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Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved. ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition .
Mom .For my boys. Make your mark. Devante. and Jaden. I love you. Brandon. The world is yours. Blake.
CONTENTS Title Page Copyright Page LOVE Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone .
The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You .
LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me LIFE I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song .
Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How .
It. Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now . too.
. What lovers do. Wash your clothes. You are my light Through the dark. I do it all. Bake your bread. Handle with care. For you. All you have to do is ask. I smile for you. I live for you At your command. As you breathe. Clean the floors. I leave my mark. My world expands.LOVING YOU As you awake. Giving you more than my last. By loving you. I make your food. Be your lover and more.
THANKS TO YOU Cold. All thanks to you. The monster made. Bitter through and through. All thanks to you. Blacker than the darkest night. . heartless. Only anger in this place. Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth. Rotten to the very core. My evil eyes are full of spite.
I see your eyes start at my feet. Licking your lips. Felling the heat between you and me. Now face-to-face. Caress my cheek from where you stand. My hips move to your beat. Your gaze has only reached my thighs. Don’t have to say a word. I quench your thirst. you lift your hand. woman and man. I kiss your lips. My chest. I see the way you look at me. it heaves to my surprise.WITHOUT WORDS I know you like what you see. And you haven’t said a word. You didn’t have to say a word. I feel your hands all over me. . And still not a word.
Bare for all to see. Still shaded by your tree. Emptied my soul. just wasted time. It’s over now. You’ve taken all I have to give. My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. I gave my all for you to live. I shed my skin. . The years I lost. And you never saw me. But you don’t see me. My end is here. The rest gone down the drain.WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME Here I stand out in front. The foolishness I left behind. Requesting more so you can live. And now my shell is all I have.
In the end it was always us. We have grown together. Please stay a while. The heat I crave to feel at night. it’s just you and me. A constant cold stuns my heart. built-in trust.SEASONS OF LOVE A light is shining bright. You are my spring. Our love is blossoming for all to see. You are my summer. . A smile that warms the coldest night. You are my winter. You are my fall. All is still. living long it must. A love so grand. Existing even after the end. We bring forth our new ecstasy. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh. We from the start. No you and I.
please. Don’t want you to dry my eyes. Not bottle it up inside of me. The damage done won’t disappear. Don’t want happiness here again. my worst fear. oh please. I want to cry. just let me be. I need the anger. .BROKEN Please. Just let me be. So. You must understand my need to be here. I killed your love for me. I’ve got to let the burn roam free. I need to feel the pain inside of me. Just let this pain pierce my skin.
You on my mind.MY LAST DAY I would wake up a little late. Our fingers intertwined. That I’d never leave. Silently gazing In your eyes. I would call in sick. It would always be this way. Forever stay. No worry about what could be heard. Enjoy the day. Make love to you without saying a word. I’d say. . Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. I would promise you. gazing upon your face. Open my eyes. Wash your feet Late that night. I would make a meal For you and me. Me in your heart. My love always. Sitting by your side. Feed you by hand. Hold your hand.
That’s how I would spend My last day. .
if you yell. Face so mean. The very last one to show up. just know I won’t be walking out the door. I’ll show up. Till this life ends. And I will always show up. it will be us. You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. Through thick and thin when times are hard. I’ll show up. You see I gave my word in front of God. I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you. I’ll show up.I WILL SHOW UP If I yell. You curse and scream. So when you’re mad as hell. You spit my name With twisted face. I will show up. .
And give me what I need. No. Just take me on into the room. we don’t have to talk or say a word. Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do. And give me what I need. Just here for me to feel alright. it’s what you heard. Cover me with ecstasy. You can find someone else to fill those shoes. Lie down with me in this moment. I don’t want to be your girl. Yeah.WHAT I NEED No. So close your lips and take my hand. I’m telling you. It’s not my place to be her for you. . Not here to be your girl tonight. Don’t want to chill or hang with you.
Brightness everlasting. . My glow shines through the darkness. And I will forge ahead.LOVE ALL OVER ME Smiling all twenty four. Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me. I am love. After the end. Brighter than the night’s sky. I am the Milky Way. I color the winter’s night. I will remain. Cannot be dimmed.
Intoxicating. . I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized.HYPNOTIZED Fine As the darkest wine.
A dozen women for a dime. Don’t sell away your half from me.SETTING YOU FREE Here I wait Today for you. Why do I compete With the streets. Love shouldn’t have to be this rough. God. I’ll hold it down and set you free. I fear. as well. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man. Not just the night-time one you sell. Just like the day before. I know my needs fall on deaf ears. Can’t compete with street life. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol. A part-time love is not enough. .
hell begins. Say forgive me this time. time for hell again.HELL AND BACK I go through hell to be with you. and I love you more than anything. I’m coming back. . At 10:30. Nice at 8. Swinging and swaying to your moods. At 11:30. nasty at 10. You say you’re sorry all the time. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry. I hold on tight for the ride. And try to make it back from hell again. But it’s 1. Although the truth lies elsewhere. Maybe this time is the last time. Time to put me back on track. Pray to God that I don’t cry. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry.
Even met some dogs. . If the perfect one waits somewhere for you. Not giving up. I pray that you’re still looking. I wonder if you’re like me. But my conviction still remains strong. Kissed so many frogs. Out there trying to see. too? I’ve been waiting oh so long.SEARCHING Where are you? Are you searching for me. And also trying to find me. too. still searching.
It smiles at you and then frowns. It flows outside the lines. So hold on tight. . Pretends to stay. And just await your love’s surprise. Enjoy the ride. It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything. It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect. Love pulls you in.LOVE’S SURPRISE Sometimes love throws you a curve. then drops you down. Refuses to be confined. Sometimes love takes broader shape. and Evaporates to your dismay. And surprises you with no regrets. It takes you up. But love can also be so sweet. Can pick you up and be complete.
And I rule the roost. Tell me it’s all mine. I tell you you’re The best at what you do. by my side. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time. You show me how Real love should be with you. The queen I’m meant to be. I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. . Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do. Give me the world.WE LIFT EACH OTHER You lift me up For the world to see. It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined. So glad to have you In my life. Standing tall. Just what I’m meant to do.
Say some words. Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile. You pile it on Because I can take it. . Curse my name. But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy. You had a plan all the while.THE WARNING It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you. You’re having fun. And try to break me. Because your plan is number one. All others be damned. And then not care Who you hurt. Pretend to care.
MISSING YOU “What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say. The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared. The joy and laughter every night. I’d miss everything.” . About you. “My darling. The happiness I felt inside. I’d say to you. “Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared.
you know. I inhale you on my shirt. An aroma only you possess. Take you when I leave. your scent. You’re with me On my way. Whether at work or at play. So distinct. You line the pleats of my skirt. That fragrence I know so well.YOU WEAR IT WELL I wear you on my sleeve. It’s not cologne or soap. Separating you from the rest. You follow me Through the day. That essence that I smell. And you wear it well. Not Ivory or Irish Spring. . Whether night or day.
Alone is not what we do. We hurt. Realizing It won’t work apart.NOT ALONE The games we play. . The shit we say. Like children Not yet grown. And then we pray. Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through. We laugh. Can’t make it on our own.
Order lives where chaos dwelled. And I know I make up the best of you. With me. Because you are the best of me. You don’t need to say it.THE BEST OF ME I make up the best of you. I’m proud to see what you’ve become. Your life tells me so. A freshness for our start. A prize for all to see. This much I truly know. The light replaced the dark. . I brought a new place for you.
Looking okay. . you still see that link. Although repaired. Thinking that you’re done. But that kink. Will forever change the way I now look at you. Hoping things are as good as new. you see.TRUST It’s like a broken fence: When mended. The chain contains a kink. You try to move along.
Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love. You don’t even see. . For the chocolate and the caramel.SHADES OF ME How can you not love me. With eyes of auburn. I fear you love yourself More than you love me. Skin of chocolate.
Powder-white sand. A world where only you escape: A world of beaches. I’m ready now.LOVE’S ESCAPE I know where your happiness lies. . And I wait With your love’s escape. It’s embedded between my thighs. A world that rivals Disneyland. I take you to another place.
. Not so simple to me. To live in hell Or go be free.THE CHOICE The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. A place Finally to be me. Though simple it may be. Is not simple In my eyes. A simple choice It may seem.
Don’t forget yesterday. I truly thought you understood. No matter what a friend may say. Although you’re okay today. Did you forget yesterday? The screaming and the yelling. Did you forget yesterday? A friend today. an enemy. . So it may seem. Yesterday. That voice appears and says. Face twisted mean.DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY Every time it’s going good.
Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess. Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me. . to be with you? I can’t say no. Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I. You can’t say yes. Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve.WHAT WE DESERVE Do you deserve All that I do.
But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you. . We tried to make it work. I fear. Life alone brings doubts and fears. Your true love awaits. dry your eyes. No time to cry. And I’m not the one for you. I know it’s not what you want to hear. Because I see the truth. Another smiling face. But. Truth is you’re not the one for me. You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. Fully awake. it’s not meant to be. So.THE TRUTH I’m sad today. It may just be Around the corner.
You’d only have eyes for me. I’d always be right. You’d forever stay. . Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem. In a perfect world. In a perfect world. There would be no other for you. And sit by my side. You’d agree with me. Sadly. I’d be all you see. It’d be you and I. today it’s not that way. And I can only dream. We’d never fight.A PERFECT WORLD In a perfect world. Your love to give For me always. You’d hold me tight. In a perfect world.
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.
FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.
We plot our moves From the go. We lie in wait. It was fine to say goodbye. It is so easy for me to smile. Pretend I’m okay inside. Women are cunning creatures you know.LYING IN WAIT I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies. For the right time. Believed that when you closed the door. You should have never estimated The power of my mind. . The perfect moment to strike.
You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had. But I fear your mind’s made up.MOVING ON I wait for you in the lot. I can’t forget what we had. . Hoping it’s not too late. Where I said I’d be. Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day. Because you set me free. When you would let me go. Because it’s all I know. Now I sit and wait for you. That’s too damn bad. It hurts to be in this spot. Thought the day would never come.
NOT YOUR FORTE I tell you I need more. . Give me no reply. But I don’t think It will ever be. And sleep. Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte. I ask you all the time To treat me like I need. It’s not enough for me. You look into my eyes.
For the real you can never love me. How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all. Although I know the truth. But … I wanted you. .CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show. What I see Is not really you. Alone with the truth after the fall. And now I sit.
hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. The way I kissed you late at night. You say you don’t care. you think you know it all.A LOVE LIKE MINE You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone. That there are many more like me. Think it’s all a big game. But time will tell. Make your move. You’re gonna miss me so damn bad. . And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same. Go ahead. I really hope you find her soon. And please. Yeah. Miss what we had. So you can finally see.
If I let it inside. Your love will make Me lose my mind. If that’s what I let it do. If I let it be.TERMINAL LOVE Your love will be The end of me. Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me. too. Your love will kill My spirit. .
They don’t have to cost a thing. You tell me that I’m beautiful. I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do. . It’s great to be by your side. Showing me the man That you’re proud to be. Holding my hand. Ignoring all the rest. You’re blind to all that temptation outside. To live this life with you.THE LITTLE THINGS It’s the little things I appreciate. And that I deserve the best.
You discourage me. I’m the one who made you into you. I let you do what you want to. Don’t want to hear my words. Because all you thought about was you. My spirit grows. . Because you need to be first. I finally love me more that you do. And it’s my fault.LOVING ME My anger grows. My spirit knows It’s your fault. My anger knows It’s my fault. And it’s your fault. You don’t encourage me.
Because I see it all the time.A FAN OF LOVE I am a fan of love. I’m a fan of love. . I still believe in love. Although it doesn’t live here. I will wait for love. I’d sit in the stands and cheer. I lay out the welcome mat for love. Although it’s not yet mine. Because it waits somewhere for me. I lay out the welcome mat for love. Because someday love will set me free. Though it doesn’t live here no more. But it won’t knock at my door. I still believe in love. I will wait for love.
You and I are not the same. If only in our eyes. Maybe that cloth Really is the same. But you won’t show your face.A DIFFERENT CLOTH Cut from a different cloth. A visitor from another place. You try to live in my realty. I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come. and you try To become you and I. Your world is nothing like The one I’m from. Tell me why you’re in my space. Yet you came. . When I don’t even know your name. But we’re not meant to be.
So glad to have this new breakthrough. I don’t know why I ask for truth. To do what I have to do.PROMISES Promises you fail to keep Are all I have. . Though the shitty lies you grab. Honesty is within your reach. It’s nowhere inside of you.
It’s your way or the door. I’m sick to hell of being under your spell. There’s no you and me in us for you. twisted game. I try and try to be What you want from me.NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE You can’t see me Past your superiority. . But I’m tired of playing Your sick. Not taking your shit any more. I’m like a moth to your flame.
now by my side. .WINNING THE RACE I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight. Trying to keep up. Because we both want to win the race. Can’t let me be in front. Two peas of a different pod. Because you have to be first. You sprint along. Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath. We’ll never be face-to-face. First place is a space we both want.
I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections. Co-existence is the only power You hold over me.POWER Looking through rose-colored glasses. I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely. .
Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for. indeed. Why don’t I feel comfortable.SING FOR YOU Why don’t I sing for you? A good question. but the one I should let go. Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts. .
The jokes are all at my expense. Let loose your hold of me. Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh.LOVE Love. . I laugh along in my defense. And set me free. Just break your chains. how you love to tell your lovely lies. Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love. Love. What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh. Love.
Surviving by itself. With nothing else. . Family meant we were whole. A time of unrivaled bliss. Even when times were tough? It got you through. A time I surely miss. When unity was a goal.REMEMBERING LOVE Remember when Love was enough.
But nothing’s said. minutes. you grin.LOST LIVES Here we go again. Yet nothing was said. And here we are In elder years. And we’ve both paid the cost. . You try to read my face. Our whole lives lost. So much to say. I smile. hours. Just like the day before. Still alone. I look elsewhere instead. You stare at the floor. Because we never speak. The seconds. days. I hold my breath. We drift together. So much to say. Turning into weeks.
Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said: I can’t live my life without Having you by my side. You are the reason why I work so hard. pink and red. Although I seldom tell you so. My wife. With you is where my heart lies. I try my best. . How I cherish you. I think of you before I rest.MY WIFE You bought me flowers today: Roses.
And you think they’re just words. . I disappear with every word you say. How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her.KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS I lose a piece of me every day. Curse her name. Call her a bitch. But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside. Or use my fists.
He’d cherish them because they were mine. He’d always take care of me. He’d love every part of me. He’d cherish the ground I walked on. And even love my kids. Put me before himself. No one else would matter. . A perfect world For him and me. It wouldn’t matter if they were his. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often. I wouldn’t want for anything.THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME Oh. That man I made for me. Live together happily. He wouldn’t see anyone else.
Get me through to a new start. And so. I lead My life in Your hands. as I carry on. And so. I put you first. In you. You guide.I PUT YOU FIRST You’ve been there Since day one. Whether I am right or wrong. Lord. I put you first. I have a faithful friend. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day. You let me fall. Bring me light after the dark. And so. Let me laugh after I’ve cried. . You’re by my side. that’s the way it will be. Guiding me along the way. so I may rise. And I’ll always put you first. this is why I will believe With Your Word. I put your first. Supporting me until the end.
I think he’s psychic see. the path I walk. He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break. . He is the Lord above. Mouths the words before I talk. He knows my mind. predicts my moves. He knows the goings on inside of me. I don’t know nothing anymore. Says what I think before I do. With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day. he’s taken hold. He’s got my map. My whole world.FAITH He came today and shook my soul. He has my unwavering faith. And I thought I knew it all.
you know. No matter how hard you try. Won’t stay inside. It shines so bright. . You can’t contain What will remain. If asked. Sets me free. A cover will not work.LIES AND TRUTH The truth is the light. It’s impossible to hide a lie. I would have told you so. A lie won’t hide. Rains down on me.
Now I’m free. Yes. .REALIZATION The beauty of it all. I got it now. So that confidence. Who I am inside. Can’t keep me down no more. The chains are gone. Flipping a script You no longer own. Has built a wall that can’t be broken. Took years to find. The square peg now fits the hole. I can’t lie low. Realizing who I am. but now I see The truth I bought now sold. For the entire world to see. powering my soul. Screaming to me in my own song. ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be. Was in a fog.
So much to bear. And I cannot escape. breathlessly. Stealing my light. So I say my last goodbye. Killing my mind And spirit. through the fog I can’t see. All consuming. I’ll be with you forever now. It’s all around. too.ENDING THE PAIN This world of pain. A better place awaits me. Everywhere. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today. I try to fight. Like the way That evil does. . finally. Staining the air. Now is the end for me. The pain will end. But.
Enough to drive the sane insane. It calls to me and screams my name. Everyone’s fighting or arguing. I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. So I block it and stay inside. I vow to do the best I can. I’ll start my fight by changing me. Someone’s missing. . Can’t let this dark swallow my light. same old thing. Guess I’ll listen to radio instead.CHANGING ME I couldn’t watch the news today. But radio’s no better. Live by his word and let him see. Start my task with one woman. Or found dead. For fear of what it might say.
I’m the one it killed. The one underneath’s too tough.BREAKING FREE I try to cut the pain away. Now I’m gone. I couldn’t cry. I took the pain away with me. Although it hurt. I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay. The pain inside just wouldn’t die. . I pierce the layer that I see. But blood is not enough. After all the blood had dried. Cutting deeper still. Finally free. I had to go because it stayed. Now my pain has gone away. The pain still wouldn’t go away.
You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues. By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away. But through it all. Only the mixture that I needed. The love I thought I had to have. I feared it was not true. I held you tight and kissed your cheek. A battle I couldn’t lose. . I stood tall.MY SON SHINES Long ago I dreamt of you. Before you were inside. For the other half of you. Although you were not yet mine. Here I stand forever.
me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me.KNOWING ME Do you really know who I am. . Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know. Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me.
Dance with me tonight.DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT I feel the music From deep within. It moves my feet. I feel the beat. Dance with me tonight. Please play for me. The rhythm stirs Inside my head. Made for sin. It moves my hips. My arms they sway That away. Dance with me tonight. Your song instead. .
And let them know An early end’s no way to go. They’ll wish we stopped you just in time. Your will was not as strong. . We older folks can tolerate. What younger ones can’t fare. Sometimes too much to bare.TOO SOON Gone too soon. So hold them tight. It’s sad to know your time is done. But many will always care. To make sure you were still here. Though your beauty will last always. So here is where they’ll stay. Help them push the pain aside. We didn’t have you long. Pain can be an awful thing.
Hoping you’re asleep. I hold my breath. Await my move. But you’re too quick. Too many eyes Cover me. You’re poisonous. . Hoping you snoozed. You lay still. I knew you were there After all. I wait till day To go your way. You strike so fast. I approach. Why did I go? I should have paused.THE BROWN WIDOW You wait for me In the dark.
DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight. Live your best life now. It will be just right. Take your time.THE TIME IS NOW Slow down. .
Specific to each owner. Residing where it’s meant to be. Years later we get another glimpse. We get a glimpse. Remembering where it first shined. Dormant. take a peak.INNER SUPERSTAR We possess it early on. Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. Where it shines the best. Our inner superstar Was always there inside. But often forget where it lies. And then peaked out often. It differs from the rest. . it lies inside. After we have forgotten.
LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL Life tries to take the wheel. Life’s not all a mystery. Its view widens so we may see. While hiding in our youth. Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. Listen for what life has in store. Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down. But we get in the way. We make a turn on our own. Without listening to what it has to say. It shows its face in elder years. . Be patient. But then we find courage inside And turn it all around.
. Now tomorrow’s here. until tomorrow. Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so. And you’re gone.TOO LATE You were mine On borrowed time. This I didn’t know. I’m so sorry I was wrong. At least. I took for granted you’d be here.
AHA MOMENT Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise. spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do. .
A blue for when I’m feeling low. .COLORS OF ME There are many Shades of me. I can be any hue I want to be. A darker color when we fight. Like many colors of the rainbow. I shine brightly for all to see. you know. When wide awake. a light yellow. Neon bright. Relaxed for when I sleep. Growing daily like the evergreen. I change from day-to-day. A softer shade. I’m an aubergine. A range of shades for everything. Black or white. When ready. They cover you And color me.
A POET’S SONG I live in verse. It sings to me from deep inside. The sadness that you may see. Is all poetry to me. Thinking. And it makes up The best of me. The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow. rhyming All the time. I think in rhyme. Living. I don’t know how Or even why. breathing poetry .
BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH Just how bright Is your light. The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow. Shine from underneath? Is it dim. . barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath.
. Says stay awhile. I am your friend. It sets me free.POETRY LIVES HERE A door has opened up for me. It embraces me. Then sings to me In special notes. I open up. Inside that room lives poetry. It says to me. Says take a seat. It invites me in. And says Please come back any day. Then takes my coat. Encourages me With its warm smile. It comforts me. It offers me a place to stay. And offers me its words to eat.
offend. I am woman. .KNOWING MY WORTH Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice. The comfort of my embrace. It’s because I am beauty. Shape of my thighs. The wisdom I possess. And I know my worth. Curve of my waist. or shock you. I can erase? If I frighten. The pleasures I possess. The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back. That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss. I am life. The knowledge I give. Knowing that your fears.
.OF ALL BEINGS Fellow women of today. One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth. We are the best of all beings. you should abhor. Forgetting it. Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man. Rewarded with so many qualities.
. What a lovely ride. Happiness and long-lost friends. I can’t wait for mine. My destination is on my mind. I smile and hold it inside. Every road must come to an end. Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me. Held some hands along the way.THE LONG ROAD HOME I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead. A sight I almost see. Thinking of how it will be. Did mostly as I pleased.
Listen closely. It is today.THE SOUND OF SIGNS I hear the birds chirping.” The willow weeps.” The tree breaths. As if to say. As if saying to me. . The signs are there For you to see. Giving the breeze What it needs. Close your eyes. “The time has come For you to leave. “Your time is here. Sounds fully.
It’s not too late.A CALL TO ARMS *STOP* Turn off your television set. This is not a test. What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man. What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot. I’ve grabbed my pen. Or we all lose. .
My home may just be with you. Though we’re apart. Beside the bed. . Where happiness lives Indefinitely. My home is where I chose to be. Where true love lives. My home can be one place or a few. My home is where I leave my heart.HOME My home is where I lay my head And pray at night.
. We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone. It passes instantly. But what lies inside. So easy to believe a lie. We turn away. Open your foolish eyes. The better prize. A trick used to confuse the mind.THE BETTER PRIZE The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade. This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet. Should crown our lover’s throne. Although it seems quite odd. And in our haste. And miss out on the better prize. Ignorant to what’s inside.
Spirit. Save some work. . Time to sit and rest my mind. that’s the way life goes. Unfortunately. My body’s weary. And I know more will surely come. I remember to relax today. But I know things will be fine. Try to balance both and remain whole. I’m tired already. add some play. I’ve seen this day before.RELAXING MY MIND Been a long day. too.
Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free. Surrounded by my friends. Where all is calm. Why won’t it set me free? . I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been. I’ve given up on happiness. It must lie somewhere else. Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me. And I know nothing else. and I stay safe.TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME Trouble road begins at my door. So I continue to Keep hope alive. It should be tired of me. And pray trouble runs out of time.
Without your brakes. To ride with you. How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on. As I brace For the crash. Look to the sky. Even the belt Won’t keep me safe. And then thank God I learned to fly. There is no room. Away I go To a better place. I close my eyes. No space for me. Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape. . You’re driving too fast. You smile at me And hit the gas.THE GREATEST ESCAPE Slow down for me. You’re speeding now.
Afraid to make a sound. Worried I’ll be found. afterall. I wait until it’s dark. . So much to lose. The snipers waiting for that clear shot. Worried about the fall.THE FALL Land mines. everything I’ve got. Can never take the leap. Covering your insides. Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two. Premeditated steps I take with no regrets.
Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know. We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go. We wish for the best.MAKING MOVES Every now and then. Make your move. You’re right where you need to be. Do what you say. Hope our move won’t make a mess. And we’re finally on track. Take a step and not look back. Don’t be afraid. Then we realize The move was just right. Scared to make a move. . Don’t be scared to let go. That moment is meant just for you To make your move.
My eyes are opened wide. Focused on today. Light miles ahead. I’ve already won the race. I never saw the signs. Although my mouth is closed. It never waits. The final bell has rung. It’s time to take my rightful place. And now half my life’s Just floated away. Life just passes by. . And now the time is here For me to finally shine. Or what they tried to say.WINNING THE RACE I’ve wasted too much time.
Even when I want to vent About nothing at all. It’s so innocent. Taking it all in. You listen when I talk. indeed. But we’re just friends. A true friend. The times we share. . I need you to show me Just how I should be. You know I’m really into it. You always take my call. Because when I need someone to vent to. I’m glad I have you in my life.TRUE FRIENDS I call you. You call me. And I need you there.
We need to learn What to say. Often times Those little things Should remain a secret. And what things we should keep. .KEEPING SECRETS Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing. There are times When we may find Some things troubling.
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.
So much to do. Too much for me to hold inside. Hold the door. I’m coming in! . No more sitting still for me today. Ready for me to begin. So little time.FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD Listen up! I got lots to say.
When you come for me.WHEN YOU COME FOR ME When you come for me. I’m looking forward to the trip ahead. In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again. When you come for me. When you come for me. This life has gotten really bad. . I’m tired today. I will be ready. I won’t be sad. I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go. Waiting for you to take me to some other place.
Can’t get rid of me. Guess I’m in too deep. Just how a smudge succeeds. Desire being my excuse. You open up.A MERE SMUDGE I’m a smudge on your window pane. Loving the way That I confuse. . Giving in to your every want and need. but don’t know what to say.
“Celebrate with me. Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape.A PRISONER’S LIFE I want to be free. Locked away indefinitely. Not knowing poison’s inside. accept your smile. A prisoner’s life is what I lead. That I can’t survive on my own. I try and try To live your life. But I’m the one that pays the toll. You say.” I take a sip. Drink my wine. . You say it’ll never be.
It hit me hard. .AT A CROSSROADS Here I am. it’ll be done. And I finally see. Decision time tonight. I hear. All at once. Either way. Close your eyes. And That’s just what I’ll do. Make your move. A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go. No one to help me with this one. Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be. I’ll guide you.
I can’t always be afraid. They silenced all the tears. Awkward distance. Mainly out of fear. Arguments. . And I held on. Happiness and joyful days. Year after year. I’ve got to drive those blues away. They didn’t live here. So they don’t live here no more.DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY Sad songs are all I heard. Too scared to move. From this life I need more.
HOW How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning? .
It.IT. It’s got places to go. shall pass. TOO. Consuming who it occupies. too. That bell it rings. . Because nothing ever lasts Of pain. Till only it survives. too. Taking over everything. But … It. shall pass. And pain’s waiting At another’s door. Making you believe you died. SHALL PASS Pain can’t last forever.
. Every day is a fight for me. I suit up for the war.HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE I try to hold my head above water. Fight to keep it all in order. But the price I pay is worth being free. For the misery in store. And I fight with my head high. Try not to let the weight get me down. Holding onto my pride. Try to turn it all around.
Skirt the blame. Our downfall in the end. It’s become customary To point out all the flaws.OUR DOWNFALL We are a sad society: So quick to judge. . Believing those wicked smiles. So afraid of being called out our name. We don’t see What lies within. Point fingers. Mistakes that others seem to make. Such a wicked game to play. All the while hiding ours. Although we are among friends.
. The only way truly to be free. Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be.BEING FREE I won’t let you change who I am.
This thought had become commonplace. . Picked up where I had left off. Time for me to shine. Now it’s time for me to grow. Remembering who I was. What treasures lied within. Forgot who I was inside. Don’t know how long it’s been. Concentrating on what I’m meant to do.MY WORLD Sometime ago I lost myself. Just the way a record does. My world finally mine. I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine. It’s how I lived my life. My eyes are open now.
It’s there. Although it tries to hide. I know. Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine. See … I’m making it my goal. .MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine.
My mind said all was lost. . But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat. I begin again. But I’m on the mend.NEARLY BROKEN Thought it was the end of me. As the pieces began to mend. Nearly broken. My spirit nearly broken. Thought there was no escape. So glad that I had faith. Hope not within my reach.
A mother. Because she knows her worth. That friend I’ve found is me. the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while. . daughter. She’s happy. She’s beautiful And full of life. She knows how much I meant to her. and a wife. She loves me more than anything.MY FRIEND Oh.
The stories they tell Without saying a word. .THE SMILE AND THE FROWN Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown. One right-side up. The other upside down. Saying everything With just a smirk.
Loosen your lover’s grip. have mercy on me. Memories barely keep me warm. I’ll forever mourn. The love I lost. Instead. I’d rather have my love with me. I remain lonely. . Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip.REMAINING LONELY Loneliness.
FEAR INSIDE I challenge you To sit in silence. Visualize it’s there In front of you. Close your eyes. Imagine your worst fear. Take a sigh. What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside? .
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.
So here I sit. feelings are no big deal. . Waiting once more. I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time. Until you walk through my door.WAITING All I do Is wait around for you. I should say How I feel. My time no longer mine. But to you.
. Because this I’m thankful for. you know. So I sing today for you.SINGING TODAY FOR YOU Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time.
Yet your mouth moves constantly. I’m not listening anyway. Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out. .NOT LISTENING Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago. I don’t care what you have to say. Though I don’t listen any more.
You watch and study me. Taking in all you see. Looking through The window to my soul. . You know me Better Than I ever could know. And what I’m meant to be. Loving everything I am.WINDOW TO MY SOUL I see you Through the window to my soul.
Am I supposed to smile. Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud? You’re pretty for a black girl. Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth. . Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more.PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL You’re pretty for a black girl. What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me? You’re pretty for a black girl. Thank you for letting me know. You’re pretty for a black girl.
Thought I should tell you so. Beauty lying inside and out. you know.FOR MY SISTERS My sister. Thought I should let you know. Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen. . you are beautiful.
THE TIME IS NOW The only time we have is now. To share all we’ve got. This place we’ve gotten to somehow. Seeing all we’re meant to see. The time we have is now. Even if we’ve forgotten. To feel how it should be. . To show each other why we’re here.
and songs. “The Amazing Mr.BIO Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school. Her first publication was a short story entitled. . short stories. Glonka. She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons.” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten. She writes poetry.
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