Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved. ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition .

Brandon. Make your mark.For my boys. Devante. and Jaden. Mom . The world is yours. Blake. I love you.

CONTENTS Title Page Copyright Page LOVE Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone .

The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You .

LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me LIFE I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song .

Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How .

too.It. Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now .

LOVE .

Giving you more than my last. Bake your bread. I live for you At your command. What lovers do. Clean the floors. As you breathe. I leave my mark. Handle with care.LOVING YOU As you awake. I make your food. My world expands. All you have to do is ask. Be your lover and more. For you. Wash your clothes. . By loving you. I do it all. I smile for you. You are my light Through the dark.

THANKS TO YOU Cold. All thanks to you. Bitter through and through. Only anger in this place. heartless. The monster made. . Rotten to the very core. Blacker than the darkest night. Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth. All thanks to you. My evil eyes are full of spite.

I see your eyes start at my feet. My chest. Now face-to-face. woman and man. it heaves to my surprise. I quench your thirst. .WITHOUT WORDS I know you like what you see. And still not a word. I feel your hands all over me. Caress my cheek from where you stand. Your gaze has only reached my thighs. And you haven’t said a word. I see the way you look at me. I kiss your lips. Licking your lips. My hips move to your beat. you lift your hand. Felling the heat between you and me. You didn’t have to say a word. Don’t have to say a word.

I gave my all for you to live. It’s over now. But you don’t see me. The years I lost. Emptied my soul. You’ve taken all I have to give. Requesting more so you can live. The rest gone down the drain. My end is here. Still shaded by your tree. And you never saw me. . just wasted time.WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME Here I stand out in front. My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. The foolishness I left behind. And now my shell is all I have. Bare for all to see. I shed my skin.

A smile that warms the coldest night. We have grown together. You are my winter. The heat I crave to feel at night. living long it must. . You are my fall. A love so grand. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh. Our love is blossoming for all to see. built-in trust. You are my summer. Please stay a while. A constant cold stuns my heart. No you and I. Existing even after the end.SEASONS OF LOVE A light is shining bright. it’s just you and me. All is still. We from the start. You are my spring. We bring forth our new ecstasy. In the end it was always us.

Just let this pain pierce my skin. my worst fear.BROKEN Please. I’ve got to let the burn roam free. Don’t want happiness here again. You must understand my need to be here. Not bottle it up inside of me. So. oh please. The damage done won’t disappear. Just let me be. I want to cry. . I killed your love for me. please. I need the anger. I need to feel the pain inside of me. just let me be. Don’t want you to dry my eyes.

I would promise you. Forever stay. gazing upon your face.MY LAST DAY I would wake up a little late. You on my mind. Enjoy the day. Me in your heart. Silently gazing In your eyes. Sitting by your side. Hold your hand. I would call in sick. . My love always. Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. I’d say. Wash your feet Late that night. It would always be this way. No worry about what could be heard. Feed you by hand. Open my eyes. Our fingers intertwined. Make love to you without saying a word. That I’d never leave. I would make a meal For you and me.

That’s how I would spend My last day. .

I WILL SHOW UP If I yell. You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. You curse and scream. I’ll show up. I’ll show up. I’ll show up. Face so mean. it will be us. You spit my name With twisted face. So when you’re mad as hell. I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you. just know I won’t be walking out the door. And I will always show up. You see I gave my word in front of God. Till this life ends. The very last one to show up. I will show up. if you yell. . Through thick and thin when times are hard.

Don’t want to chill or hang with you. we don’t have to talk or say a word. Yeah. Lie down with me in this moment. . So close your lips and take my hand. Cover me with ecstasy. And give me what I need. it’s what you heard. You can find someone else to fill those shoes. Just here for me to feel alright. It’s not my place to be her for you.WHAT I NEED No. I don’t want to be your girl. Just take me on into the room. Not here to be your girl tonight. And give me what I need. I’m telling you. Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do. No.

LOVE ALL OVER ME Smiling all twenty four. I color the winter’s night. After the end. I will remain. Cannot be dimmed. My glow shines through the darkness. I am the Milky Way. I am love. Brightness everlasting. Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me. . And I will forge ahead. Brighter than the night’s sky.

Intoxicating.HYPNOTIZED Fine As the darkest wine. . I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized.

Don’t sell away your half from me. A dozen women for a dime. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man. I know my needs fall on deaf ears. A part-time love is not enough. God. Love shouldn’t have to be this rough. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol. I’ll hold it down and set you free.SETTING YOU FREE Here I wait Today for you. . Why do I compete With the streets. Can’t compete with street life. as well. Just like the day before. I fear. Not just the night-time one you sell.

Nice at 8. Time to put me back on track. You say you’re sorry all the time. hell begins. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry. Although the truth lies elsewhere. Maybe this time is the last time. nasty at 10. At 11:30. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry. I hold on tight for the ride. Swinging and swaying to your moods. . I’m coming back. At 10:30. time for hell again.HELL AND BACK I go through hell to be with you. and I love you more than anything. And try to make it back from hell again. Pray to God that I don’t cry. Say forgive me this time. But it’s 1.

Not giving up. I wonder if you’re like me. If the perfect one waits somewhere for you. I pray that you’re still looking. Even met some dogs. too? I’ve been waiting oh so long. Kissed so many frogs. still searching. . But my conviction still remains strong.SEARCHING Where are you? Are you searching for me. too. And also trying to find me. Out there trying to see.

Can pick you up and be complete. Love pulls you in. Enjoy the ride. It flows outside the lines. It smiles at you and then frowns. Sometimes love takes broader shape. It takes you up. So hold on tight. And surprises you with no regrets. But love can also be so sweet. Refuses to be confined. It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect. It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything. then drops you down. Pretends to stay. . And just await your love’s surprise.LOVE’S SURPRISE Sometimes love throws you a curve. and Evaporates to your dismay.

It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined. Tell me it’s all mine. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time. So glad to have you In my life. I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. Standing tall. . The queen I’m meant to be. And I rule the roost. Just what I’m meant to do.WE LIFT EACH OTHER You lift me up For the world to see. Give me the world. I tell you you’re The best at what you do. You show me how Real love should be with you. by my side. Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do.

Say some words. And then not care Who you hurt. You pile it on Because I can take it. And try to break me. Curse my name.THE WARNING It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you. Because your plan is number one. You’re having fun. But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy. You had a plan all the while. . Pretend to care. All others be damned. Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile.

“Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared. The joy and laughter every night. The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared. I’d miss everything.MISSING YOU “What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say. About you. “My darling.” . I’d say to you. The happiness I felt inside.

I inhale you on my shirt. Whether at work or at play. Whether night or day. your scent. That fragrence I know so well. Separating you from the rest. So distinct. You line the pleats of my skirt. You follow me Through the day. An aroma only you possess. Not Ivory or Irish Spring. Take you when I leave. It’s not cologne or soap. you know. . You’re with me On my way. That essence that I smell. And you wear it well.YOU WEAR IT WELL I wear you on my sleeve.

Like children Not yet grown. Realizing It won’t work apart. The shit we say. Alone is not what we do.NOT ALONE The games we play. Can’t make it on our own. And then we pray. . Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through. We laugh. We hurt.

Order lives where chaos dwelled. You don’t need to say it. And I know I make up the best of you. With me. Because you are the best of me. Your life tells me so. This much I truly know. I brought a new place for you.THE BEST OF ME I make up the best of you. A prize for all to see. . A freshness for our start. The light replaced the dark. I’m proud to see what you’ve become.

Looking okay. Hoping things are as good as new. Thinking that you’re done. The chain contains a kink. you see. you still see that link. But that kink.TRUST It’s like a broken fence: When mended. Will forever change the way I now look at you. Although repaired. . You try to move along.

. Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love. For the chocolate and the caramel. You don’t even see. I fear you love yourself More than you love me. Skin of chocolate.SHADES OF ME How can you not love me. With eyes of auburn.

LOVE’S ESCAPE I know where your happiness lies. A world where only you escape: A world of beaches. And I wait With your love’s escape. I’m ready now. Powder-white sand. A world that rivals Disneyland. It’s embedded between my thighs. . I take you to another place.

Though simple it may be. . Is not simple In my eyes. A place Finally to be me.THE CHOICE The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. To live in hell Or go be free. Not so simple to me. A simple choice It may seem.

That voice appears and says. Did you forget yesterday? The screaming and the yelling. I truly thought you understood.DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY Every time it’s going good. Did you forget yesterday? A friend today. an enemy. No matter what a friend may say. Although you’re okay today. Don’t forget yesterday. . Face twisted mean. So it may seem. Yesterday.

to be with you? I can’t say no. . You can’t say yes. Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve. Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me. Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I. Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess.WHAT WE DESERVE Do you deserve All that I do.

THE TRUTH I’m sad today. It may just be Around the corner. I know it’s not what you want to hear. dry your eyes. So. Another smiling face. We tried to make it work. I fear. But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you. Your true love awaits. Fully awake. it’s not meant to be. And I’m not the one for you. Truth is you’re not the one for me. No time to cry. You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. Life alone brings doubts and fears. Because I see the truth. But. .

You’d forever stay. Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem. I’d be all you see. There would be no other for you. In a perfect world. You’d only have eyes for me. And sit by my side. It’d be you and I. You’d hold me tight. I’d always be right. We’d never fight. And I can only dream. Sadly. today it’s not that way. Your love to give For me always. In a perfect world.A PERFECT WORLD In a perfect world. In a perfect world. . You’d agree with me.

YOUR EVERYTHING
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.

FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.

WE BELONG
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.

It was fine to say goodbye. We plot our moves From the go. .LYING IN WAIT I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies. For the right time. The perfect moment to strike. It is so easy for me to smile. You should have never estimated The power of my mind. Believed that when you closed the door. Pretend I’m okay inside. We lie in wait. Women are cunning creatures you know.

Where I said I’d be. Thought the day would never come. Because it’s all I know. Now I sit and wait for you. It hurts to be in this spot. Because you set me free. But I fear your mind’s made up. You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had. When you would let me go. I can’t forget what we had. Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day. Hoping it’s not too late. . That’s too damn bad.MOVING ON I wait for you in the lot.

But I don’t think It will ever be. You look into my eyes. Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte. It’s not enough for me.NOT YOUR FORTE I tell you I need more. . Give me no reply. And sleep. I ask you all the time To treat me like I need.

For the real you can never love me. How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all. . What I see Is not really you. Alone with the truth after the fall.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. And now I sit. Although I know the truth. so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show. But … I wanted you.

you think you know it all. So you can finally see. . But time will tell.A LOVE LIKE MINE You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone. I really hope you find her soon. Miss what we had. You say you don’t care. Make your move. Yeah. Think it’s all a big game. Go ahead. And please. That there are many more like me. The way I kissed you late at night. hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. You’re gonna miss me so damn bad. And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same.

Your love will make Me lose my mind. If that’s what I let it do. too.TERMINAL LOVE Your love will be The end of me. If I let it be. Your love will kill My spirit. Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me. If I let it inside. .

You’re blind to all that temptation outside. Holding my hand. Showing me the man That you’re proud to be. It’s great to be by your side. And that I deserve the best. I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do. To live this life with you. They don’t have to cost a thing. Ignoring all the rest. . You tell me that I’m beautiful.THE LITTLE THINGS It’s the little things I appreciate.

My spirit knows It’s your fault. I finally love me more that you do. You discourage me. I let you do what you want to. Because you need to be first. My anger knows It’s my fault. And it’s my fault. Don’t want to hear my words. Because all you thought about was you. You don’t encourage me. And it’s your fault. .LOVING ME My anger grows. I’m the one who made you into you. My spirit grows.

Although it’s not yet mine. I will wait for love. I will wait for love. Although it doesn’t live here. Because it waits somewhere for me. I lay out the welcome mat for love. I lay out the welcome mat for love.A FAN OF LOVE I am a fan of love. I still believe in love. Because someday love will set me free. I’m a fan of love. Though it doesn’t live here no more. . Because I see it all the time. But it won’t knock at my door. I’d sit in the stands and cheer. I still believe in love.

But we’re not meant to be. If only in our eyes. Your world is nothing like The one I’m from. You and I are not the same. A visitor from another place. But you won’t show your face. and you try To become you and I. You try to live in my realty. . When I don’t even know your name. Maybe that cloth Really is the same. I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come.A DIFFERENT CLOTH Cut from a different cloth. Tell me why you’re in my space. Yet you came.

Though the shitty lies you grab. Honesty is within your reach. To do what I have to do. I don’t know why I ask for truth. . So glad to have this new breakthrough. It’s nowhere inside of you.PROMISES Promises you fail to keep Are all I have.

twisted game. Not taking your shit any more. I’m like a moth to your flame.NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE You can’t see me Past your superiority. It’s your way or the door. There’s no you and me in us for you. . I try and try to be What you want from me. But I’m tired of playing Your sick. I’m sick to hell of being under your spell.

WINNING THE RACE I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight. Two peas of a different pod. Trying to keep up. We’ll never be face-to-face. First place is a space we both want. Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath. You sprint along. . now by my side. Can’t let me be in front. Because we both want to win the race. Because you have to be first.

Co-existence is the only power You hold over me. . I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections. I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely.POWER Looking through rose-colored glasses.

SING FOR YOU Why don’t I sing for you? A good question. Why don’t I feel comfortable. . Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts. indeed. but the one I should let go. Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for.

And set me free. I laugh along in my defense. Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh. . Love. Love. Just break your chains. Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love. Let loose your hold of me.LOVE Love. The jokes are all at my expense. What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh. how you love to tell your lovely lies.

Family meant we were whole. . Surviving by itself. Even when times were tough? It got you through. A time of unrivaled bliss. With nothing else. When unity was a goal.REMEMBERING LOVE Remember when Love was enough. A time I surely miss.

Yet nothing was said. And we’ve both paid the cost. The seconds. So much to say. minutes. But nothing’s said. I smile. . You stare at the floor. You try to read my face. And here we are In elder years. Turning into weeks. Because we never speak. I look elsewhere instead. hours. I hold my breath. So much to say. you grin. We drift together. Just like the day before. Our whole lives lost. days.LOST LIVES Here we go again. Still alone.

Although I seldom tell you so. How I cherish you. My wife. With you is where my heart lies.MY WIFE You bought me flowers today: Roses. . Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said: I can’t live my life without Having you by my side. I think of you before I rest. pink and red. You are the reason why I work so hard. I try my best.

Or use my fists. I disappear with every word you say. Call her a bitch. . Curse her name. But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside. And you think they’re just words. How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her.KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS I lose a piece of me every day.

No one else would matter. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often. He’d cherish the ground I walked on. . He’d love every part of me. He’d always take care of me. And even love my kids. It wouldn’t matter if they were his. Live together happily. He wouldn’t see anyone else.THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME Oh. Put me before himself. A perfect world For him and me. He’d cherish them because they were mine. That man I made for me. I wouldn’t want for anything.

LIFE .

You let me fall. I put your first. Lord. . Whether I am right or wrong. And so. I lead My life in Your hands. And I’ll always put you first. Bring me light after the dark. I put you first. And so. In you. Supporting me until the end. You’re by my side. You guide. so I may rise. this is why I will believe With Your Word. Get me through to a new start. Guiding me along the way. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day. I have a faithful friend.I PUT YOU FIRST You’ve been there Since day one. And so. Let me laugh after I’ve cried. as I carry on. that’s the way it will be. I put you first.

He’s got my map. he’s taken hold. He knows the goings on inside of me. And I thought I knew it all. . My whole world. He knows my mind. predicts my moves. He is the Lord above. He has my unwavering faith.FAITH He came today and shook my soul. He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break. I don’t know nothing anymore. Says what I think before I do. the path I walk. I think he’s psychic see. Mouths the words before I talk. With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day.

A lie won’t hide. Won’t stay inside. . I would have told you so. It’s impossible to hide a lie. Sets me free. Rains down on me.LIES AND TRUTH The truth is the light. A cover will not work. It shines so bright. No matter how hard you try. you know. If asked. You can’t contain What will remain.

. Flipping a script You no longer own. The chains are gone. but now I see The truth I bought now sold. Was in a fog. Has built a wall that can’t be broken. So that confidence. Realizing who I am. For the entire world to see. Took years to find. Can’t keep me down no more. The square peg now fits the hole. I got it now.REALIZATION The beauty of it all. Now I’m free. ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be. powering my soul. Yes. I can’t lie low. Screaming to me in my own song. Who I am inside.

A better place awaits me. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today. .ENDING THE PAIN This world of pain. All consuming. Now is the end for me. breathlessly. I’ll be with you forever now. Stealing my light. Like the way That evil does. Everywhere. I try to fight. And I cannot escape. finally. Staining the air. So much to bear. Killing my mind And spirit. too. through the fog I can’t see. But. So I say my last goodbye. The pain will end. It’s all around.

It calls to me and screams my name. For fear of what it might say. . Guess I’ll listen to radio instead. I’ll start my fight by changing me. Can’t let this dark swallow my light. Start my task with one woman. Or found dead. I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. But radio’s no better. I vow to do the best I can. Everyone’s fighting or arguing. So I block it and stay inside. same old thing. Enough to drive the sane insane.CHANGING ME I couldn’t watch the news today. Live by his word and let him see. Someone’s missing.

The one underneath’s too tough. The pain still wouldn’t go away. I’m the one it killed. After all the blood had dried. I couldn’t cry. But blood is not enough. The pain inside just wouldn’t die. Finally free. I pierce the layer that I see. Although it hurt. I took the pain away with me.BREAKING FREE I try to cut the pain away. . Cutting deeper still. Now my pain has gone away. I had to go because it stayed. I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay. Now I’m gone.

A battle I couldn’t lose. By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away. I held you tight and kissed your cheek. I feared it was not true. Here I stand forever. You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues. Although you were not yet mine.MY SON SHINES Long ago I dreamt of you. The love I thought I had to have. Only the mixture that I needed. Before you were inside. For the other half of you. . I stood tall. But through it all.

me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me. Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know. Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me. .KNOWING ME Do you really know who I am.

I feel the beat. Made for sin. My arms they sway That away. Dance with me tonight. Dance with me tonight. It moves my feet. Your song instead. Please play for me. It moves my hips. Dance with me tonight.DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT I feel the music From deep within. The rhythm stirs Inside my head. .

They’ll wish we stopped you just in time. Help them push the pain aside. So hold them tight. It’s sad to know your time is done. Pain can be an awful thing. We didn’t have you long. Sometimes too much to bare. So here is where they’ll stay. And let them know An early end’s no way to go.TOO SOON Gone too soon. What younger ones can’t fare. We older folks can tolerate. Your will was not as strong. But many will always care. Though your beauty will last always. . To make sure you were still here.

Too many eyes Cover me. Hoping you’re asleep. Await my move. . I hold my breath. I knew you were there After all. But you’re too quick. Why did I go? I should have paused. You strike so fast. I approach. Hoping you snoozed. I wait till day To go your way. You’re poisonous.THE BROWN WIDOW You wait for me In the dark. You lay still.

. Take your time. Live your best life now. It will be just right.THE TIME IS NOW Slow down. DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight.

And then peaked out often. take a peak. Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. Where it shines the best. Years later we get another glimpse. After we have forgotten. it lies inside. Specific to each owner. Dormant. Remembering where it first shined.INNER SUPERSTAR We possess it early on. But often forget where it lies. We get a glimpse. Residing where it’s meant to be. . Our inner superstar Was always there inside. It differs from the rest.

But then we find courage inside And turn it all around. Be patient. We make a turn on our own. But we get in the way. Without listening to what it has to say. Life’s not all a mystery. Its view widens so we may see. Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down.LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL Life tries to take the wheel. Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. . It shows its face in elder years. While hiding in our youth. Listen for what life has in store.

At least.TOO LATE You were mine On borrowed time. until tomorrow. I’m so sorry I was wrong. I took for granted you’d be here. And you’re gone. Now tomorrow’s here. . Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so. This I didn’t know.

AHA MOMENT Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise. spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do. .

They cover you And color me. A softer shade. I change from day-to-day. A range of shades for everything. you know. When wide awake. I can be any hue I want to be. . Growing daily like the evergreen. Neon bright. A blue for when I’m feeling low. I shine brightly for all to see. Relaxed for when I sleep.COLORS OF ME There are many Shades of me. I’m an aubergine. Black or white. a light yellow. A darker color when we fight. Like many colors of the rainbow. When ready.

breathing poetry . I think in rhyme. The sadness that you may see. Thinking. I don’t know how Or even why. It sings to me from deep inside. Living. rhyming All the time. And it makes up The best of me.A POET’S SONG I live in verse. The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow. Is all poetry to me.

. The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow. barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath.BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH Just how bright Is your light. Shine from underneath? Is it dim.

It comforts me. Inside that room lives poetry. And says Please come back any day. I open up. It offers me a place to stay. I am your friend. Encourages me With its warm smile. Then sings to me In special notes. Then takes my coat. It says to me. It sets me free. It embraces me. . It invites me in. Says take a seat.POETRY LIVES HERE A door has opened up for me. And offers me its words to eat. Says stay awhile.

The pleasures I possess. Knowing that your fears. And I know my worth. offend. Shape of my thighs. or shock you. The knowledge I give. Curve of my waist. The wisdom I possess.KNOWING MY WORTH Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice. . The comfort of my embrace. That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss. I am life. It’s because I am beauty. I am woman. I can erase? If I frighten. The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back.

Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man. Rewarded with so many qualities.OF ALL BEINGS Fellow women of today. One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth. . We are the best of all beings. Forgetting it. you should abhor.

Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me. My destination is on my mind. I can’t wait for mine. Every road must come to an end. What a lovely ride. Held some hands along the way. Happiness and long-lost friends. Thinking of how it will be. A sight I almost see. Did mostly as I pleased. I smile and hold it inside. .THE LONG ROAD HOME I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead.

As if to say. “Your time is here.” The tree breaths. Giving the breeze What it needs. Sounds fully.THE SOUND OF SIGNS I hear the birds chirping. “The time has come For you to leave.” The willow weeps. As if saying to me. Close your eyes. . Listen closely. The signs are there For you to see. It is today.

What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man. It’s not too late. What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot. I’ve grabbed my pen. . Or we all lose. This is not a test.A CALL TO ARMS *STOP* Turn off your television set.

My home may just be with you. My home is where I leave my heart. . Beside the bed. My home can be one place or a few.HOME My home is where I lay my head And pray at night. Where true love lives. My home is where I chose to be. Though we’re apart. Where happiness lives Indefinitely.

Although it seems quite odd. A trick used to confuse the mind. And in our haste. Open your foolish eyes. Should crown our lover’s throne. The better prize. So easy to believe a lie. This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet. . But what lies inside. We turn away. It passes instantly. Ignorant to what’s inside. And miss out on the better prize. We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone.THE BETTER PRIZE The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade.

My body’s weary. I’ve seen this day before. too. add some play. Time to sit and rest my mind. .RELAXING MY MIND Been a long day. But I know things will be fine. that’s the way life goes. Unfortunately. Spirit. I’m tired already. Save some work. Try to balance both and remain whole. I remember to relax today. And I know more will surely come.

And I know nothing else. I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been. It should be tired of me. Why won’t it set me free? . It must lie somewhere else. Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me. and I stay safe. Surrounded by my friends. Where all is calm. I’ve given up on happiness. So I continue to Keep hope alive. And pray trouble runs out of time. Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free.TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME Trouble road begins at my door.

There is no room. I close my eyes. And then thank God I learned to fly. . How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on. No space for me. To ride with you. Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape. As I brace For the crash. You’re driving too fast. Even the belt Won’t keep me safe. Without your brakes. Away I go To a better place.THE GREATEST ESCAPE Slow down for me. You’re speeding now. Look to the sky. You smile at me And hit the gas.

Premeditated steps I take with no regrets. Worried I’ll be found. The snipers waiting for that clear shot. Worried about the fall. Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two. Covering your insides. I wait until it’s dark. everything I’ve got. Afraid to make a sound. So much to lose. . Can never take the leap.THE FALL Land mines. afterall.

Don’t be scared to let go. Take a step and not look back. Do what you say. . Scared to make a move. Hope our move won’t make a mess.MAKING MOVES Every now and then. Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know. We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go. Then we realize The move was just right. We wish for the best. Make your move. You’re right where you need to be. And we’re finally on track. Don’t be afraid. That moment is meant just for you To make your move.

And now half my life’s Just floated away. I’ve already won the race. And now the time is here For me to finally shine. It never waits. Although my mouth is closed. . Light miles ahead. My eyes are opened wide. Focused on today. Life just passes by. I never saw the signs.WINNING THE RACE I’ve wasted too much time. It’s time to take my rightful place. The final bell has rung. Or what they tried to say.

You listen when I talk. You call me. It’s so innocent. I’m glad I have you in my life. indeed. A true friend. I need you to show me Just how I should be. Even when I want to vent About nothing at all. You know I’m really into it.TRUE FRIENDS I call you. You always take my call. And I need you there. . Taking it all in. The times we share. But we’re just friends. Because when I need someone to vent to.

We need to learn What to say. And what things we should keep. Often times Those little things Should remain a secret.KEEPING SECRETS Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing. . There are times When we may find Some things troubling.

WITHOUT DOUBTS
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.

ANGER
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.

MY MOVES
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.

Too much for me to hold inside. So little time.FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD Listen up! I got lots to say. I’m coming in! . No more sitting still for me today. Ready for me to begin. Hold the door. So much to do.

I won’t be sad. When you come for me. When you come for me. I’m looking forward to the trip ahead. When you come for me. I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go. In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again. Waiting for you to take me to some other place. I’m tired today. I will be ready. This life has gotten really bad.WHEN YOU COME FOR ME When you come for me. .

but don’t know what to say. . You open up.A MERE SMUDGE I’m a smudge on your window pane. Guess I’m in too deep. Giving in to your every want and need. Loving the way That I confuse. Can’t get rid of me. Desire being my excuse. Just how a smudge succeeds.

You say it’ll never be. accept your smile. Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape. I try and try To live your life. Drink my wine. But I’m the one that pays the toll. Not knowing poison’s inside. You say. That I can’t survive on my own. A prisoner’s life is what I lead. Locked away indefinitely.” I take a sip.A PRISONER’S LIFE I want to be free. “Celebrate with me. .

I hear. It hit me hard.AT A CROSSROADS Here I am. And That’s just what I’ll do. it’ll be done. Decision time tonight. Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be. All at once. A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go. Either way. And I finally see. I’ll guide you. Make your move. . Close your eyes. No one to help me with this one.

They silenced all the tears. . Mainly out of fear. I can’t always be afraid.DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY Sad songs are all I heard. They didn’t live here. Awkward distance. Year after year. And I held on. From this life I need more. Too scared to move. Happiness and joyful days. So they don’t live here no more. Arguments. I’ve got to drive those blues away.

HOW How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning? .

It. That bell it rings. shall pass. shall pass. Taking over everything.IT. too. Till only it survives. Because nothing ever lasts Of pain. . And pain’s waiting At another’s door. Consuming who it occupies. SHALL PASS Pain can’t last forever. TOO. Making you believe you died. It’s got places to go. But … It. too.

Every day is a fight for me. Holding onto my pride. Fight to keep it all in order. . Try not to let the weight get me down. For the misery in store. Try to turn it all around.HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE I try to hold my head above water. I suit up for the war. But the price I pay is worth being free. And I fight with my head high.

Our downfall in the end. We don’t see What lies within. So afraid of being called out our name. Point fingers. All the while hiding ours. Such a wicked game to play. Skirt the blame. It’s become customary To point out all the flaws. Believing those wicked smiles.OUR DOWNFALL We are a sad society: So quick to judge. Although we are among friends. Mistakes that others seem to make. .

The only way truly to be free. Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be.BEING FREE I won’t let you change who I am. .

It’s how I lived my life. I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine. What treasures lied within. . Forgot who I was inside. Picked up where I had left off.MY WORLD Sometime ago I lost myself. My eyes are open now. Now it’s time for me to grow. Remembering who I was. Don’t know how long it’s been. This thought had become commonplace. Just the way a record does. Concentrating on what I’m meant to do. My world finally mine. Time for me to shine.

. I know. Although it tries to hide. It’s there.MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine. See … I’m making it my goal. Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine.

But I’m on the mend.NEARLY BROKEN Thought it was the end of me. But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat. . I begin again. Hope not within my reach. So glad that I had faith. As the pieces began to mend. Nearly broken. My mind said all was lost. My spirit nearly broken. Thought there was no escape.

and a wife. the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while. She knows how much I meant to her. A mother. . She’s beautiful And full of life. She loves me more than anything. She’s happy. Because she knows her worth. That friend I’ve found is me.MY FRIEND Oh. daughter.

One right-side up. Saying everything With just a smirk. .THE SMILE AND THE FROWN Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown. The other upside down. The stories they tell Without saying a word.

I’ll forever mourn.REMAINING LONELY Loneliness. Memories barely keep me warm. Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip. Instead. The love I lost. I’d rather have my love with me. I remain lonely. Loosen your lover’s grip. have mercy on me. .

Close your eyes. What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside? . Take a sigh. Imagine your worst fear. Visualize it’s there In front of you.FEAR INSIDE I challenge you To sit in silence.

EMMA LEE
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.

FREEDOM
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.

TODAY
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.

I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time. . feelings are no big deal. My time no longer mine. I should say How I feel.WAITING All I do Is wait around for you. But to you. Waiting once more. So here I sit. Until you walk through my door.

SINGING TODAY FOR YOU Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time. So I sing today for you. Because this I’m thankful for. you know. .

Yet your mouth moves constantly. . Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out. Though I don’t listen any more. I’m not listening anyway. I don’t care what you have to say.NOT LISTENING Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago.

Taking in all you see. You watch and study me. Loving everything I am. And what I’m meant to be. You know me Better Than I ever could know.WINDOW TO MY SOUL I see you Through the window to my soul. Looking through The window to my soul. .

Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth. What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me? You’re pretty for a black girl. You’re pretty for a black girl. . Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more. Thank you for letting me know.PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL You’re pretty for a black girl. Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud? You’re pretty for a black girl. Am I supposed to smile.

Thought I should tell you so.FOR MY SISTERS My sister. Thought I should let you know. . you are beautiful. Beauty lying inside and out. you know. Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen.

Even if we’ve forgotten. To show each other why we’re here. The time we have is now. . To share all we’ve got. Seeing all we’re meant to see. To feel how it should be.THE TIME IS NOW The only time we have is now. This place we’ve gotten to somehow.

She writes poetry.” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten. . short stories. “The Amazing Mr.BIO Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school. Glonka. She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons. and songs. Her first publication was a short story entitled.

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