Hydrogenium A proving of Hydrogen has recently been conducted by J. Sherr (1992).

It appears to be an important remedy which looks very like Cannabis indica. Although the name Hydrogen doesn't tell us that all the acids are in fact compounds of hydrogen with another element (s), we shall see that the Hydrogen picture can be applied to all the Acidums. The theme of Hydrogen is a desire to be one, to let all the loose parts come together into one large whole. In the 'alternative world' this is often described as 'holistic' thinking. In the scientific world we recognise this theme in the desire to bring all theories under one common law. In religion it is the one God. This book can be seen as an expression of Hydrogen too: it shows a strong desire to gather all remedy pictures together into one a single, all encompassing structure. Signature The name Hydrogen means: forms (genesis) water (hydro). Water is formed by a combination of Hydrogen and Oxygen. Hydrogen is a gas and does not exist on earth in its pure form. It is a basic element of the sun and the stars and it supplies energy to the sun through a nuclear fusion process, in which another element, Helium, is born. Hydrogen gas is extremely light and it is the only element that can escape the gravitational forces of the earth. Concepts Stage 1 Initiative Impulsive Instinctive One Single Simple Lonely Alone Single minded One sided Unprepared Naive Immature Hydrogen series Being True Untrue Whole Space Time Psychosis Unborn Group analysis Being one: desire to be one Desire to be one: totally, forever One truth One whole: holism Not being one: isolation Simplicity: spaceless Simplicity: timeless Being alone: impersonal Initiative to exist: conception Desire to be one: symbiosis

Desire to be one: exhaustion Loneliness through being separated. Hydrogen picture Essence: being one and desire to be one. Being one: unity consciousness These people can experience the world as one total unity. Or they may have a strong desire to experience the world as such. Just like a foetus that experiences the world as a whole, there are no divisions and distinctions yet. They are one with the world and with all living beings. This feeling is expressed as a great love for everything and everybody. They may also have a feeling of being able to merge with others. They can be quite erotic, or they may live in real symbiotic style with another being. The desire for unity can also be expressed as strong religious feelings. They want to experience themselves and the world they live in as one whole and they will search for a religion that might fulfil this desire. They might feel very drawn to mysticism and to Buddhism. They can feel the presence of God and the unity through higher states of consciousness. These states will make them feel very happy, they are in ecstasy, everything looks beautiful and wonderful. Desire to be one: now and forever totally and completely Forever, totally, completely, they are concepts that relate to this desire for unity. They are all expressions of a feeling of oneness. One truth: absolute truth They search for truth, they want to know why things are the way they are. We can see this same desire in the world of science. Scientists are forever trying to combine their theories into one, all encompassing theory. Trying to find a universal theory of physics, trying to relate everything that happens in the world to one theoretical model. These people might also display a tremendous curiosity, a wish to investigate everything and to participate in everything. That way they can try and find out how all phenomena might be related to each other. They are convinced that eventually it will be shown that everything is interconnected and they will do everything to prove it to themselves and to the world. Simplicity: spaceless Their experience is one of simplicity, nothing has been put into a fixed space yet. They are here and that is all. They are still in touch with the universe. They often feel as if they are outside of their bodies, as if they are in space with the energies swirling around them. They find it difficult to judge distances, often make mistakes in size and distance. They like to be on top of a mountain to be at one with the space above. They can appear to be quite naive. Others often think of them as being rather simple, or vague and idealistic. Simplicity: timeless To them time does not exist. Everything just is. There is just the present, which is the same as eternity. They can just as easily get in touch with the distant past as with the distant future, to them it is all the same. They don't easily distinguish between past, present and future, so they are quite likely to make mistakes in timing things. Time often moves too slowly according to them. Not being one: isolation After a while they start to experience separation. They feel separated from the world, estranged from their family. This can go so far that they feel that these gaps cannot be closed anymore and then they feel terribly lost and alone. It is as if their world is collapsing and they are going through

hell. They can develop all sorts of fears, particularly the fear that they will never be able to feel this unity with others, with the world and with God anymore. It is as if they have just left paradise to incarnate into this world and suddenly they find themselves totally isolated from the universe. It is as if body and soul are separated, no longer belonging together. They often dream of halves. This separation can express itself many ways. They may feel betrayed, rejected or abandoned. they dream about death, enemies and crimes. Desire to be one: exhaustion The desire of having a total experience of oneness can bring them very close to a state of exhaustion. They want to exhaust something, to get everything out of it that they can in order to experience it as fully as possible. Or they might exhaust themselves in repeatedly trying to regain a once held feeling of unity. This can result in feelings of hurry, restlessness, enthusiasm or fanaticism. Another area where exhaustion can manifest itself is in the object of the desire. Once this has been emptied or exhausted the person will feel that he is separated from what was once there. Not true: psychosis Their inability to orientate leads to feelings of confusion and dizziness. They don't know where they are anymore. They can't seem to achieve anything anymore and they desperately start to look for something to hold on to. In extreme situations they can even become psychotic, where they don't know the difference between their own Self and other people anymore. Initiative to exist: conception This phase corresponds to that of conception. It is the beginning in the development of life, the union between ovum and sperm. But they aren't aware of what is coming. One could say: 'they have no idea what they are letting themselves in for, poor things'. They often give you the feeling that they haven't been born properly yet, that they are not really there. Expressions Fears: accidents, going insane, hell, death, future, any events, disease. Dreams: defecation, animals, cats, camels, cows, suffering, eating, circus, acrobats, children, dead coming to life again, balloons, erotic, crime, danger, flying, fantastic, disgusting, heights, long jumps, religious, snow. Delusions: separated from the world, unreal, betrayed, God, being old, being dirty, criticised, pursued, poisoned, pregnant, small. Mood: hilarious, laughing, haste, restless, cheerful, singing, optimistic, peaceful, content, unsure, stubborn, serious, gloomy, suicidal. Irritability: critical, angry, violent, ungrounded, agg. interruption. Mental: curious, absentminded, dreamy, confused, mistakes, lack of concentration, habitual, automatism. Senses: sharp, sensitive. Contact: -amel.,agg.-, reserved. Religion: religious, mysticism, meditation. Hobbies: travelling. Generals Type: blond, thin. Locality: right Weather: agg. cold, agg. frost (2), amel. wind, amel. outside, agg. cloudy, agg. sun.

Time: agg. 5-9 am and 9 pm; full moon, annually; sudden appearance and disappearance of complaints Desires: sour, pineapple (3), salt, fish, alcohol, carbonated drinks, sweet, tobacco, cold drinks, hashish. Aversions: sour, warm food and drinks, coffee, tea, spices (2). Food: agg. sour, vinegar, fruit, tea, garlic. Menses: intermittent, late, dark, clots. Sleep: sleeplessness Physical: agg. exertion, clothing, agg. light; amel. lying down, agg. walking upstairs, agg. touch. Complaints Congenital deformities Burning, stinging pains. Acidosis, alkalosis. Weakness; fever with thirst. Headache with sensation of heat. Aphthae and profuse saliva; dry mouth. Stomach pains Diarrhoea with sour, acrid, watery stools, which do not smell. Spurting out with much flatus. Diarrhoea from fermentation. Nappy rash. Bleeding haemorrhoids and fissures around anus. Cystitis. Ulcers, fistula, naevi. Accidents and sprains. DD: Helium, Stage 1 and 10, Palladium, Platina, Anhalonium, Cannabis indica, LSD. DD Anhalonium: also has very strong out of body experiences, cosmic experiences with fantastic shapes and colours. But a typical difference is that Anhalonium has a mix up of the senses, e.g. beautiful music is experienced as a fantastic array of colours, etc. DD Cannabis indica: can also be absentminded and dreamy and have lots of religious experiences, but this remedy has a typical tendency to play down all his symptoms and sensations, it all becomes rather hilarious. They don't have the typical feelings of unity either. DD Blank remedy: Hydrogen has many features of the blank remedy. The theme of separation is strongly present, but Hydrogen feels separation from everything, from the totality. Case 1 A woman of 40 years is confused, feels only half present. She is very occupied with death and her dead father. She doesn't know it all anymore, doesn't want anything anymore. Another moment she has the feeling being born again. Nature overtakes her, the cosmic aspect, so she wants to study anthroposophy. She wants to reflect on it, but that makes her crazy. It is as if life comes to her, enters her and she doesn't know what to do with it. She had a kind of image or dream that she was worm that was crawling into a sphere and that pictures the way how she wants to enter things. She has the desire to run away from it, to hide. She can't handle it, it is an infinite feeling. When she continues too long or too far with things she becomes chaotic. All is too extensive, too great and she wants to give a place, to share it with others. She is very engaged with nature because nature doesn't make any demands. She wants to experience it instead of thinking about it as in the past. She becomes very tired from these thoughts and emotions and it gives her a headache. It feels encased and vulnerable. The pain was at first at the right side but is now at the left side of her head and is worse from coffee. Generals

Weather: chilly, cold feet. Desires: nuts (2), peanuts (2), cheese (2), spicy, sour, fruit (2). Aversion: meat, coffee. Food: agg. fat, tea, pears; amel. milk. Menses: infrequent, every 6 till 8 weeks; nervous and irritable before menses. Analysis Typical words she uses are 'infinite', 'cosmic', 'born' and they are typical for Hydrogenium. This remedy also has the feeling of no boundaries, 'it enters her all'. The desire to experience things instead of think about them is another strong confirmation. The image of the worm that was crawling into a sphere is a beautiful picture for Hydrogenium, we can see in it the symbols of unification, conception en the entering of life. Further confirmations for Hydrogenium are: confused, chaotic, death, crazy, too far, too long, too great, extensive, it overtakes her, sharing, -amel. nature, -amel. sour, -amel. fruit, agg.- coffee. Reaction One month after Hydrogenium 1M she is much more relaxed and not so much engaged anymore with death. She feels herself and can enjoy her life, her vacation and child. She can feel better, doesn't feel pressed anymore. She has the feeling as if she is reborn. All things still take a lot of energy from her because she has to do it in a new way, has to live through it in another way. She needed a lot of sleep, that gave her inspiration. She has dreamt of people she knew before and has worked problems out with them in her dreams. The headache is much less. The next half year she gets two other doses of Hydrogenium 1M and after that these problems are gone.