Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved. ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition .

Brandon. I love you. Mom . The world is yours. Blake. and Jaden.For my boys. Devante. Make your mark.

CONTENTS Title Page Copyright Page LOVE Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone .

The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You .

LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me LIFE I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song .

Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How .

too. Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now .It.


I leave my mark. I make your food. . As you breathe. Wash your clothes. I smile for you.LOVING YOU As you awake. For you. Bake your bread. Be your lover and more. My world expands. All you have to do is ask. Giving you more than my last. Handle with care. What lovers do. You are my light Through the dark. I live for you At your command. Clean the floors. I do it all. By loving you.

Rotten to the very core. Blacker than the darkest night. . All thanks to you. My evil eyes are full of spite. All thanks to you. The monster made. Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth.THANKS TO YOU Cold. Only anger in this place. Bitter through and through. heartless.

Don’t have to say a word. I kiss your lips. you lift your hand. You didn’t have to say a word. And you haven’t said a word. I see your eyes start at my feet. Caress my cheek from where you stand. Felling the heat between you and me. Licking your lips. I see the way you look at me. My hips move to your beat. . woman and man. My chest. And still not a word. I feel your hands all over me. Your gaze has only reached my thighs.WITHOUT WORDS I know you like what you see. Now face-to-face. it heaves to my surprise. I quench your thirst.

I gave my all for you to live. It’s over now. And you never saw me. And now my shell is all I have. I shed my skin. You’ve taken all I have to give. Still shaded by your tree. My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. The years I lost. Emptied my soul. The foolishness I left behind. just wasted time. . But you don’t see me.WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME Here I stand out in front. Requesting more so you can live. My end is here. Bare for all to see. The rest gone down the drain.

No you and I. A smile that warms the coldest night.SEASONS OF LOVE A light is shining bright. You are my winter. We from the start. built-in trust. You are my fall. . The heat I crave to feel at night. You are my summer. We have grown together. living long it must. Please stay a while. Our love is blossoming for all to see. A constant cold stuns my heart. A love so grand. We bring forth our new ecstasy. Existing even after the end. In the end it was always us. You are my spring. All is still. it’s just you and me. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh.

my worst fear. Just let this pain pierce my skin. . You must understand my need to be here. oh please. I need the anger. I’ve got to let the burn roam free. I killed your love for me. I need to feel the pain inside of me. please. Just let me be. So. Don’t want happiness here again.BROKEN Please. Not bottle it up inside of me. Don’t want you to dry my eyes. I want to cry. just let me be. The damage done won’t disappear.

Silently gazing In your eyes. No worry about what could be heard. I would make a meal For you and me. Hold your hand.MY LAST DAY I would wake up a little late. Enjoy the day. Sitting by your side. My love always. Me in your heart. . Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. gazing upon your face. You on my mind. I would promise you. Our fingers intertwined. Wash your feet Late that night. That I’d never leave. I’d say. I would call in sick. Feed you by hand. Make love to you without saying a word. It would always be this way. Forever stay. Open my eyes.

That’s how I would spend My last day. .

it will be us.I WILL SHOW UP If I yell. Till this life ends. I’ll show up. I’ll show up. Through thick and thin when times are hard. You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. And I will always show up. I will show up. The very last one to show up. You spit my name With twisted face. Face so mean. So when you’re mad as hell. You see I gave my word in front of God. just know I won’t be walking out the door. I’ll show up. if you yell. I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you. You curse and scream. .

So close your lips and take my hand. it’s what you heard. You can find someone else to fill those shoes. we don’t have to talk or say a word. Not here to be your girl tonight. And give me what I need. Lie down with me in this moment. Just here for me to feel alright. Cover me with ecstasy. Yeah. . No.WHAT I NEED No. Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do. I don’t want to be your girl. And give me what I need. Don’t want to chill or hang with you. It’s not my place to be her for you. Just take me on into the room. I’m telling you.

My glow shines through the darkness. I am love. Cannot be dimmed. And I will forge ahead. After the end. .LOVE ALL OVER ME Smiling all twenty four. I will remain. I am the Milky Way. Brightness everlasting. I color the winter’s night. Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me. Brighter than the night’s sky.

HYPNOTIZED Fine As the darkest wine. Intoxicating. I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized. .

God. Can’t compete with street life. Why do I compete With the streets. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man. Just like the day before. I’ll hold it down and set you free. A dozen women for a dime. Don’t sell away your half from me. as well.SETTING YOU FREE Here I wait Today for you. I know my needs fall on deaf ears. Not just the night-time one you sell. I fear. . A part-time love is not enough. Love shouldn’t have to be this rough. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol.

I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry. I’m coming back. At 10:30. Although the truth lies elsewhere. . You say you’re sorry all the time. nasty at 10. Pray to God that I don’t cry. Nice at 8. time for hell again. At 11:30. Swinging and swaying to your moods. Maybe this time is the last time. and I love you more than anything. Time to put me back on track. And try to make it back from hell again.HELL AND BACK I go through hell to be with you. Say forgive me this time. I hold on tight for the ride. But it’s 1. hell begins. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry.

Out there trying to see. I wonder if you’re like me. And also trying to find me. But my conviction still remains strong. still searching. Even met some dogs. Not giving up. I pray that you’re still looking. If the perfect one waits somewhere for you. too. too? I’ve been waiting oh so long. .SEARCHING Where are you? Are you searching for me. Kissed so many frogs.

It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything. Enjoy the ride. then drops you down. Can pick you up and be complete. . Pretends to stay. So hold on tight.LOVE’S SURPRISE Sometimes love throws you a curve. Sometimes love takes broader shape. It takes you up. And just await your love’s surprise. But love can also be so sweet. It smiles at you and then frowns. It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect. Refuses to be confined. and Evaporates to your dismay. Love pulls you in. And surprises you with no regrets. It flows outside the lines.

Standing tall. by my side. So glad to have you In my life.WE LIFT EACH OTHER You lift me up For the world to see. Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time. I tell you you’re The best at what you do. The queen I’m meant to be. And I rule the roost. I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. . It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined. Just what I’m meant to do. You show me how Real love should be with you. Tell me it’s all mine. Give me the world.

And try to break me. You had a plan all the while. But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy. You’re having fun. You pile it on Because I can take it. Because your plan is number one. All others be damned. . Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile. And then not care Who you hurt. Pretend to care. Say some words. Curse my name.THE WARNING It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you.

“My darling. About you. I’d say to you. The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared. “Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared.” .MISSING YOU “What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say. The happiness I felt inside. The joy and laughter every night. I’d miss everything.

I inhale you on my shirt. It’s not cologne or soap. Whether at work or at play. Separating you from the rest. your scent. . Not Ivory or Irish Spring. So distinct. And you wear it well. That fragrence I know so well. You follow me Through the day. That essence that I smell. You line the pleats of my skirt. Whether night or day.YOU WEAR IT WELL I wear you on my sleeve. You’re with me On my way. Take you when I leave. you know. An aroma only you possess.

We hurt. And then we pray. We laugh. The shit we say. Alone is not what we do.NOT ALONE The games we play. Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through. Can’t make it on our own. Like children Not yet grown. Realizing It won’t work apart. .

I brought a new place for you. A freshness for our start. Order lives where chaos dwelled.THE BEST OF ME I make up the best of you. This much I truly know. The light replaced the dark. Your life tells me so. A prize for all to see. And I know I make up the best of you. Because you are the best of me. . With me. You don’t need to say it. I’m proud to see what you’ve become.

Will forever change the way I now look at you. . The chain contains a kink. Looking okay. You try to move along. Thinking that you’re done.TRUST It’s like a broken fence: When mended. Hoping things are as good as new. you still see that link. you see. Although repaired. But that kink.

Skin of chocolate.SHADES OF ME How can you not love me. Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love. With eyes of auburn. You don’t even see. For the chocolate and the caramel. . I fear you love yourself More than you love me.

. It’s embedded between my thighs. I take you to another place. A world where only you escape: A world of beaches. A world that rivals Disneyland. Powder-white sand. And I wait With your love’s escape. I’m ready now.LOVE’S ESCAPE I know where your happiness lies.

To live in hell Or go be free.THE CHOICE The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. Though simple it may be. . A place Finally to be me. Is not simple In my eyes. Not so simple to me. A simple choice It may seem.

. Don’t forget yesterday. Did you forget yesterday? A friend today. I truly thought you understood. That voice appears and says. an enemy. Yesterday. Although you’re okay today. Did you forget yesterday? The screaming and the yelling. No matter what a friend may say.DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY Every time it’s going good. So it may seem. Face twisted mean.

WHAT WE DESERVE Do you deserve All that I do. Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me. Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve. You can’t say yes. Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I. Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess. to be with you? I can’t say no. .

Fully awake. Because I see the truth. No time to cry. Life alone brings doubts and fears. You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. We tried to make it work. I know it’s not what you want to hear. I fear. But.THE TRUTH I’m sad today. Your true love awaits. Another smiling face. It may just be Around the corner. . Truth is you’re not the one for me. dry your eyes. it’s not meant to be. So. But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you. And I’m not the one for you.

Sadly. today it’s not that way.A PERFECT WORLD In a perfect world. Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem. You’d hold me tight. You’d agree with me. In a perfect world. And sit by my side. In a perfect world. Your love to give For me always. It’d be you and I. . In a perfect world. And I can only dream. We’d never fight. I’d be all you see. I’d always be right. You’d forever stay. There would be no other for you. You’d only have eyes for me.

I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.

The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.

Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.

It was fine to say goodbye. It is so easy for me to smile.LYING IN WAIT I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies. The perfect moment to strike. For the right time. . Believed that when you closed the door. We lie in wait. Pretend I’m okay inside. You should have never estimated The power of my mind. Women are cunning creatures you know. We plot our moves From the go.

. When you would let me go. Now I sit and wait for you. That’s too damn bad. Hoping it’s not too late. Where I said I’d be. You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had. It hurts to be in this spot. Because you set me free. I can’t forget what we had.MOVING ON I wait for you in the lot. Because it’s all I know. But I fear your mind’s made up. Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day. Thought the day would never come.

Give me no reply. Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte. It’s not enough for me. I ask you all the time To treat me like I need. .NOT YOUR FORTE I tell you I need more. But I don’t think It will ever be. You look into my eyes. And sleep.

And now I sit. Alone with the truth after the fall. so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show. For the real you can never love me. What I see Is not really you.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all. But … I wanted you. Although I know the truth. .

But time will tell.A LOVE LIKE MINE You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone. Go ahead. I really hope you find her soon. You’re gonna miss me so damn bad. Make your move. hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. you think you know it all. That there are many more like me. Think it’s all a big game. And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same. Miss what we had. The way I kissed you late at night. So you can finally see. . You say you don’t care. And please. Yeah.

If I let it inside. Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me.TERMINAL LOVE Your love will be The end of me. Your love will make Me lose my mind. Your love will kill My spirit. If I let it be. . too. If that’s what I let it do.

Showing me the man That you’re proud to be. And that I deserve the best. Holding my hand.THE LITTLE THINGS It’s the little things I appreciate. You tell me that I’m beautiful. I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do. They don’t have to cost a thing. It’s great to be by your side. Ignoring all the rest. You’re blind to all that temptation outside. . To live this life with you.

. I let you do what you want to. Because you need to be first. Because all you thought about was you. I’m the one who made you into you. I finally love me more that you do. You discourage me. And it’s your fault. And it’s my fault. My anger knows It’s my fault. Don’t want to hear my words.LOVING ME My anger grows. My spirit knows It’s your fault. You don’t encourage me. My spirit grows.

I’d sit in the stands and cheer. Although it’s not yet mine. Because it waits somewhere for me. I will wait for love. I lay out the welcome mat for love. Because I see it all the time. I still believe in love. Though it doesn’t live here no more. I will wait for love. I lay out the welcome mat for love. . I’m a fan of love. But it won’t knock at my door. I still believe in love. Although it doesn’t live here.A FAN OF LOVE I am a fan of love. Because someday love will set me free.

Your world is nothing like The one I’m from. Yet you came. I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come. When I don’t even know your name. and you try To become you and I. If only in our eyes. But you won’t show your face. You and I are not the same. Tell me why you’re in my space. But we’re not meant to be.A DIFFERENT CLOTH Cut from a different cloth. A visitor from another place. . Maybe that cloth Really is the same. You try to live in my realty.

It’s nowhere inside of you. To do what I have to do. I don’t know why I ask for truth. So glad to have this new breakthrough. Though the shitty lies you grab. Honesty is within your reach. .PROMISES Promises you fail to keep Are all I have.

NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE You can’t see me Past your superiority. Not taking your shit any more. But I’m tired of playing Your sick. I’m sick to hell of being under your spell. I’m like a moth to your flame. It’s your way or the door. There’s no you and me in us for you. twisted game. . I try and try to be What you want from me.

First place is a space we both want. Two peas of a different pod. Because we both want to win the race. Because you have to be first.WINNING THE RACE I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight. . We’ll never be face-to-face. You sprint along. now by my side. Trying to keep up. Can’t let me be in front. Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath.

POWER Looking through rose-colored glasses. I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections. I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely. Co-existence is the only power You hold over me. .

Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts. indeed. Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for. Why don’t I feel comfortable. . but the one I should let go.SING FOR YOU Why don’t I sing for you? A good question.

Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh. Let loose your hold of me. The jokes are all at my expense. What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh. I laugh along in my defense. Love. And set me free. how you love to tell your lovely lies. .LOVE Love. Just break your chains. Love. Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love.

. A time I surely miss.REMEMBERING LOVE Remember when Love was enough. When unity was a goal. Family meant we were whole. A time of unrivaled bliss. Surviving by itself. Even when times were tough? It got you through. With nothing else.

Yet nothing was said. I smile. . And we’ve both paid the cost. hours. So much to say. You try to read my face. We drift together. The seconds.LOST LIVES Here we go again. minutes. Because we never speak. I look elsewhere instead. So much to say. Turning into weeks. Still alone. And here we are In elder years. days. I hold my breath. Just like the day before. you grin. Our whole lives lost. But nothing’s said. You stare at the floor.

Although I seldom tell you so. My wife. How I cherish you.MY WIFE You bought me flowers today: Roses. You are the reason why I work so hard. Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said: I can’t live my life without Having you by my side. . With you is where my heart lies. pink and red. I think of you before I rest. I try my best.

And you think they’re just words. . I disappear with every word you say. Or use my fists.KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS I lose a piece of me every day. Call her a bitch. How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her. Curse her name. But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside.

He’d cherish the ground I walked on. No one else would matter. He’d love every part of me. It wouldn’t matter if they were his. He wouldn’t see anyone else. And even love my kids. . He’d always take care of me. A perfect world For him and me. Live together happily. I wouldn’t want for anything. That man I made for me. He’d cherish them because they were mine. Put me before himself. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often.THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME Oh.


You’re by my side. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day. Let me laugh after I’ve cried. I lead My life in Your hands. so I may rise. And I’ll always put you first. Bring me light after the dark.I PUT YOU FIRST You’ve been there Since day one. Lord. Guiding me along the way. I put your first. . I put you first. this is why I will believe With Your Word. that’s the way it will be. You guide. Supporting me until the end. And so. And so. Get me through to a new start. Whether I am right or wrong. I have a faithful friend. And so. In you. I put you first. You let me fall. as I carry on.

With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day. I think he’s psychic see. the path I walk.FAITH He came today and shook my soul. . I don’t know nothing anymore. Mouths the words before I talk. My whole world. predicts my moves. He has my unwavering faith. And I thought I knew it all. He knows the goings on inside of me. He’s got my map. He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break. Says what I think before I do. he’s taken hold. He knows my mind. He is the Lord above.

No matter how hard you try. you know. . A cover will not work. If asked. It shines so bright. A lie won’t hide. Sets me free.LIES AND TRUTH The truth is the light. It’s impossible to hide a lie. Won’t stay inside. You can’t contain What will remain. Rains down on me. I would have told you so.

Has built a wall that can’t be broken. Yes.REALIZATION The beauty of it all. For the entire world to see. . ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be. I can’t lie low. powering my soul. but now I see The truth I bought now sold. Realizing who I am. The chains are gone. The square peg now fits the hole. Now I’m free. Took years to find. Who I am inside. I got it now. Flipping a script You no longer own. Screaming to me in my own song. Can’t keep me down no more. So that confidence. Was in a fog.

Staining the air. I’ll be with you forever now. Now is the end for me. It’s all around. A better place awaits me. All consuming.ENDING THE PAIN This world of pain. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today. But. finally. too. So much to bear. through the fog I can’t see. Stealing my light. So I say my last goodbye. . Like the way That evil does. And I cannot escape. The pain will end. breathlessly. Killing my mind And spirit. Everywhere. I try to fight.

Or found dead. It calls to me and screams my name. Can’t let this dark swallow my light. I’ll start my fight by changing me. Start my task with one woman. But radio’s no better.CHANGING ME I couldn’t watch the news today. Everyone’s fighting or arguing. I vow to do the best I can. So I block it and stay inside. For fear of what it might say. Someone’s missing. Guess I’ll listen to radio instead. same old thing. Live by his word and let him see. I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. Enough to drive the sane insane. .

. I had to go because it stayed. I took the pain away with me. I’m the one it killed.BREAKING FREE I try to cut the pain away. The one underneath’s too tough. After all the blood had dried. Now I’m gone. But blood is not enough. Although it hurt. I couldn’t cry. I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay. The pain still wouldn’t go away. Finally free. The pain inside just wouldn’t die. Now my pain has gone away. I pierce the layer that I see. Cutting deeper still.

I stood tall. Here I stand forever. By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away. Before you were inside. .MY SON SHINES Long ago I dreamt of you. But through it all. Only the mixture that I needed. I held you tight and kissed your cheek. Although you were not yet mine. The love I thought I had to have. A battle I couldn’t lose. You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues. For the other half of you. I feared it was not true.

Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know. Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me. . me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me.KNOWING ME Do you really know who I am.

My arms they sway That away. . Made for sin.DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT I feel the music From deep within. Dance with me tonight. It moves my feet. Your song instead. Dance with me tonight. It moves my hips. Please play for me. Dance with me tonight. The rhythm stirs Inside my head. I feel the beat.

Your will was not as strong. . So hold them tight. They’ll wish we stopped you just in time.TOO SOON Gone too soon. Help them push the pain aside. Sometimes too much to bare. We older folks can tolerate. Pain can be an awful thing. To make sure you were still here. And let them know An early end’s no way to go. What younger ones can’t fare. It’s sad to know your time is done. Though your beauty will last always. So here is where they’ll stay. But many will always care. We didn’t have you long.

. Hoping you snoozed. Too many eyes Cover me. Await my move. Why did I go? I should have paused. I approach. Hoping you’re asleep. You’re poisonous. But you’re too quick.THE BROWN WIDOW You wait for me In the dark. I wait till day To go your way. You lay still. I knew you were there After all. You strike so fast. I hold my breath.

THE TIME IS NOW Slow down. DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight. . Take your time. Live your best life now. It will be just right.

But often forget where it lies. Where it shines the best. Remembering where it first shined. Years later we get another glimpse. After we have forgotten. Dormant. take a peak. Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. We get a glimpse. It differs from the rest. And then peaked out often. Residing where it’s meant to be. Our inner superstar Was always there inside. . it lies inside. Specific to each owner.INNER SUPERSTAR We possess it early on.

. Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down. But we get in the way. Its view widens so we may see.LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL Life tries to take the wheel. But then we find courage inside And turn it all around. Without listening to what it has to say. Life’s not all a mystery. Be patient. Listen for what life has in store. We make a turn on our own. While hiding in our youth. It shows its face in elder years.

TOO LATE You were mine On borrowed time. Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so. I took for granted you’d be here. This I didn’t know. . until tomorrow. I’m so sorry I was wrong. Now tomorrow’s here. At least. And you’re gone.

AHA MOMENT Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise. . spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do.

a light yellow. When ready. I change from day-to-day.COLORS OF ME There are many Shades of me. A range of shades for everything. Black or white. I can be any hue I want to be. you know. Like many colors of the rainbow. A blue for when I’m feeling low. A softer shade. . Neon bright. They cover you And color me. Growing daily like the evergreen. When wide awake. I’m an aubergine. A darker color when we fight. Relaxed for when I sleep. I shine brightly for all to see.

Thinking. Living. The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow. I think in rhyme. rhyming All the time. The sadness that you may see. Is all poetry to me.A POET’S SONG I live in verse. I don’t know how Or even why. And it makes up The best of me. breathing poetry . It sings to me from deep inside.

BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH Just how bright Is your light. The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow. . barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath. Shine from underneath? Is it dim.

Inside that room lives poetry. It says to me. Says take a seat. And offers me its words to eat. It invites me in. It comforts me. . Then takes my coat. I open up. It sets me free. Encourages me With its warm smile.POETRY LIVES HERE A door has opened up for me. And says Please come back any day. It offers me a place to stay. I am your friend. Says stay awhile. It embraces me. Then sings to me In special notes.

That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss. I can erase? If I frighten. offend. I am woman. Curve of my waist. And I know my worth. The pleasures I possess. Shape of my thighs. Knowing that your fears. The wisdom I possess. .KNOWING MY WORTH Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice. The knowledge I give. It’s because I am beauty. or shock you. I am life. The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back. The comfort of my embrace.

you should abhor. Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man. We are the best of all beings. One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth. Forgetting it. . Rewarded with so many qualities.OF ALL BEINGS Fellow women of today.

Happiness and long-lost friends.THE LONG ROAD HOME I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead. Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me. I smile and hold it inside. My destination is on my mind. Did mostly as I pleased. I can’t wait for mine. Held some hands along the way. A sight I almost see. Thinking of how it will be. Every road must come to an end. What a lovely ride. .

.” The tree breaths. “The time has come For you to leave. The signs are there For you to see. It is today. Listen closely. As if saying to me. Sounds fully.” The willow weeps. “Your time is here. As if to say. Giving the breeze What it needs.THE SOUND OF SIGNS I hear the birds chirping. Close your eyes.

A CALL TO ARMS *STOP* Turn off your television set. This is not a test. What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot. . I’ve grabbed my pen. What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man. It’s not too late. Or we all lose.

Though we’re apart. .HOME My home is where I lay my head And pray at night. Where happiness lives Indefinitely. My home is where I chose to be. Where true love lives. Beside the bed. My home can be one place or a few. My home is where I leave my heart. My home may just be with you.

This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet. We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone. A trick used to confuse the mind. But what lies inside. So easy to believe a lie. Ignorant to what’s inside. The better prize.THE BETTER PRIZE The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade. It passes instantly. We turn away. And miss out on the better prize. Although it seems quite odd. And in our haste. . Should crown our lover’s throne. Open your foolish eyes.

Unfortunately. And I know more will surely come. My body’s weary. I’m tired already.RELAXING MY MIND Been a long day. Try to balance both and remain whole. . I remember to relax today. I’ve seen this day before. But I know things will be fine. too. Spirit. Save some work. that’s the way life goes. add some play. Time to sit and rest my mind.

Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me.TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME Trouble road begins at my door. Why won’t it set me free? . Where all is calm. and I stay safe. So I continue to Keep hope alive. And I know nothing else. I’ve given up on happiness. It must lie somewhere else. Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free. It should be tired of me. I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been. Surrounded by my friends. And pray trouble runs out of time.

I close my eyes.THE GREATEST ESCAPE Slow down for me. You’re driving too fast. You’re speeding now. There is no room. . Even the belt Won’t keep me safe. Away I go To a better place. You smile at me And hit the gas. And then thank God I learned to fly. Without your brakes. Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape. No space for me. To ride with you. As I brace For the crash. Look to the sky. How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on.

THE FALL Land mines. Can never take the leap. everything I’ve got. I wait until it’s dark. Premeditated steps I take with no regrets. Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two. Covering your insides. The snipers waiting for that clear shot. . Worried about the fall. afterall. Worried I’ll be found. Afraid to make a sound. So much to lose.

Don’t be afraid. . Do what you say. Then we realize The move was just right. Make your move. Scared to make a move. You’re right where you need to be. And we’re finally on track. Take a step and not look back. That moment is meant just for you To make your move. We wish for the best. We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go. Hope our move won’t make a mess. Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know.MAKING MOVES Every now and then. Don’t be scared to let go.

It never waits. It’s time to take my rightful place. I never saw the signs. My eyes are opened wide. Although my mouth is closed. . I’ve already won the race. Light miles ahead. And now the time is here For me to finally shine.WINNING THE RACE I’ve wasted too much time. The final bell has rung. And now half my life’s Just floated away. Or what they tried to say. Focused on today. Life just passes by.

. You always take my call. Taking it all in. I need you to show me Just how I should be. You call me. You listen when I talk. And I need you there. It’s so innocent. Even when I want to vent About nothing at all. A true friend. indeed. The times we share. You know I’m really into it. Because when I need someone to vent to.TRUE FRIENDS I call you. I’m glad I have you in my life. But we’re just friends.

And what things we should keep. There are times When we may find Some things troubling. We need to learn What to say. . Often times Those little things Should remain a secret.KEEPING SECRETS Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing.

The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.

I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.

“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.

Hold the door. No more sitting still for me today. So much to do.FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD Listen up! I got lots to say. I’m coming in! . So little time. Too much for me to hold inside. Ready for me to begin.

I will be ready. Waiting for you to take me to some other place. In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again. This life has gotten really bad. . I’m tired today. When you come for me. When you come for me. I won’t be sad.WHEN YOU COME FOR ME When you come for me. I’m looking forward to the trip ahead. When you come for me. I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go.

. Giving in to your every want and need. Desire being my excuse. but don’t know what to say. Guess I’m in too deep. Can’t get rid of me. You open up.A MERE SMUDGE I’m a smudge on your window pane. Just how a smudge succeeds. Loving the way That I confuse.

Locked away indefinitely.” I take a sip. I try and try To live your life. Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape. . You say. Drink my wine. A prisoner’s life is what I lead. “Celebrate with me. That I can’t survive on my own.A PRISONER’S LIFE I want to be free. Not knowing poison’s inside. You say it’ll never be. accept your smile. But I’m the one that pays the toll.

. Either way. Decision time tonight. And That’s just what I’ll do. I’ll guide you. Close your eyes. Make your move. No one to help me with this one. It hit me hard. Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be. And I finally see. it’ll be done. A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go.AT A CROSSROADS Here I am. All at once. I hear.

I can’t always be afraid. From this life I need more. They didn’t live here. And I held on. Too scared to move. I’ve got to drive those blues away. Happiness and joyful days. .DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY Sad songs are all I heard. Year after year. They silenced all the tears. Awkward distance. Mainly out of fear. So they don’t live here no more. Arguments.

HOW How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning? .

shall pass. Making you believe you died. too. too. Because nothing ever lasts Of pain. Till only it survives. shall pass. That bell it rings. Taking over everything. But … It. It. TOO.IT. SHALL PASS Pain can’t last forever. . It’s got places to go. Consuming who it occupies. And pain’s waiting At another’s door.

And I fight with my head high.HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE I try to hold my head above water. Fight to keep it all in order. But the price I pay is worth being free. For the misery in store. I suit up for the war. . Try to turn it all around. Every day is a fight for me. Try not to let the weight get me down. Holding onto my pride.

. Such a wicked game to play. Mistakes that others seem to make.OUR DOWNFALL We are a sad society: So quick to judge. It’s become customary To point out all the flaws. Although we are among friends. So afraid of being called out our name. We don’t see What lies within. All the while hiding ours. Point fingers. Believing those wicked smiles. Skirt the blame. Our downfall in the end.

BEING FREE I won’t let you change who I am. The only way truly to be free. Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be. .

I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine. Forgot who I was inside. My world finally mine. This thought had become commonplace. Remembering who I was. . It’s how I lived my life. Time for me to shine.MY WORLD Sometime ago I lost myself. Now it’s time for me to grow. Concentrating on what I’m meant to do. My eyes are open now. What treasures lied within. Just the way a record does. Picked up where I had left off. Don’t know how long it’s been.

.MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine. I know. Although it tries to hide. It’s there. See … I’m making it my goal. Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine.

So glad that I had faith. Nearly broken. But I’m on the mend. Hope not within my reach. I begin again.NEARLY BROKEN Thought it was the end of me. As the pieces began to mend. My spirit nearly broken. But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat. . My mind said all was lost. Thought there was no escape.

Because she knows her worth.MY FRIEND Oh. A mother. the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while. That friend I’ve found is me. She knows how much I meant to her. . and a wife. She’s happy. She loves me more than anything. She’s beautiful And full of life. daughter.

One right-side up.THE SMILE AND THE FROWN Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown. The other upside down. Saying everything With just a smirk. The stories they tell Without saying a word. .

Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip. I’d rather have my love with me. I remain lonely. Instead. I’ll forever mourn. Loosen your lover’s grip. Memories barely keep me warm. .REMAINING LONELY Loneliness. The love I lost. have mercy on me.

FEAR INSIDE I challenge you To sit in silence. Imagine your worst fear. Close your eyes. What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside? . Visualize it’s there In front of you. Take a sigh.

A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.

And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.

Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.

So here I sit. My time no longer mine. Until you walk through my door.WAITING All I do Is wait around for you. Waiting once more. I should say How I feel. . feelings are no big deal. But to you. I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time.

So I sing today for you. you know.SINGING TODAY FOR YOU Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time. . Because this I’m thankful for.

. Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out. I don’t care what you have to say. I’m not listening anyway. Though I don’t listen any more.NOT LISTENING Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago. Yet your mouth moves constantly.

Taking in all you see. . Loving everything I am.WINDOW TO MY SOUL I see you Through the window to my soul. And what I’m meant to be. You watch and study me. Looking through The window to my soul. You know me Better Than I ever could know.

Am I supposed to smile. You’re pretty for a black girl. Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud? You’re pretty for a black girl. Thank you for letting me know.PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL You’re pretty for a black girl. Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more. . Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth. What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me? You’re pretty for a black girl.

. you know. Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen. Beauty lying inside and out. Thought I should let you know. Thought I should tell you so.FOR MY SISTERS My sister. you are beautiful.

To share all we’ve got. This place we’ve gotten to somehow.THE TIME IS NOW The only time we have is now. Seeing all we’re meant to see. To show each other why we’re here. To feel how it should be. The time we have is now. Even if we’ve forgotten. .

Glonka. . and songs. Her first publication was a short story entitled. short stories. “The Amazing Mr. She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons.BIO Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school. She writes poetry.” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten.

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