ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition
.Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved.
I love you. Devante. Brandon.For my boys. The world is yours. Mom
. Blake. Make your mark. and Jaden.
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Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone
The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You
LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me
I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song
Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How
Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now
I leave my mark. I make your food.
. Bake your bread. Giving you more than my last. As you breathe. You are my light Through the dark. I live for you At your command. What lovers do. I smile for you. Clean the floors.LOVING YOU
As you awake. For you. All you have to do is ask. I do it all. Be your lover and more. My world expands. By loving you. Wash your clothes. Handle with care.
All thanks to you. All thanks to you. Blacker than the darkest night. heartless. Only anger in this place. My evil eyes are full of spite. Rotten to the very core. The monster made. Bitter through and through. Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth.
.THANKS TO YOU
I see the way you look at me. And still not a word. Your gaze has only reached my thighs. Felling the heat between you and me. woman and man. My hips move to your beat. you lift your hand. it heaves to my surprise. Now face-to-face. I see your eyes start at my feet.WITHOUT WORDS
I know you like what you see. I feel your hands all over me.
. Caress my cheek from where you stand. I quench your thirst. And you haven’t said a word. Licking your lips. My chest. You didn’t have to say a word. I kiss your lips. Don’t have to say a word.
just wasted time. My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. I gave my all for you to live.
. You’ve taken all I have to give. I shed my skin. It’s over now.WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME
Here I stand out in front. And you never saw me. Emptied my soul. The foolishness I left behind. But you don’t see me. Requesting more so you can live. The years I lost. The rest gone down the drain. Still shaded by your tree. And now my shell is all I have. Bare for all to see. My end is here.
SEASONS OF LOVE
A light is shining bright. All is still. You are my spring. You are my fall. Please stay a while. A love so grand. You are my winter. We bring forth our new ecstasy. it’s just you and me. built-in trust. You are my summer. living long it must. Our love is blossoming for all to see.
. The heat I crave to feel at night. Existing even after the end. A smile that warms the coldest night. In the end it was always us. We have grown together. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh. No you and I. A constant cold stuns my heart. We from the start.
You must understand my need to be here. I need to feel the pain inside of me. please. Don’t want happiness here again.
. I killed your love for me. just let me be. my worst fear. Not bottle it up inside of me. Don’t want you to dry my eyes. Just let this pain pierce my skin. Just let me be. So.BROKEN
Please. I want to cry. I’ve got to let the burn roam free. I need the anger. The damage done won’t disappear. oh please.
. Open my eyes. You on my mind. Me in your heart. Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. Feed you by hand. My love always. Enjoy the day. It would always be this way.MY LAST DAY
I would wake up a little late. Sitting by your side. No worry about what could be heard. Wash your feet Late that night. I would call in sick. Our fingers intertwined. gazing upon your face. I’d say. I would make a meal For you and me. Silently gazing In your eyes. Forever stay. Hold your hand. I would promise you. That I’d never leave. Make love to you without saying a word.
.That’s how I would spend My last day.
I will show up. I’ll show up. Till this life ends. if you yell.
. You curse and scream. I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you. And I will always show up. just know I won’t be walking out the door. I’ll show up. You see I gave my word in front of God. Face so mean. You spit my name With twisted face.I WILL SHOW UP
If I yell. it will be us. You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. Through thick and thin when times are hard. So when you’re mad as hell. The very last one to show up. I’ll show up.
I’m telling you. So close your lips and take my hand. Lie down with me in this moment. we don’t have to talk or say a word. Don’t want to chill or hang with you. Cover me with ecstasy. You can find someone else to fill those shoes.WHAT I NEED
. it’s what you heard. And give me what I need. Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do. Just take me on into the room. No. Just here for me to feel alright. And give me what I need. It’s not my place to be her for you. I don’t want to be your girl. Not here to be your girl tonight. Yeah.
Brightness everlasting.LOVE ALL OVER ME
Smiling all twenty four. I am the Milky Way. Brighter than the night’s sky. My glow shines through the darkness. After the end. Cannot be dimmed. I will remain. I am love. And I will forge ahead. Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me.
. I color the winter’s night.
Fine As the darkest wine.
. I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized. Intoxicating.
as well.SETTING YOU FREE
Here I wait Today for you. Just like the day before. Can’t compete with street life. God.
. Not just the night-time one you sell. I know my needs fall on deaf ears. I fear. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol. I’ll hold it down and set you free. Why do I compete With the streets. Love shouldn’t have to be this rough. A dozen women for a dime. Don’t sell away your half from me. A part-time love is not enough. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man.
nasty at 10. Pray to God that I don’t cry. I’m coming back. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry. Although the truth lies elsewhere.HELL AND BACK
I go through hell to be with you. Say forgive me this time. Time to put me back on track.
. And try to make it back from hell again. Maybe this time is the last time. But it’s 1. Swinging and swaying to your moods. At 10:30. At 11:30. I hold on tight for the ride. You say you’re sorry all the time. time for hell again. and I love you more than anything. hell begins. Nice at 8.
I wonder if you’re like me. too. If the perfect one waits somewhere for you. still searching. And also trying to find me. Not giving up. But my conviction still remains strong. I pray that you’re still looking.SEARCHING
Where are you? Are you searching for me. Kissed so many frogs. Out there trying to see.
. Even met some dogs. too? I’ve been waiting oh so long.
Sometimes love throws you a curve. It takes you up. But love can also be so sweet. So hold on tight. then drops you down.
. It smiles at you and then frowns. Sometimes love takes broader shape. It flows outside the lines. And surprises you with no regrets. Refuses to be confined. And just await your love’s surprise. It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything. It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect. Pretends to stay. and Evaporates to your dismay. Can pick you up and be complete. Love pulls you in. Enjoy the ride.
So glad to have you In my life.
. Tell me it’s all mine. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time.WE LIFT EACH OTHER
You lift me up For the world to see. It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined. I tell you you’re The best at what you do. by my side. The queen I’m meant to be. And I rule the roost. Standing tall. Give me the world. You show me how Real love should be with you. Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do. I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. Just what I’m meant to do.
You had a plan all the while. Say some words. You pile it on Because I can take it.
. And try to break me. And then not care Who you hurt. Curse my name. You’re having fun. Because your plan is number one. All others be damned. Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile.THE WARNING
It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you. Pretend to care. But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy.
“What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say. The happiness I felt inside.”
. About you. “My darling. “Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared. I’d say to you. The joy and laughter every night. I’d miss everything. The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared.
Whether at work or at play. An aroma only you possess.
. I inhale you on my shirt.YOU WEAR IT WELL
I wear you on my sleeve. you know. Whether night or day. Separating you from the rest. That fragrence I know so well. Take you when I leave. You line the pleats of my skirt. That essence that I smell. You’re with me On my way. Not Ivory or Irish Spring. You follow me Through the day. It’s not cologne or soap. your scent. And you wear it well. So distinct.
And then we pray. We laugh. Realizing It won’t work apart. The shit we say. Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through.NOT ALONE
The games we play.
. Like children Not yet grown. Alone is not what we do. Can’t make it on our own. We hurt.
Your life tells me so. Because you are the best of me. This much I truly know. With me. And I know I make up the best of you. Order lives where chaos dwelled. The light replaced the dark.THE BEST OF ME
I make up the best of you. A freshness for our start. I brought a new place for you. A prize for all to see. You don’t need to say it.
. I’m proud to see what you’ve become.
Thinking that you’re done. Hoping things are as good as new. Will forever change the way I now look at you. But that kink.
. Looking okay. Although repaired. you see. The chain contains a kink.TRUST
It’s like a broken fence: When mended. You try to move along. you still see that link.
. Skin of chocolate. For the chocolate and the caramel. I fear you love yourself More than you love me. Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love.SHADES OF ME
How can you not love me. You don’t even see. With eyes of auburn.
I know where your happiness lies. Powder-white sand. And I wait With your love’s escape. I’m ready now. A world that rivals Disneyland. I take you to another place. A world where only you escape: A world of beaches. It’s embedded between my thighs.
Not so simple to me.
. A simple choice It may seem. Though simple it may be. To live in hell Or go be free. Is not simple In my eyes.THE CHOICE
The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. A place Finally to be me.
Don’t forget yesterday. Face twisted mean. No matter what a friend may say. Did you forget yesterday?
The screaming and the yelling.
I truly thought you understood.
. So it may seem.
Did you forget yesterday?
A friend today. That voice appears and says.DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY
Every time it’s going good. Although you’re okay today. Yesterday.
Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I.WHAT WE DESERVE
Do you deserve All that I do. Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess. Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me. You can’t say yes.
. Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve. to be with you? I can’t say no.
Truth is you’re not the one for me. So. No time to cry. But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you. I fear. I know it’s not what you want to hear.THE TRUTH
I’m sad today. Because I see the truth.
. And I’m not the one for you. We tried to make it work. You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. Another smiling face. Fully awake. Life alone brings doubts and fears. it’s not meant to be. Your true love awaits. But. It may just be Around the corner. dry your eyes.
Your love to give For me always.
. We’d never fight.A PERFECT WORLD
In a perfect world. In a perfect world. In a perfect world. In a perfect world. Sadly. There would be no other for you. You’d only have eyes for me. It’d be you and I. You’d forever stay. today it’s not that way. Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem. I’d be all you see. And I can only dream. You’d agree with me. You’d hold me tight. I’d always be right. And sit by my side.
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.
FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.
Women are cunning creatures you know. It is so easy for me to smile. We lie in wait. The perfect moment to strike. Believed that when you closed the door. Pretend I’m okay inside. We plot our moves From the go. You should have never estimated The power of my mind. For the right time.
. It was fine to say goodbye.LYING IN WAIT
I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies.
Because you set me free. Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day. When you would let me go. Thought the day would never come. It hurts to be in this spot. You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had. Where I said I’d be. But I fear your mind’s made up. Hoping it’s not too late. Now I sit and wait for you. Because it’s all I know. That’s too damn bad. I can’t forget what we had.
I wait for you in the lot.
. But I don’t think It will ever be. Give me no reply. Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte.NOT YOUR FORTE
I tell you I need more. I ask you all the time To treat me like I need. It’s not enough for me. And sleep. You look into my eyes.
Alone with the truth after the fall. How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all. so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED
One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. But … I wanted you. Although I know the truth. And now I sit. What I see Is not really you.
. For the real you can never love me.
. Go ahead. I really hope you find her soon.A LOVE LIKE MINE
You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone. The way I kissed you late at night. Make your move. And please. You say you don’t care. Think it’s all a big game. But time will tell. Miss what we had. Yeah. And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same. You’re gonna miss me so damn bad. you think you know it all. That there are many more like me. hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. So you can finally see.
Your love will kill My spirit. Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me.TERMINAL LOVE
Your love will be The end of me. If that’s what I let it do. If I let it inside. Your love will make Me lose my mind. If I let it be.
And that I deserve the best. You tell me that I’m beautiful. Holding my hand. Ignoring all the rest. You’re blind to all that temptation outside.
. It’s great to be by your side.THE LITTLE THINGS
It’s the little things I appreciate. Showing me the man That you’re proud to be. To live this life with you. They don’t have to cost a thing. I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do.
My spirit knows It’s your fault. Because you need to be first. My anger knows It’s my fault. I let you do what you want to. You don’t encourage me. And it’s your fault. You discourage me. My spirit grows. I’m the one who made you into you. And it’s my fault.
My anger grows. I finally love me more that you do. Don’t want to hear my words. Because all you thought about was you.
Although it doesn’t live here. Because someday love will set me free. I still believe in love. I’m a fan of love.
. I lay out the welcome mat for love. Though it doesn’t live here no more. I still believe in love. But it won’t knock at my door. Although it’s not yet mine. I will wait for love. I will wait for love. Because I see it all the time. Because it waits somewhere for me. I’d sit in the stands and cheer. I lay out the welcome mat for love.A FAN OF LOVE
I am a fan of love.
You try to live in my realty. But we’re not meant to be.A DIFFERENT CLOTH
Cut from a different cloth. If only in our eyes. You and I are not the same. But you won’t show your face. When I don’t even know your name. Yet you came. and you try To become you and I. I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come.
. A visitor from another place. Tell me why you’re in my space. Your world is nothing like The one I’m from. Maybe that cloth Really is the same.
It’s nowhere inside of you.
. To do what I have to do.PROMISES
Promises you fail to keep Are all I have. I don’t know why I ask for truth. Though the shitty lies you grab. Honesty is within your reach. So glad to have this new breakthrough.
Not taking your shit any more.
. It’s your way or the door. I’m like a moth to your flame.NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE
You can’t see me Past your superiority. twisted game. I’m sick to hell of being under your spell. But I’m tired of playing Your sick. There’s no you and me in us for you. I try and try to be What you want from me.
You sprint along. We’ll never be face-to-face. now by my side. Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath. First place is a space we both want. Because we both want to win the race. Can’t let me be in front.WINNING THE RACE
I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight. Trying to keep up. Because you have to be first. Two peas of a different pod.
I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections. Co-existence is the only power You hold over me. I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely.POWER
Looking through rose-colored glasses.
Why don’t I feel comfortable. Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts.
. Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for. but the one I should let go.SING FOR YOU
Why don’t I sing for you? A good question. indeed.
Love. Love. Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh. I laugh along in my defense. And set me free. how you love to tell your lovely lies. Let loose your hold of me. Just break your chains. The jokes are all at my expense. Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love.
. What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh. Love.
When unity was a goal.REMEMBERING LOVE
Remember when Love was enough. A time I surely miss. Surviving by itself. A time of unrivaled bliss. With nothing else. Even when times were tough? It got you through. Family meant we were whole.
I hold my breath. I look elsewhere instead. you grin. Because we never speak. minutes.
. Our whole lives lost. And we’ve both paid the cost. Yet nothing was said. Turning into weeks. So much to say. I smile. We drift together. Still alone. hours.LOST LIVES
Here we go again. You try to read my face. But nothing’s said. You stare at the floor. And here we are In elder years. days. So much to say. The seconds. Just like the day before.
You are the reason why I work so hard.MY WIFE
You bought me flowers today: Roses. My wife. Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said:
I can’t live my life without Having you by my side.
. Although I seldom tell you so. How I cherish you. I think of you before I rest. I try my best. With you is where my heart lies. pink and red.
Curse her name. But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside. How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her. Or use my fists. Call her a bitch.
. And you think they’re just words. I disappear with every word you say.KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS
I lose a piece of me every day.
He’d cherish them because they were mine.THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME
Oh. He’d cherish the ground I walked on. It wouldn’t matter if they were his. He wouldn’t see anyone else. I wouldn’t want for anything. A perfect world For him and me. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often.
. He’d love every part of me. Put me before himself. That man I made for me. Live together happily. No one else would matter. He’d always take care of me. And even love my kids.
Supporting me until the end. You’re by my side. And I’ll always put you first. Guiding me along the way. I put you first. Get me through to a new start. this is why I will believe With Your Word. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day. Whether I am right or wrong. that’s the way it will be. I put you first. Lord. Let me laugh after I’ve cried. And so.
. In you.I PUT YOU FIRST
You’ve been there Since day one. Bring me light after the dark. You guide. And so. I lead My life in Your hands. You let me fall. I have a faithful friend. so I may rise. I put your first. And so. as I carry on.
He has my unwavering faith. And I thought I knew it all. My whole world. the path I walk. He knows the goings on inside of me. He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break. predicts my moves. Says what I think before I do. He knows my mind. He’s got my map. He is the Lord above. Mouths the words before I talk.
He came today and shook my soul. I think he’s psychic see. With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day. I don’t know nothing anymore. he’s taken hold.
LIES AND TRUTH
The truth is the light. No matter how hard you try. If asked. A cover will not work. Won’t stay inside.
. A lie won’t hide. Rains down on me. You can’t contain What will remain. I would have told you so. It’s impossible to hide a lie. you know. It shines so bright. Sets me free.
The beauty of it all. Can’t keep me down no more. ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be. The chains are gone. Realizing who I am. Screaming to me in my own song. Has built a wall that can’t be broken. I got it now. For the entire world to see. powering my soul. Yes. Now I’m free. but now I see The truth I bought now sold. The square peg now fits the hole. So that confidence. I can’t lie low. Took years to find.
. Who I am inside. Flipping a script You no longer own. Was in a fog.
And I cannot escape. So I say my last goodbye. But. All consuming. A better place awaits me. Now is the end for me. I’ll be with you forever now. So much to bear. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today. Killing my mind And spirit.
. too. The pain will end. Like the way That evil does. finally. It’s all around. through the fog I can’t see. breathlessly.ENDING THE PAIN
This world of pain. I try to fight. Everywhere. Stealing my light. Staining the air.
Enough to drive the sane insane. So I block it and stay inside. It calls to me and screams my name. I vow to do the best I can.CHANGING ME
I couldn’t watch the news today. Start my task with one woman. But radio’s no better. For fear of what it might say. Guess I’ll listen to radio instead. I’ll start my fight by changing me. same old thing. Live by his word and let him see.
. Can’t let this dark swallow my light. I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. Everyone’s fighting or arguing. Someone’s missing. Or found dead.
I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay.
. I took the pain away with me. I had to go because it stayed. I pierce the layer that I see. The one underneath’s too tough. After all the blood had dried. Finally free. I’m the one it killed.BREAKING FREE
I try to cut the pain away. Cutting deeper still. The pain still wouldn’t go away. Now I’m gone. But blood is not enough. The pain inside just wouldn’t die. Now my pain has gone away. Although it hurt. I couldn’t cry.
But through it all. Before you were inside. By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away. Although you were not yet mine. The love I thought I had to have. I held you tight and kissed your cheek. You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues.MY SON SHINES
Long ago I dreamt of you. I feared it was not true. I stood tall. Only the mixture that I needed. A battle I couldn’t lose. Here I stand forever.
. For the other half of you.
Do you really know who I am.
. Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me. Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know. me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me.
My arms they sway That away. Dance with me tonight. Made for sin. It moves my feet.
. I feel the beat. Dance with me tonight. Dance with me tonight. It moves my hips. The rhythm stirs Inside my head. Please play for me.DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT
I feel the music From deep within. Your song instead.
Help them push the pain aside.
. Your will was not as strong. So here is where they’ll stay. We older folks can tolerate. Though your beauty will last always. It’s sad to know your time is done. To make sure you were still here. They’ll wish we stopped you just in time. Sometimes too much to bare. So hold them tight.TOO SOON
Gone too soon. We didn’t have you long. Pain can be an awful thing. But many will always care. And let them know An early end’s no way to go. What younger ones can’t fare.
I approach. I hold my breath. You strike so fast. Hoping you’re asleep. Why did I go? I should have paused. You lay still. I wait till day To go your way.THE BROWN WIDOW
You wait for me In the dark. You’re poisonous. But you’re too quick. Too many eyes Cover me. Hoping you snoozed. I knew you were there After all.
. Await my move.
It will be just right. Take your time. Live your best life now. DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight.
.THE TIME IS NOW
take a peak. Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. it lies inside. Years later we get another glimpse.
. Where it shines the best.INNER SUPERSTAR
We possess it early on. Our inner superstar Was always there inside. After we have forgotten. We get a glimpse. And then peaked out often. Remembering where it first shined. Dormant. Residing where it’s meant to be. But often forget where it lies. It differs from the rest. Specific to each owner.
While hiding in our youth. But we get in the way. Without listening to what it has to say. But then we find courage inside And turn it all around.LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL
Life tries to take the wheel.
. We make a turn on our own. It shows its face in elder years. Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down. Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. Its view widens so we may see. Be patient. Listen for what life has in store. Life’s not all a mystery.
At least. And you’re gone. Now tomorrow’s here. until tomorrow.TOO LATE
You were mine On borrowed time.
. Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so. I’m so sorry I was wrong. This I didn’t know. I took for granted you’d be here.
spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do.
Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise.
COLORS OF ME
There are many Shades of me. you know. Neon bright. Relaxed for when I sleep. A blue for when I’m feeling low.
. Like many colors of the rainbow. Black or white. I shine brightly for all to see. When wide awake. Growing daily like the evergreen. A range of shades for everything. A softer shade. A darker color when we fight. a light yellow. I can be any hue I want to be. I change from day-to-day. They cover you And color me. When ready. I’m an aubergine.
I think in rhyme. The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow. It sings to me from deep inside. Living. And it makes up The best of me. breathing poetry
. Thinking. I don’t know how Or even why.A POET’S SONG
I live in verse. rhyming All the time. Is all poetry to me. The sadness that you may see.
. barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath. Shine from underneath? Is it dim. The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow.BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH
Just how bright Is your light.
It says to me.
I am your friend. Inside that room lives poetry. I open up. It offers me a place to stay. It sets me free. Then takes my coat.
.POETRY LIVES HERE
A door has opened up for me. Says stay awhile. It embraces me. It invites me in. Says take a seat. And offers me its words to eat. It comforts me. Then sings to me In special notes. And says Please come back any day. Encourages me With its warm smile.
The knowledge I give. The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back. or shock you.KNOWING MY WORTH
Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice.
. The pleasures I possess. It’s because I am beauty. Knowing that your fears. Curve of my waist. I am life. offend. The wisdom I possess. The comfort of my embrace. I can erase? If I frighten. And I know my worth. Shape of my thighs. I am woman. That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss.
. We are the best of all beings. Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man. Forgetting it. Rewarded with so many qualities. One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth.OF ALL BEINGS
Fellow women of today. you should abhor.
Held some hands along the way. Did mostly as I pleased. I can’t wait for mine. My destination is on my mind.THE LONG ROAD HOME
I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead. Thinking of how it will be. What a lovely ride. Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me. I smile and hold it inside. Happiness and long-lost friends. A sight I almost see. Every road must come to an end.
“Your time is here. Giving the breeze What it needs. It is today.THE SOUND OF SIGNS
I hear the birds chirping.
. Close your eyes. “The time has come For you to leave. As if saying to me.” The tree breaths. Sounds fully. As if to say. Listen closely. The signs are there For you to see.” The willow weeps.
. What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot. It’s not too late. This is not a test. Or we all lose. What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man.A CALL TO ARMS
*STOP* Turn off your television set. I’ve grabbed my pen.
Where happiness lives Indefinitely. Though we’re apart.HOME
My home is where I lay my head And pray at night. My home can be one place or a few. My home is where I chose to be. Where true love lives. My home is where I leave my heart. Beside the bed. My home may just be with you.
The better prize. Open your foolish eyes. And miss out on the better prize. But what lies inside. Should crown our lover’s throne. Ignorant to what’s inside. We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone. A trick used to confuse the mind. So easy to believe a lie. We turn away. This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet.
. Although it seems quite odd. It passes instantly.THE BETTER PRIZE
The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade. And in our haste.
Time to sit and rest my mind. too. But I know things will be fine. Spirit.RELAXING MY MIND
Been a long day. I’m tired already. that’s the way life goes. add some play. Save some work.
. Try to balance both and remain whole. And I know more will surely come. Unfortunately. I’ve seen this day before. I remember to relax today. My body’s weary.
So I continue to Keep hope alive. and I stay safe. Why won’t it set me free?
. It must lie somewhere else.TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME
Trouble road begins at my door. It should be tired of me. I’ve given up on happiness. And pray trouble runs out of time. I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been. Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free. Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me. Where all is calm. Surrounded by my friends. And I know nothing else.
You’re driving too fast. There is no room.
. Look to the sky. How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on. And then thank God I learned to fly. Away I go To a better place. Without your brakes. Even the belt Won’t keep me safe. I close my eyes. You smile at me And hit the gas. Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape.THE GREATEST ESCAPE
Slow down for me. No space for me. To ride with you. You’re speeding now. As I brace For the crash.
So much to lose. Covering your insides. everything I’ve got. Premeditated steps I take with no regrets. Worried about the fall. The snipers waiting for that clear shot.THE FALL
. I wait until it’s dark. afterall. Worried I’ll be found. Afraid to make a sound. Can never take the leap. Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two.
Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know. Hope our move won’t make a mess. And we’re finally on track. Then we realize The move was just right. Do what you say. Make your move. Don’t be scared to let go. Take a step and not look back.MAKING MOVES
Every now and then. We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go. Don’t be afraid. Scared to make a move.
. That moment is meant just for you To make your move. You’re right where you need to be. We wish for the best.
Although my mouth is closed. It’s time to take my rightful place. My eyes are opened wide. Life just passes by. I’ve already won the race. The final bell has rung. And now the time is here For me to finally shine. Focused on today. Light miles ahead.WINNING THE RACE
I’ve wasted too much time.
. It never waits. Or what they tried to say. I never saw the signs. And now half my life’s Just floated away.
You always take my call. And I need you there. indeed. The times we share.TRUE FRIENDS
I call you. Even when I want to vent About nothing at all.
. Taking it all in. Because when I need someone to vent to. It’s so innocent. I’m glad I have you in my life. I need you to show me Just how I should be. You know I’m really into it. You call me. You listen when I talk. A true friend. But we’re just friends.
There are times When we may find Some things troubling. And what things we should keep.
Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing. We need to learn What to say. Often times Those little things Should remain a secret.
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.
Hold the door.FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD
Listen up! I got lots to say. I’m coming in!
. No more sitting still for me today. Ready for me to begin. So much to do. Too much for me to hold inside. So little time.
In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again. I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go.
. When you come for me. I won’t be sad. When you come for me. When you come for me.WHEN YOU COME FOR ME
When you come for me. I will be ready. Waiting for you to take me to some other place. I’m tired today. This life has gotten really bad. I’m looking forward to the trip ahead.
Giving in to your every want and need. Loving the way That I confuse. Just how a smudge succeeds. Can’t get rid of me. but don’t know what to say.A MERE SMUDGE
I’m a smudge on your window pane. You open up. Desire being my excuse. Guess I’m in too deep.
Drink my wine. Not knowing poison’s inside. I try and try To live your life. That I can’t survive on my own. Locked away indefinitely. You say. “Celebrate with me.A PRISONER’S LIFE
I want to be free. But I’m the one that pays the toll. A prisoner’s life is what I lead. You say it’ll never be. accept your smile.
. Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape.” I take a sip.
All at once.
. It hit me hard. And I finally see. I hear. Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be. Make your move. No one to help me with this one. Either way. it’ll be done. And That’s just what I’ll do. I’ll guide you.AT A CROSSROADS
Here I am. Close your eyes. A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go. Decision time tonight.
Happiness and joyful days. So they don’t live here no more.
. Arguments. Awkward distance. From this life I need more. Mainly out of fear. Year after year. And I held on. I’ve got to drive those blues away.DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY
Sad songs are all I heard. I can’t always be afraid. They didn’t live here. They silenced all the tears. Too scared to move.
How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning?
Taking over everything. But … It.
. Till only it survives. SHALL PASS
Pain can’t last forever. TOO. And pain’s waiting At another’s door. shall pass. It. Consuming who it occupies. too. Because nothing ever lasts Of pain. That bell it rings. too. shall pass.IT. Making you believe you died. It’s got places to go.
I suit up for the war. Try to turn it all around. Try not to let the weight get me down.
. Holding onto my pride. Fight to keep it all in order. But the price I pay is worth being free. And I fight with my head high.HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE
I try to hold my head above water. Every day is a fight for me. For the misery in store.
Skirt the blame.OUR DOWNFALL
We are a sad society: So quick to judge. We don’t see What lies within. Believing those wicked smiles. Our downfall in the end. It’s become customary To point out all the flaws.
. All the while hiding ours. Although we are among friends. Point fingers. Such a wicked game to play. Mistakes that others seem to make. So afraid of being called out our name.
. Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be.BEING FREE
I won’t let you change who I am. The only way truly to be free.
My world finally mine. Concentrating on what I’m meant to do. It’s how I lived my life. This thought had become commonplace. Just the way a record does. Time for me to shine. My eyes are open now. Picked up where I had left off. What treasures lied within.MY WORLD
Sometime ago I lost myself. Don’t know how long it’s been. Now it’s time for me to grow.
. Remembering who I was. I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine. Forgot who I was inside.
Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine.MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE
Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine. It’s there. Although it tries to hide.
. See … I’m making it my goal. I know.
But I’m on the mend. As the pieces began to mend. So glad that I had faith. Thought there was no escape. My spirit nearly broken. Hope not within my reach.
. I begin again.NEARLY BROKEN
Thought it was the end of me. But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat. My mind said all was lost. Nearly broken.
daughter. A mother. Because she knows her worth. the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while. and a wife.
. She’s beautiful And full of life. She knows how much I meant to her.MY FRIEND
Oh. That friend I’ve found is me. She loves me more than anything. She’s happy.
The other upside down. One right-side up. The stories they tell Without saying a word. Saying everything With just a smirk.
.THE SMILE AND THE FROWN
Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown.
Loosen your lover’s grip. I’d rather have my love with me. I’ll forever mourn. Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip.REMAINING LONELY
Loneliness. I remain lonely. have mercy on me.
. Instead. Memories barely keep me warm. The love I lost.
Close your eyes. What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside?
. Visualize it’s there In front of you. Take a sigh.FEAR INSIDE
I challenge you To sit in silence. Imagine your worst fear.
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.
I should say How I feel.WAITING
All I do Is wait around for you. But to you. feelings are no big deal. My time no longer mine. So here I sit. Waiting once more. Until you walk through my door. I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time.
So I sing today for you.SINGING TODAY FOR YOU
Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time. Because this I’m thankful for.
. you know.
. I’m not listening anyway. I don’t care what you have to say.NOT LISTENING
Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago. Though I don’t listen any more. Yet your mouth moves constantly. Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out.
. Looking through The window to my soul. You watch and study me. Taking in all you see.WINDOW TO MY SOUL
I see you Through the window to my soul. You know me Better Than I ever could know. And what I’m meant to be. Loving everything I am.
Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud?
You’re pretty for a black girl.
What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me?
You’re pretty for a black girl.
Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth.
Am I supposed to smile. Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more.
You’re pretty for a black girl.
Thank you for letting me know.PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL
You’re pretty for a black girl.
Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen.FOR MY SISTERS
. you are beautiful. Beauty lying inside and out. Thought I should let you know. you know. Thought I should tell you so.
To share all we’ve got. This place we’ve gotten to somehow. The time we have is now. Even if we’ve forgotten. To show each other why we’re here. Seeing all we’re meant to see.
. To feel how it should be.THE TIME IS NOW
The only time we have is now.
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Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school. She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons. Her first publication was a short story entitled. Glonka. short stories. She writes poetry.
.” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten.