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com 10 9 8 7 6 5 4 First Edition LITTLE PIG PRODUCTIONS Operas and stuff* Feel free to sing along. ii . Kristen Caven) isbn-10: 1451587813 isbn-13: 9781451587814 © 2011 by Kristen Caven all rights reserved www. Or a person who is full of light.littlepig. In the Big City. since they were altered that time you had that intimate conversation. TITLE PAGE: “Air Quotes”—watercolor pencil on paper. without a face.” or “an art student at City College” and you can start hearing your own quotation marks.COVER: The ﬁgure with the rays of light where her face should be is from the part in The Reason She Left when Nettie arrives in the Big City and realizes she is not deﬁned by anyone or anything. and have had a hundred intimate conversations since then.com www. Or who feels like a blank canvas. *(mostly stuff). Introduce yourself enough times as “Brad’s roommate.kristencaven. You may never see the same people twice. Or one who cannot be seen or deﬁned. This picture also can be seen as a young woman whose mind is being blown. Or one who is pure consciousness. But socializing can leave you feeling emptier than being alone.” “a freelance editor. The Reason She Left and other stories by Kristen Baumgardner Caven (a. a young single has access to lots of other young singles. inspired by the song Freezing by Suzanne Vega & Phillip Glass.k.a. Or having a religious experience. People might not remember you.
table of Contents
INTRODUCTION 1 2
a bRIef hIsTORy Of The aTOmIC TheORy kIDO COmICs 8 12 16 20
sIx TRUe sTORIes IN GOD’s COUNTRy
lIT-CRIT lOve IN pO-mO TImes The ReasON she lefT 22 55
NOT exaCTly a faIRy Tale eGO sUm 60 63
afTeRThOUGhTs 65 (notes on the opera)
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and like to read. they sort of took over the place. but enough nerve in my glamour days to put them the heck out there. I was reading Garﬁeld between bouts with the Great Books. sisters of the ink had elbowed their way into the growing alternative press movement as Wimmin and Grrrlz. the last issue published was #17. published whenever a free copy machine appeared on my path.C. and learning how to shade them so they looked real outside my head.A. Exploring identity as well as narrative. and of witnessing a hystoric revolution. lest I kill off more collectives.. I ﬁnally touched the edge of a circle of women artists. and my Atomic Comic was printed in it’s ﬁrst ‘zine. #3. I was busy meandering through my college career. But it could have just been that the times were changing. I was oblivious to this. A tsunami of manga arrived from Japan.INTRODUCTION THE REASON SHE WROTE the things in this book Since comics began. I made up almost as many pen names as characters.. women have been drawing them. but alas. Publishing their writings in supportive and collaborative environments. When superheros arrived in the 1930s. People had kids and had to ﬁnd real jobs. In the nineteen-nineties. My boxes of art soon acquired the classic “California basement” smell. I became fearful of publishing my work.I. and by the 1970s had squeezed a lot of interesting heroines and women writers out of the industry. Muses. just moments before the times changed.. some went on to invent blogs and webcomics. outlining ideas and questions with black lines. Personal computers arrived and everyone got busy being graphic artists..take us away! 1 .. A few years ago I realized that I’d not only developed enough skills in my years of desktop publishing to pull my works together. Deeply in love with my sketchbooks. My ﬁrst book. I was a founding member of Friends of Lulu when it was just an APA (amateur press association). In the 1980s. targeted towards girls!)—and slowly but surely the graphic novel became a mainstream literary form. The book you are about to read releases my secret collection of personal rhapsodies on life’s mysteries.. (shockingly. The Reason She Left began serialization in Grunge #5 and W. besides. the last issue of each. Discovering the opportunities of the times.. A Wimmins Comix editor invited me to submit to issue #18. they opened a seam of awareness (and sometimes anger) that women and girls have their own stories to tell. tells my tale of cartooning in and after college. I drowned my sorrows in volunteering (sacriﬁcing my feminist ideals for historical fantasy by modeling expired fashions and dancing in a bathing suit on stage) and design work. Perfectly Revolting: My Glamorous Cartooning Career. I looked for excuses to turn stories and essays into sequential art that pleased my audience of one: me. exploring the nooks and crannies of my brain with a pencil..C.
A Brief history of the Atomic theory
“In the beginning, Man did not ask questions.”
The first comic I ever drew is dedicated to Lucretius, a Roman philosopher who walked the earth a few decades before Christ but many centuries after the ancient Greeks. He wrote this beautiful poem called De Rerum Natura, or The Nature of Things, which presented the history of scientific ideas, and also disguised some very radical concepts about the knowable world by wrapping them in a beautiful love poem to nature.
“...newborn lambs gambol on wobbly legs through tender grass, their baby hearts tipsy with winy milk.”
In capturing the adore-ability of the natural world and maintaining very firmly that “Nature is Beauty,” Lucretius was able to coax those who believed “Nature is Magic” to understand that “Nature has its Reasons.” He couched his “bitter doctrine” of scientific inquiry in the “pleasant honey of the muses,” so superstitious readers would not freak out about things like atoms and the void. I thought this was such a cool idea that I wanted to ride on his coattails. I wanted to convey the adorability of science by drawing my term paper on the Atomic Theory in cartoons instead of dull, scientific text. I made the main character “Man” and dove right in, letting the art and words flow naturally together.
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and your mind can take you on trips of paranoia and self-pity. He shambled up and frowned at my right foot while I was standing in a neutral position.. as well. Ignore your vitamins. A terrible ballroom dancing accident put my first foot on that bridge. Who would think the position of your feet could affect the way your neck feels? Or your stomach? Or your heart? I breathed better. kicking it straight. I twisted it over and over again just by walking or putting my socks on. cure illness.The Kido comics “From your center comes your power.” The thing about a life of the mind. So my mind could continue its mischief.. A hybrid. and from the knowledge of the mind to the wisdom of the body. Avoid sleep long enough and the mind loses its integrity. invoking the Magic of Nature. Many traditional quests for knowledge lead students across the bridge from Western philosophy to Eastern. can alleviate pain. I found teachers who helped me discover the grace and power of my body’s own movement.. A little ChiKung/XiGung/QiGong and a few acupressure treatments revealed the secret lines of incorporated energy that. After landing caddywhompus on the final whirl of The Beautiful Blue Danube.” he growled. my ankle was never the same. and became aware of where my elbows and chin showed up at any given moment.is that the mind can’t do all the work alone. “Make it straight. and erase disease. when flowing right. Re-learning how to stand completely changed my perspective on life.” I explained. soft-style Tae Kwon Do showed me how to employ gravity and use physics along Geometrical planes to give my punches and kicks more power. 8 . I started paying attention to the position of that foot. “It’s broken. My science teacher invited me to take his morning T’ai Chi class to strengthen my ligaments. Drink too much wine and your body turns it into an open culvert for the flood of your whims and emotions. or even check out on you—just when you need it most. unable to carry a thought from minute to minute.. “But it naturally goes at a 45-degree angle. Over the next few years. I ran faster. I learned simple techniques to keep my body healthy.” he demanded. I fell down less.
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but find your own center of gravity. “the waY oF ChI” KI IS ChI. . Tae Kwon Do was invented by and for Koreans. * 10 * The big asterisk is to note that different ethicities have different Natural curves in their lower backs. LIFe eNerGY. Do MeaNS 'waY'. Try these if you like . KIDo IS the waY oF eNerGY.Ki-Do * Comics * or LIteraLLY.
“the waY oF ChI” DISCoVer the CIrCLeS aND LINeS. * or LIteraLLY. 11 .Ki-Do * Comics DISCoVer the INterpLaY oF oppoSIteS wheN You MoVe.
Be an English teacher overseas! Do caricatures on the mall! Get a Fulbright and study Capoiera! Work on an automobile factory assembly line! Be an accountant! One roommate said.six true stories Or. This was my first memoir.. my life as a cat. that story’s not in this cartoon..we could really go places. great stuff! With your drawing talent and my brains and sense of humor. This dream ended the day I watched my horse’s shoulder get stitched back on after she wandered through a barbed-wire fence. about a boy who moves around from home to home and nothing seems to make much sense.) In so many ways. It put me in such a mood. I had already had so many interesting and confounding experiences in my life. even though I was working two jobs and starting my lifelong business.. even though I was attending the third of the four schools I’d pass through on my way to a college degree (one of them art. one of them martial art).) I had seen this great Swedish movie called My Life as a Dog. yeah. (Relax.” Um. It felt like I was just standing still. I wanted to write a cartoon about my relationship to animals. “Wow. Always investigating my own connection with nature. How could I ever begin to sort out the strands of story and figure out who I was? People were always giving me great ideas about what I could do with my life. which had compounded year after year. I walked around with a very heavy feeling of just how OLD I was. Though barely in my twenties. (We never went anywhere. even though I’d already met and lost my greatest love—it felt like my life had yet to begin. which had been so important to me a child I wanted to grow up to be a vet. 12 ..
at the park. and took him to church for bless-the-pets day. gentle and friendly. We named him Godzilla. 3 What would you get if you crossed Jack Canfield with Steven King? 15 . he weighed ﬁfteen pounds.. ﬂuffy chicks in all different colors and styles.. My dad bought a “variety pack” of adorable. Plucked and dressed for cooking.. One rooster grew up to tower over the rest. He was gorgeous. 1 2 Sometimes. When I was a kid. I must resist the urge to run around and pat people on the head..From the sketchbook: Three random musings on poultry breeding.
a tradition for lone travelers since traveling began. the tape froze in the player and I couldn’t get it out to play the radio. I moved to the West Coast to start a new life. halfway through my college career. The cinematic sweep of the sparse desert. I had found it at a garage sale. cell phones and satellite radio.. the eerie floating mountains on a hot day. I popped the only 8-track tape I owned in the player. I made this trip many times. For the rest of the day. and for all the profound empty spaces of Earth.in god’s country A Wee tale of the Wide West In 1987. I was serenaded by Solid Gold Hits for a few miles. which seems to have ended with my generation. The January day I drove the eight-hour stretch of America between Salt Lake City and Reno. and the comforting presence of the giant cowboy at the casino in Wendover became part of my own internal landscape. After a final line of Rock me gently. never as uncomfortably as the first... I tucked my sleeping bag over my legs so the pitiful heat my old VW Bug could produce would at least be trapped around my freezing feet.and a few years later found its way into this story..) Fortunately. 16 . I have a lot of different radio stations in my head. but always with regard for the emptiness of the Great Basin.. the only broadcast I could enjoy was the stream of my own thoughts. then the music slowed and the pitch went down. (After that there were portable DVDs. rock me sl-l-low-l-ly. a cold snap was keeping the western states well below freezing.
in a world where I was so busy trying to make all the ends meet. but why spend my nights erasing the brain cells I’d spent all day building? I saved my money for other things.Lit-crit Love in po-mo times “My knees went weak when he said ‘semiotics’. The guy may have been in an altered state. and everyone was all quite smug about it. I had a high-concept flirtation in a club. Maybe there’s a really smart guy out there (is he still handsome?) who might remember this conversation. where I encountered the version of twenty-somethings who came to big colleges to party. 20 . I never understood this. In a world of man-made experiences. so I could spend more time drawing and writing. fix this ephemeral moment forever. One night. Or not... where—I wondered—did ‘Man’ fit in now? For that matter. As if the books were closing on all known history and thought. I liked a drink now and then. the preponderance of meaning made it the shortest of short relationships. But alas. social practices that had once been considered radical (like tattoos) were now de rigueur.” Into an urban wilderness I went. Things that had once been sacred (like making love) (I mean having sex) were now casual. Even philosophy had a new name: theory. Like to buy myself time away from a job. where did men fit in? At the end of the millennium. The snappy dialogue was right out of a black-and-white movie from an earlier. I had to capture it on paper. after it seemed all of Lucretius’ questions of nature had been asked and answered. more knowable time.
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“All men desire knowledge.”
As a college senior, I read a speech by the post-modern German writer Christa Wolfe. She wondered about women of literature who are left outside the place men build with their words, unprotected, “made to believe that the only mode of rational thought is the entrenched one.” Like a third-act turning point in a noir thriller, in which everything that has transpired previously is suddenly seen in a new and terrible light, Wolfe’s wonderings opened the door to a new paradigm for me, and I chose to write on this topic for my senior essay. But once again, I endeavored to make art out of my learnings, rather than express them with just plain words. I conjured Nettie Olsen from the swirl of my imagination and set her free on paper to give voice to the demanding questions that kept me up at night. Like me, Nettie was an intuitive, emotional, and (we assume) menstruating creature who wanted to find some connection between the lofty things she was learning in school and the reality of her life. Unlike me, her life was pretty clear-cut, with a real place (the Citadel) symbolizing what is, for the rest of us, a subtle state of mind. The only things clear cut about my own life at the time were the scraps of paper cluttering my apartment (see Afterthoughts). While writing about freedom of thought and self-definition, I became a “slave,” my roommate would tease, “to my creative urges.” For three months I tried, with my pencils and pens, to keep up with Nettie’s iconic twentieth-century journey of self-discovery. Her wonderings and wanderings built a bridge for me between the female dark-side-of-the-patriarchy on the one hand, and an authentic, brightly-burning, self-motivated humanwith-boobs on the other. With a matter-of-fact libido and an even more matter-of-fact desire for friendship, Nettie’s journey is not so much through a plot as through a series of intense conversations...a favorite experience I had never found in a comic book, but thought might be served by the medium. (Remember, comics is a medium, not a genre...and every known form of art was once just a crazy idea.)
A few words to the reader: please forgive Mario’s short shorts and the gang’s knee-jerk reaction to the military. In 1990, the world was pre-Shaq and preIraq, in spite of the gals’ belief that it was post-everything else. It was the end of a millennium, and that doesn’t happen very often.
NOTE: Yes, there will be footnotes. For what is postmodern literature without subtext?
NOTE: Read the fine print in the first panel. Girls tend to get better grades than boys in the early years, then fall behind in this world of opposites.
NOTE the presence of the geometrical proofs on the board after the wall of words has gone. Nettie longs for the harmonic relationality of mathematics yet, it seems to have been ‘proven’ that her voice is sub-liminal. Learn about how women contributed to the famous and gorgeous Pythagorean theorem. 29
33 . Eric awoke thinking of what he was leaving behind. But that’s another story: his.NOTE: Although it seemed like they dreamed the same dream.
36”.NOTE: Other reliable sources say the Perfect.24” . 35 . or Ideal Figure is actually 36”.
I wasn’t ready to take the next step. 55 . the kind that lasts a lifetime.. I wanted to live the unexpected life. (Nowadays it would be. and personal power. and move on to a new and more harmonious reality. After college.. sparkling with glass beads and fringed with ostrich feathers. I never really wanted to grow up.even the big ones like marriage and family. But that’s another story..not exactly a fairy tale “Freudian slippers that only I could wear.. Within a year I’d make a new friend who resembled Melissa Steadman from thirtysomething (the tv show). But my soul had it’s plans and sent me a dream that. today’s princesses all seem to know Kung Fu. My psyche chose it to offer me a glimpse into the delicious world of friendship I would soon enter. And I would begin a relationship with a dress—yes. He bought me the gown... at the time. A guy who listened to my dreams and understood me.) The Cinderella myth was a good container for my childhood issues with housecleaning. authority figures. a dress—that would mysteriously open up doors for me and help me find my birthright. The real gown. was anything but cliché. which would prepare me for love. As if right out of a dream.” Romance and happy endings are about being able to let go of one reality that doesn’t work anymore.. kind of like how Reid understood Nettie (but differently). my feminine power. I wanted to avoid all clichés. There was even a prince at the end.. blended families. transformed me in my own mind from a sweatpants-wearing college nobody into an iconic figure from a more glamorous era..
Words and pictures..ego sum “An insight. 60 .” There are many words in this book. see p. It’s the story of Consciousness Growing up On planet earth The school we all attend. or tear it out or copy it (or download it free. And follow the directions on the back. But they’re all steps on a journey to the last page. 69)... Turn it sideways and then around. Which is a book in a book You can make it yourself..
Ninety-ﬁve pound weakling trope © Charles Atlas. probably. classmates and comrades made it into this piece. Eco. But mostly Greeneyes. Lyrics quoted in the intro to In God’s Country © Andy Kim. Mickey Mouse by Walt Disney. wherever he may be. the foot-kicker. Barbi- 63 . Lasse Hälstrom is awesome. who is mistaken for Neil Diamond by 9 out of 10 people. DeBeauvoir. with inspiration from and conversation with Barbara Roseman. designed and published by Kristen Baumgardner Caven. Kenny Nolan. A jam on Barthes. Borges. KiDo Comics were made possible by Brian Lee and Annie Lee of the Dragon Well School of Kung Fu (formerly the KiDo Institute). Joyce. LeviStrauss. And Johann Strauss II. written. Kraft logo. Insights and funny personal culture bits from many friends and boyfriends. and Radar. 33 Images: Betty Boop by Max Fleischer. with help and inspiration from many. and of course. More special thanks to Jack Lincoln. Richard Gray at Mills College. and a lost dream of St. Lit-Crit Love mentions American semiotician Charles Sanders Pierce. 27 Book: Don Quixote by Miguel Cervantes. that’s Shaquille O’Neal referenced in the intro. Six True Stories is dedicated to Greeneyes. Kafka. Daisy. Others are listed below. Yes. Based on Lucretius. and my brothers way cooler than Ricky. and the patience of Eric Sanford. The Reason She Left was made possible by Dr.ROLL CREDITS This book was drawn. A Brief History of the Atomic Theory comic was made possible by and is also dedicated to Jack Lincoln. Da Da Da by Trio. Christa Wolfe. Sherry and Snuffy. p. John’s. The Odyssey by Homer. p. Kazantzakis. De Rerum Natura. Rolfe Humphries tr. The Olsens are not my real parents. Lyrics: Lady Marmalade by Bob Crewe.
Books: The Far Side by Gary Larson. and corporate cultures that okays violence against men. Bettie Page. and MacDermot. Born in the USA album cover by Bruce Springsteen. animals. X-Men © Marvel Comics. but I think a rapist philosophy exists in prison. criminal. p. dad. p. Hair musical by Rado. with a special shoutout to Felix Boomerang. Frank Gehry. 35 Images: Wheel of Fortune. and everyone who brought culture and pop culture to my particular brain. aren’t they? p. and thinks ‘misogyny’ is better. Dave. and everyone else who encouraged me along the way. 48 and 49 Lyrics © Bruce Springsteen. The Persistence of Time by Salvador Dali. Thank you to mom. p. 38 Images: MTV logo © MTV. Programs used were Adobe Photoshop® and InDesign®. p. 44 I actually thought of ‘rapism’ myself and wondered why no one else used it. NBC® are just words. p. p. thirtysomething is probably © ABC. The Mona Lisa by Leonardo Da Vinci. 54 Lyrics © Sting In Not Exactly a Fairy Tale there’s a lyric © Walt Disney Co. Le Model Rouge by Rene Magritte. p. girlfriends. p. ®. thank you to all those people whose names come up in the credits. Woman with Book by Pablo Picasso. 36 Images: IAC building. Chartres Cathedral. 64 . One huge feminist author came down hard on this word. 37 Images: Whistler’s Mother by James McNeill Whistler.p. Ragni. Ricky’s Images: BUD is a trademark of Budweiser®. 39 Movie: Brother from Another Planet by John Sayles. p. architect. Young Woman in White Reading by Pierre-Auguste Renoir. Thank you to my readers for helping me see my work more objectively.. p. Levis®. Madonna and Child by Joe Ortiz. ex-specially my own personal superhero. 40 Books: Heavy Metal Magazine.. 46 Images: Coke®. p. 32 Book: The Book of Laughter and Forgetting by Milan Kundera. and other natural beings as well as women. Blackjack. brothers. and an image similar to the one his artists created. Words: My brain hurts by Monty Python’s Flying Circus. 50 Images: The White House. Fonts used in this book are Avenir. and kbc comic caps. How do you collect royalties on the subconscious? Also. 45 Books: The Boyscout Handbook and The Anarchist Cookbook.
Afterthoughts 65 .
(When using this stuff. The wire is attached to a barrel that makes a gentle knocking noise when you shake the pen. when the Gods rewarded me for cleaning my desk. Using scissors. here’s how. learning to cut and paste using brushfuls of rubber cement. So you got it: my full-page comic opera. they usually got stored in some sophisticated system of postits. a fingernail moon might end up back on the artwork somewhere and then show up unexpectedly on the Xerox® copy. You have to clean the pens when you’re done with your project. When I undertook my Opus Maestro (The Reason She Left). Sometimes. I drew most of these comics with the Rapidograph® pens my architect boyfriend gave me. these Little Scraps of Paper got transferred into a more meaningful format. You can kill a $40 pen if a mosquito lands on you wrong. To add some depth and details. say. leaving a little dent in the paper along the black line. notebook pages. for example. They’re these high-tech instruments that serve up a steady stream of ink around of a thin wire that fits snugly inside a tube of a precise diameter. When ideas for my operas (plural of plural of work) appeared. Bear’s shirt. and covering the paste-up lines with Liquid Paper®—or strips of correction tape after they invented that.Notes oN the opera The arts and the crafts Were you actually hoping for an opera? An actual opera? Opera is the plural of opus: Latin for work. backs of receipts. or an inch-wide wedge. and business cards stored in precarious piles. I got into the serious stuff: pre-printed pattern sheets by Zip-a-tone® and Chartpak®. I’m telling you: drawing is dangerous business. I used ink washes and watercolors in my early works. a grass-thin sliver. I got a lot of practice when doing my weekly panels (See Perfectly Revolting). I switched to cross-hatches and dots when I realized copy machines and printers can’t see shades of gray. I assure you I burst into song once or twice! (Didn’t you? While reading it?) People often ask me how I did stuff. Then I’d whip out my razor-sharp Exacto® knife and trim off the excess. and then try to re-thread the wire through the tube. biting your lip.) 66 . hoping not to bend it. Like drawing paper. I’d cut a piece of zip-a-tone in the approximate size of. then peel the back off and stick it down. you have to keep track of the scraps.
expressive. copy it again.) keep inventing newer and better ways to do the thing you just mastered. even the nicest of them would smile good morning through clenched teeth. Sometimes I’d need to leave my pages. Parviz Banki. and even became an artistic tool with the amazing enlarge/reduce. sizable. Which meant the detritus would stick to my elbows and socks and get tracked around the apartment for days.I wasn’t a very neat person when I was working. more than you ever imagine when the idea first strikes. from somewhere on the scale from amusement to patience to white hot rage. be—for a small investment of only 67 . interchangeable fonts. Along came MacPaint® with twenty builtin. reverse. David Berggren. with their drying inks and cut-out edits laying around overnight when I was working on them. On the worst days of the biggest projects. here’s the second most annoying thing about creating art (the first being the need for sleep and food. kitchen tables. Those were the glory days!– Then Jobs and Woz went and invented the PC. Steven Balensiefer. then and rub dry transfer lettering around it for a snazzy graphic design. the backs of books. Then the world’s innovators invented cameras and lithography. and dark/ light functions. bed time always comes too soon when you’re on a roll. In the really olden days. I’d focus on the project and everything around it would blur. reduce it. I’d draw on any available hard surface— coffee tables. cut and paste it. Robin Briggs and all the others whose names pop up whenever you open a design program. And art takes time. The Xerox® machine made publishing accessible and easy. In a simple thirty-one step process I learned to ink a drawing. Then copy it again to create a master. Plus. Oh glory. Different roommates would respond differently. and finally copy machines. before I could afford a proper drafting table.. illustrators who wanted to make reproducible art would simply engrave their pictures right on to a printing plate using metal tools and hammers—which were pricey but they’d last a lifetime.. the third being that need for space): living in technological boom times means the powers that be (yes I mean you.
I’ll pat my dream horse and thank the atomic theory and wish I’d written something more useful. say. he’d probably have tossed his natty scarf over his shoulder and coughed politely. I never have to leave the house. hello little graphic symbol of an Exacto® knife (inclued FREE)! Time spent on the learning curve now included knowledge of a new language made up of abrasively un-poetic acronyms like SCSI and TIF and JPG. 68 .50)! Hello Photoshop® ($600) and Pagemaker® ($300). And everything I’ve ever written or drawn or painted can fit on a single tiny silicon chip. Gustave Doré®. (Oh. then turned his back and started banging on his scratcherthings. yet could be instantly reproduced at will from the comfort of an art lover’s home on a printer no larger than a loaf of bread. If you’d told. in a virtual world where they took up no space.. And if you tell me. in the future.well. resentfully. I could now save tens... that my comics are being seen as movies that readers watch on the inside of their eyelids from the comfort of their own brains. some day (I expect I’ll be able to get email in the world beyond by then). the tilting artist’s desk is gone forever. No more rubber cement ($3. maybe hundreds of dollars by not buying Letraset® rub-off type! Then they invented scanners ($350). and now that there’s email and FTP. The Rapidographs® can stay safe and dry and unused on their way to becoming antiques. The temptation to go with the flow gets us all in the end (even grandma’s on FaceBook®) and now we’re slaves to the upgrades until who knows when? In many ways the appearance of a monitor looming on my desk stemmed the tide of comics from my brains and hands. that his steel etchings could be found. for the days of Rubylith™!) Thank goodness for the For Dummies® books ($39 each)! I wanted to stay a pen-and-paper purist but eventually.$1500 (plus $600 for a laser printer). And I’ll also hope they’re singing along. Including this whole book... I caved in to the excitement.. goodbye photostats ($15 each) and blue-line paper! Click a little tiny paint-bucket and you’ve got 55% screen without the stickyness! Goodbye dangerous Exacto® knife ($6).
A charming and honest memoir of growing up with a creative mind.. Sammy Sperm’s Guide to Safe Sex Sammy Sperm demonstrates techniques both for highly unsafe AND truly safe sex. It’s fascinating and entertaining to follow Caven as she grapples with ideas of feminism and femininity. Ego Sum an insight. of course. open.. a cartoon history of the historic 1990 student strike. and often downright funny portrait of the artist as a young woman.. each with their own paper doll & coloring books..com 69 . order or download a free pdf at. tied together with a narrative memoir of her journey from college to “The Real World.” ISBN: 9 —Mills Quarterly 78-1-4 414-15 43-1 mini-comics! ——————————————————————————— A Match Made in Utero A double-duty gender-exploration paper doll and coloring book set! Sammy and Emily are the dynamic duo of grinning gametes. and of realizing the power in her pen.ALso By the Author Perfectly Revolting my “glamorous” cartooning career A collection of over 100 cartoons from Kristen Caven’s ten years of ‘tooning. . much to Emilly Egg’s chagrin. a visual poem that puts human development in the continuum of cosmic consciousness.” Contains Inside the Mills Revolution. ISBN: 9 78-146 106185 4 WWW.. A tiny book about a big idea. “An insightful. enthusiastic... of independence and identity.KristencAven. featuring emily egg. Set contains Sammy Sperm’s Real World Adventures AND and Emily Egg’s Guide to Fashion..
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