ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition .Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved.

For my boys. Make your mark. Blake. The world is yours. Devante. I love you. Mom . and Jaden. Brandon.

CONTENTS Title Page Copyright Page LOVE Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone .

The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You .

LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me LIFE I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song .

Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How .

Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now . too.It.

LOVE .

Clean the floors. Wash your clothes. Be your lover and more. I smile for you. Bake your bread. As you breathe. For you. All you have to do is ask. Handle with care. Giving you more than my last. You are my light Through the dark. I leave my mark. My world expands. I make your food.LOVING YOU As you awake. What lovers do. . I do it all. I live for you At your command. By loving you.

All thanks to you.THANKS TO YOU Cold. All thanks to you. . Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth. Bitter through and through. Only anger in this place. Rotten to the very core. heartless. Blacker than the darkest night. The monster made. My evil eyes are full of spite.

Now face-to-face. Licking your lips. Caress my cheek from where you stand. My hips move to your beat. And you haven’t said a word. Your gaze has only reached my thighs. My chest. You didn’t have to say a word. I feel your hands all over me. Felling the heat between you and me.WITHOUT WORDS I know you like what you see. you lift your hand. I kiss your lips. And still not a word. I see your eyes start at my feet. woman and man. I quench your thirst. Don’t have to say a word. it heaves to my surprise. I see the way you look at me. .

It’s over now. The foolishness I left behind. But you don’t see me. My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. Emptied my soul. The rest gone down the drain. just wasted time. And you never saw me.WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME Here I stand out in front. I gave my all for you to live. Requesting more so you can live. Still shaded by your tree. Bare for all to see. You’ve taken all I have to give. . My end is here. And now my shell is all I have. I shed my skin. The years I lost.

A constant cold stuns my heart. In the end it was always us. We have grown together. You are my fall. You are my spring. Our love is blossoming for all to see. Please stay a while. The heat I crave to feel at night. You are my winter. living long it must. it’s just you and me. We from the start. All is still. We bring forth our new ecstasy. You are my summer. . Protecting me with strength that’s harsh. A love so grand.SEASONS OF LOVE A light is shining bright. Existing even after the end. No you and I. built-in trust. A smile that warms the coldest night.

Don’t want happiness here again. Just let me be. please. my worst fear. The damage done won’t disappear. You must understand my need to be here. I need the anger.BROKEN Please. I’ve got to let the burn roam free. I want to cry. I killed your love for me. So. I need to feel the pain inside of me. just let me be. . Not bottle it up inside of me. Don’t want you to dry my eyes. Just let this pain pierce my skin. oh please.

I’d say. Me in your heart. Feed you by hand. No worry about what could be heard. I would make a meal For you and me. Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. Our fingers intertwined. Enjoy the day. . I would promise you. Open my eyes. Wash your feet Late that night. Make love to you without saying a word. Sitting by your side. You on my mind. Hold your hand. Forever stay. My love always. Silently gazing In your eyes. gazing upon your face. It would always be this way. That I’d never leave. I would call in sick.MY LAST DAY I would wake up a little late.

That’s how I would spend My last day. .

Till this life ends. I’ll show up. The very last one to show up. You spit my name With twisted face. if you yell. Through thick and thin when times are hard. I’ll show up. it will be us. You curse and scream. So when you’re mad as hell. just know I won’t be walking out the door.I WILL SHOW UP If I yell. I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you. I’ll show up. . You see I gave my word in front of God. And I will always show up. You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. I will show up. Face so mean.

. No. Just here for me to feel alright. I’m telling you. You can find someone else to fill those shoes. And give me what I need. Not here to be your girl tonight. it’s what you heard. Lie down with me in this moment.WHAT I NEED No. And give me what I need. Yeah. Don’t want to chill or hang with you. So close your lips and take my hand. It’s not my place to be her for you. we don’t have to talk or say a word. Just take me on into the room. I don’t want to be your girl. Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do. Cover me with ecstasy.

LOVE ALL OVER ME Smiling all twenty four. Brighter than the night’s sky. I am love. Brightness everlasting. Cannot be dimmed. My glow shines through the darkness. I color the winter’s night. I will remain. Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me. And I will forge ahead. . I am the Milky Way. After the end.

I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized. Intoxicating. .HYPNOTIZED Fine As the darkest wine.

I fear. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol. . I know my needs fall on deaf ears. God. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man. A dozen women for a dime. Not just the night-time one you sell. Can’t compete with street life. Love shouldn’t have to be this rough. Just like the day before. Don’t sell away your half from me. as well.SETTING YOU FREE Here I wait Today for you. I’ll hold it down and set you free. A part-time love is not enough. Why do I compete With the streets.

Swinging and swaying to your moods. and I love you more than anything. I hold on tight for the ride. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry. At 10:30. Time to put me back on track. hell begins. But it’s 1. I’m coming back. You say you’re sorry all the time. nasty at 10. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry. Say forgive me this time. .HELL AND BACK I go through hell to be with you. time for hell again. Pray to God that I don’t cry. Nice at 8. At 11:30. And try to make it back from hell again. Maybe this time is the last time. Although the truth lies elsewhere.

And also trying to find me. I pray that you’re still looking. But my conviction still remains strong. too? I’ve been waiting oh so long. . Not giving up.SEARCHING Where are you? Are you searching for me. too. Even met some dogs. still searching. If the perfect one waits somewhere for you. Out there trying to see. Kissed so many frogs. I wonder if you’re like me.

It takes you up. Pretends to stay. and Evaporates to your dismay. It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect. Sometimes love takes broader shape. Can pick you up and be complete. then drops you down. And surprises you with no regrets. Refuses to be confined. And just await your love’s surprise.LOVE’S SURPRISE Sometimes love throws you a curve. It flows outside the lines. So hold on tight. But love can also be so sweet. Love pulls you in. . It smiles at you and then frowns. It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything. Enjoy the ride.

So glad to have you In my life. And I rule the roost. Just what I’m meant to do. Tell me it’s all mine. The queen I’m meant to be. Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do. Give me the world.WE LIFT EACH OTHER You lift me up For the world to see. Standing tall. . You show me how Real love should be with you. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time. by my side. I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined. I tell you you’re The best at what you do.

Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile. . You’re having fun. You pile it on Because I can take it. Say some words. Pretend to care. And try to break me. Because your plan is number one. Curse my name. All others be damned. But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy.THE WARNING It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you. You had a plan all the while. And then not care Who you hurt.

The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared. I’d miss everything. The joy and laughter every night. I’d say to you. About you. The happiness I felt inside. “My darling.” .MISSING YOU “What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say. “Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared.

. You line the pleats of my skirt. An aroma only you possess. Not Ivory or Irish Spring. You follow me Through the day. your scent. It’s not cologne or soap. I inhale you on my shirt. And you wear it well. You’re with me On my way. Whether night or day. That essence that I smell. you know. Separating you from the rest.YOU WEAR IT WELL I wear you on my sleeve. That fragrence I know so well. Whether at work or at play. Take you when I leave. So distinct.

Alone is not what we do. And then we pray. Can’t make it on our own. . We laugh. Like children Not yet grown.NOT ALONE The games we play. We hurt. Realizing It won’t work apart. Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through. The shit we say.

THE BEST OF ME I make up the best of you. A prize for all to see. With me. The light replaced the dark. Your life tells me so. You don’t need to say it. A freshness for our start. Because you are the best of me. Order lives where chaos dwelled. I’m proud to see what you’ve become. I brought a new place for you. This much I truly know. And I know I make up the best of you. .

Looking okay. But that kink. Will forever change the way I now look at you. you still see that link.TRUST It’s like a broken fence: When mended. . you see. The chain contains a kink. Hoping things are as good as new. Thinking that you’re done. Although repaired. You try to move along.

For the chocolate and the caramel. I fear you love yourself More than you love me. With eyes of auburn.SHADES OF ME How can you not love me. You don’t even see. Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love. Skin of chocolate. .

A world that rivals Disneyland. I’m ready now. I take you to another place. . A world where only you escape: A world of beaches. It’s embedded between my thighs.LOVE’S ESCAPE I know where your happiness lies. And I wait With your love’s escape. Powder-white sand.

Though simple it may be. .THE CHOICE The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. A simple choice It may seem. Is not simple In my eyes. To live in hell Or go be free. Not so simple to me. A place Finally to be me.

Although you’re okay today. I truly thought you understood. . Don’t forget yesterday. an enemy. Did you forget yesterday? A friend today. No matter what a friend may say. That voice appears and says. Did you forget yesterday? The screaming and the yelling. So it may seem. Face twisted mean. Yesterday.DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY Every time it’s going good.

You can’t say yes. Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve. Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess. Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I.WHAT WE DESERVE Do you deserve All that I do. to be with you? I can’t say no. . Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me.

Truth is you’re not the one for me. Because I see the truth. Fully awake. I know it’s not what you want to hear. But. But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you.THE TRUTH I’m sad today. You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. And I’m not the one for you. So. It may just be Around the corner. Life alone brings doubts and fears. . No time to cry. dry your eyes. We tried to make it work. it’s not meant to be. Another smiling face. Your true love awaits. I fear.

I’d be all you see. It’d be you and I. There would be no other for you. Sadly.A PERFECT WORLD In a perfect world. I’d always be right. Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem. And sit by my side. Your love to give For me always. today it’s not that way. You’d hold me tight. You’d forever stay. And I can only dream. We’d never fight. In a perfect world. You’d agree with me. You’d only have eyes for me. . In a perfect world. In a perfect world.

YOUR EVERYTHING
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.

FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.

WE BELONG
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.

The perfect moment to strike. . Women are cunning creatures you know.LYING IN WAIT I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies. You should have never estimated The power of my mind. For the right time. Believed that when you closed the door. Pretend I’m okay inside. We lie in wait. It is so easy for me to smile. We plot our moves From the go. It was fine to say goodbye.

You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had. Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day. It hurts to be in this spot. Now I sit and wait for you. Because you set me free. Thought the day would never come. When you would let me go. But I fear your mind’s made up. Hoping it’s not too late.MOVING ON I wait for you in the lot. . Because it’s all I know. That’s too damn bad. I can’t forget what we had. Where I said I’d be.

You look into my eyes. But I don’t think It will ever be. It’s not enough for me. Give me no reply.NOT YOUR FORTE I tell you I need more. I ask you all the time To treat me like I need. . Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte. And sleep.

And now I sit. so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show. Although I know the truth.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. What I see Is not really you. . But … I wanted you. For the real you can never love me. How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all. Alone with the truth after the fall.

And please. hold your breath Until she loves you like I do.A LOVE LIKE MINE You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone. But time will tell. And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same. Think it’s all a big game. You say you don’t care. you think you know it all. You’re gonna miss me so damn bad. Go ahead. Miss what we had. That there are many more like me. Make your move. The way I kissed you late at night. . Yeah. I really hope you find her soon. So you can finally see.

Your love will kill My spirit. . If I let it be. too. If that’s what I let it do. If I let it inside. Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me. Your love will make Me lose my mind.TERMINAL LOVE Your love will be The end of me.

It’s great to be by your side. Holding my hand. Ignoring all the rest. To live this life with you. Showing me the man That you’re proud to be. I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do. And that I deserve the best.THE LITTLE THINGS It’s the little things I appreciate. They don’t have to cost a thing. . You’re blind to all that temptation outside. You tell me that I’m beautiful.

You discourage me. And it’s your fault. My spirit knows It’s your fault. I’m the one who made you into you. And it’s my fault. Because all you thought about was you. My spirit grows. You don’t encourage me. . Because you need to be first.LOVING ME My anger grows. I let you do what you want to. My anger knows It’s my fault. I finally love me more that you do. Don’t want to hear my words.

Although it’s not yet mine.A FAN OF LOVE I am a fan of love. I still believe in love. I lay out the welcome mat for love. I’d sit in the stands and cheer. But it won’t knock at my door. . I will wait for love. Though it doesn’t live here no more. Although it doesn’t live here. I lay out the welcome mat for love. Because it waits somewhere for me. Because I see it all the time. I’m a fan of love. I still believe in love. Because someday love will set me free. I will wait for love.

But you won’t show your face. Maybe that cloth Really is the same. I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come. Tell me why you’re in my space. You and I are not the same. . A visitor from another place. When I don’t even know your name.A DIFFERENT CLOTH Cut from a different cloth. Yet you came. and you try To become you and I. You try to live in my realty. Your world is nothing like The one I’m from. If only in our eyes. But we’re not meant to be.

Honesty is within your reach. It’s nowhere inside of you. Though the shitty lies you grab.PROMISES Promises you fail to keep Are all I have. I don’t know why I ask for truth. . So glad to have this new breakthrough. To do what I have to do.

It’s your way or the door.NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE You can’t see me Past your superiority. But I’m tired of playing Your sick. There’s no you and me in us for you. Not taking your shit any more. I try and try to be What you want from me. twisted game. . I’m sick to hell of being under your spell. I’m like a moth to your flame.

We’ll never be face-to-face. now by my side. Because we both want to win the race. You sprint along. First place is a space we both want.WINNING THE RACE I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight. . Because you have to be first. Two peas of a different pod. Trying to keep up. Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath. Can’t let me be in front.

I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely. I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections. . Co-existence is the only power You hold over me.POWER Looking through rose-colored glasses.

Why don’t I feel comfortable. Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts.SING FOR YOU Why don’t I sing for you? A good question. indeed. but the one I should let go. Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for. .

And set me free. . how you love to tell your lovely lies. Love. Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh. Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love. Let loose your hold of me. Love. Just break your chains. What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh. I laugh along in my defense.LOVE Love. The jokes are all at my expense.

A time I surely miss. . With nothing else. Even when times were tough? It got you through.REMEMBERING LOVE Remember when Love was enough. Family meant we were whole. Surviving by itself. When unity was a goal. A time of unrivaled bliss.

Yet nothing was said. hours. Because we never speak. . So much to say. Just like the day before. I look elsewhere instead. The seconds. You stare at the floor. You try to read my face. I hold my breath. Our whole lives lost. We drift together.LOST LIVES Here we go again. Still alone. So much to say. Turning into weeks. I smile. And we’ve both paid the cost. minutes. But nothing’s said. days. And here we are In elder years. you grin.

MY WIFE You bought me flowers today: Roses. How I cherish you. You are the reason why I work so hard. With you is where my heart lies. Although I seldom tell you so. Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said: I can’t live my life without Having you by my side. My wife. I think of you before I rest. pink and red. . I try my best.

KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS I lose a piece of me every day. How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her. I disappear with every word you say. Or use my fists. Call her a bitch. Curse her name. . And you think they’re just words. But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside.

He’d always take care of me. He’d cherish the ground I walked on. A perfect world For him and me. And even love my kids. He’d cherish them because they were mine. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often.THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME Oh. Live together happily. He wouldn’t see anyone else. That man I made for me. . It wouldn’t matter if they were his. No one else would matter. I wouldn’t want for anything. Put me before himself. He’d love every part of me.

LIFE .

as I carry on. Supporting me until the end. And I’ll always put you first. Guiding me along the way. You’re by my side. this is why I will believe With Your Word. Whether I am right or wrong. You guide.I PUT YOU FIRST You’ve been there Since day one. that’s the way it will be. I have a faithful friend. And so. I lead My life in Your hands. Lord. In you. And so. You let me fall. I put you first. I put your first. Bring me light after the dark. And so. . I put you first. Get me through to a new start. Let me laugh after I’ve cried. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day. so I may rise.

He is the Lord above. And I thought I knew it all. He knows the goings on inside of me. My whole world. He’s got my map. predicts my moves. he’s taken hold. . He knows my mind. Says what I think before I do. He has my unwavering faith. I think he’s psychic see. Mouths the words before I talk. the path I walk.FAITH He came today and shook my soul. He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break. I don’t know nothing anymore. With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day.

LIES AND TRUTH The truth is the light. You can’t contain What will remain. It’s impossible to hide a lie. Sets me free. No matter how hard you try. It shines so bright. you know. A lie won’t hide. A cover will not work. Rains down on me. . If asked. Won’t stay inside. I would have told you so.

REALIZATION The beauty of it all. ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be. powering my soul. Took years to find. The square peg now fits the hole. For the entire world to see. I can’t lie low. I got it now. Now I’m free. Was in a fog. . Realizing who I am. Yes. Flipping a script You no longer own. Can’t keep me down no more. The chains are gone. Screaming to me in my own song. Has built a wall that can’t be broken. but now I see The truth I bought now sold. So that confidence. Who I am inside.

A better place awaits me. too. So much to bear. It’s all around. I try to fight. through the fog I can’t see. But. So I say my last goodbye. Staining the air. All consuming. And I cannot escape. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today. . finally. Like the way That evil does. Killing my mind And spirit. Everywhere. breathlessly. The pain will end. Now is the end for me.ENDING THE PAIN This world of pain. I’ll be with you forever now. Stealing my light.

Guess I’ll listen to radio instead. Or found dead. Someone’s missing. I’ll start my fight by changing me. I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. Can’t let this dark swallow my light. Live by his word and let him see. Start my task with one woman.CHANGING ME I couldn’t watch the news today. It calls to me and screams my name. So I block it and stay inside. I vow to do the best I can. For fear of what it might say. But radio’s no better. same old thing. Everyone’s fighting or arguing. . Enough to drive the sane insane.

Now I’m gone.BREAKING FREE I try to cut the pain away. The pain still wouldn’t go away. I pierce the layer that I see. After all the blood had dried. I had to go because it stayed. The one underneath’s too tough. Although it hurt. Finally free. I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay. Cutting deeper still. Now my pain has gone away. I couldn’t cry. The pain inside just wouldn’t die. . But blood is not enough. I took the pain away with me. I’m the one it killed.

I held you tight and kissed your cheek. Although you were not yet mine. A battle I couldn’t lose. You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues. . The love I thought I had to have.MY SON SHINES Long ago I dreamt of you. By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away. I stood tall. But through it all. Only the mixture that I needed. For the other half of you. Here I stand forever. I feared it was not true. Before you were inside.

KNOWING ME Do you really know who I am. me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me. . Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me. Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know.

Dance with me tonight. I feel the beat.DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT I feel the music From deep within. It moves my hips. Made for sin. It moves my feet. Your song instead. Please play for me. . The rhythm stirs Inside my head. Dance with me tonight. My arms they sway That away. Dance with me tonight.

So here is where they’ll stay. Help them push the pain aside. What younger ones can’t fare. Sometimes too much to bare. They’ll wish we stopped you just in time. It’s sad to know your time is done. We older folks can tolerate. We didn’t have you long. So hold them tight. And let them know An early end’s no way to go. To make sure you were still here.TOO SOON Gone too soon. . But many will always care. Your will was not as strong. Though your beauty will last always. Pain can be an awful thing.

You strike so fast. Await my move. But you’re too quick. Too many eyes Cover me. You’re poisonous. Hoping you’re asleep. I wait till day To go your way. You lay still. I approach. Why did I go? I should have paused. Hoping you snoozed. I knew you were there After all. .THE BROWN WIDOW You wait for me In the dark. I hold my breath.

Live your best life now. It will be just right. . DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight. Take your time.THE TIME IS NOW Slow down.

Where it shines the best. Residing where it’s meant to be.INNER SUPERSTAR We possess it early on. . it lies inside. But often forget where it lies. It differs from the rest. We get a glimpse. take a peak. Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. Dormant. Our inner superstar Was always there inside. Specific to each owner. And then peaked out often. Remembering where it first shined. Years later we get another glimpse. After we have forgotten.

Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down. . But we get in the way. Listen for what life has in store. Without listening to what it has to say. Be patient.LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL Life tries to take the wheel. Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. But then we find courage inside And turn it all around. Its view widens so we may see. While hiding in our youth. Life’s not all a mystery. We make a turn on our own. It shows its face in elder years.

TOO LATE You were mine On borrowed time. . Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so. This I didn’t know. And you’re gone. until tomorrow. At least. Now tomorrow’s here. I’m so sorry I was wrong. I took for granted you’d be here.

AHA MOMENT Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise. . spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do.

you know. Growing daily like the evergreen. Black or white. Relaxed for when I sleep. When ready. Like many colors of the rainbow. I change from day-to-day. A darker color when we fight. They cover you And color me. I can be any hue I want to be. When wide awake. Neon bright. I shine brightly for all to see. a light yellow. A range of shades for everything. A softer shade. I’m an aubergine.COLORS OF ME There are many Shades of me. . A blue for when I’m feeling low.

breathing poetry . I think in rhyme.A POET’S SONG I live in verse. I don’t know how Or even why. Is all poetry to me. Living. Thinking. It sings to me from deep inside. rhyming All the time. And it makes up The best of me. The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow. The sadness that you may see.

Shine from underneath? Is it dim. barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath. . The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow.BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH Just how bright Is your light.

Inside that room lives poetry. It offers me a place to stay. Says stay awhile. And says Please come back any day. . It embraces me. Says take a seat. Encourages me With its warm smile. It invites me in. It comforts me. Then takes my coat. It says to me. I am your friend. I open up. It sets me free. And offers me its words to eat. Then sings to me In special notes.POETRY LIVES HERE A door has opened up for me.

The wisdom I possess. The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back. It’s because I am beauty. Knowing that your fears. The knowledge I give. I can erase? If I frighten. or shock you. The pleasures I possess. I am woman. . Shape of my thighs. Curve of my waist. And I know my worth. offend. The comfort of my embrace. That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss.KNOWING MY WORTH Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice. I am life.

Rewarded with so many qualities.OF ALL BEINGS Fellow women of today. One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth. Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man. We are the best of all beings. you should abhor. Forgetting it. .

A sight I almost see. Thinking of how it will be. Happiness and long-lost friends. Did mostly as I pleased. I smile and hold it inside. I can’t wait for mine. Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me. My destination is on my mind. What a lovely ride.THE LONG ROAD HOME I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead. Held some hands along the way. Every road must come to an end. .

Listen closely. As if saying to me. Sounds fully. It is today. Giving the breeze What it needs. Close your eyes.” The tree breaths. . “The time has come For you to leave. As if to say.” The willow weeps.THE SOUND OF SIGNS I hear the birds chirping. “Your time is here. The signs are there For you to see.

Or we all lose. What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man. This is not a test.A CALL TO ARMS *STOP* Turn off your television set. I’ve grabbed my pen. What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot. It’s not too late. .

My home is where I chose to be.HOME My home is where I lay my head And pray at night. My home may just be with you. Beside the bed. . My home can be one place or a few. Where happiness lives Indefinitely. Though we’re apart. Where true love lives. My home is where I leave my heart.

.THE BETTER PRIZE The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade. Although it seems quite odd. But what lies inside. The better prize. We turn away. It passes instantly. Ignorant to what’s inside. And miss out on the better prize. We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone. This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet. Open your foolish eyes. Should crown our lover’s throne. So easy to believe a lie. And in our haste. A trick used to confuse the mind.

that’s the way life goes. Time to sit and rest my mind. I remember to relax today. . I’m tired already. But I know things will be fine. I’ve seen this day before. Save some work. add some play. My body’s weary. Unfortunately. And I know more will surely come. Spirit. Try to balance both and remain whole. too.RELAXING MY MIND Been a long day.

and I stay safe. Surrounded by my friends. I’ve given up on happiness. Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free. Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me. And pray trouble runs out of time. I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been. It must lie somewhere else. Where all is calm.TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME Trouble road begins at my door. Why won’t it set me free? . So I continue to Keep hope alive. And I know nothing else. It should be tired of me.

Look to the sky. There is no room. I close my eyes. You’re driving too fast. To ride with you. Even the belt Won’t keep me safe. Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape. And then thank God I learned to fly. Away I go To a better place. As I brace For the crash. You’re speeding now. Without your brakes. You smile at me And hit the gas. .THE GREATEST ESCAPE Slow down for me. No space for me. How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on.

Premeditated steps I take with no regrets. I wait until it’s dark. Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two. Covering your insides.THE FALL Land mines. Worried I’ll be found. Afraid to make a sound. . The snipers waiting for that clear shot. everything I’ve got. Can never take the leap. So much to lose. Worried about the fall. afterall.

Hope our move won’t make a mess. Do what you say. You’re right where you need to be. Don’t be scared to let go.MAKING MOVES Every now and then. Scared to make a move. And we’re finally on track. Take a step and not look back. Don’t be afraid. We wish for the best. We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go. . Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know. Then we realize The move was just right. Make your move. That moment is meant just for you To make your move.

It’s time to take my rightful place. .WINNING THE RACE I’ve wasted too much time. My eyes are opened wide. Although my mouth is closed. The final bell has rung. Focused on today. And now half my life’s Just floated away. Life just passes by. I never saw the signs. It never waits. I’ve already won the race. Light miles ahead. Or what they tried to say. And now the time is here For me to finally shine.

Even when I want to vent About nothing at all. . You call me. But we’re just friends. You know I’m really into it.TRUE FRIENDS I call you. A true friend. And I need you there. The times we share. Taking it all in. Because when I need someone to vent to. You always take my call. I need you to show me Just how I should be. I’m glad I have you in my life. You listen when I talk. indeed. It’s so innocent.

There are times When we may find Some things troubling. .KEEPING SECRETS Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing. And what things we should keep. Often times Those little things Should remain a secret. We need to learn What to say.

WITHOUT DOUBTS
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.

ANGER
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.

MY MOVES
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.

FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD Listen up! I got lots to say. Ready for me to begin. So much to do. I’m coming in! . So little time. No more sitting still for me today. Too much for me to hold inside. Hold the door.

I’m looking forward to the trip ahead. . When you come for me. In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again. I’m tired today. Waiting for you to take me to some other place. I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go. When you come for me. I won’t be sad. When you come for me.WHEN YOU COME FOR ME When you come for me. This life has gotten really bad. I will be ready.

Can’t get rid of me. but don’t know what to say. Guess I’m in too deep. Just how a smudge succeeds. Loving the way That I confuse. Desire being my excuse.A MERE SMUDGE I’m a smudge on your window pane. Giving in to your every want and need. . You open up.

” I take a sip. . You say. Drink my wine. I try and try To live your life. “Celebrate with me. Locked away indefinitely. Not knowing poison’s inside. You say it’ll never be. A prisoner’s life is what I lead.A PRISONER’S LIFE I want to be free. But I’m the one that pays the toll. That I can’t survive on my own. accept your smile. Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape.

No one to help me with this one. Close your eyes. It hit me hard. A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go. All at once. I’ll guide you. And That’s just what I’ll do. And I finally see. Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be. Either way. Decision time tonight. I hear. . it’ll be done. Make your move.AT A CROSSROADS Here I am.

Mainly out of fear.DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY Sad songs are all I heard. . So they don’t live here no more. They didn’t live here. And I held on. I’ve got to drive those blues away. They silenced all the tears. Year after year. Happiness and joyful days. I can’t always be afraid. Too scared to move. Awkward distance. From this life I need more. Arguments.

HOW How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning? .

.IT. too. It. That bell it rings. shall pass. Taking over everything. It’s got places to go. TOO. Making you believe you died. Till only it survives. shall pass. But … It. too. Consuming who it occupies. Because nothing ever lasts Of pain. And pain’s waiting At another’s door. SHALL PASS Pain can’t last forever.

Fight to keep it all in order. For the misery in store. Every day is a fight for me. Try to turn it all around. But the price I pay is worth being free. And I fight with my head high. Try not to let the weight get me down. I suit up for the war. . Holding onto my pride.HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE I try to hold my head above water.

Mistakes that others seem to make. Believing those wicked smiles. Although we are among friends.OUR DOWNFALL We are a sad society: So quick to judge. Point fingers. All the while hiding ours. Skirt the blame. So afraid of being called out our name. Our downfall in the end. It’s become customary To point out all the flaws. . Such a wicked game to play. We don’t see What lies within.

Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be. The only way truly to be free. .BEING FREE I won’t let you change who I am.

. My eyes are open now. Just the way a record does. Picked up where I had left off. Remembering who I was. My world finally mine. It’s how I lived my life. Concentrating on what I’m meant to do. Now it’s time for me to grow. Forgot who I was inside. What treasures lied within. I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine. This thought had become commonplace.MY WORLD Sometime ago I lost myself. Don’t know how long it’s been. Time for me to shine.

Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine.MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine. Although it tries to hide. It’s there. See … I’m making it my goal. I know. .

My spirit nearly broken. But I’m on the mend. I begin again. So glad that I had faith. My mind said all was lost.NEARLY BROKEN Thought it was the end of me. As the pieces began to mend. Nearly broken. Hope not within my reach. But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat. Thought there was no escape. .

She knows how much I meant to her. Because she knows her worth. She loves me more than anything. A mother. That friend I’ve found is me. . and a wife. She’s happy. She’s beautiful And full of life. daughter.MY FRIEND Oh. the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while.

The other upside down. .THE SMILE AND THE FROWN Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown. Saying everything With just a smirk. One right-side up. The stories they tell Without saying a word.

have mercy on me. I’ll forever mourn. Loosen your lover’s grip.REMAINING LONELY Loneliness. . Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip. Instead. Memories barely keep me warm. The love I lost. I’d rather have my love with me. I remain lonely.

Close your eyes. What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside? . Visualize it’s there In front of you.FEAR INSIDE I challenge you To sit in silence. Take a sigh. Imagine your worst fear.

EMMA LEE
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.

FREEDOM
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.

TODAY
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.

So here I sit. But to you. . feelings are no big deal. Waiting once more.WAITING All I do Is wait around for you. I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time. My time no longer mine. Until you walk through my door. I should say How I feel.

. Because this I’m thankful for. So I sing today for you. you know.SINGING TODAY FOR YOU Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time.

Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out. . I don’t care what you have to say. I’m not listening anyway. Yet your mouth moves constantly.NOT LISTENING Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago. Though I don’t listen any more.

Taking in all you see. Looking through The window to my soul. You know me Better Than I ever could know. . Loving everything I am. You watch and study me. And what I’m meant to be.WINDOW TO MY SOUL I see you Through the window to my soul.

Am I supposed to smile. Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud? You’re pretty for a black girl. You’re pretty for a black girl. . Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more. Thank you for letting me know.PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL You’re pretty for a black girl. Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth. What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me? You’re pretty for a black girl.

Beauty lying inside and out. Thought I should tell you so. Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen. you are beautiful.FOR MY SISTERS My sister. Thought I should let you know. . you know.

To show each other why we’re here. To feel how it should be. Seeing all we’re meant to see. Even if we’ve forgotten.THE TIME IS NOW The only time we have is now. . The time we have is now. To share all we’ve got. This place we’ve gotten to somehow.

BIO Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school. She writes poetry. Glonka.” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten. . She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons. and songs. “The Amazing Mr. short stories. Her first publication was a short story entitled.

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