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ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition .Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved.
The world is yours. Blake.For my boys. Devante. I love you. Mom . Make your mark. and Jaden. Brandon.
CONTENTS Title Page Copyright Page LOVE Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone .
The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You .
LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me LIFE I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song .
Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How .
too.It. Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now .
All you have to do is ask. I make your food. I do it all. I leave my mark. Handle with care. For you. I smile for you. Clean the floors. Be your lover and more. I live for you At your command. Bake your bread. Wash your clothes. As you breathe. My world expands.LOVING YOU As you awake. . You are my light Through the dark. Giving you more than my last. By loving you. What lovers do.
Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth. Only anger in this place. heartless. Blacker than the darkest night. Bitter through and through. The monster made.THANKS TO YOU Cold. My evil eyes are full of spite. All thanks to you. Rotten to the very core. . All thanks to you.
Felling the heat between you and me. Caress my cheek from where you stand. I quench your thirst. My chest. My hips move to your beat. you lift your hand. Licking your lips. Don’t have to say a word. I kiss your lips. You didn’t have to say a word. Your gaze has only reached my thighs. it heaves to my surprise. Now face-to-face. I see the way you look at me. I feel your hands all over me.WITHOUT WORDS I know you like what you see. I see your eyes start at my feet. And still not a word. woman and man. . And you haven’t said a word.
WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME Here I stand out in front. The years I lost. But you don’t see me. It’s over now. Bare for all to see. My end is here. Emptied my soul. . And you never saw me. Still shaded by your tree. just wasted time. I gave my all for you to live. The rest gone down the drain. My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. You’ve taken all I have to give. Requesting more so you can live. I shed my skin. And now my shell is all I have. The foolishness I left behind.
We have grown together. The heat I crave to feel at night. You are my winter. Existing even after the end. .SEASONS OF LOVE A light is shining bright. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh. You are my summer. In the end it was always us. We from the start. living long it must. A constant cold stuns my heart. A love so grand. All is still. You are my spring. built-in trust. it’s just you and me. A smile that warms the coldest night. Please stay a while. Our love is blossoming for all to see. We bring forth our new ecstasy. No you and I. You are my fall.
I killed your love for me. The damage done won’t disappear. my worst fear. please. oh please. So. Just let me be. I need to feel the pain inside of me.BROKEN Please. Not bottle it up inside of me. You must understand my need to be here. Don’t want happiness here again. . I’ve got to let the burn roam free. Just let this pain pierce my skin. I need the anger. I want to cry. just let me be. Don’t want you to dry my eyes.
Silently gazing In your eyes. No worry about what could be heard. Me in your heart. gazing upon your face. Our fingers intertwined. That I’d never leave. Forever stay.MY LAST DAY I would wake up a little late. Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. I’d say. Open my eyes. Enjoy the day. It would always be this way. Feed you by hand. I would make a meal For you and me. I would promise you. Make love to you without saying a word. Hold your hand. My love always. Wash your feet Late that night. You on my mind. I would call in sick. Sitting by your side. .
.That’s how I would spend My last day.
I’ll show up. I’ll show up. And I will always show up. just know I won’t be walking out the door. You curse and scream. I’ll show up. if you yell. I will show up. Till this life ends. So when you’re mad as hell. You spit my name With twisted face. You see I gave my word in front of God.I WILL SHOW UP If I yell. You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. it will be us. I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you. . Through thick and thin when times are hard. The very last one to show up. Face so mean.
You can find someone else to fill those shoes. I’m telling you. It’s not my place to be her for you. So close your lips and take my hand. Just take me on into the room. Yeah. . I don’t want to be your girl. Just here for me to feel alright. Don’t want to chill or hang with you. Lie down with me in this moment. it’s what you heard. And give me what I need. No. we don’t have to talk or say a word.WHAT I NEED No. And give me what I need. Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do. Cover me with ecstasy. Not here to be your girl tonight.
I will remain. Cannot be dimmed. Brightness everlasting. Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me. Brighter than the night’s sky. My glow shines through the darkness. And I will forge ahead.LOVE ALL OVER ME Smiling all twenty four. . I color the winter’s night. I am the Milky Way. I am love. After the end.
Intoxicating. . I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized.HYPNOTIZED Fine As the darkest wine.
I know my needs fall on deaf ears. . Just like the day before. as well. I’ll hold it down and set you free. A dozen women for a dime. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man. God. A part-time love is not enough.SETTING YOU FREE Here I wait Today for you. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol. Love shouldn’t have to be this rough. Why do I compete With the streets. Don’t sell away your half from me. Not just the night-time one you sell. I fear. Can’t compete with street life.
But it’s 1. Although the truth lies elsewhere. Time to put me back on track. I hold on tight for the ride.HELL AND BACK I go through hell to be with you. You say you’re sorry all the time. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry. . Maybe this time is the last time. And try to make it back from hell again. Pray to God that I don’t cry. At 10:30. and I love you more than anything. time for hell again. Say forgive me this time. Swinging and swaying to your moods. At 11:30. nasty at 10. I’m coming back. hell begins. Nice at 8. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry.
too. Kissed so many frogs. Out there trying to see. Even met some dogs.SEARCHING Where are you? Are you searching for me. still searching. And also trying to find me. too? I’ve been waiting oh so long. I pray that you’re still looking. I wonder if you’re like me. Not giving up. If the perfect one waits somewhere for you. But my conviction still remains strong. .
It smiles at you and then frowns. Enjoy the ride. Pretends to stay. And surprises you with no regrets. But love can also be so sweet. And just await your love’s surprise. It flows outside the lines. Can pick you up and be complete. Sometimes love takes broader shape. Love pulls you in. . and Evaporates to your dismay. It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything.LOVE’S SURPRISE Sometimes love throws you a curve. Refuses to be confined. then drops you down. It takes you up. It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect. So hold on tight.
I tell you you’re The best at what you do. Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do. It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined. Standing tall. . Give me the world.WE LIFT EACH OTHER You lift me up For the world to see. Just what I’m meant to do. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time. You show me how Real love should be with you. The queen I’m meant to be. I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. by my side. And I rule the roost. So glad to have you In my life. Tell me it’s all mine.
Curse my name. Say some words. But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy.THE WARNING It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you. You pile it on Because I can take it. . Pretend to care. And then not care Who you hurt. And try to break me. Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile. All others be damned. You had a plan all the while. Because your plan is number one. You’re having fun.
About you. The happiness I felt inside. “My darling.” . I’d miss everything. The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared. The joy and laughter every night. I’d say to you. “Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared.MISSING YOU “What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say.
And you wear it well.YOU WEAR IT WELL I wear you on my sleeve. It’s not cologne or soap. Not Ivory or Irish Spring. Take you when I leave. You follow me Through the day. An aroma only you possess. I inhale you on my shirt. Separating you from the rest. You line the pleats of my skirt. That essence that I smell. your scent. You’re with me On my way. Whether night or day. you know. So distinct. Whether at work or at play. That fragrence I know so well. .
And then we pray. We hurt. The shit we say. Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through. We laugh. Realizing It won’t work apart. Like children Not yet grown. Can’t make it on our own. .NOT ALONE The games we play. Alone is not what we do.
A prize for all to see. Your life tells me so. Order lives where chaos dwelled. I’m proud to see what you’ve become. I brought a new place for you. This much I truly know. Because you are the best of me. With me.THE BEST OF ME I make up the best of you. A freshness for our start. The light replaced the dark. You don’t need to say it. And I know I make up the best of you. .
The chain contains a kink. But that kink. You try to move along. Looking okay. . Although repaired. Will forever change the way I now look at you. you see. you still see that link. Hoping things are as good as new.TRUST It’s like a broken fence: When mended. Thinking that you’re done.
Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love. I fear you love yourself More than you love me. With eyes of auburn. For the chocolate and the caramel.SHADES OF ME How can you not love me. Skin of chocolate. . You don’t even see.
A world that rivals Disneyland. Powder-white sand. I’m ready now. And I wait With your love’s escape.LOVE’S ESCAPE I know where your happiness lies. I take you to another place. A world where only you escape: A world of beaches. . It’s embedded between my thighs.
THE CHOICE The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. To live in hell Or go be free. A simple choice It may seem. Is not simple In my eyes. Not so simple to me. Though simple it may be. . A place Finally to be me.
I truly thought you understood.DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY Every time it’s going good. That voice appears and says. Although you’re okay today. No matter what a friend may say. an enemy. So it may seem. Don’t forget yesterday. . Yesterday. Face twisted mean. Did you forget yesterday? The screaming and the yelling. Did you forget yesterday? A friend today.
. Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess. to be with you? I can’t say no. You can’t say yes. Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me. Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve.WHAT WE DESERVE Do you deserve All that I do. Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I.
I fear. Truth is you’re not the one for me. So. dry your eyes. I know it’s not what you want to hear. . And I’m not the one for you. Because I see the truth. But. No time to cry. You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. We tried to make it work. Life alone brings doubts and fears. Your true love awaits. it’s not meant to be. It may just be Around the corner.THE TRUTH I’m sad today. Another smiling face. But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you. Fully awake.
And I can only dream. I’d be all you see. Sadly. And sit by my side. You’d only have eyes for me. In a perfect world. In a perfect world. Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem. It’d be you and I. You’d hold me tight. I’d always be right.A PERFECT WORLD In a perfect world. . In a perfect world. There would be no other for you. today it’s not that way. Your love to give For me always. We’d never fight. You’d agree with me. You’d forever stay.
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.
FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.
Women are cunning creatures you know. It was fine to say goodbye. Pretend I’m okay inside. You should have never estimated The power of my mind. For the right time. .LYING IN WAIT I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies. It is so easy for me to smile. The perfect moment to strike. We lie in wait. We plot our moves From the go. Believed that when you closed the door.
It hurts to be in this spot. When you would let me go. That’s too damn bad. Thought the day would never come. . Now I sit and wait for you. Where I said I’d be. I can’t forget what we had. Because it’s all I know. Because you set me free. Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day. You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had.MOVING ON I wait for you in the lot. But I fear your mind’s made up. Hoping it’s not too late.
But I don’t think It will ever be. Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte.NOT YOUR FORTE I tell you I need more. You look into my eyes. . I ask you all the time To treat me like I need. It’s not enough for me. Give me no reply. And sleep.
Although I know the truth. so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show. What I see Is not really you. For the real you can never love me. Alone with the truth after the fall. How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all. But … I wanted you.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. . And now I sit.
And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same. You’re gonna miss me so damn bad. Think it’s all a big game.A LOVE LIKE MINE You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone. I really hope you find her soon. And please. But time will tell. Yeah. . hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. So you can finally see. That there are many more like me. you think you know it all. Go ahead. The way I kissed you late at night. Make your move. Miss what we had. You say you don’t care.
If I let it be. Your love will kill My spirit. Your love will make Me lose my mind. . Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me. too. If that’s what I let it do.TERMINAL LOVE Your love will be The end of me. If I let it inside.
You’re blind to all that temptation outside. To live this life with you. And that I deserve the best. You tell me that I’m beautiful. I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do. .THE LITTLE THINGS It’s the little things I appreciate. Holding my hand. Ignoring all the rest. It’s great to be by your side. Showing me the man That you’re proud to be. They don’t have to cost a thing.
My spirit knows It’s your fault. I finally love me more that you do. You discourage me. Because you need to be first. My anger knows It’s my fault. You don’t encourage me. Because all you thought about was you. My spirit grows. Don’t want to hear my words. I’m the one who made you into you.LOVING ME My anger grows. I let you do what you want to. And it’s my fault. . And it’s your fault.
I’m a fan of love. Because someday love will set me free. I still believe in love. But it won’t knock at my door. Because I see it all the time. I still believe in love. . Though it doesn’t live here no more. I lay out the welcome mat for love. I lay out the welcome mat for love. Although it’s not yet mine. I’d sit in the stands and cheer. I will wait for love.A FAN OF LOVE I am a fan of love. Although it doesn’t live here. Because it waits somewhere for me. I will wait for love.
You and I are not the same.A DIFFERENT CLOTH Cut from a different cloth. Yet you came. I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come. Tell me why you’re in my space. If only in our eyes. When I don’t even know your name. But we’re not meant to be. A visitor from another place. You try to live in my realty. Your world is nothing like The one I’m from. and you try To become you and I. . Maybe that cloth Really is the same. But you won’t show your face.
Though the shitty lies you grab. Honesty is within your reach. It’s nowhere inside of you. So glad to have this new breakthrough. I don’t know why I ask for truth.PROMISES Promises you fail to keep Are all I have. To do what I have to do. .
. I try and try to be What you want from me. I’m sick to hell of being under your spell.NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE You can’t see me Past your superiority. It’s your way or the door. I’m like a moth to your flame. twisted game. There’s no you and me in us for you. Not taking your shit any more. But I’m tired of playing Your sick.
now by my side. Because we both want to win the race. Trying to keep up.WINNING THE RACE I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight. Two peas of a different pod. First place is a space we both want. Because you have to be first. You sprint along. . We’ll never be face-to-face. Can’t let me be in front. Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath.
. Co-existence is the only power You hold over me.POWER Looking through rose-colored glasses. I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections. I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely.
Why don’t I feel comfortable. indeed. but the one I should let go.SING FOR YOU Why don’t I sing for you? A good question. Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts. . Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for.
Love.LOVE Love. Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh. Let loose your hold of me. What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh. I laugh along in my defense. . Love. The jokes are all at my expense. Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love. how you love to tell your lovely lies. Just break your chains. And set me free.
Family meant we were whole. A time I surely miss.REMEMBERING LOVE Remember when Love was enough. With nothing else. Even when times were tough? It got you through. When unity was a goal. A time of unrivaled bliss. Surviving by itself. .
hours. I hold my breath. Yet nothing was said. And here we are In elder years. Our whole lives lost. I look elsewhere instead. We drift together. You stare at the floor. Just like the day before. Turning into weeks. Still alone. I smile. . You try to read my face. So much to say. But nothing’s said. you grin. The seconds. days. minutes.LOST LIVES Here we go again. Because we never speak. And we’ve both paid the cost. So much to say.
Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said: I can’t live my life without Having you by my side. . Although I seldom tell you so. You are the reason why I work so hard. pink and red.MY WIFE You bought me flowers today: Roses. How I cherish you. With you is where my heart lies. I think of you before I rest. My wife. I try my best.
KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS I lose a piece of me every day. But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside. And you think they’re just words. . Call her a bitch. I disappear with every word you say. Curse her name. Or use my fists. How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her.
He wouldn’t see anyone else. It wouldn’t matter if they were his. I wouldn’t want for anything. Live together happily. And even love my kids. He’d cherish them because they were mine. A perfect world For him and me. That man I made for me. . He’d cherish the ground I walked on. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often. Put me before himself. He’d love every part of me.THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME Oh. He’d always take care of me. No one else would matter.
as I carry on. so I may rise. Supporting me until the end. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day. Bring me light after the dark. I have a faithful friend. I put you first. And so. And so. I lead My life in Your hands. Let me laugh after I’ve cried. . You guide. And I’ll always put you first. You’re by my side.I PUT YOU FIRST You’ve been there Since day one. And so. that’s the way it will be. You let me fall. I put your first. I put you first. Whether I am right or wrong. Lord. this is why I will believe With Your Word. In you. Guiding me along the way. Get me through to a new start.
the path I walk. He has my unwavering faith. My whole world.FAITH He came today and shook my soul. Says what I think before I do. I don’t know nothing anymore. he’s taken hold. He knows the goings on inside of me. He’s got my map. He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break. predicts my moves. He is the Lord above. With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day. And I thought I knew it all. He knows my mind. . I think he’s psychic see. Mouths the words before I talk.
you know. Sets me free. A lie won’t hide. . No matter how hard you try.LIES AND TRUTH The truth is the light. It shines so bright. It’s impossible to hide a lie. A cover will not work. You can’t contain What will remain. Won’t stay inside. I would have told you so. If asked. Rains down on me.
Now I’m free. So that confidence. powering my soul. Was in a fog. Yes. ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be. Can’t keep me down no more. For the entire world to see. but now I see The truth I bought now sold.REALIZATION The beauty of it all. I can’t lie low. . Screaming to me in my own song. Realizing who I am. Has built a wall that can’t be broken. The chains are gone. Took years to find. The square peg now fits the hole. Who I am inside. Flipping a script You no longer own. I got it now.
breathlessly. But. Stealing my light. Now is the end for me. So much to bear. Killing my mind And spirit. too.ENDING THE PAIN This world of pain. A better place awaits me. The pain will end. Staining the air. Like the way That evil does. And I cannot escape. through the fog I can’t see. Everywhere. It’s all around. So I say my last goodbye. I’ll be with you forever now. I try to fight. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today. All consuming. finally. .
I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. Enough to drive the sane insane. So I block it and stay inside. Or found dead. same old thing. Start my task with one woman. I’ll start my fight by changing me. But radio’s no better. It calls to me and screams my name. I vow to do the best I can. Can’t let this dark swallow my light.CHANGING ME I couldn’t watch the news today. Everyone’s fighting or arguing. For fear of what it might say. Someone’s missing. Live by his word and let him see. . Guess I’ll listen to radio instead.
Now I’m gone. Now my pain has gone away. I pierce the layer that I see. .BREAKING FREE I try to cut the pain away. The pain still wouldn’t go away. I had to go because it stayed. I’m the one it killed. Although it hurt. The one underneath’s too tough. I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay. I couldn’t cry. Finally free. I took the pain away with me. Cutting deeper still. But blood is not enough. The pain inside just wouldn’t die. After all the blood had dried.
By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away. . Before you were inside. I stood tall.MY SON SHINES Long ago I dreamt of you. A battle I couldn’t lose. Here I stand forever. I feared it was not true. Only the mixture that I needed. The love I thought I had to have. I held you tight and kissed your cheek. But through it all. Although you were not yet mine. You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues. For the other half of you.
. Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know. me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me.KNOWING ME Do you really know who I am. Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me.
. Dance with me tonight. My arms they sway That away. It moves my feet. Please play for me. It moves my hips. Dance with me tonight. I feel the beat. The rhythm stirs Inside my head.DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT I feel the music From deep within. Your song instead. Made for sin. Dance with me tonight.
It’s sad to know your time is done. What younger ones can’t fare. Help them push the pain aside. To make sure you were still here.TOO SOON Gone too soon. Pain can be an awful thing. So here is where they’ll stay. We didn’t have you long. . So hold them tight. They’ll wish we stopped you just in time. Sometimes too much to bare. But many will always care. We older folks can tolerate. And let them know An early end’s no way to go. Though your beauty will last always. Your will was not as strong.
I approach. Hoping you snoozed. But you’re too quick. Too many eyes Cover me. Hoping you’re asleep. You’re poisonous. I hold my breath. I knew you were there After all.THE BROWN WIDOW You wait for me In the dark. You lay still. Why did I go? I should have paused. Await my move. . I wait till day To go your way. You strike so fast.
THE TIME IS NOW Slow down. DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight. It will be just right. Live your best life now. Take your time. .
Residing where it’s meant to be. Years later we get another glimpse. And then peaked out often. After we have forgotten. Remembering where it first shined. It differs from the rest. Specific to each owner. . Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. But often forget where it lies. Dormant. Where it shines the best. take a peak. We get a glimpse. it lies inside. Our inner superstar Was always there inside.INNER SUPERSTAR We possess it early on.
. But then we find courage inside And turn it all around. Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. But we get in the way. We make a turn on our own.LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL Life tries to take the wheel. Without listening to what it has to say. Listen for what life has in store. Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down. Its view widens so we may see. Be patient. It shows its face in elder years. While hiding in our youth. Life’s not all a mystery.
And you’re gone. until tomorrow. I’m so sorry I was wrong.TOO LATE You were mine On borrowed time. I took for granted you’d be here. . Now tomorrow’s here. Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so. At least. This I didn’t know.
AHA MOMENT Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise. . spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do.
A range of shades for everything. a light yellow. you know. I’m an aubergine. Like many colors of the rainbow. Relaxed for when I sleep. I change from day-to-day. A softer shade. I shine brightly for all to see. They cover you And color me. A darker color when we fight. When ready. Growing daily like the evergreen. Black or white. When wide awake. I can be any hue I want to be. Neon bright. .COLORS OF ME There are many Shades of me. A blue for when I’m feeling low.
It sings to me from deep inside. And it makes up The best of me. I think in rhyme. Thinking. The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow. The sadness that you may see.A POET’S SONG I live in verse. I don’t know how Or even why. Is all poetry to me. breathing poetry . Living. rhyming All the time.
Shine from underneath? Is it dim. The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow. . barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath.BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH Just how bright Is your light.
It invites me in. It offers me a place to stay. Then sings to me In special notes. And offers me its words to eat. It comforts me. Says stay awhile. It sets me free. I open up. And says Please come back any day.POETRY LIVES HERE A door has opened up for me. . Encourages me With its warm smile. It embraces me. Says take a seat. It says to me. I am your friend. Inside that room lives poetry. Then takes my coat.
or shock you. Curve of my waist. The comfort of my embrace. That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss. I can erase? If I frighten. Knowing that your fears.KNOWING MY WORTH Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice. offend. I am life. It’s because I am beauty. I am woman. The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back. And I know my worth. Shape of my thighs. . The pleasures I possess. The wisdom I possess. The knowledge I give.
We are the best of all beings. . you should abhor. Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man.OF ALL BEINGS Fellow women of today. Rewarded with so many qualities. Forgetting it. One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth.
Every road must come to an end. My destination is on my mind. Held some hands along the way. I smile and hold it inside. What a lovely ride. A sight I almost see. Did mostly as I pleased. Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me. Happiness and long-lost friends. . Thinking of how it will be.THE LONG ROAD HOME I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead. I can’t wait for mine.
. The signs are there For you to see. Sounds fully.” The willow weeps. As if to say. As if saying to me. Listen closely. Close your eyes. “Your time is here. It is today. Giving the breeze What it needs.” The tree breaths.THE SOUND OF SIGNS I hear the birds chirping. “The time has come For you to leave.
A CALL TO ARMS *STOP* Turn off your television set. I’ve grabbed my pen. What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man. It’s not too late. This is not a test. What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot. Or we all lose. .
My home is where I leave my heart. My home can be one place or a few. Beside the bed.HOME My home is where I lay my head And pray at night. . My home is where I chose to be. Where true love lives. My home may just be with you. Where happiness lives Indefinitely. Though we’re apart.
THE BETTER PRIZE The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade. The better prize. But what lies inside. We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone. So easy to believe a lie. We turn away. Although it seems quite odd. A trick used to confuse the mind. And in our haste. Should crown our lover’s throne. Open your foolish eyes. It passes instantly. And miss out on the better prize. Ignorant to what’s inside. This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet. .
. too. I’ve seen this day before. I remember to relax today. that’s the way life goes. And I know more will surely come. Spirit. add some play. Time to sit and rest my mind. I’m tired already. Unfortunately. Save some work. My body’s weary. But I know things will be fine. Try to balance both and remain whole.RELAXING MY MIND Been a long day.
and I stay safe. And pray trouble runs out of time. I’ve given up on happiness. It should be tired of me. It must lie somewhere else. Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free. Why won’t it set me free? .TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME Trouble road begins at my door. And I know nothing else. Surrounded by my friends. I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been. So I continue to Keep hope alive. Where all is calm. Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me.
I close my eyes. You’re driving too fast. No space for me. Look to the sky. Away I go To a better place. As I brace For the crash. You smile at me And hit the gas. There is no room. Even the belt Won’t keep me safe. Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape.THE GREATEST ESCAPE Slow down for me. . And then thank God I learned to fly. To ride with you. You’re speeding now. How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on. Without your brakes.
Worried about the fall. I wait until it’s dark. Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two.THE FALL Land mines. Can never take the leap. everything I’ve got. Premeditated steps I take with no regrets. . Covering your insides. So much to lose. Afraid to make a sound. Worried I’ll be found. afterall. The snipers waiting for that clear shot.
. Don’t be scared to let go. We wish for the best.MAKING MOVES Every now and then. Then we realize The move was just right. Don’t be afraid. And we’re finally on track. That moment is meant just for you To make your move. You’re right where you need to be. Make your move. Take a step and not look back. Hope our move won’t make a mess. We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go. Scared to make a move. Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know. Do what you say.
Although my mouth is closed. I’ve already won the race.WINNING THE RACE I’ve wasted too much time. Light miles ahead. And now half my life’s Just floated away. It’s time to take my rightful place. Life just passes by. Focused on today. And now the time is here For me to finally shine. My eyes are opened wide. The final bell has rung. I never saw the signs. It never waits. . Or what they tried to say.
And I need you there. I need you to show me Just how I should be. indeed. Because when I need someone to vent to. A true friend. But we’re just friends. You know I’m really into it. I’m glad I have you in my life. It’s so innocent.TRUE FRIENDS I call you. You always take my call. Even when I want to vent About nothing at all. The times we share. You listen when I talk. Taking it all in. You call me. .
KEEPING SECRETS Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing. Often times Those little things Should remain a secret. There are times When we may find Some things troubling. And what things we should keep. . We need to learn What to say.
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.
No more sitting still for me today. Ready for me to begin. Too much for me to hold inside. So little time.FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD Listen up! I got lots to say. So much to do. I’m coming in! . Hold the door.
I won’t be sad. When you come for me. In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again. When you come for me. I’m looking forward to the trip ahead. I will be ready.WHEN YOU COME FOR ME When you come for me. I’m tired today. When you come for me. . This life has gotten really bad. I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go. Waiting for you to take me to some other place.
Giving in to your every want and need. . Can’t get rid of me. but don’t know what to say. You open up. Loving the way That I confuse.A MERE SMUDGE I’m a smudge on your window pane. Guess I’m in too deep. Desire being my excuse. Just how a smudge succeeds.
Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape. Locked away indefinitely. “Celebrate with me. Drink my wine. But I’m the one that pays the toll. I try and try To live your life.” I take a sip. Not knowing poison’s inside. That I can’t survive on my own.A PRISONER’S LIFE I want to be free. You say. A prisoner’s life is what I lead. accept your smile. . You say it’ll never be.
I’ll guide you. And I finally see. A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go. Either way. All at once. Make your move. Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be. Close your eyes. it’ll be done. No one to help me with this one. .AT A CROSSROADS Here I am. Decision time tonight. I hear. It hit me hard. And That’s just what I’ll do.
So they don’t live here no more. Year after year. From this life I need more.DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY Sad songs are all I heard. . Awkward distance. I’ve got to drive those blues away. Happiness and joyful days. Too scared to move. Arguments. And I held on. They didn’t live here. Mainly out of fear. I can’t always be afraid. They silenced all the tears.
HOW How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning? .
shall pass. too.IT. But … It. It’s got places to go. And pain’s waiting At another’s door. It. Till only it survives. too. Consuming who it occupies. shall pass. That bell it rings. SHALL PASS Pain can’t last forever. . Making you believe you died. Because nothing ever lasts Of pain. TOO. Taking over everything.
And I fight with my head high. But the price I pay is worth being free. Try to turn it all around. Fight to keep it all in order. Every day is a fight for me.HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE I try to hold my head above water. Holding onto my pride. For the misery in store. I suit up for the war. Try not to let the weight get me down. .
. Point fingers. We don’t see What lies within.OUR DOWNFALL We are a sad society: So quick to judge. So afraid of being called out our name. Believing those wicked smiles. Although we are among friends. It’s become customary To point out all the flaws. Mistakes that others seem to make. Such a wicked game to play. All the while hiding ours. Our downfall in the end. Skirt the blame.
Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be. .BEING FREE I won’t let you change who I am. The only way truly to be free.
My world finally mine. Forgot who I was inside. . My eyes are open now. This thought had become commonplace.MY WORLD Sometime ago I lost myself. Concentrating on what I’m meant to do. What treasures lied within. Don’t know how long it’s been. Now it’s time for me to grow. Remembering who I was. It’s how I lived my life. Just the way a record does. Picked up where I had left off. I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine. Time for me to shine.
MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine. . See … I’m making it my goal. Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine. Although it tries to hide. I know. It’s there.
Thought there was no escape. But I’m on the mend. My mind said all was lost. As the pieces began to mend. So glad that I had faith.NEARLY BROKEN Thought it was the end of me. But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat. I begin again. . Hope not within my reach. My spirit nearly broken. Nearly broken.
She’s beautiful And full of life. the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while. She’s happy.MY FRIEND Oh. She knows how much I meant to her. A mother. Because she knows her worth. That friend I’ve found is me. and a wife. She loves me more than anything. . daughter.
The stories they tell Without saying a word. The other upside down. Saying everything With just a smirk. . One right-side up.THE SMILE AND THE FROWN Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown.
I’ll forever mourn. Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip. .REMAINING LONELY Loneliness. Instead. Loosen your lover’s grip. I’d rather have my love with me. I remain lonely. have mercy on me. Memories barely keep me warm. The love I lost.
Close your eyes. Visualize it’s there In front of you. Take a sigh. Imagine your worst fear.FEAR INSIDE I challenge you To sit in silence. What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside? .
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.
Until you walk through my door. But to you. feelings are no big deal. Waiting once more. . I should say How I feel. I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time.WAITING All I do Is wait around for you. So here I sit. My time no longer mine.
. Because this I’m thankful for. you know.SINGING TODAY FOR YOU Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time. So I sing today for you.
. Yet your mouth moves constantly. Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out.NOT LISTENING Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago. I’m not listening anyway. Though I don’t listen any more. I don’t care what you have to say.
You know me Better Than I ever could know. You watch and study me. And what I’m meant to be. Looking through The window to my soul. Loving everything I am. Taking in all you see.WINDOW TO MY SOUL I see you Through the window to my soul. .
Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud? You’re pretty for a black girl. You’re pretty for a black girl. Am I supposed to smile. . Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more.PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL You’re pretty for a black girl. What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me? You’re pretty for a black girl. Thank you for letting me know. Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth.
Beauty lying inside and out. Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen. you are beautiful. . Thought I should tell you so. Thought I should let you know. you know.FOR MY SISTERS My sister.
To feel how it should be. To share all we’ve got. Even if we’ve forgotten. .THE TIME IS NOW The only time we have is now. Seeing all we’re meant to see. This place we’ve gotten to somehow. To show each other why we’re here. The time we have is now.
BIO Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school. and songs. Her first publication was a short story entitled.” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten. She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons. Glonka. . short stories. “The Amazing Mr. She writes poetry.
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