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LIVE – Dealing With Fear – Not Trusting Mind & Why
Video Journal My Stroke of Insight – Jill Bolte Taylor
Have you ever thought that you had mastered something, only to come to realize that you hadn't? Not such a great feeling, is it? That just happened to me as I was preparing to do a journal recording. The next one in order to be read was really upbeat and cheerful. As I sat there, looking at it, I knew I couldn't match the tone of it for the reading. Didn't even try. What was it I hadn't mastered? It was fear about supporting myself. A call from Social Security was my wake-up alarm, today. The long and short of it is that I've got some more hoops to jump through for them. This is round three. Though I live with terrible pain, I am stable, and there's nothing more the doctors can do for me. Well, it turns out that, no matter what's wrong with your body, and no matter that the records prove up on it, if you're not being seen regularly in the doctors' offices, then they question if you're really disabled. Oh well – nothing I can do about that, that I know of, so here we go again. Anyway, I have actually been feeling pretty darn good, today. How could that be? It's bewcause, aside from a short initial disturbance I found myself free of the awful fear that I'd previously had over this – and that felt really good. When something threatens your ability to maintain your current living situation you know it is serious. Yet, in spite of that, I felt pretty darn free of the fear I'd
felt, earlier. I was just about congratulating myself. Turned out that was too soon. Oh well – it is what it is, and there's nothing more precious than Truth. So if it's more fear that's come up, then I'm darn glad to greet it and deal with it. Being free of fear – even just mostly – feels really good. So, this energy is way more subtle than the raw fear I had, before. Compared to that, this didn't even seem to be fear – but it is. How it showed itself is a weight on my generally happy spirit or mood. It was only by the contrast with the other journal's title (Feeling too Good to Sleep – Being with Pain, but Falling into Joy) that I was even able to detect its presence. Oh well, like I said, it is what it is, and so I welcome it. With Byron Katie, I welcome what is – just because it is. Is that reason enough for you? If not, then I suggest that more Joy is available to you. So, now what? Now I sit with the fear – now that I can at least identify it. So often it happens that things are ongoing within us that we're not even aware of – such as this situation. Since, by comparison with the previous sense of fear I felt, this felt nothing like that, I let mind convince me I'd mastered the fear. One foot in front of the other. That's how it goes. We can get through most things like that. I won't even let mind get into wondering why this is happening to me. Utter nonsense. As if I could know, right? What a waste of time such hamster-wheel thinking is. Besides, the thing is – it doesn't matter. It doesn't nmatter one bit – it just is what it is, and I'll deal with it. So I spent time with the worst-case scanario, again. Not much has changed since last time – but it still pays to just sit with those possibilities – knowing I caqn handle whatever comes up. We always can. Don't forget, we're divine, my friends. Don't sell yourself short. Now, you may yet be calling me Pollyanna. Don't be surprised. Why is that? Because I know what is ahead for me, and beyond any doubt. Though it will take my feeling a while to catch up with my knowledge, they will. I won't push them. No need for that. When I welcome what is, that means I don't push against it. I just let it be. So what is this great knowledge, then? What's that I see, up
ahead? It is this – I know beyond the shadow of any doubt at all that everything that happens is for my blessing and benefit. I kid you not – I'm not making this up. This is my real and honest belief. What that tells me is that, just up ahead I'll be getting to see what gift is contained within this. I will say up front that there are times when unwrapping the inevitable gift may take time – even years. Still, with time accelerating as it is, I doubt very much that I'll have to wait that long. Remember, the saying is that hindsight is 20/20 – meaning that when we look back on things in our past we're able to see how they helped us – thus, we have perfect vision (20/20). Well think about that – what is it saying? Clearly, to me, anyway, it's saying that, given sifficient time, what I look back on will be understood clearly. It's blessing will be seen - though it may not have been seen at the time. That takes into account how it is that many things don't appear to be blessings – not at first sight. Still, all we need do is the best that we can in each now moment – and what else can one do, anyway? Sure, it may be that for some things it won't be until we cross over that we're able to see the benefit. That still counts – that's perfect hind-sight, even if it does take some assistance from our Spiritual Guides. Folks, if people could just see all the way into this one little saying about hindsight, they would see that it means just what I'm always saying: everything, absolutely everything brings blessings. It's just up to us to come into heart vision so we can find out what that perspective looks like. Don't trust mind for this – not one bit. Mind will work to magnify the difficult bits. It can't help itself – that's just how it's programmed – and through little or no fault of our own. We have so much to celebrate. Can you see that? When I look around I see so many things that bring cheer to my heart. We're so many strong, the contingent of Light Beings on this planet, that the place is fairly glowing, already – and not everyone is yet awakened. We're so blessed, just to be here to usher in the new day, when TPTW (The Powers That Were) are taken down from their high and mighty thrones. Enough, already!
So our time has finally come. All we need do is be true to our self and to Truth and our integrity. The rest of it will take care of itself. I firmly believe that. It doesn't take that great a number to reach the fabled tipping point. I feel we're so close, now, we're almost there, or maybe even there, already. Don't let what is seen in the outer world get you down. Please, don't focus on that – don't believe it. Instead, keep your position in heart and your inward focus. That's your source of true Power – living from heart. What is outside is just what we are projecting, my friends. Once we clean up our insides – including processing all of our fear – then the outside will simply reflect that. It's powerless to do anything else. All this time we've been looking at our own reflection – any time we took a picture of anything, it was that, for the whole world has been just our reflection. What we were inside we got a picture of on the outside – just to be sure we could really see it, I guess. Heck, I don't know why things are set up this way. I just know that thw world is our projection. That gives the power right back into our hands, when all this time we let ourselves be convinced we were powerless. Well, we are not! As we can all get that through our thick skulls, then the world will be ours, again. Let's start Loving each other – right away. That's the biggest thing that will make the biggest change. That Love we feel and share is the very same energy the whole Universe is made of – so that makes our loving energy right in line with the will of the Universe. Whenever we harmonize with the will of the Universe, things can't help but go well for us. Universe will have her way, come hell or high water, so be on the right side. Love your fellow man, being, beast and plant – even the bugs! It's all so very lovable, which you'll see, once you start into this Loving. Heart vision will have you in Love tears, and frequently. Spend some time there, in your Kingdom of Heart if you doubt what I'm saying – or heck, if you don't. And everyone – let's be about BEing the blessing we each came to give. Let's start by recognizing the self as a true blessing to the earth and each other. We are divine, so how could it be any other way?
Now, the video is much better at explaining the last part of the title – why not to trust mind. Clearly, it's in mind that our fear lies hidden. Also, when we think we have mastered something – well, that's a good time to be careful. Like Socrates said, he was the smartest man on the earth for one reason. He said he knew one thing more than every other man – and that was that he didn't know anything. Ha! I can relate. LOL Then, too, as we're waking up, it's one thing to realize that we are not the body. That's not so very hard to do, especially considering the fact of reincarnation. Yet, when it comes to realizing we're not mind, that's where the real challenge is. Mind is a terribly tricky bugger. It's also quite bright. Finally, add to that the fact that it's the repository of all of our programming – well, those are some very good things to consider, and carefully, before we trust mind. Let's back away from that trust. Enter heart :)
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