ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition .Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved.

Mom . Devante. Make your mark. I love you. and Jaden. Brandon. The world is yours.For my boys. Blake.

CONTENTS Title Page Copyright Page LOVE Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone .

The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You .

LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me LIFE I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song .

Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How .

Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now .It. too.

LOVE .

As you breathe. I make your food. Wash your clothes. By loving you. For you. Handle with care. I live for you At your command. All you have to do is ask. You are my light Through the dark. . Be your lover and more. I do it all. Giving you more than my last. I smile for you. Bake your bread.LOVING YOU As you awake. My world expands. What lovers do. I leave my mark. Clean the floors.

THANKS TO YOU Cold. Bitter through and through. . All thanks to you. heartless. Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth. My evil eyes are full of spite. All thanks to you. Rotten to the very core. Only anger in this place. Blacker than the darkest night. The monster made.

My chest. You didn’t have to say a word. And you haven’t said a word. And still not a word.WITHOUT WORDS I know you like what you see. I see your eyes start at my feet. it heaves to my surprise. I quench your thirst. Felling the heat between you and me. I kiss your lips. Now face-to-face. My hips move to your beat. you lift your hand. . woman and man. Your gaze has only reached my thighs. Don’t have to say a word. I feel your hands all over me. Caress my cheek from where you stand. I see the way you look at me. Licking your lips.

You’ve taken all I have to give. just wasted time. The years I lost. I gave my all for you to live. I shed my skin. But you don’t see me. My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. The foolishness I left behind. Requesting more so you can live. The rest gone down the drain. Still shaded by your tree. Bare for all to see. And you never saw me. And now my shell is all I have. . It’s over now. My end is here.WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME Here I stand out in front. Emptied my soul.

A constant cold stuns my heart. No you and I.SEASONS OF LOVE A light is shining bright. You are my winter. Our love is blossoming for all to see. We from the start. Existing even after the end. A smile that warms the coldest night. The heat I crave to feel at night. Please stay a while. You are my spring. We have grown together. it’s just you and me. In the end it was always us. You are my summer. . We bring forth our new ecstasy. living long it must. You are my fall. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh. A love so grand. built-in trust. All is still.

my worst fear. I’ve got to let the burn roam free. I want to cry. The damage done won’t disappear. Don’t want happiness here again. oh please. Not bottle it up inside of me. So. Don’t want you to dry my eyes. Just let this pain pierce my skin.BROKEN Please. I need the anger. I need to feel the pain inside of me. You must understand my need to be here. just let me be. Just let me be. please. I killed your love for me. .

You on my mind. Silently gazing In your eyes. Wash your feet Late that night. I would promise you. I would call in sick. My love always. It would always be this way. Feed you by hand. . gazing upon your face. Sitting by your side. Make love to you without saying a word. No worry about what could be heard. Enjoy the day. I’d say. Hold your hand.MY LAST DAY I would wake up a little late. Open my eyes. Me in your heart. That I’d never leave. Our fingers intertwined. Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. I would make a meal For you and me. Forever stay.

.That’s how I would spend My last day.

You see I gave my word in front of God. You spit my name With twisted face. I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you. just know I won’t be walking out the door. I’ll show up. . Face so mean. You curse and scream. it will be us. Through thick and thin when times are hard. I will show up. The very last one to show up. I’ll show up. And I will always show up. So when you’re mad as hell. You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. Till this life ends.I WILL SHOW UP If I yell. I’ll show up. if you yell.

Yeah. Don’t want to chill or hang with you.WHAT I NEED No. Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do. And give me what I need. And give me what I need. It’s not my place to be her for you. Not here to be your girl tonight. Just here for me to feel alright. Lie down with me in this moment. You can find someone else to fill those shoes. . Cover me with ecstasy. Just take me on into the room. it’s what you heard. I don’t want to be your girl. So close your lips and take my hand. No. we don’t have to talk or say a word. I’m telling you.

I will remain. And I will forge ahead. Cannot be dimmed. After the end.LOVE ALL OVER ME Smiling all twenty four. Brighter than the night’s sky. I color the winter’s night. . My glow shines through the darkness. Brightness everlasting. Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me. I am the Milky Way. I am love.

HYPNOTIZED Fine As the darkest wine. I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized. . Intoxicating.

I fear. I know my needs fall on deaf ears. Why do I compete With the streets. Not just the night-time one you sell. as well. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol. God. Don’t sell away your half from me. . I’ll hold it down and set you free. Just like the day before.SETTING YOU FREE Here I wait Today for you. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man. A dozen women for a dime. Can’t compete with street life. A part-time love is not enough. Love shouldn’t have to be this rough.

Swinging and swaying to your moods. Time to put me back on track. You say you’re sorry all the time. I’m coming back. hell begins. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry. But it’s 1. and I love you more than anything. Say forgive me this time. Although the truth lies elsewhere.HELL AND BACK I go through hell to be with you. time for hell again. Maybe this time is the last time. . nasty at 10. At 10:30. Nice at 8. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry. And try to make it back from hell again. Pray to God that I don’t cry. At 11:30. I hold on tight for the ride.

And also trying to find me. If the perfect one waits somewhere for you. still searching. too? I’ve been waiting oh so long. I wonder if you’re like me. Out there trying to see.SEARCHING Where are you? Are you searching for me. . But my conviction still remains strong. Kissed so many frogs. Even met some dogs. Not giving up. too. I pray that you’re still looking.

then drops you down. Refuses to be confined. Pretends to stay. So hold on tight. It flows outside the lines. And surprises you with no regrets. Enjoy the ride. and Evaporates to your dismay.LOVE’S SURPRISE Sometimes love throws you a curve. It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything. . It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect. It smiles at you and then frowns. And just await your love’s surprise. Can pick you up and be complete. Sometimes love takes broader shape. Love pulls you in. But love can also be so sweet. It takes you up.

The queen I’m meant to be. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time. by my side. Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do. Give me the world. You show me how Real love should be with you. It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined. Tell me it’s all mine. I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. .WE LIFT EACH OTHER You lift me up For the world to see. Standing tall. And I rule the roost. So glad to have you In my life. I tell you you’re The best at what you do. Just what I’m meant to do.

. And then not care Who you hurt. Because your plan is number one. You pile it on Because I can take it. And try to break me. Pretend to care. All others be damned. Say some words. But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy. Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile. You had a plan all the while. Curse my name.THE WARNING It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you. You’re having fun.

I’d say to you. I’d miss everything. “Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared.MISSING YOU “What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say.” . The joy and laughter every night. The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared. About you. “My darling. The happiness I felt inside.

Whether at work or at play. An aroma only you possess. Whether night or day. I inhale you on my shirt. you know. You line the pleats of my skirt. So distinct. You’re with me On my way. That fragrence I know so well. That essence that I smell. It’s not cologne or soap. And you wear it well. You follow me Through the day. your scent. Separating you from the rest.YOU WEAR IT WELL I wear you on my sleeve. . Not Ivory or Irish Spring. Take you when I leave.

The shit we say. Like children Not yet grown. Can’t make it on our own. Realizing It won’t work apart. And then we pray. . We laugh.NOT ALONE The games we play. Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through. Alone is not what we do. We hurt.

You don’t need to say it. A freshness for our start.THE BEST OF ME I make up the best of you. Your life tells me so. And I know I make up the best of you. I’m proud to see what you’ve become. With me. Because you are the best of me. . I brought a new place for you. A prize for all to see. The light replaced the dark. Order lives where chaos dwelled. This much I truly know.

Will forever change the way I now look at you. The chain contains a kink.TRUST It’s like a broken fence: When mended. you see. Hoping things are as good as new. you still see that link. . Looking okay. But that kink. You try to move along. Although repaired. Thinking that you’re done.

. Skin of chocolate. I fear you love yourself More than you love me. For the chocolate and the caramel. With eyes of auburn. You don’t even see.SHADES OF ME How can you not love me. Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love.

A world where only you escape: A world of beaches.LOVE’S ESCAPE I know where your happiness lies. I’m ready now. I take you to another place. Powder-white sand. A world that rivals Disneyland. . And I wait With your love’s escape. It’s embedded between my thighs.

Not so simple to me. Is not simple In my eyes. Though simple it may be. A simple choice It may seem. .THE CHOICE The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. A place Finally to be me. To live in hell Or go be free.

an enemy. That voice appears and says. Did you forget yesterday? A friend today. Don’t forget yesterday. . I truly thought you understood. Face twisted mean. So it may seem. No matter what a friend may say. Although you’re okay today. Did you forget yesterday? The screaming and the yelling. Yesterday.DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY Every time it’s going good.

Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me. . Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess. Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I. You can’t say yes.WHAT WE DESERVE Do you deserve All that I do. to be with you? I can’t say no. Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve.

It may just be Around the corner. Life alone brings doubts and fears. So. I fear. . You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. dry your eyes. We tried to make it work. But. Because I see the truth. it’s not meant to be. I know it’s not what you want to hear. But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you. And I’m not the one for you. Fully awake.THE TRUTH I’m sad today. Another smiling face. Your true love awaits. Truth is you’re not the one for me. No time to cry.

It’d be you and I. In a perfect world. And sit by my side. You’d only have eyes for me. In a perfect world. I’d always be right. There would be no other for you. . And I can only dream. Your love to give For me always. Sadly.A PERFECT WORLD In a perfect world. You’d forever stay. Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem. today it’s not that way. You’d agree with me. We’d never fight. I’d be all you see. You’d hold me tight. In a perfect world.

YOUR EVERYTHING
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.

FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.

WE BELONG
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.

Women are cunning creatures you know. You should have never estimated The power of my mind. The perfect moment to strike. . Pretend I’m okay inside.LYING IN WAIT I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies. Believed that when you closed the door. We plot our moves From the go. For the right time. It was fine to say goodbye. We lie in wait. It is so easy for me to smile.

Because it’s all I know. Hoping it’s not too late. You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had. Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day.MOVING ON I wait for you in the lot. Now I sit and wait for you. Because you set me free. But I fear your mind’s made up. It hurts to be in this spot. . That’s too damn bad. Thought the day would never come. Where I said I’d be. I can’t forget what we had. When you would let me go.

You look into my eyes.NOT YOUR FORTE I tell you I need more. Give me no reply. I ask you all the time To treat me like I need. Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte. . It’s not enough for me. But I don’t think It will ever be. And sleep.

. But … I wanted you.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show. And now I sit. For the real you can never love me. What I see Is not really you. Although I know the truth. Alone with the truth after the fall. How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all.

You say you don’t care.A LOVE LIKE MINE You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone. Miss what we had. So you can finally see. The way I kissed you late at night. I really hope you find her soon. And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same. That there are many more like me. And please. you think you know it all. Yeah. hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. Think it’s all a big game. Go ahead. Make your move. But time will tell. You’re gonna miss me so damn bad. .

Your love will kill My spirit. Your love will make Me lose my mind.TERMINAL LOVE Your love will be The end of me. If I let it be. . too. Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me. If that’s what I let it do. If I let it inside.

Showing me the man That you’re proud to be.THE LITTLE THINGS It’s the little things I appreciate. It’s great to be by your side. Holding my hand. . You tell me that I’m beautiful. You’re blind to all that temptation outside. They don’t have to cost a thing. To live this life with you. I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do. And that I deserve the best. Ignoring all the rest.

Because you need to be first. Because all you thought about was you. And it’s your fault. My spirit grows. I’m the one who made you into you. I let you do what you want to. My anger knows It’s my fault. You don’t encourage me. Don’t want to hear my words. And it’s my fault. I finally love me more that you do. . You discourage me.LOVING ME My anger grows. My spirit knows It’s your fault.

I still believe in love. I’m a fan of love. I lay out the welcome mat for love. Because it waits somewhere for me. But it won’t knock at my door.A FAN OF LOVE I am a fan of love. I still believe in love. Although it’s not yet mine. I will wait for love. I’d sit in the stands and cheer. Although it doesn’t live here. . I lay out the welcome mat for love. Because someday love will set me free. Because I see it all the time. Though it doesn’t live here no more. I will wait for love.

But you won’t show your face. A visitor from another place.A DIFFERENT CLOTH Cut from a different cloth. If only in our eyes. When I don’t even know your name. But we’re not meant to be. You try to live in my realty. Your world is nothing like The one I’m from. Tell me why you’re in my space. Yet you came. You and I are not the same. . and you try To become you and I. I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come. Maybe that cloth Really is the same.

To do what I have to do. . Though the shitty lies you grab. So glad to have this new breakthrough.PROMISES Promises you fail to keep Are all I have. I don’t know why I ask for truth. It’s nowhere inside of you. Honesty is within your reach.

.NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE You can’t see me Past your superiority. Not taking your shit any more. It’s your way or the door. There’s no you and me in us for you. I try and try to be What you want from me. twisted game. But I’m tired of playing Your sick. I’m like a moth to your flame. I’m sick to hell of being under your spell.

WINNING THE RACE I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight. First place is a space we both want. Because we both want to win the race. Trying to keep up. Because you have to be first. Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath. . Two peas of a different pod. Can’t let me be in front. You sprint along. We’ll never be face-to-face. now by my side.

POWER Looking through rose-colored glasses. I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely. . I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections. Co-existence is the only power You hold over me.

Why don’t I feel comfortable. indeed. . but the one I should let go.SING FOR YOU Why don’t I sing for you? A good question. Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts. Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for.

Let loose your hold of me. What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh. Love. Just break your chains. how you love to tell your lovely lies. Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love. . The jokes are all at my expense. I laugh along in my defense. And set me free.LOVE Love. Love. Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh.

REMEMBERING LOVE Remember when Love was enough. A time of unrivaled bliss. Even when times were tough? It got you through. . A time I surely miss. When unity was a goal. Family meant we were whole. With nothing else. Surviving by itself.

. hours. you grin. Still alone. I look elsewhere instead. Our whole lives lost. minutes. You try to read my face. days. The seconds. So much to say. But nothing’s said.LOST LIVES Here we go again. I smile. You stare at the floor. Yet nothing was said. And here we are In elder years. We drift together. Just like the day before. So much to say. Turning into weeks. Because we never speak. I hold my breath. And we’ve both paid the cost.

Although I seldom tell you so. I think of you before I rest. Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said: I can’t live my life without Having you by my side. I try my best. How I cherish you.MY WIFE You bought me flowers today: Roses. pink and red. With you is where my heart lies. You are the reason why I work so hard. My wife. .

Or use my fists. Curse her name.KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS I lose a piece of me every day. But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside. How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her. Call her a bitch. And you think they’re just words. I disappear with every word you say. .

No one else would matter. He’d cherish them because they were mine. He’d love every part of me. Live together happily. . He wouldn’t see anyone else. That man I made for me. Put me before himself. A perfect world For him and me. He’d always take care of me. I wouldn’t want for anything. And even love my kids.THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME Oh. He’d cherish the ground I walked on. It wouldn’t matter if they were his. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often.

LIFE .

so I may rise. I put you first. I lead My life in Your hands. as I carry on. Get me through to a new start. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day. In you. Supporting me until the end. I have a faithful friend. You guide. Guiding me along the way. And I’ll always put you first. I put you first.I PUT YOU FIRST You’ve been there Since day one. And so. . You let me fall. I put your first. that’s the way it will be. And so. Whether I am right or wrong. this is why I will believe With Your Word. Bring me light after the dark. Let me laugh after I’ve cried. Lord. And so. You’re by my side.

He’s got my map. He is the Lord above. .FAITH He came today and shook my soul. Mouths the words before I talk. He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break. Says what I think before I do. With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day. the path I walk. And I thought I knew it all. predicts my moves. I don’t know nothing anymore. My whole world. He knows the goings on inside of me. I think he’s psychic see. He has my unwavering faith. he’s taken hold. He knows my mind.

Sets me free. . If asked. It shines so bright. I would have told you so. you know. No matter how hard you try. Won’t stay inside. A cover will not work. You can’t contain What will remain. It’s impossible to hide a lie. Rains down on me.LIES AND TRUTH The truth is the light. A lie won’t hide.

. I can’t lie low. So that confidence. Can’t keep me down no more. For the entire world to see. The chains are gone. Has built a wall that can’t be broken. ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be. Yes. I got it now. The square peg now fits the hole. Realizing who I am. Who I am inside.REALIZATION The beauty of it all. but now I see The truth I bought now sold. Screaming to me in my own song. Was in a fog. Now I’m free. Flipping a script You no longer own. powering my soul. Took years to find.

Now is the end for me. So I say my last goodbye. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today. Killing my mind And spirit. I try to fight. And I cannot escape. . So much to bear. breathlessly. All consuming. But. A better place awaits me. Everywhere. Like the way That evil does. The pain will end. too.ENDING THE PAIN This world of pain. It’s all around. Stealing my light. finally. through the fog I can’t see. I’ll be with you forever now. Staining the air.

Enough to drive the sane insane. Guess I’ll listen to radio instead. So I block it and stay inside. I’ll start my fight by changing me. Start my task with one woman. Live by his word and let him see. For fear of what it might say. I vow to do the best I can. Someone’s missing. But radio’s no better. I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. Or found dead. same old thing. It calls to me and screams my name. Everyone’s fighting or arguing.CHANGING ME I couldn’t watch the news today. . Can’t let this dark swallow my light.

I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay. I took the pain away with me. I’m the one it killed. The one underneath’s too tough. The pain still wouldn’t go away. Cutting deeper still. But blood is not enough. The pain inside just wouldn’t die. Now my pain has gone away. I pierce the layer that I see. . Although it hurt. Finally free. I had to go because it stayed. Now I’m gone. I couldn’t cry.BREAKING FREE I try to cut the pain away. After all the blood had dried.

Before you were inside. You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues. The love I thought I had to have. . Although you were not yet mine. A battle I couldn’t lose. I held you tight and kissed your cheek. I feared it was not true. I stood tall. By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away. Here I stand forever.MY SON SHINES Long ago I dreamt of you. But through it all. For the other half of you. Only the mixture that I needed.

me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me.KNOWING ME Do you really know who I am. . Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me. Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know.

It moves my feet. Dance with me tonight. . The rhythm stirs Inside my head. Please play for me.DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT I feel the music From deep within. Dance with me tonight. I feel the beat. My arms they sway That away. Your song instead. It moves my hips. Dance with me tonight. Made for sin.

Sometimes too much to bare. But many will always care.TOO SOON Gone too soon. It’s sad to know your time is done. . What younger ones can’t fare. We didn’t have you long. Pain can be an awful thing. Your will was not as strong. And let them know An early end’s no way to go. So hold them tight. Help them push the pain aside. They’ll wish we stopped you just in time. We older folks can tolerate. So here is where they’ll stay. Though your beauty will last always. To make sure you were still here.

Why did I go? I should have paused. I approach. You lay still. I wait till day To go your way. I knew you were there After all. Hoping you snoozed.THE BROWN WIDOW You wait for me In the dark. Hoping you’re asleep. You strike so fast. But you’re too quick. You’re poisonous. Too many eyes Cover me. . Await my move. I hold my breath.

DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight. Take your time. .THE TIME IS NOW Slow down. Live your best life now. It will be just right.

it lies inside.INNER SUPERSTAR We possess it early on. But often forget where it lies. take a peak. Remembering where it first shined. And then peaked out often. Where it shines the best. . After we have forgotten. Specific to each owner. Years later we get another glimpse. It differs from the rest. Residing where it’s meant to be. Dormant. We get a glimpse. Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. Our inner superstar Was always there inside.

But then we find courage inside And turn it all around. While hiding in our youth. . Listen for what life has in store. We make a turn on our own. Life’s not all a mystery. Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. Its view widens so we may see. Without listening to what it has to say. But we get in the way. Be patient. Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down. It shows its face in elder years.LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL Life tries to take the wheel.

This I didn’t know.TOO LATE You were mine On borrowed time. . Now tomorrow’s here. Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so. I took for granted you’d be here. I’m so sorry I was wrong. until tomorrow. At least. And you’re gone.

.AHA MOMENT Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise. spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do.

. I can be any hue I want to be. When ready. Neon bright. Relaxed for when I sleep. a light yellow. When wide awake. Like many colors of the rainbow. A softer shade. They cover you And color me. A blue for when I’m feeling low.COLORS OF ME There are many Shades of me. Growing daily like the evergreen. I change from day-to-day. you know. I shine brightly for all to see. Black or white. A darker color when we fight. A range of shades for everything. I’m an aubergine.

I don’t know how Or even why. The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow. Living. Thinking. breathing poetry . The sadness that you may see. Is all poetry to me. I think in rhyme. rhyming All the time. And it makes up The best of me. It sings to me from deep inside.A POET’S SONG I live in verse.

Shine from underneath? Is it dim.BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH Just how bright Is your light. barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath. . The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow.

. I open up. Then takes my coat. I am your friend. Says take a seat. Says stay awhile. Inside that room lives poetry. And offers me its words to eat. Encourages me With its warm smile. It embraces me. It offers me a place to stay.POETRY LIVES HERE A door has opened up for me. It comforts me. And says Please come back any day. It says to me. It sets me free. Then sings to me In special notes. It invites me in.

It’s because I am beauty. The wisdom I possess. . That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss. The pleasures I possess. I am life. I am woman. or shock you. Knowing that your fears. offend. The comfort of my embrace. Curve of my waist. The knowledge I give.KNOWING MY WORTH Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice. The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back. And I know my worth. Shape of my thighs. I can erase? If I frighten.

OF ALL BEINGS Fellow women of today. Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man. We are the best of all beings. you should abhor. One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth. Rewarded with so many qualities. Forgetting it. .

My destination is on my mind. Every road must come to an end. I smile and hold it inside. Happiness and long-lost friends. . Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me. A sight I almost see. Thinking of how it will be.THE LONG ROAD HOME I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead. Did mostly as I pleased. Held some hands along the way. What a lovely ride. I can’t wait for mine.

Sounds fully.THE SOUND OF SIGNS I hear the birds chirping.” The tree breaths. “Your time is here. It is today. Listen closely. Giving the breeze What it needs. As if to say. As if saying to me. “The time has come For you to leave. The signs are there For you to see. Close your eyes.” The willow weeps. .

A CALL TO ARMS *STOP* Turn off your television set. What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man. Or we all lose. I’ve grabbed my pen. . It’s not too late. What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot. This is not a test.

My home can be one place or a few. My home may just be with you. My home is where I chose to be. My home is where I leave my heart.HOME My home is where I lay my head And pray at night. Though we’re apart. Beside the bed. Where happiness lives Indefinitely. . Where true love lives.

Should crown our lover’s throne. And miss out on the better prize. We turn away. This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet. So easy to believe a lie. Ignorant to what’s inside. And in our haste.THE BETTER PRIZE The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade. The better prize. A trick used to confuse the mind. Although it seems quite odd. . But what lies inside. Open your foolish eyes. It passes instantly. We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone.

I remember to relax today. I’m tired already. add some play. Unfortunately.RELAXING MY MIND Been a long day. And I know more will surely come. that’s the way life goes. I’ve seen this day before. But I know things will be fine. My body’s weary. too. Spirit. Time to sit and rest my mind. Try to balance both and remain whole. Save some work. .

Where all is calm. and I stay safe. And pray trouble runs out of time. It should be tired of me. Surrounded by my friends. I’ve given up on happiness. Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free.TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME Trouble road begins at my door. Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me. And I know nothing else. I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been. Why won’t it set me free? . So I continue to Keep hope alive. It must lie somewhere else.

Look to the sky. You smile at me And hit the gas. Even the belt Won’t keep me safe. You’re driving too fast. And then thank God I learned to fly. Away I go To a better place. You’re speeding now. Without your brakes. Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape. As I brace For the crash. . To ride with you. There is no room.THE GREATEST ESCAPE Slow down for me. I close my eyes. No space for me. How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on.

I wait until it’s dark. Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two. So much to lose. Worried I’ll be found. Premeditated steps I take with no regrets. everything I’ve got. The snipers waiting for that clear shot. . Can never take the leap. Worried about the fall. Covering your insides. Afraid to make a sound.THE FALL Land mines. afterall.

That moment is meant just for you To make your move. Don’t be afraid. Don’t be scared to let go. Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know. Hope our move won’t make a mess.MAKING MOVES Every now and then. We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go. You’re right where you need to be. Do what you say. Make your move. Take a step and not look back. And we’re finally on track. We wish for the best. Then we realize The move was just right. . Scared to make a move.

My eyes are opened wide. Life just passes by. It never waits. I’ve already won the race. I never saw the signs. And now the time is here For me to finally shine. It’s time to take my rightful place. The final bell has rung. Focused on today. Or what they tried to say. And now half my life’s Just floated away. . Light miles ahead. Although my mouth is closed.WINNING THE RACE I’ve wasted too much time.

A true friend. You call me. The times we share.TRUE FRIENDS I call you. You know I’m really into it. And I need you there. . I’m glad I have you in my life. But we’re just friends. You always take my call. indeed. You listen when I talk. It’s so innocent. Because when I need someone to vent to. Even when I want to vent About nothing at all. I need you to show me Just how I should be. Taking it all in.

Often times Those little things Should remain a secret. And what things we should keep.KEEPING SECRETS Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing. There are times When we may find Some things troubling. . We need to learn What to say.

WITHOUT DOUBTS
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.

ANGER
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.

MY MOVES
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.

Too much for me to hold inside. I’m coming in! . Hold the door. So little time. No more sitting still for me today. Ready for me to begin.FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD Listen up! I got lots to say. So much to do.

I won’t be sad. Waiting for you to take me to some other place. This life has gotten really bad. I will be ready. I’m tired today. When you come for me. I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go. When you come for me. I’m looking forward to the trip ahead. . When you come for me.WHEN YOU COME FOR ME When you come for me. In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again.

A MERE SMUDGE I’m a smudge on your window pane. You open up. but don’t know what to say. Guess I’m in too deep. Desire being my excuse. Loving the way That I confuse. Giving in to your every want and need. Just how a smudge succeeds. . Can’t get rid of me.

Locked away indefinitely. That I can’t survive on my own. accept your smile. Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape. You say. But I’m the one that pays the toll. Drink my wine. A prisoner’s life is what I lead. . I try and try To live your life.” I take a sip. You say it’ll never be.A PRISONER’S LIFE I want to be free. Not knowing poison’s inside. “Celebrate with me.

AT A CROSSROADS Here I am. I’ll guide you. And That’s just what I’ll do. Decision time tonight. Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be. And I finally see. No one to help me with this one. . Make your move. It hit me hard. A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go. it’ll be done. Close your eyes. Either way. All at once. I hear.

They didn’t live here. So they don’t live here no more. Year after year. I’ve got to drive those blues away. Mainly out of fear. Happiness and joyful days. Too scared to move. They silenced all the tears. I can’t always be afraid. Awkward distance. And I held on. From this life I need more.DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY Sad songs are all I heard. Arguments. .

HOW How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning? .

too. . Taking over everything. Consuming who it occupies. Making you believe you died. And pain’s waiting At another’s door. SHALL PASS Pain can’t last forever. shall pass. It. Because nothing ever lasts Of pain. shall pass. But … It. too. It’s got places to go.IT. That bell it rings. TOO. Till only it survives.

Every day is a fight for me. Holding onto my pride. . Try to turn it all around. Fight to keep it all in order. For the misery in store. But the price I pay is worth being free.HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE I try to hold my head above water. Try not to let the weight get me down. I suit up for the war. And I fight with my head high.

Such a wicked game to play. We don’t see What lies within. It’s become customary To point out all the flaws. So afraid of being called out our name. Skirt the blame. Believing those wicked smiles. Mistakes that others seem to make. Our downfall in the end. All the while hiding ours. . Although we are among friends.OUR DOWNFALL We are a sad society: So quick to judge. Point fingers.

. The only way truly to be free. Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be.BEING FREE I won’t let you change who I am.

Now it’s time for me to grow. Picked up where I had left off. Remembering who I was. Time for me to shine. Just the way a record does. Don’t know how long it’s been.MY WORLD Sometime ago I lost myself. Concentrating on what I’m meant to do. I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine. My world finally mine. This thought had become commonplace. My eyes are open now. . What treasures lied within. It’s how I lived my life. Forgot who I was inside.

Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine. . See … I’m making it my goal. Although it tries to hide.MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine. I know. It’s there.

But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat. I begin again.NEARLY BROKEN Thought it was the end of me. Hope not within my reach. Nearly broken. My spirit nearly broken. . As the pieces began to mend. Thought there was no escape. So glad that I had faith. But I’m on the mend. My mind said all was lost.

and a wife. the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while. She knows how much I meant to her. She’s beautiful And full of life. A mother. That friend I’ve found is me.MY FRIEND Oh. She’s happy. daughter. She loves me more than anything. . Because she knows her worth.

The other upside down.THE SMILE AND THE FROWN Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown. . One right-side up. The stories they tell Without saying a word. Saying everything With just a smirk.

REMAINING LONELY Loneliness. have mercy on me. The love I lost. Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip. . Memories barely keep me warm. I remain lonely. I’d rather have my love with me. Loosen your lover’s grip. I’ll forever mourn. Instead.

Visualize it’s there In front of you. What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside? .FEAR INSIDE I challenge you To sit in silence. Imagine your worst fear. Take a sigh. Close your eyes.

EMMA LEE
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.

FREEDOM
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.

TODAY
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.

So here I sit. But to you. I should say How I feel.WAITING All I do Is wait around for you. . I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time. feelings are no big deal. Waiting once more. My time no longer mine. Until you walk through my door.

Because this I’m thankful for. So I sing today for you. you know. .SINGING TODAY FOR YOU Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time.

I’m not listening anyway. Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out. . I don’t care what you have to say. Yet your mouth moves constantly.NOT LISTENING Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago. Though I don’t listen any more.

Taking in all you see. And what I’m meant to be. You know me Better Than I ever could know. You watch and study me. Loving everything I am.WINDOW TO MY SOUL I see you Through the window to my soul. Looking through The window to my soul. .

Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth. Am I supposed to smile. Thank you for letting me know.PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL You’re pretty for a black girl. Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more. . Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud? You’re pretty for a black girl. You’re pretty for a black girl. What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me? You’re pretty for a black girl.

. you know. Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen.FOR MY SISTERS My sister. Thought I should let you know. Beauty lying inside and out. Thought I should tell you so. you are beautiful.

To share all we’ve got. This place we’ve gotten to somehow. To show each other why we’re here. The time we have is now. Seeing all we’re meant to see. Even if we’ve forgotten.THE TIME IS NOW The only time we have is now. To feel how it should be. .

and songs. She writes poetry. . Glonka.” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten. “The Amazing Mr.BIO Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school. She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons. Her first publication was a short story entitled. short stories.

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