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and Jaden.For my boys. Devante. Mom . Make your mark. I love you. The world is yours. Blake. Brandon.
CONTENTS Title Page Copyright Page LOVE Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone .
The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You .
LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me LIFE I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song .
Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How .
It. too. Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now .
I make your food. Handle with care. As you breathe. Wash your clothes. Bake your bread. I leave my mark. Be your lover and more. Clean the floors. I smile for you. I live for you At your command. You are my light Through the dark. My world expands.LOVING YOU As you awake. . What lovers do. Giving you more than my last. By loving you. I do it all. For you. All you have to do is ask.
Only anger in this place. heartless. Rotten to the very core. . Blacker than the darkest night. Bitter through and through. All thanks to you. My evil eyes are full of spite. Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth.THANKS TO YOU Cold. The monster made. All thanks to you.
You didn’t have to say a word.WITHOUT WORDS I know you like what you see. Your gaze has only reached my thighs. it heaves to my surprise. I feel your hands all over me. . Caress my cheek from where you stand. Licking your lips. My chest. I see your eyes start at my feet. I kiss your lips. Felling the heat between you and me. I see the way you look at me. Now face-to-face. I quench your thirst. And still not a word. woman and man. My hips move to your beat. Don’t have to say a word. you lift your hand. And you haven’t said a word.
. You’ve taken all I have to give. Bare for all to see. just wasted time. I shed my skin. And now my shell is all I have. I gave my all for you to live. It’s over now. The rest gone down the drain. My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. My end is here. Requesting more so you can live. Still shaded by your tree. And you never saw me. Emptied my soul. The foolishness I left behind. But you don’t see me.WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME Here I stand out in front. The years I lost.
A constant cold stuns my heart. Existing even after the end. We bring forth our new ecstasy. Our love is blossoming for all to see. Please stay a while. You are my fall. We from the start. it’s just you and me. A smile that warms the coldest night. You are my spring. In the end it was always us. The heat I crave to feel at night. You are my winter. . We have grown together. No you and I. You are my summer. living long it must.SEASONS OF LOVE A light is shining bright. A love so grand. All is still. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh. built-in trust.
Not bottle it up inside of me. . Just let me be. my worst fear. Just let this pain pierce my skin. I killed your love for me. just let me be. I need the anger.BROKEN Please. Don’t want you to dry my eyes. I need to feel the pain inside of me. So. You must understand my need to be here. Don’t want happiness here again. oh please. The damage done won’t disappear. please. I want to cry. I’ve got to let the burn roam free.
I would call in sick. gazing upon your face. . Sitting by your side. Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. Wash your feet Late that night. I would make a meal For you and me. That I’d never leave.MY LAST DAY I would wake up a little late. Our fingers intertwined. Feed you by hand. You on my mind. Me in your heart. Forever stay. I’d say. I would promise you. Silently gazing In your eyes. It would always be this way. Make love to you without saying a word. Enjoy the day. My love always. Hold your hand. No worry about what could be heard. Open my eyes.
.That’s how I would spend My last day.
I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you. You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. . Through thick and thin when times are hard. So when you’re mad as hell. if you yell. Face so mean. And I will always show up. I’ll show up. I’ll show up. You spit my name With twisted face. I will show up. just know I won’t be walking out the door. I’ll show up. The very last one to show up.I WILL SHOW UP If I yell. You curse and scream. it will be us. Till this life ends. You see I gave my word in front of God.
it’s what you heard. Just take me on into the room. You can find someone else to fill those shoes. Cover me with ecstasy. Don’t want to chill or hang with you. . I’m telling you. And give me what I need. Not here to be your girl tonight. So close your lips and take my hand. Just here for me to feel alright.WHAT I NEED No. It’s not my place to be her for you. Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do. No. And give me what I need. I don’t want to be your girl. Yeah. Lie down with me in this moment. we don’t have to talk or say a word.
My glow shines through the darkness.LOVE ALL OVER ME Smiling all twenty four. Cannot be dimmed. . And I will forge ahead. Brighter than the night’s sky. Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me. I color the winter’s night. I will remain. I am love. Brightness everlasting. I am the Milky Way. After the end.
HYPNOTIZED Fine As the darkest wine. I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized. . Intoxicating.
A part-time love is not enough. Not just the night-time one you sell. I fear. God. . I’ll hold it down and set you free. Just like the day before.SETTING YOU FREE Here I wait Today for you. Love shouldn’t have to be this rough. Don’t sell away your half from me. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man. I know my needs fall on deaf ears. A dozen women for a dime. Can’t compete with street life. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol. Why do I compete With the streets. as well.
time for hell again. At 10:30. and I love you more than anything. I’m coming back. Pray to God that I don’t cry. hell begins. Although the truth lies elsewhere. I hold on tight for the ride.HELL AND BACK I go through hell to be with you. Say forgive me this time. Nice at 8. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry. Time to put me back on track. And try to make it back from hell again. nasty at 10. Maybe this time is the last time. You say you’re sorry all the time. . At 11:30. But it’s 1. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry. Swinging and swaying to your moods.
If the perfect one waits somewhere for you.SEARCHING Where are you? Are you searching for me. Even met some dogs. Not giving up. still searching. I wonder if you’re like me. Kissed so many frogs. too? I’ve been waiting oh so long. too. And also trying to find me. But my conviction still remains strong. . Out there trying to see. I pray that you’re still looking.
It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything. It smiles at you and then frowns. Love pulls you in. So hold on tight. Enjoy the ride.LOVE’S SURPRISE Sometimes love throws you a curve. And surprises you with no regrets. . Sometimes love takes broader shape. It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect. It flows outside the lines. Refuses to be confined. then drops you down. Can pick you up and be complete. But love can also be so sweet. and Evaporates to your dismay. It takes you up. Pretends to stay. And just await your love’s surprise.
I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time. Standing tall. It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined. Give me the world. Just what I’m meant to do.WE LIFT EACH OTHER You lift me up For the world to see. by my side. I tell you you’re The best at what you do. Tell me it’s all mine. The queen I’m meant to be. . Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do. You show me how Real love should be with you. And I rule the roost. So glad to have you In my life.
. All others be damned.THE WARNING It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you. Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile. Pretend to care. But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy. You’re having fun. Curse my name. You had a plan all the while. You pile it on Because I can take it. Say some words. And then not care Who you hurt. And try to break me. Because your plan is number one.
The joy and laughter every night. The happiness I felt inside. The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared.” . I’d say to you. “Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared. I’d miss everything. About you. “My darling.MISSING YOU “What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say.
You’re with me On my way. Separating you from the rest. your scent. That fragrence I know so well.YOU WEAR IT WELL I wear you on my sleeve. you know. Whether at work or at play. So distinct. . Not Ivory or Irish Spring. You line the pleats of my skirt. Whether night or day. And you wear it well. An aroma only you possess. It’s not cologne or soap. I inhale you on my shirt. You follow me Through the day. That essence that I smell. Take you when I leave.
Alone is not what we do. . Like children Not yet grown. We hurt. Can’t make it on our own. Realizing It won’t work apart. The shit we say. We laugh. And then we pray. Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through.NOT ALONE The games we play.
This much I truly know. A prize for all to see. Order lives where chaos dwelled. I brought a new place for you. I’m proud to see what you’ve become. A freshness for our start. Because you are the best of me. . Your life tells me so. The light replaced the dark. And I know I make up the best of you. With me.THE BEST OF ME I make up the best of you. You don’t need to say it.
But that kink. Looking okay. . Thinking that you’re done. Although repaired.TRUST It’s like a broken fence: When mended. you still see that link. Will forever change the way I now look at you. The chain contains a kink. You try to move along. Hoping things are as good as new. you see.
Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love. . You don’t even see.SHADES OF ME How can you not love me. I fear you love yourself More than you love me. With eyes of auburn. For the chocolate and the caramel. Skin of chocolate.
LOVE’S ESCAPE I know where your happiness lies. . I take you to another place. A world that rivals Disneyland. A world where only you escape: A world of beaches. And I wait With your love’s escape. It’s embedded between my thighs. Powder-white sand. I’m ready now.
Is not simple In my eyes. To live in hell Or go be free. .THE CHOICE The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. A place Finally to be me. Though simple it may be. Not so simple to me. A simple choice It may seem.
No matter what a friend may say. I truly thought you understood. Don’t forget yesterday. So it may seem. Although you’re okay today.DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY Every time it’s going good. That voice appears and says. Face twisted mean. Did you forget yesterday? The screaming and the yelling. Yesterday. Did you forget yesterday? A friend today. an enemy. .
. Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess. Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I. to be with you? I can’t say no. Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve.WHAT WE DESERVE Do you deserve All that I do. Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me. You can’t say yes.
No time to cry. Fully awake. So. And I’m not the one for you. We tried to make it work. . Because I see the truth. Truth is you’re not the one for me. But. You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. Your true love awaits.THE TRUTH I’m sad today. it’s not meant to be. It may just be Around the corner. But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you. I know it’s not what you want to hear. Another smiling face. Life alone brings doubts and fears. dry your eyes. I fear.
There would be no other for you. We’d never fight. In a perfect world. In a perfect world. You’d hold me tight. Your love to give For me always. Sadly. You’d forever stay. It’d be you and I. You’d only have eyes for me. And sit by my side. . Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem. I’d always be right.A PERFECT WORLD In a perfect world. You’d agree with me. today it’s not that way. And I can only dream. In a perfect world. I’d be all you see.
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.
FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.
LYING IN WAIT I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies. . Women are cunning creatures you know. Believed that when you closed the door. Pretend I’m okay inside. You should have never estimated The power of my mind. For the right time. We lie in wait. The perfect moment to strike. It is so easy for me to smile. It was fine to say goodbye. We plot our moves From the go.
I can’t forget what we had. That’s too damn bad. Because you set me free. You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had. Hoping it’s not too late.MOVING ON I wait for you in the lot. But I fear your mind’s made up. . Because it’s all I know. Now I sit and wait for you. Thought the day would never come. Where I said I’d be. Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day. When you would let me go. It hurts to be in this spot.
You look into my eyes. It’s not enough for me. Give me no reply. Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte. And sleep.NOT YOUR FORTE I tell you I need more. . But I don’t think It will ever be. I ask you all the time To treat me like I need.
But … I wanted you. so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show. Although I know the truth. Alone with the truth after the fall.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. . What I see Is not really you. And now I sit. For the real you can never love me. How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all.
But time will tell. You say you don’t care. you think you know it all. Make your move. hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. Yeah. . And please. Think it’s all a big game. Go ahead. You’re gonna miss me so damn bad. The way I kissed you late at night. I really hope you find her soon. And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same. That there are many more like me. Miss what we had.A LOVE LIKE MINE You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone. So you can finally see.
Your love will kill My spirit. If I let it be. too. If that’s what I let it do. .TERMINAL LOVE Your love will be The end of me. Your love will make Me lose my mind. If I let it inside. Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me.
They don’t have to cost a thing. I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do. Ignoring all the rest. And that I deserve the best. Holding my hand.THE LITTLE THINGS It’s the little things I appreciate. To live this life with you. . It’s great to be by your side. Showing me the man That you’re proud to be. You tell me that I’m beautiful. You’re blind to all that temptation outside.
.LOVING ME My anger grows. My spirit knows It’s your fault. I finally love me more that you do. Because you need to be first. My spirit grows. You discourage me. Don’t want to hear my words. I’m the one who made you into you. You don’t encourage me. Because all you thought about was you. I let you do what you want to. And it’s your fault. And it’s my fault. My anger knows It’s my fault.
But it won’t knock at my door. Though it doesn’t live here no more. Although it’s not yet mine. I will wait for love. Because it waits somewhere for me. I still believe in love. . I lay out the welcome mat for love. Because I see it all the time. I will wait for love. I’m a fan of love. Because someday love will set me free. I still believe in love. Although it doesn’t live here. I’d sit in the stands and cheer.A FAN OF LOVE I am a fan of love. I lay out the welcome mat for love.
A visitor from another place. Maybe that cloth Really is the same. When I don’t even know your name. Tell me why you’re in my space. You try to live in my realty. But you won’t show your face. Yet you came. Your world is nothing like The one I’m from.A DIFFERENT CLOTH Cut from a different cloth. and you try To become you and I. If only in our eyes. But we’re not meant to be. . You and I are not the same. I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come.
I don’t know why I ask for truth. . Honesty is within your reach. It’s nowhere inside of you. So glad to have this new breakthrough. To do what I have to do.PROMISES Promises you fail to keep Are all I have. Though the shitty lies you grab.
NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE You can’t see me Past your superiority. But I’m tired of playing Your sick. . Not taking your shit any more. There’s no you and me in us for you. It’s your way or the door. I’m like a moth to your flame. I’m sick to hell of being under your spell. I try and try to be What you want from me. twisted game.
. Because you have to be first.WINNING THE RACE I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight. Can’t let me be in front. We’ll never be face-to-face. You sprint along. Because we both want to win the race. Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath. Two peas of a different pod. First place is a space we both want. Trying to keep up. now by my side.
Co-existence is the only power You hold over me. I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections.POWER Looking through rose-colored glasses. I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely. .
Why don’t I feel comfortable.SING FOR YOU Why don’t I sing for you? A good question. Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts. . indeed. Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for. but the one I should let go.
The jokes are all at my expense. I laugh along in my defense. how you love to tell your lovely lies. Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh. . Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love. Just break your chains. Let loose your hold of me. Love. And set me free.LOVE Love. Love. What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh.
. With nothing else. Family meant we were whole. A time I surely miss. Even when times were tough? It got you through. When unity was a goal. Surviving by itself.REMEMBERING LOVE Remember when Love was enough. A time of unrivaled bliss.
hours. And here we are In elder years. Turning into weeks. I look elsewhere instead. Still alone. The seconds. you grin. I smile. You stare at the floor. We drift together. Because we never speak.LOST LIVES Here we go again. So much to say. . You try to read my face. minutes. I hold my breath. And we’ve both paid the cost. So much to say. Our whole lives lost. days. Yet nothing was said. But nothing’s said. Just like the day before.
My wife. With you is where my heart lies. I try my best. . I think of you before I rest. Although I seldom tell you so. You are the reason why I work so hard. Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said: I can’t live my life without Having you by my side. How I cherish you.MY WIFE You bought me flowers today: Roses. pink and red.
KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS I lose a piece of me every day. How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her. Call her a bitch. . Curse her name. Or use my fists. But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside. I disappear with every word you say. And you think they’re just words.
A perfect world For him and me. No one else would matter. . That man I made for me.THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME Oh. It wouldn’t matter if they were his. And even love my kids. He’d cherish them because they were mine. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often. Put me before himself. Live together happily. I wouldn’t want for anything. He’d always take care of me. He’d love every part of me. He wouldn’t see anyone else. He’d cherish the ground I walked on.
I PUT YOU FIRST You’ve been there Since day one. I lead My life in Your hands. as I carry on. Whether I am right or wrong. And I’ll always put you first. Bring me light after the dark. I put you first. . And so. I put you first. You guide. I have a faithful friend. Let me laugh after I’ve cried. You let me fall. Get me through to a new start. Lord. that’s the way it will be. so I may rise. You’re by my side. this is why I will believe With Your Word. Supporting me until the end. In you. I put your first. And so. And so. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day. Guiding me along the way.
Says what I think before I do. He has my unwavering faith. He knows the goings on inside of me. he’s taken hold. predicts my moves. He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break. I don’t know nothing anymore. I think he’s psychic see. And I thought I knew it all.FAITH He came today and shook my soul. . He is the Lord above. He knows my mind. With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day. He’s got my map. the path I walk. My whole world. Mouths the words before I talk.
You can’t contain What will remain. Rains down on me. It’s impossible to hide a lie. Sets me free.LIES AND TRUTH The truth is the light. No matter how hard you try. It shines so bright. I would have told you so. Won’t stay inside. If asked. A cover will not work. you know. A lie won’t hide. .
So that confidence. The chains are gone. The square peg now fits the hole. ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be. Took years to find. I got it now. powering my soul.REALIZATION The beauty of it all. Who I am inside. but now I see The truth I bought now sold. I can’t lie low. Realizing who I am. Screaming to me in my own song. Has built a wall that can’t be broken. Now I’m free. . Yes. For the entire world to see. Flipping a script You no longer own. Was in a fog. Can’t keep me down no more.
It’s all around.ENDING THE PAIN This world of pain. through the fog I can’t see. too. Everywhere. Staining the air. breathlessly. finally. A better place awaits me. I try to fight. The pain will end. So I say my last goodbye. But. All consuming. So much to bear. I’ll be with you forever now. Now is the end for me. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today. Stealing my light. . Like the way That evil does. And I cannot escape. Killing my mind And spirit.
Guess I’ll listen to radio instead. So I block it and stay inside. same old thing.CHANGING ME I couldn’t watch the news today. . I’ll start my fight by changing me. Enough to drive the sane insane. Live by his word and let him see. Everyone’s fighting or arguing. Can’t let this dark swallow my light. I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. Someone’s missing. For fear of what it might say. It calls to me and screams my name. Start my task with one woman. Or found dead. But radio’s no better. I vow to do the best I can.
Now I’m gone. .BREAKING FREE I try to cut the pain away. After all the blood had dried. I took the pain away with me. Finally free. I had to go because it stayed. The one underneath’s too tough. The pain inside just wouldn’t die. Although it hurt. I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay. But blood is not enough. I’m the one it killed. I couldn’t cry. The pain still wouldn’t go away. Now my pain has gone away. Cutting deeper still. I pierce the layer that I see.
I held you tight and kissed your cheek. By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away. You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues. Before you were inside. Although you were not yet mine. For the other half of you. .MY SON SHINES Long ago I dreamt of you. I feared it was not true. I stood tall. Only the mixture that I needed. Here I stand forever. A battle I couldn’t lose. The love I thought I had to have. But through it all.
me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me. Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me. . Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know.KNOWING ME Do you really know who I am.
Dance with me tonight. Dance with me tonight. Dance with me tonight. I feel the beat. It moves my feet. Made for sin. Your song instead. . Please play for me. The rhythm stirs Inside my head.DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT I feel the music From deep within. My arms they sway That away. It moves my hips.
To make sure you were still here. We older folks can tolerate.TOO SOON Gone too soon. But many will always care. We didn’t have you long. It’s sad to know your time is done. They’ll wish we stopped you just in time. What younger ones can’t fare. Help them push the pain aside. Your will was not as strong. So hold them tight. Pain can be an awful thing. And let them know An early end’s no way to go. So here is where they’ll stay. Though your beauty will last always. Sometimes too much to bare. .
I approach. You lay still. Hoping you’re asleep. Await my move. You strike so fast. You’re poisonous.THE BROWN WIDOW You wait for me In the dark. I knew you were there After all. But you’re too quick. . Why did I go? I should have paused. Too many eyes Cover me. Hoping you snoozed. I wait till day To go your way. I hold my breath.
Take your time. Live your best life now. It will be just right.THE TIME IS NOW Slow down. DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight. .
Dormant. it lies inside. And then peaked out often. Our inner superstar Was always there inside. Years later we get another glimpse. Where it shines the best. It differs from the rest.INNER SUPERSTAR We possess it early on. Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. We get a glimpse. After we have forgotten. Remembering where it first shined. Specific to each owner. Residing where it’s meant to be. . take a peak. But often forget where it lies.
LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL Life tries to take the wheel. Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down. Life’s not all a mystery. . Without listening to what it has to say. Listen for what life has in store. Its view widens so we may see. But we get in the way. We make a turn on our own. Be patient. But then we find courage inside And turn it all around. While hiding in our youth. It shows its face in elder years.
Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so. At least. I’m so sorry I was wrong. Now tomorrow’s here. I took for granted you’d be here. . And you’re gone.TOO LATE You were mine On borrowed time. until tomorrow. This I didn’t know.
.AHA MOMENT Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise. spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do.
When wide awake. A darker color when we fight. A blue for when I’m feeling low. a light yellow. . Like many colors of the rainbow. Neon bright. A range of shades for everything. A softer shade. When ready. Black or white. Relaxed for when I sleep. I change from day-to-day.COLORS OF ME There are many Shades of me. I can be any hue I want to be. They cover you And color me. Growing daily like the evergreen. I shine brightly for all to see. I’m an aubergine. you know.
I think in rhyme. I don’t know how Or even why. It sings to me from deep inside. The sadness that you may see. Is all poetry to me. The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow. Living.A POET’S SONG I live in verse. And it makes up The best of me. breathing poetry . Thinking. rhyming All the time.
barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath. The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow.BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH Just how bright Is your light. Shine from underneath? Is it dim. .
It invites me in. It comforts me. I am your friend. It offers me a place to stay. Says take a seat. It embraces me. Inside that room lives poetry. And offers me its words to eat. Says stay awhile. It says to me. Then sings to me In special notes. I open up. It sets me free. . And says Please come back any day.POETRY LIVES HERE A door has opened up for me. Then takes my coat. Encourages me With its warm smile.
KNOWING MY WORTH Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice. And I know my worth. offend. The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back. I can erase? If I frighten. Knowing that your fears. I am life. The knowledge I give. That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss. Curve of my waist. The comfort of my embrace. The wisdom I possess. or shock you. I am woman. It’s because I am beauty. Shape of my thighs. The pleasures I possess. .
Forgetting it. Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man. . Rewarded with so many qualities.OF ALL BEINGS Fellow women of today. We are the best of all beings. you should abhor. One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth.
My destination is on my mind. Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me. . Every road must come to an end. A sight I almost see.THE LONG ROAD HOME I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead. Happiness and long-lost friends. Did mostly as I pleased. Held some hands along the way. What a lovely ride. Thinking of how it will be. I smile and hold it inside. I can’t wait for mine.
” The willow weeps. It is today. The signs are there For you to see. Close your eyes. “Your time is here. “The time has come For you to leave. As if saying to me.” The tree breaths. Listen closely. As if to say.THE SOUND OF SIGNS I hear the birds chirping. Sounds fully. Giving the breeze What it needs. .
Or we all lose.A CALL TO ARMS *STOP* Turn off your television set. What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man. . I’ve grabbed my pen. What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot. It’s not too late. This is not a test.
. Where true love lives. Though we’re apart. My home can be one place or a few. My home is where I leave my heart. Where happiness lives Indefinitely. My home may just be with you.HOME My home is where I lay my head And pray at night. My home is where I chose to be. Beside the bed.
But what lies inside. This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet. And in our haste. The better prize. We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone. A trick used to confuse the mind. Although it seems quite odd. Should crown our lover’s throne. We turn away. And miss out on the better prize. So easy to believe a lie. . It passes instantly. Ignorant to what’s inside.THE BETTER PRIZE The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade. Open your foolish eyes.
Save some work. . And I know more will surely come. that’s the way life goes. I’ve seen this day before. Unfortunately. add some play. I’m tired already. Try to balance both and remain whole.RELAXING MY MIND Been a long day. I remember to relax today. Time to sit and rest my mind. But I know things will be fine. too. My body’s weary. Spirit.
And pray trouble runs out of time. It must lie somewhere else. Where all is calm. Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me. Why won’t it set me free? .TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME Trouble road begins at my door. and I stay safe. I’ve given up on happiness. I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been. So I continue to Keep hope alive. And I know nothing else. It should be tired of me. Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free. Surrounded by my friends.
There is no room.THE GREATEST ESCAPE Slow down for me. Away I go To a better place. I close my eyes. . Look to the sky. Without your brakes. How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on. You’re speeding now. Even the belt Won’t keep me safe. Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape. No space for me. And then thank God I learned to fly. As I brace For the crash. To ride with you. You smile at me And hit the gas. You’re driving too fast.
Covering your insides. The snipers waiting for that clear shot. So much to lose. everything I’ve got. Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two. Worried about the fall.THE FALL Land mines. Afraid to make a sound. Worried I’ll be found. I wait until it’s dark. afterall. . Premeditated steps I take with no regrets. Can never take the leap.
Then we realize The move was just right. Hope our move won’t make a mess. Make your move. Don’t be afraid. Take a step and not look back. Don’t be scared to let go. Scared to make a move. You’re right where you need to be. We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go. . Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know. And we’re finally on track.MAKING MOVES Every now and then. Do what you say. We wish for the best. That moment is meant just for you To make your move.
It never waits. Although my mouth is closed. Life just passes by. . My eyes are opened wide.WINNING THE RACE I’ve wasted too much time. Light miles ahead. Focused on today. The final bell has rung. And now half my life’s Just floated away. I never saw the signs. It’s time to take my rightful place. Or what they tried to say. I’ve already won the race. And now the time is here For me to finally shine.
TRUE FRIENDS I call you. Taking it all in. You know I’m really into it. The times we share. Because when I need someone to vent to. It’s so innocent. And I need you there. You always take my call. I’m glad I have you in my life. Even when I want to vent About nothing at all. A true friend. indeed. But we’re just friends. You listen when I talk. . I need you to show me Just how I should be. You call me.
. And what things we should keep.KEEPING SECRETS Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing. We need to learn What to say. Often times Those little things Should remain a secret. There are times When we may find Some things troubling.
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.
FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD Listen up! I got lots to say. Hold the door. So much to do. No more sitting still for me today. Too much for me to hold inside. So little time. I’m coming in! . Ready for me to begin.
I’m tired today. I won’t be sad. I’m looking forward to the trip ahead. I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go. I will be ready. . In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again. When you come for me.WHEN YOU COME FOR ME When you come for me. This life has gotten really bad. Waiting for you to take me to some other place. When you come for me. When you come for me.
A MERE SMUDGE I’m a smudge on your window pane. but don’t know what to say. Can’t get rid of me. Guess I’m in too deep. You open up. Giving in to your every want and need. Loving the way That I confuse. Just how a smudge succeeds. Desire being my excuse. .
Drink my wine. You say it’ll never be. But I’m the one that pays the toll. Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape. Locked away indefinitely. accept your smile. That I can’t survive on my own. You say.A PRISONER’S LIFE I want to be free. Not knowing poison’s inside. “Celebrate with me.” I take a sip. . A prisoner’s life is what I lead. I try and try To live your life.
It hit me hard. I’ll guide you. All at once.AT A CROSSROADS Here I am. Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be. And I finally see. it’ll be done. I hear. Close your eyes. No one to help me with this one. Decision time tonight. And That’s just what I’ll do. A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go. Make your move. Either way. .
They silenced all the tears. From this life I need more. So they don’t live here no more. They didn’t live here. Happiness and joyful days. Year after year. And I held on. . Awkward distance.DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY Sad songs are all I heard. Too scared to move. I’ve got to drive those blues away. I can’t always be afraid. Arguments. Mainly out of fear.
HOW How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning? .
too. TOO. Because nothing ever lasts Of pain. But … It. Till only it survives. . That bell it rings. Taking over everything. Consuming who it occupies. Making you believe you died. shall pass. And pain’s waiting At another’s door. It. SHALL PASS Pain can’t last forever. too. It’s got places to go. shall pass.IT.
Fight to keep it all in order. Holding onto my pride. And I fight with my head high. For the misery in store.HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE I try to hold my head above water. But the price I pay is worth being free. Try to turn it all around. I suit up for the war. Try not to let the weight get me down. Every day is a fight for me. .
We don’t see What lies within. Skirt the blame.OUR DOWNFALL We are a sad society: So quick to judge. So afraid of being called out our name. It’s become customary To point out all the flaws. All the while hiding ours. Although we are among friends. . Believing those wicked smiles. Such a wicked game to play. Mistakes that others seem to make. Point fingers. Our downfall in the end.
. Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be.BEING FREE I won’t let you change who I am. The only way truly to be free.
Concentrating on what I’m meant to do. Now it’s time for me to grow. Remembering who I was. My eyes are open now. Don’t know how long it’s been. . Picked up where I had left off. What treasures lied within. Time for me to shine. Forgot who I was inside. This thought had become commonplace. It’s how I lived my life. My world finally mine. I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine.MY WORLD Sometime ago I lost myself. Just the way a record does.
MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine. I know. Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine. . Although it tries to hide. It’s there. See … I’m making it my goal.
NEARLY BROKEN Thought it was the end of me. . Thought there was no escape. As the pieces began to mend. I begin again. Nearly broken. But I’m on the mend. My spirit nearly broken. Hope not within my reach. My mind said all was lost. So glad that I had faith. But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat.
That friend I’ve found is me. She knows how much I meant to her. Because she knows her worth. She loves me more than anything.MY FRIEND Oh. daughter. the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while. . A mother. She’s happy. She’s beautiful And full of life. and a wife.
The other upside down. One right-side up. Saying everything With just a smirk. .THE SMILE AND THE FROWN Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown. The stories they tell Without saying a word.
Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip. The love I lost. I’d rather have my love with me. Loosen your lover’s grip. Instead. Memories barely keep me warm.REMAINING LONELY Loneliness. I remain lonely. . have mercy on me. I’ll forever mourn.
Imagine your worst fear. Take a sigh. Visualize it’s there In front of you. Close your eyes. What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside? .FEAR INSIDE I challenge you To sit in silence.
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.
feelings are no big deal. I should say How I feel. But to you. . My time no longer mine. I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time. Waiting once more.WAITING All I do Is wait around for you. Until you walk through my door. So here I sit.
. Because this I’m thankful for. you know.SINGING TODAY FOR YOU Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time. So I sing today for you.
. I don’t care what you have to say.NOT LISTENING Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago. Yet your mouth moves constantly. I’m not listening anyway. Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out. Though I don’t listen any more.
You know me Better Than I ever could know. Taking in all you see. You watch and study me.WINDOW TO MY SOUL I see you Through the window to my soul. . Loving everything I am. And what I’m meant to be. Looking through The window to my soul.
Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more. Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth. Am I supposed to smile.PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL You’re pretty for a black girl. . You’re pretty for a black girl. Thank you for letting me know. Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud? You’re pretty for a black girl. What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me? You’re pretty for a black girl.
Beauty lying inside and out. Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen. . Thought I should tell you so. Thought I should let you know.FOR MY SISTERS My sister. you are beautiful. you know.
To share all we’ve got. To feel how it should be. To show each other why we’re here. . Seeing all we’re meant to see. This place we’ve gotten to somehow.THE TIME IS NOW The only time we have is now. The time we have is now. Even if we’ve forgotten.
Her first publication was a short story entitled.BIO Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school. Glonka. . “The Amazing Mr. and songs. short stories. She writes poetry. She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons.” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten.
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