Global Gathering, Munich - Pregnancy & Birth

Backstory: The beginning of the year, maybe in February during School of Ministry, I
received this message of being pregnant in the Spirit. I knew for sure there was a
serious pregnancy going on but with the time I didnt really accept it with my heart.
In fact I tried to get rid of it almost abort it with the lie, that I can get rid of it
without having killed a life, the purpose and will of God. The main reason might be
that I never found this safe place to deliver or to let this baby grow inside me. I
denied the baby, so I wont have a miscarriage.
During the gathering, to be exact on Tuesday, where God was breaking the Orphans
Spirit on the nations to bring generations together this pregnancy was confirmed and
I finally accepted the growing baby inside me. I told myself that I will carry it no
matter what but never realized that time how highly pregnant I was already So at
the end of the day, during the afternoon session of Tuesday we, the young people
represented the younger generation and were dancing and celebrating Jesus on the
stage. That time I felt how my pants got kind of wet and I wasnt sure whether it is
that time of the month already. After we got down from the stage I ran to the
bathroom to check. And I saw how my slip was almost soaked with water which
didnt smell like anything. My jeans were dry and clean though. I was confused but
didnt bother with it any longer and returned to my seat. I remembered how I felt
almost no Appetite for anything but still was eating for two persons before coming
to the gathering. How I had to vomit few times, even on the streets while driving the
car, in the city in a corner even though I usually never vomit, no matter how sick I
was. I remembered how strange I felt physically the whole time before I came to the
global gathering in Munich. No its impossible, right? I asked myself, as I thought
that this spiritual pregnancy had actually an effect on my physical body. On the way
back home after the evening session I held my stomach without thinking and was
wondering how long it will take for whatever was growing inside me to be delivered
28th October 2015, Wednesday
This morning when I woke up, I felt so sore throughout my whole body. Especially my
lower back and my stomach were aching so much. I had big troubles to get out of
the bed. I felt and saw how my stomach was bloated. Thoughts were running through
my mind. So confusing yet exciting. I had many dreams but one was so specific. I
couldnt remember clearly, even though it was in my mind the whole time since the
moment I woke up. Later I remembered it was about Switzerland (Swiss Flag as a
person) standing up rising with the giants!
As I walked to the Gathering, I felt how I had troubles with walking & sitting just
like a highly pregnant woman. Even walking the stairs I felt like watching out on my
stomach I knew deep inside, something mighty & indescribable will happen today!
The worship started and I ran to the front to dance and to worship God, no matter
how much pain my stomach and back were causing me. But soon I realized that I
couldnt move as usual. My jumping and dancing were physically limited by this

pregnancy. I started to worship God in slow and deep movements my body physically
allowed me to. I could feel the weight of this heavy pregnancy as I let Jesus have His
inheritance starting with my heart. My right hand I put on my chest, on my heart. The
left one rested on my bloated pregnant stomach.
God showed me how near to birth giving I actually was. He showed me the burden
and pain throughout the pregnant condition. He revealed me how I was feeling like a
pregnant woman who doesnt know the father of the child she carries. With no man
beside her asking herself how she would bring up and care for this baby which is
about to be delivered. Feeling lost and alone. God revealed to me the man who was
always there since the beginning of this pregnancy, who is there now in this
confusing time and who will always be there to deliver and to raise this child. My eyes
filled with tears and my heart melted as the lover of my soul, Jesus, was walking
towards me, looking deep into my eyes. He embraced me so gently I was almost
melting in his arms. I laid my head on his chest feeling his fingers running through
my hair. I felt like after all this time, I have finally found the father of this baby I was
carrying for so long. I was simply overwhelmed by my lovers love.
As the Chinese Worship continued I was told to get ready to give birth. I was
immediately fighting against it. But everything up until now made perfect sense. I still
was fighting, wrestling, holding my chest and stomach saying: No! Im not ready to
give birth yet! I kept asking what it is, almost like asking if it is a boy or girl (just like
the girl was telling yesterday). Jesus calmly told me that I will see as soon as it is
delivered. I still couldnt let go and started to wrest myself free from Jesus embrace.
Then ... I felt how Father God, the Holy Spirit and Jesus together as three persons
surrounded and embraced me from all sides. I felt so safe and secure like never
before in my whole life. I felt one hand pushed at my lower back where the pain was.
I was out of my human and natural mind. I laid my head on every shoulder as I began
to breathe louder and faster. I saw how a lion was walking around the circle of the
three who were holding and embracing me. I didnt know any more if I was in heaven
or not. Holy Spirit told me to let my body go. I felt like falling down, I wanted to lie
down to finally deliver but I still was fighting to stand on my feet. I was asking: what
about the people around me? They will trample on me or I will disturb them in
worship! There is no one to take care of me right now! But the Holy Spirit just told
me to let go. Everything will be done which has to be done. People will take care of
you. Do not be afraid!
As the Chinese song (it was you wont relent until you have it all as I learned later
on) and the cry for Gods Kingdom to come and His will to be done became louder
and louder I finally let go and was catapulted backwards finally, finally laying on
the floor, breathing and pushing in the Spirit. Immediately I could feel the hand of a
mother on my stomach helping and pushing with me to deliver the baby. I screamed,
cried, groaned, breathed, pushed and crawled until I saw my Jesus standing there
holding my hand. I could feel how the lion of Judah was circling around us, almost
like a father waiting excited for His baby to be born. I felt that I finally delivered the

baby. Jesus caresses my face and hair, smiling satisfied. I saw how the big eyes of the
Lion locked with mine. I saw Him rejoicing that the baby, His will is finally delivered to
the earth and roared full of joy! Just like a Father rejoicing over His new born baby. I
felt so happy and proud and was asking again, what it is. Jesus told me I will see it.
Its something big, powerful and glorious. In that moment with the crying of the
Chinese the Germans started to cry out. As they cried out from the depths of their
souls as one voice, I heard a baby crying. I started laughing and cried tears of joy. I
felt the happiness and joy a woman felt the first time she hears her baby she gave
birth to crying. As the Germans cried out to Abba, I saw how God, our Father looked
down in satisfaction of what He saw. The Lion came to me and nuzzled my face with
His nose and mane almost like saying well done. I felt so happy, proud and
satisfied. I wanted to take the baby in my arms. The woman/mother who was praying
and taking care of my body was now burying her head into my waist and stomach
crying like a baby. I took her, still laying on the floor in my one possible arm and
gently stroke her. In a way, I feel like the mother now, I thought smiling. Wow! I
stared up to my Abba and was overflowing with joy. I saw how a father too was
sitting beside me praying and crying.
My mind could not really comprehend all the things that happened there therefore I
cannot put into words what I saw, heard and felt. But one thing is for sure; God has
done GREAT things beyond whatever we could ever dream for. Little by little we will
be able to see and experience all of it. At the end of the session where the German
speaking nations were blessed and told to rise up and to run I remembered what
God showed me last night. How Switzerland was literally rising up on its feet
alongside the giants. We celebrated Gods goodness with our global family. At one
point I danced in circle with a Chinese and a German woman. As I noticed how much
less weight I was carrying now dancing with them I found myself rejoicing like a
young woman over what has been delivered with her female friends