ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition .Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved.

Devante. Mom . and Jaden. Brandon. I love you.For my boys. The world is yours. Make your mark. Blake.

CONTENTS Title Page Copyright Page LOVE Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone .

The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You .

LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me LIFE I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song .

Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How .

Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now . too.It.

LOVE .

You are my light Through the dark. As you breathe. Wash your clothes. My world expands. I smile for you. What lovers do. I do it all. Clean the floors. All you have to do is ask. Be your lover and more. By loving you. Bake your bread. For you. Handle with care.LOVING YOU As you awake. I leave my mark. . I live for you At your command. I make your food. Giving you more than my last.

Blacker than the darkest night. All thanks to you.THANKS TO YOU Cold. Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth. All thanks to you. My evil eyes are full of spite. Bitter through and through. The monster made. Rotten to the very core. . Only anger in this place. heartless.

Don’t have to say a word. I feel your hands all over me.WITHOUT WORDS I know you like what you see. Your gaze has only reached my thighs. And still not a word. I see the way you look at me. it heaves to my surprise. I see your eyes start at my feet. woman and man. I kiss your lips. Licking your lips. Now face-to-face. Felling the heat between you and me. And you haven’t said a word. My chest. Caress my cheek from where you stand. . My hips move to your beat. you lift your hand. You didn’t have to say a word. I quench your thirst.

Emptied my soul. My end is here. The rest gone down the drain. Still shaded by your tree. . My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. The foolishness I left behind. You’ve taken all I have to give. It’s over now.WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME Here I stand out in front. And now my shell is all I have. The years I lost. I shed my skin. I gave my all for you to live. Requesting more so you can live. And you never saw me. just wasted time. But you don’t see me. Bare for all to see.

In the end it was always us. Please stay a while. All is still. A constant cold stuns my heart. it’s just you and me. A smile that warms the coldest night. You are my summer. Existing even after the end. Our love is blossoming for all to see. You are my fall. built-in trust. A love so grand. . You are my winter. The heat I crave to feel at night. We from the start. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh.SEASONS OF LOVE A light is shining bright. living long it must. We have grown together. You are my spring. We bring forth our new ecstasy. No you and I.

So. You must understand my need to be here. I need the anger. Just let me be. Just let this pain pierce my skin. I killed your love for me. I need to feel the pain inside of me. I’ve got to let the burn roam free. oh please. Don’t want you to dry my eyes. Not bottle it up inside of me. . I want to cry. my worst fear. The damage done won’t disappear. please. just let me be. Don’t want happiness here again.BROKEN Please.

It would always be this way. Our fingers intertwined. Enjoy the day. Silently gazing In your eyes. No worry about what could be heard. I would promise you. That I’d never leave. Wash your feet Late that night. Forever stay. I’d say. Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. Make love to you without saying a word. My love always. I would call in sick.MY LAST DAY I would wake up a little late. . Hold your hand. Me in your heart. You on my mind. Open my eyes. gazing upon your face. Feed you by hand. Sitting by your side. I would make a meal For you and me.

.That’s how I would spend My last day.

The very last one to show up. You see I gave my word in front of God. I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you. I’ll show up. You curse and scream. So when you’re mad as hell. . I’ll show up. just know I won’t be walking out the door. it will be us. Till this life ends.I WILL SHOW UP If I yell. if you yell. I’ll show up. You spit my name With twisted face. And I will always show up. You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. I will show up. Face so mean. Through thick and thin when times are hard.

Don’t want to chill or hang with you. And give me what I need. You can find someone else to fill those shoes. Just here for me to feel alright. No. we don’t have to talk or say a word. So close your lips and take my hand. Cover me with ecstasy. Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do. Yeah. It’s not my place to be her for you. I’m telling you. Not here to be your girl tonight. And give me what I need.WHAT I NEED No. I don’t want to be your girl. it’s what you heard. Lie down with me in this moment. Just take me on into the room. .

I am love. I am the Milky Way. Brightness everlasting. And I will forge ahead. My glow shines through the darkness. I will remain. . Cannot be dimmed.LOVE ALL OVER ME Smiling all twenty four. Brighter than the night’s sky. Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me. After the end. I color the winter’s night.

Intoxicating. .HYPNOTIZED Fine As the darkest wine. I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized.

Love shouldn’t have to be this rough. A dozen women for a dime. as well.SETTING YOU FREE Here I wait Today for you. I know my needs fall on deaf ears. Just like the day before. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man. Can’t compete with street life. I’ll hold it down and set you free. Not just the night-time one you sell. I fear. Why do I compete With the streets. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol. A part-time love is not enough. God. . Don’t sell away your half from me.

HELL AND BACK I go through hell to be with you. You say you’re sorry all the time. At 11:30. But it’s 1. . Pray to God that I don’t cry. Say forgive me this time. I’m coming back. Swinging and swaying to your moods. and I love you more than anything. I hold on tight for the ride. Maybe this time is the last time. time for hell again. At 10:30. nasty at 10. And try to make it back from hell again. hell begins. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry. Nice at 8. Although the truth lies elsewhere. Time to put me back on track.

If the perfect one waits somewhere for you.SEARCHING Where are you? Are you searching for me. Not giving up. Out there trying to see. too. And also trying to find me. too? I’ve been waiting oh so long. I pray that you’re still looking. still searching. I wonder if you’re like me. But my conviction still remains strong. Even met some dogs. . Kissed so many frogs.

And just await your love’s surprise. But love can also be so sweet. It takes you up. Enjoy the ride. Can pick you up and be complete. Refuses to be confined. It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect. And surprises you with no regrets. and Evaporates to your dismay. It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything. . then drops you down. Pretends to stay.LOVE’S SURPRISE Sometimes love throws you a curve. It smiles at you and then frowns. Sometimes love takes broader shape. Love pulls you in. It flows outside the lines. So hold on tight.

The queen I’m meant to be. You show me how Real love should be with you. Standing tall. And I rule the roost. Just what I’m meant to do. Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do. Tell me it’s all mine. I tell you you’re The best at what you do. by my side. I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined. So glad to have you In my life. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time.WE LIFT EACH OTHER You lift me up For the world to see. Give me the world. .

Pretend to care. And try to break me. You had a plan all the while.THE WARNING It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you. . You’re having fun. But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy. Say some words. Because your plan is number one. All others be damned. And then not care Who you hurt. You pile it on Because I can take it. Curse my name. Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile.

MISSING YOU “What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say. I’d miss everything.” . “My darling. “Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared. About you. The joy and laughter every night. The happiness I felt inside. The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared. I’d say to you.

. That essence that I smell. You follow me Through the day. And you wear it well. Separating you from the rest. You line the pleats of my skirt. Whether night or day. That fragrence I know so well. I inhale you on my shirt. Take you when I leave. you know. Whether at work or at play. An aroma only you possess. Not Ivory or Irish Spring. your scent. So distinct. You’re with me On my way.YOU WEAR IT WELL I wear you on my sleeve. It’s not cologne or soap.

We laugh. Like children Not yet grown.NOT ALONE The games we play. Can’t make it on our own. We hurt. Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through. And then we pray. Realizing It won’t work apart. Alone is not what we do. The shit we say. .

Order lives where chaos dwelled. The light replaced the dark. . I’m proud to see what you’ve become. You don’t need to say it. Your life tells me so. This much I truly know. A prize for all to see. A freshness for our start. With me. Because you are the best of me. I brought a new place for you.THE BEST OF ME I make up the best of you. And I know I make up the best of you.

Will forever change the way I now look at you.TRUST It’s like a broken fence: When mended. Hoping things are as good as new. Looking okay. But that kink. Although repaired. The chain contains a kink. You try to move along. you still see that link. you see. . Thinking that you’re done.

You don’t even see. Skin of chocolate. With eyes of auburn. . I fear you love yourself More than you love me. For the chocolate and the caramel.SHADES OF ME How can you not love me. Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love.

A world that rivals Disneyland. It’s embedded between my thighs.LOVE’S ESCAPE I know where your happiness lies. . A world where only you escape: A world of beaches. Powder-white sand. And I wait With your love’s escape. I take you to another place. I’m ready now.

Not so simple to me.THE CHOICE The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. A place Finally to be me. To live in hell Or go be free. A simple choice It may seem. . Is not simple In my eyes. Though simple it may be.

. Did you forget yesterday? A friend today. an enemy. That voice appears and says. Yesterday. So it may seem. Don’t forget yesterday.DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY Every time it’s going good. Although you’re okay today. I truly thought you understood. Did you forget yesterday? The screaming and the yelling. Face twisted mean. No matter what a friend may say.

Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I. Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve. Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess.WHAT WE DESERVE Do you deserve All that I do. to be with you? I can’t say no. You can’t say yes. . Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me.

It may just be Around the corner. dry your eyes. No time to cry. Fully awake. Life alone brings doubts and fears. Because I see the truth. . You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. But. And I’m not the one for you. But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you. Your true love awaits. I fear. So. I know it’s not what you want to hear. We tried to make it work. Truth is you’re not the one for me. Another smiling face. it’s not meant to be.THE TRUTH I’m sad today.

And sit by my side. You’d hold me tight. Sadly.A PERFECT WORLD In a perfect world. You’d forever stay. In a perfect world. We’d never fight. I’d be all you see. I’d always be right. You’d agree with me. Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem. . There would be no other for you. You’d only have eyes for me. In a perfect world. In a perfect world. It’d be you and I. And I can only dream. today it’s not that way. Your love to give For me always.

YOUR EVERYTHING
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.

FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.

WE BELONG
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.

It was fine to say goodbye. Pretend I’m okay inside. We plot our moves From the go. Women are cunning creatures you know. We lie in wait. You should have never estimated The power of my mind. The perfect moment to strike. It is so easy for me to smile. Believed that when you closed the door.LYING IN WAIT I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies. For the right time. .

Where I said I’d be.MOVING ON I wait for you in the lot. But I fear your mind’s made up. Because you set me free. That’s too damn bad. I can’t forget what we had. It hurts to be in this spot. Hoping it’s not too late. Thought the day would never come. Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day. When you would let me go. . You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had. Now I sit and wait for you. Because it’s all I know.

Give me no reply. But I don’t think It will ever be. Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte.NOT YOUR FORTE I tell you I need more. You look into my eyes. It’s not enough for me. I ask you all the time To treat me like I need. And sleep. .

For the real you can never love me.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all. What I see Is not really you. Although I know the truth. Alone with the truth after the fall. so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show. But … I wanted you. And now I sit. .

hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. Miss what we had. Make your move. you think you know it all. Think it’s all a big game. And please. Yeah. You’re gonna miss me so damn bad. But time will tell. And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same. Go ahead. That there are many more like me. . You say you don’t care.A LOVE LIKE MINE You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone. So you can finally see. The way I kissed you late at night. I really hope you find her soon.

Your love will make Me lose my mind. If that’s what I let it do. too. . Your love will kill My spirit.TERMINAL LOVE Your love will be The end of me. Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me. If I let it be. If I let it inside.

THE LITTLE THINGS It’s the little things I appreciate. They don’t have to cost a thing. I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do. And that I deserve the best. It’s great to be by your side. You’re blind to all that temptation outside. You tell me that I’m beautiful. Showing me the man That you’re proud to be. Ignoring all the rest. Holding my hand. To live this life with you. .

My anger knows It’s my fault. My spirit knows It’s your fault.LOVING ME My anger grows. And it’s my fault. I’m the one who made you into you. My spirit grows. . I let you do what you want to. I finally love me more that you do. And it’s your fault. Because all you thought about was you. You discourage me. Because you need to be first. Don’t want to hear my words. You don’t encourage me.

Though it doesn’t live here no more. But it won’t knock at my door. Because someday love will set me free. Because I see it all the time. Although it doesn’t live here. I’m a fan of love. I lay out the welcome mat for love. Although it’s not yet mine. I will wait for love. . I’d sit in the stands and cheer. Because it waits somewhere for me. I still believe in love. I will wait for love. I still believe in love.A FAN OF LOVE I am a fan of love. I lay out the welcome mat for love.

A DIFFERENT CLOTH Cut from a different cloth. Maybe that cloth Really is the same. Your world is nothing like The one I’m from. I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come. Yet you came. A visitor from another place. Tell me why you’re in my space. You and I are not the same. . But we’re not meant to be. When I don’t even know your name. But you won’t show your face. If only in our eyes. You try to live in my realty. and you try To become you and I.

It’s nowhere inside of you. So glad to have this new breakthrough. . I don’t know why I ask for truth. Though the shitty lies you grab. To do what I have to do.PROMISES Promises you fail to keep Are all I have. Honesty is within your reach.

Not taking your shit any more. . I’m sick to hell of being under your spell. twisted game. But I’m tired of playing Your sick.NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE You can’t see me Past your superiority. I try and try to be What you want from me. It’s your way or the door. There’s no you and me in us for you. I’m like a moth to your flame.

Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath. First place is a space we both want. Because we both want to win the race. Can’t let me be in front. Because you have to be first. Trying to keep up. now by my side. . You sprint along.WINNING THE RACE I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight. Two peas of a different pod. We’ll never be face-to-face.

. I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections. Co-existence is the only power You hold over me.POWER Looking through rose-colored glasses. I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely.

but the one I should let go. indeed.SING FOR YOU Why don’t I sing for you? A good question. . Why don’t I feel comfortable. Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts. Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for.

how you love to tell your lovely lies. Let loose your hold of me. What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh. And set me free. The jokes are all at my expense. Love. I laugh along in my defense. Love. Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love.LOVE Love. . Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh. Just break your chains.

With nothing else. Family meant we were whole. A time of unrivaled bliss. Surviving by itself.REMEMBERING LOVE Remember when Love was enough. When unity was a goal. . A time I surely miss. Even when times were tough? It got you through.

Still alone. you grin. The seconds. days. Our whole lives lost. So much to say. And we’ve both paid the cost. We drift together. hours. But nothing’s said. Just like the day before.LOST LIVES Here we go again. And here we are In elder years. I smile. Turning into weeks. So much to say. I hold my breath. You stare at the floor. minutes. I look elsewhere instead. Yet nothing was said. . Because we never speak. You try to read my face.

With you is where my heart lies. You are the reason why I work so hard. My wife. . Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said: I can’t live my life without Having you by my side. I try my best. I think of you before I rest.MY WIFE You bought me flowers today: Roses. Although I seldom tell you so. pink and red. How I cherish you.

But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside. I disappear with every word you say. And you think they’re just words. . Call her a bitch. How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her.KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS I lose a piece of me every day. Or use my fists. Curse her name.

He’d cherish the ground I walked on. He’d love every part of me. A perfect world For him and me. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often.THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME Oh. No one else would matter. . And even love my kids. He’d cherish them because they were mine. He wouldn’t see anyone else. He’d always take care of me. Put me before himself. It wouldn’t matter if they were his. Live together happily. I wouldn’t want for anything. That man I made for me.

LIFE .

. as I carry on. I put you first. You’re by my side. Guiding me along the way. I put you first. In you. I lead My life in Your hands. Let me laugh after I’ve cried. so I may rise. And I’ll always put you first. And so. Get me through to a new start. that’s the way it will be. You guide. Lord. I put your first. Supporting me until the end. You let me fall. this is why I will believe With Your Word. And so. Whether I am right or wrong. Bring me light after the dark.I PUT YOU FIRST You’ve been there Since day one. I have a faithful friend. And so. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day.

the path I walk. Says what I think before I do. he’s taken hold. I don’t know nothing anymore. He knows the goings on inside of me. Mouths the words before I talk. He has my unwavering faith. With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day. He is the Lord above. And I thought I knew it all. He knows my mind. predicts my moves. My whole world. He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break. I think he’s psychic see.FAITH He came today and shook my soul. . He’s got my map.

A lie won’t hide. No matter how hard you try. It shines so bright. A cover will not work. I would have told you so. .LIES AND TRUTH The truth is the light. Rains down on me. you know. You can’t contain What will remain. It’s impossible to hide a lie. Won’t stay inside. Sets me free. If asked.

powering my soul. Yes. I got it now. The chains are gone. Now I’m free. but now I see The truth I bought now sold. Took years to find. Realizing who I am. . Flipping a script You no longer own. Screaming to me in my own song.REALIZATION The beauty of it all. So that confidence. For the entire world to see. Was in a fog. Has built a wall that can’t be broken. I can’t lie low. Who I am inside. The square peg now fits the hole. ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be. Can’t keep me down no more.

So I say my last goodbye. too. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today. It’s all around. breathlessly. And I cannot escape. Staining the air. finally. Like the way That evil does. through the fog I can’t see. But. Killing my mind And spirit. Stealing my light. . The pain will end. I’ll be with you forever now.ENDING THE PAIN This world of pain. Now is the end for me. All consuming. Everywhere. A better place awaits me. I try to fight. So much to bear.

Guess I’ll listen to radio instead. Enough to drive the sane insane. Everyone’s fighting or arguing. same old thing. Or found dead. For fear of what it might say. It calls to me and screams my name. I’ll start my fight by changing me. Live by his word and let him see. So I block it and stay inside. But radio’s no better. I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. Can’t let this dark swallow my light. I vow to do the best I can. . Start my task with one woman.CHANGING ME I couldn’t watch the news today. Someone’s missing.

I pierce the layer that I see. I took the pain away with me. The pain inside just wouldn’t die. But blood is not enough. Now I’m gone. The one underneath’s too tough. The pain still wouldn’t go away. . I couldn’t cry. Although it hurt. After all the blood had dried. Now my pain has gone away. I had to go because it stayed. I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay. Finally free.BREAKING FREE I try to cut the pain away. I’m the one it killed. Cutting deeper still.

A battle I couldn’t lose. I stood tall. Here I stand forever. You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues. Only the mixture that I needed.MY SON SHINES Long ago I dreamt of you. By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away. For the other half of you. I held you tight and kissed your cheek. Before you were inside. Although you were not yet mine. The love I thought I had to have. I feared it was not true. . But through it all.

KNOWING ME Do you really know who I am. Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know. . Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me. me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me.

Your song instead. . The rhythm stirs Inside my head. Dance with me tonight.DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT I feel the music From deep within. Dance with me tonight. Dance with me tonight. It moves my feet. I feel the beat. Made for sin. It moves my hips. My arms they sway That away. Please play for me.

So here is where they’ll stay. Your will was not as strong. It’s sad to know your time is done. Help them push the pain aside.TOO SOON Gone too soon. What younger ones can’t fare. We didn’t have you long. To make sure you were still here. But many will always care. They’ll wish we stopped you just in time. Though your beauty will last always. . Pain can be an awful thing. And let them know An early end’s no way to go. Sometimes too much to bare. So hold them tight. We older folks can tolerate.

Too many eyes Cover me. You lay still. . I knew you were there After all. But you’re too quick. Await my move.THE BROWN WIDOW You wait for me In the dark. You’re poisonous. Hoping you’re asleep. Why did I go? I should have paused. I hold my breath. You strike so fast. I approach. Hoping you snoozed. I wait till day To go your way.

THE TIME IS NOW Slow down. It will be just right. Live your best life now. . Take your time. DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight.

it lies inside. Residing where it’s meant to be. After we have forgotten. Where it shines the best. Remembering where it first shined. Specific to each owner. Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. But often forget where it lies. Dormant. And then peaked out often. take a peak.INNER SUPERSTAR We possess it early on. It differs from the rest. . Our inner superstar Was always there inside. Years later we get another glimpse. We get a glimpse.

Life’s not all a mystery. . Its view widens so we may see. Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down. But we get in the way. But then we find courage inside And turn it all around.LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL Life tries to take the wheel. Listen for what life has in store. We make a turn on our own. Be patient. While hiding in our youth. Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. Without listening to what it has to say. It shows its face in elder years.

TOO LATE You were mine On borrowed time. Now tomorrow’s here. At least. I’m so sorry I was wrong. This I didn’t know. I took for granted you’d be here. . until tomorrow. Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so. And you’re gone.

spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do.AHA MOMENT Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise. .

When ready. I change from day-to-day. Neon bright. Like many colors of the rainbow. Black or white. A range of shades for everything. A darker color when we fight. you know. Relaxed for when I sleep. a light yellow. I can be any hue I want to be. A softer shade. They cover you And color me. A blue for when I’m feeling low. . When wide awake. Growing daily like the evergreen.COLORS OF ME There are many Shades of me. I’m an aubergine. I shine brightly for all to see.

And it makes up The best of me. Is all poetry to me.A POET’S SONG I live in verse. rhyming All the time. breathing poetry . The sadness that you may see. It sings to me from deep inside. Thinking. The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow. I don’t know how Or even why. Living. I think in rhyme.

The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow. barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath. Shine from underneath? Is it dim.BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH Just how bright Is your light. .

I am your friend. Says stay awhile. It offers me a place to stay. Encourages me With its warm smile. Says take a seat. Then sings to me In special notes. It embraces me. And offers me its words to eat.POETRY LIVES HERE A door has opened up for me. It comforts me. . And says Please come back any day. It invites me in. It says to me. It sets me free. I open up. Inside that room lives poetry. Then takes my coat.

The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back. The comfort of my embrace. I am life. Curve of my waist. Knowing that your fears. I am woman. The knowledge I give. The wisdom I possess.KNOWING MY WORTH Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice. And I know my worth. offend. Shape of my thighs. I can erase? If I frighten. That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss. . It’s because I am beauty. or shock you. The pleasures I possess.

OF ALL BEINGS Fellow women of today. We are the best of all beings. Rewarded with so many qualities. . Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man. Forgetting it. you should abhor. One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth.

Held some hands along the way. Thinking of how it will be.THE LONG ROAD HOME I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead. I smile and hold it inside. Every road must come to an end. What a lovely ride. . Happiness and long-lost friends. Did mostly as I pleased. Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me. A sight I almost see. I can’t wait for mine. My destination is on my mind.

Giving the breeze What it needs. Sounds fully. As if to say. It is today.THE SOUND OF SIGNS I hear the birds chirping. As if saying to me. “The time has come For you to leave. The signs are there For you to see. Listen closely.” The willow weeps. Close your eyes.” The tree breaths. “Your time is here. .

What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot. What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man.A CALL TO ARMS *STOP* Turn off your television set. . Or we all lose. It’s not too late. This is not a test. I’ve grabbed my pen.

My home may just be with you. . My home is where I chose to be.HOME My home is where I lay my head And pray at night. Though we’re apart. Where true love lives. My home can be one place or a few. My home is where I leave my heart. Where happiness lives Indefinitely. Beside the bed.

Ignorant to what’s inside.THE BETTER PRIZE The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade. Should crown our lover’s throne. And miss out on the better prize. Although it seems quite odd. The better prize. And in our haste. . But what lies inside. This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet. It passes instantly. So easy to believe a lie. Open your foolish eyes. We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone. A trick used to confuse the mind. We turn away.

. I’ve seen this day before. And I know more will surely come. Time to sit and rest my mind. My body’s weary. I remember to relax today. Save some work. that’s the way life goes. But I know things will be fine. Try to balance both and remain whole. I’m tired already. too. Spirit.RELAXING MY MIND Been a long day. Unfortunately. add some play.

It should be tired of me. Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free. Where all is calm. It must lie somewhere else.TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME Trouble road begins at my door. Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me. and I stay safe. And pray trouble runs out of time. Why won’t it set me free? . Surrounded by my friends. I’ve given up on happiness. So I continue to Keep hope alive. And I know nothing else. I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been.

.THE GREATEST ESCAPE Slow down for me. Look to the sky. How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on. To ride with you. Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape. Away I go To a better place. And then thank God I learned to fly. You’re driving too fast. Even the belt Won’t keep me safe. No space for me. There is no room. Without your brakes. You smile at me And hit the gas. You’re speeding now. I close my eyes. As I brace For the crash.

everything I’ve got. afterall. Premeditated steps I take with no regrets. Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two. Covering your insides. So much to lose. . Worried about the fall. Afraid to make a sound.THE FALL Land mines. I wait until it’s dark. Worried I’ll be found. The snipers waiting for that clear shot. Can never take the leap.

.MAKING MOVES Every now and then. We wish for the best. Take a step and not look back. Then we realize The move was just right. Make your move. Don’t be afraid. And we’re finally on track. Scared to make a move. Don’t be scared to let go. Do what you say. That moment is meant just for you To make your move. Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know. Hope our move won’t make a mess. You’re right where you need to be. We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go.

WINNING THE RACE I’ve wasted too much time. Focused on today. My eyes are opened wide. Life just passes by. It never waits. I never saw the signs. Or what they tried to say. It’s time to take my rightful place. The final bell has rung. . And now the time is here For me to finally shine. Although my mouth is closed. And now half my life’s Just floated away. I’ve already won the race. Light miles ahead.

You listen when I talk. You know I’m really into it. But we’re just friends. The times we share. A true friend. indeed. You always take my call. And I need you there. . Even when I want to vent About nothing at all. Because when I need someone to vent to. I need you to show me Just how I should be.TRUE FRIENDS I call you. Taking it all in. You call me. I’m glad I have you in my life. It’s so innocent.

KEEPING SECRETS Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing. And what things we should keep. We need to learn What to say. . There are times When we may find Some things troubling. Often times Those little things Should remain a secret.

WITHOUT DOUBTS
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.

ANGER
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.

MY MOVES
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.

So much to do. No more sitting still for me today. Ready for me to begin. Too much for me to hold inside.FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD Listen up! I got lots to say. I’m coming in! . So little time. Hold the door.

I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go. I will be ready. I’m looking forward to the trip ahead. This life has gotten really bad. I’m tired today. When you come for me. When you come for me. . Waiting for you to take me to some other place. I won’t be sad. In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again. When you come for me.WHEN YOU COME FOR ME When you come for me.

Guess I’m in too deep. Can’t get rid of me. Desire being my excuse. Just how a smudge succeeds. You open up. Giving in to your every want and need. .A MERE SMUDGE I’m a smudge on your window pane. but don’t know what to say. Loving the way That I confuse.

A prisoner’s life is what I lead. accept your smile.A PRISONER’S LIFE I want to be free. Drink my wine. You say. I try and try To live your life. But I’m the one that pays the toll. Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape.” I take a sip. “Celebrate with me. Locked away indefinitely. You say it’ll never be. That I can’t survive on my own. Not knowing poison’s inside. .

No one to help me with this one. All at once. And That’s just what I’ll do. It hit me hard. Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be. Either way. Decision time tonight. . A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go. And I finally see. Close your eyes. I’ll guide you.AT A CROSSROADS Here I am. I hear. Make your move. it’ll be done.

They didn’t live here. I can’t always be afraid. I’ve got to drive those blues away. Happiness and joyful days. From this life I need more. Arguments. They silenced all the tears. Too scared to move. So they don’t live here no more. . Year after year. And I held on. Awkward distance.DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY Sad songs are all I heard. Mainly out of fear.

HOW How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning? .

. But … It. TOO. And pain’s waiting At another’s door. SHALL PASS Pain can’t last forever. too. Till only it survives. Taking over everything. shall pass. That bell it rings. Because nothing ever lasts Of pain. shall pass. Making you believe you died. Consuming who it occupies. It’s got places to go. too.IT. It.

Fight to keep it all in order. Holding onto my pride. Try to turn it all around. I suit up for the war. For the misery in store. And I fight with my head high. But the price I pay is worth being free.HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE I try to hold my head above water. Try not to let the weight get me down. . Every day is a fight for me.

. Our downfall in the end. Such a wicked game to play. Mistakes that others seem to make. We don’t see What lies within. It’s become customary To point out all the flaws.OUR DOWNFALL We are a sad society: So quick to judge. Although we are among friends. So afraid of being called out our name. All the while hiding ours. Point fingers. Skirt the blame. Believing those wicked smiles.

The only way truly to be free. Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be. .BEING FREE I won’t let you change who I am.

Forgot who I was inside. It’s how I lived my life. Concentrating on what I’m meant to do. This thought had become commonplace. My world finally mine. Now it’s time for me to grow. Just the way a record does. Picked up where I had left off. Time for me to shine. What treasures lied within. My eyes are open now. . Don’t know how long it’s been. I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine. Remembering who I was.MY WORLD Sometime ago I lost myself.

It’s there. . See … I’m making it my goal. Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine.MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine. Although it tries to hide. I know.

I begin again. Thought there was no escape. My mind said all was lost. Hope not within my reach. So glad that I had faith. My spirit nearly broken. But I’m on the mend. As the pieces began to mend.NEARLY BROKEN Thought it was the end of me. Nearly broken. . But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat.

She’s happy. and a wife. daughter. A mother. the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while. She loves me more than anything. Because she knows her worth.MY FRIEND Oh. She knows how much I meant to her. That friend I’ve found is me. She’s beautiful And full of life. .

The stories they tell Without saying a word. The other upside down. .THE SMILE AND THE FROWN Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown. One right-side up. Saying everything With just a smirk.

I remain lonely. . Memories barely keep me warm. have mercy on me. Instead. I’d rather have my love with me. The love I lost.REMAINING LONELY Loneliness. Loosen your lover’s grip. I’ll forever mourn. Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip.

FEAR INSIDE I challenge you To sit in silence. Visualize it’s there In front of you. What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside? . Take a sigh. Close your eyes. Imagine your worst fear.

EMMA LEE
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.

FREEDOM
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.

TODAY
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.

I should say How I feel. But to you. Waiting once more. .WAITING All I do Is wait around for you. My time no longer mine. feelings are no big deal. I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time. So here I sit. Until you walk through my door.

Because this I’m thankful for. . you know. So I sing today for you.SINGING TODAY FOR YOU Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time.

.NOT LISTENING Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago. I don’t care what you have to say. Though I don’t listen any more. Yet your mouth moves constantly. I’m not listening anyway. Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out.

Looking through The window to my soul. You watch and study me. And what I’m meant to be. You know me Better Than I ever could know.WINDOW TO MY SOUL I see you Through the window to my soul. Taking in all you see. . Loving everything I am.

Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more. What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me? You’re pretty for a black girl. Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud? You’re pretty for a black girl. Thank you for letting me know. You’re pretty for a black girl.PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL You’re pretty for a black girl. . Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth. Am I supposed to smile.

Thought I should tell you so. Thought I should let you know. Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen.FOR MY SISTERS My sister. you know. you are beautiful. Beauty lying inside and out. .

To show each other why we’re here. The time we have is now. This place we’ve gotten to somehow. Seeing all we’re meant to see. . To share all we’ve got.THE TIME IS NOW The only time we have is now. Even if we’ve forgotten. To feel how it should be.

BIO Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school. short stories. and songs. She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons. Glonka. “The Amazing Mr. She writes poetry. . Her first publication was a short story entitled.” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten.

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