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ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition .Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved.
Make your mark. Brandon. and Jaden. The world is yours. I love you. Blake. Mom .For my boys. Devante.
CONTENTS Title Page Copyright Page LOVE Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone .
The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You .
LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me LIFE I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song .
Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How .
too. Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now .It.
Handle with care. Clean the floors. I live for you At your command. As you breathe. You are my light Through the dark. By loving you.LOVING YOU As you awake. Bake your bread. What lovers do. I do it all. I smile for you. . Giving you more than my last. Wash your clothes. All you have to do is ask. My world expands. For you. I leave my mark. I make your food. Be your lover and more.
THANKS TO YOU Cold. All thanks to you. All thanks to you. Only anger in this place. Blacker than the darkest night. . My evil eyes are full of spite. Bitter through and through. Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth. heartless. Rotten to the very core. The monster made.
you lift your hand. And you haven’t said a word. woman and man. it heaves to my surprise. I see the way you look at me. I kiss your lips. And still not a word. I feel your hands all over me. . Caress my cheek from where you stand. Licking your lips. I see your eyes start at my feet. You didn’t have to say a word. Now face-to-face.WITHOUT WORDS I know you like what you see. Felling the heat between you and me. My chest. My hips move to your beat. I quench your thirst. Your gaze has only reached my thighs. Don’t have to say a word.
The rest gone down the drain. I gave my all for you to live. My end is here. . And you never saw me. Bare for all to see. just wasted time. And now my shell is all I have. Still shaded by your tree. Emptied my soul. You’ve taken all I have to give. The years I lost. The foolishness I left behind. Requesting more so you can live. It’s over now. My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. I shed my skin.WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME Here I stand out in front. But you don’t see me.
You are my winter. No you and I. Existing even after the end. living long it must. You are my spring. . We have grown together. A smile that warms the coldest night. A love so grand. built-in trust. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh. The heat I crave to feel at night. You are my summer. We bring forth our new ecstasy. In the end it was always us.SEASONS OF LOVE A light is shining bright. Please stay a while. All is still. We from the start. A constant cold stuns my heart. You are my fall. it’s just you and me. Our love is blossoming for all to see.
just let me be. Don’t want happiness here again. The damage done won’t disappear. I need to feel the pain inside of me. So.BROKEN Please. my worst fear. I killed your love for me. Not bottle it up inside of me. Just let me be. . please. oh please. You must understand my need to be here. I need the anger. I’ve got to let the burn roam free. I want to cry. Just let this pain pierce my skin. Don’t want you to dry my eyes.
Open my eyes. I’d say. Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. I would make a meal For you and me.MY LAST DAY I would wake up a little late. I would call in sick. You on my mind. . Enjoy the day. Me in your heart. Silently gazing In your eyes. No worry about what could be heard. I would promise you. It would always be this way. My love always. gazing upon your face. Our fingers intertwined. Wash your feet Late that night. Forever stay. Hold your hand. Feed you by hand. That I’d never leave. Make love to you without saying a word. Sitting by your side.
That’s how I would spend My last day. .
I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you. Through thick and thin when times are hard. I’ll show up. You see I gave my word in front of God. You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. And I will always show up. . if you yell. I’ll show up. You spit my name With twisted face. just know I won’t be walking out the door. I will show up. You curse and scream. The very last one to show up. it will be us.I WILL SHOW UP If I yell. Till this life ends. Face so mean. So when you’re mad as hell. I’ll show up.
Just here for me to feel alright. Don’t want to chill or hang with you. it’s what you heard. It’s not my place to be her for you. Yeah. Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do. Cover me with ecstasy. So close your lips and take my hand. You can find someone else to fill those shoes. .WHAT I NEED No. Lie down with me in this moment. we don’t have to talk or say a word. And give me what I need. Just take me on into the room. I’m telling you. I don’t want to be your girl. No. Not here to be your girl tonight. And give me what I need.
I am love. Brighter than the night’s sky. Brightness everlasting. . Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me. And I will forge ahead. I am the Milky Way. Cannot be dimmed. I color the winter’s night.LOVE ALL OVER ME Smiling all twenty four. My glow shines through the darkness. I will remain. After the end.
Intoxicating. . I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized.HYPNOTIZED Fine As the darkest wine.
Don’t sell away your half from me. Can’t compete with street life. Just like the day before. I’ll hold it down and set you free. God. Love shouldn’t have to be this rough. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol. A dozen women for a dime. Not just the night-time one you sell. . I know my needs fall on deaf ears. as well.SETTING YOU FREE Here I wait Today for you. A part-time love is not enough. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man. Why do I compete With the streets. I fear.
nasty at 10. Although the truth lies elsewhere. And try to make it back from hell again. I hold on tight for the ride.HELL AND BACK I go through hell to be with you. time for hell again. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry. Time to put me back on track. . At 11:30. I’m coming back. hell begins. But it’s 1. You say you’re sorry all the time. and I love you more than anything. At 10:30. Pray to God that I don’t cry. Swinging and swaying to your moods. Maybe this time is the last time. Say forgive me this time. Nice at 8. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry.
Even met some dogs. But my conviction still remains strong. too? I’ve been waiting oh so long. I pray that you’re still looking.SEARCHING Where are you? Are you searching for me. Kissed so many frogs. If the perfect one waits somewhere for you. Out there trying to see. too. And also trying to find me. I wonder if you’re like me. still searching. Not giving up. .
Love pulls you in. It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything. And just await your love’s surprise. It flows outside the lines.LOVE’S SURPRISE Sometimes love throws you a curve. But love can also be so sweet. and Evaporates to your dismay. And surprises you with no regrets. Sometimes love takes broader shape. . So hold on tight. Can pick you up and be complete. Pretends to stay. It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect. Enjoy the ride. then drops you down. It smiles at you and then frowns. Refuses to be confined. It takes you up.
Give me the world. Tell me it’s all mine. So glad to have you In my life. The queen I’m meant to be. I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do. by my side.WE LIFT EACH OTHER You lift me up For the world to see. Standing tall. And I rule the roost. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time. I tell you you’re The best at what you do. . It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined. You show me how Real love should be with you. Just what I’m meant to do.
And then not care Who you hurt. You pile it on Because I can take it. Curse my name. You’re having fun. Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile. And try to break me. Pretend to care. But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy. Say some words.THE WARNING It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you. Because your plan is number one. . All others be damned. You had a plan all the while.
About you. I’d miss everything. The happiness I felt inside. I’d say to you.” . The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared.MISSING YOU “What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say. “My darling. The joy and laughter every night. “Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared.
. Whether at work or at play. Separating you from the rest. you know.YOU WEAR IT WELL I wear you on my sleeve. You line the pleats of my skirt. I inhale you on my shirt. Take you when I leave. Not Ivory or Irish Spring. It’s not cologne or soap. So distinct. Whether night or day. You’re with me On my way. That essence that I smell. An aroma only you possess. That fragrence I know so well. And you wear it well. your scent. You follow me Through the day.
We laugh. Alone is not what we do. Like children Not yet grown. Can’t make it on our own. We hurt. .NOT ALONE The games we play. The shit we say. Realizing It won’t work apart. Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through. And then we pray.
I’m proud to see what you’ve become. Order lives where chaos dwelled. . A freshness for our start. I brought a new place for you.THE BEST OF ME I make up the best of you. The light replaced the dark. Because you are the best of me. This much I truly know. With me. And I know I make up the best of you. You don’t need to say it. A prize for all to see. Your life tells me so.
Thinking that you’re done. Looking okay. The chain contains a kink. you see. Although repaired. you still see that link. Will forever change the way I now look at you. You try to move along. But that kink.TRUST It’s like a broken fence: When mended. Hoping things are as good as new. .
. For the chocolate and the caramel. Skin of chocolate. I fear you love yourself More than you love me. Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love. With eyes of auburn.SHADES OF ME How can you not love me. You don’t even see.
Powder-white sand.LOVE’S ESCAPE I know where your happiness lies. I’m ready now. A world where only you escape: A world of beaches. . It’s embedded between my thighs. I take you to another place. And I wait With your love’s escape. A world that rivals Disneyland.
Though simple it may be.THE CHOICE The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. Is not simple In my eyes. A simple choice It may seem. Not so simple to me. To live in hell Or go be free. . A place Finally to be me.
That voice appears and says. . I truly thought you understood. No matter what a friend may say. Although you’re okay today. Yesterday. So it may seem. Did you forget yesterday? The screaming and the yelling. Did you forget yesterday? A friend today.DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY Every time it’s going good. Face twisted mean. an enemy. Don’t forget yesterday.
Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve. Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me. You can’t say yes. Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I. to be with you? I can’t say no. . Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess.WHAT WE DESERVE Do you deserve All that I do.
It may just be Around the corner. You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. But. I know it’s not what you want to hear. Fully awake. . dry your eyes. Because I see the truth. And I’m not the one for you. Truth is you’re not the one for me. No time to cry. I fear. So. Another smiling face. But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you. We tried to make it work. it’s not meant to be. Life alone brings doubts and fears. Your true love awaits.THE TRUTH I’m sad today.
A PERFECT WORLD In a perfect world. You’d hold me tight. You’d agree with me. You’d only have eyes for me. In a perfect world. Sadly. I’d be all you see. today it’s not that way. . And I can only dream. You’d forever stay. It’d be you and I. Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem. I’d always be right. In a perfect world. And sit by my side. Your love to give For me always. In a perfect world. There would be no other for you. We’d never fight.
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.
FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.
Pretend I’m okay inside. Women are cunning creatures you know. It was fine to say goodbye. For the right time.LYING IN WAIT I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies. It is so easy for me to smile. . The perfect moment to strike. We plot our moves From the go. You should have never estimated The power of my mind. Believed that when you closed the door. We lie in wait.
Now I sit and wait for you.MOVING ON I wait for you in the lot. Where I said I’d be. Hoping it’s not too late. Because you set me free. Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day. Thought the day would never come. That’s too damn bad. When you would let me go. But I fear your mind’s made up. It hurts to be in this spot. Because it’s all I know. I can’t forget what we had. You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had. .
NOT YOUR FORTE I tell you I need more. I ask you all the time To treat me like I need. And sleep. It’s not enough for me. . But I don’t think It will ever be. Give me no reply. Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte. You look into my eyes.
For the real you can never love me. Although I know the truth.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. Alone with the truth after the fall. But … I wanted you. How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all. What I see Is not really you. . so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show. And now I sit.
The way I kissed you late at night. Yeah. . Miss what we had. That there are many more like me. So you can finally see. Go ahead. You say you don’t care. And please.A LOVE LIKE MINE You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone. I really hope you find her soon. But time will tell. Think it’s all a big game. You’re gonna miss me so damn bad. hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. Make your move. you think you know it all. And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same.
If that’s what I let it do. Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me. Your love will kill My spirit. If I let it be. Your love will make Me lose my mind. too. . If I let it inside.TERMINAL LOVE Your love will be The end of me.
They don’t have to cost a thing. Showing me the man That you’re proud to be. It’s great to be by your side. . You tell me that I’m beautiful. I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do. And that I deserve the best. Ignoring all the rest.THE LITTLE THINGS It’s the little things I appreciate. You’re blind to all that temptation outside. To live this life with you. Holding my hand.
You don’t encourage me. Don’t want to hear my words. My anger knows It’s my fault. And it’s your fault. I finally love me more that you do. And it’s my fault. Because all you thought about was you.LOVING ME My anger grows. You discourage me. My spirit grows. I let you do what you want to. I’m the one who made you into you. . My spirit knows It’s your fault. Because you need to be first.
Because it waits somewhere for me. I will wait for love.A FAN OF LOVE I am a fan of love. Because someday love will set me free. Although it’s not yet mine. Because I see it all the time. I will wait for love. I still believe in love. I lay out the welcome mat for love. But it won’t knock at my door. I’d sit in the stands and cheer. I lay out the welcome mat for love. I still believe in love. I’m a fan of love. . Though it doesn’t live here no more. Although it doesn’t live here.
Maybe that cloth Really is the same. Tell me why you’re in my space. A visitor from another place. . But we’re not meant to be. If only in our eyes. You try to live in my realty. I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come. Yet you came.A DIFFERENT CLOTH Cut from a different cloth. You and I are not the same. Your world is nothing like The one I’m from. and you try To become you and I. When I don’t even know your name. But you won’t show your face.
PROMISES Promises you fail to keep Are all I have. Honesty is within your reach. To do what I have to do. I don’t know why I ask for truth. Though the shitty lies you grab. So glad to have this new breakthrough. It’s nowhere inside of you. .
Not taking your shit any more. It’s your way or the door. I try and try to be What you want from me. But I’m tired of playing Your sick.NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE You can’t see me Past your superiority. I’m sick to hell of being under your spell. . twisted game. There’s no you and me in us for you. I’m like a moth to your flame.
Because you have to be first. First place is a space we both want. now by my side.WINNING THE RACE I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight. Can’t let me be in front. Because we both want to win the race. Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath. Trying to keep up. You sprint along. Two peas of a different pod. . We’ll never be face-to-face.
. Co-existence is the only power You hold over me. I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections.POWER Looking through rose-colored glasses. I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely.
indeed. . Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts.SING FOR YOU Why don’t I sing for you? A good question. Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for. Why don’t I feel comfortable. but the one I should let go.
Love. What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh. Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh. Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love. Love. The jokes are all at my expense. I laugh along in my defense.LOVE Love. Just break your chains. Let loose your hold of me. And set me free. . how you love to tell your lovely lies.
. Family meant we were whole. With nothing else. Even when times were tough? It got you through. A time of unrivaled bliss. A time I surely miss. Surviving by itself. When unity was a goal.REMEMBERING LOVE Remember when Love was enough.
We drift together. Still alone. And we’ve both paid the cost. . And here we are In elder years. I smile. I hold my breath. The seconds. minutes. Turning into weeks. So much to say. So much to say. You stare at the floor. Yet nothing was said.LOST LIVES Here we go again. You try to read my face. hours. I look elsewhere instead. Just like the day before. Our whole lives lost. Because we never speak. you grin. days. But nothing’s said.
. Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said: I can’t live my life without Having you by my side. You are the reason why I work so hard. I try my best. pink and red. With you is where my heart lies. How I cherish you. My wife. I think of you before I rest.MY WIFE You bought me flowers today: Roses. Although I seldom tell you so.
Call her a bitch. I disappear with every word you say. How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her. But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside. And you think they’re just words. Or use my fists. . Curse her name.KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS I lose a piece of me every day.
I wouldn’t want for anything. That man I made for me. And even love my kids. He’d always take care of me. He wouldn’t see anyone else.THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME Oh. Put me before himself. . A perfect world For him and me. He’d cherish the ground I walked on. It wouldn’t matter if they were his. Live together happily. He’d love every part of me. He’d cherish them because they were mine. No one else would matter. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often.
Get me through to a new start. In you. this is why I will believe With Your Word. And so. Supporting me until the end. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day. I lead My life in Your hands. And I’ll always put you first. I put your first. You let me fall. I have a faithful friend. as I carry on. I put you first. You guide. Guiding me along the way. . Whether I am right or wrong.I PUT YOU FIRST You’ve been there Since day one. Bring me light after the dark. so I may rise. And so. Let me laugh after I’ve cried. And so. You’re by my side. I put you first. that’s the way it will be. Lord.
predicts my moves. Says what I think before I do. I think he’s psychic see. the path I walk. He is the Lord above. He knows the goings on inside of me. He’s got my map. My whole world. he’s taken hold. I don’t know nothing anymore.FAITH He came today and shook my soul. He knows my mind. With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day. He has my unwavering faith. Mouths the words before I talk. And I thought I knew it all. . He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break.
No matter how hard you try.LIES AND TRUTH The truth is the light. A lie won’t hide. I would have told you so. A cover will not work. Sets me free. If asked. Rains down on me. . Won’t stay inside. you know. It’s impossible to hide a lie. You can’t contain What will remain. It shines so bright.
Who I am inside. The chains are gone. Took years to find. Was in a fog. Now I’m free. but now I see The truth I bought now sold. Can’t keep me down no more. . The square peg now fits the hole. For the entire world to see. powering my soul. Realizing who I am. Has built a wall that can’t be broken. I got it now. ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be. Flipping a script You no longer own. Screaming to me in my own song. So that confidence. Yes. I can’t lie low.REALIZATION The beauty of it all.
So much to bear. The pain will end. Stealing my light. I try to fight. breathlessly. A better place awaits me. All consuming. Like the way That evil does. It’s all around. So I say my last goodbye. through the fog I can’t see. Killing my mind And spirit. Now is the end for me.ENDING THE PAIN This world of pain. . too. And I cannot escape. Everywhere. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today. I’ll be with you forever now. But. Staining the air. finally.
Enough to drive the sane insane. Guess I’ll listen to radio instead. Everyone’s fighting or arguing. It calls to me and screams my name. For fear of what it might say. I vow to do the best I can. But radio’s no better. Start my task with one woman. So I block it and stay inside. Someone’s missing. Or found dead.CHANGING ME I couldn’t watch the news today. . I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. I’ll start my fight by changing me. Can’t let this dark swallow my light. same old thing. Live by his word and let him see.
. Finally free. I took the pain away with me. Although it hurt. After all the blood had dried. The pain inside just wouldn’t die. Now my pain has gone away. I couldn’t cry. Now I’m gone.BREAKING FREE I try to cut the pain away. I pierce the layer that I see. The pain still wouldn’t go away. I had to go because it stayed. Cutting deeper still. I’m the one it killed. The one underneath’s too tough. I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay. But blood is not enough.
MY SON SHINES Long ago I dreamt of you. Before you were inside. Only the mixture that I needed. But through it all. The love I thought I had to have. I stood tall. . I held you tight and kissed your cheek. A battle I couldn’t lose. You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues. Here I stand forever. Although you were not yet mine. I feared it was not true. By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away. For the other half of you.
me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me. Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know. . Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me.KNOWING ME Do you really know who I am.
Your song instead. Please play for me. . I feel the beat. Made for sin. It moves my feet. It moves my hips. Dance with me tonight. Dance with me tonight.DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT I feel the music From deep within. Dance with me tonight. My arms they sway That away. The rhythm stirs Inside my head.
So here is where they’ll stay. Pain can be an awful thing.TOO SOON Gone too soon. So hold them tight. To make sure you were still here. But many will always care. Though your beauty will last always. Help them push the pain aside. Your will was not as strong. And let them know An early end’s no way to go. We older folks can tolerate. It’s sad to know your time is done. Sometimes too much to bare. They’ll wish we stopped you just in time. What younger ones can’t fare. We didn’t have you long. .
I wait till day To go your way. Too many eyes Cover me. I approach. You strike so fast. Hoping you’re asleep. I hold my breath. Hoping you snoozed. But you’re too quick. . Await my move. You lay still. Why did I go? I should have paused. You’re poisonous. I knew you were there After all.THE BROWN WIDOW You wait for me In the dark.
Take your time. It will be just right. Live your best life now.THE TIME IS NOW Slow down. DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight. .
. And then peaked out often. Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. We get a glimpse. it lies inside. Where it shines the best. It differs from the rest. Specific to each owner. But often forget where it lies. Our inner superstar Was always there inside. Dormant. After we have forgotten. Years later we get another glimpse. take a peak. Residing where it’s meant to be. Remembering where it first shined.INNER SUPERSTAR We possess it early on.
But then we find courage inside And turn it all around. Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. Without listening to what it has to say. While hiding in our youth. Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down. Its view widens so we may see.LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL Life tries to take the wheel. It shows its face in elder years. . Be patient. But we get in the way. Listen for what life has in store. We make a turn on our own. Life’s not all a mystery.
Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so. I took for granted you’d be here. Now tomorrow’s here. . And you’re gone.TOO LATE You were mine On borrowed time. until tomorrow. I’m so sorry I was wrong. This I didn’t know. At least.
spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do.AHA MOMENT Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise. .
Growing daily like the evergreen. . When wide awake. When ready. A range of shades for everything.COLORS OF ME There are many Shades of me. A softer shade. A blue for when I’m feeling low. Relaxed for when I sleep. Neon bright. Like many colors of the rainbow. I change from day-to-day. a light yellow. A darker color when we fight. Black or white. you know. I’m an aubergine. I shine brightly for all to see. I can be any hue I want to be. They cover you And color me.
I think in rhyme. And it makes up The best of me. The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow. I don’t know how Or even why.A POET’S SONG I live in verse. breathing poetry . The sadness that you may see. It sings to me from deep inside. Is all poetry to me. Thinking. rhyming All the time. Living.
.BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH Just how bright Is your light. The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow. barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath. Shine from underneath? Is it dim.
Then takes my coat. I open up. And says Please come back any day.POETRY LIVES HERE A door has opened up for me. Inside that room lives poetry. Encourages me With its warm smile. It sets me free. I am your friend. It offers me a place to stay. Says take a seat. And offers me its words to eat. . Says stay awhile. It embraces me. Then sings to me In special notes. It invites me in. It says to me. It comforts me.
KNOWING MY WORTH Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice. The pleasures I possess. . The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back. or shock you. The comfort of my embrace. Knowing that your fears. Curve of my waist. The knowledge I give. The wisdom I possess. And I know my worth. I am life. I can erase? If I frighten. Shape of my thighs. It’s because I am beauty. offend. I am woman. That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss.
OF ALL BEINGS Fellow women of today. . We are the best of all beings. you should abhor. Rewarded with so many qualities. Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man. Forgetting it. One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth.
. Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me. I smile and hold it inside. Happiness and long-lost friends. Every road must come to an end. A sight I almost see. Thinking of how it will be. Held some hands along the way. My destination is on my mind. I can’t wait for mine.THE LONG ROAD HOME I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead. Did mostly as I pleased. What a lovely ride.
“The time has come For you to leave. As if to say. . It is today. As if saying to me.” The willow weeps. The signs are there For you to see.” The tree breaths.THE SOUND OF SIGNS I hear the birds chirping. Sounds fully. Close your eyes. “Your time is here. Giving the breeze What it needs. Listen closely.
Or we all lose. What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man. This is not a test. . What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot. It’s not too late. I’ve grabbed my pen.A CALL TO ARMS *STOP* Turn off your television set.
My home is where I chose to be. My home may just be with you. My home is where I leave my heart. Though we’re apart. Beside the bed. Where happiness lives Indefinitely. Where true love lives. My home can be one place or a few. .HOME My home is where I lay my head And pray at night.
And in our haste. Although it seems quite odd. This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet. It passes instantly. Open your foolish eyes. . And miss out on the better prize. A trick used to confuse the mind. Should crown our lover’s throne. The better prize.THE BETTER PRIZE The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade. Ignorant to what’s inside. But what lies inside. So easy to believe a lie. We turn away. We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone.
My body’s weary. that’s the way life goes. But I know things will be fine. Try to balance both and remain whole. I remember to relax today. add some play. Spirit. Time to sit and rest my mind. I’ve seen this day before. Unfortunately. And I know more will surely come. too.RELAXING MY MIND Been a long day. . I’m tired already. Save some work.
TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME Trouble road begins at my door. and I stay safe. It must lie somewhere else. And pray trouble runs out of time. Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free. So I continue to Keep hope alive. I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been. I’ve given up on happiness. And I know nothing else. It should be tired of me. Surrounded by my friends. Where all is calm. Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me. Why won’t it set me free? .
I close my eyes. . Away I go To a better place. Without your brakes. You’re speeding now. You smile at me And hit the gas. How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on. As I brace For the crash. Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape. To ride with you. Even the belt Won’t keep me safe. You’re driving too fast. There is no room. And then thank God I learned to fly. No space for me. Look to the sky.THE GREATEST ESCAPE Slow down for me.
Worried about the fall. Worried I’ll be found.THE FALL Land mines. Premeditated steps I take with no regrets. . everything I’ve got. So much to lose. Covering your insides. Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two. Can never take the leap. I wait until it’s dark. afterall. Afraid to make a sound. The snipers waiting for that clear shot.
Do what you say. Don’t be scared to let go. Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know. We wish for the best. Take a step and not look back. Scared to make a move. And we’re finally on track. That moment is meant just for you To make your move. Hope our move won’t make a mess. Make your move. You’re right where you need to be.MAKING MOVES Every now and then. We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go. . Then we realize The move was just right. Don’t be afraid.
Life just passes by. And now half my life’s Just floated away.WINNING THE RACE I’ve wasted too much time. My eyes are opened wide. Light miles ahead. . I’ve already won the race. I never saw the signs. Or what they tried to say. It’s time to take my rightful place. Although my mouth is closed. And now the time is here For me to finally shine. Focused on today. The final bell has rung. It never waits.
I’m glad I have you in my life. A true friend. You call me. And I need you there. You know I’m really into it. You always take my call. Because when I need someone to vent to. The times we share. . I need you to show me Just how I should be. It’s so innocent. But we’re just friends.TRUE FRIENDS I call you. Even when I want to vent About nothing at all. indeed. You listen when I talk. Taking it all in.
KEEPING SECRETS Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing. Often times Those little things Should remain a secret. There are times When we may find Some things troubling. We need to learn What to say. And what things we should keep. .
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.
So little time. I’m coming in! . No more sitting still for me today. So much to do. Hold the door. Ready for me to begin. Too much for me to hold inside.FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD Listen up! I got lots to say.
When you come for me. I’m tired today. I won’t be sad. I will be ready. When you come for me. . I’m looking forward to the trip ahead. When you come for me. This life has gotten really bad. Waiting for you to take me to some other place. In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again.WHEN YOU COME FOR ME When you come for me. I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go.
Desire being my excuse. .A MERE SMUDGE I’m a smudge on your window pane. Loving the way That I confuse. Giving in to your every want and need. Can’t get rid of me. Just how a smudge succeeds. You open up. but don’t know what to say. Guess I’m in too deep.
.” I take a sip. But I’m the one that pays the toll. You say it’ll never be. “Celebrate with me. That I can’t survive on my own. You say. Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape. A prisoner’s life is what I lead. Drink my wine. I try and try To live your life.A PRISONER’S LIFE I want to be free. Not knowing poison’s inside. Locked away indefinitely. accept your smile.
No one to help me with this one. Either way.AT A CROSSROADS Here I am. And I finally see. Decision time tonight. And That’s just what I’ll do. it’ll be done. I’ll guide you. It hit me hard. . A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go. Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be. All at once. Close your eyes. Make your move. I hear.
Mainly out of fear. Happiness and joyful days. I can’t always be afraid. I’ve got to drive those blues away. Year after year. Awkward distance. They didn’t live here. Too scared to move. Arguments. They silenced all the tears. So they don’t live here no more. . And I held on.DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY Sad songs are all I heard. From this life I need more.
HOW How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning? .
That bell it rings. It’s got places to go. Consuming who it occupies. Till only it survives. Making you believe you died. too. But … It. And pain’s waiting At another’s door. Taking over everything. shall pass. too. shall pass. SHALL PASS Pain can’t last forever. It. TOO. Because nothing ever lasts Of pain. .IT.
Holding onto my pride. I suit up for the war. Fight to keep it all in order. For the misery in store. Try to turn it all around. Try not to let the weight get me down. And I fight with my head high. . But the price I pay is worth being free.HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE I try to hold my head above water. Every day is a fight for me.
Skirt the blame.OUR DOWNFALL We are a sad society: So quick to judge. Mistakes that others seem to make. Point fingers. So afraid of being called out our name. Although we are among friends. It’s become customary To point out all the flaws. We don’t see What lies within. All the while hiding ours. Our downfall in the end. . Believing those wicked smiles. Such a wicked game to play.
Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be. . The only way truly to be free.BEING FREE I won’t let you change who I am.
MY WORLD Sometime ago I lost myself. Now it’s time for me to grow. I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine. Don’t know how long it’s been. This thought had become commonplace. Just the way a record does. What treasures lied within. Forgot who I was inside. Picked up where I had left off. My world finally mine. My eyes are open now. Remembering who I was. . It’s how I lived my life. Concentrating on what I’m meant to do. Time for me to shine.
I know. See … I’m making it my goal. Although it tries to hide. . Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine. It’s there.MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine.
But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat. . Hope not within my reach. So glad that I had faith. As the pieces began to mend. I begin again. But I’m on the mend. My mind said all was lost. Nearly broken.NEARLY BROKEN Thought it was the end of me. My spirit nearly broken. Thought there was no escape.
MY FRIEND Oh. and a wife. A mother. daughter. She knows how much I meant to her. . That friend I’ve found is me. the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while. She’s beautiful And full of life. Because she knows her worth. She’s happy. She loves me more than anything.
The other upside down. The stories they tell Without saying a word.THE SMILE AND THE FROWN Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown. Saying everything With just a smirk. . One right-side up.
. Memories barely keep me warm. Instead. have mercy on me. Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip. I remain lonely. The love I lost. I’d rather have my love with me.REMAINING LONELY Loneliness. I’ll forever mourn. Loosen your lover’s grip.
Close your eyes. Visualize it’s there In front of you. What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside? .FEAR INSIDE I challenge you To sit in silence. Imagine your worst fear. Take a sigh.
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.
My time no longer mine. feelings are no big deal. I should say How I feel. .WAITING All I do Is wait around for you. Until you walk through my door. So here I sit. I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time. But to you. Waiting once more.
SINGING TODAY FOR YOU Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time. Because this I’m thankful for. you know. . So I sing today for you.
.NOT LISTENING Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago. I’m not listening anyway. Though I don’t listen any more. Yet your mouth moves constantly. Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out. I don’t care what you have to say.
Taking in all you see. You know me Better Than I ever could know.WINDOW TO MY SOUL I see you Through the window to my soul. Loving everything I am. . You watch and study me. Looking through The window to my soul. And what I’m meant to be.
What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me? You’re pretty for a black girl. Am I supposed to smile. Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more.PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL You’re pretty for a black girl. Thank you for letting me know. Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud? You’re pretty for a black girl. . You’re pretty for a black girl. Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth.
Thought I should tell you so. Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen. Beauty lying inside and out. you know.FOR MY SISTERS My sister. Thought I should let you know. . you are beautiful.
The time we have is now. Even if we’ve forgotten.THE TIME IS NOW The only time we have is now. To feel how it should be. To share all we’ve got. . This place we’ve gotten to somehow. To show each other why we’re here. Seeing all we’re meant to see.
and songs. Glonka.” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten. Her first publication was a short story entitled. “The Amazing Mr. She writes poetry. She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons.BIO Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school. short stories. .