Children of Light

2nd Edition - 2004 by

Heather Macauley

Children of Light was originally published in 1995, and is no longer in print. In the process of making it available as an e-Book, I realized I had a rare opportunity (at least for a published author) to rework my book. So welcome to the 2nd Edition (2004) of Children of Light! Enjoy! Heather Macauley


Heather Macauley represents a welcomed new addition to the great storytellers of the human spirit. DEEPAK CHOPRA, Author, The Return of Merlin

Children of Light is a thrilling fantasy-adventure that opens the heart and mind, and takes the reader on a journey of infinite possibilities. JACK CANFIELD, Author, Chicken Soup for the Soul

Children of Light powerfully enlightens us on universal truths: God’s consciousness as the ultimate reality; Love – it’s essence; and Forgiveness the pathway. A masterpiece! BRUNO CORTIS, M.D., Author, Heart and Soul

Children of Light is a parable of the evolution of consciousness. If you let it, it can profoundly transform your life. LEONARD LASKOW, M.D., Author, Healing with Love

I have just feasted on Heather Macauley’s adventure of light, darkness and finding your truth. With great delight I look forward to sharing this with my 12-year old daughter. You and your children deserve this rare and special gift. HAROLD BLOOMFIELD, M.D., Author, The Power of 5

In the tradition of The Celestine Prophecy and Mutant Message Down Under, Heather Macauley has created a novel in which physics and fantasy are masterfully woven into an intricate, powerful story.” WALLY MINTO, Author, The Results Book 3


I remember as a little boy, I wanted so much to be able to think like a grownup. I figured that I'd be able to answer any question that ever came up, to solve any problem that ever came up, and to help anybody who needed help – including those who needed help but didn't even know it! When things got difficult I'd ask myself, "How would I deal with this if I were grown, as an adult?" I became very serious as a child, even considered precocious, mature, and wise beyond my years. When I was around seventeen I decided that I would no longer be in such a hurry to grow up, that adulthood seemed full of a lot more (and worse) problems and troubles than childhood, and that life certainly was already complicated enough just being seventeen. Still, I was very serious and everything was still so important. We were all supposed to be deciding what we wanted out of life and doing our (age- appropriate) best to start in that direction. I remember my dreams changing. I could no longer fly, or run like the wind, or catch a falling star (to put in my pocket and save for a rainy day). I remember how rational thought took over in my dreams, while I tried to figure out what was going on all the time and what was the significance of it all. And, since I had already stopped praying in the wakeful state, there was no room for God in my dreams, I figured. With adulthood came the witnessing of struggle and suffering and conflict and illness and death. With adulthood came parenting -- and the witnessing of innocence, and the miracles of life through birth, and the magic of a child's world. I found myself in the curious and ironic state of envy of such youthful innocence. I found myself fighting to somehow protect that magic as an inalienable right of childhood. Hopefully, other children would not wish to think like grown ups too much and thus too-soon lose their youth. In recent years, I have been able to rediscover magical, childlike thinking. It took what many would consider an extra-complicated route in order to return -- learning to let go of logic in the middle of a dream and just go with it; letting kids teach me how to play again; letting go of harsh judgments and the need to be right; releasing attachments to the way I had remembered things, learned things, taught stuff. Fun and faith and hope and more fun and knowing things will work out 'cause that's just what's gonna happen. "Hey, lighten up! Let's not take this stuff so seriously! Come on -- we're all just kids, anyway!" When we let the light back into our lives, we realize that we are all children of light. I am 4

We are not self-contained entities totally independent of one another -.just to name a few). to experience a lightness of being -. This wonderful journey not only captures the principles of Vedic sciences. of magical being. failure or success. Through the contributions of our growing family of masters of literary magic. we are taught that intelligence and mind are finite limitations of the brain. it does so with enthralling and suspenseful entertainment which reaches audiences of practically any age. and they are seemingly done to us by others. Kermit the Frog -. I can!" For some precious time we are captured by the spirit of giving. thus. along comes some creation of nature which gently— but powerfully--elevates our minds and spirits to higher states of awareness and possibility. and genetics. Chopra at our Center for Mind Body Medicine. Brother Blue. Aloneness does not exist. see ourselves as essentially alone. the nervous system. We are floating – flying -. I am honored to welcome a new master in Heather Macauley beings of light. having totally separate existences and experiences from one another. We are returned to the realm of magic and of "me. separate beings. She is truly a gifted storyteller. Things happen. I immediately became excited (like a kid!) upon experiencing Children of Light. George Wald. and teaching. more and more of us are turning to that state of knowing greater truths. of magical beginnings. Through my association with Dr. pride or disgrace. creatures that have evolved into "thinking machines. Emotions and our responses to actions (reactions) are choices. causing us either grief or joy. In this everyday world we perceive ourselves as distinct. Prof. spiritual traditions. above and beyond the bounds of the mundane of our existence. of loving. playmates (Dr. or lack thereof. We.the consciousness of a child is not burdened with these constraints. though is 5 .personally grateful to those masters of magic and light with whom I have orbited as mentors. friends. What does all this mean.and I am glad to share in her magic and light.rather. It is the consciousness of true freedom. illness or health. We are taught that mind and matter are completely separate and independent of one another. anyway? While in the midst of grounding ourselves in the harshness of reality and practicality. colleagues." Our presumptions are that the 'objective world' is the only true reality -. we are inseparably connected as a set of cosmic relationships. Mind is unbounded. and can find expression in.transcending. Louise Hay. of sharing. Quantum Mechanics.and that this existence of the universe is independent of our perception. Mother Teresa. too!" and of "Yes. It is through our socialization process that we succumb to such a different set of conclusions and core beliefs about universe and existence. infinite. and that we are primarily physical things.miraculously -. human psychology. but whose actions cause all of those situations with which we have to somehow cope. Moreover. participation. and mind-body healing with accuracy and depth. Deepak Chopra. surrounded by billions of others who are also alone.what really matters -. I have had the privilege of reviewing many manuscripts and proposals for endorsement and support. Amazingly -.

Ian. of truth.not encased in physical structure. our universal playground. MPH.not the other way around.that we know the magic of the master plan.. Andrew. Enrico Melson. As we each read this story. and Amelia. Intelligence is infinite and universal. of love -... California April. MD. may we all give to our selves the permission to once again embrace the light. FACPM Center for Mind Body Medicine Del Mar. 6 .as Children of Light -. And it is as beings of light. Matter exists because of consciousness -. who have blessed me with their loving. joyous presence and awakened me to all the children of the world. 1995 Dedication This book is dedicated to all Star Children and especially to my children.

.............................. Chapter 9: Interrupting the Program ......................................TABLE OF CONTENTS Chapter 1: Facing Death....................................... Chapter 2: Everything will be the same and everything will be different ............................................... Chapter 8: 99...............M......................................................... 8 18 22 30 37 44 56 66 79 90 103 106 118 130 142 Information on Children of Light Book II: The Labyrinth ............................ Chapter 13: Instruments of Hate.................... Chapter 7: Star Children......... Chapter 5: The Field of Possibilities....................................................................... Chapter 3: Missing from the Third Dimension........... 152 7 .............................................................E.....................................................9999% Empty Space............................................................................................... Chapter 14: What could you want.............. Chapter 11: Walking through Walls ............ ........... Chapter 4: Beyond the 'E' Ticket ................... Chapter 15: Going H..................................................................................................................................... Chapter 10: The Crystal Cave ........................ forgiveness cannot give you? .. Chapter 6: The Dance of Light.................................................. Chapter 12: The Abduction .................................................O...................................

There was little comfort in the fact that Amelia wouldn't be dying alone. which probably had something to do with the fact that the sun was slowly setting and the colors were deepening in the sky. "Don't worry. The sky was clear and blue and so incredibly immense. She took the lead and tried to run from one rock cairn to the next but her body would no longer allow it. and along dried stream beds. They'd scrambled up and down over boulders gathering rock samples for their class. yet in reality the desert canyons had endless variations. She tried to jog through the fields but 8 . earthy colors contrasted vividly with the sky. It was seventy degrees. sage and prickly pear. Wherever the land was fairly flat they ran instead of walking. The hiking had been so beautiful. Everything was on such a grand scale Amelia hardly noticed the lack of trees and water. They'd never really spoken until that day. Deep. The tranquility of the desert night with its vast array of glittering stars and the merest crescent moon belied the imminent danger of hypothermia.Chapter I Facing Death How strange it was to be sixteen and facing death. She barely knew the boy sitting by her side. They'd planned to head back sooner but Matthew was constantly being drawn around another bend or to the top of a plateau and would not rest until Amelia had shared the view. As shadows lengthened across the canyon Amelia realized how late it was and convinced Matthew to turn back. Matthew had been randomly chosen as her hiking partner by their geology teacher. Even though they were hiking back on the same trail. it was barely recognizable when heading in the opposite direction. She'd always expected the desert to be flat and boring. Until this point Amelia felt confident Matthew would take care of everything. We'll make it!" Matthew sounded confident but Amelia noticed a certain urgency in his walk. As it grew darker. The beauty was more spectacular around each corner. but now it was up to her to get them back. He'd been wearing prescription sunglasses all day but with dusk settling in he could no longer see to lead the way. Matthew realized he'd forgotten to bring his glasses. When they climbed steep cliffs she felt the muscles in her legs shaking from exhaustion. They climbed through crevices and cracks in the rock that were hardly visible from just a few feet away. They hiked through fields of coarse grass. There was something about the desert that was peaceful yet exhilarating.

Several times they had to retrace their steps in order to find the next cairn. Amelia felt the reverence and awe of being in the world's largest cathedral as she watched a vast array of stars dangling like faintly tinted jewels. "They're so much brighter and bigger than anything I've ever seen. and despite exhaustion Amelia tried to run as fast as she could from one to the next. yet suddenly it was too dark to see any further. Suddenly the star dropped. “Do you see that really bright star?" "No. The sky turned a soft sable and three stars twinkled around the crescent moon." replied Matthew squinting upwards." Amelia said quietly as she shifted her weight on the rock where she was perched in a futile attempt to get comfortable. Amelia dug through her pack and handed Matthew half of her sandwich.could manage no more than a fast walk. they sat down. Silently they watched more stars appear as the moon sank slowly below the horizon. In the shadow of the outcrops Amelia could barely see any markers. "Did I scare you?" 9 . She immediately felt better as she buttoned the big handmade buttons.” She paused for a moment staring. There was just enough light to see the cairns up ahead. The temperature had been dropping quickly as the sun was setting and now it was quite cool. Amelia put on her sweater. "I can't see a thing without my glasses. warm and cozy. Light-headed. yellow. then zigzagged." he whispered gratefully. She felt quite certain the star was flashing different colors. as if she were looking down a long. "The constellations don't even look the same. blue." Matthew added apologetically. barely able to sense her body. "What about the star?" Amelia gasped slightly as her body jerked. Under other circumstances it would have been serene and peaceful. Amelia continued in this near trance-like state with no sense of time. Breaking the silence Matthew asked curiously. it seemed only right to whisper. I'm starving. but Amelia was gripped with fear. Finally. They were so close. "I'm sorry. Though they were in the wilderness where even screaming and yelling wouldn't be heard." Amelia peered into the darkness. Her heart pounded in her chest and the blackness made her too dizzy to walk straight. It was oversized. Amelia tried to appear calm but she could feel her heart beating anxiously in her chest. red. At last they climbed to the top of another plateau. "Thanks. As she stared a strange sensation flowed through her body. dark tunnel and this star had become the only star in the sky. green.

I'd go. but trying to talk directly to my mind. first-born son. 4." she said quietly.” Amelia smiled and said softly. but it just doesn't feel right?" "Of course. Elizabeth. "just pick a family holiday!" They laughed.. "My parents despise each other."What are your parents like?" Matthew picked up a rock and started scratching the surface of the boulder where they were sitting. “but I don't feel like I'm part of a family. "if someone from outer space offered to take me somewhere ." he chuckled. "I know this sounds kind of cold. but I had this odd feeling someone was trying to talk to me . well. as he stuck out his own invisible hand.” Amelia replied slowly. And I didn't hear voices or anything. but the strangest thing is that my body started feeling sort of light and tingly." "Really? What about your family? Wouldn't you worry about them?" said Amelia ingenuously. shook her head a little trying to regain some clarity. "Have you ever been in a situation where everyone was doing and saying the right thing. I know this sounds weird. "I really can't explain it. in the midst of my parent's badly hidden." sighed Amelia. “So I figure what's the difference if I left the planet on a friendly UFO?" "Sounds good to me!" cheered Amelia. It's more like I'm a statistic: Matthew James McKinley the third." Amelia took a deep breath.” Matthew said matter-of-factly.. Matthew sat quietly for a moment. "I have the strangest feeling that's not really a star. "I don't know. personal turmoil I've always felt invisible. Sort of like sitting here not being able to see your hand in front of your face. “it's how I feel when I look at it." "I'm afraid so. possession of Matthew James McKinley the second and his lovely wife. And they at least try to be nice in front of the children. "Do you think it's a satellite?" "No.” he said with a slight note of apology in his voice.0 grade average." "You know." Matthew added thoughtfully.Amelia took a deep breath. gathering her thoughts." said Amelia casually. 10 . “ but they've always maintained the we're-so-happy look for outsiders and visiting dignitaries. I'm sure you've heard some version of this story before. "Yeah.." she sighed hopelessly..not out loud. it's not just what I'm seeing. It's been turning different colors and sort of bouncing around. It was an insight known by many but shared by few.

in my situation. "Are you ready for this? They're both psychologists and Mom specializes in . I'm their only child and. hiking boots and a flannel shirt.. my father is the great white hunter. and settled for wiping her nose with her sleeve."Why? What are your parents like?" asked Matthew curiously. there's this Bible story where there was a very wise man named King Solomon. Africa and South America hanging in his study. Amelia took into account the fact that she'd packed only one sweater. whereupon the real mother told him to just give the baby to the other woman.. Mother plays the doormat role. And when these two women came to him. ruddy cheeks. “Well. Though a good blow was in order. "What about your parents?" "Ah. but to no avail. they both agreed to just cut me in half.Ta Da! Family Counseling! Honestly. "How cold is it going to get tonight?" Amelia asked with chattering teeth.. Suddenly Amelia shuddered uncontrollably. He had an athletic build like a mountain climber and he dressed simply in jeans. She searched relentlessly through every pocket for a tissue.” said Matthew in a tired voice. Now. she realized she couldn't really remember exactly what he looked like. I can't live with them both at the same time so if I didn't live here at all that would settle it!" Matthew laughed. She was starting to get a feel for who Matthew was. so no matter what I do one feels loved and the other feels hurt. and her nose was running a marathon. Though she couldn't remember specific details Amelia knew he had dark brown eyes. She knew he was about six feet tall with light brown. 11 . Clever guy. but she's one of those doormats that'll rise up and bite you in the rear if you're not careful!" Amelia laughed. and was basically attractive. both claiming to be the mother of the same baby. And now we have the heads of dead animals from India. She couldn't really remember if he was technically good looking because who Matthew was inside was quite appealing and she knew if she actually lived to see his face again she'd find him to be handsome. it's like the blind leading the blind. Her teeth were chattering. "my parents are getting divorced. He retired at thirty after inheriting a lot of money." She sighed. "What do your parents do?" Amelia cheered. Matthew." said Amelia clearing her throat. I detest the place. Stone cold took on a whole new meaning. King Solomon knew the one who loved the baby enough to give it up had to be the real mother. yes. shoulder-length hair he wore pulled back in a pony tail. unlike the baby in the story. At the same time. King Solomon said the baby should be cut in half. She'd been so engrossed in the conversation and her own thoughts she hadn't noticed the quick drop in temperature. "Well. balanced it with the possibility of survival.

is that fair? It was a poor excuse for a prayer but it was the best she could do under the circumstances. Being a tomboy was familiar territory. So let them win and don't say too much. Then her mother's words rang in her ears." As they sat in silence Amelia thought about her life. dear. God. "You know. "I'm sorry. But then again. but she wasn't about to admit it. I know this seems trivial. being a woman was not. dishwater-blonde hair that she tried to lighten in the summer with lemon juice and sunshine." Amelia blew warm air into her hands. It's my fault. I never should have taken you off the trail. "but they'll be looking at Canyon Rim which is nowhere near here. based on the fact she'd never been on a real date. Amelia involuntarily gasped and tears silently streamed down her cheeks. Her grandmother had often chided." she said touching his hand lightly. or genetics. "Do you know what that means?" "What?" sniffled Amelia. She decided right then and there she would never let a boy win. At that moment Matthew put his arm around her. With a strained voice Matthew replied. they won't take you out on dates. Amelia had always been competitive with boys. Her eyes were an unusual blue-green color and though she wasn't unattractive her father kept telling her she'd grow into her looks . When at last she was blessed with a little development in this department. not to mention the fact she was in all the advanced placement classes and a straight 'A' student. nor would she play dumb. boys like to win. Everything was so confusing." Matthew paused then said slowly."It'll probably drop to below freezing. her grandmother might have been right after all. It seemed funny all these trivial things should be going through her mind when here she was facing death. "I'm sure they'll look for us. "Do you think they'll look for us?" She was frightened again. Until this year her breasts had been virtually nonexistent. If you beat them at games. she discovered to her dismay she was no longer one of the guys." That concept grated against everything Amelia believed in. Amelia hadn't exactly been gliding through adolescence and as yet she hadn't decided who was to blame. If she was just going to die." he said gently. or whoever you are. or if you act too smart. "It means we could die from hypothermia." "It's okay. or poor parental advice? Taller than most boys her age.whatever that meant." He drew Amelia closer and said sincerely. "It was my choice too. what was the point of living in the first place? She thought to herself. but I've never been to the prom or homecoming or even on a real date for that matter! If I die now. Make peace with 12 . Amelia had medium-length. Was it God.

she felt an overwhelming urge to hug her mom. The next time she opened her eyes the star was much closer. Despite the desperate nature of their situation. She felt herself drifting in and out of consciousness.” he said desperately. Amelia." Amelia willed herself back to full consciousness. drawing out the little warmth left in her body. All at once she became aware of Matthew shaking her..imperfection. This helped a little. " he replied thoughtfully. unbuttoned their shirts and Amelia's sweater enough to allow them to share. but when she did open them she always saw the bright star changing colors. Light-headed. Finally they realized they needed to stand in order to accomplish their goal. they took their arms out of their sleeves. “our core temperatures are dropping. Though Amelia still couldn't reconcile herself to that concept. But when the star was farther away it had seemed like a single blinking light. The coldness of the rock penetrated her bones.what about you?" "I'm not sure. "Do you believe in God?" "I don't know. This must be what it's like to die. then red and back to yellow again. She could see lights set up in a circular pattern. The stars seemed more and more distant. Matthew sat behind her with his chest against her back and put his arms around her. A row of yellow. "I've heard so many versions of God I don't know what to think. The lights lit up in such a way that it followed this circular pattern. They discussed their options for a few minutes and decided it would be best to lie on their sides on top of their back packs. "we never went to church . Amelia had heard of people seeing strange things in the desert. This isn't so bad. followed by green. but she knew it was a losing battle. as if she were about to float out of her body. and couldn't figure out if it was the star or the cold that was having this effect on her. Amelia thought. we have to find a way to make the most of our clothing and everything we have. Mostly Amelia kept her eyes closed. then blue. After arranging the packs. They tried to stay 13 .” She took a deep breath. The night grew colder.. "Listen. “Do you think we're gonna die?" Matthew hugged her as she tried to inconspicuously wipe the tears from her cheeks with the back of her hand." said Amelia shaking her head... darling. neither one could help laughing as they fumbled around in the dark constantly apologizing for bumping into each other. Was this an illusion brought on by the cold? Matthew couldn't see that far so there was no sense asking him. Amelia's body began to shake uncontrollably. Amelia snuggled closer to Matthew and said.

even if it was more like a date with destiny than a real date. just surrender to the fact that life isn't fair. Amelia could feel herself giving up. Until this moment Amelia thought she would never surrender to anything or anyone. especially the way they had cocooned themselves together. unbuttoning and re-buttoning. Once again her mother's voice echoed through her mind. surrendering to the reality of the moment. but it was impossible to turn and face him while lying on their sides.. Without fear and struggle Amelia's attention shifted out of the uncertain future into the present moment. But rather than feeling weak. Amelia had never felt the warmth of man's skin against her own body. There was nothing she could do. their bodies pressed together in the confined space.. but suddenly she understood what surrender really meant. filled with wild flowers. Though their plan seemed simple enough. putting his other hand on top of her hands. they hadn't anticipated the difficulty of two functioning as one: Positioning themselves to lie down on their packs while pinned together with their arms at their sides. Before her stood a 14 .. an involuntary. put it over her heart and then put her hands on top of his hands. Somehow Amelia suspected this was God's response to her earlier complaint about never going on a date . and as she paid even closer attention she could feel his heart beating in time with her own heart. She noticed that she and Matthew were naturally breathing at the same pace. except that failure wouldn't afford them the luxury of being sent home.. With some scooting and fidgeting. Without a word she gently took his hand from her waist. At one point they unexpectedly found themselves facing each other. they finally managed to lie down on their sides with Matthew behind Amelia. under a blue bird sky. As Matthew followed her lead. Much to her surprise the vision became increasingly more vivid as she experienced Matthew opening his wings and discovered she was standing in the middle of a beautiful field. Amelia suddenly had a vision of him as a beautiful golden angel with his huge wings wrapped around her. It seemed like something out of a bizarre survival game show. It didn't mean she wasn't strong or courageous.warm while wriggling into the shirts and sweater.. Amelia felt an intimate oneness she had never known. skin-to-skin. Under the circumstances she might have thrown caution to the wind. with one arm under her head and the other arm wrapped around her waist. she was surprised by a deep sense of peace flowing through her body and mind. As she made an effort to stay consciously in the moment she could also feel Matthew's guilt and pain over their situation. it was simply an acceptance of what is. relieved Matthew couldn't see her going red. nervous giggle emerged and she quickly turned around awkwardly. . Amelia felt an unfamiliar warmth surge through her body and combine with an overwhelming desire to kiss Matthew. and though she would like to have stayed in that position indefinitely.

she vividly saw herself floating up into a wide tunnel at the center of a starship. You're much more than you think you are. Nothing is as it seems to be. Amelia recognized these planetary voices from recordings she heard in her high school science class. white light. but it wasn't the customary 8-note scale she knew. when suddenly she realized why the woman looked so familiar. In particular. She thought. who returned her gaze with nothing but love in her eyes. Amelia searched her mind trying to remember her. Yet this celestial music went beyond mere physical vibration. Amelia soon discovered the music was only the prelude as she heard voices singing the words of the poem in the little book she was holding. This is so lovely. She was still lying on the cold rocks with Matthew's arms around her. Amelia felt herself floating up into the sky. and she thought to herself. but also by touching the different tuning forks to her body and feeling the vibration of the different planets. yet they appeared as radiant.I'm you in the future. In reality you are quite safe. but oddly enough she could still feel the gold light radiating from her heart 15 .. and started singing with the choir. shimmering with rainbow colors. Something was so familiar about the experience it didn't even occur to Amelia there was anything unusual about the moment. Instantly she opened her eyes. Smiling warmly.radiantly beautiful woman with long blonde hair. Though she knew she was still lying on the ground with Matthew. Instantly she heard music. Now that she was hearing and feeling the planetary sounds in the form of music. Immediately a column of gold light shot down from the sky filling her entire being with golden light and a feeling of love she'd never known before. In comparison to regular music it was the difference between a small child plunking away on an old piano and hearing a world-class symphony at Carnegie Hall.. They were clearly men. she wondered why no one had created music like this before. Her teacher also had tuning forks tuned to the sounds of each planet. and you're loved more than you will ever know. They weren't angels. moon and planets. It was a dimension unto itself. and was literally attuned to sounds emanating from the sun. I do know this song. Amelia opened the book and saw a beautiful poem set to music. women and children. Their numbers were countless. I wish I knew the music. Yes . She looked up and saw a choir of light-beings surrounding her. regardless of where the tuning forks were placed on her body. their voices sublime. The woman then stepped back and handed Amelia a small. As if magnetized by the light. the woman embraced Amelia and spoke directly to her mind. Amelia she couldn't take her eyes off this woman. She especially liked feeling the vibrations of two planets at once. Mars and Venus together created a harmonic fifth that resonated in her heart. This music resonated through her body and soul. golden book. Amelia had been fascinated not only by the unique sounds.

In the dim glow of the remaining campfire she could see Matthew's face. What had seemed a simple hike in the daytime could have proved fatal at night." At that moment Amelia and Matthew could see everything. Amelia was bursting with questions but nothing came out of her mouth. He didn't seem the least bit puzzled or perturbed. Matthew whispered. as if she was barely touching the ground. I felt this love and peace as well. How could he just say goodnight as if nothing extraordinary had happened? 16 . a little girl no more than ten or eleven years old." With that she disappeared. "Nobody knows you were missing. and she certainly didn't glow from within.. "I'll take you both back to your camp. They walked quietly back to camp and before they could thank the child she turned and said succinctly. they still couldn't see each other. I saw this golden light and when it touched me everything felt warm inside. And then I suddenly woke up. but instead he smiled broadly. "What happened? Your body's suddenly so warm!" Somewhat disoriented and still trying to make sense of it all. on either side of the path were sheer cliffs. The child smiled sweetly and said reassuringly. She felt her cheeks going slightly pink at the thought of Matthew kissing her.. She just stood there staring at the place where the child had been. But the same warmth and feeling is still here inside. "I had this dream. more like a vision. but it was really vivid. Of course before they could go anywhere they had to disentangle themselves from the shirts and sweater." "What do you mean. Slightly incensed she thought. gave her a big bear hug. Amelia couldn't find her voice. She wore a simple white dress and had no shoes on her feet. Matthew simply ducked out from under the clothes as Amelia found his shirt and quickly produced it from underneath her sweater. before them stood a golden-haired child. "In the morning everything will be the same and everything will be different.. Amelia said in a misty voice." Suddenly. and said calmly. He turned and looked deeply into Amelia's eyes. so just go to bed. yet Amelia and Matthew could see her clearly. they don't know we're missing? They'd have to know we didn't make it back!" Amelia blurted out as she planted her feet in the dirt. he looked calm and peaceful. Her body had the strangest feeling. The child continued as if she didn't hear Amelia. She carried no light. as if she contained the sun.and every cell of her body.. There was only one path leading down. and said good-night before heading to his tent. As Amelia walked back to her tent her mind was racing. However. She had rosy cheeks and a wreath of wild flowers in her hair.

Without even undressing she crawled into her down sleeping bag as a litany of questions marched through her mind: How could that child have known nobody was looking for us? How on earth did she find us? And what happened to her? Was she an extraterrestrial? If so. She noticed the other girls sleeping peacefully and thought. but as she sank into the warmth and comfort of her sleeping bag. Caldwell was a solid-looking. even if she was just on a quick trip to the grocery store. 17 . came to the tent cheering. who was to wash up. at least she could have admitted it! The diatribe continued. and she was a no-nonsense kind of gal when it came to leaving punctually for a hike.' Amelia saw her backpack just as she'd left it the day before with a blue. "I haven't seen her since yesterday afternoon!" "Didn't she go hiking with Matthew?" "Has anybody seen him?" All at once Amelia realized nobody could see her." All eyes turned toward Amelia's cot. tin cup still hanging from a strap on the side. everything was so vivid being awake felt more like a dream in comparison. The girls slowly started to wake up as Mrs.. "Where's Amelia? Have you girls seen her?" Amelia laughed affably. "Very funny. She yawned. Immediately the girls began talking at once. stretched. She was always clad for serious hiking. I'm sitting right here.. Caldwell. At that moment their instructor. In fact. who was to cook. Mrs. What was it that child said? 'Everything will be the same and everything will be different. Well. and remembered a strange dream from the night before. everything certainly is the same.I don't see what's so different. She looked right at Amelia and announced. Amelia woke to sunlight streaming into the tent. "Rise and shine everybody!" Mrs. middle-aged woman with spikey gray hair and ruddy cheeks. Caldwell rattled on about breakfast duty. Her eyes closed involuntarily as she fell into a deep sleep. But oddly enough it didn't feel like a dream.

“Thank God. but there was no response. At this point.” said Matthew reassuringly as he wrapped his arms around her." 18 . Mrs.” she sighed. Desperately she tried to grasp a friend's shoulder. She couldn't make herself seen. “I'm right here. God. yet the sound of his heart and the warmth of his body comforted to Amelia. yet her hand passed through the girl's body as if it were nothing more than a holographic image. "Everyone! Gather over here. metal spoon and hollered. Amelia rushed out of the tent trying to find anyone who might acknowledge her presence. Caldwell started beating on a pot with a large. "I'm not sure. Matthew finally broke the silence. let him see me! Matthew waved his arms and cried desperately. deeply relieved that her hand didn't pass through his body as it did with her friend. "Amelia!" "You can see me?" she yelled. they withdrew to a nearby hillside and watched helplessly as their teacher and bus driver began to form search parties and made plans to contact forest rangers.Chapter II Everything will be the same and everything will be different Gasping for breath. everyone was running through the camp frantically asking if anyone had seen Amelia and Matthew. She saw Matthew coming toward her. scanning the campsite searching for clues. "Do you think this has anything to do with that little girl we saw last night?" he asked. The pounding in his chest confirmed Matthew's fear as well. Amelia closed her eyes and held him tightly. fearing he too might dissipate in the morning light. Finally. normal. "How come you never said anything about her last night? You acted like everything was so.” Amelia muttered. Her stomach was in knots as adrenaline coursed through her veins. her heart pounding wildly." Matthew and Amelia tried desperately to be noticed but there was no response. Please. Amelia yelled. heard or felt. "No one can see me either!" Tentatively Amelia reached out to touch Matthew. "No one else can!" He rushed up to her and said urgently.

Following Matthew. a combination of panic and anger conspiring to get the best of her. what happened to us?" Amelia demanded." Slowly she said. but not being able to communicate with anyone and yet they still have bodies. But what happened to our bodies?" "You're not dead. There was a water bottle Amelia had accidentally left behind.. Amelia suddenly stopped.." "Well.. "I felt like I was walking in a dream. Do you know what I'm talking about?” Nodding slowly Amelia stared at Matthew silently for a moment. Maybe that little girl was some sort of an angel.. and we've left our bodies. he exclaimed.” “Would still be on the rocks where she found us. “Come on let's go!” he added quickly. One minute I was freezing to death in pitch darkness and the next I'm warm and I can see. and I couldn't feel my body except for this tingly. "My. but no bodies. God! We must be dead. grabbing her hand. "if we're dead." said a voice behind them. it was more like floating. “Maybe we should sit down. just like we do. then our bodies must be somewhere. "What do you mean. Stunned. our bodies.. studying her intently. thinking out loud. When we reached the camp it felt like everything was as it should be.. An unsettling realization began to play itself out in her mind and flickered across her face."It's hard to explain. that's not possible." said Matthew. with no effort at all.” the girl said sympathetically. "Maybe we really did die of hypothermia.. "It's difficult to understand. Immediately they found the place where they'd been the night before." he said turning to her in earnest. “I've read about people who died and came back to life. climbed back down the rock face and onto a dirt trail. They turned and saw the little girl. “We're not leaving any footprints!" Matthew looked at the trail and then at Amelia. warm feeling." the girl said slowly.. like when you dream you're swimming under water and breathing and that seems perfectly normal and reasonable until you wake up and think.” said Matthew finishing her sentence. They walked around.. "Well." 19 . I didn't even feel like I was walking. another dimension?" Matthew asked warily. "Matthew! Look!” she exclaimed breathlessly. They talk about being outside of their bodies. "What if we're dead?” she whispered. dressed the same as the night before. Though it was a steep climb they ran quickly. "You're in another dimension. In which case..

dotted with tiny wildflowers. This is a possibility. Please. or think of swimming in an ocean of pure light.” she said leaning forward with her elbows on her knees. "This isn't your home. as if this child could see into her very soul. The child looked directly into her eyes and held her gaze. looked at Matthew. Just imagine. It was like being in two places at once. yet dancing is too earth-bound a concept for what she was able to do and feel. Amelia shifted back and forth uncomfortably for a few moments and then flopped to the ground frustrated and utterly confused." protested Amelia feeling confused. Her eyes had never closed and she'd remained fully conscious. She felt as if she were staring into the eyes of mother and child at the same time. "Where was I?” "Home. “I come from a star system called the Pleiades. glittering with an infinite spectrum of color beyond anything you've ever seen. but less combative. darkest secrets. Imagination is more important than knowledge. "There's so much to explain. planting her feet and crossing her arms. She closed her eyes and took a few deep breaths. The girl opened her eyes. There were no constellations she could recognize and yet it all seemed so familiar. Instead of judging what you see or hear as right or wrong simply say to yourselves. The girl sat facing them. As if waking from a dream she asked. Though she couldn't explain why. “Your Einstein said. then back at the child. new. eyes both wise and innocent. Her heart filled with joy and she began dancing among the stars. which was a bit annoying in itself. the spirit of Christmas. Amelia felt a sense of peace and well-being wash gently over her. Matthew sat next to her and seemed to be taking things more in stride. Amelia felt as if she were floating in the center of the universe surrounded by stars. "I've never felt like that at home. sea and sky. You both need to use your imaginations for what I'm going to tell you. the dance of a first kiss. It has seven stars known as 20 . She blinked. Forget what you think you know. Amelia realized she hadn't moved. sit down. Colors as feelings. yet blending together: A rainbow into white light. Her eyes were almost translucent and so intensely blue Amelia found it difficult not to stare. Are you both willing to stay open to possibilities?" Amelia and Matthew both nodded. flat rock."Wait!" blurted Amelia nonplussed. Yet there was no feeling of judgment.” said the girl matter-of-factly. Imagine the body singing. Amelia had never felt so vulnerable." said the little girl ingenuously. "Who are you? Where did you come from?" The little girl sat in the sun on a large. jewels transposed with flowers. looking at them intently. fragrant grass. Gradually. "My name is Äsha. and knew all of her deepest." she sighed as she motioned toward an unusually lush portion of soft. alive and distinct. In her previous panic Amelia hadn't noticed the child's radiance.

She took a deep breath as if to answer." "How long did it take you to get here?" Amelia asked curiously." Thoroughly confused. not even visible to the human eye." Äsha smiled warmly at them and soothed. unless we really are dead. Before Äsha could answer. but there are a lot of people looking for us right now and we really don't have time to talk about this. Amelia cried. but then replied conclusively." 21 . "That is. Now think of the possibilities! Imagine life as pure consciousness. and the Milky Way in comparison to the universe would be about the size of an atom. We need to let someone know we're alright. "You don't seem anything like a child to me. "I don't mean to interrupt." "Wait!" exclaimed Amelia hastily.really?” Matthew and Amelia leaned forward anxiously as Äsha looked deeply into their eyes. completely fascinated by the obvious fact that Äsha had experience of other dimensional realities." "How's that possible?" asked Matthew incredulously. but the Pleiades is actually comprised of several hundred stars. Think of civilizations that have been evolving for trillions of years. that you don't wake up from dreams into reality. Amelia looked at her skeptically and said.” Äsha replied lightly.the Seven Sisters. “Then what are you.” Amelia replied cautiously. but you merely shift from one consciousness into another. of course.. “Life on Planet Earth has only really evolved in the last hundred years.” Carefully choosing her words she continued she said quietly. “I'm not a child in the sense you're thinking. You must understand other dimensions before I can explain myself. "It's possible because I live in another dimensional reality. "No. “To understand this you must begin to see the enormity of creation and that life on Earth is really quite primitive. "If you think about it. It just seemed to me this form would be the most acceptable and least frightening. Amelia added skeptically. "I know this is all very confusing. beings that exist multi-dimensionally.” Äsha continued categorically. “We can simply think of a destination and arrive. "No time at all." Äsha was quiet. "Wait! Stop! Go back! What are you talking about? We live in a dream? Multi-dimensional? Who? What? When?" "How do you shift consciousness?" asked Matthew eagerly. The earth in comparison to the Milky Way is smaller than a speck of dust..” said Äsha directly.

“I mean before you came here to the earth-plane." said Äsha smiling reassuringly while holding out her hand as a landing zone for a huge dragonfly. And though you won't understand this now. There was only a trickle of water.” said Äsha deliberately. however. I know this is a lot for both of you to take in. had sprung to life on either side of the stream bed providing cool moisture and shade. Dragonflies and a variety of multicolored butterflies flitted among the leafy branches and newly opened flowers. “Let's walk a bit. She could no longer force herself to make any sense of all that was happening. you will be able to return and your friends' experience will seem to them to be only a hazy dream. As they walked along Amelia picked a bright red Indian paintbrush and smiled as she stuck the flower through a buttonhole in her shirt. "Why are we being held captive?" "You're not captives.. “You are." "You're saying.” soothed Äsha.” Grateful to be walking after an entire night on cold rocks. they both complied readily with Äsha's request. Time as you know it is relative and in this dimension we can play with time. as the dragonfly.Chapter III Missing from the Third Dimension "You're not dead in the classic sense of the word. Observing Amelia's stunned reaction Äsha suggested. Contrasting sharply with the harness of the desert this miniature world was an oasis to countless birds singing in the canopy of the tall trees. It will help if you keep breathing. Both of you actually agreed to this before you ever came here. perching delicately on her hand. unseen in other parts of the desert. "that in my mother's womb I somehow agreed to be kidnapped into another dimension while on a high school field trip?" 22 . but even so lush greenery." Matthew began in utter disbelief. Shaking her head. stretched its gossamer wings. following her as she led them down a trail and along a stream bed.. Tiny lizards lazed in freckled sunshine or skittered along rocks and twigs." "No. "What do you mean? No one ever said anything about this before our trip. missing from the third dimension." Completely overwhelmed and confused Amelia felt herself just giving up. Amelia said. Breaking the silence Matthew said matter-of-factly.

“it has more to do with the experience. And that's what this is all about. "Or knowing everything about soccer. nothing ever happens against your will. You even have a game-plan for what you want to accomplish. if we already know everything?" Amelia asked somewhat apprehensively. You know everything. life is pure consciousness.” Amelia felt herself going slightly pink as she reflected on her growing feelings for Matthew. “Though most people are quite unaware of this. taking a deep breath. your name." "Why would we come here to learn. stepping gingerly over a particularly fat lizard lounging languidly in a spot of sunshine right in the middle of the path. you're an integral part of it. your date of birth.” She giggled as a ladybug claimed a spot next to dragonfly. but you'd never actually jumped out of a plane and had the experience."It is so difficult that you remember nothing.” Äsha continued." Before them appeared a globe-shaped holographic image hovering in the air about two feet off the ground and extending another ten feet above them. the hologram drifted over them and encased them. not the reality that you know. “I can take you both back to your camp and you'll return to the third dimension. "Watch. You choose your family.” “So what if we choose something else?” said Matthew. and the feeling of learning from your experience. as a tiny. but you've never played the game. Both of you chose to be on what you might call the accelerated program. From within this 23 . However. You're teachers and students at the same time. “If you don't choose the accelerated program. “So you see. "Imagine you knew everything about sky diving. In a way. “your decision will affect this entire planet. white butterfly added itself to her living collection. it must still be your choice to have the experience in the first place." "We're in high school!" exclaimed Matthew.” her voice dropped into a more serious tone as she looked directly at them. Every experience and feeling is recorded. or to be more specific. you choose everything before you come to the earth. Think of the difference between reading a romance novel. and the actual feeling of being in-love. you have total access to universal intelligence." replied Äsha. including a neon-blue beauty on her shoulder. yet all the while fascinated by the fact butterflies were now landing on all of them. you come to the earth-plane or the third dimension for the purpose of learning. In fact.” Äsha responded lightly. As they stood silently watching. “But I must tell you. grinning as a gorgeous monarch butterfly landed on her shoulder. "In true reality. "How much of a difference can we make?" Äsha whispered.” said Äsha. how you want to play the game of life.

the older monkeys still refused to adopt the procedure. The other monkeys also tried the potatoes. they saw they were on a beach surrounded by lush. dense jungle. "The island of Koshima. Amelia and Matthew laughed as they watched the different ways in which the monkeys tried to remove the dirt. "Did that really happen?" "I read about it somewhere. Then the holographic image shifted and showed them all of the colonies on all the islands and on the mainland. but none of those monkeys were washing their potatoes. "Where are we?" asked Amelia. They watched time move rapidly through a six-year period. All the older monkeys who had never washed their potatoes before began washing them." As the holographic image brought them closer. about eighteen months old. Finally one monkey picked up a potato and after toying with it. Amelia asked in awe. and this was taking place on the very same day this one last monkey was being taught to wash its potato. "What about the monkeys on the other islands?" asked Amelia feeling a bit confused. Then the image vanished. "You'll see monkeys being studied by a group of scientists. took her potato to a nearby stream and washed it. Then they watched as a young female. It has something to do with conscious thought causing what's called a self-sustaining chain reaction. brushing the potatoes with their hands or wiping them on themselves or each other. 1952. A particular young monkey in the colony was being taught to wash its potato. and though they seemed to find the flavor pleasant. even after six years. In that moment something happened. They saw a bird's-eye view of other colonies of the same monkey species on other islands in the chain and on the mainland. “It's a phenomena called critical mass." replied Äsha. succinctly. Before them was a pile of sweet potatoes and a colony of monkeys eyeing the potatoes suspiciously. time began moving more quickly. Then time slowed down to an autumn day in 1958. Almost all of the monkeys were adopting the new technique. As they watched.” said Matthew as leaned up against a nearby tree. They also noticed the other adults refused to learn the method. However. "They never saw the young monkeys washing their potatoes. It never seemed to be quite good enough. Oddly enough it doesn't have anything to do with the habits or beliefs of the majority. took a bite. They saw the monkey show her playmates and her mother this technique and her playmates in turn showed their mothers. transfixed. they quite obviously found the dirt distasteful. Yet on the island of Koshima all the young monkeys grew up learning this washing technique. Why would they all 24 . near Japan. and they floated down to one particular island.holographic bubble they found themselves high above a chain of tropical islands in the South Pacific.

Immediately she put her hands over her eyes but gradually took them away as she realized the light wasn't painful." They all stood quietly for a few moments. on auto pilot. She closed her eyes and could still see it. "The 'E' ticket is for the best rides at Disneyland. there's a point where everyone who's. took a deep breath and said emphatically. you know. "but notice how everything appeared to stay the same until just one more monkey learned. and even different combinations of 25 . Äsha smiled back and said. only to see itself reflected back in duplicate in Amelia's sunglasses. radiant light. the way a drop of dye would change the color of a glass of water. "So would you like to continue learning or would you prefer to go back to your camp?" Amelia sat on a big log. when people are making conscious choices and there are enough of them. as if she was the most desirable flower imaginable." "You may think your choices couldn't possibly make a difference. She felt herself being drawn down the center of the vortex as if she were being pulled out of her body. She was standing in some type of an immense library. and the shift had nothing to do with experience or exposure. As the vision continued she found herself surrounded by the most intense white light she had ever experienced. will find themselves doing things differently." said Matthew enthusiastically. Her body was pure. "It's the 'E' ticket!" He raised his Noticing Äsha's puzzled look." At that very moment a humming bird zoomed up to the red flower on the front of Amelia's shirt and hovered. “Count me in!” eyebrows and said meaningfully to Amelia. Don't underestimate what you can do. "scientists are starting to believe that we're all linked in some way. She looked for the source of the light. Matthew and Amelia couldn't help grinning as they saw more butterflies delicately land on Äsha.suddenly start doing something they'd never seen before?" "That's just it. It then shot up a few inches. and there were others who were light also. just long enough to realize there was something very different about the flower. before zipping up into the treetops! Everyone burst out laughing and Matthew cheered. but it wasn't until she looked down that she realized the light was emanating from her own body. So. Intense neon shades of emerald green and amethyst swirled together with distinct patterns. Each had varying hues and intensity. "I'll stay. That one monkey caused the consciousness of all the monkeys to shift." said Äsha. I guess you could say our minds are sort of like drops of water in a sea of consciousness." Suddenly Amelia saw in front of her an energy vortex. Amelia smiled and laughed. You never know if you might be the one who makes all the difference. It was like looking down into the eye of a hurricane with the shapes and colors of a kaleidoscope.

A man came toward her. finding words were totally inadequate. She opened her eyes and saw Matthew staring at her. I was pure light. I knew everything! Everything! It was just like Äsha said!" Matthew leaned toward her eagerly. She reached out to touch one of the disks and the light from her body merged with the light on the disk. but it wasn't solid. "I can tell you one thing. “but I know I knew everything. He was the most intensely luminous of all the people she'd seen.colors. Amelia looked at him for a moment and then turned to Äsha. even harmless.” replied Amelia slowly. time doesn't go from point A to point B. It's not linear. It's more like the past and future are actually different 26 ." Amelia replied. “You're pure light! That's what you really are!" Äsha smiled and nodded. It's like. present and future all at once. it was how I felt. Amelia's breathing was at first uneven but eventually she became more calm and her breathing stabilized. Excited. Amelia realized she knew everything about each person she saw. but I was still myself. and saw that everything was actually happening simultaneously. Amelia could feel the light from her body radiating out with such intensity it merged with all the light-disks in the library. Without words he communicated to Amelia she was deeply loved and cared for and that when she returned to her physical body she wouldn't be able to remember all she currently knew and felt. She suddenly comprehended everything in the universe and saw there was perfect sense and order to everything. I was me and I had a body. "Tell me!" "I can't tell you what I knew. Without knowing why. aren't you?” Amelia cheered enthusiastically. As his light touched her own she felt the most incredible sense of love. but it was more than that. "For just a few minutes. "Time isn't the way we think it is. In the library there were no books or computers. But it was more than that. only disks of light. And everything made perfect sense. Amelia turned to Matthew. This love was powerful yet gentle. Amelia's body jerked. "You're light. Instantly she knew the contents of the disk. and she felt she'd known him forever. She comprehended past. barely able to contain her enthusiasm for this newfound information. There was the feeling she knew everything. "Can you remember anything else?" asked Matthew hopefully. feeling somewhat exasperated by her inability to describe her experience." Amelia stopped for a moment.

" 27 . patting her knee. "Since I wasn't there you'll have to be patient with me. but if someone finds him and has the technology to bring him back to life then what's happening in the present is affecting the past and the future all at the same time. "but it does. "This is impossible to explain. and on top is the future. "Okay. Imagine the past as the bottom level. Whatever shifts on the second level (or in the present) affects both the future and the past. "Attempting to explain this will help solidify the ideas in your own mind. The future's like moisture in the air. as if time is vertical." Matthew encouraged.just do your best. scooting over a bit to give him more room. turning slightly to look at him more directly. "It's not like school where you're given facts and statistics." "Don't give up.. "I'm with you so far. changes in our future can affect the present. "think of a three-layered chess board. But from the perspective of the hub you can look in all directions and see all the 'events' are happening at once. In fact. Äsha looked at her affectionately. I'm not actually sure I can describe this. Imagine the present as if it were liquid. As you teach. Instead. instead of horizontal. like a river that's flowing. So if you're looking down from the top you'd see everything all at once. All the levels are transparent. He smiled and said reassuringly. It felt as if images were being projected into her mind.dimensions of the present.." Matthew said. solid. information comes like a feeling. this is the closest I can get.. Matthew. sitting down next to her on the fallen log." Amelia continued earnestly." "I can't explain why it works that way.. which would represent past. Äsha. He could stay in that state for hundreds or thousands of years. It can't change. . She took a deep breath and began. imagine a man who's been frozen through cryogenics. "I'm almost with you. it isn't . Then she had the strangest feeling she was getting help. And the future hasn't happened so it can't affect the present. and the past as if it were frozen." Amelia stopped to see if Matthew understood. You feel information instead of thinking information." Amelia stopped. . It's like being at the hub of a bicycle wheel and looking up at the spokes connecting to the rim. "The past is past." "Come back." "Wait! How could the present effect the past?" asked Matthew skeptically. the present as the middle. Wait! Better yet." "Sorry. you learn. present and future." Amelia searched for an image to describe what she'd felt." said Amelia patiently. it's present but you're not aware of it. The past isn't dead and gone like we think it is. will you try?" she pleaded hopefully." "Well. It's just a brand new concept." said Amelia.

but the scientist. How come these things happen to Amelia and not me?" "For one thing. Your feelings. our present was his future. facing Matthew directly.” Äsha soothed. not so much your analytical thought.” continued Äsha. “try not to compare your experience with Amelia's." Äsha began. "to the cryogenic man. "Try not to be too analytical or you won't get it." "I think it would be much easier. "Remember. The cryogenic man. he'd be waking up in his future. Everyone has unique life lessons tailored for whatever they're here to learn and experience. who represents the present. There's only a conscious decision in the present. I'll tell you both a secret about how to change what you call the future. "if I could just go to some spinning energy vortex of my own.from being solid ice to liquid -. or the past." said Äsha kindly. He wouldn't be waking up to his concept of present. Whatever you're ready for will come to you in a form you can perceive without feeling threatened. turning to straddle the log. without feeling threatened?" asked Matthew." "What you do mean. "But if you did love snakes and were extremely knowledgeable. literally magnetize to you your experiences. so to speak. could've stayed frozen indefinitely. which would indelibly shape his sense of the present. "that you were someone who loved snakes. Think about it. What you feel in this moment is what will create your so-called future experiences. Don't try so hard." Matthew sat quietly for a few moments and scratched his head. "There is no future." "Oh. Just allow the information to flow through the imagination. I hate snakes!" exclaimed Matthew vehemently." said Amelia. "you cannot perceive other dimensional reality from your analytical mind. What makes history change -. Can you grasp the future or the past? There’s really only this moment."Now here's the hard part." Matthew said. “not 28 . and change history simply by what we're thinking in the present about the past. "So how can the nonexistent future affect the present?" "Well. feeling a bit disconcerted. would've had to make a choice about bringing the man back to life. and it's the same in this case too." added Äsha perching on a nearby rock with more butterflies accessorizing the flowered wreath in her hair. "Suppose." she said." "I think I'll have to stay with this one for a while." "Now. In the same way we can consciously choose to bring the past back to life." said Matthew looking at them both.

"Now. Amelia has the feeling of leaving her body. “think of how you feel about snakes. thinking they may never be able to get back into their bodies." Instantly they traveled through space and time. It was as simple as a scene change at the movies. You might even let the snake wrap itself around your neck or let its tongue brush your cheek. Or they may be holding some fear that closes them off from the experience. Azure blue canvassed fluffy.the least bit afraid. surrounded by wild flowers. "there are certain experiences that could be so frightening to you it would be impossible to learn because you'd have so much difficulty overcoming your fear. teasing the imagination with ever-changing pictures. . So just keep in mind whatever comes to you is perfect and when you're ready for more I promise you it will be there. She's able to go with it." “Ugh!" Matthew winced. Matthew replied in defense. The glittering ocean below peeked through the trunks of ancient sequoias. Matthew.” said Äsha calmly. Would you want someone to drape a snake over your shoulders?" Recoiling at the mere thought. "I think we need a change of scenery." Äsha stood up and beamed brightly. "I'd probably pass out!" "In the same way. yet there was no sensation of movement. 29 . it wouldn't bother you if a friend handed you a snake or dropped one in your lap. white clouds drifting lazily across the sky. They were all standing on a mountainside overlooking the Pacific." Äsha continued. but some people find the experience genuinely frightening.

" "So where are we?" Matthew inquired curiously. You see. Your mind is able to release and have experiences of other dimensions. also apparently along for the ride.. smiling with her arms outstretched indicating their surroundings." "But I didn't think of coming here. present and future as one. but they're difficult to describe. "Amelia.” said Äsha frankly. her eyes sparkling as she noticed the neonblue butterfly still on her shoulder. the second dimension would be a line. “is where the 'E' ticket brought you!" "This is totally beyond me." Amelia laughed. "As you know. "Let me begin by explaining the dimensions. In this dimension.but you did agree to come along for the ride. The same difficulty exists for you in your ability to comprehend dimensions beyond the third. you'd have a really difficult time describing to the other lines what it was like being a human and living in the third dimension. "Now there are many dimensions beyond the third. whatever you think becomes reality instantly.Chapter IV Beyond the 'E' Ticket "Whoa!" exclaimed Matthew. In your case.. "That's true . Matthew.” said Äsha. as they walked slowly down the grassy knoll. which is why you've been leaving your body and having the feeling of being in two places at once." said Äsha enthusiastically. and of course you know that most of what comprises your world is in the third dimension. "We're in another dimension. 30 . For instance. this includes the concept of past. the first dimension could be represented by a dot on a piece of paper. your consciousness is very open. if you were a two dimensional line on a piece of paper and you became a person for a day and then had to go back to being a line." said Amelia breathlessly. "I take it back! This is way beyond the 'E' ticket!" "How did you do that?!" cheered Amelia. and this. there's no frame of reference. having these experiences may not seem to come as easily to you because your thought is very linear and analytical. "The laws and limitations you know in the third dimension don't exist here.

What you see are thought forms. which came first." he said laughing." Matthew pondered out loud. "The idea is one. of course. "That's one way of looking at it. since everything's in consciousness.. "Well. "You can't exactly sit on an idea!" Äsha laughed." said Äsha. you could destroy every chair that was ever made. the chicken or the egg?" he asked." "Which means?" Matthew asked. There's no time or space or solid matter in this dimension. “That's why things are thoughts." he replied." "But where do the ideas come from?" asked Matthew plainly. as three chairs magically appeared before them.” "Does this tie in with the question. 31 . I guess. Äsha sat in a beautiful hand-carved. "It means that you don't have the same limitations you had in the third dimension. "I don't get it.” "A chair. complete with the brain that you think gives you your intelligence?" "I don't know.. there's no separation between the chicken and the egg. anything you see began as an idea." "What has more substance.” continued Äsha. Ideas don't have to start as infantile or mature. child-sized chair that seemed to have been made for her.” replied Matthew thoughtfully. "My brain. Things are thoughts.” said Äsha. you're in the fourth dimension. a chair or the idea of a chair?" Äsha asked. "Then what's the intelligence that told your body to develop from a few cells into a full body." "Things are thoughts?" blurted Matthew. “the idea or the thing?" Matthew thought for a moment then said."Right now. They can incorporate everything all at once. "I guess it would have to be the idea. Amelia sat in an overstuffed armchair and Matthew ended up in a funny blow-up chair that looked like a blue race car. Could you destroy the idea of a chair?" "No. "So what is more substantial. "Where do you think intelligence comes from?" replied Äsha. However." "So.

They can choose not to express love. creative Intelligence all around you?" She paused for a moment. Äsha looked steadily into Amelia's eyes.” "So how do you know you're not dreaming right now?" Äsha asked deliberately. Think of the sun as the source and the rays as the expression. "There exists a Source of all intelligence."Look at the life-force on this planet." "There's one thing I don't get." puzzled Amelia. I guess it's in my mind. "It just is.” said Äsha with a sweeping motion of her arm. You can't separate the thought from the thinker. “Can't you see there's incredible. but I'm solid. then added. stating the obvious. Matthew and Amelia looked at each other and then back at Äsha. and it's infinitely creative. "I can feel that!" "What if this is a dream you're having?” Äsha whispered patiently. So everything you see. the ground is solid. "Then where is the ground in your dream? And what is it that's being pinched?" Amelia thought for a moment. "Of course I'm sure!" exclaimed Amelia as she tapped her foot a bit harder on the ground and squeezed her own arm. or tap your foot on the ground?" "Of course. for one thing. "Are you sure?" asked Äsha looking directly into Amelia's eyes." "Does everything seem real to you when you're dreaming?" “Most of the time. curling up in her comfy chair. feel and experience around you is the expression of the Source.." she said as she stretched out one leg and tapped it on the ground. Can you imagine this Love beginning or ending?" "Then why do people hate each other?" asked Amelia. including yourselves.." 32 . You can't separate the sun from the rays.. but they cannot choose the existence of Love.. all love." "But where does this Source come from?" asked Amelia. "Think of the origins of Love. "Well. the essence. "You said things are thoughts and I understand the concept of the idea being more substantial than the thing. “Could you squeeze your arm and feel it." Äsha said brightly. the idea of Universal Love. "Because they have the freedom of choice." said Amelia. "Well.

that was a dream. upon waking. made absolutely no sense." Äsha continued with a smile. “or does it seem real at the time?" Amelia shook her head. giggling as her chair began floating a few inches off the ground. Oh. Puzzled Amelia said. yeah. but Äsha put up her hand indicating she should stay in her chair." "What does a dream feel like?" asked Äsha. "For the most part. we spend our entire lives going back and forth between dream states. "If we have no means of comparison then how do we know whether 33 .” asked Äsha. but you never questioned the reality of it while you were dreaming? Does it make sense that people would destroy their own living environment? Or destroy their own families through physical and emotional abuse? The reason you never question your reality is because you are so deeply immersed in the dream. "but what if you're all in the same dream together? You think nothing of creating entire worlds while you're dreaming." said Äsha." "When you wake up you look at the dream and think." "Is it hazy and distant when you're having the dream. "Well. I mean. "I don't know. Amelia began to stand up as well.” said Äsha. shrugged her shoulders and said. "By being conscious of true reality. as she shifted her position on the chair. all kinds of people and events. his chair disappearing instantly. “How do you know what's real?" Amelia had never thought of questioning reality. “More hazy and distant. But what do you compare reality with?” asked Äsha steadily. it does seem real. without ever waking up?" asked Matthew standing up. perching on one of the wooden arms. “You could say that you simply shift from a sleepingdream into a waking-dream. "this doesn't feel like a dream. this is reality. keeping pace with Äsha and Matthew as they walked. as she stood up and her chair disappeared. yes." "Are you saying. unless of course you consciously choose to wake up." "How do you wake up?" asked Amelia. "You all look to each other and agree the world you live in is real. yet you never question the world you wake up to.said Amelia. I guess so. "How often have you had dreams that. while encouraging Matthew to walk with her. I guess.” shrugged Amelia.

what you've decided is good or bad. would they see it exactly the same way?" Äsha returned. "I don't know if this exactly relates to what you're talking about. "You may react to a situation with anger or fear.” said Äsha enthusiastically. Is that sort of like waking up. even though it was a very brief moment.." "How can you choose what to feel?" asked Amelia. it's how you choose to feel about what's happening. but I read of an interesting scientific discovery related to the dream state and the conscious recognition of reality." "Initially that's true.. "You can't change what happened. “but it's more than just knowledge .. but they'd no longer be paralyzed. “Be patient.." 34 . "That's it exactly. for instance they're sitting in a wheelchair paralyzed: The person could briefly wake up and consciously realize they're not paralyzed. In other words. you'd feel it physically and emotionally too. you can't change the experience but you can change your interpretation of the experience. In the same way. "Things happen and you feel how you feel. because the person realized what was true?” he asked. "So you could say that each person's experience is determined by their perception or their interpretation. "I doubt it." agreed Äsha.. “Apparently the conscious knowledge that they weren't paralyzed. right or wrong." "If you had a hundred people who all had the same experience. “Scientists discovered if a person is dreaming.reality is true or not?" "That's what you're here to learn and discover.” said Äsha. they'd be in the same exact situation. There's no quick answer to that's a feeling. had an instantaneous effect on the dream.” replied Äsha. But what if you decided to look at it differently?" "How could you look at it differently?" Matthew inquired. Interestingly enough when that person would resume dreaming. it's not what's happening that determines your experience. It's the feeling that would change the dream state. still floating along in her chair... “And how you're perceiving something comes from the judgments you've made based on your past experience.” replied Matthew. It wouldn't be just intellectual. Think of how it would be if you dreamed you were paralyzed and how relieved you'd feel when you woke up." Matthew gazed at Amelia in her floating chair and smiled broadly as she returned his smile and laughed.. Returning to his thoughts he said. still sitting in the wheelchair.

She'd had a crush on him for years. laughing heartily. let me help you up." he said smiling gregariously as he reached over the edge. but experiencing her past in the present. As Amelia watched herself standing on the dock she noticed an energy field around her body. they were all instantly standing on a lake front beach where Amelia's family had a cabin. The energy extended out about six to eight inches and was sort of a muddy. Unfortunately. He burst to the surface. "Sorry. Amelia pushed off the bottom and was already making plans to kill her little cousin. As she stretched out her legs to stand. "That's okay! I needed to cool off!" Amelia said brightly as she grasped his hand tightly. But when she surfaced she was surprised to see her neighbor. The scent of pine permeated the air. She thought how odd it was to have been standing in her own past. They'd gone back through time! The strangest thing was Amelia could feel exactly how she'd felt that day. They played and tickled and dunked each other until finally they walked back toward the cabins tired and dripping. suddenly aware her chair had disappeared and she was sitting on air. and spiders. Amelia looked around and was shocked to see herself from a year earlier standing barefoot on the dock on a hot summer evening. Gerand. Her young cousin. wedged her foot just below the dock. overpowering even the pungent odor of seaweed and fish that usually transpired from the soggy beach. Emerald Lake had the color and clarity for which it had been named. she was shoved into the water. wearing black shorts and a lime green t-shirt. Tabasco sauce. feeling this was absolutely the last straw. had been driving her nuts with his practical jokes. Enraged. Jordan. It was a beastly hot. He was tall and handsome. For lunch he'd made her a sandwich with anchovies. Something between Prince Charming and the older brother she never had. humid day but her parents had insisted she take her cousin on a nature hike. peanut butter. Jordan flew head first into the water. mustard. Amelia turned to Äsha and said. Amelia noticed the muddy red color she had seen around herself had been replaced by a soft pink glow. grinning broadly at her."I think you've lost me. snakes. and pulled with all her might. Amelia loved this place. red color. not remembering. mayonnaise and pickles. Amazed. As her past-self glanced over the edge of the dock for a clearer view of something floating below. guacamole. potato chips." said Amelia. It was as if she could see her own feelings in the color. She felt hot. "Why did you show that to me?" 35 . rubber dog poop. but happy. 'Melie! It was just too much of a temptation! Here. tired and annoyed with her little cousin. live frogs and toads. she couldn't take his sandwich and force him to eat hers because he was eating the same thing.

Can you be happy and angry at the same time. or happy. "I still can! I've been sitting here watching the colors shift and change around you.. or do you have to choose?” Äsha reasoned. you could see that too?!" Amelia said.. There's another way of looking at any situation. the color becomes lighter and more translucent. You have to decide if you prefer to be right.“Did you notice your experience of being pushed in the water didn't change. It's a matter of whether you're willing to look for it." said Matthew. surprised.” Äsha replied patiently." "How come I can't see that around Matthew?" asked Amelia sulkily. "You each have your own talents." 36 . “Amelia. "I have one. “When you're right about something you're usually angry. "Are there any questions?" asked Äsha. The idea is cooperation. "Could?" said Matthew grinning. not competition.” “Can't I be both?” said Amelia hopefully. Smiling Amelia conceded with a nod of her head. “You just perceived the experience differently? Rather than making others responsible for your happiness. When you're confused the color looks kind of muddy and when you begin to understand. "Why am I seeing colors around Amelia?" "When the past-me was on the dock.” said Äsha. remember you always have the ability to respond positively if you choose to. you skip around in other dimensions and Matthew has the ability to see auras.

The yogi sat with bare feet and crossed legs. sunny day -peaceful yet powerful at the same time. and not just in the way they dressed. Though the surroundings were simple. as I said. Now. He wore a white robe and turban." 37 . "No. I understand you're considered the best hypnotist in India and I'd like to try an experiment. his movements were so subtle no one else in the room noticed anything out of the ordinary. 1954. but didn't say a word. and smiled slightly. "India. just the yogi. He looked right at them. The feeling around the yogi was like the ocean on a calm. The American said hastily." There was such a stark contrast between the yogi and the American. I'm a psychiatrist from the United States. He had a hat in one hand and a soggy handkerchief in the other which he used to mop his sweaty brow. Amelia had the feeling this man was powerful and important. "Where are we?" whispered Amelia.Chapter V The Field of Possibilities Suddenly they found themselves standing next to an American man in his late forties." replied Äsha. as she pressed her hands together in prayer pose and bowed respectfully to the yogi. “He's been trained to see multi-dimensionally. still a bit taken aback by their ability to move instantaneously through time and space. I'm the head Professor of Psychiatry at Stanford University. "Don't they see us?" asked Matthew in a hushed tone. I propose to challenge your ability in some form of a contest and I'd be willing to pay for this opportunity. Amelia noticed she'd become sensitive to the energy field surrounding each person.” said Äsha quietly. Though he acknowledged her with his eyes and a slight nod of his head. "Sir. The feeling around the American was sort of a combination: People rushing around after work in a major city and the uncomfortable feeling of waiting in a long line when you're in a hurry. just watch. Though they were in a room full of people no one seemed to notice their sudden appearance except the Indian yogi to whom the American man was speaking. sporting glasses and wearing conservative yet disheveled clothing. Amelia thought it was odd she'd never really noticed this in people before and yet the feelings came so clearly and easily now that she was finally paying attention.

Though no one could see them. The sun beat down on the dry grass and coarse. which made her wonder what her own animals might have been seeing when they were reacting strangely to something that supposedly wasn't there. The man tipped the boy and thanked him. The man pulled a small flashlight out of his bag muttering to himself. Shining his light on all the walls. but that they were all sitting so quietly. he walked along the sandy-bottomed cave until he reached the far end. Finally they reached the cave. cicadas and other insects. now what do we do?" asked Matthew. Meet me at the cave tomorrow morning at dawn. Always handy. indicating a child about eight years old. bobbing ineptly as he departed. From the midst of all that came the occasional loud and high-pitched protest of a few territorial squirrels not too thrilled by the presence of humans. This boy." he said. rangy shrubs. Äsha stood quietly with Matthew and Amelia outside the cave.” replied Äsha mysteriously. Matthew and Amelia followed as the boy led the man toward the cave. Amelia was surprised to see not only how many people had gathered for this event. sir. Songbirds trilled to a chorus of crickets. "will take you there. she was surprised to realize she understood everything that was being said around her. Amelia could see how hot it was by the perspiration streaming down the psychiatrist's face. The cave wasn't even big enough to be pitch black. They walked through the dusty streets of the small town. imagine yourselves here tomorrow at dawn." Instantly everything around them changed. He stepped into the cave still completely unaware he was being followed. It appeared the entire town had gathered for the competition. Amelia smiled as she saw jewels of morning dew suspended on a nearly transparent spider's web. Hmm. "Wait 'till morning?" "We'll just speed up the process. “Both of you. "There's a cave outside the town. It seemed to be a place where very little changed. The boy then turned and ran down the path. and headed back down the trail. Though she didn't know any foreign languages. walked out." replied the American. Then they continued on for another mile and took a narrow trail up a steep incline. "Well. as he turned. They walked through the town until they reached a dirt road leading up into the hills. yet Amelia felt drawn to its simplicity." "Thank you. Your challenge will be simply to walk all of the way into the cave and walk back out. Gold and red streaks glistened across the sky as the dawn broke. shook his head and said. Amelia noticed animals were aware of their presence. Äsha. The yogi was sitting about 20 feet from the mouth of the cave with the 38 . She'd never heard such a symphony of sounds. but oddly enough she felt perfectly comfortable.The yogi sat quietly for a moment. nothing. He looked around. a bit impatiently.

” replied Äsha." asked Amelia. the American reached the top of the trail. think in terms of darkness as ignorance and light as knowledge. "What's he doing wrong?" "By physically trying to force his way in. he will continue believing what he sees. but then they realized his focus was behind them. as he proceeded to ram one of the boulders with his shoulder. it's not real. They watched as the man walked up and touched the boulders. He stopped. Dripping with sweat and completely out of breath. "In this case. thought for a moment. then said to himself.townspeople behind him and on both sides. Yet your mind translates these flickering lights into images that affect you physically and emotionally. “One thing the professor didn't expect to be dealing with is his own fear. At first Amelia and Matthew thought he could see them.. ending up bruised and bloody..” replied Äsha. or got up and walked out. Amelia turned to Äsha and asked." "But he's a psychiatrist. The psychiatrist simply needs to know that what he's seeing is nothing more than a false projection. he bobbed his head in the direction of the yogi. so to speak. “You see. The projector projects light onto a screen and creates images. the yogi is like the movie projector and the psychiatrist is the blank movie screen. Now think of what happens when you're watching a movie. They turned and saw that the mouth of the cave had been totally sealed off with huge boulders and stones. He jumped around in pain for a few minutes and finally sat on the ground. Oh. doesn't it? So. But if someone in the audience closed their eyes. The yogi is using his mind to project images into the mind of the psychiatrist and as long as the psychiatrist remains in the dark. suddenly all the lights come on and it's so brightly lit you can hardly see the screen? The reality disappears instantly. It's no different than the movies. he's believing there's an obstacle he needs to get past instead of recognizing it's only a mental picture. put on a headset and listened to music. glaring angrily at the boulders. of course. And the depth to which you are affected is dependent solely on how much you believe what you see. how's that possible. impossible for any man to move alone. What you see on the screen is actually nothing more than a play of light. their reality would change instantly. turned toward the cave and instantly stopped dead. His arm is bruised and bloody. and he's in a great deal of pain judging from the look on his face. which means that for the time being the audience chooses to believe that what it sees and hears is real." "Well. "Doesn't he know all of that already?" "To know something mentally is not the same as having the experience. Just as the sun fully appeared. "if it's not real?" 39 . He tried to move them but couldn't. he's giving his mental power over to the illusion. “This is called suspension of disbelief." said Matthew.

In reality there's nothing to fear. As you do this. remember this: Fear stands for False Evidence Appearing Real." "Wait a minute." replied the professor. "He does need some assistance. "It will be much more powerful if we all do this together. "Then don't drink it." The yogi interpreted this statement for the audience and they all laughed. She smiled. finding the situation quite amusing. waved and said to the yogi in a loud whisper. he's afraid to try again. Now both of you.” replied Äsha." "But I'd be afraid to drink poison. completely befuddled. However. "Actually. "I'm just thinking." replied Äsha as if this was quite obvious. "But you just said we shouldn't be afraid. he's much angrier than he appears to be." Amelia returned. “That man's belief that he's been harmed by something real is more powerful than the fact there's nothing there. if you are afraid and cannot overcome the fear then you need to honor your feelings until your belief changes. It's a deep maroon color with bits of black. Clearly this was the biggest event the town had seen for quite some time. and the townspeople had come prepared with blankets and baskets of food and drink." said Matthew. "No." "Do you give up?" said the yogi. and bleeding. There's nothing to fear. jumping up and down for no apparent reason." Amelia blurted."Don't underestimate the power of belief." cheered Äsha gaily." Äsha turned her attention back to Amelia and Matthew and said. Right now. "There's an energy field that's close to his body. It's never necessary to be afraid. especially for the children because they weren't hypnotized. simply keep in mind that what he's seeing is an illusion and remember 40 .” replied Äsha simply. Amelia. “I said. At that. Some of them had never seen a white man before. what are you seeing around that man?" Matthew concentrated for a moment. "Aren't there some things you should be afraid of?" "No. Fear is an indication you're giving your power to an illusion. The American was quite a spectacle. the yogi looked directly at her. a bit too loudly. and the children eagerly pointed and asked their parents questions about the strange. "Matthew. "Let's help him. sweaty man who was running into nothing." Äsha was quiet for a moment. Imagine projecting light into the man's consciousness.

It was that shift in his conscious thought that changed his reality making it impossible for the snakes to attack. With his eyes closed he didn't even notice as the cobras tried to strike. nor did he see the cobras hit an invisible wall of energy and slump to the ground. and still tried to walk past?" asked Matthew. They followed as he walked quickly around a corner coming abruptly to a halt. Once again he was unaware he was being followed. “and see if he figures it out himself. "He would have been bitten. "Should we help him out again?" "Let's just watch this time. getting his flashlight out of his pocket as he continued walking through the cave. There in front of him two cobras reared up." After a few moments of doing this. "I don't get it!" exclaimed Matthew. ready to strike. closed his eyes. of course. Then he changed his mind about what he was seeing. closed his eyes and walked right between them. the man suddenly jumped to his feet." said Amelia smiling broadly.what the cave really looks like." "What if he'd been afraid that they were real.” responded Äsha. "Ha!" he exclaimed. Then he threw a rock and they waited several seconds before they faintly heard it hit the bottom. he watched it disappear. Suddenly they came to a huge chasm. They watched as the slightly dazed cobras made their way to the walls and disappeared into the crevices. at first he did think the cobras were real. Once again he looked back and watched it disappear. took a deep breath and walked right through the stone wall. The psychiatrist then turned and walked jubilantly out of the cave. "It's not. walked up to the boulders. But notice. As he opened his eyes to look back at the wall. This time the professor didn't bother to turn and see whether the illusion was still there. “and this conviction literally set up an energetic force-field which the snakes couldn't penetrate. Of course the beauty of it is that he thinks he figured it out himself the first time. at least 15 feet across." Amelia said surprised. but continued walking briskly to the end of the cave. He laughed a bit nervously. "Oh. the professor took another deep breath. "Those were real cobras! How did he do that?" "His belief that the snakes were an illusion was more powerful than the so-called reality.” Äsha stated deliberately. closed his eyes and walked across the chasm. too!" Sure enough. He shined the light into it but could see nothing. took another deep breath." replied Äsha. "I don't remember this being here." 41 .

As above. conscious desire.” Äsha continued. "Look! His arm isn't bruised or bleeding anymore? That's impossible!" she exclaimed. he thought and literally felt what he believed when he rammed into the boulders. “it was the memory of what the cave really looked like that helped me recognize everything else was just a hypnotic illusion. "I had trouble with nightmares. and it did instantly. . . Once I knew I could do that. Now listen to what he's saying." "If you have a clear. "Your mind is literally a field of possibilities. And in the same way. . . For the psychiatrist." "Yes. that's an important point. depending on what you're thinking and feeling. which will be positive or negative. When he recognized it was an illusion and overcame his fear. I knew there were no boulders or chasms or cobras . So when this monster was chasing me I'd tell it to turn into a piece of cheese.. as a small. I wasn't afraid anymore and it didn't take long for the nightmares to stop. Amelia noticed the psychiatrist talking to the yogi. so below?" asked Äsha." "Keep that in mind. without fear. Whatever you're thinking and feeling is planted in the subconscious." said Amelia. so the evidence disappeared. like I was saying.. "Have you heard the term. Obviously doesn't believe he can be harmed by an illusion. the boulders became illusions." They walked over to the man and watched as he talked with great animation to the yogi.. "It means. Well. completely astonished. “It must show up in your experience. I saw the cave for myself. you will never create an experience of something you don't believe or feel to be true. taught me how to sort of wake-up in my dream. And these thoughts and feelings grow into your experience .” the American continued.. the only reason I got through was because I came here yesterday." said Äsha. ." "You saw cobras?" asked the yogi. glistening with sweat." 42 . "No. red bird landed on her outstretched hand. "When you focus on reality you can recognize the illusion or waking-dream and walk right through it." Amelia replied. then proceeded to hop up her arm and onto her shoulder. who are psychologists.” added Äsha. He said." "When I was younger. “that whatever you believe in your conscious mind goes into the subconscious and is then out-pictured as your reality. whatever you hold to be true you will create. My parents. "Ah.They walked out of the cave into warm sunshine. how interesting. "You know. This was once described as the subconscious being fertile soil and the conscious thoughts and feelings being the seeds.

what did you see around him?" "When he first came out of the cave his energy field was broad."But wait a minute." “Well it's the difference between hoping you'll get something and knowing it will come to you. is empathy. too. “One of your talents. As he talked I noticed bits of blue and green. Other areas of perception will open in time. Äsha swung the monkey up on her hip without the slightest break in the conversation. I felt the psychiatrist's anger right in my solar plexus. “Each of you reads and interprets a different language. You each just need to concentrate on being as sensitive as you can be in your own particular area. But to know an outcome means you already see it as fact.” "Good!” congratulated Äsha. would out-power the feeling of some confidence? Remember. “but in my body I could feel what Matthew described. It was like waves of emotion. and I could physically feel pain in my shoulder when he rammed into the boulders. What you believe is what you see. things are thoughts. you're also able to see mental images that explain what you're feeling. You're able to physically feel other people's feelings as if they're your own. "Matthew." 43 . "There have been plenty of things I've wanted but I didn't get it. "Hope means you have some confidence in the outcome. "I still can't see any colors. practically willing herself to see something. my heart was pounding. pulled close to his body. so to speak. But when he heard the cobras were real." Äsha cheered." "What was your experience.” said Äsha.” replied Amelia. And as you've seen. going out maybe 12 inches from his body. Can you see how the feeling of knowing. my friend. that should give him something to think about. as a small monkey made it's way to her from a nearby tree and grabbed her hand the way a child would take a parent's. "but how would you feel if I told you the cobras were not part of the illusion. and turned an ugly yellowish-brown color. they were real?" Instantly the color drained out of the psychiatrist's face and he looked like he was about to faint. So the fact that you feel and Matthew sees makes no difference." said Matthew. the energy wavered immediately. or certainty. while the bird flew into the treetops. "Well. but you still come up with the same message. Amelia?" Äsha asked as she shifted her newfound monkeyfriend to the other hip. Amelia." said the yogi. and it was a bright yellow." "You have succeeded admirably.

"There are lots of splendid restaurants and hotels. The scent of spring combined with the wonderful fragrance of freshly baked bread and sautéed garlic from a nearby restaurant. Go anywhere you like. "I'm starving!" exclaimed Amelia. Amelia and Matthew stared at each other. you're both on your own for a while. Little streams rushed down gutters as droplets of water continued to fall from trees and flowers. They had obviously just missed a huge downpour. Then they both burst out laughing. The pavement was damp." "You mean the one with the incredible flowerbeds? The place we'd never be able to afford?" "Yep. Don't worry.Chapter VI The Dance of Light All at once they were in an elegant city. Everything seemed renewed. you won't need money. Amelia laughed. shook her head and decided not to bother asking any questions. Amelia thought it must be Paris until she noticed the Statue of Liberty standing in the harbor with the Rock of Gibraltar in the background. speechless. standing right below the Eiffel Tower. "Well." Äsha said merrily." With that. "Me too!" added Matthew enthusiastically. she disappeared. they heard crickets 44 . Grey cumulus clouds were tinged with gold as the setting sun created the most spectacular. "Let's check out that hotel over there." said Matthew brightly. "let's not even try to figure it out! How 'bout if we find a place to stay and then we'll get a bite to eat?" "Where should we go?" Amelia asked. triple rainbow Amelia had ever seen. "Okay!" As they walked along a cobblestone path bordering a beautiful park. smiling. Smiling. neon-bright. That's the one!" Matthew said. "Come on.

In the center was a beautiful green marble fountain with sculptures of dolphins leaping and playing in the water. "You know. rubies. Dazzled. pearls and amethyst. wavy hair and the most beautiful face Amelia had ever seen. Matthew reached out and held Amelia's hand. She looked at him and smiled. The angel had long. "Can you see the colors around this fountain?" "No. shadowy patterns caused by the setting sun. Engraved at the base of the fountain were the words: THE DANCE OF LIGHT To the night have come the Dancers Stars from the heavens. Light on Earth. diamonds. Gently leading them Home Amelia and Matthew stood and stared. "The colors have shapes and patterns that keep shifting and changing. Her arms were outstretched. It's like the colors are alive!" 45 . Across the street from the park was the hotel. Deep. It was an elegant ten-story building and every floor had balconies with flower boxes. The effect was magical. The sweet fragrance of honeysuckle and jasmine clung heavily in the dense moisture. this has been quite a memorable first date." Amelia replied completely enchanted. rich colors were interlaced with long. Matthew whispered. from the waist down the dress was full. A couple of musicians played a harp and hammered dulcimer. She wore a dress with a tight bodice. and below her hands jewels were suspended in midair: Emeralds." "And it isn't even over yet!" Amelia laughed as Matthew smiled and squeezed her hand. All of the jewels were huge. rose and clear quartz. Amelia. With bare feet the angel was standing like a ballerina. palms down. hoping she'd covered the fact her heart had skipped a beat or two. up on the ball of her right foot with her left foot pointed and extended out behind her. He said. sapphires. Seekers of the searchers. draped softly across her breasts. but I can feel it.and peeper frogs along with the sound of a waterfall hidden from view." he said. with perfect clarity. The walkway leading up to the hotel was composed of polished amethyst. "What are you seeing?" "Neon rainbow colors flecked with bits of gold. different shades of topaz. At the top of the fountain was an incredible golden angel standing on a pink marble pedestal with water pouring out from where she stood.

Amelia had never looked at another person in this way before. but when she closed her eyes as Matthew kissed her. but nothing had prepared her for the depth of intimacy of simply looking into another person's eyes. "What?" she asked. "I'm not hungry or tired anymore. She was simply an observer of the most beautiful light-show she'd ever seen. Look. "Let me take a look at you. hearts leaping. playfully and a bit suspiciously. "I get this feeling that if we just look at each other. then back at Matthew. he seemed so familiar."I know exactly what you mean!" exclaimed Amelia. and he held this gaze with her. Amelia remembered something about the left side of the body being receptive. With the exception of Äsha. “but remember what happened when you first looked into Äsha's eyes?" Amelia nodded. feeling ecstatic." He led her over to a bench and they sat facing each other. amethyst. the colors shifted and danced and seemed to have an energy all their own. It wasn't painful like a headache. After a minute or two. she saw colors. There's this pink and gold glow around you. looked deeply into her eyes and kissed her gently on the lips. "I know this may sound strange. Looking at him was like running into an old acquaintance where they recognized each other but neither one could remember why. Amelia looked behind her. Still holding her hands. She'd read books. the hair on my arms is standing on end. you should see yourself. 46 . At first her mind was racing. She noticed a little smile in Matthew's eyes. we'll both see something we haven't seen before. he said gently. Amelia realized that once again she was barely breathing. in her forehead. Matthew continued. she realized he was breathing with her and as this happened she began to notice a strange pressure." Matthew said in a different tone.” he said mesmerized by the pulsating light surrounding her. Soft pink. Matthew took Amelia's hands." He stepped back a couple paces and smiled. As Amelia continued to look into Matthew's eyes she suddenly saw a vision of herself moving down inside her own body. seen movies and been exposed to many lectures by her parents on safe sex and waiting until she was emotionally ready for sex." She was quiet for a moment." "How strange. feeling her cheeks going pink. so she took a few deep breaths and immediately felt more relaxed. As she looked at Matthew. Amelia had read about first kisses. "I can feel all of that. so she looked with her left eye into Matthew's left eye. "Amelia. It was that feeling of being two places at once again. After kissing her Matthew took a step back. without looking away. a feeling of vibration. Their eyes kept shifting back and forth not quite knowing where to focus.” he said. opalescent white. but it was a very definite sensation she'd never felt before.

perfect pearl. with you. She stepped down from the fountain and saw Matthew on a huge. and Amelia. rainbow-colored light. It was dark and muddy. then the golden light shot up into the sky. She could see and feel a golden energy vortex swirling around them. She waded through the muck. Amelia had nothing. ancient tree with deep green leaves.. Matthew smiled and said softly. down into the roots and deep into the earth. She moved inside the tree. . They rode quietly through the forest for a while and then she found herself slipping off the horse. sky-blue velvet dress. . embroidered with pearls. I mean my physical heart. She thought she was going to fall but instead she felt herself supported by something invisible. Amelia's body jerked. sort of creating an aisle for us as we walked. She then saw a dry." he said. beautiful. Amelia felt totally alive and filled with love. white horse with a long mane and tail. Then she noticed she was wearing a floor-length. As he stood above her the armor flew off his body and disappeared instantly." sighed Amelia. blue velvet dress. Instantly she found herself sitting sideways in front of Matthew as he rode the horse. At the barrier she was told she had to give something to the gatekeeper in order to pass. He had the reins in one hand. As she walked she noticed there was a hole where her heart had been. She looked down and noticed the light had filled the empty hole where her heart had been. so she reached into her chest. "Where were you?" "I was inside of myself . It was kind of shimmery." "Really?" "I reached into my pocket and I handed you this huge. He was dressed as an armored knight. You and I were walking side by side. and handed it to the gatekeeper. and found herself gently placed on the ground. He knelt directly in front of Amelia. took her hands. tight through the bodice with a square neckline. He hugged her and then walked with her over to a place with an invisible barrier. his other arm supported Amelia. pulled out her own heart. the fountain was moving. "How odd. we knew them all. and filled with swamp creatures and insects. and then I 47 . hand-carved stone fountain. She climbed into the fountain and the fountain suddenly came to life. climbed up onto solid land and there in front of her was Matthew. Matthew climbed down from his horse. "You and I were literally dancing in my heart. Somehow she knew she was meant to go alone.In the center of her body was a huge. drew her up to him and embraced her.. feeling somewhat baffled. but instead of water. We were surrounded by hundreds of people. You were wearing a white dress instead of the blue one. It was some kind of a procession and the people stepped back. And you were wearing this beautiful. Immediately she felt the same feeling she'd had in the desert of being drawn by the gold light up to the base of a starship. And suddenly we were standing inside a starship.

but it's always there. we don't think about it. "And Äsha says that everything takes place in consciousness.. not quite sure where he was going with the conversation. close as the air we breathe. we know we have a subconscious and a conscious mind. "You said you've experienced past.." Amelia said slowly. just think.. and we might not be aware of it . Wouldn't it make sense there would be a consciousness surrounding us.realized there was light woven into the dress. Amelia thought for a moment. I wonder how many things we think we've made up." "So do you think this Source that Äsha talks about. or maybe into another dimension.and you had flowers in your hair. as her brain tried to piece it all together. her face aglow. "Do you think we were maybe seeing ourselves in the past and the future. So what if we thought of the subconscious as being underground and the conscious mind as above ground. "If it's true there's a higher 48 ." she said. We kept walking until we came to some people wearing white robes. and then spoke intently. Suddenly she had the feeling the same was true of consciousness..." He paused for a moment. like the air? "We can live without water and food but not without air. "We just assume that because we see mental images we made it up because we think we're not connected to any other intelligence. "Well. when in fact we were actually seeing our own past or future." said Matthew thoughtfully.. Right?" "Right.. Wouldn't it make sense that we might have a higher consciousness.. present and future as happening all at once. Then you and I looked at each other the way we were looking at each other just now. We don't see it..." "The way the yogi and the animals could see us in India!" Matthew added. we promised to remember each other.. is something we have access to?" asked Matthew. "I just had the strangest idea. "Okay.. then said.. "Does that make sense?" Amelia nodded and told him about her experience. it would have to take place in our minds." she said slowly. "If that's true. this universal intelligence. She remembered the image of time in layers that were actually all one. And not out loud but in our minds. any more than we'd be aware of standing on a gold mine unless we started digging?” "I've heard of people who instantly know when someone has suddenly died in the family or there's been an accident. her mind racing.. that somehow we've come here out of our own future? Or is this all just in our imaginations?" Matthew sat quietly for moment. So if we were actually seeing our own past and future. in the word imagination is the word image." "And that would feel like the imagination!" Amelia exclaimed.

consciousness that knows everything, past, present and future, then I'll bet we're all somehow connected to everyone through that consciousness." Suddenly, in her mind Amelia saw the image of a television. "Of course!" she cheered. "It's like television. There's all kinds of information in the air around us, but we don't even think about it unless we turn the T.V. on." "Amelia, think of this,” added Matthew energetically. “If a person didn't know radio waves existed and you told him there was music and talking and pictures in the air, he'd either think you were crazy or you had a lively imagination, right? So if most people don't see or hear something they're going to say, it's your imagination. Just because they haven't had the experience... not because it isn't true." Amelia looked at Matthew affectionately and smiled. "We're getting pretty good at this. Äsha would be proud!" She leaned in closer to Matthew. "Are you getting hungry yet?" "Famished!" "Shall we get a bite to eat?" "Sure. Let's just eat here at the hotel." "Here?" exclaimed Amelia in utter disbelief. "We could never afford to eat here." "Amelia, we have no money, so what's the difference?" Matthew laughed taking her arm. "I thought if we went someplace cheaper we could just wash dishes for a day or two, instead of the rest of our lives!" she giggled. "Come on, silly," soothed Matthew. Arm in arm, they walked into the hotel. The exterior elegance barely prepared them for the exquisite beauty inside. The ceilings were three stories high, covered with beautiful frescoes painted with vivid colors and real gold. The floors were white marble except for an area in the center of the lobby where tall trees with song birds in their branches, sprung from mossy ground with delicate wild flowers. To their right was a spectacular stained-glass window. Not only was it 30 feet across and reached the ceiling, it was three-dimensional. There were three panels of glass, one behind the other, creating a feeling of depth. In the background were snow-capped mountains. In the middle were green hills and multicolored autumn trees. In the foreground were grapevines with big chunks of deep purple amethyst for grapes. The grapevines surrounded a real waterfall that seemed to emerge right out of the stained glass. Though the sun had set, it appeared to be lit with real sunlight.


Amelia and Matthew walked up to the windows and just stared. Amelia looked into Matthew’s eyes. "Can you feel these windows? There are chills running up and down my entire body." "No kidding!" Matthew said taking a deep breath. "I'm going into sensory overload!" A bellman approached them smiling. "Beautiful, aren't they?" Matthew turned to him and said enthusiastically, "I've never seen colors like this before!" "That's because it isn't glass. What you see has been created from crushed diamonds, rubies, sapphires, emeralds, amethyst and a variety of topaz and some other precious gem stones." The bellman paused for a moment and then said, "Would you like me to get your bags and arrange a room for you?" "We don't have any bags and we don't have any money," said Matthew apologetically. "I understand," said the bellman kindly. "Would you still care for a room?" "Well, actually, two adjoining rooms would be nice," replied Matthew, deeply relieved they weren't being immediately ushered back out the front door. "I'll be right back," said the bellman. During this conversation Amelia had been walking back and forth in front of the window. When the bellman left she hurried over to Matthew and tugged on his sleeve. "Get this!" she whispered, leading him to the other end of the window. "Look at the different colors on the floor," she said, turning Matthew away from the window. "You'll never guess what I discovered! Now, close your eyes and don't look." She moved him to a yellow patch. His whole body was bathed in yellow. "What?" he said. "How do you feel?" she asked mysteriously. "Good. Like sunshine!" he smiled. "Okay, keep your eyes closed." Amelia then moved him to a purple patch. "Now how do you feel?" Matthew stood quietly for a moment, "I feel the way I do after climbing all day and I'm finally standing on a mountain peak." Once again Amelia took his arm and pulled him to a patch of green. Matthew peeked at 50

her out of one eye. She didn't say a word, she just looked at him quizzically and raised her eyebrows in question. He took a deep, relaxing breath, "Peaceful. Tranquil. Sitting in a mountain meadow by a brook." "Now open your eyes and look around... Do you get it?" she said excitedly. "What?" said Matthew looking around the room, then down at the floor. "The colors! The colors!” Amelia exclaimed. “Each color makes you feel different." "Oh! You're right!" he said enthusiastically. "Ha! I didn't even make that connection." Matthew walked into a blue patch and said, "Clean air, fresh breezes. My mind feels clear and strong. He stepped into pink. He looked at Amelia and smiled. "This is love," he laughed. "You always see pink hearts for Valentine's Day but I never thought you could feel pink. How funny!" At that moment the bellman came back with their key. "Shall I take you to your room?” "You can just give us the key," said Matthew casually. "Very good," replied the man with a smile. "Top floor." "Thanks very much," said Matthew. He turned to Amelia. "Shall we check out the room first and then go eat?" "Okay," she said, trying to appear nonchalant, but barely able to contain her curiosity. They took the elevator to the top floor and got off. There was only one door. Amelia sparked, "Wait a minute! This is the pent-house!" Matthew looked at the key closely. "It says 'P.H.' on the key. Well, it's worth a try!" He put the key in the lock. The door opened. Slowly they stepped inside onto cherry wood floors with Persian rugs designed with pastel flowers. "Oh my!" gasped Amelia. The room had two-story ceilings and was filled with beautiful trees and plants, and delicate, fresh-cut flowers in crystal vases. Opulent artwork adorned the walls and next to a stained glass window was a grand piano. In the center of the penthouse was an arboretum filled with trees, wild flowers, exotic neon-colored butterflies from around the world, and a waterfall flowing into a series of pools with bright orange and white koi fish. Open windows above allowed in sunshine, fresh air and a delicate breeze. There were five bedrooms to choose from and Amelia knew the room she wanted the 51

tall." Amelia opened the closet.moment she stepped inside. "I'll get some other things ready while you bathe. The walls were mirrored and the room was lit with candlelight reflecting endlessly back on itself in the mirrors. "There's a robe on the back of the door. “May I come in?" Nothing has made sense so far. lush plants. and lit only with candles. even the sinks and the counters. "For dinner. "Come." "Of course not!” replied Marie. It was mainly white. Amelia peeled off her filthy. "I'd say so!" he said enthusiastically. of course!" said Marie. as the candles flickered gently. "I found my room!" cheered Amelia as Matthew peeked in the doorway. Inside was an entire wardrobe in her size. dirty hiking clothes and boots. Matching curtains fluttered in the breeze. as if this should be quite obvious. "Ready for what?" puzzled Amelia. with an enthusiastic. closing the door behind her." said Marie happily. the huge tub. and she had a distinctly mischievous look in her eyes. with hardwood floors." she said brightly in a thick Irish accent. Amelia sat on the windowseat breathing in the night air and smelling the alluring fragrance of night-blooming jasmine. "I didn't send for you. Her face lit up when she smiled. I've come to help you get ready. Everything was white marble: The floors. white floor but as she slipped into 52 . "Hello! I'm Marie. the shower. wearing a maid's uniform. There was a beautiful antique bed made from Hawaiian koa wood. including shoes. why should it make sense now? Amelia thought as she giggled and opened the door fully. Marie breezed in. There stood a young woman barely older than Amelia with beautiful blue eyes. Slightly taken aback. There was an ornate box with elegant jewelry. a round face. Amelia heard the doorbell ring and hurried to the door. A bubble bath had been drawn with blended aromatic oils that made Amelia feel a bit light-headed. "I'll keep looking for mine. and short cropped hair. took Amelia's hand like a playmate. and she could hear the ocean below. rosy cheeks. We'll have such fun!" They walked through Amelia's room and Marie opened the bathroom door. and walking briskly to her room. matter-of-factly. with the most sumptuous down comforter and pillows Amelia had ever seen. Amelia said kindly. She felt guilty putting them on the pristine. The white bedspread was made of the softest raw silk." Marie left.

Amelia giggled. We are called the Family of Light." Amelia gasped.the warm bath all her cares and worries disappeared. All she could see were stars glittering in the night.. But we like to think of ourselves as Cosmic Renegades!" said Marie. patiently gathering Amelia's hair again and clipping it back away from her face." said Marie with a twinkle in her eye.the ones on the starship. That would be wonderful." Marie used a device Amelia had never seen before and almost instantly her hair was dry. Children of Light. We all know each other. terry cloth robe.. that would be nice. "Would you like me to dry your hair?" "Thank you.” said Amelia hesitantly. white. She leaned back. You have eyes just like my friend. "You know about those people?" 53 . "You mean Äsha?" inquired Marie. "Shall I help you get ready now?" "Come in. “. dramatically waving the hair comb like a sword.. actually we have many names here. looked up. finding it hard to take Marie too seriously. “but if you don't mind... "You know Äsha?" "Of course. Every muscle in her body relaxed as she gave in to the soft. as she pulled back a strand of Amelia's hair. "Would you like me to help you with make-up?" "I've never worn much make-up. "You have such beautiful eyes. Light Workers. "Who's in this Family?" "You and Matthew are family members." Amelia looked at her skeptically. It felt good to finally be alone for a few minutes. "Who's we?" asked Amelia.” Amelia said.. and saw there was no ceiling.” replied Marie thoughtfully. Amelia turned her head suddenly.. Hunger was the only force motivating Amelia out of the tub. Marie knocked at the door. accidentally jerking her hair out of Marie's hand. Star Children. sensual aroma emanating from the bath. "Don't you remember the people you saw when you were sitting outside? Actually Matthew saw them." replied Amelia sweetly. She then pulled Amelia's hair back with pearl combs. trying to be a bit more careful not to turn her head. "Well.. She wrapped herself in a cozy." As Amelia looked at Marie she noticed her eyes had the same intense blue of Äsha's eyes.

. "How's that possible?" "You mean."But of course.” "I see." said Marie mysteriously. limitation and the belief that there's not enough love.” said Amelia. Marie contemplated the question for a moment." said Marie as she began curling Amelia's hair. "When I was with Äsha. when you're not in that body?" Marie just smiled. Stars from the heavens. shaking her head. in other words.. curled up and began to purr. Seekers of the searchers.. aren't you?" Marie held Amelia's gaze and said slowly... "I was there. are we. grace." said Marie smiling mysteriously. Stars from the heavens. freedom. "Aren't you?" Amelia thought for a moment about the implications of that statement. ." giggled Amelia. Light on Earth. Amelia thought for a moment as she looked at Marie and said. but I don't know what it meant...” "Never mind. their own understanding -." Marie recited the poem.. "You are. Gently leading them Home.. now there's something to think about. "So what is the Family of Light?" she asked curiously. smiling as a kitten jumped on her lap. They're spirited and energetic. “It's hard to say. from another star system?" "Ah. Amelia said. "Next it says. Am I . Excited. And they've chosen to bring this light. Amelia's mind was galloping. joy. because everything is actually happening all at once. I felt myself floating among stars and Äsha said that I'd been home.into the darkness of fear. Light on Earth. "Didn't you read the inscription on the fountain outside?" "I did. how could you look and grow up like an Earthling and not be from Earth?" 54 . but carefully. When you dance you're in the moment aren't you? So the dancers are those who live in a present consciousness of light. "I shouldn't have asked. "Are you light . "To the night have come the dancers." "Was that from our future?" asked Amelia incredulously. So let's start with the dancers.

quoting Shakespeare. she decided to skip that discussion temporarily and move onto the next part. you're a player on this holographic stage you call Earth. "All the world's a stage and there are many players playing different parts. which in your terms would be going back through time. this is a long story. or a costume. if you were going into outer-space wouldn't you wear a spacesuit to protect you from the environment? Part of the environment here includes the people. “So. You're not really from the third-dimension.” said Marie. It would be much easier for you to whiz into another dimension.. "So. "In a nutshell? You're a star child. Now. . really?" asked Amelia intrigued. . look.said Marie with a somewhat cryptic smile. "How do I do tha ." Amelia said.. How well do you think we would fare if we showed up as beams of light? So we come here wearing a spacesuit. who am I. but completely lost.. ?" 55 .. But that's not who you really are. “Well. if you will." Though Amelia didn't really understand what she meant by calling the earth a holographic stage.

and on this higher-dimensional level. Everyone knew how to manifest whatever they wanted or needed. resentment. It wasn't at all the way she thought it would be. fear. there were elves and fairies. it's run with emotional energy. Just as Amelia had seen light around herself earlier. In the same way one could feel happy and energized after seeing a good movie or feel the pleasure of soaking in the sunshine. They placed an energetic force-field around the planet. She could see there were beings from other dimensions that were drawn to the planet. marvelous shape-shifters and all kinds of spectacular creatures. love. Amelia realized the light she was seeing wasn't just from the sun. There weren't just people. The earth was a fantasy land. There were some stories. But rather than a game run with physical energy. But there were also beings who didn't like the light. and these beings were basking in the light. The beings on the earth were hypnotized into forgetting who they were and what life had been like before the dark-ones took over the planet. She was able to look at any place and zoom in on the smallest detail or pull back and get an overview." said Marie. The light-beings feed on light-energy. Why did they have to fight?" as she watched subsequent historical events unfold before her eyes. There was a war and in the end the lightbeings lost. 56 . Amelia saw the dark-ones try to take over the planet from the light-beings. "Think of it more as a multi-dimensional game. right out of thin air.Chapter VII Star Children Before the question was fully out of her mouth she found herself floating above the newly-formed earth. All life forms respected each other and they had perfect freedom to think and act as they pleased. There was no sense of higher or lower intelligence: Even stones and crystals were known as record keepers and were held in high regard for their ability to contain light. Amelia turned to Marie. "The dark-ones live off of darkenergy. Time moved swiftly. anger. so light and knowledge couldn't reach the inhabitants. these beings enjoyed the energy from the earth and in turn radiated light-energy themselves. she saw a light energy around the planet. joy. They were quite benevolent and Amelia had the feeling some of them were actually responsible for creating the planet. "I don't get it. and people who believed them were criticized and quickly learned to keep quiet. The dark-ones brought darkness to Earth in the form of ignorance and fear. but they were called fairy tales and myths.

If you think about it.enthusiasm." "You're saying that the more fear and anger there is on the planet.. one costume fading out as the next one faded in. On higher dimensions they skip the physical part because they aren't in physical form and they live directly off of emotional energy." "But how do they live on other people's energy?" asked Amelia. "So. Now. then the dark-ones would have to go find another dysfunctional planet. but they get to be totally spontaneous. thinking it couldn't possibly be that simple. or the players in this multi-dimensional game. At the same time. It had energy . So from a logical point of view. the rice dies.” said Marie as they moved seamlessly through the walls of an Elizabethan theatre and more or less materialized in a luxurious opera box with tapestries and velvet covered. there are a couple of rules. can shift from living in fear to a place of light and understanding. the play always remains a tragedy. "Remember. well-fed?" said Amelia completely stunned by this novel concept. the dark-ones wanted their crop in the field. If you flood the field for the rice. What you eat is or was alive. “And let's say that for a few hundred thousand years the dark-ones have been the audience. .. "I know it sounds remarkably simple. because they're on a non-physical dimension. "That's it!" said Marie. agree to forget who they really are and where they came from. the wheat dies.. you're dealing with other dimensions. and though the plot changes daily. 57 .. wearing different costumes. Life-force. . what can we do?" "Basically. so to speak.the dark-ones have to stay in the audience. cushioned seats. A boring variation on a theme of malice. Marie motioned for Amelia to take a seat..” "That's it?" said Amelia. creating the drama as they go along. creating the same basic drama year after year after year. but it can be a bit of a challenge awakening the potential dancers of the world! Let's look at it like a play. costumes would magically change according to what she was saying in the moment. The second rule is that the actors. just before going on-stage. why are we here.” Like an actor in a pantomime Marie stood up and continued talking with sweeping gestures and a rubber face as she continued her lively exhortation. so they can't suddenly take on a physical form and jump up onstage. If you keep it drier for the wheat. They're just acting a part. You couldn't grow rice and wheat in the same field at the same time. compassion. If the inhabitants. "So let's suppose you've had the same old actors. the more the dark-ones are. we're here to cut off their food supply..

"So where do the star children fit in?" asked Amelia.mayhem and murder. but they have their alarm set to go off in adulthood. “No.. tough audience? What will they do? Boo.." She looked at Amelia skeptically and said.. "Do you?" "Understand a lot about DNA?" said Amelia laughing. "Very good!" said Marie. But the alarm has to be subtle. But in the same way that the dark-ones sort of cheat by hypnotizing the actors. but that's hard to explain unless you understand a lot about DNA.” continued Marie. become dysfunctional like everyone else. “Let's say these few but determined actors send an all-points bulletin out into the cosmos: Looking for a few good stars to play actors. but decided not to mention it...” Never Before Near Impossible Situation Harsh Conditions “And of course. hiss and throw rotten tomatoes?" asked Amelia with light skepticism and a smile. or a love story.. then. remember they can't interfere physically. "No. "You see. “Then one day some of the actors get together and decide they're tired of high drama and tragedy.. Amelia suspected she might have gotten her plays mixed up. my personal favorite. Tough Audience. smiling brightly. Tough Audience!! “Star children love a challenge. but the audience still likes it." "I thought the court jester was just a skull in Hamlet. so the audience doesn't know when it's going 58 . They go along with all the rules and regulations and forget who they are before going onstage. but as long as they stay in their seats they can hypnotize the actors into forgetting that they were going to change the plot from a tragedy to a comedy. like the court jester in Hamlet. They travel the cosmos looking in the Universal Want Ads for words like." said Marie.. "Now the plot thickens!” Marie continued.” "What do you mean." said Amelia. the star children have gone through years of rigorous training before attempting to go onstage. They play along. now dressed like Lady Macbeth for some inexplicable reason.” "Okay. Well actually the alarm is right in their body. "The star children join the troupe. but there are too few of them so their attempts to lighten up the show end up being nothing more than cameo bit parts. an alarm clock!" said Marie as her costume once again changed to reflect a hidden alarm clock in the shape of a giant strand of DNA. the star children pack an alarm clock inside their costume. if the dark-ones don't like the play.

” Once again Marie's costume changed. "I forgot to tell you the rest of the spacesuit story. or when they do wake up and remember who they are and where they came from. “It doesn't matter . handbag and parrot-handled umbrella. you must maintain your sense of humor!" They laughed and Amelia found herself back in the penthouse bathroom. who just disappeared from this dimension and appeared on the next.. a good fatal disease. Because when a star child wakes up. they get homesick and want to leave as soon as possible. “Mentally speaking. It's not really a problem unless the negative mental picture happens to match something the star child already fears. Not too tricky to spot." "How do they leave?" said Amelia. She was the image of Mary Poppins complete with hat. Let's Go!" said Amelia enthusiastically. So the dark-ones sit in the audience and have fun throwing mental. "Once you're fully deprogrammed and your true memory returns. Using the umbrella for dramatic emphasis she continued. "Oh dear. “but they're a little different from the ones wanting to get back to their own star system. No. "That's what you're doing right now. "Well.” "But why death? Isn't there another way to go?" asked Amelia earnestly. hypnotic pictures at the star children." said Marie. That's when the mental fun and games begin. half smiled and said. . I feel more like a sack lunch working my way toward being a Happy Meal!" Marie laughed and said..” said Marie mysteriously. "They simply create a good drama. they look like marathon runners among "I could describe a whole range of emotions to answer that question! At least I'm not a smörgåsbord for the dark-ones." 59 . The problem is that some star children either refuse to wake up. that's when the game's afoot. “The play's the thing! Drama is what counts. Amelia cocked her head. a car accident. people like Jesus. Amelia. it's obvious pretty quickly. When onstage you can't float away like Mary Poppins. You're in the process of deprogramming. Amelia dear. there is the route of the ascended masters. How does it feel?" Marie asked brightly. At all costs. that's why the star children set their alarms to vibrate." said Marie. . and it's got to be believable!" "So what about all the star children who wake up and say.

She smiled as she saw how feminine and curvy she'd become. It can be quite exhilarating and freeing to leave this dense spacesuit body. You're so beautiful and radiant. Everything right down to her shoes and stockings fit perfectly. white silk dress with a low neckline." There was a knock at the door. a bit urgently. they're afraid because they've never experienced death." she said slightly worried that she might show up for dinner overdressed. She wore an exquisite. quietly buttoned up the back of her dress. you get to be your very own light-self again. my. But I must tell you.. but what about the rest of the poem?" said Amelia.. and held it up for Amelia to see. "Are you ready to go?" "Yes." said Marie as she finished Amelia's hair and then picked up a dress that was lying across a chair. "Well when you do finally take off your Earth spacesuit. Matthew was wearing a luxuriant silk Italian suit. "Don't worry. it's beautiful. She turned to see herself in the mirror. They walked across the bedroom and Marie opened the door for Amelia. clasping the necklace. They've only observed it." said Marie. She looked like a princess with her hair in curls held away from her face with twisted strands of hair going back to pearl combs. "Yes?" Marie questioned "Definitely!" said Amelia glowing. long. discreetly stepping out of the bathroom. "Do you like it?" she said. and returned it to her lap as she sat down. and then put a diamond and pearl choker around Amelia's neck. as she picked up the kitten still curled up in the same position on the chair. "Oh. this thing called death that everyone's so afraid of. don't worry. but Amelia had never had enough of a figure before to be daring. Now let me see you. "What do you think?" "Oh." said Amelia." said Amelia."You do have quite the memory. Marie opened a crystal bottle of exotic blended oils and held it for Amelia to smell. How could you not know that you're light?" Marie smiled warmly. Marie reappeared. The dress was a bit daring. He wasn't wearing 60 . some people call it death.. Amelia got dressed." Amelia turned around and smiled. "It's gorgeous! I hope Matthew knows how we're dressing. "Lingerie is in the top drawer." said Marie. Amelia. "he's being helped too.. "The meaning will be revealed to you .

They were seated under a beautiful old oak tree. Finally Amelia said. They sat quietly for a few moments just looking at each other. They saw flowers of every color imaginable and the sweet smell of gardenia and jasmine permeated the garden. Her surprise was nothing compared to Matthew's amazement when he saw Amelia. and a quartet played Mozart. I'm Marie. "It's the strangest thing. and said." Amelia gave Marie a hug and said. "I've never seen you without your glasses. or with her hair curled. Matthew seemed unable to move and just stood staring at Amelia. They took the elevator down to the hotel restaurant and Amelia told Matthew about Marie being on the starship he'd seen in his vision. I don't know why." Matthew looked a little embarrassed but smiled and said. There were lit walkways and arched bridges over streams. The air was the perfect temperature.” Matthew said 61 . Before them spread a full acre of trees laced with tiny white lights. Actually. took her hand. It's that I've seen you inside. stuck her hand out and said brightly. and Amelia was genuinely surprised to see how beautiful and luminous his eyes were.” replied Marie warmly. All the tables were quite private and situated inconspicuously throughout the garden. I took my glasses off to take a shower and when I got out I realized I could see. waterfalls lit from behind. and said softly. Finally. and ponds with white swans floating majestically. He'd never seen her with make-up." "I'm always at your service. "You know what. "Outdoors?" Matthew looked at Amelia. They stepped outside into fairyland." "Of course you don't." He shook Marie's hand. She nodded and smiled. Matthew. I just thought of something. "Thanks for everything. "I don't think anyone has ever seen you the way I'm seeing you tonight.” He leaned forward and smiled. On the ground floor the maitre'd greeted them and Matthew said. almost in a daze. “We've danced in my heart!” Suddenly he stopped. "Nice to meet you. the sky was filled with stars. or in a dress. not to mention how wonderful he looked dressed up. "I know this is an odd thing to say. Isn't that funny?" He looked at Amelia quietly for a moment. she had never done all those things at once before. It's not just how you look. Marie came to the rescue. It wasn't becoming of a good tomboy. "Hello.his glasses. You have beautiful eyes. but we have no money. Would you prefer to sit indoors or out this evening?" he said. at a candle-lit table with a crystal vase filled with exotic flowers.

. imagine us dancing in my heart at the same time." said Amelia. "It's the 'E' ticket again. Matthew continued. "Now." he added. "I can't begin to tell you what it was like when you and I were dancing in my heart. Golden-white light radiates from you like you're the sun. "So. as we're dancing in each other's hearts. then see me the same way. "I don't know why." he said. imagine hundreds of thousands of stars whirling and dancing and you're right there in the center." he said. "Now just imagine becoming one of the stars.. "Sure." she said softly. I've been thinking about that all night." Amelia nodded and closed her eyes. So we'll be dancing inside-and-out!" "Do you want to make it even a little more interesting?" said Amelia with a wry smile. Amelia!" "Do you think we can do all of that. “Would you like to dance with me?" Amelia smiled. "and still dance at the same time?" 62 . so just close your eyes for a second. As she held this image her face lit up." Matthew started to smile and Amelia smiled just watching him. you'll have to use your imagination for this. beaming. "Sure!" "Let me tell you what I saw along with the other things you were telling me to do. smiled broadly and said. Then she opened her eyes and smiled at him. She paused for a few moments and said." Amelia touched Matthew's chest about eight inches below his collar bone and said. Imagine a space about the size of a small fist two inches out from the center of your chest. So in that space. Now. "The idea is. "Imagine the two of us dancing inside your physical heart. but this place I'm describing has something to do with the heart and that energy we see outside of the body." Matthew nodded. we're also dancing among the stars as light!" Matthew opened his eyes. "we'll do that while we're dancing with each other. He watched Amelia with her eyes still closed. "Right out from here. You close your eyes this time." "But I want to try something different.graciously. her cheeks going slightly pink. Got it?" Amelia smiled and nodded.

"I was raised on classical music. with her hair down. The dances inside were all different." He raised his eyebrows and said. she felt as if she were floating. pouring out. Then she remembered to imagine all the things they'd talked about. That's the only thing my parents would allow in our home. she danced as a ballerina in bare feet. especially because they were so close to the same height with Amelia wearing high heels. swirling. Then she thought of the poem. What about you? Can you waltz?" He beamed. She never realized the power of that idea until this very moment. A light breeze softly blew her hair and dress. Matthew danced as a ballet partner would. "My mother met my father when she was teaching ballroom dance at Arthur Murray. She had the feeling of love and understanding she'd felt with the luminous man in the library. Pictures."Absolutely!" he replied. "Need I say more?" As they stepped onto the floor and began to dance. maybe different. It was the most incredible feeling dancing inside-and-out. do you?" Amelia smiled. My father taught me to waltz when I was eight. splashing through streams. Amelia could sense people staring at them. rushing. Matthew looked at Amelia and said. supporting her as she turned. she thought. but dancing with Matthew brought a whole new meaning to the word. Well. light blue dress. She realized these heart-spaces with the stars were two inches away. To the Night have come the Dancers. They were the perfect height for each other and the dancing flowed effortlessly. "You don't happen to know how to waltz. They walked hand in hand through the garden to the elegant hardwood dance floor just as the quartet began playing a lovely waltz. It was more like playing outdoors. and dancing in a sunlit field. holding her. which she always enjoyed. but not better. standing up and offering her his hand. but with no gravity so they could leap and fly through the air! Where Amelia felt the most connected to Matthew was in the space with the stars. Amelia couldn't imagine that actually making love could be any better than this. The dance floor was empty. colors and feelings all danced through her body. and effortlessly lifted her up into the air. This is what the Dancers are bringing! she thought. which meant that when they danced with each other these spaces would be merged with one another. In her own heart. 63 . As she did this. wearing a flowing. The image Amelia saw of them dancing in Matthew's heart was less structured. Amelia realized she'd only danced with her father.

As they swayed slowly. He smiled and squeezed her hand. "Matthew. They were each served their favorite meal with their favorite drinks. but she felt good she'd figured out two other lines all by herself.” replied Matthew. "Isn't it funny what you can get away with in public?" Amelia laughed. "Are you still dancing with me everywhere?" Amelia smiled and nodded. "Did your room have an entire wardrobe in your size?" "It did! Yours too?" She nodded. and that was the meaning of Light on Earth. “Did you know?" Amelia nodded and said. Matthew and Amelia looked at each other the way they did by the fountain earlier that day." "I know. Surprised. Stars from the heavens." Matthew put his arm around Amelia's waist as they walked back to their table. "Good. Light on Earth wasn't just about being from another star system. too?" 64 . She smiled." said Amelia. "Did you order for me?" "No. Amelia looked at Matthew after the waiter left. Matthew said softly. "How many days do you think it's been since we've eaten?" She laughed. "It's impossible to tell when you're time traveling." "And dimension-hopping!" he added. Gently leading them Home.Suddenly the poem clicked. Then Amelia noticed that in her star-heart Matthew was kissing her." he said gently. As he held her close. Amelia still wasn't quite sure about the next two lines. Seekers of the Searchers. "That reminds me. He said lightly. The song ended and a slow song began. inside it feels exactly the same as when you really did kiss me." he said. It was about being this light-energy she felt as she danced with Matthew." he said glowing. "You're so funny. "Was there someone to help you get ready. looking equally surprised. "What are you doing in that space with the stars?" "I'm kissing you. They sat down at their table and the waiter appeared with their meals.

Amelia smiled." he said sweetly. "Goodnight." She found a beautiful. They stepped inside. put on the nightgown. silk nightgown laid across the foot of the bed. Matthew walked with Amelia to her room. looked directly into his eyes and without ever shifting her gaze."Oh yeah." she said smiling mischievously. and was sound asleep the moment her head hit the pillow. exhaustion pulled them back to the penthouse suite. put her hands on his cheeks. "The days of chivalry are not dead." he said. kissed him on the lips with a bit more sizzle. "Tonight you'll be sleeping right here. She floated into her room and thought." he said smiling. Finally. though their experiences were a little different." They discussed what they learned while getting ready and. they both had a fairly decent grasp of all the same ideas. "I forgot to tell you about that. They finished their meals and then strolled through the garden with their arms around each other. Candles and oil lamps had been lit throughout and their beds were turned back. 65 . She undressed quickly. "Goodnight. putting his hand over his heart. He hugged her and kissed her gently.

" she said. The ocean was calm. There was a soft knock on her door. "Good morning. "The question is: The continent in which dimension?" Amelia dished back. Matthew lifted the silver lid and said. "Come in. "It's called a continental breakfast . went around to the other side of the bed and set the tray in the 66 . He picked up the tray. "It's breakfast!" There was fresh juice in crystal goblets." said Matthew. "Viola!" Amelia laughed.along with raspberries. sleepyhead. strawberries and blueberries. "This looks incredible!" said Amelia enthusiastically.some Amelia had never seen before . carrying a silver tray and setting it next to her bed." said Matthew. "Ah.we're on the continent you know. exotic fresh fruits . but of course mon cherie!" said Matthew in his best French accent. and she was secretly pleased to see that he cleaned up rather nicely! "What have we here?" asked Amelia curiously.Chapter VIII 99. she could hear birds singing in the arboretum and the soothing sound of the waterfall. Amelia thought he looked quite handsome wearing a slate-gray cotton sweater and black jeans. smiling.. pulling her knees up in front of her. "Now there's something to ponder over breakfast!" "Would you like to join me?" said Amelia.. There were also freshly baked croissants with butter and a selection of homemade fruit preserves. "Isn't it voile'?" "No.999% Empty Space Amelia awoke to bright sunshine streaming through her windows. sitting up in bed." Matthew quipped. patting the bed next to her. smiling brightly. Prior to coming to this other-dimensional-Paris she'd only seen him in hiking clothes.

Italian leather boots and a matching belt. ringlet curls. She normally would have put her hair in a ponytail. He was wearing a red beret and an artist's smock. Now that's a word I haven't heard in a long time!" he said. She quickly discovered her transformation wasn't lost on Matthew either as he smiled warmly with the unmistakable look of a man smitten by a beautiful young woman. "Money. but couldn't have worn as long as her mother had anything to say about it. Her hair was still curly from the night before." said Amelia. He had dark. we have no need of money here. with just a hint of her flat tummy showing. He turned and said merrily. "Oh. spinning around on his stool and planting his feet on the ground." he said brightly as he vigorously mixed a few colors while adding sprinkles of finely crushed crystal." said Amelia apologetically. casual way. "How do you buy things?" "It's kind of a long story. Amelia hopped out of bed and looked through the closet. They walked to the park across the street from the hotel and wandered over to watch a painter under an elegant eucalyptus tree alongside a cobblestone pathway. shaking her head. The outfit showed off her figure in a relaxed. "Well. "How about if I paint your portrait while I explain?" 67 . It was a look she'd always admired.middle. "Howdy! Lovely morning isn't it? Would mademoiselle care to have her portrait painted?" Though he had the aquiline features of a native Italian. He appeared to be right out of a painting himself. She smiled at herself in the mirror and had to admit she liked herself this way. She washed her face and added a little makeup. thank you. They ate breakfast and decided to spend the morning walking in the park and taking in a few sights. Matthew left with the tray. and dressed smartly with a decidedly continental flair. remembering some tricks Maria showed her the night before. She found a pair of slightly worn-in blue jeans that rested comfortably on her hips. sizing her up at the same time." he replied cocking his head. There was also a beautiful pair of brown. Amelia looked in the mirror and grinned. but we have no money. and Amelia found herself suddenly grinning in response to this completely unexpected and curious combination. and a soft. are you?” "No. his accent was undoubtedly Texan. silk champaign-colored sweater that was quite a bit tighter than the baggy clothes she usually wore. "Why not?" asked Amelia curiously. rosy cheeks and green eyes. “You're not from here. but she liked the way she looked with her hair loose and flowing.

Thank you. Do you see?" Amelia and Matthew nodded. But that could only happen if you didn't understand that numbers are concepts. "There is no need for money because here we recognize things are thoughts. you can create through the power of your own intention." said Amelia. "Whatever you can imagine. having such a lovely subject to work with!" he said brightly." "What if two people wanted the same castle? They couldn't both live in the same place." 68 ." said Amelia." said Timothy. it's the same idea here. I might add. "We understand everything is thought and it's as simple for us to manifest a castle on the hill as it is for you to add two plus two in your head. A very happy artist. Let's say the numbers are wood or metal and you had to buy a certain amount of numbers in order to balance your checkbook or pay your bills. Numbers would have to be in a material form. smiling as she sat on the chair he offered her. and today I am an artist. dabbing a bit of color on the portrait. go to all the best parties. like at tax time. "We're working on it. wooden bench. "Why not?" replied Timothy casually. And suppose they started running out of sevens and fives." said Timothy as he mixed gold flakes into real gold paint. "Suppose you believed mathematics was a thing and not a thought. "If you want a castle on the hillside with a Rolls Royce and a stable full of horses. twirling his paintbrush dramatically for emphasis. see the world. so to speak. "Couldn't you and Matthew both dream that you lived in King Arthur's castle and not be sharing the same dream? You could be in the same place and still be in your own world. squinting his eyes with one eyebrow aloft. "To begin with my name is Timothy." said Matthew."Alright. "So. imagine there's a time when numbers were in high demand. vaguely." said Timothy. with a wry smile as he sat down on an carved. or the universe if you prefer. All of a sudden people would be scrambling to buy and trade those numbers. "Let's take something you know is a concept. Before Amelia or Matthew could introduce themselves Timothy continued as if there was no need for an introduction. Stock market prices would skyrocket far beyond what they were really worth. You can mingle with the jet-set crowd. you can have it." "I think you've lost me. "Now. You're both familiar with this concept aren't you?" asked Timothy." sighed Matthew.

So. in that no two snowflakes or grains of sand are 69 . it's a picture of you inside.. no. " "Amelia. really. "No." said Timothy honestly. Amelia was surprised to see it wasn't a picture of her face at all. the way a parent smiles at a toddler exploring their new world.. different jobs. So eventually people try different things. desert canyons. your body has a vibration that's unique to you." Matthew laughed said. "And you're Matthew. Most people do that when they first come here. 'You know. "Do you understand that light has different vibrations and wavelengths?" asked Timothy. . And in the same way. "So. just in order to learn things about themselves. A fairy kingdom. I never even introduced myself. "How do you know that?" "The universe isn't really as big a place as you think it is. Instead it was an exquisite collage of images. Gold was sprinkled over the entire painting like fairy dust. when you can have anything and everything you want. "If it's so easy to manifest everything." said Matthew. unicorns. "It's called a soul painting. we get a cheap thrill by doing things for others!" said Timothy.Matthew said. and angels of light floating in a sky with stars and planets. mountains. No other person or thing in the universe has your exact vibration." said Matthew sincerely. Amelia smiled and said. flowers. the ocean with dolphins. trees.. 'Yes." said Timothy with a wink as he began putting away paints and rummaging through his bag for some other things. it all gets a little boring after awhile." "Recognized us?" asked Matthew. "Did someone tell you we'd be here?" "Oh. . the sun and moon." he said beaming. “You get over the self-serving thing pretty quickly because you can already have whatever you want. you see light vibrating at a certain speed and you call it green or blue or pink. That sort of thing. My name's . "But just imagine. why don't you live in a castle with servants?" "I've done that already.. "This is beautiful!" she exclaimed." said Timothy." said Timothy. smiling as he handed Amelia her portrait. stimulate their minds. "I recognized you. smiling at the thought.

thinking her answer was too obvious. " said Matthew hesitantly. There was a lot of superstition. "Not really. They don't teach it at my high school. "We both have. or more specifically. "Let's start with some very basic physics concepts so Amelia can stay with us. "Amelia has had the feeling of being light but she doesn't quite understand the logic. You've sometimes seen this energy field as light around another person. it took a long time for the truth to become common knowledge. and your name's right on the cover. So. "The fact is even though you think you're solid.identical. motioning for Matthew and Amelia to join him. as he turned to look at Matthew." said Timothy smiling affectionately at her. and hurtles through space as it orbits around the sun would be considered ignorant. patting the ground next to him beckoning Amelia to sit near him." said Matthew. "It's sort of a hobby of mine. "Matthew. haven't you?" said Timothy as he began mixing more paint. “You're not quite with me are you?" He then looked at Amelia and said. "With the sun." said Amelia. But even when science began to prove that those facts were false. There's this energy-field in you and around you. "Is that true according to quantum physics. "The world is flat and stationary. . sitting with his back against the tree." "The earth is the center of the universe.." added Matthew. smiling at Matthew as she sat down next to him. . "Wait. are you not?" "Yes . Matthew?" asked Timothy as he sat down under the eucalyptus tree." said Timothy." said Timothy encouragingly. "And you're familiar with quantum physics?" continued Timothy." said Matthew as Amelia handed him the portrait for a closer look. sitting down with his back against an old oak tree. rotates. "Let's look at your physical senses." said Matthew. you're actually pure light. but today anyone who doesn't know that the earth is round. planets and stars revolving around it." said Amelia. I have a question. and this field of energy can be read like a book. still unsure how Timothy knew these things." He paused.... still holding the painting and admiring the detail and feeling it evoked. 70 . what do your senses tell you about your body?" "That we're solid. "Those were visually obvious facts a few hundred years ago. What do they tell you about the world? What are some views out of history we now know to be false?" Amelia thought for a moment and said. an autobiography." "Good. you're the physics man.

quantum would mean the smallest unit of something. If you took all the nuclei of every person on the planet and put them together it would be about the size of a single grain of rice." said Timothy. a quantum unit of light is a photon. They disappear when they're not being observed." said Matthew." "So let's start from the inside. quarks."What does quantum mean?" "Well. but let me add a little color to that description.. let me give you an idea of the size of the nucleus. gravity would be a graviton. "these subatomic particles only come into existence through observation.." said Timothy as he held his paintbrush dramatically in the air. "How can something be a particle and not made up of matter?" asked Amelia as she absent-mindedly picked a daisy and twirled it in her fingers. bosons . which is the only solid part of the atom.. "A quantum unit of electricity would be an electron. So what appears to be a solid body is in fact 99." said Matthew knowledgeably." added Matthew. leptons. "What does an atom look like?" "It has a nucleus. and put them all together. "What's strange. secretly pleased she was conjuring up some good questions." said Matthew.. They're so small you can't even see them. So quantum physics looks at everything sort of from the inside out.999% empty space." said Matthew. "Amelia. electrons. More like inner-space exploration. "And to make this even more interesting. "Because they leave behind trails. If you took the nuclei of the entire planet. "Then how do you know they exist?" asked Amelia. "And there are electrons. so she had a habit of twiddling with small objects whenever she was deeply focused on something new she was trying to comprehend. putting down his paintbrush and getting out some fresh paper. "These particles are subatomic." 71 . is that out of that emptiness come non-material particles.." "That's amazing!" cried Amelia. They're almost pure energy and they whiz around the nucleus at lightning speed." "That works. In the space between the nucleus and the electrons are subatomic particles: protons. relieved he was finally answering questions with at least some authority. it would be the size of a sugar cube! And the distance from the nucleus to the electrons is proportionately the same distance as from the earth to the stars. It was easier for her to concentrate if she was doing two things at once." said Timothy.

72 . Remember I said you could see these subatomic particles as waves or particles. or that my choice to see something one way or the other could make any difference at all. "You see. In other words. but not as both at the same time. yet it faithfully projected whatever Timothy was talking about at the time. then it becomes a particle. Where does the thought come from if it's not coming from my brain?" "Are you the thought or the thinker." As he spoke Amelia and Matthew saw the art paper transform into a small. Amelia?" "No. it is the conscious choice to see a wave as a particle that brings it into existence." said Timothy categorically. it's more that these particles shift into a different state. each particle is also a wave." "We create something simply by looking at it?" said Amelia in disbelief. "It's even more than that. "they're pure energy. "It's how you choose to observe. staring into the screen intently.” "Just trust that it's a proven fact in quantum physics. You lost me when you jumped to thought-force and consciousness. though. consciousness." said Timothy. "In a word.” she said quite frankly." said Timothy.Furrowing her brow Amelia asked pointedly. "Actually.." said Timothy.." "That energy is thought-force. “I can't even imagine a wave being a particle. It was more like looking out a window at an immense landscape. "What are these subatomic particles made of?" asked Amelia. But this flat-panel screen wasn't two-dimensional. "The important point. Don't worry whether or not you can figure it out. "I understood everything up to the part where the particles are pure energy." said Matthew. "Hold it!" said Amelia abruptly. is that it can be seen as a wave or a particle. "How can a particle be a wave?" "It's a wave until it's observed. hoping the images would be a bit more helpful. flat-panel screen with images that reflected what Timothy was trying to explain." said Amelia pulling her gaze away from the screen to look directly at Timothy. "Wouldn't you have to be observing them to know that they disappear when they're unobserved?" "It isn't that they literally disappear. So the particle is created by the fact we're observing it. but not both at once. picking up his paintbrush again and pointing at the screen. Are you still with me." "Wait! Hold it! You're losing me." said Timothy. Amelia?" asked Timothy.

As you go along you throw out the old disks and replace them with new disks. 73 . Amelia.. 95% of those same thoughts you'll think tomorrow. the one who has the body." said Timothy. this brain you have . I've never put all of this information together in quite this way before. but now I'm lost again." "Isn't it the other way around? Isn't it that my mind and body create a place for me to be conscious?" Amelia reasoned. What do scientists call this space?" Timothy asked. again bringing their attention to the flat panel screen as it mirrored his narrative." "Don't worry. you're breathing out particles of yourself and breathing in particles of the entire universe. You're the programmer. not the thought. "The reason all the information seems to be the same is because of the 60. the body is not static and solid. And the brain from last year wasn't here the year before." she said. "By whatever you're thinking.. But I do know what you're talking about. Are you still with me. Matthew?" asked Timothy. "I'm hanging in there. still trying to get her head around these entirely foreign concepts. So." he said as he shifted into a more comfortable position under the tree. feeling. “In the same way that the earth is not stationary and flat.999% space. studying Amelia to be sure she understood. You are the one who has the mind. "Let's say that the cells in the brain are like little floppy disks. your liver every six weeks. "Back to this 99. accidentally touching Amelia. Doesn't that imply consciousness? Therefore consciousness is the foundation of mind and body. "Are you saying we don't use our brain to think?" said Amelia feeling hopelessly lost. Did you know that 98% of the atoms in your body are replaced every year? You have a new brain every wasn't here last year. "So how do you transfer the information?" said Amelia. Amelia. and believing. your skeleton is replaced every three months. not the appearance. Every time you breathe. it'll come.. The new disks won't carry the information on the old disks unless you transfer the information. what really is.” Timothy said." said Timothy categorically. "Let's take a look at your mind and body.. You put information in on the computer and save it on your disks. your skin every month.000 thoughts you think every day. You're the thinker. "So you are not your mind or your body.” Amelia sighed." said Timothy smiling. "I thought I was getting it."I'm the thinker. but leaving his hand there all the same.

we're not bodies that have learned how to think and be intelligent. "This is awesome! "Oh God. has to do with interest. while Amelia." said Matthew easily. your body produces chemicals that send messages to the body. which would imply thought or ideas. The word unify literally means to form into one. Adrenaline pumped through her veins as she felt herself on the verge of becoming physically ill. I guess you could call it universal intelligence. The word field has to do with an interest. and in the broadest sense. thought-force. as you said. We are intelligence. "Why?" asked Timothy.. to become one. "Let's take it a little further. She understood how people must have felt when they were first told the world was round. She'd never heard of this before. it would represent the universe. You interpret the experience by how you choose to think about it. "Don't worry. gripped the bar with white knuckles and held her breath to keep from screaming. And field. "Let me think about this for a minute. It was almost unbelievable and yet there was so much logic at the same time." "Would you say that again?" said Amelia." "Good!" said Timothy. consciousness. maybe even gaining knowledge. with her eyes shut tight. I'll explain this further.. 74 . and according to what you think. "but simply put. Ha! I never thought of it that way before. except for the glaring fact she was still shaky and a bit nauseous."The unified field. "So here's how it works. "I hate roller coasters! They make me sick"' As they plummeted down the other side Matthew threw his arms up in the air. that has learned how to create a body." said Timothy knowledgeably.!" screamed Amelia. "Unified means to bring together. Mercifully the ride came to a halt just in time and she found herself back in the park sitting on the ground next to Matthew as if she'd never left. "You have an experience. "Amelia!" yelled Matthew." said Timothy reassuringly. Let me demonstrate!" Suddenly Amelia and Matthew found themselves in pitch black on their way to the top of a roller coaster ride in the first car. So the idea of unified field would literally have to do with the idea of consciousness being expressed as form.. not wanting to be overconfident.." Amelia was stunned." Matthew replied.

"Having the information will give you a choice. a bit queasy." said Amelia weakly." said Timothy directly. "I don't mean to interrupt. Timothy smiled kindly. “Yes..” he said mysteriously.. Chills ran through Amelia's body. fully energized. but she knew how it felt! "Sorry about that."That was awesome!" shouted Matthew enthusiastically. I can't tell you exactly what's going to happen to you in the future. “. “How do you know what's coming." Timothy concluded quite seriously." Amelia said. She didn't really know what that meant." said Timothy. “Is there something you know about our future that you're not telling us?” asked Amelia. You've heard the phrase knowledge is power. as her dad used to say.” "Notice you both had the exact same experience. "but sometimes experience is the best teacher. how do you see the future?” 75 . The reason is that your mind and body create powerful chemicals in response to whatever it is you're thinking or feeling. It's through the knowledge of what's real that you'll be able to identify the illusion. "Can we do it again? That was the best roller coaster ride I've ever been on!" "Take him. but I can say that if I were you I'd pay attention as if my life depended on it. Somehow she had the feeling Timothy knew something about the future but wasn't telling. we've been traveling through time and dimensions and learning quantum physics but I don't know that I understand the point. Intrigued Matthew said." said Amelia quickly. “I wanted you to see for yourself how the mind and body are connected. "yet you each experienced an opposite physical and mental reaction.. but I'm not exactly sure how all of this applies to us. "How do you both feel right now?" "I feel incredible!" said Matthew. Amelia." said Timothy. It's all very interesting but what are we supposed to do with all this information when we get back home?" "What you do with the information will be your choice. still a bit shaken." said Timothy. If you feel that a roller coaster ride is fun then your body will create chemicals more powerful than heroin: A good time with no side effects! If you're scared-to-death then your body will create harmful chemicals . feeling a bit green around the gills. to the point that if you stayed in a place where you feared for your life long enough your body would produce enough harmful chemicals to literally kill you.. I mean. not me.. Äsha knew something too." "What do you mean?" said Amelia.. Timothy. "Shaky and nervous.

Clearly wanting to be precise in his communication Timothy took a moment before answering. “Imagine for a moment you're playing the most sophisticated computer game ever to exist. Within the game there's a program, and every choice you could possibly make is already in the program. Now let's say you're on Level-5, and I know all about Level-5 because I can read the programming. So, yes, I see where you're headed... I can read the programming so to speak.” “So will you tell us what's coming?” said Amelia with a tinge of desperation in her voice. “I can't,” said Timothy. “Can't or won't?” said Matthew with a note of defiance. Timothy smiled and said calmly, “I'm going to give you two scenarios. Choose which one you want to believe, or discard them both. Whatever you choose, your belief in that choice will make it real for you.” Timothy paused to let the concept sink in, “In both scenarios your life is actually a game... though it appears to be real, it takes place purely in consciousness. Before you enter the game... by being born... you agree to completely forget who you are and how you came to be playing the game. Your dreams are a powerful clue hidden in the programming of the game, because they help you see the possibility of consciousness or thought-force not only creating a body, but entire worlds.” As Timothy continued the flat-panel screen lit up displaying events as he described them. “In one scenario the game of life, as we might call it, is a program where you have a series of choices. You have free-will, you have a purpose, and your choices make a difference in the world. Since the game is programmed to give you a purpose and choices, you experience a world of duality: Dark and light, good and bad, right and wrong. Your choices determine the outcome of the game for you and others, and their choices effect you, because everything is interconnected and interrelated. “In the second scenario, you decide before playing the game, exactly what you want to experience. Every choice and event, down to the flower you pick in your garden, is programmed. In which case you have no free-will and no purpose, and no matter what's happening in your game of life, you consciously chose it before ever deciding to play the game. In this scenario there's nothing to change, because none of the events are real. There is no duality in this game because you do not believe in right or wrong, good or bad. And just like a dream, you have the illusion of choice, and the illusion of a purpose, but in reality, you do not effect others and they do not effect you, anymore than your dreams effect someone else and vice versa. “So which game should we believe in... or try to play?” said Amelia fumbling for the right question.


“You both believe in free-will, and whether you know it or not, you're already playing one version of the game. In the second version, it's still a game, you just play it differently because your beliefs change. It may appear to be a choice between A or B, but these games are multi-dimensional, and they're superimposed upon one another. As your beliefs change, you'll feel as if you're walking between two worlds. And you will be.” “Remember, there is no right choice, you believe what you believe, and you play the game according to your beliefs. I can only tell you how to play the game you believe in. Currently you're learning how to play the game of free-will. Ultimately you'll want to learn the other game as well,” Timothy said frankly. “But you never answered the question,” said Matthew. “You can see the future, but is it that you can't or won't tell us our future.” Timothy looked at them compassionately and said sincerely, “I can't tell you your future.” “Why not?” said Matthew, chafing at the bit. “I can't tell you your future, because it isn't programmed into this game,” Timothy said genuinely. “I see! You believe there's no free-will!” Matthew said with an underlying, got ya! “It doesn't matter what I believe, Matthew,” Timothy returned patiently. “Your belief is the one running the show. I can only say that the world of duality is a roller coaster ride, and no matter how much you love it, sooner or later you'll want to get off the ride.” “I never wanted to get on the ride in the first place!” said Amelia half-jokingly, once again recalling the queasy feeling in her stomach. Timothy laughed and said, “My purpose is to help you play the game you've chosen more effectively. So let's put this all together. You are consciousness. What you call your mind and body is consciousness taking form. Unified field. Unified means form, field means interest... thought. Unified field, then, is thought taking form, and this thoughtform shows up as your body, and the world around you.” "So do we have access to universal consciousness?" asked Matthew. “You not only have access, you're a part of universal consciousness. This 99.999% empty space is actually full of intelligence and because it isn't in a physical form it's also full of potential," said Timothy. "So, you are that unlimited intelligence and you are that unlimited potential. But you must be conscious of this power to use it." "I don't mean to seem dense," said Amelia, "but how do you make that potential real?"


"Thought," said Timothy. "Whatever you can imagine you can create as experience through the power of your own consciousness." "But wait," said Amelia. "I can imagine walking through that brick wall over there but I can't actually do it." "The only reason you can't walk through that wall," said Timothy, "is because your belief, your conviction, that it's impossible is stronger than your belief that it is possible. You can't because you said so, not because of what is. You can only play the game you believe in. The fact is things are thoughts, and that brick wall is nothing more than an idea. Look at it, it's a particle... it has material form. Look away, it becomes a thought... it goes back to being a wave in the unified field. Could you walk through the wall in your mind?" "Yes," said Amelia. "That's because the wall has become subjective. It's a part of you; you're a part of it. When you observe the wall, it becomes objective: It does not change, your perception is what changes. Suddenly you see the wall as outside of yourself instead of inside. Notice you cannot see it as both outside and inside at the same time. You are either choosing to see a wave or a particle: Mind or matter. When you see that the wave and the particle are not separate entities, they're one; then you'll see that things are thoughts." Timothy stood up and walked right through the brick wall. When he returned he said, "And one other thing: Impossibilities never occur!"


. Trying to suppress a smile Timothy said ingenuously." Matthew was still visibly shaken. because you can always change your thinking. your experience will change too. "No. but as he thought about it again his fear instantly returned... Matthew's heart was hammering.. She knew she had at least a working knowledge of what Timothy just said. suddenly feeling more empathy toward Amelia and her unexpected roller coaster ride." Timothy laughed and said kindly. black snake had slithered up a flat rock next to him and was sunning itself. When your thinking changes. Matthew instantly turned to Timothy. A long. "Go ahead. "How do you feel about snakes?" "I hate snakes!" gasped Matthew." Suddenly Timothy threw a glass of water at Matthew. nothing. When you understand that things are thoughts you'll no longer be afraid of anything. "I went camping once and woke up with a rattlesnake at the bottom of my sleeping bag.. 79 . Learn how to shift your perception." said Timothy with a touch of mock-innocence. Walk over to that snake. Timothy nodded his head and said. I had to wait all day. "This is too perfect! Okay.. "Do you want to change the way you feel?" "You have no idea." Matthew suddenly jumped off the ground in total panic. His knees quivered out of control and he simply shook his head. Matthew. without moving a muscle for that snake to finally leave my bag. but she had a hard time believing what she was seeing. Shocked. Timothy walked back and sat down as if what he'd done wasn't at all unusual. I can't. "Now." Matthew had temporarily forgotten about the snake. the trick you must both learn is how to change your mind about what you see. "Oh. Go over to that snake.Chapter IX Interrupting the Program Amelia just stared. in the sun. "What was that for?" he said exasperated." said Matthew earnestly.

"The body carried the memory. BOOM. plucked it off the rock. now thoroughly agitated. Suddenly WHAM! Timothy dumped an entire bucket of water over Matthew's head. "How did you do that?" “Before I explain. they would smell camphor and their bodies would produce chemicals that would destroy their immune system. "Here.” "What do you mean. Later. BOOM." replied Timothy. Just as your body carried the memory of how you felt 80 . walk over to that snake. tapping his head with his forefinger. Matthew whirled around to see Amelia valiantly trying not to laugh and Timothy doing his best to keep a straight face. His breathing became shallow. "So now you have two groups of mice. One group smells camphor and stays strong and healthy despite being exposed to germs and disease.. A scientist injected mice with a chemical that stimulated the immune system and at the same time the mice would smell camphor. "Another group of mice was injected with chemicals that would destroy the immune system and at the same time they also smelled camphor. here's the point. held it out to Timothy and said. your feelings become cellular memories and unconsciously determine your experience. Timothy shrugged his shoulders and said encouragingly. Later. What determined life or death for the mice was the memory of camphor. He turned and stared at Timothy." asked Amelia. just the smell of camphor would cause the mice to produce chemicals within their own bodies that stimulated their immune systems." Once again Matthew felt the fear creeping back.Suddenly he was hit by another glass of water. “I'd like to tell you both about an experiment.” said Timothy lightly. "This is ridiculous!" With that he walked right up to the snake. It was the mind's interpretation that became a cellular memory. "a cellular memory?" "The memory wasn't in the brain. The other group smells camphor and with the least provocation becomes ill and dies. "What are you doing? Are you crazy?" he said. "Does it make you happy?" Matthew thoughtfully set the snake on the ground next to a tree and said. his heart pounded BOOM. Matthew burst out laughing and said. "Now. "Go ahead. In the same way. Does this make you happy?" Timothy smiled and said sincerely..

whenever you see a snake you'll probably laugh. You felt surprise. If you want to change your experience you have to change what you're thinking. One was a bay with white stockings and a star on his forehead. .." said Amelia. and the way Amelia reacts to roller coasters.." They walked along quietly and headed back to their hotel. will I?" Matthew pleaded. in the game you're currently playing.” said Timothy matter-of-factly. When Matthew and Amelia reached Äsha she showed them their horses. "Do you think Äsha will be able to find us? I wonder if she knows we're here?" "I think she does. The other was dapple gray with a long mane and a tail that swept the ground. only half joking. So if you want to change your mind about the way you're thinking or feeling.about roller coasters. So now with laughter being your last bio-computer entry." "What I did. It's like a record you play over and over. None of the horses had bridles or saddles and they stood calmly. Timothy laughed and said. white pony. Just before they reached the building Amelia said. Matthew shook his head and said. I simply interrupted the program by pouring water on you. but I think I'll let the two of you figure it out for yourselves. However." "I won't have to have water dumped on my head every time. Next to her were two beautiful Arabian horses. Look!" There was Äsha standing at the end of the street smiling at them. Just remember. . remembering a bucket of water being dumped on your head.. Amelia. “The biocomputer you call your brain was programmed to think fear and panic around snakes. But if you scratched the record several times so that it sounded like a series of pops and scrapes it wouldn't take long for you to stop listening. "I don't know Amelia.. You started feeling sick before anything had even happened. everything's choice. I mean this is a lot to absorb. Although Amelia had ridden horses before she was scared to get on without a bridle or saddle. Maybe they just know when we've heard enough. Timothy instantly disappeared. annoyance and finally laughter. "That would probably work.. you simply interrupt the way you're thinking. the same way the mice were programmed to react to the smell of camphor . Matthew. Learn to interrupt negative thought patterns. "Matthew. to admit she was afraid might have given Matthew the opportunity to interrupt her bio-computer programming and she definitely preferred to ride with dry 81 . Remember 95% of what you think today you thought yesterday. was really quite simple. "why do these people disappear every time I start to understand what they're talking about?" Smiling. Next to them was a roly-poly. so what are you choosing?" With that..

. he kept up the pace quite admirably and Äsha joyously threw her arms in the air embracing the wind.. is a cave. A moment ago it was springtime but here. and she was wearing rings with large jewels and crystal necklaces. took a deep breath and pretended to be quite nonchalant about the whole thing. Äsha slid off her pony and motioned for Matthew and Amelia to join The trail curved and dipped over the edge of a hill. but before she could ask any questions they were all riding through an Alpine meadow. All at once they were at the cave." "Aren't you coming with us?" said Amelia with a hint of panic in her voice. The fir and pine trees added fragrance and a variety of color. flaming sumac. Äsha smiled at them and said. It was a warm. wherever it was. There wasn't a cloud in the sky and the sun lit up the meadow with it's bright green grass. At first Amelia thought it would be frightening to ride an unfamiliar horse. The pony and horses seemed to move in one accord as if they all knew exactly where they were and where they were supposed to go. and softly muted dried plants and flowers. especially without a saddle. but at least Matthew was with her and that made it a lot easier. "I'll wait here for you. they were in the midst of autumn. She 82 . Matthew helped Amelia get on Morning Glory." said Äsha mysteriously. All at once the horses and pony slowed down and came to a halt. As they walked up the hill she had a gut feeling something was going to happen. something that would most likely be unpleasant. but Morning Glory moved as smoothly as a big rocking horse. The truth was Amelia didn't really like caves and would very much have preferred Äsha along for protection. So she stood up straight.. and a scarf around her head. They both stopped short as they saw an old gypsy woman sitting at the mouth of the cave in front of a fire. aromatic sage. Once again they had moved seamlessly through time and space. She was dressed in a peasant blouse with a long. Amelia had finally grown accustomed to things she didn't understand so she just enjoyed the ride and the scenery. "At the top of the trail.. Despite Breezy's short legs. full skirt. see it there along the stream. the dapple gray. You're both to go to the cave. and he effortlessly jumped on Sky while Äsha sat astride Breezy the pony. Translucent yellow aspens stood alongside maples dressed in fire engine red and ancient oaks looked as if their leaves had been painted with real gold. Indian summer day with just a hint of a cool autumn breeze. Amelia wondered where they would ride and how they'd tell their horses where to go. The colors were more bright and clear than anything Amelia could remember. Matthew smiled and laughed as he and Sky sailed easily across the meadow.

good. "We're not even sure why we're here!" "Come sit down! I'm here to teach you about superstition." said Amelia enthusiastically. more cards. smiling. Anna proceeded to reach into a huge." She looked at Amelia and winked. She was also thoroughly enjoying the fact Anna couldn't quite keep her accent straight. "I think you're perfect. a small velvet bag with what appeared to be stones. "Vhy do you t'ink I'm here?" she said exuberantly. some Tibetan bells. old Jewish lady from the Bronx and a gypsy from the Ukraine." "The accent's not too much. The title took up the entire cover of the book. She seemed like a grown-up elf. Russian Gypsy Fortune Telling. forgive me. Astrology. It's a great accent. I forgot to introduce myself. purple velvet bag. no. "Vell." Then Amelia noticed the author: "Anastasia Lebowitz-Kowalski-Smith-Smith-GoldbergRosen-Spielberg. Let the games begeen!" She laid cards out on the table." In smaller words below the title it said "With a special manual covering subjects such as: Why You Came Here. "Ah! Here you are!" she said. "I've been married several times and twice to 83 . They both tried to keep a straight face. is it?" she said earnestly in an unmistakably Bronx accent. "I don't know." laughed Amelia. Do you think I did a good job of dressing the part?" she said as she made a few adjustments to her outfit and making sure the scarf on her head was still properly in place. returning to her original Russian accent. "Oh. Where You're Going (and the ever popular) How to Get Back to Where You Came From If You Think You Made a Mistake and Took the Wrong Fork in the Road. The image was something between a nice.sat at a table with two extra chairs. incense. Lexigrams. "We have a lot of 'A' names floating around here." Anna noticed Amelia staring at the book. He said. It seemed to be empty but all kinds of things kept materializing: candles. it read: "Esoteric 101: A Beginner's Guide to Palmistry. with a thick Russian accent. a crystal ball wrapped in silk. Tea Leaf Reading. don't you think? 'A's are very good! Excellent vibration!" Amelia liked Anna. I'm Anna. Tarot Reading. "Were you expecting us?" said Amelia slightly taken aback. "Ah dat's vonderful!" said Anna. Numerology. "Oh. a few astrological charts and one great big book. Amelia and Matthew both laughed.

They all entertain me! Not to mention the people who end up sitting across from me at the table!" Anna spread out 88 cards face down on the table. "A hammer is an instrument. . but that's another subject. Anna said genuinely. shrugging her shoulders. She looked at Amelia and said. indicating everything that was laid out on the table. "My dear children. "In a word. Yes?" "Yes . Don't worry. Nothing will jump out and bite you. in her Bronx accent. What have you been taught?" Amelia told her a little about her mom's philosophy and added a few colorful tidbits about Aunt Nell. my dear. "Cards. . Pick out six cards and put them face-up on the table. but still a good man. astrology. too. Anna smiled as she listened. crystal balls and the like were of the devil and anyone who did such things was working for Satan. "They're tools of the trade! So. tarot cards. I just like to be entertained and these are entertaining beliefs. She couldn't think of one word to describe all of the things on the table. Aunt Nell said psychics. On the other side of the coin was Amelia's great-aunt Nell. known in the family as the Born-Again-Bible-Thumper." she added. I take that back." She winked at her and said. Anna finished spreading everything nicely out over the table. "Go ahead. Looking at Anna with her big smile. "I have no idea whether all of this is true. the only non-Jew. what do you think? No. Matthew and Amelia nodded. "Tools!" she exclaimed. An instrument has no power. "Amelia. " said Amelia hesitantly. Of course there's something to be said for interpretation. "Do you give up?" said Anna." she said pointing to Smith. enthusiastically nodding her head. as you well know!" "Intention?" said Matthew. She had never known a gypsy or a psychic and she'd been taught by her mother there wasn't much in it. clapping her hands together and bubbling over with enthusiasm. round face and happy eyes made that concept a little hard to swallow. they're just pictures." said Anna. whatever you believe is true for you. It's the intention behind it!" "Do you believe in all these things?" said Amelia. what do you both see before you?" Amelia was puzzled. "Of course. It can be used for a good purpose or a bad one. "There is nothing inherently good or bad in anything: Intention is everything. just a bunch of old wives tales. thinking for a moment. You can use it to put up a picture or you can knock someone over the head. "I wanted them all to have credit.him." she said. Anna leaned close to Amelia and said confidentially. numerology." 84 .

"How does this work? I just randomly picked those cards. But look at this last card with the sun over the ocean. Amelia.. A sword card between the angel and the lovers. "Suppose you had a dream. Yes?" Amelia could feel herself turning red. I made this up all by myself!" she said with a wink. not quite ready to dive in. "I believe this is in your future. my angel. "Yes." said Amelia." "Here's my theory. "Dees ees your fearst time. Amelia looked at the images on the cards and there really weren't any other cards that came even close to depicting her current situation and feelings. my pretty child. having perspective. The water represents emotion. The third picture was a fountain with a young man and woman facing each other.. sitting by a pond. Without looking up she said. scooping up the cards and handing them to Amelia. I don't know about the future but the other cards were perfectly accurate. the Russian accent returning. The next was a bird soaring alone in the sky. "So. "The angel is. holding hands. Let's see what else is here before us. You would never be happy playing a role that's not you. "I don't understand. vhat do you see?" said Anna. The fifth picture was a snake in the grass and the last was the sun rising over the ocean. The bird means you must also feel you have the freedom to be yourself. "That's me exactly!" "Now. pointing toward the sky. maintaining your own power. You are not someone to just fall head over heels inlove. since the angel is dipping her toe in the water. and you went to your mother and she helped you analyze the dream. Of course. this snake in the grass." said Anna. yet poisonous mind. someone who's very deceptive. but happy to test the water. The sword represents clarity. "Of course. of course. She put her head in her hand and started to laugh." said Amelia slightly confused. The next picture was a sword being held up in the light. my dear. smiling." Anna said." "Can I see what the other cards look like?" said Amelia. "There is nothing new here for Matthew either.Amelia picked a picture of an angel with long. This represents you rising above the sea of emotion. You will be dealing with a very subtle. The man and the woman represent romantic love and. It doesn't really make sense to me. I'd say that you're falling in-love. You must be clear headed and a man must appeal to your mind as well as your heart. blonde hair. "I don't know." said Anna. intelligent." "It is okay. I'll help you. 85 . you. dipping her toe into the water." said Anna. Does this make sense to you so far?" Amelia nodded and smiled. Amelia.

Yes?" "Of course. Okay... You know that things are thoughts. it could mean you were in-love. "I almost don't want to say this because there are certain words that trigger people and make it difficult for them to learn. no!" said Amelia. "Because everything in a dream is coming out of your subconscious. ." said Amelia. "I'm sorry to interrupt. why not during the day?! “So.. What does that mean?" Anna smiled.. let me see if I can actually say this: There can't be anyone outside because the unified field means literally one-thought. and entire worlds! You do it every night when you dream. Then let's say while you were playing cards you dreamed you saw a snake and you were frightened." said Matthew. In real life it's exactly the same thing. It wouldn't just be a coincidence. However. gold letters THE WORD.” Matthew lit up. when you turn over a card there is nothing random or are me. "I think I at least understand the concept. still struggling a bit to keep up. Amelia. You're both student and teacher. . she will show up as either nurturing or judgmental depending on how you are seeing yourself." "Wait!" said Amelia. Your mind already knows what it wants to reveal to you." "Amelia. Your subconscious mind would be directly mirroring whatever was happening in your life." said Anna patiently." Amelia replied. "Hold it!" he said. written in huge. When you dream every person in your dream is an aspect of you.. it would have meaning. Amelia. slumping down in her chair.. You know that you are consciousness which has learned how to create a body.Everything would have meaning. "There's nothing outside of yourself. "I was just starting to catch on until you said that . "So if you dreamed you were playing cards and you got the 2 of Hearts... but when you said one-thought I just saw in my mind. you keep forgetting.. Even I am just you teaching yourself!" "Oh. I'm going to trust that you'll both be able to hear 86 . teaching myself. It might mean you were scared of falling in-love. . The only trick would be understanding how to interpret the dream. his face beaming. This is how you've learned to teach yourself to play the game. You see what your mind wants to communicate to you.. since I just got done telling you there are no coincidences. "Why?" said Anna. "Well you understand the unified field. You dream about your mother. Do you both understand that your mind is creating this reality as well as your dream world?" "Almost .

You can't measure darkness.. "When Matthew and I were out in the desert and couldn't see to get back. . You might think the dark spots are ruining the image. So the opening would read: In the now was the Word. In and of itself it has no power. Of course at this point in your experience and understanding it's difficult to see how this analogy could work in terms of life on planet earth. I'm simply planting a seed for further exploration at a later time. ." "But so many tragic things have happened in our history. or the unified field. So God is universal consciousness existing in the eternal Now." she replied." said Amelia. and the Word was with God. "There's a much bigger picture than you can yet fully comprehend. no reality. Amelia. the tragedy . “For now let's work with the idea that darkness is the absence of light. "It says. Word implies a single thought or concept. universal consciousness." "Did you?" 87 . One-thought. Then it says The Word was God. but let me give you a mental image. "The word beginning in its original translation meant only. dark and light dots that make no sense. You'd see thousands of pixels making up the image. and the Word was God. It's not real. It has no qualities or characteristics of its own. . “You'll see that the most beautiful images are the ones that capture the contrast of dark and light. If this is your only chance." said Anna.. If you have to walk through a dark basement. But when you see the picture return to it's normal size you recognize the importance of the dark and the light. What would The Word be? The implies only one. And then it just goes on to say how infinitely creative this universal intelligence is. "Why would this intelligence choose so much pain?" "The pain. Have you ever read the first paragraph of the Old Testament?" "No. big fear of the dark?" asked Anna. it means now. and both are important and necessary to the whole composition." said Anna.this. In the beginning was the Word." said Amelia. Imagine looking at photo on a computer screen that is several hundred times larger than normal. are you battling the dark or dealing with your own fear of the dark?" "My own fear. "What was your last. "And what were you afraid of?" "That we'd die." said Amelia.

It's not necessary to judge. you experience. better yet. do you spend a lot of time worrying about it? Or do you think. When you recognize that something's a dream. laughing and throwing up her arms. then holding negative thoughts around the situation will only draw more negativity because whatever you're thinking. Matthew. Therefore I am. say to yourself. "I would say good and evil. I think! "While you're releasing judgments.'" "Or. Therefore. "Let me put it simply." "None of my business? Why?" said Matthew in total disbelief."To be honest. It's just a part of the illusion." said Anna sincerely." "If you're not judging a situation or a person then doesn't that mean you'd just stand by and watch someone being robbed or killed?" asked Matthew. "Thinking makes it so. That is the game you're playing isn't it. are judgments. I wonder what that meant. This is none of my business. "This isn't an excuse for apathy. If you're really mad at someone." said Amelia.. an illusion. light and dark.. Amelia laughed. the game of free-will." said Anna. You can't experiment with free-will if you have no choices!" "So are you saying that darkness and evil are good?" said Matthew. Death doesn't exist." "Does being sick to your stomach change the situation or the other person?" she asked. "Well. that was interesting. I'm not sure. "If there's action to be taken and you feel you can make a difference. aren't you!" said Anna. and then get on with your day?" "If it's not real. "but if there's nothing you can do. "You've got a point! 'I think. Being judgmental takes away your power to think creatively because you give your power over to whatever it is you're judging. Hmm. right and wrong." said Anna logically. "then what's the purpose?" "If everything were light and love and angels it might be nice for a while." said Amelia.. you're here. do it. 88 ." Anna replied.. but where's the challenge? Where's the opportunity to exercise your own free will. If the situation is out of your hands. "I AM. let go of the one around death. how do you feel?" "Sick to my stomach.

" said Anna with concern in her voice. Anna began to disappear. Anna stopped and stared at her crystal ball. no future is set in stone. saying this is none of my business neutralizes your feelings." said Anna. all alone in the dark. So. This was the first time Amelia had seen Anna with a serious look. seems to me kidnapped." said Matthew nodding.." said Anna compassionately. Make sure you're clear. "What do you see?" asked Amelia urgently. "I see you in a prison cell. I don't know why you've chosen this or what it is you're there to do. "It takes you out of negativity and moves you out of the realm of judgment." "What? Tell me what?" said Amelia anxiously." "It's your body literally saying to you. You're more of a captive. be sure you understand everything. "No. This will happen very soon.. Matthew and Amelia watched her body gradually becoming transparent. “Remember who you are. trying his best to assimilate all she was telling him.. There wasn't an outside forcefield stopping him. Don't wait to ask questions. he was literally running into his own negative thought patterns." "Okay." said Anna with certainty. Of course. I'm a bit torn as to whether I should tell you this." With that. "But what could I possibly do to end up in prison? For one thing. "I've just seen a bit of your future. I can't stomach it when you're angry. dear ones! Remember!” 89 . but this apparently is a future you've chosen and you're working your way toward it. I'm too young!" "This is not a regular prison. with only her last words clinging in the air.. but before you leave Äsha. "You mean as an adult? I'm going to end up in prison?" said Amelia in dismay. Do you understand?" "Just about. Then she looked at Amelia. "My dear. "My dear."No." he said. "Remember the psychiatrist in India trying to force his way through the boulders? He had to neutralize the negativity in his mind first." said Anna quietly.

Chapter X The Crystal Cave

Amelia and Matthew watched as everything disappeared except the chairs they were sitting on. When they stood up, those disappeared as well. They burst out laughing. Somehow they'd gotten used to the inexplicable, and now events like this one had become more of an inside joke than anything they'd attempt to figure out. Matthew said, "I guess we should go back." "Wait," said Amelia, closing her eyes. "I have the feeling we're supposed to go in the cave." "We don't have a flashlight," said Matthew. "I know,” she sighed, “but we're still supposed to go in." Matthew took a deep breath. "Okay. Do you think this is a test or something?" "I have no idea," said Amelia feeling a strange and uncomfortable combination of knowingness and cluelessness churning together in her stomach. They both stepped into the cave rather cautiously. It was cool and moist as they headed toward the back and found a passage that turned sharply and sloped downward. Crystals on the ceiling above emanated just enough light for them to see. They walked carefully along the passage until they came to a large chamber with a low ceiling. The entire ceiling was filled with all different colors of crystals lit from within. Matthew reached up to touch a red crystal and it fell directly into his hand. As he held it the crystal began glowing intensely and all the other crystals went dark. Suddenly Matthew and Amelia found themselves in the midst of a hologram. They were standing in a magnificent foyer of a mansion. There were crystal chandeliers, beautiful antiques, exquisite porcelain vases, and sculptures. In the midst of everything a six year old boy, dressed in a navy blue school uniform with a cap, was sitting forlornly on a large trunk with his hands folded on his lap and his ankles crossed. "That's my father when he was a boy!" exclaimed Matthew. A dark-skinned, heavy-set maid of mixed decent rushed into the room with the butler and 90

a gardener. She said to them, "Quick! Get his trunk out of here before she sees it." The boy jumped off as the men hoisted the trunk off the ground and headed up the stairs. At that moment the front door flew open. A stunning woman, elegantly dressed in the height of 50's fashion, breezed into the house followed by a chauffeur laden with shopping bags and boxes. She stopped for a moment, stared at the boy and yelled, "Bessie! What is this child doing here?" "Well, Mrs. McKinley, your son has just returned from boarding school," soothed Bessie. "I am perfectly aware of that, Bessie. But he was supposed to go to summer camp. Haven't you been informed?" said a snippy Mrs. McKinley. "Yes, I know that Missus, but the camp doesn't start for another two weeks," said Bessie deferentially. "Oh, my gracious," said Mrs. McKinley condescendingly. "Must I do everything myself? And tonight of all nights, when we're having my niece's debutante ball! Certainly there must be a camp that starts earlier somewhere in the world! Bessie, tell my secretary to find a camp that's open. Immediately!" "Yes, Mrs. McKinley" said Bessie abashed. "And Bessie, if that can't be accomplished, be sure you feed Matthew Jr. in the kitchen while he's here. He's happier eating with the staff anyhow." She briefly looked in her son's direction again and said coolly, "Hello, dear. I hope you had fun at school this year. I'm sure you'll have a marvelous summer at camp. I must run now, my darling. Mommy has so much to do for the party tonight." She quickly bent down, gave him a peck on the cheek, turned and left the room. The boy just stood there, his lower lip quivering, tears filling his eyes, trying desperately not to cry. "There, there, master Matthew," said Bessie gently, scooping the boy up in her ample arms and rocking him back and forth. "Hush, now. You don't need to cry." With that the boy burst into tears, wailing, "Why doesn't my mommy want me here? I try to be good and quiet." "Oh my precious lamb!” said Bessie bubbling over with love for the boy. “There's no little boy in the world better than you. Maybe your mama just thinks you'd be happier in camp with children your own age." The boy looked at her with tear-stained cheeks, then looked down and shook his head slowly. The hologram disappeared. The crystals in the ceiling lit up again, but the crystal in Matthew's hand had gone dark so he slipped the crystal in his pocket. He turned to Amelia and said, "My father never spoke of his mother. She died when I was 91

two or three. All I know about Grandma is that when she died my father inherited everything since he was the only child. He sold every item that belonged to her. Of course, he kept the house because it had been in the family." "That's so sad," said Amelia. "I don't understand why she couldn't love him." At that moment the crystal in his pocket began to glow. Instantly they were standing on a grassy meadow and a tall, thin, pale and sickly-looking man walked right up to Matthew. Matthew whispered to Amelia, "It's my father!" The man stood there looking at Matthew and finally said, "I'm so proud of you, Matthew. And I'm so sorry you don't know how much I love you." He held Matthew's gaze for a moment and then whispered, "I've been trapped. Please forgive me." Then his father stepped back a few paces and turned into a stone statue. A moment later the stone began to crack. Suddenly it split open revealing the same teary-eyed boy they had seen earlier dressed in a school uniform. The boy ran to Matthew and threw his arms around him. Matthew picked him up and said, "It's okay. I love you. I'll be your friend." With that, the little boy put his arms around Matthew's neck and kissed him, "I love you too," he said warmly, light glowing in his eyes. Suddenly everything vanished. They were standing in the cave and the crystal had gone dark while the other crystals were once again lit from within. There were tears in Matthew's eyes as he looked at Amelia and said, "That couldn't have been a hologram! That was a real little boy in my arms. I could feel him breathing. I could even feel his heart beating. That was definitely my father as a little boy." He stopped for a moment and said quietly, "I don't understand." As he said those words a light began to shimmer in the semi-darkness. They watched as it shifted and changed until it appeared as vibrant gold. From this color came a voice that said lovingly, Stop trying to understand with your mind. True understanding is from the heart. With that, a bright blue crystal dislodged itself from the ceiling and gently drifted down until it hovered right in front of Amelia. She held her hand out and the crystal dropped into her palm. She closed her hand and the light-energy from the crystal shot through her body. There was an intense blue light that radiated from her and again they heard the voice, The Truth is your power, Amelia. Suddenly Amelia found herself dressed elegantly in an indigo blue velvet dress with stockings and heels. It was dusk and Amelia was totally alone in the midst of San Francisco in a park filled with homeless people. She knew she wasn't in a hologram. There were shanties constructed from plastic, cardboard, wood and shopping carts. 92

She looked around. not the thought. but no one was there and the voice was not in her imagination. That's it. Amelia was horrified. Then she saw a golden light right in front of her. It said. Amelia's heart pounded as she looked for Matthew or at least some meaning in what had just happened. The colors around them were dark red. As Amelia looked around she noticed everyone had light around them. she too seemed much older. and black. Though she appeared to have been attractive at one time. even as you have forgotten who you are. a few teeth were missing and she had puffy bags under her eyes. he is your mirror. bent from the gravity of life's burdens. forgotten innocence.Strange people drifted by her. shadows of former youth. Amelia. Perfect! Look at him! He's cruel and spiteful! My dear. Listen. "What?!" He has forgotten who he is. See beyond the distortion of thought and action. She remembered Timothy saying. There was nothing she could do and clearly no place to run so she sat down on a bench. In her mind Amelia retorted vigorously. black man well over six feet tall. I would never hurt someone like that! Aren't you angry right now with that man? 93 . the woman pulled a large knife out of her bag. but mostly the light was grayish with patches of black. probably only in his mid-30's. arguing louder and louder. You're the thinker. Amelia tried to grasp the meaning of this statement. But I'm not violent and angry. But then what? Could she simply explain she was from another dimension and just wanted to go back? Then she heard. He was arguing with a petite white woman about the same age. Finally. The voice was loving and gentle. blocking her view of the man and woman. She heard it very distinctly. but deep lines on his face made him seem much older. said the light. See this man as perfect. an ugly sulfurish-yellow. Transform the violence and anger within yourself. It was a dense color. Her skin was pallid. almost opaque. thought Amelia. She wanted to run. He kicked her repeatedly as she pleaded for him to stop. Her attention was drawn to a strong. but before she could use it the man struck her with such force she spun around and slid across the pavement. They were both trying to intimidate each other. to find the security of a policeman. Amelia couldn't hear exactly what was being said but she watched as the surrounding energy moved back and forth. There was nothing she could do and no one else to intercede.

The child was saying to herself. Suddenly the man's flesh and bones became transparent. Amelia thought. In yet another vision she saw an equally violent childhood very similar to the man's childhood. Now.Yes! Amelia thought vehemently. Clearly he was cruel and violent. If he didn't care he would just walk away. It's a mistake! They're both making a mistake! Then she remembered helping the psychiatrist in India and thought about how she might be able to help the man and woman in the same way. With the psychiatrist they had all visualized the way the cave was in reality. and then watched in horror as his alcoholic mother pinned him to the floor. They began taking off their clothes. As the man repeatedly kicked her this little girl was saying. For the first time Amelia looked through the golden light at the man. I know he really loves me. As the vision continued. It was totally loving. She saw him beaten repeatedly. Outside there was steel-gray armor. with no control. Amelia gasped and her eyes filled with tears as she saw the children covered with ugly scars and bruises all over their bodies. You look for guilt. In a vision she saw his heart in front of her. Around his heart floated scenes from the man's childhood. but she looked past that and saw his heart was bruised and bloody. her knees on his arms. and totally unaware that the woman he was kicking was not his mother. Amelia could see through the man's body to a small boy inside finally big enough to fight back. So who were these people in reality? What was the truth behind what she was seeing? Suddenly in a vision. Then she turned her attention to the woman groveling on the ground. Truth is your freedom and it's your gift to them. Mommy hits me because she loves me. I look for innocence. To her utter amazement Amelia saw that as a child the woman wanted so much to be loved she came to associate physical violence with love. Even emotional wounds showed up on their flesh. Amelia struggled with the idea that this man was innocent. Amelia watched him get older and become determined that no one would ever hurt him again. totally patient with her. She could see the woman's heart through the golden light as well. It only takes a tiny spark to start a forest fire. She watched as the mother beat the little girl with a rubber hose. think with me for a moment. She saw him depleted. Amelia watched as the little boy and girl stepped out of the man and woman and walked up to her. Mommy just wants me to be a good girl. 94 . Then she heard the voice again. said the voice from the shimmering gold light. and with a carving knife sliced his chest. and witnessed the energy around him being continually sucked away by his mother. Look with me and see innocence.

. No peeking. "Sure. Can I have a dog with me. Nobody can take it away from you. You're a sweet." said Amelia warmly. always understood.The Light said. produced a 95 . peeking out of one eye. Amelia realized she had been talking outloud and crying through the whole thing. I promise. precious little girl and you deserve to be loved." said Amelia. These scars aren't you. But I'll tell you how to feel love . too?" he said smiling brightly. It's there for you. that the scars were put there by someone else. "You're not bad. flying. .. kissed their cheeks. She held them in her arms. "but sweetheart. Though she thought she was seeing a vision when the children emerged from the man and woman." said the child ashamed. Imagine a place where you're completely safe. some place you like a lot. "Oh." "My mommy loves me.. "There's a world you've never known. warm and completely real. including the little boy. The children crawled up in her lap. Recognize this innocence in all of your brothers and sisters. This is a place where you're always loved. and I'm all alone with my castle.. "That's all your mommy understands about love." she said. flying ." said the girl. no!" said Amelia kindly. "You recognize the innocence of these little ones. You're safe! You're perfectly safe. "Close your eyes." "I'm playing in the sand at the beach. She looked up and the man and woman were standing in front of her. . "This is a place you can always go to feel safe and loved.." Deep compassion filled Amelia's heart as tears poured down her cheeks. It's full of joy and love and freedom. and walked through the golden light. Suddenly she had the feeling she wasn't alone. "I'm floating in the sky. She dabbed her nose with the back of her hand. Nobody can touch you. flying.a place you'd like to go." "I was a bad girl. "You're safe. Where are you?" The little girl said happily. Then she noticed the scars were dissolving on their bodies and she started crying tears of joy.. and said softly. Your body isn't you. The children both nodded their heads." Her eyes filled with love and she said earnestly. The woman reached into her bag. I'm a bird. if you'd like. deeply concerned. Your mommy just hasn't learned that yet. . . love's harmless.. It's your special place and no one can be there unless you invite them. they felt solid." Amelia observed the children on her lap with their eyes closed beginning to look truly peaceful. "Are you okay?" said the woman.

"Temporary insanity." "Yeah. young girl in a party dress.. complete with two imaginary children on her lap. I'll be fine. Moments earlier Amelia thought for sure the lesson was over and she'd be back with Matthew. Don't let anything bad happen to her. "Someone's meeting me here pretty soon.wadded-up napkin. "It's kinda rumpled but it's clean." he said and sat down next to Amelia." She nodded and sighed. your mama and all . "You saved my life you know. you stay with her.. The woman looked at the man for a moment. I should never a done that. crying your eyes out and talking to yourself!" "Are you lost?" said the man with concern as the park lights flickered on. He said abjectly. 96 . What if she'd slipped into another dimension accidentally and no one could find her and she might never get back? Who was this man? It was one thing thinking about him from a distance..." was the man's reply as he turned and said genuinely to the woman." she said.. I gotta go to work." She smiled. Okay? Until her friend gets here. “I know how you feel about knives. Mike. listen. You shouldn't be here alone. alright. I do get awfully crazy around knives. "Oh! That over there with him? That was nothin'!" she shrugged. But now she felt a bit panicked. "I was worried about you. She started laughing as she saw a mental picture of what they must have been seeing." she said. Now.." said the woman. "Listen. “I am sorry. thanks. "'Bye now. trying hard to believe her own words. "It ain't much of a job but it's money.” She looked back at Amelia with concern. "I know." as she waved and walked away." "Me?!" said the woman. babe." said Amelia. "Not really. brushing it off. "I really am sorry." "It's alright. and feeling terribly lost all the same. surprised and delighted that anyone would care what was happening to her. This isn't a safe place for a pretty." She leaned over and whispered in Amelia's ear." Amelia sniffled.. but now he was just a few inches away sitting next to her in the semi-dark. I'm sorry too. What's the matter?" "Actually. cryin' and dressed up for a party like you was. blowing her nose with the napkin. "But what about you! One minute I thought he was gonna beat my brains out and the next thing I know he's staring at you sittin' here in the middle of this trashy park in your pretty velvet dress. patted Amelia's shoulder and said. and said kindly.

but she felt nervous sitting next to this man. I'm supposed to meet someone here. "That's a good question. There are no coincidences." During this conversation Amelia found herself looking directly into the man's eyes. The absurdity of this big man. "You know. . Mike walked over to the man." said Amelia. echoed in her ears. Had this happened before her experience of leaving the third dimension she would have barely looked at the man and probably would have gotten up to leave." "This is a bad place for a young girl like you ta be waitin'. "if you want this conversation to go anywhere. clearly a drug dealer." Mike nodded his head and rocked back and forth a little until a man he knew walked up and stood facing them a few feet away. Uh. . well ." said Amelia. Amelia had never met a black man before. Amelia laughed. he appeared to be a bit uncomfortable with her too. And oddly enough. But Anna's words. "I'm still okay." he said. ." she laughed. Mike returned to the bench saying to Amelia. "So how ya doin'?" She said. He shifted uncomfortably on the bench and then said again." Slightly embarrassed the man laughed." she said. "I'm fine . She'd never thought of herself as prejudiced. She knew she was here to learn something and 97 . "I don't know. you're going to have to come up with something else. My name's Mike." "It's okay. like I said. . "Nice to meet you. being nervous around her was entirely too funny to suppress. "I'm fine. "Sorry. Amelia noticed money and a small plastic bag exchanging hands. sticking her hand out."So how ya doin'?" said the man . Well. and though he was trying to be discrete. . So what are you doin' here?" he said a bit suspiciously. She had been raised in a small town with virtually no ethnic minorities. What's yours?" "Amelia. "So how ya doin'?" This time Amelia burst out laughing. . He didn't seem to know quite how to handle himself and came off with a lot of bravado. He shook her hand.

She thought of how she'd perceived the little boy with so much compassion. "The worst year. though. As you perceive this man. listening carefully to everything he said. It was the feeling of being fully present. There was nothing remotely similar between them." "The hole?" "That's where they put guys who murder somebody in prison. She heard the voice again. we was on welfare and I was the youngest. "Anyhow. seeing him and understanding him in a way that would have been impossible prior to changing her view of him." 98 . Well. was when I first came here. he was in prison the whole time. not herself. He was just reciting a few facts from his own personal history. "How do you survive here with no home?" "It's pretty tough. Amelia listened and began to notice she was feeling comfortable. “I was havin' ta stick up for my sisters when they was datin' guys. The man and the boy began to blend together and she found herself genuinely caring about Mike. but clearly he liked her undivided attention.A. just a hole in the floor. I been livin' on the streets eva since. Amelia had her full attention on Mike. Actually. things was bad at home. He continued.” he continued frankly. when I was fourteen. For half an hour he rambled on about his life and throughout the dialog he'd refer to himself as the bad seed. so you will perceive yourself." said Mike frankly. Her attention was on Mike. They lock 'em up and keep 'em in the dark for a year. He was the good seed and I was the bad seed. anyhow.the lesson wasn't yet complete. not at all concerned about the future. She felt a deep sense of peace." said Mike directly. With genuine interest and concern Amelia said. Then she remembered Äsha quoting Shakespeare. Nothing is either good or bad but thinking makes it so. She realized the boy was still inside the man and as she looked in the man's eyes she recognized the child she'd been holding on her lap. There ain't even a toilet. He spent that year in the hole. bein' the bad seed an all. My dad. Amelia was confused. "Well. I got in a lot of fights. The expression on Amelia's face softened with this recognition and in turn Mike became more comfortable. I was from a family of thirteen kids. So I took off and came here. I had a twin brother but he died at birth. cep one time I went square. We lived in L." It was clear Mike didn't feel sorry for himself. And this one guy was gonna kill me. At least that's what my momma a'ways said. He wasn't looking for pity.

" said Amelia kindly. "You're like a diamond to me."Square?" asked Amelia curiously. Amelia wondered when was the last time this man had spoken to someone genuinely interested in him." "I'll do that. obviously enjoying that he'd come up with some good analogies. She could hardly believe his transformation before her eyes." She walked toward Matthew and then turned to wave to Mike. You know that? Everything about you shines like the sun. You're like them pretty marigolds over there.. there's my friend." she said. I just think you've never really had the opportunity to give. or when did he last hear a compliment.” she said sincerely. to a man who was gentle and thoughtful. Please come back next time you're around. "It was so nice to meet you. "You will come back won't you?" he said urgently. She turned to see if Matthew had seen her yet. She'd spoken from her heart. I even had my own apartment. "Mike. “I promise. She had nothing to gain by being kind to him. "Oh. "I've gotta go. Until that moment she'd never really seen that her perception could profoundly touch and influence the other person as well. He went from being nervous and suspicious with all kinds of walls and barriers. "It was nice to meet you." Mike took her hand and said sincerely." Mike looked at Amelia and said genuinely. "Ya know. I don't think you're a bad seed. "If I'm ever here again. Out of the corner of her eye Amelia caught sight of Matthew standing about half a block away looking for her." As she stood up. Got off drugs. but he was gone and all at once she and Matthew were back in the cave. 99 . Mike was still holding her hand like a lifeline. Used to take homeless people in off the street. Amelia could see when she changed her perception of Mike her fear disappeared." Amelia looked at Mike and said compassionately. I will. Clearly this had opened the way for him to be the same way.. Got a job. I'm always here. and waved as he walked in her direction. but I hadda quit that cause they kep rippin me off." He smiled.

. . "You know that voice I heard?" Matthew nodded. "I don't know. you! Let's go find Äsha and see what other adventures lie ahead. but I could sense .. Not the way a scientist observes rats in cages but more the way a mother would watch over a child. "I have a pretty good idea. It's just how I felt. your questions. But think about a twoyear-old meeting a friendly St." "Amelia. "You'll never believe what happened to me!" "Actually." "How?" He shrugged his shoulders and raised his eyebrows. It was more like I was. the answers. like I was being watched over and no harm could possibly come to me. Vhy not have entertainink biliefs?" Matthew laughed and gave Amelia a hug. well. the child would probably be scared at first and then enjoy the dog. your feelings. but in a way it's like we've never been apart. And that's how it felt . They stepped outside and were shocked to find themselves standing on the huge lawn in front of the White House with Äsha.Amelia hugged Matthew and said.. "Come on. . It just happened." he said. Everyt'ing ees bilief. Bernard for the first time. "And as Anna vould say. I couldn't see or hear anything. adventure." "What do you mean?" asked Matthew. "No." "You saw everything?" she asked. I'm glad to see you." She laughed. It's funny. She knows nothing's going to harm the child. Somehow I was able to feel you." "That's the first time I've been completely alone since we began this." said Matthew." They walked back to the mouth of the cave and discovered it was already dark." she said. . "I was a little nervous and scared.. And when I first found myself in the park and then talking to the man I was a little scared. "Do you think that's a realistic way to look at things?" "I don't know if it's realistic. I don't know. . "Well the voice said that I saw guilt where it saw innocence. but I never felt like I was really alone. then added with her very best Russian accent. Suddenly they heard dogs barking viciously and turned to 100 . Everything. Not exactly that. But the mother's not concerned. amazed. being observed.

. I know there's no death but that's hardly the point. "Of course I was afraid! That professor got pretty banged up on the boulders and that was just an illusion! This was a real wall!" argued Matthew. it's all illusion!” 101 . They lay on the floor gasping for breath.. Besides. dusting himself off and helping Amelia to her feet. "This way!" said Äsha calmly as she disappeared through the wall of the White House.. Matthew grabbed Amelia's hand and plunged through the wall dragging her with him. We were really scared!" "Do you think you would have been afraid to try walking through a wall?" said Äsha simply. Remember. you did walk through the wall. Bernards?" Matthew yelled. “I can't believe Äsha did that to us!" Suddenly Äsha appeared. "we could have been killed.see five dobermans pelting toward them. dancing in one spot since there was no place to run or hide." Matthew said pointedly. "Good thing impossibilities never occur!” After catching his breath he added.. you walked through the wall didn't you?" said Äsha with a grin. "Oh. "Has she forgotten that we don't know how to walk through walls?" "Hey! Remember that dog analogy! Is mother aware these are not friendly St. Äsha. or maybe just exchanged one fear for another. but in any case. come on. Matthew looked at Amelia and said. "Apparently you put your fear aside. "You left us to be attacked by those dogs! How could you do that?" cried Matthew. "You did see that it was possible with Timothy and still you didn't try. “You and Timothy always hang out in other dimensions. Matthew and Amelia looked at each other as the realization hit: They had indeed walked." "Oh. through a wall! "But still. That was different!” said Matthew as if her comment was a cheap shot. or more precisely hurtled. "Äsha! Äsha!" yelled Amelia banging on the wall in a total panic. Just then two of the dogs leapt into the air going for their throats. "Those dogs wouldn't have touched you. my God!" screamed Amelia. I'm sure you guys walk through walls and walk on water all the time!" "But were you afraid to try walking through walls?" asked Äsha patiently. "Did what?" she asked calmly. And yes.

Matthew had planned to stay angry until Äsha saw his point but it wasn't worth the effort.. like the animals in India. "Come along. just more motivated than usual. "Those dogs." Amelia and Matthew burst out laughing. You really were perfectly safe." said Äsha. but they can't touch you. 102 . "are on a different dimension. They can see you.." said Äsha crisply as she walked purposefully down the hall. Matthew and Amelia jumped to their feet and hurriedly caught up with Äsha just as she walked through another wall."Those dogs wouldn't have felt like an illusion if they'd bitten us!" said Matthew still standing his ground. it's time to go.

seeing the wall as a wave. not to mention lack of food and sleep. and said. From this vantage point. As soon as they saw her she disappeared through the door. "Isn't it voile'?" "No. Let's see what you can do. "Alright. At the end of the hall stood Äsha in front of a huge vault-like door.Chapter XI Walking Through Walls They looked at each other and laughed. Then she imagined moving through the wall to the other side and there she was! She jumped in the air and clapped her hands. Matthew stepped back a few paces and said. not a particle. Their analytical minds had finally given up the struggle and everything seemed hilariously funny. "Viola!" Matthew laughed. Amelia giggled. They were in what appeared to be a secret passageway." "Okay. When they reached the door Matthew said somewhat seriously." said Matthew. "Impress me. Miss Amelia. folding his arms. Mother! Hope you're watching!" He then pretended to be a vaudeville dancer and did a little dance routine moving sideways into the wall with his shoulder. Matthew still couldn't figure it out. she imagined herself being part of the wall and the wall being a part of herself. "Amelia." said Matthew as Amelia dragged him along. There was a resounding thud. By this point." Amelia took a deep breath. they were so exhausted from everything that had been happening. "Haven't you learned anything? That maneuver was just like that guy in India. stood with her back to the wall. Suddenly. Amelia's arm appeared through the wall and her finger beckoned him. Matthew took her hand and found himself on the other side of the wall too. closed her eyes and imagined the wall inside herself. "it's a wall! Come on!" Amelia disappeared back through the wall. "You know. this is one thick 103 . Then she stepped back through the wall and said exuberantly." she giggled with mock-seriousness. they were punchy. I don't know what's wrong with walking down the hall like a normal person.

. and a few dark spots. Matthew put on an I'm-being-a-good-sport face. it's all just a thought. it was like being in-love.door! We're not talking a flimsy wall here!" Amelia laughed. Amelia said. ." "Oh. . "See!" he said emphatically. then smiled and said. alright. but then he sensed the door had an energy all it's own. It's your fear that's stopping you. Amelia stamped her foot. you are too much! Loving a door? Now that's a first!" he said hopelessly. I'll try again. flung his arms out with his body and face pressed up against the vault door and said.” she struggled with an image. "Oh. There were no windows and the room was totally sound proof.. "Stop trying to figure it out ." said a tall. "It's in your mind. silly!" Matthew sighed. steel gray color of the door. addressing the President. walked up to the door." 104 . thin man with graying hair. and the word being somewhat garbled coming out of the side of his mouth. I love you. He was about to tell Amelia what he was seeing but suddenly he found himself on the other side of the door with Amelia and Äsha standing next to him. At first he was only aware of the door being cold and hard. "Sir. there's no difference. With his eyes closed he could see the dark. with his face smooshed up against the door. "Matthew. "We've been aware of this problem for some time now but there's really no way to combat it. Think about . To be seeing this was a physicist's dream come true! Matthew felt so much joy and excitement from this vision.. "No. it'll never work. vault door!" Nothing happened." He leaned up against the door. why bother with a vault door? They could just hang curtains!" said Matthew hoping that maybe humor would earn him some extra points and he could skip the exercise altogether." "Amelia. As he continued seeing in this way he saw the door as a wavy energy pattern with an electrical discharge here and there. the same as the fountain they'd seen earlier. "Do you want to be right or do you want to get to the other side?" "Can't I do both?" said Matthew. I really mean it!" said Amelia giving it her best shot.. Matthew would have said something but right in front of them sat the President and two advisers. well if there's no difference. And then in his mind's eye he saw the door as molecules and finally atoms with huge empty spaces. “loving the door. cracking a grin.

because that knowledge would alter your future experience. "Keep working on this. sighed."You see." "Well.” The thin man said. who was stocky and completely bald. There seem to be plenty of psychics in the country these days. "I can't explain what you've just seen or why you've seen it. First you had to be open to the possibility you could walk through a wall. "is that there's no way to protect you." said the President thoughtfully. Amelia and Matthew found themselves back at the campground with Äsha. Most important is the understanding that Love removes the blocks in consciousness by making you one with everyone and everything. All at once." "The point we're trying to make. right where they were sitting. You had to visualize the wall in your mind. but we can't find them through the normal channels and even if we do find them it would be like trying to storm Fort Knox." said the other man.." "We've tried that..” Right before their eyes Äsha began to disappear." said the thin man. and shook his head. As her body became more and more transparent she said. it will appear as a heart attack or a stroke but it will actually be these people killing you from the inside." The men left the room and the President put his elbows on the desk with his head in his hands. Äsha said. “In the morning everything will be the same and everything will be different!” And she was gone. "because it's mental the cause of death appears to be natural. “If you would only love more. If these people want you dead.” Then at the very last moment they heard. violent deaths." said the stocky man. become a part of it and then feel what it would be like to move through it and be on the other side. It was the middle of the night and the campground looked exactly as it did when Äsha had brought them back the first time. "but these assassins are so well-trained they've created mental barriers our psychics can't get through. "We feel certain they have some sort of a training camp here in this country. sir." The President sighed... And those that have gotten through with their minds have died sudden. ALL limitations in your life would vanish. I'll get in touch with some people I know. "if they can attack us mentally. your choice. What I can tell you is that you've learned problem solving techniques that will work whether the wall is physical or mental. 105 . don't we have people who can attack back in the same way? And certainly someone should be able to find them. Then it had to be your desire.

Matthew laughed and said calmly. and without ever taking her eyes off Matthew she saw a vision of him kissing her both in her physical heart and in his physical heart. She could feel a tremendous warmth surge through her body. She was both sun and earth. "That's it?! That's all she's going to tell us?! How can she do this to us?" Wrapping his arms around her. and from the look on his face she knew they were sharing the experience. 106 . "You'd think we'd be used to this by now. but in this indescribable place where stars danced and the heavens sang.” Though Amelia was burning with questions and would have stoked the fires of righteous indignation a bit longer. she instantly knew Matthew for who he truly was. and he knew her as never before.Chapter XII The Abduction Amelia whispered in exasperation. She giggled at the ludicrousness of the whole situation. She thought he was about to kiss her. The next thing she knew they'd both risen out of their bodies and were holding hands. As Amelia looked into Matthew's eyes she could barely feel her physical body. In that moment she realized it was impossible to truly comprehend him with her senses. Amidst the stars their bodies transformed into radiant white light and they danced together. but he just stood there looking at her with a combination of tenderness and desire she'd never experienced before. looked up at him and smiled. Once again she became aware of their hearts beating in unison. intense heat and cool morning shadows. Then she felt Matthew's presence. Amelia looked at Matthew and he smiled broadly as they continued floating weightlessly into the night sky. As they floated above themselves Amelia looked down and could see where they were still standing next to the fire. All at once the light from the planets and stars joined in the dance with the celestial sounds of the universe accompanying them. Matthew was gently stroking her hair and she suddenly felt more like a kitten than a tigress. expanding and contracting then bursting forth like the sun rising above the horizon. Light pulsated. In the light of the campfire Amelia could see Matthew looking intently into her eyes. Amelia felt everything all at once.

every counselor had a turn walking through the camp on what was fondly referred to as the Purity Patrol. as if they were finding their way together. “I've just seen something. instantly pulling her back into her body. She and Matthew were kissing in a way they'd never kissed before. As the vision continued she saw that energy moved up through the body by breathing deeply. and the feeling that this little girl would one day be a part of her life. there were only the field trip rules where each student agreed to appropriate conduct.. a little girl.. Each wave gathering in momentum. A matching golden light descended through the eye of the vortex.” Matthew laughed. and both Matthew and Amelia could feel this child's essence as it combined with their own. in waves. inexplicable connection. placed his forehead on her forehead. As if magnetized. Nothing had prepared her for the intense chemistry they breathlessly shared. Then. Her mother and father both told her repeatedly that they trusted her good judgment.. let alone the endorphins flooding her system or the feeling that her body was suddenly capable of overriding her free will. and much to Amelia's surprise. peaking. And just in case there was any doubt about what was appropriate.All at once their light bodies were drawn together. penetrated the crowns of their heads.. smiled. Her love was all encompassing. In the absence of parental rules. Shining from the star was the presence of a beautiful child. and Matthew began breathing with her. the stars and planets flashed and swirled around them gathering into a spinning vortex filled with infinite colors. and appeared before them as a new star. Amelia gently stepped back slightly and said. and her parent's complete confidence in her. Amelia sensed a deep connection with the child. then subsiding. Suddenly the campfire crackled and blazed brightly effectively jolting Amelia's senses. however. As they continued breathing together. “You mean more than leaving our bodies together and dancing with the stars?” Amelia giggled.” she said grinning. But Amelia never considered she might one day doubt her own judgment. deep. well. Sensing her fear Matthew held her closely. No parental discussions or sex education classes had ever addressed her emotions. Amelia opened her eyes. “Yeah.. something happened 107 .. It appeared. that all patrolling parties had turned in for the night. Amelia had always been grateful for parents' progressive views regarding relationships and dating. in her mind's eye. She took a slow. that too. as it naturally does. Immediately she felt a deep. she felt both excited and anxious in this uncharted territory. Amelia felt energy moving up through her body into her heart and head. steadying breath. she saw energy moving. “But. With no pressure from Matthew. As they touched waves of energy flowed up through their bodies with golden light radiating out from their hearts.

“Are you planning to experiment on me?” he asked hopefully. the experiment is this. But when this same energy was drawn up into the heart it was experienced as love. or bliss.. “it happened to me too. not that this is a date exactly.” “Overwhelmed?” added Matthew finishing her sentence. People experiencing energy below the waist thought of it as sexual. here's what I noticed.. Matthew smiled warmly. tell me what to do!” “Well.” As they kissed and held each other..when I came back into my body. uh..” “I know. I truly want what you want.. it became clear to Amelia that energy was just energy. I can't even describe my feelings for you.. I mean on a date.. but there was 108 . but I don't know if I'm ready for where we're going. well. Amelia smiled engagingly and said. and they don't have rules for my. they trust me and they tell me I'll know when it's right... I mean.” he said warmly....” Amelia took a deep breath and said nervously. Do you know what I mean?” she asked hopefully... and when the energy moved from the heart into the head it could be experienced as inspiration. relieved that he shared her feelings.. yes!” “Then by all means. “Yes! That's it exactly. “Lead the way. conduct. stroked her hair and said genuinely. you know my parents are psychologists. But it was all the same energy. simply flowing in different areas of the body. But it almost makes it worse. “Well.. “I've never been with a man before.” said Amelia taking Matthew's hand and drawing him down to the ground next to the fire. “As a matter of fact. because I feel so much for you.. “Do you want to try an experiment?” Matthew laughed..” she gasped.” Relieved Amelia sighed. “But I had this vision and. but uh... but I know one thing.. “I've seen you the way I've never seen anyone before.. As Amelia kissed Matthew she noticed the energy building in her body..... “It's too late to be anything but honest.” Amelia stopped and took a deep breath as Matthew waited patiently for her to finish.. He smiled warmly and said. “When I came back into my body after we were dancing with the stars. can we just stop and take a few deep breaths every so often?” To her surprise Matthew didn't laugh.... I felt.. When we kiss.. we've already seen each other practically inside and out! Then she blurted out.

she was wondering whether she had subconsciously dreamed up the whole adventure. At that moment Matthew's thought came to her as clearly as if he were speaking." Amelia had been trying to think of a sane explanation for her lengthy absence. She noticed if they kept kissing at that peak moment. Amelia could feel dawn approaching as a single bird. When the energy moved into their heads they both experienced geometrical shapes and figures in a kaleidoscope of neon colored lights with infinite diversity. “I'm full of energy. as if the body was trying to override the heart and mind. As the energy moved into their hearts. but deep breathing caused the energy to move into their hearts and minds. an alchemist of the night. Amelia drifted to her tent filled with thoughts of Matthew and floated into her sleeping bag. Amelia said silently. but instead of feeling off balance. "Matthew. Like a runner's high the endorphins were still present. but the next thing she knew it was morning. the energy ultimately began to feel out of control. but if they stopped and simply held each other while breathing deeply together. Everything was just as it had been. afraid she'd never be able to sleep. "you're a loud thinker sometimes!" Amelia burst out laughing and all the girls in the tent looked to see what was so funny. but in her sleep-deprived state of mind. you did not make this up!" Amelia quickly looked around to see if the other girls had noticed anything but they were getting dressed and chatting and no one seemed to notice a thing. and she wanted to stop kissing and just hold Matthew. this energy throughout the body felt balanced and calm. Amelia whispered. while stars melted into the barest hint of magenta along the eastern horizon. how did you know what I was thinking?" "Well. Caldwell said exactly what she had said earlier except this time she looked directly at Amelia and said.always a subtle moment when the energy would begin to peak. They felt this love not only for themselves and each other. an entirely different experience would take place. "Amelia." Matthew quipped. Their desire for each other was still present. and she smiled to herself as she realized that she and Matthew were teaching themselves how to harness this energy by simply breathing! Though it was still dark. you're on cleanup duty this morning. Mrs. but I think it'll be a long day for both of us if we don't get some sleep.” Matthew gave her one last hug and kiss goodnight. "Amelia. yet energized at the same time. but for the world as well. they felt the same deep love and connection they'd experienced in other dimensions. 109 . sang the sky from sable to a softer hue. Amelia had a new appreciation for Timothy's statement about the body's ability to create chemicals more powerful than heroin.

what happened to your Paris-clothes?" “I woke up naked. Everything will be the same and everything will be different.. Private joke. "It's good to see you haven't lost your sense of humor! By the way.. use since the end of the previous summer. "Now back to the subject. Fortunately." They met just beyond the camp site where they could speak privately. Caldwell called all of the students together. It looks like we're going to be here for awhile.. We're going to have to wait until a car comes our way or until the park ranger realizes we're 110 . but before she could complain any further Mrs. After breakfast we'll be packing up and driving to Desolate Canyon. You'll be lucky if you see a hiker within 50 miles of the campground. Mrs. The good news. how about you?” “Same.. Amelia said. "Alright. "Sorry. The bus slowly wound up and down dirt roads that had little. if any. Amelia giggled then continued with a tone of mock-seriousness. "I don't know. "I expect to be on the road in one hour. she sent a mental message to Matthew. Caldwell said. It was quickly apparent this was a major problem unlikely to be resolved in the near future. nobody had enough energy to sing 99 Bottles of Beer on the Wall the way they had on the trip down.. either watching the scenery or taking cat naps. "I'll meet you outside." Amelia had often been told patience was not her long suit. They all sat quietly. you'll have plenty of privacy. The bad news." With that. water rationing is in. Caldwell said.” he replied with a mischievous grin. "Now I know what Äsha meant when she said. bathing is out!" There was a combination moan-chuckle from the students and then Mrs... How could things ever be exactly the same again when you can hear another person thinking?" Matthew laughed and said. Since we'll have to take in our own water.. the reason there are no hikers is because there's no water. what's the point of everything we've learned if we just come back here to the camp? What good can we do here?" Matthew shook his head. After two torturous hours the old bus clanked to a halt and died in the dust. Everyone got out and gratefully stretched their legs. so let's get a move on!" Right on time the bus pulled out of the campground. listen up everybody!" she yelled.She tried to muster a straight face and said. kids.. "Okay. We'll just have to wait and see. Apparently the combination of fresh air and lots of hiking had calmed even the most boisterous ones in the group. clanking a pan with a spoon..

When we don't show up they'll fly over our route to find us. Even with twenty flashlights they seemed engulfed in darkness. After lunch everyone set out for a hike. The only thing of interest were some outcroppings about three miles away. Before it gets too late let's go outside and see if we can't get a few rock samples before we head back to camp. From the other end of the cavern someone yelled. have lunch. Caldwell said. and we'll just pitch our tents right here.missing. It was hot. partially because they had all been tromping around. Before their instructor had a chance to object. "Look! This boulder is actually an entrance!" Everyone gathered around the entrance with their flashlights. "Hey. It was impossible to tell how fresh the tracks were. We're all going to hike together in one group. but Mrs. no one could figure out how it operated. It seemed to be some kind of a deserted military outpost. The group split up to look for rock samples. everybody! Over here! Hurry!" Everyone scrambled over rocks and gasped when they saw a hidden entrance leading to a man-made cave. A ledge had been carved into the rock about twenty feet above their heads. In less than an hour they reached the outcroppings which turned out to be about 100-feet high. it was impossible to see the entrance from the air because of the rock configurations concealing it. until it finally leveled out and opened up into a huge cavern that also had been man-made. However. Though the entrance was tall enough for a semi and wide enough for two trucks to pass easily. most of the students had already begun exploring the cave. It would be too easy to get lost without trails and none of us are familiar with this area." as the students assembled around her. Finally everyone was getting bored. but all they discovered were dusty tracks. I registered our travel plans with the sheriff and in two days we're supposed to be checking out. please. but also because the cave would have changed very little even after years and years of desertion." Nobody was particularly pleased about having to hike in this area. so they headed toward them. Caldwell yelled after them. We have plenty of food and water. "Everybody! Gather 'round. Caldwell got there and nixed the idea. They looked around for a clue as to how the door worked. but after only five minutes one of the students yelled. So let's set up camp. and then we'll go for a hike and see what we can find. flat and barren of everything except the hardiest desert plants." 111 . It shouldn't be too difficult to locate a big yellow school bus so there's really nothing to worry about. Mrs. Some kids wanted to climb up and take a look. You may look around but stay TOGETHER!" The cave entrance sloped gradually downward for about one hundred yards. There was obviously no way for them to get in and the trail was just a dead end. It was easy to see the boulder had been cut to look like part of the wall. but it certainly beat sitting around in a bus for two days. including the bus driver who had nothing better to do. "Alright. "The only disadvantage is we can't afford to split up in pairs this time. "It looks like this is the end of our excitement for today. Mrs.

Caldwell quickly said." Immediately the group was led down a series of corridors to a large freight elevator. The voice commanded. "I want these prisoners taken to the cells. His eyes narrowed and a wicked smile curled on the edge of his lips. I don't want her to see any of the other prisoners. the boulder swung slowly outward. It was quite cool. . Several guards in dark blue uniforms stood silently with automatic weapons pointed at them. I guarantee they will be shot. A man's voice blasted over an audio system and echoed in the cavern. He then walked quickly down the rest of the line and said. "Face the wall!" Everyone obeyed. "So. Amelia sent him a silent message. At that moment the man's head jerked around and he looked directly at Amelia as if she had spoken out loud. Matthew and Amelia had been separated in the shuffle and when the man was very close to Matthew. Follow our instructions and you will not be hurt. motioned to a guard and said. When he reached Matthew he stopped." he said knowingly. Amelia watched the door move back into place. deep down 112 . clear your mind." He then walked down the line of students and stared at each one intently. "Excuse me sir. Mrs. If anyone attempts to leave this cave you will be shot. "Take this girl to a private cell. "Confine this one separately. When it shut. but I think there's been a terrible mistake here. The man then resumed walking down the line from student to student. "You will all step inside." He then pointed to Matthew and said. "You will all stay where you are. A sturdy looking man with dark hair and a scar on his cheek moved purposefully toward them. "I warn you. thick steel bolts slid solidly into place. you're Matthew." Immediately Amelia was taken down the hall and onto an elevator. These are just high school students . They all began moving through the cavern toward the tunnel when suddenly huge spotlights hidden from their view on the ledges above. but for the most part everyone was looking forward to being outside again. He walked right up to her. If anyone attempts to talk. "Matthew. Only the front of it was made to look like rock. He commanded. Don't let on what you know!" she communicated urgently. . The rest of it was an immense vault-like door large enough to accommodate a truck the size of a semi. They descended fifteen levels before the elevator ground to a halt. blazed in their faces.There were a few grumbles from those determined to get beyond the boulder." "SILENCE!" yelled the man." With that. The door was about three or four feet thick. They all froze in their tracks like animals blinded by headlights on a dark country road." Everyone moved through the entrance into a brightly lit hall where they were ordered to line up in single file.

but this place is immense. a lot of frightened people. "but I'm almost sure the guards know nothing. I think they generate electricity for the entire building. but it was locked tight. He couldn't walk through doors anymore nor could 113 . Apparently the rooms were soundproof because Matthew couldn't hear anything except his own breathing. Well. The cells were tiny and had nothing in them except a bare light bulb hanging from a low ceiling. When they reached the cell block Mrs. there's something else I need to tell you. After they'd all been locked in their cells the guards went back through the door. Matthew was placed in a cell alone. She was totally alone and even if escape was possible how would they get past the automatic bolting system on the main door." Amelia smiled to herself and despite the cold she felt warm all over. not really. We've got to get out of here!" Hopelessly Matthew said. but he said that you and I would make interesting specimens. Until then we'd better stop they were led down the hall and through another vault-like door which automatically closed and locked behind them. She banged on the heavy door and tried to open it." "Matthew. Matthew sat on the floor of his cell trying to think about Äsha. Also I'm quite sure these people are doing experiments with telepathy or some kind of mind control. "I'm fine. I love you. just to be on the safe side. locked it. actually. But I still can't go anywhere because I don't know the passcode to the door at the end of the hall. I can really feel their thoughts in certain parts of the building. Amelia sank to the floor and cried." he replied. In the dark she felt her way along the wall over to the door. We went past some kind of a room full of power generators. not to mention miles and miles of desert with no place to hide? Amelia felt more alone than she'd ever been in her life. "Matthew?" "Amelia. There's a horrible feeling of death here. I sort of listened in. and turned off the exterior lights. What was it she really wanted them to understand? Ideas like things are thoughts didn't seem to do them any good now they were back to real life. I can even control them a bit. but I couldn't really tell. Caldwell and the bus driver were put into one cell and the students were all separated into small groups of three or four." she replied trying to hide her own fear. Have you discovered anything?" "No. I made the guard think he had locked my cell when he didn't. trying not to communicate his utter panic. "I can't do anything unless that door's opened. I can easily reach their thoughts. "I'm not sure where I am. where are you? Are you alright?" he said in his mind." said Amelia clearly shaken. "I overheard that man with the scar on his face. Then he heard. Amelia.

A little cold. powerfully built man with blue eyes and blondish-gray hair stepped up to the 114 . their ages ranging from about eighteen to thirty-five. He moved quickly and quietly down one of the corridors. I can't tell you more just yet except for the fact the guards are very weak minded.he simply disappear from his cell and reappear in safety. He figured it would be better to join the class than to be spotted standing around in the hall. His ability to communicate with Amelia wasn't much comfort since there was nothing he could do to help her. Matthew had hiked with him the summer before. then stopped abruptly when he heard voices in a room. "I'm fine. He directed his thought toward the guard." Matthew cautiously emerged from the stairwell. The guard opened a box in the wall and punched in a code. but I'm fine. Matthew decided to experiment. A tall." Though he was sure this was the code he was taking no chances. "You don't need to close that window. Matthew heard the code. "they've taken Tom and I'm following them. He couldn't risk the elevator so he took the emergency stairs." He then turned to close the window. Fortunately. It didn't move again so he assumed that was where they had taken Tom. so he slid into a seat at the back of the class." "Listen. Tom looked like a little mouse compared to the huge guards. He was an excellent geology student." said Matthew. Matthew closed his eyes and thought." The guard turned and walked away. but a poor hiking partner since he was petrified of heights. Suddenly the lights came on. Cautiously he observed the room and saw about fifty men. Tom was a small kid with red hair and freckles. They were dressed in regular civilian clothes and apparently had assembled for a lecture. A moment later the door closed and the lecture began." The guard yelled. Just as the lights were turned off he quietly slid out of his unlocked cell. On his way up he psychically contacted Amelia. but there wasn't a clue as to which direction they had taken Tom. A guard opened the window on his cell door and peered in. Are you alright?" She said. “I'm out of my cell. Matthew heard guards coming toward him down the hall. there were very few people in this area of the building and everything was extremely well marked with partial floor plans on each level just outside the elevator. Matthew walked cautiously up to the window and watched the guards pull Tom Jenkens out of the next cell. "This is the wrong cell. He jumped up and tried to figure out what was happening. Matthew watched as the elevator went up five flights and stopped. As if someone had spoken to him. silently closed the door. Hopefully I'll be able to figure out what's going on here. "Get one from the next cell. leaving the window open. "158A 239C 115C. When they reached the door Matthew concentrated on the guard using the combination. If you get into trouble try to reach their thoughts. and squeezed through the main door just before it slammed shut.

"Is there a pulse?" A man in the next room shook his head and said. "Now gentlemen. over the past weeks we have discussed the power of the human mind. The man you see blindfolded and tied in the chair is thirty-five years old and is in perfect health. He continued. We want the human mind to do our work for us. sir. At the same time he also noticed peculiar about his speech pattern. "We've done much experimentation in hospitals. He said." With that the curtains closed. "Gentlemen. When we do our work properly. there is nothing trickling down his arm except water which has been warmed to body temperature. we are behind a two-way mirror. That man believed that blood kept him alive and that a lack of blood would kill him. We found that the few who did not become ill generally knew little about the disease and had a strong will to live whereas those who died were very familiar with and frightened by the disease.podium. Now I will show you an experiment in which the victim will not be told anything on a conscious level. It was too 115 . and we have refined this process greatly." He flicked a switch on the podium and the curtain behind him automatically drew back while the lights dimmed. the lights flicked on. "As you can see. Soon his head began to wobble and in a fairly short amount of time the struggle was over. since he clearly lost no blood. "Fear kills. Instead he will be hypnotized without knowing it. The speaker pushed a button on the podium and said. Although the story was a total fabrication. Please observe a man bleeding to death without ever losing a drop of blood." Matthew could barely fathom the way this man so casually talked about murdering people. As you can all see. He has been told that his arm has been cut and that he is going to be allowed to bleed to death. it was obviously his mind that killed him. most of the patients unfailingly developed the same disease and died." "Good." said the instructor. "No. We've told patients they were in a bed where someone had recently died of a highly contagious disease. this is what we're looking for. But." Matthew watched in horror as the man first fought to get free and then slowly gave up the fight. You will never see a coroner's report that says Cause of Death: Mind killing the body. the report will either say the cause of death is unknown or due to natural causes. Today you will witness it's weaknesses. "You have all just witnessed the effects of the human mind over the body. "Please prepare for the next experiment. His head flopped down to his chest. and the man continued with his speech. He's dead. Behind him was a floor-to-ceiling curtain that stretched the width of the room.

"No." 116 . . "Who's interfering with this experiment!" The lights came on and everyone looked around." Tears streamed down Tom's face. you think you can outsmart me with your infantile mind games. "He's dead. You are being made to believe it's true. That would have been easier. There stood Tom on a chair. "Matthew! Matthew! Please tell them not to do this to me! Please! I don't want to die!" Matthew continued." Matthew closed his eyes and tried to contact Tom. "Please. I'll . "You are going to die. A medic checked Tom's pulse and said." Tom begged as he stood trembling with tears in his eyes. but it's not. "Tom. through mental means alone." "That's right. everyone seemed to speak that way yet no one ever spoke in another language. When he thought about it. I'm afraid I'll have to push you. He had already been hypnotized and a man in the room was telling Tom. Matthew." Tom screamed as the man pushed him off the chair. "Tom." Tom began to relax and the instructor bellowed. . It was as if Tom were surrounded by an impenetrable wall. Matthew felt as if he were trying to race through hip-deep mud to reach Tom before it was too late. Watch very carefully. while the man stepped off the podium and walked through a door into the room beyond. Tom. Tom stood there trembling. He fell to the floor with a hard thud and lay there motionless. Tom. Listen to me." replied the man gently. I'll die if you make me jump. that he was standing on the edge of a precipice. It's Matthew. don't make me do this. Matthew tried desperately to reach Tom's thought but there was no response. "So." Tom's head jerked up and he said out loud. "Either you jump off the edge or you will be pushed. but he persisted and finally reached him. sir.perfect for him to have spoken English as a native language. It was extremely difficult because Tom was deeply under hypnosis. you're not on the edge of a precipice. In his mind he said." Four guards surrounded Matthew." said the man calmly. The man walked over to Tom and said coolly. You're standing on a chair. Again the curtains drew back as the lights dimmed. "I'm sorry you didn't jump on your own. yet there was no clue as to nationality. "Please. Please let me get away from the edge. All eyes focused on Matthew.

"Bring Matthew in here. We've been needing more of a challenge and it appears you are going to provide it. "Matthew." 117 ." said the blonde man. we're all so grateful you could volunteer for our program."Guards. The room was cleared and the man said." Matthew walked into the room as Tom's motionless body was removed on a stretcher.

trying to remain calm despite the fact she knew Matthew could be killed through hypnotic means alone. "Matthew! Stop it! Listen to me! It's an illusion!" said Amelia. Amelia!" said Matthew immediately relaxing. "Amelia!" he said in his mind. taking slow. The blonde man said angrily. "They're trying to kill me! They're sucking all of the oxygen out of the room." "What can I do?" Matthew pleaded. The door flung open and slammed against the wall. "Remember the man in India. "Are you sure?" he said desperately. Matthew found himself gasping for breath. Dizzy. he dropped to his hands and knees. barely able to breathe. "It's working. Amelia searched for an answer. 118 .Chapter XIII Instruments of Hate Everyone cleared out of the experiment room and Matthew was left with nothing but a chair. Get out if you can!" Matthew said desperately. He's imaging you suffocating. Then the light radiated out from his body and she saw him peaceful. "I can see everything from here. Just see yourself breathing normally." she said. "They've hypnotized you!" "No one's here!" said Matthew completely panicked. Now!" "Amelia! They're coming for you. "I want that girl here. he felt all the oxygen being sucked out of the air. how we helped him? I'll do the same thing for you. Suddenly. I'll do it with you." Amelia closed her eyes and saw Matthew with a beautiful golden light shining on him and penetrating through the crown of his head into the rest of his body. breathing freely. deep breaths." "Matthew!" said Amelia urgently. In his mind he's throwing pictures at you. "There's a blonde man behind a glass window.

All I have to do is love more and all limitations vanish from my life. and future were all one. she saw that the dimensions would shift from being waves into particles.. She laughed as she thought to herself. She knew she wasn't strong enough to take him on by herself. She realized it was no different on a cellular level than the door she already walked through. Then she remembered Äsha saying. Then as she leaned against 119 . from possibility to reality. but as molecules and atoms with huge amounts of empty space.. it had come to represent the people who locked her in the cell and the fact that she was a victim. Similar to the way subatomic waves became particles through observation.. she thought of the door. If she focused on herself in the third dimension then along with it came all the physical laws and limitations. She could feel his intentions. This is impossible. If you would only love more. present. but how do I love more? As soon as Amelia asked the question she suddenly realized how funny it was that she had no problem loving her way through the vault door at the White House. but her cell door brought up feelings of anger. It was like being intoxicated and telling everyone you love them. Suddenly Amelia saw herself as a part of all dimensions. Her focus determined her experience. I can love a door! As her mind opened to this possibility.. Amelia leaned up against the door and thought about that statement. The door wasn't just a door. "What do I need to know?" She sat quietly and though she didn't hear literal words. terror and being trapped. The dimensions were layered waves. Then she was shown that it was essentially the same with the different dimensions. She had no idea what she should do. the message she received was Open your heart. She could see if she focused on a different dimension that her choice to see that dimension made it a reality. because part of being in the third dimension is the belief that everything is outside. according to what she was choosing to see or believe. where it looked like a three dimensional chess board in which the past. They weren't separate they were all one. objective. not as solid.Amelia knew the man wanted her dead. I'm not in some other dimension! I can't do those things anymore! The room seemed darker and colder. she sank to the floor with her back up against the wall and said aloud. including the vault door. Ask. It's just a door. Only Amelia had felt inlove with everything around her. It was quite solid. She saw the image she'd seen of time. She was sitting in the middle of an empty room in pitch darkness.. Then she remembered Äsha saying. She'd been too tired and giddy to analyze the situation and in her laughter she'd abandoned rational thought. and Amelia felt miserably alone and lost. ALL limitations in your life would vanish. and since there was nothing else she could do. Escape was her only chance of survival. She thought. so she crawled in the direction of the door and felt her way along the wall until she reached the handle. She remembered how she felt when she was inside the White House. Then she gave the door a good hard shove..

Many had infected. What were they thinking sending us here? But then Amelia struggled with who they were." she said as she 120 . Oh. She couldn't see a door so she simply walked through the wall and found herself in a laboratory filled with hundreds of small animals. Inside. filthy cages that didn't even leave them enough room to turn around. This time she walked through the doors without hesitation. The room had a foul stench and all of the animals were crowded into tiny. Though the doors were securely locked and bolted Amelia knew she was to go inside. Initially Amelia had planned to take a passage she felt sure would lead to Matthew. thank you! And she kissed the door! She mentally sent a message to Matthew saying she was alright and had escaped. open wounds and eyes that were swollen shut. Äsha must have known this was going to happen. but now she was compelled to go in the opposite direction. I can't do this. thank you. After awhile she sat up and a moment later she felt a small animal climb up into her lap. "Oh. Amelia collapsed on the floor in tears. but that she wouldn't communicate further for both their sakes. Her next thought was to search for Matthew. She was literally blind with rage as she lay in shock. Helplessness blanketed her and she was engulfed in total darkness. In one corner of the room was a pile of mostly dead animals. you poor thing. Some were just barely alive and trying to crawl out from under the others. Why did anyone think I could make a difference here? Then she remembered the advisers warning the President of mental assassins. thank you. She walked through a maze of corridors and then found herself standing in front of two huge doors painted bright orange with some kind of strange glyph symbol in black. She took a deep breath and felt the energy in her heart. the way it had when she kissed Matthew and they would pause and breathe. She felt the gold expansive energy she'd felt with Matthew when they were dancing with the stars. her whole body shaking on the floor. Amelia walked down the long corridor and again she felt guided to a particular area. crying uncontrollably. Waves of warmth moved up through her body. she thought. There was no food or water in any of the cages and most of the animals looked like they were dying. Amelia jumped to her feet and said with heartfelt enthusiasm. but right away she sensed there was something else she needed to do first. enraged and sickened by the horrible display of cruelty. She petted it and discovered it was a baby rabbit. the halls were deserted. She thought.the door she thought of herself at a cellular level and began feeling the door as a part of herself. There were mainly wild animals plus some cats and dogs and they'd all been marked with green dye. and realized this was their base. All at once the door felt like soft butter and she found herself sitting in the hall outside her cell. Until that moment she was seeing without the aid of any material form of light. and this golden-energy once again came down through the top of her head and radiated out through her body.

"I didn't do all this! I'm not these people!" Amelia wept. As the vision continued she could see everyone from the field trip projected into the visor of the helmet. Though she couldn't move. Amelia felt herself utterly give up as she plummeted down through murky. To Amelia's horror. she could see that lashed onto her hand was a hammer with the word Hate written in blood. She was no longer in 121 . Rage clamped onto the left leg. She'd felt everything Matthew had gone through to save him and she shared his feelings when Tom died. Revenge was the breastplate. She cried hopelessly. Instantly in a vision. but no one heard her over the storm. Below them the ocean crashed against huge boulders. Finally. Hot tears dripped onto the little rabbit in her lap making its fur damp. green seaweed. The coffin hit bottom with a dull thud and began rocking in the undercurrent. trapping her inside. Then she saw. You recognize the innocence of these little ones. They coldly stared back at her. Recognize this innocence in all of your brothers and sisters. a heavy helmet with a visor snapped into place and said. that the scars were put there by someone else. tied up and floating on the ocean in an open coffin. floating above her. She'd never known this kind of silence nor the peace that followed. These people aren't innocent and they don't deserve to be forgiven! For the first time she thought about Tom. Fear was the back. "What can I do?" As the vision continued the coffin lid slammed shut. dying instantly when they hit the rocks below. she watched as they were pushed one by one from the cliff. She thought vehemently. Amelia saw herself during a thunder storm. Blinding rain pelted her face and skin. Then she saw a bulldozer dump all the animals from the lab over the edge also. Her feelings of anger began to create steel-plated armor around her body. somehow making her responsible for every death. Amelia felt raw. Finally. When she looked through the visor she could still see the faces floating above her. the faces of the men involved with killing Tom and experimenting on the animals. but instead she was surrounded by stillness. Then she remembered the words she heard in the park. She tried to yell. Amelia had never known such cruelty really existed and she began to wonder if any of them would survive. Water washed up around her body as the coffin tilted to one side and was sucked into the ocean. Amelia waited to die.gently scooped it up and held it to her heart. "I'm not responsible!" she screamed. Victim. blind rage and in her anger everything she saw turned a murky red. They were standing on a cliff high above where she was floating in the water. The coffin rocked wildly in the wind and waves beat against the sides. Amelia wondered how she could ever find innocence in these cruel people. She saw the word Resentment and felt armor clamp onto her right leg. the coffin began to sink. With each feeling of fear or helplessness a nail was pounded into the coffin by the ones floating above her. each grasping a hammer identical to the one in her hand with Hate written in blood.

any pain. The coffin fell apart as the armor and ropes detached. Amelia found herself swimming naked, breathing under water. As she swam she heard whales and dolphins singing and she realized she understood their songs! Not in her mind but in her heart. They were singing about life as peaceful and joyous, filled with love and eternal light. They sang songs about being from the stars and then Amelia saw something she'd never recognized before. The whales and dolphins were dancing! She could feel their feelings and it was exactly the way she felt the night she danced with Matthew. Amelia wondered if dolphins and whales were the original dancers referred to in the poem. What a contrast from the surface where storms fractured the sky, whipping the waves to a frenzy as they lashed the rocks and beat upon the shore. But in the depths of the ocean all was tranquil, untouched by surface events. Then Amelia saw everyone who'd been pushed from the cliff, including the animals, swimming and dancing. Her friends all smiled and waved. Amelia's body jerked. The vision ended. She found herself still sitting in the dark with the baby rabbit on her lap. She wasn't totally sure what the vision meant but she was much calmer and could finally think more clearly. From her mother Amelia had learned a little bit about dream interpretation. She'd write down her dream and after each line she'd skip a line. With a different colored pen she'd write down her feelings about whatever was on the line above. Then an entirely different dream would emerge based on subconscious feelings. Since she didn't have a pen and paper, or light for that matter, Amelia decided to just go over it in her mind bit by bit to see if there was a clue that might help. The beginning of the vision was easy to understand. Her mother taught her that water represented emotion and she could see her feelings reflected both in the storm and the turbulent ocean. She could understand her feelings of being trapped easily enough but she couldn't quite comprehend the faces floating above the coffin. Then she remembered her mother saying that sometimes dream images are figurative. Of course! thought Amelia, Faces! What is it that I can't face? She remembered how all the faces turned red when she was angry and realized, I can't face my anger. I'm no different from them. I'd feel no compassion, no regret or remorse if they died. Amelia was a bit shocked by this realization. She'd always thought of herself as a loving person incapable of hating or harming another, but now she saw the only difference between her hatred and theirs was that Amelia felt she had a right to be angry. Then she remembered a teacher in her drama class who said, "If you're playing the role of a bad guy and you think you're bad, you'll never be believable! Even the worst axmurderer thinks he's justified in his actions -- in the moment. He may decide a moment later it was a horrible thing to do and kill himself, but at the time he felt right doing it." She thought about the hammer with the word Hate written in blood and it reminded her of something she'd heard earlier. Anna had said that a hammer wasn't inherently good or 122

bad, it was an instrument. Suddenly the meaning clicked. It didn't matter what her reasons were for hating or the reasons the men had for hating, all of them, herself included, were instruments of hate. Anna had said that an instrument wasn't inherently good or bad. "That's where innocence is!" Amelia yelled out loud. She realized that the consciousness she recognized as her own, the unified field, universal consciousness, included even these cruel men. They all shared the same essential nature, the same consciousness. At first it was an unbelievable concept, but then she thought, If someone were to see me right now as my emotions, they'd think I was a horribly angry and hateful person. But I know that's not me. What if everything I see in these men isn't who they really are either? She then made the connection with the children who emerged from the man and woman in the homeless park in San Francisco. She realized that the children's idea of love was a distortion, it was a mistake but it was a mistake they'd learned. The mistake wasn't who they were, the distortion wasn't their nature. Amelia thought, What if my feelings are a mistake? She began to think about hatred as a distortion of love. If she didn't love Tom and small animals then she'd have no reason to hate the men for cruelty and murder. She realized she'd managed to twist love into hate. She had even used love as a reason to hate. And though she couldn't understand what motivated these men she began to feel that somehow they'd done the same thing. Their idea of love must also have been distorted. The vision came back into Amelia's mind. She saw the armor with all the words. She could see she was literally trapped by her own anger. She was a bit confused by the meaning of the helmet with the word Victim. She tried to think of what a helmet would symbolize. Protection, she thought. But then how does Victim connect with protection? What does the visor mean? Then Amelia realized the visor was also a way of not being seen. No one could see her face. She thought back to her earlier realization about not being able to face her own hatred. Being a victim was her visor. It was literally a mask to keep people from seeing what she couldn't face: Her own deplorable feelings of anger and hatred. All at once she glimpsed the big picture. Being a victim shielded her from any responsibility for her own feelings. I've been thinking I'm not responsible. I can't respond positively because I'm a victim. Clearly the nails in the coffin were representing her own negative emotions literally sealing her fate, but her feelings were so different when she finally sank below the surface. She thought, If water is emotion, then what are the symbols I'm seeing in this vision? The words surface appearance drifted through Amelia's mind and then Äsha's words Fear: False Evidence Appearing Real.


The common denominator of everything she'd felt on the surface was fear, but it was just an appearance. Underneath, it was peaceful and calm. Amelia felt loved. It was an entirely different reality. Like a puzzle, she began piecing it all together in her mind. From an emotional point of view the ocean represented the universal consciousness of Love. On the surface was fear – a distortion of love, not the reality. All of a sudden she saw the choice she'd been making. She'd been trapped on the surface by her own fear. Thoughts were like the waves Timothy had talked about in quantum physics. When she focused on the surface thoughts of fear, then fear became real... just as waves became particles through observation. When she focused below the surface, on what was peaceful, calm and unchanging, then that became her reality. She thought of how she felt swimming naked, breathing under water, hearing the whales and dolphins singing, and being a part of that incredible dance; what it was like to see her friends and the little animals in the ocean alive and well as if they had simply gone home. Amelia's analytical mind stepped in: “the critic,” as her mother would say. The conversation went like this: Amelia, dear. That's all very well and good, but let's be realistic. Thinking 'nicely' about wicked people or believing that you all come from some big ocean of love is not going to save you or anyone else. Get a grip! Amelia knew better than to argue with the critic, so she did what her mother taught her and said, "Thank you for sharing." She then prepared her defense and said, "To tell you the truth, I don't know whether I'm right. I may have reasoned this out incorrectly. However, believing that we all come from an ocean of love and that we never die is making me happy. And at this particular moment in time I'd rather be happy than right." She thought to herself with satisfaction, That was pretty good! as she petted the bunny in her lap. In the dark she smiled thinking of the animals as she'd seen them in the vision. They were all healthy and alive and they were at home in this ocean of love. Gradually the room got lighter. Amelia looked around, and using a hose she found in a sink, filled every available container with water. She opened the cages and the animals all rushed to the water and drank. With perfect ease she walked back through the wall, down the corridor and through the orange doors. Again Amelia felt compelled to walk through a series of corridors and down several flights of stairs. It seemed she was in a portion of the building rarely used by anyone. Finally she came to a doorway that was invisible from where she stood. Amelia walked through the door and found herself in a round room, hand carved out of the rock. In the center was a spiral staircase winding down several flights. On the walls torches burned in iron holders molded to look like strange and wicked creatures. The walls and ceiling were smoke blackened, and there was the stench of dead animals, burnt hair and other putrid odors Amelia couldn't identify. Her first instinct was to turn and run, but she 124

gargoyles. round slab of rock in front of it. and other creatures all with vicious faces molded out of gold. BOOM. BOOM. Smiling skeletons. She walked into a cavernous area. Her grandmother said. As Amelia got closer she realized the symbols had been painted in blood and outlined with melted gold.knew she was there for a purpose. The ceiling was about thirty feet high. Amelia had memorized it. There were crude African masks and relief carvings depicting the most horrible acts of violence and cruelty imaginable. Of course. two rats squealed and ran down the steps in front of her. Though everything inside her was telling her to go back. You must memorize it. She said quietly to herself in a trembling voice. Amelia's heart pounded BOOM. she walked directly toward the stone. The rock was perfectly flat. Still she was gripped with terror as she walked down the rock stairway. Amelia's mind went blank. His truth shall be thy shield and buckler. It seemed to dematerialize as she walked through it. as she clung to the railing for support. She then stepped over a dead something-or-other without stopping to see what it was. Ghostly shadows danced eerily across the room as she made her way to the blood-stained altar. Shadows flickered in eerie formations across the walls. nor for the pestilence that walketh in darkness. Amelia couldn't remember any more. hooded cloaks. but nothing seemed to work. but fortunately. There were benches carved out of stone that could seat at least a thousand people. Behind it were seven black candles in 125 . with a ceiling so high even with torches on all the walls it was enveloped in darkness. It was immense. but Amelia had no idea how this could be accomplished. but she was only ten years old at the time and now she could only remember bits and pieces. I don't think that even Grandma would have imagined this place. In front of her was some kind of entrance with a colossal. On the walls were symbols Amelia had never seen before. snakes. She breathed deeply and looked carefully at the next step before continuing. One was a five-pointed star with a goat's head in the middle and another was an upside-down pyramid with an eye in the center. Apparently it rolled on a track. On either side of the entrance were burning torches set in holders with wickedly smiling faces that were half human and half animal. On the other side she found herself in a horrific religious temple. watched maliciously as Amelia moved slowly and cautiously down the aisle. she'd made it to the bottom of the stairs by that time. As she stepped down. silver and copper. She tried to overcome her fear. Thou shalt not be afraid of the terror by night. about fifteen feet in diameter and two-feet thick. On the altar she found a human skull in the center. Hanging along the wall close to the entrance were black. This is a psalm of great protection. Then Amelia remembered her grandmother teaching her the 91st Psalm when she was a child. He that dwelleth in the secret place of the Most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty. Why didn't I do a better job of memorizing this? She thought.

Amelia grabbed the wall as unconsciousness swept over her. darkness cannot touch you. casting spells and making poisons. a host of other small animals and various internal organs. coarse material and was emblazoned with an upsidedown crucifix entwined with golden snakes. On one wall there were hundreds of very old books dealing with everything from black. Trembling. and she ran faster than she thought she could up the aisle. She walked through the locked door and before her were rows and rows of glass jars neatly lettered and in alphabetical order.. In front of the altar on the floor were two circles made with shiny black pebbles. Hanging on the wall behind it Amelia recognized censers usually used for burning incense in Catholic masses. cinnamon. Amelia knew she had to go behind the curtain and this was at least part of the reason she was led here. She heard chanting outside the door as the rock slowly moved aside. almost as if someone had spoken to her. a chalice. one inside the other. putrid odor rose up to meet her as she descended a few more steps into the room and saw charred bones from sacrifices heaped in a wooden bin. a long braided leather rope. Next to the books were shelves with jars containing different animals preserved in formaldehyde. a whip. bats. snakes. Arranged around it was a mortar and pestle. Somehow she managed to grab it and then nearly dropped it when she saw it contained a human hand. You're of the Light. Amelia heard something scurrying across the floor. while others Amelia had never heard of. She grabbed a cloak. copper trays. she heard. and up the stairway. The curtain was made of a heavy. The next thing she knew. Amelia stepped behind the curtain and followed a stone staircase down to a concealed chamber. but she thought. to conjuring up spirits. you have the strength. Using the doorway she pulled herself up to a standing position and walked unsteadily up the steps. I don't want to know what's back there. Amelia. but there was one room she still hadn't seen. Surrounding the salamander and beneath it were small holes in the marble which produced flames that rose all around it. Amelia replaced the jar on the ledge and turned to leave. frogs. There were various herbs and extracts.. or salt. and nearly knocked a glass jar off the ledge behind her. she was hearing a loud grating noise from above. please. She forced herself to walk to the open doorway. A few feet behind the salamander was a large black curtain about twenty feet high. The diameter of the larger circle was about five feet and the circle inside was about three feet. In the center was a five-sided star and in the space between the two circles was an inscription in Latin. Some were common. About ten feet behind the altar. turned quickly. Then. raised on a black marble platform. toads. Oh. and a huge quartz crystal on top of a mirror. There was also a huge ceramic jar labeled Opium. There were lizards. past the glass jars.a V-shaped candelabra. was a four-foot long salamander made out of gold with ruby eyes. A strong. She looked cautiously out from behind the curtain and saw the huge stone was being rolled away from the entrance. She knew her only chance of remaining unrecognized was to get ahold of a hooded cloak next to the entrance. satanic ritual and voodoo. threw it 126 . like marjoram.

" With her head down and her hood pulled as far forward as possible Amelia walked closely behind Matthew. and the fourth had a five-pointed star. This way. all dressed in animal costumes. They sat by themselves on a bench just behind the rest of the group. A familiar voice whispered. "Amelia. From the macabre pictures on the walls Amelia had a good idea of what was about to happen. The girls walked slowly down the aisle carrying black velvet pillows. emeralds and rubies represented stars and dangled from a golden collar by gold threads. The last girl had a necklace with the sun. They howled. "I saw you walk through walls and then I realized I could do the same thing. The boys walked stiffly and looked straight ahead as they swung censers burning opium. Behind them were four boys from the field trip. Amelia realized immediately they'd all been hypnotized. the moon and the planets. Amelia was afraid she'd be discovered immediately but no one even looked in her direction. "Matthew I can't tell you everything I've seen. Both salamanders had ruby eyes like the one behind the altar. whose face and head were invisible beneath the head of a mountain goat. Small diamonds. Between the horns of the goat was a torch and the flame was represented by a huge diamond. "I know everything you've been through and I know exactly what you've seen. Following him were four girls Amelia knew. The first one to enter the room was a man wearing a black robe embroidered with snakes and satanic emblems. Behind the boys were hundreds of men. but she didn't know how to help. I was in my cell when the guards selected four boys and four girls and took them from their cells. grunted and snuffled as they moved slowly into the room. and then squashed herself up against the wall in the midst of the cloaks. almost sheer material embroidered with the same emblems the high priest had on his robe and they wore necklaces made of gold: The first girl wore a snake with emerald eyes. a sword. The girl following her had a necklace made of two salamanders linked at the tail with their heads meeting to form a V. the third. Between the ram's three-foot horns was a black candle. I wasn't sure what was happening until you came into this temple. She tried to disappear into the cloaks but he had obviously spotted her. The first pillow had an ebony handled dagger.on. A man dressed as a crow walked away from the crowd and headed directly toward Amelia. don't be afraid. a wand. They communicated through telepathy." Matthew quietly took Amelia's hand and said. The third girl had a necklace with a man's body and the legs and head of a goat and huge wings on his back. It's me. Amelia said. I followed 127 . The men at the front moved unsteadily as if drugged. She tried to reach their thoughts but it was like trying to see through a heavy cloud. They too had been hypnotized. the second. They were dressed in black. but we're all in unbelievable danger.

why didn't you tell me what was happening?" "I have this feeling someone's been listening to us." "Matthew. and joined the crowd. screamed." Amelia nodded her head and sat quietly. Without a word from the priest. in succession. First the priest took the ebony handled dagger and thrust it in the leather strap he wore around his waist. Possess my mind and my body. assaulted the senses. I don't want anymore trying.” he said. The high priest removed the goat's head and placed it on the altar. When they were all seated the head priest walked around the altar and down to the two circles on the floor. dark apathy. grabbed this costume. and made loud animal noises while dancing obscenely. without horror or deformity and without delay. Speak to me visibly. the four girls followed him and stood just outside the circles. Even now it's risky. One at a time. here outside this circle. He then began the mass by holding the up-side-down cross in his right hand and making the sign of the cross with his left. Drug-laced vapors anesthetized Amelia cloaking her in a shroud of cold. 128 . her muddled response was barely audible. Then he removed a sword with his right hand and a crystal wand wrapped in copper with his other hand. but I was afraid if I spoke to you I'd put you in danger. O Cernunnos appear forthwith and show thyself to me. The boys continued walking among them with the censers burning and the girls were all lined up to the right of the altar. in fair and human shape." By the time they'd repeated the litany and several prayers backwards a dull opium cloud hung over the congregation. holding her hand. Crudely carved percussion instruments rattled rhythmically as towering drums. pounding heartbeats into submission while vibrating heavily in the chamber. "I'm just so tired of trying. A moment later the high priest raised his arms over his head and the congregation sat back in their seats." They then repeated the Lord's Prayer backwards with the exception of the opening line where they said. By this time the freakish congregation had assembled. as her eyes dimmed and her body collapsed. "Ghost Holy the and Son the and Father the of name the in. clearly and without deceit. each girl leaned forward proffering a pillow. The congregation also used their left hand to make this sign and they all repeated aloud. "Amelia!" In a haze. "Our Father which art on earth. suspended from high above.the guards to the room where everybody dressed and as they all left I slipped into one of the rooms." she said as she whithered and drooped onto Matthew's shoulder. The girls all moved of one accord backward to the altar as the priest held the wand and sword over his head and began chanting. Some fell off the benches and struggled to get up. First he took the five-sided star from one of the pillows and stepped into the middle of the center circle placing the star on the floor. Matthew shook Amelia's shoulders and whispered loudly. “I can't explain it. It was obviously having its effect as the men howled. "I conjure and command thee.

but that of Cernunnos. Cernunnos. I name thee Amelia Noel. "Thunor. his eyes opened wide." Then he took a chunk of clay and began molding it while saying Amelia's name over and over again." He then took a long needle in his left hand. and he stepped outside of both circles without touching either one as two men joined him at the altar. and the spirit of destruction and revenge. A minute later his head jerked up. the Horned One. the War God of Mars. Mars." Immediately the priest went into a deep trance. In the meantime one man ground up some herbs and powder with the mortar and pestle and handed it to the priest who placed it in the triangle. "SO MOTE IT BE!" Amelia felt a sharp. creature of clay. They're trying to kill me! When the priest finished he engraved something into the doll and chanted." The priest took a drink of wine and then sprinkled it over the triangle while saying. 129 . Balor. and yelled. yet grating and piercing at the same time. I work to the destruction of Amelia Noel.Answer all my demands and perform all I desire. his chin dropping to his chest. Next. "I work to the destruction of Amelia Noel. "In the name of Cernunnos. using a scarlet candle. He described how he wanted her to suffer and die and then repeated it over and over again. revenge and malice. Eko. all aimed at Amelia. burning pain and knew she was dying. Azarak. "It is not my hand which does this deed. Then the other man put evergreen boughs around the outside of the triangle along with some skulls from horned animals. Amelia clung to Matthew's arm and said silently. "Eko. One man handed the priest chalk and he proceeded to draw a triangle on the floor. The King of Kings commands thee. he dripped wax around the triangle and began chanting the most horrible descriptions of destruction. the Horned One. As the men did this the congregation chanted over and over. viciously stabbed the doll with the needle. The priest yelled out." His voice sounded completely different with a darker tone. Finally he stood at the tip of the triangle and crossed his arms over his chest while chanting. Ares." He then took the doll and placed it at the tip of the triangle. Do not linger.

. Since the essence of each person is love. love and courage as sparks of light shooting up from the planet. Swiftly she flew above everything and moved out of the atmosphere. crystal clear ocean. but because it was run by emotional energy. full lips and blue eyes even more intense than the blue in Äsha's eyes. curly hair. nearly transparent. it would seem that love-based choices would come naturally. Without question. the game was created to be fun and joyful and lighthearted. angelic man. as well as fear. Then she continued moving up. Her mind had perfect clarity. Amelia could see it was deceptively simple.Chapter XIV What could you want Forgiveness cannot give you? Amelia felt herself being pulled away from her body and hovering about ten feet above everybody else. Her body felt light. and for the first time. There were only two choices: Love or fear. It was as if she'd spent her life seeing through dark glasses. yet he definitely had physical features. Light radiated from his entire being. the players were also well educated in fear. So the birth-family and surrounding circumstances actually were indications of the level of difficulty the player 130 . she was feeling warm sand under her feet and a delicious tropical breeze on her skin before diving naked into a warm. She could see all the people in the temple. and her senses were totally alive. lying in Matthew's arms. The game of life really wasn't as serious as everyone made it out to be! In fact. Amelia was shown the most amazing overview of life on earth. including herself.. She could see acts of kindness. However. From this perspective she could understand why Timothy and Marie called life on planet Earth a game. so many more acts of love than hate. bound by layers and layers of clothing. right through the ceiling of the temple and up through the earth. wearing heavy boots. Tears came to her eyes when she saw there was much more light than darkness. These two emotions determined every outcome. Everything was so vivid. Amelia knew this was death and she was finally home. anger and hatred in the form of dark patches. He communicated with such richness no language could ever embrace the depth of feeling he was able to impart. He was tall with sandy colored. Standing before her was a beautiful. the player's choices determined whether they would experience happiness or pain. She found herself drawn through an energetic vortex and into a world she'd never imagined. without exception.

Amelia could see for herself there was no death. 131 . including the young man burst out laughing. she saw there was nothing to fear. Someone yelled out in the audience. it actually motivated the players to teach themselves how to play the game more effectively. in reality there were no more consequences than a dream. it was a common occurrence! Then they heard him agree to play the game with no memory of anything prior to his birth. and the hologram showed all of those invisibly present. painful environments had actually chosen to play at higher levels of difficulty. Though people could appear to suffer consequences within the context of the game. It showed him growing up in the slums of Harlem. People raised in challenging. you try it! I'm thinking more of a 12 or 15!” It went on to show a series of events that landed him in prison. “Next time I'm in the rink I'm definitely going to work on that triple-axle!” She saw why judgment was inconceivable in this place. “On a scale of 1-10 that's a definite '10' for difficulty!” He shot back. much more of an entrance than an exit. He had no idea he was so loved. it was more like watching the video replay of a competitive ice skater who won three gold metals at the Olympics. and the murder that led to him living in the hole for a year. Amelia was shown a handsome young man. Instead of an angry God casting sinners into hell.chose when entering the game. In the same way one could never really be harmed in a dream. as the young man's eyes welled up with tears. Everyone knew they were watching a game that was the most believable illusion ever created. who had recently returned from the third-dimension. But as an observer she could see pain was a powerful force for change. Someone cheered. Amelia had heard of hell-fire and brimstone from her Aunt Nell. then running off to Los Angeles as a teenager. “Yeah. and like a blessing in disguise. What seemed painful was only because fear had been chosen. radiant and full of light. These were his behind the scene team-members who loved and supported him throughout his life. “Don't do it. Everyone cheered wildly when he was finally born. As they watched him about to be born they could hear all of his thoughts and misgivings. There was a HUGE celebration and everyone gathered to watch his holographic Game of Life. Though Amelia recognized pain was often unavoidable. she never thought of pain as beneficial. including the level of difficulty and all of his guides and angels trying their best to talk him out of it! Everyone laughed. What was called birth and death was more like a revolving door. First they were shown his game plan. so she burst out laughing when she saw the essence of Judgment Day... but they could just as easily learn through love and joy. Mike!!” Everyone. There was no more judgment over these events than an ice skater watching himself fall during a performance and saying.

it's a gift you give yourself." "But how can I do that?" said Amelia. and the decision that you won't judge.From a third-dimensional point of view. You don't need a lot of knowledge or training." said her guide. I'm right and you're wrong and you deserve to suffer for not doing things my way.” "But this is my home!" cried Amelia. you'll simply embrace what is. If you feel love. if people knew a better way 132 . They were the ones who graduated and moved on to higher levels of the game. There's no darkness so powerful. you're seeing people who've forgotten who they are and where they've come from. "That's it?!" "Think about it. "Heaven On Mother Earth!” he said lovingly. If you embrace every experience as you teaching yourself how to play the game. do a good deed. suffering and ecstasy. "Remember. but judgment is your decision that someone isn't learning fast enough. All you need is an open heart with the desire to love. yes. It doesn't exist. "Feel Love!" was the exuberant reply. Fame and fortune didn't matter in the least. "Do you know what HOME stands for?" Amelia shook her head. The ones who really progressed were those who were deeply loving. The guide said to her. it all seemed so unreal. Painful. then you're automatically forgiving. "Can't I stay here with you?" With the most loving smile he said warmly. hateful? You can't feel love and fear at the same time. that it isn't instantly dispelled by even the smallest amount of light. right or wrong. Fear was an easy choice. and disappear! Finally her guide took Amelia back to the temple. you're always choosing one or the other. “That's the game you came to play! That's what you're there to accomplish. so dreamlike. When you feel love. You won't judge your experience as good or bad. Amelia. then pain and joy. so intense. "It's time for you to return. As she looked down. Everyone can see life in terms of lessons being learned. is it possible to be angry.” Amelia felt the most incredible wave of love through her body. resentful. become one. My dear. They could even materialize on a street corner in New York City. “You don't have to work to overcome darkness. They could be on any dimension and go anywhere in the universe. Is there anything you want forgiveness can't give you? Forgiveness isn't about others. It's saying. It's the understanding that you don't know everything. the only things that really counted on earth were choices for love. but nonetheless familiar.

” The congregation began to chant. is none of your business. "Cernunnos. But would you be frightened?" "I have no doubt!" said Amelia. "No. He pulled out his ebony-handled dagger and chanted. Amelia! I thought you were dead!" At that moment the head priest was standing behind the altar and he cried out. there's wisdom behind everything.” The next thing Amelia knew she was waking up in Matthew's arms. "Remember the night we danced together? Close your eyes and feel that love. Think of the darkest. they're in their element. or how chaotic things may appear. They're not frightened. You need a different perspective. If you would only love more. the girl wearing the snake necklace walked stiffly up to the stone altar. would you still be frightened?" "No." Matthew looked at her questioningly for a moment. The building is only one story high. laughing. most frightening Halloween fun-house you can imagine. Ares. The priest picked her up and reverently laid her on the sacrificial table. Amelia whispered to Matthew. Amelia. There's nothing chaotic in the universe. "Trust me! Dance in your heart! Imagine the priest and the girl in golden light.they'd take it.” her guide continued gently.. Simply pay attention to your choices. Cernunnos! To you I sacrifice the blood of innocence. over and over as the priest swayed back and forth in a trance. “If you focus on darkness. "But if the roof was removed from the building in broad daylight and you could see the layout with all the actors and the props. I don't know enough to fight them. How others choose to learn. I give you the blood of life for the blood of my enemy's life!" Still in a trance. or teach themselves. ALL limitations in your life would vanish.. Amelia! How can darkness do battle with light? It can't even show up! No matter what's happening." "But I've been with these people. "It's all a matter of perspective." Amelia pleaded.. Balor. Thunor. or you can simply turn on the light! Stay in your element. If you fight darkness your feelings of fear make it real.. you can always choose love. they can even hear your heart beating. there you'll be. The people in their costumes know when you're coming. They're incredibly powerful. Mars." Matthew held Amelia in his arms as they closed their eyes and felt love in their hearts. but it's filled with mazes and booby traps and things that go bump in the night! And let's say you have to walk through the entire place in pitch blackness just feeling your way along. "This blood sacrifice is the atonement between man and Prince Lucifer." she said. 133 . "Oh God. She said quickly. Matthew held her tightly and whispered.

"Matthew. red-hot energy. Amelia said. When the students reached them. She gave it a hard pull and it noiselessly swung open. Though it seemed an odd comparison. will you take everyone to find the others? Hopefully all of the guards are in the temple.. She was playing a part as well. If you would only love more. but he couldn't touch her. I can't explain now. she felt lovingly detached." Matthew said. Amelia opened her eyes as the priest raised the dagger over his head and chanted. Inflamed with rage he tried to fight the energy field." Amelia raced down the hall heading back toward the laboratory with the animals. There were no doorways. Immediately all of the kids regained their normal consciousness. And no matter what the outcome appeared to be from the perspective of the third dimension. I'll meet all of you at the main entrance. ALL limitations in your life would vanish. knowing the part he played was just a part. just as her feelings of fear and being trapped had given meaning to the cell door. Instantly he dropped to the floor writhing in painful convulsions. 134 . then furious he dropped the dagger and went to strangle the girl. Shocked. She thought again of the statement she'd just heard. and saw herself cheering for him. she realized she was frightened and angry because she had attached meaning to this man's actions. Just before reaching the lab she heard a man walking heavily and quickly toward her. “We shall be ONE with the night!" She could see a golden light encasing the man and another golden light encasing the girl. Amelia was stunned to recognize the same was true for the girl. the way she had seen the children in the homeless park. He shrieked and yowled in agony as men from the congregation rushed to his aid. She led them up the spiral stairway through the secret door and into the hall. She climbed into a large air duct and pulled the grid closed. In that moment Amelia's judgment melted. but the energy field stopped him as if he was hitting a solid wall. no different than an actor playing the hero one night and an evil villain the next.. Rather than being afraid. Before anyone could speak. and realized this statement applied to the high priest.Amelia felt love flowing from within and radiating out. but there was a metal grid in the wall with a knob on the bottom. She wasn't a victim. He tried to plunge the dagger into the girl. and telling him how convincingly he'd played his part. She visualized gold light around him and saw him as a small boy. The girl on the altar sat up and in the commotion she and the others hurried up the aisle toward the exit totally unnoticed. Then she visualized him years later at his celebration. Amelia put her finger to her lips and motioned for everyone to follow her. electric. Amelia knew for a fact that death does not exist. Amelia threw off the cloak and Matthew took off his animal mask. but this only caused the bubble to fill with intense. "What about you? Where are you going?" "I still have some things to do. Life was guaranteed.

And your diversion technique in the temple was indeed remarkable for a mere child. How love and goodness are supposed to be so powerful and evil is helpless. However. Obviously. 135 . You know so little!" The man laughed viciously and burning hot air blew through the duct. "Amelia. don't you realize I know all about you? I know your thoughts. "I see you're still not convinced. She struggled to break through the oppressiveness around her. I know all about your silly little friend." Amelia looked down at her hands swollen with painful blisters. I'll take all the pain away if you join me. Äsha. and all the ridiculous things she taught you. "I'm not here to fight you or join you. The guards took her to the booth. He affected a tone of mock-pity. It flew open by itself and she climbed out. barely breathing. He said." Amelia sat quietly. sternly tapping loudly on the grate." Amelia's hands were so excruciatingly painful she felt waves of unconsciousness flooding her mind. I hear you talking to Matthew. I've seen you walk through walls and I must say. I don't want you to suffer. The iris was such a pale blue it almost blended in with the white of his eyes and the pupil was no bigger than a pin point. enough fun and games. The man was average in height and weight. though. bare room with no windows.” he said in a soothing tone. "It's too bad you can't practice what you preach." He half-smiled and yelled." Amelia didn't move. you will either join me or you'll have to fight me. The metal became so hot the flesh on her hands burned as she crawled up to the grid. "Guards!" Two guards ran toward them from another corridor and took Amelia's arms. At the far end of the room she saw Matthew sitting in a glass booth. I simply made a suggestion to your pitifully weak mind and you were burned by your own fear. you're still not convinced. You won't like it if I have to come and get you.A moment later a man walked briskly down the corridor and stopped in front of the air duct where Amelia was hiding. "My dear. but there was something frightening about his eyes. that's quite clever. Well." "Amelia. I know you're in there. The man's voice sounded far away. My dear. “ I'm not a cruel person. They led her down the hall and into a huge. The room began to spin. there was no heat in that metal. "Your silly mind games are no match for me! Every time you feel the pain in your hands you'll know who has the power. with brown hair. The man continued with a more soothing voice.

" The first time Amelia tried this technique to relieve a headache. "Both of my hands." Her mother said. Amelia had developed a serious migraine headache. Stay present. she said to herself." said her mom. The critic said. but then she noticed the pain started to move around her head as the intensity jumped up and down. "Shh. Amelia! What have they done to you?" Amelia shook her head. Next! She took a deep breath and started laughing. When she went to identify the location and intensity of the pain after repeating it once. "Now what?" she said silently to herself. The first time it took about 15 minutes. The only time it doesn't work is when someone quits trying. She decided she may as well include her hands in the technique as well. Fortunately. Amelia said. Matthew noticed Amelia's hands." Amelia thought the whole idea was sort of silly at the time. "Does this always work?" "Every time. Then it was gone. First. "I'm willing to let this pain go. "It's the same. tapping her head. As she went over the steps in her mind. the left side of my body. 136 . she identified where the pain was located. She thought. "What?" said Matthew urgently. "I told you you're not smart enough or strong enough to take these people on. my temples. "That's drawing on the past. Amelia relaxed a little and focused on a technique her mother taught her for getting rid of migraine headaches. her mother told her to repeat it out loud.shoved her inside and locked the door. which seemed an odd response considering the situation. The left side of her body was numb and she could barely formulate words." Finally." said Amelia. You'll be hamburger meat when they're done with you! Those blisters will be nothing!" In her mind Amelia said. "My God. Matthew thought she was starting to cry so she didn't have to explain herself. All the way around. Matthew could see Amelia was in terrible pain so he just held her in his arms. Amelia realized how much she loved her mother and how much she'd learned from her. Thank you. Identify where it is and the intensity in this moment. across my forehead." Next. She looked at her mother incredulously and said. Laughing during a tragic moment is generally frowned upon and Amelia's head still hurt too much to go into detail. she rated the pain on a scale of 1 to 10. She thought. She'd lost her peripheral vision. Along with the pain in her hands. Amelia started blaming herself for the painful blisters on her hands. "Ten. but now she had it down to five minutes or less.

He walked about fifty feet away and then squarely faced the pale-eyed man. it's okay if you do laugh. He looked around cautiously and said. trying to keep a straight face. "Actually. His breathing was hard and fast and he dropped to the floor writhing in convulsions. "Are you asking me?" Amelia looked at Matthew and laughed. they like laughter." "Oh. sorry to interrupt!" he said. There was some sort of 137 . "I have a strange thing to tell you. I will demonstrate this power with one of my own instructors.. And just to show you that I'm a good sport. The energy bubbled black and red with the heat and intensity of lava.. but what is it?" "Don't laugh. "I was talking to myself. it would seem that you're both caught in an evil web that even your little fairy godmother can't get you out of." "Amelia's hands are but a small example of what I can do.Matthew said. They could see energy around both men. However. The blondish-gray haired man that Matthew had seen teaching the class stepped into the room. "Who?" "The angels. as she looked around the room for evidence. "Can't you see shimmery light? Surely you can feel something?" "I can feel something. The men aimed this energy at each other." he said arrogantly with calculated coldness. You have both made fools of my weak-minded staff but now you're dealing with me. Amelia and Matthew watched in horror as the blonde man began to shake uncontrollably. Well. Hatred permeated the room." "What?" she said curiously. "Have you noticed that this little room we're sitting in is starting to fill up?" "Fill up?" said Amelia intrigued. the man with the pale eyes spoke to them over the loudspeaker." Amelia laughed and noticed her headache was gone." Matthew quipped. "My little friends. before she could say anything else. I will now demonstrate that evil is the only power and you will both witness it's force." she said out loud.

the man with the pale eyes projected all of the black-red energy at them. Her heart felt as if it would burst with joy! And once again gold light shot down from the sky above her and filled her entire being. She could feel his thoughts of hatred trying to destroy her. fight me!" Amelia could feel her hands burning more painfully than ever as if they were actually on fire. she closed her eyes and took a deep breath. Matthew tried to remember the code but his mind went blank. He yelled. SING! Actually it came to her as more of a command and she sang as loud as she could. but she was so terrified she couldn't think straight. She tried to focus on methods she had used earlier. His wicked laughter echoed in the room. "Get those damned kids!" Matthew cried. and in that moment she heard the word. "I'm Blind!" he screamed. Outside. All your thoughts about sweetness and light can't save you now! Go ahead. he covered his eyes and dropped instantly to his knees. He turned to Amelia. "You thought your little bit of training could save you? You stupid girl.energetic barrier around each man but the barrier around the blonde man split open and the burning hot. "Where is everybody? Somebody help me!" They walked out the door and right past two guards who never saw or heard them. The force of the explosion shattered the glass booth and Matthew was knocked unconscious. He was rocking back and forth whimpering. black-red energy from the other man shot into his body. I can't see!" He flailed his arms madly. "Somebody help me. Screaming in excruciating pain. They took the elevator down to the cells. There was no time to calm her mind. groping in the dark. Still screaming in pain he crawled helplessly along the floor until he reached the broken glass from the booth. Suddenly she didn't care what happened. The negative energy hit the gold light and was instantly mirrored back at the man hitting him squarely between the eyes. In that moment Matthew regained consciousness. Amelia looked at her hands and back at Matthew. "Let's go!" He stopped himself just before grabbing Amelia's hand and then noticed her hands were perfectly normal. The man with the pale eyes headed straight for Amelia. Instantly she was back singing with the choir of light beings that she experienced in the desert. "I'm afraid I don't know the code. She smiled broadly and said. It was as if the pale-eyed man ceased to exist. Keeping in mind the fact that death does not exist. You know nothing of POWER. He saw the most beautiful gold light fill the booth. Spontaneous combustion blew the instructor apart. There's no way to get 138 . "Right! Let's go!" As they walked out of the room Amelia looked at the man sitting helplessly on the floor.

even Mrs." Little whispers and gasps escaped the group as Matthew continued. "Listen everyone! For some reason I can't explain. my God. There was no way to open it. They walked quietly and cautiously. No one noticed them as they made their way to the entrance. but they remained silent. 139 . Everyone started talking at once. Instantly Amelia thought of the cave in India and remembered Äsha explaining that the yogi was simply projecting images into the mind of the psychiatrist. They turned on the lights. if we can't get out?" "Where are we gonna go?" "The guards are sure to spot us. "Oh. They were almost to the elevator when they heard the sound of several men walking briskly down a different corridor. "There they are! At the exit!" As shots rang out they realized they were at a dead end and utterly trapped. Involuntarily one of the girls gasped and a guard looked directly at her without seeing a thing. grabbed a set of keys. Matthew said. Don't be afraid. Try not to panic if you see guards.everyone out without it. nobody can see us at the moment." Amelia said. They both closed their eyes and held this mental image. Just allow." Matthew took a deep breath. and quickly released everybody. Everyone in the group appeared shocked and confused. and the door opened automatically. close to the wall. We'll all be killed!" Alarms blared as guards raced down the hall yelling. There's no way out!" "What are we going to do?" "What good is it to get this far. punched in the code." Amazingly enough. See the entire group as invisible to the guards. Caldwell and the bus driver seemed to realize it was best to listen and follow directions. everyone seemed quite calm under the circumstances. hoping the men would walk by without looking in their direction. There was no place to hide so they pressed themselves up against the wall. After the guards left they all got on the elevator and rode up to the main level. The guards turned the corner and walked directly down the hall toward them. "Don't concentrate. Without a word she grabbed Matthew's arm and said silently. Apparently the door was controlled automatically in some other part of the building. "Just stay calm. When they reached the door everyone stopped and stared.

But as bullets ripped through the air and ricocheted around them she yelled forcefully. but it was difficult with everybody tripping and losing their balance in the dark. In reality there's nothing to fear. "Everybody hold hands. yelling that it was impossible. She knew this love was far beyond human emotion: It was both harmless and protective. as Matthew held her hand. shutting out the outer appearances. They walked as quickly as possible toward the cave entrance." Guards were now running down the corridor and some of the students started to protest. She said quietly." Amelia and Matthew could both see in the dark. "Close your eyes. She saw Timothy in her mind's eye. is actually full of intelligence. "You can open your eyes now. The gunfire seemed to have stopped.. They were halfway to the cave entrance when an intense flash 140 . followed by her definition of fear: false evidence appearing real. Then she thought of Äsha saying. . . On the other side they could hear the clink of bullets hitting the metal door. Though automatic weapons were being fired.. So Amelia stepped through the door and reappeared moments later saying. it's full of potential.. This 99. "Keep holding hands! We'll lead you out. Once again she heard. and felt love radiating from her heart. "Impossibilities never occur. . but then they noticed bullets hitting an energetic field and dropping harmlessly around them on the floor! Speechless." With the exception of Matthew.999% empty space. universal consciousness. and because it isn't in form yet. everyone looked at her like she was crazy. "Do it!" Frantically they grabbed each other's hands and huddled together.. Once again. Matthew and I will take you through the door. But you must be conscious of this power to use it . something miraculous would happen. Amelia closed her eyes.. a strange thing happened. they all turned and stared at Matthew and Amelia. It was silent. There was a radiance emanating from her that everyone could see. Amelia knew one thing for sure: Every time she held the thought of loving more.Amelia yelled. ALL limitations in your life would vanish.. Bits and pieces of her conversation with him raced through her mind." With Amelia at the front and Matthew at the end of the line they led everybody through the door and into the dark cavern beyond. So you are that unlimited intelligence and you are that unlimited potential. Imagining a golden light around the group Amelia turned her complete attention to love and once again felt the golden energy coming down through the crown of her head. If you would only love more. Amelia felt a powerful energy surge through her body." cried Amelia. Please close your eyes.

The ground beneath their feet ripped apart and fire shot into the air engulfing the entire group. it completely disappeared. They heard a tremendous thundering outside as rocks fell from the ceiling of the cavern. Life was assured. She remembered the peace and joy of seeing her friends dancing alive and well. I may not see you. 141 . and this would be a really great time for all of you to help out! Instantly she saw the vision at the bottom of the ocean. The oceans had completely drained away and the entire earth was on fire. The gale force wind around them didn't even blow their hair. but I know you're there." It felt as if they were all victims about to be sacrificed to the elements. She remembered the high priest saying. None of them even felt the sensation of heat and all at once they rose gently above the earth. and in a brilliant flash of light. She knew with all her heart they were all perfectly safe. The vault door swung open as swarms of guards poured into the cavern with automatic weapons. They were surrounded on all sides by whirling tornadoes closing in on them and an earthquake shook the land with such force the cave collapsed behind them. the cave vibrated and trembled under their feet. where she felt the dolphins and whales singing. fire shooting out of the earth and lightning striking within inches. Amelia remembered the celebration and how the man had an invisible angelic presence around him. Suddenly. "Cernunnos! To you I sacrifice the blood of innocence. Though there was hail the size of golf balls.flooded the tunnel with light. they were untouched. Everyone was laughing and talking until they looked back and saw what was happening. Amelia closed her eyes and shut out everything her senses were telling her. All that was left was the blackness of outer space. Amelia smiled to herself and thought. As she held Matthew's hand he could feel her thoughts and feelings. When they reached the mouth of the cave they were shocked to see live volcanoes spewing lava over the land. They could see the earth being sucked into itself at an unbelievable speed. nothing could harm them. simply waiting for him to ask for help. There was no sense of air pressure and everyone could breathe normally even though they had risen to the point where they could view the entire planet.

"Look!" There sat Tom near the front of the bus. In a few moments everyone began to laugh and talk normally as if nothing unusual had happened. The next thing they knew. Matthew was sitting next to Amelia and as they looked at the others on the bus. or something like that. Mrs. He looked as shocked and surprised as everyone else. no. "Listen up. They were within a few miles of their high school and nowhere near where the bus had broken down. however. who had been one of the boys swinging a censer at the black mass said. That's typical. be sure you all have your gear out of the bus because it won't be there when you get back from your phone call. Jason.E. "They all think this was a dream! Why is it so clear to us?" Matthew took Amelia's hand and said. You were wearing some kind of a gold necklace and then we were running through a cave out to some volcanoes. My memory's so blurry." Amelia looked at Matthew and whispered. Everyone appeared dazed." He paused for a moment and laughed. We'll do it again next year!" Everyone on the bus applauded and a moment later they pulled into the school parking 142 . I think I had a weird dream too. "This is clear to you? You mean to tell me you actually understand everything that's happened here?" Amelia shook her head and said. but at least I can remember it clearly. "You know. It appears we'll be arriving about an hour ahead of schedule. I don't understand anything. She glanced at her watch and said. Caldwell stood up in the front of the bus. as if awakened from some bizarre dream. well. So I'll unlock the side door at school and you can all take turns using the phone to call your parents. yellow bus heading for home.O. Emma. they were all sitting in the old." Emma said. They never make much sense. Thanks for a great trip everyone. everybody. Amelia and Matthew overheard a boy and girl talking in front of them." Before Amelia could say more. "It doesn't really make much sense anymore. "I just had the strangest dream and you were in it. I can't remember it though. he grabbed her arm and said. Oh. Before you do that. "Well.Chapter XV Going H.M.

"You live here?!" she said." Amelia smiled and said. He likes it dark and gloomy to reflect his mood." "Well. It was a three story mansion set on ten acres of perfectly manicured lawn surrounded by elegant gardens with a stream and lake in back. You can Meet-The-Parents. "I don't believe it!" 143 . "Do you realize we couldn't prove a single thing?" said Matthew matter-of-factly. People usually get the wrong idea. but technically we've known each other for what. Come on in. there was already a long line of kids waiting for the phone. a weekend?” Matthew smiled.... Matthew said. He had the room done in mahogany paneling. "I think we'll start off with the darkest. "Would you rather be right or would you rather be happy?" Amelia joked as Matthew put his arm around her and led her toward his house." Matthew opened the door to the den and exclaimed. Matthew said." he said mysteriously raising his eyebrows. hopefully they'll lock us up together. It's a little embarrassing living in such a pretentious house. In a hushed and ominous tone. Matthew nodded. The front entryway was just as she remembered it from the crystal cave. "You'll remember this place from the cave.lot." said Amelia with a wink. "Does this mean you're taking me on the guided tour?" Amelia said as she ventured up the front steps. "What do you think that's gonna be like exactly? You and I are still telepathically connected. I feel like we've spent a lifetime together. "Thanks. completely stunned. "I'm having a little trouble adjusting to the idea that we're somehow back to real life. And we share a story so bizarre we'd be locked up for life if we ever told anyone. most depressing room. I call it the Lion's Den since my dad has all of his safari conquests pegged to the wall. if you want to walk to my house I can give you a ride home. Amelia and Matthew found their backpacks on the overhead racks. Since they were sitting at the back of the bus. get it out of the way.. Amelia came to an instant halt. It was originally my grandparent's home. "I live just a few blocks from here. "Of course!" Matthew said as he flung open the front door with a grand gesture and Amelia stepped into the house." As they walked to Matthew's house Amelia said. They set their packs down by the front door.

"Are you feeling alright?" she said as she put her hand on his forehead. then. there were bouquets of flowers and delicate watercolor pictures. come see the animals Matthew's father shoots. Amelia. Smiling affably she said.The room was full of light. "Alright. Instead. Tell me where the safari animals are. auburn hair up in a ponytail." She laughed and said. Mother did some fast redecorating. "Yeah. hi. dear.” he said incredulously. He can't bear to see an animal harmed. "Well. "I was wondering how you managed to redecorate this room so quickly." They walked into a long hallway that had windows on one side overlooking their huge lawn and lake. a bit confused. "Why?" A bit puzzled.. "I've never seen these pictures in my life!" They walked quietly down the hall. The room was decorated with beautiful white furniture and glass tables with a lovely pastel Persian rug in the center of the room. then back at his mother. McKinley said proudly. looked intently at Matthew. dear. Mom!" Matthew quickly introduced Amelia to his mother and said.. exchanging puzzled glances as Matthew's mother led them outside. " he replied. "This is it?" "Apparently.. He's traveled all over the world and this year there's even going to be a wildlife calendar composed exclusively of his work. "Matthew's father took every one of these pictures. There were no animal heads or skins. “Unbelievable!” At that moment Mrs. no guns hanging on the walls." Matthew looked at Amelia. and all of Dad's guns?" His mother paused for a moment. "He's fantastic!" Matthew said silently to Amelia." Amelia said enthusiastically. sandy color with white molding. In place of wood paneling the walls were painted a soft. and the other wall was lined with gorgeous pictures of animals and wild flowers. The only time your father ever shoots an animal is with a camera. "What on earth are you talking about? This room hasn't been redecorated since you were ten years old. She looked considerably younger than Amelia would have expected and was wearing a tennis outfit with her long. McKinley entered the room. "What's unbelievable?" "Oh. you know your father has never touched a gun in his life. she said. He said.. Mrs. Amelia said. Matthew's father was leaning over the garden when his wife waved and 144 .

" said Amelia slightly taken aback. As he got closer. His eyes sparkled as he hugged Matthew and said. and Matthew said. "This is what it's like to be on a honeymoon for twenty-two years!" Amelia smiled. Amelia realized he looked years younger than the pale. Mom. let alone pick flowers for her. threw it into the back of his convertible and said. "I don't understand. "I'm delighted to meet you. I've never heard him say a kind word to my mother. this is my friend. Mrs. handed his wife a bouquet of flowers and said sweetly. sickly man she had seen in the cave.." He looked at Amelia intently and said. Now he weighs at least twenty pounds more." Mrs. "I really should get Amelia home." They all said goodbye.. 145 . let's see if there are any surprises at your house!" They walked into Amelia's house and she yelled. deep blue eyes. "Your parents are really in-love with each other. she's never been athletic in any way." He then turned. "Dad." Matthew shook his head slowly and said. "Oh. Noel was tall and beautiful. McKinley smiled. swift strides he headed toward them. He's healthy and happy. I'm home!" Her mother pushed through the swinging door that led into the kitchen and said. hi. "Alright. "Darling. graciously handed her an exquisite yellow rose and said. and smiling. "And these are for you my angel. "Dad. with a glowing complexion. Amelia.. and dark circles under her eyes. McKinley hugged him and whispered." Mr.yelled." Mr. It's been an awfully long trip. McKinley winked at Amelia and said unabashed. With long. He was healthy with a glowing complexion and rosy cheeks like Matthew's. "I love you so much. son!" Matthew said. "It's great to have you home. I just didn't expect you to be here." Matthew grabbed Amelia's backpack.. And my mom has always had short hair. look who's here!" He straightened up with a bouquet of flowers in his hands and smiled broadly. "What? You don't say hi to your mother anymore?" Matthew could see where Amelia got her looks. He was skinny and pale a few days ago. "My father has been sick for years. As Amelia and Matthew headed back to the house she glanced over her shoulder and saw Matthew's parents strolling through the garden with their arms around each other.

. never underestimate the fringe benefits of understanding.. Matthew smiled and said with mock-innocence.. She looked sadly at the animals and said. Matthew. and complying with. wearing Mrs.. “Anything different at your house?” Amelia laughed and shook her head. why don't you take Matthew down to see the pond?" Holding hands. I've never seen so many here before. "Mom. Noel winked at Matthew and said slyly with a twinkle in his eye. Amelia giggled and deftly changed the subject. I live here don't I? Where else would I be?" Though she was puzzled. Amelia said. are you going to let us sample the finished product a little later?" Her father said. "I think these animals must be migrating. "What dedication!" Mr. She looked lovingly at him. the cost of true love!" Mrs.. and added with a grin. the marital chain of command!” Going slightly pink over her dad bringing up the subject of marriage with Matthew. Noel's frilly Christmas apron while he pared apples. "Sure.. Amelia said.Her mother laughed and said. "Well. kissed him on the cheek and said. I don't want either of you laughing at my brush with domestication." "Hello. but I had an experience I never had the 146 . Weeping willows dotted the edges and a small waterfall was at one end. There were all different kinds of ducks and birds along with a variety of small animals. "I know that in light of what's happened this sounds trivial. “Ah. smiled and said with a wink. Amelia smiled broadly at her dad as she introduced Matthew. "We're an equal opportunity household!" They stepped into the kitchen and Amelia saw her father perched on a stool. son. I pledged to your mother I'd do whatever she wanted for our twentieth anniversary and look what she has me doing!” He dumped a pile of sliced apples into a big pot on the stove. and my dad has never had a sense of humor in his life!” They sat on a small hill above the pond. they look more like they did in their wedding pictures 20 years ago. this is Matthew. they walked down the lawn behind Amelia's house. "Dad.. On top of that. Why don't you both come into the kitchen? I'm teaching Amelia's father how to make applesauce." She looked at Matthew.. In the meantime. Noel stood behind her husband and wrapped her arms around him. This should be done in about half an hour. "Alright. they've been living in separate houses for over a year. Her father said with mock-seriousness. “Are you kidding? Three days ago my parents were thoroughly divorced. “When you get married.

“Come.. Matthew.. Barely able to contain his curiosity concerning the most recent events. aren't you? I saw what you went through. Timothy was dressed in yellow and green plaid pants. “Can you explain this?” Timothy looked down at the outfit he was wearing and with a grin said. "Äsha? Why Äsha? What about the rest of us?!" It was Timothy and he was standing in a semicircle with Äsha. I mean. Amelia and Matthew burst out laughing." Amelia smiled and said. "You're talking about the lab. a blue and red striped shirt.. knee socks and a blue hat with a fluffy. and with an equally British accent and deadpan face quipped. "You know how you used to get mad at the way that I understood things before you did? Well this time I don't have any idea what's happened. “How is it that you're all here?” "Well. Timothy outdid them all. It's not trivial to feel badly about those animals...." He laughed and said. “Let the questions begin!” Amelia said." Matthew put his arm around Amelia and said. Once you can accept the universe as matter expanding into nothing that is something.. wool pompom on top. Anna and Marie. 147 . but it got high marks for entertainment value. Unlike the clothing of the sophisticated continental artist they'd first met. However." Matthew said. “Well. "I wish Äsha were here.." From behind them came a familiar voice. but everything's changed. “As my friend Albert Einstein used to say. “only highly evolved beings can dress like this!” Matthew laughed. wearing stripes with plaid comes easy!” You see. why not?" replied Timothy. "I can't believe you're all here!" exclaimed Amelia as they all hugged each other. and everything will be different. Anna was wearing a dressy party-version of her Russian gypsy getup. I understand exactly how you feel. Matthew hugged Timothy and said.chance to tell you about. when it came to entertainment value. I think I'm happy to evolve slowly!” Timothy threw his arm around Matthew and the other arm around Amelia. one minute we're watching the earth self-destruct and the next minute we're home. golf shoes. let's sit!” The whole group sat in a circle and Timothy said. considering the dress code. "Like our old pal Äsha used to say. Marie was dressed as a wildly flamboyant Marie Antoinette. She could explain all of this. which made no more sense than her Lady Macbeth costume. Everything will be the same. Äsha looked exactly the same.” Timothy continued in a very British accent with a deadpan face.

. Timothy handed Amelia and without a word indicated with a slight nod of his head that it was her turn. they all knew what she had just seen. trees and flowers. hmm. look again!” Amelia and Matthew looked at the pond and suddenly realized they were seeing colors they'd never seen before. their faces beaming back their encouragement. and the most exotic orchid appeared in the palm of his hand. Anna said.. She looked around and saw light everywhere. Amelia held her hand out and 148 . "Ah. the way it was hundreds of years ago." she said in an obvious tone. Everything was so vivid." replied Anna. Amelia said. Amelia closed her eyes and discovered she could scan the planet in her mind. the oceans were full of dolphins and whales. look!" On top of the stone was a tiny fairy. "Not any more. the air was pure. Of course. it's humming!" "I know!" she said with delight. it appeared the colors had a life of their own. She smiled. He held his hand out.. When Amelia opened her eyes everyone was smiling at her.. She looked at the stone and burst out laughing.. Your eyes are now open to see the miracles of creation that have been here all along!" "You mean we've always had dancing fairies and humming stones?" asked Amelia.. All of the extinct animals were back in large numbers. And then she realized she could hear music. but the planet was teaming with birds and animals. looked around at everyone. an entirely invisible world began to reveal itself. Everything was glowing. “You are the creator!” said Timothy grinning." said Timothy frankly."Because you're all from a different dimension." He laughed. and people and animals drank freely from lakes and streams. The forests were immense. and abundant sea life. yes. "What do you mean?" All of a sudden she noticed light emanating from everyone. "Amelia. including herself and Matthew... There was a soft glow around plants. Puzzled. Not only were there mystical beings like unicorns and mermaids. You've moved into a higher dimensional vibration. "Oh. He heard. your planet is no longer vibrating on the wavelength of the third dimension.. hmm. "Hmm. "And much more than that. It was coming from a small stone. Smiling. Hearing her thoughts. hmm. dancing while the stone was humming. "My dear children. barely able to contain herself. Matthew picked up the little stone and listened. “That's all REAL?” she said.. Amelia lit up. As they watched. and some creatures she'd never heard of or seen before.

"We both have a history that never existed before!" "Matthew...” "But our families are completely different!" exclaimed Matthew. “I think we're gonna like it here!” "Why didn't I see this a few minutes ago before all of you joined us?" asked Amelia.. not what you don't want!” "We've told you things are thoughts... for positive or negative.. Everything is pure potentiality.." “You see. and death does not exist. Amelia turned to Matthew with a sparkle in her eye and cheered." said Marie kindly.. there's nothing arbitrary about the game of life." "Everything is pure consciousness!" continued Marie with a lilting Irish accent and a huge smile.. fragrant. Thoughts are things. of course. unlike the third dimension where your thoughts and feelings create slowly. "Because you didn't believe it was possible. “There are strict universal laws that can never be broken. That's how the earth shifted from the third-dimension into the fourth. pay attention to what you want. unhappiness.” said Timothy.. create things you don't want. The flavor was indescribable! Glowing. illness.. ripe peach appeared in the palm of her hand.” “The power of your own intention to see beyond the illusion of the third dimension 149 . So pay attention to what you're thinking and feeling. And now you do!" chimed in Marie.. "How did this happen?" asked Matthew astounded. You both actively chose to love. and instantaneously. even when it looked like there was nothing to love. You can only see the world you believe in.. now actively looking for other things she might have missed. as you can see by the peach that instantly appeared in the palm of your hand. But I must caution you both.” added Marie.. "Your conscious choice to see beyond the illusion caused a self-sustaining chain reaction for the entire planet.. She took a bite. “but the converse is true as well. "Could you wake up from a dream and discover that in reality you have a completely different history?" "Yes.. simply by focusing your attention there. peach. On the other hand. pain. "Nothing's impossible. Your feelings create your world. "You remember how we spoke of critical mass?" replied Äsha. in the fourth dimension it's immediate. you can just as easily. Instantly the most beautiful. If you can understand that thoughts are things then you'll understand that the reality which resonates with fear.. hatred and death could no longer coexist with your mental conviction that life is filled with love... Therefore your world MUST reflect back your feelings..thought.

. that's the point.. Anna and Marie had vanished. her heart full of love for Matthew. “Which game are we playing?” Matthew laughed." Äsha smiled sweetly and said.. you are seeing what was invisible to you before. “Well.. “he basically told me I'd know the answer to the question when I can accept the universe as matter expanding into nothing that is something.” said Matthew laughing.. but Äsha. Amelia shook her head and laughed. “When the day comes that wearing plaid with stripes comes easy.. The baby rabbit she'd held in the lab nuzzled her hand... I have one more question.” added Äsha. Her father yelled from the back door.. there are entire worlds you can't even comprehend.. In your parents. it was your choice to love more that allowed you to see what has always been there. let me put it this way. Those loving qualities have always existed in your parents.caused it to disappear.. then you'll know!” With that he disappeared. her curiosity getting the best of her.. “You saw and felt an invisible world. Amelia said. “Before you disappear. “Just when you think you're getting it. he leaned over and said. “no matter how much you know..” said Matthew patiently. I still feel badly that I wasn't able to save those little animals. Which game are we playing now?” Timothy smiled mysteriously. "Nothing good is ever lost.” “What does that mean?” “Well." At that moment Amelia felt something furry crawl into her lap. and that world is now your reality. In a very low voice only Matthew could hear. there seem to be these reminders of how clueless you really are!” “I don't understand. She laughed and said to Matthew. you said there were two versions of the game that were multi-dimensional and superimposed upon one another. "I can't believe the way these people come and go!" Matthew looked at Timothy and said.... now more curious than ever.” said Amelia. "Is anybody interested in some fresh. With tears in her eyes she looked up. HOME-made applesauce?" 150 . "Äsha. Humbling isn't it?” Amelia nodded and giggled. “What did he say?” she asked. When you were talking about the game of life.

. "We'll never leave Kansas again. "We'll be right there." Matthew held both of Amelia's hands. Light on Earth. Seekers of the searchers. then turned to Matthew and said. John Randolf Price THE DANCE OF LIGHT To the night have come the Dancers Stars from the heavens. they walked up the hill following the fragrance of "HOME-made" applesauce! If you would only love more. Dorothy!" He then scooped up the bunny in one hand and said." She carefully set the baby rabbit on the ground.Amelia yelled back. looked directly into her eyes and said. 151 . Toto! Let's go home!" With their arms around each other.. "For the first time in my life I feel like I'm really home. All limitations in your life would vanish. Gently leading them Home. "Come on.

K. Ted Conger. Lewis A Wrinkle in Time (series).' Mel Larew for his friendship. Dr. “A Wrinkle in Time”) for being kind enough to write back with support and encouragement on my first draft. Madeleine L'Engle (author of one of my all-time favorite books. Rowling The Mists of Avalon. Dr. Louise Hay Freeze Frame. Satyam Nadeen Bringers of the Dawn. who has given me so much moral support and financial assistance in creating this book and tapes series. Ken Keyes You Can Heal Your Life.. Enrico Melson for so lovingly donating his time and energy to this project and for the incredible wisdom and kindness he so willingly shares with others. and John Randolf Price for their books and tapes that greatly influenced the writing of this book. Madeleine L'Engle Harry Potter (all of the books..S. Truman Autobiography of a Yogi.T. S.D. Ram Dass for inviting me to join a 7-day retreat. 101. Doc Lew Childre ACKNOWLEDGMENTS My husband.. Al Robbs and to Janine Groth for their faith and commitment to the vision of this project. legal advice and editing and layout efforts. . Paramahansa Yogananda The Hundredth Monkey.Additional Reading Illusions. Marianne Williamson. Diana Luppi Inner Child Cards. for supporting me in countless ways while creating the 2nd edition. Marion Zimmer Bradley E. Don. C. Deepak Chopra. Hayward Feelings Buried Alive Never Die. Richard Bach Way of the Peaceful Warrior. Jean Huston for her Colorado Mystery School where I learned to bend spoons. among other things! Deepak Chopra. Marciniak A Guide for the Advanced Soul.. Dan Millman The Chronicles of Narnia. which helped me to bring my vision into reality.K. they just get better and better!) J. From Onions to Pearls. Tony Robbins for sharing his story on how to 'interrupt the program. Lerner & Lerner Fire in the Heart: A Spiritual Guide for Teens. M.

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