ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition
.Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved.
. Blake. I love you.For my boys. The world is yours. and Jaden. Brandon. Make your mark.
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Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone
The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You
LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me
I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song
Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How
It. Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now
Giving you more than my last. Be your lover and more. My world expands.LOVING YOU
As you awake. All you have to do is ask.
. I live for you At your command. By loving you. Handle with care. Bake your bread. Clean the floors. I make your food. I leave my mark. For you. I do it all. You are my light Through the dark. I smile for you. As you breathe. What lovers do. Wash your clothes.
THANKS TO YOU
Cold. Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth. Only anger in this place. My evil eyes are full of spite. Blacker than the darkest night. Rotten to the very core. All thanks to you. heartless. Bitter through and through.
. All thanks to you. The monster made.
Don’t have to say a word. I feel your hands all over me. woman and man. I see your eyes start at my feet. Felling the heat between you and me.
. I quench your thirst. Now face-to-face. And you haven’t said a word. it heaves to my surprise. Licking your lips. My hips move to your beat. Caress my cheek from where you stand. I kiss your lips. you lift your hand. My chest. Your gaze has only reached my thighs. And still not a word. You didn’t have to say a word. I see the way you look at me.WITHOUT WORDS
I know you like what you see.
My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. Bare for all to see. You’ve taken all I have to give.
. The rest gone down the drain.WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME
Here I stand out in front. The foolishness I left behind. And now my shell is all I have. But you don’t see me. I gave my all for you to live. The years I lost. My end is here. I shed my skin. It’s over now. just wasted time. Emptied my soul. Requesting more so you can live. Still shaded by your tree. And you never saw me.
You are my winter. We bring forth our new ecstasy. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh. A love so grand.SEASONS OF LOVE
A light is shining bright. You are my fall.
. Please stay a while. All is still. We from the start. A constant cold stuns my heart. built-in trust. We have grown together. You are my spring. The heat I crave to feel at night. it’s just you and me. living long it must. A smile that warms the coldest night. Our love is blossoming for all to see. You are my summer. No you and I. In the end it was always us. Existing even after the end.
I need to feel the pain inside of me. Just let this pain pierce my skin. So. please.BROKEN
Please. Don’t want you to dry my eyes. I’ve got to let the burn roam free.
. oh please. Don’t want happiness here again. You must understand my need to be here. just let me be. I want to cry. I killed your love for me. I need the anger. my worst fear. Not bottle it up inside of me. The damage done won’t disappear. Just let me be.
. Forever stay. Enjoy the day.MY LAST DAY
I would wake up a little late. Open my eyes. No worry about what could be heard. My love always. gazing upon your face. Silently gazing In your eyes. I would promise you. I’d say. It would always be this way. You on my mind. Make love to you without saying a word. Our fingers intertwined. Sitting by your side. Wash your feet Late that night. That I’d never leave. I would make a meal For you and me. Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. Me in your heart. I would call in sick. Feed you by hand. Hold your hand.
That’s how I would spend My last day.
You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. it will be us. I’ll show up.
.I WILL SHOW UP
If I yell. The very last one to show up. I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you. Face so mean. You spit my name With twisted face. And I will always show up. You see I gave my word in front of God. Till this life ends. just know I won’t be walking out the door. Through thick and thin when times are hard. I’ll show up. I will show up. So when you’re mad as hell. You curse and scream. I’ll show up. if you yell.
Don’t want to chill or hang with you. Not here to be your girl tonight. So close your lips and take my hand.
. it’s what you heard. Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do. It’s not my place to be her for you.WHAT I NEED
No. Lie down with me in this moment. And give me what I need. I’m telling you. Yeah. we don’t have to talk or say a word. No. Cover me with ecstasy. I don’t want to be your girl. Just here for me to feel alright. You can find someone else to fill those shoes. And give me what I need. Just take me on into the room.
I color the winter’s night.LOVE ALL OVER ME
Smiling all twenty four. My glow shines through the darkness. I am the Milky Way. Cannot be dimmed.
. I am love. Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me. Brightness everlasting. I will remain. And I will forge ahead. After the end. Brighter than the night’s sky.
Fine As the darkest wine.
. I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized. Intoxicating.
Why do I compete With the streets.
. Not just the night-time one you sell. A part-time love is not enough. God. Just like the day before. I know my needs fall on deaf ears. as well. I fear. Can’t compete with street life. I’ll hold it down and set you free. Love shouldn’t have to be this rough. A dozen women for a dime.SETTING YOU FREE
Here I wait Today for you. Don’t sell away your half from me. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol.
hell begins. At 11:30. I hold on tight for the ride. You say you’re sorry all the time. nasty at 10. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry. Swinging and swaying to your moods. At 10:30. I’m coming back. time for hell again.
. Although the truth lies elsewhere. Pray to God that I don’t cry.HELL AND BACK
I go through hell to be with you. And try to make it back from hell again. Time to put me back on track. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry. and I love you more than anything. Nice at 8. Say forgive me this time. But it’s 1. Maybe this time is the last time.
Kissed so many frogs. If the perfect one waits somewhere for you. Even met some dogs. I pray that you’re still looking. too.SEARCHING
Where are you? Are you searching for me. I wonder if you’re like me. too? I’ve been waiting oh so long.
. Out there trying to see. But my conviction still remains strong. And also trying to find me. still searching. Not giving up.
And just await your love’s surprise. But love can also be so sweet. Can pick you up and be complete. Love pulls you in. and Evaporates to your dismay. It flows outside the lines. It takes you up. It smiles at you and then frowns.
. Enjoy the ride. Sometimes love takes broader shape. Refuses to be confined. And surprises you with no regrets. It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect. So hold on tight. then drops you down. Pretends to stay.LOVE’S SURPRISE
Sometimes love throws you a curve. It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything.
Tell me it’s all mine. Standing tall.
.WE LIFT EACH OTHER
You lift me up For the world to see. I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time. Just what I’m meant to do. The queen I’m meant to be. Give me the world. So glad to have you In my life. Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do. by my side. I tell you you’re The best at what you do. And I rule the roost. You show me how Real love should be with you. It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined.
All others be damned. Pretend to care. Curse my name. Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile. And then not care Who you hurt. You had a plan all the while.
. Because your plan is number one. But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy. Say some words. You pile it on Because I can take it. You’re having fun.THE WARNING
It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you. And try to break me.
“Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared.”
. The joy and laughter every night. About you. The happiness I felt inside. “My darling. I’d miss everything.MISSING YOU
“What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say. I’d say to you. The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared.
you know. And you wear it well. You follow me Through the day. Whether at work or at play. An aroma only you possess.YOU WEAR IT WELL
I wear you on my sleeve. You’re with me On my way. Separating you from the rest. Not Ivory or Irish Spring. You line the pleats of my skirt. So distinct. It’s not cologne or soap. I inhale you on my shirt. Whether night or day. That fragrence I know so well. That essence that I smell. Take you when I leave.
. your scent.
We laugh. The shit we say. Like children Not yet grown.NOT ALONE
The games we play. We hurt. Realizing It won’t work apart.
. Alone is not what we do. And then we pray. Can’t make it on our own. Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through.
And I know I make up the best of you. You don’t need to say it. I brought a new place for you. I’m proud to see what you’ve become. A freshness for our start. A prize for all to see. Because you are the best of me. Order lives where chaos dwelled. With me. The light replaced the dark.THE BEST OF ME
I make up the best of you.
. Your life tells me so. This much I truly know.
you still see that link. you see. The chain contains a kink. Will forever change the way I now look at you.
. Although repaired. But that kink.TRUST
It’s like a broken fence: When mended. Hoping things are as good as new. You try to move along. Thinking that you’re done. Looking okay.
SHADES OF ME
How can you not love me. For the chocolate and the caramel. Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love. With eyes of auburn. Skin of chocolate.
. I fear you love yourself More than you love me. You don’t even see.
I’m ready now.LOVE’S ESCAPE
I know where your happiness lies. A world where only you escape: A world of beaches.
. Powder-white sand. A world that rivals Disneyland. I take you to another place. And I wait With your love’s escape. It’s embedded between my thighs.
To live in hell Or go be free. Not so simple to me. Is not simple In my eyes. A place Finally to be me.
. A simple choice It may seem.THE CHOICE
The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. Though simple it may be.
DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY
Every time it’s going good.
I truly thought you understood. So it may seem. an enemy. That voice appears and says. Face twisted mean. Did you forget yesterday?
The screaming and the yelling. Yesterday.
Don’t forget yesterday. Although you’re okay today. No matter what a friend may say.
Did you forget yesterday?
A friend today.
.WHAT WE DESERVE
Do you deserve All that I do. to be with you? I can’t say no. Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess. Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve. Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I. Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me. You can’t say yes.
So. But. And I’m not the one for you. Life alone brings doubts and fears. But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you.THE TRUTH
I’m sad today. Another smiling face. it’s not meant to be. You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. Your true love awaits. It may just be Around the corner. I know it’s not what you want to hear. Truth is you’re not the one for me. No time to cry.
. Because I see the truth. We tried to make it work. dry your eyes. I fear. Fully awake.
You’d forever stay. In a perfect world. I’d be all you see. You’d agree with me. You’d hold me tight. Sadly. Your love to give For me always. In a perfect world.
. It’d be you and I. In a perfect world. And I can only dream. You’d only have eyes for me. today it’s not that way. Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem. I’d always be right. And sit by my side. We’d never fight. There would be no other for you.A PERFECT WORLD
In a perfect world.
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.
FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.
We lie in wait. For the right time. Pretend I’m okay inside. Believed that when you closed the door. The perfect moment to strike. Women are cunning creatures you know. It was fine to say goodbye.LYING IN WAIT
I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies. You should have never estimated The power of my mind.
. We plot our moves From the go. It is so easy for me to smile.
Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day. But I fear your mind’s made up. Because it’s all I know. Hoping it’s not too late. It hurts to be in this spot.MOVING ON
I wait for you in the lot. Where I said I’d be.
. When you would let me go. Thought the day would never come. You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had. Now I sit and wait for you. That’s too damn bad. Because you set me free. I can’t forget what we had.
But I don’t think It will ever be. I ask you all the time To treat me like I need. It’s not enough for me. Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte.
. You look into my eyes. Give me no reply. And sleep.NOT YOUR FORTE
I tell you I need more.
How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all. And now I sit. so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show. What I see Is not really you. But … I wanted you.
. Alone with the truth after the fall. For the real you can never love me.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED
One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. Although I know the truth.
hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same. That there are many more like me. you think you know it all. Yeah.
. Go ahead. But time will tell. And please. You say you don’t care. I really hope you find her soon.A LOVE LIKE MINE
You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone. The way I kissed you late at night. Miss what we had. Think it’s all a big game. So you can finally see. Make your move. You’re gonna miss me so damn bad.
Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me. If that’s what I let it do.TERMINAL LOVE
Your love will be The end of me. too. Your love will kill My spirit. If I let it be.
. If I let it inside. Your love will make Me lose my mind.
Showing me the man That you’re proud to be. You tell me that I’m beautiful. Holding my hand.
. Ignoring all the rest. And that I deserve the best. You’re blind to all that temptation outside.THE LITTLE THINGS
It’s the little things I appreciate. It’s great to be by your side. I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do. They don’t have to cost a thing. To live this life with you.
Don’t want to hear my words. And it’s your fault.LOVING ME
My anger grows. Because all you thought about was you. My anger knows It’s my fault. You don’t encourage me. My spirit knows It’s your fault. Because you need to be first. My spirit grows. I’m the one who made you into you. I finally love me more that you do. I let you do what you want to. You discourage me. And it’s my fault.
I’m a fan of love. Although it doesn’t live here. I’d sit in the stands and cheer. Though it doesn’t live here no more.A FAN OF LOVE
I am a fan of love. Because someday love will set me free. Although it’s not yet mine. I lay out the welcome mat for love. Because I see it all the time. I still believe in love. I will wait for love. I will wait for love. I still believe in love.
. Because it waits somewhere for me. But it won’t knock at my door. I lay out the welcome mat for love.
A visitor from another place. If only in our eyes. Your world is nothing like The one I’m from.A DIFFERENT CLOTH
Cut from a different cloth. Maybe that cloth Really is the same. When I don’t even know your name. But you won’t show your face. You and I are not the same. Tell me why you’re in my space. Yet you came. I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come. and you try To become you and I. You try to live in my realty. But we’re not meant to be.
It’s nowhere inside of you.PROMISES
Promises you fail to keep Are all I have. Though the shitty lies you grab.
. So glad to have this new breakthrough. I don’t know why I ask for truth. To do what I have to do. Honesty is within your reach.
I’m like a moth to your flame.NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE
You can’t see me Past your superiority. But I’m tired of playing Your sick.
. I try and try to be What you want from me. I’m sick to hell of being under your spell. It’s your way or the door. Not taking your shit any more. There’s no you and me in us for you. twisted game.
. First place is a space we both want. Two peas of a different pod. Because you have to be first. Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath. Because we both want to win the race. now by my side. You sprint along. Can’t let me be in front. We’ll never be face-to-face. Trying to keep up.WINNING THE RACE
I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight.
I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections. I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely. Co-existence is the only power You hold over me.POWER
Looking through rose-colored glasses.
SING FOR YOU
Why don’t I sing for you? A good question. but the one I should let go. Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts. Why don’t I feel comfortable. indeed. Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for.
And set me free. Let loose your hold of me. I laugh along in my defense. Love. Just break your chains. Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love.LOVE
Love. What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh. Love. The jokes are all at my expense. Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh. how you love to tell your lovely lies.
. Family meant we were whole. Even when times were tough? It got you through. When unity was a goal.REMEMBERING LOVE
Remember when Love was enough. A time of unrivaled bliss. With nothing else. Surviving by itself. A time I surely miss.
Here we go again. But nothing’s said. minutes. You try to read my face. And here we are In elder years. So much to say. Turning into weeks. Because we never speak.
. you grin. Just like the day before. Our whole lives lost. Still alone. And we’ve both paid the cost. You stare at the floor. We drift together. hours. I look elsewhere instead. I smile. Yet nothing was said. days. I hold my breath. So much to say. The seconds.
Although I seldom tell you so. pink and red. I try my best. Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said:
I can’t live my life without Having you by my side. I think of you before I rest. My wife. How I cherish you.MY WIFE
You bought me flowers today: Roses.
. With you is where my heart lies. You are the reason why I work so hard.
And you think they’re just words. How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her. I disappear with every word you say.KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS
I lose a piece of me every day. Or use my fists. Curse her name. But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside.
. Call her a bitch.
He’d always take care of me. It wouldn’t matter if they were his. Live together happily. He’d love every part of me. He’d cherish the ground I walked on. He’d cherish them because they were mine. No one else would matter. That man I made for me. A perfect world For him and me. And even love my kids.THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME
. He wouldn’t see anyone else. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often. Put me before himself. I wouldn’t want for anything.
. I lead My life in Your hands. I have a faithful friend. In you. You’re by my side. You guide. so I may rise. I put you first. Bring me light after the dark. as I carry on. Whether I am right or wrong. Supporting me until the end. And so. this is why I will believe With Your Word. Get me through to a new start.I PUT YOU FIRST
You’ve been there Since day one. And I’ll always put you first. I put your first. You let me fall. Let me laugh after I’ve cried. And so. I put you first. Guiding me along the way. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day. that’s the way it will be. And so.
And I thought I knew it all. He knows the goings on inside of me. He has my unwavering faith. With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day. Mouths the words before I talk. He’s got my map. I don’t know nothing anymore. He is the Lord above. He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break.
. the path I walk. he’s taken hold. He knows my mind. I think he’s psychic see. Says what I think before I do. predicts my moves. My whole world.FAITH
He came today and shook my soul.
It shines so bright. No matter how hard you try. It’s impossible to hide a lie.
. Won’t stay inside. you know.LIES AND TRUTH
The truth is the light. If asked. I would have told you so. Rains down on me. You can’t contain What will remain. A lie won’t hide. A cover will not work. Sets me free.
Flipping a script You no longer own. Took years to find.REALIZATION
The beauty of it all. but now I see The truth I bought now sold. For the entire world to see. I got it now. Has built a wall that can’t be broken. Who I am inside. powering my soul. So that confidence. I can’t lie low.
. Yes. ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be. The square peg now fits the hole. Can’t keep me down no more. Was in a fog. Screaming to me in my own song. Now I’m free. Realizing who I am. The chains are gone.
Like the way That evil does. Stealing my light. Everywhere. I try to fight. Now is the end for me. So much to bear. I’ll be with you forever now. All consuming. Killing my mind And spirit. It’s all around. breathlessly. A better place awaits me. finally.ENDING THE PAIN
This world of pain. And I cannot escape. through the fog I can’t see.
. too. The pain will end. Staining the air. So I say my last goodbye. But. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today.
Live by his word and let him see.CHANGING ME
I couldn’t watch the news today. It calls to me and screams my name. I vow to do the best I can. same old thing. Enough to drive the sane insane. I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. Everyone’s fighting or arguing. For fear of what it might say. Or found dead. I’ll start my fight by changing me. But radio’s no better. Someone’s missing. Start my task with one woman.
. Guess I’ll listen to radio instead. Can’t let this dark swallow my light. So I block it and stay inside.
I took the pain away with me. After all the blood had dried.
. Now I’m gone. Finally free.BREAKING FREE
I try to cut the pain away. I’m the one it killed. Cutting deeper still. I had to go because it stayed. The one underneath’s too tough. Now my pain has gone away. I pierce the layer that I see. Although it hurt. The pain inside just wouldn’t die. I couldn’t cry. The pain still wouldn’t go away. But blood is not enough. I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay.
A battle I couldn’t lose. But through it all.MY SON SHINES
Long ago I dreamt of you. I held you tight and kissed your cheek. Although you were not yet mine. I stood tall. Before you were inside. I feared it was not true. For the other half of you. Only the mixture that I needed.
. The love I thought I had to have. You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues. By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away. Here I stand forever.
. Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me. me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me. Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know.KNOWING ME
Do you really know who I am.
It moves my hips.
. It moves my feet. My arms they sway That away. Made for sin. Dance with me tonight. I feel the beat.DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT
I feel the music From deep within. The rhythm stirs Inside my head. Your song instead. Dance with me tonight. Please play for me. Dance with me tonight.
So here is where they’ll stay. Your will was not as strong.TOO SOON
Gone too soon. To make sure you were still here. But many will always care. What younger ones can’t fare. Pain can be an awful thing.
. Help them push the pain aside. And let them know An early end’s no way to go. They’ll wish we stopped you just in time. Though your beauty will last always. We older folks can tolerate. So hold them tight. It’s sad to know your time is done. We didn’t have you long. Sometimes too much to bare.
You’re poisonous. Too many eyes Cover me. Why did I go? I should have paused. Hoping you’re asleep. Hoping you snoozed. I hold my breath. I knew you were there After all.THE BROWN WIDOW
You wait for me In the dark. Await my move. But you’re too quick. You lay still. I approach. I wait till day To go your way. You strike so fast.
DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight. Take your time.THE TIME IS NOW
. Live your best life now. It will be just right.
it lies inside. We get a glimpse. And then peaked out often. Dormant. Residing where it’s meant to be. Where it shines the best. Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. Remembering where it first shined.INNER SUPERSTAR
We possess it early on. take a peak. Years later we get another glimpse. Our inner superstar Was always there inside. But often forget where it lies. It differs from the rest.
. Specific to each owner. After we have forgotten.
While hiding in our youth. But then we find courage inside And turn it all around. Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down. It shows its face in elder years. Its view widens so we may see. Without listening to what it has to say. Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. But we get in the way. Life’s not all a mystery.LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL
Life tries to take the wheel. Listen for what life has in store. Be patient.
. We make a turn on our own.
You were mine On borrowed time. And you’re gone. until tomorrow. This I didn’t know. I took for granted you’d be here. At least. Now tomorrow’s here.
. Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so. I’m so sorry I was wrong.
Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise. spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do.
I shine brightly for all to see. Like many colors of the rainbow. Neon bright. I change from day-to-day. I’m an aubergine.COLORS OF ME
There are many Shades of me. A softer shade. When wide awake. a light yellow. Growing daily like the evergreen. When ready.
. A blue for when I’m feeling low. They cover you And color me. A darker color when we fight. Relaxed for when I sleep. A range of shades for everything. I can be any hue I want to be. you know. Black or white.
A POET’S SONG
I live in verse. Living. The sadness that you may see. I think in rhyme. rhyming All the time. The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow. It sings to me from deep inside. I don’t know how Or even why. breathing poetry
. Is all poetry to me. And it makes up The best of me. Thinking.
The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow.BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH
Just how bright Is your light. barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath. Shine from underneath? Is it dim.
And says Please come back any day. Says stay awhile. Says take a seat. It invites me in.
. Then takes my coat. And offers me its words to eat. It sets me free.
It says to me. It comforts me. It offers me a place to stay.POETRY LIVES HERE
A door has opened up for me. Inside that room lives poetry. Encourages me With its warm smile. I open up. It embraces me.
I am your friend. Then sings to me In special notes.
The pleasures I possess.
. The wisdom I possess. Curve of my waist. It’s because I am beauty. The comfort of my embrace. Knowing that your fears. The knowledge I give. That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss. I am life. The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back. offend.KNOWING MY WORTH
Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice. I can erase? If I frighten. or shock you. And I know my worth. I am woman. Shape of my thighs.
. Forgetting it. Rewarded with so many qualities.OF ALL BEINGS
Fellow women of today. you should abhor. We are the best of all beings. One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth. Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man.
Happiness and long-lost friends. I can’t wait for mine. A sight I almost see. I smile and hold it inside. My destination is on my mind. Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me.
. Held some hands along the way. Thinking of how it will be. What a lovely ride.THE LONG ROAD HOME
I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead. Did mostly as I pleased. Every road must come to an end.
As if saying to me.THE SOUND OF SIGNS
I hear the birds chirping. The signs are there For you to see. It is today. Listen closely.” The willow weeps. As if to say.
. Sounds fully.” The tree breaths. Giving the breeze What it needs. “Your time is here. Close your eyes. “The time has come For you to leave.
I’ve grabbed my pen. What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot.A CALL TO ARMS
*STOP* Turn off your television set. What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man. This is not a test. Or we all lose. It’s not too late.
Beside the bed. My home can be one place or a few. Where happiness lives Indefinitely.
My home is where I lay my head And pray at night. Though we’re apart. My home is where I chose to be. My home may just be with you. My home is where I leave my heart. Where true love lives.
THE BETTER PRIZE
The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade. Open your foolish eyes. A trick used to confuse the mind. This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet. We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone. Although it seems quite odd. So easy to believe a lie. Ignorant to what’s inside. And miss out on the better prize. And in our haste. It passes instantly. Should crown our lover’s throne. We turn away. The better prize. But what lies inside.
And I know more will surely come. Spirit. Time to sit and rest my mind. I remember to relax today.
. Save some work. I’m tired already. My body’s weary. Try to balance both and remain whole. too. But I know things will be fine. Unfortunately.RELAXING MY MIND
Been a long day. I’ve seen this day before. add some play. that’s the way life goes.
Where all is calm. I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been. It must lie somewhere else. So I continue to Keep hope alive. It should be tired of me.TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME
Trouble road begins at my door. and I stay safe. I’ve given up on happiness. And pray trouble runs out of time. Surrounded by my friends. Why won’t it set me free?
. Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free. And I know nothing else. Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me.
You’re driving too fast. You smile at me And hit the gas. Without your brakes. As I brace For the crash. How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on. No space for me. Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape. You’re speeding now. Even the belt Won’t keep me safe. To ride with you. And then thank God I learned to fly. There is no room. I close my eyes.THE GREATEST ESCAPE
Slow down for me. Away I go To a better place.
. Look to the sky.
Worried I’ll be found. Covering your insides. Premeditated steps I take with no regrets. Worried about the fall. everything I’ve got.THE FALL
Land mines. The snipers waiting for that clear shot. So much to lose.
. Afraid to make a sound. afterall. I wait until it’s dark. Can never take the leap. Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two.
Scared to make a move.MAKING MOVES
Every now and then. Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know. And we’re finally on track. We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go. Hope our move won’t make a mess. Do what you say. Take a step and not look back. Don’t be afraid. Then we realize The move was just right. You’re right where you need to be. That moment is meant just for you To make your move. Don’t be scared to let go.
. Make your move. We wish for the best.
I never saw the signs. It never waits. It’s time to take my rightful place. Or what they tried to say. Focused on today. My eyes are opened wide.
. Life just passes by. Light miles ahead. The final bell has rung. And now the time is here For me to finally shine. I’ve already won the race. Although my mouth is closed. And now half my life’s Just floated away.WINNING THE RACE
I’ve wasted too much time.
You always take my call.
. The times we share. It’s so innocent. I’m glad I have you in my life. I need you to show me Just how I should be. You call me. Taking it all in. You know I’m really into it. Because when I need someone to vent to. Even when I want to vent About nothing at all.TRUE FRIENDS
I call you. A true friend. You listen when I talk. And I need you there. But we’re just friends. indeed.
We need to learn What to say.KEEPING SECRETS
Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing. And what things we should keep.
. Often times Those little things Should remain a secret. There are times When we may find Some things troubling.
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.
Ready for me to begin. I’m coming in!
. So much to do. Hold the door. So little time. No more sitting still for me today.FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD
Listen up! I got lots to say. Too much for me to hold inside.
Waiting for you to take me to some other place.
. I will be ready.WHEN YOU COME FOR ME
When you come for me. When you come for me. This life has gotten really bad. I won’t be sad. When you come for me. I’m tired today. I’m looking forward to the trip ahead. I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go. In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again. When you come for me.
Giving in to your every want and need. Can’t get rid of me. Just how a smudge succeeds. Guess I’m in too deep. You open up. Desire being my excuse. but don’t know what to say. Loving the way That I confuse.
.A MERE SMUDGE
I’m a smudge on your window pane.
That I can’t survive on my own. But I’m the one that pays the toll.A PRISONER’S LIFE
I want to be free. I try and try To live your life. accept your smile. You say. Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape.” I take a sip. A prisoner’s life is what I lead. You say it’ll never be.
. “Celebrate with me. Not knowing poison’s inside. Drink my wine. Locked away indefinitely.
Make your move. I’ll guide you. Either way. Close your eyes. And That’s just what I’ll do. No one to help me with this one. A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go. I hear.
. Decision time tonight. it’ll be done. And I finally see.AT A CROSSROADS
Here I am. All at once. Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be. It hit me hard.
Year after year. Happiness and joyful days.DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY
Sad songs are all I heard. Awkward distance. I can’t always be afraid. Mainly out of fear.
. I’ve got to drive those blues away. Arguments. Too scared to move. They didn’t live here. And I held on. From this life I need more. They silenced all the tears. So they don’t live here no more.
How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning?
But … It. Till only it survives. Making you believe you died. TOO. too. That bell it rings.
. shall pass. And pain’s waiting At another’s door. Taking over everything. It. shall pass. too. It’s got places to go. Consuming who it occupies.IT. SHALL PASS
Pain can’t last forever. Because nothing ever lasts Of pain.
Every day is a fight for me. Try not to let the weight get me down.
. And I fight with my head high. I suit up for the war. Holding onto my pride. But the price I pay is worth being free.HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE
I try to hold my head above water. Fight to keep it all in order. For the misery in store. Try to turn it all around.
Skirt the blame. We don’t see What lies within.
. All the while hiding ours. Although we are among friends. It’s become customary To point out all the flaws. Such a wicked game to play. Believing those wicked smiles. So afraid of being called out our name. Mistakes that others seem to make. Point fingers.OUR DOWNFALL
We are a sad society: So quick to judge. Our downfall in the end.
I won’t let you change who I am. The only way truly to be free. Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be.
My eyes are open now.MY WORLD
Sometime ago I lost myself. It’s how I lived my life.
. Forgot who I was inside. Just the way a record does. Now it’s time for me to grow. Remembering who I was. Concentrating on what I’m meant to do. I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine. Time for me to shine. My world finally mine. Don’t know how long it’s been. Picked up where I had left off. This thought had become commonplace. What treasures lied within.
MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE
Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine.
. Although it tries to hide. Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine. See … I’m making it my goal. I know. It’s there.
Thought there was no escape. I begin again. Hope not within my reach. As the pieces began to mend.NEARLY BROKEN
Thought it was the end of me.
. But I’m on the mend. My spirit nearly broken. So glad that I had faith. Nearly broken. But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat. My mind said all was lost.
Oh. Because she knows her worth. daughter.
. A mother. She’s happy. She knows how much I meant to her. the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while. She loves me more than anything. and a wife. She’s beautiful And full of life. That friend I’ve found is me.
Saying everything With just a smirk.THE SMILE AND THE FROWN
Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown.
. The other upside down. The stories they tell Without saying a word. One right-side up.
. I remain lonely. have mercy on me. Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip.REMAINING LONELY
Loneliness. Memories barely keep me warm. Loosen your lover’s grip. I’d rather have my love with me. The love I lost. Instead. I’ll forever mourn.
Imagine your worst fear. What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside?
. Visualize it’s there In front of you.FEAR INSIDE
I challenge you To sit in silence. Close your eyes. Take a sigh.
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.
All I do Is wait around for you. I should say How I feel. I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time. Waiting once more. feelings are no big deal.
. Until you walk through my door. So here I sit. But to you. My time no longer mine.
SINGING TODAY FOR YOU
Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time. So I sing today for you. you know.
. Because this I’m thankful for.
Yet your mouth moves constantly.NOT LISTENING
Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago. Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out.
. I don’t care what you have to say. I’m not listening anyway. Though I don’t listen any more.
.WINDOW TO MY SOUL
I see you Through the window to my soul. And what I’m meant to be. Loving everything I am. You know me Better Than I ever could know. Looking through The window to my soul. You watch and study me. Taking in all you see.
Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth.
You’re pretty for a black girl. Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud?
You’re pretty for a black girl.PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL
You’re pretty for a black girl.
What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me?
You’re pretty for a black girl.
Am I supposed to smile. Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more.
Thank you for letting me know.
Beauty lying inside and out. you know. you are beautiful. Thought I should tell you so. Thought I should let you know.
.FOR MY SISTERS
My sister. Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen.
This place we’ve gotten to somehow. To share all we’ve got.THE TIME IS NOW
The only time we have is now. To feel how it should be. To show each other why we’re here. The time we have is now.
. Even if we’ve forgotten. Seeing all we’re meant to see.
and songs. Glonka. She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons. short stories. “The Amazing Mr.BIO
Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school. She writes poetry. Her first publication was a short story entitled.
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