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ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition .Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved.
and Jaden. Brandon. Mom . Make your mark.For my boys. I love you. The world is yours. Devante. Blake.
CONTENTS Title Page Copyright Page LOVE Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone .
The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You .
LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me LIFE I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song .
Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How .
Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now .It. too.
You are my light Through the dark. For you. . What lovers do. I leave my mark. My world expands. Wash your clothes. I make your food. Clean the floors. I live for you At your command. Handle with care. As you breathe. By loving you. Bake your bread. I smile for you. Be your lover and more. I do it all.LOVING YOU As you awake. All you have to do is ask. Giving you more than my last.
The monster made. . Rotten to the very core. Only anger in this place. Bitter through and through. My evil eyes are full of spite. Blacker than the darkest night. All thanks to you. Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth.THANKS TO YOU Cold. All thanks to you. heartless.
I see your eyes start at my feet. You didn’t have to say a word. And you haven’t said a word. Caress my cheek from where you stand. I see the way you look at me. My hips move to your beat. Your gaze has only reached my thighs.WITHOUT WORDS I know you like what you see. you lift your hand. Now face-to-face. it heaves to my surprise. Licking your lips. My chest. And still not a word. I quench your thirst. Felling the heat between you and me. Don’t have to say a word. I kiss your lips. . I feel your hands all over me. woman and man.
Still shaded by your tree. And you never saw me.WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME Here I stand out in front. It’s over now. The years I lost. Bare for all to see. But you don’t see me. My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. And now my shell is all I have. The foolishness I left behind. I gave my all for you to live. I shed my skin. My end is here. Requesting more so you can live. just wasted time. The rest gone down the drain. Emptied my soul. You’ve taken all I have to give. .
You are my spring. You are my winter. Please stay a while. living long it must. built-in trust.SEASONS OF LOVE A light is shining bright. You are my summer. Existing even after the end. The heat I crave to feel at night. In the end it was always us. We have grown together. All is still. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh. We from the start. it’s just you and me. A smile that warms the coldest night. A love so grand. . We bring forth our new ecstasy. You are my fall. Our love is blossoming for all to see. No you and I. A constant cold stuns my heart.
I’ve got to let the burn roam free. Don’t want you to dry my eyes. Just let me be.BROKEN Please. I need the anger. my worst fear. Don’t want happiness here again. please. I want to cry. oh please. just let me be. So. You must understand my need to be here. . I need to feel the pain inside of me. Just let this pain pierce my skin. I killed your love for me. Not bottle it up inside of me. The damage done won’t disappear.
Make love to you without saying a word. . gazing upon your face. Silently gazing In your eyes. It would always be this way. Me in your heart. My love always. Feed you by hand. That I’d never leave. Our fingers intertwined. Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. Enjoy the day.MY LAST DAY I would wake up a little late. I would call in sick. No worry about what could be heard. I’d say. Forever stay. Open my eyes. You on my mind. Hold your hand. I would promise you. Sitting by your side. I would make a meal For you and me. Wash your feet Late that night.
That’s how I would spend My last day. .
I’ll show up. Through thick and thin when times are hard.I WILL SHOW UP If I yell. it will be us. I will show up. I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you. Till this life ends. You spit my name With twisted face. Face so mean. I’ll show up. You curse and scream. I’ll show up. And I will always show up. if you yell. So when you’re mad as hell. . You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. You see I gave my word in front of God. just know I won’t be walking out the door. The very last one to show up.
Not here to be your girl tonight. Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do. I don’t want to be your girl. Yeah. Lie down with me in this moment. Cover me with ecstasy. No. Just take me on into the room. Don’t want to chill or hang with you.WHAT I NEED No. it’s what you heard. I’m telling you. And give me what I need. . So close your lips and take my hand. Just here for me to feel alright. You can find someone else to fill those shoes. we don’t have to talk or say a word. It’s not my place to be her for you. And give me what I need.
I am love. Brightness everlasting. Cannot be dimmed. I will remain. And I will forge ahead.LOVE ALL OVER ME Smiling all twenty four. I color the winter’s night. My glow shines through the darkness. . After the end. Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me. I am the Milky Way. Brighter than the night’s sky.
HYPNOTIZED Fine As the darkest wine. . I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized. Intoxicating.
I’ll hold it down and set you free. as well. I fear. A part-time love is not enough. . Love shouldn’t have to be this rough. I know my needs fall on deaf ears. Can’t compete with street life. Why do I compete With the streets. Not just the night-time one you sell.SETTING YOU FREE Here I wait Today for you. Just like the day before. God. Don’t sell away your half from me. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol. A dozen women for a dime. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man.
Swinging and swaying to your moods. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry. And try to make it back from hell again. . Maybe this time is the last time. hell begins. Say forgive me this time. You say you’re sorry all the time. time for hell again. Pray to God that I don’t cry. Although the truth lies elsewhere. nasty at 10. I’m coming back. and I love you more than anything. At 11:30. Nice at 8.HELL AND BACK I go through hell to be with you. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry. I hold on tight for the ride. Time to put me back on track. At 10:30. But it’s 1.
too? I’ve been waiting oh so long. I pray that you’re still looking. Kissed so many frogs.SEARCHING Where are you? Are you searching for me. And also trying to find me. . Even met some dogs. Out there trying to see. Not giving up. still searching. I wonder if you’re like me. too. If the perfect one waits somewhere for you. But my conviction still remains strong.
It flows outside the lines. then drops you down. Enjoy the ride. It takes you up. And just await your love’s surprise. But love can also be so sweet. So hold on tight. Love pulls you in. And surprises you with no regrets. Sometimes love takes broader shape. It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything. Pretends to stay. Can pick you up and be complete. . Refuses to be confined. It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect.LOVE’S SURPRISE Sometimes love throws you a curve. It smiles at you and then frowns. and Evaporates to your dismay.
by my side. I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time. Tell me it’s all mine. So glad to have you In my life. I tell you you’re The best at what you do. You show me how Real love should be with you. . Standing tall. The queen I’m meant to be. It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined. Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do. Just what I’m meant to do. Give me the world. And I rule the roost.WE LIFT EACH OTHER You lift me up For the world to see.
Pretend to care. You had a plan all the while. You pile it on Because I can take it. And then not care Who you hurt. And try to break me.THE WARNING It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you. You’re having fun. But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy. . Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile. All others be damned. Say some words. Curse my name. Because your plan is number one.
About you.” . “My darling. The joy and laughter every night.MISSING YOU “What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say. I’d say to you. The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared. I’d miss everything. “Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared. The happiness I felt inside.
That essence that I smell. Whether night or day. . Take you when I leave. So distinct. I inhale you on my shirt. You follow me Through the day.YOU WEAR IT WELL I wear you on my sleeve. You line the pleats of my skirt. An aroma only you possess. Separating you from the rest. your scent. Whether at work or at play. It’s not cologne or soap. That fragrence I know so well. you know. You’re with me On my way. Not Ivory or Irish Spring. And you wear it well.
And then we pray.NOT ALONE The games we play. Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through. We laugh. Like children Not yet grown. The shit we say. Alone is not what we do. Realizing It won’t work apart. We hurt. . Can’t make it on our own.
A prize for all to see. A freshness for our start. Because you are the best of me. The light replaced the dark.THE BEST OF ME I make up the best of you. You don’t need to say it. I brought a new place for you. This much I truly know. I’m proud to see what you’ve become. . Order lives where chaos dwelled. Your life tells me so. With me. And I know I make up the best of you.
Although repaired. Hoping things are as good as new. .TRUST It’s like a broken fence: When mended. you still see that link. you see. Looking okay. You try to move along. The chain contains a kink. Thinking that you’re done. But that kink. Will forever change the way I now look at you.
Skin of chocolate. I fear you love yourself More than you love me. For the chocolate and the caramel. . With eyes of auburn. Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love. You don’t even see.SHADES OF ME How can you not love me.
Powder-white sand. A world that rivals Disneyland. .LOVE’S ESCAPE I know where your happiness lies. I’m ready now. And I wait With your love’s escape. It’s embedded between my thighs. I take you to another place. A world where only you escape: A world of beaches.
Is not simple In my eyes. A place Finally to be me. Though simple it may be. Not so simple to me.THE CHOICE The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. A simple choice It may seem. To live in hell Or go be free. .
Yesterday. Did you forget yesterday? A friend today. Face twisted mean. . Although you’re okay today. So it may seem. That voice appears and says. Did you forget yesterday? The screaming and the yelling. Don’t forget yesterday. I truly thought you understood. No matter what a friend may say. an enemy.DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY Every time it’s going good.
You can’t say yes. . Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I.WHAT WE DESERVE Do you deserve All that I do. Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve. to be with you? I can’t say no. Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess. Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me.
dry your eyes. You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. No time to cry. I know it’s not what you want to hear. Life alone brings doubts and fears. But. I fear. But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you. Your true love awaits. Because I see the truth. . it’s not meant to be. And I’m not the one for you. We tried to make it work. Truth is you’re not the one for me. It may just be Around the corner.THE TRUTH I’m sad today. Fully awake. Another smiling face. So.
Sadly. There would be no other for you. And I can only dream. In a perfect world. It’d be you and I. today it’s not that way. I’d be all you see. . And sit by my side. I’d always be right. You’d forever stay. You’d agree with me. In a perfect world. Your love to give For me always. We’d never fight. You’d hold me tight. You’d only have eyes for me. Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem. In a perfect world.A PERFECT WORLD In a perfect world.
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.
FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.
Women are cunning creatures you know. It is so easy for me to smile.LYING IN WAIT I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies. Believed that when you closed the door. The perfect moment to strike. Pretend I’m okay inside. We lie in wait. For the right time. . We plot our moves From the go. You should have never estimated The power of my mind. It was fine to say goodbye.
It hurts to be in this spot. Because it’s all I know. I can’t forget what we had. Now I sit and wait for you. Hoping it’s not too late. Because you set me free. When you would let me go.MOVING ON I wait for you in the lot. Where I said I’d be. Thought the day would never come. That’s too damn bad. But I fear your mind’s made up. You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had. . Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day.
But I don’t think It will ever be. It’s not enough for me. I ask you all the time To treat me like I need.NOT YOUR FORTE I tell you I need more. You look into my eyes. Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte. Give me no reply. . And sleep.
And now I sit. Alone with the truth after the fall. What I see Is not really you.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all. . Although I know the truth. For the real you can never love me. But … I wanted you. so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show.
You’re gonna miss me so damn bad. Yeah. . Go ahead. The way I kissed you late at night. And please. But time will tell. I really hope you find her soon. You say you don’t care. hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. Make your move. Miss what we had. you think you know it all.A LOVE LIKE MINE You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone. That there are many more like me. And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same. So you can finally see. Think it’s all a big game.
.TERMINAL LOVE Your love will be The end of me. too. Your love will make Me lose my mind. If I let it be. If I let it inside. Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me. Your love will kill My spirit. If that’s what I let it do.
To live this life with you. Showing me the man That you’re proud to be. You tell me that I’m beautiful. I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do. And that I deserve the best. Ignoring all the rest. It’s great to be by your side.THE LITTLE THINGS It’s the little things I appreciate. They don’t have to cost a thing. You’re blind to all that temptation outside. Holding my hand. .
My spirit grows. Because you need to be first. Don’t want to hear my words.LOVING ME My anger grows. You discourage me. And it’s my fault. And it’s your fault. Because all you thought about was you. I finally love me more that you do. I let you do what you want to. My anger knows It’s my fault. You don’t encourage me. My spirit knows It’s your fault. I’m the one who made you into you. .
Although it doesn’t live here. Although it’s not yet mine.A FAN OF LOVE I am a fan of love. But it won’t knock at my door. I will wait for love. I still believe in love. Though it doesn’t live here no more. I will wait for love. I lay out the welcome mat for love. I lay out the welcome mat for love. Because someday love will set me free. I still believe in love. Because I see it all the time. . I’m a fan of love. Because it waits somewhere for me. I’d sit in the stands and cheer.
But we’re not meant to be.A DIFFERENT CLOTH Cut from a different cloth. I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come. Your world is nothing like The one I’m from. Yet you came. A visitor from another place. Tell me why you’re in my space. You try to live in my realty. If only in our eyes. When I don’t even know your name. . Maybe that cloth Really is the same. You and I are not the same. and you try To become you and I. But you won’t show your face.
To do what I have to do. Though the shitty lies you grab. Honesty is within your reach. . So glad to have this new breakthrough. It’s nowhere inside of you. I don’t know why I ask for truth.PROMISES Promises you fail to keep Are all I have.
There’s no you and me in us for you. I’m sick to hell of being under your spell. I’m like a moth to your flame. I try and try to be What you want from me. Not taking your shit any more.NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE You can’t see me Past your superiority. But I’m tired of playing Your sick. It’s your way or the door. twisted game. .
Because we both want to win the race. Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath. Two peas of a different pod. Because you have to be first. First place is a space we both want. You sprint along. . Can’t let me be in front. We’ll never be face-to-face. now by my side.WINNING THE RACE I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight. Trying to keep up.
POWER Looking through rose-colored glasses. . Co-existence is the only power You hold over me. I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections. I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely.
indeed. . Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts. but the one I should let go. Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for. Why don’t I feel comfortable.SING FOR YOU Why don’t I sing for you? A good question.
LOVE Love. What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh. Just break your chains. Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love. how you love to tell your lovely lies. Love. Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh. The jokes are all at my expense. I laugh along in my defense. And set me free. Let loose your hold of me. . Love.
When unity was a goal. . Surviving by itself. Even when times were tough? It got you through. A time of unrivaled bliss. Family meant we were whole. A time I surely miss.REMEMBERING LOVE Remember when Love was enough. With nothing else.
But nothing’s said. And we’ve both paid the cost. minutes. I hold my breath. Turning into weeks. Still alone. The seconds. I look elsewhere instead. . Because we never speak. Yet nothing was said. We drift together.LOST LIVES Here we go again. And here we are In elder years. So much to say. Our whole lives lost. hours. Just like the day before. So much to say. You stare at the floor. I smile. You try to read my face. you grin. days.
I think of you before I rest. .MY WIFE You bought me flowers today: Roses. My wife. How I cherish you. With you is where my heart lies. Although I seldom tell you so. Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said: I can’t live my life without Having you by my side. pink and red. You are the reason why I work so hard. I try my best.
KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS I lose a piece of me every day. How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her. But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside. And you think they’re just words. . I disappear with every word you say. Curse her name. Call her a bitch. Or use my fists.
He’d love every part of me. Put me before himself. Live together happily. . I wouldn’t want for anything. A perfect world For him and me. It wouldn’t matter if they were his. He’d cherish them because they were mine. He’d always take care of me.THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME Oh. No one else would matter. That man I made for me. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often. He’d cherish the ground I walked on. He wouldn’t see anyone else. And even love my kids.
I put your first. You let me fall. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day. And so. Bring me light after the dark. I put you first. Lord. And so. You guide. And so. In you. Guiding me along the way. You’re by my side. that’s the way it will be. as I carry on. so I may rise. Let me laugh after I’ve cried. . And I’ll always put you first. I have a faithful friend.I PUT YOU FIRST You’ve been there Since day one. Whether I am right or wrong. I put you first. this is why I will believe With Your Word. I lead My life in Your hands. Get me through to a new start. Supporting me until the end.
he’s taken hold. Says what I think before I do.FAITH He came today and shook my soul. I don’t know nothing anymore. He’s got my map. And I thought I knew it all. . Mouths the words before I talk. With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day. the path I walk. My whole world. He knows my mind. He has my unwavering faith. He is the Lord above. He knows the goings on inside of me. predicts my moves. He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break. I think he’s psychic see.
. It’s impossible to hide a lie. A lie won’t hide. No matter how hard you try. It shines so bright. I would have told you so.LIES AND TRUTH The truth is the light. You can’t contain What will remain. If asked. Won’t stay inside. you know. A cover will not work. Sets me free. Rains down on me.
powering my soul. Realizing who I am. Can’t keep me down no more. Screaming to me in my own song. ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be. but now I see The truth I bought now sold. I can’t lie low. Flipping a script You no longer own. For the entire world to see. Has built a wall that can’t be broken. Who I am inside. Yes. I got it now.REALIZATION The beauty of it all. So that confidence. . Now I’m free. Was in a fog. The square peg now fits the hole. The chains are gone. Took years to find.
finally. Stealing my light. The pain will end. And I cannot escape. Staining the air. breathlessly. All consuming. So I say my last goodbye. I try to fight. But. Like the way That evil does. . Everywhere.ENDING THE PAIN This world of pain. So much to bear. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today. through the fog I can’t see. Killing my mind And spirit. too. I’ll be with you forever now. Now is the end for me. A better place awaits me. It’s all around.
Guess I’ll listen to radio instead. It calls to me and screams my name. Enough to drive the sane insane. I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. . Someone’s missing. I vow to do the best I can. same old thing. So I block it and stay inside. But radio’s no better. Live by his word and let him see. Or found dead. I’ll start my fight by changing me. For fear of what it might say. Start my task with one woman.CHANGING ME I couldn’t watch the news today. Everyone’s fighting or arguing. Can’t let this dark swallow my light.
I’m the one it killed. Although it hurt. I took the pain away with me. I had to go because it stayed. I pierce the layer that I see. After all the blood had dried. I couldn’t cry. Finally free. Cutting deeper still. . I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay. The one underneath’s too tough. The pain still wouldn’t go away. But blood is not enough. Now I’m gone. The pain inside just wouldn’t die.BREAKING FREE I try to cut the pain away. Now my pain has gone away.
A battle I couldn’t lose. I stood tall. The love I thought I had to have. But through it all. I held you tight and kissed your cheek. . I feared it was not true. Here I stand forever. Although you were not yet mine. Only the mixture that I needed.MY SON SHINES Long ago I dreamt of you. You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues. Before you were inside. For the other half of you. By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away.
KNOWING ME Do you really know who I am. Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me. . Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know. me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me.
My arms they sway That away. Dance with me tonight. Dance with me tonight. It moves my hips. . Dance with me tonight. Made for sin. Your song instead. It moves my feet. Please play for me. I feel the beat. The rhythm stirs Inside my head.DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT I feel the music From deep within.
So hold them tight. . Your will was not as strong. Pain can be an awful thing. To make sure you were still here. We didn’t have you long.TOO SOON Gone too soon. So here is where they’ll stay. They’ll wish we stopped you just in time. What younger ones can’t fare. It’s sad to know your time is done. But many will always care. Though your beauty will last always. And let them know An early end’s no way to go. Help them push the pain aside. We older folks can tolerate. Sometimes too much to bare.
I hold my breath. I approach. I wait till day To go your way. Too many eyes Cover me. . You strike so fast. Hoping you’re asleep. Hoping you snoozed. But you’re too quick. Why did I go? I should have paused. You lay still. You’re poisonous.THE BROWN WIDOW You wait for me In the dark. Await my move. I knew you were there After all.
DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight.THE TIME IS NOW Slow down. Take your time. It will be just right. . Live your best life now.
It differs from the rest. Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. take a peak. it lies inside. Residing where it’s meant to be. Specific to each owner. Where it shines the best. Remembering where it first shined.INNER SUPERSTAR We possess it early on. And then peaked out often. We get a glimpse. After we have forgotten. . Dormant. But often forget where it lies. Years later we get another glimpse. Our inner superstar Was always there inside.
Without listening to what it has to say. It shows its face in elder years. But then we find courage inside And turn it all around. Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. Listen for what life has in store. . Its view widens so we may see. Life’s not all a mystery. Be patient. While hiding in our youth. We make a turn on our own. But we get in the way. Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down.LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL Life tries to take the wheel.
Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so. At least. until tomorrow. Now tomorrow’s here. This I didn’t know.TOO LATE You were mine On borrowed time. . I took for granted you’d be here. I’m so sorry I was wrong. And you’re gone.
AHA MOMENT Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise. . spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do.
COLORS OF ME There are many Shades of me. a light yellow. I’m an aubergine. I change from day-to-day. When ready. They cover you And color me. I can be any hue I want to be. When wide awake. Like many colors of the rainbow. A darker color when we fight. Black or white. A blue for when I’m feeling low. A range of shades for everything. I shine brightly for all to see. . A softer shade. Neon bright. you know. Relaxed for when I sleep. Growing daily like the evergreen.
I think in rhyme. rhyming All the time.A POET’S SONG I live in verse. Thinking. The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow. breathing poetry . Living. And it makes up The best of me. The sadness that you may see. I don’t know how Or even why. Is all poetry to me. It sings to me from deep inside.
BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH Just how bright Is your light. barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath. The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow. Shine from underneath? Is it dim. .
Then takes my coat. It says to me. Then sings to me In special notes. Says stay awhile. . It sets me free. And offers me its words to eat. It invites me in. I am your friend. It embraces me. I open up. Inside that room lives poetry. Says take a seat.POETRY LIVES HERE A door has opened up for me. It comforts me. It offers me a place to stay. And says Please come back any day. Encourages me With its warm smile.
And I know my worth. The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back. I am life. Knowing that your fears. The pleasures I possess. The comfort of my embrace. It’s because I am beauty.KNOWING MY WORTH Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice. Shape of my thighs. or shock you. I am woman. . The wisdom I possess. I can erase? If I frighten. That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss. offend. The knowledge I give. Curve of my waist.
Forgetting it. We are the best of all beings. One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth. . Rewarded with so many qualities.OF ALL BEINGS Fellow women of today. you should abhor. Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man.
Every road must come to an end. What a lovely ride. A sight I almost see. Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me. My destination is on my mind. I smile and hold it inside. Happiness and long-lost friends. Held some hands along the way. Did mostly as I pleased. I can’t wait for mine. .THE LONG ROAD HOME I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead. Thinking of how it will be.
Giving the breeze What it needs. “Your time is here. Sounds fully. Listen closely. The signs are there For you to see. It is today. .” The tree breaths. As if saying to me.THE SOUND OF SIGNS I hear the birds chirping.” The willow weeps. Close your eyes. “The time has come For you to leave. As if to say.
A CALL TO ARMS *STOP* Turn off your television set. I’ve grabbed my pen. What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man. This is not a test. It’s not too late. . What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot. Or we all lose.
My home may just be with you.HOME My home is where I lay my head And pray at night. My home is where I leave my heart. Beside the bed. Where happiness lives Indefinitely. My home can be one place or a few. My home is where I chose to be. Where true love lives. . Though we’re apart.
Although it seems quite odd. And in our haste. Open your foolish eyes. This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet. . A trick used to confuse the mind. We turn away. Should crown our lover’s throne. So easy to believe a lie. It passes instantly. But what lies inside. The better prize.THE BETTER PRIZE The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade. We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone. And miss out on the better prize. Ignorant to what’s inside.
And I know more will surely come. . Unfortunately. I remember to relax today. But I know things will be fine. that’s the way life goes. Spirit. too. Save some work. add some play. I’m tired already. Time to sit and rest my mind. I’ve seen this day before.RELAXING MY MIND Been a long day. Try to balance both and remain whole. My body’s weary.
So I continue to Keep hope alive. Where all is calm. I’ve given up on happiness. Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me. I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been. Why won’t it set me free? . And I know nothing else. It should be tired of me. and I stay safe. Surrounded by my friends.TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME Trouble road begins at my door. And pray trouble runs out of time. Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free. It must lie somewhere else.
And then thank God I learned to fly. How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on. To ride with you. There is no room. You smile at me And hit the gas. As I brace For the crash. Look to the sky. I close my eyes. You’re speeding now. . You’re driving too fast. No space for me.THE GREATEST ESCAPE Slow down for me. Even the belt Won’t keep me safe. Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape. Without your brakes. Away I go To a better place.
everything I’ve got. The snipers waiting for that clear shot. Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two.THE FALL Land mines. Worried I’ll be found. So much to lose. I wait until it’s dark. Premeditated steps I take with no regrets. Worried about the fall. Can never take the leap. Afraid to make a sound. Covering your insides. . afterall.
Don’t be scared to let go.MAKING MOVES Every now and then. We wish for the best. Make your move. We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go. Don’t be afraid. . Hope our move won’t make a mess. Scared to make a move. Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know. You’re right where you need to be. And we’re finally on track. Take a step and not look back. Do what you say. That moment is meant just for you To make your move. Then we realize The move was just right.
. It never waits. Life just passes by. Focused on today. And now half my life’s Just floated away. And now the time is here For me to finally shine. The final bell has rung. I never saw the signs. I’ve already won the race.WINNING THE RACE I’ve wasted too much time. Light miles ahead. Although my mouth is closed. My eyes are opened wide. Or what they tried to say. It’s time to take my rightful place.
Even when I want to vent About nothing at all. Taking it all in. I need you to show me Just how I should be. A true friend. And I need you there. It’s so innocent. indeed. The times we share. You know I’m really into it. I’m glad I have you in my life. You always take my call. You call me. But we’re just friends. . You listen when I talk. Because when I need someone to vent to.TRUE FRIENDS I call you.
.KEEPING SECRETS Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing. And what things we should keep. Often times Those little things Should remain a secret. We need to learn What to say. There are times When we may find Some things troubling.
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.
FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD Listen up! I got lots to say. So much to do. Too much for me to hold inside. Hold the door. So little time. I’m coming in! . Ready for me to begin. No more sitting still for me today.
I won’t be sad. When you come for me. Waiting for you to take me to some other place. I’m looking forward to the trip ahead. When you come for me. I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go. In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again. .WHEN YOU COME FOR ME When you come for me. I’m tired today. I will be ready. When you come for me. This life has gotten really bad.
but don’t know what to say. Just how a smudge succeeds. . Guess I’m in too deep. Desire being my excuse. You open up. Loving the way That I confuse. Can’t get rid of me.A MERE SMUDGE I’m a smudge on your window pane. Giving in to your every want and need.
But I’m the one that pays the toll. “Celebrate with me. accept your smile.” I take a sip.A PRISONER’S LIFE I want to be free. You say. . Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape. You say it’ll never be. That I can’t survive on my own. A prisoner’s life is what I lead. Drink my wine. Not knowing poison’s inside. Locked away indefinitely. I try and try To live your life.
I hear. Make your move. All at once. it’ll be done. Either way.AT A CROSSROADS Here I am. Close your eyes. I’ll guide you. And That’s just what I’ll do. . No one to help me with this one. And I finally see. Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be. Decision time tonight. A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go. It hit me hard.
They didn’t live here. Arguments. I’ve got to drive those blues away. Mainly out of fear. Awkward distance.DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY Sad songs are all I heard. And I held on. So they don’t live here no more. I can’t always be afraid. They silenced all the tears. From this life I need more. Happiness and joyful days. . Too scared to move. Year after year.
HOW How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning? .
TOO. shall pass. too. It’s got places to go. Because nothing ever lasts Of pain. Consuming who it occupies. Making you believe you died. Till only it survives. . Taking over everything. shall pass. That bell it rings. And pain’s waiting At another’s door. too. SHALL PASS Pain can’t last forever.IT. But … It. It.
Every day is a fight for me.HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE I try to hold my head above water. Fight to keep it all in order. . Holding onto my pride. Try to turn it all around. I suit up for the war. But the price I pay is worth being free. For the misery in store. Try not to let the weight get me down. And I fight with my head high.
Believing those wicked smiles. . Point fingers. Mistakes that others seem to make. Our downfall in the end. Skirt the blame. All the while hiding ours. So afraid of being called out our name. Although we are among friends. It’s become customary To point out all the flaws.OUR DOWNFALL We are a sad society: So quick to judge. We don’t see What lies within. Such a wicked game to play.
The only way truly to be free. . Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be.BEING FREE I won’t let you change who I am.
What treasures lied within. . Forgot who I was inside. Time for me to shine. My world finally mine. It’s how I lived my life. Picked up where I had left off.MY WORLD Sometime ago I lost myself. Just the way a record does. Remembering who I was. Don’t know how long it’s been. Now it’s time for me to grow. Concentrating on what I’m meant to do. My eyes are open now. This thought had become commonplace. I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine.
. Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine.MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine. It’s there. Although it tries to hide. I know. See … I’m making it my goal.
NEARLY BROKEN Thought it was the end of me. I begin again. My spirit nearly broken. As the pieces began to mend. Hope not within my reach. Thought there was no escape. . But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat. My mind said all was lost. So glad that I had faith. Nearly broken. But I’m on the mend.
the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while. Because she knows her worth.MY FRIEND Oh. She loves me more than anything. and a wife. daughter. She’s happy. She’s beautiful And full of life. . A mother. That friend I’ve found is me. She knows how much I meant to her.
Saying everything With just a smirk. The other upside down. The stories they tell Without saying a word. . One right-side up.THE SMILE AND THE FROWN Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown.
REMAINING LONELY Loneliness. Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip. Instead. I remain lonely. I’ll forever mourn. I’d rather have my love with me. Memories barely keep me warm. The love I lost. have mercy on me. . Loosen your lover’s grip.
Close your eyes.FEAR INSIDE I challenge you To sit in silence. What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside? . Take a sigh. Imagine your worst fear. Visualize it’s there In front of you.
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.
feelings are no big deal. My time no longer mine. I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time. . Waiting once more. But to you. Until you walk through my door.WAITING All I do Is wait around for you. So here I sit. I should say How I feel.
you know. So I sing today for you. . Because this I’m thankful for.SINGING TODAY FOR YOU Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time.
I don’t care what you have to say. Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out. Though I don’t listen any more.NOT LISTENING Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago. Yet your mouth moves constantly. . I’m not listening anyway.
And what I’m meant to be. You watch and study me. You know me Better Than I ever could know. . Looking through The window to my soul.WINDOW TO MY SOUL I see you Through the window to my soul. Loving everything I am. Taking in all you see.
Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth. Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud? You’re pretty for a black girl. . You’re pretty for a black girl.PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL You’re pretty for a black girl. Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more. Thank you for letting me know. What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me? You’re pretty for a black girl. Am I supposed to smile.
Thought I should let you know. Thought I should tell you so. Beauty lying inside and out. .FOR MY SISTERS My sister. Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen. you are beautiful. you know.
Even if we’ve forgotten. To show each other why we’re here. The time we have is now. To share all we’ve got. This place we’ve gotten to somehow. Seeing all we’re meant to see. . To feel how it should be.THE TIME IS NOW The only time we have is now.
. short stories. “The Amazing Mr. and songs. She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons. Her first publication was a short story entitled. She writes poetry.BIO Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school. Glonka.” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten.
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