A Mantra to Make you Feel Peaceful Part One The scene: I sat like I was catatonic.

Feeling sorry for myself. Alone at a crowded bar. Standing room only but I managed to get a barstool In the din of voices pulsating louder, and then softer, then screeching or so it seemed. I did not want to talk. I hoped no one would talk to me. Its hard to talk when you feel like crying. I wondered where you were what you were doing without me. Part Two Saved by a mantra (and my interpretation of it) Om Mani Padme Hum Then I whispered quietly to myself Om Totality My voice quaked. It was hard to even speak. Om It was easier to speak the second time. I thought of the totality of the universe. And I am whining about my little problem. As a mere human, I am small in size and there is only one of me. The earth is big And stars bigger yet And the space in between bigger yet. Billions of galaxies and each one with billions of stars. I pictured the night sky speckled with stars.

Yes and I will live for a brief time a brief flash in limitless time. Not at all forever. My misery seemed smaller. A speck in endless mass. Then I said to myself so no one would hear. Mani Jewel The reality of my life was permanent hard (shining) as a diamond Can not even be scratched. Yes, things are as the are now for the time being Will be as the will be. I have control over nothing only my thoughts I have dominion over this tiny body and the stuff within my head that creates my world. Right there at the bar, Hoping no one would notice, I shut my eyes and brought into being - A Diamond. And I looked at it and sensed it hard permanence. At any given moment, things are the way they are Temporarily. I said Padme\ Lotus Flower And I saw a lotus flower opening its petals to the warm sun. And I wanted to open my senses to the reality surrounding me let flow into me whatever was. I opened my eyes and ears to a flood of sensations the voices of the people . Someone laughed and another long and loud. Suddenly I felt my feet and hands legs - I have legs that I forgot! I meandered in the sensations. And I pronounced the word, Hum

Sense in nonsense. Emptiness in fullness. Void in non-void And I thought of sense in nonsense words, words, words Until everything and it opposite seemed true. Nonsense No analysis to figure it all out Not like a book with a theme. It just happens without a plan to end in justice or satisfaction, without a coherent plot All of it has no relation to the way things ought to be in my little plans. And thats all right Everything was all right for now I smiled.