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squagleedoo: josie psyclown02: joe squagleedoo: lol squagleedoo: ok squagleedoo: ill keep that in mind psyclown02: i met him just after jeff went to china and i as going thru withdraws squagleedoo: going through withdraws? psyclown02: i wanted to se jeff squagleedoo: mmmhmm mmmhmm psyclown02: and i meet this kid... we played cranium at my house with some friends... he was nowhere near the stature of jeff but his eyes... that same glint jeff had psyclown02: not somthing i saw then but sothing i saw in retrospect psyclown02: so we start hanging out after that (june 16th btw was the day he came over to my house) squagleedoo: ooo, attractive just listening about/reading about. squagleedoo: haha squagleedoo: you remember? psyclown02: haha he looks like 12 years old sadly squagleedoo: he's not the guy you showed me the picture of, right squagleedoo: yeah squagleedoo: that was different psyclown02: lil guy? squagleedoo: um...i dont remember. i think so psyclown02: thing1.jpg squagleedoo: well....considering how he's surrounded by kids who look like they're like...7 years old, yeah, he looks kinda young psyclown02: thos kids are 7 squagleedoo: wow squagleedoo: im awesome psyclown02: the mini munchkins as we call them (elementary schoolers) psyclown02: anyway
squagleedoo: whats he doing at an elementary school? psyclown02: so i meet him psyclown02: and he comes over and we start hanging out psyclown02: (the mini munchkins came to us its an event calld the playathn) squagleedoo: oh ok squagleedoo: go on psyclown02: so we start hanging out psyclown02: i show him final fantasy 7 ad he immidiatly loves it psyclown02: never playd video gams before squagleedoo: wow psyclown02: what he did for fun before me was stare at his wall and do yardwork squagleedoo: thats terrible squagleedoo: well...at least he can do some work, eh? psyclown02: he can bench me.. im twice his weight almost psyclown02: anyway squagleedoo: lol psyclown02: so i show him that and he loves it. h was all "damn i wish i could have this at home" so i respond "its yours" squagleedoo: wow psyclown02: he looks at me with his eyes lit up light cristmas lights... right there i completely fell for him squagleedoo: awww squagleedoo: thats cute squagleedoo: does he know squagleedoo: ? psyclown02: no psyclown02: so for the next few weeks he spends every other night at my house squagleedoo: wow psyclown02: well we'll get to that squagleedoo: ok psyclown02: so as i said he spend every other night at my house psyclown02: and well.. i was being stubborn saying that i don't like using my bed when i have guests so i was sleeping on my floor
psyclown02: he was also beig stubborn psyclown02: so he slept on the floor too... less than an inch from me squagleedoo: haha squagleedoo: you musta been happy, no? psyclown02: you have no idea squagleedoo: lol psyclown02: so prtty much every other night we slpt like that and i may have snuck a kiss on the cheek a few times squagleedoo: o.o squagleedoo: omg squagleedoo: wow psyclown02: what? i really liked him psyclown02: \anyway squagleedoo: lol psyclown02: oh btw he calls me daily psyclown02: even though his parents start to think he's got somthing.. more than a friendship. going on with me psyclown02: then he has to go to music camp at sac state squagleedoo: he seems very talented psyclown02: i get all sad but dont let him se it and the night he left, i get a call at 9pm ad w just kinda talk to 2am squagleedoo: oh my gosh squagleedoo: wow squagleedoo: do you think you guys have something? squagleedoo: or is it just a really comfortable/close friendship? psyclown02: then for the next 6 days we do that nightly conversations starting at 9 and ranging til 1am to 3am squagleedoo: oooooooo
psyclown02: haha just follow me squagleedoo: ok ok psyclown02: (btw this is summer) squagleedoo: ok psyclown02: then his birthday (july 31) scomes around squagleedoo: oh... psyclown02: so i get him south park, all seasons, ffviiac (he has beaten ffvii andloves it at this ppoint) and oblivion squagleedoo: wow, cool psyclown02: (he just got a computer with no internet at this point) squagleedoo: haha psyclown02: so then we keep hanging out like way too much school starts up and very little changes psyclown02: next few weeks are a blur of extasicy for me squagleedoo: eh? psyclown02: he had started to just kinda take off his shirt at my house.. cause my house was always hot as hell psyclown02: one time on a saturday he asked me to come over early so i get there at 7 psyclown02: then crash in his bed til about 2 and we get up he then buys me lunch, treats me to 4 games of lazer tag, buys me dinner and begs his dad to let me spend the night psyclown02: his dad says no psyclown02: so i leave still happy as fuck (he just spent 70$ on me pretty much) squagleedoo: whaaa? squagleedoo: awww squagleedoo: =dd
psyclown02: then my birthday comes along psyclown02: about 3 weeks before it me ad him were sitting on my couch and he says "hey your birthday is coming up what do you want" (i had never mentioned my birthday.. ever) psyclown02: ooh psyclown02: before this was my sisters wedding psyclown02: he helpd cater at my sisters wedding psyclown02: the entire time i spent with him as often as i could psyclown02: joe copy.jpg psyclown02: theres that one, rob (another friend of mine whom i dont talk to much) is on the left squagleedoo: oh hey, yeah. this is the picture that youve shown me squagleedoo: omg! squagleedoo: i know whats going to happen! squagleedoo: omg! psyclown02: i doubt that squagleedoo: ok keep going psyclown02: so my birthday rolls along squagleedoo: cute pic, btw squagleedoo: ok psyclown02: and he takes me out todinner just me ad him psyclown02: then we just kinda drive around looking for somthing to do squagleedoo: mmmhmm mmmhmm psyclown02: n1053060119_30014639_2954.jpg psyclown02: im thinking squagleedoo: is that him? psyclown02: ya squagleedoo: wow squagleedoo: looks awesome squagleedoo: the pic. he looks like a pro psyclown02: haha when i first showed him aim he sent me a pic of his ass
psyclown02: anyway squagleedoo: lol psyclown02: oh so then the pre playathon pledge parties start psyclown02: im talking to eff again at this point ad he knows i like joe psyclown02: jeff* squagleedoo: gasp! psyclown02: and he let me know i have til the end of our year to tell him or he will squagleedoo: why? psyclown02: cause he was an asshole squagleedoo: thats terrible psyclown02: so the pre playathon pledge parties start psyclown02: (every one of those ends in a clothed otrgy on the couch psyclown02: orgy* psyclown02: so we go too matts and he is just kinda laying on m and im cool with that (about 5 ppl know at this point) squagleedoo: what? psyclown02: lol we all want the couch.. all 15 of us psyclown02: so we all take it squagleedoo: ok squagleedoo: i get it squagleedoo: lol psyclown02: pledge party = go around with instruments collect money come back to house watch movie and have clothed orgy) psyclown02: and pizzza squagleedoo: lol squagleedoo: ok psyclown02: so ya lets see oh and we were screwing around with eachother and jeff spews this line "why not save us all some time and skip to sack tapping" squagleedoo: wtf? squagleedoo: ass hole psyclown02: joe just goes "well then get ur sack over here" to jeff so i know he doesnt give a damn squagleedoo: haha psyclown02: ooooh! psyclown02: rewind! squagleedoo: haha
psyclown02: a lil before my sisters wedding he spent a weekend at my house when is parents were camping and he didnt want to go (he had calld me up and asked me to gewt him out of it) psyclown02: (so i did) squagleedoo: lol squagleedoo: thats cool psyclown02: so that was a fun weekend i think thats when we both sept on my twin size bed psyclown02: then after my sisters wedding my mom gets him home too late and he gets grounded for two months psyclown02: so he's constantly calling me wheever he can psyclown02: and thats the point where we start sneaking around squagleedoo: ouch psyclown02: he started calling me (per my request) at 530 in the morning to wake me up squagleedoo: hehe psyclown02: he would tell his dad he's riding his bike to school psyclown02: and h would ride to longs psyclown02: where i would be waiting for him squagleedoo: awww psyclown02: we'd stuff his bike into my car and head out to school psyclown02: same thing but reverse for the way home squagleedoo: haha psyclown02: for weekends when he was still grounded i said i felt bad cause i got him grounded so we started sneaking him out at midnight squagleedoo: lol squagleedoo: even better psyclown02: and me and him would head to my house watch a movie (he would usually fall asleep) and then i would wake him up before his parents got up and get him home squagleedoo: thats...awesome squagleedoo: i wanna do that one day squagleedoo: go on psyclown02: heh.. you have no idea squagleedoo: haha psyclown02: so around the end of pledge parties he starts acting weird
psyclown02: playathon falls on a thursday psyclown02: he was spending the weekend prior to playathon with me squagleedoo: mmhmm mhmm psyclown02: we had a pledge party saturday and sunday psyclown02: so we go to the saturday one and thats wen iw ould get him for the rest of the weekend psyclown02: he heads over to my house psyclown02: takes his shirt off and then changes my music... one thing you do is dont change my music psyclown02: he knows this squagleedoo: eek psyclown02: he was just doing it to be friendly squagleedoo: oh..har har psyclown02: so i go up and start trying to get at my computer psyclown02: while brushing my arms against bare parts of corse squagleedoo: rawr psyclown02: he says fine and we start playfully wrestling (he's shirtless) squagleedoo: lol psyclown02: so he completely pinns m and i give and he gets my computer psyclown02: changes the music to rap (the one form itruely hate) squagleedoo: haha psyclown02: i say "dude change my music back" "or what? (with a smile) "i'll bite you" squagleedoo: lol squagleedoo: im gonna use that one day squagleedoo: thnx squagleedoo: =pp psyclown02: he replies "no you won't, but i will" and starts like biting his own shoulder psyclown02: so i say "dude keep tempting me i will" squagleedoo: haha psyclown02: we go on with that and enetually i do it" psyclown02: he's like "wtf?" im like "told you" i don't quite member what happen to that psyclown02: so the next day we think the party starts at 3 psyclown02: so we screw around til about 130 and then he takes a shower psyclown02: he coms out while im on my computer (comp faces opposite the door so i dont see him)
psyclown02: he poks me in the sides ad i spin around and he's in just a towel psyclown02: im like "uhhhhhhhh...... eye contact... check.. maintain.. check... stop must maintain!" psyclown02: eyecontact* squagleedoo: hahaha squagleedoo: hahaha psyclown02: so then he gets dressed and we head out to the party.. psyclown02: turns out we're to hours late psyclown02: it started at 1 squagleedoo: lolllo psyclown02: of course everybody think's we're a thing by then cause we're entering and showing up to everything together psyclown02: and this doesnt help things because we both show up 2 hours late using the same car ad everybody knows im illegally driving him squagleedoo: friends cant do that? squagleedoo: eek psyclown02: oh that and we'd always end up getting in play fights in the band room.. liek daily squagleedoo: haha psyclown02: ***shug*** psyclown02: shrug* squagleedoo: go on go on psyclown02: so then h says "comon ill buy you ice cream" psyclown02: so we leave ad grab ice cream ad then go to our usuall haunt lazertag land where we always get in free cause we're awsome psyclown02: seriously the guys there are like "you dudes play cause we ned ppl" squagleedoo: lol squagleedoo: thats rad squagleedoo: hurry! i need to go to bed soon psyclown02: omg k thinking squagleedoo: must....sleep psyclown02: so like.. oh ya psyclown02: lol this is just funny psyclown02: we need to get soda for his dad (btw at this point whenever joe mentions "danny" his dad chimes in with "you mean dannyboy?_" friday, march 23, 2007
psyclown02: so we neded to get soda squagleedoo: haha psyclown02: so the plan was i drop him off at dollar tree then go about 400 feet up the stret grab gas and pick him up squagleedoo: okaaay psyclown02: i drop him off at dollar ree and this night was nice so i had my windows open psyclown02: im waiting at the only stoplight and he literally blasts across 3 lanes of the street (no cars but still) and dives headfirst into my car window and his head lands up in my lap im like wtf?!?!?!?! squagleedoo: haha psyclown02: apperently dollar tre was closed... so he feltthe need to dive headfirst into my almost moving car window squagleedoo: hahaha squagleedoo: hahaha squagleedoo: omg, im actually lolling squagleedoo: =pp psyclown02: so monday comes along psyclown02: and my friend dan pace was with him psyclown02: ad dan likes to pretend to be gay even though he is straight as an arrow squagleedoo: =/ psyclown02: and he like did somthing to joe and joe just laughed. but they noticed a pinch of somthing on my face... squagleedoo: o.o psyclown02: so dan does it again and joe layes along while both of them completely seached me for hints as to waht that last thing was psyclown02: well joe foundit... the nxt day was gabes birthday squagleedoo: wait...what? squagleedoo: keep going squagleedoo: ignore me psyclown02: so we go do somthing for it and afterword im lik "blahblah you can spend the night at my house at playathon (i had planned to tell him i liked him the morning after playathon at my house) psyclown02: and he interupts m mid sentance and goes im not spending the night!!! psyclown02: i was just kinda taken aback... squagleedoo: o.o
psyclown02: i play it cool and then playathon day comes psyclown02: he starts completely avoiding m while trying to kep up the same visage he had psyclown02: ok history lsson psyclown02: i told him i liked jeff, i told him taht about 3 months before playathon psyclown02: he was a lil uneasy fo rabout 3 days then back to his normal self psyclown02: so he knew i was gay for awhile squagleedoo: oh squagleedoo: hmm squagleedoo: interesting psyclown02: buut yet he was fine with sleeping with me? anyway psyclown02: so he told me a few times in the car that i "seemed troubled" well i did and it was somthing i really couldnt tell him yet psyclown02: (we're back in time btw) squagleedoo: mmmhmm mmmhmm psyclown02: and he actually got angry at me on tim when i said "look joe im not trying to mak you feel left out" he gos "then just fucking tell me" slams the door and leaves (i was fine with that because i knew he was still a good friend at that point psyclown02: so i had planned to tell him on playathon and told him that i would tell him what has bee bothering me on playathon squagleedoo: ouch psyclown02: so rob lets me know at about 9 oclock at night that "apperently joe already knows cause sombody informed him" psyclown02: i had known he already knew on account of the avoiding psyclown02: i found out later btw that it was jeff squagleedoo: of course squagleedoo: what a dick psyclown02: jeff's word to quote "joe i need to talk to you" joe blahblha jjeff "danny's gay for you squagleedoo: phone? squagleedoo: in person? psyclown02: person psyclown02: playathon day squagleedoo: yucj squagleedoo: yuck* psyclown02: so about mid night joe goes "so you said you had somthing to tell me
today?" i told joe "i'll tell you when i get a chance" squagleedoo: wtf psyclown02: then as we were all packing up (about an hour long process) i look at him and go "hey" psyclown02: re replies "hmm" psyclown02: i say "look i kow that you already know if you want more information call me because i cat stand this place right now" and i prtty much do a walking spint out the door psyclown02: i hear feintly in the backound "what that you love me?" squagleedoo: o.o psyclown02: i go into my car knowing full well that he is not ok with it at all and i won't be talking to him for some time psyclown02: i break down in my car i couldnt hold it anymore psyclown02: i sulk home ad don;t hear from him all weekend psyclown02: monday comes by and he's in complete avoiding mode psyclown02: i figure "ya ok thats normal sure whatever" squagleedoo: =[[ psyclown02: a month passes ad ven though he sits next to m in first period psyclown02: won;t look me in the eye psyclown02: nor talk to me squagleedoo: ouch psyclown02: and the phone calls are complete out of the question squagleedoo: waddya mena squagleedoo: mean psyclown02: no calling me psyclown02: anyway so i sneak a letter into his locker... and i put it inside the birthday card he self wrote to me squagleedoo: aww psyclown02: basically saying "look im sorry that that happened and i just.. i want to know if im going to ever have what i had" psyclown02: joe replies "look yes you may, not to the full extnt of what it was becaus" eres the fun) psyclown02: he said i introduced him to video games wich ruined his life psyclown02: he says my carefree life fucked him over psyclown02: basically all that kind of stuff and he said "when we do start hanging out again no acting gay in public... in public or private... no i love you or anything lik that"
psyclown02: so i say fine... psyclown02: more time passes and im starting to break and loose hope squagleedoo: awww squagleedoo: this is a terrible bedtime story! psyclown02: it gets better psyclown02: not in a good way squagleedoo: mmmhmm psyclown02: so i tell him "look its clear that you don't wat anything to do with me anymore" so then i went into this big thing about how this happned with jef fand how its going to happen again with some other guy after him ad that ijust don't want to be on this earth anymore" psyclown02: joe freaks out squagleedoo: o.o psyclown02: tells the counciler and she pulls me in apperently he showed her the 4 page letter squagleedoo: wow psyclown02: she calls my mom in but is ambigious about thingsand my mom figured its just a adolescent thing squagleedoo: well thats good psyclown02: so then joe calls me for the first time in 2 months psyclown02: and starts with "you do anything stupid yet?" psyclown02: i didnt care... his voice was the most warming thing i had ever felt at that poit in time psyclown02: so we talk and he says that he's ready to try again with the whole frinds thing squagleedoo: wow psyclown02: dont worry it turns out to be a ballsey lie psyclown02: so we were talking about cristmasgifts to get eacother psyclown02: ... i don;t think h nded up getting me anything but i got him the oblivion 500 page strat guid (oblivion is his obsession at this point) and the expansion squagleedoo: that was nice squagleedoo: too nice psyclown02: when he see's it he just smiles so much... i hadnt seen that smile in 2 ad a half months squagleedoo: t.t psyclown02: so he's calling me abut very week again
psyclown02: and eventually for som reason they just all stop (calls) psyclown02: and he goes back into avoid mode psyclown02: i decide no letter this time.. just action psyclown02: (gets messy from here on out) psyclown02: i swipe a gun from my grandpa's place psyclown02: keep it in my car (no bullets and im fomulating plan nd systematically writing letters at this poit psyclown02: btw this was janurary and i was being kickd out of shool because i had my diploma quiviliant on janurary 18th psyclown02: the plan ended up being psyclown02: save up the gun and wait for bullets to swipe psyclown02: talk to mike to try and get joe because i want to talk to him one last time bfore i go... bcause i know this would really damage him psyclown02: i was trying to play every angle to minimiz the damage ddone to him squagleedoo: oh my gosh squagleedoo: are you being serious? psyclown02: yes psyclown02: i told you it gets messy squagleedoo: wow psyclown02: so i go to talk to mike about getting joe to see me one last time and mike just try's fo an hour to get me to hange my mind psyclown02: i tell him the only one who would even have a chance at that is joe.. and if h followed my plan... then jo would get that chance psyclown02: mik was supposed to talk to joe the night i was going to do it and have joe met m at 7/11 i wanted to talk to him just once more psyclown02: to get him to realize that it wasnt his fault ad that i was tdoing this beacuse of him squagleedoo: okaaaay psyclown02: wll just after that the vp comes into my band room and then the police are waiting on the outside of the schol psyclown02: iw as stupid nough to let slip the fact that the gun was under my pasenger seat in my car psyclown02: so cops and blah and yattah yattah im in a psyche ward..fir 5 days squagleedoo: lol psyclown02: (be mindfull all this time all i want is joe) squagleedoo: oh my gosh
psyclown02: just to see him... squagleedoo: this is incredible psyclown02: anyway psyclown02: ugh psyclown02: (yes i still miss him just as much as i did then) psyclown02: so i get out and things pick up pretty quickly with jeff and a lil slower with mike squagleedoo: okaay psyclown02: theres aother whole story almost as complicated ats this one with me jeff and kara (it lasts 3 years as opposed to this 5 months) squagleedoo: holy shit psyclown02: anyway psyclown02: so where i am with joe right now is he isnt talking to me at all psyclown02: he has m blocked on facebook psyclown02: but i have my il informants lose to him psyclown02: let me know he is doing well and if i ned to step in i can psyclown02: but... ugh psyclown02: what annoys me the most is... squagleedoo: =/ psyclown02: squagleedoo (11:32:37 pm): do you think you guys have something? squagleedoo (11:32:45 pm): or is it just a really comfortable/close friendship? squagleedoo: =[ psyclown02: he was acting totally different than how he was. psyclown02: me ad him really were great frinds psyclown02: ad those months were tha happiest i have ever been squagleedoo: t.t squagleedoo: you're gonna make me cry squagleedoo: wow squagleedoo: i...im speechless psyclown02: i miss the way he felt nxt to m, i miss his smile.. and jesus he scent.. it was freaking
intoxicating psyclown02: i delt with it sitting next to him for all those months psyclown02: ad not able to say a thing psyclown02: watching him talkt o all of my friends and all i could do was bow my head and try not to cry squagleedoo: o.o >.< t.t psyclown02: heh... psyclown02: im really glad i got to spend that time with him though squagleedoo: no regrets? psyclown02: one psyclown02: i regret telling jeff when he came back from china psyclown02: i still liked jeff more than joe at that point squagleedoo: but would it be any different if joe were to find out later? psyclown02: yes psyclown02: i could have put him down way easily psyclown02: "danny's gay for you" psyclown02: ugh psyclown02: i've forgivin jeff sense then psyclown02: haha but not before i got in 3 hugs ad a shirtless back massage psyclown02: (he was shitlss) psyclown02: shirtless squagleedoo: hahaha squagleedoo: shitless psyclown02: also jeff is for the most part ignoring m now too
squagleedoo: how awful psyclown02: although we did run ramparts together day before yesterday psyclown02: its not the same.. i miss joe. god just look at his eyes psyclown02: oh th day he took a showr at my place... squagleedoo: hehe psyclown02: i woke up (ompletely unintentional) with my arm around his waist psyclown02: and my head against his squagleedoo: awwww squagleedoo: he didnt notice? psyclown02: i woke up first psyclown02: that was when i gave him the kiss psyclown02: and turnd over so he would notice psyclown02: wouldnt squagleedoo: slick psyclown02: heh i used to be squagleedoo: i dont see why you dont write this jeff guy off for life psyclown02: because i do love him aswell psyclown02: and he has changed alot squagleedoo: _ squagleedoo: harrumph squagleedoo: it could be an act squagleedoo: you dont know that psyclown02: see that 3 years of history iw as talking about psyclown02: he was nice enough to at last stay friends with me psyclown02: hell he still came over to my house alone afterword squagleedoo: harrumph squagleedoo: i hope you know what you're doing squagleedoo: =// psyclown02: i dont psyclown02: i just want to see joe squagleedoo: =[[ squagleedoo: dont say that psyclown02: im having on of my imformants let me use his aim (a good friend of jhoe and mine so he knows joe is beig stupid) in exhange for covering for him that he is going out with some chick psyclown02: so i should be able to talk to joe.. ill have to preted to be somebody else
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but its ok... at least i will get to interact with him =[[ that sucks god i miss how he felt next to me' sorry... i dont know what else to say heh he usd to take me when i was on the matress and flip my top matress over and jump on it then reach down and poke me in the side haha while i was sandwiched sounds like that hurt haha nah i loved every seodf of it second of it* it was funny i knew the second i liked him that it was going to end so i lived every moment with him to the fullest how'd you know? becaus he wasnt gay, and he was raised catholic.. and he is catholic a little part of me hoped but i didnt let that grow too much i jus wanted him to accept me inner ass hole of him came out? well with the police... after that he showed his dad everything told him about the sneaking out showed him the letters omfg ummm... danny? he sneaked on once on aim and i talked to hi m hmm? its getting kinda late...
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heh ya and i hafta wake up in 5 horus houhrs* hours* mother crapper i cant even type heh so ya thats the joe story as it stands wow this was worth staying up for haha i could probably write it down and it would sell but i would have to uinclude the jeff story aswell my entire high school life would sll like wildfire yeah. you should make a memoir out of it you're not in high school yet are you? yeah im a freshy ha do yourself a favor hm? don't think about leaving.. and enjoy it as much as possble leaving high school? ya =// im worrying too much about college to enjoy it
shit im crying now... god i miss him. we both need to sleep... badly squagleedoo: haha squagleedoo: i agree psyclown02: i havtnt slept sense tusday squagleedoo: you'll be ok, right?
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eke probably not eek* but.. i was fucked so long ago =[[ /shrug people can learn from my mistakes promise you wont do anything rational? irrational rational (you get it) nope not promising anything irrationallity is my forte =(( was it the right thing for you to do to talk to me about this? you were being inquisitive and if somebody wants t kow i let them know awww, dont say that i feel bad now why? i don't feel bad for talking to you but i dont think its something that needed to be brought up umm im glad that you were able to share it with me but still see the thing with me anytime you ask m a qustion if i am hiding that story from you i cant answer any questions truthfully it just happens that way thats kinda...odd i know but ill keep that in mind why are you.. wishing you hadnt heard? no, i just dont want anything to happen to you like...maybe talking about it brought up some unwanted feelings
squagleedoo: that couldve been avioded squagleedoo: avoided* psyclown02: not really psyclown02: i complete brok earlier today psyclown02: once every 2 days i just kinda break down squagleedoo: thats terrible squagleedoo: im sure things will get better as time progresses squagleedoo: in some wa squagleedoo: way* squagleedoo: you deserve it psyclown02: ive been told that for 5 years squagleedoo: you still have time psyclown02: its a fairytale squagleedoo: =]] psyclown02: well psyclown02: i think its bedtime ne? squagleedoo: heh heh squagleedoo: yeah psyclown02: ill talk to you next time squagleedoo: alrighty squagleedoo: g'night squagleedoo: =]] psyclown02: g'night squagleedoo: have sweet dreams psyclown02: well thats one good thing squagleedoo: =]] psyclown02: i always have.. everynight.. about him... heh thanks squagleedoo: hehe squagleedoo: g'night psyclown02: gnight
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