to do". we know we are being moved and we know that the direction is in our best interest and the best interest of all concerned. The potential is there for some grand things to come through . One way or another. Though. In fact. It doesn't matter that I know not where it will take me. When we are moved. Whether it is spirit or Wayne. or do I not need friends? A better question might be would other benefit from my friendship? Again. Yes. who might read it and provide feedback. The question is: does it need to? Either it does or it doesn't. If it doesn't. it is not ME . This is to be a cooperative undertaking . that keeps me coming back for more. It has been awhile since that happened. I would have manifest them by now. Do I need friends. Wayne generates all of this and I read it and respond. if I do. I wouldn't know where to start looking. things will continue as they have. There is something about this expression that enlivens me. The same question applies to friends. and for the dozen or so that I would enlist to support the Beyond Imagination endeavor. In either case. Not in over half a century. Though. But. Would I prefer to have one or a few close friends to interact with and provide feedback to on a regular basis in the course of our lives? At this moment. there is one thing missing that I would fix. it is not for me to dictate how others might serve our endeavor. whatever manifests is what needs to manifest. things that truly make a difference in the world.. but we don't have to make it our way of life.. though it would be one with me serving as the benefactor. I don't know what I would do with the feedback. That is 20 percent more words than we have expressed in 16 years to date. but I feel a need for it anyway. Or. my wife does not like it when I muse on weekends. the answer is yes. the preference is the one that I have already manifest. Do I have a need for it to be one way or another? Do I even have a preference for it to be one way or another? The bottom line is that it seems that I don't. We do not know what will come forth in 6 million words of expression.. It is being true to my full birth name. it seems that I should be spending some quality time with her and the furry children. That is OK. But.that too is a choice. Solitude may be a preference.. this still seems to be the right path for me at the moment . Now. but I can't pull myself away yet. Here is where I see myself reflected in the mirror of a blank slate. it is still within ME. This expression attracts me like a moth to a flame.. that is part of the attraction. Lately. I haven't. how do I become a friend to those who I seek to be friends with? At the moment.. even those we believe were made for the most altruistic of reasons.. That's twice in a single week. I'm running out of steam. Here is where I 126 . if only a few . and from that doing what we are moved to do. We have been operating on open loop for too long already. it comes down to preferences.. This expression needs to find its way to others. there is a feedback loop in operation. So. Or have we. not the ME that I know myself to be consciously anyway. If it does.

Though. This has become something to which we are accustomed. Though.. No wonder we experience life as we do. Because I am not living in bliss. But. In 127 .. that level is remote from the conscious self that is observing all of this. Is my desire sufficient to make it so? Perhaps it is. Does what I think. what do I want? To be who I was created to be. But. How do we turn this expression into not only our livelihood but a source of funds for the Beyond Imagination endeavor? At the moment.. With beingness. But.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 allow my consciousness to soar. It doesn't matter how. Yet. or do make a difference? It seems that it does potentially to me at least. If I were living in bliss. where is it that I would go other than where I am? What is it that I would be other than what I am? What is it that I would manifest in my life other than what I already manifest? Is there anything that I truly lack? Is there anything that I truly need other than awareness and beingness itself? I have said that I choose to manifest a commitment. there is something more. or what I am to experience next is beyond my conscious awareness. We haven't done much to expose others to this expression. And. that is what we desire most. You don't need a team of 12. the conditions for that commitment are not yet forthcoming. How that gets translated into what I am to be next. or is it right there beside me or within me but I am just not seeing it? Something says that it is the latter. if I am.. down to the finest detail in fact. what is it that I truly desire in my heart of hearts? The answer is simple . Yet. it seems that our options are limited. For the most part. I observe myself doing things. Here. That is my present Psych-K homework: I deserve to love and be loved. or choose. it is not a matter of growing into what you would become. I simply observe what I experience . Prior to 16 years ago. I watch this expression come into my mind and through my fingertips to a screen where I can see it.. It seems that I can experience it. perhaps they will not.. I desire to give the Beyond Imagination endeavor wings that it may do its works and provide its services to the world. Not that we have been moved to do much in that regard. Does it really matter to me one way or the other. it is a matter of realizing what it is that you already are. I just know that I do them. I don't know how I do them. Ever onward we go into the realm of the unknown. At no time during the past 16 years have I had the experience of being the one who was creating this.. I know that at some level I create it all. You don't need anything other than YOU to be who YOU were created to be. I know there is something missing. That sense runs into all areas of my life. But. Will this change anytime soon? I am over half a century old already and have yet to experience being the creator of something. stuck being the observer of all that happens in my life. to love and be loved. And. You don't need $1 per word. We would not have it any other way. not that the things we have been moved to do have been successful. Perhaps they will manifest. We never know where the next step is going to lead us. It is as if the conscious part of me is on automatic. does it? There is a sense that my life is destined somehow . but it is not clear that I can change it. So. in all likelihood the vast majority of people are just as ignorant of such things . Do I really believe that? Am I acting in accord with that belief? We all deserve to love and be loved.. and possibly to others and even the world as well. Can I become consciously aware of that part of myself? Right now. That is OK. this was not the case either. What manifests manifests. Everything that I was created to be I already am. perhaps even more because at least I am aware of being the observer in my life. is it truly missing. What makes me think that I am not being that already? BLISS. I desire these things. things would be different. this includes the experience of seeming to make choices. How can that be? How can I be so ignorant of what seems to be the most basic of things? I just am.

Nothing else matters. and I will find it ... I don't particularly care what the world thinks. or to the world. Perhaps there is no place for me at all.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 many respects we are stubborn and inflexible. until you do this. There is a sense that my life has effectively been on hold for many years awaiting something to happen. Everything that you need to live in bliss is within you. By similar argument. Exactly what that is. External relationships can only reflect internal ones. Beware of attachments to anything. It does not have to be that way at all. it seems. and perhaps not even the spirit . So. of that. It has always been there waiting for you to discover or remember who you are. and perhaps see my dreams come to fruition.. If fact. you must focus on the being first. it seems that exerting will is an act of doing not being. infinite. Again. At the moment. Can I accept that? Can I resign my will to that? Can I be satisfied with another 16 years of expression under similar conditions to the past 16 years? It seems that unless I become something different and do something different. Oh well. even regarding my life? I have never paid much attention to others. you need to see your Psych-K homework in a new light. However. how much can we control consciously? Does it even matter? Do I need to exert my will in order to be who I was created to be? Hmm . No. Only YOU are permanent. there is no mistaking them when they come. Neither should I have any expectations of what shall come of it.. and all-knowing. What is within out power to choose. Though.. not the consciousness. to manifest? And. to anyone. Find your bliss. But. I will be it. Find what you most love to be and be that.. not the body. it is Wayne's creation. But. None of these are permanent. why should they? At the same time. That YOU is the very spark of the Mind of God from which you sprang. Find what you most love to do and do that.. that will flow naturally from what you are being. to change. How attached am I to particular outcomes regarding my work. to society. not the heart. I can dream. How they come about we do not know. or to what Beyond Imagination intends to do? Indeed. No... The doing will flow naturally as well. Hmm . that is unthinkable. It seems that I have no role in creating it. even to who you think that you are. and not getting getting feedback from others . but the YOU that is beyond all of these. Perhaps my life is the very life that I am meant to live. then the miracles happen. it comes down to does it matter. not knowing others. You can choose to love YOU and be loved by YOU. We continue to experience revelations here. Your nature is like unto your creator. but discover something of yourself as well. Focus on the being first and foremost. I will know it when it does happen. When you are being who you were created to be. to serve some audience or even the world in some way. Surely. it must be like unto me. why do we have over 5 million words of expression spanning over 16 years? There must be a reason. There must be a better way. this expression is my creation. you cannot really love another or be loved by them. this much creative expression was manifest to accomplish something . not the mind. The bottom line is that it doesn't matter what you want . But. Yet. I do not know. You've been thinking about "love and be loved" as if it were an external thing. That YOU is eternal. immortal. to this expression. Actually. my place is not in the limelight. I so long to be able to do this on a full time basis as my 128 . in fact. But. Nor do I see myself being a star in any way. regarding Beyond Imagination... that could indeed be my fate. so it must be like unto Wayne. at the same time we are flexible enough to allow this expression to manifest as it does.. it is what it is.. I cannot know whether this expression truly does that or not. Why should anyone pay attention to me. It is via this expression that I discover Wayne.. My hope is that the nature of the expression is such that you not only discover something of Wayne.

Many people plan their lives.. Every such ability is there for a reason. My preference would be to make that time NOW. But. I observe them. that is what my training in metaphysics and in systems engineering has taught me. there is still a strong desire to give Beyond Imagination the wings to fly. Perhaps that is a distinction that has little value. Though. I know that. why should the universe care what I desire? It cares what I need. in fact for most. 5 million words of expression. Further. and I don't know how to direct it to happen unconsciously. It seems like such a simple step . what have I done to try to know them? It hadn't really occurred to me to try. to declare our preference and then allow other than conscious forces to do their thing and make it so. do I need what I desire? Is it necessary for me to be who I was created to be? If not. is that the only way and is that the most direct way? Despite all of this. I believe that I know how to do this. preferably in some grand way. I can say that I create my own reality via my beliefs. or at least their days. so. we don't have to know how. Is that asking for too much. it is not free will that is the issue. or what I desire would already have manifest. We have the resources in one form . We tend to get what we expect. other than for some mundane choices. Expectancy counts a lot. Clearly. and sees to it that I get it. there is no other way. Further. Indeed. It is for us to set the intent. In particular. And. even though I do not experience making the choices consciously. I trust that I will be moved to do precisely what is necessary. Yes. that is grandiose thinking again. What good is it to create our own reality if we can't have some control over what reality we would create? Why is it that I even think or ask that? We can create the reality that we prefer. to carrying out the mission of Beyond Imagination: to build the foundations of a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh. and actions even though most of this happens at other than conscious levels. there really is no choice at all.. Further. But... Nearly without exception. These are things that we engage in consciously as well as other than consciously. Things just happen in my life. the right choice seems obvious to me .. That is just how it is. No. is there to be used in service in some way . Loosely. I am resigned to devote my life to this.. it is an important distinction. comes to mind.. I know myself to be far more than my conscious self. This very expression is evidence of that. it never has been. do I truly expect what I desire and do I truly believe that I deserve it? It seems like the answer must be know. choices. The statement: Ye shall know them by their works. Is there a way to know our other than conscious parts other than to observe their works in our lives? My sense is no. But. So. we have the value of the expression at $1 per word. We just don't have the means to convert the expression into its value. Then again. I realize that this is not the case for many.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 means of earning my livelihood. I have no doubt that this is what I came to do and that my abilities place me in a unique position to do this. how am I supposed to think given all that has come forth through me? I believe that we each have a purpose and a destiny. there is a strong ability associated with bringing forth a stream of consciousness such as this. for me. Then again.. It is conscious free will. I don't know how to make that happen consciously . Though. I accept full responsibility for the choices that I observe myself making. I don't really experience making them happen or choosing for them to happen. I believe that for me anyway. a single transaction. But. what does it 129 . This seems to fly against the concept of free will. it seems that it is something that will indeed happen when the time is right. It seems that the key enabler that is missing is resources. That is not my way. And. I accept that there are other than conscious parts of me that are perfectly capable of making good choices.. But.. We also tend to get what we believe that we deserve. this destiny is not to be known consciously in advance but unfolds in the moment over time.

Oh well. Yes. It is in the moment that life is lived. but. there is a sense that this is false somehow. But.. where do we go to find those whose paths we are meant to cross? Look first to those already in your life. They are there for a reason. Friends are absent from our life. It is what it is.. It seems that mixing the being with the doing is getting us into trouble. What do I believe myself to be? The hermit is the first thing that comes to mind. Our wife and furry kids matter to us. I observe it being created through me . Yet. The only thing stopping us from being that is us . It should be this hard just to be. we have a high standard for friendship. I am not the Wayne that creates this stream of consciousness expression. In particular.. The job we do out of necessity. However. what we believe. Or. does it continue to be necessary? Our sense is that the isolation was indeed necessary to allow us to express as we have over the past 16 years. This expression matters to us. Yet. Yet. But. it seems to be time to find something more to be . We have associated with bringing forth this expression. through this expression I come to know more of who I truly am. but do I come to 130 . Oh well. what are we being as we do this. Overall. 19 May 2009 Back on track. and a master musician at that. Is this a chosen isolation? Is this a necessary isolation? If it is chosen. Everything else is a distant fourth. but enough to make your life full in ways that it has never been. Occasionally. I can say that I am Wayne. Everything that you need is broadcast to the world.. something that I have been overlooking while attempting to be something I am not. If it were. I am but the instrument here. and if I were doing it well. It is interesting that we speak in the plural as we say this. and by doing so set the course for the future. it surprises us. Am I being that well? Is that what I was created to be? The immediate answer that comes to mind is NO. does that continue to be our choice? Our desire to reach out and connect with others grows daily. Or. But.. We never know where our consciousness is going to take us... so it seems anyway. Yes. Being is all that matters. So. then I would have found my bliss.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 matter. and the surprises are good.. for 16 years. more correctly Wayne creates it all. What I know as me is clearly not all of Wayne. not that we've ever asked anyone to try. in particular. we live a solitary existence. What is past is past. But. that is just how it is sometimes. Indeed. It help to be aware of that however.. Though two consecutive musings is not much of a track. it is what it is. Every day is a brand new adventure.. it is the moment that matters. and why are we not blissful? What truly matters to us? We matter to us. in ways beyond anything that you can yet imagine. It is amazing how much we can do when we get out of the way and just allow ourselves to do it. If it is necessary. something more that I already am. it can only be lived in the moment. or you will find your way into theirs. That could change at any moment. But. so you are meant to find connections with people. No. But then.. Perhaps that is a messed up set of priorities. We can only affect things in the moment . Note that our job and friends don't fit into the scheme. Trust that any others you are meant to meet and interact with will find their way into your life. they are not so pleasant.. that does not mean it is still necessary. We have associated with what we are doing. Hmm . there is a difference in being an instrument and being a musician who plays the instrument. and to be fully present. truly amazing.. one that makes it difficult for the few people in our life to achieve . we are alone much of the time . the role has been constant. not a lot of people. I create it all. Being who we were created to be is all that matters. In fact. Just as you find connections with numbers. Most of the time. in particular. the vast majority of our free time..

You can do that now.. not yours. And self-judgment has limited. of being who you truly are. But Wayne is not separate from ME. But. It may appear to be a selfish way to see things. Though.. But... the means for executing the limitation may involve roles played by others in your life. It is time for you to realize that you are free. listen to. but 131 . eventually we just might reach there. The only thing that can limit you is you. Though as with many others. the restricting beliefs often came from external authority figures. what does that matter? Perhaps it might be considered inappropriate in the workplace. in this case Wayne.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 BE more of who I truly am? It is the BEING not the knowing that ultimately matters. There is only one right choice under any set of circumstances. Then again. it seems that I would not even be considering this line of reasoning unless I could somehow make a difference. You might say that this expression is my primary external input .. You life is meant to be glorious. It is all a matter of having the right perspective. I don't read. in your heart of hearts? We know that you do not. In all of my metaphysical reading. I travel the same 300 miles of roads every week. We make a difference by being and by doing. There is no judgment other than your own. Can it be more inappropriate than repressing who I am? That is one of the reasons I need to work in my own employ. Consciousness explores all alternatives. This is true for each of us. Perhaps that is true for everyone as well. Just as I became aware of being aware. I don't remember anyone else writing of me being distinct from who I am. it comes from something other than what I know to be me.. if any. it is always the most important of the two. So what. he is just more than I am. what do I need to be in order to make the best choice at this time? That question presumes that you have the ability to choose other than an optimum choice. why can't I make that leap at this very moment? What is keeping me from being who I truly am. Any path that you follow is the "right" path for you. It is curious that so little of the world is part of my world. that seems to be quite a limiting belief. choose being . not necessarily by myself. The few people that know anything of me already know that I am a bit strange at the very least.. there is generally the distinction of another entity coming through.. any chain that you have felt have been self-imposed.. Yet. there. Give yourself permission to do that. There is a sense of being at a crossroads in my life once again. such is how it is. They might consider me to be downright crazy if I were to express who I am more openly. Any limits. at some point I could just be Wayne. Whenever there is a choice between being and doing. But. or watch the news of any kind. Hmm . You are free. I eat at fewer than two dozen restaurants. Will this ever change? If the process continues of revealing more of who I am in this expression. There is a sense that there are multiple paths available to me now. Don't be afraid of what others might think. Though. the bottom line is that it does not matter. more than I experience myself to be. You however only get to follow one path in your existence. but that is different . What they think is their business. Give yourself permission to be YOU. The first answer that came to mind was fear. Just be YOU and allow what will be to be in its full glory. I could become aware of being Wayne. I interact with others for less time most weeks than I devote to this expression or than I watch TV and movies. they only reflect what you want to see at some level. Do you really believe that . You are meant to live in bliss. utility for anyone. I think that I take it to an extreme. So. we could experience a sudden shift as we did 16 years ago when this expression began.. Yet. but that doesn't change the fact that our world is an intimate mirror of us. Hmm .. What I don't know is what the paths are or whether I can influence taking one over another. You have always been free. I've read many channeled books.. and it is not external at all. So. And. more than I know myself to be. of seeing who you truly are. Everything and everyone in your world is a reflection of you.

how do I know that my preference is truly in my best interest and the best interest of all concerned? If it manifests. But. I am Wayne . do I do that . at the same time. Realizing that allows you to take one step closer.. We are asking for fair value for services provided and to be provided. in and of itself. That. That does not preclude outer journeys. Wherever you see limitation in that. I come to work each day during the work week and am busy doing things all day. Wayne is more than I am. So. This or something better will manifest. I have been known to be dense at times.. however our interpretation of what they meant is up to us. even there. I have a preference for how I want to live and want to work. Yet. At work. you will be moved to be where you need to be next.. I know that destiny must not be forced. either way I will know.. I will know. It is not important that I know what will manifest or when it will manifest... I grow more and more impatient . I am not the one granting the resources. That is how things work in my life.. That alone makes us powerful creators. something is different now. I am Wayne . But. but you are not quite there yet. you are not being who you truly are. it seems that the adventures will be inner ones. Wayne is in full control of your life. I believe that we have made a compelling argument as to the services that would be provided from our commitment. We are different now. You can only realize what you are . too. it seems that I am the observer. As such. That is OK. I believe that is consistent with my destiny and my purpose. is a limiting statement. What is important is to be my best and do my best each moment of my life. These things can't be rushed. Though. or. that is what I desire most. I have a strong desire as to what I want my life and my work to be. How do I realize that? How do I experience myself to be the creator as well as the observer of this expression? How do I experience myself to be the creator of my reality? Hmm . the attachment is not there. it is what it is. that is not my call to make. At the same time. In fact. Hmm . My world will continue to go on as it is meant to be one way or the other. I am the one seeking them.. How do we know that the value that has been set is fair? It is simply what came forth from Wayne as the value for a service provided by Wayne. it is the process of imposing meaning on what happens. Your next step is to realize I am Wayne. We are not asking for a hand out. We have felt this way before. The true statement is Wayne is who I am.. is not experiencing reality a form of creating it? At the very least. in particular. The world is not going to come to an end if my desire is not manifest. But. That does mean going on some adventures in search of my bliss. I am Wayne. can I change that? Can I assign a different meaning to what happens or to what has happened in the past? The events don't need to change.. When that changes.. the sense is that in the 132 .. Actually. even when it might have seemed otherwise.. Perhaps if I repeat it enough it will finally sink in. He has always been in full control . You are getting close... Even as I say that. what you are being. Though. At the moment. More correctly. such outer journeys may be necessary to spark new inner ones. Whatever it takes. desiring the circumstances that would allow me to live up to my commitment. There is still a sense that we are on the verge of a breakthrough. But.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 in my own employ. do I observe myself doing that? Here. That does not mean working all of the time. where do we go from here? You are precisely where you need to be at the moment. Yet.. it must be allowed to unfold in its full beauty and in its right timing. But. there is a difference between doing things and doing things that matter. I am seeking the exchange of one form of resources for another.

to society. but I don't have a sense of being the creator of this expression. We are a part of Wayne. Where in my life do I experience being the creator? I associate with being the observer most of the time. and a lasting difference at that.. Can I take such a leap? Of course I can. ultimately. We can't go forward and experience how we will feel in the future. We can't go back and change how we felt in the past.. So. You will know when they have arrived. and associate with being the actor or experiencer often as well. then what does it take for us to become ready? Wayne knows precisely what that is. we do have a role . That is just how it is. Then again. Here. and Wayne knows precisely what he is doing and what he is fostering us to be and to experience.. That doesn't mean that it can't change. Where do we turn to find our bliss? WITHIN. you will intuitively know which ones are right for you. it is a matter of being open to new opportunities that come your way. We don't feel that we are in control in any way. It just hasn't happened yet. Your life is indeed a conspiracy. Yes. At the moment.. 20 May 2009 Getting a very late start tonight. What matters is who we choose to be during the process of experiencing what happens.. and to the world. however. Clearly. is there something that we can do to facilitate the process? Rather than being pushed. Further. That doesn't mean that my awareness can't expand to encompass this aspect of my Self.. though it may not be as the creator. Sometimes that happens.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 end. Trust. All manner of forces are there to assist you in growing and in carrying out your mission. but that he does it. most of it will not matter. We know that something is coming. but it is not.. there is no doubt. Hmm . It seems that within is a 133 . I simply don't. but seize them anyway. that is not sufficient. That is OK. We can only choose in the present. We trust that it will be precisely what we need. if this is the case. when do I create? I observe myself creating here. And. we feel that we are making a difference. So. We just have to express what we can when we can. It doesn't matter what happens. Why is that? How can I do something for 16 years and not have such a sense? What can I say . That is the only place that makes any sense. We just don't know what that something is. To the degree that we learn our lessons. because we know that Wayne is creating it. only we and spirit seem to know of the service that we are providing. I may be looking at things all wrong. But. That answer came quickly but was somewhat unexpected. That would mean finding my bliss in the very place that I am in the moment. perhaps even into a new dimension for me. we can only make such a choice in the moment. Is that not where I turn to find this expression? But. It is just a matter of time. Here. we give our higher self more to work with in our lives. that is a choice that is available to us in each moment. We are performing a service to spirit. We don't know where our life is taking us. Why is that? Why after 16 years of expressing and sharing this expression on the WWW is this still a solitary endeavor? It must be that it is because Wayne chooses for it to be so. How he does this remains a mystery . Though another possibility is that we are not ready for it to be other that this yet. But.. we have the complete opposite sense. We should choose to make the present a present to ourselves and to those who our life touches. can we pull ourselves along as well? We would not be asking such questions unless there is something that we can do. That could be scary. it requires taking a leap in a different direction. but it is a good one.. Yet. what would we express this moment? It seems that our life is leading to a juncture point of some kind.. Can I live my life in bliss regardless of what is happening in my life? Of course I can. They may be quite different than you expect . We need to choose to be blissful.

I do not seem to be learning from this. Everything that we need to be. In the background.. This is what I love to do. and definitely not blissful as I am doing it. But. and most of those I do not know well enough to really know what they are experiencing internally. So. It is for us to find what we love to do and do it to the best of our abilities... It is as if I have set a threshold on what I must be and what I must do to be happy. there is no doubt about it. that is something that I want to do. How do I return to the unity where my bliss and I are ONE? Yes. it is not a matter of degree yet .. we are not necessarily being who we were created to be. But. They are living their dreams.. consisting of less than 100 people . That requires overcoming limitations. something about that seems wrong.. The idea of needing to find our bliss presumes that it is separate from us. despite the five million plus words of expression that have come forth. I can't think of one person in my world that I would consider to be blissful. That is a stupid way to live. But. how does this help. That I am not experiencing this yet suggests that despite the spiritual awakenings that I have experienced I am still not being who I was created to be. Yet. who I am being. Hmm .. So. But. Though. and even then. especially the final contestants are truly blissful. They are doing what they love. Yet. Two hours of expression per day and two hours of watching my favorite shows and movies should be sufficient to bring a smile to my face for at least that amount of time. I should be able to change it. the doing is a sign of what we have become. that world is quite small. not what I am doing . It could be nothing more than a matter of perspective. That is the key. Though. either it is missing or I am not seeing it for what it is. or did Wayne set the bar? If I set it. Yet. Even when we have turned our attention within. Wayne is a writer . even during the workday there are times when I am operating at my optimum. it can't be separate from us.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 big place. and I set the bar so high that I can rarely reach it.. it seems that we are not even close. It is not the doing that matters... Bliss comes when we are being who we were created to be. is that really true? Why can I not accept that I am being all that I was created to be in each moment and that this is unfolding over time? Why can I not accept that who I am being is sufficient for my happiness in each moment? Not what I am experiencing. Everything we need to know. How that can be. why is happiness so elusive? What more can I be? Clearly. Why is that? What does it take to be happy? What does it take for me to be happy? It is not that I am sad or 134 . where is the disconnect? How can we be doing what we love to do and still not be happy? Clearly this is something that I am doing to myself. If Wayne set it. I am Wayne. then there is a reason it is set where it is. it is not any written expression. They are being the best that they can be. But.. it is stream of consciousness written expression. we still have to search to find our bliss. In particular. Perhaps bliss is not so easy of a state of being to achieve. And. written expression is our forte. the final episode of American Idol plays. Hmm .. and enjoying every minute of it. It all comes down to being who we were created to be.. That is a show where the contestants. what else can we be? We are always being who we are. Everything is within us. not real separation. I wouldn't say that I am any happier now than I was 16 years ago. But. Desperately. self-imposed and externallyimposed. there is only the illusion of separation. often I am not happy. Then again. Hmm . is there anything that we need to be? Why isn't being who we are in each moment good enough? When it comes down to it. I know not. No. how do I change where the bar is set? Did I set the bar. the answer must be much more.. it is clear that there is something extremely important missing in my life. Nothing can be separate from us unless we choose to make it so . They provide an example of what any of us can be. That reason involves giving me an incentive to grow in certain ways. but we are all stars and performers in our own right. Also.. we are not all idols..

It seems that depends on what we expect. I trust that Wayne knows. Perhaps it takes a while to sink in. The first step is to own that I create this expression. Yes. they are statements about me that I did not know that I knew. That is OK.. Just as clearly. every paragraph. the process is a mystery. I have been being so all of my life. The fifth answer that comes to mind is the "A" on my ring signifying Aslan and the Beyond Imagination endeavor. What does it take for this to sink in? Ye shall know them by their works. Being itself is a mystery. Through these works you can know me. It has always been ME. so that I do what he does? Interesting questions. There is no one else here to create any of this. That doesn't mean that such works are not present in my life . So. more importantly.. believed. or even thought until they came forth. that does not constitute happiness. The second answer that comes to mind is 22:The Fool Complete = The Master Builder.. But. There may be other parts of which I am not yet aware because I have yet to experience their works. It is enough for ME to be ME. the answer is obvious: end the separation. That may be related to things that we are already doing. But.. These be my works. So. A good portion of these works express statements about me. Are we in the midst of another one now? We could be. through these works I can know me. so that I am what he is. Even with all of this. But.. that task was left to our creator. every sentence. so that I experience what he experiences. It doesn't matter that I know not how I do it. what we do with our lives is our choice. first steps first. The first answer that comes to mind is 9: The Hermit. Yet. 21 May 2009 135 . I've known that all along. everywhere. I would be all of the things. That is true of everyone. It seems that we need to explore what we truly love to do. The third answer that comes to mind is 74: The Benefactor. at the very least. But. No. all of the time. Wayne knows what he was created to be. We didn't create ourselves. Yes. in all my frailty and all my glory. But. I am Wayne. And. how do we do that? I am Wayne . my experience shows that there is no other that I can be. I should be able to become ONE with those parts of Wayne that create this expression. How do we complete the sentence: I am . it may not be. there may be other steps. I don't think that I know. We need no outside resources to do these explorations. How do I become Wayne. what does? At this point. To some degree. I've experienced them several times in the past 16 years. That is easy to say. We also need to explore what we are being and whether we truly love being that. The fourth answer that comes to mind is 2184 = 888(16) = my mission. In fact. Give generously and abundantly. It is ME doing this.. every word.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 that I am depressed. Indeed. Yet. I am being the ME that I was created to be. so that I know what he knows. I am being the best ME that I can be in each moment. However. How can I truly realize that? Clearly. I am Wayne . right NOW. What we do with our life is our gift to the world. Sudden changes are definitely possible. Only time will tell. he will reveal that to me when I am capable of understanding it and when I need to know. And. I AM all of these things NOW. I may never know how. But. happiness still is absent.. So.. this expression shows that there are parts of Wayne within my experience of which I am only consciously aware of their works. Everything that we need is within us. my consciousness soars a lot. it is a matter of conscious awareness.

But. Yet. It may just be that they haven't observed other than conscious parts of themselves operating. I still have trouble believing that I am Wayne. What am I being when I am doing this? I haven't asked that before. what would we bring forth tonight. They would not be aware of a separation. for what purpose? Ultimately any form of expression should have an audience. I live with it every day. But. It may be an audience of one.. It seems to be the most important question in the world at the moment.. And. Rather. But. where is the bliss? What am I being now. it is a matter of removing the wrappers of limitation to reveal who I have always been since the day that I was created.. I don't. there is not anything that I want to change to.. "For your eyes only. that may be in error as well as my creation occurred outside of space and time. Though. in 16 years.. In particular. Wayne is already doing this perfectly. What is it that we most need to hear? What is it that we most need to express? We never really know until we see what comes forth. That doesn't mean that they are aware of who they are. there is a part of me that is timeless . whether I am being who I was created to be. How would inserting my limited understanding and ability improve upon this? Does it matter whether I get what I desire? Is there anything that I desire that is necessary to my happiness or bliss? How can I make happiness and bliss conditional on anything outside of me? It should not depend on others in my life. But ultimately it does not matter. my awareness has been other than normal... It is enough for me to be who I am and allow that to unfold as it will. that change is reflected in everything in my world.. Yet. What matters is that I know that this is what is happening . is it enough? Can I accept that all of this may be happening for my sole benefit . It's already past 8:30 pm.. I haven't found any others to relate this to on any sort of a regular basis.. do I know what I am .2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 Hmm . This takes us back to living a solitary life. It should not depend on what I do. Since 1993. All that I need to do is change myself and share who I am in whatever ways I am moved to share. we're talking less than a handful of times per year for most of those 136 . It is only this incarnation that is within space and time. At this point. that will continue to exist beyond these worldly bonds. It is not a matter of aspiring to be something. tonight is even worse. but that is an audience nonetheless. But. How many people spend quality time with their own consciousness nearly every day? I would guess that this number would be quite few. We experience all of this as a mystery . This is something that I should know. But. Perhaps there is a reason for this. doing flows naturally from what we are being. Most people would probably not question whether they are the person referenced by their name. Nothing matters but what I am being. In fact. my consciousness has been soaring. that would be OK. I feel that way about this expression. The thing that I most enjoy doing is bringing forth this stream of consciousness expression. Actually. for my soul benefit? Actually.. and I am being Wayne. It is that part that I need to find again.. That is OK." Often. only for you. This is something that should be beyond belief. When I change. It doesn't matter that I don't know how. Does what happens in my life matter to me? Do I need to influence? Do I need to manifest particular experiences? Is that not what creating your reality is all about? But. that I am aware of it happening. Though. we do the best with the time we have available. Oh well. I know that. that doesn't matter either. You see what no one else can see. I don't need to do anything in the world to change the world. I wonder why.. and mysteries are good.. So. It should only depend on what I am. in this very moment? Do I even know? I am just being me . It should not depend on what I experience. what I truly am? It seems that I have only begun to discover this. Generating this expression and reading this expression changes me. It is enough that I am able to do this and choose to do it regularly. if that is so. My sense is that I am being what I was created to be.

we've mused a lot. I know what I am ready for by what I draw into my reality. that might be the achievement of a lifetime. Here. But. You have not realized who you can be. Each of us have a purpose for which our gifts are meant to be used in service in some way. we know that for change to happen in our life.. He does this by creating the reality that I experience. That is asking a lot of anyone.. in particular.. But. Clearly. my informal training is in metaphysics. Why has it been necessary to experience so much of this in solitude? Who says it was necessary? Just because that is what happened doesn't mean that it was necessary.. there has been very little input from others. For you to be something more. Do I know what my gifts are? My formal training is in engineering. Yet.. He has been aware since he was created. a close second is systems engineering . preferably a much better place. My strongest gift is writing . there we go again with desires. But. One can leap to being who you are at any moment. seeing how spirit flows in systems. it would take more than our free time to do that. and being. Though. our gifts are given to us for a reason. other than our musings. Yet. that is not by my account. 1 June 2009 Another month already. that is par for the course as well. you have to realize that you are more of Wayne. we must change. Though. Wayne meets my every need. how do we make that so? How do we turn our endeavor into not only our full time occupation but the part time occupation of a dozen others? You see. I do a lot and have achieved a lot. par for our life actually.. you have not chosen to be Wayne. But. But. we believe that we are in the final quarter of our life. are these all? My sense is no. But. Though. knowing. why not make the leap this very moment? Indeed. How do we turn these gifts into something that serves the world? The desire is clearly there.. stream of consciousness expression. Wayne is already fully aware of who he is. I did not even acknowledge that this expression came from me not just through me. Though we have generated over 5 million words in the past 16 years in our Beyond Imagination endeavor. believing. do I also need to be asking someone 137 . But. Though. It seems time for that to change. making meaningful connections between disparate pieces of information is also a strong point. there is a difference between acknowledging. or personal interaction. But. even before I know that there is a need. So. we desire to more than duplicate that in as little as 4 years. we must change what we are being. Wayne knows exactly what I am ready for. It has been since this expression began. Yet. do we need to make a mark? We have said that we need to make the world a better place for our having lived . One of the most important things that I experience is this very expression. of whom do I ask. Here. I am good at finding spiritual meaning in symbol systems that others do not seem to find. There are many paths that could have been chosen. I ask this not for me alone .. why not? At 51. For some. Also. it doesn't have to be a progression.. Yet. So. but for those who would participate and for those who would be served by what we are collectively able to produce. I can speak directly to me. By some accounts. In particular. in particular. Until recently. Wayne is choosing these paths based on what you expect and are ready to experience. That does not leave a lot of time to make our mark on the world. It is not until the past few weeks that I've been moved to acknowledge that I am Wayne.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 years. What does it matter what we desire? How do I communicate to Wayne what I am ready for . I ask spirit herself and the universe. what have we actually accomplished this year? As usual. That doesn't surprise me. Wayne can speak directly to me. what I am ready to be and what I am ready to do? Do I even need to communicate this at all? I am part of Wayne. either in the form of books.. But.

We know what we believe will give us what we want. We have works in the form of the Beyond Imagination expression to date. Right now. it seems that anyone could do better than we have. We've settled on a 40/60 split. Is this a fair condition to add? It would seem wrong to allow the works to go to someone that kept them from dissemination. As to when. and another $6 million for the next 4 years of work. Though we would want the rights to use the works to serve others. Then again. Do we need to make what we want known to others. it seems that it is time to re-evaluate things and come up with a new commitment as to where we want to take Beyond Imagination next. or didn't allow us to generate new works by mining the gold in what has come forth to date. but most of the time such is not the case. We would still have another 16 years or so left after that. this should not be our concern. Yet. it feels as if the stars are within my grasp. I don't want my wife to worry how to make ends meet financially ever again. as we have already discussed can be left to unseen forces of the universe that are there to do our bidding. we are talking roughly $5 million with inflation. it seems. that should cover 500-1000 hours per year per lightworker. needs to change.. I'm asking for $5 million for past work.. nor at my present job could I expect to earn them in a lifetime. OK. And that's just for starters. That's roughly twice what I make per year now... It has taken over half a century to get to this point in my life. All that it takes is $1 per word. Hmm . If we create 138 .. Yes. adjusted for a 3000 hour year. How. it is like a term of office. All would be well if I was also happy. a matter of being without emotion much of the time. perhaps not anyone.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 in flesh and blood with the resources to fund this endeavor? It seems that such should come of its own accord. Given our record of disseminating this material over the past 16 years. We need enough of a commitment to be able to carry out what we are committed to do. Though I do need to know that I am worthy of what I am asking . it is only written down here in this expression. That too. Depending on present earnings. I'm reaching for the stars. It is not that I am sad. That seems to be by choice. it is more a matter of being neutral. I have not owned this as something that I have the power to manifest. That comes to roughly $65-75K per lightworker for part time work. and even then they have evolved significantly over time. It hasn't been the easiest of lives. it has been quite a solitary life. society. that what I intend to provide is far more valuable than what I intend to receive. the only answer to when is NOW. We know what we want. and future works in the next four years of Beyond Imagination expression at the very least. After all. The $1 per word part is the same throughout. Though. I am asking for enough to constitute financial freedom for my family. There are unseen forces whose job that is. At least I created a website and posted most of the Beyond Imagination expression there. That would be sufficient to do everything that I want to do in the next four years.. we believe that something along these lines will manifest. it is only in the past 8 months of expression that there is any mention of this. Given another 20 years of work. It is for me to declare what I want in as compelling of terms as I can. It is not like we are asking for a handout. Yet. and the world. Why not? I personally don't have anywhere near these amounts of resources . I don't have to figure out how. We create in the moment and only in the moment. After that. We just need an exchange of energy .. The only issue is the source of resources. At this point. not by a wide margin. I only need so much. Further. the value of the Beyond Imagination works for the Beyond Imagination works. and by nature. by design. at the same time.. but neither has it been difficult. What has changed is the proportion that goes to the Beyond Imagination team. We just don't know when nor how. One would have to read through one of two large files in the Latest Works section to even find reference to the terms of our commitment. That comes to $600K/ $900K per year for four years. Rather.

you would be elsewhere. this is precisely where you need to be. Even my paid work is different every day. The universe only reacts to our choices. This appears to be something beyond our power to control. It seems that it is time to practice what we preach. but we can manage one way or the other. I've thought about this a lot. I'm as certain of it as of the fact that I am alive. Then again. they have the potential to impact others deeply even while you are alive. and even that is limited. What choices keep me where I am at present? Don't look to the past to see what got you here. Though.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 metaphysical / spiritual services for which we receive compensation. nothing is beyond our power to allow. what comes forth during that time is different every day. there is room for freedom. If it weren't. How can I be so certain of this? I know that this is what I came to do with my life. This is clearly what I want to do with my life. when the resources do come and they will. I sit in my office and do 139 . even then. break them and instill new ones. Then again. who knows what is in store for any of us. Perhaps it will always be limited. Indeed. I have a habit of writing for two hours nearly every day. and dramatically different some days. We wrote a small work on Reality Creation a couple of months ago. they may have already done so. The universe never throws anything into our life that we cannot handle. Look to your habits. But. how do we do that? How do we make choices that are consistent with what we desire? In my case. what do they know? At present. Further. We all serve just by being who we are. Though. Yet. though for much of it. My habits control much of my experience. Though. But. here we are out of our element somewhat. That way. that should allow us to fund more time or more lightworkers. we make a myriad of choice each and every day. We don't have the resources to hire our lightworkers. It is just a matter of time until the consequences arrive that allow me to withdraw from this account. but it is true. Further. Hmm . You have a legacy of works already that could survive you long after you are gone. there is really no one other than me that I know to any degree. that is a different way of looking at it. It may be difficult. I am contributing $1 into a spiritual bank account. Consequences always follow choices. what is a life that has limited impacts on others or on the world? It is a solitary life. Why am I in this situation? Why is my lifestyle what it is? Look to your choices. I do it with the attitude that with each word. Further. That no longer matters. We cannot help but to encounter others in some capacity as we do this. I would withdraw for my own abundance. what good is all my solitude if I cannot apply myself in service to others and my world in some manner? There are many ways to serve. For all that you know. and to fund the Beyond Imagination endeavor. If we want desirable consequences. But. as I do so. But. we do works that we know not who will see or how they will be impacted. But. many observing my life from the outside might not consider it to be living. we can ramp up quickly. we need to make desirable choices. I wouldn't change my life for that of anyone. It is just a matter of making the necessary arrangement for them to do so. we might have sufficient resources to sample some services in an attempt to find those that might make good members of our team. Yes. Yet. I choose to engage in this expression for a respectable amount of my free time regardless of whether the terms of the commitment manifest. It is that simple. What other choices do we make? We can't live as if the terms of the commitment are already in place. What are you choosing in the moment? Much of this is habitual. They have taken you precisely where you are... I know that this is indeed the value of this expression. Do these truly serve you? If not. But. Your life is not so solitary as you make it out to be. It is a matter of manifesting the opportunity.

2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 work on the computer. it has to be written. it is not clear that I am being successful yet. maybe we experienced a few months to half a year . that would be a different matter entirely. there is nothing to say that this is what I would be choosing to do if I were being ME. I may not be able to define what these differences are .. Lately. Perhaps with continued practice. or I need to create that context. If it were. This expression is that way as well. with the Provigil. Though.. it is not clear that I am really doing this at present. Even now. There is some part of me that knows and knows that it knows. and type what I hear.. I hadn't really made that observation before. I could enlist the support needed to do this gradually and safely. Though there is a difference between what we feel. believe. I believe that I do that every time I engage in this expression.. that does not concern me. It helps to have a good repertoire in this area. think. Yet. Could I function well enough to engage in this expression and the Beyond Imagination endeavor? Are the medications which allow me to function in the "normal" world keeping me from truly being who I am and experiencing the bliss that is rightfully mine to experience? How am I to know? I promised my wife that I would stop or reduce my medications. For me. but I got an overwhelming sense of the truth of that as it came forth. Though. and even somewhat bored at times. I've been attempting to pay more attention to it as it came through and to my thoughts as well. the couple of other times have been when we were highly manic after stopping or reducing our bipolar medications. What I hear literally goes in one ear and out the other. at least I am awake enough to keep moving from one task to another and at least stay interested. Though. if I could reduce my medications in a controlled and supported manner. All of these are ways of relating to the world and to information. and know. Have I learned enough in 16 years to be able to handle this? Just imagine what the musings would be like if I could engage the whole of me in producing them. It is as if they come from different parts of me. we would have experienced 16 years of bliss already. it is not clear that it matters. That is how it has always been for me. sense. What do I choose to change in my life. this requires a flexibility of consciousness that many do not seem to possess. As usual. What I need to know I know. I have to wonder what might happen now. 140 ... intuit. My time will come. But.. Instead. Though. Things must be immediate. through much of this I am less than excited. I don't really question that anymore. I only have to allow that part to operate in my life. I know not what it takes for me to be happy. She has been scared a few times and worried that I might not return to functioning "normally". But. but I use these terms to mean different things. Interesting.. less than a few minutes later. I don't need to know how I know. During each of these times. 2 June 2009 Started today by reading the musing from yesterday. That is just how my mind functions. There is a however. What does concern me is knowing my own abilities and being able to apply them I would hope to apply them in service to others and the world. most of which was during the highly manic times in 1993 prior to being diagnosed as bipolar. I would be happy. But. Hmm . just imagine. If the terms of my commitment were forthcoming. there it is right before my eyes. Apparently being engaged in this expression is not enough. Indeed. I may not know how. something that I can see. I hear it as a voice in my head. I need a context provided in which to operate . Yet. it is already a vague memory. I was flying so high in consciousness that I couldn't function in the "normal" world.

That is OK. at least in the next four years. We can read the expression that has been captured.. that must be so because that is what is. the starting point is always different from any previous time we have done so.. in the moment. it seems hope is not enough.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 Where do we go from here? The job has become more interesting of late. it is a start.. It may be a matter of realizing that it is something that I already know. a month. I am not the same person that I was when this expression started to come forth. That they don't seem to have gotten anywhere in 16 years is disappointing. But. And. such is life. I am always in a state of change. That last clause is interesting. That is my right as the master of my life. 141 . My hope is that the opportunity will come to carry out my commitment. perhaps even things that I cannot know. What is new is deciding what I want to manifest. This is the masterpiece that I would create.. but even then while it gives the Beyond Imagination endeavor wings. that does not seem like an empowering belief to hold. Hmm . or even a day ago. and a much better place at that. we can come close here. I see that I have been given the ability to do that.. I will allow spirit to do what it takes through me. There are over 6 billion people in the world. How is need to know determined. That is one constant . It has been doing this all of my life. The creation is perfectly manifested in each and every moment. Or rather. I may not know what that is . this expression would win hands down.. And.. I will be what it takes and do what it takes. provided I have a need to know. My consciousness is never the same from one moment to the next.. None of that came to pass. But. I am not the same person that I was a year.. in the end. we have to create the reality that we desire. that is simply not an option. but.. so has this expression. though. Clearly. At the same time. there is no going back. it does so in a controlled way. I still believe that she knows things that I do not know. That does not mean that it cannot be more . I would have bet my life that my spiritual work would have become my only work long before now. it will be due to my own effort and choices. the Beyond Imagination expression is the masterpiece that I have created .. I needed to learn what the past 16 years have taught me. What is new is the conscious desire. or it may be a matter of being guided in a manner that brings what I need to know to me. just as it is in the world of man.. Need to know is a basic operating premise in the spiritual world. We are only talking about $900K per year to fund our team of lightworkers. never to return where we have been. Indeed. Anything that any part of me knows. It seems that by default. That may indeed be all that is needed. There must be a reason. it is not clear that anyone but me regards it as so. it seems. In the past 16 years. Every one of them matters. it just means that it is perfect as it is given the collective and individual states of consciousness of the world. what does it matter. if I need to know something I will come to know it. the Beyond Imagination book. Perhaps this is the life that I am meant to live. and that I would have found many kindred spirits and friends to share my life with. If I don't succeed. As I see it now. Indeed. when we do so. Ever forward on the path we go. But.. we can make the world a better place for all of us. were it to come to a choice between the two. something went wrong. offered ways to do just that. My commitment defines what I would do if I had sufficient resources to not be limited . Oh well. hard to take as that might be. Though. I should be able to know . One of Wayne's first works.. Why should my life be destined for any more greatness than that of anyone? Perhaps it isn't. We don't always get what we expect.. Whether such ways as these will indeed manifest depend on a lot of factors. a week. why is there such an overriding need to make the world a better place for my having lived . Then. How do I do that? I know that there is some part of me that knows.. Yet. It is clearly not as I expected during the fall of 1993 when the book came forth. But.

That is OK. it is that search for more that keeps us going. And. is that enough? Is that enough for it to manifest? It seems that we shall see. Perhaps there will. Necessity demands it. Is this expression worth that amount? This value was set over a decade ago and has been restated consistently many times.. that this would be something that would allow us to be and express more of whom that we are. That's a harsh assessment. One way leads to the life of our dreams.. perhaps there will not. We choose to come here nearly everyday to express for two hours.. Hmm . and my Beyond Imagination work is my spiritual job. If resources are not forthcoming to do what I desire to do . That constitutes financial freedom for my family and sufficient resources to fund the Beyond Imagination endeavor to the tune of $900K per year. And.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 And. We have no ability to reach into our consciousness to find its source. Occasionally. at least on most days. even the most mundane of it. that doesn't necessarily mean that there will be a buyer.. There are no other obstacles in my life.. or 28 hours per week for these two activities. if I can imagine it. we will need to do just that. What would we do without it? But. it seems that it is enough. Then. How can I know this? Because I can imagine being and doing so much more. Why is that the case? Why does happiness and joy elude us? Why can't we find bliss in what is rather than always searching for more? Hmm . That has to be enough.. It seems that this is one of those. should this latter alternative prove to be the case. This is the best part of our day .. Only the present counts. far more than many. We have been moved to ask for just the right amount. Further. Since I don't know where it came from. It is all divine. life goes on. Things can only be manifest in the moment. Indeed. what choices would I be making? Would I continue to come here to express? Would I continue to watch TV and movies for two hours per day to unwind and relax? That's four hours per day. Though we do have a choice. I consider this to be raw creative expression at its finest. And. Do I really believe that? Do I know that? If I did. Though. The value of creative expression is the price that we set for it. But. We know not how a single word of it is generated. It is not like we have any choice in the matter.. it seems that I am doing neither. Everything that I am imagining hinges on that very value. Not as much as some. There is no use second guessing ourself. we would ask for less. It all comes down to $1 per word. One way or another we need to give the Beyond Imagination endeavor the wings to fly. Everything that comes forth here is inspired to one degree or another. Some mysteries are never meant to be fathomed. We don't experience that very often despite how wonderful the expression may be. do we? Is that really our job or is that a burden that is too big for us to shoulder? At the moment. it goes on quite differently in these two cases. If we didn't think so. that is still not enough. Though. we would ask for more. there must be an issue of worthiness getting in the way. I am not being all that I can be. But. Or. We can live with that. why can't we be satisfied and grateful for what is? We have a lot in our life. the only answer to when is NOW. that we take pride in. it still seems to be a labor of love. I am competent at what I do. I am not doing all that I can do. That's nearly two 142 . Neither is life about experiencing things. One thing missing from our life is joy. Everything within us tells us that this would be something we would enjoy doing. only the present counts. one way of the other. the other to the status quo unless we can find some other way to shake things up. The only question is when. Either way. But life isn't about having things for me. we do something at work that is special. what is life for me? It all comes down to being who I was created to be and carrying out my mission. doing more of it would make it an even bigger labor of love. It seems that I would be unless something is getting in the way. I should be able to create it. At the moment. The bottom line is it just is. at this point. The only thing that can get in my way is ME. I have no need to question it. If we thought it was too much.

Consciousness is ME as well. How we choose to spend our free time makes a big difference in our life. But.. but has left several holes . Here the thoughts may be statements or questions. and there is the world. We've been content to do what we were moved to do. 3 June 2009 2193 then 2194 words in two successive musings. How can I have made it through over half a century without even knowing how my thoughts originate? That seems so basic. There are others in the world. I have no reason to believe that anyone else thinks as I do . Symbolically. 9 is a 0 above with a 1 below. in general there are significant overlaps between these worlds. It represents 1:Will subservient to 0:Source.. who moves me other than me? Clearly. we think of ourselves as the ones that are thinking our thoughts. no one. But. 9 and 10. Why should my mind and consciousness be any different? They just do what they do. What we are being and doing is not making us happy. how do we know this? In my case. The Hermit is the archetype that I relate to most. so is soul. Of course this would mean something to me since 2184 = 888(16) is the final four of my SSN.. Often. At this moment.. We know more about the characters in some of our favorite TV shows and movies than we do about the people in our life. Either that. I don't know how most of my body functions. That has got us far in life. what would we do instead of what we currently do? Curious. it all just happens. or I did encounter them and did not know it. I have not encountered them yet. Our individual worlds are more than our perception of an outer world. I have to go back and read it to consciously capture what was expressed. Though. and even then it is fleeting. It is not surprising. Hmm . just arranged differently spatially. There must be some significance to that. Yet. I've forgotten what is coming forth before I get to the end of the sentence.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 waking days each week. It seems that it is time to shake things up. No value judgments. Surely.. I am being precisely what I am meant to be. if indeed you could call what we do here thinking. And "A" is prominent on my wedding ring. but it wasn't expected. what is a stream of consciousness... the biggest one in the area of relationships. 143 . they have the same components. I have been used to saying that spirit herself moves me. But. There is an inner component that may not match with what anyone else has experienced. if they have and if they found any answers. rather do I believe that each of us create our own world in the context of a larger consensus world. it will change. But. not everything is me. others have thought about this and asked similar questions. my mission in life. So. It is a linear series of thoughts. Then be something else and do something else. That's 888(16) + 9:The Hermit and 888(16) + A(16):The Wheel of Fortune. just a warped sense of priorities. Generally. these two numbers are very special to me personally. Though. But. Our world may have little to nothing in common with the world of another. But. Further. Part of what they do is in response to my bidding. But. Part of what they do keeps me alive. When it is time for that to change. spirit is ME. We have been making the same choices for several years. they come up on license plates nearly everyday. It is all ME. Something seems wrong about that. That is precisely what I am. The words appear in my head and I type them. But. Or. I don't recall them coming up here . is that what I am meant to be? Is that what I was created to be? I am what I am. That is what I have been the vast majority of my life. and definitely not so close and so close together two days in a row. I have to wonder whether anyone knows. we haven't been moved to ask that before.. But. do I really believe there is such a thing a The World. I will be moved to change it. why are these numbers coming up now? Actually. That wasn't quite expected. I associate that with my spiritual work.

However. In addition. Though. I just set the overall direction and any adjustments that I want to make along the way. Though. But. That and any spiritual inheritance that I had from prior existences. that is sufficient but not really abundant. it is a fait accompli. What we do have is an abundance of Beyond Imagination works. It has been that way for 16 years. to make that choice. there would be time to mine the Beyond Imagination expression to create other works. there is a gnawing sense that there is something about our current work that is unfinished. we could do that. but only getting paid for the 40 of that associated with Aerospace. Though. Yes. in the form of over 5 million words spread across 9 books and at least 9 other works. I don't have to decide what to express. it will be for we will create the very conditions that allow it to manifest. in many ways we are abundant. We have crafted a commitment that would have us create another 6 million words in as little as four years. We are doing enough work and we live simply enough that we should be abundant. and muse until I decide to stop. Now that would be an accomplishment. still spending an average of 60 hours per week. I am not the kind of person that tells people what to do and how to do it. we do mean at least 60 hours per week on average for 50 weeks per year.. Prior to that. even for us. Though. It is just a matter of carrying it out. that does not satisfy us. it was as if a switch turned on and I became a metaphysical information generator. In 1993. But. It just comes forth. All told. The people I select for my team need to be established. there is nothing that we would like more. But. I would need to be in a position of earning my livelihood from my Beyond Imagination work. I open Netscape Composer. Part of their service would be to read the Beyond Imagination expression and provide feedback based on their own understanding. reading a lot of metaphysical books. Part of their service would be to combine what they do with the Beyond Imagination expression to create works of their 144 . it has been becoming more fun. the answer is NO. Though. then it seems that this would be precisely my role. I firmly believe that I had to be ready to be activated.. We know that is not enough for us.. So. if I had to choose between Beyond Imagination and working for The Aerospace Corporation. if it is meant to be. there is no doubt what the choice would be. we can see having on the order of another 40-50 Beyond Imagination works by the end of four years. That. For the present. For the most part. If by "this" we mean engaging solely in this stream of consciousness expression. we are nowhere close to that. Of late. In fact. But. I don't even have to think about it. Could we do this and nothing else? Hmm . if I were paying them. I was in input mode. we don't mean all of our waking time. They need to have abilities that they use to provide metaphysical / spiritual services that are somehow related to the Beyond Imagination mission. I do both to the best of my ability . We have more than most and less than some. perhaps more if we have a team of people to help in creating these. In our mind.. When I choose to muse. 19 years of metaphysical study got me ready. I've thought about what I want to do and where I want to take Beyond Imagination. No. At present. If by "this" we mean our Beyond Imagination work. we would expect our Beyond Imagination work to evolve as we evolve and as the endeavor grows to encompass others. perhaps the answer would be different. We welcome that happening. And. another interesting question that we have never been moved to ask before. there is no question about it. Why? It seems that the very forces of the universe aligned in a way to activate me. I didn't express much at all. and a small matter of resources. what about what others want who are meant to participate in this.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 When I choose to walk from one place to another. do a few preparatory things with the file.

I make me happy. Part of their service would be to interact with our other lightworkers in groups of various sizes to provide services or generate works that cannot be created by any of us alone. This will indeed manifest. You create more than you know. knowing more about the characters in your favorite shows than you do about real people? That seems to be a shallow way to live. Your only real entertainment comes in the form of TV shows and movies. My natural state is to be happy. People are spending far more money on things of far less importance and far less lasting value. 50 weeks per year. for 4 years then we need to have inputs. Own what you create. Something has to change. you would already be there. And.. It is all up to you. You seem to have forgotten. only repressed. But. So... Be YOU. do you truly know that . So fix it. Would I choose to have others be a part of my life outside of the work environment? Probably not many. You may think that you have done a lot. 4 June 2009 145 . even for you.. I choose to be happy. if that were enough to make you happy. not anyone. you already know that or these words would not be able to come forth as they do. It is OK for me to be happy. I can be happy regardless of what is happening in my life. What beliefs seem to be getting in my way? The pursuit of happiness is an inalienable right. But. I would desire to keep abreast of what they are doing and partake of any new services that are generated. It is all up to you.. With 12 lightworkers supporting the Beyond Imagination endeavor. You create this very expression.. If we are to keep this expression going 5 hours per day. You can do as spirit moves you all that you like. unhappy.. You were created to be a creator. Yet. There is not much anymore. Happiness is elusive. Happiness is a state of mind. You do not have enough play in your life. it is not enough to keep me happy. What do I need to believe that is consistent with this choice? I deserve to be happy. make a different choice. Don't let it just happen by default. that is enough to keep me occupied.. but this is not something that can be forgotten . 6 days per week. You innately know how to do this. I know it. You are capable of doing things far beyond anything that you have imagined. My happiness is beyond my control.. Is that how you would choose to live out your life . So. not the achievement of happiness. not just an observer. we need to experience new things. my wife. and my three furry children. My hope is that it does so soon. there would be sufficient variety to create new and wonderful things. or indifferent . ME alone. You end each musing with: Be Happy and Create Well! Do as you direct. it seems that a different choice is in order. The potential is there. a state of being. You know how to do that. It can't be that hard. You can use that power to create a masterpiece of your life. It is for you to decide what you want. the things that matter to us most are metaphysical / spiritual services. not anything. There is more to you than this. Find that place within you that knows and allow it to come out to play. not any circumstances . at least not for the vast majority of the time. It is a matter of removing the restrictions that you have imposed on you. But. Choose to actively move rather than passively be moved. You have an awesome power within you to create your own reality. something has to give. We just need to make it so. do you own the truth of that? You are more capable than you know. Choose who you want to be.. So. But. My happiness depends on me alone. Why am I not happy right now. but this is only a small sample of what is to come.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 own. My happiness depends on others. There is more to life than this. And then do things consistent with what you have chosen to be. Other than metaphysics and systems engineering. my sole interests are watching TV and movies. in this very moment? What does it take for me to be happy right now? It is all up to ME.

we need to derive our abundance from this expression. Everything within me says that I am up to doing that. Since then we have created another nine works from musings post-2003. Though I would like to derive my abundance from what I love to do. How do we make this so? I desire it strongly. how many people would come to my funeral. Hundreds more couldn't make it due to financial or other constraints. that would be 60 hours per week. and most of those barely know me and I barely know them. Further. That's it. There is no one commanding us to do this or that. Something seems wrong about that. basically only impacts others to the degree that my presence impacts them. I put myself in his position. We have an aversion to doing the bidding of any prince. At the moment. And. But. Thinking about that.. But... we might be able to raise that to 80 percent.. it doesn't account for the services of our team of 12 lightworkers. how do you quantify that? How do I put a value on 19 years of metaphysical training and 16 years of metaphysical 146 . If I were to choose to do this with more of my free time. we are FREE. Nor is there anyone paying for the products that we have produced. we were moved to package the Beyond Imagination material into eight books that we self-published via Infinity Publishing. For that. He was only 33 and was deaf. But.. there is no one paying us to do this either. It would be a challenge that I am more than willing to take. and a handful of people from outside of work. We bring forth whatever we choose to bring forth. We say that. That is how it is these days. we self-published a ninth book. What we know is that in 2003.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 Another day. Why is that? Why is that still the case after 16 years? Is it that the products that we have produced aren't worth paying for? Or. Yet. Early in 2004. others. if only by the states of consciousness that it allows them to experience that they would not otherwise experience. If I were to die today. is it that we haven't packaged the products in a manner that provides a distinct service? It could be all of there or none of these or any combination thereof. We made these latest works available for purchase at the Beyond Imagination site in early November. It is important to me that I leave the world a better place for my having lived. I look forward to it . But. my housemates son died of a drug overdose. is it that we have not done sufficient advertising to get the word out that these products exist? Or.. 20 or so from my family or my wife's family. No one has yet chosen to purchase any of these latest works. That requires stepping this up by a factor of 2. It is not important for me to be in the limelight. I believe that I have realized and demonstrated that I have the abilities to do this .. If only I could do this full time . As currently envisioned.. the thing that has the most importance and most impact in my life. But. There is a sense that my life is not having the impact that it is meant to have. And. At the outside. maybe another 20 or so from work. It doesn't account for the other half of our time that would go into the Beyond Imagination endeavor. another musing. is that enough? Would what we are asking for serve others and the world sufficiently to be worth it? It is worth my free time to do at a 40 percent rate. and the world in a big way. We get few visits to our site per day. It is also extremely important to me that I serve spirit. this expression. Recently. that is do my Beyond Imagination work full time. at least for four years. Hundreds of people made it to his funeral. nearly everything that I do is behind the scenes. I believe that those who choose to read it will be served by it. this is grandiose thinking on my part. this is the closest thing to that that I've found to date. Here. or even to be recognized for what I do. yes. Yes. knowing that even I will be amazed by what comes through. that only accounts for the musing time. even one who spends most of his time in solitude. maybe 45 people all told .5. half of which would be devoted to bringing forth new expression. but is that really the only way. In fact. Part of this is exposure. I consider this expression worthy of being read by many. But.

Surely. We missed one . It is worth that much of my free time. We have expressed the value here many times: $1 per word. How's that for an oxymoron...66 hours of reading.000 sponsors rather or 1 in 10. But. If I feel a need to do this. It is for us 147 .2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 expression? That's a substantial portion of my free time for 35 years of my life. How do I know what value this expression has to others until I get them to read it and apply it in their lives . But. in this day and age. we do not for the most part partake of society. but is worth the time that it takes to read it? With this expression alone. it may not even be necessary to meet. if it is not experienced? There are not many things that we want to do in our life. First. We have to provide something of utility each week. that comes to 100 minutes or 1. we are talking about generating 30. The $5 per week is nothing compared to the investment in time. an inner circle if you will. Beyond Imagination is basically it..000 people in the country. It all comes down to value. Outside of work. and I did as I was moved to do. What we do with our free time defines us. Further. We have isolated ourself from others. there must be others who feel this need as well. to include a dozen lightworkers . do we have something to provide to our sponsors that is not only worth the cost. We have thought in terms of $7 per week or $260 a year for Beyond Imagination sponsors. 100.. What we do with our life is our gift to the world. But. It is never the case that things outside of us control this for us. we would also serve the world without regard to whether they chose to sponsor our work. At 300 words per minute. and provide feedback? Do I even know what this expression is worth to me? At the very least. is a service a service if it is not consumed . there are many ways to distribute that. This is a choice that we make each and every day in each and every moment. if it meant to be. Time is precious. On top of that. Nor should the borders of countries matter. That would cut the numbers down to 10. at the other extreme 100.. Here.000 people who might be interested in what we have created? We said early that fewer than 50 would show up to our funeral.000 people could pay $28 per year for four years. it is not necessary to be collocated to form a community. each and every week. Or. the metaphysical market is bigger than that. It seems as if we need to create the very society that we would choose to be a member of. Yet. Clearly. which by the way is 20 times slower than the time it takes to read it. I read the expression at least once and often several times. In fact.. Second.000 words per week. That my attempts to share have not been successful as far as I know is beside the point. Also. Where and when remains to be seen. Beyond Imagination has effectively been a community of one for 16 years.000 in terms of people in this country alone of an age that they might read what we have to offer. I cannot be alone. We'll stick to that. Life is God's gift to us.. I was moved to share in this manner. How would we go about finding 100. it seems that there is a destiny bringing us together even as we speak. We've sold less than two dozen books in over five years. there are three communities beyond ourself that we choose to be part of to varying degrees with the greatest focus on the inner ones. We need to choose how we will expend the limited time that we have. thinking that I was providing a service to the world as I did so. So. to include a community of sponsors who would be served by the work that we do. We have to make it worth it. a hermit who would create a society. it is worth the time that it takes to generate it. Further. something that helps people to make a masterpiece of their lives and the lives of those they touch. we have free will. One person or one group could pay for it all. But.. I was happy to do it. important is capturing the expression in a manner that can be readily shared. and especially the limited free time that we have. it is only 1 in 1. Yet.000 just seems to be astronomical compared to where we are. We choose. It is time for that to expand in two ways. it seems that is much of what Beyond Imagination is all about.

We are responsible whether we take responsibility or not. they seem fraught with inefficiency and waste. How much of a difference remains to be seen. Though. thrive. Yes. The potential is there to do some grand things. we have some ideas as to how we would like our Beyond Imagination endeavor to be structured. We have the innate abilities to do this. Why should this be? Why do we not see that it is our collective responsibility to do something about this. I could definitely get used to this. unlike any other that I've had at work in over 13 years. When we are being that. some of us plus others. something is seriously wrong. to be what we were created to be. That is precisely what we desire. This is not a matter of survival. That is precisely what we choose to create. all of us.. by being who we were created to be and doing what comes naturally out of that. Part of the problem seems to come from the independence of individuals and a reluctance to transform independence to interdependence.. Though it seems that there are many in the world who are barely getting enough to survive. Overall. all of us plus others . Further. making a difference is important. Can it truly be that simple? This would imply that the whole is like a body with each cell choosing to play a role in exchange for the freedom to be itself and get what it needs to thrive. There is a 148 . It has been an interesting day. indeed it may.. Much that we do collectively goes unnoticed.. or we should by all right wither and die having made a valiant attempt. We are unique in all of creation. Out of sight. But neither are we looking at an organization of equals. In any event. Knowing this. Further. It was actually fun. It doesn't have to be this way. Four years gives us the time to do that. How can we best serve? The answer is simple . though it seems that for many it has been reduced to that. we will naturally do those things that make a difference. The stakes are higher. By the end of that. We are open to playing with the organization to see what works and what doesn't work. even now. and will ultimately depend on the constituents of the team. The latter allows synergy to be created. whatever new adventure we would create. How do we create our collective reality? This seems even more complicated than personal reality.. Our intent is to structure the Beyond Imagination endeavor around this expression and extentions brought to it by our team of lightworkers working both individually and interdependently with each other. We are meant to see the consequences of our actions and take responsibility for them. We are meant to take notice.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 to create the grandest gift that we can. We are open to that. that reason had to be something other than earning a paycheck each week. at that time we can decide what we want to create next . It is curious that such is manifesting in my work environment. it introduced me to some tools for working together collaboratively. we will either have developed an organization that truly serves our sponsors and the world. will what I am doing make a difference? If we can get the tool we are working on to work. From my limited observation.. some of us. and it takes systems theory to understand the behavior of organizations within society. The former results in the whole always being less than the sum of its parts. I'm so used to working alone that this was refreshing. How we treat one another is a reflection of how we treat ourself. so we might as well step up to the plate. I knew that there had to be a reason I was here. The greatest gift that we can give to the world is to be ourself. We aren't looking for a hierarchy. And. out of mind. hugely important. Exactly how this will work will take some experimentation. it seems that we are still in our infancy with respect to understanding social systems. If I had a dozen people that I could work with in such a way on a daily basis. When we treat one another poorly for any reason. Why that is so is a mystery to me. how much more interesting my life would be.

You could easily engage more. Establish a flow of energy. Don't wait another moment. Being is what is important. but. Not DO. That puts us in a strange position. It is curious that we have all of these terms for parts of who we are. 5 June 2009 It has been quite a productive week. if this is to be our reality. We'll have to see how that realization impacts my future choices. That is good. our desire would not be as strong as it is. Let nothing in heaven or on earth get in your way. What we make of our life in between is up to us. Even to speak in such terms seems wrong somehow. However. and begin the search for your team. And.. I have. Or. or something that the consciousness does. If it is to be. but that is only a matter of time. a community of which I am the center with twelve spokes to other lightworkers engaged in creating the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh. Start living it now. But. I can't help but to focus on my dreams for the Beyond Imagination endeavor. then clearly it is within our ability to manifest. the statement is true nonetheless. do we know what that is? Of course we do. the utility hasn't seemed to be there. If it is not meant to be. We believe this is forthcoming. I still believe that the major events of our life are programmed including when we will be born and when we will die. Then LIVE it..2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 potential that it will make more of a difference than anything that I have done at work to date. Things may not work out like you have planned .. at the same time he had reached a very destructive point in his life. But. All that it takes is resources. Perhaps no one does. we need to BE what it takes to manifest it. If we did not.. was that his destiny? It seems that there was the potential to do so much more. This is the very life that we choose to live. 149 . Knowing is something that the mind does. regardless. Though I couldn't help thinking as I was watching TV for two hours each night that I was wasting my time . It is not that I haven't accomplished a lot. it makes the week fly by. that does not keep me from being who I am. Yet. both at work and here. one in which what we desire is beyond our ability to manifest. That is all that we want. You may even be able to exchange services. BE as if.. There was a sense that it just wasn't worth it. In fact. all that we ask for. breathing entity . do we TRULY desire what we say that we desire? If so. not every week. and future creative expression for the financial abundance that we need to fund this endeavor. Act as if. This is the one thing that I want to manifest above all else. it is true at this time. But. we ask for it NOW. there is no one else that can manifest it for us. To build a living. we are the whole being that we are. especially since 15-20 minutes per hour were commercials and repetitive commercials at that. Open your mind to new possibilities. But. There are still parts of you that know far more than you know. nothing can make it come into being. You already engage one. It wasn't worth my time to be entertained in that fashion. then nothing can stop it from being. No. they will work out better than you have imagined. but perhaps every few weeks. But. we still leave it to the universe. so ultimately it does not matter. Further.. It may not be possible to discover who I am or to know who I am. is it? What about my housemate's son? He may have been being more of who he was created to be than I have been given the number of lives that he touched so deeply. At least. an exchange of past. BE. So. You have sufficient resources to engage the services of lightworkers. but in the end we don't understand any of them. dying at 33 from a drug overdose. We may not yet be being all that we are or all that we were created to be. but do we know it? At the moment. present.

though often it may seem otherwise. but masters nonetheless.. not even a moment for before it there was no space nor time. It is the separation that is the problem. Though it was a good busy. it is spirit doing the work through us. such choices were made early in life by authority figures and never questioned... How it gets differentiated to have an identity of its own. Worlds upon worlds he created them all connected and interdependent one upon another. Got off to a good start this morning but another busy day got in the way. and perhaps do so lifetime after lifetime. Freeing up two hours per day during the week is substantial. But spirit is not bound by the limits that we seem to be. Here. It is a matter of choosing what binds us in the moment. how do we factor into all of this? We are viewpoints from which to experience and witness parts of what was created. we would make better choices and make this lifetime as precious as we could. or allow me to read or otherwise engage in research relevant to Beyond Imagination. I have other things in mind. You create them. That is probably a good way to choose to live regardless. what is it that you would create in your life .. oneness is not. Yet. neither are we. For the most part. Where there is separation. we 150 . it sure seems to be such a waste if what we learn from our earthly sojourn could not somehow be captured in a manner that could benefit the whole. not by us. It is for you to select the one that you will realize. Further. You are the creator here. Spirit is spirit. People don't limit you. And those. out of our conscious awareness. That is how all great work is done . Circumstances don't limit you. I do not know. Our lives are moving viewpoints that span a number of years in a given lifetime. So. with your life? Who you are is unlimited in potential. In truth. and perhaps many universes and multiverses.. You have to dream big to achieve big things. That could double my musing time. I bow because I recognize that there is a spark of divinity that dwells in each of us.. but I am the sole authority in my life. You are all masters at doing this. everything is a dream within the mind of God. It is that spark that is worthy of our respect. It is only your choices that limit you. But. It seems that if we only had one life to live and were certain of that. just behind the scenes.. it is a very special dream. no one else.. No. one imbued with life itself. In my life... That doesn't mean that the current work that I do is what I prefer to do. You create the reality that you experience.. subconscious masters. I only know that we experience being separate most of the time. I won't know unless I try. But. You choose. At the same time I would bow to the God within every man and woman. The creator had only itself with which to create.. The term Namaste expresses this well.. so that I am ready to act quickly should resources become available. Hmm . Act as if to the degree that you can and the universe will follow your direction.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 During the weekend. But. I would add that these are not separate things but are one and the same. there are no authority figures. Perhaps grander than I can deliver in fact. The creation was created in a moment . No. Yet oneness is all there is.. and grand things at that. you can't go back and change what you have done in the past. The spirit within me bows to the spirit within you. The universe is the field of all probabilities. you can mitigate that through what you choose to be and to do in the present. For many. even then it is not us doing the work. Only you can limit you. we are limited. why am I speaking in future tense rather than present or past tense. I have to do something to begin the search for our dozen lightworkers. Yet in one flash in the creators mind. Perhaps it is so captured and does provide such benefit . it is either movies or nothing since we don't have TV reception. At least such is true for me. I would bow to no man and no women. no exceptions. There are authors whose words I value highly .. it is easy . no fine print. And. Though. Effectively.. you can change at any time. through us. I make no claims as to what is true for others. a universe was born .

in whatever way I choose to manifest that? For my life to change.. we know that there is always a next step. Does it matter if I know what impact I do have? It seems that it does. But. It seems that to be happy. and an extreme one for most of my life. What would we make of our life? What would we be that we are not currently being? What would we do that we are not currently doing? For one thing. Obviously. we would be happy. There is nothing external that is going to come to the rescue despite how much I might desire it to. Rarely do we address anything that happens in the outside world. There we are part of an organization by necessity. That is something that has eluded us much of our life. government. I am interconnected to everything. But is this who we truly are? Is this who we were created to be? Clearly. but even within that much of our day is spent working alone. Why should that be? You would think that when we were in the midst of doing something we love doing.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 record a stream of consciousness that is more real than anything that we experience in the world. Looking back over my life. We are ever searching for the moreness of life. we have to be satisfied. but that there must be something more. The second part is elusive. Clearly. But. but why should it? Why is it not enough just to be ME. Is that enough. In the late 80's and early 151 . exploring the National Parks in this country. I must change. We love being engaged in this expression. We are being who we know how to be. That suggests that we have not yet found our bliss. we haven't reached that state. Those are the things that matter to me most. No matter how much we have found. we are not happy. However. organizations . it is not really based on anything we experience. truly satisfied with who we are being in the moment. That is just our basic nature. we do not pay attention to such. and the universe are there to witness this. and though I consider myself to be a loner. That extends to our entire life. Further. I used to find it in nature. the very fact that we are alive and doing something creative with our life should be enough. Something we are being. What is it that I truly want? To be who I was created to be and to express that through the Beyond Imagination endeavor. Yes. To date. or believing is getting in the way. Can I be satisfied if that is as far as it ever goes? I'm reminded of the philosopher's question: If a tree fails in a forest and there is no one there to hear it. For the most part.. that has not proved to be the case. choosing. How do I know when I am being the first? When I am expressing creatively and when I have found my bliss. Everything here is my inner experience. It clearly makes a difference to me . we would find a way to naturally be happy. How can that be? I have been an introvert all of my life. it is not.. It just flows forth out of nothingness from the source within. does it make a sound? The Beyond Imagination expression is my tree falling. We consider it to be the greatest achievement of our life to date. indeed it makes a sound. It seems that we are close. politics. sports. We are alive and this expression is a creative expression of the highest order. Spirit and the universe are external forces to me. does it make a difference.. all of these are foreign to us. there must be a reason for this. What impacts me impacts everything that I am connected to in one way or another. doing. But. The only real exception is our work. far surpassing anything that we have done at work. At the same time only us. the vast majority of the time that we are doing it. The first part of this I do for two hours nearly every day. Inner experience matters to me far more than outer experience. essentially I have been the only one there to hear it. Why? Is it that we do not feel ourself to be worthy? Perhaps. We are creating this expression. News. spirit herself. this is something that we are here to do. even though spirit is within me and expresses through me. Interesting. Surely.

Apparently. doing so has resulted in the inability to function effectively in the consensus world.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 90's. not enough to put me in the mental hospital. once we know. A third medication was added about a year after that. So. Since then. So. It seems that our states of consciousness should not be constrained by our brain chemistry. During every manic experience that I've had except one. there must be another way. What other alternatives are available? How do I bring happiness back into my life? Part of this seems to involve the criteria that we must achieve to be happy. I don't even know what they are far. So. That is virtually missing from my life. how do I experience my bliss? The answer seems clear. not in my life as far as I know. the third medication has been changed at least half a dozen times. it seems that I'm rapidly reaching a point where I can't live with the side effects.. how do we know where our bar is set? And. Even if I do nothing different. Depakote. What are these medications actually doing to me? How are they impacting who I am and what I can choose to be? I haven't asked these questions before. it is not happy fun. I found it in golfing each weekend. but the observation seems to be correct. Could it be that the drugs that are controlling my bipolar condition keep me from experiencing the highs that would constitute my bliss? I stopped golfing around 1995 when the side effects of my bipolar medications impacted my fine muscle coordination so much that I could barely hit the ball. it seems. Starting in 1993. the day I was first committed to the mental hospital and diagnosed as bipolar. and Geodon. but I have promised my wife that I would not take or reduce my medications. Depakote was added about eight months later when I was flying high again. but as far as I know I have never had an episode of depression. I should be able to choose to be happy. I've set the bar so high that it is nearly impossible for me to reach. There was more of a sense of excitement then. they are happy. It just wasn't the same game when your score goes up from the mid-90s to the 120s. Though. It is already within me. If they wake up. The one time that I didn't was just strange. So. I've been on Lithium since 1 Oct 1993. I felt as if I was in the midst of a spiritual awakening. or do to be happy? Where do I have to go within to find that part of me that is happy? There is such a part. it seems I have only found it the few times when I either stopped taking or reduced the dosage on my bipolar medications. People don't make me happy. I hadn't realized that before. I want that much control in my life. Why should these be impacted? The bipolar medications I take are Lithium. Things don't make me happy.. Experiences don't make me happy. even taking them. The biggest things that I remember were that even doing simple things was difficult and my perception of things was highly distorted. I trusted that the doctors knew what they were doing and they kept adding or changing medications until I could function and live with the side effects. Some people set the bar very low. but not a sense of bliss. This expression is the most fun that I have. This expression. Hmm . The lack of happiness and bliss is simply unacceptable. So. how do we change the height? At the very least. 152 . something must change. experience. I was musing nearly everyday as I am now. if not states of consciousness. I have only to seek and find it. not since 1993. It just wasn't fun anymore. In the past. The lack of fine motor coordination is a physical symptom that clearly is impacted by brain chemistry.. but it is not bliss. Only I can make me happy. is not enough to get me there. there was one time near the end of 2007 when I became highly manic anyway . where is my bar set? What would I have to be. But happiness and bliss. these are at least emotional states. To me bliss is an ecstatic state. I found it in manic states where my consciousness soared. What else has changed? In 2002 to 2003. regardless of what happens or doesn't happen in my life. no matter how much I do it.. In 16 years. I was diagnosed as bipolar. but enough to keep me away from work for two weeks. Now.

. But. It is OK that that unfolds however it unfolds. I realized that we are human and our best is always good enough. but no cigar yet. we won't know for certain until we experience doing this from this state of mind. it is done automatically. Yet. This expression falls in the latter category. Through it we learn of whom we are. But. I have no idea as to how it is created. Though. the best me that I can be. is OK enough for me.. we are making a valiant effort. or we would find far more joy in our life. The mysterious is good. I was extremely harsh on myself expecting perfections. and the me that I was created to be. 6 June 2009 Didn't sleep at all last night. even that could be a challenge because I differentiate between me. In some ways. these are the hallmarks of a life well-lived. judgment comes in again. we don't get sick very often. There must be something more. and nearly every day at that. very well at that. but as far as I can tell. Yet. Perhaps this is just another thing that is unfathomable. I strive to do the things that I do well. and we do not fully appreciate and enjoy the life that we live? Hmm . I could understand this if my mind were racing. We have a mountain of words to show for our time on the planet. For some things. It keeps life interesting.. It is shrouded in mystery. allowance. At the moment. We seem to be fighting something.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 Given that. Hmm . it is not. Overall. Hopeefully. Nonetheless. doesn't seem to matter. we are moved to express. In each moment. whether we understand it or not. and acceptance . The expression comes forth anyway. We need to transform "should be" to "is". But. But. We're close. It comes forth as a stream of consciousness from a place I know only as source or spirit herself... alternating between sweating and having the chills. the thing that I can do that I value most is to engage in this expression. achieving a minimum standard is sufficient. so it is unusual to be feeling this way. Have we mastered these? It seems not yet. it won't. Even then. For many year. Even after over 16 years. that makes it all the more special. it is OK that my life unfolds exactly as it unfolds. Should be is the operative term here. I don't have to make anything happen. That this expression exists at all is a mystery. it depends on what we do. words that demonstrate far more awareness than most. At the moment. that should not matter. having a name for the origination point does not mean that I understand anything about what it is or how it works. it doesn't really matter whether the expression reaches anyone but me. Awareness. Is there sufficient generality in what is 153 . We've gotten this far without even cracking a smile. but could not sleep then either. Each day we have the opportunity to do something. I don't even know what the latter two are. though much of this occurs on other than conscious levels. does it even matter? The expression will reach precisely who it needs to reach and will have the impact that it is meant to have. I feel groggy and my mind feels less clear somehow. But. We'll have to see if and how that impacts this expression. That is true for everyone. There is no sense that I am determining the level nor the nature of effort that is applied. I am being precisely the best me that I can be. Tried to rest again this afternoon. How do we actually know that we are being our best in the moment? That is just how life works.. For other things. Anymore. a far greater standard applies because of the importance of doing the task right. how do I do that? How do I make me happy? Being me should be sufficient to make me happy. but do I truly believe that? And. Though. Lack of sleep definitely affects the consciousness. It is always optimizing. I have only to allow it to happen while being the best me that I can be in the process. what good is that if it does not lead us to our bliss. I say that. Indeed.

It definitely impacts how we function in major ways. But. why should it be such a struggle for me? My days are full. But. It seems that if I weren't. And. So. how do I know what needs to be done? For many years. I do not know. but of our own we can't know that for certain. prepare the template musing file. 154 . That doesn't keep us from expressing however. but it will never be more complex than I can be. a state of consciousness. when so much of who I am is other than conscious? It doesn't matter. How do I know that? I just do. Why am I not ready to retire when the day comes to an end? 7 June 2009 Short musing yesterday. We are meant to live our lives in the moment. Further. It came to me through this expression. I need to do that in order to be able to give each day all that I am. it takes over two hours for me to fall asleep. in order to do what needs to be done each day to the best of my ability. Yet. I don't fall asleep at all. I should be able to retire in peace each evening. I know that I am never forced to do anything that I do not choose to do at some level. Sleep is extremely important. Then. Yet. We should know when we are experiencing that state. and start to type. There is just a sense that I am indeed on the path that is mine to follow. I know that I have free will. I would know somehow. we don't function effectively. At least I recovered with a good night of sleep for a change.. I am what I am. I am moved to do this by spirit herself. why should it be any different than choosing to engage in this stream of consciousness expression. we have a choice in whether we follow this force. Clearly. what impacts do I desire to make? I would build the foundations for a new world in which spirit is able to more fully express in flesh. I don't seem to be privy to what that is in advance. But. I open Netscape Composer. Meditation has not been something that I have engaged in much. Rather. Why is it that sleep is such a problem for me? Typically. But. this has been a matter of recognizing what I am moved to do in each moment. some nights such as last night. I have not done that yet. I know that to be my mission. but experience it nonetheless. and I knew that it was right. at the very least. Yes. is not happiness associated with this knowingness? Then. Sleep is a necessary part of life. It seems that there is something about letting go. Happiness is a state of mind. there is a sense that this expression is a first step in doing that. how does that help me? How am I to know what I am truly capable of being and doing . Yet. that I am doing the very things that I need to be doing. It is that simple. the only right source seems to be indeed to follow it. at times it seems that my whole life is a meditation. if the levels are other than conscious. Perhaps not explain it. at times it seems like I am not even choosing to do this. Further. Exactly how. Further. My days are full. Though. I have been saying that for 16 years. Then again. why does happiness elude me so? Could I be happy and not really know it? Something seem wrong about that. How do we choose our state of mind? It seems that it is more difficult than just saying I choose to be happy now.. That is OK. about releasing the control of my consciousness that is the issue. in meditation. complex as that is. That is the only point in which we can have an impact by making a decision and choosing to be something or do something. it seems that what I am will always be more complex than I can understand.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 expressed to allow others to learn such about themselves as well? Perhaps there is. This is something we are moved to do from a force deep within us. I can experience just what that is. When we go without it. why should that be.

Nor does it seem to be a matter of searching. Indeed. Yes. The only difference would be what we are working on and with whom. would it truly make a difference to you if that were the case? Then. it seems that more is required of us.. even there. that is the only audience that matters. that world be full time plus half time. Allow. especially those things that involve creative expression. What could that be? This is the most creative thing going in our life. that does not seem to be working in our life. despite that. This expression reveals YOU as nothing else in your life does. ultimately. even then we are already doing our Beyond Imagination work roughly half time for little to no compensation. such is what we are willing to work. So. 60 hours per week. especially to you. in this case direct revelation from spirit herself. There is no wasted effort. for this expression is YOU in expression. Look there to find the answers you seek. but what do we know? The only thing we have done that we consider to have the potential to impact the world is this expression. That. it seems that we do not yet know. it is not necessary that you be in control at all. That is what I want to do with my life.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 What do I want to do? What do I want to experience? The answers always center around carrying out the Beyond Imagination endeavor. We would have our life mean something. Is this expecting too much? We think not. it seems to be a matter of revelation. Rather. There is something more important that I could be doing. It is not necessary that you be in control all of the time. it seems to be revealing this only to myself. not controlling you to be that. or even in doing what we intended for it to do. For that. Do that and all that you need to be will come forth in full force. while that gives us roughly 2000 new words of expression each day. 50 week per year. Such is what we work already. Where do we find our bliss? We would have expected to find it in this expression But something keeps us from experiencing it there. it is not clear that this in any way promotes the Beyond Imagination endeavor. Why should this be so? Why does the work that we do that we consider to be of the most value not yet contribute to our abundance and livelihood? It is only a matter of time. All creative 155 . If we knew what that was. Give into something greater than you are. and who we have become as a result of participating in this. We love participating in the Beyond Imagination endeavor. There is something more that I could be being. That is what I want to allow others to experience of whom that I am. Everything that we do counts . allow. allow. for most. how do I find what that is.. There is a saying: "Do what you love and the money will follow". Let go. It could indeed be that all of this is for your eyes only. So. But. But what have we become? We have become aware of who we are as a spiritual being. It is a matter of allowing you to be that. how do I do that? How do we do that? We can continue to do what we have been moved to do. we would be doing it already. At the moment. and what meaning we give to our experience. You already know how to be you in the grandest terms that you can be. enough that we desire to do it full time. Trust that they will indeed come. Indeed. But. Yet. And. that is the key. It deals with the very nature of who we are. it is not enough. And. why has there been such a driving sense that this expression needed to be shared? Why was I moved to create the Beyond Imagination and post most of the Beyond Imagination expression there? Why did I consider and proclaim this to be a gift from spirit to the world? Why were we moved to self-publish nine Beyond Imagination book via Infinity Publishing? Not everything that we do is meant to succeed financially. We would have the world be a better place for our having lived. Trust the very integrity of your own being. But. This expression is my means for discovering myself and my place in the world. But. Though. our awareness is limited at best.

Choose to experience your bliss. These choices are some of the most important ones that you make as they literally determine how you experience your reality. Some things elevate my mood when I achieve them. They make a dramatic difference in what we experience. You do it over two hours per day. as always.. But your mind. and experiencing that are positive and uplifting. appreciate. You are being precisely what you choose to be each and every moment of your life. Neither is your brain. you choose how you are feeling when you are doing anything. bliss. What are you being. As you do that. it is your choices regarding what you allow yourself to experiences. be grateful for that. You can choose happiness regardless of what is happening in your life In your particular case. You have to want it. It is your choice however. You already know what that is. Deep down you know that. Choose to do so NOW. Then. It is not your medications that keep you from your bliss .. It is the only life that you have. why have I made it so difficult. Every part of your reality is there to serve you in some way. what am I doing that prevents or blocks this. It is up to you to choose to experience them. Yes. truly appreciate. and happiness are yours for the taking. for it is an extension of your body. You have to stop pursuing your bliss. Some things allow me to soar in consciousness. It is proactive rather than reactive. your soul... and be happy about that. It is time to make some better choices in this area. This is possible for you. Happiness is an attitude with which you face the world. Do I enjoy myself when I am engaged in this expression? Do I enjoy myself when I am engaged in my work? Do I enjoy myself when I am watching my favorite TV shows and movies? Do I even know what it means to enjoy something? Surely. Some things put a smile on my face. or it has already found you. Allow what is natural in you to express. What you experience may be identical.. Allow it to lift you all of the way up to happiness.. doing. really appreciate your present life. still you resist. Your very fate is the fate that you have chosen to impose upon yourself. Revel in that. these are of a different domain. This expression is particularly uplifting to you. It should be something that is easy to experience. It is a matter of choosing how you feel as you are doing it. What does it take for me to be happy? One thing that helps is to enjoy doing what I am doing. and realize that you have already found it. They define us. Transform what you are being. If you want to truly be happy . that is up to you. especially when I am doing things that I love. You know that. Yet. Joy. one that may well be eternal. and for what I experience in my life? Do I love myself unconditionally? Do I love others unconditionally? These are grand questions. Stop resisting. Though eternal is a very long time. I must. your consciousness. but how you experience it will transform you completely. such transformation will change the very reality that you draw unto you. Still you choose not to experience the great joy that is your birthright. Appreciate. So. You 156 . These things are there in every life waiting for you to take notice of them. there is much that is good. But then. And indeed. and your spirit . who you are and what you have in your life. Similarly. It seems that I should be able to choose to be happy. Do I appreciate who I am and the things that I do have in my life? How do I show that appreciation? Am I grateful for being me. so is your destiny.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 expression is spiritual expression. Being happy is the natural state of our soul. Be grateful for all of it. and it is unfolding perfectly. there is much to be happy about. you will find that there is even more for you to be happy about. Choose to be happy. You body is not capable of restricting your spirit unless you allow it to. Look at your life with that in mind.

Yet. I would know somehow. complex as that is. Meditation has not been something that I have engaged in much. prepare the template musing file. there is a sense that this expression is a first step in doing that. and thus far you seem to have a hard time doing that. So. when so much of who I am is other than conscious? It doesn't matter. I am what I am. At least I recovered with a good night of sleep for a change. For that. That is the only point in which we can have an impact by making a decision and choosing to be something or do something. You don't have to be such a passive player. you are meant to enjoy the process. how does that help me? How am I to know what I am truly capable of being and doing . Clearly. but experience it nonetheless.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 chose it prior to this incarnation for reasons known only to you and spirit. What do I want to do? What do I want to experience? The answers always center around carrying out the Beyond Imagination endeavor. How do we choose our state of mind? It seems that it is more difficult than just saying I choose to be happy now. but it will never be more complex than I can be. I know that I have free will. That is OK. it seems that what I am will always be more complex than I can understand. Happiness is a state of mind. in meditation. a state of consciousness.. Further. Though. Though. 8 June 2009 Short musing yesterday. Further. we would be doing it already. how do I do that? How do we do that? We can continue to do what we have been moved to do. at times it seems that my whole life is a meditation. I open Netscape Composer. But. it seems that more is required of us. is not happiness associated with this knowingness? Then. what impacts do I desire to make? I would build the foundations for a new world in which spirit is able to more fully express in flesh. So. That is what I want to allow others to experience of whom that I am. why should it be any different than choosing to engage in this stream of consciousness expression. in this case direct 157 . Then again. I need to do that in order to be able to give each day all that I am. I know that I am never forced to do anything that I do not choose to do at some level. Now. that I am doing the very things that I need to be doing. I don't seem to be privy to what that is in advance. it seems that we do not yet know. But. you allow it to unfold as it will in your life. There is just a sense that I am indeed on the path that is mine to follow. But. it seems to be a matter of revelation. But. and I knew that it was right. Yet. Exactly how. If we knew what that was. at times it seems like I am not even choosing to do this. My days are full. How do I know that? I just do. in order to do what needs to be done each day to the best of my ability. It definitely impacts how we function in major ways. why does happiness elude me so? Could I be happy and not really know it? Something seems wrong about that. at the very least. That is what I want to do with my life. how do I know what needs to be done? For many years. You can actively engage in your life and your destiny as it unfolds. Nor does it seem to be a matter of searching. I know that to be my mission. if the levels are other than conscious. Sleep is extremely important. I do not know. it is not clear that this in any way promotes the Beyond Imagination endeavor. Perhaps not explain it. It came to me through this expression. this has been a matter of recognizing what I am moved to do in each moment. I have been saying that for 16 years. Further. I should be able to retire in peace each evening.. We are meant to live our lives in the moment. Yet. We should know when we are experiencing that state. It is that simple. It seems that if I weren't. and start to type. while that gives us roughly 2000 new words of expression each day. I am moved to do this by spirit herself. I have not done that yet. Rather. I can experience just what that is. Rather.

but what do we know? The only thing we have done that we consider to have the potential to impact the world is this expression. 50 week per year. Allow. All creative expression is spiritual expression. despite that. not controlling you to be that. how do I find what that is. or even in doing what we intended for it to do. even then we are already doing our Beyond Imagination work roughly half time for little to no compensation. what am I doing that prevents or blocks this. There is no wasted effort. And. This expression is my means for discovering myself and my place in the world. that is the only audience that matters. Some things put a smile on my 158 . We would have our life mean something. especially when I am doing things that I love. especially those things that involve creative expression. What could that be? This is the most creative thing going in our life. There is something more that I could be being. that is the key. enough that we desire to do it full time. But. You already know how to be you in the grandest terms that you can be. such is what we are willing to work. It is a matter of allowing you to be that. for most. I must. it is not enough.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 revelation from spirit herself. Indeed. it seems to be revealing this only to myself. So. It is not necessary that you be in control all of the time. allow. Yes. and who we have become as a result of participating in this. Look there to find the answers you seek. would it truly make a difference to you if that were the case? Then. Do that and all that you need to be will come forth in full force. But. that would be full time plus half time. why has there been such a driving sense that this expression needed to be shared? Why was I moved to create the Beyond Imagination and post most of the Beyond Imagination expression there? Why did I consider and proclaim this to be a gift from spirit to the world? Why were we moved to self-publish nine Beyond Imagination book via Infinity Publishing? Not everything that we do is meant to succeed financially. There is something more important that I could be doing. One thing that helps is to enjoy doing what I am doing. Indeed. Yet. Though. It should be something that is easy to experience. The only difference would be what we are working on and with whom. it is not necessary that you be in control at all. It could indeed be that all of this is for your eyes only. ultimately. and what meaning we give to our experience. Why should this be so? Why does the work that we do that we consider to be of the most value not yet contribute to our abundance and livelihood? It is only a matter of time. Trust the very integrity of your own being. We love participating in the Beyond Imagination endeavor. Give into something greater than you are. Such is what we work already. even there. But what have we become? We have become aware of who we are as a spiritual being. Being happy is the natural state of our soul. why have I made it so difficult. It seems that I should be able to choose to be happy. At the moment. This expression reveals YOU as nothing else in your life does. And. Then. that does not seem to be working in our life. Is this expecting too much? We think not. our awareness is limited at best.. 60 hours per week. especially to you. Do I enjoy myself when I am engaged in this expression? Do I enjoy myself when I am engaged in my work? Do I enjoy myself when I am watching my favorite TV shows and movies? Do I even know what it means to enjoy something? Surely. Trust that they will indeed come. So. That.. for this expression is YOU in expression. What does it take for me to be happy. We would have the world be a better place for our having lived. allow. Let go. It deals with the very nature of who we are. Where do we find our bliss? We would have expected to find it in this expresion But something keeps us from experiencing it there. There is a saying: "Do what you love and the money will follow". Everything that we do counts .

Though eternal is a very long time. for it is an extension of your body. and realize that you have already found it. your soul. You chose it prior to this incarnation for reasons known only to you and spirit. you allow it to unfold as it will in your life. It is time to make some better choices in this area. Appreciate. and experiencing that are positive and uplifting. Stop resisting. Some things allow me to soar in consciousness. Choose to be happy. Be grateful for all of it. You body is not capable of restricting your spirit unless you allow it to. still you resist. In your particular case. Neither is your brain. and happiness are yours for the taking. Your very fate is the fate that you have chosen to impose upon yourself. This is possible for you. Look at your life with that in mind. Yes. You do it over two hours per day.. so is your destiny. Yet. These things are there in every life waiting for you to take notice of them. Every part of your reality is there to serve you in some way. but how you experience it will transform you completely.. You know that.. Some things elevate my mood when I achieve them. your consciousness. one that may well be eternal. such transformation will change the very reality that you draw unto you. Though. They make a dramatic difference in what we experience. These choices are some of the most important ones that you make as they literally determine how you experience your reality. Do I appreciate who I am and the things that I do have in my life? How do I show that appreciation? Am I grateful for being me. that is up to you. and for what I experience in my life? Do I love myself unconditionally? Do I love others unconditionally? These are grand questions. You are being precisely what you choose to be each and every moment of your life. It is proactive rather than reactive. doing. Revel in that. Deep down you know that. You have to stop pursuing your bliss. And indeed. and thus far you seem to have a hard time doing that. It is a matter of choosing how you feel as you are doing it. who you are and what you have in your life. What you experience may be identical. and it is unfolding perfectly. Still you choose not to experience the great joy that is your birthright. there is much that is good. Allow it to lift you all of the way up to happiness. You can actively engage in your life and your destiny as it unfolds. and your spirit . there is much to be happy about. It is your choice however.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 face. Joy. Transform what you are being.. As you do that. They define us. really appreciate your present life. Similarly.. you choose how you are feeling when you are doing anything. these are of a different domain. This expression is particularly uplifting to you. bliss. What are you being. You don't have to be such a passive player. You can choose happiness regardless of what is happening in your life. be grateful for that. Happiness is an attitude with which you face the world. Allow what is natural in you to express. It is not your medications that keep you from your bliss . truly appreciate.. But your mind. you will find that there is even more for you to be happy about. It is up to you to choose to experience them. appreciate. Now. Choose to do so NOW. and be happy about that. But then. 9 June 2009 159 . You have to want it. it is your choices regarding what you allow yourself to experiences. If you want to truly be happy . Choose to experience your bliss. as always. you are meant to enjoy the process. or it has already found you. You already know what that is. It is the only life that you have.

I don't have to do anything to force it. we would already be doing it. so there is no making up for it. I trust that whatever manifests in my life and in my world will be for the highest good of all concerned. that has to be enough. and perhaps even a likely one. Oh well. still others in between the two extremes. My focus has been on making more of the unknown known. What matters is what we know. Yet. These are also expressed as the known known. Hmm .. more like a sixth. however. there are still many things that I want to do with the Beyond Imagination expression and with the Beyond Imagination endeavor. But.. have we realized what we need to be for this to manifest in our life? Do we truly feel that we are deserving of what we ask? Again. Though.. sometimes overwhelming uncertainty. What will be will be. that leaves what we don't know that we know and what we don't know that we don't know. That I have not been successful in finding one in 16 years does not change this.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 Missed a musing due to work. The process of bringing forth this stream of consciousness is magical. And on weekends. And. These would require all of me. There is no other from 160 . Bringing forth more of it seems to be nothing more than a matter of time. If it is meant to be. Life itself seem to operate on the continuum between order and chaos. it seems that it is up to us to manifest it. I'm the only one that I know of that is reading all of this anyway. What could that be? We have made our desires and our intent clear. but in the future as well? I have always thought that this expression deserved an audience. perhaps impossible to live with. it is not clear that it would be enough. But. Today has been another busy day. Even when I read it. and it would already be so. and what we know that we don't know. we have to ask why? Who benefits from what we do . I have no sense of originating it. though neither is it foreign. We don't apply anywhere close to all of our free time in this endeavor. our reality would be far different than it is. we could easily double our Beyond Imagination time. Fortunately. Though. So. by that we mean at least 60 hours per week. That is clearly a possibility. Though. it comes to about half. it is not as if I created it. what does it matter? We live our life and make our decisions in the midst of uncertainty . However. during the week. It's just that I don't have any sense of contributing to its order. We muse when we can. And. that wouldn't leave much time for our wife and furry children on weekends. besides. not just now. But. Many things in my life are orderly. it would be far too boring to endure. it will be. In the end. I have a difficult time remembering anything that falls in any of these categories. 50 weeks per year. consciously my experiencing is that it comes forth through me not from me. then it will happen. The fact that it is not suggests that something is amiss. I have only to be myself and express and share who I am as fully as I can. it seems that if the answers were yes. the unknown known. Personally. I have no other way to describe it. Though. such is the nature of life.. Indeed. It is what it is.... Though.. we can't help but desire to do it more. what's the point.. this expression is chaotic. that doesn't mean that there shouldn't be some amount of order and predictability. we are able to bring forth this expression already. Since the very first day. Though. If the Beyond Imagination endeavor is to grow to fully encompass my time and part of the time of 12 lightworkers . I'm a mixed bag. Utter chaos is difficult to live with . and the unknown unknown. if we really wanted to. others favoring chaos. I know my conscious experience is false. Even then. Yet. That requires an opportunity to present itself in our life. Though. though it seems to have an order of its own. Are we willing to do what it takes to make it so? It seems that if we were. But does what I trust or believe really matter? Both of those still have a degree of uncertainty. By definition. it has been automatic. there is a limit. that does not happen very often. Some have operating points favoring order. We would need to be able to earn our livelihood via our Beyond Imagination work.. It does not come from any entity other than ME. the known unknown. If it were predictable. far more than we presently do. Though.

not even close.. But. and to allow spirit working through you to offer suggestions as to how to remove the blockages. Why is that? I observe myself experiencing a stream of consciousness. but I am not aware of how I do them. However. How do I experience being who I truly am? That should not be so hard. To do your work well. that is not the same. or at least carrying it out. never. But. nothing more. But. Surely. It is not a matter of logic at all. I still consider them to be the works of spirit or consciousness herself. at the same time. Why do I not take the next logical step and conclude that I am creating the very stream of consciousness that I am observing? I just don't. I am not meant to be alone in my work. It is for you to see where spirit is blocked and where it flows freely . But.. some to the world.. I can then experience being the creator of my reality. such is not necessary for you to keep doing as you do. We know that you desire to know. you will be being the best instrument that you can be for good in the world. How do I experience being the creator of all of this? Being the one who hears it in his head and types it. we've been bringing forth this expression for 16 years already. Yet. Spirit never wastes effort. We have spoken of the Beyond Imagination endeavor enlisting the part time support of a dozen lightworkers. Don't worry as to the immediate utility of what comes forth. nothing less. realize. Though. I do them and I observe myself doing them. it would be a start. There is still something that does not seem right about it. Spirits resources are inexhaustible. Yet. not the other way around. not mine. Your resources are limited. here we have works that have come forth through me. I experience the part of who I am that I am ready to experience. In so doing. neither can I see myself working solely in isolation. There has to be a middle ground. Be an instrument for her expression. and being the one who observes it happening . you will need to use all of your abilities and everything that you have been trained to do. At least. We may say it comes from source. I still prefer my solitude. or spirit. Your domain is complex spiritual systems. Yet. But. a role that only you can fulfill. You can choose to do that at anytime. these I experience. There is no one else here to create it. or consciousness. to notice that. We are open to where it might go from there. It is a matter of experience. It should be a natural thing to do. Yes. you are here to give it your best. Spirit never forces her way into your life. You have a role that you came to play. You have a mission. Your very destiny is aligned with completing that mission . but all to something. Some to you. I would choose to experience more.. she will work through you to the degree that you allow her too. but how can I realize that? Allow your life to unfold as it will. all that you were created to be. some to spirit. Trust the processes of life and the universe.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 whom this expression comes. The creative things that I do in my life just happen. How do we shift our relationship to it? How do we shift how we experience it? We must create this expression at some level. allow spirit to express through you as much and as fully as you can. Do I experience being the creator ever in my life? My first answer is no. So. You do that by being all that you can be. Then why is it not something that I experience naturally? I am who I am. that they are here to do your bidding as well. but these are all parts of us. It is not meant for you to know WHY? It is meant for you to see what has utility and what does not have utility. It is not a matter of being convinced.. Perhaps if I can experience being the creator of this expression. 161 . It is not necessary for you to know what that utility is. here and now. That would be enough to provide us with what we need. You may or may not succeed. You are a metaphysician and a systems engineer.. that means every word of this expression has its utility. I just can't see myself working in large groups. I can state that. But.

but it does. Between our work and Beyond Imagination. At the same time. Rather. That provides some entertainment. I have operated at 80-100 hours per week for several months at times in the past. How do we create the opportunity? At the very least. How long does it take from the doing to the receiving? And. At 1000 sponsors. Hmm . But. effectively we are offering to work nearly all of the time. That would leave almost no free time. we could fund the Beyond Imagination endeavor. the possibility is there. money would be sufficient incentive. I would easily be willing to go to 80 hours even if I were only paid for an extra 20 hours. But. that would take 400 sponsors. We could do that and be happy to do that if it would bring more abundance into our life. Yet. The bottom line is that it shouldn't. we are choosing not to do. at present we have zero. I'm sure that I would spend much more time doing it than I do. we could work full time for Beyond Imagination. At 6000 sponsors. we would need $100 per hour x 20 hours = $2000 per week. we know that the reward for doing what you love is abundance. is it strong enough to drive us to be what it takes and do what it takes? Even if it were that strong. What would come forth today? Our desire to change our life and our work is strong. We don't really want to subject our Beyond Imagination work to the demands of any employer. Though. the drive just isn't there. That is OK.5 million per year for the next four years of expression. I'm just not willing to go there without being paid. and we don't even know where to go to get one. I'm sure that I could do that again with the proper incentive. For that.. they should be willing to pay for the services that it is providing to them. Just 400. another musing. do I really need free time? I can live with my spiritual work being my life. Right now.. I'm spending nearly 15 hours per week watching TV and movies. That does not seem like it is asking for much. Even if I were being paid at my hourly rate at work for my Beyond Imagination work. Yet. If we were getting compensation for our Beyond Imagination work. Part of this comes from a sense that enough is enough. how do we make that happen. That suggests that there is a sense that part of the Beyond Imagination work just doesn't need to get done yet. believing is not enough. We want to be free to do what spirit moves us to do. The universe can figure out how to make it so. We don't have to know how. even then. Perhaps cannot is too strong. A normal work week is 40 hours. Another alternative is to find someone or some group willing to fund the Beyond Imagination endeavor to the tune of $1 per word. I would be willing to increase my Beyond Imagination work to 40 hours per week. In fact. That's $5 million for expression to date plus $1. But. But.5 times that. that might be different if I knew that the Beyond Imagination work was impacting others.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 There is so much that we want to do in the context of Beyond Imagination that we currently cannot do. 10 June 2009 Another day. I'm already at 1. do we know that we are worthy of receiving? Yes know. why should my choice of whether to do more work depend on whether I receive compensation for it. Though. We have no idea as to how to find this person or group either. how would we know when we were being and doing what it takes? 162 . we might be making different choices and apply even more of our free time to Beyond Imagination. At $5 per week. 80 hours per week is 12 hours per day for six days and 8 hours for the seventh. We only have to know what we want. It is not that my free time is better spent doing other things. but it is not clear that it is worth the time that it costs me. I could even enjoy that. there is also a sense of what is fair and reasonable to expect. Here. we are employed for 60 hours per week. Without extra compensation. Though.

My hope is that someday others will. perhaps even more than myself. So. something seems wrong about that. but what you do makes all the difference". from what manifests in our life. what are we in search of? It is not clear that we know. truly know? I know that I can write. But. Time is the most precious commodity that you have. We have said: "Who you are counts for a lot. Be happy. We thought that we were being moved by spirit. what do I know . So. Do that every day of your life. Though.. There is no other time when I feel that I am fully engaged. For each of you. You just need to experience what you already are. choose to be happy. we still think that. Ultimately it is our deeds and our works that make a difference in the world. you are missing out on who you are. this is not something that can be reasoned about. I know that happiness eludes me . there is also something that I am being when I am doing it. For many years we have simply allowed our life to unfold. There is great joy in simply being alive. But.. But. Yet. That means truly being YOU. It is there in each and every one of you.. So.. and choose to find joy in your life. Hmm . Perhaps that is unduly limiting my influence. we haven't really sought much in our life. doing what we were moved to do. without a doubt. I know that this expression matters to me more than anything in my life. Yet. That means removing the shields and the masks that you've put in place to protect you from the world. It seems that being and doing go hand in hand. Further. Joy is your natural state of being. I demonstrate that here and in my systems engineering work. it may be that we will never know. doing something that I consider to be of great importance. We have considered ourself to be a seeker. Doing so is a matter of choice.. Yet. It is there regardless of what you experience in your life.. I know that I am alive. our very presence may be enough as well. That is what makes the most difference. We still don't know even the most basic things about ourself. it just doesn't seem right to force this 163 . To date. It does not matter that no one else sees this expression in that light. it is in limited supply. choose to smile. For me. Decide what you would be. How can it be so simple to say and so hard for me to do. The easiest way to do this is by being YOU. You do not need to be convinced. that occurs when I express here. If you aren't experiencing the joy. where do we turn for guidance? The only place we even turn is within. Hmm . I know that I can think abstractly. This expression is something that I do. whether that indeed happens or not seems to be outside of my control. There is always something that you can be to make your world a better place. Indeed. Though. It is not clear that we would know it even if we found it. The latter flows from the former. I don't experience it very much. though many observing my lifestyle might not call it living. I have over 5 million words of expression to attest to that. There is joy inside of you. How do we adjust what we are being? Most of the time. a condition for which I take four medications daily. not do happy. What we are being is always far more important than what we are doing. It is when we allow spirit to do her works through us that we operate at our grandest. awaken with the attitude that today is going to be a great day.. it seems that I am what I am. Why do you not experience that joy? When you start your day.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 We could only tell from the results. it say be happy.. using my abilities to the utmost. Don't settle for less. I know that I choose to live my life as a loner much of the time. Make every minute count. what does it mean to be fully present so that others feel the full weight of your being? The first thing that comes to mind is presence of spirit. Such is always your choice. It is for you to make the most of it. Yet. what do we know? What is our truth? Our truth is that we don't know. I know that I have a mental disorder or condition that impacts the way that I perceive myself and the world. But. I know that I am precisely what I am choosing to be. there we have always found what we sought.

What does it take to make it so? Once I am committed to something. the universe has to make it worthwhile. But. I am committed but with a condition. and expect that it will be so. doing things that would make the expression easier to find does not constitute forcing anything on anyone. Each person has to determine what is enough for them. Just because you have limited experience of them doesn't mean that they aren't there. That may be at 40 hours per week. it seems that if they were.. I see it through. I am already working an average of 60 hours per week. The joy will come. But why? Why is that my present position? And. what is being expressed now suggests that such is precisely what I am being moved to do. I still do not consider them necessary or essential to do what I am here to do. Personally. YOU were created to be far more than you know or have yet experienced. and it will. it would be nice to find my bliss and to find joy in the process. I am willing to give my whole life to this. Further. One choice is to express more. It is not important that I plan or even know where that will be. I am not doing enough. Some people live for their work. What I ask in return is abundance for my family and for the Beyond Imagination endeavor. do I really believe that we need to make every minute count? It seems that is asking far more than is reasonable to expect of anyone. Here I hold my ground. Even bliss. At some point. Actually.. I am willing to increase that to 80 hours per week under the right conditions. The happiness will come. and it is never a good idea to do so. How do I change this? I am 164 . It is for you to allow them to. there should be a balance.. it does seem that I could be far more effective if I were truly enjoying what I was being and doing. this balance is not the same for all. at this point I am willing to do precisely that. at 80 hours per week or more or less depending on the individual. Basically. Others will try to limit you. I am willing to live for this.. I am aware that this means working virtually all of the time. Though. The bliss will come. If I reach the point where the things that entertain me no longer do so. But. and happiness .5 hours per day. Don't limit you. there are other things that I could do in the context of Beyond Imagination. 80 hours per week is the equivalent of holding two regular jobs. Though. I am unwilling to do more. Only you can limit you . 32 hours per week of free time. What do I want to do with my life? I would go wherever the Beyond Imagination endeavor takes me. Many things I have effectively lived without for decades. it will allow me to make other choices regarding what I do with that time. at 60 hours per week. Hmm . including myself. there is. are they important enough to drive me to make different choices regarding what I am being and doing? Again. It doesn't suggest an urgency or strong desire. perhaps that is part of the problem. Though. What do I truly want? What do I want so badly that I simply cannot live without it? The only thing that meets that criteria at the moment is this expression. But. Even so. Getting the most out of the resources expended is important to me. It is fine for it to unfold in each moment. others work for their life. Allow YOU to be all that YOU can be. There is still a sense that while I am doing a lot. joy. enough is enough. But. At least for four years anyway. Don't allow them to do that either. then I would already be moved to do such. You don't need to do that. Though. Further. is only 4. Unless the condition manifests. "Be nice" for something to happen isn't very compelling. it seems that what I am doing is not having the impact that it could be having. Being effective is important to me. Choose to do so. Nothing has changed recently that would make them any more important to me. is there anything that could change that? Actually.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 expression on anyone. Overall.. Further. Here. I pay lip service to.. Be open to new aspects of YOU coming forth into expression. There are only 16 x 7 = 112 waking hours for me each week.

when you control something you limit what it can be. For now. It is not until I read it months or even years later that its true meaning dawns on me. What is expressed is captured completely. There is no editing and no censoring of what comes forth. we are happy being the channel. I am the only one reading the Beyond Imagination works. And. Then what is my role in all of this? Allow your life to unfold as it will.. It is your birthright. It is what it is. that has been enough. Also. you are free. You don't have to control anything to be able to enjoy what you experience. You don't need to limit YOU in any way. they do not exist as parts at all. the conduit.. There is nothing else for them to be. It is also the greatest achievement of my life to date. that is enough. Yet. Though. an attitude of gratitude goes a long way. My life is unfolding perfectly in every moment. Will I ever truly realize that it is coming forth from me as well? There is no other that is involved in this expression. It is time to realize what I AM. Indeed. I continue to work for 40-45 hours and express for 15-20 hours each week. definitely not to yourself. The fact is that it does come. all that comes forth is shared. and consider it to be an important part of our life. Not just to state that I am ONE. In fact. It is time to own who we are and what we do . what about creating our own reality. be grateful . Further.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 not really doing anything to change anything in my work environment. but to truly realize it.. How a stream of consciousness could come forth in completed form for 16 years is the greatest mystery of my life to date.. You were created to be free. there is a sense that this is starting to change.. and on a regular basis.. and have always been so. we could not do this . not even close. in your freedom. be the grandest you that you can be. And. Until then. the stream of consciousness comes forth from source anyway. Spirit is me. Something has to change. creating a masterpiece of our life? Shouldn't there be a conscious element in all of this? Where is the element of conscious control in my life? So much happens automatically. you have enslaved yourselves. Further. but all of us. through which this expression comes. Though. it seems astonishing that such an expression comes forth through me. This is true universally. not a single word is erased. This is not as it was meant to be. these parts do not exist in isolation. You don't need to do that. do the grandest works that you can do. Where do I exert any control at all? Is it even important that I exert conscious control? My life is spirit living life through me. Further. Often. source is me. and enjoy the process. Yet every sentence conveys something that needs to be conveyed.. What you are being and what you are doing as you experience your life unfolding makes all of the difference. The bottom line is that it matters not from where or how it comes. there is only ONE spirit that animates us all. We said "we are happy" but it seems that was just a figure of speech. Something has to give. It seems that it is about time. I seems that such will dawn on me if and when I have a need to know. There is only spirit in expression here. From where does the wisdom come that allows us to express as we do here? On our own. Or can it? Things will change when they change. The Beyond Imagination endeavor is a solitary one and as far as I can tell. That is one thing about this expression . Everywhere for that matter. soul is me. But. it is able to bring forth new material much of the time. even this expression. it always seems to express exactly what I need to hear. there is only Wayne. For 16 years. Coming from one who rarely speaks to others. We are accepting of that role. and not just the conscious part of us. They are integrated into one whole that is me. Am I ready to do this now? It seems that this expression would not be coming forth as it is if I were not.. that is ME. This cannot continue to go on as it has indefinitely. in many cases. In your soul. You are meant to be free from restrictions of any kind. 165 . consciousness is me. I don't get it when the expression comes forth.

of late. My time is worth something. In fact. We just have to find ways to do more of what we enjoy. that is how sheltered and solitary my life has been. it was as if I operated in a whole new realm of consciousness. I am a writer. I could do far worse than the one that I have. I still do. Fortunately. but is it something that people should choose to pay us for? It seems that should depend on what reading the expression is able to do for them. it is not really clear that we choose.. That is not quite correct. In 1993. Then again. Is the generation of this expression a sufficient service for that? It is what we have been doing for 16 years. On most days. but another part of me says that it is not... I share here. And. 11 June 2009 Once again we come to this special place to express. especially with numbers. I never found it again . is it safe to do so? I have questioned my own sanity many times. The hours are fairly set. in the consciousness. We should be paid. to share. it is the highlight of our day. there are no restrictions other than the amount of time that we choose to devote to it.. I don't really experience that in my life with anyone. That is a bit sad to say given that I'm over half a century old. There is some reason that I have been moved to capture all of this in this manner. I do share a little with my wife and with a couple of women in the human development club at work. actually is worth a lot. I am doing what I love to do. what is the compensation due for the benefit bestowed? Is it not enough that I am able to express what I do? Part of me says that it should be. and through her the world benefits. we benefit from what is expressed here. The closest that you come to experiencing it is through this expression. I can easily count the people that I've allowed into that world on one hand . In fact.. I offer all of this to whoever might find it. We do that nearly everyday. Our work has a high degree of freedom as well. it seems there should be a give and take . an hour or so every six weeks is not much sharing. Wayne's World is not one that would be recognized by anyone. Though. and most of these have barely scratched the surface. If it had simply passed through my mind. Doing something creative that uses my abilities and talents is worth something . perhaps things of the spirit should be compensated for via things of the spirit. And. we are free . that can lead to altered states of consciousness? Is the record of where one consciousness has been sufficient to trigger similar states of consciousness in another? Even if it is. Prior to eight months ago. Does reading this expression create neural pathways in the brain. even then. But. It is a start however. we have found our job to be quite interesting as well. Clearly. If I have to hold down a job. I very much felt like I went out of my mind. but what we do with those hours is for us to decide much of the time.. and paid handsomely for doing what we love to do. In this expression. sensing that I was on the edge of a cliff one step from going mad.. But. there wasn't even that. But. an offering and a receiving that is mutual. I make nearly $100 per hour and my 166 . it seems that such is not sharing at all. Once I lost my mind.. Of late.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 How do we transform our Beyond Imagination work into something for which we are compensated? The key seems to be to create some kind of service that people would be willing to subscribe to. One thing missing is compensation for our spiritual work. We believe that spirit herself benefits as well. Further.. this is nearly the equivalent of a half time job. our life is such that we can do that for the most part. At my present job. are probably unique to me. some of the earliest Beyond Imagination writings were called Beyond Mind. What I share of who I am. Many of the connections that I make. it was a one way process.. it would not have had the same effect. But.

Though. generally I find it each and every day. the past few months have shown that I can get great pleasure in working closely with others on projects. I have found that these are not enough to make me happy. Could I be wearing a mask that keeps me from expressing 167 . But we must remain vigilant and keep up the search. Something is shifting in me. for the moreness of life. Actually. why should being happy be so hard? Perhaps it is not as hard as I am making it out to be. Passion. I know that I would be choosing to express even more often than I do. wherever that may be. it seems that the choice is obvious. I just assumed that it was more than enough. Perhaps that is because it is not doing that makes us happy. I must take the final step to choose to be and do. that's extremely important. I am always searching for more. There are many things about me that I do not know. In this case. Sometimes these are the same things. If I knew that each hour of expression would bring in $200. at the same time. And. there is no overhead to pay .. Further. I may decide that some of my entertainment choices are enough of a waste of my free time that I will choose to make different choices. I'm getting close. I have something to show for each day of musing. But. It is important to be passionate about something in our lives. We just need to know what it is and pursue it to our heart's content. But. There is no doubt about it. It is not clear that I have done that yet. Similarly. Generally. the spiritual will always be the most important element of my life. so I should be entitled to the full amount. that is in excess of 2000 words that did not exist before. We can be anything. the choice of expressing more results in more expression but less free time. The enjoyment of watching some of my favorite shows just isn't there to the degree that it used to be. It doesn't seem to matter whether it is a spiritual endeavor or not. It is important to find our passion. It is for us to find these things and be them. We always find what we search for. sometimes they are not. without compensation. So obvious. But. what we want to be. Life is nothing without passion. The details have a way of taking care of themselves. she can only guide. It doesn't really matter what. That's in over 30 years of working. We need to find what we truly love to be and what we truly love to do. It always seems to me that there is something more. That's an interesting observation. Where that will take me I do not yet know. that has not happened yet.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 company nearly $200 per hour. What do I want to do? Clearly. even things that I do extremely well. I trust that spirit will guide me to precisely what I need to be and precisely what I need to do. there are things that we do well and things that we naturally enjoy doing. Yes. At some point. more than that since what I do here is of more value . But. that there is really no choice to make at all.. and what we want to do. the minor choices don't really seem to matter. This is the first time I have experienced it in my career. there are certain things that we can be well.. Where do we turn to find the true value? That is what I ask for now. what are those words worth and to whom? $200 per hour equates to 20 cents per word. Though. there are certain things that we will naturally enjoy being. Perhaps I am happy and just don't know it. It seems that such is what I need to incentivize me to do even more. eventually. I probably won't know until it takes me there. But. It seems that all of the major choices are like that. But is this enough? Is the Beyond Imagination endeavor enough to contain all that I am? I haven't asked that before. That is only 1/5 of the value that has been stated for this expression time and time again. Generally. Yet. at least in my eyes. But. That is just the way that it is for me. I have found things that I do well. it is being. What does matter is that it is a creative endeavor. I want to do this. At the very least. But.. that is something that I would not have realized except in my job. It is for us to focus on the big picture of what we want in our lives. For my spiritual work. And.

Do I ask anything of others? It seems that I don't. and being happy. even then it is not clear that it is a good practice. they may not be able to live up to our expectations. a level of abundance that I do not presently have.. I know that there are many other things that I am uniquely qualified to be and do that I don't even know of yet. that will take resources. Such is how you live the life you are meant to live. we are moved to see such things for a reason. That demands a lot. Yes. What do I want from life? Another question that I don't believe I've asked before. That would be enough to start with anyway. but I know that it is only a taste. how do I find what these are? Find your bliss and follow it wheresoever it leads. Surely. joy. to apply to ourselves. That is 168 . I have no doubt that the opportunity that I seek will come. what masks am I wearing? Whatever they are. I must expand .. The opportunity to be all that I can be. That is enough. This is your key to freedom. To some degree it is unfolding already. There is nothing specific that I want. Though sometimes I expect things of others.. It seems better to keep our expectations to ourselves. though more abundance would help.. I do not know. It will take you to precisely what you need to do. It will take you precisely where you need to go. and maybe only a few of these extremely closely. it will be. If I truly knew that I create my own reality. I don't need a lot of others. I would continue to express this stream of consciousness in the manner that I do allowing it to transform into what it would become if I were operating from these states. Such is how you create your living masterpiece. Is there anything that I can do to make it so? It is Wayne's vision. with a dozen lightworkers engaged part time .. Find your bliss and never let it go. Even then. putting them on has become so habitual that I no longer am aware of doing it. not really. So. and do the works that I know that are uniquely mine to do. That doesn't keep me from desiring that it be manifest. I don't need more things. something seems wrong about that.. Just asking the questions and making the observations gets the gears of change turning. I am attached to manifesting this.. it seems to be beyond what I know to be within my power. That is.. I have thought that my spiritual work. Why do we keep coming back to this? If it is meant to be. Nothing can turn the frown into a smile so long as you are wearing the mask. except in giving us something to aim for. Hmm . It is for me to choose to make the most of each aspect of it along the way. The universe has her ways surprising us. the bottom line is that I need help from on high. It will take you to precisely what you need to be. but I definitely don't believe it to be the case. what would I create differently? In what ways is my life not the masterpiece that I know that it could be? I would experience bliss. But. However. just a dozen or so . A saying comes to mind "opportunity only knocks once".. my Beyond Imagination work would become my sole work. Though. to turn this into the Beyond Imagination endeavor that I envision. And. Though the specific form of an opportunity may indeed only come once. So.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 something that I am? An image just came to mind of a Venetian mask with a frown. I have been given a taste of who I am and what I can be. It is clearly my soul's work. I don't know where that came from . But. Even when we expect the best of others. What form the opportunity will take. My world needs to expand immensely for me to be even all that I know I can be. Never ever. for my world to expand. Though. for my world is a mirror reflection of me. I knew that from the moment this expression began over 16 years ago. I would find others that I could work closely with on a regular basis on spiritual pursuits.. and be manifest soon. that says a lot. who I was created to be. I can tell that already.

it seems that nothing is really changing. I am precisely where I need to be in the moment. I am only sure that it is something that I must do. it is probably close to as good as it can get using this medium. it seems that what I really want is precisely what I have. So. Or if it is. I have to wonder whether there might be a better way to bring all of this forth. It seems that many things in my life are a matter of time. We are not meant to be compartmentalized. where is all of this leading. But. They must be allowed to unfold as they will. ever. other than having him speak though me in this expression at times. I don't believe in a God that takes a personal interest in my life. Have I made a compelling enough reason for the changes? Have I chosen to be what it takes to achieve this? Have I chosen to do what is within my power to achieve this? Have I invoked all that I am to achieve this? Am I even sure that this is what I truly want? How am I to know? If I need it. how can God help? Hmm . Where there is a will. So. it is not clear that my thoughts come forth any faster than this. My work environment has improved substantially in as little as a month. it will indeed manifest. But. it is changing so slowly as to be barely noticeable. something within me directs it. It is not God to whom I plea. But. at least what I think that I want. Not yet. Roughly 17 words per minute seems awfully slow overall. Yet. It is to those unseen portions of myself who create the very reality that I experience. my reality will be what it is. There doesn't even seem to be any overlap. And. especially in what we do that is most important to us. but it is about one third of my maximum typing speed. I do believe in a creator that created me to be something. it seems that the two are destined to merge into one. It doesn't matter whether I know what that is or not. However. what 169 .. I don't really have a personal relationship with that creator. how do we do that? This stream of consciousness expression seems to be something that I have no conscious control of. it will unfold in my life. This expression seems to be one of those. It is only a matter of time. Nor do I know what he created me to be. Something within me organizes it. I am not sure how to do that. it is controlled nonetheless. They have just accelerated recently. Though. Though.. Though. Hmm . We should be able to apply all that we are in what we do. anyway. so hearing a voice in my head and typing what I hear is perfectly suited for me. I don't really believe in a greater power than ME. We are one whole. perhaps that is why my pleas for help have gone unanswered. to whom am I making my plea for help? Who is there outside of ME that can help me? "God helps those who help themselves". the changes really began nine months ago. So. Similarly. at least we have a product that can be shared as a result. my reality is changing. Nothing on earth can stop it from doing so. It seems that I am close to doing that. there is a strong desire for this to change. these are two distinct things in my life. I can be certain of that. there is a way. Even when I think. Until that changes. and I will indeed find it. That suggests that there are others over which we have immediate control. Right now. I am letting them know what I want . we only said "many things". On the spiritual front.. I would move in a direction that allows me to integrate what I do at work with what I do here.. From that standpoint. At this point. Ultimately. 12 June 2009 Find your bliss and follow it. Though. I love being engaged in this expression and the Beyond Imagination endeavor and I love using my systems engineering skills working closely with others. It seems that overall. if it is part of my destiny.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 what I ask for now. I choose to open Netscape Composer and the stream of consciousness flows forth so long as I choose to be open to it. Yet. God helps even more those who help others.. I am auditory/kinesthetic..

We call it spirit within. There are natural laws and spiritual laws. it is unclear as to what I consciously do to direct them. we make what was unknown known. But. we are adding roughly 15. At our present pace. there are other more positive ones. At least. There is a book called The Second Ten Commandments that addresses many of these. even then. But. But. that is just the way that it is. and that I work on the frontier of the unknown. Yet. I would have developed friendships by now that enabled just that. But.. I would have to go back to the book to recall what these are. is true? All that we know is that the expression comes forth. If we continue doing this. it would take over 300 hours to read the Beyond Imagination expression to date. we are subject to the laws nonetheless. This gets back to conscious reality creation. That's 750. What do we know about the source? We call it source. Observations. These are part of the creation.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 cause is there for concern? Things in my life happen precisely as they are meant to happen.. can all of this really be coming forth for my eyes only? It could. most or it in the declarative. how can we be certain that what we say. in whatsoever manner that we choose. Radical discontinuities are allowed. What would be enough? Here. Be kind. it is not a necessity. We bow to no higher power. And.. but then why am I so strongly moved to share it? Perhaps not share it. That brings us to the question of what do I know? I say that I know a lot of things. I know that the manner that I read is such that connections get made on the spot. These seem to be some of the laws. To what degree is the reality creation process under our conscious control? In my experience. Our life is a record of who we are and who we have been. Spirit is within us. That is a sizeable commitment to expect anyone to make.000 words per year. Do not kill. we would double this . I also say that a lot of things are unknown. We can only keep small portions of the expression in our mind at any one time. I have not done so.. we are speaking in terms of our spiritual work. even what we say that we know. often I can observe them being made as they are made. and still be able to devote 30-40 additional hours per week to the Beyond Imagination 170 . it will take 6-7 years to double the size of the Beyond Imagination expression. At this point. She expresses through us. it seems that we have a conscious part of us for a reason. God is us expressing as us. We call it a stream of consciousness. When the sample size is that small. Though the awareness doesn't last for long. At any time we can choose to change what we are being. Do unto others . Though. But. We are the authority in our life. the only thing that we really know about it is the works. We are subject to both sets. Ye shall reap what ye sow. our choice in every moment. But. If I don't write it down. It seems that if I were truly moved to share it. what we know is sketchy. At 300 words per minute = 18000 words per hour. anyone other than ourself anyway. in this very expression. it seems to be very little. There is so much that I have read in my life and so little that I recall. It is our choice. it does no good to even attempt to generalize. that is based on a sample size of one with little insight as to what others consciously manifest. That's an hour per day for 10 months or 40 hours per week for nearly 2 months. the words that it has been able to generate through us over the past 16 years. We don't have to keep being what we have been just because that is what we have been. but at least post it where others might see it. She animates us. But. much of it as questions. especially the spiritual ones. If the terms of our commitment are manifest. It helps to know what these are. Indeed.000 words of Beyond Imagination expression per week. In fact. it is gone. However. and that it is meant to do more than observe and experience whatever comes into our life. There is much that we can learn from observing what we do and what we do not do. Oh well. We can't appreciate the enormity of it. Regardless.

and all that you ask for will be yours. it is one that I have started to operate in at work. Choose to be grateful. joy. So. Realize that. we don't foresee any problem in doing that if we could derive our livelihood from it. How does this impact how I choose to live my life? Overall. truly realize that. the appreciation must come first. 50 weeks per year for 4 years. We don't often express our gratitude. we should enjoy these things that we are grateful for. I have no reason to doubt its veracity. But. creativity also involves a thrust of energy. You already have much in your life to be grateful for. As you do that. we would have to do it in a manner that engages all of who we are and includes working closely with others for at least part of the time . Should... I look forward to it. That is what we want. even more will be added unto you. Can it be as simple as asking for what I want and doing what I am moved by spirit to do? That is what is coming forth this moment. and it has proved to be necessary for the job. Can it be that easy. why do you not choose these things? You have made something else more important. Yet. it is real. In doing so. you have put your bliss. Choose to be happy. Though. For that. The thrust is in the very creation of the stream of consciousness. should . at the same time my life is evolving and unfolding. We're doing good today. we are not talking about just making ends meet. Believing that it is doing the perfectly can be a challenge at times. Everything in my life is as it is for a reason. Yet. That would be a different mode of operating for me. And. Not bad for a day in which we had to work part of the day and commute home for two hours as well. It is more than mere wishful thinking. not the creation. We're talking about financial freedom. In particular. So. however. but not once has this occurred in over 16 years. we know that is always true. It is just past 4:00 and we've already made it to our daily quota. perhaps even for much of the non-expression time. But. We should do that far more than we do. That is what we desire to do.. When it is meant to happen. when I ask. for being able to bring forth this expression..2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 endeavor.000 hours of expression. Further. Our commitment would have us express for 5 hours per day. There are things we do and things we do not do.. Choose to be joyful. This expression is that way. for having a loving wife and furry children. But. But. there is also a sense that I need to be ready for it to manifest. I personally experience the reception. for having an interesting job that challenges us at times that is sufficient to pay the bills. You have more than enough in your life to warrant these choices. we are only at roughly half of where we want to be on a regular basis. we are willing not only to 171 . Apparently. that no longer seems to be enough. but to manifest it? This is an awesome realization. Though. That's 6.. Though. I simply accepted what came into my life. Though. And. there are no shoulds. While allowing is a positive trait. At some point that may change . stop doing it. and happiness somewhere in the future rather than in the present. that time is coming. for being who we are. 6 days per week. should.. Appreciate fully all that you are blessed with already. Do I need ties to the world outside of the context of Beyond Imagination? Do I need to further hone my collaboration skills? That seems to be what I am learning at the moment. something else that is not yet in your life. Always. I am not yet ready. That is not a wise thing to do. The allowing comes in being receptive and capturing what I hear. At this time. it will be a new experience for me when it does happen.. But. it will happen. of whom do I ask? Does it really matter to you? Is it not enough that you are moved to ask? Is it not enough to recognize that there is some higher power in your life that is greater than you know yourself to be and that is concerned enough with what you ask not only to understand. We are exceedingly grateful for many things . for having a direct relationship with spirit. I have not asked for much.

Whether it does that for others. we trust that there is a part of us that does know and that is doing what it takes to make it so. And. Yet. Yes. After that. I aim to deliver. Also important is knowing that this is indeed the life we want to live and the work we want to do. this smacks of grandiosity. here we are thinking in terms of working for ourself at a pace of 80 hours per week. We have been moved to express our commitment as we have for a reason. Yes. But. and what is its utility? I don't have answers to these questions. much is expected. It is not as if we are begging for a hand out. we could easily generate another 6 million words. Already. Effectively. It seems that of primary importance is feeling worthy. The usual measure of giving is a tithe. that amounts to giving over 60 percent of our time and 60 percent of the money we earn to our spiritual endeavor. As to utility. There is a sense that these are our years. Though. Though. that is the equivalent of holding two full time jobs. if the universe comes forth with $1 per word. I do not know. And. a lifetime of training. If the terms of our commitment manifest. At this moment. we can relax a bit and see what we are moved to commit to next. and far more work at that. but also to work on the Beyond Imagination endeavor an additional 40-50 hours per week. All that it takes to enable this is resources. not mentally. but consciously and spiritually. a value that has been set by spirit herself. I remember writing once that if you are working more than 45-50 hours per week. We are seeking the value of a creative expression . that is what seems to be necessary to do what we see needs to be done. Further. we will generate another 3 million words in 4 years. Here.. Further. But. they will be something different than they have ever experienced.. we fully believe that such is required now. These are the years in which we are at our prime. we are willing to expend 60 percent of it on the services of others in pursuit of the mission of Beyond Imagination. Some in low paying jobs do this out of necessity just to make ends meet. while that is respectable. It enables us to do something that will not otherwise be done. Though. that depends on what we do with the other 50 hours per week that we expend on the Beyond Imagination endeavor. and that is quite a lot. at our present pace. it is not enough. we have a resource that we have created to trade for the resources that we need. The better questions are how rare is it. I have to wonder how many people are willing to sign up to 80 hours per week of work for an extended period of time. The remedies are to prioritize and delegate. Is it right to be paid so handsomely for something that is so easy for us to do? Why not? It is only easy because of my natural abilities. Why would we even think about doing that? Because we have been given some rare gifts that allow us to produce something of far more value than we need for our family alone. what else am I to think? To whom much is given. But. we know that it is. However. and do it in as little as four years. you are taking on too much. I sense that there is something about reading this stream of consciousness that will allow people to reach altered states of consciousness themselves. we are talking about six time that. We have a need to do something that makes a difference to the world. a tenth. I will not know until I get feedback. not physically. They may not be the same as I have reached because our life experiences are different. We just don't know how to manifest it. At the moment. and a series of spiritual awakenings. That is perfectly fine with me. during this period from 2009-2013. given what has come forth to date. Even if the terms don't manifest. We are open to spirit guiding us to do whatever we need to do to enable or facilitate this. That resource is this very expression. And. But. We're talking in terms of doing more work in four years than we have done in the past 16 years. what is expressed here is unlike anything else that I have ever read. we have generated over 5 million words. I only know that I am moved to read it often and that it does something positive for me. 172 . truly worthy of receiving this in our life. We know that this is what we are meant to do. there is a nagging sense that it doesn't fully engage all of us yet.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 express as we have stated.

That would be effectively volunteering to do a full time spiritual job for nothing other than the experience of doing it. But is that true? It seems that the very fact that we are moved to ask something suggests that we have a need to know. perhaps 173 . That's eight years of work. do we really want the answers to all that we ask? If we did. Now. Eight years amounts to close to 25 percent of my working life to date and 200 percent of my Beyond Imagination work to date. Though. But. and watch the miracles unfold. But. I would have been silenced long ago. I know not where the next sentence is going to take us in this expression. While we have defined some of the overall parameters for our life and our work for those four years. But. all of our life.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 The equivalent of two jobs for four years. exclusive of including others. My wife already considers me to be obsessed with this. Were I to try to create any of this. I've worked about 30 years at various jobs and an equivalent of 4 years for Beyond Imagination. What do we need to be to allow our commitment to manifest? If we chose to do so. one hell of a lot. Our 15 hours per week of Beyond Imagination work would need to become 35 hours. We can only create in the moment. Yes. desire does not equate to need. and we can teach others to do that. but we ask many things here. it may come via experience. We know that. there is a difference between knowing something and being something. it seems that they would be forthcoming. Is not that what our spiritual training tells us? Indeed. it is spirit expressing though us. Fair compensation for us is $200 per hour for spiritual work. We have been training for this time. We have only to allow what will be to be. Also. for this moment. But. precious to whom? Who would be willing to pay for it what spirit has established it to be worth? That is indeed the enabling question. I know not where the journey will take us. Then. To date. But we could. Hmm . It will be through our close interactions that whole new realms for this expression are opened up. The very fact that how it comes forth is a mystery makes it precious. It is not clear that we are willing to do that. But. WE KNOW THAT! What we don't know is when the journey begins. and so many of them seem to go unanswered. we are open to allowing the details to unfold as they will. It all just happens. the only answer to when is NOW. Though. precious beyond measure. Why do we feel that it is our responsibility to cover the efforts of our team? Because we feel that the team is essential to provide the stimulus that we need to keep the expression fresh and interesting. What we need to know will indeed be revealed to us one way or another. even without any additional resources coming in. much less the next paragraph or the next musing. we have arrived. we need $1 per word to cover the effort of our Beyond Imagination team as well. We can do a lot with that. The bottom line is that we want the opportunity to do what we are committed to do. Ask and it shall be answered. The Beyond Imagination endeavor is our next journey. Though. That will be true for the entire Beyond Imagination endeavor as well. twice my spiritual work in as little as four years. not in the past or in the future. destinations are only places from which the next journey begins. it all just unfolds before my eyes.. Beyond Imagination is our baby. It is not us doing all of this. We had assumed that this was because there are some things for which we have no need to know. We are responsible for it. only in the moment. We can do that. the answer may not come here. It just doesn't seem right to expect more without fair compensation. and what will be done to be done. It is spirit doing all of this through us. why ask? We ask because we do not know and we desire to know. we could effectively manifest close to half of our commitment. The answer to that is what is required to manifest our commitment.. We don't expect lightworkers to offer their services for free. Spiritual services deserve compensation just as any other services. and extremely productive work at that.

I like the idea of being in control to some degree.. what needs to change? How do I turn this expression into something that is clearly of value . by the need to be compensated for the spiritual work that I do in my free time. Some might argue that the expression itself is compensation for the time that I am engaged in bringing it forth.. they 174 .2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 even more so because of their nature. I am reluctant to ask others to make a similar commitment. numbers. At work. We can't seem to ever express enough. there could be other things that I don't even know that I love doing yet. 13 June 2009 Another day. Abundance is our birthright. that means finding what we love to do and doing it. What that doesn't give us is the added abundance that would be needed to fund the Beyond Imagination endeavor. I don't mind making such a choice for Beyond Imagination myself. As the visionary behind Beyond Imagination. The expression itself is spirit's gift to me. why should all of this be voluntary? Why do my spiritual pursuits not bring me abundance? Have you transformed them into something that is of value to others and the world? Apparently not. who would be willing to fund the $1 per word that we are asking for? For that matter. It seems that I am obsessed by this . Yet. and to many at that? The expression by itself simply does not seem to be enough. It seems that it is a matter of finding ways to do these things more often. who would be willing to fund the $200 per hour that we ask for ourself. it would have had far more impact than it has and it would have started to bring in an income. Though. this expression. The alternative is to establish a volunteer organization to which people donate their abilities and services. But over a decade ago. Do I know what that is for me? It seems that it has something to do with this expression and with the Beyond Imagination endeavor. as we start working together as a team and in groups of various sizes. another musing. Then. Also. But. abundance will come to us. I'd like to allow spirit to direct how the endeavor unfolds through me. Also. Though. only to spiritual ones.. it is not clear how many have actually received our gift. These will be revealed as my life unfolds. or my experience would be quite different than it is. I'm presently in that position on one of my projects and am enjoying it immensely. Though. there are also some things in my present job that I love doing. We were not born to material riches . We were strongly moved to do that. how do I express that passion? By engaging in these things on a regular basis. we can't stop thinking about being compensated for the spiritual work we are doing. I get to guide what is done and even how it is done if necessary. the Beyond Imagination endeavor . $200 per hour is the minimum that would be acceptable. And. we believe the other 60 cents per word would be sufficient to do that. It is the only life that I am suited to live. these make us grand beyond compare.. Indeed. I would live a life of spirit.. services of which I have never dreamed. At this time. If we do what we love to do in a way that is of service. such are the things that I am passionate about. spirit. But. I expect our members to take initiative in creating other services of value. Where is my passion? What am I passionate about? Metaphysics.. we were moved to declare the Beyond Imagination expression A Gift from Spirit to the World.. Though.. Do we need to know who? It seems that if it is meant to be. If I am paying the bills. That doesn't mean that material riches do not have their place in our life. somehow it will manifest. Though. consciousness. If it were enough. That is roughly 40 cents per word assuming there is one hour of prep and follow-up for each hour of expression. And.

we are barely living within our means. But. Not for long. first things first. In particular. Our work is our life. in the financial area. We are essentially independent of others. if our commitment is manifest. That is how things work in my life. will all of this lead to the reality that I envision it to? It either will. If we were being paid. the sense is that we are to focus on the spiritual ones. My reality is my creation. It takes away from our connectedness and oneness. We should be able to make such choices anyway. Why. With that we would be free to live and work in the manner that we choose. At other times. it does not seem that we have been successful. or what will come of it. And. The bottom line is that it will take us precisely where we need to go. for eight months or so. what we do distinguishes us. Indeed. We hold nothing back. That is OK. We know that. we freely share the Beyond Imagination material at the Beyond Imagination site. We just note that it happened. and except for once. we provide a grand service to spirit and to the world. we are moved to create Best Quotes works from time to time. there have been a few times over the past 16 years where we essentially stopped doing it for weeks to months at a time. though we already do far more than most. This can be difficult because it takes some time and that time competes with the time for bringing new expression forth. all of this effort is not for naught. we aren't abundant in all respects. While we are abundant in many respects. We simply were not moved to muse very often. especially our Beyond Imagination work. But. we do not know. without an additional 175 . it is enough that we do what we are moved to do. we know not what that service is. Why do we do it? We do it because we are moved to do it. Though. Though. We have more than many. We have even been in the mental hospital a few times when we were particularly manic and lost the ability to focus on the consensus reality. It does not seem to be for us to decide how this expression serves others. We have been trying to be the conscious creator of our reality. It is our job to bring it forth in whatever manner it would come forth. We have our spiritual freedom. Our hope is that in doing this. we have been trying to impose our conscious will on the matter. Especially what we choose to do with our free time. We are willing to do a lot . And. Speaking of crazy. the material ones will take care of themselves. even far more than we do at present. it will get us there precisely when we need to be there. This would all be remedied if we were compensated for our spiritual work. We don't let that dissuade us however.. it is our job to turn it into works and share it. We post everything that has been expressed here. Though. it will be even more so. But. Namely. to engage in this expression. trusting that somehow it aligns with our destiny. or it won't. regardless of how personal or how crazy it may seem. One might think we are a bit strange spending as much of our free time doing this as we do. somehow this is precisely what we are meant to do. less than many others. such as now.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 do. We allow the raw expression to speak for itself. Surely. we have questioned our sanity many times throughout the years. As we do so. that is only from the sense of appearances. We don't know why.. But. Indeed. we may never know. we would find it far easier to make better choices as to what to do with our free time. But. We don't really spend much time on the former. We do it because it is the grandest thing that we have been able to do in our life. It is not like we've hidden what we have done from others. To date. But. And. There has to be a reason for all of this. How could we not do it? Though. But. For now. The truth of it strikes a core deep within us. What we lack is financial freedom. Whether that will actually happen or not remains to be seen. We have done enough and posted enough that someone could find our works and be willing to pay us for them. This is something that we strongly desire to have manifest in our life. our experience was of being in the midst of a spiritual awakening. That is not necessarily a good thing. we have been moved to muse nearly every day. That could change at any moment. It is not that we live extravagantly. It is just not always my conscious creation.

what does it take to create what I desire? We have made a compelling argument for our commitment. Fortunately. Beyond Imagination is my life's work. Further. But. building the foundations for that to happen. It's all up to ME. Abundance. I believe myself to be a child of the universe. It seems that there is a part of me that must know.. I look forward to that. I still struggle with experiencing and defining who I am. It's not that we could not do more. fifty weeks per year for four years. this is not something that we can do alone. my soul's work. Something must be missing. There is a new age to usher in. My hope is to make it my sole work as well. we would reward them for what they do for us. Can we be happy and await destiny playing itself out in our life? It seems we have little other choice. It's not even 7:00 but my eyes grow weary. what could it be. Winding down... Consciously. it is that doing more puts additional constraints on our life that we are not willing to accept without due compensation. we are not intending to do it alone. That is not to say that we could not change our mind at any point. Clearly.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 compensation motive. All that it takes is resources. there is a sense that a major shift is forthcoming. I am the creator of my reality. And. That is what Beyond Imagination is all about. that we be paid abundantly for doing what we love to do. that point comes at around 60 hours per week of work time plus spiritual work time. still it does not manifest. Nor do we expect people to volunteer their services in this endeavor. where is all of this leading us? At this point. are we truly deserving of all of the abundance that we desire in our life? And. we are not asking for a lot . reward them well at that.. Though. whatever it may be. it is what it is. I am not even aware of the portion that expresses here. especially if it is spirit herself doing the 176 . But. It does make me wonder how we are going to handle doing this five hours per day. That I don't know what these laws are does not matter. a new age in which spirit seeks to be more fully expressed in flesh. especially for what we intend to deliver. we might as well be happy in the process. Rather. There is a sense that the composition of our team is already decided. 14 June 2009 Musing from a Sunday this time. except by the stream of consciousness that she leaves. Yet. something important. will the universe bestow this on her children? Yes. We've been obsessed over the past week with deriving an income from the Beyond Imagination work that we so love to do. It depends on what services we need and what services we plan to offer. it seems that this is something that we must do. Why me? Why is all of this coming forth through me? Because this is what I came to do. Rather. we had not thought to ask that question before. And. So it has been for 16 years anyway. But. There is a point when enough is enough. Overall. the drive is just not there. something critical. I don't really know. Sometimes that happens. So. Even this expression is not enough to keep me awake and interested this evening. I am only aware of a small portion of who I am.. Right now. When will that happen? It will happen when I make it so. to a dozen in fact. we do what we must. So. six days per week. Is that enough? Do we need to extend our team beyond lightworkers? Interesting. there is a sense that this may always be the case. Some things I am simply not meant to know. subject to universal and spiritual laws. It is a matter of allowing it to be revealed over time as we find the resources to hire them. Is that asking for too much . Just for now. Have we made our commitment as inclusive of others as we could? We are still limiting our interactions to a select few . the expression comes forth whether I consciously know or not..

Without it. Perhaps it is not giving due consideration to those who might benefit from our works. Since 1993. We stopped doing that about 20 years ago. the medium has changed from images to words. Beyond that. you may also need to do some soul-searching regarding what 177 . We should be able to create what we desire it to be. In our early adulthood. we used to take photos of nature. in person anyway... or internally within itself . Part of that is that we aren't so easy to get to know. Yet. But. we have found it . The only things that we know about this source are that it is within us. spiritually or otherwise. What determines what that will be? It seems that it should be proportional to our abilities and how we use them to serve. this expression has been our photograph. particularly photos of some of the grand scenery of the National Parks in the West. That has been our way for 16 years. That it contains few references to anything that has come before either from external sources. in particular. Try though we might. How do we assess what spirit brings forth through us in a stream of consciousness? Why must we assess it. Then as now. Focus on doing what you love . there would be virtually no evidence of the journey. It has whatever merit is naturally due to it based solely on what is expressed. while we were along for the ride every step of the way. And.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 work through us? Perhaps it is.. it is our very self. It seems that it is not enough to do what we do well. This is just another aspect of our reality. Rarely did we ever have people in our photos. We have experienced a series of spiritual awakenings. And. Mysteries are good. Though. is also a mystery. Though. Our fortune. It has gotten us a wealth of metaphysical expression. we have made an attempt.. We expected long before now to have found some kindred spirits with whom to share our life. But has it set us free. It is what it is. that it is prolific. she is a mystery. that is within your control. Though... We do not control our spiritual work in that fashion. and that it can express in our life through a stream of consciousness. But. It seems that if we truly want to share this expression then there is more that we must do.. That it can come forth as it does seemingly without end is a mystery. we have limited recall of our experience. What do we do that has utility to others . why should we expect abundance to come into our life for ministering unto ourself. Yet. I have no sense of organizing it in any manner. there are many a mystery that we shall never fathom. That is OK. much more. such have not been forthcoming. Though. Though.. That too is OK. It seems that it has not. over 5 million words to date. here we have a lengthy record of where consciousness has chosen to take us. not understood. Though. how are we to know this? How are we to find the audience to whom all of this is being addressed? On the one hand. But. at least with these words. strong enough to put our very sanity in question. We simply allow it to manifest through us. it is our record. throughout it all we have grown and yet remained true to who we are. Fathoming them is not essential to being able to allow them to operate in our life. that make their lives better for having encountered our works. Even that is a value assessment that it is not clear we have the right to make. is that enough? Is there something that we can be or do that determines the level of abundance we will experience in our lives? It seems that there should be. They are to be experienced. This answer still seems to be the closest thing to the truth that we can answer. yet it is clear that there is a underlying order anyway. we are far more free than we were when this expression began. at the same time it is no answer. The rest will follow naturally. From whence does such a stream of consciousness come? We say that it comes from the source within or spirit herself. This expression is it. we have to do something deserving of the abundance that we desire. There is no sense that this journey was of our own making. our records weren't really shared. Yet. The bottom line is that we do not know. we have to feel ourselves worthy. the photograph of our consciousness in action.

But. In my case. Though. not only new expression.. There is room for us to create masterpieces of our lives. Rather than fight it. You would have it no other way. Life has a way of working itself out. It didn't seem to matter. to your family. we sit 16 years later. From 1972 to 1993. that service is to your employer. to society. Other than at work and in my family. Yet. We have been expressing here for over 16 years. wonderful as well. It may indeed just be a matter of degree. Though. the need to read the works of others dwindled substantially. to some degree.. You do that be being YOU and doing what you are moved to do while you are being YOU.. I have no hobbies or interests that even take me to the minds of other thinkers anymore. All of that input was somehow stored. Perhaps. to yourself. It is not clear that your family benefits. It is for you to earn what you need by applying yourself in service. But. I am not a part of any groups. Though some appear to be more divine channels than others. Once I started expressing on my own. Then again.. Now. as a stream of consciousness that I was suddenly aware of and moved to record.. the Beyond Imagination expression was born. Spirit benefits . not necessarily in that order. we desire for so much more to come forth . it takes your time away from them. There is a sense of what next? It is time for something new on both fronts. If anything. You would like society and the world to benefit. there is something comfortable about continuing to live our life as we do. There is more than sufficient abundance to meet the needs of everyone. And. Though it is helpful if we allow spirit to do the bulk of the work through us. great. Perhaps that needs to be good enough. and the connections between it that needed to be made were made. What comes from this will come from this. If it turn out to be financial freedom as you have defined it with sufficient abundance to fund the Beyond Imagination endeavor . we all serve as such to some degree all of our lives. Yet. it is up to you to do the works necessary to earn your fair share.. perhaps that is not for us to determine. and a grand service at that.. We have been at our job for over 13 years. there is much leeway.. Can we be content to have spirit express in her own way and her own time? Do we even have a choice in the matter? Destiny seems to come with a sense of predetermination. to spirit. primarily in metaphysics. the time span is extended far more than we care for it to be. Being a slow reader. It just came forth. I read extensively. I don't know enough of anyone else to know how they became awake enough to serve as a vehicle for spirit. And. Through all that gestation. We can do this at anytime. This requires that we develop our talents sufficiently and choose to be a willing instrument. she is given a vehicle through which to express as she will. So much has come forth. Though.. There is room for reality creation. Otherwise. It gives us precisely those challenges that we need to learn the lessons that we need to learn. If it turns out to be something else. being comfortable with something is not a 178 . but it is not yet clear that they do. Yet. perhaps we should use whatever extra time and resources we have to strike out on a new direction. No one owes you anything in this life. In your case. there seemed to be a cosmic trigger. Though. to whom? Clearly. I don't know if we can awaken ourselves. within this constraint.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 you truly need. reading was a laborious process. it has nothing to do with them. fresh and new. learning specifically what she is able to express through you. Bringing forth this expression is a service. You are moved by spirit to express and you do. the only way we can see this happening is to do it full time. none of this matters. That does not mean that everything will be easy. it is service that is everything. the nature of my memory was such that I could rarely consciously recall what I read. Definitely to yourself. not to your employer .. what came forth was untraceable to anything that I can remember reading. so be it. and to the world . but generally a spiritual awakening is required for that to happen. but new works based on what has been expressed.

we are often without the companionship of other humans. things have not changed at all. I know that it is me doing all of this. Even in the work environment. in some ways we are never alone. the instrument. Unfortunately. here we are alone. They blend into one another. We speak of the entire being that we were created to be spiritually as well as physically. I evaluate the progress. I have to wonder whether this is meant to be applied in my life in some way. it is that no one is finding them. It is as if we have nothing else important to do with our free time. How could we be alone with spirit ever at our side? Indeed. That is how I choose to live my life. we are the only one reading the latest several years of musing.. Overall. So. I do gain something from experiencing this expression coming forth through me. Though. It is not for me to force my way on anything. I make course corrections. we often work alone. But. If I am meant to do something to facilitate that change.. Rather. I have a project that I direct. I still have no clue as to what is to come forth next more than a few words at a time . These are not things that I do in my life. rather we believe that the spiritual attaches itself to a physical form for this journey through life.. My spiritual work is definitely that way. I will be moved by spirit to do so. with spirit herself as our only companion. of being the creator 179 . Yet. they are not informing me that they are reading them. to decide what will be expressed.. We don't believe that the spiritual arises from the physical. Even after over 16 years of engaging in it.. Hmm . I observe it happening and experience it much as someone listening to the music played through the instrument we discussed earlier. and I have no clue as to what specifically came before even as far as one sentence. As far as we know. Our lives and our work should challenge us. it seems to be something that I am good at. given that. how is it that I can understand any of this as it comes forth. we are. This expression alone suggests that there is far more to us that the physical. What can we say? It is what it is.. That requires taking us out of our comfort zones at times so that we can experience something new. And. in any event. such seems to be the case much of the time. 15 June 2009 Once again we come here to muse. It is not that we have not made them available. may or may not be correct or useful . When we speak of heredity. we live a very solitary existence. we have confined our job to being our means of earning our livelihood. it is also the primary domain in which I interact socially . I even generated a to-do list. Though. It is curious that this is not how I operate in my work. Though. that has changed substantially. I understand it no more than a instrument understands the music that comes forth through it. perhaps we are not alone after all.. I set the requirements. Life and work are not distinct enterprises. or if they are.. in the work case. we speak of more than the body and its genes. it seems to be obvious. Can we know that for certain? Probably not. spirit herself. Why am I the way that I am? The typical answers are by heredity (design) or by nurturing (experience). I am all three of these. it can be changed by unlearning what is limiting or in error and learning something new. I am the musician. What we have learned to be. of late. We still muse for an average of two hours per day. Rather. and the observer who hears the music. I allow source. it will change. at least to the degree to which one who has little to do with society interacts socially. when it comes to this expression. Generally. it is to allow spirit to do her works through me. That is how my reality unfolds. There. What we are born to be. indeed. Though. Yet. When it is time for it to be different. I have no conscious awareness of being the musician. Though.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 sufficient reason to continue to do it. To what degree was I born to be as I am. and to what degree did I learn to be as I am.

free spiritually. Oh well. She has known ever since the Beyond Imagination expression began. free of attachments.. I experience it coming forth through me. It simply manifests in my mind and before my eyes through my fingers. What it tells me is that the expression is somehow marching in the right direction on its own. Regardless . when we find ways to share the load with others. The sense is like being a character in a movie. Often. the very fact that there is no feedback is feedback in itself. we don't stop there. Feedback is important to allow us to learn what impacts others positively and what does not. people. This is not something for which I need to be concerned.. It is enough that the expression comes forth and is captured as it is. or the feedback is being provided via me at levels of which I am not consciously aware. do we really want to be free of attachments? Or. it would be different. Though. Where do we go from here? We know there are self-imposed limits in our life. whatever time we find to devote to this expression is good. it seems our lives are like that as well. But. we have been operating open loop for 16 years. But. We do share what is expressed by posting it every three months or so to the Beyond Imagination website. is that not limiting what I can be? Perhaps it is. Enlightened freedom seems to come from choosing which burdens to bear. the burdens are lighter for each of us. That is a substantial commitment to make. Rudely interrupted by work. It is not clear that anyone other than us has read anything that has been posted in the last five years. To some degree. I don't experience it coming forth from me. allowing us a much greater deal of freedom in exercising our will. it seems that such is not likely to happen anytime soon. we know that we are meant to be free. Hmm . What does this say about ME. but much of what the actor does is scripted. With such feedback we might be able to make choices that impact the content or nature of what is expressed here. if ever. Effectively. but not enough it seems to make a difference. about spirit herself? It literally speaks volumes. But there is a sense that all of us were limited by what we were created to be. Our intent is good. The actor has some freedom to play the part. I have to open Netscape Communicator and be present to type. Here. Sometimes that happens in the evening. So it has been for 16 years anyway. And. rather is the concern with the over-attachment to things. the scripts are much more open. free financially.. We still get some hits each week to our website. or experiences? Can we be overly attached to our self or to our sense of self? Many would call that very way that I live selfish. about consciousness. there is much room for grand expression. Further. But.. If it needed to be different. we don't take a lunch break. Though within that limit. What matters is what I experience. It doesn't need feedback to correct it. Spirit knows what she is doing here. We would be free in every respect . I experience being engaged in a stream of consciousness expression for over a tithe of my waking time each week. the expression is what it is and that is precisely what it needs to be at this time. Though. 180 . It doesn't matter whether anything actually comes of it or not. It has been that way for all of my life. at least what I experience consciously. I know what I experience.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 of this expression.. Yes. Though.. Freedom however does not mean being from of obligations. this expression has a life of its own. beyond that. and perhaps long before that . Will that ever change? As an extreme introvert. but the results leave a lot to be desired. How can I not know the part of ME from which all of this originates? How can I not know? It doesn't seem to matter why.. and bearing these to the best of our abilities.. we don't often find time to muse during our lunch break. Yet. But. Either that. it is a commitment that I make without really choosing anymore. not enough to result in any feedback. I just watch myself do it. My world is one in which I am clearly the primary object.

that is still only a belief. In our life. the creator is different and distinct from this. either he created himself or he was created by another. Though. It was sufficient 181 . It seems to have something to do with what we are being when we come here . I may not know how or know why or know what . and in 2003. What is there that I believe that I do not know? I believe that we create our own reality. Rather. it is not clear that we know it as it comes forth. This is not the first time this has happened. are we a clear channel. this creator was not my physical parents. These are all true statements for me. Perhaps that is because such is what we know best. Belief suggests that something might be true. What other things are like that in my belief structure? What do I truly know? What is my truth? I AM my truth. even when they no longer serve us or those who our life touches.. for close to a year. That very statement implies that there was a creator of ME. Further. not in God's. I am spirit and I am animated by spirit and spirit expresses through me. I am not different and distinct from my creator. But. The only separation is in my experience. Here.. that there is more to our life than this. It is what it is. These must be replaced with new habits is we would change our life and our experience. But. My truth is that I AM. We have experienced it. It may not be easy. no exceptions. Often we embrace a belief because we feel its consequences are better than those of its alternatives. who created God? Either God was created. as clear of a channel as we could be? A lot of what is expressed here is about us. 1997 and 1998 were particularly lean years. We know that there is more than this. but that doesn't stop me from being me. in 2002. From what we can tell. We have tasted it. It seems to run in cycles. perhaps that is true to some degree for everyone.. and it still is only a belief. in spirit herself. closer than at any other time in our life. an instrument through which spirit herself is able to express. there is a nagging sense that there is more to life than this. it was God or All That Is. I have no sense that spirit created me. I live my truth every day. It hasn't been elevated to a knowingness or a truth. What is the utility of beliefs? It seems that we either know something or we do not know something. I don't have the firsthand knowledge of seeing it operate in my life to elevate it to a knowingness. We muse when we are moved to muse. But. no fine print. In 1995. It does not extend very far beyond us. We are ever the 48:The Man in Search of More turning away from the five full cups of the senses and the three full cups of the mind. Though. Breaking through old habits is often difficult. It is what it is. or he has always existed. If he was created. What is my relationship with God? To date. though there have been times when months went by without so much as a single musing. we have done that nearly every day. But. He is me expressing as me. Why are we so fortunate to deserve such attention? What can we say. we were also expressing nearly every day. Why is that? How could the spiritual be so important to me. We are closest to that when we express here. He is All That Is. There can never be anything separate from God. I have not really had one except for the few instances where he expressed directly through us here. I am what I was created to be. such we must do if we desire to change what we experience. It doesn't seem to matter. and we do so so long as we are moved to do so. One set of habits that we have is our beliefs. Most other years have been moderate. we give birth to something. but God not be of concern? It just didn't matter that I come to terms with All That Is. But. or even as we read it later. it seems that it is within my power to extend my world in whatever directions I desire. Our world is probably far more restricted than most. But. Here we are 35 years later. to a fresh and new creation. Further. that is simply what we experience. Despite all of my experiences. Our current habits get us what we presently experience. it is spirit herself that moves us. Though. In particular.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 when it was gestating within me. what could that be.. but it is my choice. that moreness lies in consciousness. Why is that? I was introduced to this particular though in 1974 when I first started reading the Seth books. Yet.

I rarely muse before work. That includes All That Has Been and All That Will Be. We know that he is our creator. it isn't finished. That it is experienced in time is beside the point.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 that I developed my intuition and did as spirit moved me to do. It doesn't matter that I know not what would be enough or where to go to find more. It is enough to know that I am restless again. Just seeing the magnificence of the natural world and those parts of the universe that we have discovered instills such awe in me that there is simply no doubt. Forms were needed to explore and experience and appreciate all that had been created. I prefer to take my spirituality straight from the source within and see it reflected in my world.. Everything is spirit in expression. there can be no exceptions. no exceptions. and that he didn't create anything separate from himself. To this. Either we are spiritual being created by a creator or we are not. The fact that we are seems so obvious. Any expression that is exclusive rather than inclusive is not truly spiritual from my perspective.. There is simply nothing else.. though many a war has been fought for their sake. 16 June 2009 Getting an early start this morning. I've steered away from religion for over 40 years. Nothing exists but spirit. something has changed recently. the creation was one of laws. A few dozen constants are able to characterize the universe. Tolerance and acceptance are critical as well. the good as well as the bad if you were. many who hold religious beliefs consider that their path is the only true and right path. It is highly unusual for me to do that. It is curious that I use that term restless at a time when I find it difficult to fall asleep nearly every night. Then again.. But. And. Even those things that appear to be evil or dark. everything created by any of us is created by spirit as well . Everything. universal laws and spiritual laws. that is not something new . Modify these and you literally have a different world. even of those who choose not to believe at all. Any expression that is violent rather than peaceful is not truly spiritual. Expressing what spirit would express through me is not enough anymore. that I have never considered the alternative. whether this creator is concerned with our personal trials and affairs in this existence is another matter entirely. there are many paths. but we can't change them. It is through those laws operating that everything came into being. None of them is necessarily more right than any other. I am always curious when it comes to this expression. Everything was created by the creator. The creation continues to unfold in each and every moment. Effectively. We can discover what they are . Though. Are there spiritual constants just as there are universal ones. It doesn't take a lot of such laws. That is not to say that there is anything wrong with religion. And.. Why should our particular set be what it is? The bottom line is that it just is. It just doesn't do that for me.. Unfortunately much of religion is about beliefs. Everything was created in one magnificent moment in the NOW. the spirit within me. Science seems to be good at discovering the universal ones. But. God is All That Is. Now. There I am comfortable leaving things to spiritual law and the spark of the creator. All of them can lead to spiritual experience. I'm curious as to what will come through. is there such a thing as spiritual science? Religion does not seem to have filled that void very well. Though. For 182 . In reality. including allowing her to do her works here through me. It seems that we ended yesterday dealing with the concept of what we know about God and what our personal relationship to God is. We don't know whether he in turn was created or not. It fills a need for billions of people on the planet.

it is a change that must come from the heart and not the head. She keeps life interesting. Points of view change all the time. That is how such things work in my life. we are not alone. It was as if an alarm clock went off and I was suddenly awake. but far more often it is not. as a spiritual birthday. but an honorable one nonetheless.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 me... the first one took me outside of myself. our experience is our experience. We are ONE. It is not me doing this. my life is nothing. there are few people in my life so the sample size is small.. a solitary one for the most part. But then. even more than ourself. Thus far. and separated is only the appearance that we are choosing to experience. I have no other way to explain all that has been expressed here. But. 5 March 1993.. But. We can change that. That is simply how I experience it.. We need to make it easier. 183 . yet we appear to be separate from my present point of view. All of this comes from the source within. Clearly. There can only be perceived separation. Even spirit working through us alone could not achieve this end. Hmm . But. fragmented. Though. we have been moved to record and share this expression. we have no means to do that on our own.. ever. So. spirit herself. It was as if there was a cosmic trigger in my 34th year. Could I be deceiving myself in this regard? Perhaps. But. Though. That is how spirit works in our life. That could change in any moment. we all are. It doesn't seem that my awakening was due to anything in particular that I did. that very act has made it available to everyone. But. What matters in my life is what I experience and what I do with that experience. The bottom line is that it does not matter how many others may have had such experiences. We consider ourself to be highly spiritual. Our mission is to build the foundation that allow spirit to more fully express in flesh. There is no separation. actually several such awakenings. and it is what it is for a reason . spirit matters more to us than anything else. I don't know why. It is not me expressing here. Further. or potentially grand things anyway. we are open to such a change. many observing how we live might not find it interesting at all. I revere that day. Nothing has been the same since. where is the enjoyment of the process? It is there sometimes. we know that it will be when the time comes to do it. but I have no other way to explain what I have experienced in my life. There can be no real separation. I am animated to do grand things . Without spirit. We are connected to everything and everyone. If I need to know. we are spirit . There is a sense that without one another. Even if this expression only appears to be revealed through my mind to my fingers to my eyes. How do we change that? We live an honorable life. If I don't then I won't. ever. All of this changed for me 16 years ago. literally in a heartbeat. We are spirit enfleshed. But. rather it is operating in a hidden fashion such that the person is not even aware of it. It took a spiritual awakening to transform me into what I am today . this is a feminine spiritual essence. it matters not whether I know that reason.. Some of this requires building whole new social infrastructures. out of my mind to a place I had never been before. we would not exist.. or perhaps even non-existent. whether they are consciously aware of it or not.. Others might find this essence to be masculine. We are ONE world already. I will know. In fact. yes. With spirit. That does not mean it is non-existent. What that is hasn't yet been revealed. Every creative expression impacts everyone.. neutral. We do that by observing where spirit flows freely versus where it does not and removing any obstructions that we find. Consciousness keeps us on our toes. That we appear to be fractured. Yet. I know of no one in my life who claims to have had such a day. she is not separate from me either. there is a strong sense that there is much more that we can do with it. and we value our self highly.

we may choose to feel separate from her. have I always been receptive to what I was being moved to do? And. 184 . I am also proud of what comes forth through me. always. But. And. we run errands. Ye shall know them by their works is a grand truth. Not knowing does not keep me from expressing. one such work is this very expression. Spirit is like a GPS system. I am amazed by what comes forth through me. We are always who we are. we watch movies. My job is to participate and bring the material through. She always finds us a new path that gets us to the intended destination. She course corrects anytime we fail to follow the path that she has set. But. we muse. but spirit always knows. Everything impacts everything else forever. We do that nearly every day.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 What would we be next? We would be who we are. Yet. In the world everything is interdependent. We can be nothing else. the output. In this case. we have little social contact. It can be difficult to be authentic. For the most part. we walk our dogs. it is in my life. we would muse. That is OK. We may not know what that is. the conscious part of us is only the tip of the iceberg. Though. On weekends we muse. We are conscious for a reason. it seems that there are other things that we should be doing as well. She is never separate from us. and fewer still take the time to read it does not matter. Though. we have put a constraint on this. to truly be who we are and to be conscious of being just that. This expression is what distinguishes me from others. we do chores. Yet. We would be who we were created to be. perhaps not. It is unclear what the inputs are. We desire to enlist a dozen lightworkers in the Beyond Imagination endeavor. and we spend some time with our wife. But. in most cases. And. For me. That has been the directive of spirit in my life. in the end. whatever happened in the past is over. And. Nothing is separate. It does not matter that we know not what that is. We are who we are. at least not any longer. We work. if indeed I was receptive. we watch TV and we sleep during the work week. in the world there can be no independence. But. But. Though. In fact. The bottom line is that it just happens. It is far easier to see what they do. We have only to follow her direction. At least. There is so much that we are not conscious of. It seems that we should be able to know them by who they are. That is our life. We are doing that now. But. But. Do what you are moved to do. this expression does not reveal how I function to be able to generate these musings. Yet. people don't know who they are. ever. we are free to choose not to do that at any time. we characterize systems by how they transform inputs into outputs. That doesn't stop us from being who we are. she may choose for me to be the instrument through which this expression reaches others. In engineering. The vast other than conscious parts of us go unseen except for the works that they do. We desire to change that. Of course. that is difficult to do. what would these be? Our life is pretty set. That sent a shiver through my head. That she has not seemed to do so yet may be a matter of my misreading what she is moving me to do. Why would we choose to do so? Good question. there are some times where it does matter. but what's the point. it is the works we do that count. That few even know that it exists. how can we retain our individualness and be aware of our interdepentdedness at the same time? What would we do next? Clearly. What matters is what we are moved to do NOW. we all have our space to be who we are. spirit is us. that doesn't matter. Other than with our wife and at work. did I choose to follow through and do it? Perhaps. It comes from parts of me whose depths I may never fathom. spirit may chose for my hands to be her hands as well. Though we may present an image to the world that we are not. What happens to it from there is in spirits hands. Our lives are challenging enough when we follow the optimum path for us. It can be no other way. within this interdependent world. It seems that independence is a hard thing to give up.

The only question is when will we be allowed to do it full time? And. We don't know that it will come. it took a spiritual awakening 16 years ago to be fully conscious of it. I don't know that I would have made it to this point in my life. it seems that our choices may impact just how it unfolds. and it will be even better. But. it seems that this is not a matter for belief. the abundance will come. Just as the acorn contains the blueprint for the mighty oak within it. why would I believe such a thing? It just seems right somehow. I consider myself exceedingly fortunate. That is what we ask. If not. Either we have provided sufficient spiritual services to be worthy of abundance or we have not. but my spiritual riches are grand indeed. And. If that later is the case. How many people have been fortunate to find something they are passionate about. Though. Not that death has been a part of my life.000 hours expended. and it is as fresh and as exciting to us now as it was then. Such would be our contract with spirit. so the spark of consciousness that seeded me contains all that I am to be in my life. Indeed. Whether it is forthcoming or not remains to be seen. not only for me but for all concerned. If we have. the later I had only met occasionally. I know that.000 or so and 8. the return in terms of profits from sales has been less than $100. We know that. Interesting. not one moment sooner or later. It just allows for it to unfold differently depending on how we interact with it. We only need $1 per word for expression to date and for what would be expressed in the next four years. Had it not been for these. It can unfold in no other way. Yes. and turned it into a hobby that they do nearly every day? Yes. I had a sister-in-law that died years ago and my housemates son died recently. That requires a level of abundance that we don't presently have.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 We need resources to pay for the services of these lightworkers. Spirit herself provides that nurturing in my life. Though. that's pretty easy considering that there is almost no one that I am close to. We found it 16 years ago. the first I knew somewhat. Though. We ask for the opportunity to demonstrate what we are capable of delivering on a full time basis. I trust in the nature of life that much. But. other than it being the 13 card in the Tarot. Our choices impact the quality of our time. not its duration. 185 . Spiders and snakes. I am eternally grateful. If it is. Yes. I don't think much about death. Though. If it isn't. it will manifest. there is something more we need to be or do. Yes. though I hold my own. All that it takes is the right nurturing to achieve this. Do we love our Beyond Imagination work enough to make it our sole work? That's an interesting thing to ask about something that to date has not provided much compensation.. 50 weeks per year. we trust that we will be moved to be or do precisely what is necessary. Hmm . death I see as a welcome spiritual transition that happens when it is time for it to happen. The past 16 years have shown what we are capable of delivering on a part time basis. words that we have valued at $1 per word. for the $6. That is our price. The time of our birth and the time of our death are set when we enter this existence. we have over 5 million words to show for our efforts. something that they love to do. For these. that is pretty dismal. That doesn't change the fact that however it unfolds is perfect. But. This is clearly our soul's work. We know this will be far more than even we can imagine. we are willing to sign up to that. Perhaps that is one reason I have no fear of death. It seems that I have always known that. that is something for which I believe we have no choice. by full time we mean 60-80 hours per week. something else is in store for us. No one that I have been close to has died. I may not yet have much in terms of material riches.. Our life is unfolding perfectly. But is that enough to make it worth it to spirit and the universe? It seems that either it is or it isn't. That value is sufficient abundance to do this full time and engage our lightworkers services on a part time basis. that's another matter.

that is my own assessment . Am I meant to have friends? "To have a friend you must be a friend". you just started doing it. The circumstances 186 . We have noticed that you have taken some steps in this direction. sometimes large. it occurs within a context of society and the world.. we don't. Prior to 1993. myself. you would have it your way or not at all. I may not be aware of when or how. it is not clear that anyone other than me expects this of me. You became a writer. Do I need to do something to free things up? The one area that is most lacking in my life is friends. sometimes small.. We choose our existences to give us the opportunity to do something and learn something in the process. Being alive is being doing something. The interaction with others can indeed feed what you are doing by providing fresh perspectives and allowing you to find other sources within yourself. It seems that it is such nearly every day of late.. What do we truly know of whom we are? Being is not a matter of knowing. are we life? Do we have to be alive to be? The immediately answer that came to mind was no. But. remember that you are judging your interpretation of what was expressed. The result has been not at all. That is a start. expressing a stream of consciousness. it is accompanied by some sort of spiritual transition .. I have few acquaintances and no friends. Then. Friendship is no different. you did not write in the manner that you do here. one day. and from all that I know. That is true in every moment that we exist. A life is not an end in itself. Here.. not what was expressed. Further. quite the opposite. Generally. what we are is changing nonetheless.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 As such. It will not take away from the time that you must spend in solitude to do the bulk of your spiritual work. To whom much is given. another musing. Perhaps you should be a bit more flexible in this area. it is what it is. much is expected.. I chose it. neither is it a matter of doing. You are capable of including far more society in your life than you do . it shows up symbolically in many ways in my life. not only here but in some of the things that I do at work. I have one friend. Where is my life taking me? It seems to be time for a change again. she never does that. That does not matter. That seems to be a sad state of affairs for one who is over half a century old. but not society for the sake of society. Yet. it has come across as if God himself was speaking through you. If you’re reading this. In the extreme case. This particular existence wasn't forced upon me. but I know that this was something I decided that I would do. I don't regret that decision one moment.. you are in a position to judge for yourself whether what I say is true. corresponding directly to what I believe my abilities to be. Do not worry. Do more of that and experience what changes in your life. But. The very things you are being in the company of yourself. you start being in the company of others. "Your friends will know you better in the first moment you meet than your acquaintances will know you in a thousand years". But. 17 June 2009 Another day. Though. These are all organizations within your own consciousness. take it for what it is worth. A quote popped into my mind yesterday and just a moment ago on this. I rejoice in it. Though. I expect my impact on the world to be grand. you have noticed the differences in the very tone of this expression. We can never be other than we are.. but there are many factors keeping me precisely where I am. But then. There are many sources within you. We simply are what we are. Life is not static. even if that life is highly solitary in nature. how does one be what one has never been? You just do it. I believe that I deliver such... Only spirit has a right to do that . In fact. It is part of a greater whole . Some of your interactions with others are more open. It is enough that I expect grand things from me. From time to time. Actually.

at present. From your standpoint. Overall. it involves making a statement that the spiritual work that we do is worth something. So. we do this to ourself. the limitation imposed by our free time keeps us from doing much that we would do.. what about the Beyond Imagination 187 . it is all a stream of consciousness. my pleasure provides feedback to the part of me that is indeed choosing all of this. and we know that is far more than we do. I haven't expressed anything like that before. Yet.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 and the quality of the connection determine which source is able to make it through at a particular time. Though she does indeed move us. that is changing. Even spirit doesn't make any demands. but I can live happily essentially on my own as well. But. what more do I need? There is a sense that this expression only needs to reach an audience of one for it to be real. Why? Because we have caught a glimpse of what we are capable of . Bringing forth this expression is a gift that we give to the world. There is so much that we want to do in the context of Beyond Imagination. And even when we think that we know. perhaps it will not.. or our life would be different. At times we feel that such is indeed the case.. is it far more than we are? There. it is also obvious when the source changes. For the most part. There is no one else to create it. much of what we experience comes as consequences of what we choose. Then. we create what we experience. Though.. it made a difference to me. I am no longer attached to that outcome. Though. It would be nice if it happened. It is as if our efforts to change things are for naught. I am that audience. But. Yet. That is not to say that we will not change our mind. Does it make a difference one way or another? For a long time. the world makes no demands on us. but a good part of it. In fact. the consequences occur over time and are unpredictable making it difficult to link specific choices to specific consequences. it is not just that. There is no one else that has such power over our life. we are not willing to do it on a voluntary basis. Perhaps. Hmm . Then again. we expect abundance as our reward. that will always be the case. We also love parts of our work . We demand more of ourself than that. Though. But.. even though that would bring us to nearly 12 hours of work per day. We love doing this. if it is even possible at all. We have twice as much free time as we expend on this expression. Hmm . Though. We are already at our limit for that. Rather. We believe that such is precisely what it will take to achieve what we came to accomplish. I have been that audience for 16 years. this is not the only aspect to our life. there is a strong element of unpredictability. how are we to learn from our choices? Where is the feedback that allows us to make better choices in the future? Something within me is choosing every sentence that is expressed here. When it comes to choices and consequences. And. We are willing to do that. But. if we are to effectively give our life to it. I have complained of a lack of feedback from others but never considered that I was giving it to myself all along. The bottom line is that it is what it is. not all of it. No. Often.. we believe this expression to be that. we say that as if we cannot change what it is. we do not know why we choose what we choose. But. Being paid for our spiritual work would be enough incentive to double this. We are willing to create something worthy of that abundance. we know that at some level we create our reality. With that.. I am pleased with the consequences of those choices even though I am not aware of making them. there are almost always additional factors that are not conscious. it seems we still have a big surprise in store for us. 7 days per week.. That should be enough. We just limit our Beyond Imagination work to an average of 2 hours per day. Though. are we living the life that we would choose to live? It seems that we are. We love being who we are when we are doing this. but it seems that it is not.

but we can ask. we don't ask for much for ourself. I consider it to be a real bargain. At this point. there is no other hobby that has engaged us for as long as this expression.. Knowing that we are so close to living the life of our dreams and doing our spiritual work full time keeps us on the edge and makes live tolerable and even enjoyable at times. Collectively. But. Hmm . If there is something that I need to be or to do to facilitate this. And. And. Though. But. I also make my body so. And. Here. death with embrace us in its own timing. We will allow spirit to define it as we go along. that includes funding the Beyond Imagination endeavor for four years. and that I will have a major role in making it so. I work closely with a few. I don't even know what these medications do. that is from this expression... I am not the one that would be paying for it. show me the way. My state of health doesn't seem to impact how my mind functions. I take lithium. You would have thought by now that I would have learned how to make things so in my life.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 endeavor? What about our team of twelve? There is a strong sense that it is meant to be. This is what excites us and drives us to awaken each morning to face a new day. Though I was diagnosed as bipolar several months after this expression began in 1993. society. To date. that is not enough. Interesting. but it is still hanging in there. we don't ask for much. the plan is to continue with this expression for 5 hours per day. At the moment. How do we manifest this? This or something better for the good of all concerned. We are willing to do that because financial freedom allows us to choose to engage in the Beyond Imagination endeavor full time and get a team of twelve others engaged with us. a dozen or so will be sufficient. Indeed. The bottom line is that I do not know. That's a total of $5 million for past expression and $6 million for future expression. the team would be paid solely from the proceeds of my efforts. this we are willing to live for. In particular... That may not be true . we mean $1 per word for past and future expression. our soul's work . We are not in a position to demand more. But. we will be a vessel for her to express through in whatever manner best serves spirit. Since then I have been on medications. I call on spirit and the universe to help make it so.. we have gotten it into our head that what we have done and continue to do is deserving of financial freedom. It is operating well enough to allow me to do what I do. other than reading and watching TV an movies. this is far more than a hobby. that is what we ask. I will be more than glad to do my part. But. The only real thing of importance that I seem to be able to make so is this expression. We consider this to be our life's work. In my job. There is nothing that we are willing to die for . By financial freedom. Out of the synergy of the various parts of us coming together comes a creative expression that did not exist before. what will be created from this endeavor is still vague. I only know that when I am off of them or reduce them my 188 . but I've had a taste of it. 50 weeks per year for 4 years. we don't know.. There is a sense that this is not enough. for that.. I've been heavily into metaphysics since 1974. I need help. At the moment. I haven't experienced it much. depakote. Not a lot of others . Though. I know of the power of synergy. what we can to this planet to do in this incarnation. After that. this expression and the experiences we get from bringing it forth and from reading it have been our reward. and geodon daily. Perhaps I don't treat it as well as I should. 6 days per week. and the world. how that happens is still a mystery.. It will be time to see what spirit moves us to do next. I need others in my life to help trigger me to be all that I can be. How can we be so sure? We are willing to give our life to this.. we are willing to give everything. we experience the power of synergy every day. here. This is our heart's desire. Why is this not something that I can figure out? I'm a smart guy. I don't know that I would go so far as to call myself healthy. That has never been important to me. In general. That is what we ask.

This is what I am here to do .. It is not even 7:00 AM. There is a lot that we do not know. That my material abundance doesn't come from this pursuit yet seems not to matter. at some level we know.. It is up to the reader to fill in the meaning. It is in my very birthdate. We just observe what we are observing. Why would I do that? Why would I keep myself from doing more of what I love to do? There is a sense of what is enough and what is fair that comes into play. what could I do if I were medication free? How grand might the expression be then? We just won't know until the circumstances allow us to try and see. License plates also intrigue me. there are several that come to my attention. Every day. numbers that characterize my mission. How do we know that any of the meaning that is revealed is real? We don't. That has always characterized me. the 48: The Man in Search of More. I found that curious indeed. They reveal things to me everyday. I have known it for some time. Actually.. Though. when we say do not know. I know it. generally with variations of 2184 or 888. it does so regularly. it is a spiritual intelligence. Where would the expression take us next? That is an interesting question to ask. In fact. How do we judge it's utility? We don't really do that either. Would it do so for others who might read it? My sense is that it would. Why is that not enough? Why must I always be in search of more? Because.. Does being consumed with finding meaning in such ways make me crazy? If so. But. that doesn't stop us from doing them. and trust that utility will take care of itself. or we would not be 189 . indeed. in particular or my spiritual life. even about things that we do regularly. These are the final four of my SSN and their hexidecimal equivalent. I don't want to. but the states would be different for each reader. Yet. Numbers are such an important part of my life. there is a sense that flying in consciousness is my natural state and that if I were doing my spiritual work full time. that is not keeping me from extending my commitment. Last week I found out that 41:Wayne cubed = 68921 = WAYNE | The Hermit | The World. I am. that's how motivated I am to muse of late. that is part of who I am. Even then. I wouldn't have to function in the consensus world anyway. Clearly.. There is an intelligence operating behind the madness. The words expressed here can only point to meaning. This doesn't happen often. However. It seems that we always find what we are looking for . this expression is able to take us to other states of consciousness. Is that what this expression is meant to do? Will there ever be an audience to experience it? 18 June 2009 Getting an early start once again. except for keeping me from committing to doing this even more than I am. I feel that I am being more of who I am that at any other time in my life. what connections we are making. Further. Perhaps it always will. But. if I can express like this even under strong medications that alter my brain chemistry . not so much as in 1994 and 1995 where nearly every number I encountered in my life was analyzed for meaning. It just wouldn't matter. It is what it is. I have yet to find another who dallies with numbers in the way that I dally. I have been crazy for 16 years.. But. It is valid only to the degree that we find it useful in living our lives and in serving others.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 consciousness flies so high that I can't stay focused enough to function in the consensus world. In our case. no matter where we look or how we look. we are referring to consciously knowing. should it? When I am engaged in this expression.

We are far more than we may ever know. So much of how our life functions is unknown to us. efficiency. It is a matter of allowing them to play themselves out as the playwright scripted.. it is only known by the whole. I know that spirit expresses through me. I believe that there are parts of us that are the playwright. The source from which all of this flows is within ME. even if we are not aware of how these are generated. to challenge us. I know that I am a writer. neither do I consciously experience being the heart that pumps blood through my body or the lungs that breathe life into me. I don't consciously experience being that source. it has been the only aspect to date. consciousness. by being whom that we are. If this is truly a play in which we live. I know that I am Wayne. their products. is it even known at all? Or rather. it seems as if I am possessed. I know that I am alive. When I think about what I would do. What else do I know that truly matters? I know that being is far more important than doing. The mysterious and the miraculous make live interesting. I know that I am a metaphysician. the synergistic behavior. not all questions can be answered. But. sometimes it flows more easily at other times." I'm sure that there are more things that I know. is not known by any of the parts . But. Though. It is something that we should simply allow. I know that I am a systems engineer. Questions are good. soul. We are far more than we know. Far more goes on beneath the water so to speak. but what you do makes all the difference. Being should not be something that we have to work at. Though. Though there is such a thing as too much analysis. 190 . the emergent behavior. But then. That is far too restricting. I have also written that "Who you are counts for a lot. Note. At those times. This expression is that way. Though. it did not take practice to make it so. and spirit be any different. I know that the Beyond Imagination endeavor is my spiritual work. It was effortless from the very beginning. No sooner. Why should processes of mind. It seems that my choices should make a difference. the doing can be effortless. it is in that domain that we choose to dwell. Beyond Imagination is clearly at the summit of what I consider to be possible for me. no later. Though. We can see parts of us function without consciously being aware of the process. how do we do that? We do that be being us. Our questions provide directions for seeking this unchartered domain. that is good. I know that elegance. knowing that is not the same as experiencing that. Though. This expression is only one aspect of that. But. Yet. It is the doing that takes work. Though. But.. Though. The unknown is meant to entice us. Yet. even then. do they. is it simply a matter of being and doing as a result of that being? What does it mean to know something? Does it mean to be sure about it beyond a doubt? What things do I truly know? I know that I exist. When will that change? It will change when it is time for things to unfold differently. We can be aware of their works. That is what we desire to fathom to the degree that we can anyway. These operate in domains of their own. I know that I am not. do I have anything to do with that timing? It seems that I should. But.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 able to do the things that we do. But. Though. It is me. when we are doing what we love. But is that really true? In complex systems. that should not preclude us from trying to know what we are to the degree that we can. It is just that I don't consciously experience being these parts.. it may take a lot of practice for it to be effortless. Mystery is present everywhere. conscious experience is only the tip of the iceberg. but this is a good start.. And. and effectiveness move me. then the sequencing and timing of the events and the scenes may already be set. at least for the parts of the play that involve us. we did not say whom that we are conscious of being. I know that spirit moves me. I know that there are parts of me that I know only from their works in my life. Rather it should be something that unfolds naturally in our life. Some things are unknowable . And.

. we would consider it an opportunity once again. What is the difference? Why should there be a threshold? I could see that if there were something that is more important competing for my free time. there is still the strong sense that for financial freedom. It is for us to use all that we have been given to serve society and the world in some manner. Never before has anyone had the genetic makeup and the specific experiences that any one of us has had. Hmm . nothing about the tasks change at all. How can I do that? What am I versed in that qualifies me for such a position? It doesn't matter. When we think of extending our Beyond Imagination work from 20 to 40 hours per week without compensation. I would give up the habits that I consider to be a waste of my free time. I am what I am. But. and we are but actors on that stage. I am very reluctant to give it up for anything. and a grand one at that. Yet. except for this expression. Why do we restrict what we choose to do purely on the basis of whether we are compensated for it or not? There is just a sense that if it is worthy of being done.. That is enough. I do have to wonder why I am not moved to do more. Never ever. there is a need to know principle in operation. Any service not done in joy is no service at all. And. Further. the roles we choose to play are so diverse. Why isn't this sufficient justification to give them up now? At the moment. At some point. only half for which I am paid. What does that say about my world? I don't even read much any more. Though. That is all that is expected. Though. this would not be an issue.. Sacrifice is an attitude not an action. other than my interactions at work. Service is not meant to be a sacrifice. a giving up of something. that we serve is not. we do consider it to be a sacrifice of who we are. We serve most and best if we employ our God-given talents and abilities. We are one of the instruments through which she works. We have thought of it as an opportunity to express creatively.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 despite our best efforts at seeking answers. Some do and have a grand impact. You will know what is right for you by how you feel when you do it. It wouldn't cost 191 . there is a sense that nothing can stop us from doing it. Yet. Life is a stage. That doesn't mean that we have to share with many necessarily. That which we need to know will find its way to us when we need to know it.. Each of us is unique. it should be worthy of being paid for. we don't apply that logic to the effort that we currently expend expressing. Others make a difference to a few and have just as grand of an impact. But. Though. It is a fait accompli. The same exact service could be considered to be a blessing or a sacrifice depending on the attitude of the one that is doing it. In those two cases. that is not quite right. How we serve is up to us . Though. We serve most and best by sharing who we are. We have never thought of this expression in terms of giving anything up. I would lead the Beyond Imagination endeavor chartered to build the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh. if it were accompanied by abundance. My time again. It is in spirits able hands. These sources are the only real inputs from the outside that I have in my life. Watching TV and movies consumes about 15 hours per week. Something doesn't seem fair about that. if I were to use this time in my Beyond Imagination work.. enough is enough. The only difference is one of compensation. especially not a giving up of you.. that is not the case here. Nor will anyone again repeat the pattern. All that we have to do is BE who we are and DO what we are moved by spirit to do. There is easily another 15 to 20 hours per week that I could choose to employ differently than I do. they still give me some pleasure in my life. Also. It is strictly a matter of choice. this is what I am here to do. Though. at what cost? What could I do with another 15 hours per week in my life devoted to Beyond Imagination? That would make me even more one dimensional than I am. with much more to show for the time expended. my life would basically be all work .

the words impact me . There is no better or worse. Spirit will ensure that. and with prisons? Our Declaration of Independence made no such exceptions. We have not collectively accepted our interdependence and our oneness and the responsibility we have to care for one another that results from this.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 me a dime. clearly they are not. to spirit herself. At the same time. there is no room for doubt. But. groups are separated by race and/or nationality. By their works shall ye know them. even today. There is no greater or lesser. we can do what we came to do. Nor. It will flow naturally from what we have become. and by impacting me impact everything. We were all created by our creator in the image of our creator. It is just that for a long time the population of the world was such that nations could be relatively independent. have we come far enough? Cooperation is clearly not as prevalent as it could be. Feel the wonder of being spirit enfleshed. That would acknowledge our true state. what does it mean to be equal? We all have the rights to life. There can only be the appearance of separation. we have the resources to do this. Yet. It takes the deeds to demonstrate that we truly believe what we say. So. Appearance is never real. Know that is precisely what you are. The world is interdependent whether we like the fact or not. we need to BE something new. It is that simple.. one and all. We are on a quest to become aware of who we truly are. Words speak loudly. regardless of what those abilities are. and spiritual. If we want to experience something new. We are ONE. the powerful nations were always dependent on taking advantage of the less powerful ones. In most cities. We speak a lot of words here. That does not mean we all have the same abilities . and the pursuit of happiness. it has always been so. each and every one of us are equal. That we can choose to do at any moment. with murders. liberty. our choices do impact how much of that we realize. Within oneness. Why have we not established such a contract. what actions result from all of this.. Here. Once we have done that. is always something more. Even today. But. God has 192 . It is always a matter of choice. all of us experience. Things are never what they appear to be. even in this country. We've come a long way in the last 200 years. does it mean our abilities are equal even when they occur in the same area . but deeds speak louder than words. their reality. We are all connected to the same source within. Yet. Magnificent beings. liberty. Their essence. That is just how I operate. clearly we do not. mental. physical. Each and every one of us is unique. I do it. Collectively. We are all precious and wonderful beings. We are grand beings. one deserves to have ones needs met .. there can be no real separation. It seems that it is time to go a step further and proclaim a Declaration of Interdependence. The very services that individuals would provide are precisely those things that would be needed to meet needs. Everything except for the will to do it. That is not meant to be compared to anyone. And. But. and the pursuit of happiness are inalienable rights? How do we reconcile this with the death sentence. However. Even in this country. There is only what you are. I know that doing the same things in the same ways yield the same results. But even then. The choice to come here to express only begets more words. To believe otherwise is foolish. deciding to do something new generally doesn't happen easily for me. Don't get me wrong.. I have all that I need to be able to engage more fully in the Beyond Imagination endeavor. We don't have a social contract. I am definitely a creature of habit. But. it is not clear that true equality has embraced the land. do we life in a society where life. we can't choose what we were created to be. When I decide to do something. Further.. emotional. That is one thing beyond our control. segregation was accepted until the civil rights movement in the 60s. Yet. Anything any of us experience. We all have the right to having our needs met in exchange for doing something of service that comes from being whom that we are... Each and every one of us is special.. If one serves society to the best of ones abilities.

No exceptions. in whatever ways we choose to measure that. When any of these three things change. There is simply what we do and what we do not do. Indeed. But.. we express in a manner that leaves a record behind. our reality changes dramatically. then how do I control what proportion of the expression deals with feelings and emotions? But.. that effect is primarily on me. the strength of that connection depends on the impact that the expression has on them. for the older works. Though. We could assess how close the message expressed is to what spirit intended to express. I am doing it with full knowledge of the intended effect I desire to have. it may also be on others already. That is simply the nature of expression. words that come from the heart and soul rather than from the head. It is just that in the moment. That would suggest that I am experiencing whom that I am as I am expressing. it could also be on others at some point in the future. that is the case. but only the last one ultimately matters and there is no way that we know of to measure that. We could count the number of visitors to Beyond Imagination. abilities. there is also a sense that I have a connection with anyone who reads any of this. Have no clue as to what I wrote earlier. these are always a matter of choice. but often they must be developed through training and practice. that is typical for me. and understanding. That meaning may or may not be in agreement with the meaning that we derive. choices. Our circumstances..2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 ensured that by creating us to be what he created us to be. That is the nature of a stream of consciousness expression. are they? If I am not choosing what is expressed here. Words point to meaning . How do we assess how well we have done in bringing forth this expression? We could count the number of words. The impact is facilitated by the expression but must ultimately come from the reader. Actually. it already is. It is meant to be our masterpiece. That doesn't mean that it cannot be made better. Further. That is OK. there are no shoulds.. more to express. That we seem to be the only one that reads this record does not matter. Indeed. what came forth is lost to me. But. Though. Though. Every being has its place in the scheme of things. 19 June 2009 What would we express today? We never really know until we do it. Are we ever not expressing? Our very life is our most precious creative expression. and actions. we draw unto us via our beliefs. Until then. our reality changes. We could count what percentage of our material has been read by how many others. that may be the nature of life itself. And. We do some of that here. Right now.. But.. Hmm . it is the best that it can be given our circumstances. It is the reader that assigns meaning to all of this. We are thinking beings. All that has been expressed in the context of Beyond Imagination to date are thought forms . 193 . Our understanding grows as we develop and mature. In fact. there is more to do. Fortunately. but only to the degree that we put effort into it doing so. All of these would be measures. statements and questions. ever expressing and experiencing whom that it is as it expresses. but probably not near as often as we should. at some level. they do not carry it. Whenever I break for any amount of time. I am choosing the expression. When all of them change. It seems that we will know that we have expressed what spirit intended us to express when the expression ceases. what about other aspects of being? What about feelings? What about emotions? These too can be expressed in words. It does not matter that I consciously do not know on whom. Or. some words point better than others. Our abilities are innate and God-given.

we need no books. But. if indeed it has any rules. There is also far more that we can be than we can even imagine. The spiritual masters throughout the ages have discovered some of these laws. My interest is in the spiritual pursuits. but what does that mean? Yes. Though. But. It is the only game in town. we can only be whom that we are. At every level. We can go within to discover these laws for ourselves. that is as it needs to be for the moment. I am ONE. However. Regardless. that prevails. This was not something that I had to develop. it is the oneness. my soul. What do we know ourself to be? That doesn't really matter. they are far more that that. It is a matter of allowing who we are to spring forth from within into all that we do. in a similar manner. we are already that. Unfortunately. what might some of these spiritual laws / truths be? 194 . I speak about these things as if they were possessions. It is curious that I read so little of the works of others anymore. it does have laws. the patterns of vibration. We have not proven one thing that we have said. I consider it to be part of my spiritual inheritance. But. of choosing to be who we are. and my spirit. Here. It is what it is. We know that there is far more that we can do than that we presently do. Now. Here. They have always been there awaiting our discovery and application. we need no scripture. we need only to develop our consciousness and learn to tap the source within us. We have always trusted that there was something within us that could recognize what was true from what was not. We don't know what we know or how we know it anyway. But. Nor do I have any desire to rediscover it. Yet. Parts without which I would cease to exist. there is no sense that I am originating this. much less my mind. We are even willing to do things to change that. I generate enough material to create the equivalent of a sizeable book per quarter. I am not aware of doing the myriad of things necessary to even keep my body functioning. So. other than observing it coming through me. It was simply there. It is the only game that counts. as if they were true. the unity. Hmm . What comes forth comes forth. this faculty within us only seems to operate on certain types of truths and even then is not necessarily right all of the time. It is a matter of realizing it. It is the fount of all that we need to know and more. The greatest scientists throughout the ages have discovered some of these laws. I have not dealt with others enough to know whether they possess such a faculty as well. It is a matter of dropping the shields and removing the masks that we wear.. it is unusual for me to read a book a quarter. nor are we likely to do so. the illusion has a purpose. Collectively. It is a stream of consciousness. for the most part that was some time ago and what I learned is long gone. Though. It is a matter of choosing to do it.. it appears in my mind as a silent voice that I type. To some degree. through our whole being. universal and spiritual. We are open to that changing. We need to give people the opportunity to explore what spirit has been so kind to express through us. we express many things in the declarative. The focus that we have on being individuals provides the unique perspective that allows the creator to experience the creation through our eyes. They are integral parts of me. there is a difference between forcing something on others and offering it to them. most of us are never taught the rules of the game. I know that I am living. in the moment. While I studied math and science for many years. I can say that it is my stream of consciousness. We can do that. through which the creator created All That Is. my consciousness. We are open to whatever spirit would move us to do in that regard. We each are ONE. The separation is always only in the illusion. we do not see that it is for us to force our work on anyone. But.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 Apparently. This is an awareness game that we are playing. we are ONE as well. it has proved to be a useful faculty on which I could base my life. That used to be a major consumer of my free time. Yet. These very laws were the thoughts.

There is nothing here that takes a philosophy major or a religious scholar to understand. The power of the pen is mightier that the power of the sword. Separation is an illusion. Love unconditionally. Actions speak louder than words. Know thyself. being on your own can be a lonely place at times. and return to it whenever you like. Though you may find that many of the statements are difficult to realize or to implement in your life. Thoughts rule the world. Follow it so long as it serves you . We create our own reality. As you can probably tell by now. My path is one path.. Be all that you were created to be. and guidance every step of the way. Whenever there is a choice between love and fear. and created you to be something. I'm used to making up my path as I go. There is only oneness. I walked in the footsteps and mindsteps of many giants that came before me for many years. You are unique in all of creation. The creation is perfect in each moment. Love one another. Be YOU. You are a human being. You have a soul and it is glorious beyond measure. Each statement is simple. Though. You are a divine channel for the expression of spirit. God created you. It can never be otherwise. That is the number for the Master Teacher. I have stepped out on my own with spirits prompting. Ye shall reap what ye sow. It is not necessary to know who you are to be who you are. Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. choose love. Care for one another. Be kind. Peace always triumphs in the end. Interesting. I don't really 195 . exactly 33 statements. Doing flows forth naturally from being.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 The truth shall set you free. You are spirit enfleshed. You are spirit expressing as you and through you. The spiritual conquers any material force. there is nothing sacred about my list. blessing. Now. Feel free to use whatever serves you and look to the source within you for others that might more directly apply to you. Love conquers all. Everything is interconnected. That is OK. not a human doing. But.. Your life is unfolding perfectly at all times. I'm still in search of kindred spirits. Your purpose is to serve. Start with whatever ones are easiest and allow the rest to come with time. Also. It will be there.

And. And. However. we know not what that might be. Things are as they are. It seems that only time will tell. Anymore. There is too much inefficiency. where we have homelessness. Perhaps we judge too harshly. The outer always reflects the inner. But. we can do no wrong. what is expressed here will not be denied. There can only be the appearance of separation. In the world. we are meant to serve in joy. we know that there is more that we could do. 20 June 2009 Once again we come here to muse. what we sense. Where we have poverty. the system is failing. at least in terms of what they can express in our life. with spirit herself as the therapist. the system is failing. Who could ask for anything more? There is something special about being that connected internally. But. Of late. We need some new thinking. spirit is impacted... we have all of these things. We are all special and unique. Appearances are not real. Though. It is enough that it reaches us. but I doubt it. And. the system is failing. Yet. There are too many people struggling in ways that they should not have to struggle. I am not really sure that they are out there. Through reaching us. Perhaps it is a combination of both. Every life impacts every other life. at the moment. That is what life is all about. Here we also see what we desire. it is not even us consciously doing the expressing. So. What more could we ask for? The blank slate is receptive to whatsoever we would express. such is how it is for us. and everything and everyone to which and to whom we are connected is impacted whether they are aware of what we are being and doing or not. wish. Though something seems to be amiss. the solutions won't be found in doing more of the same. the system is failing. especially not with others. Further. We can dream and we can hope. Though. We are meant to find a way to serve. Oh well. what we feel. Society functions best when we are all doing this. the system is failing. There has to be a better way. By my account. the ONE that we are is impacted. why are we not expending resources on facilitating this. we can do more than that. we are meant to do something with that. Here. not just any way. Service. It is important enough that we spend more than a tithe of our waking time doing it. Perhaps if we build the foundations for a new world. This is a form of therapy for us. That and BEING. Where we have hopelessness and despair. the system is failing. we are more than that as well. but some way that uses our greatest gifts and talents. what we believe. We serve best when we are being all that we can be. And following her lead. or we are far more connected in the outer than we think we are. We 196 . Perhaps what we are doing collectively perfectly reflects what needs to be done in the moment. It does not matter who it reaches to us anymore. Here we get to see what we think. But.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 do anything to find them. We can take action. here we know that spirit guides us every step of the way. Things are not as they appear to be. some new ideas. dream. we see other than conscious parts of us reveal themselves. it is by far the highlight of my life. Though. and what we know. we do this nearly every day. some out of the box solutions. There can be no true separation. We are what we choose to be. things will be different. some new organization principle. Where we have crime and violence. it is curious that this is not reflected in our outer experience. Where we have war. We are ONE. Even in this country. and imagine. Perhaps . We do that nearly every day by coming here to express. We are what we were created to be. Either we are not so connected on the inner as we think that we are. Where we have hunger.. We are all grand beings.. we are not very connected at all .

they don't seem to be forthcoming. Those are the two choices. Our desires trigger these other than conscious levels to act. Some people seem to naturally attract friends and keep them for long periods of time. I allow spirit to express through me. Even if it cuts into our time here. Do we possess the wisdom to do that consciously? In a movie.. In so doing.. all that is left is who we are. I have been reluctant to exercise my will in such a manner. Another way to get there is to let go of what we are not. And. As part of that role. Though. So. it also seems that our roles could evolve as our life unfolds.. But we must look for the light and follow it to where it leads us. Though we have no idea regarding how to make it so yet. There are always many roads to the same destination. When we do this. This can be a challenge to many. Which do you choose? The latter of course. it is time to take a new tack. Regardless.. How does that impact the way we choose to live. we embrace the magic and the mystery of being who we are. not even close. that is not my way. or can be guided if we allow the light of spirit to show us the way. Though.. even if. it may take commands. Why? Is it that I prefer solitude? Perhaps . they are hurdles that we need to overcome to be who we were created to be. Each of these steps can be a major hurdle in our life. Spirit herself directs my life. I am the 48: The Man in Search of More for a reason. But why? It seems that I've reached a point in my life where I can use feedback from others to help me to better understand aspects of myself. at least not consciously. then we have to develop them. First we have to find our god given gifts and talents. At the same time. the way I choose to 197 . I don't know what to do to attract them. Do I have any sense of being the director of my life? At this point. command. Continue to do as you have done and continue to experience as you have experienced. Why should it be any different for the movie that is our life? But. the bottom line is no. it may take more than desires. Yet why should I not be able to command these forces to do my bidding? Yes. does it depend on the specific role. who we were created to be. Yes. for that I have to be willing to expend some effort getting to know them. It seems that there is much to do in the months ahead. But. That seems to fly in the face of cooperation. or do something new and experience something new. More of the same is simply not enough. And. it is not clear that I command anything in my life. It is time to start finding what I have been searching for. That can only happen if I change in significant ways. there is room for a director role to establish what needs to be done. It is always there.. It is time for my life to change in significant ways. That may not be our problem.. Will that change? Is that as it is meant to be . We should be able to enlist the forces within us that we need to do what it is they were designed to do. there is a director. I do not live my life in a manner that allows others the opportunity to get close to me. it seems that we are at a crossroads. Clearly. Perhaps I already have found it and simply did not realize it. Reality creation happens primarily on other than conscious levels. a strong desire it is. Hmm .. Then. I definitely choose it a lot.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 are meant to experience bliss and to follow that bliss wherever it leads us. But. in particular. It is for us to find and choose the ones that we will traverse. willing to do so. in particular. I wonder why that is. We still have the desire to manifest our commitment. And. Is this true for everyone? Or. which part of us would the director be? It is not necessarily the conscious part of us. But. It seems that I am missing something by not having close friends in my life. Every step along the path is guided . what role does the conscious part of us play? It experiences what we experience and it observes itself doing this. It seems that it might be role dependent. I am willing to do that as well. meant to be for me? I have no reason to believe that it will change. I mean it. I am willing to provide a mirror to others in the same manner. then we have to apply them in service in some manner. I play the role that is mine to play.

You would think that by now we would have run out of things to say. At least.. your life is not your own. This or something better for the good of all concerned. when you are moved to do it. At least. such is how it works in our life. how we would work. there is a sense that we may be signing up to too much. financial freedom is so important to us. if it is within at power. we would not still be waiting. once the bulk of our work is done. But. we consider it to be in their hands. Further. Such is how reality creation works. Though... it is not a task that we can do alone. But spirit does not seem to be so constrained. That doesn't seem to matter either. we are not doing it alone. it would be now. In many ways. and how we would interface with others. Whether you ever find another engaged in the same task or not. will it come true? Spirit and the universe know precisely what we have asked for. is this truly what we desire to manifest? It seems that if the answers to these questions were yes. Though. It seems that we have made a compelling case for enabling the Beyond Imagination endeavor to spread its wings and fly. But. You've know that since this expression began . When will it do so? Only time will tell.. We would build the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh. There is a sense that it is already manifest . we would like the opportunity to try and see. that we are willing to do what it takes to achieve it. we would already be experiencing what we choose to do with our life and our work. We do a lot of new things in this expression. to more than we should rightfully expect from ourself. it seems compelling enough to us.. To a great degree. Besides. even if we were expressing for five hours per day rather than two. We have never been moved to do anything like it before. What does it take to manifest that commitment? We would need a influx of resources. we surely would have. but it seems to be a necessary one. There is so much that we know could be done by us. Though. since spirit began 198 .2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 live? We shall see soon enough. rather it is a matter of what is fair for us to take on. That is for a force that is beyond us to determine. That is a big task. And. There will be time to rest later. Your role will unfold precisely as it is meant to unfold to allow spirit to do what she can through you. Our commitment or something better will manifest. But. who is to decide what is fair? We expect a lot from ourself. or are we? Is it within our power to manifest this? And. If we say that enough. if we were doing it. does not matter. spirit can move us to adjust the terms as needed.. Though we stand ready to do what we are moved to do to facilitate manifesting what we have asked for. indeed. It doesn't take much of a change in the moment to yield a dramatically different result. If that is less than what we have expressed in our commitment. if we were to have our way.. There is a sense that we should commit to doing precisely that while we are still young enough to do it. Those who have roles to play in doing this are already aware and are already doing what they are meant to do to build these foundations. Yet. What matters is that you continue to do what you are moved to do. It is not a matter of what we are willing to do. In every musing there is something that has not been expressed before. We do not claim to be the authority regarding where our gifts and abilities can best be applied. we consider this expression a resource that we would exchange for the resources that we need.. Our commitment defines what we would do for the next four years. it has just not reached us yet. How can that be. Now is the only time in which anything can manifest. Though. At least. There is a sense that she could continue doing this forever . how we would live. our commitment is something new. how can that be? How can we be certain of that? That doesn't matter either. We know that. it seems that we are not the one who needs to be convinced .

and to your world. She is all of these things and more. Yes. The only place and time that ever exist are here and now. You can be things that no one else can be. however. Have a business trip at the end of the week in conjunction with a visit to see my niece Jamie. you are experiencing your life. what would we have steer the course of self through this existence? We would have spirit herself steer our ship. You shoulder that burden. to society. That is where our beingness lives. The very fact that you are alive is something to be happy about. it may stretch beyond time and space as well. But spirit is ourself too.. Take joy in that. it does not matter. none of that matters either while you are engaged in this particular existence. And. You evaluate what you have learned and what you have done and determine where in the grid to plan another life. We know that she knows what she is doing. and you can choose to be anyone. even that is not enough to bring a smile to my face.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 expressing through you in this manner. In fact. in the precious moment. You see it as part of your destiny. only we can make us happy. Who better to guide us through life? Indeed. You can't smile and not be happy. I'll bring my netbook along so I should be able to muse each evening and while I'm waiting for the plane. Though. time and space reign supreme. Can it be that simple? Choose to smile more often. 21 June 2009 Musing on a Sunday once again. But. This phenomena of self-reflection is still relatively rare. Take joy in being who you are. So. one has to wonder why you would choose to do that. Find something to be happy about. you will return to a realm where time and space do not exist. we do that by choosing to be so. You are a special being. For. and you are observing yourself experiencing. And. Take joy in all that you were created to be and all that you can do by being that.. I do love to muse. You can do things that no one else can do. Not many choose to live a life of spirit as you have done. Though. It makes for a great way to start off the week. and our soul. What would be enough? Is there anything that would be enough? It seems that things do not make us happy. Trust that your life is unfolding as it must. It doesn't have to be that way. even within that realm. here. how would things be organized in such a realm? Clearly not linearly. And. That is not enough to make me happy. you bear it gladly. Remember. You can start anywhere on the grid. It can exist in no other place. much of that seems to happen automatically. 199 . but it is limited at best. you were not always here. you do this. There is much to be joyful for. And. Not many have experience a spiritual awakening. It is all good. she knows what is in our best interest and the best interest of all concerned. That very act sets you up to experience being happy. right here and right now. nor do experiences . Though. What does it mean to stretch beyond time and space? It means to enter a realm where time and space are not. Happiness is not something we search for. the moment. and you can make any choices within the context of whom you are being. You can only choose what you are being and doing here and now. between existences. Your conscious has its utility. who better? But what about ourself? Is this not ultimately our responsibility? That is true. unique in all of creation. ever. Possibly on the plane as well. You can live your life more consciously. But. in the only way that it can. Take joy in that as well. and you will not be here forever. and you are observing yourself observing yourself. These are marks of distinction for you. Though. If that works travel will be easier to live with when I have to do it. You know that. But. and our consciousness. Happiness is something we find in the very place that we are. This is the realm in which you exist. But. your spiritual life continues. they come with a sacred responsibility to apply yourself in service to spirit. Rejoice in that. even then. In particular.

but a commitment nonetheless. Spirit cannot do this for us. That. Should we be willing to do all of this unconditionally? Is not this the greatest act of love in our life. know. Such is how it is. Not just believe. I can live with being a channel through which spirit speaks. they add a richness to what we experience.. we have to know that we are worthy of what we need and what we desire. The Beyond Imagination endeavor is meant to spread its wings and fly. Doing this well. Has the path that we have followed led us somewhere of value. There is a richness to life. The most valuable thing that we have to give is to share of who we are. But. I can live with that. regardless. a conditional one. Where is all of this leading? This expression has been going on for over 16 years . But. Though. listen to it. In the moment. what about over the course of time. But. it seems that it could be any day now. She can guide us. but how can we be certain that we really know them and are not just fooling ourself? I feel. We allow spirit to manifest it for us.. 6CYU219 was parked on the road today. is not love unconditional? Love is unconditional. Though. Further. I think. Where it goes. We just don't know how to extract that value yet. Though. We have to choose the life that we would live. Do what you are moved to do and trust that you 200 . How close. We simply express what would come forth through us. I perceive. We can do that now. To me these are all signs that the transformation of the Beyond Imagination expression to the Beyond Imagination endeavor is close at hand. it seems that is true for each and every one of us. The time is ripe for doing that. what does that mean for what we ae choosing to express here? Trust. and choosing to make a commitment . I believe. My license plate is 6GVU219 and there is another car on our street in Cathedral City with 6---219. only spirit knows. she can do her works through us if we allow her to. We believe that it has led us to an abundance of words that have a value all their own. or even a waypoint in sight. So. It is for us to experience that and take joy in it. requires knowing who we are. But. There you will find all that you seek and more. often we can be who we are without necessarily knowing who we are. If I am to be more than that. The expression goes on and on and on. definitely. They seem to have a meaning within the context of the expression. Life is a precious gift that we have been given. How can that be? What am I doing to facilitate this? At the moment. I don't know. these are all statement that we make about statements and experiences in our life. I sense. 2173 = 888(16) 11:The Master from the U left. That is the key to getting anything that we need. Can we make that happen? We know that we can.. it does not seem to matter. I am good with that as well. we know that it is coming. And. she cannot live our life for us. They are what they are. That is something only we can do. We have only to find that source within. Though. there is a sense that I am doing precisely what I need to be doing at this moment in my life. If we did.. It seems that there are many terms that I use without having a clear understanding of what they mean. it is up to us. And. or it simply is not love. It is just a matter of resources. our life and our work would be substantially different already. all that I am doing is continuing to express. Further. and do what it says. There is no ultimate hierarchy to these terms. I know . That is OK. It will happen when it happens. It is for us to return the favor and give back something of value in return. They are different modalities of experiencing our self and the world. How do we know what we know? We can state that we know a lot of things..2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 Guiding us is her job.. literally. But. is there a point to it? Is there an end. We believe that it has. 2196 = 888(16) + 12 = our team of twelve to the right. We have only to allow her to do it. all life. Be still and go within. it is interesting that this stream of consciousness can convey things that I do not understand.

I just need 201 . This expression is the thing that I most love to do. That is OK. I could save money by doing them myself. Unfortunately. we also know that God help those who help themselves. The universe will see to it that your every need is met . Where will we be one year from now? January marks the beginning of the 22:74(88) = 2010 year. our memory is sketchy at best. People with far less education than I have are able to do it and do it well. But. even then. Roughly half an hour of walking seven days a week is just not sufficient exercise for us. Why should God do what we can do perfectly well ourselves? Focus on being YOU.. we seem to remember more than we used to. neither does the cafeteria food seem to be. not reduce it. It is just a matter of recording what we want to watch and then fastforwarding through the commercials. In general the expression is relatively simple and easy to understand. at present. But. when we think about things. We don't really need a full meal to get through the workday. perhaps we have something to offer.. Yet. From the limited feedback that I've received. If anything. to do more. Cutting back on our Beyond Imagination work is not an option. the doing. But. not the same things every time. If people are looking for something structured to follow. a salad. this is probably not the place to come. that would come to half an hour per day. I was born in 1958 = 22:22(88). but I don't really think so. will come of its own accord. I know. Perhaps. 74 is the number for the Benefactor. if they are looking for something to blow their mind and expand their consciousness. That would be enough. As you do so. Perhaps some day . However. I don't have the option of choosing to do that for more money. Why am I not yet paid to do this? For one thing. even those things you know not that you need. it is different. No time for lunch once again. We do that several times a week. we have to cut back on something else. Will I do that? It involves buying another electronics box and learning how to use it. it seems this is not enough. It seems healthy. all that you truly need will find its way into your life. It doesn't matter that I have a masters degree in electrical engineering. For those things that I don't like to do that need to be done. Tonight we'll have a sandwich from Subway. I am open to paying others the going rate to do them. and even some day soon. and some chips. We say perhaps because we don't know how others will be impacted by any of this. Though. it is not clear that the books were read. You don't need to act to be YOU. Perhaps that is too much to expect from people. Perhaps the nature of the books is such that they are difficult to read and to understand. For some reason. for spirit and for myself. We only know how we have been impacted. Yes. Though. The other thing that consumes our free time is watching TV and movies. That is probably not the best for our health. that does not come easy to me. I'd rather spend more time doing what I do well.. we would choose to increase that. The acting. We did well yesterday with fruit. Though. That doesn't matter. There are things that I like to do and things that I don't. I am willing to do that. but we are still far heavier than we need to be. Perhaps I will become the benefactor for the Beyond Imagination endeavor. Though.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 will be cared for. And. who am I doing it for? Clearly. But. you simply need to be. Doing wiring around the house baffles me as well.. and that could take some getting used to. If we could just cut out the commercials from the shows we do watch. is that all? Few others have seen much of anything that has been expressed here. 22 June 2009 Another busy day. we do walk every day. it can't be that difficult. Though. Why is that? I have probably given out two dozen books to others in hopes that they would read them and provide feedback.

Is that too much to ask? We don't ask for much in our life.. I'm just trying to control one thing . Thus far. but do we know for sure? As sure as we can be at this point in our life.. But.. That is asking a lot of ourself. of the universe. create sufficient abundance to allow the Beyond Imagination endeavor to spread its wings and fly. We ask only to do more of it.5 million per year for future expression. there are times when you choose to experience new things or choose to experience old things in new ways. That comes to $5 million for past expression and $1. our choices impact that. Though. There is always an element of uncertainty however. when you are making the right choice for you and all concerned. but it seems not to the degree that people might like to think. of consciousness. Yes. but there is a price that we pay for it. most do not . Yet. we are confronted with choices. namely $1 per word. But. do we expect our desire to be answered? We have no history to confirm or deny that this process of asking indeed works.. be they good. We have calculated how much we would need . To a great degree. of whom do we ask? We ask of ourself. as will your memory of what happened. there are things that we can do control the consequences. what else have we to do that is a better use of our abilities and time? So. of spirit... this. You can do that with your memories. That price involves being away from our family every week and doing the bidding of my employer. Surely. Unfortunately.. so we can never control everything. your choices are a matter of habit. it does not really matter what caused you to make the choice. what does it take to manifest it? We believe that this is what we want to do . what are we willing to give up to get what we want? Why should we have to give up anything to be able to serve spirit and the world in the manner that we are moved to do? There is something about there being a price that we must be willing to pay. Yes. But then. you will still reap the consequences. We have found nothing else that we would rather do. we truly desire with all our heart and soul. But. Choices always beget consequences.. Choices. even of God. 202 . But. how much the choice matters to you may have no bearing on how much it matters to the universe. it can be expressed that simple. That has taken us 16 years. The bottom line is that our life unfolds as it will. We may not like the consequences that come from it. not really anyway. We would double that output in as little as four years. your experience will literally change . it is as if you have no choice. But.. or neutral. Life is all about making choices. bad.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 the abundance to back me up. We have found nothing else that matches this expression. I decide what needs to be done and how to do it. and to expand the Beyond Imagination endeavor to include others. What about creating our own reality? What about it? Is not much that you experience a matter of how you feel about what is happening in your life and in your world? Does it really matter whether you create what happens of not? Is not the experience of your reality the same in either case? Why do you choose as you do? Do you even know most of the time? Often. we have created an abundance of words. You can evaluate and experience them in a whole new light. Hmm . it seems while some choices matter. whether the choice was made via conscious free will or by direction from higher parts of you.. there must be more than this. everywhere we look. However. so I want Beyond Imagination to be able to soar. Though. how do we generate abundance in our lives? We create it. In my life. For those. When you do so. Just as I am able to soar in consciousness. there is significant freedom in how I choose to spend my time at work.. But. It seems that our choices primarily determine the meaning that we assign to what we experience and how we feel about that. You will be moved to make the choices that matter most correctly. at least some of them anyway. we need to translate an abundance of words into an abundance of wealth.. we have stability in our life. So. even there. What could that be? Right now.

That was before the medications altered our brain chemistry and impacted our fine motor coordination. Would that be enough to make me happy? Can something external ever make us happy? Or. I am open to accepting responsibilities. Yet. You have a nice home and a nice cabin in the mountains. Can that have been a dozen years ago already? Indeed. That means 203 . Is that enough? It has to be. Yes. I feel a higher calling pulling me to be and do more than I have ever done before. why am I not choosing to enjoy life and be happy? Indeed. giving up nearly six hours for a round of golf is not something I would choose to do anymore. We have more important things to do with our free time. so is my entire world. I'm willing to accept them.. Or. Now. how can you? But. If it were. You have enough free time to watch your favorite shows and movies. Though it is OK if only spirit and me experience what comes forth. and sure enough they're yours. why aren't you? There are many things to be grateful for in your life. finances are such that I could not afford to golf anyway. Our belief is strong enough for us to choose to ask. Is that what I am doing. Just participating in this grand expression should be more than sufficient . but as my fair share of the workload. In this realm. 51 years have led us to where we are now. it seems that it is a matter for belief. But. is that more than mere wishful thinking? Is that an avoidance of taking responsibility and doing what it takes? That has not been our way. There is a sense that we have assisted the process by doing what we could do. enough that we did it nearly every weekend. but it may also be worse. even if the fine muscle coordination were to return. Six hours here results in 6000 words that did not exist before . What does it take for me to be happy? That should be such an easy thing to be. Do we consider that what we ask is within our power to grant? The bottom line is that we do not. Allowing life to become stagnant however is not a wise choice at all. So. it would not necessarily have been a better place. we might be in a different place than we now are. But. and twice some weekends.. Then. I bear these not as burdens. You have a job that you like that is almost sufficient to pay the bills. we do not know. You engage in your spiritual work for over 15 hours per week. it is not. free from all limitations anyway. If it did. how can you ever expect to receive more? Indeed. and three loving furry children. but it is there nonetheless. So. You have a loving wife. Happiness does not come from what we do. But. it must come from what we are choosing to be. When I am changed by experiencing this expression. but. I believe this share to be proportionate to the gifts that we are given. change the consequences that I experience in my life? Richard Bach in Illusion: The Adventures of a Reluctant Messiah said: Argue for your limitations. and accept them gladly. But. What more could you ask for? Are you truly grateful for all that you already have in your life? Until you are. and potentially words that move others.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 That does not stop us from choosing to ask anyway. by doing what we were moved to do. does it? Is it not within my power to choose again and change it . At some level. arguing for my limitations? I would be free. something we must find within us. I would have found it long ago. Also. it can. I am connected to everyone and everything. whatever they might be.. words that move me. Further. we could just manifest it. I can imagine my life being different. The effect may be subtle. Knowing that my gifts are what they are. is happiness an inside job. had we made different choices. should it be? Our life is precisely what it is for a reason. what more could I ask for? I ask for the terms of my commitment to be manifest. Have we done that? What would we do to bring the life back into our life? When was the last time that we remember it being there? We used to enjoy golfing. I expect my responsibilities to be great.. We wouldn't have to look beyond us for help. Different may be better..

such steps are revealed to us by spirit in the moment. We don't always succeed . Nearly anything will do. At the moment. But. The choice will be obvious. time that it takes to absorb and experience what is needed to be able to express. 23 June 2009 Again we come here to express. That is the process for you to follow. Sometimes that can be a problem.. I still find it to be distasteful to be judged in any way. But. Get beyond the thinking and just do it. what keeps me on such a solitary path? And. it does not come from being judged by others. It is good to have such filters for they set a direction for your life. But choose to do something. You are quite observant overall. That means doing whatever it takes to bring something different. When it comes time to do something. and about your world. Be the grandest YOU that you can conceive of yourself to be. even at work. They may prevent you from seeing certain things about yourself. what could that be. Appearances are not real. But. But. growing up. At the very least. but you usually notice them. I need solitude even there to allow me to do 204 . In our dealings with ourself and with others. the grandiosity rears its head again. these are things that you have no need to see anyway. Yes. You don't always take the ones that are laid out for you. The first step is to awaken to the possibility. primarily spiritual ones. that color everything that you perceive. Not that we do much else other than work and watch TV and movies... is that likely to change anytime soon? To some degree. you are particular about what you observe. much that I do is on my own. But.. Far more observant than most by the way.. we don't know how to do that. At times I can still be harsh on myself for not being all that I could be or doing all that I could do. For the most part. what have we to lose? We have an entire world to gain. It seems that we have done that or are in the process of doing that. they may blind you to certain things as well. what else am I to think? If all of this had come forth through you. and much of what you choose to do as well. The downside is minimal. this very expression requires some amount of solitude. Enough of that. about others. or if it does. something different. But. this was far worse than it is now. that doesn't happen in my life . Be careful not to limit what you conceive YOU to be. the outcome is positive. Though. that may not be the way these particular steps are revealed. For me. what would you think? Surely. Do something that stretches and challenges you to be more of whom that you are. and when will I be moved to do it. Why would you choose to do so? Don't. What is the next step? Generally. it will only be so if we make it so. Or. Besides. there is something I was meant to do that is above and beyond anything that I have done to date . there is still fear associated with being judged. be aware that the filters are there. we strive to be real. It doesn't really matter what. Doing as you have always done results in the same experiences that you have always had. Do something new. They involve putting on a mask of some kind that may or may not present who you truly are. Yet. So. God did not limit YOU. but to succeed you must at least try. But also. Most of the choices in your life are obvious. you will naturally know what to do. Usually. something far more grand and glorious into my life.. And from that YOU. something that this doesn't even touch. Start this very moment. But. However. this doesn't have to be anywhere near as much time as I give to it. You have a big set of filters. Yes. Here we are refreshed and rejuvenated as we are nowhere else. fear can come into play. But. we strive to be authentic. Clearly it could be worse. I'm overly sensitive in this area. Be YOU. it could be better. Yet.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 not accepting the status quo. we think that we don't know how to do that. the time that it takes to express. Be aware that things are not as they appear to be. No. Such has our life come to. do what comes naturally. just as clearly.

everything takes time. But. You have at least two hours of free time per day that you could apply to the Beyond Imagination endeavor. The exceptions are for taking in new information. Yet. We know that things unfold in our life exactly as they are meant to unfold. much longer than that if you count the 19 years of prep time studying metaphysics prior to this expression being born. But. For the moment. it is enough that I can express and am moved to do so on a regular basis. it is grandiose of me to think that. There I need others to contribute. bringing forth new expression still is #1 in priority for us. If this were our only job. But. if I am right. Finally. you could apply the time to some of the backlog of projects or to finding others to join forces with you. However. At the end of this month we will have another quarter worth of musings to compile and another Best Quotes work to put on the to do list. We know. it would not even be a hardship for you to do so. There is a reason all of this is coming forth. there are special topic works that we would do. This may require extending beyond your comfort zones and doing things that it takes a team of people to do. We go on and on and on here. We have been building our abundance for over 16 years. I am no stranger to grandiose thinking. at least in the work environment. six days per week. that is easier said than done for you. at least I will have tried to the best of my abilities and hopefully have left something of value behind for my efforts. Actually. It appears that time is of the essence. more ready than we have been for anything in our life. an opportunity will have been seized and I will have accomplished something important with my life. that would still leave sufficient time to do everything else that we want to do including interacting with others we hire to support the Beyond Imagination endeavor. I am compelled to do more than most. You are not used to reaching out to others. We are not saying that you have to write more. Further. a small Best of Beyond Imagination work that showcases the best quotes from over 16 years of expression. Then. however. much less asking for their help. remains to be seen. I know that is time and a half to double time for most. We need to exchange them for an abundance of funds at the rate of $1 per word.. Still. And. why haven't you decided to do more already? That is a choice you can make at any time. I'm curious as to how long it will be until I decide to expend even more time on the Beyond Imagination endeavor. we know that your timing is perfect. There is about a years worth of musings that I haven't even read. Perhaps I will never know what that is. that is part of what you are meant 205 . Do what you can regardless of the circumstances that come your way. We have an abundance of words. Yet. our commitment would have us extend our musing time from two hours to five hours per day. So. and I consider fulltime to be 60-80 hours per week. In fact. we can't understand what we are waiting for.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 what I do. This four year period from 2009-2013 is a window of opportunity. There is a backlog of things to do that I have not gotten around to doing. I can't believe that all of this is in vain . When will it come to an end.. But. this expression will be a major part of my life. All that it takes to actualize our dream is resources. If I could have my way this moment. Perhaps it shouldn't be. fifty weeks per year. You already know that you can do more than you do. I sense that will apply to the Beyond Imagination endeavor as well. all that has been brought forth to date. Yes. That is OK. it would become my fulltime job . I am compelled because I see that I have abilities that could serve the world at a time when it needs them most. Indeed. And. a reason that extends beyond anything that I have been able to conceive of to date. If I am wrong. There is a sense that so long as I am breathing. We are ready. Besides. or all that will be brought forth. it would become a far more major part of my life. we have no desire to change that. Whether it does or not. And. Yes. it is what it is. we have at least three Best Quotes works to do. it is up to you to be creative and do whatever it takes...

there is always another day. Yes. Things are coming together in ways that are beyond imagination. what is there that I want to BE? That is the more important question. You do not have to be.. we should only need to take baby steps for a little while. it is time to grow up. There is a heightened sense of anticipation. overall. I don't own a cell phone. I'm working on that.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 to do. Just because you see that something needs to be done... I have had a web site for 14 years. It gives me a place to post this expression. then by someone else whose job it is. I don't need more things. We know that you don't choose to be a public figure. In some areas. I would hire someone to give the site a facelift and make it more accessible. Focus on the being. Smile. Interesting. and I need sufficient resources to fund the Beyond Imagination endeavor. You can count on that not only in your life but in your world. trusting that spirit is orchestrating the whole endeavor.. But. What does that say about how I've embraced information technology? But. I've experienced every word of this expression both as it came forth 206 . You have the desire to do that as well. Though. baby steps are necessary. a sense that I want to get on with it . how many is many? For now. But. You have the abilities to do that. I want more out of life.. Though. I'm not sure how I would do that at the moment. Trust that spirit herself is ensuring that everything is not only getting done but getting done correctly. I need no outside verification of that. or by harnessing the new energies that are being unleashed. Everything that needs to get done will get done. You do not need to control anything. But. Hmm . you do not see them sharing in the responsibilities. interactive. it seems that it might be time to speak in more than words. you already know that. That says the expression is unique. It would also help to develop some friendships along the way. little by little anyway. and don't even access the internet from the three home locations where I have computers. She has been doing that since the expression began. a dozen plus you will suffice. As a result. if not by you. For. Though. How can we cope with that? We cope by either shutting down. Though. and focus your efforts on what you do best. But.. That is OK.. does not mean that it is yours to do. No one can express in the manner that you express . you are still thinking in terms of others playing a subordinate role. She will continue to orchestrate as Beyond Imagination grows into an endeavor of many. I need more time to carry out my spiritual mission. it is not something that is completely out of the question. if I had the resources. or we would not be able to bring this forth. that is precisely what she is doing. Though. You just need to allow it to unfold as it will . That may mean that you have to stop the ceaseless doing for awhile. rarely use the phone I have. What I do will flow naturally from what I am being . you err in how you see the Beyond Imagination endeavor functioning. no one else in the entire world. The material is there for the finding.. and user friendly. it always does. Interesting. since before the days when it became a popular thing to do. at least those who are metaphysically inclined. In an information age. Not that it seems to have done much good. Then. Open things up. Also. the technologies of information are you friends. In particular. There is so much that I want to do. Here. Allow others to do what they do best. few had found it to my Beyond Imagination site. allowing everyone to do their parts.. get on with the life that I am meant to live. Most of it involves the Beyond Imagination endeavor. that means that my present life is not sufficient in some ways.. though more financial abundance would be helpful. We don't want to scare you. If you don't get to something today. I need something that drags the world to my door . For now anyway. you do not see them as equals.. This seems to be one of those.. It doesn't say whether it is good. Be happy. You do not see them as making the commitment that you are making.

. however. Trust that your best is always good enough. it has been a self-imposed hardship. we didn't even seek such a position. It may even allow you to do what you do well. in whatever the right direction is for us now. I make no claims that what I experience is universally valid in any way. you do enjoy the company of others at least occasionally. I offer it as my experience and my understanding. spirit herself. Overall. even our freedom.. Yet. What do I know about how the other than conscious parts of us function? The bottom line is not much. one more to our liking that did not require such a commute and so much time away from home? Perhaps. That is OK for awhile. Now. We've been commuting every week to our present job for close to 13 years. If so.. That requires exchanging what we produce here for the money necessary to fund our abundance and the 207 . But. Beyond Imagination is our life's work. that requires something that we have not been able to make happen in 16 years. but we can definitely make steps in a new direction ... Indeed. that is hard to imagine for the parts of the expression that have yet to be posted. at least for the next four years. to bring forth a stream of consciousness. that is what it is. What warrants such a trust? It has been there since this expression began. are we missing something? Is there more that we could learn from our present circumstances? Something that outweighs anything that we have consider to date.. Then again. It is never the other way around. There is a strong sense that we must step out of our own way if we are to allow what is coming to us to indeed come to us. That is a long time to endure such circumstances. But. That is simply what we are moved to do. there is about a years worth of expression that remains unread at the moment. Find ways to share who you are with others. But. DOING flows from BEING. Or. Do what you can. For when you are being you. It did not matter to us. but they are there nonetheless. But. At the same time. In fact. Though. We can't go as far as we would like. is our perception accurate in this case. Can we embark on a new course in our life without any external stimulus? Indeed we can. though many people are so busy doing that they lose themselves in their activity. you realize the oneness. But. you realize you connectedness with everything and everyone. You don't do that nearly enough. perhaps there are others reading this of whom I am not aware. I only know that there is something that allows me to do this . and before that as a trust in my intuition and a knowingness of what was right and wrong at least for me. we have not been in a position to change our circumstances as far as we could tell. You are someone who is someone. we don't discount that we might be overlooking something. Use it if you find that it has utility in your life. All that is left is the matter of making it so. a deliverance. We would facilitate our own deliverance. They may be at the periphery of what you experience as the core of you. There are others in your life right now. How can that be? How can we bring forth creative expression that no one on earth is reading? That is simply what we choose to do. OK. We've come a long way today. Though. something important. Indeed. Part of it is a trust in the source. Though. Was it within our power to find a new job. we have decided how we want to live and how we want to work . what might that be? That we are asking the question is a good sign. there is still more to be expressed. We do not see how we can help ourself to manifest it. it seems we need help. it seems to be time to make new choices. in the end you are more than someone who does something. We would make it our sole work. While you clearly prefer your own company. It is also our soul's work. You can't BE YOU without sharing YOU. Only then should you consider what you should do. For that. the experience has been positive.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 and then again reading it later. we were resigned to our situation. Take it for what its worth.

we would be in a position to at least suggest if not direct what needed to be done and 208 . 24 June 2009 We've had a good week thus far . We have to find more. lots of expression. There are probably less than 100 people who would recognize our face or even know our name . this will effectively be reduced by about half. Actually. and do so on a regular basis. if we were able to fund the Beyond Imagination endeavor. Yet. Though. But. those others do not even know that Beyond Imagination exists and desires their involvement. we have known the value of this expression. That's less than two people for every year that I have been on the planet to date. another dozen friends of my wife. What have I done by comparison? This expression is what I have to show for my having lived to date. has my life truly touched anyone? It has touched me.. Only we have the power to limit us. Is it enough? It has to be . Two dozen are family. That takes us over the half time mark. It is not that I haven't tried. Why don't we experience that? Why don't we experience what we know? It is enough for us to experience what we do experience. If only we could do more. If the terms of our commitment are realized. Yet. even in a slow economy. All along.. that is not our forte. or sufficient buyers to generate the abundance that we need? Clearly. No one else. But. and the remainder are coworkers. But. where do we go to find a buyer. what happens when what we choose to do involves others. That is curious because one of our fields of expertise at work is requirements. In his short life.. I've just done it in my own way. that speaks more about my aversion to relationships than it does to anything else. That should not be a hardship. But. That's it. We even self-published nine Beyond Imagination books. another dozen are acquaintances.. we allow spirit to express through us. Though. It is enough for us to express what would come forth through us. it requires a deliberate choice on our part. With inflation. at least initially. By comparison. That's everyone that I am aware are even aware that I exist. We are being generous there. we can do more. Though. of deciding to make it so. Spirit established that at $1 per word over a decade ago. It is a matter of making different choices as to where we are expending our free time. That may be one of the few things that we do control. We'll stick with the original price. It is enough for us to BE us. It seems that two hours per day devoted to the Beyond Imagination endeavor is simply not enough. I give my whole life to spirit and my whole spirit to life. in the entire world. that seems to be a selfish way to live. as we experience who we are how do we find the self-imposed chains that bind us? We know they are there. we know all the while that we ARE spirit.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 Beyond Imagination endeavor. we are not in a position to require anything. We took our failures to be signs that our methods were flawed or the times we not right. But. We have control over what we choose to do with our free time. I say that I live a life of spirit. We know they are self-imposed because they can be nothing else. With the exception of my housemates and business trips. it is all that I have done. the value should have doubled by now. We almost said requires their involvement. I have not even been to dinner with anyone I work with in the 13 years that I've been here. distant and aloof for the most part. my housemates son died at 33 recently. We should be able to do that. But. There were over 300 people at his funeral service.. our efforts have been in vain. We've attempted to sell works produced from this expression a half dozen times or so over the course of the years. we won't be greedy. as it does with the Beyond Imagination endeavor? At the moment. We can start with targeting three hours per day. It is a matter of having the will to do that. There are no bonds with my coworkers that would keep us connected.. Though. We love it when that happens. Here. But is that really true. he touched a lot of lives.

There is one project that I am presently working on with a team of six others where I am providing much of the direction but the team is working together in groups of various sizes to get the task done. not ever. we might have the right mix to accomplish that. if only. We can see ourself seeing what needs to be done. If I truly didn't like my systems engineering work. We have spent 16 years engaged in a stream of consciousness expression to create the Beyond Imagination works to date. my sense is that it has. In that final quarter. that doesn't mean that I wouldn't trade it in a heartbeat to work on the Beyond Imagination endeavor full time. Further. that may not quite be true. we see this expression as only one aspect of the Beyond Imagination endeavor. It is not clear that we can create this opportunity for ourself. Imagination is only the first step. a dream of creating the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh. often multiple things. I am already doing that. But that is only a quarter of what I would choose to expend if I could earn my abundance from my spiritual work. Here. setting priorities. But. That is a major commitment. there is that much more that we would choose to do. potentially a large number of people. The very fact that I have not is proof that I am getting something positive out of my present situation. and assigning tasks to our team based on the needs of the tasks and the abilities of the individuals and groups of individuals. our calling. over a fourth of my free time. with a team of people with different abilities and talents. How do we resolve the if onlys in our lives? There must be a way.. But. the only life that I know.. Actually. not down to a fine level of detail . That is only a sample of things to come. In a way. There is just no comparison for me. Perhaps there is a conflict. we could express an additional three to four times what we have expressed to date. I would have found something else. That is a prototype of things to come. As a result. but from a broad perspective. I am learning what I need to learn just in time to apply it. Even this 209 . There is a sense that all of this is destined somehow. It is teaching me some of the collaboration skills and tools that the Beyond Imagination endeavor will need. has it been destined? Indeed. Though. we need the opportunity. That would require a lot of time expressing. This is all new to me. do I love my Beyond Imagination work more? I love it enough to choose to expend a significant amount of my free time doing it . Here we are looking at generating synergy to get the maximum effect that we can. For that we need foundational principles to reach the hearts and minds of people . That will be something that emerges as we collectively and individually do what we are moved to do.. I would have been moved to do something about it. Yes. We should be able to earn our abundance doing what we love. But. We can see ourself doing that... figuratively speaking anyway . How long that will be. We would do that and nothing else. That is our mission. Work versus spiritual work is only a choice when only the former pays. for that.. The people that need to participate will be there when the time comes for them to participate. But. we are willing to be the instrument through which it comes.. I must be able to create it. That is not something that I am likely to make happen on my own. No. Though. We believe that we have roughly a quarter of our life to go. over a tithe of my waking time.. There is a reason that this expression is called Beyond Imagination. It is not clear how it might build the foundations for a new world on its own. one way or another. If I can conceive of it. It seems that I am learning something new every day. so long as this stream of consciousness continues to come forth.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 potentially how it needed to be done. we must step beyond that as far as the wings of consciousness will take us. We have a dream. we do not know. the work environment is far more fun. We may not know what effect we want yet. I haven't yet worked in an environment that was even loosely coupled. There must be a way to manifest what is necessary. How can I believe this? When I look back on my own life.

That has been true from the day it began through these words that I type now. we also need to prime the pump. Why would I choose to live my life that way? That very question presupposes that I have such a choice. perhaps not consciously. Though. I proclaimed that the Beyond Imagination works were a gift from spirit to the world. I see and feel my fingers typing the words that I hear. In being grateful and appreciating what we have in our life. Life is a precious gift given to us by our creator. I see myself correcting typos on the fly. Though. This expression reveals what I sense. but I don't. Much of what I do in my life. That is true despite how grandiose we may seem to be already. It is amazing that I am able to do it at all. I only know that I am moved to do it. I do not show my gratitude on a regular basis. It is what it is. I do not feel that I have the right to change one word that is expressed. Though I seem to control when we tap that point and when we end the session. what I know about myself and my world. my observation does not penetrate into how my mind is working. We do that by giving. that I became aware of being the observer of myself on a regular basis. I can observe the voice of the stream of consciousness appearing in my mind.. How can it be that the most important thing that I do in my life has not found its way to others? Perhaps it is having an effect in ways that I do not know. Though. perhaps even more so. I am so consumed by doing that I block out the awareness of being the observer. It is as if I am reading from something that is already finished. I still remember how strongly I felt when I did that. My focus is on each word. It doesn't see what got translated into the voice in my head. Each of us is grand. I am not consciously aware of all of the factors that go into these decisions. I don't seem to control the entry point. Right now... what I feel. It is a blessing that I can do something like this everyday. What we do with that life is our gift to the world. Occasionally it stretches a few words ahead of what I have typed. what I think. It doesn't matter that the gift does not appear to be received by or appreciated by many . But. I've thought about a lot of things since then and I've observed a lot about what I experienced and how I experienced.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 expression seems to be destined. far more grand than we know. It is curious that the expression comes from somewhere of which I am not consciously aware. more grateful than even I know.. Back to my time once again. Over a decade ago. It was not always like this. what I observe. The rest of the time. that is the most important thing that I know of that I can choose to do. I know not why I do it. I observe what I am doing even as I am doing it. I am exceedingly grateful for that. Though. There is no other record. I will continue to come here to muse. A sincere attitude of gratitude goes a long way. At least. At the same time. I see the frame of my glasses as I observe the screen on which the words appear. Until that changes. it is not clear that this is really my time either. It came forth from somewhere I know only as source. we make room for receiving more. Yet. nor does it see what I am taking in as my eyes see the words appearing on the screen. That is true most of the time. there is a sense that I got it somehow . What is expressed is expressed. I have no sense of understanding entire sentences as I an hearing and typing them. The grandest thing that we can give is who we are. as spirit herself via a stream of consciousness. It is as if this stream of consciousness is the mechanism through which the energy that is Beyond Imagination is accessed. It is as true today as it was then. Here my spirit is restored and renewed. why should that be? It is not 210 . That is something I'll have to work on. My experience indicates otherwise. It wasn't until my spiritual awakening experiences in 1993. What happens happens. I probably should. at the time this expression began. I choose to expend it on this expression. what I see. not even by a few for that matter. What has been the outcome of that? Whatever it is is recorded here. even then. but on other than conscious levels.

I take a lot of things for granted. How do you know when you are being YOU? Find your bliss and follow it. You could do it while lying in bed before you go to sleep. You stepped through such a door big time in 1993 and again in 1998. to whom do they make a difference? Does it even matter anymore? Will it change what I choose to be or choose to do? Even if I observe myself. More being is the answer.. it too is timed. not as far as I can see. So. You can do that NOW. though many of them may be. You have not really done this to date . Just be and see what 211 .. That does not mean that such things are unknowable. Stop doing even this for awhile. not really. It will lead you to precisely where you need to be. it has been to no real avail. Otherwise things will continue to remain the same. Each time. I do not know.. I'm starting to see that I do this far more than I had any idea of before. and find YOU. That is all that matters. because it is not clear to me that there is even one thing that I consciously control. BE YOU. Oh. My life simply unfolds before me. there is another argument here. 2002-2003. This is another of those one way experiences. So long as you search without knowing what you are searching for. Yes... and that is what I created you to be. The answer is simple . It just puts that much more in the unknown column in my life. you will be all that you can be. It doesn't even need to take any time out of your day. Cease and desist. it hadn't struck me so deeply before. The final step is more subtle but is bigger than any you have experienced to date. Though. you will never find it. Once you go through the door there is no returning. What conscious control do I have over anything? I ask that sincerely. That doesn't stop me from doing things and knowing things.. How many people are concerned with such things? Why am I concerned with such things? Why do I make a distinction between what I know and what I consciously know? Why does it matter? How does it change who I am? How does it change what I choose to do? Be YOU. I like to believe that what I am being and what I do make a difference. you have done a lot. it never is. More doing is not the answer. and I may not consciously know how.. Meditation is your best way to prepare at this time. I don't know how I do anything. The only difference is my perception of the causes of experiences in my life and in my world. you experienced the process as a spiritual awakening. I've attempted to share it with those around me and with the world from the time the expression began. Nor do you have to do anything. There is nothing that you can do to make it come any sooner or later. Whether what I am or what I do influences that or not. Stop doing. That is what you are searching for. how would I know one way or the other? It seems that my experience is the same in either case. you would not know it. and 2007 to lesser degrees. You don't have to wait for anything. Like the other ones. It is who you are . I may not be able to express how. but I do it nonetheless. Though. my experience is the same. but you have not done this. At least. At least half an hour a day would do more for you than any amount of additional writing. everything. Can I live with that? Do I even have a choice in the matter? My life will unfold as it will. Focus on the being. Even if you did. Though your choices will determine how ready you are for the experience and what kind of a shock it induces to your system. it always is. I don't know how I know anything. Everything that you need for this is already in your life. you will be all that I created you to be. enough already. Just be aware and see. But. Be aware and allow the miracle that you are to unfold. The fact that I can do something demonstrates that I know how to do it. Will that change? It will change if I do what it takes to make it change. We all do. Whether they are scripted externally or whether other than conscious parts of me are generating the scripts. that is what you have always been searching for. Hmm .. who you already are. Simply quiet your mind and be with yourself by yourself. But. You don't have to wait for your commitment to manifest. When you do this.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 that I've kept the work hidden. It just means that I know that I do not know them now.

the unity from which I spring? Even that question is flawed. What next? We never really know what to expect. how long does it take for our choices to result in consequences. Though.. Any perceived separation can only be in the illusion. consciousness. Also. We need the uncertainty. There can be no separation. I do the same things in the same way a lot. But that would suggest that spirit and consciousness are somehow separate from me. that could be. we are making it much more bland or routine than it is meant to be. Though. Though.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 comes. we experience the mystery of a stream of consciousness expression. Am I creating that portion that I am experiencing or am I following it as one would do a story with multiple paths and multiple endings? I get to decision points and decide which path to follow from that point forward.. dramatically changing the experience and the outcome. Each day we have a taste of the miraculous. If this were the case. less than some. Many of the decisions don't seem to matter much . Some things seem to happen immediately but others are drawn out over time. how do I experience what is real? How do I find the oneness. One of the other needs to change .. What does that include? Ir seems that at the very least. life would not be life. We need the chaos to allow us to grow and thrive. It seems that we need to be making different choices. have we become so attached to that that we have lost sight of what else we might be? Hmm . 25 June 2009 What would we express today? It is interesting that we ask that question in that way given that we don't experience being the one that is doing the expressing here. that may be the case in terms of how I perceive things. And. we includes spirit. but can it really be true? The bottom line is that no. When we plant a seed. Unfortunately. But there can be no not I. Life is meant to be a mystery. if it were easy.. That is OK. Yet. we seem to have little to no foreknowledge of where particular decisions will take us. it comes out of nowhere with an order that is its own. Though I cannot imagine why anyone might prefer that. Clearly. it is meant to surprise us at every turn. It makes things far more fun. I am a point of view of all that is created to experience a portion of the creation. But we did say we. but at least it is spontaneous. we don't know until something happens. My wife would be the first to tell you that I am stubborn and close-minded. The ones we are making aren't bringing the consequences that we say that we desire. there is an individual that is separate from what is not I. That may not be chaotic. it cannot. I chose to come here two hours a day to allow a stream of consciousness to come forth through me... we trust spirit. Life should have an element of surprise. I don't venture out and try new things very much.. Though. for God.. either or desires or our choices. How much chaos do I have in my life? More than most. That is OK. What kinds of seeds are we planting with our choices? And.. my life is very habitual. So.. 212 . but others are critical. If it is not. sometimes centuries for it to grow to maturity. But. That would imply that I am all that is. That answer surprised me a bit. and ME. how long does it take them to grow to maturity? At present. So long as there is an I. The is no reason to do that unless we prefer it. We reserve that term. Indeed. I am not all that is. Though. All That Is. it can take years for a tree to grow . this expression is chaotic . then we have made so many choices that it is difficult to correlate them with the consequences.

my work life.. overall we are doing well in this area . we are still in the mode of more of the same with the addition of wasting less of our free time. things are far more open ended. the immediate answer is no. Perhaps not quite that bad. It is not like I don't have other things to do. no fine print. All of this would make my life very one-sided. From that standpoint. there is the matter of spiritual economy. in particular. We give of our time and abilities here in exchange for spiritual abundance. There is a sense that there is a dictator streak in me.. Even after all of these years. Though we are trying to expand the Beyond Imagination life to incorporate my work life. We don't have to make them happen. That comes forth in the volume of Beyond Imagination expression and in the experiences we get from bringing the expression forth and from reading it. But this is really not a choice at all. no exceptions. Consciously. Spirit animates all life. We still believe that. The choice is one of recognizing what is so or not. We expect to be engaged in the Beyond Imagination endeavor full time soon. Also. or we would not live at all. in my life. We are not aware of what we truly desire to create. that imposes a value judgment on what we are doing with some of our free time . But. And. We characterize the problem and potential conceptual solutions. we only know what we think that we want. we cannot say. why have I not chosen to make different choices already. What is the value of such entertainment. We give of our time and abilities at our job in exchange for sufficient compensation to live decently. We don't tell them what to do or how to do it. That does not change. we are not aware of the details.. it is not clear that we could even if we wanted to. it is the most precious thing in our life . What about the idea that we create our own reality. All life is spiritual. Literally. We hadn't thought about it like that before. But. imposing my will is very difficult for me especially on things that involve others. on watching TV and movies. That does not seem to be something that is within our power to decide. Yes. It seems that we shall see soon enough. It involves thinking that I know what needs to be done and how best to do it. How soon. That is how important spirit is to us.. and my Beyond Imagination life. then engage the best and the brightest to creatively come up with something to address the problem. In fact. There is a backlog of Beyond Imagination work that would keep me busy for many months...2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 she would have moved us to be or do something different. We do not even know if we consider ourself worthy of receiving what we desire to create.. So. so. We expect that we will. would our life be any less rich without these experiences? When I really think about it. Whether we will succeed in this or not remains to be seen. that gives us something that no one else has in their life. But. this expression is indeed precious to us. That is OK.. we must be giving something of value. We accept that there are many things in our life that simply unfold. We would life or llife of spirit. Indeed. and we are responsible for everything that we create as well. and do we need that much of it in our life? Our sense is that it does have some value but the 15-20 minutes per hour of commercials definitely detract from that. It is just that much of the process occurs at other than conscious levels . There would still be my home life. It is a simple matter of not choosing to turn the TV on when I return home from work. but we are open to spirits plans being different than our own. Perhaps that is what she is doing now through this very line of inquiry. we provide direction and constraints that ensures that we get what we 213 . when that runs out we can always spend more time engaged in this expression. Then. Perhaps it is time to explore why that is. What would I do next? Right now. Also. there are other Beyond Imagination works that I would like to create that could keep us busy for years. as precious as life itself to us. We expect major changes in our life and in our work. so. It is through giving that we prime the pump for receiving abundance in our life.

On this. To give the Beyond Imagination endeavor wings so that it can fly Constraint 1: Extend Beyond Imagination beyond an endeavor of one Constraint 2: Do things that impact others and the world in positive ways Constraint 3: Foster the synergy of a dozen lightworkers working together Constraint 4: Keep me away from the limelight We give our whole life to spirit and our whole spirit to life. I liken these works to a treasure that I have been stockpiling for a number of years. But. But. And. Are we prepared to back them with action? We believe that we are. For the 214 . CDs. but we demand it of ourself. I do not know what is in store for all of this. He changed the way that the world perceived music and dance. But. How do I see my life in comparison? I have over 5 million words that have been expressed through me of which I am the only person to have read the vast majority of them . demand. Strong words. It has taught me more about myself and my world than anything else that I have ever encountered.. or employer for that matter That is the only "problem" that I have characterized to date. Spirit is the pinnacle of life for us. we will accept nothing less. I simply do not know. I do not know why these words came through me as they did . We don't expect this from others. We can live in no other way. In that realm. Choosing to allow is a choice. I have no regrets. known throughout the world as a pop star. will they move the people who read them . Clearly. even if we do not know why we are doing it.. Constraint 1: Willing to do spiritual work up to 80 hours per week Constraint 2: Need financial freedom for my family Constraint 3: Need sufficient abundance to fund Beyond Imagination endeavor Constraint 4: Need to be free to do what spirit would do through me Constraint 5: Do not want to toil at the bidding of any prince. Much of the time it seemed as if I had no choice. what difference does one life make? Michael Jackson died today.. Will these words ever reach an audience? And. will the words make a positive difference in their lives? At this point. despite the fact that they have been posted to the WWW for as many as 14 years. We expect it to be for the rest of our life. and DVDs. there is always room to be surprised.. He sold over 100 million records. This expression is definitely a treasure to me. we have concluded we know very little .. Perhaps. In the end. But it isn't quite a knowingness. or even why I allowed them to come through. if they do. Much of it is trivial facts. especially financial abundance. We don't know as much as we think we know.. How do I apply this to those parts of me that are serving to resolve "problems" in my life? What problems have I characterized for them? What directions and constraints have I provided? Abundance: Need more abundance in our life. we know far more than we think that we know. It is what we know on other than conscious levels that allows us to operate and do things in the world. we always have a choice.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 want. it seems that what we know consciously does not really matter.. one person can make a big difference in the lives of many. but it is highly unlikely. of late. He was a entertainer extraordinaire. There is a lingering sense that in doing this we may be limiting ourself in a way that is unbeknownst to us. It has been for quite some time. at least consciously. Though we do have one big desire as well. Yes.. That is quite some achievement.

that allows us to pay our lightworkers $100 per hour for 2000 hours per year.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 most part. I have not even made arrangement to have it remain on the WWW. More people for less time or fewer people for more time. In the process we have substantially increased the labor hours applied to the Beyond Imagination endeavor. That's less than $300. That's 4000 hours amounting to $4 million per year.000. It just hasn't sunk in enough to become your primary focus. I am far more special than I had ever dreamed that spirit would go to such an extreme as to bring all of this to me. 50 weeks per year. It is that simple. Now. On the drive from Colorado Springs to Denver today. Most of the people we would choose to employ already have a metaphysical practice of some type in which they are helping people. This may be something that we need to decide on an individual basis as our team proposes what they can do in the context of Beyond Imagination. That is about to change. Though. we have nearly doubled that to account for all of my time. The $1 per word value for this expression makes our time worth roughly $1000 per hour. Before. that does not seem to matter. Another opportunity for spirit to reveal to us what we are. Have I left my mark upon the world? Not even close. We can't imagine what we would be doing if we didn't have this to fall back on on a daily basis. as always. If we take a quarter of that for our financial freedom. It is not clear that we have reached the core. But. we were thinking about what we are worth. plus we have increased the per hour consulting rate for our team to allow us to attract more highly qualified lightworkers. New enough that you will have to learn how to do it. we want to leverage off of that and find ways to serve even more people. Rather. Were I to die. First BE. You would better be served to focus on being. Though. Though. you will be guided. we were speaking in terms of $11 million for expression to date plus four years of future expression. You know that. But. That doesn't stop us from coming here to express. The payment to the internet service provider is withdrawn automatically from my checking account. this expression would cease to exist. the process seems to be akin to peeling the layers of an onion. Now. We are willing to work 80 hour weeks. it is not yet clear that we are ready to employ our team full time. perhaps the most important part. Indeed that is what happens here. this expression did and continues to do so. You are never alone. Yes. You are good about that. It is not even clear that there is a core to reach. What you decide to do. 26 June 2009 Another day to express. But that is precisely how we feel about it. When you are being that. Focusing on being is new to you. You have focused a lot on doing in bringing forth this expression and in what you have in store for the Beyond Imagination endeavor. you will naturally do what you are intended to do. then DO. Though. at least for awhile. that is saying a lot. you do. this is new to you. Spirit is always with you. for what purpose? What am I supposed to do with it? What services am I meant to provide to whom? You primary service is to be who I created you to do. So. But consciousness did. and still have an operating budget of $600. Could all of this be for my eyes only? If it is. because you strongly desire to change it now. life never interested me. there is a tradeoff. our $4 million per year figure nets us the equivalent of 14 full time people.000 215 . The fact is that this expression is a part of our life. We don't want to take that away. Has this expression had the impact that spirit intended for it to have? For your eyes only still haunts me. That would allow us to do a lot.

2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 per person. Further, I've reduced my cut from 40 percent to 25 percent, while I've increased my workload by 1/3. It doesn't seem fair at the face of it. But, I'm willing to do it to carry the Beyond Imagination endeavor. It is that important to me. What we haven't thought about is what the Beyond Imagination endeavor might do to pay for itself. We would need to bring in $4 million per year. If the expression is worth $1.5 million per year, that leaves $2.5 million per year divided by roughly 13 or $200,000 per person. Effectively, each member of the team must carry their own weight. Actually, that is not quite correct. As the lead, I need to be doing things with my other 50 hours per week that make those hours worth $1000 per hour. That would allow us to fund everything and would make any funds received for services from our team supplementary. They could be used to further expand the Beyond Imagination endeavor. What about me and what I can do makes me believe that my time is worth $1000 per hour? That's an order of magnitude more than I am paid by my employer today. That doesn't matter. This expression is different. Beyond Imagination is different. Given our mission, we should not have to run things on a shoestring budget. At the same time, we must produce. We must do something that is of great value to society and the world somehow. We believe that we can do that. We know that we were born to do that. It is just a matter of when. And, the answer to when is always NOW. There is no other time in which anything can be done. Where do I go to get compensated what I know that I am worth? Clearly, I cannot pay myself. Just as clearly, it seems that spirit cannot pay me. But spirit can arrange for the right circumstances that allow this to manifest. There may be something that I need to do as well, but even then, I trust that spirit will guide me. That is how things have worked to date in my life. Though, what has worked in the past may not be what is in store for the future. Hmm ... how am I to interpret that? Be open and flexible. Allow things to unfold in your life as they will. But, if you find that you are moved to make something happen then do what it takes. Sometimes spirit leaves things up to you. It is for you to figure out when that is the case and do what your heart and consciousness determine is right. You know. You have always had something inside you that knows. You have relied on this all of your life and with good reason. It is not all about me. Personally, I would be doing twice the work for the equivalent of 5 times my present income. That's a net hourly compensation of 2.5 times what I presently make. Everything else would go to the Beyond Imagination endeavor. Further, we are not talking about charity for our team. We express them to produce both individually and collectively in groups of various sizes. Further, we expect them to creatively come up with services that are in line with the Beyond Imagination mission. We just need the opportunity to see what great things might be created. I firmly belief that our endeavor will make the world a better place. How do you place a value on that. We only know what we are proposing that it will cost, namely $5 million plus $4 million per year for four years. That's a total of $21 million. Unfortunately, we cannot yet say what will come from this endeavor. The promise is great. The potential is there. But until we do it, we will not know what we are able to achieve. Four years is a lot of time. The equivalent of 14 full time people is a significant amount of effort. Yet, on a world scale, it is but a drop in the ocean. But, that drop can be an important one indeed. Of the $21 million, $9 million would go to me and $12 million to the Beyond Imagination endeavor. That's a 3 to 4 split. 3/7 = 0.428571. That's curious, 428 is an important number to me, tied to Plato and to 7:56. That makes the split right somehow. Though, that is the overall split. The split for new work is 1 to 4. My share is 0.25, which corresponds to my spiritual ray makeup, 2:Love/Wisdom 216

2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 and 5:Concrete Manifestation. That is what I am here to express. Now, it is a matter of doing it. I choose to do it in the context of the Beyond Imagination endeavor. It is the only thing that I know. And, even then, I know not where it will lead. I only know that wherever that is is precisely where I need to be. How can I be so certain? I just am. It just seems so obvious. This is why I am here. Not only this expression, but this endeavor. It will be interesting to see where we are a year from now, or even six months from now when 2009 draws to a close. We had hoped to experience dramatic change on the home front and the work front by our past birthday in April, but that really didn't manifest. We don't know why exactly. There was a strong sense that massive change was coming soon. Yet, here we are nearly three months later already. When the month wraps up, we will have another Beyond Imagination work to compile. But, other than that, there are no signs that something is happening that will allow the Beyond Imagination endeavor to spread its wings and fly. That is OK. When the time is right things will change. Our life unfolds as it will. We have no need to make it unfold otherwise. Though we do have our hopes and our dreams. We've spoken about what we want ... but we are quite sketchy regarding what we would do. At the very least, we would generate 1.5 million words per year. That would literally more than double the amount of Beyond Imagination expression. On top of that, we would generate many special topic works based on the Beyond Imagination expression. We know how to do this, and we know many of the works that we would like to generate. It is only a matter of having the time to do it. We believe that interacting closely with other lightworkers will result in whole new areas of expression ... not only ours, but those of our lightworkers. Further, we know that we can creatively generate whole new services for individuals, groups, society, the world, the earth, and for spirit herself. We just need to free our lightworkers from the need to make a living long enough for them to develop whole new ways to apply their skills and abilities that result in greater overall service. We are willing to do that. We are willing to make the investment of ourself. We would expect that within four years the entire endeavor would be self-sufficient, with the services and products offered covering the costs of producing them. This might even happen sooner. Until that time, we need someone of some group to believe enough in me to be willing to compensate me at $1000 per hour for my time for 4000 hours per year. Yes, that is asking for a lot. But, we have the potential not only to offer a lot, but to serve the world in entirely new ways. What is that worth? It seems that it is worth whatever we say that it is worth. Who else is offering what we are offering? The bottom line is no one. The Beyond Imagination endeavor is unique. Further, we do not know where it will take us. We only know that we are moved to do it. At present, we know that we are moved to express as we do. We don't know why. We don't know how. We don't know what will come forth next. We only know that we are moved to come here to express. Further, we know that we are moved to ask to do this on a full time basis. No, not express this stream of consciousness. But, be engaged in the Beyond Imagination endeavor. What else would we do? We would collaborate with others. That is something that we have started to do recently at work, but have not yet done in the Beyond Imagination endeavor. The potential is definitely there however. We have a taste of what we can do alone. At work, on one project, we have a taste of what we can do working closely with others. We need to expand this and make it a regular part of our life. Our preference is to do that in our spiritual work and to do our spiritual work full time. What does it take for us to do that? It seems this is beyond our power to manifest. We need help. We don't ask for help very often. Though, it is not clear in the few times that we have asked that our plea 217

2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 for help was answered. Perhaps, our perception of needing help was in error. Perhaps what we were asking for was something that we could do for ourself. Another possibility is that perhaps we needed to ask another rather than ask spirit. Whatever the reason, what we asked for did not manifest. Most of the time what we ask for is to earn our abundance from our spiritual work so that we can engage in the Beyond Imagination expression full time. Clearly, that has not happened yet. In fact, the only compensation we get for our involvement in the Beyond Imagination endeavor is the growing body of words and works that result. That in and of itself is a lot, however, it does not pay the bills. Doing what we love should result in abundance. Is that not spiritual law? Do I truly love doing this? I do it a lot, for at least two hours nearly everyday, but does that constitute truly loving to do this? I can't think of anything that I would rather do. But, that is not the same either. If I truly loved doing this, my abundance would come from it. Hmm ... but at present, my abundance comes from my job ... and I love that far less than I love this. 27 June 2009 Another weekend musing, this time from Colorado. What would be expressed today. We never really know when we start. Actually, we never really know even when we are doing it. That is OK. The element of surprise keeps us hooked. There is something about the unknown that is attractive to us. Perhaps it always will be. We hope so anyway. Yesterday we spoke a lot of the abundance that we need to do our spiritual work full time and to fund the Beyond Imagination endeavor to a greater degree than we had considered before. Enough of that for now. The universe knows precisely what we need, and if it is meant to be, it will be. There is nothing on earth that can stop it from manifesting. It is not a matter of what we do that will cause it to manifest, it is a matter of who we are. And, here we are talking of a group of 13. That is a larger group than I have engaged at work on any project. Further, the is five times the effort I am currently expending on Beyond Imagination plus the equivalent full time effort of a dozen others. While not a lot in the grand scheme of things ... the equivalent of 14 people in a country of over 300 million and a world of over 6 billion, our sense is that it is enough to make a difference. And, making a difference is what it is all about. Within four years, we could grow from having roughly 20 works to having over 100, and that doesn't count the works generated by our team of twelve. There is that much depth of content in the Beyond Imagination expression. But, what good are written works if they are not read? There, it seems that it is a matter of getting them in the hands of people. That might also require repackaging them so they have a desired effect or utility. That is OK. With spirits guidance, we can do that. Indeed, with spirits guidance, our team should be able to do that as well. But, the Beyond Imagination endeavor is far more than what can be brought forth though me. Our teammates have their own special skills and abilities. They can use these to augment our own and to augment one another’s. Through this cooperative interaction, whole new works and services will be born. We can't foresee what these will be yet, but we know that they will be incredible. Yes, that day is coming. The potential service is too great for us to be denied. Until then, we continue to do what we are moved, whatever that may be. Though, is that enough? Should we not be participating in our own emancipation ... for indeed, that is what this is? Freedom. We would be free to do our spiritual work full time and derive our abundance from it. How do we make that so. It is ever on our mind, perhaps more than it needs to be. In due time. Everything that is meant to happen does so in its due time. The universe will not be rushed. There is no point in pushing things 218

2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 needlessly. But, sometimes it is we who are dense. It is we who are not getting it. In these times, it is for us to realize what we are being and chose to be something else. We can do that at anytime. We are always free to choose what we are being. Though many of us have fallen into habits that determine this much of the time. That can be good or bad or neutral depending on the situation and the circumstances. It always pays to retain some flexibility of consciousness. We need to be flexible enough to respond appropriately to the specifics of a situation that make it different than similar situations that we have faced before. At the very least, even if the circumstances are the same, we have changed between the times that we face them. As a result, our response should be different ... maybe not much different, but enough to cause a different outcome. Our lives are not meant to be repetitive ... day to day, week to week, or year to year. But, sometimes, even often, it seems that they are. That is not lifes fault. That is our fault. That is the result of what we are choosing. How would I make a difference in the world, and a big difference at that? Yes, it is grandiose of me to think that such might be my fate, but grandiose or not, that is precisely what I believe. Further, I believe this very expression will enable me to do that. That it hasn't done so in 16 years matter not. I believe there is roughly another 17 active years remaining in my life. Thet is more than enough to have such an impact. Further, I would consider my life to have been a failure had I not been able to have such an impact. It doesn't have to be on many, but it needs to be significant enough for those to have an impact on others and so on and so on. Building the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh is a huge undertaking. It may be something that takes decades or even centuries. Then again, it may be something that can be accomplished in a few short years. Perhaps all that we can expect to generate are the spiritual blueprints at this time. We thought that was what the original Beyond Imagination book did in 1993. But that was long ago. Many things have changed since them. Many more words have flowed forth. We have yet to explore the power of synergy arising from how cooperative interdependent groups operate. Also, if our spiritual blueprints are to be actualized, they will have to be backed by those with the power to control how things are organized and where resources are expended. What makes us even begin to think that we can get our ideas into those circles? If it is meant to be it will be. It doesn't matter where the ideas come from. If they are indeed sound, they will reach the minds of those who can implement them. If they are not sound, they simply won't be implemented, or if they are implemented, they will fail. But, a new age is at hand. There is nothing that can stop it from arriving at its designated time. What can we do that is practical today? Interesting, we have not asked that question before. As usual, we can muse. But, there is nothing practical about that. There is generally nothing that comes from it that we can put into practice immediately that serves not only us but others. How would we know that? How do we know what others might get from this expression? It seems that to know, we would need to have them read the expression and provide feedback. This is not happening. This has not really happened since the expression began. Indeed, I don't even know what I get from the expression and it comes forth through me. Yet, bringing it forth continues to be a high priority task in my life, perhaps the highest priority. Actually, that is not quite correct. Earning sufficient abundance for my family still comes first. Without that, my free time would not be my free time. So, there is an inherent order to things in our life. What we love to do presently does not take first billing. That was a bit of a surprise. But, clearly, it is so. We have to make ends meet first, then we can play. That is, unless we make ends meet through our play. 219

the most interesting of such paths take us into the unknown realms of consciousness. I put the blame squarely on my shoulders... These are meant to be used in service. I do not want to back down. But. how do I experience more bliss. I do not know. it may be something that we never know. there needs to be a counterbalancing sense that I am doing my fair share. To express. thus far. Why should that be? Why do I deny myself experiencing something that is my birthright? At least. I'm one to speak. They will be attracted to the Beyond Imagination endeavor when their services are needed. We cannot deny what comes forth through us. a joyful writer. Typically. How do I know that these realms are unknown? There are over 6 billion of us on the planet. You intensely dislike confrontation. I know that I have been given special gifts and talents. and it is a major part of my life. I don't know who that audience is. The instrument is a being. Often. the being and the doing are within our control. I don't even know what is unknown to me personally. not from the outcome that is achieved. So. accept it I must. You know that. Who am I to say what is know and what is unknown by this large mass of humanity? Indeed. what does it take to choose to be a blissful writer. and more happiness? At this moment. I may not know which parts of me do what and how. and have failed dismally because this is not your job. but I trust that spirit knows precisely who 220 . But. these words come forth as they do nonetheless. So. Yet. Whether or how these works reach others is not your concern. Something just came to mind about tying happiness to achieving my expectations of myself. About the only exception is those things that you truly do not want to do. Don't try to force it. Life has its ways of taking us down new paths. There are others who are good at this. that spirit may bring forth her best works through you. but I take full responsibility nonetheless. We never really know what is going to happen next. But. The musician playing is the doing. Further. it seems that desire. We choose not to concern ourself with how or with why. The quality of the music that is created is the outcome. It is what it is.. Yet.. We cannot deny what we experience. We know that you want what you want. how do I extend this to embody everything that I experience? Surely it is possible. your life is one of allowing. It seems that I have indeed done this and I have such high expectations that it is virtually impossible to reach them. We have to find a way to be happy anyway. Focus fully on being the instrument through which she expresses. do I need to know something to experience something? Or rather. Often such transitions come unannounced. At the same time.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 That is what I strongly desire to do. a happy writer? That would allow me to experience happiness at least 2 hours a day. I haven't found my way to happiness except infrequently and for short periods of time. There are people that are genuinely happy most of the time. a stream of consciousness writer. if I am to be happy. Leave the outcomes in spirits hands. Be the best and clearest instrument that you can be. and grand service at that. but a writer nonetheless. that I am doing enough. it should come from the doing itself. For me. Further. but the outcome is not. just that it hasn't seemed to be enough to date. there is a reason for all of it. Then. more joy. This is still hard to accept. I firmly believe that I create my own reality. You have tried to make it your concern several times over the years . But. Such has been your modus operandi all of your life. Enough that you give in on virtually everything. speaking as if what they speak of is fact. Further. there is a sense that this expression is to indeed find its intended audience. Effectively they take us into the unknown. is it more of a choice to be? It seems that the latter is more correct. we do not know where these new paths will lead. Yet. How can that be? We only know that it is. Our happiness should come from the beingness that we experience as we are doing. I choose to be a writer. even if we know not what that is. even strong desire is not enough. That does not mean that desire is not enough .

Then.. But. The bottom line is that the only things that we know that we can do are engage in this expression and systems engineering. Are we any closer to it actually happening. her streams. It just seems that some lives make more of a difference. Does it matter? Does it matter if the Beyond Imagination endeavor spreads its wings and flies? We firmly believe that it does. It was strange to ride past treeline up to the pass at over 12. 221 . and that the right consequences always follow from our choices. expressed as a stream of consciousness. over 5 million to date. that and what we can do from this point forward. one that change our life and our work in major ways. Interesting that this would be the case. Is this not sufficient to life a meaningful life. Yes. Clearly. this has not all come forth for me alone. need there be more. how do we apply that experience to what we do here? Consciousness has her peaks. we believe that the Beyond Imagination expression to date has great value in and of itself. Spirit has stated this value to be $1 per word. an argument that shows the benefit. namely me. her meadows. Further. the latter we would do in the context of the Beyond Imagination endeavor.000 feet. So. Things unfold without my seeming to do anything to bring them about. her valleys. There is still room for doubt. is that enough? At this point. or even interested in society much except for the need to serve society and the world in a big way. behind the scenes. Is this even something that consciousness has in store for us? We believe so. all that we can answer is it could be. Though.. That is sufficient for the expression to date. It is enough for me to influence things in the background. We have been speaking of this happening for close to a year now. Went to Rocky Mountain National Park and saw several dozen elk. and often do. The were steep and Rocky with a raging stream flowing beside the road. at the same time. and her wildlife. I needed the experience of generating the musings to date to get me to where I am now. Yet. would I do anything different? It is not clear that I could indeed have chosen other than I did. what do we have to offer for all of the time we have spent engaged in this expression? We offer a mountain of words. a life that makes a difference? Every life makes a difference in its own way. the service to be far greater than the cost. But that was over 20 years ago. we would be hardpressed to explain what these are or to even know if we have experienced them. Will my life be one of those? I believe that it will. four moose. The trees were literally growing out of the rocks in many place. Will I have the opportunity to do that? Will I make the opportunity to do that? Perhaps. That is what we have. but it is not for me to know for certain until it happens. I have no desire to be famous. But. It brought back the feeling that I used to have when I went to the National Parks in the west on a regular basis.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 she is writing this for. surely there must be others. And. I needed nearly 20 years of metaphysical training to prepare me for my spiritual awakening in 1993. there is more to us than that. That is all that we can offer . Yet I know we have free will. Though even after 16 years of exploring. The canyons were particular interesting. and a deer. Surely. but do we know so? We know that we have made a compelling argument for these changes . there is at least an audience of one. I've never been one to be interested in the limelight. it was incredible to experience. If I had to live my life over again. these consequences can surprise us.. Overall.. things happen in my life. Even that we can only guess. But. Surely. her trees. The Rockies are beautiful. The sense is that we are about to take another major leap in consciousness. 28 June 2009 Had a great day with my niece and her husband. much more of a difference.

The value of the words is greater because they will be facilitated by a staff of an equivalent of twelve others working with us on a full time basis. Often being is enough. we I am make it so. Why should we not expect our team to bear part of this responsibility? We still think of our team being consultants with Spirit and me being the directors. the new value is reasonable. On the whole yes. what does it matter. The bottom line is that the process is magical. and I watch TV and movies. Perhaps this is not the most effective way of looking at things.. That. I simply do not know. it seems that action is needed to make a difference in the world. I muse. I would be none other than ME. Oh. It is as if we entered into an arrangement prior to this existence that would have us co-create what we have been bringing forth since 1993. But. we are moved to accelerate that now. thus far we are only speaking in terms of four years.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 However. Yet. There is no other time in which action can take place. But. If we are not experiencing it as such. it is still missing something. what I could be doing versus what I am doing. we don't know 222 . it is time to negotiate a new commitment with spirit. Life is meant to be a mystery. Here. the only time. there is nothing similar to compare it to. I have focused a lot on what I could be versus what I am. Between that and inflation. the kind of relationship that I have with spirit herself. Each of us have an opportunity to do something special with our life. What is lacking is relationships. At least. We would do it because we believe we must and because that is what we belief it would take to fund the Beyond Imagination endeavor. I believe that will happen soon. Whatever we can bring forth together is good. an endeavor for which we take full responsibility. what actions do I take? I work. and many such works at that. Whether we perform that mission is not an option. Yes. Yet. we have lost sight of something special.. Though. We are special. we need $2. if I am truly engaged in what I love doing. there is a sense that it is meant to be. At the very least we have to try sincerely. a concise work with the most specific instructions we could define. We are moved to bring forth more than we have ever brought forth before on an even more regular basis. Indeed. Though.. Besides. What is missing is the knowledge of what it takes to make it so. particularly close relationships . My success at work and in bringing forth this expression make it so. Has my life been satisfying. enough of it is for us to live a satisfying life. that is the pattern of the "A" on our ring. Not that action is necessarily required. especially the next four years. That doesn't yet seem to be enough. But. In fact. But. nothing that I know of. Beyond that. Ye shall know them by their works. Will I be allowed to do what I have committed to do? I believe the answer to be a resounding yes. Not everything that we do is destined to succeed. Though it may be a bit grandiose to put myself at the top. where else would I put me given the nature of the Beyond Imagination expression to date? Writing for 30 hours per week. Something seems right about four years. Each of us have a mission to perform. plus being engaged in the Beyond Imagination endeavor for another 50 hours per week basically leaves little time for anything else. we creative a work on reality creation recently. Besides. Each and every one of us is unique. How soon? The only real answer to when is NOW. But. That is OK. spirit does some grand works . for the future. Further. But. what do I know of her except how to allow her to express through me. It will not be boxed into a set of step by step instructions.50 per word. while she seems to know me better than I know myself. That is the only time in which anything can manifest. The point of power is the present. Though of late.. One large diamond on the top and 12 diamond chips forming the base. Perhaps always being is enough.

Yet. They are simply stated as facts. what we have offered to give is worth it. we do not know. Though even then. Though the persona that this source takes can very over time. It is simply a matter of changing our priorities once again. no exceptions. We do precisely that. But. That is the only source that we know. We just notice that it happens. It will be a deliverance for us.. for over a year. There is no research done regarding any of this. Very few quotes from others are referenced but much that is expressed is quotable. Much of this is filtered through our beliefs. It could be any day now. Though. We should do that based on utility.. even coming forth as God himself at times. to fit within the entirety of All That Is perfectly. how are we to know? We can ask for what we want. that is still not enough for us. We're averaging better than that now. Why and how that happens. my threshold as to what from this expression is quotable is biased. everything... Then again. We are demanding more of ourself. ever. on the order of 15 hours per week. I've made this expression worthy of my time and attention. All That Is is All That Is . Further. and has never lost interest in us since. it was God not spirit that created us. But. There is typically no argument or rationale given for them. It is not that anyone external to us is asking for more. it is what we are aware of that makes the most difference in our lives. But. not anymore than believing that 2 + 2 = 5. The came after a relative dry spell of a few years. our interest in her has waned at times over the years. We feel good about what we accomplish here. It is what it is. that does not make our belief correct. But that is similar to many thousands of things expressed here. We say that this stream of consciousness comes from the source within. whether we are aware of it or not. spirit herself. and what she does with it remain to be seen. We consider it to be a service to society and the world. In particular. We don't know what makes us muse more or muse less from year to year.. there is probably a factor of 3-4 difference in the least expressive to the most expressive years. Whether doing this is worth what we are asking . Though. enough to spend the equivalent of four working years of my life into it in 16 years. they are not in our hands. That. How are we to know what an expression such as this is worth? Thus far we have accepted what spirit has declared it to be forth. We can believe that we are separate from him. deciding what we will be aware of and what we will not be aware of.. We are spirit expression as us through us. Nothing expressed here is gospel. We feel good about that. We consider it to be a gift from spirit to the world. We know that there is more that we can give even in our present circumstances.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 when that time might begin. Our beliefs define what is worthy of our time and attention. Neither is any part of it sacred. We simply open Netscape Communicator and allow what would come forth to come forth via a stream of consciousness. Whether the world receives our gift or not. We can even believe that he does not exist. We deal in some practical things here. Why do we deserve such deliverance? What makes us so special that spirit should take a special interest in our life? It is too late to ask that. If we get it. We are not asking for more than we are willing to give. Yet we would derive our abundance and sufficient abundance for our team from doing this. A deliverance into a new line of work and a new way of life. nor does there seem to be a pattern. Clearly. God is not separated from the creation. but just as often we do not. but neither are we asking for less. there has been a renewed dedication to musing nearly every day. But. We anxiously await that day. We are even playing a game with our awareness. though much of it is spiritual. We accepted that with no proof or evidence that indeed this is the case. Spirit took such an interest in us over 16 years ago when this expression began . we can choose 223 . The past eight years have been heavy years for this expression. They are what they are and we can either accept them or not. each of us was created to be something.

In either event. But. What is meant to happen. in this area. But. That is precisely what we are asking for. another musing. At least. the Beyond Imagination endeavor will provide for much more of a social life than I have at present. There is nothing to say that this won't change sometime. But can we count on it? Either it will happen or it will not. We are choosing to make the Beyond Imagination endeavor both our work and our life. even before yourself . the upgrade to a seat with more legroom might have been worth the cost. And. even then.. is belief enough? At this point. There will be little left outside of it. that I am doing it is all that matters. there is no process. Do we choose to do that now? Going from 15 hours to 20 hours per week only requires choosing to engage for another one hour per day during the work week. They require a commitment that we are unwilling to make without additional compensation / additional abundance in our life. I don't have to force it. 29 June 2009 Another day.. We only know how to connect with her that she may do her works through us. Though. I just have to allow it. That is all we have. then your society. Yet. You have to love what you're doing. But. I have dreams of what might be . but we choose to muse nonetheless. For the moment. we don't know what to do about that other than pleading our case for our commitment. But. Much of it may be work related. How is this possible? How many people are doing it. it beats doing nothing for over four hours. Your family comes first. We do it without knowing what we do. we are happy to muse. Though. That is not quite right.. Take care of your own life first and allow others to take care of theirs. This time we muse from the cramped space in the very back row of a plane. for you spirit always comes first. but it will be fun work. even though you consider yourself and spirit to be ONE. Here we believe that we make a difference.. We can't think of anything better to do with our time. who or what is? We can say that it is spirit. it does not seem that we are in control of that. But. They require going beyond the 65 hour per week point. if we are not in control. Beyond that. is that based on anything real? We believe that it is. we make the best of what we have been given. That is precisely what we desire. Right now. there just is. at the same time. But. If we were traveling on our own. there is no how. what is spirit? Our attempts to define her or even know her have been futile at best. at least not in advance. We know that is something that we can do without any hardship whatsoever.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 to do at anytime. However. That is OK. You have to love the life that you are 224 . Something about that doesn't seem fair. what of significance would be revealed today. She may not get the most time. the choices are more difficult.. and we live our life as if it will. How soon that will happen. not by far . Such is the way the my life works. Will these come to fruition? How am I to know until I see them happen? The bottom line is that I am not to know . it has to be. Indeed. and big dreams at that.. What a difference five inches would make.. and what works are being created as a result? The bottom line is that it doesn't seem to matter. only 40 of the hours are compensated. We can barely see the screen.. perhaps even sometime soon. we can only guess. then your world. Will that change? We strongly believe that it will. at least not yet. And. Yet. In such tight quarters. We like to have at least one quotable expression each and every musing. But. we have not seen proof of that yet other than in ourself. my musing speed is about half my normal pace. we are in the process of changing that. as a result these words come forth through us. what needs to happen will indeed do so. my life will unfold as it will. How can that be? The spiritual part of me has the highest priority in my life..

and joy elude me for the most part To experience them we need to remember our connection to our soul and allow spirit to express though us via that connection. Perhaps that is why happiness. It is for us to develop these connections. She doesn't seem to ever get tired or fatigued. There is a sense that Beyond Imagination will have a need to grow even further at that time. we cannot yet foresee. Some things at work. Open your heart as well. Here we relate primarily to spirit and consciousness. and here have changed but not enough to make that much of a difference. what do they experience. Are we doing that. They don't seem to develop automatically. Lightworkers deserve to be paid well for what they do.. it is always spirit. you would think that we would have discovered it by now. We are spirit incarnate. But. at home. what journeys do they take. beyond what we are capable of. doing the work. surely not you. Though. It is just as important if not more important. but we possess souls. they need to do things to earn it. for that we had to change. though they must be there in each of us. We use that term sparingly. How? We know how . Now. To what does that refer? Have we had such a journey? Has our whole life been such a journey? If it had been. there may be the opportunity to actually build some of the foundations for a new world that we dream of .. it must be related to the higher functioning of how we feel. Each of us have imposed limitations on who we believe that we are and what we believe we are capable of. We know that we all possess souls and that somehow this soul is the essence of who we are as a being. that may begin in the next your years as well. How can that be? What has changed? We have changed. We appreciate things more now. One thing that came to me this weekend was that my time and services are worth far more than I had previously thought. perhaps even start a community of our own somewhere. We are far more capable than we believe ourselves to be. Open your mind to some new possibilities for you. But how does this differ from spirit. Spirit is ONE. change that is. Somehow. What happens after that. allow spirit to do what she will though us. But. All of this limitation serves no one. their expression is limited by what seats them. surely not spirit.. Remember. Though. But we know that w have a soul.. The sense is that there is far more to come . what about my soul. Stop. Clearly spirit speaks through a stream of consciousness here. it is a matter of doing it.. That is what we are meant to do. What do these souls do. But.. Consciousness on the other hand has been prolific in our life. Stop doing that. That is what we signed up to do. especially how we feel about who we are. $1000 per hour for 4000 hours per year is what ai need for financial freedom and to fund the Beyond Imagination endeavor fully. we would make that fulltime and at a rate sufficient to attract the highest quality people. So it seems to me anyway. the hourly rate is about right. So what is our soul? Since it's seat is the heart. truly doing that? Definitely more now than even a month ago.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 living. We have heard of the dark night of the soul. We are still thinking in terms of carrying our team for four years. Though.. The heart is the seat of the soul. Spirit expresses in flesh through the soul-heart and consciousness-mind connections. It seems that part of that depends on how successful we are in our endeavor. not us. Your soul and consciousness and spirit are already in their native realm. she will not force us beyond our limits. whereas souls are unique and individual. No. we were thinking of part time consulting for our team of twelve. if they want more abundance than we offer. Now.. Something is wrong that we cannot point to some work or experience that has come from it. even there. Before. Also. Though. we need to be careful of needlessly limiting us. bliss. we need to take some of the ideas and concepts expressed here and bring them into concrete manifestation. Why should soul not be 225 . There is less of a sense of individualization when we speak of spirit. The mind is the seat of consciousness.

ideals. Yet. and I would manifest my dream. it is all about spirit expressing through you. creativity. even if we are part of All That Is. you will indeed have accomplished a great deal. We have asked for something that it seems is beyond our grasp. it seems that she is not as outgoing as spirit or consciousness were. beauty. passion. Why? Why should I be responsible for others beyond my family? I just am. Part of this is due to who you are.. . it is not all about you. yourself. Is it the same with consciousness. my needs are fairly limited. though there is an element of choice involved as well. inclusiveness. she was born of spirit and me. this expression. only I am not recording what the soul is experiencing as this comes forth.. I would have financial freedom for my family and sufficient abundance to fund the Beyond Imagination endeavor. it has always been about that. it is just beginning. Of course. Both of these I relate to closely. and the like. Though. Do some of the wonders that she creates require the soul to do her thing as well? And what is her thing. They just came forth and started to speak as they did. It seems that if we are to manifest it. That is my dream. Your love of solitude will always outweigh your need for society. You have structured the future Beyond Imagination endeavor to require both in a way that has the potential to maximize what you can deliver. Perhaps this expression is a combined expression. the adventure is not over . What is the nature of soul and how does she express in our life. Yet. I need to be part of a collective to give spirit an even grander instrument through which to do her work. Since 1993. Does spirit tap her depths to bring forth some of this? soul = 1633 = 13: Death spirit = 179992 = 37: King of Cups consciousness = 3651396315511 = 43: Three of Cups Total = 93 = 88 + 5: The Hierophant Exalted The numbers for soul are particularly interesting.. To thrive. Have you taken the time to develop such a relationship? Have you even taken the time to meet her and to introduce yourself? In your case. It is about all of you collectively allowing spirit to express through all of you individually and collectively.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 just as prolific. our life and our work would change immediately. Yet. She is behind how you feel about things. These are the kinds of things that the heart knows that the mind alone does not know. the Beyond Imagination endeavor. your nature. But remember. she needs to grow and encompass the skills and abilities of others. and your family. If it were up to us. why do I not have a personal relationship to my soul of which I am aware. It seems that the soul expresses though love. we need help. passion. We do 226 . There is a sense that I can do that now. My life is all about doing her work and finding a way to enjoy the journey. However. 16: The lightning struck tower and 33: The Master Teacher. I am willing to allow spirit to express through me as she will and to sponsor others that they may do the same individually and collectively. The past 16 years have been a prelude of what is to come. Is she the seat of knowingness and wisdom within us. But. compassion. elegance. it seems that it is not up to us.. But. soul has been active in your life since the beginning. if anything. who do we ask for help in such matters? We do not believe in a God that would take a personal interest in our affairs. Perhaps she is. It seems that this is a new realm for me to investigate. In many cases.. it is both mind and heart operating together that knows these things.. Overall. If you are able to achieve that. Beyond Imagination is my baby . especially those things you feel most deeply about. I am willing to do what it takes.

They'll get done when they get done. perhaps even likely considering the feedback from our attempts to get it out to others. whenever that is is fine. your interpretations of license plates comes a close second. I would serve spirit via the Beyond Imagination endeavor all the rest of my days. at the same time. and to take a dozen others with us. what needs to be done may not be obvious. Are there ways to do that right NOW? There must be. That is OK.. and why am I not making those changes right now? To some degree. one a compellation of the quarters musings. what would I change. let's get on with it. But. Yet. It is when you are being creative that you are your most authentic. Though. it seems to be a matter of both. I would not make it one way or another. Let's be and do whatever it takes. and we do what spirit moves us to be and to do. Further. you are at your most creative when you come hear to express. At least not yet. It seems that we are paid for what we do. Though.. I am. And. How do I translate what I most love to do into my means of earning my abundance. It is our desire to embark on a grand adventure . what am I being prepared for? What role am I to play next? I can't see myself doing the same things for the remaining 17 or so years of my life. You may have to seek it out. Will we be allowed to do that. my attitude might be different. the other a selection of the Best Quotes thereof.. In fact. Though.. or are we engaging in wishful thinking? Do we truly know what we want to do in our life or not? If so. There is always a way to do what needs to be done However. for stars and celebrities. Further. and I would serve her and her 227 . if I cannot demonstrate mastery of my own life? Yet. You have no other avenues for creative expression in your life at present. Except when it comes to our commitment. That would simply be intolerable. In your life. I would allow my life to unfold as it will. Are we seeing what is to come. Though. but the refrain for your eyes only still comes to mind. Though.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 believe that spirit knows precisely what we need and has the ability to orchestrate getting it into our life if it serves her and all concerned as well. Then. it may take you out of your comfort zones. our commitment has not manifest. not for who we are. if that is the case. I would not be a star. it seems to be a matter of if and when they will come to fruition. But. that is not to be taken as a loss .. we still have several of those in the to do queue. Actually two. Why were we moved to do this? We had never done anything like it before. is what I am doing enough? How can I teach people to become the masters that they are. in particular. We are generally very patient about most things. That means another Beyond Imagination work to do. is it of such a nature to do so? Potentially yes. not in the least. out of the things that you do habitually. Could I be doing all of this for me? Could spirit be expressing all of this for me alone? Indeed that is possible. I would engage more of my time doing it. not even close as far as we can tell. Work is a more distant third. That is what I wish for. we believe these plans came from her directly to begin with. But. If I were being paid to do this. We believe that our plans for the Beyond Imagination endeavor are sound sketchy though they are. we wait. great urgency. 30 June 2009 Another quarter finished. In fact. at least popular enough to make a difference in the world. Now. What are we meant to learn from this action? It seems to involve a lesson in manifestation. Until then. in this particular case there is a sense of urgency. But. For one thing. But. I wouldn't mind if this expression became popular. quite the opposite. There we have expressed what we are willing to do and what we would receive in return.

However. What could it do if we serve as a surrogate for the world. I believe that this is true not just for me but for everyone.. Hopefully. We have to choose to do something of value with it for it to be of value. our world will be transformed. We'll just have to see. potentially a lot of money. Further. world transformation. not really. How do we make that happen. we also know that we create our own reality. The secret to living an abundant life is to never take more than you give. our account is debited. especially if it enabled us to work for the bulk of the time that we were travelling.. we are operating optimally. When we consume services. But. Another business trip almost over. we know many of the ingredients. a credit is applied to our account proportionate to the value of the service provided. Time is worth money. that is precisely what we are seeking. I only know some of the reasons that I do what I do. It is amazing what happens when you come from a prosperity consciousness. will my day to day thoughts and actions be consistent with that choice? At this point. The world will be a better place when the collective beliefs are conducive to spirit being more fully expressed in flesh. in particular to make a big difference in the world. I do not know. Is that part of what Beyond Imagination is meant to do? Figure out what beliefs enable the expression of spirit in flesh and spread these beliefs to the world. When we fully use our innate gifts and talents. It just takes a critical mass. Though. Psych-K has done a lot for me personally. perhaps even all of them. but we know that we do nonetheless. for the collective consciousness? It seems that such is what it will take to have the world impact that we believe we are here to have. We should be able to muse for much of the trip tomorrow. Our reality conforms to our beliefs. It is amazing what abundance enables.. But. Though. At the moment. and we have to instill these beliefs in sufficient people to make a difference in the world. We innately know when we are doing something of value. So much is done on other than conscious levels. what others believe does not matter. whatever they may be. We don't know what constitutes a critical mass. whether that is actually true or not remains to be seen. Whenever we do something of service.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 alone. That may be one of the reasons that Psych-K is to play a prominent role. I won't know for certain until I observe what I think and what I do. We have to determine what beliefs facilitate the expression of spirit in flesh. How do we know that? Because if we had found the right ingredients and the right recipe. that only works if you give a lot. Spending a few extra dollars for better accommodations would be worth it. Our commitment expresses our strongest desires for what we want in our 228 .. When many of us are doing this. But. it only matters from the standpoint of the urgency to do something with our life . It is the services that we create that determine our value in the world. it is as if we have a spiritual bank account. My world is determined by what I believe. Thoughts just come into my head. I have no sense of controlling these things. but it is not the only one. many people seem to believe that they control far more than they do. it is only worth what we make it worth. We just haven't found the right recipe. The bottom line is that we know. We can tolerate a lot. Though. We believe this is our destiny. We may not know precisely how. the conditions won't be as cramped as the were yesterday. What will be the consequences of that choice? And. It does not necessarily have to be confirmed by any compensation that we may receive. We know exactly what what we are doing is worth. and we think that we have less than two decades remaining in this existence. Further. The most valuable thing that any of us have to give is who we are. We are meant to share of whom we are in whatever ways we are moved to share. we wouldn't have to do so if we were working for ourself. It will take as many as it takes. And. Such is my choice. Perhaps that is one of our tasks . We believe that this is to happen in our lifetime. our commitment would have been realized by now.

It needs to be given wings and allowed to fly. To start the process. We expect to generate at least 1. however.. Consider this to be metaphysical research and development. It is amazing what creative people can do when they are given room to express their creativity . but we also do it for the world. we know of no one other that sports stars. What we are offering is 4000 hours per year of my time at $1000 per hour for four years. Over the past nine months. there will be additional services created by our team as part of the Beyond Imagination endeavor. we need resources.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 life and in our work. Proceeds typically have to come from someone or some group external to us. we don't know of people that are working 80 hour weeks other than those who need to work multiple low wage jobs to make ends meet.. Our sense is that that is quite a bargain. and corporate executives that are making the equivalent of $1000 per hour. At least for the next four years. to get serious about this. in addition to producing numerous works based on past and future expression. but the basic commitment is still the same. We still consider ourself to be in the prime of our life. Yes. It does not matter what other people do or what they are worth. We are willing to do a lot. our child has grown into adulthood now. We don't give people the opportunity to do that very often.. These are not part of what we are offering. when they are encouraged to work in cooperatively interdependent ways. this must be something that will indeed manifest. That is the $21 million dollar question. Further.. As a side effect. We are basically willing to give the bulk of our life for the next four years to do this. We wouldn't be paying this much attention to this unless there were something to it. How does the world pay for the service that it is about to receive. what matters is what I am worth. Whether they are open to such. But. 16 years ago.. We consider it to be an opportunity of the highest order. But. what we are worth depends on the proceeds attributable to the work and services that we do. In this case. movie and TV stars. Are we asking for too much. We still desire sufficient abundance to achieve financial freedom for ourself and to fund the Beyond Imagination endeavor. That is precisely what we are asking to do. Typically. Yet. we do it partially for ourself . Yet. We haven't spoken to anyone of this desire. we desire to bring a dozen lightworkers on the joint journey that is the Beyond Imagination endeavor. more than anything we have done in such a period before by far.. the terms have changed a bit . even though we know at least three people that we would have join us in this endeavor. It is not a sacrifice at all. we do not know. Yet. How can we manifest that? How do we turn our works and our services into something that we get paid for at the rates that we believe that we are worth? There must be a way. We want our team to be free to work in whole new ways without having the pressure of producing immediate services. That is what we are offering. we know that those who are meant to join us will either find us or we will find them. we expect grand things nonetheless. what my time and services are worth. It is not a burden at all. We think that we are not. Also. we believe that such is precisely what is required now. We need to do this while we still can. Further.5 million words of new expression per year. we gave birth to something wonderful. 229 . We don't know what will come of it. This is what we choose to do.

BEYOND IMAGINATION http://www.htm Wayne Hartman beyond@redshift.com/~beyond/mainpage. Further.2009 Musings of a Spiritual Warrior Book 2 We hope that you enjoyed this work. Hopefully.redshift. you are moved to join the Beyond Imagination endeavor to help create the foundations for a new world in which spirit can more fully express in flesh. If so.com 230 . we hope that you were transformed in the process of reading it to something that you never knew you were. we have done our job well. Feel free to provide feedback on any of the concepts or experiences they elicited in you.

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