ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition .Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved.

Brandon. Make your mark. The world is yours. Blake. Devante. and Jaden.For my boys. Mom . I love you.

CONTENTS Title Page Copyright Page LOVE Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone .

The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You .

LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me LIFE I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song .

Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How .

It. Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now . too.

LOVE .

By loving you. Clean the floors. Handle with care. As you breathe. Be your lover and more. Wash your clothes. I make your food. My world expands. For you. I smile for you. . I live for you At your command. What lovers do. You are my light Through the dark. Giving you more than my last. Bake your bread. I do it all. I leave my mark.LOVING YOU As you awake. All you have to do is ask.

All thanks to you. Only anger in this place. Rotten to the very core. The monster made. Blacker than the darkest night. heartless. My evil eyes are full of spite. All thanks to you. Bitter through and through. .THANKS TO YOU Cold. Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth.

I see the way you look at me. I quench your thirst. .WITHOUT WORDS I know you like what you see. woman and man. My chest. And still not a word. And you haven’t said a word. it heaves to my surprise. Felling the heat between you and me. Caress my cheek from where you stand. Licking your lips. I feel your hands all over me. Now face-to-face. Don’t have to say a word. I see your eyes start at my feet. You didn’t have to say a word. I kiss your lips. you lift your hand. Your gaze has only reached my thighs. My hips move to your beat.

just wasted time. Bare for all to see. And now my shell is all I have. But you don’t see me. And you never saw me. Still shaded by your tree. You’ve taken all I have to give. My end is here. The years I lost. The rest gone down the drain. I shed my skin. It’s over now. Emptied my soul. My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. I gave my all for you to live. The foolishness I left behind. Requesting more so you can live. .WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME Here I stand out in front.

All is still. it’s just you and me. You are my winter. You are my summer. Please stay a while. We bring forth our new ecstasy. living long it must. We have grown together. A constant cold stuns my heart. The heat I crave to feel at night. No you and I. We from the start. . built-in trust. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh. Existing even after the end. Our love is blossoming for all to see. You are my fall. In the end it was always us. You are my spring. A smile that warms the coldest night.SEASONS OF LOVE A light is shining bright. A love so grand.

You must understand my need to be here. Don’t want happiness here again. So. Don’t want you to dry my eyes. I’ve got to let the burn roam free. I need the anger.BROKEN Please. oh please. I need to feel the pain inside of me. Just let me be. just let me be. Not bottle it up inside of me. . Just let this pain pierce my skin. I killed your love for me. The damage done won’t disappear. my worst fear. I want to cry. please.

My love always. No worry about what could be heard. Feed you by hand. Enjoy the day. Our fingers intertwined. You on my mind. I’d say. Hold your hand. Forever stay.MY LAST DAY I would wake up a little late. Silently gazing In your eyes. It would always be this way. Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. I would call in sick. I would make a meal For you and me. Wash your feet Late that night. Open my eyes. I would promise you. . Make love to you without saying a word. gazing upon your face. Me in your heart. That I’d never leave. Sitting by your side.

.That’s how I would spend My last day.

You spit my name With twisted face. You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you. Face so mean. The very last one to show up. Through thick and thin when times are hard. . So when you’re mad as hell.I WILL SHOW UP If I yell. And I will always show up. I’ll show up. I’ll show up. if you yell. I will show up. I’ll show up. You see I gave my word in front of God. You curse and scream. it will be us. just know I won’t be walking out the door. Till this life ends.

And give me what I need. I don’t want to be your girl. it’s what you heard. Cover me with ecstasy. I’m telling you. Don’t want to chill or hang with you. It’s not my place to be her for you. we don’t have to talk or say a word. No. Lie down with me in this moment. You can find someone else to fill those shoes. Yeah. Just here for me to feel alright. So close your lips and take my hand. . Just take me on into the room. And give me what I need. Not here to be your girl tonight. Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do.WHAT I NEED No.

I color the winter’s night. After the end. Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me.LOVE ALL OVER ME Smiling all twenty four. Cannot be dimmed. . Brightness everlasting. And I will forge ahead. I am love. Brighter than the night’s sky. I will remain. My glow shines through the darkness. I am the Milky Way.

. Intoxicating. I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized.HYPNOTIZED Fine As the darkest wine.

A dozen women for a dime.SETTING YOU FREE Here I wait Today for you. God. I’ll hold it down and set you free. Not just the night-time one you sell. Don’t sell away your half from me. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol. as well. I fear. Just like the day before. . A part-time love is not enough. Can’t compete with street life. I know my needs fall on deaf ears. Why do I compete With the streets. Love shouldn’t have to be this rough. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man.

I’m coming back. Nice at 8. Swinging and swaying to your moods. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry. Time to put me back on track. Maybe this time is the last time. I hold on tight for the ride. time for hell again. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry. Although the truth lies elsewhere. Say forgive me this time. . and I love you more than anything.HELL AND BACK I go through hell to be with you. hell begins. nasty at 10. At 11:30. Pray to God that I don’t cry. You say you’re sorry all the time. And try to make it back from hell again. But it’s 1. At 10:30.

I wonder if you’re like me. too. Not giving up. Even met some dogs. And also trying to find me.SEARCHING Where are you? Are you searching for me. . too? I’ve been waiting oh so long. If the perfect one waits somewhere for you. Out there trying to see. But my conviction still remains strong. I pray that you’re still looking. Kissed so many frogs. still searching.

So hold on tight. And just await your love’s surprise. But love can also be so sweet. Can pick you up and be complete. It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything. then drops you down. and Evaporates to your dismay. Pretends to stay. Enjoy the ride. It takes you up. Sometimes love takes broader shape. Love pulls you in. And surprises you with no regrets. It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect. It smiles at you and then frowns. Refuses to be confined. It flows outside the lines. .LOVE’S SURPRISE Sometimes love throws you a curve.

I tell you you’re The best at what you do. by my side. Standing tall. It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined. You show me how Real love should be with you. Tell me it’s all mine. Give me the world. I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do. . Just what I’m meant to do. So glad to have you In my life. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time.WE LIFT EACH OTHER You lift me up For the world to see. The queen I’m meant to be. And I rule the roost.

THE WARNING It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you. Curse my name. And try to break me. Say some words. Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile. You pile it on Because I can take it. All others be damned. You had a plan all the while. You’re having fun. Because your plan is number one. . Pretend to care. But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy. And then not care Who you hurt.

” . “My darling. About you. The joy and laughter every night. The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared. The happiness I felt inside. “Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared. I’d say to you. I’d miss everything.MISSING YOU “What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say.

You line the pleats of my skirt. Not Ivory or Irish Spring. You’re with me On my way. And you wear it well. Whether at work or at play. It’s not cologne or soap. I inhale you on my shirt. That fragrence I know so well. . you know. An aroma only you possess. Whether night or day. Take you when I leave. That essence that I smell. You follow me Through the day. Separating you from the rest. your scent.YOU WEAR IT WELL I wear you on my sleeve. So distinct.

Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through. And then we pray. We hurt. The shit we say. We laugh. Alone is not what we do. Can’t make it on our own. . Like children Not yet grown.NOT ALONE The games we play. Realizing It won’t work apart.

. You don’t need to say it. Because you are the best of me. Your life tells me so. I brought a new place for you. A prize for all to see. This much I truly know.THE BEST OF ME I make up the best of you. The light replaced the dark. And I know I make up the best of you. A freshness for our start. I’m proud to see what you’ve become. With me. Order lives where chaos dwelled.

you see.TRUST It’s like a broken fence: When mended. you still see that link. Will forever change the way I now look at you. . The chain contains a kink. But that kink. Although repaired. Looking okay. Thinking that you’re done. Hoping things are as good as new. You try to move along.

Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love. With eyes of auburn. You don’t even see. Skin of chocolate. For the chocolate and the caramel.SHADES OF ME How can you not love me. I fear you love yourself More than you love me. .

A world that rivals Disneyland. And I wait With your love’s escape. It’s embedded between my thighs. I take you to another place. . A world where only you escape: A world of beaches. Powder-white sand. I’m ready now.LOVE’S ESCAPE I know where your happiness lies.

A simple choice It may seem. . Though simple it may be. To live in hell Or go be free. Is not simple In my eyes.THE CHOICE The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. A place Finally to be me. Not so simple to me.

Although you’re okay today.DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY Every time it’s going good. an enemy. Yesterday. Did you forget yesterday? The screaming and the yelling. No matter what a friend may say. Don’t forget yesterday. Face twisted mean. Did you forget yesterday? A friend today. So it may seem. I truly thought you understood. That voice appears and says. .

to be with you? I can’t say no. You can’t say yes. Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me. . Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I. Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve. Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess.WHAT WE DESERVE Do you deserve All that I do.

it’s not meant to be. You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. And I’m not the one for you. It may just be Around the corner. Another smiling face. Because I see the truth. . Life alone brings doubts and fears. But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you. But.THE TRUTH I’m sad today. dry your eyes. Truth is you’re not the one for me. No time to cry. Your true love awaits. I fear. We tried to make it work. Fully awake. I know it’s not what you want to hear. So.

A PERFECT WORLD In a perfect world. Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem. We’d never fight. In a perfect world. In a perfect world. I’d always be right. You’d hold me tight. In a perfect world. And sit by my side. . today it’s not that way. You’d forever stay. And I can only dream. It’d be you and I. You’d agree with me. I’d be all you see. You’d only have eyes for me. Your love to give For me always. There would be no other for you. Sadly.

YOUR EVERYTHING
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.

FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.

WE BELONG
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.

We plot our moves From the go. Pretend I’m okay inside. For the right time.LYING IN WAIT I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies. . Believed that when you closed the door. It was fine to say goodbye. You should have never estimated The power of my mind. Women are cunning creatures you know. We lie in wait. The perfect moment to strike. It is so easy for me to smile.

When you would let me go. Now I sit and wait for you. Because you set me free. Thought the day would never come. Where I said I’d be. You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had. That’s too damn bad. Hoping it’s not too late. It hurts to be in this spot.MOVING ON I wait for you in the lot. Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day. I can’t forget what we had. . Because it’s all I know. But I fear your mind’s made up.

Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte. Give me no reply. But I don’t think It will ever be. It’s not enough for me. . And sleep.NOT YOUR FORTE I tell you I need more. I ask you all the time To treat me like I need. You look into my eyes.

What I see Is not really you. And now I sit. But … I wanted you. so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. For the real you can never love me. How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all. Although I know the truth. Alone with the truth after the fall. .

So you can finally see. . The way I kissed you late at night. I really hope you find her soon. And please. Go ahead. Think it’s all a big game. you think you know it all. You’re gonna miss me so damn bad. And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same.A LOVE LIKE MINE You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone. hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. Miss what we had. That there are many more like me. You say you don’t care. Make your move. But time will tell. Yeah.

If I let it inside. Your love will make Me lose my mind. too. . Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me. If that’s what I let it do. If I let it be.TERMINAL LOVE Your love will be The end of me. Your love will kill My spirit.

And that I deserve the best. It’s great to be by your side.THE LITTLE THINGS It’s the little things I appreciate. Holding my hand. . Ignoring all the rest. You tell me that I’m beautiful. Showing me the man That you’re proud to be. I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do. To live this life with you. They don’t have to cost a thing. You’re blind to all that temptation outside.

You discourage me. Because all you thought about was you. I finally love me more that you do. You don’t encourage me. . Because you need to be first. I’m the one who made you into you. My spirit grows. Don’t want to hear my words. I let you do what you want to. My spirit knows It’s your fault. And it’s your fault.LOVING ME My anger grows. My anger knows It’s my fault. And it’s my fault.

Because someday love will set me free. Although it’s not yet mine. I’d sit in the stands and cheer. I lay out the welcome mat for love. Because I see it all the time. I will wait for love. I still believe in love. Although it doesn’t live here. I’m a fan of love. I lay out the welcome mat for love. .A FAN OF LOVE I am a fan of love. But it won’t knock at my door. Because it waits somewhere for me. I still believe in love. I will wait for love. Though it doesn’t live here no more.

and you try To become you and I. I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come.A DIFFERENT CLOTH Cut from a different cloth. A visitor from another place. But we’re not meant to be. But you won’t show your face. Maybe that cloth Really is the same. Tell me why you’re in my space. Yet you came. You try to live in my realty. . When I don’t even know your name. If only in our eyes. You and I are not the same. Your world is nothing like The one I’m from.

It’s nowhere inside of you. .PROMISES Promises you fail to keep Are all I have. To do what I have to do. Though the shitty lies you grab. I don’t know why I ask for truth. Honesty is within your reach. So glad to have this new breakthrough.

. I’m sick to hell of being under your spell. There’s no you and me in us for you. It’s your way or the door. I try and try to be What you want from me.NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE You can’t see me Past your superiority. Not taking your shit any more. But I’m tired of playing Your sick. twisted game. I’m like a moth to your flame.

Because we both want to win the race. . Trying to keep up. You sprint along. now by my side.WINNING THE RACE I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight. Can’t let me be in front. We’ll never be face-to-face. Because you have to be first. First place is a space we both want. Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath. Two peas of a different pod.

. I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections. I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely.POWER Looking through rose-colored glasses. Co-existence is the only power You hold over me.

SING FOR YOU Why don’t I sing for you? A good question. Why don’t I feel comfortable. Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for. Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts. indeed. but the one I should let go. .

What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh.LOVE Love. I laugh along in my defense. Love. . Love. Just break your chains. Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love. how you love to tell your lovely lies. Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh. The jokes are all at my expense. Let loose your hold of me. And set me free.

Family meant we were whole. Surviving by itself. A time I surely miss.REMEMBERING LOVE Remember when Love was enough. . When unity was a goal. Even when times were tough? It got you through. With nothing else. A time of unrivaled bliss.

Still alone. You stare at the floor. days. And here we are In elder years. I hold my breath. You try to read my face. And we’ve both paid the cost. minutes. Just like the day before. I look elsewhere instead. Because we never speak. Turning into weeks. you grin. Our whole lives lost. Yet nothing was said. I smile. So much to say. So much to say. . The seconds.LOST LIVES Here we go again. hours. But nothing’s said. We drift together.

I think of you before I rest. Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said: I can’t live my life without Having you by my side. pink and red. . I try my best. My wife. You are the reason why I work so hard.MY WIFE You bought me flowers today: Roses. Although I seldom tell you so. How I cherish you. With you is where my heart lies.

Call her a bitch. Or use my fists. I disappear with every word you say. Curse her name. How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her. And you think they’re just words.KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS I lose a piece of me every day. . But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside.

He’d cherish the ground I walked on. . He’d love every part of me. He’d always take care of me. Live together happily. A perfect world For him and me. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often.THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME Oh. That man I made for me. I wouldn’t want for anything. No one else would matter. He’d cherish them because they were mine. And even love my kids. Put me before himself. He wouldn’t see anyone else. It wouldn’t matter if they were his.

LIFE .

Get me through to a new start. Whether I am right or wrong. And so. You guide. Let me laugh after I’ve cried. Bring me light after the dark. And so. Guiding me along the way. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day. And I’ll always put you first. I put you first. I have a faithful friend.I PUT YOU FIRST You’ve been there Since day one. I put you first. that’s the way it will be. I put your first. so I may rise. Lord. as I carry on. You let me fall. And so. In you. I lead My life in Your hands. Supporting me until the end. this is why I will believe With Your Word. You’re by my side. .

And I thought I knew it all. I don’t know nothing anymore. He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break.FAITH He came today and shook my soul. Mouths the words before I talk. He knows my mind. He is the Lord above. Says what I think before I do. He’s got my map. He has my unwavering faith. My whole world. . the path I walk. I think he’s psychic see. With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day. He knows the goings on inside of me. predicts my moves. he’s taken hold.

A cover will not work. If asked. You can’t contain What will remain. Sets me free. you know. Won’t stay inside. I would have told you so. A lie won’t hide. It’s impossible to hide a lie. No matter how hard you try. Rains down on me. It shines so bright. .LIES AND TRUTH The truth is the light.

REALIZATION The beauty of it all. Took years to find. Screaming to me in my own song. For the entire world to see. Flipping a script You no longer own. Can’t keep me down no more. The square peg now fits the hole. ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be. Has built a wall that can’t be broken. Realizing who I am. Was in a fog. So that confidence. The chains are gone. I got it now. I can’t lie low. Yes. . but now I see The truth I bought now sold. Who I am inside. Now I’m free. powering my soul.

So much to bear. A better place awaits me. And I cannot escape. breathlessly. too. Now is the end for me. All consuming. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today. . It’s all around. So I say my last goodbye. through the fog I can’t see. But. Like the way That evil does. The pain will end. Staining the air. Everywhere. I’ll be with you forever now. I try to fight.ENDING THE PAIN This world of pain. Stealing my light. Killing my mind And spirit. finally.

I’ll start my fight by changing me. Someone’s missing. I vow to do the best I can. .CHANGING ME I couldn’t watch the news today. Can’t let this dark swallow my light. So I block it and stay inside. Enough to drive the sane insane. I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. For fear of what it might say. Guess I’ll listen to radio instead. Everyone’s fighting or arguing. It calls to me and screams my name. Live by his word and let him see. Or found dead. same old thing. But radio’s no better. Start my task with one woman.

. The pain inside just wouldn’t die. I took the pain away with me.BREAKING FREE I try to cut the pain away. The pain still wouldn’t go away. I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay. I couldn’t cry. Now I’m gone. I pierce the layer that I see. But blood is not enough. Although it hurt. After all the blood had dried. The one underneath’s too tough. Cutting deeper still. Finally free. I had to go because it stayed. Now my pain has gone away. I’m the one it killed.

Here I stand forever. But through it all. Only the mixture that I needed. . Before you were inside. I feared it was not true.MY SON SHINES Long ago I dreamt of you. The love I thought I had to have. By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away. Although you were not yet mine. I held you tight and kissed your cheek. I stood tall. A battle I couldn’t lose. You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues. For the other half of you.

. Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me.KNOWING ME Do you really know who I am. Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know. me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me.

It moves my hips. Your song instead.DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT I feel the music From deep within. Dance with me tonight. It moves my feet. Made for sin. . My arms they sway That away. I feel the beat. Please play for me. The rhythm stirs Inside my head. Dance with me tonight. Dance with me tonight.

What younger ones can’t fare. Though your beauty will last always. They’ll wish we stopped you just in time.TOO SOON Gone too soon. Help them push the pain aside. It’s sad to know your time is done. But many will always care. We older folks can tolerate. So here is where they’ll stay. Sometimes too much to bare. To make sure you were still here. And let them know An early end’s no way to go. We didn’t have you long. Your will was not as strong. So hold them tight. . Pain can be an awful thing.

But you’re too quick. I hold my breath. Too many eyes Cover me. Hoping you’re asleep. I wait till day To go your way. You strike so fast. Why did I go? I should have paused. Await my move.THE BROWN WIDOW You wait for me In the dark. I approach. You lay still. . You’re poisonous. Hoping you snoozed. I knew you were there After all.

DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight. It will be just right. Live your best life now. . Take your time.THE TIME IS NOW Slow down.

. And then peaked out often. It differs from the rest. Where it shines the best. Our inner superstar Was always there inside. But often forget where it lies. After we have forgotten. Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. it lies inside. We get a glimpse. Residing where it’s meant to be. Specific to each owner. Remembering where it first shined.INNER SUPERSTAR We possess it early on. take a peak. Dormant. Years later we get another glimpse.

Life’s not all a mystery. Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. . Listen for what life has in store. Its view widens so we may see. While hiding in our youth. Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down. Be patient. Without listening to what it has to say. But we get in the way. We make a turn on our own. It shows its face in elder years. But then we find courage inside And turn it all around.LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL Life tries to take the wheel.

I’m so sorry I was wrong.TOO LATE You were mine On borrowed time. This I didn’t know. And you’re gone. I took for granted you’d be here. . At least. Now tomorrow’s here. Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so. until tomorrow.

.AHA MOMENT Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise. spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do.

I’m an aubergine. Like many colors of the rainbow. Growing daily like the evergreen. you know. When ready. a light yellow. Relaxed for when I sleep. A range of shades for everything. A softer shade. Black or white. They cover you And color me. A darker color when we fight. I shine brightly for all to see. I change from day-to-day.COLORS OF ME There are many Shades of me. A blue for when I’m feeling low. I can be any hue I want to be. . When wide awake. Neon bright.

The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow. breathing poetry . It sings to me from deep inside. Living. The sadness that you may see. Is all poetry to me. Thinking. I don’t know how Or even why. And it makes up The best of me.A POET’S SONG I live in verse. rhyming All the time. I think in rhyme.

Shine from underneath? Is it dim. . barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath.BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH Just how bright Is your light. The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow.

It offers me a place to stay. Encourages me With its warm smile. Then takes my coat. . And says Please come back any day. It invites me in. Inside that room lives poetry. And offers me its words to eat. It sets me free. Says take a seat. Then sings to me In special notes. It comforts me. It says to me. It embraces me.POETRY LIVES HERE A door has opened up for me. Says stay awhile. I am your friend. I open up.

The pleasures I possess. Knowing that your fears. or shock you. It’s because I am beauty. That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss. . Curve of my waist. offend. The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back. I am life. The comfort of my embrace. Shape of my thighs. And I know my worth. I can erase? If I frighten. I am woman.KNOWING MY WORTH Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice. The wisdom I possess. The knowledge I give.

you should abhor. We are the best of all beings.OF ALL BEINGS Fellow women of today. One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth. Rewarded with so many qualities. . Forgetting it. Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man.

Thinking of how it will be. My destination is on my mind. I smile and hold it inside. Held some hands along the way. Every road must come to an end. Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me. Did mostly as I pleased. Happiness and long-lost friends.THE LONG ROAD HOME I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead. . What a lovely ride. I can’t wait for mine. A sight I almost see.

It is today.” The willow weeps.” The tree breaths. Listen closely. . Sounds fully. Close your eyes.THE SOUND OF SIGNS I hear the birds chirping. As if saying to me. The signs are there For you to see. “Your time is here. As if to say. Giving the breeze What it needs. “The time has come For you to leave.

Or we all lose. I’ve grabbed my pen. This is not a test. What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot.A CALL TO ARMS *STOP* Turn off your television set. It’s not too late. . What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man.

Beside the bed. My home is where I leave my heart. Though we’re apart. Where happiness lives Indefinitely. My home may just be with you. . My home can be one place or a few.HOME My home is where I lay my head And pray at night. My home is where I chose to be. Where true love lives.

THE BETTER PRIZE The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade. The better prize. Should crown our lover’s throne. So easy to believe a lie. And miss out on the better prize. . Ignorant to what’s inside. We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone. Open your foolish eyes. And in our haste. We turn away. This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet. A trick used to confuse the mind. But what lies inside. Although it seems quite odd. It passes instantly.

Unfortunately. Try to balance both and remain whole. add some play. that’s the way life goes. I remember to relax today. I’ve seen this day before. But I know things will be fine. Save some work. My body’s weary. Time to sit and rest my mind. I’m tired already.RELAXING MY MIND Been a long day. too. And I know more will surely come. . Spirit.

It should be tired of me.TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME Trouble road begins at my door. Why won’t it set me free? . I’ve given up on happiness. Where all is calm. It must lie somewhere else. Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me. So I continue to Keep hope alive. I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been. Surrounded by my friends. And pray trouble runs out of time. And I know nothing else. Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free. and I stay safe.

And then thank God I learned to fly. You smile at me And hit the gas. You’re driving too fast. How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on. You’re speeding now. . Without your brakes. As I brace For the crash. No space for me. Away I go To a better place. Even the belt Won’t keep me safe. To ride with you. I close my eyes.THE GREATEST ESCAPE Slow down for me. Look to the sky. There is no room. Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape.

Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two. So much to lose.THE FALL Land mines. Can never take the leap. everything I’ve got. Worried about the fall. afterall. I wait until it’s dark. The snipers waiting for that clear shot. Covering your insides. Worried I’ll be found. . Afraid to make a sound. Premeditated steps I take with no regrets.

And we’re finally on track. Make your move. That moment is meant just for you To make your move. . Take a step and not look back. Do what you say. Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know. Scared to make a move. Don’t be afraid. Hope our move won’t make a mess. We wish for the best.MAKING MOVES Every now and then. We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go. You’re right where you need to be. Don’t be scared to let go. Then we realize The move was just right.

. Although my mouth is closed. My eyes are opened wide. It never waits. I’ve already won the race. It’s time to take my rightful place. Focused on today. The final bell has rung. And now half my life’s Just floated away. I never saw the signs.WINNING THE RACE I’ve wasted too much time. Light miles ahead. Or what they tried to say. Life just passes by. And now the time is here For me to finally shine.

. Even when I want to vent About nothing at all. It’s so innocent. And I need you there. The times we share. You call me. But we’re just friends. You know I’m really into it. You always take my call. I’m glad I have you in my life. Because when I need someone to vent to. A true friend.TRUE FRIENDS I call you. indeed. Taking it all in. You listen when I talk. I need you to show me Just how I should be.

KEEPING SECRETS Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing. We need to learn What to say. Often times Those little things Should remain a secret. And what things we should keep. . There are times When we may find Some things troubling.

WITHOUT DOUBTS
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.

ANGER
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.

MY MOVES
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.

Hold the door. Ready for me to begin. So much to do. So little time. Too much for me to hold inside. I’m coming in! . No more sitting still for me today.FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD Listen up! I got lots to say.

When you come for me. I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go. I’m looking forward to the trip ahead. This life has gotten really bad.WHEN YOU COME FOR ME When you come for me. I will be ready. I won’t be sad. In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again. . When you come for me. Waiting for you to take me to some other place. When you come for me. I’m tired today.

Giving in to your every want and need. Just how a smudge succeeds. Desire being my excuse. but don’t know what to say. Loving the way That I confuse.A MERE SMUDGE I’m a smudge on your window pane. . Can’t get rid of me. Guess I’m in too deep. You open up.

“Celebrate with me. A prisoner’s life is what I lead. But I’m the one that pays the toll. That I can’t survive on my own. Not knowing poison’s inside. You say. Locked away indefinitely. I try and try To live your life.A PRISONER’S LIFE I want to be free. Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape. .” I take a sip. You say it’ll never be. accept your smile. Drink my wine.

It hit me hard. . And I finally see. Decision time tonight. Either way. Make your move. Close your eyes. A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go. Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be. All at once.AT A CROSSROADS Here I am. I hear. it’ll be done. No one to help me with this one. And That’s just what I’ll do. I’ll guide you.

And I held on. I can’t always be afraid. Awkward distance. They didn’t live here.DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY Sad songs are all I heard. Happiness and joyful days. Mainly out of fear. Arguments. I’ve got to drive those blues away. So they don’t live here no more. . Too scared to move. From this life I need more. They silenced all the tears. Year after year.

HOW How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning? .

It. And pain’s waiting At another’s door. shall pass. too. shall pass. . Till only it survives. That bell it rings. It’s got places to go. But … It. Making you believe you died. Taking over everything. TOO. Consuming who it occupies. SHALL PASS Pain can’t last forever. Because nothing ever lasts Of pain.IT. too.

Every day is a fight for me. Fight to keep it all in order.HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE I try to hold my head above water. But the price I pay is worth being free. Holding onto my pride. Try not to let the weight get me down. I suit up for the war. For the misery in store. . Try to turn it all around. And I fight with my head high.

Mistakes that others seem to make. Believing those wicked smiles. .OUR DOWNFALL We are a sad society: So quick to judge. So afraid of being called out our name. It’s become customary To point out all the flaws. Although we are among friends. All the while hiding ours. Our downfall in the end. Skirt the blame. Such a wicked game to play. Point fingers. We don’t see What lies within.

.BEING FREE I won’t let you change who I am. Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be. The only way truly to be free.

It’s how I lived my life. Concentrating on what I’m meant to do. My world finally mine. My eyes are open now. What treasures lied within.MY WORLD Sometime ago I lost myself. Don’t know how long it’s been. . Remembering who I was. This thought had become commonplace. Picked up where I had left off. Now it’s time for me to grow. Forgot who I was inside. Time for me to shine. I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine. Just the way a record does.

Although it tries to hide. It’s there. Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine. I know. . See … I’m making it my goal.MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine.

Thought there was no escape. As the pieces began to mend. Hope not within my reach. My spirit nearly broken. . My mind said all was lost. So glad that I had faith. But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat. But I’m on the mend.NEARLY BROKEN Thought it was the end of me. Nearly broken. I begin again.

. That friend I’ve found is me. the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while. daughter. She’s happy.MY FRIEND Oh. Because she knows her worth. She loves me more than anything. A mother. She’s beautiful And full of life. She knows how much I meant to her. and a wife.

THE SMILE AND THE FROWN Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown. . Saying everything With just a smirk. The stories they tell Without saying a word. One right-side up. The other upside down.

Instead. Loosen your lover’s grip. The love I lost. I’ll forever mourn. Memories barely keep me warm.REMAINING LONELY Loneliness. I’d rather have my love with me. have mercy on me. . Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip. I remain lonely.

Close your eyes. Take a sigh. What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside? . Imagine your worst fear. Visualize it’s there In front of you.FEAR INSIDE I challenge you To sit in silence.

EMMA LEE
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.

FREEDOM
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.

TODAY
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.

I should say How I feel. My time no longer mine. So here I sit. But to you. Until you walk through my door. .WAITING All I do Is wait around for you. Waiting once more. feelings are no big deal. I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time.

you know. Because this I’m thankful for.SINGING TODAY FOR YOU Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time. So I sing today for you. .

Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out. I’m not listening anyway. I don’t care what you have to say. .NOT LISTENING Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago. Yet your mouth moves constantly. Though I don’t listen any more.

And what I’m meant to be. You watch and study me. . Taking in all you see. Loving everything I am. Looking through The window to my soul.WINDOW TO MY SOUL I see you Through the window to my soul. You know me Better Than I ever could know.

Thank you for letting me know.PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL You’re pretty for a black girl. . Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more. Am I supposed to smile. You’re pretty for a black girl. Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth. What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me? You’re pretty for a black girl. Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud? You’re pretty for a black girl.

Thought I should let you know. you are beautiful.FOR MY SISTERS My sister. Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen. Beauty lying inside and out. . Thought I should tell you so. you know.

. The time we have is now. To show each other why we’re here.THE TIME IS NOW The only time we have is now. To share all we’ve got. To feel how it should be. Even if we’ve forgotten. This place we’ve gotten to somehow. Seeing all we’re meant to see.

short stories. . Her first publication was a short story entitled.” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten.BIO Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school. She writes poetry. and songs. She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons. “The Amazing Mr. Glonka.

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