Recently, people have been behaving in what they think is friendly. It's some type of retarded counterfeit of friendliness.
They're silly as well as insincere. I know what it means to be friendly and that's not what they're being. I am naturally friendly, and, I know my enemies pretenses. The enemies of God, are my enemies. They hated Jesus first and I am not surprised when they hate me. Their evil words and deeds are just as it is written about in the Holy Bible. I know they are hand picked losers trying to pretend to be friendly. For example : I was waiting to check out in the supermarket and a dark, Black woman in front of me was talking to the cashier and suddenly included me into their chit chat. I don't trust them, as I shouldn't and never could. I know their including me in anything means benefits for them and the theft of m e and mine (our good reputations, assets, etc.). She says something to me, some sort of a question that required an answer from m e (retarded demands for me to perform for them like a trained seal). Now, I wasn't in any physical distress or anything, which sometimes happens, whi ch is why if anyone was truthful and not trying to Steal, Kill and Desrtoy me an d mine, "our" Thalassemia Minor would have been common knowledge, that was not t o be ignored or overlooked, but to be considered. Information that is useful to anyone who is attempting to establish a meaningful relationship which can only be accomplished in TRUTH and with TRUTH. Like the truth about my infirmities which they interpret and misinterpret as everything except what it is; deliberately. Like the Scribes and Pharisees misinterpreted Jesus' words and deeds at every tu rn; deliberately. They never thought that any truth about me was needed for them to try and destro y me; only lies. I have to live in and with the reality of my infirmities which I'll gladly boast about (like Paul). The thorns in my side keep me humble and not people. I responded with : "I don't know what your're talking about" in a normal tone (something they can never do). Which I hadn't. I was focusing on not hurting myself while lifting heavy items I 'm not supposed to lift at all (according to Doctors orders because of the doubl e hernia operation I had when I was 3 months old due to my Mothers attempt to murder me). She took offence (as was intended) that I wasn't engrossed in "her" chit chat wi th the cashier. She predictably took the opportunity to pretend that "I" was the one who had bad manners or was maltempered when it was her ignorant way of making retarded dema nds on me (my time, my mind, me). They feel entitled to associate themselves with and talk "at" anyone they choose and expect their fantasy response to be met by essentially st rangers. I am a stranger to them because they don't know me. They only know about the slander and lies they tell and pretend to believe about me from criminals like my half sisters who don't know me, either.
They, none of them, would know me because they never took the time to try and ge t to know me. She said : "it doesn't make anything better by being unfriendly". I responded with "Feigning friendlieness doesn't make anything better either". They are rude and impose themselves upon people they don't know. They think it's perfectly reasonable to do this because the world has accomodate d them "because" they are uncouth and and lack good manners (third world, low cl ass). I think they'd be more concerned with their impending extinction than bothering to pretend to be friendly towards me when they have only had over half a century to convince me of their friendliness. Like all of them, Black, White, Male and Female were not interested in me only "after" I was force bred and had my sons (homosexual p edophiles). I will never embrace people who have done nothing except act out viciously towar ds me and mine based on jealousy and slander from people no one in their right m ind would believe. Since no one was allowed to talk "to" me then, I don't see the point of them att empting to talk "at" me. They have a problem with communicating because they are incredibly stupid and ta ke words or simple phrases out of context. I think they do it deliberately like they did with Jesus because if they were t rying to instill into me how much they liked me then they would have been patien t as well as understanding. Patience is love and they have absolutely no love for me. It's impossible to have a relationship of any kind with them that's positive bec ause of their lack of knowledge and acceptence of truths. If it's truth about me then they become very impatient as though the reality of me is exasperating to them. The truth about me infuriates them. "A wise man is slow to anger" They are enraged by my very existance like they were with Jesus and they can't i gnore me either. I don't think I should allow myself to be burdened with them and bored just beca use they don't share my many interests. I don't expect them to, but I'm also not a spoiled, pampered, retarded pet like they are. I'm glad I wasn't coddled because I may have become like the idiots I've endured my entire life, in this world, them. I guess, to the evil apes who have never included me into their world unless the y were exploiting me and now when they must want to exploit me again they are fe igning friendliness even going to the extent of giving me compliments. I thought it was a rule not to show me any kindness, give me any compliments or any positive feedback whatsoever. I'm suddenly attractive when for over half a century I was consistantly talkd ab out negatively to my face as well as behind my back. Every aspect of me was negatively criticized and I thought that too was their ru le in keeping with thier favoring everyone above me. Any third world loser and creature was to be held in high regard above me. I never thought they could appreciate me because they never expressed anything e xcept negative assessments of me to me and others. I know they'll never change or repent because their attitude towards me has neve r changed. They want me to care about what they think of me and I never have. It doesn't matter to me because they are going to do what their Jezebels say as they've always done. When I did care about and for them they didn't accept or appreciate it. I'm not the type to exist in some fantasy about people changing because I've nev er seen one single person actually change from evil to good. They are Jezebels and Ahabs and I accepted this fact about their evil nature.
I will never try and change anyone because it's an exercise in futility which I've never had the luxury to indulge in. They are unteachable, not that I wanted to teach them anything, it's just that m any times they had problems and needed to know some facts that would help them a nd I was met with their inability to learn and understand. Perhaps it was a refusal to learn or just them assuming that I would benefit fro m them learning and they couldn't do anything to benefit me even if it means den ying themselves something they need. This is how stiff necked they are. I'm not the type of person who wants people to change because I saw up close and personal just how hard hearted people can be. They have seared consciences and cannot be saved. I am thankful that I was born to the parents I had because it taught me early on that I could not trust anyone. "It's vain to put your trust in man" Psalms "The heart of man is desperately wicked" New Testament Trust is to be earned. The love I have in my heart is absent in theirs. "Do not be unequally yoked" They try and deal out their brand of unjust justice. The unpardonable sin is what I think they have committed. Nothing can help them once they sin the unpardonable sin. They all had a chance to be sincere and couldn't because they were not supposed to be and I doubt if they ever could be. I've seen the way they behave with eachother when they are on good terms with ea chother and they betray eachother anyway. "I am the righteousness of God through Christ Jesus" *numismatic (1967) *I had valuable coins, antiques *gourmet (1969) *Norman Swilley stomping a White State Trooper (1964) *Mr. Pignatelli and his class *Luscious Morris tried to loan me $8,000 *Victor James interferes with me purchasing a home in Park Slope for $16,000 *Sal stalking me *Vicky Febb's husband wirked in the plaza at the laundramat knows those Italian mobsters (they seem to only employ the dark skinned Blacks and always refused me a job) *While job hunting downtown (the only people who had jobs therre were hispanic f emales, Italian at employment agency tries to get me to have a drink with him af ter not hiring me *P's fake request for designs only after trying to offend me *Dot's friend Jimmy (280 Parkhill across the street from the school) tries to get me into a car with Sal *Sheila's telling Sal about the exact car I liked and he shows tup driving aroun d in it *Phil telling me he's surprised Sal hadn't just raped me, as opposed to stalking me *Dot being tickled by Sal stalking me *Val not believing me until she saw it for herself *Louie having me followed (My Place incident with one of his White informants) *buying my mattress and boxspring and the men who were involved in the scheme *renting my washer and dryer and how those men were in on the scheme *New Dorp and Sheila and Val's experiences different from mine *Diane, across the hall and her youngesy son left out in the rain when she was t urning a trick *Anthony's Father lived down the hall from me when I was on the 5th floor(I was
moved to the first floor after Louie began raping me for his convenience *Anthony and Linda (tried to fight me over that rapist boyfriend of hers) *Denise (tried to fight me over that rapist husband of hers)and Michelle *Idrissa lived on Bluehills Ave in Hartford Johnnye thinks shes breaking news to me that he had a son and she saw him with P amela She pretends I didn't get pregnant when I was supposed to be in her care two houses away. *Dot's bad influence on my oldest son and what he told me she told him *Lady *Mercury lived a block away from me and didn't try and befriend me until I was being held captive as a sex slave in Parkhill (1985). *#1 Lady necklace Louie gave me and really expected me to be thrilled about (a t hinly veiled insult because they despise ladylike behavior and consider it conce it to have self respect because if people have self respect they would not assoc iate with their type of losers, willingly) raping me for several years as if wew ere having a consensual relationship If the twelve signs of the Zodiac represent the twelve diciples then Libra would most likely represent Judas Iscariot the betrayer of Jesus. My first born child is Virgo and my last child is Leo, thus recreating the cycle of God and this wouldn't have been desired by the Satanists who persecute us. Together we have the 4 elements represented also.