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ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition .Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved.
Make your mark. I love you. Mom . The world is yours. Devante. and Jaden.For my boys. Blake. Brandon.
CONTENTS Title Page Copyright Page LOVE Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone .
The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You .
LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me LIFE I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song .
Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How .
It. Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now . too.
You are my light Through the dark. I make your food. Giving you more than my last. All you have to do is ask. I live for you At your command. As you breathe. Be your lover and more. I do it all. For you. Handle with care. What lovers do. Clean the floors. My world expands. I leave my mark. I smile for you. Wash your clothes. Bake your bread.LOVING YOU As you awake. By loving you. .
Blacker than the darkest night. Only anger in this place. All thanks to you. heartless. My evil eyes are full of spite. The monster made.THANKS TO YOU Cold. All thanks to you. . Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth. Rotten to the very core. Bitter through and through.
I see your eyes start at my feet. And you haven’t said a word. Now face-to-face. My chest. And still not a word. . My hips move to your beat. Felling the heat between you and me. Licking your lips. I quench your thirst. Caress my cheek from where you stand. I kiss your lips. woman and man. I feel your hands all over me. Don’t have to say a word. Your gaze has only reached my thighs. I see the way you look at me. you lift your hand.WITHOUT WORDS I know you like what you see. it heaves to my surprise. You didn’t have to say a word.
Emptied my soul. And you never saw me. But you don’t see me. just wasted time. You’ve taken all I have to give. I gave my all for you to live. My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. Bare for all to see. The rest gone down the drain. The years I lost. . Still shaded by your tree. The foolishness I left behind. And now my shell is all I have. It’s over now. My end is here.WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME Here I stand out in front. Requesting more so you can live. I shed my skin.
SEASONS OF LOVE A light is shining bright. You are my spring. Existing even after the end. Please stay a while. The heat I crave to feel at night. No you and I. A love so grand. You are my winter. We bring forth our new ecstasy. A constant cold stuns my heart. living long it must. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh. All is still. . Our love is blossoming for all to see. We have grown together. In the end it was always us. built-in trust. We from the start. it’s just you and me. A smile that warms the coldest night. You are my fall. You are my summer.
I want to cry. I need to feel the pain inside of me. please. You must understand my need to be here. just let me be. Just let me be. I need the anger. So.BROKEN Please. oh please. I killed your love for me. . Don’t want you to dry my eyes. Don’t want happiness here again. Not bottle it up inside of me. my worst fear. The damage done won’t disappear. I’ve got to let the burn roam free. Just let this pain pierce my skin.
Our fingers intertwined. Wash your feet Late that night. You on my mind. That I’d never leave. . I would promise you. Make love to you without saying a word. Open my eyes. Forever stay. Feed you by hand. Me in your heart.MY LAST DAY I would wake up a little late. I would call in sick. Hold your hand. Sitting by your side. I’d say. No worry about what could be heard. Silently gazing In your eyes. It would always be this way. Enjoy the day. gazing upon your face. Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. I would make a meal For you and me. My love always.
That’s how I would spend My last day. .
I’ll show up. You spit my name With twisted face. I’ll show up. it will be us. just know I won’t be walking out the door. I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you. I’ll show up. The very last one to show up. You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. You curse and scream. I will show up. . And I will always show up. So when you’re mad as hell. You see I gave my word in front of God. if you yell.I WILL SHOW UP If I yell. Till this life ends. Face so mean. Through thick and thin when times are hard.
Yeah. Cover me with ecstasy. . And give me what I need. we don’t have to talk or say a word. Just take me on into the room. it’s what you heard. Lie down with me in this moment. So close your lips and take my hand. No. Not here to be your girl tonight. I’m telling you. Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do.WHAT I NEED No. Just here for me to feel alright. And give me what I need. I don’t want to be your girl. Don’t want to chill or hang with you. It’s not my place to be her for you. You can find someone else to fill those shoes.
After the end. I will remain. My glow shines through the darkness. Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me. I am the Milky Way. Cannot be dimmed. I color the winter’s night. .LOVE ALL OVER ME Smiling all twenty four. I am love. And I will forge ahead. Brighter than the night’s sky. Brightness everlasting.
Intoxicating. I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized.HYPNOTIZED Fine As the darkest wine. .
Love shouldn’t have to be this rough. I know my needs fall on deaf ears. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol. Not just the night-time one you sell.SETTING YOU FREE Here I wait Today for you. A dozen women for a dime. I fear. . Just like the day before. I’ll hold it down and set you free. as well. Don’t sell away your half from me. A part-time love is not enough. Can’t compete with street life. Why do I compete With the streets. God. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man.
At 11:30. But it’s 1. hell begins. Say forgive me this time. Swinging and swaying to your moods. Pray to God that I don’t cry. Although the truth lies elsewhere. I hold on tight for the ride. You say you’re sorry all the time. . I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry. and I love you more than anything. I’m coming back. time for hell again. Time to put me back on track. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry. Nice at 8. nasty at 10. Maybe this time is the last time.HELL AND BACK I go through hell to be with you. At 10:30. And try to make it back from hell again.
I wonder if you’re like me. too? I’ve been waiting oh so long. .SEARCHING Where are you? Are you searching for me. Even met some dogs. Kissed so many frogs. If the perfect one waits somewhere for you. And also trying to find me. I pray that you’re still looking. Not giving up. too. still searching. But my conviction still remains strong. Out there trying to see.
Can pick you up and be complete. It takes you up. It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect. then drops you down. So hold on tight. Pretends to stay. And just await your love’s surprise. But love can also be so sweet. . It smiles at you and then frowns. And surprises you with no regrets. Refuses to be confined. It flows outside the lines. Sometimes love takes broader shape. Enjoy the ride. Love pulls you in.LOVE’S SURPRISE Sometimes love throws you a curve. It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything. and Evaporates to your dismay.
by my side. Tell me it’s all mine. Standing tall. And I rule the roost. So glad to have you In my life. . You show me how Real love should be with you. It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined. Just what I’m meant to do. Give me the world. The queen I’m meant to be.WE LIFT EACH OTHER You lift me up For the world to see. I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time. I tell you you’re The best at what you do.
THE WARNING It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you. You had a plan all the while. Curse my name. You pile it on Because I can take it. But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy. Because your plan is number one. And then not care Who you hurt. And try to break me. All others be damned. Pretend to care. You’re having fun. Say some words. . Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile.
The joy and laughter every night. I’d miss everything. “Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared. The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared.MISSING YOU “What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say. I’d say to you. About you.” . The happiness I felt inside. “My darling.
That fragrence I know so well. You follow me Through the day. So distinct. An aroma only you possess. You line the pleats of my skirt. It’s not cologne or soap. That essence that I smell. And you wear it well. . Whether at work or at play. Whether night or day.YOU WEAR IT WELL I wear you on my sleeve. Separating you from the rest. Not Ivory or Irish Spring. Take you when I leave. your scent. you know. I inhale you on my shirt. You’re with me On my way.
.NOT ALONE The games we play. And then we pray. We hurt. We laugh. Realizing It won’t work apart. Alone is not what we do. Can’t make it on our own. The shit we say. Like children Not yet grown. Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through.
And I know I make up the best of you. You don’t need to say it. Order lives where chaos dwelled. This much I truly know. Because you are the best of me. . Your life tells me so. The light replaced the dark. A prize for all to see. I brought a new place for you. A freshness for our start. With me.THE BEST OF ME I make up the best of you. I’m proud to see what you’ve become.
But that kink. The chain contains a kink.TRUST It’s like a broken fence: When mended. Hoping things are as good as new. You try to move along. Looking okay. Thinking that you’re done. Although repaired. you still see that link. Will forever change the way I now look at you. . you see.
With eyes of auburn. Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love. For the chocolate and the caramel. I fear you love yourself More than you love me. Skin of chocolate. You don’t even see.SHADES OF ME How can you not love me. .
LOVE’S ESCAPE I know where your happiness lies. I take you to another place. And I wait With your love’s escape. Powder-white sand. A world where only you escape: A world of beaches. It’s embedded between my thighs. . I’m ready now. A world that rivals Disneyland.
Though simple it may be. To live in hell Or go be free.THE CHOICE The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. A place Finally to be me. A simple choice It may seem. Is not simple In my eyes. Not so simple to me. .
. Face twisted mean. Don’t forget yesterday. Although you’re okay today. an enemy. Yesterday. Did you forget yesterday? The screaming and the yelling. I truly thought you understood. No matter what a friend may say.DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY Every time it’s going good. So it may seem. Did you forget yesterday? A friend today. That voice appears and says.
Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I. Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve. to be with you? I can’t say no. You can’t say yes. Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess. . Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me.WHAT WE DESERVE Do you deserve All that I do.
dry your eyes. So. Truth is you’re not the one for me. Another smiling face. Life alone brings doubts and fears. It may just be Around the corner. You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. No time to cry. I fear. Because I see the truth.THE TRUTH I’m sad today. . We tried to make it work. But. I know it’s not what you want to hear. And I’m not the one for you. But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you. Fully awake. it’s not meant to be. Your true love awaits.
Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem. . I’d always be right. We’d never fight. Your love to give For me always. In a perfect world. In a perfect world. And I can only dream. today it’s not that way. I’d be all you see. And sit by my side. There would be no other for you. You’d only have eyes for me. You’d hold me tight. You’d forever stay. You’d agree with me.A PERFECT WORLD In a perfect world. In a perfect world. Sadly. It’d be you and I.
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.
FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.
It is so easy for me to smile. We lie in wait. We plot our moves From the go. Believed that when you closed the door. It was fine to say goodbye. Women are cunning creatures you know. For the right time. The perfect moment to strike. You should have never estimated The power of my mind. . Pretend I’m okay inside.LYING IN WAIT I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies.
I can’t forget what we had. . Hoping it’s not too late. Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day. Now I sit and wait for you. Where I said I’d be.MOVING ON I wait for you in the lot. Because it’s all I know. When you would let me go. Thought the day would never come. That’s too damn bad. Because you set me free. It hurts to be in this spot. You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had. But I fear your mind’s made up.
You look into my eyes.NOT YOUR FORTE I tell you I need more. And sleep. Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte. . I ask you all the time To treat me like I need. Give me no reply. But I don’t think It will ever be. It’s not enough for me.
What I see Is not really you. so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show. Alone with the truth after the fall.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. But … I wanted you. . And now I sit. Although I know the truth. For the real you can never love me. How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all.
Miss what we had. You’re gonna miss me so damn bad. The way I kissed you late at night. Yeah. But time will tell. So you can finally see. you think you know it all. Go ahead. Think it’s all a big game. Make your move.A LOVE LIKE MINE You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone. . And please. I really hope you find her soon. That there are many more like me. You say you don’t care. hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same.
Your love will kill My spirit.TERMINAL LOVE Your love will be The end of me. If I let it be. If I let it inside. Your love will make Me lose my mind. Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me. If that’s what I let it do. too. .
It’s great to be by your side. To live this life with you. Ignoring all the rest. I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do. You tell me that I’m beautiful. You’re blind to all that temptation outside. And that I deserve the best. . They don’t have to cost a thing.THE LITTLE THINGS It’s the little things I appreciate. Holding my hand. Showing me the man That you’re proud to be.
And it’s your fault. Because you need to be first. Because all you thought about was you. My anger knows It’s my fault. I’m the one who made you into you. . And it’s my fault. My spirit grows. My spirit knows It’s your fault.LOVING ME My anger grows. You discourage me. Don’t want to hear my words. I finally love me more that you do. You don’t encourage me. I let you do what you want to.
. I still believe in love. Because someday love will set me free. Though it doesn’t live here no more. I’m a fan of love. Because it waits somewhere for me. I still believe in love. I will wait for love. Although it’s not yet mine. But it won’t knock at my door. Although it doesn’t live here. I lay out the welcome mat for love.A FAN OF LOVE I am a fan of love. I will wait for love. I’d sit in the stands and cheer. Because I see it all the time. I lay out the welcome mat for love.
If only in our eyes. But you won’t show your face. . You and I are not the same. But we’re not meant to be. A visitor from another place. Tell me why you’re in my space. Your world is nothing like The one I’m from. You try to live in my realty. I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come. Yet you came. Maybe that cloth Really is the same. When I don’t even know your name.A DIFFERENT CLOTH Cut from a different cloth. and you try To become you and I.
To do what I have to do. Though the shitty lies you grab. I don’t know why I ask for truth.PROMISES Promises you fail to keep Are all I have. Honesty is within your reach. It’s nowhere inside of you. So glad to have this new breakthrough. .
There’s no you and me in us for you. It’s your way or the door. I try and try to be What you want from me. I’m like a moth to your flame. But I’m tired of playing Your sick.NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE You can’t see me Past your superiority. . twisted game. I’m sick to hell of being under your spell. Not taking your shit any more.
Can’t let me be in front.WINNING THE RACE I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight. now by my side. Two peas of a different pod. Trying to keep up. First place is a space we both want. . Because you have to be first. We’ll never be face-to-face. Because we both want to win the race. You sprint along. Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath.
POWER Looking through rose-colored glasses. I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections. I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely. . Co-existence is the only power You hold over me.
indeed. Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for. but the one I should let go. Why don’t I feel comfortable.SING FOR YOU Why don’t I sing for you? A good question. Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts. .
. Love. Let loose your hold of me. Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh. And set me free. I laugh along in my defense. Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love. The jokes are all at my expense. Love. how you love to tell your lovely lies. Just break your chains. What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh.LOVE Love.
A time of unrivaled bliss. Surviving by itself. With nothing else.REMEMBERING LOVE Remember when Love was enough. A time I surely miss. Family meant we were whole. . Even when times were tough? It got you through. When unity was a goal.
And we’ve both paid the cost. I look elsewhere instead. you grin. Still alone. . I hold my breath. But nothing’s said. Turning into weeks. Just like the day before. Because we never speak. So much to say. So much to say.LOST LIVES Here we go again. We drift together. Yet nothing was said. And here we are In elder years. You stare at the floor. days. I smile. minutes. You try to read my face. Our whole lives lost. hours. The seconds.
. Although I seldom tell you so. I try my best. Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said: I can’t live my life without Having you by my side. I think of you before I rest. pink and red. How I cherish you. You are the reason why I work so hard.MY WIFE You bought me flowers today: Roses. My wife. With you is where my heart lies.
And you think they’re just words. Call her a bitch. .KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS I lose a piece of me every day. Curse her name. I disappear with every word you say. But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside. How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her. Or use my fists.
That man I made for me. He’d cherish them because they were mine. It wouldn’t matter if they were his. He wouldn’t see anyone else. He’d love every part of me. And even love my kids. Live together happily. I wouldn’t want for anything. A perfect world For him and me. .THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME Oh. He’d cherish the ground I walked on. He’d always take care of me. No one else would matter. Put me before himself. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often.
I PUT YOU FIRST You’ve been there Since day one. so I may rise. Lord. I lead My life in Your hands. I put your first. I put you first. Get me through to a new start. as I carry on. Supporting me until the end. . Guiding me along the way. And so. Let me laugh after I’ve cried. And so. I have a faithful friend. this is why I will believe With Your Word. And so. Whether I am right or wrong. You guide. I put you first. Bring me light after the dark. In you. And I’ll always put you first. You let me fall. You’re by my side. that’s the way it will be. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day.
Mouths the words before I talk. I don’t know nothing anymore. Says what I think before I do.FAITH He came today and shook my soul. he’s taken hold. He knows the goings on inside of me. My whole world. He’s got my map. predicts my moves. And I thought I knew it all. the path I walk. He has my unwavering faith. He is the Lord above. With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day. He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break. I think he’s psychic see. He knows my mind. .
If asked. A lie won’t hide. It shines so bright. you know.LIES AND TRUTH The truth is the light. . Sets me free. A cover will not work. You can’t contain What will remain. Won’t stay inside. I would have told you so. It’s impossible to hide a lie. No matter how hard you try. Rains down on me.
REALIZATION The beauty of it all. I got it now. Took years to find. but now I see The truth I bought now sold. Was in a fog. Who I am inside. For the entire world to see. The chains are gone. I can’t lie low. Can’t keep me down no more. Realizing who I am. Flipping a script You no longer own. ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be. Yes. Now I’m free. . Screaming to me in my own song. powering my soul. So that confidence. The square peg now fits the hole. Has built a wall that can’t be broken.
A better place awaits me. breathlessly. So much to bear. Now is the end for me. It’s all around. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today. too. So I say my last goodbye. Everywhere. But. All consuming. And I cannot escape. Killing my mind And spirit. Staining the air.ENDING THE PAIN This world of pain. . I try to fight. I’ll be with you forever now. Like the way That evil does. The pain will end. Stealing my light. through the fog I can’t see. finally.
. I’ll start my fight by changing me. It calls to me and screams my name. Live by his word and let him see. Or found dead. Guess I’ll listen to radio instead. same old thing. Can’t let this dark swallow my light. Start my task with one woman.CHANGING ME I couldn’t watch the news today. Someone’s missing. Everyone’s fighting or arguing. Enough to drive the sane insane. So I block it and stay inside. I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. For fear of what it might say. I vow to do the best I can. But radio’s no better.
I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay. The pain inside just wouldn’t die. I’m the one it killed. I pierce the layer that I see. I took the pain away with me. Although it hurt. Now my pain has gone away.BREAKING FREE I try to cut the pain away. But blood is not enough. I had to go because it stayed. I couldn’t cry. The pain still wouldn’t go away. Finally free. The one underneath’s too tough. Now I’m gone. Cutting deeper still. . After all the blood had dried.
You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues. For the other half of you. Although you were not yet mine. Only the mixture that I needed. Before you were inside. The love I thought I had to have. But through it all. I held you tight and kissed your cheek. Here I stand forever.MY SON SHINES Long ago I dreamt of you. A battle I couldn’t lose. . By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away. I feared it was not true. I stood tall.
. Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me. Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know.KNOWING ME Do you really know who I am. me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me.
DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT I feel the music From deep within. It moves my hips. Dance with me tonight. My arms they sway That away. Your song instead. Please play for me. Dance with me tonight. The rhythm stirs Inside my head. Dance with me tonight. I feel the beat. . Made for sin. It moves my feet.
We didn’t have you long. But many will always care. . Pain can be an awful thing. So here is where they’ll stay.TOO SOON Gone too soon. Sometimes too much to bare. We older folks can tolerate. It’s sad to know your time is done. Your will was not as strong. What younger ones can’t fare. They’ll wish we stopped you just in time. Help them push the pain aside. So hold them tight. To make sure you were still here. Though your beauty will last always. And let them know An early end’s no way to go.
But you’re too quick. I approach. Hoping you’re asleep. You strike so fast. Why did I go? I should have paused. Await my move. You’re poisonous. I knew you were there After all. Hoping you snoozed. Too many eyes Cover me. . I wait till day To go your way. You lay still. I hold my breath.THE BROWN WIDOW You wait for me In the dark.
It will be just right. DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight. Live your best life now. Take your time.THE TIME IS NOW Slow down. .
Where it shines the best. It differs from the rest. Residing where it’s meant to be. it lies inside. Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. Remembering where it first shined. We get a glimpse. But often forget where it lies. Dormant. . Specific to each owner. After we have forgotten.INNER SUPERSTAR We possess it early on. Our inner superstar Was always there inside. Years later we get another glimpse. And then peaked out often. take a peak.
But then we find courage inside And turn it all around. But we get in the way. Listen for what life has in store. Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. . We make a turn on our own.LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL Life tries to take the wheel. Without listening to what it has to say. Life’s not all a mystery. It shows its face in elder years. Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down. Be patient. Its view widens so we may see. While hiding in our youth.
This I didn’t know. I’m so sorry I was wrong.TOO LATE You were mine On borrowed time. Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so. I took for granted you’d be here. And you’re gone. At least. until tomorrow. Now tomorrow’s here. .
AHA MOMENT Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise. . spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do.
A range of shades for everything. you know. I change from day-to-day. A blue for when I’m feeling low. When ready. I’m an aubergine. I can be any hue I want to be.COLORS OF ME There are many Shades of me. When wide awake. Black or white. Neon bright. Growing daily like the evergreen. Like many colors of the rainbow. A darker color when we fight. . a light yellow. Relaxed for when I sleep. A softer shade. They cover you And color me. I shine brightly for all to see.
I think in rhyme. Thinking. The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow. rhyming All the time. I don’t know how Or even why. It sings to me from deep inside. Living. The sadness that you may see. Is all poetry to me.A POET’S SONG I live in verse. breathing poetry . And it makes up The best of me.
. Shine from underneath? Is it dim.BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH Just how bright Is your light. The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow. barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath.
Inside that room lives poetry. It invites me in. Says take a seat. Then takes my coat.POETRY LIVES HERE A door has opened up for me. Encourages me With its warm smile. And says Please come back any day. It comforts me. It embraces me. It says to me. . Then sings to me In special notes. It sets me free. I am your friend. And offers me its words to eat. Says stay awhile. It offers me a place to stay. I open up.
The pleasures I possess. or shock you.KNOWING MY WORTH Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice. The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back. Curve of my waist. That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss. And I know my worth. Shape of my thighs. The knowledge I give. I am woman. offend. I am life. The comfort of my embrace. I can erase? If I frighten. It’s because I am beauty. The wisdom I possess. . Knowing that your fears.
Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man.OF ALL BEINGS Fellow women of today. you should abhor. Forgetting it. Rewarded with so many qualities. One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth. We are the best of all beings. .
My destination is on my mind. I smile and hold it inside. Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me. Held some hands along the way. Every road must come to an end. Did mostly as I pleased. A sight I almost see. .THE LONG ROAD HOME I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead. Happiness and long-lost friends. What a lovely ride. I can’t wait for mine. Thinking of how it will be.
“The time has come For you to leave. Giving the breeze What it needs. Listen closely. As if saying to me. .THE SOUND OF SIGNS I hear the birds chirping. “Your time is here. Close your eyes.” The willow weeps. Sounds fully. The signs are there For you to see. It is today. As if to say.” The tree breaths.
What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man. I’ve grabbed my pen. What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot.A CALL TO ARMS *STOP* Turn off your television set. This is not a test. It’s not too late. . Or we all lose.
.HOME My home is where I lay my head And pray at night. Where happiness lives Indefinitely. Beside the bed. My home may just be with you. My home is where I leave my heart. My home can be one place or a few. Though we’re apart. My home is where I chose to be. Where true love lives.
Open your foolish eyes. Ignorant to what’s inside. It passes instantly. Although it seems quite odd. This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet. Should crown our lover’s throne. We turn away. . And miss out on the better prize. We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone. And in our haste. A trick used to confuse the mind. But what lies inside. The better prize. So easy to believe a lie.THE BETTER PRIZE The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade.
I’ve seen this day before. that’s the way life goes. And I know more will surely come. Time to sit and rest my mind. I remember to relax today. . But I know things will be fine.RELAXING MY MIND Been a long day. My body’s weary. Spirit. add some play. I’m tired already. Save some work. too. Try to balance both and remain whole. Unfortunately.
I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been. And I know nothing else. It must lie somewhere else. Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free. So I continue to Keep hope alive. It should be tired of me.TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME Trouble road begins at my door. Surrounded by my friends. Why won’t it set me free? . And pray trouble runs out of time. I’ve given up on happiness. Where all is calm. and I stay safe. Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me.
You’re speeding now. You smile at me And hit the gas. As I brace For the crash. . Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape. And then thank God I learned to fly. I close my eyes. No space for me. How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on. Without your brakes. There is no room. Away I go To a better place.THE GREATEST ESCAPE Slow down for me. Even the belt Won’t keep me safe. To ride with you. Look to the sky. You’re driving too fast.
So much to lose. Worried I’ll be found.THE FALL Land mines. Worried about the fall. Afraid to make a sound. The snipers waiting for that clear shot. everything I’ve got. . Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two. Covering your insides. Can never take the leap. afterall. Premeditated steps I take with no regrets. I wait until it’s dark.
Don’t be scared to let go. You’re right where you need to be. Scared to make a move. Don’t be afraid. Take a step and not look back. Do what you say. And we’re finally on track. Hope our move won’t make a mess. Make your move. We wish for the best. Then we realize The move was just right. That moment is meant just for you To make your move. Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know. .MAKING MOVES Every now and then. We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go.
. Although my mouth is closed. Or what they tried to say. And now half my life’s Just floated away.WINNING THE RACE I’ve wasted too much time. Life just passes by. My eyes are opened wide. And now the time is here For me to finally shine. It’s time to take my rightful place. It never waits. Light miles ahead. The final bell has rung. I’ve already won the race. I never saw the signs. Focused on today.
You listen when I talk. indeed. You know I’m really into it. But we’re just friends. The times we share. Because when I need someone to vent to. I need you to show me Just how I should be.TRUE FRIENDS I call you. You call me. Taking it all in. It’s so innocent. You always take my call. And I need you there. . Even when I want to vent About nothing at all. A true friend. I’m glad I have you in my life.
Often times Those little things Should remain a secret. We need to learn What to say. There are times When we may find Some things troubling. And what things we should keep. .KEEPING SECRETS Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing.
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.
Ready for me to begin. I’m coming in! . Too much for me to hold inside. Hold the door. So much to do. So little time.FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD Listen up! I got lots to say. No more sitting still for me today.
WHEN YOU COME FOR ME When you come for me. When you come for me. When you come for me. I will be ready. I’m tired today. I’m looking forward to the trip ahead. I won’t be sad. When you come for me. This life has gotten really bad. Waiting for you to take me to some other place. In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again. I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go. .
Just how a smudge succeeds. Guess I’m in too deep. Desire being my excuse. You open up. Can’t get rid of me. Giving in to your every want and need.A MERE SMUDGE I’m a smudge on your window pane. . but don’t know what to say. Loving the way That I confuse.
. You say. I try and try To live your life. accept your smile. You say it’ll never be. But I’m the one that pays the toll. Drink my wine. “Celebrate with me. Locked away indefinitely.” I take a sip. That I can’t survive on my own.A PRISONER’S LIFE I want to be free. Not knowing poison’s inside. Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape. A prisoner’s life is what I lead.
And That’s just what I’ll do. Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be. No one to help me with this one. All at once. I hear. Make your move. . It hit me hard. it’ll be done.AT A CROSSROADS Here I am. Close your eyes. I’ll guide you. And I finally see. Decision time tonight. Either way. A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go.
DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY Sad songs are all I heard. Year after year. Mainly out of fear. Too scared to move. Awkward distance. They didn’t live here. From this life I need more. So they don’t live here no more. . Arguments. And I held on. I can’t always be afraid. Happiness and joyful days. I’ve got to drive those blues away. They silenced all the tears.
HOW How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning? .
too. And pain’s waiting At another’s door. But … It. Consuming who it occupies. TOO. Taking over everything. Till only it survives. Because nothing ever lasts Of pain. SHALL PASS Pain can’t last forever. That bell it rings. shall pass.IT. . It. It’s got places to go. too. shall pass. Making you believe you died.
. Every day is a fight for me. But the price I pay is worth being free. For the misery in store. Holding onto my pride. Fight to keep it all in order.HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE I try to hold my head above water. I suit up for the war. Try not to let the weight get me down. And I fight with my head high. Try to turn it all around.
Although we are among friends. Skirt the blame. Our downfall in the end. It’s become customary To point out all the flaws.OUR DOWNFALL We are a sad society: So quick to judge. Believing those wicked smiles. We don’t see What lies within. All the while hiding ours. . Point fingers. So afraid of being called out our name. Such a wicked game to play. Mistakes that others seem to make.
The only way truly to be free. Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be. .BEING FREE I won’t let you change who I am.
Now it’s time for me to grow. . Concentrating on what I’m meant to do.MY WORLD Sometime ago I lost myself. My world finally mine. Time for me to shine. Don’t know how long it’s been. It’s how I lived my life. Remembering who I was. Forgot who I was inside. My eyes are open now. Just the way a record does. Picked up where I had left off. I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine. What treasures lied within. This thought had become commonplace.
I know. Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine.MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine. . It’s there. See … I’m making it my goal. Although it tries to hide.
So glad that I had faith.NEARLY BROKEN Thought it was the end of me. I begin again. Thought there was no escape. My mind said all was lost. As the pieces began to mend. But I’m on the mend. But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat. . Hope not within my reach. My spirit nearly broken. Nearly broken.
A mother. She’s beautiful And full of life. She knows how much I meant to her. and a wife. . Because she knows her worth. She loves me more than anything. She’s happy.MY FRIEND Oh. daughter. That friend I’ve found is me. the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while.
The stories they tell Without saying a word.THE SMILE AND THE FROWN Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown. Saying everything With just a smirk. The other upside down. . One right-side up.
I’ll forever mourn. I remain lonely. Instead. Memories barely keep me warm.REMAINING LONELY Loneliness. I’d rather have my love with me. have mercy on me. The love I lost. . Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip. Loosen your lover’s grip.
Close your eyes. What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside? . Take a sigh. Imagine your worst fear.FEAR INSIDE I challenge you To sit in silence. Visualize it’s there In front of you.
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.
Until you walk through my door. I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time. . feelings are no big deal. My time no longer mine. But to you. So here I sit. Waiting once more.WAITING All I do Is wait around for you. I should say How I feel.
So I sing today for you. you know. . Because this I’m thankful for.SINGING TODAY FOR YOU Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time.
Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out. I don’t care what you have to say. I’m not listening anyway. . Yet your mouth moves constantly. Though I don’t listen any more.NOT LISTENING Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago.
Looking through The window to my soul. Loving everything I am. You watch and study me. And what I’m meant to be. You know me Better Than I ever could know. Taking in all you see. .WINDOW TO MY SOUL I see you Through the window to my soul.
PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL You’re pretty for a black girl. You’re pretty for a black girl. What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me? You’re pretty for a black girl. Thank you for letting me know. Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more. Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud? You’re pretty for a black girl. Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth. Am I supposed to smile. .
Thought I should let you know. you are beautiful. Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen.FOR MY SISTERS My sister. Beauty lying inside and out. you know. . Thought I should tell you so.
Even if we’ve forgotten. The time we have is now. To share all we’ve got. To show each other why we’re here. This place we’ve gotten to somehow.THE TIME IS NOW The only time we have is now. To feel how it should be. . Seeing all we’re meant to see.
” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten. She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons. and songs. She writes poetry. Her first publication was a short story entitled. short stories. Glonka. .BIO Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school. “The Amazing Mr.