ISBN: 1456595490 ISBN-13: 978-1456595494 E-Book ISBN: 978-1-4392-8316-5 First Edition .Copyright © 2011 Kimberly LaRocca All rights reserved.

Brandon. The world is yours. and Jaden. Mom . Make your mark. Devante. I love you. Blake.For my boys.

CONTENTS Title Page Copyright Page LOVE Loving You Thanks to You Without Words Why Don’t You See Me Seasons of Love Broken My Last Day I Will Show Up What I Need Love All Over Me Hypnotized Setting You Free Hell and Back Searching Love’s Surprise We Lift Each Other The Warning Missing You You Wear it Well Not Alone .

The Best of Me Trust Shades of Me Love’s Escape The Choice Don’t Forget Yesterday What We Deserve The Truth A Perfect World Your Everything Falling for You We Belong Lying in Wait Moving On Not Your Forte Can’t See Beyond What I Wanted A Love like Mine Terminal Love The Little Things Loving Me A Fan of Love A Different Cloth Promises Not Taking it Anymore Winning the Race Power Sing for You .

LOVE Remembering Love Lost Lives My Wife Killing Me with Your Words The Man I Make for Me LIFE I Put You First FAITH Lies and Truth Realization Ending the Pain Changing Me Breaking Free My Son Shines Knowing Me Dance with Me Tonight Too Soon The Brown Widow The Time Is Now Inner Superstar Life Takes the Wheel Too Late Aha Moment Colors of Me A Poet’s Song .

Bright Lights Underneath Poetry Lives Here Knowing My Worth Of All Beings The Long Road Home The Sound of Signs A Call to Arms Home The Better Prize Relaxing My Mind Trouble’s Got a Hold on Me The Greatest Escape The Fall Making Moves Winning the Race True Friends Keeping Secrets Without Doubts Anger My Moves Follow Me as I Change the World When You Come for Me A Mere Smudge A Prisoner’s Life At a Crossroads Driving the Blues Away How .

too.It. Shall Pass Holding onto My Pride Our Downfall Being Free My World My Perfect Ray of Sunshine Nearly Broken My Friend The Smile and the Frown Remaining Lonely Fear Inside Emma Lee Freedom Today Waiting Singing Today for You Not Listening Window to My Soul Pretty for a Black Girl For My Sisters The Time Is Now .

LOVE .

As you breathe. My world expands. Bake your bread. You are my light Through the dark.LOVING YOU As you awake. I smile for you. Be your lover and more. . Giving you more than my last. Handle with care. Clean the floors. For you. I do it all. All you have to do is ask. What lovers do. I leave my mark. By loving you. Wash your clothes. I live for you At your command. I make your food.

Bitter through and through. All thanks to you. . All thanks to you. Blacker than the darkest night. Guess it’s time for you to face The ugliness and its truth.THANKS TO YOU Cold. The monster made. Rotten to the very core. My evil eyes are full of spite. heartless. Only anger in this place.

Caress my cheek from where you stand. Now face-to-face. I see your eyes start at my feet. woman and man. I quench your thirst. You didn’t have to say a word. . Don’t have to say a word. Your gaze has only reached my thighs. My chest. I kiss your lips. I feel your hands all over me. I see the way you look at me. it heaves to my surprise. And you haven’t said a word.WITHOUT WORDS I know you like what you see. Felling the heat between you and me. you lift your hand. Licking your lips. My hips move to your beat. And still not a word.

. The years I lost. just wasted time. I gave my all for you to live. The rest gone down the drain. You’ve taken all I have to give. But you don’t see me. My end is here. I shed my skin. My one and only life I had Has disappeared in vain. Still shaded by your tree.WHY DON’T YOU SEE ME Here I stand out in front. Requesting more so you can live. It’s over now. The foolishness I left behind. Emptied my soul. Bare for all to see. And you never saw me. And now my shell is all I have.

it’s just you and me. In the end it was always us. . You are my winter. living long it must. The heat I crave to feel at night. Existing even after the end. You are my fall. Please stay a while. A love so grand. We bring forth our new ecstasy. A constant cold stuns my heart. built-in trust.SEASONS OF LOVE A light is shining bright. A smile that warms the coldest night. You are my summer. We have grown together. Protecting me with strength that’s harsh. We from the start. You are my spring. No you and I. All is still. Our love is blossoming for all to see.

Just let this pain pierce my skin. please. oh please. I need to feel the pain inside of me. my worst fear. I need the anger. So. I want to cry.BROKEN Please. I killed your love for me. Just let me be. Don’t want happiness here again. just let me be. The damage done won’t disappear. . You must understand my need to be here. Not bottle it up inside of me. Don’t want you to dry my eyes. I’ve got to let the burn roam free.

Forever stay. I’d say. I would make a meal For you and me. Enjoy the day.MY LAST DAY I would wake up a little late. Feed you by hand. Hold your hand. Open my eyes. That I’d never leave. No worry about what could be heard. My love always. You on my mind. Wash your feet Late that night. Silently gazing In your eyes. Our fingers intertwined. Make love to you without saying a word. gazing upon your face. Take a walk on the beach Or by the bay. Sitting by your side. Me in your heart. I would call in sick. I would promise you. It would always be this way. .

That’s how I would spend My last day. .

I WILL SHOW UP If I yell. You curse and scream. just know I won’t be walking out the door. So when you’re mad as hell. You see I gave my word in front of God. Face so mean. The very last one to show up. I’ll show up. I vowed to be the one He’d trust for you. You hang up the phone Or don’t answer at all. it will be us. You spit my name With twisted face. I’ll show up. I will show up. if you yell. I’ll show up. And I will always show up. Till this life ends. . Through thick and thin when times are hard.

So close your lips and take my hand. I don’t want to be your girl. No. it’s what you heard. Cover me with ecstasy. Lie down with me in this moment.WHAT I NEED No. we don’t have to talk or say a word. And give me what I need. You can find someone else to fill those shoes. Just here for me to feel alright. It’s not my place to be her for you. . And give me what I need. I’m telling you. Don’t want to chill or hang with you. Just take me on into the room. Not here to be your girl tonight. Yeah. Holding hands is Not what I’m here to do.

Brightness everlasting. Sunshine fades in comparison To what’s all over me. Cannot be dimmed. And I will forge ahead.LOVE ALL OVER ME Smiling all twenty four. I am the Milky Way. . I will remain. I color the winter’s night. Brighter than the night’s sky. My glow shines through the darkness. I am love. After the end.

HYPNOTIZED Fine As the darkest wine. . Intoxicating. I am happy to be Drunken within your eyes Can’t you see what you’ve done to me? I am hypnotized.

Don’t sell away your half from me. Not just the night-time one you sell. I’ll hold it down and set you free. . A dozen women for a dime. Can’t compete with street life.SETTING YOU FREE Here I wait Today for you. Why do I compete With the streets. as well. Love shouldn’t have to be this rough. I fear. God. A part-time love is not enough. Like it was your whore? What does it hold that I don’t have? Is it drugs or alcohol. Just like the day before. why don’t you call? I need the day-time man. I know my needs fall on deaf ears.

hell begins. time for hell again. At 10:30. But it’s 1. I hold on tight for the ride. I’m coming back. Swinging and swaying to your moods. Although the truth lies elsewhere. nasty at 10. Pray to God that I don’t cry. Maybe this time is the last time. Nice at 8. Time to put me back on track. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God I don’t cry. At 11:30. And try to make it back from hell again. Say forgive me this time. I hold on tight for the ride And pray to God that I don’t cry.HELL AND BACK I go through hell to be with you. and I love you more than anything. . You say you’re sorry all the time.

. Even met some dogs. too. Kissed so many frogs. If the perfect one waits somewhere for you. But my conviction still remains strong. I wonder if you’re like me. And also trying to find me. too? I’ve been waiting oh so long. I pray that you’re still looking. still searching. Out there trying to see. Not giving up.SEARCHING Where are you? Are you searching for me.

It takes you up. Can pick you up and be complete. and Evaporates to your dismay. Sometimes love takes broader shape. It can start as just a fling And then turn into everything. It smiles at you and then frowns. It grows with you and holds you tight And comforts you late at night It finds you when you least expect. Pretends to stay. Love pulls you in. But love can also be so sweet. So hold on tight. And just await your love’s surprise.LOVE’S SURPRISE Sometimes love throws you a curve. then drops you down. It flows outside the lines. And surprises you with no regrets. . Refuses to be confined. Enjoy the ride.

I lift you up Because I need you to see All that you do. . I tell you you’re The best at what you do. Saying you’re doing what you’re meant to do.WE LIFT EACH OTHER You lift me up For the world to see. by my side. It means the world to me: Loving the way Our lives are intertwined. Just what I’m meant to do. You tell me I’m beautiful all the time. The queen I’m meant to be. Tell me it’s all mine. So glad to have you In my life. And I rule the roost. Give me the world. You show me how Real love should be with you. Standing tall.

But evil does as evil sees Wait for my plan It’s a doozy. . You pile it on Because I can take it.THE WARNING It’s funny now to know the truth That all you care about is you. All others be damned. And try to break me. Curse my name. Your squinty eyes and sneaky smile. Say some words. And then not care Who you hurt. You had a plan all the while. Pretend to care. Because your plan is number one. You’re having fun.

The joy and laughter every night. The days and nights spent by your side While showing me you cared.” . “Will you reminisce and close your eyes And think about our days?” “Will you remember all the nights and days you were away? “Will you wish you’d been here with me “And not some other place?” I say that I will surely miss the times that we had shared. “My darling. I’d say to you. The happiness I felt inside. About you. I’d miss everything.MISSING YOU “What will you miss after I’m gone?” You look to me and say.

You follow me Through the day. An aroma only you possess. So distinct.YOU WEAR IT WELL I wear you on my sleeve. Take you when I leave. Whether at work or at play. And you wear it well. It’s not cologne or soap. your scent. you know. Separating you from the rest. You line the pleats of my skirt. I inhale you on my shirt. Whether night or day. That fragrence I know so well. Not Ivory or Irish Spring. . That essence that I smell. You’re with me On my way.

Realizing It won’t work apart. We laugh. We hurt. And then we pray. Alone is not what we do. Yet we try Each day and night Just to make it through. Can’t make it on our own. .NOT ALONE The games we play. Like children Not yet grown. The shit we say.

You don’t need to say it. This much I truly know. I’m proud to see what you’ve become. . I brought a new place for you.THE BEST OF ME I make up the best of you. And I know I make up the best of you. The light replaced the dark. With me. Because you are the best of me. A prize for all to see. Order lives where chaos dwelled. Your life tells me so. A freshness for our start.

The chain contains a kink. . Will forever change the way I now look at you.TRUST It’s like a broken fence: When mended. You try to move along. Although repaired. Thinking that you’re done. But that kink. you see. you still see that link. Looking okay. Hoping things are as good as new.

SHADES OF ME How can you not love me. Skin of chocolate. I fear you love yourself More than you love me. Lips of warm caramel? Every part of me was made for you to love. You don’t even see. . With eyes of auburn. For the chocolate and the caramel.

A world where only you escape: A world of beaches. And I wait With your love’s escape. . I’m ready now. It’s embedded between my thighs. A world that rivals Disneyland. Powder-white sand.LOVE’S ESCAPE I know where your happiness lies. I take you to another place.

. A simple choice It may seem.THE CHOICE The choice I have— To stay or to go— Simple as it seems. To live in hell Or go be free. Though simple it may be. A place Finally to be me. Not so simple to me. Is not simple In my eyes.

No matter what a friend may say. Although you’re okay today. Did you forget yesterday? A friend today. That voice appears and says.DON’T FORGET YESTERDAY Every time it’s going good. an enemy. . I truly thought you understood. So it may seem. Face twisted mean. Did you forget yesterday? The screaming and the yelling. Yesterday. Don’t forget yesterday.

WHAT WE DESERVE Do you deserve All that I do. You can’t say yes. . Everything I have to give? Do you deserve To be with me. to be with you? I can’t say no. Which do you prefer? Neither of us Can really say What we both deserve. Have saved up just for you? Do you deserve to be with me And I. Share the life I live? Do you deserve The love I possess.

We tried to make it work. Another smiling face. But happiness lies Within the eyes Of the one that’s meant for you. So. Because I see the truth. I know it’s not what you want to hear. Your true love awaits. You need to find your perfect match And finally set me free. dry your eyes. And I’m not the one for you. Life alone brings doubts and fears. Truth is you’re not the one for me. I fear. But. it’s not meant to be.THE TRUTH I’m sad today. Fully awake. No time to cry. . It may just be Around the corner.

A PERFECT WORLD In a perfect world. Unfortunately things will never be As perfect as they seem. You’d hold me tight. You’d agree with me. . Your love to give For me always. today it’s not that way. And I can only dream. And sit by my side. There would be no other for you. I’d be all you see. In a perfect world. Sadly. I’d always be right. We’d never fight. You’d forever stay. In a perfect world. You’d only have eyes for me. It’d be you and I. In a perfect world.

YOUR EVERYTHING
I’m here for you to use. Consume all of me. I am your tool. No need to pay. I give for free. Ask for it when you please. Just show up. Knock at my door. I have much to give and more. A puppet on Your endless string, To be your everything.

FALLING FOR YOU
The funny games you play, Trying to make me stay, All because you can’t be alone. You brighten up the room, To make it look like you, And not the shack you call home. You try to make me not think, To believe it’s all in sync, But orderly has no place with you. I was the fool, The exception to the rule, Because I was the one Who fell for you.

WE BELONG
Walk with me In the sun, Feel the breeze. Come be free. Leave it all Behind today. I’ll help you push It all away. Come sing with me. Take my hand. We belong, Woman and man.

. It is so easy for me to smile. The perfect moment to strike. Pretend I’m okay inside.LYING IN WAIT I see you thought I didn’t know All about your lies. It was fine to say goodbye. For the right time. We plot our moves From the go. Believed that when you closed the door. Women are cunning creatures you know. We lie in wait. You should have never estimated The power of my mind.

Hoping it’s not too late. Because it’s all I know. I can’t forget what we had.MOVING ON I wait for you in the lot. Now I sit and wait for you. That’s too damn bad. Because you set me free. But I fear your mind’s made up. Thought the day would never come. Where I said I’d be. It hurts to be in this spot. When you would let me go. You’re moving on because it’s too tough To fight for what we once had. . Hoping to put off what you said You’d do until another day.

Why do I continue To hold onto a love That runs only one way? I think it may be time For me to realize Changing for me Is not your forte. And sleep. I ask you all the time To treat me like I need.NOT YOUR FORTE I tell you I need more. It’s not enough for me. You look into my eyes. . But I don’t think It will ever be. Give me no reply.

And now I sit. . But … I wanted you. Although I know the truth.CAN’T SEE BEYOND WHAT I WANTED One-track mind My eyes see only What I want you to be. so I couldn’t see beyond What I wanted you to show. For the real you can never love me. What I see Is not really you. Alone with the truth after the fall. How could I have loved you? I didn’t know you at all.

You’re gonna miss me so damn bad. Miss what we had. You say you don’t care. you think you know it all. That there are many more like me. .A LOVE LIKE MINE You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone. And please. But time will tell. I really hope you find her soon. Think it’s all a big game. hold your breath Until she loves you like I do. So you can finally see. Go ahead. The way I kissed you late at night. Yeah. And your heart will know She and I aren’t the same. Make your move.

. If I let it inside.TERMINAL LOVE Your love will be The end of me. If that’s what I let it do. Your love will kill My spirit. Terminal: The definition of The love between You and me. too. If I let it be. Your love will make Me lose my mind.

They don’t have to cost a thing. Ignoring all the rest. You’re blind to all that temptation outside. You tell me that I’m beautiful. Holding my hand.THE LITTLE THINGS It’s the little things I appreciate. . I just wanted you to know I appreciate the little things you do. Showing me the man That you’re proud to be. To live this life with you. And that I deserve the best. It’s great to be by your side.

My spirit grows. I finally love me more that you do. And it’s your fault. My spirit knows It’s your fault. I’m the one who made you into you. . You discourage me. Don’t want to hear my words. Because all you thought about was you. Because you need to be first.LOVING ME My anger grows. And it’s my fault. I let you do what you want to. My anger knows It’s my fault. You don’t encourage me.

But it won’t knock at my door. Although it doesn’t live here. I still believe in love. I lay out the welcome mat for love. I’d sit in the stands and cheer. . Though it doesn’t live here no more. Because it waits somewhere for me. I will wait for love.A FAN OF LOVE I am a fan of love. I will wait for love. I’m a fan of love. Although it’s not yet mine. I still believe in love. Because I see it all the time. I lay out the welcome mat for love. Because someday love will set me free.

Yet you came. But you won’t show your face. A visitor from another place. If only in our eyes. . You try to live in my realty. When I don’t even know your name. You and I are not the same. Tell me why you’re in my space. But we’re not meant to be. Your world is nothing like The one I’m from. Maybe that cloth Really is the same. and you try To become you and I. I wish you’d thought more of this Before deciding to come.A DIFFERENT CLOTH Cut from a different cloth.

It’s nowhere inside of you. Though the shitty lies you grab. . So glad to have this new breakthrough. To do what I have to do.PROMISES Promises you fail to keep Are all I have. I don’t know why I ask for truth. Honesty is within your reach.

I try and try to be What you want from me. But I’m tired of playing Your sick. twisted game.NOT TAKING IT ANYMORE You can’t see me Past your superiority. Not taking your shit any more. I’m sick to hell of being under your spell. There’s no you and me in us for you. It’s your way or the door. I’m like a moth to your flame. .

WINNING THE RACE I understand a time won’t come When you and I won’t fight. . Because you have to be first. Because we both want to win the race. now by my side. First place is a space we both want. Can’t let me be in front. Two peas of a different pod. Trying to keep up. You sprint along. Ain’t it odd That we both think we’re right? I run ahead to catch my breath. We’ll never be face-to-face.

I see you are the one Allowing me to see Beyond your imperfections. .POWER Looking through rose-colored glasses. Co-existence is the only power You hold over me. I’m blinded by my vicious need Not to be lonely.

. Showing you the real me? Shouldn’t I want you to see Who I truly am? Why can’t I share all my gifts. Why don’t I feel comfortable. Every talent I have? Why don’t I sing for you? Maybe because I know You’re not the one I should sing for. indeed.SING FOR YOU Why don’t I sing for you? A good question. but the one I should let go.

Love. Let loose your hold of me. . Why do you pretend to be a friend of mine? Oh. Why do you laugh at me? Why do you hold me hostage? Why not set me free? Love. Love. And set me free. I laugh along in my defense.LOVE Love. how you love to tell your lovely lies. What a sense of humor you have! I hear your sadistic laugh. The jokes are all at my expense. Just break your chains.

When unity was a goal. A time of unrivaled bliss. Surviving by itself. With nothing else.REMEMBERING LOVE Remember when Love was enough. . Family meant we were whole. A time I surely miss. Even when times were tough? It got you through.

minutes. . But nothing’s said.LOST LIVES Here we go again. hours. Our whole lives lost. And here we are In elder years. Just like the day before. So much to say. The seconds. I smile. days. So much to say. Because we never speak. I look elsewhere instead. you grin. We drift together. Turning into weeks. You try to read my face. Yet nothing was said. Still alone. And we’ve both paid the cost. I hold my breath. You stare at the floor.

My wife. How I cherish you.MY WIFE You bought me flowers today: Roses. You are the reason why I work so hard. I think of you before I rest. With you is where my heart lies. Included a heart-shaped card This is what it said: I can’t live my life without Having you by my side. Although I seldom tell you so. . I try my best. pink and red.

Curse her name. I disappear with every word you say.KILLING ME WITH YOUR WORDS I lose a piece of me every day. But twisted faces and angry eyes Still kill me Inside. . Call her a bitch. How much can they hurt? I don’t hit her. And you think they’re just words. Or use my fists.

I wouldn’t want for anything. . He wouldn’t see anyone else. Put me before himself. It wouldn’t matter if they were his. He’d cherish the ground I walked on. A perfect world For him and me. He’d always take care of me. He’d cherish them because they were mine. That man I made for me.THE MAN I MAKE FOR ME Oh. He’d love every part of me. how I wish I could make The perfect man for me! We’d love and kiss each other often. Live together happily. No one else would matter. And even love my kids.

LIFE .

You guide. I put you first. Guiding me along the way. And so. so I may rise. . Get me through to a new start. I put your first. You let me fall. In you. Bring me light after the dark. as I carry on. that’s the way it will be. And I’ll always put you first. this is why I will believe With Your Word. Lord. Whether I am right or wrong. I lead My life in Your hands. And so. Let me laugh after I’ve cried. And so.I PUT YOU FIRST You’ve been there Since day one. I have a faithful friend. What a miracle to come! Been there through the night and day. Supporting me until the end. You’re by my side. I put you first.

He’s got my map. With me is where he always stays All through the night until the day.FAITH He came today and shook my soul. Mouths the words before I talk. He knows my mind. . I don’t know nothing anymore. he’s taken hold. the path I walk. predicts my moves. He knows the goings on inside of me. And I thought I knew it all. I think he’s psychic see. He has my unwavering faith. He’s counted every breath I take And knows how far I’ll bend before I break. He is the Lord above. My whole world. Says what I think before I do.

It shines so bright. I would have told you so. Won’t stay inside. you know. A cover will not work. It’s impossible to hide a lie. No matter how hard you try. A lie won’t hide. . If asked. You can’t contain What will remain. Sets me free.LIES AND TRUTH The truth is the light. Rains down on me.

Took years to find. Who I am inside. Flipping a script You no longer own. . The square peg now fits the hole. I got it now. ma’am! My life’s where it’s supposed to be. powering my soul. Has built a wall that can’t be broken. Now I’m free. I can’t lie low. Screaming to me in my own song. The chains are gone. So that confidence. Was in a fog. Can’t keep me down no more. For the entire world to see.REALIZATION The beauty of it all. Yes. Realizing who I am. but now I see The truth I bought now sold.

. through the fog I can’t see. Like the way That evil does. Won’t let me see a day Beyond today. So I say my last goodbye. breathlessly. A better place awaits me.ENDING THE PAIN This world of pain. Killing my mind And spirit. I’ll be with you forever now. So much to bear. The pain will end. Everywhere. finally. too. It’s all around. Now is the end for me. I try to fight. Staining the air. All consuming. But. Stealing my light. And I cannot escape.

same old thing. Someone’s missing. Or found dead. So I block it and stay inside. Start my task with one woman. I have to block the energy That tries to draw me in. Everyone’s fighting or arguing. Enough to drive the sane insane. I’ll start my fight by changing me. But radio’s no better. Live by his word and let him see. Guess I’ll listen to radio instead.CHANGING ME I couldn’t watch the news today. I vow to do the best I can. . For fear of what it might say. It calls to me and screams my name. Can’t let this dark swallow my light.

I pierce the layer that I see. After all the blood had dried. Now I’m gone. The one underneath’s too tough. I hoped the damage that I did Would make me feel okay. . I had to go because it stayed. Although it hurt. I couldn’t cry. I’m the one it killed.BREAKING FREE I try to cut the pain away. The pain still wouldn’t go away. The pain inside just wouldn’t die. Cutting deeper still. Finally free. Now my pain has gone away. I took the pain away with me. But blood is not enough.

But through it all.MY SON SHINES Long ago I dreamt of you. . For the other half of you. The love I thought I had to have. Although you were not yet mine. A battle I couldn’t lose. Here I stand forever. By your side I’ll stay To guide you through the days ahead And never go away. You gave me hell From early on And made me pay my dues. I held you tight and kissed your cheek. Only the mixture that I needed. I feared it was not true. Before you were inside. I stood tall.

Or do you only know what you see? Do you know what makes me tick Or what really makes me. . Or how that me see’s you? Do you know where I came from Or where I want to go? Do you know where my happiness lies Or how to touch my soul? Do you know what makes me sing Or inspires me to grow? What makes up all of Kimberly? Please tell me what you know. me? Do you know why I am here Or what I’m here to do? Do you know how I see me.KNOWING ME Do you really know who I am.

It moves my hips. . I feel the beat.DANCE WITH ME TONIGHT I feel the music From deep within. Your song instead. Made for sin. Please play for me. Dance with me tonight. Dance with me tonight. My arms they sway That away. The rhythm stirs Inside my head. It moves my feet. Dance with me tonight.

Pain can be an awful thing. Sometimes too much to bare. To make sure you were still here. And let them know An early end’s no way to go. . It’s sad to know your time is done. So hold them tight. What younger ones can’t fare. We older folks can tolerate. They’ll wish we stopped you just in time. We didn’t have you long. But many will always care. Though your beauty will last always. Your will was not as strong. So here is where they’ll stay. Help them push the pain aside.TOO SOON Gone too soon.

THE BROWN WIDOW You wait for me In the dark. Why did I go? I should have paused. . But you’re too quick. You strike so fast. I wait till day To go your way. I knew you were there After all. You’re poisonous. Hoping you’re asleep. You lay still. I approach. I hold my breath. Await my move. Hoping you snoozed. Too many eyes Cover me.

DON’T WAIT! Make it count tonight. . It will be just right. Live your best life now. Take your time.THE TIME IS NOW Slow down.

Remembering where it first shined. Years later we get another glimpse. We get a glimpse. And then peaked out often. take a peak. it lies inside.INNER SUPERSTAR We possess it early on. Residing where it’s meant to be. . Dormant. Our inner superstar Was always there inside. Specific to each owner. After we have forgotten. It differs from the rest. Waiting patiently For a time to no longer hide. But often forget where it lies. Where it shines the best.

We make a turn on our own. Life’s not all a mystery. While hiding in our youth. Without listening to what it has to say. Its view widens so we may see. But we get in the way. It shows its face in elder years. Life sometimes gets the best of us And tries to keep us down. But then we find courage inside And turn it all around. Life often hides its purpose From those who seek its truth. Listen for what life has in store. . Be patient.LIFE TAKES THE WHEEL Life tries to take the wheel.

Too late for me To let you know That I loved you so.TOO LATE You were mine On borrowed time. I took for granted you’d be here. This I didn’t know. And you’re gone. At least. I’m so sorry I was wrong. . Now tomorrow’s here. until tomorrow.

spark that inspiration in your eyes? Did you find what’s meant for you? Share with me what you must do.AHA MOMENT Did you have your aha moment today? How loud was it? What did it say? Did it reveal your life’s surprise. .

COLORS OF ME There are many Shades of me. Black or white. They cover you And color me. . A blue for when I’m feeling low. I can be any hue I want to be. When ready. Growing daily like the evergreen. I shine brightly for all to see. a light yellow. I’m an aubergine. A softer shade. A range of shades for everything. Relaxed for when I sleep. Neon bright. When wide awake. A darker color when we fight. Like many colors of the rainbow. you know. I change from day-to-day.

Is all poetry to me. I don’t know how Or even why. rhyming All the time. Thinking. The sadness that you may see. I think in rhyme. It sings to me from deep inside.A POET’S SONG I live in verse. Living. The happiness you’re feeling now Turns into rhyme for me somehow. And it makes up The best of me. breathing poetry .

barely there? Can I see it anywhere? Does it shine All the time Or only when you’re feeling fine? Is it obscured by others’ shades Or can it flaunt its own array? Adjust it now so we can see Your bright light underneath. The one we all see? Does it make your surface glow. .BRIGHT LIGHTS UNDERNEATH Just how bright Is your light. Shine from underneath? Is it dim.

Says take a seat. It sets me free. It invites me in. I open up. Says stay awhile. Then sings to me In special notes. And offers me its words to eat. Then takes my coat. And says Please come back any day. It offers me a place to stay. Inside that room lives poetry. I am your friend. It comforts me.POETRY LIVES HERE A door has opened up for me. . It says to me. Encourages me With its warm smile. It embraces me.

offend. The pleasures I possess. I can erase? If I frighten. .KNOWING MY WORTH Does the strength of my words offend you? Or is it … The tone of my voice. It’s because I am beauty. The knowledge I give. The comfort of my embrace. I am life. I am woman. Shape of my thighs. Knowing that your fears. Curve of my waist. That smile on my face? Does the fierceness of my love shock you? Or is it … The hunger of my kiss. And I know my worth. or shock you. The air in my chest? Does knowing my worth frighten you? Or is it … The arch in my back. The wisdom I possess.

One that’s even sold? Bringing life and pleasure forth. Rewarded with so many qualities. Do you know the power that you hold? A power sought by every man.OF ALL BEINGS Fellow women of today. We are the best of all beings. you should abhor. Forgetting it. .

Every road must come to an end. I smile and hold it inside. Held some hands along the way.THE LONG ROAD HOME I’ve walked on hands and knees Down the long road ahead. A sight I almost see. My destination is on my mind. Should I sprint to the finish Or take my time instead? I’ve carried others on my back And sometimes they’ve carried me. I can’t wait for mine. What a lovely ride. Thinking of how it will be. Did mostly as I pleased. . Happiness and long-lost friends.

Close your eyes. “Your time is here.THE SOUND OF SIGNS I hear the birds chirping.” The tree breaths. The signs are there For you to see. Giving the breeze What it needs. . As if to say. As if saying to me. It is today. Sounds fully. “The time has come For you to leave.” The willow weeps. Listen closely.

A CALL TO ARMS *STOP* Turn off your television set. . What weapon will you choose? PLEASE Take your shot. What have you done until today to better our existence? What do you have to say? Have you really done your part Or have you yet to start? Time waits for no man. It’s not too late. Or we all lose. I’ve grabbed my pen. This is not a test.

My home is where I leave my heart. Where true love lives. . My home may just be with you. My home is where I chose to be. My home can be one place or a few. Where happiness lives Indefinitely.HOME My home is where I lay my head And pray at night. Though we’re apart. Beside the bed.

This mortal life we live Can be so short and sweet. Although it seems quite odd. Should crown our lover’s throne. . So easy to believe a lie.THE BETTER PRIZE The outer beauty that we see Is only a façade. We tend to judge Those whom we see On outer beauty alone. We turn away. But what lies inside. Ignorant to what’s inside. The better prize. Open your foolish eyes. A trick used to confuse the mind. And miss out on the better prize. And in our haste. It passes instantly.

I’m tired already. Spirit. But I know things will be fine. My body’s weary. And I know more will surely come. I’ve seen this day before. I remember to relax today. add some play. Unfortunately. Save some work. .RELAXING MY MIND Been a long day. Try to balance both and remain whole. too. that’s the way life goes. Time to sit and rest my mind.

TROUBLE’S GOT A HOLD ON ME Trouble road begins at my door. I often dream of a better place Where trouble hasn’t been. Accustomed to the worst of what Life has in store for me. and I stay safe. So I continue to Keep hope alive. I’ve given up on happiness. And pray trouble runs out of time. It should be tired of me. Why won’t it set me free? . And I know nothing else. Where all is calm. Surrounded by my friends. It must lie somewhere else. Blinded by the darkness inside Too black to set me free.

Look to the sky. There is no room. Nothing to fear Of the greatest escape. . Even the belt Won’t keep me safe. And then thank God I learned to fly. Without your brakes. To ride with you. You smile at me And hit the gas. You’re driving too fast. I close my eyes. Away I go To a better place. How can we be Or even last? We can’t go on.THE GREATEST ESCAPE Slow down for me. As I brace For the crash. No space for me. You’re speeding now.

Afraid to make a sound. Hoping that you’re not The smartest of us two. . I wait until it’s dark. Can never take the leap. So much to lose. Worried about the fall. Covering your insides. afterall. Premeditated steps I take with no regrets.THE FALL Land mines. Worried I’ll be found. everything I’ve got. The snipers waiting for that clear shot.

Don’t be afraid. Afraid that what we chose Would set us back further than we know. Then we realize The move was just right. Take a step and not look back. Do what you say. Make your move. Scared to make a move. We find ourselves in A situation where we can’t let go.MAKING MOVES Every now and then. Hope our move won’t make a mess. And we’re finally on track. Don’t be scared to let go. You’re right where you need to be. That moment is meant just for you To make your move. . We wish for the best.

.WINNING THE RACE I’ve wasted too much time. And now the time is here For me to finally shine. The final bell has rung. It never waits. I never saw the signs. Or what they tried to say. Light miles ahead. I’ve already won the race. And now half my life’s Just floated away. Life just passes by. Although my mouth is closed. Focused on today. It’s time to take my rightful place. My eyes are opened wide.

A true friend. But we’re just friends. indeed. I need you to show me Just how I should be. The times we share. You listen when I talk. You always take my call.TRUE FRIENDS I call you. You call me. Even when I want to vent About nothing at all. I’m glad I have you in my life. Taking it all in. It’s so innocent. . And I need you there. Because when I need someone to vent to. You know I’m really into it.

. Often times Those little things Should remain a secret. And what things we should keep. We need to learn What to say. There are times When we may find Some things troubling.KEEPING SECRETS Sometimes it’s not good to share Every little thing.

WITHOUT DOUBTS
The time has finally come For me to move on From this dark and pitiful place. Time to be happy again, For me to finally smile, Change that ugly expression on my face. Time to realize That this isn’t right. It’s not what life is really about. Time to forgive, So I can move on and live The life I’m meant to have without doubts.

ANGER
I’ve just realized I have to let go of the anger inside. It’s eating me alive. I’m ignorant to let it survive. I’ve got to let it die. I can’t continue to let it control my life. It’s too much, and it won’t hide. I’m letting go to save my life.

MY MOVES
“Where have you been?” You say to me. “Thought you were long gone, Maybe dead.” I say, “I was where I was meant to be. Had some things to work out instead.” You say, “It’s too late For me to play today.” I say, “Yeah, right. Move out of my way.” It’s time for me to blind you with my moves. So don’t forget your shades.

So much to do. So little time. I’m coming in! . Ready for me to begin. Too much for me to hold inside. No more sitting still for me today. Hold the door.FOLLOW ME AS I CHANGE THE WORLD Listen up! I got lots to say.

I will be ready. When you come for me. When you come for me. I won’t be sad. . This life has gotten really bad. I’m looking forward to the trip ahead. Waiting for you to take me to some other place. I pray that those Who love me won’t be sad when I go. When you come for me. In the end I’ll be happy for the chance To begin again. I’m tired today.WHEN YOU COME FOR ME When you come for me.

A MERE SMUDGE I’m a smudge on your window pane. Guess I’m in too deep. Desire being my excuse. Can’t get rid of me. You open up. Loving the way That I confuse. . Just how a smudge succeeds. Giving in to your every want and need. but don’t know what to say.

Awaiting that fateful day When I can escape. But I’m the one that pays the toll.A PRISONER’S LIFE I want to be free. A prisoner’s life is what I lead. .” I take a sip. accept your smile. Locked away indefinitely. You say. Not knowing poison’s inside. You say it’ll never be. “Celebrate with me. Drink my wine. I try and try To live your life. That I can’t survive on my own.

. I hear. No one to help me with this one. And That’s just what I’ll do. Close your eyes.AT A CROSSROADS Here I am. And I finally see. All at once. Sitting still In a spot I’d never thought I’d be. It hit me hard. Decision time tonight. A choice to make: Where do I drive? Should I turn left or right? I must decide Which way to go. Either way. I’ll guide you. Make your move. it’ll be done.

Awkward distance. So they don’t live here no more. Mainly out of fear. From this life I need more.DRIVING THE BLUES AWAY Sad songs are all I heard. I can’t always be afraid. Year after year. And I held on. They didn’t live here. Happiness and joyful days. They silenced all the tears. . Arguments. Too scared to move. I’ve got to drive those blues away.

HOW How can I tell you What it is When you don’t know what it means? How can I show you What is lost When you can’t even see? How do I explain How I feel When you can’t hear me? How do I fight For what we have When we have no meaning? .

Making you believe you died. Taking over everything. SHALL PASS Pain can’t last forever. TOO. And pain’s waiting At another’s door.IT. It’s got places to go. shall pass. Because nothing ever lasts Of pain. too. It. . Consuming who it occupies. That bell it rings. too. shall pass. But … It. Till only it survives.

Try not to let the weight get me down. Fight to keep it all in order. Try to turn it all around. .HOLDING ONTO MY PRIDE I try to hold my head above water. But the price I pay is worth being free. I suit up for the war. For the misery in store. Every day is a fight for me. And I fight with my head high. Holding onto my pride.

So afraid of being called out our name. Our downfall in the end. Point fingers. Mistakes that others seem to make. Skirt the blame. It’s become customary To point out all the flaws.OUR DOWNFALL We are a sad society: So quick to judge. . We don’t see What lies within. Such a wicked game to play. Believing those wicked smiles. Although we are among friends. All the while hiding ours.

The only way truly to be free.BEING FREE I won’t let you change who I am. Why change for someone who doesn’t give a damn? I will be who I’m meant to be. .

Remembering who I was. Concentrating on what I’m meant to do. Forgot who I was inside. Now it’s time for me to grow. My world finally mine. Just the way a record does. I gave so much to others And put their needs before mine. Don’t know how long it’s been. My eyes are open now. Time for me to shine. This thought had become commonplace. Picked up where I had left off. It’s how I lived my life. .MY WORLD Sometime ago I lost myself. What treasures lied within.

See … I’m making it my goal.MY PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE Somewhere out there lies The perfect ray of sunshine. Although it tries to hide. It’s there. Something I must find: My perfect ray of sunshine. I know. .

NEARLY BROKEN Thought it was the end of me. So glad that I had faith. As the pieces began to mend. Nearly broken. Thought there was no escape. Hope not within my reach. But the voice inside Said I would rise And would not concede defeat. My spirit nearly broken. I begin again. But I’m on the mend. . My mind said all was lost.

She’s happy. and a wife. daughter. A mother. She knows how much I meant to her. She loves me more than anything.MY FRIEND Oh. That friend I’ve found is me. Because she knows her worth. . the freedom I have now! I have finally found A friend I haven’t seen for a while. She’s beautiful And full of life.

Saying everything With just a smirk. One right-side up. .THE SMILE AND THE FROWN Neighboring emotions: The smile and the frown. The stories they tell Without saying a word. The other upside down.

I remain lonely. Memories barely keep me warm. have mercy on me.REMAINING LONELY Loneliness. The love I lost. Instead. I’ll forever mourn. Loosen your lover’s grip. Grant me the pity I deserve From this endless trip. I’d rather have my love with me. .

FEAR INSIDE I challenge you To sit in silence. What will you do? Will you run and hide? Will you take flight or stand and fight Your worse fear from inside? . Take a sigh. Visualize it’s there In front of you. Close your eyes. Imagine your worst fear.

EMMA LEE
A warm embrace, Holding me always. A wise woman’s face Embedded in my brain. A sweet smile, Welcoming me home. A feeling of togetherness. I never felt alone. You were everything to me. I miss you so, Emma Lee.

FREEDOM
And I’m free today! I don’t care about what you say. Throwing caution to the wind, Letting no more darkness in, I knew this day would finally come, And I would have my freedom.

TODAY
Well, I don’t give a damn anymore. Sorry, I gotta say I’m tired and I want to go. Too bad I can’t stay. I’m tired and you made me Into what I am. I cared and cared till I was bare, And now I don’t give a damn. I should be sad, But I am not. And I know I’ll be okay, And I will be just fine alone, Starting with today.

Until you walk through my door. feelings are no big deal. I’m the fool Because I allow you To dictate how I spend my time. Waiting once more. My time no longer mine. I should say How I feel. . But to you. So here I sit.WAITING All I do Is wait around for you.

. Because this I’m thankful for. So I sing today for you. you know.SINGING TODAY FOR YOU Are you free to sing At any given time? Do you take for granted This simple given right? We weren’t always free To sing any time.

Why don’t you please Close your mouth? Stop those words from tumbling out. Yet your mouth moves constantly. Though I don’t listen any more.NOT LISTENING Why don’t you please stop talking to me? I stopped listening long ago. . I’m not listening anyway. I don’t care what you have to say.

Loving everything I am. Looking through The window to my soul. And what I’m meant to be. You know me Better Than I ever could know. You watch and study me. Taking in all you see. .WINDOW TO MY SOUL I see you Through the window to my soul.

You’re pretty for a black girl. Am I supposed to smile. What does that mean? Can being pretty and black Co-exist for me? You’re pretty for a black girl. Too bad you don’t recognize That I am so much more. . Ignore the ignorance of your statement? Should I really be proud? You’re pretty for a black girl.PRETTY FOR A BLACK GIRL You’re pretty for a black girl. Such condescending words! As if the fact that I am black Lessens my worth. Thank you for letting me know.

Thought I should tell you so. Beauty lying inside and out.FOR MY SISTERS My sister. Thought I should let you know. you know. . Has anyone told you so? Do you walk with your head held high? Take every step you make with pride? You are a queen. you are beautiful.

THE TIME IS NOW The only time we have is now. To feel how it should be. The time we have is now. To show each other why we’re here. Even if we’ve forgotten. . This place we’ve gotten to somehow. To share all we’ve got. Seeing all we’re meant to see.

Her first publication was a short story entitled.” for which she won the Pride award for writing at age ten. “The Amazing Mr. She writes poetry.BIO Kimberly LaRocca has been writing since elementary school. She lives in sunny Florida with her husband and four sons. . and songs. Glonka. short stories.

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