Professional Documents
Culture Documents
the End-Time
Zombies
Detoxing from Religious
Counterfeits
By Pamela
Sheppard
Publishing
The Preface
over, or succeed.
The rock in this
symbolism is not Peter but rather what
the Father revealed to Peter, that Jesus
is the Messiah. The Lords church is built
upon the rock that is Christ Himself. He
is the Head of His church.
As you read this book, you will come to
understand that in these later days, the
institutional system is not the Lords
church. Not only is He not the head of
Her, but in His own words, there was a
time when He stood outside and knocked.
(Rev. 3:20) The invisible church of Christ
is neither a building nor an institutional
system. The spiritual church is the Body
of Christ, consisting of all born again
believers, both living and dead.
Since Satan is the god of this world and
since the institutional church is also in
the world, Satan has power and authority
in the Harlot. His army of fallen angels
and demons have strategically swooped in
with false doctrine and practices. Many
churchgoers have already departed from
the faith and even some of the very elect
have
received false conversions and
counterfeit gifts. .
Yet this book is a
beacon
of hope, echoing the Lords
cover.
The
bland,
lukewarm
expressions on the faces of the
Christian zombies are priceless.
I make references to various bible
scriptures with only a few direct
quotations from the New King
James Version.
Contents
INTRODUCTION
CHAPTER 3
The Bridal
Paradigm...126
CHAPTER 6
Kundalini
CHAPTER 7
CHAPTER 8
CHAPTER 9.......................................................234
RESCUE: A Religious Detox Journey..................234
INTRODUCTION
A Word From A Former Zombie:
A minister Who No Longer
Goes To Church
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more
individual
support
than
any
churchgoer has ever received or ever will
receive in a building. We can provide you
with counsel and advice to support you
while you are on your own in your
community. My perspective is that even if
the Internet becomes unsafe, you can
reach for this book to find the wisdom you
need to address your individual and local
concerns.
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CHAPTER 1
The Zombie-Masters, The Rats
and the Roaches
A Telepathic Communication
When I left the church in 2004, I did not
know that it was a permanent move. I
expected that the Lord would lead me to
another church affiliation. I had my eye
on Rev. Paul Mortons organization, the
Full Gospel Baptists. It seemed a great
choice for me because I had been
ordained and served in a denominational
church
very compatible with
the
Baptists, yet I was also a Pentecostal in
orientation, belief and practice. So when 3
years passed and I did not have a leading
to join ANY church, I wondered why. It
didnt take long for me to be answered
once I sought the Lord in prayer. In less
than a week, a kind of telepathic
communication took place to let me know
that I was not to join any institutional
church, ever again.
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the
New
Age
Movement.
A churchgoing woman,
Bailey is actually the founder of what is
known today as the occult. Most
startling is that Alice Bailey began as a
Sunday School Teacher in a Presbyterian
church. Think of it. An IC Sunday School
teacher helped to promote the New World
Order.
In 1973, the late doctor, Kurt Koch of
Germany outlined what he described as
an increasing chaos growing in the
intellectual and spiritual climate of our
times:
1. An unquenchable thirst in the soul
of man is continuing to promote an
increase in all forms of mysticism,
spiritism and musical ecstasy.
2. Mankinds
sensual
desires
are
promoting an increase in sexual,
alcoholic and drug licentiousness.
3. The heightening of the spiritual
need of our times has led to the
birth of the so-called charismatic
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movement
and
other
extreme
religious tendencies.
4. An overemphasis on the irrational is
producing a growth in magic and
other mediumistic practices.
5. The pandemonium of our times is
most terribly evident in the Judas,
Spiritistic and Satan Cults which
have recently sprung up in different
parts of the world.5
The times that Koch is referring to existed
40 years ago. In 4 decades, the spread of
mysticism has been successfully carried
out by virtue of the tremendous, explosive
growth of the charismatic movement
within the IC. Magic has successfully
crossed over from New Age occultism into
the church and religious worlds. As the
Lord said, a perverse generation seeks
after signs. Clearly we are that perverse
generation.
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CHAPTER 2
The Flesh, the World and Its
Institutions
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45
10.
God is not revealed to all, but only to
a select individual or nation, and their
rulers and or priesthood.9
Here is a
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charismatic.
They
act
to
persuade
recruits, and do not give up this activity
until the recruits are won over. If the
potential recruits do not cooperate
according to Jezebels persuasion, they
become
angry,
relentless at issuing
retribution.
More than anything else, the pastors fear
of these aggressive zombies keeps strife
alive, and will cause him to have to make
some difficult decisions. If wisdom is not
used, then the flock will start church
hopping which backlash on the weekly
take at offering time.
So it is time to come out. If I am wrong,
what do you have to lose? You can go
back, do the religious thing that your
church will accept. Just repent with tears,
even wails that you were deceived by a
wicked Jezebel by the name of Pam
Sheppard.
Your local church
will
probably receive you
back with
open
arms.
Better yet, I suggest that you simply ask
the Lord in prayer, Say Lord, is Pam
Sheppard correct? Are the days of the
organized
church
done?
Is
it
a
dangerous place? Should I leave?
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CHAPTER 3
Salvation and the IC
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Dangerous
Learning by experience with clients
has proven to be more revelatory than
preaching, pastoring or any other
ministerial function. If I had not been
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examples
of
false
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my point of view:14
slight difference.
I have not looked at this scripture
recently, but I am recalling how God had
called Moses to ministry, and then sent
demons on his trail simply because, as a
Jew, Moses had never been circumcised. It
turns out that circumcision was a
required step, with both literal and
symbolic significance.
I interpret what happened to Moses in
this manner. Moses could not do what he
was actually called to do until
he be
circumcised .Not focusing on the act of
circumcision, I simply use Moses as an
example. As such, I believe that if the
Holy Spirit is
undeceiving you in this
hour, then you are one of the elect of God,
chosen before the worlds were even
framed. (Ephesians 1:4-6)
I admit that some are being undeceived by
Satan as a form of torment. However, if it
has been exposed to you that your
conversion was a trick, a set-up of the
enemy, religious demons usually
keep
this particular trick under wraps. He
wants you to assume that you are born
again and so that he can then blame both
you and God for the fact that you can't
stop sinning, you are not blessed, and
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victory is in no way
yours.
In other
words, he wants you to remain in religious
circumstances where you have no power.
Yet if with every page you have been
turning in this book, you are getting these
ah ha moments of Wow! This makes so
much sense, then the Holy Spirit is
undeceiving you so that He can finally
draw you to the cross and the resurrection
and do His job by providing you with a
true, bona-fide conversion. Grieved and
quenched because the IC has been failing
miserably trying to do only what God
Himself can do, the Lord wants you out of
that condemned building, aka, the Harlot
or the Whore House.
Therefore, if you are being set free as you
read,
it is my experience that God is
undeceiving you so that you can be born
again. He does not put new wine into old
wineskins because the wineskin---your
spirit---is dead in the trespasses of
religious
and
hypocritical
sin.
Nevertheless, you were called to salvation
in Gods plan from the beginning. You
were also called to be undeceived in an
age of gross deception.
So as Moses could not do his ministry
until he was circumcised, your salvation
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CHAPTER 4
Why A Zombie is A Zombie
Confirmation
You had a dream that you should move to
Georgia. Or perhaps someone from your
church
prophesied
over
you
and
proclaimed that God has called you to
minister in Georgia. The same day, you
heard Ray Charles sing, Georgia on My
Mind. Then a stranger called you on
the telephone from Georgia, but it was a
wrong number. In the afternoon, a friend
stopped by and gave you some peaches.
Georgia peaches.
So there it is you say to yourself. I got 3
signs
or
witnesses
that
provide
confirmation to my dream or prophetic
word. God wants me to move to Georgia. I
have cited such a ridiculous example in
order to highlight what foolish believers
do constantly. The confirmation thing is
nothing butan assumption, not based on
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Passivity in General
Jessie Penn Lewis is the most notable
author on this subject, followed by
Watchman Nee,
decades later, who
merely repeated Jessies teachings. Below
are a few of her insights on passivity:
The word "passivity" simply describes the
opposite condition to activity; and in the
experience of the believer it means,
briefly, (1) loss of self-control--in the
sense of the person himself controlling
each, or all of the departments of his
personal being; and (2) loss of freewill--in
the sense of the person himself exercising
his will as the guiding principle of
personal control, in harmony with the will
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of God
.
All the danger of "passivity" in the
surrendered
believer,
lies
in
the
advantage taken of the passive condition
by the powers of darkness. Apart from
these evil forces, and their workings
through the passive person, "passivity" is
merely inactivity, or idleness. In normal
inactivity, that is, when the evil spirits
have not taken hold, the inactive person is
always holding himself ready for activity;
whereas in "passivity" which has given
place to the powers of darkness, the
passive person is unable to act by his own
volition.
The chief condition, therefore, for the
working of evil spirits in a human being,
apart from sin, is passivity, in exact
opposition to the condition which God
requires from His children for His
working in them. Granted the surrender
of the will to God, with active choice to do
His will as it may be revealed to him, God
requires co-operation with His Spirit, and
the full use of every faculty of the whole
man.
In brief, the powers of darkness aim at
obtaining a passive slave, or captive to
their
will;
whilst
God
desires
a
regenerated
man,
intelligently
and
actively willing, and choosing, and doing
His will in liberation of spirit, soul and
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A Blocked Conscience
Conscience along with communion and
intuition are senses of the human spirit.
When the conscience is shut down, it is
because it has become passive. Here is
what Jessie Penn-Lewis has written about
this subject:
confirm
or
act
as
evidence
of
ANYTHING???? Look at that question
closely. If they believed, were they not
already born again? When I was saved, I
too knew nothing about the Holy Ghost.
Passivity of conscience has caused many
to believe false doctrine of all kinds.
Here is an explanation
stands out for me:
offered
that
The
hyperreligious
has
become
threatened
in
their
world
and
disempowered by people, and so they
develop the need to devalue others and
create value in themselves by their
religious practice. 20The effects of
hyperreligiosity are related to how OCD,
BDD and other potentially lethal mental
illnesses destroy the quality of life. The
hyperreligious should not allow religious
ideas to justify conditions of mental
illness by saying, "I'm just being holy."
When the hyperreligious uses religion as
a real help to help them overcome other
types of mental illness, they may see that
since they had some problems with their
other mental illness, these problems may
reflect in how they might have a problem
understanding healthy religious thinking.
The religious must have sophisticated
thinking tools to know whether "psychic"
abilities or abilities to detect God or the
supernatural are actually lowering the
quality of one's life, or are in fact really
spiritual experiences.21
with our
spirit daily until it becomes
dependable.25
Many study all the time by learning facts
but they cannot discern truth in the
spirit. Watchman Nees quotation rings
true in my life for I have found that the
most important aspect of learning how to
discern is to experience the Lords hand
upon me as I myself am broken. When I
am broken, then I become sensitive and
discerning. Here is an example. I am
acquainted with
preachers who have
studied all the scriptures on pride and can
quote them, even preach a good message
about pride, yet not really be able to sense
the sinfulness of pride in their own
spirits. Therefore, when pride appears in
one of their church members, such a
minister will not be able to sense it. His
spirit will not be distressed. He may even
feel sympathetic to the zuch a zombie
when what he should be feeling is a sense
of distress within his own spirit.
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years.
Paul taught the Galatians that
witchcraft and idolatry are works of the
flesh. A work of the flesh is simply a
character flaw of the old sin nature before
experiencing salvation. This flaw lingers
on if the person does not submit him or
herself to the cross. To submit to the cross
is to allow the Holy Spirit to progressively
break you in both your personality and
your character traits. So what does this
mean, exactly. Does it mean that demons
are not involved in a work of the flesh?
Absolutely not. Witchcraft and idolatry
are demonic practices. What it does mean
is that people who have witchcraft in them
as a work of the flesha personality flaw
are
more
susceptible
to
demonic
influence, particularly religious demons
and devils.
In my counseling practice,
I have
personally
witnessed
countless
manifestations of evil spirits in ALL of the
works of the flesh, so clearly that I
perceive that there are two definitions of
witchcraft and idolatry. Where a work of
the flesh is a personality type that is
predisposed to demonic involvement, the
actual act of witchcraft and idolatry are
demonic practices. When demons are
looking
for
human
workers
to
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CHAPTER 5
Fruits of the Altered State of
Consciousness
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states
like
this
are triggered by
familiarity but most of all by routine.
Furthermore, there are moments in time
when
our
sensations,
perceptions,
thoughts and emotions are altered from
our normal state and several events can
trigger the alteration. In such cases, we
experience a diminished executive control
and our souls function of protection
begins
to
change.
Everyone
has
experienced a mild trance like state from
time to time where we strongly thought
that we picked up our keys, but we really
never touched them. Likewise, we can get
caught up in a sports game on TV, a
movie, cooking, even day dreaming.
So an altered state of consciousness is on
a
wide
spectrum,
from
very
mild
daydreaming to deep trances that are
induced by artificial means. The list of the
artificial means is a long one hypnosis,
chanting,
meditation,
yoga,
binaural
beats, reiki, visualization, deep breathing,
trauma, drugs, and sexual orgasm, to
name but a few.
In the mid-19th century, Max Weber, the
father of sociology, defined the altered
state in a way that very accurately
portrays
how
altered
states
of
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consciousness
are
induced
during
congregate worship services. It should be
pointed out that Max Weber died in 1920
and the Pentecostal movement had only
been active about 15 years while Weber
lived.
Webers
research
primarily
concentrated on religious systems around
the world, particularly in Europe and third
world countries. Important to note, I
suspect that Webers definition of the ASC
pre-dates
Pentecostalism
and
most
certainly, the Charismatic movement.
Weber stated that an altered state of
consciousness is entered into in two ways:
by tradition and by charisma. He defines
tradition as an automatic and unthinking
repletion of a person who manifests
passivity through lethargy and inertia.
Traditional ASCs are predictable and
mundane, consisting of a life governed by
routine. On the other hand, charisma is
just the opposite. It is a quality of human
personality that is extraordinary and
treated as though it is endowed with
supernatural, superhuman or at least
exceptional powers, qualities and abilities.
Astoundingly, I noticed that Weber
described in the 19th and early 20th
century
the
present
day
church
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A Composite Profile
Zombies who have been demonized
through entering into an ASC are
predominately men between the ages of
18-30. The men are more mystical or new
age, and tend to go to church AFTER they
have opened their chakras, generally to
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Joels Army
Speaking of IC battles brings this rather
Jezebelian end times revolutionary
teaching
to
mind.
Extremely
charismatic, it is the radical branch of
charismania,
considered among the
extreme of the extremes. Delusional at
best, so-called Christian churchgoers
actually believe that they are among the
few on the planet who literally have a
mandate from God
to take over and
control the entire world by any means
necessary, including genocide---- all in the
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Spirit. 2002, Kindle
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The Kundalini
A Famous Guru wrote:When Your body
begins trembling, hair stands on roots,
you laugh or begin to weep without your
wishing, your tongue begins to utter
deformed sounds, you are filled with fear
or see frightening visionsthe Kundalini
Shakti has become active.
The following are common manifestations
of the risen Kundalini:
Muscle twitches, cramps or spasms
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are
as
unintentional
and
uncontrollable
as
hiccups
Hearing an inner sound or sounds,
classically described as a flute, drum,
waterfall, birds singing, bees buzzing but
which may also sound like roaring,
whooshing, or thunderous noises or like
ringing in the ears.
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talking.
The charismatics that I knew
often described their relationship with
God in the same way as I believed I was
experiencing him.
The two years that Beth was romancing
Jesus were probably 2000-2002. Beth had
never heard of Mike Bickle even though
Bickle had already formulated his passion
for
Christ
teaching
in
1988.34
Consequently, in twelve years, Bickles
teaching spread to a little country town in
the Northwest and found 15 year old Beth.
I would never have heard from Beth in
2012, if it were not for the fact that her
two years of blissful delight and rapture
were followed by ten years of fear,
rejection and spirit sex.
A foreboding
scripture comes to mind. Be not many
masters or teachers, for yours shall be the
greater condemnation.
How many
countless others have suffered from this
damnable doctrine?
Only the Lord
Himself knows and I tremble at the
thought.
As her counselor, I became familiar with
the hurt, shame and fear for almost two
years. Its a toss-up as to which was most
damaging---the rejection she received
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CHAPTER 6
The Chakras and the Kundalini
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Chakras: A Charismatic/Occult
Connection
In charismatic religion, opening chakras
can happen through several religious acts
conducive to an altered state
such as
speaking in tongues, intercessory prayer,
the laying on of hands, through false
salvation doctrines (aka the I accept
Jesus practice of asking Jesus to come
into your heart. ), the sinners prayer,
and basically any time you are engaging in
an act that includes making an invitation
to the spirit world. The church mistakenly
calls these acts ways to experience the
Holy Spirit or bringing on the presence
of God. The Holy Spirit responds in His
own time, and on His own terms.
In the occult, there are also a variety of
practices that facilitate the opening of the
chakras, inviting all kinds of evil spirits
to enter the seeker. Some ways include:
hypnosis,
participating
in
seances,
invoking spirit guides, meditation, yoga,
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visualization,
automatic
writing,
mediumistic practices known today as
channeling eastern forms of massage
therapy,
martial
arts,
drugs,
reiki,
binaural beats, visiting a fortune-teller,
receiving healing through occult powers,
reading occult books, hypnosis, chanting,
astral travel, or any other way of entering
into passivity
by virtue of an altered
state.
With the soon culmination of the New
World Order,
these practices are
becoming more and more commonplace in
our world today, and are easily mistaken
for being harmless. Another purpose of
this book is that each reader
stays
vigilant and alert, so that you are not
duped into mistakenly calling upon evil
spirits. The more you know about these
practices, the more you will know what to
avoid.
visualization,
attempts are made
to
program the mind to discover inner power
and guidance. For example, by using the
mind to contact an alleged inner divinity
or higher self, practitioners claim they
can manipulate their personal reality to
secure desired goals, such as occult
revelations, financial security, health, or
improved learning to enhance human
living.
The prosperity gospel is causing lots of IC
folk to practice visualization.
The
teachings of I am blessed, I can name it
and claim it, I can command my morning,
I can decree and proclaim, and I can have
what I say, achieve my desires, be
successful---- all require visualization. In
speaking with a former witch, she
revealed that sex magic requires that you
strongly visualize the man you want while
masturbating, and you can cause him to
strongly desire to have sex with you by the
power of concentrated thought. In fact,
visualization is crucial to witchcraft. I
believe I am not out of line to suggest that
it is witchcraft to attempt to control the
actions of another with your thoughts.
Satanists have a practice where they go
into an ASC at a medium level, and
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Kundalini Energy
We Christians are completely unfamiliar
with kundalini and chakras. From my
research, I discovered that the kundalini
is depicted as human energy which sits
dormant in the root chakra at the base of
the spine. Most agree that kundalini is
stirred
up when a person
meditates,
visualizes and practices deep breathing
techniques. Prior to its activation, people
might dream of serpents or goddesses
which are the suspected to be signs of
this energy.
The pathway of kundalini energy is
through opened chakras. Once it reaches
the crown chakra at the top of the head,
the expectation is that
the person
becomes enlightened as to their purpose
and connection to the universe as well as
experiences bliss. Sign seeking zombies
would certainly be tempted to release the
kundalini
energy
because
the
supernatural is also released.
Signs,
wonders,
healings,
prophecies
and
individual manifestations of power are
common and expected by practitioners. In
fact, out of body experiences are ehanced,
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It took
the
intent
and
extreme
fasting
fanatic
who
was
possessed by this practice. As a professing
Christian, Billy trained himself in yoga
and other eastern religious practices.
Hoping to live to at least 100, he died in
his 50s. What I know now is that there
can be a real danger in it. . In fact, no one
should fast unless the Holy Ghost actually
puts you on one. When He does, you will
have no desire to eat or do other things.
Also, you may or you may not know the
reason for the fast.
Fasting produces an ASC that opens you
up to the spirit realm, weakening the flesh
to strengthen the spirit. I suspect that it
also opens the chakras and activates the
kundalini as well. The bottom-line is that
fasting is an invitation to the devil.
Remember how the Lord was driven into
the wilderness? His fast was not just
about enduring temptation. With His 40
day fast, Jesus actually challenged the
enemy to confront Him. Consider the
process of the Lords fast. He did not
hunger until after the tension built up and
the
conflict
was
over.
(Matt
4:2)
Consequently, true fasting is not a result
of a believers choice to not eat food or
drink water. Jesus was led to His fast and
through His fast by the Holy Ghost.
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you
need
without
really
understanding
what I appeared to have stumbled into
on my own. Yet I realize that it was no
accident, for what truly led me to occult
healing was the implementation of the
hidden agenda and strategy designed for
me by fallen angels.
Back in the day, I was called a medium.
Today, people who are used as a vehicle to
communicate with beings in the spirit
world are called channels. As was the
enemys plan, I noticed that if I became
still by shutting my mind down, when I
put my hands on a sick person or a body
part, that a negative energy from them
seemed to flow into my hands and up my
arms. My subjects revealed that at the
same time a positive energy flowed from
me and poured into them. When their
energy force entered my hands, it was
received as pain. My ritual was to wash my
hands shortly after I received the pain
from the sick. I did not personally accept
the ailment even though I felt its affects
in
the
same
part
of
my
own
body. However, once I washed my hands,
the pain left me and the infirmity
appeared to have left them.
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CHAPTER 7
Zombie, Fix Your Life!
Expose the Darkness!
Darkness can be vague, obscure, gloomy
and confusinga wisdom that does not
come from the Father of lightsa folly
that is sensual, yet subtly demonic. (James
3:15) Darkness can also be suggestive of
concealment, like a cloud that blocks the
sunlight and creates a gloomy day, or a
thick curtain that keeps a room dark, even
though the sun is shining right outside in
all of its brightness.
To walk in darkness is to give the religious
demon an unholy advantage where he will
enter into both spiritual and man-made
temples, and through a blasphemous
masquerade, attempt to exalt himself as
God. When the religious demon has Been
able to enter into a Christian temple of
either flesh or brick and subsequently
obtain
worship
for
itself
through
fraudulence and deceit, I suspect that
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your
mind,
both
conscious
and
unconscious is the ICs interpretation.
Coming out of the IC is one thing. Once
out, letting Her continue to guide our
spiritual lives by what she taught us for
years will bring nothing but confusion.
As the scriptures tell us, confusion is a
sign that the devil is lurking in the midst.
(James 3:16) Clearly, Satan knows the
bible better than any human being does.
So to keep us from fixing our lives, he will
remain behind the scenes, sneakily
guiding our steps with the ICs scripture
interpretations.
As a pulpit preacher and teacher, putting
the bible on my shelf to gather dust was a
formidable
task
because
for
three
decades,
I continually searched and
studied
the scriptures in order
to
prepare sermons and bible studies. So
bible reading was habitually engrained as
a major task within my daily routine. I
also had to set aside the books and the
audio cassettes of Hagin, Copeland, Price,
Meyer, Long, Jakes and scores of others. I
stopped watching Christian television
completely.
I read three authors: Jessie Penn-Lewis,
Watchman
Nee
and
only
one
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contemporary,
David
Wilkerson.
Eventually, I stopped reading Wilkerson a
few years before he died. In order to fix
my life, I could not watch, listen to or
read the works of anyone still in the IC.
The truth is that Wilkerson knew the
truth about the IC in end-times better
than anyone. In fact, it was he who God
used to open my own eyes while I was still
a part of the IC system.
Actually, Wilkerson knew for at least 30
years or more that the IC is the Harlot of
the Book of Revelation and that she was
completely defiled. A bona-fide man of
God and a true prophet, I suspect that
Wilkersons disobedience by not leaving
Her brought on his tragic end. Saddened
when I heard, I was in no way surprised. I
have my own story to tell. Six years ago, I
was out of the IC for four years when I
decided to go back during the holidays. A
songfest without preaching
was being
held at a local Pentecostal church. These
were some of the best Christian singers I
had ever heard. So I bought tickets to
attend for friends and family as the event
was being held on my birthday. Two days
after I called in an order for tickets, I
heard a voice speak to me as clear as a
bell. A quiet, unthreatening voice spoke
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snatch an administrative
position that
today mandates a professional degree.
You need to know that it was rough having
OConnor correct my written work! I have
been a writer from a child. So, for
OConnor to review my paperwork was
literally insane, and he knew it. So he
would put a few scrawls on my drafts to
let his boss see that he was doing his job
and I let him get away with that by not
complaining. OConnor was also married,
involved in a well-known office affair
with a secretary but I did not disrespect
him on that score either. I restrained
myself and turned my head when I
bumped into the two of them in the
stairwell.
It did not take long for me to discern that
OConnor was not out to get me like some
of the more insecure, threatened coworkers were. In fact, when I left the job
after 17 years, OConnor apprised me of
the true deal as to why top management
passed me over at promotion time.
He
pulled my coat and whispered, Pam, the
top dogs accuse you of talking too much
about Jesus. They say you are too
religious.
A
company
man
type,
OConnor did not trust me enough to
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A
leader
who
cornered
me,
threatened me, and yelled because I
brought up a concern that others
saw. This led me to have
panic
attacks.
Does
it
sound
reasonable
that
a
churchgoer should develop mental health
issues
like panic attacks, activated by
church leadership?
Former zombie
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CHAPTER 8
Are YOU Born Again?
Examining Your Salvation
I try to keep all things simple. First of all,
you should know that checking out
whether you are born again is biblical.
You may have noticed thus far that I
generally do not gather long lists of
scripture taken out of their natural
context to support or prove my points.
Believe me, whatever I can examine by the
word of God, I readily perform, as long as
I know what I am doing. The simplest
reason I can offer for not putting several
scriptures
embedded
in
brackets
throughout each paragraph is that the
narrative does not read well.
Yet II
Corinthians 13:5,6 is clear and concise:
Examine yourselves to see whether you
are in the faith; Do you not realize that
Christ is in you---unless of course you fail
the test? And I trust you will discover
that we have not failed the test. (NIV)
The King James Version reads unless you
be reprobate. That word is confusing to
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this.
Several of my clients have done
wrong
things--sins
of
all
kinds,
witchcraft, incest, you name it but some
zombies have done absolutely nothing
but simply be faithful to their local
church.
Consequently, to be subjected to the kind
of demonic torment that some former
zombies once endured every hour of the
day is shocking. In fact, some have even
lived more righteously than zombies
who claim to be believers in Jesus, yet
most of the lukewarm phonies
are not
being tormented by evil spirits. It is sad
to say but there are countless faithful
churchgoing zombies who
have Been
dangerously duped by religion and
religious people. Little wonder that I can
find no excuse to place the blame on the
deceived. Even the people whom the
enemy has used to form a zombie are
themselves deceived.
Thirteen years have passed since I
embarked upon an international online
counseling, teaching and deliverance
ministry. The irony is that it was my very
first website developed in 2002 that
instigated
a
negative stir among
intimidated, insecure
denominational
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Bishop
manipulated 100
church
delegates who had known me for 25 years
to vote unanimously to remove my name
from their rolls. In that church, I was a
tree in dry ground with no generational or
family ties to any of them. The bottomline is that
I perceive their overall
decision as a
business and not a
personal matter. Other than for the one
person who instigated the movement to
remove me from the rolls out of jealousy
and her own deep-seated insecurity, I was
neither loved or hated among this
denominations zombies. In truth, I was
merely tolerated by most. Ironically,
I
was the
only other woman minister
among almost 100 men in that region for
15 years. Who would have expected that
the second woman to enter
the scene
would be used to bring negative attention
my way.
I befriended and mentored her,
yet she served as a Judas to me. It is what
it is.
So does this mean that I should have
returned to the denomination when a new
bishop offered his full support to me in
2008?
Bishop Johnson
made some
rather
lucrative, far-reaching promises
the day I returned to the denomination
for a visit---promises that were definitely
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