Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved. ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition .

The world is yours. Blake. Devante. I love you. Brandon. Mom .For my boys. and Jaden. Make your mark.

CONTENTS Title Page Copyright Page LOVE Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone .

The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You .

LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me LIFE I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song .

Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How .

It. Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now . too.

LOVE .

LOVING YOU As you awake. You are my light Through the dark. I smile for you. Bake your bread. I live for you At your command. . Be your lover and more. All you have to do is ask. Giving you more than my last. I make your food. Wash your clothes. Handle with care. I leave my mark. I do it all. What lovers do. Clean the floors. As you breathe. My world expands. For you. By loving you.

THANKS TO YOU Cold. . All thanks to you. My evil eyes are full of spite. Rotten to the very core. Only anger in this place. Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth. All thanks to you. heartless. Bitter through and through. Blacker than the darkest night. The monster made.

I kiss your lips. Your gaze has only reached my thighs. Now face-to-face. My chest. Licking your lips. it heaves to my surprise. you lift your hand. And you haven’t said a word. Felling the heat between you and me. I see your eyes start at my feet. My hips move to your beat. I quench your thirst. . woman and man. And still not a word. Caress my cheek from where you stand. I feel your hands all over me. You didn’t have to say a word. Don’t have to say a word. I see the way you look at me.WITHOUT WORDS I know you like what you see.

I shed my skin. Bare for all to see. It’s over now. My end is here. Requesting more so you can live. just wasted time. . But you don’t see me. My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. And now my shell is all I have. Still shaded by your tree. The years I lost. You’ve taken all I have to give. The foolishness I left behind. Emptied my soul. And you never saw me. The rest gone down the drain. I gave my all for you to live.WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME Here I stand out in front.

We from the start. We bring forth our new ecstasy. . In the end it was always us. You are my winter. Existing even after the end. You are my spring. You are my summer. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh. built-in trust. Please stay a while. The heat I crave to feel at night. All is still. A smile that warms the coldest night. A love so grand. Our love is blossoming for all to see. You are my fall. living long it must. We have grown together. it’s just you and me. A constant cold stuns my heart. No you and I.SEASONS OF LOVE A light is shining bright.

oh please. Don’t want happiness here again. I killed your love for me. I need the anger.BROKEN Please. Just let me be. I’ve got to let the burn roam free. just let me be. . my worst fear. Just let this pain pierce my skin. Don’t want you to dry my eyes. I need to feel the pain inside of me. You must understand my need to be here. So. I want to cry. Not bottle it up inside of me. please. The damage done won’t disappear.

You on my mind. . Hold your hand. I would make a meal For you and me. Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. No worry about what could be heard. I’d say. Enjoy the day.MY LAST DAY I would wake up a little late. Sitting by your side. Forever stay. Our fingers intertwined. Make love to you without saying a word. I would promise you. Me in your heart. gazing upon your face. Feed you by hand. My love always. Wash your feet Late that night. I would call in sick. Open my eyes. It would always be this way. That I’d never leave. Silently gazing In your eyes.

.That’s how I would spend My last day.

And I will always show up. I’ll show up. You spit my name With twisted face. You curse and scream. Till this life ends. just know I won’t be walking out the door. Through thick and thin when times are hard. it will be us.I WILL SHOW UP If I yell. I’ll show up. I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you. I will show up. . You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. if you yell. I’ll show up. Face so mean. You see I gave my word in front of God. The very last one to show up. So when you’re mad as hell.

You can find someone else to fill those shoes. Not here to be your girl tonight. Yeah. Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do. Lie down with me in this moment. And give me what I need. Just here for me to feel alright. And give me what I need. it’s what you heard. we don’t have to talk or say a word. I don’t want to be your girl. Don’t want to chill or hang with you. So close your lips and take my hand. I’m telling you. No. It’s not my place to be her for you.WHAT I NEED No. . Cover me with ecstasy. Just take me on into the room.

I color the winter’s night. Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me. . And I will forge ahead. I am love. After the end. I will remain. My glow shines through the darkness. Cannot be dimmed. Brighter than the night’s sky. Brightness everlasting.LOVE ALL OVER ME Smiling all twenty four. I am the Milky Way.

I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized. Intoxicating.HYPNOTIZED Fine As the darkest wine. .

Don’t sell away your half from me.SETTING YOU FREE Here I wait Today for you. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man. I know my needs fall on deaf ears. Love shouldn’t have to be this rough. A dozen women for a dime. . I’ll hold it down and set you free. Not just the night-time one you sell. as well. Why do I compete With the streets. God. A part-time love is not enough. I fear. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol. Just like the day before. Can’t compete with street life.

I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry. Nice at 8. hell begins. Maybe this time is the last time. Say forgive me this time. . At 11:30. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry. Time to put me back on track. You say you’re sorry all the time. Although the truth lies elsewhere.HELL AND BACK I go through hell to be with you. I hold on tight for the ride. And try to make it back from hell again. time for hell again. But it’s 1. and I love you more than anything. Swinging and swaying to your moods. Pray to God that I don’t cry. nasty at 10. At 10:30. I’m coming back.

SEARCHING Where are you? Are you searching for me. Kissed so many frogs. If the perfect one waits somewhere for you. . And also trying to find me. too. I pray that you’re still looking. Not giving up. Even met some dogs. Out there trying to see. But my conviction still remains strong. too? I’ve been waiting oh so long. I wonder if you’re like me. still searching.

It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect. and Evaporates to your dismay. Pretends to stay. Love pulls you in. Refuses to be confined. It takes you up.LOVE’S SURPRISE Sometimes love throws you a curve. . It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything. Sometimes love takes broader shape. It smiles at you and then frowns. Can pick you up and be complete. then drops you down. So hold on tight. It flows outside the lines. And surprises you with no regrets. And just await your love’s surprise. But love can also be so sweet. Enjoy the ride.

I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. Just what I’m meant to do.WE LIFT EACH OTHER You lift me up For the world to see. The queen I’m meant to be. I tell you you’re The best at what you do. So glad to have you In my life. It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined. . Standing tall. by my side. And I rule the roost. Tell me it’s all mine. Give me the world. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time. You show me how Real love should be with you. Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do.

You pile it on Because I can take it. Say some words. But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy. You’re having fun. Curse my name. And then not care Who you hurt. Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile. Pretend to care. Because your plan is number one.THE WARNING It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you. And try to break me. All others be damned. . You had a plan all the while.

I’d say to you. I’d miss everything.MISSING YOU “What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say.” . About you. “Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared. The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared. The happiness I felt inside. The joy and laughter every night. “My darling.

YOU WEAR IT WELL I wear you on my sleeve. I inhale you on my shirt. Separating you from the rest. you know. your scent. That fragrence I know so well. . You’re with me On my way. It’s not cologne or soap. So distinct. Take you when I leave. An aroma only you possess. And you wear it well. You follow me Through the day. Whether at work or at play. That essence that I smell. Not Ivory or Irish Spring. Whether night or day. You line the pleats of my skirt.

We hurt. And then we pray. Can’t make it on our own. Realizing It won’t work apart.NOT ALONE The games we play. . Alone is not what we do. Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through. The shit we say. We laugh. Like children Not yet grown.

I brought a new place for you. You don’t need to say it.THE BEST OF ME I make up the best of you. This much I truly know. Your life tells me so. Because you are the best of me. A prize for all to see. . The light replaced the dark. I’m proud to see what you’ve become. With me. And I know I make up the best of you. A freshness for our start. Order lives where chaos dwelled.

Will forever change the way I now look at you. But that kink.TRUST It’s like a broken fence: When mended. you see. . The chain contains a kink. Although repaired. you still see that link. You try to move along. Hoping things are as good as new. Thinking that you’re done. Looking okay.

Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love. With eyes of auburn. Skin of chocolate. I fear you love yourself More than you love me. .SHADES OF ME How can you not love me. For the chocolate and the caramel. You don’t even see.

. It’s embedded between my thighs. Powder-white sand. And I wait With your love’s escape. A world that rivals Disneyland.LOVE’S ESCAPE I know where your happiness lies. I’m ready now. I take you to another place. A world where only you escape: A world of beaches.

To live in hell Or go be free. A place Finally to be me. . Not so simple to me.THE CHOICE The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. Though simple it may be. Is not simple In my eyes. A simple choice It may seem.

No matter what a friend may say.DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY Every time it’s going good. Although you’re okay today. Yesterday. Don’t forget yesterday. Face twisted mean. an enemy. Did you forget yesterday? A friend today. That voice appears and says. I truly thought you understood. Did you forget yesterday? The screaming and the yelling. So it may seem. .

Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve. Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess. You can’t say yes. . Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I. Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me.WHAT WE DESERVE Do you deserve All that I do. to be with you? I can’t say no.

I know it’s not what you want to hear. Because I see the truth. Fully awake. . But. Another smiling face. It may just be Around the corner. But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you. Truth is you’re not the one for me. We tried to make it work. it’s not meant to be. I fear. Your true love awaits. No time to cry. Life alone brings doubts and fears. So. And I’m not the one for you. dry your eyes. You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free.THE TRUTH I’m sad today.

today it’s not that way. In a perfect world. I’d always be right. Sadly. And sit by my side. There would be no other for you. You’d hold me tight. In a perfect world. You’d forever stay. It’d be you and I.A PERFECT WORLD In a perfect world. We’d never fight. Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem. I’d be all you see. You’d only have eyes for me. And I can only dream. In a perfect world. . You’d agree with me. Your love to give For me always.

YOUR EVERYTHING
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.

FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.

WE BELONG
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.

The perfect moment to strike. You should have never estimated The power of my mind. . For the right time. It is so easy for me to smile. We plot our moves From the go. Believed that when you closed the door. Pretend I’m okay inside. It was fine to say goodbye. Women are cunning creatures you know.LYING IN WAIT I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies. We lie in wait.

Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day. That’s too damn bad. Thought the day would never come. But I fear your mind’s made up. You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had. Because it’s all I know.MOVING ON I wait for you in the lot. When you would let me go. It hurts to be in this spot. Where I said I’d be. Hoping it’s not too late. Now I sit and wait for you. I can’t forget what we had. . Because you set me free.

I ask you all the time To treat me like I need. Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte.NOT YOUR FORTE I tell you I need more. You look into my eyes. . But I don’t think It will ever be. Give me no reply. It’s not enough for me. And sleep.

so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show. And now I sit. How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all. For the real you can never love me. What I see Is not really you.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. Although I know the truth. Alone with the truth after the fall. . But … I wanted you.

You’re gonna miss me so damn bad. That there are many more like me. The way I kissed you late at night. . Miss what we had. But time will tell. Make your move. hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. You say you don’t care.A LOVE LIKE MINE You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone. you think you know it all. And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same. So you can finally see. I really hope you find her soon. Think it’s all a big game. And please. Go ahead. Yeah.

If I let it be. . Your love will kill My spirit. too.TERMINAL LOVE Your love will be The end of me. Your love will make Me lose my mind. If that’s what I let it do. Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me. If I let it inside.

To live this life with you. Holding my hand. You tell me that I’m beautiful. Showing me the man That you’re proud to be. I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do. They don’t have to cost a thing. It’s great to be by your side.THE LITTLE THINGS It’s the little things I appreciate. Ignoring all the rest. . And that I deserve the best. You’re blind to all that temptation outside.

. I let you do what you want to. I finally love me more that you do.LOVING ME My anger grows. My spirit grows. Don’t want to hear my words. You discourage me. My spirit knows It’s your fault. My anger knows It’s my fault. And it’s my fault. And it’s your fault. Because all you thought about was you. Because you need to be first. I’m the one who made you into you. You don’t encourage me.

I will wait for love. Although it’s not yet mine. I’d sit in the stands and cheer. I lay out the welcome mat for love. Although it doesn’t live here. I will wait for love. I still believe in love. Because it waits somewhere for me.A FAN OF LOVE I am a fan of love. I still believe in love. I lay out the welcome mat for love. I’m a fan of love. Though it doesn’t live here no more. . Because I see it all the time. But it won’t knock at my door. Because someday love will set me free.

But we’re not meant to be. . I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come. But you won’t show your face. Your world is nothing like The one I’m from.A DIFFERENT CLOTH Cut from a different cloth. Tell me why you’re in my space. When I don’t even know your name. and you try To become you and I. Maybe that cloth Really is the same. If only in our eyes. A visitor from another place. You try to live in my realty. You and I are not the same. Yet you came.

So glad to have this new breakthrough. . Though the shitty lies you grab. I don’t know why I ask for truth. It’s nowhere inside of you. To do what I have to do.PROMISES Promises you fail to keep Are all I have. Honesty is within your reach.

I try and try to be What you want from me. There’s no you and me in us for you. But I’m tired of playing Your sick. I’m sick to hell of being under your spell. . It’s your way or the door. I’m like a moth to your flame. twisted game.NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE You can’t see me Past your superiority. Not taking your shit any more.

now by my side. Two peas of a different pod. Trying to keep up. Can’t let me be in front. First place is a space we both want. We’ll never be face-to-face. Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath.WINNING THE RACE I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight. Because we both want to win the race. Because you have to be first. You sprint along. .

Co-existence is the only power You hold over me. I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely.POWER Looking through rose-colored glasses. . I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections.

but the one I should let go. . indeed.SING FOR YOU Why don’t I sing for you? A good question. Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts. Why don’t I feel comfortable. Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for.

The jokes are all at my expense. Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love. And set me free. .LOVE Love. Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh. Just break your chains. how you love to tell your lovely lies. I laugh along in my defense. What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh. Let loose your hold of me. Love. Love.

A time I surely miss. .REMEMBERING LOVE Remember when Love was enough. A time of unrivaled bliss. Surviving by itself. Family meant we were whole. When unity was a goal. With nothing else. Even when times were tough? It got you through.

hours. You try to read my face. And here we are In elder years. So much to say. So much to say. But nothing’s said.LOST LIVES Here we go again. The seconds. I hold my breath. I look elsewhere instead. . Turning into weeks. I smile. Because we never speak. minutes. We drift together. you grin. Still alone. Just like the day before. And we’ve both paid the cost. days. Yet nothing was said. You stare at the floor. Our whole lives lost.

With you is where my heart lies. You are the reason why I work so hard. I try my best. My wife. Although I seldom tell you so. How I cherish you. Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said: I can’t live my life without Having you by my side. .MY WIFE You bought me flowers today: Roses. pink and red. I think of you before I rest.

But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside. And you think they’re just words. Call her a bitch. I disappear with every word you say. . Or use my fists. Curse her name. How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her.KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS I lose a piece of me every day.

Live together happily. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often. And even love my kids. It wouldn’t matter if they were his. A perfect world For him and me. He’d love every part of me. He’d cherish them because they were mine. . He wouldn’t see anyone else. I wouldn’t want for anything.THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME Oh. No one else would matter. He’d cherish the ground I walked on. Put me before himself. That man I made for me. He’d always take care of me.

LIFE .

Lord. I put you first. Guiding me along the way. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day. You’re by my side. In you. And so. so I may rise. Whether I am right or wrong. I lead My life in Your hands.I PUT YOU FIRST You’ve been there Since day one. You let me fall. You guide. that’s the way it will be. I put you first. Get me through to a new start. I have a faithful friend. Supporting me until the end. this is why I will believe With Your Word. And so. I put your first. And so. Bring me light after the dark. Let me laugh after I’ve cried. . And I’ll always put you first. as I carry on.

FAITH He came today and shook my soul. he’s taken hold. Mouths the words before I talk. He has my unwavering faith. He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break. He’s got my map. I don’t know nothing anymore. the path I walk. He is the Lord above. predicts my moves. Says what I think before I do. He knows my mind. With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day. . I think he’s psychic see. He knows the goings on inside of me. My whole world. And I thought I knew it all.

Won’t stay inside. . It shines so bright.LIES AND TRUTH The truth is the light. No matter how hard you try. Sets me free. A lie won’t hide. Rains down on me. A cover will not work. If asked. you know. You can’t contain What will remain. I would have told you so. It’s impossible to hide a lie.

So that confidence. ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be. Took years to find. I got it now. but now I see The truth I bought now sold. Can’t keep me down no more. . The square peg now fits the hole.REALIZATION The beauty of it all. The chains are gone. Realizing who I am. I can’t lie low. powering my soul. Now I’m free. Was in a fog. For the entire world to see. Flipping a script You no longer own. Screaming to me in my own song. Has built a wall that can’t be broken. Yes. Who I am inside.

So I say my last goodbye. All consuming. Killing my mind And spirit. Like the way That evil does. breathlessly. . It’s all around. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today. Now is the end for me. I try to fight. through the fog I can’t see. finally. Everywhere. Stealing my light.ENDING THE PAIN This world of pain. too. So much to bear. And I cannot escape. But. The pain will end. A better place awaits me. I’ll be with you forever now. Staining the air.

Guess I’ll listen to radio instead. I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. But radio’s no better. Or found dead. Everyone’s fighting or arguing. same old thing. . I’ll start my fight by changing me. Start my task with one woman. Live by his word and let him see. Can’t let this dark swallow my light. I vow to do the best I can. Enough to drive the sane insane. Someone’s missing. So I block it and stay inside.CHANGING ME I couldn’t watch the news today. For fear of what it might say. It calls to me and screams my name.

After all the blood had dried. I had to go because it stayed. I’m the one it killed. Now I’m gone. The one underneath’s too tough. The pain still wouldn’t go away.BREAKING FREE I try to cut the pain away. Finally free. I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay. Now my pain has gone away. But blood is not enough. Cutting deeper still. I pierce the layer that I see. I took the pain away with me. Although it hurt. I couldn’t cry. . The pain inside just wouldn’t die.

Only the mixture that I needed. The love I thought I had to have. But through it all. You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues. I held you tight and kissed your cheek. I stood tall. Here I stand forever. A battle I couldn’t lose.MY SON SHINES Long ago I dreamt of you. Although you were not yet mine. For the other half of you. I feared it was not true. By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away. . Before you were inside.

. Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me. Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know.KNOWING ME Do you really know who I am. me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me.

My arms they sway That away. Dance with me tonight. It moves my hips. I feel the beat. . Please play for me. The rhythm stirs Inside my head. Dance with me tonight. Your song instead. Made for sin. It moves my feet. Dance with me tonight.DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT I feel the music From deep within.

So hold them tight. What younger ones can’t fare. . They’ll wish we stopped you just in time. Help them push the pain aside. And let them know An early end’s no way to go.TOO SOON Gone too soon. It’s sad to know your time is done. To make sure you were still here. We older folks can tolerate. But many will always care. Though your beauty will last always. We didn’t have you long. Sometimes too much to bare. Your will was not as strong. Pain can be an awful thing. So here is where they’ll stay.

Hoping you’re asleep. Too many eyes Cover me. I hold my breath. I knew you were there After all. .THE BROWN WIDOW You wait for me In the dark. Await my move. I wait till day To go your way. But you’re too quick. You’re poisonous. Why did I go? I should have paused. I approach. Hoping you snoozed. You lay still. You strike so fast.

THE TIME IS NOW Slow down. DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight. Take your time. It will be just right. Live your best life now. .

It differs from the rest. And then peaked out often. Our inner superstar Was always there inside. Remembering where it first shined. .INNER SUPERSTAR We possess it early on. Years later we get another glimpse. But often forget where it lies. Where it shines the best. After we have forgotten. Specific to each owner. Residing where it’s meant to be. Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. We get a glimpse. Dormant. take a peak. it lies inside.

Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down. Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. But then we find courage inside And turn it all around. It shows its face in elder years. Its view widens so we may see. While hiding in our youth. We make a turn on our own.LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL Life tries to take the wheel. Be patient. But we get in the way. Life’s not all a mystery. Listen for what life has in store. Without listening to what it has to say. .

Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so. I took for granted you’d be here. This I didn’t know. until tomorrow. At least. . And you’re gone. I’m so sorry I was wrong. Now tomorrow’s here.TOO LATE You were mine On borrowed time.

AHA MOMENT Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise. spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do. .

I shine brightly for all to see. When wide awake. . I can be any hue I want to be. A darker color when we fight. Black or white.COLORS OF ME There are many Shades of me. A range of shades for everything. When ready. you know. A blue for when I’m feeling low. a light yellow. A softer shade. Growing daily like the evergreen. Neon bright. Relaxed for when I sleep. I change from day-to-day. They cover you And color me. Like many colors of the rainbow. I’m an aubergine.

breathing poetry . I don’t know how Or even why. I think in rhyme. rhyming All the time. Living. The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow. It sings to me from deep inside. The sadness that you may see. Thinking. Is all poetry to me.A POET’S SONG I live in verse. And it makes up The best of me.

.BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH Just how bright Is your light. Shine from underneath? Is it dim. The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow. barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath.

. Then takes my coat. Inside that room lives poetry. Says stay awhile. And offers me its words to eat. Then sings to me In special notes. And says Please come back any day. It offers me a place to stay. It says to me. Encourages me With its warm smile.POETRY LIVES HERE A door has opened up for me. I am your friend. I open up. It sets me free. Says take a seat. It comforts me. It invites me in. It embraces me.

And I know my worth. The pleasures I possess. Curve of my waist. It’s because I am beauty. Knowing that your fears. That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss.KNOWING MY WORTH Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice. The comfort of my embrace. offend. The knowledge I give. Shape of my thighs. The wisdom I possess. I am woman. I am life. . or shock you. The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back. I can erase? If I frighten.

OF ALL BEINGS Fellow women of today. Forgetting it. We are the best of all beings. . Rewarded with so many qualities. One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth. you should abhor. Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man.

THE LONG ROAD HOME I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead. Did mostly as I pleased. . Thinking of how it will be. Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me. I can’t wait for mine. Held some hands along the way. A sight I almost see. What a lovely ride. I smile and hold it inside. Every road must come to an end. Happiness and long-lost friends. My destination is on my mind.

As if saying to me. It is today. “Your time is here. Giving the breeze What it needs. The signs are there For you to see. “The time has come For you to leave.THE SOUND OF SIGNS I hear the birds chirping.” The tree breaths.” The willow weeps. Close your eyes. Listen closely. As if to say. Sounds fully. .

What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot. What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man. This is not a test. .A CALL TO ARMS *STOP* Turn off your television set. I’ve grabbed my pen. It’s not too late. Or we all lose.

Beside the bed. My home is where I leave my heart.HOME My home is where I lay my head And pray at night. Though we’re apart. My home may just be with you. My home can be one place or a few. Where happiness lives Indefinitely. My home is where I chose to be. Where true love lives. .

THE BETTER PRIZE The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade. It passes instantly. A trick used to confuse the mind. So easy to believe a lie. We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone. Open your foolish eyes. Should crown our lover’s throne. Although it seems quite odd. We turn away. . Ignorant to what’s inside. And miss out on the better prize. This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet. But what lies inside. The better prize. And in our haste.

Spirit. Try to balance both and remain whole. I’ve seen this day before. And I know more will surely come. that’s the way life goes. Save some work. My body’s weary. . add some play. Time to sit and rest my mind.RELAXING MY MIND Been a long day. I remember to relax today. Unfortunately. But I know things will be fine. I’m tired already. too.

Surrounded by my friends. It must lie somewhere else. I’ve given up on happiness. Why won’t it set me free? . Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free. I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been. It should be tired of me. Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me. And pray trouble runs out of time. So I continue to Keep hope alive. And I know nothing else.TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME Trouble road begins at my door. Where all is calm. and I stay safe.

As I brace For the crash. And then thank God I learned to fly. Look to the sky. You’re driving too fast. No space for me. Even the belt Won’t keep me safe. . You’re speeding now. You smile at me And hit the gas. To ride with you. Without your brakes. There is no room. Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape.THE GREATEST ESCAPE Slow down for me. How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on. I close my eyes. Away I go To a better place.

THE FALL Land mines. Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two. Worried about the fall. Worried I’ll be found. Afraid to make a sound. afterall. . So much to lose. Covering your insides. Can never take the leap. The snipers waiting for that clear shot. I wait until it’s dark. everything I’ve got. Premeditated steps I take with no regrets.

Scared to make a move. We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go.MAKING MOVES Every now and then. Don’t be scared to let go. You’re right where you need to be. We wish for the best. Take a step and not look back. Hope our move won’t make a mess. Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know. Then we realize The move was just right. Don’t be afraid. Do what you say. Make your move. That moment is meant just for you To make your move. . And we’re finally on track.

It never waits. . I’ve already won the race.WINNING THE RACE I’ve wasted too much time. Life just passes by. And now half my life’s Just floated away. The final bell has rung. I never saw the signs. It’s time to take my rightful place. And now the time is here For me to finally shine. My eyes are opened wide. Or what they tried to say. Although my mouth is closed. Light miles ahead. Focused on today.

But we’re just friends. The times we share. . You listen when I talk. A true friend.TRUE FRIENDS I call you. Taking it all in. You call me. Even when I want to vent About nothing at all. You know I’m really into it. You always take my call. I need you to show me Just how I should be. It’s so innocent. I’m glad I have you in my life. indeed. Because when I need someone to vent to. And I need you there.

There are times When we may find Some things troubling. . Often times Those little things Should remain a secret. And what things we should keep.KEEPING SECRETS Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing. We need to learn What to say.

WITHOUT DOUBTS
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.

ANGER
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.

MY MOVES
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.

So much to do. Hold the door. No more sitting still for me today. I’m coming in! . Too much for me to hold inside. Ready for me to begin. So little time.FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD Listen up! I got lots to say.

When you come for me. I’m tired today. . I won’t be sad. Waiting for you to take me to some other place. I will be ready. This life has gotten really bad. I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go. When you come for me. When you come for me. In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again. I’m looking forward to the trip ahead.WHEN YOU COME FOR ME When you come for me.

A MERE SMUDGE I’m a smudge on your window pane. Giving in to your every want and need. Desire being my excuse. Can’t get rid of me. Just how a smudge succeeds. but don’t know what to say. You open up. . Guess I’m in too deep. Loving the way That I confuse.

” I take a sip. But I’m the one that pays the toll. Not knowing poison’s inside. Drink my wine. I try and try To live your life. You say. That I can’t survive on my own. . Locked away indefinitely. accept your smile. You say it’ll never be. “Celebrate with me. A prisoner’s life is what I lead. Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape.A PRISONER’S LIFE I want to be free.

Make your move. It hit me hard. Decision time tonight. And That’s just what I’ll do. Close your eyes. A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go. it’ll be done. No one to help me with this one.AT A CROSSROADS Here I am. Either way. I’ll guide you. . I hear. All at once. And I finally see. Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be.

Too scared to move.DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY Sad songs are all I heard. I’ve got to drive those blues away. Arguments. So they don’t live here no more. From this life I need more. Happiness and joyful days. Year after year. They silenced all the tears. Awkward distance. They didn’t live here. And I held on. Mainly out of fear. I can’t always be afraid. .

HOW How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning? .

But … It. too. too. Taking over everything. Making you believe you died. And pain’s waiting At another’s door. shall pass. SHALL PASS Pain can’t last forever.IT. It. Because nothing ever lasts Of pain. Till only it survives. . shall pass. TOO. Consuming who it occupies. That bell it rings. It’s got places to go.

HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE I try to hold my head above water. I suit up for the war. Fight to keep it all in order. Holding onto my pride. And I fight with my head high. Every day is a fight for me. For the misery in store. Try not to let the weight get me down. But the price I pay is worth being free. . Try to turn it all around.

All the while hiding ours. Such a wicked game to play. Skirt the blame. We don’t see What lies within. Point fingers. . Believing those wicked smiles. Our downfall in the end. Mistakes that others seem to make. So afraid of being called out our name. It’s become customary To point out all the flaws. Although we are among friends.OUR DOWNFALL We are a sad society: So quick to judge.

. Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be.BEING FREE I won’t let you change who I am. The only way truly to be free.

Just the way a record does. Now it’s time for me to grow. Concentrating on what I’m meant to do. Time for me to shine. What treasures lied within. Forgot who I was inside. This thought had become commonplace. Picked up where I had left off.MY WORLD Sometime ago I lost myself. My eyes are open now. Don’t know how long it’s been. Remembering who I was. . My world finally mine. I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine. It’s how I lived my life.

Although it tries to hide. It’s there. I know. See … I’m making it my goal.MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine. Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine. .

My spirit nearly broken. So glad that I had faith. But I’m on the mend.NEARLY BROKEN Thought it was the end of me. But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat. . As the pieces began to mend. My mind said all was lost. Thought there was no escape. Hope not within my reach. I begin again. Nearly broken.

She knows how much I meant to her. She’s beautiful And full of life. and a wife. the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while. A mother. . She’s happy.MY FRIEND Oh. That friend I’ve found is me. daughter. She loves me more than anything. Because she knows her worth.

The stories they tell Without saying a word. Saying everything With just a smirk.THE SMILE AND THE FROWN Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown. . One right-side up. The other upside down.

Instead. . I’d rather have my love with me. I’ll forever mourn. Loosen your lover’s grip.REMAINING LONELY Loneliness. The love I lost. Memories barely keep me warm. have mercy on me. I remain lonely. Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip.

What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside? . Visualize it’s there In front of you. Take a sigh. Imagine your worst fear. Close your eyes.FEAR INSIDE I challenge you To sit in silence.

EMMA LEE
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.

FREEDOM
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.

TODAY
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.

Waiting once more. I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time. So here I sit.WAITING All I do Is wait around for you. feelings are no big deal. My time no longer mine. I should say How I feel. But to you. Until you walk through my door. .

.SINGING TODAY FOR YOU Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time. Because this I’m thankful for. you know. So I sing today for you.

I’m not listening anyway. . Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out. I don’t care what you have to say. Yet your mouth moves constantly.NOT LISTENING Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago. Though I don’t listen any more.

Taking in all you see. And what I’m meant to be. You watch and study me. You know me Better Than I ever could know.WINDOW TO MY SOUL I see you Through the window to my soul. Looking through The window to my soul. Loving everything I am. .

You’re pretty for a black girl. Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud? You’re pretty for a black girl. What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me? You’re pretty for a black girl. Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more. Thank you for letting me know.PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL You’re pretty for a black girl. Am I supposed to smile. Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth. .

Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen. Thought I should let you know. you know. Beauty lying inside and out.FOR MY SISTERS My sister. you are beautiful. . Thought I should tell you so.

THE TIME IS NOW The only time we have is now. To show each other why we’re here. Even if we’ve forgotten. To feel how it should be. The time we have is now. Seeing all we’re meant to see. This place we’ve gotten to somehow. . To share all we’ve got.

She writes poetry. Her first publication was a short story entitled. Glonka. . and songs. “The Amazing Mr.BIO Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school. She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons.” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten. short stories.