ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition .Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved.

For my boys. The world is yours. and Jaden. Brandon. Blake. I love you. Make your mark. Devante. Mom .

CONTENTS Title Page Copyright Page LOVE Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone .

The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You .

LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me LIFE I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song .

Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How .

too.It. Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now .

LOVE .

I do it all. Handle with care. Wash your clothes. I make your food. My world expands. What lovers do. As you breathe. I live for you At your command. Bake your bread. Be your lover and more.LOVING YOU As you awake. For you. Clean the floors. I smile for you. . Giving you more than my last. I leave my mark. All you have to do is ask. You are my light Through the dark. By loving you.

. heartless.THANKS TO YOU Cold. My evil eyes are full of spite. Rotten to the very core. Bitter through and through. All thanks to you. All thanks to you. Blacker than the darkest night. Only anger in this place. Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth. The monster made.

And you haven’t said a word. You didn’t have to say a word. I see the way you look at me. woman and man. I kiss your lips.WITHOUT WORDS I know you like what you see. Caress my cheek from where you stand. And still not a word. Licking your lips. My hips move to your beat. Don’t have to say a word. I see your eyes start at my feet. . Your gaze has only reached my thighs. Now face-to-face. it heaves to my surprise. Felling the heat between you and me. I quench your thirst. you lift your hand. My chest. I feel your hands all over me.

just wasted time. My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. The rest gone down the drain.WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME Here I stand out in front. You’ve taken all I have to give. I gave my all for you to live. My end is here. The years I lost. But you don’t see me. And you never saw me. Emptied my soul. And now my shell is all I have. Requesting more so you can live. The foolishness I left behind. Still shaded by your tree. It’s over now. . I shed my skin. Bare for all to see.

All is still. You are my fall. Our love is blossoming for all to see. You are my winter. A smile that warms the coldest night. A constant cold stuns my heart. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh. The heat I crave to feel at night. .SEASONS OF LOVE A light is shining bright. You are my summer. No you and I. built-in trust. In the end it was always us. it’s just you and me. A love so grand. We from the start. living long it must. We bring forth our new ecstasy. Existing even after the end. We have grown together. You are my spring. Please stay a while.

So. I killed your love for me. I need the anger. . Just let this pain pierce my skin.BROKEN Please. please. just let me be. Not bottle it up inside of me. Just let me be. my worst fear. You must understand my need to be here. I’ve got to let the burn roam free. The damage done won’t disappear. oh please. Don’t want happiness here again. I want to cry. I need to feel the pain inside of me. Don’t want you to dry my eyes.

Our fingers intertwined. I would make a meal For you and me. Sitting by your side. I’d say. Enjoy the day. Me in your heart. Feed you by hand. Silently gazing In your eyes. Make love to you without saying a word. I would promise you. It would always be this way. Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. That I’d never leave. Forever stay. Open my eyes. I would call in sick. Hold your hand. You on my mind.MY LAST DAY I would wake up a little late. No worry about what could be heard. . gazing upon your face. Wash your feet Late that night. My love always.

.That’s how I would spend My last day.

I’ll show up. And I will always show up. I’ll show up. it will be us. You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. I will show up. You see I gave my word in front of God. So when you’re mad as hell. I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you.I WILL SHOW UP If I yell. I’ll show up. You curse and scream. Face so mean. just know I won’t be walking out the door. You spit my name With twisted face. Through thick and thin when times are hard. . if you yell. Till this life ends. The very last one to show up.

Cover me with ecstasy. Don’t want to chill or hang with you. No. It’s not my place to be her for you. . So close your lips and take my hand. I don’t want to be your girl. Not here to be your girl tonight. we don’t have to talk or say a word.WHAT I NEED No. Just here for me to feel alright. Lie down with me in this moment. You can find someone else to fill those shoes. Yeah. And give me what I need. Just take me on into the room. it’s what you heard. And give me what I need. I’m telling you. Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do.

My glow shines through the darkness. Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me. I am the Milky Way. Cannot be dimmed. Brighter than the night’s sky. Brightness everlasting. After the end. I will remain. I am love.LOVE ALL OVER ME Smiling all twenty four. I color the winter’s night. . And I will forge ahead.

. I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized.HYPNOTIZED Fine As the darkest wine. Intoxicating.

God. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man. A dozen women for a dime. Not just the night-time one you sell. . A part-time love is not enough. Why do I compete With the streets. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol. Love shouldn’t have to be this rough. I’ll hold it down and set you free. Can’t compete with street life. Just like the day before. I fear. I know my needs fall on deaf ears. Don’t sell away your half from me.SETTING YOU FREE Here I wait Today for you. as well.

At 10:30. Although the truth lies elsewhere. and I love you more than anything. I’m coming back. At 11:30. Maybe this time is the last time. Pray to God that I don’t cry. hell begins. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry. Nice at 8.HELL AND BACK I go through hell to be with you. Say forgive me this time. . Swinging and swaying to your moods. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry. time for hell again. You say you’re sorry all the time. But it’s 1. And try to make it back from hell again. Time to put me back on track. nasty at 10. I hold on tight for the ride.

too. But my conviction still remains strong.SEARCHING Where are you? Are you searching for me. Even met some dogs. Out there trying to see. . still searching. I pray that you’re still looking. If the perfect one waits somewhere for you. too? I’ve been waiting oh so long. And also trying to find me. Kissed so many frogs. I wonder if you’re like me. Not giving up.

It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything. Enjoy the ride.LOVE’S SURPRISE Sometimes love throws you a curve. So hold on tight. It takes you up. . It smiles at you and then frowns. then drops you down. And surprises you with no regrets. Sometimes love takes broader shape. Love pulls you in. Refuses to be confined. It flows outside the lines. But love can also be so sweet. Pretends to stay. And just await your love’s surprise. Can pick you up and be complete. It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect. and Evaporates to your dismay.

Just what I’m meant to do. The queen I’m meant to be. So glad to have you In my life. And I rule the roost.WE LIFT EACH OTHER You lift me up For the world to see. Tell me it’s all mine. Give me the world. Standing tall. I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. . It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined. Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do. I tell you you’re The best at what you do. by my side. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time. You show me how Real love should be with you.

Curse my name. And then not care Who you hurt. All others be damned. You pile it on Because I can take it. . But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy. Because your plan is number one.THE WARNING It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you. You had a plan all the while. Pretend to care. And try to break me. Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile. You’re having fun. Say some words.

“My darling. I’d say to you. The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared. I’d miss everything. The happiness I felt inside.MISSING YOU “What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say. About you. “Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared. The joy and laughter every night.” .

Take you when I leave.YOU WEAR IT WELL I wear you on my sleeve. You follow me Through the day. It’s not cologne or soap. . Not Ivory or Irish Spring. An aroma only you possess. Separating you from the rest. Whether at work or at play. That fragrence I know so well. your scent. I inhale you on my shirt. You line the pleats of my skirt. You’re with me On my way. That essence that I smell. you know. And you wear it well. So distinct. Whether night or day.

Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through. . Like children Not yet grown. We hurt. Realizing It won’t work apart. The shit we say. Alone is not what we do.NOT ALONE The games we play. We laugh. Can’t make it on our own. And then we pray.

. Order lives where chaos dwelled. This much I truly know. I brought a new place for you. And I know I make up the best of you. Your life tells me so. Because you are the best of me. A freshness for our start. With me.THE BEST OF ME I make up the best of you. You don’t need to say it. I’m proud to see what you’ve become. A prize for all to see. The light replaced the dark.

Looking okay. But that kink. The chain contains a kink. Although repaired. You try to move along. Hoping things are as good as new. you see. . Will forever change the way I now look at you. Thinking that you’re done. you still see that link.TRUST It’s like a broken fence: When mended.

I fear you love yourself More than you love me. For the chocolate and the caramel. .SHADES OF ME How can you not love me. You don’t even see. With eyes of auburn. Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love. Skin of chocolate.

And I wait With your love’s escape. A world that rivals Disneyland. A world where only you escape: A world of beaches. Powder-white sand. I take you to another place. .LOVE’S ESCAPE I know where your happiness lies. I’m ready now. It’s embedded between my thighs.

A place Finally to be me. A simple choice It may seem. To live in hell Or go be free. Though simple it may be.THE CHOICE The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. Not so simple to me. Is not simple In my eyes. .

Don’t forget yesterday.DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY Every time it’s going good. Yesterday. I truly thought you understood. No matter what a friend may say. an enemy. That voice appears and says. So it may seem. Face twisted mean. Did you forget yesterday? A friend today. . Did you forget yesterday? The screaming and the yelling. Although you’re okay today.

WHAT WE DESERVE Do you deserve All that I do. . You can’t say yes. to be with you? I can’t say no. Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me. Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess. Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I. Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve.

it’s not meant to be. I know it’s not what you want to hear. Fully awake. It may just be Around the corner. You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. And I’m not the one for you. I fear. But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you. Your true love awaits. Life alone brings doubts and fears. But. Truth is you’re not the one for me. Because I see the truth. No time to cry.THE TRUTH I’m sad today. . So. We tried to make it work. Another smiling face. dry your eyes.

You’d hold me tight. I’d be all you see. In a perfect world. Sadly. today it’s not that way. You’d agree with me. We’d never fight. In a perfect world. You’d forever stay.A PERFECT WORLD In a perfect world. You’d only have eyes for me. It’d be you and I. I’d always be right. . In a perfect world. Your love to give For me always. Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem. There would be no other for you. And I can only dream. And sit by my side.

YOUR EVERYTHING
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.

FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.

WE BELONG
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.

It was fine to say goodbye. We plot our moves From the go. The perfect moment to strike. For the right time. Pretend I’m okay inside. .LYING IN WAIT I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies. Women are cunning creatures you know. You should have never estimated The power of my mind. It is so easy for me to smile. Believed that when you closed the door. We lie in wait.

That’s too damn bad. It hurts to be in this spot. Now I sit and wait for you. Because you set me free.MOVING ON I wait for you in the lot. Hoping it’s not too late. I can’t forget what we had. You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had. Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day. Where I said I’d be. But I fear your mind’s made up. Because it’s all I know. When you would let me go. . Thought the day would never come.

But I don’t think It will ever be. And sleep.NOT YOUR FORTE I tell you I need more. Give me no reply. It’s not enough for me. I ask you all the time To treat me like I need. You look into my eyes. . Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte.

But … I wanted you. And now I sit. Alone with the truth after the fall. For the real you can never love me. so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all. What I see Is not really you. Although I know the truth. .

That there are many more like me. Think it’s all a big game. And please. Yeah. you think you know it all. Go ahead. The way I kissed you late at night. You’re gonna miss me so damn bad. So you can finally see. Miss what we had.A LOVE LIKE MINE You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone. You say you don’t care. . I really hope you find her soon. hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. Make your move. But time will tell. And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same.

If I let it be.TERMINAL LOVE Your love will be The end of me. . Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me. Your love will kill My spirit. If I let it inside. Your love will make Me lose my mind. If that’s what I let it do. too.

I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do. Showing me the man That you’re proud to be. You’re blind to all that temptation outside. Ignoring all the rest. You tell me that I’m beautiful. They don’t have to cost a thing. And that I deserve the best.THE LITTLE THINGS It’s the little things I appreciate. Holding my hand. It’s great to be by your side. . To live this life with you.

LOVING ME My anger grows. Because all you thought about was you. I finally love me more that you do. I’m the one who made you into you. I let you do what you want to. Because you need to be first. And it’s your fault. You don’t encourage me. . And it’s my fault. Don’t want to hear my words. You discourage me. My spirit grows. My spirit knows It’s your fault. My anger knows It’s my fault.

Though it doesn’t live here no more. But it won’t knock at my door. Because it waits somewhere for me. I will wait for love. . I lay out the welcome mat for love. I still believe in love. Although it doesn’t live here. I lay out the welcome mat for love. I’d sit in the stands and cheer. I’m a fan of love.A FAN OF LOVE I am a fan of love. I still believe in love. Because someday love will set me free. I will wait for love. Because I see it all the time. Although it’s not yet mine.

You try to live in my realty. Your world is nothing like The one I’m from. and you try To become you and I. But you won’t show your face. Tell me why you’re in my space. When I don’t even know your name. Maybe that cloth Really is the same. You and I are not the same. But we’re not meant to be. A visitor from another place. Yet you came. . I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come.A DIFFERENT CLOTH Cut from a different cloth. If only in our eyes.

Honesty is within your reach.PROMISES Promises you fail to keep Are all I have. So glad to have this new breakthrough. I don’t know why I ask for truth. It’s nowhere inside of you. Though the shitty lies you grab. . To do what I have to do.

twisted game. . It’s your way or the door. But I’m tired of playing Your sick. Not taking your shit any more. I try and try to be What you want from me. I’m sick to hell of being under your spell.NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE You can’t see me Past your superiority. I’m like a moth to your flame. There’s no you and me in us for you.

Because you have to be first. Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath. Can’t let me be in front. Because we both want to win the race. Two peas of a different pod. We’ll never be face-to-face. First place is a space we both want. Trying to keep up. You sprint along.WINNING THE RACE I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight. . now by my side.

Co-existence is the only power You hold over me.POWER Looking through rose-colored glasses. . I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections. I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely.

indeed. but the one I should let go. .SING FOR YOU Why don’t I sing for you? A good question. Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts. Why don’t I feel comfortable. Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for.

Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love. The jokes are all at my expense. Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh. how you love to tell your lovely lies. And set me free. Let loose your hold of me.LOVE Love. Just break your chains. . Love. Love. What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh. I laugh along in my defense.

Surviving by itself. Family meant we were whole. A time I surely miss. A time of unrivaled bliss.REMEMBERING LOVE Remember when Love was enough. When unity was a goal. Even when times were tough? It got you through. . With nothing else.

you grin. And we’ve both paid the cost.LOST LIVES Here we go again. minutes. days. So much to say. You stare at the floor. And here we are In elder years. But nothing’s said. You try to read my face. hours. Just like the day before. I look elsewhere instead. . We drift together. Our whole lives lost. So much to say. Still alone. I hold my breath. The seconds. Because we never speak. Turning into weeks. I smile. Yet nothing was said.

How I cherish you. . I try my best. Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said: I can’t live my life without Having you by my side. pink and red.MY WIFE You bought me flowers today: Roses. You are the reason why I work so hard. Although I seldom tell you so. My wife. With you is where my heart lies. I think of you before I rest.

Or use my fists. Curse her name. How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her. Call her a bitch. I disappear with every word you say. But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside.KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS I lose a piece of me every day. . And you think they’re just words.

And even love my kids. He’d love every part of me. That man I made for me. He’d cherish them because they were mine. Put me before himself. He’d always take care of me. Live together happily. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often. A perfect world For him and me. . I wouldn’t want for anything. He’d cherish the ground I walked on.THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME Oh. He wouldn’t see anyone else. It wouldn’t matter if they were his. No one else would matter.

LIFE .

You let me fall. Lord. I put you first. this is why I will believe With Your Word. You’re by my side. And so. Guiding me along the way. And so. I lead My life in Your hands. that’s the way it will be. as I carry on. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day. And I’ll always put you first. Let me laugh after I’ve cried.I PUT YOU FIRST You’ve been there Since day one. You guide. Whether I am right or wrong. Bring me light after the dark. In you. I put your first. Get me through to a new start. I put you first. so I may rise. And so. I have a faithful friend. . Supporting me until the end.

He’s got my map. he’s taken hold. predicts my moves. He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break. My whole world.FAITH He came today and shook my soul. I think he’s psychic see. the path I walk. He knows my mind. And I thought I knew it all. With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day. I don’t know nothing anymore. . He knows the goings on inside of me. Says what I think before I do. He is the Lord above. Mouths the words before I talk. He has my unwavering faith.

If asked. No matter how hard you try. It’s impossible to hide a lie. Won’t stay inside. I would have told you so. Sets me free. You can’t contain What will remain. Rains down on me. you know. . It shines so bright. A lie won’t hide. A cover will not work.LIES AND TRUTH The truth is the light.

REALIZATION The beauty of it all. The square peg now fits the hole. Screaming to me in my own song. Now I’m free. For the entire world to see. I got it now. Has built a wall that can’t be broken. Flipping a script You no longer own. Realizing who I am. powering my soul. So that confidence. Who I am inside. . Yes. Took years to find. The chains are gone. Can’t keep me down no more. ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be. but now I see The truth I bought now sold. I can’t lie low. Was in a fog.

finally. Stealing my light. too. So I say my last goodbye. I’ll be with you forever now. Everywhere. . But. breathlessly. through the fog I can’t see. Staining the air. A better place awaits me. Like the way That evil does. The pain will end. I try to fight. It’s all around. And I cannot escape. Killing my mind And spirit. All consuming. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today. Now is the end for me.ENDING THE PAIN This world of pain. So much to bear.

So I block it and stay inside. I’ll start my fight by changing me. Or found dead. Start my task with one woman. Everyone’s fighting or arguing. Can’t let this dark swallow my light. Enough to drive the sane insane. same old thing. But radio’s no better. Someone’s missing.CHANGING ME I couldn’t watch the news today. I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. For fear of what it might say. I vow to do the best I can. . Guess I’ll listen to radio instead. Live by his word and let him see. It calls to me and screams my name.

After all the blood had dried. Finally free. I had to go because it stayed.BREAKING FREE I try to cut the pain away. I pierce the layer that I see. Now my pain has gone away. The pain still wouldn’t go away. The pain inside just wouldn’t die. Cutting deeper still. But blood is not enough. . Now I’m gone. I’m the one it killed. Although it hurt. I couldn’t cry. I took the pain away with me. The one underneath’s too tough. I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay.

Only the mixture that I needed. Here I stand forever. But through it all. I stood tall. I held you tight and kissed your cheek. The love I thought I had to have. You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues. I feared it was not true. A battle I couldn’t lose. For the other half of you. Although you were not yet mine. By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away.MY SON SHINES Long ago I dreamt of you. Before you were inside. .

me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me. Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know. Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me. .KNOWING ME Do you really know who I am.

I feel the beat. Please play for me. Dance with me tonight. Dance with me tonight. Made for sin. The rhythm stirs Inside my head.DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT I feel the music From deep within. . Dance with me tonight. It moves my feet. It moves my hips. Your song instead. My arms they sway That away.

Your will was not as strong. It’s sad to know your time is done. Pain can be an awful thing. We older folks can tolerate. But many will always care. Though your beauty will last always. And let them know An early end’s no way to go. What younger ones can’t fare. We didn’t have you long. To make sure you were still here. So here is where they’ll stay. Help them push the pain aside. Sometimes too much to bare. .TOO SOON Gone too soon. So hold them tight. They’ll wish we stopped you just in time.

You’re poisonous. I knew you were there After all. But you’re too quick. I wait till day To go your way. Too many eyes Cover me. Await my move. I approach. Why did I go? I should have paused. I hold my breath. Hoping you’re asleep. .THE BROWN WIDOW You wait for me In the dark. You lay still. You strike so fast. Hoping you snoozed.

. DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight.THE TIME IS NOW Slow down. It will be just right. Take your time. Live your best life now.

It differs from the rest. Dormant. Where it shines the best. After we have forgotten. Our inner superstar Was always there inside.INNER SUPERSTAR We possess it early on. . Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. And then peaked out often. it lies inside. Specific to each owner. We get a glimpse. Residing where it’s meant to be. Remembering where it first shined. take a peak. But often forget where it lies. Years later we get another glimpse.

Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down. We make a turn on our own.LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL Life tries to take the wheel. It shows its face in elder years. But we get in the way. Its view widens so we may see. Life’s not all a mystery. Without listening to what it has to say. Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. Be patient. . But then we find courage inside And turn it all around. While hiding in our youth. Listen for what life has in store.

At least. This I didn’t know. I’m so sorry I was wrong. Now tomorrow’s here. .TOO LATE You were mine On borrowed time. until tomorrow. I took for granted you’d be here. And you’re gone. Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so.

. spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do.AHA MOMENT Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise.

Growing daily like the evergreen. a light yellow. A blue for when I’m feeling low.COLORS OF ME There are many Shades of me. Like many colors of the rainbow. Neon bright. Relaxed for when I sleep. A range of shades for everything. A softer shade. I change from day-to-day. I can be any hue I want to be. you know. A darker color when we fight. . Black or white. When ready. I’m an aubergine. I shine brightly for all to see. They cover you And color me. When wide awake.

The sadness that you may see. The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow. I don’t know how Or even why.A POET’S SONG I live in verse. It sings to me from deep inside. rhyming All the time. Living. Thinking. Is all poetry to me. breathing poetry . I think in rhyme. And it makes up The best of me.

BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH Just how bright Is your light. . The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow. Shine from underneath? Is it dim. barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath.

It offers me a place to stay. It sets me free. It says to me. And offers me its words to eat. It embraces me. Encourages me With its warm smile. I am your friend.POETRY LIVES HERE A door has opened up for me. Says take a seat. Inside that room lives poetry. Then sings to me In special notes. It invites me in. And says Please come back any day. Then takes my coat. I open up. . It comforts me. Says stay awhile.

The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back. And I know my worth. Knowing that your fears. Curve of my waist. That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss. The knowledge I give. It’s because I am beauty. offend. I am life. I can erase? If I frighten.KNOWING MY WORTH Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice. The wisdom I possess. I am woman. . The comfort of my embrace. The pleasures I possess. Shape of my thighs. or shock you.

Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man. you should abhor. . We are the best of all beings. One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth.OF ALL BEINGS Fellow women of today. Rewarded with so many qualities. Forgetting it.

Every road must come to an end. Held some hands along the way. I smile and hold it inside.THE LONG ROAD HOME I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead. Did mostly as I pleased. Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me. Thinking of how it will be. . I can’t wait for mine. Happiness and long-lost friends. What a lovely ride. My destination is on my mind. A sight I almost see.

“The time has come For you to leave.THE SOUND OF SIGNS I hear the birds chirping. It is today.” The tree breaths. The signs are there For you to see. Sounds fully. “Your time is here. Listen closely. As if to say. Close your eyes. As if saying to me.” The willow weeps. Giving the breeze What it needs. .

Or we all lose. What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man. I’ve grabbed my pen. This is not a test.A CALL TO ARMS *STOP* Turn off your television set. What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot. . It’s not too late.

My home is where I chose to be.HOME My home is where I lay my head And pray at night. . Though we’re apart. My home may just be with you. Where true love lives. Beside the bed. My home can be one place or a few. Where happiness lives Indefinitely. My home is where I leave my heart.

This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet. Although it seems quite odd. It passes instantly. We turn away. A trick used to confuse the mind. We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone. Ignorant to what’s inside. So easy to believe a lie.THE BETTER PRIZE The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade. The better prize. . Should crown our lover’s throne. And miss out on the better prize. And in our haste. Open your foolish eyes. But what lies inside.

Save some work. I’ve seen this day before.RELAXING MY MIND Been a long day. Time to sit and rest my mind. Spirit. . that’s the way life goes. add some play. too. I’m tired already. My body’s weary. Try to balance both and remain whole. But I know things will be fine. I remember to relax today. And I know more will surely come. Unfortunately.

Surrounded by my friends. It must lie somewhere else. Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me. I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been. Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free. It should be tired of me. I’ve given up on happiness. Why won’t it set me free? .TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME Trouble road begins at my door. And I know nothing else. Where all is calm. and I stay safe. So I continue to Keep hope alive. And pray trouble runs out of time.

I close my eyes. You’re speeding now. No space for me. How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on. There is no room. . Even the belt Won’t keep me safe. Look to the sky. You smile at me And hit the gas. To ride with you. You’re driving too fast. As I brace For the crash.THE GREATEST ESCAPE Slow down for me. Away I go To a better place. And then thank God I learned to fly. Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape. Without your brakes.

The snipers waiting for that clear shot. everything I’ve got. Afraid to make a sound. Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two. I wait until it’s dark. So much to lose. Covering your insides. .THE FALL Land mines. Premeditated steps I take with no regrets. Can never take the leap. afterall. Worried I’ll be found. Worried about the fall.

We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go. Scared to make a move. That moment is meant just for you To make your move. Do what you say. Then we realize The move was just right. Make your move.MAKING MOVES Every now and then. Don’t be afraid. Don’t be scared to let go. Hope our move won’t make a mess. . Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know. We wish for the best. You’re right where you need to be. And we’re finally on track. Take a step and not look back.

I’ve already won the race.WINNING THE RACE I’ve wasted too much time. And now the time is here For me to finally shine. Life just passes by. Light miles ahead. My eyes are opened wide. . Although my mouth is closed. Or what they tried to say. It never waits. I never saw the signs. And now half my life’s Just floated away. The final bell has rung. Focused on today. It’s time to take my rightful place.

Because when I need someone to vent to. . You call me. I’m glad I have you in my life. You always take my call.TRUE FRIENDS I call you. Even when I want to vent About nothing at all. You know I’m really into it. It’s so innocent. And I need you there. Taking it all in. You listen when I talk. I need you to show me Just how I should be. A true friend. The times we share. But we’re just friends. indeed.

KEEPING SECRETS Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing. There are times When we may find Some things troubling. Often times Those little things Should remain a secret. We need to learn What to say. And what things we should keep. .

WITHOUT DOUBTS
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.

ANGER
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.

MY MOVES
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.

No more sitting still for me today. Too much for me to hold inside. So much to do. I’m coming in! . Hold the door.FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD Listen up! I got lots to say. Ready for me to begin. So little time.

When you come for me. I will be ready.WHEN YOU COME FOR ME When you come for me. When you come for me. I’m tired today. . Waiting for you to take me to some other place. When you come for me. This life has gotten really bad. I’m looking forward to the trip ahead. I won’t be sad. In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again. I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go.

Giving in to your every want and need.A MERE SMUDGE I’m a smudge on your window pane. but don’t know what to say. You open up. Desire being my excuse. Guess I’m in too deep. Loving the way That I confuse. Just how a smudge succeeds. Can’t get rid of me. .

You say. But I’m the one that pays the toll. Not knowing poison’s inside.A PRISONER’S LIFE I want to be free. accept your smile. That I can’t survive on my own. You say it’ll never be. Locked away indefinitely.” I take a sip. A prisoner’s life is what I lead. “Celebrate with me. Drink my wine. Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape. I try and try To live your life. .

It hit me hard. Decision time tonight. A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go. And I finally see. Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be. I’ll guide you. Close your eyes. All at once.AT A CROSSROADS Here I am. Make your move. it’ll be done. And That’s just what I’ll do. . No one to help me with this one. Either way. I hear.

Arguments. Year after year. Too scared to move. Happiness and joyful days.DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY Sad songs are all I heard. They silenced all the tears. I’ve got to drive those blues away. And I held on. I can’t always be afraid. . Mainly out of fear. Awkward distance. So they don’t live here no more. From this life I need more. They didn’t live here.

HOW How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning? .

But … It. It’s got places to go. too. Consuming who it occupies. Because nothing ever lasts Of pain. too.IT. That bell it rings. SHALL PASS Pain can’t last forever. It. . shall pass. Making you believe you died. Taking over everything. And pain’s waiting At another’s door. TOO. Till only it survives. shall pass.

. Holding onto my pride. I suit up for the war. Every day is a fight for me. And I fight with my head high. Fight to keep it all in order. Try to turn it all around.HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE I try to hold my head above water. Try not to let the weight get me down. For the misery in store. But the price I pay is worth being free.

Although we are among friends. . Mistakes that others seem to make. All the while hiding ours.OUR DOWNFALL We are a sad society: So quick to judge. Believing those wicked smiles. Point fingers. So afraid of being called out our name. Skirt the blame. It’s become customary To point out all the flaws. Such a wicked game to play. Our downfall in the end. We don’t see What lies within.

The only way truly to be free. Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be. .BEING FREE I won’t let you change who I am.

Now it’s time for me to grow. Don’t know how long it’s been.MY WORLD Sometime ago I lost myself. Just the way a record does. What treasures lied within. . This thought had become commonplace. My world finally mine. Concentrating on what I’m meant to do. Forgot who I was inside. Picked up where I had left off. I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine. Remembering who I was. It’s how I lived my life. My eyes are open now. Time for me to shine.

Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine.MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine. It’s there. I know. See … I’m making it my goal. Although it tries to hide. .

So glad that I had faith. Hope not within my reach. But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat. My spirit nearly broken. My mind said all was lost. Nearly broken.NEARLY BROKEN Thought it was the end of me. I begin again. But I’m on the mend. As the pieces began to mend. Thought there was no escape. .

and a wife. A mother. That friend I’ve found is me. She’s happy. She loves me more than anything. daughter. the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while. She’s beautiful And full of life. .MY FRIEND Oh. She knows how much I meant to her. Because she knows her worth.

Saying everything With just a smirk.THE SMILE AND THE FROWN Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown. The stories they tell Without saying a word. . The other upside down. One right-side up.

. The love I lost. I’d rather have my love with me. I’ll forever mourn. I remain lonely. have mercy on me. Instead.REMAINING LONELY Loneliness. Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip. Memories barely keep me warm. Loosen your lover’s grip.

What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside? . Close your eyes. Visualize it’s there In front of you. Imagine your worst fear.FEAR INSIDE I challenge you To sit in silence. Take a sigh.

EMMA LEE
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.

FREEDOM
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.

TODAY
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.

Until you walk through my door. . I should say How I feel.WAITING All I do Is wait around for you. My time no longer mine. feelings are no big deal. I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time. So here I sit. Waiting once more. But to you.

you know.SINGING TODAY FOR YOU Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time. Because this I’m thankful for. So I sing today for you. .

Yet your mouth moves constantly.NOT LISTENING Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago. I don’t care what you have to say. I’m not listening anyway. Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out. . Though I don’t listen any more.

WINDOW TO MY SOUL I see you Through the window to my soul. You know me Better Than I ever could know. . Looking through The window to my soul. Taking in all you see. Loving everything I am. You watch and study me. And what I’m meant to be.

PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL You’re pretty for a black girl. Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more. . Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud? You’re pretty for a black girl. You’re pretty for a black girl. Am I supposed to smile. What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me? You’re pretty for a black girl. Thank you for letting me know. Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth.

you are beautiful. you know. . Beauty lying inside and out. Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen. Thought I should let you know.FOR MY SISTERS My sister. Thought I should tell you so.

THE TIME IS NOW The only time we have is now. . Seeing all we’re meant to see. To feel how it should be. To show each other why we’re here. The time we have is now. To share all we’ve got. Even if we’ve forgotten. This place we’ve gotten to somehow.

and songs. She writes poetry. Glonka. Her first publication was a short story entitled.BIO Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school. . short stories.” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten. She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons. “The Amazing Mr.

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