Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved. ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition
The world is yours.For my boys. Make your mark. Brandon. and Jaden. I love you. Devante. Mom
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Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone
The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You
LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me
I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song
Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How
It. Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now
Clean the floors. Be your lover and more. You are my light Through the dark. What lovers do. I live for you At your command. I do it all. As you breathe. I leave my mark. Wash your clothes. For you. By loving you. Handle with care. My world expands.LOVING YOU
As you awake. All you have to do is ask. Giving you more than my last. Bake your bread. I make your food. I smile for you.
All thanks to you. Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth.THANKS TO YOU
Cold. My evil eyes are full of spite. heartless.
. Rotten to the very core. Bitter through and through. Only anger in this place. All thanks to you. The monster made. Blacker than the darkest night.
I know you like what you see. Now face-to-face. I quench your thirst. I see your eyes start at my feet. And you haven’t said a word. Felling the heat between you and me. I kiss your lips. Don’t have to say a word. My hips move to your beat. I see the way you look at me. And still not a word. My chest. I feel your hands all over me. Caress my cheek from where you stand. Your gaze has only reached my thighs. You didn’t have to say a word. Licking your lips. you lift your hand. woman and man. it heaves to my surprise.
. Bare for all to see. And you never saw me. You’ve taken all I have to give. I shed my skin. just wasted time. I gave my all for you to live. But you don’t see me. It’s over now. Requesting more so you can live. Emptied my soul. The rest gone down the drain.WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME
Here I stand out in front. My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. The foolishness I left behind. My end is here. And now my shell is all I have. The years I lost. Still shaded by your tree.
living long it must. You are my summer. A constant cold stuns my heart. A love so grand. built-in trust. it’s just you and me.
. Our love is blossoming for all to see. Please stay a while. All is still. The heat I crave to feel at night. You are my fall. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh. You are my winter. You are my spring. No you and I. A smile that warms the coldest night. We bring forth our new ecstasy. We have grown together. We from the start.SEASONS OF LOVE
A light is shining bright. In the end it was always us. Existing even after the end.
. Don’t want happiness here again. I need to feel the pain inside of me. Don’t want you to dry my eyes. I killed your love for me. please. Not bottle it up inside of me. So. I want to cry. just let me be. oh please.BROKEN
Please. I need the anger. I’ve got to let the burn roam free. You must understand my need to be here. Just let me be. The damage done won’t disappear. my worst fear. Just let this pain pierce my skin.
Sitting by your side.MY LAST DAY
I would wake up a little late. Wash your feet Late that night. gazing upon your face. I’d say. That I’d never leave. Feed you by hand. Silently gazing In your eyes.
. I would promise you. Open my eyes. Make love to you without saying a word. I would call in sick. Hold your hand. It would always be this way. Me in your heart. My love always. I would make a meal For you and me. No worry about what could be heard. You on my mind. Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. Enjoy the day. Forever stay. Our fingers intertwined.
.That’s how I would spend My last day.
if you yell. Till this life ends. I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you. The very last one to show up. And I will always show up. I’ll show up. just know I won’t be walking out the door.
. You curse and scream. I’ll show up. So when you’re mad as hell.I WILL SHOW UP
If I yell. Through thick and thin when times are hard. I will show up. I’ll show up. You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. it will be us. Face so mean. You see I gave my word in front of God. You spit my name With twisted face.
Not here to be your girl tonight.WHAT I NEED
No. we don’t have to talk or say a word. Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do. No. Yeah. It’s not my place to be her for you. And give me what I need. Lie down with me in this moment. it’s what you heard. Just here for me to feel alright. So close your lips and take my hand.
. Cover me with ecstasy. You can find someone else to fill those shoes. I don’t want to be your girl. Just take me on into the room. I’m telling you. And give me what I need. Don’t want to chill or hang with you.
I color the winter’s night.
. Brightness everlasting.LOVE ALL OVER ME
Smiling all twenty four. My glow shines through the darkness. I will remain. Brighter than the night’s sky. Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me. After the end. And I will forge ahead. I am love. I am the Milky Way. Cannot be dimmed.
Fine As the darkest wine. Intoxicating.
. I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized.
A dozen women for a dime. I’ll hold it down and set you free.
. I fear. I know my needs fall on deaf ears. Love shouldn’t have to be this rough.SETTING YOU FREE
Here I wait Today for you. Why do I compete With the streets. God. A part-time love is not enough. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol. Can’t compete with street life. Not just the night-time one you sell. Just like the day before. as well. Don’t sell away your half from me.
time for hell again. At 11:30.HELL AND BACK
I go through hell to be with you. Although the truth lies elsewhere. and I love you more than anything. Say forgive me this time. But it’s 1. At 10:30. You say you’re sorry all the time. Pray to God that I don’t cry. hell begins. Nice at 8. Swinging and swaying to your moods. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry. nasty at 10. I’m coming back. And try to make it back from hell again. Maybe this time is the last time. I hold on tight for the ride.
. Time to put me back on track.
Even met some dogs. Kissed so many frogs. I pray that you’re still looking. And also trying to find me. Not giving up. If the perfect one waits somewhere for you. too? I’ve been waiting oh so long. Out there trying to see. still searching.
Where are you? Are you searching for me. I wonder if you’re like me. But my conviction still remains strong.
Pretends to stay. It smiles at you and then frowns. and Evaporates to your dismay.LOVE’S SURPRISE
Sometimes love throws you a curve. Can pick you up and be complete. It flows outside the lines. So hold on tight. Enjoy the ride. And surprises you with no regrets.
. And just await your love’s surprise. then drops you down. Sometimes love takes broader shape. It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything. It takes you up. But love can also be so sweet. Refuses to be confined. Love pulls you in. It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect.
by my side.
. And I rule the roost. You show me how Real love should be with you. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time. It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined.WE LIFT EACH OTHER
You lift me up For the world to see. So glad to have you In my life. Give me the world. The queen I’m meant to be. Standing tall. Just what I’m meant to do. I tell you you’re The best at what you do. I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. Tell me it’s all mine. Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do.
Say some words. And then not care Who you hurt.THE WARNING
It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you. Because your plan is number one. You pile it on Because I can take it. You had a plan all the while. All others be damned. Curse my name. Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile. But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy. Pretend to care. You’re having fun. And try to break me.
“My darling. “Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared. The happiness I felt inside.MISSING YOU
“What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say. I’d say to you. About you.”
. The joy and laughter every night. I’d miss everything. The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared.
You’re with me On my way. Whether at work or at play. You line the pleats of my skirt. So distinct. And you wear it well. your scent.
.YOU WEAR IT WELL
I wear you on my sleeve. That fragrence I know so well. Separating you from the rest. An aroma only you possess. That essence that I smell. Whether night or day. You follow me Through the day. I inhale you on my shirt. Not Ivory or Irish Spring. you know. It’s not cologne or soap. Take you when I leave.
Can’t make it on our own.NOT ALONE
The games we play. We hurt. Alone is not what we do. And then we pray. The shit we say. Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through.
. We laugh. Realizing It won’t work apart. Like children Not yet grown.
I brought a new place for you. And I know I make up the best of you.
. A freshness for our start. This much I truly know. A prize for all to see. You don’t need to say it. I’m proud to see what you’ve become. Because you are the best of me.THE BEST OF ME
I make up the best of you. Your life tells me so. The light replaced the dark. With me. Order lives where chaos dwelled.
It’s like a broken fence: When mended. But that kink.
. The chain contains a kink. Although repaired. Hoping things are as good as new. Thinking that you’re done. You try to move along. you still see that link. Looking okay. Will forever change the way I now look at you. you see.
Skin of chocolate. For the chocolate and the caramel. You don’t even see. I fear you love yourself More than you love me. With eyes of auburn.SHADES OF ME
How can you not love me. Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love.
. A world where only you escape: A world of beaches.LOVE’S ESCAPE
I know where your happiness lies. A world that rivals Disneyland. It’s embedded between my thighs. And I wait With your love’s escape. I take you to another place. I’m ready now. Powder-white sand.
Though simple it may be. A place Finally to be me. Not so simple to me. Is not simple In my eyes. To live in hell Or go be free.THE CHOICE
The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. A simple choice It may seem.
So it may seem.
Don’t forget yesterday.
I truly thought you understood. Yesterday. Although you’re okay today. That voice appears and says. Face twisted mean. Did you forget yesterday?
The screaming and the yelling.DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY
Every time it’s going good.
Did you forget yesterday?
A friend today. an enemy. No matter what a friend may say.
to be with you? I can’t say no. Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me. Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess. You can’t say yes. Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I.
.WHAT WE DESERVE
Do you deserve All that I do. Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve.
It may just be Around the corner. But.
. Another smiling face. We tried to make it work. I fear. Truth is you’re not the one for me. But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you. dry your eyes. Your true love awaits.THE TRUTH
I’m sad today. And I’m not the one for you. You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. No time to cry. I know it’s not what you want to hear. Life alone brings doubts and fears. Fully awake. Because I see the truth. So. it’s not meant to be.
And I can only dream. And sit by my side. In a perfect world.
. In a perfect world. We’d never fight. There would be no other for you. Your love to give For me always.A PERFECT WORLD
In a perfect world. You’d agree with me. Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem. I’d always be right. I’d be all you see. In a perfect world. It’d be you and I. today it’s not that way. You’d hold me tight. Sadly. You’d only have eyes for me. You’d forever stay.
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.
FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.
It is so easy for me to smile. The perfect moment to strike.
. You should have never estimated The power of my mind. For the right time. We lie in wait. Believed that when you closed the door. Women are cunning creatures you know.LYING IN WAIT
I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies. We plot our moves From the go. Pretend I’m okay inside. It was fine to say goodbye.
Thought the day would never come. That’s too damn bad. Because it’s all I know. But I fear your mind’s made up.MOVING ON
I wait for you in the lot. You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had.
. It hurts to be in this spot. Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day. Hoping it’s not too late. When you would let me go. Where I said I’d be. I can’t forget what we had. Now I sit and wait for you. Because you set me free.
You look into my eyes. Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte. But I don’t think It will ever be.NOT YOUR FORTE
I tell you I need more. Give me no reply. And sleep. I ask you all the time To treat me like I need.
. It’s not enough for me.
For the real you can never love me. Alone with the truth after the fall. What I see Is not really you. And now I sit.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED
One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show. Although I know the truth.
. How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all. But … I wanted you.
Think it’s all a big game. you think you know it all. Yeah. hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. So you can finally see. You say you don’t care. Go ahead. The way I kissed you late at night.A LOVE LIKE MINE
You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone.
. And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same. And please. You’re gonna miss me so damn bad. That there are many more like me. I really hope you find her soon. Miss what we had. But time will tell. Make your move.
If that’s what I let it do. Your love will kill My spirit. too. Your love will make Me lose my mind. If I let it inside. Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me.TERMINAL LOVE
Your love will be The end of me.
. If I let it be.
To live this life with you. It’s great to be by your side. Showing me the man That you’re proud to be. You tell me that I’m beautiful. And that I deserve the best. Holding my hand.
. I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do. You’re blind to all that temptation outside. Ignoring all the rest. They don’t have to cost a thing.THE LITTLE THINGS
It’s the little things I appreciate.
Don’t want to hear my words.LOVING ME
My anger grows. And it’s my fault. My spirit grows. I let you do what you want to. I finally love me more that you do. And it’s your fault. Because you need to be first. Because all you thought about was you. You don’t encourage me.
. My anger knows It’s my fault. You discourage me. I’m the one who made you into you. My spirit knows It’s your fault.
I will wait for love. Although it’s not yet mine. I’d sit in the stands and cheer. I will wait for love.A FAN OF LOVE
I am a fan of love. Because someday love will set me free. Because I see it all the time. I lay out the welcome mat for love. Because it waits somewhere for me. But it won’t knock at my door. Although it doesn’t live here. I still believe in love. I’m a fan of love.
. I lay out the welcome mat for love. I still believe in love. Though it doesn’t live here no more.
A DIFFERENT CLOTH
Cut from a different cloth. Your world is nothing like The one I’m from. Yet you came. If only in our eyes. Maybe that cloth Really is the same. and you try To become you and I. I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come.
. A visitor from another place. You try to live in my realty. Tell me why you’re in my space. When I don’t even know your name. You and I are not the same. But you won’t show your face. But we’re not meant to be.
So glad to have this new breakthrough.PROMISES
Promises you fail to keep Are all I have. To do what I have to do. I don’t know why I ask for truth. Though the shitty lies you grab.
. Honesty is within your reach. It’s nowhere inside of you.
NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE
You can’t see me Past your superiority. I try and try to be What you want from me. But I’m tired of playing Your sick. twisted game. It’s your way or the door. I’m like a moth to your flame.
. I’m sick to hell of being under your spell. There’s no you and me in us for you. Not taking your shit any more.
Because we both want to win the race. We’ll never be face-to-face. First place is a space we both want.WINNING THE RACE
I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight. now by my side. Trying to keep up. Can’t let me be in front. You sprint along. Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath. Because you have to be first.
. Two peas of a different pod.
I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections. Co-existence is the only power You hold over me. I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely.POWER
Looking through rose-colored glasses.
. Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts. but the one I should let go.SING FOR YOU
Why don’t I sing for you? A good question. Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for. Why don’t I feel comfortable. indeed.
What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh.
. Love. And set me free. Let loose your hold of me. I laugh along in my defense. Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love. Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh. how you love to tell your lovely lies. The jokes are all at my expense. Just break your chains.LOVE
When unity was a goal. With nothing else.
. Surviving by itself.REMEMBERING LOVE
Remember when Love was enough. Even when times were tough? It got you through. A time I surely miss. A time of unrivaled bliss. Family meant we were whole.
So much to say. you grin. Turning into weeks. days. minutes. I look elsewhere instead. You try to read my face. We drift together. Because we never speak. And here we are In elder years. And we’ve both paid the cost.
Here we go again. So much to say. hours. I hold my breath. Just like the day before. Still alone. Yet nothing was said. You stare at the floor. The seconds. I smile. But nothing’s said. Our whole lives lost.
My wife.MY WIFE
You bought me flowers today: Roses. pink and red. How I cherish you. I try my best. Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said:
I can’t live my life without Having you by my side. I think of you before I rest. With you is where my heart lies. You are the reason why I work so hard.
. Although I seldom tell you so.
How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her. I disappear with every word you say.KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS
I lose a piece of me every day. But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside.
. Or use my fists. And you think they’re just words. Curse her name. Call her a bitch.
THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME
Oh. He wouldn’t see anyone else. Live together happily. He’d cherish the ground I walked on. He’d love every part of me. I wouldn’t want for anything.
. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often. That man I made for me. And even love my kids. Put me before himself. No one else would matter. It wouldn’t matter if they were his. A perfect world For him and me. He’d cherish them because they were mine. He’d always take care of me.
so I may rise. that’s the way it will be. as I carry on. I put your first. I put you first. this is why I will believe With Your Word.I PUT YOU FIRST
You’ve been there Since day one. You guide. I put you first. And I’ll always put you first. You let me fall. In you. Lord. And so. I have a faithful friend.
. Guiding me along the way. I lead My life in Your hands. Whether I am right or wrong. And so. You’re by my side. Bring me light after the dark. Get me through to a new start. Let me laugh after I’ve cried. Supporting me until the end. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day. And so.
Says what I think before I do.FAITH
He came today and shook my soul.
. And I thought I knew it all. He knows my mind. Mouths the words before I talk. the path I walk. He has my unwavering faith. With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day. He knows the goings on inside of me. My whole world. he’s taken hold. He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break. He is the Lord above. I think he’s psychic see. I don’t know nothing anymore. predicts my moves. He’s got my map.
Sets me free. Won’t stay inside. you know.LIES AND TRUTH
The truth is the light. A cover will not work. Rains down on me.
. It shines so bright. You can’t contain What will remain. If asked. It’s impossible to hide a lie. I would have told you so. A lie won’t hide. No matter how hard you try.
Screaming to me in my own song. powering my soul.REALIZATION
The beauty of it all. Flipping a script You no longer own. I got it now. The chains are gone. Can’t keep me down no more. Realizing who I am. I can’t lie low. The square peg now fits the hole. For the entire world to see.
. ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be. Took years to find. Who I am inside. Yes. Has built a wall that can’t be broken. So that confidence. Now I’m free. but now I see The truth I bought now sold. Was in a fog.
I’ll be with you forever now.ENDING THE PAIN
This world of pain.
. Stealing my light. And I cannot escape. too. Like the way That evil does. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today. It’s all around. A better place awaits me. breathlessly. finally. So I say my last goodbye. I try to fight. Staining the air. Everywhere. through the fog I can’t see. Killing my mind And spirit. So much to bear. Now is the end for me. But. All consuming. The pain will end.
But radio’s no better. Everyone’s fighting or arguing. Start my task with one woman. Or found dead. Someone’s missing. Can’t let this dark swallow my light.
. Live by his word and let him see.CHANGING ME
I couldn’t watch the news today. Enough to drive the sane insane. I’ll start my fight by changing me. So I block it and stay inside. Guess I’ll listen to radio instead. I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. For fear of what it might say. same old thing. It calls to me and screams my name. I vow to do the best I can.
But blood is not enough. I couldn’t cry. I’m the one it killed. Now my pain has gone away. The one underneath’s too tough. I pierce the layer that I see. The pain inside just wouldn’t die. Now I’m gone. I took the pain away with me. The pain still wouldn’t go away.BREAKING FREE
I try to cut the pain away. Cutting deeper still. Although it hurt. Finally free. After all the blood had dried. I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay.
. I had to go because it stayed.
For the other half of you.MY SON SHINES
Long ago I dreamt of you. I held you tight and kissed your cheek. Only the mixture that I needed. By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away. Here I stand forever. Before you were inside. But through it all. I stood tall. The love I thought I had to have. I feared it was not true.
. A battle I couldn’t lose. You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues. Although you were not yet mine.
Do you really know who I am. Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know. me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me.
. Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me.
DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT
I feel the music From deep within. Dance with me tonight.
. Your song instead. Dance with me tonight. It moves my feet. It moves my hips. The rhythm stirs Inside my head. Dance with me tonight. Please play for me. My arms they sway That away. Made for sin. I feel the beat.
We older folks can tolerate. It’s sad to know your time is done. We didn’t have you long. Though your beauty will last always. And let them know An early end’s no way to go. Help them push the pain aside. To make sure you were still here.
. They’ll wish we stopped you just in time.TOO SOON
Gone too soon. Your will was not as strong. What younger ones can’t fare. So here is where they’ll stay. Sometimes too much to bare. But many will always care. Pain can be an awful thing. So hold them tight.
You lay still. Too many eyes Cover me.THE BROWN WIDOW
You wait for me In the dark. I hold my breath.
. You strike so fast. You’re poisonous. I knew you were there After all. But you’re too quick. Hoping you snoozed. Hoping you’re asleep. Why did I go? I should have paused. Await my move. I approach. I wait till day To go your way.
It will be just right. DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight.
.THE TIME IS NOW
Slow down. Take your time. Live your best life now.
Years later we get another glimpse. Dormant. It differs from the rest. it lies inside.
. We get a glimpse. Where it shines the best.INNER SUPERSTAR
We possess it early on. And then peaked out often. But often forget where it lies. Our inner superstar Was always there inside. Specific to each owner. Remembering where it first shined. Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. Residing where it’s meant to be. After we have forgotten. take a peak.
But we get in the way. Listen for what life has in store. Its view widens so we may see. Life’s not all a mystery. Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. But then we find courage inside And turn it all around. Without listening to what it has to say.
. Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down. It shows its face in elder years. While hiding in our youth. Be patient. We make a turn on our own.LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL
Life tries to take the wheel.
I took for granted you’d be here. This I didn’t know.
. And you’re gone. I’m so sorry I was wrong. until tomorrow. Now tomorrow’s here. At least.TOO LATE
You were mine On borrowed time. Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so.
spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do.
Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise.
A blue for when I’m feeling low. A darker color when we fight. When ready. I shine brightly for all to see. I’m an aubergine.
. I change from day-to-day. A softer shade.COLORS OF ME
There are many Shades of me. Neon bright. Black or white. Like many colors of the rainbow. When wide awake. They cover you And color me. a light yellow. Growing daily like the evergreen. I can be any hue I want to be. A range of shades for everything. Relaxed for when I sleep. you know.
. The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow. And it makes up The best of me. Living. The sadness that you may see.A POET’S SONG
I live in verse. I don’t know how Or even why. It sings to me from deep inside. rhyming All the time. Thinking. Is all poetry to me. I think in rhyme.
barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath.BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH
Just how bright Is your light.
. The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow. Shine from underneath? Is it dim.
I open up. Encourages me With its warm smile. Then takes my coat.
I am your friend. It embraces me.POETRY LIVES HERE
A door has opened up for me. Says take a seat. Inside that room lives poetry. It invites me in. And says Please come back any day. Then sings to me In special notes. And offers me its words to eat.
It says to me. It comforts me. It offers me a place to stay.
. It sets me free. Says stay awhile.
I am life. The wisdom I possess. I am woman. That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss. offend. Curve of my waist.
. I can erase? If I frighten. It’s because I am beauty. The knowledge I give.KNOWING MY WORTH
Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice. The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back. Shape of my thighs. The pleasures I possess. or shock you. Knowing that your fears. The comfort of my embrace. And I know my worth.
. We are the best of all beings. you should abhor. One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth.OF ALL BEINGS
Fellow women of today. Rewarded with so many qualities. Forgetting it. Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man.
Did mostly as I pleased.THE LONG ROAD HOME
I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead. Held some hands along the way. I smile and hold it inside.
. I can’t wait for mine. A sight I almost see. Happiness and long-lost friends. What a lovely ride. Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me. My destination is on my mind. Thinking of how it will be. Every road must come to an end.
THE SOUND OF SIGNS
I hear the birds chirping. Giving the breeze What it needs. The signs are there For you to see. “The time has come For you to leave.” The tree breaths. As if saying to me. As if to say. Sounds fully. Close your eyes.” The willow weeps. Listen closely. “Your time is here. It is today.
This is not a test. What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man.
. It’s not too late. Or we all lose.A CALL TO ARMS
*STOP* Turn off your television set. What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot. I’ve grabbed my pen.
Where happiness lives Indefinitely.HOME
My home is where I lay my head And pray at night. Though we’re apart. My home is where I chose to be. My home is where I leave my heart.
. Beside the bed. My home can be one place or a few. My home may just be with you. Where true love lives.
We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone. Although it seems quite odd. Open your foolish eyes.
. A trick used to confuse the mind. Ignorant to what’s inside. It passes instantly. And miss out on the better prize.THE BETTER PRIZE
The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade. We turn away. So easy to believe a lie. The better prize. And in our haste. Should crown our lover’s throne. This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet. But what lies inside.
Spirit. Try to balance both and remain whole. Save some work. add some play. And I know more will surely come. too. I’ve seen this day before. Unfortunately. that’s the way life goes.
. I’m tired already.RELAXING MY MIND
Been a long day. I remember to relax today. My body’s weary. But I know things will be fine. Time to sit and rest my mind.
Surrounded by my friends. I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been.TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME
Trouble road begins at my door. Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me. I’ve given up on happiness. And pray trouble runs out of time. Why won’t it set me free?
. It must lie somewhere else. And I know nothing else. It should be tired of me. Where all is calm. Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free. and I stay safe. So I continue to Keep hope alive.
Even the belt Won’t keep me safe. And then thank God I learned to fly. You’re speeding now.
. How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on. Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape. Without your brakes. There is no room.THE GREATEST ESCAPE
Slow down for me. I close my eyes. You’re driving too fast. No space for me. Look to the sky. You smile at me And hit the gas. As I brace For the crash. To ride with you. Away I go To a better place.
everything I’ve got. Afraid to make a sound. Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two. Covering your insides. afterall. So much to lose.THE FALL
Land mines. Can never take the leap. The snipers waiting for that clear shot. Worried about the fall. I wait until it’s dark. Premeditated steps I take with no regrets.
. Worried I’ll be found.
That moment is meant just for you To make your move. Hope our move won’t make a mess. You’re right where you need to be. We wish for the best.
. Then we realize The move was just right. Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know.MAKING MOVES
Every now and then. Don’t be scared to let go. Don’t be afraid. Do what you say. We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go. Scared to make a move. And we’re finally on track. Make your move. Take a step and not look back.
WINNING THE RACE
I’ve wasted too much time. It’s time to take my rightful place. It never waits. Light miles ahead.
. Life just passes by. Although my mouth is closed. Or what they tried to say. Focused on today. I’ve already won the race. I never saw the signs. My eyes are opened wide. The final bell has rung. And now the time is here For me to finally shine. And now half my life’s Just floated away.
You call me. The times we share. And I need you there.
I call you. You always take my call. Taking it all in. Because when I need someone to vent to. indeed. It’s so innocent. I’m glad I have you in my life. You listen when I talk. But we’re just friends. Even when I want to vent About nothing at all. You know I’m really into it. A true friend. I need you to show me Just how I should be.
We need to learn What to say. Often times Those little things Should remain a secret.KEEPING SECRETS
Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing. There are times When we may find Some things troubling. And what things we should keep.
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.
So little time. Ready for me to begin. No more sitting still for me today.FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD
Listen up! I got lots to say. Too much for me to hold inside. I’m coming in!
. So much to do. Hold the door.
WHEN YOU COME FOR ME
When you come for me. Waiting for you to take me to some other place. When you come for me. I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go. When you come for me. This life has gotten really bad. In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again. I’m tired today. I will be ready. I’m looking forward to the trip ahead. I won’t be sad. When you come for me.
You open up. Giving in to your every want and need.
. Desire being my excuse. Guess I’m in too deep. but don’t know what to say. Loving the way That I confuse. Can’t get rid of me.A MERE SMUDGE
I’m a smudge on your window pane. Just how a smudge succeeds.
A prisoner’s life is what I lead. You say. accept your smile. Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape. Locked away indefinitely. You say it’ll never be. But I’m the one that pays the toll. I try and try To live your life.
. Not knowing poison’s inside. That I can’t survive on my own. Drink my wine.” I take a sip. “Celebrate with me.A PRISONER’S LIFE
I want to be free.
I hear. Make your move. A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go. Close your eyes.AT A CROSSROADS
Here I am. And I finally see. Decision time tonight. Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be.
. it’ll be done. And That’s just what I’ll do. It hit me hard. All at once. No one to help me with this one. I’ll guide you. Either way.
So they don’t live here no more. I’ve got to drive those blues away. Arguments. Happiness and joyful days. They didn’t live here. I can’t always be afraid. From this life I need more. And I held on.
. Year after year. They silenced all the tears.DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY
Sad songs are all I heard. Too scared to move. Mainly out of fear. Awkward distance.
How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning?
. Because nothing ever lasts Of pain. It. TOO. And pain’s waiting At another’s door. Making you believe you died. too. It’s got places to go. too. SHALL PASS
Pain can’t last forever. Till only it survives. Taking over everything. But … It. shall pass. Consuming who it occupies. That bell it rings. shall pass.
And I fight with my head high. Every day is a fight for me. Try not to let the weight get me down. I suit up for the war. But the price I pay is worth being free. Try to turn it all around. Fight to keep it all in order.
.HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE
I try to hold my head above water. For the misery in store. Holding onto my pride.
. Point fingers.OUR DOWNFALL
We are a sad society: So quick to judge. Believing those wicked smiles. We don’t see What lies within. Skirt the blame. Our downfall in the end. Such a wicked game to play. So afraid of being called out our name. Although we are among friends. It’s become customary To point out all the flaws. All the while hiding ours. Mistakes that others seem to make.
I won’t let you change who I am.
. Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be. The only way truly to be free.
Don’t know how long it’s been. Remembering who I was. What treasures lied within. This thought had become commonplace. Concentrating on what I’m meant to do. It’s how I lived my life. Now it’s time for me to grow. My world finally mine.MY WORLD
Sometime ago I lost myself. My eyes are open now. Forgot who I was inside. Just the way a record does. Picked up where I had left off. Time for me to shine.
. I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine.
I know. Although it tries to hide.MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE
Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine. See … I’m making it my goal. It’s there. Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine.
Hope not within my reach. Thought there was no escape. My mind said all was lost. But I’m on the mend. Nearly broken. As the pieces began to mend.
. But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat. My spirit nearly broken.NEARLY BROKEN
Thought it was the end of me. I begin again. So glad that I had faith.
She loves me more than anything. She’s beautiful And full of life. A mother. Because she knows her worth. She’s happy. and a wife.
. the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while. daughter. That friend I’ve found is me.MY FRIEND
Oh. She knows how much I meant to her.
THE SMILE AND THE FROWN
Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown.
. The stories they tell Without saying a word. The other upside down. Saying everything With just a smirk. One right-side up.
The love I lost.
. I remain lonely. I’d rather have my love with me.REMAINING LONELY
Loneliness. Memories barely keep me warm. Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip. I’ll forever mourn. have mercy on me. Instead. Loosen your lover’s grip.
Visualize it’s there In front of you. Take a sigh. Close your eyes.FEAR INSIDE
I challenge you To sit in silence. Imagine your worst fear. What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside?
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.
Waiting once more. I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time. My time no longer mine. So here I sit.
. feelings are no big deal. I should say How I feel. Until you walk through my door. But to you.WAITING
All I do Is wait around for you.
SINGING TODAY FOR YOU
Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time. Because this I’m thankful for.
. So I sing today for you. you know.
I don’t care what you have to say. Yet your mouth moves constantly. I’m not listening anyway.
. Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out. Though I don’t listen any more.NOT LISTENING
Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago.
You know me Better Than I ever could know.WINDOW TO MY SOUL
I see you Through the window to my soul. Loving everything I am.
. You watch and study me. And what I’m meant to be. Taking in all you see. Looking through The window to my soul.
What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me?
You’re pretty for a black girl.
Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth. Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more.
Thank you for letting me know.
You’re pretty for a black girl. Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud?
You’re pretty for a black girl.
.PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL
You’re pretty for a black girl.
Am I supposed to smile.
Thought I should tell you so. Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen. Beauty lying inside and out.
. Thought I should let you know. you know. you are beautiful.FOR MY SISTERS
To share all we’ve got.
. Seeing all we’re meant to see. Even if we’ve forgotten. The time we have is now. This place we’ve gotten to somehow. To show each other why we’re here. To feel how it should be.THE TIME IS NOW
The only time we have is now.
Her first publication was a short story entitled.
. She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons.BIO
Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school. “The Amazing Mr. and songs.” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten. She writes poetry. short stories. Glonka.