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Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved. ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition .
I love you. Mom .For my boys. Devante. Blake. The world is yours. Make your mark. and Jaden. Brandon.
CONTENTS Title Page Copyright Page LOVE Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone .
The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You .
LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me LIFE I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song .
Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How .
too.It. Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now .
LOVING YOU As you awake. By loving you. My world expands. What lovers do. For you. Wash your clothes. All you have to do is ask. . I smile for you. Bake your bread. As you breathe. Be your lover and more. Clean the floors. I leave my mark. Giving you more than my last. I do it all. I make your food. I live for you At your command. Handle with care. You are my light Through the dark.
Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth. All thanks to you. Bitter through and through. . heartless.THANKS TO YOU Cold. Only anger in this place. Rotten to the very core. My evil eyes are full of spite. Blacker than the darkest night. The monster made. All thanks to you.
I kiss your lips.WITHOUT WORDS I know you like what you see. Licking your lips. You didn’t have to say a word. you lift your hand. And still not a word. I see your eyes start at my feet. Felling the heat between you and me. I quench your thirst. woman and man. Your gaze has only reached my thighs. My hips move to your beat. . And you haven’t said a word. I see the way you look at me. it heaves to my surprise. Caress my cheek from where you stand. Don’t have to say a word. I feel your hands all over me. Now face-to-face. My chest.
And you never saw me. I shed my skin. I gave my all for you to live. And now my shell is all I have. My end is here. You’ve taken all I have to give. The rest gone down the drain. Still shaded by your tree. Requesting more so you can live. It’s over now. Emptied my soul.WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME Here I stand out in front. just wasted time. My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. The years I lost. . The foolishness I left behind. Bare for all to see. But you don’t see me.
it’s just you and me. You are my spring. We from the start. A love so grand. built-in trust. We bring forth our new ecstasy. Existing even after the end. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh. . You are my summer. The heat I crave to feel at night. In the end it was always us. A constant cold stuns my heart. All is still. Our love is blossoming for all to see. A smile that warms the coldest night. You are my winter. No you and I.SEASONS OF LOVE A light is shining bright. You are my fall. We have grown together. Please stay a while. living long it must.
I need to feel the pain inside of me. I need the anger. I’ve got to let the burn roam free. Not bottle it up inside of me. Don’t want happiness here again. So. my worst fear. Just let me be. just let me be. I want to cry. I killed your love for me.BROKEN Please. Just let this pain pierce my skin. Don’t want you to dry my eyes. You must understand my need to be here. please. The damage done won’t disappear. oh please. .
I would call in sick. Me in your heart. You on my mind. Wash your feet Late that night. I’d say. Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. Forever stay. My love always. Silently gazing In your eyes. I would promise you. Our fingers intertwined. Sitting by your side. No worry about what could be heard. Open my eyes. Make love to you without saying a word. gazing upon your face.MY LAST DAY I would wake up a little late. That I’d never leave. Hold your hand. Enjoy the day. It would always be this way. . Feed you by hand. I would make a meal For you and me.
That’s how I would spend My last day. .
Till this life ends. . You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. I’ll show up. I’ll show up. You curse and scream. Face so mean. I will show up. You see I gave my word in front of God. I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you. just know I won’t be walking out the door. if you yell.I WILL SHOW UP If I yell. I’ll show up. So when you’re mad as hell. Through thick and thin when times are hard. it will be us. The very last one to show up. You spit my name With twisted face. And I will always show up.
Just here for me to feel alright.WHAT I NEED No. I don’t want to be your girl. we don’t have to talk or say a word. Lie down with me in this moment. Just take me on into the room. Don’t want to chill or hang with you. Not here to be your girl tonight. You can find someone else to fill those shoes. It’s not my place to be her for you. . And give me what I need. And give me what I need. No. So close your lips and take my hand. it’s what you heard. Yeah. Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do. Cover me with ecstasy. I’m telling you.
After the end. I color the winter’s night. And I will forge ahead. Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me. Cannot be dimmed. Brightness everlasting. I am love. My glow shines through the darkness. Brighter than the night’s sky. I am the Milky Way. .LOVE ALL OVER ME Smiling all twenty four. I will remain.
. I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized. Intoxicating.HYPNOTIZED Fine As the darkest wine.
I know my needs fall on deaf ears. I fear. God.SETTING YOU FREE Here I wait Today for you. Why do I compete With the streets. Not just the night-time one you sell. . Can’t compete with street life. A part-time love is not enough. A dozen women for a dime. Don’t sell away your half from me. Love shouldn’t have to be this rough. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man. Just like the day before. as well. I’ll hold it down and set you free.
Maybe this time is the last time. nasty at 10. Nice at 8. At 10:30. Swinging and swaying to your moods. Time to put me back on track. But it’s 1. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry. hell begins. At 11:30. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry. And try to make it back from hell again. Pray to God that I don’t cry. You say you’re sorry all the time.HELL AND BACK I go through hell to be with you. time for hell again. Say forgive me this time. Although the truth lies elsewhere. . and I love you more than anything. I hold on tight for the ride. I’m coming back.
.SEARCHING Where are you? Are you searching for me. Kissed so many frogs. Not giving up. still searching. too? I’ve been waiting oh so long. If the perfect one waits somewhere for you. too. I pray that you’re still looking. Even met some dogs. And also trying to find me. Out there trying to see. I wonder if you’re like me. But my conviction still remains strong.
Sometimes love takes broader shape. Pretends to stay. . It smiles at you and then frowns. It flows outside the lines. Refuses to be confined. and Evaporates to your dismay. It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything. And just await your love’s surprise. So hold on tight. Enjoy the ride. Love pulls you in. then drops you down.LOVE’S SURPRISE Sometimes love throws you a curve. But love can also be so sweet. Can pick you up and be complete. And surprises you with no regrets. It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect. It takes you up.
by my side. . It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined. The queen I’m meant to be. Give me the world. Standing tall. I tell you you’re The best at what you do. Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do.WE LIFT EACH OTHER You lift me up For the world to see. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time. I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. You show me how Real love should be with you. Just what I’m meant to do. And I rule the roost. So glad to have you In my life. Tell me it’s all mine.
You had a plan all the while. Because your plan is number one.THE WARNING It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you. And try to break me. . Pretend to care. All others be damned. Say some words. And then not care Who you hurt. But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy. You’re having fun. You pile it on Because I can take it. Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile. Curse my name.
“My darling. I’d say to you. The happiness I felt inside.MISSING YOU “What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say. The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared. The joy and laughter every night. About you. “Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared.” . I’d miss everything.
You line the pleats of my skirt. And you wear it well. It’s not cologne or soap. I inhale you on my shirt. you know. You follow me Through the day. Take you when I leave. You’re with me On my way. Whether at work or at play. Separating you from the rest. . So distinct. That essence that I smell.YOU WEAR IT WELL I wear you on my sleeve. That fragrence I know so well. An aroma only you possess. your scent. Not Ivory or Irish Spring. Whether night or day.
.NOT ALONE The games we play. The shit we say. Can’t make it on our own. Alone is not what we do. We hurt. And then we pray. Realizing It won’t work apart. Like children Not yet grown. We laugh. Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through.
You don’t need to say it.THE BEST OF ME I make up the best of you. A freshness for our start. With me. . I brought a new place for you. And I know I make up the best of you. A prize for all to see. Order lives where chaos dwelled. Because you are the best of me. Your life tells me so. The light replaced the dark. This much I truly know. I’m proud to see what you’ve become.
Although repaired. you see. The chain contains a kink. But that kink. Will forever change the way I now look at you. You try to move along. you still see that link. Looking okay. Thinking that you’re done. Hoping things are as good as new. .TRUST It’s like a broken fence: When mended.
You don’t even see. With eyes of auburn. Skin of chocolate. Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love. I fear you love yourself More than you love me. For the chocolate and the caramel.SHADES OF ME How can you not love me. .
A world that rivals Disneyland. . And I wait With your love’s escape.LOVE’S ESCAPE I know where your happiness lies. Powder-white sand. It’s embedded between my thighs. I take you to another place. I’m ready now. A world where only you escape: A world of beaches.
A simple choice It may seem. A place Finally to be me. Not so simple to me. To live in hell Or go be free. Is not simple In my eyes. Though simple it may be.THE CHOICE The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. .
Yesterday. Did you forget yesterday? A friend today. That voice appears and says. Face twisted mean. Don’t forget yesterday. So it may seem. .DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY Every time it’s going good. I truly thought you understood. Did you forget yesterday? The screaming and the yelling. Although you’re okay today. No matter what a friend may say. an enemy.
. Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve. to be with you? I can’t say no. Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I. You can’t say yes.WHAT WE DESERVE Do you deserve All that I do. Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess. Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me.
it’s not meant to be. So. Life alone brings doubts and fears.THE TRUTH I’m sad today. I fear. It may just be Around the corner. Your true love awaits. We tried to make it work. You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. Truth is you’re not the one for me. Fully awake. I know it’s not what you want to hear. Another smiling face. . No time to cry. But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you. Because I see the truth. And I’m not the one for you. But. dry your eyes.
You’d only have eyes for me. I’d always be right. And I can only dream. There would be no other for you. In a perfect world. today it’s not that way. I’d be all you see. . We’d never fight. It’d be you and I. In a perfect world. You’d hold me tight. You’d agree with me. Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem. Your love to give For me always. And sit by my side.A PERFECT WORLD In a perfect world. You’d forever stay. Sadly. In a perfect world.
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.
FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.
You should have never estimated The power of my mind. Women are cunning creatures you know.LYING IN WAIT I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies. We plot our moves From the go. . It was fine to say goodbye. We lie in wait. Pretend I’m okay inside. Believed that when you closed the door. It is so easy for me to smile. For the right time. The perfect moment to strike.
. Where I said I’d be. Now I sit and wait for you. Hoping it’s not too late. Thought the day would never come. You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had. Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day. Because it’s all I know.MOVING ON I wait for you in the lot. It hurts to be in this spot. But I fear your mind’s made up. I can’t forget what we had. When you would let me go. Because you set me free. That’s too damn bad.
NOT YOUR FORTE I tell you I need more. Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte. You look into my eyes. But I don’t think It will ever be. It’s not enough for me. Give me no reply. I ask you all the time To treat me like I need. . And sleep.
so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show. But … I wanted you. Although I know the truth. And now I sit. How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all. What I see Is not really you. For the real you can never love me. Alone with the truth after the fall.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. .
Yeah. Think it’s all a big game. That there are many more like me. Go ahead. you think you know it all. And please. The way I kissed you late at night. . So you can finally see. Miss what we had.A LOVE LIKE MINE You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone. I really hope you find her soon. Make your move. You say you don’t care. hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. But time will tell. And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same. You’re gonna miss me so damn bad.
Your love will make Me lose my mind. Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me. If I let it inside. . too.TERMINAL LOVE Your love will be The end of me. Your love will kill My spirit. If that’s what I let it do. If I let it be.
You tell me that I’m beautiful. It’s great to be by your side. Ignoring all the rest. .THE LITTLE THINGS It’s the little things I appreciate. To live this life with you. Showing me the man That you’re proud to be. And that I deserve the best. They don’t have to cost a thing. You’re blind to all that temptation outside. I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do. Holding my hand.
You don’t encourage me. Because you need to be first. I finally love me more that you do. Don’t want to hear my words. Because all you thought about was you. You discourage me. My anger knows It’s my fault. And it’s your fault. I let you do what you want to. My spirit knows It’s your fault. And it’s my fault. .LOVING ME My anger grows. I’m the one who made you into you. My spirit grows.
Because I see it all the time. I will wait for love. I still believe in love. I lay out the welcome mat for love. . I still believe in love. I’d sit in the stands and cheer. I lay out the welcome mat for love. Because it waits somewhere for me. Though it doesn’t live here no more. But it won’t knock at my door. Because someday love will set me free.A FAN OF LOVE I am a fan of love. Although it’s not yet mine. I will wait for love. I’m a fan of love. Although it doesn’t live here.
A visitor from another place. You and I are not the same. . If only in our eyes. I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come. and you try To become you and I. But we’re not meant to be. Maybe that cloth Really is the same. Yet you came. When I don’t even know your name. But you won’t show your face. Tell me why you’re in my space. Your world is nothing like The one I’m from.A DIFFERENT CLOTH Cut from a different cloth. You try to live in my realty.
It’s nowhere inside of you. Honesty is within your reach. To do what I have to do. I don’t know why I ask for truth. So glad to have this new breakthrough. . Though the shitty lies you grab.PROMISES Promises you fail to keep Are all I have.
It’s your way or the door. Not taking your shit any more. I’m sick to hell of being under your spell.NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE You can’t see me Past your superiority. There’s no you and me in us for you. I try and try to be What you want from me. I’m like a moth to your flame. . twisted game. But I’m tired of playing Your sick.
Two peas of a different pod. Because we both want to win the race. Trying to keep up.WINNING THE RACE I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight. . now by my side. You sprint along. Can’t let me be in front. Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath. First place is a space we both want. Because you have to be first. We’ll never be face-to-face.
Co-existence is the only power You hold over me.POWER Looking through rose-colored glasses. I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections. I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely. .
. indeed. Why don’t I feel comfortable. Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts. but the one I should let go.SING FOR YOU Why don’t I sing for you? A good question. Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for.
Let loose your hold of me. how you love to tell your lovely lies. . And set me free. I laugh along in my defense.LOVE Love. Love. The jokes are all at my expense. Love. Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love. What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh. Just break your chains. Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh.
When unity was a goal. A time of unrivaled bliss.REMEMBERING LOVE Remember when Love was enough. Even when times were tough? It got you through. . With nothing else. Family meant we were whole. A time I surely miss. Surviving by itself.
Our whole lives lost.LOST LIVES Here we go again. So much to say. I hold my breath. I smile. Still alone. You stare at the floor. But nothing’s said. Turning into weeks. hours. The seconds. you grin. I look elsewhere instead. Because we never speak. We drift together. And here we are In elder years. You try to read my face. minutes. And we’ve both paid the cost. . Yet nothing was said. Just like the day before. So much to say. days.
MY WIFE You bought me flowers today: Roses. . How I cherish you. Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said: I can’t live my life without Having you by my side. pink and red. I try my best. You are the reason why I work so hard. With you is where my heart lies. Although I seldom tell you so. I think of you before I rest. My wife.
KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS I lose a piece of me every day. But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside. Or use my fists. I disappear with every word you say. Curse her name. . And you think they’re just words. How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her. Call her a bitch.
. He’d cherish them because they were mine. He’d cherish the ground I walked on. It wouldn’t matter if they were his. And even love my kids. He’d love every part of me. He’d always take care of me. He wouldn’t see anyone else. A perfect world For him and me. Live together happily.THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME Oh. I wouldn’t want for anything. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often. That man I made for me. No one else would matter. Put me before himself.
Let me laugh after I’ve cried. Supporting me until the end. I put you first. so I may rise. Guiding me along the way. You’re by my side. You guide. And so. In you. this is why I will believe With Your Word. Lord. Get me through to a new start. I put you first. And so. And so. Whether I am right or wrong. You let me fall. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day. And I’ll always put you first. I lead My life in Your hands. I put your first. as I carry on.I PUT YOU FIRST You’ve been there Since day one. that’s the way it will be. Bring me light after the dark. I have a faithful friend. .
He is the Lord above. the path I walk. He has my unwavering faith. He’s got my map. I think he’s psychic see. My whole world. Mouths the words before I talk. With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day. Says what I think before I do. He knows my mind. He knows the goings on inside of me.FAITH He came today and shook my soul. I don’t know nothing anymore. . He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break. predicts my moves. he’s taken hold. And I thought I knew it all.
It shines so bright. Sets me free. It’s impossible to hide a lie. If asked. A lie won’t hide. Won’t stay inside. Rains down on me. you know. No matter how hard you try. . I would have told you so. You can’t contain What will remain. A cover will not work.LIES AND TRUTH The truth is the light.
Flipping a script You no longer own. . Took years to find. So that confidence. For the entire world to see. I can’t lie low. The chains are gone. Yes. Now I’m free. ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be. Who I am inside. Can’t keep me down no more. powering my soul. Was in a fog. The square peg now fits the hole. Realizing who I am. Has built a wall that can’t be broken. I got it now.REALIZATION The beauty of it all. Screaming to me in my own song. but now I see The truth I bought now sold.
Stealing my light. It’s all around. Like the way That evil does. .ENDING THE PAIN This world of pain. breathlessly. finally. too. So much to bear. So I say my last goodbye. But. All consuming. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today. Everywhere. Now is the end for me. The pain will end. Staining the air. Killing my mind And spirit. I’ll be with you forever now. And I cannot escape. A better place awaits me. through the fog I can’t see. I try to fight.
same old thing. It calls to me and screams my name. But radio’s no better. For fear of what it might say. . So I block it and stay inside. Live by his word and let him see. I’ll start my fight by changing me.CHANGING ME I couldn’t watch the news today. Can’t let this dark swallow my light. I vow to do the best I can. Start my task with one woman. I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. Enough to drive the sane insane. Everyone’s fighting or arguing. Or found dead. Someone’s missing. Guess I’ll listen to radio instead.
The pain inside just wouldn’t die. I pierce the layer that I see. I had to go because it stayed. Now I’m gone. I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay. Cutting deeper still. Now my pain has gone away. After all the blood had dried. Finally free. I couldn’t cry. The one underneath’s too tough. But blood is not enough. I took the pain away with me. The pain still wouldn’t go away. .BREAKING FREE I try to cut the pain away. Although it hurt. I’m the one it killed.
. For the other half of you.MY SON SHINES Long ago I dreamt of you. You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues. By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away. I feared it was not true. The love I thought I had to have. But through it all. Only the mixture that I needed. Although you were not yet mine. I stood tall. I held you tight and kissed your cheek. A battle I couldn’t lose. Before you were inside. Here I stand forever.
Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me. .KNOWING ME Do you really know who I am. Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know. me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me.
. It moves my hips. Dance with me tonight. Dance with me tonight.DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT I feel the music From deep within. Your song instead. The rhythm stirs Inside my head. I feel the beat. My arms they sway That away. Please play for me. Made for sin. Dance with me tonight. It moves my feet.
We older folks can tolerate. They’ll wish we stopped you just in time. So hold them tight. So here is where they’ll stay. Pain can be an awful thing. .TOO SOON Gone too soon. Your will was not as strong. It’s sad to know your time is done. But many will always care. We didn’t have you long. What younger ones can’t fare. And let them know An early end’s no way to go. Though your beauty will last always. Sometimes too much to bare. To make sure you were still here. Help them push the pain aside.
Too many eyes Cover me. You lay still. I approach. . I knew you were there After all.THE BROWN WIDOW You wait for me In the dark. You’re poisonous. Hoping you’re asleep. But you’re too quick. I hold my breath. Why did I go? I should have paused. I wait till day To go your way. You strike so fast. Await my move. Hoping you snoozed.
DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight.THE TIME IS NOW Slow down. It will be just right. Live your best life now. . Take your time.
take a peak. Specific to each owner. We get a glimpse. Years later we get another glimpse. Where it shines the best. But often forget where it lies. Our inner superstar Was always there inside. Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. it lies inside. Residing where it’s meant to be. It differs from the rest. . Remembering where it first shined. And then peaked out often.INNER SUPERSTAR We possess it early on. After we have forgotten. Dormant.
We make a turn on our own. But we get in the way.LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL Life tries to take the wheel. Be patient. Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down. Listen for what life has in store. Its view widens so we may see. But then we find courage inside And turn it all around. While hiding in our youth. Life’s not all a mystery. It shows its face in elder years. Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. Without listening to what it has to say. .
And you’re gone. At least. Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so. . This I didn’t know. until tomorrow. Now tomorrow’s here. I took for granted you’d be here. I’m so sorry I was wrong.TOO LATE You were mine On borrowed time.
spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do. .AHA MOMENT Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise.
COLORS OF ME There are many Shades of me. When ready. Like many colors of the rainbow. A darker color when we fight. When wide awake. A range of shades for everything. A blue for when I’m feeling low. Neon bright. a light yellow. I can be any hue I want to be. I’m an aubergine. They cover you And color me. Relaxed for when I sleep. A softer shade. I shine brightly for all to see. Growing daily like the evergreen. . Black or white. I change from day-to-day. you know.
It sings to me from deep inside. I think in rhyme. The sadness that you may see. rhyming All the time. And it makes up The best of me. I don’t know how Or even why. Thinking. The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow.A POET’S SONG I live in verse. breathing poetry . Living. Is all poetry to me.
. Shine from underneath? Is it dim. The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow. barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath.BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH Just how bright Is your light.
And offers me its words to eat. It invites me in. I am your friend. Encourages me With its warm smile. It sets me free. Then sings to me In special notes.POETRY LIVES HERE A door has opened up for me. Inside that room lives poetry. It says to me. Says take a seat. It embraces me. . Says stay awhile. I open up. It offers me a place to stay. It comforts me. Then takes my coat. And says Please come back any day.
That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss. The wisdom I possess. I am woman.KNOWING MY WORTH Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice. I can erase? If I frighten. or shock you. Shape of my thighs. It’s because I am beauty. Curve of my waist. . The knowledge I give. And I know my worth. The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back. The pleasures I possess. The comfort of my embrace. Knowing that your fears. I am life. offend.
We are the best of all beings. Rewarded with so many qualities.OF ALL BEINGS Fellow women of today. . you should abhor. One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth. Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man. Forgetting it.
THE LONG ROAD HOME I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead. What a lovely ride. A sight I almost see. . Did mostly as I pleased. Happiness and long-lost friends. Held some hands along the way. My destination is on my mind. Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me. I can’t wait for mine. Thinking of how it will be. Every road must come to an end. I smile and hold it inside.
Sounds fully.” The willow weeps. The signs are there For you to see. Close your eyes.THE SOUND OF SIGNS I hear the birds chirping. “Your time is here. As if saying to me. It is today. “The time has come For you to leave.” The tree breaths. Listen closely. As if to say. Giving the breeze What it needs. .
Or we all lose. It’s not too late. I’ve grabbed my pen. . What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot. What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man.A CALL TO ARMS *STOP* Turn off your television set. This is not a test.
Though we’re apart.HOME My home is where I lay my head And pray at night. Where true love lives. My home is where I chose to be. My home can be one place or a few. My home is where I leave my heart. My home may just be with you. Where happiness lives Indefinitely. . Beside the bed.
And in our haste. A trick used to confuse the mind. . This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet. But what lies inside. And miss out on the better prize. So easy to believe a lie.THE BETTER PRIZE The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade. Although it seems quite odd. Should crown our lover’s throne. Ignorant to what’s inside. Open your foolish eyes. The better prize. We turn away. We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone. It passes instantly.
And I know more will surely come. Save some work. I remember to relax today.RELAXING MY MIND Been a long day. My body’s weary. I’ve seen this day before. But I know things will be fine. . Try to balance both and remain whole. add some play. Unfortunately. too. Time to sit and rest my mind. that’s the way life goes. I’m tired already. Spirit.
I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been. And I know nothing else. And pray trouble runs out of time. So I continue to Keep hope alive. and I stay safe. Why won’t it set me free? . I’ve given up on happiness. It must lie somewhere else. It should be tired of me. Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me. Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free. Where all is calm. Surrounded by my friends.TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME Trouble road begins at my door.
To ride with you.THE GREATEST ESCAPE Slow down for me. How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on. Away I go To a better place. I close my eyes. Even the belt Won’t keep me safe. As I brace For the crash. And then thank God I learned to fly. Look to the sky. You’re driving too fast. There is no room. No space for me. Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape. . You’re speeding now. You smile at me And hit the gas. Without your brakes.
Premeditated steps I take with no regrets. Covering your insides. afterall. I wait until it’s dark. Worried about the fall. Can never take the leap. Worried I’ll be found. . The snipers waiting for that clear shot.THE FALL Land mines. So much to lose. Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two. Afraid to make a sound. everything I’ve got.
Scared to make a move.MAKING MOVES Every now and then. You’re right where you need to be. Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know. That moment is meant just for you To make your move. Hope our move won’t make a mess. We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go. Then we realize The move was just right. We wish for the best. And we’re finally on track. Make your move. Don’t be scared to let go. . Take a step and not look back. Do what you say. Don’t be afraid.
. The final bell has rung. And now half my life’s Just floated away.WINNING THE RACE I’ve wasted too much time. I’ve already won the race. I never saw the signs. It never waits. Life just passes by. Light miles ahead. It’s time to take my rightful place. And now the time is here For me to finally shine. Or what they tried to say. Focused on today. Although my mouth is closed. My eyes are opened wide.
Because when I need someone to vent to. You know I’m really into it. And I need you there. Even when I want to vent About nothing at all. You call me. Taking it all in. I’m glad I have you in my life. It’s so innocent. You listen when I talk. indeed.TRUE FRIENDS I call you. But we’re just friends. The times we share. . You always take my call. I need you to show me Just how I should be. A true friend.
We need to learn What to say. Often times Those little things Should remain a secret.KEEPING SECRETS Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing. There are times When we may find Some things troubling. And what things we should keep. .
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.
Too much for me to hold inside. I’m coming in! . Ready for me to begin. So much to do. Hold the door.FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD Listen up! I got lots to say. So little time. No more sitting still for me today.
I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go.WHEN YOU COME FOR ME When you come for me. I will be ready. I’m looking forward to the trip ahead. In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again. I won’t be sad. Waiting for you to take me to some other place. I’m tired today. When you come for me. When you come for me. When you come for me. . This life has gotten really bad.
Desire being my excuse. Just how a smudge succeeds. You open up. . Guess I’m in too deep. Giving in to your every want and need. Can’t get rid of me. but don’t know what to say. Loving the way That I confuse.A MERE SMUDGE I’m a smudge on your window pane.
That I can’t survive on my own. accept your smile.A PRISONER’S LIFE I want to be free. You say it’ll never be. Drink my wine. Locked away indefinitely. But I’m the one that pays the toll. A prisoner’s life is what I lead. You say. “Celebrate with me. Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape. . Not knowing poison’s inside. I try and try To live your life.” I take a sip.
Make your move. No one to help me with this one. I’ll guide you. And That’s just what I’ll do.AT A CROSSROADS Here I am. And I finally see. Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be. Either way. All at once. I hear. It hit me hard. it’ll be done. Close your eyes. Decision time tonight. . A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go.
They didn’t live here.DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY Sad songs are all I heard. They silenced all the tears. Too scared to move. From this life I need more. Happiness and joyful days. Arguments. . Awkward distance. So they don’t live here no more. And I held on. I can’t always be afraid. Year after year. I’ve got to drive those blues away. Mainly out of fear.
HOW How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning? .
IT. . shall pass. Consuming who it occupies. But … It. It’s got places to go. And pain’s waiting At another’s door. It. Because nothing ever lasts Of pain. TOO. too. SHALL PASS Pain can’t last forever. That bell it rings. Making you believe you died. Taking over everything. shall pass. too. Till only it survives.
For the misery in store. And I fight with my head high. Fight to keep it all in order. But the price I pay is worth being free.HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE I try to hold my head above water. . Holding onto my pride. Try not to let the weight get me down. Every day is a fight for me. I suit up for the war. Try to turn it all around.
It’s become customary To point out all the flaws. Our downfall in the end. Believing those wicked smiles. We don’t see What lies within. Although we are among friends. Such a wicked game to play. .OUR DOWNFALL We are a sad society: So quick to judge. All the while hiding ours. Mistakes that others seem to make. So afraid of being called out our name. Skirt the blame. Point fingers.
The only way truly to be free.BEING FREE I won’t let you change who I am. . Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be.
This thought had become commonplace. My world finally mine.MY WORLD Sometime ago I lost myself. Picked up where I had left off. What treasures lied within. Now it’s time for me to grow. It’s how I lived my life. Remembering who I was. Concentrating on what I’m meant to do. Time for me to shine. Don’t know how long it’s been. Just the way a record does. I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine. My eyes are open now. . Forgot who I was inside.
It’s there. I know. Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine.MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine. . Although it tries to hide. See … I’m making it my goal.
My spirit nearly broken. But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat. My mind said all was lost. Hope not within my reach. But I’m on the mend. As the pieces began to mend. So glad that I had faith. Thought there was no escape.NEARLY BROKEN Thought it was the end of me. I begin again. . Nearly broken.
She’s happy.MY FRIEND Oh. She loves me more than anything. . and a wife. That friend I’ve found is me. She’s beautiful And full of life. A mother. She knows how much I meant to her. daughter. the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while. Because she knows her worth.
The other upside down. Saying everything With just a smirk. The stories they tell Without saying a word. One right-side up. .THE SMILE AND THE FROWN Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown.
REMAINING LONELY Loneliness. The love I lost. . Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip. have mercy on me. Memories barely keep me warm. Instead. I’d rather have my love with me. I’ll forever mourn. I remain lonely. Loosen your lover’s grip.
Imagine your worst fear.FEAR INSIDE I challenge you To sit in silence. Close your eyes. What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside? . Take a sigh. Visualize it’s there In front of you.
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.
But to you. feelings are no big deal. Waiting once more. I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time. So here I sit. My time no longer mine. I should say How I feel.WAITING All I do Is wait around for you. Until you walk through my door. .
you know. Because this I’m thankful for.SINGING TODAY FOR YOU Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time. So I sing today for you. .
Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out. I’m not listening anyway.NOT LISTENING Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago. I don’t care what you have to say. . Yet your mouth moves constantly. Though I don’t listen any more.
. You know me Better Than I ever could know. Loving everything I am. Looking through The window to my soul.WINDOW TO MY SOUL I see you Through the window to my soul. And what I’m meant to be. Taking in all you see. You watch and study me.
Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud? You’re pretty for a black girl.PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL You’re pretty for a black girl. Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth. . You’re pretty for a black girl. What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me? You’re pretty for a black girl. Am I supposed to smile. Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more. Thank you for letting me know.
you are beautiful.FOR MY SISTERS My sister. Thought I should tell you so. you know. Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen. . Beauty lying inside and out. Thought I should let you know.
The time we have is now.THE TIME IS NOW The only time we have is now. Even if we’ve forgotten. To feel how it should be. This place we’ve gotten to somehow. To show each other why we’re here. To share all we’ve got. Seeing all we’re meant to see. .
She writes poetry.BIO Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school. Her first publication was a short story entitled. She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons.” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten. short stories. and songs. . “The Amazing Mr. Glonka.
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