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I sit on the bed next to Carrie and felt her forehead. after trauma of childbirth, women are ready to have
She was still burning up. baby again a year later. That’s why I guess, we fall in
"You're cute when you're worried," she muttered. "Your love again. That’s why in this place, at this moment, I
eyebrows get all scrunched together." was kissing the woman I once loved, a new woman
“Just rest now, don’t talk. Just sleep, so can feel better.” whom I might fall in love again. I had forgotten all the
Carrie buried her head my shoulder, and I told her, “Just pain of the past. I only knew that her lips were soft, that
close your eyes.” her body was warm, and her lips were searching mine. I
And that was when it happened. Carrie wrapped her didn’t want this moment to stop.
touched her face. She opened her eyes, raised her head
They say you have memory of pain, and this proves it.
Shemaiah C. Navejas
I Don’t Expect This I'm Kyle. I’m a graduating student in one of the
For the first time in my life, i felt whole, fantastic and falling in love with my professor. Don't misunderstand
contented. what I’ve said. I'm not someone who’s into old maids or
I'm a smart kid. Always know what’s the right thing to freakingly old ladies.
do and right decisions to choose. She's my substitute teacher in one of my subjects. She'd
For me, life is always a routine. I never care nor imagine just graduated few years ago and topped her board
Don't misunderstand me as somekind of a goth, but i I mean, she's just as normal as my other young
just like to be alone in my own comfort zone. professors are but something about her that strucked
It makes me feel safe. It makes me feel whole in some me the very moment that i saw her. There's something
way or another that made me realize that I’m good in her eyes, smile, and gestures that i can't resist looking
enough for myself. at her. I look like stupid whenever she's around. I look
They say that falling in love or loving someone takes a like an idiot and a fool.
lot of patience and understanding. I really don't know For my entire life, i existed as to i what i wanted to be.
what this means in the first place. It’s because I’ve Free from any emotions that may affect my decisions,
never been in love in my entire life. my aspirations and my dreams. Never believing in love
or any ridiculous human emotions that affects anyone. command coming from my will. Then, at that moment, i
Until now. Until that I’ve learned to know that I’ve fallen felt a string, no, a million of strings started to connect
substitute teacher in this subject until Mrs. Molina "Wow! That would be cool. Btw, ma'am I’m just
comes back from her vacation", she said. curious. How old are you? I mean our ages are really
close isn't it? You don’t look like in late 20's or early
"Ma'am, can I ask you something?” said mike. Btw, 30's", Anna said.
annoying person in the world but he can also give you Anna is one of my close friends, and she had a crush on
the best advice that you could ask for. me that she admitted when we were in our second year
in college.
"What’s your first name Ma'am?” said mike. said Ma'am Yap. "And I think you should stop now
interrogating me".
"It’s Carrie, but i don’t think you could call me by my She laughed after saying that.
staring at her, still mesmerized. And then i joined my to do anything but look away.
After that day, she became our friend. She became one back on my track. We (Carrie & me, we'll she allow me
of us; I mean she's in our peer group now. We to call her by her name even we we're in the campus as
wondered if it’s okay that she's with us, because for long as there's no teachers around the area) became
freaking shit, she's a professor for crying out loud. I said close little by little. The time came that i was able to
that she should be a role model. After i said that, she gather all my courage, and i planned to say to her what i
laughed and my friends joined her. I was so feel about her and ask her permission to court her.
that I’m so stiff and I’ll die early because i rarely smile.
grandeur.
her what I felt. I don’t know how or in what way I will be Well she did come one time. She's stunning in her
able to tell my overwhelming emotions. I know that evening dress. This was one of my friend’s ideas, mostly
most of the time I know what to do and what plan I will the girls that we should be in formal attire because the
make, but this time I feel like I’m lost, I’m an idiot, and I said that it'll be romantic. However, for me i don't really
don’t know what to do. I got nothing left in my head so I understand what they mean about it. She's walking
asked for Mike's advice. Don’t ask me why for all the straight to me where i was, but still her eyes don’t meet
people I knew, he's the one I asked what to do. He is an mine. She's searching for us, then her eyes found mine,
idiot and always clumsy. and she smiled. And i think my knees trembled when
But he knows what to do. He knows the plans, and that she approach me. Most of the people who were there
plan will turn out to be good. rested their eyes in our table for a minute. And i think
The plan was to invite her out for dinner with us, but of the clock stops ticking at that moment.
course that would just me and her. Then, i will give her
flowers, tell her what i feel, and ask her permission to "Hi Kyle! You’re early. Where are the others?” she
no signs of them till now. I don't think that they'll be personality. We just talked and talked. Then i know in
were all here.” she said. "Hmmm... what is it?” she asked.
“Let’s not spoil our night because they are not around. I There, i nailed those words, and i mean it from the
think we should eat now because I’m pretty starving, bottom of my heart.
and I know that you're hungry even though you don’t "wh-wh-what are you saying. wha-what... w-why... i
say it.", i said and laughed. don’t know what to say.", she managed to said.
"Haha. You're right. I am hungry. Then, let's eat", she "Please let me finish first before you react to this.
said. Please just let me say the words that I’ve been keeping
We had a good conversation while we're eating dinner. you're shocked on what you're hearing right now. But
We laughed at each other’s jokes. It’s like that we are what I’ve said is true. I love you. I have loved you since
the moment that i saw you. From that day that you've "Kyle, i don't know how to react on what you've just
entered the room and caught my attention. I have loved said to me a while ago. But i think we both need time to
you hopelessly. And I’m hoping that one day i may able think those things all over again. And i think it would be
to tell this to you. That i may able to have the courage best if we ignore each other", she said. After saying
to tell these words. I am new to this kind of emotion. I those words, she stood up and walked away.
is for sure, i am happy and i don’t regret falling in love And there i was, still in shock. Staring at her as she
with you.” i said. walked away. I felt numb. I don’t know what to do. I felt
Minutes past, none of us moved. She was just right cold. I can’t explain what i feel now. I felt a stabbing
there. Still in shock. She can't believe what I’ve said to pain in my heart. I wanted to scream but no voice
her. And here I am, waiting for her to say something. comes out. I wanted to cry but there's no tears falling. I
I'm confused, scared and hopeful at the same time. I wanted to tell her not to go away but i just can't. I
don’t know what's going on her mind. I wish I can read wanted to kill myself for what happened. I blamed
her thoughts right now. I wish I know what she felt. It's myself for this pain.
She just continues her lectures, and ignores me. But i “It’s gonna be fine. Don’t worry about it. If you can’t
know inside my heart that she's trying so hard to do this forget her, so be it. I know that you've tried so hard.
to make me forget my feelings about her. But it just And I think Carrie will see through it", Mike said.
to Carrie, my friends was about to ask me how did it go "Thanks dude. I know i can count on you", I croaked.
when they saw my expression and decided to drop the “So stop crying dude. You look like a gay. Haha... chill!",
“Its gonna be alright, buddy. Things will work out. Don’t midst of my personal struggle. But i know in myself that
push yourself too hard.", Mike said. i need to face her, sooner or later. I found myself staring
her until i fall asleep. I was walking in our school ground just like any other
tight that i would not let her go. I didn't notice that
Why are you making me miserable? Why are you doing you've felt for me. We can't be together. I'm old for
this to me? I love you. I care for you. And I do really, you. People will make fun of you, and you'll be hurt
really love you. Please don’t do this to me", I cried. eventually. I can't risk that for you.", she cried.
She was crying when I said that I loved her, again and
again. I know at that moment that she felt the same "I don't care what other people will say. I know only one
way about me. I saw it in her eyes that she loves me all thing, and that is I love you. I tried to forget you but I
along, and I was stupid that I didn't notice it before. I'm just can't. I know deep inside my heart that i can't let
thinking why she would ignore her feelings for me, you go. So please just let me love you. Let me take care
when she knew that I love her. of you. Don't hold back your feelings. Just for once,
“I know that you love me. I can see it through your eyes.
Why do you keep ignoring me? Why do are you "You're just being impulsive right now. You don't know
stopping your feelings for me? Please tell me.", I what you're saying. I can't risk that. I know that you
croaked. truly love me but I'm afraid to let myself be with you.
And I know what I'm saying. Don't be afraid to let I have been waiting to see. The smile that's been lost for
yourself try to show what you feel. I don't care what a while. And now I knew I she has given me chance to
they'll think about me, and I won't let them say prove my love and myself to her.
that to you", I said. "Carrie, again I love you and I'm asking you're
We just stood there for a while. I can't take my eyes off me? Would you let me?", I asked.
of her. She’s still stunning even her eyes were puffy and
red. I know that she's thinking about what I've said. And "Yes, Kyle. I'll let you court me.", she said. Then, she
wait for her. I just stood there, not minding the eyes
staring at us as they passed by. All I cared at this time is "Whoa! Is this true? Yes! I'm very happy. I promise that
Carrie. Then, she looked at me, the kind of look that I've you'll never regret this.", I said.
been waiting all these time. The look in her face that I
would trade anything that I have just to see her like Then, I swooped her up, and began running around,
that. She's there in front of me, smiling, and a radiant yelling. And we both laughed.
VI. Macau Proposal her father will think. So I give her that matter to decide.
I began to court Carrie after that day. I was so happy friends knew about these and they are happy for me.
that she let me. And I was also grateful that she allowed We enjoyed each other’s company for a while, and I
herself to be happy. My courtship has restrictions. I'm decided that I should take it slowly.
not allowed to tell her that I loved her while we're still I am now graduating. I felt that now my bonds to the
at school, of course that's because she's still a professor rule that prevent us to be together are destroyed. As I
and I'm a student in that University. They are strict begin with my speech as Summa Cum Laude for BS in
about teacher-student relationships. They never Business Administration, I looked at the crowd. On top
allowed that to happen. So now, I'm only allowed to do of the world. I was only looking for only one face at the
my courtship when we're not inside the campus. crowd. And when she smiled at me, I knew that I've just
However, this doesn't stop me from giving her flowers got my greatest graduation gift.
only being delivered by the flower shop. We were However, my education is still not finished yet. My
almost together every day. We ate our dinner together family urged me to proceed to Law, I only agreed when
almost every day, but not during weekends because she they say that they will let me choose the school that I
had it with her family. However, I still didn't get the prefer. So I chose a new school with good credentials in
campus. told her that she needs a break from her work. I know
After four months... three days because we will have another trip to
Hongkong.
"Uhhmm...Just asks her dude, like in wedding proposals. restaurant because she like's Italian cuisine, and my
Bring her in an island, prepare a romantic dinner with friends (namely Anna & Thalia) said that it's romantic.
flowers, chocolates, a bear because girl's love that. So, I asked the chef to prepare Carrie's favorites,
Then, you know what to do after that. Just ask her.", preparing the place, decorating it with white and yellow
Mike answered. roses since it's her favorite. Then, I bought the biggest
"Thanks dude. You're a life saver", I said. chocolates. Now, everything is settled.
"Shall we eat now? We should finish this because I've
I asked her to come to Villa Margarita for our dinner at got something to tell you.” I said and smiled.
do some last minute preparations. Then, the time "Oh! Really? I think I know what you're going to tell me,
comes. I've never been immuned to her beauty. She's but I think I should hear it from you.", she said.
myself, I'm still mesmerized. Then, she realized that i “Haha! Are you sure? Okay, let's eat now", I replied.
By the way, she's always the observant lady. She smiled We had a good conversation in our dinner. We laughed
when she saw me staring at her. And when she reached at each other's jokes. She keeps on teasing me on how I
my table, she hugged and kissed me on my check. made an effort to make this dinner date something
"Hi! You're always on time", I said. knew. As we finished eating our dinner, I ask her to walk
"Of course! I'm a teacher after all, I’m used in being one talking, well she'd done most of that.
time", she said. And then she laughed. She tells me all the things that are happening in my
something wrong. I'm nervous on how I will ask her. I "Anyone in particular?" Carrie asked, her voice soft.
just remember what Mike said that just ask her, it’s just
as simple as drinking. Really, I'm going to strangle Mike I looked over and saw that she was trying not to smile.
stopped talking, she noticed me not speaking for a short "You're laughing at me," I complained.
"I am not!"
sick", she said. Her voiced sounded worried. "You are so not making this easy."
"Yeah, I'm okay. It's just that I've something to ask you", Then she laughed for real, and she put her hands
"Oh! What is it?" "I am never, ever going to make things easy for you. Get
used to it."
I looked down at her and smiled and kept thinking how
"Okay, so here it is." I took a deep breath. "I love you, this woman made me so happy. She buried her face on
Carrie. Loving you is the most wonderful thing that my chest because she kept blushing. And I was grinning.
from her.
Then she kissed me. When she kissed me, I had the
complained about going back to the university so I Two years passed surprisingly fast. We celebrated our
suggest that she could take a break for a day or two just anniversaries in Macau. We think that the place is
to relax. Meanwhile, I went back to my university memorable. I've also introduced her to my family and
checking if I missed a lot during my weekend "vacation" they really get along well with each other, especially my
that we've had. I knew that I've not missed anything younger sister, Silena. They are inseparable whenever
because most of our professors haven't gone to the Carrie was in our house. She always tagged along with
classes since it’s still the second week of the school her. I'm irritated sometimes because we can't have our
year. I have more time with her. Since our school is privacy whenever she's around. Carrie just smiled at
within the U-Belt, I could popped-up in her campus. We me, noticing that I'm irritated with my sister.
now every Saturdays, we watched movies together, we "She just grown on me", she mouthed.
with us whenever we have our dates? I mean that's hasn’t introduced me to her family. As far that I know,
really not good." she's also from a well-off Chinese family just like us.
"Just be patient with your sister. She's still a little girl". family, she just said that I will meet them but it’s not
"You said so. But I'm still annoyed." We've been together for almost two years now; still I
“I know and I can see it in your eyes. C'mon let me give our dates when I ask her again about her family.
you a treat. It'll make you forget for a while that you're
"Really? I can't wait. Let's go" "Uhhmm... They're okay. Why are you asking all of the
sudden?"
"Just wondering about them. Hon, we've been long She agreed to introduce me to her parents. She said
enough right? I mean we're two years together now. that we will go to their house on Sunday. We will eat
Can you introduce me to your family now? I want to our lunch there, and then introduced me to them. Well
meet them. I want to make our relationship formal that if you asked me a week ago if I'm nervous about
you're family knows me and they know that I'm your meeting her family, I can say that I don't mind. But as
boyfriend and you're safe with me." the date approaches, man it really made me nervous. I
don't know how or what will I do. She told me that her
"Do you really want to meet them now? Are you ready? dad might not approve our relationship.
I warn you, they're all perfectionist. My father is a The day comes; I don't know what to wear to impress
conservative type, he might not agree with you" her family. I asked my brother what to wear, he advice
“I think I can handle that. Why would he not agree with make me look mature as well as formal. I come to her
me? Don't worry about it. It will work out." house at exactly eleven o' clock in the morning, as she
"I hope so" that comes late. When I arrived, she meets me at their
ours. Eastern and western style combined, with a pool her baby pictures. I got along well with her family well.
in the middle of the house. Now I know why she feels at The time seems to move fast, it's almost dawn; still her
home in my house. She said that her father is not yet father didn't come home. I bid my farewell. Mrs. Yap
around due to some unavoidable problems in their wanted me to stay for dinner but I've said that my
company. I think that make her comfortable all this family is also expecting me at dinner. She just made me
time. Well, I get the chance to know her mother and promised to come back at their house once in a while.
siblings. She has three other siblings, two boys, and a Carrie walked with me to my car. I know she's happy
girl. She's the second oldest child. And what the heck, and relieved. However, she's still worried about her
her brother, the one after her is older than me for two father. I just tell her that I'm happy to meet her family,
years. I felt awkward and I know he feels awkward to. and time will come that I'll meet her father. I said my
Meanwhile, the youngest is still in high school. Her goodbye, and kissed her. Then, I drove my car on the
told me.
I was busy in my thesis for my major subjects, practicing I arrived there earlier than the time, and then I walked
law, and having my internship in Law Firms. I got a little to the area that has been reserved for us. I waited for
time now for Carrie, still she understands my schedule. almost ten minutes, and then I saw him. He is a typical
We still make sure that we have time for each other. Chinese old man with an indescribable authoritative
We just meet four times a week because of my hectic aura. He can make you feel intimidated in an instant.
schedule. And I'm really missing her. I hope that I can Then, he told me to sit down. He then ordered the food.
graduate soon so that we can have more time together. He told me that this meeting would be just brief. He
A year passed. I only have one year left in my Law asked me questions about myself.
passed that I don't get the chance to meet her father. "How old are you?", he asked.
wants me to meet him. Now, I felt suddenly nervous "I am 22 years old, Sir."
know why. The day came and I dressed myself in "Are you working now?"
"No sir. I'm still studying." He said those words with full of declaration. Chills went
"No? Still studying?" doesn't like me for her daughter. He looked at me and
"Tell me about yourself." "You're too young for her. I have already arranged her
LaSalle University. I got my MB in NYU. Now, I'm After saying those words, he got up and walked away. I
me, to us. I called Carrie but she won't pick up. I called
“That’s very impressive young man but I don't like you Stephen, her brother, and I found out that their father
for my daughter." had told Carrie to end her relationship with me or I'll
not go but Mrs. Yap asked me to. Then, she secretly told Next day. I go at the restaurant that she told me. She
me to meet her in one of the restaurants in Greenbelt was already there waiting for me, holding something. I
because she has something to give me. don't know what it is. Then when I reached her table,
family.
here."
"Yes ma'am."
daughter. I know that you really love her, and she loves
you also deeply. So please listen to me if you really love "I'm okay. How about you?" Her voice is cracked. I know
and make things easier for her." that she's been crying.
"Yes tita. What is it?" "I'm confused. I don't know what to do. Are you sure
stop seeing Carrie. She said that Carrie wants this too. "Yes. This is the right decision. If we can make this
She also said that I need to finish my studies first and through and I know that we we're really meant to be."
the society so that we will not be criticized. She told me "I'm hoping that you're right. Then, this is it. This is
that she will make sure that the arranged marriage will really goodbye. If I graduated and become successful, I'll
not be pursued. Then, she told me that she will grant find you. And if you're still single, I'll marry you. I love
me one last call to Carrie. To settle things and to say you Carrie."
X. The Bachelor
He's like Mike; I think I've myself an American version of
I decided to spent my last year abroad. I become a my college friend. And I've also found someone new.
transferee student in one of the IVY League Colleges in Her name is Jasmine. She's also a lawyer in the firm that
the U.S. It was Harvard. The study is really tough; I worked with. She's Filipino-American, and her family
however they really give you an excellent training. migrated in U.S when she's still young. She makes me
Before I graduated, I've had my internship in one of the happy; she filled-in my longing for love. We became
most popular law firms in U.S. Then, I graduated there friends, and then I asked her to be my girlfriend. We've
with flying colors. Then, I took the State Bar Exam in been together now for almost a year. She already
New York, and I've passed it. My parents have been introduced me to her family, and when my parents
proud of me. I decided to work there for two years. I've come to New York, I introduced her to them. She also
become successful; I've made my name in Manhattan. knew about my past, and told me that
My life is great. I have good credentials; I have been in She will help me to forget. But I know in my heart and in
an International firm. I've earned the respects of the my mind that I will love Carrie forever, until my last
Upper East Siders. I've been made as an associate dying breath. I know that I'm being unfair to Jasmine
partner in my firm. Bryan Wills, my associate partner but I think that's how mysterious love is, you just forget
have been my bestfriend in U.S, like me he is also a someone whom you loved. However, I did my best to be
Harvard alumnus. He's just a few years earlier than I am. the best man to Jasmine, to make her happy as much as
I can. I'll do my best. If not because of her I can't survive I waited for her response but it seems that she's still in
the loneliness that I've had been through. shock. Then when she comes back to her senses, she
The night that I ask her to be my girl... just smiled and said. "Yes". Then we kissed.
Appetite, her favorite French restaurant. I brought her a One night, I've got a call from my mother she told me
bouquet of tulips because it’s her favorite. that I need to go home because my father suffers a
heart attack. She told me that no one will take over the
"Hey James, what's with that serious face. It doesn't suit company since my father still has to rest. My brother is
"Jas, stop messing around. I want to be serious at this in New York, I will leave this place that I've learned to
moment. I'm going to ask you something and I need you love. I passed my resignation letter to my partner. I told
to answer me seriously, this is important" him that I need to go home, and I've had a great time
"Okay, what is it?" me luck. He also said that I'll be welcome if I'll be going
I took a deep breath and said. "Will you be my girl?" she kept crying. She told me that she'd going to miss
me. But hey, don't misunderstand, we are not breaking
up. She specifically told me that we don't have to break After three cramped and claustrophobic meals, two
up. She told me that our long distance relationship will blurry movies (one romantic comedy and one suspense
work out. Because I also loved her, it’s hard to let her thriller movie), two magazines, a book and a
go. And we promised that we will be trying our best to newspaper, and five lousy hour of sleep, I arrived in
work it out. Then, I had my farewell party at a club near Manila. Bone-tired and glad only to be out of airline
Fifth Avenue. We had a great time. And as I stared in chair, I passed through immigration and baggage claim.
the window, I saw the lively life that I've had here in It's been three years; I thought to myself, it's already
two years, and now I will bid my farewell to it. I'm been three years since the last time that I've been here.
coming home. Manila really does change. As I get passed out the
tall. What's your height right now? You are really You have become famous, here in the country. Your
famous. You are in TV and even the president wants to cases have been viewed by the top lawyers here. Even
meet you in person. Haha...just kidding Kyle. But really you're professors in Ateneo called and congratulates
you are really famous, you know. They said that you are you.", my mom said.
newest member of the New York's Upper East Side.", "Mom, really? I should pay my former professors a visit
Silena said. then. Dad, are you okay now. How’s the company
going?"
about you. They said that you are brilliant. Most of the "I’m okay, don’t worry about me. Our Company is
nurses in my hospital I think have a crush on you.", growing bigger. You are going to be the heir of our
home."
As we drive to our home, I've seen some familiar reunion for the last three years. We were having our
new buildings in Manila. The pollution becomes worse "Kyle how's jasmine?” my mom asked.
to get some fresh air and have a refreshing vacation. "She's fine. She told me to send her regards to all of
I've slept for the rest of the day because of jetlag. I've you. She might come here if she had time."
asleep. The next day, I found my entire family eating "Oh! Tell her thanks."
family were in our house for our family lunch together. "I'll tell her that mom."
each other. Then, after lunch my father oriented me After this day, I'm going to be back with my hectic
about some of the company's newest works, proposals, schedule but not as a lawyer but as the general-
etc. He said that he already told his secretary to provide manager of our company. I can't sleep maybe because
me a tour once I get there. We have our best family of my adjusting biological clock. However, something
reminiscing the past wherein, Carrie and I are walking It was an elegant restaurant btw. It has the same
across with our hands hold tight with each other. Those features as Villa Margarita in Macau, the restaurant
memories just made me feel sad. Then, I saw my sister where I asked Carrie to be my girlfriend. I really liked
walking towards me. the place. We ordered their specialty. I really enjoyed
I also walk towards her. the place. And my sister knew the girl who owned the
"Kyle, sorry for being late. I've still have to finish my talked to her, I felt something. She's really familiar to
work before I went her. Btw, where we are eating?" me. I just couldn’t remember where I met her. She told
me that she and her sister own this restaurant. She told
"Uhhmm... Where do you want?" me that her sister liked Italian cuisine, and since she's a
"In Villa Christina, it's an Italian restaurant just a couple opened for about a year ago.
of blocks away from here. They really cooked delicious The time is really running fast. I need to go back to the
pasta. Is it okay, Kyle?" office. I have many things to do. So, I bid my goodbye to
didn't look like she had just taken a series of long flights.
"I'm Okay. How about you? How's the firm? Anything Mom and Dad talked to her. As well as David and
"I'm fine. The firm's okay. Bryan's taking good care of it. behavior. After the night, I drove her back to the hotel.
"I've missed Manhattan but everything here is more told her about the Italian restaurant that Silena and I
important than that. I miss you too Jas." went. She wants to go there so I promised to go there
"I know. That's why I come here. C'mon let's eat I'm happen. Something that will be unavoidable. Something
PART III girlfriend, but what I feel about her is not the same as
what I've felt with Carrie before. The feeling that I just
deeply love me but I just can't replace her love the way
now is somewhat I called true love. It's an innocent love families were there to have their lunch. Since, the chef
that I have fought it in order to let it stay with me. But I and Silena are friends, she give us seats. A table for two
guess not all people who fell in love got the ending that near a small cabin just like the table I had in Macau with
they've wanted. I know that I promised Carrie that if we Carrie. The memories of the past keep coming back in
present situation, I can't make it. I've learned to love We ordered our food after a short while. She just orders
Jasmine as time goes by. That love eventually grows pasta because I knew that she didn't like Italian food.
however it’s still young that it can't last. She just comes here out of her curiosity. After we finish
Since its Saturday and I've got no office, I've already our meal, Jasmine went to the restroom. My eyes
done most of my work, I brought Jasmine to the Villa roamed around the room, I notice that a photograph of
Cristina, the Italian restaurant that she wanted to visit. a young couple is hanged near the counter. As I looked
As we drove there, I felt something heavy in my chest. I at it, the colors are already fading however it's still
don't know what this kind of feeling that I’ve had is. It's beautiful. Then, I stood up and approach the counter.
just that something could happen. And I didn't know As I walked towards it, I felt nervous. I feel sometime
that it will complicate things and made a huge change in that makes me sad and longing for something that I
my life. We arrive in Villa Cristina almost lunchtime. The haven’t had. Something that I really wanted to have.
I was about to ask the staff if they knew the couple in When, I turned to face the manager. I am shocked to
the picture when the manager's door opened, and see who it is. I felt that my heart is going to explode. My
someone come out. I don't mind it. I am having serious eyes begin to water. The woman in front of me right
conversation with the staff if maybe they could call the now, the manager of this restaurant, and my first and
owner to let me buy the photograph. When, suddenly a true love and the woman whom I continuously loved
voice behind me said something. until now is the same person. It is Carrie.
"I'm sorry sir but the photo's not for sale", the voice the same as Villa Margarita in Macau. That's why Trixie
could only belong to a lady. However, I felt that the When our eyes met, I see that she is also shocked. Pain,
voice seems so familiar. And I felt sudden tug in my loneliness, longing, resentment, joy are painted in her
heart. I really want that photo so I plan to bargain with face. She looks like she wants to hugged me, or say have
her. I can't keep my mind off that photo. It is vaguely something to say. I also felt the same thing. I also
familiar to me. wanted to hug her tight, to say that I've missed her so
back. I turned around to know who it was. It was "James, she is right. You can't just force her to let you
Jasmine. She wondered where I went when she comes buy the photo. As what she had said it is important to
back and found out that I wasn't there. I look at Jasmine her.", said Carrie.
the world to be with me. Now, I'm facing my ex- "Btw, Miss...?"
really don't know what to do. I'm confused. "It's Carrie Yap; I'm the manager and the owner of this
"Sir, I'm really sorry but the photo is not for sale. It's my "Carrie, I'm sorry for my boyfriend's behavior. He isn't
precious and valued treasure. It has sentimental value that impulsive. He might have really like the photo. Btw,
that's why I can't sell it to you or anyone else", Carrie I'm Jasmine Chase, and this is my boyfriend, James
"It's okay. He really might be really interested in that moment, I really wanted to hug her badly.
you Jasmine. Hope you liked our food." "Bye.", Carrie said. Then, turned away.
"It's the truth. I think I'm gonna like it here. I'll come
this started."
the hotel. I'm confused now. I don't know what I will do.
I know that I love Jasmine, but when I saw Carrie again, Then something comes into my mind. Something that I
I a sudden tug in my chest. My heart began pumping haven't even asked to myself. And the answer to that
hard. I don't know how to explain this. It's like my question will help me.
feelings for her are never gone nor lost. It's like it is here
all along, hiding and waiting for the right time. "Dad."
When I arrive in our house, I went straight to our study "What is it?"
dad looking at his and mom's weeding pictures. I go to "Dad, how did you know that mom's the one?"
"I'm just looking at my face and your mom's face when whom I wanted to be with the rest of my life. The one
we were young. Look at these pictures; we were just whom I want to be the mother of my children. The one
having our first anniversary as a couple. I'm very happy who still makes my heart race. Makes me feel happy at
to marry her.", my dad said. all time. One look at her and I forget all my worries."
"Dad, have you been in a situation wherein you're not again. My father seems to understand what I've felt. He
"No. Kyle, is something wrong? What happened?" "So, what are you going to do, son?"
"Dad, I think I made a big mistake. A mistake that will "What am I going to do? There's only one thing to do."
"What's that?"
I saw Carrie again, the weird feeling that I've felt when I
saw her again, and my feelings about her. I've told him
the strange feelings that I've felt when I saw Carrie XVI. Asking for Advice
I'm in my room, lying on the bed staring at the ceiling. "Hey buddy!", I said.
know that in whatever decision that I will make there "Whoa dude, it's that really you. Jeez, you changed a
will be a person who will get hurt. I just need to make a lot, man."
My memory flies back on Carrie. The memory when I "So does you. How are you by the way?"
and dressed in smart dress. She changed since the last "I'm fine. I'm working in my new agency for three years
time we saw each other. I know that I've also changed. now. How about you? From what I've heard you've
I've become a well-known lawyer in New York. My life become a big shot lawyer in the States."
Still one thing never changes. My feelings. She's still the "Yeah. But I'm back in the country now. My dad needs
woman that I've fallen in love with. She may have to rest, so I took over the company."
decided to meet my old friend mike. We decided to go "Heard about that heart attack. It's all in TV; CEO of LEE
to a bar in Libis. Co. suffered a heart attack, etc. How's tito now?"
"He's fine. I think he needs total rest."
"What is it?"
do?"
"Man, that's really a big problem. I don't know. Maybe XVII. Unfair
what you have to do is follow what your heart tells
about me. They knew the real reason why I left for
States three years ago. The reason that driven me to "I haven't yet. I just need some time. I have to think
keep myself busy and to try to live on. My brother is the about this thoroughly."
one of the few people whom I've told what I've been
having these days. He gives me advice that's a big help "If you need help you know that we're here, right. We'll
"Kyle, can I come in", my brother said, knocking on the "Thanks a lot bro."
door.
"Yeah come in." go home. Rachel's cooking my fave food. See you this
weekend."
"Fine, I guess."
After having a conversation with my brother, I decided "I'm sorry but we're closed. You can---." She stopped
to go home early. Jasmine called me to come to the when she saw me.
hotel but I refused. Is said that I'm not feeling well, and I
need rest. She seems to be worried but I told her that "Hi." That's all I managed to say.
I'll be fine.
"Why are you here Kyle?" Her voice seemed cold but I "Don't bother. I understand." Her voice is trembling.
She turned away and walked to the garden. I walked "I need to do this. I want you to know everything." I
after her and grabbed her hand. touched her face, but she turned away. And it started to
"Why? I think there's no need for that." is nice. She's right for you. I understand you. And it's my
"Why bother Kyle? I'm not your girlfriend." "Carrie, don't say that please. It's my fault. I should have
fight for you even though you told me not to. I should
"I just need to explain to you all of it." have tried. I should have not given you up."
"Stop now Kyle. It's already the past. It won't come back
now."
"Don’t say that" After she said those words, she XIX. Unplanned Situation
collapsed and falls on the ground.
food.
I called my brother to ask him on what should do to a She didn't reply. She just eats her porridge and takes
person with fever. He told me all the thing I wanted to her medicine quietly, then went back to bed.
it and told him that I'll hung up. I sit on the bed next to Carrie and felt her forehead. She
I took care of Carrie. She wakes up after 5hours. was still burning up.
"Where am I?" "You're cute when you're worried," she muttered. "Your
fever. Eat this porridge first then take this medicine. You “Just rest now, don’t talk. Just sleep, so you can feel
"Why are you doing this Kyle?" Carrie buried her head my shoulder, and I told her, “Just
"Like what I've said earlier. I love you. I just don't know
why but I'm still in love with you." And that was when it happened. Carrie wrapped her
touched her face. She opened her eyes, raised her head studying my face. She's crying. I was about to say
towards mine, and before we knew what we were something. But she stopped me.
pain, and this proves it. They say we only remember the "Don't say anything.” she said with tears in her eyes.
fact that something causes pain—fire burns, knives cut "Last night was wonderful."
That’s why after trauma of childbirth, women are ready She then get up from the bed and dressed quickly. I get
to have baby again a year later. That’s why I guess, we out from the bed too. I reached out and touched her
fall in love again. That’s why in this place, at this arm, just above the elbow.
moment, I was kissing the woman I once loved, a new "Don't", she said, closing her eyes. "I can't think."
all the pain of the past. I only knew that her lips were "Who wants to think?"
soft, that her body was warm, and her lips were
searching mine. I didn’t want this moment to stop. "I need to think.” she said opening her eyes. "This..."
We spent the rest of the night as Mr. & Mrs. Lee. she said, searching for words, "this wasn't supposed to
happen! This was the last thing that supposed to
happen!" "I don't want to hurt her. She has been my friend since
we've met. Just forget me. It's just this way it is"
She kissed the palm of my hand. "No," she said. "Not "No, Kyle. We have to stop this."
took my hand and placed it together with hers. "What XX. Hardest Part
just happened?"
For the rest of the day, Carrie and I are together. I know
"The thing that supposed to happened." that I've choose Carrie over Jasmine. It's what my heart
tells me to. This will be hard for Jasmine but she's tough
"What about Jasmine? I don't think that is right we have I know that she'll understand.
to stop this." I called her. She seems to notice the tone of my voice.
"Kyle, are you alright?" though she already knew what I’m going to say to her.
"Yes. Can you meet me in Cafe Simeon here in Makati? I “Hi hon." I got up and she kissed me. I feel something
have something to tell you." about that kiss. A strangle feeling of longingness and
loneliness.
words that she has said. "No. I just had my lunch a while ago."
"Okay, I'll see you there." I managed to say. "So you're not hungry."
I'm in Cafe Simeon at exactly 2p.m. waiting for Jasmine. "Really James, what are you going to tell me? Can you
Feeling guilty about what I’m going to say to her. I'm please tell me now?" Tears now starting to fall down.
She knew already. It's breaking my heart to see her cry. can't forget. The reason why you can't fully love me,
myself. She's been so good to me. And this is how I "Jasmine.., I--I... You...”
repay her.
"James, will you tell me all of it. I can handle this." owner of the restaurant who named Carrie are the
"Jas, are you sure?" when you saw her that night. I know right there that
"Yes, I know that too but the love that you have for her
is deeper than what you've had for me. It hurts like hell
means letting you go and hurting myself." I'm glad it happpened. It will be a part of my life."
"Jas, I don't know what to say. There's a lot of going on A pause came betweeen us as Jasmine prepared herself
"If you're worried about me," Jasmine began, preparing "What we have now is a young love," she said. "It’s not
to say words she had been planning in her head to say, a complete love yet." It was a statement, not a
"You don't even know what I'm going to do", I said. "No," I agreed. "It can be though, for longer than you
know."
"I know you, James," she said. "We've been together for
a year; I do know you well enough. You don't have to "Well, that's over," she said. "And you and I are both
Jasmine didn't expect that and she was little flustered, knows it. We were both quiet for a while. Jasmine had
looking at the table and back at me a number of times. finished what she had to say. Now is my turn to tell her
I'll never stop liking who you are. I'll miss to just be with everything that I wanted to say.
you. We connect, you know?" "Jasmine, I have so many things that I wanted to tell you
Jasmine became serious then, saying, "I like to think start by saying I love you. I do love you. I know in my
that this could turn into a real love someday, but right hard that I did. It’s just that it was strong enough to go
now it's not, and here we are: I have to give you up. on. I would be a hypocrite if I say that I've stop loving
"There's only room in your heart for one," Jasmine went Carrie. I love her continuously. I never stopped loving
on. "That's just who you are. It’s not possible for you to her but it just keep on going on subconsciously. My
love two people at the same time. You’ve got a big mind tells me to forget her, and focused on my love for
heart, kiddo, but there's only one chair inside, and we you entirely but my heart doesn’t follow my mind at all
both know who's sitting there. She's been there all it seems like that it has a mind of its own. I tried to
along." forget about her, but I just can't. I know that I can't
kissed her for the last time. Life being unfair. It gave me
"Thank you, Jas. I'm awful to you. You've mend my Jasmine only to mend my heart and hurt her. She
broken heart still I can't replace your love. Hope you can deserves someone better than me. I’m going to
find someone new. Someone who will treat you like a remember this woman. And she would be my biggest
princess. Someone who will not make you cry. Someone what if.
who could love you fully. It's just bad that I can't do it." Then, I walked out, and went straight to my car.
Carrie. I don't know what to expect from this. But I'm many professors in the office but there's no sign of her.
sure with one thing, I'm going to the woman i loved, I was about to go out the room when someone grabbed
and keep loving until now. The woman who taught me my arm. It was my professor back in my college years
how to love, broke my heart, and gave me a lesson in here, Mr. Santillan. He had been one of my favorite
life that's why I am who I am now. I called her but she professors here. He's an intelligent man, and a good
didn't pick up. I guess it's because she wants to cut me counselor. Among the faculty members here, he's the
out of her life. But I'm not going to let that happen. only one who knew that Carrie and I had a relationship.
told me that she might be in the University. Her sister, "Mr. Lee is that you?"
Trixie saw me and told that her sister never quitted her
job as a professor in DLSU even though their father told "Yes, Prof.Santillan."
her to. She told me that Carrie said that it’s the only
place that she valued most. After I've heard it, I run "You've grown into a fine young man. Being one of the
through the door, stepped into the car and drive famous lawyers in the US, you've made us proud Atty.
"Thank you, Sir." witnessed to our love, I begin to reminisce the past. I
"Looking for someone?" is the place where it all started. The place that
witnessed our love for each other. The place that has
"Yes. You do always knew me professor" been significant to our lives. I went to the place where
"OF course young man. People who are in love are easy her. The place where we can feel that we were
to read. I believe that one you're looking for is in the together. I saw her. She's standing in the middle of the
place wherein both of you cherish." field. She seemed to be in deep thoughts since she
"Thank you, Prof. Santillan. I go now." time. She's still stunning as before. When she turned to
"Good luck."
"Hi", I said.
the most important information that I need now. I knew "Hey, what brought you here?", she said.
"I think I waited for it for a long time"
"Really? Btw, Jasmine called and told me some things." yelled. “I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH, CARRIE YAP. WILL YOU
"Oh...What does she told you?" WE WILL BE TOGETHER. I PROMISE THAT I WILL FIGHT
"She told me to give our love another chance. To give us DOWN. WILL YOU GIVE ME THAT CHANCE AGAIN?"
care of you." All the people in the field are now staring at us. I don't
"What did you tell her?" will Carrie give to my breathless question. There's a
"Ah...Do you want to hear what I wanted to say?" All that I remember is how Carrie said yes to my
were together again. She run towards me, almost kind of feeling for a long time. The feeling of
was beside mine in an instant. I could smell her hair and I'm always happy whenever we're with each other.
her sweet breath. She was laughing. We're inseparable these days. My family knows now
about us. They are happy for me. I meet Jasmine before
"We wasted three years of our life.", she said. she left for US. We agreed to meet in a restaurant in the
hotel.
"Hi there."
"I don't care either. I've waited long enough for you. I
just couldn't wait another day." "Hi Jas, ready for the flight?"
"No, I'm fine, thanks. Btw, how are you and Carrie? She
called me earlier and wished me luck. I hope you're not "Still I wish you luck. Be safe always."
"I will. You too. Live a happy life here. Don't you dare to
"No, of course not. We're fine, she's in the University give her up again."
happy always. Take good care of Carrie. I know that After that, I hugged her and bid her my farewell. It
She loves you also. Be good to each other." might be take some time before I could see her again.
"Yeah, I'll do that. Don't worry about it. Jas, I want to because if not for her, Carrie and I will not be together.
say thank you for all of this. I hope that you'll have
face him and fight him. Carrie told me that she will fight
Jasmine left a day after our last conversation. Carrie and looked at me but it didn't linger.
her, she hugged us both and tells. "Carrie, is this your boyfriend?"
"I am Kyle James Lee, the person whom you threatened
"Yes dad. This is Atty. Lee" years ago to stop seeing your daughter, sir."
"Atty. Lee, the ATTY. LEE in US. The most high paid Realization is seen through his face. There is anger and
lawyer in US and the general manager of the LEE humiliation. His face now is turning red.
Group of Companies?"
"Sir, I've come here to prove myself to you and tell you
"Oh... nice meeting you. Btw, why do you familiar to me that I'm now worth for your daughter. I will never give
young man?" her up. I will fight for her. You can't stop us now."
"It's because we've already met, Sir." pointing his finger to me.
"Where? I should have recognized you if that are the "I will never allow it to happen. I will never give my
daughter to you but why can't you let me be happy. her. I wouldn't hurt her. Please approve our
Kyle's the one who could make me happy." relationship. I'm mature enough to commit to her."
"Carrie, what do you think you're doing? The people will "Young man, do you really think that I don't approve
look down on you. My god, you're older than him. your relationship before because you're not stable.
People will laugh at you." It's not. I don't approve it because I'm worried for my
"Dad, I know that you cared for me but this is too much. criticize her. And the worst is she had been your
I’m 29 now I can decide for myself. teacher. Many will make fun of her. I don't want that to
People nowadays have liberated minds. They look into happen. I love my daughter. And I would protect her
"Carrie, I just can't afford to see you hurt." "Sir, I will make sure that no one will ever criticize her. I
"Dad, I won't be hurt. Kyle will take care of me." just me but as the heir of my family, as a mature man
and as the man who love your daughter, that I will do
anything to protect her. Please give us your blessing." "I love you too baby. Lee, come to our house later. I
"Do whatever you want. I'll give you my blessing. Just Chairman Yap stood up and turns to leave. I am now
do what you've promised to me young man." relieved that the old man approved our relationship.
This is what Carrie and I have been waiting for. All I have
"Of course, Sir. Thank you." to do now is to fulfil my promise to her dad that I'll
"I'll go now. I have some things to attend to." see the glimmering look in her eyes.
"Dad, thank you very much. I love you." "I love you too.” I replied.
she gets out of the car, I followed her up to the gate
this to happen.
me, and for our relationship. I'm glad that never give up
on us."
After the meeting with her father, Carrie decided to go father and fighting for me. Thank you for that. Thank
home so I drove to their house. I'm having flashbacks of you for trusting me."
time I was invited. I remember our last meeting and my "I should have done that long time ago. We could have
conversation with her father. When we reach her home been together for ages. I'm sorry."
smiling, my staff seems to think that something’s wrong
"True but the experiences that we’ve had when we’re so they asked me if I'm alright.
"Kyle, don't forget that you'll have dinner here tonight. "Yeah, why's that? Something's strange?"
"Well not really, Sir. But you're smiling all the time now.
"Of course, I won't forget about it." Are you sure you'll alright?"
"Bye, see you later." Then, she kissed me, and went "Yes, don't worry about me. I'm fine. Is this all the
I drove back to my office. The traffic is so heavy. I had to "Yes, Sir. The creative department said that they will
use another way just to get their fast. My work in the pass their concept tomorrow for presentation."
at 2pm. I need the copy of it before hand." before but I'm just nervous on how they would react
"Thanks. Btw Ms. Gomez, uhhmm...do you know where casual attire for this evening. After I get dressed, I drove
I can buy a bouquet of roses near our building?" to their house. On the way, I bought her a bouquet of
"Oh. I know two flower shops that are near here, Sir. her mother and sister. I got there half an hour earlier of
One is three blocks away from the building; and the the expected time. She meets me at the front door. She
other one is just two blocks away from here." smiled when she saw me. And muttered something
about the flowers. She must have seen that I’ve brought
"Thanks for the information, Ms. Gomez." her three bouquets. So, I explain that the other two is
for her mother and sister. Her whole family are now
I go home at 5pm to get ready for the dinner date with there. Her father is now dressed in his comfortable
Carrie's parents. Now I'm getting nervous. It's not clothes and her mother warmly welcome me, she still
because of her father but it's because of the fact that recognizes me; his older brother, Will and his family are
there; Stephen; and Trixie are all in their living room. They kept on asking me how I become one of the
Mr. Yap's expression's still indescribable. I still don’t trusted lawyers of the Manhattan elites, so I told them
know if we can be comfortable with each other and I the story. Tita and Trixie always kept on teasing me on
hope that it will be. Tita hugs me when she sees me. how I've change a lot. They began comparing me from
She told me that she was proud of what I've accomplish before and now. They said that I've now become a fully
in my life. She started to interrogate me about how my handsome young man that Carrie should be careful
life in US was. She told me everything that Carrie did for because someone might take me.
the past three years. How she come up with a Carrie then responds to them by saying that I would
restaurant, if she had been in a relationship after we never set my eyes on those girls because I love her
broke up, etc. I knew that Carrie's embarrassed now. completely. I just smiled on their conversation. Now I
Her cheeks are red and she keeps on blushing and know that I belong to this family. After dinner, Mr. Yap
blushing. While Stephen and Trixie are snickering. They talked to me.
caught me into a conversation. Those two have the "Yes, Sir. Of course."
it. And I just call you James." But now I realize it all. How and what you feel, and etc.
"Okay."
ago but I'm just protecting my daughter. I don't want "Don't worry, Sir. I will never let anything happen to
someone or anyone will criticize her. She's so fragile. I Carrie. She's safe with me."
approve your relationship. I just want her to have "That's all that I want to hear from you."
she refused it. I know now why. She truly loves you. And After that I talked to Carrie's father, I felt that the
"Thanks you, Sir. I admit at first, I'm really angry at you. lot. I spend almost my evening in Carrie's house. Her
Who are you? Who do you think you are? Why are you mother asked me to stay fir the night but I refused
because I have a project report to review. I bid my
car.
okay?"
Then, I drove to my condo. I got to my pad half hour And for those four months, it's been like we've never
later. I can sleep now without worries. Tomorrow will been apart for three years. Our love grows and blooms
be a stress-free day and the entire succeeding days. every day. We went to Macau two weeks after we've
had our dinner with her family. Of course, our trip now
is known to her family and with her father's permission. For that four months that we've spent something came
We went to Villa Margarita where I asked her to be my to my mind. Something that I want to do but I just don't
girlfriend five years ago. know how. I've got some advises from my friend here
The place changed a bit over the time but still our and abroad. From that, I've got an idea. Since now that
memories stays in this plays. We spent our one week my father is recovered, I asked him if he can help me
vacation, then after that we went back to the country. and he said, "Yes".
made in different companies that my family have. And "Dad, can you deal with our companies? I've just
sometimes, her father will call me to help him out in something to do in New York. Is it okay?"
sometime goes to my office to ask some advice "Uhhmm...I think so. Don't worry about it. I can handle
regarding some different problems. These interactions it. How long will be you gone?"
required I mean I'm now invited in their house every "I just don't know. I think it’s about a week."
"Thanks dad."
"Never been better. I've been great all this time. How
our stay there and for my party. My friends there are "Same as usual. Scandalous. I've been avoiding the
also excited to see me. And Jasmine will be there and press for a while. Chuck here caught the attention of all
ache’s the one who facilitates the party. My friends in the media for now because of his newest project here."
I've met again my Upper East Sider friends; Charles "Hey lee, is that girl, the one?" Blaire asked. She is
bud, Bryan Wills. We catch up and talked about the "Yeah. She's the one. Why you ask?"
explained. "What's our purpose? Lee just tell us what you needed
there's a thin thread that connects you both. That "Thank you guys."
added. We drink and drink until we've knocked out. I miss this
"Well I guess, love really did these to me. I'm a new happy with what I have now in my life. True that giving
person but the same man. Haha." I said to them. up New York is one of the toughest decisions that I've
"So, how will you propose?" Nate asked. choice. Going back to the Philippines, help me find my
one love. And for that, I will be contented and happy for
"Yeah dude. How will you? Do you have anything in what I have. And I knew that in this trip I'm about to
something. They told me that the best place to go is the now and then. I've seen every diamond in New York.
some time with Jasmine but I never looked at any of it. Sirena preened proudly, all the while watching me
Sirena and Blaire help me find the best one for Carrie. closely as if fascinated by the carnival of emotions
Blaire looked through the Jeweler's glass at the "It's a winner," Sirena said. The other one is bigger, but
diamond ring on the velvet. She didn’t say anything for this one is more beautiful. It's so bright. She'll love it!"
very clear and brilliant." Behind the counter, the jeweler Then the jeweler said, "What size would you like us to
nodded seriously, and said, " Ms. Vander Woodsen is resize the ring to?"
"Are you sure?" I asked her. "Wow, that's tiny." Blaire said.
about her that closes and opens; only something in me this day, Carrie will be with Jasmine, since she will be
understands the voice of her eyes is deeper than all buying something for her family. Because of this, I have
roses. Nobody, not even the rain, has such small enough time to put the act up. It was now 5pm in the
"This only means one thing." Silena said, "No return, no happen.
exchange."
to be in her office."
It's our fourth day her in New York, our second to the That is part of the plan. Jasmine needed to leave Carrie.
last night stay. I've been planning all the things that I’ll When Carrie reached Time Square, it’s already six in the
it brighter. She called me but I didn't answer. me to love, the only one who wake this kind of emotion
Then suddenly, all the city lights went out. The people's in me, and the one whom I love from the start till the
attention diverted to the screen which is the only one end; my first and last true love. I will always love you till
whose running. the end of time. We've been a lot all these years, but
There, in the screen flashed something. A video. A nothing changes for my love for you. You're still you.
video of me. Since I was a public icon in Manhattan, all Even though I tried to forget you, I just can't. Your face
attention is on the video. It shows... still lingers in my memory. My mind tells me to stop
"Carrie, I know that you can see and hear me now. love you and I want to be with you, my love."
Please listen to what I’m about to say. We've been "I just want to say something for you in person. If you
together for a long time. We've worked so hard for this want to hear this, just ride in the limo in front of you
relationship to grow. We've sacrificed a lot. We learned and it will bring you where I am. I Love You."
and in this place, in front of all the people in New York, I My friends help me plan all of these. They help me to
will tell something to you. put this up, and they have been following Carrie
hearing those words, tears rolled down in Carrie's eyes. that we've plan this thoroughly but what if something
She's laughing at the same time crying. I don't know went wrong. What if she turns it down. I'm scared but
what she's thinking in that time but I hope that she will at the same time hopeful. Hoping that a magic will
accept what I will offer to her. After the video is shown, come.
the lights went back and the crowd cheers and jitters
for her. Thank Goodness, she decided to go wherever I The Empire State Building is a 102-story landmark Art
tell her. She's in the limo on the way to Empire State Deco skyscraper in New York City at the intersection of
building. Fifth Avenue and West 34th Street. It has an indoor and
I'm now in the top floor of the Empire State building. minutes. She went inside. Inside the lobby, a big
I'm waiting for her. I know that she's now in the limo on bodyguard type guy was waiting for her. Normally there
was a long line that snaked backwards and forwards looking at the view of New York as the elevator
because the high speed elevators can hold a limited accelerates. She will be waiting for my surprise.
and the place is closed. I really don't know how we pulled it out off. After
"Are you Ms. Yap?" the bodyguard asked her. the Empire State building, and talked to the
"Yes, how do you know?" CArrie asked. Upper East Siders and freakingly, dirty rich guy, he
"Because you’re the prettiest girl in Manhattan", he chuck for that. I somehow make sure that everything
replied. Carrie blushed. from minute details of The Plan will come true. I asked
The guy walked her towards the elevator and pressed all agreed. They said that not every day that the famous
the button. The elevator's door opened right away, she "James Lee" will come to the Empire State and asked
stepped in. He pressed the top button and stepped out something to them. And not every day they can witness
before the elevator doors closed. I knew that Carrie's something special.
The elevators opened at the 86th floor, and Carrie ambiance is full of love. I can't really tell because I've
arrived at the observation deck. There was no one never been a romantic guy. I just have to be a guy who
except me. She can't see me because all the lights were will love my girlfriend and hopefully my fiancée. My
off except for a few that leads to the edge of the deck, friends had done their part of The Plan successfully, and
towards me. The viewing deck was surrounded entirely now it’s my turn.
all around us. The city lights were unbelievably light, Carrie saw the place, the flowers, the candlelight
and around the Time Square, the rest of the city dinner, the violinist, the lights and all of it. I am in the
sprawled out in all windows of New York. middle of the place dressed in tux waiting for her to
At the outdoor observation deck, you could stand there come with radiant smile in my face. We walked towards
and look 86 floors down. Here, bouquets of flowers but each other. She looked at me.
mostly its yellow and white roses were strewn about "You didn't..." she said hardly believing what she saw.
extravagant place of paradise. Lights were randomly While Carrie was still recovering from shock of the
put. A table for two with a candlelight dinner awaits us height, the place, the flowers, the view before her, and
with a violinist serenading. Everything is perfect. The me, I reached into my pocket for the ring, and got down
girls told me that the place is romantic and the on one knee.
"I love you," I said. " I love you since you walked into
"I've been so scared and blind." I told her. When she that classroom, and I never stopped loving you. I don't
saw me kneeling there with a ring, a hand flew to her plan to stop loving you if you'll let me."
make any or memorize anything, but I knew that what I For a moment she was overwhelmed with emotions,
had to tell Carrie, and without thinking the words came but as soon as the words could come out, she said them
"Everything I ever wanted, I already had," I said, "with "Yes!" Carrie said. "Yes, I'll marry you". And then she
you. And I had to go halfway around the world and was kneeling in front of me kneeling in front of her, and
spent so much time just to figure it out that I had blown both of us trembling. I put the ring on her slender
it. I had lost everything", I paused and Carrie reached finger, and we kissed.
again."
They were happy for us. I know that I had made the
right choice and I will never regret it. I love her. She
Leaving All Behind sheer longing to see her, the smile, the stern jaw that
After that night, we went back to my house and I wonderful mouth that kisses me , the beautiful artistic
announced to all my friends, colleagues the good news hands that hold my hands when
call me all of the above, because I love her so much that feeling. I was in love with her, falling in love with her
my very essence of being screams her name twenty- more and more. A large part of me is happy because of
four/seven in the deepest recesses of my mind as a not- her, but that wasn't the reason why I felt calm and
so-subtle reminder of my absolute devotion and peace. Because the reality was I didn't know anything. I
adoration and I now hold my breath just thinking of her have no idea what the future held of me. Who was I to
wonderful spirit and her beautiful face and that is what I say? Maybe we would live happily ever after. I didn't
call love. know. But I had the greatest hope for us. I had led a rich
Life isn't like movies. It never turns out the way you life. I loved hard, but come out whole, able to over
think it will. In the movies, you know the plot in a again and give myself again. Because somehow I gotten
straight line: boy meets girl, boy and girl are torn apart, things right in love and friendship and work--and for all
boy and girl meets again. of that I was thankful. I knew I deserved it, but I also
In my life, love has gone in maddening circles, like a knew that I had been very fortunate. My only regret
rollercoaster doing a loop, or a 24/7 doing a roundtrip would be for all the possibilities that I would mind. And I
halfway around the world then returning home. Maybe had so much to look up for.
what Carrie and I had was what I had been waiting for And for a second, I saw my life flash before my eyes as if
my entire life for. Everything in me said it was—I felt in it were someone else's, everything from my first
memory with Carrie to growing old with her by my side