ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition .Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved.

Mom . Make your mark. Brandon. The world is yours. and Jaden.For my boys. I love you. Blake. Devante.

CONTENTS Title Page Copyright Page LOVE Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone .

The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You .

LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me LIFE I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song .

Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How .

Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now .It. too.

LOVE .

I leave my mark. My world expands. I make your food. I smile for you. As you breathe. Be your lover and more. What lovers do. I do it all. Bake your bread. You are my light Through the dark. . Handle with care. For you.LOVING YOU As you awake. I live for you At your command. Wash your clothes. Giving you more than my last. Clean the floors. All you have to do is ask. By loving you.

All thanks to you.THANKS TO YOU Cold. All thanks to you. My evil eyes are full of spite. The monster made. Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth. Bitter through and through. . Only anger in this place. Blacker than the darkest night. Rotten to the very core. heartless.

Don’t have to say a word. . My chest. I see the way you look at me. Felling the heat between you and me. You didn’t have to say a word. it heaves to my surprise. I kiss your lips. you lift your hand. Caress my cheek from where you stand. Now face-to-face. And still not a word.WITHOUT WORDS I know you like what you see. I feel your hands all over me. woman and man. I quench your thirst. Your gaze has only reached my thighs. Licking your lips. And you haven’t said a word. I see your eyes start at my feet. My hips move to your beat.

just wasted time. The rest gone down the drain. The years I lost. But you don’t see me. It’s over now. My end is here.WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME Here I stand out in front. . My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. Requesting more so you can live. Still shaded by your tree. Bare for all to see. And now my shell is all I have. I shed my skin. Emptied my soul. You’ve taken all I have to give. I gave my all for you to live. And you never saw me. The foolishness I left behind.

No you and I. Existing even after the end. A love so grand. The heat I crave to feel at night. A constant cold stuns my heart. We bring forth our new ecstasy.SEASONS OF LOVE A light is shining bright. All is still. built-in trust. Our love is blossoming for all to see. You are my fall. In the end it was always us. You are my winter. it’s just you and me. We from the start. You are my summer. . Please stay a while. A smile that warms the coldest night. You are my spring. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh. We have grown together. living long it must.

BROKEN Please. I killed your love for me. Don’t want you to dry my eyes. please. Just let me be. I need to feel the pain inside of me. Not bottle it up inside of me. I need the anger. oh please. just let me be. my worst fear. You must understand my need to be here. I’ve got to let the burn roam free. Don’t want happiness here again. Just let this pain pierce my skin. . So. The damage done won’t disappear. I want to cry.

My love always. Enjoy the day. Make love to you without saying a word. Forever stay. It would always be this way. Sitting by your side. Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. Our fingers intertwined. Me in your heart. Open my eyes. . Hold your hand. gazing upon your face. Silently gazing In your eyes. No worry about what could be heard. I would make a meal For you and me. Feed you by hand. That I’d never leave. Wash your feet Late that night.MY LAST DAY I would wake up a little late. I’d say. I would promise you. You on my mind. I would call in sick.

That’s how I would spend My last day. .

And I will always show up. I’ll show up. You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. You see I gave my word in front of God. I’ll show up. The very last one to show up. Face so mean. it will be us. So when you’re mad as hell. . just know I won’t be walking out the door. Through thick and thin when times are hard. I will show up.I WILL SHOW UP If I yell. I’ll show up. You curse and scream. I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you. You spit my name With twisted face. if you yell. Till this life ends.

Lie down with me in this moment. I’m telling you. No. it’s what you heard. we don’t have to talk or say a word. And give me what I need. I don’t want to be your girl. Yeah. Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do. So close your lips and take my hand.WHAT I NEED No. Cover me with ecstasy. Not here to be your girl tonight. And give me what I need. Just take me on into the room. It’s not my place to be her for you. Don’t want to chill or hang with you. You can find someone else to fill those shoes. . Just here for me to feel alright.

I will remain. I am the Milky Way. I am love. And I will forge ahead. After the end. My glow shines through the darkness. Brightness everlasting. Brighter than the night’s sky. Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me.LOVE ALL OVER ME Smiling all twenty four. I color the winter’s night. Cannot be dimmed. .

I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized. .HYPNOTIZED Fine As the darkest wine. Intoxicating.

Can’t compete with street life. . A part-time love is not enough. Don’t sell away your half from me. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man. A dozen women for a dime. Just like the day before. God. as well. I know my needs fall on deaf ears. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol.SETTING YOU FREE Here I wait Today for you. Why do I compete With the streets. Love shouldn’t have to be this rough. Not just the night-time one you sell. I’ll hold it down and set you free. I fear.

Time to put me back on track. Nice at 8. nasty at 10. At 10:30. Pray to God that I don’t cry. Maybe this time is the last time. I’m coming back. time for hell again. .HELL AND BACK I go through hell to be with you. I hold on tight for the ride. hell begins. At 11:30. But it’s 1. and I love you more than anything. You say you’re sorry all the time. Say forgive me this time. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry. Swinging and swaying to your moods. And try to make it back from hell again. Although the truth lies elsewhere. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry.

too. too? I’ve been waiting oh so long. And also trying to find me. Even met some dogs. still searching. I pray that you’re still looking. I wonder if you’re like me. Kissed so many frogs. .SEARCHING Where are you? Are you searching for me. But my conviction still remains strong. If the perfect one waits somewhere for you. Not giving up. Out there trying to see.

It flows outside the lines. Refuses to be confined. Pretends to stay. Enjoy the ride.LOVE’S SURPRISE Sometimes love throws you a curve. But love can also be so sweet. and Evaporates to your dismay. So hold on tight. Can pick you up and be complete. Love pulls you in. It smiles at you and then frowns. And just await your love’s surprise. It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything. then drops you down. It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect. It takes you up. . And surprises you with no regrets. Sometimes love takes broader shape.

. Tell me it’s all mine. It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined. Standing tall. The queen I’m meant to be. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time. by my side. Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do. So glad to have you In my life. And I rule the roost. Give me the world. I tell you you’re The best at what you do. You show me how Real love should be with you. I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. Just what I’m meant to do.WE LIFT EACH OTHER You lift me up For the world to see.

THE WARNING It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you. And then not care Who you hurt. You pile it on Because I can take it. But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy. Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile. You had a plan all the while. All others be damned. Pretend to care. Say some words. And try to break me. . You’re having fun. Curse my name. Because your plan is number one.

The joy and laughter every night. “My darling.” . “Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared.MISSING YOU “What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say. About you. The happiness I felt inside. I’d say to you. I’d miss everything. The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared.

your scent. Whether night or day. I inhale you on my shirt. It’s not cologne or soap. You line the pleats of my skirt. Whether at work or at play. So distinct.YOU WEAR IT WELL I wear you on my sleeve. You’re with me On my way. And you wear it well. you know. Not Ivory or Irish Spring. Take you when I leave. That fragrence I know so well. That essence that I smell. An aroma only you possess. Separating you from the rest. You follow me Through the day. .

Realizing It won’t work apart.NOT ALONE The games we play. Can’t make it on our own. Like children Not yet grown. We hurt. Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through. And then we pray. The shit we say. We laugh. Alone is not what we do. .

And I know I make up the best of you. I’m proud to see what you’ve become. I brought a new place for you.THE BEST OF ME I make up the best of you. A prize for all to see. . You don’t need to say it. With me. Because you are the best of me. Your life tells me so. A freshness for our start. Order lives where chaos dwelled. The light replaced the dark. This much I truly know.

TRUST It’s like a broken fence: When mended. . The chain contains a kink. you see. Although repaired. Thinking that you’re done. But that kink. Looking okay. you still see that link. Hoping things are as good as new. You try to move along. Will forever change the way I now look at you.

SHADES OF ME How can you not love me. For the chocolate and the caramel. I fear you love yourself More than you love me. With eyes of auburn. . Skin of chocolate. You don’t even see. Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love.

. Powder-white sand. It’s embedded between my thighs.LOVE’S ESCAPE I know where your happiness lies. A world where only you escape: A world of beaches. I take you to another place. A world that rivals Disneyland. I’m ready now. And I wait With your love’s escape.

. Is not simple In my eyes. A simple choice It may seem. To live in hell Or go be free.THE CHOICE The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. A place Finally to be me. Though simple it may be. Not so simple to me.

Face twisted mean. an enemy. Don’t forget yesterday.DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY Every time it’s going good. Although you’re okay today. So it may seem. Did you forget yesterday? A friend today. Yesterday. Did you forget yesterday? The screaming and the yelling. . I truly thought you understood. No matter what a friend may say. That voice appears and says.

Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me.WHAT WE DESERVE Do you deserve All that I do. You can’t say yes. Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess. Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve. . Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I. to be with you? I can’t say no.

I know it’s not what you want to hear. And I’m not the one for you. dry your eyes. We tried to make it work.THE TRUTH I’m sad today. Your true love awaits. No time to cry. Fully awake. It may just be Around the corner. But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you. Truth is you’re not the one for me. I fear. But. . So. Because I see the truth. Life alone brings doubts and fears. You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. Another smiling face. it’s not meant to be.

Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem.A PERFECT WORLD In a perfect world. I’d always be right. You’d hold me tight. And sit by my side. In a perfect world. In a perfect world. There would be no other for you. I’d be all you see. Sadly. It’d be you and I. . today it’s not that way. We’d never fight. In a perfect world. You’d forever stay. You’d only have eyes for me. You’d agree with me. Your love to give For me always. And I can only dream.

YOUR EVERYTHING
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.

FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.

WE BELONG
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.

We lie in wait. Believed that when you closed the door. We plot our moves From the go. It is so easy for me to smile. Pretend I’m okay inside. It was fine to say goodbye.LYING IN WAIT I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies. Women are cunning creatures you know. The perfect moment to strike. For the right time. You should have never estimated The power of my mind. .

That’s too damn bad. .MOVING ON I wait for you in the lot. Because you set me free. You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had. Hoping it’s not too late. It hurts to be in this spot. Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day. I can’t forget what we had. Where I said I’d be. Because it’s all I know. When you would let me go. Now I sit and wait for you. Thought the day would never come. But I fear your mind’s made up.

I ask you all the time To treat me like I need. . You look into my eyes. And sleep.NOT YOUR FORTE I tell you I need more. Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte. It’s not enough for me. Give me no reply. But I don’t think It will ever be.

Although I know the truth. But … I wanted you.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all. For the real you can never love me. Alone with the truth after the fall. . And now I sit. so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show. What I see Is not really you.

The way I kissed you late at night.A LOVE LIKE MINE You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone. But time will tell. Miss what we had. you think you know it all. . Think it’s all a big game. Make your move. hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. I really hope you find her soon. So you can finally see. You’re gonna miss me so damn bad. Go ahead. That there are many more like me. And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same. Yeah. And please. You say you don’t care.

If I let it be.TERMINAL LOVE Your love will be The end of me. Your love will kill My spirit. Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me. If I let it inside. Your love will make Me lose my mind. too. If that’s what I let it do. .

Showing me the man That you’re proud to be. You’re blind to all that temptation outside. It’s great to be by your side.THE LITTLE THINGS It’s the little things I appreciate. Ignoring all the rest. Holding my hand. I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do. . And that I deserve the best. They don’t have to cost a thing. To live this life with you. You tell me that I’m beautiful.

My spirit grows. Don’t want to hear my words. . And it’s my fault. My anger knows It’s my fault. You discourage me. My spirit knows It’s your fault. Because all you thought about was you. I finally love me more that you do. Because you need to be first. I let you do what you want to. I’m the one who made you into you.LOVING ME My anger grows. You don’t encourage me. And it’s your fault.

I lay out the welcome mat for love. Because I see it all the time.A FAN OF LOVE I am a fan of love. Though it doesn’t live here no more. I will wait for love. Although it’s not yet mine. I still believe in love. Because someday love will set me free. I’m a fan of love. But it won’t knock at my door. I’d sit in the stands and cheer. Although it doesn’t live here. I still believe in love. I lay out the welcome mat for love. I will wait for love. Because it waits somewhere for me. .

and you try To become you and I. . But you won’t show your face. You try to live in my realty. Maybe that cloth Really is the same. Yet you came. When I don’t even know your name. But we’re not meant to be. Your world is nothing like The one I’m from. A visitor from another place. If only in our eyes.A DIFFERENT CLOTH Cut from a different cloth. Tell me why you’re in my space. You and I are not the same. I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come.

So glad to have this new breakthrough. To do what I have to do. It’s nowhere inside of you. . I don’t know why I ask for truth. Honesty is within your reach. Though the shitty lies you grab.PROMISES Promises you fail to keep Are all I have.

NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE You can’t see me Past your superiority. But I’m tired of playing Your sick. I’m sick to hell of being under your spell. I’m like a moth to your flame. . It’s your way or the door. There’s no you and me in us for you. twisted game. Not taking your shit any more. I try and try to be What you want from me.

You sprint along. Can’t let me be in front. We’ll never be face-to-face. Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath. Because we both want to win the race. . Trying to keep up. now by my side. Because you have to be first. Two peas of a different pod. First place is a space we both want.WINNING THE RACE I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight.

I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely. I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections.POWER Looking through rose-colored glasses. Co-existence is the only power You hold over me. .

but the one I should let go. . Why don’t I feel comfortable. Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for. indeed. Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts.SING FOR YOU Why don’t I sing for you? A good question.

Let loose your hold of me.LOVE Love. Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love. how you love to tell your lovely lies. Just break your chains. And set me free. Love. Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh. I laugh along in my defense. The jokes are all at my expense. What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh. . Love.

When unity was a goal. With nothing else. Family meant we were whole. . Surviving by itself. A time of unrivaled bliss. Even when times were tough? It got you through.REMEMBERING LOVE Remember when Love was enough. A time I surely miss.

I look elsewhere instead. days. We drift together. You try to read my face. Still alone. Just like the day before. I hold my breath. minutes. But nothing’s said. Because we never speak. . Yet nothing was said. So much to say. Our whole lives lost.LOST LIVES Here we go again. You stare at the floor. hours. The seconds. Turning into weeks. And here we are In elder years. you grin. And we’ve both paid the cost. I smile. So much to say.

MY WIFE You bought me flowers today: Roses. Although I seldom tell you so. With you is where my heart lies. You are the reason why I work so hard. Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said: I can’t live my life without Having you by my side. pink and red. My wife. I try my best. I think of you before I rest. How I cherish you. .

How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her. But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside. I disappear with every word you say. Curse her name. And you think they’re just words. Call her a bitch. .KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS I lose a piece of me every day. Or use my fists.

He’d love every part of me. He’d always take care of me. It wouldn’t matter if they were his. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often. Live together happily. No one else would matter. He’d cherish the ground I walked on. And even love my kids. . He’d cherish them because they were mine. I wouldn’t want for anything. Put me before himself. A perfect world For him and me. He wouldn’t see anyone else. That man I made for me.THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME Oh.

LIFE .

this is why I will believe With Your Word. And I’ll always put you first. Bring me light after the dark. Supporting me until the end. . I lead My life in Your hands. so I may rise. I put you first. And so. Lord.I PUT YOU FIRST You’ve been there Since day one. Whether I am right or wrong. that’s the way it will be. Let me laugh after I’ve cried. You guide. Get me through to a new start. You let me fall. And so. In you. I have a faithful friend. I put you first. You’re by my side. as I carry on. I put your first. Guiding me along the way. And so. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day.

With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day. Says what I think before I do. He knows my mind. He’s got my map. He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break.FAITH He came today and shook my soul. He knows the goings on inside of me. the path I walk. And I thought I knew it all. He has my unwavering faith. predicts my moves. . I think he’s psychic see. he’s taken hold. Mouths the words before I talk. He is the Lord above. I don’t know nothing anymore. My whole world.

No matter how hard you try.LIES AND TRUTH The truth is the light. . Won’t stay inside. You can’t contain What will remain. If asked. It shines so bright. Rains down on me. you know. Sets me free. A lie won’t hide. It’s impossible to hide a lie. A cover will not work. I would have told you so.

Can’t keep me down no more. For the entire world to see. The square peg now fits the hole. Screaming to me in my own song. Realizing who I am. ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be. Flipping a script You no longer own. Was in a fog. Who I am inside. So that confidence. powering my soul.REALIZATION The beauty of it all. The chains are gone. I can’t lie low. but now I see The truth I bought now sold. . Now I’m free. Has built a wall that can’t be broken. Yes. I got it now. Took years to find.

breathlessly. too. I try to fight. So I say my last goodbye. All consuming. finally. . A better place awaits me. through the fog I can’t see. And I cannot escape. Killing my mind And spirit. Stealing my light. I’ll be with you forever now. Staining the air. The pain will end.ENDING THE PAIN This world of pain. It’s all around. So much to bear. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today. Like the way That evil does. Everywhere. Now is the end for me. But.

But radio’s no better. Guess I’ll listen to radio instead.CHANGING ME I couldn’t watch the news today. Can’t let this dark swallow my light. same old thing. Start my task with one woman. Someone’s missing. Everyone’s fighting or arguing. Live by his word and let him see. I vow to do the best I can. I’ll start my fight by changing me. So I block it and stay inside. . It calls to me and screams my name. Enough to drive the sane insane. I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. Or found dead. For fear of what it might say.

Now my pain has gone away. The pain still wouldn’t go away. The one underneath’s too tough. I pierce the layer that I see. The pain inside just wouldn’t die. Finally free. I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay. I had to go because it stayed. After all the blood had dried. But blood is not enough. I couldn’t cry. I’m the one it killed. . I took the pain away with me. Now I’m gone.BREAKING FREE I try to cut the pain away. Cutting deeper still. Although it hurt.

But through it all. The love I thought I had to have. Before you were inside. Here I stand forever. I stood tall. I held you tight and kissed your cheek. Although you were not yet mine. . I feared it was not true. By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away. For the other half of you.MY SON SHINES Long ago I dreamt of you. Only the mixture that I needed. A battle I couldn’t lose. You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues.

Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me. Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know.KNOWING ME Do you really know who I am. . me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me.

It moves my hips.DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT I feel the music From deep within. Dance with me tonight. My arms they sway That away. Your song instead. The rhythm stirs Inside my head. Dance with me tonight. It moves my feet. . Dance with me tonight. Please play for me. I feel the beat. Made for sin.

And let them know An early end’s no way to go. Though your beauty will last always. To make sure you were still here. It’s sad to know your time is done. What younger ones can’t fare.TOO SOON Gone too soon. So hold them tight. Help them push the pain aside. Sometimes too much to bare. Your will was not as strong. They’ll wish we stopped you just in time. We older folks can tolerate. So here is where they’ll stay. Pain can be an awful thing. But many will always care. We didn’t have you long. .

Hoping you’re asleep. I wait till day To go your way. . You’re poisonous. Hoping you snoozed. I hold my breath. You lay still. You strike so fast.THE BROWN WIDOW You wait for me In the dark. I approach. Await my move. Too many eyes Cover me. I knew you were there After all. Why did I go? I should have paused. But you’re too quick.

It will be just right. .THE TIME IS NOW Slow down. Take your time. Live your best life now. DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight.

INNER SUPERSTAR We possess it early on. It differs from the rest. it lies inside. Years later we get another glimpse. After we have forgotten. Dormant. Our inner superstar Was always there inside. But often forget where it lies. And then peaked out often. . Specific to each owner. Remembering where it first shined. We get a glimpse. Residing where it’s meant to be. Where it shines the best. take a peak. Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide.

But then we find courage inside And turn it all around. Life’s not all a mystery. We make a turn on our own. Its view widens so we may see. But we get in the way.LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL Life tries to take the wheel. Be patient. Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. . Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down. It shows its face in elder years. Without listening to what it has to say. While hiding in our youth. Listen for what life has in store.

Now tomorrow’s here. until tomorrow. . And you’re gone. At least. Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so. This I didn’t know.TOO LATE You were mine On borrowed time. I’m so sorry I was wrong. I took for granted you’d be here.

spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do. .AHA MOMENT Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise.

Relaxed for when I sleep. A softer shade. A range of shades for everything. I shine brightly for all to see. A blue for when I’m feeling low. Neon bright. I’m an aubergine. Black or white. . a light yellow.COLORS OF ME There are many Shades of me. you know. Growing daily like the evergreen. A darker color when we fight. They cover you And color me. I can be any hue I want to be. Like many colors of the rainbow. When ready. When wide awake. I change from day-to-day.

The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow. The sadness that you may see. Living. I don’t know how Or even why. Thinking.A POET’S SONG I live in verse. Is all poetry to me. It sings to me from deep inside. breathing poetry . rhyming All the time. I think in rhyme. And it makes up The best of me.

BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH Just how bright Is your light. . The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow. barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath. Shine from underneath? Is it dim.

And says Please come back any day. And offers me its words to eat. It embraces me. Encourages me With its warm smile. . It comforts me.POETRY LIVES HERE A door has opened up for me. Inside that room lives poetry. It offers me a place to stay. It sets me free. Says take a seat. Then sings to me In special notes. I open up. Says stay awhile. Then takes my coat. It says to me. It invites me in. I am your friend.

The wisdom I possess. The knowledge I give. I am life. The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back. I can erase? If I frighten. The pleasures I possess. offend. I am woman. That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss. Curve of my waist. Knowing that your fears. And I know my worth.KNOWING MY WORTH Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice. Shape of my thighs. It’s because I am beauty. or shock you. . The comfort of my embrace.

One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth. Rewarded with so many qualities. . We are the best of all beings.OF ALL BEINGS Fellow women of today. Forgetting it. Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man. you should abhor.

Did mostly as I pleased. . What a lovely ride. Thinking of how it will be. I smile and hold it inside. Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me.THE LONG ROAD HOME I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead. I can’t wait for mine. Happiness and long-lost friends. Held some hands along the way. My destination is on my mind. Every road must come to an end. A sight I almost see.

. As if saying to me. Sounds fully. Close your eyes. It is today. Listen closely.” The tree breaths. As if to say. The signs are there For you to see. “The time has come For you to leave. Giving the breeze What it needs.THE SOUND OF SIGNS I hear the birds chirping.” The willow weeps. “Your time is here.

I’ve grabbed my pen. This is not a test. Or we all lose. . What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot.A CALL TO ARMS *STOP* Turn off your television set. What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man. It’s not too late.

My home can be one place or a few. Where true love lives. My home is where I leave my heart. My home is where I chose to be. Though we’re apart. My home may just be with you. Beside the bed. . Where happiness lives Indefinitely.HOME My home is where I lay my head And pray at night.

The better prize. We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone. And in our haste. Open your foolish eyes. This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet. So easy to believe a lie. Ignorant to what’s inside. It passes instantly.THE BETTER PRIZE The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade. We turn away. . A trick used to confuse the mind. Should crown our lover’s throne. Although it seems quite odd. But what lies inside. And miss out on the better prize.

Spirit. too. add some play.RELAXING MY MIND Been a long day. Unfortunately. Save some work. But I know things will be fine. . My body’s weary. Try to balance both and remain whole. that’s the way life goes. I’m tired already. And I know more will surely come. I remember to relax today. Time to sit and rest my mind. I’ve seen this day before.

Why won’t it set me free? . I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been. Surrounded by my friends. So I continue to Keep hope alive. Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free. Where all is calm. It should be tired of me. And pray trouble runs out of time.TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME Trouble road begins at my door. and I stay safe. I’ve given up on happiness. It must lie somewhere else. And I know nothing else. Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me.

Without your brakes. As I brace For the crash. Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape. And then thank God I learned to fly. You’re driving too fast. Even the belt Won’t keep me safe. There is no room. I close my eyes. Away I go To a better place. Look to the sky. You’re speeding now. To ride with you. No space for me. . You smile at me And hit the gas.THE GREATEST ESCAPE Slow down for me. How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on.

Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two. Covering your insides. Worried about the fall. . afterall. I wait until it’s dark. Worried I’ll be found. Afraid to make a sound. Premeditated steps I take with no regrets.THE FALL Land mines. So much to lose. Can never take the leap. everything I’ve got. The snipers waiting for that clear shot.

Don’t be scared to let go. Take a step and not look back. And we’re finally on track. Do what you say. Scared to make a move. We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go. You’re right where you need to be. . Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know. Don’t be afraid. Make your move. Then we realize The move was just right. That moment is meant just for you To make your move. Hope our move won’t make a mess.MAKING MOVES Every now and then. We wish for the best.

I’ve already won the race. Light miles ahead. And now the time is here For me to finally shine.WINNING THE RACE I’ve wasted too much time. Or what they tried to say. I never saw the signs. Although my mouth is closed. My eyes are opened wide. It’s time to take my rightful place. . Life just passes by. It never waits. Focused on today. The final bell has rung. And now half my life’s Just floated away.

I need you to show me Just how I should be.TRUE FRIENDS I call you. You always take my call. It’s so innocent. Because when I need someone to vent to. The times we share. I’m glad I have you in my life. . But we’re just friends. Even when I want to vent About nothing at all. indeed. A true friend. You know I’m really into it. And I need you there. You call me. You listen when I talk. Taking it all in.

There are times When we may find Some things troubling. Often times Those little things Should remain a secret. And what things we should keep. We need to learn What to say. .KEEPING SECRETS Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing.

WITHOUT DOUBTS
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.

ANGER
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.

MY MOVES
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.

So much to do. So little time.FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD Listen up! I got lots to say. I’m coming in! . Hold the door. No more sitting still for me today. Too much for me to hold inside. Ready for me to begin.

When you come for me. I’m tired today. Waiting for you to take me to some other place. This life has gotten really bad. When you come for me. When you come for me. I won’t be sad. I’m looking forward to the trip ahead. In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again. I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go.WHEN YOU COME FOR ME When you come for me. I will be ready. .

Can’t get rid of me. . but don’t know what to say. Desire being my excuse. Just how a smudge succeeds. Loving the way That I confuse.A MERE SMUDGE I’m a smudge on your window pane. You open up. Giving in to your every want and need. Guess I’m in too deep.

Not knowing poison’s inside. I try and try To live your life.A PRISONER’S LIFE I want to be free. Locked away indefinitely.” I take a sip. Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape. That I can’t survive on my own. But I’m the one that pays the toll. You say it’ll never be. . Drink my wine. You say. A prisoner’s life is what I lead. “Celebrate with me. accept your smile.

Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be. And That’s just what I’ll do. I hear. And I finally see. I’ll guide you. No one to help me with this one. it’ll be done. Either way. It hit me hard. A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go. Close your eyes.AT A CROSSROADS Here I am. Make your move. Decision time tonight. All at once. .

Year after year. I can’t always be afraid. Too scared to move. I’ve got to drive those blues away. They silenced all the tears. Happiness and joyful days. And I held on. From this life I need more. .DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY Sad songs are all I heard. They didn’t live here. Arguments. Mainly out of fear. Awkward distance. So they don’t live here no more.

HOW How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning? .

Because nothing ever lasts Of pain. SHALL PASS Pain can’t last forever. Making you believe you died. shall pass. Taking over everything. too. . It’s got places to go. And pain’s waiting At another’s door. shall pass. TOO.IT. Till only it survives. That bell it rings. It. Consuming who it occupies. But … It. too.

Try to turn it all around. But the price I pay is worth being free. Every day is a fight for me. I suit up for the war. Fight to keep it all in order. Holding onto my pride. And I fight with my head high.HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE I try to hold my head above water. . For the misery in store. Try not to let the weight get me down.

Our downfall in the end. . Skirt the blame. Point fingers. Such a wicked game to play. We don’t see What lies within. So afraid of being called out our name. Although we are among friends. Mistakes that others seem to make. All the while hiding ours.OUR DOWNFALL We are a sad society: So quick to judge. It’s become customary To point out all the flaws. Believing those wicked smiles.

BEING FREE I won’t let you change who I am. . The only way truly to be free. Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be.

What treasures lied within. . My world finally mine. This thought had become commonplace. Remembering who I was. I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine.MY WORLD Sometime ago I lost myself. Don’t know how long it’s been. Forgot who I was inside. Picked up where I had left off. My eyes are open now. Now it’s time for me to grow. It’s how I lived my life. Just the way a record does. Concentrating on what I’m meant to do. Time for me to shine.

I know. . It’s there.MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine. Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine. See … I’m making it my goal. Although it tries to hide.

Nearly broken. My mind said all was lost. Thought there was no escape. . Hope not within my reach. My spirit nearly broken. But I’m on the mend. I begin again. So glad that I had faith. But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat.NEARLY BROKEN Thought it was the end of me. As the pieces began to mend.

She loves me more than anything. She’s beautiful And full of life. and a wife. She’s happy. Because she knows her worth. A mother. That friend I’ve found is me. . the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while. daughter. She knows how much I meant to her.MY FRIEND Oh.

One right-side up.THE SMILE AND THE FROWN Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown. . Saying everything With just a smirk. The stories they tell Without saying a word. The other upside down.

Instead. . I’ll forever mourn. Loosen your lover’s grip. Memories barely keep me warm. I’d rather have my love with me. The love I lost. have mercy on me. I remain lonely. Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip.REMAINING LONELY Loneliness.

Close your eyes. Take a sigh. What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside? . Visualize it’s there In front of you. Imagine your worst fear.FEAR INSIDE I challenge you To sit in silence.

EMMA LEE
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.

FREEDOM
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.

TODAY
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.

I should say How I feel. So here I sit. Waiting once more. feelings are no big deal. Until you walk through my door. I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time. .WAITING All I do Is wait around for you. But to you. My time no longer mine.

SINGING TODAY FOR YOU Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time. Because this I’m thankful for. you know. . So I sing today for you.

I don’t care what you have to say. Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out. I’m not listening anyway.NOT LISTENING Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago. . Though I don’t listen any more. Yet your mouth moves constantly.

Looking through The window to my soul. . You know me Better Than I ever could know. Loving everything I am. You watch and study me.WINDOW TO MY SOUL I see you Through the window to my soul. Taking in all you see. And what I’m meant to be.

Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud? You’re pretty for a black girl. You’re pretty for a black girl. . What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me? You’re pretty for a black girl. Thank you for letting me know. Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more.PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL You’re pretty for a black girl. Am I supposed to smile. Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth.

. Thought I should tell you so. Thought I should let you know. Beauty lying inside and out.FOR MY SISTERS My sister. you know. you are beautiful. Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen.

THE TIME IS NOW The only time we have is now. This place we’ve gotten to somehow. Even if we’ve forgotten. . The time we have is now. To show each other why we’re here. Seeing all we’re meant to see. To feel how it should be. To share all we’ve got.

. Her first publication was a short story entitled. short stories. She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons. “The Amazing Mr.BIO Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school.” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten. She writes poetry. and songs. Glonka.

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