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Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved. ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition .
For my boys. I love you. Brandon. and Jaden. Blake. Devante. The world is yours. Make your mark. Mom .
CONTENTS Title Page Copyright Page LOVE Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone .
The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You .
LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me LIFE I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song .
Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How .
It. Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now . too.
Handle with care. All you have to do is ask. What lovers do. I leave my mark. . Giving you more than my last. I make your food. Be your lover and more.LOVING YOU As you awake. For you. Wash your clothes. By loving you. I smile for you. I do it all. You are my light Through the dark. As you breathe. I live for you At your command. My world expands. Clean the floors. Bake your bread.
. Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth. All thanks to you. Only anger in this place. All thanks to you. heartless. My evil eyes are full of spite.THANKS TO YOU Cold. Rotten to the very core. Bitter through and through. The monster made. Blacker than the darkest night.
Caress my cheek from where you stand. My hips move to your beat. Your gaze has only reached my thighs. I see your eyes start at my feet. I quench your thirst. I see the way you look at me.WITHOUT WORDS I know you like what you see. Licking your lips. Don’t have to say a word. I feel your hands all over me. My chest. you lift your hand. I kiss your lips. And still not a word. And you haven’t said a word. it heaves to my surprise. woman and man. . You didn’t have to say a word. Now face-to-face. Felling the heat between you and me.
My end is here. . And you never saw me. But you don’t see me. The foolishness I left behind. Still shaded by your tree. The years I lost. I gave my all for you to live. You’ve taken all I have to give. It’s over now. Bare for all to see. The rest gone down the drain.WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME Here I stand out in front. My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. And now my shell is all I have. Emptied my soul. I shed my skin. just wasted time. Requesting more so you can live.
The heat I crave to feel at night. built-in trust. You are my winter. A love so grand. . We bring forth our new ecstasy. living long it must. All is still.SEASONS OF LOVE A light is shining bright. Existing even after the end. A constant cold stuns my heart. You are my fall. A smile that warms the coldest night. We from the start. Please stay a while. No you and I. You are my summer. In the end it was always us. it’s just you and me. You are my spring. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh. Our love is blossoming for all to see. We have grown together.
Just let me be. just let me be. I need the anger. I’ve got to let the burn roam free. . The damage done won’t disappear.BROKEN Please. please. Just let this pain pierce my skin. my worst fear. I killed your love for me. So. Don’t want you to dry my eyes. Don’t want happiness here again. I need to feel the pain inside of me. oh please. Not bottle it up inside of me. I want to cry. You must understand my need to be here.
That I’d never leave. I would call in sick. I would promise you. My love always. gazing upon your face. Wash your feet Late that night. Hold your hand. Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. Me in your heart. No worry about what could be heard. You on my mind. Enjoy the day. Open my eyes. I’d say. . Feed you by hand. Make love to you without saying a word. Sitting by your side.MY LAST DAY I would wake up a little late. I would make a meal For you and me. Silently gazing In your eyes. It would always be this way. Our fingers intertwined. Forever stay.
.That’s how I would spend My last day.
I’ll show up.I WILL SHOW UP If I yell. just know I won’t be walking out the door. it will be us. So when you’re mad as hell. Through thick and thin when times are hard. if you yell. And I will always show up. You curse and scream. . I will show up. Face so mean. Till this life ends. I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you. The very last one to show up. I’ll show up. You spit my name With twisted face. You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. You see I gave my word in front of God. I’ll show up.
we don’t have to talk or say a word. . Cover me with ecstasy. Not here to be your girl tonight. Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do. Just take me on into the room.WHAT I NEED No. Don’t want to chill or hang with you. it’s what you heard. I’m telling you. And give me what I need. It’s not my place to be her for you. Lie down with me in this moment. I don’t want to be your girl. Just here for me to feel alright. You can find someone else to fill those shoes. Yeah. So close your lips and take my hand. And give me what I need. No.
Brighter than the night’s sky. I am the Milky Way. And I will forge ahead. My glow shines through the darkness. I am love. Cannot be dimmed. I will remain.LOVE ALL OVER ME Smiling all twenty four. . Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me. After the end. I color the winter’s night. Brightness everlasting.
Intoxicating. I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized. .HYPNOTIZED Fine As the darkest wine.
A dozen women for a dime. Not just the night-time one you sell. as well. God. Just like the day before. . Don’t sell away your half from me.SETTING YOU FREE Here I wait Today for you. I know my needs fall on deaf ears. A part-time love is not enough. I fear. Why do I compete With the streets. I’ll hold it down and set you free. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man. Love shouldn’t have to be this rough. Can’t compete with street life. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol.
I hold on tight for the ride. nasty at 10. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry. At 11:30. And try to make it back from hell again. Nice at 8. Pray to God that I don’t cry. Maybe this time is the last time. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry. I’m coming back. . time for hell again. Time to put me back on track. Say forgive me this time. At 10:30. Swinging and swaying to your moods. and I love you more than anything. Although the truth lies elsewhere. hell begins. You say you’re sorry all the time.HELL AND BACK I go through hell to be with you. But it’s 1.
Out there trying to see. Even met some dogs. . Not giving up. Kissed so many frogs.SEARCHING Where are you? Are you searching for me. too? I’ve been waiting oh so long. too. I pray that you’re still looking. But my conviction still remains strong. still searching. And also trying to find me. If the perfect one waits somewhere for you. I wonder if you’re like me.
. But love can also be so sweet. It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything. Love pulls you in. It smiles at you and then frowns. Refuses to be confined. So hold on tight. And just await your love’s surprise. It takes you up. then drops you down. and Evaporates to your dismay. And surprises you with no regrets. Pretends to stay. Enjoy the ride. It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect. Sometimes love takes broader shape.LOVE’S SURPRISE Sometimes love throws you a curve. Can pick you up and be complete. It flows outside the lines.
I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. by my side. You show me how Real love should be with you. . Just what I’m meant to do. Standing tall. Tell me it’s all mine. I tell you you’re The best at what you do. Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do. And I rule the roost. It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time. So glad to have you In my life. The queen I’m meant to be.WE LIFT EACH OTHER You lift me up For the world to see. Give me the world.
And try to break me. Say some words. . Because your plan is number one. Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile. Curse my name. Pretend to care. But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy. You’re having fun.THE WARNING It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you. You had a plan all the while. All others be damned. And then not care Who you hurt. You pile it on Because I can take it.
I’d miss everything. “Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared.” . About you. “My darling. The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared. The joy and laughter every night. The happiness I felt inside.MISSING YOU “What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say. I’d say to you.
It’s not cologne or soap. Whether night or day. You line the pleats of my skirt. You follow me Through the day. Not Ivory or Irish Spring. You’re with me On my way. And you wear it well.YOU WEAR IT WELL I wear you on my sleeve. your scent. I inhale you on my shirt. That essence that I smell. Whether at work or at play. An aroma only you possess. Take you when I leave. Separating you from the rest. That fragrence I know so well. So distinct. . you know.
We laugh. Realizing It won’t work apart. Can’t make it on our own. . And then we pray.NOT ALONE The games we play. Alone is not what we do. Like children Not yet grown. We hurt. Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through. The shit we say.
With me.THE BEST OF ME I make up the best of you. A freshness for our start. The light replaced the dark. Because you are the best of me. Your life tells me so. I’m proud to see what you’ve become. I brought a new place for you. Order lives where chaos dwelled. And I know I make up the best of you. . A prize for all to see. This much I truly know. You don’t need to say it.
But that kink. The chain contains a kink. Looking okay. . You try to move along. you still see that link.TRUST It’s like a broken fence: When mended. Hoping things are as good as new. Will forever change the way I now look at you. Although repaired. Thinking that you’re done. you see.
With eyes of auburn. You don’t even see. Skin of chocolate. . For the chocolate and the caramel. I fear you love yourself More than you love me.SHADES OF ME How can you not love me. Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love.
A world where only you escape: A world of beaches. It’s embedded between my thighs. . And I wait With your love’s escape.LOVE’S ESCAPE I know where your happiness lies. A world that rivals Disneyland. I take you to another place. I’m ready now. Powder-white sand.
THE CHOICE The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. Though simple it may be. Not so simple to me. A simple choice It may seem. A place Finally to be me. . To live in hell Or go be free. Is not simple In my eyes.
Although you’re okay today. an enemy. Did you forget yesterday? The screaming and the yelling. . Yesterday. So it may seem. That voice appears and says. No matter what a friend may say. Did you forget yesterday? A friend today. Face twisted mean.DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY Every time it’s going good. I truly thought you understood. Don’t forget yesterday.
WHAT WE DESERVE Do you deserve All that I do. Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I. Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess. You can’t say yes. Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me. . to be with you? I can’t say no. Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve.
But. it’s not meant to be. Life alone brings doubts and fears. Fully awake. So. Another smiling face. Your true love awaits. Because I see the truth. I know it’s not what you want to hear. No time to cry. dry your eyes. It may just be Around the corner. And I’m not the one for you. You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. We tried to make it work. Truth is you’re not the one for me. I fear.THE TRUTH I’m sad today. But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you. .
There would be no other for you. It’d be you and I. I’d always be right. In a perfect world. . You’d only have eyes for me. In a perfect world.A PERFECT WORLD In a perfect world. And sit by my side. You’d agree with me. You’d hold me tight. And I can only dream. today it’s not that way. I’d be all you see. Sadly. We’d never fight. In a perfect world. Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem. You’d forever stay. Your love to give For me always.
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.
FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.
LYING IN WAIT I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies. The perfect moment to strike. . You should have never estimated The power of my mind. It was fine to say goodbye. Women are cunning creatures you know. Pretend I’m okay inside. It is so easy for me to smile. We plot our moves From the go. We lie in wait. Believed that when you closed the door. For the right time.
That’s too damn bad.MOVING ON I wait for you in the lot. You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had. Because it’s all I know. Thought the day would never come. When you would let me go. Now I sit and wait for you. I can’t forget what we had. It hurts to be in this spot. Where I said I’d be. Because you set me free. Hoping it’s not too late. But I fear your mind’s made up. . Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day.
Give me no reply. And sleep. I ask you all the time To treat me like I need. . Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte. You look into my eyes. It’s not enough for me. But I don’t think It will ever be.NOT YOUR FORTE I tell you I need more.
And now I sit. . But … I wanted you. For the real you can never love me. so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show. Although I know the truth. Alone with the truth after the fall. What I see Is not really you.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all.
Think it’s all a big game. Miss what we had. Make your move. you think you know it all. You say you don’t care. And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same. hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. Go ahead. The way I kissed you late at night. I really hope you find her soon. Yeah. But time will tell. So you can finally see. And please. That there are many more like me. You’re gonna miss me so damn bad.A LOVE LIKE MINE You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone. .
TERMINAL LOVE Your love will be The end of me. Your love will make Me lose my mind. If that’s what I let it do. too. If I let it inside. Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me. Your love will kill My spirit. . If I let it be.
Ignoring all the rest.THE LITTLE THINGS It’s the little things I appreciate. Holding my hand. To live this life with you. It’s great to be by your side. They don’t have to cost a thing. You’re blind to all that temptation outside. I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do. Showing me the man That you’re proud to be. . And that I deserve the best. You tell me that I’m beautiful.
You don’t encourage me. . You discourage me. Don’t want to hear my words. My anger knows It’s my fault. And it’s my fault. Because all you thought about was you. My spirit knows It’s your fault. My spirit grows. I let you do what you want to. I finally love me more that you do. I’m the one who made you into you. Because you need to be first. And it’s your fault.LOVING ME My anger grows.
Although it’s not yet mine. . Although it doesn’t live here. I’m a fan of love. I still believe in love. But it won’t knock at my door. Because someday love will set me free.A FAN OF LOVE I am a fan of love. I will wait for love. I will wait for love. I’d sit in the stands and cheer. Because I see it all the time. I still believe in love. I lay out the welcome mat for love. Though it doesn’t live here no more. Because it waits somewhere for me. I lay out the welcome mat for love.
Yet you came. But you won’t show your face. You and I are not the same. When I don’t even know your name. Maybe that cloth Really is the same. and you try To become you and I. If only in our eyes. Tell me why you’re in my space. I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come.A DIFFERENT CLOTH Cut from a different cloth. But we’re not meant to be. Your world is nothing like The one I’m from. . You try to live in my realty. A visitor from another place.
So glad to have this new breakthrough. I don’t know why I ask for truth. Though the shitty lies you grab.PROMISES Promises you fail to keep Are all I have. . It’s nowhere inside of you. Honesty is within your reach. To do what I have to do.
. twisted game. I’m sick to hell of being under your spell. Not taking your shit any more.NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE You can’t see me Past your superiority. But I’m tired of playing Your sick. I’m like a moth to your flame. There’s no you and me in us for you. I try and try to be What you want from me. It’s your way or the door.
Two peas of a different pod. now by my side. Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath. Can’t let me be in front. Because we both want to win the race. First place is a space we both want. You sprint along. Because you have to be first. .WINNING THE RACE I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight. We’ll never be face-to-face. Trying to keep up.
Co-existence is the only power You hold over me. I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections.POWER Looking through rose-colored glasses. . I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely.
SING FOR YOU Why don’t I sing for you? A good question. Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts. but the one I should let go. Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for. Why don’t I feel comfortable. indeed. .
Love. Let loose your hold of me. how you love to tell your lovely lies. I laugh along in my defense. Love.LOVE Love. Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh. Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love. And set me free. . The jokes are all at my expense. What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh. Just break your chains.
Surviving by itself. . With nothing else. Even when times were tough? It got you through. Family meant we were whole.REMEMBERING LOVE Remember when Love was enough. A time of unrivaled bliss. A time I surely miss. When unity was a goal.
So much to say. . We drift together. But nothing’s said. And here we are In elder years. And we’ve both paid the cost. Still alone. You try to read my face. Yet nothing was said. I smile. minutes. So much to say. Turning into weeks. Because we never speak. days. You stare at the floor. Our whole lives lost. hours.LOST LIVES Here we go again. I hold my breath. I look elsewhere instead. The seconds. Just like the day before. you grin.
My wife. Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said: I can’t live my life without Having you by my side. You are the reason why I work so hard. I try my best. I think of you before I rest. . Although I seldom tell you so. How I cherish you. pink and red.MY WIFE You bought me flowers today: Roses. With you is where my heart lies.
Call her a bitch. Curse her name. Or use my fists. . But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside.KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS I lose a piece of me every day. And you think they’re just words. How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her. I disappear with every word you say.
. Put me before himself. He wouldn’t see anyone else.THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME Oh. He’d love every part of me. No one else would matter. I wouldn’t want for anything. He’d cherish the ground I walked on. It wouldn’t matter if they were his. That man I made for me. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often. A perfect world For him and me. And even love my kids. He’d always take care of me. Live together happily. He’d cherish them because they were mine.
Guiding me along the way. And so. Lord. You let me fall. I put you first. Get me through to a new start. I lead My life in Your hands.I PUT YOU FIRST You’ve been there Since day one. I put you first. And so. You’re by my side. And I’ll always put you first. Whether I am right or wrong. as I carry on. And so. this is why I will believe With Your Word. Supporting me until the end. . Let me laugh after I’ve cried. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day. that’s the way it will be. Bring me light after the dark. You guide. I have a faithful friend. so I may rise. In you. I put your first.
He knows my mind. he’s taken hold. Mouths the words before I talk. I don’t know nothing anymore. I think he’s psychic see. And I thought I knew it all. With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day. . the path I walk. He knows the goings on inside of me. My whole world. He’s got my map. predicts my moves. He is the Lord above. He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break. Says what I think before I do. He has my unwavering faith.FAITH He came today and shook my soul.
. Rains down on me. A lie won’t hide. Sets me free. You can’t contain What will remain. you know. It’s impossible to hide a lie.LIES AND TRUTH The truth is the light. Won’t stay inside. If asked. No matter how hard you try. I would have told you so. It shines so bright. A cover will not work.
Can’t keep me down no more. I can’t lie low. Now I’m free. powering my soul. Flipping a script You no longer own. Yes. Took years to find. Was in a fog. The square peg now fits the hole. Who I am inside. ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be. The chains are gone. So that confidence. Has built a wall that can’t be broken. For the entire world to see.REALIZATION The beauty of it all. but now I see The truth I bought now sold. Realizing who I am. Screaming to me in my own song. I got it now. .
. finally. So I say my last goodbye. breathlessly. But. Stealing my light. The pain will end. I’ll be with you forever now. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today. All consuming. Now is the end for me. Staining the air. through the fog I can’t see.ENDING THE PAIN This world of pain. too. Everywhere. Killing my mind And spirit. Like the way That evil does. And I cannot escape. So much to bear. A better place awaits me. I try to fight. It’s all around.
Guess I’ll listen to radio instead. For fear of what it might say. Everyone’s fighting or arguing. Can’t let this dark swallow my light. Or found dead. I vow to do the best I can. But radio’s no better. So I block it and stay inside. Start my task with one woman. same old thing. Enough to drive the sane insane.CHANGING ME I couldn’t watch the news today. It calls to me and screams my name. I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. I’ll start my fight by changing me. Someone’s missing. Live by his word and let him see. .
I had to go because it stayed. . Now my pain has gone away. I took the pain away with me. The pain still wouldn’t go away. I couldn’t cry. Finally free. I’m the one it killed. The one underneath’s too tough. Now I’m gone. Cutting deeper still. After all the blood had dried. I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay. But blood is not enough. Although it hurt.BREAKING FREE I try to cut the pain away. The pain inside just wouldn’t die. I pierce the layer that I see.
For the other half of you. .MY SON SHINES Long ago I dreamt of you. Here I stand forever. Although you were not yet mine. But through it all. You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues. I feared it was not true. I held you tight and kissed your cheek. The love I thought I had to have. Before you were inside. By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away. I stood tall. A battle I couldn’t lose. Only the mixture that I needed.
. Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me. me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me.KNOWING ME Do you really know who I am. Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know.
Please play for me. Made for sin. It moves my hips. It moves my feet. Your song instead.DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT I feel the music From deep within. Dance with me tonight. . I feel the beat. Dance with me tonight. My arms they sway That away. Dance with me tonight. The rhythm stirs Inside my head.
It’s sad to know your time is done. We didn’t have you long. . We older folks can tolerate. Pain can be an awful thing. Sometimes too much to bare. They’ll wish we stopped you just in time. Your will was not as strong. To make sure you were still here. What younger ones can’t fare. But many will always care. And let them know An early end’s no way to go. So here is where they’ll stay.TOO SOON Gone too soon. So hold them tight. Help them push the pain aside. Though your beauty will last always.
I wait till day To go your way. I approach. You strike so fast. . You lay still. You’re poisonous. But you’re too quick. Hoping you’re asleep.THE BROWN WIDOW You wait for me In the dark. I knew you were there After all. Why did I go? I should have paused. I hold my breath. Await my move. Hoping you snoozed. Too many eyes Cover me.
. Take your time. DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight. It will be just right. Live your best life now.THE TIME IS NOW Slow down.
After we have forgotten. Years later we get another glimpse.INNER SUPERSTAR We possess it early on. And then peaked out often. . We get a glimpse. Dormant. it lies inside. It differs from the rest. But often forget where it lies. Our inner superstar Was always there inside. take a peak. Residing where it’s meant to be. Remembering where it first shined. Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. Where it shines the best. Specific to each owner.
Life’s not all a mystery.LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL Life tries to take the wheel. Its view widens so we may see. Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down. But then we find courage inside And turn it all around. But we get in the way. Listen for what life has in store. Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. Be patient. While hiding in our youth. It shows its face in elder years. We make a turn on our own. . Without listening to what it has to say.
TOO LATE You were mine On borrowed time. I took for granted you’d be here. At least. until tomorrow. And you’re gone. . Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so. Now tomorrow’s here. This I didn’t know. I’m so sorry I was wrong.
.AHA MOMENT Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise. spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do.
A blue for when I’m feeling low. I’m an aubergine. you know. Like many colors of the rainbow. Black or white. A softer shade. A darker color when we fight. When wide awake. Neon bright.COLORS OF ME There are many Shades of me. They cover you And color me. I change from day-to-day. Growing daily like the evergreen. When ready. a light yellow. I shine brightly for all to see. . I can be any hue I want to be. A range of shades for everything. Relaxed for when I sleep.
The sadness that you may see. It sings to me from deep inside. rhyming All the time. Thinking. The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow.A POET’S SONG I live in verse. Is all poetry to me. Living. I think in rhyme. I don’t know how Or even why. breathing poetry . And it makes up The best of me.
BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH Just how bright Is your light. . barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath. The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow. Shine from underneath? Is it dim.
Says stay awhile. It invites me in. Inside that room lives poetry. . It embraces me. It sets me free. Then takes my coat. It says to me. And offers me its words to eat. It comforts me. Then sings to me In special notes. Encourages me With its warm smile.POETRY LIVES HERE A door has opened up for me. Says take a seat. I open up. It offers me a place to stay. And says Please come back any day. I am your friend.
The wisdom I possess. Curve of my waist. I am woman. Knowing that your fears. The comfort of my embrace. or shock you. That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss.KNOWING MY WORTH Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice. . offend. And I know my worth. The knowledge I give. I can erase? If I frighten. Shape of my thighs. The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back. The pleasures I possess. It’s because I am beauty. I am life.
Forgetting it. Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man. you should abhor. One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth. We are the best of all beings.OF ALL BEINGS Fellow women of today. Rewarded with so many qualities. .
THE LONG ROAD HOME I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead. Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me. My destination is on my mind. Did mostly as I pleased. Held some hands along the way. Every road must come to an end. What a lovely ride. Happiness and long-lost friends. I smile and hold it inside. . I can’t wait for mine. A sight I almost see. Thinking of how it will be.
Sounds fully. Listen closely.” The willow weeps.” The tree breaths. “Your time is here.THE SOUND OF SIGNS I hear the birds chirping. Close your eyes. The signs are there For you to see. As if saying to me. Giving the breeze What it needs. “The time has come For you to leave. . It is today. As if to say.
This is not a test. What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot. What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man.A CALL TO ARMS *STOP* Turn off your television set. . I’ve grabbed my pen. It’s not too late. Or we all lose.
.HOME My home is where I lay my head And pray at night. Where true love lives. Beside the bed. My home is where I chose to be. Though we’re apart. My home can be one place or a few. My home may just be with you. My home is where I leave my heart. Where happiness lives Indefinitely.
It passes instantly. This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet.THE BETTER PRIZE The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade. . The better prize. A trick used to confuse the mind. Open your foolish eyes. We turn away. But what lies inside. Although it seems quite odd. We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone. Ignorant to what’s inside. And in our haste. And miss out on the better prize. Should crown our lover’s throne. So easy to believe a lie.
I’m tired already. I’ve seen this day before. . that’s the way life goes. But I know things will be fine. My body’s weary. And I know more will surely come. I remember to relax today.RELAXING MY MIND Been a long day. Unfortunately. too. Spirit. Try to balance both and remain whole. add some play. Time to sit and rest my mind. Save some work.
and I stay safe. Why won’t it set me free? . It must lie somewhere else.TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME Trouble road begins at my door. Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me. Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free. And I know nothing else. So I continue to Keep hope alive. I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been. Surrounded by my friends. It should be tired of me. I’ve given up on happiness. Where all is calm. And pray trouble runs out of time.
You’re driving too fast. As I brace For the crash. . You’re speeding now. You smile at me And hit the gas. Even the belt Won’t keep me safe. Look to the sky. There is no room. To ride with you. Away I go To a better place. How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on. Without your brakes.THE GREATEST ESCAPE Slow down for me. And then thank God I learned to fly. No space for me. I close my eyes. Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape.
afterall. I wait until it’s dark. everything I’ve got. Worried about the fall. The snipers waiting for that clear shot. Worried I’ll be found. Covering your insides. Premeditated steps I take with no regrets.THE FALL Land mines. Afraid to make a sound. Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two. Can never take the leap. . So much to lose.
Then we realize The move was just right. You’re right where you need to be. We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go. Make your move. Take a step and not look back. Don’t be scared to let go. . And we’re finally on track.MAKING MOVES Every now and then. Don’t be afraid. We wish for the best. Do what you say. Scared to make a move. Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know. That moment is meant just for you To make your move. Hope our move won’t make a mess.
Or what they tried to say. And now half my life’s Just floated away. It never waits. . I never saw the signs. And now the time is here For me to finally shine. The final bell has rung. Light miles ahead. My eyes are opened wide. Life just passes by. Although my mouth is closed. Focused on today.WINNING THE RACE I’ve wasted too much time. I’ve already won the race. It’s time to take my rightful place.
I need you to show me Just how I should be. And I need you there. You listen when I talk. The times we share. Because when I need someone to vent to. It’s so innocent. I’m glad I have you in my life. But we’re just friends. You call me. You always take my call. indeed. A true friend. Taking it all in. Even when I want to vent About nothing at all. You know I’m really into it.TRUE FRIENDS I call you. .
There are times When we may find Some things troubling. Often times Those little things Should remain a secret. . We need to learn What to say.KEEPING SECRETS Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing. And what things we should keep.
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.
FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD Listen up! I got lots to say. No more sitting still for me today. So much to do. Hold the door. Ready for me to begin. I’m coming in! . Too much for me to hold inside. So little time.
I won’t be sad. Waiting for you to take me to some other place. When you come for me. I’m tired today. When you come for me. I’m looking forward to the trip ahead. When you come for me. This life has gotten really bad. I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go. I will be ready. .WHEN YOU COME FOR ME When you come for me. In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again.
Guess I’m in too deep. Loving the way That I confuse. Desire being my excuse.A MERE SMUDGE I’m a smudge on your window pane. but don’t know what to say. You open up. . Giving in to your every want and need. Just how a smudge succeeds. Can’t get rid of me.
Drink my wine.A PRISONER’S LIFE I want to be free. Locked away indefinitely. . But I’m the one that pays the toll. You say. accept your smile. I try and try To live your life. That I can’t survive on my own. Not knowing poison’s inside. Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape.” I take a sip. A prisoner’s life is what I lead. You say it’ll never be. “Celebrate with me.
A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go. And That’s just what I’ll do. It hit me hard. . Close your eyes. All at once. it’ll be done. No one to help me with this one. Make your move.AT A CROSSROADS Here I am. And I finally see. I’ll guide you. I hear. Either way. Decision time tonight. Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be.
From this life I need more. Awkward distance. . Mainly out of fear. Arguments. Happiness and joyful days. They didn’t live here. So they don’t live here no more. I can’t always be afraid. Year after year. Too scared to move. I’ve got to drive those blues away.DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY Sad songs are all I heard. And I held on. They silenced all the tears.
HOW How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning? .
And pain’s waiting At another’s door.IT. too. Taking over everything. That bell it rings. Because nothing ever lasts Of pain. But … It. SHALL PASS Pain can’t last forever. Till only it survives. . shall pass. shall pass. Making you believe you died. It’s got places to go. TOO. It. Consuming who it occupies. too.
Fight to keep it all in order. Try not to let the weight get me down. And I fight with my head high. Every day is a fight for me. . But the price I pay is worth being free. Try to turn it all around. For the misery in store. Holding onto my pride.HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE I try to hold my head above water. I suit up for the war.
Such a wicked game to play. Mistakes that others seem to make. It’s become customary To point out all the flaws. . We don’t see What lies within. Believing those wicked smiles.OUR DOWNFALL We are a sad society: So quick to judge. Point fingers. Our downfall in the end. Although we are among friends. All the while hiding ours. So afraid of being called out our name. Skirt the blame.
. Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be.BEING FREE I won’t let you change who I am. The only way truly to be free.
Concentrating on what I’m meant to do. My eyes are open now. Forgot who I was inside. . I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine. My world finally mine. This thought had become commonplace. Just the way a record does. Remembering who I was. What treasures lied within. Time for me to shine. Picked up where I had left off. Don’t know how long it’s been.MY WORLD Sometime ago I lost myself. Now it’s time for me to grow. It’s how I lived my life.
.MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine. I know. Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine. Although it tries to hide. It’s there. See … I’m making it my goal.
But I’m on the mend. I begin again. Nearly broken. But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat. Hope not within my reach. My mind said all was lost. As the pieces began to mend. My spirit nearly broken. Thought there was no escape. So glad that I had faith.NEARLY BROKEN Thought it was the end of me. .
She’s happy. . daughter. That friend I’ve found is me. A mother. the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while. She loves me more than anything. She knows how much I meant to her. Because she knows her worth. and a wife. She’s beautiful And full of life.MY FRIEND Oh.
THE SMILE AND THE FROWN Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown. . The other upside down. The stories they tell Without saying a word. Saying everything With just a smirk. One right-side up.
. The love I lost. Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip. have mercy on me. I’ll forever mourn. I remain lonely. I’d rather have my love with me. Instead. Loosen your lover’s grip.REMAINING LONELY Loneliness. Memories barely keep me warm.
Close your eyes. Imagine your worst fear.FEAR INSIDE I challenge you To sit in silence. Visualize it’s there In front of you. Take a sigh. What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside? .
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.
WAITING All I do Is wait around for you. So here I sit. I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time. I should say How I feel. But to you. Until you walk through my door. feelings are no big deal. . My time no longer mine. Waiting once more.
Because this I’m thankful for.SINGING TODAY FOR YOU Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time. you know. . So I sing today for you.
NOT LISTENING Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago. Yet your mouth moves constantly. I’m not listening anyway. Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out. I don’t care what you have to say. . Though I don’t listen any more.
You know me Better Than I ever could know. Taking in all you see.WINDOW TO MY SOUL I see you Through the window to my soul. . You watch and study me. Loving everything I am. Looking through The window to my soul. And what I’m meant to be.
What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me? You’re pretty for a black girl. Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud? You’re pretty for a black girl.PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL You’re pretty for a black girl. Thank you for letting me know. Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth. Am I supposed to smile. Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more. You’re pretty for a black girl. .
Thought I should let you know. . Thought I should tell you so.FOR MY SISTERS My sister. you know. Beauty lying inside and out. you are beautiful. Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen.
. To show each other why we’re here. Seeing all we’re meant to see. Even if we’ve forgotten.THE TIME IS NOW The only time we have is now. To feel how it should be. This place we’ve gotten to somehow. The time we have is now. To share all we’ve got.
She writes poetry.BIO Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school. She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons.” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten. “The Amazing Mr. Her first publication was a short story entitled. Glonka. . short stories. and songs.
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