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Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved. ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition .
Blake. The world is yours. Mom . Make your mark.For my boys. Brandon. and Jaden. Devante. I love you.
CONTENTS Title Page Copyright Page LOVE Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone .
The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You .
LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me LIFE I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song .
Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How .
It. too. Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now .
You are my light Through the dark. By loving you. All you have to do is ask. I do it all. Wash your clothes. Giving you more than my last. My world expands. What lovers do. I make your food. Be your lover and more.LOVING YOU As you awake. I smile for you. Handle with care. Bake your bread. As you breathe. I leave my mark. For you. I live for you At your command. Clean the floors. .
My evil eyes are full of spite. Only anger in this place. . All thanks to you. heartless. Bitter through and through. Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth.THANKS TO YOU Cold. The monster made. All thanks to you. Rotten to the very core. Blacker than the darkest night.
Felling the heat between you and me. I quench your thirst. My hips move to your beat. it heaves to my surprise. Your gaze has only reached my thighs. Don’t have to say a word. And you haven’t said a word. you lift your hand. I see the way you look at me. . Licking your lips. I see your eyes start at my feet. Now face-to-face. I kiss your lips. Caress my cheek from where you stand. I feel your hands all over me. woman and man. And still not a word. My chest.WITHOUT WORDS I know you like what you see. You didn’t have to say a word.
It’s over now. . My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. just wasted time. Bare for all to see. And now my shell is all I have. And you never saw me. But you don’t see me. Still shaded by your tree. The foolishness I left behind.WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME Here I stand out in front. The rest gone down the drain. I gave my all for you to live. The years I lost. Requesting more so you can live. Emptied my soul. You’ve taken all I have to give. I shed my skin. My end is here.
A constant cold stuns my heart. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh. We bring forth our new ecstasy. No you and I.SEASONS OF LOVE A light is shining bright. You are my summer. All is still. Please stay a while. living long it must. The heat I crave to feel at night. A love so grand. We from the start. You are my fall. You are my spring. Our love is blossoming for all to see. A smile that warms the coldest night. built-in trust. We have grown together. You are my winter. . Existing even after the end. it’s just you and me. In the end it was always us.
The damage done won’t disappear. I want to cry. Just let this pain pierce my skin. So. I killed your love for me. Not bottle it up inside of me. I need to feel the pain inside of me. Just let me be. just let me be.BROKEN Please. I need the anger. my worst fear. I’ve got to let the burn roam free. please. . You must understand my need to be here. oh please. Don’t want happiness here again. Don’t want you to dry my eyes.
I would call in sick. My love always. Silently gazing In your eyes. Feed you by hand. . I’d say. Our fingers intertwined. gazing upon your face. I would promise you. I would make a meal For you and me. Wash your feet Late that night. Sitting by your side. No worry about what could be heard. Enjoy the day. Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. Forever stay. Open my eyes. Me in your heart.MY LAST DAY I would wake up a little late. Hold your hand. It would always be this way. Make love to you without saying a word. You on my mind. That I’d never leave.
That’s how I would spend My last day. .
I’ll show up. I will show up. if you yell. And I will always show up. I’ll show up. Face so mean. Through thick and thin when times are hard.I WILL SHOW UP If I yell. You see I gave my word in front of God. You curse and scream. You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. Till this life ends. So when you’re mad as hell. . I’ll show up. it will be us. I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you. The very last one to show up. You spit my name With twisted face. just know I won’t be walking out the door.
So close your lips and take my hand.WHAT I NEED No. You can find someone else to fill those shoes. I’m telling you. it’s what you heard. Don’t want to chill or hang with you. No. we don’t have to talk or say a word. Cover me with ecstasy. Just here for me to feel alright. It’s not my place to be her for you. And give me what I need. Not here to be your girl tonight. . I don’t want to be your girl. Just take me on into the room. Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do. Yeah. And give me what I need. Lie down with me in this moment.
Brightness everlasting. . My glow shines through the darkness. I will remain.LOVE ALL OVER ME Smiling all twenty four. And I will forge ahead. Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me. After the end. Cannot be dimmed. Brighter than the night’s sky. I am love. I am the Milky Way. I color the winter’s night.
Intoxicating. I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized.HYPNOTIZED Fine As the darkest wine. .
A dozen women for a dime. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol. I fear. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man. Don’t sell away your half from me. . I’ll hold it down and set you free. I know my needs fall on deaf ears. God. A part-time love is not enough. Not just the night-time one you sell. Just like the day before.SETTING YOU FREE Here I wait Today for you. Love shouldn’t have to be this rough. Can’t compete with street life. Why do I compete With the streets. as well.
You say you’re sorry all the time. and I love you more than anything. Say forgive me this time. Nice at 8. Maybe this time is the last time. But it’s 1. . I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry. I’m coming back. nasty at 10. time for hell again. Time to put me back on track. Although the truth lies elsewhere. Pray to God that I don’t cry. hell begins. Swinging and swaying to your moods. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry.HELL AND BACK I go through hell to be with you. At 10:30. I hold on tight for the ride. And try to make it back from hell again. At 11:30.
If the perfect one waits somewhere for you. I wonder if you’re like me. Kissed so many frogs. I pray that you’re still looking. still searching. But my conviction still remains strong. Not giving up. Out there trying to see. too? I’ve been waiting oh so long. And also trying to find me. Even met some dogs. . too.SEARCHING Where are you? Are you searching for me.
It takes you up. So hold on tight. and Evaporates to your dismay. Sometimes love takes broader shape. It flows outside the lines. Enjoy the ride. And surprises you with no regrets. Pretends to stay. And just await your love’s surprise. Can pick you up and be complete. It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect. But love can also be so sweet. Love pulls you in. It smiles at you and then frowns. Refuses to be confined. It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything.LOVE’S SURPRISE Sometimes love throws you a curve. then drops you down. .
You tell me I’m beautiful all the time. by my side. You show me how Real love should be with you. It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined. Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do. And I rule the roost. Give me the world. Tell me it’s all mine. Just what I’m meant to do. Standing tall. The queen I’m meant to be.WE LIFT EACH OTHER You lift me up For the world to see. . I tell you you’re The best at what you do. So glad to have you In my life. I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do.
You pile it on Because I can take it. And try to break me. You had a plan all the while. And then not care Who you hurt.THE WARNING It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you. Say some words. . But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy. You’re having fun. Curse my name. Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile. All others be damned. Pretend to care. Because your plan is number one.
The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared. The happiness I felt inside. About you.MISSING YOU “What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say. I’d say to you. I’d miss everything. The joy and laughter every night. “My darling.” . “Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared.
YOU WEAR IT WELL I wear you on my sleeve. That fragrence I know so well. You follow me Through the day. An aroma only you possess. I inhale you on my shirt. Whether at work or at play. That essence that I smell. It’s not cologne or soap. Separating you from the rest. Not Ivory or Irish Spring. your scent. You line the pleats of my skirt. You’re with me On my way. you know. Take you when I leave. So distinct. Whether night or day. . And you wear it well.
We hurt. We laugh. The shit we say. . Realizing It won’t work apart. And then we pray.NOT ALONE The games we play. Like children Not yet grown. Alone is not what we do. Can’t make it on our own. Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through.
A freshness for our start.THE BEST OF ME I make up the best of you. Because you are the best of me. With me. The light replaced the dark. . I’m proud to see what you’ve become. This much I truly know. You don’t need to say it. And I know I make up the best of you. A prize for all to see. Order lives where chaos dwelled. I brought a new place for you. Your life tells me so.
Looking okay. Will forever change the way I now look at you. you see. . You try to move along.TRUST It’s like a broken fence: When mended. Although repaired. Thinking that you’re done. The chain contains a kink. But that kink. Hoping things are as good as new. you still see that link.
SHADES OF ME How can you not love me. For the chocolate and the caramel. Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love. I fear you love yourself More than you love me. You don’t even see. With eyes of auburn. Skin of chocolate. .
I’m ready now.LOVE’S ESCAPE I know where your happiness lies. I take you to another place. It’s embedded between my thighs. Powder-white sand. A world that rivals Disneyland. . A world where only you escape: A world of beaches. And I wait With your love’s escape.
Is not simple In my eyes. Not so simple to me. A simple choice It may seem. Though simple it may be. A place Finally to be me. To live in hell Or go be free.THE CHOICE The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. .
DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY Every time it’s going good. No matter what a friend may say. So it may seem. Face twisted mean. I truly thought you understood. an enemy. Although you’re okay today. Don’t forget yesterday. . Did you forget yesterday? The screaming and the yelling. Yesterday. Did you forget yesterday? A friend today. That voice appears and says.
Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess. to be with you? I can’t say no.WHAT WE DESERVE Do you deserve All that I do. Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me. You can’t say yes. . Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I. Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve.
Your true love awaits. Another smiling face. And I’m not the one for you. I fear. It may just be Around the corner. Life alone brings doubts and fears. No time to cry. Truth is you’re not the one for me. Fully awake. We tried to make it work. But.THE TRUTH I’m sad today. Because I see the truth. I know it’s not what you want to hear. So. it’s not meant to be. You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you. . dry your eyes.
You’d only have eyes for me. Sadly. . I’d always be right. You’d forever stay. In a perfect world. You’d agree with me. It’d be you and I. And sit by my side. I’d be all you see. Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem. There would be no other for you. You’d hold me tight. Your love to give For me always. We’d never fight. today it’s not that way. And I can only dream. In a perfect world. In a perfect world.A PERFECT WORLD In a perfect world.
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.
FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.
For the right time. We plot our moves From the go. It is so easy for me to smile. Believed that when you closed the door.LYING IN WAIT I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies. We lie in wait. . It was fine to say goodbye. You should have never estimated The power of my mind. The perfect moment to strike. Women are cunning creatures you know. Pretend I’m okay inside.
Where I said I’d be. You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had.MOVING ON I wait for you in the lot. I can’t forget what we had. Hoping it’s not too late. . But I fear your mind’s made up. Because it’s all I know. It hurts to be in this spot. Because you set me free. When you would let me go. Thought the day would never come. That’s too damn bad. Now I sit and wait for you. Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day.
I ask you all the time To treat me like I need. Give me no reply. Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte. . But I don’t think It will ever be. It’s not enough for me. And sleep. You look into my eyes.NOT YOUR FORTE I tell you I need more.
Although I know the truth. so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show. And now I sit. What I see Is not really you.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. . How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all. Alone with the truth after the fall. For the real you can never love me. But … I wanted you.
. hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. The way I kissed you late at night. Yeah. I really hope you find her soon. Think it’s all a big game. Miss what we had. Go ahead. And please. You say you don’t care. That there are many more like me. You’re gonna miss me so damn bad.A LOVE LIKE MINE You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone. So you can finally see. And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same. Make your move. But time will tell. you think you know it all.
Your love will kill My spirit. If that’s what I let it do. .TERMINAL LOVE Your love will be The end of me. Your love will make Me lose my mind. Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me. too. If I let it be. If I let it inside.
To live this life with you.THE LITTLE THINGS It’s the little things I appreciate. They don’t have to cost a thing. . You tell me that I’m beautiful. It’s great to be by your side. Holding my hand. And that I deserve the best. Ignoring all the rest. Showing me the man That you’re proud to be. I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do. You’re blind to all that temptation outside.
Because you need to be first. You don’t encourage me. . My spirit knows It’s your fault. You discourage me. And it’s my fault. Because all you thought about was you. Don’t want to hear my words. I’m the one who made you into you. And it’s your fault. My spirit grows. I finally love me more that you do.LOVING ME My anger grows. My anger knows It’s my fault. I let you do what you want to.
I still believe in love. I will wait for love. I’m a fan of love. I still believe in love. Because I see it all the time. I lay out the welcome mat for love. Although it’s not yet mine. But it won’t knock at my door.A FAN OF LOVE I am a fan of love. . Though it doesn’t live here no more. Because someday love will set me free. Although it doesn’t live here. I will wait for love. I’d sit in the stands and cheer. Because it waits somewhere for me. I lay out the welcome mat for love.
Your world is nothing like The one I’m from. Yet you came. But we’re not meant to be. I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come. and you try To become you and I. Maybe that cloth Really is the same. You and I are not the same. You try to live in my realty. A visitor from another place. But you won’t show your face. When I don’t even know your name. If only in our eyes. .A DIFFERENT CLOTH Cut from a different cloth. Tell me why you’re in my space.
I don’t know why I ask for truth. Honesty is within your reach. Though the shitty lies you grab. So glad to have this new breakthrough.PROMISES Promises you fail to keep Are all I have. It’s nowhere inside of you. To do what I have to do. .
I’m like a moth to your flame. I try and try to be What you want from me. It’s your way or the door.NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE You can’t see me Past your superiority. But I’m tired of playing Your sick. I’m sick to hell of being under your spell. . twisted game. Not taking your shit any more. There’s no you and me in us for you.
Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath. First place is a space we both want. Two peas of a different pod. Can’t let me be in front.WINNING THE RACE I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight. . Because you have to be first. Because we both want to win the race. You sprint along. We’ll never be face-to-face. Trying to keep up. now by my side.
POWER Looking through rose-colored glasses. Co-existence is the only power You hold over me. I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections. I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely. .
SING FOR YOU Why don’t I sing for you? A good question. Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for. Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts. . Why don’t I feel comfortable. indeed. but the one I should let go.
Let loose your hold of me. I laugh along in my defense. And set me free. how you love to tell your lovely lies. Love. Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love. .LOVE Love. What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh. Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh. The jokes are all at my expense. Love. Just break your chains.
Even when times were tough? It got you through. .REMEMBERING LOVE Remember when Love was enough. When unity was a goal. A time of unrivaled bliss. Family meant we were whole. Surviving by itself. With nothing else. A time I surely miss.
Because we never speak. We drift together. I smile. Turning into weeks. minutes. You stare at the floor. Yet nothing was said. days. Just like the day before. So much to say. you grin. So much to say.LOST LIVES Here we go again. Our whole lives lost. hours. And we’ve both paid the cost. You try to read my face. I look elsewhere instead. But nothing’s said. I hold my breath. And here we are In elder years. . The seconds. Still alone.
MY WIFE You bought me flowers today: Roses. Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said: I can’t live my life without Having you by my side. pink and red. My wife. Although I seldom tell you so. I think of you before I rest. How I cherish you. I try my best. You are the reason why I work so hard. With you is where my heart lies. .
But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside. Or use my fists. . How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her. Curse her name.KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS I lose a piece of me every day. Call her a bitch. And you think they’re just words. I disappear with every word you say.
how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often. It wouldn’t matter if they were his. He’d love every part of me. Live together happily. Put me before himself. He’d cherish the ground I walked on. I wouldn’t want for anything. He’d cherish them because they were mine. A perfect world For him and me. He’d always take care of me. No one else would matter.THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME Oh. That man I made for me. And even love my kids. . He wouldn’t see anyone else.
I put your first. that’s the way it will be. Bring me light after the dark. In you. this is why I will believe With Your Word. I have a faithful friend. You let me fall. And I’ll always put you first. And so. .I PUT YOU FIRST You’ve been there Since day one. as I carry on. Supporting me until the end. Let me laugh after I’ve cried. I put you first. I put you first. You guide. And so. Guiding me along the way. I lead My life in Your hands. And so. Get me through to a new start. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day. so I may rise. You’re by my side. Whether I am right or wrong. Lord.
He has my unwavering faith. . Mouths the words before I talk. he’s taken hold. He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break. He is the Lord above.FAITH He came today and shook my soul. the path I walk. And I thought I knew it all. He knows my mind. I don’t know nothing anymore. My whole world. He knows the goings on inside of me. Says what I think before I do. With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day. predicts my moves. He’s got my map. I think he’s psychic see.
It shines so bright. Sets me free. It’s impossible to hide a lie. you know. Rains down on me. You can’t contain What will remain. . I would have told you so.LIES AND TRUTH The truth is the light. A lie won’t hide. Won’t stay inside. No matter how hard you try. If asked. A cover will not work.
The chains are gone. Realizing who I am. Now I’m free. For the entire world to see. I can’t lie low. . Can’t keep me down no more. Has built a wall that can’t be broken. Took years to find.REALIZATION The beauty of it all. I got it now. Yes. ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be. powering my soul. The square peg now fits the hole. Flipping a script You no longer own. Who I am inside. Was in a fog. So that confidence. Screaming to me in my own song. but now I see The truth I bought now sold.
too. . breathlessly. Everywhere. The pain will end. through the fog I can’t see. I’ll be with you forever now. A better place awaits me. Like the way That evil does. It’s all around. But. Staining the air. Stealing my light. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today. So much to bear. So I say my last goodbye. All consuming. finally. Killing my mind And spirit. Now is the end for me. And I cannot escape. I try to fight.ENDING THE PAIN This world of pain.
Enough to drive the sane insane. Live by his word and let him see. I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. But radio’s no better. Can’t let this dark swallow my light.CHANGING ME I couldn’t watch the news today. So I block it and stay inside. same old thing. It calls to me and screams my name. Everyone’s fighting or arguing. Start my task with one woman. Guess I’ll listen to radio instead. Or found dead. Someone’s missing. I’ll start my fight by changing me. . For fear of what it might say. I vow to do the best I can.
Although it hurt. The one underneath’s too tough. Now my pain has gone away. Cutting deeper still. Finally free. The pain inside just wouldn’t die. Now I’m gone. I’m the one it killed. I had to go because it stayed. I couldn’t cry. But blood is not enough. After all the blood had dried. I took the pain away with me. I pierce the layer that I see.BREAKING FREE I try to cut the pain away. The pain still wouldn’t go away. I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay. .
I stood tall. But through it all. The love I thought I had to have. I held you tight and kissed your cheek. I feared it was not true. Before you were inside. You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues. By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away. Only the mixture that I needed. Although you were not yet mine. . A battle I couldn’t lose.MY SON SHINES Long ago I dreamt of you. For the other half of you. Here I stand forever.
KNOWING ME Do you really know who I am. . me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me. Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know. Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me.
It moves my hips.DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT I feel the music From deep within. Dance with me tonight. It moves my feet. Dance with me tonight. Your song instead. My arms they sway That away. Made for sin. I feel the beat. Dance with me tonight. The rhythm stirs Inside my head. . Please play for me.
And let them know An early end’s no way to go. What younger ones can’t fare. Pain can be an awful thing. We older folks can tolerate.TOO SOON Gone too soon. Your will was not as strong. Help them push the pain aside. Though your beauty will last always. It’s sad to know your time is done. So hold them tight. So here is where they’ll stay. Sometimes too much to bare. But many will always care. We didn’t have you long. They’ll wish we stopped you just in time. To make sure you were still here. .
I approach. I hold my breath. You strike so fast. Hoping you snoozed. I knew you were there After all. You’re poisonous. But you’re too quick. Hoping you’re asleep. Await my move. Too many eyes Cover me. . I wait till day To go your way.THE BROWN WIDOW You wait for me In the dark. Why did I go? I should have paused. You lay still.
Live your best life now. Take your time. .THE TIME IS NOW Slow down. DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight. It will be just right.
But often forget where it lies. . Our inner superstar Was always there inside. take a peak.INNER SUPERSTAR We possess it early on. It differs from the rest. Where it shines the best. Remembering where it first shined. Years later we get another glimpse. Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. We get a glimpse. Residing where it’s meant to be. And then peaked out often. After we have forgotten. Specific to each owner. it lies inside. Dormant.
But we get in the way. Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth.LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL Life tries to take the wheel. Listen for what life has in store. Life’s not all a mystery. Be patient. Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down. . While hiding in our youth. We make a turn on our own. Its view widens so we may see. Without listening to what it has to say. But then we find courage inside And turn it all around. It shows its face in elder years.
I’m so sorry I was wrong. And you’re gone. Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so. Now tomorrow’s here. . until tomorrow. At least.TOO LATE You were mine On borrowed time. This I didn’t know. I took for granted you’d be here.
.AHA MOMENT Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise. spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do.
Like many colors of the rainbow. Black or white. A darker color when we fight. I can be any hue I want to be. Relaxed for when I sleep. you know. I change from day-to-day. A blue for when I’m feeling low. . Neon bright. When wide awake. a light yellow. A range of shades for everything. I’m an aubergine. I shine brightly for all to see. When ready. They cover you And color me.COLORS OF ME There are many Shades of me. A softer shade. Growing daily like the evergreen.
breathing poetry . Living. Thinking. And it makes up The best of me. I think in rhyme. It sings to me from deep inside. rhyming All the time. Is all poetry to me. The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow. The sadness that you may see. I don’t know how Or even why.A POET’S SONG I live in verse.
Shine from underneath? Is it dim.BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH Just how bright Is your light. barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath. . The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow.
Says take a seat. It offers me a place to stay. Inside that room lives poetry. It sets me free. It comforts me. I open up. Then sings to me In special notes. It invites me in. And offers me its words to eat. Then takes my coat. . Encourages me With its warm smile. I am your friend. It says to me. And says Please come back any day.POETRY LIVES HERE A door has opened up for me. Says stay awhile. It embraces me.
Shape of my thighs. The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back. or shock you. That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss. The comfort of my embrace. I can erase? If I frighten. It’s because I am beauty. The knowledge I give. offend. And I know my worth. I am woman. Curve of my waist.KNOWING MY WORTH Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice. Knowing that your fears. The wisdom I possess. . The pleasures I possess. I am life.
We are the best of all beings. Rewarded with so many qualities. Forgetting it. .OF ALL BEINGS Fellow women of today. One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth. Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man. you should abhor.
I can’t wait for mine. Every road must come to an end. Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me. . Did mostly as I pleased. Happiness and long-lost friends. What a lovely ride. My destination is on my mind. I smile and hold it inside.THE LONG ROAD HOME I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead. Held some hands along the way. Thinking of how it will be. A sight I almost see.
Giving the breeze What it needs. It is today. Close your eyes. As if saying to me. Listen closely.” The willow weeps. As if to say. Sounds fully. The signs are there For you to see.” The tree breaths. “Your time is here. .THE SOUND OF SIGNS I hear the birds chirping. “The time has come For you to leave.
It’s not too late. What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man. I’ve grabbed my pen. This is not a test. Or we all lose. .A CALL TO ARMS *STOP* Turn off your television set. What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot.
Where true love lives. Though we’re apart. My home may just be with you. Beside the bed. Where happiness lives Indefinitely. . My home is where I chose to be. My home can be one place or a few.HOME My home is where I lay my head And pray at night. My home is where I leave my heart.
We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone. We turn away.THE BETTER PRIZE The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade. And miss out on the better prize. Should crown our lover’s throne. The better prize. But what lies inside. A trick used to confuse the mind. It passes instantly. So easy to believe a lie. Ignorant to what’s inside. Open your foolish eyes. And in our haste. . Although it seems quite odd. This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet.
And I know more will surely come. Try to balance both and remain whole. But I know things will be fine. Time to sit and rest my mind. add some play. Spirit. I remember to relax today. . I’m tired already. My body’s weary.RELAXING MY MIND Been a long day. I’ve seen this day before. too. that’s the way life goes. Unfortunately. Save some work.
TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME Trouble road begins at my door. Where all is calm. Surrounded by my friends. It should be tired of me. And pray trouble runs out of time. Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free. I’ve given up on happiness. and I stay safe. So I continue to Keep hope alive. And I know nothing else. Why won’t it set me free? . I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been. It must lie somewhere else. Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me.
And then thank God I learned to fly.THE GREATEST ESCAPE Slow down for me. I close my eyes. Look to the sky. Away I go To a better place. As I brace For the crash. You smile at me And hit the gas. Without your brakes. No space for me. Even the belt Won’t keep me safe. To ride with you. You’re driving too fast. You’re speeding now. Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape. . There is no room. How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on.
afterall. Afraid to make a sound. Worried I’ll be found.THE FALL Land mines. Covering your insides. everything I’ve got. Can never take the leap. . Worried about the fall. Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two. Premeditated steps I take with no regrets. The snipers waiting for that clear shot. So much to lose. I wait until it’s dark.
You’re right where you need to be. We wish for the best. Don’t be afraid. Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know. Hope our move won’t make a mess. We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go. Then we realize The move was just right. Don’t be scared to let go. Do what you say. . Make your move. And we’re finally on track. Take a step and not look back.MAKING MOVES Every now and then. That moment is meant just for you To make your move. Scared to make a move.
Or what they tried to say. Focused on today. . I’ve already won the race. It’s time to take my rightful place. Light miles ahead. My eyes are opened wide. And now half my life’s Just floated away. And now the time is here For me to finally shine. The final bell has rung. It never waits. I never saw the signs.WINNING THE RACE I’ve wasted too much time. Life just passes by. Although my mouth is closed.
You call me. You listen when I talk. You know I’m really into it. But we’re just friends. Even when I want to vent About nothing at all. And I need you there. You always take my call. .TRUE FRIENDS I call you. Taking it all in. indeed. I need you to show me Just how I should be. A true friend. The times we share. It’s so innocent. Because when I need someone to vent to. I’m glad I have you in my life.
We need to learn What to say. There are times When we may find Some things troubling. Often times Those little things Should remain a secret. . And what things we should keep.KEEPING SECRETS Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing.
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.
Too much for me to hold inside. Ready for me to begin. So little time.FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD Listen up! I got lots to say. Hold the door. No more sitting still for me today. So much to do. I’m coming in! .
When you come for me. This life has gotten really bad. . I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go. In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again. Waiting for you to take me to some other place. I’m looking forward to the trip ahead. I’m tired today. When you come for me. I won’t be sad. I will be ready. When you come for me.WHEN YOU COME FOR ME When you come for me.
Giving in to your every want and need. but don’t know what to say. Can’t get rid of me. You open up. Guess I’m in too deep. Desire being my excuse. Loving the way That I confuse. . Just how a smudge succeeds.A MERE SMUDGE I’m a smudge on your window pane.
But I’m the one that pays the toll. You say it’ll never be. Drink my wine. accept your smile.” I take a sip. “Celebrate with me. Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape. You say. I try and try To live your life. That I can’t survive on my own. A prisoner’s life is what I lead. Locked away indefinitely. Not knowing poison’s inside.A PRISONER’S LIFE I want to be free. .
Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be. All at once. it’ll be done. Decision time tonight. . Make your move. I hear. Either way. And I finally see. A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go. And That’s just what I’ll do. It hit me hard.AT A CROSSROADS Here I am. I’ll guide you. No one to help me with this one. Close your eyes.
Too scared to move. I can’t always be afraid. Year after year. So they don’t live here no more. They silenced all the tears. They didn’t live here. And I held on. Happiness and joyful days. I’ve got to drive those blues away.DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY Sad songs are all I heard. Awkward distance. . From this life I need more. Arguments. Mainly out of fear.
HOW How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning? .
Consuming who it occupies. That bell it rings. And pain’s waiting At another’s door. Till only it survives. . too.IT. TOO. Taking over everything. SHALL PASS Pain can’t last forever. Because nothing ever lasts Of pain. It’s got places to go. too. But … It. shall pass. It. Making you believe you died. shall pass.
Every day is a fight for me.HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE I try to hold my head above water. I suit up for the war. . Fight to keep it all in order. But the price I pay is worth being free. Holding onto my pride. And I fight with my head high. Try to turn it all around. Try not to let the weight get me down. For the misery in store.
It’s become customary To point out all the flaws. Skirt the blame. Such a wicked game to play. Although we are among friends. Our downfall in the end. We don’t see What lies within. . Point fingers. All the while hiding ours. Believing those wicked smiles. Mistakes that others seem to make. So afraid of being called out our name.OUR DOWNFALL We are a sad society: So quick to judge.
Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be.BEING FREE I won’t let you change who I am. The only way truly to be free. .
.MY WORLD Sometime ago I lost myself. Forgot who I was inside. I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine. Picked up where I had left off. Now it’s time for me to grow. It’s how I lived my life. Just the way a record does. What treasures lied within. Concentrating on what I’m meant to do. My eyes are open now. Time for me to shine. My world finally mine. This thought had become commonplace. Don’t know how long it’s been. Remembering who I was.
. It’s there. Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine. I know. See … I’m making it my goal.MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine. Although it tries to hide.
NEARLY BROKEN Thought it was the end of me. So glad that I had faith. . Hope not within my reach. My spirit nearly broken. I begin again. But I’m on the mend. As the pieces began to mend. My mind said all was lost. But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat. Thought there was no escape. Nearly broken.
Because she knows her worth. . She’s happy. daughter. the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while. A mother. She loves me more than anything.MY FRIEND Oh. That friend I’ve found is me. She’s beautiful And full of life. and a wife. She knows how much I meant to her.
. The stories they tell Without saying a word. The other upside down. One right-side up. Saying everything With just a smirk.THE SMILE AND THE FROWN Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown.
Instead. . have mercy on me.REMAINING LONELY Loneliness. Loosen your lover’s grip. The love I lost. Memories barely keep me warm. I’d rather have my love with me. I’ll forever mourn. I remain lonely. Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip.
Take a sigh. Visualize it’s there In front of you. What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside? . Imagine your worst fear.FEAR INSIDE I challenge you To sit in silence. Close your eyes.
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.
feelings are no big deal. Until you walk through my door. But to you. Waiting once more. I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time. My time no longer mine.WAITING All I do Is wait around for you. So here I sit. I should say How I feel. .
SINGING TODAY FOR YOU Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time. . Because this I’m thankful for. you know. So I sing today for you.
I’m not listening anyway. Yet your mouth moves constantly. I don’t care what you have to say. Though I don’t listen any more. Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out. .NOT LISTENING Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago.
You watch and study me. .WINDOW TO MY SOUL I see you Through the window to my soul. Taking in all you see. Loving everything I am. You know me Better Than I ever could know. And what I’m meant to be. Looking through The window to my soul.
PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL You’re pretty for a black girl. Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud? You’re pretty for a black girl. Thank you for letting me know. Am I supposed to smile. Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth. What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me? You’re pretty for a black girl. . Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more. You’re pretty for a black girl.
you are beautiful. Thought I should tell you so. Beauty lying inside and out. Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen.FOR MY SISTERS My sister. Thought I should let you know. you know. .
THE TIME IS NOW The only time we have is now. . To feel how it should be. To show each other why we’re here. This place we’ve gotten to somehow. The time we have is now. To share all we’ve got. Seeing all we’re meant to see. Even if we’ve forgotten.
BIO Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school. Glonka. short stories. “The Amazing Mr. She writes poetry. . She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons. Her first publication was a short story entitled.” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten. and songs.
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