Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved. ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition .

For my boys. The world is yours. Mom . Brandon. Blake. Make your mark. and Jaden. I love you. Devante.

CONTENTS Title Page Copyright Page LOVE Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone .

The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You .

LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me LIFE I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song .

Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How .

It. too. Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now .

LOVE .

As you breathe. Handle with care. Giving you more than my last. I leave my mark. Be your lover and more. You are my light Through the dark. By loving you.LOVING YOU As you awake. For you. Wash your clothes. Bake your bread. I smile for you. My world expands. . I do it all. Clean the floors. All you have to do is ask. What lovers do. I make your food. I live for you At your command.

Bitter through and through. All thanks to you. Rotten to the very core. Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth. Blacker than the darkest night. . My evil eyes are full of spite. Only anger in this place. The monster made.THANKS TO YOU Cold. heartless. All thanks to you.

Caress my cheek from where you stand. And still not a word. woman and man. And you haven’t said a word. Licking your lips. Your gaze has only reached my thighs. Now face-to-face. I feel your hands all over me. I quench your thirst. . You didn’t have to say a word. I kiss your lips. I see the way you look at me. it heaves to my surprise.WITHOUT WORDS I know you like what you see. My hips move to your beat. Don’t have to say a word. you lift your hand. I see your eyes start at my feet. Felling the heat between you and me. My chest.

Still shaded by your tree. The rest gone down the drain. . I shed my skin. You’ve taken all I have to give. And now my shell is all I have. I gave my all for you to live. The foolishness I left behind. Requesting more so you can live. Bare for all to see. And you never saw me. Emptied my soul.WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME Here I stand out in front. My end is here. It’s over now. My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. But you don’t see me. just wasted time. The years I lost.

All is still. Please stay a while. built-in trust. You are my winter. The heat I crave to feel at night. We bring forth our new ecstasy. We have grown together. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh. In the end it was always us. A smile that warms the coldest night. . No you and I. Existing even after the end. living long it must. it’s just you and me. Our love is blossoming for all to see. You are my spring. A constant cold stuns my heart. You are my fall. You are my summer. We from the start.SEASONS OF LOVE A light is shining bright. A love so grand.

Don’t want you to dry my eyes. I’ve got to let the burn roam free. just let me be. I want to cry. Just let me be. .BROKEN Please. So. oh please. You must understand my need to be here. I need the anger. please. Just let this pain pierce my skin. I killed your love for me. Not bottle it up inside of me. my worst fear. I need to feel the pain inside of me. The damage done won’t disappear. Don’t want happiness here again.

I would make a meal For you and me. No worry about what could be heard. Open my eyes. Hold your hand. Sitting by your side. . Wash your feet Late that night. That I’d never leave. Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. Our fingers intertwined. Forever stay. You on my mind. gazing upon your face. I’d say. Make love to you without saying a word. Feed you by hand.MY LAST DAY I would wake up a little late. Silently gazing In your eyes. My love always. I would promise you. It would always be this way. Enjoy the day. Me in your heart. I would call in sick.

That’s how I would spend My last day. .

I’ll show up. Face so mean. So when you’re mad as hell. just know I won’t be walking out the door. And I will always show up. You spit my name With twisted face. Till this life ends. You curse and scream. I will show up. .I WILL SHOW UP If I yell. You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. You see I gave my word in front of God. if you yell. I’ll show up. it will be us. The very last one to show up. I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you. Through thick and thin when times are hard. I’ll show up.

No. So close your lips and take my hand. we don’t have to talk or say a word. And give me what I need. Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do. Don’t want to chill or hang with you. I’m telling you. And give me what I need. it’s what you heard. I don’t want to be your girl. You can find someone else to fill those shoes. .WHAT I NEED No. It’s not my place to be her for you. Just take me on into the room. Cover me with ecstasy. Lie down with me in this moment. Yeah. Just here for me to feel alright. Not here to be your girl tonight.

I color the winter’s night. Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me. After the end. My glow shines through the darkness. Cannot be dimmed.LOVE ALL OVER ME Smiling all twenty four. Brighter than the night’s sky. And I will forge ahead. Brightness everlasting. I am love. I will remain. . I am the Milky Way.

Intoxicating. I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized. .HYPNOTIZED Fine As the darkest wine.

Not just the night-time one you sell.SETTING YOU FREE Here I wait Today for you. A part-time love is not enough. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol. I know my needs fall on deaf ears. Don’t sell away your half from me. as well. Just like the day before. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man. A dozen women for a dime. Why do I compete With the streets. I’ll hold it down and set you free. I fear. God. Love shouldn’t have to be this rough. Can’t compete with street life. .

Nice at 8. Time to put me back on track. At 11:30. . I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry.HELL AND BACK I go through hell to be with you. At 10:30. Swinging and swaying to your moods. hell begins. Pray to God that I don’t cry. nasty at 10. I hold on tight for the ride. and I love you more than anything. time for hell again. Say forgive me this time. But it’s 1. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry. I’m coming back. And try to make it back from hell again. You say you’re sorry all the time. Maybe this time is the last time. Although the truth lies elsewhere.

Not giving up.SEARCHING Where are you? Are you searching for me. too? I’ve been waiting oh so long. . Even met some dogs. too. But my conviction still remains strong. I pray that you’re still looking. And also trying to find me. Out there trying to see. I wonder if you’re like me. Kissed so many frogs. If the perfect one waits somewhere for you. still searching.

and Evaporates to your dismay. It flows outside the lines. . And just await your love’s surprise. But love can also be so sweet. It takes you up. Pretends to stay. then drops you down. Sometimes love takes broader shape. Can pick you up and be complete. Love pulls you in.LOVE’S SURPRISE Sometimes love throws you a curve. Enjoy the ride. Refuses to be confined. It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect. So hold on tight. It smiles at you and then frowns. And surprises you with no regrets. It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything.

WE LIFT EACH OTHER You lift me up For the world to see. And I rule the roost. Standing tall. I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. Just what I’m meant to do. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time. Give me the world. by my side. It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined. . Tell me it’s all mine. You show me how Real love should be with you. Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do. So glad to have you In my life. The queen I’m meant to be. I tell you you’re The best at what you do.

Curse my name.THE WARNING It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you. . But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy. Because your plan is number one. You pile it on Because I can take it. You’re having fun. Say some words. You had a plan all the while. And then not care Who you hurt. And try to break me. Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile. All others be damned. Pretend to care.

” .MISSING YOU “What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say. “My darling. The joy and laughter every night. About you. I’d miss everything. “Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared. I’d say to you. The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared. The happiness I felt inside.

You line the pleats of my skirt. Whether night or day. An aroma only you possess. You follow me Through the day. I inhale you on my shirt. Whether at work or at play.YOU WEAR IT WELL I wear you on my sleeve. . your scent. That essence that I smell. You’re with me On my way. Take you when I leave. It’s not cologne or soap. So distinct. Not Ivory or Irish Spring. Separating you from the rest. That fragrence I know so well. you know. And you wear it well.

Alone is not what we do. Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through. The shit we say. Realizing It won’t work apart. We laugh. And then we pray. We hurt. Can’t make it on our own.NOT ALONE The games we play. . Like children Not yet grown.

With me. A prize for all to see. I brought a new place for you. And I know I make up the best of you. The light replaced the dark. You don’t need to say it. I’m proud to see what you’ve become. Your life tells me so.THE BEST OF ME I make up the best of you. Because you are the best of me. Order lives where chaos dwelled. . A freshness for our start. This much I truly know.

The chain contains a kink. Although repaired. you see. . Will forever change the way I now look at you. Thinking that you’re done. Looking okay. Hoping things are as good as new.TRUST It’s like a broken fence: When mended. You try to move along. you still see that link. But that kink.

With eyes of auburn. Skin of chocolate. Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love. . For the chocolate and the caramel. You don’t even see. I fear you love yourself More than you love me.SHADES OF ME How can you not love me.

I’m ready now. Powder-white sand.LOVE’S ESCAPE I know where your happiness lies. It’s embedded between my thighs. . A world where only you escape: A world of beaches. And I wait With your love’s escape. I take you to another place. A world that rivals Disneyland.

To live in hell Or go be free. .THE CHOICE The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. Not so simple to me. A place Finally to be me. Though simple it may be. A simple choice It may seem. Is not simple In my eyes.

Yesterday. Face twisted mean.DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY Every time it’s going good. I truly thought you understood. No matter what a friend may say. Although you’re okay today. an enemy. Did you forget yesterday? The screaming and the yelling. So it may seem. . Did you forget yesterday? A friend today. Don’t forget yesterday. That voice appears and says.

You can’t say yes. . Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve. Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I. to be with you? I can’t say no. Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess.WHAT WE DESERVE Do you deserve All that I do. Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me.

I know it’s not what you want to hear. Truth is you’re not the one for me. But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you. dry your eyes. I fear. Fully awake. Your true love awaits. We tried to make it work. And I’m not the one for you.THE TRUTH I’m sad today. You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. Another smiling face. So. But. it’s not meant to be. Life alone brings doubts and fears. . It may just be Around the corner. Because I see the truth. No time to cry.

We’d never fight. You’d only have eyes for me. In a perfect world.A PERFECT WORLD In a perfect world. I’d always be right. Your love to give For me always. In a perfect world. You’d hold me tight. Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem. And sit by my side. It’d be you and I. You’d forever stay. I’d be all you see. today it’s not that way. Sadly. And I can only dream. There would be no other for you. In a perfect world. You’d agree with me. .

YOUR EVERYTHING
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.

FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.

WE BELONG
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.

You should have never estimated The power of my mind. For the right time. We lie in wait. It is so easy for me to smile. Believed that when you closed the door. Women are cunning creatures you know. We plot our moves From the go. Pretend I’m okay inside. The perfect moment to strike.LYING IN WAIT I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies. It was fine to say goodbye. .

But I fear your mind’s made up. That’s too damn bad. You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had. When you would let me go. Because you set me free. Where I said I’d be. . Now I sit and wait for you. I can’t forget what we had.MOVING ON I wait for you in the lot. Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day. Hoping it’s not too late. It hurts to be in this spot. Because it’s all I know. Thought the day would never come.

Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte. Give me no reply. I ask you all the time To treat me like I need. . And sleep. But I don’t think It will ever be. You look into my eyes.NOT YOUR FORTE I tell you I need more. It’s not enough for me.

But … I wanted you. . Alone with the truth after the fall. so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show. How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all. Although I know the truth. What I see Is not really you. For the real you can never love me. And now I sit.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be.

you think you know it all. But time will tell. Go ahead. I really hope you find her soon. Miss what we had. And please. You’re gonna miss me so damn bad. So you can finally see.A LOVE LIKE MINE You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone. You say you don’t care. Think it’s all a big game. Make your move. Yeah. hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. The way I kissed you late at night. . And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same. That there are many more like me.

Your love will kill My spirit. Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me. too. If I let it be. If I let it inside. If that’s what I let it do.TERMINAL LOVE Your love will be The end of me. . Your love will make Me lose my mind.

Showing me the man That you’re proud to be. Ignoring all the rest. You’re blind to all that temptation outside. I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do. They don’t have to cost a thing. . You tell me that I’m beautiful. Holding my hand. And that I deserve the best.THE LITTLE THINGS It’s the little things I appreciate. To live this life with you. It’s great to be by your side.

My spirit knows It’s your fault. You discourage me. Because you need to be first. Because all you thought about was you. I finally love me more that you do. My anger knows It’s my fault. And it’s my fault. I’m the one who made you into you.LOVING ME My anger grows. I let you do what you want to. Don’t want to hear my words. My spirit grows. You don’t encourage me. And it’s your fault. .

I will wait for love. I’d sit in the stands and cheer.A FAN OF LOVE I am a fan of love. I’m a fan of love. Although it doesn’t live here. I will wait for love. I still believe in love. Because it waits somewhere for me. Because I see it all the time. Because someday love will set me free. Though it doesn’t live here no more. . I lay out the welcome mat for love. I lay out the welcome mat for love. Although it’s not yet mine. But it won’t knock at my door. I still believe in love.

Yet you came. A visitor from another place. I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come. and you try To become you and I. You and I are not the same.A DIFFERENT CLOTH Cut from a different cloth. Tell me why you’re in my space. . If only in our eyes. You try to live in my realty. But we’re not meant to be. But you won’t show your face. Your world is nothing like The one I’m from. Maybe that cloth Really is the same. When I don’t even know your name.

I don’t know why I ask for truth.PROMISES Promises you fail to keep Are all I have. To do what I have to do. It’s nowhere inside of you. . So glad to have this new breakthrough. Honesty is within your reach. Though the shitty lies you grab.

It’s your way or the door. But I’m tired of playing Your sick.NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE You can’t see me Past your superiority. . twisted game. I try and try to be What you want from me. I’m like a moth to your flame. I’m sick to hell of being under your spell. There’s no you and me in us for you. Not taking your shit any more.

Two peas of a different pod.WINNING THE RACE I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight. We’ll never be face-to-face. Can’t let me be in front. Because you have to be first. now by my side. You sprint along. Because we both want to win the race. Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath. First place is a space we both want. . Trying to keep up.

POWER Looking through rose-colored glasses. I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections. Co-existence is the only power You hold over me. . I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely.

Why don’t I feel comfortable. but the one I should let go. . Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts. indeed. Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for.SING FOR YOU Why don’t I sing for you? A good question.

LOVE Love. What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh. I laugh along in my defense. Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh. The jokes are all at my expense. how you love to tell your lovely lies. Let loose your hold of me. . Just break your chains. Love. Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love. Love. And set me free.

A time of unrivaled bliss. Family meant we were whole. Even when times were tough? It got you through. With nothing else. .REMEMBERING LOVE Remember when Love was enough. A time I surely miss. Surviving by itself. When unity was a goal.

But nothing’s said. So much to say. You try to read my face. And here we are In elder years. Because we never speak. you grin. Yet nothing was said. hours. Our whole lives lost. We drift together. I hold my breath. . You stare at the floor. Still alone. days. So much to say. I look elsewhere instead. The seconds. minutes.LOST LIVES Here we go again. Just like the day before. Turning into weeks. And we’ve both paid the cost. I smile.

With you is where my heart lies. . pink and red. I try my best. My wife. Although I seldom tell you so. You are the reason why I work so hard. How I cherish you. I think of you before I rest. Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said: I can’t live my life without Having you by my side.MY WIFE You bought me flowers today: Roses.

But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside. I disappear with every word you say. Curse her name. Or use my fists. Call her a bitch. . How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her.KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS I lose a piece of me every day. And you think they’re just words.

And even love my kids. He wouldn’t see anyone else. That man I made for me. Put me before himself. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often. . It wouldn’t matter if they were his. A perfect world For him and me. He’d cherish the ground I walked on. I wouldn’t want for anything. He’d always take care of me.THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME Oh. No one else would matter. He’d cherish them because they were mine. Live together happily. He’d love every part of me.

LIFE .

And I’ll always put you first. You’re by my side. that’s the way it will be. . In you.I PUT YOU FIRST You’ve been there Since day one. Get me through to a new start. I lead My life in Your hands. And so. I put you first. I put you first. Let me laugh after I’ve cried. so I may rise. I put your first. And so. Whether I am right or wrong. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day. You let me fall. Supporting me until the end. You guide. And so. this is why I will believe With Your Word. I have a faithful friend. Bring me light after the dark. Guiding me along the way. Lord. as I carry on.

He is the Lord above. He knows my mind. And I thought I knew it all. He’s got my map. Mouths the words before I talk. I don’t know nothing anymore. With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day. My whole world. He has my unwavering faith. I think he’s psychic see. Says what I think before I do. . predicts my moves.FAITH He came today and shook my soul. He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break. he’s taken hold. the path I walk. He knows the goings on inside of me.

A cover will not work. It’s impossible to hide a lie. Sets me free. Won’t stay inside. .LIES AND TRUTH The truth is the light. Rains down on me. It shines so bright. A lie won’t hide. No matter how hard you try. I would have told you so. If asked. you know. You can’t contain What will remain.

For the entire world to see. but now I see The truth I bought now sold. ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be. Realizing who I am. So that confidence. Yes. Flipping a script You no longer own.REALIZATION The beauty of it all. Took years to find. powering my soul. I got it now. Who I am inside. The chains are gone. The square peg now fits the hole. Can’t keep me down no more. Was in a fog. Screaming to me in my own song. . I can’t lie low. Now I’m free. Has built a wall that can’t be broken.

I’ll be with you forever now. breathlessly. too. But. finally. It’s all around. So I say my last goodbye.ENDING THE PAIN This world of pain. A better place awaits me. Now is the end for me. And I cannot escape. Stealing my light. I try to fight. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today. All consuming. Like the way That evil does. through the fog I can’t see. Staining the air. Everywhere. . Killing my mind And spirit. The pain will end. So much to bear.

same old thing. I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. Can’t let this dark swallow my light. So I block it and stay inside. I vow to do the best I can. But radio’s no better.CHANGING ME I couldn’t watch the news today. Start my task with one woman. I’ll start my fight by changing me. Enough to drive the sane insane. For fear of what it might say. Live by his word and let him see. Or found dead. . Someone’s missing. Everyone’s fighting or arguing. Guess I’ll listen to radio instead. It calls to me and screams my name.

The one underneath’s too tough. Although it hurt. . I had to go because it stayed. I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay. I took the pain away with me. Now I’m gone. The pain still wouldn’t go away.BREAKING FREE I try to cut the pain away. After all the blood had dried. I pierce the layer that I see. The pain inside just wouldn’t die. Cutting deeper still. But blood is not enough. Finally free. I’m the one it killed. Now my pain has gone away. I couldn’t cry.

You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues.MY SON SHINES Long ago I dreamt of you. A battle I couldn’t lose. But through it all. Before you were inside. Only the mixture that I needed. The love I thought I had to have. For the other half of you. By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away. Although you were not yet mine. I stood tall. Here I stand forever. I held you tight and kissed your cheek. I feared it was not true. .

me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me. Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know.KNOWING ME Do you really know who I am. Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me. .

Made for sin. My arms they sway That away.DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT I feel the music From deep within. Dance with me tonight. I feel the beat. Your song instead. It moves my feet. Dance with me tonight. The rhythm stirs Inside my head. Dance with me tonight. Please play for me. . It moves my hips.

But many will always care. Pain can be an awful thing. So hold them tight. Help them push the pain aside. . We didn’t have you long. Your will was not as strong. We older folks can tolerate. To make sure you were still here. It’s sad to know your time is done. They’ll wish we stopped you just in time. So here is where they’ll stay.TOO SOON Gone too soon. And let them know An early end’s no way to go. Though your beauty will last always. What younger ones can’t fare. Sometimes too much to bare.

Await my move. You’re poisonous. I wait till day To go your way. I knew you were there After all. . Why did I go? I should have paused. Hoping you’re asleep. Too many eyes Cover me.THE BROWN WIDOW You wait for me In the dark. You lay still. I approach. But you’re too quick. Hoping you snoozed. I hold my breath. You strike so fast.

THE TIME IS NOW Slow down. It will be just right. Live your best life now. . Take your time. DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight.

After we have forgotten. We get a glimpse. . Residing where it’s meant to be. Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. Dormant. It differs from the rest. Where it shines the best. Specific to each owner. Remembering where it first shined. But often forget where it lies. And then peaked out often.INNER SUPERSTAR We possess it early on. take a peak. it lies inside. Years later we get another glimpse. Our inner superstar Was always there inside.

While hiding in our youth. Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. . Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down. But then we find courage inside And turn it all around. Without listening to what it has to say. Its view widens so we may see. Listen for what life has in store. Be patient. But we get in the way. Life’s not all a mystery. It shows its face in elder years.LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL Life tries to take the wheel. We make a turn on our own.

until tomorrow. And you’re gone. At least. I’m so sorry I was wrong.TOO LATE You were mine On borrowed time. Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so. This I didn’t know. Now tomorrow’s here. . I took for granted you’d be here.

. spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do.AHA MOMENT Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise.

COLORS OF ME There are many Shades of me. A range of shades for everything. When ready. Neon bright. A blue for when I’m feeling low. Relaxed for when I sleep. I can be any hue I want to be. Black or white. When wide awake. Growing daily like the evergreen. I change from day-to-day. you know. They cover you And color me. Like many colors of the rainbow. . A softer shade. I shine brightly for all to see. A darker color when we fight. a light yellow. I’m an aubergine.

I don’t know how Or even why. And it makes up The best of me. Living. Is all poetry to me. The sadness that you may see.A POET’S SONG I live in verse. breathing poetry . The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow. I think in rhyme. Thinking. rhyming All the time. It sings to me from deep inside.

The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow.BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH Just how bright Is your light. barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath. Shine from underneath? Is it dim. .

It says to me. And says Please come back any day. . I am your friend. And offers me its words to eat. Then sings to me In special notes.POETRY LIVES HERE A door has opened up for me. Says take a seat. Inside that room lives poetry. Says stay awhile. It invites me in. It offers me a place to stay. It comforts me. Then takes my coat. It sets me free. I open up. Encourages me With its warm smile. It embraces me.

And I know my worth. The wisdom I possess. I am life. That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss. Curve of my waist. or shock you. I am woman. The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back. Shape of my thighs. I can erase? If I frighten. The comfort of my embrace. offend. The pleasures I possess. The knowledge I give. It’s because I am beauty. Knowing that your fears. .KNOWING MY WORTH Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice.

OF ALL BEINGS Fellow women of today. Rewarded with so many qualities. you should abhor. We are the best of all beings. Forgetting it. . Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man. One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth.

Did mostly as I pleased. Every road must come to an end. Happiness and long-lost friends. Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me. I can’t wait for mine. Thinking of how it will be. I smile and hold it inside. . A sight I almost see. What a lovely ride.THE LONG ROAD HOME I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead. My destination is on my mind. Held some hands along the way.

THE SOUND OF SIGNS I hear the birds chirping. . “Your time is here.” The willow weeps. Close your eyes. It is today. The signs are there For you to see. “The time has come For you to leave.” The tree breaths. As if saying to me. Listen closely. As if to say. Giving the breeze What it needs. Sounds fully.

Or we all lose.A CALL TO ARMS *STOP* Turn off your television set. It’s not too late. I’ve grabbed my pen. This is not a test. . What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man. What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot.

My home may just be with you. Where true love lives. Though we’re apart. Beside the bed. My home is where I chose to be. Where happiness lives Indefinitely. . My home can be one place or a few. My home is where I leave my heart.HOME My home is where I lay my head And pray at night.

. But what lies inside. This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet. It passes instantly. Should crown our lover’s throne.THE BETTER PRIZE The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade. The better prize. Ignorant to what’s inside. And miss out on the better prize. Open your foolish eyes. A trick used to confuse the mind. And in our haste. We turn away. So easy to believe a lie. Although it seems quite odd. We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone.

Spirit. add some play. Unfortunately. I’ve seen this day before. I remember to relax today. . Save some work. But I know things will be fine. Try to balance both and remain whole.RELAXING MY MIND Been a long day. I’m tired already. And I know more will surely come. Time to sit and rest my mind. too. that’s the way life goes. My body’s weary.

and I stay safe. Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me. Why won’t it set me free? . Surrounded by my friends. And pray trouble runs out of time. And I know nothing else. It should be tired of me. So I continue to Keep hope alive. Where all is calm. I’ve given up on happiness.TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME Trouble road begins at my door. Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free. It must lie somewhere else. I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been.

How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on. Away I go To a better place. Look to the sky. To ride with you. You’re speeding now. You smile at me And hit the gas. I close my eyes. And then thank God I learned to fly. Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape. As I brace For the crash. . Even the belt Won’t keep me safe. There is no room. Without your brakes. No space for me.THE GREATEST ESCAPE Slow down for me. You’re driving too fast.

Worried about the fall. Can never take the leap. afterall. Afraid to make a sound. everything I’ve got. So much to lose. . Covering your insides. The snipers waiting for that clear shot. Worried I’ll be found. I wait until it’s dark. Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two.THE FALL Land mines. Premeditated steps I take with no regrets.

Don’t be afraid. Hope our move won’t make a mess. You’re right where you need to be. Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know.MAKING MOVES Every now and then. Take a step and not look back. Scared to make a move. We wish for the best. Do what you say. Make your move. That moment is meant just for you To make your move. Don’t be scared to let go. And we’re finally on track. . Then we realize The move was just right. We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go.

.WINNING THE RACE I’ve wasted too much time. Although my mouth is closed. I’ve already won the race. My eyes are opened wide. I never saw the signs. Life just passes by. And now half my life’s Just floated away. Focused on today. Light miles ahead. Or what they tried to say. The final bell has rung. It never waits. And now the time is here For me to finally shine. It’s time to take my rightful place.

But we’re just friends. You know I’m really into it. I’m glad I have you in my life. And I need you there. Even when I want to vent About nothing at all. It’s so innocent. You listen when I talk. .TRUE FRIENDS I call you. You always take my call. A true friend. You call me. I need you to show me Just how I should be. The times we share. Taking it all in. Because when I need someone to vent to. indeed.

And what things we should keep. . Often times Those little things Should remain a secret. We need to learn What to say.KEEPING SECRETS Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing. There are times When we may find Some things troubling.

WITHOUT DOUBTS
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.

ANGER
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.

MY MOVES
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.

So little time. I’m coming in! . Ready for me to begin. Hold the door. Too much for me to hold inside. No more sitting still for me today. So much to do.FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD Listen up! I got lots to say.

I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go. When you come for me. This life has gotten really bad. I won’t be sad. I will be ready. When you come for me. .WHEN YOU COME FOR ME When you come for me. When you come for me. Waiting for you to take me to some other place. In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again. I’m tired today. I’m looking forward to the trip ahead.

Can’t get rid of me.A MERE SMUDGE I’m a smudge on your window pane. You open up. Giving in to your every want and need. Desire being my excuse. Loving the way That I confuse. but don’t know what to say. Just how a smudge succeeds. . Guess I’m in too deep.

Locked away indefinitely.A PRISONER’S LIFE I want to be free. Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape. A prisoner’s life is what I lead. Not knowing poison’s inside. “Celebrate with me. That I can’t survive on my own.” I take a sip. . accept your smile. I try and try To live your life. You say it’ll never be. Drink my wine. You say. But I’m the one that pays the toll.

And That’s just what I’ll do. Close your eyes. I’ll guide you. No one to help me with this one. . Make your move. Decision time tonight. Either way. A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go. All at once. it’ll be done. It hit me hard. And I finally see.AT A CROSSROADS Here I am. I hear. Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be.

I can’t always be afraid. Too scared to move. Mainly out of fear. And I held on. They silenced all the tears. . Happiness and joyful days. Year after year. Awkward distance.DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY Sad songs are all I heard. From this life I need more. I’ve got to drive those blues away. So they don’t live here no more. Arguments. They didn’t live here.

HOW How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning? .

Taking over everything. TOO. shall pass. It’s got places to go. That bell it rings. Making you believe you died. . too. And pain’s waiting At another’s door. Consuming who it occupies. But … It. too.IT. Because nothing ever lasts Of pain. It. SHALL PASS Pain can’t last forever. shall pass. Till only it survives.

I suit up for the war. Try not to let the weight get me down. For the misery in store. But the price I pay is worth being free. . Every day is a fight for me. And I fight with my head high. Fight to keep it all in order. Try to turn it all around. Holding onto my pride.HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE I try to hold my head above water.

Although we are among friends. So afraid of being called out our name. It’s become customary To point out all the flaws. Such a wicked game to play. Mistakes that others seem to make. .OUR DOWNFALL We are a sad society: So quick to judge. Point fingers. Believing those wicked smiles. Our downfall in the end. Skirt the blame. All the while hiding ours. We don’t see What lies within.

. The only way truly to be free.BEING FREE I won’t let you change who I am. Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be.

Remembering who I was. It’s how I lived my life. Forgot who I was inside. Time for me to shine. . Just the way a record does.MY WORLD Sometime ago I lost myself. I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine. Picked up where I had left off. What treasures lied within. My world finally mine. Concentrating on what I’m meant to do. Don’t know how long it’s been. This thought had become commonplace. Now it’s time for me to grow. My eyes are open now.

I know.MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine. Although it tries to hide. It’s there. . Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine. See … I’m making it my goal.

But I’m on the mend. . As the pieces began to mend. Hope not within my reach. My mind said all was lost. Thought there was no escape. I begin again.NEARLY BROKEN Thought it was the end of me. Nearly broken. So glad that I had faith. But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat. My spirit nearly broken.

MY FRIEND Oh. and a wife. She loves me more than anything. She’s happy. the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while. She’s beautiful And full of life. daughter. She knows how much I meant to her. A mother. That friend I’ve found is me. . Because she knows her worth.

The other upside down.THE SMILE AND THE FROWN Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown. The stories they tell Without saying a word. One right-side up. . Saying everything With just a smirk.

The love I lost. have mercy on me. I’d rather have my love with me. Memories barely keep me warm. Loosen your lover’s grip. Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip. Instead. I remain lonely. . I’ll forever mourn.REMAINING LONELY Loneliness.

Visualize it’s there In front of you. Imagine your worst fear.FEAR INSIDE I challenge you To sit in silence. What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside? . Close your eyes. Take a sigh.

EMMA LEE
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.

FREEDOM
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.

TODAY
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.

feelings are no big deal. I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time.WAITING All I do Is wait around for you. I should say How I feel. So here I sit. My time no longer mine. . Waiting once more. But to you. Until you walk through my door.

. you know.SINGING TODAY FOR YOU Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time. So I sing today for you. Because this I’m thankful for.

Yet your mouth moves constantly. Though I don’t listen any more. I don’t care what you have to say. Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out. I’m not listening anyway.NOT LISTENING Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago. .

Taking in all you see. You watch and study me.WINDOW TO MY SOUL I see you Through the window to my soul. And what I’m meant to be. You know me Better Than I ever could know. . Looking through The window to my soul. Loving everything I am.

Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud? You’re pretty for a black girl. You’re pretty for a black girl. What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me? You’re pretty for a black girl. Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more. Am I supposed to smile.PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL You’re pretty for a black girl. . Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth. Thank you for letting me know.

you know. you are beautiful. . Beauty lying inside and out. Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen. Thought I should let you know. Thought I should tell you so.FOR MY SISTERS My sister.

Even if we’ve forgotten. To show each other why we’re here. To feel how it should be. .THE TIME IS NOW The only time we have is now. Seeing all we’re meant to see. The time we have is now. This place we’ve gotten to somehow. To share all we’ve got.

BIO Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school. Glonka. .” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten. She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons. and songs. Her first publication was a short story entitled. “The Amazing Mr. She writes poetry. short stories.

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