ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition .Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved.

Mom . Make your mark. Blake. Brandon. Devante. The world is yours. I love you.For my boys. and Jaden.

CONTENTS Title Page Copyright Page LOVE Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone .

The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You .

LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me LIFE I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song .

Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How .

It. too. Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now .

LOVE .

As you breathe. I live for you At your command. You are my light Through the dark. I smile for you. What lovers do. Giving you more than my last. By loving you. I leave my mark. Wash your clothes. I do it all. . Handle with care. Bake your bread. I make your food.LOVING YOU As you awake. Be your lover and more. For you. Clean the floors. All you have to do is ask. My world expands.

The monster made. Blacker than the darkest night. All thanks to you. My evil eyes are full of spite. Rotten to the very core. heartless. Only anger in this place.THANKS TO YOU Cold. Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth. . All thanks to you. Bitter through and through.

Don’t have to say a word. Now face-to-face. I see the way you look at me. I feel your hands all over me. And you haven’t said a word. And still not a word. I see your eyes start at my feet. woman and man. You didn’t have to say a word. it heaves to my surprise. Felling the heat between you and me. I kiss your lips. Caress my cheek from where you stand. My hips move to your beat. I quench your thirst.WITHOUT WORDS I know you like what you see. . Licking your lips. My chest. Your gaze has only reached my thighs. you lift your hand.

Emptied my soul. It’s over now. And you never saw me. Still shaded by your tree.WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME Here I stand out in front. I gave my all for you to live. My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. But you don’t see me. I shed my skin. You’ve taken all I have to give. . just wasted time. My end is here. Bare for all to see. And now my shell is all I have. Requesting more so you can live. The years I lost. The foolishness I left behind. The rest gone down the drain.

We have grown together. We from the start. built-in trust. You are my fall. We bring forth our new ecstasy. Existing even after the end. You are my summer. Our love is blossoming for all to see. Please stay a while. . A love so grand. In the end it was always us. it’s just you and me. The heat I crave to feel at night. All is still. You are my spring. No you and I. You are my winter. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh.SEASONS OF LOVE A light is shining bright. living long it must. A constant cold stuns my heart. A smile that warms the coldest night.

just let me be. Don’t want happiness here again. So. . I want to cry. oh please. Not bottle it up inside of me. Don’t want you to dry my eyes. I need the anger. I killed your love for me. Just let this pain pierce my skin. please.BROKEN Please. The damage done won’t disappear. Just let me be. I need to feel the pain inside of me. my worst fear. You must understand my need to be here. I’ve got to let the burn roam free.

I would call in sick. I would promise you. Silently gazing In your eyes. Our fingers intertwined. My love always. Feed you by hand. Hold your hand. gazing upon your face. Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. Open my eyes. You on my mind. It would always be this way. Forever stay. I’d say. I would make a meal For you and me. Wash your feet Late that night. Sitting by your side. Me in your heart. That I’d never leave. Enjoy the day. No worry about what could be heard. . Make love to you without saying a word.MY LAST DAY I would wake up a little late.

.That’s how I would spend My last day.

it will be us. if you yell. You spit my name With twisted face. You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. And I will always show up. I’ll show up. You see I gave my word in front of God. The very last one to show up. I’ll show up. Face so mean.I WILL SHOW UP If I yell. I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you. I’ll show up. just know I won’t be walking out the door. You curse and scream. . Till this life ends. So when you’re mad as hell. Through thick and thin when times are hard. I will show up.

. You can find someone else to fill those shoes. Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do. we don’t have to talk or say a word. So close your lips and take my hand. And give me what I need. And give me what I need. I don’t want to be your girl. I’m telling you. No. Not here to be your girl tonight. Just take me on into the room.WHAT I NEED No. Don’t want to chill or hang with you. Lie down with me in this moment. It’s not my place to be her for you. Just here for me to feel alright. Yeah. Cover me with ecstasy. it’s what you heard.

Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me. My glow shines through the darkness. I am the Milky Way. After the end. And I will forge ahead. Brighter than the night’s sky. I color the winter’s night. . Brightness everlasting.LOVE ALL OVER ME Smiling all twenty four. Cannot be dimmed. I am love. I will remain.

HYPNOTIZED Fine As the darkest wine. I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized. Intoxicating. .

I’ll hold it down and set you free. Don’t sell away your half from me. A dozen women for a dime. Just like the day before. God.SETTING YOU FREE Here I wait Today for you. . Can’t compete with street life. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol. I fear. Why do I compete With the streets. as well. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man. I know my needs fall on deaf ears. A part-time love is not enough. Not just the night-time one you sell. Love shouldn’t have to be this rough.

But it’s 1. Nice at 8.HELL AND BACK I go through hell to be with you. And try to make it back from hell again. Pray to God that I don’t cry. and I love you more than anything. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry. time for hell again. You say you’re sorry all the time. I’m coming back. Maybe this time is the last time. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry. At 11:30. Time to put me back on track. I hold on tight for the ride. . Say forgive me this time. At 10:30. hell begins. nasty at 10. Swinging and swaying to your moods. Although the truth lies elsewhere.

Kissed so many frogs. I pray that you’re still looking. too? I’ve been waiting oh so long. I wonder if you’re like me. still searching. Even met some dogs. too. . But my conviction still remains strong. Not giving up. And also trying to find me.SEARCHING Where are you? Are you searching for me. Out there trying to see. If the perfect one waits somewhere for you.

Pretends to stay. And surprises you with no regrets. Enjoy the ride. Can pick you up and be complete. Sometimes love takes broader shape.LOVE’S SURPRISE Sometimes love throws you a curve. . But love can also be so sweet. Refuses to be confined. then drops you down. and Evaporates to your dismay. It takes you up. So hold on tight. It smiles at you and then frowns. And just await your love’s surprise. It flows outside the lines. It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect. Love pulls you in. It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything.

You show me how Real love should be with you. Standing tall. The queen I’m meant to be. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time. And I rule the roost. Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do. . Give me the world. It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined. Just what I’m meant to do. I tell you you’re The best at what you do. So glad to have you In my life.WE LIFT EACH OTHER You lift me up For the world to see. by my side. I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. Tell me it’s all mine.

And then not care Who you hurt. You had a plan all the while. Pretend to care. But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy. . Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile.THE WARNING It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you. You pile it on Because I can take it. Curse my name. Because your plan is number one. All others be damned. You’re having fun. And try to break me. Say some words.

The happiness I felt inside. About you. The joy and laughter every night.” .MISSING YOU “What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say. “Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared. I’d say to you. “My darling. I’d miss everything. The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared.

And you wear it well. You follow me Through the day. . your scent. An aroma only you possess. That essence that I smell. Whether at work or at play. Whether night or day. It’s not cologne or soap. You’re with me On my way. Not Ivory or Irish Spring. you know. I inhale you on my shirt.YOU WEAR IT WELL I wear you on my sleeve. Take you when I leave. You line the pleats of my skirt. So distinct. That fragrence I know so well. Separating you from the rest.

Can’t make it on our own. Realizing It won’t work apart. The shit we say. Alone is not what we do.NOT ALONE The games we play. We laugh. We hurt. Like children Not yet grown. . And then we pray. Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through.

THE BEST OF ME I make up the best of you. I brought a new place for you. A freshness for our start. . And I know I make up the best of you. A prize for all to see. Because you are the best of me. Your life tells me so. With me. The light replaced the dark. This much I truly know. You don’t need to say it. Order lives where chaos dwelled. I’m proud to see what you’ve become.

Will forever change the way I now look at you. You try to move along. Hoping things are as good as new. . Thinking that you’re done. Although repaired.TRUST It’s like a broken fence: When mended. The chain contains a kink. But that kink. Looking okay. you still see that link. you see.

With eyes of auburn. I fear you love yourself More than you love me. Skin of chocolate.SHADES OF ME How can you not love me. . For the chocolate and the caramel. Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love. You don’t even see.

LOVE’S ESCAPE I know where your happiness lies. I take you to another place. It’s embedded between my thighs. And I wait With your love’s escape. I’m ready now. Powder-white sand. . A world where only you escape: A world of beaches. A world that rivals Disneyland.

To live in hell Or go be free. A simple choice It may seem. A place Finally to be me. Is not simple In my eyes.THE CHOICE The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. Not so simple to me. . Though simple it may be.

Although you’re okay today. No matter what a friend may say. Did you forget yesterday? The screaming and the yelling. Did you forget yesterday? A friend today. an enemy. .DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY Every time it’s going good. Yesterday. That voice appears and says. Don’t forget yesterday. Face twisted mean. I truly thought you understood. So it may seem.

Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I. . to be with you? I can’t say no. Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve. Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me. Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess.WHAT WE DESERVE Do you deserve All that I do. You can’t say yes.

But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you. Your true love awaits. Fully awake. Truth is you’re not the one for me. I fear. Life alone brings doubts and fears. You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. Because I see the truth. We tried to make it work. it’s not meant to be. But. Another smiling face. It may just be Around the corner. dry your eyes. And I’m not the one for you. I know it’s not what you want to hear. . No time to cry. So.THE TRUTH I’m sad today.

And sit by my side. You’d agree with me. . You’d hold me tight. You’d only have eyes for me. You’d forever stay. And I can only dream. Your love to give For me always. It’d be you and I. I’d always be right. There would be no other for you.A PERFECT WORLD In a perfect world. In a perfect world. We’d never fight. today it’s not that way. In a perfect world. Sadly. I’d be all you see. Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem. In a perfect world.

YOUR EVERYTHING
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.

FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.

WE BELONG
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.

LYING IN WAIT I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies. We lie in wait. It was fine to say goodbye. For the right time. The perfect moment to strike. We plot our moves From the go. It is so easy for me to smile. Pretend I’m okay inside. You should have never estimated The power of my mind. . Women are cunning creatures you know. Believed that when you closed the door.

I can’t forget what we had. Now I sit and wait for you. When you would let me go. . You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had. Thought the day would never come. Hoping it’s not too late. That’s too damn bad. Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day. Because you set me free.MOVING ON I wait for you in the lot. But I fear your mind’s made up. Because it’s all I know. It hurts to be in this spot. Where I said I’d be.

. It’s not enough for me. You look into my eyes. Give me no reply. But I don’t think It will ever be.NOT YOUR FORTE I tell you I need more. I ask you all the time To treat me like I need. And sleep. Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte.

. Although I know the truth. so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. But … I wanted you. For the real you can never love me. Alone with the truth after the fall. And now I sit. How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all. What I see Is not really you.

Make your move. That there are many more like me. But time will tell. You say you don’t care. You’re gonna miss me so damn bad. hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. The way I kissed you late at night. Go ahead. Yeah. And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same. Miss what we had. I really hope you find her soon. you think you know it all. Think it’s all a big game.A LOVE LIKE MINE You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone. So you can finally see. And please. .

If I let it inside. If that’s what I let it do. too. Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me. .TERMINAL LOVE Your love will be The end of me. Your love will kill My spirit. If I let it be. Your love will make Me lose my mind.

Showing me the man That you’re proud to be. And that I deserve the best. I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do. It’s great to be by your side. Ignoring all the rest. . You tell me that I’m beautiful. You’re blind to all that temptation outside. They don’t have to cost a thing. Holding my hand. To live this life with you.THE LITTLE THINGS It’s the little things I appreciate.

You discourage me. I’m the one who made you into you. Because you need to be first. Because all you thought about was you. My spirit grows.LOVING ME My anger grows. Don’t want to hear my words. And it’s my fault. I finally love me more that you do. I let you do what you want to. My spirit knows It’s your fault. You don’t encourage me. And it’s your fault. . My anger knows It’s my fault.

Although it’s not yet mine. Although it doesn’t live here. Because it waits somewhere for me. . I lay out the welcome mat for love. I will wait for love. I’d sit in the stands and cheer.A FAN OF LOVE I am a fan of love. I lay out the welcome mat for love. But it won’t knock at my door. Because someday love will set me free. I still believe in love. I still believe in love. Because I see it all the time. Though it doesn’t live here no more. I’m a fan of love. I will wait for love.

But you won’t show your face. A visitor from another place. . When I don’t even know your name. You try to live in my realty. You and I are not the same. But we’re not meant to be. and you try To become you and I.A DIFFERENT CLOTH Cut from a different cloth. Your world is nothing like The one I’m from. Maybe that cloth Really is the same. Yet you came. I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come. If only in our eyes. Tell me why you’re in my space.

So glad to have this new breakthrough. To do what I have to do. It’s nowhere inside of you.PROMISES Promises you fail to keep Are all I have. Though the shitty lies you grab. I don’t know why I ask for truth. Honesty is within your reach. .

NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE You can’t see me Past your superiority. . twisted game. But I’m tired of playing Your sick. I try and try to be What you want from me. Not taking your shit any more. There’s no you and me in us for you. It’s your way or the door. I’m like a moth to your flame. I’m sick to hell of being under your spell.

Two peas of a different pod. First place is a space we both want. Because we both want to win the race. Because you have to be first. now by my side.WINNING THE RACE I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight. Can’t let me be in front. . You sprint along. Trying to keep up. We’ll never be face-to-face. Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath.

I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections.POWER Looking through rose-colored glasses. Co-existence is the only power You hold over me. I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely. .

. but the one I should let go. Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts. Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for.SING FOR YOU Why don’t I sing for you? A good question. indeed. Why don’t I feel comfortable.

The jokes are all at my expense. Let loose your hold of me. I laugh along in my defense. Just break your chains. how you love to tell your lovely lies. Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh. What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh. Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love.LOVE Love. Love. And set me free. . Love.

. Even when times were tough? It got you through. A time of unrivaled bliss. Surviving by itself.REMEMBERING LOVE Remember when Love was enough. When unity was a goal. Family meant we were whole. A time I surely miss. With nothing else.

We drift together. Just like the day before. And we’ve both paid the cost. you grin. Because we never speak. Our whole lives lost. You stare at the floor. But nothing’s said.LOST LIVES Here we go again. The seconds. Yet nothing was said. I smile. Still alone. I look elsewhere instead. Turning into weeks. I hold my breath. days. hours. And here we are In elder years. You try to read my face. minutes. So much to say. . So much to say.

pink and red. Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said: I can’t live my life without Having you by my side. Although I seldom tell you so. My wife. I try my best. With you is where my heart lies. You are the reason why I work so hard. . How I cherish you. I think of you before I rest.MY WIFE You bought me flowers today: Roses.

And you think they’re just words.KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS I lose a piece of me every day. I disappear with every word you say. Call her a bitch. Curse her name. Or use my fists. How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her. But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside. .

And even love my kids. I wouldn’t want for anything. He’d cherish them because they were mine. He’d love every part of me. He’d always take care of me. A perfect world For him and me. Live together happily. Put me before himself. He’d cherish the ground I walked on. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often. . He wouldn’t see anyone else. No one else would matter. That man I made for me. It wouldn’t matter if they were his.THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME Oh.

LIFE .

And so. I lead My life in Your hands. Whether I am right or wrong. Supporting me until the end. this is why I will believe With Your Word. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day. I put you first. Guiding me along the way. And so. You’re by my side. In you. Lord. And I’ll always put you first. so I may rise. I put you first. as I carry on.I PUT YOU FIRST You’ve been there Since day one. Let me laugh after I’ve cried. Get me through to a new start. And so. . You let me fall. I put your first. I have a faithful friend. You guide. Bring me light after the dark. that’s the way it will be.

the path I walk. Says what I think before I do. He knows my mind.FAITH He came today and shook my soul. Mouths the words before I talk. predicts my moves. My whole world. he’s taken hold. He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break. He’s got my map. And I thought I knew it all. . With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day. I think he’s psychic see. He knows the goings on inside of me. I don’t know nothing anymore. He has my unwavering faith. He is the Lord above.

A cover will not work. It shines so bright. Sets me free. You can’t contain What will remain. Won’t stay inside.LIES AND TRUTH The truth is the light. A lie won’t hide. I would have told you so. Rains down on me. . It’s impossible to hide a lie. you know. No matter how hard you try. If asked.

powering my soul. Yes. Was in a fog. . The square peg now fits the hole. but now I see The truth I bought now sold.REALIZATION The beauty of it all. Can’t keep me down no more. For the entire world to see. ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be. I can’t lie low. I got it now. Who I am inside. So that confidence. Now I’m free. Screaming to me in my own song. Has built a wall that can’t be broken. The chains are gone. Took years to find. Realizing who I am. Flipping a script You no longer own.

Staining the air. The pain will end. A better place awaits me. I try to fight. breathlessly. And I cannot escape. So much to bear. Like the way That evil does. Stealing my light. Killing my mind And spirit.ENDING THE PAIN This world of pain. I’ll be with you forever now. finally. . too. But. All consuming. Now is the end for me. through the fog I can’t see. Everywhere. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today. It’s all around. So I say my last goodbye.

Can’t let this dark swallow my light. But radio’s no better. Live by his word and let him see. It calls to me and screams my name. Or found dead. Guess I’ll listen to radio instead. I vow to do the best I can. For fear of what it might say. . Enough to drive the sane insane. same old thing. So I block it and stay inside. I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. I’ll start my fight by changing me. Someone’s missing. Everyone’s fighting or arguing. Start my task with one woman.CHANGING ME I couldn’t watch the news today.

I couldn’t cry.BREAKING FREE I try to cut the pain away. Although it hurt. I’m the one it killed. The one underneath’s too tough. I pierce the layer that I see. . But blood is not enough. The pain still wouldn’t go away. I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay. Now I’m gone. The pain inside just wouldn’t die. Finally free. Now my pain has gone away. I had to go because it stayed. I took the pain away with me. After all the blood had dried. Cutting deeper still.

I stood tall. I held you tight and kissed your cheek.MY SON SHINES Long ago I dreamt of you. But through it all. The love I thought I had to have. . For the other half of you. A battle I couldn’t lose. You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues. Although you were not yet mine. Only the mixture that I needed. Before you were inside. Here I stand forever. By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away. I feared it was not true.

KNOWING ME Do you really know who I am. Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me. Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know. me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me. .

The rhythm stirs Inside my head. It moves my hips.DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT I feel the music From deep within. My arms they sway That away. Your song instead. . Made for sin. Dance with me tonight. It moves my feet. I feel the beat. Please play for me. Dance with me tonight. Dance with me tonight.

Your will was not as strong. Help them push the pain aside. . Sometimes too much to bare. So here is where they’ll stay. And let them know An early end’s no way to go. We older folks can tolerate. We didn’t have you long. To make sure you were still here. So hold them tight. Pain can be an awful thing. It’s sad to know your time is done. They’ll wish we stopped you just in time.TOO SOON Gone too soon. Though your beauty will last always. But many will always care. What younger ones can’t fare.

I hold my breath. I wait till day To go your way. I approach. Why did I go? I should have paused. Hoping you’re asleep. Hoping you snoozed. But you’re too quick. Too many eyes Cover me. You strike so fast. I knew you were there After all.THE BROWN WIDOW You wait for me In the dark. You lay still. You’re poisonous. Await my move. .

DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight.THE TIME IS NOW Slow down. It will be just right. . Take your time. Live your best life now.

Where it shines the best. it lies inside. take a peak. After we have forgotten. Specific to each owner. Years later we get another glimpse. Our inner superstar Was always there inside. It differs from the rest. And then peaked out often. We get a glimpse. Residing where it’s meant to be. Remembering where it first shined. Dormant. Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. But often forget where it lies.INNER SUPERSTAR We possess it early on. .

While hiding in our youth. It shows its face in elder years. .LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL Life tries to take the wheel. But then we find courage inside And turn it all around. Listen for what life has in store. But we get in the way. Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down. Without listening to what it has to say. Its view widens so we may see. Life’s not all a mystery. We make a turn on our own. Be patient.

Now tomorrow’s here. This I didn’t know. I took for granted you’d be here. I’m so sorry I was wrong. . until tomorrow. At least.TOO LATE You were mine On borrowed time. And you’re gone. Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so.

spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do.AHA MOMENT Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise. .

Growing daily like the evergreen. Relaxed for when I sleep. I can be any hue I want to be. Neon bright. A range of shades for everything. you know. I’m an aubergine. When wide awake. A darker color when we fight. A blue for when I’m feeling low. Like many colors of the rainbow.COLORS OF ME There are many Shades of me. a light yellow. Black or white. When ready. I change from day-to-day. . They cover you And color me. I shine brightly for all to see. A softer shade.

The sadness that you may see. I don’t know how Or even why. Is all poetry to me. rhyming All the time. It sings to me from deep inside.A POET’S SONG I live in verse. breathing poetry . The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow. I think in rhyme. And it makes up The best of me. Thinking. Living.

BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH Just how bright Is your light. . Shine from underneath? Is it dim. barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath. The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow.

Then takes my coat. And says Please come back any day. Inside that room lives poetry. Says take a seat. It sets me free. And offers me its words to eat. It invites me in. . I am your friend. It comforts me.POETRY LIVES HERE A door has opened up for me. It says to me. It embraces me. It offers me a place to stay. Says stay awhile. I open up. Encourages me With its warm smile. Then sings to me In special notes.

That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss. . Knowing that your fears. I can erase? If I frighten. I am life. The comfort of my embrace. The wisdom I possess. I am woman. It’s because I am beauty. Shape of my thighs. offend. or shock you. The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back. The knowledge I give.KNOWING MY WORTH Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice. Curve of my waist. The pleasures I possess. And I know my worth.

We are the best of all beings. Forgetting it.OF ALL BEINGS Fellow women of today. One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth. you should abhor. Rewarded with so many qualities. . Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man.

THE LONG ROAD HOME I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead. What a lovely ride. Every road must come to an end. Did mostly as I pleased. Held some hands along the way. My destination is on my mind. Happiness and long-lost friends. I smile and hold it inside. Thinking of how it will be. . A sight I almost see. Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me. I can’t wait for mine.

Giving the breeze What it needs. As if to say. “The time has come For you to leave. Close your eyes. It is today. . As if saying to me.THE SOUND OF SIGNS I hear the birds chirping.” The willow weeps. Listen closely. “Your time is here. The signs are there For you to see.” The tree breaths. Sounds fully.

What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot. . It’s not too late. I’ve grabbed my pen. What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man. Or we all lose.A CALL TO ARMS *STOP* Turn off your television set. This is not a test.

My home may just be with you.HOME My home is where I lay my head And pray at night. My home can be one place or a few. My home is where I chose to be. Beside the bed. Though we’re apart. Where true love lives. . My home is where I leave my heart. Where happiness lives Indefinitely.

THE BETTER PRIZE The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade. And miss out on the better prize. Should crown our lover’s throne. This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet. Ignorant to what’s inside. We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone. Although it seems quite odd. A trick used to confuse the mind. We turn away. So easy to believe a lie. The better prize. But what lies inside. And in our haste. . Open your foolish eyes. It passes instantly.

that’s the way life goes. I’m tired already. Unfortunately. Spirit. . I’ve seen this day before. But I know things will be fine. I remember to relax today. Try to balance both and remain whole. too. add some play. And I know more will surely come. My body’s weary. Save some work. Time to sit and rest my mind.RELAXING MY MIND Been a long day.

And pray trouble runs out of time. It must lie somewhere else. I’ve given up on happiness. Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me. I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been.TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME Trouble road begins at my door. So I continue to Keep hope alive. And I know nothing else. Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free. Why won’t it set me free? . Surrounded by my friends. and I stay safe. It should be tired of me. Where all is calm.

There is no room. Look to the sky. As I brace For the crash. And then thank God I learned to fly. You’re speeding now. I close my eyes. Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape. No space for me.THE GREATEST ESCAPE Slow down for me. How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on. Without your brakes. You’re driving too fast. You smile at me And hit the gas. Away I go To a better place. To ride with you. . Even the belt Won’t keep me safe.

Can never take the leap. Worried about the fall. Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two. everything I’ve got. Worried I’ll be found. Afraid to make a sound. The snipers waiting for that clear shot. Premeditated steps I take with no regrets. I wait until it’s dark. afterall. So much to lose. Covering your insides. .THE FALL Land mines.

We wish for the best. That moment is meant just for you To make your move. And we’re finally on track. Then we realize The move was just right. Don’t be scared to let go. You’re right where you need to be. Hope our move won’t make a mess. . Don’t be afraid. Scared to make a move. Take a step and not look back. Do what you say. Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know. We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go. Make your move.MAKING MOVES Every now and then.

Or what they tried to say. Focused on today. I’ve already won the race. I never saw the signs. It never waits.WINNING THE RACE I’ve wasted too much time. . The final bell has rung. And now half my life’s Just floated away. Life just passes by. Light miles ahead. My eyes are opened wide. It’s time to take my rightful place. And now the time is here For me to finally shine. Although my mouth is closed.

indeed. And I need you there. You know I’m really into it. You call me. Even when I want to vent About nothing at all.TRUE FRIENDS I call you. I’m glad I have you in my life. A true friend. But we’re just friends. Because when I need someone to vent to. The times we share. You listen when I talk. It’s so innocent. . You always take my call. I need you to show me Just how I should be. Taking it all in.

And what things we should keep. Often times Those little things Should remain a secret.KEEPING SECRETS Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing. . We need to learn What to say. There are times When we may find Some things troubling.

WITHOUT DOUBTS
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.

ANGER
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.

MY MOVES
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.

FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD Listen up! I got lots to say. Ready for me to begin. Too much for me to hold inside. So little time. No more sitting still for me today. Hold the door. I’m coming in! . So much to do.

When you come for me. This life has gotten really bad. Waiting for you to take me to some other place. I’m tired today. I will be ready. I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go. When you come for me. . I won’t be sad. I’m looking forward to the trip ahead. In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again.WHEN YOU COME FOR ME When you come for me. When you come for me.

Giving in to your every want and need. You open up. Desire being my excuse. . Just how a smudge succeeds.A MERE SMUDGE I’m a smudge on your window pane. Guess I’m in too deep. but don’t know what to say. Loving the way That I confuse. Can’t get rid of me.

accept your smile. I try and try To live your life.” I take a sip. Drink my wine. That I can’t survive on my own. Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape. “Celebrate with me. Not knowing poison’s inside. .A PRISONER’S LIFE I want to be free. You say. You say it’ll never be. A prisoner’s life is what I lead. Locked away indefinitely. But I’m the one that pays the toll.

And I finally see. Close your eyes. it’ll be done. And That’s just what I’ll do. No one to help me with this one. Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be. Make your move. All at once. I’ll guide you. Either way. . Decision time tonight. I hear. A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go. It hit me hard.AT A CROSSROADS Here I am.

They silenced all the tears. And I held on. Awkward distance. . Mainly out of fear. I’ve got to drive those blues away. So they don’t live here no more. From this life I need more. Arguments. Happiness and joyful days. They didn’t live here. Year after year. I can’t always be afraid.DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY Sad songs are all I heard. Too scared to move.

HOW How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning? .

It. But … It. too. shall pass. Because nothing ever lasts Of pain. Consuming who it occupies. And pain’s waiting At another’s door. That bell it rings. SHALL PASS Pain can’t last forever. Till only it survives. Making you believe you died.IT. TOO. too. It’s got places to go. . Taking over everything. shall pass.

And I fight with my head high. Fight to keep it all in order. Try not to let the weight get me down. Holding onto my pride.HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE I try to hold my head above water. For the misery in store. But the price I pay is worth being free. . Every day is a fight for me. I suit up for the war. Try to turn it all around.

All the while hiding ours. Skirt the blame. Our downfall in the end. . Although we are among friends. Such a wicked game to play.OUR DOWNFALL We are a sad society: So quick to judge. It’s become customary To point out all the flaws. Point fingers. So afraid of being called out our name. Mistakes that others seem to make. We don’t see What lies within. Believing those wicked smiles.

.BEING FREE I won’t let you change who I am. The only way truly to be free. Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be.

Concentrating on what I’m meant to do. I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine. This thought had become commonplace.MY WORLD Sometime ago I lost myself. . Don’t know how long it’s been. It’s how I lived my life. Now it’s time for me to grow. Time for me to shine. My world finally mine. Remembering who I was. What treasures lied within. My eyes are open now. Just the way a record does. Picked up where I had left off. Forgot who I was inside.

MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine. It’s there. See … I’m making it my goal. I know. Although it tries to hide. . Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine.

Hope not within my reach. I begin again. . As the pieces began to mend.NEARLY BROKEN Thought it was the end of me. My spirit nearly broken. So glad that I had faith. My mind said all was lost. Nearly broken. Thought there was no escape. But I’m on the mend. But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat.

She loves me more than anything. She knows how much I meant to her. That friend I’ve found is me. She’s happy. the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while. Because she knows her worth. A mother. and a wife. She’s beautiful And full of life. daughter.MY FRIEND Oh. .

Saying everything With just a smirk. . The stories they tell Without saying a word.THE SMILE AND THE FROWN Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown. One right-side up. The other upside down.

have mercy on me. Instead. I’d rather have my love with me. Loosen your lover’s grip. Memories barely keep me warm. I remain lonely. . Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip. I’ll forever mourn. The love I lost.REMAINING LONELY Loneliness.

What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside? . Close your eyes. Visualize it’s there In front of you. Imagine your worst fear.FEAR INSIDE I challenge you To sit in silence. Take a sigh.

EMMA LEE
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.

FREEDOM
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.

TODAY
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.

feelings are no big deal. Until you walk through my door. But to you. . Waiting once more. I should say How I feel. My time no longer mine.WAITING All I do Is wait around for you. So here I sit. I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time.

So I sing today for you.SINGING TODAY FOR YOU Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time. . you know. Because this I’m thankful for.

I’m not listening anyway. I don’t care what you have to say. Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out. Though I don’t listen any more. Yet your mouth moves constantly. .NOT LISTENING Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago.

Loving everything I am. You watch and study me. . You know me Better Than I ever could know.WINDOW TO MY SOUL I see you Through the window to my soul. Taking in all you see. And what I’m meant to be. Looking through The window to my soul.

Am I supposed to smile. You’re pretty for a black girl. What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me? You’re pretty for a black girl. . Thank you for letting me know. Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth. Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more.PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL You’re pretty for a black girl. Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud? You’re pretty for a black girl.

FOR MY SISTERS My sister. Beauty lying inside and out. Thought I should let you know. Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen. you are beautiful. Thought I should tell you so. . you know.

Even if we’ve forgotten.THE TIME IS NOW The only time we have is now. Seeing all we’re meant to see. This place we’ve gotten to somehow. To share all we’ve got. To show each other why we’re here. The time we have is now. To feel how it should be. .

BIO Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school.” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten. and songs. She writes poetry. She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons. short stories. Her first publication was a short story entitled. . “The Amazing Mr. Glonka.

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