ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition .Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved.

Make your mark. and Jaden.For my boys. Mom . The world is yours. Devante. Blake. Brandon. I love you.

CONTENTS Title Page Copyright Page LOVE Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone .

The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You .

LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me LIFE I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song .

Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How .

Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now . too.It.

LOVE .

. Giving you more than my last. Bake your bread. I do it all. Handle with care.LOVING YOU As you awake. Clean the floors. By loving you. I leave my mark. Be your lover and more. I make your food. For you. Wash your clothes. I live for you At your command. You are my light Through the dark. As you breathe. My world expands. I smile for you. What lovers do. All you have to do is ask.

My evil eyes are full of spite. Blacker than the darkest night. The monster made. Bitter through and through. Only anger in this place. Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth. heartless. All thanks to you. All thanks to you. Rotten to the very core. .THANKS TO YOU Cold.

I see your eyes start at my feet. Your gaze has only reached my thighs. I see the way you look at me. You didn’t have to say a word. Caress my cheek from where you stand. My chest. My hips move to your beat. it heaves to my surprise. Licking your lips. Felling the heat between you and me. And still not a word. . I kiss your lips. woman and man. Don’t have to say a word. And you haven’t said a word. Now face-to-face.WITHOUT WORDS I know you like what you see. I quench your thirst. you lift your hand. I feel your hands all over me.

The rest gone down the drain. Emptied my soul. The years I lost. And you never saw me. . And now my shell is all I have. just wasted time. But you don’t see me. You’ve taken all I have to give. I shed my skin. It’s over now. Requesting more so you can live. My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. The foolishness I left behind.WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME Here I stand out in front. Still shaded by your tree. Bare for all to see. I gave my all for you to live. My end is here.

it’s just you and me.SEASONS OF LOVE A light is shining bright. In the end it was always us. The heat I crave to feel at night. No you and I. You are my summer. We from the start. We bring forth our new ecstasy. Existing even after the end. Please stay a while. A love so grand. A smile that warms the coldest night. You are my winter. living long it must. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh. All is still. We have grown together. built-in trust. You are my spring. A constant cold stuns my heart. You are my fall. Our love is blossoming for all to see. .

just let me be. my worst fear. Don’t want happiness here again. I’ve got to let the burn roam free. oh please. So. I need to feel the pain inside of me. Not bottle it up inside of me. please. You must understand my need to be here. I want to cry. Just let me be.BROKEN Please. Just let this pain pierce my skin. Don’t want you to dry my eyes. The damage done won’t disappear. . I killed your love for me. I need the anger.

No worry about what could be heard. Wash your feet Late that night. gazing upon your face. My love always.MY LAST DAY I would wake up a little late. That I’d never leave. I would call in sick. Our fingers intertwined. Hold your hand. I’d say. Enjoy the day. You on my mind. Sitting by your side. Forever stay. Open my eyes. It would always be this way. Make love to you without saying a word. Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. . I would promise you. Feed you by hand. Me in your heart. Silently gazing In your eyes. I would make a meal For you and me.

.That’s how I would spend My last day.

I WILL SHOW UP If I yell. You see I gave my word in front of God. I’ll show up. I’ll show up. I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you. And I will always show up. You curse and scream. Till this life ends. if you yell. Face so mean. So when you’re mad as hell. The very last one to show up. I will show up. You spit my name With twisted face. You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. just know I won’t be walking out the door. Through thick and thin when times are hard. I’ll show up. it will be us. .

Just take me on into the room. Yeah. . You can find someone else to fill those shoes. I don’t want to be your girl. It’s not my place to be her for you. So close your lips and take my hand. Cover me with ecstasy. it’s what you heard. we don’t have to talk or say a word. Lie down with me in this moment.WHAT I NEED No. I’m telling you. Just here for me to feel alright. Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do. And give me what I need. Don’t want to chill or hang with you. No. Not here to be your girl tonight. And give me what I need.

I will remain. Brightness everlasting. I am love. .LOVE ALL OVER ME Smiling all twenty four. My glow shines through the darkness. And I will forge ahead. I color the winter’s night. After the end. Brighter than the night’s sky. Cannot be dimmed. I am the Milky Way. Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me.

HYPNOTIZED Fine As the darkest wine. I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized. Intoxicating. .

Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol. . Can’t compete with street life. Just like the day before. I know my needs fall on deaf ears. God. Don’t sell away your half from me. A dozen women for a dime. A part-time love is not enough. Why do I compete With the streets. as well. I fear. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man. Not just the night-time one you sell. Love shouldn’t have to be this rough. I’ll hold it down and set you free.SETTING YOU FREE Here I wait Today for you.

Nice at 8. time for hell again. and I love you more than anything. . Although the truth lies elsewhere. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry. Swinging and swaying to your moods. hell begins.HELL AND BACK I go through hell to be with you. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry. At 10:30. Maybe this time is the last time. You say you’re sorry all the time. I hold on tight for the ride. Pray to God that I don’t cry. At 11:30. But it’s 1. Time to put me back on track. And try to make it back from hell again. I’m coming back. nasty at 10. Say forgive me this time.

Kissed so many frogs. If the perfect one waits somewhere for you. still searching. I wonder if you’re like me. too? I’ve been waiting oh so long.SEARCHING Where are you? Are you searching for me. . Out there trying to see. Even met some dogs. Not giving up. I pray that you’re still looking. And also trying to find me. But my conviction still remains strong. too.

It takes you up. It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect. and Evaporates to your dismay. And surprises you with no regrets. Sometimes love takes broader shape. Enjoy the ride. But love can also be so sweet. then drops you down. So hold on tight. Pretends to stay. And just await your love’s surprise.LOVE’S SURPRISE Sometimes love throws you a curve. Refuses to be confined. It smiles at you and then frowns. It flows outside the lines. Love pulls you in. It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything. . Can pick you up and be complete.

Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do. It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined. Give me the world. Tell me it’s all mine. by my side. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time. Standing tall. You show me how Real love should be with you.WE LIFT EACH OTHER You lift me up For the world to see. The queen I’m meant to be. I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. So glad to have you In my life. I tell you you’re The best at what you do. And I rule the roost. . Just what I’m meant to do.

Say some words. . Curse my name. And try to break me. Pretend to care. But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy. And then not care Who you hurt. You pile it on Because I can take it. You’re having fun. Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile. Because your plan is number one. You had a plan all the while. All others be damned.THE WARNING It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you.

“Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared. About you.” .MISSING YOU “What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say. “My darling. The happiness I felt inside. The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared. The joy and laughter every night. I’d say to you. I’d miss everything.

That fragrence I know so well. Whether night or day. I inhale you on my shirt. Not Ivory or Irish Spring. Take you when I leave. You follow me Through the day. You line the pleats of my skirt. . your scent. It’s not cologne or soap.YOU WEAR IT WELL I wear you on my sleeve. You’re with me On my way. Separating you from the rest. Whether at work or at play. And you wear it well. An aroma only you possess. you know. That essence that I smell. So distinct.

Realizing It won’t work apart. The shit we say. Alone is not what we do. Like children Not yet grown.NOT ALONE The games we play. We hurt. . And then we pray. Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through. We laugh. Can’t make it on our own.

. Order lives where chaos dwelled. Because you are the best of me. With me. A freshness for our start. And I know I make up the best of you. A prize for all to see. This much I truly know. You don’t need to say it. Your life tells me so. The light replaced the dark. I’m proud to see what you’ve become.THE BEST OF ME I make up the best of you. I brought a new place for you.

But that kink. . you see. The chain contains a kink. Looking okay. you still see that link. Will forever change the way I now look at you. Although repaired. Thinking that you’re done. You try to move along.TRUST It’s like a broken fence: When mended. Hoping things are as good as new.

Skin of chocolate. .SHADES OF ME How can you not love me. Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love. You don’t even see. I fear you love yourself More than you love me. For the chocolate and the caramel. With eyes of auburn.

It’s embedded between my thighs.LOVE’S ESCAPE I know where your happiness lies. I take you to another place. I’m ready now. Powder-white sand. . A world where only you escape: A world of beaches. A world that rivals Disneyland. And I wait With your love’s escape.

Is not simple In my eyes. A place Finally to be me. A simple choice It may seem. To live in hell Or go be free. Though simple it may be. Not so simple to me. .THE CHOICE The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems.

I truly thought you understood. Face twisted mean. Although you’re okay today. Yesterday. Don’t forget yesterday. No matter what a friend may say.DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY Every time it’s going good. Did you forget yesterday? The screaming and the yelling. That voice appears and says. Did you forget yesterday? A friend today. . an enemy. So it may seem.

to be with you? I can’t say no. Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess. Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me. Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I. Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve.WHAT WE DESERVE Do you deserve All that I do. You can’t say yes. .

No time to cry. . We tried to make it work. Another smiling face. Fully awake. Life alone brings doubts and fears. dry your eyes. But.THE TRUTH I’m sad today. You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. And I’m not the one for you. But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you. Your true love awaits. I fear. Truth is you’re not the one for me. Because I see the truth. it’s not meant to be. So. I know it’s not what you want to hear. It may just be Around the corner.

You’d only have eyes for me. Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem. It’d be you and I. In a perfect world. . You’d forever stay. You’d agree with me. today it’s not that way.A PERFECT WORLD In a perfect world. You’d hold me tight. I’d be all you see. In a perfect world. Your love to give For me always. And I can only dream. In a perfect world. Sadly. There would be no other for you. And sit by my side. I’d always be right. We’d never fight.

YOUR EVERYTHING
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.

FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.

WE BELONG
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.

It was fine to say goodbye. We plot our moves From the go. Pretend I’m okay inside. Women are cunning creatures you know. We lie in wait. It is so easy for me to smile. . Believed that when you closed the door. You should have never estimated The power of my mind. For the right time.LYING IN WAIT I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies. The perfect moment to strike.

Where I said I’d be. Because it’s all I know. But I fear your mind’s made up. Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day. You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had.MOVING ON I wait for you in the lot. I can’t forget what we had. That’s too damn bad. . It hurts to be in this spot. Hoping it’s not too late. When you would let me go. Because you set me free. Now I sit and wait for you. Thought the day would never come.

. It’s not enough for me. Give me no reply. I ask you all the time To treat me like I need.NOT YOUR FORTE I tell you I need more. Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte. And sleep. But I don’t think It will ever be. You look into my eyes.

. What I see Is not really you. And now I sit. But … I wanted you. so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show. Although I know the truth. For the real you can never love me.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. Alone with the truth after the fall. How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all.

Go ahead. . hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. I really hope you find her soon. But time will tell. you think you know it all. Yeah.A LOVE LIKE MINE You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone. That there are many more like me. Make your move. The way I kissed you late at night. And please. Think it’s all a big game. And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same. Miss what we had. You’re gonna miss me so damn bad. So you can finally see. You say you don’t care.

Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me. If I let it inside. . Your love will make Me lose my mind. If that’s what I let it do. If I let it be.TERMINAL LOVE Your love will be The end of me. too. Your love will kill My spirit.

I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do. You’re blind to all that temptation outside. And that I deserve the best. You tell me that I’m beautiful. They don’t have to cost a thing. Holding my hand.THE LITTLE THINGS It’s the little things I appreciate. . It’s great to be by your side. Showing me the man That you’re proud to be. To live this life with you. Ignoring all the rest.

You discourage me. My anger knows It’s my fault.LOVING ME My anger grows. And it’s my fault. You don’t encourage me. Because you need to be first. I finally love me more that you do. I’m the one who made you into you. My spirit grows. Because all you thought about was you. My spirit knows It’s your fault. Don’t want to hear my words. And it’s your fault. . I let you do what you want to.

Because it waits somewhere for me. Although it’s not yet mine. I will wait for love. Though it doesn’t live here no more. I will wait for love. Although it doesn’t live here. I’m a fan of love. I lay out the welcome mat for love.A FAN OF LOVE I am a fan of love. I still believe in love. Because I see it all the time. I’d sit in the stands and cheer. Because someday love will set me free. . I still believe in love. But it won’t knock at my door. I lay out the welcome mat for love.

You try to live in my realty.A DIFFERENT CLOTH Cut from a different cloth. You and I are not the same. I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come. Maybe that cloth Really is the same. But we’re not meant to be. When I don’t even know your name. and you try To become you and I. Yet you came. Your world is nothing like The one I’m from. Tell me why you’re in my space. If only in our eyes. . But you won’t show your face. A visitor from another place.

. It’s nowhere inside of you. Honesty is within your reach.PROMISES Promises you fail to keep Are all I have. So glad to have this new breakthrough. Though the shitty lies you grab. I don’t know why I ask for truth. To do what I have to do.

Not taking your shit any more. It’s your way or the door. There’s no you and me in us for you. I try and try to be What you want from me. I’m like a moth to your flame. But I’m tired of playing Your sick.NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE You can’t see me Past your superiority. . I’m sick to hell of being under your spell. twisted game.

Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath. First place is a space we both want.WINNING THE RACE I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight. now by my side. Because you have to be first. Because we both want to win the race. . You sprint along. We’ll never be face-to-face. Can’t let me be in front. Two peas of a different pod. Trying to keep up.

I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections. I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely. .POWER Looking through rose-colored glasses. Co-existence is the only power You hold over me.

Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts. Why don’t I feel comfortable. . but the one I should let go. Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for.SING FOR YOU Why don’t I sing for you? A good question. indeed.

Let loose your hold of me. The jokes are all at my expense. Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love. Love. . Love. What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh. Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh.LOVE Love. Just break your chains. how you love to tell your lovely lies. I laugh along in my defense. And set me free.

Surviving by itself. Family meant we were whole. With nothing else. A time I surely miss. A time of unrivaled bliss. Even when times were tough? It got you through.REMEMBERING LOVE Remember when Love was enough. When unity was a goal. .

Just like the day before. I look elsewhere instead. And here we are In elder years. you grin. days. And we’ve both paid the cost. Because we never speak. But nothing’s said. So much to say. minutes. You try to read my face. So much to say.LOST LIVES Here we go again. We drift together. Our whole lives lost. Yet nothing was said. You stare at the floor. . Still alone. I smile. hours. Turning into weeks. I hold my breath. The seconds.

Although I seldom tell you so. How I cherish you.MY WIFE You bought me flowers today: Roses. You are the reason why I work so hard. pink and red. My wife. . I think of you before I rest. With you is where my heart lies. I try my best. Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said: I can’t live my life without Having you by my side.

And you think they’re just words. Or use my fists.KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS I lose a piece of me every day. Call her a bitch. I disappear with every word you say. But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside. . Curse her name. How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her.

He’d love every part of me. That man I made for me. No one else would matter. He’d cherish the ground I walked on. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often. And even love my kids. It wouldn’t matter if they were his. I wouldn’t want for anything. He’d always take care of me. He’d cherish them because they were mine.THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME Oh. A perfect world For him and me. Live together happily. He wouldn’t see anyone else. Put me before himself. .

LIFE .

I put your first. Let me laugh after I’ve cried. Whether I am right or wrong. as I carry on. And so. I put you first. . I put you first. And so. You’re by my side. I lead My life in Your hands.I PUT YOU FIRST You’ve been there Since day one. Get me through to a new start. I have a faithful friend. Bring me light after the dark. And I’ll always put you first. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day. Supporting me until the end. Lord. so I may rise. You guide. And so. Guiding me along the way. this is why I will believe With Your Word. You let me fall. that’s the way it will be. In you.

My whole world. Says what I think before I do. He has my unwavering faith. He is the Lord above. the path I walk. . He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break. I don’t know nothing anymore. With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day.FAITH He came today and shook my soul. He knows my mind. He’s got my map. And I thought I knew it all. he’s taken hold. I think he’s psychic see. He knows the goings on inside of me. predicts my moves. Mouths the words before I talk.

A lie won’t hide. Rains down on me. Won’t stay inside. You can’t contain What will remain.LIES AND TRUTH The truth is the light. Sets me free. A cover will not work. It shines so bright. . It’s impossible to hide a lie. If asked. No matter how hard you try. you know. I would have told you so.

. I can’t lie low. The chains are gone. Who I am inside. Yes. The square peg now fits the hole. powering my soul. Took years to find. Realizing who I am. but now I see The truth I bought now sold.REALIZATION The beauty of it all. So that confidence. Can’t keep me down no more. Has built a wall that can’t be broken. Now I’m free. Flipping a script You no longer own. Screaming to me in my own song. I got it now. Was in a fog. For the entire world to see. ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be.

Everywhere. So I say my last goodbye. The pain will end. But. Killing my mind And spirit. Stealing my light. I’ll be with you forever now. It’s all around. Staining the air.ENDING THE PAIN This world of pain. too. Like the way That evil does. finally. through the fog I can’t see. All consuming. A better place awaits me. And I cannot escape. . I try to fight. So much to bear. breathlessly. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today. Now is the end for me.

But radio’s no better. Someone’s missing. For fear of what it might say. I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. Or found dead. Live by his word and let him see. . Everyone’s fighting or arguing. same old thing. Guess I’ll listen to radio instead. It calls to me and screams my name.CHANGING ME I couldn’t watch the news today. So I block it and stay inside. Start my task with one woman. Enough to drive the sane insane. Can’t let this dark swallow my light. I vow to do the best I can. I’ll start my fight by changing me.

The one underneath’s too tough. I couldn’t cry. But blood is not enough. Finally free. After all the blood had dried. I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay.BREAKING FREE I try to cut the pain away. I pierce the layer that I see. Now I’m gone. I’m the one it killed. Now my pain has gone away. Cutting deeper still. I had to go because it stayed. Although it hurt. The pain still wouldn’t go away. . The pain inside just wouldn’t die. I took the pain away with me.

Only the mixture that I needed. By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away. The love I thought I had to have. Before you were inside. I feared it was not true.MY SON SHINES Long ago I dreamt of you. . Although you were not yet mine. But through it all. I stood tall. A battle I couldn’t lose. You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues. For the other half of you. I held you tight and kissed your cheek. Here I stand forever.

me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me. . Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me.KNOWING ME Do you really know who I am. Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know.

It moves my hips. Please play for me. I feel the beat. Dance with me tonight. It moves my feet. . Dance with me tonight. The rhythm stirs Inside my head. Your song instead. My arms they sway That away. Made for sin.DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT I feel the music From deep within. Dance with me tonight.

Pain can be an awful thing.TOO SOON Gone too soon. Your will was not as strong. . Help them push the pain aside. Sometimes too much to bare. To make sure you were still here. It’s sad to know your time is done. We older folks can tolerate. They’ll wish we stopped you just in time. But many will always care. We didn’t have you long. So hold them tight. Though your beauty will last always. So here is where they’ll stay. What younger ones can’t fare. And let them know An early end’s no way to go.

Hoping you’re asleep. I approach. Too many eyes Cover me. You’re poisonous. I wait till day To go your way.THE BROWN WIDOW You wait for me In the dark. Await my move. . You lay still. You strike so fast. I knew you were there After all. I hold my breath. But you’re too quick. Why did I go? I should have paused. Hoping you snoozed.

It will be just right. DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight. Take your time. .THE TIME IS NOW Slow down. Live your best life now.

. Our inner superstar Was always there inside. Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. But often forget where it lies. Specific to each owner. After we have forgotten. Years later we get another glimpse. it lies inside. Dormant. Where it shines the best.INNER SUPERSTAR We possess it early on. take a peak. It differs from the rest. Residing where it’s meant to be. Remembering where it first shined. We get a glimpse. And then peaked out often.

Life’s not all a mystery. Be patient.LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL Life tries to take the wheel. Without listening to what it has to say. But then we find courage inside And turn it all around. Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down. But we get in the way. . We make a turn on our own. While hiding in our youth. Listen for what life has in store. It shows its face in elder years. Its view widens so we may see.

I took for granted you’d be here. . until tomorrow. Now tomorrow’s here. This I didn’t know. I’m so sorry I was wrong. Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so.TOO LATE You were mine On borrowed time. And you’re gone. At least.

. spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do.AHA MOMENT Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise.

A softer shade. . Neon bright. A range of shades for everything. Like many colors of the rainbow. When wide awake. When ready. I can be any hue I want to be. you know. Relaxed for when I sleep. I change from day-to-day. They cover you And color me. Black or white. A blue for when I’m feeling low. a light yellow. A darker color when we fight. I’m an aubergine. I shine brightly for all to see. Growing daily like the evergreen.COLORS OF ME There are many Shades of me.

Living. It sings to me from deep inside. The sadness that you may see. Thinking.A POET’S SONG I live in verse. And it makes up The best of me. rhyming All the time. breathing poetry . I don’t know how Or even why. Is all poetry to me. The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow. I think in rhyme.

. The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow. barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath.BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH Just how bright Is your light. Shine from underneath? Is it dim.

And offers me its words to eat. It sets me free. It says to me. .POETRY LIVES HERE A door has opened up for me. Then sings to me In special notes. I am your friend. Inside that room lives poetry. Encourages me With its warm smile. Says stay awhile. It embraces me. Says take a seat. It offers me a place to stay. Then takes my coat. And says Please come back any day. I open up. It comforts me. It invites me in.

. The wisdom I possess. That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss. I am life. The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back. Shape of my thighs. The knowledge I give.KNOWING MY WORTH Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice. The comfort of my embrace. Curve of my waist. Knowing that your fears. And I know my worth. I can erase? If I frighten. It’s because I am beauty. offend. or shock you. The pleasures I possess. I am woman.

Forgetting it. . Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man. Rewarded with so many qualities. One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth.OF ALL BEINGS Fellow women of today. you should abhor. We are the best of all beings.

Thinking of how it will be. What a lovely ride. Every road must come to an end.THE LONG ROAD HOME I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead. A sight I almost see. Did mostly as I pleased. My destination is on my mind. Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me. Held some hands along the way. Happiness and long-lost friends. . I smile and hold it inside. I can’t wait for mine.

THE SOUND OF SIGNS I hear the birds chirping.” The willow weeps. It is today. As if to say.” The tree breaths. Listen closely. “Your time is here. As if saying to me. “The time has come For you to leave. Close your eyes. The signs are there For you to see. . Giving the breeze What it needs. Sounds fully.

. This is not a test.A CALL TO ARMS *STOP* Turn off your television set. It’s not too late. What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot. What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man. Or we all lose. I’ve grabbed my pen.

My home is where I chose to be. Where happiness lives Indefinitely. My home may just be with you.HOME My home is where I lay my head And pray at night. Beside the bed. Though we’re apart. . Where true love lives. My home is where I leave my heart. My home can be one place or a few.

This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet. We turn away. So easy to believe a lie. But what lies inside. Open your foolish eyes. We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone. It passes instantly. Should crown our lover’s throne. And miss out on the better prize. . The better prize. Ignorant to what’s inside.THE BETTER PRIZE The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade. And in our haste. A trick used to confuse the mind. Although it seems quite odd.

I’ve seen this day before. I remember to relax today. Unfortunately. add some play.RELAXING MY MIND Been a long day. But I know things will be fine. that’s the way life goes. I’m tired already. Try to balance both and remain whole. Time to sit and rest my mind. Save some work. Spirit. . My body’s weary. too. And I know more will surely come.

Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me. It should be tired of me. And pray trouble runs out of time. I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been. And I know nothing else. So I continue to Keep hope alive. Surrounded by my friends. Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free. I’ve given up on happiness. It must lie somewhere else. Why won’t it set me free? . Where all is calm. and I stay safe.TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME Trouble road begins at my door.

To ride with you. You smile at me And hit the gas.THE GREATEST ESCAPE Slow down for me. As I brace For the crash. How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on. Without your brakes. You’re driving too fast. No space for me. . And then thank God I learned to fly. Away I go To a better place. Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape. Even the belt Won’t keep me safe. Look to the sky. There is no room. You’re speeding now. I close my eyes.

THE FALL Land mines. Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two. everything I’ve got. Worried I’ll be found. The snipers waiting for that clear shot. Covering your insides. I wait until it’s dark. . So much to lose. afterall. Afraid to make a sound. Worried about the fall. Can never take the leap. Premeditated steps I take with no regrets.

We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go. Hope our move won’t make a mess. Take a step and not look back. That moment is meant just for you To make your move. Don’t be scared to let go. Then we realize The move was just right. Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know. . You’re right where you need to be. We wish for the best.MAKING MOVES Every now and then. And we’re finally on track. Make your move. Don’t be afraid. Scared to make a move. Do what you say.

My eyes are opened wide. And now the time is here For me to finally shine. Focused on today. Or what they tried to say. I’ve already won the race.WINNING THE RACE I’ve wasted too much time. And now half my life’s Just floated away. Light miles ahead. Although my mouth is closed. The final bell has rung. I never saw the signs. It’s time to take my rightful place. Life just passes by. . It never waits.

It’s so innocent. You know I’m really into it. Because when I need someone to vent to. indeed. The times we share. Even when I want to vent About nothing at all. . I need you to show me Just how I should be. But we’re just friends. You always take my call. I’m glad I have you in my life. You listen when I talk. You call me. A true friend. And I need you there. Taking it all in.TRUE FRIENDS I call you.

.KEEPING SECRETS Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing. Often times Those little things Should remain a secret. And what things we should keep. We need to learn What to say. There are times When we may find Some things troubling.

WITHOUT DOUBTS
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.

ANGER
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.

MY MOVES
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.

So little time. No more sitting still for me today. Ready for me to begin. Hold the door. So much to do. I’m coming in! .FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD Listen up! I got lots to say. Too much for me to hold inside.

This life has gotten really bad. . When you come for me. I’m looking forward to the trip ahead. In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again. I will be ready. I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go. Waiting for you to take me to some other place.WHEN YOU COME FOR ME When you come for me. I’m tired today. When you come for me. I won’t be sad. When you come for me.

You open up. but don’t know what to say. . Can’t get rid of me. Just how a smudge succeeds. Giving in to your every want and need. Desire being my excuse.A MERE SMUDGE I’m a smudge on your window pane. Guess I’m in too deep. Loving the way That I confuse.

But I’m the one that pays the toll. . Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape. That I can’t survive on my own.” I take a sip. Not knowing poison’s inside. You say it’ll never be. “Celebrate with me. A prisoner’s life is what I lead. Drink my wine.A PRISONER’S LIFE I want to be free. You say. Locked away indefinitely. I try and try To live your life. accept your smile.

AT A CROSSROADS Here I am. A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go. And I finally see. Make your move. All at once. I’ll guide you. No one to help me with this one. . Decision time tonight. I hear. It hit me hard. Either way. Close your eyes. Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be. it’ll be done. And That’s just what I’ll do.

They didn’t live here. Mainly out of fear. Awkward distance. Too scared to move. Happiness and joyful days. They silenced all the tears. Year after year. I’ve got to drive those blues away. Arguments. So they don’t live here no more.DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY Sad songs are all I heard. And I held on. . I can’t always be afraid. From this life I need more.

HOW How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning? .

too. SHALL PASS Pain can’t last forever. That bell it rings. too. And pain’s waiting At another’s door. shall pass. It’s got places to go. It. Taking over everything. Because nothing ever lasts Of pain. Till only it survives. Making you believe you died.IT. shall pass. TOO. . Consuming who it occupies. But … It.

. Fight to keep it all in order. Try not to let the weight get me down. Every day is a fight for me. And I fight with my head high. Try to turn it all around. For the misery in store. Holding onto my pride. But the price I pay is worth being free.HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE I try to hold my head above water. I suit up for the war.

So afraid of being called out our name. Our downfall in the end. Although we are among friends. Mistakes that others seem to make. Point fingers. We don’t see What lies within. .OUR DOWNFALL We are a sad society: So quick to judge. It’s become customary To point out all the flaws. All the while hiding ours. Believing those wicked smiles. Such a wicked game to play. Skirt the blame.

BEING FREE I won’t let you change who I am. The only way truly to be free. . Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be.

My eyes are open now. What treasures lied within. Just the way a record does. Now it’s time for me to grow. I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine. Picked up where I had left off.MY WORLD Sometime ago I lost myself. This thought had become commonplace. Concentrating on what I’m meant to do. . Don’t know how long it’s been. It’s how I lived my life. My world finally mine. Time for me to shine. Remembering who I was. Forgot who I was inside.

Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine. It’s there.MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine. Although it tries to hide. See … I’m making it my goal. I know. .

Hope not within my reach. As the pieces began to mend. Thought there was no escape. My spirit nearly broken. But I’m on the mend. But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat.NEARLY BROKEN Thought it was the end of me. I begin again. So glad that I had faith. . Nearly broken. My mind said all was lost.

Because she knows her worth. daughter. and a wife.MY FRIEND Oh. the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while. . She loves me more than anything. She knows how much I meant to her. She’s beautiful And full of life. She’s happy. A mother. That friend I’ve found is me.

One right-side up. The other upside down. Saying everything With just a smirk. The stories they tell Without saying a word.THE SMILE AND THE FROWN Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown. .

Instead. I’ll forever mourn.REMAINING LONELY Loneliness. have mercy on me. Memories barely keep me warm. Loosen your lover’s grip. . I remain lonely. The love I lost. Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip. I’d rather have my love with me.

FEAR INSIDE I challenge you To sit in silence. Imagine your worst fear. What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside? . Close your eyes. Visualize it’s there In front of you. Take a sigh.

EMMA LEE
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.

FREEDOM
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.

TODAY
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.

Until you walk through my door. But to you. feelings are no big deal. I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time. My time no longer mine. . Waiting once more.WAITING All I do Is wait around for you. So here I sit. I should say How I feel.

Because this I’m thankful for.SINGING TODAY FOR YOU Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time. . you know. So I sing today for you.

Though I don’t listen any more. Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out. I don’t care what you have to say. . Yet your mouth moves constantly. I’m not listening anyway.NOT LISTENING Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago.

Taking in all you see. You know me Better Than I ever could know. Looking through The window to my soul. And what I’m meant to be. You watch and study me.WINDOW TO MY SOUL I see you Through the window to my soul. . Loving everything I am.

Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud? You’re pretty for a black girl. Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more.PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL You’re pretty for a black girl. Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth. . What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me? You’re pretty for a black girl. Am I supposed to smile. You’re pretty for a black girl. Thank you for letting me know.

Beauty lying inside and out. Thought I should let you know. you are beautiful.FOR MY SISTERS My sister. . you know. Thought I should tell you so. Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen.

The time we have is now. . To share all we’ve got. To show each other why we’re here. Seeing all we’re meant to see.THE TIME IS NOW The only time we have is now. Even if we’ve forgotten. This place we’ve gotten to somehow. To feel how it should be.

” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten. She writes poetry. Her first publication was a short story entitled. Glonka. “The Amazing Mr. short stories.BIO Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school. . She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons. and songs.