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Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved. ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition .
I love you. Blake. Mom .For my boys. Brandon. Devante. and Jaden. Make your mark. The world is yours.
CONTENTS Title Page Copyright Page LOVE Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone .
The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You .
LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me LIFE I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song .
Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How .
too.It. Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now .
By loving you. What lovers do. I live for you At your command. For you. You are my light Through the dark. Bake your bread. I leave my mark.LOVING YOU As you awake. . Giving you more than my last. Clean the floors. Handle with care. As you breathe. I make your food. All you have to do is ask. Be your lover and more. I do it all. Wash your clothes. My world expands. I smile for you.
. Blacker than the darkest night. Only anger in this place. The monster made.THANKS TO YOU Cold. heartless. All thanks to you. Bitter through and through. Rotten to the very core. All thanks to you. Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth. My evil eyes are full of spite.
You didn’t have to say a word. I quench your thirst. My chest. My hips move to your beat. you lift your hand. I see the way you look at me. Caress my cheek from where you stand. woman and man. And you haven’t said a word. Now face-to-face. . And still not a word. Licking your lips. I see your eyes start at my feet. Your gaze has only reached my thighs. Don’t have to say a word. I kiss your lips. it heaves to my surprise.WITHOUT WORDS I know you like what you see. Felling the heat between you and me. I feel your hands all over me.
The years I lost. just wasted time. I shed my skin.WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME Here I stand out in front. Still shaded by your tree. But you don’t see me. And now my shell is all I have. Emptied my soul. I gave my all for you to live. It’s over now. The foolishness I left behind. Requesting more so you can live. My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. The rest gone down the drain. You’ve taken all I have to give. Bare for all to see. And you never saw me. . My end is here.
it’s just you and me. A smile that warms the coldest night. All is still.SEASONS OF LOVE A light is shining bright. In the end it was always us. The heat I crave to feel at night. Existing even after the end. A constant cold stuns my heart. You are my winter. We bring forth our new ecstasy. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh. built-in trust. We have grown together. living long it must. . A love so grand. You are my spring. We from the start. Our love is blossoming for all to see. Please stay a while. You are my summer. No you and I. You are my fall.
BROKEN Please. Don’t want happiness here again. my worst fear. You must understand my need to be here. Just let this pain pierce my skin. oh please. I want to cry. I need the anger. Don’t want you to dry my eyes. Just let me be. I killed your love for me. I’ve got to let the burn roam free. . Not bottle it up inside of me. The damage done won’t disappear. So. I need to feel the pain inside of me. just let me be. please.
Wash your feet Late that night. I’d say. Our fingers intertwined. That I’d never leave. Me in your heart. I would make a meal For you and me. gazing upon your face. I would promise you. My love always. Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. Open my eyes. Forever stay. Sitting by your side. I would call in sick. Feed you by hand.MY LAST DAY I would wake up a little late. Hold your hand. You on my mind. Silently gazing In your eyes. Make love to you without saying a word. . It would always be this way. No worry about what could be heard. Enjoy the day.
.That’s how I would spend My last day.
You curse and scream. You see I gave my word in front of God. I’ll show up. I’ll show up. I’ll show up.I WILL SHOW UP If I yell. if you yell. You spit my name With twisted face. I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you. So when you’re mad as hell. And I will always show up. I will show up. Face so mean. just know I won’t be walking out the door. You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. The very last one to show up. Till this life ends. . Through thick and thin when times are hard. it will be us.
Just here for me to feel alright. And give me what I need. No. Lie down with me in this moment. Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do. And give me what I need. .WHAT I NEED No. Not here to be your girl tonight. You can find someone else to fill those shoes. Yeah. I’m telling you. Cover me with ecstasy. it’s what you heard. So close your lips and take my hand. Just take me on into the room. Don’t want to chill or hang with you. we don’t have to talk or say a word. It’s not my place to be her for you. I don’t want to be your girl.
I am the Milky Way. Cannot be dimmed. Brightness everlasting. My glow shines through the darkness. Brighter than the night’s sky.LOVE ALL OVER ME Smiling all twenty four. I will remain. I am love. . After the end. And I will forge ahead. Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me. I color the winter’s night.
. I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized. Intoxicating.HYPNOTIZED Fine As the darkest wine.
SETTING YOU FREE Here I wait Today for you. A dozen women for a dime. I’ll hold it down and set you free. I know my needs fall on deaf ears. as well. . why don’t you call? I need the day-time man. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol. Love shouldn’t have to be this rough. Can’t compete with street life. Just like the day before. Not just the night-time one you sell. A part-time love is not enough. Don’t sell away your half from me. Why do I compete With the streets. God. I fear.
You say you’re sorry all the time. and I love you more than anything. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry. time for hell again. Nice at 8. Swinging and swaying to your moods. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry. hell begins. I hold on tight for the ride. Maybe this time is the last time. Pray to God that I don’t cry. nasty at 10. Time to put me back on track.HELL AND BACK I go through hell to be with you. But it’s 1. . And try to make it back from hell again. At 11:30. I’m coming back. At 10:30. Although the truth lies elsewhere. Say forgive me this time.
Out there trying to see.SEARCHING Where are you? Are you searching for me. . But my conviction still remains strong. And also trying to find me. I wonder if you’re like me. Kissed so many frogs. Not giving up. too? I’ve been waiting oh so long. I pray that you’re still looking. too. Even met some dogs. still searching. If the perfect one waits somewhere for you.
It flows outside the lines. So hold on tight. Enjoy the ride. It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything. And surprises you with no regrets. . Refuses to be confined. Sometimes love takes broader shape. It takes you up. Can pick you up and be complete. Love pulls you in. It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect. then drops you down. But love can also be so sweet. It smiles at you and then frowns. Pretends to stay. and Evaporates to your dismay. And just await your love’s surprise.LOVE’S SURPRISE Sometimes love throws you a curve.
And I rule the roost. I tell you you’re The best at what you do. Give me the world. . Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do. So glad to have you In my life.WE LIFT EACH OTHER You lift me up For the world to see. Tell me it’s all mine. Standing tall. The queen I’m meant to be. Just what I’m meant to do. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time. by my side. I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined. You show me how Real love should be with you.
And try to break me. Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile. You pile it on Because I can take it. Say some words. And then not care Who you hurt. You’re having fun. Pretend to care. But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy. Because your plan is number one. You had a plan all the while. Curse my name. . All others be damned.THE WARNING It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you.
“Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared. “My darling. I’d say to you. The happiness I felt inside. About you.” .MISSING YOU “What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say. The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared. I’d miss everything. The joy and laughter every night.
your scent. Take you when I leave. Not Ivory or Irish Spring. You’re with me On my way.YOU WEAR IT WELL I wear you on my sleeve. That essence that I smell. It’s not cologne or soap. Whether at work or at play. And you wear it well. That fragrence I know so well. Separating you from the rest. An aroma only you possess. You line the pleats of my skirt. So distinct. you know. Whether night or day. You follow me Through the day. . I inhale you on my shirt.
Realizing It won’t work apart. Like children Not yet grown. . Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through. Alone is not what we do. The shit we say. We laugh. And then we pray. We hurt.NOT ALONE The games we play. Can’t make it on our own.
You don’t need to say it. A prize for all to see. And I know I make up the best of you. The light replaced the dark. Order lives where chaos dwelled. . Because you are the best of me. I’m proud to see what you’ve become. This much I truly know.THE BEST OF ME I make up the best of you. A freshness for our start. Your life tells me so. With me. I brought a new place for you.
Although repaired. You try to move along. Thinking that you’re done. Looking okay. you see. Hoping things are as good as new. But that kink. Will forever change the way I now look at you.TRUST It’s like a broken fence: When mended. The chain contains a kink. you still see that link. .
With eyes of auburn. You don’t even see.SHADES OF ME How can you not love me. . I fear you love yourself More than you love me. For the chocolate and the caramel. Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love. Skin of chocolate.
A world where only you escape: A world of beaches. I take you to another place. It’s embedded between my thighs. Powder-white sand. And I wait With your love’s escape. A world that rivals Disneyland.LOVE’S ESCAPE I know where your happiness lies. . I’m ready now.
Though simple it may be.THE CHOICE The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. To live in hell Or go be free. . Not so simple to me. A place Finally to be me. Is not simple In my eyes. A simple choice It may seem.
. Although you’re okay today. an enemy. That voice appears and says. Yesterday. I truly thought you understood. Did you forget yesterday? A friend today. Did you forget yesterday? The screaming and the yelling. Don’t forget yesterday. So it may seem. Face twisted mean.DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY Every time it’s going good. No matter what a friend may say.
WHAT WE DESERVE Do you deserve All that I do. Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess. to be with you? I can’t say no. Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me. Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve. Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I. . You can’t say yes.
So. But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you. It may just be Around the corner. Life alone brings doubts and fears.THE TRUTH I’m sad today. You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. No time to cry. Truth is you’re not the one for me. I fear. . Your true love awaits. Fully awake. dry your eyes. But. Because I see the truth. We tried to make it work. Another smiling face. I know it’s not what you want to hear. And I’m not the one for you. it’s not meant to be.
today it’s not that way. In a perfect world.A PERFECT WORLD In a perfect world. And I can only dream. . We’d never fight. There would be no other for you. Sadly. In a perfect world. And sit by my side. I’d be all you see. You’d hold me tight. In a perfect world. Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem. Your love to give For me always. You’d agree with me. You’d forever stay. I’d always be right. It’d be you and I. You’d only have eyes for me.
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.
FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.
. Pretend I’m okay inside. We lie in wait. It is so easy for me to smile.LYING IN WAIT I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies. We plot our moves From the go. The perfect moment to strike. For the right time. You should have never estimated The power of my mind. Women are cunning creatures you know. Believed that when you closed the door. It was fine to say goodbye.
Where I said I’d be. I can’t forget what we had. Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day. Now I sit and wait for you. It hurts to be in this spot. When you would let me go. Because it’s all I know. That’s too damn bad. You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had. .MOVING ON I wait for you in the lot. But I fear your mind’s made up. Because you set me free. Hoping it’s not too late. Thought the day would never come.
Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte.NOT YOUR FORTE I tell you I need more. But I don’t think It will ever be. It’s not enough for me. Give me no reply. . You look into my eyes. And sleep. I ask you all the time To treat me like I need.
For the real you can never love me. so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show. What I see Is not really you. But … I wanted you.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. Although I know the truth. Alone with the truth after the fall. How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all. . And now I sit.
. But time will tell. Miss what we had. Yeah. Think it’s all a big game. You say you don’t care.A LOVE LIKE MINE You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone. So you can finally see. The way I kissed you late at night. I really hope you find her soon. And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same. you think you know it all. And please. That there are many more like me. You’re gonna miss me so damn bad. Make your move. hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. Go ahead.
Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me. If I let it be.TERMINAL LOVE Your love will be The end of me. Your love will kill My spirit. Your love will make Me lose my mind. If that’s what I let it do. too. If I let it inside. .
Holding my hand. . To live this life with you. And that I deserve the best. It’s great to be by your side.THE LITTLE THINGS It’s the little things I appreciate. I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do. Showing me the man That you’re proud to be. They don’t have to cost a thing. You’re blind to all that temptation outside. Ignoring all the rest. You tell me that I’m beautiful.
You don’t encourage me. My spirit grows.LOVING ME My anger grows. And it’s your fault. My anger knows It’s my fault. I’m the one who made you into you. You discourage me. . Because all you thought about was you. Don’t want to hear my words. I let you do what you want to. Because you need to be first. And it’s my fault. I finally love me more that you do. My spirit knows It’s your fault.
Although it’s not yet mine. But it won’t knock at my door. I’d sit in the stands and cheer. I will wait for love. I still believe in love. I will wait for love. I still believe in love. Because I see it all the time. . Because it waits somewhere for me. I’m a fan of love. I lay out the welcome mat for love.A FAN OF LOVE I am a fan of love. I lay out the welcome mat for love. Though it doesn’t live here no more. Because someday love will set me free. Although it doesn’t live here.
. If only in our eyes. Tell me why you’re in my space. When I don’t even know your name.A DIFFERENT CLOTH Cut from a different cloth. You and I are not the same. You try to live in my realty. Maybe that cloth Really is the same. and you try To become you and I. But we’re not meant to be. But you won’t show your face. I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come. A visitor from another place. Your world is nothing like The one I’m from. Yet you came.
Honesty is within your reach. Though the shitty lies you grab. . To do what I have to do.PROMISES Promises you fail to keep Are all I have. So glad to have this new breakthrough. It’s nowhere inside of you. I don’t know why I ask for truth.
I’m like a moth to your flame. I try and try to be What you want from me. But I’m tired of playing Your sick. It’s your way or the door.NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE You can’t see me Past your superiority. Not taking your shit any more. twisted game. . There’s no you and me in us for you. I’m sick to hell of being under your spell.
now by my side. Two peas of a different pod.WINNING THE RACE I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight. First place is a space we both want. Because we both want to win the race. We’ll never be face-to-face. Because you have to be first. Can’t let me be in front. Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath. Trying to keep up. . You sprint along.
. I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely. Co-existence is the only power You hold over me.POWER Looking through rose-colored glasses. I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections.
. but the one I should let go. indeed. Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts. Why don’t I feel comfortable. Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for.SING FOR YOU Why don’t I sing for you? A good question.
LOVE Love. . Love. how you love to tell your lovely lies. Love. What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh. Let loose your hold of me. The jokes are all at my expense. And set me free. I laugh along in my defense. Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love. Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh. Just break your chains.
Even when times were tough? It got you through. A time I surely miss. . A time of unrivaled bliss.REMEMBERING LOVE Remember when Love was enough. When unity was a goal. Family meant we were whole. With nothing else. Surviving by itself.
LOST LIVES Here we go again. The seconds. So much to say. You stare at the floor. hours. We drift together. Turning into weeks. Yet nothing was said. Just like the day before. Because we never speak. you grin. But nothing’s said. I hold my breath. days. And here we are In elder years. I smile. And we’ve both paid the cost. Still alone. So much to say. . minutes. Our whole lives lost. I look elsewhere instead. You try to read my face.
I think of you before I rest. My wife. pink and red. With you is where my heart lies. How I cherish you. I try my best. . You are the reason why I work so hard. Although I seldom tell you so.MY WIFE You bought me flowers today: Roses. Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said: I can’t live my life without Having you by my side.
But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside. Call her a bitch. I disappear with every word you say. Or use my fists.KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS I lose a piece of me every day. . How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her. Curse her name. And you think they’re just words.
He wouldn’t see anyone else. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often. He’d always take care of me. It wouldn’t matter if they were his. He’d love every part of me. I wouldn’t want for anything. He’d cherish the ground I walked on.THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME Oh. He’d cherish them because they were mine. And even love my kids. A perfect world For him and me. Put me before himself. No one else would matter. . That man I made for me. Live together happily.
Guiding me along the way. so I may rise. You guide.I PUT YOU FIRST You’ve been there Since day one. I lead My life in Your hands. In you. . this is why I will believe With Your Word. And so. Lord. Whether I am right or wrong. I put your first. I put you first. Get me through to a new start. And so. You let me fall. Let me laugh after I’ve cried. as I carry on. Bring me light after the dark. that’s the way it will be. You’re by my side. I have a faithful friend. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day. Supporting me until the end. I put you first. And I’ll always put you first. And so.
My whole world. He knows my mind. . predicts my moves. He’s got my map.FAITH He came today and shook my soul. the path I walk. I don’t know nothing anymore. And I thought I knew it all. He knows the goings on inside of me. He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break. I think he’s psychic see. Mouths the words before I talk. He has my unwavering faith. With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day. he’s taken hold. He is the Lord above. Says what I think before I do.
A cover will not work. If asked.LIES AND TRUTH The truth is the light. Rains down on me. It shines so bright. Won’t stay inside. You can’t contain What will remain. . Sets me free. A lie won’t hide. It’s impossible to hide a lie. No matter how hard you try. I would have told you so. you know.
. I got it now. ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be. I can’t lie low. Realizing who I am. Took years to find. Was in a fog. The square peg now fits the hole. Flipping a script You no longer own. Screaming to me in my own song. Yes. powering my soul. For the entire world to see. Can’t keep me down no more.REALIZATION The beauty of it all. but now I see The truth I bought now sold. Now I’m free. Has built a wall that can’t be broken. Who I am inside. So that confidence. The chains are gone.
ENDING THE PAIN This world of pain. . finally. I try to fight. Killing my mind And spirit. through the fog I can’t see. too. It’s all around. But. Like the way That evil does. Everywhere. Stealing my light. A better place awaits me. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today. breathlessly. I’ll be with you forever now. So I say my last goodbye. So much to bear. Now is the end for me. The pain will end. Staining the air. And I cannot escape. All consuming.
It calls to me and screams my name. Start my task with one woman. Enough to drive the sane insane. So I block it and stay inside. Can’t let this dark swallow my light. Live by his word and let him see. Guess I’ll listen to radio instead. I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. . Or found dead. I’ll start my fight by changing me. same old thing. Everyone’s fighting or arguing.CHANGING ME I couldn’t watch the news today. I vow to do the best I can. But radio’s no better. For fear of what it might say. Someone’s missing.
I had to go because it stayed. I pierce the layer that I see.BREAKING FREE I try to cut the pain away. But blood is not enough. Cutting deeper still. The pain still wouldn’t go away. I’m the one it killed. Now my pain has gone away. I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay. I couldn’t cry. Now I’m gone. The one underneath’s too tough. After all the blood had dried. . Finally free. Although it hurt. The pain inside just wouldn’t die. I took the pain away with me.
I feared it was not true. I held you tight and kissed your cheek. The love I thought I had to have. Here I stand forever. . I stood tall.MY SON SHINES Long ago I dreamt of you. Although you were not yet mine. For the other half of you. Only the mixture that I needed. But through it all. By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away. You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues. A battle I couldn’t lose. Before you were inside.
KNOWING ME Do you really know who I am. Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know. . me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me. Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me.
It moves my hips.DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT I feel the music From deep within. It moves my feet. The rhythm stirs Inside my head. Please play for me. Dance with me tonight. Dance with me tonight. Dance with me tonight. My arms they sway That away. I feel the beat. Your song instead. Made for sin. .
We older folks can tolerate. Though your beauty will last always. It’s sad to know your time is done. So hold them tight. But many will always care. They’ll wish we stopped you just in time. Help them push the pain aside. We didn’t have you long. Sometimes too much to bare. To make sure you were still here.TOO SOON Gone too soon. Pain can be an awful thing. . What younger ones can’t fare. So here is where they’ll stay. And let them know An early end’s no way to go. Your will was not as strong.
Too many eyes Cover me. . But you’re too quick. Why did I go? I should have paused. I hold my breath. I approach. I wait till day To go your way. You lay still. I knew you were there After all. You strike so fast. Await my move. Hoping you’re asleep. You’re poisonous. Hoping you snoozed.THE BROWN WIDOW You wait for me In the dark.
Take your time. It will be just right. Live your best life now.THE TIME IS NOW Slow down. DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight. .
Residing where it’s meant to be. But often forget where it lies. Years later we get another glimpse. Remembering where it first shined. Our inner superstar Was always there inside. It differs from the rest. take a peak. And then peaked out often. Specific to each owner. . We get a glimpse. After we have forgotten. it lies inside.INNER SUPERSTAR We possess it early on. Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. Dormant. Where it shines the best.
LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL Life tries to take the wheel. Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down. We make a turn on our own. But then we find courage inside And turn it all around. But we get in the way. . Life’s not all a mystery. Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. It shows its face in elder years. Without listening to what it has to say. Listen for what life has in store. Its view widens so we may see. Be patient. While hiding in our youth.
And you’re gone. .TOO LATE You were mine On borrowed time. At least. This I didn’t know. I took for granted you’d be here. until tomorrow. Now tomorrow’s here. I’m so sorry I was wrong. Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so.
spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do. .AHA MOMENT Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise.
I’m an aubergine. A range of shades for everything. They cover you And color me. A softer shade. Relaxed for when I sleep. I can be any hue I want to be. Black or white. . I shine brightly for all to see. a light yellow. When wide awake. I change from day-to-day. Like many colors of the rainbow. A darker color when we fight. Neon bright. Growing daily like the evergreen. When ready. you know.COLORS OF ME There are many Shades of me. A blue for when I’m feeling low.
I don’t know how Or even why. The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow. It sings to me from deep inside.A POET’S SONG I live in verse. Is all poetry to me. Thinking. I think in rhyme. breathing poetry . And it makes up The best of me. rhyming All the time. The sadness that you may see. Living.
BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH Just how bright Is your light. . barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath. The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow. Shine from underneath? Is it dim.
It embraces me. And says Please come back any day.POETRY LIVES HERE A door has opened up for me. It invites me in. And offers me its words to eat. It says to me. I open up. It offers me a place to stay. Encourages me With its warm smile. . It comforts me. I am your friend. Says stay awhile. Then takes my coat. Says take a seat. Inside that room lives poetry. It sets me free. Then sings to me In special notes.
Knowing that your fears.KNOWING MY WORTH Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice. or shock you. It’s because I am beauty. The comfort of my embrace. offend. Shape of my thighs. The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back. I am woman. Curve of my waist. And I know my worth. The knowledge I give. The wisdom I possess. I am life. The pleasures I possess. I can erase? If I frighten. . That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss.
One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth. Rewarded with so many qualities. We are the best of all beings. you should abhor. . Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man. Forgetting it.OF ALL BEINGS Fellow women of today.
Thinking of how it will be. A sight I almost see.THE LONG ROAD HOME I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead. I can’t wait for mine. What a lovely ride. Happiness and long-lost friends. Did mostly as I pleased. My destination is on my mind. Held some hands along the way. . Every road must come to an end. Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me. I smile and hold it inside.
As if to say. “Your time is here.” The willow weeps. It is today. Close your eyes.” The tree breaths. “The time has come For you to leave. Giving the breeze What it needs. As if saying to me.THE SOUND OF SIGNS I hear the birds chirping. The signs are there For you to see. Listen closely. Sounds fully. .
. What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot.A CALL TO ARMS *STOP* Turn off your television set. It’s not too late. I’ve grabbed my pen. This is not a test. Or we all lose. What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man.
Where happiness lives Indefinitely. Beside the bed. My home may just be with you. My home is where I leave my heart. My home can be one place or a few.HOME My home is where I lay my head And pray at night. My home is where I chose to be. . Though we’re apart. Where true love lives.
And miss out on the better prize. This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet. We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone. Should crown our lover’s throne. But what lies inside. The better prize. We turn away. Although it seems quite odd. It passes instantly. A trick used to confuse the mind.THE BETTER PRIZE The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade. Open your foolish eyes. . And in our haste. Ignorant to what’s inside. So easy to believe a lie.
that’s the way life goes. Unfortunately. I’ve seen this day before. I remember to relax today.RELAXING MY MIND Been a long day. I’m tired already. My body’s weary. add some play. too. Time to sit and rest my mind. Try to balance both and remain whole. And I know more will surely come. But I know things will be fine. Save some work. . Spirit.
Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me. And pray trouble runs out of time. Where all is calm. Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free. It should be tired of me. and I stay safe.TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME Trouble road begins at my door. It must lie somewhere else. I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been. So I continue to Keep hope alive. And I know nothing else. Surrounded by my friends. Why won’t it set me free? . I’ve given up on happiness.
THE GREATEST ESCAPE Slow down for me. You’re speeding now. Even the belt Won’t keep me safe. Without your brakes. There is no room. Look to the sky. I close my eyes. As I brace For the crash. . Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape. You’re driving too fast. How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on. You smile at me And hit the gas. To ride with you. Away I go To a better place. And then thank God I learned to fly. No space for me.
Worried about the fall. Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two. . Premeditated steps I take with no regrets. Can never take the leap. I wait until it’s dark. Worried I’ll be found.THE FALL Land mines. Covering your insides. afterall. The snipers waiting for that clear shot. Afraid to make a sound. everything I’ve got. So much to lose.
Take a step and not look back. Make your move. Don’t be scared to let go. We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go. Do what you say. We wish for the best. Then we realize The move was just right. You’re right where you need to be. And we’re finally on track. Hope our move won’t make a mess. Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know. Scared to make a move. . That moment is meant just for you To make your move. Don’t be afraid.MAKING MOVES Every now and then.
Focused on today. It’s time to take my rightful place. . Light miles ahead. The final bell has rung. Life just passes by. Or what they tried to say. I never saw the signs. Although my mouth is closed. And now the time is here For me to finally shine. I’ve already won the race. It never waits.WINNING THE RACE I’ve wasted too much time. And now half my life’s Just floated away. My eyes are opened wide.
I’m glad I have you in my life. . You always take my call. You know I’m really into it. Because when I need someone to vent to. Taking it all in. You call me. It’s so innocent. But we’re just friends. The times we share. You listen when I talk. A true friend.TRUE FRIENDS I call you. indeed. Even when I want to vent About nothing at all. I need you to show me Just how I should be. And I need you there.
There are times When we may find Some things troubling. And what things we should keep.KEEPING SECRETS Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing. . We need to learn What to say. Often times Those little things Should remain a secret.
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.
So much to do.FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD Listen up! I got lots to say. Hold the door. Too much for me to hold inside. So little time. Ready for me to begin. No more sitting still for me today. I’m coming in! .
.WHEN YOU COME FOR ME When you come for me. I’m tired today. When you come for me. I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go. When you come for me. I won’t be sad. I will be ready. I’m looking forward to the trip ahead. In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again. Waiting for you to take me to some other place. When you come for me. This life has gotten really bad.
Can’t get rid of me.A MERE SMUDGE I’m a smudge on your window pane. Guess I’m in too deep. Giving in to your every want and need. You open up. . but don’t know what to say. Loving the way That I confuse. Just how a smudge succeeds. Desire being my excuse.
You say. That I can’t survive on my own. Drink my wine. accept your smile. Locked away indefinitely. A prisoner’s life is what I lead. “Celebrate with me. You say it’ll never be. But I’m the one that pays the toll. Not knowing poison’s inside.A PRISONER’S LIFE I want to be free. I try and try To live your life.” I take a sip. . Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape.
Close your eyes. All at once. I hear. I’ll guide you. it’ll be done. And That’s just what I’ll do. A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go. Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be. Decision time tonight. No one to help me with this one.AT A CROSSROADS Here I am. Make your move. . It hit me hard. Either way. And I finally see.
Happiness and joyful days. Arguments. I’ve got to drive those blues away. Too scared to move. So they don’t live here no more.DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY Sad songs are all I heard. I can’t always be afraid. . Awkward distance. And I held on. Mainly out of fear. They silenced all the tears. From this life I need more. Year after year. They didn’t live here.
HOW How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning? .
too.IT. It’s got places to go. TOO. shall pass. Because nothing ever lasts Of pain. It. . And pain’s waiting At another’s door. Consuming who it occupies. shall pass. Till only it survives. But … It. That bell it rings. Making you believe you died. too. SHALL PASS Pain can’t last forever. Taking over everything.
But the price I pay is worth being free.HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE I try to hold my head above water. Every day is a fight for me. And I fight with my head high. . Try to turn it all around. Try not to let the weight get me down. Holding onto my pride. Fight to keep it all in order. For the misery in store. I suit up for the war.
Such a wicked game to play. Although we are among friends. We don’t see What lies within. Believing those wicked smiles. It’s become customary To point out all the flaws. Mistakes that others seem to make. All the while hiding ours. Our downfall in the end. Point fingers. Skirt the blame. So afraid of being called out our name. .OUR DOWNFALL We are a sad society: So quick to judge.
BEING FREE I won’t let you change who I am. Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be. The only way truly to be free. .
. Concentrating on what I’m meant to do. My world finally mine. Remembering who I was. Don’t know how long it’s been. Now it’s time for me to grow. Forgot who I was inside. It’s how I lived my life. I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine.MY WORLD Sometime ago I lost myself. My eyes are open now. Picked up where I had left off. Just the way a record does. Time for me to shine. This thought had become commonplace. What treasures lied within.
Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine. . See … I’m making it my goal.MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine. I know. Although it tries to hide. It’s there.
But I’m on the mend. My spirit nearly broken. Nearly broken. But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat. As the pieces began to mend. I begin again. Hope not within my reach. Thought there was no escape. My mind said all was lost.NEARLY BROKEN Thought it was the end of me. So glad that I had faith. .
She knows how much I meant to her. A mother. She loves me more than anything. She’s happy. Because she knows her worth. and a wife. She’s beautiful And full of life. daughter. . the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while. That friend I’ve found is me.MY FRIEND Oh.
.THE SMILE AND THE FROWN Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown. One right-side up. The stories they tell Without saying a word. The other upside down. Saying everything With just a smirk.
Instead. The love I lost. Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip. Loosen your lover’s grip. have mercy on me. Memories barely keep me warm. I’d rather have my love with me. I remain lonely. I’ll forever mourn.REMAINING LONELY Loneliness. .
Visualize it’s there In front of you. Take a sigh. Close your eyes.FEAR INSIDE I challenge you To sit in silence. Imagine your worst fear. What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside? .
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.
My time no longer mine. So here I sit. . I should say How I feel. I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time. But to you. feelings are no big deal.WAITING All I do Is wait around for you. Waiting once more. Until you walk through my door.
SINGING TODAY FOR YOU Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time. Because this I’m thankful for. . you know. So I sing today for you.
I don’t care what you have to say.NOT LISTENING Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago. Yet your mouth moves constantly. . Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out. I’m not listening anyway. Though I don’t listen any more.
You know me Better Than I ever could know. Taking in all you see. You watch and study me. Loving everything I am. Looking through The window to my soul.WINDOW TO MY SOUL I see you Through the window to my soul. . And what I’m meant to be.
Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more. Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth. Am I supposed to smile. You’re pretty for a black girl. Thank you for letting me know. . Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud? You’re pretty for a black girl. What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me? You’re pretty for a black girl.PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL You’re pretty for a black girl.
you know. Thought I should tell you so.FOR MY SISTERS My sister. . Beauty lying inside and out. Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen. Thought I should let you know. you are beautiful.
The time we have is now. To show each other why we’re here.THE TIME IS NOW The only time we have is now. To feel how it should be. To share all we’ve got. This place we’ve gotten to somehow. Seeing all we’re meant to see. Even if we’ve forgotten. .
.BIO Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school. “The Amazing Mr. Her first publication was a short story entitled.” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten. She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons. and songs. short stories. Glonka. She writes poetry.
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