Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved. ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition .

and Jaden. Brandon.For my boys. I love you. Blake. Make your mark. Mom . Devante. The world is yours.

CONTENTS Title Page Copyright Page LOVE Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone .

The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You .

LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me LIFE I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song .

Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How .

too.It. Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now .

LOVE .

Clean the floors. Wash your clothes. As you breathe. My world expands. All you have to do is ask. Be your lover and more. . By loving you. I make your food. You are my light Through the dark. I live for you At your command. Handle with care. I do it all. I leave my mark. Giving you more than my last.LOVING YOU As you awake. What lovers do. Bake your bread. For you. I smile for you.

THANKS TO YOU Cold. My evil eyes are full of spite. Blacker than the darkest night. Rotten to the very core. The monster made. heartless. . Bitter through and through. Only anger in this place. Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth. All thanks to you. All thanks to you.

Felling the heat between you and me. I kiss your lips. And still not a word. I see the way you look at me. And you haven’t said a word. Don’t have to say a word. Your gaze has only reached my thighs. woman and man.WITHOUT WORDS I know you like what you see. Licking your lips. My chest. Now face-to-face. My hips move to your beat. it heaves to my surprise. I quench your thirst. I see your eyes start at my feet. You didn’t have to say a word. . Caress my cheek from where you stand. you lift your hand. I feel your hands all over me.

The foolishness I left behind. And now my shell is all I have. The rest gone down the drain. Bare for all to see. I shed my skin. . You’ve taken all I have to give. But you don’t see me.WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME Here I stand out in front. just wasted time. My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. The years I lost. Requesting more so you can live. Emptied my soul. Still shaded by your tree. It’s over now. I gave my all for you to live. And you never saw me. My end is here.

. You are my summer. We bring forth our new ecstasy. A smile that warms the coldest night. No you and I. Our love is blossoming for all to see. A love so grand. living long it must. You are my winter. Please stay a while. built-in trust. You are my fall.SEASONS OF LOVE A light is shining bright. You are my spring. The heat I crave to feel at night. All is still. We from the start. A constant cold stuns my heart. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh. In the end it was always us. We have grown together. Existing even after the end. it’s just you and me.

I need the anger. I killed your love for me. You must understand my need to be here. I want to cry. Don’t want happiness here again. oh please.BROKEN Please. my worst fear. just let me be. I need to feel the pain inside of me. I’ve got to let the burn roam free. Just let me be. . Don’t want you to dry my eyes. So. Not bottle it up inside of me. The damage done won’t disappear. Just let this pain pierce my skin. please.

Our fingers intertwined. No worry about what could be heard. I would make a meal For you and me. You on my mind. I’d say. It would always be this way. Wash your feet Late that night.MY LAST DAY I would wake up a little late. gazing upon your face. Forever stay. Make love to you without saying a word. My love always. Feed you by hand. That I’d never leave. Silently gazing In your eyes. Enjoy the day. I would call in sick. I would promise you. Sitting by your side. . Open my eyes. Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. Me in your heart. Hold your hand.

That’s how I would spend My last day. .

Through thick and thin when times are hard.I WILL SHOW UP If I yell. I’ll show up. You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. I’ll show up. And I will always show up. The very last one to show up. just know I won’t be walking out the door. So when you’re mad as hell. it will be us. Face so mean. Till this life ends. You spit my name With twisted face. . I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you. You see I gave my word in front of God. You curse and scream. I will show up. if you yell. I’ll show up.

You can find someone else to fill those shoes. Just take me on into the room. So close your lips and take my hand. Lie down with me in this moment. I don’t want to be your girl. No. Yeah. I’m telling you. Cover me with ecstasy. And give me what I need. . we don’t have to talk or say a word. Just here for me to feel alright. It’s not my place to be her for you.WHAT I NEED No. it’s what you heard. Don’t want to chill or hang with you. And give me what I need. Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do. Not here to be your girl tonight.

Brightness everlasting. I am love. I will remain. And I will forge ahead.LOVE ALL OVER ME Smiling all twenty four. I am the Milky Way. I color the winter’s night. My glow shines through the darkness. Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me. Brighter than the night’s sky. . After the end. Cannot be dimmed.

Intoxicating. I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized.HYPNOTIZED Fine As the darkest wine. .

Don’t sell away your half from me. I’ll hold it down and set you free. Just like the day before. I fear. as well. A part-time love is not enough. Why do I compete With the streets. . Can’t compete with street life. I know my needs fall on deaf ears. A dozen women for a dime.SETTING YOU FREE Here I wait Today for you. God. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man. Love shouldn’t have to be this rough. Not just the night-time one you sell.

time for hell again. I hold on tight for the ride. Swinging and swaying to your moods. Nice at 8. Although the truth lies elsewhere. But it’s 1. Say forgive me this time. At 10:30. hell begins. And try to make it back from hell again. and I love you more than anything. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry. . I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry.HELL AND BACK I go through hell to be with you. Maybe this time is the last time. You say you’re sorry all the time. Pray to God that I don’t cry. nasty at 10. At 11:30. Time to put me back on track. I’m coming back.

Not giving up. But my conviction still remains strong. . too? I’ve been waiting oh so long. Even met some dogs. I wonder if you’re like me. Kissed so many frogs. I pray that you’re still looking. too. Out there trying to see.SEARCHING Where are you? Are you searching for me. And also trying to find me. If the perfect one waits somewhere for you. still searching.

It flows outside the lines. And just await your love’s surprise. But love can also be so sweet. It smiles at you and then frowns. . Can pick you up and be complete. And surprises you with no regrets. It takes you up. It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything. Pretends to stay. and Evaporates to your dismay. Love pulls you in. Enjoy the ride.LOVE’S SURPRISE Sometimes love throws you a curve. then drops you down. Sometimes love takes broader shape. So hold on tight. Refuses to be confined. It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect.

The queen I’m meant to be. Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do. Just what I’m meant to do. It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined. by my side. Tell me it’s all mine. I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. Give me the world. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time. Standing tall. . So glad to have you In my life. And I rule the roost. I tell you you’re The best at what you do. You show me how Real love should be with you.WE LIFT EACH OTHER You lift me up For the world to see.

You had a plan all the while. But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy. All others be damned.THE WARNING It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you. You pile it on Because I can take it. You’re having fun. Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile. Because your plan is number one. Pretend to care. And try to break me. Curse my name. . And then not care Who you hurt. Say some words.

I’d miss everything. “Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared. About you. I’d say to you. The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared.” . “My darling. The joy and laughter every night.MISSING YOU “What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say. The happiness I felt inside.

Separating you from the rest. You’re with me On my way. I inhale you on my shirt. Take you when I leave. You line the pleats of my skirt. So distinct. Whether night or day. your scent. An aroma only you possess.YOU WEAR IT WELL I wear you on my sleeve. That fragrence I know so well. you know. . Whether at work or at play. You follow me Through the day. Not Ivory or Irish Spring. That essence that I smell. And you wear it well. It’s not cologne or soap.

.NOT ALONE The games we play. Like children Not yet grown. And then we pray. Alone is not what we do. Can’t make it on our own. We hurt. The shit we say. Realizing It won’t work apart. Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through. We laugh.

I’m proud to see what you’ve become. This much I truly know. You don’t need to say it. I brought a new place for you. Because you are the best of me. Your life tells me so. A prize for all to see. With me. . And I know I make up the best of you. A freshness for our start.THE BEST OF ME I make up the best of you. The light replaced the dark. Order lives where chaos dwelled.

You try to move along. Hoping things are as good as new. you still see that link. you see. But that kink. Will forever change the way I now look at you. The chain contains a kink.TRUST It’s like a broken fence: When mended. Thinking that you’re done. Looking okay. Although repaired. .

For the chocolate and the caramel. You don’t even see. Skin of chocolate. With eyes of auburn.SHADES OF ME How can you not love me. I fear you love yourself More than you love me. . Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love.

It’s embedded between my thighs. I take you to another place.LOVE’S ESCAPE I know where your happiness lies. A world where only you escape: A world of beaches. . A world that rivals Disneyland. I’m ready now. And I wait With your love’s escape. Powder-white sand.

THE CHOICE The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. Not so simple to me. A simple choice It may seem. Is not simple In my eyes. Though simple it may be. A place Finally to be me. . To live in hell Or go be free.

Although you’re okay today. Face twisted mean. Don’t forget yesterday. Did you forget yesterday? A friend today. That voice appears and says. Did you forget yesterday? The screaming and the yelling. an enemy.DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY Every time it’s going good. . I truly thought you understood. So it may seem. Yesterday. No matter what a friend may say.

Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me. You can’t say yes. . Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess.WHAT WE DESERVE Do you deserve All that I do. Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I. to be with you? I can’t say no. Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve.

Truth is you’re not the one for me. And I’m not the one for you. I know it’s not what you want to hear. No time to cry. . Fully awake. We tried to make it work.THE TRUTH I’m sad today. So. Another smiling face. Because I see the truth. But. Life alone brings doubts and fears. But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you. You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. It may just be Around the corner. I fear. Your true love awaits. it’s not meant to be. dry your eyes.

. We’d never fight. In a perfect world. I’d always be right. I’d be all you see. Sadly. In a perfect world. In a perfect world. And sit by my side. today it’s not that way. Your love to give For me always. You’d only have eyes for me. You’d hold me tight. And I can only dream.A PERFECT WORLD In a perfect world. Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem. You’d agree with me. You’d forever stay. There would be no other for you. It’d be you and I.

YOUR EVERYTHING
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.

FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.

WE BELONG
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.

Women are cunning creatures you know.LYING IN WAIT I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies. For the right time. We lie in wait. You should have never estimated The power of my mind. It is so easy for me to smile. Believed that when you closed the door. It was fine to say goodbye. The perfect moment to strike. We plot our moves From the go. . Pretend I’m okay inside.

Hoping it’s not too late. Thought the day would never come. It hurts to be in this spot. Because you set me free. . You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had. Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day.MOVING ON I wait for you in the lot. That’s too damn bad. But I fear your mind’s made up. I can’t forget what we had. Now I sit and wait for you. Because it’s all I know. When you would let me go. Where I said I’d be.

. And sleep. You look into my eyes. I ask you all the time To treat me like I need.NOT YOUR FORTE I tell you I need more. Give me no reply. But I don’t think It will ever be. It’s not enough for me. Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte.

Alone with the truth after the fall. Although I know the truth. For the real you can never love me. . But … I wanted you.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. And now I sit. How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all. What I see Is not really you. so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show.

So you can finally see. That there are many more like me. And please. Think it’s all a big game. Miss what we had. You say you don’t care. You’re gonna miss me so damn bad. hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. Make your move. Yeah. you think you know it all. And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same. The way I kissed you late at night. I really hope you find her soon. . But time will tell.A LOVE LIKE MINE You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone. Go ahead.

Your love will make Me lose my mind. Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me.TERMINAL LOVE Your love will be The end of me. If I let it be. . If that’s what I let it do. Your love will kill My spirit. If I let it inside. too.

Holding my hand.THE LITTLE THINGS It’s the little things I appreciate. To live this life with you. I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do. And that I deserve the best. Showing me the man That you’re proud to be. It’s great to be by your side. They don’t have to cost a thing. Ignoring all the rest. You tell me that I’m beautiful. You’re blind to all that temptation outside. .

My spirit knows It’s your fault. You discourage me. Don’t want to hear my words. . Because all you thought about was you. My spirit grows. Because you need to be first. You don’t encourage me. I’m the one who made you into you. And it’s your fault. I let you do what you want to.LOVING ME My anger grows. I finally love me more that you do. My anger knows It’s my fault. And it’s my fault.

I will wait for love. I’m a fan of love. Although it’s not yet mine. Though it doesn’t live here no more. But it won’t knock at my door.A FAN OF LOVE I am a fan of love. I’d sit in the stands and cheer. Although it doesn’t live here. Because it waits somewhere for me. I still believe in love. Because I see it all the time. . I lay out the welcome mat for love. I will wait for love. I lay out the welcome mat for love. I still believe in love. Because someday love will set me free.

and you try To become you and I. Your world is nothing like The one I’m from. I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come. When I don’t even know your name. .A DIFFERENT CLOTH Cut from a different cloth. Tell me why you’re in my space. You try to live in my realty. A visitor from another place. Yet you came. If only in our eyes. Maybe that cloth Really is the same. But you won’t show your face. But we’re not meant to be. You and I are not the same.

Though the shitty lies you grab. Honesty is within your reach. So glad to have this new breakthrough. .PROMISES Promises you fail to keep Are all I have. It’s nowhere inside of you. To do what I have to do. I don’t know why I ask for truth.

There’s no you and me in us for you.NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE You can’t see me Past your superiority. I’m like a moth to your flame. But I’m tired of playing Your sick. I try and try to be What you want from me. I’m sick to hell of being under your spell. . It’s your way or the door. twisted game. Not taking your shit any more.

Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath. Can’t let me be in front. You sprint along.WINNING THE RACE I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight. Because you have to be first. First place is a space we both want. We’ll never be face-to-face. now by my side. Because we both want to win the race. Two peas of a different pod. . Trying to keep up.

POWER Looking through rose-colored glasses. I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections. . Co-existence is the only power You hold over me. I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely.

Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for. Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts. . indeed. Why don’t I feel comfortable.SING FOR YOU Why don’t I sing for you? A good question. but the one I should let go.

Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh. The jokes are all at my expense. Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love.LOVE Love. . Love. And set me free. how you love to tell your lovely lies. Let loose your hold of me. Love. Just break your chains. What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh. I laugh along in my defense.

With nothing else.REMEMBERING LOVE Remember when Love was enough. A time I surely miss. . When unity was a goal. A time of unrivaled bliss. Surviving by itself. Even when times were tough? It got you through. Family meant we were whole.

You try to read my face. And we’ve both paid the cost. Because we never speak.LOST LIVES Here we go again. The seconds. I smile. I hold my breath. Yet nothing was said. Just like the day before. days. And here we are In elder years. You stare at the floor. So much to say. . I look elsewhere instead. Still alone. minutes. But nothing’s said. Our whole lives lost. hours. So much to say. We drift together. you grin. Turning into weeks.

How I cherish you. I think of you before I rest. Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said: I can’t live my life without Having you by my side.MY WIFE You bought me flowers today: Roses. . pink and red. With you is where my heart lies. You are the reason why I work so hard. My wife. I try my best. Although I seldom tell you so.

Call her a bitch. I disappear with every word you say.KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS I lose a piece of me every day. How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her. Curse her name. But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside. . And you think they’re just words. Or use my fists.

And even love my kids. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often. He’d cherish them because they were mine. He wouldn’t see anyone else. That man I made for me. I wouldn’t want for anything. He’d cherish the ground I walked on. . A perfect world For him and me. Live together happily. He’d love every part of me. It wouldn’t matter if they were his. He’d always take care of me. Put me before himself.THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME Oh. No one else would matter.

LIFE .

And so.I PUT YOU FIRST You’ve been there Since day one. so I may rise. Supporting me until the end. And I’ll always put you first. You guide. Lord. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day. And so. I put your first. I lead My life in Your hands. In you. this is why I will believe With Your Word. Guiding me along the way. I have a faithful friend. Whether I am right or wrong. I put you first. I put you first. Bring me light after the dark. Let me laugh after I’ve cried. You’re by my side. Get me through to a new start. You let me fall. as I carry on. And so. . that’s the way it will be.

He knows the goings on inside of me. the path I walk. And I thought I knew it all. My whole world. he’s taken hold. I don’t know nothing anymore. Mouths the words before I talk. With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day. He is the Lord above.FAITH He came today and shook my soul. Says what I think before I do. He knows my mind. He’s got my map. predicts my moves. He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break. He has my unwavering faith. . I think he’s psychic see.

No matter how hard you try. If asked. you know. A cover will not work. Won’t stay inside. It’s impossible to hide a lie.LIES AND TRUTH The truth is the light. It shines so bright. A lie won’t hide. Sets me free. . I would have told you so. Rains down on me. You can’t contain What will remain.

Realizing who I am. Yes. Flipping a script You no longer own. So that confidence. powering my soul. Now I’m free. Was in a fog. The square peg now fits the hole. Can’t keep me down no more. Took years to find. Has built a wall that can’t be broken. For the entire world to see. Screaming to me in my own song. ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be. I can’t lie low. .REALIZATION The beauty of it all. The chains are gone. Who I am inside. but now I see The truth I bought now sold. I got it now.

Like the way That evil does. through the fog I can’t see. finally. I try to fight. The pain will end. Now is the end for me. I’ll be with you forever now. breathlessly. too. It’s all around.ENDING THE PAIN This world of pain. And I cannot escape. Stealing my light. So I say my last goodbye. Everywhere. Killing my mind And spirit. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today. But. A better place awaits me. All consuming. Staining the air. So much to bear. .

So I block it and stay inside. Start my task with one woman. Enough to drive the sane insane. It calls to me and screams my name. . Everyone’s fighting or arguing. Can’t let this dark swallow my light. same old thing.CHANGING ME I couldn’t watch the news today. Someone’s missing. I vow to do the best I can. Guess I’ll listen to radio instead. I’ll start my fight by changing me. Or found dead. I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. For fear of what it might say. But radio’s no better. Live by his word and let him see.

After all the blood had dried. But blood is not enough. The pain still wouldn’t go away. I’m the one it killed. . The one underneath’s too tough. Finally free. Now I’m gone. I had to go because it stayed. Now my pain has gone away.BREAKING FREE I try to cut the pain away. Although it hurt. I couldn’t cry. I took the pain away with me. I pierce the layer that I see. Cutting deeper still. The pain inside just wouldn’t die. I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay.

MY SON SHINES Long ago I dreamt of you. Before you were inside. For the other half of you. I held you tight and kissed your cheek. But through it all. I stood tall. By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away. Here I stand forever. . Only the mixture that I needed. The love I thought I had to have. Although you were not yet mine. You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues. I feared it was not true. A battle I couldn’t lose.

.KNOWING ME Do you really know who I am. Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know. Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me. me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me.

Made for sin. Please play for me. Dance with me tonight. Dance with me tonight. It moves my feet. I feel the beat. My arms they sway That away. It moves my hips. . Dance with me tonight. Your song instead. The rhythm stirs Inside my head.DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT I feel the music From deep within.

What younger ones can’t fare. . So hold them tight. We older folks can tolerate. They’ll wish we stopped you just in time. Pain can be an awful thing. So here is where they’ll stay. It’s sad to know your time is done. Though your beauty will last always.TOO SOON Gone too soon. Help them push the pain aside. We didn’t have you long. Your will was not as strong. Sometimes too much to bare. And let them know An early end’s no way to go. To make sure you were still here. But many will always care.

THE BROWN WIDOW You wait for me In the dark. But you’re too quick. I knew you were there After all. Hoping you snoozed. You lay still. You strike so fast. You’re poisonous. . I wait till day To go your way. Await my move. Why did I go? I should have paused. Too many eyes Cover me. I hold my breath. I approach. Hoping you’re asleep.

. It will be just right. Take your time. Live your best life now. DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight.THE TIME IS NOW Slow down.

Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. Our inner superstar Was always there inside. take a peak. Years later we get another glimpse. it lies inside.INNER SUPERSTAR We possess it early on. Where it shines the best. Residing where it’s meant to be. And then peaked out often. Remembering where it first shined. Specific to each owner. After we have forgotten. But often forget where it lies. We get a glimpse. . Dormant. It differs from the rest.

LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL Life tries to take the wheel. But then we find courage inside And turn it all around. But we get in the way. Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down. We make a turn on our own. Its view widens so we may see. Be patient. Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. Listen for what life has in store. Without listening to what it has to say. It shows its face in elder years. . While hiding in our youth. Life’s not all a mystery.

I’m so sorry I was wrong. until tomorrow.TOO LATE You were mine On borrowed time. And you’re gone. I took for granted you’d be here. At least. Now tomorrow’s here. This I didn’t know. . Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so.

AHA MOMENT Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise. . spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do.

I’m an aubergine. Black or white. you know.COLORS OF ME There are many Shades of me. . Relaxed for when I sleep. I shine brightly for all to see. Like many colors of the rainbow. A softer shade. A range of shades for everything. When ready. When wide awake. Neon bright. a light yellow. I change from day-to-day. Growing daily like the evergreen. I can be any hue I want to be. A blue for when I’m feeling low. A darker color when we fight. They cover you And color me.

And it makes up The best of me. Living. I think in rhyme. Thinking. It sings to me from deep inside. Is all poetry to me. The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow. breathing poetry . I don’t know how Or even why. rhyming All the time.A POET’S SONG I live in verse. The sadness that you may see.

barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath. . The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow. Shine from underneath? Is it dim.BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH Just how bright Is your light.

Inside that room lives poetry. It says to me. It embraces me. It offers me a place to stay. It sets me free. And offers me its words to eat. It comforts me. Then takes my coat. Says take a seat. I am your friend. Encourages me With its warm smile. And says Please come back any day. . I open up. Then sings to me In special notes. Says stay awhile. It invites me in.POETRY LIVES HERE A door has opened up for me.

The wisdom I possess. or shock you. I am life. The comfort of my embrace. That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss. offend. And I know my worth. The knowledge I give. It’s because I am beauty. The pleasures I possess. I am woman.KNOWING MY WORTH Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice. . Knowing that your fears. I can erase? If I frighten. Curve of my waist. The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back. Shape of my thighs.

One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth. Rewarded with so many qualities. Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man. We are the best of all beings. Forgetting it. you should abhor.OF ALL BEINGS Fellow women of today. .

Thinking of how it will be.THE LONG ROAD HOME I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead. Did mostly as I pleased. Every road must come to an end. I can’t wait for mine. Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me. . My destination is on my mind. Happiness and long-lost friends. Held some hands along the way. What a lovely ride. I smile and hold it inside. A sight I almost see.

THE SOUND OF SIGNS I hear the birds chirping.” The willow weeps. Sounds fully. Listen closely. As if to say. The signs are there For you to see. Close your eyes. As if saying to me. “Your time is here. Giving the breeze What it needs. . “The time has come For you to leave. It is today.” The tree breaths.

What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man. . What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot. I’ve grabbed my pen. This is not a test. It’s not too late.A CALL TO ARMS *STOP* Turn off your television set. Or we all lose.

My home is where I chose to be. My home is where I leave my heart. My home can be one place or a few. Where true love lives.HOME My home is where I lay my head And pray at night. My home may just be with you. Beside the bed. Where happiness lives Indefinitely. Though we’re apart. .

This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet. And miss out on the better prize. And in our haste. We turn away. So easy to believe a lie. But what lies inside. . The better prize. Open your foolish eyes. Although it seems quite odd. It passes instantly.THE BETTER PRIZE The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade. We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone. Should crown our lover’s throne. A trick used to confuse the mind. Ignorant to what’s inside.

My body’s weary. But I know things will be fine. And I know more will surely come. Save some work. . I’ve seen this day before.RELAXING MY MIND Been a long day. I’m tired already. Unfortunately. I remember to relax today. too. that’s the way life goes. Try to balance both and remain whole. Time to sit and rest my mind. Spirit. add some play.

and I stay safe. Surrounded by my friends. It should be tired of me. Why won’t it set me free? . Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free. And pray trouble runs out of time. Where all is calm. I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been. I’ve given up on happiness. It must lie somewhere else.TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME Trouble road begins at my door. So I continue to Keep hope alive. And I know nothing else. Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me.

As I brace For the crash. You’re driving too fast. Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape. Away I go To a better place. And then thank God I learned to fly. No space for me. You’re speeding now. . I close my eyes. Look to the sky. To ride with you. How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on. Without your brakes. There is no room. Even the belt Won’t keep me safe. You smile at me And hit the gas.THE GREATEST ESCAPE Slow down for me.

I wait until it’s dark. Can never take the leap.THE FALL Land mines. Afraid to make a sound. Covering your insides. So much to lose. afterall. Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two. everything I’ve got. The snipers waiting for that clear shot. Worried about the fall. . Worried I’ll be found. Premeditated steps I take with no regrets.

Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know. We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go. Hope our move won’t make a mess. Make your move. That moment is meant just for you To make your move.MAKING MOVES Every now and then. . We wish for the best. And we’re finally on track. Then we realize The move was just right. Don’t be afraid. You’re right where you need to be. Don’t be scared to let go. Take a step and not look back. Scared to make a move. Do what you say.

Or what they tried to say.WINNING THE RACE I’ve wasted too much time. Light miles ahead. Although my mouth is closed. Life just passes by. And now half my life’s Just floated away. The final bell has rung. It never waits. I’ve already won the race. My eyes are opened wide. And now the time is here For me to finally shine. . I never saw the signs. Focused on today. It’s time to take my rightful place.

You know I’m really into it. indeed. I’m glad I have you in my life. A true friend. You call me. Taking it all in. And I need you there. I need you to show me Just how I should be. . The times we share. Because when I need someone to vent to. You listen when I talk. You always take my call.TRUE FRIENDS I call you. Even when I want to vent About nothing at all. But we’re just friends. It’s so innocent.

There are times When we may find Some things troubling. We need to learn What to say.KEEPING SECRETS Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing. . Often times Those little things Should remain a secret. And what things we should keep.

WITHOUT DOUBTS
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.

ANGER
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.

MY MOVES
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.

I’m coming in! . So much to do. Hold the door. No more sitting still for me today. Ready for me to begin.FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD Listen up! I got lots to say. So little time. Too much for me to hold inside.

When you come for me. . I will be ready. When you come for me. I’m looking forward to the trip ahead. In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again. Waiting for you to take me to some other place. I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go. I’m tired today. This life has gotten really bad. I won’t be sad. When you come for me.WHEN YOU COME FOR ME When you come for me.

Guess I’m in too deep. Desire being my excuse. Loving the way That I confuse. Can’t get rid of me. . You open up. Just how a smudge succeeds.A MERE SMUDGE I’m a smudge on your window pane. Giving in to your every want and need. but don’t know what to say.

Locked away indefinitely. . You say. Not knowing poison’s inside. “Celebrate with me. But I’m the one that pays the toll. That I can’t survive on my own. Drink my wine. Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape.A PRISONER’S LIFE I want to be free. accept your smile. You say it’ll never be. I try and try To live your life. A prisoner’s life is what I lead.” I take a sip.

AT A CROSSROADS Here I am. All at once. And That’s just what I’ll do. Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be. Either way. . it’ll be done. I’ll guide you. It hit me hard. A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go. And I finally see. I hear. Make your move. No one to help me with this one. Decision time tonight. Close your eyes.

I’ve got to drive those blues away. I can’t always be afraid.DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY Sad songs are all I heard. Year after year. They silenced all the tears. . Too scared to move. From this life I need more. Arguments. They didn’t live here. Mainly out of fear. Awkward distance. And I held on. So they don’t live here no more. Happiness and joyful days.

HOW How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning? .

. And pain’s waiting At another’s door. too. That bell it rings. Because nothing ever lasts Of pain. Consuming who it occupies. too.IT. It. TOO. SHALL PASS Pain can’t last forever. shall pass. Taking over everything. But … It. It’s got places to go. shall pass. Till only it survives. Making you believe you died.

Holding onto my pride. For the misery in store.HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE I try to hold my head above water. Try not to let the weight get me down. I suit up for the war. Every day is a fight for me. Fight to keep it all in order. . And I fight with my head high. Try to turn it all around. But the price I pay is worth being free.

We don’t see What lies within. Mistakes that others seem to make. Although we are among friends. So afraid of being called out our name. Believing those wicked smiles.OUR DOWNFALL We are a sad society: So quick to judge. Such a wicked game to play. Point fingers. Our downfall in the end. It’s become customary To point out all the flaws. All the while hiding ours. Skirt the blame. .

BEING FREE I won’t let you change who I am. The only way truly to be free. . Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be.

Don’t know how long it’s been. Concentrating on what I’m meant to do. My world finally mine. I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine. Remembering who I was. What treasures lied within. Picked up where I had left off.MY WORLD Sometime ago I lost myself. Forgot who I was inside. My eyes are open now. . Now it’s time for me to grow. Just the way a record does. This thought had become commonplace. It’s how I lived my life. Time for me to shine.

I know. Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine. .MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine. Although it tries to hide. It’s there. See … I’m making it my goal.

Nearly broken. My spirit nearly broken. So glad that I had faith. Hope not within my reach. I begin again. Thought there was no escape. But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat.NEARLY BROKEN Thought it was the end of me. . But I’m on the mend. My mind said all was lost. As the pieces began to mend.

She loves me more than anything. She knows how much I meant to her. and a wife. daughter. Because she knows her worth. . A mother. That friend I’ve found is me. the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while. She’s happy.MY FRIEND Oh. She’s beautiful And full of life.

One right-side up. .THE SMILE AND THE FROWN Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown. Saying everything With just a smirk. The other upside down. The stories they tell Without saying a word.

Memories barely keep me warm. Instead. I remain lonely.REMAINING LONELY Loneliness. I’d rather have my love with me. The love I lost. I’ll forever mourn. Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip. Loosen your lover’s grip. . have mercy on me.

FEAR INSIDE I challenge you To sit in silence. Close your eyes. Visualize it’s there In front of you. What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside? . Take a sigh. Imagine your worst fear.

EMMA LEE
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.

FREEDOM
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.

TODAY
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.

I should say How I feel. . Until you walk through my door. My time no longer mine.WAITING All I do Is wait around for you. Waiting once more. I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time. But to you. So here I sit. feelings are no big deal.

SINGING TODAY FOR YOU Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time. . Because this I’m thankful for. So I sing today for you. you know.

Though I don’t listen any more. Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out.NOT LISTENING Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago. Yet your mouth moves constantly. I don’t care what you have to say. . I’m not listening anyway.

You watch and study me.WINDOW TO MY SOUL I see you Through the window to my soul. . Loving everything I am. You know me Better Than I ever could know. And what I’m meant to be. Taking in all you see. Looking through The window to my soul.

Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud? You’re pretty for a black girl. Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth.PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL You’re pretty for a black girl. . Am I supposed to smile. You’re pretty for a black girl. Thank you for letting me know. What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me? You’re pretty for a black girl. Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more.

you are beautiful. Thought I should let you know. Thought I should tell you so. Beauty lying inside and out.FOR MY SISTERS My sister. you know. . Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen.

This place we’ve gotten to somehow. Even if we’ve forgotten.THE TIME IS NOW The only time we have is now. To feel how it should be. Seeing all we’re meant to see. . The time we have is now. To show each other why we’re here. To share all we’ve got.

short stories. Glonka. She writes poetry. “The Amazing Mr. . and songs.BIO Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school. Her first publication was a short story entitled.” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten. She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons.