Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved. ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition .

and Jaden. Devante. Blake. The world is yours. Make your mark. Brandon. I love you. Mom .For my boys.

CONTENTS Title Page Copyright Page LOVE Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone .

The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You .

LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me LIFE I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song .

Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How .

too. Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now .It.

LOVE .

LOVING YOU As you awake. For you. I do it all. What lovers do. I make your food. As you breathe. Wash your clothes. Giving you more than my last. Handle with care. Be your lover and more. I smile for you. Clean the floors. I leave my mark. Bake your bread. By loving you. All you have to do is ask. You are my light Through the dark. I live for you At your command. My world expands. .

heartless. Bitter through and through. . Only anger in this place. All thanks to you. Rotten to the very core.THANKS TO YOU Cold. All thanks to you. Blacker than the darkest night. Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth. My evil eyes are full of spite. The monster made.

Don’t have to say a word. Felling the heat between you and me. And still not a word. Caress my cheek from where you stand. I see your eyes start at my feet. I quench your thirst. My chest. I see the way you look at me. My hips move to your beat. woman and man. You didn’t have to say a word. it heaves to my surprise. you lift your hand. I kiss your lips. And you haven’t said a word. Now face-to-face. I feel your hands all over me. Licking your lips.WITHOUT WORDS I know you like what you see. . Your gaze has only reached my thighs.

Bare for all to see. My end is here. And you never saw me. It’s over now. . The rest gone down the drain. Requesting more so you can live. Still shaded by your tree. I gave my all for you to live. The foolishness I left behind. My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. But you don’t see me. And now my shell is all I have. Emptied my soul. just wasted time. The years I lost.WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME Here I stand out in front. You’ve taken all I have to give. I shed my skin.

A constant cold stuns my heart. We have grown together. In the end it was always us. Existing even after the end. living long it must.SEASONS OF LOVE A light is shining bright. The heat I crave to feel at night. Our love is blossoming for all to see. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh. You are my winter. A love so grand. it’s just you and me. No you and I. You are my spring. A smile that warms the coldest night. You are my summer. built-in trust. . You are my fall. We from the start. Please stay a while. We bring forth our new ecstasy. All is still.

my worst fear. please. I’ve got to let the burn roam free. Not bottle it up inside of me. I need the anger. Don’t want you to dry my eyes. Just let this pain pierce my skin. . I killed your love for me. So. I need to feel the pain inside of me. oh please.BROKEN Please. Don’t want happiness here again. You must understand my need to be here. just let me be. I want to cry. Just let me be. The damage done won’t disappear.

Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. Our fingers intertwined. Feed you by hand. gazing upon your face. Sitting by your side. Forever stay. . I would promise you. Enjoy the day. I would call in sick. Silently gazing In your eyes. You on my mind. My love always. No worry about what could be heard. Make love to you without saying a word. Me in your heart. Wash your feet Late that night. Open my eyes. I would make a meal For you and me. Hold your hand.MY LAST DAY I would wake up a little late. It would always be this way. I’d say. That I’d never leave.

That’s how I would spend My last day. .

I’ll show up. The very last one to show up. it will be us. You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. Face so mean. I’ll show up. I will show up. You see I gave my word in front of God. And I will always show up. I’ll show up.I WILL SHOW UP If I yell. . Through thick and thin when times are hard. So when you’re mad as hell. just know I won’t be walking out the door. You spit my name With twisted face. Till this life ends. You curse and scream. if you yell. I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you.

No. Just here for me to feel alright. And give me what I need. . So close your lips and take my hand. I’m telling you. Not here to be your girl tonight.WHAT I NEED No. I don’t want to be your girl. It’s not my place to be her for you. And give me what I need. Cover me with ecstasy. Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do. Yeah. it’s what you heard. You can find someone else to fill those shoes. Lie down with me in this moment. Just take me on into the room. Don’t want to chill or hang with you. we don’t have to talk or say a word.

I am the Milky Way. Brighter than the night’s sky. . I will remain. Brightness everlasting.LOVE ALL OVER ME Smiling all twenty four. My glow shines through the darkness. Cannot be dimmed. After the end. And I will forge ahead. Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me. I am love. I color the winter’s night.

HYPNOTIZED Fine As the darkest wine. Intoxicating. . I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized.

God. I’ll hold it down and set you free. Not just the night-time one you sell. I fear. I know my needs fall on deaf ears. A part-time love is not enough.SETTING YOU FREE Here I wait Today for you. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man. . Can’t compete with street life. Just like the day before. A dozen women for a dime. Why do I compete With the streets. as well. Love shouldn’t have to be this rough. Don’t sell away your half from me. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol.

I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry. Time to put me back on track. Although the truth lies elsewhere. hell begins. You say you’re sorry all the time. But it’s 1.HELL AND BACK I go through hell to be with you. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry. At 11:30. Swinging and swaying to your moods. I’m coming back. and I love you more than anything. time for hell again. I hold on tight for the ride. And try to make it back from hell again. . At 10:30. Pray to God that I don’t cry. Say forgive me this time. nasty at 10. Maybe this time is the last time. Nice at 8.

too? I’ve been waiting oh so long. Not giving up. Even met some dogs. still searching. I wonder if you’re like me. too.SEARCHING Where are you? Are you searching for me. . But my conviction still remains strong. I pray that you’re still looking. Out there trying to see. And also trying to find me. If the perfect one waits somewhere for you. Kissed so many frogs.

And surprises you with no regrets. Enjoy the ride. . then drops you down. So hold on tight. Sometimes love takes broader shape. But love can also be so sweet. It takes you up. It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect. Can pick you up and be complete. Pretends to stay. It smiles at you and then frowns. and Evaporates to your dismay. And just await your love’s surprise. Refuses to be confined.LOVE’S SURPRISE Sometimes love throws you a curve. It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything. It flows outside the lines. Love pulls you in.

Just what I’m meant to do. And I rule the roost. I tell you you’re The best at what you do. Standing tall.WE LIFT EACH OTHER You lift me up For the world to see. Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do. . The queen I’m meant to be. Give me the world. So glad to have you In my life. It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined. I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time. by my side. Tell me it’s all mine. You show me how Real love should be with you.

Because your plan is number one. Pretend to care. And then not care Who you hurt. Curse my name.THE WARNING It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you. . You pile it on Because I can take it. Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile. Say some words. But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy. And try to break me. You’re having fun. You had a plan all the while. All others be damned.

” . I’d say to you. The joy and laughter every night.MISSING YOU “What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say. “Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared. About you. The happiness I felt inside. The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared. “My darling. I’d miss everything.

Not Ivory or Irish Spring.YOU WEAR IT WELL I wear you on my sleeve. you know. That essence that I smell. . So distinct. That fragrence I know so well. your scent. It’s not cologne or soap. You follow me Through the day. I inhale you on my shirt. You’re with me On my way. And you wear it well. An aroma only you possess. Take you when I leave. You line the pleats of my skirt. Whether night or day. Whether at work or at play. Separating you from the rest.

NOT ALONE The games we play. And then we pray. Like children Not yet grown. . Realizing It won’t work apart. We hurt. The shit we say. Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through. Alone is not what we do. Can’t make it on our own. We laugh.

THE BEST OF ME I make up the best of you. With me. A freshness for our start. The light replaced the dark. Order lives where chaos dwelled. I brought a new place for you. This much I truly know. Your life tells me so. I’m proud to see what you’ve become. . Because you are the best of me. You don’t need to say it. A prize for all to see. And I know I make up the best of you.

Hoping things are as good as new. Looking okay. Although repaired. The chain contains a kink. Will forever change the way I now look at you. . Thinking that you’re done. you still see that link.TRUST It’s like a broken fence: When mended. But that kink. you see. You try to move along.

SHADES OF ME How can you not love me. I fear you love yourself More than you love me. Skin of chocolate. . For the chocolate and the caramel. With eyes of auburn. You don’t even see. Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love.

I’m ready now. It’s embedded between my thighs. A world that rivals Disneyland. I take you to another place. . Powder-white sand.LOVE’S ESCAPE I know where your happiness lies. And I wait With your love’s escape. A world where only you escape: A world of beaches.

A place Finally to be me. A simple choice It may seem. Not so simple to me. .THE CHOICE The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. Though simple it may be. To live in hell Or go be free. Is not simple In my eyes.

an enemy. Did you forget yesterday? A friend today. No matter what a friend may say. Did you forget yesterday? The screaming and the yelling. Face twisted mean. Although you’re okay today. . So it may seem. I truly thought you understood.DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY Every time it’s going good. Don’t forget yesterday. That voice appears and says. Yesterday.

Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me. . Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I. Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess. You can’t say yes.WHAT WE DESERVE Do you deserve All that I do. to be with you? I can’t say no. Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve.

Fully awake. I know it’s not what you want to hear. . We tried to make it work. It may just be Around the corner. Another smiling face. You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. I fear. Truth is you’re not the one for me. Life alone brings doubts and fears.THE TRUTH I’m sad today. Because I see the truth. So. Your true love awaits. And I’m not the one for you. But. it’s not meant to be. But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you. dry your eyes. No time to cry.

You’d forever stay. I’d always be right. In a perfect world.A PERFECT WORLD In a perfect world. I’d be all you see. Sadly. today it’s not that way. It’d be you and I. And sit by my side. In a perfect world. And I can only dream. There would be no other for you. You’d agree with me. We’d never fight. . Your love to give For me always. In a perfect world. Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem. You’d only have eyes for me. You’d hold me tight.

YOUR EVERYTHING
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.

FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.

WE BELONG
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.

You should have never estimated The power of my mind. . It is so easy for me to smile.LYING IN WAIT I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies. Pretend I’m okay inside. It was fine to say goodbye. Women are cunning creatures you know. Believed that when you closed the door. For the right time. We lie in wait. The perfect moment to strike. We plot our moves From the go.

Because you set me free. . Where I said I’d be. I can’t forget what we had. When you would let me go. Because it’s all I know. Hoping it’s not too late. Thought the day would never come. But I fear your mind’s made up. Now I sit and wait for you. That’s too damn bad. It hurts to be in this spot.MOVING ON I wait for you in the lot. You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had. Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day.

You look into my eyes.NOT YOUR FORTE I tell you I need more. It’s not enough for me. . I ask you all the time To treat me like I need. But I don’t think It will ever be. Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte. Give me no reply. And sleep.

Alone with the truth after the fall.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. But … I wanted you. For the real you can never love me. Although I know the truth. How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all. so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show. What I see Is not really you. And now I sit. .

And please. you think you know it all. Miss what we had. Yeah. That there are many more like me. You say you don’t care. But time will tell. . And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same. Think it’s all a big game. The way I kissed you late at night. Make your move. So you can finally see. hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. Go ahead. I really hope you find her soon. You’re gonna miss me so damn bad.A LOVE LIKE MINE You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone.

Your love will make Me lose my mind. . If I let it be. If that’s what I let it do.TERMINAL LOVE Your love will be The end of me. Your love will kill My spirit. Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me. too. If I let it inside.

Showing me the man That you’re proud to be. You’re blind to all that temptation outside. They don’t have to cost a thing. It’s great to be by your side. To live this life with you. You tell me that I’m beautiful. And that I deserve the best. I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do. Ignoring all the rest. Holding my hand. .THE LITTLE THINGS It’s the little things I appreciate.

I let you do what you want to. And it’s my fault. You discourage me.LOVING ME My anger grows. My spirit knows It’s your fault. You don’t encourage me. My anger knows It’s my fault. I finally love me more that you do. Don’t want to hear my words. Because you need to be first. . And it’s your fault. I’m the one who made you into you. My spirit grows. Because all you thought about was you.

Because someday love will set me free. I still believe in love. Because it waits somewhere for me. I lay out the welcome mat for love. I still believe in love. But it won’t knock at my door. I will wait for love. Although it doesn’t live here. Though it doesn’t live here no more. Because I see it all the time. I’m a fan of love.A FAN OF LOVE I am a fan of love. . Although it’s not yet mine. I lay out the welcome mat for love. I’d sit in the stands and cheer. I will wait for love.

A DIFFERENT CLOTH Cut from a different cloth. Your world is nothing like The one I’m from. I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come. When I don’t even know your name. You try to live in my realty. If only in our eyes. But we’re not meant to be. A visitor from another place. . But you won’t show your face. Maybe that cloth Really is the same. Yet you came. and you try To become you and I. Tell me why you’re in my space. You and I are not the same.

I don’t know why I ask for truth. To do what I have to do. So glad to have this new breakthrough. It’s nowhere inside of you.PROMISES Promises you fail to keep Are all I have. . Though the shitty lies you grab. Honesty is within your reach.

There’s no you and me in us for you. I’m sick to hell of being under your spell. . I try and try to be What you want from me. twisted game.NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE You can’t see me Past your superiority. I’m like a moth to your flame. Not taking your shit any more. But I’m tired of playing Your sick. It’s your way or the door.

Because we both want to win the race. You sprint along. Two peas of a different pod. Can’t let me be in front. . Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath. First place is a space we both want.WINNING THE RACE I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight. now by my side. Trying to keep up. We’ll never be face-to-face. Because you have to be first.

POWER Looking through rose-colored glasses. I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely. . Co-existence is the only power You hold over me. I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections.

SING FOR YOU Why don’t I sing for you? A good question. indeed. Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for. Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts. Why don’t I feel comfortable. . but the one I should let go.

LOVE Love. And set me free. I laugh along in my defense. Let loose your hold of me. how you love to tell your lovely lies. What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh. Love. Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh. Just break your chains. The jokes are all at my expense. . Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love. Love.

With nothing else. Even when times were tough? It got you through. Surviving by itself. A time of unrivaled bliss.REMEMBERING LOVE Remember when Love was enough. When unity was a goal. A time I surely miss. . Family meant we were whole.

. We drift together. But nothing’s said. You try to read my face. I hold my breath. The seconds. Turning into weeks. You stare at the floor. I look elsewhere instead. So much to say. Our whole lives lost. Still alone. you grin. days.LOST LIVES Here we go again. Just like the day before. hours. And we’ve both paid the cost. Yet nothing was said. minutes. I smile. Because we never speak. And here we are In elder years. So much to say.

MY WIFE You bought me flowers today: Roses. pink and red. You are the reason why I work so hard. My wife. . I try my best. Although I seldom tell you so. How I cherish you. With you is where my heart lies. Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said: I can’t live my life without Having you by my side. I think of you before I rest.

. But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside.KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS I lose a piece of me every day. I disappear with every word you say. Curse her name. Call her a bitch. How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her. And you think they’re just words. Or use my fists.

A perfect world For him and me. Put me before himself. It wouldn’t matter if they were his. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often. And even love my kids. He’d cherish them because they were mine. He’d cherish the ground I walked on. That man I made for me. He’d always take care of me. . Live together happily. No one else would matter. I wouldn’t want for anything. He’d love every part of me. He wouldn’t see anyone else.THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME Oh.

LIFE .

that’s the way it will be. And I’ll always put you first. as I carry on. I put you first. And so. You guide. Bring me light after the dark. Lord. You’re by my side. Let me laugh after I’ve cried. In you. I put you first. so I may rise. this is why I will believe With Your Word. Guiding me along the way. Get me through to a new start. You let me fall. I put your first. And so. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day. Supporting me until the end. . I have a faithful friend. And so. I lead My life in Your hands.I PUT YOU FIRST You’ve been there Since day one. Whether I am right or wrong.

He knows my mind. predicts my moves. Says what I think before I do. . he’s taken hold. He has my unwavering faith. I don’t know nothing anymore. With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day. the path I walk. He’s got my map.FAITH He came today and shook my soul. I think he’s psychic see. Mouths the words before I talk. He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break. My whole world. He is the Lord above. And I thought I knew it all. He knows the goings on inside of me.

No matter how hard you try. Won’t stay inside. you know. I would have told you so. You can’t contain What will remain. A lie won’t hide. .LIES AND TRUTH The truth is the light. Rains down on me. Sets me free. It shines so bright. A cover will not work. If asked. It’s impossible to hide a lie.

The chains are gone. Screaming to me in my own song. . Flipping a script You no longer own. Has built a wall that can’t be broken. Yes. The square peg now fits the hole. Now I’m free. Was in a fog. I got it now. Took years to find. powering my soul. Can’t keep me down no more.REALIZATION The beauty of it all. So that confidence. I can’t lie low. For the entire world to see. Who I am inside. Realizing who I am. ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be. but now I see The truth I bought now sold.

Killing my mind And spirit. finally. I try to fight. too. . All consuming. Stealing my light. breathlessly. So much to bear. Like the way That evil does. Everywhere.ENDING THE PAIN This world of pain. Now is the end for me. through the fog I can’t see. And I cannot escape. But. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today. The pain will end. I’ll be with you forever now. So I say my last goodbye. Staining the air. A better place awaits me. It’s all around.

I’ll start my fight by changing me. For fear of what it might say. .CHANGING ME I couldn’t watch the news today. Someone’s missing. Enough to drive the sane insane. It calls to me and screams my name. I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. Or found dead. Start my task with one woman. Live by his word and let him see. Everyone’s fighting or arguing. same old thing. But radio’s no better. Can’t let this dark swallow my light. I vow to do the best I can. Guess I’ll listen to radio instead. So I block it and stay inside.

I had to go because it stayed. The pain inside just wouldn’t die. The pain still wouldn’t go away. . The one underneath’s too tough. Although it hurt.BREAKING FREE I try to cut the pain away. I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay. Cutting deeper still. After all the blood had dried. I took the pain away with me. I’m the one it killed. I pierce the layer that I see. Now I’m gone. Now my pain has gone away. Finally free. But blood is not enough. I couldn’t cry.

A battle I couldn’t lose. Only the mixture that I needed. You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues. Here I stand forever. For the other half of you. I stood tall. By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away. Before you were inside. Although you were not yet mine. .MY SON SHINES Long ago I dreamt of you. I feared it was not true. The love I thought I had to have. But through it all. I held you tight and kissed your cheek.

Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know.KNOWING ME Do you really know who I am. Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me. . me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me.

Dance with me tonight.DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT I feel the music From deep within. Dance with me tonight. Please play for me. The rhythm stirs Inside my head. It moves my hips. Made for sin. Dance with me tonight. It moves my feet. Your song instead. . I feel the beat. My arms they sway That away.

So hold them tight. They’ll wish we stopped you just in time. It’s sad to know your time is done. Pain can be an awful thing. . So here is where they’ll stay. Though your beauty will last always. We older folks can tolerate. Your will was not as strong. We didn’t have you long. But many will always care.TOO SOON Gone too soon. Help them push the pain aside. Sometimes too much to bare. To make sure you were still here. What younger ones can’t fare. And let them know An early end’s no way to go.

But you’re too quick. . You strike so fast. Await my move. You’re poisonous. Hoping you snoozed. I knew you were there After all. Hoping you’re asleep. You lay still. I approach.THE BROWN WIDOW You wait for me In the dark. Too many eyes Cover me. I hold my breath. I wait till day To go your way. Why did I go? I should have paused.

. Take your time. It will be just right. Live your best life now. DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight.THE TIME IS NOW Slow down.

Remembering where it first shined. And then peaked out often. Dormant. Specific to each owner. It differs from the rest. Residing where it’s meant to be. But often forget where it lies. Where it shines the best.INNER SUPERSTAR We possess it early on. Our inner superstar Was always there inside. Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. After we have forgotten. We get a glimpse. take a peak. . it lies inside. Years later we get another glimpse.

Listen for what life has in store.LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL Life tries to take the wheel. We make a turn on our own. While hiding in our youth. Without listening to what it has to say. It shows its face in elder years. Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. Life’s not all a mystery. But we get in the way. But then we find courage inside And turn it all around. Be patient. . Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down. Its view widens so we may see.

And you’re gone. .TOO LATE You were mine On borrowed time. Now tomorrow’s here. until tomorrow. This I didn’t know. I took for granted you’d be here. At least. I’m so sorry I was wrong. Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so.

AHA MOMENT Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise. . spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do.

They cover you And color me.COLORS OF ME There are many Shades of me. a light yellow. I can be any hue I want to be. A darker color when we fight. When wide awake. I change from day-to-day. I shine brightly for all to see. Neon bright. A range of shades for everything. you know. Growing daily like the evergreen. A blue for when I’m feeling low. Like many colors of the rainbow. When ready. Relaxed for when I sleep. Black or white. A softer shade. I’m an aubergine. .

Thinking. And it makes up The best of me. The sadness that you may see.A POET’S SONG I live in verse. Is all poetry to me. rhyming All the time. It sings to me from deep inside. The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow. I think in rhyme. Living. breathing poetry . I don’t know how Or even why.

BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH Just how bright Is your light. . barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath. Shine from underneath? Is it dim. The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow.

Then takes my coat. . Says stay awhile. It offers me a place to stay. I am your friend. And offers me its words to eat. It says to me. And says Please come back any day. It sets me free. It invites me in. Encourages me With its warm smile. It embraces me. Then sings to me In special notes. Inside that room lives poetry. It comforts me.POETRY LIVES HERE A door has opened up for me. Says take a seat. I open up.

Knowing that your fears. The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back. I can erase? If I frighten. Curve of my waist. And I know my worth. offend. . I am life. I am woman. It’s because I am beauty. or shock you. The wisdom I possess. The pleasures I possess. Shape of my thighs. The comfort of my embrace. That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss.KNOWING MY WORTH Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice. The knowledge I give.

We are the best of all beings. Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man. . Forgetting it. One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth.OF ALL BEINGS Fellow women of today. you should abhor. Rewarded with so many qualities.

Happiness and long-lost friends. A sight I almost see. My destination is on my mind. . Did mostly as I pleased. Every road must come to an end. I can’t wait for mine. Thinking of how it will be. Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me. Held some hands along the way. I smile and hold it inside.THE LONG ROAD HOME I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead. What a lovely ride.

It is today. Sounds fully. “The time has come For you to leave. As if to say. . The signs are there For you to see. As if saying to me. Close your eyes. “Your time is here. Giving the breeze What it needs.” The tree breaths.THE SOUND OF SIGNS I hear the birds chirping. Listen closely.” The willow weeps.

. Or we all lose. What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man. What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot. It’s not too late. I’ve grabbed my pen. This is not a test.A CALL TO ARMS *STOP* Turn off your television set.

Where true love lives. My home is where I chose to be. My home can be one place or a few.HOME My home is where I lay my head And pray at night. Where happiness lives Indefinitely. Though we’re apart. My home may just be with you. . My home is where I leave my heart. Beside the bed.

This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet. The better prize. Should crown our lover’s throne.THE BETTER PRIZE The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade. It passes instantly. Although it seems quite odd. And miss out on the better prize. We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone. Ignorant to what’s inside. We turn away. A trick used to confuse the mind. And in our haste. Open your foolish eyes. But what lies inside. . So easy to believe a lie.

I’m tired already. add some play. Save some work. I’ve seen this day before. My body’s weary. Time to sit and rest my mind. . too. Try to balance both and remain whole. But I know things will be fine. Unfortunately. that’s the way life goes. And I know more will surely come. Spirit.RELAXING MY MIND Been a long day. I remember to relax today.

It must lie somewhere else. And pray trouble runs out of time. Where all is calm. Surrounded by my friends. So I continue to Keep hope alive. Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free. It should be tired of me. and I stay safe. I’ve given up on happiness. Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me. Why won’t it set me free? . And I know nothing else. I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been.TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME Trouble road begins at my door.

And then thank God I learned to fly. There is no room. You smile at me And hit the gas. To ride with you. I close my eyes. As I brace For the crash. Even the belt Won’t keep me safe.THE GREATEST ESCAPE Slow down for me. You’re driving too fast. No space for me. You’re speeding now. . Away I go To a better place. Without your brakes. Look to the sky. Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape. How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on.

THE FALL Land mines. Can never take the leap. I wait until it’s dark. Covering your insides. Premeditated steps I take with no regrets. Worried about the fall. everything I’ve got. Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two. . Afraid to make a sound. Worried I’ll be found. The snipers waiting for that clear shot. afterall. So much to lose.

Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know. Hope our move won’t make a mess. Do what you say.MAKING MOVES Every now and then. Then we realize The move was just right. Don’t be afraid. Don’t be scared to let go. We wish for the best. You’re right where you need to be. Take a step and not look back. Make your move. Scared to make a move. That moment is meant just for you To make your move. And we’re finally on track. We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go. .

Life just passes by. . It’s time to take my rightful place. Light miles ahead. It never waits. Or what they tried to say. My eyes are opened wide. Focused on today. I’ve already won the race. And now the time is here For me to finally shine. Although my mouth is closed. The final bell has rung. And now half my life’s Just floated away. I never saw the signs.WINNING THE RACE I’ve wasted too much time.

TRUE FRIENDS I call you. . And I need you there. A true friend. The times we share. I’m glad I have you in my life. You call me. I need you to show me Just how I should be. Taking it all in. You listen when I talk. But we’re just friends. It’s so innocent. Because when I need someone to vent to. indeed. You always take my call. Even when I want to vent About nothing at all. You know I’m really into it.

There are times When we may find Some things troubling. We need to learn What to say. And what things we should keep. .KEEPING SECRETS Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing. Often times Those little things Should remain a secret.

WITHOUT DOUBTS
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.

ANGER
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.

MY MOVES
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.

So much to do. So little time. No more sitting still for me today. Hold the door. Too much for me to hold inside.FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD Listen up! I got lots to say. Ready for me to begin. I’m coming in! .

. When you come for me. When you come for me. In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again. I will be ready.WHEN YOU COME FOR ME When you come for me. I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go. This life has gotten really bad. I won’t be sad. I’m tired today. I’m looking forward to the trip ahead. When you come for me. Waiting for you to take me to some other place.

Guess I’m in too deep. Desire being my excuse. You open up. . Giving in to your every want and need. but don’t know what to say. Loving the way That I confuse. Can’t get rid of me. Just how a smudge succeeds.A MERE SMUDGE I’m a smudge on your window pane.

“Celebrate with me.A PRISONER’S LIFE I want to be free. You say it’ll never be. Not knowing poison’s inside. But I’m the one that pays the toll. You say. .” I take a sip. I try and try To live your life. Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape. Drink my wine. A prisoner’s life is what I lead. That I can’t survive on my own. accept your smile. Locked away indefinitely.

Decision time tonight. And That’s just what I’ll do. Either way. All at once. it’ll be done. And I finally see. . It hit me hard. Close your eyes. I’ll guide you. A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go. Make your move.AT A CROSSROADS Here I am. No one to help me with this one. I hear. Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be.

Awkward distance. Arguments. And I held on. Happiness and joyful days. Too scared to move. I can’t always be afraid. From this life I need more. I’ve got to drive those blues away. Mainly out of fear. . Year after year. So they don’t live here no more.DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY Sad songs are all I heard. They silenced all the tears. They didn’t live here.

HOW How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning? .

IT. too. shall pass. Because nothing ever lasts Of pain. . Till only it survives. It’s got places to go. And pain’s waiting At another’s door. SHALL PASS Pain can’t last forever. Taking over everything. Consuming who it occupies. Making you believe you died. shall pass. That bell it rings. too. TOO. It. But … It.

And I fight with my head high. Fight to keep it all in order. Try not to let the weight get me down. But the price I pay is worth being free. Every day is a fight for me. Try to turn it all around. Holding onto my pride. For the misery in store. I suit up for the war.HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE I try to hold my head above water. .

Our downfall in the end. Such a wicked game to play. Although we are among friends. So afraid of being called out our name. Point fingers.OUR DOWNFALL We are a sad society: So quick to judge. All the while hiding ours. Believing those wicked smiles. We don’t see What lies within. Mistakes that others seem to make. Skirt the blame. . It’s become customary To point out all the flaws.

Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be. The only way truly to be free. .BEING FREE I won’t let you change who I am.

MY WORLD Sometime ago I lost myself. Picked up where I had left off. My world finally mine. Concentrating on what I’m meant to do. Don’t know how long it’s been. What treasures lied within. Remembering who I was. . Now it’s time for me to grow. Forgot who I was inside. It’s how I lived my life. Time for me to shine. I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine. This thought had become commonplace. Just the way a record does. My eyes are open now.

Although it tries to hide. It’s there. . Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine. See … I’m making it my goal. I know.MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine.

NEARLY BROKEN Thought it was the end of me. . But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat. Hope not within my reach. Thought there was no escape. Nearly broken. My spirit nearly broken. I begin again. So glad that I had faith. As the pieces began to mend. My mind said all was lost. But I’m on the mend.

Because she knows her worth. . daughter. That friend I’ve found is me. the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while. She loves me more than anything. and a wife. She’s happy. She’s beautiful And full of life.MY FRIEND Oh. She knows how much I meant to her. A mother.

The other upside down. The stories they tell Without saying a word. One right-side up. Saying everything With just a smirk.THE SMILE AND THE FROWN Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown. .

I’d rather have my love with me. . I remain lonely. I’ll forever mourn. have mercy on me.REMAINING LONELY Loneliness. The love I lost. Loosen your lover’s grip. Memories barely keep me warm. Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip. Instead.

Take a sigh. Close your eyes.FEAR INSIDE I challenge you To sit in silence. Visualize it’s there In front of you. What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside? . Imagine your worst fear.

EMMA LEE
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.

FREEDOM
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.

TODAY
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.

My time no longer mine. Waiting once more. But to you. Until you walk through my door. I should say How I feel. I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time. . feelings are no big deal.WAITING All I do Is wait around for you. So here I sit.

you know. .SINGING TODAY FOR YOU Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time. Because this I’m thankful for. So I sing today for you.

Yet your mouth moves constantly. Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out. .NOT LISTENING Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago. I’m not listening anyway. Though I don’t listen any more. I don’t care what you have to say.

And what I’m meant to be. You watch and study me. Looking through The window to my soul. Taking in all you see.WINDOW TO MY SOUL I see you Through the window to my soul. . Loving everything I am. You know me Better Than I ever could know.

PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL You’re pretty for a black girl. . What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me? You’re pretty for a black girl. Thank you for letting me know. Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud? You’re pretty for a black girl. You’re pretty for a black girl. Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more. Am I supposed to smile. Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth.

you know.FOR MY SISTERS My sister. Beauty lying inside and out. . Thought I should let you know. you are beautiful. Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen. Thought I should tell you so.

To show each other why we’re here. This place we’ve gotten to somehow. To share all we’ve got. . Seeing all we’re meant to see. To feel how it should be. Even if we’ve forgotten.THE TIME IS NOW The only time we have is now. The time we have is now.

She writes poetry. “The Amazing Mr. Glonka. Her first publication was a short story entitled. short stories. She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons.BIO Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school.” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten. . and songs.

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