ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition .Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved.

Mom .For my boys. Make your mark. Brandon. and Jaden. The world is yours. Blake. Devante. I love you.

CONTENTS Title Page Copyright Page LOVE Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone .

The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You .

LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me LIFE I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song .

Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How .

Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now . too.It.

LOVE .

Wash your clothes. I do it all. What lovers do. You are my light Through the dark. As you breathe. I make your food. . Be your lover and more. By loving you. Giving you more than my last.LOVING YOU As you awake. I smile for you. For you. Handle with care. All you have to do is ask. Bake your bread. Clean the floors. I leave my mark. I live for you At your command. My world expands.

Rotten to the very core. All thanks to you. heartless. My evil eyes are full of spite. Blacker than the darkest night. Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth. . All thanks to you. The monster made. Bitter through and through.THANKS TO YOU Cold. Only anger in this place.

it heaves to my surprise. You didn’t have to say a word. you lift your hand. I kiss your lips. Now face-to-face. And you haven’t said a word. Don’t have to say a word. I see the way you look at me. I see your eyes start at my feet. My hips move to your beat.WITHOUT WORDS I know you like what you see. Licking your lips. Caress my cheek from where you stand. I feel your hands all over me. I quench your thirst. And still not a word. woman and man. My chest. Felling the heat between you and me. . Your gaze has only reached my thighs.

The foolishness I left behind. It’s over now. just wasted time. Requesting more so you can live. Bare for all to see. Still shaded by your tree. My end is here. Emptied my soul. I shed my skin. And now my shell is all I have. And you never saw me. You’ve taken all I have to give. The rest gone down the drain. . My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. But you don’t see me.WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME Here I stand out in front. I gave my all for you to live. The years I lost.

We bring forth our new ecstasy. Please stay a while. . The heat I crave to feel at night. We from the start.SEASONS OF LOVE A light is shining bright. You are my fall. You are my spring. You are my winter. You are my summer. Existing even after the end. living long it must. All is still. built-in trust. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh. A smile that warms the coldest night. No you and I. it’s just you and me. Our love is blossoming for all to see. In the end it was always us. A love so grand. We have grown together. A constant cold stuns my heart.

Don’t want happiness here again. I want to cry. I need to feel the pain inside of me. Just let this pain pierce my skin. just let me be. please. I killed your love for me. So. I need the anger. Not bottle it up inside of me. my worst fear. Just let me be. The damage done won’t disappear.BROKEN Please. oh please. . You must understand my need to be here. Don’t want you to dry my eyes. I’ve got to let the burn roam free.

. It would always be this way. That I’d never leave. My love always. Me in your heart. Open my eyes.MY LAST DAY I would wake up a little late. You on my mind. I’d say. I would call in sick. gazing upon your face. Silently gazing In your eyes. Sitting by your side. Forever stay. Hold your hand. Our fingers intertwined. I would promise you. I would make a meal For you and me. Wash your feet Late that night. Feed you by hand. Make love to you without saying a word. No worry about what could be heard. Enjoy the day. Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay.

.That’s how I would spend My last day.

Till this life ends.I WILL SHOW UP If I yell. Face so mean. You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. And I will always show up. it will be us. You see I gave my word in front of God. The very last one to show up. So when you’re mad as hell. . just know I won’t be walking out the door. if you yell. I’ll show up. You spit my name With twisted face. I’ll show up. I’ll show up. I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you. Through thick and thin when times are hard. You curse and scream. I will show up.

Just here for me to feel alright. it’s what you heard. Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do. Lie down with me in this moment. I’m telling you. Yeah. we don’t have to talk or say a word.WHAT I NEED No. Cover me with ecstasy. No. And give me what I need. So close your lips and take my hand. I don’t want to be your girl. Not here to be your girl tonight. It’s not my place to be her for you. You can find someone else to fill those shoes. And give me what I need. Just take me on into the room. . Don’t want to chill or hang with you.

Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me. Brightness everlasting. My glow shines through the darkness. After the end. And I will forge ahead. Cannot be dimmed.LOVE ALL OVER ME Smiling all twenty four. I color the winter’s night. I am the Milky Way. Brighter than the night’s sky. I am love. I will remain. .

HYPNOTIZED Fine As the darkest wine. I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized. . Intoxicating.

A dozen women for a dime. Don’t sell away your half from me. Not just the night-time one you sell. I fear. God. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol. I’ll hold it down and set you free. Just like the day before. A part-time love is not enough. . I know my needs fall on deaf ears. as well. Love shouldn’t have to be this rough. Can’t compete with street life. Why do I compete With the streets.SETTING YOU FREE Here I wait Today for you. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man.

Say forgive me this time. And try to make it back from hell again. and I love you more than anything. Although the truth lies elsewhere. . You say you’re sorry all the time. But it’s 1.HELL AND BACK I go through hell to be with you. Nice at 8. Swinging and swaying to your moods. nasty at 10. At 11:30. time for hell again. hell begins. Time to put me back on track. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry. Maybe this time is the last time. At 10:30. I hold on tight for the ride. I’m coming back. Pray to God that I don’t cry.

Even met some dogs. If the perfect one waits somewhere for you. still searching. . Kissed so many frogs. Out there trying to see. too. I wonder if you’re like me. But my conviction still remains strong.SEARCHING Where are you? Are you searching for me. I pray that you’re still looking. And also trying to find me. too? I’ve been waiting oh so long. Not giving up.

Can pick you up and be complete. . Pretends to stay. But love can also be so sweet. So hold on tight. It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect. It smiles at you and then frowns. Love pulls you in. Refuses to be confined. Sometimes love takes broader shape. It flows outside the lines. Enjoy the ride. It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything. and Evaporates to your dismay. It takes you up. then drops you down.LOVE’S SURPRISE Sometimes love throws you a curve. And surprises you with no regrets. And just await your love’s surprise.

I tell you you’re The best at what you do. Just what I’m meant to do. And I rule the roost. You show me how Real love should be with you. by my side.WE LIFT EACH OTHER You lift me up For the world to see. Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do. Standing tall. Tell me it’s all mine. The queen I’m meant to be. . I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time. Give me the world. So glad to have you In my life. It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined.

And try to break me. And then not care Who you hurt.THE WARNING It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you. . Because your plan is number one. You pile it on Because I can take it. But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy. Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile. You’re having fun. All others be damned. Pretend to care. Curse my name. You had a plan all the while. Say some words.

The happiness I felt inside.MISSING YOU “What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say. The joy and laughter every night. About you. The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared. “Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared. I’d miss everything. “My darling. I’d say to you.” .

That essence that I smell. That fragrence I know so well. You line the pleats of my skirt. You’re with me On my way. An aroma only you possess. It’s not cologne or soap. You follow me Through the day.YOU WEAR IT WELL I wear you on my sleeve. Take you when I leave. So distinct. I inhale you on my shirt. your scent. you know. . Not Ivory or Irish Spring. And you wear it well. Separating you from the rest. Whether at work or at play. Whether night or day.

.NOT ALONE The games we play. Can’t make it on our own. The shit we say. Alone is not what we do. And then we pray. Like children Not yet grown. Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through. Realizing It won’t work apart. We hurt. We laugh.

Order lives where chaos dwelled. This much I truly know. A prize for all to see. And I know I make up the best of you. You don’t need to say it. I brought a new place for you.THE BEST OF ME I make up the best of you. A freshness for our start. . Because you are the best of me. With me. The light replaced the dark. I’m proud to see what you’ve become. Your life tells me so.

Hoping things are as good as new. But that kink. you still see that link. Although repaired. Thinking that you’re done. Will forever change the way I now look at you. You try to move along. Looking okay. The chain contains a kink.TRUST It’s like a broken fence: When mended. you see. .

I fear you love yourself More than you love me. . You don’t even see.SHADES OF ME How can you not love me. Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love. For the chocolate and the caramel. Skin of chocolate. With eyes of auburn.

A world where only you escape: A world of beaches.LOVE’S ESCAPE I know where your happiness lies. A world that rivals Disneyland. And I wait With your love’s escape. . Powder-white sand. It’s embedded between my thighs. I’m ready now. I take you to another place.

To live in hell Or go be free.THE CHOICE The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. Not so simple to me. Is not simple In my eyes. Though simple it may be. A simple choice It may seem. . A place Finally to be me.

Face twisted mean. So it may seem. That voice appears and says.DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY Every time it’s going good. Yesterday. . I truly thought you understood. an enemy. Did you forget yesterday? A friend today. Although you’re okay today. Did you forget yesterday? The screaming and the yelling. No matter what a friend may say. Don’t forget yesterday.

to be with you? I can’t say no. You can’t say yes. Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess. Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I.WHAT WE DESERVE Do you deserve All that I do. Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me. . Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve.

But. I fear.THE TRUTH I’m sad today. And I’m not the one for you. We tried to make it work. dry your eyes. Truth is you’re not the one for me. Because I see the truth. Fully awake. But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you. It may just be Around the corner. I know it’s not what you want to hear. . Another smiling face. You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. So. it’s not meant to be. Your true love awaits. Life alone brings doubts and fears. No time to cry.

In a perfect world. . And sit by my side. Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem. We’d never fight. You’d forever stay. And I can only dream. I’d always be right. You’d only have eyes for me. I’d be all you see.A PERFECT WORLD In a perfect world. In a perfect world. There would be no other for you. In a perfect world. You’d hold me tight. You’d agree with me. today it’s not that way. It’d be you and I. Sadly. Your love to give For me always.

YOUR EVERYTHING
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.

FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.

WE BELONG
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.

The perfect moment to strike. You should have never estimated The power of my mind. We plot our moves From the go. Women are cunning creatures you know. Believed that when you closed the door. It was fine to say goodbye. . Pretend I’m okay inside. We lie in wait.LYING IN WAIT I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies. It is so easy for me to smile. For the right time.

When you would let me go. Hoping it’s not too late. Thought the day would never come. Because you set me free. You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had. That’s too damn bad. Where I said I’d be. Because it’s all I know. I can’t forget what we had. But I fear your mind’s made up. Now I sit and wait for you.MOVING ON I wait for you in the lot. Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day. It hurts to be in this spot. .

It’s not enough for me. And sleep. You look into my eyes. Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte. Give me no reply. I ask you all the time To treat me like I need. . But I don’t think It will ever be.NOT YOUR FORTE I tell you I need more.

. How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all. Alone with the truth after the fall. so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. And now I sit. But … I wanted you. Although I know the truth. What I see Is not really you. For the real you can never love me.

Think it’s all a big game. hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. you think you know it all. That there are many more like me. You’re gonna miss me so damn bad. Yeah. So you can finally see. Make your move. The way I kissed you late at night. And please. . And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same. Miss what we had. You say you don’t care. I really hope you find her soon. But time will tell. Go ahead.A LOVE LIKE MINE You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone.

too. Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me. If I let it be. . Your love will kill My spirit. If I let it inside. If that’s what I let it do.TERMINAL LOVE Your love will be The end of me. Your love will make Me lose my mind.

And that I deserve the best. It’s great to be by your side. Ignoring all the rest. You’re blind to all that temptation outside.THE LITTLE THINGS It’s the little things I appreciate. They don’t have to cost a thing. Holding my hand. To live this life with you. You tell me that I’m beautiful. . Showing me the man That you’re proud to be. I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do.

And it’s my fault. Because all you thought about was you. And it’s your fault. My spirit knows It’s your fault. You don’t encourage me. I finally love me more that you do. Because you need to be first. My spirit grows. Don’t want to hear my words. I let you do what you want to. I’m the one who made you into you. . My anger knows It’s my fault.LOVING ME My anger grows. You discourage me.

I’d sit in the stands and cheer. I will wait for love. But it won’t knock at my door. I still believe in love. I will wait for love. .A FAN OF LOVE I am a fan of love. I’m a fan of love. Although it doesn’t live here. Because it waits somewhere for me. Although it’s not yet mine. Though it doesn’t live here no more. Because I see it all the time. I lay out the welcome mat for love. Because someday love will set me free. I still believe in love. I lay out the welcome mat for love.

If only in our eyes.A DIFFERENT CLOTH Cut from a different cloth. I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come. You and I are not the same. Yet you came. When I don’t even know your name. But you won’t show your face. and you try To become you and I. But we’re not meant to be. Your world is nothing like The one I’m from. You try to live in my realty. Tell me why you’re in my space. . Maybe that cloth Really is the same. A visitor from another place.

Though the shitty lies you grab.PROMISES Promises you fail to keep Are all I have. It’s nowhere inside of you. So glad to have this new breakthrough. . Honesty is within your reach. To do what I have to do. I don’t know why I ask for truth.

I’m like a moth to your flame. . There’s no you and me in us for you. I try and try to be What you want from me. I’m sick to hell of being under your spell. It’s your way or the door.NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE You can’t see me Past your superiority. Not taking your shit any more. twisted game. But I’m tired of playing Your sick.

First place is a space we both want. Because you have to be first. Because we both want to win the race. Two peas of a different pod.WINNING THE RACE I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight. . now by my side. Trying to keep up. Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath. You sprint along. We’ll never be face-to-face. Can’t let me be in front.

Co-existence is the only power You hold over me. I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections.POWER Looking through rose-colored glasses. . I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely.

SING FOR YOU Why don’t I sing for you? A good question. Why don’t I feel comfortable. Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for. indeed. Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts. . but the one I should let go.

And set me free. Just break your chains.LOVE Love. Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh. Love. What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh. . Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love. The jokes are all at my expense. I laugh along in my defense. Love. how you love to tell your lovely lies. Let loose your hold of me.

A time of unrivaled bliss. A time I surely miss. Even when times were tough? It got you through. Family meant we were whole.REMEMBERING LOVE Remember when Love was enough. Surviving by itself. . With nothing else. When unity was a goal.

And we’ve both paid the cost. You try to read my face. We drift together. I hold my breath. I smile. I look elsewhere instead. you grin. Just like the day before. minutes. Yet nothing was said. You stare at the floor. So much to say. hours. And here we are In elder years. So much to say. . The seconds. But nothing’s said. Our whole lives lost. Turning into weeks. Because we never speak. days. Still alone.LOST LIVES Here we go again.

pink and red. My wife. Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said: I can’t live my life without Having you by my side. Although I seldom tell you so. I think of you before I rest. You are the reason why I work so hard. How I cherish you. With you is where my heart lies. I try my best. .MY WIFE You bought me flowers today: Roses.

KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS I lose a piece of me every day. . And you think they’re just words. How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her. Or use my fists. Call her a bitch. But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside. Curse her name. I disappear with every word you say.

It wouldn’t matter if they were his. . He wouldn’t see anyone else. He’d cherish the ground I walked on.THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME Oh. Live together happily. Put me before himself. He’d love every part of me. He’d cherish them because they were mine. No one else would matter. And even love my kids. A perfect world For him and me. I wouldn’t want for anything. He’d always take care of me. That man I made for me. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often.

LIFE .

Get me through to a new start. I put you first. Whether I am right or wrong. . You let me fall. I have a faithful friend. And so.I PUT YOU FIRST You’ve been there Since day one. so I may rise. You’re by my side. Bring me light after the dark. And I’ll always put you first. Supporting me until the end. And so. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day. Lord. I put your first. You guide. In you. I lead My life in Your hands. I put you first. that’s the way it will be. Let me laugh after I’ve cried. And so. Guiding me along the way. this is why I will believe With Your Word. as I carry on.

He is the Lord above. He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break. And I thought I knew it all. He has my unwavering faith. he’s taken hold. He’s got my map. Says what I think before I do. . He knows my mind. My whole world. predicts my moves. I think he’s psychic see. I don’t know nothing anymore. With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day. the path I walk. Mouths the words before I talk.FAITH He came today and shook my soul. He knows the goings on inside of me.

I would have told you so. A cover will not work. Rains down on me. you know. . No matter how hard you try. If asked. You can’t contain What will remain.LIES AND TRUTH The truth is the light. A lie won’t hide. It shines so bright. Sets me free. It’s impossible to hide a lie. Won’t stay inside.

I got it now. Screaming to me in my own song. Was in a fog. Took years to find. . ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be. The chains are gone. but now I see The truth I bought now sold. So that confidence. Has built a wall that can’t be broken. Flipping a script You no longer own. I can’t lie low. Realizing who I am. Can’t keep me down no more. Now I’m free.REALIZATION The beauty of it all. The square peg now fits the hole. powering my soul. For the entire world to see. Yes. Who I am inside.

It’s all around. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today.ENDING THE PAIN This world of pain. Now is the end for me. A better place awaits me. too. Killing my mind And spirit. through the fog I can’t see. But. The pain will end. Everywhere. Staining the air. So I say my last goodbye. So much to bear. All consuming. finally. And I cannot escape. I’ll be with you forever now. Like the way That evil does. Stealing my light. I try to fight. breathlessly. .

. I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. For fear of what it might say. I’ll start my fight by changing me. Live by his word and let him see. Start my task with one woman. same old thing. So I block it and stay inside. Guess I’ll listen to radio instead.CHANGING ME I couldn’t watch the news today. Or found dead. It calls to me and screams my name. Can’t let this dark swallow my light. Everyone’s fighting or arguing. But radio’s no better. Enough to drive the sane insane. Someone’s missing. I vow to do the best I can.

Now my pain has gone away. After all the blood had dried. I’m the one it killed. I couldn’t cry. The one underneath’s too tough. I had to go because it stayed. The pain inside just wouldn’t die. Cutting deeper still. Finally free. I pierce the layer that I see.BREAKING FREE I try to cut the pain away. But blood is not enough. Now I’m gone. The pain still wouldn’t go away. Although it hurt. I took the pain away with me. I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay. .

By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away. A battle I couldn’t lose. Here I stand forever.MY SON SHINES Long ago I dreamt of you. I feared it was not true. . I stood tall. Only the mixture that I needed. But through it all. Although you were not yet mine. Before you were inside. The love I thought I had to have. For the other half of you. You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues. I held you tight and kissed your cheek.

me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me. .KNOWING ME Do you really know who I am. Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know. Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me.

Your song instead. My arms they sway That away. It moves my feet. The rhythm stirs Inside my head. Dance with me tonight. Made for sin. Dance with me tonight. I feel the beat.DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT I feel the music From deep within. Dance with me tonight. Please play for me. . It moves my hips.

What younger ones can’t fare. Help them push the pain aside. Sometimes too much to bare. Though your beauty will last always. They’ll wish we stopped you just in time. We didn’t have you long. We older folks can tolerate. . And let them know An early end’s no way to go. Your will was not as strong.TOO SOON Gone too soon. So here is where they’ll stay. But many will always care. So hold them tight. Pain can be an awful thing. To make sure you were still here. It’s sad to know your time is done.

Hoping you snoozed. I wait till day To go your way. Why did I go? I should have paused. But you’re too quick. I hold my breath. Hoping you’re asleep. .THE BROWN WIDOW You wait for me In the dark. Await my move. You’re poisonous. I approach. I knew you were there After all. You strike so fast. You lay still. Too many eyes Cover me.

It will be just right. .THE TIME IS NOW Slow down. DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight. Live your best life now. Take your time.

Dormant. Specific to each owner. Years later we get another glimpse. .INNER SUPERSTAR We possess it early on. it lies inside. After we have forgotten. We get a glimpse. Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. It differs from the rest. Our inner superstar Was always there inside. But often forget where it lies. take a peak. Remembering where it first shined. Where it shines the best. Residing where it’s meant to be. And then peaked out often.

Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down.LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL Life tries to take the wheel. While hiding in our youth. We make a turn on our own. But then we find courage inside And turn it all around. Without listening to what it has to say. Its view widens so we may see. It shows its face in elder years. Life’s not all a mystery. . Listen for what life has in store. But we get in the way. Be patient.

. And you’re gone. Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so. This I didn’t know. I’m so sorry I was wrong. I took for granted you’d be here. At least. until tomorrow. Now tomorrow’s here.TOO LATE You were mine On borrowed time.

spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do. .AHA MOMENT Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise.

you know. When wide awake. a light yellow. I shine brightly for all to see. They cover you And color me. I change from day-to-day. Like many colors of the rainbow. Relaxed for when I sleep. A range of shades for everything. Neon bright. Black or white. I can be any hue I want to be. A softer shade. . Growing daily like the evergreen. When ready. A blue for when I’m feeling low. A darker color when we fight.COLORS OF ME There are many Shades of me. I’m an aubergine.

rhyming All the time. It sings to me from deep inside. The sadness that you may see. The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow.A POET’S SONG I live in verse. breathing poetry . And it makes up The best of me. I don’t know how Or even why. Living. Thinking. I think in rhyme. Is all poetry to me.

.BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH Just how bright Is your light. The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow. Shine from underneath? Is it dim. barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath.

Says stay awhile. I am your friend. It sets me free. Then sings to me In special notes. It invites me in. . Then takes my coat. It comforts me. It says to me. It embraces me. I open up. It offers me a place to stay.POETRY LIVES HERE A door has opened up for me. Inside that room lives poetry. And says Please come back any day. And offers me its words to eat. Says take a seat. Encourages me With its warm smile.

The comfort of my embrace. The wisdom I possess. I am woman. And I know my worth. The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back. I am life.KNOWING MY WORTH Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice. or shock you. offend. That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss. It’s because I am beauty. The knowledge I give. The pleasures I possess. Knowing that your fears. Curve of my waist. I can erase? If I frighten. . Shape of my thighs.

One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth. Rewarded with so many qualities. you should abhor. Forgetting it. Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man.OF ALL BEINGS Fellow women of today. We are the best of all beings. .

Thinking of how it will be. My destination is on my mind. What a lovely ride. Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me. . A sight I almost see. Did mostly as I pleased. Held some hands along the way. Every road must come to an end.THE LONG ROAD HOME I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead. I can’t wait for mine. Happiness and long-lost friends. I smile and hold it inside.

It is today. . Giving the breeze What it needs. Listen closely. Sounds fully. The signs are there For you to see. Close your eyes.THE SOUND OF SIGNS I hear the birds chirping. “The time has come For you to leave. As if to say. As if saying to me. “Your time is here.” The tree breaths.” The willow weeps.

It’s not too late. I’ve grabbed my pen. This is not a test. What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot. . What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man.A CALL TO ARMS *STOP* Turn off your television set. Or we all lose.

My home is where I leave my heart. My home can be one place or a few. Where happiness lives Indefinitely. Beside the bed.HOME My home is where I lay my head And pray at night. . Though we’re apart. My home is where I chose to be. Where true love lives. My home may just be with you.

This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet. Open your foolish eyes. We turn away. And in our haste. Although it seems quite odd. It passes instantly. Ignorant to what’s inside. The better prize. We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone.THE BETTER PRIZE The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade. Should crown our lover’s throne. And miss out on the better prize. So easy to believe a lie. A trick used to confuse the mind. But what lies inside. .

add some play. My body’s weary. Try to balance both and remain whole. Time to sit and rest my mind. I’ve seen this day before. And I know more will surely come.RELAXING MY MIND Been a long day. I’m tired already. Save some work. Unfortunately. . I remember to relax today. too. Spirit. that’s the way life goes. But I know things will be fine.

So I continue to Keep hope alive.TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME Trouble road begins at my door. I’ve given up on happiness. It must lie somewhere else. Why won’t it set me free? . And pray trouble runs out of time. I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been. Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me. It should be tired of me. And I know nothing else. and I stay safe. Where all is calm. Surrounded by my friends. Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free.

Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape. Look to the sky. Away I go To a better place. And then thank God I learned to fly. Without your brakes. I close my eyes. There is no room. Even the belt Won’t keep me safe. How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on. As I brace For the crash. No space for me.THE GREATEST ESCAPE Slow down for me. You smile at me And hit the gas. You’re speeding now. To ride with you. . You’re driving too fast.

Worried about the fall. Covering your insides. afterall. Premeditated steps I take with no regrets. everything I’ve got.THE FALL Land mines. . Can never take the leap. So much to lose. Afraid to make a sound. I wait until it’s dark. Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two. The snipers waiting for that clear shot. Worried I’ll be found.

Don’t be scared to let go. And we’re finally on track. Scared to make a move. We wish for the best. Hope our move won’t make a mess.MAKING MOVES Every now and then. That moment is meant just for you To make your move. Don’t be afraid. . Make your move. Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know. Then we realize The move was just right. You’re right where you need to be. We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go. Do what you say. Take a step and not look back.

It’s time to take my rightful place. Focused on today. The final bell has rung. My eyes are opened wide. Although my mouth is closed.WINNING THE RACE I’ve wasted too much time. And now half my life’s Just floated away. Life just passes by. Or what they tried to say. Light miles ahead. It never waits. I’ve already won the race. . And now the time is here For me to finally shine. I never saw the signs.

You listen when I talk. You always take my call. You call me. I need you to show me Just how I should be. It’s so innocent. You know I’m really into it. Because when I need someone to vent to.TRUE FRIENDS I call you. A true friend. Taking it all in. indeed. I’m glad I have you in my life. The times we share. . And I need you there. But we’re just friends. Even when I want to vent About nothing at all.

There are times When we may find Some things troubling. Often times Those little things Should remain a secret.KEEPING SECRETS Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing. And what things we should keep. We need to learn What to say. .

WITHOUT DOUBTS
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.

ANGER
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.

MY MOVES
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.

Too much for me to hold inside. So little time. Hold the door. No more sitting still for me today. Ready for me to begin.FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD Listen up! I got lots to say. I’m coming in! . So much to do.

I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go. When you come for me. I will be ready. Waiting for you to take me to some other place. In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again. I won’t be sad. I’m looking forward to the trip ahead. This life has gotten really bad. .WHEN YOU COME FOR ME When you come for me. When you come for me. I’m tired today. When you come for me.

A MERE SMUDGE I’m a smudge on your window pane. Can’t get rid of me. but don’t know what to say. . Guess I’m in too deep. Giving in to your every want and need. Just how a smudge succeeds. You open up. Desire being my excuse. Loving the way That I confuse.

Locked away indefinitely. Not knowing poison’s inside. accept your smile. That I can’t survive on my own. Drink my wine.A PRISONER’S LIFE I want to be free. But I’m the one that pays the toll. A prisoner’s life is what I lead.” I take a sip. You say it’ll never be. You say. Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape. . I try and try To live your life. “Celebrate with me.

I hear. All at once. I’ll guide you.AT A CROSSROADS Here I am. . Either way. Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be. No one to help me with this one. A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go. Close your eyes. Decision time tonight. It hit me hard. Make your move. And That’s just what I’ll do. it’ll be done. And I finally see.

And I held on. . Year after year. Awkward distance. So they don’t live here no more. Arguments. I’ve got to drive those blues away. Too scared to move. Mainly out of fear.DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY Sad songs are all I heard. Happiness and joyful days. From this life I need more. I can’t always be afraid. They silenced all the tears. They didn’t live here.

HOW How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning? .

too. shall pass.IT. Consuming who it occupies. Making you believe you died. SHALL PASS Pain can’t last forever. It’s got places to go. But … It. It. Taking over everything. That bell it rings. And pain’s waiting At another’s door. shall pass. . too. TOO. Because nothing ever lasts Of pain. Till only it survives.

Try to turn it all around. Try not to let the weight get me down. I suit up for the war. . And I fight with my head high. For the misery in store. Fight to keep it all in order. But the price I pay is worth being free. Holding onto my pride.HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE I try to hold my head above water. Every day is a fight for me.

Skirt the blame. . Point fingers. So afraid of being called out our name. Although we are among friends. Our downfall in the end. We don’t see What lies within.OUR DOWNFALL We are a sad society: So quick to judge. Mistakes that others seem to make. Such a wicked game to play. It’s become customary To point out all the flaws. Believing those wicked smiles. All the while hiding ours.

The only way truly to be free.BEING FREE I won’t let you change who I am. Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be. .

What treasures lied within. Remembering who I was. Just the way a record does. Now it’s time for me to grow. Concentrating on what I’m meant to do. My world finally mine. . Forgot who I was inside. This thought had become commonplace. I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine.MY WORLD Sometime ago I lost myself. Picked up where I had left off. Don’t know how long it’s been. It’s how I lived my life. Time for me to shine. My eyes are open now.

. Although it tries to hide. See … I’m making it my goal. I know. Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine. It’s there.MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine.

As the pieces began to mend. But I’m on the mend. My mind said all was lost. But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat. My spirit nearly broken. Nearly broken. . Thought there was no escape. So glad that I had faith. I begin again. Hope not within my reach.NEARLY BROKEN Thought it was the end of me.

She’s happy. the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while. . That friend I’ve found is me. A mother. She knows how much I meant to her. She loves me more than anything. She’s beautiful And full of life.MY FRIEND Oh. and a wife. daughter. Because she knows her worth.

. The stories they tell Without saying a word. Saying everything With just a smirk. One right-side up.THE SMILE AND THE FROWN Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown. The other upside down.

Memories barely keep me warm. The love I lost. have mercy on me.REMAINING LONELY Loneliness. . Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip. Loosen your lover’s grip. I’d rather have my love with me. Instead. I’ll forever mourn. I remain lonely.

Close your eyes. Visualize it’s there In front of you. Take a sigh. What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside? . Imagine your worst fear.FEAR INSIDE I challenge you To sit in silence.

EMMA LEE
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.

FREEDOM
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.

TODAY
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.

Waiting once more. Until you walk through my door. My time no longer mine. I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time. But to you.WAITING All I do Is wait around for you. So here I sit. feelings are no big deal. . I should say How I feel.

.SINGING TODAY FOR YOU Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time. you know. Because this I’m thankful for. So I sing today for you.

. Yet your mouth moves constantly. Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out. I don’t care what you have to say. Though I don’t listen any more. I’m not listening anyway.NOT LISTENING Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago.

WINDOW TO MY SOUL I see you Through the window to my soul. Looking through The window to my soul. And what I’m meant to be. You know me Better Than I ever could know. . Loving everything I am. Taking in all you see. You watch and study me.

What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me? You’re pretty for a black girl. You’re pretty for a black girl. .PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL You’re pretty for a black girl. Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more. Am I supposed to smile. Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth. Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud? You’re pretty for a black girl. Thank you for letting me know.

you know.FOR MY SISTERS My sister. you are beautiful. . Beauty lying inside and out. Thought I should tell you so. Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen. Thought I should let you know.

This place we’ve gotten to somehow. To show each other why we’re here.THE TIME IS NOW The only time we have is now. . Even if we’ve forgotten. The time we have is now. Seeing all we’re meant to see. To share all we’ve got. To feel how it should be.

.BIO Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school. and songs.” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten. short stories. Her first publication was a short story entitled. She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons. “The Amazing Mr. She writes poetry. Glonka.

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