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Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved. ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition .
Make your mark. Blake. Devante. I love you. and Jaden. Brandon. Mom .For my boys. The world is yours.
CONTENTS Title Page Copyright Page LOVE Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone .
The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You .
LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me LIFE I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song .
Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How .
too. Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now .It.
Bake your bread. I live for you At your command. My world expands. For you. I make your food. I smile for you. By loving you. You are my light Through the dark.LOVING YOU As you awake. As you breathe. I do it all. Wash your clothes. Handle with care. Giving you more than my last. What lovers do. Clean the floors. All you have to do is ask. . Be your lover and more. I leave my mark.
All thanks to you. The monster made.THANKS TO YOU Cold. My evil eyes are full of spite. Rotten to the very core. heartless. All thanks to you. Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth. Bitter through and through. Blacker than the darkest night. . Only anger in this place.
And you haven’t said a word. I feel your hands all over me. . Your gaze has only reached my thighs.WITHOUT WORDS I know you like what you see. it heaves to my surprise. I see the way you look at me. My chest. Caress my cheek from where you stand. Licking your lips. woman and man. And still not a word. Felling the heat between you and me. you lift your hand. Don’t have to say a word. My hips move to your beat. Now face-to-face. You didn’t have to say a word. I see your eyes start at my feet. I kiss your lips. I quench your thirst.
Requesting more so you can live. Bare for all to see. The rest gone down the drain. . Still shaded by your tree. And now my shell is all I have. You’ve taken all I have to give. My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. I gave my all for you to live. The years I lost. And you never saw me. just wasted time. I shed my skin. Emptied my soul. My end is here. But you don’t see me. The foolishness I left behind.WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME Here I stand out in front. It’s over now.
built-in trust. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh. You are my summer. In the end it was always us. We from the start. We have grown together. We bring forth our new ecstasy. it’s just you and me. No you and I. Please stay a while. A constant cold stuns my heart. The heat I crave to feel at night. A smile that warms the coldest night. All is still.SEASONS OF LOVE A light is shining bright. You are my fall. living long it must. You are my spring. A love so grand. Our love is blossoming for all to see. Existing even after the end. . You are my winter.
. just let me be. Just let me be. I need to feel the pain inside of me. my worst fear. I’ve got to let the burn roam free. Don’t want you to dry my eyes. You must understand my need to be here. Just let this pain pierce my skin. I want to cry. I killed your love for me. oh please. So. I need the anger. Not bottle it up inside of me. The damage done won’t disappear.BROKEN Please. Don’t want happiness here again. please.
I would call in sick. Hold your hand. I would make a meal For you and me. Open my eyes. Make love to you without saying a word. Feed you by hand. Wash your feet Late that night. You on my mind. Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. No worry about what could be heard. Silently gazing In your eyes. My love always. I’d say. gazing upon your face. It would always be this way. Enjoy the day. . Our fingers intertwined. Sitting by your side. That I’d never leave. I would promise you. Forever stay. Me in your heart.MY LAST DAY I would wake up a little late.
.That’s how I would spend My last day.
it will be us. You see I gave my word in front of God. You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. if you yell. You curse and scream. I will show up. I’ll show up. You spit my name With twisted face. I’ll show up. just know I won’t be walking out the door. Face so mean. So when you’re mad as hell. . Till this life ends. I’ll show up. The very last one to show up.I WILL SHOW UP If I yell. I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you. Through thick and thin when times are hard. And I will always show up.
Just here for me to feel alright. No. Not here to be your girl tonight. it’s what you heard. we don’t have to talk or say a word. You can find someone else to fill those shoes. So close your lips and take my hand.WHAT I NEED No. Lie down with me in this moment. I don’t want to be your girl. It’s not my place to be her for you. I’m telling you. . Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do. And give me what I need. Yeah. Cover me with ecstasy. And give me what I need. Just take me on into the room. Don’t want to chill or hang with you.
I am love. Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me. Cannot be dimmed. My glow shines through the darkness. . After the end. Brightness everlasting. I will remain.LOVE ALL OVER ME Smiling all twenty four. And I will forge ahead. I color the winter’s night. I am the Milky Way. Brighter than the night’s sky.
. Intoxicating.HYPNOTIZED Fine As the darkest wine. I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized.
A dozen women for a dime. A part-time love is not enough. . God. Can’t compete with street life. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man. Just like the day before. I fear. Not just the night-time one you sell. Love shouldn’t have to be this rough. I’ll hold it down and set you free. as well. Why do I compete With the streets. I know my needs fall on deaf ears. Don’t sell away your half from me.SETTING YOU FREE Here I wait Today for you.
At 10:30. I hold on tight for the ride. At 11:30. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry. Swinging and swaying to your moods. Pray to God that I don’t cry. Although the truth lies elsewhere. Say forgive me this time. nasty at 10. time for hell again. and I love you more than anything. You say you’re sorry all the time. . Maybe this time is the last time. I’m coming back. hell begins. Nice at 8. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry. And try to make it back from hell again.HELL AND BACK I go through hell to be with you. But it’s 1. Time to put me back on track.
too. I pray that you’re still looking. still searching. Not giving up. I wonder if you’re like me. . Even met some dogs. If the perfect one waits somewhere for you. too? I’ve been waiting oh so long.SEARCHING Where are you? Are you searching for me. But my conviction still remains strong. Out there trying to see. And also trying to find me. Kissed so many frogs.
Love pulls you in. It smiles at you and then frowns. So hold on tight. It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything.LOVE’S SURPRISE Sometimes love throws you a curve. Pretends to stay. And just await your love’s surprise. And surprises you with no regrets. It takes you up. It flows outside the lines. . Refuses to be confined. But love can also be so sweet. then drops you down. Enjoy the ride. It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect. and Evaporates to your dismay. Can pick you up and be complete. Sometimes love takes broader shape.
. It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined. So glad to have you In my life. by my side. Give me the world. I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time. Tell me it’s all mine. Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do. Just what I’m meant to do. And I rule the roost.WE LIFT EACH OTHER You lift me up For the world to see. The queen I’m meant to be. You show me how Real love should be with you. I tell you you’re The best at what you do. Standing tall.
And try to break me. You pile it on Because I can take it. Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile. Pretend to care. All others be damned. Say some words. Because your plan is number one.THE WARNING It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you. Curse my name. But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy. . You’re having fun. You had a plan all the while. And then not care Who you hurt.
I’d miss everything. The happiness I felt inside. The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared. “My darling. About you. I’d say to you. “Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared.MISSING YOU “What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say.” . The joy and laughter every night.
You’re with me On my way.YOU WEAR IT WELL I wear you on my sleeve. Not Ivory or Irish Spring. It’s not cologne or soap. I inhale you on my shirt. You follow me Through the day. That fragrence I know so well. You line the pleats of my skirt. Take you when I leave. That essence that I smell. you know. An aroma only you possess. So distinct. Separating you from the rest. And you wear it well. Whether at work or at play. your scent. . Whether night or day.
We laugh. Alone is not what we do. Realizing It won’t work apart. Like children Not yet grown. Can’t make it on our own. We hurt. Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through. The shit we say.NOT ALONE The games we play. And then we pray. .
Your life tells me so. You don’t need to say it. I brought a new place for you. This much I truly know. Order lives where chaos dwelled. Because you are the best of me. With me. The light replaced the dark.THE BEST OF ME I make up the best of you. I’m proud to see what you’ve become. A freshness for our start. A prize for all to see. . And I know I make up the best of you.
you see. But that kink. you still see that link. . Looking okay. Hoping things are as good as new. The chain contains a kink. Although repaired. Will forever change the way I now look at you. You try to move along. Thinking that you’re done.TRUST It’s like a broken fence: When mended.
With eyes of auburn. Skin of chocolate. . I fear you love yourself More than you love me. For the chocolate and the caramel.SHADES OF ME How can you not love me. Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love. You don’t even see.
I take you to another place. And I wait With your love’s escape. A world where only you escape: A world of beaches. A world that rivals Disneyland.LOVE’S ESCAPE I know where your happiness lies. It’s embedded between my thighs. I’m ready now. Powder-white sand. .
Is not simple In my eyes. Though simple it may be. Not so simple to me. To live in hell Or go be free.THE CHOICE The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. A simple choice It may seem. A place Finally to be me. .
Don’t forget yesterday. Although you’re okay today. Face twisted mean. an enemy. That voice appears and says. I truly thought you understood. Did you forget yesterday? The screaming and the yelling. So it may seem. Did you forget yesterday? A friend today. Yesterday.DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY Every time it’s going good. No matter what a friend may say. .
Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I. .WHAT WE DESERVE Do you deserve All that I do. Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me. Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve. You can’t say yes. Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess. to be with you? I can’t say no.
No time to cry. dry your eyes. Another smiling face. We tried to make it work. Your true love awaits. Because I see the truth. Fully awake. I fear. . it’s not meant to be.THE TRUTH I’m sad today. But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you. And I’m not the one for you. Truth is you’re not the one for me. I know it’s not what you want to hear. But. So. Life alone brings doubts and fears. You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. It may just be Around the corner.
In a perfect world. We’d never fight. You’d agree with me. Your love to give For me always. You’d only have eyes for me. There would be no other for you. And I can only dream. I’d be all you see.A PERFECT WORLD In a perfect world. Sadly. In a perfect world. And sit by my side. In a perfect world. You’d forever stay. I’d always be right. today it’s not that way. You’d hold me tight. . It’d be you and I. Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem.
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.
FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.
We lie in wait. It is so easy for me to smile. You should have never estimated The power of my mind. For the right time. Believed that when you closed the door. Pretend I’m okay inside. It was fine to say goodbye.LYING IN WAIT I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies. The perfect moment to strike. . We plot our moves From the go. Women are cunning creatures you know.
When you would let me go. It hurts to be in this spot. That’s too damn bad. Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day.MOVING ON I wait for you in the lot. Because you set me free. Where I said I’d be. Because it’s all I know. But I fear your mind’s made up. I can’t forget what we had. You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had. . Now I sit and wait for you. Thought the day would never come. Hoping it’s not too late.
Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte. I ask you all the time To treat me like I need. But I don’t think It will ever be. It’s not enough for me. .NOT YOUR FORTE I tell you I need more. You look into my eyes. Give me no reply. And sleep.
But … I wanted you.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. And now I sit. What I see Is not really you. For the real you can never love me. How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all. so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show. Although I know the truth. . Alone with the truth after the fall.
Miss what we had. So you can finally see. hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. You say you don’t care. Yeah.A LOVE LIKE MINE You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone. . you think you know it all. Think it’s all a big game. And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same. Go ahead. I really hope you find her soon. Make your move. The way I kissed you late at night. You’re gonna miss me so damn bad. That there are many more like me. And please. But time will tell.
. If I let it inside. Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me. Your love will make Me lose my mind. Your love will kill My spirit. If that’s what I let it do. If I let it be.TERMINAL LOVE Your love will be The end of me. too.
Showing me the man That you’re proud to be. . You tell me that I’m beautiful. It’s great to be by your side.THE LITTLE THINGS It’s the little things I appreciate. And that I deserve the best. They don’t have to cost a thing. I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do. Ignoring all the rest. Holding my hand. To live this life with you. You’re blind to all that temptation outside.
And it’s your fault. I let you do what you want to. Because all you thought about was you. I finally love me more that you do.LOVING ME My anger grows. My spirit knows It’s your fault. . I’m the one who made you into you. You discourage me. My spirit grows. Don’t want to hear my words. And it’s my fault. My anger knows It’s my fault. You don’t encourage me. Because you need to be first.
. I still believe in love. I’m a fan of love. But it won’t knock at my door. Although it’s not yet mine. Because someday love will set me free. I still believe in love. I lay out the welcome mat for love. Although it doesn’t live here. I will wait for love. Because I see it all the time. I will wait for love. Because it waits somewhere for me. Though it doesn’t live here no more. I lay out the welcome mat for love. I’d sit in the stands and cheer.A FAN OF LOVE I am a fan of love.
But we’re not meant to be. Your world is nothing like The one I’m from. You try to live in my realty. . Maybe that cloth Really is the same. When I don’t even know your name. A visitor from another place. If only in our eyes. Tell me why you’re in my space. You and I are not the same. But you won’t show your face. and you try To become you and I.A DIFFERENT CLOTH Cut from a different cloth. I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come. Yet you came.
Though the shitty lies you grab. . To do what I have to do. Honesty is within your reach. It’s nowhere inside of you. I don’t know why I ask for truth. So glad to have this new breakthrough.PROMISES Promises you fail to keep Are all I have.
Not taking your shit any more. I’m sick to hell of being under your spell. I’m like a moth to your flame. There’s no you and me in us for you. It’s your way or the door. twisted game. I try and try to be What you want from me. . But I’m tired of playing Your sick.NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE You can’t see me Past your superiority.
We’ll never be face-to-face. Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath.WINNING THE RACE I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight. Because you have to be first. You sprint along. . Trying to keep up. Can’t let me be in front. Because we both want to win the race. now by my side. First place is a space we both want. Two peas of a different pod.
I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections. . I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely. Co-existence is the only power You hold over me.POWER Looking through rose-colored glasses.
Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for. Why don’t I feel comfortable. indeed. . Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts. but the one I should let go.SING FOR YOU Why don’t I sing for you? A good question.
how you love to tell your lovely lies. I laugh along in my defense. Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh. Love. What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh. Just break your chains. . Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love. Let loose your hold of me. The jokes are all at my expense. And set me free. Love.LOVE Love.
A time of unrivaled bliss. . With nothing else. When unity was a goal. Family meant we were whole. Even when times were tough? It got you through.REMEMBERING LOVE Remember when Love was enough. A time I surely miss. Surviving by itself.
Turning into weeks. So much to say. Just like the day before. . We drift together. I hold my breath. Our whole lives lost. The seconds. days. hours. You try to read my face. Yet nothing was said. you grin. And here we are In elder years. I look elsewhere instead. But nothing’s said. minutes. I smile. And we’ve both paid the cost. Because we never speak. Still alone. So much to say. You stare at the floor.LOST LIVES Here we go again.
Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said: I can’t live my life without Having you by my side. .MY WIFE You bought me flowers today: Roses. You are the reason why I work so hard. My wife. pink and red. Although I seldom tell you so. I think of you before I rest. With you is where my heart lies. How I cherish you. I try my best.
. And you think they’re just words. Or use my fists.KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS I lose a piece of me every day. But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside. How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her. I disappear with every word you say. Curse her name. Call her a bitch.
Put me before himself. He wouldn’t see anyone else. I wouldn’t want for anything. He’d cherish them because they were mine. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often. A perfect world For him and me. He’d cherish the ground I walked on. He’d love every part of me. He’d always take care of me. It wouldn’t matter if they were his. No one else would matter. That man I made for me. .THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME Oh. And even love my kids. Live together happily.
And I’ll always put you first. I lead My life in Your hands. You’re by my side. And so. as I carry on. You guide. this is why I will believe With Your Word. Lord. Supporting me until the end. In you. I have a faithful friend. I put you first.I PUT YOU FIRST You’ve been there Since day one. Whether I am right or wrong. You let me fall. Let me laugh after I’ve cried. And so. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day. that’s the way it will be. Get me through to a new start. Bring me light after the dark. . so I may rise. I put your first. Guiding me along the way. And so. I put you first.
He is the Lord above. He knows the goings on inside of me. He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break. I think he’s psychic see. he’s taken hold. He’s got my map. With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day. He has my unwavering faith.FAITH He came today and shook my soul. Mouths the words before I talk. I don’t know nothing anymore. the path I walk. My whole world. Says what I think before I do. predicts my moves. And I thought I knew it all. He knows my mind. .
A lie won’t hide. It shines so bright. You can’t contain What will remain. Rains down on me. Sets me free. A cover will not work. No matter how hard you try. If asked. I would have told you so.LIES AND TRUTH The truth is the light. Won’t stay inside. . you know. It’s impossible to hide a lie.
Screaming to me in my own song. Yes.REALIZATION The beauty of it all. Who I am inside. Now I’m free. Realizing who I am. Flipping a script You no longer own. Was in a fog. So that confidence. . powering my soul. I can’t lie low. I got it now. Has built a wall that can’t be broken. Took years to find. Can’t keep me down no more. The square peg now fits the hole. For the entire world to see. but now I see The truth I bought now sold. The chains are gone. ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be.
. Like the way That evil does. I try to fight. And I cannot escape. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today. So I say my last goodbye. So much to bear. I’ll be with you forever now.ENDING THE PAIN This world of pain. Killing my mind And spirit. breathlessly. All consuming. finally. through the fog I can’t see. too. The pain will end. A better place awaits me. Stealing my light. Everywhere. Now is the end for me. Staining the air. It’s all around. But.
CHANGING ME I couldn’t watch the news today. Enough to drive the sane insane. Can’t let this dark swallow my light. So I block it and stay inside. Guess I’ll listen to radio instead. For fear of what it might say. Someone’s missing. I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. . I vow to do the best I can. I’ll start my fight by changing me. Or found dead. Live by his word and let him see. Start my task with one woman. Everyone’s fighting or arguing. same old thing. It calls to me and screams my name. But radio’s no better.
Cutting deeper still. The pain inside just wouldn’t die. I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay. Now my pain has gone away. The pain still wouldn’t go away.BREAKING FREE I try to cut the pain away. Finally free. I’m the one it killed. The one underneath’s too tough. I pierce the layer that I see. But blood is not enough. After all the blood had dried. I had to go because it stayed. Now I’m gone. . I took the pain away with me. I couldn’t cry. Although it hurt.
For the other half of you. I feared it was not true. The love I thought I had to have. Although you were not yet mine. By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away. Here I stand forever. Only the mixture that I needed. A battle I couldn’t lose. You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues.MY SON SHINES Long ago I dreamt of you. I held you tight and kissed your cheek. . But through it all. Before you were inside. I stood tall.
me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me. Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me. Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know.KNOWING ME Do you really know who I am. .
It moves my hips. I feel the beat. Made for sin. Dance with me tonight. . It moves my feet. Dance with me tonight. My arms they sway That away. Your song instead.DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT I feel the music From deep within. Please play for me. The rhythm stirs Inside my head. Dance with me tonight.
We didn’t have you long. But many will always care. . So hold them tight. We older folks can tolerate. What younger ones can’t fare. Your will was not as strong. It’s sad to know your time is done. Pain can be an awful thing. And let them know An early end’s no way to go.TOO SOON Gone too soon. So here is where they’ll stay. They’ll wish we stopped you just in time. To make sure you were still here. Sometimes too much to bare. Help them push the pain aside. Though your beauty will last always.
THE BROWN WIDOW You wait for me In the dark. You lay still. I approach. Hoping you snoozed. Await my move. . You’re poisonous. I hold my breath. I knew you were there After all. But you’re too quick. You strike so fast. Why did I go? I should have paused. I wait till day To go your way. Hoping you’re asleep. Too many eyes Cover me.
DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight. Live your best life now.THE TIME IS NOW Slow down. Take your time. . It will be just right.
it lies inside. Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. After we have forgotten. take a peak. And then peaked out often. Years later we get another glimpse. Remembering where it first shined.INNER SUPERSTAR We possess it early on. Residing where it’s meant to be. Where it shines the best. But often forget where it lies. Specific to each owner. . Our inner superstar Was always there inside. Dormant. It differs from the rest. We get a glimpse.
Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down.LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL Life tries to take the wheel. Its view widens so we may see. While hiding in our youth. But then we find courage inside And turn it all around. Without listening to what it has to say. Be patient. Listen for what life has in store. Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. We make a turn on our own. But we get in the way. It shows its face in elder years. . Life’s not all a mystery.
At least. . I’m so sorry I was wrong. Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so. I took for granted you’d be here. This I didn’t know.TOO LATE You were mine On borrowed time. Now tomorrow’s here. until tomorrow. And you’re gone.
spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do.AHA MOMENT Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise. .
A darker color when we fight. A softer shade. . I shine brightly for all to see. When ready. I can be any hue I want to be. A range of shades for everything. I’m an aubergine. Like many colors of the rainbow. Neon bright. a light yellow. When wide awake. A blue for when I’m feeling low. Growing daily like the evergreen. I change from day-to-day.COLORS OF ME There are many Shades of me. Relaxed for when I sleep. Black or white. They cover you And color me. you know.
The sadness that you may see. I don’t know how Or even why. rhyming All the time. The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow. breathing poetry . Is all poetry to me. I think in rhyme. And it makes up The best of me. Thinking. Living.A POET’S SONG I live in verse. It sings to me from deep inside.
barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath. .BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH Just how bright Is your light. The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow. Shine from underneath? Is it dim.
It sets me free. It embraces me. Says take a seat. Then sings to me In special notes. Then takes my coat. Says stay awhile. It says to me. Encourages me With its warm smile.POETRY LIVES HERE A door has opened up for me. I open up. It comforts me. It offers me a place to stay. . It invites me in. I am your friend. Inside that room lives poetry. And says Please come back any day. And offers me its words to eat.
The comfort of my embrace.KNOWING MY WORTH Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice. I am woman. The wisdom I possess. The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back. . Knowing that your fears. It’s because I am beauty. Shape of my thighs. The knowledge I give. I can erase? If I frighten. or shock you. And I know my worth. That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss. Curve of my waist. The pleasures I possess. offend. I am life.
Rewarded with so many qualities. . We are the best of all beings. you should abhor. One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth. Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man.OF ALL BEINGS Fellow women of today. Forgetting it.
Every road must come to an end. My destination is on my mind.THE LONG ROAD HOME I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead. What a lovely ride. Held some hands along the way. Did mostly as I pleased. Happiness and long-lost friends. I can’t wait for mine. I smile and hold it inside. Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me. Thinking of how it will be. . A sight I almost see.
As if to say.” The tree breaths.” The willow weeps. Giving the breeze What it needs. The signs are there For you to see. It is today. Close your eyes. Listen closely. As if saying to me. “Your time is here. “The time has come For you to leave. . Sounds fully.THE SOUND OF SIGNS I hear the birds chirping.
A CALL TO ARMS *STOP* Turn off your television set. This is not a test. What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man. Or we all lose. It’s not too late. . I’ve grabbed my pen. What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot.
HOME My home is where I lay my head And pray at night. Beside the bed. My home is where I chose to be. Though we’re apart. My home may just be with you. My home is where I leave my heart. Where happiness lives Indefinitely. Where true love lives. . My home can be one place or a few.
THE BETTER PRIZE The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade. It passes instantly. And miss out on the better prize. A trick used to confuse the mind. Although it seems quite odd. This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet. Should crown our lover’s throne. We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone. The better prize. But what lies inside. Open your foolish eyes. And in our haste. We turn away. So easy to believe a lie. Ignorant to what’s inside. .
I’m tired already. that’s the way life goes. too. Spirit. Unfortunately. And I know more will surely come.RELAXING MY MIND Been a long day. . Time to sit and rest my mind. Save some work. I’ve seen this day before. I remember to relax today. Try to balance both and remain whole. My body’s weary. But I know things will be fine. add some play.
And pray trouble runs out of time. Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free. I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been. So I continue to Keep hope alive. It should be tired of me. Where all is calm. Surrounded by my friends. and I stay safe.TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME Trouble road begins at my door. It must lie somewhere else. And I know nothing else. Why won’t it set me free? . Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me. I’ve given up on happiness.
To ride with you. I close my eyes. You’re driving too fast. You’re speeding now. Without your brakes. There is no room.THE GREATEST ESCAPE Slow down for me. How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on. And then thank God I learned to fly. Look to the sky. You smile at me And hit the gas. Away I go To a better place. . Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape. No space for me. Even the belt Won’t keep me safe. As I brace For the crash.
Afraid to make a sound. . Worried about the fall. The snipers waiting for that clear shot. afterall. So much to lose. everything I’ve got.THE FALL Land mines. Worried I’ll be found. I wait until it’s dark. Premeditated steps I take with no regrets. Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two. Can never take the leap. Covering your insides.
We wish for the best. That moment is meant just for you To make your move. Do what you say. Make your move. And we’re finally on track. You’re right where you need to be. Don’t be scared to let go. We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go. Hope our move won’t make a mess. Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know. Then we realize The move was just right.MAKING MOVES Every now and then. Scared to make a move. Take a step and not look back. . Don’t be afraid.
I’ve already won the race. It never waits. And now the time is here For me to finally shine. Life just passes by. Focused on today. Light miles ahead.WINNING THE RACE I’ve wasted too much time. Or what they tried to say. It’s time to take my rightful place. My eyes are opened wide. . Although my mouth is closed. I never saw the signs. And now half my life’s Just floated away. The final bell has rung.
It’s so innocent.TRUE FRIENDS I call you. You listen when I talk. And I need you there. But we’re just friends. indeed. You call me. Even when I want to vent About nothing at all. A true friend. Taking it all in. The times we share. . I need you to show me Just how I should be. You know I’m really into it. I’m glad I have you in my life. Because when I need someone to vent to. You always take my call.
We need to learn What to say. . And what things we should keep. Often times Those little things Should remain a secret.KEEPING SECRETS Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing. There are times When we may find Some things troubling.
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.
Ready for me to begin. So much to do.FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD Listen up! I got lots to say. Too much for me to hold inside. So little time. No more sitting still for me today. I’m coming in! . Hold the door.
.WHEN YOU COME FOR ME When you come for me. I will be ready. I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go. In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again. I’m looking forward to the trip ahead. Waiting for you to take me to some other place. When you come for me. When you come for me. This life has gotten really bad. When you come for me. I’m tired today. I won’t be sad.
Guess I’m in too deep.A MERE SMUDGE I’m a smudge on your window pane. Can’t get rid of me. Giving in to your every want and need. You open up. but don’t know what to say. . Loving the way That I confuse. Desire being my excuse. Just how a smudge succeeds.
Locked away indefinitely. You say. I try and try To live your life. Not knowing poison’s inside. accept your smile.” I take a sip. Drink my wine. A prisoner’s life is what I lead. “Celebrate with me. That I can’t survive on my own. Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape. .A PRISONER’S LIFE I want to be free. You say it’ll never be. But I’m the one that pays the toll.
AT A CROSSROADS Here I am. I’ll guide you. Either way. And I finally see. All at once. . No one to help me with this one. It hit me hard. And That’s just what I’ll do. I hear. Make your move. Close your eyes. A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go. Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be. it’ll be done. Decision time tonight.
They silenced all the tears. . Mainly out of fear. They didn’t live here. Arguments. Happiness and joyful days. So they don’t live here no more. I’ve got to drive those blues away. I can’t always be afraid. From this life I need more. Too scared to move. Awkward distance. And I held on.DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY Sad songs are all I heard. Year after year.
HOW How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning? .
But … It. Because nothing ever lasts Of pain. too. Making you believe you died. Taking over everything. too. It’s got places to go. And pain’s waiting At another’s door. It. shall pass. Consuming who it occupies.IT. SHALL PASS Pain can’t last forever. shall pass. Till only it survives. . TOO. That bell it rings.
HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE I try to hold my head above water. Fight to keep it all in order. Holding onto my pride. Try not to let the weight get me down. I suit up for the war. And I fight with my head high. Try to turn it all around. For the misery in store. But the price I pay is worth being free. . Every day is a fight for me.
Our downfall in the end. Although we are among friends. So afraid of being called out our name. .OUR DOWNFALL We are a sad society: So quick to judge. Mistakes that others seem to make. Believing those wicked smiles. Such a wicked game to play. Point fingers. It’s become customary To point out all the flaws. All the while hiding ours. Skirt the blame. We don’t see What lies within.
. Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be.BEING FREE I won’t let you change who I am. The only way truly to be free.
It’s how I lived my life.MY WORLD Sometime ago I lost myself. Just the way a record does. I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine. Forgot who I was inside. Don’t know how long it’s been. Time for me to shine. . Concentrating on what I’m meant to do. Remembering who I was. This thought had become commonplace. Picked up where I had left off. My eyes are open now. What treasures lied within. Now it’s time for me to grow. My world finally mine.
Although it tries to hide.MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine. It’s there. Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine. I know. . See … I’m making it my goal.
My spirit nearly broken. I begin again. . Nearly broken. My mind said all was lost. But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat. So glad that I had faith. As the pieces began to mend. Hope not within my reach. Thought there was no escape.NEARLY BROKEN Thought it was the end of me. But I’m on the mend.
A mother. daughter. She’s beautiful And full of life. She loves me more than anything. She knows how much I meant to her. Because she knows her worth. and a wife. the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while.MY FRIEND Oh. She’s happy. That friend I’ve found is me. .
. The stories they tell Without saying a word. One right-side up. Saying everything With just a smirk.THE SMILE AND THE FROWN Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown. The other upside down.
Instead.REMAINING LONELY Loneliness. Memories barely keep me warm. I’ll forever mourn. Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip. I’d rather have my love with me. have mercy on me. The love I lost. . Loosen your lover’s grip. I remain lonely.
Visualize it’s there In front of you. What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside? . Close your eyes. Take a sigh.FEAR INSIDE I challenge you To sit in silence. Imagine your worst fear.
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.
Waiting once more. I should say How I feel. My time no longer mine. But to you. . So here I sit.WAITING All I do Is wait around for you. feelings are no big deal. Until you walk through my door. I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time.
SINGING TODAY FOR YOU Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time. So I sing today for you. . Because this I’m thankful for. you know.
NOT LISTENING Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago. Though I don’t listen any more. I don’t care what you have to say. Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out. I’m not listening anyway. . Yet your mouth moves constantly.
Taking in all you see. You know me Better Than I ever could know. Loving everything I am. Looking through The window to my soul. You watch and study me.WINDOW TO MY SOUL I see you Through the window to my soul. . And what I’m meant to be.
Thank you for letting me know. Am I supposed to smile. Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more. You’re pretty for a black girl.PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL You’re pretty for a black girl. Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud? You’re pretty for a black girl. What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me? You’re pretty for a black girl. . Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth.
you know. Thought I should let you know. you are beautiful. Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen. Beauty lying inside and out. .FOR MY SISTERS My sister. Thought I should tell you so.
THE TIME IS NOW The only time we have is now. This place we’ve gotten to somehow. Seeing all we’re meant to see. To feel how it should be. To share all we’ve got. . Even if we’ve forgotten. To show each other why we’re here. The time we have is now.
” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten. “The Amazing Mr. Glonka. short stories. She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons.BIO Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school. She writes poetry. and songs. Her first publication was a short story entitled. .