ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition .Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved.

Devante. I love you. Blake. Brandon. Make your mark. Mom . and Jaden. The world is yours.For my boys.

CONTENTS Title Page Copyright Page LOVE Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone .

The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You .

LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me LIFE I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song .

Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How .

It. too. Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now .

LOVE .

For you. By loving you. . I leave my mark. My world expands. Giving you more than my last. I smile for you. I make your food. You are my light Through the dark.LOVING YOU As you awake. As you breathe. Handle with care. Wash your clothes. Bake your bread. I do it all. Clean the floors. I live for you At your command. Be your lover and more. All you have to do is ask. What lovers do.

. All thanks to you. Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth. Rotten to the very core. Only anger in this place. heartless. My evil eyes are full of spite.THANKS TO YOU Cold. Blacker than the darkest night. The monster made. All thanks to you. Bitter through and through.

You didn’t have to say a word. Licking your lips. woman and man. Caress my cheek from where you stand. I quench your thirst. I see the way you look at me. Don’t have to say a word. My hips move to your beat. I kiss your lips. I see your eyes start at my feet. you lift your hand. Your gaze has only reached my thighs. My chest. I feel your hands all over me. Felling the heat between you and me. And still not a word. . And you haven’t said a word.WITHOUT WORDS I know you like what you see. Now face-to-face. it heaves to my surprise.

Still shaded by your tree. My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. The years I lost. Requesting more so you can live. Bare for all to see. The rest gone down the drain.WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME Here I stand out in front. But you don’t see me. I shed my skin. The foolishness I left behind. You’ve taken all I have to give. It’s over now. And now my shell is all I have. just wasted time. . I gave my all for you to live. Emptied my soul. And you never saw me. My end is here.

A constant cold stuns my heart. We have grown together.SEASONS OF LOVE A light is shining bright. A love so grand. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh. We from the start. We bring forth our new ecstasy. Our love is blossoming for all to see. living long it must. Existing even after the end. You are my spring. it’s just you and me. All is still. In the end it was always us. You are my fall. A smile that warms the coldest night. You are my winter. You are my summer. The heat I crave to feel at night. built-in trust. No you and I. Please stay a while. .

I need the anger.BROKEN Please. I’ve got to let the burn roam free. please. I want to cry. Don’t want you to dry my eyes. Don’t want happiness here again. The damage done won’t disappear. So. oh please. my worst fear. I need to feel the pain inside of me. I killed your love for me. Just let this pain pierce my skin. You must understand my need to be here. Just let me be. Not bottle it up inside of me. just let me be. .

Our fingers intertwined. I’d say. Feed you by hand. I would call in sick. Me in your heart. No worry about what could be heard. Sitting by your side. You on my mind. I would make a meal For you and me. Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. It would always be this way. Silently gazing In your eyes. Make love to you without saying a word. That I’d never leave. Hold your hand.MY LAST DAY I would wake up a little late. Wash your feet Late that night. My love always. . Enjoy the day. gazing upon your face. Forever stay. I would promise you. Open my eyes.

.That’s how I would spend My last day.

You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. if you yell. just know I won’t be walking out the door. I’ll show up. . You curse and scream.I WILL SHOW UP If I yell. You see I gave my word in front of God. I will show up. The very last one to show up. Face so mean. So when you’re mad as hell. I’ll show up. it will be us. And I will always show up. I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you. Till this life ends. You spit my name With twisted face. Through thick and thin when times are hard. I’ll show up.

And give me what I need. Cover me with ecstasy. I don’t want to be your girl. You can find someone else to fill those shoes. it’s what you heard.WHAT I NEED No. Just here for me to feel alright. Don’t want to chill or hang with you. Lie down with me in this moment. Yeah. No. And give me what I need. Not here to be your girl tonight. Just take me on into the room. . Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do. we don’t have to talk or say a word. I’m telling you. So close your lips and take my hand. It’s not my place to be her for you.

Brighter than the night’s sky. Brightness everlasting. Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me. .LOVE ALL OVER ME Smiling all twenty four. I color the winter’s night. I am the Milky Way. And I will forge ahead. After the end. Cannot be dimmed. I will remain. My glow shines through the darkness. I am love.

Intoxicating. .HYPNOTIZED Fine As the darkest wine. I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized.

Love shouldn’t have to be this rough. Don’t sell away your half from me. I fear.SETTING YOU FREE Here I wait Today for you. God. as well. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol. I’ll hold it down and set you free. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man. Just like the day before. . A part-time love is not enough. A dozen women for a dime. I know my needs fall on deaf ears. Can’t compete with street life. Not just the night-time one you sell. Why do I compete With the streets.

Although the truth lies elsewhere. and I love you more than anything. At 11:30.HELL AND BACK I go through hell to be with you. nasty at 10. Pray to God that I don’t cry. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry. And try to make it back from hell again. At 10:30. Maybe this time is the last time. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry. Time to put me back on track. time for hell again. . But it’s 1. Say forgive me this time. Nice at 8. hell begins. You say you’re sorry all the time. I’m coming back. Swinging and swaying to your moods. I hold on tight for the ride.

Even met some dogs. Not giving up. too? I’ve been waiting oh so long.SEARCHING Where are you? Are you searching for me. Kissed so many frogs. too. But my conviction still remains strong. I wonder if you’re like me. . still searching. If the perfect one waits somewhere for you. Out there trying to see. And also trying to find me. I pray that you’re still looking.

It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything. Enjoy the ride. But love can also be so sweet. It smiles at you and then frowns. . And just await your love’s surprise. Refuses to be confined. It takes you up. It flows outside the lines. Love pulls you in. then drops you down. And surprises you with no regrets. It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect. Can pick you up and be complete. and Evaporates to your dismay. Pretends to stay. Sometimes love takes broader shape. So hold on tight.LOVE’S SURPRISE Sometimes love throws you a curve.

by my side. Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time. And I rule the roost. You show me how Real love should be with you. It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined. The queen I’m meant to be. Standing tall. Give me the world. I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. So glad to have you In my life. Tell me it’s all mine. . I tell you you’re The best at what you do. Just what I’m meant to do.WE LIFT EACH OTHER You lift me up For the world to see.

But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy. You’re having fun. And then not care Who you hurt. You had a plan all the while. Say some words. All others be damned. Because your plan is number one. You pile it on Because I can take it. Curse my name.THE WARNING It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you. Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile. . And try to break me. Pretend to care.

I’d miss everything. “My darling. I’d say to you.” . About you. The joy and laughter every night. The happiness I felt inside. The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared.MISSING YOU “What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say. “Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared.

It’s not cologne or soap. . That essence that I smell. You line the pleats of my skirt. That fragrence I know so well. Take you when I leave.YOU WEAR IT WELL I wear you on my sleeve. you know. So distinct. And you wear it well. An aroma only you possess. Not Ivory or Irish Spring. Whether at work or at play. I inhale you on my shirt. your scent. You follow me Through the day. Separating you from the rest. You’re with me On my way. Whether night or day.

Can’t make it on our own. Alone is not what we do. The shit we say. We laugh. And then we pray. Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through. Like children Not yet grown.NOT ALONE The games we play. . We hurt. Realizing It won’t work apart.

You don’t need to say it. Your life tells me so. I brought a new place for you. Because you are the best of me. This much I truly know. And I know I make up the best of you. Order lives where chaos dwelled. With me. The light replaced the dark.THE BEST OF ME I make up the best of you. A freshness for our start. I’m proud to see what you’ve become. A prize for all to see. .

Thinking that you’re done. Looking okay. Although repaired. You try to move along. . Will forever change the way I now look at you. Hoping things are as good as new. you see.TRUST It’s like a broken fence: When mended. But that kink. The chain contains a kink. you still see that link.

. I fear you love yourself More than you love me.SHADES OF ME How can you not love me. Skin of chocolate. For the chocolate and the caramel. With eyes of auburn. Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love. You don’t even see.

A world where only you escape: A world of beaches. It’s embedded between my thighs. . And I wait With your love’s escape. I’m ready now. Powder-white sand. I take you to another place.LOVE’S ESCAPE I know where your happiness lies. A world that rivals Disneyland.

To live in hell Or go be free. Not so simple to me. A simple choice It may seem.THE CHOICE The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. . Though simple it may be. Is not simple In my eyes. A place Finally to be me.

Don’t forget yesterday. Did you forget yesterday? A friend today. . Face twisted mean. I truly thought you understood. So it may seem.DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY Every time it’s going good. That voice appears and says. Did you forget yesterday? The screaming and the yelling. Yesterday. an enemy. Although you’re okay today. No matter what a friend may say.

You can’t say yes. to be with you? I can’t say no. .WHAT WE DESERVE Do you deserve All that I do. Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me. Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess. Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I. Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve.

But. I fear. You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. Because I see the truth. Your true love awaits. And I’m not the one for you. I know it’s not what you want to hear. It may just be Around the corner. But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you. Fully awake.THE TRUTH I’m sad today. No time to cry. it’s not meant to be. Another smiling face. We tried to make it work. Truth is you’re not the one for me. So. . Life alone brings doubts and fears. dry your eyes.

In a perfect world. You’d only have eyes for me. Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem. In a perfect world. Your love to give For me always. You’d forever stay. Sadly. I’d always be right. It’d be you and I.A PERFECT WORLD In a perfect world. We’d never fight. And I can only dream. You’d hold me tight. In a perfect world. And sit by my side. You’d agree with me. today it’s not that way. I’d be all you see. . There would be no other for you.

YOUR EVERYTHING
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.

FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.

WE BELONG
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.

We plot our moves From the go. For the right time. Believed that when you closed the door.LYING IN WAIT I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies. Women are cunning creatures you know. It is so easy for me to smile. Pretend I’m okay inside. The perfect moment to strike. It was fine to say goodbye. . You should have never estimated The power of my mind. We lie in wait.

I can’t forget what we had. It hurts to be in this spot. Because it’s all I know. When you would let me go. Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day. That’s too damn bad. Now I sit and wait for you.MOVING ON I wait for you in the lot. Thought the day would never come. . But I fear your mind’s made up. Because you set me free. Hoping it’s not too late. Where I said I’d be. You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had.

And sleep. But I don’t think It will ever be. It’s not enough for me. You look into my eyes.NOT YOUR FORTE I tell you I need more. Give me no reply. I ask you all the time To treat me like I need. Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte. .

so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show. Alone with the truth after the fall. For the real you can never love me. How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. What I see Is not really you. Although I know the truth. . But … I wanted you. And now I sit.

Yeah. Think it’s all a big game. So you can finally see. And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same. Miss what we had. You say you don’t care. The way I kissed you late at night. That there are many more like me. But time will tell. you think you know it all. You’re gonna miss me so damn bad. And please. I really hope you find her soon. Go ahead.A LOVE LIKE MINE You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone. hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. . Make your move.

Your love will kill My spirit.TERMINAL LOVE Your love will be The end of me. If I let it be. If I let it inside. Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me. Your love will make Me lose my mind. too. . If that’s what I let it do.

And that I deserve the best. It’s great to be by your side.THE LITTLE THINGS It’s the little things I appreciate. Ignoring all the rest. Holding my hand. . They don’t have to cost a thing. You’re blind to all that temptation outside. I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do. To live this life with you. Showing me the man That you’re proud to be. You tell me that I’m beautiful.

I finally love me more that you do. You discourage me. My anger knows It’s my fault. I’m the one who made you into you. . Because you need to be first. My spirit knows It’s your fault. And it’s my fault. And it’s your fault. My spirit grows. I let you do what you want to. Don’t want to hear my words. You don’t encourage me.LOVING ME My anger grows. Because all you thought about was you.

Because someday love will set me free. I will wait for love. I lay out the welcome mat for love. . Although it’s not yet mine. Although it doesn’t live here. I will wait for love. I still believe in love. I’m a fan of love.A FAN OF LOVE I am a fan of love. I still believe in love. I’d sit in the stands and cheer. But it won’t knock at my door. I lay out the welcome mat for love. Though it doesn’t live here no more. Because it waits somewhere for me. Because I see it all the time.

When I don’t even know your name. You try to live in my realty. But you won’t show your face. Your world is nothing like The one I’m from. You and I are not the same. A visitor from another place. I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come. Yet you came.A DIFFERENT CLOTH Cut from a different cloth. and you try To become you and I. But we’re not meant to be. Tell me why you’re in my space. If only in our eyes. Maybe that cloth Really is the same. .

Though the shitty lies you grab. To do what I have to do.PROMISES Promises you fail to keep Are all I have. Honesty is within your reach. So glad to have this new breakthrough. I don’t know why I ask for truth. It’s nowhere inside of you. .

It’s your way or the door. There’s no you and me in us for you. . twisted game. Not taking your shit any more. I’m sick to hell of being under your spell. I’m like a moth to your flame. But I’m tired of playing Your sick. I try and try to be What you want from me.NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE You can’t see me Past your superiority.

. You sprint along. Two peas of a different pod. Because you have to be first. Because we both want to win the race. now by my side. Trying to keep up.WINNING THE RACE I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight. We’ll never be face-to-face. Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath. Can’t let me be in front. First place is a space we both want.

Co-existence is the only power You hold over me. I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections. I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely. .POWER Looking through rose-colored glasses.

SING FOR YOU Why don’t I sing for you? A good question. Why don’t I feel comfortable. indeed. Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts. . but the one I should let go. Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for.

Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh. . And set me free. Love. Let loose your hold of me. how you love to tell your lovely lies. Just break your chains. The jokes are all at my expense. Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love. What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh.LOVE Love. Love. I laugh along in my defense.

Surviving by itself. A time of unrivaled bliss. Even when times were tough? It got you through. A time I surely miss. When unity was a goal.REMEMBERING LOVE Remember when Love was enough. With nothing else. Family meant we were whole. .

LOST LIVES Here we go again. And we’ve both paid the cost. So much to say. Just like the day before. days. minutes. . I look elsewhere instead. The seconds. So much to say. Our whole lives lost. you grin. Still alone. Because we never speak. But nothing’s said. Turning into weeks. I smile. And here we are In elder years. hours. I hold my breath. You try to read my face. Yet nothing was said. You stare at the floor. We drift together.

I think of you before I rest. pink and red. I try my best. You are the reason why I work so hard. Although I seldom tell you so. With you is where my heart lies. . My wife. How I cherish you. Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said: I can’t live my life without Having you by my side.MY WIFE You bought me flowers today: Roses.

And you think they’re just words. But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside. Or use my fists. Curse her name. Call her a bitch.KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS I lose a piece of me every day. . I disappear with every word you say. How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her.

THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME Oh. He’d cherish them because they were mine. That man I made for me. Put me before himself. He’d cherish the ground I walked on. . No one else would matter. It wouldn’t matter if they were his. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often. Live together happily. And even love my kids. He’d love every part of me. He’d always take care of me. I wouldn’t want for anything. A perfect world For him and me. He wouldn’t see anyone else.

LIFE .

Let me laugh after I’ve cried. Bring me light after the dark. And I’ll always put you first. Supporting me until the end. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day. I put you first. You guide. Whether I am right or wrong. I have a faithful friend. that’s the way it will be. Lord. And so. Get me through to a new start. I put you first. You’re by my side. I lead My life in Your hands. so I may rise. . In you. as I carry on. And so. And so. You let me fall. this is why I will believe With Your Word. I put your first.I PUT YOU FIRST You’ve been there Since day one. Guiding me along the way.

FAITH He came today and shook my soul. I don’t know nothing anymore. he’s taken hold. the path I walk. He is the Lord above. And I thought I knew it all. Says what I think before I do. He knows the goings on inside of me. My whole world. He has my unwavering faith. With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day. predicts my moves. He’s got my map. He knows my mind. Mouths the words before I talk. . He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break. I think he’s psychic see.

Sets me free. It shines so bright. You can’t contain What will remain. Rains down on me. No matter how hard you try. If asked. . A lie won’t hide. It’s impossible to hide a lie. I would have told you so. you know. A cover will not work.LIES AND TRUTH The truth is the light. Won’t stay inside.

The chains are gone. Was in a fog. Who I am inside. I got it now. ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be. but now I see The truth I bought now sold. So that confidence. For the entire world to see. Has built a wall that can’t be broken. Screaming to me in my own song. Took years to find. Now I’m free.REALIZATION The beauty of it all. Realizing who I am. I can’t lie low. powering my soul. The square peg now fits the hole. Yes. Can’t keep me down no more. Flipping a script You no longer own. .

So I say my last goodbye. Staining the air. A better place awaits me. Stealing my light. too. Everywhere. But. . I try to fight. Like the way That evil does. through the fog I can’t see. Killing my mind And spirit. Now is the end for me. The pain will end. All consuming. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today. So much to bear. breathlessly. It’s all around. finally. I’ll be with you forever now.ENDING THE PAIN This world of pain. And I cannot escape.

Or found dead. . I’ll start my fight by changing me. Someone’s missing. I vow to do the best I can. It calls to me and screams my name. Live by his word and let him see. Guess I’ll listen to radio instead. For fear of what it might say. same old thing. Everyone’s fighting or arguing. Can’t let this dark swallow my light.CHANGING ME I couldn’t watch the news today. Start my task with one woman. So I block it and stay inside. I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. But radio’s no better. Enough to drive the sane insane.

But blood is not enough.BREAKING FREE I try to cut the pain away. The one underneath’s too tough. I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay. I couldn’t cry. Although it hurt. Cutting deeper still. I’m the one it killed. The pain inside just wouldn’t die. The pain still wouldn’t go away. I pierce the layer that I see. Now I’m gone. Finally free. Now my pain has gone away. I took the pain away with me. I had to go because it stayed. After all the blood had dried. .

A battle I couldn’t lose. I held you tight and kissed your cheek. You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues. The love I thought I had to have. Although you were not yet mine. By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away. I feared it was not true.MY SON SHINES Long ago I dreamt of you. But through it all. Here I stand forever. For the other half of you. I stood tall. Only the mixture that I needed. . Before you were inside.

Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me. . me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me.KNOWING ME Do you really know who I am. Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know.

Dance with me tonight. Dance with me tonight.DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT I feel the music From deep within. Your song instead. Dance with me tonight. I feel the beat. The rhythm stirs Inside my head. . It moves my feet. My arms they sway That away. Please play for me. It moves my hips. Made for sin.

Though your beauty will last always. They’ll wish we stopped you just in time. . Sometimes too much to bare. And let them know An early end’s no way to go. So hold them tight.TOO SOON Gone too soon. Your will was not as strong. So here is where they’ll stay. But many will always care. Pain can be an awful thing. We older folks can tolerate. It’s sad to know your time is done. To make sure you were still here. We didn’t have you long. Help them push the pain aside. What younger ones can’t fare.

Hoping you’re asleep. I approach. You strike so fast. Too many eyes Cover me. . Await my move. Hoping you snoozed. I knew you were there After all. I hold my breath.THE BROWN WIDOW You wait for me In the dark. Why did I go? I should have paused. I wait till day To go your way. But you’re too quick. You’re poisonous. You lay still.

Live your best life now. Take your time. .THE TIME IS NOW Slow down. DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight. It will be just right.

It differs from the rest. . take a peak. Our inner superstar Was always there inside. it lies inside. But often forget where it lies. Dormant. Years later we get another glimpse. After we have forgotten. Specific to each owner. Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. We get a glimpse. Where it shines the best.INNER SUPERSTAR We possess it early on. Residing where it’s meant to be. And then peaked out often. Remembering where it first shined.

It shows its face in elder years. Life’s not all a mystery. Listen for what life has in store. Be patient. Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down. We make a turn on our own.LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL Life tries to take the wheel. But then we find courage inside And turn it all around. But we get in the way. Without listening to what it has to say. Its view widens so we may see. . Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. While hiding in our youth.

Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so. I took for granted you’d be here. This I didn’t know. . At least. Now tomorrow’s here. And you’re gone. I’m so sorry I was wrong.TOO LATE You were mine On borrowed time. until tomorrow.

.AHA MOMENT Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise. spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do.

Like many colors of the rainbow. They cover you And color me. A range of shades for everything. Relaxed for when I sleep. I’m an aubergine. . A darker color when we fight. When ready. A softer shade. a light yellow. I shine brightly for all to see.COLORS OF ME There are many Shades of me. Neon bright. Black or white. When wide awake. you know. I change from day-to-day. Growing daily like the evergreen. A blue for when I’m feeling low. I can be any hue I want to be.

The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow. The sadness that you may see. I don’t know how Or even why. rhyming All the time. And it makes up The best of me. breathing poetry . Is all poetry to me. It sings to me from deep inside. Thinking. Living.A POET’S SONG I live in verse. I think in rhyme.

Shine from underneath? Is it dim. barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath. .BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH Just how bright Is your light. The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow.

I open up. . I am your friend. Inside that room lives poetry. Encourages me With its warm smile. Then sings to me In special notes. And offers me its words to eat. It comforts me. Then takes my coat. It says to me. It embraces me. It sets me free. It invites me in. And says Please come back any day. It offers me a place to stay. Says take a seat.POETRY LIVES HERE A door has opened up for me. Says stay awhile.

Shape of my thighs. That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss. The wisdom I possess. I can erase? If I frighten. I am woman. or shock you. The pleasures I possess. The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back.KNOWING MY WORTH Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice. It’s because I am beauty. offend. I am life. Knowing that your fears. Curve of my waist. . And I know my worth. The comfort of my embrace. The knowledge I give.

Forgetting it. We are the best of all beings. Rewarded with so many qualities. . One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth. you should abhor.OF ALL BEINGS Fellow women of today. Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man.

What a lovely ride. Happiness and long-lost friends. I can’t wait for mine. Thinking of how it will be. Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me. . My destination is on my mind. Held some hands along the way. Every road must come to an end. Did mostly as I pleased. A sight I almost see. I smile and hold it inside.THE LONG ROAD HOME I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead.

Listen closely. The signs are there For you to see. .THE SOUND OF SIGNS I hear the birds chirping. As if saying to me. “The time has come For you to leave. Sounds fully. It is today. Giving the breeze What it needs. As if to say.” The willow weeps.” The tree breaths. Close your eyes. “Your time is here.

What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man. I’ve grabbed my pen.A CALL TO ARMS *STOP* Turn off your television set. . Or we all lose. This is not a test. It’s not too late. What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot.

My home is where I chose to be. Where true love lives. Beside the bed. My home can be one place or a few.HOME My home is where I lay my head And pray at night. Though we’re apart. My home may just be with you. My home is where I leave my heart. . Where happiness lives Indefinitely.

So easy to believe a lie. A trick used to confuse the mind. This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet. And in our haste. But what lies inside. It passes instantly. We turn away. . And miss out on the better prize. Although it seems quite odd.THE BETTER PRIZE The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade. The better prize. Ignorant to what’s inside. We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone. Open your foolish eyes. Should crown our lover’s throne.

Unfortunately. I’m tired already. And I know more will surely come. that’s the way life goes. My body’s weary. Spirit. add some play. too. But I know things will be fine. Try to balance both and remain whole. . I remember to relax today. I’ve seen this day before.RELAXING MY MIND Been a long day. Save some work. Time to sit and rest my mind.

And pray trouble runs out of time. Why won’t it set me free? . Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free. So I continue to Keep hope alive. I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been. Where all is calm. It must lie somewhere else. Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me.TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME Trouble road begins at my door. Surrounded by my friends. I’ve given up on happiness. and I stay safe. And I know nothing else. It should be tired of me.

Even the belt Won’t keep me safe. I close my eyes. You smile at me And hit the gas. . How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on. Look to the sky. You’re driving too fast. Without your brakes. And then thank God I learned to fly. There is no room. As I brace For the crash. Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape.THE GREATEST ESCAPE Slow down for me. To ride with you. You’re speeding now. No space for me. Away I go To a better place.

Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two. The snipers waiting for that clear shot. afterall. Afraid to make a sound. I wait until it’s dark. Covering your insides. So much to lose. Worried about the fall. Can never take the leap. . Premeditated steps I take with no regrets. everything I’ve got. Worried I’ll be found.THE FALL Land mines.

Then we realize The move was just right. Take a step and not look back. Don’t be afraid. And we’re finally on track. Hope our move won’t make a mess. You’re right where you need to be. We wish for the best. Don’t be scared to let go. Make your move.MAKING MOVES Every now and then. We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go. Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know. Do what you say. Scared to make a move. That moment is meant just for you To make your move. .

I’ve already won the race. Life just passes by. I never saw the signs. Although my mouth is closed. It never waits. Light miles ahead. My eyes are opened wide. It’s time to take my rightful place. And now the time is here For me to finally shine. Or what they tried to say. .WINNING THE RACE I’ve wasted too much time. Focused on today. And now half my life’s Just floated away. The final bell has rung.

Taking it all in. . I need you to show me Just how I should be. And I need you there. Because when I need someone to vent to. I’m glad I have you in my life.TRUE FRIENDS I call you. Even when I want to vent About nothing at all. You always take my call. You call me. indeed. You listen when I talk. It’s so innocent. A true friend. The times we share. You know I’m really into it. But we’re just friends.

There are times When we may find Some things troubling. And what things we should keep. . We need to learn What to say. Often times Those little things Should remain a secret.KEEPING SECRETS Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing.

WITHOUT DOUBTS
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.

ANGER
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.

MY MOVES
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.

I’m coming in! . So much to do.FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD Listen up! I got lots to say. So little time. Too much for me to hold inside. Ready for me to begin. No more sitting still for me today. Hold the door.

When you come for me. When you come for me. When you come for me. I’m looking forward to the trip ahead. I will be ready. I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go. Waiting for you to take me to some other place. I’m tired today. I won’t be sad. This life has gotten really bad. . In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again.WHEN YOU COME FOR ME When you come for me.

Just how a smudge succeeds. but don’t know what to say. Guess I’m in too deep. Loving the way That I confuse. Can’t get rid of me. Giving in to your every want and need. You open up. .A MERE SMUDGE I’m a smudge on your window pane. Desire being my excuse.

“Celebrate with me. You say. accept your smile.” I take a sip.A PRISONER’S LIFE I want to be free. You say it’ll never be. But I’m the one that pays the toll. . Drink my wine. That I can’t survive on my own. Locked away indefinitely. A prisoner’s life is what I lead. I try and try To live your life. Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape. Not knowing poison’s inside.

Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be. I hear. I’ll guide you. All at once. Either way. Close your eyes. A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go. And That’s just what I’ll do. It hit me hard. No one to help me with this one. it’ll be done. Decision time tonight.AT A CROSSROADS Here I am. And I finally see. . Make your move.

And I held on. Mainly out of fear. Arguments. They didn’t live here. I can’t always be afraid. They silenced all the tears. . From this life I need more. I’ve got to drive those blues away. Year after year.DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY Sad songs are all I heard. Too scared to move. Happiness and joyful days. Awkward distance. So they don’t live here no more.

HOW How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning? .

SHALL PASS Pain can’t last forever. shall pass. . Making you believe you died. But … It. That bell it rings. Till only it survives. It. Consuming who it occupies. Taking over everything. shall pass. It’s got places to go. too. too. TOO. Because nothing ever lasts Of pain. And pain’s waiting At another’s door.IT.

HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE I try to hold my head above water. . Holding onto my pride. Try to turn it all around. Fight to keep it all in order. For the misery in store. I suit up for the war. But the price I pay is worth being free. Try not to let the weight get me down. And I fight with my head high. Every day is a fight for me.

We don’t see What lies within. Such a wicked game to play. Point fingers. Although we are among friends. Skirt the blame. It’s become customary To point out all the flaws. All the while hiding ours. Believing those wicked smiles. So afraid of being called out our name. Mistakes that others seem to make. .OUR DOWNFALL We are a sad society: So quick to judge. Our downfall in the end.

The only way truly to be free.BEING FREE I won’t let you change who I am. . Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be.

My eyes are open now. Concentrating on what I’m meant to do. Remembering who I was.MY WORLD Sometime ago I lost myself. Time for me to shine. My world finally mine. Picked up where I had left off. . Forgot who I was inside. This thought had become commonplace. What treasures lied within. Don’t know how long it’s been. Just the way a record does. It’s how I lived my life. I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine. Now it’s time for me to grow.

MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine. It’s there. See … I’m making it my goal. Although it tries to hide. Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine. I know. .

I begin again. So glad that I had faith. But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat. But I’m on the mend. My mind said all was lost. Hope not within my reach.NEARLY BROKEN Thought it was the end of me. Nearly broken. As the pieces began to mend. . My spirit nearly broken. Thought there was no escape.

MY FRIEND Oh. A mother. the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while. That friend I’ve found is me. and a wife. She’s happy. daughter. She loves me more than anything. . She’s beautiful And full of life. Because she knows her worth. She knows how much I meant to her.

Saying everything With just a smirk. The stories they tell Without saying a word.THE SMILE AND THE FROWN Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown. The other upside down. . One right-side up.

Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip. I’ll forever mourn. have mercy on me. Memories barely keep me warm. The love I lost. I remain lonely. Loosen your lover’s grip. I’d rather have my love with me.REMAINING LONELY Loneliness. Instead. .

What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside? . Close your eyes. Visualize it’s there In front of you.FEAR INSIDE I challenge you To sit in silence. Take a sigh. Imagine your worst fear.

EMMA LEE
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.

FREEDOM
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.

TODAY
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.

WAITING All I do Is wait around for you. Waiting once more. So here I sit. My time no longer mine. I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time. Until you walk through my door. I should say How I feel. . But to you. feelings are no big deal.

Because this I’m thankful for.SINGING TODAY FOR YOU Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time. . So I sing today for you. you know.

. Though I don’t listen any more.NOT LISTENING Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago. Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out. Yet your mouth moves constantly. I’m not listening anyway. I don’t care what you have to say.

Taking in all you see. You know me Better Than I ever could know.WINDOW TO MY SOUL I see you Through the window to my soul. Looking through The window to my soul. . Loving everything I am. You watch and study me. And what I’m meant to be.

Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud? You’re pretty for a black girl. Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth. You’re pretty for a black girl. What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me? You’re pretty for a black girl. Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more. . Am I supposed to smile.PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL You’re pretty for a black girl. Thank you for letting me know.

Thought I should let you know. you are beautiful.FOR MY SISTERS My sister. you know. Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen. Beauty lying inside and out. . Thought I should tell you so.

To share all we’ve got.THE TIME IS NOW The only time we have is now. This place we’ve gotten to somehow. Seeing all we’re meant to see. . To feel how it should be. The time we have is now. Even if we’ve forgotten. To show each other why we’re here.

“The Amazing Mr. Glonka. . She writes poetry. and songs.BIO Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school. She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons. Her first publication was a short story entitled.” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten. short stories.

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